I’ve had it easy
And I’ve been blessed
To only suffer the feeling
For those with less
And those with more
Of the carnage of war
That pounds unwelcome at their door
That brings down the roof
And scars the youth
Of tens of thousands
Who are used to playing
Going to school
And maybe just losing their first front tooth
And now a hand
And now a leg
And now a parent
And now a friend
And now a family
And now a future
And now the vividness of sense
Vanishing with their view
And what happens then, I cannot say
I only see pictures of their pain
This I’ve understood
That I have had it good
Though I’m trained to think that I’m in need
By the vulturous advertiser’s greed
And my problems have all been imagined ones
Internal battles with my own demons
The battles of one’s own existence
The persistence of my own resistance
To such inevitabilities of life:
Universal failures, strivings, strife
That distract all us living from our dying
But again there are the very many
Whose peace must come among with plenty
of things not other than agonies
Nothing other than tragedies,
And not of chance but travesty
The contortions of humanity
The results of the depravity
Of those hearts that are but a cavity
And callous to the gravity
Of a single person multiplied
By the millions more amplified
By the screaming of each and all
The loudness of unanswered calls
The desperate wails that overcome
The visions of the tons and tons
Of bodies piling in the sun
The former loved and loving ones
No longer…
looking like…
Persons
For evil ideologues there are calculations:
Who can we trick into taking our side?
Who can we get to fund our supplies?
When can we erase them and begin renovations?
What can we gain from this mass starvation?
And this is what the killers think
That flesh and blood
And beings that breathe
Have no value guaranteed
Not to mention the truths perceived
In years and years of life elapsed
In the children’s futures and elders’ pasts
No different than buildings collapsed
And we all can see
Though some deny
And others turn away their eyes
We all can think
And know the lies
Forget for a second our piece of the pie
We all can hear
The babies’ cries
How many more are going to die?
If you have the power it’s time to decide

I’ve had it easy And I’ve been blessed To only suffer the feeling For those with less And those with more Of the carnage of war That pounds unwelcome at their door That brings down the roof And scars the youth Of tens of thousands Who are used to playing Going to school And maybe just losing their first front tooth And now a hand And now a leg And now a parent And now a friend And now a family And now a future And now the vividness of sense Vanishing with their view And what happens then, I cannot say I only see pictures of their pain This I’ve understood That I have had it good Though I’m trained to think that I’m in need By the vulturous advertiser’s greed And my problems have all been imagined ones Internal battles with my own demons The battles of one’s own existence The persistence of my own resistance To such inevitabilities of life: Universal failures, strivings, strife That distract all us living from our dying But again there are the very many Whose peace must come among with plenty of things not other than agonies Nothing other than tragedies, And not of chance but travesty The contortions of humanity The results of the depravity Of those hearts that are but a cavity And callous to the gravity Of a single person multiplied By the millions more amplified By the screaming of each and all The loudness of unanswered calls The desperate wails that overcome The visions of the tons and tons Of bodies piling in the sun The former loved and loving ones No longer… looking like… Persons For evil ideologues there are calculations: Who can we trick into taking our side? Who can we get to fund our supplies? When can we erase them and begin renovations? What can we gain from this mass starvation? And this is what the killers think That flesh and blood And beings that breathe Have no value guaranteed Not to mention the truths perceived In years and years of life elapsed In the children’s futures and elders’ pasts No different than buildings collapsed And we all can see Though some deny And others turn away their eyes We all can think And know the lies Forget for a second our piece of the pie We all can hear The babies’ cries How many more are going to die? If you have the power it’s time to decide

I’ve had it easy And I’ve been blessed To only suffer the feeling For those with less And those with more Of the carnage of war That pounds unwelcome at their door That brings down the roof And scars the youth Of tens of thousands Who are used to playing Going to school And maybe just losing their first front tooth And now a hand And now a leg And now a parent And now a friend And now a family And now a future And now the vividness of sense Vanishing with their view And what happens then, I cannot say I only see pictures of their pain This I’ve understood That I have had it good Though I’m trained to think that I’m in need By the vulturous advertiser’s greed And my problems have all been imagined ones Internal battles with my own demons The battles of one’s own existence The persistence of my own resistance To such inevitabilities of life: Universal failures, strivings, strife That distract all us living from our dying But again there are the very many Whose peace must come among with plenty of things not other than agonies Nothing other than tragedies, And not of chance but travesty The contortions of humanity The results of the depravity Of those hearts that are but a cavity And callous to the gravity Of a single person multiplied By the millions more amplified By the screaming of each and all The loudness of unanswered calls The desperate wails that overcome The visions of the tons and tons Of bodies piling in the sun The former loved and loving ones No longer… looking like… Persons For evil ideologues there are calculations: Who can we trick into taking our side? Who can we get to fund our supplies? When can we erase them and begin renovations? What can we gain from this mass starvation? And this is what the killers think That flesh and blood And beings that breathe Have no value guaranteed Not to mention the truths perceived In years and years of life elapsed In the children’s futures and elders’ pasts No different than buildings collapsed And we all can see Though some deny And others turn away their eyes We all can think And know the lies Forget for a second our piece of the pie We all can hear The babies’ cries How many more are going to die? If you have the power it’s time to decide

I’ve had it easy
And I’ve been blessed
To only suffer the feeling
For those with less
And those with more
Of the carnage of war
That pounds unwelcome at their door
That brings down the roof
And scars the youth
Of tens of thousands
Who are used to playing
Going to school
And maybe just losing their first front tooth
And now a hand
And now a leg
And now a parent
And now a friend
And now a family
And now a future
And now the vividness of sense
Vanishing with their view
And what happens then, I cannot say
I only see pictures of their pain
This I’ve understood
That I have had it good
Though I’m trained to think that I’m in need
By the vulturous advertiser’s greed
And my problems have all been imagined ones
Internal battles with my own demons
The battles of one’s own existence
The persistence of my own resistance
To such inevitabilities of life:
Universal failures, strivings, strife
That distract all us living from our dying
But again there are the very many
Whose peace must come among with plenty
of things not other than agonies
Nothing other than tragedies,
And not of chance but travesty
The contortions of humanity
The results of the depravity
Of those hearts that are but a cavity
And callous to the gravity
Of a single person multiplied
By the millions more amplified
By the screaming of each and all
The loudness of unanswered calls
The desperate wails that overcome
The visions of the tons and tons
Of bodies piling in the sun
The former loved and loving ones
No longer…
looking like…
Persons
For evil ideologues there are calculations:
Who can we trick into taking our side?
Who can we get to fund our supplies?
When can we erase them and begin renovations?
What can we gain from this mass starvation?
And this is what the killers think
That flesh and blood
And beings that breathe
Have no value guaranteed
Not to mention the truths perceived
In years and years of life elapsed
In the children’s futures and elders’ pasts
No different than buildings collapsed
And we all can see
Though some deny
And others turn away their eyes
We all can think
And know the lies
Forget for a second our piece of the pie
We all can hear
The babies’ cries
How many more are going to die?
If you have the power it’s time to decide

I'm deeply in love with my boyfriend and it's making me the happiest girl in the world.
My boyfriend is at work right now but everytime I think about him, I literally feel my heart beating so fast and I automatically just smile out of nowhere. He makes me feel loved, appreciated though I have insecurities and traumas but he reassures me that he's always there for me and that he loves me everytime.
I LOVE THIS MAN SO MUCH I CAN'T WAIT TO HUG HIM AND TO KISS HIM
He's like my world, my best friend and my person. I'm so lucky and I love him so so so much it's insane.
We both have already talked about marriage and he's also at this age where he already wants to settle down and I've always looked/prayed for someone who I can marry because I've always wanted to get married young, be childfree and just travel and spend the rest of my life with that person. And I think he really is it. He's the one. After my previous traumatic relationships, situationships that led to failure led me to this man.
I'm literally so happy with him. Can't wait to be with this man and have his last name (pls let it be him) 😭😭
Sorry for the cheesy post but idc I just love my man and I want everyone to know lol and long distance relationship is hard but my love for my bf just grows stronger everyday, He's literally my comfort zone.

My husband loves me, and he loves Sadie. But mainly, he's tired. And so eventually Sadie got her rat. Honey lived happily in Sadie's room in his 3-tiered Rat Palace, and every day I would take time out from soothing the infant and wrestling with the 3-year-old to play with the rat, something the pet store warned I had to do if I wanted to socialize him. 

Warning : this is probably the longest post I've ever written. It's awful. If you're expecting something short, run for your safety. Otherwise, take your time and have fun.
So Kaiser and Ness have always been pretty interesting characters since their introduction, but with the most recent chapters and especially ever since the Ness flashback, things have been intensifying and there's a lot going on around these two, especially with potential developments that might happen during the PxG match. Definitely some of my favorite characters in the story thematically.
This will be a huge post analyzing, dissecting and aiming to understand the psyches of both Ness and Kaiser, by following their stories individually, as well as how they intertwine together, how their pattern of relationship is very important to the story as a whole, as well as trying to review a lot of information in hindsight that might make a lot more sense now that we virtually have their entire stories.

Part I : Ness, the Wizard

So it all starts with Alexis Ness, a German kid born into a very stereotypical scientist family of reddit atheists, as well as the following sentence : "(my parents) taught me that it's possible to explain everything that happens on earth".
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This first sentence already sets a very important tone with Ness' character. He is dreamy, he's a child full of wonder with a bit of an obsession for finding magic in things, born into a family that dismisses the existence of unexplainable concepts as a whole and lambasts him for believing in them at all, even as a child. Ness is an irrational being, born into an extremely rational environment, and that fact alone alienates him from his passion, and drives him to keep going until he finds something or someone that will understand him.
Ness has a passion for the unexplainable, not the scientific unexplainable, but more the "incredible" unexplainable, things that seem too fantastic to be believed at first, and yet are still true. He also assimilates his sadness with the lack of understanding from his family among the things that he deems to be unexplainable, whether by his family or himself. Ness has a passion for magic, cannot explain why, and that's part of why he believes in magic so much. His passion is self defined.
And that passion for seeking magic in things, is also what drives him to soccer. The joy that people feel, the roaring fans, the celebrations that come from goals, Ness feels as though soccer is what will allow him to truly bring magic into this world. Which is why I theorize, that with Ness' drive for playing soccer being to bring magic on the field, he might be a self-type ego that seeks to bring magic, the same way Barou seeks the feeling of being the king of the field, or Bachira to become one with the ball (this is a very common theme with self type egos, I might make a post about this one of these days). This is a very important point if we want to understand where Ness' current development in the PxG match could be going.
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Ness then takes matters into his own hands and trains relentlessly to pass the Bastard Munchen tryouts, the best club in Germany, so he can have a shot at turning his dream into reality. Ness plays quite well and even shows skills that should allow him to be better than the current BM selection, but he runs into a massive problem ; his individual skills do allow him to keep up, but his plays are ineffective. His magic doesn't work on the world, and the biggest reason why is that no one on the field can keep up with his thinking. Ness lacks the partner that will help make his vision come true.
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And that's when a certain someone makes their appearance.

Part II : Kaiser, the Blue Rose

It all starts with Michael Kaiser, a different German child with a very different upbringing, but whose destiny would end up crossing paths with that of Ness.
Kaiser grew up in the ashes of a destroyed family. His dad was a theatre director, his mom was an actress, who ended up leaving his dad soon after his birth. His father, unable to bear the weight of both an unwanted child and a failed love life, ended up sinking into alcoholism, gambling addiction and domestic violence.
His father having wasted his fortune completely and being unwilling to work, Kaiser was forced to learn how to steal very early in his life, but his disgusting father's self loathing, resentment and regret towards Michael's mother still ended up reaching him through his father's constant abuse. The treatment he got from his father was the only definition of love Kaiser has ever had, and he ended up internalizing this notion, as well as the feeling that he was not wanted in this world.
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Kaiser grew up, and started saving up money from selling the more valuable items that he would steal. For his twelfth birthday, he decided to buy something for himself that would actually allow him to feel alive and closer to his far away objective of leaving his father one day. And that is how he stumbled upon football.
Unlike Ness however, who developed a passion for football simply because he saw magic in it, Kaiser developed an unhealthy attachment to football that would mimic his relationship to his father. It didn't matter how much he abused the ball, the ball wouldn't respond or protest, it'd just stay by his side silently. Kaiser saw in the ball the same form of attachment that his father showed him, he saw himself in the ball, an unwanted piece of trash that would silently take the abuse that was dished out to him. Because that was the only behavior that his father ever showed to him, Kaiser ended up assimilating abuse and violence to love. That is how Kaiser became an abuser himself, which is a very important facet of his character : cycles repeat themselves, and abusers create potential future abusers.
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Where Kaiser's story really begins though is when he is framed for a crime he didn't commit and the police enter their home for a search. Kaiser gets hit by his dad, the police find the money he was keeping from his father, and he's about to lose everything that would allow him to leave this life. Kaiser, at that moment, accepts the abuse again, and decides against his own heart that he'd simply take whatever sentence he gets and start saving up money again once he's out. He instinctively changes his mind when his dad decides to poke a few holes into his soccer ball though.
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Though Kaiser has an awful definition of what love or attachment really is, the love that he developed for football was still as pure as he could muster. And instinctively, as he sees his father about to destroy the only thing he's ever managed to feel attachment towards, Kaiser rises against the odds and fights as hard as he can. As the narrator says it himself, this is when Kaiser's identity was truly born. This is another very important element that we'll have to keep for later.
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Kaiser then goes on to get scouted by a certain PIFA executive named Ray Dark, who heard of the fact that he managed to take out multiple police officers with just a soccer ball. Kaiser is encouraged by Ray Dark to pass the BM tryouts, and is already determined to get as far away as possible from his former life, and this is where Kaiser's ego starts to badly mutate from its purest form, all because of the consequences of his father's abusive behavior : Kaiser is incapable of accepting any form of kindness and is very incline to violence.
Kaiser, from the second he enters the facility and starts training with the rest of the potential recruits, manages to make enemies through his extremely antagonistic behavior. He consistently picks fights, which obviously leads to situations where he's systematically in the wrong, and to people refusing to play with him in the moments that matter the most. This is where the Kaiser Impact is born ; Kaiser decides to create a weapon that won't just help him, but make sure he asserts full and total dominance over others. But he doesn't stop there.
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Kaiser starts studying elements of psychology, and his goal is strictly to find out how to manipulate someone and make sure that they would serve him during matches. He needed a lackey, that would serve him under all circumstances, and the best way to find that lackey was to find someone that was close to breaking under pressure and despair.
And this is where the BM tryouts start.

Part III : Perspectives

This is where the duo meets for the first time, and their perspectives on the situation are very different from one another, but very similar in one aspect : they provide each other with what they need.
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Ness starts out the BM tryout match very hopeful, but realizes that his individual abilities are his only functional tool and that he can't manage to spark magic with the teammates that he currently has. Ness is in a situation of despair, where he is realizing that he might not make it, and that his family was right to treat him the way they did.
Kaiser in the meantime, is in the exact opposite situation. He is alone, certainly, but also not worried : all he is doing is looking for someone with good enough skills, and in a precarious situation whose heart he can safely erode and tame. Ness needs someone to show him that magic does exist ; Kaiser needs a lackey that he can use to reach his goals. Ness needs a friend, Kaiser needs a test subject. Their relationship, is by definition profoundly unequal, and for that reason, Kaiser is also the only one of the two to be aware of that fact.
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The rest of the match is pretty obvious : Ness finds a good partner to make his imagination come to fruition, Kaiser finds a dog to feed him passes, they get a hat trick together and are selected for the BM team. The important point though, is that Ness didn't actually find despair in that match : he was on the brink of realizing that he couldn't bring magic alone, but the second he was about to either give up or awaken, Kaiser came to him and became his provider for the magic he was seeking. That is the best way to make Ness' ego, his very being, dependent on Kaiser's existence.
This panel shows this best : Ness' play would've been suboptimal for anyone else, his magic would not have been sufficient for a different player. Kaiser's individual ability however, is so overwhelming that he effortlessly brings Ness the magic he seeks. Ness' magic wouldn't have worked if it wasn't for Kaiser.
Ness has never known what it feels like to create magic alone, and therefore he associates magic to Kaiser's presence. If Kaiser himself fails, that implies a personal failure on Ness' part since it means his magic didn't function. That's an extremely important element to understand for the codependency element of these two characters, and that's part of the reason why Ness has constantly been extremely defensive of every single one of Kaiser's failures so far in the story : the same way Kaiser's dream slowly became his own, his failures feel just as much his as they are Kaiser's.
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Kaiser then goes on to become a very vicious player that specifically tries to scar his opponents as much as possible. The impossibility that Kaiser strives for, has become something he wants to incarnate for his opponents, an impossible behemoth to slay, the same way his dad was to him. Kaiser acknowledges this, however he associates the feeling of losing to such impossibility to weakness. To Kaiser, the fact that he let his father mistreat him for that long seems to be proof that he used to be a weak person, and that the true way to fight is to become just as evil and incarnate that feeling of impossibility to other people, as he says it to Ness : "Believing in the impossible is a curse, the instant people believe in the impossible is when they decide to give up. It's a survival instinct to guard against heartbreak, that's the way of weaklings, they kill themselves through this curse. Weaklings who dilute the purity of their egos to live longer are what I hate most in this world".
Kaiser has rationalized the abuse that he has gone through by assimilating his behavior to weakness, instead of recognizing this was the behavior of a child trying desperately to survive against impossible odds. The fact that he sees his past behavior as such and that he decided that he should become an abuser himself to get power back over his life, is already proof that his father's abuse won over his ego, and he doesn't know it himself. This is why his ego is fragile and diluted, and that's how he lost his way.
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Part IV : The reality of impossibility

This is where the NEL comes in. From what we know of Kaiser's objectives with the NEL, he has come to crush the local japanese ace, to give himself a publicity boost that would either prove to the world that he isn't inferior to Noel Noa, or to get himself a contract that would allow him to get out of his current club, both so he could compete with Noa in a less direct way, and therefore not have to face the impossible task that is destroying the system that has been built around him.
Both his intention of trying to destroy Isagi by showing him how impossible it is to beat him, and his intention to avoid beating Noa directly by instead trying to publicize himself as being a striker of equal mettle, show how his ego has been twisted from what it originally was : Kaiser has become addicted to the feeling of incarnating impossibility to other players and crushing them, and he has become very avoidant of any challenges that could seem impossible to him, the same way his father's abuse seemed impossible to overcome. He has created himself a predatory mentality unfit for a competitor, and he did it all as a survival mechanism to fight against impossible odds.
The problem really starts however, when his plan backfires, and it turns out the japanese ace specifically thrives on impossible challenges and does not stop improving. Isagi Yoichi, by the time of the PxG match, has become the incarnation of the impossible odds that Kaiser usually wants to avoid, but this time he is conflicted since Isagi is also the exact type of player that Kaiser wants to crush : he is forced to face his own fear, and the more the odds are against him, the more impossibility will catch up to Kaiser. Which is exactly what might lead to Ness' awakening.
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Since Ness attributes his magic to Kaiser's success, seeing Kaiser fail (and maybe even resent him for it), is most likely what will bring Ness to the pit of despair that he got to escape from back in the BM tryouts. Ness will have to face his fear of not being able to bring magic to the world alone. And with what's been foreshadowed, I believe Ness' awakening will come with some sort of cooperation with Isagi, which in turn will make Kaiser realize that he is back to facing the impossible behemoth that he faced not so long ago. This is what will make him revert to his purest ego. But what is his purest ego exactly ?

Final part : Conclusions, and Kaiser's true ego

We finally get to the part where I stop holding everything back and I tell what's on my mind.

1. I'll start with something very important : duos in Blue Lock are always doomed unless they become more than the sum of their parts.

Kaiser and Ness' duo made me realize it, especially with their very obvious parallels to Reo and Nagi, but duos often start out with one of the players (and sometimes both players) attributing a part of their ego to their partner. That right there, is exactly how egos are stifled.
In the case of Kaiser, though his intention was to manipulate Ness, he ended up creating an association in Ness' mind where though Ness sees his purpose in life to bring magic through football, he attributes his ability to bring magic to Kaiser, which means that in Ness' mind, he is incapable of doing it alone. I don't believe that's the case, but for Ness to prove it to himself, he has to try doing it first. The PxG match is the perfect opportunity for this, but that's not all.
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Sae and Rin are also a very important example of this, since Sae knew from the start that having Rin associate him to his ego and use him as a reason to play football was a death sentence for both of them. I believe that Sae truly does want to win the Champion's league with his brother, but has let go of that dream and has tried to force Rin to do it as well to make sure both of them would reach their potential before hitting the wall that is the world level.
Reo has always attributed his dream of winning the world cup to the fact that he has Nagi by his side, and cannot really imagine achieving this dream without him. However, if Reo truly wants to evolve, I'm sure a lot of you are already anticipating this, but he has to let go of Nagi and evolve alone, which he most likely will do during the Manshine-Barcha match. Nagi himself doesn't have an objective, and has always improved as a player with the intention of helping Reo achieve his dream, which means that part of his ego is simply helping another player achieve his. Unless the both of them seperate at least temporarily, then Reo will never gain the confidence to achieve his dream alone, Nagi will never gain the ego to have his own dream and play football for the sake of his own passion, and neither of them will be able to cooperate on their common vision of winning together. And the way I know all of this ?
Is because Isagi and Bachira have already showed us the path of how a good duo functions. Bachira almost never awakened his true ego all because his loneliness made him see Isagi as essential to his well being, it forced him to look for players that would be able to keep up with his best football, and when he found them, he already thought he had won. Bachira realized that the only way he could keep playing with the players he admires and wants to rival, is by believing in his way of playing football instead of putting his belief in someone else. This is how duos survive : by having both players becoming better and fulfilled individually, and constantly pushing each other to individually become better before they rely on each other for victory.
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1. To get back to Kaiser and Ness, what that means is that Ness' evolution has to come at the cost of his dependence on Kaiser, and Kaiser's evolution has to come at the cost of the introspection he has to do to understand where his true nature comes from : this specific moment.

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My belief is that Kaiser's ego to incarnate the impossible isn't actually wrong, it's just taken from the wrong perspective. What Kaiser was since the very start, isn't a mindless perpatrator of violence that does it out of pleasure for crushing others : What Kaiser is, is a survivor.
\"I'll leave here someday.\"
No matter how tough the situation, no matter how much his father beat him, Kaiser never stopped believing or dreaming that he would one day free himself from his situation and rise against adversity. It might've been a small flame at first, but when his ego truly awakened was when he actually fought back for the first time. Kaiser isn't an impossible being because he is an unbeatable, violent monster, he is an impossible being because he rises against impossible odds no matter what.
\"The boy dreamed about going on a journey someday.\"
He is unfathomably resilient, and that is something that was very specifically cultivated from his experience of victimhood : Kaiser couldn't have become this kind of person if he was simply an abuser the same way his father was (which is currently what is stifling his ego), the only way he can be this impossible being is by going through what he did and surviving.
And in fact, that's also something that been shown in the manga already. After all, the only moment so far where Kaiser has showed us what could be his greatest performance, was when he had to rely on a play Isagi made to get a goal opportunity, and managed to beat 4 defenders (one of them being the best U20), culminating in a goal that's impossible to replicate even for the greatest players. Kaiser might be a self type ego that seeks impossible situations to reach flow.
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A player's personality is often reflected through their playstyle : that's the case with Kaiser, with his KI symbolizing his impossible dominance, and his MV symbolizing his manipulative way of playing with people ; which is why I don't believe it's a coincidence that the one time Kaiser has truly made a play no one else could replicate was when all odds were against him. And yet ironically, this is also the goal that Kaiser hates the most, because he still hates his younger self for not having fought back until the last moment. What he sees as weakness, is what is actually his greatest strength.
Anyways if you've read this far, thank you very much and congratulations, and if you have any, please tell me your thoughts in the comments.

Spoiler alert, I think the answer is yes. Otherwise, there'd be no point in trying. I'm 29 years old and I'll be 30 by the end of the year. Lets count the ways in which I felt that I've fallen behind.
1) I have no home, I'm living with my parents. 2) I don't own a car. I did for a while but it was so old and broken I sold it for scraps, essentially. 3) I make significantly less than my peers. Some of whom are making 4 times as much as I am. 4) No funds have really been saved up. I've been working on clearing up debts for the past couple years. 5) I have no kids. I'm pretty sure I do want them but the older I get the abstract the idea becomes. 6) I have a gf but we're long distance and it will be hard to move to her due to financial constraints. 7) I'm probably 30-40 pounds heavier than maybe I should be.
So what do we have here? At least 7 different ways in which my life could improve. I like to break them up into categories of Health, Wealth and Love. So the question now I should ask myself is how did things end up with way?
I think the easy way would be to say that life has screwed me. And to some degree I think that's true. However, I think the main culprit is myself. As far back as I can remember I've taken the easy way out. I give up when things are hard. I couldn't possibly count all the ways in one post. But suffice to say, anytime I wanted to do something. I would be very excited in the beginning, realize it was gonna be harder than it looked, then run away. I did it with education, sports, creativity and all manner of extra curricular.
I take the path of least resistance. That path has lead me into no-man's-land. And I don't want to be there anymore.
If you're still reading, thanks for sticking around. I'm not quite sure what I need to do from here but I know it looks nothing like what I've been doing. Here are some of the things I want to accomplish, in no particular order:
1) Lost 30-40 pounds 2) Finish my degree 3) Acquire at least 3 certifications in my field 4) Quintuple my current earnings. 5) Marry the love of my life 6) Have kids 7) Learn 2 languages (Conversationally fluent) 8) Write 2 novels 9) Be proud of myself.
With regard to that last thing on the list. I don't hate myself for being where I'm at. I feel that for whatever reason, my brain thought that doing the things I did and being the way I was would lead to good outcomes. Maybe I'm not aware of how trauma and formative experiences affected who I became or who I needed to be. So I can't fault me for that. From the bottom of my heart I thank that baby, that toddler, that young boy and young man for taking me to where I am now. I couldn't have done it without him.
But I want to let him know that things have changed for me. Better yet, there are things I need to change. I'll be taking over from here. Maybe I could have done this 10 years ago but I didn't. Today is the day. I feel it necessary to log my changes, good or bad, somewhere permanent. I think this will be the place.
I'm not sure how often I should update. Any suggestions?
TLDR: I believe I've fallen behind in my finances, health and love. I (29M) am looking to improve my life by accomplishing at least these goals: 1) Lost 30-40 pounds, 2) Finish my degree, 3) Acquire at least 3 certifications in my field, 4) Quintuple my current earnings. 5) Marry the love of my life, 6) Have kids, 7) Learn 2 languages (Conversationally fluent), 8) Write 2 novels. Any thoughts on how often I should update?

Max Sanity Points (SP) = Intelligence Stat + Wisdom Stat + Charisma Stat = Total Max SP
Temporary SP functions like Temporary HP
(E.g, 10 Int + 18 Wisdom + 12 Charisma = 40 SP)
100%-89% SP = No effects
80%-69% SP = +3 Passive Perception, The Character is alert and nervous acting jumpy.
60%-59% SP = Disadvantage on resisting and breaking the Frightened effect
50%-49% SP = Short term madness effect
40-39% SP = Long term madness effect
30-29% SP = Frightened until Long term madness effects have been removed or wear off.
20-9% SP = Indefinite Madness effect
8%-1% SP = Insanity Effect
0% = Death
SP is reduced by certain magical spells, auras or seeing something that would be considered disturbing e.g, looking at a dead body, Looking at a demon, ect.
SP is brought back to full after a long rest unless specified that it is not by (e.g) a magical effect.
(See “Madness” in DMG for removal of madness effects)
Calm Emotions (+) When casted on a creature that has not yet been afflicted with a madness effect they regain all lost SP, if they have been afflicted with a madness effect only 2d6 SP is regained
Lesser Restoration (+) While removing short term and long madness the targeted creature regains half of their Max SP with any additional SP over max is regained as Temporary SP
Lobotomisation (7th Level abjuration)
You grasp a creatures mind and violently contort their mind, reducing their Intelligence or wisdom or charisma by 1d4 and remove Insanity effects.
Greater Restoration (+) While removing short term and long and indefinite madness effect the targeted creature regains all lost SP with and gain a Temporary SP equal to Half their maximum.
Insanity
Insane effects are completely permanent unless Lobotomisation is casted onto the effected creature. They also gain a flaw from the Indefinite Madness table that takes the duration of the effect.
(d100) Effect 01-20 The character must succeed a DC20 Wisdom or Intelligence or Charisma saving throw or loose 5 SP and become Paralysed for that action. The effect does not end even when taking damage.
21-30 The character cannot stop babbling or whispering even when resting. Spellcasting requires a DC15 Concentration check and have disadvantage on all Charisma ability checks.
31-40 The character gains a crippling fear of 3 creature types, when viewing a image or hearing the name of the creature spoken the character screams in fear and covers their ears/eyes to block out the source. Encountering a creature of those three types it causes the character to be Frightened and must spend their entire action moving away while loosing 5 SP for every turn they can still see the creature.
41-50. The character becomes erratic and must succeed a DC25 Wisdom save or they will attack themselves, this can be stopped by being grappled or being restrained.
51-60 The character sees extremely vivid hallucinations of their worst fears or traumatic experiences from their past and must succeed a DC20 Wisdom saving or come under the effects of Phantasmal Killer and Blindness/Deafness for their full duration
61-70 The character takes 2d4 bludgeoning damage every minuet spent not unconscious as they punch themselves aggressively without their input
71-80 The character spends their action to intentionally kill the closest person to them until they take damage themselves
81-90 The character’s Max HP is reduced by half and must succeed a DC25 Constitution check when they become frightened or are surprised as their heart palpitates, on a failure they collapse prone and all movement is reduced to 0 as they take 15d10 damage
91-100 The character cannot rest.

In recent developments, the World Health Organization (WHO) has underscored the urgent need for countries to combat the pervasive issue of high salt consumption. Through its latest suite of recommendations, WHO has called for the imposition of legal limits on salt content in manufactured foods, restaurants, and canteens, aiming to mitigate the alarming rates of heart disease globally. The organization's plea is a clarion call for a healthier future, highlighting the critical correlation between salt intake and the prevalence of hypertension, a leading risk factor for cardiovascular diseases (CVD).
The statistics provided by WHO paint a dire picture, with cardiovascular diseases claiming approximately 10,000 lives daily within the European region alone. This staggering mortality rate, constituting 42.5 percent of all annual deaths in the said region, is primarily fueled by hypertension, which, in turn, is exacerbated by excessive salt consumption. The current average daily salt intake in nearly all countries in the European region significantly exceeds the WHO-recommended maximum of 5 grams, underscoring a pervasive dietary risk that demands immediate action.
The implications of salt on health extend beyond the well-documented rise in blood pressure. Recent studies, such as the one conducted by the Framingham Heart Study, further elucidate the detrimental effects of arterial stiffness on metabolic functions, drawing a link between vascular hemodynamics and hepatic conditions like steatosis and fibrosis. Such findings accentuate the interconnectedness of cardiovascular health with broader metabolic dysfunctions, reinforcing the importance of addressing salt consumption as a multifaceted health concern.
WHO's call for mandatory front-of-pack labels represents a vital step towards empowering consumers to make informed dietary choices. The initiative seeks to cut through the clutter of voluntary nutritional information, which has often left consumers at the mercy of less transparent food labeling practices. The proposed legal framework aims not only to foster an environment conducive to healthier eating habits but also to galvanize countries into adopting more robust public health strategies.
The organization's report, "Action on Salt and Hypertension," published during Salt Awareness Week, advocates for a comprehensive approach to salt reduction. This includes enhanced diagnosis, treatment, and control of hypertension, alongside public awareness campaigns designed to shift consumer behavior towards lower salt consumption. Such targeted policies, as WHO Regional Director for Europe Hans Kluge points out, have the potential to save an estimated 900,000 lives from CVDs by 2030.
The WHO's recommendations come at a critical juncture, highlighting the need for immediate and concerted efforts to curb the global salt crisis. The call for legal limits on salt content in food is not just a policy recommendation; it is a life-saving strategy that addresses the root cause of a significant public health issue. As countries grapple with the challenges of implementing these recommendations, the overarching goal remains clear: to reduce the burden of cardiovascular diseases through proactive salt reduction, thereby ensuring a healthier future for populations worldwide.
Herbal Formula for Supporting Cardiovascular Health

1. **Hibiscus (Hibiscus sabdariffa):** Hibiscus has been shown to have blood pressure-lowering effects. Its high content of anthocyanins and other antioxidants can help in reducing blood pressure levels. A meta-analysis of clinical trials showed that hibiscus tea significantly reduced systolic and diastolic blood pressure.
2. **Garlic (Allium sativum):** Garlic is well-known for its cardiovascular benefits, including blood pressure reduction. Allicin, a sulfur-containing compound found in garlic, is responsible for its vasodilatory effects. Garlic supplements have been found to have a significant impact on reducing blood pressure in individuals with hypertension.
3. **Hawthorn (Crataegus spp.):** Hawthorn is traditionally used for heart health, with research supporting its use in treating heart failure. It is believed to improve cardiovascular function by dilating blood vessels, improving blood flow, and protecting against blood vessel damage.
4. **Olive Leaf (Olea europaea):** Olive leaf extract contains oleuropein, which has been studied for its potential to lower blood pressure through various mechanisms, including vasodilation and anti-inflammatory effects.
5. **Dandelion (Taraxacum officinale):** While not directly linked to lowering blood pressure, dandelion acts as a diuretic, which can help manage hypertension by reducing fluid volume and blood pressure.

In conclusion, the WHO's latest stance on salt consumption is a testament to the organization's commitment to combating non-communicable diseases at their core. By targeting salt, a ubiquitous and often overlooked dietary component, WHO sets the stage for a global health transformation, one that promises to reduce the prevalence of hypertension and its devastating consequences on a global scale.
Sources:
https://iris.who.int/handle/10665/376580
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/38752348/

Their insistence and outright delusion that Abbie is a "typical teenager doing typical teenager things." There's a difference between setting her up to do the best she can with the hand she's been dealt in life, and outright ignoring the hand she's been dealt in life in favor of just pretending she's like every other teen. They're setting her up for daily discomfort and permanent failure because they want to insist that she's going to be a coffee barista riding her adaptive bike to work every day. She's 19 now, how long can they carry on that delusion before it becomes apparent even to them and EVEN to their most devoted followers that it will never happen? (The followers going on with the delusion are even worse.) Till she's 21? 25?
The truth is Abbie is at the level of a 2 year old baby at most. There's nothing wrong with that. It's not her fault. It's not something she or they need to be ashamed of; birth is a lottery and things happen. She doesn't want her nails painted. She doesn't want to go to loud music festivals and be ripped from her comfort zone to go traveling to a strange place every month. She doesn't want prom (I LOVE Night to Shine and have attended myself, but let's be real, Abbie isn't enjoying it and the attendees who were on Abbie's level usually just stayed in the calming/sensory room). She wants music, toys, food, magazines to rip, and her comfortable spot on the couch. And while I understand that she can't just lie around at home all the time, she needs activities that match her cognitive level and not purely activities that her parents, brother, Summer, etc enjoy.
I remember an old video from about 3 or 4 years ago where Abbie was watching a toddler show--maybe it was Barney I forget--and she was HAPPY, like genuinely happy and not the "happy" Asa and Priscilla insist she is in every video. She was bouncing, had a real smile on her face, making happy vocals especially when the musical parts come on. And Priscilla was standing there crying about how "sad" it was because her 16-ish-year-old loved Barney so much. That's cool that your daughter's happiness and enjoyment makes you sad, Priscilla. I'm sorry you didn't get the mini me you wanted but don't make that your daughter's problem. Get therapy to learn how to accept who she really is. There've been videos where Abbie's received sensory toys from fans, relatives, etc and she had a genuinely fun time playing with them but her parents would either take them away because they were "annoying" or because "they're not age appropriate." Get over it and accept that there's no "age appropriate" and your daughter is 19 by chronological age only, and let her have what she ENJOYS. Enough with the fantasies about a coffee barista riding her bike to work. Yes, there are plenty of places and programs that employ special needs adults but the reality is Abbie isn't capable of performing even the most rudimentary tasks required to maintain employment, even in these programs. She was taken out of her vocational program likely for this reason, don't give me BS about "she graduated early." Abbie's life is that of a toddler forever, and these two need to accept and prepare for that reality instead of shoehorning her into this teenage fantasy she'll never be able to maintain.
Just to give an example of a channel that does what Asa and Priscilla SHOULD be doing for Abbie, there's a channel I follow on Tiktok of a girl with Angelman Syndrome and her family. This girl is on the same cognitive level as Abbie, around 2 years old at age 16. Her AWESOME family, instead of exploiting her and trying to force her to fit into neurotypical fantasies, accepts that. She has a room full of Squishmallows and fun sensory toys, she has an occupational therapist come in weekly to help her with motor skills and walking, she gets glowsticks and water tables and dangling keys and she loves them, etc. And her mother isn't making money off of the videos of her, she's uploading them to show what life is like for someone living with a rare condition and what their family life is like. They are an extremely close knit and loving family and all of the siblings do everything they can to get their sister involved--on HER level. Her mom doesn't try to force her to be just like her neurotypical siblings or attend all of the activities they attend. This is what Fathering Autism could have been if A & P weren't just delusional, narcissistic, and greedy.

My son, 2M months was born with a VSD and at 2 weeks old he was admitted into hospital with borderline heart failure but with meds/reduced fluid he has been stable and currently doing really. His cardiologist is great but is extremely vague when sharing the appointment outcome or answering our questions. This was in his letter to our general practitioner, can anyone explain what this means?
“4/6 murmer with palpable thrill at the left lower sternal edge.
Echocardiogram shows his perimembranous VSD. There is some left sided volume loading but the velocity across the VSD is 5.8 m/sec”.

hey everyone, after the conversation I had with my brother I would like some input because I don't know how to feel anymore.
Backstory: I (f20) was born with a rare heart condition that caused me to grow up in and out of hospitals. My family was also all born in South America, except for me. Being born with this problem caused my family's U.S. vacation to turn into a 20-year (and counting)long stay. My culture is very conservative and women are held to an incredibly high beauty standard. Due to this, my mom (f62) has not always been the nicest to me, to put it lightly, which has led me to be in low contact with her for about 6 years now (she moved back to our country of origin after her and my dad divorced 16 years ago).
Onto the story: about a month and a half ago I was rushed to the hospital and ended up being diagnosed with congestive heart failure. Now I'm not going to lie, I am terrified. I told my dad right away but I am also low-contact/no-contact with my two siblings (m 36 & m 26) due to abuse and mistreatment. So last week I told M36 over text and he called me. We talked for about 40 minutes and he tried to convince me to tell Mom what was happening. Telling me that I will regret being LC with her and that whatever she has said or done in the past that has hurt me I have to forgive her and give her some grace because of the cultural differences and that she is "from another time" (called me satan when I came out, made fun of me and my body for any "imperfections", said my only worth is my U.S citizenship, etc) but that at the end of the day she is still my mom. He also went on about how I will "regret treating her this way" and how I need to stop being stubborn and allow her to be part of my life again.
I told him he is free to tell her because I lack the language skills to communicate such a serious issue to her in our native language, but that until she loves and accepts me for who I am, I will remain LC with her. He also went on about how I can't be so strict and expect everyone in my life to agree with my "lifestyle" I just need to learn how to brush that aside and not talk about it.
ETA: So AITA for not telling my mom directly that I am in heart failure?

I would prefer some religious perspective on this post since I’m a Christian woman (F28) and my fiancé and upcoming husband is a Muslim (30M)
He doesn’t have a problem with my faith because I’m one of the people of the book and he is allowed to marry me
Unfortunately I’m born with a severe and permanent heart condition and my resting saturation is between 80-85% and it decreases with physical activity. So it is a lot lower than normal. My cardiologists have strongly advised against having children and becoming pregnant due to my heart condition. It could make my heart condition worse with all sorts of potential new conditions or even mortality to both me and baby. It could also be passed on the child and cause stillbirth, miscarriages and premature births if my heart condition was milder and if I was able to get pregnant
But my heart condition is very complex and requires monitoring every six months. I can’t take all medications because I’m at higher risk of developing liver failure. My current medication is the only one that has worked for keeping my oxygen levels stable. My condition can’t be cured medically or surgically but the medication helps with stabilizing my oxygen levels so it at least doesn’t get worse.
Unfortunately it doesn’t uptake progesterone very well and I can’t take estrogen either because of the higher risks of blood clots and heart attacks.
But my fiancé still won’t let me get permanently sterilized even though I’ve tried to explain my condition and was honest about the fact that I’m unable to have children. In the beginning he seemed to understand but now it seems like he has an unrealistic idea that I might be able to have children one day. He even agreed to get a vasectomy but now he doesn’t want one and claims he never said he would get one.
I also told him the doctors have said a future surgery would be very invasive and risky to my heart health. More risky than beneficial. But even then he doesn’t seem to get it and still thinks it can be cured one day, but at this point there might be more risks related to pregnancy due to age even if I got it cured and even then it is still risky to my heart health.
It makes me feel like he isn’t honest about wanting children and that he keeps his options open with me because he probably thinks he can’t find anyone else to have children with him due to his own medical problems. So that’s probably why he won’t let me despite knowing the risks and dangers it could pose to my health and life.
Anyone with advice on what to do to make him understand my worries? He normally is very kind and caring about my health but the idea of permanent sterilization just upsets him
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hey everyone, after the conversation I had with my brother I would like some input because I don't know how to feel anymore.
Backstory: I (f20) was born with a rare heart condition that caused me to grow up in and out of hospitals. My family was also all born in South America, except for me. Being born with this problem caused my family's U.S. vacation to turn into a 20-year (and counting)long stay. My culture is very conservative and women are held to an incredibly high beauty standard. Due to this, my mom (f62) has not always been the nicest to me, to put it lightly, which has led me to be in low contact with her for about 6 years now (she moved back to our country of origin after her and my dad divorced 16 years ago).
Onto the story: about a month and a half ago I was rushed to the hospital and ended up being diagnosed with congestive heart failure. Now I'm not going to lie, I am terrified. I told my dad right away but I am also low-contact/no-contact with my two siblings (m 36 & m 26) due to abuse and mistreatment. So last week I told M36 over text and he called me. We talked for about 40 minutes and he tried to convince me to tell Mom what was happening. Telling me that I will regret being LC with her and that whatever she has said or done in the past that has hurt me I have to forgive her and give her some grace because of the cultural differences and that she is "from another time" (called me satan when I came out, made fun of me and my body for any "imperfections", said my only worth is my U.S citizenship, etc) but that at the end of the day she is still my mom. He also went on about how I will "regret treating her this way" and how I need to stop being stubborn and allow her to be part of my life again.
I told him he is free to tell her because I lack the language skills to communicate such a serious issue to her in our native language, but that until she loves and accepts me for who I am, I will remain LC with her. He also went on about how I can't be so strict and expect everyone in my life to agree with my "lifestyle" I just need to learn how to brush that aside and not talk about it.
So Reddit (and Morgan/Justin/Alexandra/ THT guest), AITA for not telling my mom that I am in heart failure?

Hi! Could this be used as an alert for heart failure? We’re looking for some peace of mind that if our family member with HF stopped breathing we would know

I feel I have two options in life

1. Become rich in money (find a way to own or start a business that profits me $10k+/month) so I can buy anything I’d like and Take care of those I love, travel the world, build cars and (as much as I hate to admit this) live up to the expectations I feel some people I care about have for me. I for some reason worry about them looking down on me (it’s strange I have always never cared about what others thought till the last couple years it’s gotten pretty bad)

Now this life would consist of a lot of materialistic wealth and happiness thanks to everything I could buy with money but due to all the time I’d be putting into a business that hits $10k a month I’d lose a lot of my day to day life resulting with me losing priceless time with people I care for and even doing things I want to do… what good is it to have all the materialistic stuff if you can’t even have time off to enjoy it yourself or with the ones you love?
Side note: it would be easy to find love again because let’s be honest who wouldn’t want to be with a “rich” guy who can buy you the car you want and take you to that fancy restaurant or buy you that pretty dress you saw online?

1. Live a minimalist life (studio apartment or van life) now this life would be a simplistic life I’d have plenty of time off in my day to day life because I’d either be living off disability due to heart issues (I’ve had 2 recorded heart attacks) and if I can’t get disability then I’d just work 3 days out of the week which would give me 4 days off to do whatever I please now if I can get disability then obviously I’d have everyday off doing whatever I please whenever I want as long as it costs no money or very little amount. which leads me to my next point which is I’d have very little money to do much but I’d have plenty of time to be with family and friends… the other issue is I’ve always wanted to travel the world but with option 2 I wouldn’t be able to travel to other countries as often as I’d like but idk maybe I could maybe I’m over estimating how expensive traveling out of country is (I’ve never traveled in my life other then by car to other states as a kid. This is why I mentioned van life is because the cheap life style would also allow me to travel all over the US freely as well.

I worry about this life style because I don’t want to be looked at as a failure or regret my decision down the road. Or be a bad example for my kid or have my kid look at me as a failure. (This life style can give me all the time in the world to spend every minute I can with my kid when they want me to be there for them)
Side note: this life style I feel will be a very lonely or single life due to not being considered the best provider for a potential significant other. I love, love. I feel it may be hard to find someone who will want to be with me if I chose this life style
I should mention I am 24 years old.

Exercise strengthens the heart by creating tears in the heart muscle, which rebuild to create a strong heart with better endurance and less oxygen consumption. Why doesn't cocaine provide similar benefits?
Cocaine puts stress on the heart, which may increase heart failure in the short-term. But so does exercise.
I've searched Google, but nothing really comes up.
Could a pill simulate exercise to strengthen the heart e.g. for geriatrics/limbless with limited mobility?
I read about cyclists who had dangerously low heart rates of 40 BPM, so used cocaine to reach safe levels.

So basically my Mum died six years ago, around the same time as my Grandad, and at about the same time my husband nearly got deported when his visa was declined. We had a one year old at the time. They both died on ITU and I was an ITU nurse and found it too triggering so I left my job and changed area. My Dad has BPD and NPD so he was a total disaster and awful after Mum died and we had to worry about him and the inquest. Fell pregnant again, had a difficult pregnancy during COVID which was triggering because everyone on the TV was dying in the same way that my Mum had. Moved house during COVID which was stressful, our cat dropped dead after vomiting blood aged 4 with heart failure. Had baby, when he was 5 months old he became critically ill and we spent 7 months in hospital with him, he had sepsis 6 times nearly died several times from all the complications of a pancreas tear. I was signed off with stress. Work weren't supportive when I tried to return as I was having panic attacks and needed adjustments made, so I left. That, plus all the time off when baby was sick took its toll financially. Still, the year out of work was the best we have had. Nothing happened, it was bliss. I finally found a job I could return to and be trained up in and that was an extremely anxiety inducing year, since I was out of work (nursing) for three years by then and it was very stressful to get back into it. Fast forward to this year where my Nan had a stroke and deteriorated and died within 10 days. My Dad dealt with the whole process really badly so I had to step in several times to help her. Around the same time my wonderful father in law got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and is very much end of life now. Which is heartbreaking. And my husband is up helping his family and saying goodbye to his Dad, and I am home with my two young kids and trying to work out how I can manage to work this weekend as we have the smallest support network ever, which is ever-diminishing, and work are putting pressure on me to turn up. They have been really patient in general but also, what do you want me to do?! I'm not a robot and I can't just ignore it all because you're short-staffed?! I am literally right at the end of my tether and when the stress gets too much, I get really bad abdomen pains and if that happens I wont be able to work anyway! I'm now at the stage where I just want a different life. This one is shit.

Preface: This is for Vedic, Sidereal Astrology.
This took a super long time to finish, but I've finally reached a point where I think I'm done trying to improve it. This part will focus more on how Purva Bhadrapada manifests for individuals.
Nature
Purva Bhadrapada reminds me a lot of Kali Yuga. In Hindu cosmology, Kali is the final of the four ages that the world goes through as part of a continuous cycle of creation, maintenance, and dissolution. It is the final stage before the onset of a new cycle, promising the destruction of the old order and the eventual merging of all into a unified whole. It signifies a time of dual balance before dissolution of individual identities and the reunification of all existence with the divine source. This can be viewed as being similar to the process of individual death, but it is on a universal scale. Kali Yuga is considered the age of darkness and moral decline, where spiritual values deteriorate and materialism prevails. According to Hindu scriptures, Kali Yuga is characterized by widespread social, political, and moral corruption, as well as a decline in virtue and Dharma (righteousness). It is believed that, during this age, human beings face numerous challenges and spiritual tests, and the pursuit of higher consciousness becomes increasingly more difficult compared to the previous Yugas. Just as Kali Yuga tests individuals with challenges to their spiritual resolve amidst the prevailing degeneration of values, Purva Bhadrapada is a cosmic stage where one's truest nature is tested through the weakening separation of the spiritual and the material. Here, individuals are made to confront their deepest fears and desires, burdened with the challenge of facing their true nature and purifying their souls. The emphasis of this nakshatra lies in releasing attachments amidst the seduction of outer freedom and power, mirroring the spiritual trials inherent to Kali Yuga. Yet, despite challenges of degeneration, there exists a unique opportunity during the stages of both Kali and Purva Bhadrapada. Kali is believed to be the best time for spiritual progress and true liberation because individuals can attain spiritual growth more rapidly due to the intensity of the challenges they face during this period, and the same is true of Purva Bhadrapada nakshatra. Both Kali and Purva Bhadrapada emphasize the importance of transcending mundane concerns and dedicatedly seeking spiritual truth amidst the backdrop of pervading ignorance.
The primary nature of Purva Bhadrapada is that of penance and disequilibrium. Purva Bhadrapada is the stage of evolution where individuals are made to undergo intense internal transformation and dissolution, shedding layers of their being in preparation for spiritual renewal and divine return. This process of metamorphosis can be seen as a type of penance, whether embraced willingly or thrust upon them. It offers eventual rewards as they journey towards enlightenment. As the primary nature of Purva Bhadrapada revolves around penance and transformation, individuals heavily influenced by this Nakshatra are oriented towards personal introspection and societal purification, viewing their lives as both a personal quest for growth and an opportunity to contribute to something greater. Individually, they seek to cleanse themselves of past transgressions and strive for spiritual redemption, and they feel personally responsible for their impact on others. At a broader societal level, they are driven by a strong sense of justice and a duty to rectify societal wrongs of the past and present in order to contribute to the collective upliftment and purification of their community. As such, they often subject themselves and others to extreme physical, mental, and spiritual challenges. They are presented with a kind of spiritual trial of sacrifice: either they can willingly embrace self-denial and endure while remaining detached, or they can create so much desire and fear that it causes them to lose the direction of their souls in the process. While the primary manifestation of Purva Bhadrapada energy is inwardly focused on cultivating self-discipline and perfection, oftentimes to an unhealthy degree, sometimes the focus can instead shift outward. This is where Purva Bhadrapada gains a lot of its infamy; Purva Bhadrapada is revered as one of the most "difficult" and "intense" nakshatras among Vedic astrologers. It is an asterism that gets approached with trepidation due to its somber imagery and associations with themes of violence, debauchery, and malevolence. The negative traits linked to Purva Bhadrapada, such as paranoia, pessimism, and hedonism, contribute to its daunting reputation. And for the most part, the fear of this nakshatra is justified. Not only are these individuals capable of doling out punishment themselves through various means like violence, manipulation, curses, etc., but they can also inadvertently bring out the self-destructive or uncontrolled nature of others. They are the types to cause deep introspection and confrontation with one's own shortcomings and fears, often acting as catalysts for irreversible transformation of character.
In terms of Purva Bhadrapada's inherently unbalanced nature, the trajectory is quite clear. These natives are not the type to do anything in moderation and often have an unstable demeanor and sense of self. They will always be pulled towards the polar extremes of anything, but they can flip on their values rapidly following any transformative event. They may occupy the deepest levels of material saturation, completely lost in chasing fame, drugs, sex, and uncontained immoral activities. Yet, paradoxically, they can also find themselves drawn to the heights of spiritual austerity, sometimes even at the same time they are trying to maximize their material standing. This innate propensity for extremes and contradiction manifests in every aspect of their lives, from their relationships, to their goals, to their beliefs, and to their actions. They are esteemed for their amiable disposition, characterized by warmth, thoughtfulness, and a selfless inclination to assist others without seeking acknowledgment. Yet, concurrently, they are often perceived as self-serving, prone to bouts of ill temper, and housing a proclivity towards ego-centricity. Despite appearing outwardly normal a lot of the time, they can be very eccentric. They are the types to lead clandestine lives, harboring secrets and maintaining hidden facets of their personalities and activities, even to those closest to them. This can make them seem nefarious and untrustworthy. Sometimes this is the case, but despite having a reputation for deceit, many of them are known to be sincere and honorable. Yet, underlying however they are being perceived is a deeper struggle to fully identify with anything. This challenge leads to inner conflicts and uncertainties, as they grapple with their sense of self and their place in the world. They are up and down, left and right, constantly in a state of internal conflict that leaves them questioning who they really are. They can feel like they don't know themselves while still being hyper-individualistic and defensive over whatever their current sense of identity is, even though it is likely to change. These contradictions reveal the complexity of their psyche, where outer appearances often mask inner conflicts and contradictory emotions and experiences. Purva Bhadrapada natives navigate the space where boundaries are starting to blur, reflecting the burgeoning singularity of existence in their minds. Due to this, sometimes they can seem like walking contradictions, embodying multiple clashing characteristics at once. For example, while they may harbor a sense of superiority over others, they can also experience deep-seated insecurity and jealousy. They can like to be critical, but cannot handle criticism. Additionally, they might demonstrate a strong desire for independence and self-reliance, yet simultaneously crave validation and approval from those around them. These conflicting traits contribute to their complex and enigmatic nature, making them intriguing yet challenging individuals to understand to others and themselves.
Purva Bhadrapada's inclination towards extremes extends to their pursuit of goals, as they approach certain tasks with unwavering ambition and dedication. They set high standards and are willing to push themselves to extreme limits to get what they want. This relentless drive for perfection and attainment can sometimes lead them to engage in behaviors that are harmful to the well-being of themselves or others, as they struggle to find balance and moderation. At this point, you may be asking, "how is that penance if they are only striving to selfishly get what they want?" Well, the painful truth about this is that they do not really want these things. They are told by others ignorant to their situation that they will be happy when they achieve some kind of abstruse goal set forth for them by society, and they are sent on a goose-chase of material ambition to achieve happiness, but this inevitably only leads to further dissatisfaction. They are met with pain, humiliation, and harsh transformation, but they keep pushing towards their aspiration of material fulfillment. It is only when they get that job, marry that partner, become famous, etc. that they realize it does not bring them happiness or fill them with the sense of purpose they crave. In fact, this realization often leads to intense anger as they confront the worthlessness of what they spent all their time chasing. The journey through Purva Bhadrapada is undeniably arduous, but that is to be expected with such a potent force. They are called to transcend their attachments, lest they be forcefully ripped away. They begin to grapple with an inescapable emptiness they feel when interacting with the world, and this can often lead them to deep feelings of nihilism. Purva Bhadrapada natives are predisposed to being unhappy, and this is not a shallow kind of unhappiness that fades based on external circumstances. Rather, it is a deeply existential depression– a feeling of confused worthlessness and dissatisfaction they often battle with for the duration of their lives. Their experiences and attachments become increasingly burdensome as they grow more aware of the fleeting nature of life. These natives will openly acknowledge the impermanence of worldly intentions, and while this can be both good or bad, it ultimately makes their minds unpredictable and unstable. With the recognition that nothing lasts forever, a new philosophy can be used to justify any action according to moral relativism. If nothing matters in the grand scheme – where whatever you do will eventually fade into obscurity, wiped away with the start of a new cycle – then anything you do doesn’t really matter in the end. This gives these natives a sense of untouchability, a feeling to do whatever they please at their most uninhibited. And it is in this stage of recognizing one’s freedom to do whatever they want is that the test to discern their one’s nature begins. When there is total freedom, the only real concern becomes about what one chooses to do with their freedom. After all, the only harm that can come from doing what you want is ultimately the result of wanting to do something harmful. Sadly, the reality is that most people are not strong enough to fully resist the temptation of evil and would fail this test. It is for this reason that this trial is exclusively administered to individuals who possess a high level of spiritual advancement found under Purva Bhadrapda. Regardless of the difficulties they face, those governed by Purva Bhadrapada have tremendous inner strength and personal resilience, which often manifests in worldly and spiritual achievement and prosperity in various facets of their lives.
Individuals born under the influence of the Purva Bhadrapada Nakshatra are inherently inclined towards detachment from external influences. This detachment often leads them down two distinct paths. Some choose to embrace a life unbound by societal norms, driven solely by their inner convictions. These individuals seek to experience life to the fullest, embracing both its joys and challenges. However, if they feel unfulfilled, they may turn to darker pursuits in search of excitement. Conversely, others utilize their detachment for spiritual advancement, renouncing materialism in favor of a disciplined quest for higher truths. In both cases, detachment becomes a defining trait, shaping their lives in divergent yet meaningful ways. Whether they become revolutionary leaders or appear lazy due to their selective motivation, their actions are stirred only by what truly invigorates their souls. Their inner character often changes with time. They can start out seeming quite innocent and fragile, and a lot of the time they will have something about them that invites torment, be it their big and eccentric personalities, their height, their weight, their looks, etc. This often leads people to perceive them as different and vulnerable. Unfortunately, this vulnerability often attracts individuals who seek to exploit, victimize, or corrupt them. There's a noticeable pattern of others attempting to take advantage of their perceived weakness, whether it be through just trying to make them feel bad, manipulating them, coercing them to do things they do not want to, or forcing them to be alone by treating them as outcasts. This predatory behavior can leave these individuals feeling isolated, betrayed, and miserable, further fueling their inner turmoil and sense of disillusionment with the world around them. However, this also serves to strengthen them. During the course of their lives, they will experience a series of external transformations that will change who they are. While their soft and innocent demeanor may still be present in some ways, there will be a new darker side to their nature. The inner transformations that Purva Bhadrapada natives undergo change them into stronger, more hardened versions of themselves. This alteration can manifest in tendencies towards violence, aggression, deceit, manipulation, etc., yet at the same time, it also equips them with the strength and capability to protect others when needed. As they navigate the complexities of life, they become formidable forces, possessing the resilience and detachment to confront challenges head-on along with the capacity to wield their strength for both good and evil.
Purva Bhadrapada natives exhibit a curious mix of flippancy and seriousness, often displaying a casual attitude towards many topics yet simultaneously exuding an air of solemnity in regards to topics concerning things like philosophical and existential inquiries. They possess a keen intellect characterized by innovation and depth of gnosis, which lends to their excellence in fields like science and research. Additionally, they are known to have an insatiable thirst for knowledge and information gathering brought about by a powerful yearning for deeper truth. While they may have a religious inclination, their focus lies more on unraveling the essence of spirituality rather than adhering rigidly to dogma. As a result of their approach to religion, they can sometimes be critical of conventional religious practices, which rely heavily on dogmatic rules and rituals. These natives are generally liberal and disdain hypocrisy as well as superficiality, valuing authenticity and depth in both thought and action, regardless of how much it clashes with anything else. Despite their show of outward confidence, they often wrestle with inner self-doubt and a crippling fear of failure, which leaves little room for optimism when they are faced with setbacks. While they typically prefer to be alone, they may inadvertently rely on others when seeking to escape the monotony of their everyday lives. This can make them seem unreliable or inconsistent when it comes to their relationships. They are driven by an innate desire to transcend mediocrity and to be perceived as exceptional. This drive for superior distinction stems from underlying feelings of insecurity and a fear of judgment, compelling them to constantly push the boundaries and strive for success through originality in all aspects of their lives. In their personal relationships, Purva Bhadrapada natives may struggle to balance their need for independence with their desire for connection. Generally, in their interactions with others, Purva Bhadrapada natives are intense yet detached. Despite their desire for authenticity and closeness in relationships, they may struggle to express their openly, fearing rejection or misunderstanding. This internal conflict between their need for connection and their fear of vulnerability can create barriers to intimacy, causing them to retreat through self-imposed isolation. Additionally, their critical nature and high standards can sometimes alienate others, as they can come across as overly judgmental or demanding of their fitness, partners, colleagues, etc. They value depth and sincerity in relationships, but sometimes it can be too much to where they end up pushing others away with their intensity. Despite these challenges, they are still often very empathetic and understanding, and they can offer support to people when needed.
Before I get into the padas, I want to give some examples. I do not want to go into much detail or take up too much time with this, but given the very complicated nature of this nakshatra, I feel that it is necessary to provide media representations for people to look into if they are interested in knowing more about how it manifests: Martin Scorsese PB Moon and Andrew Garfield PB ASC (Silence Official Trailer (2016) - Paramount Pictures), Billie Eilish PB ASC (Billie Eilish - bury a friend (Official Music Video)), Jack Black PB Moon (School of Rock (2003) Trailer #1 Movieclips Classic Trailers), Dylan O'brien PB Moon (AMERICAN ASSASSIN - Official Trailer - HD (Dylan O'Brien, Michael Keaton), Logan-Marshall Green (Upgrade Trailer #1 (2018) Movieclips Trailers), Paul Walker PB Moon (Hours TRAILER (2013) - Paul Walker Movie HD), Bill Skarsgard PB Moon (The Crow - Official Trailer (2024) Bill Skarsgård, FKA twigs, Danny Huston), Olivia Wilde PB Sun (A VIGILANTE Official HD International Trailer Starring Olivia Wilde) & (The Lazarus Effect Official Trailer #1 (2015) - Olivia Wilde, Mark Duplass Movie HD), John Stamos PB ASC (John Stamos Stars in "Secrets of Eden" Lifetime), Hozier PB Sun (the lyrics and imagery of this video are extremely Purva Bhadrapada) Hozier - Take Me To Church), Kaya Scoledario PB Sun (Spinning Out Official Trailer Netflix), Ryan Gosling PB ASC (THE FALL GUY Official Trailer 2 (Universal Studios) - HD), Camila Mendes PB Moon (Do Revenge Official Trailer Netflix), Bryan Cranston PB Sun (Breaking Bad Trailer), Sabrina Carpenter PB Moon and Milo Manheim PB Sun (Sabrina Carpenter - Feather (Official Video) Alexandra Daddario PB Sun (Anne Rice's Mayfair Witches Trailer: Starring Alexandra Daddario AMC+), Jacob Elordi PB Moon (2 HEARTS Official Trailer (2020) Jacob Elordi, Tiera Skovbye), Tom Blyth PB Moon (Billy The Kid (EPIX 2022 Series) Official Trailer), Daniel Gillies PB Sun (COMING HOME IN THE DARK Trailer (2021) Daniel Gillies Suspense Thriller Movie), Matthew Gray Gubler PB Sun (KING KNIGHT Trailer (2022) Angela Sarafyan, Matthew Gray Gubler), Jon Hamm (Corner Office (2023) Official Trailer - Jon Hamm, Danny Pudi, Sarah Gadon), Rachel Weisz PB Sun + Moon and Sam Claflin PB Moon (MY COUSIN RACHEL Official Trailer FOX Searchlight), Chris Pine PB Moon (Jack Reacher Movie Trailer), Madison Beer PB Sun (Madison Beer - Make You Mine (Official Music Video), Sharon Stone PB Sun (Basic Instinct - Trailer (1080p)), and Michael Jackson PB Moon (Michael Jackson - Thriller (Official 4K Video).
Padas
(mostly for Moon) They all tend to be skinny to middle weight until they get older, where they either become more muscular or plump/curvy.
1st – The first pada of Purva Bhadrapada, falling in the Aries Navamsa, signifies a stage of primal energy and raw ambition. With Mars as their guiding force, they exhibit a relentless drive to achieve their goals, refusing to be deterred by obstacles or setbacks. However, being the initial pada of the nakshatra just leaving the stage of Shatabhisha, this quarter is the least spiritually developed. While they may possess great worldly ambition and the capacity for success, they may also be prone to ego-driven actions and an overly narrow focus on material pursuits. They can get into occultism or spirituality, but it is usually an attempt to further themselves in the material realm. Natives born under this pada possess a combative nature, always ready to engage in confrontations to defend their beliefs or assert their dominance. They tend to be more mentally aggressive than physically, but nonetheless their volatile temperament can lead to physical disputes as well when they are provoked enough. They know they can be very damaging when they lose control, so they will do everything in their power to prevent escalation. Ironically, this can make them seem passive. They typically exhibit anxious tendencies while attempting to conceal or downplay their feelings of worry. Natives of this pada are extremely passionate, but they have a tendency to constantly compare themselves to others, which ultimately can lead them to disregard their efforts to focus on surpassing someone else's. This propensity of theirs for aggression, envy, and competitiveness can strain relationships and hinder their personal growth, as they become consumed by their own desires for dominance and validation. They are usually medium tall with a wide forehead and low eyebrows.
2nd – The second pada of Purva Bhadrapada, ruled by Venus in the Taurus Navamsa, embodies a stage of sensual indulgence and creative expression. Individuals born under this pada are drawn to the occult and mysteries of the unseen, often delving into practices such as astrology and black magic. There is a bit of detachment from the mysticism of it at this stage though. They may prefer to look at it through a scientific or philosophical perspective as opposed to one that embraces faith in the divine. While their interest in these esoteric realms may lead to proficiency in such arts, it also heightens their propensity to lose track of their life's direction, becoming absorbed in the pursuit of hidden knowledge and power. Natives of this pada are characterized by their attractive physique, with beautiful broad teeth and strikingly captivating eyes that draw others to them. They possess an innate charm that makes them highly appealing to the opposite sex, and they are not hesitant to indulge in their darker desires and fantasies. Their creativity knows no bounds, as they constantly innovate and explore new avenues of expression. However, despite their magnetic allure and creative flair, individuals of this pada are prone to indulgence and excess, particularly when it comes to satisfying their sensual appetites. Their pursuit of pleasure and gratification can sometimes lead them astray, causing them to lose sight of their responsibilities and priorities. This stage of Purva Bhadrapada is more spiritually evolved than the prior, but it is still in the accumulation phase of Aquarius and the 11th house. Despite their outward charm, they may struggle to find stability and balance in their lives. They are prone to accidents.
3rd – The third pada of Purva Bhadrapada falls in the Gemini Navamsa and is ruled by Mercury. Natives born under this pada embody the mental side of Purva Bhadrapada, which is very focused on cultivating critical reasoning and gathering information, emphasizing communication, learning, and adaptability. Individuals born under this pada are intellectually inclined, constantly seeking to expand their knowledge and understanding of the world around them. They are playful and curious by nature, approaching life with a sense of wonder and exploration. Their energy is expressed through communication and expression, as they excel in articulating their thoughts and ideas. They have a natural gift for language and may find success in fields such as writing, teaching, or public speaking. Despite their playful demeanor, they are still very serious about their pursuits, driven by a deep-seated desire for personal growth and self-improvement. Natives of this pada tend to be peaceful and honorable, seeking harmony and balance in their interactions with others. However, their mercurial nature can sometimes manifest as manipulation or deceit, particularly when they perceive it necessary to achieve their goals. Nonetheless, they are skilled at navigating social situations and may possess a knack for making money through their cleverness and resourcefulness. In terms of appearance, individuals of this pada may have gaunt lower cheeks, high cheekbones, a narrow and defined jawline, and a medium stature. These physical characteristics complement their sharp wit and agile minds, making them engaging in social settings.
4th – The fourth pada of Purva Bhadrapada is ruled by the Moon in Cancer Navamsa. This is the most spiritually advanced of all the padas and tends to be among the most intense. At this stage, individuals born under this pada have either undergone profound inner transformation, shedding their attachment to worldly desires and material gains for the sake of aligning with the cosmic order, or they have fallen for the empty temptations of material life, leading them to a deeper state of moral decay. This pada in the sequence of this nakshatra symbolizes the finalization of death, and just like when we die, the impact of our lives can no longer be altered. You are called to surrender all you have acquired to the purifying flames of the spiritual fire, relinquishing personal benefit for the greater good, and if you fail, your soul will be lost to another cycle of rebirth. This represents the height of the nakshatra's power to manifest, it can come to be either an uplifting force for individuals and humanity as a whole, or as a potentially dangerous influence. Those born under this pada are deeply engaged in their own spiritual pursuits, usually guided by a sense of purpose and higher calling. They possess an innate magnetism and power that exerts influence over others and the world around them. Despite the intensity of their spiritual journey, individuals of this pada tend to enjoy good longevity and robust health, thanks to their deep connection with the cosmic energies. They are often perceived charismatic individuals, drawing others to them with their presence. However, their innate power comes with a responsibility to wield it wisely, as they hold the potential to bring about significant positive change or destruction, depending on how they choose to channel it.
Caste
Purva Bhadrapada belongs to the Brahmin or priestly/scholarly caste. This classification is based on the inherent qualities and tendencies of individuals born under this nakshatra, rather than their family lineage, as seen in contemporary caste systems. In Vedic astrology and Hindu tradition, each nakshatra is associated with as caste, thereby linking them to specific attributes, occupations, and societal roles. Brahmin is positioned as the highest caste and is given the most power and responsibility, both socially and spiritually. In classical texts, the Brahmin caste is exalted for its dedication to scholarship, spirituality, and moral rectitude. Brahmins are depicted as the keepers of sacred knowledge, entrusted with the preservation and dissemination of ancient scriptures and teachings. They are revered for their intellectual prowess, philosophical insights, and commitment to upholding the highest ethical standards. Brahmins are expected to lead lives of austerity, simplicity, and self-discipline, setting examples of virtue and righteousness for society. Additionally, they play important roles in leading religious rituals, ceremonies, and spiritual practices, acting as intermediaries between individuals and the divine. Their contributions also extend beyond religious and intellectual realms though, as they also provide guidance, counseling, and healing to individuals and communities. Overall, Brahmins are portrayed as paragons of virtue, wisdom, and enlightenment, embodying the highest ideals of human excellence and divine knowledge as described in classical texts, acting as oases of wisdom by guiding society not only in matters of spirituality but also in areas such as literature, philosophy, and science. Their primary occupations are mostly associated with administration of all sectors of society, teaching, healing, and providing spiritual guidance. Its intersection with Aquarius Rashi on the ecliptic plane may also relate it to Kshatriya and Shudra.
Gunas
The nakshatras each represent the different gunas at different levels of functioning. For this asterism, it might be confusing to find out that, despite all of its negative connotations, it is associated primarily with Sattva or purity/balance. This mainly stems from this Nakshatra's capacity for penance, spiritualism, and generosity. Overall, Purva Bhadrapada is associated with two levels of Sattva and one of Rajas. Sattva prevails at the physical and mental levels, while Rajas predominates at the spiritual level. At the physical level, individuals born under Purva Bhadrapada exhibit qualities of purity, harmony, and balance. They are often composed, grounded, and possess a sense of stability in their physical endeavors. Mentally, they tend to exhibit clarity, wisdom, and a penchant for introspection when they are only focused on engaging their rational mind. This can get muddy when they try to incorporate less tangible aspects into their thinking though. At the spiritual level, the influence of Rajas emerges, driving them towards spiritual growth and evolution but also threatening them with the struggle of inner turmoil. With Rajas at the most personal level of the spirit, this can cause a onstant seeking pf external validation and gratification, which leads to things such as constantly chasing after fleeting desires and pleasures from their lack of contentment. Additionally, the intense drive associated with Rajas may result in overexertion, burnout, and a disregard for self-care. It can lead to an inflated ego, arrogance, and a tendency towards manipulative or self-serving behavior. Therefore, while Rajas can propel individuals towards spiritual evolution, it also poses challenges that need to be navigated with mindfulness and self-awareness. Together with the heavy influence of Sattva, Rajas in this nakshatra creates a spiritual restlessness that works to propel these natives to actively engage in spiritual practices, seeking to transcend worldly limitations and attain spiritual liberation. It comes with risk, but this is a necessary trial.
Gana
Purva Bhadrapada Nakshatra falls under the category of Manushya Gana, or "human/mixed species." This designation speaks to the inherent qualities and tendencies of individuals born under this nakshatra, aligning them with human characteristics and behaviors. People belonging to the Manushya Gana Nakshatras, including Purva Bhadrapada, place value on their self-worth and esteem. They often enjoy good physical attributes and are blessed with fortune, leading comfortable lives. With warm and friendly personalities, they exhibit care and affection towards their family, friends, and loved ones, readily offering assistance to those in need. However, they also prioritize their own interests and benefits. They are known for their warm and caring nature, and while they may appear busy if approached, they are capable of balancing their personal and professional lives effectively. The path of those born under Manushya Gana nakshatras is undefined. They possess the potential to exhibit both positive and negative qualities, akin to the diverse nature of humanity itself. They have the potential to be even more evil than the Rakshas and even more good than the Devas. While some may lean towards acts of kindness and generosity, others may display tendencies that are less altruistic. This blend of qualities makes them a complex combination qualities you might see for the Deva and Rakshasa Ganas. Keep in mind that you should look at the dominant Gana in your chart to gain a better understanding of how this may apply to you.
Thank you for taking the time to read this if you did. I will have to continue this in a third part because I'm out of room on this post. Afterwards, I will be starting on Shravana Nakshatra soon, and then later on Anuradha.