Parts of a story

I’m not sure what sub to post in so I’ll start here.
My neighbors recently put up a security camera on the side of their house and the placement of it is really starting to get to me. They hung it above their second story bathroom window, a good 20’ above the ground(Ring recommends a 9’ height). They have a small, unused sideyard that it looks over. Their sideyard leads to their unused backyard that contains nothing( they literally do not use their backyard and it’s totally empty.) Right next to their sideyard is where my vegetable and flower gardens are located and where I spend a lot of time gardening in the spring/summer. As the weather has warmed up and I’ve been spending more time in the garden, I can’t help but feel like I’m being watched.
I will say that the camera faces straight down and not directly at my house. However with as high up as it is, I would think there’s no way they’re not able to see the main part of my yard/garden that I mentioned? In addition to this camera, they also have a back door camera, front camera, and ring doorbell. What else could they possibly need to see over on this side of their house that the other cameras wouldn’t be able to see? I’m the only person ever over there. The windows are all inaccessible on this side of these house so it’s not like it’s there to catch a possible intruder. It just seem unnecessary and excessive.
To top it off, we pulled up in our driveway the other day and their 5 yr old is outside looking at a cell phone and says to us “I’m watching you on camera!” This was on their front camera, apparently he could see us in OUR driveway? Am I crazy for feeling like I’m being watched by these people? I feel like they have zero consideration for our privacy and it’s starting to get to me. Am I overreacting? How would this make you you feel? What would you do?

Funny story that happened about 10 minutes ago
Im not the beat person to make up an excuse on the spot but this was the best.
Tasked with putting scrap vehicle parts in a container but who wouldve thought us joes would do it properly and safely right? welllll we ended up chucking parts out the window into the box and some of it was glass. When we finished I brought a antenna whip and started hitting the glass and oh no....Chief....he says "what you up to there" I replied "its glass chief....uhhh.... its glass..." to my surprise he said "alright carry on" just another day in the force.

This is going to be a long post, so please bear with me. For starters, this is my second time applying to PA school--I was at a disadvantage last cycle, as I applied late July, almost early August. I was working towards my masters degree during that time, and had a bunch of in-progress courses that I need to retake. I wasn't the best student my sophomore year of college, and Organic Chemistry I was the death of me, had to retake it and passed on my third try. I have shadowed a surgical PA for a few months, but because of the pandemic, the hospital was not allowing any students to shadow anymore. I like the idea of PA's bridging the gaps in healthcare, as with everyone. Although lateral mobility and good work-life balance are enticing factors in being a PA, I don't see that as being true. It really is specialty-dependent, an ideally, I think is best to stick with one speciality and perfect your craft. I don't mind the level of autonomy that comes with being a PA, I feel that everybody can be a leader within their own scope of practice.
However, amidst this journey of applying to PA school, during college, and even high school, medical school and being a physician has been nagging in the back of my mind. I come from two loving parents who never pressured me to pursue a career in medicine, but something that will make me satisfied and have a good life. Being a physician means having the breadth of knowledge, thoroughly understanding the mechanism of actions in medication and diseases. Its better to know and comprehend the whole story and the why, instead of just knowing surface level information. I'd like to think being a research assistant is helping me in solidifying my decision to be a physician--I understand that its two completely different things, but I enjoy showing medical students and other graduate students how to dissect a mouse, I love teaching them the anatomy of the mouse, and what each part is special in, and how it pertains to the research that I do. I love being the leader, and I appreciate when my colleagues come to me for questions and ask for my perspective in different things. I enjoy being a leader, yet I enjoy working in a team. For reference, here are my stats, they are not the greatest, but I'd like to think my experiences showcases that:
-graduated college with a 2.943 gpa, had to retake most of my sophomore year's worth of classes, failed organic chemistry I and passed on my third try. with all retakes and masters, raised to 3.02. despite failing most of soph year, i made deans list numerous times.
-got my masters in biomedical sciences, got a 3.4 gpa
-last 60 credits, 3.66, last 45, 3.61
-1955 hours as a night shift float pct, certified in phlebotomy, ekg, and as a pct.
-1392 hours in biochem research, vitamin D regulation focused. abstract sent out, will be presenting in symposium in fall
-new job as mental health specialist on back up call center, about 60 hours since i just started position
-990 hours in social and affective neuroscience research, presented thesis to psych department
-volunteering: sunday school teacher for 2nd graders, habitat for humanity, health screener in grad school, volunteer in hospital in high risk pregnancy and geriatric wings, summer camp counselor in church, food bank.
-teaching experience: learning assistant for psych stats course, helped teach 37 juniors and seniors as a junior, about 42 hours bc during semester.
-hobbies: food festivals, legos, parrots, painting, cooking and baking.
I have not taken my MCAT, and I told myself that if I do not get far in PA school applications, I will start studying for the test come the fall. The masters program that I am apart of has a linkage with the medical school, so I will try to see what my options are when the time comes. All in all, both professions are excellent, but I don't want to spend the rest of my life wondering what could have been. Some honest advice and feedback would be helpful.

I've come to a dark, and difficult realization this last week, and ever since I've been really tired and operating on autopilot. I don't feel safe talking to anyone I know about this, so I'm coming to you, internet strangers. Every second of downtime that I get, I go back to this thought, and it's weighing on me.
But first, some back story. This is going to seem totally unrelated, but just take the ride with me real quick.
Although in many ways I lived a privileged life growing up, my parents and younger brother were all emotionally, verbally, financially, and often times physically abusive. There were times when I feared for my life. But perhaps the worst of it was that they were careful. They carefully built a reputation for me--clumsy, strong-willed, dishonest. It was a reputation that I internalized and grew to think was true, up until I had my daughter. Now, she's nearly three, and I am finally breaking my family's hold on me. Permanently.
Like most abuse victims, I tried to leave them several times. It was my baby's father who taught me how to leave for good, and who taught me the importance of severing ties permanently. When I first left him, I needed financial support from my parents, and was grateful to have it. I know so many victims don't have that and can't get out because of it. And, while they were the lesser of two evils, they've proved in the last few years over and over that they are still, in fact, an evil. And one I need out of my life. My dad got me a job when I was well enough to work again after I left, but it only gave him more access to me. And I let him. I'm a grown adult woman. At any moment I could have had the courage and the strength to just walk away. No amount of perceived financial security (because relying on them is not financial security) is worth what I've gone through emotionally on behalf of him and this 'job'. But now, after years of moving over and over again and not feeling safe or secure, my daughter and I have housing that I won't have to worry about losing for the foreseeable future.
I have provided for her a roof over her head, but more than that, a place to grow in and call her own. A place where she can put posters on her wall and have a playground in the back yard and raise a puppy. It's beautiful, and it means that I know that I can now pursue a career that better aligns with the schedule, work-life balance, and emotional fulfillment that she and I need to better our lives. In other words, I've put in my two weeks' at that job so that I can find something more sustainable and sever my ties with my family closer to for-good.
I think that this is why I've had this sudden realization about my daughter's dad. It has been an incredibly emotional time. The universe seems to be throwing tests at me left and right, as if to say, are you sure? Will you really go through with it this time?
And I will. I have faith in myself as a mother more so than I have ever had faith in myself as a person. I know what my daughter needs me to do, so I'll do it. I know where I want to be so that she can grow and thrive, so I will go there.
But it has reminded me of the person I was, who did not know this, and who did not feel so sure.
When I first met my ex, he said and did all of the right things. I was a newly appointed executive in a male-dominated industry, and I was young and single in a conservative area where any indication that I was not wearing a chastity belt read as an invitation to pursue to every man I worked with or around. I was fresh out of another abusive relationship, still repeating the cycle my family had taught me, and was vulnerable.
And he played the part of my savior very well. We were together two years, and I supported him through COVID and losing his high-paying engineer job only to one day, suddenly, discover that virtually everything about him was a lie. Not only was he cheating on me--heavily, while I was at work and he was pretending to freelance, with several women including some I thought were my friends--but he had no college degree, much less a master's degree in engineering, and he had never had the job he allegedly lost. He was a con-artist with two children by two different women, a separate fiancee he'd been with since high school and kept trying to bring into our lives, and so much more. He was using his older, disabled brother's ssn at the job I had gotten him to avoid paying child support. He had even lied about how his parents died.
I'm not even sure I knew his legal name.
To be clear, I found out about the cheating first. That was it. The rest of it, I'm sure I had vague suspicions of. But I had trusted him. If something was off, then he probably had a sound explanation and it wasn't my business. I was young and stupid, and he was still acting perfectly normal.
I broke up with him, then, just to find out a month later that despite using birth control and condoms religiously, and despite having more than one prognosis that I would never conceive let alone carry a child, I was pregnant. At the time, I was no contact with my entire family and had been further isolated from my friends by my then-boyfriend. Plus, the company I worked for was showing signs of selling--my job was by no means secure, and especially not so because they had a history of firing pregnant women in my position exactly two months after their return from maternity leave.
The point was, I was desperate, and I was scared, and I didn't know that the father of my child was a monster, so I tried to make it work, thinking that my daughter, surely, needed a father figure. And for his part, he seemed remorseful. He promised to go to counseling and agreed to certain conditions and, again, said all of the right things.
And then he started drinking. And screaming. And demanding. And...threatening, and then doing.
But at that point, I was alone. I was halfway through a complicated pregnancy that made me incredibly ill with small town doctors who were gaslighting me and not helping me, the writing was on the wall at work and I was enduring slander and drama there, and I had no one and nowhere else to turn. So I pushed through. I tried to leave him when I was about 22 weeks along. I enlisted the help of my friend, who supported me, and I thought I was home free.
But that night was one of the most horrific nights of my life. The only person I've been able to tell about it was my lawyer, a year later, when I went in to make sure my daughter was protected. By the way, he's not in either of our lives at all and will never be. I have and will continue to do everything in my power to keep him away from us. Not that he could find us if he tried.
Things only got worse after that night. and at some point. I told a trusted friend and my mom (breaking no contact) that I intended to leave. Safely, and in time. I started freelancing again and looking for other jobs, and I played house the best I could to keep myself and baby safe. I ended up being ordered to go on bed rest two weeks early, And then I gave birth, and my daughter and I both almost died.
It was horrific, and traumatic, and sent me into a terrible spiral. It was all I could do to care for my daughter. But it became very quickly apparent that I was running out of time to get her out. And this is where the realization comes in.
His alcoholism and verbal and emotional abuse were increasing in frequency and intensity. He was also growing more violent--even if he was just punching holes in doors. But he was also...weird with our daughter. I did everything I could not to have to leave him alone with her, and she was only left with him twice.
Once, for an hour, because I had to go into work and handle something in the middle of the day. He left my 1mo infant daughter lying, asleep, on her belly, on a very high bed with loose blankets and pillows, alone in our apartment while he moved something from one apartment to another. I have no idea for how long.
I tried to breastfeed, at first, and there were issues with that so she was waking up often and hard to put back to sleep. We later found out she wasn't getting enough milk because of a tongue tie and started supplementing with formula at two weeks. I have heavy suspicions that I was also underproducing because of stress and emotional duress. One night, he was frustrated because even though I was sleeping in the living room and taking care of the baby while he slept in the bed, he couldn't sleep, and blamed me for being an incompetent mother. He took her from me, and put her to sleep with him in bed. I knew he was drunk. I went in to check on her--I was anxious, I had done tons of research on safe sleep. He saw me, screamed at me, and then blamed me for waking her up.
Later, he would try to put rice cereal in her bottle and make those "knockout bottles" that are incredibly dangerous when I wasn't looking. There were a number of weird incidents like this which he chalked up to being older than me, and being the way he'd raised his other two babies. And back then I really thought it was just all apart of the abuse--targeted at me.
We got out when she was five months old and today she's a sweet, happy, healthy kid.
But, and honestly maybe this should have occurred to me before, I can not shake the heaviness of the conclusion that remembering all of these incidents has brought me to; he wanted her to die. I mean, I guess in a roundabout way he expressed this. He started berating me for not getting an abortion almost immediately after I passed the legal time to get one done where I'm from (they're completely illegal now but were not at the time). I'm not anti-abortion, by any means, but it felt like it came out of nowhere. He also refused to have any part in naming her or preparing for her arrival--even in raising her. I always thought that these were just manipulation tactics. That he was just saying malicious things to get under my skin.
Now that I'm writing this, I also remember one of the last texts he sent to me over a year ago, alleging that he had shot and killed someone before. It wasn't an active threat to me. It was just part of a psychosis spiral where he was trying to explain that we could live safely with him in his new apartment even though it wasn't in a safe area or something, and so I really just discarded it. I didn't see him anymore. He didn't know where we lived. He was only allowed to contact me still because I was building a case against him. It didn't seem like it mattered.
Now? Today? I think that if I hadn't left with her when I did, we might both be dead already. More than that, I think that if I had not had her and I had ended up back with him--or back in another abusive relationship with anyone else--that I would certainly be dead. I might have been the one to physically take us both and leave, but she saved me first.
So that's it. That's what I've been struggling with. And I haven't really fully processed what that means for me, yet, except that I've made another appointment with my lawyer to take additional safety measures for my daughter. But emotionally? I'm not sure. I'll have to sit with this, and I just needed to say it somewhere. If you read all of this, thank you.
tldr; i left my ex when my daughter by him was 5 months old, and now she's nearly 3 years old and we are no contact with him, but i've recently been hit with memories of actions he took when she was an infant that lead me to believe he may have been subconsciously or even actively trying to take her life

Ever since my son started puberty, it seems like he is constantly telling white lies. There never earth shattering, but it’s not trait I’m thrilled he’s developing. Here are some examples:

• brushing his teeth
• eating someone’s left overs
• his homework being done
• making a mark on the table
• when he went to sleep

It’s mostly to avoid doing what he doesn’t want to do, or to get out of trouble
He also exaggerates pretty heavily when he’s happy and telling stories.
We’ve talked to him about the importance of honesty. We’ve grounded, lectured, shown compassion, talked about how it will impact relationships. We’re at the point now where we’re saying “you’re better off not saying anything if it’s just going to be a lie.” And for the second he gets it- until he lies again.
What can we do to help him? Is this just a normal part of adolescence? Does this denote anything for his future?

Welcome back to my running series of WWF PPV Reviews from a ‘blind’ perspective (I have no idea what’s going to happen; the results, the feuds or how good any of the matches will be). I have always heard stories of the attitude era and golden age but never watched it myself so I set myself to watching every single PPV event chronologically. I am also watching Wrestling Bios ‘reliving the war’ series to keep me updated inbetween the events with the feuds, and to get excited about upcoming matches.
Before I review the matches, based on the past few episodes of raw and last PPVs I’ll let you know, going into the event, which match I’m most excited for and which feud I’m most excited to see.
The feud and match I’m most excited to see is stone cold vs undertaker. To be honest looking at the lineup this is pretty much the only feud I’m interested in for the entire event, and they don’t really even have one going on. But mankind vs Rocky and the gauntlet match should be interesting in terms of matches
WWF In Your House - Cold Day In Hell 1997 Match Ratings
Flash Funk vs HHH 1/5
Mankind vs Rocky Maivia 1.5/5
Nation of Domination vs Ahmed Johnson 1.75/5
Vader vs Ken Shamrock 2.25/5
Stone Cold Steve Austin vs Undertaker 3.75/5
Triple H has yet to really get going in the wwf, he hasn’t really had any great feuds but his matches are made at least a little more interesting with the accompaniment of Chyna. THE BEAST that is Chyna picks funk up and dumps him on his little funks just for the hell of it after the match which was pretty funny.
Feud wise it really shows in this match, with no buildup at all, the crowd was dead from pretty much the whole time. It was an obvious win for Hunter as he was the bigger name but yeah, nothing too special here apart from a pretty rough bump to funk on the outside on the steel ring ramp.
People just are not behind the rock at this point at all, his entrance music plays after mankind has made his way to the ring and there’s absolutely no pop from the crowd. During the match he’s actually getting booed when he emotes to the crowd. I’m wondering when he has his character change to become as big as he was and still is.
The match itself was pretty boring, not too much happened apart from a nice little assault on the outside on the steel entrance ramp by Rocky. The finish seemed really quick as well, Rocky showed no fight getting KOd in about 10 seconds after mankind applied that mandible claw. Knowing what these men can do I was surprised to see such a lackluster match as well. The last couple of minutes saved the match from being a complete disaster and foley as usual is taking his insane bumps. Foley was by far the best part of the match and the better wrestler, the rock still has a ways to go. The match gets a small bump in rating because of the rock bottom on the ramp which looked really good.
The next match I was pretty hyped to see, we hadn’t seen a gauntlet match up until this point so it was fresh and something unique to look forward to, and the character Ahmed portrays is perfectly suited to this type of match.
Ahmed got a great pop from the crowd for his entrance and to be fair he does make a pretty good baby face to get behind, I’m finding myself getting into this feud as it takes place.
Crush actually puts up more of a fight than I thought he would, it was a pretty slow start to the match though with nothing too noteworthy, but Johnson delivers a spinning kick that looked good to crush to knock him out of the match. Sadio vega comes in next and surprisingly proceeds to dominate Johnson for a while; Ahmed looks out on his feet for most of this bout. Side note my god Vega loves his nerve holds it’s the only hold I see him use pretty much. Whenever Ahmed begins to get back into the match he gets a great pop from the crowd which is nice to see and he’s actually performing pretty well here; definitely more exciting than the NOD members, which isn’t saying much but still. Sadio ends up getting DQd after he hits Ahmed with a chair and proceeds to beat the hell out of him with the same chair, setting up for the final member farooq to get into the ring and finish the job. The crowd is really behind Ahmed to win this match and so am I he’s showing great heart at this point in the match. Ahmed hits a massive power bomb finisher on farooq and he manages to somehow kick out, this is pretty exciting, but then farooq comes back with his own finisher to end Ahmed’s hopes and dreams.
This match got pretty good right at the end in all fairness, I felt myself getting pretty hyped and really routing for Ahmed. I understand why he had to lose but it was still a unique match to watch. Overall though this was pretty boring aside from the last like 2 minutes. Sadio and crush were super slow in the ring and very boring to watch. It was a cool idea with a kinda poor execution, had a couple moments that were interesting but it wasn’t more than that. It could’ve been good because the feud was kinda interesting with the stipulation of potentially having to disband the group if they lost, but it just wasn’t great.
And then the submission match between shamrock and Vader… this show just isn’t hitting right now is it 😂😂. I don’t really know what to say about this match I just didn’t enjoy it at all. Shamrock put in an okay show but it was so obvious where Vader was talking him through absolutely everything. Fair play to shamrock though he took a few decent bumps from Vader but the whole match didn’t work for me at all, it just wasn’t for me. (I’ve rewatched it after learning that Vader was pretty out on his feet because of shamrocks stiff shots and to be fair maybe I was just in a sour mood after the horrendous start, so I bumped up the rating a bit).
Stone cold finally gets some hype going with a nice intro promo, which is much needed in this event. It’s been abysmal so far not one match I’d even consider watching again. But stone cold has been blowing it out the park recently so I’ll wait and see what the main event delivers. Undertaker and stone cold can’t miss right?
Before I say this just know that I am a massive undertaker and Austin fan, but this match was nowhere near their best. The last 10 minutes were really good and 5* worthy action but the 10 or so minutes before that was pretty slow for an Austin match, he held a headlock for a very long time and the initially pumped crowd weren’t feeling it at all. Then another hold and another and for what the stakes were; one of austins first shots at the title, it didn’t feel like he was wrestling with that kind of tenacity he should have had.
Enough negativity though, there were some really high points during this match that the crowd popped for especially that triple counter tombstone pile driver ending. They had some really good brawling exchanges as well, undertaker especially really showing off and with his long hair it looks so good when he’s just teeing off on people. The hart foundation added a little more depth although I feel like it didn’t really do much for the match itself other than having Austin give them the finger and a couple of minor interruptions. All in all though this match felt like a building block for upcoming feuds and matches rather than a quality world title fight, but the ending really did seal it as something worth watching and saved the show, just a bit, from being a complete disaster.
Overall this event was very lackluster for me I really didn’t enjoy most of it. It had a few good physical moments in a few matches and the end of the main event was the highlight but you can definitely go without watching this ppv. I am excited to see what comes up as, like I said, this ppv felt like a building block for upcoming matches. It’s a bit like watching phantom menace, you watch it to get the build up to the main event, not for the actual movie… actually this really felt pretty much exactly like watching the phantom menace. A terrible sit through with something really worth seeing right at the end.
Overall rating 2.25/5

Hi All,
Well, if my last post about Wireguard wasn't justification enough for my sometimes lack of common sense then this might surely confirm that sentiment.
My current setup is an HP Z600 workstation with 96G ram and 2 mirrored pairs of 20tb drives that, frankly, was fine, but, like most of us, it's never enough so I went ahead and bought a Dell R730xd 12 bay server which was delivered to me yesterday. A piece of hardware which I probably have no business using with my relative little knowledge of Truenas and complete lack of knowledge with enterprise class servers. Anyways, lets give it a shot, right.
My goal is to simply be able to move my current Truenas Scale setup from my HP Z600 to the Dell R730xd. That's it. Unfortunately, my assumption that this was going to be a simple task (based on some videos I saw) was incorrect, to say the least.
These are the specs: Dell PowerEdge R730XD 12LFF 2SFF 2x E5-2667v4 3.2GHz =16 Cores 384GB H730 4xRJ45 (received) Dell P2R3R PERC HBA330 12G SAS HBA Mini Mono Controller (on order) Dell 064PJ8 Intel X550-T4 Quad-Port 10GB RJ-45 Network (on order, but possible frivolous purchase)
Somehow last night, based on more videos and posts I read, I believed that I could somehow change the H730 raid controlled to work in HBA mode. So, I went ahead and basically tore apart my existing HP machine, pulled all the drives and installed them into the Dell server. 4 x 20tb 3.5 drives into bays 1-4 in the front and one 2.5 SSD into one of the 2 rear bays for the operating system. Fired up the jet fighter (aka server) and after installing some ear plugs, began my venture into iDrac. WTH, I had no clue where to begin and became quickly frustrated and overwhelmed. So, while searching through different menus I was googling what each meant. My first instinct was to see if the Dell server was recognizing my drives so I finally found the menu the showed attached drives, and nothing! It said no drives found. Now what! Well, this is where the lack of common sense starts to take effect. Turns out that I installed the drives incorrectly. The side of the caddy is marked with screw holes at SAS and SATA points, so I went ahead and decide to install the drives using the SATA screw holes. This was obviously the wrong way. When the caddies were fully inserted and locked into place the drives sat about 1/2 inch away from the rear backplane connectors. So they weren't even connected!!!! Talk about a rookie mistake. Thankfully I can laugh about it now. I never did figure out how to change controller to HBA mode.
Anyways, to not drag this story on too much longer, it was getting really late and I decided to just wait for the HBA330 to arrive before I went any further so I pulled all the drives out of the Dell and reinstalled them, back into the HP, as I needed the server up and running.
Hopefully this won't be too difficult to switch over to the new Dell server, but there are a couple of concerns/questions?

1. Other posts have mentioned that Truenas Scale doesn't work very well with H730 switched to HBA mode which is why I purchased an HBA330. Is there anything else to do after installing the HBA330 or will it just work as is?
   
2. This Dell server was listed with coming with 4 x 1Gb ethernet ports daughter card, but actually came with 2 x 1Gb ports and 2 x 10Gb ports. Not sure if this is correct or not but for some reason when I plug a standard ethernet cable into the 1Gb ports they go in and click/lock in place, but when I plug the same cable into any of the 10Gb port they go in but don't lock into place. They just fall out. Am I missing something? Is this normal or are they broken or do 10Gb ports require a different connector. I've never worked with 10G ports before, but assumed they were the same as 1Gb port.
   
3. Can I boot Truenas Scale OS directly from the rear 2.5 drives and will the system automatically recognize the OS to boot? I would like to reinstall Truenas Scale on two 2.5 SSD drives in mirror using the two rear drives and then import my settings as per instructions.
   

Guess that's all I have for now until the parts arrive and I roll the dice one more time. Hopefully with more luck.
Any help or tips would be greatly appreciated and please don't hesitate to ask me anything. I'll be happy to answer to the best of my knowledge. Cheers! :)

It came instead of something else part of an order I made and long story short it would be more of a hassle to send it back, so I wanted to know what uses I could get out of it, I don’t use decals at all but I was curious if this had other uses? I sculpt and draw. I was specifically sent Mr Mark Softer

Howdy! I’m looking for 1 player for a DnD 5e campaign that’s going to be taking place every other Saturday at 4:30pm pst. We play on Foundry, no need to have it all you need is a link, and we’re starting at level 1 so players of all experiences are welcome.
An overview of the campaign setting:
Tamrashyyk is run by House Balaur, a family known to be the descendants of the first ever Dragonborn created. They’ve long since been holed up in their keep, deep within the northern territories of the country neglecting all but their nearest townships. Unfortunately for the outlying towns and villages, the Radiant Rats are the power that control the roads and provide for those that can afford it. Most cannot. The Rats set up many different checkpoints under the guise of protecting those in their lands. Due to the dangers of such a job, they’ve imposed taxes on towns and villages, as well as implementing steep tolls for those that wish to travel safely by land, allowing the Rats to operate efficiently.
Once a home to many dragons in need of slaying, three prominent families made names for themselves as powerful mainstays of the land. The Charont, The Rafelle, The Zygonian. With Dragon’s extinct after the Sibling War, these families took their power and tried to change with the world. The Charont and the Zygonian were the largest of the families, most turned to mercenary work, but with the Rats taking over work couldn’t be afforded. Some wound up joining the Rats as enforcers, others took what money they had left and turned it into drink. The Rafelle turned to more charitable and experimental works. They run a large orphanage and spearhead research into being blood hunters, hunting for the sake of the world.
Clouds magically block the sun from appearing during the day, parting at night to reveal the illumination of both the moons. This is one of the many reasons that makes Tamrashyyk a refuge for those that would otherwise never have called this place home. A safe haven for the not so safe, a reprieve from the sunlight brings in the kinds of creatures that wouldn’t thrive anywhere else. The lack of any governing power brings in those that would find themselves fleeing from persecution or seeking to do something most laws would normally prevent. Rogue wizards, criminals, and even those brimming with the hope of adventure find themselves at Bistanwall, the village at the outskirts of Tamrashyyk, seeking to find themselves further in.
Tamrashyyk is a land of danger, escaped experiments, creatures that dwell best in darkness, criminals, rogue wizards, and so much more. For many, that keeps them out, for a few, that welcomes them in. Welcome to Tamrashyyk.
This campaign is going to be a more sandbox style adventure where you chose what it is you want to do in a place ripe with different hooks to catch your attention. With over arching hooks that will make for grand adventures, great stakes, and greater loot.
I’ll also work with you to make sure your character feels like a real character in the world with a story that won’t just be forgotten for what lies ahead. :)
The campaign is going to take inspiration from Castlevania, The Witcher games, Dragon Age, Full Metal Alchemist, Mass Effect, and Star Wars! (it will still be fantasy, don’t worry) Plus more, I’m sure I’m forgetting something, and I get inspired by whatever I’m reading/watching/playing at the time anyway.
Player Requirements: Looking for players who are at least 21 and can consistently make the session. Foundry can be a bit heavy resource wise, so a desktop may be helpful. We play through discord so a decent mic is preferred. You don’t need to have TTRPG experience, I’ve worked plenty with players that have no experience and am well versed to bringing new players up to speed.
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a 2010/2015 i guess hidden object game where it tells a story about a girl who her maid/ friend i dont remember made her a sleeping potion and drown her into the lake to steel her fiance but when the fiance finds out he confronts her but she got mad of him and traps him and the towns people in this board game
in the start of the game we get a cut scene where a girl wearing a cat like costum was invited by her friend to a halloween party but her mom warns her not to go but she goes anyways the first mini game is you have to make a jack-o-lantern to enter that parts after the mini game you get a cutscene where you get welcomed by the friend and propose to play the hunted board game when they open it a dark entity captures all the guests and the friend except the girl she runs to her car but the car wont move when the entity gets closer to her it mistakenly looks into the mirror and disappears
the machinism of the game is to find all figures (the figures looks like the towns pepole) to free all the guests and her friend and in every figure you get a backstory about the maid or the girl and who things went wrong
i hope you i made things clear so please help me find this game and thank you in advanced
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This is a story I've come up with my head for years It predates most things talked about so I've had to figure a way for it to fit in. This story was created basically to find a good way to blend Dbs with Naruto. There is a bit of a "timeline thing" but that will be explained and basically thrown away fairly early on. Also it starts a little overpowered but only due to the bigger things I started building up too. Also This is my first time "writing this down" and I'm not exactly a world class story teller so in ways this is more of a character.His name is Hachiman
This takes place in the Hidden Leaf Village but the current time is during Just before the 4th Great Ninja War. In this world The Kaguya clan has not yet gone extinct. A Prodigy child is born of the Kaguya Clan. A Rere Genetic Awakening has happened within the child's body Opening access to the Ötsutsuki genes within him of which being born with Byakugan and multiple charkra nature's are amongst a couple. His Ötsutsuki ability has the ability to manipulate time to a second difference Small but extremely reliable. Due to being such a a Prodigy at a young age as well as fascination with different Justu, as well as Frankly not being able to Beat or Captured he was Drafted into the Anbu. He shows hardly any emotion and Know's full well he can do what he wants to an extent but has no want for this as he Would rather just live peacefully and whatever brings him and everyone closer to peace he will due solemnly. He grows up with Hardly anybody but 1 girl named Kiriko (Kiri for short) In the middle of a mission The Hidden Stone attacks the Leaf! Hachiman hurry's back to the village quickly! Quickly he fends off quite an amount of Hidden Stone. A Shriek is heard in the distance! He rushes to Help! There he finds Kiriko with blood trickling the the hands of the enemy. Blind Rage awakens within Hachiman His Time related Kekkei genkai Erupts! White Surrounds the entire area it seems as if the world Is collapsed within it. When he comes to he awakes in a Forrest, "Where is the hidden leaf?" He thinks. Realizing his eyes have awakened Sharingan! Shinobi running through the Forrest stop him "Who are you they ask" As Hachiman looks up they meet eyes with the Sharingan. Immediately they attack! Hachiman defeats then. As he begins to walk around he notices the world and the chakra of the world itself is different? Eventually he stumbled into a camp and realizes this is an Original Uchiha Camp. He begins to ask questions blending in with the fact he has Sharingan they questioned nothing. He begins to put the pieces together His Kekkei genkai awakened and Swalllowed Him in time, He himself has Time traveled to before the Villages had begun. Thinking back in history eventually he works under the Uchiha but with minimal Killing as to protect time from being distorted and making an impact that never happened. As time continues he meets Madara Uchiha and studies him from the shadows Observing and Copying his every move. Hachiman learns his Sharingan's ability is able to Save and copy other Sharingan Formation (allowing Amaterasu, etc) Later he again Stay's in the shadows and does the same with the Tobirama. As time moves on he realizes he does not age anymore. He begins to not fully understand his situation but make the better of it instead. In the shadows he studies and copies all of the Legends from Naruto. Eventually Rinnegan awakens and Before the final Ninja war he abandons this dimension. "It is not my home anymore" he believes. He watches as Naruto and Sasuke beat Kaguya and Learns of the Ten tails. Trying to further his power he discovers a Ten tails abandoned in a random dimension. He decided to become a Ten Tailed Jinchūriki. Later Sasuke while traveling through his Rinnegan meets Hachiman. Hachiman explains everything. Sasuke already having his first run in with Otsutsuki explains everything that has been happening home. Hachiman has no interest as he feels a greater threat is coming. He tells Sasuke to leave him and he will stay out of all Trouble and wishes to be left alone.
Dragon Ball Super side of things
The Grand Priest has learned of a Universe Remnant that has survived Xeno's destruction. Immediately he sends a New Angel named Jin is sent to Investigate. Feeling a threat Incoming Hachiman meets Jin. Jin begins to explain why he was sent but Hachiman dosen't try to listen as he believes this might be an Otsutsuki threat. He fights to the Fullest ability! (Ten Tails Jinchūriki Awakening, Pure White Susanoo armor coated to his body, Lighting Style armor (similar to what The 3rd Raikage used), Sword of Nunoboko, as well as Multiple upon Multiple Shadow Clones) It is during this fight he awakes what he calls (Divine eyes) which allows him to use Divine Jutsu (which is basically just any Jutsu turned up to an 11) He is losing almost overwhelming however he is able to his a surprise Planetary Devastation. This surprises Jin to which he states that Hachiman is coming with him. Reluctantly Hachiman agrees. They leave to meet with The Grand Priest which has an Idea for the young Hachiman. During the 1st meeting with Universe 6 as well as Universe 7 Hachiman is brought to View and see if he can contend with such fighters. A sparing match is to be had the winner gains access to 1 wish from the Super Dragon Balls! The Fight begins! Hachiman Vs Vegeta!! To all Viewers the Fight ends Astonishingly Quick as Vegeta dosen't move everyone including Vegeta Unaware he is Locked in Genjustu. While The Fight unannounced to Vegeta is Over, Vegeta believes the fight is currently happening. Hachiman used Genjustu to obtain all Knowledge Vegeta has about everything. Quickly Hachiman learns of what sayians are as well as The circumstances as well as the Different sets of Dragon balls. Vegeta's body is set in the stands Senzu beans don't work as Vegeta's body is fine. The Fight with Goku Begins!! Using the Knowledge Hachiman now has He understands how to Fight A sayians better. While maintaining a "Mind Fight" with Vegeta Hachiman begins to Truly battle Goku. Using as many cheap trucks as he can to contend with a sayians of Goku's Caliber Eventually the fight ends with A Planetary Devastation Sealing Justsu. Goku can't escape. Announced as the winner Hachiman gains his wish! However with the knowledge gained from Vegeta he chooses to Use the Namekian Dragon Balls instead as a Win He makes his 3 wishes 1) He wishes to become a Half Blooded Sayians while maintaining all abilities he had Before 2) He wishes to unlock what his Bloodline Calls Tensigan 3) He does not care what this wish is and Gives it away Shortly after the The TOP is announced. Jin has been assigned to watch over Hachiman to keep eyes within his universe and Him. Hachiman decides he will be entering the TOP alone as he as already stated he will not intervene within what is happening with his universe The training with his New Found Divine Eyes mixed with the Blood of a Sayian has led him to become Overwhelmingly Powerful as well as unlock Ssj2 The TOP begins!! Immediately knowing the difference in power as well as being cunning Hachiman Buries himself within the Ground Funneling and Learning how to manipulate Kachi Katchin steel, as well as basically being a Clone summoning Factory that fight above ground. For the most part Hachiman keeps quiet until near the end. In a Fatal attempt he does try to fight Jiren thinking Genjustu might solve the problem IT does Not. Jiren let's it happen at first Letting Hachiman Speak to him. Later he breaks free however and Finds the real body of Hachiman. Seeing No way to win in a Sayian Anger fuled Rage he uses a Justu never been done before DIVINE STYLE: DIVINE REAPER DEATH SEAL Everything fades to black and seemingly Hachiman Disappears. In pure black A voice Speaks "My Slumber has been interrupted by whom" A Divine Reaper God appears before Hachiman Otsutsuki Honestly in Fear for the 1st time Hachiman has no words However The reaper Feels his energy and reads his based off this. "You ask for my power for such a weak Creature..... Pathetic" he states Hachiman responds " It was a sudden Idea I had no idea what would become of it Who are you?" " I am the What happens to God's and angels who have fallen, I am the manifestation of the Natural order Of things" Taking an Intrest in Hachiman The Reaper proposes an Offer "I have not been summoned in millennia as well as God's have not fallen in such time, I would like you to become my new Reaper You will gain access to my abilities as well as my Power" "& In Return?" Hachiman responds "I exist in all of time Past, Present, & Future you will be of use to me there will be interference from me in anything you do, so long as every now and then you fuel me with energy" Hachiman agrees Appearing back in the same spot as if Time stopped again Hachiman awakens with Black Energy pouring from his body He rushes Jiren Quickly however His body cannot take the duress and Gives out Hachiman is Eliminated The TOP proceeds regularly. When the Universes are Brought back Hachiman appears in the dimension he was Watching over back home in Universe 13 Jin arrives afterwards to Explain that the Grand Priest would like his presence. Hachiman goes with Jin to meet. The Grand Priest is alone with no Guards as well as no King Xeno He explains that he is unhappy with the way the Universes are being run. Tired of presiding over a Child with the Supreme power. He asks if That was the God Reapers energy he Felt within Hachiman. To which Hachiman says Yes. "Can you access it? Use it and your own will?" The Priest asks Hachiman responds No but it's still within him he could learn to harness it but why? Grand Priest has a plan to extract Xeno's energy and Give it to him to run this the Multiverse Correctly as a God should he also explains that when King Xeno destroyed the Multiverse is seems at that exact moment is when Hachiman's outburst happened and The moment destroyed Single handedly restarted his Universe through time. To help train Hachiman with his New Found power as well as the Fact Universe 13 has no current God of Destruction Hachiman is assigned as well as Given God of Destruction Power After a 4 years have passed Hachiman has traveled not only throughtout his universe but because his universe is still so Young there isn't much to Destroy or Watch he travels throught the other Universes. Every planet he has been too throught the Multiverse he places the Flying Rajin Seal A Coup has begun Grand Priest helps set the stage Hachiman's reaper energy has manifested through talking to the Reaper as well as practice. The Reaper energy as well as Reaper Saiyan Form has the ability to completely absorb Energy of all Kinds and Manifest it as Their Own. He uses Rope Kunai Energy weapons to predominantly absorb others energy. King Xeno is Stabbed at the same time as The Grand Priest the channel the energy from one blade to another. As the Energy is being drained Hachiman begins to see inside the Grand Priests Mind seeing that the Grand Priest plans to eradicate all of the Multiverse for Good Hachiman stops! The power is drained from Xeno but the Grand Priest has 75% of the power while Hachiman has the remaining 25%. Hachiman Escapes Labeled a Traitor Hachiman is Hunted by everyone the Grand Priest can get his hands on. Traveling from world to world Hiding Honing all of his abilities to One day fight The Grand Priest and Finally decide what should be done with The power of Xeno.
If you read all That I Love you Frfr please Put input I'm sorry its sor Poorly written and put together but I've never done something like this in writing purely in my head. I hope someone reads this one day!

It was underwhelming. I did a good job of avoiding most spoilers, didn't watch any promos and such, and what I was spoiled on was, as usual, out of context. It still didn't help. The overall feeling right now is "meh". There were parts I liked and parts I didn't.
Daphne got mentioned a few times, mostly in the context of having been the first diamond or having a loving and passionate marriage. It's very little but it's not like I really expected more.
Edwina apparently made a great match abroad which is enough to keep my Fredwina hopes up.
Hyacinth was a delight in each and every one of her scenes.
Francesca was also interesting to watch. That scene when John calls on her was so cute. And that music sheet move at the end? Be still, my heart.
Every time I saw Cressida, I half-expected her to announce this year's tributes for Hunger Games.
Eloise was kind of meandering throughout the story without much to do.
The Mondrich's storyline looks like it could go interesting places.
Violet's subplot barely started, we shall see how part 2 handles it.
Benedict is similar to Eloise in meandering through the story without much to do.
Colin and Penelope aren't doing it for me. Their romance felt rushed and underdeveloped, both too little and too much at the same time.
Maybe part 2 will improve on things, give a fuller context to the hanging plot threads. For now, I feel no burning desire to watch again.

I have about 35 hours or so and completed most of what can be done in the first half. For the most part I’ve enjoyed the game a ton, but since getting to the dessert area I haven’t been as into it. I know the story is quite short but is there much more to experience that’s worthwhile?
I’ve started playing and couldn’t get passed 20-30 minutes the past few times I’ve played. What else is there to do that’s fun in the game?
I’ve played most vocations and levelled most of them up decently high, I’ve just ran around and explored a bunch. This was all quite fun for the first half so idk if I’m just bored of it all or if I should keep pushing a bit more because it gets better.

Hi,
TLDR: looking for advice for 'deep recovery' from autistic burnout, venting/rambling a bit about my situation
Sorry for the long post, my life hasn't been great the last few years and I'm hoping that if I describe it in detail then someone might have some advice for where to go next, or be able to tell me if I'm missing something obvious. I've bolded the bits where I'm asking for advice.
I (24F) am not officially diagnosed with aspergers or anything autism related, but am recovering from what I suspect is autistic burnout. I had symptoms of moderate to severe CFS last summeautumn but am slowly recovering from it without any major crashes. When I read the description of autistic burnout I identified with it completely. The loss of skills and extremely reduced tolerance to stimulus on top of the fatigue is something I have really struggled to describe or explain to people (not helped by the loss of skills i.e. barely being able to put a sentence together to speak to someone). I've read Strong Female Character and Aspergirls, and am currently reading Unmasking Autism. I haven't completely self-diagnosed yet, but I am researching it and think it's a strong possibility. The first half of Aspergirls describes my childhood pretty well. I was often called a 'Highly Sensitive Person' and Unmasking Autism states that the creator of this term has said that the people she was talking about have since been diagnosed with ASD. Even if I am not Autistic, I often find Autistic people more relatable and easier to understand that non-Autistic people and find their advice for rest, sensory issues etc helpful to me. I am not looking for a diagnosis or diagnostic advice.
I currently feel like I'm starting my life over again, and I'd really appreciate advice on how to build a sustainable life when I have a lower tolerance for stimulus and find communicating more tiring than many people.
Context/life story: I'm from the UK. I have a degree in maths, was feeling burnt out and was going to take a gap year before doing a masters, but the pandemic happened and I moved back into my childhood bedroom. I couldn't face being stuck there again with no 'escape plan' so one afternoon I (impusively) signed up for a masters at a not so great uni and didn't do well academically. At the time I was considering a PhD and going into pure maths research. I don't have the grades to get funding for this. By the end of the masters my boyfriend had broken up with me and I'd lost touch with all my friends. The only person I 'spoke' to was my mother and even she'd say this was pretty one sided. In my dissertation presentation on zoom, I read a pre-written script and answered 'I don't know' to all the questions because I hadn't spoken to anyone in months and couldn't hold a conversation with the cashier in the supermarket about the weather let alone one with an academic about advanced maths. I scraped a pass.
After this was over (October 2021), I really felt like I needed a break. I decided I was going to have 2022 'off'. I was going to rest, get a job that didn't use my brain, move to a city so I wasn't so isolated (I live in Wales) and recover and rebuild before figuring out what I wanted to do next. I couldn't figure out how to move to a city without getting a professional job. I asked some family for advice but they didn't know either. I didn't know how to get any job near the town where I live. It's very cliquey, I don't know anyone who's got a job through a formal application process, it's always through a family or friend connection, and I'd lost touch with everyone by this point, my mother doesn't have any contacts and the rest of my family lives in another country. I get filtered out of formal applications because I'm overqualified and bad at lying. Spring 2022 I got sick of it and applied for about 5 software dev jobs. I got one basically without being interviewed. In hindsight that was the first red flag.
I moved to a city 5 hours away. I won't go into the details of the job but it wasn't great. I discovered they had a vrey high turnover for a small company. The new hires previous to me had lasted weeks, one only lasted days, before going on stress leave. I did 10 months. I signed a rental agreement for a year and was too exhausted to search for another job to pay for it. It was full time in the office because I was a junior. I had one friend who lived 3 hours away and every time we met up it was me driving to them, and my sibling needed a lot of help with uni and job stuff so I drove the 5 hours back home most other weekends. I did too much, but I didn't know how to not do too much. Within a few months of each other, my dog died, my grandad died and it was the 10 year anniversary of my dads death. I never had a bad performance review and I quit due to 'personal reasons'. The final straw for me was when I noticed in the office I was physically shaking from exhaustion when I reached for my mouse or keyboard. I think I must have been running on adrenaline or something because it was 2 months before I properly crashed. In this time I moved my stuff back to my childhood bedroom, and that is where I am now. July last year was when I crashed and thought I had CFS etc.
I would say I'm mostly recovered from the physical fatigue. I walk 10k+ steps a day and this helps me mentally. I know I should do more restorative yoga, I see this more like stretchy meditation than exercise and it also helps mentally. I used to enjoy powerlifting and I've tried a few times recently but I think I need to take that super slowly because I get carried away and it wipes me out for a few days after. Skills-wise, I am able to read books again, albeit books I've read before or childrens books. I sometimes have 'high energy' days when I'll read more non-fiction and try to plan my recovery. I am not up for doing technical computer stuff. Things I used to know still go completely over my head. Sensory-wise, I struggle having the big light on for more than 10-15 minutes at a time. I try to reduce screen time. I barely watch tv. I've deleted most social media so I only check instagram once or twice a week on my laptop, and I go on reddit or youtube if I'm looking for something in particular. I try not to listen to too much music otherwise the brain fog gets worse, but that's hard becuase it's one of the few things I feel connects me with the outside world at the moment. When family come round and there are group conversations, I cannot follow anything that's going on and it may as well be white noise. I haven't been in a public space for a while, so I don't know how I am with the background noise. I've reconnected with school friends and am going out for dinner soon, so I'll find out then. I will also find out how I hold up in conversation.
In the next few weeks I plan on looking for part time work. Any advice on suitable jobs would be welcome. I also start a compassion focused therapy group next week, after going to the doctors about this in october of last year *sigh*. I plan on working part time and living at home while figuring out what I want from a career and how to build a life. I wish I could just move to London but it's so expensive.
I see pure maths as closer to the arts than the sciences, and also enjoy fiction books (esp fantasy) and music. I played classical piano and violin/viola as a child to a reasonably high standard. I have no interest in computers really, it was just a job thats related to my degree and that I was good at. As a child I wanted to be a writer or a musician, but as a teen I prioritised moving out of my hometown and told myself that was something I didn't need to study and could work on in my free time. I had a 'maths brain' so it was easy enough to coast this path while I was grieving. I have learnt that the first things I let slide when I am stressed or busy, are the things I am interested in. Then it's chores, then my physical health. I have no idea when to stop or when to say no people. Not because I want them to like me, simply because saying no doesn't occur to me until after I've done it. I also don't notice when I am stressed or doing too much. I have gotten better at that the last few months.
In future, I think I need to prioritise my interests more than I have. I think I tried to 'fix' the stress from the things I 'had' to do with exercise and being very physically healthy. I think the solution is to prioritise working on my interests and passions. The thing I've found most helpful is keeping a diary. I started this last July. I'm now writing music and learning how to produce using Ableton. It's going very slowly but it's going. I've found creating things is better for me mentally than consuming them, even if I'm doing that using a screen. I am interested in the links between maths and music (group theory, geometry, topology etc), and plan to read more about this when I'm able. It would be a dream come true if I could somehow work self-employed doing this one day. I can't imagine working full time in an office again. It exhausts me too much to be able to do anything in my free time. I don't know how demanding it would be to work remotely full-time. I'm lucky I can live with family and work part-time for the forseeable future. There is no rush. I am 24.
Any advice on building a career your interested in, moving to a new city, managing stress and having healthy relationships would be very welcome. Or anything else you think it would be useful to hear.

If people don’t like the game, that is their right. I completely understand that the story has its flaws, and not everyone loves it the way I do. I’m also so down to discuss what they do or don’t like about the game!
But without being absolute fucking bigots! The amount of hatred I see on those subs is astounding. The constant ‘abBy bUfF, sEx fRuM bEhiNd, muSt bE MAn!1!’, the hatred directed towards Bella Ramsey for taking a role, and not even her portrayal of p2 based on TWO IMAGES, but her as a human being, the list could go on.
Why be a part of a sub for a game you viscerally hate?? I want to talk about the game with pros and cons, constructive criticism and feedback, what I’m excited for about the part 2 season, what I’m worried about, etc, without seeing that shit.
It’s gross, I don’t understand how you play this series, and get that out of it. It’s beyond liking and disliking part 2 as a game, a story, an experience , it’s just unfiltered bigotry.

I knew him for 13 years. 13 years and now hes gone.
I'm gonna be cringe on main i dont care but my heart is shattered today and my soul is heavy. me and my best friend (gonna call him Ted) have been through everything together we've know each other since primary school and im turning 21 this year.
I remember sitting by the pond with the tag poles in i remember us playing with our teddy cat and dog and making them go through all sorts of drama, we loved a bit of drama. I always found it hard in school to make friends I was always a floater and I still am now, making friends are hard. i dont think the autism helps, i dont really fit in anywhere but i felt like i did with him.
we lost touch for a year or two after primary but due to an unfortunate event we got back in touch i wish the reason we reconnected was different but i wont get into that. we became so close we we're inseparable we would draw together we would tag each other in dumb little drawing about our characters or of each other we would call on discord almost every night. he had so many stresses in his life growing up, i wish i couldve taken that all away.
we are both very mentally ill. we both stopped each other from hurting ourselfs im gonna be honest we grew an unhealthy attachment from one another i know he didnt like being away from me and sometimes when i was in college (my college was in a different town) i would have panic attacks because i was too far away from him and was scared he was gonna hurt himself and i couldnt stop him. we were there for each other though through thick and thin but everyone has a limit eventually.
Ted first took a break from me when i was having a psychotic episode and was talking gibberish and he though id hurt myself, at the time he didnt know i was psychotic and Ted had a big stress in his life at the time, a huge one. I'm not gonna get into what his stress was but it was relating to his dad so i see now why he wanted space from me but at the time i was heartbroke i was already psychotic so it mad it worse. but after we both calmed down we reconnected and it was like nothing new.
Ted introduced me to his friend (gonna call him ed) and us three became very close :)
fast forward to 2020 I have my first proper job in a local bar and through my coworker i meet the most beautiful person to walk this earth. our cute meet and story up to eventual relationship is a story for someplace else but I'm lucky to be dating them now however, this did cause some issue.
my other half met Ted and they got on ! YES LETS GO !! however, my other half says gypsy and Ted thinks its a slur. (please dont aruge about that idc) Also my other half didnt use to boycott mcdonalds and my friend didnt like that. PLEASE NOTE since then my partner has boycotted them but Ted didnt know that so he told Ed that my partner doesnt boycott. we had an argument, Ted had an episode and he was mean, after he said he needed space to get better so i gave him that and we started talking again after a while.
But now Ed feels uncomfrotable around me and he told me his parents were getting suspicious of him having online friends so he cant talk to me anymore, so i didnt message. fast forward to now im getting confused because i ask ted how ed is doing and ted says hes going good... but i thought ed wasnt allowed online friends so how do u know?
ted admitted that Ed just didnt want to talk to me because he was uncomfortable with me not because of his parents. wow thanks Ed good to know you care that much, oh well we were drifting anyway.
Why would Ted go behind my back and talk about me i didnt think hed do that although i didnt think he would say mean things during his episode but he did but i forgave him for that but part of me cant forgive him for this i dont know why
maybe because of how i was treated by my step dad or treated at school or treated online but Ted causing a friend to leave me felt like a different sort of hurt. But apart from him and my partner there is no one that close with me. I have friends who i drink with do drugs with but after that they dont really want much to do with me and my other friends are in uni who dont really have time to talk to me which i understand so without Ted i have my partner and their friends. how sad.
I told him i need space indefinitely i dont wanna lose this friendship but i feel i already have. im gonna miss him.
here is sit now stoned as i write this,I know it was my doing i said i wanted space because I do I started my message with "idk if we should be friends" i was the one who did this because it just hurts being around him i dont know why
TLTR: I no longer friends with my friend of 13 years
edit: im sitting here eyes red and watery and i see his gamer tag pop up, hes playing video games while im sitting here a mess

I hate having to admit this, because I myself am a Blackfyre supporter, having gone on record to defend Bittersteel, as well as fantasize about Bloodraven switching sides in the conflict, but I'm not stupid. I recognize that Daeron II was the King Westeros needed at the time, and Daemon deposing him wouldn't have worked out in the long term.
The main problem with Daemon winning, is that because he would depose Daeron, the agreement the Targaryens had made with Dorne, would've had to be axed, in order to appease the Blackfyres supporters, such as the Peakes. Tons of people weren't eager to have the Dornish become part of Westeros diplomatically, since for hundreds of years, families from the Reach and Stormlands had been killed by the Dornish. I understand the frustration at having to play nice with them after all that death and destruction, however, realistically, marriage was the only way Dorne was ever joining the rest of Westeros. If Aegon and his sisters couldn't do it with dragons, and Daeron I couldn't do it with hostages, it was never going to happen.
So, had Daemon won the throne, the realm would've had to immediately be plunged into yet another war with Dorne, a war that the Blackfyres (as much as I love them), would've lost IMO. Not to mention, the Blackfyres didn't have the support of any of the Great Houses, so they likely would've faced oppositions in their own ranks, not just against the Dornish. With no dragons, the Blackfyres would've never sat the throne peacefully IMO.
The ONLY great House that I think secretly supported the Blackfyres, were the Greyjoys, and that's only because the Blackfyres would've likely allowed them to be independent, which in turn would make permanent enemies of the Lannisters, so that would've been another problem for the Blackfyres.
Long story short, the Blackfyres, unless they had dragons, were never realistically going to take the throne and actually hold it like the Targaryens did. IMO, Daemon should never have rebelled. The Blackfyres would likely still be a very powerful House in modern Westeros, had they just accepted Daeron II as King.

I’ve been going back and forth. Obviously the photographers love it bc it makes their job easier. My future husband wants it bc he’s a very very emotional guy and is nervous he won’t be able to stop crying in front of everyone or be able to even speak or say anything if he sees me first down the aisle. He also feels like that’s a lot of pressure on him and he’s an introvert and does not like the spotlight on him at all. He’d rather have the reaction between just the two of us vs feeling so exposed and on display. And I completely get that. Plus I’ve read from others that it is the sweetest intimate moment you two have together.
My mom however, keeps sending me stories or telling me about people she knows who regretted the first look or who didn’t do a first look and the grooms reaction while she walked down the aisle was priceless. She really keeps trying to convince me to get rid of the first look.
I was already on the fence about either / or but I went with what my fiance wants bc I care about how he feels. Part of me wants to make him feel at ease, and I want that intimate moment between the two of us. But also part of me wants that in awe wow factor of him seeing me first down the aisle.
I want to hear from some brides who have done the first look and what you thought?

I know this probably isn't the most interesting thing in the world, and the DLC isn't perfect, but I am very happy with the way Rizia turned out. In my opinion, the DLC is what Suzerain should be. I think the parts that could have used the most work were just flushing out some under-developed paths, as well as balancing the authority system a bit more. But as for the things I did like, I specifically have to point out the dialogue in Rizia. Because in my opinion, I think Torpor knocked it out of the park with that one. It's so engaging and captivating. It still retains it's intimacy while still having humor involved. I feel like the jokes in Sordland fell a bit flat at some times, like a lot of it were just references or half-baked punchlines. But Rizia perfects it in my opinion. I love each character's personality and how they all interact with one another. I loved getting to just hang out with all of the ministers and Pabel in the drinking game. On that topic, so many little things as well, like how when your mother wishes you luck during the friendship day and you respond with "I don't need luck", then she will have a unique response when you ask her to wish you luck during the AN meeting. Or if you tell Hugo that you don't drink, you get unique interactions throughout the entire rest of the story whenever alcohol is involved. I think the music also did some heavy lifting as well. Sordland's OST felt more high-stakes, like it gave off the vibe that Sordland was at a boiling point. But Rizia's feels really regal and mellow. There really isn't much of a point to all of this text, I just needed somewhere to rant about how much I love this DLC.