I've (M38 / 5'10 / 160 lbs) had (mild) COVID-19 three times so far, and everytime I get an increase in skipped heartbeats (PVC's + PAC's) that lasts for weeks / months after the initial infection. Before COVID I only had a few per month... Everytime I caught the virus, the frequency of the ectopics increased. Last week I had days with 100+ per day.
I have been to the cardiologist before, they say the PVC's + PAC's are benign and there is no sign of structural heart disease. I did not go to the docs after my latest infection and increase of ectopics though, but I assume that nothing structurally has changed in 1.5 years.
I read that antihistamines could work for long Covid and so I started taking ceterizine 10mg per day. A few days the palpitations decreased to almost zero. Only a handful here and there. I couldn't believe it. I stopped taking the ceterizine and 3 days later they came back. I started taking it again and 2 days later they decreased again to almost zero.
So it definitely seems as if the ceterizine is working. But my question is: Why?
Why could the ceterizine be helping? And is it just 'covering up' an underlying issue? Should I take the medicine long term, from now on? Or will it help my body with solving the underlying problems?
So in short: What could COVID-19 have caused, that lead to onset of frequent PVC's and PAC's, that the ceterizine is helping with? Histamine-intolerance? Vagus nerve inflammation? Myocarditits? Mast Cell Activation Syndrome?
I am just trying to make sense of it all and would like to know what is the best way forward from here. Thanks so much

So here's the story:
I have 3 hard drive:

1. The main SSD one, where I have Windows and other programs installed (C:)
   
2. A smaller SSD one, where I have some video games installed (E:)
   
3. A big HHD one, where I keep documents (D:)
   

I was downloading an update for a game installed on my E drive when I noticed that there was no space on it (it had like 2 GB of free space and there were weird sounds coming from my drive) so I decided to just uninstall that game.
However, I noticed that in the file explorer, it still showed the old disk space as if the game wasn't uninstalled. I then opened Steam and noticed that other games I had on my E driver were now displayed as not installed.
I tried restarting my PC and now the E drive is completely missing from the file explorer (as well as from Steam). I opened the device manager and under "Disk Drives" saw it displayed as "Unknown Device". I tried to troubleshoot it, but it said it was working properly. I then tried to update its drivers and to "Scan for hardware changes" and the drive disappeared from the device manager altogether.
The drive seems to be missing from the BIOS as well, and the boot time of my PC is longer now. Previously it used to be a few seconds but now it takes about 5 minutes (possibly because it's trying to boot up the cooked E drive?).
So here are my questions:

1. Did the drive fail? Can I save it somehow?
   
2. Assuming there's no saving it, what exactly should I do to make sure my PC works properly? Should I just remove it physically and that's it? Do I need to do some further "cleaning" of my system? I only had some Steam games installed on it, nothing else.
   

Thanks.

Indrajaal successfully demonstrates the curtain of the misconception which is created by the Indian God Indra. The miracle of the net enables taming of the creatures and amassing the power to enslave and command other living beings by bending their minds. In the ancient India, Vashikaran was the great technique that used to be the ruler’s and suitor’s invincible tool for gaining power over another person along with the help of the mystical ways. Sur Indrajaal Vashikaran includes the mind, emotion, relationship, and magical event manifestation through the using of mystical or supernatural powers.
Indrajaal Vashikaran
Origins and History
Indrajaal Vashikaran is believed to have been born in the Indian lands from the very ancient times. When the wandering sages and saints invented rituals, sorcery, black magic and charms, they intended to gain mastery over the happenings and people. Also, the Hindu holy books and texts as well as the ancient western spiritual traditions present such references as to mind control techniques. Through generations, the masters of the hidden vashikaran, handed down the techniques that were based on oral communication which was guarded day and night until today.
Back in the medieval ages, kings and rulers wanted to be the magical masters to do yog sadhanas and control their enemies. Myths describe us of their special rituals which are reserved for powerful witches of their tribe used dolls, artifacts, gems and herbs. Kath Bahador was even a court astrologer of the emperors of the Mughal dynasty, who was full of magic and mysticism that was used to gain access to their superiors.
Not only the smart people could communicate with the spirits using such spells. And outside the professional level, people too experimented: for instance, to repair their love, relationships, riches, and success, they used vashikaran. The last variable we can mention is the esoteric science of Indrajaal Vashikaran which is the most used science in Indian subcontinent.
How It Works?
Indrajaal Vashikaran is based on the idea that there is a cosmic energy that binds everything in this universe together. Through meditating one could achieve this by unconsciously concentrating all one's spiritual power without following any specific types of poojaas, havans, rituals or the meanings of the mantras and other objects to the desired person.
And so, one can assert that social interaction is not merely about picking up someone's belongings such as hair, nails, or clothes but it also involves an act of ritual in which the energy linkage is believed to be formed. Not only the services of phantom chants, yantras, crystals or photographs but also they play an amazing role in this process. I through equal parts of devoted belief, visualizing images vividly, and praying to either gods or their opposites, the process of shrinking the will of the other person begins.
The Practitioners
There are people who are born to be good practicing black magic in some parts of the country and are known to be Vashikaran specialists. They are known as masters of the mental manipulations. Many let the word vashikaran be associated with them and others take baba, guru and magicians as conjurers and shoddy magicians. Apart from them different assemblies and love spells employ the same methods such as tying lemons, chilies, using ashes and so on.
When it is about the extraordinary means to make a living and the turning points of one's career, one may need to be informed with something specific and personal only. These tantriks are the invisible asset in the policy of the conspiring politicians during elections in favor of their desirable candidates to produce a satisfactory result. Altogether, there are ornaments that have privacy related to gemstones, rudrakshas, money, wealth, and relationships.
In this area there exists the misgivings of frauds and cheats where a person promises something that never happens. To have entanglement with a good person right from the beginning is vital if you are going to look for a vashikaran specialist.
Controversies Around It
In spite of the fact that astrology has been practiced for many years, this conflict remains an issue whose point of contention is just as valid as always. The argument put forth by her opponents is that it is unethical magic, which is manipulative and is performed against the person who has no free will.
Furthermore, the instances of people being financially abused to think that vashikaran is a technique which can be used to control others are now many. The lady is involved unfairly in the Vashikaran which she has nothing to do with rather she is the one that is charged with the serious accusations.
But, they admit that the Olympians do not interfere with someone's being or fate unless needed. This is how they see it: undoubtedly the use of one's brain, desire, and lead conduct into the way another person think. A child thinks about a parent the exact way as a parent thinks for a child. Teachers play a central role in a student's achievement helping them gain more knowledge.
Those participants treat each other imaginatively as they can just to please one another. We can say that vashikaran is a concentrated form of this nature power that can be described by the metaphor in the poetic form, manifesting in the physical and mental levels both of the sorcerer and the target person.
The offbeat element of Indrajaal Vashikaran has been to inspire my thinking with attention for a long time. The same thing applies to both the small and the strong powers; they must rely on wisdom and caution so that the evil of good is not done.
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Chapter 1: the event
It was the fall of my intern year as I bean my off service trauma rotation. This month was ubiquitously notorious for being the most labor intrusive and least productive rotaion of our emergency medicine program. Knowing this I entered with the intention of simply surviving the month.
Another intern and I let’s call them A for sake of ambiguity, we’re the first emergency medicine residents to roste on the trauma services that year. A shaky start would be an understatement. In the words of chance the raper “like my grama with the Parkinson’s playing operation.” Would better describe it. Medically we did well. We were very competent and completed our work daily, but communication and coordination was non existent. Our Cheifs had informed us that Tuesday was our day of and the Trauma cheif residents had minimum communication with us, or our Cheifs as it seams when A and I did not report on Tuesday they sternly made their dissatisfaction known.
I have struggled with insomnia sense the age of 10. Had 2 sleep studies by this point in my life and been prescribed nearly every sleeping aid on the market. The 80-94 hr work weeks of our trauma rotaion only worsened my insomnia. My lack of sleep likely contributed to a less than prime adaptive immune system and 2 days out of my trauma rotaion I contracted strep like symptoms with associated nausea, requiring me to call for a sick day the next day. No the first day that I felt too ill to work. I was not fully aware of the reporting process. I reported to my Chiefs, but I did not believe I could come to work tomorrow with amble time and notice, however I was somewhat delayed in letting their Cheifs know, because the surgical chiefs rotated every few days and I did not know who my was going to be the next day. The second day which I had to call out sick I was able to locate the cheif for the next day and reprot according to our university’s protocol, which requires that if a resident feels they are not fit for work they must not come in and the university must have staff coverage without any fear or implementation of punitive actions.
I had finally survived to the last week of my trauma rotaion and I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. What I could not see was the pile of stress, shitty diet, lack of mental well ness and sleep deprivation which I was pushing down to reach the light. By this time I had seen a psychiatrist regularly for sleep medication. I had mentioned to him that I had been experiencing more stressed lately and feel that I might be depressed. he reassured me that it was likely only due to my circumstances, given the difficulty of the trauma rotation and wish to reassess once the rotation was over. Looking back I had to fill the habit of drinking more than I usually do. My only on nights before I have days off became 1-2 beers every other night. All of this repressed unhealthy shit finally pushed bad on September 23rd. That night I was at work even later than usual, I stayed up later than usual and couldn’t seem to fall asleep. With the stress of only having minimal sleep and knowing I only had 2 more days of trauma left, I took an extra dose of my sleeping medication.
I opened my eyes to the fighting sight of sun beaming in my window and I instantly knew I was late. (Sense I hadn’t seen the sun in a month) . Due to my need for scrupulous sleep hygiene I have been sleeping with my phone of and away for me. I rushed to grab it and watched as the little Apple logo seamed to glow on the screen for an eternity. Then in conjunction with its fading I saw 3 missed calls from my director, a text from college A and 2 missed calls from the surgical director. Still, I was able to calm myself, knowing that resident A had been late to this rotation by a few hours 2 other days and nothing came of it. I called my director back and he asked me to report to his office where I was greeted by my director, my coordinator and another emergency medicine facility.
With the only explanation of: “we just want you to get better”, I was handed a letter, to my relief it did not entail my termination, but a declaration of administrative leave and a requirement to undergo an evaluation at a well known university in Florida.
Lake any other savvy millennial, I did my research. By research I mean numerous google searches and screeches thru the depts of redit. To my dismay I discovered that in order for a residency program to fire you, they must first initiate an administrative suspension. I would soon find out however, being terminated would have been a delightful outcome compared to what ensued.
I spend the next few weeks in the wallos of regret and depression. I indulged in higher qualities of alchohol then I ever have before. I all but ceased communing with peers, and abruptly stoped any physical activity I had once enjoyed. Frightened as I was I was ensured, it will be ok “we just want you to get better”
Chapter 2 The evaluation : guilty until proven innocent I did exactly as instructed and scheduled an evaluation, I supposed that this was either a mental evaluation to assess if I’m fit for work with plans of termination or it actually was an evaluation to better treat my insomnia. To this day I regret my ignorance, and wish I had researched the process more. The Hindi / sand-skrt idea of Hamsa 🪬 is that in order to do any good you must have full knowledge or else good intentions can result in harm. I truely believe my director had good intentions, however but him and I did not have full knowledge of the nature of this evaluation.
Looking back see how easily I could have avoided my troubles by asserting legal aid at this point or even by researching this evaluation process more in depth. If one searches impaired practitioner program which I now know this evaluator works for, the search entire will populate 5 or 6 layferms along side their home website and there is a valid reason for this.
If one every finds themself in this process I employ you to bring a DSM to your evaluation or at least be familiar with the most common use disorders in the DSM-5, because your evaluation will turn into a dance of questions where the evaluator attempts to trap you in a round about way to stating something that may qualify for one of the diagnosis. I have provided an image from the DSM-5 below outlining AUD, which the evaluator concluded that I had the most severe from:
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Example***** Here are 10 examples of how he fraudulently assessed me taken directly from his assessment note.

1. Evaluator: Have you ever stoped drinking in the last year.

Me: yes I stoped every week day, I was only drinking on the weekends, until two weeks ago.
-Evaluator uses stoping and starting every week to qualify for 2 or more unsuccessful attempts to stop in the last year “There is a persistent desire or unsuccessful efforts to cut down or control alcohol use.”

1. Evaluator Have you ever had withdrawal symptoms

Me no
Evaluator Well Have you ever had a hangover? You know that’s a from of acute withdrawal
Me: yes in college, I had a few but that was years ago and I’m pretty sure the pathophysiology is different.
Evaluator uses this to count for withdrawal symptoms even tho is was more than a year ago

1. Evaluator: Have you even taken your sleeping medication on a day or night which you drank? Me: Yes, I took my prescriptions are prescribed but I never drank close to bed

Evaluator: qualified this as dangerous behavior with alcohol (where the DSM gives examples such as unprotected sex and drunk driving). The sleeping medication I was on is not a benzodiazepine therefore it is not deadly with alcohol. I personally have seen many patients in the ED who have taken their entire bottle of the medication and drank copious amounts, we just monitor them over night and rehydrate them

1. Evaluator Has anyone told you you drink to much or been worried about you Me: No I drink much less than my friends

Evaluator what about your girlfriend? Me: well she actually doesn’t drink at all she doesn’t like it. She often buys me beer for The Weeknd’s tho. One time we went to a movie and she got a little irritated because I waited for beer then complained about them not having any craft beer. So she said, “you couldn’t have just said no” and drank something else. However, she apologized after and said it’s worth waiting if it’s my only day off.
Evaluator said this qualifies for continued drinking despite causing significant relation consequences, ie divorce.

1. Evaluator : you have sleep issues I hear, and your chart says you’ve had depression in the past, don’t you know that alcohol can effect your sleep and mood Me: yes that’s why I never drink within 3 hours of sleep.

Evaluator but you knew this and still drank
Evaluator: qualifies for drinking despite unwanted physical or psychological effects (this should be recurring to effects the alcohol is causing, I have had insomnia sense the age of 10 long before I took my first sip)
7 evaluator you were late for work and told my you had a drink the day before
Me: Yes but I was late because I didn’t sleep and took double my sleeping meds, I will never do that again
Qualifies for 2 significant work or school issues in the past year ( a therapist and other psychologist ensured me that being late on or a few days doesn’t count they typically are getting fired or failing) ( moreover, this would assume I was late do to drinking it’s self and also assume if happened more than once)

1. • Alcohol is often taken in larger amounts or over a longer period than was intended

He never once asked anything related to this question yet said I qualified in his final report 9. A great deal of time is spent in activities necessary to obtain alcohol, use alcohol, or recover from its effects. The evaluators logic here was sense I was late for work and I had 2 beers the day before I must be taking long to recover from it (this is assuming I missed due to alcohol)

1. Tolerance drinking more to require the same effect: this he checked as true in his final note however it was never even discussed in our evaluation. I did mention to him that I’ve been drinking more than I had earlier in the year frequency wise, but they said nothing to do with quantity or needing more.
   
2. Wanting to drink so bad you can not think of anything else: this is the only qualification of SAUD my evaluator said I did not have.
   

Moreover, without legal help I was not aware that I could obtain a second evaluation or even oppose going to get evaluated at all, but that wouldn’t have mattered seeing I still thought this was for my health and wellbeing as seen when I was asked why do you think you are here to today, to which I replayed “so that I can be evaluated to see what is needed to get back to work”.
To maks the ordeal more infuriating the evaluator continues to ingratiate himself and lie through the process telling you, “it will be fine as long as you are 100% honest”, “anything you say in here is between you and me” or “you slipped up once with your meds, I know your residnecy program they will probably just want a few more out patient tests”
Two weeks later I received a phone call right before I left for an out of state vacation to visit my nice for her birthday. During the call I was informed that I would be required to complete a partial hospitalization program (PHP) lasting “6-10 weeks” which would coast from 15-50 grand not including doctor visits or housing which is billed separately. I suppressed this inconvenience, enjoyed my vocation and reported when I returned, knowing that I must complete this soon so I may return to work with due to the fact that my payed time off would soon be diminished. At this time I had not yet heard of the organization PRN.
Chapter 3 Guilty till proven innocent: The diagnosis
Shell shocked I arrived to a in patient psychiatric unit and was rapidly cleared to progress to treatment without detoxification. During my 90 day of forced rehabilitation I met a few other individuals who were unjustly and fraudulently forced into treatment. I began to look up to one of these such members of the men’s community, who I will refer to as patient X for ambiguity sake.
Unlike me patient X did have alcohol use disorder. He spent many clinic days drinking to avoid alcoholic withdraws. The curious component of his story is that he admitted his depravity, saught help and through his own journey became sober. The bodies at be, namely his local physician, Health monitoring program, rejected his personal path to sobriety and forced him to undergo 90 days of in patient treatment before he could practice medicine again. When he checked in to rehab he had been sober for over a year.
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As for me I spend many sleepless nights pondering how consuming a legal substance in a moderate amount could throw me into significant legal financial issues. My labs my toxicology, my story and my collateral from colleagues from colleagues all indicated light to moderate alcohol use but my evaluators word stood as the word of God.
More frightening was the director of this rehabs acknowledgment of this. The director who happens to also coincidentally be the evaluator, stated to me as well as to staff on multiple occasions: “ I suggest inpatient treatment for everyone who is reported”. “This is safer for me not to miss anyone who could harm patients, and I figure there must be a reason someone reported them.”
I am still elucidating the reason why I was determined guilty and proven innocent, however I can say from my 90 day stent that the majority of the patients at this rehab needed to be there. This program is saving lives of both providers and patients, however it is destroying the lives of those wrongfully accused.
Chapter 4 your lisense rehab or jail : Upon arivil I was sent to a detox hospital underwent a medical examination and was “one of the lucky ones” who required no detoxification and could report directly to PHP. Like everyone else, I spent 90 days in a PHP, being as 6-10 weeks is simply a lie they tell patients to decrease the change of resisting the treatment. When discussing the topic one therapist sated “if we told patients 90 days they would never come.” She then attempted to justify the treatment by outlining the story of a patient she had called who “didn’t make it to treatment” and killed themselves”. It is my belief that it is not the lack of PHP which impelled such professionals to take their life, but them realizing that they now will be obliged to undergo 90 days of PHP, 5 years of PRN monitoring with a loss of autonomy and hundreds of thousands of dollars taken from them that induced their hopelessness. For even if these professionals were truly mentally unstable in their addictions, in every case it was only following a phone call where they were informed they must undergo treatment that they took their life’s. By this time I still haven’t the slightest clue what PRN was.
Despite the security these programs provide for many my 6 main issues with them can be summarized in : 1. Kick backs: evaluators are directors of treatment clinics 2. The reported are guilty till proven innocent 3. The price, the overflow of money these places drag in from both patients and state universities is appalling, they charge separately for every visit and test 4. Although they make the claim that they are individualized, they are anything but. Every patient gets the same stay and treatment from the doctor drunk on the job and the one who was late to a shift 5. They force voluntary treatment. remember that friendly evaluator who promised he had your best interest at heart, so you opened up and told him everything about your substance use/ developmental / family history, well if you don’t stay for 90 days he will be “normally obliged” to tip the board of medical off to you.

1. The programs have overstepped their intended jurisdiction. -these programs work well if they function how they were intended at their inception. Cite original purpose. Originally these programs were designed to protect physicians and civilians from impaired practitioners; being healthcare workers who were impaired at work. Over the years, these organizations have extended their authority to encompass individuals with substance use disorders When not at work and also those who are in training to become healthcare professionals. Take for example myself compared to a physician who is impaired at work. A doctor who arrived for duty under the influence would surely benifit from the extensive testing, therapy and accountability enforced via these programs. In accordance the 20,000$ per year cost is appropriate when only making up roughly 7% of their yearly salary vs nearly half of a residents. In my case with my loss of income from employment, coast of treatment and monitoring, this year I will be required to pay 20,000$ to work. Yes, I will be losing money to work. Even if did indeed have a substance use disorder this level of monitoring wouldn’t not be considered appropriate.

Dispite all of the miscomings of this System My time spend in PHP was indeed helpful, as I believe it would be for anyone. Time for exercise, a reprieve from work and weekly counseling. A sample structure of my day to day schedule is provided below for insight:
Structure The general structure of these rehabitation centers is as follows: 1. One week of orientation phase, where you are not allowed in electronics or contact with the outside world world. Therefore, if you’re going, bring some things you would like to read or study. 2. In phase 2, you can use your phone however you cannot leave campus. You must stay in the dorm on campus. These shitty 1 room run down apartments with two other roommates will cost you about $1000 a week, they are required for at least four weeks and they are billed separately, no insurance will help you out here. 3. In phase 3 you can commute to campus if you beg your therapist and live very close. Whether you’re on campus or living off-campus, you are allowed to leave up to four hours per day. If you commute, you’ll be required to take a sober link decide you must Breath, alcohol test into every 6 hours. Like everything else in this program you must pay for this separately, a few hundred dollars a week. You advanced to other phases by completing assignments, however, assignments are limited by required built-in time, intrusive, scheduling, and reviewing. Therefore, if you do everything as rapidly as possible phase 1 will take one week phase 2 will take three weeks.
Every day schedule:
7:30: wake up, report to the front desk to inform them that you haven’t ran away yet and take and prescribed medications. They keep all your medications and require that you report to take them; for me this was antidepressants in an attempt to dispel the depression I contracted from being forced into treatment and whatever off label medication they were attempting to treat my ADHD with, since control medications were forbidden.
8 am: community group assessments This consisted of other patients presenting their assignments amongst the large group, on the weekends this was often an hour later and 12 study regularly took the place of assignment presentation.
10 am: process group. This was a two hour group therapy session with 6 to 12 other professionals in a therapist and training or occasionally a licensed mental health therapist.
1 pm: recreation This was generally about an hour of some sober themed craft or activity. Once a week this time slot was used for yoga.
2 pm: this was another time slot used for patients to present assignments as well as for individual therapy sessions. Each patient had one individual therapy session lasting 30 minutes per week.
3pm: This was time allotted to work on assignments or go to the gym on your sex specific scheduled gym day.
5pm: this time was used for guest speakers or another 12 step study group.
6 pm : this was generally an off-campus 12 step group
10 pm: report to the front desk and let them know you still haven’t ran away and take and Medication which are prescribed to take at night, then return to your cot bed in your room with 1-2 other roommates.
I found the community to be one of the most beneficial aspects of the PHP program. I was in a cohort of chill ass professionals of the same occupation who were always there to help each other.
Assignments The curriculum of the PHP consisted of assignment based on every step of the 12th step program. Generally, a patient would be required to complete an assignment on their own, review it with other patients, then faculty and finally present the assignment in front of the whole treatment group. You’re only given one assignment at a time and there are multiple steps to each which all requires scheduling this ensures that no matter how determined a patient is a full 90 days of treatment is required to complete all the assignments.
AA structure -the obsolete nature of AA has been verified in numbers studies, but I will refrain from divulging here and lend that endeavor to Dr. Lance Dodes very thorough discussion on the subject,in “the sober truth “
In all sincerity, if I truely did have a severe use disorder this experience could have been life saving. I only wish I could have used my 50 grand for someone who has spent their life time In addictive without reprieve. My first conversation when I was given my phone back was how I wish my father could be able to attend this PHP.
Chapter 5 reporting and PRN Self reporting What they ask you What you should tell them
There’s a third-party agency called professional resource network. Every state has their own. This agency works as a liaison between you and whatever credentialing service your occupation requires. Essentially they ensure your monitoring after treatment. Stake governments and licensing boards trust them, mainly because they monitor with the highest level of intrusiveness. This alleviates much work for state governments and licensing boards because once an individual is being monitored by a professional resource network, then they are deemed appropriate for duty and no further investigation/litigation needs to occur, as long as the monitored individual completely complies.
Because I was never impaired at work I was never reported to this agency. The general workflow of things someone would report you to professional resource network, then the resource network would contact you, and then you would be required to report for an evaluation at a treatment center, which would inevitably result in a suggestion I’ve treatment at that given treatment center. In my case I was sent to the treatment center without PRN being involved. Thus, two weeks into treatment. I was notified by my therapist that I needed to call PRN and self report. I attempted to resistance given that I did not have a problem and was not individually seeking help. I asked what happened if I didn’t self report. I was told that in order to stay in the treatment program I had to report to PRN. This meant either I report to PRN or I get kicked out of the treatment program and lose my job.
When you report to PRN they will ask you why you are in treatment. They will then list off every substance imaginable, asking you if you have ever tried the substance and when your last use was. Ultimately, they will obtain your discharge information from your treatment center, so it is in your best interest to report only what was found in your biochemical testing. If it wasn’t in your hair, I would argue that you don’t have a use disorder regarding that substance and it’s not relevant. I don’t believe it’s important for them to know that you smoked weed when you were 12.
Chapter 6 The contract:
Before being discharged from a treatment facility, a professional resource network will have you sign a contract. A little known fact which I was oblivious to is that contracts can be negotiated. Though this isn’t it possible, it is highly improbable that you can negotiate your contract since PRN has a power to delay your clearance to return to work.
Contractor almost never personalized, and I have not heard of a contract which is not a five-year agreement. You will sign releases of information so that PRN has access to all of your information which was gathered at the treatment facility. You must have a therapist, psychiatrist, primary care, doctor, and a addiction, medicine psychiatrist. You assign releases of information for all of them. You will be required To commit to: 1. three mutual aid meetings a week which you must log. I log smart recovery meetings. 2. Weekly therapy sessions with an approved mental health therapist from their list 3. Monthly doctors appointments with an addiction medicine psychiatrist 4. Yearly appointments with a primary care physician 5. Monthly appointments with a psychiatrist 6. Daily check-ins on a random drug testing app ( you will agree to weekly urine tests, a peth test 4 times a year, a hair test twice a year and a little caveat that says anything else they deem, clinically reasonable) 7. Quarterly update reports which you are required to obtain from a workplace monitor, therapist, addiction, medicine, psychiatrist, primary care physician and any other doctor you are seeing. 8. You must upload all of your prescriptions into a mobile application every single time you get them refilled and are not allowed to take them until they are approved. 9. Attendance of a PRN group via zoom. This is a local group you are assigned along with other monitored practitioners. There is a fee of roughly 130$ a month to attend this required group. For me all of these requirements coast around 20,000 a year. If you ever have a positive test even if it is the result of contamination from rubbing alcohol or unintentional ingestion of alcohol/ allergy medication your contract will rest to 5 years from the time of positive test. Once your five year contract is completed, you must ask to be released from monitoring. At that point they will search for any reason to keep you under monitoring. This could be dilute urines, daily check ins or a week where you did not attend mutual aid meetings. Every certification and license which you apply for will likely ask you if you were under a monitoring program/ have been treated for substance use. You must give an explanation and check yes. As far as licensing programs are concerned, if you were under the monitoring of PRN, you are safe, however they group practitioners who have had behavioral issues with practitioners who were diverting drugs from work. Therefore, keep in mind that you will be labeled as a sever addict.
7 Back to work and only work. During treatment your only goal is to return to work, however when you return your experience will be drastically distinct from what you remember. For me, I was now working in isolation. Missing six months of my training meant that no other Resident was on the same rotation as me. My coworkers at all formed friend groups. When I returned I was greeted with much concern for my well being. No one would speak to be about my absence, however everyone knew there is only one reason a resident would leave for 6 months then return. My Accdeemic meetings were consisting of attending telling me “I have a target on my back now” and “ I have to preform even better than others” in the light of my time missed. If this wasn’t alienating enough, the majority of Resident events, sponsored by recruiters and my university revolved around alcohol to which I had to give some excuse to why I can not partake with others. I’m fortunate that I do not have an addiction, because these stressful conditions along with the daunting amount of dead and requirements imposed by PRN are enough to make any addict relapse. While I was at treatment, I was in the dative with Samyr stories a physicians whose addictions got the best of them. Physicians who did not make it to treatment, often taking their own life. These stories were presented as a warning. Your addictions will kill you without our treatment was the message. When, in reality I did not hear one story in which the addiction killed physician. Every physician who didn’t make it to treatment took their life after being told they must report to a treatment facility. Perhaps they knew what this entailed and it was not their addiction or getting caught which caused them to end their lives, but the unmanageable and often unreasonable burden that treatment would put on their lives.
9 How to escape So your fucked your in PRN and should be or you should and now your recovered and want to terminated your contract.

1. You ask to be released early done at 1/2 time ( good luck)
2. You have “good reason” (no one has ever been let out of contract because of this reason, the verbiage is far too vague)
3. You serve all your time and they let you out(maybe, as discussed earlier, they would do everything they can to keep you in your contract as long as your practicing)
4. You can’t practice medicine anymore

10 Layer up butter cup : I cannot emphasize the extent to which legal help is required in this process. You much seek it and seek it early. Lawyers can provide many avenues to you early in the process. Once you have committed to treatment, gone for evaluation or are in a PRN contract , this is very little that you or legal help can do. Spend a few thousand dollars when you are accused and save the 20-30,000 later.
After you have been evaluated if you disagree as I did, then this is the process you must undergo. 1. Hire a occupation, defense, lawyer 2. Prove you don’t have an addiction, this is done by having an alternative evaluator with similar credentials state that either you don’t have an addiction or that PRN’s level of monitoring is not medically appropriate ( this will need to be a multi day neuropsychological evaluation, which will cost about $5000). 3. Your lawyer must draft in writing that the medical level of monitoring is not required such as another medical professional and send this to PRN 4. PRN will tattle on you to the board of medicine. 5. The board of medicine will conduct an investigation. 6. At the end or when they believe they have enough reasonable evidence to the board of medicine will suspend your license or claim, you must comply with the PRN contract to practice. 7. At this time your lawyer will defend you in the state court against the board. This is costly but much less than the coast of a 5 year PRN contract 8. If you win you will likely suggest an alternative level of care such as gonna get therapy every week. If you lose, than you wasted a fuck ton of money and are still bound by your PRN contract.
Overall this entire process has coast me Over all coast:
My finances for this year only including PRN and rent are as follows:
120-200$ every week for testing 480-800/ month
65 every week for therapy 195/month
125 every month for PRN group
About 50-69 every month for 2 doctor apts
So at least 745$/month at the lowest
Treatment at the recovery center coast 20,000 for me out of pocket and
I wasn’t payed for 6 months with no FMLA because I am a first year. At the 1 year mark I will have made 26,000 this year after taxes And payed About 29,000 on PRN alone
Rent is 1,000 so that’s 12,000 a year
Just in rent and PRN alone I will be at 26,000- 41,600 -15,600.
I will be in debt by at least 18,000 at the 1 year mark
Coast of treatment center 20,000 (with insurance) For each year of PRN roughly 20,000 Add that to 6 months of attending salary which was delayed due to my treatment time: at least 150,000 Layer coasts along with other evaluations 25,000 Missing 6 months of residency pay 30,000 Coast of 1 year in monitoring: 245,000 Coast of 5 years 325,000
If my case progress to a trail I will require an extra 20,000 in court coasts
Chapter 11 My secondary eval: Dr sushi After I arrived at my treatment center I challenge my evaluation multiple times. Each and every time I was discharged and often accused of alternate mental health/ substance abuse issues to discourage my advances. I was never given the opportunity to undergo alternative assessment, however PRN guidelines state that you can obtain a second option within 7 days of your first. This is a mute point, however, because you will not receive the results of your evaluation until over a week after it is conducted and the second evaluation must be conducted by another PRN hired evaluator of their choosing. During my stay in rehab I contacted PRN multiple times to attempt another evaluation/ legal help. They warned against both stating they were a “waste of money” and “pointless”.
After completing my treatment with the guidance of many addiction, experienced physicians, mental health counselors and psychiatrists recommendations I sought in a secondary evaluation. I chose a highly qualified professional with over 30 years of experience to conduct an extensive neuo psycho social evaluation of me. One that I was sure would be more extensive than the evaluation I received at treatment and more importantly an unbiased evaluation.
The results from my evaluation not only showed that I did not have a substance abuse problem warranting PRN level monitoring, but also that PRN was falling to allow adequate treatment of other conditions such as my ADHD. My evaluation showed my ADHD was not only untreated by PRNs attempt at using non controlled medication, but also in the top 3% most severe presentations of ADHD. My evaluator went on to explain my results by questioning why my treatment center even mandated I undergo neuro cognitive evaluation. The only neurodiverse findings were my IQ, my dyslexia and my ADHD. However, a neuo cognitive examination can be billed separately by treatment centers, therefore they always recommend one.
Chapter 12 Amongst its greed, intrusive nature and faulty accusations, professional recourse network function highly proficiently at the task they were designed to; protective physicians and patients from physicians who are impaired at work. In this domain they save lives, offer second changes and protect the public. When they act beyond their intended jurisdiction by imposing unnecessary monetary demands on practitionersin training, accuse practitioners without proof or act on behavior exemplified outside of a work setting they unjustly and inappropriately attack the week and innocent.
Proposed reform: As a trainee my universities malpractice insurance covers me for mistakes made at work. If a learner mistakenly harms a patient, then the university stands on their behalf. If the learner does something wrong under a teachers direct guidance, then the teacher is at fault. This makes sense logically as well as pragmatically. The state entrusts large amounts of money to hospital systems and universities to train resident physicians. A portion of this money is allocated to malpractice insurance. This should extend to accused impairment.
Suppose a training university was required to cover rehabilitation and monitoring of a resident of whom they claim is impaired. Alternatively they have the option of firing the trainee. This would reduce the number of innocent trainees being accused of impairment, make the process of rehabilitation more fair and provide a better use for tax payer derived dollars, which hospital systems are given to train residents. The truly impaired could still seek help, less false accusations would be made and with the employers having the ability to fire at the moment of impairment, there would be less chance of impairment at work.

This is how things are falling apart, and coming together nicely for those who were tortured through tyrannical systems, and did not deserve it. Have faith in god, if it steers you towards the side of good vs evil, because it truly DOES matter. That is the great culling happening soon, and it wasn't a slaughter of every bad person, it was a sterilization, and being left behind, that the bad people get. The good people get to "ascend" into something much bigger than what we have created on earth. That was our great judgement. If you are good, you will "transcend our world", If you were bad, you will not.
The sterilization will happen soon because the alignment of the planets of the 2 or ???# distant species is stretching. We are going to lose contact soon in the coming years probably, but I am not sure when. It's all about saving the right souls, and leaving the wrong ones to rot in an endless loop of time, a spiral towards the center of a giant black hole, sucking in the rest of the galaxy. We will see the development of technologies that can never be used to save us now anyways, taking place. They will tell you everything you ever dreamed of knowing about fields and gravity and time, if you are staying on earth, because it no longer matters. We couldn't even devise the level of tech required to escape the "fields" now. They really were our last chance.
It's way too late for the people doing this to us, but please everyone, have hope for your own soul if you are truly good inside. I implore you to have faith in something bigger than what humanity can create. Let the goodness shine until it's over, because it WILL go noticed, just not by ourselves. The brighter you shine as a good person, the more likely you are to get access to a life raft on this sinking ship. Have faith in a higher power, and it really isn't humanity that you need to have faith in anymore.
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• Robert W. Christie

Hello to whomever is reading this. I am writing this post because I am in need of advice. I am a 16 year old male (sophomore) and I am very close to collapsing. My first issue is in regards to my academics. I am 6 days away from the semester ending and have let work accumulate. Meaning that I am failing this semester. I do not know how to go forward with this. My counselor has left me on read and I am unable to locate her. I wanted to contact her so she could assign summer classes for me. I have no friends but I am social. It does not matter who or where it is, I am a very open individual. Still I do not have a sense of community. No one cares about what I think, say or do. This is the last place I am asking for advice because I have no one. I am unable to receive any sort of "mental health" support because I am not financially well off and the school year is almost over. I do not have a mental illness, it does not matter if I have gone through physical or mental trauma. I am a functioning member of our social organism. Now to begin, why I fell short on my classes. Since middle school I have always been able to complete my work. I developed a habit where I stalled in class and quickly finished my work at home. Though after covid I lost that discipline and continued the stalling. This continued into High-school, and here we are. It is not the quality of work that is the problem it is the quantity. This is why I have been bored in most of my classes, besides anything that challenges me like STEM. It became irritating to sit there and let time pass by, surrounded by individuals I disliked. Due to covid a lot of people my age are not able to hold conversations. They are unwilling to think or to even function as human beings. It is frustrating when I am paired up with three other individuals and they are unable to function or contribute. I am afraid of asking to be put in honors or anything besides standard classes (College preparatory classes - CP classes.) This is because of my transcripts/grades, they are disgusting. I am afraid that I will appear obscene and my request to be put into AP or Honors classes will be viewed as obscenities. At this point no college will want me, I just want to graduate High-school as fast as possible. I am behind on credits and I do not have any attachments to my school or to any social groups. There has to be a program that let's me go as fast as my own competence. Not held back by a schedule or arbitrary rules. Where do I go from here, I do not have certainty on how to move forward in regards to failing this semester. I have betrayed myself for nothing and continue to do so. I have hobbies, I enjoy literature may that be reading or writing. I enjoy physical activity, culinary skills, art (traditional/digital/animation/3D), engineering, fish keeping, linguistics, music production, business, programming, talking, and content creation. Still I am unable to invest in my hobbies because I am held back by my own negligence. What do I do from here? As trivial as what I described may seem. Please leave your opinion in regards to these issues. What steps do I take moving forward?

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As I lay here in this hospital bed, facing the uncertainty of surgery and the looming presence of a brain tumor, I find solace in the support surrounding me. Kate, whom I once loved deeply, has reentered my life in a way I never expected. Her presence brings a strange mix of comfort and complexity, but in this moment, it's her hand I hold tightly as we navigate this daunting journey together.
The days leading up to the surgery have been filled with a whirlwind of emotions, but amidst it all, there's a sense of clarity. I realize now, more than ever, the importance of those who stand by us in our darkest hours. My friends, my family, and even Kate's unwavering support have become pillars of strength, grounding me in the midst of chaos.
As I prepare for the surgery, I'm filled with a blend of fear and hope. Fear of the unknown that lies ahead, but also hope for a future free from the shadow of illness. The promise I made to Kate's sister weighs heavily on my mind, but it's a promise I intend to keep, fueled by the determination to emerge from this ordeal stronger than before.
The move to a better hospital and the expertise of the top-rated surgeon offer a glimmer of optimism in an otherwise daunting situation. I find comfort in knowing that I'm in capable hands, supported not only by medical professionals but by a network of loved ones who refuse to let me face this battle alone.
As the surgery date draws near, I cling to moments of normalcy, cherishing the laughter and camaraderie shared with friends and loved ones. Their presence reminds me that even in the darkest of times, there is light to be found in the bonds we share.
So here I am, facing the unknown with a mixture of trepidation and resilience, but above all, with an unwavering sense of gratitude for the love and support that surrounds me. Whatever the outcome may be, I take solace in knowing that I am not alone in this fight. And as I prepare to confront the challenges that lie ahead, I hold onto the hope that on the other side of this trial, there awaits a future filled with healing, strength, and the unwavering presence of those who stood by my side when I needed them most.
As the day of surgery arrives, I find myself enveloped in a whirlwind of emotions. Fear threatens to consume me as I lie on the hospital bed, awaiting the moment when I will be wheeled into the operating room. Yet, amidst the uncertainty, there is a flicker of hope burning bright within me.
Kate's presence beside me is a source of both comfort and complexity. Our past shared experiences flood my mind, but in this moment, all that matters is her unwavering support. Her hand in mine serves as a lifeline, grounding me in the reality of the present and offering reassurance that I am not alone in this journey.
As I exchange heartfelt goodbyes with my loved ones, I am filled with gratitude for the strength and resilience they have shown throughout this ordeal. Their unwavering support has been a beacon of light in the darkness, guiding me through the most challenging moments with unwavering love and compassion.
With a final glance at Kate, I am wheeled into the operating room, where skilled hands work tirelessly to rid my body of the tumor that threatens to steal my future. In the hazy moments before anesthesia claims my consciousness, I hold onto the hope that awaits on the other side of this trial.
Hours pass in a blur of uncertainty, but as I slowly awaken to the world once more, I am greeted by the smiling faces of my loved ones. The surgery was a success, and though the road to recovery may be long, I am filled with renewed hope for the future.
In the days that follow, I lean on the unwavering support of those who stood by my side through the darkest of times. Together, we navigate the challenges of recovery with strength and determination, knowing that each step forward brings us closer to a future filled with healing and possibility.
As I reflect on the journey that brought me to this moment, I am reminded of the power of love and resilience in the face of adversity. Though the road ahead may be uncertain, I am filled with gratitude for the unwavering presence of those who stood by my side when I needed them most.
With Kate's hand in mine, I face the future with renewed hope and determination, knowing that together, we can overcome any obstacle that comes our way. And as we embrace the journey ahead, I am filled with a profound sense of gratitude for the love and support that surrounds me, guiding me through the darkest of times and into a future filled with endless possibility.

[highschool btw]
So I want to join this “friend group” but how?
This friend group is gorgeous, they have the same humor, music taste, fashion taste, and culture as me.
I kinda talk with 3/4 of them on a daily basis cuz I have classes with them but how can I be like friends with them basically? One of them we talk a lot 🤞🤞😞😞
Im just confused idek how this whole friendship thing works tbh.. but ik that i really like them and theyre so funn to be around yk 😞
But how do I startt??
Do u guys hate it when a new person joins ur friend group. How does that even happen
Guys im lowk kinda sad and stressed abt it ☹️😞😣

Any and all perspectives help more than you know. I don’t have anybody to really talk about this with so any guidance is appreciated. It’s a lot to read, I might yap but with reason
I’m 19 years old and have just finished my spring semester of college. I went to a big college out of town, my main financial aid fucked me over so I had to switch at semester to my home state’s university. Anyway, this year was kinda tough for me lost a couple family members & my boyfriend had it rough, lost his best friend and dad within a few months of each other. Then in March, we find out I’m pregnant. I wasn’t sure what I wanted but didn’t really get to make a choice, soon after I miscarried. It was difficult so I went back to hometown & finished semester online while staying with boyfriend until I needed to move my stuff out of dorm.
My boyfriend is 19 and we’ve been together a year & a half, but known each other since middle school. We dated in 8 grade until he had to move out of state, he moved back & we started hanging out again. My circle is small & I don’t really make/have any friends but he’s my best friend. Even if we wouldn’t have chose to date after he came back to town, ik we would’ve been good friends. My family liked him or seemed to at least, especially my mom.
It’s well known in my family that my mom and I just don’t get along. She kept me quite literally locked away as the Cinderella child until I left. I could only do stuff if she wasn’t in a bad mood/something didn’t need cleaned/ a child didn’t need to be picked up/dropped off. After a while I figured out life is better if i deal w it instead of push back harder. My friends in high school never invited me ANYWHERE, I didn’t know how to use a crosswalk until I was 14 lmao I was so sheltered sorry ANYWAYS, I turned 18 and it was like I had a brand new mother until her fear of me leaving wore off.
Long story short, the summer before I left for college (last summer) my mom & I got into a fight, I didn’t have anywhere else to go so I moved in with boyfriend. My mom did the absolute most, wouldnt let me get any of my stuff or car for a few weeks (I had purchased almost EVERYTHING for myself since I was 15, including my car that she told me since I bought it as a minor I couldn’t have it under my name :/ ), almost got me fired from my job & ambulance ended up being called from how much of a tantrum she threw. It was so ridiculous that she refused to tell anybody what happened when people asked because she said it’s too embarrassing for her.
Just like that, she flipped. My boyfriend had a rough upbringing which she knows some stuff about. She took that and twisted the narrative to make him seem like some sort of charity case that took advantage of her generous & good graces. She calls him the hungry kid who hangs out w her daughter. He’s no longer allowed at her house lmao just out of spite. He never said a word to her or about her even when she had the worst to say about him, he never was disrespectful or showed up to the house either so idrk why she said that. Even when I moved out & she drained my entire savings I had worked for since I was 15, he never said anything bad about her just that i was going to be okay & he’s gonna help me figure it out.
Not only that but she shunned me for a long time, refused to talk & look at me after I moved out. My little brother was 5 and didn’t really understand & my mom didn’t bother to explain or kid proof it, just let him scream, cry, & claw at my legs whenever I’d leave the house to go home. I felt so guilty & like I had to compensate so I’d stress out & make sure to see my siblings every single day till I left for college.
If you’re still reading thank you sm.
Fast forward to today, left for college & it didn’t work out, finished semester online, and am back in my hometown. Over breaks in college I’ve stayed at my moms cause she expected me to and her & I’s relationship has gotten so much better with distance. Between her and boyfriend, they were my biggest & only support especially with the miscarriage. But the only conversation they’ve had is when him and I went to talk to my mom in person when I found out I was pregnant. Not sure where she stands with him idrc but I’m sure she probably hates him more since we did technically make her worst fear as a mother come true.
Im living with her now, mainly cause I don’t want to be isolated again & i physically cant deal with the debilitating anxiety and guilt every day, I wanted to try to focus on healing & resting before I start classes in the fall. Boyfriend’s family situation is getting v challenging for him, hes gonna get a place regardless. I really just want a space where I’m not feeling constantly overstimulated & I miss living with him a lot honestly. We make the best team & it’s so easy with him. I catch myself getting so excited looking at furniture even from the thrift or think ab cooking w him. I miss him making breakfast for me before I wake up and folding laundry together and grocery shopping. He’s paying 6 months rent in advance so that I won’t have to worry about getting enough hours & can enjoy summer and actually rest. Both of us independently have a pretty thick cushion to fall back on too just in case. So finances aren’t a problem I think?
My mom isn’t too keen on the idea. I think she doesn’t want me to make the same mistakes she made, which I understand because I was also there when she was left with half of every pair of shoes she owned, I mean he took literally half of everything. Even in the case that we do break up and then I’m stuck with an apartment with my ex and have completely fucked myself over, at least I made my first mistake & learned from it? Idk what to tell my mom or how the conversation should go. I don’t wanna be shunned again but then again I’ve never once been able to just do something and justify it with “it’s my life”. Advice/thoughts/bullshit/opinions? Have a blessed day, I appreciate your time & input more than you know.

Hi, I'll try and keep this quick but informative but I really dont know what to do.
Backstory: New girl at work (24). She's been amazing to talk to and work with though she's told me in private she's had issues with her bf.
She's recently broken up with her ex but he's one of those tough guys got out of prison type dudes. So he's stalking her. He climbs over her fence and harasses her friends. It comes in burts. He can be here everyday for a week sitting outside her house then you don't see him for a month. Police are already deeply involved within this but its not helping much since she won't charge him.
Fast forward to today: He confronted her at her house when she had another guy over. He called her names and stuff and put hands on the guy.
The week prior she had come back from Italy with other work friends and was sick. When I told her to go home If she's sick but she insisted on staying due to money reasons. Even though she had a high temp that she says she couldn't feel. We make good money at our job so I'm was wondering why she was struggling even though she goes on holiday a decent amount with her friends.
Also she told me she was talking random medication instead of going to see a doctor.
When I heard she didn't come in again yesterday I messaged her and she told me she was not great mentally and felt terrible. But it was weird the way she said it to me it was almost like a suicide note wrapped in tinfoil.
So I went over to see her as I knew where she lived. When I got there she broke down crying saying she feels like a screw up and she can't do anything right. She compares herself to other allot and cares deeply of what people think of her.
Regardless later on I found out she was smoke allot of weed, tobaco and taking ketamine likely to deal with the what she's going though. She also told me she's living off a almost maxed credit card.
Yesterday she asked to borrow a little money off me. Nothing major so I gave it to her. But I don't want to enable her to drive herself deeper into debt or make a choice she regrets.
I genuinely don't know what to. I want yo give her some money so she can figure stuff out but i dont think that will help due to her state of mind right now. She's very emotional and fragile right now and I see she needs help. I've never had to deal with this in my life so any help is greatly appreciated. If you need more context I'll tell you as a reply. Thank you for taking the time to help her.

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Basically what the title says. Initially, the DMs start out normal ("Hey", "How was your day" etc) and then the account will ask "can I tell you something" and it'll be something like "I had a crush on a family member" or "my S/O has a crush on my mom"
If you react with something like "oh damn, thats crazy" they'll ask if you want to know more, and if you say you don't care either way (as I did, since I already suspected this was a bot/scam account), they go on to tell you the intricate details of what I can only assume is a fetish (the interest in family members, as both accounts that messaged me specified it was their mother that was "a milf". In addition to this though, i also suspect its a humiliation fetish, and they are wanting someone to say they (the account) is disgusting or something similar)
I was just curious if anyone else has had this experience with their insta dm's? I'm torn between thinking this is a weird bot, a scam of some kind, or a person who has made multiple accounts for their fetish. It's worth noting that the profile pictures for the accounts mentioned are "normal" looking too (selfie pose, bit of a snapchat filter, not super high quality pic or of super pretty people, just average looking people and pfp's)

Today I was in toddlers (I'm a floater) and we have a few screamers but one kid was particularly bad today. He always has a ton of energy, plays rough, and runs around the classroom making a lot of noise. Sometimes he screams when he's mad, other times I have literally no idea why he does it. He's 3. I also have no idea how to make it stop. Today he was running around on all 4s (he does this a lot) and I cannot get the image out of my mind of when he was in this position on the floor screaming up at me so intensely and with such (unprevoked?) pure rage that his face was red, he looked like he was sweating, and I felt like his veins were going to pop. I hate to compare a child to an animal, but he looked like a wild animal. Like a dog about to bite you (thankfully he's not a biter). After many failed attempts of getting him to stop, including just leaving him alone, I finally went down to get our admin but when she came up he just hid from her quietly. Sometimes just the threat of her works I guess, and the kids love her so sometimes they just want a visit from her and it's almost like a reward for bad behaviour unfortunately, but I wish the behaviour was not happening in the first place, let alone requiring me to bring her in every time to stop it. I thought about recording it on my phone next time to show her that I'm not crazy (even though she does believe me) because by the time she gets up there they've usually stopped after I'm at my wit's end with them.
We have another kid who just turned 2 who has turned into a serial biter (10 bites in the last 3 days I think) and who has also gotten very aggressive lately in general. The babies are usually pretty well behaved, but when another child steals a toy for example, they might cry or whine or yell like a normal baby would, but yesterday the way this child yelled "no" over something as small as wanting to use a toy another child was playing with, again, it was such intense rage it was scary. Her whole tiny body shook and she wasn't crying crying but she had tears in her eyes.
Do your kids ever scare you with the sheer intensity of their anger that seems really out of place? Like I know they're super young but that level of rage taking over their whole body is actually frightening and doesn't seem like anything the other kids have displayed and I don't know how to make it stop. The biting/aggression just keeps getting worse and she clearly doesn't understand at all when we try to talk to her about it. The 3 year old boy knows better and half the time seems to scream for no reason.

So my ex and I (23f, 25f) broke up a little over 3 months ago. It was really brutal, I was blindsided, but at the same time I hurt her quite a bit as well. We were really toxic towards the end and I genuinely think this was for the best.
Like an hour and a half after we have the breakup conversation, Im at home trying to process things and she texts me a picture of her mom’s dog wearing a kansas city chiefs shirt and says “I fear you would have left me over this anyways” (Context for anyone who doesn’t care about sports, I just straight up don’t like the Chiefs and they were playing in the super bowl again that weekend). I didn’t respond at all and just felt really hurt, we broke up under strange circumstances and I was left feeling like she just didn’t like me and I was resigned to the fact that she didn’t respect me anymore, so getting a joke text within 2 hours of breaking up hurt a lot tbh. Like what was I supposed to say?
Fast forward two days, I didn’t respond to her dumb joke and she texts me at like midnight saying “Im sorry, I’ll learn forgiveness, you were my best friend and I hope we can be friends again” and then says a bunch more stuff the next morning like “We should talk soon”, “nobody understands me like you, I just want to speak with you about this and nobody else but we can’t and it sucks”. My sister and my friends told me to block her but I held strong for some reason. I just couldn’t let go.
Then a few MORE days later I decided to respond with no words, I send her the laundry/taxes meme from Everything Everywhere All at Once, partly because it was sentimental and we did have a really special relationship at one point, and also because lowkey the last thing I dropped off for her was her W-2 and her laundry. She responds saying we should talk soon, and says all kinds of stuff like “I miss you lots”, “Maybe we just need time to be our own people”, “Im still wearing the ring you gave me” (context: It wasn’t a promise ring or engagement ring or anything, just was one of the first birthday presents I ever got her and was one of the first gifts I ever bought someone where I spent real real money on, so it at least meant SOMETHING to us), and a whole bunch of other sentimental stuff, concluding with “Im here whenever you’re ready to speak.” These messages all really hurt me and multiple ppl told me to block her but once again, I just couldn’t bring myself to.
Now, a few more days go by and she texts me about a performance one of our mutual friends’ invited us to. She asked if I was gonna go and said if I was then she would back out. This just bothered me SO MUCH, not only had I forgotten all about this performance and had zero intention of going given the state I was in, but it was just a question that NEEDED an answer, I couldn’t just leave her on read again, right? I responded and kinda showed too much of my feelings and how hurt I was, and we spoke a bit over text. She admitted she handled our breakup inappropriately and also said that marriage was still a possibility for us (Mind you, in our final argument as a couple she pointed at me and goes “Does this even look like marriage material?” which I still think about to this day). It was….jarring. I pretty much clung on to that hope. Then at the end she completely switched her stance and said SHE needed time and that she would let ME know when she was ready for a conversation, saying she needed two weeks.
Fast forward a few weeks, we had been in contact only to exchange our belongings, but she blocked me after I told her she could leave one of my hats in the mailbox if she didnt want to see me. So I message her dad a week later in order to get my things back and get that all sorted. However, one of my friends informed me that she was speaking to a boy in one of her psych courses who had been hitting on her. This kinda sent me down the rabbit hole and I message her dad again asking for some of my stuff back. Mind you, Im still blocked at this point so if I wanted it back, I had to go through him. The thing she still had of mine was my nice pillow which i had given to her to take to her dorm, and even a few days after the breakup she had said stuff like “Im still sleeping on the pillow you gave me” so at this rate I just wanted it back. Her dad immediately assumed I had blocked her and he tried to speak to me like I was his kid and I told him “your daughter is the one who blocked me” and he got really embarrassed. I get unblocked and get my pillow back bc I dont know how youre still sleeping on it while speaking to the first dude that hits on you (Mind you this girl swore she was a lesbian and was always worried I would cheat with a boy). I get the pillow back, she compliments my hair bc I had gotten it done, and we go on our separate ways.
Now, I messaged her a couple more times because I kept finding stuff of hers at my place. Id dropped some of it off at her dad’s place bc he lives in town. Fast forward to my birthday exactly 2 months after we breakup, she texts me at 9pm saying “Happy birthday” and nothing else. Wtf. I didn’t reply and I actually was super lonely on my bday so she was the last person I wanted to hear from.
I think I made the mistake of trying to bring one of her things to her a week later because I was visiting a friend who lived by her campus. This is where I feel she thinks I might be the one trying to drop breadcrumbs. It was super awkward, i just handed her her stuff and she said something completely inaudible but sounded like “take care” or something along those lines. And NOW is where I make the ultimate mistake of asking why that was weird once she got back into her building. She was basically like “im still healing, don’t message me unless theres stuff of mine thatyou have. I dont want to speak to you for a very long time if not ever”. So in 2 months I go from “im here whenever youre ready” to “dont speak to me ever”.
I told her that I am still healing too and dont even want to have a conversation yet, and I make the mistake of asking why she bothered telling me happy birthday if thats how she feels. The response i got from her was “I did it because it would have felt bad not saying anything, I wont say it again next year”. I got blocked permanently a few messages later.
So basically, just go no contact and stick to it. I should have taken my friends advice and blocked her a long time ago, and because I didnt I got my hopes up and got hurt again. Apologies for the long post, but seriously sometimes people just say things because they are emotional and not because they mean them. I held out for hope for way too long.
Apologies for the long ass post
Edit for context about our relationship: We dated 4 years and in the end I was the one who fell apart, wasn’t taking care of myself, etc. We were far from perfect for each other long before that, but had been through so much together and loved each other very much. Ultimately I hurt her over and over and held in the times she hurt me and never worked on forgiving her. I was very resentful towards the end and I 100% do not blame her for leaving, we were just wrong for each other plain and simple. Loved each other but became two passing ships in the night who only let our true feelings show when we were arguing. I want whoever she is with to treat her far better than I, and I got the impression that she felt the same about me... even if she clearly has been hurt by the times that I HAVE spoken to her since breaking up. Ultimately when we broke up I was 100% set on going no contact because I had assumed that’s what she wanted, because I knew we were no good for each other. That is why it all hurt so much when she reached out and gave me chances to redeem myself after we broke up. But I was too afraid to squash that hope in fear of hurting her more. I want nothing but the best for this person, and while I tell myself it was a waste of time from time to time when Im feeling upset, I have so many incredible memories with her, even though there were a lot of bad ones too. It was still a massive growing experience and fuck is it sad that we just couldn’t stick it out in the long run. We were each other’s first love, and we both tried so fucking hard to make it work in spite of everything going on around us. God bless her at the end of the day, I’ve forgiven her for the hurt she caused me, and we owe each other nothing. I never expected her to say she would work on forgiveness, I was left feeling like I shouldn’t deserve it. This has been an incredibly long post so if anyone has read this thank you, you can heal from this and you got this. This sub has actually been helpful, a lotta other people are feeling the same way you are. You’re not alone and you can heal.

Hey! Alberta, day to day life is pretty boring it's just the same thing week after week but been trying to do more.
about me: • Gamer (xbox) when i have the time. • Love Tattoos • I have 4 piercings • Have a 12 y/o child • 2 cats, 1 dog • I love cars but will be honest don't know a whole lot about em hope to own a K truck on day. • Looking to get a motorcycle • Watcher of anime • started working out in December trying to better myself
Thats really all I can think of right now.

Hi all - I was diagnosed with PCOS after going off birth control and realizing my periods were fairly irregular (30-60 days). I have no other symptoms outside of irregular periods and cysts confirmed via ultrasound and my labs have been fairly normal (normal testosterone, normal insulin, normal glucose). BMI of 21 so I am technically in the “lean PCOS” category and have been athletic/eat healthy most of my life. I also have hypothyroidism and have been taking levothyroxine to keep my TSH levels within the normal range also, my RE says the irregular periods are most likely only caused by PCOS and that the hypothyroidism is a nonfactor since my TS has been consistent.
I am not currently TTC but am planning to soon and have been wanting to understand all potential options to regulate my periods prior to trying. My RE recommended 2000 mg myo-inositol daily and 600mg n-acetylcysteine daily as a potential supplement to regulate periods, but that I would most likely need some sort of ovulation stimulant like clomid/letrozole when we are actually TTC. I wanted to ask the PCOS community if anyone has had success with these supplements? Recommended brands? These seem branded as a diabetes medication - How does this supplement actually support ovulation in women with lean PCOS?
My RE said that I most likely am not ovulating if my cycles are long especially up to 60 days, and that if we did start trying now that there is a potential that I could be ovulating but that the long cycles could mean a reduction in egg quality… more risk of miscarriage etc… I interpreted this as “wait to start trying until your cycles are closer to 30 days”… any ideas on this?

I'm interested in buying a Starlink here in the US (probably from a place like Best Buy where I can pick it up in person) and then taking the unit down to Peru where I will then sign up for the Peruvian Starlink service. Does anyone know if this is possible? I see no Starlink sales support number or chat to ask them directly. It will take several weeks to order a Starlink in Peru and I don't have that much time (I will need the Starlink at my research station in rural Peru). Thanks for anyone with leads on information!

For my 3 wishes I would do the following 1) I wish for (option a) a credit/debit card that always has the perfect amount of money on it for whatever I'm buying with no economic repercussions or (option b) I can make 1 trillion dollars a day withoit doing anything at all also with no economic consequences.( I lean toward option (a) because it seems easier to not have repercussions) 2) I wish for every single kekkei genkai, kekkei tota, and kekkei mora from naruto with a chakra pool large enough to use them ( note all mangekyou sharingan are in the eternal form and I can switch between different sets at will they also come with all the abilities but share a common susanoo) And finally... 3) I wish for the brain capacity and knowledge to know how to use all these abilities and the space to learn more things in the future with ease.