Middle school basketball test

Since I caught a stomach bug in December, this is what has been happening to me:
-lost of weight from 130 to 119 lbs -increase in the frequency and urgency of bowel movements, especially in the afternoon after lunch -BMs sometimes solid, sometimes in little chunks, often with mucus, sometimes only mucus, sometimes only expelling transparent liquid. For the first time, I saw a big drop of red blood in the middle of mucus yesterday evening, which absolutely freaked me out -When I have very frequent BMs, sometimes I will get cramps and pain, which give me nausea, cut off my appetite and prevents me from eating. This happened maybe 4 times in the past month. -Increased level of anxiety -Appetite went really down in the past two weeks, especially in the past week -Since I saw that blood yesterday, full on very intense anxiety, whole butterfly in the stomach. I can't eat.
I saw a doctor today. She ordered a stool sample and a colonoscopy in semi-urgent priority, so in the next two months.
The prep terrifies me. My stomach gets upset very easily. And if I don't eat well enough in a day, I get dizzy and full of stomach acid, so I feel very bad, and after, it's very difficult to restart eating.
I told the doctor I was extremely worried and that all that made me anxious. I asked about cancer and IBD. She said it was possibilities and that's why she was ordering the tests. I've asked if it could be only my IBS acting out. She said usually no blood with IBS.
I'm a 40 yo male, weighting now only 119 lbs.
I am absolutely freaking out, completely terrified.

Google is using its annual developer conference to showcase what the company is calling its lightest and most efficient artificial intelligence models.
At Google I/O on Tuesday, the company announced Gemini 1.5 Flash, the newest addition to the Gemini model series.
“We heard from developers that they wanted something faster and even more cost effective,” said Demis Hassabis, CEO of Google DeepMind, in a press briefing.
The unveiling comes as tech companies increasingly refocus their product development and rollouts around generative AI, which is of particular importance to Google because the new tools give consumers more advanced and creative ways to access online information compared to traditional web search.
OpenAI on Monday launched a new AI model and desktop version of ChatGPT, along with a new user interface. The new model, GPT-4o, is twice as fast as GPT-4 Turbo and half the cost, the company said.
Google also announced an improved Gemini 1.5 Pro model, which has the ability to make sense of multiple large documents — 1,500-pages total — or summarize 100 emails, according to a vice president working on Gemini.
Gemini 1.5 Pro will soon be able to handle an hour of video content, or codebases with more than 30,000 lines, Hsiao said.
“You can quickly get answers and insights about dense documents, like figuring out the details of the pet policy in your rental agreement or comparing key arguments of multiple long research papers,” Hsiao said.
OpenAI’s latest upgrade, announced this week, brings with it improved quality and speed of ChatGPT for 50 different languages. It will also be available via OpenAI’s application programming interface (API), allowing developers to begin building applications using the new model immediately, executives said.
With 35 languages, Google says Gemini 1.5 Pro has a 2 million token window, which measures context and indicates how much information the model is able to process at once. The new model has improved local reasoning, planning and image understanding, company executives said.
“It offers the longest context window of any foundational model yet,” Alphabet CEO Sundar Pichai said in the press briefing. At the event, he gave an example of a parent asking Gemini to summarize all recent emails from their child’s school.
Gemini 1.5 Pro will initially be available for testing in Workspace Labs. Gemini 1.5 Flash will be available for testing and in Vertex AI, which is Google’s machine learning platform that lets developers train and deploy AI applications.
Source: https://www.cnbc.com/2024/05/14/google-announces-lightweight-ai-model-gemini-flash-1point5-at-google-i/o.html

6’5 mf from bumfuck nowhere COOKS
Kendrick>>>
Demographics

• Gender: male
• Race/Ethnicity: white
• Residence: Rural VA
• Income Bracket: upper-middle
• Type of School: public (somewhat competitive tho, usually abt 1 Ivy+ per year)
• Hooks (Recruited Athlete, URM, First-Gen, Geographic, Legacy, etc.): maybe location? Idk

Intended Major(s): Aerospace Engineering, MechE for places that didn’t have Aero
Academics

• GPA (UW/W): 4.0 UW/ 4.53W (4.44 at time of apps)
• Rank (or percentile): 4 (5 during EA)
• Honors/AP/IB/Duel Enrollment/etc.: 6 APs, 9 DEs, 11 Honors, no IB
• Senior Year Course Load: AP Gov, AP Research, AP Art History, DE Calc 1, DE Brit Lit, DE Aerospace Engineering, Honors Physics, Spanish 3

Standardized Testing
List the highest scores earned and all scores that were reported.

• SAT I: 1520 superscore (two 1510s with 760R 750M and 750R 760M on 3 attempts)
• ACT: Didn’t Take
• 4 on AP Bio and AP Seminar, 5 on AP Lang

Extracurriculars/Activities
List all extracurricular involvements, including leadership roles, time commitments, major achievements, etc.

1. Internship (12)- Research Lab at T25, Helped create STEM classroom curriculum
2. Debate (11,12)- Team Captain, Top 10 at states in first year (got 2nd place in state after apps 🫠)
3. Scholastic Bowl (9-12) - Team Captain, led team to regionals for first time in years
4. Tennis (10-12) - Team Captain, raised some money
5. Engineering Club (8-12, yeah it’s weird) - VP, member of competition teams
6. Athletic Advisory Board (11-12) - Represented on behalf of academic teams and did community service, raised some money
7. After-school STEM club/daycare? (12) - Voluntarily chaparoned kids, got offered and accepted real job
8. Powerlifting (9-12) - On varsity team in 10 and 11 before it got deleted, started training before and continued after
9. Beta Club (10-12) - Didn’t do much but that’s mostly the officers’ and sponsor’s fault
10. Mentor (11-12) - Mentored other students in magnet school program
11. additional info - Got Best Delegate at my first Model UN competition after apps as a side quest/practice for debate, mentioned on deferral and waitlist replies later

Awards/Honors
List all awards and honors submitted on your application.

1. Collegeboard Rural/Small Town National Recognition
2. AP Scholar
3. AP Capstone Diploma
4. Magnet School Diploma Seal (Regional)
5. School award for achievement in Aerospace Engineering class

Letters of Recommendation
Counselor: 7/10. New hire right before my senior year so not much rapport but spoke to her somewhat frequently
History Teacher: 9/10. Bsf. Had him for class in 9th grade and I was the only one who answered during Zoom classes, was my Scholastic Bowl and Debate coach in years following. His writing is not the best tho so not a 10/10
Engineering Teacher: 8/10. Had him for 3 years and was part of his club for all of them. Can speak to my abilities super well. He moved districts before my senior year so didn’t see him for a bit but still pretty good regardless
Professor: 9/10. Interned under him over the summer and he trusted my capabilities a lot. Wrote lots of LORs before and even asked me what I wanted in it.
Interviews

• MIT: 7/10. Virtual. Interested in my research and seemed to vibe quite well. Didn’t talk for very long tho and looking back I didn’t really make as good of an impression as I would’ve wanted or talk about all my stuff as much as I wanted to.

Essays:
Common App: 9/10. Displayed my ability to set really high goals and never be discouraged by failure. Reviewed by friends at Princeton and Stanford, as well as former CMU admissions officer and highly praised
MIT supps: 9/10. Some of my best work. Reused for so many other schools and scholarships because god damn were they beautiful pieces of writing.
General supps: 7/10. Mixed bag. Some really good, some just ok. Spent a decent amount of time and was pretty happy with all of them
Results
Accepted:

• Johns Hopkins (RD)
• Georgia Tech (Deferred EA, accepted RD - committed!!)
• Purdue (EA)
• UMD (EA)
• Penn State - Waitlisted Honors College (EA)
• VT - Waitlisted Honors College (EA)
• UVA (EA)
• Pitt - Honors College (EA)
• George Mason - Honors College (EA)

Waitlisted

• Carnegie Mellon

Rejected

• MIT

Reflection:
GO YELLOW JACKETS WOOOOO
Final record of 9-1-1 (yay!)
Genuinely shocked by CMU waitlist because former admissions officer loved my personal and my supps. Was probably due to lack of insane math talent (displayed on apps that is).
Didn’t really get huge aid from anywhere but was able to cover most of the cost through existing savings and external scholarships (apply for lots of them, especially local ones!!!!)
Start early!! Going EA was super helpful. If you need to miss a school assignment or 2, you can make that up. Sometimes to have to have to wager your present for the sake of your future. This process can really suck at times but it’s manageable in the end.

Hello, it has become clear to me that romantic fulfillment is a fruitless pursuit, and in a bid to avoid unnecessary suffering, i would like to kill any romantic or sexual desires i may have.
I lack the social grace to charm people, and i have nothing to make up for it. I am prone to limerence, which has lead to some terrible spinouts that are often only visible to me in retrospect. I don't really have an issue making friends, people seem to like me. However, I am terrible at navigating anything more than a platonic friendship.
21, male, Never dated, not due to lack of trying, but rather lack of opportunity, I live in the middle of nowhere, and never went to public school (homeschooled + online college). Real bad ADHD, probably somewhere on the spectrum, on antidepressants, and im sure a litany of other problems i could be diagnosed with.
So far, ive found that, ironically, stimulants are the best answer, at least for sexual desire. Adderall turns me into a eunich for a soild 5 hours a day. Caffeine and nicotine are also highly effective, though the effects last much shorter. I didn't notice any real effect from the SSRI im perscibed (citalopram), maybe a slight dulling in desire. Weed and alchohol are classic "thoughts-b-gone" tools, but they also greatly restrict your ability to do much exept for sit on the couch, at least in effective doses.
Overall, im not looking for a "juzt b urswelf!" pep talk. If i wanted that, im one google search away from hundreds of websites trying to sell me dating coaches or Betterhelp subscriptions (funny that people just kind of forgot about that whole "unlicensed licensed therapist" thing, those checks gotta be fat).
What I want is an off switch.
If all I have to do is "wait for the right one", id rather not suffer while doing so.

Hey y’all, I’m Bryan! All schools have many differences of course, but you still learn close to equal the same things. Is cosmetology test work very hard? I also mean written not practical, because I like to learn, studying is not practical bell for me, and paying attention is easy. I mean hair is my passion, my start day is Nov 11th anyways. I just want to be fully prepared, any advice?

Hey everyone. I’ve been out of high school for a while now, but I can’t help but notice how high people’s Grade 12 averages are these days. I’m not just talking about folks in this sub — all my family friends are getting higher grades than their upperclassmen did too. It made sense during COVID-19 when online learning had become the new norm. Why now though, especially when most students I presume are back in school and writing exams as in pre-COVID times? Are you guys just more academically inclined than other batches were? Have marking schemes become more lenient (e.g. only your best test is added to your final grade, free marks for participation)? What are your perspectives?

Like I was 5’0 in middle school. You like your girls 4’11???
😭😭 barely 100 pounds??? That’s not even the average size of a human…

Normally, students get one slice of pizza, but you can purchase a "second lunch" which is basically what the title says, for two dollars. I couldn't afford to get a second lunch tho, so two of my friends gave me theirs.

My girlfriend and I are both 21 years old. I had this friend since 4th grade, and we were extremely close. They have also been extremely close with my current girlfriend since middle school. About 3 years ago this friend and I had a big falling out, a year later we patched things up and moved on, at least I thought so. We would hang out all the time, we would play games, everything was normal. The friend went off to college and we started to drift apart a little, and I just assumed that was the reason. Then I found out from someone else that the friend told them that they don’t think I’m a good person, and they hope me and girlfriend break up because she deserves someone better than me.
This obviously really hurt, and I was really bothered by this. Again, my gf has been friends with this person for years, I understand them still being friends and I wouldn’t try to stop them from being friends, but it does bother me that she’s so ok with our friend saying that.
My girlfriend and I have had multiple talks about it. She doesn’t agree with our friend at all, we’ve even talked about it amongst other mutual friends and no one has any idea why they would’ve said that.
I wasn’t going through all this again after we already had a falling out. I don’t feel like patching things up again, just to get hurt again. We haven’t spoken in months, never even talked about what happened. Now my girlfriend wants to throw her birthday party at my house which I am happy to do, but she wants to invite this friend. I could be cordial, and the friend could be here without any problems, but I just feel like I have enough self respect for myself to not invite someone who said that about me, and about my relationship, into my home.
I feel like it’s important to add that this friend is interested in men, just to make it clear they’re not trying to end our relationship for personal gain
Is this petty? Should I just be ok with it?

So I had food poisoning last week. Started Tuesday and still on going now. I thought my kids were safe. They aren’t, but it’s particularly impacted my middle boy, 11, autistic. I said to him at the end of last week “if you’ve a bad belly, do not trust a fart” and was met with “DAD STOP!”. He’s such a prude. Well today it happened. He come in from school and as usual went straight to his room to get changed. 30 minutes later I see him running through the hallway, holding his ass. The noise was so intense that I went downstairs. The shower goes on, I’m thinking good lad. Gets out of the shower, gets dressed and comes downstairs… “mum. Dad. I need to tell you something, it’s quite embarrassing”. I say “what’s up love?”, he responds “come”. My wife obliges… THANK THE LORD. I hear gagging and “Aww son. It’s gag ok. Jump into bed mate”. He had tried to lock the door, with his pants down, as the poo sharted out. He got the door, the walls, the window, the floor, the bath tub, sink, radiator and the toilet seat.
I sat in the living room as my wife cleaned. Needless to say she’s due a bottle of wine tonight.
My boy come to tell me ‘what happened’ and as he’s explaining it I can feel myself going hot and about to burst into laughter. So I pull my top over my face and tell him it’s so I can itch my scalp without my nails touching my skin. Luckily he believed me but he HAD to finish telling me.
Wife comes down as he goes up. She’s besides herself with laughter.
He then shouts down “now I now what you mean by ‘don’t trust a fart when you’re unwell’” 😂

Chance coma boy for Cornell sha-hotel
Chance me for Cornell hotel admin-SHA
CHANCE ME FOR CORNELL SHA-Hotel
CHANCE COMA BOY WHO SAW HİMSELF GETTİNG CHASED İN TEXAS TO CORNELL SHA/HOTEL ADMİNİSTRATİON ED1
Demographics:FGLİ,African(Parents moved to Turkey then moved to US right before my junior year),very rural in Turkey(village with 1000 population,almost no one goes to college),semi-feeder public school in America, US RESİDENT(green card)
Went from rural village public school in Turkey for middle school to a private school in İstanbul(biggest city in Turkey) because the school was connected to a university and agreed to give me full ride and also university housing to my family. Was the only kid there that came from a public school(public schools are horrible in Turkey)
Gpa(UW/W):9th grade: 92.13(top 5 percent), 10th grade selective ib program:83.17(missed like 40 percent of the year due to car crash/coma) 11th: 4.0/4.85 Class rank 1/494
Coursework: No ap/ib offered in 9th grade, 6ib classes in 10th, 11 AP classes in 11th-12th(so total of 17ap+ib)
İB HL MATH A&A in 10th, AP PRECALC AND AB İN 12th
Sat: 1540(800 math, 740 eng)-They're test blind tho
Major:Hotel Admin
**ECS:*\*
İnterim CEO(10th grade): Ran/fully managed former uncle's now family-owned business/motel 42 hours a week. Really small motel tho,6 rooms. Did school work when nothing was happening.
Founder of financial/educational based organizaton(11th-12th):**Raised 14.5 thousand dollars/475 thousand lira for my former elementary school through collective funding/raising money. Money went to renovations/additions.
(2 ecs in 1)Founder of Nonprofit/Owner of small shoe-reselling business(9th-12)th: Ran shoe-reselling business and made 20k and 10k/325k lira of the money went to buying shoes with the money and distrubuted kids at my old village shoes.
İntern at Divan Taksim(Hotel) in turkey, going back summer after 11th
Real estate internship in summer of 10th
Political İntern with Mayor of Turkish City(Elazığ)(CHP)(10th summer)): networked through the time when İ was a lobbyist around a bunch of rich people(you'll see below) Noted that İ want to be the minister of culture and turism in Turkey
Associate to Turkish Volunteering Agency/leader at school(10th grade): Personally volunteered 200 hours for earthquake. Raised 3.8k usd/70k lira throughout my school and district for relief efforts in Southeast Turkey
Student lobbyist for school renovations(10th grade): Was selected to be the only student lobbyist for my school's multi-million Lira expansion to increase class sizes by around 25% with an additional side building and a new library. Mayors son went to my school so thats where the internship came from
Published a book(11th grade) : on outsiders view on hospitality and finance(20k words)
Family responsibilities(11th-12th)(wont go into detail but valid)
Awards:
3.12 percent on LGS-Standardized test that is the sole factor of high school admission. Best score my middle school has ever produced. Only kid that was in the top 10 percent coming out of my middle school since 1998.
TBB National Finance Competition: 2nd out of 10k+ in national Financial knowledge competition ran by Turkish banking association
10th grade research project qualified for Tubitak(Turkish research council: project was about Corona's effect on reading habits throughout Turkish students)
Takdir 9th grade(top 5 percent of freshmen)
4th in national school based swimming relay in 9th.(Was varsity/ A team swimming in 9th grade)
LOR:Ap lang , AP cogo
Additiional info
İnjuries from car crash(coma)- not a joke, got in car crash right before 10th. Was in a coma for 4 weeks and missed like 40 percent of the year from pt, rehab and surgeries.
İ had to delay taking preclac because İ moved here late so İ took precalc and ab senior instead of ab and bc.

I am Andrew, a high school student who is currently learning various fields of cooking at a professional cooking high school linked to Harvard High School in the United States.
Since I was young, my taste buds have developed well, and I started attending a professional cooking high school earlier than other friends, and now I am classified as a second-level student chef who can cook in a total of three specialized fields, including Korean food, which is my representative field.
Perhaps because of the direct connection with Harvard, a famous university in the United States, our high school often offers various kinds of dishes to Harvard students to test the dishes we are learning or to be evaluated for their taste.
However, not long ago, I went to take a lecture on Korean food, a high school department program offered by Harvard, and I experienced something really shocking.
As I was a professional chef focusing on Korean food, which is currently the hottest in the world, I was interested as soon as I heard that Harvard was giving a lecture on the history and ingredients of Korean food, but surprisingly, what I heard as soon as I arrived in the classroom was really ridiculous.
There, a Chinese professor began his lecture with an introduction that he had immigrated to Korea for about 10 years and an absurd remark that the roots of Korean food began with Chinese food. "My name is Sun Yue, a professor from China who immigrated to Korea as a culinary researcher for more than 10 years. Before we proceed with today's lecture on Korean food, Korea's representative dish, we need to first know the fundamental roots of Korean food. Currently, Korean food is gaining huge popularity and influence around the world. Some may taste good, but in line with the recent trend of health-conscious modern people, it is so easy to reprocess into a diet that rarely uses inappropriate ingredients. As such, Korean food must be amazing, but did you know that the roots of Korean food began with Chinese food? In other words, the field of Korean food itself is included in one of the fields of Chinese food, so it can be said that it is a representative dish of China. It means that Korean food is included in the composition of Chinese food. However, many culinary researchers, chefs, and even Korean chefs who directly deal with Korean food are not aware of this at all. This is the first reason why we need to check out the information on the marinade, the main ingredient used by Koreans. They make the most of the fermented sauces like gochujang and soybean paste for Korean food. Surprisingly, these sauces are traditional Chinese sauces from the traditional Chinese fermentation method. Many of you probably don't know this. But right now, Korea is making unscrupulous exports of its flagship sauce, Gochujang, by even adding the word K-food. Why is Korea so anxious about not stealing Chinese things?

I decided to do it in a summery short version because I don’t want to feel like a tease or keeping you guys waiting I won’t drop names or specific location mostly things that has to do with the recovery and time on mdma pills
How I obtained the bags : me and my friend found a good trustworthy source and decided to buy bulk while the legit pills where around they where a variety of different shapes some basic like angry birds , 1up mushrooms,teslas until the second bag we where planning on both using and selling only during festival season or for summer more party like seasons which we would take a certain amount with us that event to sell
While we did test the top of the bags which was cleared for mdma I won’t lie and say we tested the whole batches but can vouch every pill had the same effect idk
The good : while my time on mdma i had social experiences I never would of had otherwise it helped me understand a lot about my depression and anxiety along with social anxiety in big crowds. Another thing was connecting with people in a deeper level really understanding the full spectrum of deep emotion found alot of new and odd music that I still listen to that I am grateful for completely took away doubt in terms of trying new things or going new places with out those little shapes I don’t think I would’ve had a glimpse of normal life without depression and anxiety.
It sure in hell helped me creatively not that I wasn’t without it because as a hobby I love designing and concepting things such as films ,books , animation even found that I’m pretty decent at rock music well back up vocals but that’s the beauty ig finding some sort of new talent
Where I messed up at is falling I love with the therapeutic aspect of it because I would take it a lot solo and dig with in my self to completely understand every aspect as well as other aspects of people psyche it was so refreshing to connect in this way… non the less good things can’t last for ever.
Lol as for pleasure ehhh I mean yes can be horny but not as it seems in media also for my males out there dude be ready for e dick 🤣 aka the shrivels
What it really helped me with is coming to terms with wounds from exs that never fully healed or suppressed especially with a girl which was my first long term relationship 5 yes
Helped me plan/focus on a way I wanted to be and self improvement I won’t say this for everyone though depends on how you use mdma
Helped alot with ptsd letting shit go and setting rules/boundaries
Had some killer work out sessions and improve my combat sports technique along with performance also actually listening taking in the coaching
The bad
The sweet release and momentum you get from them leads you to taking them everyday for me ig to be more consistent in mental mood (even though this would have the reverse opposite coming off the first year bad )
I found my self building a tolerance leading to dosing 3 times a day or taking a couple half’s max no I’m not a mad man I think I would be dead hell I’m not sure how I’m not dead with the abuse lol but sure I’m hell ain’t the same
I won’t say all the connection but a quarter of them where fake ig or not intense for the person once completely sober it can lead to of alot of truthful moments maybe not ready to be touched on or maybe the person/oneself can’t handle. Can say Boths builds or destroy relationships/friendships
The brain fog on brakes are shit depending on how active your day is can be tolerable what sucks it’s the frequent space outs and irritability
Idk if other hard users have or do experience this but frequent sleep paralysis no audio or visual hallucinations though
Please please I stress stay hydrated with water or the frequent urination will persist took me months after for it to get better still piss like a racing horse more then usual
Ehhhh depending on diet and fitness I found my self bouncing between 150 to 205 male in his 20s it will knock your hunger sometimes not eating half of the day
Some days finding myself wasting the day away hyper focusing on few things and not finishing them getting distracted
Another part where I messed up at was dosing in the morning I feel my not giving my body time to naturally register and then simply rolling to frequent
Leading up to the ugly I did take a month break but one night the night of clarity was when I started back up took 4 in a day idk how I didn’t od but definitely got serotonin syndrome which was hell lasted a couple days well the side effects
The ugly aka after
Dude the first year was hell I won’t lie mostly mental can’t say I suffered to many physical effects besides easier for body temperature to rise and memory
The first year was almost unbearable I’m a way it feels like a chemical lobotomy no emotions just the most intense extreme sadness sometimes not leaving my room
Weaker vision like in terms I can’t focus on things long like I use to before blurring or higher sensitivity to light/sun
Restless leg syndrome for a couple months and a cloud of anxious feelings Ovr your head like say when you’re in highschool and you get called out after school to fight the next day at lunch
Times of just spacing out staring straight forward
Chills and inconsistent body temperature
Robotic emotional responses noooo not even my favorite songs triggered anything it was just like blabbering in the background while I spaced out
Bad short term memory lost this has gotten better now on year two but memory issues still persist like if I want to remember a fun memory I have to really sit and think also not very vivid as it use to be to described in a story
No interest in simple human interaction such as a short convo improved after half a year clean
alot of light headedness through out day to day task with shortness of breath and heart palpitations but these all have dissipated thank god
It was weird for half a week one pupil was dilated
Frequent urination although has gotten way better i still have to piss more then I use to
This is a shitpost summery I will make a cleaner more detailed description of each part separately but feel free to ask questions below I just didn’t want to keep you guys waiting I’m pretty sure I’m missing some stuff but hey I’ll get it in the full individual post.

Hi, I’m F21 for context— Are any of you capable of making/keeping friends? I only have one person I consider a friend, we’ve been friends since middle school. We are still close but don’t see each other often due to adult things haha. I suppose recently I’ve been extremely lonely. I have a better time talking with people online cause I love that I can hide behind a screen. However it seems easier to talk to men but eventually they want something romantic/sexual or they do something to piss me off. I find myself to get along with females better, rarely am I ever annoyed with them. I sit by some girls at work and they are extremely sweet with me however we don’t have anything in common. I’m just starting university again however, I’m online as going in person freaks me out. I had one in person class this year but I couldn’t even survive a day. I also struggle with finding most people I meet very odd, like there is something off putting about them, I don’t feel they are genuine or trustworthy. But then I feel a lot of people find me to be a weird loser at the same time. Sorry for my ramble, I’m just curious about your experiences.

Hello all. I (24M -ORM) am writing to organize my thoughts and to get some advice on my next steps. I was considering applying this upcoming cycle and had everything prepared- LORs, PS, and committee letters. I sit at a cGPA of 3.4 and a sGPA of 3.2 on the East Coast in the DMV area. I have about 3000 clinical hours combined as a ortho scribe, COVID tester, and hospital volunteer. 100 hours research under a clinical psych professor. 500 hours non-clinical hours as a summer school Teacher's Aide and Justice Arts volunteer transcriber.
However, my hopes were dashed by my MCAT retake --4/13 : 491. Initially, I took the MCAT back in June 2023 and got a 490.
My FLs (FL1-5) in prep for my retake were much better about 500, 501, 505, 506, 504 respectively. I'll chalk it up to testing anxiety or something but man - I don't know what to do. I also did Anki and Uplanet. I was studying from Dec 2023 - March 2024, about 12 hrs /week while working as scribe 20 hrs/week.
My questions are: Should I postpone my application and opt for another gap year - I graduated from undergrad back in Dec 2022. Biology and Psych double degree B.S.
What should I do in the gap year - try the MCAT again for the 3rd time? Would schools look at the 3rd attempt differently?
Can I even become a doctor? I'm at a still of disbelief from the score release and experiencing a lot of neuroticism. My family are hesitant in giving me any more support as I "wasted time and money" for nothing. They are more on pushing me to change careers to whatever I can to make money.
Sorry for the long post. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
TLDR: 2nd MCAT score bad, should I do another gap year (will be 2nd gap year) for MCAT again? Or reconsider career?

Hi! New-ish DM here. So, I have a party of three: Bard, Sorcerer, Monk. All of them can spellcast (the Monk has a feat), and they're currently at 5th level.
The town they're in is fairly well-known for its magic, and it has a "wizardry school" (think middle school for children who show SOME magical aptitude).
It's a high magic world, so to encourage them to check it out, I was toying with the idea of giving them all one extra cantrip, for a sum money, if they visit it.
This would be a one-time deal, with no possible changes in the future. Could this be game-breaking? Is it even a good idea? If so what would be a fair price for an extra cantrip?

I (19f) was molested by my grandfather since some of my earliest memories of around 4, maybe even longer before that. For years I told no one in my family because my household was very abusive, and I knew if I did I'd be ostracized.
My sister (11f) when she was 7 and I was 15 back in 2020 told my mother what my grandfather did to my mom casually like it was something normal. I will not get into details, but she described seeing things on a screen in my grandfather's room some things that no 7 year old should ever know about.
My living situation is a bit more complicated though. My parents live next door to my grandparents, and the title of the home is technically my grandparents. When I was 13 years old, I moved my stuff out of my parents house and began living at my grandparents instead despite the abuse, because my parents we're fighting left and right at that time into the night, it was affecting my sleep, and they were physically violent towards each other which was horrible to witness as a child, and the house we lived in became a hoarders house with roaches from how much of a broken family we truly were.
My parents were very abusive to both me and my sister growing up, and it was really hard to choose from the potential of getting screamed at and beaten, or potentially getting grabbed inappropriately at my grandparent's house.
Anyways, back to the story. My father learned this info about what my sister had said about what she's seen and what's been done to her by my grandfather from my mother, so then he starts texting me asking to confirm if anything like what has happened to her was also true for me.
I confirmed it was true that similar things happened to me growing up, so my dad was livid and sent my mom over to my grandparents, to talk about what both my sister and I have confirmed to my parents. She privately talked to just my grandmother outside.
And you know how I said I'd be ostracized and that was my reasoning? I was right. When my grandmother learned the info, instead of taking her granddaughter's sides, she took my grandfather's side. She came in and started screaming at me, yapping about how I know that hedtnever do anything like that, look at all he's done for you, yap yap yap. I ended up getting kicked out of the house that night and slept at my parents.
My parents were more comforting that night than they'd ever been in my life. They validated me, told me they wished they did more, etc. But that night was short lived, because in the morning, they started talking to me about how they are gonna try to repair the "damage" that they've done to my grandparents, and my sister out of fear of everything that happened started to try to say it all wasn't true. They decided to go talk to my grandparents and make both my sister and I apologize to our predator. Our abusers.
Initially I didn't apologize. I protested saying everything I said was true. My grandfather talked me down. Everyone believed him. So I've been taking a relationship all this time with these phonies that I call family.
I have no where else to go. I could live with my partner and their grandmother, but I have no job. I'm currently disabled due to some personal info that would reveal my identity. I want to work, but I am unable to due to physical disability, and bipolar disorder affecting my mental health at the workplace. I also suspect having autism due to me having episodes that are definitely more like meltdowns than bipolar episodes, and I match with almost every symptom of autism. My family is currently who's financially supporting me. My family was very negligent, so I wasn't really tested for much of anything as a child unless the school told my parents that they think I need medical help, which was a rare thing.
I know I'm selfish. I know I'm a bad person for not reporting, she still lives here with us as well. I know she should be taken out of the home away from them. But I know that wouldn't happen. My grandfather is a smooth talker, my grandmother believes every word he says, and my parents even have told me to "stop lying". I can't do anything. If I reported, my grandmother would make a social media post telling the whole family to stay away from me. I live in the Bible belt of the south, and here people talk. People ostracize you even if you're a victim. I'm already hated here for being queer and disabled. I don't know really what to do.
When I was 15-17, I was shamed by some friends for not reporting. I probably still would be shamed. And I get shaming me, my sister is still a much younger child in this situation, and I really do love her and care for her, and I do want the best for her. It still hurts so much to be shamed by others when I was also a victim, and still am.
I also still love my family. I hate them but I love them. Idk, it's weird. How can I love the very people that have abused me and my little sister? Idk. Life is complicated. I need therapy but can't afford it. I would love to report if I had a direct safety net. My partner is up front with me and says they can be my safety net to an extent, but I know they're financially struggling. My friends have told me before they could be my safety net, but would they be willing to house a lousy person like me? Someone who can't financially provide for themselves partially due to being such a broken individual from trauma? I also have an uncle and aunt who is already no contact with my grandfather but still call my grandmother. They are financially well off. But they do not understand my situation fully, and I don't think they want a couch potato there. I can barely take care of myself and basic needs already, let alone working a job and paying rent for someone.
If I ever had the means to do so, I'd even try to fight my parents for custody of my sister. I love her very much. She shouldn't have to suffer being here.

There's been much discussion, both on the podcast and on this sub, about the extent to which those involved in the Playboy inner and outer circle were subject to NDAs. Most recently, Crystal has been criticized by Marston and HB for supposedly obtaining NDAs near the end of Hef's life and "silencing" his close friend. I think there is some fundamental misunderstandings about NDAs and what their role might be in this story.
Who am I? I am a silly little lawyer, practicing in California, and I love the intersection of law and popular culture. I wrote a journal article in law school about NDAs and the MeToo movement but sure as hell didn't try to get it published, so I've done deep dives into this topic but I am by no means an expert. I do love to learn, however, so if anyone has expertise in this area and wants to correct me or add onto any of this I would greatly appreciate it.
What is an NDA?
A non-disclosure agreement or an "NDA" refers to the broad spectrum of contractual agreements where the terms of the agreement bind at least one party from communicating about a pre-determined topic. Basically, a contract that makes at least someone keep quiet about something.
A contract requires (amongst other things) consideration by both parties. This means both parties have to give and take something for the contract to be valid. A contract, or an NDA, cannot just be a piece of paper where someone promises to do something. There has to be something in it for both sides.
Consideration, most commonly, takes the form of money. I pay you X, so you will do Y. But it can also be in the form of permission to engage in a certain activity. For example, I did an escape room once that had an NDA clause in the waiver so that people wouldn't go blabbing about how to solve the room once they were done. In exchange for getting to do the room, I agreed to the NDA. If I didn't want to agree to those terms, I could just not do the escape room.
The terms of the contract have to be reasonably balanced. You can't pay one cent for someone to agree to give you their firstborn child. Courts generally aren't in the business of scrutinizing the fairness of terms of contracts unless there's something grossly egregious about them, but it still has to make some modicum of sense.
Misunderstanding #1 - Anyone who signs an NDA is a victim being silenced by the other party.
This seems to be the assumption that HB and Marston are operating off of. There's this notion that Crystal forced all of Hef's circle to sign NDAs near the end of his life and now they're being silenced because of it.
First, you can't just have people sign NDAs and expect them to be enforceable. If Crystal did get NDAs from Hef's circle later in life, they had to have been paid consideration for it. Either Crystal offered them a sum of money (which they accepted) or the NDA was a requisite to partake in movie night, buffet dinner, etc. Either way, those who signed NDAs did so with an acceptance of what would be offered in exchange.
Obviously, there's argument that most people don't really understand the contracts they sign and wouldn't agree to them if they understood what they were giving up. But Hef's inner circle? These are people who have been in the entertainment industry for years, if not decades; these are people who have money to hire a lawyer, if not already have a lawyer on speed-dial. I am skeptical that if Dickie Bann was handed an NDA before entering the mansion for movie night he would've just signed it blindly.
Let's also consider the fact that the value of one's ability to speak out is inherently subjective. The criticism of an NDA assumes that the right to speak on a matter is something otherwise desired by the person agreeing to the NDA. It's easy to wonder why a victim would ever agree to an NDA and be prevented from speaking out about their experience. Frankly, before MeToo and the rise of social media, most victims of traumatic experiences were more inclined to speak less about their abuse than to go public. If you're a victim, and you already have no reason to speak to the public about your trauma, getting a significant payout to remain silent is actually a pretty solid deal.
Hef's friends are not victims by any means. But they showed a great amount of loyalty to him and the Playboy brand for decades before his death. I am incredibly skeptical of the notion that Hef's friends, but for some NDA, would have otherwise planned on ratting him out and showing the world that his health was declining.
The value of silence is subjective. Someone signing an NDA does not necessarily mean they are now restricted from publicly communicating something major. It very well might mean they just now have a legal obligation to do the thing that they would have done otherwise.
If, somehow, Crystal had been able to get Hef's friends to sign NDAs, I do not think that it influenced their behavior enough from what would have otherwise been that anyone needs to be that concerned about it. If it did, great, they probably got a great payout from it.
Misunderstanding #2 - NDAs are counter-intuitive to free speech and Hef would have never stood for them
As I'm sure many of you are aware, the First Amendment protection of free speech refers to the government's ability to restrict speech. Someone choosing to sign an NDA is not the same as the government preventing your broadcast from reaching its desired audiences. Someone choosing to not enter a private preschool with an AR-47 has nothing to do with their Second Amendment rights. The free speech that Hef specifically was known for advocating for had to do with censorship at the hands of the government from the broadcast of "obscene" content.
Maybe Bridget meant just the general philosophical idea of "free speech," which you would hope her masters in communication would have taught her to clarify the difference between. Regardles, remember, NDAs require consideration. This is not just ruthless silencing of innocent people who'd love to speak out about how awful Crystal is. These are wealthy, if not also highly educated, people in Hef's inner circle who, if they signed an NDA, surely understand the gravity (or lack thereof) of what they're agreeing to.
Likewise, I don't think Hef was against the idea of an NDA. Holly speculated that Hef wouldn't have required NDAs for those going into the bedroom because it would have given them a second to think about their decision. There's probably truth to this, but courts are also -very- reluctant to enforce any contracts that seem as though they would implicitly be authorizing sex in exchange for money. Also keep in mind the limited opportunities for women at that time to "speak out" if they even wanted to share about what happened in the bedroom. Hef probably would've loved for the public to hear what happened. There wasn't social media or the same understanding of power dynamics as there are these days. Who is someone who went into the bedroom and didn't sign an NDA and had a horrible time going to go to?
Someone can correct me if I'm wrong, but I believe that Holly said she signed an NDA to work at the studio. This is perfectly reasonable. Anyone who is on a salary or signed a contract with an employer probably has signed off on an NDA clause and are currently bound by it. You couldn't keep something like who the Playmate of the Year was under wraps without some strict confidentiality provisions. The Playboy empire could not exist if there was some kind of blanket rule against NDAs.
Additionally, part of the allure of the mansion parties, per the podcast, were that no outside cameras were permitted inside. You're really gonna rag on someone not wanting a bunch of shitty iPhone shots of a man in his dying days, meanwhile you're singing the praises of exclusive parties that for decades wouldn't let people take and share photos of the event?
I am fully confident that Hef did not have issues with NDAs for business purposes, and certainly did not see that as contradicting his stance on free speech. In the podcast they said the mansion staff signed NDAs as part of their employment contracts There are countless examples of the Playboy company trying to silence people in Secrets of Playboy. Hef made it very clear that his stance was that free speech was important when it could help his bottom line. Anything else was negotiable.
Misunderstanding #3 - If someone signs an NDA it's automatically enforceable/If an NDA is unenforceable that will be obvious from the get go
To play devil's advocate to myself, I will say that whether an NDA is enforceable by a court of law and whether the parties abide by the terms are two separate issues. In many cases, a contract may not hold up in court if someone seeks to litigate over alleged violation of the terms. Most contracts don't get litigated over let alone actually get a final determination of their enforceability by a Court.
I will say that there's possibility that Crystal had people sign NDAs that were shotty but that the signers didn't understand that the NDAs weren't legitimate and so they still complied with the terms of the contract. (for example, often those waivers you sign for various activities wouldn't hold up in court, but people think they do, which precludes a lot of people from even considering bringing a claim) But this goes back to the type of people who would be signing these NDAs who otherwise might have access to sensitive information about Hef or the company. These are not girls coming out to do test shoots or the larger guest list at the mansion parties. These are people who are wealthy, powerful, and educated and would not be duped by the idea that merely signing an NDA with ridiculous terms would mean the contract is enforceable. Or perhaps they just didn't give a fuck enough about blabbing so there was no reason for them to even question the NDA that would stop them from saying something they weren't playing on saying.
Not a misunderstanding but one closing note in defense of these hypothetical NDAs - The power of speech for the average person has increased exponentially in the digital and social media age. HB acknowledge that the mansion parties were unique from anything currently because there weren't the same tools we have now to disseminate information. I think it's sort of an apples and oranges comparison in terms of confidentiality to compare the vibes of the buffet movie nights from the early 2000s to the 2010s, not even taking into account the nature of Hef's health.
I think Bridget talked about how a lot of screen contracts didn't allow for residuals from streaming services because they literally hadn't existed then. By the time smartphones and social media were ubiquotus I don't think Hef really gave that much of a care about protecting his or the brand's image. Hef never had a policy or strategy to address social media because it just wasn't even a problem for him to consider, not because he had some absolutely stance on letting anyone who came to the mansion say whatever they wanted about it to the masses.
Ok, I think that's all I have for now. Happy to talk about this or debate this more, but wanted to clear some things up since I feel like this drama with Crystal and allegations about NDAs is going to come up in the near future.

Hey all, I'm looking to get back into making some music as a creative outlet, used to use FL 11 back when I was in Middle/High School (ripped version unfortunately) but now I want to actually buy a legit copy and am not if there's any real benefit to getting Producer edition? As far as i've seen online, Fruity doesn't include Edison, which I guess is fine I think I only used Edison back in the day to get rid of background noise from an old shitty mic lol. Really I'd be using Splice to get drum sounds/misc. and I already have a focusrite for recording guitar, keyboard and bass. I'm hoping Fruity would at least include some synths other virtual instruments and plugins like soundgoodizereverbs/delays/chorus and one of those Mastering plugins I can't remember the name of it. Would I be good with just Fruity?

TL;DR Abused boy is outcasted in high school and is now questioning 10 years later if he was the cause, and how to fix it.
I was thinking about this today after a discussion with my wife that since I was an outcast in high school, I still am one today. I have the generic tragic backstory most do, mother and stepfather were drug addicts, abused physically and mentally. That was all when I was around 1-6. After my dad took me in, never talked about anything that happened though. In middle school I was really popular, I said anything on my mind so that was reinforced as being a good thing, that's when I started acting out, just trying to be funny. (One time I said I was gonna blow up the school and got suspended, I couldn't understand why, I said it as a joke, a bad joke yes, but a joke none the less. I was not allowed to watch tv nor did I have access to the internet at this time, so my thoughts were "How would a middle schooler even get a bomb? What are you adults stupid or something?")
I think I tried holding onto the same type of personality that people liked throughout middle school to high school. It is synonymous to how the manosphere men act today. I had connections from middle school and would often eat lunch with them. But when I hit my sophomore year, seats stopped becoming available, for me at the table. I knew and I had too much anxiety to sit with people I didn't know, so I skipped lunch and would try to find somewhere to just wait out the lunch period. After this point I would just ignore everyone and keep my headphones in throughout the day
I dropped out due to depression and maybe other things. I didn't talk much, I didn't go out much, so i started streaming while I played video games. People in my life saw it as a waste of time and pushed me to just work a factory job and hope to move up after years. (It was actually the leading cause for getting me kicked out of not 1 but 3 houses) I was always a nice guy but not a genuinely nice person, just a guy who would be nice to get what I wanted. I started getting followers, and felt accepted, made it to a good subscriber count. like 1.5k but then I quit. A few reasons but one of the main one was that no viewers would show up unless I played a specific game I was really good at. Not because of me, but my skill, or so was how I viewed it..
Until my early twenties, like 21-22. I'm 27 now :P. I was so sad an depressed about not making friends that I was making trying to force it with the first people interacting with me. Even with them though they had taken more of a liking to my wife then myself. I'm not sure what it is, but you know that feeling that you introduce people and they become better friends and eventually they hang out without you? That has been something I noticed happens to me for awhile. Throughout my life I've only ever been invited to things from people passing out fliers for events. When I say it I think people think I'm trying for pity or being facetious when I'm mainly just making an observation, that or the people who did invite me were people I didn't want to hang out with.
I thought I just had naturally low charisma but thanks to my dad I know the art of being charismatic. My dad is super charismatic and can make friends with anyone so I just mimicked him. While I could use the right tone my verbiage felt wrong I felt like everything I said or do would be wrong or misunderstood. So I made the realization it was how I viewed myself, so I worked on that a lot with the help of my wife (Who actually has been the only person to choose me) made it to the point where I love who I am. And I know the path of the person I want to become. But I still see myself as an outcast. I also don't see it as a bad thing, just something that is. But is that self destructive? Will I have to do away with that thinking so I can run my business? If you were an outcast, if you've never stopped being an outcast are you still one or am I just reinforcing because I want to be one?
As a kid I was obsessed with not wanting anyone to remember me. I begged teachers to remove my pictures, or any proof that I was there closer to graduation. I skipped the picture days so I wouldn't have a picture in the year book. If it's harmful how does one change that mindset, go out and try to make acquaintances?
Thanks for coming to my ted talk and opinions are greatly appreciated.

Hey, guys!
So, I’m going to try to explain everything but it’s just a whole lot that’s going on.
My sister who is 16 currently lives with me and attends school near our home but her father has had 100% custody of her for her entire life. The only issue is that she does NOT want to be with him because he has a history of violence and abuse. And as for our mom, she doesn’t have custody of her but my sister said that once my mother gets her own place, she’ll want to be with her instead of her father.
Unfortunately, nothing has been documented of the fact that he has been abusive. But when I was younger (before she was born), my mother, my OTHER younger sister (the middle child) and I were abused by him. So we know what he’s capable of.
He’s been threatening to come to get my address from her school (which they’ll give him since he’s in her demographics) but my sister specified that him knowing where we are makes her uncomfortable.
I’ve taken it up on myself to do some research and the only legal way I could go about this is talking to her about being emancipated. Apparently, she doesn’t need either parents consent to do so, but I wanted to know from others what I could possibly do to keep him away from her?

We downsized our living space considerably about 5 months ago and I’m still in the middle of unpacking. I have a lot of interests (like 7 main ones) so I own the majority of the things we have. I feel like I took care of most of my stuff when we first moved, and all I’m doing now is rearranging things so that everything will fit without there being a huge mess, and also hopefully look nice.
It’s honestly been stressful and would appreciate a little help, but in the past when I’ve hinted towards it, she tells me “it’s your stuff, face the consequences of your actions” and views it as a lesson on overspending.
For context, she has always worked more hours than me, and I am in school on and off. For these reasons I felt like it was fair that I did more of the housework. Even though I thought that, it still bugged me that she never helped with our living area. I’m not saying she doesn’t do chores though, she usually takes care of the laundry and dishes.
She is also asking me where her designated area of our room is going to be. I’m really confused, as her things are already unpacked and displayed, albeit not in a distinctly separated area. It’s not as if we don’t share our things.
Am I just whining here? Should I bring this up to her, and if so, how? She actually has a complex about housework, which is why I never dare to bring it up since she’d get mad if I suggest she’s either doing too much or not doing enough. To those of you in straight relationships, is there usually just one of you that takes care of all the cleaning and organization, and is that normal? Also for more context I have adhd but I try not to think about it
TL;DR I have a lot of stuff and my gf won’t help me unpack and I’m just wondering if I’m being annoying for wanting help like feel free to roast the shit out of me if I am