There was an Instagram "influencer", who did a collab with NoFrills maybe, sorry for the skint details, which showed what she got for "less than $40" but the only really edible food were bagels and peanut butter. Does anyone know where this is, is love to show it to people. Sorry for the lack of information.

My (F, 25 yrs old) usual pre workout food are banana, bread, peanut butter or egg, and coffee.
Na-uumay na ako. Pero these food always give me enough energy. What else can you suggest that can give me enough energy to lift?

I've had an allergy test done when I was younger and didn't tell them about my reaction to peanut butter but I didn't have a reaction to peanuts so i don't know what could be causing this

Apart from having autism and ADHD, I (26F, turning 27 at the end of the month) also have what my previous psychiatrist called a “neurological feeding disorder” due to impaired interception (internal body sensations) from neonatal brain damage. This damage, caused by a hemorrhage, also caused cerebral palsy.
As a child and teen, I definitely had ARFID behaviors, which were dismissed as picky eating behaviors. It’s just that “high-level” autism, ADHD, and ARFID wasn’t diagnosed in girls in the early 2000s. I basically lived on a “beige diet” of cereal, snack cakes, pasta, pizza, and some meat, like chicken or burgers. I wouldn’t eat eggs, seafood, fruit, or vegetables.
I was somewhat underweight until high school, and I remember my mom would always offer me “chocolate milk” (Pediasure / Ensure) when I was younger. I then gained weight in high school due to depression and eating generally crappy food. At my highest weight, I was 135 pounds.
Here’s some backstory about where things started to shift. Trigger warning for numbers, skip over if needed.
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That was up until I turned 24, where I tried a keto diet for mental health and things were going really well, until I developed malnutrition from losing too much weight unintentionally. Height is 4’8” tall.
I went from 110 pounds (BMI 25) and 28% body fat to 90 pounds (BMI 20) and 20% body fat in 10 months. October 2021 to August 2022. Couldn’t get warm worth a damn from subnormal body temperatures, and lost my period at around 95 pounds.
Even so, a calorie intake of 1000-1200 per day on top of 2-3 miles of walking (daily activity and steps) would have eventually lead to relative energy deficiency (RED) at some point because I never knew about planning scheduled refeeding periods to mitigate the down-regulation in metabolism.
Especially when considering that my hunger signals are impaired due to my brain damage. My interception (internal body sensations) is about half as sensitive as normal.
I didn't know that low-calorie interventions shouldn't be done for months at a time without proper nutritional supervision to prevent deficiencies.
Then I gained 20 pounds in 14 months from October 2022 to December 2023 (93 to 113) after having my previous IUD removed, stopping keto, and hormonal eating patterns once I realized that I had PMDD when my period resumed in July 2023 once I had gained back enough weight.
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Now, I do my best to meet my keto macros and make sure that I get enough calories every day. I try not to eat under 1200 kcal and keeping a food log helps keep me accountable that I’m not under-eating due to not feeling hungry. Logging wasn’t something that I did last time. I also keep up with my electrolytes, because being in ketosis is very diuretic and sheds electrolytes quickly due the carb restriction.
However, my current diet is relatively… limited, to put it lightly. I mostly eat heavy cream in coffee, heavy-cream ice cream, cream cheese, eggs, and some kind of meat every day to meet my protein requirements. This isn’t the previous “beige diet” of my youth, but rather what I call a “heavy cream diet”.
I used to be hypersensitive to flavors and textures when I was younger, for example, I never ate salads before the age of 24, but that switch “flipped” when I started having reactive eating episodes when I was underweight. I would eat sandwiches, spicy foods, and seafood, all of which were foods that I was previously very avoidant of, to the point of having anxiety attacks when seeing the shells in shellfish.
Those reactive eating episodes really showed the kind of primal need for food that malnutrition does to the brain, because the body needs a lot of calories to gain back weight while underweight.
Now, instead of being afraid of shellfish and fruit, I’m afraid of nuts/seeds, peanut butter, and any kind of carb foods. I avoid eating because the food isn’t enjoyable anymore. It’s like even when I try to focus, I can’t “taste” the food sometimes. I’m also averse to cold coffee because my mouth just says no, which may be because cold coffee is less acidic than hot coffee and tastes different?
By the way, I’m using “avoidant” to describe sensory overstimulation, and “averse” to describe choking/nausea symptoms, as that’s what I was previously taught in speech therapy when I when for a few sessions when I was 24 due to swallowing spasms.
Does this sound like ARFID behaviors? Where is the line between an eating disorder and a feeding disorder, if there is one? I wouldn’t want to say orthorexia, because I literally eat butter to up my calories, and that seems against the premise of “healthy foods” even though it’s perfectly acceptable within a keto context.
At the practice I’m currently with, the former psychiatrist left, and the practice is still waiting on a new one. But I want to bring this all to the attention of my psychologist, who knows about my longstanding feeding issues, and then the new psychiatrist, whenever they get hired.
Advice is appreciated, and my chats are open if you don’t want to publicly comment. Thanks in advance!

Hey guys, long time reader on this sub but never really posted until now. My partner and I just purchased our first house and after a month, we decided to adopt a dog(half staffy/Rottie). We were really excited and looked forward to this moment (the dog felt like a perfect match) but only after a couple of days, it's not all that it seems. I understand the whole 3-3-3 rule and that it takes time for dogs to settle but it's just getting too much. We were made aware that he has SA and as long as he's on his meds, he's fine.
He's been constantly barking at people, howling, creating high pitch noises and now destroyed his dog bed. We have brought toys, licking mat to put some peanut butter and take him on about 1.5-2 hour walks daily.
This morning when we woke up, it felt like a breaking point with all the mess he made on the second floor (he's not allowed up the third level where our bedroom and office is unless he's really barking at someone - yesterday we had a technician come for internet).
I feel guilty as I don't want to cause a rift and resentment between my partner and I but it seems like returning him to the rescue organization might seem to be the best. Another reason is also finances, we don't want to have to keep on replacing things that he's destroyed. No one has expressed interest in the dog until we did and he was in the foster home for 3 months and had a rough start to life.
I feel like a horrible person and a horrible partner as it was me who mostly wanted the dog. I understand that some people will respond in anger as well but please be nice. The rescue organization has a policy to take back their animals should circumstances change but the guilty is there. What should I do?

I was deeply surprised to discover 2 weeks ago that my mini schnauzer had a bladder FULL of struvite stones. When I took her to the vet after she began straining and ghost peeing after about a month....vet #1 said oh, probably just a uti, gave us a med level antibiotic and sent us on our way...after a week the symptoms were no better at all so we went to a different vet that recommended x-raying for possible stones....and boy oh boy did we see them....Zoe ended up having to have emergency surgery to remove them all. I have been at a loss! I had NO IDEA that this was possible much less that they'd been forming for so long without any awareness until the last minute.
Zoe has recovered from surgery and I want more/betteclearer info about how to move forward. The vet told me to put her on a combo of wet/dry Hills urinary care food. Which I have done.
How long will she have to be on this type of food. Are there any types of "treats" at all that I can give her? Peanut butter, honey, carrots, peas? Any type of protein source at all? I can't seem to find a solid answer...lots of back on forth on various dog nutrition blogs and vet clinics....

I recently misplaced a c hub connector for my tablet and a replacement would have cost me 45 dollars. My friend helped me find it and although i am very grateful, he now he is implying rather strongly that should buy him lunch which would cost 5 bucks. Although i would not mind buying him lunch, i was planning on baking him a peanut butter loaf as thanks.
However, the way he has suggested that i buy him lunch is making me feel all guilty thinking i owe him big time and making a fuss and im thinking of not buying him anything now because of the principal of the whole matter. He is making it look as if it is a really big matter and i owe him big time.
AITA.
Additional details. I was searching for this item for 2 days. And almost bought a replace for it. I was very relieved when he helped me find it yesterday.
Edit: this is my friends additions im dictating what he says: 1. We are not exactly friends, we are work collegues. 2. I know he doesnt like to eat bread. He thought i was making him bread but it was actually a peanut butterloaf 3.i searched hard for this item even taking a torchlight to search my whole car

Hi going on the symphony in 2 days
Is there is no sugar pb or any natural nut butter on cruise?
Also Greek plain yogurt? Simple grains and nuts?
Dark 70% and up chocolate
Whole wheat or rye bread ?
Sourdough?
Looking for the most healthy and natural food items.
Thanks!

Mr. Steve Lewis
Mr. Patrick McKinney
Mr. Bryan Freiermuth
c/o Gideons 1898 LLC et al
1600 East Buena Vista Drive

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Lake Buena Vista, FL 32830
VIA ELECTRONIC MAIL
May 10th, 2024
Final Demand
Gentlemen,
There is an odor most foul in the Bakehouse. It is the stench of the fish rotting from the head.
To our proprietor Steve, and our managers Bryan and Patrick:
There is dissension within the ranks, and if the following items are not resolved as we outline
below, we’re prepared to drag this house of cards to the ground.
Before we proceed with our grievances, numerous and shocking, and the demands to resolve
them; allow us a moment for introductions.
We, are the Ghosts of Gideons, the poor and unfortunate souls upon whom you have built your
cookie empire. We are the many, the unseen, and as of the disastrous meeting May 6th, 2024, the
decidedly unheard.
Many of us have approached management and ownership multiple times with helpful hints,
strong suggestions, and desperate pleas to rectify a myriad of health, safety and operational
concerns- with nearly all of them being dismissed or ignored entirely.
Now, we, the collective, have banded together to deliver this tome- not as a warning of what is to
come, but as a final demand to resolve the issues outlined herein. You may dismiss us
individually, but you cannot ignore all of us together.
Make no mistake, if the following solutions are not implemented with immediate effect, we will
do everything in our power to topple this cookie castle permanently.
We should start by informing you, that, yes- we are but lowly workers for Gideons, however, we
are supported by families who hold prominent positions in the community as lawyers, labor
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representatives, publicists, and county government workers. Families who love us, and want to
see us remain safely and fairly employed.
Through our vast, and well connected network the following steps have already been
implemented:
1) A lawsuit for your numerous unfair and unsafe labor practices and work conditions has
been drafted.
2) A press release, along with a copy of this letter, have been sent to local and national
media.
3) We have created social channels to connect directly with customers and inform them of
the reprehensible work conditions we are enduring.
4) We have filed health and safety reports with local government bodies detailing the
extensive issues we are faced with at the Springs location.
5) We have informed Disney Springs leadership of our position relating to the above, and
below in this letter.
In all cases, these competent bodies are awaiting our word. If the demands listed herein are not
satisfied immediately, we will, in tandem with the above, begin a campaign to inform the world
of your numerous transgressions, filing lawsuits and media coverages exposing you and the
Company for the shill that it is, and we will not stop until the Bakehouse bakes no more.
We should also mention that should any attempt be made to retaliate against us, including
termination, reducing our hours, benefits, or taking other pervasive actions against any Gideons
employee, will promptly result in our bringing legal class-action.
The time has come for you, our leaders, to actually lead. This means spending money where
money must be spent, and making the following operational changes, so that we can all continue
to exist in harmony, and not feel like we’re trapped on an 1800’s plantation- working for the big
house.
1) Communication- How dare you drag the entire workforce to a 9AM meeting,
demanding our presence, and then talk directly at us with the most mundane drivel we’ve
ever heard. Everything dictated today could have been very well sent as an email-
especially when you did not allow for any discussion between us, the workers who
actually make your business run, and the disconnected upper-management who are hell
bent on implementing misguided and inefficient policies. Do not call us in for a
mandatory meeting again when the points can be covered in an email, unless you intend
to open the floor for actual conversation and listen to what we have to say.
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To that end, since our voices were silenced this morning, we demand the following:
● Cold Brew- We will not adopt the ‘bartender’ shaking style of preparing the cold
brew drinks. When we have 10+ beverages queuing to be made, shaking each
drink 10 times will severely impact our ability to be efficient. This is but one
example of Steve’s desire to have ‘form over function’. We understand there may
be a ‘look’ you’re going for, but when it compromises our ability to efficiently
perform our function, we refuse. We demand to be allowed to resume our ‘stir
stick’ preparation immediately.
● Point System/ Order Accuracy- Under no circumstance should Management take
the side of the Guest over the word of the employee. Too often we see guests
complain that an order was incorrect, and Management issues a point to an
employee. This must stop immediately. We demand you implement a ‘please
check your screen for order accuracy’ procedure where the guest confirms their
order before they pay, and remove the ‘point’ system. If the guest confirms the
order, it reduces the possibility for an inaccurate order.
● Inconsistent/ Inaccurate menu boards and Social Postings- The inside Menu
Board has been outdated for nearly two years. It must be updated immediately to
remove items we no longer sell (IE Coke Products) and ingredient offerings (IE
Banana WALNUT). By correctly labeling the items, it reduces the stress on us in
having to confirm that certain items have nuts, or not being yelled at by guests
who are disgruntled that we no longer sell Coke products. Further, there are
multiple social media inaccuracies when describing new products (IE peanut
butter buttercream, VS the actual peanut butter cream cheese). These inaccurate
product descriptions hurt the brand, and cause confusion with the guests when
they come to order these products. Also the new umbrellas are not UV resistant;
therefore any mention of them ‘protecting you from the sun’ is false, and may
result in legal action from guests. We demand you only post accurate descriptions
to the website/ social media to avoid further guest/ employee confrontation.
● HR- Given the fact that Cynthia engaged in using racial slurs during the May 6th
meeting, referring to guests as gypsies and hoodlums, we demand her firing and
removal immediately. Multiple members of staff were deeply offended by the
hurtful stereotypes that Cynthia perpetuated, and we no longer have any trust in
her ability to lead this organization, especially from a HR perspective, when she
herself seems to harbor unfair and demeaning racial views.
● Management- We cannot express with limited words the level of dissatisfaction
we maintain for Drew. The staff, in our entirety, have never dealt with such
incompetent, slothful, and wasteful behavior. Drew consistently stays on his
phone, refusing to help the team accomplish any of their tasks, and barely exudes
a modicum of effort through his rare action of helping build cake boxes or taking
out trash before disembarking on a break (which none us other managers/leads are
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cookie king, bringing in circa $40,000 per day, affording you a life of luxury, and not
fairly compensate the employees that are making Gideons everything that it is. The
cookies are good, but make no mistake, as was stated during the May 6th meeting, the
customers come for us. I can’t imagine what they’ll say when they learn about the
slave-like conditions in which we work, especially with Auntie Anne’s earning $18 per
hour + tips.
3) Hours- Part time is up to 30 hours per week, full time is 30 hours or more. We must have
a guaranteed number of hours per week, pending our availability. For example, if a
full-time employee has open availability, they must be scheduled for 40 hours. If a
part-time person has open availability, they must be scheduled for up to 30 hours per
week. This is to ensure we have a stable and uniform weekly income, guaranteed by our
base pay and consistent hours.
4) On Call- All shifts that are ‘on- call’ must be guaranteed a full 8 hour shift, regardless if
the employee is called into work or not. We clear our day and make ourselves available to
cover the Company, and we demand to be compensated a full 8 hours ($16 per hour) for
the flexibility to suit the Company’s needs.
5) Pay Protection- In the event that the store is closed for any reason, employees currently
scheduled to be working during the closure must receive all payment for the shifts they
were scheduled for. If the AC goes out again, and we’re down for several days, those of
us scheduled must receive full compensation for shifts as scheduled.
3) Health & Safety- While it seems that Gideon’s is based primarily on the ‘cool factor’ in how
our processes look from a customer perspective, we are still a fully functioning kitchen and retail
location with a haphazard health and safety process, at best.
To ensure a properly safe workplace and customer experience, we demand the following changes
immediately:
1) Shorts/ Heat Safety Prevention- We’ve been told time and time again that the ‘Disney
Contract’ we cannot wear shorts. After having multiple conversations with Disney
Springs leadership and the Unite Here 362 representatives, we have come to understand
that a change in uniform can be initiated by amendment. No longer can the ‘look’ of
something overpower the safety of us. In terms of being outside in the sunlight and heat,
we demand that the contract be amended immediately to account for a uniform change,
thus allowing us to wear shorts within the next five days. It is dangerous for us to be
outside in the heat and sunlight during high-heat (more than 70 degrees fahrenheit) days,
wearing all black and long pants. We are unwilling to compromise our personal health
and safety to appease your ‘style guide’ insisting on long pants, but we’re happy to
maintain a look via style guide for shorts. In addition, we have seen multiple large/
battery operated fans in use around Disney property, keeping other Cast cool during these
heat waves. We demand that large fans are procured and placed in strategic outside
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locations within the next 5 days, so that we may have respite during high temp days. The
cooling towels and neck fans you have provided are ineffective.
2) Egress- We bakers are trapped. There is no second means of fire egress from the kitchen,
and should a fire or other disaster occur with the ovens, we would be trapped and unable
to escape. We demand you add in additional egress from the bakery, into the outside
alley. We understand this will require planning and stairs, however, planning must be
commenced immediately. We will not work in an unsafe environment, and with no place
to escape in the event of an emergency, we will be burned alive.
3) Handicap accessibility- Our retail location does not comply with ADA mobility
standards. The counters must be moved to allow an employee who utilizes a wheelchair
or other mobility device the proper space to move behind the counters and throughout the
kitchen. While yes, a wheelchair will ‘fit’, they will be unable to properly move. We are
discriminating against hiring ADA employees due to the way the store is currently
overcrowded and built. We demand proper spacing be added within the next 90 days.
4) Safety Training & Procedures- As of right now Operations have not developed any safety
or training procedures relating to fire, bomb threat, active shooter, lighting/ rain, accident
or other hazard. We are provided with no training in the event of any of these
emergencies, and we are all woefully unprepared with a common knowledge of how to
address emergency situations. We demand that a safety plan be developed and provided
to each of us in writing, and that we receive sufficient training of the new procedures
within 14 days.
5) Sanitation- Our baking sheets never get cleaned. We demand that you hire an outside
vendor to pick up used equipment nightly at close, and deliver a clean set at the same
time, so that we may rotate clean equipment daily. It is too large a task for us to wash in
house, and this needs to be automated for us. Our current sanitation procedure is
inadequate to ensure proper health and safety standards.
6) Bathroom breaks- Many of us suffer from various biological disabilities that force
frequent trips to the restroom. We simply cannot ‘hold it’ until we’re on break. IF we
need to go to the restroom, we must be immediately accommodated to do so without
repercussions. While this is not common, it does happen, and must be allowed.
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Demand Timeline:
May 11th- Cold Brew BartendeShaking preparation is disbanded, stir stick preparation is
reimplemented.
May 11th- Cynthia is terminated immediately for using racial slurs during a company meeting.
May 11th- Drew is demoted as manager immediately for failure to act as a leader, and help his
team, undergoing an immense retraining before he is reinstated.
May 12th- All employees earn a base rate of $16 + tip share.
May 12th- An automatic/ mandatory 7.5% gratuity is placed on all guest orders.
May 12th- All ‘on call’ shifts will be guaranteed a full 8 hours ($16 p/h), regardless of working
or not.
May 12th- Lead/ Trainer pay to increase to at least $19 per hour when training, and $18 per hour
at all other times + tip share.
May 11th- Planning for additional egress to begin. Must be fully installed and operational no
later than June 20th, 2024.
May 17th- A $1,200 bonus is paid to all employees who worked during the last three pay
periods. This bonus covers the lower wages suffered from the ‘no tip’ asking policy.
May 13th- Schedules to be created, guaranteeing all ‘part-time’ employees up to 30 hours per
week based on employee availability, and ‘full-time’ employees at least 40 hours per week,
based on employee availability.
May 14th- Commercial grade fans outside submitted for approval to Disney, installed upon
approval.
May 15th- Shorts implemented for all workers, all shifts, when the outside temperature is more
than 70 degrees fahrenheit.
May 14th- Sanitation company must be contracted to pick up used baking sheets nightly, and a
second set of baking sheets to be procured to ensure sufficient sanitation of products in direct
contact with food.
May 24th- All health & safety procedures will be drafted and provided to all employees in
writing, with in-person training to occur with all employees. New hires shall receive the new
procedures and same in person training as a part of their onboarding.
August 4th- Handicap/ADA compliance. The store and kitchen must be rearranged/ decluttered
to allow for the hiring of mobility device users, including wheelchairs, to comply with ADA
layout requirements.
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While the above demands only scratch a portion of the hazardous operational procedures, we are
confident that should they all be addressed and the solutions we have demanded are implemented
within the allotted timelines, we can avoid a disastrous fallout and continue to work together to
ensure Gideons remains a successful operation.
We understand that this will most likely come as a shock, not less because ownership and
operations seem to be blissfully unaware of the vast deterioration, but moreover, the inane
procedural overhauls implemented in today’s meeting simply reek of disconnection to the reality
of the process, and will only serve to further delay and complicate the already struggling
operation.
It is time to see beyond all of the narcissistic ‘it looks cool, so we’re going to do it my way’
absurdity, and recognize that the above demands come from your soldiers on the frontlines. A
tough pill to swallow, but it is medicine critical to survival, nevertheless. We further recommend
that all upper management leadership work at least one eight hour, front of house shift per six
months, to ensure they remain fully connected and relevant.
We must issue a final word of warning: should this letter be ignored, or any of the above
demands are not implemented, or any retaliatory action be taken, it will be met with the most
severe consequences.
We know that you are amassing a fortune, and all we Ghosts ask for is a fair wage, a safe and
comfortable working environment, and to be treated with dignity and respect.
We’d hate for the adoring public to learn of any other reality. This is your one, final, opportunity
to make it right.
We look forward to your prompt email reply confirming your plan of action to comply with our
demands herein.
In Solidarity,
The Ghosts of Gideons.

I'm in a semi-save town in DuPage County Illinois and I was wondering since I have blankets pillows and my other things and this is very temporary that I can maybe camp there for a night or two? And then during the day I can work on getting my license back at the DMV. I have a girlfriend that has RMS and a dog with me so I'm not able to get help from local shelters since we have our dog. Luckily we have tons of food and tons of things for her to stay busy. I also have a little bit of cash for my girlfriend and I for food but I keep that for emergencies my mom gave me a little bit of a care package with some snacks crackers peanut butter bread. It is next to a busy street and a gas station that's open 24 hours and I don't think people would see us. Is only temporary until the 23rd since I get paid on the 23rd I just need advice to know if that's smart or not

Hi everyone,
I’m David from California, USA. I’m 22 years old. I’m looking for a serious relationship with a loyal lady. My hobbies are reading books, listening to music/podcasts, watching movies/tv, playing guitar, learning about foreign languages and cultures.
Favorite movies/genres: Romance movies: Titanic, and The Notebook
Comedies: Just Go With It, Grown Ups, Billy Madison, and etc.
Favorite music: Country Music, Classic Rock, some Hip Hop, and old school Soul music like Motown.
Artists: George Strait, George Jones, Porter Wagoner, Bon Jovi, and etc.
Favorite foods: pasta, burgers, chicken wings, ice cream, cookies, brownies, chocolate chip cookies, peanut butter cookies, and etc. I respond pretty fast so feel free to message me.
I want this in a partner:
Kind, loyal, caring, supportive, loving, respectful, understanding, and has self respect. Inner beauty is more important to me than outer beauty, but I do hope to be still attracted to who ever I’m talking too. I look forward to your messages ladies. I love movies, books, music, and learning foreign languages and about other cultures.
I also want someone who is: loyal, kind, loving, caring, respectful, understanding, and affectionate.
I also HIGHLY 100% respect ALL females. I 100% believe that EVERY woman should be treated like queens and respected, honored, loved, and adored by their man, because without any women no human being would be able to be born into this world. Please chat me up and tell me more about you, your interests, and why you would make a wonderful partner. Also please include your pictures when you message me. Thanks and I hope to meet my special someone! Btw I have a visual impairment and a mild hearing loss and other disabilities.

Y'all.
I went to the doctor in early February because a scan showed I have a nodule in my lung. I hate doctors so I hadn't been in a while.
Y'ALL.
Doctor ordered blood work. LDL, Glucose, Triglycerides ... all high. Not like crazy high but higher than they should be. Doctor told me to eat a Mediterranean Diet {eye roll} and exercise more. Okay ... so even though I'm short of breath, I'll get right on that.
Had issues with that medical practice, changed doctor, new doc ordered more lab work.
So after three months of obsessively watching and logging my calories, after dropping almost all sweets, after eating TWO fried mushrooms (the ONLY fried food I have eaten in 3 months ... okay and maybe 10 individual fries) ... after cutting out butter (and cutting out peanut butter which makes me SAD), massively increasing fiber ... uh yeah. I have lost ONE pound, and all three - LDL, Glucose and Triglycerides - went WAY UP. Like more than 20 points up! LDL went up almost 30 points, like I'm mainlining Crisco.
Short rant: WHY THE HELL SHOULD I EAT HEALTHY AND EXERCISE IF IT DOES LITERALLY THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I NEED IT TO DO {sobbing} I'm ready to get a pack of cigs and a fifth at this point. Let's chase it with some fentanyl. Seriously why do I eat/live healthy when it makes literally no difference.

Exactly the title. I eat several cookies on a daily basis. After every meal I want something sweet. I’ve always treated myself but now I want to change. I’m noticing if I don’t have a sweet treat I binge later or I get intense cravings. I’m also noticing if I don’t have a sweet treat I get headaches or an anxious feeling.
Chocolate, chocolate with caramel or peanut butter, sweet breads, and fresh chocolate chip cookies are my go-tos and hit the spot every time.
Why do I crave these? How do I stop?

2nd Time with gestational diabetes. Got diagnosed at 17 weeks, and I'm currently 29 weeks. I will say, this go around I'm doing so much better controlling my sugars. Diet and metformin at night. I'm on antidepressants and such, but today I just...idk. I don't feel like myself. Yes I indulge in the occasional treat, but I've been monitoring what I eat so religiously, I just feel down. My OB wants me to eat a lil extra protien and such and I'm just tired. If I wasn't at the point of pregnancy where I'm hungry all the dang time I'd probably barely eat. I love cheese, but dang it, I'm tired of it. And nuts, and peanut butter. And whole grain everything. And brown rice. F brown rice. I'm just really beating myself up today.