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hey friends. a few months ago i made a post in here under the same name “this place is purgatory” talking about how fucking awful this place is for your physical and mental health. there are situations involving my store and district that i so badly wish i could share in here but just know if the time comes where i can put my DM on blast it will happen 🩵 today is tuesday may 14 and i have been officially done with the siren for an entire week. leaving my store and the friends ive made was absolutely bittersweet but i know it’s the right choice for me. im still in between jobs (working on my art full time) but even that stress is less than that of working for the siren. my biggest piece of advice is to save up as much as you can and GTFO asap. i will share that today is day 45 of my store not having a manager. by my DM’s own negligence. my partners are my friends and we still talk daily and things have only gotten worse over the past week. i haven’t even gone to get my tips yet as i don’t think i could see her and not cuss her ou as im no longer her employee. i want you to know that it is NOT NORMAL the way this job makes us feel. there is capitalist hellscapes, and then there’s Starbucks. you are not lazy or incompetent or slow. you’re a human being and your body is having the proper reaction to the environment you are in. i believe in you. you all believed in me and i was able to move on. we’ve got this yall 🩵

i just need to get this of my chest please don’t think i’m a horrible person nothing “sexual” was my intention it was just a game to us.
when i was younger probably around 8 me and my younger cousin who would’ve been 6 was laying in his mum and dads bed and just started doing things to eachother. i’m gonna give a little bit of information about me. i have a dead beat dad and at the time of my childhood up until 12-13 i had a mum with undiagnosed bpd, ocpd and alchol problems i was neglected heavily switching houses to my cousins and my nans back to my mums etc. i’m pretty sure this gave me bpd but that’s irrelevant to this. (i am not in any way relating these 2 things js wanted to point it out as i’m getting one thing off my chest might aswell get another)
when this would happen between me and my cousin it wasn’t that we wanted to do anything sexual we didn’t understand what we was doing. i never saw it in a sexual way because i didn’t understand and neither did he. we would js touch eachother and look. nothing serious because obviously didn’t have a clue. i hate myself for this. i can’t remember basically anything of my childhood so memories of this are faint. but i hate myself. i feel so fucking evil. i’ve been contemplating taking my own life over this. i was sa when i was 11 wich i only understood till now at age 16. it was from a girl and i didn’t realise it was sa because i didn’t think it was possible for a man to be sa by a woman. both of these things have led me to be hypersexual and to think of sex in everyone. (i think this is ocd or ocpd due to my mum having ocpd and the fact there intrusive thoughts that i HATE with all of me)
am i a abuser? am i a fucking evil person who deserves everything that happened to me and will happen? i’m sorry if i am a abuser and i sincerely didn’t mean to be and hate myself with everything i can because of it.

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Every girl has that one guy in their phone they solely use for attention when they think they're feeling upset.
The girls aren't thinking "oh he's always there for me" nah, they view you as the emotional punching bag and you're also viewed as easily replaceable.
God forbid you they even been seen with you anywhere outside of that one class yall share and sit next to each other.
She probably doesn't even view you as a friend.
If you were on your deathbed with minutes to live and had no one around you.
She would literally be in next room over browsing tik tok and texting guys like me sipping on Starbucks.
She is also never gonna return the favor you're doing for her.
It doesn't matter if you found out a close relative just died, or you just became homeless.
At most she would text sorry.
And that's if she replies at all.
I know some of girls are feeling called out.
And I know some of you guys are slowly coming to that realization that I'm right.
And before you say it, no she isn't "opening up" to you.
I've seen the text, she is probably never gonna tell you what's wrong if there is something wrong.
And most likely, she is feeling bad about herself and using you for self reassurance.
When you slowly come to that realization, get out of that toxic one sided deal before it's too late.

Hello everyone. I am a recent student of the occult and I have just begun my journey into this discipline over the last two weeks.
I have been taking stock of the few outstanding paranormal/spiritual experiences I've had in my life, and trying to trace back to their origin. So far, I've connected that I've found myself immersed in a trance-like state while hiking around an old native burial ground (where remains were discovered old caves nearby), feeling a spirit in childhood home that was likely a ghost (a previous owner was murdered there), and having a "third eye opening" experience while meditating few months ago.
However, the one truly uncomfortable experience I have yet to piece together took the form of a hyper-realistic dream I had, perhaps four or five years ago. I still remember it as the most frightening nightmare I've experienced in my life. If you all could help me piece together any meaning behind it and who the figures were, I'd certainly appreciate it.
I found myself standing on a dirt road overlooking a vast dry plain with gently sloping hills. The sun seemed to hang in the air, and the air around me was oppressive and hot. As I looked down the road, I could feel my chest tighten as in the distance, I saw a small speck of a figure. I felt unsettled, and looked on. Somehow, my focus was "grabbed" by the figures in the distance and my eyes were "forced" to close the distance visually, incredibly quickly, zooming in. I felt terrified as I looked on to an old man in a broad hat and long black coat or cloak. He had a creased, tanned, grizzled face with stubble on his cheeks. He was exuding pure malice, and I felt a sense of hatred in his eyes. He was pushing a hag-like woman in a wheelchair towards me. Her black eyes were beady and her old face was twisted and grotesque. I assume what folks would call her a crone or a traditional depiction of an old witch. They were were dressed in black and dark brown, in older attire perhaps early 18th century or so. I could feel the old woman and the man stare directly into my soul. I was not only overcome with terror (like, surprise + fear + panic). I knew in my soul, or heart, that this was truly the embodiment of evil, like in an objective cosmic sense. I was petrified. The hag woman opened her mouth and my ears were filled with a terrible scream which turned into roar. The intensity of which woke me with a start from the dream, my head aching. I felt nausea creep over me, and even as a grown man I was completely scared. It felt too real, too emotionally raw. I didn't fall asleep again that night until I passed out from exhaustion.
I reach out to you all to see if you might be able to help me interpret what went on. The hyper-real dreamlike state was odd as well, it seemed far more intense than other dreams I've had. I have not experienced either of these dream entities since, happily. Thanks for your time.

Hi everyone!
👀 I had already written a post to share with you my long-term detox method. I've been applying it for 4 months now, and it's quite incredible. I'm writing this message to give you feedback. Yes, I "succumbed to temptation" a few times, for example, to quickly make bank transfers, or to reply to some messages while comfortably seated on my couch. But those times were few, and I quickly realized that they were exceptional, so I would quickly put the phone back in the hallway of my apartment afterward. It's like take off your shoes or coat before entering home. 📌 Most of the time, I stick to what I've set up, and the well-being that comes from it is beyond what I hoped for. I come home from work and I'm at home, without distractions. I've even gotten into the habit of not immediately turning on my computer. I clean, exercise, listen to a record, meditate, write, read, and as a last resort, I turn on the computer (which can happen, it's a tool after all, and I really do need it often to watch a movie, listen to music, or take care of administrative tasks, make purchases, etc.). ♾️ Yesterday, I came home and I was like "transported" by the silence. Knowing that my phone is out of reach calms me. My overall anxiety has greatly decreased. Knowing that no one can disturb me. I took my e-reader and read for an hour sitting on a chair with the sound of the rain outside, fully in the moment, instead of wasting time on YouTube videos or Instagram feeds that I don't care about. It was magical, a moment for myself, to settle down, to refocus, a real "90's feeling". I also do this a lot during solitary walks without my phone (or in airplane mode at the bottom of my bag). As it turns out, the solution exists, it's within reach. Disconnecting. I still have progress to make on YouTube videos and using my computer, but I already feel much better. More present, in reality. 👉 As a reminder, my phone is in grayscale, I have TouchID on most apps to slow myself down, Apple's screen time feature, and ScreenZen on top of that. I removed Instagram, I just have Tumblr and Pinterest on it, in terms of social networks, and Signal/Whatsapp.
Maybe it's because I work all day long on a computer at work, but unless it's for write or watching movies, I really feel that screens (and not only computers) are toxic in a lot of ways. They suck our energy, focus, desire. It's awful. I hope this message motivates some of you to try my method and above all, to free yourselves from this digital life that isn't worth it.
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I have been noticing my (34f) bf (47m) has been eating less and less food. He said months ago that he had lost weight but made it seem like a positive healthy thing after visiting the doctor, which I was happy for him until now.
He has lost waaaaay more weight than he lets on. He’s created an aversion to just about anything like bread or fried things, or honestly eating much of anything.He always happens to have eaten a big lunch when he gets back from work. Sometimes he’ll even bring back “evidence” of a mostly eaten meal.
I noticed months ago and mentioned that he’s kinda on a Mediterranean diet because he loves seafood and veggies and he agreed and joked that he’s half Italian so he can’t help it. I also pointed out on a different day that maybe he had an aversion to gluten which he also half heartedly agreed with. We used to bond over me cooking for him and him jumping in every once in a while.
It clicked last week when he mentioned that a coworker came to him and asked if he were ok and said a separate coworker had commented too. I finally felt validated that it wasn’t just me. I mean, I see him naked and feel his body while we have sex, I know his body. His clothes just hang off him. I love his body regardless because I love him, but I can feel his bones and his lack of energy. He’s always had a high libido but not anymore, everything feels so off.
We actually haven’t been having sex as often which is another thing that’s been bothering me. I was a little offended at first but now I’m just worried.
It’s possible he has medical stuff going on that he’s too uncomfortable to share, so I don’t want to jump to conclusions but with my own issues with my weight in the past, I figured people here could possibly help.

You can have absolutely any reasoning or story behind the MV(s) you're talking about (feel free to share it if you want).
Here are some of mine :)

• D.D.D. by The Boyz - seeing them smiling and so tiny has me in my feels lol also the song is v happy (also the dance break at the end omg Changmin)
• Chi Mat Ba Ram by Brave Girls (BB Girls) - I just think that summer & BB Girls are an inseparable pairing
• Snap Shoot by Seventeen - not technically an MV, but I love everything about this video and Mingyu making it makes the whole thing extra special
• D N D by Apink - if you enjoyed Queen of Tears, you'll have to watch this vid (I just love seeing Apink together) 10/10 chill, happy song with heartwarming lyrics
• TOUCH by NCT 127 - Yuta's smile!!!!! And the lightheartedness of the song ofc also: Yuta's smile!!!
• Autopilot by Purple Kiss - I love this song so much that the MV could've been a visual of a rubbish bin and I'd still love it, but I'm especially glad that it's clips of the girls having fun
• Do or not by Pentagon - the members are so smiley, the song is great and the MV is charming
• Smooth Sailing by cignature - it's smooth, smooth sailing, good, good feeling also the girls smiles are gorgeous
• Hello Future by NCT Dream - how can one not love the MV for one of the best songs released in K-pop?
• Feel my rhythm by Red Velvet - if I could live in a fantasy world, it'd be this one (with the FMR EP as my life playlist)
• Footprint by Astro - I wasn't able to revisit this Ddoca in a while, but now when I do I smile so much :)

Excited to see some of your MVs that bring a smile to your face :)

Don’t want to go into too much detail bc it will always be misconstrued but I’m overall just so tired of dealing with my system. No matter what I do I can’t manage it. I’m the only who does care or maybe even the only one who has a capacity to. I can’t manage these other people living in my head with me if they won’t budge. I can’t make them change but I am having to share a body with them. I try to change and let them do whatever but it’s never enough and destroys us all. I don’t feel understood by anyone I’ve ever talked to who has osdd honestly. I want to be in community like I’ve been able to with other disorders. I can’t relate when people talk about their inner world and talking with alters in their head. I’ve tried to foster more communication but there’s only so much I can do when I’m completely on my own with it. I just want to sleep for a long time.

Hi there, I’m a mid-early-stages (1.5yr on E, post-FFS) MtF, and though I don’t pass as a cis woman due to my non-passing voice and tall frame, FFS has given me what I can only conclude must be a passing face because I never get misgendered nowadays. I literally will try to take masc-looking selfies of myself to feed into FaceApp, thinking “well surely THIS picture looks terrible and clocky,” and FaceApp will still go “nope, you’re a woman.” But I am still convinced every time I look in the mirror that I look exactly like a man. It’s like I know intellectually that, apparently, the world doesn’t see me that way (which is awesome), but on an emotional level I am 100% convinced I look exactly like a man still. I’m not sure how to get over these seemingly dysmorphic feelings about how masculine I perceive my appearance to be. Like, if I actually did look masculine and I was sad about that fact, then I guess that would just be dysphoria rather than dysmorphia. But, I’m increasingly getting the sense that I don’t actually look masculine, but somehow my brain still thinks on an emotional level that I do look that way, which is incredibly distressing to me - so, instead of dysphoria, I think I may be dealing with dysmorphia now? I’m not sure how to deal with these feelings. Any advice is welcome.

Last summer, I started using a stool to prop my feet on while using the bathroom. I first had bleeding (one time) last fall that came after a few days of dryness and itching. This was a one-off occurrence that started when I changed the wipes I use, and went away when I stopped using them. I went back to these wipes in March temporarily, and since then my BM’s seem to be different. They are often quite narrow; not always, but often. Sometimes, there will be a bright red streak on the 💩 or when wiping. There is almost always burning or an uncomfortable sensation during and after using the bathroom. When I feel down there with my fingers, there seems to be a little bit of inflammation and swelling. I also seem to be experiencing some bloating and loss of appetite the past few weeks, which scares me.
Of course, my paranoid thoughts are telling me colon cancer so I have an appointment with my GP in a couple weeks.
Anybody experience these symptoms and only have a diagnosis of hemorrhoids?

Over the last few years i have tried getting into Warframe multiple times. Until last 2 weeks i had like 12 hours in the game. I loved the movement, i loved the weapons and art style of the game. however, i always felt lost. i didn't know much about mods or crafting. i understand NOW that at 10-12 hours i was barely scratching the surface of the tutorial. I tried 2 frames in those first 10 hours.. I tried Excalibur and finished Vor's Prize and then got lost. 2nd time I tried playing as Volt and finished Saya's Vigil with a help of a friend. but again felt lost and overwhelmed with all the things that the game offered. So i stopped playing even tho i had a really good Loki frame (via Prime Gaming) & now i lost it since i lost that account.
However recently i watched a YT video by Legendary Drops, a video called "Warframe isn't what I expected". where he played the game for the first time and shared his experience & thoughts. in that video he shared how he never really gave the game a good shot even after hearing nothing but good things about it. which resonated with me and my experience so far. He stated that unlike other games and MMOs, the first 50-70 hours of Warframe are pretty much a tutorial phase. you are still learning about things in game. you need to be patient and slowly the game will make sense to you. it will all come together.
Which brings me to now. in the last 2 weeks i have put in 12+ hours into the game (more than what i put into it in the last 2 years) . I just want to say how amazing this game is.. after watching some guides and understanding the game. I am having more fun than any other FPS or Live Service game i have ever played.
This time i started as Mag and oh man that frame is SO GOOD! the crowd control abilities are just so much fun! this time i was able to unlock Venus and Mercury all by myself. I understood how to equip Companion, i was able to get Taxon & currently have Kubrow in incubator. Maxed out my rifle and katana, was able to craft 2 new weapons (Gorgon & Furis). I am still learning about polarization.
I believe my solo experience has been better since the changes after Duviri Paradox. I even tried that & i like the story but its not for me (at least not right now). I do think the game needs to improve experience for new players but its pretty damn amazing once you get the hang of things.
P.S Fortuna Intro and the song is one of the best thing ive ever seen. Again thanks Digital Extremes & Sorry i misunderstood your masterpiece for the last 2 years.

For some context me (27f) and my ex (28m) split up 2 years ago, we were together for 5 years and met at school, both mine and his best friends are also a couple and have been together for 10 years now. When things ended we promised to stay friends for the sake of not changing things in our friendship group, as we are all very good friends and have been before we were in couples, and we also agreed to keep any new relationships out of this particular friendship group so no one feels they are being replaced (as we did a lot of things as couples)
Both me and my ex have been seeing other people for over a year now, and are both happy. However our best friends wedding is now coming up, and my ex is the best man, and me my friends maid of honor (and we’re both responsible for organising the stags and hen do). I do not have a problem with my ex’s girlfriend, but even though we have never spoken she has blocked me on everything, and I have noticed her blocking and unblocking me a couple times (I’m assuming to snoop) I have tried to reach out to her but she doesn’t seem interested - she knows his best friend from work, but they have never hung out outside of work and she has never met my best friend.
She hasn’t been officially invited to their wedding, but being with my ex being the best man and knowing his friend it’s assumed she is. I know that is may seem unreasonable but I feel very uncomfortable with her being at my friends wedding and asked my ex if it would be okay for her not to attend, I’m not bringing my partner as I know almost all of the people that will be at the wedding, and I want to be able to socialise and help my friend with anything she needs, without having to worry about introducing my partner and him not knowing anyone, which would be the same situation with my exes new partner.
I don’t want to bring this up to my best friend as it’s her wedding and I shouldn’t have a say as to who she invites and I don’t want to make anything awkward for her, so I only mentioned it to my ex, I do feel like I’m being a little unfair, and if it was the case of her being good friends with our friends it would be different, but I’ve known these people for a long time and she doesn’t know at all, but I have been talking about this wedding with my best friend for 10 years, and I really don’t want to spend the day having to put on a happy face for a girl that doesn’t like me, or having to avoid her completely as I want to really enjoy myself and see everyone, i’ve been looking forward to this for years.

From 2019 to 2021 I (28, trans man) dated a woman (26F now). She was extremely physically abusive and tried to isolate me from my friends and family as well as ruin my connections with them which worked. In 2021 she ran off with some other guy she met online but honestly at that point I was more relieved than heartbroken. Living with her was hell. A few months later she begged me to take her back because things didn’t work out but I refused.
I thought I could just go back to my old life until I found out that when she said she’d “follow me to the ends of the earth and make sure I never found peace if I left her” she intended to make good on that.
She’s been stalking me. On one of my socials I noticed a weird account kept viewing my page and decided to see if it was anyone I knew. Turned out it was her. I later noticed similar accounts monitoring me on other social media (Facebook, Tumblr, etc). Keep in mind that after I refused to take her back I deleted all my socials and changed my phone number, email address and moved and resurfaced under a different screen name about a year later.
I need to circle back and give you some e background information on why I am so scared of her. She views herself as a vigilante. I found out while I was with her that I was not the first person she’s done this to.
Often times she feels like she hasn’t done enough and keeps tabs on people online. She had an ex boyfriend she did that too who I found out about long after she moved in with me. The guy relocated shortly after they broke up but she managed to dig up not only his new address but a bunch of other stuff like who he was living with and places he went to regularly. She had plans to come back and get revenge on him for dumping her and those two were only together for a few mont. We were together for a couple years and living together so I think she has something extra nasty in store for me, particularly since I started seeing someone else a couple years later.
People have dismissed my concerns because she’s “just a girl” and some even think I did something to deserve it. She tried to snap my cats neck, broke my nose by hitting me in the face with her big ass clunky phone, and attempted to stab me in the eye for talking to my aunt. She also told me that if I ever found anyone else after her she’d kill them. After some of the things she did to me I don’t think that was an empty threat.
Here’s the plan I’m trying make. I don’t think what she’s doing is limited to cyber stocking. I’ve been getting some really funny phone calls the last couple of days, even though I changed my phone number a couple of years ago. Not just on my cell phone either. I spent a couple days in a motel and received a funny call on the landline they had in their motel room. When I picked up, all I heard, was breathing on the other end for quite some time before they hung up. This is similar to the stuff she did in 2021 after I told her I wasn’t taking her back hence why I changed my number in the first place.
It even happened at work. I work the night shift and if you get any calls, it’s my job to answer them because I work the front. Normally, we never ever get calls after 10 PM and got one around one in the morning. It could’ve been someone who called us by accident but when I picked up the phone I heard a heavily distorted voice on the other end. I couldn’t really understand what they were saying, but it sounded like they said my name just before hanging up.
There’s another thing that really freaks me out. I got a few calls on my cell from a number with the same area code as hers. I looked the number up and not only did I find her name associated with it, but it also listed her newest address, as being in a city about an hour away from me. I find this particularly alarming, because her permanent address has been in the same state, her whole life and I moved to a different state because I knew she lived in that area. Now it says she lives in my state only 39 miles north of me.
I realize how crazy and paranoid I sound but I think I’ve got a reason to.
My problem is I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to move because I finally have a somewhat stable job. I’m on track to transfer to the university here and finish off my bachelors degree. This city also has some really good doctors and it is so hard to find a good doctor these days. I’ve only been here a little over a year. I don’t want have to move again.
The only person who knows about this is my mom who suggested I break my lease and move back in with her but I don’t want to do that. I made so much progress and I don’t want to ruin it and go back to living with somebody who treats me like I’m 12 years old, doesn’t accept me and is almost as controlling as my ex was.
I also don’t want to put anyone else in danger though. She went after my friends before, who’s to say she won’t do it again? Should I cut all of them off and break up with the person in seeing how to protect them?

Hello! I wanted to share my analysis on how Cloud & Aerith represent the Ancient Greek legend of Orpheus & Eurydice, one of the most well known tragic love stories. There have been many different variations of this story from Hadestown to Moulin Rouge. I will reference the broadway show Hadestown a lot, because I’m a huge fan of the show and it represents Orpheus & Eurydice’s story very well. With this analysis, I’m going in with the belief that Hollow and No Promises to Keep are Cloud and Aerith’s songs that are about each other, who those songs are about is a whole different argument, but to ME, it’s obvious who they’re about and I’m using them to push this analysis further.
In the Greek legend, Orpheus & Eurydice fell in love, and one day Eurydice died from the bite of a viper. Orpheus was so ruined by grief that he traveled to the underworld itself to find Eurydice and bring her back. Orpheus sang about his love for Eurydice to Hades and Persephone, who were so moved by it that Hades gave him the opportunity to bring Eurydice out of the underworld, he just has to take the long walk out of the underworld with Eurydice behind him, and he cannot look back at her the entire walk until they are out of the underworld, or else she will be sent back down. Towards the end of their walk, Orpheus is worried that Hades had tricked him because he could not hear Eurydice behind him. He loves her so much that he is driven mad by the fear and doubt that enter his mind. So much so that he ends up looking back at her, and she is sent back to the underworld.
Now for the comparison to Cloud and Aerith. Obviously, we see their relationship become a precious and cherished thing, until Aerith is suddenly killed.
Now Cloud is not a singer or a poet, but he does have a song in the Remake. This song is heavily theorized to be about Aerith, and makes the most sense to be about her. It describes how lost and hollow he feels without her, which is so unbelievably Orpheus of him. In the lines;
“Bloody and bruised Brought to my knees When beaten down When broken up You would appear, Reach out to me, Heal every wound, And make me whole”
It makes me think of a scene in Hadestown, where Orpheus gets beaten up while in the underworld trying to get Eurydice back. Persephone is inspired by Orpheus’ determination to get Eurydice back, she keeps him going even when he’s beaten down.
Throughout Hollow, he says a lot of words like “Guide me to you” “I’ll never let you go”. He still wants to find her somehow after feeling so empty from her death. Again, very Orpheus.
Let’s look at the lyrics for Wait for me that Orpheus sings in Hadestown;
“Wait for me, I’m coming Wait, I’m coming with you Wait for me, I’m coming too I’m coming too”
Before Aerith even dies, she is kidnapped by Shinra, and Cloud makes it his personal mission to go get her back. After she is kidnapped in Remake, he has a vision of her, where he tells her, “I’m coming for you” In Rebirth, after she “dies” he tells her “I’ve got this” in English, but in the Japanese version, guess what he really says?
“Wait for me”
There’s also the Loveless play in Rebirth, where Cloud and Aerith play Alphreid and Rosa, whose story is very reminiscent of their real story. (I’m aware of how Rosa’s part can also be played by Tifa and Yuffie, but the story of this play fits Cloud and Aerith the most, as well as Rosa’s character fits Aerith the most. I could go into more evidence as to why the whole gold saucer section and Loveless play is very Aerith-leaning even while its player-choice but that is besides the point)
There is a line that Alphreid tells Rosa;
“You needn’t promise that you’ll wait. For I know that I will find you here”
Key words: Wait and Find
In Hadestown, Eurydice sings a song called Flowers. And guess who in FF7 is a flower girl? Aerith. The song ups about how Eurydice regrets becoming a worker for Hades (in this version she is very poor and hungry, and Hades convinced her to sell her soul for the safety of it all) but she misses the world above and remembers Orpheus and her happiness with him in the fields of flowers. Aside from the obvious flower connection, this almost makes me think of how while Aerith had a responsibility in dying and saving the world, she may have regrets since all she wants is to be happy with Cloud (we see her wishes on her dream date with him, spending time with him is how she wishes her life would be without the burden) and in the Advent Children script, when Cloud rides his motorcycle by a field of flowers where her ghost is standing and watching over him, it describes her feeling lonely.
Another thing to note, in Hadestown, a flower is used a symbol for the whole show. Most notably for this analysis, Orpheus uses it as a reminder of her as he travels to the underworld and tries to give it back when they REUNITE. And guess what happens when Cloud and Aerith meet? She gives him a flower that represent REUNION of lovers.
In Aerith’s song, No Promises to Keep, Aerith describes this burden while also saying lines like,
“Till the day that we meet again Where or when? I wish I could say But believe know that you'll find me“
Also:
“Take my hand And believe We can be Together evermore”
And don’t forget:
“Still I hope someday you'll come and find me“
This just screams Eurydice waiting for Orpheus in the underworld, knowing he’ll come find her. Shes saying, come and find me, while he’s saying, guide me to you. Pair that with how Cloud keeps saying Orpheus lines like “Wait for me” and “I’m coming for you”
In the original FF7, Cloud gets a glimpse of Aerith after the final battle, and that’s when he says:
“the Promised Land... I think I can meet her...there.”
Now we don’t have a clear answer as to what exactly the Promised Land is. Since Aerith is dead at this point when Cloud says this, it makes you wonder if it’s related to where you go when you die, or maybe just where Aerith goes since she is a Cetra. Regardless, she is still dead and Cloud still wants to find her, much like Orpheus when Eurydice dies.
In the Advent Children film that takes place two years after Aerith dies, Cloud himself is dying from geostigma, and sadly enough, is pushing away his friends, accepting death rather than fighting it, seemingly searching for Aerith amongst it all with how he sleeps in her church. Orpheus was known to have never been the same after Eurydice died, completely swallowed up with grief until he had the idea to see her again in the underworld.
Another interesting detail in AC, when he has visions of her, Cloud cannot look at Aerith because of his guilt until the very end where he decides to keep living on.
In the FF7 Remake, it takes a little different approach than the original FF7 did. There are multiversal aspects that have made people question if Aerith’s fate is final this time. Since we don’t know how Part 3 of the trilogy will play out, some of this is theorizing. But what I believe is that there was a new timeline where Cloud saved Aerith, it’s not the current timeline that Cloud and the rest of the party are in, but Cloud knows of this other timeline where Aerith is alive because he is the only one that can see into that timeline.
No Promises to Keep plays when they part at the very end of the game, the same song that talks about how she wants him to come and find her, just like he did when she was kidnapped by Shinra. This makes me wonder if maybe he will try to cross between different worlds (much like Orpheus with the underworld) to try and get her back. If this will be successful or not, we will see, he is Orpheus after all.
I am one that does not mind either way if Aerith lives or dies by the end of this new trilogy. Simply because the tragedy of their romance was already great, it would be emphasized even more with this hope that maybe we can get her back. Getting that hope then getting the same result is very reminiscent of Orpheus and Eurydice. But I will say I am hopeful that Cloud can defy fate and get his Eurydice back, I would love to see them happy together by the end.
And that is the end of my analysis, Cloud and Aerith’s romance were always my favorite not just because of their great dynamic but their story represents a beautiful ancient Greek Tragedy that shows how much a man can love a woman.

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