Best choti

Some time back, me and the missus had a streak going for watching old movies, especially the ones which are not very popular. We had already watched the famous ones i.e. Deewar, Sholay, Golmaal etc so we purposefully chose certain movies which are less well known but with good ratings/reviews. Some of the movies we enjoyed are

• Waqt - Fairly common theme of lost siblings/parents but it was a well made one
• Hamraaz (1967) - Fantastic murder mystery. It also helps that the youtube print quality is absolutely stellar. You can feel the mountains in the songs
• Johnny Mera Naam (1971) - One of the weaker ones. It was like a mishmash of the popular elements going on at that time - comedy villian, lost sibling etc
• Ek Ruka hua Faisla (1985) - Great remake of 12 Angry Men
• Choti Si Baat - Perhaps the best romantic comedy of all time. There is nothing better.
• Kabhie Kabhie - Good story but the acting by the actress who plays Amitabh's girl is cringy.
• Aradhana - Classic, will always stay a classic

We are looking for more recommendations (hopefully not as well known - I know Aradhana is an exception here as it is one of the greats).

Rant about green flag kt.
Green forest kt
Also Noone has proposed to one another yet We just in dating phase, not in relationship 🤷🏼‍♂️
Continuation...
So as usual hami tya bhaktapur bata wednesday farkyem ghar. Then we chatted for a while and she continuously requested me to rant about her and so whats I did. But she was expecting a roast lol Haha. Thursday, i was busy with college assignments so we didnt talk that much haiii but she called me on my mobile and we talked for a lil bit and we came up with a plan to go to pulchowki this saturday. Friday mero international student eligibility scholarship ko lagi naxal ma interview thiyo so tya gako they. Thikai vayo interview ani ma ghar ayera sute.
Ani tespaxi baneshwor ghumna niske ma college mates vetna like bato ma she called me and we were on phone the whole time in bus, bla bla kura vo ani i found it funny when she asked aru kt lai vetna ta gairachainau ni and eben apologised to me if she was sounding desperate for attention, anyways ma khayera farke around 7. So, friday is club night for me and bois. So as usual my best friend said club jam vanera but i denied yesterday because club gaye vane hiking jana mildaina vanera, sathi pheri risayo ma sanga, hike ma tyo ni auna wala plan thiyo but ma club jana namanera risayo u ani audina vanyo. So at last, we decided, she and i will go alone.
Tara u sanga kunai ramro luga thena hike ma lagaune vanthyo soo i said chinta naliga, i will bring one t-shirt for you merai lagau. And she agreed. Teii 7 baje samma Sato bato pugam vanera plan banaye ani halka chat garera sutyem. Uslai pheri nidra lagenaxa 12 baje and she had had messaged me lol but ma nidayi sakera herina. Mero ni ankha 4:56 ma khulyo ani ma fresh vayera ani uslai uthauna call gare(personal alarm things) ani tespaci Dubai jana ready vayera 6 baje tira afno afno ghar bata niskem.
Ma chadai pugeko they so,tya i bought some bananas and snacks to munch on because why not. 🤷🏼‍♂️ Ani tespaxi tyo ni ayoo, saw her from distance, waved hi andbwe hugged and i was standing there like a stud holding ek darjan kera.😂 and she was like kasle khanxa yetro thulo thulo kera which i found funny. Anyways she complimented that i looked cute today banera Soo hamii micro chadyem
ani me being chalak as i am, bought earphone instead of air pods so that we can share it in a romantic way. Ek earphone do atma moment vayo for next 30min or so. Hahaha aba hera mero mobile ma matra dik chik song (the script, post molane, drake, lil baby, rammstein, pink flyod shits) haru matra thiyo so she wasn't really impressed with my music taste balla talla photograph vane euta romantic song vetyo tyo sunyo majale othrr than that i felt she tolerated listening to my favourite songs. I really glad that I didn't play Travis Scott songs to her though. (By the Travis Scott is fucking legend)
Tespaxi, pugem, we bought snacks and some drinks and around 8 pm hidyem mathi. Uslai pheri yad ayo she has to take her medicines, so we stopped at nearby bhati looking hotel for chiya and sel. She ordered black tea and I ordered milk tea. She wanted to dip her sel in my jutho chiya ani she asked if she can try. And she drank my jutho chiya brooooo what😭😭 mero siblings ra cousins le ni das choti socha houuu. Teii aba khayera hidyem. Then i remembered that i bought her t-shirt and i showed her that, she was looking fine af already but she still wanted to wear mine. Najik ko hotel ma gayera change garyo and it was suiting her well.
Anii teii Guff gardai hidira them. Ekdam jiskera. Also she wore my jacket lol. Bichma basera couple wala photography ni garem also ek arka ko roast pani hanira them. Vro laughed at my dumbest jokes yrrr. Lolol lamest jokes possible. J hos ramailo nai vaira thiyo. We were listening to romantic songsz talking about past experiences, and sharing opinions. Just idk i wanted to prank my ex gf which she somehow agreed for, but network nai milena lol. Tespaxi we sat and ate chips tyo ni tesle malai afnai hath le khuwayo, so cuteeeeeee haha. Jhan afai euta khane, malai 3-4 wota ekchoti khuwaune like a child. Haha. It was cute though. We then again clicked pictures, rested. Ani teii jiskera basira them. About nonsense stuffs literally. Bato ma she was like playing with my hair ani maile ni usko tanira they kapal. Harek kura ma rich kid Rich kid Banera malai jiskaira thiyo tho which was halka annoying.
Literally hath ma hath samayera hidira them haha. Looked cute haha. Asked one uncle to click our couple pictures and it came out cute. Ma chor jasto dekhira chu vanira they, to Which she said, that i look good and i have good or say decent fashion sense Alsoo teii usko crush ko nam ni samw merai ho which i found halka weird but it's true. Tespaxi weather suddenly change vayo, ani pani parna thalyo.
Do jaan, ek umbrella moment vayo hamro. Cuddle garyem anii listened to romantic songs like mila ho tumse, aye ho zindagi me, rabata bala bala. Nachdai rain ma gayira them alsoo singing with our chateko bora voice We still continued the journey despite rain. Anii like ma bato ma thadai hidxu soo she wss like tmi side laga chup chap and scolded me lol ki tmlai kei vayo vane, ma k garne (flirting way ma) haha which I found cute. Tespaxi vir chada ni u agadi hidne ani malai paxadi bata tanera lagnii it was cute. Alsooo like ma bolna like chup chap basyo vane ni like sodhni where are u lost, k sochira testo testo, basically attention chaira thiyo lol. Alsooo like mero lagi chata ni samatyo and like maile eta aau uta auu Vanda ni testai manii. Teii ek arka ko pura billa udaira them belabela ma.
Tespaxi like 1 bajna lako thiyo so ajai 2hrs journey baki thiyo so we decided to return without reaching mathi samma. Bato ma testaii, hath ma hath samayera hidira them alsoo like maile chorna bitikai tesle kehi minutes pachi afai tyo hath samauthiyo which I found so cuteee. More couple pictures lim testai testai. Khadai ramaudaii ghumyem. Alsoo we talked about dark secrets also.. by the way, like she was so considerate k. Tyo jacket layera ako thena, so i gave her mine but bela bela ma she gave me to wear it chiso lagxa tmlai Banera lagau. Alsooo saman haru ni samaidira thiyo. Alsooo bela bela gentleman gentleman Banera malai jiskaira thiyo lol.
Coincidentally pulchowki hiking bato ma tesko school friends le dekhyo hamlai cuddle gardai also hath samaudai ani uslai jiskiyo halka so for sometimes she became sad jasto but pachi pheri mood fresh vayo anii teii pheri ramrari bolna thalem. Halka gham lageko thiyo tyo bela, soo we clicked more pics anii teii Guff gardai hidira thiyem. Ek arka lai herdai smile gardai, dank jokes crack gardai tala jharyam. Alsoo like i said tmi tmlaima dependent ma lagxu bahira chinta naleuu jiskeea. To which she was like yes yes malai laga lol
(Kunai kunai incident yad airaxaina) Tara it was cute moments together. Literally i couldn't believe we were meeting for the second time.
Tespaci gadi chadyem ani lagankhel gayem. Gadi ma she was sleeping on my shoulders. Cuteeeee haha. Lagankhel to durbar square, jada i bought her two jhumkas. Tespaxii patan ma rooftop lasa something something ma basem anii enjoyed momo pizza testai ani pay garne bela she didn't let me pay even if i was insisting i will pay. Literally 1000+ ko bill thiyo and she paid. Ani tespaxi i wanted to buy a ring lkina vane i lost my ring mathi hike Garda kheri anii instead she bought us matching bracelets which was cute but 300 houuu, costly lol.
Tespaci we went to have coffee in Himalayan java coffee for which i paid Clicked cute little mirror selfies. Drank coffees. Teslai mero coffee khanu man thiyo soo she again drank my jutho by asking if i can try. Enjoyed the view ani teii Guff gaff garem. Ramailo vayo ta ekchin basera. Was finally like we are back to real world after getting lost in the woods.
Tespaxi hamii farkida coincidentally lalitpur ma jatra raixa soo tyo heryam buttt literally it was so crowded lol. Uslai bacha jasto samatera anii protect garera literally tanira they from crowd like escaping game jasto. By the way, i love newari culture and cuisine. Anii testaii lagankhel pugem. Uslai bus ma chadaye ani we hugged for the last time and departed. By the way, she took my shirt and new jacket again. Mero wardrobe chorxa ki kya ho.
Bato bhari i was thinking about today memories. It was soooo fun houuuu. Literally hardly 18 hrs time spend garyo hola asti ani ajako milayera but i feeel like i have known her from so many years.
Maile ajako kati payw kura ani incidents haru chutaira xu buttt seriously kati wota cute cute moments thiyo ajaa ta hahaha sochda kheri ni blush garxu hahaha.
Are we stuck in rom com movie?
Excited for the next meet. What future holds for us?

Just realised lamba chavda likh diya- Jinka exam hai kripaya kripaya karke na padhe apni padhai par dhyan de. unless break liya ho.
raat ke 2:15 baj rahe hai. and this thing is stuck in my mind since morning. mene series of bad decisions liye hai. like offcourse not resisting like mujhe engineering nahi karni , iske upar kuch karano wajah se drop lena aur bhi bahot hai, saare padhai related bhi nahi hai lekin sabse ganda drop wala tha. mujhe vet banna tha ik its yuck for some people lekin, dheere dheere i understood its the same shit as JEE tough ahhh competition everywhere. not for me. mein drawing mein bhi kaafi accha hu, mujhe banna tha ek architect, gharwalon ko lagta hai architecture is useless bruh like actual architect banne ka sapna hai mera, chalo sahi yeh nahi toh nahi commerce? NEIN Lmao
Drop year ke shuruvaat mein he mujhe malum tha nahi hone wala mujhse yeh :) jihne real interest hai IIT NIT's mein jaane ka woh tak reh jaate hai peeche. mene toh sapne bhi nahi dekhe inke lmao kyuki karni he nahi thi eng.
ab anyways drop lene ko keh diya, PCM mein daal diya, Coaching mein daal diya. itna sab kara toh karna padega hem mujhse hua nahi kuch :) 70 percentile aayi last year iss baar 70 aur second pucho na toh sahi. Though mene try kara JEE maths accha karne ka kyuki B.arch ka paper bhi dene wala tha diya bhi. Did good in drawing but idk I fucked up maths sincerely.
mere parents mujhe kitna bhi ganda score aa jaaye kuch na kehte literally. Reason is they tried for few exams and failed back in their times. and yeh jo kuch nahi kehne wala part hai it hurts more then anything. Gaali dedo toh bhi chal jayega, silence is really loud ff's
Ab mujhe really nahi pata mujhe kya karna chahiye like koi carrier switch bhi possible nahi hai. Engineering is the way now, mera cet 11 ko hai. I don't know mein kya he karunga. Pura burn out ho chukaa hu. upar se mental health ke jo actual dragonized lode lage pade hai woh different. Pata nahi kitne number aayenge ya kya, I gave mocks scored decentish or even bad for few but its relative (90-110 never more then this and less then 90). mene mera part kara sahi se sahi - Chem and maths ke 22,23 pyqs kare saare ke saare physics reh gaya though lekin koi ni gand maraye. even if i fail to score good i won't feel shit bas decent sa score aa jaye bas like 90-94 ke beech mein khushhh aaye aaye nahi aaye nahi aaye. mujhe cse bhi nahi chahiye- abhi ke liye only mechanical interest me a little kyuki mene curriculum dekha uska (mere ke cousin se pata chala sab kuch) and this is the only thing that interests me.
But life is straight up fucked. nahi mila accha percentile toh yaha local mein CSE ya entc se kaam chalana padega since there is no point in spening ONE SEXTILLION DOLLARS on a tier 55 college. Abhi ke liye i will have to stick to engineeing kyuki yahi plate pe khana dalega aage masters wagera bhi karunga since abhi toh chud gaya huuu :).
Drop na liya hota* toh aaj dost jo yahi local college mein hai unke saath admission le leta, toh i would have been much more happier atleast. khudke interest explore karta, drawing banani aati i would have worked on acrylic painting, portraits yeh woh. yeh saal jo mental health ko chot pahuchi hai that is ahhhhhhhh i don't even know what to say. Interest nahi bacha kisi mein, chalta firta laash hu bas lol.
Laptop leke balcony mein baitha hu garmi ki wajah se, planes revise kar raha tha, suddenly yeh dimag mein explodeee jaisa kar gaya ab type kar raha, Subah se su!cdeee contemplate kar raha, ro raha hu literally idk what have i even become its not academic thing lmao, gand maraye result gand maraye sab kuch 50 percentile bhi aa jaye toh i will not feel sad, kyuki kari hai mene mehnat. maths pura ragad diya chem pura ragad diya with pyqs, lack of revision is gonna fuck me prolly lekin abhi ke liye fuck it. lekin depression kaccha chaba jaa raha. na kisi mein interest hai na kuch. my mind is playing both teams- ek kehta hai pagal hai kya bsdk ? jindagi bahot choti hai, yeh sab mat soch ek kehta hai mar ja bhai life toh waise bhi suffering hai. I am damn sure i will not KMS lmao, because i am a pussy to do so and i have constant hope of things will get better. bahot dino se i didn't see anything get better isi wajah se thoda kam ho raha ispe bhi bharosa lekin again i hope things will get better :))))))
am not bluffing on depression part- actually diagnosed hu moderately depressed, many personal reasons led to this.
JO BHI DROP LENE KA SOCH RAHE HAI PLEASE I REQUEST YOU- PEHLE KHUDKO PARKHO, TUMHARI MENTAL HEALTH KAISI HAI YEH DEKHO DON'T BE STUPID AND TAKE DROP AGAR TUM ALREADY DEPRESSED AND ANXIOUS HO. IT'S A FRESH START FROM BASICS- LEKIN JUST LOOK BACK AT YOURSELF 2 YEARS AGO AND SOCHO KAHA GALAT GAYA MEIN ? MUJHE SAMAJH MEIN TOH SAB AATA THA GALAT KAHA GAYA? IT MIGHT BE LIKE PROBLEM SOLVING KAM KARI YEH WOH. LEKIN AGAR LAGE- YOU TRIED YOUR BESTT I MEAN BESST AND STILL FAILED, YOU CAN GO FOR DROP THOUGH, KEH RAHA TRIED YOUR BEST. (mIGHT KEH RAHA). SOCH SAMAJH KE LIYO DROP PLEASEEE AUR LIYA TOH KOI KASAR NA CHHODO WARNA, EK SAAL BAAD JAB TUMHARA EXAM HOTA JEE NEET CET KOI BHI USKE 3 DIN PEHLE TUM AISA RANT TYPE KAROGE 😭

It is evening time and champak goes for a walk at a nearby park and while walking there suddenly a football hits him in the back of his head after which he falls down and once again his head hits with the big rock! Champak gets unconscious and nearby people gathers and surrounds him. Co-incidentally Tapu Sena are also in the park and when they see large crowd gathering they went there and gets shocked by seeing champak laying down unconsciously! They took champak to a nearby hospital and informed gokuldham society members about it. Everyone rushes there and doctor informs them that champak is very critical because of his head colliding with rock it has lead to a serious injury and now everything is in the hands of God !! Jethalal becomes extremely emotional, A sad bgm plays in the background and he is remembering all the good and funny moments with champak (flashback scenes) and every society member is consoling him

Suddenly a nurse comes and says that champak is regaining his consciousness! Every society member rushes to see him and jethalal emotionally hugs him as well but here comes the big twist.... Champak sees everyone with a Pikachu face and asks:- "kon cho tame badha"? (Who are you all) which suprises everyone after which jetha tells him :- "bapuji me aapka jethiya" and other society members also introduce themselves. Now doctor comes and tells everyone to wait outside post which he calls everyone in his cabin and says champak is recovering now but one big issue is that champak is suffering from 'AMNESIA' (condition in which person loses memory)!! Jetha being Jetha misinterprets it to 'aam rasiya'(lover of mango)' and says :- "bapuji to bachpan se hi aam rasiya hai" with Charlie Chaplin type, smile listening this doctor is patting his head. Mehta explains what amnesia actually is after which jetha falls down and starts crying. Folding his hand he is requesting doctor to make champak normal again and this is the most emotional jetha has ever been! Doctor and society members assures him of quick recovery. Doctor says that champak current memory is when he was a child so take care of him and he will get discharged after some time. Before discharging champak, Hathi being a doctor sends tapu sena and tells them to remove all the photos of him and his father because if champak sees garland on the photo of his father, that will give him shock which is not good for his health and advises all the society members to refrain themselves from indulging in any activity that can cause stress to champak. 

Now champak is being taken to gokuldham after assuring him that Jehta is his 'Kaka' and Jayantilal (father of champak) is at jetha's house. And a blast of comedy begins here :- Champak calls everyone Kaka(uncle) and Kaki(aunty) and tapu sena as Mota Bhai(big bro). Babita and Jethalal are standing together seeing which champak asks jethalal:- "kaka aa mari kaki che"? (Is babita jethalal's wife) after which jetha instantly gives smiling expression then suddenly changes it to surprise and says sorry to babita to which babita responds saying it's okay after which jetha once again gives a shy smile. After some time champak starts crying that he wants to meet his father and somehow society members consoles him and makes him sleep in the next room. A bit emotional scene will be there where jetha says that how child be it of any age needs the love and blessings of father. Next day starts and here we see champak like a child doing 'kulla' (littering) on the society ground and irritating every gokuldham society members like he plays tabla on bhide's head and calls him 'taklo kako' (bald uncle) and then goes to hathi's house and how goli and hathi snatches food from people in the same way he snatches food from goli and hathi's plate and here we see goli and hathi running behind requesting champak to give them back their plate and here champak makes them run the whole society ground and then run away at iyer's house and here Iyer is doing some work in his laptop. Champak distracts Iyer and starts using his laptop and as champak doesn't know much about laptop he thought of it as some instrument and start playing with the keyboard. Iyer wore a lungi and champak runs away taking his lungi directly to popatlal's house and shouts "pappa pappa". Now at the same time popatlal was in call with some girl whom he connected through marriage bureau and listening to champak's screaming that girl rejects popatlal after which popatlal cuts call and gets angry on champak and says:- "chachaji ye kya kiya aapne" and here champak throws lungi on popa's face and runs away. Champak is in the compound now and in between popat calls jetha and suddenly champak went to abudl's shop and removing abdul's cap he is trying to run away from the society but luckily Abdul catches him and anyhow takes him to the society and till now everyone came to the compound. Jetha apologies but everyone says that champak is like their father so no need to apologies and bhide instructs everyone that society main gate will be closed because of champak and those who want to enter or exit should call Abdul everytime.
Jetha decides to call champak's old friend from bachau by citing current situation and old friend reaches gokuldam and society members are in champak's house only. Now old friend is trying his best to make champak remember about him but instead champak assumes that old friend as "FATHER OF SARPANCH KI BETI " and he pleads to old man to let him marry with "Sarpanch ki beti" when both grew up. Listening his society members are both shocked and they are laughing a bit as well and jethya is thinking "agar bapuji ki shaadi unki marzi se hoti to kya meri maa sarpanch ki beti hoti"!! Old friend says "Champak Chakri Thai gayo che" and runs away facing embarrassment. Now a week passes by and daily champak irritates society members through his antics and while society members everyday pray for his well-being they sometimes become playful with him as well like Mehta with champak's help throws diet food without Anjali getting to know about it and bhide influences champak to always sit between tapu and Sonu lol.
It is the same time of evening now and bhide and popatlal gets in argument regarding society matter because of which all society members gets in compound except tapu sena which are there with champak at jetha's house. But tapu being 'choti daya' and 'chapli' tells his friends to go and solve bhide popat matter and that he will make champak understand to not leave the house. Champak pretends that he won't leave house. A few minutes after tapu sena goes downside champak also goes there and slowly slowly goes towards the society board side after which he immediately rushes towards the society gate and as Abdul is also in the compound but he has kept a lock, Champak jumps the gate and go outside while running he goes to the same park and the same thing repeats like the ball hits him in back of his head post which he falls down and once again head hits with the big rock. Now he is rushed to the hospital and jetha and society members are informed about it. Champak regains consciousness and everyone asks him how is he like how people asks the child and champak suddenly asks that why is everyone talking with him like he's some child. After this doctor tells everyone that champak has regained his memory now because of this incident happening with him once again but be aware as you never know when he might go back to his child version! We see the delight in jetha and everyone's face and eventually Mehta ends it with his "shayari".
Guys please take your time out and read this arc and please do comment how's it.

IIs it me, or has the "choti advance" quality degraded over time? It used to be my go-to cigarette, but now it's not what it used to be. Not to mention, I've been smoking ultra milds for ages, but the budget-friendliness of choti advance always lured me. Is there any alternative to this brand, or should I stick with it and hope for the best?

So the thing is maile headphone lyako 1.5 years vathyo , ani ghara aauda babalai vanethye headphone banauna parni vacha vanera ,maile afai gayera banayera lyauchu vanda diyena, ani afai gayo lera, ani 1 ghanta ma farkesi, chichyayera, he made me fucking feel like shit, literally testo minor chij thyo yar, esto chichyayera tharkayo, literally, Kei vako thena headphone, battery fulleko thyo, dherai vathyo lyako so, ani care garni haina kei chij ko, lauda lassan, La vanyo thikai cha, sustari vaneko vaye k hunthyo yarr, Yo matra haina, Literally harek kura ma i feel like i am shit, J kura ma ni, i have been good in my academics always, ani ek choti naramro grades athyo ( not top wala) 11 ma, Teti bela samma i was good, Ani tyo result ma ni, prize pauthyo top garni students le, ani mero ramrai thyo marks, which i gave my best studies my ass off, but he was angry with me that, I didn't get the shit, after that mero confidence nai purai down vayo , padna padhe ajhai jhan abdi, tara, confident nai thena, Ani harek chij ma estai feel huncha, they never allowed me to do house chores, and still think i am a dumb fuck and cant handle any tthings, i fucking hate it , i an 21 years old, ani they are too much over controlling, aba 2 din ma ghar chodera ktm janchu, i will feel like heaven, I fucking hate my dad !!!!!!!; how do you guys deal with such situations??? Edit : i reread the entire thing written by me, and it got me confused reading my own english while j was writing this i was flowing in emotions, so don't go jnto english , understand the feeling

I'm 23 from Gujarat mujhe apne 4+ ke long distance relationship ke liye advice chahiye ( mere unpaid therapist ban jao )
Starting se meri situation samjhte hai
Mai Gujarat se hu aur mai 5 saal phele apne friend ke sath delhi ghoomne gaya tha... udhar hum ek party me gaye the aur tab mai apni gf se pheli baar mila tha hum mile humne baate ki in short humari vibe match ho gayi thi... humne number exchange kare n fir mahino tak baate karte gaye phele texts fir calls n hum close aate gaye dekhte hi dekhte relationship me aa gaye.
Year 1 - honeymoon period
Hum log relationship ke honeymoon period me the... ek doosre se raat baar baat karte fir din me apne apne kaam pe hote.... din me bhale hi busy rehte par raat ko ache se baat karte apne poore din ki baate batate ( mujhe bohot pasand hai uski baate suna matlab mai bina bore hue poori raat uski baate sun sakta hu ) best year of my life..... hum pheli baar sath me trip pe gaye the goa... best trip n sabse badiya saal meri zindagi ke
Year 2 - EX
Humari relationship ka doosra saal start hua hum khush the.... ek dikkhat thi uska ex vo log ahbi bi touch me the khabi kabar wish n baate kar lete ( mujhe ye baat pata thi n mujhe koi problem nahi tha haa thoda jealous tha kyuki bc usko guitar bheja ne aata tha ) vo dono ek hi city me the toh mujhe thoda ajeeb lagta tha but mene khabi ye baat boli nahi fir vo log close aane lage mujhe acha nahi lag raha tha toh mene ek raat baat ki mujhe ye acha nahi lag raha n usne ye baat ko samjha aur mujhse bola ki vo baat kam karegi n doori banake rakhegi...... baaki toh sab me we were good humne sath aur bi achi trips kari acha time spend kiya.... regular days pe dono din me apne kaam me busy hote n raat ko ache se baat karte masti karte , movies series dekhte , reels n current affairs pe charcha karte MAJE HI MAJEEEE
Year 3 - good news n bad news
Good - humne apne apne ghar pe relationship ke baare me bata diya n dono ki family open thi sabne accept kiya hum log khush the mai uski family se mila vo meri family se mili ( vo toh meri family ki favorite hi ban gayi ) shaadi ke baare me baat hone lagi humne decide kiya ki 4-5 saal me shaadi kar lege aur tab tak financially independent bi ho jayege apni nayi life sath me start karege.
Bad - meri gf jaha job karti thi udhar uske ache friends bane gaye the acha bada group tha unka weekends me sab sath me plan karte bahar jaate short trips, movies , clubs etc etc
Ab uss group me se do ladke ( ramesh n suresh ) uske ache dost ban gaye... ramesh ke sath thoda zyaada hi close hone lagi vo sath me lunch n dinner karte vo acha dost ban gaya tha.... fir ek din suresh ne propose kar diya.... meri gf ne usko mana kar diya.... thode dino baad ek aur bomb fatta ki ramesh bi like karta hai aur ye kaise pata chala ye logo ne house party rakhi thi sab daaru ke nashe me truth n dare khel rahe the aur ramesh bhaisahab ne bata diya ( ye bkl male bestfriend ) aur ye sab baate meri gf ne mere sath share kiya tha toh kya ho raha hai mujhe sab pata tha.... meri gf ko sirf unke sath dosti continue rakhni thi n ladke kamine toh hote hai.
Ye sab fir bi theek tha mujhe thoda insecure feel hota tha par mujhe uspe poora trust tha aur achi ladki hai ( green flag )
Ek baar mai milne gaya tha hum sath me trip pe gaye the ek raat mai uska phone use kar raha tha ( check kar raha tha ) aur mujhe gallery me uske group ke trips ki photo dekhi aur bi clubs party ki photos dekhi jo mujhe ye pata nahi thi ( ye baat mere liye isliye badi hai kyuki hum jo bi karte the kahi bi bahar jaate the toh update karte the ya raat ko batate the ki kidhar gaye kya kiya etc etc ) aur ye saari parties n trips ke baare me mujhe nahi bataya tha vo dono ladke bi group me the aur mujhe ye bilkul bi acha nahi laga mene khabi iske baare me usse baat nahi ki bas pata nahi kyu mann me hi baat rakhi aur iss baat ne mujhe bohot effect kiya humari trip katam hui mai apne ghar gaya mai raat ko so nahi pata tha mai ro bi nahi pata tha.. pata nahi kya feeling thi.. confuse ho gaya tha.. kuch bi samjh nahi aa raha tha... mene iss baare me baat ki usne bola ki hum log apne apne kaam me busy ho gaye the ki vo bata nahi payi ( haa uss time pe hum dono kaam pe busy ho gaye the ki raat ko bi ache se baat nahi kar pate the ) par toh bi ye toh fuddu reason tha mene kuch bola nahi aur bas jaisa chal raha tha chalne diya.
Year 4 - downfall
Meri gf ko family issues ki wajah se delhi ki job chodhh ne padhi n she was good uska plan ye tha ki mba karke aur badi achi job le lugi ya govt exams ki tayari karugi ( hume koi financial issue nahi the dono ki families well to do hai ) toh iss chakar me ye baat achi hui ki uske group se dooriya badh gayi n baate bandh ho gayi.
Par hum ahbi tak phele jaise nahi hue hai april katam hone ko aaya hai hum ek baar bi nahi mile hai ahbi toh hum raat ko baat bi nahi karte hai na normal calls na video calls kyuki vo games khel rahi hoti hai mene bola usse ki humara time tum game ko de rahi ho but kuch hua nahi mene fir khabi roka nahi mujhe lagta hai ki usse game khelne se khushi milte hai vo enjoy karti hai toh mai kuch bolta nahi hu raat ko kaam se aate apni series ya movie dekh ke good night bolke so jaata hu aur mujhe strongly feel ho raha hai ki hum khabi bi break up kar sakte hai hum ek doosre se kuch share nahi karte apni problems apne pass rakhte hai.
Ek baat clear karna chata hu ye sab mere relationship ke main events the jisme mene apni side ki story batayi hai jo mene feel kiya aur khud ko clear green chit nahi de raha hu mai bi red flag hu mere bi choti si male ego hai , ladayi ke baad me hafto tak baat nahi karta , ladayi ke baad ache se nahi manata , bohot zyaada kaam me busy ho jaata hu ki time hi nahi de pata hu..
Ye kuch meri dil ki baate jo mene khabi kisko bola nahi idhar bi isliye bata paa raha hu kyuki mujhe koi janta nahi hai
Mujhe sach me help chahiye mai khud ko bohot zyaada lonely feel karne laga hu... raat ko bed pe rone ka mann karta hai par ro nahi pata hu pata nahi kya hota hai.. mere sath kya ho raha hai kuch samjh nahi aa raha hai
Thank you

Yesterday i attempted exam for 3rd time . 1st time in regular i just read guide , no coding in laptop , no anything , so could not pass . 2nd time i thought lets get some concept from youtuber , there was about 10 day gap , 7/8 days i watched jenny's lecture and made note , and read that and went to exam . No practicing in laptop . So , again i failed . Last year , i skipped exam because i knew i won't pass and i had other backs too . So , i thought not to waste time on c . And here the 3rd attempt comes , i.e. story of last 1 week . I attempted every questions & think the answers are right too . But how ? What's the secret ? (Let me continue in nepali...) . 1st ra 2nd attempt hani sakey paxi yo yetikai padera/video herera matrai katdaina vnney chai vaie sakeko thiyo , laptop ma code ta hannei prxa vnney thaha thiyo . Code ta hanney ? tara concept ta chaiyo kasari liney ? video herney mero scl ko ? youtube ko ? A big no .regular sakiyeko 1 hapta ma back xa , feri tehi cycle continue hunxa vnney thaha thiyo . So , i started with a book "Learning C with examples" . Thanking to fellow redditers who were suggesting it . I started reading from fortran . Kina ki aghillo back ma fortran last ma birsiyeko rish le garda ho . Tara starting with fortran became a big help for me . Kina ki fortran ma agadi ko sabai lesson ko important important question ekai thau ma xa , lekhney tarika farak hola tara logic bujepaxi it will do a big help to you while studying agadi ko lessons . Mailey chai book bata padna suru grey , ani agadi laptop & chatgpt , ekdam minor minor kura pani i didn't ignored . chatgpt lai sodi halney nabujeko. fortran ko sabai program code haney laptop ma . ani suruma chai afai try grthey , kahiley logic bigrintheo ta kahiley format . ani suru hunthiyo chatgpt ko kam , copy the code & ask chatgpt what is wrong ? now it gives a correct code . Still can't understand the logic ? then ask chatgpt to explain each line taking a random example . believe me , u will enjoy it . It took me 3 days to complete fortran . Tara yeslai diyeko time le agadi ko chapter lai time nei lagena khasei . Then i moved to front . 1/2 lesson lai ta khasei time dina prdaina . But 3/4/5 lai chai time dinu , 4 marks na ho vnera sarra guide pdney haina tyo loop haru kasari chalxa , kun kun ma k farak xa and imagine a situation when u gonna use this . see example of each , ani relate it with fortran , fortran ma k garintheo yehi huda ? . This will help u a lot . lesson 5 ko program chai rmro snga hernu , laptop ma grnu maximum sabai . Pattern ko lagi i watched few videos from this channel https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLVlQHNRLflP8IGz6OXwlV_lgHgc72aXlh&si=U-FQp1MJxvgkh3taani function ko duita video xa yehi channel ma , he explains very well how function works . Teti bujey paxi function will be supper easy . sabai vnda sajilo program nei function ma xa . This lesson is only tasting if u can use recursive function and know how it works or not ( exam ma pani tehi sodyo hijo) . agadi lesson 5 ra fortran ma jsto program solve grna ni vandaina . just kasari result aunxa bujepaxi you can . tara 2/4 ota code chai hannei prxa else you will forget how to write in exams . Ani read theory from book not guide . tespaxi ko lesson array , pointer , structure , file . (mailey pointer chai padina because time thiyena tara exam ma luckily theory aayo , tyo pani lekhiyo ali ali theory hereko var ma) . Agadi ramrari padeu vaney kehi garho nei hudaina because these lessons will give u only new features to work with different kind of data type theory chai ramrari bujhnu , ani program chai laptop ma at least few ta sab ko hannei prxa , minor minor mistakes haru thaha hunca . natra exam ma int main() paxi pani ; diinxa . tara program ko logic khatrei vnney kehi hudaina tei string vayo vaney compare grney tarika farak hola number vnda aru kehi xaina ....Hera kta ho malai chai exam paper dekhda ekdam sajilo lagyo tara yeha opposite opinion dekhera aru lai ni help hos vnney sochera yeti lekhiyo . C sachai garho xaina , khatra khatra logic launey ni sodaina k , simple kura ho , just computer lai format nabigari kina lekhera teti vandina saknu paryo , tara surumei sidhei guide hereu ra eautai program nagari gyeu vaney u will never pass . Ani program herda satto janxa , Omg , 2 page ko ? Bro tyo 2 page ko program ma 1.5 page ta yo yo data han yo yo print gar vndei ra 4 ota if loop ra } bracket le khayeko hunxa , yo ek choti program ma dubiyo vney kehi ghoknei prdaina yr , logic tehi 3/4 line ko simple huney rahexa . tara tyo logic chai eauta example snga relate grera bujnu pryo ( u can take help from chat gpt) jstai sorting grda hos ya matrix multiply grda hos , kina loop tesari chalayeko xa bujhnu pryo , hamley real life ma ni matrix multiply grda hos ki transpose grda hos tehi nei garinxa tara aba tyo computer le bujhney vasa ma lekhnu pryo teti ho , kunai bujenau vney i repeat again ask chatgpt to explain each line by line taking a example . Yetti ho kta ho mero vnnu , time chai dinei prxa 6/7 din complete . Baru arko brsa ekai choti vnda yehi back sakiyepaxi gharma book/laptop lyaera padnu . Afai le naheri code hanera output aauda xuttei ananda auney rahexa . U guys will enjoy . Believe me . Ani best wishes .

I (32 F) and my boyfriend (28 M) have been dating for 2 years (this November would be 3 years). I'm aware that he has a girl best friend (27 F). At first I thought they're relatives because of how close they're, but it turns out they're just friends met each other during his college days.
It triggered a fight in the beginning of our relationship because he called her "choti" which means "small" in his local language, I was questioning why doesn't he call her actual name, and I was also bothered by the fact that this choti girl often seek emotional support for something he should keep boundaries such as sharing about her relationship problems. He tried setting us in a meeting to make me understand. I think I was just paranoid, maybe cultural differences (I'm from east Asia, he's from South Asia) Eventually I apologized to them for making fuss about it.
I let them hangout multiple times, they even spent a night together for a hackathon event. I was totally fine with that.
Until recently I don't know why whenever he hangout with her, he didn't tell me. I would be okay if he told me directly, something like "I'm staying at Choti's house"
If nothing really happens between them why the need to hide it? His fear kinda rang alarm for me. Again he set up a meeting between us, and this choti girl told me that it's normal in their culture, I shouldn't have worried about it. He also mentioned that she's already engaged with another man.
But this time I'm not convinced enough.
I feel like my boyfriend prioritizes her more from these signs: 1. He called me a jealous person and wants to break up if I question his loyalty again 2. He knows her parents, his parents know her, meanwhile he didn't introduce me to his parents despite I already introduced him to my family since we're planning to get married in the future. 3. My boyfriend provides emotional support when this choti girl cried in front of him, but told me to toughen up or stop crying whenever I need his emotional support. Which I still want to stay positive, maybe it's for my own betterment.
I grew up with no opposite sex best friend because of my culture. Even if someone had one, at least they should never shared sensitive info such as asking for relationship advice. That's how my culture perceives different sex friendship. So, I just want to know how close is too close for opposite sex friendship, is this acceptable? Or did he go too far?

"Is it acceptable to engage in daily conversation here? If you have any tasks ,do it right ?"
These were the last text messages I received from her when I resumed communication after a six-month hiatus. My inner voice echoes sentiments deeply, eager to express yet reluctant to hear such words from her. These past six months seem to have brought about significant changes within her. We all know this Quote:
That the greatest battles are often fought with those closest to us, yet it's a truth I hadn't fully grasped until now. As I reflect on Twinkle, who was once known for her tender-heartedness, I find myself experiencing a shift in my response. Her messages declaring, 'You would be my special friend; how could I ignore you?' The memory of our hours-long calls every day and the joyful moments we shared together seem to have vanished. It all began when my new friend introduced me to her circle. A girl from that circle, Initially I was preoccupied with my own affairs; the true essence of our story unfolded later on.
It all began with an assignment. Feeling a bit lazy to complete my tasks, I found myself reliant on others. Without hesitation, I approached her and requested assistance with my assignment. Despite her silence, I foolishly entrusted her with my work, oblivious to her personal schedule. She didn't struggle; rather, she simply didn't want to say no to me.
Her generous and kind-hearted nature towards stranger
Initially, everything between us was perfect. Our friendship was joyful, free from any disagreements or the need for words.
"I could see a spark in you!" I uttered these words to her one fine day, a sentiment I had never experienced before with anyone else.
During a particular incident, I was in the process of purchasing new shoes and asked her for her opinion. She provided me with her genuine review. However,later on, she sneakily ordered the same shoes for me and gifted them to me for the upcoming New Year. She demonstrated proactive initiative by orchestrating a surprise, ordering the shoes as a considerate New Year's gift. This manifestation of generosity and thoughtfulness underscores her commendable character.
Even now, whenever I consider wearing formal footwear for a special occasion, Especially where I get highlighted, those shoes serve as a constant reminder of her.
There are days when she calls me and inquires whether I am bringing lunch, or if not, she offers to bring it for me. Whenever she brings desserts, she always ensures to send a separate portion for me. However, if she finds out that I've shared what she gave me, she becomes jealous. How cute she was....
Her parents are aware of my existence, and she has even extended invitations for me to join her at her home for lunch. Her father was disciplined, and so was the rest of the family. We enjoyed our meal and engaged in insightful conversations with her father. Despite being a bit nervous, I managed to conduct myself appropriately and make a good impression.
She possesses exceptional vocal talent, rendering background music unnecessary. Her enchanting voice flows effortlessly, marked by a seamless standard of pleasantness and melodic expressiveness. Once while we were in a call She sang this song and it goes like .....
Chilake Koka Katti Ninne Chuttumutti Seethaakokalaayenaa..? Ville Ekkupetti Mello Thaali Katti Maralaa Raamudavvanaa..? Andam Nee Inta Chesthondhaa Oodigame Yuddham Chaatindhi Nee Paina Ee Jagame Dhasohamandhi Naa Prapanchame Adhantha Nee Dhaye Visukkune Vellaadu Chandamamaye Nuvvunte Naa Panentane Ee Nelake Digenu Koti Taarale Neekantha Vennelentane......
Fortunately, I had activated the call recording option for various purposes, which proved to be beneficial as it enabled me to save her rendition of the song.
Even now, when I long to hear her voice, I find solace in listening to her song and to her call recordings.
The first time we met outside was at a company called Rotomaker, a VFXbased company, where we attended a meeting with the company's Managing Director. He graciously extended an invitation for us to attend special sessions on Sundays. Both she and I were interested in attending these sessions and made an agreement to do so together.
Everything was progressing seamlessly, but as life would have it, an unexpected turn emerged. I experienced mild discomfort in my stomach, prompting me to seek a routine checkup with the doctor. Following examination, the doctor recommended further diagnostic tests. Initially, I dismissed the results and departed with the belief that all would be well. However, a week later, the doctor contacted me with unexpected news: a diagnosis of mild lung cancer. Despite the news, the doctor assured me that it was in its early stages and could be easily treated.
But even this incident failed to disrupt the flow of my life; everything continued as usual. However, she expressed concern about my well-being and took it upon herself to remind me regularly to take my prescribed medications on time.
After that, we even attended a festival together. Initially, she wasn't keen on staying for the late-night festivities, but I managed to convince her, and we ended up attending. We had a wonderful time, soaking in the vibrant atmosphere and enjoying the music. We spent a lot of time holding hands and immersing ourselves in the melodies on stage. It was during this event that we captured our first memorable photo together. Although we didn't take many pictures, the ones we did are cherished memories. It was a chilly winter night, and she felt cold. I offered her my hoodie to keep her warm, and she accepted.Surprisingly, she returned it to me after 3-4 days.
I'm unsure why, but I found myself starting to borrow her belongings, including her handkerchief and her favourite notes.
Best friends have so many memories together, yet so few pictures to show for it.
In the same way even we have very minimal pics together and lots of memories together, Her cheeks were very much chubby to play whenever I get space; I would pull her cheeks, and Sometimes, words are inadequate to express the depth of our emotions. In those moments, our eyes become the windows to our souls, speaking volumes without uttering a single word. Each time I explore a new destination, I make it a point to select thoughtful gifts for her. I've curated numerous collections of Jhumkhas, among other treasures, to present to her as tokens of my appreciation, and she would love those Jhumkhas.
I still have a few gifts remaining in my possession, including her birthday present, which I am uncertain whether I should give to her now. Everything was impeccably stable until six months ago.
----- 6 MONTHS AGO -----
It all began with a small misunderstanding. During moments of levity, I would playfully call her, utter a few words, and abruptly end the call. This was a tactic I had employed previously to tease her, but never before had she reacted the way she did on this occasion. Although she did not express anger verbally, her eyes spoke volumes, conveying her displeasure.
I was quick to feign innocence, pretending not to notice her frustration. However, her subsequent silence spoke louder than words. She began to distance herself, and I found myself incredulous at the extent to which she could ignore me. Naively, I harboured the hope that things would eventually resolve themselves, even adopting a sarcastic demeanour as I mirrored her behaviour.
The mistake lay in my failure to discern the evolving dynamics of our interaction. What began as a playful jest on my part inadvertently caused discomfort to the other person. Despite her unspoken cues of discomfort, I chose to dismiss them, continuing the teasing behaviour without considering its impact. By neglecting to acknowledge her feelings and address the situation with empathy and sincerity, I inadvertently contributed to the deterioration of our relationship. In retrospect, I realise the importance of being attuned to the emotions of others and communicating openly to avoid misunderstandings and prevent harm to the relationship. Then came the text message. She requested the return of her favourite notebook and handkerchief. Rather than promptly fulfilling her request, I chose to procrastinate, finding amusement in prolonging the interaction. It never occurred to me that such seemingly trivial matters could further exacerbate the situation.
Eventually, on a nondescript day, I relented. I returned her belongings, albeit with a heavy heart. Little did I know that it would mark the end of our meaningful exchanges and the last day I would meet her gaze with my own.
In my efforts to reconnect with her, I attempted various means of communication. However, she consistently avoided making eye contact and responded with indifference whenever I greeted her. It became evident that she was intentionally distancing herself from me, creating a noticeable rift in our interaction. Despite my persistent attempts to bridge the gap, her aloofness persisted, leaving me with a sense of disconnect and uncertainty about our relationship.
Amidst the unfolding events, her birthday loomed ahead, presenting a moment brimming with anticipation. Observing her amidst a flurry of well-wishers, I grappled with the decision to approach her, eager to extend my own birthday wishes and offer a carefully chosen gift. Yet, amidst this contemplation, concern for her comfort and well-being took precedence, overshadowing my initial excitement. Fears of inadvertently causing her discomfort or detracting from her special day besieged my thoughts, sowing seeds of doubt within me.Despite entertaining the idea of discreetly placing my gift in her possession,hesitation and newfound nervousness gripped me, eroding my usual sense of assurance. Despite exhaustive deliberation, I found myself immobilised by uncertainty, longing for a chance to rewrite the script and prevent the genesis of these discordant circumstances.
Despite my efforts to integrate into her social circle and engage in dialogue to address the issue, she showed little interest in reconciliation. Despite numerous attempts to communicate with her through text messages, I encountered consistent disregard. Nevertheless, my persistence drove me to continue seeking resolution, despite the apparent reluctance on her part.
Finally, as the New Year approached and the clock struck midnight, I summoned the courage to dial the number of the person I had once conversed with effortlessly and with unwavering positivity. Despite the trembling in my hands, I embarked on a conversation that lasted for hours, But I couldn't talk for a long time since my words were shivering.
I harbour deep regret for the recurring mistake I made. If only I had exercised restraint for a few moments, refraining from speaking or acting impulsively, the trajectory of my life would have been markedly different. As time wore on, my desperation for her grew more pronounced. Every encounter with her only intensified my longing, my gaze invariably trailing after her wherever she went.
As the time passed away , Things got more complexed, There is this Quote:
Yadhaash bhi kitni ajeeb cheez hoti hai;
cheez ko poori zindagi bhoolne ki koshish karo, woh bhoolti nahi;
ek choti si cheez yaad karne ki koshish karo, toh yaad nahi aati
The emotional turmoil and introspection I experienced led me to question the nature of our relationship. Was it truly a friendship, or something else entirely? Despite numerous attempts to reconcile with myself, I found myself trapped in a loop of uncertainty.
Finally, I mustered the courage to seek clarity one last time, asking her directly whether she wished to continue or end our connection. Her response, though difficult to accept, was clear: she chose to end it. Following her decision, I grappled with immense pain and a desire to convince her otherwise. I was willing to go to great lengths, prepared to do anything for her. However,despite these feelings, I remained silent, choosing instead to reflect on our shared past in solitude.
Amidst the emotional turmoil of the situation, I received devastating news from my doctor regarding my lung cancer. This time, my health had deteriorated significantly, with slim chances of recovery. The doctor advised an urgent operation within few time.
Despite the challenges I faced and the turmoil within me, I persisted in my efforts to reconnect with her. However, as six months passed since the incident, the memory of that fateful day continued to haunt me, and I found myself unable to forgive myself. Despite my persistence, I managed to convince her to engage in normal conversation once again. Yet, after a few days, it became evident that the spark we once shared had dimmed irreversibly. Realising that she could never be the same again, I resolved to share with her my intentions regarding her birthday gift and my deteriorating health. However, before I could utter a word, she interrupted me, expressing her disinterest in hearing anything further. With a simple message, she conveyed her reluctance to engage in daily conversation and redirected my focus to attending to my tasks.
It was I who discovered her soft-hearted nature, and I carry a heavy burden of guilt for inadvertently causing her to become guarded and distant. This incident has left an indelible mark on my life, serving as a poignant reminder of the consequences of my actions.

 THE END 

Hi guys! Need advice. I'm 29 years of age. Btech pass out 2018. 4 attempts in UPSC lekin ek bhi attempt kabhi padh ke nhi diya. Bas aise hi saara time social media, tv series, movies etc me ganwa diya. Health bhi kaafi kharab hai. High bp, uric acid, sinus, obesity etc.
So this year I decided ki ab mujhse nhi ho paa rha to main SSC dunga (above average in eng, quant, reasoning) aur ye wala prelims bas aise hi 2 mahine padh ke de dunga....fir agar SSC me ho gya aur himmat bachi to ek aur attempt Upsc ka job ke sath de dunga.
But then, 2 days back mera ek friend aaya room par. He is currently preparing for RBI grade b and has bought a course from Edutap. Usne 5 attempt Upsc bhi diye hain jisme ek baar pre bhi nikala tha. He has one attempt left but as he is from genral category, this year is his last and only shot at RBI grade b (I'm OBC and thus have age relaxation of 3 years). He gave id password of his course and motivated me to go for RBI with 3-4 months of preparation. Ab tabse hi main ekdum confused hun. Doable to lag rha h. Lekin Upsc chhoda nhi jaa rha hai. Jaise hi sochta hun ki Upsc chhod ke RBI kr leta hun waise hi 4-5 saal ka guilt ekdum saamne aa jata hai.
Ye 2 cases hain... 1. Agar is saal 90 din padh ke pre deta hun (thoda economy aur polity padha hua h)...aur maan lun ki pre nikal jata h, to fir bhi aage kuch nhi hona kyunki optional ethics ki koi taiyyari nhi h. Fir sept. me SSC dena hoga aur agar best case SSC ho jata h to job ke sath agla attempt dena hoga and by that time I'll be 32. Everyone around me is getting married left right and center aur mere parents kaafi pareshan rehte hain ki kab job lagegi kab shaadi hogi. Relatives aur jaan-pehchaan wale aur sar pe chadhe rehte hain. Koi kehta h ki ab kabhi job hi nhi lagegi, koi kahega ab shaadi hi nhi hogi vgaira vgaira.

1. Is saal RBI deta hun. Best case usme ho jata h....lekin fir Upsc ka sapna hamesha sapna hi reh jayega. Main bas ek attempt poori imaandaari ke sath dena chahta tha just to redeem myself, sirf apni nazron me uthne ke liye. Lekin itna confidence khatam ho chuka hai ki jaise hi sochta hun ki abki kr lunga, andar se aawaz aati h ki itne time se nhi kiya to ab kya hi kr loge.

Yhi sab sochte sochte 2 din nikal gye. 5-6 ghante aise hi bed pe pada rehta hun, kuch samjh nhi paa rha hun. Shayad mujhe pata h ki problem kya h, sabko hi pata hoti h. Aise dus post yahan khud maine bhi padhe hain. Lekin fir bhi ye sab likh rha hun. Kya karun guys.....Upsc ka over-ambition chhod dun? RBI krne lag jaun? Mujhe pata h ki kam seats hone ki wajah se RBI bhi Upsc jitna hi mushkil hai....lekin selection cycle choti hone ki wajah se ek ummeed ye bhi hai ki isi saal job lag jayegi. Warna fir SSC hai aur usme main almost sure hun ki koi job lag hi jayegi. Lekin fir Upsc na kr paane ke guilt ke sath mujhe nhi pata kabhi khush reh paunga ki nhi reh paunga. Kisi ko ye post padh ke gussa aa jaye to main pehle hi sorry kehta hun.

Hi, 28M from twin cities. I have friends and family on all other socials so I can no longer be myself there. I've been depressed for as long as I can remember, got diagnosed with chronic depression in mid 20s. Kuch time pehle love marriage ki on (mostly) my own buck. Living independently with my wife. Alhamdulillah the marriage is good. We still love each other like crazy and we have gelled into a couple that people around us use as an example. I earned a decent salary (couple hundred thousand). We both work and life's good.
At least it should be, right? My family is happy, my wife is happy, her family is happy. Even I'm happy (I think). But I don't know why I just feel so empty. While I'm not a very good practicing Muslim, I'm a firm believer. I struggle with the regularity. Infact, having ADHD(diagnosed), I struggle with maintaining any form of discipline or regularity in my life. I still manage to keep everything handled (more or less). Lekin Mera ab mazeed jeenay ka Dil nahi karta. I just don't have the energy or the himmat anymore. I've tried offing myself at a few different points in life but I don't think I'll ever be able to go through with it. Hell, I have my firearm within an arm's reach and it could all be over within a minute. But mere pechay Kya hoga? Ok literally the only one in my family that they look to for help and support. My wife loves me so deeply that she cries if I even mention my death. Inko kese chorr jaoon, ye sab rul jaen ge. Lekin kidhr jaoon? I have grown increasingly alienated from my friends. Jab miltay hain to pehle ki tarah hi almost hota hai sab. Lekin I feel disconnected, like I'm playing a character. Make no mistake, these are people that I've shared the lowest of lows and the highest of highs with. Alhamdulillah I've been blessed with some of the greatest friends a man could ask for. Lekin ab unn se Kuch share karte huay 100 Baar sochta hoon. Sab barray hogaye hain, sab k sar pe itne burdens hain, boys main se mostly ki shadi hogai hai, Kuch k bachay b hain. Unke agey ab esa RR karoon ga to wo apni life k masle solve Karen ge ya mere rants sunen ge? Girls main se b mostly ki shadi hogai hai ya honay wali hai. Kuch Jo single hain wo bechari apne careers build kar k ghar sambhal rahi hain. Plus shadi k baad kisi female friend k agey itna vulnerable hona b ajeeb lagta hai. There's an unsaid "why aren't you talking to your wife about these things?" Vibe to any such conversation.
I can't open up to my wife either. To all the boyses and girlies hoping to marry for love, ye baat yaad rakho k shadi k baad your SO is now directly impacted by your feelings and the things you share with them. Before marriage, they can be your therapist because they are on your side and they agree with your side of the picture. After marriage, they gave their own side of the picture and they get emotionally impacted by your words and actions too. Khyal rakhna parrta hai boht zyada. You can't just put your phone down and go for a walk, they're with you the whole time; no time off, no "me" time.
Khair. Ye situation hai. Mujhse sahi describe nahi ho rahi. I can't afford therapy as baqi bills boht hain. Plus I give financial control to my wife and she'll want to know k main ye paise kidr kharch kar raha hoon. She isn't as open about therapy as I am because "main Hoon na sab baat Karne k liye" mentality.
I have started dreading and craving new human contact all over again. I'm sickly tired of playing this version of myself that has his shit together. I have to be at my best constantly because it's what's expected from me as a man. Main kamzor parr gya to ye Jo choti si dunia apne irdgird khair ki hui hai, sab gir jaye gi.
I've gained weight, even my "performance" has started to get affected. I can't get into a routine and I absolutely hate working out at the gym. It's repetitive and boring and there is no real progress or goal to achieve. Just an endless hamster wheel. I want to get back into sports lekin koi bacha hi nahi. I used to play so many sports: basketball, cricket, hockey, table tennis, badminton even a bit of football. Ab koi sath khelne Wala raha hi Nahi. I'm a bit too old for the sports clubs near my place and again, ak new kharcha sar pe a jaye ga. I can't sleep at night and can't sleep during the day either.
Financially I'm living in a sand castle. While living standard is basic middle class. Inflation and random kharchay don't allow me to progress. Pese bacha leta hoon Kuch lekin it feels like I'll never be able to own my own place, no matter how small.
Everything is hopeless, the world is fucked and this country doubly so. I want to stop. I am tired and empty and more isolated than I've ever been. Surrounded by people who love me to bits, I'm all alone.

Unveiling Ayodhya’s Hidden Gems in 4 Days:
For a comprehensive 4-day itinerary in Ayodhya, visiting all the important landmarks and interesting spots, you can consider the following plan, enriched with cultural, historical, and spiritual experiences.
Day 1: Arrival and Ayodhya Exploration - Morning: Arrive in Ayodhya. You can reach Ayodhya by road from major cities like Lucknow, Varanasi, and Delhi, or by train as the Ayodhya railway station connects to cities like Delhi, Kanpur, and Varanasi. - Afternoon: Visit Ram Janmabhoomi, believed to be the birthplace of Lord Ram, and a central point of Ayodhya's cultural and religious history. - Evening: Explore Sita Ki Rasoi, a site believed to be the ancient kitchen of Goddess Sita and now a temple with exhibits of vessels.
Day 2: Temple and Historical Sites Tour - Morning: Visit Hanuman Garhi, a significant temple dedicated to Lord Hanuman. - Afternoon: Explore Kanak Bhawan, a temple known for its exquisite architecture and dedicated to Lord Ram and Goddess Sita. - Evening: Spend time at Guptar Ghat, a holy ghat on the River Saryu, believed to be the place where Lord Ram took Jal Samadhi.
Day 3: Cultural and Historical Insights - Morning: Visit Tulsi Smarak Bhawan, a museum dedicated to the poet Goswami Tulsidas. - Afternoon: Explore the architectural brilliance of Bahu Begum Ka Maqbara, known as the “Taj Mahal of the East.” - Evening: Visit Ram Katha Park for a serene environment, open-air theatres, and lush greenery.
Day 4: Local Exploration and Departure - Morning: Visit Choti Chawni, a beautiful structure crafted out of white marble. - Afternoon: Stroll through the local markets, explore souvenir shops selling religious prints, photos of temples, and other memorabilia. - Evening: Departure from Ayodhya.
Accommodation Options:

1. SPOT ON 42133 Hanuman Bagh: A 3-star hotel with good facilities and a central location, offering free WiFi and room service. 2. Shri Paramhansa Sewa Ashram: Located near Faizabad Train Station, this hotel offers a garden and free private parking. 3. Shastri Nagar Dharmshala: Offers accommodations with a garden, free private parking, and a terrace. 4. Shree Gorakhnath Guest House: A good value-for-money option with a garden, free private parking, and a terrace. 5. JB Square Resort And Lawn: Located one mile from Faizabad Train Station, this hotel has a garden, restaurant, and free private parking. 6. Hotel Shri Ram Bhavan: Known for its excellent breakfast and low prices, this hotel is situated 5.5 miles from Faizabad Train Station. 7. RBS Hotel & Restaurant: Located just 5 minutes walking distance from Ram Janam Bhumi, this hotel offers a central location and helpful staff. 8. Hotel Panchsheel: Located near Deokali Bypass Crossing, this hotel offers contemporary and elegant rooms starting at around INR 3500 per night (approximately $47). 9. Hanumant Palace: Offering smart, modern rooms with amenities like internet access and complimentary breakfast, with prices starting around INR 1000 per night 

Nearby Excursion Spots:

1. Faizabad: Located just about 7 km from Ayodhya, Faizabad is historically significant as the capital of Nawabs of Awadh. The city is known for its beautiful architecture, including the Bahu Begum ka Maqbara and Gulab Bari, which reflect the Nawabi heritage. 2. Nandigram: Approximately 20 km from Ayodhya, Nandigram is where Bharat, Lord Ram’s brother, lived in a simple hut and led an ascetic life while waiting for Ram to return from exile. 3. Treta Ke Thakur: Around 25 km from Ayodhya, this temple is believed to be the place where Lord Ram performed the Ashvamedha Yajna. The temple houses idols depicting scenes from the Ramayana. 4. Lucknow: About 135 km from Ayodhya, Lucknow, the capital of Uttar Pradesh, is famous for its rich cultural heritage, historical monuments like the Bara Imambara, Chota Imambara, and the British Residency, as well as its culinary delights. 5. Varanasi: Located approximately 200 km from Ayodhya, Varanasi, one of the world’s oldest living cities, is revered as a sacred Hindu pilgrimage site. The Ghats and temples, especially the Kashi Vishwanath Temple, draw millions of pilgrims and tourists each year. 6. Allahabad (Prayagraj): Roughly 167 km from Ayodhya, Allahabad is known for the confluence of three rivers: Ganga, Yamuna, and the invisible Saraswati, known as Triveni Sangam. It is a major site for the Kumbh Mela, held every 12 years. 7. Chitrakoot: Situated about 130 km from Ayodhya, Chitrakoot is closely associated with the Ramayana and is believed to be the place where Lord Ram, Sita, and Lakshman spent a significant part of their exile. 

For food, Ayodhya mainly offers vegetarian options with local restaurants and dhabas serving North-Indian and Chinese cuisines. The best time to visit Ayodhya is between November and March when the weather is pleasant. Some Ayodhya restaurants that are popular among tourists:

1. Ram Sharanam: Located near the Sarayu River, this restaurant is renowned for its authentic Ayodhya cuisine. It offers a range of traditional dishes cooked with local ingredients, providing a spiritual dining experience. 2. Ram ki Rasoi: Unique for serving prasad from the holy Ram Janmabhoomi Temple, this eatery offers a divine dining experience with simple yet flavorful dishes prepared with devotion. 3. Laxmi Bhog: A heritage restaurant, Laxmi Bhog takes its visitors on a culinary journey through Ayodhya’s rich history with traditional dishes once relished by royal families. 4. Ram Darbar: A family-owned restaurant known for its cozy ambiance and wide array of local dishes, each bursting with authentic flavors. 5. Gupta Ji Ka Dhaba: Offers a rustic Ayodhya cuisine experience with its vegetarian dishes, piping-hot rotis, and flavorful curries. 6. Saket Express: Popular for street food, Saket Express is a must-visit for local favorites like crispy aloo tikkis and spicy pani puri. 7. Makan-malai Restaurant: Known for its blend of Indian, Chinese, and contemporary international cuisine, it’s appreciated for its vegetarian-friendly options and diverse menu. 8. M3 Cafe & Restaurant: Offers a peaceful ambiance with a diverse menu that includes Indian, Chinese, and café-style dishes. 9. Pizza Celebration: A local favorite for pizza lovers, offering Central-Italian and Chinese cuisines. It’s known for its delicious pizzas that rival well-known chains. 10. Shri Kanak Bhawan Prasad Grih: Known for serving food as ‘prasad’ with a spiritual ambiance, this place offers quality Thaali at affordable prices. 

Hidden gems of Ayodhya:

1. Gulab Bari: Located in Vaidehi Nagar, this is the tomb of Nawab Shuja-ud-Daula and his parents, featuring beautiful gardens and listed under the Ancient Monuments and Archaeological Sites and Remains Act. It’s a part of national heritage and a must-visit for its historical significance. 2. Treta Ke Thakur: This temple at Naya Ghat in Ayodhya houses idols of Lord Ram, Sita, Lakshman, Hanuman, Bharat, and Sugreev, sculpted from a single black sandstone. It’s believed to be the place where Lord Ram performed the Ashvamedha Yajna. 3. Choti Chawni: Known as Valmiki Bhawan or Maniramdas Chawni, this is a magnificent structure crafted entirely out of white marble, showcasing breathtaking architectural beauty. 4. Moti Mahal: Also known as the ‘Pearl Palace’, located a few kilometers away from Ayodhya in Faizabad, this palace is known for its historical significance and architectural beauty. 5. Ancient Sites Off the Beaten Path: Ayodhya is home to lesser-known ancient sites, including ruins and archaeological sites, which provide a glimpse into the city’s historical significance. 6. Art and Craft Heritage: The city boasts a vibrant art and craft heritage with intricate wood carvings and exquisite handloom textiles. Exploring these can give you a deeper understanding of the local culture and craftsmanship. 7. Natural Retreats: Discover Ayodhya’s serene natural retreats like beautiful gardens and tranquil water bodies, providing peaceful respite from the city’s hustle and bustle. 8. Local Life and Cultural Experiences: Immerse yourself in the local way of life by interacting with locals, savoring traditional cuisine, and witnessing cultural performances that showcase Ayodhya’s heritage. 9. Day Trips to Nearby Attractions: If you have extra time, consider day trips to neighboring towns and villages, each offering its own unique charm and attractions. 

For activities, some popular options in Ayodhya include:

• Boat Rides at Sarayu River Ghats: Enjoy peaceful boat rides along the Sarayu River, especially during sunrise or sunset for a picturesque experience. • Visiting Cultural and Religious Sites: Pay homage at places like Hanuman Garhi and explore architectural gems like Kanak Bhawan. 

Important Notes: - Make sure to respect local customs and traditions, especially at religious sites. - Plan your visit and accommodation well in advance, especially during peak seasons or religious festivals.
Sources: Holidify, Trawell.in, Shrine Yatra, OYO Rooms, Indian Holiday.

Even though Anupama had her share of mistakes. But she sincerely apologized for everything and moved on. She is still trying to work hard and build herself. She even left the Shahs, she doesn’t even ask about Arsh ( samar son). She is genuinely trying to survive in America.
And Anuj.. lol.. Anuj is two timing women. He tells Shruti why he left Anupama. But he doesn’t tell her he still loves her and thinks about her and has feelings for her.. 🙃… Then he goes and tell Anupama that he loved her forever can’t forget her blah blah blah and doesn’t discuss the real problem of why they seperated, CA!!
Choti Anu on the other hand.. she is a child I understand but so much trauma especially when ur mom was trying to save you. 🤔.. she made sure u didn’t fall into the ditch. You blame her for choosing the Shahs which is true… but people keep forgetting that Samar, Toshu and Pakhi are also her kids.. and before people tell me they were rude she should have left them. If we look at our lives.. how many times we were rude to our mom but did our mom leave us??? How can a mom differentiate between her kids.. she was there for both the sets kids. She didn’t love CA any less. She knew CA had the best father.. but she couldn’t trust Vanraj as Kavya was in his life. Kavya didn’t have the ability to become their step mom. Vanraj spoiled his kids whereas Anupama tried to teach them life lessons. People said she was rude to CA but never slapped pakhi.. lol there were so many instances were she slapped Pakhi.. and tried to teach her a lesson. It was vanraj that came in between. She even let pakhi go back to shahs. Also most parents don’t raise their hands on grown daughters. Even in my households. I stopped getting slaps when i was 12 from my mom. There was rarely any occasion that Choti got slapped or yelled at. She tried to keep Pakhi in control because pakhi was crossing her limits. But the damage was already done in Pakhi because of Vanraj.

Shoutout to u/SuspectPlus6213 for this list. I also tried meetha paan at ravidas gate suggested by u/Ace-95.

SPOILERS
I am a millenial who grew up in the wonderful India of the 90s and like every young teenager obsessed with movies, I was especially smitten by Tum Bin. It came out when I was in class 9(2001) and me and my friend watched it countless times as there were very few movies we could save in CDs/Hard drive during those times. I had Lagaan, Tum Bin and K3G saved at that time which we watched on repeat.
I think the first thing that really captivated me was after DDLJ, this was the movie which really stood out in terms of foreign locales. The outdoor picturesque shots are just spectacular. Just look at these gorgeous scenes. The movie was shot in Calgary (Province - Alberta) and yeah it really is that beautiful and even more. I went there few months back for a trip and it was unforgettable. Furthermore, they did a great job with the indoor shots. Such glorious pastel colors and the beautiful wooden interiors of the house. My wife, who is a graphic designer, she also complimented on the color and palette design of the movie as well as the beautiful dresses everywon wore.
Of course, we have to talk about the legendary music. If Nikhil Vinay would be remembered for one album, this would be it. They also elevated Jagjit singh to god tier status with Koi Fariyaad. I have a special connection with this film's music as it resonated so much with my growing up years. Nikhil-Vinay strayed away from the trend of string heavy 90s and included modern orchestrations into the mix. People tend to remember Koi Fariyaad from this movie, but Tumhare Siva and Choti Choti Raatein are amazing compositions as well. Tumhare Siva is one of the peak Udit Narayan songs. Talking about music, the background score is fantastic as well. I am a hobbyist music composer, so I tend to notice these things. Notice this tune when Shekhar sees Mili for first time, or the whole playful segment where Shekhar is trying to convince Pia to let him work.
Now coming to the story. The movie works despite there not being an active proclamation of love (which is the plot of 99% of romance movies in bollywood). Such subtle gestures like the glances between Shekhar and Pia, the care for each other and the family tell us a low key beautiful love story without the sugary overflowing part. The only negative thing I can say about the story is they botched the ending a little. It seems like they wanted to quickly wrap up the story and inserted that whole subplot of the third protagonist (Himanshu) trying to marry Pia.
In view of all this, this was a movie made with lots of love and care. Every department must have made efforts to make a good movie. The movie was a product of its times, simple and homely. We become attached to certain fictional characters and imagine them in our heads - I sometimes wonder how are Shekhar and Pia doing now. They must be living their best lives.

Mero aauta online business xa ani I receive online orders (via Facebook, Instagram, etc.) that need to be delivered to customers within the Kathmandu Valley, what are the best options available, considering the price?
If you have experience with this, Aile kati pay gari rahanu vako xa? Ani, could you please recommend some companies (mentioning the price if you know), Ma ekai din ma dherai choti deliver garnu parne hunxa hola, so price is a major consideration.
P.S.: mero saman haluka ra portable xa, two-wheelers ma deliver garna milne xa, and I intend to deliver only within the Kathmandu Valley.