To start, my wife (31f) and I (31m) have been together 5 years and married 2. We have an amazing relationship and I cannot imagine a life without her and our two dogs. We love to travel, spend time together and we are basically best friends. We work from home on our business and spend most of our time together (well at least in the house, I am usually on my computer and she does house stuff and watches TV).
We have been trying for a baby for a year now without success, I convinced myself that it would be nice to have a child who we can raise, mostly because she wants one so much. But I have finally confronted this feeling that deep down I still want to be free, travel more, have more fun and that I do not want a child, YET. I told her yesterday how I really feel, we had a fertility appointment that I just cancelled which we were supposed to go to today (she told me to cancel it, I was still ok with going to see if there was a problem). I have had this feeling deep down that I am not ready yet, and just came to realization that this was what has been bothering me. I have voiced this opinion many times before convincing myself that maybe I do want a child. I started to believe that maybe a child isn't so bad because we both have caring parents who could watch out kids if we go on a vacation/out but that honestly sounds a bit delusional on my part. We have all the freedom in the world right now and we have been taking advantage of it by going to Mexico for a month, Japan, Europe in the last year and I just don't want this to end.
She wants a baby because she is convinced that she is getting way too old to have a child and that her time is running out + she doesn't want to be old raising children, and I totally get that, but I am also feeling immense pressure to satisfy her needs without really questioning it since I love her so much. I just wish we could wait a little longer and settle more (buying a house, figuring out our finances, enjoy life).
I tried to talk to her about it just now but she shut down and won't talk to me. I offered that we should try marriage counseling but she doesn't seem to want to/mad at me at the moment and won't listen. Maybe we can get some good advice on how to proceed with this. Hopefully she will listen to me and we can see what a therapist would say and we can try this FIRST before we bring a child into our life. She just took the keys and went out.
I realize it's wrong for me to have gotten cold feet like this all of a sudden, but I honestly did not figure out what was this "looming shadow" I had deep in my head until I actually thought about it and finally it clicked.
Like I said, I believe I will get around to wanting to become a father, just not yet.. There is too much fun I still want to have, preferably with her, without shackling us down.
Thank you!

Hello! I'm an aspiring Law Student, hoping to start Law School this June! Recently I took a Law School Admission Test in a certain blue school and only got 42.86% of the answers right 😅 But I still got called in for interview so I guess I still have a chance to get in...? (I have heard it's all for formalities anyway, but still, I can't help but worry :<)
I'll be interviewed by the Asst. Dean this coming friday and before that, I was hoping to know if you guys know any possible questions that would arise and how do you think I should answer them?
Aside from that, can you guys recommend any tips, resources for someone who will (hopefully) enter Law School soon? Any study, recit answering methods, or books I should purchase to ready myself maybe? Just recently I bought a Law Dictionary from Rex Bookstore, as well as Legal Writing Plain and Simple by Ortiz, in hopes it would prepare me for the things that'll come!
I know a lot of ppl might tell me to take the time to indulge the free time I have left and relax, but to be frank with you I don't like coming unprepared, especially when I'm not academically excellent (possibly below average tapos nakatsamba lang in my undergrad course) 😞 I am aware Law School is a super tough thing to go through, even tougher than achieving my undergrad course!
Any comments, advice, resources are super appreciated!! Thank you soo much! Love lots po sainyo! 🩷

Most of us know that With Sympathy was mostly a Ministry Vanilli situation, with the record execs basically writing/producing the album in hopes of making the next Joy Division.
Whenever he's asked about this era, he always bridges it with Land of Rape & Honey, i.e. "then I did Stigmata and the whole band came together" sentiment.
Twitch seems like the lost middle child, and seeing as how it got clumped into the stuff Ministry never performed live before this last show, I get how it fits in the Sympathy era, but a few things about this I don't understand.
For one, it's grimy industrial that aligns much more with Front 242 or early RevCo, especially the drum programming. Some song structures kind of have a Sympathy feel, but it's in no way danceable to the Joy Division crowd. I can't see this being a studio forced pop project.
Secondly, it's got more samples than a Skinny Puppy album, as in offbeat clips and random industrialish stuff. I would have no issue believing this is a Ministry album if I just got into the band today.
That said, it's barely mentioned in interviews and I just feel like there's nothing cringe about it, no goofy hooks or forced lyrics. Kind of like a guitar-free Rape & Honey.
Does anyone have Al's take on it? I get that Sympathy is like a bad ex and Honey is the first marriage, so is Twitch the rebound?

Hello, I'm a relatively new player with a question.
Lucked out and pulled the sexy man, noticed his supplemental damage aura does not specify dark allies; seen a lot of discourse about how he's exceptionally strong in any element.
However when I test with and without him on non dark, damage logs are very similar. Was wondering if yall could confirm for me that his sub aura works on any element.
Thanks :)

a little background on me is i was born with a disability that put me in a wheelchair, hence the name. it's always been hard for me to make friends irl due to me always being shy and self-conscious, so I came here!♿️
[also if anyone wants to vc or play games, im down for that too] playstation/discord🕹️
we can talk about our interests or the secrets of life for example paranormal activity👻
if you have any questions about me feel free to ask🙏🏽

Hello, I am looking to buy a NIB (or lightly used Ryzen 7 5700X3D for 200 or less shipped. I am also looking to get a Thermaltake GF1 850w fully modular power supply for about 65-70 shipped. You can pm with alternatives, but I’m pretty set on what I want (unless you want to sell a 5800X3D for cheap lol). Feel free to ask questions and please comment before PMing.
Local is 85382/85383
I won't be able to respond as quickly on reddit but I can respond on discord quicker.
https://discord.com/channels/244329943146823680/1239732813352407121

a little background on me is i was born with a disability that put me in a wheelchair, hence the name. it's always been hard for me to make friends irl due to me always being shy and self-conscious, so I came here!♿️
[also if anyone wants to vc or play games, im down for that too] playstation/discord🕹️
we can talk about our interests or the secrets of life for example paranormal activity👻
if you have any questions about me feel free to ask🙏🏽

I'm writing a story and this is relevant to it. If my question belongs elsewhere let me know please. In my story there's a zombie apocalypse and during said apocalypse a large group of people have instated free data for everyone. Is this possible? Would they need to put caps on it per month still to limit the usage of it? In this situation they have made use of most every cell tower.

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a little background on me is i was born with a disability that put me in a wheelchair, hence the name. it's always been hard for me to make friends irl due to me always being shy and self-conscious, so I came here!♿️
[also if anyone wants to vc or play games, im down for that too] playstation/discord🕹️
we can talk about our interests or the secrets of life for example paranormal activity👻
if you have any questions about me feel free to ask🙏🏽

I (19F) met a cute guy (19M) on hinge while I was at school in X city. He lives in X city, but I don’t, so I have to go back home (2 hours from x city) for 3.5 months for the summer.
I wanted to test the waters and put myself out there, but this was in March, and I knew I’d have to go home in April. I knew I didn’t want to be in a long distance relationship, and I wasn’t expecting to be successful on hinge, so I didn’t mind talking to guys that I knew I couldn’t date. I figured it would be nice to talk to some new people, and then I could have a better understanding of the dating pool when I returned to school in August.
I ended up meeting Max, and him and I hit it off. We love the same music and realized we got tickets to the same concert in June. He’s sweet and funny, so I thought it would be cool to meet him before I went home for the summer. Since I didn’t want to do long distance, I figured we could at least be friends. We had a great time and even kissed, but this happened the day before I was supposed to go home for the summer.
He told me he was really into me and that he’d dream about me - that he couldn’t wait to go to the concert with me and see me in the fall. After less than a week, maybe 4 or 5 days, he stopped talking to me as regularly, and became pretty short. A few days later he stopped talking to me. I tried to spark conversation by texting a silly question about my cat, but he didn’t read it or respond, all while he was snapping me blank pics. I told him that I didn’t think talking over the summer would work for me because of his “communication style,” which was my way of trying to hint that he needs to put in some effort. Tl;dr of what he said is “ok, can we still be friends? I wanna hang more this fall. I haven’t been putting in effort, long distance isn’t for me.”
Then I told him that him ignoring me, even if it was a silly text, made me feel unwanted, in both romantic and friendship ways. I need my friends and love interests to show me that they care. He thanked me for sharing and didn’t apologize, then he proceeded to finally read that message (the silly question) and then never respond to it.
I messaged him one last time and he took 5 days to respond. It’s been 2.5 weeks since I came home and homie already forgot about me I guess.
I unadded him on Snapchat and unmatched him on hinge. He still has my number, but I doubt I’ll hear from him. I wonder if I’ll see him at the concert or not, and I wonder if he’ll message me. I’m disappointed because he seemed like an amazing boyfriend and/or friendship candidate, but I know that I deserve better than that and I’ve only known the guy for like a month and a half. I also wonder if he’ll reach out in the fall, it all feels so strange because he seemed so into me. #infatuationisreal
Here is a TLDR provided by chatgpt <3:
I (19F) met a guy named Max (19M) on Hinge while I was at school in X city, though I live two hours away and had to return home for the summer. Despite not wanting a long-distance relationship, I hit it off with Max, sharing similar interests and even planned to attend the same concert in June. After meeting and kissing just before I left, Max expressed his strong feelings for me. However, his communication became inconsistent shortly after, and he eventually stopped responding despite sending me Snapchats. I addressed my concerns about his lack of effort, but he didn't apologize or change his behavior. I decided to unadd him on Snapchat and unmatch him on Hinge. While I'm disappointed because he seemed promising, I recognize I deserve better and am unsure if I'll hear from him or see him at the concert.

Hello,
I want to wire some exterior security cameras to my home. To do so, I'd like to run ethernet (for POE) through my attic to vertical conduit runs. What I'd like to know is if I can drill through the soffit, then run conduit from the attic to where I need it on the exterior of my home as I want the cables protected from the sun.
My questions are as follows:

1. Is there an issue with running conduit through the soffit like this into the attic?
2. Does the conduit need to be "terminated" with a box within the attic, or is leaving the end open to the attic interior acceptable? (Edit: It appears filling the end with firestop post installation is a common practice to prevent venting in the event of a fire?)
3. It appears 3/4 schedule 40 is recommended, as I'm running 3 strands of Cat5e based on a pull chart from truecable. I did a test fit with 3 in 1/2 and it is indeed snug.
4. Are there other considerations I am missing here?

Am trying to sort a relative from abroad with an eye test & a pair specs am confused on the total cost. They've no PRSI so simply want to pay whatever it is but looking online provides no clear info on how much it costs since everyone & their mother opts for a free eyetest. €20 for a pair of glasses, but the eyetest could be anywhere from €30 for the bog standard test or up to €65 for the extra tests.
Anyone recently gotten an eye test that could comment which branch in Dublin would be ideal & how much a standard eye test is without PRSI? Cheers ❤

I used ChatGPT (the web UI) a bunch of times on an important prompt. It gave precisely correct results 100% of the time out of 20 tests.
Then on the first attempt using GPT-4 via the API, we were surprised to see it gave a disastrously wrong answer! (these are coding questions/answers so they have objectively right/wrong responses).
The only thing we can think of is the 'temperature' value might be more deterministic in the ChatGPT web UI, so our specification of 0.7 might be too high (meaning GPT was free to be a bit more creative, which we certainly don't want).
We simply want to ensure the temperature we use in the API matches the web UI.
What is the value of the temperature parameter used in the ChatGPT web UI?

TW: Suicide, Mental Illness, SA, Porn Addiction, Abuse, Pedophilic Thoughts.
Hi, this post is going to be insanely long post as I am gonna go over a lot of things in detail throughout my life. I am going to premise this with a very important disclaimer: I am not looking to be the victim. I am not trying and do not want to make you feel bad for me. Things I saw will end up sounding like attention-seeking and victim mentality, but please know that no matter how much it sounds like that, that is not my intention. I'm basically going to go through my entire life story, so buckle up.
We'll start at the beginning of my life in 2005. I'm born and have an older sister, who is still my only blood sibling. At 3 years old I experience my first traumatic events that I can remember. I start hiding in the bathroom whenever my parents fight, and after a fight, I try lightening the mood by dancing in a goofy manner, but I end up falling and slashing a big hole in my knee and have to go to the hospital. At 4 years old my parents get divorced, and my dad moves in with his girlfriend. I vaguely remember crying as he took his last suitcase out the door. I also start pre school at this time, and my parents start realizing I have mental issues. I get tested and come up with ADHD and autism. I hate loud noises, get overstimulated, hate fire, and can be very irritable. At 5 I do my second year of pre school, because my parents feel I wasn't socially ready. I did competitive cherr with my sister which was fun, except for a mean teammate and an unsupportive father. At 6 I start kindergarten, and have more traumatic events. I doodle on my paper and get yelled at by my very menacing teacher, which just stuck with me for some reason as I am very sensitive to arguments and such. I start having my first memories of being abused by my mom. She wasn't beating me but she would slap me, grab me, push me, and she threw my sister down the hall one time. At 7, I have the same types of memories, but good ones too. My sister starts getting in on the abuse and hitting me too. Her and mom start fighting all the time. And this is where my first sign of real issues shows up. My aunt babysat me after school every wednesday whike my parents worked their jobs. I was scrolling on my old chunky laptop and came across it. Gay porn. It was two men on a bed doing some sort of act. Im confused but cant stop watching. My aunt eventually comes in and puts an end to it, berating me. But I start getting worse. I keep looking it up on my tablet and getting caught by my dad and mom, and even get caught looking up how to end myself. I get the same talk that it wasn't good or whatever. And one time, I even tried getting my 2 year old nephew to "lick it" because I didnt think there was anything wrong with that. The next few years, the same trends become increasingly worse, and my parents also gave up trying to get me to eat healthy because of my picky eating habits due to the autism. I became overweight and no longer did any sports. I have a few more traumatic memories of my mom hitting me or destroying my stuff and making me clean it up. My porn addiction becomes worse. I start getting exposed to things like incest and beastiality. I also start having my first experiences with pedophiles. I was taught by another kid how to masturbate on xbox. And got into a party with someone else. They were atleast in their mid to late teens and possible older. They convinced me to teach them how to masturbate aswell. My addiction got worse and I would masturbate multiple timed a day at a very young age. I started hiding things from everyone. I started actually being attracted to the incest porn I was seeing so often and got into the taboo of it. As I got older I started fighting with myself, begging myself to fix my issues before it became to late, but I didn't listen. I started hiding my porn addiction really well and kept letting myself get groomed. I would show myself to pedos on omegle because I thought it felt good to get the attention. A 16 year old told my 12 year old self to send a booty pic, and I did, but blocked him immediately after. When I got into 7th grade I also started getting corrupted by public porn, and started masturbating at school. I was being bullied for my weight, and being smelly by that point, and was just so fucked up and never got help. If I ever talked to someone, I'd just lie and water down so everyone would think I was fine. In 8th grade I got bullied really bad, but covid ended that early luckily. I never masturbated in class again after this. This is where it gets worse, again. I become so deprived of human contact and addicted to sex, that I start sneaking videos of my father in the bathroom after his showers. To note, I don't have an amazing relationship with him. He was always very intimidating and bad at controlling his temper. Never good at having conversations either, so I've since closed myself off to him. I kept taking pictures of him, and eventually, started sneaking pictures of people I found either attractive, or even people that didn't repulse me. This included strangers, classmates, teachers, etc. I started really internally fighting with myself at this point. I hated myself. Who I had become. I tried and tried to make myself stop and become healthier, working out, watching else porn, trying to delete pictures I took of others, but to no avail. I eventually on rare occasions, masturbated to beastiality porn. I always felt so disgusted before, during, and after. These always felt like intrusive thoughts that I was acting on, but I didn't know that was actually the case until much later. I also starting convincing my grandpa to show me what it "felt like" as a 15 year old, until at 17 in 2023, he eventually coerced me into doing it to him, which I can't tell if it's SA or a taste of my own medicine, since I was a minor. I'm gonna go back to 2022. My sister's husband, who I consider my only brother, committed suicide. I was devastated. All i ever wanted was a brother, but I decided it wasnt meant to be. A few months later, I saw a cute guy at a local fair near my house, and feel deeply in love. I didn't masturbate or even look at porn for an entire week. I could not think of him sexually at all. Until eventually, the effect wore out. I started becoming addicted again, and also became to overbearing to the guy I was in love with because I texted him too much. He was 28 and I was 17, and he had no idea I actually liked him. This crushed me too, and the school year started soon after. I started imagining him and his friends withbme wherever I went and stalked his page constantly. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Later on in thar school year, I fucked up with both of the friend groups I was in, and lost them all. The rest of the year passed by slowly, but it still ended up okay. Now onto this school year, my senior year. I come back to school and no matter what I do, I can't get myself to stop. And a few months into the year, I finally get caught. I get suspended and don't come back for a few days. I get bullied as expected and lay low. My mom takes my phone and deletes everything, and I eventually tell her most of what I've said here. I relapse occasionally and watch certain porn that I feel guilty about, or snap a pic of someone. Luckily, I finally deleted everything myself and never took a picture of someone or watched beastiality again, and will continue that path. My current consensus is that I'm a classic case of a kid who never had a support system, which led me to making bad decisions, and just never stopped and got worse. I also now have been diagnosed with OCD, Anxiety, and depression. I was always big on recording and taking pictures of everything memorable, which contributed to this. I also have very intense intrusive thoughts which are still unmedicated. When I took that first picture of someone I thought was attractive, I felt disgusted with myself for months. But the thoughts got stronger and stronger, and I did it again to make them go away, until eventually they got more often and consistent. I myself don't want people to be uncomfortable. I hate people that do stuff like that, and I wouldn't wish the feeling on anybody. No matter how many times I tried to push the thoughts away, or stop what I was doing, I couldn't. I lost all self control. The good part of me wants to help people, make them feel safe, loved, and attended for, but that side lost the fight. My morals were completely washed away over the years as my thoughts worsened, and I kept doing what I could to appease them. I consider the thoughts another being inside of me. It's super powerful and no matter how much I try to push against it, it always wins eventually. I got prescribed meds and picked them up today to help with the thoughts, and I hope it works. I found out this is called Purity OCD, which is when you have intrusive thoughts, and eventually give in and act on them to get them to go away. I also have Brain Loop Syndrome, which is when you get into a bad behavior, and want nothing but out, and physically cannot do it. I also want to clarify again that I am not looking for sympathy. I'll take any questions or advice on where to go from here. I've been telling myself that I deserve to be tortured, raped, and killed, or to burn in hell if I end myself. Again, not for sympathy/victimization. People I've told about the situation in real life keep saying "well it's not like you committed a serious crime, lots of people are curious and many take pics but are afraid to admit it" but I feel like that doesn't make it any better?? It's still weird and wrong. But anyways, I'm open to any questions or comments about this, if you want to just comment "ky$" or "I hate you" I understand, it's totally valid. I just needed to say it, get some advice and answer questions. Have a good night ya'll.

A new study from Brigham Young University (BYU), published in Sleep Health, challenges the premise made by phone manufacturers and found that the Night Shift functionality does not actually improve sleep.
To test the theory, BYU psychology professor Chad Jensen and researchers from the Cincinnati Children’s Hospital Medical Center compared the sleep outcomes of individuals in three categories: those who used their phone at night with the Night Shift function turned on, those who used their phone at night without Night Shift and those who did not use a smartphone before bed at all.
“In the whole sample, there were no differences across the three groups,” Jensen said in a statement. “Night Shift is not superior to using your phone without Night Shift or even using no phone at all.”
The study included 167 emerging adults ages 18 to 24 who use cell phones daily.

Spring Clean out Part one. Should have at least 4 parts, more GPUs, 6,7,8th gen Intel CPUs, peripherals, monitors, RAM, Nintendo Switch, and tons more I can't think of rn. anyways, this stuff I have ready
Local only for Now 75070
https://imgur.com/a/41hl2wx Timestamps/Pics/Vids
Had some 4gb GPUs laying around and buncha other stuff, so I slapped together some PCs. These are local only and $133/each, WHY $133 each? Because the kicker is, I have buncha stuff in the last video in my timestamp I'm going to "newegg shuffle you for $1" bringing the total to $400 !!!!
I do have lots of GPU, motherboard, PC case boxes if you want those also.
Info about some of the "free stuff"
Ryzen 5800x, BSOD in my Sons PC, but not mine, gave him a Diff CPU, no further testing
Mobo, Doesn't boot, could be because it's not updated for 5xxx, Not worried about it, dont need it
Amazon Echo, Just spins blue and wont go into setup mode
Logitech G PRO X Superlight, used for maybe 2 weeks, scroll started acting up, Logitech sent another ( comes with all accessories )
Everything mentioned assumed not working, everything else in the pics, is just stuff, not going to list out bunch stuff I don't want. PC specs are as follows.
PC1
Some MSI case
No side panel
H110m/A
No IO shield
600w psu
I5/7500
MSI 1650 super
8gb ram DDR4
128gb SATA m.2
PC2
Cooler Master HAF ATX Case
650w PSU
FX8370
GTX970
MSI 970A Gaming Pro Mobo
12GB DDR3
128gb M2 Sata
PC3
Montech Case Lots of stickers ( not by me )
No side panel
Biostar x370GTN Mobo
Ryzen 3 3100
Gigabyte RX470
128gb SATA m.2
8GB DDR4
600W EVGA PSU
GPUs - Think I got them all here on hws except 2 ( 1080, 3060Ti) , only one that came with/has a box is the 3060ti.
4- EVGA 1080tis 2 Dual fan, 2 Triple Fan / $150 each
2-EVGA 1070ti's $100 each
1 - MSI 3060ti $240
1-Zotac 1080 ( chipped 8 pin, my bad, was like New until 1 week ago, also has cooler for sff $80
1- 4060 ROG Strix $325
3 - 5700xt's 1- MSI $140 / 1 Rog Strix - $150 / 1 Sapphire $150
Handheld
1 -Ayaneo 2021 , 4500u/512GB/16GB with Dock, Keyboard and Skull Candy Case $240
CPUs
G4650 - $15?
G3900 - $15?
RAM
16(2x8) Corsair Vengance DDR3 $20?
Comment then PM, No chats. Any questions, shoot me PM

I recently got the Chase Bonvoy Boundless card and have a question about the SUB. It’s 3 free nights valued at 50,000 per night so 150,000 total. Does anyone know if you only get 3 nights or if you can use the 150,000 for more than 3 nights? Thanks

Two years ago my rapist was found guilty of second degree rape in St. Mary's County, MD. Little did I know, that the neat end to my tragedy would hardly be over.
Sentencing, is the act in which the judge determines the punishment of the convicted felon. Usually felons are taken into custody and the time they spend in jail will later be considered part of whatever jail time they are issued. For me? The Judge allowed the man to have a ankle monitor until sentencing and rest at home. How did he spend his time? Well, he showed up to the soccer games I would've been at (luckily abroad at the time) and he got picked up at a party he lied about attending and was then held in jail until sentencing.
The sentencing happened nearly two months after the trial--but no one told me. The State's Attorney contacted me and informed me I had to drop everything to rush to the court to give my statement. I went first and because I was not prepared--didn't say half of what I wanted and wasn't nearly as eloquent as I wanted to be.
Afterwards, the judge allowed the Defense attorney to comment on my mental health because I had a therapist and then asked if I had ever been sexually assaulted before. Yes, this is not trial--he was already guilty--but the judge allowed me to be crossed anyway at the sentencing. Thankfully the States Attorney objected to that line of questioning and I got to listen to all his supporters sum my rapist up: He's good at soccer, he translates for the community, and he never raped them--so how bad was he really? And my rapist? Well, since he was found guilty he found god, saw he had an alcohol problem, and realized he would never get the life he wanted. Apologized to the judge, his parents, and supporters. Oh yea, and me!
The Judge deliberated and despite the Maryland minimum guidelines being 5 to 10 years--she gave him 18 months and included whatever time he already spent in jail. 10 months later, he was out reoffending against young girls. By the time the warrant went out, he knew he was done for and took his life in the parking lot by my apartment complex--did I mention he only spent three months out of jail and most of it was spent in my apartment complex with his significant other?
Thankfully, a corner apartment, locked doors, and a big, big dog made me feel a lot safer. Remember to get therapy! My therapist was crucial in my mental recovery. But to be honest, his death was the most freeing aspect of it all.
I'll never see him at the soccer field. Never see him turning the corner of a store. Never see his distinctive car flying across an intersection.
But it's never over. The uninformed from soccer mourned his suicide; I didn't have the heart to say he was a convicted rapist who raped me. His obituary was glowing--a loving, helpful, generous community man taken too young.
Then the judicial election. 1.5 years later I am still being dragged into this. When there was a question of the judge's competency in going so far below minimum guidelines for someone who immediately reoffended potentially multiple people/times--the judge's response was a mass text saying I was older than the victim, I had previously been consensual, and I was hiding it from my boyfriend.
??? I would very much like to be excluded from this narrative. After all, my boyfriend was my biggest support in all of it--I just didn't want him listening to me describe my rape? Also, last I checked a large portion of rapes are from former consensual relationships that don't take closed doors as an option.
Regardless, I wrote an Op-ed, connected with the Maryland Crime Victim's Resource Center to coordinate a release...and...nothing. No one wants to post it. I got one response that they claimed they researched for 7 hours but took only a quote on how disappointed I was about the outcome.
Why? Because politics are running behind the scenes. This judge was appointed by former governor Hogan who is running for Maryland senator and his daughter recently took post in the State Attorney's office.
Is my outcome common or to be expected? I guess not. But the next time you tell a rape victim go ahead and report your crime--this is what they get. Silenced.
That being said? Even with tape over my mouth and my hands tied behind my back, I don't regret a goddamn thing--except that I wasn't more vocal sooner.
Nevertheless, persist my friends.