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discussion about and for young adult writers

2012.12.18 00:57 ZisforZombie discussion about and for young adult writers

This sub is for authors of YA novels. Discussing your original WIP (work in progress) is our purpose. Feel free to discuss titles, characters, plots, themes, settings, critiques, and any information pertinent to authors and genre. Hopefully we can all learn from each other and write great books!
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2024.05.21 21:13 AzureLightPKK Reading Comprehension worksheet Generator?

Hello! Middle school tutor here.
I'm looking for any websites/software/AI prompt that will generate a reading passage and questions for 5th - 9th graders mainly. The premade worksheets from some of the sites are either too easy or the kids had already completed them before. I'm thinking AI is probably the way to go but I have no idea where to start.
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2024.05.21 21:13 Diligent_Divide_4978 It’s not your fault if you’re a lonely man

Intro:
I just saw a post here every day about a lonely guy and his struggles in dating.
When I read it, the frustration, sadness, and despair are palpable. But since 63% of young men are single, and half of male university students are virgins, I can understand why these posters aren’t happy.
The majority of men are lonely.
While I cannot solve this very real societal phenomenon, I will try to put things into perspective.
After all, trite as it may sound, life is truly about much more than dating. We’ll talk about this later on.
Before we begin, I would like to sincerely dedicate this post to all of those people who carry a void in their hearts every day.
I truly hope that reading the following will bring you at least a little peace of mind.
This is something that you need to tell yourself every single day. Life coaches and toxic PUAs like Andrew Tate are telling you to run game on 5 women every day, but I'm telling you to tell yourself this 5 times a day:
It's not your fault.
This should be said and emphasized a lot more. I want you guys to completely digest this idea. It is important to keep reminding yourself of this truth. Once you truly understand this, you will have a much more peaceful mindset.
The situation you are in was forced upon you.
Genetic determinism is anathema to most people. You will always see the fortunate, the lucky people try to take credit for their living situations, but they won't acknowledge the opportunities they were given.
I want you to understand something: when people tell you "you can do it, you can do anything," they are not saying it for your benefit. They are saying it to gaslight you and feel better about themselves. It implies that if you fail, it was because of something you did wrong.
"You could've done it, but you didn't, so it's your fault."
Don't let people gaslight you.
You look at a guy like Jeremy Meeks, scum of the earth. This guy is the personification of luck. The guy made the wrong choices and decisions at every step of the way, and he still made it as a multimillionaire top model, all because of his looks.
He comes from a broken family, he's a criminal, robber, gangster, beat an underage kid to near death, drug dealer, weapons charges, you fucking name it. Yet, women are worshiping him, literally worshiping him.
I ask you this: how many mistakes is too many? 10? 20? 50?
When you are good-looking, no amount is too many. Anything is forgivable.

"Anything is possible. Never give up. God's got a plan for you." - Jeremy Meeks

Well, when you look like him, yeah, of course anything is gonna be possible.

You look at a guy like Hunter Biden, drug addict and porn actor. Still, he's a board member of a nine-figure international investment firm. All because of his dad. All because he was lucky enough to be born into the Biden family.
You look at Elon Musk, richest guy on earth. He in turn comes from a dirty rich family that makes bank with him off of the backs of literal child slaves. His 80-year-old father made a child with his 30-year-old stepdaughter. Think about it, this guy was fucking 50 years old when he adopted that child.
These are morally bankrupt people, and yet you see the lives they are living.
You look at a guy like Bill Gates, whose classmates' parents literally bought a computer room for his high school during a time when even top U.S. universities didn't have computer rooms. Bill got to spend unlimited time with the latest and greatest computers as a child in the 1960s.
I am not saying Bill is dumb. Of course, you also need brains, but even intelligence is luck.
It's brutal how lucky you have to be in life. Not only do you need the smarts, but you need to be born in the right time and location into the right family. You think a smart kid who was born in a war-torn third-world country stands any chance?
Never.
Fucking never.
You gotta be lucky in this life. The most important factor governing success in life is luck. Looks will directly influence how you are treated by others from the day you were born, before you could even remember. Your neurotypicality, face, race, and height are paramount when it comes to how society will treat you (I have mountains of data at the above link, read it to see just how important these genetic factors are). This in turn shapes your personality.
Your intelligence, the opportunities you were born into, your gender; they are all important.
Even in the job market, just your gender influences your chances majorly.
Everything in life comes down to luck.
"Anything is possible, you can do anything."
No, you cannot do anything you want to in life, and it's not your fault. Genetic determinism and luck rule every aspect of your life.
You did nothing wrong.
So don't let anybody gaslight you.
Instead, don't be a free agent in life. Let the blackpill guide you.
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2024.05.21 20:58 Then_Marionberry_259 MAY 21, 2024 GSTM.V GOLDSTORM METALS PREPARES FOR UPCOMING 2024 EXPLORATION PROGRAM AT ELECTRUM AND CROWN PROPERTIES, LOCATED IN GOLDEN TRIANGLE REGION OF BRITISH COLUMBIA

MAY 21, 2024 GSTM.V GOLDSTORM METALS PREPARES FOR UPCOMING 2024 EXPLORATION PROGRAM AT ELECTRUM AND CROWN PROPERTIES, LOCATED IN GOLDEN TRIANGLE REGION OF BRITISH COLUMBIA
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Crown Electrum Location Map
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Ken Konkin, P.Geo. President & CEO of Goldstorm Metals comments: "Field crews have been mobilized to the area in preparation for the 2024 Exploration Program. The focus will be to follow up on last year's extremely positive precious and base metal results from the reconnaissance sampling and drilling programs. Our crews will begin with the Electrum project, then move on to the larger Crown property later in the summer. The drilling plan at Electrum will attempt to expand the known gold-silver hydrothermal stockwork breccia system laterally and at depth. Reconnaissance crews will also further evaluate and trace the numerous newly discovered zones throughout both claim groups. In the southern portion of the Electrum Property, we will focus on expanding areas with high-grade gold and silver intercepts within a sheeted vein complex, peripheral to a dome-shaped hydrothermal stockwork gold and silver breccia system. From the 11 drill holes that tested Electrum targets last year, nine holes targeted the high-grade gold and silver parallel sheeted vein complex with coarse-grained native gold occurring in drill hole EL-23-08 at 146.5 m depth over 0.5 m that carried 75.30 g/t gold with 19.27 g/t silver yet a much higher grade intercept was encounter near surface in the same hole at 12.0-12.5 m depth that yielded 233.50 g/t gold with 756.0 g/t silver over 0.50 m. The goal is to continue the discovery and development of high-grade precious and base metal targets, in addition to expanding large intrusive related bulk-tonnage disseminated/veinlet and porphyry type targets, similar to nearby discoveries along trend to the north including Treaty Creek-KSM as well as the Valley of the Kings and West Zone Deposits of the Brucejack system."
Electrum 2023 Drilling Program Summary
During the 2023 exploration season, Goldstorm Metals completed an 11-hole drill program totaling 2,581 meters at Electrum. This program was successful in intercepting both high-grade vein-type and porphyry style gold-silver mineralization (see press releases dated October 4th, 2023, and November 14, 2023). Building on these results, future drilling is expected to target the expansive bulk-tonnage gold-silver hydrothermal breccia stockwork system encountered in holes EZ-23-01 and EZ-23-02, and the high-grade gold-silver intercepts observed in holes EZ-23-08 and EZ-23-11.
View drill highlights, maps and sections of the project at the end of this release or click the following link: drill plan and cross sections.
Table 1: Electrum 2023 Drilling Highlights
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  • All assay values are uncut and intervals reflect drilled intercept lengths.
  • HQ diameter core samples were sawn in half and typically sampled at standard 1.5 m intervals.
  • True widths have not been determined as the mineralized body remains open in all directions. Further drilling is required to determine the mineralized body orientation and true widths.
Crown 2023 Program Summary
In 2023, field crews conducted exploration activities on the Crown Property, including an extensive reconnaissance sampling effort that led to the discovery of four new mineralized zones. These zones, located on the Orion Concession (the Copernicus Zone) and the Fairweather Concession (the Launch, Galileo, and Triton Zones), produced very positive sampling results.
The findings from these zones are as follows:
  • The Copernicus Zone: a continuous channel sample line comprised of six samples (OR-23-02), that averaged 0.14 g/t gold, 57.0 g/t silver, 1.71% copper, 0.015% cobalt, and 0.15% zinc over 5.15 meters (m), (see Company press release dated November 27, 2023);
  • The Launch Zone: representative chip sampling within this area returned 1.95 g/t gold, 15.09 g/t silver, 0.12% copper over 3.0 m and 4.6 g/t gold, 118.5 g/t silver, 0.83% copper over 2.0 m;
  • The Galileo Zone: a grab sample returned 1.18 g/t gold, 2,656 g/t silver, 0.55% copper, 7.65% lead, and 5.03% zinc;
  • The Triton Zone: a grab sample returned 8.3 g/t gold and 48.8 g/t silver, (see Company press release dated January 24, 2024).
During the upcoming 2024 field season, Goldstorm Metals will continue to focus on developing high-grade precious and base-metal targets and plan for the potential start-up of the first ever drill program on the Copernicus Zone. Details of this program will be finalized ahead of the 2024 drilling season.
Qualified Person
The Qualified Person for this news release for the purposes of National Instrument 43-101 is the Company's President and CEO, Ken Konkin, P.Geo. He has read and approved the scientific and technical information that forms the basis for the disclosure contained in this news release.
QA/QC
All samples were prepared at MSA Labs' Preparation Laboratory in Terrace, BC and assayed at MSA Labs' Geochemical Laboratory in Langley, BC. Gold was assayed using a fire assay with atomic absorption (AA) spectrometry finish. Samples over 10 ppm gold were fire assayed with gravimetric finish. All samples were analyzed by four acid digestion with multi-element ICP-MS, with silver and base metal over-limits being reanalyzed by emission spectrometry. MSA Laboratories quality system complies with the requirements for the International Standards ISO 17025 and ISO 9001. MSA Labs is independent of the Company.
About Goldstorm Metals
Goldstorm Metals Corp. is a precious and base metals exploration company with a large strategic land position in the Golden Triangle of British Columbia, an area that hosts some of the largest and highest-grade gold deposits in the world. Goldstorm's flagship projects, Crown and Electrum, cover an area that totals approximately 16,469 hectares over six concessions, of which five are contiguous. The Crown Project is situated directly south of Seabridge Gold's KSM gold-copper deposits and Newmont's Brucejack/Valley of the Kings gold mine. Electrum, also located in the Golden Triangle of BC, is situated directly between the Brucejack Mine, approximately 20 kilometers to the north, and the past producing Silbak Premier mine, 20 kilometers to the south.
ON BEHALF OF THE BOARD OF DIRECTORS OF GOLDSTORM METALS CORP.
"Ken Konkin"
Ken Konkin President and Chief Executive Officer
For further information, please visit the Company's website at https://goldstormmetals.com/ or contact:
Chris Curran Head of Corporate Development and Communications Phone: (604) 559 8092 E-Mail: [chris.curran@goldstormmetals.com](mailto:chris.curran@goldstormmetals.com)
Neither TSX Venture Exchange nor its Regulation Services Provider (as that term is defined in the policies of the TSX Venture Exchange) accepts responsibility for the adequacy or accuracy of this release.
Cautionary Statement Regarding Forward Looking Statements
This release includes certain statements and information that may constitute forward-looking information within the meaning of applicable Canadian securities laws. All statements in this news release, other than statements of historical facts, including statements regarding future estimates, plans, objectives, timing, assumptions or expectations of future performance, including without limitation, the statement regarding the expectation that geologists are expected to complete a compilation study this winter once all assay results are received. Such a statement is a forward-looking statement and contains forward-looking information.
Generally, forward-looking statements and information can be identified by the use of forward-looking terminology such as "intends" or "anticipates", or variations of such words and phrases or statements that certain actions, events or results "may", "could", "should", "would" or "occur". Forward-looking statements are based on certain material assumptions and analysis made by Goldstorm and the opinions and estimates of management as of the date of this press release, including that geologists will complete a compilation study this winter once all assay results are received.
These forward-looking statements are subject to known and unknown risks, uncertainties and other factors that may cause the actual results, level of activity, performance or achievements of Goldstorm to be materially different from those expressed or implied by such forward-looking statements or forward-looking information. Important factors that may cause actual results to vary, include, without limitation that geologists will not complete a compilation study this winter or at all.
Although management of Goldstorm has attempted to identify important factors that could cause actual results to differ materially from those contained in forward-looking statements or forward-looking information, there may be other factors that cause results not to be as anticipated, estimated or intended. There can be no assurance that such statements will prove to be accurate, as actual results and future events could differ materially from those anticipated in such statements. Accordingly, readers should not place undue reliance on forward-looking statements and forward-looking information. Readers are cautioned that reliance on such information may not be appropriate for other purposes. Goldstorm does not undertake to update any forward-looking statement, forward-looking information or financial out-look that are incorporated by reference herein, except in accordance with applicable securities laws.
Electrum Project - Plan Map & Section A (Drill holes EL-23-01 and EL-23-02)
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Electrum Project - Section B (Drill holes EL-23-08 and EL-23-10)
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To view the source version of this press release, please visit https://www.newsfilecorp.com/release/209913

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2024.05.21 20:50 SconeOfDoom [PF2e] [Online] [Mondays 7:30-11pm EST] Looking for a crewmate to join us in a nautical campaign with homebrew ship combat rules!

Ahoy there! We're on the lookout for one more to join our crew on a Pathfinder 2e nautical campaign. One of our crewmates is currently sailing (studying) abroad for a semester, and we are planning to add a 4th to a group that will become 5 total upon his return.
About the Campaign: We are journeyman pirates, each of us apprenticing under some significantly more experienced officers while dreaming of riches and adventure. As the campaign unfolds, we’ll acquire our very own ship, ready to raid and conquer the vast oceans in our GM’s homebrew campaign setting. But beware, the seas are treacherous, and only the most cunning and courageous will carve their names into the annals of maritime legend. This campaign is aiming to focus on light-hearted shenanigans in a hard-hearted world on the open ocean.
We are currently set to prepare on a months-long voyage to an isle of (potentially) undead in search of a specific person our captain is looking for. Plenty of adventure and exploration awaits!
The party just hit level 3, so that will be the starting level of our new crewmate. The party consists of a Laughing Shadow Magus, an Angel Eidolon Summoner, a Mentalist Familiar Wizard, and an Animal Companion Precision Ranger (on hiatus).
If you are curious as to what style of world we will be playing in, our GM has given us a short summary of what to expect. Feel free to read it!
The World
Ship Encounters: Our DM has created bespoke Pathfinder-friendly rules for ship encounters, adding an extra layer of sea travel and combat. These rules are very granular, so being interested in engaging with this system is a must. This is a new system that we'll navigate together and if playtesting shows things need to be changed, they will be changed (we have already adjusted the system once, and we'll surely do so again if needed). Brace yourselves for naval battles, daring escapes, and unforeseen challenges on the open waters.
Each player will have an assigned role as part of the ship's crew, and these roles are what we will use for ship-to-ship encounters. There are more roles than there will be players, and each role is unique- no double dipping! Also, they are flexible enough to fit multiple attributes, so as long as you can come up with an appropriate reason for it, you can select most stats for the role's key ability score. Roles already taken: Captain, Master, Man-at-Arms. Our Quartermaster is on hiatus.
Roles Aboard The Ship:
Taken- Captain: The leader of the crew, making crucial decisions in the heat of battle and steering the ship to victory. The captain is not the king of the ship, majority rule has powerful sway and the captain’s decision may not always be a final one.
Taken- Master: The navigator and cartographer, guiding the ship through waters, setting course to engage and fleeing combat when in rough waters.
Available- Ship's Mate: The right-hand to the Captain, managing the crew’s morale and assisting in various other ship functions.
Available- Gunner: Mastering the ship's cannons, turning the tide of battle with precise and devastating firepower.
Available- Surgeon: Healing wounds and curing ailments, ensuring the crew is always ready for the next adventure.
Taken- Quartermaster: Managing supplies, overseeing critical repairs, negotiating with ports, and keeping the ship's stores in check.
Taken- Man-at-Arms: Leader of the marines on board, skilled in combat for boarding and plundering.
Other Optional Rules: We are also using the popular Ancestral Paragon and Free Archetype rules, with FAs pending DM approval. We also use incremental level up rules, where you gain one attribute point at each at levels 2-5, rather than getting all 4 at level 5.
Other than these three rules, we plan to run the game entirely RAW. We will also be running everything per the remaster.
About the group: Our group has been playing together for the past 4 years. Although most of our experience is in 5e, we have recently switched to pathfinder. One of the players is very experienced in pathfinder, while the other three have about a year's worth, the rest of their TTRPG experience notwithstanding. There will be a learning curve, especially post-remaster, as we still get our spell names mixed up on occasion.
Additionally, our GM has double-digit years of tabletop experience, including multiple in Pathfinder.
We use voice chat on discord for sessions and foundry for our virtual tabletop.
This will be a strategic and lighthearted pirate themed Pathfinder 2e experience. If you're interested in joining us, please fill out the form below!
The Fooooooooorm!
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2024.05.21 20:45 Duchess_Aria We need more myth crates!!! And why you should save your myth crates: the math

The myth cards unlocks key storylines in the game. And if you're into the combat portion of the game, having myth pairs unlocks legendary companions and weapons. These are crucial in farming diamonds from the Senior Hunting Contest and climbing Orbital Trials.
Personally, I do not purchase level-up resources (outside the discount event packs and Secret pass), and I have achieved 36/36 medals in the last Senior Hunting Contest (HERE), using mostly level 60-65 cards (not ranked up) and +3/6/9 protocores. But when I swapped out the myth companions for the regular ones, I can only get 30/36 with the exact same cards/stats on the team (myth and all).
On both of my F2P accounts, if I don’t use any myth cards or companions, I can only get 21/36 (530 diamonds) after 2–3 months of play. If I were to have all the myth pairs (unranked) on those accounts, I estimate I can get 30-33 medals while using only lunar 4* and 5* found in the permanent bannewishing well (at least until Paper decides to add in power creep). For reference, 33 medals will give you all 840 diamonds from the SHC.
This illustrates how crucial myth cards are. Lunar 5* will give more stats, but myth 5* will give you overpowered companions.

“Great, so how do I get myth cards?”

The current Lumiere event is the only chance to acquire Xavier's time-limited myth pair (as of now), and next month Zayne's time-limited myth pair will be released. See (HERE) for a post on how much wishes/diamonds are needed to guarantee the pairs.
The regular myth cards can also be found in the permanent banner. Players will receive two free SSR Myth crates from the permanent banner, one at the 150th pull and again at the 300th pull.
The chance of getting a 5* is 1%, meaning the statistical average is one random 5* in every 100 wishes. With the pity system, the chance in total increases to 2%, meaning the statistical average is one 5* every 50 wishes or 7500 diamonds. (Fun fact: in the Top Up section of the shop, spending $100 USD will get you enough diamonds for a bit over 50 rolls, which is the statistical cost of one 5*)
There are fifteen 5* in the permanent banner, and six of those cards are solar myth cards. Thus, the chance of hitting any random myth card is 40% (6/15).
Below are the chances of getting a non-duplicate myth card when you pull a 5* from the permanent banner. For each myth crate you prematurely open, your chances of completing the set decreased, and your statistical cost increases.
Scenario 1: when you save both your SSR myth crates
1st myth card: 6/15 = 40% (statistical average: 125 wishes or 18,750 diamonds)
2nd myth card: 5/15 = 33.3% (statistical average: 150 wishes or 22,500 diamonds)
3rd myth card: 4/15 = 26.7% (statistical average: 188 wishes or 28,200 diamonds)
4th myth card: 3/15 = 20% (statistical average: 250 wishes or 37,500 diamonds)
5th myth card: from crate
6th myth card: from crate
Total statistical average: 713 wishes or 106,950 diamonds
Scenario 2: when you save one of your SSR myth crate
1st myth card: from crate
2nd myth card: 5/15 = 33.3% (statistical average: 150 wishes or 22,500 diamonds)
3rd myth card: 4/15 = 26.7% (statistical average: 188 wishes or 28,200 diamonds)
4th myth card: 3/15 = 20% (statistical average: 250 wishes or 37,500 diamonds)
5th myth card: 2/15 = 13.3% (statistical average: 375 wishes or 56,250 diamonds)
6th myth card: from crate
Total statistical average: 963 wishes or 144,450 diamonds
Scenario 3: when you don’t save any SSR myth crates
1st myth card: from crate
2nd myth card: from crate
3rd myth card: 4/15 = 26.7% (statistical average: 188 wishes or 28,200 diamonds)
4th myth card: 3/15 = 20% (statistical average: 250 wishes or 37,500 diamonds)
5th myth card: 2/15 = 13.3% (statistical average: 375 wishes or 56,250 diamonds)
6th myth card: 1/15 = 6.7% (statistical average: 750 wishes or 112,500 diamonds)
Total statistical average: 1563 wishes or 234,450 diamonds
※Please note: This chart is for comparative use only. It is generally NOT advised to spend diamonds in the permanent banner. Save them for the limited banners instead!
In summary, saving the myth crates gives most players the best chance of collecting all the myth cards and myth companions. And for players who are looking to rank up all the myth cards, this will likely save a lot of money in the process.

“Nooo! I’ve already used up all my crates!”

Which is why we need to demand Papergames for more myth crate rewards. It’s completely unreasonable to lock such crucial parts of the gameplay (lore and combat wise) behind a RNG system with no end in sight. The statistical average means absolutely nothing if the RNG gods hate your guts in particular.
One more myth crate at the 450th pull and another at the 600th pull is completely fair.

Love and Deepspace have made more than $200 million USD in revenue so far:

Tl;dr: Save both your SSR Myth crates until you are two cards away from completion. And Papergames can afford to give us 2 more crates.
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2024.05.21 20:42 Cornfed-Killer How can I maximize limited time on a simulator?

Good morning/afternoon/evening!
I am returning to golf after 15 years (haven't played since my teenage years), and I have fallen into a terrible addiction for the game on short order. I am on a bit of a budget, so building a simiulator is currently just a pipe dream, however I drive right past a PGA superstore on my commute to and from work each day. I can use their Simulator free of charge for ~25 minutes/day. Realistically I could see myself stopping there 1-2 times per week, along with a weekly session at the range and as many rounds of golf as I can afford while still feeding my children human grade food.
I want to get better, private lessons aren't in the budget, so I'm left with the above options for improvement, so now to my question.
I have used simulators a couple times before and many of the numbers and data points are foreign to me. How can I best utilize the data and information I can gather in a 25 minute simulator session (repeatable) so that I can take that information to the range/course and continue to improve my game?
Please ELI5 as best as you can, SMASH factor sounds really cool, but the numbers are meaningless to me right now!
Thank you all, I look forward to reading your responses.
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2024.05.21 20:32 the_most_playerest Learn how to spell!

Growing up, I remember my parents were pretty big on 'keeping up appearances'.
I think some of it was out of concern for their own image, some out of concern for modeling a good Christian family, and some out of concern CPS would come take us because we were 'homeschooled' and not following an atheist start curriculum or whatever..
Somehow, all my siblings were just super self sufficient and fkn geniuses. I was not 😅.
My 'scool day' pretty much consisted of "did you do your ____?"
Why yes, of course I designed myself a curriculum and taught myself history or something as a 7 yr old 😅. But in reality, I taught myself math for like 4 years until I realized I could just wave a piece of paper with numbers and be like "I did math! Me school today."
Jump cut: So here I am as a 5th grader, filling out a slip for a free pizza that essentially asks your name, grade, and what school you attend.
I filled it out, the last answer "HomE ScOol"
My parent legit cried and said me not being able to spell ' 'School' was "EMBARRASSING" and that I need to learn how to spell.
At the time I was like, "fk, I'm an idiot." but I randomly remembered this like a decade ago and it's forever stayed in the back of my mind. My parent isn't a bad person or parent, in some mental gymnasticy sort of way they thought they were doing what was best for us -- but holy shit did they drop the ball on that one, and this particular instance is just so blatantly Narcissistic it has made me question my entire childhood and relationship with education, reading, and writing.
A couple years later it was time for me to go to public school and they got me "tested". My math skills were unparalleled. My skills in everything else were non-existent. I had to "repeat" 6th grade, which I was really upset about until I realized I wasn't repeating anything, I was effectively skipping all grades leading up to..
On the plus side, I finished that year with the 3rd highest math grade in the School, which was like 115% because of a weekly extra credit sudoku 🤣
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2024.05.21 20:23 EERMA The Body Keeps the Score, Bessel van der Kolk. Book Review.

What is the book about?
In this excellent volume, BVDK gives an overview of the knowledge about the effects of psychological trauma, abuse, and neglect based on three emerging disciplines:
· Neuroscience: the study of how the brain supports mental processes.
· Developmental psychopathology: the study of the impact of adverse experiences on the development of mind and brain.
· Interpersonal neurobiology: the study of how our behaviour influences the emotions, biology, and mind-sets of those around us.
What are the books’ key messages?
Trauma is not just the event(s) that took place sometime in the past. It is also the imprint left on mind, brain, and body. This imprint has on-going consequences for how the human organism manages to survive in the present. Trauma results in a fundamental reorganisation of the way mind and brain manage perceptions. It changes not only how we think and what we think about, but also our very capacity to think. What has happened – the events themselves – cannot be undone. This leaves us with a series of challenges:
· Finding a way to become calm and focused.
· Learning to maintain that calm in response to images, thoughts, sounds, or physical sensations that remind you of the past.
· Finding a way to be fully alive in the present and engaged with the people around you.
· Not having to keep secrets from yourself, including secrets about the ways that you have managed to survive.
These goals are not steps to be achieved, one by one, in some fixed sequence. They overlap, and some may be more difficult than others, depending on individual circumstances.
Narrowing down to developmental trauma, BVDK provides a good summary of the original 1990’s ACE study. In the years since TBKTS’ publication in 2014 this has been widely disseminated. The section concludes with a valuable re-frame: the idea of the problem being a solution, while understandably disturbing to many, is certainly in keeping with the fact that opposing forces routinely coexist in biological systems… What one sees, the presenting problem, is often only the marker for the real problem, which lies buried in time, concealed by patient shame, secrecy and sometimes amnesia – and, frequently clinician discomfort.
Following a refreshing discussion of the DSM’s weaknesses is a summary of BVDKs’ as-yet unsuccessful, attempts to establish developmental trauma as its own recognised diagnosis. Readers are led to recognise that two hurdles need to conquered: (1) PTSD, C-PTSD, and developmental trauma each need to be recognised as their own diagnoses and (2) the blinkered brain disease model summarised below needs to be replaced with multi-modal helping approaches blending BVDKs’ three avenues (as below) to best suit the individuals’ needs.
The brain’s own natural neuroplasticity can be developed to help survivors feel fully alive in the present and move on with their lives. There are fundamentally three avenues to follow:
· Top down, by talking, (re-)connecting with others, and allowing ourselves to know and understand what is going on with us, while processing the memories of the trauma.
· By taking medicines that shut down inappropriate alarm reactions, or by utilizing other technologies that change the way the brain organises information.
· Bottom up: by allowing the body to have experiences that deeply and viscerally contradict the helplessness, rage, or collapse that result from trauma.
What BVDK referred to as the the brain-disease model ignores four fundamental truths – we ignore them at our peril:
· Our evolutionary legacy provides us with a set of capabilities – and constraints. The more we – or others - push those boundaries, the more likely we are to suffer. This is central to restoring and sustaining our well-being.
· Our intelligence gives us the potential to develop ourselves, others, our environments, and our responses.
· We have the capability to regulate aspects of our own physiology, including some of the so-called involuntary functions of the body and brain, through such basic activities as breathing, moving, and touching.
· We can, collectively, change social conditions to create environments aligned with our evolutionary needs and expectations within which we can feel safe and where we can thrive.
When we ignore these basic truths of our humanity, we deprive ourselves of ways to both prevent maladies in the first place and to heal when they do occur. We may subordinate our agency and render ourselves patients of the healthcare system, rather than exercise our agency to drive our healing process. Connecting with – rather than disconnecting from – what makes us incredible.
Seeing issues with our mental health as internal processes, grants us much-needed agency – that feeling of being in control of our lives: being able to make the decisions that will lead us to our chosen future. If we consider the causes of mental health issues as external factors, something that happens to or around us – or as a biochemical anomaly - then it becomes a piece of history we can never dislodge. If, on the other hand, mental health issues are what take place inside us, resultant of what happened, then healing becomes a credible possibility. Trying to keep mental health issues at bay – or subcontracting them out to the medics (the doctor is responsible for resolving that issue while I get on with my life) hobbles our capacity to know ourselves better – to develop our agency.
What are its weak-spots?
Due to its very nature, the content runs the risk of triggering some readers: it’s difficult to see an easy solution to this.
TBKTS delivers on its intentions to disseminate knowledge about the effects of psychological trauma, abuse, and neglect based on the three emerging disciplines of neuroscience, developmental psychopathology, and interpersonal neurobiology. It was not intended as a self-help ‘how to heal yourself’ which may leave some readers looking for more.
While not a weakness, TBKTS was published around ten years ago. Given the pace of research, I wonder if there is scope or plans for a revised edition.
How does this relate to my practice with Solution Focused Hypnotherapy?
BVDK refers to one of the key underpinning theories of SFH – the triune (three phase) theory of human brain evolution. With that theory understood, we introduce two further key concepts: (1) the existence of a dynamic equilibrium between evolutionary phases and (2) developing the capability to manage that dynamic equilibrium to our advantage. Academically, these two concepts are supported by the generally accepted Broaden & Build theory (Frederickson.)
Trauma – among other things - can shift the dynamic equilibrium to limit our options and plunge us in to vicious cycles of anger, and or anxiety and or depression (which can manifest in a myriad of ways.) Additionally, developmental trauma can lead to neurobiological effects in the hippocampus, amygdala, and pre-frontal cortex.
Without downplaying the seriousness of this, there are counter-balancing positive factors. To varying degrees, we each have four capabilities: Self-Awareness (interoception), Imagination, Conscience and Free-will, as articulated by Viktor Frankl. These sit at the root of us developing our sense of agency. The same process of neuroplasticity that shaped our developing neurology as children can support us in developing our adulthoods. Through the work of BVDK and many others, we have an emerging understanding of the lifelong effects of developmental trauma, and an ever-growing understanding of how these can be mitigated.
Solution Focused Hypnotherapy can be highly effective in helping those at threshold (motivated, and responsible for their outcomes) with anger, anxiety, and depression. Adding the body of knowledge supporting the PERMA model creates a solid platform for developing and sustaining wellbeing for those in the acceptance and action areas of the awareness / acceptance / action spectrum. Those in the earlier – awareness, acceptance – areas would benefit more from the traditional analytical / counselling approaches to helping.
Who would benefit from reading this book?
With the caveat that some readers may find elements of the content triggering, this is an ideal read for those who have ever wondered if events of their childhood are negatively affecting their present.
For those experiencing developmental trauma, and those living with and supporting those who are – this is one of the must reads.
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2024.05.21 19:50 dylanthiam The Structured Finance Hackathon Online & Barcelona Now - 5th June

The Structured Finance Hackathon Online & Barcelona Now - 5th June
Hey Hackers!
A fintech hackathon focusing on Structured Finance is starting remotely and ending in Barcelona on June 5th!
The hackathon calls on startups, AI experts, tech enthusiasts and creative minds in the fintech industry to demonstrate their skills by brainstorming and prototyping innovative solutions to streamline outdated processes in structured financing.
This is a summary of the challenges we'll be addressing:
💡 L**egalTech **➡️ How can we turn Structured Finance documentation into transparent code, quick and error-free?
💡 C**limate Risk **➡️ How can we use a variety of data sources to empower portfolio managers with compliant ESG and Climate Risk Scenario Analytics?
💡 R**egTech **➡️ How can we make Regulatory Obligations easier to understand and automatically monitor changes to existing requirements?
Teams are harnessing data and AI models to solve problems in the industry tied to the above challenges. So register here and follow the email instructions to join us in Barcelona ➡️ https://887dccxtatv.typeform.com/to/iONlKwNF
Visit this link for more information about the hackathon https://structured-finance.notion.site/About-3ffbce1c93864a74a795c187f7019370?pvs=4
Looking forward to seeing you there!
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2024.05.21 19:18 TheGoombler Oh hey, I'm not dead, and neither is GME. (A Refresher on COINTELPRO.)

GOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING SUPERSTONKERS! HAHA. It's me again. Yeah, i slipped past the defenses again to drop this off so you can all refresh yourselves on the state of FUD and disinformation in this protracted fight against the legal larcenists doing their best to try and get you to sell. Please spread this amongst the holders, the more people know the less power they have over us holders. We don't sell until we get a call from marge, and that's always been the play.
TLDR: This is a set of tactics used by the Alphabet Boys(CIA, FBI, DEA) to control and manipulate us into drama to collapse our communities and movements. And should be read in full by anyone willing and wanting to learn how these things work.
I've come to notice recently, people keep asking me to repost this for the sake of keeping the new people abreast on what needs to be done to protect the holders of GME. Beneath here will be a detailed account on what you need to be aware of in your online interactions, to avoid being taken for a fool!
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  1. COINTELPRO Techniques for dilution, misdirection and control of a internet forum
  2. Twenty-Five Rules of Disinformation
  3. Eight Traits of the Disinformationalist
  4. How to Spot a Spy (Cointelpro Agent)
  5. Seventeen Techniques for Truth Suppression
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COINTELPRO Techniques for dilution, misdirection and control of a internet forum..
There are several techniques for the control and manipulation of a internet forum no matter what, or who is on it. We will go over each technique and demonstrate that only a minimal number of operatives can be used to eventually and effectively gain a control of a 'uncontrolled forum.'
Technique #1 - 'FORUM SLIDING'
If a very sensitive posting of a critical nature has been posted on a forum - it can be quickly removed from public view by 'forum sliding.' In this technique a number of unrelated posts are quietly prepositioned on the forum and allowed to 'age.' Each of these misdirectional forum postings can then be called upon at will to trigger a 'forum slide.' The second requirement is that several fake accounts exist, which can be called upon, to ensure that this technique is not exposed to the public. To trigger a 'forum slide' and 'flush' the critical post out of public view it is simply a matter of logging into each account both real and fake and then 'replying' to prepositioned postings with a simple 1 or 2 line comment. This brings the unrelated postings to the top of the forum list, and the critical posting 'slides' down the front page, and quickly out of public view. Although it is difficult or impossible to censor the posting it is now lost in a sea of unrelated and unuseful postings. By this means it becomes effective to keep the readers of the forum reading unrelated and non-issue items.
Technique #2 - 'CONSENSUS CRACKING'
A second highly effective technique (which you can see in operation all the time at www.abovetopsecret.com
) is 'consensus cracking.' To develop a consensus crack, the following technique is used. Under the guise of a fake account a posting is made which looks legitimate and is towards the truth is made - but the critical point is that it has a VERY WEAK PREMISE without substantive proof to back the posting. Once this is done then under alternative fake accounts a very strong position in your favor is slowly introduced over the life of the posting. It is IMPERATIVE that both sides are initially presented, so the uninformed reader cannot determine which side is the truth. As postings and replies are made the stronger 'evidence' or disinformation in your favor is slowly 'seeded in.' Thus the uninformed reader will most like develop the same position as you, and if their position is against you their opposition to your posting will be most likely dropped. However in some cases where the forum members are highly educated and can counter your disinformation with real facts and linked postings, you can then 'abort' the consensus cracking by initiating a 'forum slide.'
Technique #3 - 'TOPIC DILUTION'
Topic dilution is not only effective in forum sliding it is also very useful in keeping the forum readers on unrelated and non-productive issues. This is a critical and useful technique to cause a 'RESOURCE BURN.' By implementing continual and non-related postings that distract and disrupt (trolling ) the forum readers they are more effectively stopped from anything of any real productivity. If the intensity of gradual dilution is intense enough, the readers will effectively stop researching and simply slip into a 'gossip mode.' In this state they can be more easily misdirected away from facts towards uninformed conjecture and opinion. The less informed they are the more effective and easy it becomes to control the entire group in the direction that you would desire the group to go in. It must be stressed that a proper assessment of the psychological capabilities and levels of education is first determined of the group to determine at what level to 'drive in the wedge.' By being too far off topic too quickly it may trigger censorship by a forum moderator.
Technique #4 - 'INFORMATION COLLECTION'
Information collection is also a very effective method to determine the psychological level of the forum members, and to gather intelligence that can be used against them. In this technique in a light and positive environment a 'show you mine so me yours' posting is initiated. From the number of replies and the answers that are provided much statistical information can be gathered. An example is to post your 'favorite weapon' and then encourage other members of the forum to showcase what they have. In this matter it can be determined by reverse proration what percentage of the forum community owns a firearm, and or a illegal weapon. This same method can be used by posing as one of the form members and posting your favorite 'technique of operation.' From the replies various methods that the group utilizes can be studied and effective methods developed to stop them from their activities.
Technique #5 - 'ANGER TROLLING'
Statistically, there is always a percentage of the forum posters who are more inclined to violence. In order to determine who these individuals are, it is a requirement to present a image to the forum to deliberately incite a strong psychological reaction. From this the most violent in the group can be effectively singled out for reverse IP location and possibly local enforcement tracking. To accomplish this only requires posting a link to a video depicting a local police officer massively abusing his power against a very innocent individual. Statistically of the million or so police officers in America there is always one or two being caught abusing there powers and the taping of the activity can be then used for intelligence gathering purposes - without the requirement to 'stage' a fake abuse video. This method is extremely effective, and the more so the more abusive the video can be made to look. Sometimes it is useful to 'lead' the forum by replying to your own posting with your own statement of violent intent, and that you 'do not care what the authorities think!!' inflammation. By doing this and showing no fear it may be more effective in getting the more silent and self-disciplined violent intent members of the forum to slip and post their real intentions. This can be used later in a court of law during prosecution.
Technique #6 - 'GAINING FULL CONTROL'
It is important to also be harvesting and continually maneuvering for a forum moderator position. Once this position is obtained, the forum can then be effectively and quietly controlled by deleting unfavourable postings - and one can eventually steer the forum into complete failure and lack of interest by the general public. This is the 'ultimate victory' as the forum is no longer participated with by the general public and no longer useful in maintaining their freedoms. Depending on the level of control you can obtain, you can deliberately steer a forum into defeat by censoring postings, deleting memberships, flooding, and or accidentally taking the forum offline. By this method the forum can be quickly killed. However it is not always in the interest to kill a forum as it can be converted into a 'honey pot' gathering center to collect and misdirect newcomers and from this point be completely used for your control for your agenda purposes.
CONCLUSION
Remember these techniques are only effective if the forum participants DO NOT KNOW ABOUT THEM. Once they are aware of these techniques the operation can completely fail, and the forum can become uncontrolled. At this point other avenues must be considered such as initiating a false legal precidence to simply have the forum shut down and taken offline. This is not desirable as it then leaves the enforcement agencies unable to track the percentage of those in the population who always resist attempts for control against them. Many other techniques can be utilized and developed by the individual and as you develop further techniques of infiltration and control it is imperative to share then with HQ.
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Twenty-Five Rules of Disinformation
Note: The first rule and last five (or six, depending on situation) rules are generally not directly within the ability of the traditional disinfo artist to apply. These rules are generally used more directly by those at the leadership, key players, or planning level of the criminal conspiracy or conspiracy to cover up.
1. Hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil. Regardless of what you know, don't discuss it -- especially if you are a public figure, news anchor, etc. If it's not reported, it didn't happen, and you never have to deal with the issues.
2. Become incredulous and indignant. Avoid discussing key issues and instead focus on side issues which can be used show the topic as being critical of some otherwise sacrosanct group or theme. This is also known as the 'How dare you!' gambit.
3. Create rumor mongers. Avoid discussing issues by describing all charges, regardless of venue or evidence, as mere rumors and wild accusations. Other derogatory terms mutually exclusive of truth may work as well. This method which works especially well with a silent press, because the only way the public can learn of the facts are through such 'arguable rumors'. If you can associate the material with the Internet, use this fact to certify it a 'wild rumor' from a 'bunch of kids on the Internet' which can have no basis in fact.
4. Use a straw man. Find or create a seeming element of your opponent's argument which you can easily knock down to make yourself look good and the opponent to look bad. Either make up an issue you may safely imply exists based on your interpretation of the opponent/opponent arguments/situation, or select the weakest aspect of the weakest charges. Amplify their significance and destroy them in a way which appears to debunk all the charges, real and fabricated alike, while actually avoiding discussion of the real issues.
5. Sidetrack opponents with name calling and ridicule. This is also known as the primary 'attack the messenger' ploy, though other methods qualify as variants of that approach. Associate opponents with unpopular titles such as 'kooks', 'right-wing', 'liberal', 'left-wing', 'terrorists', 'conspiracy buffs', 'radicals', 'militia', 'racists', 'religious fanatics', 'sexual deviates', and so forth. This makes others shrink from support out of fear of gaining the same label, and you avoid dealing with issues.
6. Hit and Run. In any public forum, make a brief attack of your opponent or the opponent position and then scamper off before an answer can be fielded, or simply ignore any answer. This works extremely well in Internet and letters-to-the-editor environments where a steady stream of new identities can be called upon without having to explain criticism, reasoning -- simply make an accusation or other attack, never discussing issues, and never answering any subsequent response, for that would dignify the opponent's viewpoint.
7. Question motives. Twist or amplify any fact which could be taken to imply that the opponent operates out of a hidden personal agenda or other bias. This avoids discussing issues and forces the accuser on the defensive.
8. Invoke authority. Claim for yourself or associate yourself with authority and present your argument with enough 'jargon' and 'minutia' to illustrate you are 'one who knows', and simply say it isn't so without discussing issues or demonstrating concretely why or citing sources.
9. Play Dumb. No matter what evidence or logical argument is offered, avoid discussing issues except with denials they have any credibility, make any sense, provide any proof, contain or make a point, have logic, or support a conclusion. Mix well for maximum effect.
10. Associate opponent charges with old news. A derivative of the straw man -- usually, in any large-scale matter of high visibility, someone will make charges early on which can be or were already easily dealt with - a kind of investment for the future should the matter not be so easily contained.) Where it can be foreseen, have your own side raise a straw man issue and have it dealt with early on as part of the initial contingency plans. Subsequent charges, regardless of validity or new ground uncovered, can usually then be associated with the original charge and dismissed as simply being a rehash without need to address current issues -- so much the better where the opponent is or was involved with the original source.
11. Establish and rely upon fall-back positions. Using a minor matter or element of the facts, take the 'high road' and 'confess' with candor that some innocent mistake, in hindsight, was made -- but that opponents have seized on the opportunity to blow it all out of proportion and imply greater criminalities which, 'just isn't so.' Others can reinforce this on your behalf, later, and even publicly 'call for an end to the nonsense' because you have already 'done the right thing.' Done properly, this can garner sympathy and respect for 'coming clean' and 'owning up' to your mistakes without addressing more serious issues.
12. Enigmas have no solution. Drawing upon the overall umbrella of events surrounding the crime and the multitude of players and events, paint the entire affair as too complex to solve. This causes those otherwise following the matter to begin to lose interest more quickly without having to address the actual issues.
13. Alice in Wonderland Logic. Avoid discussion of the issues by reasoning backwards or with an apparent deductive logic which forbears any actual material fact.
14. Demand complete solutions. Avoid the issues by requiring opponents to solve the crime at hand completely, a ploy which works best with issues qualifying for rule 10.
15. Fit the facts to alternate conclusions. This requires creative thinking unless the crime was planned with contingency conclusions in place.
16. Vanish evidence and witnesses. If it does not exist, it is not fact, and you won't have to address the issue.
17. Change the subject. Usually in connection with one of the other ploys listed here, find a way to side-track the discussion with abrasive or controversial comments in hopes of turning attention to a new, more manageable topic. This works especially well with companions who can 'argue' with you over the new topic and polarize the discussion arena in order to avoid discussing more key issues.
18. Emotionalize, Antagonize, and Goad Opponents. If you can't do anything else, chide and taunt your opponents and draw them into emotional responses which will tend to make them look foolish and overly motivated, and generally render their material somewhat less coherent. Not only will you avoid discussing the issues in the first instance, but even if their emotional response addresses the issue, you can further avoid the issues by then focusing on how 'sensitive they are to criticism.'
19. Ignore proof presented, demand impossible proofs. This is perhaps a variant of the 'play dumb' rule. Regardless of what material may be presented by an opponent in public forums, claim the material irrelevant and demand proof that is impossible for the opponent to come by (it may exist, but not be at his disposal, or it may be something which is known to be safely destroyed or withheld, such as a murder weapon.) In order to completely avoid discussing issues, it may be required that you to categorically deny and be critical of media or books as valid sources, deny that witnesses are acceptable, or even deny that statements made by government or other authorities have any meaning or relevance.
20. False evidence. Whenever possible, introduce new facts or clues designed and manufactured to conflict with opponent presentations -- as useful tools to neutralize sensitive issues or impede resolution. This works best when the crime was designed with contingencies for the purpose, and the facts cannot be easily separated from the fabrications.
21. Call a Grand Jury, Special Prosecutor, or other empowered investigative body. Subvert the (process) to your benefit and effectively neutralize all sensitive issues without open discussion. Once convened, the evidence and testimony are required to be secret when properly handled. For instance, if you own the prosecuting attorney, it can insure a Grand Jury hears no useful evidence and that the evidence is sealed and unavailable to subsequent investigators. Once a favorable verdict is achieved, the matter can be considered officially closed. Usually, this technique is applied to find the guilty innocent, but it can also be used to obtain charges when seeking to frame a victim.
22. Manufacture a new truth. Create your own expert(s), group(s), author(s), leader(s) or influence existing ones willing to forge new ground via scientific, investigative, or social research or testimony which concludes favorably. In this way, if you must actually address issues, you can do so authoritatively.
23. Create bigger distractions. If the above does not seem to be working to distract from sensitive issues, or to prevent unwanted media coverage of unstoppable events such as trials, create bigger news stories (or treat them as such) to distract the multitudes.
24. Silence critics. If the above methods do not prevail, consider removing opponents from circulation by some definitive solution so that the need to address issues is removed entirely. This can be by their death, arrest and detention, blackmail or destruction of their character by release of blackmail information, or merely by destroying them financially, emotionally, or severely damaging their health.
25. Vanish. If you are a key holder of secrets or otherwise overly illuminated and you think the heat is getting too hot, to avoid the issues, vacate the kitchen.
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Eight Traits of the Disinformationalist
1) Avoidance. They never actually discuss issues head-on or provide constructive input, generally avoiding citation of references or credentials. Rather, they merely imply this, that, and the other. Virtually everything about their presentation implies their authority and expert knowledge in the matter without any further justification for credibility.
2) Selectivity. They tend to pick and choose opponents carefully, either applying the hit-and-run approach against mere commentators supportive of opponents, or focusing heavier attacks on key opponents who are known to directly address issues. Should a commentator become argumentative with any success, the focus will shift to include the commentator as well.
3) Coincidental. They tend to surface suddenly and somewhat coincidentally with a new controversial topic with no clear prior record of participation in general discussions in the particular public arena involved. They likewise tend to vanish once the topic is no longer of general concern. They were likely directed or elected to be there for a reason, and vanish with the reason.
4) Teamwork. They tend to operate in self-congratulatory and complementary packs or teams. Of course, this can happen naturally in any public forum, but there will likely be an ongoing pattern of frequent exchanges of this sort where professionals are involved. Sometimes one of the players will infiltrate the opponent camp to become a source for straw man or other tactics designed to dilute opponent presentation strength.
5) Anti-conspiratorial. They almost always have disdain for 'conspiracy theorists' and, usually, for those who in any way believe JFK was not killed by LHO. Ask yourself why, if they hold such disdain for conspiracy theorists, do they focus on defending a single topic discussed in a NG focusing on conspiracies? One might think they would either be trying to make fools of everyone on every topic, or simply ignore the group they hold in such disdain. Or, one might more rightly conclude they have an ulterior motive for their actions in going out of their way to focus as they do.
6) Artificial Emotions. An odd kind of 'artificial' emotionalism and an unusually thick skin -- an ability to persevere and persist even in the face of overwhelming criticism and unacceptance. This likely stems from intelligence community training that, no matter how condemning the evidence, deny everything, and never become emotionally involved or reactive. The net result for a disinfo artist is that emotions can seem artificial.
Most people, if responding in anger, for instance, will express their animosity throughout their rebuttal. But disinfo types usually have trouble maintaining the 'image' and are hot and cold with respect to pretended emotions and their usually more calm or unemotional communications style. It's just a job, and they often seem unable to 'act their role in character' as well in a communications medium as they might be able in a real face-to-face conversation/confrontation. You might have outright rage and indignation one moment, ho-hum the next, and more anger later -- an emotional yo-yo.
With respect to being thick-skinned, no amount of criticism will deter them from doing their job, and they will generally continue their old disinfo patterns without any adjustments to criticisms of how obvious it is that they play that game -- where a more rational individual who truly cares what others think might seek to improve their communications style, substance, and so forth, or simply give up.
7) Inconsistent. There is also a tendency to make mistakes which betray their true self/motives. This may stem from not really knowing their topic, or it may be somewhat 'freudian', so to speak, in that perhaps they really root for the side of truth deep within.
I have noted that often, they will simply cite contradictory information which neutralizes itself and the author. For instance, one such player claimed to be a Navy pilot, but blamed his poor communicating skills (spelling, grammar, incoherent style) on having only a grade-school education. I'm not aware of too many Navy pilots who don't have a college degree. Another claimed no knowledge of a particular topic/situation but later claimed first-hand knowledge of it.
8) Time Constant. Recently discovered, with respect to News Groups, is the response time factor. There are three ways this can be seen to work, especially when the government or other empowered player is involved in a cover up operation:
a) ANY NG posting by a targeted proponent for truth can result in an IMMEDIATE response. The government and other empowered players can afford to pay people to sit there and watch for an opportunity to do some damage. SINCE DISINFO IN A NG ONLY WORKS IF THE READER SEES IT - FAST RESPONSE IS CALLED FOR, or the visitor may be swayed towards truth.
b) When dealing in more direct ways with a disinformationalist, such as email, DELAY IS CALLED FOR - there will usually be a minimum of a 48-72 hour delay. This allows a sit-down team discussion on response strategy for best effect, and even enough time to 'get permission' or instruction from a formal chain of command.
c) In the NG example 1) above, it will often ALSO be seen that bigger guns are drawn and fired after the same 48-72 hours delay - the team approach in play. This is especially true when the targeted truth seeker or their comments are considered more important with respect to potential to reveal truth. Thus, a serious truth sayer will be attacked twice for the same sin.
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How to Spot a Spy (Cointelpro Agent)
One way to neutralize a potential activist is to get them to be in a group that does all the wrong things. Why?
1) The message doesn't get out.
2) A lot of time is wasted
3) The activist is frustrated and discouraged
4) Nothing good is accomplished.
FBI and Police Informers and Infiltrators will infest any group and they have phoney activist organizations established.
Their purpose is to prevent any real movement for justice or eco-peace from developing in this country.
Agents come in small, medium or large. They can be of any ethnic background. They can be male or female.
The actual size of the group or movement being infiltrated is irrelevant. It is the potential the movement has for becoming large which brings on the spies and saboteurs.
This booklet lists tactics agents use to slow things down, foul things up, destroy the movement and keep tabs on activists.
It is the agent's job to keep the activist from quitting such a group, thus keeping him/her under control.
In some situations, to get control, the agent will tell the activist:
[Here, I have added the psychological reasons as to WHY this maneuver works to control people]
This invites guilty feelings. Many people can be controlled by guilt. The agents begin relationships with activists behind a well-developed mask of "dedication to the cause." Because of their often declared dedication, (and actions designed to prove this), when they criticize the activist, he or she - being truly dedicated to the movement - becomes convinced that somehow, any issues are THEIR fault. This is because a truly dedicated person tends to believe that everyone has a conscience and that nobody would dissimulate and lie like that "on purpose." It's amazing how far agents can go in manipulating an activist because the activist will constantly make excuses for the agent who regularly declares their dedication to the cause. Even if they do, occasionally, suspect the agent, they will pull the wool over their own eyes by rationalizing: "they did that unconsciously... they didn't really mean it... I can help them by being forgiving and accepting " and so on and so forth.
The agent will tell the activist:
This is designed to enhance the activist's self-esteem. His or her narcissistic admiration of his/her own activist/altruistic intentions increase as he or she identifies with and consciously admires the altruistic declarations of the agent which are deliberately set up to mirror those of the activist.
This is "malignant pseudo identification." It is the process by which the agent consciously imitates or simulates a certain behavior to foster the activist's identification with him/her, thus increasing the activist's vulnerability to exploitation. The agent will simulate the more subtle self-concepts of the activist.
Activists and those who have altruistic self-concepts are most vulnerable to malignant pseudo identification especially during work with the agent when the interaction includes matter relating to their competency, autonomy, or knowledge.
The goal of the agent is to increase the activist's general empathy for the agent through pseudo-identification with the activist's self-concepts.
The most common example of this is the agent who will compliment the activist for his competency or knowledge or value to the movement. On a more subtle level, the agent will simulate affects and mannerisms of the activist which promotes identification via mirroring and feelings of "twinship". It is not unheard of for activists, enamored by the perceived helpfulness and competence of a good agent, to find themselves considering ethical violations and perhaps, even illegal behavior, in the service of their agent/handler.
The activist's "felt quality of perfection" [self-concept] is enhanced, and a strong empathic bond is developed with the agent through his/her imitation and simulation of the victim's own narcissistic investments. [self-concepts] That is, if the activist knows, deep inside, their own dedication to the cause, they will project that onto the agent who is "mirroring" them.
The activist will be deluded into thinking that the agent shares this feeling of identification and bonding. In an activist/social movement setting, the adversarial roles that activists naturally play vis a vis the establishment/government, fosters ongoing processes of intrapsychic splitting so that "twinship alliances" between activist and agent may render whole sectors or reality testing unavailable to the activist. They literally "lose touch with reality."
Activists who deny their own narcissistic investments [do not have a good idea of their own self-concepts and that they ARE concepts] and consciously perceive themselves (accurately, as it were) to be "helpers" endowed with a special amount of altruism are exceedingly vulnerable to the affective (emotional) simulation of the accomplished agent.
Empathy is fostered in the activist through the expression of quite visible affects. The presentation of tearfulness, sadness, longing, fear, remorse, and guilt, may induce in the helper-oriented activist a strong sense of compassion, while unconsciously enhancing the activist's narcissistic investment in self as the embodiment of goodness.
The agent's expresssion of such simulated affects may be quite compelling to the observer and difficult to distinguish from deep emotion.
It can usually be identified by two events, however:
First, the activist who has analyzed his/her own narcissistic roots and is aware of his/her own potential for being "emotionally hooked," will be able to remain cool and unaffected by such emotional outpourings by the agent.
As a result of this unaffected, cool, attitude, the Second event will occur: The agent will recompensate much too quickly following such an affective expression leaving the activist with the impression that "the play has ended, the curtain has fallen," and the imposture, for the moment, has finished. The agent will then move quickly to another activist/victim.
The fact is, the movement doesn't need leaders, it needs MOVERS. "Follow the leader" is a waste of time.
A good agent will want to meet as often as possible. He or she will talk a lot and say little. One can expect an onslaught of long, unresolved discussions.
Some agents take on a pushy, arrogant, or defensive manner:
1) To disrupt the agenda
2) To side-track the discussion
3) To interrupt repeatedly
4) To feign ignorance
5) To make an unfounded accusation against a person.
Calling someone a racist, for example. This tactic is used to discredit a person in the eyes of all other group members.
Saboteurs
Some saboteurs pretend to be activists. She or he will ....
1) Write encyclopedic flyers (in the present day, websites)
2) Print flyers in English only.
3) Have demonstrations in places where no one cares.
4) Solicit funding from rich people instead of grass roots support
5) Display banners with too many words that are confusing.
6) Confuse issues.
7) Make the wrong demands.
8) Compromise the goal.
9) Have endless discussions that waste everyone's time. The agent may accompany the endless discussions with drinking, pot smoking or other amusement to slow down the activist's work.
Provocateurs
1) Want to establish "leaders" to set them up for a fall in order to stop the movement.
2) Suggest doing foolish, illegal things to get the activists in trouble.
3) Encourage militancy.
4) Want to taunt the authorities.
5) Attempt to make the activist compromise their values.
6) Attempt to instigate violence. Activism ought to always be non-violent.
7) Attempt to provoke revolt among people who are ill-prepared to deal with the reaction of the authorities to such violence.
Informants
1) Want everyone to sign up and sing in and sign everything.
2) Ask a lot of questions (gathering data).
3) Want to know what events the activist is planning to attend.
4) Attempt to make the activist defend him or herself to identify his or her beliefs, goals, and level of commitment.
Recruiting
Legitimate activists do not subject people to hours of persuasive dialog. Their actions, beliefs, and goals speak for themselves.
Groups that DO recruit are missionaries, military, and fake political parties or movements set up by agents.
Surveillance
ALWAYS assume that you are under surveillance.
At this point, if you are NOT under surveillance, you are not a very good activist!
Scare Tactics
They use them.
Such tactics include slander, defamation, threats, getting close to disaffected or minimally committed fellow activists to persuade them (via psychological tactics described above) to turn against the movement and give false testimony against their former compatriots. They will plant illegal substances on the activist and set up an arrest; they will plant false information and set up "exposure," they will send incriminating letters [emails] in the name of the activist; and more; they will do whatever society will allow.
This booklet in no way covers all the ways agents use to sabotage the lives of sincere an dedicated activists.
If an agent is "exposed," he or she will be transferred or replaced.
COINTELPRO is still in operation today under a different code name. It is no longer placed on paper where it can be discovered through the freedom of information act.
The FBI counterintelligence program's stated purpose: To expose, disrupt, misdirect, discredit, and otherwise neutralize individuals who the FBI categorize as opposed to the National Interests. "National Security" means the FBI's security from the people ever finding out the vicious things it does in violation of people's civil liberties.
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Seventeen Techniques for Truth Suppression
Strong, credible allegations of high-level criminal activity can bring down a government. When the government lacks an effective, fact-based defense, other techniques must be employed. The success of these techniques depends heavily upon a cooperative, compliant press and a mere token opposition party.
1. Dummy up. If it's not reported, if it's not news, it didn't happen.
2. Wax indignant. This is also known as the "How dare you?" gambit.
3. Characterize the charges as "rumors" or, better yet, "wild rumors." If, in spite of the news blackout, the public is still able to learn about the suspicious facts, it can only be through "rumors." (If they tend to believe the "rumors" it must be because they are simply "paranoid" or "hysterical.")
4. Knock down straw men. Deal only with the weakest aspects of the weakest charges. Even better, create your own straw men. Make up wild rumors (or plant false stories) and give them lead play when you appear to debunk all the charges, real and fanciful alike.
5. Call the skeptics names like "conspiracy theorist," "nutcase," "ranter," "kook," "crackpot," and, of course, "rumor monger." Be sure, too, to use heavily loaded verbs and adjectives when characterizing their charges and defending the "more reasonable" government and its defenders. You must then carefully avoid fair and open debate with any of the people you have thus maligned. For insurance, set up your own "skeptics" to shoot down.
6. Impugn motives. Attempt to marginalize the critics by suggesting strongly that they are not really interested in the truth but are simply pursuing a partisan political agenda or are out to make money (compared to over-compensated adherents to the government line who, presumably, are not).
7. Invoke authority. Here the controlled press and the sham opposition can be very useful.
8. Dismiss the charges as "old news."
9. Come half-clean. This is also known as "confession and avoidance" or "taking the limited hangout route." This way, you create the impression of candor and honesty while you admit only to relatively harmless, less-than-criminal "mistakes." This stratagem often requires the embrace of a fall-back position quite different from the one originally taken. With effective damage control, the fall-back position need only be peddled by stooge skeptics to carefully limited markets.
10. Characterize the crimes as impossibly complex and the truth as ultimately unknowable.
11. Reason backward, using the deductive method with a vengeance. With thoroughly rigorous deduction, troublesome evidence is irrelevant. E.g. We have a completely free press. If evidence exists that the Vince Foster "suicide" note was forged, they would have reported it. They haven't reported it so there is no such evidence. Another variation on this theme involves the likelihood of a conspiracy leaker and a press who would report the leak.
12. Require the skeptics to solve the crime completely. E.g. If Foster was murdered, who did it and why?
13. Change the subject. This technique includes creating and/or publicizing distractions.
14. Lightly report incriminating facts, and then make nothing of them. This is sometimes referred to as "bump and run" reporting.
15. Baldly and brazenly lie. A favorite way of doing this is to attribute the "facts" furnished the public to a plausible-sounding, but anonymous, source.
16. Expanding further on numbers 4 and 5, have your own stooges "expose" scandals and champion popular causes. Their job is to pre-empt real opponents and to play 99-yard football. A variation is to pay rich people for the job who will pretend to spend their own money.
17. Flood the Internet with agents. This is the answer to the question, "What could possibly motivate a person to spend hour upon hour on Internet news groups defending the government and/or the press and harassing genuine critics?" Don t the authorities have defenders enough in all the newspapers, magazines, radio, and television? One would think refusing to print critical letters and screening out serious callers or dumping them from radio talk shows would be control enough, but, obviously, it is not.
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2024.05.21 19:15 anonymous_anon1 Next Steps (What are My Chances) and Writing an AEE

Hey all,
I'm going to reference this post that I made earlier this month https://www.reddit.com/premedcanada/comments/1cggjyy/377_cgpaso_what_now/ and I've listed my ec's on there as well. Long story short, I've decided to do a 5th year and limit my ec's a little bit to try to get a 4.0 in the next to years - hopefully that would bump me up to at least a 3.85 cgpa. I'm wondering if that gpa is considered safe for most Ontario schools, if I were to do well on my MCAT and casper (which I'm writing this summer).
I decided I'll also try applying in my 5th year, when I'll probably have a cgpa of 3.81. I'm also going to write an AEE for UOFT to explain my mother's health condition. However, one thing I didn't mention in my last post was my struggles with symptoms of depression and ADHD, which I've been dealing with since 2nd year and went undiagnosed for as my family doctor retired. I'm actually on wait list to see a psychiatrist soon - if I were to get a proper diagnosis and treatment plan (which I hope will help me stay consistent with my grades and avoid any mishaps), would that me something I could also mention in my AEE? I don't want to come off as showcasing a sobfest, but I have genuinely been struggling for some time, that being compounded with my unstable home life and family dynamics. A friend of mine mentioned that even if I were to get documentation from my psychiatrist, it would still negatively impact my application as I'd be "reaching for sympathy" rather than trying to show resilience.
For reference, I know I have the capability to get good grades, but having a C and D+ on my transcript is really bringing me down - as they were courses which I was receiving tutoring for (yes, they were orgo ;;) My tutor was really the one to push me to get a proper diagnosis for ADHD as he stated I exhibited habits that his other ADHD students also showed. I've already spoken with a doctor today who's referring me, and he said I most definetly exhbit signs of ADHD and/or mood disorders.
I hope to also build my ec's more on research, as that's my main interest, and also my creative writing by volunteering and teaching reading to kids.
Honestly any form of reassurance would help. Would I still be viable for UoFT even with an AEE, and for places like McMasteQueens. I also am planning to apply to UBC, which I actually have a 91.2% wgpa for (I am located in Ontario)
As per usually honestly any reassurance, life stories, and advice on improving my habits and locking in for these last two years would help.
PS. Please don't say "just apply to US/DO schools and/or Ireland." I get it's coming from a good place but I don't have the money for it and I honestly find it a bit more discouraging than helpful
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2024.05.21 18:54 apps-1 Benefits of prefabs low-code platform

Using a prefabs low-code platformThe limited offers numerous benefits for organizations seeking to develop and deploy applications efficiently. Here are some key advantages:
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2024.05.21 18:39 2011051305 Frontier lesson learn for first-time frontier flyer - bag drop time, gate check in and personal item etc.

Frontier lesson learn for first-time frontier flyer - bag drop time, gate check in and personal item etc.
Hi, I recently took my first Frontier flight and had a horrible experience with terrible customer service.
It was clear that no one cared about the passenger experience. Here are my lessons learned. I hope this can help you avoid wasting your hard-earned money on an airline like Frontier.
In case TLDR, read the highlighted bold as my key takeaway. Am I complaining ? Yes and No. I just list all the bullets points I have encountered through the whole time line, from the moment I started booking, to the moment my flight finally arrived my destination.
Hope this helps.
  • Noticed the wording: The checked bag default weight is less than other regular airlines ( 50 lbs), Frontier checked bag allows 40 lbs only. If your bags weighing 41-50 lbs, you need to pay additional extra $75 for this bag in additional to the base baggage fee, that means one 41-50 lbs bag will cost you $75 + $65(base) = $140 total , not $75 for one bag.
https://preview.redd.it/qcqwv7zt4t1d1.png?width=709&format=png&auto=webp&s=b12c61f0b2cc65f0b5d9e3b2606bc71db01a9de1
  • Book non-stop flights only. You might encountered forever delayed and delayed flights. No Frontier excuse. If there is no non-stop flight from Frontier, pay another airline.
  • Frontier lies about the bag drop time. This is how Frontier cheats to let you pay more. Here is their official website on when to drop the bag . HOWEVER, their policy actually is **you have to drop your bag 1 hour before boarding time.**For example, if your flights boarding at 6:45, and departure time is 7:15. you will have to drop in bag 1 hour before boarding time, that is, dropping your bag on OR BEFORE 5:45.
    • They will just reject your bag if you are late even just 1 minute (and then you have to full pay another flight, + the baggage cost for that new-booking flight. There is no way to “help reschedule the flight paying a reschedule fee”)
    • Another trick I learned is if you are rejected to drop bag at front desk, you can risk of taking your baggage directly to the gate and ask for “gate check in”. You will pay for another checked bag item + processing fee ( even you have paid checked bag)
LIES
  • check in your flight 24 hour before check-in time. The earlier you checked in, the more certainty you guarantees your spot.
  • Other regular airlines will allow you to choose seat during mobile check in for free( 24 hours before check-in time), but Frontier will ask you to pay for the seat whenever you try to select your seat. If you are team traveling and want to sit together, the best strategy is to let everyone sit together and each using their own phone mobile check in simultaneously.
  • There is a possibility that if you bought something after security, like a gift box etc, Frontier will consider whatever you bought after security is also a personal item, and since you are allowed to bring 1 personal item, you need to pay $99 for whatever you bought
  • Do NOT expect any useful help from any Frontier staff, all they will respond to you is either you buy a new ticket, buy a new bag, or “I don’t know”.
Summary to use Frontier : if you do not have to arrive your destination on time, and you do not have luggage other than a personal item, and your time is flexible enough that you can definitely arrive at airport at least 1 hour before check in time, and you buy nothing after security, Frontier is your choice.
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2024.05.21 17:48 throwrawhitecube Always an excuse to put in effort?

I'm struggling in my marriage lately and could use some advice.
TLDR: What can you do when your partner isn't being attentive to your relationship needs or what you ask for, won't put in the effort, and always makes excuses that they're too busy or don't have energy and that they'll do better later?
In summary: My wife and I are in our late 30s and have been together for nearly 20 years since we were 18. We have two wonderful children (a baby and a preschooler). We've been best friends, overall have had a happy, loving, mostly drama free life together. Our biggest issue over the years has been that I'm high libido, my wife has low libido, and I've often felt my wife can be a bit self absorbed and not really put in much effort to meet me in the middle when it comes to our love languages, putting in effort for each other, etc. I've always felt like the partner who cared more about quality time and emotional intimacy as well.
In the past year or so, we had the most drama we've ever had in 20 years when my wife admitted to me that she had always been lying to me about our first months dating - she had always said she was never with anyone else since our first date (our relationship anniversary we had always celebrated as a sweet holiday) and she actually was secretly still going to see her high school ex boyfriend during that time (who had cheated on her) and apparently had sex with him just once during that time. She also admitted that she had cheated on me (just kissing) with another person during that time. She only admitted this to me because I had suspected her of lying and did something wrong myself by reading parts of her personal journal (in which I read that she had recently been "infatuated" with a work colleague and had also been dreaming about, sexually fantasizing about, and occasionally dwelling on her high school ex over the years (who she had cut off contact with nearly 20 years ago), even looking him up recently and crying while seeing his current life, but saying that she was mad about how he treated her and that me and our kids deserve her more than he does). I also had read that she wasn't attracted to me at times and had issues with my weight gain over the years. We both apologized for the things we had done wrong and wanted to work to be better.
This all led to us having many emotional discussions and working to improve our relationship and be closer, and I basically went into a depression for many months after learning about her cheating and thoughts about other men. I lost a lot of weight and got in the best shape I've been in for many years. My wife was trying to put in some effort to talk with me and be closer, but I was often frustrated because even after learning about the cheating and everything, it still felt like I was responsible for initiating discussions and leading our work together: I downloaded relationship apps for us to do together and have intimate conversations about, etc.
During this time I asked my wife what things would make her feel closer with me, and she said she "needs emotional intimacy to want physical intimacy" and that she'd like to do regular date nights where we take turns planning them for each other. I wanted to do that for her so we started them. The first date nights I led, I put a lot of thought into and wrote her a love letter, planned romantic activities. Then when it was her turn to lead date night, it was clear she hadn't planned anything. Didn't prepare anything. She wanted to reschedule hers at the last minute sometimes because she was tired from work or something. This continued for a while until finally we both just stopped the date nights because it felt more like a chore.
I was still processing the cheating and my own insecurities for a while, and I started therapy for the first time ever, read books, listened to podcasts, learned about attachment theory and felt insights that my wife might have avoidant attachment and be averse to intimacy, while I think I've generally been secure, but I lean toward anxious when I feel threatened. But I was sad because while I was doing all this learning, my wife seemed to be doing nothing to try and learn and discuss with me and work on things.
I tried a few times over the months to gently mention that to her and ask her about if she was doing anything like this in her own therapy, but she would get defensive and say it "feels like she can never do enough" and basically to get off her back about it (even though I would ask rarely and try to be very kind and understanding about it). Basically I was just feeling sad that she didn't seem to care or want to put in the effort like I was (and I told her this, but again, same responses).
My wife has been kind of obsessed with work and busy, but it's felt like when she does have time she hasn't been prioritizing me or our marriage, while I have been. I've tried to give her hugs or be closer to her and she often bristles and doesn't seem interested. She hasn't been putting any effort into her appearance, especially not for me (she seems to care more about looking good at work than looking good for me) while I feel like I'm always wanting to look good for her. She's turned me down for physical intimacy quite a bit recently and basically if I don't initiate, we can go for a month without any sex easily. She just doesn't seem to have any libido at all. She's messy and makes messes constantly in our house that I feel like I'm always cleaning up after her and our kids, and I've asked her to not do certain things to make messes but she continues to do it.
Learning about her cheating and thoughts of other people made me feel really insecure about how she thinks of me and if she's really attracted to me. Since I'm finally in better shape, I've felt more confident but she hasn't been making me feel desired by her. I've never been with anyone other than her in my life, and I've been feeling less attracted to her since it feels like she isn't that interested in me romantically, and I've been thinking more about wanting to feel desired and loved, and kind of wanting to have a woman flirt with me or hit on me or something just to feel validated.
Recently I tried sharing with her how I'm feeling sad and a bit unwanted by her, wondering if she's attracted to me or if it's really low libido on her part, feeling like I'm old and not having the love and intimacy I want in a marriage. She seemed so thrown off by that, said she does just have very low libido and doesn't really think about sex, and she is attracted to me. I tried to let her know that regardless of that, I feel like she hasn't been prioritizing or putting effort into being close with me, and when I've tried to do those things she seems uninterested.
Her response is that she's just so busy with work, and we have two young kids and it's difficult, and she just has no energy for any of that. We split our parenting duties equally, I do most of the cleaning in our household, we both work full time, but I feel like I still want to put in effort for our marriage and closeness but she doesn't. Her view seems to be that she just can't, doesn't have the ability, whereas I feel like she finds the energy to do lots of other things she wants to do - she's just not prioritizing me and us. Again, it feels like I have to push her repeatedly to ever have intimacy with her of any type. She acknowledges that she has intimacy issues as well and is avoidant, but then will still insist that she just doesn't have energy for what I want.
It feels like there's always an excuse, and while I want to be understanding and gentle with her about it, I'm just feeling lonely in my marriage. Even when I try to reach out to her and emotionally explain this, it's like she brushes it off and doesn't seem too worried about me. Or if I say I want more intimacy, physically and emotionally, she tends to hone in on just the sexual part like that's all I want, but I want to feel close, in love. I want her to love me and desire me. But the less I feel that from her, the less I feel it towards her, and that worries me.
What can I do in this situation? Is there any way to get through to her? I can't imagine ever leaving her, we love our family and our children, but I feel kind of like I'm stuck in a situation where I'm not feeling fulfilled... I was content with that before I learned about the cheating and her lying to me, but ever since that it's harder for me to accept her not putting in effort or prioritizing our marriage and responding to all of my efforts.
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2024.05.21 17:33 UniverseIsAHologram [Spoilers All][OC] Weekly Headcanon Prompt

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Prompt 1
Aside from anything plot-related, does or has your OC ever had any major goals in life?
Prompt 2
Does your OC feel any sort of connection or solidarity with others of their race?

And don't forget to take the time to read and comment on other people's posts! The comments, questions and chats are what make the thread so much fun.

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2024.05.21 17:19 sighpiepies Planetary Liberation and Defence Major Orders are weak game mechanics and here's why.

Planetary Liberation and Defence Major Orders are weak game mechanics and here's why.
We see this cycle every time a bot-focused Liberation/Defence Major Order occurs. Players aren't incentivized to break out of their usual routines and focus on a specific planet and the Major Order fails.
This cycle will never end as the underlying problem is Planetary Liberation and Defence ("PLD") and Major Orders ("MOs") are unengaging game mechanics, and here are some underlying issues I've identified and some potential solutions.

Issue #1: Player interaction with PLD lacks depth

Players interact with PLD by playing the game and completing Operations. On paper this sounds wonderful, right? Player actions have a direct impact on the metagame every mission they complete! However, when not enough players join a Defend mission early on, we quickly run into the main limitation of PLD - Completing operations is the ONLY way players can influence a PLD result.
Whenever bots have a huge advantage over players, there's no longer any point playing on that planet until the timer ends as the mission is effectively lost. Unless the entire player base converges on a single planet there's no realistic means of overcoming the deficit.
Would you go out of your way to save a failing Defence mission, or just play what you find fun?

Issue #2: Liberating and losing planets is inconsequential

Remember when the entire community came together to defeat the Bots for a grand total of 1 day? Realistically the bots were always going to come back as AHG wasn't about to lock down half the game just for roleplay.
Sure we might succeed or fail a MO, but who cares if we do? There's no consequences for failing or succeeding a MO (Other than losing the medal rewards). For the current MO, why does it matter if we gain/lose the liberation buff rate when planetary liberation itself has no substance? If we liberate planets too quickly, there will just be another rigged MO to reset the map a few weeks down the line.

Issue #3: The game lacks a proper endgame resource sink

Many PVE MMOs face endgame inflation woes over time, players generate too much in-game resources and need meaningful ways to spend them to keep them engaged.
It's common for players to unlock all the requisitions they'd want when hitting Rank 40-60. Eventually, most high-ranked players will unlock all the stratagems, cosmetics, and primaries they'd want and have nothing left to spend their Samples/Medals/Requisitions on.
Would losing a 45-Medal MO matter if you've unlocked everything you wanted?

Possible Solution #1: Positive Planetary Modifiers for MO target planets

Players naturally want to play on planets they find fun, so why not introduce bonus modifiers only for MO target planets to incentivize players to dive there? All the planetary modifiers we regularly see are penalties, so dangling more carrots is what we need to keep players engaged in completing MOs.
Some quick ideas for MO Target only modifiers can just be:
  1. Increased Fleet Support: 25% lower Stratagem cooldown in MO planet only.
  2. Broken Arrow: Free additional Eagle Airstrike Stratagem on Defence planets where the SEAF is losing.
  3. Home Turf Advantage: SEAF off-map Artillery Stratagem unlocked for Defence planets.

Possible Solution #2: Community Resource Unlocks

I love it whenever we get the experimental 5th Stratagem, but currently, the only chance for us to get that 5th Stratagem is entirely at the arbitrary whims of the devs. Sometimes we might get a free 500kg, maybe a flamethrower, or sometimes we get nothing at all.
To address Issue #3, what if there was a weekly community resource sink that unlocks a temporary 5th bonus stratagems or a planetary bonus when the spending target is hit? It would give endgame players a reason to keep grinding Requisitions/Samples/Medals and create a shared community goal other than completing the MO.
Some quick ideas could be: (Just making up some numbers and modifiers)
  1. Arsenal of Democracy: 500,000,000 Requisition Slips to reduce Stratagem cooldown for all planets by 10%
  2. Wings of Liberty: 100,000 Medals to unlock a bonus 500KG Eagle Airstrike for X days.
  3. Experimental Stratagem: 50,000 common samples to unlock random 5th stratagem for X days.
  4. Galactic War Conference - Automaton Front: 50,000 Medals to double PLD rates on the Automaton front
  5. Galactic War Conference - Terminds: Same thing, but for Bugs.

Possible Solution #3: Completing Major Orders unlocks temporary positive Planetary Modifiers.

If there were more benefits to completing a MO, perhaps the community may be more incentivized to complete them. This is the same idea as Solution #1, but contingent on a successful MO. These temporary modifiers can always be reverted after a few days, or removed if the next MO fails.
Some quick ideas:
  1. Automaton Communication Network Disrupted: Dropships take 10% longer to arrive on all Automaton-controlled planets
  2. Increased Element 710 Production: Support Weapons/Backpack stratagems arrive 50% faster.

Conclusions

Helldivers 2's meta-game needs more carrots instead of sticks to incentivize long-term community engagement instead of relying on constant mediocre war bonds. Temporary positive modifiers might be the sustainable solution to keep the community engaged with PLDs and MOs without needing AHG to pump out content on a tight deadline.
If you've made it to the end, thanks for reading my thought exercise on how to make HD2's metagame more interesting!
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2024.05.21 17:17 cathartic_ranting Don't want to mess up my son!!

Hey all! My son is going into 1st grade and I've really been strongly feeling led to homeschool him. I think this is the right choice but all my friends and family, except for my mom and husband, feel like he needs to be in public school because of his mental health issues. He is diagnosed with ODD and ADHD and we suspect he has autism as well but the waitlist is months out so we don't know for sure yet. I'm also struggling because I was homeschooled and absolutely hated it.
We tried to go the public school route but he did not get accepted to either of our top two choices and I just have such a bad feeling about it every time we tried to enroll him anyway. I truly think this is what I'm supposed to be doing but I'm super worried that I'm going to mess him up or do something wrong. He graduated Kindergarten through a 2 day a week program and he can read and spell and do math super well so I'm not worried about that. But he is an only child and I'm scared I'm going to isolate him. We are signed up for a co-op that's once a week for science and history and other electives but is that enough? I went to a similar co-op but I also had siblings so I'm not sure if that makes a big difference.
He's also a kinesthetic learner and he HATESSSS worksheets more than anything but he loves to learn through play and with his hands. That is not my style of learning so am I even qualified to teach him?? I've been looking at curriculums and decided on All About Reading & Spelling and Horizons Math. But what if he hates them? We don't have a ton of money so once I buy a curriculum we kinda have to stick with it for the whole year because I can't afford more than one right now.
Sorry if I'm ranting, I'm just really nervous that everyone else is right and my gut is wrong and I'm going to mess him up somehow. I want what's best for him but almost no one believes that I can do this. Again, I know his grades in 1st grade don't really matter in the long run and he's very smart but I don't want to ruin him socially. 1st grade is important for learning how to make friends and he already has issues with that and I don't want to make it worse, especially with him being an only child. He went to the 2 day a week program for the entire school year and he didn't really make a single friend because he's so different than the other kids. Maybe he does need a whole 5 day school setting to make friends. Maybe cutting it down to only 1 day a week is the wrong thing to do. I don't know. I just want to do what's best and I feel like I'm in way over my head. Will homeschooling mess him up??
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2024.05.21 16:59 Particular_Sock6199 May june 2024 session

I'm writing this with heavy heart because despite all my efforts and hardworking, I messed up in my actual exam. So to begin with, I'm a private O levels candidate who's starting A levels from Aug 24. Last year I got 2As and 1A*( i appeared for it from a school). After such a great result my parents asked me to appear for english 1123 in oct nov 2023. I was like fair enough it shouldn't be a big deal as I have gotten As throughout my school life plus syllabus for may june 24 was also changing and considering I was a private student, I never felt the need for an English tutor. I decided to go fo it and gave english in oct nov 23. Exam went well (however my grandpa whom I was extremely close too passed away 4 days before my English p1). This really brought alot of trauma for me and considering the situation at home I was barely able to study. Anyways I gave my exam and it went quite well according to me. I was quite happy cos I was extremely tensed about all that happened getting over my head and not letting me focus. Though on 18th January 2024 my nightmare came to life when I got a C grade in that exam. My confidence shattered and I broke down in tears completely. I asked british Council for component grades and I had an A in essay component but a C in comprehension/summary component. I still remember the moment I opened my result thinking its an easy A but got a C instead. That moment still haunts me to this day when I told my parents I got a C and I saw their reaction (they were supportive but deep down they weren't happy at all). Even till this day I pray NO ONE EVER HAVE TO LIVE THAT MOMENT. It took me nearly a month to get over it ( still not completely over it) so that I can focus on subjects I'm appearing for in May june 2024. I got my shit back together and strive hard just to be good. But as always I have a record of fucking up the actual exam, I did it this session too. There wasn't literally a single thing in physics p2 that I didn't knew or couldn't solved, still my dumbass managed to lose more than 10 marks in it. Same with maths p2 and stuff. I appeared for 4 subjects, physics, mathematics, computer science, and business studies. These are my expected marks:
Maths p1: 69-71/80, Maths p2: 82/100, Physics p2: 64/80, Physics p4: 32/40, Physics p1: (will appear for it on 5th June, tho considering the past paper practice I have been doing i'm getting somewhere between 28 -34/40, Cs p1: 65/75 , Cs p2: 63-65/75, Business Studies p1: 49-53/80, Business studies p2: 58-60/80.
Anyone who can tell what grade I'd be expecting based on this? Be brutally honest pls. I don't want to be delusional anymore.
Reason why I'm so worried and worked hard for the grades is firstly so I don't have to relive that trauma again, and secondly I really need good grades to get scholarship for A levels as my parents cannot afford to send me in the institutions with 50k tution fees.
Sorry for the lengthy ass post man but shits over my head now already.
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2024.05.21 16:39 Erika02155 Mini recap - School Committee Meeting & Budget Vote 5/20/24

So…what happened at last night’s 5+ hour meeting? The top story is that the committee voted 6/0/1 (the Mayor abstained) to ask the city for $79.4 million to fund our schools in the 2024-25 fiscal year. This is $8.2 million more than what the district received this year, $5 million more than the number initially provided to the district from the city, and $2.7 more than the number that we received at the May 6 meeting (which included $2.3 million worth of cuts to close the gap between the city’s initial number and the full ask). You can see this laid out before and after public comment (2:21 and 5:09 marks, respectively).
What’s next? The superintendent will present this “ask” to the city council as part of their review of the Mayor’s proposed city budget. Eventually, the Mayor will present a final city budget to the council and once approved, the amount allotted to the schools will come back to the Superintendent as a number so she and her team can create the final budget proposal within that final number. School committee will then need to vote to approve that budget for the upcoming fiscal year (July 1, 2024 to June 30, 2025).
What else? Recap below. As always, observations and opinions are solely my own. Agenda is here, recording is here. This update also includes some clarification about the difference between level funding and level services, as these are terms getting thrown around a lot.
  1. Consent agenda - Two amendments (to add a link to one of the subcommittee meeting minutes and strike from the record the street addresses of students who presented at the budget hearing) but otherwise this approval was routine.
  2. Report from the Ad Hoc Handbook Review subcommittee - The proposed policy (in the agenda) was approved in its first reading. (New policies get read twice over the course of two meetings to give relevant stakeholders a chance to comment on them, unless the committee decides to waive the second reading. We declined to do so last night, so this is now the time for district and school administration to provide feedback on the policy.
  3. Report from Behavioral Health & Special Education subcommittee - The recommendation to co-locate the Curtis-Tufts school in/with the new high school was approved. The administration and building committee will need to flesh this out for inclusion in the materials to be presented to the MSBA.
  4. CCSR recognition - summary of the program by advisor Richard Trotter (400 students, 70 projects this year), two student presentations (a high school student who talked about the program generally as well as his Mystic River clean up projects, and two elementary school students talking about their Letter Carriers Safety program), and appreciation for the support of the Cummings Foundation.
  5. Humanities awards recognition - Young Playwrights Project, Student Government Day, Boston Globe Scholastic Writing Awards, Geography Bee, Day on the Hill, Shakespearean Monologue Competition, Immigration Learning Center Teen Perspectives Contest, Ethics Bowl, Mock Trial, Model United Nations - congratulations to all students and their advisors
  6. High school update & climate survey results presented by principals Marta Cabral and Chad Fallon - This included data comparisons between last year and this year (all trends were positive), discussion of community norms and core values, an update on the exploratory program (CTE/arts rotation and placements), and some highlights from several CTE programs/projects (carpentry sheds, health assisting, awards, licensing, apprenticeships/placements, the biodiesel collaborative project, and the robotics team), three year strategic priorities, an update on last year’s Welch Report (various pieces in progress, other recommendations planned to go into effect next school year), and a proposal for an alternative program proposal to provide a small group learning environment to meet individual needs (pilot was approved by the committee for next school year).
  7. Proposal for CTE program expansion and additions - Chad Fallon provided an overview of the enrollment/wait list numbers, shared the results of a (still-in-progress) student survey about potential new offerings (criminal justice/protective services, dental assisting, IT/networking, plumbing/HVAC, veterinary science, and the various “other” responses to an open-ended prompt), and laid out plans for expanding those programs with the highest wait list numbers (auto technology, cosmetology, electrical, and health assisting programs). The committee passed a motion directing the administration to further flesh out the proposals for inclusion in the building committee’s materials for MSBA.
  8. Budget presentation (6:38 p.m., so 1.5 hours into the meeting) - Interim Finance Director Gerry McCue provided some additional context for the budget proposal received on May 6. There were questions and comments from the school committee and student representatives (including a petition), and Member Ruseau made a motion to send a cuts-free budget to city council and the Mayor. Public comment from students, alums, teachers, and parents ensued, focusing on the coordinator of performing arts position, marching band and color guard, the Missituk teaching staff, and a smattering of other items including library, technology, administrative assistants, and kindergarten numbers. Also of note, the Superintendent answered some questions about the performing arts coordinator position around 8:30 (3.5 hours in).
  9. Budget vote - The committee voted to approve the motion offered before public comment began. As noted previously, this is NOT the approved budget but rather, the amount we (school committee and the district) are asking the city for. The city council will review the request in the context of the full city budget, ask questions, offer opinions, but eventually the Mayor’s office will present a final budget for city council approval and, once approved, whatever the school number is will come back to the district, who will then prepare a final budget for school committee to vote on.
  10. Motion to table the update from the MSBA building committee’s meeting last week - passed and, following condolences, the meeting was adjourned. Next regular meeting is June 3.
BONUS CONTENT! What is the difference between a level funding budget and a level services budget? Level funding provides schools with the same dollar amount as they received in the year before. Because things tend to cost more year to year (due to inflation, contractual raises, etc.) having the same amount of money usually means reducing services. Level services, on the other hand, keeps the services the same but due to aforementioned cost increases, requires a higher dollar amount than the previous year. What did the district/school committee ask for this year? We voted to ask not just for level services, but level services plus additional funding to meet additional district needs (the items presented at the May 6 meeting, nothing new since then).
Superintendent should be at tonight's city council meeting to make this ask and answer questions.
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2024.05.21 16:31 Dry_Performer_7694 Internet Addiction

Hello everybody. I know the title sounds like a joke compare to many other addictions that exists in the world (nicotine cocaine crack etc) but i know i have an ddiction with my internet habits and I want to to stop. I've used it heavily since was like maybe 10/11. Now im 21 and I hope there's still time. I'm in college and I can do my day to day fine but the problem is that i have too much free time and whem im not with my friends(which is many times) or at college(it's a large chunck but negligible compare to internet time) I basically spend it on youtube insta twittter (mainly youtube). It reached a point where i cannot try new things: i tried gym a couple months startted strong and then basically stop going a couple of weeks ago. I tried to read books or meditate or do some exercise at home and obviously those things failed since it's so fucking boring. Like the fun hobbies are all far away from my home and even then i would be there for a very short time, for being out of shape for so long and having such a sedentery lifestyle. This addiction has also led to poor accademic performance. I've been struggling to move on to the next year to the point where i might get kicked out if I repeat a grade (look im sorry if the english is a bit weird... it's my best atttept to translate to english what im trying to say). So there's that... how do I breakout from this situation? I just want to try new things in life and be happy and successfull but i love the internet. Don't get the impression I spend all day watching shorts normally it's really good videos from topics i like and i feel at least i learned something new you know. I also play some games watch some movies/series you know normal stuff, the problem is filling all those free hours with that, which at this point cannot be changed to anything else. It's like my brain telling me: " you need to be on the fucking computer from X hour to Y hour everyday". To me that sounds like an addiction. One more thing: please don't suggest for me to go to a therapist or psychologist or any of those people. I went to a few ones in the past and I didn't like it. They didn't help me at all. They did nothing basically. They were just there the entire time silent and then in the end they suggested bullshit like "Have you tried meditation?". And also i wanna solve this by my own like I think of myself of someone capable of solving their own problems. That's just my mentality. So yeah if anyone made it to the end of this incoherent mess, I appreciate you and if you have any suggestions plz share in the comments. I'm very grateful of you if you could help my situation. Thank you!
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2024.05.21 16:30 Dry_Performer_7694 Internet Addiction

Hello everybody. I know the title sounds like a joke compare to many other addictions that exists in the world (nicotine cocaine crack etc) but i know i have an ddiction with my internet habits and I want to to stop. I've used it heavily since was like maybe 10/11. Now im 21 and I hope there's still time. I'm in college and I can do my day to day fine but the problem is that i have too much free time and whem im not with my friends(which is many times) or at college(it's a large chunck but negligible compare to internet time) I basically spend it on youtube insta twittter (mainly youtube). It reached a point where i cannot try new things: i tried gym a couple months startted strong and then basically stop going a couple of weeks ago. I tried to read books or meditate or do some exercise at home and obviously those things failed since it's so fucking boring. Like the fun hobbies are all far away from my home and even then i would be there for a very short time, for being out of shape for so long and having such a sedentery lifestyle. This addiction has also led to poor accademic performance. I've been struggling to move on to the next year to the point where i might get kicked out if I repeat a grade (look im sorry if the english is a bit weird... it's my best atttept to translate to english what im trying to say). So there's that... how do I breakout from this situation? I just want to try new things in life and be happy and successfull but i love the internet. Don't get the impression I spend all day watching shorts normally it's really good videos from topics i like and i feel at least i learned something new you know. I also play some games watch some movies/series you know normal stuff, the problem is filling all those free hours with that, which at this point cannot be changed to anything else. It's like my brain telling me: " you need to be on the fucking computer from X hour to Y hour everyday". To me that sounds like an addiction. One more thing: please don't suggest for me to go to a therapist or psychologist or any of those people. I went to a few ones in the past and I didn't like it. They didn't help me at all. They did nothing basically. They were just there the entire time silent and then in the end they suggested bullshit like "Have you tried meditation?". And also i wanna solve this by my own like I think of myself of someone capable of solving their own problems. That's just my mentality. So yeah if anyone made it to the end of this incoherent mess, I appreciate you and if you have any suggestions plz share in the comments. I'm very grateful of you if you could help my situation. Thank you!
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