Okay I was watching Punch-Drunk Love (highly recommended movie) and I find it so relatable and I finally have the guts to share the most embarrassing story you've heard and be ready to cringe. This is a long one lads, it's a lore.
I was 11 turning 12 years old and this girl comes to my school who had just moved from Saudi. She used to get the best grades in school, you know she is the cool girl. My mom liked her when she met her at PTA and that was like a seal of approval for young me. (Context: - I live in an Asian country)
My mind fixated on her although she was an year and exactly 6 months older than me. (Same grade). So here's where the plot thickens. Grade 6, enters another student, let's call him Cow. So Cow sat near me from the first day of school and I introduced him to everything. He became more sociable than I am and the dude didn't care I mean that's alright shit happens but he became close to the girl I like. (Let's call her Moose)
Fast forward 5 years later, Cow and Moose are close friends and Cow's friends were shipping him for her. She kept friend zoning him. I have never talked to Moose ever. Like never. We were in the same class. Last day of school, I was relieved to be leaving my shitty school life just as I'm leaving Moose says bye to me like she waves her hand and I was like you talking to me (like De Niro). So I called up a friend I know (prefect) and he gave me her number and my excuse was that I needed the numbers of the students I didn't have contacts in class and he bought it. So I hit her up. I was mansplaining the fuck out. She took it like a good sport. We were texting for a while.
But Cow didn't like it. We were supposed to meet to get the leaving certificates back at school. Moose wanted to get it at the same time as me. Guess who's there. The motherfucking boogeyman, I swear jealousy is a motherfucker sometimes I can't ignore it. But guess what she called him "her brother" and I was sitting at the office couch and those words hit like melody to me. And I got up, talked to her. Like that shit gave me confidence like never before and it's gonna comeback to haunt me (later you'll realize). So I accidentally flirted at her and Cow went like "Huh". So now I'm overwhelmed and I realized I'm running my mouth too much so I went outside and this girl calls me.
Context about this other girl: - So you know how tuition classes are a thing in Asia so I was in an IT class where I know this girl from a ceremony. She became a real close friend to me and she'll play an important role later. (Let's call her Mini Cooper (coz she's short 😂))
So she saw me from her school van. And she was giving me a call. Looking back, she liked me. I hid the fact that I had a crush on Moose.
And now Cow is pissed off at me and he is pillow-talking through texts. He shares that embarrassing story where I broke fast for just a lollipop for my friend's birthday which is meant to be a fucking joke. Moose said these things to me and I wanted to get back at him so bad.
Now I'm in my relative's funeral and I was bored af (sounds terrible I'm sorry) and Mini Cooper started texting me after an Instagram story I posted. Atp she knows that I had a crush on Moose. I was loathing about the fact that Cow and his friends and Moose go to the same college now and I'm alone and shit and they are taking photos. I had severe Fear of Missing Out. And She mentioned about her friend that goes to the same college. And we find out that both these girls are best friends. I felt like I hit the jackpot. So I beg Mini Cooper to talk her friend and get her on my side. I was trying to be the parasite coz Cow was using his friends to ship him to her. So Mini Cooper set it up. And she said that this friend is a "high maintenance" and I should've knew then. I hit her up (let's call her Molly Shannon(glasses)) and it was cool and it went on. Now here comes the most embarrassing thing that happened. (if you've read up to this point huge thank you, coz my own ass wouldn't read something this long)
I was in Mania after the funeral ended and I was so overwhelmed to get back at Cow. So I started texting Cow. Stupid move like moving your Queen diagnol to the bishop. I was asking some stupid shit like When's your birthday and replying like "Oh yeah mine's at the end of November". And I asked how's college and shit. Then I asked "Do you know this girl? Molly Shannon(not her real name)" and dude was like "Yeah the girl with glasses" she hangs around with Moose. So I was like "she's my relative". This is the moment where I fucked up big time. Coz I don't know what I was thinking. I don't know what my plan was. He was like "Oh Nice".
So I stopped texting Molly Shannon after that coz she is a weirdo and I had not realized what I've done coz I completely ignored.
Weeks later, I see a Snapchat snap and Cow, his friends, Molly Shannon and Moose were going on a bus. Seemed like a flex on me. And I was like sighing. Then I get a call. It's from Cow. Cow takes a call with his friends and starts making fun of me. "Molly Shannon is your cousin?" with Molly Shannon laughing in the background. I was so embarrassed of it. My anxiety was creeping up. She ratted on me for clout.
So I joined this college (bcoz I'm stupid but yeah it ended up being a good choice thank god) and there was a orientation party and I was walking from mosque to college. And suddenly, Cow and his friends appear and they start making fun of me through the whole party. I fucked up big time. And this took a huge toll on my mental health. Plus the barber fucked my hair up and I was wearing a cap and I was walking around the party like an idiot with nobody. Moose and Molly Shannon were looking at me like crazy.
I call Mini Cooper and she calmed me down. (Best friend ever, love you ❤️) but I did more wrong to her coz I'm an entitled asshole. To dismiss the cousin rumours I said it was Mini Cooper's idea. She knew but she never spoke of it. The thing about Mini Cooper is my mom didn't like her. That's the thing that kept me from getting close to her. My mom made me not hang out with people she didn't like.
Okay, the most important fact here is that Moose never knew about any of this shit. She didn't know I had a crush on her. She didn't know the cousin thing. And it was weird. I went to her DMs and started apologizing for no reason. Another embarrassing moment. But Thank God.
This thing kept on bugging me for so long and I was already suicidal. Cow and I are the only ones in College and we weren't as terrible as we were before coz Moose left college in her 1st year. I tried to make it as funny as possible but you know it sounds terrible. And Mini Cooper, I know you know. I'm sorry.
This is one of the two embarrassing moments between Me and Moose. I do care if nobody reads, it would hurt me that this shit I did goes unacknowledged. Fellas, don't worry if you fucked up, you can't fuck up as much me.
This is a story of an entitled, pathetic, anxious, full of himself and impulsive idiot.

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Running is an individual sport, but is much better when you have the support of a community. running provides that community in an online forum, but many running groups and clubs are scattered throughout the US. I plan to submit weekly reviews of different running clubs in different cities over the upcoming weeks - I currently have on the schedule Houston (multiple times), Los Angeles, Denver, Kansas City (multiple times), Dallas, San Antonio, Austin, Atlanta (multiple times), Oklahoma City, Tampa, Jacksonville, Orlando, and possibly Louisville. I hope you enjoy!
Club Name: HTB Run Club - Highland Tap and Burger Metro: Denver, CO Meet dates: Wednesdays at 6:30 pm Run date: May 1, 2024 Route distance: 3.1 or 6.2 miles
Last Week's Review: https://www.reddit.com/running/s/Jsa1fNld13
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mercuriarunning?igsh=MWo5NHU5dzBtY3Axbg==
Strava: https://strava.app.link/6bxq68G1CJb
This was the first time in a while. I'd stayed in Denver, and believe it or not, I don't think I had ever gone on a run in this city. I was only here for a couple of nights, so I decided to check out one of the few Wednesday night run clubs that I could find. This was a run club that is sponsored by a running coaching group called mercuria running, and the perks are pretty great. You get a free dinner by attending the run Club.
I was staying in downtown, so I decided to make the 2 Mile Trek across town to the Highlands area. I was very impressed with the charm of the city and how pretty it is overall. The group meets at Highland Tap and Burger, and I arrived about 5 minutes early. The parking seemed a little tight, as street parking was all that was available.
When I walked up, roughly 20 people were already hanging out on the patio, and I quickly introduced myself to a few few of the runners. A little after 6:30 pm, the main coach and run Club leader gave a quick club overview and mentioned that there was a 3.1 mile route and a 6.2 mile route. I, along with the group I was talking to, decided to do the 3.1 mile route. The group took off, and immediately headed east towards Commons Park. The route is a loop course and consists of 1 and 1/2 mi running through residential areas and 1 and 1/2 mi running through Commons Park. Commons Park is a well-designed and lively Park west of downtown Denver that borders South Platte River. I ran with a local runner for the majority of the latter half of the run. Aside from the aesthetically pleasing Commons park, the end of the Run consists of a massive uphill climb that that is a leg destroyer.
After the run, runners lineup inside of a back room to get the free meal. They had a quinoa, rice, salad, ham, and spaghetti. While it was delicious, I couldn't help but think what an odd combination it was. However, out of all the clubs I've been to, not a single one has provided a free meal, so I'm definitely not complaining. While waiting in line for the food, I introduced myself to a couple new Denver transplants and we got talking about running, the Run Club, Denver, and life in general. Throughout the rest rest of the night, I was able to meet several other regulars and newcomers. Newcomers. Majority of people were young professionals ranging from mid-20s to mid-thirties. Additionally, it seemed the majority of the people were also transplants to Denver, although there were a couple people I meant who were born and raised in the area.
While the perks and route were great, The people of the club were were friendly and open a conversation. It definitely made the experience. I don't know if this was the case to other clubs, but as a newcomer, I felt very welcome and included.

Hey I’m a junior in college and I’ve been studying Theatre Design & Technology (BA) specifically focused on Scenic Design and Scenic Artistry. This summer I will be working as a scenic artist/paint charge for the third year in a row at a Shakespeare Festival. I’m good at what I do, and I try to bolster my other skills like ordering supplies and budgeting for my department too. I could see myself doing this for a while, but it requires a lot of strenuous physical activity that takes a toll. I’m only 20, I don’t need to be hurting myself like this.
My problem is that I feel like I’m not focusing in the right direction. I really like drawing and painting and I’ve only been able to do it for a really specific purpose for the last few years which is theatre. I picked scenic design because it was a perfect intersection of art and theatre, but now I’m not confident that’s what I want to do once I graduate, which is coming up relatively soon.
I’m taking an intro to painting class next semester to stretch the old fine arts muscles and bolster the GPA. I’m also in the process of associate scenic designing for one of my department’s shows in the fall, and I’m the scenic designer for our student-produced children’s theatre production in the spring. Hopefully my experience in these projects will help me see more clearly how I feel about scenic designing.
In the world of art I’ve also considered mural work, crafts, advertising like window painting or chalk, but I’m looking for something stable that I can be doing for a long time, earn consistent income, live in one place, and not hurt my body so much.
I still enjoy working in theatre but I feel like I’ve pigeonholed myself a bit, at least mentally. Here are other areas I’m interested in: - Research: In designing, directing, and whenever else it comes up, I really really enjoy the research component of the creative process. I often create thorough and comprehensive slideshows of cited visual and textual research that helps myself and others as we proceed with our projects. - Directing: I’ve taken two courses and enjoyed the work thoroughly. I applied to assistant direct a show last year, but I didn’t get it, so I’m trying again next semester. I’m interested to get to be in on full-scale productions. - Graphic design: I took graphic design classes in high school and I liked using the Adobe programs. My sister works in front end web developing and I find it interesting. - Cosmetology: I’m considering getting a cosmetology license after graduation. I’ve always been into cutting and coloring hair and it can be very creative. - Teaching?: I often play teacher with my peers when I work in paints or building the scenery for shows. I give tutorials on using tools, paint techniques, and shop safety. I used to say I’d never be a teacher but I realized there’s all different levels of teaching so who knows.

Running is an individual sport, but is much better when you have the support of a community. running provides that community in an online forum, but many running groups and clubs are scattered throughout the US. I plan to submit weekly reviews of different running clubs in different cities over the upcoming weeks - I currently have on the schedule Houston (multiple times), Los Angeles, Denver, Kansas City (multiple times), Dallas, San Antonio, Austin, Atlanta (multiple times), Oklahoma City, Tampa, Jacksonville, Orlando, and possibly Louisville. I hope you enjoy!
Club Name: HTB Run Club - Highland Tap and Burger Metro: Denver, CO Meet dates: Wednesdays at 6:30 pm Run date: May 1, 2024 Route distance: 3.1 or 6.2 miles
Last Week's Review: https://www.reddit.com/running/s/Jsa1fNld13
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mercuriarunning?igsh=MWo5NHU5dzBtY3Axbg==
Strava: https://strava.app.link/6bxq68G1CJb
This was the first time in a while. I'd stayed in Denver, and believe it or not, I don't think I had ever gone on a run in this city. I was only here for a couple of nights, so I decided to check out one of the few Wednesday night run clubs that I could find. This was a run club that is sponsored by a running coaching group called mercuria running, and the perks are pretty great. You get a free dinner by attending the run Club.
I was staying in downtown, so I decided to make the 2 Mile Trek across town to the Highlands area. I was very impressed with the charm of the city and how pretty it is overall. The group meets at Highland Tap and Burger, and I arrived about 5 minutes early. The parking seemed a little tight, as street parking was all that was available.
When I walked up, roughly 20 people were already hanging out on the patio, and I quickly introduced myself to a few few of the runners. A little after 6:30 pm, the main coach and run Club leader gave a quick club overview and mentioned that there was a 3.1 mile route and a 6.2 mile route. I, along with the group I was talking to, decided to do the 3.1 mile route. The group took off, and immediately headed east towards Commons Park. The route is a loop course and consists of 1 and 1/2 mi running through residential areas and 1 and 1/2 mi running through Commons Park. Commons Park is a well-designed and lively Park west of downtown Denver that borders South Platte River. I ran with a local runner for the majority of the latter half of the run. Aside from the aesthetically pleasing Commons park, the end of the Run consists of a massive uphill climb that that is a leg destroyer.
After the run, runners lineup inside of a back room to get the free meal. They had a quinoa, rice, salad, ham, and spaghetti. While it was delicious, I couldn't help but think what an odd combination it was. However, out of all the clubs I've been to, not a single one has provided a free meal, so I'm definitely not complaining. While waiting in line for the food, I introduced myself to a couple new Denver transplants and we got talking about running, the Run Club, Denver, and life in general. Throughout the rest rest of the night, I was able to meet several other regulars and newcomers. Newcomers. Majority of people were young professionals ranging from mid-20s to mid-thirties. Additionally, it seemed the majority of the people were also transplants to Denver, although there were a couple people I meant who were born and raised in the area.
While the perks and route were great, The people of the club were were friendly and open a conversation. It definitely made the experience. I don't know if this was the case to other clubs, but as a newcomer, I felt very welcome and included.

Hey guys,
I'm brand new to tailwind. My company hired designers that built us figma style guides. I'm not sure exactly if or how I should be editing the tailwind config file for best practices. For example, the designers gave us font sizes / font colors / background colors / font familys / font colors. Two of the font colors are primary, and secondary. tailwind has no text-primary class that I could overwrite, so I would create a new one in the config file. However, wouldnt this then conflict if I had a font size called primary? Wouldn't font-primary then represent both the color and font size?
I just dont really understand how tailwind works when you want to customize stuff like this. Should i even be customizing anything or should I just use whats already defined? Like if the design says dark blue is primary color, should I just use text-darkblue as the tailwind style? (Or whatever darkblue text utility class for figma is).
For another example, there are 4 different background color shades that get progressively darker. I assume I will need to create custom colors in theme in the tailwind config file. How should I be naming these?
I just dont really understand how I'm supposed to build this and what best practices are. Any help would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks
EDIT: one other thing - for some elements of the design everything is totally custom and one time use (font size / color / letter spacing). Should I be creating utility classes for this or just not using tailwind and writing raw CSS here? What would tailwind developers generally do here?

I know I just posted a few hours ago. But well a friend asked me to write another script so well here you go. I think I did a better job than last time. This can be monetized.
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[The sound of soft, squelchy movements as the balm is applied.]
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[The squelchy movements continue as the balm is gently massaged in.]
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[The sound of gentle squishing continues.]
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[The sound of gentle, rhythmic squishing as the tendrils move along the listener’s back.]
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[The back massage continues for a few moments, with rhythmic squishing sounds.]
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[The sound of a soft, warm slime pack being applied.]
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[The soft, warm slime pack continues to provide comfort.]
Slime Girl (softly): While the slime pack works its wonders, let’s move on to your legs. I’ll gently wrap my tendrils around them, giving you a calming massage.
[The sound of gentle wrapping and soft, rhythmic squishing.]
Slime Girl (softly): Feel the soothing pressure, releasing any tension from your legs. Let yourself sink deeper into relaxation.
[The leg massage continues rhythmically.]
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[The sound of a soft, squelchy scrub being applied to the feet.]
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[The gentle, squelchy scrub continues.]
Slime Girl (softly): Your feet feel wonderful now. Let’s move on to your face. I’ll apply a gentle, slime-based mask that will cleanse and refresh your skin.
[The sound of a soft, gooey substance being applied to the face.]
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[The gooey application continues.]
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[The breathing continues for a few moments.]
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[The sound of gentle bubbling as the Slime Girl moves slightly.]
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[Soft, bubbly footsteps fade away as the scene transitions to the sound of the babbling brook and bird calls.]
Slime Girl (softly, from a distance): Until next time, dear human friend. May you find peace and serenity wherever you go.
[Fade out to soft background sounds, emphasizing the tranquility of the scene.]

I 21F, live with my mother, 2 sisters and 1 brother. My sister M22 has a friend K22 who lives with us. They have known each other since 6th grade and have been connected at the hip since then. In the beginning I did not like her at all, she was very annoying, and things had to be done her way. She also can't take 'no' for an answer. Over the years I've learned to tolerate her a little bit but now she has pushed me over the edge.
K just moved out of the house her, and her dad lived in because their lease ended. They moved in with her dad's friend G and they will live their until they find another house to rent. My mom and sister came up with the idea to make my brothers old room into a bedroom for her so she could stay whenever she didn't want to be at her house. Which is very nice and a lot of people wouldn't do that. My mother and sister didn't ask anyone if that would be alright, which I know it is my mother's house, but nobody told me that, that was the plan. I also still can't stand her at all. Mind: she goes home for 1 day and then comes right back and will stay for a few weeks straight.
I have always had issues with K because she is always here, in our business and just won't stop. When she is over (which is everyday at this point) she has to do HER stuff and I can't do mine. I clean the house, because I don't work rn so I clean the house daily and do a deep clean to 1. keep up with the daily chores and 2. just because I'm living here rent free and it's the bare minimun. While I clean I love listening to music, as of rn I've been listening to Christmas music because it's my favorite time of year and it just makes me feel better so I've been listening to it a lot recently to try and distract myself from everything that is going on in my life. I got an Alexa and I listen to music on that, it's never above level 5 volume, it's just background noise. K will come in whatever room and turn it off, I told her not too and she said she doesn't want to listen to it, and I told her that it's my Alexa don't mess with it and if she doesn't like it listen to her own music with her airpods or go into a different room, or I can put my music back on and just change the station and she said to change the station. I changed to Pop music and I was in the middle of sweeping in the other room and it turned off, I went into the room where my Alexa was and checked to see what happened and saw that it was unplugged. K was in the room right next to it and I asked her what happened, she said that she unplugged it because she was tired of it. I told her "I asked you not to touch it" she said it doesn't matter and that she doesn't want to listen to my music.
I have airpods but I can't find them rn, so I can't listen to music on my phone without it being outloud. She continues to turn off my music no matter what I am doing, and it pisses me off. This isn't the only thing she does though.
K also can't take 'no' for an answer, she will beg you until you get so pissed off that you give in just so she will shut her big mouth. I bought my own groceries this past few weeks using my birthday money and in our house we have a rule: if you buy it , it's yours just let other people know that it is yours. We have stickers that we put on tupperware and other food items if a certain person bought it and doesn't want others in it. I placed these stickers on everything I bought and I let the others know that I bought stuff at the store and that I put the stickers on it and to please not touch it. K came into the living room the other day and asked if this pack of lunch meat was mine eventhough the stick on the very front where you can't miss it has my name on it and "PLEASE DON'T TOUCH" written. I told her yes that it was mine and she asked if she could have it and I said 'no' there's lunch meat outside that she can have. She rolled her eyes and put it back in the fridge. I went to my room for a little bit after that and I got hungry and went to make my lunch and in the fridge was my open container of lunch meat that I told her not to touch, I just got that at the store and haven't opened it yet. My sister and K were in the living room with empty plates next to them and I asked them why my lunch meat was open, and K said that they were hungry and made sandwiches. With the lunch meat I bought. I asked them why after I told her not to eat it and just not touch it because it was mine and her excuse was, I like turkey and your mom bought ham, so I used yours instead because I like it better. My sister then said, "it's not a big deal, it's just a few slices of lunch meat it's fine" It is a big deal to me because they overstepped a boundary again.
Another thing that happened just yesterday, I was making cookies and I have learned to not bake the whole batch while K is over, she will eat the entire thing before anyone else gets to have one. So I made 6 cookies and while I was making them she had to be in the kitchen and ask a million questions, “what are you making” “what kind of cookies are you making” “when will they be done” “how long do they have to bake” etc. When I bake and cook I have to be the only one in the kitchen because I will get very overwhelmed. The kitchen is small and having more than 1 person in there at a time is exhausting. K had to be right on top of me while I was doing it, I wasn’t teaching her anything so there was no reason for her to be over my shoulder the entire time. When I finished the dough I had to keep it in the fridge overnight and she got upset because she wanted a cookie now. Which I understand because I love cookies too but there is no reason to get upset over having to wait 14 hrs for cookie dough to chill in the fridge.
Today I finally baked them and she freaked out because I was baking them finally and she really wanted one. She was confused as to why I only make 6 cookies instead of the whole batch which makes 36 cookies. I just told her that I’m just making enough for everyone to have 1 rn. My real reason is because every time she is over and we have anything I baked it will be gone in a few hours. The other day a family friend that I bake with often made ME brownies and yes she said that they were for me mainly but to share. I didn’t even get 1 bite of a brownie because K ate most and when I asked where they went they said they were gone and I asked who ate them K sad she had the last one. I told her that I didn’t get one and our friend made them mainly for me and she said “snooze you loose”
I finished making the cookies and I went to my room to let them cool, while in my room K texted me and asked “will u hurt me if I have a cookie?” I responded “no, u can have 1 cookie only, there are 6. That’s 1 for everyone, so only eat 1 cookie” she left me on read. I came back out about 30 minutes later to put them in a Tupperware and they were gone! Completely gone 6 cookies gone in 30 minutes. I asked my sister and K where they went and they were eating a cookie as I walked in the living room. I asked how many cookies they had and they looked at each other and smiled trying to contain their laughter. I knew in that moment that they ate all 6 cookies and had no shame. I asked her about the text message and whether or not she comphrend it or if it just went right over her head. She said they were really good and wanted another. Idc if she wanted another she couldn’t take my answer, I set a boundary with her again and she overstepped again. My sister and K laughed because I got upset about 6 cookies but I’m not upset about the cookies. I’m upset because the boundaries I set have been violated again and again and Idk what to do about it. I decided to keep my mouth shut because I 100% believe in if you don’t have anything nice to say don’t say anything at all” I that moment there was nothing nice to say. As I walked out, K said you can make more cookies now, use the rest of the dough” I just walked back to my room and stayed there until my mom came home.
When my mom came home I told her about what happened and I asked her if K could leave and she said no because our house is her house and she needs to feel welcomed here. My mom and I got into a small argument about that because I brought up that her saying that made me feel like my mom doesn’t care about my feelings when it comes to this. K is overstepping my boundaries and M is letting her and helping her do so and nothing is being done about it I just have to take it and my mom told me that I’m blowing all out of proportion and to relax and forget about it.
I’m not going to forget about it, I’m going to remember this 10 years down the line when you want to come back into my life after I go no contact with all of them. I rarely feel safe in the house and I just want my own space. I don’t have a job so I don’t have an income to start saving up and move out. I just want K to leave, I haven’t had a break since she started living here.
AITAH?

I have been on this journey for over 6 months now. Launched many different stores across a few niches.
I am taking a small break from everything after grinding at it for 6 months straight (and managing life as well, sort of).
Overall, I am doing something wrong. While I learned a lot, I have not been able to be profitable with any of the stores I've built. So I am taking this time to reflect, share and re-strategize.
First Store : Printers & Labels
Obviously, this was my first ever store. While the design wasn't too bad. My creatives sucked, plain and simple. My marketing offers were absent, and I was targeting an audience without a CC or money at all (young students). I was doing organic TikToks and Paid Meta Ads. So I am not too mad about it and used what I learned to launch a second store. Ran this one for about a month before pivoting.
Second Store : Seasonal Product in the Hat Niche.
Launched the store much quicker. Setup some FB ads only and focused on them. This one I am kinda still mad at myself. I had found a product, a niche and some interest (in Eastern Europe and Ukraine specifically), but the margins were razor-thin to non-existent. And a big mistake of mine was not validating the entire checkout process, which made me miss the first 30 sales from the Meta Ads campaign. (This one kinda hurt after failing to do proper QA). I believe I would have been in a different place than I am now and could have made a few grands with this store. Although, the margins were bad and the product had high interest, but was seasonal.
Third Store : Pet niche (cats).
After failing to regain traction and completely messing up my Facebook pixel from the second store, I decided to buy a course to learn the ins and out of Dropship and FB ads. Gained a loooot of knowledge through it, although I would have been fine with a free course as well from YouTube. Launched an entirely new store with a done-for-you offer from the course. All you had to do was to build product descriptions and marketing offers (of course you were free to overhaul the store to your taste, which I did not do as other members of the group were selling in different niches and in the same niche as me).
I failed again. Ran the store for 3 months. Made a few sales here and there from FB Ads (reached breakeven on one product) but was, overall, still not a profitable store.
So I scrapped it. As I was growing frustrated with it not working. I figured selling pet products in a country where pet stores are pretty common (France) would further put me at a disadvantage. (Of course it isn't always the case, when you're good at marketing, there is almost no such thing as a saturated market).
Fourth Store : Jewelry Niche
If you've been in the dropshipping game (and E-commerce in general) for long enough, you know that you have to play a different type of game in this space, as you solve no real problem to the consumer. Decided to go organic to test the product this time. Created so many TikToks in a short amount of time (around 40 TikToks in 2 days that I posted on TK, YT Shorts, IG reels). None of them went viral. I did get some traffic on the store. But no conversion. Selling jewels source from some Factory in China won't be as easy. Killed the store after 2 weeks.
Fifth Store : Beauty and Skincare Niche
So you might have seen my post asking for feedback a month back or so about this store. Again, produced 60~ TikToks in a week or so and shared them on IG, TK, YT and Snapchat to see if the product would be a fit in the market. After seeing some traction, decided to launch a paid ad campaign on TikTok. Launching product in the big 4 + UAE (wanted to launch in Asia as this product would have been more popular and the product name less shocking there as it is from here in NA). The result? Some ads got banned as the ads showed too much skin for the country's law in the UAE, had to cancel some orders from countries in Asia as the supplier did not have shipping lanes in some markets there, and even though I had multiple ATC events from the TikTok Ad campaign, I've got ZERO conversions.
So here I am. Sitting on my rock contemplating about life and wondering how dumb must I be for not at least finding/making this business model work. While some 20 something youngsters are killing it. (Big props to them!).
Now before I launch another store, I am open to learn more about what I missed or what I have been doing wrong. I genuinely want to get better, otherwise I am just wasting my time.
I documented everything. Willing to share my creatives to know where I went wrong. There is definitely room for improvement.
One day I will make it. One day.
So for those of you who are on this journey, I feel you. This is a long term game. Keep up the good work!
Cheers.

Hi again, here's the current updated query for TGGT. I took a lot of the rephrasing into account from my last critique--The first line is a punch, but it certainly gets the unique setting/plot device across right away. Let me know if there's any other ways to slim down the third paragraph, as it's visually chunky right now, but I can't yet figure out how to dice it up. All thoughts appreciated, as always!
[Dear Agent]
The last thing aspiring designer Morgan Hastings expects upon his arrival to the City of Spires is a job offer from the phantasmagorical Glavenisean Theater, where during every show, a portal in the stage transports the audience through multiple dimensions. Drawn in by the magic, a chance to show off his tailoring skills, and a charismatic rigger named Zachary, Morgan immerses himself in the world behind the curtains.
But Morgan has questions about the sudden departure of his predecessor, especially when he uncovers a cryptic letter from her stating something is wrong with the theater. Soon his days are haunted by hallucinations, his nights filled with dreams of car crashes and the theater past. Stranger still are the headaches he gets in the presence of Ariel, the enigmatic prima donna who has captivated Zachary.
As his own affections for Zachary grow, Morgan discovers a plot to sabotage the portal, endangering the livelihood of everyone in the theater. With Zachary as the prime suspect, Morgan sets out to prove his innocence, but only finds more loose threads, all seemingly leading back to Ariel. No one knows where Ariel came from, and for some reason, no one seems to care. When a lead actor dies in the same car crash Morgan has been dreaming about, the theater is thrust into chaos, and Morgan's hallucinations only intensify. As his reality unravels, Morgan must expose Ariel's true identity and stop the sabotage of the portal before greater harm can befall Zachary, himself, or anyone else in the theater he has come to call home.
At 90,000 words, THE GREAT GLAVENISEAN THEATER is an Adult Fantasy standalone for fans of the vivid setting of Erin Morgenstern’s THE NIGHT CIRCUS, the uncanny atmosphere and ergodic lit of HOUSE OF LEAVES by Mark Z. Danielewski, and the dark whimsy and diversity of HOTEL MAGNIFIQUE by Emily J. Taylor.
I live in New Hampshire and have spent a fair amount of time in theaters myself. This novel sprung from my love of Moulin Rouge, The Phantom of the Opera, and the 1920s aesthetics of The Great Gatsby, all wrapped up with an unnerving Twilight Zone twist.

Hi, I was interested in getting a shirt design done to commemorate visiting all 50 US states. I was thinking it’d be done in a tour shirt style with the front looking similar to the featured photo with simplified/vintage-looking graphics of things I’ve seen (i.e. Vegas Sign, haystack rock, puffins, Delicate Arch, ski lift). I have about 25 items on my list and I’d want them to be situated around the so-called tour name “the road to nowhere tour” with the order I visited the states on the back.
I’d imagine this is an extensive request but I was hoping to get the design done ASAP. I have a light concept in my head of pricing but I’m open to discussion on how to compensate for your time.

Looking for Ideas for my next Campaign
Heyo everyone,
First of all, thank you wonderful people for joining me here. Firstly a short Overview of the setting, some ideas for the story and then i will throw a few extras in at the end. Would be happy to hear everyones thoughts to all of this, what you love or hate, what kind of cool and crazy ideas you have for me and yeah thats it actually :D Lets get into it.
System: i will be using the Cypher system, as it gives me the Narative focus with plenty of customization and adaptiblity. I havent been doing too much with it yet, but i really like it already from readying and listening a bit to plays.
Setting: This is where it gets mythical. So imagine a world just like ours. Actually exactly our world. A few years in the future some archelogists and divers find Pandoras Box hidden on a greek island in an underwater cave with plenty of warning. and even logbook with it. Its Odyseus's logbook, in which he mentioned he trapped all the gods and magic in that box with the help of Circe and a few of the other more benevolent gods. Thus started the golden age of humanity where they didnt have to worry about annoying a bunch of superpowerful self absorbed mythical assholes on Olympus.
Surprisingly, the archelogists actually listened to Odyseus warning and decided that some mysteries might be better left unsolved. The box was left open to allow the world the speculate. Not long after that, the box was the most important and most talked about object in the world. It even went on a world tour through the biggest museums. That was until it arrived in America. In the years since 2024, interest in Social media and influencers only increased, causing people to do anything for clicks and likes. And one particular idiot went as far as sneaking a gun into a museum to shoot open pandoras box live on Stream.
Not long after that, 90% of the world population died. As the contained magic exploded forth and spread across the world in light speed, it wrecked havoc across the whole world, changing the land, the animals and the people. Monsters reappered, The gods made their anger at their imprisonment clear to anyone they could and the world offically ended on that day.
Now, 40 days in the future, North America is a wasteland generally regarded as inhabitable due to the high concentration of Mana there, which is toxic to Humans. Most people live in Europe, Africa, Asia and australia, or whats left of it anyways. Famine and war are standard. Some people are training to use magic themselves, others devote themselves to hunting the new monsters for their rare parts, others integrate magic into technology for wonderous creations and most just try to survive in small communities. Most people avoid the gods at all cost, some have formed into cults for them while the rare few attempt to rebel (which often ends in gruesome deaths).
Now the players find themselves in a familar yet unknown world, Magic everywhere to be found, Horrible creatures ready to feast on them around each corner, Ruined cities promising loot and danger, Technology growing rapidly thanks to magic and Powerful beings toying with them for their amusement.
Adventure: So I want to sent the players to North america as part of a huge strikeforce to retrieve a part of pandoras box for study to maybe capture the gods again. obviously this will be a huge secret, they will think its to retrieve vital knowledge to fight a spreading plague as will most of the expiditions members to avoid the eyes of the gods. They will be teleported to America through a new device, but will be forced to travel back on their own accord. Which will lead them to a container ship that holds their strikeforce and some survivors they will find to travel back over the ocean. TIME FOR AN ODYSEE. Everything will go wrong on the trip, i wanna challange the players with impossible emotional choices like maybe during a famine on board some passangers will eat the dead. Should they be punished? Or when the ship is hit by a monster, should we seal a part of the ship to prevent more of the ship taking in water, even if most people couldnt evacuate yet.
I want the players to distinguish themselves during their time in NA to allow them to tale the command of the ship, maybe the commander of the expdition is heavily wounded ( dont want to kill them off, because someone gotta reveal they carry a shard of the box with them). That way all of the decision will be upon them.
I want them to also meet poseidon, who will be their main villain. He will attack them multiple times and the only way they will survive is often with big casualties, with help of other gods or magical artifacts. Other gods will be involved too. Maybe someone from the backgrounds of the player gets involved to murder them. And the two gods trying to kill them , with the bickering giving them a way to escape. In the end they can either kill a god using the piece of the box, or bring the piece home for future use. Will they be able to protect themselves and their people from poseidon, or do they have to strike his heart with their piece of pandoras box. When presented with an opportunity to kill another god, the god who hurt the players the most by killing family and friends, will they take this chance or will they be able to control their rage.
I want to leave this very open ended, just with many encounters ready to go if the opportunity present itself.
And i have to say, Epic: the musical was a big part of the inspiration, just want to give credit where its due. Absolutly amazing.
Here id be happy to hear your ideas. Anything is fine, good or bad opinions. Really just collecting thoughts now.
Some other cool things about the world i will include: Shades: when people were hit by the explosion of mana from the opening of the box, most disintegrated instantly. Some left behind a shade made of pure mana. Those shades are like ghosts on autopilot that follow the routine of the person that it once was. They are usually neutral just doing their thing, but if they sense a disturbance to their regular routine, they will react hostile. As incorperal beings they are incredibly difficult to stop unless you possess magic. They will use the mana inside them to overload you and kill you slow and painfully
Mana/magic: so mana is plentiful and everywhere. It can be used to cast spells and empower oneself. How to do this, is a difficult skill the players will learn during their adventure. The only problem is that mana is toxic to humans as our bodies evolved something like mana allergy. Players can cast spells from their internal force as well if they have one (like divine power born with or purified mana they gained through meditation) so caster classes have a few safe options. But in the end, i want players to pursue a game of risk and reward, by drawing on the mana around them, giving them abilities but also causing many negative effects.

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I don’t usually do this but I’m trying to muster up everything I’ve got to write this without breaking down, please I’m begging EVERYONE AND ANYONE help me with my situation so I can rest in peace…
I haven’t been able to eat, sleep, or think straight I have headaches every night I’m losing so much weight I’ve lost the ability to stand up straight because of how much energy I’ve lost for the past 15 days…. so now I have to use a cane at 27, because i did something incredibly stupid I hate myself for it. I’m not gonna sugar coat anything and am asking for opinions on what to do
My boyfriend has severe emotional issues and is looking at felony charges for level 5 and is being charged for aggravated assault,Criminal Recklessness shoots a firearm into a building. Intimidation-Defendant draws or uses a deadly weapon Pointing a Firearm at Another The only one that would be true is shooting inside of a building, that’s it. The detective put down things that did NOT happen and I’ve got proof.
Whats wrong with B? He’s been rejected his whole life and hasn’t had anyone in his life until I came. he’s become so enamored with me and is insanely afraid of being alone ever since I came. I’ve helped him out in so many ways possible and he has ALSO helped me in so many ways, through out the loss of a best friend who died in my arms. He’s spent the very little bit of money he has in order to pay for my things like my medication and to put food on the table. His paychecks go straight to my bank account. He sells the little bit of his stuff to get us through the week. He’s been there through out my homelessness and never left me alone. He’s a funny caring person however has a side that is very hurt abandoned broken full of trauma. Aside from all that, this is what happened
Friday may 3 in Hammond Indiana, B came home from work. He went to my basement window which is a small window only an arm can fit in. He and I were speaking THROUGH the broken window (it was already broken and opens on it own) He was outside and I was inside. He told me if I was really leaving him. I told him we had to focus on ourselves and that he needs to go back home since we have places to stay now. I told him we can continue with our relationship but he needs to go home. He continued saying “so you don’t love me anymore” I told him I do but he needs to go focus on himself instead of staying in the streets (since my mother doesn’t want us in her house and she will only allow me in the house) because we argue constantly. I said he may go home and we could pursue us but from afar while we work up and save money to get our own place. He panicked and said are you sure you’re choosing this, I said yes go home Brad, he left then came back pulled out a rifle and shot it inside the room but AWAY from me it was nowhere near me he DID NOT POINT IT AT ME. I thought this was his way in telling me he was going to hurt himself, because He would never nor ever has hurt me. Keep in mind I was literally right in front of him 2 feet away a wall separating us and through that small window he held the gun and shot it inside the house but away from me. He could have easily hit me but he didn’t. he’s never punched me or put his hands on me to actually hurt me or make me bleed. He’s very gentle and cares for me. Hes gentle with animals I have at home and has a cat named renji he takes care of. He’s always done really dumb things without thinking them through. My first reaction was to call the cops and have him held for the night so he may have mental help maybe be transferred to a mental facility to get him back on his feet. Little did I know the cops would have a different reaction to the whole thing. The arrested him that day and this morning on Saturday may 4 I went to Hammond Indiana jailhouse and they said they transferred him to lake county jail and currently is being held for a felony level 5. I started hyperventilating and didn’t know what to do I regretted calling the cops because he doesn’t need to be locked up, what he needs is mental help, a psychiatrist. He has no history of being violent and hurting someone he has a good reputation with people everyone calls him funny since he’s always cracking jokes and being dumb. He’s honestly overall the best thing that happened to me although he does things without thinking them through I know deep down his heart is in the right place and he’s never hurt me. His court hearing was on the 14th of May and now I find out he has 4 more hearings. His bond was 5k but his last court hearing I heard his bond was reduced. I called and asked about it being reduced and the lady told me it has not been reduced. I broke down at work, I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I’m depressed I’m alone and I might have ruined his life because I did something stupid. I also lied to the detective when he mentioned “does he hit you” and I told him yes because I was stupid immature and angry which is probably why they added aggravated assault. He’s never hit me only helped me I’m the crazy jealous one that doesn’t deserve him. I just want him out so he can continue with his life even if it’s without me.
Please help me with opinions on the matter. I am not allowed to contact as there is a no contact order. I tried to talk to his attorney but they said they represent him and can’t speak with me.
he doesn’t deserve this felony he deserves to get psychiatric treatment. He is not a danger to society because he works hard everyday and is kind to everyone. I am the problem not him.

So I've been dating my GF a year, and been official for almost a year.
At this point, I only introduced my GF to one friend, a really fat girl who she thought had went on a date with me, and one random acquaintance, a dude who said I was cool at a class.
Over a year, it is pretty obvious the only person I have available to hang out with is my girlfriend. I do go to dance classes though.
My GF also has higher, bougie standards for how often people older than 30 can realistically hang out with friends.
I have a different platonic female friend, who was much closer with ten years ago, and for a while two years ago, who I just text with now, there is zero interest either way, but I can tell she's losing interest in talking to me, because I'm insecure and ask too much advice about my girlfriend, and when I have cool shit to share, it feels bougie or boasting. If I'm vulnerable about finances or my GF, I just look like a loser. If I show cool shit, I look like I'm boasting. So it looks like the friendship is fading, even though she used to send essay long messages. I've tried giving her space and I've tried contacting her more, neither worked.
My GF is starting to get insecure about this friend, because she asked for a souvenir from our last trip. Even claiming I made this person up, after watching a podcast where a guy made up friends to get his girlfriend to think certain things.
I text this friend every few days, and I've invited her to hang out with my girlfriend, or me, third wheel or double date, multiple ways over and the answer is always no or ghost. I'm not like repeatedly inviting her, there's time in between.
So I'm trying to figure out how to either get this friend to hang out, or portray me not having friends in the best possible way to my GF.
Usually, I invite this friend to a specific thing like a lunch or a event. At this point should I be vague and direct and say "Hey, do you ever want to hang out? Third wheel or double date, either way's good. If not, that's cool" or "When am I gonna get to see you and again?"
Thing is, even if my GF meets this friend it'll be like "Oh yeah we only hung out 2 times in the last 2 years" so it also looks like I'm fronting.

I don't know if it's just me, but it feels like with each AC, Ubisoft puts more and more effort into making some of the coolest looking weapons and armor in video games... only to put most of them in the Helix store. The problem is, with how massive Valhalla is, it makes exploring feel almost meaningless at times. Like you'll find and open 10 chests, 9 of which will have some ore and leather and only 1 will have some kind of weapon or armor piece. I think Ubisoft realized how lacking the rewards were for exploring, so you can now find abilities instead of just getting them through levels like in both Origins and Odyssey.
I don't know how much criticism of the Helix store is allowed here, but it feels like Ubisoft gutted one of the most important parts of exploration - the rewards - so that you would have to go to the Helix store. Compare Origins and Odyssey to Valhalla, and you can see how much Ubisoft's design philosophy has changed. Origins had some Helix store stuff, but most of it looked pretty meh and the best stuff you could acquire in-game. Odyssey had far more Helix store stuff but you still felt like you got a lot of cool weapons and armor through just playing. In Valhalla, up until the endgame where you get stuff like Thor's armor and hammer, you're getting mostly resource caches and ingots, while all the coolest weapons and armors are in the shop.
And honestly it has soured me on Ubisoft so much that I'm not even excited for Shadows anymore. If leaks are to be believed, Shadows will have not one, not two, but three separate premium battle passes, along with god knows how many mtx.

My (56) father (78) has been an addict one way or another my entire life - alcohol, gambling, s3x, you name it. Over the course of the years, I've come to recognize a lot of mothers behaviors as codependent and sometimes pretty whack. Shes pretty controlling now, under the auspices of "it's for your own good".
Because of his age and growing infirmities, the drinking and s3x are a thing of the past. However, the gambling has him good. So, in order to keep him from using credit cards and running up $10k in credit card debt In a month, they've come to an agreement. She will give him ONE scratch off a day.
Recently, she asked that he stay with me while she took a girls' trip. I was cool with that, but she failed to tell me where she put his stash of lottery tickets. I caught the man frantically ransackng my husband's Desk looking for them. (We got that straightened around)
I told her this is just feeding his addiction. She feels it's keeping it in check. As a recovering alcoholic myself, cold turkey worked best, but how does one go about handling gambling addiction? Am I wrong?

I always got INTP or ISTP on those free tests but I’m not sure.
• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I am a 27 years old trans man. I have been socially transitioning for nearly 4 years and medically transitioning for 7 months. I’ve uprooted my life in more ways than one and it’s by far been one of the best decisions I’ve made.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
I have been struggling with depression and anxiety on and off since my adolescence and probably have ADHD or autism as well.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
I’m an only child. My mum’s always been something of a fire-cracker and has struggled with alcoholism and emotional abuse from her mum. She always had very high expectations of me and she’s probably part of the reason why I have such unreasonable expectations for myself. My dad is a lot more chill even if he doesn’t get me 100 percent of the time. Ultimately, I think they tried their best. My parents aren’t particularly religious but I went to a Catholic school until I was nine. I never really bought into it and it was a relatively chill school but it probably affected me in some way.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
I honestly haven’t been able to hold down a stable job at all. After getting a pretty useless degree, my jobs have all been crappy and short-lived and I never really figured out what I wanted to do with my life. I wanted to be a writer or an artist but I have a near permanent case of creative burnout. I’m a part-time zookeeping student right now.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
It depends. If I’ve had a busy week I’ll welcome the peace and quiet. If things have been quiet I’ll get bored and a bit lonely.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
I have a mixture of indoor and outdoor hobbies. I like gaming, especially RPGs, builders, and dumb shooters. I also enjoy card games and board games and I’ve recently started picking up chess. I like watching movies and anime, particularly horror and action. I used to read a lot of fiction but I find myself too distracted these days. If I do read it’s usually nonfiction about a topic I’m interested in or academic works.
In terms of outdoor hobbies, I’m only just opening up to them as I’ve been a particularly notorious shut-in for a lot of my life. I enjoy nature walks, working out, bouldering, gardening, and swimming. I’m not amazing at sports but I wouldn’t say I’m completely useless either. I prefer more solitary activities to team based ones. I have a bit of a competitive streak and exercise helps keep it in check.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
Very curious. I usually have a couple of ideas on the go but I wouldn’t say I’m overflowing with them. My curiosities are usually about the natural world, video game lore, and new hobbies I may want to take up.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I could be an okay leader if no one else was able to take up the position but I would be anxious about the responsibility and expectations others have of me. I’d like to think I’m firm but fair.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
I’m okay. I can match other people’s movements quite well. I can get a little bit careless and clumsy when I’m distracted or anxious though.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
Back when I used to draw, I drew a lot of tattoo designs and illustrations. Like something you’d find on an album cover or a book cover. I also drew many of the creatures and characters I wrote about. I’m have an eye for colour and I am drawn to art-deco and art-nouveau aesthetics.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
The past, while not always easy to revisit due to fuzzy memories or trauma, has led me to this very moment. I try to take every day as it comes and that has helped me a lot. I am nervous for the future as I have few concrete plans and life may throw me a curve ball. But I am also excited to see what has in store for me.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
It depends who’s asking and what they want help with.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
Absolutely.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
Efficiency is pretty good. Work smarter, not harder and all that. Productivity less so. I’m just happy when I get things done.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
Not really. Unless they are negatively impacting me or other people I prefer to leave people to their own devices.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
Pretty sure I already answered this question.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
I’m a visual and hands-on learner. I suck at internalising verbal instruction. I despise overly rigid learning environments so I struggled a lot in school. I enjoy learning at my own pace and by going out and doing things first-hand.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
Improvise but I try to make a basic structure that I may or may not deviate from.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
To be the best version of myself I can be and live the most fulfilling and rich life I can.
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
My two biggest fears are quite abstract and they are being aimless and being trapped. I’m also mildly agoraphobic and afraid of wasps. I hate wilful ignorance and bigotry, especially when those things actively make the world a worse place for everyone.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
I feel alive, happy, and a zest for life. I feel like I’m running on a motor and that I can do anything I want.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
When I feel low, I get in a funk and it’s very hard to get out. I literally find it impossible to relax unless someone is there to get me out of my head. If I’m not careful I can get isolated. And that’s when I start to spiral.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
Sometimes I let my mind wander, particularly when I’m listening to music. It doesn’t take much to bring me back to reality though.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
I’d probably go a bit mad and try to devise an escape plan.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
I like to take my time to weigh out the pros and cons. I make stupid decisions when I’m rushed. I may change my mind if circumstances change and it’s not going to inconvenience me too much.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
A long time. My emotions are a mess and I barely know what I am feeling half the time. Journaling has helped me make sense of them and processing them to a degree.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Not really. I either stay quiet or try to disagree with them in a productive way depending on how bold I’m feeling at the time.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
I follow rules if they are there for a good reason. Like waiting in line. If they’re stupid rules I have less qualms about breaking them.

I watched Gosford Park for the first time last week and thought it was an amazing movie. It's marketed as a murder mystery, but it's more focused on the individual characters and class divide amongst them (upstairs and downstairs). Like every Altman ensemble movie I've seen so far, it does a great job of providing backstories for each character and allowing them to live beyond the plot of the movie. I left the movie more interested in how their lives would've continued after the movie rather than on how/if the murder gets resolved.
The score and cinematography are all great and I thought every featured actor, aside from Phillippe, gave an awards worthy performance.
I also thought the big twist at the end (there were plenty of twists throughout) was really cool and helped tie a lot of the characters together. I rewatched the movie a 2nd time a few days after and thought Altman did a great job of hinting at the twist through some subtle interactions between the characters.
Out of all of the Altman films, I've now seen McCabe & Mrs. Miller, The Long Goodbye, California Split, Nashville, The Player, Kansas City and Gosford Park. I've loved all of them.
I know that Robert Altman is popular with older generations but it seems like he's far less known with younger generations. A lot of my friends aren't that into movies but I know that if I mentioned other directors that started making movies around the same time as Altman, like Scorsese, Spielberg, Coppola or George Lucas, they'd know who I'm talking about. I doubt most of them would know who Robert Altman is.
Is it just because his last movie was made in 2006 and he doesn't have a movie that's still mainstream like the other directors I mentioned?
It's clear that directors that are popular today like the Safdie Brothers and PTA draw a lot of influence from Altman's movies.

Not shared, nor my shade; but something to be weaved; just as the measure of disappointment became it's own solution. But I talked my way through things forbidden, just to find myself blind in bed with those who are dead. Clumsy, but altogether natural of course, because it's consciousness what you refer in the description, yet that's what we don't get a lot about. See your deeds the way you are seen, and then return to a restless place: and the question in-between sheets will be why. Well, I just can't motivate myself to work without hot bitches staring. And that's the truth. Sad but True
— Hearfelt comment for an instagram witch.
Del desprecio a ese descarte, no he visto muchas cosas. Así se pasa una más para las cuentas, y aquí otro más para los versos, por qué aquí no hemos sido vistos. Cuánto más querría uno, que sino lo cuentas ni mucho menos piensas: << lo de este pibe que cosa más horrible>>, haciendo eso lamentable, por qué en decirlo nadie ha mentido. ¡Es horrible! Que cara es entonces la cuenta de lo que le sale a uno vivir sin más complejos; mejor seria cobrarmelo, para así saber que de algo ha valido. Bloqueame.
— Heartfelt comment for a random supermodel-to-be.
The Spirit of Fire
Flames begone, flames in spite: their warmth I felt - so I closed my fist until I could feel the warmth of my blood in my hand. And in dreams Fire came up to me and said: who am I? And I said unto him: you are bound to my bidding, thus your name misery will be. But fire wretched as he was, got closer and asked: and who are you?
And I said unto him that the blood of David ran through my veins, as I was his heir; for the mother of God claim me from death as a son. So Fire tried me, and figured it out.
You are son of woman —said Fire unto me— but as Fire acknowledged the name, I extended my left hand, and took Fire by the neck throwing him into the gound. — You are going to lace yourself to the right hand of the beast, and you'll keep him steady, so I can cleanly take him down. And Fire stayed down, and with his forehead kissing the ground asked unto me —why would the heir of David do so to earthly man?
And I said unto Fire that the beast from the abyss had left no mother for God, so I was to leave none of his body left for his head; as I was going to make it bleed until the end of the end of times.
The Spirit of Earth
Shapeless and without body, but keen within her many numbers, Earth came up to me in dreams, and said: who am I? And posessed in spirit as I was, I said unto her, that God had made her maiden again, and that she shall become the coins that Judas never received, which were to become the due payment of man and women for the body of Christ. Then I extended my right hand, and grabbed Earth by her hair —which descended deep into the abysses of hell— and cut it short so the demons of Lilith would no longer had her gripped by her back.
You are now a woman, and I'm going to rise you from the grounds. You'll lace yourself to the left hand of the beast, and keep it steady so with one shot I can cleanly take him down.
The Spirit of Air
A dream shaped by written words, whispered down for years by the currents of this Montain, and it's requiem witnessed but by a few — the end of dreams. But from where I standed at the peak, I called upon the distant currents that went down, and asked them: who am I?
And Air came unto me as bird, which had thousands of letters for feathers, and in the tongue of dead men answered.
"Somebody who only a few will remember by strange deeds; as the burden on your back, is a past tainted by impossible dreams. You were a lunatic giving new names to folk, and folk never bothered to remember —so your name must be freak, as you died in a forgotten shack some short time ago."
And as Air said these things upon me, I called Misery —as I had dubbed Fire — and told him to get inside my shot. The burden as Air had said, became lesser as i took the shot from my quiver. And I said upon Misery; that he was to set ablaze this arrow, as I was taking down the bird of Britain, and that I would do so, so God would give the deeds of Earth some better names.
The Lord is making a bridge between the empire of strength, and the last empire of men. Now by God's grace, I'm making the tongue of free men, the tongue of Spain. You will be eventually bound to my bidding, and if not me, it will be to the one I'm preceding; for I'm giving you twenty years to attone your wrongdoing. Alas, now because of your wretchedness, my shot on earthly men won't be clean, for his left leg won't stay steady.
Your old name was apathy, now I'm calling you Cisma, which in the tongue of dead men means schism. So now by the will of God lay unto the ground and say the words you've been teached. And as the arrow blazed forward, it's bending motion pierced the veil hiding the secret ladder of men. The bird of Britain catched on Fire, and it's hollering resounded throught the ladders of the mountain until the depths of the abyss. A column of air turned into fire, then violenty erupted from the vowels of the bird, and the wild fire spread as a storm from west to east all throughout the five kingdoms of men away from its own fiery wings, with a gift of misery and a few words to say.
"The name of your woman or the name of your man, will no longer explain their purpose to a man, a woman, or God. Charred words written by thunder will now be the new ladder of men — but until then, darkness upon thee."
The House of Water
I head into the coasts, and the beautiful beaches in-between, to find the stranger who burns images in the skin of men. He is the stranger, and has adopted the body of a monster, and he is one who cannot be understood, so he went on to only go out home in stunts, for the burdens in his heart have become too great to bear. Through terrible pains he has given all he once was for an identity, and as I pick up on his past, i found familiarity in the feelings of his heart. Oh dear friend how we found looking in sadness to ourselves, after doing same but with different means, carrying into our shoulders the loneliness of this world. As you have in-skin the garments of the strange doctrine that I preach — I shall congrate you, for you truly have fought the world entire, for my doctrine is the words of those who shall defeat the world entire.
I may not have your strangeness in-body, but I have it in these words, and in the true feelings of my heart. And I say in admiration that there's no higher form of art, philosophy or religion: than those who perform the highest thing they can give a name about.
Now even within solitude, and at odds with what old dead men call God, I see you and I found strength in you, as I can see you are within me, and in that, you are within everything as it should be - as is meant in everyone who does something that touches the heart of another man. I call this the kingdom of God. Yet blind men and women will wonder how can the kingdom of God possibly be within two outcasts such as you and me.
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Upong giving my regards and waiting for response, I found my way into a bench. It was a warm afternoon, and the wind carried the water of the sea. The bird of Britain came about down from the wind of north, and layed on the bench were I was sitting.
The bird asked: why hast thou become this?
And I said back to bird, scorched he was and nearing death, that it was me someone who was supposed to give names, yet for years I couldn't figure out one for myself. Then on went to being given a name, Alas all the wrong ones. Did Adan gave himself a name? - I asked the bird back. And there was no response from bird. Then I continued.
A man has the essence of his soul retained by what he is seen doing. Yet I did things nobody saw, so my soul wasn't with God but with something just as ancient, and nonetheless unknown by men in its true nature — then Satan as the better known devil, came about and pushed me into a hole. It was my own doing. Yet the things I did, I thought were seen. But nonetheless what I did was without contemplation on a posible return. Just as somebody who prints an image on their own skin. It's permanent. This is the essence of a memory in the soul of the man who's seen by others. But in the familiarity of a man who picked every irreversible decision like the Alien, I find myself feeling sympathy, for the man is still not what he has been seen doing, he shall redeem himself by what he decides to turn himself into.
Is this a way of saying that you want to get yourself a tattoo? Get a new look? - the bird mockingly asked.
And I gave the scorched bird no answer.
Then the bird said unto me: what about your career as a prophet, uh? And the things you said about returning with substance? Do you actually think this is substance?
And i considered what the Bird said, then I negated with a movement of my own head. It is not i answered, but i find the memories of me not making sense unbearable. For those mean the memories of a fool, un pendejo, an insane person, or both. And I will always try to amend what I don't do well. But now I wish for only one thing, and it is to be remembered as someone who makes sense, and who out of that sense, made good upon the world. I don't expect anything in return for what I do now, as it is merely an outlet to keep me sane while I finish editing my work. It's clear I'm too incompetent to be a competent influencer. As for once, I don't care about influencing anyone into what I think; but to perform what I think it's important.
Then every proverbial student is free to take classes so as they see fit, and to interpret such classes as their comprehension gives them grasp of what it's said. In such regard, this is what I offer now, while I make the journey to Madrid. And the bird tilted it's head so as to observe me with his left eye, then after a long impasse, it made a loud and painful caw, and finally flew away. Soon after the bird flew, I looked upon the stars in the nascent night, and confessed to them, that it was the memories of who we were, what often stumps us into wrong beliefs of who we should be, maybe even wasting an entire lifetime retained by that which other people remembered us as being. But we are not the owners of our own names, the place we go, and our destiny. That's the biggest lie the western world of hollywood heros tell you, as in truth is collective agreement what determines what we look like doing and thus the meaning we should comfort to, recalling that names are practical mechanisms to remember the purpose of things, their meaning, and how their motion is described in the world.
But making the task of beating that collective belief, akin to the Nietzschean ideal of the camel turning into the lion, so as to transform it's spirit and become something else. But if it's the golden dragon of all the huamn values which judges you insane, will you be prepared to wrestle with the entire culture so as to have your way?
As I layed my eyes upon each star counting up to the number seventeen, I confessed of being scared of those beliefs, as revisiting the past, became a painful deed — and as I prepared to leave, I uttered one wish on the seventeenth point in the sky.
Lord please grant me strength, the way you have given my friend strenght.
2.
The night deepen, while the sea tide sang its own song of breathing. Some time passed, and then on the stranger showed himself approaching at the distance. I waved my hand at him, and after the instant, he found his way into my bench while I welcomed him with an extended fist which he casually bumped - after the short acknowledgement the dark alien looked at my face in between it's cover of dark, and looking at it undiscernable in its true features, with suspicion asked.
— What is it that you want?
I acknowledged him as a friend, then mentioned my brief research, as I had come to know him as man looking for a job, yet nobody would hire for things mundane due to his appearance. I listened closely to the news, and came to understand that this was a man looking for a second chance.Then I saw the intent behind his doing, and two words came to stick to my own thoughts. The first one was <> and the second one was <>. I was admired.
In analytical psychology I figured this man was the ESFP —the personality archetype related to the performer and the entertainer—, possessed in an abnormal way by the spirit by which a person submits to it's contrary nature, seeking to integrate and find fulfillment through the chase of what's perceived absent. If he was the ESFP then doing the flip by following the radial axis of each Jungian function in the stack towards their opposite resulted in the INTJ. The mastermind. The architect. The genius yet awfully complex individual. That was the elusive spirit he was chasing.
But a spirit and a character that at its most pronounced embodiment in a person, would experience life as an eternal foreigner hiding from the light of other men. Such made sense to me, for I myself was the INTJ, and had at spirit the ESFP. Him. So where as this man chased the spiritual fulfillment of being a complex and deep individual, I chased the fulfillment of becoming simpler, so I could demonstrate with action the deepest desires of my heart. One who was born plentiful in means to be liked, becomes complex, mysterious and uncomprehended, meeting one who will be seen trying to make sense becoming simpler. For Carl Jung portrayed the anima and animus of individuals, as the sense of what its absent, yet deeply cherished an valued. So I said these things to the alien, while he silently listened to me.
— All of that sounds like bullshit to me. -Said the alien after some contemplation .— Sorry but the things you say, don't mean anything to me.
And alas for I expected such response, as if one thing was true about this journey, was that explaining the journey in and of itself would become it's grimmest task. I affirmated what he just said with a slight nod of head.
— These things I say and how they relate to each other, in its excercise are similar to doing stecheometric balance with equations in the head, but simpler I'm afraid. - Then I paused, looked back into the sea, and continued. — That's high school chemistry, but I don't expect everybody to pick up on it, nor like it, nor understand it.
— Now i have called you a friend, and where I came from we dub with this title the people we share destiny with. As far as I'm concerned, we are chasing the same thing, which is the hardest posible thing. We both innately understand that we are not home, as we want our spirit to return to us, and that's not what a lot of people ever honestly try to attempt in a lifetime; as such is anyone's call to feel complete.
— And very few people ever reach true individuality, beyond the name they are imposed at birth.
Then I looked into the black alien, and in-between his foreign facial features, I interpreted something familiar. Disturbance. And I continued.
— We have given ourselves hell as we lived chasing something hard, so we can avoid the same hell later on when we are finally back to our own house. This is a christian precept, altought a rundimentary one. Does that makes sense to you?
And after listening such, the black alien calmly looked at the veil in my face in silence. Trying to discern what my face actually looked like, but the night was dark. Then turned his stare back to the reflection of the moon over the waters, giving some thought to what I just said. I opened up my backpack, and drawed two cans of beer from it. Offered one to him, and he silently refused with a gesture of hand. I popped my can and gave it a sip, while I myself stared at the tides coming in and out of the shore.
— If you wan't a tattoo, we can work that out. But this sounds annoyingly familiar, and my interest is not religious. Are you religious?
I nodded in affirmation, and complemented saying. — But my doctrine is something nobody has heard nor seen. For its aim, is doing as Christ said, in perfect means. Yet its true that the teaching fits you, as it's the teaching of the future man; and there's nothing in common between the current man and the future man, as they may very well be different species. This is the precept of evolution.
The alien seemed surprised.
— These two men don't know each other, for the current man doesn't know where the future man comes from, for he himself doesn't know where he is going. Yet in deep realization of your own artistic concept, I think you might want new ideas to meet with your appearance. So tell me, are you curious about what truly happens to a man after he dies? Do you want to learn how to read someone's mind? Do you want to blast with words of fire the hearts of an amazed crowd?
But the black alien broke his calm contemplation of what I was saying, and slighty disturbed, aggressively rebuked after hearing such.
— But you mentioned 'Christ', so you must be christian. How can a christian even say anything interesting in this current time? Last time I asked, their sayings were dreaded by restriction - so why would anyone condemn themselves to a life of bore? Are you a christian?
And I nodded after the question, in silence. Admittedly, for I knew what the problem was with being what I was, and my new companion was bang on identifying it. Made a pause, then raised my sight to where it met with the sky and the stars in it, and I said back to him.
— I am, but not one of a type you have ever seen, for the Christ that comes, is a Christ of art.
2.
The riptide sang, in its secret dialect of earth and sea. I looked upon the coast, turned an eye blind, and saw the ocean as the scorpio, and the land as the taurus; as it was the struggle between two lovers, never meant to consume each other. Ideal love then - yet not to confuse with this partnership as it was whimsilcally tied by the means in which i arranged my current conversation; for my lady somewhere waited for me. Then i allowed my eyes to rest still.
The alien looked upon me, undiscernable in my intentions, and again figured for himself that my interest towards him wasn’t clear. In suspicion, and after the moment he collected his thoughts asked “In your weird words you dubbed me performer, so what is it exactly that you wan’t from me. To me it seems like you are gathering people for some form of religious clown show. When you forced this meeting upon me, was this a proposal you thought i would find amusement in?”. And after the statement my own stare wandered in my conversation partner. While as he had his say, i returned to my can of beer, and finished it with a long gulp. Tempered in an unwillingness to fall to my new found friend irritation, i said within my own thoughts: “The alien looks easy going, but he is barbed in wit”.
Then i opened the can of beer that the stranger rejected; the loud pop resounded in the relative silence, interrupting for a moment the steady chorus of the sea. Gave it a long sip, and said.
– Theres no proposal in place yet. But im certain of something, and that is that both of us are messed individuals which reached the bottom doing the same thing - but the way my understandment of the human soul goes: two people can act by mere interaction as reactives to each other, creating a new chemical compound after the fact.
– This new psychology is very much like chemistry. But it is not my intention to draw you into something, but to pull myself out of this «something» by doing right on another person and maybe that person reflecting the good back on me. I just need a conversation partner, thats all. And i will do this with you, and with many people more. Presidents included.
The alien reflected on it, and after the hiatus of a long standing position of suspicion he finally gave in, and eased up with a slight smile. A strange smile of relief. But the smile, was all too familiar for me, as i realized the man was a tortured individual: a person in long standing pain. I smiled back the way he did, and continued.
– Our pain has a common name, and is a name that can be written with words unfortunately. It’s the devilish mother of all spiritual ills and its foundation, rests at the concept of a past that wasnt solved. It’s called «inadequeacy», and for people like you and me, understanding one day that such inadecuacy had to be solved by our own means, lead us into an act where our name changed as the changes in our cover up act to solve our inadequacy did.
– We never honored the past or the present in our pursuit, as we desired in passion to find solution to the present, by matching it into the idealization of some future without ever realizing that the old or present essence of ones being would be crushed into non existance by said future.
– Then we found the realization of that new name, only to understand that its demands became a tyranny on the other faces of our soul: as our soul is not something that can be undestood in unity, but something that conceives in the beginning in multiple things which try to give shape to one thing. Theres many people in a village, and our minds, are no exception.
— But happiness is only achieved by those who have their soul entire - or those who are the same person regardless of the context and scenario. And we gave to much to somebody that wasn't us, as our spirit took possession and lead us down.
– This is this the essence by which someone goes to hell, only to do one thing over again, getting an ever lasting pain for all the things that were given up chasing that which was absent. The more someone is forced into being shaped by the thing that was concevied in lust, the more the individual misses the place they used to call home, for that is no longer within ones reach. Does this makes sense to you?
The alien left me with no answer, and as he contemplated the sea, a tear travelled through his strange face.
– In this state of anguish, affliction rarely ever feels company, as the very individual condition that was pursued, became a full suit and persona to be forced upon and wear. Hell, is one lonely place man because we only learn to speak a language, that only makes sense to ourselves. But i think we can find a way out of it. This is why I'm here.
“Look, what you’ve done, it’s not something i can see the way you can see my own doing on me.” The alien replied. “Besides the way in which i canno’t see your face in this night, you seem ordinary — but what you talk and the way you say it, evokes in every word regret. What is it that you’ve done that has you regret like this?”
As the alien finished speaking, I emptied the can of beer, layed my eyes on the irregular grooves that my feet had left on the sand, and then replied back to him, after making a recap of the story i had repeatedly told myself after falling down.
“My story, is the fairy tale of a guy who makes way for the new coming of a new man; a better man for the world, while he casts disarray upon the earth: much to his dismay, at the expense of his own soul as the people who become victims of disasters, were ones who this man deemed unfair; cruel, evil, despicable in past. That was at the beginning."
"Theres a pile of corpses behind that character — even in covid time, people as close as the local priest of the small town he lived in, would break their neck after falling in the shower, as he had the slightest suspicion of their secret deeds. All clean deads for that matter. Untraceable to nothing but sheer randomness. Magic as it seeems. But were this folk truly evil people or even guilty of anything? You may ask - the man never knew it for sure, as he never had faculties such as godly omniscience to actually know it; which has taken a toll on him, as the burden of justice is an unberable one for anything but a god."
"Which leads to another point: spontaneously picturing random numbers in the head, associating them with psychological compounds by angular momentum, and actually being bang on the suspicion. Truth friend, in its stochastic presentation: it's unberable.”
“Consequential of such attempts to rationalize his own story in the eyes of people such as close family, my dude became clinically diagnosed with referenced thinking. Which are fancy words for schizophrenia. Nobody believed the story as it was uttered."
"Yet the consequences are there for everyone to see, altought not visible in their cause and effect by anybody but this guy, which lead him first into regret over ever starting his quest as a reformer; and then repent.”
“Now before he realized of this lets call it «curse», he preached for years over the internet as the disasters started to slowly creep up. He preached in a fashion parallel to Niestzches Zarathustra; Zarathustra meaning a famous philosophical device artificied by the philosopher Niestzche, who’s aim was to portray the best posible man, as something he dubbed the <<Übermensch>> ”.
“Such concept being the seemingly more elegant brand of a humanist ideal for a not so distant future: today - albeit a wrong one, for this guy was not dyonisian himself. The backbone of his framework, is analytical psycholgy becoming a chariot for a true understandment of human nature: and ultimately a facilitator for love within light: not within ignorance; not within darkness. Most philosophers today though would mock anything analytical in it's aim."
"Then on the guy preached and dwelved further into the relative hole of his own doctrine: and became imprisoned by what he didn’t got right at first attempt, making him in the process the character that Nietzsche from the comfort of his own writers seat, never attempted to actually embody within realistic means: eventually figuring out within himself the ultimate Nietzschean aristocrat: a magic pen granted by being capetian by mother: from judah by father."
"But Alas, you have no idea how common suicide is within philosophers after they finish their best work. As language, becomes the ultimate barrier for understandment, and then to ones capacity to feel love. Difference — true saliency in ones individual destiny— leads to the gravest posible pain. Ironic isn’t it?”
“Besides technical work with a new form of psychology inspired by analytical chemistry, as that drawed from his efforts during the light of day, five years ago, once he felt the urge to try to reach out to the world from a position of what he deemed was greater understandment: he primitively preached during night his new set of ideas for people to behave beyond the limitations of manipulative psychology, albeit a harsh doctrine meant to clear the way for a better product: Christ himself."
"This is not a doctrine a human being can actually perform, as such its christianity at its highest capacity to bear fruit. It’s an impossible doctrine, yet solves the oldest problem posed in the bible. All which sounds very sci-fi bullshit-y but actual problems started for the protagonist in this tale, when the preaching matched with terrible consequences. Not figurative, but within tangible reality.”
“So just as we talk, theres a small legion of hackers pretending to be doing internet social experiments while talking in an artsy matter: much in my own style, entertaining the exact same concepts - a legion of dangerous monkeys, i have no control over."
"One of the many unexpected consequences being this, yet prompted by something evil; ancient: essentially replicating what my protagonist developed and then preached over the years, while these "hacktivists" lay their attention on things and people, as they select them and enforce upon them strict surveillance, to behave properly. Then to destroy them, as they did in 2020 with many corporations and institutions.A bizarre combination of theater actors to my own liking, and then cyber-security demigods: omniscient in their claims to surveill, and they are - derivative such of another device of what I've done; which is to build a theater so people can make-believe that they are infact performing within themselves something greater - but that's matter for another story."
“Most of the corpses piling up flat out dead, have no relation to him whatsoever; they became victims as my protagonist took measures to fight back the monster he found at the foundation of the known world. This is not an elaborate analogy for one's own unseen capacity for evil, as i mean this: a monster as literally as it can be. For these things friend, im doomed as in true strenght, i have nothing but the pen i use to write down what i think albeit always at danger of it’s eventual inversion. I have no real friends left. Not one who can understand, or help bear the pain: as friendship and love are all gated by understandment."
"The full story has many more vertients, but i think i’ve done it enough justice. This is the predicament of an insane man chased by his own shadow as he builds a better man: one who delivers heavenly things, and then a shadow stringed to deliver tyranny as the very strings behind him make the better man stumble while he tries to keep a grasp of his own spirit, and then of his own soul."
"That monster behind, is wicked smart — and cannot be outwitted nor overpowered but anything but divine smite."
“I’m heading now to a new country, to try to get friends from the only institution in the world who knows and adresses the current times being, and who by extension, might believe me. And to clarify, these being the end of times; but not the end of the world. Yet now i myself have a damocles sword pending over my own head, and i need to do something about it before it falls.”
And as i said these things, i reached out to my backpack drawing a third can of beer from it — besides my own super laptop, thats what my backpack had: an infinite supply of beer. Corona, Indio, Victoria, Dos Equis, Heineken; you name it. I popped the can, and gave it a long and definite sip as i emptied it complete.
The alien didn't try to show that he understood, but stood still in silence, with his sight in the sand below and pressing lips, knowing by my demeanor; that these things as I've said them was something that I needed to do. Then he said: "I don't follow man. You say you preach and then disasters occur. Like a prophet from the bible?"
"Yes. Then I preached to get rid of the things that are actually making the world worse, and something awoke soon after, and since then; everything I do is subject to being misinterpreted due to the diffamatory action of this thing. Now everytime I do something, it can be twisted and turned against my original intent. Right now the hackers are my worst problem: I may have a degree in computers but I have no fucking idea whatsoever of hacking. I earn my living as an A.I engineer.".
The alien raised his sight to meet with mine, and after doing some contemplation on the fact, quite simply said: "You are insane". Then lowered his own sight, and raised it again to meet with the sea and continued. "If you want a tattoo, we can work that out. But either way and whatever parts of your story are true and even worse; the ones you may be lying about: you sound dangerous in a delusional kind of sense, and my life is hard enough as is."
I pressed my fists, knowing then the old same thing had happened again. For I had never forced anything upon anybody, and I was willing to respect that until the bitter end. Then I released the build up of frustration with a loud sigh, and after this amend, I replied back.
"I understand and respect it. But let me just propose you that if you ever want to figure what is beyond life as it's lived by person who has never seen what is like to be someone you write a great story about; you can pin me, and I'll show you what's beyond that door. Give it some thought."
The alien; The Black Alien Project stayed there sitting, spechless but calm, almost expecting something else to be convinced about. But pointless, for i knew that nobody can be forced into anything without bringing a transgression into play – and i wasn’t one to taint myself in sin if it could be avoided. Not anymore.
3.
I made the distance at steady pace walking along the shore, until i found a small group of pines in-between the liminal space of the beach and the land. I sat with one of the pines trunk behind my back, and drawed the Schizo Pills from my eternal supply of traveller goodies.
Quetiapine 100 mg, and Olanzapine 10 mg, i made a smaller fragment from the olanzapine pill, and swallowed both complete. As their side effects were concerned, they would soon knock me out of conscience, as this little ritual was my own way of calling the day complete – then i layed there, vigilant, waiting for my own drowsiness to claim me into sleep - but the Bird of Britan came flying from above, and stood besides me.
\Chirp, Chirp, Chirp**
I watched the bird, annoyed, as its presence had become an omen for contempt. For me and the death people of my past. I frowned upon the little shit, and said nothing. The bird made a little nod, while tilting its head in excentricity the way birds do, and replied. — Hey Andrew!, do you remember when you tried to penetrate your own computer to make a universe grow inside of it? I just wan’t to know something: did your computer moan? Did it finally learnt how to scream your name?
\Chirp Chirp**
Ignoring the bird, i closed my eyes and stayed like that for a long moment, hoping to make the bird think i was asleep. Maybe that would make him leave.
— Can’t bullshit me like that Sweetheart. So please tell me something; why don’t you command one of your supermodels; these muses, to come here and warm the bed for you. It's a cold night and you seem lonely brah
. \Chirp Chirp**
I opened my eyes, and irritated, pointed menacingly at the bird turning my left hand into an imaginary gun. I had already failed at something today, and wasn’t convinced i needed the memory of the things i failed at before. Not now.

• Hol’ up cowboy ! you wan’t to bang my bird ass when you should be banging a bitch ass. What happened with Tyrone huckleberry? Did you managed to make him as impotent as you are right now? —I held steady my hand; and tired, the tempation to pull again the trigger on the bird was growing larger. I saw red roses in my own sight, making a terrible omen for a migraine forthcoming. Said nothing.

— The glowniggers are out there brah. You may not be a hacker – and its true, but i took notice of your last words: so now the glowies are going to instead dreambooth* people into every posible kind of scenario of extorsion, while they surveil like a motherfucker. Like you dream boothed yourself for your little ahem "art project". Then we will use Suno*, then Sora* when it open sources. Are you going to protect your hoes?
Said nothing.

• Alright cowboy, i will give meaning to that revelations verse. What was it? Ah yes. Revelations 9:6. Every single person with an internet history will be as paranoid as you were in 2020. Everyone will be diffamated into acts of political terrorism! Aren’t you am-

And as i pulled the imaginary trigger from the imaginary pistol, an imaginary arrow in the sky descended with a blaze of not so imaginary flames on the Bird of Britain, engulfing the little shit in heat, and making it’s body explode into a gore of scorched viscera. As if the bird was in a microwave oven. I inmediately gasped as the explosion was too close from where i was sitting - after the conmotion, stared at the red and burned stain in the floor, and left my sight rest there, as sleep finally found its way into my restless thoughts.
"No longer care for love unless it's between good friends”. Said to myself. There was certainly a migraine coming, but maybe my dreams would help convince it otherwise. And as far as the hoes were concerned, Furious Angels would be there for them. Like the Rob Dougan song.
4.
Found my own mind after the slumber – asleep, then awake. I realized several hours passed - at least enough to wake up and witness the sun rise above the sea. But as for dreams, the light veil of their memories wasn't something to rely upon. But i did remember something, and it was some overtone in dread; an atmosphere of fear – and a kind of dread sustained in it’s inevitability by the urgency that builds upon dearth.
Now what exactly was it though? I couldn’t remember from my dreams, but ever since i falled to my own death i had always present in mind the future succesion of events that would follow when things started to go very wrong. Iran, the U.S, Israel - now whatever was it in the news; the outcome would be the same. A thousand more cuts to an already languishing economy. Make that corpse bleed, and then fall off a cliff.
As such things would be cooked, just as the bird of britain. The bird was still there though: just in pieces and roasted like the contents of a dropped KFC bucket would. But the little shit would return - as it always did. The economy? Not so much.
Yet i digress. None of the world circumstances mattered as far i was concerned – i had built a small and portable solar system to power my laptop, and my beer supply was well, infinite - i made myself sure that i had my needs covered whatever happened around me. Not tied to even a house for that matter. I incorporated myself and gave my back a stretch. The morning breeze coming from the sea evocated in my memories some time that had long passed – late childhood. I rejected those memories as they beared with them things i didnt wan’t to remember - then wen’t on as usual in my morning routine scrolling through my instagram feed, figuring if there were any new hoes to maybe motivate me into doing my God imposed labour.
Labour which was to either write, or to finish the House of Water — then after scrolling i did in fact saw a new hoe; i dropped a Faux Pas comment. Maybe she would play along, maybe not. Whatever. Sometimes I would put in a lot of effort to do a rhyme. But the effort depended on the insta-hoe in question. I know. Not the best of habits, but back in elementary school i was the kind of kid that would only get motivation when the girls in the classroom were present in physEd. And then i would run faster: whole lotta faster. Run Forrest! Run! Women love used to fuel me; and the habit sticked — and at the moment, i was kinda done with the idea of female trascendence. Would rely on their love, but not on their validation. Not like a simp. Fuck that.
Furthermore, what results did i demonstrably mustered after pursuing true egalitarianism and sharing it? Exactly. A bitch gonna do what a bitch gonna do, and so does the human female. After publishing the comment, I locked my phone and walked towards the highway, as i was planning to pay a visit to somebody long forgotten - I had kind of a schedule that i was going to follow, before taking the plane to Madrid and become hispanic Jon Snow from the walgreens Nightwatch.

I’m 22 ftm, and I live with my grandparents. They requested I live with them to help them out.
I’m honestly really devastated at the moment so I’m not sure what to do or say, I’m sorry if this post is messy. I intend on starting HRT on Monday, taking a low dose of Testosterone. I’ve known I was a man since I was 14 years old, and I experience dysphoria with my voice and looking feminine. I’ve socially transitioned, and my school and job accept me for who I am.
My family, though, all have varying levels of disagreeing with the LGBTQ. I came out when I was 19. My uncles are the types of guys to assume all gay men will force themselves on them, my dad told me I will never be a real man and that I’m a beautiful girl, and anyone who referred to me by my proper pronouns or name were essentially bullied into misgendering and deadnaming me. I only know this because a former ally told me he can no longer respect my identity because he “needs to be on (his) wife’s side.” I understood, but it hurt.
Flash forward to now. I dress androgynous and occasionally wear a dress because- let’s be real- dresses are super comfortable. Who WANTS to wear pants all the time? Not me, even if I’m masc aligned.
That being said, my gender dysphoria has been particularly bad- to the point where I did something drastic last year that took me a while to recover from. After healing from it, getting a job, and finishing out my semester in college, I went to a gender clinic that would work with my health insurance to see what options would be best for me.
After about two hours of discussing my personal journey, my family’s medical issues, and discussing the options they can provide, we decided biweekly low dosage testosterone injections were the way to go for how I’d like to present. They draw my blood, see that I’m medically fit, and schedule an appointment a month out for me to get my first testosterone injection in their office so I know how to do them at home.
Last night, my grandmother, 64F (who, by all accounts, is one of my most liberal family members) calls me down to talk after I come home from work. She pulls out a letter that she had opened addressed to me by my preferred name. Again, she knows I’m trans. I’ve explained it to her before, but she’s always been subtly doubtful. It’s small things like “you think you’re a boy” and “you call yourself Dylan” as opposed to just saying I’m a boy or that I go by Dylan. Honestly, the second one sounds like I run around and talk in the third person and everyone calls me by my legal name, which amuses me a little, but is still pretty disrespectful.
The letter is from the clinic, and it shows the date of my upcoming appointment. She said my grandfather (75M) gave it to her, and not to me. They opened my mail without my permission, which is illegal, but they do it all the time. My grandfather mentioned that it was the same place I could get hormones, and if I did that, he would kick me out. My grandmother seemingly agrees with this, and told me that, and that he’s very anti-lgbtq.
There’s a few problems with this story I couldn’t process at the time: - My grandfather was one of the first people I came out to, and he was very accepting of me. This was only three years ago, but I understand his memory and personality may change drastically in old age. He even bought me my first binder! - My grandmother was openly against me getting HRT, and always has been. - My family (her sons mostly) has claimed she’s very controlling and has “always wanted a little girl.” I was her only granddaughter and her daughters, so I feel like that may also affect her. - She has constantly put in my head that I am intellectually disabled. I can agree I’m behind the curve for people my age, but not so much I need to be monitored and watched over for the rest of my life like she seems to imply
That night, I sobbed in my car because of the betrayal. I thought she loved me, but I think I love my grandmother more than she loves me, sometimes. Or maybe just not in the same way.
Tonight, she and I will have dinner out. I don’t have the energy to fight, but I’ll record our conversation if it comes to that so I can organize points at a later date to discuss with her. I won’t be cancelling my HRT, and I have resources in case she does kick me out, but it never really hurts to have more. Thanks for reading, I’ll update later tonight.