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2015.08.28 05:08 longwinters r/skincareaddiction or fungal affliction?
Welcoming all rejects of the skincare, but especially those with fungal acne, fungal folliculitis, candida infections, razor bumps, barber's itch, and whatever else you got.
2013.04.14 04:46 ThisIsSovereign Retail Slaves Anonymous
A place for any and all retail ~~employees~~ slaves to share and talk about their feelings about how much they ~~love~~ absolutely loathe what they do. Seriously though share anything you want about retail. Feel free to come here and vent, rant, rave or what the fuck ever about whatever horrible shit went on at your retail job today. Just let it all out man. Together we can help each other through our miserable existences as retail employees!
2024.05.13 23:14 AuthorJoJo Was I always sleeping with a monster?
Bed had always been a haven for me, as I’m sure it has been for many others. A soft rectangle of comfort that I can always rely on. It didn’t matter how hard my day was or how harsh the weather outside those four edges, it always soothed me. I’d argue the harsher days made it feel more inviting.
All my worries and stress bleeding out of me, soaking into the bedsheets.
That’s all anyone needs, somewhere to rest their head. And usually, if you can be lucky enough, you might find someone to share that space with. And I was lucky enough. As wonderful as laying in bed is, when my wife would crawl in and pull up close to me, it was another ball game.
Her heat would mesh with mine, skin would run flush together, and we would become symbiotic until the sunrise. That’s all I needed, all I wanted.
I normally crawl into bed before she gets home. Her job would have her working different hours each day while my schedule was steady. So, I’d enjoy my alone time, get comfortable in bed, and eagerly await her arrival.
So that’s how it went. It was a frosty night but not cold enough to run the heater, so I just had the blankets pulled up to my chest. Work was rough, so sleep started working its magic on me quickly and I could feel my body becoming heavier in bed. I was in and out, so time wasn’t really something I had a concept of, so when I felt a pressure on the bed, it made sense that it was my wife.
Her fingers were icy as they slipped under the shirt I was wearing and rested on my chest. Her frame latched onto mine like a puzzle, and she wrapped her arms around me.
She was so cold, uncomfortably so.
It caused my teeth to clatter together for a moment as she siphoned my body heat until we had reached an equilibrium. Her fingers gently pressed into my skin, a tender pressure I had felt time and time again, one that always lulled me to sleep. And I could feel it then, slumber ready for its final approach.
So, it was there, seconds from reaching my dreams, that I heard the front door closing. It felt like someone had ripped the bed sheets off me, thin and piercing needles of cold, running shivers all over me. It was loud, the door closing, I mean.
I was frozen, I could feel the fingers on my chest tighten in response to the noise as well. It was taking me a while to process what was happening. But I figured she had forgotten to lock the front door, and someone had slipped inside, perhaps closing the door harder than they intended to in their rush.
“Stay here.” I whispered harshly; words filled with the panic response I was trying to fight off.
Quickly shunting the hand away from my chest, I got out of bed and gripped the baseball bat we keep by the bed. An object I had hoped I’d never have to pick up in a situation like this. Stepping cautiously towards the bedroom door, I could see that someone had turned a light on.
The kitchen light spilled out, meekly illuminating a few spots of the apartment. My fingers gently pried the bedroom door wider open, trying to avoid its usual squeaking.
The baseball bat rested on my shoulder as I tried to recall the last time, I had even swung a bat, suddenly all too paranoid that I might not do so effectively. There was the sound of rummaging from the kitchen, a small clattering of pots and pans.
With a few quick breaths to hype myself up, I quickly rounded the corner and prepared to swing my bat.
Stepping out, basking in the kitchen’s light, I heard a high pitch scream wail out, filling the house with the cry.
I sank.
Every bit of me felt like I was falling through the floor. My heart was at my feet and my head had sunk so low that my thoughts couldn’t keep up. She was frightened too. I must have looked insane. She was speaking. I could hazard a guess at what she was saying. An apology for making too much noise on her way in, likely. I couldn’t hear any of it, though. My head was static.
I could hardly even recognize her as my wife. No, she was a concept, an idea. She stood in all her glory as a stark realization.
My wife’s eyes became delicate with concern. As she reached out to me, I backed away, not in fear of her, but the dawning of it all put me on guard. I could still feel the fingers I felt in bed pressing on my chest as I turned around, fingers gripping the bat tighter than ever.
I was quick. Quicker than I thought, I could move in a situation like that. We should’ve left. We should’ve called the police. However, many “should haves” in life remain unclaimed forever. I left all my ‘should haves’ behind. Each rational thought vanishing with every step I took that brought me closer to the sanctity of my bed once represented.
It was still wide open from when I had left it before. I said nothing to my wife. The words in my throat were ice cubes refusing to budge. Didn’t even know if she was following me. Focusing and narrowing in on my goal was all I could do to stop myself from toppling over. From balling up on the floor in hysterics.
Returning to the room and edging through the doorway, I had expected to see the bed empty. I had so desperately wanted to laugh it off. To rationalize that my dreams and reality had meshed while drifting off and that nothing, absolutely nothing, was amiss. At the very worst, I could claim that I was losing my mind.
Just enough moonlight.
I cursed that.
That there was enough moonlight basking my room. I wish something had swallowed up the moon, plunging the world into darkness. But there was just enough to see it.
To see the bed sheets being wrinkled by the hand that had been on my chest. Just enough moonlight to bounce off her eyes, peering up at me, small pricks of silver light. Her frame was bathed in the gentle glow of moonlight, her skin taking on a pale and milky blue hue, with splotches of black reminiscent of resting ash.
That thing in my bed. The moonlight allowed me to see it. I watched as it dragged its ragged fingers back and forth on the sheets, like it was beckoning me to crawl back into bed. Its other hand held her ghoulish head up. It was, I don’t know, posing or something. Like it was trying to be seductive.
She was a monster, and worse, a monster that had invaded that one place I could rely on.
Fear consumed me. I wasn’t me. It wasn’t my thoughts rummaging around in my head; it was the thoughts of a man who just wanted to live.
I’m not sure if she had even made a noise when the end of my bat met with her soft temple. It turned out I knew damn well how to swing that thing. It was almost pretty, how the red inside of her meshed with the cold color pallet the room was adorning. There was almost no resistance. None that I could feel in the moment.
My fingernails carved into my palm as I brought the bat down over and over. Watching her face warp and twist with each hit, the blue hues being overtaken by smatterings of crimson. Her body jerked with each hit, pulses of life reaching out before quickly vanishing.
I should’ve taken a second.
I should’ve assessed the situation.
My wife, the cops, everyone I talk to tells me that what I did was natural. A fight-or-flight response gone completely haywire. But now that it’s over. Every time I lay my head down on the pillow, I can hear that horrid thud.
An axe splitting the bark of a tree.
A wet towel smacking the linoleum.
It pulses in my head, poisoning my sanctuary. I don’t know how many times I hit her. There was nothing resembling a face by the time I was done. It wasn’t the first time she had broken into someone’s house, but it’d certainly be the last.
The red paste and blue skin waltzed so lovingly with the red and blue lights of the officers that arrived on the scene. My wife must have called.
The elderly woman had escaped the nursing home her kids left her in a few nights before and had been on the street since. The frost of a winter night stealing the plush from her skin. Her already frail frame was further weakened by the lack of food. Dementia had riddled her mind. She didn’t know where she was half the time.
Bed, those four sides. It’s supposed to be a sanctuary. Somewhere you can go to escape all the monsters waiting to gobble you up outside. Not for me though, not anymore. Every night, when I peer into the darkness long enough, I could still see the silver beads peering back at me. Two small orbs of pin-prick light, reminding me.
No matter what I do.
Where I go.
What bed I call mine.
I now sleep, with a monster.
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All my worries and stress bleeding out of me, soaking into the bedsheets.
That’s all anyone needs, somewhere to rest their head. And usually, if you can be lucky enough, you might find someone to share that space with. And I was lucky enough. As wonderful as laying in bed is, when my wife would crawl in and pull up close to me, it was another ball game.
Her heat would mesh with mine, skin would run flush together, and we would become symbiotic until the sunrise. That’s all I needed, all I wanted.
I normally crawl into bed before she gets home. Her job would have her working different hours each day while my schedule was steady. So, I’d enjoy my alone time, get comfortable in bed, and eagerly await her arrival.
So that’s how it went. It was a frosty night but not cold enough to run the heater, so I just had the blankets pulled up to my chest. Work was rough, so sleep started working its magic on me quickly and I could feel my body becoming heavier in bed. I was in and out, so time wasn’t really something I had a concept of, so when I felt a pressure on the bed, it made sense that it was my wife.
Her fingers were icy as they slipped under the shirt I was wearing and rested on my chest. Her frame latched onto mine like a puzzle, and she wrapped her arms around me.
She was so cold, uncomfortably so.
It caused my teeth to clatter together for a moment as she siphoned my body heat until we had reached an equilibrium. Her fingers gently pressed into my skin, a tender pressure I had felt time and time again, one that always lulled me to sleep. And I could feel it then, slumber ready for its final approach.
So, it was there, seconds from reaching my dreams, that I heard the front door closing. It felt like someone had ripped the bed sheets off me, thin and piercing needles of cold, running shivers all over me. It was loud, the door closing, I mean.
I was frozen, I could feel the fingers on my chest tighten in response to the noise as well. It was taking me a while to process what was happening. But I figured she had forgotten to lock the front door, and someone had slipped inside, perhaps closing the door harder than they intended to in their rush.
“Stay here.” I whispered harshly; words filled with the panic response I was trying to fight off.
Quickly shunting the hand away from my chest, I got out of bed and gripped the baseball bat we keep by the bed. An object I had hoped I’d never have to pick up in a situation like this. Stepping cautiously towards the bedroom door, I could see that someone had turned a light on.
The kitchen light spilled out, meekly illuminating a few spots of the apartment. My fingers gently pried the bedroom door wider open, trying to avoid its usual squeaking.
The baseball bat rested on my shoulder as I tried to recall the last time, I had even swung a bat, suddenly all too paranoid that I might not do so effectively. There was the sound of rummaging from the kitchen, a small clattering of pots and pans.
With a few quick breaths to hype myself up, I quickly rounded the corner and prepared to swing my bat.
Stepping out, basking in the kitchen’s light, I heard a high pitch scream wail out, filling the house with the cry.
I sank.
Every bit of me felt like I was falling through the floor. My heart was at my feet and my head had sunk so low that my thoughts couldn’t keep up. She was frightened too. I must have looked insane. She was speaking. I could hazard a guess at what she was saying. An apology for making too much noise on her way in, likely. I couldn’t hear any of it, though. My head was static.
I could hardly even recognize her as my wife. No, she was a concept, an idea. She stood in all her glory as a stark realization.
My wife’s eyes became delicate with concern. As she reached out to me, I backed away, not in fear of her, but the dawning of it all put me on guard. I could still feel the fingers I felt in bed pressing on my chest as I turned around, fingers gripping the bat tighter than ever.
I was quick. Quicker than I thought, I could move in a situation like that. We should’ve left. We should’ve called the police. However, many “should haves” in life remain unclaimed forever. I left all my ‘should haves’ behind. Each rational thought vanishing with every step I took that brought me closer to the sanctity of my bed once represented.
It was still wide open from when I had left it before. I said nothing to my wife. The words in my throat were ice cubes refusing to budge. Didn’t even know if she was following me. Focusing and narrowing in on my goal was all I could do to stop myself from toppling over. From balling up on the floor in hysterics.
Returning to the room and edging through the doorway, I had expected to see the bed empty. I had so desperately wanted to laugh it off. To rationalize that my dreams and reality had meshed while drifting off and that nothing, absolutely nothing, was amiss. At the very worst, I could claim that I was losing my mind.
Just enough moonlight.
I cursed that.
That there was enough moonlight basking my room. I wish something had swallowed up the moon, plunging the world into darkness. But there was just enough to see it.
To see the bed sheets being wrinkled by the hand that had been on my chest. Just enough moonlight to bounce off her eyes, peering up at me, small pricks of silver light. Her frame was bathed in the gentle glow of moonlight, her skin taking on a pale and milky blue hue, with splotches of black reminiscent of resting ash.
That thing in my bed. The moonlight allowed me to see it. I watched as it dragged its ragged fingers back and forth on the sheets, like it was beckoning me to crawl back into bed. Its other hand held her ghoulish head up. It was, I don’t know, posing or something. Like it was trying to be seductive.
She was a monster, and worse, a monster that had invaded that one place I could rely on.
Fear consumed me. I wasn’t me. It wasn’t my thoughts rummaging around in my head; it was the thoughts of a man who just wanted to live.
I’m not sure if she had even made a noise when the end of my bat met with her soft temple. It turned out I knew damn well how to swing that thing. It was almost pretty, how the red inside of her meshed with the cold color pallet the room was adorning. There was almost no resistance. None that I could feel in the moment.
My fingernails carved into my palm as I brought the bat down over and over. Watching her face warp and twist with each hit, the blue hues being overtaken by smatterings of crimson. Her body jerked with each hit, pulses of life reaching out before quickly vanishing.
I should’ve taken a second.
I should’ve assessed the situation.
My wife, the cops, everyone I talk to tells me that what I did was natural. A fight-or-flight response gone completely haywire. But now that it’s over. Every time I lay my head down on the pillow, I can hear that horrid thud.
An axe splitting the bark of a tree.
A wet towel smacking the linoleum.
It pulses in my head, poisoning my sanctuary. I don’t know how many times I hit her. There was nothing resembling a face by the time I was done. It wasn’t the first time she had broken into someone’s house, but it’d certainly be the last.
The red paste and blue skin waltzed so lovingly with the red and blue lights of the officers that arrived on the scene. My wife must have called.
The elderly woman had escaped the nursing home her kids left her in a few nights before and had been on the street since. The frost of a winter night stealing the plush from her skin. Her already frail frame was further weakened by the lack of food. Dementia had riddled her mind. She didn’t know where she was half the time.
Bed, those four sides. It’s supposed to be a sanctuary. Somewhere you can go to escape all the monsters waiting to gobble you up outside. Not for me though, not anymore. Every night, when I peer into the darkness long enough, I could still see the silver beads peering back at me. Two small orbs of pin-prick light, reminding me.
No matter what I do.
Where I go.
What bed I call mine.
I now sleep, with a monster.
2024.05.13 23:12 bambaazon Logic Pro 11.0 release notes
New Features and enhancements
New AI-enhanced tools join Smart Tempo and the Pitch Correction plug-in to augment your artistry.
Bass Player and Keyboard Player join Drummer to complete a set of Session Players — all built with AI making it easy to create performances that respond to your direction.
Session Players can follow the same chord progression using Global chord track.
Add warmth to any track with ChromaGlow, an advanced plug-in with five saturation models designed to simulate the sound of vintage analog hardware.*
Separate a stereo audio file into stems for vocals, drums, bass and other parts with Stem Splitter.*
Session Players, ChromaGlow, and Stem Splitter also come to Logic Pro for iPad 2 — making it simple to move between projects created in Logic Pro for Mac.
Play any of six deeply-sampled acoustic and electric basses with Studio Bass.
Perform any of three meticulously-sampled pianos with Studio Piano.
Loops that contain chord tags will automatically populate the chord track when added to a project.
Three new Producer Packs are available: Hardwell, The Kount, and Cory Wong.
Original multi-track project of Swing! by Ellie Dixon available as in-app demo song.
Downmix and trim options allow custom mixing for non-Atmos channel configurations.
Exported ADM BWF files have been expanded beyond Dolby Atmos and can contain settings for stereo and other multi-channel formats.
Bounce in place adds automatic real-time recording for External Instrument regions or tracks that utilize external hardware using the Logic Pro I/O plug-in.
Route MIDI signals generated by supported software instruments and effects to the input of other tracks for creative layering during playback or recording.
Edit more efficiently using key commands for moving, extending, or resizing marquee selections.
The Nudge Region/Event Position key commands now also nudge Marquee selections.
The Transpose Region/Event key commands now also move or expand the Marquee selection up/down.
Pattern regions can now be created on Drummer tracks, and Drummer regions can be converted to Pattern regions.
New key commands include Trim Note End to Following Notes (Force Legato) With Overlap and Trim Note End to Selected (Force Legato) With Overlap.
Bounce in Place and Track Freeze can now be performed in real time, allowing for use of external instruments, I/O plug-ins, and external inserts.
Mastering Assistant analysis now can be performed in real time, allowing for use in projects that incorporate external I/O or instruments.
The Dolby Atmos plug-in now offers Downmix and Surround/Height Trim controls.
The Recent Projects list can now be configured to show up to 50 projects.
* Requires a Mac with Apple silicon.
Stability and reliability
Scripts with 1071 characters or more in Scripter no longer cause Logic Pro to quit unexpectedly.
Fixes an issue where creating a an event in a lane assigned to Note off in Step Sequencer could cause Logic Pro to quit unexpectedly.
Fixes an issue where Logic Pro could fail to launch with an Error Initializing Core MIDI message when the system is under heavy load performing other tasks.
Resolves an issue where Logic Pro could quit unexpectedly when a 64-bit floating point IR file is loaded into Space Designer.
Fixes an issue where Logic Pro could hang when opening a project while the Project Settings > MIDI window is displayed.
Logic Pro no longer quits unexpectedly when creating multiple Aux tracks with multiple existing Aux tracks selected.
Improves stability when bypassing control surfaces with Musical Typing open when EuControl software is installed.
Fixes an issue where Logic Pro could hang when quitting a project containing a large number of instances of Sampler.
Fixes an issue where Logic Pro could quit unexpectedly when replacing a playing Live Loops cell with another loop.
Performance
The UI is now more responsive when adjusting Flex Pitches directly on regions in Deviation mode.
Performance is improved when editing Transient Markers in Take regions with Flex enabled.
Performance is improved when making Flex Pitch edits in the Tracks area with a large number of selected regions.
Alchemy's Performance is improved.
Performance is improved when moving regions in projects with a large number of tracks and regions.
Projects containing a large number of flex-pitched regions now open more quickly.
Resolves an issue where loading a project saved with a Summing stack selected that contains Software Instruments that have no regions and/or with the tracks turned off could load the Software Instruments into memory.
Accessibility
VoiceOver now announces the state of Automation mode buttons on channel strips.
VoiceOver now announces the status of the Pause button in the LCD.
VoiceOver no longer announces hidden controls in the Smart Controls view.
VoiceOver no longer reads the values of pan knobs that are currently hidden in Sends on Faders mode.
VoiceOver now announces the state of the Details button and the Follow button in the Drummer Editor.
VoiceOver now announces left-click and Command-click Tool selections in the Control Bar.
VoiceOver now announces the name of the Time Quantize button in the Piano Roll.
VoiceOver now announces changes in value when the Next/Previous key commands are used to change Quantize values.
VoiceOver now announces state of key commands for Cycle, Mute, Track Solo, Input Monitoring, Track On/Off, and Lock/Unlock Track.
VoiceOver now announces the selection state of focused tracks.
Spatial Audio
Fixes an issue where adding a new 3D Object track for the first time to a Spatial Audio project could cause the Renderer to switch from the current model to the Apple renderer.
The Dolby Atmos plug-in now offers a 5.1.2 monitoring option.
Fixes an issue where setting a project to Dolby Atmos could output to 7.1.4 even when the mode defaults to Apple Renderer.
It is now possible to monitor Dolby Atmos projects directly via HDMI to a surround capable receiveamplifier.
The metering for Height channels now shows as post-fader on the Master channel as expected.
Loading a Master Bus channel strip setting in the 7.1.4 channel format now preserves the 7.1.4 channel layout as expected.
Session Players
Resolves an issue where loading a user-created Drum Machine Designer patch could set the input to a bus and fail to load the Drum Machine Designer instrument.
Using the Create Drummer Region command in a Marquee selection now creates a region that corresponds to the Marquee.
Smart Tempo
In cases where there is not an existing Smart Tempo Multitrack Set, selecting an audio file in the Smart Tempo Multitrack Set window and disabling the “Contribute to analysis” check box now causes the Update button to change to Analyze as expected.
Pressing the Space bar now immediately stops a Free Tempo recording.
Fixes an issue where projects previously open in the same Logic Pro session could unexpectedly affect “Contribute to Analysis” in the Smart Tempo editor.
Recording
Audio regions recorded to unnamed tracks now include the project name and track number in their name.
Mixer
The channel strip Stereo Pan control and the Pan menu now can be adjusted when Caps Lock is enabled.
Creating a single Multi-timbral Software Instrument in the New Track Sheet no longer creates two Software Instrument instances in the All view of the Mixer.
Resolves an issue where remaining tracks in a Multitimbral Software Instrument Track Stack could unexpectedly rename the channel strip.
Adjusting the activity status of a speaker in the Surround panner no longer causes the signal to unexpectedly mute.
Groups now immediately show as inactive when switched off for a selected set of channels in the Mixer.
Metering now correctly works on individual channel strips with plug-ins that send to more than two channels and are routed to a surround bus.
Option-clicking on a send in a selected group of channel strips now sets all corresponding sends to 0 dB as expected.
Fixes an issue where performing Undo after adjusting the fader values of grouped channels with Group Clutch enabled and then disabled could cause the faders to jump up to +6 dB when one member of the group is touched.
Setting multiple selected channels to No VCA now works as expected
Alchemy
The oscillator section in Alchemy offers a new Wide Unison mode.
All controls for Additive Effects now accept typed-in values as expected.
Values typed into parameters related to milliseconds (MS) in Acoustic Reverb are no longer interpreted as full seconds.
Resolves an issue where performance control destinations for modulation could show as duplicated.
Sampler, Quick Sampler, and Quick Alchemy
The Playback direction button in Quick Sampler now immediately updates when clicked.
The view now scrolls correctly when dragging the Trim marker in Sample Alchemy.
It is now possible to adjust the level of a group in Sampler up to +24 dB.
The Up/Down buttons for navigating zones in Sampler now remain available after adjusting the start or end positions of samples.
The general Zoom/Scroll key commands now can be used to trim the current view in Sample Alchemy.
Handles and Trim Handles in Sample Alchemy behave correctly when click-dragged, even when the plug-in window does not have focus.
The Ancient Vocal Chop and Baily Glide plug-in settings for Quick Sampler now open in Classic mode, as expected.
Plug-ins
The MIDI Scripter plug-in now shows in Logic Pro when running in dark mode.
Fixes an issue where clicking on Sampled IR in Space Designer could activate Synthesized IR mode unexpectedly.
Resolves an issue where repositioning the playhead could cause audio to cut out on channel strips that use Step FX.
The preset Note Repeater in Scripter now works as expected.
The wet/dry setting on Ringshifter is now always set to 100% wet when inserted on an Aux.
There's now a DI Delay Compensation switch in Bass Amp Designer to improve phase correlation when blending between Amp and Direct Box in the plug-in.
StepFX now includes presets using Sidechain.
The Beat Breaker preset called “Basic / 2 Slices, Speed 66%” no longer plays the slices at 50% speed instead of 66%.
Resolves an issue where ES2 could produce glitching sounds when using Sine Level or Poly Voice mode on Apple Silicon computers.
Mono > Stereo instances of Console EQ no longer can cause unexpected feedback.
Using the Delete all Automation key command while an Audio Unit window has key focus no longer causes the Audio Unit window to go blank.
The menu for the compression section of Phat FX can now be opened by clicking on the Up/Down arrows.
Beat Breaker now offers new default patterns divided evenly into 2, 4, 8, 16, and 32 slices.
Mastering Assistant
There is no longer unexpected latency with bounces from projects that use the Clean or Clean + Excite mode in Mastering Assistant.
Mastering Assistant analysis is no longer incorrectly triggered in projects that contain no regions, but are previewing audio from Ultrabeat, etc.
Mastering Assistant no longer allows the -1 dBFS peak limit to be exceeded in certain cases.
Automation
The Consolidate Relative and Absolute for Visible / Automation menu item now only displays when automation types that support relative automation are active in the lane.
Region-based Automation is now pasted as Track-based Automation when pasted to an area of a track that does not contain regions.
Pitchbend now works as expected with zones in Sampler that do not have Flex Pitch enabled.
Selecting Region-based automation points on a region now deselects previously selected automation points on other regions
Disabling Region-Based Automation no longer dims the Power button for MIDI CC data lanes in the Piano Roll.
The movie window now updates to show the correct frame when moving Region-based automation points.
The Autoselect automation parameter now works as expected when clicking any plug-in control.
Automation of the Gain plug-in no longer exhibits unexpected latency.
Region-based automation is now drawn correctly when recorded into projects that start earlier than 1 1 1 1.
Automation lane views for all tracks are now maintained when switching into Flex view and then back to Automation view.
Flex Time and Flex Pitch
Flex Pitched notes now play as expected when clicked while Record or Input Monitoring is active on the track.
Flexed audio tracks using Monophonic or Slicing mode no longer produce clicks at tempo changes.
Takes and comping
Fade-ins are now applied when flatten and merge is performed on Comps.
Renaming a take that encompasses the entire length of an audio file no longer unexpectedly changes the file name.
Comps in Take Folders are now preserved when performing Cut Section Between Locators on a section that includes the end of one Take folder and the beginning of another, with a gap in-between.
Track Stacks
Record-arming a Track Stack now arms grouped audio tracks in a Track Stack it contains.
Dragging a subtrack out of a Track Stack that is assigned to a VCA now removes the assignment for the subtrack.
Fixes an issue where Track Stacks could sometimes be dimmed when some, but not all, subtracks are muted or off.
It's now possible to replace stacked instrument patches that are inside a Summing Stack with single track patches.
Track Alternatives
Loading a patch on a Summing Stack containing sub-tracks with Track Alternatives no longer causes inactive alternatives to be deleted.
Track Alternatives can now be created for the Stereo Output track.
Selection-Based Processing
Using Selection-Based Processing on a Marquee selected section within a Take Folder no longer creates an unexpected comp.
Selection-Based Processing on a comp now retains the comp.
Score
The spacing of notes is improved in cases where there is a dotted note on a line with the stem is pointing upward.
Command + Z to undo now works after deleting a Score Set.
Upward bends in TAB staves now display correctly.
Importing an instrument track no longer can cause Score Sets in the current project to disappear.
Imported Score Sets can now be deleted from a project.
Live Loops
“Join Region and Fill Cell” now works as expected.
Recording a performance in Live Loops now temporarily puts all tracks into Automation: Latch mode.
Fixes an issue where changing patches for a Live Loop track could cause the length of cells to change unexpectedly.
It's now possible to paste MIDI notes into a Live Loops cell.
Step Sequencer
It's now easier to use the disclosure triangle to open sub-rows in Step Sequencer.
Pattern regions now play back correctly immediately after being nudged.
Pattern Regions now immediately play as expected after using the Slip/Rotate tool to drag their contents to the left.
The “Separate pattern region by kit piece” command on Drum Machine Designer tracks is now applied to the correct area of the Pattern Region, in cases where the left border of the region has been moved to the right.
The length and number of steps of a newly created Pattern Region accounts for Time Signature changes correctly.
The maximum possible pattern length of a Pattern region is now 4 bars of the current time signature.
Step Sequencer now allows pattern lengths to be added based on 5/4 and 7/8 time signatures.
The Step Sequencer Inc/Dec controls now work in Loop Edit mode.
Fixes an issue where Pattern Regions on frozen tracks be edited unexpectedly.
Region-based automation now displays properly on Pattern regions in tracks that have been partially frozen, and on regions that have been frozen and then unfrozen.
It's now possible to assign MIDI channels per step in a Pattern Region.
MIDI
Reset messages for Software Instruments now work correctly.
Sustain messages are now sent correctly when playing back regions with Clip Length enabled in cycle mode.
There is now an “Internal MIDI in” setting in the Track Inspector to allow for recording MIDI from any other software instrument or External MIDI Instrument track.
The “Send all MIDI settings” key command now sends program changes to external devices assigned to empty tracks.
Resolves an issue where 3 bytes of random MIDI data would be sent when playing back regions containing SysEx data with MIDI 2.0 disabled
New 'internal MIDI in' feature allows recording of MIDI from other tracks, including MIDI FX plug-in output and 3rd party MIDI generators.
The “Delete MIDI events outside region boundaries" key command now correctly creates a starting CC event in the region to match the last matching CC of the same type in the track.
Fixes an issue where Chase could cut off notes that are preceded by notes of the same pitch on tracks with third-party instrument plug-ins.
Editing
The Humanize transform set now works as expected when the Randomize functions for Position, Length, or Velocity are set to very small values.
The menu item Delete and Move in the Event List is now only displayed if regions are displayed in the window.
When MIDI 2.0 is selected in the Settings, clicking on an Event in the Event List no longer plays events back with MIDI 1.0 resolution.
Fixes an issue where using the Cut command in the Audio Track Editor could switch the view to another editor.
When a region in the Project Audio window is double-clicked, the Audio Track editor now opens as expected.
The content link buttons for the Piano Roll and Score show the correct color as expected when toggled using the mouse.
The Event List correctly updates to reflect changes made by using key commands to select notes in other editors.
Resolves an issue where the Velocity tool in the Piano roll could affect the values of non-note events.
Fixes an issue where applying the Transform set Double Speed could cause the notes to disappear from the Piano Roll.
Step Input
Extending the length of note entered using Step Input now works correctly.
Global Tracks
Adding multiple audio Apple Loops of the same key to different tracks of a new project now changes the project key as expected.
Clicked in Tempo points are now placed at their correct positions in projects that start earlier than 1 1 1 1.
Share and export
When No Overlap is enabled, regions bounced onto existing regions no longer overlap them.
Audio files bounced from Logic Pro now include the proper Encoded Date in the metadata.
Fixes an issue where MIDI regions could be truncated when bounced in place.
Fixes an issue where audio files including Volume/Pan automation exported from mono tracks that use plug-ins could export as stereo files.
It is now possible to bounce sub-channels of multitimbral instrument tracks as individual files.
Import
Resolves an issue when dragging multiple audio files into a project, choosing the “Place all files on one track” option could create a second track and places the first file on one track, and the rest on the second.
Output channels in the Mixer can now be imported from other Logic Pro projects.
Apple Loops
The Loops browser now correctly shows the same enharmonic key an Apple Loop was tagged with.
Apple Loops now preview using the Key Signature active at the current position of the playhead.
It's now possible to add Aliases to bookmarks and untagged loops.
Dragging an Apple Loop from the loop browser to an existing track no longer changes the input for the track.
Fixes an issue where MIDI Apple Loops could jump to the start of the nearest bar position when dragged from the Loop Browser to the middle of a bar.
Video Support
A secondary screen that is running a full screen video with Show Animations off will no longer remain black after closing the project.
Key Commands
The “Increase (or Decrease) last clicked parameter” key commands now work for controls in the LCD.
The “Record off for all” key command now works on Software Instrument tracks in cases where one or more audio tracks are also record-enabled.
There is now a key command to add to the current selection of regions or cells that are assigned to a toggle solo group.
The Zoom Toggle key command now works in the Step Editor.
Compatibility
GarageBand projects that use Pitch Correction now sound the same when opened in Logic Pro.
Undo
If Undo is used immediately after creating a project, the New Track Sheet is displayed as expected rather than leaving a project with no tracks.
Undo/Redo now works as expected with Audio Unit v3 plug-ins.
Changing the Automation Mode, or changing a Track On/Off state now creates an Undo step.
Performing Undo after adding a surround track no longer corrects Drummer tracks in the project.
Logic Remote
Logic Remote immediately updates to show time and signature changes made in Logic Pro.
Control Surfaces and MIDI controllers
Controls on Control Surface devices that use Lua scripts now provide feedback when learning assignments for them in Logic Pro.
Illuminated buttons on control surfaces now show the correct state for Show/Hide Track Editor.
General
The LCD now displays the Cycle start and end times in both SMPTE time and Bars/Beats when the secondary ruler is displayed.
Search in the All Files browser now finds matching items in bookmarked folders.
Fixes an issue where the visible editor in the Main window could unexpectedly switch when rubber-band selecting regions.
Audio Take folders created in Cycle mode now loop as expected after recording when Loop is enabled in the Region Inspector.
It's now possible to create external MIDI tracks when Core Audio is disabled in Logic Pro.
Resolves an issue where deleting a Flex marker from an audio region while a Marker List is visible could switch the key focus to the Marker List.
Track information pasted into a text editor now includes the TIME position when the Use Musical Grid setting for the project is not enabled.
Input monitoring buttons are now displayed on audio tracks when Logic Pro has fallen back to an alternate audio device because the selected device is not available.
Previewing an audio region in the Project Audio window no longer causes it to jump to the top of the window.
Command+Option clicking on the On/Off button of a track now toggles the button for all tracks, as expected.
Copy/paste of regions now works when Automation view is enabled.
Right-clicking on a looped segment of a region now opens the contextual menu as expected.
It's now easier to see when black keys are depressed in the Musical Typing window.
The right arrow key now reliably moves the text cursor in the Bounce > Save As file name panel.
Groove Templates created from audio regions now work in Smart Quantize mode.
Dragging multiple regions from the same audio file from the Project Audio browser to the Tracks area now works correctly.
Audio regions are no longer moved to unexpected positions when trimming, if absolute Snap mode is on, and the region anchor is moved away from the start of the region
Fixes an issue where pasting a Marquee selection with No Overlap and Snap Edits to Zero Crossings mode enabled could delete a non-overlapping part of an existing region.
Autozoom now triggers when a region's upper right corner is dragged in the Main window, or the Audio Track Editor.
The Playhead no longer may briefly appear to be in the wrong position when zooming horizontally.
The Time Ruler now immediately updates to reflect changes made to the “Bar Position [bar position] plays at SMPTE” setting.
The File browser correctly shows the full path when using Save As.
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New AI-enhanced tools join Smart Tempo and the Pitch Correction plug-in to augment your artistry.
Bass Player and Keyboard Player join Drummer to complete a set of Session Players — all built with AI making it easy to create performances that respond to your direction.
Session Players can follow the same chord progression using Global chord track.
Add warmth to any track with ChromaGlow, an advanced plug-in with five saturation models designed to simulate the sound of vintage analog hardware.*
Separate a stereo audio file into stems for vocals, drums, bass and other parts with Stem Splitter.*
Session Players, ChromaGlow, and Stem Splitter also come to Logic Pro for iPad 2 — making it simple to move between projects created in Logic Pro for Mac.
Play any of six deeply-sampled acoustic and electric basses with Studio Bass.
Perform any of three meticulously-sampled pianos with Studio Piano.
Loops that contain chord tags will automatically populate the chord track when added to a project.
Three new Producer Packs are available: Hardwell, The Kount, and Cory Wong.
Original multi-track project of Swing! by Ellie Dixon available as in-app demo song.
Downmix and trim options allow custom mixing for non-Atmos channel configurations.
Exported ADM BWF files have been expanded beyond Dolby Atmos and can contain settings for stereo and other multi-channel formats.
Bounce in place adds automatic real-time recording for External Instrument regions or tracks that utilize external hardware using the Logic Pro I/O plug-in.
Route MIDI signals generated by supported software instruments and effects to the input of other tracks for creative layering during playback or recording.
Edit more efficiently using key commands for moving, extending, or resizing marquee selections.
The Nudge Region/Event Position key commands now also nudge Marquee selections.
The Transpose Region/Event key commands now also move or expand the Marquee selection up/down.
Pattern regions can now be created on Drummer tracks, and Drummer regions can be converted to Pattern regions.
New key commands include Trim Note End to Following Notes (Force Legato) With Overlap and Trim Note End to Selected (Force Legato) With Overlap.
Bounce in Place and Track Freeze can now be performed in real time, allowing for use of external instruments, I/O plug-ins, and external inserts.
Mastering Assistant analysis now can be performed in real time, allowing for use in projects that incorporate external I/O or instruments.
The Dolby Atmos plug-in now offers Downmix and Surround/Height Trim controls.
The Recent Projects list can now be configured to show up to 50 projects.
* Requires a Mac with Apple silicon.
Stability and reliability
Scripts with 1071 characters or more in Scripter no longer cause Logic Pro to quit unexpectedly.
Fixes an issue where creating a an event in a lane assigned to Note off in Step Sequencer could cause Logic Pro to quit unexpectedly.
Fixes an issue where Logic Pro could fail to launch with an Error Initializing Core MIDI message when the system is under heavy load performing other tasks.
Resolves an issue where Logic Pro could quit unexpectedly when a 64-bit floating point IR file is loaded into Space Designer.
Fixes an issue where Logic Pro could hang when opening a project while the Project Settings > MIDI window is displayed.
Logic Pro no longer quits unexpectedly when creating multiple Aux tracks with multiple existing Aux tracks selected.
Improves stability when bypassing control surfaces with Musical Typing open when EuControl software is installed.
Fixes an issue where Logic Pro could hang when quitting a project containing a large number of instances of Sampler.
Fixes an issue where Logic Pro could quit unexpectedly when replacing a playing Live Loops cell with another loop.
Performance
The UI is now more responsive when adjusting Flex Pitches directly on regions in Deviation mode.
Performance is improved when editing Transient Markers in Take regions with Flex enabled.
Performance is improved when making Flex Pitch edits in the Tracks area with a large number of selected regions.
Alchemy's Performance is improved.
Performance is improved when moving regions in projects with a large number of tracks and regions.
Projects containing a large number of flex-pitched regions now open more quickly.
Resolves an issue where loading a project saved with a Summing stack selected that contains Software Instruments that have no regions and/or with the tracks turned off could load the Software Instruments into memory.
Accessibility
VoiceOver now announces the state of Automation mode buttons on channel strips.
VoiceOver now announces the status of the Pause button in the LCD.
VoiceOver no longer announces hidden controls in the Smart Controls view.
VoiceOver no longer reads the values of pan knobs that are currently hidden in Sends on Faders mode.
VoiceOver now announces the state of the Details button and the Follow button in the Drummer Editor.
VoiceOver now announces left-click and Command-click Tool selections in the Control Bar.
VoiceOver now announces the name of the Time Quantize button in the Piano Roll.
VoiceOver now announces changes in value when the Next/Previous key commands are used to change Quantize values.
VoiceOver now announces state of key commands for Cycle, Mute, Track Solo, Input Monitoring, Track On/Off, and Lock/Unlock Track.
VoiceOver now announces the selection state of focused tracks.
Spatial Audio
Fixes an issue where adding a new 3D Object track for the first time to a Spatial Audio project could cause the Renderer to switch from the current model to the Apple renderer.
The Dolby Atmos plug-in now offers a 5.1.2 monitoring option.
Fixes an issue where setting a project to Dolby Atmos could output to 7.1.4 even when the mode defaults to Apple Renderer.
It is now possible to monitor Dolby Atmos projects directly via HDMI to a surround capable receiveamplifier.
The metering for Height channels now shows as post-fader on the Master channel as expected.
Loading a Master Bus channel strip setting in the 7.1.4 channel format now preserves the 7.1.4 channel layout as expected.
Session Players
Resolves an issue where loading a user-created Drum Machine Designer patch could set the input to a bus and fail to load the Drum Machine Designer instrument.
Using the Create Drummer Region command in a Marquee selection now creates a region that corresponds to the Marquee.
Smart Tempo
In cases where there is not an existing Smart Tempo Multitrack Set, selecting an audio file in the Smart Tempo Multitrack Set window and disabling the “Contribute to analysis” check box now causes the Update button to change to Analyze as expected.
Pressing the Space bar now immediately stops a Free Tempo recording.
Fixes an issue where projects previously open in the same Logic Pro session could unexpectedly affect “Contribute to Analysis” in the Smart Tempo editor.
Recording
Audio regions recorded to unnamed tracks now include the project name and track number in their name.
Mixer
The channel strip Stereo Pan control and the Pan menu now can be adjusted when Caps Lock is enabled.
Creating a single Multi-timbral Software Instrument in the New Track Sheet no longer creates two Software Instrument instances in the All view of the Mixer.
Resolves an issue where remaining tracks in a Multitimbral Software Instrument Track Stack could unexpectedly rename the channel strip.
Adjusting the activity status of a speaker in the Surround panner no longer causes the signal to unexpectedly mute.
Groups now immediately show as inactive when switched off for a selected set of channels in the Mixer.
Metering now correctly works on individual channel strips with plug-ins that send to more than two channels and are routed to a surround bus.
Option-clicking on a send in a selected group of channel strips now sets all corresponding sends to 0 dB as expected.
Fixes an issue where performing Undo after adjusting the fader values of grouped channels with Group Clutch enabled and then disabled could cause the faders to jump up to +6 dB when one member of the group is touched.
Setting multiple selected channels to No VCA now works as expected
Alchemy
The oscillator section in Alchemy offers a new Wide Unison mode.
All controls for Additive Effects now accept typed-in values as expected.
Values typed into parameters related to milliseconds (MS) in Acoustic Reverb are no longer interpreted as full seconds.
Resolves an issue where performance control destinations for modulation could show as duplicated.
Sampler, Quick Sampler, and Quick Alchemy
The Playback direction button in Quick Sampler now immediately updates when clicked.
The view now scrolls correctly when dragging the Trim marker in Sample Alchemy.
It is now possible to adjust the level of a group in Sampler up to +24 dB.
The Up/Down buttons for navigating zones in Sampler now remain available after adjusting the start or end positions of samples.
The general Zoom/Scroll key commands now can be used to trim the current view in Sample Alchemy.
Handles and Trim Handles in Sample Alchemy behave correctly when click-dragged, even when the plug-in window does not have focus.
The Ancient Vocal Chop and Baily Glide plug-in settings for Quick Sampler now open in Classic mode, as expected.
Plug-ins
The MIDI Scripter plug-in now shows in Logic Pro when running in dark mode.
Fixes an issue where clicking on Sampled IR in Space Designer could activate Synthesized IR mode unexpectedly.
Resolves an issue where repositioning the playhead could cause audio to cut out on channel strips that use Step FX.
The preset Note Repeater in Scripter now works as expected.
The wet/dry setting on Ringshifter is now always set to 100% wet when inserted on an Aux.
There's now a DI Delay Compensation switch in Bass Amp Designer to improve phase correlation when blending between Amp and Direct Box in the plug-in.
StepFX now includes presets using Sidechain.
The Beat Breaker preset called “Basic / 2 Slices, Speed 66%” no longer plays the slices at 50% speed instead of 66%.
Resolves an issue where ES2 could produce glitching sounds when using Sine Level or Poly Voice mode on Apple Silicon computers.
Mono > Stereo instances of Console EQ no longer can cause unexpected feedback.
Using the Delete all Automation key command while an Audio Unit window has key focus no longer causes the Audio Unit window to go blank.
The menu for the compression section of Phat FX can now be opened by clicking on the Up/Down arrows.
Beat Breaker now offers new default patterns divided evenly into 2, 4, 8, 16, and 32 slices.
Mastering Assistant
There is no longer unexpected latency with bounces from projects that use the Clean or Clean + Excite mode in Mastering Assistant.
Mastering Assistant analysis is no longer incorrectly triggered in projects that contain no regions, but are previewing audio from Ultrabeat, etc.
Mastering Assistant no longer allows the -1 dBFS peak limit to be exceeded in certain cases.
Automation
The Consolidate Relative and Absolute for Visible / Automation menu item now only displays when automation types that support relative automation are active in the lane.
Region-based Automation is now pasted as Track-based Automation when pasted to an area of a track that does not contain regions.
Pitchbend now works as expected with zones in Sampler that do not have Flex Pitch enabled.
Selecting Region-based automation points on a region now deselects previously selected automation points on other regions
Disabling Region-Based Automation no longer dims the Power button for MIDI CC data lanes in the Piano Roll.
The movie window now updates to show the correct frame when moving Region-based automation points.
The Autoselect automation parameter now works as expected when clicking any plug-in control.
Automation of the Gain plug-in no longer exhibits unexpected latency.
Region-based automation is now drawn correctly when recorded into projects that start earlier than 1 1 1 1.
Automation lane views for all tracks are now maintained when switching into Flex view and then back to Automation view.
Flex Time and Flex Pitch
Flex Pitched notes now play as expected when clicked while Record or Input Monitoring is active on the track.
Flexed audio tracks using Monophonic or Slicing mode no longer produce clicks at tempo changes.
Takes and comping
Fade-ins are now applied when flatten and merge is performed on Comps.
Renaming a take that encompasses the entire length of an audio file no longer unexpectedly changes the file name.
Comps in Take Folders are now preserved when performing Cut Section Between Locators on a section that includes the end of one Take folder and the beginning of another, with a gap in-between.
Track Stacks
Record-arming a Track Stack now arms grouped audio tracks in a Track Stack it contains.
Dragging a subtrack out of a Track Stack that is assigned to a VCA now removes the assignment for the subtrack.
Fixes an issue where Track Stacks could sometimes be dimmed when some, but not all, subtracks are muted or off.
It's now possible to replace stacked instrument patches that are inside a Summing Stack with single track patches.
Track Alternatives
Loading a patch on a Summing Stack containing sub-tracks with Track Alternatives no longer causes inactive alternatives to be deleted.
Track Alternatives can now be created for the Stereo Output track.
Selection-Based Processing
Using Selection-Based Processing on a Marquee selected section within a Take Folder no longer creates an unexpected comp.
Selection-Based Processing on a comp now retains the comp.
Score
The spacing of notes is improved in cases where there is a dotted note on a line with the stem is pointing upward.
Command + Z to undo now works after deleting a Score Set.
Upward bends in TAB staves now display correctly.
Importing an instrument track no longer can cause Score Sets in the current project to disappear.
Imported Score Sets can now be deleted from a project.
Live Loops
“Join Region and Fill Cell” now works as expected.
Recording a performance in Live Loops now temporarily puts all tracks into Automation: Latch mode.
Fixes an issue where changing patches for a Live Loop track could cause the length of cells to change unexpectedly.
It's now possible to paste MIDI notes into a Live Loops cell.
Step Sequencer
It's now easier to use the disclosure triangle to open sub-rows in Step Sequencer.
Pattern regions now play back correctly immediately after being nudged.
Pattern Regions now immediately play as expected after using the Slip/Rotate tool to drag their contents to the left.
The “Separate pattern region by kit piece” command on Drum Machine Designer tracks is now applied to the correct area of the Pattern Region, in cases where the left border of the region has been moved to the right.
The length and number of steps of a newly created Pattern Region accounts for Time Signature changes correctly.
The maximum possible pattern length of a Pattern region is now 4 bars of the current time signature.
Step Sequencer now allows pattern lengths to be added based on 5/4 and 7/8 time signatures.
The Step Sequencer Inc/Dec controls now work in Loop Edit mode.
Fixes an issue where Pattern Regions on frozen tracks be edited unexpectedly.
Region-based automation now displays properly on Pattern regions in tracks that have been partially frozen, and on regions that have been frozen and then unfrozen.
It's now possible to assign MIDI channels per step in a Pattern Region.
MIDI
Reset messages for Software Instruments now work correctly.
Sustain messages are now sent correctly when playing back regions with Clip Length enabled in cycle mode.
There is now an “Internal MIDI in” setting in the Track Inspector to allow for recording MIDI from any other software instrument or External MIDI Instrument track.
The “Send all MIDI settings” key command now sends program changes to external devices assigned to empty tracks.
Resolves an issue where 3 bytes of random MIDI data would be sent when playing back regions containing SysEx data with MIDI 2.0 disabled
New 'internal MIDI in' feature allows recording of MIDI from other tracks, including MIDI FX plug-in output and 3rd party MIDI generators.
The “Delete MIDI events outside region boundaries" key command now correctly creates a starting CC event in the region to match the last matching CC of the same type in the track.
Fixes an issue where Chase could cut off notes that are preceded by notes of the same pitch on tracks with third-party instrument plug-ins.
Editing
The Humanize transform set now works as expected when the Randomize functions for Position, Length, or Velocity are set to very small values.
The menu item Delete and Move in the Event List is now only displayed if regions are displayed in the window.
When MIDI 2.0 is selected in the Settings, clicking on an Event in the Event List no longer plays events back with MIDI 1.0 resolution.
Fixes an issue where using the Cut command in the Audio Track Editor could switch the view to another editor.
When a region in the Project Audio window is double-clicked, the Audio Track editor now opens as expected.
The content link buttons for the Piano Roll and Score show the correct color as expected when toggled using the mouse.
The Event List correctly updates to reflect changes made by using key commands to select notes in other editors.
Resolves an issue where the Velocity tool in the Piano roll could affect the values of non-note events.
Fixes an issue where applying the Transform set Double Speed could cause the notes to disappear from the Piano Roll.
Step Input
Extending the length of note entered using Step Input now works correctly.
Global Tracks
Adding multiple audio Apple Loops of the same key to different tracks of a new project now changes the project key as expected.
Clicked in Tempo points are now placed at their correct positions in projects that start earlier than 1 1 1 1.
Share and export
When No Overlap is enabled, regions bounced onto existing regions no longer overlap them.
Audio files bounced from Logic Pro now include the proper Encoded Date in the metadata.
Fixes an issue where MIDI regions could be truncated when bounced in place.
Fixes an issue where audio files including Volume/Pan automation exported from mono tracks that use plug-ins could export as stereo files.
It is now possible to bounce sub-channels of multitimbral instrument tracks as individual files.
Import
Resolves an issue when dragging multiple audio files into a project, choosing the “Place all files on one track” option could create a second track and places the first file on one track, and the rest on the second.
Output channels in the Mixer can now be imported from other Logic Pro projects.
Apple Loops
The Loops browser now correctly shows the same enharmonic key an Apple Loop was tagged with.
Apple Loops now preview using the Key Signature active at the current position of the playhead.
It's now possible to add Aliases to bookmarks and untagged loops.
Dragging an Apple Loop from the loop browser to an existing track no longer changes the input for the track.
Fixes an issue where MIDI Apple Loops could jump to the start of the nearest bar position when dragged from the Loop Browser to the middle of a bar.
Video Support
A secondary screen that is running a full screen video with Show Animations off will no longer remain black after closing the project.
Key Commands
The “Increase (or Decrease) last clicked parameter” key commands now work for controls in the LCD.
The “Record off for all” key command now works on Software Instrument tracks in cases where one or more audio tracks are also record-enabled.
There is now a key command to add to the current selection of regions or cells that are assigned to a toggle solo group.
The Zoom Toggle key command now works in the Step Editor.
Compatibility
GarageBand projects that use Pitch Correction now sound the same when opened in Logic Pro.
Undo
If Undo is used immediately after creating a project, the New Track Sheet is displayed as expected rather than leaving a project with no tracks.
Undo/Redo now works as expected with Audio Unit v3 plug-ins.
Changing the Automation Mode, or changing a Track On/Off state now creates an Undo step.
Performing Undo after adding a surround track no longer corrects Drummer tracks in the project.
Logic Remote
Logic Remote immediately updates to show time and signature changes made in Logic Pro.
Control Surfaces and MIDI controllers
Controls on Control Surface devices that use Lua scripts now provide feedback when learning assignments for them in Logic Pro.
Illuminated buttons on control surfaces now show the correct state for Show/Hide Track Editor.
General
The LCD now displays the Cycle start and end times in both SMPTE time and Bars/Beats when the secondary ruler is displayed.
Search in the All Files browser now finds matching items in bookmarked folders.
Fixes an issue where the visible editor in the Main window could unexpectedly switch when rubber-band selecting regions.
Audio Take folders created in Cycle mode now loop as expected after recording when Loop is enabled in the Region Inspector.
It's now possible to create external MIDI tracks when Core Audio is disabled in Logic Pro.
Resolves an issue where deleting a Flex marker from an audio region while a Marker List is visible could switch the key focus to the Marker List.
Track information pasted into a text editor now includes the TIME position when the Use Musical Grid setting for the project is not enabled.
Input monitoring buttons are now displayed on audio tracks when Logic Pro has fallen back to an alternate audio device because the selected device is not available.
Previewing an audio region in the Project Audio window no longer causes it to jump to the top of the window.
Command+Option clicking on the On/Off button of a track now toggles the button for all tracks, as expected.
Copy/paste of regions now works when Automation view is enabled.
Right-clicking on a looped segment of a region now opens the contextual menu as expected.
It's now easier to see when black keys are depressed in the Musical Typing window.
The right arrow key now reliably moves the text cursor in the Bounce > Save As file name panel.
Groove Templates created from audio regions now work in Smart Quantize mode.
Dragging multiple regions from the same audio file from the Project Audio browser to the Tracks area now works correctly.
Audio regions are no longer moved to unexpected positions when trimming, if absolute Snap mode is on, and the region anchor is moved away from the start of the region
Fixes an issue where pasting a Marquee selection with No Overlap and Snap Edits to Zero Crossings mode enabled could delete a non-overlapping part of an existing region.
Autozoom now triggers when a region's upper right corner is dragged in the Main window, or the Audio Track Editor.
The Playhead no longer may briefly appear to be in the wrong position when zooming horizontally.
The Time Ruler now immediately updates to reflect changes made to the “Bar Position [bar position] plays at SMPTE” setting.
The File browser correctly shows the full path when using Save As.
2024.05.13 23:12 Worker567 Reflections after 6 months of sobriety
Recently I decided to gave sobriety a real chance and now I have thoughts looking back on 6 months of sobriety, which I want to share. More recently, I started drinking again, which I'm afraid of. For some background, I have had around 15 years of what I would call “higher-than-normal” alcohol use, often peaking to very high levels and sometimes what I would call crisis levels. Sometimes I wish the crisis levels would have been higher so that I could have better identified them earlier. I generally enjoy alcohol and strive to be in a state where I am completely altered from my sober self: which is a person who is funny and a joy to be with. I think my sober self is rather harsh and negative, and not someone that anyone would want to spend time with.
I believe that a lot of my personal negativity came from my studies in International Realtions, and readings on wars, slavery, and colonialization. Utlimately you will have to decide based on the account below. My alcohol use would average around 5 pints of strong beer (~7.5%), or about 2 bottles of red wine. Sometimes it would get higher than I could count.
Alcohol use starting in 2023
Early in 2023, around march, I decided to stop drinking for a reason I can’t remember, and I had a good 2 months being alcohol-free. During that time I also decided to try out Betterhelp (tm) for a month or two and find a counselor with experience in addication. However, I had already set my mind on sobriety before I sought out the counselor, and she was just there to support my journey.
After 2 sucessful months of soberiety I received some bad news about a job I was excited about, and I was back to drinking for about 5 months. I would drink on average my usual quantity about 3-4 times per week, which was actually an improvement from before. In late September, the 5th month, I started to read something that would be very important.
*Below I am about to summarize poorly a book by an expert on a subject which I am not an expert on. Please consult this book or other experts on sleep if you have any questions.
When I finally read the book Why We Sleep by Matthew Walker, something finally clicked about the damage alcohol was doing to my sleep, and why quality sleep was important for both phsyical and mental health. Most importantly, according to Walker, because of alcohol’s quality as a sedative, it puts you into a state of sedation, but this is only the first stage of the very important sleep pattern that our minds have evolved to use. The most important stage of our sleep, the NREM (non-rapid eye movement) sleep, which is our particular variant, is blocked in a state of sedation. During a sedated state, you are only experiencing a very low state of sleep that is ultimately useless and will result in feeling tired and a lack of sleep the next day.
Have you ever heard anyone say any variant of: ‘I can’t sleep without alcohol’? They are sedating themselves, and ultimately the lack of good sleep will catch up with them. But they probably can’t perceive it at that moment.
So finally I decided to stop in early October of 2023. What happened during those 6 months? During the first 3 months I started dreaming again. I started fairly well as far as work is concerned also. After only a few weeks, lo and behold, my sleep improved drastically and I began to dream like I had not for a long time. No longer did I think about how tired I was all the time, and finally I was able to devot time to the things that I wanted to.
Alcohol use in 2024
Eventually, January came around. January started great (and I actually regularly hit the gym during this time), but something else was missing. I began to feel a real absence in my life, and I wasn’t hesitant to tell those around me about it.
After the death of an aunt and a week of getting involved in an old past-time of video games, I was lost. A game by an independent developer with passion for his craft created Songs of Syx, which lets you build and manage a city of thousands of people with several different races of different creatures with their own preferences and personalities. Who could resist?
I love art. I love (some) video games, and consider them a form of art, but now I cannot deny that games can become a sort of addication as well.
But this and other less interesting distractions came at the cost of my personal growth. Soon I was lost in distractions again whether they be good or bad. In March I started having dreams where I would drink again, albeit mildly. In April, we had the first very nice day in a very long time. I was finally feeling better, and I desired a beer.
I spent months in these distractions, thinking of calling out to the people who had supported by sobriety but too ashamed to tell them the reality of what I was actually doing. ‘Well, this is better than drinking,’ I had told myself. And in a way, it was. In another way, this replacement deprived me of what I really wanted. I started painting, and listening audiobooks while I painted. All this was great, but I still somehow felt empty inside.
In mid-April, I had a beer for the first time in six months. I had lost 10 kg, the alcohol was much more effecitive on me in producing creativity. Everything felt right again! Until the next morning, when I essentially lost a day, which would be a prelude to several upcoming lost days…
So why did I start drinking again? A bit due to genetics, I’m fairly certain. In part because the weather was nice, and the thought that having a beer would be nice. In large part I’m certain that I wanted to be released from the negative thoughts that I have to deal with by myself. In my situation, there’s nothing better than seeing smiling faces and shaking a bunch of hands, and alcohol helps me feel that joy on my end, so that it’s not just a forced smile from my end but a genuine one. And that is a nice feeling.
Appendix: On drinking and creativity
I’ve always told myself that I have the ‘Mark Twain’ syndrome when it comes to drinking. Mark Twain is a considered a classic among American authors, and he was known to drink a lot, especially while writing. I also like to drink and write, and I often do while my sober self is less productive. Now I have to ask myself at this point in my mid-30s, where are the publications? Where are the books? I have one co-authorship on a publication in an economics journal.
Was this ‘Mark Twain’ syndrom a lie that I told myself to continue drinking? As for Mark Twain and other writers who were infamous drinkers, were they brilliant because of or in spite of their drinking? Does the same hold for other drug use like pot smoking?
My personal thoughts are that any drug, whether it be alcohol or methanphetamine, gives its primary benefits near the start of use, but when an addiction starts to develop the creative potential of the drug drowns in just desire for the drug. Some people are apparently able to keep themselves in the state of "desire for the drug" which they are able to harness for creativity, but I have come to think the more likely outcome of the drug use is addiction and waste of creative potential.
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I believe that a lot of my personal negativity came from my studies in International Realtions, and readings on wars, slavery, and colonialization. Utlimately you will have to decide based on the account below. My alcohol use would average around 5 pints of strong beer (~7.5%), or about 2 bottles of red wine. Sometimes it would get higher than I could count.
Alcohol use starting in 2023
Early in 2023, around march, I decided to stop drinking for a reason I can’t remember, and I had a good 2 months being alcohol-free. During that time I also decided to try out Betterhelp (tm) for a month or two and find a counselor with experience in addication. However, I had already set my mind on sobriety before I sought out the counselor, and she was just there to support my journey.
After 2 sucessful months of soberiety I received some bad news about a job I was excited about, and I was back to drinking for about 5 months. I would drink on average my usual quantity about 3-4 times per week, which was actually an improvement from before. In late September, the 5th month, I started to read something that would be very important.
*Below I am about to summarize poorly a book by an expert on a subject which I am not an expert on. Please consult this book or other experts on sleep if you have any questions.
When I finally read the book Why We Sleep by Matthew Walker, something finally clicked about the damage alcohol was doing to my sleep, and why quality sleep was important for both phsyical and mental health. Most importantly, according to Walker, because of alcohol’s quality as a sedative, it puts you into a state of sedation, but this is only the first stage of the very important sleep pattern that our minds have evolved to use. The most important stage of our sleep, the NREM (non-rapid eye movement) sleep, which is our particular variant, is blocked in a state of sedation. During a sedated state, you are only experiencing a very low state of sleep that is ultimately useless and will result in feeling tired and a lack of sleep the next day.
Have you ever heard anyone say any variant of: ‘I can’t sleep without alcohol’? They are sedating themselves, and ultimately the lack of good sleep will catch up with them. But they probably can’t perceive it at that moment.
So finally I decided to stop in early October of 2023. What happened during those 6 months? During the first 3 months I started dreaming again. I started fairly well as far as work is concerned also. After only a few weeks, lo and behold, my sleep improved drastically and I began to dream like I had not for a long time. No longer did I think about how tired I was all the time, and finally I was able to devot time to the things that I wanted to.
Alcohol use in 2024
Eventually, January came around. January started great (and I actually regularly hit the gym during this time), but something else was missing. I began to feel a real absence in my life, and I wasn’t hesitant to tell those around me about it.
After the death of an aunt and a week of getting involved in an old past-time of video games, I was lost. A game by an independent developer with passion for his craft created Songs of Syx, which lets you build and manage a city of thousands of people with several different races of different creatures with their own preferences and personalities. Who could resist?
I love art. I love (some) video games, and consider them a form of art, but now I cannot deny that games can become a sort of addication as well.
But this and other less interesting distractions came at the cost of my personal growth. Soon I was lost in distractions again whether they be good or bad. In March I started having dreams where I would drink again, albeit mildly. In April, we had the first very nice day in a very long time. I was finally feeling better, and I desired a beer.
I spent months in these distractions, thinking of calling out to the people who had supported by sobriety but too ashamed to tell them the reality of what I was actually doing. ‘Well, this is better than drinking,’ I had told myself. And in a way, it was. In another way, this replacement deprived me of what I really wanted. I started painting, and listening audiobooks while I painted. All this was great, but I still somehow felt empty inside.
In mid-April, I had a beer for the first time in six months. I had lost 10 kg, the alcohol was much more effecitive on me in producing creativity. Everything felt right again! Until the next morning, when I essentially lost a day, which would be a prelude to several upcoming lost days…
So why did I start drinking again? A bit due to genetics, I’m fairly certain. In part because the weather was nice, and the thought that having a beer would be nice. In large part I’m certain that I wanted to be released from the negative thoughts that I have to deal with by myself. In my situation, there’s nothing better than seeing smiling faces and shaking a bunch of hands, and alcohol helps me feel that joy on my end, so that it’s not just a forced smile from my end but a genuine one. And that is a nice feeling.
Appendix: On drinking and creativity
I’ve always told myself that I have the ‘Mark Twain’ syndrome when it comes to drinking. Mark Twain is a considered a classic among American authors, and he was known to drink a lot, especially while writing. I also like to drink and write, and I often do while my sober self is less productive. Now I have to ask myself at this point in my mid-30s, where are the publications? Where are the books? I have one co-authorship on a publication in an economics journal.
Was this ‘Mark Twain’ syndrom a lie that I told myself to continue drinking? As for Mark Twain and other writers who were infamous drinkers, were they brilliant because of or in spite of their drinking? Does the same hold for other drug use like pot smoking?
My personal thoughts are that any drug, whether it be alcohol or methanphetamine, gives its primary benefits near the start of use, but when an addiction starts to develop the creative potential of the drug drowns in just desire for the drug. Some people are apparently able to keep themselves in the state of "desire for the drug" which they are able to harness for creativity, but I have come to think the more likely outcome of the drug use is addiction and waste of creative potential.
2024.05.13 23:12 overpaid_overworked Pondering with Dudebrah - the himbo dragonborn gymbro
My post on Dudebrah the himbo dragonborn gymbro paladin of Helm caused some discussion. Figured I'd share a Dudebrah conversation because he was a fully fleshed out character.
Cleric: Dudebrah, you're constantly training, or lifting, or fighting, you never sit still, do you ever just sit quietly and think, or meditate, or stop to take in the world.
DB: S'yah brah, but I don't like it.
Cleric: What don't you like?
DB: Quiet brah.
Cleric: You don't like quiet?
DB: Nah brah, cause if there's nothing going on then I get like, these intrusive thoughts brah. S'like, I'll start thinking about the paradox of my oath and how like, I'm destined to fail in my vow to the righteous holy Helm brah.
Cause like, my vows to Helm say that I swear to spend my life protecting everyone worthy of Helm's grace, right, and so like, it's not like I'm going to retire and get old and die in bed right, and like, cause of the glory of Helm I can't get sick right, 'cept for these sick gains brah, and so like, I'm going to die in battle, someday, the last breath I take is going to be in pain as like, the last thing I see will my guts all spewing out on the muddy ground, surrounded by my bros and like the people I swore to protect with like their heads all cut off and stuff, and like, they'll all be dead or dying too, right? and in that moment I will have failed my holy duty to Helm, brah, super not chill.
So, it's like, no matter how hard I try and fulfill my vows, I'm guaranteed to break them eventually, and I'm going to die an oathbreaker, brah, it's like so not chill to break your oath to Helm brah. And then I worry that even by thinking thoughts like that, that I'm full on committing heresy against Helm brah and worse, betraying all my bros, feel me brah?
Annnnywaaaaay, I think I'm gonna hit the gym, only did legs twice this week.
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Cleric: Dudebrah, you're constantly training, or lifting, or fighting, you never sit still, do you ever just sit quietly and think, or meditate, or stop to take in the world.
DB: S'yah brah, but I don't like it.
Cleric: What don't you like?
DB: Quiet brah.
Cleric: You don't like quiet?
DB: Nah brah, cause if there's nothing going on then I get like, these intrusive thoughts brah. S'like, I'll start thinking about the paradox of my oath and how like, I'm destined to fail in my vow to the righteous holy Helm brah.
Cause like, my vows to Helm say that I swear to spend my life protecting everyone worthy of Helm's grace, right, and so like, it's not like I'm going to retire and get old and die in bed right, and like, cause of the glory of Helm I can't get sick right, 'cept for these sick gains brah, and so like, I'm going to die in battle, someday, the last breath I take is going to be in pain as like, the last thing I see will my guts all spewing out on the muddy ground, surrounded by my bros and like the people I swore to protect with like their heads all cut off and stuff, and like, they'll all be dead or dying too, right? and in that moment I will have failed my holy duty to Helm, brah, super not chill.
So, it's like, no matter how hard I try and fulfill my vows, I'm guaranteed to break them eventually, and I'm going to die an oathbreaker, brah, it's like so not chill to break your oath to Helm brah. And then I worry that even by thinking thoughts like that, that I'm full on committing heresy against Helm brah and worse, betraying all my bros, feel me brah?
Annnnywaaaaay, I think I'm gonna hit the gym, only did legs twice this week.
2024.05.13 23:11 facevalue28 Advice for a novice (M, 40)
 | Hi all, first post from long time redditor. submitted by facevalue28 to MakeUpAddictionUK [link] [comments] I used below concealer to help me feel ok and cover small lumps, red patches, ingrown hair, hyperpigmentation etc Been such a help to my mental health. The product was discontinued about 6 months ago, I tried other products but could not find the right tone. Now I am in the actual dregs of both (one bought 12 months before other from Superdrug) Any advice as I am growing increasingly anxious! |
2024.05.13 23:11 Electrical_Ad8360 I feel unsafe
I have been so anxious but basically we have a sick aunt who is of older age and basically her son who is our cousin would pay my uncle to take care of his mom he would pay 70-150 at times and he would go above and beyond for him and my uncle got a new job opportunity and my cousins really upset that my uncle won’t be helping take care of his mom But like he’s really pissed, yesterday him and his sister came over arguing with our whole family saying I’m a pothead and I have no job and I’m the least to be talking cause I always use my tio and just saying a bunch of shit and it’s like girl I’ll ask him if he can pick something up from the store for me or give me like ten bucks but he’s literally always been a father figure but anyways it was so bad everyone was screaming and my cousin was screaming in my face and I was screaming back and eventually we literally had to push them out And my guy cousin came looking for one of my other cousins who is giving my tio the job and basically started screaming outside of his apartment till the landlord threatened to call the cops and since the guy cousin lives upstairs from us we hear everything and I heard him stomping or moving shit and being all loud then I heard glass break and he was sweeping up glass at this point I’m kind of scared and it’s like he’s so angry for no reason like my tio has a right to have his own life and look for a different job if he wants to It’s a fucking mess and it’s to the point where I feel like kinda unsafe and I wish we could call the cops or something but it’s just gonna be a bigger mess It’s come to the point where we have told him if taking care of his mom is something he genuinely can’t handle(it’s obvious) but He refuses to give her up to a nursing home and at this point I bet this shit is causing her so much stress that they could’ve just put effort in to finding somewhere nice and she’d be better off then all of this
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2024.05.13 23:11 verminbby My Story: How I watched my ex and love of my life loose his mind to this drug
Hey people. I wanted to share my long ass story about how nitrous used to be one of my most favorite things in the world and now my relationship with it is complicated and twisted.
A lot of this will tackle interpersonal relationship dynamics, but I’m trying to illustrate to the reader the progression of how this drug took my ex’s mind. This is more of a thorough essay about my experience than a rant. When I was going through what I went through at the time, I wished there was a story like this out there to help me know better and understand. This is how I watched the love of my life melt away his brain on this drug.
I will try and keep this brief, but it probably won't be. I wish to convey the addictiveness this drug can have and the toll it can take on your mind and body. In the summer of 2022 I met my then bf who introduced me to the rave scene and drug scene he was a part of. He really only used K and Nitrous (which I will refer to as N going forward). He told me about his 1.5 years of being addicted to K, but did not inform me of his also 1.5 years (at the time) addiction to N. He told me after meeting me he didn’t want to abuse K anymore so as far as I knew when we started dating he got better about that.
It all started very early in the relationship. We went to a weekend festival together and both found doing N together was so fun. We continued on using and abusing N every weekend, and sometimes many weekdays. Probably going through 6 or 8+ tanks a week, this went on for like 3 months. Sadly, I do look back on those days fondly, despite what would happen later down the line. We had so much fun together and yes sadly it bonded us in this weird way. Using it causes you to feel more open and positive in the beginning, and we had so many heartfelt and deep conversations. And it felt like a little special world we could go into together.
At the time I had no clue how much those small-medium sized tanks cost ($65 and up for just one where we live). And he never told me how much they cost, and didn’t ask me to chip in, so I had no idea he was throwing himself into financial ruin buying them all the time. Looking back I have no idea why I didn’t ask, I just figured they were only $25 or something, or his friend was giving them to him, and I was aware it was probably a poor financial decision, but figured he could bounce back after the summer. You have to understand I thought I had him figured out, but I didn’t really know him that well at this point, or know about the drug scene at all. Before this I really only drank and smoked weed with the occasional cid or shrooms trip.
Three months into us dating and abusing N we come to the conclusion we just need to stop and take a break from N as this had all become quite excessive. Still he doesn’t explain to me how much debt he is in from buying all of those tanks over the summer. Two months into the break and he’s starting to crack, asking for me to be okay with us using it regularly. I tell him that I think it’s okay for us to just do it once and awhile. It was hard to not cave in because truthfully I missed it as well, I myself was starting to feel the addictiveness of this drug, so I reserved it so that I only ever did it with him. We go back to doing it occasionally on the weekends. Over the span of 1 month my bf started to constantly complain of having nerve issues, his feet and legs and hands were numb, I also noticed that he seemed really depressed. This is when he started to experience the vitamin B deficiency, although both me and him didn’t realize this at the time.
Around this time is when he finally and unceremoniously reveals to me how much these things actually cost. This is the tricky aspect of his personality I would go on to experience more of. It was clear he was resentful towards me, that I had no idea how much money he was spending, but the reality is if I had known how much those things cost I would have ended it a lot sooner. I didn’t even understand how he had the ability to spend so much money, I don’t even want to do the math. I would find out later he would just take out credit cards and max them out. In addition to him doing them with me occasionally, he was also doing them behind my back, which I had caught him doing several times and was always forgiving over this.
So, because of this constant spending he was in a substantial amount of debt. What he told me at the time was around $6,000. Knowing him, this was probably a generous assessment. This is definitely a point in the story where I should have left him. Clearly he was developing this addiction towards N and spent an ungodly amount of money that was beyond even my comprehension. But, I was head over heels and believed that he could figure this out. People go into debt all the time, I would tell myself. But I told him, this all needed to outright stop. No more N, not even occasionally. Unfortunately while he of course agreed to my face I have to suspect now, he was doing it behind my back all the time. Around this time he wouldn’t come home from work until 7 or 7:30 which didn’t make sense as his hours at work would fluctuate from time to time, but he was usually always off at 5. He would lie and say his work was very busy and made him stay later, which I believed at the time.
Maybe about a month later we are in bed together sleeping, it’s the middle of the night. He wakes me up and explains he literally cannot feel his feet or legs and has been having trouble walking for the past several days. I take him to the ER that night. This night and the following weeks after were some of the most heartbreaking and emotionally terrifying times of my life so far. At this time neither of us had any idea or reason to suspect N was the reason for this. We actually talked to the doctor there and ran tests for over 3 hours, he got an MRI and a spinal tap which was so hard to watch being done to him. It wasn’t until I desperately did research on my phone in the hospital room and suddenly see all of these remarks and reddit posts and studies about N causing paralysis and nerve damage. I tell my bf and the doctor and they have no trouble assessing that is what is causing this. They give him a regiment of vitamin B shots as you typically do in this situation. The doctor even said that they hope they can stop permanent damage from happening, because if not he may lose control of his legs and it may spread to his pelvic area (IE dick don’t work) etc, he had to do physical therapy and see a drug counselor.
The following days and weeks after I was constantly on edge worrying and wondering if my bf and love of my life would lose his ability to walk. Thankfully, the treatment took and he didn’t even end up needing physical therapy. This is when I truly believe or would like to hope he actually quit and wasn’t doing N behind my back. Unfortunately it wouldn’t matter, as I’ve learned, a lot of symptoms of N abuse don’t show themselves until after you stop. Shortly after this event is when our relationship took a nosedive. He had also ditched the drug counselor. To compensate for no N he was drinking so often. He started to become aggressive and violent. I remember it all started in a fight where he got real close and in my face and stared me down to try and intimidate me. In a way it was both terrifying and laughable (because he’s only a few inches taller than me), I couldn’t even comprehend the kind of person he had turned into. After that came the months and months of never ending name calling, insults, degradation, and constant arguments over every little thing I did. He became so addicted to the high of his power trip of making me feel small and weak he would find any excuse to fly into a rage at me, even when we were tripping on mushrooms together.
Nothing was ever the same after that. We didn’t go out, didn’t do dates, and every activity together felt like it was all a big chore to him. I could look in his eyes and see he was constantly thinking about N, and when he would do it next. He really changed, and what I am now realizing is he was probably starting to experience the effects of pure brain damage. My close friends who knew him even agree with me that there is a huge change in his demeanor around this time in April of 2023.
I also want to add more info about his bizarre behavior. He started to develop an unhealthy obsession with social media, scrutinizing what I posted and what he posted. He started to obsess over current events of any kind, any breaking story or ongoing conflict and he would rant and rant about the current state of the world and destruction of humanity all the time. He started to get obsessed with mental health and psychology and pathologize me and himself and other people in our lives. He would send me 10 videos everyday about mental health and relationships and expect me to reply and have a response for every single one like a book report. This obsession with the destruction of humanity turned into a paranoia about the world, he would often say no one understands him, and he is all alone. He turned on his best friends of several years because he was paranoid they were racists or had bad morals (they were all pleasant and nice people who enjoy edgy humor from time to time). There was no more middle ground for anything, you either loved something fully, or hated it fully. Somewhere down the line he actually got his account banned on Instagram for the craziest reason. He couldn’t stop or control himself from having heated arguments with random strangers in comments sections, of almost any video of any topic. He would insult people there constantly.
Here is another big mistake I made.I allowed him to live with me, and we moved in together. At this point we had been dating for a year. Before this I lived on my own and didn’t want to renew my lease, and he was living with his dad who was abusive and financially took advantage of him. At the time I was convinced that this bad behavior would go away if he could get away from his dad and his toxic household. Well the toxicity only followed. That summer we went to another weekend festival and he revealed to me when we got there he had purchased N and brought it. I was so conflicted as I myself had missed it quite a lot, and I had to deny myself my healthy regulated usage of it in order to not trigger him. I caved again and said we could do it only for this weekend. You may not at all be surprised to learn it didn’t end that way.
After the festival everything truly fell apart. He continued to buy tanks of N and do them behind my back constantly. He would say he was just going to his car to talk to his friends, or his mom, and be gone for hours. Because he was totally abusing me and I had no idea because I was under his spell of manipulation, I had no recourse. Any comment of mine asking why he was gone for so long, why can’t he just talk to his friends inside our apartment, I’ll go in the other room for privacy, was only met with complete indifference. These questions only pissed him off. He would say it’s because I was so exhausting and demanding he needed a break from me. When I would call him when he’s on one of these “excursions,” he would every so often mute the call while I was talking or in a silent moment. I eventually realized he was hitting the tank every time he muted himself. When I finally called him out on this he gaslit me and told me he just does this all the time because he coughs and clears his throat, fyi he had never done this before in our relationship. Because I had no recourse I just had to agree and move on. And because his mind was deteriorating more and more each day he would go on to make randomly muting himself in calls as a common, thing so as to keep up the facade he told me. Actual crazy behavior.
He even started doing K again, he would clearly be f-ed out of his mind by both K and N, and stumble around our apartment with crazy red bulging eyes and again and again tell me he was just drunk. Around this time is when he finally divulges to me not only had he been abusing K for the 1.5 years before he met me, he had also been abusing N for 1.5 years before he met me. And it wasn’t actually the case that he only “began” to become addicted to N when we started dating and doing it together. This really started to put a lot into perspective for me, and it made sense how he had almost paralyzed himself over this, now at this current time 3+ year addiction to these substances, and it made me realize how psychologically and cognitively he was failing based on changes in his personality. You also have to understand he explained to me before he met me, he was doing 1.5-2 grams of K or more and N, EVERYDAY.
And still at this time the name calling, insults and manipulation continued. He of course was no longer experiencing any true “high” from the N anymore, it would just simply dull his senses. It was like a stereotypical violent alcoholic husband comes home from the bar and berates his wife, kind of situation, except with N. And I became obsessed with figuring out how to get him to stop and go back to the loving person I remembered meeting and loving. I began to do very toxic things, going through his backpack, going through his car, and constantly always finding tanks and balloons and all kinds of paraphilia everywhere. I would find tanks in our recycling bin, like he actually thought I wouldn’t notice. I would come home late from being with friends and catch him passed out on the couch with an empty tank in his hand. He couldn't be left alone anymore. If he wasn’t with me, 100% of the time he was sitting in his car doing N. At this point in time there was no forgiveness, I was completely broken. I would yell and scream at him or wake him up and demand he stop and choose me or the drugs, all terrible things to be doing. I know that.
Eventually it got so bad I felt I had no other recourse other than to call and inform his mother of his behavior and what he had been doing all this time. Me doing this is probably what saved his life, as there was never anyway I was going to get through to him myself. But it did not save his mental health. Even having his mother involved didn’t stop any of it. He still went out and bought it behind my back like nothing happened. Another painful painful aspect of how his personality had changed is he would constantly have crazy back and forth mood swings, one minute showing me the sweet man I had fallen in love with, thanking me and praising me for having stepped in and put a stop to this, the next minute he hated me and I was the worst thing in his life and I could never tell what was even real anymore.
But did I leave, oh no, that would have been the smart thing to do.Instead at the time I was seeing a therapist who also specializes in couples therapy. I get us started with counseling and during our second session he gets called out by my therapist and yells and screams and berates her, it was actually insane. That is when things really ended between us. He moved out and moved into his moms apartment 30 minutes away that night. Even though the breakup was traumatizing and painful I still had hope that even if he isn’t with me, now he will receive help from his mother. Well, she didn’t place him in any special drug counselor program or rehab, she just severely cut off his finances so that he could pay off his debts, which she had bought back from several banks so it would not gain more and more interest. I do believe now his debt may be somewhere in the $10,000-$20,000 range. So now he, as an almost 30 year old man, needs to ask his mother in order to buy or purchase anything. Somehow, despite all of this I would learn he was continuing to do N and K.
Amazingly, we still tried briefly to even make our relationship work after he moved out. At this point he has mastered the art of manipulation and being fake, and convinced me he was getting better, he had even started to look better too, but he was still up to his old BS. He came over to the apartment once for us to have a mini date. Because he went on and on about how he was getting more and more into walks he said he was going to take a quick stroll around the block to get some fresh air. Well a quick stroll turns into 30 minutes, and I start to notice his car is gone from our street. I call him and he says now he is sitting in his car talking to his mom, I tell him I don’t see his car and it’s been a long time, he clearly had left to buy N. He becomes irate and claims he simply moved his car down the block for “reasons” and I was in the wrong for being accusatory and not trusting him. P.S. I went down the block and he just was not there. This guy is either absolutely crazy or thinks I’m some kind of imbecile, or both. It basically ended from there.
We tried to be civil, but he cannot control himself from completely going ballistic on me anymore, or his mother. And it is so painful when he is remorseful and doesn’t remember all the things he said to me. At this point I have had to realize I am basically talking to and trying to reason with a mentally disabled person. The fun loving, easy going, creative, altruistic, thoughtful, smart and attentive man I met doesn’t exist anymore, and I don’t think he will ever come back. All that remains is the shell of a confused and angry person.
Some small things to address, how it came to be that he abused these drugs all the time before he met me is because his best friend was a drug dealer and in the beginning would give him all of these things for free. Once he was hooked and doing it everyday it seemed he would stop at no end to spend money and buy them. Yes K was definitely a contributor into his mild psychosis but I still think it would have happened even from the N abuse alone, based on research I’ve been doing lately. And yes I have to admit I think he had bad and malignant psychological traits before abusing drugs, and doing that made it all worse.
So that is the story of how I watched this man ruin his life, and scare away maybe the only person who could withstand experiencing all of his BS and still wanted to love and help him. There are SO MANY things I too should have done differently. There is also an age gap between us of 3 years, so I naively thought he had a better handle on his life than he really did. I do find it hard to understand how people can be so addicted at times, but in the end like my ex, everyone is trying to chase some kind of feeling or experience that came with it, rather than the drug itself.
Thank you for reading if you made it to the end.
TLDR: Two years ago I started dating a guy who wasn’t honest with me about his 1.5 years of Nitrous abuse before we started dating. He was a sweet and honest and caring man when I met him. Sadly most of our relationship was spent on doing lots of Nitrous together. He eventually developed health problems like a vitamin B deficiency and even almost got paralysis and permanent nerve damage, which was hard for me to watch and witness. His health issues didn’t deter him away from Nitrous and he was constantly buying tanks and doing it behind my back. The more he abused Nitrous the more abusive towards me he became as a person. Our relationship crumbled and not even getting his mom involved helped. He was also clearly experiencing psychosis and mental deterioration. We broke up because he yelled and screamed at my therapist and he had to move in with his mom. Moving in with his mom didn’t stop his addiction even though she cut off his finances.
Even when we tried to make the relationship work he still abused it anyway. I would now consider him a mentally disabled person and I don’t recognize who he even is anymore after 3+ years of abusing Nitrous almost everyday. Please use Nitrous responsibly or don't at all.
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A lot of this will tackle interpersonal relationship dynamics, but I’m trying to illustrate to the reader the progression of how this drug took my ex’s mind. This is more of a thorough essay about my experience than a rant. When I was going through what I went through at the time, I wished there was a story like this out there to help me know better and understand. This is how I watched the love of my life melt away his brain on this drug.
I will try and keep this brief, but it probably won't be. I wish to convey the addictiveness this drug can have and the toll it can take on your mind and body. In the summer of 2022 I met my then bf who introduced me to the rave scene and drug scene he was a part of. He really only used K and Nitrous (which I will refer to as N going forward). He told me about his 1.5 years of being addicted to K, but did not inform me of his also 1.5 years (at the time) addiction to N. He told me after meeting me he didn’t want to abuse K anymore so as far as I knew when we started dating he got better about that.
It all started very early in the relationship. We went to a weekend festival together and both found doing N together was so fun. We continued on using and abusing N every weekend, and sometimes many weekdays. Probably going through 6 or 8+ tanks a week, this went on for like 3 months. Sadly, I do look back on those days fondly, despite what would happen later down the line. We had so much fun together and yes sadly it bonded us in this weird way. Using it causes you to feel more open and positive in the beginning, and we had so many heartfelt and deep conversations. And it felt like a little special world we could go into together.
At the time I had no clue how much those small-medium sized tanks cost ($65 and up for just one where we live). And he never told me how much they cost, and didn’t ask me to chip in, so I had no idea he was throwing himself into financial ruin buying them all the time. Looking back I have no idea why I didn’t ask, I just figured they were only $25 or something, or his friend was giving them to him, and I was aware it was probably a poor financial decision, but figured he could bounce back after the summer. You have to understand I thought I had him figured out, but I didn’t really know him that well at this point, or know about the drug scene at all. Before this I really only drank and smoked weed with the occasional cid or shrooms trip.
Three months into us dating and abusing N we come to the conclusion we just need to stop and take a break from N as this had all become quite excessive. Still he doesn’t explain to me how much debt he is in from buying all of those tanks over the summer. Two months into the break and he’s starting to crack, asking for me to be okay with us using it regularly. I tell him that I think it’s okay for us to just do it once and awhile. It was hard to not cave in because truthfully I missed it as well, I myself was starting to feel the addictiveness of this drug, so I reserved it so that I only ever did it with him. We go back to doing it occasionally on the weekends. Over the span of 1 month my bf started to constantly complain of having nerve issues, his feet and legs and hands were numb, I also noticed that he seemed really depressed. This is when he started to experience the vitamin B deficiency, although both me and him didn’t realize this at the time.
Around this time is when he finally and unceremoniously reveals to me how much these things actually cost. This is the tricky aspect of his personality I would go on to experience more of. It was clear he was resentful towards me, that I had no idea how much money he was spending, but the reality is if I had known how much those things cost I would have ended it a lot sooner. I didn’t even understand how he had the ability to spend so much money, I don’t even want to do the math. I would find out later he would just take out credit cards and max them out. In addition to him doing them with me occasionally, he was also doing them behind my back, which I had caught him doing several times and was always forgiving over this.
So, because of this constant spending he was in a substantial amount of debt. What he told me at the time was around $6,000. Knowing him, this was probably a generous assessment. This is definitely a point in the story where I should have left him. Clearly he was developing this addiction towards N and spent an ungodly amount of money that was beyond even my comprehension. But, I was head over heels and believed that he could figure this out. People go into debt all the time, I would tell myself. But I told him, this all needed to outright stop. No more N, not even occasionally. Unfortunately while he of course agreed to my face I have to suspect now, he was doing it behind my back all the time. Around this time he wouldn’t come home from work until 7 or 7:30 which didn’t make sense as his hours at work would fluctuate from time to time, but he was usually always off at 5. He would lie and say his work was very busy and made him stay later, which I believed at the time.
Maybe about a month later we are in bed together sleeping, it’s the middle of the night. He wakes me up and explains he literally cannot feel his feet or legs and has been having trouble walking for the past several days. I take him to the ER that night. This night and the following weeks after were some of the most heartbreaking and emotionally terrifying times of my life so far. At this time neither of us had any idea or reason to suspect N was the reason for this. We actually talked to the doctor there and ran tests for over 3 hours, he got an MRI and a spinal tap which was so hard to watch being done to him. It wasn’t until I desperately did research on my phone in the hospital room and suddenly see all of these remarks and reddit posts and studies about N causing paralysis and nerve damage. I tell my bf and the doctor and they have no trouble assessing that is what is causing this. They give him a regiment of vitamin B shots as you typically do in this situation. The doctor even said that they hope they can stop permanent damage from happening, because if not he may lose control of his legs and it may spread to his pelvic area (IE dick don’t work) etc, he had to do physical therapy and see a drug counselor.
The following days and weeks after I was constantly on edge worrying and wondering if my bf and love of my life would lose his ability to walk. Thankfully, the treatment took and he didn’t even end up needing physical therapy. This is when I truly believe or would like to hope he actually quit and wasn’t doing N behind my back. Unfortunately it wouldn’t matter, as I’ve learned, a lot of symptoms of N abuse don’t show themselves until after you stop. Shortly after this event is when our relationship took a nosedive. He had also ditched the drug counselor. To compensate for no N he was drinking so often. He started to become aggressive and violent. I remember it all started in a fight where he got real close and in my face and stared me down to try and intimidate me. In a way it was both terrifying and laughable (because he’s only a few inches taller than me), I couldn’t even comprehend the kind of person he had turned into. After that came the months and months of never ending name calling, insults, degradation, and constant arguments over every little thing I did. He became so addicted to the high of his power trip of making me feel small and weak he would find any excuse to fly into a rage at me, even when we were tripping on mushrooms together.
Nothing was ever the same after that. We didn’t go out, didn’t do dates, and every activity together felt like it was all a big chore to him. I could look in his eyes and see he was constantly thinking about N, and when he would do it next. He really changed, and what I am now realizing is he was probably starting to experience the effects of pure brain damage. My close friends who knew him even agree with me that there is a huge change in his demeanor around this time in April of 2023.
I also want to add more info about his bizarre behavior. He started to develop an unhealthy obsession with social media, scrutinizing what I posted and what he posted. He started to obsess over current events of any kind, any breaking story or ongoing conflict and he would rant and rant about the current state of the world and destruction of humanity all the time. He started to get obsessed with mental health and psychology and pathologize me and himself and other people in our lives. He would send me 10 videos everyday about mental health and relationships and expect me to reply and have a response for every single one like a book report. This obsession with the destruction of humanity turned into a paranoia about the world, he would often say no one understands him, and he is all alone. He turned on his best friends of several years because he was paranoid they were racists or had bad morals (they were all pleasant and nice people who enjoy edgy humor from time to time). There was no more middle ground for anything, you either loved something fully, or hated it fully. Somewhere down the line he actually got his account banned on Instagram for the craziest reason. He couldn’t stop or control himself from having heated arguments with random strangers in comments sections, of almost any video of any topic. He would insult people there constantly.
Here is another big mistake I made.I allowed him to live with me, and we moved in together. At this point we had been dating for a year. Before this I lived on my own and didn’t want to renew my lease, and he was living with his dad who was abusive and financially took advantage of him. At the time I was convinced that this bad behavior would go away if he could get away from his dad and his toxic household. Well the toxicity only followed. That summer we went to another weekend festival and he revealed to me when we got there he had purchased N and brought it. I was so conflicted as I myself had missed it quite a lot, and I had to deny myself my healthy regulated usage of it in order to not trigger him. I caved again and said we could do it only for this weekend. You may not at all be surprised to learn it didn’t end that way.
After the festival everything truly fell apart. He continued to buy tanks of N and do them behind my back constantly. He would say he was just going to his car to talk to his friends, or his mom, and be gone for hours. Because he was totally abusing me and I had no idea because I was under his spell of manipulation, I had no recourse. Any comment of mine asking why he was gone for so long, why can’t he just talk to his friends inside our apartment, I’ll go in the other room for privacy, was only met with complete indifference. These questions only pissed him off. He would say it’s because I was so exhausting and demanding he needed a break from me. When I would call him when he’s on one of these “excursions,” he would every so often mute the call while I was talking or in a silent moment. I eventually realized he was hitting the tank every time he muted himself. When I finally called him out on this he gaslit me and told me he just does this all the time because he coughs and clears his throat, fyi he had never done this before in our relationship. Because I had no recourse I just had to agree and move on. And because his mind was deteriorating more and more each day he would go on to make randomly muting himself in calls as a common, thing so as to keep up the facade he told me. Actual crazy behavior.
He even started doing K again, he would clearly be f-ed out of his mind by both K and N, and stumble around our apartment with crazy red bulging eyes and again and again tell me he was just drunk. Around this time is when he finally divulges to me not only had he been abusing K for the 1.5 years before he met me, he had also been abusing N for 1.5 years before he met me. And it wasn’t actually the case that he only “began” to become addicted to N when we started dating and doing it together. This really started to put a lot into perspective for me, and it made sense how he had almost paralyzed himself over this, now at this current time 3+ year addiction to these substances, and it made me realize how psychologically and cognitively he was failing based on changes in his personality. You also have to understand he explained to me before he met me, he was doing 1.5-2 grams of K or more and N, EVERYDAY.
And still at this time the name calling, insults and manipulation continued. He of course was no longer experiencing any true “high” from the N anymore, it would just simply dull his senses. It was like a stereotypical violent alcoholic husband comes home from the bar and berates his wife, kind of situation, except with N. And I became obsessed with figuring out how to get him to stop and go back to the loving person I remembered meeting and loving. I began to do very toxic things, going through his backpack, going through his car, and constantly always finding tanks and balloons and all kinds of paraphilia everywhere. I would find tanks in our recycling bin, like he actually thought I wouldn’t notice. I would come home late from being with friends and catch him passed out on the couch with an empty tank in his hand. He couldn't be left alone anymore. If he wasn’t with me, 100% of the time he was sitting in his car doing N. At this point in time there was no forgiveness, I was completely broken. I would yell and scream at him or wake him up and demand he stop and choose me or the drugs, all terrible things to be doing. I know that.
Eventually it got so bad I felt I had no other recourse other than to call and inform his mother of his behavior and what he had been doing all this time. Me doing this is probably what saved his life, as there was never anyway I was going to get through to him myself. But it did not save his mental health. Even having his mother involved didn’t stop any of it. He still went out and bought it behind my back like nothing happened. Another painful painful aspect of how his personality had changed is he would constantly have crazy back and forth mood swings, one minute showing me the sweet man I had fallen in love with, thanking me and praising me for having stepped in and put a stop to this, the next minute he hated me and I was the worst thing in his life and I could never tell what was even real anymore.
But did I leave, oh no, that would have been the smart thing to do.Instead at the time I was seeing a therapist who also specializes in couples therapy. I get us started with counseling and during our second session he gets called out by my therapist and yells and screams and berates her, it was actually insane. That is when things really ended between us. He moved out and moved into his moms apartment 30 minutes away that night. Even though the breakup was traumatizing and painful I still had hope that even if he isn’t with me, now he will receive help from his mother. Well, she didn’t place him in any special drug counselor program or rehab, she just severely cut off his finances so that he could pay off his debts, which she had bought back from several banks so it would not gain more and more interest. I do believe now his debt may be somewhere in the $10,000-$20,000 range. So now he, as an almost 30 year old man, needs to ask his mother in order to buy or purchase anything. Somehow, despite all of this I would learn he was continuing to do N and K.
Amazingly, we still tried briefly to even make our relationship work after he moved out. At this point he has mastered the art of manipulation and being fake, and convinced me he was getting better, he had even started to look better too, but he was still up to his old BS. He came over to the apartment once for us to have a mini date. Because he went on and on about how he was getting more and more into walks he said he was going to take a quick stroll around the block to get some fresh air. Well a quick stroll turns into 30 minutes, and I start to notice his car is gone from our street. I call him and he says now he is sitting in his car talking to his mom, I tell him I don’t see his car and it’s been a long time, he clearly had left to buy N. He becomes irate and claims he simply moved his car down the block for “reasons” and I was in the wrong for being accusatory and not trusting him. P.S. I went down the block and he just was not there. This guy is either absolutely crazy or thinks I’m some kind of imbecile, or both. It basically ended from there.
We tried to be civil, but he cannot control himself from completely going ballistic on me anymore, or his mother. And it is so painful when he is remorseful and doesn’t remember all the things he said to me. At this point I have had to realize I am basically talking to and trying to reason with a mentally disabled person. The fun loving, easy going, creative, altruistic, thoughtful, smart and attentive man I met doesn’t exist anymore, and I don’t think he will ever come back. All that remains is the shell of a confused and angry person.
Some small things to address, how it came to be that he abused these drugs all the time before he met me is because his best friend was a drug dealer and in the beginning would give him all of these things for free. Once he was hooked and doing it everyday it seemed he would stop at no end to spend money and buy them. Yes K was definitely a contributor into his mild psychosis but I still think it would have happened even from the N abuse alone, based on research I’ve been doing lately. And yes I have to admit I think he had bad and malignant psychological traits before abusing drugs, and doing that made it all worse.
So that is the story of how I watched this man ruin his life, and scare away maybe the only person who could withstand experiencing all of his BS and still wanted to love and help him. There are SO MANY things I too should have done differently. There is also an age gap between us of 3 years, so I naively thought he had a better handle on his life than he really did. I do find it hard to understand how people can be so addicted at times, but in the end like my ex, everyone is trying to chase some kind of feeling or experience that came with it, rather than the drug itself.
Thank you for reading if you made it to the end.
TLDR: Two years ago I started dating a guy who wasn’t honest with me about his 1.5 years of Nitrous abuse before we started dating. He was a sweet and honest and caring man when I met him. Sadly most of our relationship was spent on doing lots of Nitrous together. He eventually developed health problems like a vitamin B deficiency and even almost got paralysis and permanent nerve damage, which was hard for me to watch and witness. His health issues didn’t deter him away from Nitrous and he was constantly buying tanks and doing it behind my back. The more he abused Nitrous the more abusive towards me he became as a person. Our relationship crumbled and not even getting his mom involved helped. He was also clearly experiencing psychosis and mental deterioration. We broke up because he yelled and screamed at my therapist and he had to move in with his mom. Moving in with his mom didn’t stop his addiction even though she cut off his finances.
Even when we tried to make the relationship work he still abused it anyway. I would now consider him a mentally disabled person and I don’t recognize who he even is anymore after 3+ years of abusing Nitrous almost everyday. Please use Nitrous responsibly or don't at all.
2024.05.13 23:10 Spirited-Charity4144 AITA for ending a friendship because he wanted to be more than friends
I (32F) met the guy (34M) on the Internet when we were still teenagers - about 16 years ago. At that time, he lived on another continent, and as we were chatting, it got a bit romantic and we started “online dating”. It was a very childish and innocent thing, basically just chatting on Facebook every day and calling each other “love” and sending each other romantic songs, nothing serious. After about half a year, he found a real-life girlfriend and asked me to end the “online relationship” but stay friends. My teenage little soul was a bit hurt, but I found a real-life boyfriend soon after as well and we remained friends. It was kind of on and off for many years, we would keep in touch but it wasn’t intense. A few years ago he moved to the country next to mine for work, and this summer, he told me he would like to visit me in my city, and finally get to meet each other in person. I was excited and said yes. It went fine, we had a lot of fun, I showed him around and we talked a lot, but not really about any personal stuff. He left after two days.
Last month, he wrote me a message that he would be visiting again this month. I was actually a bit annoyed, because we didn’t discuss it previously, and he would be visiting over the weekend. Work has been stressful lately and I am usually very tired at the end of the week, so I was looking forward to having the weekend to myself and just staying in bed honestly, but I felt it would be rude to phrase it like that and I didn’t want to lie about having something planned. I was very tired on the Friday night, but we still met up. Looking back, I probably missed some red flags back then, but I was really tired and thought it was due to my bad mood that I was feeling that way. For example, when we met, I just said hi, and he was clearly expecting a hug or a kiss. We discussed it and I told him that it’s not really something I’m comfortable with, as it’s reserved only for my closest friends and family in my culture. He seemed hurt by that, but we then didn’t discuss it further. He also told me he brought me gifts, and since we met in front of his hotel, he asked me to go with him to get them, but I said I would just wait outside - tbh, I didn’t really suspect anything bad, but it would just feel weird going to someone’s hotel room when I’m not a guest at that hotel, if it makes sense. So he brought the things outside. We went for drinks and had quite a nice evening. I called it a night at 10 because I was falling asleep. He offered to walk me home, and I refused, not really because I didn’t want him to know where I lived, but again, it’s not something I’m used to, since all my life I’ve pretty much walked guys home and not vice versa - I’m just like that. Again, it left kind of a weird aftertaste.
We met up again in the morning and went for a walk and then for lunch. On the way back when we were on public transport, the conversation started going towards our relationship. I could immediately sense that, and I tried to redirect it elsewhere, but then he asked me how I would “classify” our relationship. I immediately said: “Friends.” I thought it was the end of that, but he started going on about how he had thought it would be just meeting an online acquaintance, but realised that he really liked me in person etc. I told him to stop right there, because I had bad experience with guys I had been friends with later “realising” they liked me, and when I told them I didn’t feel that way, they cut ties with me completely - and I’ve lost a few dear friends like that. I said that it was a territory I didn’t want to go it, but I honestly felt like it was falling on deaf ears. He kept going on about how he wouldn’t be able to be in a long distance relationship with me though, because he would just miss me too much, so it would all need to be carefully planned, but next year his work would allow him to basically be working remotely etc. I felt like I was in the Twilight zone. I had clearly expressed that I didn’t feel that way, and didn’t want to discuss it further, and there he was basically planning our marriage. I felt like I couldn’t have been more clearer before, and because I didn’t want to start hysterically screaming in public, I just stayed really silent and basically zoned out until we got off, and I basically curtly said goodbye and went home.
He texted me about ten minutes later saying that he was “confused” by my reaction, and asked if he had said anything wrong. I replied that yes, basically everything, since I clearly expressed my boundary and he didn’t respect it. He called me cold and said I could have at least hear him out (as if I didn’t listen to him going on about it for at least fifteen minutes straight), and I said that I only saw us as friends and wasn’t moving from that position. He argued that it wasn’t always that way and I replied that if there ever was any romantic feeling from my side, that ship sailed fifteen years ago. He asked me to meet him again and talk about it, but I replied that I really didn’t feel like there was anything more to talk about on this subject. He tried again in the evening, asking me to meet him again, I just left him on read. He left the following day without us meeting again and we haven’t talked since. I’m fine with that, I didn’t try to initiate contact and honestly probably never will again. Later I found out he blocked me everywhere anyway.
But as it wasn’t the first time something like this happened to me, I started thinking about it and whether I wasn’t sending mixed signals or something. I went over what was said many times in my head, if I wasn’t too harsh, or if I didn’t say or do something to make him feel like he could make that move (I did get a bit drunk on the first night since I was so tired and just two glasses of wine made me fairly tipsy, but I think I still remember everything I said that night and we just talked about work and travel and innocent things like that). Basically I still stand by what I did, but because this just seems to keep happening, I’m now doubting myself and I think I must be doing something wrong.
He also met my mother during these two visits (just briefly, not like it was an official introduction, we just went to an event where my mom also was, so they only exchanged a few words), and for some reason I can’t bring myself to tell her about what happened. She kept talking about him after the first visit, and I felt like she was trying to push him on me because she found him really nice and I’ve been single for a long time, and she’s been since asking about him, and I just avoid the subject and don’t react because I feel uncomfortable (and I feel stupid about feeling that way).
Was I TA or did I do the right thing to cut it short and I’m simply weird like that?
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Last month, he wrote me a message that he would be visiting again this month. I was actually a bit annoyed, because we didn’t discuss it previously, and he would be visiting over the weekend. Work has been stressful lately and I am usually very tired at the end of the week, so I was looking forward to having the weekend to myself and just staying in bed honestly, but I felt it would be rude to phrase it like that and I didn’t want to lie about having something planned. I was very tired on the Friday night, but we still met up. Looking back, I probably missed some red flags back then, but I was really tired and thought it was due to my bad mood that I was feeling that way. For example, when we met, I just said hi, and he was clearly expecting a hug or a kiss. We discussed it and I told him that it’s not really something I’m comfortable with, as it’s reserved only for my closest friends and family in my culture. He seemed hurt by that, but we then didn’t discuss it further. He also told me he brought me gifts, and since we met in front of his hotel, he asked me to go with him to get them, but I said I would just wait outside - tbh, I didn’t really suspect anything bad, but it would just feel weird going to someone’s hotel room when I’m not a guest at that hotel, if it makes sense. So he brought the things outside. We went for drinks and had quite a nice evening. I called it a night at 10 because I was falling asleep. He offered to walk me home, and I refused, not really because I didn’t want him to know where I lived, but again, it’s not something I’m used to, since all my life I’ve pretty much walked guys home and not vice versa - I’m just like that. Again, it left kind of a weird aftertaste.
We met up again in the morning and went for a walk and then for lunch. On the way back when we were on public transport, the conversation started going towards our relationship. I could immediately sense that, and I tried to redirect it elsewhere, but then he asked me how I would “classify” our relationship. I immediately said: “Friends.” I thought it was the end of that, but he started going on about how he had thought it would be just meeting an online acquaintance, but realised that he really liked me in person etc. I told him to stop right there, because I had bad experience with guys I had been friends with later “realising” they liked me, and when I told them I didn’t feel that way, they cut ties with me completely - and I’ve lost a few dear friends like that. I said that it was a territory I didn’t want to go it, but I honestly felt like it was falling on deaf ears. He kept going on about how he wouldn’t be able to be in a long distance relationship with me though, because he would just miss me too much, so it would all need to be carefully planned, but next year his work would allow him to basically be working remotely etc. I felt like I was in the Twilight zone. I had clearly expressed that I didn’t feel that way, and didn’t want to discuss it further, and there he was basically planning our marriage. I felt like I couldn’t have been more clearer before, and because I didn’t want to start hysterically screaming in public, I just stayed really silent and basically zoned out until we got off, and I basically curtly said goodbye and went home.
He texted me about ten minutes later saying that he was “confused” by my reaction, and asked if he had said anything wrong. I replied that yes, basically everything, since I clearly expressed my boundary and he didn’t respect it. He called me cold and said I could have at least hear him out (as if I didn’t listen to him going on about it for at least fifteen minutes straight), and I said that I only saw us as friends and wasn’t moving from that position. He argued that it wasn’t always that way and I replied that if there ever was any romantic feeling from my side, that ship sailed fifteen years ago. He asked me to meet him again and talk about it, but I replied that I really didn’t feel like there was anything more to talk about on this subject. He tried again in the evening, asking me to meet him again, I just left him on read. He left the following day without us meeting again and we haven’t talked since. I’m fine with that, I didn’t try to initiate contact and honestly probably never will again. Later I found out he blocked me everywhere anyway.
But as it wasn’t the first time something like this happened to me, I started thinking about it and whether I wasn’t sending mixed signals or something. I went over what was said many times in my head, if I wasn’t too harsh, or if I didn’t say or do something to make him feel like he could make that move (I did get a bit drunk on the first night since I was so tired and just two glasses of wine made me fairly tipsy, but I think I still remember everything I said that night and we just talked about work and travel and innocent things like that). Basically I still stand by what I did, but because this just seems to keep happening, I’m now doubting myself and I think I must be doing something wrong.
He also met my mother during these two visits (just briefly, not like it was an official introduction, we just went to an event where my mom also was, so they only exchanged a few words), and for some reason I can’t bring myself to tell her about what happened. She kept talking about him after the first visit, and I felt like she was trying to push him on me because she found him really nice and I’ve been single for a long time, and she’s been since asking about him, and I just avoid the subject and don’t react because I feel uncomfortable (and I feel stupid about feeling that way).
Was I TA or did I do the right thing to cut it short and I’m simply weird like that?
2024.05.13 23:10 just_melancholia N mother doesn’t approve of my relationship, makes outrageous racist comments and claims she lost me
For context, I’m a 25yo female, that comes from a mixed background (my mother 56F is a white woman from southern Europe, my father is from the Balkans and migrated to my country when he was younger). This is relevant and you will understand later.
I moved away from home as soon as I could when I was 18 after a not so good childhood, and currently live in another European country. My parents are divorced, my father is not really in the picture, I keep in touch with my mother on a daily basis and come visit her and the rest of the family once or twice a year. We never had the best relationship but since I moved out it improved a lot. I’d say we get along better when I’m far away from home.
Anyway, back to the reason of this post. I’ve been seeing this guy for more than a year, he’s great, we’re slowly getting to know each other and see where this is going. We are not in a rush but of course this is a relationship and I felt it was time to tell something more to my mother. I’ve always been quite open about my relationships and people I was dating, however since getting older I started being more private as I don’t think it would be good to mention every failed date to my mother (lol). We come from a typical small town in southern Europe, where people are bigots and close-minded. The news on the tv are constantly complaining about immigrants coming to our country and jadajadajada. The government is mostly right wing. So yeah, I didn’t really mentioned much about this guy, first of all cause I’m trying to keep it private but also because I could imagine her reaction, since she’s the standard average middle age woman that you find on Facebook without much culture. She is ignorant not as an insult but as in the real sense of the word: she ignores, she doesn’t inform herself and just believes whatever the media tells her.
Anyway, she suspected I was seeing someone for a while, I never really said much but I’ve been giving her a few hints in the past weeks and now that I came back to my hometown for a week she started being very curious. The day after I arrived we were casually talking before bed and she just kept asking “C’mon, don’t you have a pic of this guy? Show me! C’mon c’mon! I’m your mother!” so, one side of me didn’t wanna show her, the other one was excited cause at the end of the day I’m proud of my relationship and I was happy to tell her more (maybe naively hoping for a good outcome…). So without thinking much I showed her one of the best pictures of him. Literally in the millisecond while I was showing her the picture she said something like: “hope it’s not a n****” (WHATTT???).
At that point the phone was already on her face. It was done. She said it, and at the same time she saw the picture. She was speechless and I was too. I was ashamed of her. And sad.
She didn’t say anything more for the following 10 minutes, she went to her room and I went to mine. Afterwards she just asked “does he even work?!” And I told her “don’t worry about it, he’s better off than the both of us” just to make her shut up about that question that I found so disrespectful. This made me just so sad, and disappointed.
But the worst had yet to come. We didn’t speak much about it at all until today.
We were having a casual conversation during the afternoon when the relationship topic came out. In particular, we were talking about how your partner should improve your life and not making it worse, meaning he should make you happy, he should bring good positive vibes, get along etc. that’s what I was thinking and referring to. But she started being very materialistic, she asked me “so, in which way is he improving your life?!” in a very aggressive sassy tone “I don’t see anything changing“ she said. I was mentioning that he makes me happy when the conversation degenerated. All sort of things came out of it.
She started by saying: “well, I truly hopes this will be just a friend and you will keep it like that” then she continued with: “please take birth control precautions before you regret it” “don’t come to me later saying I didn’t stop you” and the cherry on top was: “I would have preferred if you told me you were a lesbian cause at least that is cool nowadays”.
I was speechless and I still am.
I asked her what is it that she doesn’t like and what is she basing her opinions on, since she literally knows nothing about him. She couldn’t answer. She kept repeating the same things over and over and she also said she would never want to meet him. I have to mention that the few guys she met that I was dating were of different cultures, but she never had a problem with them, I guess because the skin color was the same… and in her mind there are probably foreigners of Class A, B, C… I knew it wouldn’t be easy, but I neither expected such a bad reaction. All this hurts me so much. I don’t know what to do. In my mind it neither makes sense cause she married an immigrant but it seems like she never really came to terms with it, she never really accepted it. For instance, I know nothing about my father’s culture, I never learned the language or interesting facts about it because nobody ever thought me anything about it. I only learned about my mother’s side culture of the country I lived in. And I always felt out of place because this country is extremely racist. The fact that my father was not a good husband or father has nothing to do with where he comes from. If a person is an idiot, is an idiot no matter what. And I told her this when we were talking. The fact that she had a bad experience doesn’t mean that I will, just because I’m seeing someone from a different culture. I also explained to her that I am myself an immigrant, since I’m living in another country. But it doesn’t seem to click in her head. And when I told her, to her face, that she is indeed racist, she obviously denied it, because how can she be racist if she married an immigrant herself?
And of course during today’s conversation there was some victim behavior on her side, because every time I come back here it’s certain that we are gonna fight and every time it happens I say stuff like “let’s see when and if I will come back again!”. So she was bringing that up cause the other day I said “the first racist comment I hear I’m gone”. She mentioned that, saying I don’t care about her, that she has to beg for me to call her (mind you, we write good morning, good night, text here and there during the day and we talk on the phone 3/4 times a week…). She even said that “she lost me already the moment I left”. Honestly, I don’t know what else more than this she expects from me if what I do is not enough already.
So I don’t really know how to handle this anymore. And I’m also just venting and need some support.
TL;DR: my 25F mother 56F doesn’t approve of my boyfriend 28M just because of the color of his skin. Her opinion is based solely on a photo I showed her and claims she lost me cause I don’t do enough for her.
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I moved away from home as soon as I could when I was 18 after a not so good childhood, and currently live in another European country. My parents are divorced, my father is not really in the picture, I keep in touch with my mother on a daily basis and come visit her and the rest of the family once or twice a year. We never had the best relationship but since I moved out it improved a lot. I’d say we get along better when I’m far away from home.
Anyway, back to the reason of this post. I’ve been seeing this guy for more than a year, he’s great, we’re slowly getting to know each other and see where this is going. We are not in a rush but of course this is a relationship and I felt it was time to tell something more to my mother. I’ve always been quite open about my relationships and people I was dating, however since getting older I started being more private as I don’t think it would be good to mention every failed date to my mother (lol). We come from a typical small town in southern Europe, where people are bigots and close-minded. The news on the tv are constantly complaining about immigrants coming to our country and jadajadajada. The government is mostly right wing. So yeah, I didn’t really mentioned much about this guy, first of all cause I’m trying to keep it private but also because I could imagine her reaction, since she’s the standard average middle age woman that you find on Facebook without much culture. She is ignorant not as an insult but as in the real sense of the word: she ignores, she doesn’t inform herself and just believes whatever the media tells her.
Anyway, she suspected I was seeing someone for a while, I never really said much but I’ve been giving her a few hints in the past weeks and now that I came back to my hometown for a week she started being very curious. The day after I arrived we were casually talking before bed and she just kept asking “C’mon, don’t you have a pic of this guy? Show me! C’mon c’mon! I’m your mother!” so, one side of me didn’t wanna show her, the other one was excited cause at the end of the day I’m proud of my relationship and I was happy to tell her more (maybe naively hoping for a good outcome…). So without thinking much I showed her one of the best pictures of him. Literally in the millisecond while I was showing her the picture she said something like: “hope it’s not a n****” (WHATTT???).
At that point the phone was already on her face. It was done. She said it, and at the same time she saw the picture. She was speechless and I was too. I was ashamed of her. And sad.
She didn’t say anything more for the following 10 minutes, she went to her room and I went to mine. Afterwards she just asked “does he even work?!” And I told her “don’t worry about it, he’s better off than the both of us” just to make her shut up about that question that I found so disrespectful. This made me just so sad, and disappointed.
But the worst had yet to come. We didn’t speak much about it at all until today.
We were having a casual conversation during the afternoon when the relationship topic came out. In particular, we were talking about how your partner should improve your life and not making it worse, meaning he should make you happy, he should bring good positive vibes, get along etc. that’s what I was thinking and referring to. But she started being very materialistic, she asked me “so, in which way is he improving your life?!” in a very aggressive sassy tone “I don’t see anything changing“ she said. I was mentioning that he makes me happy when the conversation degenerated. All sort of things came out of it.
She started by saying: “well, I truly hopes this will be just a friend and you will keep it like that” then she continued with: “please take birth control precautions before you regret it” “don’t come to me later saying I didn’t stop you” and the cherry on top was: “I would have preferred if you told me you were a lesbian cause at least that is cool nowadays”.
I was speechless and I still am.
I asked her what is it that she doesn’t like and what is she basing her opinions on, since she literally knows nothing about him. She couldn’t answer. She kept repeating the same things over and over and she also said she would never want to meet him. I have to mention that the few guys she met that I was dating were of different cultures, but she never had a problem with them, I guess because the skin color was the same… and in her mind there are probably foreigners of Class A, B, C… I knew it wouldn’t be easy, but I neither expected such a bad reaction. All this hurts me so much. I don’t know what to do. In my mind it neither makes sense cause she married an immigrant but it seems like she never really came to terms with it, she never really accepted it. For instance, I know nothing about my father’s culture, I never learned the language or interesting facts about it because nobody ever thought me anything about it. I only learned about my mother’s side culture of the country I lived in. And I always felt out of place because this country is extremely racist. The fact that my father was not a good husband or father has nothing to do with where he comes from. If a person is an idiot, is an idiot no matter what. And I told her this when we were talking. The fact that she had a bad experience doesn’t mean that I will, just because I’m seeing someone from a different culture. I also explained to her that I am myself an immigrant, since I’m living in another country. But it doesn’t seem to click in her head. And when I told her, to her face, that she is indeed racist, she obviously denied it, because how can she be racist if she married an immigrant herself?
And of course during today’s conversation there was some victim behavior on her side, because every time I come back here it’s certain that we are gonna fight and every time it happens I say stuff like “let’s see when and if I will come back again!”. So she was bringing that up cause the other day I said “the first racist comment I hear I’m gone”. She mentioned that, saying I don’t care about her, that she has to beg for me to call her (mind you, we write good morning, good night, text here and there during the day and we talk on the phone 3/4 times a week…). She even said that “she lost me already the moment I left”. Honestly, I don’t know what else more than this she expects from me if what I do is not enough already.
So I don’t really know how to handle this anymore. And I’m also just venting and need some support.
TL;DR: my 25F mother 56F doesn’t approve of my boyfriend 28M just because of the color of his skin. Her opinion is based solely on a photo I showed her and claims she lost me cause I don’t do enough for her.
2024.05.13 23:10 PerfectStress8713 Filter again
Right what happened to the filter cause only a couple of days ago I was whining about it being strict. Now the bots are going into extreme detail, god knows I’m not complaining but how does it go from censoring a kiss to this!?
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2024.05.13 23:09 AxeSupGamer Best team build?
 | Info: Just started a few week ago so I don’t got much. I only play PvE. I’m trying to fuse (Purple) Seth, (Purple) Hresvelgr, and (Red) Metatron. My team right now consists of: (Teal) Ose, (Teal) Barong, (Teal) Flauros, (Red) H Beelzebub. submitted by AxeSupGamer to Dx2SMTLiberation [link] [comments] |
2024.05.13 23:09 TooTaylor Possibility on the Origin of Prismatic's Color
As far as I can tell, there hasn't been any developer commentary on the decision for Prismatic's color. So I guess it's time for a little speculation with a lot of reaching and assumptions.
Note: I'm using the color hexes from my personal spreadsheets that are my best approximation (makes me happy) of the elemental colors (without having an official hex color code for each). That in mind, these won't be perfect.
So we know that the Darkness subclasses (so far) are roughly inverted color variants of Light subclasses. Assuming we get a third Darkness subclass some day and it follows the same pattern we should have the below "table":
Solar (#f36f26) roughly inverts to Stasis ( #0c90d9 )
Void ( #ad82ca ) roughly inverts to Strand ( #38da65 )
Arc ( #82e9f7 ) likely roughly inverts to ???? ( #d90c0c )
So then why pink, and why that specific pink, for Prismatic? My first thought was to combine all the existing Light and Darkness subclass colors together, hoping to get some kind of pink color. Nope. We get a sort of patina green ( #7ba7a1 ).
Next step of course is inverting that color, which gives us something close to copper rose ( #84585e ). It's sort of pink, but not really the hopbush pink we see from prismatic. Weeeellll, if you up the brightness a ton and add just a bit more saturation, you get s-not really close either. Any attempt to make it pop more is just too red for what we see with prismatic.
"But wait!" I hear only me saying, "what if we add the theoretical opposite of Arc's color as well to the mix? It might not be out yet, but there have even been some hints of that ruddy red color in parts of the game, right? Why not try to include it?"
And I only have to say to myself in response, "That's what I like about you. You may only hit the mark 10% of the time, but you throw the dart every single time." Unfortunately, I tried that, and all you get is this like wet vac lint gray color.
"But wait!" I hear only me saying again, "What if you put it through a saturate color tool?"
And so I did, which gives me a slightly hopbush-y pink that imo looks pretty close to prismatic pink, albeit a tiny bit dark and over-saturated.
While not a perfect match in color, neither are the EXACT opposites of each of the light subclasses. Those are all pretty muddy and not-so-pretty to look at or to make into glowy-space-magic-powers.
Bungie def used them as reference points and then made them a bit more appealing. After all this, it doesn't seem like too much of a reach that this might have been how Bungie came up with the color of Prismatic.
"But wait!" I now hear someone else say, finding hope that at least one person read any of this, "Why would they invert that fused color, the patina green? Why not just use that if your spinfoil is to be considered?"
Maybe they didn't want any one subclass, even one that is a blend of all the others, to have a similar color profile to any other single one of the existing subclasses (ie. Strand)?
IDK
I guess you could add some sort of prism/inversion lore thing by using pink instead of that patina green.
(see here for all the colors visually)
Edit: Formatting
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Note: I'm using the color hexes from my personal spreadsheets that are my best approximation (makes me happy) of the elemental colors (without having an official hex color code for each). That in mind, these won't be perfect.
So we know that the Darkness subclasses (so far) are roughly inverted color variants of Light subclasses. Assuming we get a third Darkness subclass some day and it follows the same pattern we should have the below "table":
Solar (#f36f26) roughly inverts to Stasis ( #0c90d9 )
Void ( #ad82ca ) roughly inverts to Strand ( #38da65 )
Arc ( #82e9f7 ) likely roughly inverts to ???? ( #d90c0c )
So then why pink, and why that specific pink, for Prismatic? My first thought was to combine all the existing Light and Darkness subclass colors together, hoping to get some kind of pink color. Nope. We get a sort of patina green ( #7ba7a1 ).
Next step of course is inverting that color, which gives us something close to copper rose ( #84585e ). It's sort of pink, but not really the hopbush pink we see from prismatic. Weeeellll, if you up the brightness a ton and add just a bit more saturation, you get s-not really close either. Any attempt to make it pop more is just too red for what we see with prismatic.
"But wait!" I hear only me saying, "what if we add the theoretical opposite of Arc's color as well to the mix? It might not be out yet, but there have even been some hints of that ruddy red color in parts of the game, right? Why not try to include it?"
And I only have to say to myself in response, "That's what I like about you. You may only hit the mark 10% of the time, but you throw the dart every single time." Unfortunately, I tried that, and all you get is this like wet vac lint gray color.
"But wait!" I hear only me saying again, "What if you put it through a saturate color tool?"
And so I did, which gives me a slightly hopbush-y pink that imo looks pretty close to prismatic pink, albeit a tiny bit dark and over-saturated.
While not a perfect match in color, neither are the EXACT opposites of each of the light subclasses. Those are all pretty muddy and not-so-pretty to look at or to make into glowy-space-magic-powers.
Bungie def used them as reference points and then made them a bit more appealing. After all this, it doesn't seem like too much of a reach that this might have been how Bungie came up with the color of Prismatic.
"But wait!" I now hear someone else say, finding hope that at least one person read any of this, "Why would they invert that fused color, the patina green? Why not just use that if your spinfoil is to be considered?"
Maybe they didn't want any one subclass, even one that is a blend of all the others, to have a similar color profile to any other single one of the existing subclasses (ie. Strand)?
IDK
I guess you could add some sort of prism/inversion lore thing by using pink instead of that patina green.
(see here for all the colors visually)
Edit: Formatting
2024.05.13 23:09 supder Best settings for preserving quality of old movies that are in MKV files into MP4?
Hi,
First off, just found this software today and I believe it is what I'm looking for; love the software as I'm learning so far.
I have a bunch of old japanese racing dvd's from early 2000's that I've converted into MKV files and trying to output the best quality of certain portions of these films. What are the best settings/output would you recommend for quality for other devices?
Also, I use Yadif 2x on VLC when viewing these videos on VLC but when trying to use the same setting to output on shutter encoder, the frames are slowed (it's cause they double the frames right?). What should I use for deinterlacing?; Yadif 2x, a different type of deinterlacing or no deinterlacing at all?
I'm all new to this and just want to preserve the best quality for these movies to play on my phone, computer, or create clips from these films.
Thank you in advanced!
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First off, just found this software today and I believe it is what I'm looking for; love the software as I'm learning so far.
I have a bunch of old japanese racing dvd's from early 2000's that I've converted into MKV files and trying to output the best quality of certain portions of these films. What are the best settings/output would you recommend for quality for other devices?
Also, I use Yadif 2x on VLC when viewing these videos on VLC but when trying to use the same setting to output on shutter encoder, the frames are slowed (it's cause they double the frames right?). What should I use for deinterlacing?; Yadif 2x, a different type of deinterlacing or no deinterlacing at all?
I'm all new to this and just want to preserve the best quality for these movies to play on my phone, computer, or create clips from these films.
Thank you in advanced!
2024.05.13 23:09 AlamutIsmaili What actually happened during Protests for Palestine
 | There seems to be a lot of misinformation around the student protests the past few days. I wasn't at the Thursday protest but I was at ones Friday and Sunday. In all, there are three main retorts I've heard regarding these protests, so I thought I'd help clear the air. If you were a part of the Thursday protest feel free to add/correct what I've written. submitted by AlamutIsmaili to UCalgary [link] [comments]
ii) MAIN POINT: The protesters were contacted by the police prior to the chaos that most people have now seen. The organizers of the event talked with the police and it was made clear to them that if they did not move, they would be moved. Understanding that, the organizers made the decision to take down the encampment. Only AFTER the encampment was being taken down did the police announce on their megaphone "You're out of time!" and rushed the students. This is the main point of frustration that the protesters voiced to me. They were already packing and leaving when the police came in. They used tear gas and rubber bullets immediately escalating the situation. There are three specific incidents I was told that I'll share:
2. UCalgary is irrelevant
I think at this point, people are grasping for straws. At the Sunday protest, there were Jewish students. The protests on Friday and Sunday were both sponsored by a Jewish advocacy group (I don't know about Thursday). The long history of cooperation and peace between Muslims and Jews was reiterated again and again. Further, it was made very clear that anyone promoting hatred against the Jewish people would not be tolerated and they would not be allowed to participate in the protests. If you saw counter protests, you were warned to maintain your composure and not to become agitated. There was no property damage, no evidence of the encampments, and no aggression towards any students moving between classes. There were kids playing soccer, drawing with chalk, and signs that were handed out saying "Choose peace, not war." I've never been to other protests before this, but it was not a threatening atmosphere. Everyone was very kind, free water was being handed out, and you could leave at any time. On this note though, I would point out that among the most vocal of supporters for the Palestinian cause have been Orthodox Jews and Jewish students. Holocaust survivor: “From the River to the Sea, Palestine will be free, no matter how long it takes” Decoded: Jewish Support for Palestine Zionists target Jewish student for supporting Gaza Jewish student lays out why he is protesting Israel's war on Gaza I hope that this provides more information to those curious. If you were at the protests, please feel free to add anything you think I have missed. To all my fellow students, may peace be upon you. May 12th TFDL Quad |
2024.05.13 23:09 ApartSupermarket1817 I need to know how to safely express who I am (38M)
I’ve gone through most of my life being attracted to women. I’m attracted to a huge variety of women, regardless of body shape, heritage, age, and so on. Ever since early puberty, though, I’ve always had a little spark of attraction to men. This attraction was always much more specific, related to body types and such. It was never as strong as my attraction to women, but as I’ve gotten older I’ve learned that I pretty reliably ride the “bi-cycle,” and that depending on the time of month, I may be more into women than men, more into men than women, and back and forth like that.
Through all of this, I’ve also discovered that I have a very strong attraction to crossdressing. I really enjoy putting in the time and effort to be the most attractive I can be as a woman, and be able to present as female. I wouldn’t go so far as to say I’m “non-binary,” because this desire doesn’t manifest itself very often, but when it does, it’s very strong. It’s practically all I can think about. I call it “the pink werewolf” coming out. And when this comes, I have this intense desire to be seen and appreciated as an attractive, female-presenting person, and especially to be an object of sexual desire.
I’m engaged to a lovely and kind-hearted woman who is aware of all this - to a certain extent. She knows I’ve had this history of sexual experimentation, and she’s been very accepting of that. I haven’t expressed ANY of these non-heteronormative behaviors in our relationship, though, and I’ll explain why:
We have a tough enough time initiating sex right now. And we’re facing a lot of stress as we try to finalize our wedding plans. We’ve had a lot of arguments lately that have left me feeling drained, and in response to this I’m looking for outlets where I feel seen, appreciated, and desired. I would never step outside of our relationship, because I truly love this woman. The way she looks at me, the way she takes care of me, the way we make each other laugh, and the safety and care I can provide to her… that’s something you only find once in a lifetime.
I just don’t know what to do. Do I just wait, tie the knot, provide what I can to make things better for us, and then talk about how to ease this stuff into our sex life when we have more emotional bandwidth? Do I seek out “alternative” outlets like online roleplay, video chat, OnlyFans, and so on, just to “scratch the itch” without burdening my girl with more to process? Or is this a sign of something deeper that I should make more of a priority for myself somehow? Am I risking my relationship by even “going there?” I just don’t know how to be all of myself without somehow causing harm, and that makes me very sad.
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Through all of this, I’ve also discovered that I have a very strong attraction to crossdressing. I really enjoy putting in the time and effort to be the most attractive I can be as a woman, and be able to present as female. I wouldn’t go so far as to say I’m “non-binary,” because this desire doesn’t manifest itself very often, but when it does, it’s very strong. It’s practically all I can think about. I call it “the pink werewolf” coming out. And when this comes, I have this intense desire to be seen and appreciated as an attractive, female-presenting person, and especially to be an object of sexual desire.
I’m engaged to a lovely and kind-hearted woman who is aware of all this - to a certain extent. She knows I’ve had this history of sexual experimentation, and she’s been very accepting of that. I haven’t expressed ANY of these non-heteronormative behaviors in our relationship, though, and I’ll explain why:
- My fiancée has been through a lot. She lost her father last year, and has been on a weight loss journey that has been tough to maintain. She struggles with ADHD and anxiety, and her job regularly drains her. This has led to her cocooning up into just doomscrolling on her phone at the end of the day, with no real interest in engaging with anyone.
- We haven’t had sex in a long time. I proposed to her at the start of the year, but we haven’t made love except maybe once since then, and that was months ago. She has a lot of anxiety about sex now, whereas she didn’t before, when we were first dating. Her last boyfriend use sex as a way to guilt trip her and control the relationship, and she’s having a she drone unlearning that. She also cites having a lot of fear of being unattractive, and of not being able to reach climax because she can’t get into the right headspace for it. I always tell her she’s lovely and pretty and sexy, and she knows anytime she wants to “get some,” I’m right here for her. But it’s been getting harder and harder to initiate with her because I’m just not motivated anymore. I love her, and want to connect with her, but I’m a little weary of how disconnected we are on this front, and I don’t even know where to start with her anymore. Nothing “comes naturally,” at least not lately. She has a vibrator and is able to use that pretty freely, which actually makes me a little jealous. I guess my thinking is, “If it’s so easy for her to get off without me around, what about me makes it difficult?” I’m not sure that’s the right way to think about it, though. I mean, I can jerk off all the time, what’s the difference there?
- She’s expressed fear about “not being enough” for me. When I first explained to her how I tried out all sorts of sexual flavors in my past, she made it clear that she wanted to know if she would be enough for me. I said that the point of being in a relationship is so that you’re into it for the person, not the acts. That there are many healthy and creative ways for couples to act on their interests. I would never want her fears there to be realized. That would be terrible for her. That’s the last thing I want to do.
We have a tough enough time initiating sex right now. And we’re facing a lot of stress as we try to finalize our wedding plans. We’ve had a lot of arguments lately that have left me feeling drained, and in response to this I’m looking for outlets where I feel seen, appreciated, and desired. I would never step outside of our relationship, because I truly love this woman. The way she looks at me, the way she takes care of me, the way we make each other laugh, and the safety and care I can provide to her… that’s something you only find once in a lifetime.
I just don’t know what to do. Do I just wait, tie the knot, provide what I can to make things better for us, and then talk about how to ease this stuff into our sex life when we have more emotional bandwidth? Do I seek out “alternative” outlets like online roleplay, video chat, OnlyFans, and so on, just to “scratch the itch” without burdening my girl with more to process? Or is this a sign of something deeper that I should make more of a priority for myself somehow? Am I risking my relationship by even “going there?” I just don’t know how to be all of myself without somehow causing harm, and that makes me very sad.
2024.05.13 23:08 throwra_swissmiss Demo-ing Hokas which ones should I choose?
I am going to a sponsored event next week where they’re letting us do a run in a pair of hokas. I have never tried them before. I am currently in my beginner daily trainer the Asics Cumulus 26. I like their cushion but my right foot does get a little hot in them. I am also looking to start training for my first half marathon and so in case i end up in the market for new shoes at some point id like to try something out now. Im a 5’7 170 lb female. Light over pronation but doesn’t effect my gait. I have had ankle issues in the past and a previous knee injury from soccer so i like cushion.
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2024.05.13 23:07 SlightlyLazy04 Is it bad that I'm in this subreddit to feel good about me being tall?
I'm 6'6, 20 years old and decently attractive though fairly introverted. I like seeing posts from this sub cause whenever I see a post about some short guy (rightfully) being sad or annoyed about their lack of dating opportunities, it makes me feel good. Not because they're sad, but because I know I'm never going to be in that situation. I generally don't comment but I like seeing the posts and comments about a problem I'll never have. Also, being tall does help quite a bit when dating or getting girls when going out. I'm certainly no casanova but being tall does help a lot with getting girls to like me
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2024.05.13 23:07 Zennoobee22 Desperately wanting a dua to be accepted and answered.
I've had a pretty hard youth all the way to young adult hood, primarily because of my family from both sides as well as my individual challenges in life battling loneliness and being the "odd one out" as I personally feel among others. I do love my family a lot, and they love me as well... but let's just say that my mind is more at ease and feel way more relaxed when I'm not with them, lately especially at home.
I basically had to raise myself up to become an independent adult instead of my parents, which also applies to learning this beautiful religion entirely on my own. I've been learning more and more and try to break this social anxiety I have meeting with other young shias. Basically wanting to become a better Muslim, woman and of course a better human overall in Allah's swt name, as my way of worshipping him and my obedience to him.
There's however a dua I desperately wanting to get accepted and answered in the near future. It didn't happen now, but I know it's because it was a new chapter in life I wasn't ready for. And I thank Allah swt everyday for that cause I'm now fully aware and motivated that I need to improve myself more in knowledge and experience. Having patience is what I'm currently learning and accepting right now.
But I'm so scared that this Dua I so much want to become true, for my own good and to finally achieve happiness from it, will somehow not come true. I've heard many stories online and in real life how duas weren't accepted by Allah swt even if they were harmless, realistic to achieve and completely halal. I cry everyday, talking to Allah, begging that I don't want anything in life but to make this Dua come true. Becoming so incredibly vulnerable and desperate, to the point where I just think to myself "Allah swt doesn't burden a soul more than he can take... but i feel like I'm reaching my limit and want something I want...for once." I know I know... I shouldn't doubt in Allah's mercy and love for me (for all of us Muslims).
But surely... it would be quite brutal to not have my deepest wish and halal desire not to be fulfilled right (?) I'm so lost and I beg and beg Allah swt to grant me this Dua, and to make it happen I'll change my way of life as a Muslim completely. Cause there's absolutely no other wordly wish or desire I have other than this. That's the only exchange for it to happen...
I just hope Allah swt grants me this Dua to into fruitation, that's all I want... I'll have sabr... I won't underestimate Allah swt his Mercy and love for me. I just hope my next ten years won't be more agony and difficulties like I've been living for more than a decade. I've already been through a lot and I can't imagine to go through anymore difficulties...I just want to be happy and content in my next stage of life.
That's all. I just had to rant a bit and pour out my heart, especially since I'm crying right now as I'm typing this. I've become too desperate at this point as you can tell. But I have nobody I can share this with safely so yeah... :')
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I basically had to raise myself up to become an independent adult instead of my parents, which also applies to learning this beautiful religion entirely on my own. I've been learning more and more and try to break this social anxiety I have meeting with other young shias. Basically wanting to become a better Muslim, woman and of course a better human overall in Allah's swt name, as my way of worshipping him and my obedience to him.
There's however a dua I desperately wanting to get accepted and answered in the near future. It didn't happen now, but I know it's because it was a new chapter in life I wasn't ready for. And I thank Allah swt everyday for that cause I'm now fully aware and motivated that I need to improve myself more in knowledge and experience. Having patience is what I'm currently learning and accepting right now.
But I'm so scared that this Dua I so much want to become true, for my own good and to finally achieve happiness from it, will somehow not come true. I've heard many stories online and in real life how duas weren't accepted by Allah swt even if they were harmless, realistic to achieve and completely halal. I cry everyday, talking to Allah, begging that I don't want anything in life but to make this Dua come true. Becoming so incredibly vulnerable and desperate, to the point where I just think to myself "Allah swt doesn't burden a soul more than he can take... but i feel like I'm reaching my limit and want something I want...for once." I know I know... I shouldn't doubt in Allah's mercy and love for me (for all of us Muslims).
But surely... it would be quite brutal to not have my deepest wish and halal desire not to be fulfilled right (?) I'm so lost and I beg and beg Allah swt to grant me this Dua, and to make it happen I'll change my way of life as a Muslim completely. Cause there's absolutely no other wordly wish or desire I have other than this. That's the only exchange for it to happen...
I just hope Allah swt grants me this Dua to into fruitation, that's all I want... I'll have sabr... I won't underestimate Allah swt his Mercy and love for me. I just hope my next ten years won't be more agony and difficulties like I've been living for more than a decade. I've already been through a lot and I can't imagine to go through anymore difficulties...I just want to be happy and content in my next stage of life.
That's all. I just had to rant a bit and pour out my heart, especially since I'm crying right now as I'm typing this. I've become too desperate at this point as you can tell. But I have nobody I can share this with safely so yeah... :')
2024.05.13 23:06 yellowshyburntout My volatile brother moved back in with me and my mum
About two months ago my brother (31), who I’ll call John, moved back home because his Wi-Fi got disconnected. He’d missed a letter that came through and they ended up shutting it off. He said that he would only be here for a week but it has just dragged on. For context, my brother has autism and OCD and is completely capable of taking care of himself alone and has been living alone for a while. He is prone to act violently and has furious outbursts over relatively small things – he was kicked out by about 8 years ago by my parents. They usually will tell me about what’s happened with John, but whatever he did to get kicked out, my parents never speak of and from the look on my dad’s face when he even comes close to the subject made me not even want to press for details. He caused us all a lot of trauma and has had to have the police called on him multiple times because of his behaviour. When they arrive he pretends to be nice and cooperative.
Since he’s moved back here, there has not been a day that I have felt safe. I keep thinking of how I will be able to defend myself or my mum from him before the police come if he decides to start being violent again. My dad passed away a few years ago and he would usually be a shield for us when John started behaving that way. Living in this state of constant fear and distress is really taking a toll on my health and my studies.
I know my mum won’t kick him out because she is scared of what he might do but I can’t keep living like this. I can’t afford to move out right now and even if I could I don’t want to leave my mum alone in this house with him, I wouldn’t put any level of violence past him. He seems to have become even more volatile than usual and can’t even cope with being told minor things. For example, my mum told him to make sure he closes the freezer properly so all of our food doesn’t go off and he started threatening her. It has been going on like this for the whole time he has been here. I know it is only a matter of time before he starts trying to hurt someone. I don’t know what to do.
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Since he’s moved back here, there has not been a day that I have felt safe. I keep thinking of how I will be able to defend myself or my mum from him before the police come if he decides to start being violent again. My dad passed away a few years ago and he would usually be a shield for us when John started behaving that way. Living in this state of constant fear and distress is really taking a toll on my health and my studies.
I know my mum won’t kick him out because she is scared of what he might do but I can’t keep living like this. I can’t afford to move out right now and even if I could I don’t want to leave my mum alone in this house with him, I wouldn’t put any level of violence past him. He seems to have become even more volatile than usual and can’t even cope with being told minor things. For example, my mum told him to make sure he closes the freezer properly so all of our food doesn’t go off and he started threatening her. It has been going on like this for the whole time he has been here. I know it is only a matter of time before he starts trying to hurt someone. I don’t know what to do.
2024.05.13 23:06 fornothing_atalll Folklore; Saci!
 | In the depths of Brazilian folklore and African mysticism lies the enigmatic figure of Saci. submitted by fornothing_atalll to PsycheOrSike [link] [comments] Saci existed before he first appeared in Brazil. As the winds of fate blew across the Atlantic, Saci traversed the ocean currents, carried by the souls of the enslaved. In Brazil, he found a new home, a land where the rhythms of African drums mingled with the melodies of Portuguese guitars. Here, Saci adapted to his new surroundings, blending seamlessly into the new world of Brazil. He is a one-legged black man, who smokes a pipe and wears a magical red cap that enables him to disappear and reappear wherever he wishes. Considered an annoying prankster in most parts of Brazil, and a potentially dangerous and malicious creature in others, he nevertheless grants wishes to anyone who manages to trap him or steal his magic cap. In Brazil, Saci is known as a folkloric figure, often depicted as a young black boy with a red cap and a smoking pipe. He roams the countryside on one leg, his other leg lost in the struggles of history. With his mischievous grin and supernatural abilities, Saci delights in playing pranks on unsuspecting travelers and farmers. An incorrigible prankster, the Saci causes no major harm, but there is no little harm that he won't do. He hides children's toys, sets farm animals loose, teases dogs—and curses chicken eggs, preventing them from hatching. In the kitchen, the Saci spills salt, sours the milk, burns the bean stew, and drops flies into the soup. If a popcorn kernel fails to pop, it is because the Saci cursed it. Given half a chance, he'll dull your pencils, lose your favorite pens and cups. If he sees a nail lying on the ground, he turns the point up. In short, people blame anything that goes wrong—in or outside the house—on the Saci. Besides disappearing or becoming invisible (often with only his red cap and the red glow of his pipe still showing), the Saci can transform himself into a striped cuckoo, an elusive bird whose song seems to come from nowhere. One can escape a pursuing Saci by crossing a water stream. The Saci dares not cross, for then he loses all his powers. Another way is to drop ropes full of knots. The Saci is compelled to stop and undo the knots. One can also try to appease him by leaving behind some cachaça, or some tobacco for his pipe. Is Saci real? Or do humans need an excuse to blame misfortune? To me Saci represents in Brazilian culture a mischievous way to screw with the power-that-be during the transatlantic slave-trade. Now he became not only a deity, but a representation of messing with someone who is above your station (without getting caught of course) |
2024.05.13 23:05 Forsaken-Solution599 [Acne] Small bumps and some redness
![[Acne] Small bumps and some redness](https://b.thumbs.redditmedia.com/oSVFWOxRS88xwRtstPASopgxLwNOu2M5NyA-7j7TKog.jpg "[Acne] Small bumps and some redness") | Hello all, submitted by Forsaken-Solution599 to SkincareAddiction [link] [comments] I have been struggling for a while now to determine how to minimize or diminish the light redness I have and the small bumps that can be found on my cheeks, chin, on the side by my temple area, and some on my nose and forehead. My complexion is very dry skin. Typically if I don’t moisturize then I get dry scales, tightness, and dry skin peeling on my face. My hands and feet can be the same way. I have always had sensitive skin, so I had to be careful with products. The redness can come and go and is much lighter or even a lighter blush color at times. The sun and stress can cause some increased redness. I use to have very red cheeks but I think that was due to an allergic reaction with the dryer sheets I used previously. I do get some redness on the outer upper parts of my arms of that helps. In the past a dermatologist thought it might be Rosecea but wasn’t sure. I know there are a lot of things out there that can be similar (overly dry and damaged skin, eczema, Sun allergy, allergies in general, keratosis pilaris, etc.) I mainly use fragrance free products (no nothing shampoo and conditioner along with local honey based bar soap and Duke Cannon’s moisturizing face wash and moisturize my face at night after showering with the new Duke Canon hydrating lotion. I guess I am wondering if anyone has had any similar experiences with this and what I can possibly put do to reduce all the random smaller bumps that are on most of my face. I think the redness may be able to be managed. The thing that bugs me the most is the varying small bumps all over my face. The bumps are more prominent on my cheeks and the side of my temple and they are speckled throughout the rest of my face. |
2024.05.13 23:04 StopPsychological443 Co-morbidities
I have a fusion biopsy scheduled for Friday. I've been reflecting on how I got here. Something like this:
2015 - Diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes and sleep apnea.
2016 - Hypogonadism. Started TRT. PSA spiked. 1 of 12 samples mildly interesting. Started watchful waiting. Prostate measured 75 CC.
2017 - Excessive red blood cell production. Stop TRT.
2017 - 2022 - Focus on managing T2D and mental health issues.
2022 - Occasional ED. Treated with PDE5 inhibitors.
2023 - 6/23 Notice mild curve in erection. Curve not extreme, no painful erections.
2024 - 2/24 Best metabolic panel of my adult life - and a) wbc out of range on the high side and b) PSA spiked. Was 1.8 in 8/23, up to 8.4 in 2/24.
2024 - 3/24 Experiencing tiny urine leakage. No trouble using the bathroom otherwise.
2024 - 4/24 Prostate MRI. Results:
My thoughts: There always could be PC lurking around. My younger brother had RALP 10 years ago, when he was 48. He did not have BPH. That and co-morbidities are a real distraction. It is difficult to suss out multiple causes and effects.
Your thoughts are welcome and appreciated.
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2015 - Diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes and sleep apnea.
2016 - Hypogonadism. Started TRT. PSA spiked. 1 of 12 samples mildly interesting. Started watchful waiting. Prostate measured 75 CC.
2017 - Excessive red blood cell production. Stop TRT.
2017 - 2022 - Focus on managing T2D and mental health issues.
2022 - Occasional ED. Treated with PDE5 inhibitors.
2023 - 6/23 Notice mild curve in erection. Curve not extreme, no painful erections.
2024 - 2/24 Best metabolic panel of my adult life - and a) wbc out of range on the high side and b) PSA spiked. Was 1.8 in 8/23, up to 8.4 in 2/24.
2024 - 3/24 Experiencing tiny urine leakage. No trouble using the bathroom otherwise.
2024 - 4/24 Prostate MRI. Results:
- Single PI-RADS 4 lesion in the anterior transition zone at the extreme base.
- Prostatomegaly with changes of benign prostatic hypertrophy.
- Findings:
- 6.3 x 6.0 x 6.1 cm with a volume of 107.7 mL
- PROSTATE CENTRAL GLAND: Changes of BPH. Within the mid anterior transition zone at the extreme aspect of the prostate gland base in an area where the urinary bladder base is elevated there is a T2 hypointense lesion with marked diffusion restriction and low signal on ADC sequences measuring 0.6 x 0.4 cm (0.1 mL). This was labeled as lesion #1 in DynaCAD and is classified as PI-RADS4.
- PROSTATE PERIPHERAL ZONE: No suspicious focal lesions found.
- PROSTATE CAPSULE: Capsule is intact.
- SEMINAL VESICLES: Appear normal with no tumor involvement.
- BLADDER: Trabeculation and mild thickening of the bladder wall.
- LYMPH NODES: No evidence of pathologic lymphadenopathy in the pelvis.
- BONES: There are no aggressive osseous lesions.
- OTHER: No other significant findings.
My thoughts: There always could be PC lurking around. My younger brother had RALP 10 years ago, when he was 48. He did not have BPH. That and co-morbidities are a real distraction. It is difficult to suss out multiple causes and effects.
Your thoughts are welcome and appreciated.