So, my fiance ( M, 22) and I ( F, 21 ) have been engaged for a little more than a year now. It’s been a rocky road, I just had a baby about 3 months ago and even before the baby was born our sex life has been ridiculous.
For example; I wouldn’t be satisfied, it would slip and hurt me vv badly to the point I would cry, I would be turned off, he would go soft, etc., etc. It’s just a never ending circle of failing. At first maybe around 6-7 months ago, he would go limp and we would both would laugh it off. Later on, I would over think and try to top up my game by taking a shower, brushing my teeth, deodorant all the hygienic stuff right before we went to bed or right before I knew he would wake up (usually our private time). But that wasn’t working either, it made me feel like I wasn’t attractive anymore and we sat down and talked about it. He said that he would just be stressed. So, I tried to make it a little calmer and tried talking to him about things every 2 days so he could get things off his mind and try to relieve the stress, didn’t work. I asked him what positions work for him and what turns him on the most but nothing worked, I felt like even when I’m trying to risk my satisfaction for him it didn’t matter because he wasn’t being satisfied. (I’m not including oral, that area is perfectly fine.) He says that he doesn’t really have any fantasies or things that he wants to try, no matter how much I ask him. I’ve told him that vanilla is wonderful and I would like to do it that way and he would agree until we start getting to it and it’s almost like he never heard me in the first place, even if it was rough I’ve told him what I like but it NEVER happens or happenED.
I’m not sure what to do at this point in time anymore. Some days it’s okay for him, maybe once every week maybe more? but I’m still not getting any satisfaction from anything we’ve been doing. I don’t even thing I’ve got the full sunshine and rainbows since we’ve been together, I would lie about it. I mean it feels good but at the end of it all I’m either hot and sweating or throbbing from overstimulation and not being able to relieve any built up activity.
I have no idea what to do about this at all, I love him. We’ve have some rocky times since the baby but I feel like things have gotten a lot better for us emotionally and mentally since the past two months. I just want us to be able to get through whatever we are going through with our sex life because I mean it’s not like this is a new problem for me. This might sound ridiculous but I started the free month trial for the brand Blew chew (which in my knowledge is chewable viagra) he’s been talking about viagra for the passed 2 weeks so I figured I would surprise him with it? I know we already discussed we don’t want an open relationship, we want to stay together and have had a moment in time where we almost separated due to mental and emotional bumps but we’ve smoothed out the bumps in those areas and we are so happy together when it comes to loving each other and loving our 2 kids. We have so much fun with the kids and just by ourselves, but when it comes to both of us in the bedroom I don’t know what to do.
If anyone might have any advice please let me know! Thank you!

Does anyone have the same conflicting feelings towards their alcoholic parent who technically "hasn't done anything wrong"?
They are not abusive drunks, they don't hit or yell at people, they still do things like cook, some chores, be somewhat functioning, etc.
But yet there is still a lot of pent up anger and hate towards them that you kinda feel bad about it. Sometimes I see things or news about spending time with your loved ones when you can because you don't know when they'll be gone, and I'm just kinda torn between feeling bad about it, yet also remembering the frustration each time I try to be in the same room as them and seeing what they do or say.
In some way it feels like I should not be angry towards someone who actually took care and provided for me since young, idk. It feels like I'm being ungrateful.

It was said. There is no going back now. The damage was done. All the promises made. The time spent in each others arms. The late night movies, the good morning calls. All of it. Gone. The words can’t be unsaid. The hurt can’t be unfelt. The wound can’t be sewn. You were my everything. I would have gone through so much hurt to shield you from the pain that was right in front of you. I did. But the words are out now. I tried so hard for so long to pretend it didn’t hurt. I tried to pretend like it wasn’t eating away at me inside. I wanted you but there was no you without her. The life I was waiting for was nothing but a fairy tale, told to a child who didn’t understand how she could love someone so intensely and it still not be enough. Kids grow up on Disney movies. That’s the first view into “true love” they have. There are hard times but in the end everything works out for love. For true love. Disney fucking lied. And this is no fairy tale. Reality isn’t so pretty and it isn’t wrapped up in a nice little bow. He was Prince Charming. He was intelligent, gorgeous, and the perfect gentleman. He cared about you, was there for you, loved you. He was everything you had ever hoped for. He was perfect. But here’s the part Disney doesn’t show you. He got comfortable. He stopped trying as hard. As time went on and things became tougher, he wasn’t your Prince Charming anymore. He doesn’t show you the same care. The same interest. The same intensity of love and longing and passion. The late night movies stop. The good morning calls stop. The fire he once had in his eyes for you stop. Life has beaten him down and down and down until he had no fight left to give. A piece of him died. And it took the best piece of you with it. Broken, depressed, scared, sad, confused, on how something so beautiful could cut so god damn deep. But he’s not all gone. That love remains. The embers are still there. A glimpse of who he was, who you were, who they were. Just enough to hold on. Hold on and pray that those days would come back. That one day you would open your eyes and he was there. Just as loving. Just as caring. Just as perfect as he once was. Your Prince Charming had come home. But this isn’t a fairy tale. Those pieces are gone and that little girl is devastated. Crying on the floor left wondering why, WHY? Why? But there’s no going back now. The damage is done. The fighting has stopped. It’s over. It’s really over. He’s gone.

I'm tired of seeing anime shows that don't get completed and then I have to read the manga to continue incredible stories only to end up not being able to because of some stupid thing. It's either they are dying of some disease or just don't feel like working. Its only these two options. And when they do make a single chapter its like a whole novel and poof they are gone for a whole another year.
Holy shit just your job and finish your story like a no wonder you guys don't get paid enough. You guys can't even do your job. I swear to God I see a manga and beg to God asking the lord that this dude isn't dying of terminal brain cancer stage 4 or isn't being a lazy basturd who needs his "mental break".
Such cringe when people say these guys work long hard grueling hours meanwhile a industry called labor exist. I dont see them complaning about the hours and labor they have to put in and they certainly arnt dying of a disease or become lazy in their job. These guys are just drawing not throwing their back away. Buddy all your doing is sitting on the chair and using your hand so why complain?
Too bad nothing is going to change though and I'll have to wait until I'm in my 40s for these guys to even attempt to finish their manga. Probably be dead from something by the time I hit my 40s.

I really don’t know what and what not to say because I usually keep these kinds of feelings in, but I need to let it out somewhere. The last 11 months have been absolute shit. It started last June when I got laid off from my job. I haven’t been able to find a job with my degree since and I’m working a shitty night job I worked a few years back to cover my bills while I look for a job with my degree.
In October, my ex broke up with me the day after my birthday after almost four years together. It was LDR which made things more complicated and it didn’t hurt at first, but I accepted it. Talking to one of my friends, those feelings I probably should’ve felt then came around not too long ago and it just kills me inside.
Now, it’s been 11 months since losing that job and 7 months since the breakup. I just feel hopeless. Like at 26, I expected so much more out of life and that I would be happy. Instead, I constantly feel shitty and alone. I can’t find a job with my degree still, I’m watching others my age succeed and be happy and find love and I just wish I could end it all because I’ve failed at life, but I know I can’t do because I’d hurt family and those closest to me.

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Hi besties,
The priority housing accommodation for transfers is due today, and my therapist wrote a letter but I feel like it's too graphic and informative. For background I have PTSD, OCD and panic disorder after my experience with SA and stalking of an older gentlemen. A lot of the abuse would take place in a restroom, and because of that I would strongly prefer a private bathroom. I am undergoing a current police investigation which she also revealed, which I thought was unnecessary. I want to go back to her and ask her to take some things out, but then I would miss the deadline. Is it even worth applying, does anybody have experience getting a private restroom? I think she made it seem like I'm a lot more OCD than I am, I just lock the restroom door a few times and just panic that someones gonna come in. But it would give me a lot of peace of mind to have a private restroom or at least a semi private restroom.
Additionally I'm coming to terms that I have to cope with a communal restroom so I have a few questions. Are they like private in regards to one person uses it at a time, or can someone just walk in at any time? Is it viable for someone to photograph you while you're in the restroom? Has there been instances on campus of people getting photographed? How many people do you share the restroom with? When it comes to access to your like dorm or apartment, can anyone just get in or is there a security process.
Also how do you have a stalking conversation with a potential roommate, just want everyone to feel safe but not like deceive anyone. My stalker once through a rock through my window, and harassed my old roommates and I just feel it's unfair to put anybody in that situation.
I truly think the letter makes me out to be a crazy person who just has a lot of baggage, and I would prefer not to reveal that. How much of a disadvantage are you at if you submit the application after the deadline?
Ok love you all, will delete this later <3

i’ve typed and posted so many times on here and i’m exhausted.. me and my bf have been tg almost 4 years, he’s my person and who i envision life with.. but im also really insecure and overthink and constantly think he is falling out of love with me and wanting someone else and that is better but then it’ll flip and he’ll give me this look like i know he is in love with me and everything i was thinking couldn’t possibly be true.. my feelings are so overwhelming idk what to do about it..and i usually want to type paragraphs and talk ab the shit every week but he’ll get mad and be like it’s every fucking week. he’ll say things like apparently you’re the one not in love with me bc you’re always complaining.. and it’s just heartbreaking i feel like i’m losing me. idrk know what to do atp.. i know he wouldn’t cheat on me, we have a good connection but lately we’ve been fighting and it’s bc of me, im more angry and get heated quicker. i always want to start an argument but it’s because im hurting and overthinking, it’s not bc im unhappy with him.. he isn’t vocal ab his feelings, he’s never really talked about his emotions, he’s never been that kind of guy this whole time but i feel like i need that from him.. idk what to do.. i can’t change him.. that’s not right.. he’s never really told me verbally like hey i want you and you’re what i want.. he is always telling me i should just know.. but for me that feels impossible.. i just wish he’d understand and was all over me.. i don’t know what the issue is.. is it me.

PS5 here,
So the thing is I want to replay a game (Mass Effect Legendary) without having to restart it in my primary account so my friend told me to 'create' another account on my console and let my primary account invite it as a family member so I can share my PS Plus games with the new account. But after I've been playing few hours of the game on the new account and had to go to sleep so when I was gonna shut down/log off from my PS5 it says “Your Data Will Be Deleted From This Console When You Log Out” and I was so confused what to do?
I did some research but don't get any answer so far of what I could do, I saved the save on my usb but I'm not sure if I'll be able to open that save and not sure about the future if the save will be multiple and too heavy to transfer to the usb. Some on Reddit said that it might be because I'm using a 'guest' account but I'm sure it's not a guest account, it's a sub family account which is under my primary account.
Do you know what should I do? I just want to be able to play and save game peacefully. Or if it doesn't allow anymore so I'll acknowledge.

hi, i previously made a thread a few days ago about my first driving lesson, so click on my profile to read it there if you're interested!
i'm attempting to go forward with the lessons as anxious as i am, but to be honest, i don't know how else i can prepare other than just winging whatever happens on the day. i'm one of those people who can read hours and hours worth of highway code, but once i'm on the road, i forget literally everything, my mind is blank and it's as if i've never studied before. i know they say you get used to it once you do it so many times, but i'm scared of being 'too slow to learn' and my instructor getting impatient despite me ending up paying her more in the long run from it... lol
i feel like there's basic things to remember such as the checklist before you turn your car on and drive, but i can't even remember the order of something as basic as that. seat, belt, mirrors and then something else? there's so much to cram in and it's overwhelming so i'm just trying to take things in baby steps, but so far the steps my instructor has given me have been larger than expected. what should i definitely know by now, and what can i try and really brush up on before i start my second lesson?
also, for UK people (cus idk if it's a worldwide thing), when do i take my theory test? my dad tells me i should look into it really soon but it seems quite early...

I did not want to make this post but I've seen enough shit around it.
Lot's of women do not understand what's wrong with the "bear vs man" debate. Or why is it offensive saying "I choose the bear".
Let's change the statement a little
If you're going to be alone in a forest with either a Bear or a BLACK man, whom would you choose?
If you say bear you're basically saying "I would rather choose to be alone with a bear than a black man because black men are dangerous, they might molest me, rape me, and do horrible things. The bear would just kill me."
Do you see how racist that sounds? How discriminatory? You're basically calling an entire group of people rapists. Most men are not rapists. If I meet a woman alone in the woods, I would help her. If it's a safe area I'll just leave her alone. Most men are like this, people in this subreddit can confirm.
If you're having trouble imagining a man helping a woman, think of your male friends, your father, your brothers, your teacher, your boyfriend. Do you think that the first thing they do when they see a woman in the woods is rape her?
No, right? They will most likely either help her if she's in danger or leave her alone.
It is not a pleasant feeling to be called a rapist. And it is tiring to keep saying "not all men".

Context: I (23F) live with my sister (21F) in a city about four hours away from our parental home. We’re 18 months apart and always had phases in our childhood of being at each others necks, I know I’m partly to blame but recently I’ve been feeling different and want perspective.
(Last bit of context: I’ve lived out of home now nearly 5 years with many different roommates and she’s only had 2 years with only me)
So a big catalyst I believe is that in Jan of 2023 I got a boyfriend. He is the absolute love of my life. He’s also partly responsible for my maturity in how I see chores and things around the house. I have adhd and really struggled with keeping a clean and tidy area but I found being around someone who can easily do those chores clicked something in my brain, that they’re not these massive things to overcome, it’s simply the dishes, or the laundry.
All this to say I’ve been really trying to upkeep the apartment and one of the big fights my sister and I keep having is about the cleanliness of the unit. She won’t clean up after herself, her things are everywhere all the time and it seems that I’m going crazy picking things up. And when I go to her trying to get a chore list or something similar together, she’s not interested at all. So I’m at the point now just exhausted.
She’s so angry, the way she speaks to people is not nice at all, even her friends, she won’t apologise, doesn’t take initiative, has no empathy, and part of me just thinks of how big of an awakening she’ll get when she lives with other people.
I need help reaching her and I’ve tried literally everything, I’m this close to letting everything go. I’m always the level headed one in arguments, apologising for what I’ve done, speaking in a clear and direct way making it about the facts and not poking her, and I don’t get that respect back.
This is also to add that she’ll hardly do anything just out of kindness. But I have to be there at her beck and call because I have a car. She has poor spending habits, poor work ethic and I’m starting to form contempt, I’m literally at the point of asking advice from randoms on the internet.
So please help me talk to her in a way that’ll be able to get through to her.

It was said. There is no going back now. The damage was done. All the promises made. The time spent in each others arms. The late night movies, the good morning calls. All of it. Gone. The words can’t be unsaid. The hurt can’t be unfelt. The wound can’t be sewn. You were my everything. I would have gone through so much hurt to shield you from the pain that was right in front of you. I did. But the words are out now. I tried so hard for so long to pretend it didn’t hurt. I tried to pretend like it wasn’t eating away at me inside. I wanted you but there was no you without her. The life I was waiting for was nothing but a fairy tale, told to a child who didn’t understand how she could love someone so intensely and it still not be enough. Kids grow up on Disney movies. That’s the first view into “true love” they have. There are hard times but in the end everything works out for love. For true love. Disney fucking lied. And this is no fairy tale. Reality isn’t so pretty and it isn’t wrapped up in a nice little bow. He was Prince Charming. He was intelligent, gorgeous, and the perfect gentleman. He cared about you, was there for you, loved you. He was everything you had ever hoped for. He was perfect. But here’s the part Disney doesn’t show you. He got comfortable. He stopped trying as hard. As time went on and things became tougher, he wasn’t your Prince Charming anymore. He doesn’t show you the same care. The same interest. The same intensity of love and longing and passion. The late night movies stop. The good morning calls stop. The fire he once had in his eyes for you stop. Life has beaten him down and down and down until he had no fight left to give. A piece of him died. And it took the best piece of you with it. Broken, depressed, scared, sad, confused, on how something so beautiful could cut so god damn deep. But he’s not all gone. That love remains. The embers are still there. A glimpse of who he was, who you were, who they were. Just enough to hold on. Hold on and pray that those days would come back. That one day you would open your eyes and he was there. Just as loving. Just as caring. Just as perfect as he once was. Your Prince Charming had come home. But this isn’t a fairy tale. Those pieces are gone and that little girl is devastated. Crying on the floor left wondering why, WHY? Why? But there’s no going back now. The damage is done. The fighting has stopped. It’s over. It’s really over. He’s gone.

tldr i dont think we’re going to get info about the beef from the riddler that isnt on their own time, chris alvarez is either a brick wall for now or more likely a red herring. i think kendrick has been hinting at knowing shit about drake for the past 12 years (1,2,3,4,5 + 5 = k’s albums and 5 diss tracks), and thiiirdperson from tiktok put me on to a bunch of codes you can spot throughout k’s discography, anyone want to discuss? long explanation below w an example from thiiird’s analysis. he has over 100 beef-related videks but also just started a free pod through patreon, its like 90 min iirc
im following the riddler stuff and yes, they had the items from the 6:16/mtg album art, but theyre largely just looking to capitalize on this situation bc drake blocked their bag by reporting the jewelry stolen. But most of this stuff, like with Chris Alvarez, sounds like a brick wall for now or even more likely, a complete red herring to stir up interest in riddler’s account.
most of the “a ha” moments ive had (still bringing up more questions of course) have been from watching thiiird person on tiktok and youtube and listening to and analyzing kendrick’s back catalog and the disses we have so far.
i’m not someone who likes to just accept shit bc people say so, but from the general consensus that theres been buzz for years about drake being involved with grooming minors, being involved in x’s death, and being a culture vulture, and i agree. with kendrick’s track record, im prone to take what k claims in a rap beef way more seriously than the average person. k came right out and said youre a pedophile, theres people in the industry covering up sketchy shit etc. but kendrick hasnt interacted with the riddler account visibly since the beef, he’s kept it all on wax. if kendrick has information in a rabbit hole for us, imo it’s most likely in the music
thiiird’s theory is basically that despite kendrick saying “i hate the way you sneak diss when i catch flight its gonna be direct” that k saw something 12 years ago involving the fucked up things drake’s involved in, and was so horrified and disgusted but somehow disempowered to do anything directly about it, he promised himself to take down drake somehow. so now under the layers of meaning the lyrics already had, thiiird’s finding a million disses to drake and references to possibly having him under investigation for the past several years.
there’s a bunch of repetition that you can hear throughout k’s work when you look for the right things. one that sticks in my head is “what is it, the braids?” which thiiird connects to the video game braid, where the player has to reverse time in the end to realize the protagonist trying to rescue the princess is actually the monster shes trying to escape from. the reversed wiz sample at the beginning of euphoria, and then how damn is supposed to be listened to in reverse too, indicates to me that i could go back and listen to his catalog with a fresh lens in reverse chronological order and pick up more.
and theres so. much. more. B’s, M’s, and 13s. beauty and the beast and frozen. stars and constellations. theres over 100 videos on his tiktok about this since the beef started, but the first ep of their pod is like, 90 min with a decent overview. it could genuinely just be that thiiirds autism/adhd (not a dig, he talks about it) and my adhd are hooking onto the same shit bc i just already believe drake is a freak without a kendrick lamar double life subplot. i feel kinda nuts but since we’re posting “crazy” shit on the sub. why not?

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I have appalling neigbours. They are 2 polish people. They came to Australia posing as a couple. Hes 59 shes 50. She also had a daughter from another man, and they had 1 son together. He is never happy, always miserable. Shes the same. So, when tbey first moved in. They were okay.. Well, they were nice to us. So, When he first moved in. She asked if I wanted to go over to gt to know them. I was like okay, sure. I took around a bottle of wine as a gift. And everything was fine. After the guy had a couple drinks. He started acting passive agressive. And soon I found out, that he was in fact a full blown alcoholic. Now, i didnt find that out right away. But,, only, days later. She approached me and said, thanks for the wine. But can you please not buy him any alcohol,? I said oh.. sorry, my bad. Why is he bad on it? She looked at me and said yeah, he hits me. And I cant handle him when hes drunk, he gets all agressive. And acts silly. I apolagised and, with that. I decided to just keep my distance from them. Some tine passed, I was very generous toward them. Even at christmas, they had told me they love football, and tokd ne their favirite football team, so at christmas I bought them a scarf each. She was so thankful she returned the favor with chocolates. Things were fine. Buy, It was clear from the more occuring arguments they were having more issues at home than they made out. As mentioned above, They also had a daughter. She wouod scream all the tine every day at around dinner tine "DONT TOUCH ME" STOP!! She woukd yell. Everyday, it was awful eventually 1 day I heard her crying, "stop touching me" she said sobbingly. I knocked on the door. No answer. I knew they had a problem, but, I didnt kmow it was this bad. He was the 1 with the main issue. Always abusing them. I knew he was probably molesting the daughter. And hitting his partner. Fast forward to about 1 year ago. At thos point. I know for a fact he is an alcoholic. He quit/lost his job. Stopped going to work. She started going and staying out all day. The daughter moved out, And, slowly, he has gotten worse. So, About 6 months ago. He got really angry, mainly because we stopped talking to them. He expressed his anger, but he was hitting her again now . We just ignored it. So, he started yelling anytime we were outside.me, My elderly mother, an amazon delivery, its gotten really bad now. just last week, traffic on our street was banked up, a car tooted thier horn. "SHUT THE F UP!!" He yelled. He must have thought it was us. Again, I even have him screaming on camera, and you can clearly see there was a car eho cut off another out in the street. We would have visitors pull up for holidays etc. Oh f this f that he would shout in polish. Keep in mind, hes screaming around my 80 year old mother ll, our other neigbour whos elderly, the kids behind them. Its like really bad. Now, she has begun wearing sunglasses all the time. The other day while checking the mail, i saw her he really must have hit her hard cos she had a black eye. So, after I left to go out. He walked over to my mother while she was in her garden. And he started dribbling nonsense. And said something to the effect of you stay there, never come to my siide. My mother said I never in my life have come there. Can you just leave me alone? And the whole thing was caught on my survielance camera. Which by the way, I had to get because of him. He was quite aggressive, and my mother being elderly and a survivor of Domestic Violence herself, she git scared and had to go inside. She said, I cant go out there.. keep in mind my mothers garden is her peaceful, safe place.. She doesnt need that. I was LIVID watching this playback too. Cos he waited for me to leave. Soon as I left, he siezed the opportunity like a true coward. But recently things got worse.. his 'partner' who was being abused, has trued to divert his behaviour toward us. She has told him to make noise while we sleep. I know this as I captured her saying it after getting in the car, in english. She said slam the door harder wake them up. Then when they reversed. He yelled like a high schooler some jobberish in our direction. We werent even outside. But NOW, He has now started banging on our fence really loud at 530am every single day. He also dumps the alcohol containers in the recycle bin at the same time. For a while. I could ignore it. I am the son if a veteren. However, My nerves are pretty bad, and i suffer anxiety as my dad was exposed to a nerve agent called agent orange or something. But really, Im really suffering here now. And, I did have cancer. I had to endure all this during my treatment. severe health issues like this need rest and less stress. I have other issues that prevent me from stopping him if things got physical, not to mention hes bigger than me. And I am not the violent type.. and, He is far too unpredictable. So. Can someone please help me? I am worried he will upset my mother to the ppint of a heart attack. Or me. Im a peaceful guy. I never retaliate, i am also a believer in karma. My mother has a bad heart. And heart problems runs in our family. My anxiety was so bad once, i couldnt sleep for 17 days. I swear it was hell on earth. It nearly drove me crazy, literally. But I really need someones advice. I cannot afford to move. If i had $ id move 100%. But I cant even afford to rent somewhere else. And get away from here. I also am a cancer survivor. Id really like to take my drs orders and remIn stress free. But its extrenely hard. If anyone out there has a sollution. I would be indebted to you forever. I just want him to stop.

Just wanted to voice to someone (or somewhere) that i miss my ex but I feel like he and I should really just be done forever or at least until we can learn to communicate and control our own actions better.. When we are reunited once again (which is on a weekly basis we separate and return) we constantly fight like on a nightly basis these days…oftentimes resulting in us both becoming extremely emotional and not being able to control ourselves and things become physical .. he knows how to push the boundaries with me and at times it feels like he wants to push me to becoming physical. ( I’m usually the one who loses it first).. he doesn’t just stand there of course he fights back and things are said, words that can’t be taken back things broken that can never be repaired, feelings and memories of the worst times in both our lives i do know this as a fact.. we are oil and water.. but when we arent emulsifying (not sure if thats a proper verb in this context) with one another we are the best of friends. Harmoniously giving and taking from each other, yin and yang type feels. But in an instant like a timer has been placed on us we switch and are back to being the volatile mixture we both dread..
I just don’t get why, how, and what is going on.. but the worst thing about it all is when we’re apart I feel like the hugest part of my happiness is absent.. i feel extremely alone and never could i find a replacement for him.. i just wish with all my might that we could work for longer than a week- hell at this point longer than 24 hours before turning friends into foes.
This is by far the most complicated relationship I’ve ever been in, the most emotionally difficult and frankly draining situation I’ve ever had to deal with with the most split I’ve ever felt: because one large part of me knows what we need to do, and the other even larger part of me (the fighter, the never-give-up side) is firmly committed to making this work. I feel like we both have so much to realize before it ever could even begin to work properly.. not to mention all the family, on lookers, and naysayers who are judging from the sidelines saying let go, give in, move on, other people out there…
Idk I just wanted to vent and secretly I hope he might see this so he could know where my mind/heart is at while we are in another non communication spell.. don’t know if this is it or if we’ll be in each others bed by tomorrow night but if you made it this far thank you for reading my personal plight and please send good vibes my way for the best possible outcome…be it if it’s painful or not.. i just want happiness and peace for both of us in the end because we both deserve it.. and our unborn child deserves happiness and the most saf, loving environment to be able to thrive in as well… thanks goodnight Reddit.

Alot of people including me, thought that when we were weak, we needed things to be easy, just magically change or find a wife when we walk out the door, or just magically get better.
i have learned that life isn’t that way, weakness needs to break, not be nurtured, give a weak man some rest, thats good, keep giving him that same life and he will never evolve, all of you now have a method to shatter that self, in you, YES YOU, there is a good muslim side, but there is also a perverted side that loves this dunya and what it has to offer of corruption, if your two sides are fighting, I recommend a quick and painful torture also called cold showers, even navy seals suffer in it, the toughest of the tough.
you can be a man today and start, i did one a few days ago, but today i didn’t feel like it, but THATS when i knew i need to do it forcefully now, i need to be a productive man that has an active mind, not a sluggish bum that can barely move, i recommend starting with cool water to get prepared and stay there for a minute, then turn it up really cold to where it’s uncomfortable, REMEMBER it has to feel uncomfortable, you have to drive out that sick side of you forcefully, close your eyes and let your bad life break with it, stay there for 3 or 5 minutes, 11 minutes per week i heard is best.
Im new to this tho i did do before but not consistently, if any brothers have more experience please enlighten us so we can benefit from your knowledgeable. Salam.

It was said. There is no going back now. The damage was done. All the promises made. The time spent in each others arms. The late night movies, the good morning calls. All of it. Gone. The words can’t be unsaid. The hurt can’t be unfelt. The wound can’t be sewn. You were my everything. I would have gone through so much hurt to shield you from the pain that was right in front of you. I did. But the words are out now. I tried so hard for so long to pretend it didn’t hurt. I tried to pretend like it wasn’t eating away at me inside. I wanted you but there was no you without her. The life I was waiting for was nothing but a fairy tale, told to a child who didn’t understand how she could love someone so intensely and it still not be enough. Kids grow up on Disney movies. That’s the first view into “true love” they have. There are hard times but in the end everything works out for love. For true love. Disney fucking lied. And this is no fairy tale. Reality isn’t so pretty and it isn’t wrapped up in a nice little bow. He was Prince Charming. He was intelligent, gorgeous, and the perfect gentleman. He cared about you, was there for you, loved you. He was everything you had ever hoped for. He was perfect. But here’s the part Disney doesn’t show you. He got comfortable. He stopped trying as hard. As time went on and things became tougher, he wasn’t your Prince Charming anymore. He doesn’t show you the same care. The same interest. The same intensity of love and longing and passion. The late night movies stop. The good morning calls stop. The fire he once had in his eyes for you stop. Life has beaten him down and down and down until he had no fight left to give. A piece of him died. And it took the best piece of you with it. Broken, depressed, scared, sad, confused, on how something so beautiful could cut so god damn deep. But he’s not all gone. That love remains. The embers are still there. A glimpse of who he was, who you were, who they were. Just enough to hold on. Hold on and pray that those days would come back. That one day you would open your eyes and he was there. Just as loving. Just as caring. Just as perfect as he once was. Your Prince Charming had come home. But this isn’t a fairy tale. Those pieces are gone and that little girl is devastated. Crying on the floor left wondering why, WHY? Why? But there’s no going back now. The damage is done. The fighting has stopped. It’s over. It’s really over. He’s gone.