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I recently received a DayDate 41mm President Bracelet, and having trouble determining the best bracelet fit. It is either slightly too tight or slightly too loose. How do I determine the proper perfect fit, without using a half link? Is it better to wear it slightly looser or tighter? Any ways to determine the best fit? When I remove a link, the watch is kind of snug, slightly restrictive, and I can get my other hand index finger between the bracelet and my wrist and cannot move it, but sometimes leaves marks/indents on my wrist, especially when it is hot outside. When I add a link, the watch is kind of loose, kind of rolls around (ulnar to radial), and I can get my other hand middle finger between the bracelet and my wrist and move it around top to bottom without slack. Which way is better? More loose or more tight? How should it look/feel ideally? Any methods to check? Recommendations? Advice? TY

I’m very new to anki, besides using its basic features I don’t know much (just learned how to suspend and unsuspend cards today)
I’m using the Anking MCAT deck from AnkiHub for reference
I’m wondering if there’s a way I can “flag” cards as I’m going through. For example if there is a card about a topic I seem to keep getting wrong or one I know I struggle, is there a way to “flag” the card and see it later to review? Is there a way to do this so all the “flagged” cards come up in one place.
The vernacular of anki is very different so I’ve tried searching what I can on the sub and google but not seeing much come back
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These are things that collected over time that i would like to eventually see, in no particular order.
Lvl 85 / 300ish hours in.
1) emote wheel (with even more emotes)
2) missions for more than 4 players
3) stack of c4 stratagem. 4x on deployment.
If you have none to place- you hold the trigger. Sticks to surfaces and enemies.
4) infiltration objective. Where it's an underground bunker with a sealed door and you need to break in and destroy valuable data inside / kill VIP without orbital help (cause underground)
5) A delivery mission where squad has to deliver the flag (tutorial one) on a vehicle (ideally) into an area outside of destroyer control, place beacons for destroyer that map out the area and then- come back. (Like a setup for the missions we are doing) should kind of feel like old school halo capture the flag
6) random primary weapons to be in the mix on the map to pick up and try out, including warbond ones.
7) ability to drop EVERYTHING. Once had a bug in a helldive where my character dropped without any gear. Was very hectic 4 minutes but very fun where i ran around just with stratagems looking for a dead body to get some guns. (Character worked fine empty handed otherwise. Melee didnt work i guess it used pistol animation)
8) thermal/night vision but i heard theres plans for helmets in the works
9) weapon attachments silencemuzzle break/sights variations/stock (where applicable and i guess tied to weapon use or something) which would modify weapon slightly and nerf it elsewhere depending on attachment for a net neutral change.
10) more voicelines. To be exact- more voicelines representing things we mark. As new things get added and they have names. Marking targets can be wonky when character doesnt call the thing correctly.
Notorious lines/variations of lines missing:
"Need assistance"
"Bunker located" - triggered by marking either of the buttons
"Stalkers spotted" - last noticed marked stalker even if they are about to stealth. Just keep the marker there longer even after it's gone.
"(Factory) strider incoming" - marked strider
Idle chatter when someone spaces out or has to wait a while. This could be a comedy gold mine. Especially if it's a few players together.
*"Wonder how mom is doing?"
1- Do you ever wonder why we're here?
2- Is that Treason I'm hearing?
1- Uh... no... nevermind
11) animations for certain commonly used military commands/comms and certain useful comms missing.
1- wait
2- on my mark/countdown
3- go
12) creatures museum. Where you need to complete the entries on each unique enemy type (maybe you can find some maybe you can spend samples/sc on some rare ones)
13) shooting range / room that can simulate specific enemies based on completed museum entries
14) let me run on my destroyer... with a tradeoff. Let there be an rng leak with a wet floor sign and turn on ragdoll if we run on it.
15) destroyer upgrade: "patriotism pad".
A little table on the little balcony of the destroyer with a square foot of premium super earth Grass (totally not astro turf)
With a prompt "press e to feel inspired" and you proceed to touch grass. Not like you'd know with those gloves on... or what actual grass is supposed to feel like. Has no effect. Can support up to 4 helldivers touching grass.
Costs "whatever the current sample cap is"
Thanks if you read it all, I guess.
I just think some of this could be fun if done right.

The ideas of morality that society perpetuates are subjective, internally contradictory, and so controversial that most people cannot even agree on what is moral or not. There are also double standards and privileges involved with certain groups being able to do things that others are not allowed to, and truisms that are just completely taboo even to question, despite other countries doing things differently. Other laws are very shortsighted and even naive which is shown once they are implemented and the actual tangible effects compared to the ideas behind them show how disconnected they become to reality. Other forms of morality come from religion so anyone not practicing the religion can immediately discard those. So looking at how western society has formed a kind of cargo cult around morality Where the people do not know why their moral ideas and philosophies are effective in practice, it shows us the importance of legitimately understanding the cause and effect of our actions on other people and on the community.
Instead of just inheriting ideas of good and bad from other people or the mainstream society, you need to understand the consequences of any action you take. You need to think about how the consequences of an action would harm or help another person and if there is any real effect on anyone else. In a society where everything is illegal, this is the only logical way to think. We can also see how certain things that are illegal in our society (Or cause police to murder you) are things that are detrimental to the people that make the laws such as protesting, being poor, sedition, etc. Obviously it gets tiring to always think about this, but it becomes a necessity at certain times. On top of the harm or help of understanding morality, you also have to think about conflicting groups and how they have a larger impact on society. Helping police might get some liberals to throw flowers at you, but then you would be contributing to the police state whether anyone says it to your face or not. Billionaires use tax loopholes to not pay any taxes, but they fall to the floor and need CPR if you tell them that’s a bad thing to do since it is legal even at the expense of the working class. Even soldiers have a fit when you tell them their career path is wrong because they are oppressing foreign countries through overt military force.
Another thing you must do to determine morality is to apply logic consistently. If you argue with a zionist about whether Israel is doing something right, they will make tons of excuses that sound ridiculous, but they believe it wholeheartedly and cannot have their minds changed because their arguments are only used to justify their emotions. If you decide something is special and exempt from morality, you are likely to become a criminal. This kind of thinking is why modern reactionaries cannot be reasoned with. They believe whatever country is “Chosen by God” or “Based on ideas of freedom” and therefore they never stop to question the ethics of anything they are doing or even if their enemies have a valid point. Even smaller groups can foment this mentality and it gets cults to do some very bad and extreme things. The person who thinks like this probably has a part of their brain shut down, and will never escape the fate of being morally bankrupt.
When you develop a logical cause and effect morality when you think about who benefits or is harmed from your actions (If applicable) you begin to realize just how absurd some modern rules and regulations are. The prohibitions on gay marriage or trans people using bathrooms, the bans on books, the bans on women’s reproductive rights, etc. all come from horrible reasoning. The only reason these things are done is because there are enough people who also follow these thought patterns. Determine your own morality and discard anything that does not make sense.

WHY IS IT SO FUCKING HARD FOR SOMEONE TO JUST CARE ABOUT MY FUCKING FEELINGS? WHAT DO I NEED MY PARENTS FOR CAUSE IVE BEEN MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY ABUSED SINCE I WAS A LITERAL BABY, GOT MY MOM TELLING STORIES AND LAUGHING HOW SHE BEAT ME SOO BAD WHEN I WAS BARELLY WALKING BECAUSE I PISSED MY PANTS? YOU DUMB FUCKING BITCH THATS WHAT BABIES DO AND YOU SHOULDVE KNOWN BETTER THAN THIS YOU WERE THE ONE TO TEACH ME HOW TO PEE. I DO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ALSO DIDNT HAVE A GOOD CHILDHOOD BUT WHY BRING ME INTO THE WORLD WHILE KNOWING YOU ARE NOT HEALED YET. NOW YOURE ACTING LIKE A SAINT WHEN YOU ARE NOT AND YOU WILL NEVER BE. I WISH TO NEVER HAVE KIDS BECAUSE I KNOW IM SAME AS MY MOM AND I, UNLIKE HER, WOULD BE ASHAMED TO COREEEEEEEEEE IF I ALLOWED MYSELF TO DO THIS TO MY KID AND TO MAKE MY KID FEEL LIKE I FEEL NOW. AND YOU CALL WOMEN SELFISH FOR NOT WANTING CHILDREN, I JUST KNOW WHAT MONSTER OF A PERSON I AM WITH ALL THE MENTALL SHIT I HAVE GOING ON AND IT WOULD BE MORALLY UNACCEPTABLE TO BRING A CHILD TO MY LIFE I WOULD RATHER KILL MYSELF THEN DO IT. WHEN I REALIZED MY MOM HAS BEEN THRU THIS AND THAT LIFE HAD BEEN HARD ON HER IVE BEEN TRYING TO SPEND TIME WITH HER AND BE KINDER BUT SHE JUST DOESNT DO THE SAME FOR ME BECAUSE IM JUST A STUPID KID RIGHT? WHY DONT I GET A JOB? WHY DONT I DO SOMETHING? WELL MAYBE IF YOU WERE A BIT SMART YOU WOULD ACTUALLY GET IT TO YOUR BRAIN THAT IM FUCKING DEPRESSED AND I WANT TO KILL MYSELF AND YOU ACKNOWLEDGED THAT I DONT DO SHIT AND JUST LAY ALL THE DAY? BUT YOU DONT QUESTION?????? MAYBE BECAUSE MY GRANDMA DIED LAST YEAR AND I HAVENT BEEN OKAY SINCE BUT TALKING WITH YOU ABOUT MY FEELINGS WAS NEVER THE OPTION NEVER IN MY LIFREEEEEEEEEE, BEATING ME, NOT LISTENING TO ME, KICKING ME OUT WHEN I WAS 9 BECAUSE OF MY GRADES MAYBE IF YOU WAS A BETTER MOTHER YOU WOULD DO BETTER JOB AT RAISING ME AND I WOULD BE A BETTER CHILD HAVE YOU TOUGHT ABOUT THAT MAYBE???????? I DONT FUCKING KNOW HOW YOU SLEEEP AT NIGHT KNOWING THAT YOURE A MONSTER WHO RAISED A MONSTER. AND FOR MY DAD WHO I ALSO HATE AND ALWAYS WILL, YOU WERE NEVER, ARE NOT AND NEVER WILL BE PROUD OF ME AND STOP USING MY UNI ACHIEVEMENTS TO SHOW OFF TO UR FRIENDS BECAUSE YOU ARE THREATENING TO TAKE MY ELECTRONICS AWAY WHICH I NEED BECAUSE IM A COMP SCI STUDENT EVERY TIME YOU ARE ANGRY ABOUT LITERALLY ANYTHING EVEN IF YOU ARE MAKING STUFF UP. YOU DONT LOVE ME AND NEVER WILL AND YOU NEVER LOVED AYNONE WHICH EXPLAINS THE RELATIONSHIP YOU HAVE WITH UR BROTHER. I KNOW THAT GRANDMAS DEATH HAS BEEN HARD MAYBE BUT YOU DONT HAVE TO LASH IT OUT ON ME BECAUSE ITS ALSO HARD ON ME AND I ALWAYS KEEP MY SILENCE AS TO NOT SAY SOMETHING THAT CAN HURT YOU AND BECAUSE OF THAT I FEEL LIKE A BIGGER FUCKING PERSON. THE ONLY THING YOU KNOW TO DO IT BEAT ME AND MY SIBLINGS WHEN WE ARGUE BECAUSE YOU DONT HAVE VALID POINTS AND YOU OBVIOUSLY HATE LOSING. I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN TO A FAMILY LIKE THIS AND IT IS A GREAT MISERY LIVING LIKE THIS. I NEVER FELT GOOD WITH YALL AND NEVER FELT HEARD SEEN AND NEVER FELS AS I BELONG HERE I HOPE IT WAS FUCKING WORTH IT BECAUSE IF I END UP NOT KILLING MYSELF I WILL GO AND NEVER LOOK BACK, AND YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN IN YOU WHOLE LIFE YOU FUCKING IDIOTS THIS IS THE THINGS I THINK OF YOU BUT I WILL PROVABLY NEVER TELL YOU BECAUSE I, UNLIKE YOU, DONT WANT OTHER PEOPLE TO FEEL BAD AND SUFFER MY UNNECESSARY WORDS

Introduction
Hi Reddit, I (30M), find myself deeply entangled in a complex, emotionally charged relationship with this woman (28F), whose name interestingly mirrors mine and who shares my astrological sign (Aries) (Not gonna go into that, but just wanted to point it out). Our connection began unexpectedly but has grown into something intensely complex. I'm here seeking your insights and advice on how to navigate this tumultuous relationship.
1. Detailed Background
First Meeting and Instant Connection: We met at the beginning of last December. Our connection was instantaneous; we clicked right away, ending our first encounter with a kiss. This spontaneous beginning set a passionate, though complicated, tone for our relationship.
Ongoing Interactions: After our first meeting, our interactions were sporadic but charged with an undeniable tension. We would see each other occasionally at office events or casually during work-related tasks, where flirting was evident. Our connection deepened significantly by late February this year, evolving from casual flirtation to more profound emotional engagement.
Current Relationship Dynamics: She (28F) has been in a relationship with someone since before we met (2 months prior I believe) but is currently in the process of ending it. She admitted that they plan to have a decisive video conversation soon to conclude their relationship. The video conversation is because they both live in different cities. He doesn't want to come to our city and she doesn't want to go to his city.
2. Emotional and Relational Complexities
Her Long-Term Relationship and Engagement: She was previously in a nearly 13-year relationship that ended in a broken engagement, which profoundly affects her emotional responses and availability. The last few years of this relationship involved discussions about marriage and starting a family, adding layers of complexity to her emotional baggage.
Rebound and Current Dynamics: Her current relationship with her boyfriend (M25) began as a rebound after her long-term relationship ended, complicating her emotional landscape. She is currently cheating on him with me, which brings up concerns about patterns of fidelity and trust.
Coping Mechanisms: She often resorts to drinking heavily (mostly beer) and using marijuana as a way to escape her emotional pain and numb her feelings, which concerns me deeply about her ability to cope healthily with her emotions.
3. Intimacy and Connection
Profound Sexual Connection: Being intimate with her is nothing short of amazing for both of us. The level of sexual arousal and the act itself feel spectacular, raising questions about whether this intensity is due to the 'forbidden fruit' effect or simply because our physical connection is genuinely extraordinary.
4. Key Concerns
Infidelity and Trust: Her current infidelity raises serious concerns about future fidelity. Could the patterns of infidelity repeat themselves if we transition into a more committed relationship?
Emotional Availability: Her need for personal space, combined with her habit of emotional avoidance and her belief system being shattered—no longer believing in "forever," rejecting the idea of starting a family, and dismissing true love—pose significant challenges.
Personal Well-Being: While I feel a profound connection to her and a strong desire to support her, I'm aware of the emotional toll this situation is taking on me. How can I protect my emotional well-being while being a supportive partner?
5. Attachment Styles
Her Avoidant Attachment Style: She displays typical avoidant attachment behaviors, such as distancing herself when things get too intimate or emotionally complex. This style contributes significantly to the challenges in our relationship, as it complicates our ability to connect on a deeper emotional level.
My Anxious Attachment Style: Conversely, I have an anxious attachment style, which heightens my need for closeness and reassurance. This often puts me at odds with her avoidant tendencies, intensifying my fear of abandonment and desire for a deeper connection.
6. Expectations and Personal Reflections
Desire for Clarity and Commitment: Despite understanding that distancing myself might be logical to avoid pain, my emotions pull me strongly towards her. I recognize her subtle signs of care and affection, despite her often stoic façade.
Understanding vs. Emotional Sacrifice: I'm striving to be understanding and patient, recognizing her coping mechanisms as her way of managing pain. However, balancing my emotional needs with my desire to support her is increasingly challenging.
Fear of Abandonment: My anxious attachment style heightens my fear that once she possibly heals or finds stability, she may choose to move on without me, disregarding the support I've provided through her toughest times.
7. Looking for Advice
Reddit, how should I navigate this situation where my emotional investment, fear of abandonment, and a desire for a meaningful relationship collide? I’m in need of advice on how to proceed with a relationship that is as rewarding as it is challenging. Your insights, experiences, or perspectives would be greatly appreciated as I ponder our future. I have very deep feelings towards her. I know she does too, even though the current situation is far from ideal. I feel it in her, in her eyes, in her soul.
Thank you all for reading and for your advice in advance.
TL;DR - Inlove with a taken woman, who is cheating on her boyfriend to be with me, but is emotionally unstable, avoidant attachment, while I am anxious attachment. Help.

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Ive moved countries a couple of times and had to start over socially every time. I feel like the same pattern repeats itself.
I manage to meet some people through an event or school or work. I often find it difficult to convert acquaintances into a friendship. And when it does happen… they’re more surface level friends?
But none that feel like real fulfilling friendships? Just the odd coffee or dinner here and there.
For some of these people, I especially like them and would love for us to be closer friends. But I struggle to make that happen. And no one seems to initiate trying to be closer to me?
And on the rare occasion that someone does, my anxiety really holds me back. With girls, I’m constantly questioning whether I’m coming off normal? Whether I’m saying the right thing? That I end up coming across pretty reserved and timid and uninteresting. With guys I manage to be a bit more at ease, but still. My success is quite limited.
I’ve missed out repeatedly on what I thought could have been great friendships that didn’t amount to anything.
Now, I find myself in this position once again. There’s this really cool colleague who I get along with great. We have similar values, we like similar things, and have more in common compared to many others around me. I really enjoy talking to him during our lunch break / whenever we interact socially. I’d love to be closer friends but I’m not sure how to make that happen? He already has his close friends and probably isn’t actively looking to add more? I feel like I’m just going to lose out on yet another potential genuine friend.
Now because of my history of failures, I’m very sensitive to how my interactions with this colleague play out, their smallest details, when he probably doesn’t notice 95% of the things I fret about and read into. The smallest thing he does (like responding to a text late) makes me feel worthless, like I’m uninteresting, unimportant, no one will ever want to be my close friend.
Ofc this is a recipe for disaster. But idk how to go about this (with him and others) the right way? How do people go from being surface level friends to closer friends? Are there (healthy) steps I could take?

I'm putting the finishing touches on the demo of my game and I'm starting to wonder "is it too hard"?
It's a FPS bullethell game with dynamic gravity, so right out of the gates there are somethings for new players to get used to, like walking and shooting on walls, ceilings etc. Plus it IS bullethell, so it should be difficult.
It's hard for me to say exactly how difficult, I'm the dev and can play it with my eyes shut. But smaller play tests have shown me people taking waaay longer to complete the demo than i expected, but did testify they enjoyed the challenge.
I'd say it's not as hard as Ghost Runner, but something like the earlier levels of doom eternal.
So when do YOU 🫵 rage quit?

Hey everyone,
I'm currently in a unique situation and could really use some advice and insights from the rental property community. Here's the scenario:
My brother is interested in purchasing our recently deceased grandmother's home from the family. It's a larger property but needs significant renovations. He's keen on buying it, utilizing the equity from his current home for renovations, and eventually getting into rental property investing. However, the bank has informed him that his debt-to-income ratio wouldn't allow him to own two homes simultaneously.
On my end, I've been contemplating entering the rental real estate market for a while now and have saved up a decent down payment. To mitigate current market risks, including high interest rates and somewhat inflated property values, I'm considering proposing a rental property partnership with my brother, with the creation of an LLC.
I'm seeking advice on whether partnering with a family member for a rental property is a good idea, and if so, how best to structure this arrangement. What factors should I consider, and what potential pitfalls should I watch out for?
Any insights, experiences, or tips would be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance for your help!

I’ve had POTS for close to 2 years now. I’d say mine is more hyperadrenergic as my worst symptom now is adrenaline surges (especially when I’m sleeping). VERY SLOWLY increasing my physical activity and reducing stress has been the best thing for helping with a majority of my symptoms. I used to get winded and feel faint just walking from my bedroom to my kitchen, and now I can actually follow my toddler around the park and walk about 45 minutes to an hour on my treadmill. I just found out that I’m pregnant. I’m fearful about my symptoms getting worse during pregnancy. I know people with hypovemic POTS tend to feel better with all the extra blood volume, but it seems other kinds don’t fair well. I’d say I’m most worried about the actual delivery though. I had my 2 current kids without an epidural, and am hoping to do the same this time around. Curious how other mom’s pregnancies went, and particularly labor if you were able to deliver “naturally”/without an epidural. My docs are all uneducated/inexperienced with POTS. Not sure about the OB yet. Any advice, tips or feedback is so appreciated.

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Growing up as a young kid in the late 1980s, I was always terrified by the stories I'd hear of people who'd go to the grocery store, take a hike in the woods, or even a trip to a crowded beach, and would disappear, never to be seen again.
Whenever I'd see their faces memorialized on the back of milk cartons, their last photographs forever immortalized in the macabre medium of ink on cardboard, it would send shivers down my spine.
But the truth is, by the mid 1990s, I had overcome my fears, too preoccupied by the distractions of an adolescent life.
That is, until one day, in 1996, when, at the age of fourteen, a mere freshman in high school, during my weekly pilgrimage to the junk store, I made a discovery in the cassette pile that would change my life forever.
"You're still listening to tapes?" My best friend Jess asked, rolling her eyes, a nerd in the truest sense. "Get with it, dude. CDs are the future. Higher dynamic range, superior sound quality. It's not even a question."
"Yeah, yeah." I replied, ignoring her criticism, as I rummaged through the store's now mound of cassettes, its collection having significantly accumulated since the dawn of the compact disc just a few years prior.
"Look at that thing. It just looks... not cool." My friend Mike added, as he pointed to my cassette player, which was clipped onto my belt, its black plastic headphones draped around my neck. "I swear, if you wear that to school, and the football team asks, I'm denying that we're friends."
Somewhere between elementary school and high school, he'd been converted to an athlete and, by association, became popular. But I didn't care about being cool. Or acting cool. Or dressing cool. I just liked what I liked, and to me, cassettes were functional, and cheap. And that, to me, was really cool.
"Sticks and stones can break my bones, but words can never-" I began to say to them, before something caught my eye at the bottom of the box.
It was a stack of eight homemade cassette tapes, each with a number scribbled onto it, bundled together by a flimsy old rubber band, that looked like it would break at any moment.
There was just something about them. Something so nondescript, so unapologetic, so mysterious, that I felt compelled to buy them, without even knowing what was recorded onto their magnetic tape.
"What are you guys doing later?" I asked Jess and Mike, as we left the store, and began our walk home, the ocean's waves showering us with mist, as they crashed along the seawall of our small South Shore town.
"First game of the season tonight." Mike replied, "Wouldn't miss it."
"You should check it out. Even I'm watching," Jess added, "We signed Walker in the draft. I just have a feeling about this season."
"No thanks." I declined, "I just can't get into sports. Despite my blue collar dad's continued attempts to convert me."
"Your loss." Mike replied, as we parted ways, each of us heading off in different directions.
—
Later that night, I was lying in bed, fantasizing about a world where Jess confessed her undying love for me, when I suddenly remembered that I'd bought the cassette tapes earlier that day.
So, I found the one labeled "1," popped it into my cassette player, and hit the rewind button.
After a minute, I heard it stop, and pressed play...
CLICK.
...Expecting to hear some grunge, britpop, or maybe even ska music. But what came out of the speakers was something... else.
"If you're listening to this..." A man said, his ominous voice crackling over the magnetic tape, "...You've found my instructions on where to find the bodies in the marsh."
What the heck? I thought to myself, nearly spitting out my soda. This must be some kind of prank. But for some reason, I couldn't stop listening.
"Bodies that, if discovered in the correct order, will provide clues to who I am. And why I did what I did."
Okay, maybe it's some sort of audio game? Like a detective thing, Yes, that must be it.
"As this is the first cassette in the set of eight, for this tape I'll be providing step by step instructions on how to find the first body. So, when you're ready, please proceed to the marshes on 139, where the bend of the road meets the sharp turn sign. You'll want to pause the tape now, until you get there."
CLICK.
I did just as he instructed, and paused the tape.
139. That's an actual street, not far away. Wait a minute. Could this be... real?
I wasted no time, picking up the plastic rotary telephone that I'd begged my parents to let me keep in my room, and called Jess' house.
"What the heck, dude!" She answered, "You just booted me offline. I've been downloading this song all day, and it was at 95%."
"Sorry," I replied, "But there's something I need to tell you."
I proceeded to tell her about the tape, and its instructions, and asked her to skip school with me the next day, to accompany me on my search for the bodies. Naturally, she laughed off the request, citing a presentation she had to give at school the next day, but offered up going right then and there.
"At night? Are you crazy?" I asked.
"I mean it's not real. So what's the worst that could happen?" She reasoned.
"Okay, let me call Mike."
I would have bet a million dollars that Mike would have declined the invite, and called me an idiot for even entertaining the idea, but when he picked up the phone, he was so upset that the boys in green, as he called them, had lost, that he jumped at the chance to get out of the house.
"Really?" I replied.
"Yeah, I can't listen to my old man make up excuses for them anymore. It's much too early in the season."
—
About an hour later, Jess, Mike, and I met at the marshes on 139, where the bend of the road meets the sharp turn sign, just as the narrator, as I'll call him, had described.
"Where to now, genius?" Mike asked, gesturing to the immense stretch of marshland that lay before us. A stretch of marshland that was so expansive, in fact, that our town was even named for it.
"One second." I said, before putting on my headphones and pressing play on the cassette player.
CLICK.
"If you're listening now, it means you made it to the starting point. Next, you'll want to turn to the marsh, and scan the horizon for an old scarecrow. Once you find it, walk across the top of the marsh, careful not to fall into its trenches, until you reach the scarecrow. Until then, pause the tape."
Once again, I did just as he instructed, and paused the tape, before returning my headphones to my neck, and looking off into the distance.
Sure enough, about a football field's distance away, was the scarecrow, its body illuminated by the moonlight, its arms open wide, as if calling us over to join it.
"Follow me." I said to my friends.
—
A few minutes later, I was trudging through the grassy surface of the marshlands, my flashlight in hand, as Jess and Mike lagged behind me, bantering away as usual.
"It's up, up, down, down, right, left, right, left, A, B, and start." Mike said.
"No, you idiot, it's up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, B, A, and start." Jess corrected.
"Will you two shut up already?" I called out, as I forged ahead, too annoyed to look back at them.
"You know what, Tyler? I'm really starting to worry about you, dude." Mike said.
"Oh yeah? Why's that?" I replied, rolling my eyes.
"You're really changing. Hanging out at the comic book store. Listening to metal. And worst of all, wearing those flannels around your waist."
I stopped in my tracks, and turned back to him.
"Me change? Dude, I saw you bullying Shea in the locker room, with the other football players."
"So what? The kid deserved it."
"Did he? Why?"
"For being a nerd. That's why. And you know what?"
"What?"
"Maybe you deserve to be bullied too."
I dropped my flashlight and stormed over to him, before we both locked eyes, fists clenched.
That's when we heard Jess, call back to us from up ahead.
"Hey guys..." She said.
We both looked over to her.
Jess simply pointed a few feet away, where we saw...
...A giant scarecrow, towering above the marsh, its wooden body barely keeping it standing, nearly all of its hay having fallen off.
—
CLICK.
"If you're listening now, it means you made it to the scarecrow. Next, you'll want to look out at the Y-shaped ravine before you, separating you from two different patches of marsh. Jump to the one on the left, take about five steps, and dig there. That's where you'll find the first body, and a clue. After you find it, you'll want to switch to the second tape."
CLICK.
I relayed the recording to my friends, who had very different reactions.
"I'm not jumping-" Jess said.
"Stand back." Mike interrupted, as he took a few steps back, crouched down, ran...
...And cleared the ravine, his boots splashing into the muddy marsh on the other side.
Jess and I simply looked at each other, then over at Mike, then down at the ravine, and finally back at each other.
—
A few minutes later, Jess was helping me up from the ravine, she too, having just crawled up from it after falling in.
Meanwhile, Mike was laughing so hard at us, that he stumbled backwards and tripped over something.
Seeing that Mike, too, was now covered in mud, Jess and I joined in on the laughter, and before we knew it, all three of us were all uncontrollably howling under the moonlight, all three of us, dirt caked onto all of our clothes.
But then Mike stopped laughing.
"Hey guys..." He said.
Jess and I looked over at him.
"...What the heck is that?" He continued, pointing to an object that was protruding from the marsh.
I turned on my flashlight, shined it onto the object, and was shocked to find...
...A human hand, long decomposed, its digits collapsed into the mud, its wrist bones sticking up through the grass.
Jess screamed at the top of her lungs.
Mike, having just stood up, fell back to the ground, his eyes wide in horror.
And I, I took it the worst of all, immediately turning to the ravine and gagging into it, as if that was the polite place to do it.
"But wait," Jess began, "That means..."
"...They're real. The tapes are real. And there are seven more bodies out here." I muttered, my body beginning to tremble.
"Cool." Jess said, before taking a closer look.
"We've gotta go tell someone. The cops. Let's get out of here." I said, still in shock.
"Are you kidding, dude? We have a once in a lifetime chance here, to find these bodies. Now let's find the clue and play the other tape." Mike said, his voice excited, but his body shaking.
"He does have a point, as disgusting as it is." Jess added.
"You can't be serious?" I yelled out to them both.
"Hey, you're the one that found the tapes. And wanted to come out here." Jess replied.
"The way I see it, there's only one way to decide." Mike called out.
"Oh yeah? What's that?" I asked.
"We vote." He said, with a smile.
—
A few minutes later, Mike and Jess were digging through the mud, searching for the clue, as I watched on in horror, switched tape "1" for tape "2", and pressed play.
CLICK.

I just got a collection of brushes from True Grit all about making comics, so after a few test pieces I wanted to try working on a bigger piece.
Starting on the left we have Khas, the Aarakocra fighter who uses an enchanted bow to get infinite arrows. He recently adopted a phoenix chick and is raising him as his adoptive father.
In the back is Mak, but he's in the form of Xico here. Mak is a "human" barbarian with the personality of an old-god-like being, Xico in him. Think of it kind of as a Bruce BanneHulk relationship. So when he rages he turns into Xico. (my character is crushing on him)
In the front we have Dahlia, the Pixie bard, the former performer turned adventurer who specializes in outfit changes and enchantment. She was framed for murder but recently cleared her name.
On the right is my character, Willow Rozhdestvenskija. A half-elf/half-changeling druid (circle of stars) who's infected with space juice that makes her more powerful, but also is slowly killing her. She's looking for a cure in the ten months she has left while also exploring the world for the first time.
The mini portrait on the left is our DM Alex, I wanted to include him but not just have him in a hood, so I drew him as the Kingpin from marvel and put him in the corner haha.
The situation is based on a kerfuffle we got into a few sessions ago where we crashed into a Myconid Colony and thought they were hostile. Hope you like it! I'm really happy with how it turned out :-)
https://preview.redd.it/xpr52kk7380d1.jpg?width=5580&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=63f2049b17dc75b886df6105c2aec5e2481ac8d2

Hi! Call me V for now, I'm 23, an engineering student in Philly, originally from northern NJ. tbh, my luck hasn't been very good these past few weeks with a bunch of my critical stuff breaking at the same time, so maybe someone here can be the good luck that I need?
I'm a natural baritone/bass in speaking voice, example here. 5'10", 235lb or somewhere thereabouts, South Asian/European heritage, bisexual. Fairly light skin tone, and you can see my face here. I've got a slightly stocky build, perfect for cuddles and late night snuggling. My chest doubles as a convenient pillow when needed. I'm finishing up my bachelor's in Mechanical Engineering & Manufacturing Technology currently, I've been at my current school for almost 5 years, and I should be graduating in 2026 if everything goes to plan.
I like to say that I'm kind of a creme brulee as a person. I have a shell, but once that shell's cracked, I'm as sweet as can be on the inside. I've been called a loverboy before, and I can't say that's wrong. I'm fiercely loyal to my partner, and I am also a decent baker, so maybe I can bake you some of my own cookies one day! I've been a car guy since I was a tiny young boy, to be frank one of my dream cars is a C2 Corvette drop-top with an LS or LT swap. I deal a lot with tech as a hobby, everything from building my own systems to doing high-end commissioned system builds for private clients. I do have a specialty in small form factor systems, being that I have one on my desk right now in a Terra case.
My music taste is pretty varied. My main library on Amazon Music has people like Post Malone, The Weeknd, Florida Georgia Line, plenty of Taylor Swift, Lil Nas X, Avicii, Marshmello, Billy Joel, Elton John, & S3RL. I even listen to a good amount of Sabaton when I'm in the mood for some power metal. My biggest pastime though is photography. Living in Philly taught me how to do night urban photography really well, and I pride myself on my work. I'd be more than happy to share some of my shots if you're into that. The downside of this is that I use my mirrorless Sony as a webcam because I can't stand the crappy quality of typical webcams. I also do mountain biking, hiking, and camping when I get the time and when my damn bike doesn't break.
I love doing random dates. Stuff like a trip to Ikea and pretending we have a home to shop for, doing a tour of parks in the city, going to a hobby shop and having fun for a few hours, movie nights with snacks we found on allrecipes, stuff like that. I'll do a restaurant date without issue, I guess I'm just more of a nontraditional guy.
My ideal partner would be someone kind, loving, understanding, and open. I to have a fair bit of the 'tism, in addition to a few other things, so having someone who's understanding of those things would be a huge plus. I am bisexual, though as of late the guys that I've talked to haven't been very good people. I'm looking primarily for a woman here, but I guess femboys & femme-leaning guys are welcome too. I have always had a soft spot for the girls that love going hiking and camping with me, and especially ones that also know their way around power tools.
I'm hoping there's someone out there that's wanting something real, in-person and genuine. I've done posts on the normal r4r subs and haven't seen much luck. Maybe there's someone here? Shoot me a DM if I've interested you at all. Let's talk!
For the guys that will inevitably ask, I physically can't bottom, sorry!

https://archidekt.com/decks/7612530/big_red
Idea for this deck is simple, big red creatures, double damage effects, and extra combats. I know it's going to have a slow start, and possibly even not get to play some games because of mana flooding/screwing but want to do what I can to minimize that.
I chose Neheb the eternal as the commander because he can easily make big amounts of mana to drop my expensive spells, and I liked the idea of keeping them around instead of using Purphoros the Bronze Blooded to cheat them into play for a turn.
After play testing on archidekt I find I either have an explosive start of mana rocks or rituals and get the ball moving, or I don't get any and just land pass for 5-6 turns then start going.
Advice on what to cut and add? Budget is pretty open, noting crazy like a mana crypt or jeweled lotus, but if the card is under $50 or so I'm probably open to it. Dockside Extortionist is top of my lift of expensive cards I want to add but not sure I'm ready to pull the trigger on getting one just yet but know it is something that will make it into my collection someday.
I think cutting the rituals for more rocks might be a good call, since consistent card draw is still a problem, and if I can get Neheb out, and keep him alive, I'll have plenty of mana to dump my hand with.
Should I go all in on wheels to keep my hand stocked? Or focus more on impulse draw? How much protection should I run? I know Neheb can be a pretty big removal target, so I wonder if it's better to focus less on protection pieces, and more on ways to work without Neheb being around to make my mana for me.
I know burn is typically how Neheb wants to be played, but I want this deck to have its primary focus being on BIG RED CREATURES!

Hi - I've added a Google font (Nanum Myeongjo) to website builder > typography > headings and it's pulled through ok.
However, when I go to the Design Lab and try to customise the H1, H2 etc, this font isn't showing as an option in the dropdown (settings > design lab > header text > heading 1). I've checked several tutorials and used the live chat, but can't get an answer.
Does anyone know what I'm missing? I'm on the free plan, just starting out.

Hi everyone. I am 25F and I just got out of a relationship that lasted for almost 6 years. And I am fucked.
A little story time.
It was my first serious relationship. To be honest, I wasn't sure if he's really the one for me from the beggining, but I was young and desperate for love and we kept going and going and slowly got used to each other. We became a solidly working duo. We had many things in common, moved in together, created common hobbies, etc. He is a very nice person, never hurt me in any serious matter and I would say we had a pretty nice relationship.
The problem was I was never really happy, but it was hard for me to name the one thing that is such a big problem, but I was questioning us most of the time. He was pretty sure about us, but I was always in doubts and couldn't imagine myself saying an honest yes if he proposed. But At the same time, I couldn't leave, because he became my best friend and the closest person. He was also my support system, because I am not really getting it from my family and I am coping with some mental health issues too. We were openly discussing these issues a lot but never found any solution. It was frustrating. My friends kept telling me to let it go. But I just couldn't.
Not until I went to Erasmus. The distance, the "new life", it all finally lead to the breakup. At first, I felt relief and thought it was a good idea. But more I am realizing that my life is actually without him in it now, and that when I arrive home I will be alone, the more terrible I feel. It's been just a month and he's already dating another girl. And I am here, lost, nostalgic and depressed. I can't imagine how will I ever move on. I am questioning the decision a lot. Also I am afraid I will never find anyone so caring, nice and smart anymore. It is so hard for me to function like a single person, I constantly crave the love and care and I am feeling like a litttle child. It's getting too much to handle. I know these feelings are normal postbreakup but they are ruining me. I am not even angry at him nor I feel any hard feelings because I have no reason. I am not sure if I would want him back, but this solitude is just pure hell.
Please, Those of you who have been in a similar situation, how did you cope?
Does it ever go away?

My ADHD diagnosis came shortly after both of my sons were diagnosed. I went through a lengthy series of psychological tests. After being diagnosed, I was referred to a psychiatrist who wrote my first script to treat me.The first time I took my meds It was like a light bulb turned on in my head. My thoughts were clear, I was able to achieve goals and retain what I read. I struggled through high school and college with this disability. What people could do in an hour took me three. I made and used flash cards of the notes I took throughout college. It angers me when people are smug and refuse meds for their children, expecting them to outgrow ADHD or ADD. I have often said that one of my goals to rally people for legislative change. In many states, you are only able to get a script for one month, and/or your insurance company will only pay for a thirty day supply. The amount of anxiety that is induced by having to time things perfectly is ridiculous. I did it for 16 years for my children and have been doing it for almost twenty years for myself. I am suspicious of the shortages, especially when it comes to the new generic Vyvanse. Apparently, it is being produced but nowhere to be found in any drug store yet. My psychiatrist had to appeal twice to my insurance company to continue prescribing brand Vyvanse because their formulary only allowes time released adderall generic. That drug makes me crabby and gives me serious rebound at the end of the day, the reasons I stopped taking it 12 years ago! And no, thank you, I am not interested in adding another drug to combat rebound. I am NOT sorry for the rant. I welcome suggestions for how we can organize and collectively lobby for legislative change for the discrimination perpetuated by insurance companies and limits placed on the ability of physicians certified to provide he best mental health care they can to their patients. This should never have to include producing anxiety about getting our meds! I am up for a challenge! Are you? If Game Stop stock was able to change the market, we should be able to do this for our health and those that come after us.

At the start of this venture, I've little choice but to use AI. It's not my personal stance, but to bring to life the imagery and things in my mind, I lack the years of ability to make the visions in my mind come to life.
That said, I want to get away from AI as quickly as possible. I am hoping to find an artist or two that I can collaborate with and bring content and bring what they are worth to the table. This may come as I develop more of a Patreon or following.
I hope you can respect this as I am very torn between this being a solo project without the skills of art to do this and not wanting to disrespect artists efforts and time with how they bring art to life. As soon as I am able to find the right artist, I hope to not need to lean on AI images.

TLDR: I underachieved socially in life which caused me to have become an adult with no experience with women and no social life in general. I regret that I wasted my youth, college years, and early 20s not developing a social life or experience with women and I feel it is a major setback in my life. I am incredibly lonely and sexually frustrated and I want to become someone that women find attarctive so I can finally expereince being with them. I've taken steps to improve myself but I still don't know how to even "cross the line" into meeting and dating women. I lack social skills and believe that I may be on the spectrum like my brother but was never diagnosed.
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I've accepted the fact that my lonliness and depression stems from that fact that I "underachieved socially" in my life
I met a lot of people in school but never made lasting friendships. I've never had a group of friends to call the boys. I don't have friends. I don't have a social life. I don't have social media. I sometimes go out alone on a friday night but end up just standing alone in the corner. I don't have hobbies. I go to the gym, do daily cardio, and occasionally go hiking on the mountains, but spend the rest of my time on my phone by myself.
This weekend I drove 400 miles round trip and hiked a 7 mile loop on top of a mountain I saw from google. No one knew I was there. If I had died up there no one would know.
There is a ever-present emptiness in my life. I don't really have passions. I just life day by day with no aspirations. I look forward to things like what I'm eating for dinner or what I'm going to mastervate to when I get home.
I lack self confidence and I don't know how to fix it. I am insanely insecure in comparing myself to attractive men and men that get girls, wishing I could be that guy.
All my social problems have obviously led me to having 0 experience with women. I am incredibly sexually frustrated. I cuddle my pillow every night. I want to experience kissing. I want to experiencd cuddling. I want to experience sex. I want to experience touching a girl. I want to experience a girl touching me. I want to expereince all aspects of sex. I find many women attractive and I want to have sex with many. women. All I think about is women and sex and how much I I want it. On days when I'm free I will masterbate 4-5 times and on normal days I will doit at least twice. Then I get sad knowing I once again fucked my hand and am now sitting alone in my bed and never touched a woman and start crying.
I'm so lonely I've come to the point of considering traveling somewhere where sex work is legal to pay for it. When I was in school I was obsessed with the fantasy that I would find a cute girlto be my frist girlfriend, we would experience "young love" and lose are virginities to each other and have a great innocent first relationship. That didn't happen. After graduating and entering the working world (A male-dominated engineering company with all coworkers 10-20 years older than me), I became depressed and basically have rarely ever interacted with anyone my age. I realize by this point that "fantasy" I had will never happen and now I would be ok with just paying a professional to walk me through it. But I still long for being with a girl who wants me.
I know that I could simply walk up to a girl I find attractive in public, but I don't have the skills to do that. And I know most girls would judge an older virgin. I don't know how to interact with girls my age or anyone I like.
I basically live in a regretful state. I regret that I wasted my youth and school years not making friends. I regret that I spent years in college and never got a girlfriend or got laid and will never be surrounded by that many girls my age ever again. I'm very much in an "it's over" mentality. I really wish I could redo my youth, redo college, and redo my early 20s so I could have actually had the social and dating life I wanted to have then. I feel like I won't grow up until I expereince this. This is even making want to try and get a masters degree not for the degree, but to just have a second chance in college.
However, I know that self pity does nothing, so rather than continuing to feel sad I have been trying to improve myself. This year I am down 30lb since new years & I am trying to dress better & got a new haircut: https://imgur.com/a/mgvHffr
I'm financially doing better than most people from "following the rules" of staying out of trouble, going to college, getting a good degree, and getting a good job. But again this is another reason why I don't have a social life.
I truly think I may be on the spectrum like my older brother is, which is a major cause of my social issues. But I was never formally diagnosed.
I don't know how to cross the line into actually getting a girl. I get some matches on dsting apps but most don't respond. I feel like at some point this year I will be physically attractive enough to get a girls interest, but I have no idea where to go from there. How do I flirt? How do I be charismic? How do you go from meeting a stranger to wanting to get naked in front of each other and touch each other. I don't understand how this happends and I can't wait any longer. I need to experience this to cure my sadness. It is the only source of it.
Forgot to mention I'm 25