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2024.05.14 15:41 Alternative_Grape771 Post Wedding Regrets - advice for letting go and moving on

Hi all!
This is a first time post and I'd really appreciate any insight from others who had post wedding regrets... I'm really struggling with our day and it's so disheartening for me and my husband.
In short: we planned an outdoor, destination wedding but were unlucky enough to have rain the entire weekend. The rain spun me out so much and triggered so much anxiety that I didn't interact and greet my guests like I wanted to. I am left feeling like I have disappointed everyone and they regret even making the effort to come to our wedding.
Does anyone have any advice or words on how they dealt with a similar experience?
Full story:
The Background: We are expats; I'm Irish, he is from the UK and we met in The Netherlands. We both decided to have our wedding abroad because we didn't feel it was right to choose one location over the other so we opted for the beautiful Portugal. About a year before the wedding, he was offered a job in Sweden so we relocated 6 months before our wedding date (another big undertaking).
Destination weddings always cause some rumblings but in our case, there wasn't really a location to choose that would keep everyone happy so we wanted to make it a little city break so people could really get something extra from the weekend.
The week of the wedding: Well, if you hadn't guessed already: it poured with rain the days before and after our planned outdoor wedding. (The sun did come out by Monday so anyone staying longer did get to experience some sunshine but most people only stayed Friday - Monday morning).... We had to opt for a Plan B and convert to indoors... but I was so spun out by the rain and the guilt of disappointed guests that I really wasn't fully present to greet them the days before. I went into total panic mode. The guilt was so overwhelming that I found it very awkward to talk to a lot of my guests. Of course, I tried to put on a brave face and I hugged them and thanked them for coming...
We had a meetup the night before the wedding. This was supposed to be outdoors in a square with lots of bars but we switched to the hotel. In a panic move, I put 1000EUR behind the bar as a gesture for the guests.
The Wedding Day: On the actual day, I was still a bit shell-shocked and couldn't really enjoy the morning getting ready. My poor bridesmaids didn't know what to do and the whole getting ready experience was a pretty silent affair.
Thankfully, I came around a few hours before the ceremony and realized I had to accept it for what it is. My partner during all this was keeping everything jolly and light and making jokes about the weather.
Walking down the aisle was actually really fun and I loved seeing him there waiting for me. We had a short, informal ceremony given by a friend of my husbands.
After the ceremony, we started with a receiving line but we were ushered to a different location by the venue coordinator and unfortunately, the receiving line kind of fell apart at that stage.
While I have vague memories of hugging people, I really don't remember if I got everybody.
Then the rest of the day is a bit of a blur. I started to do table visits but didn't get very far and then I just remember my husband telling me that he had gotten me a plate of food and that I should sit down and eat...
The rest of the night was spent dancing but not really socializing properly.
We had put on a free bar, BBQ with great food, a band and a DJ.
Families: My husbands family are more introvert and quiet and didn't socialize very well during the wedding. they didn't even congratulate him (there is a complex relationship there)... his mum became upset at the dinner table and started crying and then she left the top table to sit with her friend.
My family are more sociable but my dad is a drinker and he gets quite selfish when he drinks so he upset my mum and me to the point where I told him not to do a speech (he didn't want to anyways so he didn't protest)
The next day: The following day we also invited people to our villa but it lashed rain again and so guests were in separate villas with me running between the two, and again, not really socializing properly.
Now: I am struggling with extreme shame and embarrassment that I threw a terrible wedding and that I was a bad host. I've barely heard anything from guests since and I really would like some advice on how to acknowledge my regret but also maintain some level of positivity with guests.
My poor husband is so gutted that I feel this way about our special day and I want to be able to accept the regrets and move on but I am stuck in a loop.
Does anyone have any similar experience hear and can offer some advice?



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2024.05.14 15:41 era-y What do i do.

What do i do
Four years ago, I (-18, living in the Netherlands) met a female online by the name of Alexandra (living in Romania, also -18). We have been online best friends ever since. We even met up a lot. We basically talked 24/7. But last December, I told my IRL best friend after out shifts that I couldn't stop thinking about her and that I was completely in love with her, which I shouldn’t have said because he wanted to surpsie me by making me talk to her so he had called her beforehand. She heard everything and started ghosting me on Discord, also blocked my number and my Insta. It's been 5 months and I can't forget her. It makes me break down every time. I feel like I'm too young to even get sad over a girl, but it's too hard to just forget her and move on. I want her back in my life so much. Please Reddit, help me. What do I do? I apologize if this was difficult to understand since English is my third language.
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2024.05.14 15:33 TheIndividual-Couple Rate my salary as an Embedded Software Developer

System Architect
1. PERSONALIA
2. EMPLOYER PROFILE
I was offered a blue card by a consulting agency that assigns me to different customers
3. CONTRACT & CONDITIONS
4. SALARY
5. MOBILITY
Trying to lease a company car to get reduced prices and reduce travel time to 40 min (you can ignore this if you want)
Work from home days will be increased to 4 after three months.
6. OTHER
The issue is that my employer doesn't communicate well because they're still starting as a consulting agency. I needed to argue and negotiate and change the agreement multiple times until we reached this version and I'm not sure if I'm being offered a fair deal. Would appreciate advice, tips or any insightes! Thank you =)
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2024.05.14 15:29 Wilted_Ivy Is it possible to apply to the University of Pavia (Italy) with a GED and some post-secondary?

For background: I'm from the USA, and I got a GED instead of a high school diploma. This was some time ago; I'm in my early 30s now. After that I got a 2 year AAS in General Studies in the USA, and then a 3 year Bachelor of Science in Psychology in the Netherlands, where I live now. (I'm set to finish the bachelor's next fall. On course, no troubles.)
My question: The website for the University of Pavia says a GED is not sufficient to apply with, but I wondered if I might be allowed an exception since I also have 5 years of post secondary. I've of course made the appointment to talk to admissions ASAP which is in June, but while I'm waiting, I was hoping to get some insight or experiences from others who have been in a similar situation. Am I basically out of luck, or is there a good chance I'll be ok to apply?
Thanks for reading!
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2024.05.14 14:52 Remote_Ad_5407 Looking on the Dutch market for a reliable portable Wi-Fi device to work remote

Hi all, I am Netherlands based and need to buy a portable Wi-Fi device to get high speed Wi-Fi to my laptop in the EU. Can anyone recommend an item from Dutch Amazon etc?
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2024.05.14 14:37 NoQuestion4045 Bangladesh Squad Analysis for T20 World Cup 2024

Bangladesh was extremely mediocre in their 2022 T20 World Cup campaign in Australia. They defeated Netherlands and Zimbabwe in close margins, but lost to India, South Africa and Pakistan. They still had the chance to qualify for the Semi Finals if they were able to defeat Pakistan in their final matches but ultimately failed to do so. But since since they had a good run of form in T20 bilateral series.

T20I Bilateral Results between 2022-2024 T20 World Cups:

Bangladesh vs England Bangladesh won the Series 3-0
Bangladesh vs Ireland Bangladesh won the Series 2-1
Bangladesh vs Afghanistan Bangladesh won the Series 2-0
New Zealand vs Bangladesh Series Drawn 1-1
Bangladesh vs Sri Lanka Bangladesh lost the Series 2-1
Bangladesh vs Zimbabwe Bangladesh won the Series 4-1
Even though the string of results are promising with the only series defeat coming from a close fought T20I Series against Sri Lanka. Many problems persist especially with Batting where none of the batsman who have a career strike rate of 140+ and top order Batsman being out of form. But the bowling looks promising and they would likely have to carry the batting lineup if Bangladesh have want chances at success at this World Cup in the United States and the West Indies.

Bangladesh in World Cups and Asia Cups:
Matches Wins Losses
48 14 33

Squad

SL Players Role
1 Nazmul Hossian Shanto Captain
2 Litton Das Wicket Keeper
3 Jaker Ali Anik Wicket Keeper
4 Towhid Hridoy Batsman
5 Tanzid Hasan Tamim Batsman
6 Mahmudullah Riyad Batting All Rounder
7 Soumya Sarker Batting All Rounder
8 Shakib Al Hasan All Rounder
9 Mahedi Hasan Bowling All Rounder
10 Rishad Hossian Bowling All Rounder
11 Tanvir Islam Spinner
12 Mustafizur Rahman Pacer
13 Taskin Ahmed Pacer
14 Shoriful Islam Pacer
15 Tanzim Hasan Shakib Pacer
Reserves: Hasan Mahmud, Afif Hossian
Squad Stats
*Stats for all players include BPL, Other T20s and T20Is in the last 2 and all time record against other Group D teams in T20Is. Stats for reserves players not included
Batsman

  1. Nazmul Hossian Shanto(c):

Runs Average Strike Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 691 27.6 109.9
Group D Teams 108 27 113.68
T20Is 373 26.6 114.4
2) Litton Das (wk)

Runs Average Strike Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 769 28.5 130.1
Group D Teams 210 17.5 108.24
T20Is 403 28.8 127.5
3) Jaker Ali Anik (wk)

Runs Average Strike Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 374 41.6 130.8
Group D Teams 72 36 153.19
T20Is 197 39.4 127.9
4) Towhid Hridoy

Runs Average Strike Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 865 37.6 145.1
Group D Teams 40 20 129.03
T20Is 371 28.5 133.9
LPL 114 39.8 139.5
5) Tanzid Hasan Tamim

Runs Average Strike Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 384 32 135.7
Group D Teams - - -
T20Is 160 40 122.9

Batting Allrounders:
6) Mahmudullah Riyad

Runs Batting Average Strike Rate Wickets Bowling Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 445 24.7 136.1 0 - 13
Group D Teams 433 28.86 139.67 9 29.77 6.7
T20Is 143 47.7 149 1 1 1

7) Soumya Sarker

Runs Batting Average Strike Rate Wickets Bowling Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 436 18.2 119.1 3 71.3 10.03
Group D Teams 376 20.88 138.23 4 32 9.84
T20Is 123 17.6 119.4 1 34 8.5

All Rounder:
8) Shakib Al Hasan

Runs Batting Average Strike Rate Wickets Bowling Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 630 31.5 167.6 27 22.1 6.31
Group D Teams 312 15 109.47 28 18.39 6.95
T20Is 163 32.6 130.4 17 11.6 6.03
Other T20s 139 19.9 114.9 10 24.7 6.07

Bowling All Rounders:

9) Mahedi Hasan

Runs Batting Average Strike Rate Wickets Bowling Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 349 19.4 132.7 23 23.2 7.17
Group D Teams 74 14.8 107.24 3 65 9.36
T20Is 58 19.3 96.7 8 25.2 6.66

10) Rishad Hossian

Runs Batting Average Strike Rate Wickets Bowling Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League - - - 6 12.5 8.33
Group D Teams 53 26.5 165.62 3 29.33 8
T20Is 79 15.8 131.7 11 29.9 7.83

Bowlers:
11) Tanvir Islam

Overs Wickets Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 83.1 30 19 6.84
Group D Teams - - - -
T20Is 9 2 34.5 7.67

12) Mustafizur Rahman

Overs Wickets Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 65.3 23 23.7 8.31
Group D Teams 60 15 34.4 8.6
T20Is 52 13 29 7.25
IPL 41.2 15 26.5 9.6

13) Tanzim Hasan Shakib

Overs Wickets Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 53 19 26.8 9.62
Group D Teams - - - -
T20Is 14 3 42.7 9.14

14) Taskin Ahmed

Overs Wickets Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 78.1 23 24.9 7.32
Group D Teams 46 15 26.06 8.72
T20Is 58.4 29 13.9 6.89

15) Shoriful Islam

Overs Wickets Average Economy Rate
Bangladesh Premier League 56.4 26 16.8 7.69
Group D Teams 16 2 55 6.87
T20Is 34.5 11 24.7 7.81

Strengths: Batting and Bowling depth, Bangladesh would bowl 6-7 bowlers and bat upto 8-9 because of their all rounders. Their forms is a different concern but the depth in both batting and bowling exists.
Weakness: Top order batting is out of form and doesn't have the best stats, and they do not reliably get Bangladesh off to a flying start. The death bowling is another point of weakness.

Probable First XI:
Tanzid Hasan Tamim
Soumya Sarker
Nazmul Hossian Shanto
Towhid Hridoy
Shakib Al Hasan
Mahmudullah Riyad
Jaker Ali Anik
Rishad Hossian
Taskin Ahmed
Shoriful Islam
Mustafizur Rahman
Conclusion: Even after good T20I Bilateral performances leading up to the World Cup, many don't have high hopes for the team to do well in this World Cup. The best case scenario is qualifying to the Super 8s and winning a game but the worst case scenario is losing to Netherlands, South Africa and Sri Lanka and finishing 4th in their group.


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2024.05.14 14:37 TheElementOfFyre [Possible Trigger Warning]For those in the Scandinavian/ Northern Europe region, can y’all shed some light on this culture clash?

TL;DR. A leftover mind set from a famine in the 1940's causing hosts not to offer food to guests? Even if they're spending the night?! ‐-----------------------------‐--------------------------------------------- [Possible Trigger Warning] I'm unfiltered. I will be sharing my opinion on a cultural dispute. It may come across rude or disrespectful. If you're not in a mind set to hear something like that, please move on.
I read a post about hosts from Sweden, the Netherlands, and Denmark not offering food due to a mindset leftover from the 1940’s caused by famine and I want to hear more personal examples of this.
Is this true?
What region of your country are you from? (To get a geographical idea of this)
Is there a term I can use to research it more?
Can you give me some examples of you experiencing this?
Are there other countries that do this?
I'm from the South of the US. Southern hospitality dictates we always offer food and beverage to anyone visiting. Kid has a friend coming over for school? Tell that kid to call their parents and ask if it's OK to stay for dinner. If they say no, that's perfectly fine, it's always offered. Even if the kid comes over for a couple HOURS and their mama is gonna get them soon, snacks. Always snacks.
I guess because of how I was raised, to me this cultural norm is just bizarre. Coming from grandparents (boomers), it makes perfect sense. Coming from parents (gen X) who didn't live through that but whose parents probably raised them with this, it makes a little sense. But for millennial parents to continue this tradition? No sense at all.
Yes. In the 40's if there was a famine, I could understand not offering food or not asking for food. We're all struggling (at that time) so it makes sense. But once the famine is over, I feel like y'all should go back to being more hospitable. Even if it's just a light snack or cold meal like crackers, meat and cheese. Every single culture in the world has experienced famine, you aren't special in that regard, some very recently and this is the first time I've EVER heard of hosts not offering food or straight up eating a full ass dinner while their guest waits in the other room!
I got an ice cream from the ice cream truck once and went to my friend's house while eating it. I was told to eat it outside before coming in because unless I bring some for everyone, it's rude.
Anyway, I apologize if I was too rude here. I really am just confused by this and would love to talk more about it. If I've offended you I am truly very sorry but I did try to warn you.
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2024.05.14 14:05 Kip_Pig Should I sell my horse?

Should I sell my horse?
Hi, this is my first ever post on Reddit and knowing the equestrian world, I'm a bit nervous 😅.
I have had my beautiful Dutch Draught horse gelding, Leo, for 1,5 year now and it isn't what I expected at all. (He's 1.80 m tall and weights around 1000kg so not a small boy).
Leo was sold to me as a horse fit to work at a daycare farm and a super down to earth horse. He had experience going on trail rides and never set one wrong step. He was 4 when I bought him (he's a gelding btw) and a bit "hot" when riding but nothing weird for a young horse. I visited him 3 times (in which I also rode him, outside and on a field) and I was sold so I bought him. When he arrived at my stable he was very stressed and it came to light that he didn't really have the best manners... He didn't know how to go backwards on command and had little to no respect for personal space. I only rode him in the arena and we sometimes went on a walk outside (me walking next to him). That went pretty well, our bond grew and I started to get to know him better. Fast forward to February last year. Leo and I went on a walk outside, nothing strange. Except that Leo acted way more anxious and "hot" then normally. I felt like I didn't have much control anymore because he was getting very strong so I called my stable to ask if someone could come and help me so we could go back safely. However that's when Leo lost it. He just exploded, he jumped in the air, landed on my foot and ran to the stable. Luckily he was alright and some people from my stable helped me and Leo. My foot however was strained and a few muscles were ripped, I couldn't walk without crutches for a month and a half. I decided to start groundwork and not walk outside for a little while. Then about a year ago now, I was just walking him whilst riding him in the arena and he exploded again. He bucked really nasty and I flew about 4 m in the air (a old man from my stable said, I don't remember much of it) resulting in me having a collapsed lung, a concussion and a sore body all over ofc. That's when I decided (together with my ground work instructor) not to ride him anymore for the time being. Now we're 1,5 year later since i bought him. I originally bought him because i wanted to go on trail rides again and I am to big for my other pony. Idk if people have experience with draught horses but everything for them is more expensive and very difficult to find, especially in the Netherlands, where i live. If that was the only thing then i would be kinda bummed out but still ready for our future. He however also has abandoned issues (at least, I think) he gets all anxious when I get him out of the meadow, away from his horse bestie. The thought of selling him came up sometimes but today I realised that I'm kinda scared of him, even though he's a sweetie and doesn't mean bad. I also think that he would be better of with someone who's more confident and is a clearer leader than I am. I really do love him though and I feel like I failed him... What should I do?
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2024.05.14 12:57 suntzu1000 Epic game gets fined in the Netherlands for selling microtransactions to children.

As of making this post no major English outlets have picked this story up yet, so the links are not on the allowed list
This is the English press release from the ACM about the fine and the reason.
https://www.acm.nl/en/publications/acm-imposes-fine-epic-unfair-commercial-practices-aimed-children-fortnite-game
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2024.05.14 12:52 MATTMAN20200 C6-7 surgery

Anyone! i need your help. Can this cause me ti have constant headaches also firing pain in my mud back and shoulder to hurt. What do you guys think of me going through with C6-7 ADR i have ddd neck and back, lower osteoarthritis. I've tried everything for 10 years. Medications all of them PT twice im 35 amd exercise like everyday. I've been going to a pain management doctor now for 8-9 momths i only get prescribed 4 5mg hydrocodone. Im on gabapentin amd clonazepam. I'm waiting to do this because basically i have to see my PM Doc every 2 weeks and im forced to get injections, if i Don't they won't even wean u off the meds now. I wonder if this can help. Well june 19th. 34 male ADR C6-7 Surgery. C2-3: No canal or foraminal narrowing detected. C3-4: No canal or foraminal narrowing detected. C4-5: Mild uncovertebral and facet arthropathy, but no canal or foraminal narrowing. C5-6: Mild disk bulging Mild uncovertebral arthropathy Mild to moderate bilateral facet arthropathy Mild bilateral foraminal narrowing No canal stenosis C6-7: Prominent posterior disk-osteophyte complex Severe left uncovertebral arthropathy Extremely severe left foraminal narrowing Moderate to severe right foraminal narrowing Mild anterior-posterior (AP) canal stenosis C7-T1: Disk bulging Mild bilateral facet arthropathy No canal or foraminal narrowing?
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2024.05.14 12:51 MATTMAN20200 C6-7 Surgery

I haven't had the surgery yet... wondering
Anyone! i need your help. Can this cause me ti have constant headaches also firing pain in my mud back and shoulder to hurt. What do you guys think of me going through with C6-7 ADR i have ddd neck and back, lower osteoarthritis. I've tried everything for 10 years. Medications all of them PT twice im 35 amd exercise like everyday. I've been going to a pain management doctor now for 8-9 momths i only get prescribed 4 5mg hydrocodone. Im on gabapentin amd clonazepam. I'm waiting to do this because basically i have to see my PM Doc every 2 weeks and im forced to get injections, if i Don't they won't even wean u off the meds now. I wonder if this can help. Well june 19th. 34 male ADR C6-7 Surgery. C2-3: No canal or foraminal narrowing detected. C3-4: No canal or foraminal narrowing detected. C4-5: Mild uncovertebral and facet arthropathy, but no canal or foraminal narrowing. C5-6: Mild disk bulging Mild uncovertebral arthropathy Mild to moderate bilateral facet arthropathy Mild bilateral foraminal narrowing No canal stenosis C6-7: Prominent posterior disk-osteophyte complex Severe left uncovertebral arthropathy Extremely severe left foraminal narrowing Moderate to severe right foraminal narrowing Mild anterior-posterior (AP) canal stenosis C7-T1: Disk bulging Mild bilateral facet arthropathy No canal or foraminal narrowing?
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2024.05.14 12:41 2franczzz Need urgent help to fix a garden mishap

Need urgent help to fix a garden mishap
Hey gardening community,🌻🌻🌻🌻
Yesterday, I really messed up my boyfriend's garden. I got a bit overzealous with the big scissors because everything was just too green and lush. What used to be a large, bushy "tree" is now quite... trimmed, and I might have gone a bit too far with a smaller bush on the right side too. You can see the results in the pictures I've added.
The larger area only gets sunlight in the morning and is pretty shady for the rest of the day. I'm wondering how I can improve the situation. Should I just cut everything back evenly to give it a more uniform look, or are there specific techniques or plants that could help recover and fill the space nicely? Also, considering the shade, what are the best plants or arrangements that could work?
Another question I have is about adding bark mulch. Do you think it would be beneficial in this case? It's really important that whatever we do, it's easy to maintain going forward.
Thanks in advance for your advice and tips! I'm hoping to turn this around and make the garden look great again. We live in the Netherlands so we have 4 seasons.
Looking forward to your suggestions!
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2024.05.14 12:40 Specialist_Bake6514 Vapiano P3: Italian Food Made in Germany

Vapiano P3: Italian Food Made in Germany
The kitchen is on fire. Welcome to the final part of the Vapiano story where the tables are turning. In the first two episodes we followed Mark Korzilius' journey from setbacks to founding Vapiano, a groundbreaking restaurant concept, highlighting its fresh ingredients, dynamic atmosphere, and data-driven operations that drove rapid success. While achieving initial profitability and garnering attention from industry giants like McDonald's, Vapiano's global expansion has led to stellar revenue growth. However, it has also resulted in the emergence of numerous side projects (or distractions), operational challenges, increased costs, significant investments, and a notable accumulation of debt. This underscores the prioritization of top-line growth over profitable growth. We will continue on this thread and see how the story ends, but I would encourage you to read part one and two for better context. Vapiano P1: Italian Food Made in Germany (substack.com). Let's dig in.
Before Going Public
We are now in 2015 and the year is a disaster for Vapiano's PR department. Employee time stamps are being manipulated, endless overtime for employees and high turnover in managerial roles are reported; mice in the kitchen and even rotten food allegedly found.
The company is confronted with allegations of exceeding working hours among trainees in an article published by Welt am Sonntag, while the same outlet accuses Vapiano of manipulating punch times. The auditing firm PwC is commissioned to investigate the allegations and finds that there is no systematic approach but rather misconduct by individual employees, a mistake that’s being corrected. Internal however, investigations into stamp times are carried out regularly now and beyond its obvious reputational impact, this sucks up valuable management time and attention.
In the summer of 2015 CEO, co-founder and investor Gregor Gerlach, who has been running the group since 2011 is stepping down and Jochen Halfmann is taking over. A new Vapiano People Program with an App is being developed with the aim to better interact with customers that will incorporate innovate features such as mobile pay. The German website sees a launch of new magazine to further promote the brand and there is now a full inhouse blogger and Instagram team being installed. In October the company buys seven restaurants from original co-founder, former co-investor and ex-president previously responsible for internation expansion Kent Hahne (2x Bonn, 3x Cologne, 1x Koblenz and one in Cologne that’s under construction). This package of Vapiano restaurants is very successful and generates net sales of more than 20 million euros in 2014. Hahne opened his first Vapiano restaurant in Cologne in August 2006 and in 2015 with his company apeiron AG, Hahne operates six L'Osteria franchise restaurants, a direct Vapiano competitor, and two self-owned restaurants GinYuu.
Then in November of 2015, the next public relations bomb goes off with allegations regarding the company's quality standards. The company immediately investigates the issue through internal and external specialists but finds no evidence of any quality issues. Nevertheless, knowing that the group is now being closely watched, the company’s already in place hygiene standards are being reinforced. Additional audits and inspections are performed nationally. Further, all Vapianos worldwide are being audited twice by the partners SGS Institut Fresenius and SAI Global. Auditing software is purchased to simplify the implementation of the audits and the resulting measures. Apart from the external examinations, there is a food sampling plan in place being performed continuously. Again, all of this sucks up costs, management time and attention. With all these tumultuous developments the company’s growth engine is undeterred. Revenue grows by a whopping 50 million euros to 202 million euros, an increase of 33%. Impressive. While average spent per customer increases in all countries, the number of customers per day in Germany decreases by 3.3% partially due to the negative press towards the end of the year. Five own, four JV and 19 new franchise restaurants are added that year to the group, the total number of own managed restaurants grows to 51, there are 31 JVs and 84 franchises which bringing the total to 166 Vapiano restaurants. Global restaurant sales are now above 400 million euros.
But while revenue grows by an astronomical 50 million euros, operating profits, alarmingly, shrink again. Gross margins are staying perfectly healthy above 75% but operating costs keep growing disproportionately fast. The Company’s outstanding debt jumps by almost 30 million, close to 85 million euros by the end of the year. With operating profits at 9.5 million euros, alarm bells should be going off right now.
In Q4 of 2015, new CEO Jochen Halfmann introduces Strategy 2020. The new strategy includes five essential points. One, profitable growth in the newly defined core markets of Germany and Austria as well as in the UK, Netherlands, France and USA. Two, operational excellence through strict “best practice” management. Three, further development and digitalization of the concept considering guest feedback. Four, greater focus on long-term employee retention and five, building a modern and sustainable IT landscape. Sound’s good on paper but let’s see how things pan out.
Vapiano's investments (capital expenditures) that year are primarily directed towards new restaurant openings, renovations of existing establishments, and share acquisitions in other Vapiano restaurants from franchisees or JV partners. A significant portion of funds is allocated to the digitalization of the guest experience, including the development of a new app scheduled for market release in 2016 and the implementation of a time recording system across all group restaurants. The world's first standalone Vapiano restaurant with a delivery service that year is built in Fürth, Germany. The company keeps expanding its presence in both inner-city locations and international markets, such as Shanghai, China.
To finance all of this, the group has its own operating cash flow which comes in at 18 million while capital expenditures are 26 million euros plus 14 million for acquisitions. The funding gab is filled with 26 million euros of new debt and a seven-million-euro equity raise. At that end of the year and after the equity raise Gregor Gerlach (through his AP Leipzig GmbH & Co. KG entity) holds 30.1%, Hans-Joachim and Gisa Sander through their Exchange Bio GmbH hold 25.5% and the Tchibo heirs, Herz through their Mayfair Beteiligungsfonds II GmbH & Co. KG hold 44,4%.
But for the first time the restaurant’s concept that was so successful to date is being questioned. Some customers are starting to mislike the operational flow of the concept itself. If you want pasta, you must queue for pasta. If you want pizza you stand in a different queue. A small side salad, yet another queue. "You spend more time carrying trays than an actress in Berlin-Mitte. The audience in the pasta limbo can only consist of people who have worked for an insurance company for a long time and, like Stockholm syndrome, they can no longer get away from the industrial canteen feeling," writes TV host Beisenherz provocatively. While overly harsh in his assessment he's not entirely wrong judging by customers venting their frustrations in forums and social media channels. It isn’t uncommon for those who ordered pizza to have already finished eating while there is little movement in the pasta queue. Long term that doesn't go down well, QSRs competitors like L’Osteria are handling this process differently, with much success.
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Tipping Point

Where are now in the year 2016 and things start to deteriorate visibility. Perhaps not for the leman’s eye but any business minded observer can see that there are problems under the hood. Yes, revenue grows yet another whopping 50 million to almost 250 million euros but half of that growth, comes from acquisitions of restaurants that the group didn’t already own 100%, which is now being fully consolidated within the group’s accounts. Here is a concrete example. In the past, Vapiano SE, the group’s top holding company held an indirect 50% stake in a French subgroup via the subsidiary VAP Restaurants SA, based in Luxembourg, and included this as an associated company in the Vapiano SE consolidated financial statements using the equity method. Due to the acquisition of additional shares in September of 2016, Vapiano SE's indirect share in the French subgroup increased to 75%. This means that Vapiano SE takes control of the French subgroup, which is therefore included in the group’s financial statements as part of the full consolidation. The revenue from the acquired subsidiary now recorded in the consolidated income statement amounts to 12.8 million euros. While that’s great for the top line, the loss of the fully consolidated entity equates to 0.2 million euros. Yes, you are buying revenue, but there are losses attached to them, not profits. A similar case is the Swedish entity that runs eight restaurants with revenue of 11.5 million euros but has losses of 235 thousand euros. So much for Strategy 2020 and “profitable” growth.
That year the group’s operating profits are absolutely tanking, halving to 3.5 million euros. Operating profits are now a mere 1,4% of revenue. Remember original founder Mark Korzilius who talked about operating margins of 25% to 28% at the restaurant level? Yes, there are overhead costs for the organization that sits above the chain of restaurants, but operating margins that low indicates a course correction is needed. What’s telling is that in the annual report, in the management discussion section, the company starts talking about EBITDA as a proxy measure of profitability, rather than operating profit or net income. This wasn’t the case in the years before. Is this window dressing for an upcoming IPO? EBITDA is short for earnings before interest, tax, depreciation, and amortization. How can you measure profitability of a restaurant chain that absolutely and unequivocally needs capital investment to maintain its restaurant operations, the very source of cash generation, by simply excluding this maintenance charge (depreciation in the income statement)? Vapiano’s own annual report talks about the fact that existing restaurants must be rejuvenated from time to time and that new interior designs have to be implemented every few years. These things wear and tear, they go out of style, kitchen equipment breaks and needs replacement. This business absolutely needs maintenance capital expenditure, why anyone talks of profits before these maintenance costs is beyond me. Fun fact: in the previous annual report EBITDA is mentioned seven times, mostly around restaurant acquisitions and financing, not however as a profit indication for the group. In the new annual report, EBITDA is mentioned 28 times. Maybe it’s just me but belated Charlie Munger liked to call EBITDA: bullsh*t earnings. When in doubt I stick with Charlie. Interestingly, EBITDA for Vapiano keeps growing while operating and net profits keep falling.
Operating cashflow for the group that year is about 21 million euros, but capital expenditure is 30 million and acquisitions for subsidiaries another 20 million. To finance these expenditures another 28 million euros of debt and 16 million of equity is raised. Net debt rises above 130 million euro. The operating cashflow of the group before any capital expenditures is 21 million euros. I am not sure free cash flow would be significantly positive after maintenance capex is paid out; it’s not broken out so we can’t be sure. Granted, I am not on the ground during this time, and I am not in the board room, I am simply reading what’s in front of me, but to me this is starting to look like a distressed situation. Regardless, the following year the company goes public.

IPO

Where are now in the year 2017 and its Vapiano’s first year as public company. The company’s annual report reads the following “Sales revenue, like-for-like growth (LfL) and the earnings figures EBITDA and adjusted EBITDA are used as the most important financial performance indicators for controlling operational business activities.” The very same report however also says: “The majority of the group's investments regularly go towards opening new restaurant locations and modernizing existing restaurants. The latter are differentiated into regular replacement investments that occur during ongoing operations (Maintenance CAPEX) and fundamental investments in the renovation of a restaurant (Remodeling CAPEX). On average, a restaurant remodeling takes place nine years after opening.” It says it right there in their own report; every nine years a remodeling is taking place. Remodeling and updating is not cost free, so why exclude depreciation charges which reflect capital expenditures? I understand that perhaps you would want to strip out one-off opening costs, that’s fine and fair, but don’t go overboard.
The number of restaurants increases by 26 (previous year: 13) to a total of 205. The increase consists of 27 new openings and one closure. Group revenue grows to an astonishing 325 million euros but here comes the shocker, operating profits turn negative to 25 million. Fine, strip out foreign exchange losses of 3 million, IPO costs of 5.8 million and new opening costs of 6.1 million and you still have 10 million euros of operational losses. All the while the debt load of almost 130 million hasn’t materially changed, so those operating losses are before a six-million-euro interest payment. 184 million euros are raised through the IPO of which 85 million go to the company. This money is earmarked for further expansion as the group has ambitions to almost double the footprint to 330 restaurants by the end of 2020. The company is currently not profitable on an operating basis, and still wants to expand aggressively? I don’t get it. The remaining 100 million euros of the IPO money raised is distributed to co-founder Gregor Gerlach and Wella heirs Hans-Joachim and Gisa Sander. The family office of the former Tchibo owners Günter and Daniela Herz with a 44% stake, don’t sell a single share. After the IPO, 32% of all the company’s shares are now in free float.
One year later, in 2018, things get even worse. Revenue grows to 371 million, but operating losses mount to 85 million euros, that’s before interest expenses of 9 million. Even the beloved EBITDA figure turns negative, meaning the operating business before any expansionary or even maintenance capital expenditures is loss making. All regions are experiencing significant deterioration in their earnings profiles. Like for like sales are down 1% across the board. That’s revenue, not profitability. The question naturally arises: is the Group approaching its natural saturation point here or this operational by nature? The operating cash flow is now 9 million while financing cost are close to 7 million. That leaves 2 million for maintenance capital for 74 own restaurants and 76 joint ventures ones. Describing this as financially tight, would be an understatement.
Things are not looking good at this point. Yet the company still grows restaurants by 26 new sites. 64 million euros are spent on acquisitions, new openings, and maintenance costs, financed through a 20 million-euro equity raise and 72 million of new debt. The Company now has net debt outstanding of over 160 million euros. After the equity raise and by the end of the year 2018, Mayfair owns 47.4%, VAP Leipzig, Gregor Gerlach’s entity owns 18.9% and the Sander couple own 15.5% of the company. Yes, the Sanders and Gerlach may have taken 100 million euros off the table, but they still have substantial skin in the game. Plus, Mayfair hasn’t sold a single share and instead injects more money into the company through the equity round. The stock has now fallen from its IPO price of 23 euros per share to under 6 euros by the end of 2018. Something must be done here. And indeed, there is pivot in strategy and a hard push for change. At last, the management team abandons its aggressive growth plan and curtails new openings significantly. Additionally, the team wants to run a thorough analysis of weak locations to then either discontinue or sell sites. In Europe, the operating focus will be put on corporate restaurants and joint ventures in major cities to ensure the ideal size and location to match the respective demographic target group. Outside of Europe, the franchising business is being expanded and at the same time a consolidation of the existing corporate and joint venture markets is being sought. All future investments will be reviewed to achieve higher rates of returns on new openings. Investments are also being made in the renovation of older restaurants. The goal in the future is to also open smaller formats, like Mini-Vapianos (less than 400 square meters) or Freestander at prominent transportation hubs outside city centers (currently in Fürth and Toulouse) to cater to individual location requirements, and to enter new partnerships. I am not sure why management hasn’t stopped all expansion altogether, bringing the ship in order first, getting profitable, clean up, all hands-on deck before considering any further expansions whatsoever. But again, it’s easy to comment from the sidelines; maybe they saw white spaces that would be covered by competing concepts if they weren’t moving fast and aggressively enough. Although pushing internationally means competing with local players such as Jamie's Italian, Prezzo, Pizza Express, Wagamama, Nando's and many more which brings in its own dynamic.
Management also aims to enhance guest satisfaction. This involves refining operational processes, reorganizing the support center, and refocusing on the core offering: providing fresh and high-quality Italian food at affordable prices for a broad audience. The group also aims to reduce waiting times, especially during lunch, while also improving the evening atmosphere. There is even what I would call an evolution, away from Vapiano’s original concept, reorientating the customer journey. The ordering flow is being changed, offering guests synchronized preparations of all dishes while eliminating wait times at the cooking stations. The open show kitchen remains, staying true to original mantra of freshness and transparency but now guests can choose their preferred method of ordering through a mobile app, using a digital order point (kiosk), or by personally placing an order with a waiter. Guests can still freely choose their table and are then informed about the complete preparation of their order through a pager or their smartphone. This is a substantial deviation from the original concept, but a needed one. The group is also exploring and implementing the expansion of take-away and home delivery services but only at suitable locations, not universally across new openings. I am not sure why home delivery is even a priority here; it adds operational complexity. It’s better to clean up shop first and get back to the basics before adding new complexities. To be fair management does try to simplify. There are 49 different permanent dishes on the menu and additional 10 seasonal ones. Customers can choose from eleven different types of pasta. There is simply too much choice, and it makes orders complicated. The company announced to slim the menu down to its most popular and typical Vapiano dishes. There’s no need for an Asian salad at an Italian restaurant. "We have to go back to the roots, i.e. classic, honest Italian cuisine" says COO Everke. Regardless, in November of 2018, the supervisory board pulls the plug on CEO Jochen Halfmann and replaces him with Cornelius Everke. Everke himself has just become COO five months ago. Since 2017 he was responsible for international expansion. From 2011 to 2017 that role was filled by Mario Bauer – put a pin in that name, he’ll play a key role in the groups fate later. Then nine months later, in the middle of 2019, Cornelius Everke quits. He essentially concludes that his skillset and experience in the areas of internation expansion is no longer needed in the foreseeable future. To put it differently: Vapiano has moved from a growth story and has become a restructuring case, and other skills are required for that job. In June of 2019 Everke says the following “(we’ve) made a bit of a mistake when it came to foreign expansion”. No sh#t. Vapiano postpones the presentation of the 2018 annual financial statements three times in the spring of 2019, citing negotiations over an urgently needed loan of 30 million euros. It’s not until the end of May that a binding loan commitment comes through from the financing banks and major shareholders.
We are now in August of 2019 and the corona pandemic is just around the corner. Supervisory board chief Vanessa Hall takes over as interim-CEO and things are unravelling. Visitor numbers are declining; originally, it was planned to sell the US business but halfway through the year the buyer cannot come up with the money. But not all restaurants are performing poorly. The group's poor figures contrast starkly as an example with the experiences of the Swiss-German franchisee, who runs six restaurants. The Sodano family in Switzerland pays Vapiano a royalty of 6% of sales for the use of the brand. Enrico Sodano explains in an interview that they operate largely autonomously from the licensor. If an “accident” were to occur, he could immediately replace the Vapiano sign with Sodano, he says. The family concluded the rents and contracts with employees and suppliers independently. The Sodano family have six locations in Bern, Basel and Zurich, around one million guests every year and 350 employees. Things are going well on the ground. The delivery service they’ve built is offering them a second income stream. Expansion into Winterthur, St. Gallen and Lucerne are being planned; small locations with 150 to 250 square meters and an attached delivery service. Originally, Vapiano restaurants used to be huge but for such a large restaurant to be profitable, 800 to 1,000 guests per day are needed. That’s possible in medium-sized cities, but not in smaller towns which is why the Vapiano group now also supports smaller formats. Back to our corporate drama. The 2019 annual report would be the last report the group files. By the end 2019 the outstanding debt of the company is at an astronomical 450 million euros. Revenue has grown by another 7%, produced by four net new openings through two JVs and two franchise restaurants but operating losses come in at 317 million euros. That sound like an absolute shocker at first but depreciation and amortization charges are 345 million, so that operating cash flow is actually positive but unfortunately capital expenditures and interest payments are so large that they are eating up all of the company’s operating cash flow. Then in the beginning of 2020 Corona hits with full force and the world shuts down. As a result of the measures to prevent further spreading of the virus, the group is forced to cease all global business operations (except in Sweden). While all these shutdowns are happening, the group is the middle of negotiating with its lending banks and main shareholders. There are additional financing needs for restructuring measures, even without a pandemic happening in the background. The situation is so dire that the company starts pleading to the German government to roll out the package of financial help more quickly. Unfortunately, it’s to no end. The rapid closure of restaurants and the resulting lack of operating cash inflows in conjunction with the additional financing requirements, lead to the company’s final knockout punch. In April of 2020, the Vapiano group officially files for insolvency proceedings. The end of an era.

New Beginnings

Because of the pandemic, the majority of the group's subsidiaries in Austria, the Netherlands, Denmark, the United States, Sweden, and China also file for insolvency or seek liquidation. The US business never gets sold in the end and is wound down. In the summer of 2020, significant group divestments occur, including the sale of 75% shares in the group's French subsidiaries, shares in franchisor companies, Australian subsidiaries, German subsidiaries, associated companies, self-managed restaurants in Germany, and insolvency-related sales in the Netherlands, Great Britain, and Sweden. The buyer of the Vapiano brand and one of these bundles of Vapiano restaurants is company named Love & Food Restaurant Holding, a consortium led by Mario C. Bauer – a name I told you to remember. Bauer was a former Vapiano board member and led the national and international expansion, opening 200 sites in 33 countries from 2011 to 2017 until he was succeeded by Cornelius Everke. Bauer didn’t feel comfortable with the IPO at the time but clearly has a lot of managerial and entrepreneurial talent.
The buyer consortium is an absolute A-Team comprised of European QSR top league hitters, including the founder of the Pret A Manger chain Sinclair Beecham; Henry McGovern, the founder and Ex-CEO of the giant international restaurant and foodservice operator AmRest; the Van der Valk Family that runs hotels and Vapiano restaurants in the Netherlands, and co-founder and ex-CEO Gregor Gerlach. The acquisition value is 15 million euros and entails 30 Vapiano restaurants in Germany, albeit that’s just the purchase price which comes on top of any capital investment needed to refresh and return the sites to its former glory. Nevertheless, just as a thought experiment, if you can get each site to 2 million euros of revenue and 400,000 euros in operating profit on average, which wouldn’t be an overly aggressively assumption given the company’s history, you’ve got yourself a package that can deliver restaurant-level operating profits of 12 million euros or more. It’s not disclosed how much capex was needed to refresh the operations, just that fact that the overall investment plus purchase price was a middle double-digit million-euro figure. Stil, it probably was a decent purchase. The same consortium buys Vapiano’s French business for 25 million euros just two weeks prior. After the transaction concludes, the master franchise is given to Delf Neumann and his Gastro & Soul GmbH. Neumann is an experienced operator, and he is ambitious to revitalise the brand with new services and products. For example, instead of pizza, the restaurants will be serving pinsa - a flatbread made from sourdough, wheat and rice flour, topped similarly to a pizza. It targets a more health-oriented customer base looking for a less calory heavy option. The menu overall is expanded by including a variety of vegan and vegetarian dishes.
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Today Neumann’s Gastro & Soul GmbH operates 18 Vapianos on its own account and has 29 franchise sites, amongst other brands. By the year 2021, Vapiano operates 191 restaurants in 34 countries. This is around 50 fewer sites than before the bankruptcy. The number of branches is particularly thinned out in Germany – from 80 to 55. Nevertheless, Vapiano's home country remains by far the largest market, followed by France with 35 restaurants and Austria with 15 locations. “We have shrunk ourselves to health,” says Bauer in the aftermath and there is no further shrinking planned. Quite the opposite, the smell of expansion is in the air again – pun intended. Not as aggressively as before and with a new menu and ordering process.
Overall, the team around Bauer is filled with industry experts with knowledge and networks gained over decades who have a great track record, a long-term view, and the staying power to let Vapiano breath and finds its way back to success. The pressure of being a public company with all the associated quarterly, half-year and yearly disincentives have been removed. The menu is changed and extended with new types of pasta and sauces with significantly more vegetarian and vegan dishes available. Guests can order with restaurant staff, at terminals or on their phones and there are barcodes attached to the tables identify the respective seat. The food is brought to your table, all at the same time if you are in a group, no more annoyances with waiting in line. There is a plan for smaller, 350 square meter locations, with half the number of guests and significantly fewer staff and less set-up costs required to make the economics work. Locations that capitalize on remote work and increased demand for local lunch options, higher population density with shorter delivery routes and therefore cost-effective in house delivery services are targeted. And Bauer is testing the concept of ghost kitchens, which operate without a dining room or service staff, focusing solely on preparing food for delivery services, which for obvious reasons have a very different operational set up and footprint. Original founder Mark Korzilius however is not entirely convinced. He is not a fan of the pinsa for instance and he considers Vapiano's pizza as its cash cow, flagship product and believes that the core Vapiano proposition of Pizza, Pasta, Bar that has given the company its original success is being diluted. He instead admires the competitor L'Osteria, saying they’ve done a better job by focusing on Italian classics, especially the impressively large pizzas that sticks out beyond the plate is leaving every customer in awe. The guys who run L’Osteria are the same guys who have built Vapiano with him in the first place. Bauer on the other hand, like a true business leader, remains undeterred, stating that he is frequently asked whether Vapiano's restart was bold or foolish. He believes in entrepreneurship, franchising, in his experienced fellow partners and importantly the Vapiano concept. By the year 2024 you can find over 140 Vapiano branded restaurant in 27 countries across the globe, including locations far away from its birthplace like Australia, USA, Columbia, Chile, Bahrain, and Saudi Arabia. And why not? Italian food is, and will remain to be, incredibly popular. Vapiano offers fresh and tasty food at affordable prices in a good atmosphere. This combination of attributes should attract a lot of customers. It certainly has in the past.
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2024.05.14 12:31 jakeMonline 22 M - Regretting Comp Sci

I did a comp sci degree because I loved computer viruses and hacking. I was 8 when I set this as a life goal and by the time I was 21 and with a degree a whole 13 years later, I got a job in « Application Support » (read: random database tasks for minimum wage in a warehouse an hours drive away) and I’ve realised this isn’t what I want. I actually want a career where I interact with other humans, where I talk to people and build things with them. And preferably one where I can get out of the UK quickly too!
I’ve always assumed consulting could be this, so I’m open to ideas maybe around that or something else entirely (if I need to study an exam for it that’s fine, I’d love to do stuff related to say agriculture but just so long as the manual lifting isn’t tooooooo much a part of it)
Any ideas are much appreciated, and if it matters, I’d like to leave the UK and go to either France or the Netherlands. So if you know of positions that require a human touch that are in demand in either it’d be much appreciated to know!
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2024.05.14 12:13 Okrad123 The ideal trail shoe for my vacation

Hi everybody,
Kind a got into the rabbit hole of finding the ideal trail shoes for my vacation to Canada. I will do a round trip of 3 weeks by car from Vancouver and will visit several different places which include places like national park Banff, Jasper and other fairly remote places.
I will be doing hiking/trailrunning on easy and more technical trails and looking for a shoes which can accomodate both. I know in a country of this size I can expect alot of different kind of enviroments but since we will be mostly in the same region I know one trail shoe will do for all my hiking and trail running purposes. With the given information what would be the trail shoes that you bring. I know shoes is always something very personal and one of the main focus should be fit which ofcourse is something that will also be my main focus. Any suggestions are welcome, I kind a want to learn about how people decide which shoe to take and what would be the criteria.
Currently leaning towards the Merrel Agillity Peak 5 since I hear alot of good things about it but also hear they're more suitable for muddy enviroments and less for rocky kind of enviroments like I'm expecting in Canada due to the aggresive lugs. I'm from the Netherlands and I know the shoes that work for the trails we got here might not work that well on trails like those you get in the states or Canada.
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2024.05.14 12:09 gobnyd I just am so sad

I'm so tired. I'm 41. Chronic bladder infections as a baby, one that almost killed me. Started having lower back spasms at 11. Doctors were like, huh, that's weird, kid. Welp, enjoy your life.
Got very active and fit, that kept it mosty at bay during my teenage years. Back pain returned in young adulthood. Cried on the way to work every day on the bus, because sitting hurt. Knelt on the floor to type at work. Got a part time job so I didn't have to sit as much. Did PT, got massages.
Migraines slowly started over the years. Recurrent UTI and yeast infection. My back would go out 3 to 4 times a year, regularly, but I was very active after the 2-week recovery period. Kept asking doctors why do I get so much back pain, infections? They were like "Iunno, some people are more prone to it. Welp, enjoy your life!"
  1. I don't know what the fuck happened but my neck did something bad when I was lifting a chair and it was months and months of uncontrollable spasms and complete trauma. Barely able to sleep for months. Poorly controlled pain, pain medicine-related trauma from doctors who are so afraid to give me five fucking hydrocodone at a time when I was almost at suicidal levels of pain.
Interstitial cystitis appeared a few months later just for kicks. Gastrointestinal pain started. My nervous system seemed to be jacked up after that. Super reactive to everything.
I pulled myself heroically back to some decent functionality after a few years of painful and exhausting experimentation.
Was getting back into enjoying life. Then new knee pain (chondromalacia) took away roller skating which was my favorite activity in life and probably the main thing that kept me strong and together. I've been working on my knee since 2020 and I still haven't made progress with all the PT. No one knows what to do for it. It's so incredibly frustrating and it's responsible for my slide into deep conditioning. I try to keep active with walking and PT exercises, but nothing equals skating for joy and for strengthening.
I finally piece together my own diagnosis through years of my own reading, brought it to my doctors, who confirmed. (Wish I could get paid for doing My own research). Was enjoying life as much as possible.
Then, one day, my seemingly loving husband of 12 years abandoned with no warning (He actually secretly moved out while I was gone for the weekend and let me know by email that he wanted a divorce, saying that my recent diagnosis made me a ticking time bomb waiting to ruin our lives)
The shock and pain and fear.
Fast forward 2 years through the trauma of utter blindsided betrayal by someone I thought was my best friend, and the mental trauma of being forced to do a whole divorce and fight for my future needs with someone who had suddenly, nonsensically become angry with ME, saying didn't deserve any alimony at all because I created all this chronic pain in my head to manipulate care out of him (Yes, that was his point of view. He believed that my pain was real but that it was mentally-caused. I can't explain it. It's nuts. I think it's basically his twisted rationale to make this my fault and to make abandoning a loving wife with chronic pain acceptable to assuage the guilt)
I haven't worked in years. I don't qualify for disability because I stopped working gradually, before I had a diagnosis, and I trusted my husband. So now I don't have enough recent work credits for disability.
Ironically I was doing relatively well physically when he left. I actually had some hope. Then, out of the blue a year after he left, I developed chronic tailbone pain. I haven't been able to sit down without pain for over a year. It's really a hard condition to treat, no solution in sight but strengthening, which I'm used to and I'm ready to do...
... but my hips have started possibly subluxing in the last few months? I've never had trouble there before because I've historically been very active. I don't drive. I walk everywhere, so those muscles get a lot of exercise.
But I got more deconditioned because JUST gotten over an exhausting trial of LDN which backfired on me (It caused completely new peripheral neuropathy to appear in my hands and feet and then set my migraines to become chronic, every day, for over a month)
Now it hurts to lift my leg when I lay on my side, feels like it gets stuck, like I have to rotate my leg in order to properly lift it. Sometimes I get a sharp pain in the back part where the top of the thigh bone is. Aching today. I know I have a labral tear in that leg, got to get it checked out
I'm suspecting this gradual deconditioning has finally weakened my hip/butt area, allowing my hips to sublux for the first time?
It's literally been 3 days since the amitriptyline has finally kicked in and I've gone a day or two without migraine. I just started to be able to think again.
But today's hip pain is taking me down mentally. It feels like the last straw.
How can I exercise to get better when despite my best efforts, I keep adding injury after injury? They're stacking up. They don't have solutions. I feel like I can't climb my way out.
And all the emotional trauma. I'm just tired. I've been so strong getting through the past 2 years. I don't know how much I have left.
I'm terrified because I can't sit. I can't even use a wheelchair if my hips give out. How the fuck am I supposed to live? Am I going to be bed bound? Thus far in my life it has taken me working at peak functionality to get enough exercise to keep my body together. Functionality has taken a nose dive for years now, despite my best efforts.
How much more can I fucking take?
I'm probably just having a little emotional breakdown. I hope I can improve things.
But I'm just so goddamn fucking tired.
I've tried so hard. Is this how the story ends with me? Alone, disabled, poor, and in more pain?
Thanks for listening to my novel of a rant.
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2024.05.14 11:42 Pussybones420 When to go to the hospital for bladder pain?

Hello
25F, 130lbs, 5’10”, no tobacco, MMJ user, hydrocodone and oxyxodone as needed, cyclobenzaprine, protonix
If you read this thank you so much because I’m absolutely desperate and my doctors are tired of me and I think they think I only want pain meds. I don’t, I just want to feel better. I have a huge stash of emergency oxycodone anyway so I barely even need them for that.
On 12/15 I fell down the stairs and hit the lower of my middle back quite hard. 12/19 I had a LEEP done, 01/06 I came down with extreme urinary issues and between then and now have been back 6 times, seen 4 specialists and have seen my PCP at least ten times for urine samples. I’ve also only been able to attend my full time job for 43 days so far this year and have no more money for copays and if it weren’t for my ADA paperwork, I’d have been fired a long time ago
Over the last two weeks, it’s been taking me up to two hours to produce urine while having a full (and very sore - mostly left side) bladder. This is infuriating. When I do end up finally feeling the need to release, I have less than 3 minutes to get to a restroom before my vision starts going spotty from the bladder pressure pain.
My urologist ordered a cystoscopy, but has been blaming my 3mm kidney stone until I begged for an ultrasound last month of my bladder. Found bladder wall thickening and bladder cyst / possible urachal remnant.
I found out what Cuada equina is today. I learned that it is very very commonly missed. I can barely walk, and at the music festival I went to over the weekend I had to use ADA for just about everything. I look completely normal so I got judged pretty hard, but I do have paperwork. I have been losing weight without much diet change and my back has been killing me as well. I feel so weak. My urine flow is so small compared to what it used to be. I had a period of time where the pain was so bad, I couldn’t feel my clitoris or labia at all so sex was pointless as well, and I thought I’d lose my relationship and be alone forever. They send me to an OB-Oncologist who said not to come back, which is why my urologist finally agreed to check my bladder.
Is it possible that all my issues are related to the cyst and thickening, or could this be cuada equina that was missed on multiple CT’s? I can’t find info on bladder cysts. using retention. When is the appropriate time to go to the hospital? I can barely walk without pain meds. I urinated about 40 times on Saturday, with my usual being 10-20 times, and some days there’s very little pain or urgency at all, but the retention is almost always there to some extent.
It almost feels like the part of my brain that controls my bladder doesn’t work anymore because no matter how hard I tell my bladder to release, it just doesn’t happen sometimes and I can’t get comfortable after that. I’ve slept a total of 4 hours since Saturday morning and I only have one hydrocodone left. Pyridium does NOTHING except for when burning pain presents, and I can’t take NSAIDS until my GI clears me due to extreme gas, constipation and bloating / belching thought to be caused by peptic ulcers. I can’t walk at this point without pain meds, but the ER always releases me with the same DX of cyst and bladder wall thickening and tells me they have no clue what that means. But I’m in so much pain I feel like there has to be something they can do other than give me fluids and monitor me for an hour or two until I can get to my cystoscopy next week.
If you have any advice for me I really appreciate it. I don’t want to die but I feel the only way out of lifelong urinary pain after 6 months now is suicide. The only time suicide doesn’t cross my mind a couple times is when I do end up having to take a pain pill. In March, I had to take oxy every day. I only take them now when I can’t walk because the effects are too strong for me to keep my life in order while taking them every day. But this weekend I have had the most trouble walking, and using the restroom, since all of these issues began.
I can’t afford any more specialists visits after my procedure, so I really wish the ER could do something for me as they’re the only ones who won’t turn me away for not having money at this point. My GI doc actually canceled my appointment because I don’t have $20 and I’ve been putting off another ultrasound because it’s $200 up front. IDK what to do but I’m pretty sure this is how a lot of people end up on fent and heroin - if I had been denied pain meds this far I would have turned to the streets, and that’s coming from someone who has chosen - on their own - to quit most drug related and extracurricular activities to better their life at a young age and is much happier for it.
I can’t even get the ER to catheterize me when I can’t urinate for 6+ hours at a time. What gives? Why won’t they run a different imaging test? They wouldn’t even give me a breath test for h pylori recently and now I’m waiting a month for an appointment I can’t even afford.
TL;DR extreme bladder pain, nobody understands why, extreme difficulty urinating, ER can’t do anything for me and awaiting surgery. Is there anything I can say or do to get proper medical attention or can the ER really not touch your bladder like they say? Is there a way I can convince them to admit me so I could see a urologist before my procedure? My urologist is unavailable until my follow-up and I don’t think the company they work for allows them to Rx narcotics and I’m against taking more than 1 oxycodone a week at this point but so far have been unsuccessful in getting something weaker like hydro or tramadol.
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2024.05.14 11:30 t_bor97 Fear getting worse the more I fly...

I am 26 years old, and although I was frequently flying (at least every 3 weeks) for 2 years, I can't help but notice that my anxiety before a flight never gets better, particularly when I see the weather forecast and notice high winds and/or thunderstorms are predicted.
I fully understand that this fear is irrational. I am a Mechanical Engineer by trade and have an interest in the engineering involved in aviation, which is funny because it should help alleviate some of the anxiety knowing how much effort is put into the design process, training and risk assessments etc. But on the flip side, because of my fear, I involuntarily choose to focus on what can go wrong...
Turbulence does not bother me that much, I am mostly nervous before and during ascent and when banking, as well as the approach for landing or when flying through clouds. I have also recently developed a fear for the landing itself - I was not previously scared of this until I once could tell we were going to have a hard landing on a Ryanair flight because of how fast we were approaching the runway... and it was.
I am flying this Thursday to the Netherlands, and I can see that there might be a large thunderstorm and possibly low clouds, but no wind. How do I get over this fear, knowing that I am possibly going to have to fly quite often in the future?
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2024.05.14 11:30 Like_a_warm_towel Will I need to pay taxes on the money I’ll receive after my step-father passed away?

So my stepfather recently passed away. He was an American citizen who lived and worked only in America. I have lived in the NL for almost a decade.
Upon his passing I was informed I’ll get a small sum of money from his life insurance and some small investments. Am I going to have to pay Dutch taxes on this money? The Belastingdienst says no, according to this webpage: https://www.belastingdienst.nl/wps/wcm/connect/en/individuals/content/inheritance-abroad-paying-tax-in-the-netherlands
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2024.05.14 10:49 beginners-blog Watch the UEFA European Championship with a VPN in 2024

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2024.05.14 10:37 freerunner73 Looking for remote/on site software roles. Not getting interviews. Feedback required

Hello, I'm a mid to senior level software engineer from Pakistan with bulk of my experience building services. tools and technologies around gaming. I also work on and off contractually with an American transportation company, managing feature development and bug fixes for their suite of management software built around .NET.
I am recently on the lookout for a new job, ideally with an option to relocate to countries like Germany, Netherlands or Poland, or otherwise, work remotely with companies located here.
I am ideally looking for a roles that put me in position where I can do game dev, backend and AI.
I would love to gather feedback around my profile. What advice would you give me around my approach and what can I do to get more interview and standout as a promising candidate.
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2024.05.14 09:35 sai799 Should I get another undergraduate degree at 25?

I want to immigrate to either canada or the netherlands by studying there and because the degree i hold right now isn’t very in demand i can’t apply for jobs so I thought of getting masters program but mostly they will ask for letter of recommendation which idk if i can provide since only two professors reply and they just asked to sent them the form and sign it nothing more i emailed two others and put effort to provide them with some works that I’ve done in their courses and my cv it has been 6 months no reply. Also I honestly feel like most master’s programs for my undergraduate major is very limited or not in demand i have English language degree btw so if you have any advice I would appreciate it -
This’s just a vent maybe idk : I got two programs offer that end with employment rn in my home country which is great cuz i can maybe ask for professional references but they are not related to my undergraduate program also they’re all do urine tests and well… I may start to take medication for my anxiety and probably hopefully not antidepressants soon :( I’m kinda very excited for these two programs
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