So basically, when I was younger I kept fainting or having issues at school and at home with standing, moving or exercising and they chalked it up to “syncope” and never dug more into it. I’ve had multiple medical issues that got single diagnoses and not really found a cause for them. I realized I have POTS after 8 years of having issues and no idea what was wrong with me. Almost all doctors within a 5 hr radius refuses to diagnose me cause I already done the tilt test when I was 12, and it’s just “syncope” or anxiety, or I just have a fast heart beat, or I just have naturally low blood pressure that drops FAST but no need to be concerned.
I realized this year I have POTS like theres no doubt to it. I don’t feel like I’m crazy anymore once I found out about POTS cause I always thought something was wrong, or that I was just really weak or anemic or low iron idk. I’m just glad I can put a name to what’s going on, even without a diagnoses.
Either way, I was told using a mobility aid might help me enjoy going out more. I can’t stand going to places hardly cause I get headaches, out breath, and dizzy really easy along with sweating due to having to walk. I have almost no exercise tolerance, walking spikes my heart rate to 180, it hit 200 once and I panicked and sat down on hot asphalt to rest. I hate it, I was told a mobility aid should help even if I’m not diagnosed. Am I allowed to do this? Or would this be wrong?

My name is Jessica, and I live in a small central American city of about 80,000 people.Today I'm going to share a story about Korea.First, I'd like to tell you a little bit about my family.When I was born, I already had an older brother.I don't mean just a little sister with an older brother.My brother was adopted from Korea.It's an unusual situation, isn't it? My parents struggled with infertility for several years before I was born, and they ended up adopting my Korean brother.Then, a few years later, they got pregnant with me, and I was born.My brother had different hair color, skin color, and eye color than me, but we got along very well.Even though we knew from a young age that we were adopted because of our differences, we got along well, and we were a family that loved each other deeply.
We played the same games, read books together, and spent a lot of time together. He always took good care of me, and he was a good brother who made me laugh.
I would say, “Brother, let's read this book together!” and he would always smile and read it to me. I think I liked and enjoyed his warmth to me, rather than focusing on the content of the book.
When we left our cozy home environment, it was time to go to school, and during this time, my brother and I were asked a lot of embarrassing questions.One day, while my brother and I were playing together, a friend asked me, “Jessica, why does your brother look different from you?”The question gave me pause, but he smiled and replied, “Because we are a family, looks don't matter. His positive attitude had a good effect on me, and I'm sure he had a good effect on himself, too.Watching him grow up right, and our family became interested in Korea. If he was a troublemaker and always in trouble, he wouldn't have had the time to take the time to learn about his country of origin, Korea, but when he studied well, didn't fight with his friends, and was a good person who always loved and cared for his brother, we couldn't help but wonder about his roots.
I think my parents also had the will to share Korean culture with my brother and me, to learn what they could, to broaden our horizons and deepen our family's understanding.Many years ago, when I was in middle school, my family visited Korea for the first time, and the experience left a great impression on me.
We visited many tourist spots in Seoul and saw the harmonious combination of Korean tradition and modernity.And Korea, with its many dark-haired, dark-eyed people like my brother, was somehow not foreign to me.For Americans traveling to Asia for the first time, this could have been difficult because people look different and give off different vibes, but not for me. My parents, of course, were very excited to revisit Korea, the country of my brother's birth, and spoke so many blessings about the land of my brother's birth.Of course, there were many good things to see and many fun things to do in Korea, but the most memorable moment was when I suddenly developed a high fever.
It was a quiet night in Korea at the time, and I suddenly developed a high fever.This change was so sudden that my parents panicked.Eventually, with the help of the hotel we were staying at, they were able to get me to the emergency room in Korea, where I was quickly treated.Upon arrival, the medical staff quickly assessed my condition and ran the necessary tests.The whole process was organized, and thanks to the professionalism and quick response of the medical staff, I was able to get comfortable quickly. My situation was so serious that my head hurt like a rock and I could barely understand what was being said around me, but thanks to their quick response, my fever started to come down and I was able to return to my senses.The tests showed that I had a severe flu, which had been contracted in the United States and had incubated in Korea.I had to stop traveling in Korea and be admitted to the hospital for treatment, but thanks to the fast and efficient healthcare system in Korea, this was not a problem.
My parents breathed a sigh of relief and expressed their deep gratitude to the Korean healthcare system.“If it wasn't for Korea, I would have been in trouble,” my father said.Although my family had to stop our trip to Korea and spend the rest of my stay in a Korean hospital, looking back, it was also a unique experience abroad.
Many years later, as an adult, my relationship with my brother was still good. We enjoyed Korean dramas, movies, and music together, cooked Korean food together, and learned Korean together.
However, there was a clear difference between me and him: he seemed to be better at learning, even if he spent the same amount of time studying, and he went to a prestigious university, while I failed to get into college and became depressed.
He helped me with my studies every vacation, taught me how to study, and helped me to get into a prestigious university, but the results were not good. I was rejected by all the universities I applied to, and I was going through a very difficult time. After he graduated from college, he moved back home from the East Coast of the United States and helped me study for the college entrance exam, and with his help, I was able to get into college, albeit late.
Although I didn't get into a prestigious university like my brother, I still had a satisfying college experience and broadened my horizons.Naturally, I discovered that Korea has been on the global radar lately, which was very exciting.Korea may be the latest trend for Americans these days, but for me and my brother, it's like going back to our roots.I've always loved Korea, and it was very interesting and fond to reminisce about my trip to Korea when I was in middle school and look through my photo albums, even though half the time I was sick. So, my brother and I decided to visit Korea again, and this time, we had several goals for the trip: we wanted to make sure that we got it right this time, because we didn't get it right the first time, and my brother wanted to get to know his Korean roots better, even though he is now an adult, working as an American and living as an American, and I wanted to get to know my Korean roots better in relation to my major in college, and this time, I wanted to research more about the Korean healthcare system that I had experienced as a child.
Of course, I also wanted to have fun in Korea and enjoy the freedom to roam around the country unlike when I was a student, but I didn't take it too seriously.
Korea was so different from the U.S. It had the look of a big city in the U.S., but it had its own unique vibe. It was much more developed than the neighborhoods we live in in the U.S., and everywhere you looked was filled with people, and there were hundreds or thousands of stores selling a variety of things. If you were walking around and traveling, and you got thirsty and needed a break, there were cafes all around you that you could just pop into and take a break, and you didn't have to go far to find a restaurant that had one Korean food and sold it, because all the infrastructure was there.
Everything is around you, and everything you want or need is always right around the corner, which is why people call city life so convenient and love it.The public transportation system in Korea, which is light years better than the big cities in the U.S., helped us get around without any difficulty.It was also so much fun to get a T-money card, carry it around, and use it to get around Korea for a very low cost.
And when my brother and I would walk around, going to cafes, restaurants, and other places where there was something to do, many Koreans would tell us that we made a good looking couple.When I would tell them, in a pleasant and complimentary way, that we were actually brother and sister, they would look surprised and apologize.
But it's completely understandable, because even in the U.S., more people think of us as a couple or friends than they do as siblings, and there's not much of an adoption culture in Korea, and no one adopts and brings European or American children to Korea, so it's no wonder we get these funny misunderstandings.
To be honest, even in the U.S. nowadays, you can still encounter people who ask my brother and I questions about our relationship with unpleasant intentions to hurt us, assuming that we are not a couple or friends, but maybe even a man.A recent memory is of an American grandfather in his 70s who made a very rude remark to us, asking us what kind of father our father was to have two women give birth at the same time.
In the U.S., most people are friendly and kind to me, but the problem is that some people sometimes make fun of my brother because he looks Asian, but this was not the case in Korea at all.No one discriminated against me because of my different appearance.
And there's actually a story I wasn't going to tell in this article, but I'm writing it down because I had my brother's permission to do so.After arriving in Korea, we decided to search for my adopted brother's birth parents in order to trace his roots.My parents and I respected his decision to pursue this endeavor in Korea, and of course, we decided to support it. We visited the Korean adoption agency and requested my brother's adoption records.The representative provided us with all the information possible and was eager to help us, saying that efforts to find one's roots are ongoing every day.Together, we were able to find some important clues in the records.
My brother decided to visit his birthplace based on those clues, and of course, I joined him on the journey.We were always laughing since we came to Korea, but at this moment, there was more seriousness than laughter.We visited my brother's birthplace together and talked to the local people.
At the time, there was only a vague record of my brother's father and mother, but no proper records, so we only knew where he was born, and we had to go there and find someone who had lived there for a long time.But Korea is a very fast-developing country, and the sad thing is that the area where my brother was born and spent the first few months of his life was already torn down and replaced by a huge apartment complex. We felt that if we had come sooner, at least before these new apartments were built, things would have been at least better than they were, but there was no point in regretting what had passed.We visited the social welfare center and police station in the area, explained our situation, and asked for help.The Korean people were very kind, listening to my brother's story and letting us know what we could do.
We were told that when a new apartment building is built in Korea, new people who have no connection to the area move into the apartment, but that some of the people who live in these new apartments have been living here for a long time, most likely elderly people, and that the best thing to do is to find them and ask them about their past.We felt that this information would be very useful to us, as we were very confused and frustrated.
So my brother and I, along with a Korean lady who felt sorry for us and wanted to help, approached the elderly people who came in and out of the apartment and asked them questions.But despite all our efforts, we were unsuccessful in finding my brother's biological parents.We had many clues and information, but we were unable to find any conclusive evidence.My brother was disappointed, but we were comforted by the fact that we had done our best. Maybe if we could have spent a few weeks, maybe even a few months here to find and talk to an elderly person with memories of the past, we could have found a clue to the solution, but we couldn't stay in Korea, so in the end, we had to give up without proceeding any further.When I saw the look on my brother's face as he said that if he had the chance, he would visit Korea next time for this sole purpose, I felt a great sense of disappointment.“It's a shame that we couldn't find them, but thank you for trying,” he said to me.I couldn't say it anymore.
It would have been great if he could have completed his homework, but he didn't.Contrary to my initial expectations, the Korean adoption agency tried to be as helpful as possible, and I was very grateful to the government officials in the place of my brother's supposed birth, who were very sympathetic to his situation and actively tried to help him, and to the Korean lady who passed by.
Having been treated by the Korean healthcare system in the past, I took this level of care for granted and thought that it was something that everyone could enjoy, but then, when I was a high school student in the U.S., I was seriously ill and did not receive the same care as I did in Korea, so I remember suffering terribly and tried to understand why this difference occurred.
Before I came to Korea, I had already arranged to meet with someone, and although I didn't get to visit any specialized institutions, I was able to meet with Korean college students, and I learned a lot of information from them: medical students, pharmacy students, and I was able to get a lot of information from them.
The Korean healthcare system was different from the U.S. in many ways: it was fast, efficient, and provided a high level of care at a relatively low cost.The quick response and organized system for emergencies was especially impressive.The emergency rooms in Korea were very reasonably priced, allowing people to go to them for minor and mild symptoms.At this point, I thought that if there were a lot of people going to the emergency room for minor symptoms, it would be a problem if someone came in who needed emergency care, but the hospitals in Korea made it very easy to answer that question. I also learned that when a really urgent patient comes in, the emergency room prioritizes the emergency patients and treats them first, ignoring the minor ones. It's so simple and obvious: the doctors have the skills to determine the severity of the patient's condition, and they can prioritize the treatment accordingly.
Not only that, but it was very easy to get an appointment in Korea and the wait time was short. The Korean medical staff emphasized patient care and prompt treatment, and they utilized the latest medical technology and equipment to provide the best possible medical care.
In the U.S., medical care is often very expensive, complicated, and difficult to access quickly, and many people are unable to get proper treatment due to insurance issues.I also received prompt treatment in Korea when I was in middle school without insurance and had to pay a reasonable price, but the experience was a nightmare as I remember being very sick in middle school and high school, and I felt that the Korean system was far superior.I felt that the Korean healthcare system is not for profit, but is dedicated to protecting the health of the people.
Through my experiences in Korea, I learned about a much broader world than what my brother and I knew before.There are many factors that make Korea such a great country, but the culture and system that my brother and I experienced firsthand helped us understand why.And most of all, Korea is the country that made my brother.I have grateful feelings for Korea, which is also my brother's roots.
My brother and I could tell without speaking to each other that through this visit, we saw in each other a willingness to continue to love Korea more and more, and to strive to learn and understand Korean culture.
Korea is now a country that has special meaning to me as an adult, and I think it will be a great pleasure for me to honor my brother's roots and watch Korea develop and grow.I will continue to connect with Korea and try to help more people discover its charms.
And next year, he plans to visit Korea to find his roots once again. He plans to stay in Korea for more than a month, and he will continue his best efforts during that period.

Name: Yuchirō Kashimo

Age: 19
Height: 5'9"
Weight: 178 lbs

Appearance

Yuchirō is a tall, lean young man with a build that balances strength and agility. His black hair is wavy and short, often appearing tousled, complementing his sharp facial features. His cyan eyes are piercing and expressive, reflecting his playful yet intense nature. He wears a black hoodie with the sleeves perpetually rolled up, signaling his readiness for action at any moment. Paired with his hoodie, he sports jeans and sneakers, giving him a casual yet capable look.

Personality

Yuchirō is characterized by his playful and cocky demeanor. He thrives on the thrill of battle and seeks out strong opponents to test his abilities. His enjoyment of fighting often overshadows any sense of duty to protect others; he openly admits his indifference toward saving civilians or being a hero. Instead, he adheres to a belief in social Darwinism, valuing strength above all else. This philosophy drives him to constantly push his limits and prove himself against the strongest curses and sorcerers.

Backstory

Yuchirō's upbringing was steeped in the knowledge of curses and cursed energy, setting the stage for his current path. He describes his backstory as relatively uneventful, though it is later revealed that he is a descendant of the powerful sorcerer Hajime Kashimo. This lineage hints at his natural talent and potential, which he strives to live up to and surpass through his own efforts and battles.

Abilities

Cursed Technique: Electrical Siphon

Yuchirō's cursed technique, Electrical Siphon, allows him to convert various forms of energy around him into electricity. This ability is limited to vagabond energy—energy that is disconnected from its source—and cannot convert fundamental forces of nature or energy already tied to an element. The effective range of this technique is 10 feet. The complexity of the energy being converted determines the amount of effort and cursed energy required.
He primarily uses this ability by converting his own cursed energy, enabling him to manipulate electricity with precision and power. However, the conversion and control of electricity are energy-intensive processes, leading him to rely heavily on his extension technique, Charge.

Extension Techniques

• Thunderous Artillery: Inspired by Choso's blood manipulation, Yuchirō compresses electricity within his palm and then swipes his hand, releasing a wave of electricity. This technique is versatile and can be used for both offensive attacks and defensive measures.
  
• Charge: This technique allows Yuchirō to absorb and store electricity after converting energy. It supercharges his body, significantly increasing his speed and physical capabilities. Charge also serves as a foundation for other abilities, utilizing stored electricity for various offensive and defensive purposes.
  
• Storm Coating: After activating Charge, Yuchirō can envelop his body and weapons in electricity, enhancing the impact and damage of his strikes. This technique makes his attacks more lethal and difficult for opponents to counter.
  
• Maximum Output: Charge, Release: Yuchirō absorbs as much energy as possible, converting it into electricity to create a massive explosion. This overcharged state inflicts significant damage on both Yuchirō and his target, making it a last-resort technique due to its high risk.
  

Domain Expansion: Thunderous Hunting Grounds

Yuchirō's Domain Expansion, Thunderous Hunting Grounds, is currently unrefined. By forming the Indra Mudra, he opens his domain, allowing him to automatically absorb energies in his environment and channel them into powerful electrical attacks. However, due to its incomplete state, the domain lacks a barrier, making it less effective defensively but still formidable offensively.

Other Abilities

• Simple Barrier: Yuchirō has mastered the basic use of barriers, employing them to conceal, contain, or deny entry to others within a space. His skill with barriers extends to using them for both defensive and offensive purposes, demonstrating his versatility as a sorcerer.

Equipment

• Takemikazuchi: Yuchirō's personal cursed tool is a Jian blade with a sleek handle and a golden guard. Despite its traditional design as a sword, Yuchirō wields it like a dagger, showcasing his unique fighting style and adaptability. The blade is imbued with cursed energy, allowing it to conduct and enhance his electrical techniques for devastating close-combat attacks.

Combat Style

Yuchirō's combat style revolves around his mastery of electricity and his ability to convert various forms of energy into powerful attacks. He uses his speed and agility, augmented by his Charge technique, to outmaneuver and overwhelm his opponents. His playful yet strategic approach to battle often catches adversaries off guard, allowing him to exploit their weaknesses with precision strikes. Yuchirō's lack of empathy and single-minded focus on becoming the strongest make him a relentless and unpredictable opponent, always seeking the next challenge to prove his dominance.

Goals and Ambitions

Driven by a desire for power and recognition, Yuchirō aims to be the strongest sorcerer and achieve the highest authority in the jujutsu world. His belief in social Darwinism fuels his ambition to conquer and dominate, seeing every battle as an opportunity to grow stronger and assert his superiority. Unconcerned with traditional values or the well-being of others, Yuchirō's path is one of self-interest and relentless pursuit of personal greatness.

After a wonderful year with an amazing girl (24F) who I(26M) fell in love with and was building a future with, I got suddenly dumped. Just a few days before the anniversary of the day we met.
About two months ago, after I returned from a trip, she came to meet me with the intention to break up because she felt the relationship had lost the ‘spark’. We had a healthy conversation and communicated the flaws and what was missing and decided that we would work on them together and revive it. Over the next month, we did exactly that, both proclaimed that we loved each other. We had our serious discussions and planned out the next couple months with weekend trips, and her introducing me to her mom who was supposed to visit this past weekend.
May 1st, her birthday, I surprised her, had a wonderful day on the weekend with her friends and everything seemed to be going great. She came by to spend the night next day and she would reiterate her feelings for me, through words and actions and everything seemed to be going great. May 8th, before going to sleep, I told her how much I missed her, and what exactly I missed about her to reiterate my feelings to show how serious I was as well. May 9th, morning, she replied normally and said she missed me as well and wished she could cuddle with me all day every day. I jokingly said I want to hear more, in detail as to how much she misses me. That message was followed by an entire day of silence. We were supposed to meet later that day however, she made up a reason to not meet and then called me later in the night and broke the news.
She felt she did not want to be in a relationship with me anymore. She had come to realize, that she would never love me the way I love her. We met a day later to say our goodbyes as I was in a state of shock. I was blindsided. I thought I only reciprocated the feelings. She mentioned that ‘I miss you’ message from me made her realize that she could never love me the same way. She said she will always hold love for me and care for me, and cherish the memories we made over the past year. I couldn’t muster up the courage to fight for us, how could I knowing that it was probably the last time I would be seeing her? I asked her what changed, what happened, what did I do and all she responded was ‘I don’t have an answer for you. I wish there was a reason, because you do and say everything that I want you to do and hear.’ Yet she left me. I didn’t beg, all I could say was, if that’s what you feel, how can I change your feelings?
I sent a letter proclaiming my feelings to her and why I said what I said and how ‘she’ had planned all those trips and plans over the next couple weekends and the summer. The day it got delivered, I sent her a message that I wasn’t expecting a response, even though I so much wanted to, and that I will be blocking/removing her from my instagram as that’s the only social media app I use.
She didn’t reply, it broke me apart, but maybe that was for the best? So, it’s been 17 days of no contact, and I miss her every day, all day. I truly loved her and this has broken me into a million pieces. She was the first girl I was going to confess my love for, to my conservative and religious mother. It felt like someone snatched the earth from beneath me. I wake up in the middle of the night multiple times trembling or sweating dreaming about her. I have lost 8 pounds due to a loss in appetite. I have been meditating, journaling, working out, playing soccer, staying busy as all of you have said but it still feels like a gaping hole in my heart. I get anxious and shortness of breath. I cry till I can’t cry anymore. Each day is a battle with myself so I don’t reach out to her.
How do you go from best friends one day and to being a stranger the next? She made me a better man than I was yesterday and now it feels like everything I had hoped for is shattered. I know time heals all wounds, but how do I go forward knowing she will not be a part of my life the way I had and atleast till the last day, she had envisioned as well? It hurts.
I miss her so much and I know I will always love her. But I’m doing my best to stay no contact so I can hopefully heal. Why is the world so cruel?
TL;DR Got dumped suddenly after a year because my ex realized that she couldn’t ever love me the way I loved her. Struggling to get through it now.

I was gardening yesterday and working with my chickadees and chickaducks, when out of nowhere this absolutely beautiful butterfly appears and wouldn’t stop landing on my butt. Like fine, I get it, who wouldn’t give praise to a fine ass, but his focus was INTENSE.
However, I needed to drive to another chore and didn’t want to sit on him and kill him cause he was such a cute little butt worshipper. Instead, I tried to wave him away, but he kept on fighting to get back to that butt; even at the risk of death. Cant judge, we’ve all been there little guy.
Finally, I was able to get away by gently grabbing the tip of one wing, carefully carried him to a bush a little away and let him crawl on those flowers, while quietly tiptoeing back to the golf cart. I drove away, happy that I had saved a beautiful soul, and happy that my butt was finally safe from winged insects addicted to booty.
Boy, was I wrong.
Later that night, as I’m laying in bed with my shepherd, I feel something wiggling across my butt.. again. Anxiety start rising as my brain starts to image hundreds of little spiders running all over me. Bravely, I take a breath and grab whatever it is, bring my hand up and open it to find… a moth. Another winged insect that’s booty addicted. I let him go, he tried to find his way back to the booty, and eventually I give up and just take him back outside.
Long story short, I now believe myself to be a booty god in the eyes of winged insects, and it is a honor to be chosen for such a prestigious title. That said, if religion does as it usually does, expect global wars between butterflies and moths all focused around booty at some point I n the future.
Peace. I’m off to start the Cult of the Booty.

I am NOT OOP. OOP is u/Chemical-Scarcity964
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[New Update]: AITAH for refusing to help my FIL with a vehicle?
Trigger Warnings: emotional manipulation, deaths of loved ones, financial struggles, cancer
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Original Post: December 3, 2023
I (38F) have been married to my husband (43M) for almost 15 years. My FIL has never really accepted me as family. He referred to me as "my son's wife" for the first 5 years of my marriage & when he convinced us to go halves on a property insisted on only his & my husband's names on a survivors deed, "in case we divorced". In the last few years, he has struggled financially due mostly to poor choices he made. His wife, husband's step mom, is much older & has medical problems leading him to choose to work mostly from home. He has traded in vehicles numerous times in the last few years, supposedly trying to lower his payments, but is always upside-down on the loans that it doesn't work. He is paying close to $1000 a month on a minivan. Now here is my problem.
My FIL is currently trying to guilt trip my husband into giving him one of several vehicles I inherited. I had two uncles pass away 3 weeks apart during the holidays more than a year ago & I am still going through the probate process because they passed so close together. I do not have the court's permission to do anything with their vehicles yet.
He told my husband how much it would help him to have one of the vehicles so that he could let his car go back on repo & not have to make the payments. I may have considered it too, if he had waited more than a couple weeks after my both uncles passed away. I was, quite litterally, knee deep in a horders paradise, trying to clean out their apartment within the month to avoid having to pay rent because i couldnt afford it and had no access to their money (strike one). He picked out which vehicle he wanted, the most valuable of the 4, rather than asking if we had plans for them yet (strike two). Then he asked my husband to give him said vehicle (strike three). As a cherry on top, asked my husband again (still has never asked me) to give him a $10k vehicle after we pay for all the little repairs it needs, of course.
Here is where I might me the Asshole: Do I need the vehicle? No. Could I use the money from its sale? Yes, but I could live without it, too, as our finances are better now. Will I sign it over to him? Never. This is far from the first time that man has shown utter disrespect for me & he can pay for rides before I give him any vehicle. Yes, I am probably being a little childish. The only reason I hesitate, I actually like his wife & it would help her to some extent.
Edit to add: My husband has already told me that the vehicles are mine & I can do whatever I want with them.
Since it's been mentioned a few times: he has been bought out on the property & my name added.
Edit for clarity & to address the most common responses: My husband acts as a buffer against FIL for the sake of my sanity. He has told FIL multiple times that the vehicles are not his to do anything with, but the man is intentionally dense. His wife cannot legally own a car as it cannot be registered in her name (no license) I will not loan/rent him a vehicle as I can't trust that he will maintain it.
 
Relevant Comments
akhoneygirl: Offer him the worst for 3 or 4000!

OP: That's part of it. He wants us to fix & give him the vehicle. All of them need at least a few hundred in repairs. He has no interest in paying us for anything. He is just set on guilt tripping his son. My husband has told me everything from the start & said it's all up to me, my uncles, my vehicles, my decision.

SawwhetMA: So FIL set you up to lose out on a property if your SO passed away before FIL did? I'm glad to hear you bought him out and that's set now . If you find it in your heart to give him one of the vehicles then you may be a better person than I because I'm not sure if I could, given the history. What if (when probate is set and all) you offer to rent him one of the vehicles? Obviously that isn't what he wants, but you'd get some income but still own it to sell it when he was done with the vehicle?
Good luck!

OP: He would run it into the ground & I would end up having to go get it when he refused to pay. It's just frustrating because I like his wife & would consider doing it to help her, if he would just man up & ask. Instead, he tries to play the poor me card.

Dixieland_Insanity: INFO:
How does he know what you're inheriting from your uncles. Why does he think he's entitles to any of it?

OP: He knew my uncles fairly well since they were basically the last of my family. He doesn't really know what the full inheritance is, but the vehicles were the most obvious. He has told him no a couple of times. Everything FIL gets tight on funds he asks again.

Cdn_Giants_Fan: Not The A•H. But that said I would probably sell him one of the vehicles for its bluebook value and say pay 100 bucks a week. And if he says anything about it saybthat perhaps if you weren't such an asshat to me I would've just let you have it. Then if he starts being nice after it's partially paid off tell him hes good. He learns a lesson and you earn some money.

OP: I would never see a dime. He thinks that being "the father" means he is owed something from my husband and, by extension, me. Honestly, even if he offered me full value in cash, I would probably laugh at him & tell him to shove off.

VadersLoversLover: Gift it to your MIL with a lien on it so he can’t change to title.

OP: Due to a medical issue, she can't drive and had to surrender her license. That makes it impossible to register it in her name because she can't be insured as a driver.

 
Update #1: December 11, 2023
You guys asked for an update, so here you go. I have had a long talk with my husband about FIL & his "request" for one of the vehicles I had inherited. I showed him my original post & he got a good laugh out of some of the suggestions (especially the toy car). We have agreed that the only way to handle his constant hints & requests, is for me to draft an email to him. For reference: FIL loves to send me rude & demanding emails when he "feels unheard."
The email will not be sent until I know that probate is done & is as "polite & civil" as I can possibly write it. The jist of the email I typed up is this:
"I understand that you have been asking husband to gift you one of my uncles' vehicles. Unfortunately, you have chosen to speak to the wrong person. I have told you before that, in some things, his business is his & mine is mine. The vehicles that you keep asking about are mine. As such, I have decided that they will be sold at a fair market value. The funds will be split evenly into savings accounts for my daughters, as a seed for their futures. I already have buyers lined up for the vehicles & will be arranging times for them to be collected shortly. I hope you can understand my desire to ensure that my childrens' futures are secure, as my uncles would have wanted."
I am tempted to sign it as "husband's wife" but am undecided right now.
Thank you to everyone who commented on my previous post. Your thoughts & support helped me a lot. I was genuinely on the fence as to whether or not I was being too sensitive about everything. You were all amazing & supportive about the entire mess. I just hope that this email to him puts an end to his covert begging once & for all (at least about this). And yes, my husband is behind me 100% and has no issues with my approach.
 

----NEW UPDATE----

Final Update: May 22, 2024 (five months later)
A few people have reached out to ask so here it goes.
Everything is finally settled. The vehicles are sold, except one I decided to keep for my oldest to learn on when she gets her permit.
I didn't send my FIL the email, although I do still have it saved. Turns out I won't have to. As of a few weeks ago, I am getting a divorce. My, now stbx, husband decided that he no longer wants to play house. He moved out & I am in the process of packing his things. Since the vehicles and my house were all inherited, he has no claim to them or the money from their sale. Yes I double checked the law in my state. If he would have waited a few more weeks, I would have paid off every debt we had, but he didn't. So he saved me a bunch of money by telling me before I commingled my inheritance funds with joint assets.
I don't know how his family will act towards me & our kids when he finally tells them all. His brother has called to make sure he is still allowed to keep in touch but he is the only one I've heard from so far.
Oh and as a bonus: the week before I found out about my impending divorce, my mother (who I was never close to) was diagnosed with terminal cancer. She passed away a week later. She was 58 years old, the same age my uncles were. So, yeah, it's basically just me & my kids against the world now.
Anyway, that's the update.
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OOP on moving forward with her life and personal issues going on in her family especially health issues

OOP: Thank you. Its kinda sad that your kind words are enough to make me want to cry because it's expected that I am the strong one for everyone else. I don't really get to give myself time to be weak. And you are right. If it were not for my kids, I probably would have been completely broken.
My uncles had other health problems, no cancer at all that I know of & most of our family lived into their 70s and 80s. I am definitely working on getting my little health concerns checked out, though.

 

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It's been a tough journey for me the past few years trying to get my sh*t together. I earn a humble 3000 SGD and single. There's been a time I was swindled by a man I loved. Almost 30K.
And 3 years later, I'm drowning in debt. Long story short, I keep going back to broken men because I think I can fix them. Unfortunately I can't, and I end up being lied to over and over again. Especially when it comes to money. Yeah, maybe my choice in men are questionable, but I'm trying to fix that. I've been seeing a therapist (free, because my company supports that) and it helped me ground myself.
I'm not eligible for any financial assistance. I have siblings who earn a lot more than I do, have investments, but don't or choose not to help even when I lay out my problems to them. FYI, I barely ask for help. In fact, I can count the number of times I've asked for help (monetarily) in my life. That's fine. I'm not gonna push it either.
It's not that I can't pay my dues, I can. And I have been. It's just that I'm not able to live fully anymore. After paying my debts, bills, and giving my parents allowances, I'm only left with 100 SGD? I can barely breathe. I'm lucky to be working from home, so I save a lot on transportation.
I decided to quit smoking. I saved a lot, and I think it's beneficial for me at the same time. I quit accepting invites to go out, not because I wanted to but because I had to. I stopped meeting friends, making plans, because everything is just expensive or rather I'm incapable.
Through all of this, it taught me a lot of things. There aren't many who would be there for you when you're down. People suddenly become blind, deaf or mute when you need help. But when you're thriving, everyone surrounds you.
I'm depressed. I wish I knew what else to do to get by. I'm tired of working just to pay things off. I just feel like if I can compile everything and pay one person, it would help me a lot. But I have no choice. I can't even qualify for debt consolidation because it's not too big an amount, but also not too small. I just feel really stuck.
I lost all interest for everything. Right now I'm just living day by day. Like a robot.

After a wonderful year with an amazing girl (24F) who I(26M) fell in love with and was building a future with, I got suddenly dumped. Just a few days before the anniversary of the day we met.
About two months ago, after I returned from a trip, she came to meet me with the intention to break up because she felt the relationship had lost the ‘spark’. We had a healthy conversation and communicated the flaws and what was missing and decided that we would work on them together and revive it. Over the next month, we did exactly that, both proclaimed that we loved each other. We had our serious discussions and planned out the next couple months with weekend trips, and her introducing me to her mom who was supposed to visit this past weekend.
May 1st, her birthday, I surprised her, had a wonderful day on the weekend with her friends and everything seemed to be going great. She came by to spend the night next day and she would reiterate her feelings for me, through words and actions and everything seemed to be going great. May 8th, before going to sleep, I told her how much I missed her, and what exactly I missed about her to reiterate my feelings to show how serious I was as well. May 9th, morning, she replied normally and said she missed me as well and wished she could cuddle with me all day every day. I jokingly said I want to hear more, in detail as to how much she misses me. That message was followed by an entire day of silence. We were supposed to meet later that day however, she made up a reason to not meet and then called me later in the night and broke the news.
She felt she did not want to be in a relationship with me anymore. She had come to realize, that she would never love me the way I love her. We met a day later to say our goodbyes as I was in a state of shock. I was blindsided. I thought I only reciprocated the feelings. She mentioned that ‘I miss you’ message from me made her realize that she could never love me the same way. She said she will always hold love for me and care for me, and cherish the memories we made over the past year. I couldn’t muster up the courage to fight for us, how could I knowing that it was probably the last time I would be seeing her? I asked her what changed, what happened, what did I do and all she responded was ‘I don’t have an answer for you. I wish there was a reason, because you do and say everything that I want you to do and hear.’ Yet she left me. I didn’t beg, all I could say was, if that’s what you feel, how can I change your feelings?
I sent a letter proclaiming my feelings to her and why I said what I said and how ‘she’ had planned all those trips and plans over the next couple weekends and the summer. The day it got delivered, I sent her a message that I wasn’t expecting a response, even though I so much wanted to, and that I will be blocking/removing her from my instagram as that’s the only social media app I use.
She didn’t reply, it broke me apart, but maybe that was for the best? So, it’s been 17 days of no contact, and I miss her every day, all day. I truly loved her and this has broken me into a million pieces. She was the first girl I was going to confess my love for, to my conservative and religious mother. It felt like someone snatched the earth from beneath me. I wake up in the middle of the night multiple times trembling or sweating dreaming about her. I have lost 8 pounds due to a loss in appetite. I have been meditating, journaling, working out, playing soccer, staying busy as all of you have said but it still feels like a gaping hole in my heart. I get anxious and shortness of breath. I cry till I can’t cry anymore. Each day is a battle with myself so I don’t reach out to her.
How do you go from best friends one day and to being a stranger the next? She made me a better man than I was yesterday and now it feels like everything I had hoped for is shattered. I know time heals all wounds, but how do I go forward knowing she will not be a part of my life the way I had and atleast till the last day, she had envisioned as well? It hurts.
I miss her so much and I know I will always love her. But I’m doing my best to stay no contact so I can hopefully heal. Why is the world so cruel?

After a wonderful year with an amazing girl (24F) who I(26M) fell in love with and was building a future with, I got suddenly dumped. Just a few days before the anniversary of the day we met.
About two months ago, after I returned from a trip, she came to meet me with the intention to break up because she felt the relationship had lost the ‘spark’. We had a healthy conversation and communicated the flaws and what was missing and decided that we would work on them together and revive it. Over the next month, we did exactly that, both proclaimed that we loved each other. We had our serious discussions and planned out the next couple months with weekend trips, and her introducing me to her mom who was supposed to visit this past weekend.
May 1st, her birthday, I surprised her, had a wonderful day on the weekend with her friends and everything seemed to be going great. She came by to spend the night next day and she would reiterate her feelings for me, through words and actions and everything seemed to be going great. May 8th, before going to sleep, I told her how much I missed her, and what exactly I missed about her to reiterate my feelings to show how serious I was as well. May 9th, morning, she replied normally and said she missed me as well and wished she could cuddle with me all day every day. I jokingly said I want to hear more, in detail as to how much she misses me. That message was followed by an entire day of silence. We were supposed to meet later that day however, she made up a reason to not meet and then called me later in the night and broke the news.
She felt she did not want to be in a relationship with me anymore. She had come to realize, that she would never love me the way I love her. We met a day later to say our goodbyes as I was in a state of shock. I was blindsided. I thought I only reciprocated the feelings. She mentioned that ‘I miss you’ message from me made her realize that she could never love me the same way. She said she will always hold love for me and care for me, and cherish the memories we made over the past year. I couldn’t muster up the courage to fight for us, how could I knowing that it was probably the last time I would be seeing her? I asked her what changed, what happened, what did I do and all she responded was ‘I don’t have an answer for you. I wish there was a reason, because you do and say everything that I want you to do and hear.’ Yet she left me. I didn’t beg, all I could say was, if that’s what you feel, how can I change your feelings?
I sent a letter proclaiming my feelings to her and why I said what I said and how ‘she’ had planned all those trips and plans over the next couple weekends and the summer. The day it got delivered, I sent her a message that I wasn’t expecting a response, even though I so much wanted to, and that I will be blocking/removing her from my instagram as that’s the only social media app I use.
She didn’t reply, it broke me apart, but maybe that was for the best? So, it’s been 17 days of no contact, and I miss her every day, all day. I truly loved her and this has broken me into a million pieces. She was the first girl I was going to confess my love for, to my conservative and religious mother. It felt like someone snatched the earth from beneath me. I wake up in the middle of the night multiple times trembling or sweating dreaming about her. I have lost 8 pounds due to a loss in appetite. I have been meditating, journaling, working out, playing soccer, staying busy as all of you have said but it still feels like a gaping hole in my heart. I get anxious and shortness of breath. I cry till I can’t cry anymore. Each day is a battle with myself so I don’t reach out to her.
How do you go from best friends one day and to being a stranger the next? She made me a better man than I was yesterday and now it feels like everything I had hoped for is shattered. I know time heals all wounds, but how do I go forward knowing she will not be a part of my life the way I had and atleast till the last day, she had envisioned as well? It hurts.
I miss her so much and I know I will always love her. But I’m doing my best to stay no contact so I can hopefully heal. Why is the world so cruel?

It all went wrong in an instant. The cabin begins to glow red and scream at you in various analog tongues. Beeping, whirring, and hissing. They fill up your train of thought as the adrenaline fills your hands and arms with blood. You feel like you could tear out the center console with ease, but instead you give a deathgrip to your center-stick.
Your logical side tells you that this is a death-sentence and begins to scream at you.
“Eject”.
“Eject!”
“EJECT EJECT EJECT EJECT EJECT”
The screams subside as the thumping in your cranium drowns them out. Your voice of reason tore its vocal cords. It’s only your training and instincts now.
You can’t eject. You won’t eject. You will save your jet, or be incinerated with it.
You start frantically flipping different switches hoping one of them can diagnose your issue. You radio over to another jet.
“This is Delta I repeat this is Delta. Jet experiencing critical error. I need he-“
Static. They got your comms too. You mash the side panel to bits in a spurt of rage. You curse to yourself, the adrenaline started talking. It doesn’t matter how rude you are, there’s no one to be rude to but the damned error voice module. She keeps talking to you, repeating the same danger and procedure.
The same red light illuminating your future coffin. It’s dimmer now, especially now that you’ve fried one of its circuits. The combination of the dimness, monotonous voice, and intensifying heat remind you of before you were born. Of course you don’t actually remember this time, but some instinctual part does.
The oxygen begins to run thin. Your head begins to spin as your agitated heart continues to pump in overdrive. You begin to lose consciousness, but you grit your teeth and fight this off. You’re too stubborn to pass out, too much of a nuisance to die. Your last moments are terrifying as you continue to hurl towards the ground. The cabin begins to shake violently, but you don’t feel it. Your mind won’t let you.
“I won't die”, you begin to repeat to yourself.
The words become jumbled together and slurred to the point where they integrate with your breathing. It’s your breathing and the errors.
As the altitude becomes critical the errors change. You put all of your faith into your armor and luck. Your head kicks back in your seat as far as it comes to brace for the impact. You give one last final prayer and let the errors fill the cabin.
Altitude critical. Pull up.
Altitude critical. Pull up.
Oxygen critical. Deploy mask.
Altitude critical. Pull up.
Oxygen critical. Deploy mask.
Heat critical. Activate coolant.
Heat critical. Activate coolant.
Altitude critical. Pull up.
Crash Imminent.
Crash Imminent.
Impact.
The once sturdy cockpit precipitates on your head as shards of glass. Every dial and node on the control panel folded in on itself all with a maxed out reading. Your hands tremor in a fixed clasped position. Whatever you were holding onto must’ve been very important. You can feel every heartbeat like a concussive in your temple. Your breathing feels thin and fleeting; whatever air you’re getting is simply not enough. Your neck gives way, and you collapse forward onto the control panel. You pass out.
Hours pass.
You come to. Bewildered that you survived your breathing goes from frequent and thin to slow and heavy. Your body needs repairs, and fast. You reach for your knife and sever your harnesses. Your abdomen free, you reach for the radio at your feet.
It hums with no signal. You mess with the antenna and dial, praying for a signal. You are only meant with the hisses of broken signals. You are alone.
You heave yourself out of the rubble with great exertion. It was a risky move, it nearly killed you. Exhausted, you stumble through a desolate desert of ice and snow. Completely devoid of form, it’s an infinite white expanse. Without any options you equip your visor and begin a scan.
Result = [NULL]
Result = [NULL]
Result = [NULL]
Result = [MATCH]
Heat Detected.
Life Classification: Unidentified
You see a faint outline of a rectangle highlighted on the scan. With no other scan, you begin your trek towards it. Walking takes your mind off of the crash.
Your mind can finally exit its adrenal state.
The questions begin.
“Where the hell am I?”
“What did they hit me with?”
“Why am I alive?”
After an hour of limping you come across a small abode, a middle ground between a shack and an outhouse. Its patchy carpentry sticks out like a sore thumb in the vast whiteness, the festering mold on the walls turn your crash site into a stellar two-tone piece. The door made of some wisened material is about as strong as driftwood. However even with such a weak material, you are weaker and you struggle to make it inside. Knock after knock the door begins to give and bulge, more and more splinters flying everywhere. Your heavy breathing becomes panting and coughing, the thick air filled with dust, mold, and dried petrol. Finally your shoulder overcomes the door and you fall through the hole in the door onto the floor of the hut. Your coughing fit escalates into near-choking. Your heart begins to pound through your ribs, your stomach begins to tumble within your abdomen. All of your insides are writhing and screaming.
YOU SHOULD NOT BE HERE

SEEKING FOR A ROLEPLAY PARTNER !!!
Hi, I am Andrei or just Drei for short. I am semi-literate and i reply with a minimun of 5 lines. I'm currently not busy so expect me to reply fast. I use GMT+8:00 time zone, i hope that wouldn't be a problem.
I'm looking for a fellow enthusiast to co-create captivating stories across a spectrum of genres, from the realms of high fantasy to the depths of gritty realism. Whether you're drawn to epic quests, political intrigue, supernatural mysteries, or heartfelt romances, there's a story waiting to be told that suits our shared interests.
What i'm looking for in a partner is mostly creativity, communication, and a collaborative spirit. I hope you'll be cooperative and help me make the story alive. Together, we'll breathe life into a cast of compelling characters, each with their own aspirations, flaws, and complexities. We'll navigate the twists and turns of our plot together, ensuring that every decision and development feels organic and impactful.
No matter your level of experience, whether you're a seasoned roleplayer or just starting out, all are welcome to join me in crafting tales that will linger in our minds long after the adventure ends.
If you're interested, just hmu. I'll be waiting 😉

SEEKING FOR A ROLEPLAY PARTNER !!!
Hi, I am Andrei or just Drei for short. I am semi-literate and i reply with a minimun of 5 lines. I'm currently not busy so expect me to reply fast. I use GMT+8:00 time zone, i hope that wouldn't be a problem.
I'm looking for a fellow enthusiast to co-create captivating stories across a spectrum of genres, from the realms of high fantasy to the depths of gritty realism. Whether you're drawn to epic quests, political intrigue, supernatural mysteries, or heartfelt romances, there's a story waiting to be told that suits our shared interests.
What i'm looking for in a partner is mostly creativity, communication, and a collaborative spirit. I hope you'll be cooperative and help me make the story alive. Together, we'll breathe life into a cast of compelling characters, each with their own aspirations, flaws, and complexities. We'll navigate the twists and turns of our plot together, ensuring that every decision and development feels organic and impactful.
No matter your level of experience, whether you're a seasoned roleplayer or just starting out, all are welcome to join me in crafting tales that will linger in our minds long after the adventure ends.
If you're interested, just hmu. I'll be waiting 😉

Some people say that men who are short, skinny, have weakly-defined facial features are ‘genetically inferior’ in some way. However, these same features are desirable in women. Both sons and daughters can inherit these features from their parents, and it doesn’t seem that one gender is more likely to inherit them than the other. The above-mentioned traits are undesirable on one gender but desirable (or at least neutral) on the other. So, can we truly consider these traits to be ‘genetically inferior’?
Yes I understand there are some genetic traits that are undesirable on either gender, such as acne or other skin issues. For the purpose of this debate I am not referring to those.
There are short women who go for tall men because they don’t want their sons to be short. But I wonder if they considered that if they had a daughter, it would be better for her to be short? Let’s say a short man with feminine features and a tall, muscular woman had children, I doubt their children’s physical features will differ significantly from the children of a conventional tall, strong man and short dainty woman couple?

I started shaving my head or cutting it very short in my twenties. I mainly do it because it's low maintance and cheap. I've always been an athlete so it's much easier to deal with.
When I started doing it people said I looked scary. Before I had longer hair and I looked like a soft nerd.
I've been in retail my whole life. I'm in my thirties now. People definitely treat you differently due to your apperance. It seems if they think you're scared or weak they'll verbally abuse you or try to take advantage of you.
If I let my hair grow out for a month I notice people are more likely to be shitty to me. Then I shave it and I don't have any more problems.

(My post got deleted from AITA, so I'm here) I think the title kinda says a lot but I'd just like to put out a few important details:

1. I'm a minor (still in high school)
2. I'm recovering from an ED and struggle with depression
3. I really care about school and want to succeed further in life.
4. This is sort of a throwaway account. I was planning to use it earlier but procrastinated until I'm here today.

Ok anyways, here's a quick overview of what happened. I have an older sister who's in college. She has a friend who recently had a baby boy. Now, my sister is close with this friend, if my memory serves me right, they met sometime in highschool. My sister is visiting my mom and me for the summer (parents are divorced if anyone's curious) and invited her friend and friend's boyfriend to come over so we can meet the baby.
My sister's friend said yes and was really happy to come over. She has known me since I was little and kinda views me as her younger sister. I don't really feel the same as we have a big age gap and the only distinct memories of her "bonding" with me were because of my sister inviting her over, or just trying to babysit for a few extra bucks.
Anyways, she wanted me to meet my new "nephew." So let me hold him and starting talking about stuff related to her joy with pregnancy, which I didn't mind until she started talking about some other experiences. She started telling me how she actually had another pregnancy before this which ended in a misscarriage. She then started telling me a lot of details about it.
Now, I don't mind when people vent, I think it's healthy to get something off of your chest, but I'm just really bad at comforting. My mom used to raise my sister and me to think that "feeling bad emotions = bad/weak/not real." She doesn't do that anymore, but I still have a habit of following her outdated parenting. My dad also vents to me about stuff related to his adult-life, which makes me feel uncomfortable, because we're in two different stages in our life, and he always made me feel like I was responsible for. So yeah, I'm not particularly good at comforting people when they're venting.
Anyways, as my sister's friend started to vent more to me, she asked what I would do in her situation. I thought she meant if I were exactly in her shoes right then and there, so I said I'd probably try my best and get help from friends since she wanted this baby. Sister's friend corrected me, and asked what I would do if I were in her situation right now. Like if I just found out I was pregnant in my own life currently, not her shoes.
In all honesty, I'm not very active in the ongoing abortion debate in America. I just somewhat know about each side's stands and I do tend to lean forwards the pro-choice side because of how even life-saving abortions are being banned.
When truly thinking about, I would probably get an abortion. I mean, I'm a minor, my mom is strict and has always told me and my sister she'd throw us out if we got pregnant (so there goes the person I'm reliant on and major support-system), I'm trying to focus on school (or was, it's summer, so I'm just focused on extra-curriculars and my summer-credit classes). I also attend a very academically school (stereotypical for gifted students) that my mom worked really hard to get me into, and with the amount of work we have to do, I'd probably have to dropout if I were pregnant thus ruining my mom's hardwork and a lot of future opportunities for me. I have to take meds for my medical issues so being pregnant would mean I'd have to go off of them and risk my mental health falling to a place where I want to dei again. I don't even want kids, and if I did I would want to have them in my 30's. A lot of pregnancies under 19 are also considered high-risk, so there's that. I'm not interested in dating any guys at this moment of my life, so there's already bad signs.
I kept it brief, and told her, "I wouldn't have been able to be as strong as her in that situation." I thought she'd be satisfied, but she kept pressing on, asking what that meant, and what would my reaction be, would I be happy, sad, mad? When I tried shrugging it off and simple 'I don't knows' and 'I don't really want to talk about this anymore' She just kept asking a lot of questions and pressuring me, so I gave up and just said "I wouldn't keep it." She then got really upset and said how could I kill her innocent baby and what is wrong with me. She started yelling at me saying how wrong I am and her baby didn't do anything.
My mom heard this and asked her and her company to leave. Then a few hours later, my mom told me how sister's friend was really hurt about what I said l and I should've been more sensitive because of her hormones and stuff. My sister was the opposite. She said her friend didn't have any business telling a minor they need to keep a baby and how messed up it was to ask a minor how'd they react if they were suddenly pregnant one day despite (somewhat) knowing my issues.
To keep it short because the post is already long, my sister and mom bickered a bit which ultimately ended with my mom thinking I was TA and my sister thinking I wasn't. I'm just conflicted about all of this now because on one hand my mom has been pregnant and probably knows what hormones do to you and what I said might've been really harmful, but my sister has been friends with this girl for years, so even her pointing out that she might've been wrong is shocking.
AITA/AITAH?

31 female, 5’7, 145 pounds. For the last two weeks I haven’t been able to eat. Every time I eat I get shortness of breath, trouble breathing through my nose, tight throat, trouble swallowing, heart palpitations like a real pounding heart with fast pace, chest pressure, chest pains, stomach pains. I’ve only been able to have an ensure plus 350 calories and a baby food 80 calories, that’s just in the last two days. The 10 days before that I haven’t eaten anything. I just need some advice, I’m afraid to eat because of the ton of symptoms I get.

My son is 2 months old and over the past week or so my PPA has gotten much worse to the point of physical symptoms like nausea and chest tightness/Shortness of breath. It might be due to family visits as my in laws have been in town for a little over a week and my mum and youngest sister arrived this past week. I go back to work in a couple weeks, I work at a daycare and my LO will be coming to work with me to stay in the baby room during the days and I’m worried the anxiety will affect me going through that transition as well. (The fact we have to go back to work so soon I the US and need to get help for a totally natural hormonal response to having children so as not to affect our ability to do our job is a whole separate vent maybe I’ll make another post about that lol) think it might be time to seek help but I don’t know where. I have no GP, I hadn’t seen a doctor in years before pregnancy and the only doctor I saw throughout my pregnancy was an OBGYN. My son and I are both on Medicaid. What’s the first step I should take to getting help with this?

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I deal with generalized anxiety disorder and have panic episodes from time to time. I am medicated but I was feeling all kinds of anxiety all day. Typically I can "quiet" the feeling before I get on calls. It was so different today. I presented our software to a small group of 3 and it felt like I was coming apart at the seams. I was able to feel/hear my voice shake. All of the symptoms of an ongoing panic attack was about to hit me. The mental flooding, the warm/cold sweat, racing thoughts, lack of confidence etc etc etc.
I was taking short shallow breaths so I worked to take full breaths but it's hard to control breathing when your depression in it. I was essentially preparing for the attack as it was coming on. I was somehow able to power through the call, but there was persistent waves of anxiety. I share my screen on the virtual call and I'm in control of the mouse and the keyboard. Whenever I touched the mouse, I couldn't control my hand well at all due to the shakes. It's like when you give someone a glass of water and water starts flying all over the place and you can't keep your hand steady.
I obviously had to click around and the mouse pointer was all over the place clearly shaking. I'm not sure if they were able to tell I was feeling very anxious but I somehow touched on everything I needed to on the call and they seemed happy and content. I did a good job all things considered but I know I def should have done better but my mind took over and it impacted my body. I'm not doing enough to prevent these episodes.
It was that feeling like you are crawling out of your skin. Like all of the worst symptoms of anxiety but all at once. It was def fight or flight and boy was I fighting. While I was explaining things, my mind went to "what can I do here to fix this situation?" I was thinking of having a coughing attack or maybe an Internet issue.
While this ultimately turned into a good story, it was awful because it happened before and it will happen again. This was the worst one though in a while. I've been through a lot in life and this seems like a tiny blip, but I felt so uncomfortable and due to its recency, it feels like I was about to hit rock bottom and have a full on breakdown.
It's really interesting what our bodies do in these situations. Did I do the right thing here? I have no clue, but I made it through. Right now I feel fairly relaxed and I have a little comfort in my mind that it will not get worse tomorrow (even though it certainly can). I hope it was just an episode. I'm waking up early tomorrow and will be doing light exercise. I've been jogging a bit but for some reason, running isnt positively impacting my anxiety as it used to. I'm not doing it right.
I have to switch things up otherwise this will happen again and the outcome will be much worse. I've had a conversation with my boss before and he deals with mental illness as well, but I feel like I need to talk to HR or something just in case to protect myself. He gets it but it's hard to truly understand.
Any ideas, strategies, etc to help me out in the moment and also preventative things I can do? I'm familiar with a lot of coping mechanisms as well as supplements and what not but I always struggle to find the right thing to do in the moment. I stared journaling the other day and it's been helpful but I'm not consistent.
Merely typing this out has helped me but there's clearly something going on that's fucking with my chi! Thanks for reading and I'm happy to read and help you as well.

I'll go first
1 - Bugs Bunny (every time I match with this bunny I'm fighting for my life trying to breathe and get to the other side of the stage, GG if you get a short map)
2 - Superman (Superman players don't even need all there buttons all they need is foward smash and up snash and there good, don't even get me started on this dudes Nair.)
3 - Batman ( No matter what percent, what map, what charachter. Batman will always find a way to kill you in two hits using up air, up smash. I'm at 40 percent why am I dying to that!)