So imma final year CS student, aur bhai mere job nahi lagi hai, par bhai kuch karne kaa jonoon hai, maa baap ko kush karna hai aur apna future bhi banana hai, so pls guid me...
Background : from tier 2 private cllg, know programming well, (typically mern stack ka 14 aur 200+ leetcode wala ) mere ek baar toc mei acche aye the to subject thoda acha lagta hai mujhe 🙂 ab yaad nahi kuch, maths to ghatna yaad hai mujhe shuru se padha hai sab kuch ( 12th ke bhi thode concepts revise karne honge), aur baki sab subjecta ka bhi same haal hai DSA ko chhod kar bas programming aati hai muze
1) How and where to start 2) What are some good resources 3) What best in your opinion ( offline/online) 4) What are good online classes in you opinion or experience ?
TLDR : launde ne bass backhodi ki hai cllg mei GATE ke liye guidance maang raha hai

I have made this list
1.Zara sa
2.Dil ibadat
3.Kya mujhe pyaar hai
4.Tu hi meri shab hai
5.Haan tu hai
6.Labon ko
7.Alvida
8.Desi boyz
9.Tujhe sochta hu
10.Tu jo mila
11.Mat aazma re
12.Kal ki he baat hai
13.Sajde
14.I am in love
15.Hai junoon
16.Mere bina
17.Jannatein kahan
18.Mai tera dhadkan teri
19.Tujhi mein
20.Zara sa (power ballad)
21.Main agar
22.Dil samander
23.Rafta rafta
24.Meri maa
25.Party on my mind
26.Humko pyaar hua
27.Touch me
28.Mai kya hoon
29.Sajda
30.Discowale khisko
31.O meri jaan
32.O meri jaan
33.O meri jaan
34.Jaane kaise
35.Aur tanha
36.Ayaashi
37.Marjaani marjaani
38.Zehreeli raatein
39.Haan mai jitni martabaa
40.Chahoon tujhe
41.Ek pal mein
42.Ye hausle
43.Dekho nashe mei
44.Hai ishq ye kya ik khata
45.Tu salaamat
46.Ye khuda
47.Allah beli
48.Ek pal ke liye
49.U & I let's do balle balle
50.Afreen
51.Tere liye
52.Allah hafiz
53.Ae aa oo
54.Parvar digara
55.Luk chup jaana
56.Shikdum (The Bedroom Mix)
57.Hold, You Will Be Mine
58.Humko Toh Hai Poora Yakeen
59.Aise Hi Bada Hua Gavaskar
60.Hum Dono Jaise Kaun Yahan
61.Jee Lenge
62.Golmaal
63.Antenna

yeh pichle kuch season se samaj nai aa raha ki splitsvilla ab kya ye fuddu roadies ki bematalab ke gade murde ukhadne ki jagah hey kya yeh love/connetion or new people keh sath explore karna ka jo concept rehta tha wo to bikul hi nahi lagra hey footage key liye ye pagal log kuch bhi bolrahe hey character assassination or body shaming to har ep me itne khule me karte hey national television me kya hi kehna. Content ke nam pe logo ko kisi show me itna girna pehli baar dekha hey. orr yeh kya natak hey show meh jo hua use jaldi jaldi insta meh aake discuss garne se jyada ek dusre ko hate felane lagna show me jo hua wo show ke sath khatam karna sikho tumahe pehle bhi kitne season hue itni bakchodi to kisina nahi ki . orr to orr koi contestant bhi split material hi nahi hey pehle ke 3 4 sal purane season contestant jese contestant hi nahi aate. jab se ranvijay ne show chhoda hey bakchodi key alawa kuch ho hi nahi raha i wonder what's more worse is left now.

Jee maine 1st attempt me 30%tile 2nd attempt me 18 %tile ( ye soch ke sab tukke krdiya tha ki ab mains me isse se bura kya hi ho skta hai ) now CBSE boards result come & got 52.8% with Compartment in maths now, so relative calling me even I'm not reciving call , they call my mom& dad and tesing him/ her that apka ladka to kota gaya tha ye mains me fail kaise ho hogya vo sab vo phir bhi theek hai ye CBSE me bhi fail ho gya awww .
Ab Mai kya kru Mera jine ki ek vajah bhi nhi bacchi , at the end maa ka pyaar aa jata hai
Ab drop liya hai jee + cbse ( 2025 ) & now Everyone says that academics comeback is just a myth ! परंतु का मेरे पास खोने के लिए बचा ही क्या है !

Jee maine 1st attempt me 30%tile 2nd attempt me 18 %tile ( ye soch ke sab tukke krdiya tha ki ab mains me isse se bura kya hi ho skta hai ) now CBSE boards result come & got 52.8% with Compartment in maths now, so relative calling me even I'm not reciving call , they call my mom& dad and tesing him/ her that apka ladka to kota gaya tha ye mains me fail kaise ho hogya vo sab vo phir bhi theek hai ye CBSE me bhi fail ho gya awww .
Ab Mai kya kru Mera jine ki ek vajah bhi nhi bacchi , at the end maa ka pyaar aa jata hai
Ab drop liya hai jee + cbse ( 2025 ) & now Everyone says that academics comeback is just a myth ! परंतु का मेरे पास खोने के लिए बचा ही क्या है !

Mera friend stationary items ko lene ke liye chawri bazar Gaya tha. Chawri bazar metro station ke bahar use ek 21-22 saal ka ladka Mila. Jo usse puch raha tha kienjoy karna h ladki ke sath ₹400 mai. In short vaishyalya (brothel) mai le Jane ki baat kar raha tha. Friend ne mana kar diya. Fir use ek e-rickshaw chaalak ne chawri bazar ke red light area ke bare mai sach bataya. Bataya paas mai hi GB road bhi h. Ye sab broad daylight mai hua. Bura lag raha h ki society mai ye sab khulam khula chal raha h. Kitno ko human trafficking ke madhyam se laya jaata hoga. Public ko bhi pata hoti h ye sari cheeze. Chaalak ne ye bhi bataya ki raat mai to aap idhar ghum nahi sakte. Aaplog bhi apna anubhav batao isse sambandhit. Aap logon ke kya vichar h.

64% aaye hai guru
dumb nhi hu mein bas procrastination and low motivation se chud gya
result ke time ankh se aansu ane lag gye ki bc kya se kya ho gya mera, never thought ki etne kam number ayenge matlab 60-70% ke beech mein toh kabhi dekha hi nhi hai result
jee mocks mein 11th ke end tak aate aate 200+ tak aane lag gye the and 12th mein jo chudaap kiya hai meine
mein etna careless ho gya tha 12th mein like literally board se pehle kon nhi padhta mein vo chutiya hu jo boards se ek din pehle bhi time waste kar rha tha and youtube dekh raha lol
well mere maa baap duniya ke best maa baap hai literally I thought aaj kutayi pakki hai meri but unhone kuch bhi nhi bola and ulta motivate kiya koi naa hote rehta hai koi badi baat nhi hai tension mat le agle saal puri mehnat karke exams diyo, I feel mere jaisa chutiya aesa maa baap deserve nhi karta
jeetne bhi 11thies ess post ko dekh rhe hai guys guys guys pls 11th mein padhayi ko seriously lena chalu kar dena and overconfident kabhi mat hona and bkl'n 10th ke result se demotivate mat ho mere bhi 91% the and dekh lo aaj kaha hu mein, aane waale kal par dhyaan do and consistent raho din ka 6 hr hi padho but roj padho and self doubt mat karna kabhi
coaching mein samajh naa aye toh maa chudane gayii coaching jaana band kardo and online padho, jara bhi deri mat lagana ess decision mein koi fayda nhi time waste karne ka,
damn, kya hi din tha aaj ka, hamesha yadd rahega

its gonna be a long trauma dump.
im 19f, appeared in 12th this year, this would be my first drop. vaise to iss sun pe lurker rehti thi, aaj laga maybe kuch bol hi du to atleast relief rahega kisko dhang se bataya to. vaise to life meri bekar nhi hai overall dekha jaye to. yaha pe logo ka padho bc achhi lagne lagti hai life, and phir agle din vahi rr.
i was five almost, jb mere nana ne pehli baar mujhe touch kiya tha. mummy papa ka office rehta tha and bhaiya ka school to akele chhodne ki jagah nana ko bula lete the vo log ki mera dhyaan rakhe. achha dhyan rakhe the (apna lolzzz). now that i think about the movements and the way he'd shake afterwards, pyare nanaji was most probably cumming in his dhoti holding his five year old granddaughter on his thigh. (i mean, ladke shayad better jaane, kabhi kisi se detail mein puchha nhi iss baare mein. after it had got some action and y'all are ejaculating, do you guys like, freeze for a bit a breathe hard? agar nhi to im sorry for the wrong allegations). anyways that happened for a while. uske baad ka mujhe kuch yaad nhi. tbh ye bhi nhi yaad tha, until 3-4 saal pehle jb i read a similar scene in a book and ye yaad aaya phir shock mein chali gayi. had two beautiful frnds jinko bataya iss baare mein and they tried to help me out as best as they could. andar se ye bhi lagta tha ki mummy ko kabhi pata bhi chala to nahi manengi, isiliye parents se thoda grudge rehta tha and ladti jhagadati rehti thi.
fast forward to present, mai apne best friend ke saath relationship mein aa gayi and slowly but surely, he made a great impact on my relationship with my family. like uski uske parents ke saath achhe relations hain and ladka bhi sahi hai (haa pyar krti hu usse, mar jaungi ek din) to convince kr liya mujhe ki mere parents bhi pasand krte hain mujhe. and tb se mere relations meri family ke saath significantly improve hue. i even started to trust them.
to kya hai na, mummy and nana ki jamti nhi hai (he's neither a good husband nor a good father), isiliye mummy unse baat nhi krti. ek din recently mummy unhi ke baare mein upset thi and maine mummy se bol diya ki "uss aadmi se to mujhe nafrat hai. royi hu bestfriend ko batate hue" and mummy was like mujhe batao but mana kar di ki abhi nhi.
agle din she came to me and said ki unhe raat mein neend nhi aa rahi thi ye sochte hue ki aisa unhone kya kar diya ki I don't trust her but trust my frnds? phir bohot bolne pe mai unhe puri baat bata di (utni detail mein nhi obviously) and she was very supportive. boli ki "maa baap important hote hain par bachcho se zyada nhi. mai to vaise bhi unhe ghar na bulati but ab to sawal hi nhi uthata. shakal nhi dekhungi unki". and mai apne room mein aake rone lagi ki maine apni maa ko galat samjha ki vo mujhpe yakeen nhi karengi.
then agle din, i think jb mai ghar pe nhi thi tb mummy bhaiya ko ye baat batayi and he told her abt how once i confessed to him i was a lesbian (bisexual boli thi but lauda hai), and pata nhi kaise, mummy ko convince kr doya ki im making this whole story up for sympathy and to seem cool.
mummy aayi and mujhse boli ki "tum jo batayi ho, vo sach mein hua hai ya jo tum ghatiya books padhti ho, uski vajah se dimag mein baitha li ho ki mere saath bhi kuch galat hua hai?" and phir asked me abt that lesbian wala and told me ki inhi sab vajah se my face has lost its innocence and mai kuch nahi kar paayi hu. kaise i didn't deserve the marks i got in boards and sabka entrance exam tha but sab ek event mein aa rahe the but tumne kuch padha nhi tha isiliye nhi aayi (true but jisko neet dena hota vo aise bhi na aata). and how she feels ashamed and unsafe to go out with me varna i would wander off with "bhaiya log". that other girls of my age look smart and innocent and good even of they're fat. and gori ladkiyo ka chehra nhi pink hai, but you have yellowish tone and you never look smart, tumhare andar vo cheez hi nhi. she ended her speech with, "tumhari vajah se maine apne baap ko galat samjha. agar tum jhoote ilzam laga rahi ho to uska anjam dikhega." and then very lightly said, as if she didn't believe it, "aur agar mere baap ne kuch kiya hoga to bhagwan batayenge."
since that day, i haven't been able to look at my family the same way. the love, trust and respect i had for them seems gone. uss din ke baad mummy achhe se baa ki but bhul nhi paa rahi unn words ko. isse pehle bhi aisa bohot kuch boli hain vo jo bura laga tha but ye Dil tod diya. i can't believe my first heartbreak is from my mother itself.
isse pehle bhi she'd questioned my character. mai maanti hu, mai chutiye bachchi thi. nhi samjhti thi kuch. school bus mein achhe bhaiya log mile the to sabko achha samajhti thi and apne age ke logo se ghul mil nhi paati thi. isiliye almost got tricked by a senior jo uss time 11th mein the (i was in 6th, koi dost nhi tha to attention ki bhukhi rehti thi). uske liye mummy branded me as "characterless". I WAS IN SIXTH, NHI PATA THA MUJHE KUCH. phir ek baar humlog kahi gaye the and mummy dusri seat pe chali gayi mujhko leke jbki meri dost pichhe ki seat pe thi. i tried going to her to uss time to mummy bas gusse se dekhi but ghar aake boli ki how im such a bad daughter, achhe ghaf ki ladkiya sirf apne mummy papa ke paas rehti hain but tumko to matakna rehta hai. tumhare jaisi ladkiyo ko characterless rehte hain, kisi ki nhi hoti hain. (this was in class 9th).
ho sakta hai mai apna side leke dekh rahi hu isiliye mai khud ko sahi samajh rahi. but galti kya ki maine ye to koi achhe se explain karo???
recent ye nana wala batane ke baad to bas yahi manati hu roz bhagwan se ki maar daale mujhe. sach nata rahi, jb dekhega na koi sirf meri mummy papa aur bhaiya ko saath mein, to itne perfect lagte hain. and mai manhoos ki yarah aa jaati hu beech mein. (mumma thinks ki mera chehra normal rehne pe mahoos lagta hai, i should be smiling har samay varna apni life barbaad ke dungi aisi shakal bana ke).
marne ka ya relapse krne ka (i used to self harm) roz mann krta hai, but apni best friend aur apne bf ke baare mein sochke ruk jaati hu. sach mein doni pagal pyaar krte hain mujhse. bestfriend ki life already laudi ho rakhi hai, aur nhi pareshan krna, bf ki life mein pehle hi bohot trauma the, ab badhane ka mann nhi. i promised him I'd helo him heal.
ab 15 aur 16 ko cuet hai but padha nhi hai kuch and pata nhi kaise niklega. nikalka bhi zaruri hai varna home life aur fucked up ho jaayegi plus ghar se niklungi to insabme dimag nhi lagega.
samajh nhi aa raha kaise padhu ab, aakhiri din bacha hai, sab kuch padha hai but revise krna hai. idk bhai, higheay sach mein sundar lagne laga hai (srsly)

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17M. Today cbse boards result came out. And I got 68% and I feel devastated.
I tried to do jee coaching and school simultaneously but I couldn't. I used to feel sleepy in classes so much that my eyes felt like burning. I was just not interested in this rat race.
My father is the most toxic person I've ever met. He doesn't even talk to strangers with respect or politely. I couldn't clear jee and my father scolded me a lot and today he said even more stuff that I couldn't take in.
I got horrible percentile in JEE. I know this is not the end of life and these grades don't define someone's potential or life. I accept I couldn't perform well and learnt my lesson through bad decisions.
But aaj papa ne bola "tera ky hoga, pura future barbad krliya h", "2 saal kuch pdhai nhi kiya bas phone chalaya, game khela, timepass kiya", "har ek exam me fail hogya", "ab aage ki padhai chhod de, labour ka kaam kr ky krega pdh kr", "5 lakh barbaad krdiya school or coaching me".
I wasn't like this always. Maine 8th tak boht competitions, olympiads wagera kiya h. Mujhe nhi pata mai jee coaching kyu le liya. Ky hogya mere saath mujhe nhi pata.
He called me and said "apna laptop and phone tod de aur photo khich kr bhej". Kyu todu mai apna phone jab maine freelancing krke khud ke paise se kharida th.
I'm not joking but he called me "ch*tiya and mc" too for not scoring good marks. He even scolded my mother and sister for all this. Bas yahi bolte raha ki mat kr aage ki padhai, sab barbad krliya h ab mera kuch nhi hoga kahi.
Aaj pehli bar saalo baad meri aankho se aasu aagye. Aaj mere se control nhi hua aur mai chhat pr jakr silently andr se cry kr rh th.
He has his ego problem and anger issues. Idk what's his problem. Hamesha se aisa toxic behaviour raha h. Kabhi game khelne nhi diya to jab bhi time milta th bachpan me mai game khelte rhta th kyuki brain aisa sochta th ki ghr me nhi h yeh abhi jitna marji khel leta.
Bachpan me cash me paise diye th aur bola rkhne and maj spend krdiya kyuki bhai bachha th curiosity thi. To jis din pata chala jhapad mar diya and bache hue cash phad diye.
To ab dar lgta h kuch krne se. Mai kahi bahar nhi jata hoon ghumne ya kuch khane. Aaj tak restaurant nhi gya. Bs ek bar dosto ke sath movie dekhne gya hoon Oppenheimer. Ek do bar cafe me gya hoon dost ke sath. Sab apne hi paiso se pay kiya hoon. Pocket money ka concept hi gayb h mere ghr me. School wale goa trip pr legye but 15k mai mangne se ghabra rh th to nhi gya.
Ab weird sa introvert bn gya hoon. Dost birthday party pr ya ghumne bulate h to mai nhi jata kuch bahana krdeta hoon. Female interaction to hai hi nhi ab.
Ek din meri didi ka pata nhi sayd result acha nhi aaya th to bola ki books road pr lejakr jala de. Mai chhota th tab.
Aaj to bole meri mummy ko ki mujhe ghr se bhaga de.
He never accepts constructive critisism about him. For him other's opinions and views dont matter. He only boasts how much money he has spent on education and shit.
Heck he never gave his BA exam himself. Someone else wrote instead of him.
Ky aisa behaviour acceptable bhi hai aaj ki society me? I think he's psychotic and needs a psychiatrist. Like wtf man.
Kahi se koi support nhi mil rh mujhe. Bs lg rh andar se toot gya hoon aur ab kuch nhi h jeene ko. Bs mera friend mujhe support kr rh kyuki uske bhi kam percentage aaye h. Atleast uske ghr wale jyada understanding h and samjhte h ki yeh the end nhi hai.
Mera dream h Germany me pdhna. Mai kuch projects banaya hoon ek dost ke sath apne coding skills se jisse mujhe kafi acha revenue mil jata h. To friend EU ka hai and we've been in contact for long time now.
To ek saal yaha local college me pdh kr next year bachelors Germany ke liye apply krunga yeh mera plan th. Along with learning german language.
Bs isi hope se mai filhal jee rh hoon ki ek din yeh sapna pura hoga and mai finally yeh toxicity escape kr paunga. Mera wo dost financially help bhi krdega if funds ki kam pdegi to uss time. Papa ke to paise bhi use nhi hoga to bhad me jaye mai ja rh apne raste.
Bs aur kuch nhi kehne ko h

guys, idk but vent karne ka mann hua, ive been a topper my entire life, (98+) in everything till 10th. 11th mein aake ganda sa downfall hogya tha, i failed in almost all pts, half yearly, even final exams mein fail kiya tha maine. usi beech relationship drama (i got cheated on, woh bhi it was w my bsf), friends ne chhod diya, parents naaraz, aisa ek dinn nai tha jiss dinn apne papa se daant na khau. ek saal mehnat toh ki, but last mein physics ne maa chod di, theek theek hi aaye hai number, regardless im happy. this time last year, i was depressed, actually had no friends and im happy the way life has turned out. i got 91.5 in xii, and i am proud of myself, even if no one is.

Was traveling from college back to home. My reservation was there in 2nd AC and I got a Lower Berth on preference. I had three units of luggage with me as I was gng back home. Soon as I boarded the train, a Muslim uncle very politely asked me if I can exchange my seat with his seat because his entire family was traveling and they had seperate seats. He offered me a lower berth seat so I had no problem exchanging the seat and got to his seat and was about to settle my luggage.
Suddenly a man around 27, came and asked me, "brother can you exchange ur lower berth seat with my wife's upper berth seatg, because she has problem climbing up, and u are young and can climb up easily." I politely said no because I had fever that day and didn't wanted directly AC over me. The irritating part begins now, she started talking in a very very very irritating and cranky tone to his husband saying, kabhi kisi ka achha nahi karna chahiye nahi to khud ke sath koi achha nahi karta. And his husband was telling her, Maine to ek baar apni AC ki ticket hi kisi or ko de di thi. To which his wife said sab log tumhare jaise nahi hote hai matlabi log hote hai. And she went on and on and on. At a point it got so irritating, I put on my headset and started listening to music.
How can people be like that? If someone has declined there request, simply accept it, why tf ur talking such bullshit that too in a very irritating cranky voice.

Bhai my advance is in 12 days or Mera padhai nahi ho rha I swear to god me sirf game khel rha nit to mila he lekin IIT bhi chahta hu me Kasam se har din mut mar rha bhot control Kiya khud ko ek question dekhte hi mar Jane ka man hota bhot try Kiya padne ka nahi hota he mummy se bhi bhot jhut bol rha hu ki pad rha hu lekin asal me YouTube dekhta rehta dosto ke sath bhi baat nahi karta kyuki mujhe padna he bol deta unko lekin asal me sirf YouTube or game or manga pad rha hu bhai Mera khatam he yar mujhe koi jor se thappad mar do me bhot regret kar rha hu jo bhi me kar rha hu lekin me rok nahi paa rha hu kya karu yarr. Jab coaching me tha tab pad ta tha kab se Ghar aya hu pad nahi paa rha coaching me mobile allowed nahi tha yaha mobile chute hi khatam ho gya lekin mobile nahi ho to Mera maths bhi nahi hota ( mene 1 bhi maths ka lecture nahi dekha ab Tak Mera cutoff maths ka bhi muskil he yarr ) boards bhi jaise taise cutoff par Kiya Mera bhot kharab jaa rha.

aaj nhi aayega result ........ umang ke coming soon upload krte hee ek din chodh ke aata hai to most probably kal aayega kyuki iss saal icse waalon ke sath bhi yhi hua 4 th ko notifaction umang ki aoy6 ko result.

Hey there This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also started oration to build my confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on myself to build a community a space where I get the recognition,I longed for since my childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗

Hey there ! This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also started oration to build my confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on myself to build a community a space where I get the recognition,I longed for since my childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗

Hey there! This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also starting oration to build confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on everything in my hand to make myself a person and build a space that appreciates and gives me and my skill recognition, that I so longed for my entire childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗

Hey there ! This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also started oration to build my confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on myself to build a community a space where I get the recognition,I longed for since my childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗

A few days back, I had my college farewell. Everything went well and even I had given my farewell speech which everyone had appreciated.
You can checkout my breakup story here: https://www.reddit.com/RelationshipIndia/s/znkDjV9CEQ
For crux: Recently I had a very harsh break up with my gf(M22) of 2 years a month back. She is in love with her cousin brother right now. Even though her brother already has a gf but still she likes him and calls him Babu Sona, etc and they talk all day late night. In March, even she threatened me with a Gun on video call where her cousin brother was threatening me with a Gun on video call and she was giving a thumbs up as a cheer up for what her brother was doing. Our common friends had seen the video call when he was threatening me.
Lekin abhi jab me jab enjoy kar raha tha toh Mera ek friend bola ki hn bhot hasne Lage ho uske jate hi. Toh uska mane reply dia ki ab mujhe nahi farak padta usse because the way she treated me in the end is like sh*t. Tabhi uski ek friend tezi se bol badi ki hn hona bhi nahi chahiye Jo ki mujhe odd laga kyuki ye insaan itna bolta nahi hai.
I know ki jo hamare friends group me common ladkiya hai vo uske ghar jati rahthi hai. I know ki usne unko pura manipulate kia hai but what hurts me is that ki inhone dhekha tha ki how she was treating me and how her cousin brother threatened me on call. Me ek jindagi or maut ki ladai se bach ke aya hu or ye sab dhekhne ke bad bhi ye log aj usko support kar rahe hai.
I can't understand ki koi ase kase kar sakta hai yrr. Jis insaan ke liye me kuch bhi kar sakta tha. I was loyal af. Jisko me railway station pe pick or drop karne jata tha jab bhi vo Ghar jati thi. Fir jab vo insaan mere room pe ata tha uske par tak dabae mane ki thakh gai hogi. Ye sab hote hue bhi us insaan ne mujhe itni gandi tarha treat kia last me. Upper se Jo logo ne ye sab dhekha or mere efforts dhekhe us insaan ke liye fir bhi aj vo log uska hi support kar rahe hai.
Literally me pure raste roya hu is bat pe metro me. Ki ek jindagi or maut ki ladai se bach ke aya me or aj Puri duniya mere khilaf hai. Jis insaan ke liye mane itna kia aj vo hi mere Jan ke piche pada hai. Pure 2 ghanta me crowded metro me farewell se ghar ate time khada raha kar me roya. People was watching me. Me khud apne apko control karta fir vapis se Rona ajata. Me kisse ye bat kahu mujhe samaj nahi ata. Gharwalo se bol nahi sakta kyuki vo alag tension me ajaenge. I am trying myself to move on or kafi had tak mujhe lagta hai hogaya hu but fir bhi ye khayal a jate hai daily.
Abhi me apne studies or Kam pe focus karne ki koshish karta hu but bhot jaldi burnout ho jata hu. I am battling myself in my thoughts.
Last me ye hi kahuga ki life ne mujhe ek dam bottom pe fak dia hai. Kabhi socha nahi tha asa hoga mere sath. Nahi karna chahiye tha kisi ke liye itna taki uske jate time itna dhukh na ho. Meri galti hai sab. F*CK!! 😭
Sorry agar mere posts se pareshan ho, but this is the best place to rant and talk to people 🙏

12th mein aaye hue mahina bhar ho gaya hai but pehle test mein 36 marks aaye hai.. can't even sit near my dad kyuki abhi puch lenge ki test mein itne kam marks kyo aaye, vo module lagayi ke nahi, ye kaam kiya ya nahi, unko bas improvement dekhna hai agle test mein baki kuch nahi... lekin jab se 12th mein aaya hu alag hi level ka burnout ho rakha hai.. waise bhi 11th kuch khaas nahi gayi upar se bohot zyada lethargic feel ho raha hai ki bas sota rahu.. bohot jaldi exhaust ho jata hu.. maa kasam itna paseena kabhi na bahaya meine.. mujhe drop nahi lena hai and isi saal selection laana hai kyuki mein abhi hi kaafi thak gaya hu.. weight bhi ekdum se badh gaya hai.. i need to get over this kyuki ye ek nahi do nahi pichle 15-20 din se chal raha hai.. aaise hi raha to kuch na hone wala.. single child hu uper se
Please guys help me end this or else i'm done for all my life.. it's a genuine request guys

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I was in village, mast beach vagerah ghom liya tha subah favorite cousin ke sath, dopahar ko news aayi ki result aya hai, admit card nhi tha, admit card ID pata nahi thi, finally school walo ne mera result bata diya acha tha.
Fir sham ko aur ek baar beach gaya