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i’m 27 and i’ve been struggling with BPD since i was a teenager. does it get better?
i’m really losing hope for life. i told myself i wasn’t making it to 16 then 18 then 21, 30… now i have a little sister who needs me more than anything and a fiance who would be devastated if i left.
i have no money, don’t have kids because im terrified of child birth, struggling to find something to eat by the time i go to sleep at night. i live in a mostly safe environment- a mental health rehabilitation program with my fiance who never leaves my side. i only say mostly because some effed up shit has happened to me in this program…
can’t get someone to hire me, constant triggers, wrong therapy methods but can’t afford a good therapist, never traveled outside my area, can’t make friends even though my fiance is really trying his best to get me good friends but everyone is strung out where i am and deceiving.
i had a BPD episode that lasted a few days leading up to a meltdown today.
i looked at my fiance and asked “if life doesn’t get any better, can i —— myself when i’m 40?” and i think he almost cried when he laid his head in my lap.
it would give my siblings time to grow up and hopefully gain independence.
i know this is selfish which is why i want to ask- does life with BPD get better or is this it? is there any success or is it just relapse after relapse?
i don’t want to leave anybody behind and i don’t want my siblings to go through that pain but i can’t stand it here. my only wish is to travel and i’ve never been outside of the city also have no money. that’s all i want. i feel like it would be therapeutic and make me see the beauty in life.
all i see in the city is addiction on every street and so many people suffering and just looking like they’re at the end of their life even when they’re not showing any gray in their hair.
but like… i don’t see traveling ever happening. i don’t see a future job. really, can i have a good life with BPD? can i handle marriage? or is this it?

Hello, Reddit! The title pretty much says everything, but here are some details.
Born in Maryland and raised in Arizona all my life, but I’ve moved up to Utah for family reasons. Just moved in with some family to take care of some family business for a year and hopefully go back to the desert within the next two years.
Some more stuff about me! I’m a 24 year old white guy on the taller side at 6’4”. I’m also getting back into going to the gym, it’s been a long while but I’m taking control of my health again. Im also a pretty big nerd and homebody, really into movies and reading. You’ll definitely see me laid back with a book as opposed to on a hike. Another thing I’m into is podcasts but not the Joe Rogan or Andrew Tate kind though, more like history (worldly and nerdy) and D&D. I’ve got relatively simple tastes.
As far as what I’m looking for, mainly just friends. Like I said, uprooting and moving to a new place can get really lonely so just some people to talk to and message and maybe even call eventually would be great. Watching movies together in discord, just talking, chatting about what we’re reading or watching, that kinda stuff. Gender doesn’t really matter much to me, but I think age is a factor. I’m 24 so I’d prefer someone at least kinda close to me in age, 20 to 26. But if you’re just outside that range and we connect, I don’t mind one bit. I love deep conversations as well!
What do I offer? What do you stand to gain if we connect? You’ll get a loyal friend for starters. If we connect, I’ve got you. I’ll always be around to chat and talk, you can vent to me or talk about the best part of your day and I’ll hang on every word. You’ll also get a ton of pieces of trivia or random facts or stories depending on what’s rattling around my head lol. I’m also ADHD and currently learning more about my neurodivergence and how it’s impacting me, so there may be points where I’m quiet but I’ll always respond in a few hours. As proof that you read this, send an answer to this question along with an intro about yourself: Should movies be judged primarily as pieces of entertainment or pieces of art?
Thanks so much for reading of you came this far. If you want to connect and start a great friendship, send me a message. I’d prefer if we head over to discord since reddit is a bit buggy but we can make it work. You’re amazing!

I’ll admit he and I are both pretty old school when it comes to our ideals on music and how everything seems so sterile and tube amps are still our go to etc. We recorded our last 3 song ep at a really reputable studio in town last year using room mics on our amps and while I admit the recordings sound really good especially considering we only spent like $2500, it felt like something was missing.
Fast forward to this year and a good friend of mine started his own studio and I wanted to support and also wanted to get these new songs down so it was really great timing. He’s not slouch either, he’s been writing, recording and producing his own bands for almost 20 years and has gotten insanely talented at the production side so I was extremely confident in his ability to get us where we wanna go. We brought our setups and got the drums tracked and then the bass, which we recorded using his amp mic’d. Then I came and tracked a song on guitar thru my Orange th30 and my effects, as well as a DI so we could try some plugins as I’ve never done that.
Well sure enough, as good as my amp sounds, the plugins just sound better, flat out no comparison. The bassist wasn’t there when I tracked so he hasn’t heard the difference yet, but he was immediately completely dismissive of the whole project when I told him. He basically thinks it’s a cop out and that it’s not real because there’s “no air moving in your guitar parts”….
I don’t know how to feel, on the one hand I completely understand where he’s coming from because it’s not technically “our sound”, but I’m personally paying for this entire ep, and I want it to sound as good as it possibly can regardless of how we get there. Not exactly sure what I’m trying to get out of this post other than just a good vent, but also to see if anyone else has dealt with something similar? Idk, I’d rather get the sound I hear in my head than anything else I guess.

Hi please be kind in your words with me, I am already struggling mentally atm,
so the thing is I own a almost 9 month old mal, she is so sweet with everyone, so stubborn and hard to handle even when she completed obedience training, she still sometimes ignores commands, and that maybe normal for her age to be some times hard to handle and for her to not listen to me, and I still love her as she is my first dog, I love her more than anything and it make me so sad to write this, I am in tears writing this, the issue here is I was diagnosed with scoliosis years ago and I was living with it fine, but it been getting worse recently, plus chronic illness pain since I been spending a lot of time with my puppy, because I felt like it’s unfair she need to have fun, play and exercise as much as she can, that I forgot to rest, I was warned by my doctor to rest more often… which now lead to me having less play and exercise time with her, and the guilt is killing me, I now have 1-2 hours of exercise with her 1-2.5 km with her daily, and I feel like it is unfair, but also looking at how the weather changing it is getting 40°c and I can’t seem to exercise her at daylight time so I end up doing it at night, the rest of the day she either chill, nap, or we just sometimes cuddle and have walks in the yard, but I still feel guilty that I don’t give her enough attention and all, other then that she be barking at anything she hear or move, which make me anxious sometimes …. I think she will grow out of that, but will I grow out of feeling guilty for not fulfilling her need?
The thought of rehoming her make me scared that she will live with someone who won’t give her more then I do, and it also make me so depressed, I am literally going right and left thinking what I should do, and feel, while breaking in tears of the thought of not having her in my life again, since I had her from 2 months and now she been with me 7 months, what should I do, my mental health is badly declining, I don’t know what to feel anymore, should I feel guilty or am I doing enough?
Please be kind in words.

Super Earth wants dead bots. I want to make dead bots. I want to make A LOT of dead bots. I want to give my democraticly established, liberty loving, freedom defending, life in the name of making dead bots.
If I were to say, head down on a mission, with the heavy armor that gives a higher armor rating. The dome shield, manned heavy machine gun, quasar cannon, and energy shield backpack stratagems, with a vitality enhancement booster. Using the sickle and dagger weapons and calling in as many resupplies as possible for stim reserves. Could I fight till my last society-serving breath?
My fear is the mission would conclude itself when pelican-1 realizes the nature of my method. Drawing the mission to and unsatisfying conclusion as a single sparkplug may be left intact by cutting off my endless slaughter of socialists.
Is anyone aware of what happens when a helldiver tries to give all they have on the field of battle?

Hello, Reddit! The title pretty much says everything, but here are some details.
Born in Maryland and raised in Arizona all my life, but I’ve moved up to Utah for family reasons. Just moved in with some family to take care of some family business for a year and hopefully go back to the desert within the next two years.
Some more stuff about me! I’m a 24 year old white guy on the taller side at 6’4”. I’m also getting back into going to the gym, it’s been a long while but I’m taking control of my health again. Im also a pretty big nerd and homebody, really into movies and reading. You’ll definitely see me laid back with a book as opposed to on a hike. Another thing I’m into is podcasts but not the Joe Rogan or Andrew Tate kind though, more like history (worldly and nerdy) and D&D. I’ve got relatively simple tastes.
As far as what I’m looking for, mainly just friends. Like I said, uprooting and moving to a new place can get really lonely so just some people to talk to and message and maybe even call eventually would be great. Watching movies together in discord, just talking, chatting about what we’re reading or watching, that kinda stuff. Gender doesn’t really matter much to me, but I think age is a factor. I’m 24 so I’d prefer someone at least kinda close to me in age, 20 to 26. But if you’re just outside that range and we connect, I don’t mind one bit. I also love deep conversations as well.
What do I offer? What do you stand to gain if we connect? You’ll get a loyal friend for starters. If we connect, I’ve got you. I’ll always be around to chat and talk, you can vent to me or talk about the best part of your day and I’ll hang on every word. You’ll also get a ton of pieces of trivia or random facts or stories depending on what’s rattling around my head lol. I’m also ADHD and currently learning more about my neurodivergence and how it’s impacting me, so there may be points where I’m quiet but I’ll always respond in a few hours. To prove you read this whole thing send your answer to this question along with an intro about yourself: Should movies be judged as pieces of entertainment or art?
Thanks so much for reading of you came this far. If you want to connect and start a great friendship, send me a message. I’d prefer if we head over to discord since reddit is a bit buggy but we can make it work. You’re amazing!

Next time you bike somewhere, wear a helmet. For safety, you ask? NO.
Wear that shit into the store, restaurant, coffee shop, ice cream parlor, wherever the hell you just biked to.
This is a side topic of NJB most recent podcast. Often businesses assume their customers drove to their business far more than they actually do.
A great way to show that you did not drive but instead rode a bike is to have that helmet with you, on your head, under your arm, on the table, when you go in! While you’re at it go ahead and talk about how useful it would be to have a closer bike rack to the shop entrance, maybe mention how useful that new separated bike lane is, maybe that’s the only reason you felt comfortable biking to that business.

So I just got back from a 5 min doctors appointment where essentially nothing was checked and I was told I had fibromyalgia.
About 3 weeks ago I had what appeared to be a gastritis flair up , but also pain from lower back to side of ribs and even in the flank area. It feel like constipation cramps in my back flank area ngl. It was constant as well. After an urgent care visit they told me it wasn’t kidney stones and may have been anxiety.
Fast forward 3 weeks , the constipation like cramps have gone away and my stomach issues have gotten better. But now I’m having rib cage pain , chest pain and what feels like throat stiffness pain. I almost feel like my throats closing up constantly. I can breath fine and take deep breaths but my sternum feels sore and this winded feeling comes and goes. Definitely gets worse with anxiety and the pain at worse gets to a 5 and the lowest is like a 2. It’s mostly like dull achy, sometimes burning pain. Both side of my ribs constantly ache and also the pain is at the bottom rib on both sides. The pain tends to shift all over the place. Even on my upper back. Like yesterday sitting in my computer chair made my back hurt , it felt sore
My issue is I sat in the doctors office explained everything then he told me it could be fibromyalgia and prescribed me antidepressants that can help with the pain. This was all in the matter of 5 mins. Taking vitals took longer. I have really bad health anxiety and usually have a hard time believing doctors but this time idk just seem like it could be something else

Hello, Reddit! The title pretty much says everything, but here are some details.
Born in Maryland and raised in Arizona all my life, but I’ve moved up to Utah for family reasons. Just moved in with some family to take care of some family business for a year and hopefully go back to the desert within the next two years.
Some more stuff about me! I’m a 24 year old white guy on the taller side at 6’4”. I’m also getting back into going to the gym, it’s been a long while but I’m taking control of my health again. Im also a pretty big nerd and homebody, really into movies and reading. You’ll definitely see me laid back with a book as opposed to on a hike. Another thing I’m into is podcasts but not the Joe Rogan or Andrew Tate kind though, more like history (worldly and nerdy) and D&D. I’ve got relatively simple tastes.
As far as what I’m looking for, mainly just friends and new exciting relationships. Like I said, uprooting and moving to a new place can get really lonely so just some people to talk to and message and maybe even call eventually would be great. Watching movies together in discord, just talking, chatting about what we’re reading or watching, that kinda stuff. Gender doesn’t really matter much to me, but I think age is a factor. I’m 24 so I’d prefer someone at least kinda close to me in age, 20 to 26. But if you’re just outside that range and we connect, I don’t mind one bit. I also love deep conversations as well!
What do I offer? What do you stand to gain if we connect? You’ll get a loyal friend for starters. If we connect, I’ve got you. I’ll always be around to chat and talk, you can vent to me or talk about the best part of your day and I’ll hang on every word. You’ll also get a ton of pieces of trivia or random facts or stories depending on what’s rattling around my head lol. I’m also ADHD and currently learning more about my neurodivergence and how it’s impacting me, so there may be points where I’m quiet but I’ll always respond in a few hours. To prove you read this completely through, send your answer to this question along with an intro about yourself: Do you think movies should be judged as pieces of entertainment or art?
Thanks so much for reading of you came this far. If you want to connect and start a great friendship, send me a message. I’d prefer if we head over to discord since reddit is a bit buggy but we can make it work. You’re amazing!

Hello, Reddit! The title pretty much says everything, but here are some details.
Born in Maryland and raised in Arizona all my life, but I’ve moved up to Utah for family reasons. Just moved in with some family to take care of some family business for a year and hopefully go back to the desert within the next two years.
Some more stuff about me! I’m a 24 year old white guy on the taller side at 6’4”. I’m also getting back into going to the gym, it’s been a long while but I’m taking control of my health again. Im also a pretty big nerd and homebody, really into movies and reading. You’ll definitely see me laid back with a book as opposed to on a hike. Another thing I’m into is podcasts but not the Joe Rogan or Andrew Tate kind though, more like history (worldly and nerdy) and D&D. I’ve got relatively simple tastes.
As far as what I’m looking for, mainly just friends. Like I said, uprooting and moving to a new place can get really lonely so just some people to talk to and message and maybe even call eventually would be great. Watching movies together in discord, just talking, chatting about what we’re reading or watching, that kinda stuff. Gender doesn’t really matter much to me, but I think age is a factor. I’m 24 so I’d prefer someone at least kinda close to me in age, 20 to 26. But if you’re just outside that range and we connect, I don’t mind one bit. I love deep conversations as well!
What do I offer? What do you stand to gain if we connect? You’ll get a loyal friend for starters. If we connect, I’ve got you. I’ll always be around to chat and talk, you can vent to me or talk about the best part of your day and I’ll hang on every word. You’ll also get a ton of pieces of trivia or random facts or stories depending on what’s rattling around my head lol. I’m also ADHD and currently learning more about my neurodivergence and how it’s impacting me, so there may be points where I’m quiet but I’ll always respond in a few hours. As proof that you read this, send an answer to this question along with an intro about yourself: Should movies be judged primarily as pieces of entertainment or pieces of art?
Thanks so much for reading of you came this far. If you want to connect and start a great friendship, send me a message. I’d prefer if we head over to discord since reddit is a bit buggy but we can make it work. You’re amazing!

I've been without an ereader for many years, mostly using my iPad, mainly because I haven't found anything that satisfactorily could replace my sadly lost Kindle Voyage. I was sick of reading on LCD and OLED screens, so I decided to bite the bullet and get an ereader. At first I was looking at the 6"-7" models but the Scribe reviews turned my head. I've seen many people here and elsewhere say it's the best Kindle they've ever owned and that they've ditched note taking on their iPad or in physical notebooks after getting the Scribe. I journal daily, write for work, and do creative writing as a hobby so I just had to try the Scribe.
Well, sadly, I have to say I am majorly disappointed. The device is extremely well built and fit and finish is top notch, so that's not an issue. The stylus feels good in the hand. The screen looks gorgeous, and reading books with larger text without having to turn pages nearly as often is a godsend. A+ on all of those aspects.
Then the negatives popped up quickly. I do a lot of writing in notebooks with fountain pens and I don't care what anyone says, none of these devices come anywhere close to the tactile satisfaction of feeling the nib of a fountain pen on good paper and watching the ink appear on the page. So in that respect, the Scribe is no worse than any other digital writing device and better than several. But to me the iPad is still the gold standard of digital writing experiences. I like the Scribe stylus more than the Apple Pencil in the hand, but you can tell that Apple put an incredible amount of time and money making the writing experience on the iPad feel like the best in the world, and it is. The animations, the responsiveness, the ability to customize the output, how close each writing type looks to its analog counterpart, it's all unparalleled. The Scribe falls so short, it's not even close. The customization options feel paltry and the pencil for example looks like I'm writing with a Wooly Willy pad. I can excuse the lower responsiveness because it's an e-ink screen and the iPad has a 60-120hz LCD or OLED screen, but the overall experience of writing is several steps down.
Now, I would still consider taking those tradeoffs for the benefit of a no distractions device to write on, especially in conditions where pen and paper is not convenient. But this brings me to the biggest and most immediately deal breaking aspect of this device: I cannot find anything from Amazon about how notes and notebooks are secured, encrypted, and otherwise guaranteed to be seen only by me or people I chose to share access with. While Amazon is undeniably convenient, I do NOT trust them at all, and they don't address the security of notes at all that I can see. With Apple I can (and have) enable advanced protections on my account that end to end encrypts pretty much everything. So now I can't use the note taking aspect of the Scribe for work, or anything more personal than a shopping list. Couple this with the extreme limitation of what you can even do with notes as they don't sync to anything, you can't even write in the margins of 99% of ebooks, and the writing utility of the Scribe dwindles to virtually nothing for me.
So that leaves the Scribe's utility as a big ereader. Unfortunately this is heavy and while thin it's still a very big device. In the same way I can't as easily carry around and use my iPad the way I do my iPhone, the Scribe is not conducive to using in many of the places I would want to use an ereader, like in bed with my cat on my chest or, let's be blunt, on the toilet. The ever present expandable icon for adding sticky notes on ebooks is a perpetual distraction on a class of device that is all about eliminating distractions.
There are also baffling omissions in both the software and hardware. We've got the button on the stylus, and it can only be used to change between different modes. You'd think a perfect use for this would be to cycle between line thickness options, or choose the lasso selector, or undo with a single tap, redo with a double tap or long hold. There's a sticky note option for the button, an excellent idea, that appears to not work at all. The device has this big empty space on one side for holding the Scribe one handed and there's no hardware buttons for changing pages?? On a device this size, if you're already using that space to hold it one handed, it seems like a no brainer to put either full hardware buttons or touch inputs like the Voyage had where your hand already is to turn pages. Instead I now have to use my free hand to move a page forward.
I think the Scribe is a great idea, with great hardware, and middling to terrible execution. For the non-discounted price the Scribe goes for (thankfully I did not pay full price but I'll be returning nonetheless), plus the fact you have to pay extra for the good stylus, there is no excuse for such a poor user experience. And even if the user experience were A++, anyone privacy or security conscious still couldn't use the Scribe for any significant writing because Amazon has taken no steps to secure and protect our notes.

Looking to upgrade the rearview mirror to one that provides a full view of the backup camera. Current one only shows the view in a tiny window on the left side of the mirror.
Has anyone done this already? Was is compatible with the existing camera? What did you use?

Looked a bit and didnt see this idea posted so I thought Id share. What about contractor pilots? Need to exfil right away and all helis have just left base, call in a contractor! Price would depend on distance needed to travel. Helis come from off map close to your current location, take you to your next location. Squad mates could all chip in. Side idea, the pilot is someone you have to rescue from one of the air fields as a quest, then after that you can call them in.

I, (16M) am currently being raised by my stepfather. My mum died some time ago and I never knew my dad. My stepdad has raised me on his own since I was 11. I have stepsister, Holly, (19F). Holly is currently taking a gap year, since she didn't get into any of the 'good' colleges last year.
My mum married my stepdad when I was 6, and I called him dad since I was 8, which was around the same time Holly started hating. my. guts. I'm not kidding. My stepdad had to take my mum to hospital once, and left Holly to babysit. She LOCKED ME out of the house, in the rain. Paul, my stepdad grounded her for that and talked about why it was not okay to lock a 9 year old out in the rain.
Over the years Holly has progressively gotten worse, and I just try and stay out of her way. Meanwhile, Paul has been awesome. He takes me on bike rides, he taught me english (so any mistakes are on him) etc. I generally get good grades, I swim a lot, I do well in school, I don't stay out to late and I've never drunk, vaped or done any of the other stuff kids my age generally do.
Meanwhile, Holly acts out quite a bit. She just generally acts like spoilt brat, I'm not sure why. And has made more than her fair share of ableist comments on me. Paul, doesn't really show that he favours me, and tries to treat us both equally, but Holly makes it pretty damn difficult. She breaks stuff in the house, even Paul's glasses the other day.
Yesterday, Paul was out of the house, and I had the day off, cause I'm doing my GCSEs (study leave) and Holly decides to come outside my door, and begin her usual spiel on how no one loves me, my dad probably left because of me, bla bla bla usual stuff for Holly. But then she started talking about Paul and I was already stressed, she started talking about how he only keeps me around out of guilt because of my mum, and I wasn't his real kid etc and I was already stressed so I snapped, that he probably'd prefer if I was, and she wasn't. She started screaming about what an asshole I was, and couldn't I see that she was already insecure about that, and called Paul. I shut the door and continued with my work. I had a History exam this morning.
Paul came to my room last night and did that adult-thing, where yoou sit down on the edge of the bed and look down, all sad faced. He asked for my side of the story, which I told him and he said he'd talk to Holly. I just came back, and I'm hiding in my room until Paul comes home. I just need to know if ITA, for my conversation tonight.

Hi, I’m a first time Reddit user but I’m an avid watcher of the Charlotte Dobre channel. I wanted to write this out, potentially Risking people involved seeing it. It was a lot at first now it’s very comical.
It begins when my boyfriend (m22) and I (f22) found out we were pregnant and we were looking for a place to live. His mom found us a place with her aunt, so his great aunt. It was to help us save money in order to find a decent place for ourselves. My boyfriend was really busy with work and she was getting frustrated that he wasn’t responding to her in time so I took it upon myself to introduce myself and see if her and I could talk about details considering he was super busy. She was rude to begin with, but she’s an older lady. I brush it off and just stayed as respectful as I could. I was telling her what a great opportunity and that I appreciate her helping us out and I will get my boyfriend to try and reach out because she was adamant that she did not want to communicate with me about the process. Fast forward us moving in she gets out a lined piece of paper and writes out the most vague landlord-tenant contract. There were no specific rules or items that would protect us in this instant I’m about to talk about. It rubbed me the wrong way. My boyfriend signed it with out questions. Another red flag was she didn’t want me to sign it because she didn’t want to acknowledge that I was gonna live there too. First month goes by and we are $100 short on rent which she excuses after an apology however, she makes my boyfriend write a letter talking about how he’s going to do better to never be late on rent again as if he’s a high school child. I thought it was a bit extreme considering we’re adults, she’s not his mother and we paid her for the remainder of the rent we missed. But I let it go because we really needed this place. a month later, she gets mad at me for not having found a job yet even though we just moved a month ago and I’m pregnant and it’s hard to find jobs when you are visibly pregnant. I understand that they can’t deny you if you’re pregnant but that doesn’t mean they cant find a different excuse to not hire you. She is yelling at me and I decide I’ve had enough because of her being disrespectful and coming at me after not taking time to get to know me and throwing out a bunch of insults that don’t make sense. So I close my bedroom door to get away from her and she walks in opening the door and I told her that she had no right to do that. She said it was her place and I said I pay rent and I’ve lived here long enough that if I called the cops she would get in trouble so she apologized in a very Karen way then she goes off on how I was in foster care as a child and she knows “my people” have behavioral problems. A few months after that, I stopped talking to her, but she decides to tell us that our shower is leaking in to her garage which we are not allowed to be in. She starts hounding us about how could we not know that our shower is leaking. again we’re not allowed in the garage. We never saw leak. How do we know our showers leaking if the leak is underneath our shower and we’re not allowed in the garage. Also she wouldn’t give us a 24 hour notice before just walking into our apartment unannounced. She walked in on me in my underwear multiple times. She didn’t announce herself and just walked in. And because the shower was leaking she decided to take our shower head which is incredibly illegal and I tried telling my boyfriend that, but he was trying to keep the peace. I was livid because in the state that I live in, If you were going to request a tenant does not use their own shower. You have to provide a shower for them to use it while it’s getting fixed. Another time she bard he’s in to yell at us for leaving lint dust on the dryer. And another instance where she turned to water off without telling us in advance. I told my boyfriend to talk to her and she said she yelled up the stairs that it would be shut off even tho I was awake and never heard her do that. She told my boyfriend that she wanted to have a talk with me about how disrespectful I am, apparently she heard me talking to my mom about how rude she is and thought that I wasn’t allowed to do that. Even though I hadn’t said anything to her since our last argument after she talked about me being in foster care, which come to find out my boyfriend’s mom told her I was in foster care because she didn’t think it was a big deal but clearly Karen used it to her advantage. She was yelling at me talking about how disrespectful I am even though I had been quiet then when she asked me a question and I answered it, she flipped out saying I thought you were going to be quiet and I told her that I wasn’t gonna let her talk to me that way because I’m not her child and I’m an adult and she has no right to talk to me like that , she got angry that I wasn’t letting her talk to me like that so while I was seated in my chair seven months pregnant, she stood up and got in my face like she was about to strike me. My boyfriend stood between us and told her to sit down and I told her that we’re done with the conversation. she said that she wanted me off her property right now and she was going to call the police. I told her to go ahead that I had mail sent here and that I paid rent and she can’t kick me out without a 30 day notice. so she calls my boyfriends mom and says that she needs to come take me off of her property right now. I told her she can call whoever she wants, but nobody can forcibly take me off the property because I live there as a tenant and I had my rights regardless if my name was on the contract or not. finally my boyfriend to calm her down, agreed that we would leave in two weeks which enraged me because legally she needed to give us a 30 day notice. after the two weeks she willingly let me and my boyfriend live in our car while I was eight months pregnant. we moved out the day of my baby shower and his mother has a spare bedroom didn’t even offer to take us. We lived in our car for two weeks before my sister gave up her seven year-old daughters bedroom just so that I could have my baby in a safe environment. My boyfriend and I argued about the way he took their sides and how it made me feel. Eventually we came to an understanding and we’re doing a lot better now. I’m cordial with his mother even though I still don’t agree with what happened considering she on the day of the baby shower, decided to go to the beach with the woman that kicked her son and her daughter-in-law and future grandchild out instead of going to the baby shower. I do not talk to the aunt. She is an awful person. I do not wish ill on her but I would laugh if something bad happened. Call me morbid.

Hello! I have had transient paresthesia for over a year. It affects my left or my right entire side of the body below the neck. It's a numbness/tingling that takes over my right arm, hand, side, back, leg and foot and lasts about 60 seconds. Then later in the day it might do the same thing to my left side. Happens roughly five times per day. It comes when I go from sitting to standing, or standing to sitting, or walking, or turning over while sleeping. I have gone to a doctor and a chiropractor. The doctor thought it was a vitamin deficiency, so they did blood work and saw that my vitamin levels were fine. I took extra vitamins anyway and nothing changed. After a few months at the chiropractor I stopped going because nothing changed from going there either.
This started when I switched from a latex mattress to a hybrid memory foam mattress. That mattress gave me hip pain (side sleeper) so I switched to a pure memory foam mattress with a memory foam topper. I returned that one because I think the paresthesia is related to the mattress. I got a new latex mattress a few weeks ago but I am still experiencing the transient paresthesia, quite frequently. It happens often when I'm sleeping and turn from my back onto my side.
Would love to hear any ideas you have as to what may be causing this & any solutions.

Hello! I have the blue 1mg pen. However I've been click counting to do a .75 dose. Right now I have .25 left in my first pen. My question is, is it okay to dose .25 from my old pen and then .5 from a new pen? Would it be bad because the medicine is different ages? And if I do this, should I inject in the same area or two different sides of my stomach? Thank you so much! (Also I got a box of extra needles so would be using different ones.)

I met this cute girl at Bumble. We had a lot of things in common, yay! First 2 days of talking were good and exciting, i was convinced that finally I found my first big and real opportunity for dating. But i was wrong, again. At the third of talking she became cold and dry, hardly answering any of my texts or left me on read. I have to re-start the conversacion everytime and I'm starting to feel really annoyed. I know people are gonna tell me "oh, maybe she's bussy" or something, and yeah, it might be, but deep down I know it's a lie. Every girl has done the same to me. I'm not able to pass from the "talking phase" to the "first date phase". I feel absolutely terrible about myself. My mother always tells me that "i'm really attractive" or a "really good catch". Well, maybe she's lying too.
I don't know what the hell I'm doing wrong, I'm not learning anything from this and I'm almost at my middle 20's. I can't feel good or confident about failing time after time. I do everything my succesfull friends told me to do, but nothing works.
I train, i study, i have my hobbies and all that stuff. I should be more confident in myself but here I am losing it every time. I don't know, this should be fun but it's just another pain.

I don’t even know where to start on this. I have cptsd and I met someone with the cptsd a couple of months ago. While it is beautiful, that we can understand each other on such a deep level, it brings a lot of challenges with it. I am someone, who had very time consuming relationships in the past and got 24/7 emotional support from my ex partners at all time (with few exceptions). So the very opposite and one might argue that it isn’t always the healthiest either. Now, talking to him, I feel a very deep connection and I feel like he just finally for once in his life deserves a good person. Someone, who fucking cares about him and stays. I want to be this person for him, but he has a really tough position in life right now. And we are only able to talk online, which makes things even harder. He sometimes doesn’t talk to me for days. He usually apologizes for it in advance and tells me feels bad rn. This happens very frequently. As someone, who id very prone to being used and giving everything, I have a lot of abandonment issues. So this is always quite triggering for me as well. I am trying to find a way to show him that I am here, but he keeps pushing me away when he feels like that. I have experienced being more distant and cold myself, but not to the point where I would go no contact for days. I would just be very distant while talking. So it is hard for me to grasp what is actually going on in his head, especially not being able to see or hear anything from him.
Does anyone has any tips for me?
I am learning to tolerate the pain of him being distant better, but the current situation is not long term manageable for me. He does tell me how much he cares about me, when he does feel better. He cried before when I helped him and told me that he can’t comprehend how I am still here. He also told me that he is very serious about me. So I trust him that he is not using it as an excuse.

my friend and her boyfriend (26F/27M) have been on and off for more than a year now and also have serious money troubles (she makes none, he keeps saying he'll support her then doesn't) and responsibilities (two cats and a house they rent).
when they are on they are super on. and when they're off it's the end of the world. ive told both multiple times that I can only be a friendly space, but I won't pick sides. During this year they are also experimenting with polyamory and every time I hang out with this friend we spend hours talking about her stabs at online dating and leave without ever having discussed my life. So much so that I pointed out out in case she had not noticed it and she replied about checking this multiple times.
So January my friend finally decided she had had enough and packed up and left to go live by the beach for a few months to get her shit together.
Six months pass, I barely hear from her apart from a drunk text or two. She comes back, to stay for an indefinite amount of time with the same (ex?) boyfriend and promises to make a hundred plans to meet me.
When it's time for the first plan she almost flakes, then shows up and spends hours telling me about a man she fell in love with in two weeks. I never get to speak. For our second planof she messages me to come mediate a conversation between her and the ex. I asked first if it was a dangerous situation that needed to be escalated and she just said we are screaming and crying. After which I said I'm not comfortable getting involved. She immediately responded saying another friend is coming over.
Am I a bad friend? Or is this person crazy inconsiderate and actually overstepping many many lines?

I just watched Baby Reindeer which was a crazy experience for me. It was kind of like that episode of Black Mirror called Joan is Awful where I felt like someone ripped the thoughts and memories from my head and put them on a TV screen. I wrote down a whole page of things he'd said that I related to but one stuck out to me: that his biggest sticking point was not knowing what exactly had happened to him.
Now in my case it was a bit different. I wasn't drugged or dissociated, but I just didn't understand my anatomy. I thought he had just touched me, and there was no pain, but durong the exam afterwards they found an internal abrasion. I didn't know how it got there. I didn't know where things were located or how masturbation worked but I guess I figured I must have done it to myself and not remembered. But after the incident I wrote down everything that had happened to me and one of the things I'd written down was that he had digitally p*netrated me. Years later I don't know whether that actually happened or not. I would never tell anyone I was rooped, but I just want to know. I have been going over this incident in my head over and over again, 5 hours a day, for the past 15 years, hoping to remember and I never do. I feel like he took everything from me: trust, my career, and even the knowledge of when I lost my virginity.
Is this a common problem to have? How can I solve it? I don't think I can ask him. He denied the whole thing occurred.