Events are listed by the day. Events that happen every week appear first, one time stuff after that. If you have anything you’d like people to know about, comment here or message me and I’ll add it in. If you’d like further info about any of the events, look it up! I usually don’t have any extra to add.
Large Scale, Ongoing, and Multi-Day Events

• Look, this weekend is weird and jam packed. Graduation, First Friday, May the 4th Be With You, and Cinco de Mayo are the biggest things. If you are not looking to be involved in any of that, DO NOT TRY TO GO OUT TO EAT THIS WEEKEND. Allow extra time for any take out orders from places in town or close to campus. I suggest going to the beach instead.

Local Running, Walking, and Biking Info: https://troubleafoot.blogspot.com/
Guided Paddling Outings all around the area: https://www.facebook.com/hsmithoutdoors
Tallahassee Film Society Showings: https://www.tallahasseefilms.com/tickets/
Book Clubs for all tastes: https://www.facebook.com/midtownreadeevents
Live Theater:

• Making Light Productions: https://www.makinglightproductions.org/
  
• Theatre Tallahassee: https://theatretallahassee.org/
  
• Mickee Faust Club: https://www.mickeefaust.com/
  
• Monticello Opera House: https://www.monticellooperahouse.org/
  
• FSU School of Theatre: https://theatre.fsu.edu/productions/
  
• Young Actors Theatre: https://www.youngactorstheatre.com/
  
• Quincy Music Theatre: https://quincymusictheatre.com/
  
• Tallahassee Hispanic Theater: https://tallahasseehispanictheater.wordpress.com/
  

OutdooFarmer’s Markets:

• Lake Ella Grower's Market: Wednesday and Saturday, 11am-2pm. You can always find organic vendors, and foragers: The Holistic Cannabis Community, Artzi Farms, Hickory Nut Gifts, and others. Including Pita Queen! Farmer's Market Nutrition Program Coupons gladly accepted!
  
• Tallahassee Downtown Market: Saturdays, 10am-2pm, Park Ave Parks. Vendors display their arts and fine crafts, jewelry, handmade soap, pottery, Fresh from Florida produce, hand-raised beef and pork, fresh baked bread, jams and jellies, and honey. Live music from different local musicians every Saturday.
  
• Frenchtown Heritage Market: 524 N MLK Jr Blvd. Third Saturday of the month 10am to 2pm. Come grow community and support your local farmers and makers, while you get your groceries for the week! Don’t forget! We match SNAP/EBT, so you DOUBLE your money to go towards locally grown fresh fruits and vegetables! If the guy with the pineapple is there, get it. This is currently only happening on the third Saturday of the month for the next few months while road work is completed.
  
• Tallahassee Farmers Market: 2904 Kerry Forest Pkwy, Saturdays, 8am to Noon. Come see us at Tallahassee's longest-running farmers market! We are a year-round market, featuring local farms and vendors that provide the best seasonal produce, meats, baked goods, and more. We welcome you and your whole family (leashed pets included) to come out and meet your local farmers! Ample parking is available between our lot and the shopping center lot next door (by Red Elephant). Come early for the best selection.
  

THURSDAY, 5/2

• The Hub at Feather Oaks: Bingo. 6pm
  
• Dreamland BBQ: Weekly Open Blues Jam. If you'd like to sing, please bring your own mic. 6pm
  
• Honest Living Vape: Chess-Master Thursdays . Beginners and experts, join us every Thursday from 6-9 for Chess-Master Thursdays. All ages. Bring your board or play ours! Tournaments coming soon! 6pm
  
• Oyster City Brewing Co: Open Mic Night! Join us on Thursdays from 6:30-9:30 PM for Open Mic Night hosted by the incredible Mike Ingram of The Brown Goose! This is your chance to show off your skills! Whether you're a musician, poet, comedian, or have a hidden talent, we can't wait to see what you bring to the stage. 6:30pm
  
• Lake Tribe: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Takko Market Square: Bingo Night. 7pm
  
• The Getaway Grille and Bar: Karaoke with Jared Walker. 7pm
  
• Amicus Brewing: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Smitty's Taphouse: Trivia Lab Thursdays. Teams of 6 or fewer players can compete for $30 / $20 / $10 Prizes + The Golden MacGuffin prize table! New format! Interactive smartphone answering for your comfort and safety! 6 Fun Rounds - 42 Total Questions. 7:30pm
  
• Cap City Video Lounge: MST3K Thursday. Join us Thursday as we climb aboard The Satellite of Love along with Joel, Tom Servo and CROOOOW! 7:30pm/free but donations encouraged NOT HAPPENING THIS WEEK
  
• Studio D: Bachata Fever. We always have a bachata workshop at 8 pm before Bachata Fever. We dance afterwards to the sounds of DJ Bacharod. The class is at 8 pm and Bachata Fever will start at 930 pm. Many times people are learning in class and may feel uncomfortable social dancing while they are still learning moves. We have a welcoming environment so stay and have fun and dance with everyone. That is how we learn. 8pm/Class $5/Bachata Fever $5.
  
• The Sound Bar: Comedy Night. 8pm
  
• Finnegans Wake: Open Mic. 8:30pm
  
• Brass Tap in Midtown: Karaoke with DJ Rah. 9pm
  
• 926: Karaoke. 9pm
  
• Bird’s: Karaoke with Nathan. 9pm
  

• Blue Tavern: Bramble’s Bluegrass Jam. 5pm
  
• The Moon: Charles Wesley Godwin with special guest Kashus Culpepper. 6:30pm
  
• The Bark: Draining Kiss, Kare, and Candle Wishes. 8pm
  
• Blue Tavern: Music of the Spheres: Brazilian samba, funk, and more with Grupo Jaraguá. 8pm
  
• 926: Sweeping Promises with Solomon Hill and Counterfeit Stereo. 8pm
  
• Fire Bettys: The Tortured Poets Department Listen Party! 8pm
  
• Cap City Video Lounge: Agnes & Agatha = WORK IN PROGRESS. Agnes & Agatha are getting ready for the big reveal at Atlanta Fringe. Before we go - we are doing a work-in-progress showing on May 2nd. Two showings: 8:30pm & 9:45pm. Come out and see us stumble through what will eventually be our show. We may still be on book. We may change some things we go. We may lose ourselves completely. Don't miss out! Seating is limited to about 25-30 people per showing, so please arrive before your chosen showing time as we will need to start each run right on time. 8:30pm/Suggested donation: $10
  

FRIDAY, 5/3

• Blue Tavern: Happy Hour with Steve Malono. 5pm
  
• Lake Tribe Brewing: Flannel Fridays with Live Music. 6pm
  
• Hobbit West: Friday Night Dart Tournament. Anyone can Enter! Sign ups at 7:30, Darts fly at 8:00/$10 entry fee
  
• Ouzts Too: Karaoke with DJ Nathan. Best karaoke DJ in town. 8pm
  
• Just One More: Karaoke with DJ Rah. 9pm-11pm/21+
  
• 926: The Hot Friday Night Party and Drag Show. 9pm/$5/18+
  

• Blue Tavern: Tommy Hoople’s Delta Ringnecks. 5pm
  
• Lake Tribe: Southern Latitude Band at the Galactic Derby Fiesta. 6pm
  
• The Getaway Grille and Bar: Big Poppa & the Shuffle Brothers. 6pm
  
• The Plant: Maker’s Market Art Fair featuring local artists selling handmade items and live music from Freezee, June The Phrog, and Miles F. 7pm
  
• Island Wings: Lee C. Payton & the LCP Band. 7pm
  
• The Sound Bar: The Elements. 7pm
  
• Mickee Faust Club: Bog Lilies at First Friday. 7pm
  
• Blue Tavern: Mike Leadon & Bill McGuire. 8pm
  
• Vino Beano: Paula Sofia. 8pm
  
• Fire Bettys: The Pin Up Power Hour! Burlesque Show. 8pm/21+
  

SATURDAY, 5/4

• Brinkley Glen Park: Invasive Plant Removal. Join Master Gardener Volunteers at this weekly invasive plant removal event. This is a great way to learn to ID our invasive plant species and how to remove them. We recommend wearing long pants and sleeves, closed-toed shoes, gloves, a hat and mosquito spray. Bring gardening tools such as hand clippers, loppers, trowels, etc. if you have them. We are removing coral ardisia bushes and berries, nandina, tung trees, Tradescantia flumenensis, cat's claw vine, winged yam, Japanese climbing fern, skunkvine and more. Directions: The best way to get there is to take Meridian Rd to Waverly Rd, go to the next intersection and turn left onto Abbotsford Way, then turn left at the next road called Woodside Dr. At the stop sign turn left onto Lothian. Lothian ends in a cul-de-sac and there is a sign that says Brinkley Glen Park. 8:30am-11:30am
  
• Gamescape: Saturday Gaming. Gamescape has relocated from Railroad Square to the Huntington Oaks Plaza (Suite 302, next to the Library) at N Monroe St and Fred George Rd. Open gaming tables are available. Noon-6pm
  
• Potbellys: 7th Annual FAKE St. Patrick's Day Party. 4pm
  
• Duke’s and Dottie’s: Line Dancing Plus Lessons. 7pm/21+
  
• Bird’s Oyster Shack: Laughterday Night Fever. * Join us every Saturday at Bird's Aphrodisiac Oyster Shack for a free comedy show!* 8:30pm
  
• 926: Latin Night. Dance to the irresistible beats of Zeus and prepare to be dazzled by a spectacular drag show at midnight. It's more than a party, it's an experience. 9:30pm/$10 21+, $15 under 21
  

• Skate World: May Character Breakfast. 8am
  
• Lafayette Heritage Trail Park: May Birding Social. * Meet in the parking lot near the restrooms at 8:15 AM to sign the liability waiver. This is a birding social not a guided walk. We’ll determine our route when we meet up. This park provides opportunities to see and hear woodland birds, Ospreys, Bald Eagles, and aquatic and wading birds on Lake Piney Z and Lower Lake Lafayette. Estimated distance is about 3 miles, but participants are free to leave the group at any time. The trail is an easy hike, but on natural terrain. Bring drinking water for yourself. Bug spray is recommended. No need to register for this outing—just show up!* 8:30am
  
• La Tiendita: Cinco de Mayo Celebration: Margaritas, Music, and More! Join us for a festive Cinco de Mayo celebration on Saturday, the 4th! Doors open at 10:30am, and we'll be serving up delicious food specials all day, including cochinita pibil, horchata, pozole, and more. After 5:30pm, indulge in our Brazilian menu featuring grilled picanha and feijoada to add a taste of Brazil to the fiesta! *Live Music by Rhys Bennett and the Gringos: Vontade** will kick off at 6:30pm and continue until 9:30pm, creating the perfect ambiance for a night of fun and fiesta. Doors close at 10pm, so make sure to come early and stay late to enjoy all the excitement. Save the date and get ready to indulge in the flavors of Mexico, groove to live music, and savor Brazilian delights with us on Saturday, the 4th!* 10:30am-10pm
  
• Cosmic Cat: Free Comic Book Day 2024. 11am-5pm
  
• Fallout Comics: Free Comic Book Day 2024. * Free Comics! Big Sale! Guest Artists and Costumed People!* 11am
  
• The Hub at Feather Oaks: May the 4th Be With You. We'll have Star Wars-themed beers. Jabba Juice for the kids. Star Wars Trivia. A Far, Far Away costume contest. Inter-galactic Movies on our 8 big screen TVs all day. And even a few drink specials for graduates. (It's also Graduation Day AND Kentucky Derby Day, too!) 11am
  
• Growler Country: 3rd Annual Star Wars Celebration Weekend. Costume contest, Special drink, Ice cream, Silent Auction with amazing prizes. 11am
  
• Blue Tavern: First Saturday Swim with Bluegill Bill. 5pm
  
• Challenger Center: Star Wars Day Concert. Come join us for a short concert of Star Wars favorites featuring the North Florida Suzuki School students and staff! Concert begins at 5pm in the planetarium, Star Wars trivia and movie screening hosted by the Challenger Center to follow. FREE and open to the public! 5pm
  
• Hobbit East: Anna Wescoat. 6pm
  
• Cascades: George Thorogood & The Destroyers “Bad All Over The World – 50 Years of Rock” Tour with 38 Special. 6pm
  
• Fire Bettys: The Groove Merchants. 7pm/21+
  
• American Legion Hall: 4 Sicks. 7pm/$8
  

SUNDAY, 5/5

• Bicycle House: Sunday Ride. Ride at 10:30 AM from Bicycle House. We will ride the Cascades trail to the St Marks trail and down to Wakulla station and return, about 31 miles. Ride speed is 12 to 14 mph, with periodic regroups. Vernon Bailey is the ride leader. Vernon is a new CCC member who’s been biking for 50 years enjoys riding with small groups and weekend touring. 10am
  
• Halisi Africa: Soulful Sundays. Join us for Motherland Brunch at Halisi Africa. We'll be serving our brunch special including an appetizer, main course, a sweet, and our signature African mimosas we call ukwaju. The event will also feature an art exhibition by Christopher Barnhart and live entertainment by local artists. 11am
  
• Flippin’ Great Pinball: $25 Sunday Funday. Every Sunday spend a fun-filled time with the family for only $25 plus tax at the arcade! Our normal all-day family admission of $34.99 is just $25 and that includes up to a family of 6 (two adults and four kids). Experience affordable family fun that everyone will enjoy. Noon-8pm
  
• E Peck Greene Park (Behind the LeRoy Collins Library): Food Not Bombs Free Mealshare. We offer free vegetarian/vegan food, water, coffee, personal care & hygiene products, bus passes, and clothing when we have some available to those in need. Contact foodnotbombstally@gmail.com to find out about getting involved. Noon-2pm
  
• LeRoy Collins Library: Tallahassee Go Club Meetings. Come play the captivating ancient game of Go, also known as Baduk, with some friendly games and discussions. Beginners welcome. Visit https://www.tallahasseegoclub.com for more information. 1pm
  
• Gamescape: Pokémon League. Come learn, play, and trade with the Pokémon Trading Card Game and the Pokémon video games! We LOVE seeing new players, so come learn how to play! We play both the Trading Card Game and the Video Game casually and competitively. The store offers lots of different seating arrangements to meet our group's needs, as well as food, drinks, and Pokémon products for purchase. We are also hold regular, officially sanctioned tournaments for Pokémon Trading Card Game and Video Game Competitions! 2-4pm
  
• The Plant: Open Jam. All instruments, all players welcome. 4pm-9pm
  
• Pedro’s: Mariachi Clasico. 6pm
  
• Fermentation Lounge: Open Mic Night Hosted by Conor Churchill. 7pm
  
• Oyster City Brewing: Comedy Night. Come have some laughs with us on Sunday nights! If you are interested in participating in the show, reach out to therealsleepypfloyd@gmail.com 7:30pm
  

• 926: Queer Makers Market. The Queer Tallahassee Artists Collective is proud to present the May edition of the Queer Makers Market at 926 on West Tharpe Street. Come and browse the creations of many of Tallahassee's amazing artists and makers. Admission is free. We will be setting up in the grassy field at the back of the 926 parking lot - just look for the canopies! 11am-3pm
  
• Growler Country: 3rd Annual Star Wars Celebration Weekend. Costume contest, Special drink, Ice cream, Silent Auction with amazing prizes. 11am
  
• Tallahassee Nurseries: Sunday in the Word Garden. * In partnership with esteemed Florida artist Katee Tully, Tallahassee Nurseries presents a celebration of poetry and spoken word. We welcome several locally-renowned poets and writers as they share pieces of prose.* 3:30pm
  

MONDAY, 5/6

• Just One More: Bingo. 5pm-6:30pm
  
• The Getaway Grille and Bar: Margarita Monday, Open-Mic Night hosted by The Saltwater Cowboy. 5:30pm-8pm
  
• American Legion Hall: Cha Cha - Weekly Lessons. 6:15pm/$5
  
• Hangar 38: Bingo. 6:45pm
  
• Vino Beano: Tipsy Trivia. 7pm
  

TUESDAY, 5/7

• Blue Tavern: Happy Hour. 5pm
  
• The Getaway Grille: Tuesday Night Bikes and Trikes. 6pm
  
• Oyster City Brewing Company: Tuesday Night Beer-go! 6pm
  
• Crafty Crab: BOOMIN' Karaoke. 7pm
  
• Gamescape: Hobby Night. Slay the grey together! Join your fellow gamers and turn your pile of grey miniatures into a battle ready army. Need some painting tips? Feel free to ask at hobby night. You can bring any miniature for any game to paint. 7pm
  
• Ology Midtown: Jazz Jam Sessions. 7pm
  
• Island Wings: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Brass Tap in Midtown: Trivia. 1st Tuesday of the month is General Knowledge with rotating themes the rest of the month. 7pm
  
• House of Music: Tuesday Trivia & Karaoke. 7pm
  
• American Legion Hall: Tallahassee Swing Band Tuesday Night Dance. 7:30pm
  
• Burrito Boarder: Karaoke with DJ Roldus. 8pm
  
• Fire Bettys: Comedy Night. 8pm
  
• Poor Pauls: Trivia. 8pm/21+
  
• Blue Tavern: Bluesday Tuesday with Bill Ricci. Every Tuesday is Blues Day @ the Blue Tavern and Blues Meets Girl is a Tallahassee favorite. This perfect, intimate venue provides just what you need for both a mid-week break and authentic blues music experience. 8pm/$5
  
• 4th Quarter: Professor Jim's Tuesday Night Trivia. Popular for a reason! 8pm
  
• Argonaut Coffee: Trivia Tuesday. 8pm
  
• The Sound Bar: Karaoke. 8pm
  
• Fire Betty’s: Open Mic Comedy Night. 8pm/21+
  
• 926: Tacos and Trivia. 9pm
  

WEDNESDAY, 5/8

• Sugar and Spice Tally: Game Night. Join us every Wednesday Night for community game night. Bring your own or use ours! Let me know if you need to reserve space for a large group. Free to attend! 5pm
  
• Goodwood: Wonderful Wednesday. 6pm/$5
  
• Burrito Boarder: D&D Night. 6pm
  
• Level 8 Rooftop Lounge: Trivia. 6pm
  
• La Florida Coffee & Wine: Trivia Night. 6pm
  
• The Great Games Library: Open Game Night. 6pm/free
  
• American Legion Hall: Sue Boyd Country Western and More Dance Class. Session 2 - Beginner 6:30 to 7:45 pm What: East Coast Swing and Waltz. Cost: $8.00 per person. Wear comfortable shoes you can turn in. 7:45 to 8:15 - Practice dance with paid admission. 8:15 to 9:30: Intermediate - 2 Step and WCS. $8.00 per person or $13.00 for both classes. Vaccines are required. Face masks are optional. Changing partners is optional. 6:30pm
  
• Perry Lynn’s Smokehouse in Quincy: Wed Night Open Mic w/ Steven Ritter and Friends. 6:30pm
  
• Hangar 38: Trivia. 6:45pm
  
• Oyster City Brewing Tallahassee: Trivia. Teams up to 6 players for three rounds with 10 questions and a tie breaker each round. Winners are by round so don’t worry if you need to come late or can’t stay the whole time! Prizes include a round of beer, a 6 pack and a gift card! 7pm
  
• Proof: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Vino Beano: Wine Bingo. 7pm
  
• Fermentation Lounge: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Blue Tavern: Wednesday Open Mic with Doc Russell. The open mic night that has run continuously for almost 20 years, once housed at the Warehouse, lives on at the Blue Tavern. Doc Russell continues as the host with the most. Sign up starts at 7:45pm/free to attend
  
• House of Music: Bar Bingo! Free to Play & Late Night Karaoke. 7pm
  
• Fire Betty’s: Karaoke! 8pm/21+/free
  
• Dukes and Dotties: College Night and Line Dancing Lessons. 8pm
  
• Finnegans Wake: Trivia. 8pm
  
• The Sound Bar: Open Mic Night. 8pm
  
• South Station: Summer Movie Nights. 8:30pm/free
  
• The Bark: Karaoke with DJ Nathan. Best karaoke DJ in town. 9pm
  
• Peppers: Karaoke. 9pm
  
• 926: Dragged Out Wednesday. 10pm
  

I'm so glad I found this sub-reddit and found out more about what Devil Corps were, even though I wish I knew more about them when before I worked for one. I worked for hparas consulting in NJ, I saw someone interviewed with them on this thread and luckily they didn't accept the offer, glad to hear it honestly. This job was weird everyone was nice but some felt fake.
My interview experience wasn't that bad, I met the owner who was a nice guy and he seemed down to earth. What he didn't specify however, was that this was going to be a cold-calling job or the length at which you would have to travel for this job. Day one of training and I'm about to go out into the field and my guy texts me an address for Wilmington, DE with traffic that's almost 2 hours from where I live. I make something up like I don't have anything to pay the tolls with so I then go with someone who's closer, but was still in PA. I try to ask him questions about the job, he responds, "oh yeah yeah yeah" to everything I ask even if it wasn't a yes or no question. I never got a straight answer from anyone ever. A common theme from my experience.
By the way, I only worked here for three weeks and I felt like 3 months. They called me every night after training, zoom calls at 5 that were mind-numbing. In a nut-shell the Zoom calls were, "Did you make that sale?" yes, then good job, if no, keep at it and hustle harder. Homework that was tedious and time-consuming. A huge red-flag was that no one mentioned the parent company by name it was just, "the company." They mentioned a NYC branch and a Boston branch that somehow related to the parent company. 2nd thing that was weird, "the company" payed for three or four salesman to move to NJ from Boston and they all stayed in one house together. 3rd thing that was weird, they brought in the woman who was a higher-up for the "the company" or something I don't even know, along with two other guys for no reason. Wearing all Chanel and Gucci this woman started shitting on Uber drivers and Doormen for some reason. At one point, one of the "executives" said that she wants you to make her more money. Another weird thing, they move offices constantly and get rid of people constantly. The moment I quit/got fired they moved offices, also it was a pain trying to get paid. I can rant about this for a while, but I don't want to go on that much of tangent, but that's what I thought was weird.

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Evliya Çelebi's Seyahatname with modern Turkish, first book, volume 2
Ancak Abaza vilâyetinde ilk başta mamur olan Çaçlar aşiretidir: Mikrilce de konuşurlar. Zira Faşa Nehri'nin karşı tarafı sâfî Mikrilistan'dır. Çaç beyzâdeleri vardır. İsmi (—) (—), on bin korkusuz ve cesur askere sahiplerdir. Bir mezhepte değil, vahşi, yolkesen ve cesur kavimdir.
Translate: However, The first tribe to appear in the province of Abaza, are the Chachs. They also speak Megrelian. Because the opposite side of the Fasha River is pure Megrelistan. They have Chach beyzades(rulers). They have ten thousand fearless and brave soldiers. Not all in one denomination, they are a savage, bandit and brave people.
As can be seen, contrary to what others claim, Evliya Çelebi did not write that the Chach tribe of the Abkhazians spoke Megrelian. He clearly says they also knew Megrelian that does not mean they don't speak Abkhaz. Moreover, the fact that Evliya Çelebi recorded them as Chach is direct evidence that this family called themselves by this name among the Abkhazians. This family mentioned here is the Chachba family. The fact that they are referred to as Shervashidze in Georgian records, but call themselves Chachba among the Abkhazians may indicate that they do not see themselves as Georgian-Kartvel as an identity. I even see some Georgians who shamelessly call the name Chachba "fake" and claim that this family has considered themselves Georgians since time immemorial....
The interesting part is that Çelebi does not mention anything about the Georgian language. Evliya Çelebi explained very clearly that this tribe also knew the Megrelian language because they were neighbors with Megrelia.
he recorded as " Not all in one denomination" this probably indicates that there are people of different faiths among them. They were probably mostly mixed Christian-Muslim population with also some Pagans.
I have been wanting to translate and partially interpret Evliya Çelebi's chapter on Abkhazia for a long time. This is just a small part of that section. I will translate and comment on the entire chapter in the near future.

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Has anyone effectively color graded their videos? If so, what settings did you use and what were the results?
iPhone lets you shoot in Log profile which gives a wide dynamic and tonal range. You can turn off the auto sharpening, etc. It's ProRes also helps apply de-noisers effectively but at the cost of file size.
I've heard other apps like Filmic pro can shoot Log but that it's a fake log and you're better off just shooting with the native camera app. Any validity to that?

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Welcome back to this write-up about a complicated artist's complicated book.
Don't be absurd, of course you have time!
Part 1 Part 2
Now that we've established what the book is about, let's take a look at The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls' rich publication and re-publication history. I promise, it's more scandalous than it sounds.

“HER SPEECH IS NOTHING, YET THE UNSHAPÈD USE OF IT DOTH MOVE THE HEARERS TO COLLECTION” (HORATIO, ACT IV SCENE 5)

As I've mentioned in the last installment, TAFWVG has been released multiple times, in multiple editions – four of them, to be precise. And I wish I was exaggerating when I say that three of those four releases have been veritable masterclasses in testing your audience's loyalty. In case you're wondering: the secret is to alter your source material in strange and unpredictable ways, while also constantly messing up on the customer service front.
Most of this installment condenses and combines these two excellent write-ups, which contain most of the receipts: TAFWVG: A History / The Bloody Crumpets: An Inconsistent History. 🔍 Anything that isn't sourced with links is in there.
It turns out there are good reasons why most fiction authors don't do real-life inserts so overtly – but in EA's case, it did make sense, and was warmly embraced by fans upon release. When the book first came out, some of these people had been familiar to the fanbase for years, frequently appearing in candid pictures on EA's blog and leaving comments on the forum; some were also involved in her music and show. Recognizing that one character's name was a pun on So-and-So's username was a nice Easter egg for veteran fans, and newcomers got to learn about fandom lore; it brought the story to life and the community closer.
One side character, for instance, was named after EA's best friend from Chicago, whom many fans had had direct interactions with: she co-ran EA's online stores during the Enchant years, and acted as admin, main moderator and EA-liaison of the forum throughout its near-decade of existence.
One crazy girl who thinks she's a pirate is 100% OC... but her description and illustrations 🪞 were explicitly modeled after pictures of Bloody Crumpet Vecona (one of EA's back-up performers), who became the first stand-in pirate character 📺 in the live show. Captain Vecona was also celebrated as the “Asylum Seamstress” 🪞🔍: most of the iconic early Opheliac costumes were her design. She had a following of her own, even prior to touring with EA, for her professional costuming work and her collaborations with German photographer Angst-im-Wald. (Shitty archive link, sorry - most of those badass photoshoots seem to have been lost to time. But if you were a European goth in the mid-2000s, search your old hard drives: I promise you, you've downloaded some of those pictures.)
Inmate “Veronica”, a cabaret girl diagnosed as a nymphomaniac, was a doppelgänger of her namesake, burlesque dancer Veronica Varlow 🪞 – the ride-or-die Crumpet, whom EA often lovingly called her “husband”, saying they had been lovers in a previous lifetime. Veronica was part of every single tour post-Opheliac release and developed a solid fanbase of her own, which she maintains to this day.
Even the brave and well-mannered talking rats (oh yeah, there's talking rats in the Asylum story) were named after EA's real-life pet rodents, who had featured in glamorous photoshoots. (Slight NSFW for sideboob.)
You get the general gimmick by now: EA turns her personal life into art, which she turns into a fictional world, which she then prompts the audience to inhabit with her. The whole Asylum concept was essentially an open invitation to self-insert parasocial fanfic: “Here's this very personal world that I've created, in which I, the artist, exist as a fictional persona, alongside all these quirky inmate characters that you've seen in my stage show, and who are avatars my real-life friends. Come on in, make it your home, and populate it with your own zany Victorian alter egos.”
And it worked, to an extent: like I've said, most fans were on board before they'd even read the book, and the Asylum became “real” in that sense.
But it can get a bit disorienting to find your place in a fantasy world, when said world keeps changing based on the author's shifting feelings about her story, her target audience, and her friends... plus, you'd love to read the book, but the darn thing still hasn't shipped.

ROUNDS 1 & 2: THE HARDCOVERS

~A MINOR ADJUSTMENT~
TAFWVG was first teased in spoken-word bonus tracks 🎤 on a 2007 EP. In spring 2008, EA started reading excerpts from her upcoming book at live shows. Early excerpts from the Asylum narrative featured a character named “Jo Hee” 📺; in the story, she is a cellist from “the Orient” (love that Victorian geography) and Emily's childhood confidante.
In real life, Lady Jo Hee, Center of Happiness, was the OG Bloody Crumpet. 📺 She had been there since from the very first Opheliac show in Chicago in 2006, accompanying EA on the electric cello – the only instrumentalist ever featured in the line-up besides EA herself.
In August 2008, Alternative Magazine ran a feature about the upcoming book.🔍, teasing some of its pages. Fans were quick to spot a very sisterly picture of EA and Jo Hee 🪞, borrowed from a fan-favorite photoshoot of the two. (An aside: this specific picture also became famous in the fandom for another reason. At some point, someone made an edit replacing Jo Hee with Amy Lee from Evanescence; for a while, it kept making the rounds in alt/goth internet circuits, casual onlookers kept getting excited about it, and Plague Rats kept having to step in and disappoint them.)
Anyway. For reasons undisclosed by either party, Jo Hee quietly left the Crumpets after that tour, never to be mentioned again.
By the time the book came out in late 2009, the character of “Jo Hee” had been renamed “Sachiko”. (I guess it didn't matter whether the one non-white character in the story was meant to be Korean or Japanese.) Jo Hee's face had been edited out of the (still clearly recognizable) photograph, and eerily replaced with Nondescript_Asian_Woman_023.jpg from Shutterstock.🪞
You'd think that the switcheroo would have raised more eyebrows, or at least some awkward chuckles, among fans of an artist whose better-known lyrics include “If I Photoshop you out of every picture, I could / Go quietly, quiet - but would that do any good?”. Yet to my knowledge, it did not. Possibly because, by the time people got around to reading the book, some fans had been waiting for their copy longer than Jo Hee had been a Crumpet.
A ROCKY RELEASE
Although the book seemed just about ready for publication at the time of those 2008 readings, the initial release was delayed by technical difficulties (some data had been lost during the editing process). And then delayed some more when, a year later, EA cancelled the US leg of a tour and slammed the door on Trisol, accusing the label owner of exploitation and embezzlement (he was allegedly selling fake tickets to her shows on a phony website). In August 2009, she signed over to The End Records, and we were back in business, baby!
Not only was The Book on its way to the presses, but the long-awaited release would coincide with a “Deluxe” re-issue of Opheliac, with new cover art and bonus tracks. For $100, you could pre-order the “Ultimate Book/Album Collection”, which included the revamped album, the book, a t-shirt, a tote bag, a recipe booklet and some bonus digital downloads, to be shipped in October. Or, for a more up-close-and-personal experience, you could purchase a VIP bundle for her upcoming shows in the fall: $50 plus ticket price would get you the book, a swag bag, and a meet-and-greet. (VIP tickets were capped at 20 slots per show; from what I gather, informal interactions with fans at the merch table were becoming overwhelming on previous tours. Again: fast-growing audience.)
Alas, due to printing issues this time, the making and shipping were soon pushed back to December. VIP ticket-holders were assured, at the start of the tour, that their copies would be shipped first as soon as the books were printed, with handwritten dedications from EA. Purchasers of the “Book/Album” bundle would receive theirs shortly thereafter. This seemed like a reasonable trade-off for a minor delay, and no one was too upset. (Well, some might have been, but at that juncture in Asylum history – for reasons that will become apparent in a later installment, when we get to EA's altercations with her fans – I guess they knew better than to get mouthy about it.)
The bundles came first... and in many cases, “bundle” was a generous term, because they arrived incomplete. When the t-shirt or tote bag weren't missing, they were printed the wrong colors. Many digital download codes had to be requested via email. The book itself was beautiful, but poorly bound, typo-ridden, and missing entire pages. (This was largely fixed in the second hardcover release.)
As far as I know, everyone who complained to the distributor got their money back – and I imagine it was a nice surprise when some items showed up, inexplicably, months after they had already been refunded. But it was still a bit of a “sad trombone” moment for many loyal fans, who had to request a refund on the Ultimate Super-Cool Preorder Exclusive Bundle to purchase the book and album separately.
As for the VIP package books, those didn't start shipping until late 2010 – a whole year after the official book release, months after less invested fans had already received their non-preordered copies. Worse: none of the books were signed, much less lovingly adorned with a personalized handwritten note as EA had promised. (And had tweeted about doing during the year-long shipping delay!) After enough fans meekly expressed their intense disappointment, EA's BFF-forum-admin mailed out signed bookplates that people could stick in their book in lieu of a personalized autograph. No real explanation was given. As far as I know, this particular let-down didn't cause a mass exodus of disappointed fans – but, in the midst of other goings-on, it certainly contributed to eroding many fans' trust in EA's word.
EA TAKES ON HOLLYWOOD
The 2011 release of the largely-identical second edition was better planned and overall uneventful, which gives me time to catch you up on contemporaneous events – like the reason EA ditched the Opheliac red and went platinum blonde. 🪞
Around that time, EA got herself a supporting role and a solo number 🎵📺 in The Devil's Carnival, Darren Lynn Bousman's psychocircus-themed movie musical. (If you're scrambling to place the name: depending on what kind of deviant you are, DLB is either the guy who directed half of the Saw movies or the guy who directed Repo! The Genetic Opera.)
If you've clicked the last link: see the bad boy greaser she's dancing with at the end of the song? That's the titular “Scorpion”, played by Marc Senter, and they were totally hitting on each other while shooting this. 📝🪞 They've been an item for twelve years now, in what appears to be a loving and mutually supportive relationship, and they seem besotted with each other. That's only marginally relevant to the story, but it's nice to know that at least one nice thing worked out in all this mess.
Back to 2011. Through her friendship with DLB and the Devil's Carnival cast (a motley crew of top-shelf B-listers 🔍 that included Bill Moseley, Paul Sorvino, the chick from Spy Kids, and the clown from Slipknot), EA also made a bunch of new industry connexions. That's how she came to decide that TAFWVG was meant to be more than a book, more than a live show: it had to become... a musical. Full company, full orchestra, big names, the works. Her 2012 album, Fight Like a Girl, was written and recorded with this project in mind, with most songs narrating events from the book and EA singing as various characters – which turns love duets into finger food for Dr. Freud. 🎵
Shortly before the album release, EA announced on Twitter that the Asylum Musical was scheduled to debut in the London West End, under the direction of Bousman, in 2014. "Casting calls to be announced soon!" (They were not.)

ROUND 3: THE AUDIOBOOK

2014 came, and brought... another TAFWG re-release announcement.
But wait – this time, it was going to be an audiobook! EA had been teasing one since before the original release, so people were quite excited. (It also sounded like a more achievable goal for the calendar year than a West End debut.) In early 2014, recording was well on its way, and the 6-CD boxset was due to ship in May.
PLEASE STAND BY, YOUR ASYLUM WILL BE PROCESSED SHORTLY
First, EA discovered “a new microphone ... that, upon testing, produced a recording of far greater beauty and expressive quality”, which naturally meant the whole thing had to be re-recorded. Two month's delay. No biggie. Our girl is a perfectionist.
But our girl also had to write, coordinate and rehearse her upcoming “Asylum Experience” – an afternoon-long interactive theater event, directed by Darren Lynn Bousman, which would be performed at five dates of the Vans Warped Tour in August. (It's not exactly the West End, but it's a start! 🔍) And then she had to prepare for the filming of the Devil's Carnival sequel in the fall. So, obviously, the July deadline was not met. When she finally gave an update in late 2014, the ETA was basically “we are ever so close, but the audiobook gets there when it gets there; feel free to ask for a refund if you're not along for the ride”.
And then she signed with a literary agent. TAFWVG was going to be made into a “real” book, that readers could purchase in stores for a normal price and request from their local library – big event! (More for EA, I think, than for her fans. By that point, the second edition could be purchased as a PDF, and I believe most people who pre-ordered the audiobook had already read the story.) But this involved tailoring the narrative to a more general audience, which meant portions of the book had to be re-written... which meant further delays.

...Besides, and let’s have a teacup of “honesty time” here, if the new Asylum becomes an internationally best-selling novel, not only can we enact more change for good, but the Asylum Musical takes over Broadway faster, the Asylum Movie takes over theatres faster, and YOU are all dressed up as rats/inmates in said movie, you guessed it, faster (“Asylum Audiobook Announcement from EA”📝)

Well, you know what they say in show business: if you can't make it in London, there's always New York.
As EA assured her fans, their patience would be rewarded with a brand new, professionally polished version of the story – and in due time, I guess, a role in the movie. (“Let's hope she doesn't find another new microphone!” 🐀)
From that point on, there seems to have been an ever-widening gap between EA's enthusiasm and fan expectations. When audiobook snippets 🎤.mp3) were released, many fans were unimpressed by the oddly flat, overproduced recording (turns out a microphone can be so good it's a problem! 🐀), which highlighted EA's stilted, uncanny diction and not-quite-transatlantic accent. That caught everyone off guard, because she didn't use to read like... that. Even die-hard apologists had to concede through gritted teeth that, tragically, it was giving William Shatner. (If you're curious, you can find more previews here 🎤📝, along with EA's captions.)
Fans weren't just getting irritated with the various delays and excuses: they were baffled, angry, and embarrassed. When EA clapped back “U know U can just get a refund, right? That is totally within your power to do” on social media, and it came out that requests for refunds had been getting ignored for weeks or months 🐀, seasoned fans were like “Yeah, that tracks.” The whole never-ending ordeal was just starting to feel silly.
All told, the audiobook took two years to complete, with little to no new music in the interim. Two years is a long time for a young-leaning audience! Fans who had preordered at the end of their sophomore year were graduating high school by the time it came out. Others who had been in the middle of undergrad were now looking for full-time jobs. People had gotten pregnant, given birth and potty trained, or had houses built from the ground up. Genuine ultra-fans of the book had had time to... presumably, read other books. (“I wonder how many people passed away waiting for this shitty audiobook to be finished?”)
When the audiobook came out, many long-time Plague Rats had defected, either lamenting the misguided decisions of their favorite artist, or just calling EA a money-grabbing fraud and a lying liar. And a number of patient and unbothered fans had, quite simply, grown out of their EA phase.
Your humble servant, for one, ordered the audiobook the week it went on sale, and stuck with that preorder through five address changes and two graduation ceremonies. Now, bear in mind: through all the ups and downs, even as the charm dispelled, my taste in music evolved, and my perception of EA herself changed, I never formally stopped considering myself a fan. (Mama didn't raise no quitter.) To this day, and to my profound embarrassment, I give enough of a shit that I'm taking the time to write this story at all, and that I was able to draft most of itfrom memory.(Mama didn't teach me how to prioritize.) Well, get this: I have never once listened to the audiobook. I remember unwrapping the signed boxset (minimal artwork, flimsy cardboard, no liner notes), thinking “this could have been an email”, telling myself I'd get around to it for old time's sake... and then I never did, because it was ten hours long, and I just couldn't force myself to care about that story anymore. I was not an isolated case.
In light of this, I apologize in advance for any potential errors in the following paragraphs; others listened so posers like me wouldn't have to 🔍, and I'm going off of their word. The new and improved edition was, indeed, a different book – in that a bunch of things that felt meaningful to fans had been either reworked or excised.
THE AUDIOBOOK EDITS
The hospital narrative had been shortened in favor of the asylum story, and the controversial “Drug / Suicide / Cutting” diaries had been scrapped. Part of the fanbase applauded this decision, but others were disappointed 🐀, as they had found the diaries to be the most (some said only) personal, authentic, and insightful chapters in the book.
Curse words, some abuse, and all mentions of abortion had also been purged. It made the book tamer, but not by much... because Emilie's age had been changed from 27 to 17. Apparently, the literary agent had suggested this to make the book more marketable to a Young Adult audience. No other biographical detail had been altered, so the main narrator was now a 17 year old girl with no parents but an established music career, who checks in by herself into a high-security adult ward, no questions asked. (I'm still perplexed by this one. Did they not expect YA readers to know how hospitals work...?)
The pirate captain, formally known by her “mass of tangled black hair”, was now... a blonde. According to EA, this was a purely aesthetic change: it made the three main Asylum girls a redhead, a blonde and a brunette, which would look better in the stage adaptation. Between the lines, it also distanced the character from its original dark-haired muse: Vecona, who had left the Crumpets in 2008 after a rumored falling-out with EA over unpaid costume work.
The minor characters based on EA's old Chicago friends had been discarded entirely. Which likely made sense for EA – she hadn't lived there in years, the friend group had drifted apart as friend groups do, and by that point, there no longer was an EA forum to administrate or comment on – but not so much for her readers. Some fans had grown fond of these fictional inmates (wasn't that the point?), and weren't too happy to see EA symbolically treat them as disposable. Others were saddened that EA would just scrap these remnants of her old life, and of what felt like simpler, happier times in the fandom. Either way, children, this is why you shouldn't get a neck tattoo of your first boyfriend's name, OR openly base the “good guys” in your career-defining book on friends you made in your early twenties.
To compensate for the loss of... most named inmate characters, Veronica was given a much more prominent role in the plot. Namely, instead of being best friends, Veronica and Emily were now... in love! Lovers! Lesbian lovers! Which naturally meant that Veronica had to die. 🔍 Besides, fans famously love it when you pull a gay ship out of thin air between your two main characters, and then kill one of them off so that the other suffers more.
One last one, because I find it especially goofy: a scrappy teddy bear named Suffer, given to Emily by the talking rats, was replaced with...a Very Large Spoon, which gets its very own number in the musical. 🎵 The rationale was that Emily could use the spoon as a weapon in the climactic uprising against the Asylum doctors. Which, fair enough... except that, prior to being a cute and anachronistic 🔍 MacGuffin in the fictional Asylum story, Suffer the Bear had been a beloved mascot🪞 from the early Opheliac live shows. Some still remembered when EA had raised HELL, even starting a #FREESUFFER campaign on Twitter, because she thought someone had stolen Suffer from the stage (it later turned out that he had been misplaced in a flight case). All that noise back in the day... and now Suffer didn't matter anymore? The nerve. “She made shirts and everything!” 🐀
All this to say, reception was lukewarm. EA hadn't performed live since 2014 and the Devil's Carnival sequel had failed to make a splash (despite decent reviews, the franchise and main collaboration fell apart before the end of the promotional tour 🔍). People were checking out. There was only one way to correct this. A true paradigm shift. A fresh start – a new theme?
Hell no. It's another edition of The Asylum for Revisionist Tortureporn Friendfictions!

ROUND 4: THE E-BOOK & THE QUEST FOR THE SPOON OF ROYALS

In 2017, about a year after the audiobook release, EA self-published a digital version of TAFWVG through Amazon. The literary agent hadn't worked out in the end: publishers were put off by how dark the book was, even after the audiobook edits. EA explained that she hadn't been comfortable with some of the alterations in the first place; she respected the agent's input and had tried to give it an honest shot, but in the end, she wanted to do it the way she wanted to do it, solo... and this was it.
EA had reverted a number of the audiobook cuts (including swear words, mentions of abortion, and the narrator's age), but kept most of the changes to the Asylum narrative – namely, the omission of Former Friends Characters, and the romance between Emily and Veronica. In the newsletter announcement, she mentions being in the process of “re-recording the few little bits of the audiobook to reflect the current text version”. Not sure where we're at on that front; it's never been brought up again, and I don't think anyone's checked. (I assume most fans had war flashbacks when they read the word “re-record”, and instantly repressed that part of the communiqué.)
The “Drug / Suicide / Cutting” diaries were still omitted in the first release of the e-book, but re-included as a coda soon after, by popular demand, under the title “Evidence of Insanity” – with fantastical “doctor's annotations” like“W14A seems to have disassociated her own identity, episodic, each lasting for a longer period of time. We suspect she will continue further in this – stronger medication is needed, schedule electroconvulsive therapy.”
A physical paperback edition was released a few months later; in anticipation of this, the e-book was a stripped-down, text-centric version of the story. (Honestly not a bad call, because the digital version from 2012 was a scanned, non-searchable, 1.3GB PDF behemoth – not super Kindle-friendly!) No elaborate backgrounds and color photographs in this edition, but the pages were still illustrated with inserts of rats, keys, teacups, and... hold on... ciphers??🪞
As always in the Asylum, history doesn't repeat itself, but it rhymes. In a throwback to the prelapsarian days of the Enchant Puzzle (remember? the one that no one ever managed to solve?), the e-book illustrations contained puzzles, which formed the master-key to... a scavenger hunt! And in keeping with tradition, the grand prize was an extravagant adornment hand-crafted by EA: the “Spoon of Royals”.🪞📝 Oh my!
Some of the puzzles are simple anagrams that can be solved for keywords. A clickable word within the adjacent text takes you to a password-protected link, which takes you through to an audio file – a song or an atmospheric instrumental that goes with that moment of the story. There are also more complex ciphers that decode into riddles. Each key depicted in the book has a number or letter engraved on it. The total number of rats in the book is apparently significant. One link takes you through to a blank page whose source code contains a list of coordinates from various bridges around the world.
Oh, it was a whole thing. When the book came out, you could send a picture of you doing EA's signature “rat claw” hand sign🪞 to request admission to a private Facebook group (the “Striped Stocking Society”) where people could help each other solve the clues and EA would occasionally pop in for a chat. There was also a series of mysterious newsletters in early 2018, culminating in a Los Angeles event where EA showed up in person to pass on extra puzzle-solving material to a handful of lucky fans (although said material raised more questions that it answered 📝).
Overall, it was a great idea! Although the fanbase was generally smaller and less active after four years without a new tour or album (and a fair amount of other drama, which we have yet to get into), the e-book puzzle did pique people's interest in purchasing yet another version of the same story.
Unfortunately, once again, EA overestimated either how intuitive her fans were, or how invested they would remain. After months of collaborative efforts across multiple platforms, a number of puzzles had been cracked 🔍, but it was still unclear how the individual anagrams and numbers and riddle-solutions all fit together as scavenger hunt clues.
EA kept up the hype for a while, but the few hints that she gave on social media only revealed yet more encryption factors without really helping fans connect the dots. One cipher remained unsolved on Instagram for days and days before EA caved in and hinted at which key to use. She did helpfully specify that if you didn't know how to read music, you'd better start learning. (...Was this a fun puzzle, or a prep school admission test?) The in-person LA event had also sown some confusion as to the rules and constraints of the game: would winning involve traveling to a physical location? That didn't seem very fair. EA had mentioned physically burying some items – but could you solve the puzzle from a distance? Is the Spoon of Royals literally just buried under the Shakespeare Bridge in Los Angeles, California?? 🐀
I'm just saying: if this had come up in 2008? People in corsets and platform boots would have been out there digging.
But this was 2018. As we've mentioned, the core of EA's active fanbase (a lot of whom had been teens and young adults when she was touring Opheliac) was fast aging out of the years when most folks have the spare time, dedication, or desire to essentially do super-involved homework out of love for their favorite singer. Uncovering new songs was a fun perk the first year – but after the new album came out in 2018, none of the passwords led to exclusive material anymore. It felt a bit lacklustre for something so labor-intensive.
(The new music itself wasn't a rallying point either. Behind the Musical was, quite literally, an intended vocal guide for the Asylum musical – so, basically a collection of demos. The sound was VERY Broadway Revival, somewhat Phantomish 🎵, in a way that's either good or bad depending on who's saying it. The violins, to fans' chagrin, sounded all-MIDI; no sign of actual instrumental recordings. EA sang all the parts herself, as she had on her previous album. I'm not saying there's no merit in a one-woman Andrew Lloyd Weber tribute. Many old fans enjoyed the new material well enough, some even really liked it – but most agreed that it just didn't hit like her earlier stuff used to, and that it felt rather unfinished.)
Unlike with the Enchant Puzzle, the prize itself was not much of an intrinsic motivation. While the Faerie Queen's Wings were a straightforward concept that evoked EA's own signature stage costumes, the Spoon of Royals was... a large spoon attached to a necklace, community-college-art-teacher style. It looked impractical both as a spoon and as a necklace, and more importantly, I'm not sure how many readers felt a deep emotional connection to the spoon in the story. The spoon that had usurped Suffer the Bear, no less!
In short: people gave up on the game because it was too hard, it came too late, and they had other things to do.
Thus, the Spoon of Royals remains unclaimed to this day, and I doubt I'll see anyone crack the puzzle in this lifetime. The Striped Stocking Society FB group was terminated in 2020, around the same time a bunch of fansites folded and EA closed her Instagram comments for the first time. By that point, both EA and her fans had bigger rats to skewer – but we have a ways to go before we reach that part of the story.
I would encourage you to give the puzzle a shot for the hell of it (in case you're a cryptography nerd and currently under house arrest or in a full-body cast) but... I just tried a bunch of the links, and the passwords don't work anymore. So I guess that's that. To quote old Bill by way of conclusion: “Much ado about nothing”.

ROUND TOO-MANY: I'LL SEE YOU ON BROADWAY OR I'LL SEE YOU IN HELL

So, what now? Well, not much.
By the late 2010s, what kept many fans semi-invested – if nothing else, because it clearly meant so much to EA herself – was the prospect of an upcoming stage musical adaptation. The way EA talked about it 📺, it was very much a “when”, not an “if”. Sure, ten years on, we were still collectively stuck in the Asylum, but it would at least be a new format – and a return to EA's main field of expertise, ie songwriting and performing. Not only did the core fanbase long for new music and new shows, but Fight Like a Girl and Behind the Musical had brought in small influxes of new fans who were very eager for any chance to see her live. So whether it was out of genuine enthusiasm for the project, or out of “let EA have her musical so we can maybe finally move on”, the fanbase was overall supportive.
Even though people still joked about the 2012 announcement of a “2014 West End debut” (seriously, what was she thinking?), EA had really buckled down in the intervening years, and it looked like the project was plausibly well underway. As in, we had more than just EA's word to go on: the involvement of other people, who did not reside in the Asylum, seemed to confirm that the musical was a thing.

[CONTINUED IN COMMENTS because Reddit is being ridiculous about the character count. I swear I was under 40,000!]

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TW: Potential transphobia, sexism, misogyny and children being awful
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Like recently been thinking and was like 'what if I'm just a girl so caught in her internalised misogyny that I want to be a boy for a "better life"?' and just feel like shit like I don't belong in trans spaces for second guessing myself. Like I see people say that they knew from young they were trans since they were a kid even though I didn't until middle / highschool when I found out about the whole world of being trans which resonated with me and recontextualised a lot of the little quirks I had as a kid like always hanging around the boys, playing army with them, hating the idea of wearing dresses or skirts and when I was around six, the idea of my mother saying that I wasn't a tomboy because I wasn't rugged pissed me off so much that I "became a full on tomboy just to spite her" (now I realise was prob because I was uncomfortable with the idea of me being feminine). And yet, I still feel like a fraud. I always ask myself "what if I regret having top surgery?" and I get ridiculed by my parents, society and the de-trans movement even though I'd never go to them willingly but am scared they're going to use my case to hurt everyone else even if I don't want them to.
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But then there's days where I just see my overgrown chest as tumours or signs that I'm fat for having "manboobs" even if it's biological. Like they get in the way, impact my rest as I can't lie on my chest comfortably without it feeling like I have two permanent obstructions that make me uncomfy every time I do anything chest related be it changing, sleeping or looking at my body when naked. It's just gross, like they don't belong. But I'm unsure if it is dysphoria as it could well be "my chest is too big, I need a reduction" as like a cis woman problem. Idk.
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Personally, I see myself as a transmasc demiboy / enby but sometimes I wonder if I'm just faking it for some unknwon reason. It can't be for attention as I'm afraid to tell anyone apart from anonymously on the internet or to my closest friends (though that info did leak so some transphobes do know now from a friend of a friend who told them) but I still feel like I've just done this for some alternate purpose or smth for some reason I don't even know personally. Especially since my dysphoria isn't guilt or shame or real disgust and more of boils down to my fustration of it getting in the way of daily life like mentioned when I lie down as I'm a chest sleeper, when I move too close to a table and I look like anime fanservice or even more annoyingly when I hug people. I love giving hugs to my friends, it's my love language. But I keep having hugs rejected as even if I bind, friends keep telling me how uncomfortable they feel hugging me as my they'll feel my boobs in the process even though I painstakingly try to keep them flat and unfeelable. I fucking hate it. Wish I was just born flat tbh. It would save me the trouble and I was already prepared for the mockery that came with not having big assets as a woman and fully was ready to embrace it before life had other plans and I still got mocked by ex-friends (they said that I should never go to certaint countries as due to my chest, I would be a prime target for kidnapping to be sold into the sex trade. Needless to say it didn't help my hatred towards my chest, made it worse and I am no longer friends with them. Also to add to the horror, this was in elementary school. You heard that right... Kids can be cruel.
And even after all that, even if I've hated it ever since they grew, idk. I feel like I'm still faking as it's just my chest and everything else is fine. Like sure, I love being called a boy but I didn't like it back at the start of middle school but suddenly I now do and like it. It's really strange and confusing to me. Even if I like the boy stuff while I still identified as agender (ik that's not how it works so ik I'm not now). Like I don't feel dysphoria for the rest of my body the same way I do for my chest if I do at all. Like I don't care that I look feminine on most days though when ever height is brought up around me I wish I was 6ft or taller. I wish my voice was deeper but don't really wanna use T or get surgery, I just wanna do voice training to have a deeper voice even if it doesn't do much, idk why it's not that big of a deal to me as my chest is. Or after the monthly blood letting ritual, when my face gets rounder, plumper and I feel upset for having a fem face again (it goes back to normal in about a week or less). But like when I looked in the mirror, saw my upper lip growing hair again and my facing having similar acne formations as cis guys in my country, idk. I didn't feel disgusted as usual. I really couldn't tell u why but I just didn't shave as usual or hate it this time. It's weird. Same with the leg stuff as I started wearing long dress pants which makes me feel happy about my body. Idk. And yet, I still feel like a fraud. Life is weird even if my actions point to me being trans, part of me is still like "no, you're lying for the attention, ur a tomboy, deal with it" . I just don't understand myself anymore and kinda just wanna vent / look for guidance ig. Idk. Sorry if I offended anyone with my post if it is offensive.
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TLDR: I feel like I'm a cis girl faking being a boy because I don't think I'm experiencing dysphoria or atleast the way most do.

Il semble pas fonctionnel, ça bug et il y a énormément de compte fake

[Encerrado] Fortaleza 0 x 0 Vasco

Gols Fortaleza: N/D Gols Vasco: N/D
Escalações:

Fortaleza (4-3-3)	Vasco (3-4-3)
João Ricardo, Tinga, Brítez, Titi, Felipe Jonatan (Bruno Pacheco), José Welison (Hércules), Matheus Rossetto (Kervin Andrade), Pochettino, Yago Pikachu (Marinho), Lucero, Machuca (Moisés)	Léo Jardim, Robert Rojas (Zé Gabriel), Maicon, Léo, Paulo Henrique, Hugo Moura (Galdames), Mateus Carvalho (Sforza), Lucas Piton, Rayan (Adson), Vegetti, David (Rossi)
Suplentes:	Suplentes:
Santos, Dudu, Pedro Augusto, Emmanuel Martínez, Luquinhas, Kauan, Pedro Rocha	Keiller, Puma Rodríguez, Medel, Victor Luis, JP, Guilherme Estrella, Clayton
Técnico: Juan Vojvoda	Técnico: Rafael Paiva

Arbitragem: Matheus Delgado Candançan (Árbitro Principal), Alex Ang Ribeiro (Assistente 1), Daniel Paulo Ziolli (Assistente 2), Rafael Carlos Salgueiro Lima (Quarto Árbitro)
Estatísticas
N/D

Vídeos

18/1T Chute de fora da área defendido de Tomás Pochettino do Fortaleza contra o Vasco (0:15) 22/1T Chute de fora da área defendido de Paulo Henrique do Vasco contra o Fortaleza (0:20) 28/1T Chute dentro da área para fora de Tomás Pochettino do Fortaleza contra o Vasco (0:41) 36/1T Chute de dentro da área defendido de Yago Pikachu do Fortaleza contra o Vasco (0:27) 39/1T Chute dentro da área para fora de Juan Lucero do Fortaleza contra o Vasco (0:13) 46/1T Chute de dentro da área na trave de Tomás Pochettino do Fortaleza contra o Vasco (0:34) 05/2T Chute para fora de fora da área de Pablo Galdames do Vasco contra o Fortaleza (0:25) 09/2T 🟨 Cartão amarelo de Mateus Carvalho do Vasco contra o Fortaleza (0:37) 15/2T Chute de fora da área defendido de José Welison do Fortaleza contra o Vasco (0:33) 19/2T 🟨 Cartão amarelo de Juan Sforza do Vasco contra o Fortaleza (0:10) 46/2T Chute de dentro da área defendido de Kervin Andrade do Fortaleza contra o Vasco (0:24) 48/2T Chute dentro da área para fora de Adson do Vasco contra o Fortaleza (0:22) 50/2T 🟨 Cartão amarelo de Vegetti do Vasco contra o Fortaleza (0:20)
Match Thread: https://www.reddit.com/futebol/comments/1chx3w9/match_thread_copa_do_brasil_fortaleza_x_vasco/