Headaches, nausea and back pain
Migraine
2009.01.10 13:43 Migraine
A community of headache disease sufferers. Whether migraines, cluster headaches, or whatever head pain you experience. We support each other, and spread knowledge about our various conditions.
2009.12.06 05:16 bowuuuu Back Pain
Creating a space for people to ask questions about their back pain (whether acute or chronic), giving meaning, and providing hope for those suffering. This is a place that does not tolerate misinformation, outdated notions/ideas, BUT promotes anti-fragility and hope. The human body does heal. The human body can overcome pain. The goal for you is to vent, receive advice on navigating your pain, and leave feeling hopeful instead of weak, lost, fragile or broken.
2021.05.22 01:22 joecacti22 thoracicbackpain
This is a place for people with mid back pain to come for support and hopefully gain some relief. This community was started because there seems to be more and more back pain sufferers with very little access to resources for that type of back pain.
2024.05.15 11:51 Secure_Schedule A couple of thoughts regarding Curze
So I've been pondering our favorite psychotic gothGF and what kind of person would be a potential SO for her. Not exactly an enviable position given Curze's general hatred of everything and fundamental trust issues given her visions. My gut reactoon to that quandry was more or less "What if the SO is a Blank?". It would serve to remove a bane of Curze's existance and from what I recall from the OG timeline Big E's presence caused the visions to cease which in turn brought the Night Haunter a rare moment of peace. Now there'd be the little issue of Blanks causing Psykers wizhing range accute pain but then again that seemd proportionate with the Psyker's power and given that Curze is "only"a Precog and resilient enough to burrow thtough a planets crust as an INFANT I image it eouldn't be a deal breaker. For the SO's personality I'd see them as kind and hopeful, the ray of light and human goodness in a pit of filth.
Another point to touch upon is the question of when and how they'd meet given that her mental state would suffer more the longer she'd be on Nostramo on her lonesome. I'd set their meeting at a couple of years after Curze's emergence on the benighted world but still well before Big E's arrival. My reasoning there being that I struggle to believe that anyone sound of mind would stick with her at the "Flaying people alive and tailoring sweaters out of their skin while they watch" stage of savagery that we see in the OG timeline. If we were to intercept her downward spiral before we engage advanced cruelty with a sabilizing influence and a little bit of love we could end up with a degree of "I can fix/help her" that doesn't look as hopeless as the Haunter herself.
With all that preamble taken care of my headcanon would see them meet as the SO was being targeted by gangers in equal parts because of thery status as a Blank and as a social pariah. Curze would do to the lot what Curze tends to do until she'd get into the blank-range and subsequently caught off guard by the sudden lack of visions and (presumably) migrane caused by the SO's presence. The assailants would see their opportunity to strike the befuddled Haunter but be distracted by a suprise tackle from the SO. They are used to the beatings themselves but aren't gonna let the first person to stick up for them regret it, even if its someone as notorious as the Night Haunter. This brief respite would be all that Curze needs to snap back to reality and end the encounter in equal measure. Given the regularity of violence on the Planet the SO (probably) wouldn't be all that horrified by the (comparatively) swift deaths but be unable to engage their savior in conversation due to Curze fleeing the scene to gather themselves. The sudden blinding of the visions snd atypical behavior of that particularly scrawny one being enough to shake even her superhuman composure. With a couple more encounters like that and attempts by the to-be-SO to find and thank their unlikely hero (with some delectable rat kebap or whatever nostrsman destitutes eat) and we'd have a bond between the two.
Mayhap Curze would learn to immitate "normal" human behavior with the SO's voice acting as her surrogate moral compass.
Well that got bigger than I imagined. Regardless I'd greatly appreciate any and all feedback you might have for me.
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Another point to touch upon is the question of when and how they'd meet given that her mental state would suffer more the longer she'd be on Nostramo on her lonesome. I'd set their meeting at a couple of years after Curze's emergence on the benighted world but still well before Big E's arrival. My reasoning there being that I struggle to believe that anyone sound of mind would stick with her at the "Flaying people alive and tailoring sweaters out of their skin while they watch" stage of savagery that we see in the OG timeline. If we were to intercept her downward spiral before we engage advanced cruelty with a sabilizing influence and a little bit of love we could end up with a degree of "I can fix/help her" that doesn't look as hopeless as the Haunter herself.
With all that preamble taken care of my headcanon would see them meet as the SO was being targeted by gangers in equal parts because of thery status as a Blank and as a social pariah. Curze would do to the lot what Curze tends to do until she'd get into the blank-range and subsequently caught off guard by the sudden lack of visions and (presumably) migrane caused by the SO's presence. The assailants would see their opportunity to strike the befuddled Haunter but be distracted by a suprise tackle from the SO. They are used to the beatings themselves but aren't gonna let the first person to stick up for them regret it, even if its someone as notorious as the Night Haunter. This brief respite would be all that Curze needs to snap back to reality and end the encounter in equal measure. Given the regularity of violence on the Planet the SO (probably) wouldn't be all that horrified by the (comparatively) swift deaths but be unable to engage their savior in conversation due to Curze fleeing the scene to gather themselves. The sudden blinding of the visions snd atypical behavior of that particularly scrawny one being enough to shake even her superhuman composure. With a couple more encounters like that and attempts by the to-be-SO to find and thank their unlikely hero (with some delectable rat kebap or whatever nostrsman destitutes eat) and we'd have a bond between the two.
Mayhap Curze would learn to immitate "normal" human behavior with the SO's voice acting as her surrogate moral compass.
Well that got bigger than I imagined. Regardless I'd greatly appreciate any and all feedback you might have for me.
2024.05.15 11:51 FrootYoop He's just not having it anymore; advice?
I'm about at my wits' end here...my situation:
I've had my beautiful 13-year-old, 65-lb. blue merle for 11 years. He's vastly different from almost any other Aussie I've ever met: low-energy, a bit shy, and totally laid back. Of course, he's also affectionate, fun, and like your Aussie, cracker-jack smart.
He is 100% food-motivated; he has zero interest in toys.
He also has exactly zero bad habits. None. No chewing, excessive barking, accidents in the house. He's obedient, fantastic on a leash, sweet. So why am I losing my mind? Because, as of a week ago, he has decided he's done taking the medicine that controls his arthritis and pain. I mean, he's just not having it anymore.
Here's what I have tried using thus far to wrap/disguise his pills:
At risk of sounding overdramatic: it's affecting our peaceful life together, in that now he's afraid to eat from his bowl, or accept any treat from me. As I sit here at my desk at 5:45 a.m., he's lying on the floor next to me, and I'm listening to his stomach growl. It's pitiful.
So before I raise the white flag and call the vet about injections (which I dread), I thought I'd check here. Anyone else have a near-impossible situation like this and come out successful? Any advice appreciated, and sorry for the long treatise.
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I've had my beautiful 13-year-old, 65-lb. blue merle for 11 years. He's vastly different from almost any other Aussie I've ever met: low-energy, a bit shy, and totally laid back. Of course, he's also affectionate, fun, and like your Aussie, cracker-jack smart.
He is 100% food-motivated; he has zero interest in toys.
He also has exactly zero bad habits. None. No chewing, excessive barking, accidents in the house. He's obedient, fantastic on a leash, sweet. So why am I losing my mind? Because, as of a week ago, he has decided he's done taking the medicine that controls his arthritis and pain. I mean, he's just not having it anymore.
Here's what I have tried using thus far to wrap/disguise his pills:
- Pill pockets of varying flavors and textures
- Slicy cheese
- Lunch meats/hot dogs
- A marshmallow
- Meatballs that I made myself, just for him
- Crushing up the pills to powder, and sprinkling them in his food, along with some beef broth and a dusting of Parmesan (his favorite) -- only to have him take one sniff and walk away
- Doing the last-resort forcing to the back of the throat, only to have him beat me at the game every single time (I guess I just don't have the talent; when I push it to the back of his mouth, the split second it takes me to get my good hand to force his beak shut is all he needs to shake free and spit it out).
At risk of sounding overdramatic: it's affecting our peaceful life together, in that now he's afraid to eat from his bowl, or accept any treat from me. As I sit here at my desk at 5:45 a.m., he's lying on the floor next to me, and I'm listening to his stomach growl. It's pitiful.
So before I raise the white flag and call the vet about injections (which I dread), I thought I'd check here. Anyone else have a near-impossible situation like this and come out successful? Any advice appreciated, and sorry for the long treatise.
2024.05.15 11:48 Worried-Friend-5517 Withdrawal headaches…Help!
I’ve been on Ecitalopram (Lexapro) for almost five years. 20mg. Starting the meds was pretty easy for me. Started at 10mg but quickly got to 20mg, and honestly didn’t feel much difference between the doses.
Now I’m one week into tapering (15 mg) and oh my god the headaches are insane. It feels like my neck is squeezed and the tension goes all the way up to the side of my head. I’m on all the available pain killers but nothing helps.
Does anyone have any tips for me on what may help? Has anyone else experienced this and how long before it stopped?
If this is how it is it’s going to take a long time before I dare to go down to 10mg..
Appreciate all the help 🖤
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Now I’m one week into tapering (15 mg) and oh my god the headaches are insane. It feels like my neck is squeezed and the tension goes all the way up to the side of my head. I’m on all the available pain killers but nothing helps.
Does anyone have any tips for me on what may help? Has anyone else experienced this and how long before it stopped?
If this is how it is it’s going to take a long time before I dare to go down to 10mg..
Appreciate all the help 🖤
2024.05.15 11:43 candinos My tumor is back
A week before my 31st birthday I was diagnosed with a meningioma. About the size of a golf-ball behind my left eye. I go in for surgery, they get it out, but the scans showed that it was bone invasive. I wake up a few hours later, and I'm told that the surgery went great, all the neoplasm was removed, but for most of the bone. They could only shave so much of it away because something needed to keep my eyeball in its socket. Pathology of the tumor revealed it to be benign. A grade I meningioma. Very common, great prognosis. My recovery was great and I was out of the hospital about 24 hours later.
Now, just before my 33rd birthday, I find out that it's back. Kinda, I haven't gotten the scan done yet. We only know that all of the symptoms I had before - swollen around the eye, asymmetrical eye position, unable to focus the left eye, headaches, etc... - are back and slightly worse.
So I've been doing a lot of reading and about two months after my surgery, a paper comes out that says that my specific situation, Bone Invasive Grade I Meningioma is so rare, that there simply isn't enough data to study it properly. Now I'm reading this: "...sometimes recur in long-term follow-up, often requiring additional treatments, such as secondary surgery or salvage radiosurgery, which can be challenging and potentially lead to morbidity." and it's difficult to face this with the same optimism I did the first time around.
I put on a brave face for my friends and family, I make jokes and laugh, but I don't want to deal any of this again. I don't want the process of recovery again. I don't want my wife to go through all of that again. I guess I'm just in the self-pity stage and I'm trying to limit what I say to the people around me. We don't know exactly how bad it is yet, so I don't want to paint the devil on the wall, but it's hard.
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Now, just before my 33rd birthday, I find out that it's back. Kinda, I haven't gotten the scan done yet. We only know that all of the symptoms I had before - swollen around the eye, asymmetrical eye position, unable to focus the left eye, headaches, etc... - are back and slightly worse.
So I've been doing a lot of reading and about two months after my surgery, a paper comes out that says that my specific situation, Bone Invasive Grade I Meningioma is so rare, that there simply isn't enough data to study it properly. Now I'm reading this: "...sometimes recur in long-term follow-up, often requiring additional treatments, such as secondary surgery or salvage radiosurgery, which can be challenging and potentially lead to morbidity." and it's difficult to face this with the same optimism I did the first time around.
I put on a brave face for my friends and family, I make jokes and laugh, but I don't want to deal any of this again. I don't want the process of recovery again. I don't want my wife to go through all of that again. I guess I'm just in the self-pity stage and I'm trying to limit what I say to the people around me. We don't know exactly how bad it is yet, so I don't want to paint the devil on the wall, but it's hard.
2024.05.15 11:42 Willing-Ad7325 My brain is fucked (SA,DA, violence, suicide)
When I was young around grade 1, I had this friend in my street, I can't remember much of the time I spent with this guy but I can remember him hurting me like hitting me and shit when I didn't do what he wanted. He smacked my knee with a wrench once. I just fell to the ground. We were decent friends until I told him that I wanted to be girl, I remember him telling me how to do certain things to men. (Seems like he was a victim too). Anyway, throughout my childhood my mother was pretty abusive, she was dealing with psychosis and paranoid delusions, she coped with alcohol and taking it out on dad and I, we would be kicked out, he would be hit manipulated screamed at all the sorts. Anyway it got too much for her one day and she decided to try and smother Me, she then attempted suicide. (I don't remember how it ended I just remember waking up on my bed)
All throughout primary/highschool, I would let people use me. I had very little back bone for myself, I think I was half trying to figure out things that had happened. One time when I had to leave home for a bit cause dad was being violent the persons whos house I was staying at made me touch him in exchange for the place.
I had this friend, he stayed over one night. I think it was one of our birthdays (btw I've had very mixed gendered friends, all very close) Anyway, we were drinking and smoking and eventually he started to ask me if I wanted to do things. I said no, repeatedly. He just kepted asking and was acting all bummed I just felt like shit, I got more drunk and just said yeah sure. The next thing I remember I was bent over my bed, my god it was horrible, it's just flashes of pain and crying and asking him to stop before I moved and pushed him away. I can't remember how the night ended but the next morning was so horrible, I bled from it all. In the future I wasn't so resistant, he would just make me feel bad, I would let him do whatever, the feeling of bits of him left inside me, makes me want to die all by it self. I felt so disgusting I feel so disgusting
Anyway, later on I had gotten into a relationship with this girl. We were together from the ages 17-20 (She like everyone else in my life knew who I was) She knew that sex was horrible for me, I still put out for her when I could. But when I couldn't, she didn't care, she would tell me I'm responsible for her mental decline and things. So I would just give in, most of the time I would just give her oral I preferred this. Sometimes though she wanted to touch me, i would protest and offer alternatives but she didn't care she would just start touching me, eventually she started to insert her fingers and I would literally have tears I my eyes saying no and she'd just keep going if not harder when I said to stop.
I just, fucking hate myself so much, I can't get it out of my head that I did this shit to myself. I feel so disconnected from it all, like the pain and emotions are there but it's just like watching a movie. I feel so disgusting, on edge I'm always In fight or flight, I'm tired I just want to die most of the time.
I just, idk, I still consider these people friends. I can't convince my brain that this was fucked. Like do I just not care and move on? Not talking with em about it or what idk I'm lost I just wanna cry
Idc if the main account causes problems, I just need my possible reasons heard
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All throughout primary/highschool, I would let people use me. I had very little back bone for myself, I think I was half trying to figure out things that had happened. One time when I had to leave home for a bit cause dad was being violent the persons whos house I was staying at made me touch him in exchange for the place.
I had this friend, he stayed over one night. I think it was one of our birthdays (btw I've had very mixed gendered friends, all very close) Anyway, we were drinking and smoking and eventually he started to ask me if I wanted to do things. I said no, repeatedly. He just kepted asking and was acting all bummed I just felt like shit, I got more drunk and just said yeah sure. The next thing I remember I was bent over my bed, my god it was horrible, it's just flashes of pain and crying and asking him to stop before I moved and pushed him away. I can't remember how the night ended but the next morning was so horrible, I bled from it all. In the future I wasn't so resistant, he would just make me feel bad, I would let him do whatever, the feeling of bits of him left inside me, makes me want to die all by it self. I felt so disgusting I feel so disgusting
Anyway, later on I had gotten into a relationship with this girl. We were together from the ages 17-20 (She like everyone else in my life knew who I was) She knew that sex was horrible for me, I still put out for her when I could. But when I couldn't, she didn't care, she would tell me I'm responsible for her mental decline and things. So I would just give in, most of the time I would just give her oral I preferred this. Sometimes though she wanted to touch me, i would protest and offer alternatives but she didn't care she would just start touching me, eventually she started to insert her fingers and I would literally have tears I my eyes saying no and she'd just keep going if not harder when I said to stop.
I just, fucking hate myself so much, I can't get it out of my head that I did this shit to myself. I feel so disconnected from it all, like the pain and emotions are there but it's just like watching a movie. I feel so disgusting, on edge I'm always In fight or flight, I'm tired I just want to die most of the time.
I just, idk, I still consider these people friends. I can't convince my brain that this was fucked. Like do I just not care and move on? Not talking with em about it or what idk I'm lost I just wanna cry
Idc if the main account causes problems, I just need my possible reasons heard
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2024.05.15 11:37 Remote-Zucchini-4611 Some weird Childhood experiences as a kid
((Sorry I’m advanced my English isn’t too good))
I just wanna rant about about the strangest things I’ve been through as a child because I look back and question everything In a good way
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I just wanna rant about about the strangest things I’ve been through as a child because I look back and question everything In a good way
- I didn’t know that it wasn’t normal to sit criss cross on counters every time if there’s no chairs. So I did a thing with my aunt as a child where we sit on the pool table or counter in general sitting there to watch Tv, play with toys or other crap like reading or homework. So when I did it to a friends house they called me a freaking Verrückter Arsch Mutter Ficker. Whatever that meant until I looked it up. I question myself for years
- Why I really hated grass as a baby. Turns out I’m allergic and my brilliant father decided to roll down a hill and asked me to join for fun after a bike ride. Yeah no horrible idea I got hives and when he threw me into the pool to help it was not a good idea. The pool was chlorine, that doesn’t mix well so you can imagine a 8 year old screaming bloody murder out of pain. Was now in a bath calmed down now but had police over for questioning.
- I have a habit of hiding and being extremely possessive of food. My bio mom sucked at cooking to the point I was always skinny as a kid from unable to eat her food because it actually was not edible at all it even made the dogs sick. So making food of my own or having someone cook me food that I only trust is a big step with me
- I didn’t realize all those snails were not actually super speedy fast. As a child I had snails on the brick walls and I thought they were fast because I would turn and see they moved quickly to a different spot so I picked them all up, kept them and tried to make a full on army of snails to kill my bullies as a kid. It was a glories year.
- I felt connected to old people like elderly style, turns out I’m a 18F body and my soul is an old grumpy woman who got that sass ((Says my dad and step mom a lot lol))
2024.05.15 11:37 AnakinJH FW 16 getting uncomfortably hot, not hearing fans
Hey all! I just received my batch 14 FW16 this week and finished setting it up today. I was going through the installation process for my Linux distro of choice (currently Fedora 40) and noticed some serious heat spilling out of the sides, I picked the machine up to try to give it a bit more airflow and the bottom of the chassis was painfully hot to hold so I had to move my hands to the sides.
I finished the install and powered down the machine. I torn it all the way down, disconnected the interposer and unseated and reseated the fan module and then rebooted the machine to BIOS. I couldn't find any settings for fans or fan speed. Does this mean they're not being recognized by the laptop? I am not a tech savvy individual per se, so it is likely I am missing something.
I booted into my OS, and felt the machine heat up, so I flipped it over and grabbed a small light to try to get a view of the fans and can confirm they were not spinning so I powered the computer back down.
Is there a setting I missed in regards to the fans, should reach out to support or is there a list of troubleshooting I can follow at home first? Thank you for your help! I'm excited to be part of this community!
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I finished the install and powered down the machine. I torn it all the way down, disconnected the interposer and unseated and reseated the fan module and then rebooted the machine to BIOS. I couldn't find any settings for fans or fan speed. Does this mean they're not being recognized by the laptop? I am not a tech savvy individual per se, so it is likely I am missing something.
I booted into my OS, and felt the machine heat up, so I flipped it over and grabbed a small light to try to get a view of the fans and can confirm they were not spinning so I powered the computer back down.
Is there a setting I missed in regards to the fans, should reach out to support or is there a list of troubleshooting I can follow at home first? Thank you for your help! I'm excited to be part of this community!
2024.05.15 11:36 maulik252 [STORE] TI8/TI9/TI10/Diretide/ Aghanim's/2023 summer collector's cache sets/weather effects
Selling cache sets at below mentioned price:
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steam rep- https://steamrep.com/profiles/76561198272324546
Add me if you are interested(only serious buyers (who have read the whole post and sure about buying))
buyer goes first. Reservation is mandatory and nonrefundable.
accepting dota 2 tradable items and tf2 keys
TI8 cache 1
TI8 cache 2
TI9 cache 1
TI9 cache 2
TI10 cache 1
TI10 cache 2
Aghanim's cache sets
Diretide cache set
2023 cache sets
Weather Effects
Buyers go first, add me now if interested for 30 days cooldown, make sure to leave a comment on my profile . 30% reserve amount required at the time of reserving cache sets. fees(depends on your payment method) on you.
If you are buying more than 4 cache sets then u will get addition discount.
WHY YOU SHOULD TRUST ME:
I have more than 1000$ worth of cache sets in my inventory and i have been selling cache sets from past 2 years so why would i scam you for some small amount and you can also check the profile of the people who have given their feedback on my profile . I can also provide you with screenshots of my previous successful trades
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My profile- https://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198272324546
steam rep- https://steamrep.com/profiles/76561198272324546
Add me if you are interested(only serious buyers (who have read the whole post and sure about buying))
buyer goes first. Reservation is mandatory and nonrefundable.
accepting dota 2 tradable items and tf2 keys
TI8 cache 1
| Hero | Price ( USD) | Quantity |
|---|---|---|
| Trail of the Sanguine Spectrum(blood seeker) | 15$ | 2 |
| Pitfall Crusader(Pangolier) | 23$ | 1 |
| Insights of the Sapphire Shroud(Dark seer) | 10$ | 5 |
| Pillar of the Fractured Citadel(Spirit breaker) | 12$ | 3 |
| Forlorn Descent(Undying) | 15$ | 0 |
| The Murid Divine(necrophos) | 22$ | 2 |
| Primer of the Sapper's Guile(techies) | 20$ | 3 |
| Molokau Stalker(venomancer) | 15$ | 4 |
| Morbific Provision(witch doctor) | 15$ | 3 |
| Raptures of the Abyssal Kin(queen of pain) | 12$ | 4 |
| Fate Meridian(invoker) | 25$ | 3 |
| Grasp of the Riven Exile(weaver) | 10$ | 6 |
| Visions of the Lifted Veil(phantom assassin) | 35$ | 1 |
| Endowments of the Lucent Canopy(shadow shaman) | 100$ | sold out |
| Hero | Price(USD) | Quantity |
|---|---|---|
| Pitmouse Fraternity(meepo) | 15$ | 8 |
| Fires of the Volcanic Guard(Ember spirit) | 20$ | 7 |
| Third Awakening(Dragon knight) | 35$ | 0 |
| Shackles of the Enduring Conscript(AXE) | 8$ | 10 |
| Shimmer of the Anointed(Nyx) | 6$ | 10 |
| Cruelties of the Spiral Bore(Magnus) | 45$ | sold out |
| Loaded Prospects(Brew master) | 15$ | 8 |
| Ire of Molten Rebirth(Phoenix) | 8$ | 6 |
| Pattern of the Silken Queen(Brood mother) | 8$ | 11 |
| Dread Ascendance(Doom) | 50$ | 1 |
| The Rat King(Chen) | 10$ | 9 |
| Raiments of the Obsidian Forge(Underlord) | 20$ | 4 |
| Hero | Price(USD) | Quantity |
|---|---|---|
| Echoes of the Everblack(Abbadon) | 30$ | 1 |
| Allure of the Faeshade Flower(Dark willow) | 25$ | 1 |
| Paean of the Ink Dragon(Grimstroke) | 20$ | 3 |
| Scorched Amber(Dragon Knight) | 30$ | 2 |
| Priest of the Proudsilver Clan(Chen) | 15$ | 5 |
| The Arts of Mortal Deception(Enigma) | 10$ | 4 |
| Poacher's Bane(Tide hunter) | 20$ | 6 |
| Soul of the Brightshroud(Death prophet) | 20$ | 2 |
| Curse of the Creeping Vine(Undying) | 20$ | 3 |
| Pursuit of the Ember Demons (Husker) | 22$ | 2 |
| Appetites of the Lizard King(Slark) | 25$ | 3 |
| Forbidden Medicine(Dazzle) | 20$ | 3 |
| Riddle of the Hierophant(Oracle) | 12$ | 7 |
| Glimmer of the Sacred Hunt(Drow ranger) | 30$ | sold out |
| Adornments of the Jade Emissary(Earth Spirit) | 25$ | 1 |
| Defender of Ruin(Disrupter) | 25$ | 8 |
| Hero | Price(USD) | Quantity |
|---|---|---|
| Sight of the Kha-Ren Faithful(Drow ranger) | 15$ | 21 |
| Tribal Pathways(Warlock) | 10$ | 26 |
| Directive of the Sunbound(Clockwork) | 10$ | 23 |
| Souls Tyrant(Shadow fiend) | 40$ | 4 |
| Endless Night(Abbadon) | 25$ | 8 |
| Dapper Disguise(Pudge) | 18$ | 16 |
| Prized Acquisitions(Bat rider) | 6$ | 29 |
| Verdant Predator(Venomancer) | 8$ | 23 |
| Fury of the Bloodforge(Bloodseeker) | 10$ | 27 |
| Automaton Antiquity(Broodmother) | 10$ | 25 |
| Tales of the Windward Rogue(Pangolier) | 30$ | 5 |
| Grim Destiny(Wraith king) | 20$ | 21 |
| Distinguished Expeditionary(Tusker) | 12$ | 26 |
| Fowl Omen(Necrophos) | 18$ | 21 |
| Cinder Sensei(Ember Spirit)) | 80$ | 4 |
| Hero | Price(USD) | Quantity |
|---|---|---|
| Origin of the Dark Oath(Night stalker) | 28$ | 22 |
| Ravenous Abyss (Underlord) | 15$ | 34 |
| Apocalypse Unbound(Ancient appartion) | 10$ | 36 |
| Beholden of the Banished Ones(Warlock) | 15$ | 5 |
| Fury of the Righteous Storm(Disrupter) | 10$ | 36 |
| Lineage of the Stormlords(Juggernaut) | 35$ | 16 |
| Silent Slayer(Silencer) | 20$ | 32 |
| Mindless Slaughter(Pudge) | 15$ | 37 |
| Heartless Hunt(Bounty hunter) | 15$ | 31 |
| Herald of the Ember Eye(Grim stroke) | 15$ | 27 |
| Fissured Flight(Jakiro) | 12$ | 34 |
| Flashpoint Proselyte(Husker) | 20$ | 34 |
| Glory of the Elderflame(Lina) | 25$ | 26 |
| Signs of the Allfather(Nature's Prophet) | 20$ | 34 |
| Songs of Starfall Glen(Enchantress) | 10$ | 23 |
| Ancient Inheritance(Tiny) | 25$ | 51 |
| Forsworn Legacy(Mars) | 40$ | 26 |
| Hero | Price(USD) | Quantity |
|---|---|---|
| Evolution of the Infinite(Enigma) | 10$ | 24 |
| Beast of the Crimson Ring(Bristle Back) | 15$ | 23 |
| Clearcut Cavalier(Timbersaw) | 8.5$ | 27 |
| The King Of Thieves(Keeper of the light) | 10$ | 27 |
| Horror from the Deep(Tidehunter) | 20$ | 22 |
| Ire of the Ancient Gaoler(Arc warden) | 40$ | 1 |
| Talons of the Endless Storm(Chaos Knight) | 14$ | 22 |
| Carousal of the Mystic Masquerade(Rubick) | 12$ | 26 |
| Crown of Calaphas(Shadow demon) | 15$ | 26 |
| Wrath of the Fallen(Doom) | 15$ | 26 |
| Blacksail Cannoneer(Sniper) | 13$ | 26 |
| Secrets of the Celestial(Skywrath mage) | 10$ | 27 |
| Blaze of Oblivion(Phoenix) | 8$ | 26 |
| Master of the Searing Path(Ember spirit) | 30$ | 10 |
| Steward of the Forbidden Chamber(Templer assassin) | 30$ | 30 |
| Claszureme Incursion(Faceless Void) | 80$ | 1 |
| Hero | Price(USD) | Quantity |
|---|---|---|
| Silverwurm Sacrifice(Dragon Knight) | 40$ | 5 |
| Scales of the Shadow Walker(Phantom lancer) | 12$ | 19 |
| Perception of the First Light(Dawn breaker) | 12$ | 16 |
| Apex Automated(Clockwork) | 10$ | 17 |
| Test of the Basilisk Lord(Razor) | 12$ | 17 |
| Secrets of the Frost Singularity(Ancient appartion) | 8.5$ | 20 |
| Perils of the Red Banks(Chen) | 8$ | 20 |
| The Chained Scribe(Grim stroke) | 12$ | 18 |
| Widow of the Undermount Gloom(Brood mother) | 10$ | 20 |
| Forgotten Fate(Mars) | 10$ | 18 |
| March of the Crackerjack Mage(Rubick) | 10$ | 19 |
| Stranger in the Wandering Isles(Drow ranger) | 55$ | 1 |
| Cosmic Concoctioneers(Alchemist) | 7$ | 19 |
| Days of the Demon(Axe) | 25$ | 7 |
| Blightfall(Abbadon) | 8$ | 21 |
| Pyrexae Polymorph Perfected(Ogre magi) | 20$ | 25 |
| Wrath of the Celestial Sentinel(Chaos Knight) | 50$ | 8 |
| Blue Horizons(Marci) | 25$ | 6 |
|---|---|---|
| Dark Behemoth(Primal beast) | 50$ | 3 |
| Hero | Price(USD) | Quantity |
|---|---|---|
| Snailfire (SnapFire) | 25$ | 10 |
| Brightfist (Marci) | 22$ | 10 |
| Primeval Abomination(primal beast) | 8$ | 10 |
| Astral Herald(dawn breaker) | 7$ | 10 |
| Spectral Shadow(Abbadon) | 5$ | 10 |
| Taur Rider(alchemist) | 5$ | 10 |
| Crescent Huntress(spectre) | 10$ | 10 |
| Tyrant of the Veil(wraith king) | 8.5$ | 10 |
| Tomo'kan Footsoldier(hood wink) | 7$ | 10 |
| Darkwood Eulogy(death prophet) | 5$ | 10 |
| Sea Spirit(kunkka) | 12$ | 10 |
| Triumph of the Imperatrix(legion commander) | 7$ | 10 |
| Beast of Thunder(storm spirit) | 10$ | 10 |
| Ancestral Heritage(jakiro) | 6$ | 10 |
| Dezun Viper(dazzle) | 7.5$ | 10 |
| Weather | Price |
|---|---|
| Ash | 10$ |
| Aurora | 3$ |
| Harvest | 3$ |
| Moonbeam | 5$ |
| Rain | 10$ |
| Spring | 5$ |
| Snow | 5$ |
| Siroco | 3$ |
| Pestilence | 2$ |
If you are buying more than 4 cache sets then u will get addition discount.
WHY YOU SHOULD TRUST ME:
I have more than 1000$ worth of cache sets in my inventory and i have been selling cache sets from past 2 years so why would i scam you for some small amount and you can also check the profile of the people who have given their feedback on my profile . I can also provide you with screenshots of my previous successful trades
2024.05.15 11:36 Virtual-Bicycle-3249 And again.
I went back and re-read one of your last letters... and I'm still stuck. "I appreciate that you're interested, but come on..." Except... "Does she like you?" and then "How much does she like you?" Maybe it's just my betrayal wounding, keeping me rooted in a problem that doesn't need to be one. You clearly got something out of the signals you sent or you wouldn't have done so. That doesn't have to mean anything. You didn't owe me. But we were friends, and you essentially played games with my heart, and that does mean something. It means a great deal to me because I've already been betrayed by so many.
You didn't know a lot of this, because we didn't ever really go that deep. I would have wanted to, but you never showed any interest in asking me the same kinds of personal questions I asked you in the beginning. I realize looking back that the information about me you did have was volunteered. And that tracks with what you said about your lack of attachment. Repression, disinterest, perception of being a third wheel. Why bother to feel if you believe your feelings will never be reciprocated? I know that feeling... except you put me on the receiving end because of your inability to connect to and manage yourself, and now I have to deal with that.
I realize how toxic my reactions to you were. How I jumped into fixing when I should have been taking a step back and letting you figure it out. And I get how that escalated things. That's something I have to work on, and forgive myself for. That's an issue in itself. It doesn't mitigate the game playing though. You didn't have to ...
It just hurts, I guess. I'm realizing part of that is shame, for not being more aware. Man after man has misled me about their intentions and instead of being more mindful of that, I hung on every word, every hint, rationalizing the mixed signals and hot and cold nonsense. One day, making me blush, the next, nowhere to be found or saying offensive stuff, refusing to apologize, and disappearing for a bit, only to come back and act like nothing happened a day or two later. It's maddening. I know better. But I was enamoured of you, and so attached, so I overlooked and made excuses and tried to fix, so I wouldn't have to say goodbye, and all I really did was magnify my own pain when it inevitably hit that this was convenient for you, pleasurable in the comfortable, distant way Internet connections can be, but it didn't really impact your every day life. Not like it did mine. I was looking for something in you that I should have been finding in myself. I'm an idealist, a romantic, and letting go of the idea of a great love is hard for me. There was so much about you that seemed familiar to me. I thought we had more in common than we do.
I don't really know what I'm getting at here. The fundamental core of this sentiment is you hurt me, and you didn't have to. I own my own shit. And I can see that you struggle to figure everything out, that you're trying to get better, and I appreciate that. But... you hurt me, and you didn't have to. I know you said sorry for leading me on. But all that about "mistakenly talking about" your "confusion" and telling me that I "can be very engaging"... so it's my fault? I mean, thanks for the compliment, but I really don't understand what that means. When I feel lonely and sad I return to that letter again and again, not to wallow, but because I feel tied in knots over how nonsensical some of it is. It's nobody's fault if you lead someone on except yours. It doesn't matter if they're a solid 10 (and I'm not, but let's go hyperbolic to slide the point home, shall we?). The responsibility for your behavior lays with you, just like mine does with me. I could be Aphrodite incarnate (I'm not) and you would still bear the sole responsibility for how you approached me. It doesn't matter that I'm a certain way, the only person who confused you is you. And if you had wanted to talk about it, I mean actually, really talk about it, I'd have held space. But to shame me for not being more forward when you weren't even sure you wanted me to be interested in the first place, only to tell me my interest is misplaced, and apologize for leading me on while distancing yourself from actually having done so... It's all so much circular, self indulgent bullshit.
And it isn't really that this one thing is coloring my entire experience of you... or that it's this world shattering big deal. It's not. I think I am fixated on that specifically because it hits on so many other experiences where men felt I was a sort of commodity to value or discard as they pleased, without regard for how it affected my well being. "I didn't mean to hurt you" doesn't always mean "I actively kept your wellbeing in mind, but I made mistakes and that hurt you, and I'm sorry". Sometimes, it means "I wasn't actively thinking about not hurting you." I'm sure you can see the difference in those two statements.
I suppose I could look inward, because when I was triggered by your outbursts and your lack of accountability, and later, your abandonment, I certainly wasn't thinking about your wellbeing. When I went NC the only aspect of you I was thinking about was the behavior and lack of good good faith I needed to protect myself from. I see how some of that is exaggerated. When you're not melting down, you're actually quite earnest. You said you don't attach, yet on multiple occasions you've demonstrated premeditated consideration. You can be quite thoughtful. Charming, sweet, earnest, provocative even (not in the antagonistic way, though you're very good at that, too).
You already said I deserved better. I don't know what I'm looking for here. It just hurts. It hurts, and it didn't have to.
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You didn't know a lot of this, because we didn't ever really go that deep. I would have wanted to, but you never showed any interest in asking me the same kinds of personal questions I asked you in the beginning. I realize looking back that the information about me you did have was volunteered. And that tracks with what you said about your lack of attachment. Repression, disinterest, perception of being a third wheel. Why bother to feel if you believe your feelings will never be reciprocated? I know that feeling... except you put me on the receiving end because of your inability to connect to and manage yourself, and now I have to deal with that.
I realize how toxic my reactions to you were. How I jumped into fixing when I should have been taking a step back and letting you figure it out. And I get how that escalated things. That's something I have to work on, and forgive myself for. That's an issue in itself. It doesn't mitigate the game playing though. You didn't have to ...
It just hurts, I guess. I'm realizing part of that is shame, for not being more aware. Man after man has misled me about their intentions and instead of being more mindful of that, I hung on every word, every hint, rationalizing the mixed signals and hot and cold nonsense. One day, making me blush, the next, nowhere to be found or saying offensive stuff, refusing to apologize, and disappearing for a bit, only to come back and act like nothing happened a day or two later. It's maddening. I know better. But I was enamoured of you, and so attached, so I overlooked and made excuses and tried to fix, so I wouldn't have to say goodbye, and all I really did was magnify my own pain when it inevitably hit that this was convenient for you, pleasurable in the comfortable, distant way Internet connections can be, but it didn't really impact your every day life. Not like it did mine. I was looking for something in you that I should have been finding in myself. I'm an idealist, a romantic, and letting go of the idea of a great love is hard for me. There was so much about you that seemed familiar to me. I thought we had more in common than we do.
I don't really know what I'm getting at here. The fundamental core of this sentiment is you hurt me, and you didn't have to. I own my own shit. And I can see that you struggle to figure everything out, that you're trying to get better, and I appreciate that. But... you hurt me, and you didn't have to. I know you said sorry for leading me on. But all that about "mistakenly talking about" your "confusion" and telling me that I "can be very engaging"... so it's my fault? I mean, thanks for the compliment, but I really don't understand what that means. When I feel lonely and sad I return to that letter again and again, not to wallow, but because I feel tied in knots over how nonsensical some of it is. It's nobody's fault if you lead someone on except yours. It doesn't matter if they're a solid 10 (and I'm not, but let's go hyperbolic to slide the point home, shall we?). The responsibility for your behavior lays with you, just like mine does with me. I could be Aphrodite incarnate (I'm not) and you would still bear the sole responsibility for how you approached me. It doesn't matter that I'm a certain way, the only person who confused you is you. And if you had wanted to talk about it, I mean actually, really talk about it, I'd have held space. But to shame me for not being more forward when you weren't even sure you wanted me to be interested in the first place, only to tell me my interest is misplaced, and apologize for leading me on while distancing yourself from actually having done so... It's all so much circular, self indulgent bullshit.
And it isn't really that this one thing is coloring my entire experience of you... or that it's this world shattering big deal. It's not. I think I am fixated on that specifically because it hits on so many other experiences where men felt I was a sort of commodity to value or discard as they pleased, without regard for how it affected my well being. "I didn't mean to hurt you" doesn't always mean "I actively kept your wellbeing in mind, but I made mistakes and that hurt you, and I'm sorry". Sometimes, it means "I wasn't actively thinking about not hurting you." I'm sure you can see the difference in those two statements.
I suppose I could look inward, because when I was triggered by your outbursts and your lack of accountability, and later, your abandonment, I certainly wasn't thinking about your wellbeing. When I went NC the only aspect of you I was thinking about was the behavior and lack of good good faith I needed to protect myself from. I see how some of that is exaggerated. When you're not melting down, you're actually quite earnest. You said you don't attach, yet on multiple occasions you've demonstrated premeditated consideration. You can be quite thoughtful. Charming, sweet, earnest, provocative even (not in the antagonistic way, though you're very good at that, too).
You already said I deserved better. I don't know what I'm looking for here. It just hurts. It hurts, and it didn't have to.
2024.05.15 11:32 Quick-Ad-6582 Success story turned to failure
I successfully manifested someone out of my life who has caused me immense pain and even though they don’t do anything to me now, I just don’t want them to be a part of my life. The moment I found out they’re gone , I was so happy but then I felt this sudden sadness because my self concept didn’t change (I used mainly SATS to manifest) and something kept telling me they’re gonna come back. And they did. But the good news is I now KNOW the law works and will apply it again.
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2024.05.15 11:32 hahastopthinking (Ladies) Office shoes
Genuinely curious if it is a must for ladies to wear heels to work and if you don't, does it reflect badly on you?
My mom likes to follow me to buy shoes but she keeps criticising me when I want to buy flats instead as they tend to be more comfortable and less painful for my leg.
Personally, I feel that working flats exist for a reason but my mom is adamant about wearing heels. She said that if you want to climb the corporate ladder, you've to wear heels.
I told her it hurts and I kept getting all kinds of blisters and pain every time I wear heels but was told that's working life, grow up.
I did buy heels in the end under her pressure but the 1st day I wore it, my skin peeled off completely and I got 5 blisters on both the front of my feet and at the back. (I have wide feet so I couldn't find the perfect size, it's always either loose at the back and tight at the front, or just tight entirely).
So, I'm just really wondering is it THAT bad to NOT wear heels? Do I look like I'm not respecting my job if I wore flats instead? (I'm not even talking about loafers but flats that basically has the same design as the heels).
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My mom likes to follow me to buy shoes but she keeps criticising me when I want to buy flats instead as they tend to be more comfortable and less painful for my leg.
Personally, I feel that working flats exist for a reason but my mom is adamant about wearing heels. She said that if you want to climb the corporate ladder, you've to wear heels.
I told her it hurts and I kept getting all kinds of blisters and pain every time I wear heels but was told that's working life, grow up.
I did buy heels in the end under her pressure but the 1st day I wore it, my skin peeled off completely and I got 5 blisters on both the front of my feet and at the back. (I have wide feet so I couldn't find the perfect size, it's always either loose at the back and tight at the front, or just tight entirely).
So, I'm just really wondering is it THAT bad to NOT wear heels? Do I look like I'm not respecting my job if I wore flats instead? (I'm not even talking about loafers but flats that basically has the same design as the heels).
2024.05.15 11:31 BeginerSS Does this sleep study indicates I have UARS?
 | I was checked by ENT and he told me that I have UARS due to deviated septum and breathing issues. I'm barley sleeping at night without any dreams. Having hard time to breath 24/7 and TMJ pain as I'm trying to old mouth open. submitted by BeginerSS to UARS [link] [comments] Does this sleep study shows I have this condition? I was barley sleeping back then, should I ask for another one as my symptoms have worsened? page 1 page 2 |
2024.05.15 11:30 BjornFlicka Heavy bleeding for 2 months straight.
Hi,
Looking for a little reassurance. I have Hashimoto's (hypothyroidism). English is not my first language.
I (38 F) have always had very predictable and fairly mild periods. The bleeding often lasted 3 days and then another day or 2 of spotting and then it was over. When I was 27 years old, I started contraceptive injection every 3 months. My periods became extremely heavy, I bled through sanitary towels and clothing within 5 minutes and I gained weight rapidly. I stopped after 2 or 3 injections and it took a year before my periods returned to normal. When I was 29/30 years old I had a copper IUD inserted. This was so painful that I almost fainted. I used the copper IUD for 5 years to my complete satisfaction, my periods were mild and reliable.
When I was 35 years old I had to have it replaced. This was done with an epidural, because it was not possible without anesthesia.
In July 2023 I started taking supplements to supplement my diet. Including zinc, vitamin B, selenium and magnesium. In OctobeNovember 2023 my period started to change. I no longer had regular periods and sometimes my bleeding was minimal. At the end of December 2023 I got my period and this lasted until February, without a break. I also became extremely dizzy.
In early February 2024 I went to the hospital and it was discovered that my copper IUD had moved. This was removed and after this everything went back to normal, the bleeding stopped and I was no longer dizzy.
On March 20, a month and a half after the removal, I got my period for the second time and it has not stopped until now. The bleeding is extremely heavy and I regularly lose blood clots the size of half a fist. I have cramps in my stomach, am very tired and the bleeding limits me enormously. I also regularly wake up to bloody wet bedding.
Next week I'm going to the gynecologist, but I am very curious about what this could be. I have been familiar with cysts since a young age and the last time (in February) I had them too. In terms of medication, I have been using Wegovy since January 2024.
Please give me some hope that there will be a solution to the bleeding.
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Looking for a little reassurance. I have Hashimoto's (hypothyroidism). English is not my first language.
I (38 F) have always had very predictable and fairly mild periods. The bleeding often lasted 3 days and then another day or 2 of spotting and then it was over. When I was 27 years old, I started contraceptive injection every 3 months. My periods became extremely heavy, I bled through sanitary towels and clothing within 5 minutes and I gained weight rapidly. I stopped after 2 or 3 injections and it took a year before my periods returned to normal. When I was 29/30 years old I had a copper IUD inserted. This was so painful that I almost fainted. I used the copper IUD for 5 years to my complete satisfaction, my periods were mild and reliable.
When I was 35 years old I had to have it replaced. This was done with an epidural, because it was not possible without anesthesia.
In July 2023 I started taking supplements to supplement my diet. Including zinc, vitamin B, selenium and magnesium. In OctobeNovember 2023 my period started to change. I no longer had regular periods and sometimes my bleeding was minimal. At the end of December 2023 I got my period and this lasted until February, without a break. I also became extremely dizzy.
In early February 2024 I went to the hospital and it was discovered that my copper IUD had moved. This was removed and after this everything went back to normal, the bleeding stopped and I was no longer dizzy.
On March 20, a month and a half after the removal, I got my period for the second time and it has not stopped until now. The bleeding is extremely heavy and I regularly lose blood clots the size of half a fist. I have cramps in my stomach, am very tired and the bleeding limits me enormously. I also regularly wake up to bloody wet bedding.
Next week I'm going to the gynecologist, but I am very curious about what this could be. I have been familiar with cysts since a young age and the last time (in February) I had them too. In terms of medication, I have been using Wegovy since January 2024.
Please give me some hope that there will be a solution to the bleeding.
2024.05.15 11:29 requiem4seraphim AITA for not trying hard enough to bond with my Ex-bestfriend/Sister in Law?
I (27F) met my ex-bestfriend (26) when we both worked at Panera bread 8 years ago. We bonded over music and spirituality and were inseparable. After 7 years of getting to know her, I fully trusted her intentions were always pure towards me and that I could confide in her.
We started to have small arguments here and there. It seemed like every time I tried to communicate where I felt hurt/wronged by her, she would take it as an attack. I always came to her from a place of love wanting to resolve conflict and her way of handling it was to deflect/defend herself, ignore me for a week and then come back and pretend it never happened. This put a strain in our relationship and made me feel like I couldn't be close to her, and I began to isolate myself. She took my lack of effort as me not being a good friend to her.
I did my best to be there for her when she needed me the most. I TRIED my best despite struggling with mental illness and traumatic life events. I relied on her a lot when I was at my lowest points in those 7 years. When I went through a DV situation and an unwanted abortion followed by a chaotic breakup. Instead of supporting me, she criticized me and tried to guilt me about my choices and minimized my pain. I had so much to heal within myself, and I had lessons I wasn't ready to learn, and I started to notice she would become highly critical of my decisions. It only began to hurt when I overheard her complaints over the phone about me to my ex and saw text exchanges to my other close friend in a cold/calloused manner, criticizing my desires to no longer be alive when I was going through a crisis. I let it go and stayed friends.
Her brother showed interest in me, and we began dating. Even though I wasn't ready for a relationship, I became quite infatuated and attatched to him (not healthy). We both cared about each other deeply but had a lot to grow and heal from. I soon became aware that he was using illegal substances beyond pot. His drug abuse got bad, and he began to have auditory and visual drug induced hallucinations. He began accusing me of nonsense, and I resorted to maladaptive coping mechanisms, and I lied to him about it (wrong on my part). This caused him to distrust me even more and retaliate against me and gave her fuel to let out all her pent-up resentment towards me. She didn't know how bad her brother's drug abuse was getting. She saw this opportunity to turn on me and start a smear campaign. She stopped talking to me and began talking about me to friends and family and even reached out to my ex, spreading defamatory lies based on her biased assumptions and her brothers drug induced delusions. She referred to me as cancer, and she was happy to be rid of me and kept feeding her brother's drug induced paranoia of me. It took me a year and a half of the emotional abuse Rollercoaster to go no contact with him to begin healing. I learned powerful life lessons about loving myself, the power of honesty, and learning how to be alone (no romantic relationship).
Fast Forward, he reached out a few months later, and he finally got sober. His family got involved after an incident that landed him in the hospital, and his drug induced schizophrenia was finally exposed to everyone. I gave him a final opportunity, and before you know it, we got married and have a baby on the way, and he has remained clean. Since she is forced to be in my life as my sister in law and the aunt of my unborn child, she did a complete 180° and asked through her brother if we could be friends again. I said sure to be on good terms with her. She NEVER apologized for the smear campaign she ran. She has been extremely nice, overtly generous, and it makes me feel so uncomfortable. She is trying so hard to be my best friend again, and it breaks my heart because I don't feel like that is ever possible if she refuses to take accountability for the past. I can't forget she went out of her way to cause me harm when I didn't deserve it and doesn't acknowledge it. AITA for not wanting to be close friends with them again?
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We started to have small arguments here and there. It seemed like every time I tried to communicate where I felt hurt/wronged by her, she would take it as an attack. I always came to her from a place of love wanting to resolve conflict and her way of handling it was to deflect/defend herself, ignore me for a week and then come back and pretend it never happened. This put a strain in our relationship and made me feel like I couldn't be close to her, and I began to isolate myself. She took my lack of effort as me not being a good friend to her.
I did my best to be there for her when she needed me the most. I TRIED my best despite struggling with mental illness and traumatic life events. I relied on her a lot when I was at my lowest points in those 7 years. When I went through a DV situation and an unwanted abortion followed by a chaotic breakup. Instead of supporting me, she criticized me and tried to guilt me about my choices and minimized my pain. I had so much to heal within myself, and I had lessons I wasn't ready to learn, and I started to notice she would become highly critical of my decisions. It only began to hurt when I overheard her complaints over the phone about me to my ex and saw text exchanges to my other close friend in a cold/calloused manner, criticizing my desires to no longer be alive when I was going through a crisis. I let it go and stayed friends.
Her brother showed interest in me, and we began dating. Even though I wasn't ready for a relationship, I became quite infatuated and attatched to him (not healthy). We both cared about each other deeply but had a lot to grow and heal from. I soon became aware that he was using illegal substances beyond pot. His drug abuse got bad, and he began to have auditory and visual drug induced hallucinations. He began accusing me of nonsense, and I resorted to maladaptive coping mechanisms, and I lied to him about it (wrong on my part). This caused him to distrust me even more and retaliate against me and gave her fuel to let out all her pent-up resentment towards me. She didn't know how bad her brother's drug abuse was getting. She saw this opportunity to turn on me and start a smear campaign. She stopped talking to me and began talking about me to friends and family and even reached out to my ex, spreading defamatory lies based on her biased assumptions and her brothers drug induced delusions. She referred to me as cancer, and she was happy to be rid of me and kept feeding her brother's drug induced paranoia of me. It took me a year and a half of the emotional abuse Rollercoaster to go no contact with him to begin healing. I learned powerful life lessons about loving myself, the power of honesty, and learning how to be alone (no romantic relationship).
Fast Forward, he reached out a few months later, and he finally got sober. His family got involved after an incident that landed him in the hospital, and his drug induced schizophrenia was finally exposed to everyone. I gave him a final opportunity, and before you know it, we got married and have a baby on the way, and he has remained clean. Since she is forced to be in my life as my sister in law and the aunt of my unborn child, she did a complete 180° and asked through her brother if we could be friends again. I said sure to be on good terms with her. She NEVER apologized for the smear campaign she ran. She has been extremely nice, overtly generous, and it makes me feel so uncomfortable. She is trying so hard to be my best friend again, and it breaks my heart because I don't feel like that is ever possible if she refuses to take accountability for the past. I can't forget she went out of her way to cause me harm when I didn't deserve it and doesn't acknowledge it. AITA for not wanting to be close friends with them again?
2024.05.15 11:29 trying_my_best- Any advice is appreciated
I apologize this is a bit long I just desperately need to rant and need advice on what to do next about my pain. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in my teens.
Bottom line I’m in so so much pain. Crying myself to sleep kind of pain gasping when I move kind of pain. I was diagnosed in my teens and am currently in my 20s in college. I’ve spent more than 1/4 of my life sick and looking for treatment. I never got to experience adult freedom without being held back by pain.
I’m just wondering if all you kind people have any advice of where to go from here. Back to pain management to physical therapy to massage therapy?
For a little context I stopped seeing western medicine doctors about a year ago after being told by a pain management specialist that there was “no other medication or procedures we can try”. It hurt so so bad to hear that. To hear I just get to have a lifetime of pain. When I was a teenager I got very sick doctors didn’t believe me because what does a teenage girl know about her own health. I almost died while still being expected to go to high school.
I moved past that and worked so hard to make myself better. It doesn’t matter it hasn’t worked. I’m in college now studying a STEM major with plans for a masters and maybe PhD. I often feel like my career is sidelined by my pain and I’m terrified I will be fired constantly for not coming to work because of pain. I want to work I want to be normal I want to participate and be social and it feels like I am always one step behind my peers, often literally.
My degree requires lots of outdoor education, probably one of the worst majors I could have chosen for having chronic pain hahaha. But I love it and feel like it’s my calling.
Currently I feel like I’m at a crossroads. I don’t know wether to continue like I am now and just say screw it I’m going to be in pain or start the endless cycle of disappointment and medical gaslighting I’ve been subjected to for more than have a decade.
I have diagnosed CPTSD from severe childhood trauma and medical trauma so starting to see doctors again is a little terrifying for me. I’ve had some doctors say some really really horrible things and act in horrible ways. As a minor I was told that because I was fat no neurologist would ever believe me and I would never get treatment but that I was still pretty. (Yes a doctor actually said that) I was also physically violated by a doctor who deemed it necessary to do a “full” examination of me including under my pants while I begged for her to stop. It was so traumatic and I genuinely am not sure if it was sexual assault due to the amount of times I said no and the places she touched. I don’t know if this is normal or not, it occurred over a decade ago. Since then I’ve had doctors gaslight me, not care about me, medical offices who don’t respond because their elderly patients are much more important than me. People regularly telling me I’m too young to be in this much pain, yeah I wish.
As a conclusion (despite’s this post) I am a very optimistic person generally. I am happy in life and have a great support system and a very kind partner. I’m proud of myself and I’ve worked so so hard to get from where I was as a teenager to where I am now. I went through severe childhood abuse that caused me to have depression, anxiety, and CPTSD as stated earlier. Ive done my best to make my life have as much meaning and kindness in it as I can. But I just can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to die just for the pain to end. I don’t want to live the rest of my life like this.
Thank you for reading to the end. Please feel free to share and advice or stories of your own. ❤️
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Bottom line I’m in so so much pain. Crying myself to sleep kind of pain gasping when I move kind of pain. I was diagnosed in my teens and am currently in my 20s in college. I’ve spent more than 1/4 of my life sick and looking for treatment. I never got to experience adult freedom without being held back by pain.
I’m just wondering if all you kind people have any advice of where to go from here. Back to pain management to physical therapy to massage therapy?
For a little context I stopped seeing western medicine doctors about a year ago after being told by a pain management specialist that there was “no other medication or procedures we can try”. It hurt so so bad to hear that. To hear I just get to have a lifetime of pain. When I was a teenager I got very sick doctors didn’t believe me because what does a teenage girl know about her own health. I almost died while still being expected to go to high school.
I moved past that and worked so hard to make myself better. It doesn’t matter it hasn’t worked. I’m in college now studying a STEM major with plans for a masters and maybe PhD. I often feel like my career is sidelined by my pain and I’m terrified I will be fired constantly for not coming to work because of pain. I want to work I want to be normal I want to participate and be social and it feels like I am always one step behind my peers, often literally.
My degree requires lots of outdoor education, probably one of the worst majors I could have chosen for having chronic pain hahaha. But I love it and feel like it’s my calling.
Currently I feel like I’m at a crossroads. I don’t know wether to continue like I am now and just say screw it I’m going to be in pain or start the endless cycle of disappointment and medical gaslighting I’ve been subjected to for more than have a decade.
I have diagnosed CPTSD from severe childhood trauma and medical trauma so starting to see doctors again is a little terrifying for me. I’ve had some doctors say some really really horrible things and act in horrible ways. As a minor I was told that because I was fat no neurologist would ever believe me and I would never get treatment but that I was still pretty. (Yes a doctor actually said that) I was also physically violated by a doctor who deemed it necessary to do a “full” examination of me including under my pants while I begged for her to stop. It was so traumatic and I genuinely am not sure if it was sexual assault due to the amount of times I said no and the places she touched. I don’t know if this is normal or not, it occurred over a decade ago. Since then I’ve had doctors gaslight me, not care about me, medical offices who don’t respond because their elderly patients are much more important than me. People regularly telling me I’m too young to be in this much pain, yeah I wish.
As a conclusion (despite’s this post) I am a very optimistic person generally. I am happy in life and have a great support system and a very kind partner. I’m proud of myself and I’ve worked so so hard to get from where I was as a teenager to where I am now. I went through severe childhood abuse that caused me to have depression, anxiety, and CPTSD as stated earlier. Ive done my best to make my life have as much meaning and kindness in it as I can. But I just can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to die just for the pain to end. I don’t want to live the rest of my life like this.
Thank you for reading to the end. Please feel free to share and advice or stories of your own. ❤️
2024.05.15 11:28 yourlostagenderbud I'm gonna fail my studies (sorry for my English… it's not that good)
I started my studies in 2019. I had one year of nursing school before and I hated it. So I changed and went to specialised education (don't know if they have that outside of Europe). Anyway I dealt with suicidal thoughts for a very long time, as far as I can remember. I have anxiety disorder and got diagnosed in 2020 at the end of my first year. I'm on medication and we have sport exam all the years of these studies. Last year I went through a massive depression. I had to quit my job, I was in bed all day, I had difficulties to eat and pay my student flat... I stopped studying bu this year I decided to continue I only have my end of studies work and a swimming exam. Exam I did two days ago. I failed and I thought I was about to die after the first exercise. My body still didn't recover from depression and my med make doing sport really difficult... These meds were keeping me alive but I think they will not be enough... My studies have nothing to do with sports but well these courses are still there and I need to pass it. I'm really worried about failing. I put so much effort, so much pain... I'm tired to fight against me, against society and all their rules... I want to succeed and be free from studying. Studying made a lot of traumas for me. I'm really afraid because if I fail, I don't think I will get back up
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2024.05.15 11:28 cespan716 Mattress Recommendations
Hi. I need a recommendation for a new mattress. Ive been researching on different types of mattress without knowing how it really feels. Innerspring/ hybrids/ memory foam
Currently i have a cheap generic “green tea” infused memory foam mattress (suppose to cool me down, at least thats what is was advertised for) that cost probably 300 (got it long ago) from a local furniture store (no branding). It felt firm compared some of the mattress i slept on at the hotel.
I have a herniated disc on L4 L5 S1, and it had gotten better before but now it came back. The stretching pain and numbness traveling down to my left calf is killing me. So i thought a new mattress might relieve that pain.
Im a back, hot sleeper weighing 200lb, 5’9, working out regularly (dunno if this matter). What would be your guys’ recommendations brand/type? I dont really have an budget since a good mattress might be an investment to my back in the long run.
I’ve checked out casper hybrids but some reviews said it was a scam, some had great experience with it. What do you guys think? Tks,
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Currently i have a cheap generic “green tea” infused memory foam mattress (suppose to cool me down, at least thats what is was advertised for) that cost probably 300 (got it long ago) from a local furniture store (no branding). It felt firm compared some of the mattress i slept on at the hotel.
I have a herniated disc on L4 L5 S1, and it had gotten better before but now it came back. The stretching pain and numbness traveling down to my left calf is killing me. So i thought a new mattress might relieve that pain.
Im a back, hot sleeper weighing 200lb, 5’9, working out regularly (dunno if this matter). What would be your guys’ recommendations brand/type? I dont really have an budget since a good mattress might be an investment to my back in the long run.
I’ve checked out casper hybrids but some reviews said it was a scam, some had great experience with it. What do you guys think? Tks,
2024.05.15 11:27 New-Row-7664 Enquiry about schizophrenia medicine
I from India and have been diagnosed with schizophrenia from 2018. I have been eating the following tablets daily till this day. Palsinuron Metformin Hydrochloride. Gala-M 1000 Memantine Hydrochloride Admenta 10 Tetrabenazine. Revocon Procyclidine Modin 5 Propranolol. Inderal 40 After searching the internet i found that most of these tablets are used to treat epipelsy, nerve pain and no instance of schizophrenia is mentioned. Have I have been prescribed the right tablets? For the first two years I used to sleep a lot after eating these tablets. Then during the third year I developed restless legs syndrome in the evening daily and sleep only at 12 in the midnight. Then I thought of studying programming and TRIED to sit long hours before my laptop.But I encountered DISCOMFORT in my back, NOT PAIN. Something would crawl in my back and I was not able to sit half an hour atleast in one place.Atleast when I did not take medication I was not having any disorders or sleepiness. I did not go out, bath once in a week and immersed in the internet during schizophrenia. Now for the past one year after having the morning dosage of the above tablets, I was not able to sit or sleep right after one hour of taking the tablets. This would last for several hours. I asked the doctor to stop the morning dosage or prescribe alternative tablets but he said no. After much protest and request from my mother I have stopped the morning dosage and having only the night dosage. Now I am alright and not experiencing any DISCOMFORT or SIDE EFFECTS. For the past two years I am daily going out, interacting with my neighbours, taking care of my bedridden father, studying online MBA, active in social forums and more.
Some specialists or persons with similar experience reading my post in this subreddit kindly advise me: Is my progress is due to my efforts or those of the medicine? Is my routine normal or should I socialize more? Am I eating the tablets correct; should I discontinue it? Will i return to my previous state.
I am 40, unemployed and single
Thank u
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Some specialists or persons with similar experience reading my post in this subreddit kindly advise me: Is my progress is due to my efforts or those of the medicine? Is my routine normal or should I socialize more? Am I eating the tablets correct; should I discontinue it? Will i return to my previous state.
I am 40, unemployed and single
Thank u
2024.05.15 11:27 -naked-all-the-time- Overthinking everything - anxiety or OCD?
[TW]: insects, SH
I woke up two days ago with two itchy bites on my ankle, and it's all been a whirlwind from there. I've pretty much convinced myself that I have bedbugs living in my bed, based on the following:
Like I said, I likely don't have bedbugs. The fear stems from a budget hotel my friend booked us in to two weeks ago, which wasn't the cleanest. But I did check the mattresses there, and they seemed to pass the test. My friend actually moved on to a second hotel after I went home that did have bed bugs, and he said it was immediately noticeable. I visited India last year, and when my friend jokingly talked about bringing bedbugs home on the return flight (we didn't encounter any) the thought played on my mind for a couple weeks, but this time is more intense.
The only reprieve I get from worrying about them is when I'm distracted, like at work. I did a pretty intense yoga session yesterday and didn't think about it once, but as soon as we brought the session to a close with a meditation, they were back all over my mind.
I also know that, worse case scenario, if I did have them, I'd have to call an exterminator and be out €2000, which would be utterly shit but wouldn't kill me. It's not like the bugs can kill me or even hurt me either. I thought about calling an inspector, but I don't want to spend all that money (and probably anger my landlord) just for reassurance.
I've always been an overthinker and have struggled with anxiety throughout my life. In the past year or two, though, I've noticed some more intrusive thoughts:
However, these thoughts don't normally take over my whole day - I can usually get away from them if I'm distracted, and most of the time they don't bother me unrelentingly, just mildly. Also, besides the unplugging of electronics and checking of locks - which I do not do universally - I don't really think I have any compulsions. These are things I would expect if I had diagnosable OCD, though I don't know much about the condition or the spectrum it exists within.
What are your thoughts? Does it sound like anxiety or OCD experience? I'm planning to go back to therapy next month if I can (it's hard to get appointments where I live, especially in my native language), but do you have any tips for dealing with such thoughts by myself too?
Many thanks for taking the time to read.
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I woke up two days ago with two itchy bites on my ankle, and it's all been a whirlwind from there. I've pretty much convinced myself that I have bedbugs living in my bed, based on the following:
- The two bites I've described, plus some other skin irregularities/itchy patches (the latter may be imagined) I've noticed on my body.
- A blood patch I found on my bedsheets.
- Something I found on the floor, which I took to be a molted bed bug shell.
- After discovering the bites, I found a mosquito in my room. Though the bites don't look like other mosquito bites I get and were somewhere that I assumed was covered by bedding while I slept. But it's still probably the mosquito, and if not, I did sit the night before in my friend's car, who recently got a dog. It's possible they could be flea bites.
- The blood patch looked fairly old, and by Googling it seems bed bug blood patches would be smaller and darker. It's also possible either my girlfriend or I had a spot/pimple that bled in our sleep - we both have some on our back.
- That "shell" I found was the same colour as a bed bug, but apparently their molted shells are translucent, and this one lacked any "bug parts" (antennae, legs) and had a different texture than I would expect. Could just as easily have been a seed from a bread loaf.
Like I said, I likely don't have bedbugs. The fear stems from a budget hotel my friend booked us in to two weeks ago, which wasn't the cleanest. But I did check the mattresses there, and they seemed to pass the test. My friend actually moved on to a second hotel after I went home that did have bed bugs, and he said it was immediately noticeable. I visited India last year, and when my friend jokingly talked about bringing bedbugs home on the return flight (we didn't encounter any) the thought played on my mind for a couple weeks, but this time is more intense.
The only reprieve I get from worrying about them is when I'm distracted, like at work. I did a pretty intense yoga session yesterday and didn't think about it once, but as soon as we brought the session to a close with a meditation, they were back all over my mind.
I also know that, worse case scenario, if I did have them, I'd have to call an exterminator and be out €2000, which would be utterly shit but wouldn't kill me. It's not like the bugs can kill me or even hurt me either. I thought about calling an inspector, but I don't want to spend all that money (and probably anger my landlord) just for reassurance.
I've always been an overthinker and have struggled with anxiety throughout my life. In the past year or two, though, I've noticed some more intrusive thoughts:
- My ex and I had a place last year and she had a cat. One day when I was leaving for work I didn't pull the door all the way closed. My ex noticed and chewed me out (another story) because it was an indoor cat. But for months afterwards this led me to coming back to the house after leaving for work (sometimes already after walking 10 minutes), coming home early, or staying home completely. At this time I also had a depressive period and my work suffered for a few months as a result.
- After my breakup when I moved into my new place, I put a hanging plant attachment into the roof and couldn't shake the feeling I'd hit a gas line, even after my Dad (a tradesman) told me they were unlikely to be in that part of the ceiling. I left on a work trip abroad the same day and for the first day away all I thought about was returning to a blown-up apartment. I had a similar feeling when my fridge gas pipe ruptured - I thought I was gonna die in my sleep and ventilated my flat for days.
- I'm terrified of fire, always have been, but lately I've been unplugging things every time I leave my office because I'm afraid I'll burn the whole place down. I recently quit smoking with the help of an e-cigarette, but for the first week or two I had it I was often terrified it would explode in my pocket.
- I had an unexplainable pain in my nether regions for a few months that took A LONG TIME to diagnose (turned out to be a muscle problem). But I was constantly anxious about testicular torsion and I wondered why doctors/urologists didn't care. At one point I remember telling myself "I think you want testicular torsion just so you know you're right."
- When I leave my house I check my balcony door is locked and that the stove is turned off, usually only once, maybe twice. Regarding unplugging things in work, I've once sent my colleague to check something in my office after I left, under false pretenses, in the hope that if something bad had happened (a fire) they would notice and catch it in time.
- I have - very, very rarely, probably less than 5 times in my life - been consumed momentarily by thoughts of self-harm. Mostly it's fleeting like the intrusive thought I guess everyone gets occasionally, just pushing your brain to consider the worst. However, twice - once after trying SSRIs for my depressive episode and again at random more recently - I had thoughts of slitting my wrists that scared the fuck out of me and sat with me for a good few hours.
However, these thoughts don't normally take over my whole day - I can usually get away from them if I'm distracted, and most of the time they don't bother me unrelentingly, just mildly. Also, besides the unplugging of electronics and checking of locks - which I do not do universally - I don't really think I have any compulsions. These are things I would expect if I had diagnosable OCD, though I don't know much about the condition or the spectrum it exists within.
What are your thoughts? Does it sound like anxiety or OCD experience? I'm planning to go back to therapy next month if I can (it's hard to get appointments where I live, especially in my native language), but do you have any tips for dealing with such thoughts by myself too?
Many thanks for taking the time to read.
2024.05.15 11:26 tandoyarr Sleep trained 8.5 month old is suddenly having MOTN wake ups again
We sleep trained my daughter about 1.5 months ago using CIO and she had been sleeping wonderfully. We were getting about 11 hours of sleep straight a night. The only times she woke up were for very clear reasons, like a poopy diaper or a missed feed during the day.
The last several nights she’s woken up around 3 or 4 AM and not gone back to sleep without intervention (for an hour.) She doesn’t seem overly fussy, so I’m not sure it’s teething pain, although she is starting to teeth. She will eventually go back to sleep after she nurses, so could it be hunger? Like a growth spurt? She’s been eating and nursing the same amounts during the day. I’m afraid that I’m getting her used to MOTN feeds again by letting her nurse at night again.
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The last several nights she’s woken up around 3 or 4 AM and not gone back to sleep without intervention (for an hour.) She doesn’t seem overly fussy, so I’m not sure it’s teething pain, although she is starting to teeth. She will eventually go back to sleep after she nurses, so could it be hunger? Like a growth spurt? She’s been eating and nursing the same amounts during the day. I’m afraid that I’m getting her used to MOTN feeds again by letting her nurse at night again.
2024.05.15 11:26 ausF19 Searching for treatment options
Hi all! I'm a 19-year-old female, who got diagnosed in 2022 and I'm coming on here in hope that others have had similar experiences to myself and I'm looking for some advice! When I was first diagnosed I was put onto diamox and was taking 1000mg a day. On diamox I was still getting the occasional headache but overall it was definitely helping my symptoms. However, it was giving me recurrent kidney stones so after using it for about 8 months I was taken off it. Ever since then I've been working with my neurologist to find something to help with my symptoms because off of diamox I was pretty much getting headaches daily. He's put me on amitriptyline which I'm now taking 125mg daily but I haven't felt any relief using it. We've also tried out different injections for migraine, I'm currently taking emgality which has given some relief but really doesn't feel like a long-term solution and the stock is constantly running out. We've also tried using some pain relievers such as naproxen, sumatriptan, and idometacin. Naproxen rarely provides any relief and the other two make me feel extremely nauseous. I'm seeing a weight loss specialist as weight loss is the only other treatment thats been suggested to me by doctors.
Diamox is the only thing that ever seemed to actually help my symptoms but like I said it caused kidney stones so the doctors won't let me start that again. I'm reaching out to see if anyone else has any advice or suggestions!?
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Diamox is the only thing that ever seemed to actually help my symptoms but like I said it caused kidney stones so the doctors won't let me start that again. I'm reaching out to see if anyone else has any advice or suggestions!?