Request letter for vacation: school orientation

If you are interested in this opportunity, please send me a private message. I am willing to provide a detailed self-introduction letter, along with my high school transcript, TOEFL scores, and the list of U.S. universities I applied to last year. My goal is to apply for and receive full scholarships from top private universities, with a focus on liberal arts colleges ranked in the top 10-50. I plan to apply to Ivy League schools, Dartmouth College, Amherst College, and Bowdoin College.
To achieve this dream, I am fully committed. I will diligently prepare for the SAT, enhance my extracurricular activities, meticulously write my essays, and thoroughly research my target schools with my dedication and your guidance, I can realize my dream and embark on a bright new future.
I sincerely look forward to your help and support.

Probably a year ago i met a guy, we hit it really well and we had something. We did not kiss or hold hands but we would chat for along time and i kinda liked him. I knew him because friends of my at school knew him. But when i kinda grew apart from the friends at school i also lost contact with him. But now some different friends of mine got close with new friends that knew this guy. Then one friend of mine hit it really well with him. I asked her a bunch of times of they had something but she kept denying it. We had a vacation break and when i came back from school everbody is acting different. I feel like they are hiding something but i dont understand why. I think the guy and my friends kissed or are even daiting but i dont understand why everybody is lying to me.

If you are interested in this opportunity, please send me a private message. I am willing to provide a detailed self-introduction letter, along with my high school transcript, TOEFL scores, and the list of U.S. universities I applied to last year. My goal is to apply for and receive full scholarships from top private universities, with a focus on liberal arts colleges ranked in the top 10-50. I plan to apply to Ivy League schools, Dartmouth College, Amherst College, and Bowdoin College.
To achieve this dream, I am fully committed. I will diligently prepare for the SAT, enhance my extracurricular activities, meticulously write my essays, and thoroughly research my target schools with my dedication and your guidance, I can realize my dream and embark on a bright new future.
I sincerely look forward to your help and support.

School is situated in England. Names changed for protection. Incident happened yesterday.
Our child 6yo (Julie) was attacked by another 6yo (Sam) in school who used a rock they found on the playground to hit Julie on the head.
The attack split Julie’s head open and an ambulance was rang to the school before the school then rang us to inform us.
There was a lot of blood and our child was deeply traumatised. This is not the first time that Sam has hurt Julie. We reported this at a parents evening that Sam had punched Julie and also thrown a toy car at her. We’d always been told by the school that they would handle it.
At the hospital, Julie needed a neurological exam as well as her head needed to be glued back together. The hospital staff expressed disbelief at a child doing this.
We are reporting this incident to the police to start a paper trial (we understand due to age he does not have criminal responsibility) however, we are wondering where we might stand for suing for the school. We have contacted the school to request either constant 1:1 supervision of Sam (which they do not have the resources to do) or to consider moving him to another school that can best meet his needs. We have no plans to move Julie from the school but are unsure how the school would react to us if we did sue. Any advice/support would be greatly appreciated.

My husband’s behaviour takes a 180 degree turn when his parents/family come and stay with us compare to when my parents come and stay with us. We have completed 7 yr of marriage and recently had a baby boy last year (before marriage we dated for 5 yr, that time he never showed any signs that he would turned out to be this after marriage) When his parents are here along with his sister and his Nani (they all come together and in total 4 ppl come and stay with us for months) he sits in their room or with the them all the time (after work and on weekends), he is also proactively making travel plans and weekend plans, he is smiling and laughing all the times. He is an early sleeper and generally have his dinner at 7:30-8 but since his family has come he eats dinner as late as 9-9:30 and always with his family. Now compare this with my parents,he used to hardly spend any time with them and used to only sit in his room and used to only come out for dinner (15-20 min) and would go back in his room, on weekends he would only come out of his room for 30 min in the entire day that too for breakfast or dinner, otherwise he would take our son (infant) with him in our room and won’t interact with my parents at all. No weekends plans or anything, he would say that he only gets weekend and would like to relax and take rest. Always eat dinner at 7:30-8Pm and go back in his room to sleep. Hardly smile or laugh. When my parents came for the first time after 2 weeks he asked me when will they go back same thing happened when they came again. My behaviour is neutral with his parents/family, I do not sit in my room all the time like he used to do, I also try to interact with them and try to make them comfortable unlike my husband. But I feel bad for my parents as they always feel so out of the place whenever they would come visit us, my brother live in US and my parents are both retired and live alone in Indore whereas my in-laws live in delhi and have all their relatives living in the same society (all their relatives live in the same society at a distance of 500m), they have an amazing social life in delhi. After our marriage he took 2 years (that too after I told him number of times to visit my parents) to finally go and visit my home, and during the same time (2yr) I would have visited my in-laws some 10-12 times. I also used to send cake + flowers to my in-laws/family members on their birthday’s/anniversary/mother day/father day, and he won’t even talk to my parents on his own ( I had to dial from my phone and make him speak to them on special occasions). On his own he had never called them ever. Also, he would hardly talk to my only brother (living in US) not even on special occasion, sometime when I request him to atleast wish him on his bday/anniversary he would do while I am talking but that to would cut short the conversation. Whereas I used to dial in my MIL every 15 days and talk to her normally. I thought maybe be if I do all this he might change, but it didn’t work out. I have spoken to him about my concerns in 2019 (when he had not visited my home even once) his response was you also don’t go to my place, you also don’t talk to my family, you do what you like. When I followed his advice and tried doing this for sometime my relationship with my husband and his family became sour. Since then I have tried to remain neutral/cordial with my in-laws (stopped doing Adarsh bahu things like making them feel extra special and all) but also not exactly behave like my husband. Many ppl will think that my husband might be an introvert but when it is about his side of the family he is very interactive and family oriented. I have also told this to my MIL but I don’t think she has tried a lot from her end, my husband is extremely close to his parents, if they want they can change him but even after telling this to my MIL I have not seen him changing. Why is the society partial when it comes to girl family and boy family. Why is it only a girl’s responsibility to adapt to her husband’s family. I hate this hypocrisy of our society, I have spoken to my husband about this but he would not change. I have also spoken to my parents about this, they also tell me to never fight with my husband on this issue as per them ‘ladke aise hi hote hai, koi baat nahi humein bura nahi lagta’ but I don’t like this and this affects me a lot. I also do not want this issue affecting our marriage but it does affect us and our marriage all the time.

I’ll try to make this as concise as possible.
So I’ve started seeing my current boyfriend about 2 years ago. I am Christian and he is Muslim but we are both not religious. His family isn’t very religions and his sibling is married to a Christian and they’re happy and all is well.
My family, on the other hand, is very religious and when I announced that I’m seeing someone but he’s not Christian, they immediately told me to break it off before it gets harder to later. I have then been trying to speak to them and convince them that this is my choice and I’m not very religious but they keep saying that they see into the future and this won’t end well because his family is of a different background in terms of religion.
My sisters were also supporting me in the beginning but only when I mentioned that he might be able to convert (which is not the case anymore because converting has serious consequences that him or his family don’t want to go through) and when they found out he won’t convert anymore, they stopped supporting. We all live fairly close to one another so I see them and my nephews and niece a lot but I’m getting tired of seeing them and acting like everything is okay.
I’ve spoken to my mom and dad countless times, explaining to them how I’m not going to let go of my Christianity, how I will baptize my kids, we can also try to get something called a dispensation letter from a bishop that will allow this, I will introduce my kids to Christianity and they still won’t budge. I also clarified that even if I am to marry someone Christian, I will choose someone who’s not as religious and I won’t be taking my kids to Sunday school or forcing them to have the same level of faith that I or their grandparents have. They are also worried that when my kids mingle with my sister’s kids, that would be an issue.
They’ve also told me I must bear the consequences if I choose to take this path because I’m the one leaving theiChristianity’s path by my own will and I have to bear the consequences of them not meeting him, not attending my wedding, not meeting his family, not mingling with us at gatherings. My father also told me that they love me and because they love me they’re doing this to avoid the inevitable future I will be facing and that i should wake up and see that I’m doing is wrong and come back to the right path.
This has gone on for too long and it’s affecting me mentally and physically as I have gained a lot of weight emotional eating. My boyfriend’s family welcomes me with open arms and I see them regularly but not all of them know the issues we’re facing with my family.
TDLR: it’s getting tiring to do everyday tasks and act like everything is okay when it’s not. It’s also exhausting to be made to feel that I’m doing something wrong and throwing away my values and that it’s my fault if they stop mingling with me.

I’ve been living in Gurgaon for a few years now. Had a good circle of friends when I was a teen in high school. But it has been 6 years now since I have graduated from high school. And with COIVD and all. I feel like my social skills have gotten rusty. Currently I’m preparing for an exam which will hopefully in the future get me a high paying job. And due to this, spend most of my time at home. I have been going to the gym for the past few months to work on my physique. And was hoping to join swimming lessons soon. But even at gym and these types of locations it often feels like people aren’t willing to socialise they just want to mind their own business. They appear crude and closed. And any attempt to socialise is shut down or brushed off.
I don’t even use Instagram, Snapchat and other social media apps designed to meet and converse with people since I’ve noticed I spend an exuberant amount of time on them and also seeing other people succeed and get ahead in life (even though it’s only either fake or selected data sharing) gives me insecurity. I feel fine when I’m off these platforms. But these platforms only make my mood worse and mess with my emotions. I can’t seem to control my usage. It’s either 4+ hours or nothing.
Due to a lack of any social media presence for 5 straight years, I’ve lost contact with any and all friends from high school, tuitions and other places.
The only one friend that I currently have who lives in my colony recommended me to get on these apps and download Discord, Bumble as well. And start messaging people over there. Text random people. Since that is how he made his current girlfriend and made dozens of friends from the opposite gender. His strategy was send Hi! to as many strangers as possible on Instagram. And then if anyone replies. Continue the conversation. And if not, then simply unsend the message. It’s a solid strategy I guess for someone who’s Vella and Berozgar and has a baap ka business. I have asked my friend to introduce me to his friends. But he keeps saying, akele nahi. If I also brought another friend. Then he might do it. Which is a valid request.
Is this truly the only method to meet people and make friends nowadays? I guess I can sort of understand how the veil of the Internet hides an individual and prevents them from danger and gives the illusion of safety. Also having a social media profile acts as a filter. Similar to how some corporate chooses individuals based on LinkedIn profiles. A good aesthetic profile passes the filter of many companies.
I guess yeah, how do you guys make new friends in your early to mid 20s? Is it impossible to do so without social media? I feel like my brain is starting to fry by being alone for so long. And I fear the longer I stay like this the worse the my health would get.
PS. I know this sub likes commenting a lot of jokes. But I’d appreciate if the comments only stick to giving genuine helpful advices.

I don't know if it's just me but Nicole completely ignores any kind of negativity even if it's her own emotions.
"Not to be a negative nelly but school has been draining": I think it's kinda weird to phrase it like this cause you're gonna call yourself a "negative nelly" for saying school is draining?? Does this girl never express her feelings??? It'ss normal to say it's draining CAUSE IT IS! But I feel like to Nicole she always thinks she can't express any negative feelings cause "everything happens for a reason" and "it's God's plan" but it's so hard to relate to her when she never talks anything real about mental health.
Like I feel like to her she always ignores it and tries to lighten the situation for mental health but like does she not know she's allowed to express negative feelings? Does she just bottle everything up and expect everything to go well?
Because she does this, I've always felt something off in her videos. I've never been able to put my finger on it but I feel like something is off. Like she's not being real/not saying something important. I guess you could say maybe it's because her videos are surface level but I just feel like there's something wrong.
I know her whole thing is spreading positivity but would it kill her to be realistic about mental health? Like it's ok to say school is draining when it literally is. She does have it easier by only having 5 hours of school when some people in certain countries literally eat dinner at school but still.
It just annoys me when she pretends like negative emotions aren't a thing and she just ignores everything bad like sometimes we have to acknowledge it for it to work out. Like if you have depression you have to treat it and can't just ignore it. Sure she probably doesn't have depression or any mental health illnesses but her videos just feel surface level because I feel like she isn't telling her viewers something. I dont expect her to be 100% honest with her viewers but i just feel like there is something missing.
Sure sometimes she talks about herself crying but most of the time it's because of math. Which by the way posting pictures or videos of yourself crying is a bit weird but whatever. She said she likes doing it...
It just bothers me at how much Nicole ignores any kind of negative emotions of her own because she feels like she has to be grateful for her life which I get but you can STILL express negative feelings because bottling them up won't do you any good in the future. Besides, she's the one who built her life and gave her parents a more luxurious lifestyle so if anything her parents should feel a little grateful to Nicole LMAO. I know her parents did a lot but Nicole gave them a new house, luxury handbags, a renovated pool, a shit ton of vacations, Linda literally doesn't even have to work because Nicole makes enough.

We just became self managed and the real estate attorney on the first home sale did not give us the buyers info like name, email, phone, even though we requested it twice. Is that typical? Also below is a copy of our estoppel letter. Any recommendations on how to insure that lawyers actually print out the Bylaws/CCRs/AOI and give it to buyer at closing. I know they forget sometimes because when I bought my house 24 years ago, they did not have them for me and dumb attorney advised me to sign without reading them. I spent 2 hours reading every other document and didnt' understand what an HOA was when I was 22 years old. . Should we FAX over 32 pages or spend $7 to mail over the documents? I really do not trust them to get it right. Should we withhold the letter until we get buyer info? Afterall the buyer is charged a fee as well so technically we do need their info.
May 10, 2024
RE: Closing Letter & Request for Buyers information.
Thank you for your inquiry. Please give us the buyers name, email and phone number so that we can easily send them future HOA notifications. Below is the closing statement you requested:
Subject Property Address: , Charlotte, NC 28xxx
Association’s Fiscal Year: Jan 1st to Dec 31st.
Association Dues:$90 annually
Next Installment Due Date: August 31st 2024
Next Installment Considered Late: Sept 15, 2024
Late Fees: $20/month Interest on Past Due Amounts:0
Special Assessments Currently Payable: NONE
Current Past Due Amount: as of the date of this letter
Dues are Paid:Annually
Closing Doc Fee due at closing$150 for seller and $100 for the buyer. Total of $250 you can pay online here: xxxxxxx or mail a check to the HOA
Any Legal issuesNone
Any ARC, violations or other issuesnone
Respectfully Submitted,
xxxxxxxxxxxxx
President xxxxxxxxxxxx Homeowners Association Inc.
Please print out these important documents below and give to the buyer at closing:
weblink of docs.

This is a PSA
I made a post about my Star Man Chun-Li MS-008. Many people have seen a TikTok that has gone a bit viral of the Chun-Li figure. Poster doesn't show the nude body bit claims it has "all the details" commenter are claiming this as well. I believe this is a disinformation campaign as all figures produced in 2024 have been forced to censor all products. This involved altering all molds and removing anatomically correct features(nipples/vagina). My figure is completely censored, and I have confirmed with several others who have the figure. Due to this tiktok video, MANY people were asking me for photos, thinking that the figure has all the details despite my saying otherwise. I removed my post because it was just getting silly with the requests. Long story short, Chun-Li was meant to be anatomically correct, but Star Man/VeryCool were forced to censor it.
I did some research and found out why this happened. I believe this is why the Chunli figure was so delayed because it and every other figure produced this year had to have their molds censored...
"Thanks a lot for contacting us. Yeah, unfortunately, this is true.
So it started from a mom that caught [her] pupil son playing with a very sexy little figurine (not 1/6 action figures in realistic style, it's one of those small anime character statues, with very tempting body details and almost no clothes I suppose), and she got so concerned to have to call the journalists to expose this as a "scandal" of the toy industry trying to poison an innocent child. So, this went up on television and aroused some debates. Government visited lots of toy factories, and require them to make sure they future products comply with the policies related to children.
It does not really matter whether the product says "only for adults" on the packaging. As long as it could be exposed to a child as a "toy", it needs to meet the regulations. It's a grey area for some of the body products in 1/6 scale, but most factories might choose to play safe. It's not an easy decision to make for them I'm sure but as a big company they need to think in the long term.
Most of the bodies we stock now are the new version, btw." -source Giantoy
"The media previously exposed the sale of pirated adult pvc figures in some shops outside schools and then the government sent law enforcement officers to inspect all local toy factories in Dongguan. Chinese law doesn't allow the sale of pornographic products but allow the adult products. Now the problem is those adult figures/models that cannot be used to facilitate sexual pleasure are not clearly classified as adult products. So now they temporarily remove the 'private details' to avoid legal risks maybe. On the cootrary, the factories that produces adult pvc figures did not change the mold and their selling agents just temporarily no longer providing orders for pre-orders of audlt pvc figures in China. Anyway, it just a temporary solution during the special period I guess. Of course, you can send an email to consult them directly." -source BBICN forum

So I am close to finishing my assiocates paralegal program and my A.A. All I need is my internship, which I'm having trouble finding. All the summer internships that were offered on handshake and other sites that my program director gave are filled or dont meet my requirements. I missed out on submitting my resume due to a competition and family issues. I want to start cold calling firms or hand-out my resume to firms and ask if they are looking for interns, I feel that this would paint me in a negative light and seen as pushy.
Also, some more information
I am currently working part-time as a receptionist at a car dealership and would like to continue working as I do my internship. Got to pay rent and bills somehow
My program director is pretty hands-off and is new to the position. She really hasn't been helpful in advising students beyond giving out the websites and resume/cover letter help.
I haven't seen any posting on handshake or other websites for fall internships
I plan on talking with my schools career success guy, but I'm unsure if he is available in the summertime.
Internship requirements

1. I need 150 hours
   
2. I can only work at a max of 10-15 hours a week. ( This is my program directors suggestion, and also, I would be working part-time and having an 11 credit course load)
   
3. Needs to be a legal internship within a legal setting
   

My main question is, what's the best strategy to finding an internship? And how do I go about finding one?

Whatsapp at 21:05 from a teacher, the night before their class, "For the class tomorrow, can you please talk about the media in the USA? The main broadcasters and especially the news media. Also magazines and the "yellow press." Also about how people get news from social media etc. Thanks!"
I don't want to be negative, but just for awareness as you plan for next year: know that the "work" part of the experience is sometimes exasperating, and might take up more brain space than you'd like. Even if you don't deal with stuff like this teacher - and I have 6-8 more - be aware that "only" working half days, i.e. talking for four or five hours in back-to-back classes, is exhausting (at least to me, a non-teacher).
My school requires me to independently teach during my entire 15 hours/week, and the teachers routinely make requests like this one. For the last several weeks they've started leaving me alone in the classroom, which isn't allowed. The school director doesn't care ("you're the only one who has complained") and talking to the asesoría only caused me more problems. I know a previous aux had similar issues, and probably many others before us. I like the students, and I like the teachers even when their behavior exasperates me. It is what it is.
I'm glad I had this opportunity. It was worth it to live in Spain! Just wanted to say, don't assume you'll be jetting around Europe all the time without a care in the world. Factoring in the extra prep time, down time between classes, and a long commute (my own choice), school took up a solid 30 hours a week in my case. Prepare yourself to work, and then be pleasantly surprised if your school doesn't require much.

I am father of a six year old girl who refuses to cooperate in the morning no matter what we try. She will take forever to get out of bed even though I know for a fact that she has been fully awake for a while. If she does wake up, she will go and sit on the WC in bath until her mother goes and checks on her. We have to force brush her and force putting clothes on her as a last resort after requesting her for as long as we can in time crunch. Her school does not have any consequences for being late so it seems she does not care. Its not like she is being bullied at school or is struggling there. Once she is there, she is very lively, has lots of friends and is one of the top students in class.
I worked late last night so my wife took up the job of preparing her for school in the morning today and she ended up hitting my daughter on the back out of frustration which lead to lots of tears both for my wife and daughter and a ruined day. On a side note, she also does the same for bath time. She never willingly goes and takes a shower or change clothes. We literally have to drag her to the bathroom to do it.
We have tried grounding, taking away screen time, bribing with toys/money/treats but nothing works. I am all out of ideas. What do you all do?

Overview

• The mayor proposed a 6-month budget for FY 2024 to transition to a calendar fiscal year
• Nancy Savano Long was appointed as the new city clerk.
• Text amendments were initiated to the unified development code regarding section 13.12 administrative appeal and section 10.3.7 application content.
• The capital improvement element and community work program was approved.
• A deferral request for the design review appeal of Cochran Farms HOA.
• A rezoning request was submitted for 630 Colonial Park Drive.

Details

• Proposal of 6-month budget for FY 2024: The mayor presented his proposed financial plan, focusing on the next half year of Fiscal Year 2024.
• Appointment of New City Clerk: Nancy Savano Long was announced as the newly chosen city clerk.
• Text Amendments to the Unified Development Code: Proposals for text modifications were presented to update Sections 13.12 and 10.3.7 of the unified development code.
• Approval of the Capital Improvement Element and Community Work Program: A resolution was passed for the acceptance and further implementation of the capital improvement element and the community work program.
• Deferral Request for Cochran Farms HOA: A request to delay the design review appeal involving Cochran Farms HOA was put forward.
• Rezoning Request for 630 Colonial Park Drive: A major topic of discussion was the rezoning request proposed for 630 Colonial Park Drive, specifically for the operation of a school. Details of the request included a traffic study, estimated number of cars onsite, and differing staff opinions regarding the approval or denial.

More detail, including a transcript is available here: https://www.heyrecap.com/post/153

I graduated college a year ago now. I lived in two major cities for the span of 5 years, made great friends, and gained lots of knowledge and experience. Now, I have been living at home and working for my parents business since (it’s not terrible, I just feel like i’m in a stall period). I do have hobbies and friends here and have created a community again after being home for a year. Home is comfortable. My family is here. I love my town. But being so young I feel like I still need to explore elsewhere.
I have been searching on what to do next as working for the family business is not supposed to be something long term or full-time. I have lined up 4 different opportunities. One of which is a job on a ranch which I found on coolworks. I have been browsing on coolworks for years now dreaming of the day I had the time to run away and do it. 2 of those opportunities are to go back to school to get a masters working as grad assistant (which pays for the degree) in my “chosen” career path (kinda). One is in my home town and the other is in a completely new town. Big rural state, smaller population. The last opportunity is to get a job at my alma mater as something I want to be and is my dream in a way. Plus my good friends are there, I love the city, I want to explore more, and I feel like part of my heart is still there.
Still part of me wonders if I should drop all that and go to the damn ranch. My issues however, the position I lined up on the ranch is only for 3 months. I know thats how seasonal work, works, but I am scared I will be right back where I started when the position ends- Confused on what to do next. I asked if there was opportunity for longer and they said yes possibly, it’s just the unknown at this time in my life that bothers me. Plus, how do you ever settle down in a job like that. I love adventure, always have, just wondering if I just water the grass where it’s already green. I’m not saying I wouldn’t thrive on the ranch, I really truly think I would. It’s right up my alley. I’m just lost and have 4 forks in the road and not sure where to step next.
Can seasonal jobs like these turn into a career path? Will I ever be able to stay in one place to start a family and lay roots? Will I be able to get time off for weddings, vacations, etc?
When I ask these questions i’m thinking long term. I feel called to many places on coolworks and would love to jump around and gain and grow many skills. What if it ends up not working out for me and i’m still stuck.

Momma made for Pennywise, at her request, an “Annabelle” doll. A Raggedy Anne doll, really. Just like the original haunted doll, movie tropes aside.
Penny’s had it for a while now, and still treasures it. She took it to school for show and tell not long ago, and another girl that she’s befriended fell in love with it.
Pen asked Momma if she could make another just like it just for her.
She’s been working on it for a while now, as she’s had time, and got it finished just today. Gonna give it to Penny to give to her friend.
“It’s perfect” I commented. Can’t tell the two of ‘em apart. A certain girl’s gonna be very happy and surprised. You went to a lot of trouble for someone you don’t even know.”
“I enjoyed it. She’s Penny’s friend, and Penny asked me to. How could I say no?”
Would’ve taken her less time, but she’s a perfectionist. Every tiny stitch and detail has to be just right.
Always been that way. When I first started seeing her, she was working two jobs. A weekend carhop (how I met her), and her full-time job keeping the books and handling payroll for a cotton gin.
I went to pick her up for lunch one day, and sat and waited for two hours while she tracked down a discrepancy and balanced her books. They’d been off by two cents, lol.
Just her nature. I marveled at her. She never left our place to go out in public unless she was looking her best. And for such a tiny girl, she walked tall. Head up and back and shoulders straight and proud. Stalked like a young lioness and moved like a ballroom dancer. Water flowing over stone.
That afternoon of our (now late, lol) lunch date, I still remember the drive. Wind through the window whipping her long hair. She smiling because she knew I kept stealing glances at her.
She took me to a place she said I’d like in another town. Small family owned and operated local restaurant that had been in business for decades. Advised me to let her order for me.
The place was doing a brisk business still, as I followed her to the table she wanted. She drew lingering glances from most of the people in the place. Men, and some women, too. Then I was only beginning to realize just who and what I’d found.
“She’s very ladylike” my Captain once remarked to me. She’d come to see me at work, and he’d watched her, smiling. “She certainly carries herself like one.”
“That she does, Sir. That she does.”
He gave me some advice just before she and I were to be married:
“I’m going to tell you something, OP: it really Will be her and you against the world. That’s not just a saying. You will put her First in all things. Before yourself, before friends, before family, before the Marine Corps. She comes first, always. Do that, and you won’t go wrong. Consider that an order, Sgt, understand?”
“Lima Charley, Captain.”
Good advice.

I live and breathe psych. I am not a person using it as back up or lifestyle specialty. I high passed the clerkship, got straight fives from two attendings I worked with- both of whom encouraged me to join the field, got a 97% overall for clinical evals and a 91% for SPE when cutoff was 77% for honors. I have also been shadowing a psych attending since MS1. There's no question this is my path. I know for a fact, this what I want to spend my life doing. I couldn't imagine myself being satisfied doing anything else knowing this exists.
However, I conditionally passed neurology and surgery, and have an incomplete for peds (health stuff in family). I won't finish clerkship year until end of July because I pushed back taking step 1 to make sure I passed on the first try. Last two clerkships are Family med and IM. Now, if I apply this cycle, I would have to retake those clerkship exams successfully and get a 240 on step 2 with either 2 weeks until my sub-i, or no sub-i and take the time to study for step and have no acting internship letter. I am terrified to do that because I know my strengths are in the clinic, and that's what sets me apart, so not having that is a major disadvantage for me. I know that I am uniquely suited for this field. I'm on family med now. Every time a patient has a psych problem, they go out of their way to compliment me to the attending. Honestly, even when they don't have psych problems. I know people are nice, but it's literally every time. One patient called in to the office the next day and left a message with the receptionist saying I did an incredible job and thanking me. All we really did was talk, but the conversation was really meaningful to me too. I know I'm just a med student, but she felt like my patient in that moment.
This is not to brag, just to say, that despite med school always hyper stratifying us and making half of us feel like idiot failures, when I am with the patients I can actually feel the value in the past three years of pseudo-hell, and that's the only time I do. Compliments from doctors give me hope that I am progressing well, and I hope their evals help my application, but it's the comments from patients I actually get to talk to that gives me a future to look forward to. But I can't see the patients unless I impress the doctors running the programs, and my grades are not impressive. My boyfriend literally has all honors, and it's amazing for him, but while he's looking at average step scores and calculating his chances with a score higher than the average for every single school, it just is so clear that I'm not even a serious player in this game right now. I would be playing with fire trying to take these exams, and score 240+ on step in 6 weeks while doing a sub-i, and try to get research in. I would only have to complete peds and surgery technically, but the conditional pass for neuro would still show up on my app (which isn't great since neuro is heavily relevant to psych). I have plenty of volunteering and two leadership experiences, but I know it's not weighted as heavily as research. I got a research scholarship in MS1, but I had to retake an exam over the summer and gave it up to focus on academics. I am smart, but I am not a genius(aka, med school stupid), and I just could not afford to split my attention so many ways and stay afloat. Organization is something med school has helped (forced) me to develop, but I was not very efficient coming in, I'll be honest.
It's so high stakes, and I am becoming increasingly anxious. I just want to match this specialty at this point. I'm from a North East mid-tier MD school, have four conditional passes from pre-clinicals but never had to repeat a year, passed step 1 on first try, no step 2 score yet, great clinical eval comments from every clerkship, only one bad comment all year (peds outpatient, my first clerkship. tl;dr - "she's nice and professional, but she is too slow and her skills are developing"), failed the shelves and got conditional pass for neuro and surgery (these turn into regular passes if I retake successfully), no research, evidence of interest in psych throughout med school, two inpatient psych clerkship attendings willing to write me LOR's, genuine belief that I was made for this specialty, and I really would do an extra year to polish things up if I had to the way people do for surgical specialties because that's how much this means to me, but I don't want to waste my time because I am afraid and lack insight, and I don't want to end up with an unproductive year and be in an even worse situation than I am now because psych doesn't seem to have established networks looking for research year med students like derm and ortho do. But matching this specialty is the difference between feeling like I am suffering for nothing, and feeling like I am suffering for something greater than me. In every other field, I enjoy them, but I can feel that there are people out there who would do it better than I would. Psych is the only place I feel like I would be uniquely valuable just as I already am.
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Oh how sad I am. I've been planning this escape for years. And now that I'm finally here, with one more night on my... not-really-a-bed, just a... mat-on-the-floor with blanket and pillows...
I sob. Sob and cry and wonder why I feel all this pain. I'm the one who wanted to escape. To live my life to the fullest. To do all the things I love. To draw and sing, to wear my hair down and bake, to make friends and wear cute dresses, to have cats and be with the man I love and oh gosh how lucky I am that he loves me dearly and wants the best for me. He and his mum supported me so so much. My friend too. They are my chosen family.
But... why am I feeling so horribly sad...? Its because I'll never see my parents or siblings again. I feel so bad for my mum because she allows people to use her and by that I mean she does everything for my grown ass siblings. And my extended family all use her a lot too.
About my mum.
Sadly, shes religious. Prays constantly. Always telling us to pray. Donates money to needy. Forced me to pay zakkah. Buys counters to constantly recite, it's like digital tasbeehs and stuff to use wherever without looking or counting. You just press and then you get your number on a screen. She takes care of her mum sometimes. Often cooks for her. She often watches her sisters kids because her sister, my aunt... is ever so social and kinda just expects my mum to baby sit them. My mum cooks almost every day. Usually every other day because my dad refuses to eat old food. And when I say cook I dont mean something easy like whip up a pasta. I mean dishes that take at least more than 2 hours to cook. Mind you though, hes a chef and does cook sometimes in the house. But since he works he expects mum to cook and honestly if I were a man, I'd want that too. To come home from work to good food. Anyway...
I have siblings. One of which is a piece of good for nothing shit. Uses and abuses mum psychologically. For real. It's so sad. And mum enables this shit because she believes it's not actually my siblings behaviour. It's apparently a ghost. My other siblings are not of legal age yet. I will miss them terribly. They... will have to grow up a lot. Mum does a lot for them. Cooking. Cleaning. Honestly, I dont cook because mum does it. Nor clean. I avoided being with mum and basically without realising it, did that rock technique with her. Where I basically diffuse the conversation and stuff because I hate talking about Islam and just avoid being around her and stuff. I forgot what the technique is actually called.
I love her. Even if I'm sure her love for me is conditional. I wish to keep contact with her. But I worry about her health. Diabetes and general pressure issues. If she dies, my dad wont be able to take care of my siblings. My dad will cook for them and teach them how to travel to school and stuff. But besides that, he wont know about their medical conditions or history, he cant speak much English just some. He is smart but also not really? It's weird.
Mg siblings and mum is who I worry for most. The two siblings who arent over 18 yet. I dont care for the other one because they ruined my life and became such a horrible person. I get some of it is mental health issues so they need help but I'm speaking very specifically of their character before all this began.
Anyway. I escape tomorrow. Today is technically my last day ever with my family. I do love them. I wish to text or call them from time to time but I do think a period of no contact may be necessary for both them and myself to kind of... let this choice I made sink in. I've bought games for my younger siblings where we can chat and hopefully they keep this private. I do believe that they may understand me when they reach a certain age and be more accepting than my parents.
In my letter, I'm not sure if I should say I left because I wanted to live my life or because "God guided me" and play that card. I'm semi atheist. Sometimes I believe in God and other times I dont. Right now km not really sure what I am so I say semi atheist. I will cry and cry and cry after I've made it to my partner. He and his mum will hold me close and tell me I'm safe and loved and deserve to choose the life I want. I have support. We are gonna do so many things together that we couldn't before!
I'm an artist. In so many ways. I had to hide my art with my family. With my partner, he wanted them all displayed. For Christmas, I drew portraits, more like fantasy portraits of him and his mum and his cat. They still have it displayed in their house. It warms my heart. I draw, sew, sculpt with clay, paint sometimes, do traditional pencils drawings with colour and without, digital art, pixel art for working on my game, make plushies and I plan to sew my own dresses, I like styling my hair although my hair is pretty damaged sadly, no not with heat products, more of just unhealthy hair. What else...? I just love making things with paper like water fall cards and spinning cards and pop up books. When I confessed to my partner, at the time he couldn't be with me because he wanted to make sure he was ready, I made him a well designed pop up book. It had stuff we liked, camping, gaming, sleeping, loads of pop up and sliding elements. Then on our 1st anniversary, I made him an explosion box. He was absolutely in shock as he opened it over Skype. I plan to make an even better gift for next time. For Christmas he attempted something similar, he is very creative too. He made me a book of himself. Like a little toy for my to hold around with funny comments and his cat kinda touring me through his weak knee joints Haha and his heart which loves me 100% and his little nose which if I boop, doesnt do anything, nor the the little mole he has on his face. All these drawings and details, I love it so much.
Why did I write all that... I'm trying to cope right now. I want encouragement. I'm scared. But I know I have to do this. I dont want to cry or be sad. I wanna be happy because I have this opportunity to run away move out and be free. I've saved and saved enough for at least a few years. But I'll be getting a job in the new country after I learn the language officially. By going to school to learn the language I'll keep myself occupied and busy. At my partners house we will be playing games ans cuddling and making Lego stuff and drawing and going for walks and watching films so I know I'll be happy.
I just also know I'll wonder how my family are and worry those thoughts will eat into my happy time. I dont know how to go about this.
Please... I wanna move out on happy terms. I deserve to live. To think 7 years ago I was going to take my life because I prayed constantly to God and he didnt seem to reply to it... and then I became an ex Muslim and found a new friend and then a another one of which who became my partner... I never would have believed if someone told me, hey in some years you'll move away from your family have a loving boyfriend and be free from religion. I'd have slapped them maybe and said shut up you liar. Get lost.
But here I am. I didnt take my life. I won. And I'm gonna win again tomorrow when I take that plane. I'm just sad about missing my family. Even if they were unpleasant at times. I still love them.
But I deserve to live my own life. I can do this. One more night on my not so very comfy floor bed.
Paper Blackstar
I will never post from this account again. For updates on my situation, possibly a tutorial of how I escape, please see my other account, The Paper Blackstar. It has one post saying that it's me, and in the comments a mod confirmed.

We’ve been together for 4 and a half years basically. We’ve know each other for 10. Liked each other in high school, life happened, I moved away, she had a kid, found our way back to each other, and ended up having a child of our own 2 years ago. To try and summarize, she feels once our daughter was born, that I got too comfortable and acted as though I knew she wasn’t going anywhere. I worked overnight construction for years, even before we got together, made it to a superintendent position, with a job where I averaged anywhere from 65-80+ hours a week. She was home with the kids, I didn’t make enough to put the kids in daycare, and couldn’t commit to any kind of permanent arrangement to assist her with taking care of the kids so she could work. The goal, since before we got together, was for me to leave my trade, but I made more money doing that, than we would have if we both started entry level jobs, not to mention then having to pay for daycares. I was offered help by my mother who lived out of state to bring me family over there with promises of help so we could make the changes necessary to restructure our life and improve our situation. I got here, worked in my same trade for a few months until the rain season began, and she immediately began her course to become a CNA, then started work as one, and makes decent money. Well she made a friend there, who I honestly can’t stand. I have NEVER told her who she can and can’t see, hang out with, talk to, nothing like that, she’s never given me a reason to doubt her, she has always been a loyal person and very honest. This friend of hers, without spending time on all the details and making this post even longer, tries encouraging my girlfriend to do things or think certain ways that I feel are detrimental to our relationship. Telling her she should start an OF, is one example, and when my girlfriend vented to her about an issue we had, told her that I am a narcissist like every guy she’s been with and to just leave me.
For some context, I forgot our anniversary. I think I’ve forgotten it almost every year, because it wasn’t really a special occasion, we talked about it a few months into our relationship basically saying “hey we’re dating right? Like this is official? What do we tell people if they ask what our anniversary is? Okay cool, sounds good, moving on.” I get it, that mindset was wrong of me. I also procrastinate on things like holidays, birthdays, whatever, and have had some instances where I really should have tried harder to make her feel special and appreciated. I used to do the hallmark movie corny stuff, I used to have a notebook I’d write in when I got home in the mornings while she was asleep about how I loved her, she’s beautiful, I appreciate her, blah blah. One time I set a path from the front door to the upstairs bath with candles, flower petals, where a bath was drawn, with red lights for ambiance and a bath bomb for her. It fell off because the honey moon phase ended, although I feel it lasted a long time, and life events happened that lead to some emotional dry spells on her part where she wasn’t ready to receive affection, her grandmother passing, having a miscarriage far along in our first pregnancy together, her step father dying, and then also the stresses of my job wearing me out, and getting comfortable subconsciously telling myself that even though I don’t always do those same things anymore, she knows I think she’s the greatest and I love her.
I have a bad habit that I’ve been working on for a few months now, where if she’d bring up things that made me nervous to think about or stress me out to plan, I would play too much and not take the situations seriously, and make her not feel heard as a result. I always teased that I don’t believe in legally getting married, that I’d take her to the courthouse and let her change her last name to mine and then we can have a ceremony after. 2 years ago I told her that wasn’t the case, and we finally talked about it where I told her that once our situation is right, in marrying her. I know in hindsight that I should have still placed it as a higher priority, but we never really talked about it further, and she clung to what I’d said before that about us never getting married. When our fighting started getting bad about 2 months ago, and we finally communicated what the underlying root of her unhappiness was, I had a huge perspective change. Some other big events happened, my step father who we lived with overdosed from fentanyl in our basement, and really changed my perspective on life and how quickly things can end and change and blah blah, to where I told her that I don’t want to fight, she is my one, and I want to marry her. She basically took it as me saying it out of fear to get her to stay. I’ve been trying to show her that I want to make the effort she is asking for. That she is as special to me as I say, but now in her mind she is taking an approach of “why did it take 4 years to get to this point.”
I never try to deny responsibility for my actions, I always try to be quick to reflect and acknowledge where I may have been wrong. But now I almost feel like my readiness to say okay I messed up by getting comfortable and not making you feel heard in these situations and everything else I’ve talked about, kind of seems like I’ve only made her feel completely validated in her idea that I have messed up for 4 years and just not appreciated her. I almost want to tell her that yes, I have slowed down and gotten comfortable, but no, there’s are so many examples of times I’ve still shown you how much I cared. I fear doing so will come off argumentative, and give her more fuel to the fire of her friend calling me a narcissist. Side note: she has since stopped getting advice from that friend, because she did come to the conclusion that her friend does not have her best interest, and has seen an uglier side to her as time has gone on, but I feel the seeds of discord have been sown.
I’m so sorry, I hope some of you with good intentions stick through all of this, and I know there’s other context that could help, but I guess I just need some ideas on what to do. 7 weeks ago we started fighting over petty day to day things, 5 weeks ago we finally established her root of unhappiness, 4 weeks ago she said she needed space, 2-3 weeks ago we said we were taking a break, and I feel her feelings of negativity have only grown. I’ve sucked at giving space admittedly, as time goes on I’ve gotten better though I fear damage has been further done by not doing great about accepting her request for space. Idk, we have a child together, I love both of the children like they’re my own blood, I’ve never felt this happy in a relationship (I know I’m young, still) and now that we’re finally hitting our goals with our lifestyle changes and career changes, now she’s finally gotten to this point of giving up.
Do I try giving her space, doing my own thing and seeing if that separation and seeing my positive activities draws her back in? Or has it gone on so long that that’s not going to work? Do I try saying finally “hey I acknowledge my mistakes, but in your attempts to focus on my wrong doings I feel like you’re ignoring all the good things I did and I’d like you to try remembering those? I don’t hit her, cuss at her, our heated fights can probably be counted on 1, maybe 2 hands, I don’t cheat, I provide, I’ve taken care of the kids just about by myself for the past 5 months to give her room to get her new profession down, I cook and clean every night, not to be crass but our intimate life is very good, I know I deliver for her on that account, and I’m someone who is always willing to apologize and adapt and adjust. Any advice that isn’t slanderous to either of us would be awesome, I get at this point that if it’s too late then I need to just start preparing for that eventuality and working on myself, but for the sake of keeping my family together, I want to exhaust all of my options to make this work.

It was summer. He needed money to pay for school next year. He decided to get a job. He needed to apply to different places. He first made a resume. He then made a cover letter. He walked around his neighborhood.

There's this person I've known for several years. We follow each other on Instagram. Anyway, her husband died about 3 years ago. He must have left her a huge amount of money, because she was able to buy a house and a car. She has 6 kids - four of them are in their 20s, two of them are teenagers still in school. One of the older kids already has two kids of her own. Recently she took them on a trip to Disneyland. Not only her kids, but their significant others, too. Here I am working like a chump, trying to save enough to take my family to Disneyland. I know I should count my blessings, but ugh...it makes me so mad that she doesn't have to work and she gets a house, a car, and family vacations 😡.

It was summer. He needed money to pay for school next year. He decided to get a job. He needed to apply to different places. He first made a resume. He then made a cover letter. He walked around his neighborhood.

It was summer. He needed money to pay for school next year. He decided to get a job. He needed to apply to different places. He first made a resume. He then made a cover letter. He walked around his neighborhood.

Hello! I am 21F, living in the US looking for a long term pen pal! I don’t have a preference in gender but would like to stay between my age range, (20-30). I am open to both US and international penpals!
About me: I enjoy the outdoors and am currently in school to work in conservation. I love being in nature by going on hikes and meditating or simply practicing yoga on the beach. I have a special place in my heart for the arts and always crave being creative in some kind of form. Whether its sketching, going to museums, writing, listening to music ( indie, jazz and classical are my favorites!) watching films. I also love to read, although if I’m being honest, I don’t have too much time to do so, and i love anime as well! (studio ghibli! ) Another hobby of mine is cooking and I would love someone to share or trade recipes with!
I prefer starting off through email and switching over to written letters over time. I would love to write long letters about anything and everything (perhaps little stickers or drawings as well!) and stay in touch for a long time with a box full of old letters that I can look back on when I am gray and old. :)
Please feel free to reach out if you are interested! Thank you ♡