Hiya I'm 21F in a relationship with my boyfriend 24M, we've been dating for around a year and a half now. For a while now I've been suffering a lot from mental health of anxiety and depression, and it's progressively getting worse, I have reached out to my university and doctors for help but it's very slow with waitlists especially as I'm a student and can't go private.
I've been struggling a lot with what has happened to me in the past with childhood trauma branching to unwanted past relationships where I have been hurt and its started to chip down other aspects of my life more than it used to and I can't control it or fight negative comments out of my head anymore. And now it's started affecting my relationship for a while.
It's now started affecting my body image and how I see myself, I feel as if I'm fat/ sluggish and unattractive. I find getting dressed a chore because of all my clothes that i liked before I now hate on my body and even now its impacting my relationship because its "putting" me off having physical/ initiate relationship with my partner which he is struggling with too because he feels as if I don't love him, find him attractive and not the person I used to be. I just don't want him to always see my body especially if I'm not in a confident mood and it's starting to ruin our relationship, we're having more arguments and disagreements from it.
I've tried to explain what it feels like inside of my head and my body, but I never feel like I communicate it effectively, my boyfriend also has a quite different headset than I do which I am jealous of and that's just like saying to himself "he's not going to be/ feel this way today" or he just doesn't care and he's over it and it doesn't impact him. Whereas, I can't do that, I've tried, I've tried saying positive reinforcements to myself all the time but my heads negativity always wins and I'm tired of it. I want to be confident and love myself and I want to believe that even if I do feel this way about myself and see myself in this negative light, know that he doesnt see me like that.
Does anyone know of anyways I can help myself and potentially stop hurting my relationship from what they know or what they've gone through. I'm not used to ever opening up and talking about myself so I'm kinda screaming out for help here
TIA x

So I'm pretty sure my room is haunted. Not my whole house, just specifically my room. I'm the only one who has ever experienced anything out of the ordinary, so it seems like the ghost or entity in question is pretty choosy.
Now I don't really care that much about this, or rather I didn't. Ever since I was a kid I've been more of an "aghh, monsters!" than an "aghh, ghosts!" kinda guy. They just never really scared me, and I've been convinced of the haunted nature of my room for so many years now that it's literally just regular part of my life.
The events that have led me to believe this started right after we moved, I was about twelve at the time, and they've always been fairly tame. It started out as just a weird tapping. It has this weird almost musical rhythm to it that just made it seem a little too natural to be easily ignored. The first few times I heard this I was INCREDIBLY freaked out and I would turn on my bedside lamp as fast as possible and sit on my bed, scanning the room for any movement. I'd crawl to the edges of the bed to look all around my room and then, after steeling myself internally, quickly throw my head upside down to check under the bed. Always nothing.
But this would do pretty much nothing to make me feel better. The immediate fear of "there is something in my room" sort of transmuted into a more ambiguous "I don't understand what is happening". This would become an uncomfortable nagging feeling in my head as I would try to settle back down to sleep, and I always got the distinct impression that I was being toyed with. Like whatever was there enjoyed watching me go through this ritual every time.
This was further reinforced by the fact that the tapping NEVER occurs when the lights are on. Only when they're off, and really only in those first few minutes after you turn the lights off and before your eyes have a chance to adjust. The room just becomes pitch black darkness and every scary image you'd ever seen in your shirt life would burn itself into your eyes and appear wherever you looked in the black void. That is always when the noise would happen.
So I would hear the noise, do my room checking routine, eventually settle back in to bed, turn off the light.....and then repeat it all again. It scared me so much that more often than not in those early days I would end up sitting up on my bed with the light on and my back against the wall until eventually I would be so exhausted I would fall asleep.
But that got old, so I started trying to figure it once and for all. After I'd hear it I'd turn the light on, as before, but then I would turn it back off and wait with my hand on the switch. Once I heard it again I would turn the light back on. The longer I left the light off for, the louder and more intense the noise would become and I would hear it move around the room. It would start in different places all the time, but when it moved it would always make it's way to the end of my bed, on the side I always slept on, and then start to come up towards me. Eventually it would come up right next to my head, becoming almost ridiculously loud. I would always turn the light on then. I wasn't curious enough to see what wpuld happen.The instant the room was illuminated, the noise would stop. Every single time.
I also discovered that if I made noise, like talking or slamming my hand off the bed, it would stop. I found this comforting at first, like it was scared of me, or maybe just actually a rather polite ghost, but soon a thought formed in my mind, one that would crop back up whenever I would find myself being a little bit afraid of the noise again. "It's waiting until I'm asleep".
This was all very scary at the start but after a while had gone by and I hadn't been killed or possessed I just sort of got over it, and that's how it's been for years now. The noise sometimes happens, I usually just smack the bed or tell it to shut up, and that's that, no big deal. I believe that the room is haunted, but it really doesn't matter that much.
Until recently. There had actually been quite a long stretch where I hadn't heard the noise at all and it hadn't really left my mind, but I never actively thought about it. So when this started happening it struck me more than it had in a long while. My girlfriend was staying over, and she's one of those blessed people who falls asleep easily and is incredibly hard to wake up, so as per usual she fell asleep way before I did. This was all normal and I lay there for a while trying to fall asleep, until suddenly something changed.
A feeling of fear and unease seeped into me. The darkness around me went from being warm and comforting to cold and menacing. I found myself tensing up and focusing my eyes intently on different spots around the room. All of sudden the noise started again, but different than before. Before it had been quick and somewhat playful. Now it was much slower and undoubtedly sinister, like a war drum.
My eyes came to rest on one spot, as if something had been drawn them there, and then, the darkness coallesced into a moving shape. It was like water a droplet of water fall into a puddle in slow motion. It rose slowly, becoming thinner in the center the higher it went, until it stopped completely. I stared at in a confused state of fear for a moment before it filled into into the shape of person, long and gaunt.
From the darkness of it's face two eyes glowed slowly to life like those energy saving light bulbs. They were a blinding white, with a vague warm orange aura around their edges. It's gaze was fixed on me and never in my life had I felt such a primal terror. I felt as though I were caught in a Web, watching the spider creep towards me in slow motion.
I squeezed my eyes shut and pressed my head into my girlfriend's back. I was literally shaking with fear, but like I said, she's a heavy sleeper, so she didn't wake up and I was left quaking in the dark, expecting to feel a hand fall on me at any moment.
But it never did, and at some point I actually managed to fall asleep. I didn't mention anything the next day because I wanted to convince myself it was a dream, and I pretty much managed to pull that off. That is, until, the next night.
Much the same as the first night, I felt that uneasy feeling and, in the hopes of avoiding what had happened before, squeezed my eyes shut as hard as I could. I kept them shut for a long time, until eventually I decided that I should face my fears and look. Show myself that I was freaking myself out because of a dream I'd had. I saw the room as it was supposed to look, could just about make out the features of the space with my eyes adjusted to the dark, and I saw that the space where the thing had been the night before was empty. I relaxed for about a quarter of a second before the same strange motion began. The second I saw that I shut my eyes and I didn't open them until I eventually fell asleep.
The next night I didn't even attempt to face my fears. As soon as that feeling settled over me I closed my eyes for the rest of the night, which took all of my willpower.
And that brings me to today, when I'm writing this. I'm not sure what this thing is or what's going on. Is it even the same presence I've always suspected in my room? Is it something else? Perhaps someone else might know, and I'd almost be content with that. So far this thing hasn't actually DONE anything, maybe he's just a bit of a nosy guy. I really want to believe this, but I can't really bring myself to, and there's another problem.
My girlfriend is leaving today, and I'm terrified of what might happen when I go to sleep tonight. I want to just stay up, but I know I can't stay awake indefinitely. I need a solution, or at least some advice. If there's anyone that can offer something like that, please share it.
At this time of year where I live, the sun doesn't set until late, about 10 or 11. I still have a good few hours until then. I suppose I should try to enjoy it while I can.

Hiya I'm 21F in a relationship with my boyfriend 24M, we've been dating for around a year and a half now. For a while now I've been suffering a lot from mental health of anxiety and depression, and it's progressively getting worse, I have reached out to my university and doctors for help but it's very slow with waitlists especially as I'm a student and can't go private.
I've been struggling a lot with what has happened to me in the past with childhood trauma branching to unwanted past relationships where I have been hurt and its started to chip down other aspects of my life more than it used to and I can't control it or fight negative comments out of my head anymore. And now it's started affecting my relationship for a while.
It's now started affecting my body image and how I see myself, I feel as if I'm fat/ sluggish and unattractive. I find getting dressed a chore because of all my clothes that i liked before I now hate on my body and even now its impacting my relationship because its "putting" me off having physical/ initiate relationship with my partner which he is struggling with too because he feels as if I don't love him, find him attractive and not the person I used to be. I just don't want him to always see my body especially if I'm not in a confident mood and it's starting to ruin our relationship, we're having more arguments and disagreements from it.
I've tried to explain what it feels like inside of my head and my body, but I never feel like I communicate it effectively, my boyfriend also has a quite different headset than I do which I am jealous of and that's just like saying to himself "he's not going to be/ feel this way today" or he just doesn't care and he's over it and it doesn't impact him. Whereas, I can't do that, I've tried, I've tried saying positive reinforcements to myself all the time but my heads negativity always wins and I'm tired of it. I want to be confident and love myself and I want to believe that even if I do feel this way about myself and see myself in this negative light, know that he doesnt see me like that.
Does anyone know of anyways I can help myself and potentially stop hurting my relationship from what they know or what they've gone through. I'm not used to ever opening up and talking about myself so I'm kinda screaming out for help here
TIA x

I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar 2. It’s been bittersweet.
On one hand, I now understand some of my behaviors.
On the other hand, it is embarrassing, and I’ve made some disastrous decisions including financial and in my relationships.
I got extremely frustrated with my marriage. I left once last year, came back, then left again and was straight up about to divorce my husband. Paperwork started and filed, and everything.
Then I got my diagnosis, and started meds that I’ve been on for a few months. They’ve already made a huge difference. I am now more stable and clear headed, and more aware of the damage I’ve caused.
I feel like I’ve grown TF up.
I want to make it clear that I’m not using my mental illness as an excuse, but it is an explanation. Regardless, I want to take complete accountability of my actions.
After telling my husband this, he agreed to try work this out. I’m fortunate for that.
But he is, understandably, incredibly hurt and wary that this might happen again. We’ve been living separately and dating each other again, and will be starting marriage counseling in a week or so. We have a lot of work to do.
Mostly, I have a lot of work to do. Time will hopefully heal.
Has anyone gone through anything similar? What things have you done to repair a marriage that was in the verge of divorce?
Any feedback or advice is welcome.

I'm writing this with heavy heart. I was frustrated and looking for job 3 months in IT and have even completed hr round in three companies and didn't get the mail then. My rent was paid my friends already has lot of debt with him and my parents are pressuring me each and everyday to come home. I already got lot of help from my friends and their situations also not good. I'm staying in pg and haven't gone down and eat because owner is asking me daily 5 times for rent and he is threatening to kick me out for two days and I'm hiding from him. Please I'm begging you, please Can anyone help me to pay PG rent please ? I will return it as soon as possible. Please don't report me . I already asked lot of people and please I don't know where to go now and I have two interviews next week second round and third round. I can share mail with you. Please believe me I can provide all the details you want. I will return the money within one week. Please help me

So, my sister moved out to Utah to go to college. She ended up getting married and has three kids. Great kids. Good husband. The problem isn't distance. It's that she doesn't call my mother or return her phone calls very often. Like hardly. There has never been abuse or anything that would justify it. It's the same with me. I don't even really care about her calling me or want to call her. Her kids matter more to me than her. What's the problem: well, my mom is very depressed about it. And naturally. It's always "I'm busy" excuse...always gaslighting. She has time to be on social media and is all cozy with her family out there. I know being right there with them, you're going to have more contact with them, but little contact with your mother is unnatural. Here's how Mothers Day present went: sister sends my mom some picture frames for pictures of the kids. Doesn't send any pictures! "I have to go to Walmart," she told my mom. Like where you got the frames or you couldn't have just gone there if you're going to go through the trouble of sending frames for pics of grandchildren?
Well, my mom finally wrote her a letter. Gaslighting. Well, I'm trying to keep it brief. So my mom told her in a text message, after many BS reasons for not calling back, etc., she told my sister: "I'm done with you. Enjoy your life." Not quite disowned, but eight hours and she hadn't returned a text. Imagine your spouse says that. If you value your marriage, you're going to reply to that as soon as you see it.
Here comes the part where I think my sister needs to get serious, because if it did happen, she'll have blood on her hands. My mom says last night, "If it wasn't wrong, I would kill myself." So now, we're talking suicide...the level the doctors say is a cry for help...serious...SUICIDE.
I think I have to tell my sister. If this doesn't change things, I think...well. The problem is there has never been any signs of narcissism in my sister. I went through the DSM. Not one of the requirements met. I'm not going to call and tell her. Why? I don't want to have a gaslighting conversation with her, with excuses and all that. Text may seem the wrong way to go, but it just allows me to say it and then her to think. She might respond with a gaslight, but there's no game like in an actual conversation. It's basically, "Hey, I told you plain and simple, and if you don't understand that.....
Well, the suicide. It's serious. I mean, I can't just have the police come and take her to the hospital. There has to be an immediate threat for that, not just talk of it.
And one more thing. So my mom goes out there. She said my sister said they were going to do stuff. My mom said she just sat in the basement where the bedroom was on her phone. When she mentioned this to my sister, my sister said it was her fault for not coming up or something like that. My sister was watching re-runs of Grey's Anatomy. I think it is the HOST'S job to invite the guest to do things, not the guest's. I mean that seems the logic to me about that situation.
Well, my mom is removing her as power of attorney. She was going to split the house value when she dies. Now she's changing the will to where she doesn't get half. My mom says she gets nothing. She was never a beneficiary of the life insurance. My father died and the money I was supposed to get (he'd saved. It was 50k) went to her. He didn't know he was going to die prematurely. She and her husband needed some help with a downpayment. I mean it's only money, but that's why she's not on the life insurance. She got her cut, her husband makes pretty good money anyway....but power of attorney and half the house, gone. Which I think is just fine. Not because I want all of those financial benefits, but because it's just. She has a five bedroom house...you get the idea. Geez, you watch your father removed from life support....have to visit him in a coma and never talk to him again...you know you say stuff, but....now imagine you had to see your father comatose in a burn unit and then you have your mother kill herself.
It will be blood on her hands, and I don't know what I will do. I don't think she'll do it, but that she mentioned it, there's a problem. I'm just thinking of the right way to say it. Naturally, you want to be very angry. But, it's better to make it firm, but not too harsh.

Hi everyone,
I have 2 websites under my belt and for the first website in 2029 I used Avada theme which back then was fantastic and everything I needed.
Then for the 2nd website in 2023 ISH I also used Avada not knowing it has SERIOUSLY gone downhill since then with tons of bloat that is all a buggy mess.
Now I am planning a 3rd website for my service business and would live to try a better theme for that site to save me the headaches.
So, what I need from a perfect theme:
Essential:

1. One time fee. I'm willing to pay up, but not commit to yet another subscription .
2. Generally fast theme
3. All the core functions, ability to build service pages, quick set up of a blog page etc.

Desirable:

1. A nice web form capture solution. Sure I can use one of the plugins but it's nice to have the functionality included in theme. This is one aspect that Avada does have (buggy mess though but still).

So does anyone have any themes you had a good experience with that would fit the bill? What about OceanWP?
Any advice would be appreciated! Thanks!

Hey yall, my partner was pulled over a few weeks back for having expired tags & no insurance on the vehicle. We’ve since resolved this and submitted proof of tags/insurance in hopes that the charges could be dropped and he wouldn’t have to go into court but are having difficulty getting in contact with someone who can discuss this and assist. He has the number for the person handling his case but they haven’t called him back.
Has anyone run into this before and have any recommendations on next steps or who we need to reach out to to resolve this? We’re not sure if having a lawyer reach out to the case holder or justice hall etc would garner more successful results than us personally calling.. We’d really like to avoid at least the court date and subsequent court fees. Thanks in advance!

I first started getting insomnia in January, not sure what the trigger was but I randomly started waking up after 3/4/5 hours of sleep every night feeling alert but exhausted and not being able to go back to sleep all day. Before that I slept perfectly. Initially I ignored it for a few days but when it didn't go away I started obsessing over it trying literally everything to fix it. Once I exhausted all my options (melatonin, antihistamines, ashwagandha, vitamin D, magnesium, exercise til exhaustion, sunlight, changing diet, air purifiers, room temperature etc) I started panicking and stressing because I thought that I'd be stuck with this forever because there was nothing else to try. I also had a blood test which came back fine and I'm also booked in for a sleep apnoea test just in case to rule it out, but I doubt that I have sleep apnoea.
Since then I've gone from being at the lowest point in my life having panic attacks, being in a very strong fight or flight response in which I'd only be able to sleep a couple hours every night, to now consistently sleeping around 7 hours each night using Daniel Erichsen's methods, his "Set it and Forget it" book was very useful to me. But the thing is, I'm still not fully over it yet, since the hyperarousal is still lingering which causes me to wake up around 5 times usually after a dream every night. Each time I wake up I don't feel as drowsy as I used to before insomnia and I always feel like I'm not gonna be able to fall back asleep but somehow I always do pretty much straight away. When I wake up to my alarm, I feel alert pretty much instantly rather than having a lot of drowsiness and sleep inertia. I still get drowsy at bedtime but it's a bit muted. I also sometimes have the paradoxical insomnia where I often can't tell if I'm sleeping but time has fast forwarded.
So I'd say I'm getting a sufficient amount of sleep, but I'm not satisfied yet because the quality of it is obviously very bad and I'm waking up multiple times throughout the night. Also if I was to completely abandon my 7.5 hour rigid sleep window and just give up using alarms, my sleep would completely go off the rails again (it happened before when I got too carried away and I had to restart) and I'd end up sleeping a few hours here and there. Back before my insomnia when abandoning the use of alarms, I'd still sleep 8-9 hours a night but I'd usually mess my sleep pattern up.
So what's the plan for me now? Do I just continue doing exactly what I'm doing and hope for the best? I'm currently on around week 3 of getting around 7 hours a night (I stopped tracking and obsessing over it mostly, I just wanted to come here to see if anyone else has been in this stage and overcame it). I guess it's just a case of staying calm and patiently waiting for the hyperarousal to ever so slowly die down, right?

hey everyone this is prolly my first time on this sub and this is kind of a long post to explain everything clearly so bear w me pls. Context: I'm 18F and abt to join college this year in couple months' time. And the problem is that my parents have a very strained relationship and they have fights almost everyday over the smallest of things. and my dad is very ego-centric and conservative that he doesn't believe most of what we say even though he's clearly in the wrong. the fact is that my mom has done a lot for the family over the last 20 yrs as a housewife and also gone to my dad's office for accounting etc. yet received no love or care from anyone and was instead mentally harassed by my late grandma and my dad. The past few years have been very taxing on her mental health and bcoz of all this stress she got the health issue of high blood pressure as well. And the thing is that i have a very strong bond w my mom due to this. whenever my dad starts to pick a fight I go outside and take my mom to another room and ask her why she puts up with all this but when she is w me she brushes it off saying that he doesn't understand many things etc. i have never yet asked her abt divorce and all (frankly i would be glad if she chose that option seeing how mentally taxing it is on her) but it is quite clear that she is not going to go down that route as if she has sorta given up on her fate like these were the cards dealt to her.
now whenever the topic of me going to college comes up she always asks me ___(my name) what will i do w/o you etc. sometimes this was in jest but other times it felt that she was pretty helpless from the inside (she says this bcoz whenever my dad says anything really bad or unreasonable to her i'm always the one sticking up for her and talking back to my dad). One time i reminded her of the fact (jokingly) that i would be gone within the next 6 months and she legit started weeping bcoz the reality hit her hard and it was very hard for me to see. I can't imagine what she would feel once i finally leave after few months.
My family is financially quite sound as well but my dad is still extremely miserly in his ways and has a very bad attitude regarding even the essential expenses.
Many other instances which would make the post too long have come up as well where she has shown that due to my father's despicable personality her mental health would worsen even more when i am not around. Another fear i have is that when i'm gone and if they get into a huge fight then my dad might hit her ( he has a history of doing that when i was very young but it stopped bcoz my mom wouldnt really tolerate it and even i would fight back). i feel very enraged when he treats her really badly almost like i want to k*ll him sometimes bcoz of what she has gone thru all these years due to few other aspects of his nature so i cant imagine what the thought of him hitting my mom again would be like. I dont know how to deal with all this bcoz i'd be gone for college for 4 years and after that would be working outside my state as well (unless i opt for remote work).
If there is anything that I should or can do then pls help out a friend. I don't think there are any big substantial steps that can be taken except for the fact that she stay outside the house for most part of the day and start earning on her own as well to have some financial freedom ( both of these things she already plans to do)

I’ve (23M) been on 4 dates with a girl (23F). They’ve gone well, we like each other (from what I can tell). We are both looking for something along the lines of a summer fling since we are both moving to different cities come august. The issue is she’s a terrible planner and is somewhat flaky, and she told me this upfront on our first date.
For our fourth date, I had initially asked her if she wanted to do something Sunday; she said she was too tired, but maybe Monday. I texted her Monday, she said she can’t, but said tomorrow (tuesday) or another night this week. This bothered me so I told her I was leaving the ball in her court and told her to text me when she had some time. She responded to me immediately and said “let’s do something tomorrow, we can get sushi and some wine”. We agreed on 7ish Tuesday night for this.
Come Tuesday at 7, she’s not ready, and says she has a headache. At this point I’m totally ready for her to flake and I was ready to end things, but she ended up making her way to my apartment by 7:45. I told her straight up that telling someone you don’t feel well before a date is kind of rude and makes me feel like I’m forcing her to be here; she told me I was reading too much into it and that she wouldn’t come to see me if she didn’t want to. We had a nice night, drank some wine, had sex (for the first time) and hung out for a few hours, she went home around 11:30.
Before she left, I told her that I didn’t want to keep initiating dates because it makes me second guess myself and if she actually wants to see me. She protested this heavily by saying that she’s genuinely very bad at reaching out to initiate plans, because it’s an insecurity; not only with guys she likes but platonic friendships as well. I essentially told her I can sympathize with that but after 4 dates I expect some level of effort to initiate dates to be put in on both sides. We talked about it for a bit and when she left she said something like “I am going to ask you to hang out, but give me some time and try not to overthink it too much”. She had told me she was going to text me about possibly doing something over the weekend.
Since then I haven’t really heard from her. My question is: since she was very clear and upfront about not being good at initiating dates… is that an excuse? Should I continue to reach out first? In principle I would say no, and let her reach out to me, because if she wanted to she would, but she was very clear in saying that she’s not good at doing that and would prefer I reach out to initiate. At this point I would like to continue seeing her but I also don’t want to feel like a fool by going back on my word. To complicate things, we just had sex for the first time and I do not want her to feel like I am pulling back just because we had sex. I’m definitely going to give her a few days to reach out, but if the weekend comes and I haven’t heard anything, should I just end it? Or ask her to do something? I would appreciate any advice from people who also have a hard time initiating plans in the early stages because of insecurity.

Hello, just wondering if anyone can give me some advice.
I was doing okay financially last year, but I gave most of my money to my mom to help her out as she was going through some unfortunate things. I have a part time job where i’m working 20hweek and I earn $~1200 a month. I know it’s not much but jobs are hard to find in my city and these are the most hours I can get currently. I’d love a second job but it’s just not happening right now.
After my rent and groceries I have roughly $300 left each month if i’m living very frugal. My problem is credit card debt ($1200) and my student line of credit ($7000 owed).
I’ve cancelled all monthly subscriptions aside from my student spotify account and my gym membership. I buy cheap food and nearly starve myself each month to try and save. I only pay for my car and its insurance which is ($300 for car payment + insurance), plus rent ($500) and food ($150-$200 if i’m lucky).
My student line of credit has a lot lower interest rate than my credit card, so occasionally I pay my credit card off in full by using my line of credit… Should I be doing this? This is how the $7000 racked up, I basically lived off of it for about 6 months.
With the amount I have left over each month (~$300) would it be wise to put that full amount towards my credit card or line of credit? Or is it better to keep it in savings and pay only a bit of my credit card each month? I’m a bit worried that my credit score won’t recover before i’m done university, it’s not too horrible but it’s definitely gone down a lot this year.
Sorry if this is stupid or the wrong place to ask, but my family isn’t the smartest financially so I can’t ask anyone I know. I’d greatly appreciate any advice!

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Breaking News tonight from the Apollo 11 memorial landing site, as Admiral Adam Vir and Captains Warren Richards and Mary Chavez were rescued from the Pacific Ocean, following a journey that was supposed to be historical, turned harrowing. Amy Grey comes to us this morning with the story.
Thank you Julie, it was only a week ago here on the historic Cape Canaveral launch site, that the reconstructed Saturn V rocket was launched by the UNSC International Space and Aeronautics Division on the two thousand and fifty first anniversary of the original Apollo 11 mission. On board The reconstructed rocket were astronauts Fleet Admiral Adam Vir, head of the UNSC deep space exploration division, Captain Warren Richards five year veteran and historical aeronautics expert, and Mary Chavez, six year shuttle pilot veteran, and communications specialist.
The reconstructed Saturn V rocket took off thirty minutes behind schedule at 10:03 GMT July 16 after delays attributed to engineering standbys. However, reports by UNSC investigation early this morning indicate that the delays were called for by engineering head Jade Clein who noticed something strange during her final checks of the Saturn V recreated rocket.
In an interview early today, flight director, Aaliyah Seif of the Apollo re-creation mission informed outlets that there was evidence of attempted tampering on the hull of the Saturn V rocket. The tampering case in the shape of these small silver tape strips covering loosened bolts along one of the Saturn V side panels. Engineers stated that the tape was not heat resistant and would have burned off in time to rattle the bolts loose and, likely, cause a devastating spin that would destroy the rocket.
While this attempted tampering was thwarted, the mission would only become more dire. A sudden and shocking report by Mericanda News 5 showed an uncut image of an unknown alien hybrid woman claiming that the UN President had ordered the attempted assassination of Admiral Vir, in conjunction with an audio recording by Admiral Colter Massie, Head of the Galactic intelligence division and known isolationist, that admitted to the attempted assassination of Admiral Vir, and the acquisition of twenty Thunderhawk’s, which were used to harry the Saturn V on its way to the moon. Admiral Kelly, longtime friend of Admiral Vir, corroborated the story, saying she caught General Massie just after he ordered the deployment of the twenty Thunderhawk’s. During their conversion, he attempted to kill her, before being detained by two members of Admiral Vir's crew, and was later seen being escorted into custody by Military Police.
Indeed, footage has been captured from the hull of the Saturn V, showing approximately twenty Thunderhawk’s attempting to destroy the rocket while Rundi remote piloted drones and an unknown group of what appear to be racing jets, fought back to delay the attack, while word was sent to the UNSC to deploy F-90 Darkfire pilots to assist. This all after communications between Houston and the rocket were sabotaged shortly after leaving orbit. The F-90 Darkfire pilots were able to arrive on time to rescue the rocket, though a hole was reportedly torn in the hull, sucking Admiral Vir out into space. Luckily, he was later recovered and returned to his ship without any injuries. Patch teams were then able to repair the torn hull and the astronauts completed their mission landing to crowds on the moon and returning to earth on time, landing in the Pacific Ocean only nine miles away from the waiting ship.
All three astronauts were recovered and are reported to be in good health.
The investigation into the UN president's involvement is still ongoing at this time, however preliminary reports from the Global Bureau of Investigation suggest evidence is both staggering and damning to the current UN president, who earlier today, attempted to cut all ties to the sabotage efforts, saying she was framed. Political experts report that, even assuming her innocence, she will likely not last to the end of her term.
International News Network was able to interview Admiral Vir shortly after his landing while still on board the rescuing ship UNSS Victory.
Here is what the Admiral had to say:
"I find it... Really very disheartening that someone we all trusted, and someone that we all should have looked up to could do something like this. It really is a heinous demonstration of what political corruption can lead people to do."
"And how do you feel, personally about all of this?"
"Personally, I... well to be honest I am hurt and appalled. Not to mention that I fear for the safety of my family and my friends. Every day I wonder if my involvement with them is going to get someone I love killed... The thought haunts me, but I hope after all of this is over I... and all of us can breathe a little easier."
"Were you scared?"
"I don't think that even needs to be a question. Of course I was scared, getting sucked out of your spaceship isn't ideal."
"What do you hope will happen now?"
"I hope that justice can be upheld to those who deserve it."
"What do you have to say to the UN president."
”...”
”So?”
"I have nothing to say. Wouldn't want to waste the air.”
[…]
What followed would be one of the largest scandals in recent political history. At some point an unknown number of classified government documents was leaked onto the internet, and after that it was all over for the Presidency. Thousands of enterprising humans, and aliens alike, viewed the documents to discover all the underhanded and dirty things which had been going on in the UN governmental body over the past few years. Forensic accounting experts (mostly Tesraki), uncovered plenty of fiscal tampering which shed light on plenty of isolationist related projects and bank accounts. There was even evidence that they had something to do with the original assassination attempt against Admiral Vir so many months ago. The drama had even managed to capture the attention of Rundi political experts and Vrul computer science geniuses, and together they unearthed a world of unfathomable, but not unexpected corruption. The process to remove the UN president from office was probably one of the fastest movements of human government ever seen by UN congressional leaders, who were likely trying their very best to distance themselves from association with the president, who despite not being the only one involved, had become the political scapegoat for everyone else that had a supposed link with isolationism.
Even the VP fell under suspicion and was watched closely for the rest of his term.
Admiral Massie and the UN President were placed under arrest and set up for court dates in the nearing future, though everyone saw a long and arduous litigation process ahead. Even Ramirez's family had filed for damages against the government after the news came to light, confirming that their son had been shot as collateral in one of the UN presidents plans to assassinate Admiral Vir. They settled out of court to the tune of an unknown, but impressive sum of money.
No one really knew how much, but a couple months later Ramirez's younger sister was seen training at one of the most prestigious Olympic academies on earth.
Ramirez himself was suddenly able to afford housing on the moon in a condo just next door to his best friend, though no one else inquired further.
The Rundi chairwoman came forward with her own investigation, admitting to being suspicious for a long time though she feared accusations without proper proof. Admiral Vir was seen having lunch with her not so many months after the events took place, suggesting that the trust between the two of them had not been completely dissolved. With much of the isolationist element gone from government, public policy began to lean heavily towards integration with the alliance. The occasional isolationist demonstration or protest was held, but none of them managed to gain traction.
Admiral Vir was finding himself more important than ever, though it was to his chagrin that his ship was grounded for the intervening months while the investigation continued.
No one was entirely sure what the future held.
[…]
Admiral Vir stepped into Admiral Kelly's office. The last time he had actually visited her here had been over a few years ago, before his promotion to captain of the Harbinger. It seemed so distant now, and he never expected to walk into her office with a star on his shoulder. She stood as he entered, and the two of them shook hands, ignoring all the stuffy formalities that usually come with the meeting of two military officers.
The wall behind her was decorated with a myriad of metals and awards she had received over her career, and he couldn't help but note the slight tinge of grey he could see forming in her hair. He knew that feeling, he was going prematurely white much to his chagrin. She stood and the two of them shook hands.
"Vir."
"Kelly."
She motioned him to sit, and he sat, sighing lightly as he had been on his feet all day consulting with political figures and other members of the UNSC.
"A strange couple months wouldn't you say?”
"Tell me about it."
Kelly reached under her desk and withdrew an amber bottle which she placed between them,
"I always forget; do you drink?"
"On occasion."
"Well consider this an occasion."
She said, popping off the top and pouring two glasses for them. She handed his across the desk and he leaned back in his seat cupping the cool glass in both hands.
She swirled the amber liquid around in her glass,
"So what are your plans after all this?”
He took a sip of water warmed by the burning liquid,
"Hoping things will go back to normal and I can go back to traveling the galaxy."
Kelly grunted,
"A simple man with simple motivations."
He laughed,
"Sometimes I think a stupid man with simple motivations."
She chuckled then grew serious,
"A lot of people make the mistake of assuming simple people don't have the intelligence to match. Some people assume that trusting means gullible means dumb. Just because we are trusting and expect others to do the right thing is not necessarily a fault. I believe there is a kind of beauty in assuming the fundamental goodness of humanity."
Admiral Vir shook his head,
"How can you after seeing what we have seen?”
"How can you not?"
She shrugged,
"We always knew that politicians were corrupt, but think about everything else we have seen."
Admiral Vir nodded slowly,
"The enthusiasm for the Apollo 11 recreation mission, the people who flew up to help us. All of those people who went digging through years of information just to uncover the truth."
She raised her glass,
"Precisely. Goodness in humanity is all around us, but we tend to overlook the good in favor of the bad."
She placed her hat on the desk and sighed,
"It is up to good people to keep their goodness going even when it might seem easier to give into the bad. I have and will always believe in the fundamental good of humanity. Some may call it naive, or even stupid. Others have said I have a romanticized view of a species that is fundamentally broken."
She turned her head to look out the window, a contemplative expression on her face before turning back to look at Adam.
"You understand me, I think."
He nodded slowly.
"People need to be believed in. You tell someone for long enough that they are fundamentally bad at their core and they will begin to believe you. For thousands of years pessimists have gotten it into our heads that we are no better than animals, worse even since animals don't fight in wars. But I believe that is wrong, I have seen people, I have met people, and I have interacted with people who prove to me that humanity cannot just be fundamentally bad or else these people wouldn't exist."
She tapped her nails against the glass,
"I think it is easier to corrupt purity than wash away a stain."
He listened quietly as she continued.
"Humans are born good, Adam, and life stains us. We aren't born stained while some of us are wiped clean."
She shook her head,
"Doesn't make sense to me."
She caught him with a look, pinning him to the spot with her intense stare,
"People like you convince me of this every day."
"Me!?..."
She held up a hand.
"Adam Vir, I am convinced that the best outcome this universe ever had, was when a happy go lucky science fiction freak was lucky enough to be the first man to meet aliens. Any other way things would have gone horribly wrong."
She leaned across her desk,
"The universe needs men and women like you, and not only that but the universe needs people who are going to support men and women like you."
She sat back,
"Which is why I have made a decision…"
He raised an eyebrow in curiosity, not entirely sure where this could be going.
She smiled,
"I have decided to run for UN President."
He nearly spit his mouthful of expensive scotch onto the table, but managed to choke it mostly down.
Eyes wide he set his glass down,
"Are you serious?”
She smiled,
"Seriously serious."
"Well shit, you have my vote for sure."
He raised his glass to her,
"I couldn't think of a better outcome."
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Thanks for reading! As you saw in the title, this is a cross posted story written by starrfallknightrise and I'll just upload some of it here for you guys, if you are interested and want to read ahead, the original story-collection can be found on tumblr or wattpad to read for free. (link above this text under "OC:..." ) It is the Empyrean Iris story collection by starfallknightrise. Also, if you want to know more about the story collection i made an intro post about it, so feel free to check that out to see what other great characters to look forward to! (Link also above this text). I have no affiliations to the author; just thought I’d share some of the great stories you might enjoy a lot!
Obviously, I have Charlie’s permission to post this and for the people already knowing the stories, or starting to read them: If you follow the link and check out the story you will see some differences. I made some small (non-artistic) changes, mainly correcting writing mistakes, pronoun correction and some small additional info here and there of things which were not thought of/forgotten or even were added/changed in later stories (like the “USS->UNSC” prefix of Stabby, Chalar=/->Sunny etc). As well as some "biggemajor" changes in descriptions and info’s for the same stringency/continuity reason. That can be explained by the story collection being, well a story collection at the start with many standalone-stories just starring the same people, but later on it gets more to a stringent storyline with backstories and throwbacks. (For example Adam Vir has some HEAVY scars over his body, following his bones, which were not really talked about up till half the collection, where it says it covers his whole body and you find out via backflash that he had them the whole time and how he got them, they just weren't mentioned before. However, I would think a doctor would at least see these scars before that, especially since he gets analyzed, treated and goes shirtless/in T-shirts in some stories). So TLDR: Writing and some descriptions are slightly changed, with full OK from the author, since he himself did not bother to correct these things before.

hi,
PLEASE NOTE THESE BOOKS WILL COME OUT WITH 2 CHAPTERS PER WEEK STARTING FROM TMORROW EACH HAS A LIST OF CHARACTERS AND THERE ROLE AND THERE DISCRIPTION.
please tell me what books sound the best <3 more will be coming in a separate post <3
So im a Wattpad user and I write and read story's mainly writing now Im going to be releasing a massive amount of books I think the total is 20 books could be more could be less but there's a massive range of them so I will list them below:
A GAME OF CHANCE (OUAT BOOK) 17 MAY 2024- this book is based mainly in neverland but has parts in storybrooke to this is a book where henry is kidnapped but not for the reason they showed in the series your name is emily you grew up with an abusive drunk of a father and you ran away after a while of missing storybrooke you return to which your taken in by Emma but someone doesn't like you.
MIRROR MIRROR (OUAT BOOK)17 MAY 2024 - your Regenia's sister you two fell into the darkness she came out however you never did she and her new friends try hard to get you into the light side but when Regina finds why you went dark she knows there's only one solution but will she take the risk or pay the price.
FALLING FOR THEM 17 MAY 2024 - you are a talented young artist who moves from her home town after a brake up in hopes of finding peace you find piece and love but two men? is that right ? first time for everything right they will always be my first everything.
MY MAFFIA HUSBAND 17 MAY 2024 - your parents business wasn't going to well and another business offered to help they gladly excepted after knowing the price they have to pay you live with them and the other company starts coming around a lot more until one day everything falls into place and the wedding isn't long after that day.
MARRIED TO MY BESTFRIEND 17 MAY 2024- your bestfriend and you have been close ever since birth you do everything together and your inseparable until jack has to help is parents as trouble crosses there path with business thats when your parents offer you as payment to help the business which they except you soon learn neither of you had a choice it was set they day you where born.
LOSING YOU 17 MAY 2024 - after your fiancé goes missing you hire a detective and a private investigator when they give up on the case finding no clues what so ever you deiced to take it into your own hands on the way to this you uncover your fiancé dark past that his family knew where he was and this was just a test plus a love game but can you stay with him after finding out what you have.
TRAPPED BY HIM 17 MAY 2024- you are taken by a sadistic ex of yours he keeps you locked up for months on end torturing you and doing unholy things all the while you scream cry and beg him to stop none can hear you and is anyone even looking for you does anyone even realize your missing?
DETECTIVE DARLA 17 MAY 2024 - your a detective with a high amount of respect you have solved multiple cases of murder and missing persons but now there's a new killer in town who they refer to as the shadow none knows who he is and none can track him down Darla beings to get worried but she begins to find all the answers and when she finds the horrifying truth after being nearly murderd by the shadow she kills the one thing she loves Darla goes into a state of panic and she is put into the mental heath ward in her local hospital when a new killer strikes will she be able to recover? will she find this new murderer?
BROKEN PIECES 17 MAY 2024 - when you come home one night after cleaning the house going to do shopping putting it away loading washing in and out until its time for you to go to work and find your husband doing unspeakable things to your eldest child and youngest child while your middle child watches laughing you go into a state of panic screaming and shouting at them when someone behind you closes the door and puts a cloth over your mouth knocking you out. will she live? will she help her children?
EVIL MEETS EVIL 17 MAY 2024 - when you where a young girl the age of only 3 days old you where taken from your mother and taken to what looked like a prison you are cared for by your brother until you turn 1 years old when your brother the leader of this place deiced you where old enough he sits you on a table and he has you looked over making sure your heathy and how a normal child should be of 1 years old but what for?
WOULD YOU KILL FOR LOVE 17 MAY 2024 - when the prince deiced he needed to be married all the girls in town went crazy all expect you you didn't fancy being married at only 16 so you ignored the whole thing thats until all the girls where to go to the court yard and be seen individually by the prince when he lays eyes on you and chooses you your whole world brakes. when a war brakes out on the kingdom and the prince is in danger you use the skills you leant ages ago to save the one you where to marry have grown feeling for him but will you let him know?
FRIEND OR FOE 17 MAY 2024 - when the whole town turns against magical creatures you have to decided who you can and cant trust due to being one of the hated all the magical beings being afraid you decided to take lead in this war and win equality from the help of a human friend. but will you survive what you decided to end.
SLYTHERIN QUEEN (HOGWARTS BOOK) 17 MAY 2024 - when arriving at Hogwarts for the first time ever you are all in first year and the boys of Hogwarts start taking a liking towards you but not everyone will be able to have you as you have a very specific taste but when you have to share a dorm with the ones you crush on you start to be bratty earning a punishment,
REDWOOD 17 MAY 2024 - the town of redwood is famously known for the redwood surrounding the town none enters or leaves the town through it you have to go by air but when thing start getting strange around the town people panic praying that its just the weather playing up but its far from just weather magic is taking the lives of many but they take the wrong person.
HONEY, HONEY (HOGWARTS BOOK) 17 MAY 2024- when a new riddle enters the school they assume her to be there sister but they are wildly wrong shes their wife yes their as in tom and matteho riddle the three of them get tired of their fathers stupid ways and their wife becomes friends with the golden trio and eventually the rest of the Weasleys. but are they just on a mission for there father of have they changed?
WITHOUT YOU 17 MAY 2024 - after losing your true love you move from your troubled home to new York to start over and you do well as a model and eventually you become rich and along the way there 2 men that have been everywhere you are you thought maybe they are just crazy fans but no. is he really dead?
THE FIRST BLOOD MOON 17 MAY 2024 - imagine being a creature so powerful but having no clue about it when your mum dies your father leaves you after years of abuse and shouting painful words he just leaves but someone comes round to the house knocking on the door for you when you refuse to go with them they kidnap you in the night. but why?
DEATHS BESTFRIEND 17 MAY 2024 - Imagen waking up one day and the worlds population has doubled but only you can see them when you find out that they aren't invisible you question what they could be before realizing they are the dead and you are you alive or dead everyone can still see you but not them?
THE STRANGERS KISS 17 MAY 2024- when you move to new York after excepting a job you go to a bar for a few drinks feeling eyes on you the whole time but you cant seem to find who it is you start the new job and this one guy seems really off he keeps staring at you and wont leave you alone but he is hiding deep secrets.
THE TORTURED 17 MAY 2024 - you've been in one place your whole life this facility they wont let you leave you cant talk and everything keeps getting worse when you are taken from the facility by people who you thought where good but no non of the people have ever been good and it get worse when they take your memories and put you with a bunch of people you have no idea who they are.
thank you for reading this to the bottom I hope when they are released you read them
byeeee <3

Hi everyone, I’m using a throwaway for this because I don’t want this attached to my main account. I hope this isn’t too blog-y or anything for this sub, I’ve just really needed to get all of this off my chest and I’ve been thinking about it a lot over the past few days. I also hope it can be a warning for anyone who sees it and has gone too far into the online system community.
This is a fucking novel and I apologize in advance. I just have a lot I want to get off my chest, and I also hope that it could potentially be educational to anyone in the system community hate-reading this sub.
Quick warning for brief mentions of suicidal ideation and self harm.
I’m 23 (turning 24) this year, and I started to believe I had DID in 2019, when I was 18 (about a month or so away from turning 19). I had just started college. For context, writing has been my main hobby ever since early childhood, and I was also into roleplaying my original characters. I was EXTREMELY connected to my characters, I basically thought about them all the time. I spent the majority of my free time developing them, thinking about them, and writing or roleplaying. I even wrote and roleplayed during high school in the middle of class.
I started to believe I had DID whenever I talked to someone else about it and started to feel like my connection to my characters was abnormal. My main thought process was that I was so attached to them that it actually affected how I behaved. For example, if I was fixated on a certain character, I would find myself acting more like them or dressing more like them. I also started to over-analyze past behavior; the main thing that came to mind were the times when I was 14 and I would “talk” to my characters in my head, and there was also a particular instance where my handwriting would change to look more like how I imagined a certain character’s handwriting.
I also started to overthink because I had both childhood trauma and (then-recent) trauma from my teenage years, and during those events, I always used writing and roleplaying to cope. I was already prone to dissociation and had an extremely overactive imagination.
Within a day or so of starting to think I had DID, I “switched.” Basically one of my characters “fronted” for a little over an hour, and then I came-to with barely any memory of that past hour. Of course, prior to thinking I had DID, I never had any large memory gaps or loss of memory that caused me or anyone else any type of concern. The only things I ever struggled to remember were things related to my trauma, which is normal (to my knowledge anyways).
So after this I became pretty convinced I had DID, and then I discovered DissociaDID within a few days of this. I thought she was a legitimate source of information and an accurate portrayal of DID, because before her, the only other portrayals of DID that I saw were either horror movie shit or very extreme cases. I saw myself a lot in her because she was around my age, queer (like me), and a little alternative in her presentation. So I binged her videos and this only further fed into my delusion.
This was all within the span of a week. I had therapy on that Friday so I talked to my therapist about it. I’d also like to note that my therapist had been seeing me pretty consistently since I was 12, and had never caught on to anything that could signal that I had DID. When I told him about everything I was experiencing, we looked at the DSM entry for it together, and he basically told me that he couldn’t diagnose me and he had no experience treating DID, but if I was experiencing everything that I said I was experiencing, I should try to find a specialist or a psychiatrist. He gave me a few numbers but I was too scared to contact them. I also never brought up DID or my “alters” again with him because I was too embarrassed to, even though I continued to see him for the next year or so.
I also got more involved with the system community, specifically on tumblr. I didn’t use tiktok and I tried to keep my more personal accounts like instagram separate from what I was going through because I didn’t want my family to find out. The next few months were really turbulent and I went through a lot of “splitting” (aka making new roleplay characters and then becoming convinced they were actually alters making themselves known to me), and at one point, I stopped the medication I was taking for my anxiety and OCD because it was making me gain weight.
I’m bringing up my OCD because I believe it was relevant in the DID symptoms I was experiencing. My doctor and my therapist both agreed that I had OCD, and my doctor prescribed me seroquel to treat it. If you don’t know, seroquel is an antipsychotic. I started it a few months prior to the whole DID shit. I think my OCD is relevant because I have a history of intrusive thoughts, especially with anything causing me stress, and I think the instances of my “alters” talking to me were really just intrusive thoughts related to my OCD. Even now, I got an intrusive thought in a different voice that said “why don’t you believe I’m real?”.
Anyways, I quit taking seroquel and my mental health got terrible, and I ended up dropping out of college a few months into my very first semester, which was a decision exacerbated by the fact that I was convinced I had DID. This was towards the end of 2019, and then ofc 2020 happened. I spent the vast majority of 2020 completely isolated except for my immediate family, like a lot of people, and I didn’t have a job or school, so I was just locked inside on the internet all the time and further fueling my DID delusion. Ironically though, I stopped going on system tumblr at all, and around mid-2020 I discovered the DIDcringe sub. Which is pretty fucking hilarious because I was a little active on there for a few weeks or so, and I HATED system tiktok, I hated the endo shit, I was just shitting on these people because I thought I was better. I considered myself “medically recognized” and better than everyone in those tiktoks because I didn’t have fictives from anything outside of my own characters, I didn’t cosplay, and for what it’s worth I actually did research DID and was distressed by my symptoms. So I thought this made me genuine and different from the tiktok and tumblr fakers. I was really disgusted by the impact of the DID trend and even tried to make a tiktok account dedicated to spreading accurate information about DID, which again is fucking hilarious because I was neck deep in the delusion myself, but I ended up deleting the account before I even made my first video because I got paranoid about my family finding it.
I ended up going back to college in the fall, which ofc was all online because of the pandemic, and around that time I also tried to reach out and join some system discord servers that didn’t allow endos. Even the anti-endo ones were full of the kind of shit you see on this sub, and in both of the ones I joined, I was one of the older members even though I was only 20 at this point. So I left both of them because they were both terrible. Then some more shit happened, my mental health got terrible again, I dropped out of college again, my DID delusion kept getting worse but now I had a superiority complex about it because I thought that I was better than the teenagers with 500 MCYT fictives.
2021 rolled around and my mental health was all over the place, I got a job, I planned on going back to college but I was in a shitty situation with therapy and I was getting worse and worse. Basically, I stopped seeing my old therapist (at his recommendation) because I wanted to try a different EMDR therapist. I started going to the different clinic, but they were worried about giving me EMDR because I told them about the DID symptoms and they had no experience with treating someone with DID. I stayed in regular therapy but I barely saw my therapist, and they ended up discharging me because I missed too many appointments due to the fact that they were online and my connection was usually shitty. So I had no therapy and I was getting worse until I almost attempted suicide in May 2021 and ended up in the ER. Part of the reason why I was in such a bad state was because I felt so alone and scared about what I thought was DID, and I was terrified of never being able to have a normal life.
After the ER, I ended up being able to go to an intensive outpatient group therapy program, which helped me a lot, but again I never talked about DID in group therapy because I was too embarrassed. I told my new psychiatrist about what I was experiencing, and he diagnosed me with PTSD, but he didn’t diagnose me with DID because he wasn’t sure if I had it. This didn’t deter me though because I was two years deep into the delusion that I had it, that I knew my own brain better than doctors, that nothing else could explain my symptoms. And I also thought that he couldn’t diagnose me after one brief visit anyways, so I continued to think I had DID.
I ended up going back to college that fall, and I did really well. Around 2022 I started to get involved with the more “scientific” side of system tumblr and followed a lot of anti-endo blogs. At one point I even made a syscourse blog and got kind of hyperfixated on it which was extremely bad for my mental health. I read a lot of papers about DID and even tried to read a book about it (First Person Plural) but my attention span was just all over the place and I couldn’t focus on it. But I considered myself relatively well-informed about DID, which makes this all even more embarrassing to me, because I couldn’t see my own bullshit.
The worst was when I started delving into RAMCOA uncritically, and due to the way the community talks about it, I started to become scared that I experienced something RAMCOA-adjacent and couldn’t remember. Specifically, I became fixated on this memory of going to my grandma’s church when I was three, and I couldn’t remember what I ended up doing during bible school, so I became convinced something bad could have happened. I had dread surrounding the memory, which I took as a sign that something bad happened, even though the dread was probably just from all the conspiracy theory shit I was reading about children being ritualistically tortured.
There’s not really a climatic end to all of this. I just stopped “switching” more and more, stopped hearing alters, and even when I did think I switched, I wasn’t fully disconnected from myself and still had most if not all of my memories of the switch. I noticed more and more that, during switches, my alters never acted completely independently of me, even if I was convinced I was someone else. For example, my fight or flight response is typically fawning, and during fights, my supposed alters (even the “angry” or assertive ones) would always fawn and act like me when I was panicked. I chalked it all up to me being “co-conscious” and “bleeding through.” But I could never do something completely different from what I would normally do, like yell at people or start fights or physically self harm.
My long term boyfriend and I broke up in 2023 and I also fell out of a friendship in 2023, which were both really stressful and upsetting events for me, but I started to think I didn’t have DID around this time because, if I was going through something this stressful and basically felt awful in every aspect of my life, wouldn’t I be splitting or at the very least switching more? But I wasn’t at all, if anything all of my symptoms started to go away even more. I stopped thinking about it and it all just kind of stopped in general.
I think there was a combination of things happening that made me convinced I had DID. I already had PTSD and dissociative tendencies, so that didn’t help at all. I’ve had dissociative episodes so bad that I couldn’t move. I have other mental illnesses that could explain the intrusive thoughts that I thought were alters. I have both body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria, as well as generally just a lot of self-loathing and hating myself, which fueled my desire to be literally anyone other than myself. I have an extremely vivid imagination and let my anxiety get carried away a lot. I also think I was just young.
So that’s how I lost five years of my life to thinking that I had a severe mental illness that I almost definitely don’t actually have. It’s had a very negative impact on my life. It made me isolate myself from my family and friends, the stress from it made me drop out of college twice. It made me suicidal. I don’t drive because, when I had time to start working on learning how to drive and getting my license, I was terrified I would switch behind the wheel and get into an accident, so now I’m nearing 24 and I can’t drive. It made me delay getting testosterone for my gender dysphoria because I thought that my dysphoria could be linked to just having alters of different genders, so I shouldn’t have transitioned because it could have been DID-related. It made me scared to write and roleplay because I thought I would end up developing introjects of more of my characters. It made me dissociate more heavily and actively indulge in dissociating and triggering myself because I thought it made me more “valid.” It also just made me so disconnected from myself that I barely even knew who I was for five years, I was just a shell of who I used to be and fucking miserable, while actively forcing myself to be other people to cope with the fact I hated myself. Which is ofc the worst way to cope with hating yourself.
I’m just so embarrassed now because I genuinely thought I was better than this and that I was above all of the people misinformed about DID. I even considered myself relatively well-educated on it. I guess that just shows that we can convince ourselves of wild shit. I wish I didn’t spend five years of my life actively making my mental illnesses so much worse, and I wish I didn’t fall into a community that not only enabled but encouraged it.
Thank you for reading all of this and I’m sorry this was so long.

I used to subscribe to Loz's newsletter several months ago. I wasted my money on a couple of her courses (which didn't help me and were ridiculously overpriced.)
I logged in to the email account (hadn't checked it in a while) and it was filled with her unopened newsletters.
I opened some of them and read them. I can't believe I used to subscribe to this rubbish.
Here are my thoughts:

1. Is she personality disordered? Either she is deliberately playing a 'mean girl' role (she's an actress) in order to get peoples' attention and make more money or she's got a personality problem. What's with all the CAPS, red-faced shouting, huffing and puffing and screeching?
2. Why doesn't she ever talk about her sp? She's teaching people to manifest an SP. Where is he? Someone mentioned in a thread way back that it didn't work out with him and he was a narcissist. How is this not a credibility issue? I wouldn't see a nutritionist who was morbidly obese, just as I wouldn't buy from someone who had never manifested an SP or wasn't able to keep him because he's a narcissist or maybe because he got tired of the screeching. I don't want to waste my money on someone who doesn't know what they're talking about
3. Full of swear words and offensive language like 'you're a retard"
4. Why is her stuff so expensive and repetitive? She has several courses helping people to manifest stuff, and then she makes a separate course on Neville's techniques. That's already included in the other courses. I paid $99 for a short, basic PDF and felt cheated. That was the last thing I ever bought from her.
5. She makes no allowances for the fact that it may not work out with an SP. I believe in manifesting but I don't believe a relationship can be forged with absolutely anyone you desire. Sometimes you're not compatible and you can't change that. Even Neville said this:

…Always go to the end. Dwell in the end, and you will hurt no one. But if you try to devise the means, you are, well, messing the whole thing up. I have had people say to me, “You know, I want that man, and no other man.”
I said, “No, you don’t; you want to be happily married. You don’t want that man or no man.”
“Oh, yes, that man or no man.”
Then, of course, this always shocks them.
I say, “If he dropped dead right now, would you want to be married?”
“Well, he isn’t going to drop…”
“I didn’t ask you that. If he dropped dead right now, or if he is right this very moment accused of being the world’s greatest thief or murderer, do you still want him”
“Well, now, why ask those questions, Neville? I want that man.”
But, you see, it isn’t that man. They want to be happily married. I have gone to so many weddings where it was either that man or none, and it wasn’t “that man”! And they are embarrassed when they see me standing in the aisle, because it had to be “that man or no man,” and here it isn’t that man at all. And they walk down [the aisle] – they are happy with their new mate, but a little sheepish as they pass by because they know I know he was not the man.
I think this woman has the potential to do a lot of damage to vulnerable people. She probably already has. She says that you can and should manifest abusers, because you're causing them to act that way. If this is true, where is her narcissist SP and why the hell is she not with him?
I get bad vibes from her these days and I'm embarrassed I ever thought this clown was someone to listen to. I guess that shows how obsessed I was with deadbeat SP. Thankfully no longer because I have moved on. Now that's an achievement better than manifesting any SP.

The title is the gist of it. I am done with my LLB and currently awaiting graduation. I need intership for the experience and to build up my cv so pay really isnt the issue with me. Law firms are full with pupillage students and all my applications have borne no fruit.
I know reddit is the last place this should be posted but if interested in mentoring a young upcoming lawyer thats especially interested in international law, data protection and digital rights. , please dm me and we can talk more over E-mail.
I am a smart student, that has gone to top schools and with the minimum grade requirement law firms ask for. A fast and eager learner who's motivation is to firmly cement my place in this field so trust me when I say I'll add value to your firm
If you find yourself as a lawyer second guessing yourself after reading this post or not even feeling bothered please kill that feeling and be bothered🥹. Youre gonna do a good deed that will make me so so happy and that tiny act from you will always mean everything to me cause its gonna be my first internship/formal work ever. So choose a higher vibration today and just take me in🥹
Ps: if anyone also has connections to NGOs with a legal background that need volunteers and can connect me I'll appreciate.

Hello! I live in Suzhou, and I plan on hiking with my friend to Xishan Island—marked with a red circle—around next week.
For anyone here who has gone to Xishan before, which place on the island do you go to hike? If it's not possible to go hiking, what other physical activities could you recommend we could do around the island? Cheers! 🙏
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I’ve been on 15mg since the end of January. Initially I was put on this for severe insomnia, the relief was instant as it was so bad I was really physically unwell. Basically it was like my body & mind had just shut down & forgot how to function. I had all kinds of horrible physical symptoms. Whilst the physical symptoms are mostly gone, I still have some & I seem to get a wave of depression & a sleepless night every 4 weeks or so. No matter what I do I won’t sleep - it’s usually accompanied by a fast resting heart rate. I’ve now accepted that my insomnia was probably caused by severe depression brought on by stress. Whilst I don’t feel depressed, the physical symptoms all point to this. I exercise but I still feel weak & achey, I’m not getting the maximum I should out of my body. I certainly didn’t feel this way a year ago before all this started. I’m thinking 15mg has done all it can for me & if I want more relief upping might be the answer.
I’m just wondering if anyone has any experiences similar to mine.
I would also like to hear experiences from anyone that has upped to this dose.

Notablility has gone from my favourite note taking app to completely useless in the last year. I chose it because it has the best writing feel, great workflow and nice features. And up until the past few months its worked pretty well, no major bugs, decent performance etc
But for the last few months, it’s just been so unstable and so full of bugs. Cloud syncing bug that deletes notes, not being able to paste bug, laggy writing, and the WORST ONE, images becoming invisible and disappearing (Which happened to me THE DAY BEFORE AN EXAM). All this leading up to exam season is actually unacceptable. How can I use this app to study if I can trust it to keep my notes safe? I have cancelled my subscription and I’m moving elsewhere, and I just can’t recommend it to anyone anymore.

Hello Apes,
Here's another review of Roaring Kitty tweets, if you wanna check out previous days then links are below:
13th May
14th May
To reiterate, the description of each tweet is to the best of my knowledge the references made to allow you to make your own view in context and the speculation is pure speculation on my part, this is just for fun and shouldn't be taken as any financial advice, make your own decisions, I just like the stock. If you have anything to add feel free to in the comments and I'll do my best to update the post but given the amount of tweets now i don't have lots of time.
8:00am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790713748866371690
Description: This is taken from the film Easy-A and shows Emma Stone walking through school catching a lot of attention looking fine and what was an A sticker in the original clip has been replaced with the Gamestop play logo. The song is Sexy Silk by Jessie J
Speculation: The stock is sexy, particularly among the younger people. What was Easy-A is now Easy-Gamestop. Looking really great in the black.
8.15am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790717515523658119
Description: First we have a scene from the movie Prestige, with a Michael Caine voiceover about a magicians magic trick of making something disappear. The quote is "The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you're looking for the secret... but you won't find it, because of course you're not really looking. You don't really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn't clap yet. Because making something disappear isn't enough; you have to bring it back." Meanwhile a person with a gamestop logo is being electrocuted to life a little frankenstein like and then a Gamestop logo bursts through an explosion. We then go to a fight scene with the song "back in the saddle again" by Aerosmith playing.
Speculation: The quote from the Prestige in full talks about the different parts of making something disappear. In full " Every great magic trick consists of three parts or acts. The first part is called "The Pledge". The magician shows you something ordinary: a deck of cards, a bird or a man. He shows you this object. Perhaps he asks you to inspect it to see if it is indeed real, unaltered, normal. But of course... it probably isn't. The second act is called "The Turn". The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you're looking for the secret... but you won't find it, because of course you're not really looking. You don't really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn't clap yet. Because making something disappear isn't enough; you have to bring it back. That's why every magic trick has a third act, the hardest part, the part we call "The Prestige"." The Aerosmith song also has some interesting lyrics, "Ridin' into town alone by the light of the moon" "I'm ridin', I'm loadin' up my pistol, I'm ridin', I really got a fistful, I'm ridin', I'm shinin' up my saddle, I'm ridin', this snake is gonna rattle"
8.30am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790721293089964126
Description: Not sure what film this is from but essentially we have a group of people looking for someone who is messing with them, they come across the infamous meme of death looking for Gamestop and then they track down Roaring Kitty alongside 893489 CHIMP located in Boston. We then get a message of Prep mode and arm ready for transport, hold pattern until further notice and a message again on a watch saying the same with a Gamestop logo
Speculation: WS looking for DFV and just coming across more memes, not really understanding it. As pointed out by many, 893489 is the hexcode for purple https://www.colorhexa.com/893489 which could be a direct reference to people DRSing. Final message suggests it's a hold until further notice, potentially a gamestop announcement who knows?
8.45am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790725065585439065
Description: We have a scene from Ozark where the wife of the money laundering family is alone in her bedroom reflecting to the sound of The Daily Mail by Radiohead. Some Gamestop logos on the wall which i think replace a picture of her family in the original clip. More reflection.
Speculation: Not sure about this one other than the family in Ozark were right on the line of legality when it came to what they were doing, essentially they were money laundering and in the end it cost them their family. SHFs messing with Gamestop to the point of legality could be what costs them their family of investors?
9.00am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790728848226521547
Description: This is a famous scene from Star Wars where Han Solo takes them through the asteroid field despite C3-PO's cry that the odds are so greatly stacked against them, approximately 3720-1 to be exact! "Never tell me the odds" says Hans Solo. The Song Come Along by Cosmo Sheldrake comes on as the ship navigates it's way through.
Speculation: This play is a high risk play as we all know but DFV doesn't care about the odds, so many people have told him how crazy he is but that doesn't stop him absolutely nailing it. The song has some interesting lyrics to pick a few, "Don't let moments pass along, And waste before your eyes", "We'll be here when the world slows down, And the sunbeams fade away, Keeping time by a pendulum, As the fabric starts to fray" Full lyrics here
9.15am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790732615022195139
Description: This is taken from The Chappelle Show "when keeping it real goes wrong". In this sketch Kitty replaces a lot of the words to relate to him and the scene ends with Wu-Tang being brought up.
Speculation: Really i think this is just DFV having some fun with this sketch, replacing the woofs for meows, it brings up Wu-Tang as well which was a talking point way back in the NFT marketplace chat.
9.30am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790736391124774975
Description: We have a clip of Moon Knight from Fortnite alongside the song Day and Night by Kid Cudi. This is the official fortnite music video.
Speculation: The Moon Knight in fortnite is considered a rare character. In fact the last time the Moon Knight was in the fortnite shop was Nov29, 2023. With that, it's a very valuable and sort after skin. Also worth noting about the Moon Knight, "For a quick run-down: Moon Knight is actually a former mercenary named Marc Spector. One day, when he's left for dead in the desert, the ancient Egyptian moon god Khonsu revives him. Along with a new lease on life, Khonsu gifts Marc with god-like powers to fight evil". Take from that what you will.
9.45am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790740164848861227
Description: Not 100% sure on the cartoon being shown but the rap is Mr. Niceguy by Will Smith.
Speculation: I don't think DFV is liking the public dissing he is getting from various media outlets but really he doesn't care that much as he can just nail some memes he has lined up like this. If you want the full lyrics to the song, you can find it here
10am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790743946764644659
Description: This is the epic reveal in fight club and DFV has replaced a lot of the words. In the original scene, if you haven't watched fight club, the main protagonist has put the pieces together to realise that he himself is actually the same person as the other protagonist in the film and it was him alone that accidentally setup a sort of movement against the financial elite. In this clip DFV plays off the two characters between DFV and Roaring Kitty.
Speculation: Roaring Kitty was the twitter handle and Youtube profile for Keith Gill where he would speculate on the stock because he just loved doing it. DFV was the reddit handle where he is associated to that other sub i can't mention here but you know where i mean. I think that DFV is saying that what started as a fun speculation of the stock became something bigger than himself with his other channel in DFV on reddit. Now the wheels have moved and in the film it ends with the financial institutions being blown up, perhaps something similar metaphorically is already in place right now. It's actually a great analogy from DFV about his situation.
10.15am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790747714440892825
Description: This is the scene in Breaking Bad where Walter comes clean to his wife Skylar about all the money he has made selling meth. Skylar sees him for who he really is in this scene and really it's the beginning of when Walter begins to really lose himself. There is a funny insert of Methamphetameme and a mention of Caroline who i believe is his wife in real life.
Speculation: I think this is just DFV having some fun and giving an idea of how nuts it probably was for him to talk to his wife about everything that has happened/is happening. I know to us DFV seems like some sort of oracle but to many people he would just seem like some of stock bro who is nuts, even his wife.
10.30am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790751492451754012
Description: This is from the oceans 11 film again where the gang are discussing about what they are and how they have come to be. DFV inserts "the Cohen crunch" as what everything could be called and also says "One could make the argument that because it was in fact Cohen joining the board that seemed to kick things off maybe it should be...". DFV then has a big reveal of the reddit user u/ avocado-in-my-anus.
Speculation: Is this all about Ryan Cohen? Is it about DFV? Is it about the Squeeze? Or is it about Avocado in my anus!? - If you follow to that reddit user you will see 3 posts, all on October 29th of each of the last 3 years, all saying Happy Cat Day posted to 3 different subreddits, "never tell me the odds", "next fucking level" and "woah dude". Why is october 29th so significant? See for yourself here
10.45am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790755264733626879
Description: First we have a clip taken from CNBC where they say "is Roaring Kitty the one running this company?". It then cuts to a classic superbad scene of lots of dicks being drawn.
Speculation: I would imagine CNBC's angle here is that in their opinion Roaring Kitty is the one helping the stock so much with his influence that he might as well be running the company. Judging by the fact we go to a load of dicks after that I don't think DFV agrees with that opinion...
11am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790759048985612468
Description: This is taken from The Avengers Endgame and it's where Peter Quill and Thor are told they should fight one another for the honour of the leadership of the Guardians of the Galaxy. They reply they don't want to go against each other and then there is a little humored ambigurity over who is in charge.
Speculation: This could be about DFV and RC. Not 100% which one is which but DFV is saying they are on the same side and respect each other in their view on what is best for Gamestop. DFV conceding he isn't in charge here and sort of plays into the last meme.
11.15am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790762813868175516
Description: This is a scene taken from Love Actually and you will most likely recognize Rick from The Walking Dead. In the original clip he is filming his best friend (and it turns out he actually is in love with his best friends wife in this film). It then cuts to some memes of Ryan Cohen and a clip from his stream about updating thesis regularly.
Speculation: I think this is summed up pretty well by u/ starhammer4billion. "In 2021, DFV was mad, that R.C. did not push the button/do the buyback and told us clearly that he did not like R.C. anymore with this meme. Now in 2024, he rewinds that meme and tells us, that he thought that at the time in 2021, but that the investment thesis evolved over time and he now sees R.C. as a supermodel. So basically he saw what R.C. was doing in 2024, which he did not in 2021 and he likes R.C. again now. Probably because R.C. pushed the button and also did some plan with loopholes and stuff that DFV may not have thought about."
11.30am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790766591526735887
Description: Here we have a clip from the music video Gossip Folks by Missy Elliot. Some of the lyrics have been replaced by Roaring Kitty. It tells the story of DFV and then there is a ton of emojis that read 😳💩😿🥜🐸🍦🤢👍👊💀🥸👀🤩⚡️🎮🚀🍄💥🍏🤨😵‍💫💜🫂👌🤝⛺️😼🎯👀🐶🇺🇸🎤👀🔥💥🍻
Speculation: DFV is saying this is going to go down again 3 years later after it all went down last time. The emojis i think tell the story so far too and maybe what's to come. I'll try my best to elaborate - it's really tinfoil but why not.

• DFV a bit embarrassed by how much it all took off originally, he was the focus of the world in Jan21 (embarrassed)
• All went to poo as GME dumped with the cheating tactics of the elite (poo)
• Sad kitty had to go to court and defend himself just because he was right and liked the stock. (sad kitty)
• Showed he had absolute nuts by doubling down on the stock again. (nuts)
• Papa RC posted frog and ice cream just around the time he was announced as chairman, the turnaround well and truly underway (frog and ice cream)
• Not sure about the sick emoji
• GME looking good again and making gains later into 21 (thumbs up and fist pump)
• DFV gets killed off from communicating and stock tanks, bear thesis in full swing about GME (skull)
• DD research is in full swing over what's happening to the stock and DFV is looking at it like oi oi (invetigating and eyes)
• DD gets everyone focused again and loving the stock, GME, power to the players and convinced it's going to do great again (star eyes, lightning, game, rocket)
• GME grows in the dark without revealing it's plan for transformation (mushroom)
• GME runs big end of 2022, all anticipation about NFT marketplace etc etc (boom)
• RC buying into apple and people wondering about some sort of partnership (apple)
• Turns out nothing like that happening as people wait for announcements (straight face)
• NFT marketplace is a disaster and not what people were hoping for (dizzy face)
• People start DRSing (purple heart)
• Love in the community is in full flow again as post after post about DRSing shares (hug)
• Everything is ok and all agreed on the DD and DRSing, happy to wait it out (ok and handshake)
• Not sure about tent.
• DFV comes back (kitty)
• Sees an opportunity to target the shorts again (target)
• Looks to Ryan Cohen, former owner of chewy to make a move (eye emoji in original looks to the right, dog emoji)
• Big announcement (microphone)
• US market sees this and burns to the ground (US flag and fire)
• Squeeze happens (boom)
• Cheers everybody (beers)

11.45am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790770363627921776
Description: We have a pizza being cut in too more and more slices and dubbed onto the pizza are reddit awards along with DFV's last position update post.
Speculation: The amount of awards that were constantly being given to this post got so out of hand i can't even think how many notifications and reddit coins DFV must have got back in the day. Definitely a joke on DFV's part and just a reminder to how funny it was the amount of awards he was getting.
12pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790774146994966570
Description: This clip is taken from Spiderman i think the one where Spiderman goes dark but i can't remember exactly. The music is The Black Swan taken from Swan lake and it cuts to the movie of Swan Lake with Natalie Portman as the Black Swan and Kitty being dubbed on her face as she transforms.
Speculation: Black swan events are defined as "A black swan is an unpredictable event that is beyond what is normally expected from a situation and that has potentially severe consequences". When GME does squeeze, it's going to have severe and brutal consequences for the market.
12:15pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790777913245421806
Description: First we have Snoop Dogg in his music video for Gin and Juice talking about drama in the GME then we cut to Scarlet Envy saying "is it me, am i the drama", "am i the villain?"
Speculation: Just DFV having fun with all the drama that is being caused through GME, through his memes and everything in a fun light hearted DFV meme of way.
12:30pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790781688848450012
Description: The first clip is taken from Oceans 12 where Ryan is bring the gang back together for an even bigger heist of casinos. Then we have part of the heist where he is stuck waiting in the dining cabinet and cannot escape until they let him out, then we cut to 2 people talking, "waiting", "for what?", "for this". Finally we cut to Batman, i think in the Dark Knight where the Joker is in the hospital and plans to blow it up.
Speculation: Bigger squeeze than last time, band back together, GME holders for the last 3 years could be like the guy in the box just let out in time by DFV, we say "where the fck you been?", he has been waiting, waiting for this.
12.45pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790785463118348420
Description: This is taken from The Dark Knight rises where Bane states "it doesn't matter who we are, what matters is our plan", "no one cared who i was until I put on the mask", "was getting caught part of your plan?" "of course"
Speculation: This is taken online about Bane in this movie, "Everything that Bane did was never for himself, not really, we find out his real loyalty later and I think that is a big reason why he said who he is wasn’t important. He wasn’t there to impress the masses, he was there to execute a plan, to be the playmaker for a person he cared for. He wasn’t one who liked distractions and the concern over who he was, I took it as he saw as unimportant to what the plan was itself" DFV doesn't matter, the whole thing is bigger than him now, similar to the fight club tweet reference.
1pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790789242513433071
Description: This clip is the big reveal in The Usual Suspects. BIG SPOILER HERE TO THE FILM - The police chief realizes in the film that he has just been completely done by the person who actually committed the crime and he was right there all along in the station . In this clip the drawn sketch of the suspect is replaced with the 'ill do it again' meme.
Speculation: The mug has roaring kitty on it so I wonder if this really is DFV noticing a similar pattern to what is happening with the stock as to what happened before and has made that realization that it's time to come back and this is all on again. HF's digging the same hole for themselves.
1.15pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790793012936851665
Description: This is a clip showing Keith Gill and a narrator saying that investors were looking for someone to blame for losing big on Gamestop. Then it cuts to "shut up bitch" from The Rock in WWF.
Speculation: This is a lol meme and basically DFV saying people invest themselves it's not his problem. People did try to sue him if i remember so it's a bit of a fuck you to them.
1:30pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790796790360363016
Description: This is taken from Seinfeld and is about how George goes so far just to zing a guy. DFV replaces some words and makes this about the previous tweet, some more fun on his part.
Speculation: The episode i believe this takes place is called "The Money" and the episode in which George actually flies out is called "The Comeback", jokes aside that's some interesting references...
1:45pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790800562654691686
Description: This is taken from the Saturday Night Live sketch 'old friend'. It's about two old friends reconnecting, DFV expertly chooses this and only has to change the last name of the Keith in the sketch.
Speculation: Everyone thinks DFV is nuts, i mean the guy is posting a lot of memes and taking away my work mornings trying to understand them. Maybe he just loves memes, who knows?
2pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790804340673789978
Description: This is a video of beat saber to the song freaks by timmy trumpet and savage. "The bass and the tweeters make the speakers go to war", "the mighty trumpet brings the freaks out to the floor", "where the freaks at?". Big tune and then the vibing cat makes an appearance.
Speculation: Hard to say much about this other than it's a fun song and makes you vibe just like the cat. People are coming to twitter to see his memes and we are all vibing out off of it.
2.15pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790808112741630320
Description: Shows a man being followed around by a man in a suit with a red right hand. I'm not sure what this is taken from but the song is definitely Red Right Hand by Nick Cave and the Bad seeds. For me personally this song is most associated with The Peeky Blinders.
Speculation: The man could be anyone short on GME and the man following him making him scared could be DFV or whatever else is going to pound on those shorts. If you want the lyrics to the song then you can find them here
2.31pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790812277530034448
Description: Shows a bear on a pink recliner with a kitty sneaking in the background.
Speculation: This was a direct response to a Jim Cramer tweet who was essentially poking fun at DFV by saying he should make more memes as it's not working on helping GME. Worth noting that this doesn't look like a scheduled tweet and was probably not planned.
2:45pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790815662203617755
Description: Shows Jim Carrey not 100% which movie it is though i recognize it with a red graph overlayed showing the stock price going down. His smile deteriorates but he seems to have some sort of demented plan in a weird way.
Speculation: Stock might be going down and that might initially take the smile off but the creepy smile at the end shows that it doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things, they are going to get it by the end.
3:00pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790819440617033914
Description: This is taken from the Truman show where Jim Carrey plays a character who's whole life is a television show for everyone else to watch. He is unaware of this but starts to become more aware as the film goes on. This particular clip is where he is trying to get to the edge of the world to see behind the curtain and the director is trying to stop him with lightning strikes and storms and whatever else he can throw.
Speculation: They are doing everything they can to keep a lid on GME. Firing as many shots as they can but it's not working. Is this the best they have?
3.15pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790823211745063394
Description: This is a clip from Dunkey's best games of 2017 and here we see a game where it's just boss fight after boss fight and is really fun.
Speculation: This is a game for us, they can hammer down the stock and do what they want but GME holders just keep buying more and moving to the next level
3.30pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790826988019528035
Description: This is taken from Tenet and is about inverted bullets. It talks about being able to drop bullets and bring bullets back up and move bullets without touching them.
Speculation: I certainly don't understand even a little of what is going on with the stock, but you can still have a feel for what is happening with the stock and it feels good right now even with the dip. Could be something to do with inverse hedging but don't know enough about that to speculate.
3.45pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790830761542664192
Description: Firstly we have the Matrix where Neo is about to fight Morpheus and then we have Alice in Wonderland with Alice going down into the rabbit hole. (The rabbit hole is mentioned in the Matrix too when Neo is given the pill option).
Speculation: The scene where Neo fights Morpheus is really the first time we start to see Neo believe in his ability to be the chosen one but also understand the power being able to beat the matrix. With the Alice in Wonderland it's about seeing how far the rabbit hole goes, things will get more crazy for sure and we are going to find out just how deep this goes.
4:00pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790834536403574936
Description: Here we have the music video for Karma police by Radiohead. A man is running from a car at a hobble speed and then stops turns around and there is a trail of fuel heading towards the car that has stopped. He pulls out a box of matches from his back pocket and is just before to set the car alight by dropping a lit match on the fuel.
Speculation: Another Radiohead song, you can find the full lyrics here but to pick a line out "this is what you get when you mess with us". Whilst being slowly chased down, there is going to be a flip reverse based on the trail left by the shorts only to blow it all up.
8:00pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790894938277695671
Description: This is taken from the Shawshank redemption where the main protagonist has escaped from the prison after being wrongly imprisoned for many years. DFV has changed some of the narrators (Red) words in showcase his story of being wrongly accused in 2021 and having the flee out of the spotlight. He talks about pressure and time, he presents a lot of memes he has created over the years and then shows a particular screenshot of one of his streams.
Speculation: This tells DFVs story but also has some juicy parts. I think Red in this is a bit like the reddit crew (us) keeping tabs on his story but DFV is saying to escape like him it takes pressure and time (could be gamma squeeze, could be LEAPS, could be DRS, could be holding and buying, could be ALL of it) but all it takes is time and pressure. The memes he posted i wonder if some of those have found their way into various subs over the last 3 years without any of us knowing it came from DFV. The steam he screenshot has been spoken about a lot this morning but it seems to come from one of his youtube streams when GME last broke $30.
Hope you enjoyed these takes.
Love ya DFV