Cockroaches are little bugs that look like tiny coffee beans which are very terrifying to the point that they can turn into monsters. Oh shiver mi timberssss they have six legs that are the size of tiny little wood sticks that can reach to the heavens which is verrrrryyy concerninggg. Cockroaches are BEASTS to the society for many hoomans lilke me. To me, cockroaches are scary, agonizing, painful, jumpscares, stressful, frightening, horrifying, alarming, appalling, chilling, oh my gosh!! i have experiences with roaches they keep crawling and crawling and crawling and crawling and climbing and limbing towards me. i feel so flabbergasted seeing them everywhere because i never knew that they where known to be worldwide in every incgh of the earths. i never knew that people actually eat them! thats actually a very very very good solution to end the faer of roaches. for me, eating roaches are kinda so so so terrifying. I could imagine them doing the gangnam style in my stomach and also doing it on my head while they do the macarena in my sleep. They are so talented more than human children that they could even do the sturdy with six legs!! OH MY GOSH! Im in shock!! Do you know what roaches are? Cockroaches are little bugs that look like tiny coffee beans which are very terrifying to the point that they can turn into monsters. Oh shiver mi timberssss they have six legs that are the size of tiny little wood sticks that can reach to the heavens which is verrrrryyy concerninggg. Cockroaches are BEASTS to the society for many hoomans lilke me. To me, cockroaches are scary, agonizing, painful, jumpscares, stressful, frightening, horrifying, alarming, appalling, chilling, oh my gosh!! i have experiences with roaches they keep crawling and crawling and crawling and crawling and climbing and limbing towards me. i feel so flabbergasted seeing them everywhere because i never knew that they where known to be worldwide in every incgh of the earths. i never knew that people actually eat them! thats actually a very very very good solution to end the faer of roaches. for me, eating roaches are kinda so so so terrifying. I could imagine them doing the gangnam style in my stomach and also doing it on my head while they do the macarena in my sleep. They are so talented more than human children that they could even do the sturdy with six legs!! OH MY GOSH! Im in shock!! Do you know what roaches are?Cockroaches are little bugs that look like tiny coffee beans which are very terrifying to the point that they can turn into monsters. Oh shiver mi timberssss they have six legs that are the size of tiny little wood sticks that can reach to the heavens which is verrrrryyy concerninggg. Cockroaches are BEASTS to the society for many hoomans lilke me. To me, cockroaches are scary, agonizing, painful, jumpscares, stressful, frightening, horrifying, alarming, appalling, chilling, oh my gosh!! i have experiences with roaches they keep crawling and crawling and crawling and crawling and climbing and limbing towards me. i feel so flabbergasted seeing them everywhere because i never knew that they where known to be worldwide in every incgh of the earths. i never knew that people actually eat them! thats actually a very very very good solution to end the faer of roaches. for me, eating roaches are kinda so so so terrifying. I could imagine them doing the gangnam style in my stomach and also doing it on my head while they do the macarena in my sleep. They are so talented more than human children that they could even do the sturdy with six legs!! OH MY GOSH! Im in shock!! Do you know what roaches are?Cockroaches are little bugs that look like tiny coffee beans which are very terrifying to the point that they can turn into monsters. Oh shiver mi timberssss they have six legs that are the size of tiny little wood sticks that can reach to the heavens which is verrrrryyy concerninggg. Cockroaches are BEASTS to the society for many hoomans lilke me. To me, cockroaches are scary, agonizing, painful, jumpscares, stressful, frightening, horrifying, alarming, appalling, chilling, oh my gosh!! i have experiences with roaches they keep crawling and crawling and crawling and crawling and climbing and limbing towards me. i feel so flabbergasted seeing them everywhere because i never knew that they where known to be worldwide in every incgh of the earths. i never knew that people actually eat them! thats actually a very very very good solution to end the faer of roaches. for me, eating roaches are kinda so so so terrifying. I could imagine them doing the gangnam style in my stomach and also doing it on my head while they do the macarena in my sleep. They are so talented more than human children that they could even do the sturdy with six legs!! OH MY GOSH! Im in shock!! Do you know what roaches are?Cockroaches are little bugs that look like tiny coffee beans which are very terrifying to the point that they can turn into monsters. Oh shiver mi timberssss they have six legs that are the size of tiny little wood sticks that can reach to the heavens which is verrrrryyy concerninggg. Cockroaches are BEASTS to the society for many hoomans lilke me. To me, cockroaches are scary, agonizing, painful, jumpscares, stressful, frightening, horrifying, alarming, appalling, chilling, oh my gosh!! i have experiences with roaches they keep crawling and crawling and crawling and crawling and climbing and limbing towards me. i feel so flabbergasted seeing them everywhere because i never knew that they where known to be worldwide in every incgh of the earths. i never knew that people actually eat them! thats actually a very very very good solution to end the faer of roaches. for me, eating roaches are kinda so so so terrifying. I could imagine them doing the gangnam style in my stomach and also doing it on my head while they do the macarena in my sleep. They are so talented more than human children that they could even do the sturdy with six legs!! OH MY GOSH! Im in shock!! Do you know what roaches are?

Espresso, a strong coffee, offers an energizing experience with its rich aroma, soft crema, and intense flavor. Brewing the perfect cup at home requires a bit of skill and a balance between accuracy and personal selection.
Tips:

1. Go for fresh, dark roast beans for a good espresso, ensuring vibrant flavors and boldness. Grind them to a fine texture, similar to a table sugar.
2. Familiarize yourself with the machine's features and functionalities, as most require preheating for optimal brewing temperatures, ensuring regular extraction and preventing unequal coffee brewing.
3. Fill an Espresso maker with finely ground coffee, aiming for a slight dome. Use a tamp to compress the grounds, applying firm pressure for a consistent puck, as light tamps can result in watery espresso.
4. The portafilter is used for extraction, which involves compressing coffee grounds to force hot water under pressure resulting in a rich, concentrated shot with an amazing crema.

Lastly, practice makes perfect, and with each delicious shot, you become a true home barista.
Enjoy the journey.
If you like it, thumbs up!

Effect: Inverse the effect of surrounding jokers (immediate left and right)
Below is a list of how this joker would effect other jokers. I have bolded the changes to each effect to make it easier to see what is different.
I have italicized the effects that are only negative effects, I am not sure these effects should be included as a way to make this joker have downsides or not. On one hand its a cool idea because you need to manage the placement of this joker, but on the other hand this may be a very shallow complication to the gameplay of this joker and may not even be worthwhile. I would love to hear your opinions on this.
Also if there are (???) next to the effect I am unsure if this should be the inverted effect or not. The food items in particular I am unsure if they should get better over time instead of getting worse over time (and maybe if they do get better over time they should start as debuffs aka negative modifiers).
I will update this list with your ideas if they seem more cohesive or well thought out.
Also if anyone is interested in helping me turn this into a mod, please reach out. This idea is probably not going to leave my head until it gets implemented in some fashion. I have experience with coding and game development, but have never used love2d or looked into modding balatro)
Compatible Jokers (and new effect):

• All first page jokers would be negative mult or chips
• Half Joker(+20 mult if played hand contains 4+ cards)
• Joker Stencil (x1 mult for each filled Joker slot)
• Ceremonial Dagger (Generates a Joker to the right that costs the current mult to generate)???
• Banner (+30 chips for each discard used)
• Mystic Summit (+15 mult if no discards used)
• Raised Fist (Adds double the rank of the highest ranked card held as mult)???
• Abstract Joker (+3 mult for each empty Joker slot)
• Delayed Gratification ($2 per used discard)
• Pareidolia (No cards are considered face cards)
• Even Steven (Played cards with odd rank give +4 mult when scored)
• Odd Todd (Played cards with even rank give +31 chips)
• Scholar (Played aces give +20 mult and +4 chips when scored)??????????????
• Bussiness Card (Played non-face cards have a 1 in 2 chance to give $2 when scored)
• Ride the Bus (This Joker gains +1 mult per consecutive hand played with a scoring face card)
• Space Joker (1 in 4 chance to downgrade played poker hand)???
• Egg (Loses $3 of sell value at end of round)???
• Burglar (When blind is selected lose 3 hands and gain 3 discards)
• Blackboard (x3 mult if all cards held in hand are Diamonds or Hearts)
• Ice Cream (+100 chips +5 chips for every hand played)????????
• Blue Joker (+2 chips for every card used this round)
• Sixth Sense (If first hand of the round is a single 6, duplicate it and add it to hand)???
• Constellation (This Joker loses x0.1 mult for every time a planet card is used)???
• Hiker (Every played card permanently loses -5 Chips when scored)???
• Faceless Joker (Earn $5 when 3 or more non-face cards are discarded at the same time)
• Green Joker (-1 mult per hand played +1 mult per discard)
• Card Sharp (x3 mult if played poker hand has not already been played this round)
• Red Card (This Joker gains +3 mult when any booster pack is not skipped) [needs better wording]
• Vampire (Adds random enhancement to non-scoring cards in played hand)??????
• Hologram (This Joker gains x0.25 mult every time a playing card is removed from your deck)
• Vagabond (Create a tarot card if hand is played with $5 or more)
• Obelisk (This Joker gains x0.2 mult per consecutive hand played that is your most played hand) [probably too broken]
• Midas Mask (All played non-face cards become Gold cards when scored)
• Photograph (Last played face card gives x2 mult)???????
• Turtle Bean (+5 hand size increase by 1 every round)??????????????
• Erosion (+4 mult for each card above 52 in your full deck)
• Reserved Parking (Each non-face card held in hand has a 1 in 2 chance to give $1)
• Hallucination (1 in 2 chance to create a tarot card when any booster pack is skipped)
• Juggler (-1 hand size)
• Drunkard (-1 discard)
• Lucky Cat (This Joker gains x0.25 mult every time a lucky card is played and not triggered)??????
• Baseball card (Common and Rare Jokers each give x1.5 mult) [broken?]
• Trading Card (If first discard of round has only 1 card duplicate it and add it to hand)???
• Popcorn (+20 mult +4 mult per round played)????????
• Ramen (x2 mult gains x0.01 mult per card discarded)???????????
• Walkie Talkie (each played 10 or 4 gives +4 chips and +10 mult)???
• Castle (This Joker gains +3 chips per played [suit] card, suit changes every round)
• Smiley Face (Played non-face cards give +5 mult when scored)
• Campfire (This Joker gains x0.25 mult for each card bought, resets when Boss Blind is defeated)
• Acrobat (x3 mult on every hand besides the final hand)???
• Sock and Buskin (Retrigger all played non-face cards)
• Troubadour (-2 hand size, +1 hand each round)
• Certificate (When round begins add a random playing card with a random Enhancement to your hand)???
• Smeared Joker (Hearts and Spades count as the same suit. Diamonds and Clubs count as the same suit)???
• Throwback (x0.25 mult for each Blind selected this round)???
• Hanging Chad (Retrigger the Last card used in scoring 2 additional times)
• Glass Joker (This Joker gains x0.75 mult for every Glass Card played and not destroyed, loses x1.5 mult for every glass card destroyed)???
• Flower Pot (x3 mult if poker hand contains no suits) [I'm thinking all stone cards]???????
• Blueprint (Copies ability of Joker to Left) [This would be fun, but honestly confusing]?????
• Wee Joker (This Joker gains +8 Chips when each played 2 is not scored)???
• Merry Andy (-3 discards each round, +1 hand size)
• Oops! All 6s (Halves all listed probabilities (ex: 1 in 3 -> 1 in 6)
• Seeing Double (x2 mult if played hand does not have a scoring club card, but two still has at least two separate suits)??????
• Matador (Earn $8 upon completing boss blind without triggering its effects)???
• Hit the Road (This Joker gains x0.5 mult for every Jack in hand)
• Stuntman (-250 Chips, +2 hand size)???
• Brainstorm (Copies the ability of the Rightmost joker)???
• Shoot the Moon (Each played queen card gives +13 mult) [or maybe discard]???
• Driver's License (x3 mult if you have no enhanced cards in your full deck)
• Cartomancer (Create a tarot card when Blind is skipped)
• Astronomer (All Tarot cards and Arcana Packs in the shop are free)?????
• Burnt Joker (Upgrade the level of the first played poker hand each round) [broken?]??????
• Canio (This Joker gains x1 mult when a face card is added to your deck)???
• Triboulet (Held Kings and Queens each give x2 mult)???
• Yorick (This Joker gains x1 mult every 23 cards played)???
• Perkeo (Destroys 1 random consumable card in your possession at the end of the shop and generates a random planet, tarot, or spectral card)????????????????

Thank you for your time lol

Hi Everyone. I have made a path for myself on becoming a L1 SOC. Any advice or suggestions will be greatly appreciated. I'll try to keep it short. I started my masters in cybersecurity in Fall 2023 and will graduate in May 2025.
Completed November 2023- Google cybersecurity by Coursera Jan 15th- cleared Security + March 2nd - Cleared BTL1 and SOC Level path from TryHackMe May 3rd- cleared CDSA by HacktheBox.
Below are my goals and objectives for the coming year 1- clear CCNA by July 1st week(I should have gotten a networking cert before but I made a mistake) Don't wanna do Network + over CCNA. 2- Clear CYSA + by September 1st week 3- complete a full Blown SOC home lab that includes splunk, lima Charlie, and much more. (Taking some help from Eric Capuano's blog) 4- Do another practical Blue team Cert probably CCD by December 2nd week.
Apart from this I actively participate in online platform like BTLO to hone my skills. Probably going to do BTLO till June end and then shift to TCM Security Labs. I tried getting a summer internship but couldn't. :(
I made my university CTF team as well so we participate every week in different ctf competitions.
As for my experience, this is somewhere I lack unfortunately. I only have 4 months of technical support internship and 3 months of Data Analyst. Did my bachelors in Mechanical engineering.
If you have read this far I greatly appreciate it. :)

ok so i have the model down, input and output is good, amybe a few tweaks but basically have the code on the back end just need to design front end, and dont have a clue what im doing, at least in terms of actually gluing it all together, and then whether it should be an app or html. So if you have experience message me.
Really dont want to spill the beans on what it is as its something not being talked about but something everyone of you would use at least once. hit me uppppp

I've only been watching slash knowing about the existince of Kenji ('coz youtube via Babish) for about 4 or 5 years now. Holy Hell have I learned a tonne!
I just read the bit on soaked vs. non-soaked black beans on seriouseats.com and damn near lost it at "Turns out that tracking dog farts accurately without specialized equipment is actually quite difficult unless you're willing to get even more down and dirty than I am in the name of good ol' gonzo journalism."
I do think Hunter S. would be proud of Kenji. I also hope Kenji didn't go to Tolstoy to rid himself of the fart joke karma, 'coz in my experience you just end up in a waking coma.

I'm growing beans for the first time this year and I am growing them in a square foot style with 4 per square. My question is can I have two bean plants grow up the same pole or do I need to have 1 pole per plant? If I can get 2 beans on a pole could I get more than that, maybe all 4? Don't know if it matters but the cultivars I'm growing are dragon tongue(which is a bush bean so I don't think I need a pole), 1500 year old cave bean, Rattlesnake pole bean, Indian giant snake bean(I only did 1 per square of those), Kurzer's Calico traveler lima bean. Thanks in advance for any input and happy gardening

I've been binge eating this past month and a half and gained a lot of weight. I'm trying to lose it right now and I've lost weight before so I know what to do but I'm having some serious trouble right now with hunger and I'm considering taking a combination of a Glucomannane and Garcinia Cambogia supplement because I've seen a study showing positive health outcomes about just that. I'm wondering if anyone else could share their experience using these?
For some background, I'm not a big guy by any means but I have an insane appetite. On a given day I can eat 5-6K calories of "clean" food without even trying. I exercise regularly and my TDEE is about 2700-2800 calories. I know a high protein intake is important because it digests slower and keeps you full but I can't bring myself to eat beans, chicken and beef all day.

During the preshow, we see a confrontation in the back, General Manager Nick Aldis in his office when The Bullet Club (Cody, Finn, and AJ) all storm in
AJ: Why the hell are we not on the pay per view? We are the biggest stars you got
Cody: There better be a damn good reason you are not giving us any opportunities that we deserve
Finn: Aldis you do NOT want to cross us, that will make your job very... very difficult
Aldis stands up from his desk looking at all 3 men
Aldis: Gentlemen you are not on the show because well... you didn't earn it, now I suggest you remove yourselves from my office
All 3 men appear very angry with the answer but storm out
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WWE CHAMPIONSHIP
Carmelo Hayes(c) vs Karrion Kross w/Jake Roberts
Results: These 2 men are wanting to steal the show right off the bat, both coming close to victory several times, in the end Melo hits the Nothing But Net to pick up the win and retain his championship
Winner: Carmelo Hayes
After the match, Jake Roberts gets in the ring to help Kross, Kross frustrated pulls away from Jake, suddenly Kross pulls jake into DDT position and levels him with a vicious DDT.
Kross leaves the ring and as he reaches the ramp Scarlett walks out to join him, as she rejoins him as his manager
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Women's Tag Team Championship
Cora Jade & Roxanne Perez(c) vs The IIconics
Results: In just a short time, these 2 teams already do not like each other and go right at it, brawling in and out of the ring before the referee finally gets order in the match. After some back and forth, in the end Cora Jade picks up the pin over Billie Kay to retain the tag team titles
Winners: Cora Jade & Roxanne Perez
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Intercontinental Championship Street Fight
Swerve Strickland(c) vs Sammy Guevara w/ Tay Melo
Results: These 2 men waste no time getting the weapons out, lots of back and forth with various weapons, at one point Tay Melo gets involved lowblowing Swerve giving Sammy control. Sammy going for the big finish puts Swerve on a table in the ring and sets up a massive ladder, climbing to the top Sammy goes for a Swanton but Swerve moves sending Sammy crashing through the table. Swerve picks Sammy up and delivers Space Jam and covers Sammy for the win
Winner: Swerve Strickland
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WWE Tag Team Championship
Drew Mcintyre & Sheamus(c) vs War Machine
Results: There is nothing pretty in this match, just 4 big men brawling and hitting each other hard, in the closing moments Sheamus goes for a Brogue kick but Hanson ducks and Sheamus kicks Drew. War Machine then hit Sheamus with Fallout and pick up the win
Winners: New Tag Team Champions War Machine
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Women's Intercontinental Championship Tournament FInals
Giulia vs Liv Morgan w/Dominik Mysterio
Results: Giulia spends the majority of the match in control, showing her experience and skill, closing in on the end, Giulia hits her finisher and just as the referee is about to count 3 Dominik pulls the referee out of the ring. The ref throws Dominik out, as the crowd is cheering, back in the ring Liv out of nowhere hits Giulia with ObLIVion, and picks up the sneaky victory to win.
Winner: Inaugural Women's Intercontinental Champion Liv Morgan
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After this match we suddenly cut backstage to chaos as officials run around, the camera pans into Nick Aldis' office where it is completely trashed and Aldis is laid out on the floor unconscious. Officials yelling for the doctor and asking if anyone saw anything
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MAIN EVENT
The Bloodline vs Trick Williams, Wes Lee & The Von Erichs
Results: The referee makes it clear early on to keep things under control, and for awhile this is the case, both teams sticking to the rules, but it eventually breaks down leading to all 8 men brawling, back in the ring we have the 2 legal men in Jacob Fatu & Wes Lee, Jacob delivers his impressive Moonsault and picks up the win
Winners: The Bloodline
The Bloodline is not done, as they continue to attack their 4 opponents. they put each of the Von Erichs on an announce table, and the G.o.D each climb a turnbuckle and deliver matching splashes through the tables. Jacob Fatu spears Trick Williams through the announce table. And in the ring Solo hits Wes Lee with a Samoan Spike.
As Solo is picking up Wes Lee to deliver another Samoan Spike, suddenly around the arena we hear something familiar "Sierra, Hotel, India, Echo, Lima, Delta" and the crowd goes nuts, the camera pans all around the arena until finally up in the crowd on a staircase we see Roman Reigns who has been gone since Wrestlemania, but then behind him step up the returning Seth Rollins & Dean Ambrose, all 3 men dressed in their signature Shield gear as they make their way down the stairs. The 3 stars jump the barricade, as they do the camera zooms out to show the Bloodline has left the ring and is now standing up on the stage.
Backlash ends with The Bloodline on the stage staring down at The Shield now standing in the ring, and the crowd chanting 'Holy Shit'

My baby is turning 12 months next month and although she’s small, she is already walking all over the house, has a couple of words, 8 teeth, eating tons of food and hard to keep still and occupied. I feel totally unprepared and like somehow I woke up with this walking running kid in my house. I feel so under prepared.
How the heck do I feed her snacks on the go? Do I always have to bring my big bill Graco stroller if I want her to have a tray for snacks? It’s so squeaky and bulky now.
Diaper changes. When do I switch to standing changes? Anyone have experience with elimination communication? Should I switch to cloth at this point?
Food. I feel like I’m just constantly giving her beans and cheese and fruit. I’m vegetarian so I don’t prep meat, can I give her vegetarian meat? What are other good low prep meals? I do not have the time or energy to make broccoli tots from scratch.
Where do I find good toys? I feel like my target only has baby teethers and then like light up and sound making electronic toys and we’ve already got plenty of those. So tired of being disappointed by Amazon buys.

If the names "Pip & Beans" mean anything to you, please stop reading.
Hello, I've made custom feats for each of my players and id like some guidance on balancing.
Bard -
2 new uses of bardic inspiration;
Diving Keel; while flying, move more than 25 feet in a straight line and attack. On a hit, add the number rolled on your bardic inspiration to the damage. If attacking a huge or smaller creature, the creature must make a strength save against your spell save DC. On a failed save they are pushed 10ft in the direction the PC is travelling.
Offensive blockade; if a creature that has been given inspiration and uses the inspiration to add to a melee attack, on a hit the enemy creature's movement speed is reduced by 10ft until the start of the player's next turn. This reduction is increased to 15ft if the PC is within 20ft of the creature. // Wizard -
"Wins" about engagement with information allows the Player to access "Intellectual Aegis", this condition grants the following benefits;
Advantage on intelligence saves and checks. Gain temporary hit points equal to intelligence modifier. Gain cold resistance.
This lasts 4 hours or until the PC experiences an "L".
*I recognise this is very subjective and so balancing for those not in the game might be difficult - for context this player as part of their character notes down wins and losses day to day. An example of a win is "knowing things others don't and explaining these things to them", and example of a loss is "someone correcting my information". // Rogue -
Gain advantage on initiative checks.
Can use a bonus action to access "Blitz", this condition grants the following benefits;
15ft movement. Advantage on dexterity saves and checks. +1 AC. This Lasts 5 rounds (30 seconds)
Can activate this a number of times equal to the PC's constitution modifier. // Paladin -
You can spend 10 minutes exercising with your companions, shoring up their physical prowess. When you do so, choose up to six friendly creatures (can include yourself) within 40ft of you who are participating in exercise with you. Each creature can gain advantage on their next Constitution save and Strength save/check. A creature can't benefit from this feat again until it has finished a short or long rest.
Player with this advantage must declare it after the roll but before they know the result. // Druid -
At the start of everyday, the PC can choose to speak to animals, this has the effect of the "Speak with animals" spell but lasts the entire day. Once the PC can access 3rd level spells, he can choose between speaking to animals or plants for the day. Speaking to plants operates the same as the "Speak with plants" spell but lasts the entire day.
Possibly helpful extra information;
Party composition is - Aaracockra Bard, Merfolk Wizard, Changeling Rogue, Firbolg Paladin and Warforged Druid. All are level 4.
Some of these are obvious riffs on spells/magic items. Sorry for any poor spelling/formatting!

My boyfriend and I adopted a semi feral 10month old cat a week ago (we named her Bean). She was picked up from the streets at 3months old and has been in the shelter ever since. She wasn't getting adopted because she's not very socialised. With that I mean she's curious about humans but very scared of them. (Preferred staying hidden at the shelter, was hissing and spitting at people...) Now that she's home with us she comes out to eat and play and can be relaxing in the same room but you can't pet her whatsoever and she might hiss when she gets scared.
We adopted her to become friends with our 5year old cat Luna and started slooowly introducing them to each other by letting them have a peak at each other through a crack in the door. When Bean noticed Luna through the crack she was fully ready to meet her, was rolling on her back meowing and also started purring and letting us pet her? Normally we can only let her sniff our hands and she would back off immediately afterwards and now she was fully asking for pets?
From the moment we close the door and Luna is not there anymore bean goes back to being scared of hands and you can't touch her anymore, she goes back to insecure little hand sniffs.
Has anyone got any experience on this? It's just such a weird behavioral thingy but also very cute haha.

Round 2, Pick 33 - Keon Coleman, WR, Florida State:
NFL: After trading back twice on Thursday, the Bills stick at 33 and take a big, physical and athletically gifted target. Coleman isn't fast and isn't a deep threat, but he can win in a variety of ways. But who will Josh Allen's deep threat be? Stay tuned.
CBS Sports: C-. “X” receiver for a WR-needy team. Plays faster than his combine speed but doesn’t separate consistently and isn’t as good of a contested-catch wideout as his size and highlight-reel would indicate. Young though.
ESPN: After trading back twice, the Bills addressed the team's most significant position of need with Coleman, a big outside receiver with the ability to make splash plays -- 12 receiving touchdowns on contested catches since the start of 2022, second-most in the FBS, however, only a 31.7% contested catch percentage in 2023 -- to create separation and a release that general manager Brandon Beane described as "about as good as any." Beane acknowledged that while he's "probably not" going to run away from defenders, Buffalo feels his play speed is faster than the speed he showed at the combine -- 4.61 40-yard dash -- also noting that they liked his athletic ability that came from playing basketball. The Bills needed starting-level talent at outside receiver and Coleman, who turns 21 in May, fits into what Buffalo was looking for, while the team was still able to move back and add picks.
NFL Absolutely Not Fake News: Believes that knitting is the original “Netflix and chill”.
Round 2, Pick 60 - Cole Bishop, S, Utah:
NFL: Safety was a big need for the Bills, and they go back to the Utes for help after taking Dalton Kincaid in Round 1 a year ago. Bishop is a very good athlete and field general who can play the post safety spot and cover a lot of ground. He played like the QB of the Utes' defense the past two years and could be a rookie starter for Buffalo.
CBS Sports: A-. Large, intimidating safety with magnificent movement skill. The QB of the defense. Aligns everywhere. Can wear many hats. Excelled as slot defender and vs. TEs in coverage and runs the alley on outside runs as well as any safety in the class. Ball skills and tackling must improve. Short arms. Need filled.
ESPN: Another pick for the Bills in the second round, another big need addressed. Drafting Bishop adds someone who can compete for a starting role this season, in addition to being a potential answer in the secondary after moving on from Jordan Poyer this offseason while Micah Hyde continues to contemplate retirement. Bishop has the ability to move all over the field, along with speed -- 4.45 40-yard dash -- and many of the qualities and instincts the Bills look for at the position.
NFL Absolutely Not Fake News: He always weebles and wobbles, but he won’t ever fall down.
Round 3, Pick 95 - DeWayne Carter, DT, Duke:
NFL: When I first watched Carter at the Senior Bowl, I wrote in my notes: "rolling ball of knives." Carter's game doesn't have a lot of pretty to it, but he's a scheme disruptor with his low center of gravity, ferocious style and nasty demeanor.
CBS Sports: B+. Active, high-energy interior rusher who’s on the ground a bit more than what’s desired because of his frenetic style. But it also gets him to the football more often than most DTs. Flashes of swim move and spin just needs to utilize them more. Length is a plus and he works hard vs. run. Some power too. Fills niche need on Buffalo’s defensive front. Needs to use his length better on passing downs.
ESPN: Using the pick acquired via the trade with the Kansas City Chiefs on Thursday, the Bills addressed another hole with Carter bringing depth at defensive tackle. The three-technique tackle will have the opportunity to continue to develop -- potentially as Ed Oliver's backup -- adding to a defensive tackle room that has limited young talent. The Bills didn't draft a defensive tackle last year due to the way the board fell, but the team was able to add to the rotation early this year.
NFL Absolutely Not Fake News: Still says ‘weeeeeeeeeee’ when on a playground swing.
Round 4, Pick 128 - Ray Davis, RB, Kentucky:
NFL: Davis has overcome a lot to reach this level, and though he lacks long speed, he can be a Zack Moss-like player for the Bills. Davis' vision and wicked spin move have left a few defenders in a blender.
CBS Sports: C. Compact, older RB with plus stop-start ability, married to his feet well. Can deploy multiple cuts in a run to make defenders miss. Good, not amazing overall elusiveness though. Quicker than fast too. Will work hard to fight through contact. Has the skills to be fine complementary RB in NFL.
ESPN: With Davis, the Bills add a needed bigger back -- 5-foot-8, 211-pounds -- to pair with James Cook, but also someone who has the ability to catch the football (seven touchdown catches in 2023, tied with Najee Harris for the most by any SEC running back in a season in the last 25 years). Buffalo had a variety of veterans complimenting Cook last season, but Davis, 24, will give Buffalo a power runner and another younger presence in the room, albeit with plenty of collegiate experience from two seasons at Temple, two at Vanderbilt and one at Kentucky.
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Round 5, Pick 141 - Sedrick Van Pran-Granger, C, Georgia:
NFL: He's a tough, durable competitor with good anchor strength and three years starting experience for an SEC power, although SVP's lack of athleticism and smaller frame might make him a center-only projection.
CBS Sports: A-. Multi-year starter in the SEC with wrestler’s mentality. Battles through the whistle every snap. Mobility stands out. Explosive short-area quicks. Doesn’t have supreme length and clearly has to add weight/strength to his game. Methodically carries out run-game duties with ease. Second-level climbs etc. Older prospect but comes with high floor.
ESPN: This offseason, the Bills moved on from the team's starting center, Mitch Morse, and backup Ryan Bates. Last year's left guard Connor McGovern is set to slide over to the starting role. Adding Van Pran-Granger brings depth at center -- he allowed one sack his entire career in 1,337 pass-blocking plays, according to Sports Info Solutions -- and a strong candidate for the future at the position with significant starting experience (he started the last three seasons at center for Georgia).
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Round 5, Pick 160 - Edefuan Ulofoshio, LB, Washington:
NFL: In recent years, Buffalo has taken some interesting shots on linebackers in Rounds 3-7, and Ulofoshio continues that trend. He was one of the final players in my top 100 prospect list with his excellent speed, intense style and special teams experience, even if injuries have clouded his projection.
CBS Sports: A-. Six-year LB who starred for a long time as a full-time player in Washington’s program. Big-time tester and it shows on the field. Just takes a second to diagnose. Keen block-avoider as he’s sifting through traffic. Smooth athlete all around but doesn’t quite play to his workout. Reliable tackler who also flashed coverage skill down the seam. High-floor pick here. Crowded LB room.
ESPN: The Bills lost major special teams contributors this offseason, including linebacker Tyrel Dodson and defensive back Siran Neal, while captain linebacker Tyler Matakevich remains a free agent. Ulofoshio adds depth to the linebacker room, but perhaps more importantly, he can find a role on this roster as someone who can make an impact on special teams, an area of priority for the Bills. He has experience from playing six years at Washington, and while he dealt with multiple significant injuries in 2021 and 2022, he played every game in 2023 and earned Washington's Guy Flaherty Most Inspirational Award, the program's oldest and most prestigious honor.
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Round 5, Pick 168 - Javon Solomon, DE, Troy:
NFL: Solomon was a highly productive rusher the past few years in an unusual frame. He's short and undersized at 6-foot-1 and 247 pounds but with nearly 34-inch arms and huge hands. That extra length helps Solomon get to the quarterback, along with his quick burst and non-stop motor. An interesting study for sure.
CBS Sports: A. Burst, bend, speed predicated outside EDGE. Small frame but serious length. Unique build. Doesn’t get engulfed by bigger blockers as much as expected because of his speed-to-power conversion. Hand work is good, not amazing and can flatten to the QB. Motor hums on every play. Bills needed this type of quick winner on the outside.
ESPN: Solomon provides depth at edge rusher, another position of need for Buffalo. He led the FBS with 16 sacks last season and totaled 31.5 sacks since the start of 2021 (also most in the FBS), in addition to 49 career tackles for loss (third in Sun Belt history). Being a Day 3 selection, finding a special teams role will be important for Solomon. He'll also have the opportunity to develop behind the likes of Greg Rousseau, Von Miller -- someone that Solomon has modeled his game after -- and AJ Epenesa.
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Round 6, Pick 204 - Tylan Grable, OT, UCF:
NFL: He's a converted Jacksonville State tight end who became a solid left tackle the past two years at UCF. Grable is a quality athlete with great length and potential to be groomed at center, even if he's still learning how to play O-line.
CBS Sports: B. Height and length type at OT who probably plays guard at the next level. Smooth athleticism and can sustain speed throughout the play. Not just quick. Hands are more active and heavy than they are accurate. Good depth add here with positional versatility. Can grow into his frame.
ESPN: Grable started his collegiate career as a walk-on tight end at Jacksonville State, but transitioned to offensive line starting in 2019 and then started 27 games at left tackle while at UCF. He will compete for a roster spot in an offensive line room with veteran players, and said he's prepared to make a switch to a different position if needed. General manager Brandon Beane said that Grable is "gonna have to continue to work on his lower body strength, his power to move guys in the run game, but has great feet you know for pass pro."
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Round 6, Pick 219 - Daequan Hardy, CB, Penn State:
NFL: His return skills might be what keeps him in the league, as Hardy lacks the mass and strength to hold up full time on defense, but sub-4.4 speed is always appealing in a DB.
CBS Sports: A-. Case for most sudden, twitch-up athlete at CB in the class. Super speedy too. Plus recovery talent. Explosiveness in every movement. Not always sticky in coverage but does have high-caliber reps. Check Ohio State game. Erratic tackling and hard to get off blockers because of his size. Chippy in trying to make plays on screens.
ESPN: Hardy brings depth at the cornerback position and skills as a returner. In 2023, he tied the Penn State record for most punt return touchdowns in a season (two) and finished seventh in punt return average (14.6) in school history. Beane noted that if not for the new return rules, he's not sure if they would have picked Hardy, but "this guy can play one of the backup corner spots, but also he's a really nice returner." Buffalo lost multiple players at the returner spot in free agency, and with more focus on it going into this season, Hardy will have the opportunity to compete for the role.
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Round 7, Pick 221 - Travis Clayton, OT, England:
NFL: The Brit, who is 6-foot-7 and 301 pounds with 35-inch arms, ran a 4.81-second 40-yard dash at South Florida's pro day and immediately put himself on scouts' radars late in the process. He's a total project but might be a terrific find with some seasoning, thanks to those unusual athletic traits.
CBS Sports: C+. At 6-foot-7 and 300 pounds with 35-inch arms and a sub 5.00 40-yard dash, this is a ridiculous athlete who is new to football from London.
ESPN: Despite the Bills never seeing Clayton play football, he's an intriguing addition to develop. The initial projection is as an offensive tackle for the 6-foot-7, 303-pound boxer and former rugby player from England after offensive line coach Aaron Kromer came away from watching tape of his workouts. Notably, he ran a 4.79 40-yard dash, faster than all offensive linemen who competed at the combine in the last 10 years. He'll have an opportunity to show the Bills exactly how his skills will translate and what he may be capable of in the NFL, especially as he does not count for a roster spot as part of the International Player Pathway program.
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So I'm relatively new to the whole coffee thing, and have been using a Wilfa Svart to grind my coffee with ever since I started.
It's obviously not the best, however I have gotten familiar with how it works, and knew which settings I had to use to get the best grind sizes for the coffee's I liked.
Now I had decided to upgrade to an Ode Gen 2, clearly I am going to have to start over for the most part as this is a completely different grinder. I am looking forward to experimenting with it.
However, to help me along get to the point of enjoying my coffee and not just endlessly experimenting, my question is, since the complexity has gone up with a grinder such as the Ode 2; are there any steps I need to take after I take it out of the box? Any calibrating I need to be doing, etc? Or do I just unbox, plug it in and start seasoning the grinder with beans? At what point is the grinder 'ready'?
For people that are familiar with the grinder or have one at home, how is the experience for the first couple of cups? The weeks after? Did the steps at which you ground the coffee change meaningfully after the first few weeks, with the same coffee's? Any tips that you've found while using it are also extremely welcome!

I've been playing GT7 on and off since release. I'm not a car guy but I do still do like them and enjoy racing games in general. I've always found GT7 immersive, even with just the Dual Sense controller.
Last year I bought a G29 at full price, which for me was around £349.99, something ridiculous anyway, because I just had to try out a steering wheel.
I made two mistakes that day, one I paid full price when I already had spent my indulgence budget allowance (see: PSVR2) and the second one was clamping the wheel to a shitty desk and sitting on a shitty office chair.
I felt kinda guilty spending that much and as I tested the wheel, whilst I found it high quality, I had the guilt at the back of my mind, along with the clutter it created in the living room. Sitting at an office desk/chair also really threw off the immersion, I wasn't sat right and my wheel didn't line up at all with the in game wheel. I felt motion sickness as soon as I overshot a corner or bumped another car. I've got solid VR legs but I was dizzy for a while after that.
As quickly as I inpulsed bought the wheel, I returned it back to the store, as I was scared of damage via a pet or a child, what with all the cables.
Anyway, skip to this weekend. I find myself browsing through Facebook marketplace (ugh, I feel dirty) and I see the G29 along with a stand for £99 and it looks in good nick 😀 I buy it, get it home, set it up. Kick the office chair away and find my son's giant bean bag and it's perfect, it acts a bit like a bucket car seat but comfortable, it molds to my happy ass. I boot up GT7, everything looks in place. The steering wheel feels strong and responsive and then I fall in love...
I've played my fair share of VR. I love horror games, puzzle games, escape room games. I've had amazing experiences with them all. But something about GT7 is magical. I definitely feel like the wheel helps (obviously) and if more games could incorporate their own peripherals - I don't know, a shotgun controller for Resident Evil? A skateboard for the skateboard game... a kayak for the um, kayak game? You get the idea. Back to my point. There's something special about racing around Nürburgring at 300 miles an hour in the comfort of your own living room. I get giddy thinking about how I can have a track day, on any track, in any car whenever I want. I'm not a car guy but I am a video gamer guy and driving around, having fun is just something else.
I am in love.
I don't have anything new to say here. I just want to share and spread my enthusiasm about how amazing I am finding this.
Now if only I could get a seating rig with full haptic/tilting/rumbling feedback...

Coffee is a beloved beverage enjoyed by millions around the world, but not all coffee is created equal. Some coffees to avoid and some brands can negatively impact your health, taste buds, and even your wallet. In this guide, we'll explore the types of coffee you should avoid and why making informed choices can enhance your coffee experience.

1. Instant Coffee

Instant coffee might be convenient, but it often falls short in flavor and quality. Many instant coffees are made from lower-grade beans and can have a bitter, burnt taste. Additionally, they often contain additives and preservatives that can detract from the natural richness of coffee.

2. Pre-Ground Coffee

While pre-ground coffee is convenient, it can quickly lose its freshness and flavor. Coffee begins to oxidize and lose its aromatic oils as soon as it’s ground, leading to a stale taste. For the best flavor, always opt for whole beans and grind them just before brewing.

3. Flavored Coffees

Flavored coffees might seem appealing, but they often contain artificial flavors and sweeteners that can mask the true taste of the coffee. These additives can also lead to unnecessary calorie intake and potential health risks. If you enjoy flavored coffee, consider adding natural spices like cinnamon or vanilla extract instead.

4. Cheap, Bulk Coffee

Buying coffee in bulk can be tempting due to its lower price, but these products are often made from low-quality beans that lack depth and complexity. Bulk coffee is also more likely to be stale by the time you get to the bottom of the bag, diminishing your coffee experience.

5. Pods and Capsules

Coffee pods and capsules are convenient, but they often come with environmental and quality drawbacks. The packaging creates a significant amount of waste, and the coffee inside is typically of lower quality compared to freshly ground beans. Moreover, the convenience factor often comes with a higher price tag per cup.

6. Unethically Sourced Coffee

Not all coffee is produced with fair labor practices or sustainable methods. Avoid brands that do not support fair trade or environmentally friendly practices. Instead, look for certifications like Fair Trade, Rainforest Alliance, or Organic, which ensure that the coffee is produced ethically and sustainably.

7. Old or Stale Coffee

Coffee has a shelf life, and consuming old or stale coffee can result in a flat, lifeless cup. Always check the roast date on the packaging and try to consume your coffee within a few weeks of roasting for the best flavor.

Conclusion

By avoiding these types of coffee, you can ensure a more enjoyable and responsible coffee experience. Invest in high-quality, fresh, and ethically sourced beans, and you'll taste the difference in every cup. Happy brewing!

Brokeback Mountain perpetuates harmful stereotypes about gay relationships by depicting them as inherently tragic and doomed to fail. The movie feeds into the "Bury Your Gays" trope, where gay characters are often killed off for dramatic effect.
It even misses the mark with its portrayal of gay intimacy, which comes off as unrealistic, cold, and even funny at times (seriously, sex after beans?). The protagonist's lack of courage to stand up for himself or his supposed "love" only adds to the film's problematic depiction of gay relationships as doomed and lacking agency.
As someone who grew up closeted, queer cinema was my window to breathe, and had I seen this movie back when I was young, I’m sure it would have taken some years more for me to be out. Movies shape perspectives, and I’d never recommend this movie to any young queers still in the process of self-acceptance.
There's so much more to queer experiences than tragedy and passivity. What do you think?

So recently I've been trying more and more different beans and I think I'm starting to notice certain descriptors common for a certain origin country/process beans. For example, I recently got two Washed Kenyas from different roasters and they tasted almost identical (different varieties and regions though). I love anaerobic ethiopias so most of the time I get them from any roaster they taste pretty much the same. Also I just got an anaerobic columbia and it tastes exactly like a coffee I used to drink in a totally different country few years ago. I use a pretty standard method — just Hario Switch, K-Max and the same good water all the time.
What's your experience like? Do you notice the small changes in terroir in the same country and process? And is it worth it to taste different beans of the same origin and process by same or different roasters?

dear bean
yknow i know you definitely will not care about this and you will probably tell your friends and say how desperate or annoying or needy or shitty I am, and its fine - say what you want. because honestly I couldn't care less about how you think about me but I just want to be heard from your end one final time. and yea I did say that a couple times, I've tried reaching out a couple times, I've tried being a mature person even though I was actually breaking inside. so yea, I'm sorry I lied, sorry I said it would be my last time contacting you but breaking that promise every time, but this time it really will be the last time.
honestly, I think we had a good run for the what, 4 months we were friends? i have nothing bad to say about you, and even though it was hell after whatever you would call that, I still don't dislike you or hate you or feel negative feelings towards you, cause at the end of the day, we're all humans living life and we can decide when someone isn't worth being in our life anymore (that might sound passive aggressive, it wasn't supposed to sound like that, just read it like I understand the feeling). if you're annoyed by this email - don't keep reading, I'll just go on and on and I guess this email (that I will never send) is just a way for me to reflect and understand my feelings while also giving you, the bean that I knew, a chance to come out one last time before shutting me down once and for all. yea so if you're gonna go beserk from this email, dob me out to all your friends, then I suggest you leave before I pour my heart and soul out.
you were actually really cool in my eyes, talented and smart, it was hard not to admire the determination you had and the willingness to do things. and I hate admitting it, and I know my friends hate hearing me talk about it, but I miss you and your presence. yes, sue me, no I'm not in love with you, yes you made that big of and impact on me. i was scared of you when you first joined honk, you had very sharp and cool eyes. and again - you were talented which intimidated me. but overtime, I understood that you weren't scary, you were actually so sweet and funny and really silly. i liked how you pushed yourself to try harder and new things, like clarinet 1 in honk. i don't even know how we started chatting, I think you were looking for some sheet music or something. honestly it was nice talking to you, even from the beginning. it was fresh talking to someone new, I didn't have high expectations of where this friendship would go but I was happy enough to enjoy the moment while it lasted.
and well, that moment lasted a while. we talked for a week and I could already tell that my crappy feelings would complicate things - I just never met someone so like me before. even though I didn't have strong feelings, I knew they were there, but I still chose to talk to you. how foolish right? i mean we had the same interests, music (clarinet!!), txt, twisted tales, it was a coincidence meeting someone who was like a mini me. and of course, when we started talking about crushes, I felt adrenaline and just kept going until I just puked my feelings over you. I'm not sure how you felt then when I admitted I liked you, but if it was hard for you or if it made you uncomfortable, I'm sorry. putting you in that position must have been hard so i'msorry. you said you weren't ready for anything serious, but I was just excited, too happy to find someone finally, that it didn;t occur to me how fast i might be going.
we had our issues, but i thought that we loved each other. i loved you so i thought that even though i had issues, talking it out with you was always the best way to work things out. communication is key, that's what i told myself. i guess it wasn't key, unless it's the key to making friendships break apart. i guess i just tricked myself into thinking you loved me just as much as i loved you, so i thought you had the same idea of communication as i did. and honestly i think a part of me was right, because you did try. but it was my fault, i kept bringing in other little small things that affected me and you had to put me back together. and i guess that must've been annoying cause at some point you just stopped trying. I'm not saying that that's an issue or that it was your problem, I'm under the impression it was all my doing.
looking past that, i seriously loved you so much. i neglected a lot for you - again not blaming you, i did it because i really really loved you so much and i wanted the best for you in every circumstance (even if it didn't seem like it). i left my friends a lot, my mum noticed i was getting more distant and well, after things ended i got into touch with my loved ones again, so I'm in a way grateful for you for doing that.
love is hard to describe. but i knew i had love for you. i said i loved my other crushes. but they were absolutely nothing compared to what i had for you. i had love for you that was comparable to my best friend (don't tell her that). mayve you can tell but words could not describe how or what i felt after things ended. not sure what your breaking point was, but it must have been a big point. i have 3 main points regarding this end of whatever we had:

1. what is it we even had? you said we were just friends - i accept that - but i feel like it was definitely not what i saw. and yes, maybe this is subjective BUT i don't think friends hold hands (well they do but they're not afraid to), they don't celebrate "months of friendship" (recalling every month we were "together" we would celebrate) and friends don't kiss each other's foreheads like that (and if they didn't like it, they'd stop each other). honestly, I'm cringing recalling the fucking embarrassing things i did but it needs to be addressed. i have to ask you - and there's no shame in being truthful because i don't care anymore - what did you see us as? was i a one time fling? was i seriously just your friend? did you have feelings for me then realise i was too high maintenance to handle and dropped me? or maybe there was another factor. that brings me to my next point.
2. was there another person who you realised was better? again, while an average person might see this as morally incorrect - i do not care - you're human and you can feel whatever you want for whoever you want. But i’m genuinely asking, did you? Was it the guy you liked in year 6? The one who bullied you? Call me a detective but, i remember seqc calling one night after things ended, i was back from vietnam and had slightly accepted the idea of the situation. you pulled out some messages from a boy on discord, it was of him admitting he liked you back in year 6. i looked at the date, it was the 6th of january 2023, 9 days before you had the courage to break it off with me. Did he maybe have a part in this? Did you maybe feel things weren’t working out with me and realised you had a chance with someone else so you took it? AGAIN NO SHAME - you do whatever you want to do in life, i’m not shaming you or judging you I just genuinely want to know. I also saw you posting about a boy on your story - not sure if its the same boy but if it was, i hope it went well for you. Sorry these were all the conspiracy theories i made up to cope - crazy right? Imagine what a person can do to you.
3. why did we stop being friends? Even though things didn;t work out romantically (or what i thought was romantic, you thought of as friendship), i don’t know what happened to us. You told me you wanted to be friends. I also wanted to be friends. The only reason that kept me alright was the idea that even though you don’t think of me more, i could still keep you as a friend - someone i could share my passions with and geek out over txt music with. Thats why i tried to stay friends with you. I really and truly did try to make ‘friends’ work with you. But the more i tried - the more annoyed you got. Or i think you were getting annoyed. I wouldn’t know because you didn’t tell me how you felt afterwards. I tried to make it work because you said we could be friends but you gave up on me. I think that’s what hurt me the most - breaking your word. I keep saying it, but you’re entitled to do whatever you want, but it left an emotional scar on me. I don’t want to admit it, but on the days you started at (bean's new school name), i woke up early just to talk to you, to keep you company on the bus on your first few days. Yea cringey i know, bare with me please. I thought I owed you that, i thought that being friends with you after you ended ‘things’, i had to earn my right so i tried, i really tried to be my best for you, so you felt that maybe it was worth keeping me around. And maybe, maybe i was still in love with you then. But i think you saw talking to me for three days straight at 7am was annoying and you were probably uncomfortable because it was me. I feel like you saw me as a creep - almost like a pedo. But i tried and you gave up on me, and there was a time a couple months later where we were perfectly fine, but then things just went again.

you might think I just had silly little feelings for you. but I didn't. i really had feelings for you. and I don't know if you genuinely didn't see me that way, or you didn't have feelings for me, if you just thought it was a silly little thing we had going on or if you're hiding the fact you did like me at some point. I just know that losing you as a friend really crushed me to pieces. and yes you told people you never want to talk to me or talk about me - which is fine you're entitled to your own rights - but I just wanted to get this off my chest. one last time - I promise.
I don’t know if this will get to you. It probably won’t, theres a bit too much that i wrote in here. Do you care about this still? Definitely not (I’m assuming). It’s embarrassing how much I think about this and how much i regret not letting my feelings out before you removed me as a friend on instagram and discord (or even blocking me on spotify, not sure how spotify was a way for me to get to you but whatever works i guess). This issue has been taking up my mind for the last few years, and it really does suck. But I’m gonna let it out, so im sorry if you got up to here.
Not sure how much this means to you, but you can contact me anytime if you want to let out your feelings (of life, not about this or me), i want to support you as much as i can. I can also help you with coping with school - again i don’t think you’d take me up on that but it’s always an option if you need it. I won’t make it weird, i wont bring this up again, i’ll talk to you like you’re one of my friends.
I haven’t heard much about your feelings in this - feelings of anger, regret, sadness. If you do want to share (you most definitely don’t have to), email me, text me, contact me and we can talk about how you felt too. This email was for me to finally write down what i wanted to let out and finally let go of what happened (even if you think it was miniscule, it wasn’t for me).
Life is hard, and I learnt that through you and the experience of you. So thank you for teaching me this. Thank you for showing me what love felt like, and thank you for being my first love. You made it very hard for other people because i only compared them to what I had with you. But in saying that - I made life long friends who helped me cope. And I hope you found some life long friends as well.
I hope you have a good life (in saying that, i am assuming we will never meet each other ever again - but if we do meet again disregard this).
Thanks for everything (and nothing as well) (while that sounds bitter, its more like a thank you for what you taught me - life lessons and all - but also thanks for the pain i had to feel afterwards, while that pain was not enjoyable, it was what taught me).
kind regards,
toad
to readers: i censored the names for privacy, but i called her bean (as a nickname - it really suited her), and i was known as her 'toad', hence the names.