We know near the end of Season of The Witch that there was a brief period that Eris became the most powerful Hive deity to ever live (Likely surpassing Oryx, and maybe even approaching The Witness in paracausal capabilities).
We know that she used that power to remove Xivu Arath from her Throne World, make her mortal, and severely weaken the goddess of war.
We know, after doing so Eris immediately expelled all that power from her body so that she may return to her usual, mortal form.
What we don't know is what became of all that godly power after Eris did so.
If we look back at the lore and narrative of Destiny, immense paracausal forces have a way of lingering on even if they diminish somewhat. This is true for the Light, Darkness, and all that is between....these reality-bending forces do not simply cease to be or immediately dissipate.
Because of this, I find it difficult to believe Eris's immense, concentrated power just ceased to exist or dissolved wholly back into the Ascendant Realm after she gave it up. I believe it is far more likely this tremendous reservoir of paracausal energy is abiding somewhere in the Sea Of Screams. It may be slowly be bleeding back into the realm itself without a host, but the overwhelming bulk of it still exists in a concentrated form...and if I am correct, that could be a big problem for the Vanguard Coalition.
That means beings with knowledge of the Ascendant Realm and/or Hive Magic could be eager and willing to ascend to new levels of godhood if the power is rediscovered. This is perhaps even more likely given the enormous power vacuum to follow (especially in The Final Shape if The Witness is truly vanquished once and for all.)
If I am correct, here is a list of likely suspects to try and harness that missing powers for themselves:

• Toland, The Shattered - Toland has been a begrudging ally and guide, but he chided the player guardians for slaying Oryx and not taking up his mantle. If I recall correctly, (though cannot find the passage at the time), Toland was very displeased that Eris gave up her Hive Godhood especially after reaching new heights atop the pantheon. This may have send Toland over the edge, who dedicated his life to understanding the supposed philosophy of the Hive and their masters. Watching said philosophy and his life/unlife's work be rebuked again and again may have decide to take the power Eris forsook to become what the player guardians and Eris should've been all along.
  
• Nokris - Nokris may seem wildly unlikely, afterall...didn't he meet his final end near the closing of Season Of Arrivals? The player's Ghost seems to think so but...I'm not so convinced. Much like Fikrul, Nokris has necromantic power that allowed himself to resurrect himself even after be killed by Guardians again and again. If it turns out the counterfeit Throne World of his aunt was Nokris's throne world and he finally became ascendant? Then I will concede that he likely met his final death. Yet that detail has remained rather nebulous (if there any who have evidence to the contrary, feel free to post). Beyond that, I think if Nokris laying low after that death, watching a waiting for his moment, and then taking the godly power rejected would be very narratively and thematically compelling for the character. He is the oft overlooked and weakest child of the Osmium Dynasty, neglected and used by far greater powers to be a means to an end. Yet he is surprisingly clever and determined, wanting to prove that he more than that. Nokris being a dark horse that becomes the strongest Hive God amongst a major power vacuum would be, atleast IMHO, and incredible twist. Think about it, despite his weakness, he managed to learn necromancy from Xol and Taking from Savathun and Quria. Absorbing Eris's relinquished godhood could turn Nokris into the Hive's version of Vecna from Forgotten Realms: A lich god.
  
• Yul, Eir, and/or Ur - These three are the last of the three "intact" Worm Gods...and little is known of their whereabouts or what they are up to. Yul did try to consume Xol at one point to absorb his sibling's power, but Xol escaped and later would become Whisper Of The Worm. Akka become the Dreadnought and his body remainds as such. Xita, the pantheon's mother and their "adoptive father"/subjugator Rhulk both seem to have met their end after the events of "Vow Of The Disciple". With Season Of The Deep we learned the Worm Gods were once Fundamental Leviathans warped by the dark whispers of The Witness who's First Disciple would later come to reclaim them. Who knows, maybe The Witness brought Yul, Eir, and/or Ur into the Pale Heart with it to bolster it's forces and help conquer the place. However, if it did not and the three are still at large after The Final Shape, they may seek to fill the power vacuum. They seek the power Eris gave up and either share it among themselves or infight to obtain it. Seeing the failure of The Witness, one or all three of the Worm Gods may decide to ascend to invoke their own version of The Final Shape using Eris's remnant power. If anything I hope we learn the fates of the remaining three Worm Gods.
  
• Savathun - Savathun could be the one to end up reclaiming the power for herself...and this may have been one of her many schemes/contingencies to increase her own power. Let's not forget, the whole reason Eris could become a Hive Goddess and even retain her human form is because Savathun setup a special ritual and parameters to make it so. Correct me if I am wrong, but the Witch Queen did not seem surprised when Eris killed her to absorb powetribute from her or that Eris gave up her power after. Terrifyingly, Savathun seems to have an extremely good read on Eris and her development. Would it surprise anyone if Savathun expected Eris to relinquish her godhood and that all the power ended up being stored away by Savathun for one of her many ends? Especially if a power vacuum presents itself, The Vanguard Coalition fails to defeat The Witness, OR the coalition does and decides The Witch Queen is too much of a threat to left alone. Remember, what makes Savathun so dangerous is that she very good at creating contingencies with contingencies from her billions of years of living. Even when you foil one, she has come up with another to either safeguard herself or turn things around in her.
  
• Xivu Arath - Finally there is the Goddess of War herself. She's been kicked out of her Throne World and I imagine because of that she isn't just mortal but also severely weakened (and her worm ravenous). Xivu may be looking not only to reclaim what was hers, but to do so with a terrible vengeance. Imagine if Xivu learns of that Eris gave up the power that exiled her and is now actively hunting it down to take for herself....now imagine how much more terrifying she'd be is she succeeded.
  

Comments, Critique, and Feedback welcomed as per usual.

I recently had an exchange with Redditor u/atremOx. I certainly saw the ox in his name. But it took me far too long to notice the reference to Omertà, the Sicilian Mafia's code of honor. (from Spanish hombredad, "manliness")
As a lifelong word nerd and amateur linguist, I hold myself to the standard of being able to notice the playful or clever use of language pretty quickly. In my mind, this category includes not only double entendres (especially involving acronyms) and words with a meaning in multiple languages, but also odd and unique-sounding names people choose for groups, usernames, companies, musical artists, etc., that are merely common English words and phrases spelled backwards. For some reason, I imagine that this is something that most English speakers notice and pick up on rather quickly. And so, when I don't notice it until somebody points it out, I feel foolish and slow-on-the-draw for not seeing it.
If I can't figure out what a person's username or organizational name is supposed to mean, I've gotten in the habit of immediately reading it backwards. I've found this to be low-yield. Not only does the word not mean anything spelled backwards, but this habit does not seem to have made me any quicker at noticing when this is the right way to find the origin of the name.
Does anyone else relate to me on this, or have any experiences to share? How prevalent is people using backwards spellings to create deliberately cryptic or unique proper names? It's really not that clever or hard to do, after all. Why should it be hard to notice or decode, then?

My previous attempt was removed, and I was told I could resubmit without violating rule 9. Took the feedback and reworked the query.
Dear [Agent],
Magically Never After is a fantasy novel complete at 80K words. The main protagonist is a person of color living in an agrarian, feudal society devastated by an apocalyptic event. This novel has series potential, and it will appeal to readers of Spinning Silver by Naomi Novik and The Magicians' Guild by Trudi Canavan.
Synopsis
The Final Battle fought in the west has ended, and as a result all the magic in the world is slowly fading away. Magic, a tool that was used to create enchantments and conjure powerful spells, is becoming a memory that is being fought over by magicians who are murdering, forming cults, and breaking oaths in an effort to restore their power. Valan Balaj, an up-and-coming junior minister of the Pallava Kingdom, is tasked to investigate and chronicle these changes as the far-flung eastern Pallavan kingdom is now starting to see a rise in cults and lawlessness. As a junior minister, Valan’s mission requires him to travel the world and decipher why magic is waning and how to stop the growing anarchy.
Valan, an individual with no magical ability, is torn about accepting the assignment. He is resentful that he must leave his work and family in order to help smug and snobbish wizards, but he also desires leaving his mundane life behind to explore the world. He takes on this task to help prevent the rise of occultism in his land and to finally experience the wonders of the wider world. He's joined by Selvi, a purveyor of magical artifacts, and her associate, Danfer. As they travel, Valan learns more regarding magic’s rigid hierarchy, superstition, and religious dogma. Valan also discovers his growing feelings towards Selvi as she teaches him about her magical culture and community. During their journey, his life is put in peril as his group becomes the target of mysterious mages. Fighting these mages reveal why they are being targeted as well as uncovering a plot orchestrated by wizards to restore all magic by sacrificing the lives of common non-magical individuals. Stopping this scheme will require the group to travel to the west and defeat their tormentors to reclaim their lives and safety. Valan no longer wants to be a pawn, and he actively fights to protect his world and prevent the return of magic.
[Bio]
Thank you for your time and consideration.

So I recently came out as trans and my one and only friend was super supportive of me, she’s trans herself and was extremely happy that I could talk to her about it, yet it started some weird dynamic between us and I think I’ve genuinely fucked the only real friendship I’ve ever had.
We were and still are platonic in every sense of the word, and I never once pictured myself having feelings for her in any way, but since coming out she’s been, somewhat more tender with me and just overall deeper emotionally.
This didn’t cause me to fall in love, I have a bad history with that feeling and I’m a bit numb to the touch due to some thing past trauma, and I have respect for her like I have for no other and I wouldn’t want to do anything to jeopardise our friendship…
However I subconsciously started acting in ways that didn’t seem platonic to her. I sort of attached myself to her like she was my only reason for being alive, I relied on her for everything, I made her feel guilty whenever she felt like she upset me because I would always go quiet trying to make sure I wasn’t annoying her.
In this way I just completely invalidated her feelings, she has gone through a lot herself, and whenever I felt like she was having a bad day I’d immediately assume blame, and I’d just keep interaction to a minimum, this undoubtedly made her feel much worse, and to top it all off I inadvertently made it all about me.
I just drained her mentally to the point where I made her feel like she was walking on thin ice whenever she was around me, I told her that I wasn’t her problem and that she shouldn’t worry about me, but I ended up becoming a massive problem for her.
To make things worse, prior to all this she would poke fun at me saying I was crushing on her, and I couldn’t even tell at the time if this was the truth or not, because I can’t differentiate my feelings of complete and utter loneliness and feelings of actual intimacy toward a person.
I obviously made it very hard for her to differentiate between which one I was truly feeling which created even more problems, because I went with it, it seemed like fun, something to distract myself with, but it turned out it was a huge mistake.
Soon after coming out I grew accustomed to talking higher pitched and in a much more feminine way, it was easy for me to do since I’ve done some voice training in the past, and she would compliment me for it.
She would tell me how nice my voice is, and I would feel special that she said these things to me, and this is where I would admittedly want more attention from her, I enjoyed being complimented by someone I looked up to, it made me feel warm inside and I wanted more.
So I continued, and at some point it got too far, I started to believe the lie that I was in love with her because it was just going so well for me, I mean why stop now? I had everything I wanted.
My best friend was giving me lots of attention and making me feel so happy, that I couldn’t see how much this was actually affecting her.
I let my own personal happiness blind me to walking all over her feelings, she felt responsible for me because of the way I was acting and she didn’t want this to happen, yet I didn’t listen to her.
I would affirm with her if it made her uncomfortable and she said it didn’t so I saw nothing wrong and continued, but I should have just stopped.
Time passed and she eventually cracks under all of this pressure from me and just straight up tells me that she’s done with me crushing on her and that it’s making her extremely uncomfortable.
Well fuck.
I fucked up, in the back of my head I told myself it was going to be okay because this was all just flirtatious fun, I was so utterly wrong. I felt truly gut wrenchingly sick when I saw those words, not because I was in love with her but the fact I pushed my friend to the edge like this.
I said my piece to her and she said she forgives me but I can’t help but feel like I’ve done irreversible damage to our relationship I told her she can consider the feelings mutual and we were staying platonic, it was never my true intention to be anything but.
In my own delusions I convinced myself that I needed her, and only her, and I can’t take back the things I said or did, and now I feel like I’m losing the one person in my life who made me feel normal.
It’s not her fault in any way, I clinged to her and selfishly made her take care of me without a single thought for how she felt. Even though it ended in her forgiving me, I cannot forgive myself, there’s a huge hole in my chest.
I want to talk to her I want to be around her just like it was before, now I can’t even do that, she right there but I can’t even muster up the courage to even talk to her anymore.
This just makes all the the shit I’m going through just feel magnified x10, I can’t concentrate on anything I can only think about how badly I messed up, I’m going to start taking meds again, hopefully it fixes me this time.
Tldr: I most likely ruined the only true friendship I’ve ever had.

BACKGROUND INFO: My BF and I have been together monogamously for 4.5 years - I have never slept or been with anyone else, though I've fooled around - and we have been struggling with arguments & aggression. We have sex like once a month, if that. We broke up this past summer but kept texting back and forth, and this past fall regrouped and tried to be in a relationship again. My BF is the best person I've ever met and I love him very much, but we didn't accomplish our goals when getting back together and the fighting became worse. We may separate again.
STORY: About 2 weeks ago my BF and I met this guy at a family friend event. He approached me first and we chatted, and then my BF came and we all chatted. I didn't initially find him attractive and thought he dressed similar to people that I felt rejected by growing up. Among other info, he told us he was in a long distance relationship (I sensed some pain there, since he said he preferred it being long distance ?) and we later learned it had been for 3 years. He invited us to hang out with 2 other guys after the event and we all had a really great time. I spent more time with the guy than my BF (my BF was very drunk and loves to meet new people and socialize) and I was constantly laughing. I didn't *actually* realize until the train ride home that I was feeling some pretty heavy attraction bs. I didn't think I was "that kind of person" in the sense that 1. I'd have these sort of feelings while in a relationship with someone I love and 2. about someone like this (see below)
I liked things about him that were different than my BF: he's taller, has darker and thicker hair (like me), he's older, didn't seem to take himself as seriously, he's American (like me), he really liked my hometown which caught me up, so to speak (my BF doesn't), has a different career, grew up with many siblings (my BF is an only child), smokes weed like a few times a year, similar religious upbringing to me, comfort-oriented, etc. His friends said he was a really good athlete back in the day - I have never been or dated an athlete, I was an art school / theater person. And I'm sure others would say he's conventionally attractive. He seems really "normal / jock," he works with houses / real estate (?) but I feel like an outcast and I've always liked outcasts. During the family friend event, he told me a story about him cutting his and his siblings hair and I genuinely laughed a lot. Shortly after he told the story, I was looking at his face and I was just thinking.. huh.
At one point when we were alone together after the event he reeeally unexpectedly to me started singing some song, I gawked a little and my heart did something small. He saw my expression and chuckled. My BF is not musical and cringes at others singing - I can't sing when I'm around him (and I grew up musical). I also really dislike when people you just meet ask you what music you listen to, but when he asked me what I like to listen to it didn't bother me at all.
He asked me to squeeze in next to him to make room at one point, and I declined and said my BF could sit on my lap instead because I at least knew that I thought he was attractive. And he was looking at me a few times when he probably thought I didn't notice. But at some point when we were alone and laughing, he put his hand right around my wrist and like touch my shoulder or something a couple times. He did some other quirky things, too ex: I tried to record a video of my BF on my phone and he jumped into it, which really wasn't necessary lol. His friend come up to the two of us trying to give advice about parenting and said "You know, when you guys have kids -" and the guy jokingly said "When [my name] and I have kids together?" and I tried not to laugh. Later near a bar he beckoned me over, we spoke and then looked at me to try to initiate a link-arm-drink with me and I did it but we were just looking at each other and I just felt like.. I don't know man. He highly complimented me on a skill I had and he'd been really supportive the whole time. He also admired how I could hang out with a bunch of (random) guys with my BF - like not needing to only do date-dates with my BF. He asked my BF and I if we wanted to hangout longer and I wanted to, but it was late and my BF and I ultimately thought it was easier to go back home instead. Then, while I was with my BF he only asked for my BF's number, which felt appropriate. We hugged formally, left and on the train ride home my BF fell asleep and feelings hit me like a brick.
ONE WEEK LATER: I'd been trying to process this and how I'd misjudged myself (I also listened to every single song in my library like hours of music and I hadn't done that in years) - I spoke to my boyfriend about having sexual feelings for this guy. My BF is trying to handle the information, so I have yet to tell him other parts yet ex: me experiencing continued fantasies of - if my BF wanted to - having sex with both of them, or my BF just allowing me to have sex with that guy. I intensely want to smoke weed with him (which I also haven't done in years) and have sex with him.
I feel guilty, but I keep "uncontrollably" picturing him when I'm hanging out with my boyfriend. I have an urge to ask this guy if he's in an open relationship and sleep with him before I leave the city - my BF and I are moving away, potentially to separate locations. But I really don't know if I'd gain anything life changing from it. (P.S. I never gave any indication that my BF and I were having issues.)
What do you think? + What is happening to me, and what do I do?
TLDR: My boyfriend and I have been having relationship issues and talk about breaking up. We have sex once a month if that. We met this guy one time at an event recently in a troubled (?) long distance relationship, and I think we both know we find each other attractive. I started having sexual feelings for him & fantasies that I've wanted to act on even though I love my boyfriend and still don't exactly want to leave him. I'm leaving the area soon I don't know what my next course of action is, what is happening to me, and if the feelings should be acted upon.
Thank you very much!

my problem is really long and complicated but i will try my best to say it in the best way.
i am an INFJ female and have been dating an INTP guy for 8 months and he is very smart, understanding and kind. The thing is, we always had gaps in our relationship, and there was some kind of things I couldn't understand or know about him. It was as if there was something off about him and it was very dark. He always found it difficult to open up to me. The only aspect he expressed to me was kind of from his past as a child and I could tell it was a very traumatic experience that it made me sick. And also the way he lacked or barely felt any sort of emotion. Thus, this thing was making him feel nauseous while around people or social activities, as if he never felt like himself. Being "real". It's as if he always feels like he needs to give people the feelings they need and want even when he doesn't feel the existence of those emotions. This is something some INTPs can struggle with as well and I know it's so stressful that in the end, you don't know why you're giving those feelings when you already know their points. However, you don't want to feel misunderstood. So either way, this is not a win for you and you have to do something about it. So I accepted him and always told myself that I would never make him feel what others did and I told myself that I would build an environment where he could always feel at peace and himself. Because he always wanted to feel peaceful. We were all the time supporting each other, feeling happy together and discussing random topics with each other. I really liked it all. He was very close to my heart and I will always love all of him no matter what. He had some insecurities and was always trying to hide them from me because as he would always say he didn't feel enough or didn't love them etc. I embraced him all in because what I truly loved was his soul and his heart and I couldn't care less about the way he looked. But the thing he was trying to show me something or let me say give me hints in this period of time. I couldn't understand what he wanted or meant, I thought he wanted me to understand him more or be with him more and I was willing to do that. But he always said he was a terrible person, he had done some awful things in his past and he couldn't forgive himself for it. I was trying to know what dose he meant by that? Is there something I don't know? When I asked him about that, he said yes, I don't know it. And he probably won't tell me about it forever. But to be more specific he kind of told me some about it. That he smoked at a very young age and that he hurt a lot of people and bullied them. And so, I analyzed that based on his past experience and the way people treated him so dirty, it was a very natural response of his mind to protect him. However, I still accept it all and loved him even more. cause no matter what nothing can changes what i have in my heart towards him. So let me get to the point I have always viewed him to be a melancholic person who always wore a mask to please people, who always wanted to find real meaning in this rotten life, who wanted to feel at least something. He was trying but he couldn't. Thus he was always superior to his emotions, which always caused discomfort and pain to his heart. He always told me that this life has no meaning and when you get to know its points you will see that everything is connected to our instincts and nothing more or less. I really agree with him on that. But it seemed like he had a lot to say but preferred to shut it down. And I bet the reason he didn't find me qualified enough to hear all those facts. Maybe he didn't want to bother me with those. Or maybe he doesn't see the point in telling me. I will not raise my assumptions. But he always told me he wanted to be left alone. that he is not interested in life/studies/relations. He just wants to be left in peace. And I really wanted to give him everything he wanted. If people were taking away what he wanted, I would be the one to give him all that. Even if it means sacrificing my happiness because the only happiness I find is within him So he told me there was one major thing he did in his past that it was way disturbing than the things he mentioned and he clarified that I'd hate him for it and I was already prepared. I was waiting patiently I was waiting happily. Because I was sure that I would not hate him and the idea of me proving it to him encouraged me more. I imagined the worst scenarios he could ever do. And I was like yeah. I'll still love him, it doesn't fuckin matter. but suddenly he changed his mind about telling me and choose to say it when its about to leave.
So.. two days later we had an argument. And at that time. He started saying a lot of things, he said he made a mistake and started saying that he had a side I didn't know about, that he was a liar and a manipulator, he told me he lied about everything and he was trying to hint me about them that he is a really awful person. He told me he was trying to feel something for me but he didn't. and he said there was just a little tiny thing towards me and it was confusing to him to understand why. but it didn't actually mean anything and maybe because he created it. He also told me he didn't want to be with me from the first place, he lied about everything he lied about the moments he spent with me, he lied when he thought I was beautiful, he lied when he said I was perfect. But he also told me that he didn't lie about some things. His name, his past, his people, his opinions. He told me he was in love with someone before me who was an INFJ and was and still in his class and still he said he didn't want to be with her either. He just wants to be left alone, but he would like to talk to her and find something repulsive about her, so he hates her because he was struggling with the feelings he had towards her and also to convince himself that she is not as perfect as he thought. He never spoke to her (but always observed her).
He also said that this is a big chance he is with me because he must want to forget her and maybe he used me for that reason he is not sure why he was with me in the first place but that may be the case. He said his mind didn't want anyone. He said he was born alone and wants to continue on his own. He also told me about the thing he did and if i could say It is worse than murder and theft.. He told me that he is a terrible person and I need to know the truth. He said that he wants to solve his problem with me by letting me know so that I can leave him and he continue on his path.
But something in me. still wants to be with him. I just don't understand myself. I know that it's not the best decision and I'm so ridiculous for that even when he told me the terrible thing he did. It's like I don't have any problem, I just want to stay with him and I'm not disgusted or even disappointed. To explain this, I must have no morals within me. cause what are we at the end? we are human beings. And most of the time we act according to our instincts, why do we have morals? Because we were born and programmed for them and why we have to cling to them? perhaps because we want the perfect image of ourselves and ego. and maybe because we want to protect ourselves from the society and play games. Everything in the end comes down to our instincts and ego, no matter what. This is something we can do nothing about except accepting the nature of our humanity. That's why I can't have morals. From anything even murder. theft. r3pe. They are just humans acting according to their instincts. he told me it's not the correct thing to stay with someone like that. he told me i am opening a door for him to manipulate me more. and i need to be careful yet i don't listen. i just want him and he seen that i am just hurting myself more and more.
It's very confusing how he manipulates? and for a period of 8 months.? I don't understand, there were so many times it felt real, how could this also be manipulation? HE Fuckin cried. I heard his feelings and pain. I felt it and saw it every time he vented to me, I could literally feel what he was feeling, how could that be manipulative.? The times we also laughed and teased each other and the times we fought. And his madness and anger are all lies.? For a long time, why? I don't understand, I hope I don't sound immature if this is the reality and I will accept it but how can this be true? I literally felt it. I felt it so bad. We have a lot of things and we shared a lot of things. He showed me his annoyance and sadness. Everything. He took care of me and pulled me up when I was about to break up with him and when he asked me a lot of questions about different things he literally was leaving his STUDIES to stay with me. he was loving to see me. I don't understand the only explanation I got for this was that he felt something but wasn't sure. Even he himself didn't know why he was still with me and why we were together. He couldn't understand his reasons and emotions clearly and I could see that. Maybe this made him think he was using me. Maybe, why not.
in the end he felt that i was hurting myself more and more and that made him feel it wasn't the good option for him to stay with me so instead of trying to let me hate him he started to want to delete each other. and i just fuckin can't it's like i am just contradicting myself. i swear i don't mind it i'd still love him even IF HE WAS A MOSNTER he just can't get it , he felt it was very illogical and stupid to love someone like this. and yet i still do i can't lie or suppress it. he told me he must lie again and he can't stay with me basically cause he doesn't love me or even hold emotions for anything. and he told me what is the point of me staying with you? and yes he's right. but i fuckin insisted on him and i told him to give me a chance and i will show him. he refused and said there is no point. i told him i will make him feel emotions again. he said okay. and he accepted this afford forcibly and i told him if he didn't feel anything than he can basically destroy my life and i am capable of all the consequences.
right now we are in a relationship and i could say it's very toxic and cold. but yet we still speak and discuss about some sort of things what i really need is that you guys hold no hate for him cause i forgave him. he literally had some bad experience with his past and it surly affected him mentally and physically. and not everybody perfect or capable of baring all that to became a good person. he done mistakes in his past and surly this thing affected his image so he started to see himself as the bad and awful person as always. even though he held something very sweet in him. but yet he can't understand it.
Give me your opinions and tell me whether he really manipulated me or whether the confusion and lack of understanding of some loophole led him to reach a conclusion where he used me, because even himself is not sure about it or what he is doing. Secondly, he must have a lot of hatred for himself, but he turns it into nothing. Because he told me about the disturbing thing he did in his past and yet this thing will make him feel like he no longer needs the attention to care and it is a hopeless situation for him to give it a chance. so he extinguished his feelings because there was a high probability that I hated what he did, so he protected himself mentally. He always thinks he is a bad person. Even if he swallowed the good and intended it in his heart. It will still always turn to be a bad action in his eyes. And all because the idea of wanting to be a good person is not clean in his mind. And it cannot be. He sees his past experience and compares it to the image he wants to be. But it can't. and since then. He will feel better when he accepts that fact he is a terrible person. more than the a good one cause it's less painful than trying to be something you don't feel like you'll fit in.

I’m in need of a personal computetablet and am leaning towards getting one of the newer iPads. I’m a graphic designer and create content for work on a MacBook Pro but want something for my personal use thats easy to carry around and travel with and I would use things like drawing and creating graphics, taking notes, organization and some video/picture editing. Is the iPad Air a good option for those uses or would I be better off going with the Pro?

I've tried changing my profile picture dozens of times and it never seems to properly display consistently. I've tried doing it on desktop and the mobile app. I've tried viewing my account on friend's phones, and while not logged in on mobile and desktop and it always just shows a default Snoo.
Also every page on desktop says "server error" and just is generally buggy. Also have an issue accessing my profile via desktop, brings me to a link that says the account doesn't exist. old.reddit.com works better for viewing pages, but obviously profile pictures are not shown.
I created a support ticket back in December but it is still unresolved.

General
Name: Rango
Epithet: The Cryptid King, The Jester
Age: 30
Height: 6'5
Race: Clownfish Fishman
Appearance: A clownfish Fishman. He posesses dark orange skin, with black hair and a beard. His hair is generally short. He has white rings around his neck, chest, wrists and ankles, as well as a similarly colored vertical marking on his left arm. This marking bears the appearance of a pointing arrow, pointing upwards towards his neck.
Rango wears a sea anemone on his head. It's name is "Noodle". This anemone grants the appearance of rango wearing a turban and long dreadlocks.
Personality: Rango is a Duplicitous man. To the people of 5 star Island, he is both an idiot and a prankster, always wearing a goofy smile and making light of himself. However, to his enemies, he is known as a cruel man. He is known to "prank", however these gags far more violent.
Skills: An engineer, Rango tends to invent and modify whatever he finds an interest in. He is also a skilled interrogist, and uses his engineering know-how as a means to gather information.
Occupation: Rango is in charge of the Security of an island called 5-star Island, largely serving as the sheriff and prison warden of this island.
Abilities
Fishman Karate: Rango is rather proficient at Fishman Karate, however he is in no way considered an expert.
Weapons/Equipment: Rango's favorite weapon is a harpoon spear, which he uses in leiu of a trident. He keeps this stored in a small sachel which has infinite storage space (More on this in the Devil Fruit sections)
He also posesses a revolver that he himself developed. Rather than firing bullets, however, it can fire any fluid with the force and power greater than that of a cannon. It posesses an improved iron sight for accuracy, as well as a longer barrel. Rango is known to have deadly accuracy with this weapon
Inherent Traits: As a clownfish fishman, Rango is naturally immune to the poisons of Anemone. He is also passively resistant to most other types of poisons, primarily those found in sea life. This resistance has allowed him to develop a symbiotic relationship with an Anemone he named "Noodle" (because it kinda looks like a bowl of ramen)
"Noodle": Noodle is a sentient anemone that sticks to Rango. While it cannot speak, it evidently communicates to Rango in some way. The Anemone seems to have a serious personality, being the voice of reason to Rango's erratic behavior, and actively chastising him when he "Misbehaves".
Interestingly, however, Noodles connection to Rango grants it a level of control over Rango's body. At times, especially when he is unconscious, Noodle will take over and take rango to safety. This symbiosis has proved especially useful when fleeing under water, as noodle will Drag rango away through a sea bed in a pinch.
Otherwise, Noodle almost exists as an extension of Rango, its tendrils being used as extra arms most of the time. Noodle emits an "Electrotoxin", which is to say that contact with the tendrils will both electricute and Paralyse a living target
Haki: Observation and limited armament.
Devil Fruit: The Up Up fruit
Rango has eaten the Up Up fruit, a devil fruit that allows him to enhance anything he wants. This is done by creating cyan Arrow-shaped beams. When an object is struck, an arrow pointing upward will be embedded on their body. The "Strength" of the upgrade is directly related to the length of the arrow.
Rango uses this fruit to enhance weaponry, as well as turn normally harmless items into weaponry. For example, he may Upgrade the sharpness and hardness of a toy sword, making it comparable to a high grade blade. Or he may upgrade an innocuous object like a playing card or Billiard Ball to turn them into deadly projectiles
A weakness of this ability is that an individual can only be upgraded once at a time. Further upgrades will require removing the original and replacing it. However, the scope and scale of an upgrade can encompass multiple aspects, so long as they have some relation. Further, Rango must choose what he upgrades. If he is not aware of something, he cannot upgrade it. This requires him to have a passing knowledge of whatever he is enhancing.
Releasing an upgrade will return the target to their original state
Techniques
All applications of upgrade involve Rango targeting and enhancing a certain aspect of a person, it Even the person as a whole.
Monster-Grade - A technique that is largely used on animals, although it can also be utilized on Zoan-type or humanoid beings. This enhancement amplifies the animalistic properties of a target, turning them into "Yuuma" (jp) or "Cryptids" (en)
Servant-Grade - This is technically not a separate upgrade, but instead an Inherent property of the technique. Any target upgraded by Rango can have their body or mind hijacked by him, forcing them into fulfilling his commands.
Rango has utilized this ability to enslave criminals on his island, forcing them into becoming servants as part of a luxury resort.
As a side effect of this control, individuals will have glowing purple eyes.
Devil-Grade - Rango enhances the devil fruit of a target. This will either enhance the element of a user in the case of element-type fruits, or provide an additional property for other such fruits. (Zoan upgrades will apply the Monster-Grade effect)
Health-Grade - An ability that is technically split into two. The first is Recovery Enhancement. This ability will grant an individual a passive ability to heal and mend wounds and injuries. This is rather slow, however, and will generally take a few hours to a day to complete depending on the injury. The second is Full Recovery, In which Rango will "Upgrade" a target to full health, regardless of injury or cause. However, because this change is a result of the upgrade, and not a side bonus as the other, once this upgrade is released, a target will return to their injured state. Generally speaking, this is only best in an emergency.
Stolen-Grade - An offshoot of "Servant-Grade", Rango uses his upgrade ability to hijack an object or weapon that traditionally cannot be used by individuals other than the original user.
Presently, Rango has used this ability to "Steal" a mirror owned by Brulee, granting him free access to her mirror dimension without her knowledge.
Castle-Grade - An upgrade that enhances the natural defense of a target
Hyper-Grade - An Upgrade that enhances the natural speed of a target
Ballistic-Grade - By upgrading a projectile attack, Rango can enhance it's power and force of impact. Largely speaking, he uses this mostly on bullets to grant the power of a cannon
Split-Grade - A technique that allows Rango to bypass the original limitation of his fruit. He will split the upgrade into two branches of a whole, allowing him to upgrade multiple related aspects, but at half the original efficacy. This results in the arrow on a target branching into two separate arrows.
Downgrade - an inversion of his ability done by upgrading his own fruit. This allows Rango to instead reduce or weaken aspects of a target, such as their durability or speed.
Equipment
Rango has a series of equipment that he has enhanced to have useful properties
Mirror Portal: A mirror stolen from Brulee. This allows Rango to acess his own section of the Mirror dimension. However, he can only enter an exit this section through this mirror, and does not have acess to any other nearby mirrors.
Infinite Sachel: A sachel enhanced to have storage space equivalent to that of a large crate. Rango uses this sachel to store his armory of weapons.
Trace-A-Rang: A boomerang that is enhanced to lock onto a target and strike them, and then afterward always return to the user. This makes for the perfect projectile weapon, although it isnt very strong damage-wise.
Boost Rations: Small packages of rations that are enhanced to provide increased vitality and health when eaten.
Perfect Gauntlet: A pair of gauntlets enhanced with the strongest defense enhancements possible. This makes these gauntlets nearly unbreakable.

So I've got a campaign that started back in like 2018. It ran pretty consistently for the better part of 4 years, with some player changes. Of the starting 3 players, 1 dropped out and then 2 other players joined , about 1.5 years after the campaign was running. About 2 years ago now, due to some issues in the friend group the 2 original players have since dropped out and gone no contact, leaving only the 2 players that joined mid campaign. Now this is a broad lvl 1-20campaign with an extensive history and world lore and all of the players stories were tied pretty deeply into the climax of the story. Esp the 2 original players who have since left. In the time since they've left, we've run a few sessions but far more sporadically. For me, both story wise and emotionally its been difficult to run a campaign in a world that was very much built for these friends and the stories of their fharacters that the world has evolved around...and continuing the story feels incomplete without the all the players. But the two players who are still here have deep emotional ties to their characters and it feels wrong to not let them see their stories through till the end. On the players side, both of the remaining players would very much like to see the campaign through to the end but have trouble with anxiety and are not decision makers who drive the story without help, and I haven't had much luck getting new players to join. (Partially because after the events with the friend group, said players are cautious to let anyone join that they don't know/are comfortable with yet). What do I do in this situation ? 1) I have approx 4 major plot points that would need to be wrapped up for the campaign to have a satisfying conclusion. I feel like bringing in new players would help greatly, as it'd bring some life into the game as a 2 player campaign has put alot of the engagement on me. However it's been hard to find players esp ones who would be willing to join a lvl 12 character group in what can only be described as the upcoming Sanderlanche of story. 2) I have long had plans for a new campaign set years later in the same world, and I was thinking that we could start this new campaign, and then the major events of the old campaign would be discovered in "playable flashbacks" where the player piece together how the finale of campaign "1" created the world they experience in campaign "2". I feel like this would help in that i can focus on the key events of campaign 1 without the pressure and emotions of the gaps from the lost players, and it adds an element of intrigue, but I'm afraid that it may affect the satisfaction of finishing the previous campaign if it's done as part of the new campaign. (I haven't brought up this idea with the players yet, but I wanted to get some opinions on other thoughts from others before we talk about it tonight/this weekend)

TL;DR: Just some tired, annoying, mentally ill, gamer dude trying to find a half decent connection. I'm not out to try and impress anyone, and never will be lol. Low effort introductions will be ignored, sorry! If you have a disdain for games, movies, banter, cars, or humor as a whole just pass me up. Also, if you're keen on one sided conversations or short term too
I'm attempting to find new friends or a relationship, if it happens. The people I have spoke to over the last several years of my life either became too busy or entirely different people. So, it's slowly just dwindled to null, meaning you'd get a fair bit of attention lmao. I miss having someone to talk and complain to everyday about whatever + that seemingly care, y'know? At this point I'd take having people to small talk with lmao
I will say it would probably be ideal if you could relate to the older online era. I mean, within the realm of peak CoD lobbies, Habbo, and similar. Idk, it seemed like back then people were more fun. Lol I've found they're usually less sensitive too
Honestly, I could care less if it's SFW, NSFW, or a mix when it comes to conversations. I'm relatively open minded in general, and don't take to getting offended easily either. The only things I ask are for you to be somewhat close to my age (20+), honest, and relatively blunt. I mean, bonus if you can relate to the tired feeling. Well, that or if you can tolerate it at the very least. I don't want to list an absurd amount about myself, because I feel that ruins actual back and forth to a degree, personally
About You: • Non-sensitive and can handle banter, jokes, and memes while also returning
• Somewhat available and able to reply in a decent amount of time / has some degree of conversational skill
• Has an ability to express interest or converse about hobbies that aren't your own (on average used to people just passing by half of what I say)
• You can be equally boring as myself or worse tbh, as long as there's back and forth. If you're some mass extrovert then I can live vicariously through you in contrast lmao
• It would be cool if you enjoyed sharing music. I'm always looking for new stuff for my playlist
• You enjoy movies
I will say none of these are requirements. They're extremely preferred though tbh
About Me: • I'm currently twenty-seven, and feel awful. Regardless, quarter life crisis is still persisting lol
• I have relatively awful internet. So, games take forever to update, think a day or two depending. Also, at some point I want a sim rig (not an over the top money pit one lmao)
• Tends to enjoy most forms of comedy, wether dark / offensive / dry etc + I agree with the stance of jokes being jokes
• Meme Archivarius and Aficionado
• I've officially been learning Norwegian for over a year now. Overall I just enjoy the idea of being bilingual in some capacity. Just a little bit each day, not in a rush lol
• Cold weather / temps wins over hot weather / temps every single time
• I have an absurd amount of hobbies; but, obviously frequent some more than others. So, the likelihood we at least share one in common is very high
• May as wells be a bottle of mental health issues, namely severe depression and general anxiety. So, if you struggle with mental health it's no issue. Honestly, would probably be nice if you can either relate or understand
• Sleeping is a struggle + my general sleep schedule is subpar
• Believes Elon Musk will end up creating catgirls, sooner or later
• Replies Quick
So, aside from all of that, feel free to ask me anything you'd like to know about me. I'm a relatively open book. If you actually read all of this then I apologize, homie. Hopefully this finds you well, my dudes. Feel free to send me a chat (´• `")ゝ

Summary

Slovak PM Robert Fico, a pro-Putin populist, has been shot multiple times while visiting small Slovakian town Handlová. Politico reported he was hit in the head and chest. Aktuality.sk reports he was shot once in the stomach and twice in the arm. A 71-year-old former security guard has been arrested. Fico was transported to a hospital in Banská Bystrica. There was a planned rally in Handlová to protest the controversial overhaul of Slovakia's radio and TV services. That rally has now been canceled by the organizers.
JPDU - Video from the scene right after Slovak PM Robert Fico was shot

Background

Why is all this relevant?
Slovakia used to be part of Czechoslovakia. Hitler occupied the Sudetenland region of Czechoslovakia in 1938 after France and the U.K. ceded control. After WWII, Czechoslovakia became a communist state under de facto Soviet tyranny via the Warsaw Pact. Four Warsaw Pact countries invaded Czechoslovakia in 1968 in response to the Prague Spring. In 1989, when the USSR started collapsing, the Velvet Revolution restored democracy. Czechoslovakia dissolved in 1992 into the Czech Republic and Slovakia. The capital of the Czech Republic is Prague (which I visited and regard as the most beautiful city I've ever seen) and the capital of Slovakia is Bratislava. Slovakia borders Ukraine directly and is geostrategically important.
Robert Fico is a highly controversial pro-Putin populist attempting to mimic Viktor Orbán's takeover and de-democratization of neighboring Hungary to the South. Quoting from a Politico article from March this year:

Fico is “trying to create a mafia state … where the primary goal is to keep the pyramid of power functioning,” Michal Vašečka, a political analyst at the Bratislava Policy Institute said.

And:

Explainer: Who is Robert Fico?
Robert Fico, Slovakia’s prime minister, was shot today in the town of Handlová, where he had been meeting supporters, and taken to hospital.
Born into a working-class family on 15 September 1964, Fico – a lawyer by profession – began his political career with the Communist party shortly before the 1989 Velvet Revolution that led to the breakup of former Czechoslovakia.
He set up his centre-left Smer-SD party in 1999 after being turned down for a ministerial post by the Democratic Left, the Communists’ political heirs.
Embroiled in allegations of corruption he has always denied, Fico is brash and outspoken, with a penchant for bodybuilding, football and fast cars.
Fico admires both Vladimir Putin, saying he would not permit the Russian president’s arrest under an international warrant if he came to Slovakia, and Hungary’s illiberal leader, Viktor Orbán, “who defends the interests of his country and his people”.
The Smer leader is also a tactician: in a three-decade career, he has navigated successfully between mainstream, pro-EU positions and a fiercely nationalist, anti-western rhetoric destined mainly for domestic consumption, proving more than willing to change tack depending on public opinion or political reality.

Source: The Guardian live thread
So far, this assassination attempt looks like a godsend for Russia and Vladimir Putin.

Recap

Here’s a recap of everything we know about the shooting so far:

• Slovakia’s prime minister Robert Fico was shot multiple times during a visit to the town of Handlova where he was seen greeting supporters moments before the attack.
• The 59-year-old Putin ally was rushed to a local hospital and has now been airlifted to Banská Bystrica hospital.
• He is in a life-threatening condition, with the next few hours said to be crucial.
• A man was detained at the scene and is in police custody.
• European leaders have condemned the attack, with Rishi Sunak saying: “Shocked to hear this awful news. All our thoughts are with Prime Minister Fico and his family.”
• The shooting comes just three weeks before the crucial European Union Parliament elections.

Source: The Guardian live thread
Updating as we go along.

Reports

Source	Title/Link	Timestamp (UTC) (Descending)
The Guardian - YouTube (unlisted)	Slovakian PM wheeled into hospital in Banská Bystrica after helicopter transfer	2024-05-15T15:22Z
HNOnline.sk	Assassination of Fico: The Prime Minister was shot in Handlova, he needs emergency surgery	2024-05-15T13:50Z
Politico	Slovak Prime Minister Robert Fico shot in head and chest, reports say	2024-05-15T13:31Z
The Guardian	Slovakia prime minister Robert Fico shot and injured	2024-05-15T13:25Z
BBC	Slovak PM Fico in hospital after being shot	2024-05-15T13:11Z
AP	Slovakia’s prime minister wounded in shooting	2024-05-15T13:07Z
Reuters	Slovak PM Fico shot and injured, TASR agency reports	2024-05-15T11:47Z

Live threads

Source	Title/Link	Latest
The Independent	Slovakia PM shooting latest: Putin ally Robert Fico taken to hospital after gunman attack	Slovakia’s PM rushed inside hospital after attempted assassination
The Guardian	Slovakia’s prime minister Robert Fico shot in abdomen and undergoing surgery – Europe live	The EU foreign policy chief, Josep Borrell, has said he is “shocked” by the news of the attack on Robert Fico.
Sky News	Slovakia Prime Minister shot - latest: Robert Fico suffers 'brutal' assassination attempt, says president; leader in hospital	Vladimir Putin has called the shooting a "monstrous" crime which has "no justification". In a telegram to outgoing Slovak President Zuzana Caputova, the Russian leader said: "I know Robert Fico as a courageous and strong-minded man. "I very much hope that these qualities will help him to survive this difficult situation."Mr Putin wished Mr Fico - who has been an ally of the Russian president - "a speedy and full recovery".

Previously on Robert Fico

• Politico - Slovakia’s Fico plots to dismantle the free press (2024-05-11)
• Politico - Slovakia, the EU’s next rule of law headache (2024-03-20)
• NOEL Reports - Prime Minister of Slovakia Robert Fico with an appalling video statement regarding the anniversary of the full scale war in Ukraine (2024-02-24)

Hi all! I'm new to n8n, I'm self hosting and have no issues with setup/authentication, but I kind of have no idea what I'm doing. Please help or point me to any guides which might help me to figure this out.
I'm trying to create an automation which fetches a monthly archive of chess game data from a public API endpoint set up by chess.com, parses it and enters it game by game into a database on Notion, triggered by a click, intended as a one-time import.
As an example of the API endpoint I'm working with, (apologies to Kamryn I'd just rather stay anonymous so using her games as the ex.), https://api.chess.com/pub/playesmalltowngoose/games/2024/05
The properties in my Notion database are Url, PGN and timeclass, which are also properties delivered by the API call, which is handy, and I'm happy for these to be copied word for word. I'd also like to snip and extract some information based on logical operators: for each game where the white>username is e.g.smalltowngoose, i'd like to display the white>result in an additional property in my Notion database named Result, and otherwise display the black>result. You can see what I'm getting at, if the username is my target username, I want to display the result for the colour of pieces they played the game with in a Result property. I also want to identify the Opening played via the PGN, remove the dashes between the words, and display that in an Opening property in Notion.
I'm also then trying to create a secondary automation which simply updates the target Notion database with any new entries added to the monthly archive API (reflecting further games played during the month), without affecting or duplicating the existing entries.
I've set up an HTTP request node which successfully fetches all the data here. But I can't seem to figure out how to use the HTML extraction node to get the data I need, parsed for game by game. I seem to only be able to drag extraction values for single games, rather than the value as applied to any and all games. If I can figure that out, then although I'm pretty sure I could set up my first automation which transfers the data, I don't know how to configure nodes to achieve my second automation.
Honestly help with any part of this would be helpful, I've been scouring the web for solutions and youtube but half of it goes over my head and the other half is useful information which I can't figure out how to apply.

Being the right age to be the target audience for Fear Street, Point Horror and Christopher Pike's never ending series of YA horror books I read my fair share of Pike's books back in the day and at the time I remember really not enjoying Pike as much as Stine or the other Point Horror authors like Caroline B. Cooney and Diane Hoh. I remember having conversations with my fellow YA horror readers at the time and I always had the impression that Pike was a little more serious and adult than some of the other authors and I just didn't "get" him. And I've always thought this in the back of my mind that maybe as a kid I just wasn't quite ready for Pike.
Flash forward to maybe 10 years ago, I got lucky in a thrift store and found a good pile of Point Horror and Fear Street books and along with a few Pike books, I purchased as many as I could afford at the time and included "Witch" by Pike as I have, in subsequent years, heard it was one of his better books.
Well I finally got around to reading "Witch" and whewwww now I remember why I'm not a fan of Pike.
The main character of the book, Julia, has some psychic powers, but is additionally absolutely drop dead gorgeous (to the point that everyone either falls in love with her immediately or thinks she's stuck up), with friends that just don't question her at all, even when she's on a revenge rampage. Not only is Julia your run of the mill Mary Sue cliche, but her dead mother is ALSO a Mary Sue, another beautiful hippie witch that everyone loved and apparently spoke entirely in prophetic super pithy things to say, which we get constantly treated to via various character's flashbacks, and implied psychic messages from beyond the grave. Combine this with a plot entirely based around very unlikely circumstances and it just made for such a long slog to get through.
I seem to recall this is a typical problem for Pike, his female characters are all so perfect and beautiful and completely without any sort of realistic motivations that it makes it impossible for me to care enough to keep on reading. I know I'm criticizing cheap 30 year old YA books here that were made to make money and not necessarily have any redeeming literary value, but at the same time Fear Street, similarly written en mass to make lots of money have plenty of really good entries that still hold up today (the First Evil series, 99 Fear Street, the Silent Night trilogy and other various entries are all stand outs for me), so its not just that I've outgrown 90s YA fiction. And yet, so many people here and in some of the vintage horror collector groups on facebook seem to unironically have great esteem for Pike.
So anyone out there like me who has tried and just can't get into him? Why do you think that is? I personally just don't think he's that great of a writer (again, two Mary Sues in a single book is just absurd to me) but since so many people really seem to genuinely enjoy him, I'm not sure what it is that I'm missing!

Yesterday, I decided to join into his broadcast group because I had some free time and was looking for some entertainment.😂 However, within just a few minutes, I noticed that brother deleted his account 🤡🤡
I couldn't help but think, "What the actual fk is this?"
You know sometimes, how regular people like us might remove their display pictures when feeling down just for attention. Similarly, among “wannabe celebraties” deleting their account or channel is to seek attention.
First, he deletes his broadcast group and then he creates a new one. And then, he deleted his entire account, only to reactivate a few hours later. It's like he's playing some sort of ridiculous game. This level of attention-seeking is just extreme.
If brother were a sister, he would definitely be labeled as a "pick me". Actually, scratch that, he's just a pick me guy in general. He embodies everything that a guy shouldn't be
GROSS!

I'm a complete newbie in the world of programming programming, but i wrote a python programm trying to animate an online scheduling algorithm for a school project.
the programm schedules incoming jobs either on the last processor or on a specific one in the middle.
in the animation part of the programm the new job appearing in color green is visually layered behind an already existing one instead of being added at the endpoint of the already existing one.
here is my code, can someone pls help me fix this issue:

import random import math import matplotlib.pyplot as plt import matplotlib.animation as animation def generate_jobs(num_jobs, max_duration): jobs = [] for i in range(num_jobs): arrival_time = i # Each job arrives exactly one time unit after the previous duration = random.randint(1, max_duration) jobs.append({'arrival_time': arrival_time, 'duration': duration}) return jobs def initialize_processors(num_processors): # Initialize each processor with a load of 0 and create a sorted list of processor indices u = math.floor(0.639 * num_processors) o = math.floor(2 * u - num_processors) processor_names = [f'Processor {i+1}' for i in range(num_processors)] return [0] * num_processors, processor_names, u, o def is_schedule_steep(processors, u, o): # Calculate the average load of processors from u+1 to m if u+1 < len(processors): # Check if u+1 is within the bounds average_load = sum(processors[u:]) / len(processors[u:]) else: average_load = 0 target_load = average_load * 2.1902 # Compare with the load of processor o if o < len(processors) and processors[o] >= target_load: return True return False def schedule_job(processors, processor_order, job, u, o, scheduled_jobs): # Determine if the schedule is steep or flat steep = is_schedule_steep(processors, u, o) if steep: # Schedule on the processor with the least load min_load_processor = processor_order[-1] else: # Calculate the average load of all processors including the new job total_load_with_job = [load + job['duration'] for load in processors] average_load = sum(total_load_with_job) / len(processors) threshold_load = average_load * 1.9201 # Check if adding this job to any processor exceeds the threshold exceeds_threshold = any(load > threshold_load for load in total_load_with_job) if exceeds_threshold: # If any processor exceeds the threshold, schedule on the processor with the least load min_load_processor = processor_order[-1] else: # If no processor exceeds the threshold, schedule on the processor with index u min_load_processor = u # note u is zero-indexed processors[min_load_processor] += job['duration'] processor_order.sort(key=lambda x: processors[x], reverse=True) scheduled_jobs.append((min_load_processor + 1, job['duration'])) # Store scheduled job and its duration return min_load_processor + 1 # Return adjusted index # Example usage: num_processors = 16 processors, processor_names, u, o = initialize_processors(num_processors) jobs = generate_jobs(60, 10) scheduled_jobs = [] fig, ax = plt.subplots() def animate(i): ax.clear() ax.set_ylim(0.5, num_processors + 0.5) # Adjust y-axis limits to accommodate processor names ax.set_xlim(0, max(processors) + 2) ax.set_xlabel('Processor Load') ax.set_ylabel('Processor') ax.set_yticks(range(1, num_processors + 1)) # Set y-ticks to correspond to each processor ax.set_yticklabels(processor_names[::-1]) # Set y-tick labels to reversed processor names for processor_index, load in enumerate(reversed(processors)): # Reverse order of processors for plotting ax.barh(processor_index + 1, load, color='blue') ax.text(load + 0.5, processor_index + 1, f'Total: {load}', va='center', ha='left') # Add total value behind the bar # Schedule next job if i < len(jobs): job = jobs[i] processor_index = schedule_job(processors, list(range(num_processors)), job, u, o, scheduled_jobs) # Draw bars for scheduled jobs for p, duration in scheduled_jobs: ax.barh(num_processors - p + 1, duration, left=0, color='green', alpha=0.5) ax.text(duration / 2, num_processors - p + 1, f'Job {i + 1}', ha='center', va='center') # Sort processors after scheduling each job processors.sort(reverse=True) # Print job scheduling information in the console decision_message = "Steep" if is_schedule_steep(processors, u, o) else "Flat" print(f"Job {i+1} assigned to {processor_names[processor_index-1]}. The schedule is {decision_message}.") print("Processor loads in order:") for p, load in zip(processor_names, processors): print(f"{p}: {load}") scheduled_jobs.clear() # Clear scheduled jobs list after each iteration # Function to toggle pause/resume with space key def on_space(event): if event.key == ' ': if ani.running: ani.event_source.stop() ani.running = False else: ani.event_source.start() ani.running = True ani = animation.FuncAnimation(fig, animate, frames=len(jobs) + 1, init_func=lambda: None, repeat=False, interval=1000) # 1000 milliseconds = 1 second delay between frames # Connect space key event handling function fig.canvas.mpl_connect('key_press_event', on_space) # Initialize animation state ani.running = True plt.show() 

I thought I had more time to put this together, but my son's 12th birthday party has been moved to this Sunday and I am creating a puzzle style scavenger hunt. We're hosting it at a park the kids know very well, nearly all the kids have grown up going to this park.
My theme is the Missing Football Mascot, that they are on the hunt for with clues to its location. The mascot is going to be a stuff sloth. He has velcro hands and feet, so I was even thinking the end game could be him hanging discreetly in some tree that the kids eventually find. I've named it Treetop Tilly!
Here's what I have so far, and could use an idea for creating a puzzles around these props/locations, and then I'll figure out how to tie them together. I'm also open to adding additional puzzles. I have access to a printer, so I can print stuff as needed.
PROPS

• 2 Big locks with multiple keys for both, a black light pen & lights, and an empty book with a 3-number code to get in.

LOCATIONS
-Playground Wood Train - the kids grew up climbing on this thing, they know it super well. It has a plaque that says "ML EXPRESS" The train is red, and the plaque is Yellow- Perhaps a puzzle that spells this out
-Small "Foresty" area with a super spiky log on the ground.
-The garden Shed - this park has a little storage area with birds and water cans painted on it. 4 Watercans and 4 birds (Looking for a puzzle that helps them locate this shed)
-The park has lots of benches with memory plaques on it. One says "A Friend To All" so I wanted to create a puzzle that requires them to check all the benches until they find this one.
-A Volleyball area that has sand. I was thinking of burying something in the sand.
-A lawn bowling area - it is fenced, and I could easily tuck an envelope in the fence somewhere.
-The labyrinth - A local church has this landscaped space, you can't really tell what it is until you look at it on a map, and i'm not even sure the kids have ever noticed it as its tucked away in the corner, but I thought it could be a really cool place of interest when shown on a map. https://www.abbotsfordanglican.ca/news/mill-lake-labyrinth
Any ideas for puzzles pointing to these locations would be so appreciated!! And then i'll figure out how I can tie them together.
Thank you!!!!

I (23F) have been dating 25M for 9 months now. I am so scared I am going to sabotage this relationship because of my insecurities. I am just comparing myself endlessly with his ex and his ex-FWB, and even random girls.
It’s almost like I want to make myself feel anxious and insecure. I used to frequently view his ex and ex-FWBs’ social media, basically just to compare myself to them, now I do it less and less to try to intentionally stop doing it, like the scale down method as you do with obsessions. Regardless, the stuff that I found still comes to bother my sometimes randomly in my head.
For example he has liked his ex-FWB posts on IG, not even recently, but whilst we were dating. All lightly dressed - bikinis, very small crop tops, etc - posted last summer (when we had been dating for 2-4 months) he had liked. Even back in October last year he liked a picture of her that was very provocative, her with an angle from above, tongue out, angle tilting down into her tanktop with her nipple piercings fully visible through her shirt. We had dated for 5 months at that point. The fact that he was liking provocative pictures of a woman he used to have sex with makes me uncomfortable, although he hasn’t liked any of the most recent pictures she has posted - I question if it’s because of the weather being colder and her putting on more, and I worry over just the hypothetical of him starting to like them again in the summer when she whips out the bikinis and minimal clothing.
I also looked at his ex's IG profile, who is on a completely other level, no provocative pictures, but very beautiful and very clever, she is getting a double PHD and winning multiple awards, and starting her own business and doing tons of charity work. It’s just this perfect person and then he moved on to….me….
Recently I’ve also come to the realization that in the group chat with his friends my boyfriend added me to, you can look back at messages from before you were a part of it. Not sure my boyfriend knows about this detail, since he's always been in it. Regardless, I've scrolled far back to see a lot of messages about his ex-FWB and his ex girlfriend there as well, that just contribute to my anxiety. It’s important to note that this was from before him and I were dating. So, it shouldn’t matter, but it’s destroying what’s left of my confidence seeing what he’s said. I know I am the problem.
I saw some messages about his ex-FWB, from my boyfriend bragging to the all-boys group chat about how his ex-FWB sent him nudes, sharing them with them (she had given him consent to do so) when she first started expressing interest before they got involved, saying how hot she was and that it was rare to find a girl as kinky as her. I know they did multiple things together in the bedroom, and it bothers me enormously knowing exactly what they did and even seeing some pictures of it that he took while they were having sex, and sharing them in the gc (again, with permission, he's not an asshole). We are into some BDSM stuff, and I know from comparison that he used the same equipment on me that he did to her, which just makes me feel dirty and terrible.
Every time we do something intimate of that nature I can't help but wonder if he's thinking about her, or if she is thinking that she was better in bed, was more attractive, was more confident and more seductive, etc... Given she has an extremely large sexual history and my boyfriend only just took my virginity, I just can't help but assume those things are true. I am way more timid in bed because of my insecurities, and it feels like he wishes I was more like her, he tries to guide me into being more of a dirty-talker but these thoughts stop me.
I also saw this message: “I asked *ex-fwb* if she wanted to fuck again but she’s ignoring me lol” coming from after 4 days of us meeting, 8 days after he sent a “Met a really cute girl today, I think she likes me” etc. message about me, and 8 days before we became girlfriend/boyfriend. This hurts me because well, we knew each other at that point, I would even say we had had our first date at that point, and he had previously, before I saw these messages, told me that having sex with her that one time just made him sure that sex as just a means to get off wasn’t for him, that it was the emotional intimacy that made it important to him in the first place, he said he didn’t even enjoy it, wasn’t even attracted to her body type, etc…. yet he wanted to do it again?
These past messages include him also gushing about his ex, at the time they were dating but also a while afterwards. Saying how he loves how extremely outgoing and sociable she is, intelligent, and that she can converse with pretty much anyone and find a topic. He is much the same. That made me extremely insecure, because I am the complete opposite of that. I am very quiet and subdued, I like to observe more than anything and talking to strangers makes me nervous.
Even talking to his family I struggle with because I am so shy, I am constantly wondering in my head if he wishes I was more like her, his family does, or just that I was her in general. This was also brought on from early suspicions I've had about him not being over her, because some things he's said, that's then made my anxiety spiral even worse (while we were dating in the beginning he'd go on rants about what went wrong in their relationship, how he could've fixed it, he at one point told me that she was the "right person, wrong time" which he has since reassured me about not meaning, but still, etc).
I looked at all those previous group chat messages out of curiosity at first not wanting or even thinking about finding anything about his exes to make me insecure, now it's become a weird obsession where I have saved screenshots of the stuff that he's said about these women in a folder on my phone, and I visit that folder a bit more frequent than I'd like to admit. I don't know why I do it, it's like I want to hurt my feelings and make me feel insecure. There's also positive stuff in there that I've seen and saved to my folder as well, about me, how beautiful I am and supportive of him, but it just gets a bit overshadowed.
I also get jealous of girls we see when out and about. He’s told me he’s very attracted to girls with pale skin, blue eyes and dark hair - which I have, but every time him and I are out and we spot another girl with those features - worst of all if I think of her to be more attractive than me - I get so down, I can shut down and go all mopey and even though I try to pretend I am okay he notices, gets nervous and asks what happened, he thinks I got some negatives news on my phone or something. It just absolutely sucks. I have all these thoughts in my head about how he probably wishes I looked more like her, he would’ve gone up and flirted with her if I wasn’t here, etc. He’s also said he thinks girls in chokers is very hot, in a sexual way, and I wonder every time we see one wearing one if he is having sexual thoughts about her.
Once he scrolled past a random girl on his IG explore page with me next to him and said “damn, she’s cute” and went to her profile, scrolled it for 5 seconds, clicked on some images, then exited. Then it’s like he remembered I was there and he said “Not as cute as you, of course” but it didn’t feel genuine. That made me feel like shit. It’s not like he does that a lot, he’s done that once this one time, but it still sticks with me.
I genuinely don’t find other guys attractive anymore, it doesn’t even register to me anymore if a man I’m looking at or talking to is attractive or not, it’s like I’ve turned that side of my thoughts off. Which is why it hurts me even more he hasn’t seemed to do that.
This is me being insecure. I am aware of that, fully. I want to fix it. I am in queue for therapy, but with my country's’ psychiatric care being what it is, I can’t expect it to happen anytime soon. My friend waited for 2 years, and that is around the predicted time for anyone who isn’t willing to go the private route - which I don’t have money to do. So I’m doing my best with what I can do. I really don’t want to destroy this relationship, truly, he could be the love of my life. I’ve never *seeked* a relationship for this reason, I knew I needed to work more on my confidence and self-worth in fear of me. But I met him very randomly and unexpected, and just fell straight in love with him, immediately clicked and everything, in a way I can’t recall ever having done before.
I haven't fully made him aware of the extent of my insecurities, but sometimes I'll bring stuff up, like "hey, do you think we're too different being introverted and extroverted respectively?" and he will go on to reassure me a ton. Every time I give into my thoughts and ask him questions or express concerns he always is so loving, supportive and reassuring that he loves me for how I am, he's called me more attractive, trustworthy, more compatible, etc, that any girl he had a relationship with before, so it's not as if he is trying to make me insecure or anything. This is all in my head, but unfortunately being aware of that doesn't make it easier to get it out.
TL;DR: I'm struggling with insecurities in my relationship with my boyfriend of 9 months. I find myself comparing myself to his exes and feeling inadequate. I've discovered past messages about his ex-FWB and ex-girlfriend that exacerbate my anxiety, before we were dating and I obsessively dwell on them. His past interactions about his ex-FWB, calling her hot to his friends, seeing nudes that he has sent him and pictures he took of her while they were having sex. (All this from a groupchat, I haven't gone through his phone, more info above) Also about his ex, about how he thinks she's so amazing for being sociable and outgoing and I am the completely opposite. I worry that he still harbors feelings for her and wishes I were more like her. I also feel jealous of other girls and constantly fear he finds them more attractive. I feel jealous and uncomfortable with the fact that he has liked his ex-FWB provocative IG pics last summer while we had been dating for 2-4 months and one in October that was very provocative. I worry he will start liking her pictures again this summer when she starts to wear less clothing again, despite them seemingly not having been in contact since she ghosted him. I'm aware of my insecurities and seeking therapy, but it's not readily available. My boyfriend is supportive, but I fear my insecurities may damage our relationship.

I (23F) have been dating 25M for 9 months now. I am so scared I am going to sabotage this relationship because of my insecurities. I am just comparing myself endlessly with his ex and his ex-FWB, and even random girls.
It’s almost like I want to make myself feel anxious and insecure. I used to frequently view his ex and ex-FWBs’ social media, basically just to compare myself to them, now I do it less and less to try to intentionally stop doing it, like the scale down method as you do with obsessions. Regardless, the stuff that I found still comes to bother my sometimes randomly in my head.
For example he has liked his ex-FWB posts on IG, not even recently, but whilst we were dating. All lightly dressed - bikinis, very small crop tops, etc - posted last summer (when we had been dating for 2-4 months) he had liked. Even back in October last year he liked a picture of her that was very provocative, her with an angle from above, tongue out, angle tilting down into her tanktop with her nipple piercings fully visible through her shirt. We had dated for 5 months at that point. The fact that he was liking provocative pictures of a woman he used to have sex with makes me uncomfortable, although he hasn’t liked any of the most recent pictures she has posted - I question if it’s because of the weather being colder and her putting on more, and I worry over just the hypothetical of him starting to like them again in the summer when she whips out the bikinis and minimal clothing.
I also looked at his ex's IG profile, who is on a completely other level, no provocative pictures, but very beautiful and very clever, she is getting a double PHD and winning multiple awards, and starting her own business and doing tons of charity work. It’s just this perfect person and then he moved on to….me….
Recently I’ve also come to the realization that in the group chat with his friends my boyfriend added me to, you can look back at messages from before you were a part of it. Not sure my boyfriend knows about this detail, since he's always been in it. Regardless, I've scrolled far back to see a lot of messages about his ex-FWB and his ex girlfriend there as well, that just contribute to my anxiety. It’s important to note that this was from before him and I were dating. So, it shouldn’t matter, but it’s destroying what’s left of my confidence seeing what he’s said. I know I am the problem.
I saw some messages about his ex-FWB, from my boyfriend bragging to the all-boys group chat about how his ex-FWB sent him nudes, sharing them with them (she had given him consent to do so) when she first started expressing interest before they got involved, saying how hot she was and that it was rare to find a girl as kinky as her. I know they did multiple things together in the bedroom, and it bothers me enormously knowing exactly what they did and even seeing some pictures of it that he took while they were having sex, and sharing them in the gc (again, with permission, he's not an asshole). We are into some BDSM stuff, and I know from comparison that he used the same equipment on me that he did to her, which just makes me feel dirty and terrible.
Every time we do something intimate of that nature I can't help but wonder if he's thinking about her, or if she is thinking that she was better in bed, was more attractive, was more confident and more seductive, etc... Given she has an extremely large sexual history and my boyfriend only just took my virginity, I just can't help but assume those things are true. I am way more timid in bed because of my insecurities, and it feels like he wishes I was more like her, he tries to guide me into being more of a dirty-talker but these thoughts stop me.
I also saw this message: “I asked *ex-fwb* if she wanted to fuck again but she’s ignoring me lol” coming from after 4 days of us meeting, 8 days after he sent a “Met a really cute girl today, I think she likes me” etc. message about me, and 8 days before we became girlfriend/boyfriend. This hurts me because well, we knew each other at that point, I would even say we had had our first date at that point, and he had previously, before I saw these messages, told me that having sex with her that one time just made him sure that sex as just a means to get off wasn’t for him, that it was the emotional intimacy that made it important to him in the first place, he said he didn’t even enjoy it, wasn’t even attracted to her body type, etc…. yet he wanted to do it again?
These past messages include him also gushing about his ex, at the time they were dating but also a while afterwards. Saying how he loves how extremely outgoing and sociable she is, intelligent, and that she can converse with pretty much anyone and find a topic. He is much the same. That made me extremely insecure, because I am the complete opposite of that. I am very quiet and subdued, I like to observe more than anything and talking to strangers makes me nervous.
Even talking to his family I struggle with because I am so shy, I am constantly wondering in my head if he wishes I was more like her, his family does, or just that I was her in general. This was also brought on from early suspicions I've had about him not being over her, because some things he's said, that's then made my anxiety spiral even worse (while we were dating in the beginning he'd go on rants about what went wrong in their relationship, how he could've fixed it, he at one point told me that she was the "right person, wrong time" which he has since reassured me about not meaning, but still, etc).
I looked at all those previous group chat messages out of curiosity at first not wanting or even thinking about finding anything about his exes to make me insecure, now it's become a weird obsession where I have saved screenshots of the stuff that he's said about these women in a folder on my phone, and I visit that folder a bit more frequent than I'd like to admit. I don't know why I do it, it's like I want to hurt my feelings and make me feel insecure. There's also positive stuff in there that I've seen and saved to my folder as well, about me, how beautiful I am and supportive of him, but it just gets a bit overshadowed.
I also get jealous of girls we see when out and about. He’s told me he’s very attracted to girls with pale skin, blue eyes and dark hair - which I have, but every time him and I are out and we spot another girl with those features - worst of all if I think of her to be more attractive than me - I get so down, I can shut down and go all mopey and even though I try to pretend I am okay he notices, gets nervous and asks what happened, he thinks I got some negatives news on my phone or something. It just absolutely sucks. I have all these thoughts in my head about how he probably wishes I looked more like her, he would’ve gone up and flirted with her if I wasn’t here, etc. He’s also said he thinks girls in chokers is very hot, in a sexual way, and I wonder every time we see one wearing one if he is having sexual thoughts about her.
Once he scrolled past a random girl on his IG explore page with me next to him and said “damn, she’s cute” and went to her profile, scrolled it for 5 seconds, clicked on some images, then exited. Then it’s like he remembered I was there and he said “Not as cute as you, of course” but it didn’t feel genuine. That made me feel like shit. It’s not like he does that a lot, he’s done that once this one time, but it still sticks with me.
I genuinely don’t find other guys attractive anymore, it doesn’t even register to me anymore if a man I’m looking at or talking to is attractive or not, it’s like I’ve turned that side of my thoughts off. Which is why it hurts me even more he hasn’t seemed to do that.
This is me being insecure. I am aware of that, fully. I want to fix it. I am in queue for therapy, but with my country's’ psychiatric care being what it is, I can’t expect it to happen anytime soon. My friend waited for 2 years, and that is around the predicted time for anyone who isn’t willing to go the private route - which I don’t have money to do. So I’m doing my best with what I can do. I really don’t want to destroy this relationship, truly, he could be the love of my life. I’ve never *seeked* a relationship for this reason, I knew I needed to work more on my confidence and self-worth in fear of me. But I met him very randomly and unexpected, and just fell straight in love with him, immediately clicked and everything, in a way I can’t recall ever having done before.
I haven't fully made him aware of the extent of my insecurities, but sometimes I'll bring stuff up, like "hey, do you think we're too different being introverted and extroverted respectively?" and he will go on to reassure me a ton. Every time I give into my thoughts and ask him questions or express concerns he always is so loving, supportive and reassuring that he loves me for how I am, he's called me more attractive, trustworthy, more compatible, etc, that any girl he had a relationship with before, so it's not as if he is trying to make me insecure or anything. This is all in my head, but unfortunately being aware of that doesn't make it easier to get it out.
TL;DR: I'm struggling with insecurities in my relationship with my boyfriend of 9 months. I find myself comparing myself to his exes and feeling inadequate. I've discovered past messages about his ex-FWB and ex-girlfriend that exacerbate my anxiety, before we were dating and I obsessively dwell on them. His past interactions about his ex-FWB, calling her hot to his friends, seeing nudes that he has sent him and pictures he took of her while they were having sex. (All this from a groupchat, I haven't gone through his phone, more info above) Also about his ex, about how he thinks she's so amazing for being sociable and outgoing and I am the completely opposite. I worry that he still harbors feelings for her and wishes I were more like her. I also feel jealous of other girls and constantly fear he finds them more attractive. I feel jealous and uncomfortable with the fact that he has liked his ex-FWB provocative IG pics last summer while we had been dating for 2-4 months and one in October that was very provocative. I worry he will start liking her pictures again this summer when she starts to wear less clothing again, despite them seemingly not having been in contact since she ghosted him. I'm aware of my insecurities and seeking therapy, but it's not readily available. My boyfriend is supportive, but I fear my insecurities may damage our relationship.

You'll never be what is in your heart Weep, little lion man You're not as brave as you were at the start Rate yourself and rake yourself Take all the courage you have left And waste it on fixing all the problems That you made in your own head But it was not your fault but mine And it was your heart on the line I really fucked it up this time Didn't I, my dear? Didn't I, my-
I failed my family. Not once not twice but over and over again. I’ve contemplated this for years. I’ve tried meds, I’ve tried therapy, I’ve tried excercise and recently I’ve tried to reach out to God. I’ve lost faith and the longer I stick around the more damage I do. My kids are starting to be older now and my actions affect them more now then when they were too young to know better. I don’t know how to change. I swear I try. I think about ways to be better every single day and when it comes to actually putting it into practice I crumble. Today my daughter had a tummy ache and didn’t want to go to school, I didn’t believe her and was so cold about it. My harshness put her into a panic and I just got more mad. I wasn’t there for her like a hood father would be. I told her to quit faking it and knock it the f off. I got so mad at her. I don’t blame her for distancing herself from me for the last year. I was a fun dad when all they needed from me was play but now that they need emotional support I don’t know how to be there for them. I am emotionally immature and I don’t think I have the capacity to reason or understand what anybody but myself is going through. I am a selfish piece of shit.
This is numerous incidents over the years and st this point I believe I am doing more damage to my kids by sticking around than if I was gone. Suicide/ accidental death has been on my mind ever since I can remember being conscious. It has always been a fantasy of being on the verge of death and having my family worry for me. It’s like I really want to know what my life means to them. How stupid does that sound? We’ll it’s the truth. The most selfish act a human can do. My wife was right. I am a selfish piece of shit. Maybe if I had a father of my own I would be a different person. I am a nobody. I was born with no name and no father. In my early years I would use this as motivation to create my own family and be everything I never had. I failed tremendously and I don’t see any other way out.