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tw: self-harm
hi, im (20) and this friend is (22), we're both girls i met her through a server sa discord, we have alot in common so we naturally clicked, then from that server may naging friend din kami which is a guy (technically 3 na kami), we became ig mutuals and facebook friends. Simula non sa messenger na kami naguusap kasi medyo inactive na yung server namin. May 24 or 25, I started to review for my finals so naka-dnd phone ko, mute lahat as in kasi mabilis ako madistract. Kasama na sila don and sinabi ko din naman sa kanila na I would be inactive or hindi magpaparamdam for the meantime kasi naiiyak na ko non, andami pang pending activities then I would review for the whole day kasi cover-cover finals namin. 7am din kasi lagi start ng 1st exam namin and tulog ako pag hapon, kulang pa nga time ko magreview sa dami.
So ayun edi almost 1 week ako hindi nagparamdam, I opened my messenger and saw alot of unsent messages. Then nagtaka na ko dun kasi this "friend" nadiagnose sha na may depression and pumunta agad ako sa ig kasi mahilig siya magstory. Nakita ko yung latest ig story nya sa dump, sa caption ng video "asan na mga kakampi ko? akala ko andyan kayo palagi para sa akin, pero pag kailangan wala kayo" and sa caption nya nagself-harm daw sya which alarmed me.
So after seeing that story, i sent a long message feeling sorry and guilty na wala ako even though it was my finals week. Nagreply naman sha saying "oks lang pi, tapos naman na daiiii. salamuch rinnn labyu too mwaps medj nagtampo lang pero tapos na yun HAHAHUAAHAH" and nasend ko to sa other friends ko, im gonna ask this too sa peeps here na medyo plastik ba datingan nung reply? (pacomment na lang po huhu) after that minessage ko si guy friend namin pero ayun cold ung replies nya kasi hindi sya natutuwa sa friend namin na yan. Sinabi nya na may sari-sarili kaming buhay and natural na uunahin ko ung finals ko and sha din busy kasi graduating student. Nagmessage daw si ate girl kay guy saying na "nainis din daw sya sayo nagchat sya saakin eh ako point ko yung sinabi ko sayo rn pero sya ang babaw ng reason nya 1 week ka na daw di nagpaparamdam eh nasa story mo nga na busy ka eh" with this message, ito yung breaking point ko. Sa dami ng friends ko, siya lang ang naging ganan, nainis sakin kasi inuna ko finals ko.
Like f*ck (sorry), ever since bata ako, alam ng TRUE FRIENDS ko how much important tong pag-aaral sakin. Hirap na hirap ako makapasa kasi average student lang ako. Super babaw ng reason nya sobra na nagsimula na ko mainis. Ayoko mainis tbh sa kanya kasi nga baka may gawin sha tapos ako pa masisi pero mali e. Nagdudusa pa ko sa finals e, hindi pa ba sapat yung stories ko (it's a way to show na even though wala ako mashado kinakausap/tahimik ako kasi nagrereview, busy ako). Para bang ginuguilt trip nya kami, para she's blaming us talaga. A close friend message me na "sorry pero your friend’s well being is not your responsibility talaga. it’s a nice gesture to be there for them and give support pero as adults?? we also have our own lives, sobrang unrealistic na nandyan tayo para sa isa’t isa LAGI" which I agree naman.
Pero kasi ang worst pa? After that story, biglang may pic sha na nanunuod ng movie with the caption "movie marathon w bffs" like actual WOW, after niya kaming ganunin, I actually wanted to say na baket parang nakadepende sya samin? sa kanya lang ba dapat kami umikot? may other people din naman sha na pedeng makausap? pero i didnt try to message her na kasi nadradrain lang talaga ako. Hindi namin makausap ng masinsinan, ang hirap kasi ipaintindi sakanya di open pakikinig nya maooffend sya agad. Medyo immature pa din sha even though she's 2 years older than me pero that's not an excuse na parang pinafeel nya na mali na inuna ko finals ko before her well being.

TL;DR A stranger guy, that's been an aggressive creep, has been staring, following me around for months, stands close & watches like an owl, when I'm talking to any guy at the gym & its weird -almost as if he's just about to pee all around me & mark his territory from other men. I'm not flirting with the guys, it's just a normal conversation. This guy is Telugu but I'm not (this is a tier-1 city & I was talking to the other guys in Hindi) Have seen this kinda pushiness from other Telugu men as well. What gives? Perhaps the pushiness is not just with them & is pervasive across the board with most other guys IDK. Thoughts?
An creep at the gym stares & follows me around at the gym (always finding an equipment closer to mine & the unapologetic leering, not just a passing stare) Doesn't come talk to me either. If he did, I could reject him & shoot him down. End of love story - but just stares for months on end. I used to get annoyed but I've learnt to ignore him now
My old classmate (guy) joined the gym recently and I was talking to him. But this creep doesn't know he's my friend. When I talk to him, the creep stands really close maybe like two feet away and has even stood beside me way too close, twice making it awkward. He looks at us like he wants me to know he's looking at us.
It's not even just with this friend of mine. It's everytime I'm interacting with a guy, he is staring at me strongly, as if he wants me to look at him. I can feel his eyes on me.
Been trying to not make a scene but it's sorta difficult when there are men, that are grade-A creeps like this. What am I even doing wrong here? What's weird here to even look at? a stranger girl, that interests him, isn't allowed to interact with any guy, other than him? And if she did, you stare them both down, make it awkward for everyone involved? That level of entitlement to complete stranger? Absurd
P.s I've observed this kinda aggressive behaviour from other Telugu guys too (most if #notall). Any idea why they're extra creepy/pushy compared to the "regular" misogynistic stock that we've dealt with so far?
Edit: have approached the gym management about stares from a different guy. They didn't do a thing. I doubt they would, with this one (So I changed my timing & ended up with this creep). All the more reason to not make a scene. NobodyGAF about your discomfort. You're on your own. That's been the theme

idk if im in the right sub pero i really need advice on how do i get over someone i never even dated? so for context, i knew her since my 12th grade cuz we were classmates but hindi kami close not until may 2022 where we finally met each other formally since we were not able to see each other in person yet kasi nga pandemic and i was a transferee in that school. her friends kept teasing her na crush nya ako ganun2 so i was confused at first kasi di ko alam if they were just tripping or talagang totoo. eventually, we became a little close and started exchanging texts from time to time. me and her never missed the chance to greet each other a happy birthday every 12 am. we are reacting and sometimes commenting in each other's posts and we were even mutuals in both of our dump accs in ig and fb. that went on for about a year and a half and of course medyo nahuhulog na loob ko sa kanya but we were nothing more than that, she never asked me out and i never did too. in my defense, one of her friend tried setting us up for a coffee date and she declined but i was okay with it infact, i was looking forward to it but yeah it didn't happen.
i tried understanding her situation because i know na she's still healing from her past kasi she was brokenhearted when she met me so i gave her enough time to at least heal before commiting with me so fast forward to aug 2022, we enrolled in the same college but in different course but dahil hindi match yung sched namin, hindi kami gaano nagkikita sa school but still our interactions went on until 2023. mga mid 2023 i started noticing na medyo di na sya gaano nag vview ng stories ko or kapag nag view man, no reaction unlike dati so i felt like ah baka medyo nawawala na feelings nya. i don't even know what to call our situation, is it situationship or just nothing but a social media mutuals? former classmates? idk what cuz kahit isa jan I don't think our situation fit into that i don't even know if what we had was real. I always felt like i was just a rebound cuz she might've just wanted the attention i was giving her during the time she was healing but when she finally healed, i felt like i was dropped not immediately but slowly. i know naman na she tried holding on to whatever our situation is but yun nga you cannot force yourself din naman and i understand that.
so in january 2024 i was sooo confused na cuz like i've been waiting so long for her if may plans ba sya na i pursue ako or kahit small effort lang ba na gusto nya ako makilala better but then wala talaga and during that time medyo nafefeel ko lang na iba na gusto nya which is classmate nya rin that's why mas naguguluhan ako if may lugar pa ba talaga ako sa kanya. i know that some people are just not ready no matter how much time i give them but the thing is hindi ako always andito para mag hintay and i know na i deserve more than uncertainty and i don't want to keep waiting on something na hindi ko alam if may patutunguhan ba or wala. i gave enough time naman sa kanya to prove na she likes me diba? one and a half year is enough but still, i felt guilty.
feb 2024, i finally cut her off in everything. it took a lot for me to do that but yung mali ko lang is i didn't tell her anything or left any explanation basta inalis ko nalang sya. i was just so upset na parang hindi sya bothered with my absence cuz im using something to check her stories without even following her but yeah i figured out na she wasn't bothered because she was with the other girl im talking about na feel ko yun na yung "bagong crush" nya kasi in her story, she was with the girl so i knew it since then na hindi na ako but not even a week later, i opened my messenger kasi mag babackread sana ako sa first chat namin and believe it or not but the exact time i opened our chat, yun din yung exact time na nag send sya ng long message apologizing how she could've done more to us and how her feelings were indeed genuine. i saw the message and i just cried and cried and i replied to her like 2 or 3 hours after. it's crazy how we ended before even getting started but then who am i to complain ba? hindi naman talaga naging kami but all i wanna know if valid ba yung nararamdaman ko kasi until now i can't get over her and siya masaya na dun sa other girl and ginawa nya pa ngang profile pic yung magkasama sila and the same pic na nakita ko sa ig story nya nung na stalk ko sya....i felt pathetic and used. ano ba talaga naging role ko sa kanya? i know she said na what she felt was genuine but that's not what it felt like. ang sakit lang na yung mga bagay na winiwish ko dati na gawin nya sakin is ginagawa nya na dun sa classmate nya like simple lang naman sana gusto ko to know na sincere sya kaso ni isa wala talaga and that was enough naman for me to know na she might've liked me but she didn't liked me enough for her to pursue and commit something real with me. i know na if i was the girl she really wanted, the communication and the efforts would've been different and easier but yeah sadly hindi eh :( i know na sana ako rin nag effort kaso in my part, sya yung unang nagparamdam na gusto nya ako but hindi pa sya healed and i think valid din naman if ang ginawa ko is nag hintay until mag heal sya and wait if she will pursue me kaso i got tired of waiting kasi ano pang point ng paghihintay kung sa iba na pala pupunta yung hinihintay diba?
so far sa kanya ako pinaka nasaktan kasi idk? straight ako pero hindi ko nga ni mind na same kami girl kasi basta alam ko i liked her too even if my whole family was catholic and completely against that pero for her i was willing to risk it sana. the moment i started liking her i never questioned na bakit babae rin nagugustuhan ko if straight ako? all i know is i like her. i liked her soul, her attitude and her heart pero since things didn't go according to what i wanted and what i expected im trying to forget her but di ko alam paano so pls any advice how do i get over her completely?

hi! first time writing in this community but i just wanna ask some question and idk if I'm just assuming things or it really does mean something lol
so, i have a long time friend since G7 (we're on 3rd yr college now), that I recently in contact with (recent lang tho mga around feb), well hindi kasi kami talaga madalas mag-usap thru chat but more on personal plus may long term gf siya before so it's a no no talaga. even before, feel ko talaga medyo crush ko siya kaso na-suppressed lang kasi have boundaries since may jowa nga soo ayon we remained friends tapos ayaw ko i-acknowledge iyong feelings plus gusto rin ako ng barkada niya before kaya medyo awkward. tapos nag-break sila noong long term gf during jhs, then idk if he had gfs during shs kasi hindi na talaga kami madalas mag-usap. moving on to college life, since different courses kami, nabalitaan ko na lang na may jowa siya (not sure if we're 1st or 2nd yr that time) so talagang no communication kami altho sabi niya friends pa rin naman kami. we have common friends kasi tapos lagi nilang sinasabi sa akin na sobrang tahimik niya raw and such (which is not true naman since madaldal talaga siya sa akin) so lagi kong dine-debunk. tapos one time nakita nilang kaming nag-usap kasi nakita ko lang sila somewhere sa school, sabi nila, "ang daldal naman pala ni *****," kinilig ako slight kasi nothing has changed kahit sobrang tagal namin walang comm lol (break na sila ng jowa niya here during college tho tapos naglalasing pa siya kaya pinagalitan ko one time, nagsumbong kasi sa akin barkada niya. idk why). tapos nainjury (minor only naman) siya one time pumunta pa sa akin para magpalinis ng wound kahit gabi na, hay.
then eto na nga, last feb nag-start siya magparamdam like nagugulat ako biglang nagrereply sa mga stories ko (unusual kasi never niya ginawa eon, ever since naging mutuals kami, even sa mga notes). he even asked for my sched, had our late night talks, asked me to join concert, lend his sweatshirt etc., which overwhelms me lol. he even attempted na pumunta here sa house kaso pinigilan ko since nagulat ako talaga and then nagn-note siya ng something like i don't see you as friend ganon
pero hahaha plot twist: 2nd day noong first comm namin noong feb sinabi niyang crush niya iyong friend ko sa isang section, so sabi ko shoot your shot kahit nasaktan ako slight hahaha kaya i'm confused ngayon nahihiya rin kasi ako mag-ask at baka oa lang ako
after that, never niya na nabanggit iyong crush niya na iyon tapos single pa rin siya at nagrereply pa rin sa mga stories at notes q so wdyt guys, umaasa po ba ako sa wala bc I'm just assuming things??
thanks! xoxo

hindi ko gets yung mga tao na ang hilig mag post ng mag post sa social media about sa mga family problem nila, as in sa social media sila ngkakalat... like example nagkasagutan sa magulang or sa mga kapatid, derecho social media ipopost, parang nghahanap ng awa/kakampi, pwede naman kasi nila ayusin privately...
tsaka don din sa mga kumakampi or ngaadvice eh make sure you know the whole story (meron ako kakilala know both sides, yung ng post galit na galit siya sa nanay niya, dahil lang napagsabihan, eh ang sinabi lang ng nanay niya na icheck ng maayos yung gripo ng tubig, dahil may times daw na naabutan niya na bukas eh ang mahal daw ng tubig nila hala etong si anak ng react agad kung ano ano na pinost sa social media). ingat din tayo sa pagaadvice ng mga friend natin na mahilig mgpost kasi baka instead na makatulong eh nang gatong pa tayo at lalo pang masira kung ano relationship
sa totoo lang natotoxican sa mga ganyan, kaya inuunfollow ko na lang sila

Hola amigo kaise ho thik ho , I am thinking to create some story based cinematic videos. i have created a video earlier but the voice i have picked from youtube but i want it to be a proper hindi audio deep story purely indi cinematics. Lets discuss some ideas if you have anything [anyone with dslr will be a + point cuz i am using 13 for all kind of photography n cinematography ]
Pasting links of my cinematic video in comment

So I've been manifesting my sp and it's good so far. I am not consistent with affirmations and visualizing. I just do it whenever gusto ko, but I am consistent with prayer. I finally know what works best for me. PRAYER because some of my manifestations just show up in front of me out of nowhere. I just keep on praying every night or whenever I am falling asleep. And also with prayer, I feel confident and fulfilled and also relaxed. Parang na aauto reject din ang mga negativity sa mind ko 😂 One of my answered prayer pala is I asked God na makahingi ako ng sorry sa isang friend ko and hindi kami nag usap since 2017 then just last week, out of nowhere minention ng isa kong friend na na mention daw ako nung friend na yun na matagal na kami hindi nakapag-usap. To make the story short, I added her as a friend and she messaged me first. That's it, I asked for apology and we patch things up. Next naman na success story, I am with my SP na! So keep the faith guys!
What manifestation technique works best for you?

Okay so for starters 'di ko kase talaga alam kung anong dapat kong ilagay na title, pero gustong gusto ko na talagang ilabas to. This story is based sa kung anong kwento sakin ng family at ng ex ko mismo. So me(21) and my ex (21) are both college students and we've been together for a year. Naging kami month of January. The first time na nameet ko family niya kinakabahan pa'ko baka di ako matanggap or what pero actually okay nmn pala, para silang picture perfect na family very accomodating din, and to what I observed passive ang mom niya, amazona ate niya and ok nmn tatay niya.
So nasa 1 month palang kami ng relationship nagbreakdown ex ko saying na nakita niya father niya na may hinalikan na coworker sa harap ng working place niya, so ang ginawa ko that time is nakinig and cinonsole lang siya then another month came na nmn may another cheating issue na nmn so nagdecide si ex na ireveal sa family niya, ang kwento niya is umiyak daw ate and mama niya pero di sila naghiwalay.
So bandang march april and may, isahan ko na lang sasabihin yung nangyari since di ko marecall the exact date. So sa ganitong month is according to my ex is binubugbog siya ng tatay niya, pinagbabantaan etc, although di ko nakita na binubugbog siya naririnig ko yung mga mura na pinapauwi na siya na kahit sobrang lakas ng ulan go siya ang ending pati ako basang basa, plus may mga death threats pa na babarilin siya and papatayin. Actually during those monthsy ex is super balisa like as in paranoid na para siyang hinahabol ng kamatayan and syempre damay ko kase nga ako yung gf. Fast forward kinasuhan ni gremond tatay niya and humantong sila sa agreement. So okay na sana akala ko lang pala.
The following year of May first week, pinuntahan ako ng ate niya asking nasan daw ba siya, hindi kami magkasama that time so hindi ako aware kung asan pero I gave them the list kung saan siya pwde magstay and before that nagsabi na sakin si ex kung bakit siya umalis is that nahulo niya daw tatay niya na nambababae parin and also nanay niya na nanlalalaki and sinabi niya na hindi niya kayang nasa iisang bubong lang with them like bakit daw di pa sila maghiwalay.
Pabalil balik yung pamilya niya sa center (I have scholarship na pati boarding house is cover pero madaming rules kasama na dun ang no exclusive relationship) One time paguwi ko galing ng school sinabi sakin ng staff namin na may naghahanap daw sa'kin and boyfriend ang ginamit na term so syempre dineny ko yun bawal nga ang boyfriend sa scholarship ko pero paulit ulit and pababalik balik sila. Nakipagbreak ako sa ex ko since sinabihan ko siya na ayokong madamay sa gulo ng pamilya niya. Apparently the reason na hinahanap siya is ninakawan daw niya nanay niya, nangscam daw siya ng ibang tao, binenta daw niya motor niya, and a lot of na nakacenter sa money, so tinanony ko yun sa knya and sabi niya hindi totoo kase sinisiraan siya ng pamilya niya para wala na siya mapuntahan he provided the answers sa lahat ng allegations sa kanya, anyways both sides nmn is walang maipakitang evidence pero syempre naniniwla ako sa knya boyfriend ko siya that time and araw araw kami magkasama.
Pati sa school dinamay ako pinatawag ako with pir department chair and sinasabi pa ng ate niya na ayaw ko raw makipagcooperate sinabi pa na mga underwear ko asa bahay nila hiyang hiya ako that time wala akong nagawa kundi umiyak na lang nasa isip ko is ang dami dami nilanh connection bakit sakin nila hinahanap. Nagusap pa kami ng ate niya sa chat and sinasabi kong ayoko madamay ang response niya sakin is ayaw din daw nila sakin kase nilalayo ko loob ng kapatid niya and hindi nmn daw siya ganun nung sila pa nung ex niya(first gf niya) minention niya pa name. Third week of May nagpunta sila sa center ko again and this time sinumbong nila ako sinabi nilang may boyfriend ako na ayokong makipagcooperate sa paghahanap sa knya, na nagkikita daw kami pero di ko sinasabi and natutulog ako sa bahay nila and araw araw daw ako nagpupunta sa bahay ni ex, ginagawa ko daw yun lalo na kpag walang tao.
At that time di ko alam mararamdaman ko I feel betrayed, kase una palang sinabihan ko na sila na bawal sa scholarship ko and hoping na ikeep yun as a secret, 2nd of all hindi nmn araw araw na pumupunta ako sa kanila around march and april nga lang kung tutuusin kase awkward pa nga since alam ko issue ng family niya, plus twice or thrice a week grabe nmn yung araw-araw, the time pa na nagsleep ako sa kanila may occasion and family niya nagiinvite sakin katabi ko pa mom niya magsleep tapos ganun yung sasabihin about sakin. Question ako namg question sa sarili ko that time na ano bang nagawa ko sa kanila para siraan ako kase pinapalabas nila na gold digger ako na sakin napupunta yung pera, sabi pa nagssteak kami araw- araw😭😭😭. In the first place wala naman akong pinapabili kung may nareceived man ako sariling kusa yun ni ex and tinatanggap ko lang plus normal namn ata sa magcouple na itreat ng boy yung girl so di ko talaga maintindihan bat nila nagawa yun.
Ang ending pati tita and tito ko dinamay (sila nagsusustento and nagsusupport sakin). So, nawalan ako ng scholarship, nawala pati trust and relationship ko sa family ko, affected kahit mental state ko and sa kanila anong nawala? wala nmn bumalil nmn si ex sa kanila and nagaact sila na parang walang nangyari. Wala na dito sa place ko si ex since sinama siya ng ate niya sa mindanao.
Hindi ko alam kung pano ko talaga ieexpress yung nararamdaman ko sobrang dami kasing nangyari and accusations na ang alam ko lang nmn is kung anong sinasabi sakin na kahit magsabi ako ng di ko alam di ako pinapaniwalaan. Hindi sa pagiging sad gurl or what pero sana talaga namatay na lang ako.

So yesterday while reading Nirmala by Premchand, it hit me; I haven't read much of Indian authors. I've read works by Chitra Banerjee, Amish, short story collections by Khushwant Singh and Ruskin Bond, 'Do Log' by Gulzar, 'Godan' by Premchand and yeah that's it. So, pls do recommend some of your favourite authors and their works, preferably in English and Hindi.

May dalawang friend yung gf ko na kaclose nya mula Grade11. Yung dalawang friend nyang yun may mga bf din. College na sila nung mangyare etong ikukwento ko.
So eto na nga, Around Aug or Sep 2019, naisipan nila mag Elyu, then naghanap si gf at ako naman yung nagbook ng tutuluyan mga 5months before nung mismong punta namin para daw makapag ipon (College Students pa kasi sila that time, ako kakagraduate lang at may work na). Yung bf lang ni GF1 ang marunong magdrive at sabi ni BF1 need daw nya ng kapalitan. Si BF2, no experience sa pagdadrive at walang pera pangasikaso ng lisensya. So no choice, ako nalang yung option, since may exp din naman ako madrive sa kalsada(motor) at may lisensya. Nung mga 2months nalang before nung mismong alis namin, nag-enroll ako sa driving school. 2 hours every other day tas mga 2weeks din ata yun di ko maalala. Nung naka kuha na ako ng certificate of completion, nagleave ako sa work, at maaga gumising para magasikaso ng lisensya. Need kasi mag add ng restriction para pwede na magdrive ng four wheels. Forda effort ang koya nyo. Around 3 or 2 weeks nalang, nag group call pa ang mga gf para makapag plan ng mas mabuti.
Nung 1 week nalang, biglang di pwede si GF2, wala pa daw silang ipon ganto ganyan. Syempre inis kami nun, ang lapit na e. Si GF1 dahil gusto nya kumpleto, nag-agree sya na re-sched nalang. Syempre wala din naman kaming magagawa. At dahil ako ang nag book at ako yung mismong kausap, pina-resched ko. Nung una hindi pa nakakahiya syempre.
Fast forward, nagpandemic. Edi lock down. Edi re-sched again. Understandable. Walang may kasalanan.
Fast forward. Nung panahong medyo nagluwag na. Yung pwede na magbeach pero may mga requirements.
Sa gc nila, napag usapan na magpapavaccine kaming lahat. Tas sa after ilang days, napag usapan naman yung Elyu. So syempre, nagplano ulit yung tatlong girls. Tapos pina-resched ko na ulit, mga 3 or 4 months bago yung mismong punta namin. Nung 1 month nalang, vaccinated na kaming 4, tinatanong namin si GF2 kung nakapag pavaccine na sila ni jowa nya, hindi pa daw. Di pa daw alam schedule ganto ganyan. Hanggang sa 1-2weeks nalang mga ante, ayaw daw syang payagan magpavaccine ng tita nya tas si BF2 wala padin daw vaccine. Kesyo ayaw daw makahawa sa bahay nila, tas ayaw din daw payagan umalis. Samantalang yung pinsan nya na kasama nila sa bahay, lagi daw lumalabas mga ante! 😭
Medyo inis kami nun. Hahahaha! Pero sige, dahil health naman usapan dyan. Pero that time nahihiya na ako magpa-resched na naman, pero no choice e.
Fast forward. Around Nov-Dec 2021 na ata 'to? Nakakagala na kami halos linggo linggo. Birthday ni BF1, kumain kami ng dinner sa labas, 6 kami plus 2 other friends. Tapos nung pauwi, nagaway si BF1 at GF1. Tas nagdecide na matulog sila GF1 at GF2 kila gf. So apat kami sa sala. Ang plano ko kinabukasan itreat ko si gf ng unli wings malapit sakanila tapos rest nalang buong araw tutal kakatapos lang gumala kaso di natuloy kasi naguusap na silang pumunta kinabukasan sa SM San Lazaro para bumili ng regalo ni GF1 kay BF1. Ang usapan nila pag gising daw ng umaga, uuwi muna si GF1 at GF2 para maligo, tapos gagamit ng kotse si GF1 at daanan nalang kami. Nung umaga na bago sila umuwi, nagsuggest si gf na mag MOA nalang para mas madaming option si GF1 para sa gift nya. G naman sila. After ilang oras namin na paghihintay, nagchange plan at mauna na daw sila GF1 at GF2 sa San Lazaro kasi may aasikasuhin pa pala dun si GF2, tapos magkita kita nalang sa MoA. Sa isip ko nun, bat di pa kami sinama. Mapapagamit pa tuloy ng isang sasakyan. Tapos nung paalis na kami papuntang MoA, mga lunch time na nun, change plan na naman. Daanan daw muna namin mga BF nila at isama na sa MoA. So sabi namin ni gf, okay. So sinundo namin mga BF nila sa kanikanilang bahay tapos diretso MoA.
Habang nagdadrive ako, si gf nagfefacebook, nakita nya story ni GF1, kumain na pala silang dalawa ng lunch. Ang nasa isip ko nun "ay di man lang naghintay? Or sana sinabi nyo para naglunch muna kami bago umalis" hahaha pero di pa ako inis nun. Hinayaan ko lang.
Pagdating namin sa seaside, nagpark na kami, after namin magpark, wala pala sila dun. Awit. Nasa kabilang parking pala sila, sabi ko wag na lumipat ng parking iisa lang din naman pupuntahan, pero sabi nila lumipat daw kami ng parking. Edi nadoble pa bayad. Hahaha. Tapos nung nakalipat na kami ng parking. Edi syempre partner partner na, HHWW. Mga ilang minuto na, naisip ko "ano ginagawa natin at naglalakad tayo sa initan, bat di pa tayo pumapasok ng MoA" so sinabi ko yun kay gf. Tas tinawag ni gf si GF1, sabi nya "GF1, hindi pa ba tayo papasok sa MoA?" Tas ang sagot ni GF1, "Ewan ko, tanong mo si GF2"
Tapos napatang ina ako dun, bat kaylangan tanungin ayaw ba ni GF2 pumasok sa loob? Hala si ante mong GF2 kasama lang si jowa wala na pake. Ano 'to, naghatid lang kami ng mga jowa nyo? Kala ko ba bibili ng regalo para kay BF1.
Tas after ilang seconds, nagdecide na sila na pumasok na sa loob. Kasi di pa din pala naglulunch yung mga BF nila. So pagpasok namin sa loob, napaguusapan kung ano mga gagawin namin. Nagsuggest si gf na gawin yung matagal nang gusto ni GF1, magcruise or boat ride kapag palubog na yung araw. Etong si GF2 di daw pwede, need daw nya umuwi ng maaga ganto ganyan. Basta reasons. Makasama lang jowa sapat na e. Hayys!!!
So habang nag naghahanap ng kainan, napapatingin din kami sa mga nadadaanan na mga stores kasi nga regalo daw kay BF1. Tapos after ilang minutes, sabi nila GF2 balik lang daw sila saglit sa parking, may natira daw kasi silang pagkain (yung inistory), yun nalang daw kainin ng mga BF nila. Hanap nalang daw kami ng kakainan namin tapos chat namin sila if san daw kami kakain para pupuntahan nalang daw nila kami.
Tinginan nalang kami ni gf tapos nagsige nalang kami. Pero habang naglalakad kami ni gf at naghahanap ng kakainan. Badtrip na badtrip na ako nun. PU741N*#%!! Parang naging grab driver ako dun ah. Tipong di na ako umiimik, tas medyo sumungit din ako kay gf pag kinakausap ako, my bad, nakakainis lang talaga nung time na yun.
Nung naka-order kami at habang kumakain, tinanong ako ni gf ano daw ba problema ko. Sabi ko "sana di na tayo sumama. Parang naghatid lang tayo ng mga jowa nila." "Plano ko treat kita sainyo ng unli wings, ang ending naghatid pa tayo ng jowa nila tapos kumain din tayo sa labas ng tayong dalawa lang" Tas nag agree din si gf, inis din pala sya, di nya lang sinasabi sakin.
Tas habang kumakain kami, change of plans ulit sila ante. Di na daw kami pupuntahan. Nag chat sila na nasa Starbucks daw sila, sunod nalang daw kami after kumain. Dun ako mas nabadtrip. Sabi ko kay gf "after nating kumain, umuwi na tayo"
Ayun habang nagdadrive ako pauwi, dun ako nagmumumura at nagrant. "Yan si GF2 laging nagbabago ng plano, di nya iniisip yung ibang tao maaapektuhan or mahahassle ba" "Si GF2 sarili lang iniisip!" "Wala akong problema sa last minute na change of plans, pero sana naman wala satin ang mahahassle at kung meron man sana lahat tayo!" "Si GF2 nakasama lang jowa, wala na pake sa ibang tao" etc. Kay GF1 naman, medyo nainis lang kami sakanya kasi oo lang din sya ng oo kay GF2. Pero kay GF2 talaga kami badtrip ng sobra.
Ayun pag uwi, walang chat sa gc, kahit days na ang nakalipas wala pading chat. After ilang days pa, nakita ko sa story na lumabas silang 4 plus yung 2 friends na kasama sa pa-dinner ni BF1. Wala na ngang chat sa gc wala ding yaya? Pinakita ko kay gf tas nainis gf at pinagbablock nya si GF1 and 2 at BF1 and 2.
After ilang days, nagemail si Ante mo GF2, sinagot din naman namin. Tapos nagreply, hala si ante gaslighter, parang walang mali sa ginawa nila. Sinabi pa na wala naman daw plano kaya panong change of plans daw. Sabi ko naman sa isip ko "Eh kahit naman magplano, di ka naman lagi pwede okaya iibahin mo din lang yung plano. Hahaha isang beses lang namin nireplyan tas di na namin sinagot yung reply nya. Ang importante nailabas namin lahat ng issue namin sa unang reply namin.
Fast forward mga 2months ago, naguusap na ulit si gf at si GF1, nagkita na sila twice kasama yung isang friend at napagusapan na nila yung naging issue at nagkaliwanagan naman. Namiss nila ang isa't isa tsaka wala naman talaga kaming matinding issue kay GF1, kung tutuusin matagal na kaming walang nararamdamang inis kay GF1. Tapos ayun na nga, nakwento ni gf sakin yung kwento sakanya ni GF1, minsan daw naiinis sya kay GF2 kasi ang usapan nila silang dalawa lang lalabas, hala pagdating ni GF2 kasama nya yung jowa nya. Lagi daw ganun. Kaloka si ante mo.
May konting inis pa daw si gf kay GF2. Pero gusto na daw ni gf na kalimutan nalang lahat kaya inunblock nya silang lahat. Ewan pero parang nagpaplano ata silang magkita kita ulit kasama na si GF2. Nung nabanggit ni gf sakin yun, sabi ko sakanya bahala sya, okay lang sakin na magkita sila. Pero sinabi ko sakanya na hanggang ngayon may inis pa ako kay GF2 at di ko pa sya kayang makita or mapatawad lalo na't hanggang ngayon wala kaming natatanggap na sorry. Kasi tuwing naaalala ko talaga sya at yung mga nangyari, bumabalik yung inis ko.
ABYG kung hanggang ngayon ganto ang nararamdaman ko sa friend ng gf ko kahit na medyo nakamove on na si gf?

I'm new here sa reddit because of tiktok na rin dahil nacucurious ako sa mga stories. And also pag matagal yung update, binabasa ko na lang (kasi I'm a very impatient person) kasi di kinakaya ng curiosity ko. So ayun, the whole time I was here sa reddit and reading a lot of stories, confession, and such, kahit di pala ako makipag interact sa mga tao, outside ng virtual world, nalalaman ko yung various types of people sa mundo. And nakakainis lang yung mga stories na green flag daw tapos sa kalagitnaan ng post, may gagawing katarantaduhan. You can't influence people na your peeps are green flag tapos proceed to tell na may ginawa silang kagaguhan. Hindi ako naiinis sa nag kukwento, doon ako naiinis sa mga taong kinukwento nila. How can you call someone "the greenest green flag" tapos biglang either mag microcheating or bubugbugin or ia-abuse ka in another way? Don't endorse those people na green flag then proceed to do the opposite. Okay pa kung "akala ko green flag siya", ang nandito "green flag siya kaso...". Nacoconfuse ako na naiinis na ewan hahahha

Before, hindi ako favor sa abortion but when ako na yung nasa situation when i found out that i was pregnant, i felt pagod, stress, kaba and my plan to my future :(
Me and my partner is in ldr for 6 years now, he’s in manila and i was assigned in the province . same ng work and company. I got pregnant to our first child nung pandemic. Since pandemic hindi sya nakauwi sa province. I experienced the pregnancy journey alone. I was emotional that time maybe because i’m pregnant , i felt like it was unfair na tayo mga babae lng yung need mag adjust , every night umiiyak ako . Ako nagssuffer sa pregnancy symptoms and need to adjust everything while sya walang nagbago. I was indenial at first but i think i experienced Post partum depression.
After 4 years i found out i was pregnant again, lahat ng naramdaman at experience ko before bumalik saken. I told it to my partner na pregnant ulit ako and tanggap nya he told me to go to hospital at magpa check up but idk parang kulang sa emotion yung replies nya or maybe because through chat lang kami nag usap . Expected ko na uuwi sya para samahan ko na gindi nya nagawa before pero hindi he’s too busy sa work . 2 weeks akong stress kung ano ang gagawin and naisip ko ung hindi ko dapat gawin Abortion.
Nagpatrans v ako twice kasi gusto ko sya makita before ko gawin ung plano, Nung una wala sya haeartbeat, pero nung bumalik ako meron na:( . i keep the photo result.
katulad ng iba i purchased the pills through fb hindi alam ng partner ko, long story short i did it, I aborted my 6 weeks baby :( i have an angel in heaven.
I feel alone and scared , ang daming what if’s I dont know if is it a right decision.

I felt annoyed and hurt because she didnt even bother to tell me na aalis siya ng gabi and mga 11 na nun and nakakainis lang kasi umuwi na siya ng umaga (ps we arent living together nakita ko lng sa story niya), besides that nakita ko pa sa story niya they were playing romantic songs together sa car and its bugging me, i tried saying good morning to her and waited a bit to see if she will explain but she didnt even bother, dedma lang, parang hindi niya ako boyfriend? What am i supposed to do in this situation because i feel like wala akong karapatan malaman yung ginawa niya with her friends because she doesnt tell me anything, ayaw ko naman siyang sakalin with our relationship na kahit sa friends lahat sasabihin niya sakin pero yung ganyan aalis siyang 11 tapos uuwi ng umaga need niya sabihin sakin yan hindi niya pa magawa 🤦.

Hello mga kababayan, ngayon I kukuwento ko sainyo ang aking STE story at ang title na Ito ay ang maling akala Ito ay base sa totoong storya ko.
Ako ang gumawa ng kuwento na Ito at ngayon ay grade 7 pa lamang ako huwala ako masyadong kilala SA aking mga kaklase at wala akong kaibigan subalit noong sinubukan ko uli mag roblox nakilala ko ang pinaka kaibigan ko SA roblox at yon ay si jam(Di ko na ilalagay user for privacy reason) siya ay aking isang kaibigan SA online game na Roblox Kami ay nag lalaro halos araw araw ng pet simulator X at Kami ay laging sinusubukan lumakas sa laro na yon hanggang na kamit na namin ang aming pangarap na maging mayaman at malakas sa laro na iyon. Subalit ang lahat na iyon ay huminto nuong lumakas na Kami hindi na Kami masyadong nag lalaro dahil para samin ay tapos na ang aming pangarap at nag simulang mag labo, na kaming dalawa ay mag laro at dumating sa puntong hinde ako nag Roblox Ng matagal dahil aa online class iniwan ko muna ang online games para mag aral Ng mabuti at nuong natapos na ang 2nd quarter bumalik ako sa roblox at nakita ko siyang nag lalaro kaya sumali ako pag ka join ko agad siyang nag chat Kung bakit hinde ako nag laro ng matagal, sinabi ko sakanya ang lahat, naintindihan Naman niya at nag laro Kami Ng matagal. Ngayon punta Naman tayo SA ora's na ikinasaya at ikinasira Ng buhay ko, nuong half 3rd quarter na ang aming akademya sinubukan Kong mag seen sa aming online gc na hinde ako nag chachat, at first time ko mag chat nag hi ako tapos may mga bumati saakin don ko rin nakilala si Cedi ang aking naging unang kaibigan. Dahil ako ay may depression nuon at wala akong confidence na makipag usap kahit kanino sa aking kamagag aral. Nag bago ang aking buhay nuong sinubukan ko makipag socialize sa aking mga kaklase at duon sumaya ang aking buhay nakilala ko sina Cedi,Mark, Lawrence,Aaron. naging kaibigan ko sila, Sila ang dahilan ng pagkasaya ng aking buhay subalit ang iba ay nagdulot Ng pagkasira Ng aking buhay. Ngayon punta Naman na Tayo SA recognition day dahil wala Naman importanteng nangyari SA ibang quarter na iyon, nuong pag punta namin SA recognition day nakita ko ang aking mga kaklase at may nakita akong isang magandang babae siya ay Maputi,tahimik,maganda,at siya ay napaka tahimik akala ko nuon siya ay high standards. After ng recognition pag Ka uwi chinat ko agad si Jarsen, aking kaibigan noon. Dahil alam kong siya ang maaring makakakilala sakanya at nuong Una tinanong ko sakanya Kung sino Yong Maputing naka salamin na tahimik na babae at duon ko na nalaman na ang pangalan niya ay ******* nag Ka gusto ako sakanya nuong after Ng recognition day, at lipat naman tayo sa sept 23 7:08pm nag chat ako sakanya dahil nabuo ko na ang aking confidence at nag chat back siya, ayon nag chat kami araw araw Kami nag chachat at sinabi ko kay Sha na crush ko siya at hinde ko akalain na nuong sept 27 ni block ako ni ****, at ako ay halos laging nag papa send Kay Aaron ng mga message tulad Ng Kung ano ang dahilan Ng pag block, pag sorry ko maski wala akong kasalanan,at iba pa subalit, after ilang months ng pighati nalaman ko lang na pinagkalat pala ni Sasha na crush ko siya at nag sabi siya ng mga hinde totoong impormasyon about saakin at ang mga ibang tao ay nagbago ang pag tingin saakin dahil sa pangyayaring iyon. Inakala Ng ibang tao na, nasa gc Kung Saan kinalat ni Sha na ako ay racist,homophobic,etc. Ito ay nagbigay sakin nang masaklap na insecurities, depression, lost of confidence, etc. Ako ay nagalit ng sobra nuong araw na iyon at nag chat agad ako Kay Sha noong ona tinatanggi niya. Pero nag send ako Ng MGA proofs na kinalat niya at nuong una tinuring niyang as a joke yoong ginawa niya at wala siyang pake dahil hinde niya alam kung gaano kalaki maaapektohan ang aking buhay sa kaniyang ginawa ni block ko siya at ako ay laging nag ra-rant kila Aaron at Cedi about doon sa nangyari at tinutulungan naman nila ako. Ngayon naman ay malapit na matapos ang grade 8 subalit nuong December Kami ay nagusap uli ni **** at tumagal ito Ng mahigit tatlong buwan at muntik na kami naging magkaibigan sa personal dahil sinabi ko sakanya Kung pwede ako makipag usap sakanya sa personal sapagkat siya na lang ang aking kaklase na hinde ko pa nakakausap sa personal at siya naman ay sumang ayon na gawin ko ang itong plano ko subalit hinde ko magawa-gawa ito dahil pag sinusubukan ko na kausapin siya subalit bumabalik dila ko dahil hinde ko mabuo ang confidence na makipag usap sakanya, kaya sa chat na lamang ako nakikipag usap sakanya. Subalit nuong march 3 last ko na chat at hinde ako nag chat ng march 4 at march 5 sapagkat ito ay sabado linggo at mami ay lumabas. Nuong march 5 Ng Gabi nakita ko na unavailable na ang kayang account SA akin at ibig sabihin non ay ni block niya ako ule ako, ako ay nanahimik na lamang at hinde na ako umasa uli na ako ay I unblock or kausapin uli. Sinabi ko ito kay Aaron at siya ay nabigla ren dahil maayos naman ang aming pag kakaibigan at walang impormasyon Kung bakit ulit ako ni block. Ngayon naman ay malapit na matapos ang school year 2022-2023 at hanggang ngayon hinde ko na kinausap si ******* muli at ako ay hanggang ngayon walang confidence at balak na kausapin siya sapagkat nahihiya na ako sakanya dahil SA aking nakaraan malapit na ang recognition SA tingin niyo ba may part 2?? Sa tingin ko wala pero hinde natin malalaman ang ating kinabukasan kung hinde tayo pupunta dito. At Yan ang aking grade 8 life ako ay kasulukuyan na masaya dahil SA aking mga kaibigan at hanggang ngayon may poot parin ako kay ******* dahil sa nakaraan salamat sa iyo Kung umabot Ka dito ako ay lubos na masaya dahil na labas ko na ang aking mga nararamdaman salamat ule at paalam SA iyo kababayan. Magandang Gabi kababayan, ngayon ay ako ay nasa ika-9 na baitang na. Madaming nangyari bago matapos ang recognition Ng aming ika-8 na baitang. Bago matapos ang recognition, si Jamal II, ang dati Kong kaibigan ay biglang nag open up sakin, na siya raw ay nag kaka gusto sakin, kung di niyoko kilala, ako ay isang taong hinde alam Kung paano ang gagawin ko pag may mga sitwasyong ganito. Hinde ko na lang pinansin at nanahimik na lamang ako. Sinabi ko Kay Aaron ang nangyari at tinulungan niya akong maka lipas sa problemang Ito. Ngayong pasukan, hinde ko na pinapansin si Jamal II, sapagkat ako'y nakakaramdam ng Sama Ng loob dahil nararamdaman ko na ako ay pinipilit nuong panahong iyon na magustuhan si Jamal II. 3rd week pa lng Ng aming klase, at hanggang ngayong araw hinde ko na muli kinausap si ****, itutuloy ko iyong storya na Ito hanggat sa graduation Ng junior high school. Dito ninyo malalaman lahat Ng aking pinag dadaanan SA buhay, kung pighati ba, pag mamahal, pag kakaroon Ng sama ng loob, isyu, at iba pa. Aking babasahin lahat ng Ito pag dumating na ang tamang ora's at yon lamang sa araw na ito madaming kuwento pa ang aking ibabahagi sa inyong lahat, paalam. Akoy nag babalik ulit mga kababayan ngayon may bago akong kwento, so noong sept 23 sabado biglang nag pop up Yong acc ni Arianne sa fb tapos na curious ako Kung bat nag pop up and chineck ko tapos pag Ka check ko, WTFFFFFF di na ako naka block?????£??'? Nagulat ako Ng sobra pero hinde masaya kasi sa Wednesday eh 1 year na Yong block tapos Di pa pinaabot nagalit ako ng onti that time and parang na weirdan ako dahil bakit suddenly wala na Yong block? Pero Di ko na inalam and di ko na Lng pinansin and may na alala ako habang patulog ako na biglang gumising sakin Ng sobra. Kasi noon guys nong sa alt acc niya ako nag cha-chat may na mention siya na may nag send daw Ng proofs Ng something Kaya siya na creepyhan sakin, and yon ang curious na curious ako gusto kong alamin nang sobra Kung sino yong taong yon kung totoo man sinasabi niya at yon lamang mga kababayan paalam muli pero bago tayo mag tapos para sa isang parte ng kwento na ito may gusto akong sabihin sainyo huwag kayong umaasa pag wala na talagang pag asa di ko sinasabing gusto ko si **** pero mung mangyari man sainyo ito soon wag niyo akong gagayahin dahil masisira ang buhay niyo. Tulad Ng sinabi ni Duterte "huwag mong subukan, masisira ang buhay mo". Hello mga kababayan parehas parin na araw and may nagawa akong katarantaduhan, so mag lalaro dapat kami ni emman Ng valorant at sa maling acc ko na send, hulaan niyo Kung sino, sino pa ba kung di Kay ******* tapos ang nangyari nag react siya ng laugh sa message ☠️☠️☠️ at yon ang nangyari shocking hahahaa yon lng para sa araw na ito kababayan paalam muli saludo sainyo. Magandang Gabi mga kababayan andito muli ako para may sabihin sainyo so chineck ko Yong convo namin ni Arianne kanina dahil noon nag reply siya na Mali daw react niya tapos ginawa ko eh like sinend ko tapos sinend ko Kay franz tinanong ko siya, ano Kaya mangyayari?, tapos Sabi niya possible block ulit then yon nga naka block ulit ako hahhaha Kaka check ko kanina hahahaha, yon lamang para sa gabing Ito paalam mga kababayan. What is up mga kababyan wala pa akong kwento para sa ngayon dahil naubos na ang interesting na storya na nangyari sa buhay ko, ngunit may gusto akong sabihin. Balak kong gumawa ng panibagong mga storya na nilalaman ng mga andito ren na storya ngunit ang mga maikling storya na aking gagawin ay may mga detalye na dagdag na wala dito sa aking "Best selling Novel" HQAHAHAHAHAHA at pag natapos ko na ang itong "Best selling Novel" ay ako ay gagawa ng panigabo muling kuwento at andito ang buong kwento ng aking buhay kung paano nga ba nag simula ang aking buhay simula pagkabata hanggang grade 10 gagawin ko ang storya na iyon pag nag graduate na ako at bakasyon na. Balik tayo sa mga maikling kwento na may padagdag na detalye para sa mga kwento na andito. ang mga title na aking balak ilagay ay 8:37, M.U as magulong ugnayan, martilyo, pananalikod. at madami pang iba, pangako ko sainyo mga kababayan na hinde ako mag tatapos ng aking "Best selling Novel" sapagkat ito na rin ang daan ko upang ma ilabas ko ang aking nararamdaman sa mga bagay na hinde ko sinasabi sa iba na ako man ay, nasasaktan, kinikilig, kinagagalitan, kinaiinisan, at iba pa. ngunit since gr. 5 pa ako last nagalit sapagkat ako ay nagbago nuong nag quarantine. Ito na lamang muna para sa gabing ito paalam muli mga kababayan at ako ay mag hahanda na muna para sa ibang mga storya na aking isusulat Paalam :))))). Ako'y nag babalik mga idol parehas parin na gabi at ngayon gabi ay gusto ko lng masabi ang aking mga nararamdaman. Wala pong confession dito dahil wala naman po akong crus,h almost 1 year na po akong walang crush, pero ang timeline po ng crush mo eh biglaan na lang po ako nag kaka crush sa isang babae randomly at mostly after a few years every time ako nag kaka crus. Mga anim pa lng crush ko buong buhay ko at ni isa doon di ako nag confess dahil ako yong tipong may crush pero ayaw ma crush back dahil ayoko ng relationship, since bata pa ako at hinde ko pa alam ang sarili ko pag dating sa relasyon at mga nararamdaman ko sa mga nagugustuhan ko as a crush.... pero sa ngayon ang aking hinala eh mga senior high or collage na uli ako mag kaka crush dahil wala na akong feelings na mag ka crush ulit sa ibang tao, btw may ikuwento pa ako sainyo guys, si ******* pa lamang ang aking crush na talaga kong minahal, like as in, sa lahat ng naging crush ko siya pa lamang ang nakaramdan talaga ako ng pag mamahal papunta sakanya siya pa lamang ang aking crush na talaga akong nag ka feelings at hinde lamang dahil nagandahan ako, well sa tingin ko nangyari ito since matured na ako ngayon di tulad dati, at mas na iintindhan ko na ang relasyon since ako ay isang teenager na. grabe guys itong gabi na ito andami kong nasulat dahil pag dating talaga sa feelings ko eh hinde ko na napipigilan sarili ko mag salita kapag kinakausap ko sarili ko pag dating sa mga pag kakamali ko sa buhay..... marami akong pag kakamali, pero wala na tayong magagawa doon dahil lahat ng nangyari ay may dahilan at sa huli mo malalaman.

No experience other than a GD internship Looking for an audit or financial reporting internship/job New to CV making Don't know about ATS

Hello! Looking for my forever person! Someone who shares my feelings and desire to want to be in a relationship. I'm a 6' 1'' American. I am very kind and understanding to others. I tend to be a good empathizer and listener when it comes to other people having issues and helping them overcome issues. I really strive to make people happy. I am very fun loving and deeply enjoy showing people a good time! Work related stuff I sort of feel like sharing is that I have my associates degree in I.T. as well as a Bachelor's in Cyber Security and currently work an office job that has pretty good pay. This was especially true when I got promoted a couple of times in the past two years. I've been rewarded many time and recognized for good work frequently.
The reason for my preference towards Indians is because at my previous university in Northern Virginia I was able to join it's Indian Student Association when they had a booth at a club rush event I stumbled upon one night before my statistics class. They said they took anyone so I joined wanting to see and enjoy a new culture. I really enjoyed doing stuff there and made great friends and almost got an internship thanks to one of my friends I made there...... then I got news that I would be moving again with my parents which made me sad, that is a story for anyone who wants to hear it another time.
For hobbies I enjoy playing PC games, (such as Helldivers 2, Paladins, Cyberpunk 2077, RTS games, etc.. and always willing to try new games) board games, cooking, and trying new foods (especially Indian food since I love spicy foods). One thing to note with my eating, I am not vegetarian, though I do not mind vegetarians and am willing to do that sort of thing around family if need be, though I have mushroom and peanut allergies. I have been learning Hindi on Duolingo. In my free time I like to take pictures and am highly interested in photography. I do not smoke/or vape and I drink socially and mix cocktails. I like walking, hiking, window shopping, traveling and snuggling. While I have no issues with someone who is Hindu and such, however unless your family is okay with someone who is Catholic like me I would prefer if someone is either Christian or Catholic. Just to avoid potential family disagreements and drama.
As for what I know about Indian culture, I only saw a couple of Bollywood films Bhool Bhulaiyaa and Jab We Met. I am really interested in watching more Bollywood films and learning trivia about the actresses and actors. I am aware of Salman Khan’s crazy antics for example. Another Bollywood film I would want to watch is RRR and Yeh Jawani Hai Deewani. I would love to watch it with someone and learn more about it. I do get to see some stuff about it on twitter from some accounts I follow but I don’t really understand it much. Many of the actors and actresses I hear come up are Rajinikanth, Sri Devi, Deepika Padukone, Ranveer Singh, and Keerthi Suresh. Again I am willing to learn more about all the interesting details about Bollywood and such. I am familiar with some parts of Indian history like the Kargil War, the recent farmers protest and the horrific Goan Inquisition. I would like to start out slow as a casual acquaintance and test the waters with someone. I’m not comfortable rushing headfirst into a relationship and I understand that neither would you, so being friends first is a must. I really want to get to know someone so that we can both be compatible. I am somewhat open to long distance relationships so whether you are from India, UK, etc don't be discouraged to hmu. But I would prefer someone already in the U.S. Lastly I don't want someone who'll waste my time. I don't like being led on and dumped out out the blue. Please be serious and committed.
I can talk on reddit though I like talking off reddit. Contact me anytime if you are feeling the same way about finding a life long partner and feel free to ask me any questions. :)

General spinfoil-y but hopefully lore informative ramblings ahead,
While doing some of the Prismatic aspect unlocking grind today, I was sidetracked into Cysts where I heard Mithrax tell the same story a couple times, but didn't really notice its significance until I actually turned my brain on and listened,
To give a rough summary, he interprets a story upon collecting a silver feather: one of 'ten planets' and 'ten trillion souls' and a 'great monument that was built to guide them', or something along those lines. This sounded familiar, and upon checking, it does seem to be the Traveller's recollection of the Harmony and their Gift Mast.
For those unfamiliar, The Harmony were a race who were touched by the Traveler. They did, according to TTK grimoire cards, live on ten planets that surrounded a black hole during this time, and from that black hole came a giant pillar of pure light called the Gift Mast. The Harmony also had a notable relationship with the Ahamkara. The entire shebang was eventually eaten by the Hive, this is the very short version. I don't remember Mithrax's re-telling revealing anything particularly new.
Being that I swear I've heard this specific story from picking up a feather a couple times, I have to ask, has anyone else heard other stories by Mithrax that I was just fully tuned out to? Given the theme of Ahamkara being tied strongly into the most current events, it seems like a thematic enough reference, but a bit out of left field if no other races are mentioned whatsoever. Even if it's all flavor and no greater story revelations, my hope is that we'll hear more about Lubrae before Rhulk blew it up.

this is a long read because i’ve been holding all of this inside since the beginning of the year and will probably delete this. i’m a young soon-to-be mom, fresh in my 20’s, just the typical story of getting pregnant at an age that is way too early.
i was on contraceptives as soon as i started becoming active with my then partner because my ex would always change the topic whenever i would bring up using protection so as much as i didn’t want to be on hormonal pills i took it upon myself to be responsible for both of our safety, yet somehow i ended up pregnant.
i’ve had my fair share of guys i used to talk to but none of them were ever serious, he was my first everything, and i mean everything talaga. first boyfriend, first guy na i introduced to my family, first kiss, guy who took my virginity, and first person that i genuinely loved not out of loneliness or a need for connection.
we were together for 11 months, oo hindi umabot ng isang taon because he cheated. we got into an argument that day and it was really heated pero we resolved it naman, i don’t know what the fuck went into his head para mag sinungaling sakin and sabihin na aalis sila ng kaibigan niya and iinom sila pero yun pala bar na pinuntahan nila and he approached a girl na he was attracted to while i was messaging him in the middle of the night waiting until dawn for an update from him. he did all of that while i had no idea, a day passed and it was new years, he made all of these promises na sana makasama pa niya ko ng matagal and for more years together pero nagloko pala siya the night before so it was all a lie. a few days passed again and after not seeing each other for a week and finally getting to spend time together he suddenly wanted to break up with me.
ayaw na niya daw ng responsibilidad pero he wants us to be ‘bff’ premium, no label with the perks of being in a relationship, fuck buddies. of course i didn’t know any better, mahal ko yung tao eh edi pumayag ako pero we both had an agreement na we will still try to fix things. it was tormenting, constant mixed signals from him and tsaka ko nalang nalaman na kinakausap niya yung babae he met sa bar pero he never admitted na he cheated on me with the same girl. i got blindsided while i gave up my self-respect and let him use me just because i was still in love with him kasi he wanted us to still be friends, he said i was a big impact in his life and that he still wanted me beside him. i was still hoping na our relationship was going to be fixed.
i wasn’t sober the first month of this year, tangina ikaw ba naman hiwalayan wala pa man isang linggo lumilipas yung bagong taon tapos ang lapit na sana ng anniversary niyo. and because of my alcohol consumption i eventually blacked out sa bar at my friend’s birthday celebration at the end of january after drinking way too many shots and got rushed sa hospital, and as if the breakup i was dealing with wasn’t enough i found out na i was almost 2 months pregnant with my ex’s baby.
i didn’t have a choice whether i can keep the baby or not, so much for being pro-choice bc that decision was snatched away from me by my mom. of course hindi ako ready, hindi kami ready ng pamilya ko, pero ano bang magagawa namin kung hindi tanggapin nalang kung ano yung nangyare? nagkamali ako so i should own up for what i did, pero hindi lang naman ako yung magisang nagkamali dito. so after being discharged from the hospital, my mother contacted my ex to talk to him and we eventually told him na i was pregnant since the beginning of december and we just found out lang when i got hospitalized. sabi naman niya sasabihin niya kaagad sa mommy niya, since he’s from a broken family the only person he could really tell was his mom.
a few days passed and i messaged and asked him for an update, he then got mad at me and started blaming me for everything and sinusumbat niya na hindi siya ready and paano daw siya kukuha ng pang sustento para sa bata, he eventually told his mom tapos nagusap mga magulang namin. my dad asked him to not communicate or chat me muna since they knew na he is the number one reason for all of the stress i was feeling. his family’s side didn’t know whether to tell his dad or not because natatakot silang tigilan siyang pagaralin, pero my family reassured naman na it’s up to them if they’ll tell his dad and that if may support man silang mabibigay tatanggapin namin kung anong kaya nilang ibigay samin, because at the end of the day ayaw namin umabot na tumigil siyang magaral.
after my hospitalization and our family’s conversation i eventually told my friends nung naka-pasok na ulit ako sa school, they were shocked of course pero they showed their full support, my ex got word na i told my friends then he contacted me saying na wala na daw siya sa picture kapag kumalat na buntis ako, of course i took offense sa sinabe niya bc he was specifically asked not to contact me for the time being pero he still went against my parents’ wishes just to show his ‘concern’, things got heated yet again and we had another argument which resulted in him saying na hinding hindi na daw siya babalik sakin and gaslighted me na he didn’t cheat on me (he still didn’t admit it) and i was not able to go to school again because of the stress.
pinalipas ko yung araw and kinapalan ko na mukha ko na mag beg sakanya na bumalik na siya pero siya yung namimilit na ayaw na daw ng parents ko na magbalikan kami, then i started bleeding heavily and almost lost our baby. what happened wasn’t enough na mabukas utak pati mati niya, my mom had a one-on-one conversation with him where nagmamakaawa na siyang buksan niya isip niya para samin ni baby and that she had to clear the air na inaantay niya lang na balikan niya ko pero that was also not enough kaya we just stopped trying.
kada linggo may nababalitaan nalang ako na nasa bar siya, di talaga enough na i was still processing our breakup and coming to terms with my pregnancy, literal na every fucking week may nalalaman akong ayokong malaman. from different girls, to different bars, from stories galing mismo sa mga kaibigan niya, umabot pa sa point na hindi ko na nakayanan and decided to dropout from college and because of that my friend told his friends about what was happening and madami pa kong nalaman literal na di na naubos mga nalaman ko. i got tired and took matters into my own hands and informed the people he would go to bars with about my situation bc i’ve had enough of hearing abt him na nagpapakasaya habang nagdudusa ako magisa.
there was drama where my name got involved and he got mad at me because of it. then i confronted the girl he was talking to while we were trying to fix things, the girl he cheated on me with. after months of being gaslit and questioning myself if i was delusional i finally got the confirmation na i needed, na he truly did cheat on me. he lied to his friends about when we actually broke up, he lied to me about the reason he wanted to break up was because he wanted to focus on himself, he lied about everything.
i confronted him as soon as i found out he cheated, of course another useless argument between us, him saying na “masaya ka na ba dahil may nalaman ka” and like as if that wasn’t enough sinabe pa niya na nagdedecide pa daw sana siya na balikan ako kaso hindi na daw, it really pisses me off how he has the audacity na ipamukha niya sakin na sinira ko chances namin na magkaayos ulit kami when he ignored my messages during the times i still knew nothing and i was asking if we can try again, and how he literally ignored how my mom was practically begging him to fix things between us. like as if that wasn’t enough, his mom has to shoulder HIS responsibilities, from expenses ko sa pagbubuntis ko whenever i have my monthly checkups, to setting appointments for ultrasounds na hindi naman niya trabaho pero siya gumagawa all while having not a single clue about sa mga pinanggagawa niya.
nag lay low ako after that, i was beginning to be filled with rage. syempre nag greet pa si gago nung birthday ko despite ignoring all of my messages calling him out on his bullshit because he started another argument with me, na parang wala lang akong chats sakanya kaya ayos lang na i-greet niya pero di ko nalang pinansin.
i have been seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist since my hospitalization and was diagnosed with BPD, MDD, and bipolar-ii shortly after, although i cannot go through therapy as of the moment bc i know na we can’t afford it and ayoko nang dumagdag ng dumagdag given the situation my family is in. my doctor’s appointments were rescheduled to an earlier date because of the instances na sumasakit puson ko and he eventually reached out because napansin niya na hindi namin sila binalitaan about sa check-up ko. i told him to just tell his mom to contact my mom because i was already getting tired of communicating with him.
his mom eventually messaged me and asked what was causing me so much stress, i told her na i’ll tell her the next time we see each other and we both agreed. kaso wala eh, nung susunod na check-up ko yung ex ko lang sumulpot which is the first time na sumulpot siya sa lahat ng check ups ko so far, at first i didn’t think much of it kasi gusto daw ni tita na gawin ng anak niya responsibilidad niya kaya pinapunta niya magisa, even though we both agreed to see each other that day and talk. di ko nalang dinibdib, di ko nalang pinansin, pero my ex was starting to post regularly on his socmed accounts again. and i got really triggered seeing him live his life like everything was normal. i asked my mom if i can just chat his mom nalang about everything, she agreed na its the right thing to do since di sinunod ng mommy niya pinagusapan namin and so i told her every single thing that happened and everything i found out na she had no idea about.
the next morning my good for nothing ex messaged me and blocked me on almost everything, of course dahil ang kapal ng pag mumukha niya, he thought the reason why i told his mom was because i assumed na he had a girlfriend because of his stories on insta. he then suddenly started explaining himself na ate lang daw yun ng tropa niya and what not, pati mom niya nagchat sakin na inexplain daw ng anak niya na kapatid lang daw yun ng tropa niya, which made me very confused kasi i didn’t mention anything about him having a new girl. he then suddenly started saying na we wouldn’t work out anymore because the situation we’re in was toxic, and that he wouldn’t apologize after everything because he knows na i will always bring up what happened daw …
the cycle always repeats itself, i had to go back to the hospital again for an emergency checkup because sumakit nanaman puson ko after what happened. his mom accompanied my mom and i and we had a long discussion about everything. she kept insisting na her son will eventually change, all while telling us how hard its been on her part because she doesn’t know how to tell her ex-husband because they are not on good terms nor do they speak to each other, di naman daw siya nagkukulang na pagsabihan ex ko na gawin na niya yung tama, he grew up in a broken family and she does not want him to put our baby in the same position, she keeps urging him not to do the same thing his father did to her and their family.
after all of that i contacted him, kasi at this point i have nothing to lose anymore, literal na walang wala na ko. and i decided to give him the benefit of the doubt kasi naaawa ako sa dinadala ng mommy niya. i suggested na mas maganda if we talk in person kung anong balak niya para sa future ng anak namin and he agreed naman, he said through chat na at the moment he is committed in giving our baby a good life while supporting me so i had a bit of hope and expected something out of the conversation. we met up during my CAS appointment and finally had a conversation na we should’ve had months ago pero it lead to disappointment lang. wala nanaman, walang wala nanaman, he doesn’t want to try again, he doesn’t have any desire to try again, he doesn’t want to apologize, nor does he want to hold himself accountable for the all of the trauma and pain he put me through simply because i will have trust issues if we got back together, na lagi nalang daw akong magdududa, na mahirap na daw ayusin, na maapektuhan lang anak namin if we ever argue, that he had no feelings left for me. i asked him kung ano na ba nagawa niya to change the situation i’m in and syempre wala siyang masagot, i mentioned how he said na he was ‘committed’ to giving our baby a good life and what he means or plans to do and wala siyang masagot, i asked how he plans to ‘support’ me and he said na if busy ako i could just drop off our baby sakanila so he can look after her and napa-wtf nalang ako kasi ganun ba kababaw idea niya sa ‘support’. i asked kung ano ng na-contribute niya other than pain and stress and straight up sabi niya wala pa, ang dami niyang ginagastos which i see online and tinanong ko magkano na naambag sa pag bubuntis ko or para sa mga gamit ni baby and syempre nganga lang siya. and siya pa nagtanong bakit daw ako nag-expect, which is so off-putting kasi i am entitled to have expectations concerning our child and what he plans for our future?
it didn’t matter na i told him i was willing to forgive him for everything he has done so our baby can grow knowing that both of her parents are there together. it literally did not matter na i was willing to set aside our differences and make things work out between us and change what needs to be changed. none of it matters to him, and i have never felt so much rage and anger before in my 20 years of living because of his half-assed answer and sincerity. i have lost everything, from the reputation i built up in school, to the dreams i have to let go of, the opportunity to seek out the world, the chance to meet new people. maybe it is selfish for me to want to have a family after basically losing everything i built from the ground up, maybe it is selfish of me to want him to change and break the cycle. maybe it is selfish for me to want to raise my baby with someone beside me.
walang araw na hindi ko naaalala lahat ng nangyare, walang araw na hindi ko narerelive yung moment na nalaman kong niloko ako, walang araw na hindi ako diring-diri sa sarili ko pati sa katawan ko because for some reason i feel ‘used’ and ‘dirty’. i am in so much pain that i haven’t fully processed all while carrying a baby. i’ve tried just about everything to distract myself and keep my mind off from thinking about what happened to me. hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko sa sarili ko. i don’t know where to put all of this pain and anger inside of me, i don’t know kung paano ako babangon at paano ko tutulungan sarili ko dahil ginawa ko na lahat pero bakit bumibigat lang habang tumatagal?
i love my baby, i love the fact that i am about to meet someone new, someone i could pour out my love to and yet i am so afraid. i’m afraid na i’ll be a bad mom, i’m afraid of raising this child alone, the amount of guilt that i have bottled inside me is eating me up. because why? why do i have to go through all of this? why do i have to feel this immense amount of pain in the most vulnerable stage of my life as a woman? why do i have to go through hell while carrying my baby? my baby doesn’t deserve to feel the pain that i feel, my baby doesn’t deserve any of this and neither do i. i want to feel genuinely happy about this whole situation, but whenever i see posts online about pregnancy announcements, gender reveals, couples celebrating together for the life they created i can’t help but compare them to myself.
ayoko na ganto nalang nararamdaman ko, ayoko na hindi pa man nakakalabas anak ko nakakaramdam na siya ng sakit pati lungkot sa loob ng tiyan ko. this journey has been so fucking painful, how destroyed my self-confidence and self-esteem is, to feeling digusted by my own body and anything sexual, trying to deal with my mental disorders, to constantly having anxiety and ptsd, to being a lethargic mess because of pre-natal depression all while having to worry about the wellbeing of my baby and what the future holds for the both of us. it hurts seeing someone live their life like they didn’t cause irreparable trauma against someone, it pains to see how my baby’s father doesn’t seem to be excited or seem to care as much as i do. i can’t get over how unfair this situation has been, i know nothing in life is fair but what in the actual fuck kasi literal na ako lang talo dito, he can keep running, he can keep avoiding everything, seeing him live his life like he didn’t get his only ex pregnant, i keep seeing his posts about buying and selling expensive perfume online and him just pumping protein into his muscles in the gym using his mom’s money, hit up other girls, he can even switch universities and start over again which is a new issue i have to worry about because to me it seems like he doesn’t want to be associated with anything that ties us together and there’s the possibility of having to wait another 4 fucking years for him to be ‘applicable’ to pay child support since he’s still a student. he keeps getting away with everything and it has been frustrating to see him get his way and get what he wants all the fucking time habang di man niya cinoconsider wellbeing namin mag-ina.
i wish moving on and letting go was easy as it sounds, i wish i could forget about everything so i can carry this child in peace, i wish i wasn’t filled with anger and resentment because i hate it, i hate wanting to see him suffer as much as i am, i hate how i’m wishing the worse for him because this is not who i am. i’ve turned into someone so evil and spiteful and the fact that i can’t fully cut him off from my life because of different factors such as our families and our child’s right to meet her father. i wish in some other universe i am able to nurture my child inside my womb without having to cry my soul out almost everyday, that i could have been put in a better situation so my baby does not have to feel sadness and pain. i am not the perfect person, nor have i made the right decisions in life, my actions have led me to where i am right now yet do i really deserve all of this? will it ever get easier, i really need to know if it’ll eventually get easier kasi pigang-piga na ko. all i could ever wish for as a woman and as a mother is to be able to provide my child with a family and an environment that she deserves to be born and grow up in, lahat nalang pinagdaanan ko pero bakit pati yun pinagkakitaan samin, i will forever be stuck asking myself why my baby and i weren’t enough.

At first I wanted Siren Chasers to essentially be Pirates of the Caribbean minus the people (nonhuman races only) but now that I'm further into the story I've decided to go full oceanpunk/piratepunk/whatever the official term for a world like this would be. It still has ships like what our world had around the 1600's, and there's still dry land, but only scattered islands with no larger continents, and I'm trying to get more creative with how people survive out on the water. Here are some of the ideas I'm really excited to use.
(note: most of these are just placeholder names)
Cityships: they look like a normal sailing ship, but about a thousand times bigger. They have entire cities build on their decks, continuing down into hold below. They are hundreds of feet tall, made even taller by their masts, and their sails are vast enough to cast huge swathes of the ocean into darkness. Sailing these monsters takes crews of thousands of people working together, but the people living on them have family lines going back dozens of generations, so they pretty much have it down to a science.
Chainfleets: dozens, maybe even hundreds, of boats and ships all chained together until they're practically a single vessel. Bridges, ladders, and climbing robes make it so the occupants can cross between them easily. The people who live in them have a bad reputation, kind of like gypsy caravans do in our world, especially since there are rumors that they'll steal any unguarded boat they see to add to their fleet. They're also known for being some of the best marketplaces on the oceans, for both legal and illegal goods. They are very difficult to maneuver, though, so they tend to find a good, open spot of water and just hang out there until they either drift too close to something else, or they're forced to vacate. They consider the chains that bind the ships together to be sacred, and will often pray to the chains to keep them united and safe. If a chain breaks, they hold a sort of funeral for it before sending it to rest down in the ocean. If the chain is broken by a person...it doesn't end well for them.
Coral Islands: one of the races, the nai'a, has the power to make coral grow by singing to it. They use this power to make giant coral islands in the middle of the ocean, with a pillar that reaches all the way to the sea floor. They shape the coral above the water so that there are canals running through the entire village that they can swim or row boats through, and domes that serve as people's houses. They cultivate kelp farms on the bottom of the sea (they're a dolphin race, so they can dive really deep and hold their breath for a really long time), harvest barnacles that grow on the sides of the pillar, and hunting parties dive down with harpoons to hunt for large fish. The domes don't have doors, they have tunnels filled with water that lead down through the floor, into the canals. The insides of the domes are lit by glowing snails that they collect from underwater caves.
Titans: Admittedly, this one may not end up working out. Just the concept of it relies pretty heavily on suspension of disbelief and "rule of cool." But some communities have built what are essentially colossal robots made out of wood and stone. They're man-shaped, and big enough that they can stand upright in the middle of the ocean, with the water only coming up to their waists. They're controlled like puppets with complex series of ropes, chains, and gears, and they walk through the ocean, following yearly migratory paths that are unique to each tribe. They provide for themselves by scooping massive handfuls of water out of the ocean, and then scavenging all the fish, edible plant life, etc, that it brings up. On the rare occasion that they have to defend themselves, all they have to do is reach down and smash whatever's giving them trouble. Their cities are built on the heads and shoulders of the Titans, and they're huge enough that each one is its own major metropolis. Some of them even have smaller towns and villages scattered around the body. Just like the Cityships, they are incredibly difficult to operate, and they require the entire community to work together in order to do so effectively.

Hello lovely people,
Hope you are all doing well. Thanks to u/ExploringLearning for the template.
This is my first post on cf4cf on this sub. I am looking for a child free partner and this is how I would describe myself.
About myself:

1. Age and Height: 26 and 5'11"
2. Gender: Male
3. State/City: I come from the state of Tripura. I am a Bengali and my work location is in Kolkata, and in future I wish to stay in any metro cities.
4. Language: I speak Bengali, Hindi and English.
5. Diet: My diet is mostly fish and vegetarian. However I would like to reduce my dependency on food that actually harm the environment.
6. Alcohol: I don't smoke and don't drink.
7. Religion: I believe when the basic core idea of religion first emerged, it was beautiful. But people distorted its true meaning. I prefer not to believe in God at the moment. I only found two spiritual teachers appealing, and they are Osho and Krishnamurti. And I am still figuring out what I want to believe in. But there is a common overlap between spirituality and psychology and that is self-knowledge. Now that I would like to keep chasing my whole life.
8. Political Views: I used to be apolitical. But now I realize politics and government does play a role into what kind of life I live. So at the moment I am doing my research regarding it.
9. Personality Type: I lean towards introversion. But I don't have problem with socializing. I can be an extrovert if I want to although it can be tiring. I feel refreshed by reading a book or deeply working on a problem.
10. CareeFuture Plans: I am most curious about Artificial Intelligence, love my current job and I would like to continue my future in this field. I burnt lots of bridges to get into this field.
11. Hobbies and Interests: My number one hobby is AI. My curiosity never ends about it. Other than that I love reading Jugian Psychology, Environmental Sciences, playing chess, reading related to various things. I am also learning swimming at the moment.
12. Lifestyle and Health: I truly believe in "Health is Wealth" and try to maintain an active and healthy lifestyle. I go to the gym, but I am mostly into body exercises. I was a competitive sprinter in college and even managed to place in the top 10, which was a proud achievement for me.
13. Pets: I like animals and I have empathy for them, but from a distance. Ideally I would want to be pet free. Pets are not a deal breaker for me though if the person is right for me. But I prefer cats more than dogs as I find them cool and laid back.
14. Traveling: Honestly I don't consider myself a travel enthusiast. It makes me feel homesick. But traveling once or twice a year is okay for me.
15. Why am I childfree? You would not believe me if I said the TV serial "Pavitra Rishta" planted the seed of going childfree when I was in school *😂😂. *Well there is an interesting story behind that. But apart from that my main reasons are:
    1. Till today I never felt the need to be a parent.
    2. I have a younger sister with whom I have an age gap of 12 years. I feel like I have been a third parent to her and maybe that fulfilled my need to be a parent.
    3. I am not fond of the education system, the state of our polititcal leaders, various threats are looming on earth like climate change, zoonotic diseases, scarcity, etc.
16. My views on sharing responsibilities: I had stayed in hostel for about 8 years away from my hometown. After getting my job, I am staying alone away from home for about 2 years now. That taught me a lot about life. And I feel that 50 50 sharing may not always be possible and it's more about team work, cooperation, empathy towards each other and supporting each other during ups and downs of life.

What kind of partner do I expect?
I admire and am attracted to women who are ambitious and passionate about something. You don't have to be perfect. We are all flawed and confused about life in someway.
I am looking for a woman between the age of 24 to 30. I would prefer a Bengali woman, but culture, religion and language are not deal breakers for me.
Empathy would be the most important quality that I look for in my partner. I don't like to keep a checklist of desired traits, but rather in getting to know someone over time and discovering their unique qualities and values.
What kind of relationship am I looking for?
I am looking for a monogamous marriage where we can be proud of each other. I am looking for a life where me and my partner can say to each other that we got one life and choosing each other was one of our best decisions.
Whenever I read about or see couples happily married, I secretly smile in my mind knowing that I too want to experience the same.
But before reading that stage it's super important that check compatibility, how our life goals align, etc, etc. I am not in a rush to marry and would like to take 1-2 years atleast to know each before getting married.
Additional:
I prefer to take things slow and get to know someone on a deeper level before deciding if we're a good match.
I am not open to adopting a child, but maybe sponsor education for someone if I can in the future.
Also honestly I find it artificial to talk to someone I never met in real life. I prefer face to face interaction more. But I am not in a rush and let's take it slow.
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