I came here to talk about this because I can’t talk to anyone else I know about it. I am VERY attracted to transwomen, however due to the social stigma & my religious worldview, I do not openly date them.
Honestly, I know I couldn’t do it long-term simply bc I do want a family with a wife & kids. & I love pussy alot more than anal. But I can’t deny the fact that transwomen unleash a primal lust within me. The sex itself is amazing , mainly bc there aren’t any qualms about having her eat my ass , no pregnancy concerns (yes, I get tested & confirm their status before anything happens) , they suck dick better , more often than not , & it’s just something about seeing dick & balls hanging from a gorgeous girl bent on all fours that gets my dick extra hard.
So whenever I am going thru a serious dry spell , or when I’m newly out of a relationship , my sights immediately turn to them (some have helped me get over breakups rather quickly). I get on grindr , taimi, set in my profile that I’m only looking for transwomen & I go from there.
I usually have a roster built up of transwomen if I’m not dating biowomen & treat it as a genuine fwb relationship. We go places & do stuff together , then have some great sex afterwards. I always make it clear that I’m not looking for anything longterm & with the exception of one girl (who slashed my tires after I told her that 😵‍💫) they all have been cool with it.
I do cut things off amicably with a transwoman when I am seriously dating a biowoman. & I am always 100% faithful during my relationship. But that roster I built just doesn’t disappear lol because unless I get married , it will certainly be utilized after a breakup.
A thing that plays a part in this is the fact that it is simply easier to have sex with transwomen than biowomen. Not that I can’t get girls, but you just don’t have to jump thru as many hoops before you have sex.
Besides , many of the transwomen I have talked to , tend to be , even more selective than women in terms of who they’ll have sex with as far as mere attraction goes. I mean some of these girls look like pornstars in person & obviously I’m not the only one whose dick gets hard when you see them naked. So they do have plenty of choices as I have seen endless messages of thirsty men of all backgrounds in many of these girl’s inboxes.
But anyway , that’s my confession that I don’t see myself telling anyone besides God Himself. A black dude that is a first-generation American with African roots from Baltimore ? You could imagine what that would be like for me.
So , ask me anything. I am very interested in what you all have to say. Didn’t get much engagement when I posted elsewhere but hoping that changes.

I am currently writing a Mafia novel. The premise of my book is how the American Cartel will counter the marginalization of Non-White men by the European Mafias/Mobs.
Here are the names of the characters-

1. Mgengombi Ng’eti (African American male)
   
2. Chikondi Goma (African American male)
   
3. Juma Mohammad (African American male)
   
4. Sambo Kopo (African American male)
   
5. Takeshi Goda (Japanese American male)
   
6. Malachi Cohen (Jewish American male)
   
7. Monty Singh (Indian American male)
   
8. Abdul Kumar (Mestizo American male)
   
9. Illarion Kuzmin (Russian/White male)
   
10. Adrik Vlasov (Russian/White male)
    
11. Shula Shiloh (Jewish American female)
    
12. Nakata Ori (Japanese American female)
    
13. Annabelle McGuire (Mixed White American female)
    
14. Binta Mboob (African American male)
    
15. Kufara Chigwedere (African American female)
    
16. Farai Bulawayo (African American female)
    
17. Priyanka Iyer (Indian American female)
    
18. Claudia Khatun Santos (Mestizo American female)
    

Do the names of my characters sound cool?

Witch Fall / / Rest Now

^vibe
January 8th, 2072.
The Midnight Court - Wewelsburg, Álfheimr
"I had no expectation of being crowned." Princess Kyōko looked towards the crowd of Alfr nobility which had amassed itself in the great hall of the Midnight Court. Excluding the Princess, who stood just in front of the Night King's Throne, the nobility made up of nearly all conquered people remained quiet as the Princess continued to speak - the shock of recent events emanating throughout the room. "And yet death of my uncle...has come as a shock."
The court was somber, the lights dim - only a few skylights pointed towards the Princess whose Golden crown had only just been placed on her head by the same woman who had coronated her Uncle all those years ago. The flags which had once flown as a symbol of the Aesir, now remained furled, awaiting to be revealed as the once Japanese Princess, continued to speak.
"In the years since my Uncle's coronation, our Aesir, has led you all to the well of prosperity, happiness, and security. Under his auspices rule, under the Night King's watchful gaze, you people...you all...have been so very lucky. So very lucky to have survived this long." Gasps from the crowd where audible as members of the Valkyrie of the 1st Sturmtruppen marched into the Great Hall, those members of the Elite Imperial Guard whose loyalty lay only with the Aesir. "Under the former Aesir, you have been...blinded by a shroud of darkness from true enlightenment. The failures of this Imperial Might, whose forces once so easily marched West across France and conquered Western Europe, come from your blind faith in my Uncle. You have been bested in a Gothic War which saw the needless deaths of so many of the Aesir's Chosen. And yet you cry out for more conflict?"
The new Aesir could see the daggers as she looked out at the crowd, as her words struck the very heart of the Alfheim's Imperial Center. From the corner of her eye, she could barely make out one figure leaving the Hall, shooting an icy yet aware glance towards the Throne, however, now was no time to stop, she had a mission here.
"At every step, your former ruler...has ensured that the entire weight of the world would come crashing down on his Empire. Even now, you face a rebellion in Italy, and the possibility of war in the outer colonies of Svartálfar and Mexico. And if not for the idleness of the great Goliath of Eastern Europe your very homeland would have most assuredly been lost by now."
By now, only the Æsir's Chosen had remained without reaction. The nobility long in uproar, confusion, and fear as the former second-rate Princess from Japan gave lecture on the future of the Empire.
"You all...I...have never seen throughout history, an Empire so reviled that even my own Father's machinations have gone unheeded by the world." The newly crowned Aesir cared little for choosing her words, knowing that ultimately, they'd have to all bend the knee either way. "Your world has failed, and I am here to save you."
The murmuring of the crowd would have become overwhelming if it was not for the clerics who raised and slammed the ends of their banners on the ground, unfurling the new flag of the Imperial Álfheimr while sending the crowds into a fervor of chanting.
“Long live Æsir!”
“Long live Æsir!”
“Long live Æsir!”
As the Midnight Sun rose over the old world, those nobility knew a new era had begun.

Mombasa, The Union of African Socialist Republics 

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"The Malagasy Terror returns to South Africa, Mexico falls into the grips of Japanese Empire"

Bandung Daily Issued January 31st, 2072 - 12:00 Mombasa, The Union of African Socialist Republics
MOMBASA - As the world continues to feel the shockwaves from the death of former imperialist dictator Dederick Lohengrin, it has been confirmed that the Malagasy Terror otherwise known as Japanese Rear Admiral Sentaro Omori has been confirmed as the new Imperial Governor of Marley. According to reports from the Japanese Minister of Foreign Affairs Kamisato Ayaka, the handover of South Africa represents the 16th Imperial Administrative Zone of the ever growing Japanese Empire. Likewise, according to reports coming out of the JIIA - Rear Admiral Takagi Daisuke has been named Imperial Governor of Azteca (known globally as Mexico), as the newest and 17th Imperial Colony. The news has forced the resurfacing of existing fears within the UASR, and by extension broader Bandung Pact as to ongoing colonialism by the Japanese Empire which has despite its claim to "isolation", come to control vast swathes of the globe.
The annexation of South Africa, or rather, the repeated annexation of South Africa by Japan showcases the ongoing Imperial ambitions of a Japan which has frequently been known to break the conventions on human rights with its rumors of prison camps and genocide. Now following the death of the former Aesir of Alfheim who himself was a scourge on the continent of Africa, Japan has only further pushed the boundaries of its Imperial borders, using the second born Princess Kyōko as a way of wrestling control over the once antagonistic German Empire. While the hand-over of the Alfr's two most valued colonies was ostensibly done under the pretense of the possibility of outright war from a Bandung Pact led liberation of either South Africa or Mexico, experts across the Globe have come to other theories.
Specifically, experts within the UASR have begun theorizing that the recent withdrawal of the Alfheim from its Imperial ambitions, is largely, due to the possibility of an ongoing internal conflict between various factions within the Alfheimr Empire - namely, it is believed that there are several dissenting factions attempting to wrestle control out of Japanese hands. While outright war seems unlikely, the possibility of conflict cannot be understated as [Kyrr Von Lohengrin](), the Æsir's Chosen, and Danubian Habsburgs have been seen far more frequently in official affairs - while Alfheimr military assets appear to be on the constant move. While it is believed that much of the Aesir's non-Human population has as dictated by central processing units in both Wewelsburg, Berlin, and Paris been accepting of the new Æsir, more complex androids like the Æsir's Chosen and the vast majority of the religiously indoctrinated human population is rumored to be far less tolerant of both the official explanation of the Æsir's death and of the new ruling Æsir. Ultimately, while most experts believe outright conflict to be unlikely, some like those within the INC (GIGAS), have begun to whisper about the possibility of coming conflict.

For the Republic, Part Five: Born is the Fourth

Rare are the times that Kyrr von Lohengrin, former Imperial Vizikong of North Amerika and Minister of Foreign Affairs had found himself in this office. Its white walls, mirroring those of the exterior, was one of the few buildings permitted to be rebuilt in the wake of the Third Republic's destruction. And yet here he was all the same, the slow ticking of a grandfather clock in the corner the only audible noise that could be heard even with his enhanced hearing. Not even the breathing of the man sitting at the restored Resolute Desk was enough to break Kyrr out of his state of shock. It was only when the man and his hulking frame spoke, that Kyrr's attention drifted back to the present.
"I once sat where you are now." President Armstrong who had once betrayed the Third Republic mused as he stared down the nimble looking Alfr. "I offered your King a Kingdom, and look at him now...laying in dirt.
If not for the desperation of Kyrr's current situation, he would have ordered this so-called President's execution for disrespecting the Aesir.
"And for that matter, look at you, you proud Alfr who once strode in here so high and mighty declaring a new world order. You know? Katherine might have been right...hahaha." Armstrong spat out his tobacco as he leaned back in his chair, resting his legs on the desk. "Your worse than us now, at least we never lost our homes."
The disdain in Armstrong's voice was palpable, as his baritone voice echoed throughout the office. Kyrr could barely hide his own contempt, and disgust at what was nothing more than a sub-human caveman lecturing to one of the Aesir's closest confidants.
"And now, as those Jap fucks stretch their god damn Midnight Sun across Europe...you come to me, Papa Armstrong for help." Armstrong's face broke into a wicked smile; violence, rage, and hatred spewing from his eyes. "Well your in luck, kid. Because you've come to a land where the people are free, there is no slate to wipe because I've already burned the fucking thing to the ground."
"Look, I'm not here for a monologue. We both have things we can off-...."
"Shut the fuck up and sit there, quietly. You came here for whatever I can offer, not the other way around." Armstrong's smile only continued to widen as it reached comedically lengths. "And as I said, your in luck, because I can offer you a place in my new America. People will die, and kill, and you can be one of the killers."
Kyrr continued to stare at the American whose smile literally reached from ear to ear.
"So...whaddya think?"

Warsaw, The Commonwealth 

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"Fall Dämmerung and the Álfheimr Civil War"

CNN (Commonwealth) Issued October 16th, 2072 - 12:00 Warsaw, The Commonwealth
PARIS - As the Black Fleet lay smoldering at the bottom of the Atlantic, the Global Interoperable Guarantee for Allied Support has announced the end of the Álfheimr Civil War which had started in the late Spring of 2072. While the ACW had begun largely due to factional disputes on an internal level within Imperial Álfheimr government following the coronation of the new Æsir, too most experts, it didn't officially begin until the secession of what is now informally known as the "Republic of New Álfheimr". The New Republic which exists in an unrecognized status (by Imperial Japan, the INC, and GIGAS at large), is now formally made up of the "Imperial Dominion of Amerika" which was the former Third American Republic before its conquest by the late Greater Aryan Empire (GAE). The secession of America was allegedly brought about by an alliance between certain Dederick Lohengrin loyalists including Kyrr von Lohengrin, alongside Steven Armstrong the titular "Governor" of the American colony. While the Civil War had originally been fought solely between the Imperial Álfheimr under the recently crowned Æsir Kyōko and Kyrr's New Republic, the follow-up secession of Danubia from the Imperial Álfheimr quickly brought new levels of severity - forcing GIGAS's hand and involvement.
The secession of Danubia under the command of Ferdinand Habsburg, as advised by Gloria von Habsburg led to the creation of "The Grand Imperium of Europa", a new so-called Empire claiming to be the true successors of the Greater Aryan Empire. To even greater surprise however, it would appear that the Danubian secession was supported by the O-5 Council and broader Æsir Chosen including "The Advisor, Commander, and Mother" among others. This was a major blow to Æsir Kyōko's legitimacy, and additionally led to a significant loss of human manpower within the Imperial Álfheimr which coupled with the creation of Kyrr's Republic - undoubtedly forced Álfheimr's call for aide.
These events ultimately led to a "forced peace" between the Imperial Álfheimr which is ostensibly still "independent" from the Empire of Japan, the Republic of New Álfheimr, and Grand Imperium of Europa by GIGAS through the destruction of the feuding Black Fleet in the Atlantic operated by the Republic of New Álfheimr. At the same time however, efforts by the Bandung Pact and Eastern Union to capitalize on these events have largely fallen flat - as crises in Israel, Kaabu, and even Eastern Siberia have led to a new level of unprecedented global tension. Nevertheless, while a tacit "white peace" currently exists between the three "Álfheimr successor states", none are certain that such a peace will hold even under GIGAS oversight.

CLAIM REVEAL: THE POST-ALFHEIM STATES (MAP)

The Grand Imperium of Europa

• DETAILS
• Head of State: Ferdinand Habsburg
  • Other Important Characters (meta control)
  • Gloria von Habsburg
  • The Æsir's Chosen (those otherwise not listed under the RNA)
• Population: 203,994,000
• Claim Starting Allotments (IE. Special Starting Scenario)
  • Claimant receives special/secret information at the start of the Campaign

Things to Consider
The Grand Imperium of Europa is unique in its existence as a fortress state among fortress states, nestled in the heart of Central Europe and shielded from the broader "Japanese Alfheim" (Berlin/Paris, etcetera), the Grand Imperium claims not only to be the true successor of the GAE - but has in many ways, the military might to back it up. Having retained much of the human-based military, and significant portions of the non-human army as well, its only lack is in naval capability.
The Grand Imperium like the RNA also has the benefit of having total access to the Alfheim technology base (anything Tion, Eagan, 8th, etcetera posted). At the same time however, while starting at "peace" with the other Alfr successors and neighbors, the Grand Imperium must be careful as overt aggression against Imperial Alfheim may incur Japanese intervention - although, this is not assured by any means. However due to the ACW, it will likely take 1-2 years to rebuild the ability to produce more.
The Grand Imperium of Europa represents a strong, mid-level claim in a precarious yet flexible geopolitical starting position.

The Imperial Protectorate of the Italian Social Republic

• DETAILS
• Head of State: Player Choice
  • Other Important Characters (meta control)
  • None - Player freedom available
• Population: 94,964,006
• Claim Starting Allotments (IE. Special Starting Scenario)
  • Begins under the protection of the NPC "Imperial Alfheimr"

Things to Consider
The Imperial Protectorate of the Italian Social Republic begins in the unique position of being forgotten in large part by its recent conquerors, and having seen rebuilding investment under the deceased Aesir. The claim ostensibly has multiple factions but players must be cautious as the wrong move to quickly might see the gaze of Imperial Alfheimr or possibly the Grand Imperium of Europa (among other claims) turn towards either putting down a rebellion or imperial conquest.
The Imperial Protectorate of the Italian Social Republic has access to all Alfheim technology, and thanks to the rebuilding investment - has the ability to produce all of it.

The Republic of New Álfheimr

• DETAILS
• Head of State: Steven Armstrong
  • Other Important Characters (meta control)
  • Kyrr von Lohengrin (Former Foreign Affairs Minister under Dederick)
  • Ingel Faedryk (Former Reichsfuhrer-SS under Dederick)
  • Svipul von Lohengrin (Former Imperial Spymaster under Dederick)
• Population: 143,863,000
• Claim Starting Allotments (IE. Special Starting Scenario)
  • Has access to large portions of in-production Alfheimr military equipment (refer to Tion's posts) - Continental European in-production units largely destroyed unless in NPC territories.
  • Has a secret alliance with certain NPC claims (informed to the player)

Things to Consider
The Republic of New Álfheimr while a democracy, still considers itself the true successor to Dederick von Lohengrin, and has the geographic, military, and economic position to be immediately independent should its cards be played correctly. They are the strongest military of the three main successors, and similarly have a strong geopolitical starting position, alongside a network of secret diplomatic alliances.
The RNA is in a unique position to quickly assert itself as an independent state, having inherited the same technology base as the Grand Imperium - but in greater existing asset quantities. The RNA also has a large portion of the former GAE's "android" soldiers - making for a lethal and incredibly loyal army right out of the gates.

ALFHEIM CLAIMS MILITARY SPLIT

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I was gonna say summer programs, but some of the programs I applied for go till may of 2025 for me <3
abt me Race: African American GPA: 3.94 UW 4.3 W PSAT: 1030 ECS: Key Club Exec Board, ASB, Yearbook, NHS, Fashion Club Tres, Student Tutor
Thrive Scholars:waitlisted rejected
Thrive Academies: accepted (didn't apply)
Princeton Summer Journalism Program: semifinalist withdrew
USC Bovard Scholars: accepted and committed!
Matriculate: accepted and doing!
ScholarMatch: accepted?
College for All Cohort V: accepted and doing!
TeenSHARP Strivers Program: semifinalist waiting
Social Impact Fellowship: semifinalist never replied to me...
Questbridge College Prep Scholars: rejected boo
these programs don't determine getting into the best school in the world, there's so much more to the process! i really don't know how I got far in various of the things cuz I rlly don't think my stats are that good, but ya, that's all! apply for fly ins guys..

URL: https://www.jstor.org/stable/27254347

(Sorry this will be long also sorry for the typos it’s really late while I’m typing this)
Long time lurker in this subreddit as I was hoping to get inspired by some of the users stories though the inspiration lasted only a few minutes. What I’m hoping to get out of this post is some guidance or a wake up call as I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom with no upward motion. I know I need to be better than this and I want to be better than this.
I’m a 26 year old African American male , still lives at home with his parents , no real job at the moment (currently applying) and I feel like all my life I have been persevering,inconsistent , and always playing catch up. But this officially feels like my last chance to lock in and stop messing around with my life. I’m currently on academic suspension from my 3rd year of a doctorate of pharmacy program and in the appeal process to get reinstated back into the program I also got my pharmacist intern license suspended until I get reinstated to school again which is kind of hindering me from getting a job in a pharmacy. I’m trying to take the steps to make myself ready to step back into school and get my act together though I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START!!! I have not told my friends or family about it because I feel like I’ve failed myself and them. I take full responsibility for this. however, the factors leading to this situation date back to 2020. My life felt like I was on the right trajectory I had a great physical and mental health relationship with myself, great connections with family and friends,I had investments, I was planning financially for the future ,I had my own business as a strength and conditioning specialist and worked at a physical therapy facility as an assistant I graduated college with a double major in public health and kinesiology with an emphasis in clinical movement i took the mcat didn’t do too well so I applied out of the country for med school was doing well for the first semester though I began having trouble with my significant other and felt as though we were drifting apart and the situation I felt we were all in at the time was a bit much and it took a toll on me academically and in the relationship trying to balance a fun romantic life with a medical program that I was supposed to dedicate 4-8 years of my life to ultimately lead to me getting dismissed from med school due to not passing to classes . Following this news my ex got a job out of state and moved while I was trying to find a new career shift or professional degree to obtain I immediately landed two pharmacy school interviews about a month after applying and got accepted to one of the schools this career choice was never in my cards as I’ve always wanted to have a doctorate degree and work on that level. Few weeks after that me and my ex had separated officially and it took a bigger toll on me than expected and manifested in the worst ways possible for me . Instead of seeking therapy I copped in other ways. It impacted me financially I bought a brand new Mercedes that took most of my money I was impatient with my investments and sold majority of my bitcoin thinking it wouldn’t go up again (L move) my credit score went from 750+ to low 500’s by placing myself into 15k credit card debt paying for alcohol & weed (exponentially more than what I had before), clothes , and random vacations and dates with women from hinge and tinder all on top of student loans for grad school. I developed a sex addiction and added over 100 bodies in a span of 2 years . Had a panic attack that put me in the ER . All while dragging my way through pharmacy school (I’m more than capable of understanding and implementing the material into practice my study habits and focus were always elsewhere). Not to mention I think I have a social media addiction and my procrastination and laziness has led me to feel more anxious and depressed. My physical fitness and diet has suffered thought not entirely that’s pretty much the only positive habit I have since 2020. I just feel like my life is leading to a path of no return and I’ll be homeless one day. I need to turn things around I can’t always think I’ll catch up I have to get ahead and stay ahead. I want to be person that makes myself proud and inspire other young African American men or anyone who’s had odds stacked against them. How do I turn this around?

As I look deeply into my DNA make up it seems that my ancestors hail from both I am a African-American by the way

As I look deeply into my DNA make up it seems that my ancestors hail from both I am a African-American by the way

As I look deeply into my DNA make up it seems that my ancestors hail from both I am a African-American by the way

Demographics: African American Male, first gen. 3.0 gpa/33 act (school doesn’t do rankings)
Cofounder of coding/stem related startup releasing this summer (introduced to my local university)
Internship at Chase Bank over the summer (With letter of rec)
Extracurriculars: Vp of Multi inclusion Club (best buddies) Cofounder of my schools Calisthenic club (first one started in the school district) 3 year sports editor for school publication (featuring additional live coverage on Division 1 football and basketball) Journalism portfolio page also created 4 year member Bpa member 2 years Varsity Football 4 years soccer (2 years varsity)
Volunteering: Salvation army (food drives)/ nonprofit organization that distributes home furnished goods for homeless and in need.
Essays yet to be drafted.
Also forgot to mention my older sister attends Northwestern so legacy connection there.
Aims: t-40 Northwestern ED, Babson, BC, Tufts, Nova, Rutgers to name a few.
Open to all feedback on things to improve/ecs to really really focus on to make my app stand out more. Also open to essay suggestions!

Be on the lookout for the guards there specifically the tall African American mmanager. Very close minded and homophobic. He looks everywhere except your face when talking to you. He is the one with no beard. He lies and doesn't care about the purpose for what the shelter was created. Be on the lookout he's a time bomb and plays the race game. Which in my opinion is ignorance.
UPDATE I HAVE A KIDNEY INFECTION AND I HAVE TO GO TO THE RESTROOM EVERY 10 OR 15 MINUTES THIS MANAGER AND SOME STAFF INFORMED ME I CAN'T GO TO THE RESTROOM. I HAD TO GO ON MYSELF AND THEY HAD ME GET HUMILIATED. I'M IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM AT THE MOMENT WITH SEVERE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE AND RECOVERING FROM HAVING A MAJOR ANXIETY ATTACK. DO YOU THINK MONEY FROM THE CITY SHOULD BE SPENT ON SHELTERS THAT BELITTLE THE HOMELESS COMMUNITY THAT ARE TRYING TO GET ON THEIR FEET. I DON'T DRINK OR DO DRUGS. IT'S VERY UNFAIR AND I THINK WE SHOULD ALL DO OUR PARTS AND LET OUR ELECTED OFFICIALS BE AWARE OF THE SITUATIONS THAT OCCUR AT SOME OF THE SHELTERS IN OUR CITIES. THE SHELTER IS LOCATED IN THE CITY OF SANTA ANA NEAR WARNER AVE AND YALE STREET.

I’m (relatively) new to the city and am making an effort to experience and explore as many neighborhoods as I can. I’ve read a lot about Bronzeville being a historic neighborhood and the center of African American culture in Chicago, but I don’t have a good sense of the neighborhood’s current character or what exactly I should seek out.
I’m wondering if anyone has any tips or advice for seeing the highlights of Bronzeville? That includes any historic sites, homes, parks, monuments, etc. Are any of the homes available to tour, and are they worth it? How walkable is the area? Is it generally safe? I’d also love some restaurant recommendations. Thanks!

26 female, 200 pounds, 5 months postpartum, diagnosed hypertension, vape, no alcohol.
Currently taking: Labetelol 100mg twice daily, and a water pill (cannot think of name and have a sleeping baby)
So since about 8 weeks gestation I started itching.I have been itching since. It’s mostly at night, and it’s worse on my feet. My other symptoms are dizziness, runny nose, sneezing, headache, brain fog, faintness, feeling my heartbeat, skin crawling, blackness creeping at corner of eyes, shaking, joint pain that comes and goes, frequent UTI, heightened anxiety, overall weakness in joints/muscles.
I have cut out detergent with dyes and fragrance, I have took my BP medicine and water pills, I’ve cut down salt intake, I shower regularly, I’m getting enough sleep when I’m not itching. However I am still ill feeling. I am going to the hospital to take more blood work done as my thyroid hormone is low. However I’ve been going to the clinic over these symptoms for almost 10 months and I cannot live like this anymore as well as my insurance runs out soon. I care for a baby primarily all day feeling like I might faint, and itchy constantly at night causing a loss of sleep sometimes.
I recently had blood work done: (I had my gallbladder removed 2 months ago but all of these symptoms were present before.)
White Blood Count 7.53 x10^3/uL (3.98-10.04)
Red Blood Count 4.60 x10^6/uL (3.93-5.22)
Hemoglobin 12.6 g/dL (11.8-15.3)
Hematocrit 39.2 % (36.9-46.9)
Mean Corpuscular Volume 85.2 fL (79.4-94.8)
Mean Corpuscular Hemoglobin 27.4 pg (25.6-32.2)
Mean Corpuscular Hemoglobin Concent 32.1 g/dL (32.2-35.5) Low
RDW Standard Deviation 43.7 fL (36.4-46.3)
RDW Coefficient of Variation 13.9 % (11.7-14.4)
Platelet Count 417 x10^3/uL (182-369) High
Mean Platelet Volume 9.3 fL (9.4-12.3) Low
Neutrophils (%) (Auto) 65.1 % (34.0-71.1)
Lymphocytes (%) (Auto) 24.6 % (19.3-51.7)
Monocytes (%) (Auto) 8.8 % (4.7-12.5)
Eosinophils (%) (Auto) 1.1 % (0.7-5.8)
Basophils (%) (Auto) 0.3 % (0.1-1.2)
Neutrophils # (Auto) 4.91 x10^3/uL (1.56-6.13)
Lymphocytes # (Auto) 1.85 x10^3/uL (1.18-3.74)
Monocytes # (Auto) 0.66 x10^3/uL (0.24-0.86)
Eosinophils # (Auto) 0.08 x10^3/uL (0.04-0.36)
Basophils # (Auto) 0.02 x10^3/uL (0.01-0.08)
Absolute Immature Granulocyte (auto 0.0100 X10^3/uL (0-0.0310)
Nucleated Red Blood Cells % (auto) 0.0 /100 WBC (0-0.2)
Immature/Total Granulocytes (auto) 0.100 % (0-0.429)
Nucleated Red Blood Cells # 0.000 x10^3/uL (0-0.012)
Sodium Level 140 mmol/L (136-145)
Potassium Level 4.1 mmol/L (3.5-5.1)
Chloride Level 104 mmol/L (98-107)
Carbon Dioxide Level 28.4 mmol/L (21.0-32)
Anion Gap 7.6 mmol/L (5.0-15.0)
Blood Urea Nitrogen 17 mg/dL (7.0-18.0)
Creatinine 0.51 mg/dL (0.55-1.02) Low
Estimat Glomerular Filtration Rate > 60.0
Estimated GFR (African American) > 60.0 BUN/Creatinine Ratio 33.3 Ratio (6.0-20.0) High
Glucose Level 94 mg/dL (70-99)
Hemoglobin A1c 5.6 % (0-5.6)
Estimated Average Glucose (eAG) 114 mg/dL (70-99) High
Calcium Level 9.2 mg/dL (8.5-10.1)
Magnesium Level 1.9 mg/dL
Total Bilirubin 0.46 mg/dL
Aspartate Amino Transf (AST/SGOT) 105 U/L High
Alanine Aminotransferase 151 U/L High
Alkaline Phosphatase 331 U/L High
Total Protein 7.5g/dL
Albumin 3.4 g/dL
Albumin/Globulin Ratio 0.8 Ratio Low
Triglycerides Level 47mg/dL
Cholesterol Level 157 mg/dL
LDL Cholesterol, Calculated 91 mg/dL
VLDL Cholesterol 9 mg/dL
HDL Cholesterol 57 mg/dL
Cholesterol/HDL Ratio 3 Ratio Low
Vitamin B12 Level 496 pg/mL
25-Hydroxy Vitamin D Total 14.5 ng/mL Low
Thyroid Stimulating Hormone (TSH) < 0.007 mIU/ Low Urine Color Yellow
Urine Clarity Hazy Abnormal Urine pH 6.0
Urine Specific Gravity > 1.030 High
Urine Protein 1+ Abnormal
Urine Glucose (UA) Negative mg/dL
Urine Ketones Negative
Urine Blood Negative
Urine Nitrite Negative
Urine Bilirubin Negative
Urine Urobilinogen Normal mg/dL
Urine Leukocyte Esterase 1+ Abnormal
Urine RBC None seen grad/HPF
Urine WBC 6-10 grad/HPF Abnormal
Urine Squamous Epithelial Cells 1+ grad/HPF (None/1+)
Urine Bacteria 1+

A lot of people consider us black but then there’s another camp (usually American) who think only Africans are black. What do you guys think?

I am currently writing a Mafia novel. The premise of my book is how the American Cartel will counter the marginalization of Non-White men by the European Mafias/Mobs.
Here are the names of the characters-

1. Mgengombi Ng’eti (African American male)
   
2. Chikondi Goma (African American male)
   
3. Juma Mohammad (African American male)
   
4. Sambo Kopo (African American male)
   
5. Takeshi Goda (Japanese American male)
   
6. Malachi Cohen (Jewish American male)
   
7. Monty Singh (Indian American male)
   
8. Abdul Kumar (Mestizo American male)
   
9. Illarion Kuzmin (Russian/White male)
   
10. Adrik Vlasov (Russian/White male)
    
11. Shula Shiloh (Jewish American female)
    
12. Nakata Ori (Japanese American female)
    
13. Annabelle McGuire (Mixed White American female)
    
14. Binta Mboob (African American male)
    
15. Kufara Chigwedere (African American female)
    
16. Farai Bulawayo (African American female)
    
17. Priyanka Iyer (Indian American female)
    
18. Claudia Khatun Santos (Mestizo American female)
    

So the name of my characters sound cool?

If disguised under a preposterous or “absurd” appearance, [a UFO’s] effects would be undetected for a long time. I believe this could be a key to the confrontation with UFOs. ~Jacques Vallee

In 1954 the sociologist Gordon Allport published a book called The Nature of Prejudice. In it, he and some colleagues elucidated a link between increasing Intergroup Contact and reducing Racial Prejudice. At the time this was breakthrough research; repeated contact between members of the “in” and “out” group reduces stigma toward the “out” group.
In 1954 this could be easily illustrated by the attitudes of the public-at-large toward racial minorities over the preceding 100 years – shifting attitudes toward slaves and their descendants, as well as the previous 10 years – attitudes toward Japanese-Americans over the course of WWII.
As it turns out one of the most effective ways at reducing prejudice is “equal status contact between majority and minority groups in the pursuit of common goals.”
For African slaves, their descendants, Japanese-Americans, and countless others across history, this contact has been stained with blood and tears. But contact it was nonetheless, and our stigma toward these “out” groups declined overtime as they became part of the “in” group. They became ‘American’ and their “out” group identities and goals have become, and are becoming, less stigmatized.
Today, I believe we are watching this dissolution of stigma play out en masse on the world stage. The funny thing is that this time, all of humanity is part of a microcosmic “out” group and the aliens in their UFOs are part of the macrocosmic “in” group trying to get us to adopt their goals. What then, is so unsettling about humanity that they take such a slow-going route of stigma dissolution? Why don’t they just introduce themselves as equal status individuals?
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Attitude Rebound and Stigma
A few weeks ago I made the same post in both UFOs and Aliens. The post contained what I thought to be a reasonable, logical hypothesis that could easily explain away all paranormal phenomena… Yes, all paranormal phenomena. The post got about as much attention in each subreddit, however the reactions to its content was drastically different on each subreddit.
I will admit that I was being a little overzealous in my efforts to “raise the consciousness of humanity” and was proselytizing to some folks in the comments. My B 🙇🏻. What I found very very interesting, however, was how commenters on UFOs were much more critical and reductive than commenters on Aliens, who seemed more open to my zany hypothesis and its possibilities.
Now, I am not a physicist. I can barely remember the unit circle. I got a D in calculus at university. That is why/when I decided to get a liberal education rather than a scientific one. Having said that, I am very passionate about science and the scientific method. I am a nurse by trade, and for twelve hours a day, three days a week, according to my profession, I conduct three to five “n of 1” studies and report the results of these studies to a medical doctor. My job is to experiment on human beings and document outcomes.
What I observed when I made those posts was that one community was receptive and the other was hostile. I joined both UFOs and Aliens so that I could keep up to date on the latest disclosure news. I have noticed in my time browsing these subreddits that UFOs tends to request hard, ‘scientific’ data from posters, whereas Aliens seems to have more interest in the subjective experience of posters. Of course there is a lot of overlap given the content of these subreddits.
This is all just to say that the same message may be received differently, and it’s content interpreted differently, even by the same/overlapping populations, due to the stigma some individuals harbor. So I think it prudent that we introspect and hold an awareness of our own stigmas and biases, understanding they may be seated deep in our unconscious mind. We should reconsider the things we find absurd, for in the absurdity there may be a powerful lesson.
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Thank you to those who upvoted/downvoted and commented. Thank you for participating in this community. Thank you for being unwitting participants in this accidental study, and I will leave you with this quote from Gordon Allport:

It is here that we encounter the central theme of existentialism: to live is to suffer, to survive is to find meaning in the suffering. If there is a purpose in life at all, there must be a purpose in suffering and in dying. But no man can tell another what this purpose is. Each must find out for himself, and must accept the responsibility that his answer prescribes.

so next year is sophomore year for me in high-school, freshman year was fine but i feel like I wasn't able to really find anyone with the same interests as me. don't get me wrong, I met some really cool people that id consider my friends, but most of them have drastically different interests. for perspective, im an african american male and a computer geek (won a programming competition) it's been such a struggle, hell atp impossible for me to find others with the same interest bro. from what I've found out, apparently there might actually be barely anyone into it. my school has like a couple thousand kids with a lot being freshman so it was pretty disheartening hearing that. i have found a few people that are lightly into it, but not like i am. next year I'm taking a cybersecurity course and im not just doing it for the sake of finding people ofc, but because I want to and am genuinely interested in it. i just wonder if there's anyone else that's in my shoes that went through a similar or same situation as me and what they did in particular, because it's rough out here man