We as a family don't often go out to eat primarily because of costs and that there's five of us. But for Mother's Day, Mom was already angry after work Friday and then Dad forgot to get her anything on Sunday and kind of grasped at straws to say his gift was dinner at a seafood place she really likes. So I do get that she was upset before everything.
I'm allergic to shellfish and eggs so we usually go to a certain place that takes especial care for allergens, even though it's slightly more expensive than a normal place, if we go as a family.
Mom and Dad had already been snippy with each other the days leading up but when he suggested that restaurant she kind of blew up on me that if not for me, that place would be fine, but because of my allergies we have to go to this one restaurant or nothing else or else we make the entire restaurant have to change everything just for me, and she doesn't want to make some poor worker have to deep scrub the place just so she can have the dinner she wants. She and Dad ended up going together that night but they were clearly still not 100% when they came back and still aren't. My older brother and sister both tried reassuring me that Mom is just stressed and I don't actually make things that much harder for everyone, but I still feel so sick and guilty that I haven't eaten more than toast since Mother's Day. This isn't the first time mom or dad have made comments like this. Dad once got really excited on a trip about having unlimited room service but he couldn't get the dish he wanted because of how small the room was and how he'd have to brush his teeth and wash his hands and clean up almost immediately, just to enjoy one dish. He sighed and said "I guess I'll go without because I love you" kind of joking but I never forgot it, or other times.
I just really - really - struggle with not feeling like I'm this gigantic, unwanted imposition on my family and the world around me. I feel like my friends resent the different cake or desserts at my birthday, or having to double check before I come over about what to serve, or like my family can't just pack up and go out to dinner or even vacation without care like other families can. We only have a few vacations a year and it's usually to a beach town with lots of seafood places, and because of my allergies we either don't go out to eat and cook the entire vacation (which mom hates because then she doesn't get a vacation) or we eat to go and I order a lot of salads because the fries could be done in the same oil as the clams for example.
I know I'm looking for reassurance but I'm open to the truth that I am causing more work for those around me.

I had some more weird shit happen last night.
I took my two dogs for walks, I normally walk Fin (large, all black German Shepherd) toward the park where I have had these experiences, and I walk Booger (chi terrier mix) the other direction toward downtown.
On my walk with Fin, about a block away in the direction I was headed, I saw 3 or 4 deer calmly walking toward the park. Most nights where something "weird" happens to me start like this. The deer seemed completely unbothered by me as I approached. They kept walking toward the park but stopped every few steps to look back at me, as if they wanted me to follow them. Then, as Fin and I reached where the deer were, I notice about 10 or more other deer waiting as well. They all start walking together, calm, but still looking back at me every few feet. On my way toward the park i smell the stench of rotting meat, I know the smell very well as I used to be a butcher. It was strong. Like someone plugged my nostrils with rotting ground meat or something. At the same time I smell this stench, I get the chills. Fin's hair stands up and he gets more nervous. I can feel the air around me get colder.
As we continue walking I look down an alleyway that cuts the block in half and, if you would walk down the dark alley, would spot you out where I eventually walk back home. I was two blocks away from the park, when you reach the park you can either turn around and walk down the same road, you can continue into the park, or you can continue on the road which turns left. Looking down that alleyway you are looking at the part of the road that continues left, which is the way I take every night on my way back home.
What I saw I tried to convince myself wasn't real or maybe I just saw something else and my brain tried to convince me it was this.
A large, muscular, pale, hairless, creature (?) that was moving fast. So fast I could barely see it, I saw the motion down the alley about two blocks away. The exit of the alley on that side has a street light directly above it, it wasn't standing still, it was moving and it was moving fast. The only reason I'm positive what I saw wasn't deer or something normal is because of something I saw later that night that I will write about when I talk about my walk with Booger. It solidified that what I saw was something I wasn't supposed to see.
In the meantime I convinced myself I was making stuff up and being a pussy. As we approach the treeline of the park, the large group of deer move to the side of the street where the neighborhood is, while I'm on the side with the treeline. I noticed something in the clearing. A lone deer, separate from the large group across the street, staring directly at me.
I have my flashlight pointed at him, and I even hung up my call with my wife to use my phone to take video of this moment.
This lone deer doesn't even have micro movements from breathing. The other deer across the street were constantly readjusting.
You might be thinking to yourself "oh yeah, deer do that with bright lights shining at them. Deer in headlights always act like that." Just wait.
Fin starts to pull very hard and acts anxious, nearly knocking me over, I turn to look across the street towards the large group of deer for at most 3 seconds before quickly turning around to face the lone deer again.
In those 3 seconds, that lone deer is easily 30 feet closer to me, still not moving, staring directly at me. I have this on video, I have pictures. I felt weird, I felt unsafe. I've lived in rural Iowa my whole life, I am and have always lived outdoors. This didn't feel normal. I was scared.
I back away while shining my light at the deer, once I get a block or so away, he finally turns around and calmly walks into the tree line.
The whole way home I feel like I'm being stalked, not just watched, but like something is following me.
Here is a link to that video of the deer getting closer to me:
https://youtube.com/shorts/S1l2FRxKO58?si=Dv8362ajs7DR8UWw
Now, I went home and sat for a bit and tried to talk myself into believing it was all coincidence. After nearly 20 minutes, I started to walk Booger, my smaller chi mix.
The entire walk was nice and very enjoyable actually, I had my earbuds in and was talking to my wife about what I saw in a joking way.
"Man I'm such a pussy, I really scared myself for no reason" I said.
At the end of the walk I turn to go down our alleyway, as I leave from the garage on our walks.
I stop speaking from what I saw on the opposite end of the alley. My wife heard me stop.
I want to preface this with I did not have any substances, including alcohol, for weeks up to that point. The most I ever do in that department is a few beers or I'll use some weed to ease anxiety if life is getting hard. I have no mental conditions that will cause me to hallucinate, the most I have is a personality disorder resulting from trauma that I've been overcoming quickly this last year.
I saw two, large, muscular, pale, hairless creatures walking like apes at the end of the alley. The same thing I thought I saw with fin, this time not going fast, much closer, and it felt intentional. I saw them walk across the street very slowly, staring directly at me. These were not deer.
They didn't have long faces like deer, they didn't have fur or tails, they didn't walk like deer. They weren't slender like a deer. My first thought was honestly that I was looking at two hairless male lions. In the middle of Iowa.
I stood there, paralyzed with fear, well after they had left my sight. 15 seconds later, I finally get the courage to walk the few feet into the garage, when I take my first step, I see a third one. Slowly meandering across the street. Staring at me. Booger noticed him too, and started growling.
I ran to the door and watched the garage shut all the way.
The entire night, Fin guarded the bedroom door. He never does that. He sat staring at the door all night. Booger stared at the windows all night. He never does that either.
This happened to me yesterday night, Monday, May 13, 2024.
I don't know what to think.

So basically long story short my best friend is once again in the “talking stage” with someone I hooked up with. I wasn’t in love with the dude but I definitely did have feelings for him, I shared personal things with him that I had gone through in my life, anyway so she was basically dating/ hooking up with him for a whole year and did not tell me, although she would send me screenshots of their text messages but of course scribble out the name, telling me she really likes the person she’s talking to but didn’t wanna tell me who it was because she didn’t know how serious it’d be or it was too soon, yet she brought him around her whole family and would spend mostly every night with him (while living with her now baby daddy) and there I was being supportive saying well idk who this person is but all I want is for you to be happy. When she told me I put together all the signs and told her that deep down I knew but didn’t believe it because in my head there’s no way she’d ever do that me, I mean I would never do that to her I thought it was so weird how she was okay being with somebody I had relations with, when I confronted him about it he downplayed the whole thing. there she is telling me “if I wasn’t living with my ex we’d probably still be together” and there he is telling me that she was just there for him during a bad time and that he ended it all because he thought her living situation was weird and he didn’t want to be in the middle of it. He blocked me after that convo and I didn’t express how betrayed I felt because I didn’t like him basically embarrassing my best friend or disrespecting her to so I left it at that, she since then has reached out to him multiple times and he finally responded about a week ago, apparently things are going well and it just triggered these past feelings I had that I never expressed to her, I just feel like any person I have ever trusted has done something shady to me, I don’t like how she made me look dumb for a year and I was going through a lot at that time, what hurt the most was him telling me that when he asked her if I was or would be okay with them she told him “we don’t talk much these days” again I was going through a lot and besides that her title or how much she means to me has never decreased because of how much we communicated, I just feel like she was willing to give up our friendship for him and I don’t know how to express that to her now that they are speaking again because the last thing I was is for her to think I’m hating or jealous or anything of that sort because how I feel has nothing to do with him, he didn’t owe me nothing she did, if she would’ve approached me from the start and said I know you guys had something but I really like him I would’ve had way more respect for her and how could I be mad at her being honest with me. I’m currently in a relationship and him willing to accept her with a child is what I’ll give him respect for, I’m not going to be apposed to someone treating her right I truly want her to be happy but again it’s still kinda just weird to me, talking about him or them possibly getting together again, anyway I’ll take any a d v i c e

I had some more weird shit happen last night.
I took my two dogs for walks, I normally walk Fin (large, all black German Shepherd) toward the park where I have had these experiences, and I walk Booger (chi terrier mix) the other direction toward downtown.
On my walk with Fin, about a block away in the direction I was headed, I saw 3 or 4 deer calmly walking toward the park. Most nights where something "weird" happens to me start like this. The deer seemed completely unbothered by me as I approached. They kept walking toward the park but stopped every few steps to look back at me, as if they wanted me to follow them. Then, as Fin and I reached where the deer were, I notice about 10 or more other deer waiting as well. They all start walking together, calm, but still looking back at me every few feet. On my way toward the park i smell the stench of rotting meat, I know the smell very well as I used to be a butcher. It was strong. Like someone plugged my nostrils with rotting ground meat or something. At the same time I smell this stench, I get the chills. Fin's hair stands up and he gets more nervous. I can feel the air around me get colder.
As we continue walking I look down an alleyway that cuts the block in half and, if you would walk down the dark alley, would spot you out where I eventually walk back home. I was two blocks away from the park, when you reach the park you can either turn around and walk down the same road, you can continue into the park, or you can continue on the road which turns left. Looking down that alleyway you are looking at the part of the road that continues left, which is the way I take every night on my way back home.
What I saw I tried to convince myself wasn't real or maybe I just saw something else and my brain tried to convince me it was this.
A large, muscular, pale, hairless, creature (?) that was moving fast. So fast I could barely see it, I saw the motion down the alley about two blocks away. The exit of the alley on that side has a street light directly above it, it wasn't standing still, it was moving and it was moving fast. The only reason I'm positive what I saw wasn't deer or something normal is because of something I saw later that night that I will write about when I talk about my walk with Booger. It solidified that what I saw was something I wasn't supposed to see.
In the meantime I convinced myself I was making stuff up and being a pussy. As we approach the treeline of the park, the large group of deer move to the side of the street where the neighborhood is, while I'm on the side with the treeline. I noticed something in the clearing. A lone deer, separate from the large group across the street, staring directly at me.
I have my flashlight pointed at him, and I even hung up my call with my wife to use my phone to take video of this moment.
This lone deer doesn't even have micro movements from breathing. The other deer across the street were constantly readjusting.
You might be thinking to yourself "oh yeah, deer do that with bright lights shining at them. Deer in headlights always act like that." Just wait.
Fin starts to pull very hard and acts anxious, nearly knocking me over, I turn to look across the street towards the large group of deer for at most 3 seconds before quickly turning around to face the lone deer again.
In those 3 seconds, that lone deer is easily 30 feet closer to me, still not moving, staring directly at me. I have this on video, I have pictures. I felt weird, I felt unsafe. I've lived in rural Iowa my whole life, I am and have always lived outdoors. This didn't feel normal. I was scared.
I back away while shining my light at the deer, once I get a block or so away, he finally turns around and calmly walks into the tree line.
The whole way home I feel like I'm being stalked, not just watched, but like something is following me.
Here is a link to that video of the deer getting closer to me:
https://youtube.com/shorts/S1l2FRxKO58?si=Dv8362ajs7DR8UWw
Now, I went home and sat for a bit and tried to talk myself into believing it was all coincidence. After nearly 20 minutes, I started to walk Booger, my smaller chi mix.
The entire walk was nice and very enjoyable actually, I had my earbuds in and was talking to my wife about what I saw in a joking way.
"Man I'm such a pussy, I really scared myself for no reason" I said.
At the end of the walk I turn to go down our alleyway, as I leave from the garage on our walks.
I stop speaking from what I saw on the opposite end of the alley. My wife heard me stop.
I want to preface this with I did not have any substances, including alcohol, for weeks up to that point. The most I ever do in that department is a few beers or I'll use some weed to ease anxiety if life is getting hard. I have no mental conditions that will cause me to hallucinate, the most I have is a personality disorder resulting from trauma that I've been overcoming quickly this last year.
I saw two, large, muscular, pale, hairless creatures walking like apes at the end of the alley. The same thing I thought I saw with fin, this time not going fast, much closer, and it felt intentional. I saw them walk across the street very slowly, staring directly at me. These were not deer.
They didn't have long faces like deer, they didn't have fur or tails, they didn't walk like deer. They weren't slender like a deer. My first thought was honestly that I was looking at two hairless male lions. In the middle of Iowa.
I stood there, paralyzed with fear, well after they had left my sight. 15 seconds later, I finally get the courage to walk the few feet into the garage, when I take my first step, I see a third one. Slowly meandering across the street. Staring at me. Booger noticed him too, and started growling.
I ran to the door and watched the garage shut all the way.
The entire night, Fin guarded the bedroom door. He never does that. He sat staring at the door all night. Booger stared at the windows all night. He never does that either.
This happened to me yesterday night, Monday, May 13, 2024.
I don't know what to think.

My boyfriend and I have been together 6 years and are genuinely happy and best friends 99% of the time. However, every so often (maybe 5- 10 times total) we have gotten into a drunken argument which is not physically violent, but is not good by any means. He cusses at me a lot for example.
This time, we were both drunk at a wedding and had the BEST day. Swam in the ocean, went to the beach, he cooked me breakfast in bed etc. but then he had too many drinks and totally blacked out. We started walking home alone he totally changed. He started yelling at me so angrily that I’m “so drunk” (I was drunk but I remember everything and I was fine) and that “I’m the biggest embarrassment of his life and he regrets introducing me to any of his family and friends”… and that he “hates me and regrets proposing to me.” I wasn’t even yelling back, just trying to calm him down but it kept coming.
For context, I was drunk but did nothing embarrassing. Every person at the party was drunk and his family and friends literally adore me. I’m super nice and always help everyone. This is not me trying to point fingers or push off blame, this is just completely true.
I’ve had to literally escape abuse from others in the past so this behavior really has triggered me and thrown me into some intense panic attacks because it reminds me of hints of the past I’ve dealt with. I haven’t had them since the abuse in the past, but this was just like how I used to have them.
The next day he woke up as his usual happy self, not remembering a single thing other than throwing up all night. He’s apologized sincerely, is shocked by his behavior, is getting a therapist, and agreed to take some space.
He’s so sweet, caring, and fun when he’s sober and we are literally best friends, but every so often it gets like this. I love him SO much, but this has made me question so much. My therapist mentioned that sometimes shees this get worse and worse over time so I’m so scared that I’m setting myself up for failure in life and a bad relationship. But he really doesn’t seem like that kind of person outside of what I saw this night.
I’m Looking for advice of anyone has been in anything similar, acted similar, or seen anything similar because I would like to marry him but this instance really has thrown me into questioning everything. I can’t tell if this is something I’m blind to or if it’s possible to have a happy healthy relationship and move on. I’m so confused.

I've been playing guitar for almost 30 years now. I've always loved the local scene when it comes to rock and metal. I'm aging though. Curiously, Volbeat, Johnny Cash, George Jones and Slayer all became one in the same. I've quite a bit of rust but I'm shaking it off wonderfully. This is a shout out to anyone interested in taking the music scene in NL to the next level. I love you all but I've become really bored. Hit me up. Help me shake the rust off and let's light this s**t on fire! I'll have a setup to start recording soon. For now I ask that anyone interested hit me up. I'm down for anything. I can learn pretty easily by ear these days so just say your willing to jam and name a style and I'm down. Extra points for blowing skulls apart. I'm good for rock, metal, country, rap, fusion, all of the above. Let's melt the rock together!

I have posted this story here multiple times and the moderation team has locked my thread multiple times. This is ridiculous. They are doing what they have always done: Suppress or ban anyone who they don't like. They are role-playing the super earth secret police, yet again.
The obvious reason is so that they can protect themselves from the truth. By locking my posts repeatedly, they are proving my point and making me more and more frustrated: They are one of the worst CM teams I have seen. I hope you will help me and fellow helldivers out by posting this where it can be seen if the moderators continue to try to protect themselves by locking my thread that tries to fully explain the PSN fiasco yet again. They will probably lock this thread ASAP, but maybe enough people will see this and understand what's going on.
Super Earth France Reporter here. The PSN fiasco has been one of the biggest events this year in all of gaming. Yet something very strange has been going on the entire time since the 3rd.
In the past three days, Arrowhead's CM (community manager) team has not only been contradictory with itself, but contradictory with their CEO's statements. At one point - a CM tells us that we should review bomb the game even harder.
From telling players to review bomb the game, once to tell players to piss off, the second time seriously, to conveniently leaving facts out, the CM have dragged AH from the 'F incident' through the PSN fiasco. If you have ever been confused by what is going on, here is the full story I have tried to put together (with difficulty).
It feels like at every step, every single person is saying something totally contradictory with what a different person is saying if we actually compare people's statements closely.
The CM team have only continued to damage their credibility, yet again, by misleading people and trying to cover up their mistakes during the PSN fiasco instead of trying to be honest. I need to ask everyone: What value do they even provide if this is the result?
This summary of events has been put together with insight from friends who discussed the recent AH issues at length with me, probably because I am the only one crazy enough to write this much. I hope you will enjoy reading this very long piece.

The PSN fiasco

The PSN fiasco all began on the 3rd: https://www.reddit.com/Helldivers/comments/1cjvw1s/arrowhead_community_manager_misty_admits_that_the/
This conversation followed an announcement signed by Playstation announcing PSN login integration. Most likely, the review bombing had not seriously started yet. Why would the CM change their Twitter and lock the post? It is probably in response to them discovering how angry people got about PSN integration.
At this point in time, everyone began trashing Sony, and many, myself included, said that this was a money-grabbing move for Sony to raise their stock value and Sony was clearly forcing this on AH.
But this CM said that Arrowhead wanted PSN linking and not Sony. Yet there's another post that was live JUST a day afterward that showed 'Spitz' saying what sounds like the frigging opposite. This is confusing at the least and the extent of how much this was AH's idea is still unclear. The first post likely happened before people started getting angry. The second post by Spitz likely occurred with the perspective of damage control.
Something is fishy.
One person says PSN allows them to ban people better. Later, Spitz said that the PSN change, steam announcement, and FAQ all come from Sony. I found this suspect. It seems to check out at first glance. The announcement from Sony on the 3rd can be seen here. Sure enough, it is signed by Sony. But this statement likely would have gone through both AH and Sony teams before being pushed out to Steam. It is unlikely that AH had no ability to coordinate with Sony on this statement. AH knew this was going to happen at some point 3 months ago, but maybe not exactly when.

Spitz roleplaying Super Earth propaganda ministry

Spitz' discord statements on discord are just damage control. But what's more, they are deliberately meant to mislead because they are so incredibly contradictory and leave out critical information.
This is the gist of what Spitz says: He tells us that internal discussions are ongoing about PSN linking and AH is trying to find alternative solutions. If AH can't find a better way, AH won't force players to link PSN. The steam announcement, FAQ, and PSN link is from Sony and not AH, (That's some bullshit. AH KNEW this was coming and AH had some say in it. You're leaving information out.) Spitz then apologizes for telling people to either make a PSN account or review bomb the game and piss off. (Not that it means anything, Spitz will probably just do it again in the future with that attitude) Spitz finally says we should continue to review bomb the game and gives them more pull in discussions with Sony. This is crazy. Developers asking players to review bomb the game further?
Let's take a look.
On the 3rd, Pilestedt is clearly aware and sad about the reviews. But Spitz tells us to keep the bombs coming, thanks for your help. We can make a better game this way. What?
At this point time, anger is aimed at Sony and Spitz does not reveal what they almost certainly always knew provides no clarity nor honesty to us, because the CEO revealed on the 5th that they knew for 6 months (9 months now) that they were going to do PSN integration.
Spitz simply leaves out this part and keeps on saying Sony Sony Sony. But Misty PROVES that they knew about EVERYTHING with the initial tweet on the 3rd that the CMs panicked and tried to hide. There is NO mention of this by Spitz!! Unless you are telling me something absolutely INSANE - that the CM team is SO disorganized that SOMEHOW, Misty has never talked to Spitz between the 3rd and 5th during a major crisis, there is CLEARLY something suspicious going on. Spitz says we are on the player's side. (Even though the CEO later reveals that through likely internal+PS discussions, they settled on PSN integration, probably to ban people better as Misty claims) Spitz says Sony did the announcement. (AH knew this was coming months ago) Oh, by the way, Sony, not us, made the FAQ, the Steam announcement and change. (Even though there's no way the AH team did not coordinate and talk to the Sony team)

In no way is Spitz helping us. On the 3rd, Misty had said the overwhelming number of people trying to link accounts for the first half hour of launch was what caused them to disable linking. You didn't know Asian helldivers couldn't do this...? You looked at attempted PSN links on launch day and didn't notice the problem in certain areas? Nothing is 'wrong', but this sounds very strange...
Spitz claims he didn't know some countries didn't have the ability to make the PSN account which screwed over our Asia Helldivers. This sounds strange. You are telling me that 6+ months ago, AH knew about PSN linkage but no person in AH or Sony knew that PSN accounts were not possible in many areas and NO ONE brought this up? This is not Sony's first time publishing a game. The CEO also claims this, and while yes it is plausible, it is just... suspicious. And the CEO says they were 'forced' to comply with PS and they KNEW there was going to be backlash. I am just going to stop speculating here and say three people are saying three different things. I feel like I am doing law school exam problems that are like: "Bob lied, but Nancy blames Ernest. John said Ernest tells the truth all the time."

And to address the craziest statement you will probably never see a developer call for ever again: You should review bomb the game. This is what really got me interested. I don't know what to make of this remark, but here is the best I can do:
If this game trained Helldivers to do something well, it's to collaborate on a major order.
At this point in time - people are absolutely just destroying the game on steam.
AH is watching their playerbase plummet, but there is a silver lining while this is going on - everyone is angry at Sony! And almost not at AH at all. Given how deceptive Spitz has been in leaving out just the right details, Spitz - is roleplaying the Super Earth Propaganda Minister (SEPM) by pushing all the blame onto Sony and keeping AH friendly with players. In conflict with this, Misty's statement on the 3rd would have made it seem like AH was the origin of the reason for PSN integration, which to this day, I'm still not certain how much of this was desired by AH.
If the players were all angry at AH, the game would be dead or have a far harder time recovering. We would no longer trust the developers. If the players directed their anger at Sony, players aren't really angry at the game and just want Sony to back down. AH can recover much more of its reputation and playerbase more easily. This is what AH would prefer if it had the choice between one or the other.
Why am I ultimately this suspicious of their CM team?

This is because this is a story about the Helldivers CMs who are roleplaying Super Earth Secret Police just a little bit too hard.

Every time they have only worsened AH's headaches with deceptive and rude treatment of their own community.
Going back, there is a trail of mess coming out of the discord and these community team that perfectly explains how they like to operate. Here is one of the most notable examples.

The F incident

If you haven't heard of the "F" incident, it began with people spamming the word "F" in their official server chat because the game went down. People were clearly just having fun bantering. To keep control, the moderation team actually PINGED the 100,000 members in the server, telling them to stop spamming "F" and threatening bans over spamming "F".
OBVIOUSLY THIS BACKFIRED. 100,000 people were pinged for the stupidest reason ever heard of, IMMEDIATELY more people started typing "F" in chat.
WELL regarding the bans, they weren't kidding. Summary here. So real quick, putting "F" in chat got you permabanned from the server. They don't even give a reason. You'll just find out that the server is gone from your server list. And no, you can't come back.
I think the moderator who did this and not the CM was kicked out for this. (might not be true) Well. Regardless this is just a case of idiots pulling in yet more idiots.
Frankly, I've never seen a server run more poorly and the way that their official discord is managed (not very well) only exposes how rude the people in their community team is toward the community. They would be deceptive when honesty is better. At one point we all loved this game and maybe we can continue doing so. But if we come back from this their community team needs to change.

In the official discord, I mean, let's just look at just a couple reasons I've seen people get banned for.

• "banned because someone linked my comment pinging a mod, instead of the actual person talking shit, and they banned me lmao", the mod "Didn’t even bother to check why they got pinged."
• Telling a mod they missed 90% of warhammer talk
• Talking about warhammer
• Having only numbers in your username. Who even cares, and why are you permabanning people for this? Not even a kick, just permaban?
• Mistyping a word, having automod catch it, being permabanned without warning or notification. You're not kicked. You're permanently banned.
• "I'm not on the official for whatever reason. I've been banned and I don't know why. All I can think of is because I called people who kick with no warning cucks." (probably talking about helldivers gameplay)
• Being banned for asking when some bugs would be fixed

What happens if people try to appeal the bans with an alt? They can get permabanned too.
It's just a mess how AH community team sees hundreds of thousands of players and thinks it won't make a dent in their numbers if they just treat people like garbage. What is the point of this community team? Well, the problem with having these types of people on your team is shown very well in how they have handled recent events.
In the end, what seems fair to say is that PSN integration was going to roll out at launch. It was delayed. Months after launch, it was re-implemented, but this was perceived as Sony's decision, and players were suspicious that Sony was trying to inflate their user count for the shareholders. However, it appears to be more complicated over exactly who wanted how much PSN integration. But again, the lack of consistency from either the CEO or the CMs and hostility from the Super Earth Secret Police who are supposed to be community managers has been the only constant.
Thanks for reading.
cue helldivers music
Since I do not use reddit I am just using my friend's account here to share this piece with you all. I just picked a category, hopefully that works.

I had some more weird shit happen last night.
I took my two dogs for walks, I normally walk Fin (large, all black German Shepherd) toward the park where I have had these experiences, and I walk Booger (chi terrier mix) the other direction toward downtown.
On my walk with Fin, about a block away in the direction I was headed, I saw 3 or 4 deer calmly walking toward the park. Most nights where something "weird" happens to me start like this. The deer seemed completely unbothered by me as I approached. They kept walking toward the park but stopped every few steps to look back at me, as if they wanted me to follow them. Then, as Fin and I reached where the deer were, I notice about 10 or more other deer waiting as well. They all start walking together, calm, but still looking back at me every few feet. On my way toward the park i smell the stench of rotting meat, I know the smell very well as I used to be a butcher. It was strong. Like someone plugged my nostrils with rotting ground meat or something. At the same time I smell this stench, I get the chills. Fin's hair stands up and he gets more nervous. I can feel the air around me get colder.
As we continue walking I look down an alleyway that cuts the block in half and, if you would walk down the dark alley, would spot you out where I eventually walk back home. I was two blocks away from the park, when you reach the park you can either turn around and walk down the same road, you can continue into the park, or you can continue on the road which turns left. Looking down that alleyway you are looking at the part of the road that continues left, which is the way I take every night on my way back home.
What I saw I tried to convince myself wasn't real or maybe I just saw something else and my brain tried to convince me it was this.
A large, muscular, pale, hairless, creature (?) that was moving fast. So fast I could barely see it, I saw the motion down the alley about two blocks away. The exit of the alley on that side has a street light directly above it, it wasn't standing still, it was moving and it was moving fast. The only reason I'm positive what I saw wasn't deer or something normal is because of something I saw later that night that I will write about when I talk about my walk with Booger. It solidified that what I saw was something I wasn't supposed to see.
In the meantime I convinced myself I was making stuff up and being a pussy. As we approach the treeline of the park, the large group of deer move to the side of the street where the neighborhood is, while I'm on the side with the treeline. I noticed something in the clearing. A lone deer, separate from the large group across the street, staring directly at me.
I have my flashlight pointed at him, and I even hung up my call with my wife to use my phone to take video of this moment.
This lone deer doesn't even have micro movements from breathing. The other deer across the street were constantly readjusting.
You might be thinking to yourself "oh yeah, deer do that with bright lights shining at them. Deer in headlights always act like that." Just wait.
Fin starts to pull very hard and acts anxious, nearly knocking me over, I turn to look across the street towards the large group of deer for at most 3 seconds before quickly turning around to face the lone deer again.
In those 3 seconds, that lone deer is easily 30 feet closer to me, still not moving, staring directly at me. I have this on video, I have pictures. I felt weird, I felt unsafe. I've lived in rural Iowa my whole life, I am and have always lived outdoors. This didn't feel normal. I was scared.
I back away while shining my light at the deer, once I get a block or so away, he finally turns around and calmly walks into the tree line.
The whole way home I feel like I'm being stalked, not just watched, but like something is following me.
Here is a link to that video of the deer getting closer to me:
https://youtube.com/shorts/S1l2FRxKO58?si=Dv8362ajs7DR8UWw
Now, I went home and sat for a bit and tried to talk myself into believing it was all coincidence. After nearly 20 minutes, I started to walk Booger, my smaller chi mix.
The entire walk was nice and very enjoyable actually, I had my earbuds in and was talking to my wife about what I saw in a joking way.
"Man I'm such a pussy, I really scared myself for no reason" I said.
At the end of the walk I turn to go down our alleyway, as I leave from the garage on our walks.
I stop speaking from what I saw on the opposite end of the alley. My wife heard me stop.
I want to preface this with I did not have any substances, including alcohol, for weeks up to that point. The most I ever do in that department is a few beers or I'll use some weed to ease anxiety if life is getting hard. I have no mental conditions that will cause me to hallucinate, the most I have is a personality disorder resulting from trauma that I've been overcoming quickly this last year.
I saw two, large, muscular, pale, hairless creatures walking like apes at the end of the alley. The same thing I thought I saw with fin, this time not going fast, much closer, and it felt intentional. I saw them walk across the street very slowly, staring directly at me. These were not deer.
They didn't have long faces like deer, they didn't have fur or tails, they didn't walk like deer. They weren't slender like a deer. My first thought was honestly that I was looking at two hairless male lions. In the middle of Iowa.
I stood there, paralyzed with fear, well after they had left my sight. 15 seconds later, I finally get the courage to walk the few feet into the garage, when I take my first step, I see a third one. Slowly meandering across the street. Staring at me. Booger noticed him too, and started growling.
I ran to the door and watched the garage shut all the way.
The entire night, Fin guarded the bedroom door. He never does that. He sat staring at the door all night. Booger stared at the windows all night. He never does that either.
This happened to me yesterday night, Monday, May 13, 2024.
I don't know what to think.

After everything that's been going on in Egghead, and with some recent updates we've just received, it's safe to assume that the next arc will take place in the legendary island of Elbaf! Which is bound to be the best since the last few arcs so far!
Now I currently don't know how it will play out or if the Strawhats & their allies will really go there unless something gets in the way. But for this post, I will share with you a list of what my expectations are, whether you agree with me or not. So without further ado, let's begin shall we.
The Arc of God Usopp
This is pretty obvious! Ever since Little Garden, Usopp often talked about how he wanted to be like the Giants of Elbaf. And just like many people, I think going to that island should be the best & possibly the only time for him to shine like never before! This could even be a great opportunity for Usopp to:

• Improve on his CoO, and maybe even unlock more Haki abilities.
• Gain a new weapon, whether or not his current one got destroyed.
• Meet his "bad" father - Yasopp, which I'll talk more about a bit later.
• have one of his oldest & most iconic lies become reality!

The Library of Ohara (Robin & Saul's reunion)
Thanks to Vegapunk telling the SH about his visit to Ohara after the Buster Call, not only did we learn that most of the books were saved, but it turns out that Robin's old friend Saul survived & his currently hiding for his own safety! Which means that we will have a very unexpected reunion just around the corner, while also knowing more about the Void Century that even Vegapunk himself may not!
Vivi's involvement
To anyone who have been a fan of Vivi since the day Luffy's crew 1st entered the Grand Line, you should know that the Desert Princess also encountered Brogy & Dorry when they visited Little Garden. So it make sense she has an important role in Elbaf the moment she officially reunites with the SH as possibly their "final" member, while also having both Morgans & Wapol tag along with them!
Who knows, perhaps during their visit to where the books are located, we may learn more about her ancestor - Nefertari D. Lily (or Lili), and what really happened to after refusing to become a Celestial Dragon while also not returning to Alabasta. Which I will mention in another post about another society.
The Long awaited reunion between Emperors
Now I know that this has a 50/50 chance to come true. But with all the viking reference that the Red Hair Pirates has had until now, I believe that Luffy & Shanks's long awaited reunion as fellow Emperors should undoubtedly take place in Elbaf of all places! I also wouldn't be surprised if Shanks was partly responsible for having the Giants come to Egghead in the 1st place.
And although this is mostly a personal thing, I would like to see Luffy to use his CoC to knock out some of the new Red Hair Pirate members just like Shanks did with Whitebeard's when meeting him!
Plus, during that moment, besides just some chapter 1 tributes, as well as Usopp & Yasopp finally getting some fatheson time together, I would like Oda to have Luffy & Shanks talk about Ace, Bartolomeo, and even Blackbeard.
However, since the moment in Wano when Jinbe fought Who's Who, I would also like Luffy's latest crewmember to participate in the reunion by asking Shanks why he took the Nika Fruit from the Government, and what he was really going to do with it if Luffy never ate it!? Which now leads to the next part of my list!
More information about Nika
Thanks to Vegapunk's message in the recent chapter, not only did we have more confirmation that Joy Boy was the last known person to awaken the Nika Fruit, but the story of the Sun God himself originated in Elbaf of all places!
Now although the scientist may explain everything he knows about it in the next chapter or 2, I believe the Elbaf arc should be the perfect time to learn how Nika's legend began, and how it was eventually shared with other people like the Buccaneers, Lunarians, as well as the Skypieans!
Including the Fishman, since Jinbe said "the Warrior of liberation", which means that he & his fellow Fishmans know more about Nika than we were lead to think!
But most importantly, if the story Nika did originate in Elbaf, then that means the other Gods that were mentioned in Noland's flashback (the Gods of Rain, Forest, and Earth) could also share the same place of origin as the Sun God himself! Which might make us 1 step closer into finding out who the current users of the other Legendary Zoans are, and whether they are in good hands or not.
Plus, I believe that during that moment, Luffy himself should not sleep on this one, and I think Shanks will make sure of it! Who knows, this could help Luffy gain better understanding woth his powers, as well as give him the edge he needs to surpass Joyboy!
Kid's comeback & character development
Now I know that most people believe that Kid's character arc ended the moment Shanks used Divine Departure on him, and took his Poneglyph writting. And even if he does return, he'll become another Moriah!
However, I'm not one of those people, and I believe Kid's time is far from over!
From the Giants' perspective, Kid & Law are the 2 heroes that defeated Big Mom, one of their most hated enimes. So surely not everyone in Elbaf will like what Shanks, Brogy, & Dorry did to him, even though the Red Haired Emperor was trying to save his Fleet, and the 2 Giants were out of the loop while they were gone for so long.
In fact, if what happened to Kid was anything like how the Strawhats were defeated in Sabody, then surely either Shanks or anyone who was there at the time could've told Kid almost the same thing Kuma said to Luffy about how he & his crew weren't ready yet, but has faith in them.
After all, Luffy may be an Emperor, but he isn't the only Pirate representing his generation. The same can be said for Whitebeard before Roger died.
Plus, let's not also forget that Kid was the first person to mention the man marked by flame, so it make sense that he should stick around long enough to meet the person face to face.
And if that person saw what happened to Kid & his crew, and saved them from drowning, perhaps he could become his Rayleigh, but instead of just helping him become strong enough to also be an Emperor, the man would teach Kid a lesson in humility. Which is a common thing for most anime rival's character arc.
Of course, just like what we got from Law & Bonney recently, we may get to see Kid's sad backstory, which may confirm whether or not the theory of him being Vegapunk's "7th Sattelite" is true, since some of his moves has "Punk" in their names.
And also the reveal of his Devil Fruit is also as important as that of his fellow Supernovas since magnetism has had big role since the SH entered the Grand Line.
Hajrudin's role
When I read about how the Narrator stated that the Egghead Incident may shock the world, I honestly thought that this would become the best time for the Straw Hat Grand Fleet to appear during their Emperor's time of needs.
Unfortunately, that theory eventually became debunked due to everything that has happened since that speech.
However, I believe that the Strawhats' visit to Elbaf would make up for that, and the only reason I think so is because one of the Grand Fleet capitans is actually a native of Elbaf! That's right, I'm talking about the leader of the New Giant Warrior Pirates himself, Hajrudin!
Now in case you aren't aware, Hajrudin & his crew recently made some interesting Cameo appearances in both Big Mom & Vegapunk's respective flashbacks! Specifically, during Big Mom days with Mother Caramel, we see him & his crew as kids. And when Vegapunk & Dragon met in Ohara, he was one of the Giants lead by Saul to recover the books that survived the Buster Call!
With those facts, it would stand to reason that Hajrudin is bound to have an important role in Elbaf, which makes sense since this trope has been used by every citizen of a country the Strawhats has ever met until now.
The "revenge" of the Big Mom Pirates
Now Idk whether or not Big Mom herself will make another comeback, but I can suspect that the remnants of her crew would appear since they also have some unfinished business to settle, as well as the fact that they once tried to put aside their mother's differences with the giants by having Lola marry Loki. Which failed due to her decision making at the time.
And even though Kid & Law were responsible for Big Mom's seeming demise, it's possible that the Big Mom Pirates will also blame the Strawhats for that, whether or not this will make them feel bad for them!
However, I do think that during this encounter, it could also be a chance to learn that Pudding was Kid during the events in Wano, which may lead to the Strawhats will do next after Elbaf, and that will also be part of my next blog!
Well I don't know about you, but what do you think of this list? If you have any opinions on this topic, or know any else that could be added, then please tell me in the comments section below, and br on the lookout for more posts i hope to make before the next chapter. Thank you!

So my ex and I have a 2 year old son together. We use a court approved app to communicate and have a no-contact order (phones) in place. She has been threatening to come after more child support from me for months and it finally came to a head where we had to come to a new arrangement that I thought would settle things down. Since then, she messages me on the app every day to tell me I’m a shitty father and how I’m such a bad person because I am in a relationship. I feel as though I have to check the messages as they may be an emergency with my son, but every time I do it’s either her threatening to come for more money, threatening to try and take more time with my son away, or just overall calling me a POS. I work two jobs and make ~$70k/year while she is voluntarily unemployed. Is there anything I can do to get her to stop sending me shitty messages every single day? I have asked many times (in the app) to keep our conversations strictly about our son, but she just excuses everything she says as it involves our son. I’m losing my mind being called a POS every day and hope there is something I can do.

ok so basically junior prom just happened and somehow me and my friends' prom dates all happen to be a friend group themselves. most of us were going just as friends (which is what i thought my date and i were going as). prom was ass and i spent the whole time trying to avoid my date bc he started to drop hints that he was into me but the after party was fun. at the after party my date was all over me and it was highkey gross 😭 but basically we all drank a lot and were just having fun.
one of my friends (we're not super close but we're still good buddies) went with this guy that i've always kind of liked and who i've always thought was super cute and funny. my friend was NOT into him at all though, and they barely hung out together at prom. after prom and before the party i was in the bathroom with her and i asked her if she liked him and she said "hell nah he's so annoying" and when i was like "i lowkey fw him" she said "yeah u have my blessing i'm not into him at all." but later on that night she got totally wasted and was lying on top of him totally blackout drunk and he kissed her even though she was obliterated. the next day my friend wasn't bothered that he kissed her but she said that she wouldn't have wanted it if she was sober. all of the girls got really mad and were like "he assaulted her" (which i lowkey don't agree with bc he was also drunk and she kissed him back) and the guys were all making fun of him and created rumors that he raped her 💀
ok so by now everything has blown over but everybody knows what happened between the two of them and there's some bad blood. also i've had to deal with my date and it was very awkward but i friend zoned him. i really like the guy who's now hated by a lot of my friends 😭 should i make a move or not? also i haven't spoken about liking him to the friend that went with him since the kiss happened. i really don't want to upset her, but i don't think that would happen bc she literally did not care abt everything that went down. however, our friends really hate the guy
tldr i like a guy who my friends hate for "taking advantage" of my friend and who is friends with the guy i just friendzoned. would it be bad of me and will there be bad repercussions if i make a move 😭

Wife comes from an abusive home. Her mom died when she was 11, her dad got remarried and her stepmom is kinda abusive. Her dad was always nice but Stepmom created a toxic environment and her dad slowly turned against even resorting to beating her and she couldn't take it anymore and started resenting her dad as well. We are both together since we were 15 or 16. Her dad never liked me because he wanted her to marry someone like his wife's sisters son. We are Middle Eastern and this is more or less accepted. Anyway she ran away from home at 21 when they refused our marriage and started living with me.
Now we recently moved to London and I'm currently employed here on a work visa.I plan on settling here. My wife is 8 months pregnant God Bless. I have a stable job. We are happy. But right about after a week we found out about her being pregnant my mom called me saying my wife's dad and stepmom, came to her house begging her to let him see his daughter. Now I have no idea where he got my mom's address from but my mom had to call the police to and get him restrained. After that there was no contact for 3 or 4 months or so. But then one day out of the blue I get a call from a foreign number and it's her stepmom. Now I had no intention of talking to her at all but she told me she regrets if she wronged my wife in any way, and told me her dad is extremely sick, and had a stroke a few days ago. He is currently bedridden and his last wish is to see his daughter for the last time. When he found out my wife was pregnant, I have no idea how he found out , he felt extreme guilt and he actually knew my parents address all this time but never contacted them. I guess he must have thought good riddance but now he feels guilt? But the way he said it was so sincere and I felt extremely bad. I tried to settle the thing by sending him pictures of us and more or less trying to end this matter. Now he told me that if I didn't let him talk to my wife it would be a bad omen or a curse on him. He wants to apologise and make it up to his daughter before he dies.
My wife has very strictly told me to never even mention her father's name again. Even mentioning the idea of reconciliation makes her cry and the memories and flashbacks send her into a conversation that ends with her crying and having a mental breakdown. What's even more worse is she's in her third trimester and her stepmom called me 11 times last night but I didn't pick up. I really don't want to tell my wife about her dad because I fear shes going to have another mental breakdown. This pregnancy has already been pretty rough and I don't have any idea how she's gonna react to knowing her dad is sick. I want to tell her because I don't want to be responsible when if he passes away and I'll live with the guilt for the rest of my life that I maybe could have given him some peace. But on the other hand my wife's attitude towards her dad and stepmom is that they don't exist and they never existed. She has told me stories when her stepmom used to turn off the ceiling fan in her room even when it was hot to save electricity, or when she would force her to eat nothing but rice with water. And when she complained to her dad he never listened, but when her stepmom told him lies about his daughter, he believed them and even went as far as to beat her up with a stick.
There's a part of me that just wants to say fuck you I don't care what you say. And there's a part of me that feels bad for an old father who regrets treating his daughter like that. There's also a part of me that thinks why now did he have to contact us when he could have probably done it in the last 4 years or so.
I'm currently contemplating what I should do. Should I tell my wife or should I at least wait until the baby's here and then slowly break down the news? Thing is I'm not entirely sure if her dad is gonna actually gonna be there when I eventually tell her, if I do at all. My wife can tell something has been bothering me and she thinks it's work but I'm just completely trying to ignore my thoughts but she's already asked me whats wrong and honestly I haven't told her anything but as I'm typing this my heart is racing and the stress of the situation is killing me.
My biggest fear is if I tell her I'm gonna affect the pregnancy. Like my baby's gonna be harmed. But still I'm feeling like a terrible person keeping this from her.

Hi all! So my husband is military, his home state is Colorado. every year we file federal taxes together and then he files Colorado state taxes and I file California state taxes. We were about to order a Tesla Model Y based on the financing promo of 0.99% APR and then husbands mom mentioned the Colorado state ev rebate. Will my husband likely qualify for the EV rebate from CO if we order and take delivery of the vehicle from Colorado? We are going to be there for a couple weeks anyway and figured we could simply pick it up and register the vehicle in Colorado since he pays Colorado taxes already.
Thank you for any insight !

Notes: This is more of a venting but I need advice post. Also a lot of story telling for background info.
TLDR; My friend/crush hasn't responded to my texts for 2 weeks after he said he missed me. He's been online but is leaving me on delivered. Everything has gone positively and perfect up until now. And I am nervous for the worst case scenario. What do I do?
I (20'sF) have been friends with this guy (20'sM) for 5 years. We have a lot in common. From religion to music to overall interests. We can agree on a lot. I had a huge crush on him when we went to school. But he had rejected me because he didn't want a relationship. In which he has stuck to for the 5 years I've known him. After school he joined the military and I'd hear from him once or twice every couple of months. Which was okay because it gave me time to relieve my crush on him. But overall he was the ideal guy, I find him highly attractive, super intelligent, and overall a great person.
I never truly got over the crush, but I just let it sit in the back of my head.
We both went on with our lives, I had my first boyfriend. But it never worked out. But last summer he came home and asked if I wanted to go out. So I was excited to agree to it. We spent all day together, just talking about random stuff and catching up on life. He asked me to hang out again the next day so we went to a movie. It all went fairly well, it just felt like we were reconnecting and we became stronger friends.
After he left I went on with my life as he went on with his. I had gone out on one date with a former classmate from high school. And it didn't work out because there wasn't a connection. But when November came around, my friend had text me and asked if he should come home. In fact, his reasoning of coming home was to see his family and because he had missed me.
We had only talked 2-3 times a month between him leaving and him coming home again.
He came home in December and he had text me to make plans. He wanted to go ice skating and so he took me for the first time. He had insisted on putting my skates for me because I was struggling. And he wanted to hold my hand so he could protect me from falling. After that we went to a mall and he bought me a candle (and one for himself). Then we went to a pho cafe and had lunch. I got to hear his fun stories from when he had pho as a kid. It was so fun just listening to him be excited about what he likes. Although he isn't a talkative guy, he's always been known to be really quiet and introverted.
Later after that, we went back to my house and spent some time talking. He found interest in my rings and asked about them. He was just sitting next to me and ASKED if he could kiss me. I have never really heard of someone asking first. But I am also inexperienced in kissing, so that explains it. We had kissed and then we went up to my room and cuddled. We just appreciated each other's presence, kissing, holding hands, laughing, playing with each other's hair, all of that.
A couple days later, I saw this car rolling up my street slowly while I was out walking my dog. It happened to be him and his parents. They knew about me and wanted to see where I lived. So I got to meet his parents. Later on, my friend would text me and ask various questions his parents had for me.
I invited him over a couple days before he left for his home. I made him dinner and we had a drink or two. After that we went to my room again to watch tv and cuddle. We basically did what we did the previous time and some other things. The next day, I was just hanging out at home and I heard a car door outside. It was my friend. He stopped by to say goodbye before he left to go home. He said bye, kissed me once more, and then got in his dad's vehicle and left.
When he got home we talked almost everyday with maybe a 3-4 day break in between talking. Which was a huge step. He'd complement me, say that he thought I was really sweet, he wished me happy birthday 4 times (yes, 4 times. He was also the first to say it), and things of that sort. I returned the complements and so on. He even joked about us getting married. Which was so sweet. We've talk about how we missed each other several times and how we can't wait to see each other again. Talked about when he'll come home and that I'd be one of the main reasons he'd come home. Everything is great. Although he didn't want a relationship until the future. Which is okay, because he has stuck to that for the years I've known him. But everything still went fairly smoothly. It feels like a fresh breath of air.
I would always ask him how he is doing. Or he'd just tell me about his day before I could even ask. If I was delayed in response, I'd always apologize and he'd say there was nothing to be sorry about. He'd constantly reassure me. Which is a great sign, friend-wise and potential-partner-wise. He is such a great guy personality wise, highly intelligent, very kind, likes to listen but is generally a quiet person, always tells the truth, has a good sense of humor, and so on. He's also always happy for me when I talk about something like a job offering or something big in my life. As I'm always happy for him when he has something exciting going on. We're always supporting each other and hoping that we're in the best shape.
All the way up until 2 weeks ago, everything went incredibly well. I have never had a guy actually treat me like this. I mean, things could still be well, but who knows.
He had texted me one morning like usual. So I responded when I was able to (maybe an hour later). And I haven't heard from him since. I get that life gets in the way or he may have to prioritize something differently. But it is unlike him to just drop out. I've occasionally noticed that he had been online. So why isn't he responding? I know well that he isn't seeing anyone. Since he sticks to his word. Plus his last words to me were: "I miss spending time with you" (we were talking about something he missed from back home and that he didn't know when he'll get to return). I texted him after not hearing from him for a week and still nothing. I am afraid he is ghosting me although I feel like he wouldn't do such thing. I just get scared of that from past experiences. So, maybe he is just busy? Maybe he has something high-priority going on? Maybe he is just being his introverted self and kinda keeping to himself? We are just friends for now so it shouldn't bother me too much. But I still get worried for him. (although when I mentioned a few years ago that I got worried for him, he had said that he hopes I didn't worry too much). I understand that it would be difficult for us to date and that maybe right now wouldn't be a good time to date since neither of us are in a position to date (we're both still trying to find a balanced routine, calm down, take care of ourselves, and navigate being adults lol. plus I am just starting in a professional workforce so I am trying to balance life with that too).
What do I do? Does anyone have a take or any advice on this?
Note: please do ask questions incase I come off in a wrong or weird way. thank you!!!

Hello,
I've never posted about this kind of stuff, but I've never experienced such a persistent nagging pain
My ex and I had a very turbulent 7 year relationship, I initially met her months after healing from another long term relationship, about 25 years, and that ended amicably, and to this day I see her as a friend.
The beginning of our relationship was amazing, it was very sexually charged, she was into everything and anything I did, she was sweet, comforting, a great listener, the times we had were almost euphoric. Even during this phase of the relationship, I acknowledged to myself that I have to take things slow as things are moving so fast.
About a month and a half into "dating" she got pregnant, and I told her I will be there for you, and I'll never run away from being a Father, ever! Immediately everything changed, and of course I understand why and empathize with how she may have felt suddenly being pregnant, and I genuinely cared and made myself available at all times. We only lived a building apart, we were basically doors down from each other.
Immediately she wanted to get a place together, I let her know that she could stay with me anytime, give it a trial run, but we still need to get know each other, as I just got over a 25 year relationship. She started staying with me on and off and I began seeing a complete different side of her, she would storm out of my place and take issue with little things like clothes on the floor, or an unmade bed, I mean over the top anger.
Still throughout this period I began falling in love with her, and falling in love with my unborn child. During this period I started discovering a pattern of lies, some just white lies, some extremely severe, lies that had the potential to affect any sort of positive outcome as they entailed criminal behavior. When confronted with the worst ones I was assured she would stop.
Skip ahead to the birth, I was with her, we were both content, a happy beautiful healthy daughter came from the womb. I was in love, both with my child, as well as the Mother. We were inseparable for awhile, then she became extremely controlling, even vicious at times. My time with my daughter was often relegated to when the Mother was asleep, I would let her sleep when my daughter woke up in the night and bond with her then.
One day she got extremely upset with me as I wanted to bring my daughter and her to a family event, she had an issue with a family member of mine, this turned into a CRAZY argument, that ended up with me being denied seeing my child for over 12 days. I ended up going to the courthouse to file papers that would give me the legal right to see my daughter, regardless of the status of my relationship with the Mother.
I never served those papers, as my daughter had gotten sick, and we both met at her pediatrician appointment, everything melted away and we were together again, she became loving again, we shared bringing up our child, but I began to lose touch with all my family, including my friends, anything I would do or plan to do would cause an insane amount of friction.
Through this time we did our best to be close, but the lies never stopped, and I completely began to lose my sense of self. There were times when my daughter would be completely weaponized, used as a pawn to control me, I slowly began isolating myself from just about anyone but my daughter and the Mother. We would have an argument, could be anything, big or small, and instantly I'd be disregarded, no communication, no texts, no calls, no responses. Then we would get together and she would show me love and kindness, and I'd be hooked again. This on and off pattern lasted a good 6 years. I still struggle thinking about how dark some of those days were, and I've never strayed or abandoned my daughter. She's the light of my life, just has 2 parents that can't seem to live peacefully together.
Forward to now, just a few months ago we talked and decided it would be best to part and focus on co-parenting. The 1st month was great, we were cordial to each other during pick ups and drop offs, but we stopped both putting our child to bed together. If she had her I used to always go over and put her to bed, read books, bathe, etc and she would for the most part so the same when I have my daughter. We stopped that, as when my daughter did fall asleep that's when we would connect, quite often it was just sexual, looking back it was like giving a dog a bone, it was void of true intimacy, it was just enough to keep things balanced in an odd way, it became the only affection I came to know.
This entire time, regardless of our status, whenever we were with other people she was a gem, she always would bring gifts even if not necessary, always be extremely affectionate towards me, basically playing a part.
Here's an example, I got sick one evening, some sort of food poisoning, it got bad enough where I had to go to the hospital and be treated in a bed from early morning until evening. This happened to fall on a night we had planned a "date" night. She came to the hospital to pick me up, my parents were there and she was as sweet as you could imagine, as soon as I got discharged and we were driving home, now just the two of us, she flipped on me for ruining our date. She bought tickets to a show, and she was recklessly pissed off and as mean as one could imagine, and I was still sick, she ended up storming out of my place.
These kinds of situations became normal, and a nonstop cycle of on again/off again partners became the norm.
I'm getting long winded now, but I'll come back to the present. After about a month of just co-parenting and coming to terms with ending any sort of romantic relationship, and being cordial to one another, she started reminiscing about our past, sharing pictures of happy times with my daughter and us together, pictures of just her and I, messages of love, how she misses me, will always love me, all these things, and I opened the door again. This was days before she worked be leaving for a "yoga retreat" and I would have my daughter. Needless to say, those 4 days there was no more communication, not even with my daughter. The 1st communication on a Sunday morning was about being together again, and now sentiments of love.
This has since happened 2 more times, always surrounded by secrecy, even if it directly affects my daughter, which it has. Come to find out she was never away, "out of town" she was just down the road at an Airbnb with some guy that flies in from out of state, she told me all this and actually said how much I would like him, and that this guy would love to meet me, and at the same time maintaining how much she still loves me.
This coming week my daughter and her are taking their first "vacation" without me involved. I was completely fine with this, expressing how I first had mixed feelings, only because my daughter has never really traveled without me and her Mother, but came to terms with it and even started suggesting places to show her, a beach to check out, dolphins in these waters, manatees here etc. The guy she's been seeing at random airbnbs lives in the state they are flying too
It's just thrown me for such a loop. I haven't truly trusted her for a while for good reasons, lots of lies, and complete disregard for any prior planned commitments, but this just feels out of the park, and has me feeling like an emotional weakling. Yesterday I responded to an email saying "I just need to process some of this stuff and not communicate unless it has to do with our daughter", the response was crazy, completely shitting on me as a person on how much I've wronged her and how I never cared for her and all this stuff. My reply was you are right, I'm sorry, I've been having trouble letting go, but I'm now ready too, let's focus on being the best we can be for our daughter.
Instant reply of what a great father I am, how I've always been there, how much my daughter loves me and counts down the days to when I have her. How sorry she is that she treated me poorly, etc. It's all just nuts, and I can't simply not communicate, and I'm so confused as to why I'm feeling so hurt by all this stuff while I recognize the healthiest thing I can do for myself is truly let go. I have so many mixed emotions I can't even think about dating, or even chilling with someone new. I'm all over the place, mainly sad, it's so confusing.
Apologies for such a long winded post, may not even make clear sense, just let my "swipe" keyboard go nuts for a bit
Hope you are all well!

This is probably going to be a long post so I'm sorry.
I am pregnant with my first due June 3rd and I just am trying to gather info and hear some perspectives of others to help me come to a decision.
I honestly think I would have had an abortion if it was legal in my state when I found out I was pregnant. I don't think abortion is ideal at all and don't really think elective abortion is ethical beyond the first trimester unless for medical/health reasons or rape/incest, but I only wanted to have a child if I knew I could actually provide for them/have a supportive partner because that's what a child deserves. I just didn't and still haven't known the father of my child very long. We met in July and I got pregnant in September.
I was not on BC because I had never been to an OB/GYN at all in my life at that point. I also kinda assumed it would be hard for me to get pregnant because I have had irregular periods for a long time, but I guess I should have known better. Also I was raised Mormon (exmormon since i was about 21) and my mom never felt the need to take me to an OB/GYN I guess because as Mormons we werent supposed to have sex until marriage and I also remember her basically telling me mormon girls dont go to dr usually til they get married or are having obvious issues. And then i got into an abusive relationship at 21 and he wouldn't let me go to the dr at all and basically scared me about going because he basically told me all the OB/GYNs were perverts (which in retrospect he probably didnt want me to go because 1) he was the real pervert who raped and SA'ed me plus hit me, etc. 2) he probably didnt want to be found out, at my current dr ive seen so many posters about DV)....also when I got eligible for benefits for work, my abuser ex would get mad when I talked about signing up for them. I think because he knew it would take money away from him since I felt obligated to spend all my money on him. He would pick out "luxury" items he wanted to purchase with my paycheck before it even hit my account.
I got the courage to leave my abusive ex in May 2023 after YEARs of not wanting to be there. (Lived with ex and his mom 2016-2023 and he started abusing within the first year) My current partner hid that he has been in active addiction and I didn't really know til I was pregnant. I feel like he could be a lovely partner if he could get his shit together, but so far he has not been able to do so. He can go for a few days sometimes without using, then just goes back to it. I am so exhausted of life in everyway. I have never had bad intentions in life and I just am so tired of feeling like trying so hard and it goes nowhere and I don't understand how other people can just get people in their life that treat them right. It is a curse to be me and try to be a nice person. It just ends up wirh being hurt by others. I feel like how the pregnancy has been is going to be a reflection of how it will be once the baby is born. I want to have a lot of hope in my current partner that he will get better, but I am already hurting so much. Ive been having financial issues again because of his addiction and again I am feeling like I wish I had not went back around people after leaving my ex and just kept to myself. I have realised as an adult why I spent so much time alone in my room as a kid.
I have never felt comfortable talking to my parents for help with anything, since childhood. My mom is a very anxious person and has always made negative comments idk. I feel really hurt as an adult still because of stuff from my childhood idk. I had terrible self esteem growing up and still dont have very good self esteem. I feel like i can't tell her this stuff because she might be offended.
I feel like a horrible person if I give my baby up for adoption because I am so close to having the baby and I already have announced and received gifts for the baby. I already feel like a complete failure in life though and am exhausted by everything and everyone. I don't want to hurt my baby though and I also am worried about adopting my baby out because I dont know for sure if she will end up with good people who will actually take good care of her and not abuse or hurt her. I also dont think i would be comfortable with an open adoption. I guess I would want her to be able to meet me and know who I am if she would like to know, but I don't know if I could handle seeing her regularly as she grows up knowing I had to give her to someone else to take care of it because I couldn't do it.
I really feel like though if I give her up for adoption it really will be the beginning of the end for me. My 20s have been absolutely horrible. I was never properly prepared for life. And I guess either way I will feel bad so it doesnt matter. I already know if I give her up for adoption, I probably will just want to become a recluse and live a meaningless life like so many other people. I will get a new job that is less stressful, make my bf move out and maybe get a completely new place to live because i no longer feel comfortable in this apartment, not talk to family, only talk to people if I have to, and just eat, sleep, pay bills, and watch TV because that is all I have the mental capacity for now. I will do this til I finally rot and die or at least until I can finally have the courage to kill myself. It will be lonely but at least no one will hurt me or judge me anymore or give me constant negative comments and I can maybe have a little bit of peace or mindless numbing at least.

Hey y’all. I got a nectar mattress like 3 years ago and it’s absolutely falling apart. I bought a bundle with their bed frame and everything and it’s just… gone downhill after the last year. I read somewhere someone said it has fiberglass in it?? Which wouldn’t surprise me because any time I take the protector off to wash it (pets, am I right?) if I touch it I get itchy. Bed frame broke, whatever I’ll deal. Now it’s sagging in the middle and my back hurts so badly. I took the like zippered cover off to give it a good wash and the actual foam itself it’s like coming off in chunks and pieces. And despite me hand washing the cover in cold water and letting it air dry in the sun, it wont zip back together.
I am attempting to get a new one sent to me (as I’m moving and I have a lot of furniture to replace, just a fresh start and getting rid of furniture with bad memories attached) and would love to just have a new one delivered to my new place and not have to mess with this literal crumbling piece of garbage. I would just buy a new mattress from a new place but that’s for another month as I am replacing so much already, and I could just get a new one with their “forever warranty.” Only issue is I cannot find the dumb white tags. I never removed them, I just unzipped this thing for the first time this week and never noticed them. Could anyone do me a huge solid and send me a picture of their tags??? Just so I can get it exchanged???

Hi all, I wasn't sure if I should put this here or in the main FtM sub but I figured this might be a better place to post my woes.
Potential triggers: discussion of trauma, PTSD, health concerns, surgery, relationship issues
TL;DR: My partner has a lot of trauma and likely PTSD around caretaking, health issues of loved ones, and surgery, and is having an extremely hard time coping with the fact that I am moving forward with getting top surgery.
So the issue is in the title but there is more context and nuance to this situation, and I want to say outright that my partner (they/them) is extremely supportive of my transition in general and the issue is around the surgery itself.
My partner and I have been together for almost 7 years, and have been married for 3. We got married before I realized I was trans. Before I came out, they were always adamant about not wanting to be married to a man, which made it really challenging for me to want to come out to them and move forward with transitioning when I finally realized that I'm a trans man. That being said, they were supportive of me when I came out as trans about 2 years ago, and have been a great ally and advocate for me in social situations. They struggled a bit with the changes that came when I first started on T, but now they celebrate me and the changes that T has made to my body. Through/because of my transition, they realized they're pansexual, and find me as attractive as they did before T, but it took some time to get here, and they still sometimes struggle with the fact that they're married to a man.
The fact that I transitioned about a year after we got married has been an issue from the get-go, and I think if things had happened in the reverse order, we would both be more satisfied in our relationship. They feel as though they never got to say goodbye to the person they fell in love with. I know that sounds a bit fucked up but I can see where they're coming from, because the person they first met is not who I am anymore. That person was never real to begin with and was more or less a persona that I created to fit into the role that was expected of me, so when I came out, my true personality has come forward, so yes I understand why they feel such grief, and it doesn't mean that they're not also happy for me at the same time (feelings are complicated). This is something we've had a lot of conversations about, and unfortunately I feel that they have some resentment towards me for not realizing my identity before we made a legally binding decision. They don't outright say it, but I get the sense that they feel like I've betrayed them because I came out and started transitioning after we got married rather than before.
Additionally, throughout our relationship, I have struggled with a variety of different health problems. Most recently, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's thyroiditis about 4 years ago, which was triggered by a non-transition related surgery. My partner was an excellent caretaker when I was at my sickest, but they have quite a lot of trauma from their childhood around caretaking, which was then perpetuated in our relationship. Before my diagnosis and while still figuring out the right medication dosage for me, I was extremely irritable and had a lot of negativity/depression/anxiety which I unfairly took out on my partner. These psychiatric symptoms are part of my Hashimoto's, and I also have quite severe ADHD which was untreated at the time, so you might be able to imagine the poor treatment my partner received when I was quite ill. I lashed out at them over very small things and was just generally unpleasant to be around. Due to brain fog, I can't even remember most of what I said or how I acted, but I know it really hurt them (emotionally/mentally). We have had many conversations about this too, and I have apologized more times than I can count. Since getting my health issues and ADHD under control, my behavior and irritability have been significantly better, but they still bring up that time in our relationship whenever we have a major conflict. They clearly have not forgiven me for this or moved on, even though they said they have. I feel like I will never be able to make up for the hurt and trauma no matter how good of a partner I am now.
Fast forward to the present. I have been on my local top surgery waitlist since March 2023 and just yesterday I FINALLY got scheduled for a consult which is next month. My partner has known that I want top surgery from the beginning, and I waited a whole year after starting T before I even got on the waitlist, to allow them some time to process it. I got a call that I was getting close to the top of the list back in February, which I told them immediately, and I have been keeping them updated throughout the process. Every time I bring it up, they get extremely upset. Crying, wanting to be alone, spending all their time in another room and not wanting to be around me, etc. It's obviously very triggering for them and I believe they have PTSD around this. A few months ago, I sat them down and we were able to have an open and honest conversation about it for the first and only time, and they confessed that they didn't think they could mentally handle being my caretaker again because of what happened before. I accepted this immediately and started thinking about and researching other options for post-surgery care. Their feelings and experiences are valid and I have no problem figuring this out on my own if it means that we can have a healthy relationship. I have friends and family who are more than happy to help, and my health insurance covers most of the cost for a caretaker. I am fortunate enough to be surrounded by many very supportive people who would absolutely help me out post-surgery. Most of my friends are trans (or are the partner of a trans person) and have had (or have experience taking care of someone who has had) top surgery so I am comfortable asking them for help. There are enough folks in my support system that no one person would be overburdened with taking care of me and in fact the two friends I already told about this issue immediately volunteered (without me even asking) to drive me to/from my appointments and take sick days to help me out post-surgery.
However, when I told my partner that they don't need to take care of me and that I could stay with family, ask friends to help out, or hire someone, they were still upset. They said they feel guilty for not being able to take care of me or be there for me as my partner. They've told me they don't think they can handle being in this relationship if I get top surgery because of the guilt around not being able to take care of me. I feel like I'm being forced to choose between living as my authentic self and keeping my relationship. I already know I'm going to move forward with surgery, but I'm really struggling with the idea that it might mean I'm going to lose my partner, who I thought I would spend my entire life with. I would be willing to delay surgery to allow them more time to process, but it has already been over 2 years since I started medically transitioning, a year on the waitlist, a few months since I was told I'd get a consult soon, and they still aren't mentally prepared for this. I'm concerned that there is not enough time in the world for them to be mentally ready for this and I can't just put my transition on hold when they've already had so much time and made no effort to start to process their trauma around this. I am suffering physically and mentally already - I overheat constantly because I'm binding and wearing multiple shirts to hide my chest and binder, my posture has worsened and I have shoulder and back pain I never had before I started binding, and I am limited in what I can do, especially as the weather is warming up, it makes me extremely sad and dysphoric that I can't just take my shirt off and enjoy the water, or join people in a pool/hot tub. I've tried to explain to my partner that this surgery is a good thing and will allow me to be more mentally present and live a happier and more fulfilling life, which they logically understand but don't seem to emotionally get it due to their trauma. They are in the process of getting a therapist, but haven't seen one yet about this particular issue (they have been to therapy for other reasons a few years ago), and they aren't willing to do couple's counseling, saying that they'd rather put that time/energy into themselves.
It makes me really sad that I can't celebrate this exciting transition milestone with the most important person in the world to me, and that they might not even be in my life anymore afterwards. They don't have an issue with me transitioning, just with the surgery. They said if I woke up tomorrow and my chest was totally flat/masculine, that would be completely ok. I understand being concerned about the health risks of surgery and that my recovery will probably be a little more rough than the average bear because of my thyroid condition, but this goes beyond an understandable/regular level of concern imo. I feel frustrated and disappointed with them for not taking steps towards processing this trauma so they can be there for me, especially since it's something we've had so much time to prepare for. I want to be understanding and patient, but I have been for so long already and haven't seen them put any effort into doing the work. I worry that my patience and understanding is what's been keeping this relationship from falling apart when this subject comes up, and that soon I am going to be out of that energy/space for them unless they start putting the effort into working through these issues.
I am also slightly frustrated because I put in a lot of work over the years to address my emotional issues that caused them a lot of pain, but I don't feel like it's recognized, and every time they're triggered, they treat me as if I haven't done any work whatsoever on myself, like we're right back where we were 4 years ago. I have been through many years of therapy and my hormones are stable (including my thyroid), and I'm on ADHD medication that works very well for me. I take care of myself and get my bloodwork done every 3-6 months as needed, take my medications very consistently, have a good sleep and self-care routine, etc., all changes that have helped me be a better partner and person which I feel have gone completely unnoticed. To be honest, I feel like I take care of them all the time. I go grocery shopping, I make sure dinner is on the table every day, I'm the only one that does the dishes, lately I have been doing most of the cleaning except the floors and litter box. I have even done extra projects around the apartment when they mention something they want to do but don't have time/energy for - like hanging up some art that has been sitting around for a while, and organizing shared spaces. I'm still treated like a villian every time they're triggered, no matter what I say or do. They ask me why I hate them and cry for hours if I get into bed an hour later than they do and it wakes them up (they are a very light sleeper), and tell me I'm being mean when I say I wish they had told me how they feel before things get to the point of crisis. I don't know what to expect from them sometimes because they are unclear in their communication. I ask how they are and they say "as fine as I always am" and don't elaborate even when I ask, which I assume to mean that they're okay, when they're actually not okay and they expected me to just know that, so they think I'm being inconsiderate if I move onto a different topic of conversation. We will go days or weeks without having any issues and then all of a sudden, they tell me "I don't think I can do this anymore" because I didn't do the dishes for a day, or there's a stack of mail that's been on the tv stand for a little too long. They say that it's not out of no where and that if I just paid attention, I would see that, but I do pay attention and I ask how they are and I make space for them to share how they're doing, but they don't share their feelings with me until they get so upset that they can't control it anymore. Lately, the only time they share their feelings is when they're upset.
I don't know what I'm supposed to accept because of their PTSD/trauma and I feel so guilty about how I've perpetuated and caused harm to them in the past, so it feels wrong to suggest that they're being unfair to me. At the same time, I don't think I should be expected to put up with being treated like this and thinking that things are totally okay one day, only to be told the next that they don't know if they want to keep doing this. This morning they told me they don't want to come back home, and that I can keep our cat. I don't want to lose them, but at a certain point I can't make someone work through their trauma, and it makes me extremely sad that this relationship isn't worth saving in their mind and they'd rather just leave me when I get surgery than deal with the hard stuff.
I appreciate you if you read all of that. I don't want anyone to tell me to end this relationship because I am not going to do that without giving them a little more time, especially since they are getting ready to start therapy soon. They really are such a wonderful and amazing person and I feel so so lucky to call them my partner. They have so many amazing qualities and we can relate to each other in ways that I haven't been able to with anyone else. They just have a lot of trauma and I am stuck not knowing how to navigate the situation as I continue my transition, knowing that my getting surgery is extremely triggering for them and might end our relationship. I love them a lot and don't want to lose them, but I'm also realistic and have been in toxic relationships before and will end things if I need to. There is nuance to this situation and I am willing to give them grace and be understanding, but at the same time, I also need to make the choices I need to make for myself. This just really sucks and I think at the moment I'd just like some support. If y'all have ever been in a situation like this and your relationship made it through, I'd love to know how. Thanks.

Hello fellow members of the Legion! (ok not sure if that is the right feel, let me know folks!)
First off I want to say thank you to everyone who has joined, and all those who will join. You have all been making fantastic posts and lore, and have been doing so in the friendly community based way that I hoped that would come about!
Now onto the reason for the post besides me gushing how much fun this has been to be a small part of!
After speaking with the other Mods we are seeing more and more already about there being a prime or canon timeline. And as much as we want to have this place be a place a pure creativity, I do believe that starting a "Canon" or "Prime" timeline would be a fantastic way for the community to come together and highlight those who are creating truly amazing pieces of work.
So to start out, why not start from the beginning! I am thinking we can take this or as many weeks as we want building our Prime pre-Heresy timeline. Everything is open to being created here, and starting the Imperium and introducing us to our new Primarchs, the demi goddesses who will lead the Emperor or Empresses Legions across the Galaxy!
Who is going to be the first Primarch found, how will their lives be different this time around? Will they still feel the same stings of failure, betrayal and the oh so sweet victories as their male counterparts? Perhaps they shall sore to higher peaks, and deeper valleys!
So people of the Imperium, vote! Submit links to your favorite posts or bug the OC to get their posts linked to here in this post! Most upvotes will be either set in stone, or shall be part of larger polls if needed so we can all take our time to choose our story.
Everything the community has come to love about 40k has been built around the tabletop, selling minis, books and paint. This time though, we get to take the pen and build it for ourselves, have fun, be kind and for the Imperium!
Also join our discord for anyone who wants to connect more, and maybe setup some gaming sessions! Might find some more local folks who are in the tabletop, maybe some Total Warhammer co-op or maybe a co-op writing session!
https://discord.gg/VKTkS5CA

Been buying modafinil online for more than 9 years now. Throughout this time, I have interacted with many Modafinil vendors. While there were a few bad encounters, the bulk of my intersections were positive ones. If my experiences can benefit others, I am delighted to share them!
Through countless conversations with sellers, and occasional instances of getting cheated, I now possess something that I wish I had possessed in the past: a compiled list of trusted vendors.
Essentially, it is an invaluable compilation. If this proves helpful to you, kindly consider upvoting or sharing your own firsthand encounters in the comments section.

Best Vendors for Buying Modafinil Online Reddit

Below, you'll find my curated compilation of the top 15 Modafinil vendors on Reddit, based on personal experience:

1. Modafinia
2. BMO™
3. Sharkmood
4. Buymodafinilonline
5. HighStreetPharma
6. ModafinilXL
7. BuyModa
8. Skinorac
9. Kuikdose
10. BuyEtizolam
11. ModaPrime
12. ModafinilUSA
13. ModafinilUK
14. DaffyDog
15. Quickfinil

1. Modafinia
In my viewpoint, this vendor stands out as one of the finest. With their extensive experience in the field, they have established themselves as a reputable entity and their pricing remains highly competitive.
Over the years, they have established a robust and consistent reputation. The only small concern pertains to the efficiency and promptness of their customer service, which tends to be extremely slow or unresponsive.
2. BMO™
BMO is a relatively new player in the market. I have been making purchases from them over the past few weeks, and the experience thus far has been exceptional.
They are the first online vendor to provide prices that are more affordable than Modafinia. Their customer service is exceptional, with incredibly swift responses.
It is truly commendable and I genuinely hope they continue to operate for a long time more.
3. Sharkmood
One of the few vendors with a rich and extensive legacy. Their long standing track record attests to their dependability, albeit at slightly elevated costs. It may be beneficial to consider paying a slightly higher amount for the added sense of reassurance.
4. Buymodafinilonline
When it comes to their marketing strategies, those involved in spamming are often referred to as "spam kings."
On Reddit, there is a significant amount of testimonials and mentions them, possibly indicating their involvement in persistent guerilla marketing initiatives.
I can envision the influx of emails from HighStreetPharma that will likely flood your inbox once your email address becomes known to them.
5. HighStreetPharma
HighStreetPharma (HSP) used to be widely recognized as the most renowned platform on the list, offering an extensive selection of products. HSP has been in operation for a long time.
The previous purchase I made from them did not reach its destination, and attempting to establish communication with customer support was almost impossible. In the end, they completely ghosted me.
6. ModafinilXL
In terms of marketing strategy, the vendor who has the widest reach is the one I've consistently found to be the most expensive.
As far as I can recall, ModafinilXL has been in operations for as long as BuyModa and HSP. Consequently, it may be worthwhile to consider paying a slightly higher price for the added assurance and peace of mind.
7. BuyModa
This is the origin of the bothersome Moda Mike. Additionally, as one of the early leaders in the Modafinil market, they have focused solely on offering Modafinil and Armodafinil items, along with a limited selection of medication for treating erectile dysfunction.
Based on my personal encounter, the package that was sent to me never reached its destination due to being held up by customs. No attempts were made to resend it.
8. Modadove
Modadove may have higher pricing compared to others, but for individuals who are willing to pay a little more for the assurance of genuine products, it could be a worthwhile choice.
It serves as a luxurious alternative for those who appreciate premium products and are willing to pay. Consider them as the premium option for purchasers who prioritize quality over cost.
9. Kuikdose
Kuikdose maintains a low-profile yet dependable reputation. They refrain from extensive advertising, and instead, have garnered favorable online reviews for their reliability.
They resemble the unassuming participant who demonstrates their value through dependable contributions.
10. BuyEtizolam
This particular platform places its emphasis on addressing anxiety and sleep-related concerns like Narcolepsy, whilst also providing options for Modafinil and Armodafinil.
Renowned for their exceptional service and product excellence, it is worth noting that their prices may be comparatively higher than most vendors. It is worth taking into consideration if you are already buying Etizolam from them.
11. ModaPrime
It is important not to be overly swayed by their seemingly affordable pricing, as there is an additional shipping charge of $35 USD.
Their website is simple and uncomplicated, providing a limited selection of Modafinil products without any extravagant features.
12. ModafnilUSA
Being the sister site to ModafinilXL, ModafinilUSA prioritizes swift delivery within the United States.
However, the allure of prompt shipping is somewhat diminished by their costly pricing strategy.
On the other hand, I am encountering enthusiastic reviews about them all over the place.
13. ModafinilUK
For fast delivery within the UK, ModafinilUK is the preferred choice, surpassing competitors such as ModafinilXL in terms of speed and timely deliveries.
Although their prices may lean towards the higher end, their true worth lies in the promptness and dependability of their service.
Ideal for individuals seeking expedited and reliable modafinil availability without any hassle.
14. DaffyDog
DaffyDog presents competitive pricing and appears particularly appealing for individuals seeking to purchase Modafinil in the UK.
Despite being a relatively new player in the market, they demonstrate prompt responsiveness to inquiries, ensuring swift and dependable shipping services.
If you desire consistent and reliable service in the UK, this is an excellent option to consider.
15. Quickfinil
Their primary focus is on efficiency and speed, hence the name. Their pricing is reasonable, establishing them as a reliable option for obtaining Modafinil expeditiously in the UK.
Ideal for individuals who require their order urgently and value prompt assistance from customer support.
16. Skinorac (Bonus)
Although not specifically classified as a Modafinil vendor, this online pharmacy nevertheless accommodates a diverse assortment of products. If you find yourself in need of potent skincare medication, you will know exactly where to turn.

Guidance for Individuals New to Modafinil

The legal status of Modafinil

Typically, the possession of Modafinil is not a cause for concern, unless an excessive quantity such as 10,000 pills is discovered, which may raise suspicions.
However, unless you are involved in the unauthorized sale of Modafinil, I am not aware of any legislation, in any country, that could lead to your arrest for simply possessing a small quantity of Modafinil pills.

Potential Adverse Reactions

While the chances are highly unlikely, individuals afflicted with an uncommon skin condition might possibly encounter the emergence of a rash resembling minuscule protrusions throughout their entire body.
In situations like this, where the condition can be greatly severe and distressing, it is crucial to promptly seek medical help.
Throughout the documented usage of Modafinil, a mere six individuals have encountered this particular skin condition, suggesting that it is not a significant cause for alarm.
Commonly encountered side effects encompass migraines, disruptions in sleep patterns, increased levels of anxiety, and possibly sensations of queasiness and gastrointestinal unease.
Apart from disruptions to my sleep patterns, I have personally not encountered any of the aforementioned symptoms.
Nevertheless, there have been instances when a mild headache ensued as a result of sleep deprivation.
Based on my personal observations, I have come to realize that I only experience headaches when I go without sleep for prolonged periods lasting up to four days.

Conclusion

In my view, the most arduous aspect of using this cognitive enhancer is the struggle to maintain a proper and consistent sleep schedule.
In order to minimize the extended duration of action of Modafinil or Armodafinil, which can extend beyond 8 - 12 hours, I make an effort to take them as early in the morning as possible.
By following this approach, I am able to maximize the advantages of Modafinil throughout the daytime, while ensuring restful and consistent sleep at night.
That concludes this post. I hope it was helpful to someone.
Please inform me if you are aware of any additional Modafinil suppliers that you believe should be included on the list or have been overlooked.
Let's build a great community and space together!
[Last revised on October 5th, 2024]

My 3 month old is EBF and had some weight gain issues. Took 5 weeks to get to birth weight, and even after she got back to BW her weight gain hasn’t been brilliant (varying between 80g-150g per week).
It has improved though and I’m hoping it keeps getting better as I feel that I have more milk now. LO is 3 months old now.
One of the things that the LC suggested was a hospital grade pump. I’ve rented a medela one and I love it. This morning I set a new PR of 100mls (about 3.5oz for any Americans reading) in one session. Usually I nurse LO all day and then my husband gives her the pumped/haakaa milk that I’ve collected throughout the day in the evening so that I can take a shower or some other luxurious activity like do some cleaning, exercising or baking.
Whenever LO gets a bottle of 120ml+ in the evening she falls asleep. Last night was the first night since she was born that myself and my husband were able to watch a film together uninterrupted. Where as if I was nursing her she’d be on me all evening and into the night. I find the non nutritive feeding very annoying and when I unlatch her she usually cries, but after a nice beg bottle she either falls asleep or starts cooing happily.
I assume what happens is that with the bottles she gets a higher volume of milk in a much shorter amount of time. The milk that she gets in the evenings is typically pumped very early in the morning before she wakes up.
My husband washes and sterilises the pump parts and the haakaa 90% of the time and I do it occasionally. He has no problem doing it more often if needed.
I read on LLL website that the baby gets more of the fatty higher calorie hind milk in the evenings. A LLL leader told me that the baby is much better at getting milk out of the breast than the pump is. So I suppose I have two questions:
Would it be a bad idea to switch to exclusive pumping if the baby has no problem latching etc? Is the pump milk going to be lower in calories than what the baby can get from the breast? If the pump can’t fully empty the breast, will this have an effect on weight gain because she mightn’t get enough hind milk?
TLDR: should I swap from nursing and pumping to exclusive pumping and if I do can it effect my baby’s weight gain?