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My wife and I have long had a goal to retire from full time by 45 and switch to “fun” part time jobs such as working at the local ballpark part of the year.
Between us we make 250k a year, have 100k in stocks, 100k in other investments (mostly in my company as a was given chance to buy in but will be pulling my money soon and friend’s real estate biz), 150k total in 401k savings. I have a side hustle with friends (YouTube channel) that is growing so there is promise there but nets me about 5k a year for little work filming about things I enjoy anyways.
We’re currently saving 20% a year between 401k and investing. But anytime we run the numbers we know we aren’t going to be where we want by 45.
Our expenses between one car (one paid) and a house, plus all other items is $4000 plus a few thousand a year in vacations. We know we’ll need another car in a few years.
Yes I know easy answer is cut back on vacations but I’d rather live life now to a degree.
What can we do to accelerate? Is it shifting more to investments vs 401k? I see so many posts about million+ by 40 and even with our relatively high paying jobs I just don’t see how we could even come close to hitting that. Did you get a second job? More side hustles? Invest in things other than the market? I’ll have 60k im pulling from my company soon that I could invest elsewhere.
Hoping the YouTube thing goes from fun money each year to serious money but feels like we need to do something different to hit the big dollars in terms of savings.

Ever wonder why Joseph & his friends had to sit in Liberty Jail for MONTHS during the winter when they hadn't been convicted of a crime?
Turns out in the 1800s, most courts only operated twice per year. So when Joseph was arrested in November, he was stuck in a jail and had no trial, no hearings, no options, until court was back in session in the following spring.
And remember, this incarceration kicked off the "Extermination Order" of Governor Boggs, which sought to exterminate or expel all Mormons from the state of Missouri. So while Joseph and other leaders are in jail they are getting reports of intense suffering endured by the saints. Beatings, rape, murder, robbery, and the worst kinds of abuse. All with no options. No rights. Just the power of the governor keeping you locked in a tiny cell because the courts can't be bothered to deal with you right now.
Man, oh man, Governor Boggs hated the Mormons. Especially Joseph Smith.
Finally, in April, Just before a trial would have to begin, Joseph was allowed to escape. Almost as if they knew they had nothing that would stick, but they could inflict 6 months of unjust imprisonment on them.
But Boggs didn't like that. He was more of a "kick out all the Mormons, but also throw them all in jail" kind of guy. He demanded Illinois arrest and extradite Joseph and others to be jailed again and face more charges. Luckily, a court found that the warrant was deficient. The saints managed to settle in Nauvoo, and Boggs was soon done as governor of Missouri.
But then someone tried to kill Boggs.
Neighbors identified somebody named Tompkins, but opponents of the church quickly asserted it must have been a Mormon, trying to get revenge.
With hostile forces gathering, Saints figured that Boggs would soon try to arrest Latter-day Saints again - even though they were now in Illinois. How to defend yourself from the power of a corrupt former governor, or illegal orders from your own governor? The saints came up with a novel idea. They created a city ordinance that allowed the municipal court to essentially examine any extradition requests, whether federal, state, or city based, under the common law of Habeas Corpus
Around that time, John C. Bennett sent letters to newspapers claiming Joseph Smith hired Orrin Porter Rockwell to assassinate Boggs.
Now with a story he could use, Boggs went to a justice of the peace to swear an affidavit that Rockwell was the shooter, and that Joseph Smith was an accessory to the attempted murder, citing "evidence and information" in his possession. (But not saying what that evidence or information was.) He used this affidavit to convince the new Missouri governor, Thomas Reynolds, to initiate the extradition process to try and bring Joseph back to the state where people were so hostile to Mormons that the jails would only release Mormon prisoners in the middle of the night due to attacks by mobs.
Receiving the demand from Missouri, Illinois governor Thomas Carlin went ahead and issued warrants without any pushback, and JS and Rockwell were arrested in Nauvoo. The two prisoners exercised their right for habeas corpus under the Nauvoo ordinance.
That stalled the arrest long enough for Joseph to enact a backup plan and reach out to the county court for the writ of habeas corpus, which was also granted.
Well now we have a pickle. We have two governors, three states (Iowa later got involved), a city marshal, a municipal court, a county court, a county constable, a sheriff, an agent of the Missouri government all barking at each other about who has authority, who can arrest who, and the rights of the accused never really given fair consideration. Looking to skip over annoying questions of law and jurisdiction, rewards were offered by the governors of Missouri and Illinois for the capture of JS and Rockwell. Mobs arrived in Nauvoo to hunt them down. For months this went on, with Joseph being shifted around from home to home to try and avoid the people who would forcibly take him to Missouri despite the writ of habeas corpus, and no higher power willing to actually look at the legality of the extradition order, or the right of Nauvoo to intercede. Things were bleak. It was like the worst days of Missouri had come again.
Really, Joseph had 2 options: submit to arrest and jail in Missouri (he knew what that was like, and rightly feared the abuses he would certainly suffer again there), or else hide until some court or government outside of mob control finally paid attention. I don't blame him one bit for choosing to hide!
A few months pass and in 1842, a former Illinois state supreme court justice was elected governor of Illinois, and the saints thought maybe they had an opening to get justice. A delegation was sent to speak with him and the US Attorney for the district of Illinois. When the US Attorney heard the details he immediately said the extradition order was illegal and requested Joseph come to Springfield to be heard before the U.S. district court - a court with Federal authority.
But how do you get Joseph to Springfield without one of these mobs or lawmen jumping him and dragging him to Missouri for that cash reward? You get the Nauvoo Legion to arrest him and escort the prisoner themselves. :D
On arriving in Springfield, hostile county officials at first refused to provide a copy of the warrant, knowing it was going to be challenged. So the Governor's office provided one and submitted the case to the district court.
Crazy arguments were made on both sides, with people arguing about jurisdiction, residency, and the facts of the alleged crime itself. Stuff that doesn't really happen today, but was common back then.
The Judge said, in essence, "Since extradition is between two states, it MUST be a federal issue and therefore heard by a federal court. (Sorry Nauvoo.) And furthermore, A governor can't just demand another state arrest somebody and send them over. The alleged criminal has to have committed a crime in that state, then ran away to another state. Joseph Smith didn't do that, so too bad, Missouri."
This ruling helped establish precedent in American extradition law, making it clear that you can't just demand somebody be extradited, even if you're a governor.
https://www.josephsmithpapers.org/paper-summary/introduction-to-extradition-of-js-for-accessory-to-assault/1#11046207362051668990
https://rsc.byu.edu/vol-16-no-1-2015/they-pursue-me-without-cause-joseph-smith-hiding-dc-127-128
https://byustudies.byu.edu/article/habeas-corpus-in-early-nineteenth-century-mormonism-joseph-smiths-legal-bulwark-for-personal-freedom/
Bennett and the state of Missouri would try one more time, and fail again, to extradite Joseph Smith. After which the state of Illinois would be the next source of charges against Joseph, including the charges that led to Carthage Jail.

I 27m broke up with my gf of 7 years at the start of 2024 no hard feelings or anything, ever since tho I have been watch gay adult content which has been weird as I before hand never had a thought about anything of that stuff. I started to question it in my work one day as I seen this obviously gay guy with a huge ass. He came up to me and should interest but I said “nah I’m straight” I thought about it more after and I thought, I got turned on by the thought of me fucking him but, got grossed or at the thought of him doing that or kissing me.
I have no idea what is going on but i am sure it turns me on because it’s like the thought of fucking a guy with a fat ass is almost like conquering him and the thought of like it’s wrong to want to fuck a guy that is feminine with an ass is a huge turn on, but a massive turn off if I think of kissing or me being the one that is fucked. Getting head as well but with my eyes closed is hot, usually the content the guys ass has to be shaved as well or I can’t watch. I’m just so confused at this point, cause I could definitely do it, as I find it so incredible hot if it’s a guy that has feminine attributes, but couldn’t see myself doing any of that other stuff at all as the thought of that makes me feel sick. What would this be called and has anyone experienced this?
I’m just so confused as I still find women hot and would go for them more but if given the opportunity I would fuck a feminine guy if they had a nice ass every now and then.
Update: Gave the guy I saw at work this new Reddit I have and he said that him and some of his friends wanted me to rate their asses😂 as they wanted my opinion, which is a massive turn on because I’ve not done anything with a guy and they are random strangers, that are gonna be sending me that soon😂 think they are turned on by the fact that It would be my first time fuckin a guy and I can tell they want it to be one of them. I was in the toilet at the urinal about to take my break and the original guy came in walked up to the side of me and he said “hey you know me and my friend are competing with each other right”
I responded “for what”
He leavened in and said “for your seed, we all want to be the first guy you fill up”
I instantly got hard which he noticed as the pee started hitting the urinal with more force. He looked down grabbing my cock which at this point was throbbing like mad, kept talking and started to give it a few tugs each gettin faster and faster while saying “we will send the photos and you’ll enjoy them but just remember this moment when u see me in the phone with my head down arched back and gaping hole lookin right at u, that this (reference my cock) will be mine and u will empty everything u have in these balls into that tight little hole” He at this point tugged my cock hard and has he then led me by dick into the cubical push me on the seat of the toilet dropped to his knee and start sucking my cock better than my exes did in the past, i inched deeper and deeper into his tight little throat with every Bob of his head and I couldn’t take it anymore I taped his head to pull out but he instead he went balls deep which I didn’t expect as my eyes we’re looking at the ceiling the entire time as the head was unbelievable good, it was the first time that it had happened to me before and I shot the biggest load ever down his tight little throat . He turned around and walked out telling me to look at his ass as the next time I see it will be in those naked photos.
Kinda sounds too good to be true but I ain’t complaining. Can’t wait to receive them photos from a bunch of randoms that I don’t even know. I’ve seen the friends and they are all really feminine and a 3 of them have got a wagon on them the others ain’t as much but still nice. Can’t wait so see the experience how different a guy takes it to the women I’ve been with, cause they three guys alone have bigger asses than 90% of the girls I’ve been with, and I’ve heard the head gay guys give is better-✅the toilet experience ticked that off as true), I am exited to see what happens in the next few weeks. And can’t wait to see how the photos turn out.
The thought of a guy setting up a camera behind over and take a photo to my approval as to if I would empty my seed balls deep inside of them is an amazing,and that I hope it doesn’t end with them. As it is such a turn on to receive booty pics especially from guys with nice big bubble butts like them to get my thoughts or have them told how I want them to take a photo for my pleasure 😇 . I’ll definitely fuck one of those three anyway as they all seem very interested to be the first guy I’ve ever fill up. Things are looking great tho never been more turned on at the thought of a few guys wanting my cock in my life and my opinion on their bubble butts and cute little holes.
EDIT: didn’t expect any messages 😅keep them DM’s coming i guess god damn😜😜😜😜🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

Me: Wouldn't it be fun to wait to post this in the summer so you can say happy Christmas in July for once? Also me: that's a terrible joke. Just publish the thing.
Apologies for publishing in 2 parts. I'm not trying to drag it out I'm just aware this is the length of 2 episodes, reddit will only allow me 20 pics per post, and there's just too much going on for our beloved idiot in this one, so. I'm pacing myself.
It's not Christmas in July, it's Christmas 1919 at Downton and I spent an embarrassing amount of time wondering if Mr Fellowes really wants me to believe that the Crawleys decorated the Goliath of Christmas trees themselves (they didn't, but I like that Mary was sipping her tea and offering her view on things. Queen👑 ).
Plus, the setup for this episode intro had an actual checklist:
Tree? Check
Family arriving? Check
Violet judging this year's Christmas cards and looking for the contenders for worst cards of the year (they judge them on both content, and actual card)? Check
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Anna gets a gold heart brooch from Mary and Mrs Hughes is as excited about it as she is. Also, I can see the inspo for the entire Anna/Mary tag on AO3 right here. And Mrs Hughes ships it.
Just kidding, Bates is in prison, and we're all very sad.
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Carlisle is wondering why the Crawleys are being kind to their servants by letting them have some time off at lunchtime on Christmas Day, and I'm wondering if anyone (namely, us, the viewers) is supposed to be surprised by his behaviour.
I mean, blackmailing Lavinia just because? Blackmailing Mary into an engagement with him? Trying to manipulate Anna and Carson? Being physically abusive to Mary, and trying to control her life and behaviour? Bringing Lavinia back to "sacrifice" her to a lifetime as Matthew's nurse, so Mary won't spend that much time with Matthew (not because there was something off about that, just that Carlisle didn't want her to)?
He is an asshole. He was an asshole. He will always be an asshole. Glad we're finally all on the same page.
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Matthew and Mary are exchanging presents behind Robert's head in one scene and I'm very upset by it. Please, if anyone has any ideas, submit what you think they got each other for Christmas.
If you need any inspiration, here's what people would buy each other as presents in the 1920s according to the British Newspaper Archives:
Lots of cigarette paraphernalia Cocktails Banjos PENCILS Dance Frocks Shaving Kits Vacuum Cleaners
Keep that list in mind if you're disappointed with your presents next year.
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Matthew got a telephone call telling him that Mr Swire is very ill, and he will got to London to visit him. Mary gives him some condolences and he says "I'm sorry if I'm casting a gloom". I have a feeling the poor man had been pretty depressed for quite long, probably perked up a bit for Christmas and thought he was bringing the mood down again, but Mary responds with compassion. Oh Matthew.
Carlisle saw Mary go after Matthew in the hall, to ask about Mr Swire, and literally took his newspaper with him and followed her out there because that's completely normal behaviour. Just picture the ridiculousness of it: Mary and Matthew talking about Mr Swire and Bates' trial, romantic themes that they are, and Carlisle is so annoyed by it he's standing there in the background. Reading a newspaper, just to make sure they know he's still around (who could forget, mate).
Also, Mary saying she'll attend Bates' trial to support Anna, and Matthew immediately going "Would you like me to go with you?". Because of course he wants to support Mary in all things.
And this is Matthew's first villainous act for the episode: He asks Carlisle "or will YOU do that?" as in, since you're here, will you be supporting Mary in this endeavour.
Of course he isn't. Carlisle could never understand the concept of being there as emotional support for a Servant. He can't even understand why one would give a servant a few hours off on Christmas Day.
And just like that, Matthew scores one point in showcasing that Carlisle is a waste of space.
Matthew's Villainy points so far: 1
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Btw, Matthew has a few sets of looks reserved for Carlisle: Derision, derision, and more derision.
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They're playing charades (aka The Game), Mary is mimicking falling down, Matthew has a front row seat to it, and they're not playing on the same team so she can't rely on him to guess. Which means he can sit back and have the time of his life.
Carlisle complains about not liking the game and I'm left to wonder why he wanted that life so much since he could find nothing to enjoy in it.
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Mary IS still trying with him, however. He complains again on New Years Eve about the servants having some time off, and she reasons that it only happens twice a year, and he complains again that she doesn't understand because she didn't have to work for what she has.
Fellowes finally does the work on these two. I was having a conversation with another user recently, who was wondering why Mary picked Carlisle when she could have picked someone like Evelyn Napier.
Let's forget the Pamuk Scandal for a moment. Mary clearly wanted something more other than a traditional marriage. When we meet her, she's 21. She already has a husband in her pocket, if all she wanted was a position in society and a title, she'd have already been married to Patrick in 1912. But clearly, she wanted more out of life than to be someone's wife.
She wanted love, and she wanted to have something to do, whatever that was. She would have found both in Matthew, if things hadn't gone to complete shit, so why not consider Carlisle (back when he seemed normal)?
He was a working, self-made man, so he was interesting to her. He wasn't the run-of-the-mill rich boy she'd been exposed to her entire life, and if she married him she'd have a job in establishing him in London society and helping him build his empire. She'd Work, in short. She'd be allowed to use her brain.
But they don't match. At all. He offered her a marriage of convenience, and then was upset that she loved someone else, when Carlisle never offered her love in the first place. She wanted to be able to go about her life, he wanted her under his thumb to do his bidding. She was raised to have a certain respect for other people (e.g. the servants in the house), he thought that because he had money he could do whatever the fuck he wanted.
In short, they don't work together. Not even taking into account he was blackmailing her with a scandal, and Matthew was off stage left being Villainous (according to Carlisle. Villain, Perseus, it's all a matter of perspective.)
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I love how they contrast Carlisle's ruthlessness with Matthew's compassion (and look how she looks up to him). Because Matthew is also a working man, but he's kind. And even though he didn't have any connection to mr Swire anymore, he stood by him in his hour of need, to the bitter end.
Speaking of contrasting Carlisle's assholery to Matthew:
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Rosamund's WhatsHisFace of a suitor points out there's only three women following the shoot, and they should divide their time between the men taking part in said shoot (God forbid women are not around to entertain these assholes gents). Carlisle immediately rebuffs him before Mary can get a word in, saying "Lady Mary will stand by ME". Mary is about to, very politely, put him in his place, when Matthew comes in for his second act of Villainy so far, saying "I thought you said you'd stand by me for the first shoot, isn't that what you said?"
He doesn't push her to go with him, he's just giving her an exit plan. So that Mary doesn't have to bring herself in an awkward position in front of all those people, to defend her right to an opinion. And Mary takes it. Of course she does. She can show Carlisle he doesn't get to dictate what she does, and do so in a way that doesn't create gossip.
Matthew's Villainy points so far: 2
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Look how he looks at her. He's so happy she took him up on it. Whatever else happened beyond this, they were friends. He cared for her, and she cared for him. And he has her back here, and she accepted it, so easily. And that made him happy (and so, so smug. A true Villain).
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She loves how un-selfconscious he is. She's always loved it, all those years ago at the flower show when he'd mock himself for her benefit, to make her laugh. He does it here still but now she's not surprised by it, just endlessly fond. Dozens of men spent years showing off their (probably mediocre) skills, to win her favour, and of course she'd fall for the guy who was just being honest. Mary likes honesty, she never got much of it. Her world is a show of mirrors where nothing is what it seems, and it must have been so refreshing to be with someone who was exactly what he showed the world. It's only sad that it took her so long to realise that just as she loved him for who he was, he'd do the same. But I'm getting ahead of myself.
"He does rather beg to be teased" - this asshole has been deliberately messing with Carlisle for ages, hasn't he. I've only counted 2 Villainy points, but I bet he earned himself dozens before. Whenever he'd get pissed off at something Carlisle said he'd just whisk Mary away, just to show him that he could, even if Carlisle was the fiance, Matthew was still an important person in her life, and he'd always be, and he made sure Carlisle knew that (and took great, great enjoyment in it).
Mary: The awful truth is, he’s starting to get on my nerves. Still, you’re not the person to burden with that.
Matthew: You’re still going to marry him, though.
Mary: Of course. Why wouldn’t I.
Matthew is not happy about this. He appears to not understand it, and I wish I could give him a a nice shake. Regardless of the information he doesn't have, Matthew, mate, it's not like she hasn't met other men. Like it or not, most of your lot back in the day belonged in the bin.
And Mary, as a high-society woman, didn't have a lot of options. She had to get married. And at least Carlisle wanted to buy Haxby, she'd be near her family, spend time in London. Before she'd have hoped to actually get some work done, within the capacity her marriage would allow her, but with things being as they are with Carlisle I think she's now hoping he'd be busy with his work and she could get on with her days and maybe not see much of him, as most couples of their class did. And that's not taking into account the actual reason why Mary thinks she absolutely Must marry Carlisle.
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Also, Matthew, let's not pretend you'd like any man she brought home. So either take a deep breath and confess some things, or get on with it.
Carlisle asks Mary why she and Matthew were laughing together. He asks "Am I never to be free of him?" and her answer is, of course not. Because, of course not. First of all, sorry to say Richard, but, they're a package deal.
I can't see either one of them giving up the other willingly, not after all this. But of course, the main thing is the aristocracy thing. He's the head of the family, you'll see A Lot of Matthew, if you and Mary get married. And Matthew has spent almost every minute of the episode so far making sure Richard knows this. One would say, he's trying to push him out (like a villain), through his sheer presence in Mary's life.
"I might understand if you let me think for a solitary minute that you preferred my company to his."
Here's another problem: He should know, this wasn't part of their terms. Of course, he's not an aristocrat, so he's not aware of how loveless marriages of convenience work, but since it WAS a loveless marriage of convenience he was offering, I wonder why THE FUCK, he demands her attention now.
Mary would perform her duty to him. She'd be the best hostess London ever saw. She'd be the pretty wife on his arm, and she'd charm his contacts, and she'd be the stepping stone for him to be accepted in aristocratic circles, and she'd give him children and hold his house. And yes, she'd love spending time with her family, and that included Matthew.
Richard is just being a petty, controlling, fuck. Because he wants more than she's willing to offer, and he wants more than what he'd originally asked. So he, can shove it.
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Richard: I’ve done everything I can to please you.
Mary: Do you mean you bought a large and rather vulgar house?
Richard: You cannot talk to me like that! What have I done to deserve it? What?!
Would you like a list of your crimes, Richard? I've posted it a bit further above.
Also, Mary. She was hoping he'd offer her an interesting life (before he turned out to be an asshole). But all he's offered so far is the same old bullshit she's been offered all her life: A big empty (emotionless) house.
A demanding husband. A life full of constraints and limitations, set to her by a husband who expects to dictate everything she does.
It's at this point that Matthew, clearly the villain of the story, shows up because he hears Richard yelling at Mary and that just won't do.
My beloved idiot covers for Richard here. And she does it because of something she said to Matthew before "He's starting to get on my nerves, but you're not the person to burden with that."
She doesn't want Matthew to feel like he has to come to her rescue. She heard him, when he told her they can't be together (many times) in the previous episodes. And she loves him, so she's let him be. She knows he's got his own troubles, that he's been through a lot, and that shows with how she watches him walk away with a fair bit of worry in her eyes. Plus, she doesn't want him to do anything for her out of obligation. She just wants them to be friends, and friends don't solve your marital (or, in this case, pre-marital) problems. They can provide comedic relief, and support, but that's about it.
And as we said, Matthew is clearly the villain of this story.
Speaking of which, Matthew interrupted Richard's yelling at Mary so, I guess that means - Matthew's Villainy points so far: 3
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Speaking of friends: Matthew will be there, for Mary (and Anna) at Bates' trial, and Mary asks to be there when he brings back Mr Swire's ashes, since the man wanted to be buried next to his daughter (who had to be buried at Downton, and not near her home in London, for maximum guilt-trip points I guess).
I love how those two care, and support each other in difficult times. It IS what friends do. Of course, Carlisle is not happy about that either. And listen, if he was in love with Mary, I'd be very understanding. I'd be telling him to cut his losses and run. I'd be empathising. But I'm like, you've been an absolute tool for years now mate, how am I supposed to see your POV, when you're basically worrying that if those two, at some point, get their heads out of their asses and realise they make a great couple, you'll lose your trophy wife you've trapped in a marriage, through sheer luck (on your end).
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Carlisle, after that entire day of watching Mary and Matthew having a nice time out with the family, pressures Mary to set a wedding date. Mary wants to wait, I guess she hopes for some godly intervention because she definitely doesn't see any other way out of her current situation, and he goes so far as to literally grab her, and in front of her family too.
I'm finally not the only one who wants to shoot him dead. Of course, Robert won't do anything about it because when has Robert ever done anything for Mary (so far), but Matthew looks tempted.
(I had to cut out poor Carson because there's too many people on this frame as it is, but shout out to him for also worriedly watching in the background).
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Matthew: Mary. Can I help?
Mary: After today, I won’t insult you by asking what you mean.
Matthew: You don’t have to marry him, you know. You don’t have to marry anyone. You’ll always have a home here as long as I’m alive.
First of all, I LOVE, that his reaction was to ignore Carlisle, run after Mary, and ask her if he can help. He's not offering to be a saviour. Mary doesn't need one of those (she does need to find that steel in her spine though). But he's offering to support her, and he says it in a way that implies he'd do pretty much anything she asked (Do you want to poison him? I'll help carry him to the pigs pen).
Second of all, Matthew, you absolute Idiot.
Mary supporting you in your grief, you supporting her with Bates' trial, that's normal friend behaviour.
You telling her she can LIVE with you forever, and so she doesn't have to Marry Any Man, is so, so dumb.
What is she going to live with you as, Matthew? Your cousin again? Where is the cousinl-y behaviour line drawn? Private dinners? Maybe with some candles and soft music? Holidays in Europe together?
Also, where is that imaginary limit you've put to your happiness with her for the sake of Lavinia's (very real, according to canon) ghost, mate?
You clearly seem happy enough to spend time with Mary, support her, laugh with her. Is it just the romance that's killing your mood?
Is it that that's the harshest punishment Matthew could imagine, spending his life next to Mary without actually spending his life WITH her, or is it that in spite of how much he wanted to suffer for his mistake, he just couldn't bring himself to cut ties entirely? Or is it that her happiness was more important than his self-imposed martyrdom, so he couldn't keep himself away and let her throw away her life for God knows what (her own mistake, is the answer, because they both like making themselves suffer for past sins. They've got A LOT in common).
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Mary: Didn’t the war teach you never to make promises? And anyway, you’re wrong. I do have to marry him.
Matthew: But why? Not to prove you’ve broken with me, surely? We know where we stand. We’ve no need for...gestures.
Mary: If I told you the reason, you’d despise me, and that I really couldn’t bear.
She makes me so sad. She's so certain she'll be ruined and kicked out of her house if the scandal ever came out.
And I get it. It was how she'd been raised. And all she's heard so far is how she's "a slut" and "damaged goods" and Mary's self-image is in tatters. She doesn't view herself as anyone worth fighting for, she doesn't want anyone else to fight for her, and she won't even fight for herself, and to me that's the saddest part of all.
She's entirely defeated, has been for a long time. This entire season. She's taken every blow and hasn't dodged them at all. Welcoming Lavinia, accepting Matthew as a friend and nothing more. Being by his side when he got injured, taking care of him and accepting his rejection without a peep. Listening to him announce his wedding and helping Lavinia plan it. Baring herself to Carlisle, giving him "the tools to destroy her", willingly, to salvage the family name, and to help Bates. And later letting Matthew call her, and himself "cursed", and walking away from it, somehow. Probably because she believes it.
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She told Carson, after Pamuk died, that "she knows what it means to be happy, but she knows she herself will never be happy" and she has proved to have embraced that sentiment, fully. Her despair back then is reflected here. Mary is not looking for happiness. She's just looking for cover. Some place where she can be sure she won't be hurt anymore.
She didn't believe that would be in a marriage with Matthew, and Matthew's strict morals so far, and his own self-hatred, have only further proven to her that she had been correct. She thinks that if Matthew can't excuse himself a kiss with a woman he loved, he won't ever excuse her having sex with a man she didn't love. And for all the unhappiness, all the cold comfort she sees in her future, she at least has his friendship. And how could she ever risk losing that? What would she be left with? Who else is there in the world, that supports her like he has? Her mother, who brought back Lavinia to push her away from Matthew? Her father? Who values the family above all else? Nothing. And no one. Just Matthew.
So she can bear Carlisle's cruelty, his moods and his demands. And she can bear the thought of living life on his arm to be paraded around London society for his benefit. But she can't bear the thought of Matthew thinking ill of her. Can't bear having him look at her the way her mother, or her sister did. And she's so honest here in her pain. She hasn't shown any of it, of the backloads of it, to anyone other than Anna, all season. But she can't keep it in now, after all that, in front of Matthew.
My poor broken child 💔
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She hears Cora yell her name and there's despair in her eyes. Even now she has family obligations to fulfil, so whatever emotional breakthrough she could have made, gets interrupted because heaven forbid she's not there for the Crawleys to play card games with.
Before I forget, Matthew goes after Mary, hoping to help her in her hour of need therefore, Matthew's Villainy points so far: 4
Matthew directs that accusatory look to Cora and I'm so proud of him for that. Cora's involvement in Mary's life has been nothing short of catastrophic. With her only saving grace being the fact that she wasn't actually willing to throw her daughter out of her house. I don't know how she gets to be so worried about the situation now, considering it's, largely, of her own making.
This whole season has been about pain and loss, in its various forms. And Mary's has been largely contained, because that's who she is, she keeps everything close to her heart, especially the things that hurt her. But it's all spilling out in this episode. There's so many things she can't contain, like Carlisle's jealousy, her own grief, at this point, after so many years. And for all those who look, it's the most obvious thing in the world, that Mary is suffering.
Well. Almost all.
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Robert calls Carlisle grabbing Mary in front of her family "an awkward moment", and calls Mary "tired" of Carlisle.
Yes, Robert. Of all the things Mary is feeling at the moment, tiredness is one of them. Not sure if it's the most obvious one, but with you I've learned to bring a small basket.
He also, unlike Matthew, doesn't respect Mary enough to go up to her and ask her if she needs anything from, idk, her father. Some help, some advice. He asks his wife to tell him if he's overlooked anything, and how is the answer to that not "Pretty much everything that's ever happened in this house".
And at this point, I will leave you, because we're half way through and I've already hit both my word, and my image limit. The first one is self-imposed, for the second one, send your grievances @ reddit.

I am seeking someone with whom I can engage in deep conversations, exchanging thoughts on how we live our lives, our perspectives, and what we make of existence as we await our inevitable demise. I am looking for someone whose outlook on life aligns with mine, with whom we can collectively find the best way to live out our allotted time. Together, we will share our plans and goals, discussing our understanding of various matters.
I would be delighted if you, upon deciding to write to me, could explain why you chose to do so and share a bit about yourself, to streamline our initial conversations.
Some of my reflections and views on life: - I've come to realize that happiness for me won't come from having a big house, an expensive car, or even a family. Happiness, for me, lies in improving people's lives. Eventually, I'll die (like everyone else), and if I only live for myself, it would be meaningless—everything will go with me to the grave. But if I create something that improves people's lives, something that remains even after I'm gone, it gives meaning to my own life and brings me hope and happiness. I'm willing to dedicate my life to this, to improving the lives of others. - I'm interested in philosophy not just as a hobby, but as a necessity for determining the direction of life and how to approach it, understanding what to do in this life. - I often ponder the meaning of life in the face of inevitable death (because what comes after death greatly influences what to do with life). - I'm interested in what to do in life and how to spend it. The typical scenario of finding a job with good pay, buying a house, starting a family, retiring, and dying doesn't appeal to me (but I don't have anything against it). If you resonate with these sentiments, I eagerly await your response.

This is the list of what bracelets I’m going to make. How many colored beads would I need approximately? I’m going to color code each album to its color.
Taylor Swift 1. Tim McGraw 2. Picture To Burn 3. Teardrops On My Guitar 4. A Place In This World 5. Cold As You 6. The Outside 7. Tied Together With A Smile 8. Stay Beautiful 9. Should’ve Said No 10. Mary’s Song 11. Our Song 12. I’m Only Me When I’m With You 13. Invisible 14. A Perfectly Good Heart
Fearless (Taylor’s Version) 15. Fearless 16. Fifteen 17. Love Story 18. Hey Stephen 19. White Horse 20. You Belong With Me 21. Breathe 22. Tell Me Why 23. You’re Not Sorry 24. The Way I Loved You 25. Forever & Always 26. Come In With The Rain 27. Superstar 28. The Other Side Of The Door 29. Today Was A Fairytale 30. You All Over Me 31. Mr Perfectly Fine 32. We Were Happy 33. That’s When 34. Don’t You 35. Bye Bye Baby 36. If This Was A Movie 37. Change
Speak Now (Taylor’s Version) 38. Mine 39. Sparks Fly 40. Back To December 41. Speak Now 42. Dear John 43. Mean 44. The Story Of Us 45. Never Grow Up 46. Enchanted 47. Better Than Revenge 48. Innocent 49. Haunted 50. Last Kiss 51. Long Live 52. Ours 53. Superman 54. Electric Touch 55. When Emma Falls In Love 56. I Can See You 57. Castles Crumbling 58. Foolish One 59. Timeless
Red (Taylor’s Version) 60. State Of Grace 61. Red 62. Treacherous 63. I Knew You Were Trouble 64. All Too Well 65. 22 66. I Almost Do 67. We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together 68. Stay Stay Stay 69. The Last Time 70. Holy Beautiful 71. Sad Beautiful Tragic 72. The Lucky One 73. Everything Has Changed 74. Starlight 75. Begin Again 76. The Moment I Knew 77. Come Back…Be Here 78. Girl At Home 79. Ronan 80. Better Man 81. Nothing New 82. Babe 83. Message In A Bottle 84. I Bet You Think About Me 85. Forever Winter 86. Run 87. The Very First Night 88. All Too Well (10 Minute Version) 89. Eyes Open 90. Safe & Sound
1989 (Taylor’s Version) 91. Welcome To New York 92. Blank Space 93. Style 94. Out Of The Woods 95. All You Had To Do Was Stay 96. Shake It Off 97. I Wish You Would 98. Bad Blood 99. Wildest Dreams 100. How You Get The Girl 101. This Love 102. I Know Places 103. Clean 104. Wonderland 105. You Are In Love 106. New Romantics 107. Slut 108. Say Don’t Go 109. Now That We Don’t Talk 110. Suburban Legends 111. Is It Over Now
Reputation 112. Ready For It 113. Endgame 114. I Did Something Bad 115. Don’t Blame Me 116. Delicate 117. Look What You Made Me Do 118. So It Goes 119. Gorgeous 120. Getaway Car 121. King Of My Heart 122. Dancing With Our Hands Tied 123. Dress 124. This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things 125. Call It What You Want 126. New Year’s Day
Lover 127. I Forgot That You Existed 128. Cruel Summer 129. Lover 130. The Man 131. The Archer 132. I Think He Knows 133. Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince 134. Paper Rings 135. Cornelia Street 136. Death By A Thousand Cuts 137. London Boy 138. Soon You’ll Get Better 139. False God 140. You Need To Calm Down 141. Afterglow 142. Me 143. It’s Nice To Have A Friend 144. Daylight 145. All Of The Girls You Loved Before
Folklore 146. The 1 147. Cardigan 148. The Last Great American Dynasty 149. Exile 150. My Tears Ricochet 151. Mirrorball 152. Seven 153. August 154. This Is Me Trying 155. Illicit Affairs 156. Invisible String 157. Mad Woman 158. Epiphany 159. Betty 160. Peace 161. Hoax 162. The Lakes
Evermore 163. Willow 164. Champagne Problems 165. Gold Rush 166. Tis The Damn Season 167. Tolerate It 168. No Body No Crime 169. Happiness 170. Dorothea 171. Coney Island 172. Ivy 173. Cowboy Like Me 174. Long Story Short 175. Marjorie 176. Closure 177. Evermore 178. Right Where You Left Me 179. It’s Time To Go
Midnights 180. Lavender Haze 181. Maroon 182. Anti Hero 183. Snow On The Beach 184. You’re On Your Own Kid 185. Midnight Rain 186. Question 187. Vigilante Shit 188. Bejeweled 189. Labyrinth 190. Karma 191. Sweet Nothing 192. Mastermind 193. The Great War 194. Bigger Than The Whole Sky 195. Paris 196. High Infidelity 197. Glitch 198. Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve 199. Dear Reader 200. Hits Different
The Tortured Poets Department 201. Fortnight 202. The Tortured Poets Department 203. My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys 204. Down Bad 205. So Long London 206. But Daddy I Love Him 207. Fresh Out The Slammer 208. Florida 209. Guilty As Sin 210. Who’s Afraid Of Little Old Me 211. I Can Fix Him No Really I Can 212. LOML 213. I Can Do It With A Broken Heart 214. The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived 215. The Alchemy 216. Clara Bow 217. The Black Dog 218. I’mGonnaGetYouBack 219. The Albatross 220. Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus 221. How Did It End 222. So High School 223. I Hate It Here 224. Thank You Aimee 225. I Look In People’s Windows 226. The Prophecy 227. Cassandra 228. Peter 229. The Bolter 230. Robin 231. The Manuscript
Other 232. Taylor Swift 233. Debut 234. Fearless TV 235. Speak Now TV 236. Red TV 237. 1989 TV 238. Reputation 239. Folklore 240. Evermore 241. Midnights 242. TTPD 243. Eras Tour 244. 123 LGB 245. Fuck The Patriarchy 246. Ur Gay 247. Taylor’s Version 248. 13 249. Junior Jewels 250. You’ll Be The Prince 251. I’ll Be The Princess 252. Wonderstruck 253. Loving Him Was Red 254. Losing Him Was Blue 255. Missing Him Was Dark Grey 256. Sad Girl Autumn 257. Who’s Taylor Swift Anyway 258. ATWTMVFTVSGAVRALPS (All Too Well Ten Minute Version From The Vault Sad Girl Autumn Version Recorded At Long Pond Studios) 259. Ratatata 260. I ❤️ TS 261. Me Hee Hee 262. Karma Is The Guy On The Chiefs 263. Screaming Crying Throwing Up 264. Jan Ravnik 265. I’m Having A Menty B Hee Hee 266. Benjamin Button 267. Meredith Grey 268. Olivia Benson 269. Errors Tour 270. Died Dead 271. TSwizzle 272. YFYFBYNLIT (you forgive you grifter but you never let it go) 273. Take us to church 274. Swiftie 275. I’ll Be 87 You’ll Be 89 276. LVIII Super Bowl Champions 277. Tayvis 278. Folkmore 279. Everlore 280. It’s Been a Long Time Coming 281. What If I Told You I’m Back 282. It’s Fearless 283. Big Reputation 284. And They Said Speak Now 285. Into Folklore 286. My Name Is Taylor And I Was Born In 1989 287. Meet Me At Midnight 288. This Isn’t The One I Wanted 289. Ever Needy Ever Lovely Jewel 290. Alls Well It Ends Well 291. I Hate All Kanyes 292. El Travador 293. My Brain Is Alive 294. Who’s Taylor Swift Anyway 295. Not A Lot Going On At The Moment 296. A Lot Going On At The Moment 297. Blue Jays 298. Toronto N6 299. I’m The Problem 300. Welcome To The Eras Tour

We've been married for three years, and it's a good marriage; I love my husband very much and I know he loves me.
My husband is not the most emotionally expressive person in the world, and when I am having strong emotions he often struggles to express himself - I think he gets so upset when I am upset that he can't find the words to tell me how he's feeling. In response I often feel like I have to comfort him instead of receiving comfort myself when I'm going through something - a difficulty with family, a health scare, etc.
Recently I've noticed myself avoiding sharing difficult things I'm going through because I don't want to see my husband feeling sad that I'm hurting. Specifically, I have been speaking with a journalist about a pattern of sexual assault and coverup at a college I attended when I was younger, and I have had to tell this journalist details of my own trauma that I usually don't like to think about. I've been digging up old therapy records and journal entries, that kind of thing. Unpleasant.
I have been able to talk to: my mother, some old college acquaintances, my therapist about this. But I am not able to open up to my husband. I know he would hurt on my behalf that I'm hurting, and seeing him hurt would I think make me fall apart and I don't want to fall apart. But I also want to share with him this big thing that I'm going through? Because it feels almost dishonest not to talk about it? It's not that it's a secret - it's just that our conversation has been very dry, "just the facts."
I don't know if anyone has advice, I just wanted to write it down somewhere.

Hello Everyone,
I just got out of a toxic relationship with my bf of 5 years and slowly leaning into my sexuality with girls: I’ve had a girlfriend before but it was just teen love and everything. I’m now 25 and it’s more adulting.
I met this girl online and we are similar and I do like her and I do have this fantasy of being with her and holding her and cuddling her. But off the bat she’s being so demanding and saying when we are together I can’t do this and this and be considerate and I feel already I’m going to rebel. I usually have a defensive way to avoid getting hurt like so In the past. But I don’t want to hurt her. For me when I think of a women I’m like they are so precious and beautiful people why would anyone want to hurt a women. And I’m worried any boundaries or things I say will hurt her feelings.
She’s 2 years younger than me (I prefer people much older than me) and has a child. (I’m still a child) and I don’t want her already making fantasies in her head. I have bpd so I’m dependent in the relationship. But ofcourse I don’t mind taking care of her and doing all that romantic stuff but I also have my needs and they were neglected for so long when I was with my ex bf and I had to rely on myself. I’m also very hard on my self and need to achieve a lot.
I like to live a good life. I work so hard for myself that I can provide what I require. And now I’m free I want to live a life I deserve. Especially be with someone who is my desired one. And a big one is money. That they are able to take care of me and provide and have that masculine side to them. I enjoy being taken to restaurants and pampered and everything which is what my ex girlfriend used to do.
Now I meet this girl and she doesn’t have a job but says I will be happy with her and that we can chill at home and eat. And she will make me happy but won’t give me the money aspect. Okay sure for some nights we can stay in but I like to go out and have fun and explore and listen to certain music. But she’s all forcing me and telling me to do what she likes and I’ll have to give up what I want.
I mean I’m lonely now and I do like her and she likes me and we talked about a future relationship. But I don’t know what to do or say regarding how she has her view on life etc and how I’m more fast paced.
I have one side that yes wants it but another side that says I can’t miss out on life anymore. It’s time for me to be loved how I want to and live life how I want to.
Any tips would be gladly appreciated thanks

Hi everyone,
Storytime: My grandpa passed away three years ago, and as a result, my family inherited his estate and his enormous collection of sports cards, mainly baseball cards. When I say massive collection, I don't mean a couple of big boxes. I mean an entire garage filled to the brim with cards from the bottom to the ceiling. Now, the good thing is when it came to his cards, he had them in order and labeled so you knew what year they were from and what sport they were (he had hockey, football, and basketball as well). Though only some sets were in binders, like his 1970s top cards and many others, but I don't know what cards are in the thousands of boxes and how I should take that on. Well, long story short, the house was in bad shape after his passing, and my parents needed to move the cards off-site before they could take on that task. Well, the time is here; the 5 huge storage units are coming back to the house, and someone needs to go through them, like myself. I don't know where to begin or what I should be looking for. I know not all of the cards are worth much, but is there a method to deal with this, or is there a company I can call that can come and actually look at them? I was going to make it a full-time job this summer to go through them before going back to school in August, but I just need some help or ideas on how I should take on this insane task! Any advice is worth it! Hopefully, you guys can help, and I can also send pictures as well!

Francis Sinclair was born in 1898/1906 to parents Tom and Mrs. Sinclair. His father died before he was born, so his mother had to take care of him. When he was younger, he lived in Hawks Eye Cabin outside of Strawberry with his mother. He moved to New York City and lived an affluent life before traveling to the Old West period in the 1920s/1930s.
Francis Sinclair is first met in a cabin outside of Strawberry and tells his story about hunting for rock carvings around the world. He says he will pay a good price for all ten of them, but doesn't say why.
After the player sends him letters pointing out the rock carving locations, Francis invites them back to his cabin, but will be mysteriously absent. In the end of the quest-line, a woman appears in the cabin with a ginger-haired baby named Francis. After the protagonist expresses their confusion about the situation, Francis' mother asks the player for their name, but after finding out that the baby is actually Francis, the astounded protagonist tells her that it's not important and leaves.
Francis Sinclair seems mysterious and talks quickly. He speaks in a strange dialect and uses slang the protagonist doesn't understand.
After finishing the Stranger quest "Geology for Beginners," his notes and drawings are revealed to the player. They suggest that he may be a time traveler. His documents show a figure who jumps between the past, present, and future. Francis was interested in rock carvings that depicted skyscrapers, a big city, an atom, and a nuclear explosion.
—FACTS!
Francis Sinclair has a strong accent that was popular in American culture in the 1920s and 1930s. The fact that he was an infant in 1899–1907 suggests this. Sinclair's Business Card has a picture of an hourglass with wings on it that represents time and travel. He wears a belt and trousers with belt loops, supporting the idea that he traveled through time. Before the 1900s, people only used belts to carry things instead of keeping their pants on. Also, pants with belt loops didn't exist until 1922.
In the game files, the baby model of Francis Sinclair is called "prop_stuntdoll_01". This means that Mrs. Sinclair's voice actress used a fake baby instead of a real one when recording her scenes.
Francis is also similar to Ernest Keigel, a fictional time traveler who stars in the Grand Theft Auto: Vice City Stories radio program The Time Ranger. - Both of them speak with a Transatlantic accent. - Both have a decent understanding of science. - Both are fast talkers. - Both use 1920s and 1930s slang and are thought to have lived within the time period.
This is where Rockstar Games mostlikefully got the inspiration for Francis Sinclair, a person from the 1930s traveling through various time periods.
Francis Sinclair resembles Kraff, one of three false deities worshiped by the Epsilon Program in Grand Theft Auto V. However, the character's portrayal and background contradict every aspect of Epsilonism (red birthmark, prohibited red hair, time travel science (general relativity), contradictory years with Epsilonism's creation and their Young Earth theory, setting in an unrelated universe, etc.), making the possibility of being a reference unlikely and simply a coincidence. Nevertheless, his unique birthmark is never employed for any religious reason; rather, it is designed to serve as a plot device for a more significant revelation during his last on-screen encounter, allowing the player to easily identify him in his "second form."

I posted this to another forum a couple days ago, and a lot of people keep telling me its abuse. I know its not nearly as awful as some of the scenarios here, but I would love some opinions on whats going on. Thank you everyone <3
LINK TO THE ORIGINAL POST: https://www.reddit.com/MMFB/comments/1cs5rhd/i_18m_feel_like_my_girlfriend_18f_is_verbally/
For context, I am in University about 50 miles from where she and my parents live, so I commute every weekend and most weekdays to see her. I love her. Plain and simple, in so many ways. We used to work together until she got a better job recently. Yesterday was her birthday. I made her some cookies common in the continent she's from, and baked them into heart shapes. I also got her 25$ of lottery tickets, flowers, her favorite energy drink, and a handwritten card with a lot of writing and drawings of us and her cat. I dropped it off to her in the morning after an all-nighter (going through it with finals and papers right now) and drove to the University to work my full shift. First she texted me thanking me for the gift, then asked me "what the fuck" those cookies were and that she choked on them. I was sad, told her what they were, and she told me I shouldn't have cooked something as a gift since I'm a bad cook. (I am, but I've made other stuff that she liked in the past). She also complained that the whole point of buying lottery tickets is to buy them, not to scratch them (I disagree?). She texted me that I shouldn't have gotten her anything if it was just going to be low effort.
I saw her later that night after she got out of work, and she was mad at me. She said I ruined her birthday by giving such a low effort gift, and that I didn't care about her. She brought up that I ruined her birthday last year too (by not immediately stopping our text conversation about some other girl and wishing her happy birthday the minute it got past midnight). Anytime I responded that I did put effort into the cookies, she would just deny it. Incredibly frustrating since I know how much effort I put in. She was mad the flowers I got her were not in a boquet, only loose, which didn't make it seem like a special occasion. At the heart of it she was mad that my gifts weren't special? To me the card and cookies were plenty special but she just says that it was stuff I've given her other days. She started calling me ret*rded, to which I responded "You're mean to me and I don't like it". I don't remember much of what she said (I'd had 4 hours of sleep in the past 2 nights), but she doubled down and continued calling me a wide variety of hurtful words, from ret*rded to stupid to childish and immature. I was already long sobbing, and in the middle asked her to just hit me instead. She obviously refused. She asked if I even wanted to go on our trip this upcoming weekend. I responded yes, and she replied that maybe I don't if I don't care about her enough to get her a decent gift.
She's horrifically depressed, and I know she has some specific trauma in response to people not caring about her birthdays. I think that explains part of it. Still, I tried. I am also depressed myself. I've tried bringing it up to her a few times and she responds that I'm "always b*tching too much" because my life is so perfect. Compared to hers its way better, yes, but that doesn't mean I need a reason to be depressed. She's also acted distant the entire Spring semester. I rarely spend time with her, and even more rarely is it time that isn't just "okay we can see each other for 5 minutes but I have to go in". We havent' had sex since January, or cuddling. I very much miss both of these things, and we've had (rare) opportunities for them shes missed because shes too busy sleeping (I'm not allowed in her appartment to join her, mom discovered we had sex).
At the end of being yelled at when she denied me a hug and told me essentially to go away, I had a nervous break. Honestly I've been working too much and I'm overwhelmed with needing to find a new second job and the immense weight of finals and final essays ,things breaking on my car, and now this. I sped off, her and her mom heard my tires squealing and uninvited me from the trip. I drove recklessly for about 2-3 minutes on backroads while scream-crying about killing myself and fighting the urge to drive into a tree. Not proud of it. But I am devastated about missing the trip. She backed out on us living together, and promised we could have time to cuddle on the trip. I honestly don't feel like I have anything to look forward to.
I do a lot for her. I drive two hours round trip every time I want to see her, sometimes even for 5 minutes to drop off some food before going back. I've spent the past academic year working to support our long-standing plans of moving out together (This past weekend was my first time having more than one day off in a row since accompanying her to her surgery in October). I bring her flowers weekly, at work I do all of the hard stuff for her and massage her shoulders if she feels sore. I bring her food from my University and any treats she wants from the surrounding stores. I always ask if she wants anything. I have never said anything hurtful to her. She apologizes when she hurts my feelings too much and she realizes it, like last night. I spend thousands on her, whether jewelry (the most expensive ring she lost), buying her contacts or paying big bills when shes strugglign like drivers' ed or her wheel bearing replacements.
She texted me that shes sorry I'm not going and that she hurt me but I need to control my emotions better. That she loves me so much and regardless of our fights she will always love me so much. I responded that I felt like an unappreciated chore and didnt want to get yelled at. She replied that I'm not a chore she just hasnt had time and has been too depressed to make time for me. We texted a bit and I slept a few hours until my final/work today. She clearly didn't like me defending myself by saying that if i got a present i didnt like i wouldnt call my partner a "worthless ret*rd" by responding "i never called you worthless dont put words in my mouth...i sent you messages apologizing and being worried and your response is victimizing and arguing more...not happy with ruining my birthday? had to go further and ruin the day after?"
We've been texting each other throughout the day happier things. She's been sending me recipes to be a better cook and wants me to see her for 5 minutes after work in about 2 hours from the time of writing. I want to be with her. I love her, I've done so much, I will continue. But I feel like I'm being verbally abused. And I don't know how to stop it. I'm so overwhelmed with everythign in my life and I really just need someone on my side. I think i'll just first establish a rule of not interrupting/yelling and then telling her how hurt and lonely I feel. That I love her and I can totally work with her on managing time for me and depression but that I cannot tolerate verbal abuse.
TLDR: Gave girlfriend cookies for her birthday. She didnt like them and called me a ret*rd. I had a nervous break from other combined stressors, made a scene with reckless driving, got uninvited to a trip with her and her mom. She is texting me recipes and being nice to me today. I will see her in a few hours. I am hurt and overwhelmed with life and just want to be treated like I'm loved.
Thank you readers
EDIT: I would appreciate some more input. I'm so confused and torn. She picked me up today for our talk. I hoped for a long, communicative drive about our relationship and how we can make it better for both of us. She decided we were going to Target and we "might drive around a little" after. It started off wonderful. She said I was mature in a lot of aspects, thanked me for putting up with her, saying she knows its difficult and she appreciates me sticking around with her. It seemed like well-desired clarity for me. I loved it. I thanked her, it validated me. We agreed that we should be there for each other above everything and that communication was important. She gave me the tip of telling her to "think about what you're saying" next time she yells at me and she will stop, and mentioned that we will have a lot more time together when her school ends in "a few weeks". I asked her if she was happy in our relationship and she said absolutely, that if she wasn't she would have already left me (I believe it). She apologized for snapping at me, but said that "if I asked her to cuddle one more time she would" (I've been bringing it up and she keeps telling me when she gets time. Weeks pass, I ask again, she gets mad that she always says the same thing)
We went to Target, and things were good. We talked about other things. She very quickly shifted the conversation. I'd read about avoidant personalities in relationships and brought it up to her in the car that she might be one. She said that stuff was fake and meaningless. I also read that it might be best to approach it with compassion and more "these things make me feel good" as opposed to "this makes me feel bad". She interrupted me and told me to stop because it was annoying me saying "I love you so much". Not what I was going to say. It ended up as another argument, or at least for her. I kept saying that it was important for us to communicate, and that I felt like the problem would come up again if we didn't finish. She said we communicated too much and "why did I have to bring it up" because we moved past it and it ended on a high note and I just had to keep repeating myself and causing an argument and bring it into a negative note. I told her I wasn't arguing she was, and that there was no such thing as "too much" communication for me. For her, she said there was, and that by not shutting up about it I was making little things that she would nitpick and get mad at me for.
I said the lack of communication and connection was stressing me out, she said that I'm always stressed. That she was stressed too, tired with a headache and needing to pack for the trip I was uninvited from. I said maybe we should both go to a psychologist, she replied that she already did and was "fixed" and was waiting on me to finally go.
Since she didn't want to talk about it, I tried to change the subject, but she was silent. Still gave me an "I love you" and told me I'd see her in a week.
Parents are telling me to run away that she's toxic and manipulative. Same with you people here. I deeply appreciate the advice, its just really really hard to think of it this way. I thought I would marry her. I still hope she can change and I can, but it just seems increasingly unlikely. It's heartbreaking, I love so much about her, miss so much about her, and being alone is terrifying. I fear if I did leave as everyone is suggesting I may not find another person like her that I love as much.
My current plan, I'll just focus on myself and kind of "clock out" of the idea that she is the only person I am capable of loving and that she treats me perfectly while still being supportive of her for the next few weeks. I still have some hope that she'll be better in the weeks shes free. I don't know, I'll just focus on my life and put her on the same priority she puts me.

This is a continued discussion for stepwn and maxtherealslayer on the strange Call on May 8th. I’ll let you guys have at it and see what you find in there.

[FINRA CAT] Our first question comes from Ora.
[ORA] Go ahead. Hi, I'd like to follow up on what seemed to be an initial acceptance that we need FDIDs in the outstanding rejects and outstanding material inconsistencies feedback files. What happened to that suggestion?
It looks like it's fallen off any tracking lists or, you know, it's not being mentioned. I'm not so worried to tell you the truth about us doing a wholesale cleanup before May 24, but even with these statistics that are not going down and hovering in the range of 70 or 80 or 90%, it sounds like this could be the underlying reason and the root cause of this struggle by industry members to understand which client, which account you are referring to. My biggest worry actually is just the second part to my question, and that will give you probably a full picture of my concern.
The biggest concern is from May 31st, right? Then you need to adhere to the T+3, 5 p.m. deadline to fix all the issues, right? And I can tell you, I'm just going to disclose this info, right?
So our CAT reporting agent, which is one of the biggest, right, Pershing, literally, they’re not providing submission files to their clients. They plan to introduce this feature in Q3 or Q4. They don't know yet. So how do you expect industry members who have a CAT reporting agent, i.e., Pershing, who does not provide submission files to their clients, to identify the client or account that has a problem? Literally, you're coming back with feedback: here is the submission file, here is the customer record ID, and our CAT reporting agent does not provide submission files.
So we're not psychic, right? How are we supposed to identify which client has a problem? It's absolutely impossible.
If we would have a master list of FDIDs, and you report in your feedback file, here’s an FDID having this issue, we would be able to bypass this restriction by CAT reporting agents not providing submission files. Because right now I can tell you, if Pershing continues with this feature, not to provide submission files, a huge chunk of industry members using them as a reporting agent will be completely blindfolded until they provide such a feature.
So that's my biggest concern from May 31st.
[FINRA CAT] Yes, we know that we've talked about this before. We have looked into it. We're not going to be able to get the FDIDs on these lists prior to that time frame. There’s a lot here in your comments.
[ORA] Just speaking to that, those rates, the 90%, the 75%, those are really on the material inconsistencies. Those are not rejections. Those are material inconsistencies. Where firms are working through, our understanding is that there is a pretty limited handful of firms contributing to that higher rate. So I don't believe that is the issue there. We certainly acknowledge that the FDIDs on these rejections will be helpful, and we have been looking into that, but it's not something that we're going to be able to get out prior to this compliance date.
[FINRA CAT] So what is your advice? Again, Pershing is servicing, I believe, definitely in the high hundreds of clients that they provide the service for. If they're not providing the submission files, what kind of psychic abilities are we supposed to have to identify clients seriously, in order to meet these T+3, 5 p.m. deadlines?
[ORA] It's absolutely impossible and not feasible for us to operate. Do you agree, or do you have some sort of solution to this, or are we supposed to go to court against Pershing? I don't know about other CAT reporting agents, but literally, I'm naming Pershing, and I know that Pershing has hundreds of clients they provide CAT reporting services for, and we’re just one of them.
And they literally, I have it in writing that they're not going to provide us with submission files until potentially Q4. How are we supposed to fix rejects that we cannot identify what exactly they are referring to?
[FINRA CAT] And then, Ora, do you mind just clarifying, is the issue here on the rejects or on the inconsistencies?
[ORA] Both. Rejects, yeah. Definitely rejects are the number one problem, on both clients and FDIDs, so you cannot identify anything. Your feedback file is completely useless, and I can tell you, even from an operational standpoint, we have an investment bank side internal solution, but you still need to go to IT because you're still deleting feedback files if we pick up from a certificate directory. So we have to go to IT to get these submission files, then scan them, oh, here is the client, thank God we found it. But on the wealth management side, where Pershing is our CAT reporting agent, we are getting nothing. So in terms of historical cleanup, we're trying to do wholesale, but it's also hit and miss because we don’t know what we’re dealing with. But from May 31st, we are completely blindfolded, so any new things that are showing up, we have no idea what they're referring to.
How are we supposed to fix that?
[FINRA CAT] Yeah, okay, let us take it back, let us talk a bit internally, and we'll probably be looking to…
[ORA] It's not just us, it's going to be a big chunk of industry members, literally 100% of Pershing’s clients. I'm not sure about other CAT reporting agents, whether they provide submission files or not. But for Pershing’s clients, it's going to be a massive issue. None of them will be able to meet T+3, 5 p.m. because we have no idea what you're complaining about in your feedback files. You see the problem, right?
[FINRA CAT] Yeah, certainly hear the issue.
[ORA] Okay, truly appreciate it, thank you.
[FINRA CAT] Okay, our next question comes from Varun. Go ahead, Varun, you may be muted locally.
[VARUN] Yeah, can you hear me now?
[FINRA CAT] Yes.
[VARUN] Yeah, thanks. I have the same concern that Ora mentioned. Pershing is someone who reports for us and they just said that they’re not going to provide files till Q4. So we are also blinded on that side.
So thanks for addressing that. My second question is, what will happen once I upload all the case records? Will my FDID errors in the CAT portal be repaired on their own, or how will they be fixed?
[FINRA CAT] Sorry, you're asking what will happen once you make your repairs?
[VARUN] No, once I upload all the case record case FDIDs in my CAT portal, what will happen with FDID errors which I have in the CAT portal? Right now I’m getting 100 errors each day. How will they be fixed? Will they repair themselves once I upload all the case records or FDIDs?
[FINRA CAT] Yes, that's correct. If you have the FDID validation errors on the transaction portal, where you're getting the error that says the FDID is not in the case, once you get it reported to the case and it is accepted, and it's valid on the event date, the FDID validation should reconcile.
[VARUN] Okay, perfect. Thanks. That's all from my side.

So there's this boy, he studies w me and last year he started staring at me (AND I MEAN REAL STARING). He has quite a big eyes and his facial expressions are very clear to understand. Once he was doing this thing of staring at me, he had an interesting way of looking at me, but when I talked to my friend (who’s a boy), he changed his face and I could see that he had an angry expression while looking at me, and I’m pretty sure he was mad, bc only a dumbass couldn’t see it. This same friend of mine we were once talking and he stared at me the WHOLE CONVO. Later on, I was talking to my another friend (that’s also a boy) and we were holding hands (we were only joking) but this time he didn’t look at me directly, he looked at my hand and the boy’s, he would always glance at our hands. Also he did that thing of someone saying a funny thing and the first person he looks at it’s me. He also handed me his hat on a presentation, it had at lot of ppl he could hand, but he always handed to me. All this last year, this year I’m having a mindset of not falling for any trap, and decided focusing on my studies. So I decided to stop having eye contact with him, but even tho I stopped he keeps doing it. Unfortunately (bc I would rather not to, so it wouldn’t take my focus) I make eye contact sometimes, but it’s unintentional. And he always does this. Once (this year) I looked at him bc I was gonna look at my back and our eyes met, so I went back for what I was doing and I decided to look purposely bc I knew he would be, at least it was what I thought, a long minutes later (and I mean long minutes later) he was still there. However, he doesn’t make any move, he doesn’t even decide to follow me on Instagram, so how could he be interested in me? It makes no sense. And I do find him attractive, but I can’t get distracted, so I only wanna him to stop doing whatever is that he’s doing. And pls gimme advice, does he likes me or not? And how can I forget him? And how can I make him stop doing that?
OBS: ITS BEEN A YEAR THAT HE STARES AT ME AND WE DIDN'T PROPERLY TALKED, OUR ONLY INTERACTION WAS WHEN HE HANDED ME HIS HAT. NOTHING MORE. BUT AS I SAID HE DOESN'T MAKE ANY MOVE, LITERALLY NOTHING.

I see how your face lights up when I see you.
I see how talkative you get when we watch fun movies.
I see how hard you work to even get up in the morning.
I see how lonely you feel when Im gone.
I see how worried you are for the future.
I see the wrinkles slowly etch into your face.
I see how frail your looking, almost out of the blue.
I see how you forget something everyday.. multiple times a day.
I know one day you wont be here... but I wish I could pause time and stop you from aging.
You are a safe place for me, you always have been.
Your a precious person, mom. I am glad to have you. I will miss you when your gone.
Please dont leave..
I love your smile. Im happy to take care of you.
You know those times when I am staying with you and I randomly come over and give you a big hug? Its because I miss you, even though your in the next room. I know our time is fleeting, I want to stop it, I dont want you to die, but if you must.. then i want you to die knowing I love you. I havent been the best kid, Ive been horrible sometimes..
I am doing my best to make it up to you.
even when I was a kid I was worried about you dying in your sleep... I would always check on you multiple times a night, I couldnt sleep until I knew you were breathing.. I sound like a parent huh..
I think about things like "what if a fire happened, how would I get her out of the house?" because im weak and i wouldnt be able to wheel your chair down the steps.. and what if it happens when im away.. it would be devastating.
As a kid I would imagine the day when you died... and think about how I would react, In the scenario I always went insane. I would sit by your bed screaming, crying, sometimes i would shaking you violently trying to make you awake. Sometimes I would try to force myself to die with you. I dont want you to die.
Even now i think of about that...
what if one day i come in and find you..
what if Im sleeping and you call me and tell me you know your going to die..
what if when im staying over i awake and i get up to get some water, but walking by i notice your nearly dead... I would run over and call 911 and beg you to stay awake... i may begin to cry.. but eventually ill realize that whatever happens, happens, and i cant stop it.. and i dont want to scare you.. So I would hug you and tell you that its okay, that you will be okay, and that im here for you, and the ambulance will arrive soon.
I wont let you go.
I hope none of these things happen.
I want to feel like your still alive and with me when you do die.... So i will keep a note you make for me, and when i miss you.. ill open it.. and i will feel those words.
I love you mom. Please.. dont die yet. Just stay.

Am I safe? - start up, equity, onboarding docs
Hey all, I’m in an unusual situation and want to make sure I know what I am getting into.
For the sake of this post and protecting the company - all names and information has been changed.
Recently I connected with a good friend and past business partner Jake. He told me about a connection he made a few years ago named Evan.
Evan is a 25-29 y/o $100+ millionaire who has struck big on investing and another more informal business.
Jake mentioned to me that Evan had given him access to his consumer faced software product. This product (TuTu) is a high ticket ($20,000+) software solution faced towards consumers.
Long story short - Jake and I have been able to be proactive and help out Evan because we saw a lot of holes in what was happening, but saw an amazing product.
I have now found out that TuTu (small company owning the software) is owned by a larger company that Evan owns a large portion of. Evan is also the CEO and majority owner in TuTu.
TuTu has about 10 workers full time who manage corporate accounts. evan came to Jake and I because he wanted the create a separate arm of TuTu that will push this to retail and offered us equity.
A lot of stuff doesn’t add up
It feels like he does not want to tap into the other side of the company at all, but wants Jake and I to start a side entity with the same name. Today I drafted an NDA on behalf of TuTu for Evan to send to Jake and I. We are creating accounting systems (most likely bank accounts), onboarding and documentation under a company name that I don’t have an agreement (other than nda) with. In order to get onboarded, I will need to create the onboarding forms and get them ready for Evan to sign.
Also, TuTu has 27 retail users. But Evan told me the other day that they don’t have a payment processor so I don’t know how they paid, he also told me that we need to draft a contract agreement so I don’t know what we’re liable for. I believe there has been some mis-marketing as well. I’m worried about taxes and liability here obviously.
This product is one of the best I’ve seen and it could be industry changing. The goal is to move Evan to the investor spot and have Jake and I take over the company operations. I have a lot of experience in the industry.
Evan IS NOT a guy with bad intentions, he’s ignorant to the industry and he’s young and ran to quickly. I am coming here to understand how serious of issues these may be and to see what actions I need to take. Evan is ignorant to the possible implications of all this. Evan has a lot of funding that he has been hesitant to use and I need to know what information I need to show him so he can understand the magnitude of this and open up his pockets to attack these issues.
Also - curious what could and couldn’t bite my ass if I took equity having said all that.

Hi everyone,
Storytime: My grandpa passed away three years ago, and as a result, my family inherited his estate and his enormous collection of sports cards, mainly baseball cards. When I say massive collection, I don't mean a couple of big boxes. I mean an entire garage filled to the brim with cards from the bottom to the ceiling. Now, the good thing is when it came to his cards, he had them in order and labeled so you knew what year they were from and what sport they were (he had hockey, football, and basketball as well). Though only some sets were in binders, like his 1970s top cards and many others, but I don't know what cards are in the thousands of boxes and how I should take that on. Well, long story short, the house was in bad shape after his passing, and my parents needed to move the cards off-site before they could take on that task. Well, the time is here; the 5 huge storage units are coming back to the house, and someone needs to go through them, like myself. I don't know where to begin or what I should be looking for. I know not all of the cards are worth much, but is there a method to deal with this, or is there a company I can call that can come and actually look at them? I was going to make it a full-time job this summer to go through them before going back to school in August, but I just need some help or ideas on how I should take on this insane task! Any advice is worth it! Hopefully, you guys can help, and I can also send pictures as well!

For years, my approach to connecting with others used to be calculated and premeditated. This is because I did not have the tools to approach social situations spontaneously. I felt awkward about myself and grew up among judgmental caregivers who did little if any proper modeling.
The thing with overthinking and overpreparing for social interactions is that living life can feel forced. I spend much time being guarded and defensive, as opposed to just letting go and allowing myself enjoy being in relationship to others.
It pays to be prepared for an eventuality until it stifles how we really want to connect with people - when we feel like that we may have reached a point where we can achieve a healthy balance.
In the movie “What About Bob?” Bill Murray’s character learns a good technique to get over anxiety - with baby steps and impersonation. LeBron James talked about something similar when he needed to make a big career decision: self-talk. In other words, now I talk to myself in the third person to get me to do something. The hardest part is remembering this in the moment.
Another thing that I do is getting to know myself and the triggers that make me want to avoid people. Suffering from complex PTSD myself, it’s a bit of a journey but it does help me be more selective in which people I want to connect with for the right reasons, and when it is perfectly OK to avoid interacting.
What is your experience?

To start, big brother’s name is Corbin & we were thinking of “hard C” or K sounding names to start with…. and then I fell in love with the name “Quinn.” I love that it sounds the same without starting with the letter C/K ….however, there’s a problem: dad’s last name is also one syllable (Knorr) & its been rather difficult coming up a suitable middle name to make it flow better together. 😭
Option #2 was to ditch Quinn & I have a few “alternates” that do start w/ a C/K, but I wanted to see if anyone else could help with Quinn before I admit defeat. (Ha ha!)
There is also an option #3:
Florence Quinn Knorr
So then with Quinn as her middle name, this would be the name she “goes by” instead of Florence.… and I know that’s not completely uncommon for people to do, but Im on the fence about it since it makes it “complicated” for when she gets older & has to correct people by saying “actually, I go by Quinn…” Im mainly considering the name “Florence” because it would be honoring a family member & so I kinda feel like it would be worth the effort!
Thoughts?

I've known my housemate for over ten years but this is only our second year of living together. She was one of my best mates but the living situation has ruined the friendship and I just don't know what to do.
She is absolutely filthy and so unhygenic. She never toilet trained her two small dogs and they go to the toilet all over the house. I adore them, I've known them their entire lives and they actually sleep with me at night time (possibly because my room is clean.)
I've done my part of managing the toilet situation but if she's home alone which is most evenings and weekends, she forgets to take them out and will leave the mess on the floor for hours, sometimes even days. Nothing gets put in the bin, her bedroom looks like a crack den, she's thrown so much of my dinnerware and Tupperware in the bin because it gets left in her room/car and she can't be bothered to clean it. Nothing gets replaced and she gets to the point of breakdown about her finances if I even try to softly ask about something
I spent a year cleaning up after her and building up so much anger and frustration inside. I used to try and gently ask for help but she is the most reactive and emotional human I've ever encountered. I always try to remain calm to avoid escalation but I always think to myself it's like having a teenage daughter... screaming, doors slamming, defensiveness and personal attacks.
You're probably thinking why do I even bother... but the dogs feel like my own, she feels like my little sister, we're both in our 30s and single so I can't afford to rent on my own and I'm past the stage of wanting to live with strangers. I live overseas so don't have a family home to retreat to and her hometown is an 8 hour drive so I have guilt of leaving her on her own.
We recently had a friend move in who works away but comes home on the weekends. I thought the presence of someone she isn't as comfortable with would maybe help things improve. She really cares how other people portray her so there was a good patch for a few weeks but now it's back to normal. Now I have my friend complaining to me which is causing me even more stress. The lack of accountability astounds me because I know she is self-aware but all I get it abuse, false promises, and mountains upon mountains of poop.
I am renting my dream house but we are both on the lease. A couple months before we resigned the lease, I actually said I didn't think we should live together anymore after a few intense situations. After being verbally abused, I did get a big apology a few days later. She said she knows how lazy she's been, and she will go above and beyond to keep the house clean and control her aggression. She's not been feeling great etc. Didn't last very long... it's a constant battle.
I know she communicates the way she does due to her tumultuous upbringing and I relate to her anxiety issues as it's something I've dealt with my entire life but there's comes a point where you need to start making decisions to help yourself.
I really don't know what to do or how else to approach the situation.