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2018.04.09 02:53 jizzabeth Poliosis

Poliosis, or Poliosis circumscripta, refers to a patch of head hair that has a decrease or absence of melanin resulting in a localized patch of white hair. This sub is for all things Poliosis related.
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2010.01.26 06:19 dgillz Alcoholism

Information and support for those affected by alcoholism/Alcohol Use Disorder. If you are concerned about alcohol's effect on your life or a loved one's life, please feel welcome.
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2024.06.09 20:02 LessOil7656 Trying everything to get my 6 year old dd to stay with me. NPD ex-husband owns my dd.

Sorry for the long post. Thanks for your patience and I appreciate all comments.
Even though it was an arranged marriage, I loved him from the moment I spoke with him over the phone. However, something inside me hesitated. I noticed things starting to go wrong, and there were several obstacles leading up to the fateful day of our marriage. On our wedding day, I told everyone he was charming, proclaiming my love for him in public, unaware of what was coming.
Long story short, I wasted 5 good years of my life with this person and lost five more years trying to recover. I was married to a narcissist and became a victim of his abuse under the guise of marriage. He managed to isolate me from my own family and made sure I cut all ties with my friends, leaving me available only for him and nobody else. As a result, there was no one supporting me when I broke ties with him and finally came out of that toxic relationship. It was a vicious cycle of verbal and physical torture, along with the mental effects it had over time. I would spend my days just watching the same TV shows on a cycle, using them as a reminder to myself of the reality of what was happening to me. My ex-husband would create drama, often accusing me of provoking his anger, and later he would express remorse for his actions, drawing me back into the cycle again. However, this pattern continued, perpetuating the cycle of abuse. It became clear to me that he had no genuine interest in my well-being and would never show any concern for it. Under pressure from both families, we decided to get pregnant. After learning the gender, he hit me, expressing disappointment that it wasn't a boy and how I had supposedly let down his family. He even joked to my daughter when she was born, saying, "Could you not have been born a boy?" Despite the humorous tone, it was hurtful and indicative of his expectations. It did not stop there. I was lying in my own vomit as I had severe morning sickness while my ex-husband was beating me up. There are so many other instances that are too painful to write about.
There were days when I woke up wondering why I was still alive. Growing up, I was reliant on my family, and my introverted nature didn't help me overcome my insecurities. I let others decide what was best for me. My narcissistic father, abusive mother, and sister abandoned me, offering no help when I finally left my narcissistic ex-husband. They did not believe a word of what I said. The most they did was call me crazy for trying to leave a "perfect" husband and suggest I seek psychiatric help.
Heartbroken and weak after another surgery, unable to comprehend my situation, and refusing to take medication for undiagnosed bipolar disorder and schizophrenia, I flew back home abroad. My ex-husband left our daughter at his house without asking me. When he returned, he informed me he would go back in a month to get her, or his parents would take her during their visit. My ex-husband emphasized that my daughter had not spent enough time with his parents and belittled me and my family, as a result, she had not even once stayed with my family. Then, COVID struck, and my daughter ended up spending nearly 10 months without me.
When my dd finally came back, she refused to let me come close. She shut the door in my face, asking me to leave the bedroom saying, papa doesn't like you so i don't like you. I saw my ex-husband grinning as he coerced our two-year-old to say and do these things. My daughter is extremely intelligent. From the next day after she was born, I knew my daughter was her daddy's girl. She weaned just after seven months old. Following my father's advice, I left my own house (for which I had paid a quarter of the deposit, yet it was entirely under my ex-husband's ownership), leaving my two-year-old daughter with him—a terrible mistake, I admit.
I struggled to find places to live, hopping from one rental to another, begging my ex-husband to let me see my daughter at least once a week. Without a car, ex-husband would drop her off and pick her up on the same day because she wouldn't stay with me. I can't explain my mental state as I couldn't process what was happening. I had no help then. Finally, I found a flat to rent with some privacy for me and my daughter (an attached kitchen area and a shower toilet). Seeing I had moved to a better place, my ex-husband stopped bringing my daughter over, and I had to pick her up from his house, which I didn't mind as the bus stop wasn't far. Later, my ex-husband asked me to pick her up from the bus stop next to his house instead.
We celebrated our my dd's third birthday at my previous home after living in separation. Her fourth and fifth birthdays were at my new flat, and her sixth was at my current place, where I happily live with my partner of three years. I probably wouldn't have gotten my life back if I hadn't met my partner. He made me feel normal again and gave me hope. I became more attentive and present with my daughter, and we had lots of fun, taking goofy pictures and dancing to her favourite songs. But her character would change in an instant (much like her father's). Out of nowhere, she would start screaming for her dad as if reminded she needed to go back.
Initially, I understood her frustration as I struggled to make a living and moved from place to place. Despite her cries to go back to her dad, which added to my depression, I found solace in the fact that she was with me—until she wasn't. As she grows, it's becoming apparent she might be like her father. Today, my daughter is six years and six months old. Her last visit to me was yesterday, even though my ex-husband had agreed she could stay with me over the weekend. This year, she has stayed with me for only two nights in total. My ex-husband hurls abuses at me whenever things don't go his way, often in front of our daughter. She seems to support and enjoy it when he does.
I've tried to make my daughter understand it's not okay to hurt others, but she doesn't seem to grasp this. She asks me to stop talking, sometimes screams, covers her ears, or asks, "What did you say?" I'm not forcing her to do anything, just asking her to call me "Mama," but even that seems to fade each week I see her. She acts as if she doesn't know me or harbours pure hatred. I'm screaming inside every night she's not with me. Although my partner makes me feel safe and loved, I'm dying inside a little every moment thinking of my daughter.
I grew up as a church-going Catholic, saying prayers daily, but now I feel null and numb, unsure where to turn. I don't think I'm bipolar or schizophrenic today, but I fear I might develop these conditions. At nearly 34 years old, my career is at a halt. I had to leave a job I didn't like, and it didn't align with my current skillset. I'm applying for jobs that suit my skills, but with no success. I dreamed of revenge against my ex-husband by becoming better than him. I spent countless hours studying and preparing for a new career, but it feels like a long-lost dream. While I did manage to finish my university degree, I'm still waiting to start my career and prove myself. All I want is to make life better for my daughter, to give her the space and comfort she experiences with her dad.
Even though my current place is safe and comfortable, however small, I try my best to make my daughter happy and enjoy the little time we have together. But she makes it difficult every time with hurtful words, damaging our relationship. I don't have the money to go to court, and my ex-husband threatens that any action against him will be in vain. I'm already in debt, repaying loans.
When my daughter pointed to the TV and told me she wished I was like that (we were watching "Goodbye" on Netflix, where the mother's dead body was often shown), I asked her to confirm, "Do you wish me to die _?" She nodded with hope on her face. This was when she was just five years old. I don't take anything she says seriously, but it hurts when it happens. I will never fault my daughter for our situation. But it is really sad. I hope she knows I am there for her and feels loved and connected with me emotionally. I'm waiting for that moment. I feel guilty for giving my ex-husband my daughter as a new victim after he lost me. It was more about my daughter wanting to be closer to her dad than me. I didn't expect my ex-husband to manipulate his own child to his advantage.
I know my daughter not living with me and that I'm not her main parent is not justified. As much as it hurts, I have to accept she may never live with me and may even disown me someday. I didn't want to drag her into court fights, making things more unstable, as my ex-husband would likely win. He has zero conscience. My only hope is that my daughter won't turn out exactly like him, and I can persuade her to leave him and stay with me.
As a mother, I cared for my daughter beautifully from the moment she was born until she was 18 months old, with some assistance from a postpartum doula after my C-section. However, since then, I've gone through psychosis, anxiety, depression, self-doubt, and even had suicidal thoughts, among other unknown phases. Finally, I gathered the courage to write about my situation here. I'm genuinely trying to build a positive and healthy relationship with my daughter, but it feels like a distant dream.
I recently heard he has a new victim and married her this year, which slightly relieves me that his influence on my daughter might lessen. When my daughter told me about this lady, I immediately recognized her as one of his close friends. I recall my ex-husband and his family talking about her before, as she did indeed attend my marriage with ex-husband.
I hope my daughter will understand someday how much I love her and how hard I fought for our relationship. After all, it was the birth of my daughter that gave me strength and courage. It was also the realization of the continued abuse by my ex-husband that made me come out of my situation, although things did not happen as I had hoped. Additionally, I did not realize I was going through victim withdrawal syndrome of narcissistic abuse, and I realize now I should have dealt with things more tactically and logically. I am extremely sorry that I could not be there for my daughter when she was stuck at my ex-husband's parents' house during the pandemic.
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2024.06.09 19:54 No-Comfortable9123 [US][Selling] Sealed Limited Editions, Various Boutiques. Paypal G&S.

Add $5 for CONUS shipping. Happy to accommodate overseas, but please cover the cost difference. Take 10% off when you purchase 2 or more items. I will cover Paypal Goods & Services fees. Limited edition titles ship in a box with proper impact protection. Single Amaray case orders ship in a bubble mailer. All major imperfections are viewable and detailed. Sorry, but not open to offers. All Items come with original booklets, OBI cards, etc. unless stated. Thanks for looking and don't hesitate to ask questions!
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2024.06.09 19:19 Commiegunluver44 [WTS][ON] vfc 416a5 with attachments

Comes with everything in the picture: T1 red dot Dbal peq Dual switch Surefire clone Pts epm midcap Smr rail and stock ris rail Magpul acm stock and vfc stock
Internals all stock except for maple leaf bucking and nub, bca 22tpa high torque motor and shim, stronger tappet plate and spring to fix midcap syndrome. Feeds well with pts mags and great trigger response with new motor, work was done by blackblitz. Overall zero issues and in great shape. ( I take care of my stuff) No trades and emt or cash only. I can ship as well but on the buyers dime Located in brockville ontario
$750obo
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TM scar H
Attachments included
Internal upgrades:
upgrade barrel, modify flat hop rubber, flc bushings, eagle6 m100, prometheus gears, prometheus nozzle, prometheus piston head, fps airsoft carbon piston with steel rack, fps airsoft bearing spring guide for scar
Shooting at a nice 355-360 fps. Tm Accurate and reliable.
Asking $950obo
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2024.06.09 09:47 notawisemanforsure I think I'm not the brightest bulb but what are your thoughts on my cognitive profile?

I think I'm not the brightest bulb but what are your thoughts on my cognitive profile?
When I was a kid I was forced to unknowningly take WISC IQ tests and a porteus labyrinth test due to poor school performance and disability suspicion arising from that, they were surprised that I have scored 126.
English is not my native language probably that doesn't matter anyways.
My first IQ test in life was when I was 6 years old it was a test about labyrinths (porteus labyrinths) I scored a 96 out of that. The paper also had a psychiatrist note in bottom like this: - Physical development: Normal - Mental development: Normal - Social / Behavioral development: at the level of a 4 year old, abnormal
Second IQ test (WISC-R) was when I was 8 years old which I scored 115.
Third one (WISC-R) was from when I was 12 years old which I scored 126. In none of tests I was aware it was an IQ test I was just told it was a quick exam that was required for my schooling.
Fourth one (WISC-IV) was from when I was 14 years old the only IQ test I was I'm aware of I was taking an IQ test I was never told my score but based on their reaction after they talked to my parents probably it was upper average. This wasn't a WISC-R but a WISC-IV instead.
All of those tests were required because of extremely low academic performance ( I was under performing in mathematics compared to peers and after some point I started to under perform in language/grammar too), they never figured out what was wrong with me eventually I got a dyslexia diagnosis which was later revised to Autism Spectrum Disorder diagnosis and since many people think Autism = intellectual disability in my country they generally give Asperger's Syndrome diagnosis for people with normal IQ.
I recently got a hold of my papers;
  • My working memory is absolute bottom 4 backwards and 5 forwards in digit span, interestingly enough this is only for numbers for anything else like a place I have visited (roughly location, color and shapes of objects) or some catchy music I heard I was able to hold such information with really good accuracy for like an entire day.
  • Only things I'm good at are matrix reasoning, coding and block design everything else is either low or normal
  • I did shown aggressive behavior such as yelling or not following directions against the psychiatrist as the note given and they didn't think the score was valid too (for the test I had when I was 12.)
Health issues: Because of poor parenting, parents misusing alcohol and smoking way too much and chugging out little amount of money they earn (we were a lower middle income family with total net worth of roughly $100k) I wasn't able to live healthy.
I was exposed to lead dust from dad which he worked with while he did wash his hands little he knew that his work clothes would bring the dust to house and spread it to everywhere including my toys, my food. I never had lead poisoning nor my blood levels were checked but for sure I was exposed. Food I ate was cooked in an oven with presumably cadmium paint, it was made in 1980s with no regulations in place. Russian no brand cookware and pottery, probably don't want to know what those bright red glazes made from. I wasn't able to eat enough meat due to misuse of money by parents and my B12 levels were abnormally low, low B12 wasn't treated until I was 17 at the time of treatment I had a B12 level in blood around 90 pg/mL. Mother smoked a lot while she was pregnant, she would smoke a pack per day draining a hole in their pocket and harming me.
I don't think any of my IQ scoring holds to this day, I believe I'm in lower average end simply having poor working memory makes everything irrelevant, It's something that I need most but I can't. I'm tired of having to bring paper and pencil everywhere when a calculation is required.
I can't calculate even simple numbers really ask me what is 9 + 9 no answer I have to count in my head to find out.
When I was 7 years old I really loved mathematics I enjoyed it so much but when the multiplication went in that was the time I basically quit mathematics. I can't hold multiplication table in head It's straight up impossible I had to go in long 2 years of rehabilitation centre for the "disabled" to do mental math to some extent and what's the outcome? I forgot it, I can't do mental math.
Even though I can't do mental math I can grasp logic behind something pretty well eg: I don't know answer of 9 + 9 but I figure out why they would add let's say a given number in a formula so that made me get into programming even without being able to do mental mathematics I was able to figure out things like how to do 3d projections without all those messy complicated maths (though without trigonometry knowledge I made fake rotations using skewing which didn't end up looking best) and write software that rendered 3D pictures as fun little side projects. I was practicing coding since that time but my enjoyment in this hobby also lost lately because I wanted to do something different than this.
I would spend time stimming and imagining about inventions/objects I would create, I imagined a factory to make them and imagined objects spinning showing all their glorious details from production to packaging I would imagine it those may be a smartphone, a tv remote, a display technology using good ol phosphors with an uv light hitting them with specific angles creating a "crt without crt just phosphor", imagining about designing user interfaces for product screens, showing the glossy glass and their micro scratch markings on them it was the most enjoyable thing for me while it caused me to stim a lot by flapping my hands together sometimes resulting in cuts due to fingernails going fast through skin (I explained people that I was feeling my dreams when I did this they found it weird but many people around me accepted it without an issue as "kids these days")
Lately I noticed further degradation of my working memory I'm no longer able to keep a song in head and perfectly remember it's lyrics without distorting or making up something or mentally remember a place with good accuracy and not that related to working memory but ability to mentally spin objects that I imagine also become harder and more stressing. I took the CAIT online digit span test and I scored 3 backwards 4 forwards.
Without good working memory being able to reason about something has no value thus for long time I thought I had to make something that would make people progress further because there's absolutely no mission in real life we make the "game", I guess I wouldn't able to fulfill my dreams I've had as a child as a person with no friends whatsoever and liked to be alone just imagine future projects I could been made this has devastating results, I have now a diminished mental health as result of bad working memory I know nothing I imagine will happen.
Clearly I'm not smart at all, whatever caused this I'm not sure but possibly irreversible, living with poor working memory is low quality life with low chances of success.
I took multiple online IQ tests (mostly unrelated to wm).
Symbol search 100 Mensa Denmark 129 Beta 4 matrices 105 (with an error margin of 8) Mensa Norway not in the range < 90 Ravens progressive matrices clinical edition 112 CAIT digit span ~80
Not an IQ test but HumanBenchmark has a relation to working memory which is correlated with intelligence:
https://preview.redd.it/x7a3p3su1i5d1.png?width=896&format=png&auto=webp&s=b9dd072b1d94667d87e175ec7732a3e685554420
Note: I did rush through matrix tests without giving enough attention until time runs out.
TL;DR: I have working memory deficits and childhood proctored IQ test score of maximum (WISC-R) 126 and minimum (Porteus Labyrinths) 96 never had a proctored IQ test as an adult. I'm only good at block design, coding and matrix reasoning nothing else.
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2024.06.09 01:26 PerceptionRoutine513 Molly too saucy

Posted a picture of Molly here that was too much for the moderation bot..... apparently greyhound bald thigh syndrome triggers it. Oops.
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2024.06.09 00:53 Brookyn_Sounds [US] [Selling] 4K, Blu-ray, and OOP stuff, & OOP Slipboxes from Arrow & Vinegar Syndrome

Shipping is $5. Orders over $35 ship for free. Willing to do bundle deals. No digital codes or slipcovers unless otherwise stated. I accept PayPal Friends & Family, can do Venmo Friends & Family if needed. Open to offers. I can provide Pics of whatever you're interested in. Thanks for looking :)

4K & Blu-ray


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Not sure how to price these. I'm only getting rid of them because I'm running out of shelf space. Shoot me an offer and we can work something out.

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2024.06.09 00:09 Scarecro--w My top 100 songs

  1. S/C/A/E/C/O/W
  2. Mama
  3. Save Yourself, I'll hold them back
  4. This is how I disappear
  5. Last Night on Earth
  6. Neon Gravestones
  7. DESTROYA
  8. Summertime
  9. Sleep
  10. Next Semester
  11. Paladin Strait
  12. Idiotique
  13. Murder City
  14. Thank you for the Venom
  15. It's not a fashion statement, it's a deathwish
  16. Disenchanted
  17. Na na na
  18. You Know what they do to guys like us in prison
  19. I never told you what I Do for a living
  20. Redecorate
  21. Forever Now
  22. Dilemma
  23. Videotape
  24. Motion Picture Soundtrack
  25. Pyramid Song
  26. Dollars and Cents
  27. Party Poison
  28. The Only Hope for Me is You
  29. Bulletproof heart
  30. The Kids from Yesterday
  31. Demolition Lovers
  32. Drugs or me
  33. Weird Fishes/Arpeggi
  34. Nude
  35. Early Sunsets Over Monroeville
  36. House of Wolves
  37. Helena
  38. How to Disappear Completely
  39. The Foundations of Decay
  40. No Chances
  41. Nico and the Niners
  42. Lazy Bones
  43. Boy Division
  44. The Light Behind Your Eyes
  45. Restless Heart Syndrome
  46. Routines in the night
  47. Brother
  48. Desert Song
  49. Welcome to the Black Parade
  50. Morph
  51. Jumpsuit
  52. Give up the Ghost
  53. No Suprises
  54. There, There
  55. Last Flowers
  56. True Love Waits
  57. I Might be wrong
  58. Honey, this mirror isn't big enough for the two of us
  59. Hang 'em high
  60. The Outside
  61. 21st Century Breakdown
  62. I Don't Love You
  63. Horseshoes and Handgrenades
  64. American Eulogy
  65. Whatsername
  66. Navigating
  67. Separator
  68. All I need
  69. Everything in it's right place
  70. Life in a Glasshouse
  71. Planetary (GO!)
  72. The National Anthem
  73. Surrender the Night
  74. Friend, Please
  75. The World You Love
  76. Suzie Chapstick
  77. Chlorine
  78. Dead!
  79. Kiss the Ring
  80. She Had the World
  81. This Ain't a Scene, it's an Arms Race
  82. Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying
  83. 27
  84. Cancer
  85. Bobby Sox
  86. Levitate
  87. Northern Downpour
  88. Famous Last Words
  89. A wolf at the door
  90. To the End
  91. Electioneering
  92. Street Spirit (Fade Out)
  93. Knives Out
  94. Present Tense
  95. Like Spinning Plates
  96. Redundant
  97. West Coast Smoker
  98. America's Suitehearts
  99. Skylines and Turnstiles
  100. The Ghost of You
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2024.06.08 16:12 BQueenx Handed in my notice to pursue a dream

Let me start with I have struggled to put my needs first, I have been through some difficult sh*t and been faced with some hard decisions and this was up there for me!
I want to share this with others who have self-doubt, imposter syndrome, facing a battle between their head and their heart! Life really and truly is fleeting and I am grateful for everything I have, I know that millions are worse off but we can still strive for more, strive for happiness! We are allowed to take control of our own lives, our own paths. In the end it came down to not being scared of the unknown but being terrified of standing still. I wasn't growing, I was stagnating in my corporate 9-5 job.
It's a decent and easy job, as far as office jobs go and that's what made it more difficult than it needed to be. I am well aware how awful some jobs can be. To give some background, my first office job was for an online pet shop, I've cut out the detail or this post would take hours to read but sadly my dear mum lost her battle with cancer a few months after I started there, I was 22. Obviously I was crying all the time at work (but I was still doing the work I must say!) and management never talked to me, instead they sent me an email that in summary said they have a business to run and I quote 'to stop moping around the office'. I left after and conveniently got covid during my notice period. Not long after I got a job in a call center selling life insurance, this was full on cold calling and the abuse I would get on the phone was too much coupled with the grief and trauma so I didn't stay there long. Long story short I bought a project boat and worked on that for 6 months. I decided to keep it for longer and have been staying on it while at my current job. Bringing us to today where yesterday I handed in my notice.
It has been challenging moving onto a boat as a 24 year old girl with no previous interest or knowledge in boats. The first year at work was good, I was working in admin, I liked my colleague and manager. but my second year I was 'promoted' and moved into another part of the company. They hired a new administrator who I also really got on with but I was no longer in that team. I won't go into details incase my someone reads this post and identifies me as it's pretty niche. I journal and listen to podcasts which really helps me organise my thoughts. These are the pros and cons I wrote down of the job when confirming my reasons to leave. Cons:
Far to travel - It's only 7 miles away but most days in the school traffic takes 40 minutes. Having issues with someone - again I can give more details when i'm outta there. Sitting in silence most of the day - not very chatty now there has been a change of staff, the two people I mentioned earlier have left. Sitting in front of a screen all day - of course this is to be expected in the office but it is a con. Sitting is the new smoking. fulfillment, boring. Wishing the day away and living for the weekend - literally counting down the minutes until 5. Far from friends and family - I was only going to see my bf, my dog and my friends on weekends, there was no social life in the week really. Some jobs, like my boyfriends team have a great social atmosphere, they go out for drinks after work, go out for meals and meetings but nothing like that at mine.
Pros: I wrote down no pros
It is clear as crystal, changes need to be made. I knew from previous experience there that they would take my leaving badly. It took everything in my power to schedule a meeting with my boss and break the news. Beforehand, I read so many posts, listened to so many podcasts just searching desperately for the right answer. I had to force out the words, breathing shakily, I didn’t mention any of my issues with the job, I made out the reasons for leaving were personal which was easier for them to accept. People leave jobs all the time, there is never going to be the perfect time to quit but it is in my best interests to go. And it was done in less than 10 minutes. I am kind of dreading Monday where everyone in the company will be made aware but it’s part of the process. I will make the process easier for them, working my notice to the end of the month. But knowing that the end is in sight is such a weight off my shoulders. I’ll have a flexible schedule to finally work for myself, it’s all set up and ready to go and honestly I now feel so excited.
I overthink as many many people do. The easiest option would have been to suck it up and stay. It's a job, I've been told jobs aren't meant to be fun, that's why they pay you. But we’re getting older every second. If you haven't read it already, I recommend a book called 'The subtle art of not giving a f*ck' It highlights how insignificant we really are, in the grand scheme of things our choices don't matter. This way of thinking can be freeing, of course this doesn't mean to go off the rails or fill your life with debt. But do what is best for you! I'm at a point of my life where I want to buy a house, I want to get married and settle down, get a baby and a puppy. It is now or never to start a business. It's my dream to start a pet business, helping people with their dogs. Improving the lives of dogs in need. It’s more fulfilling than sitting at a desk and making money for my boss's new house. I’ve never cared about money but I can see how addictive it is to chase. If there is something that you are passionate about, you need to go after that. It’s how we grow, we try new things, we make mistakes, we learn and have new experiences, make new memories. I just wasn’t doing that at my desk 5 days a week. Feel the fear and do it anyway, push out of your comfort zone and put some trust in yourself. Self doubt and thinking you are not going to be good enough or not experienced enough is normal! And let me tell you that everyone has some degree of anxiety and everyone is winging it. A quote from Alan Watts, ‘When you look at the bigger picture, your life doesn’t seem so important, it’s what you do that really matters’. Time is never promised.
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2024.06.08 14:23 iforgtitagain_ Chimerism in general

I wonder how common chimerism is, traditionally it is generally thought to be very rare because of the low number of reported cases, but it is speculated to be possibly very common, with some sources even saying it is a certainty.
Because of the difference in eye colour I came across a wikipedia article about chimerism when I was quite young, and at the time the article was quite sentimentally stating that the phenomenon was very rare and there were less than 100 cases, I don't think this necessarily did my mental development any good though I sort of tried to ignore it.
Are there any XX/XY chimeras (or "mosaics" (which might often be misdiagnosed chimerism)) here who grew up not knowing they were like that? I'd be interested to hear about your experiences. I think I'm a big mess and don't know if it's only like mental or inborn/physical too.
I can't even be entirely sure if I'm affected by the phenomenon, but then sometimes I don't think I should really doubt it at all. Physical features includes heterochromia, quite minor localised skin colour variations, asymmetrical face which was later accentuated by the asymmetrical development of wisdom teeth, congenital hear murmur caused by minor heart structure anomaly, vague sexual features. During my teens (and before too) I got very insecure and worried about by development, when I had big crush on girl I was relieved and thought something like "phew at least I'm not gay" but sometimes I had kind of sexual dreams that made me feel cringe after waking up and often when I saw pictures or posters of some little clothed male models they involuntarily pulled my eyes and gave me some sort of warm feeling. Also when I was around 13-15 year old I was concerned if I'm "sterile" or have got too big kick on my balls or have licked too many plastic toys as a child, when I heard people can be born with uncleaundeveloped genitals which are then operated sometimes resulting to mismatch their true gender I was also worried if I was like that.
Oh and other people noticed and still does that I have somewhat not always very manly features. But I still tried to grow as pure man and often suppress most of the things I thought or identified to be feminine, same time I was also quite worried whether I am down syndromed like retard or something like that, which quite bit might had suppressed my ego/identify/courage to express myself or w/e might the most describing term be, you probably get it.
Wondering if these are common experiences.
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2024.06.08 07:15 Hifilistener Progress Report 15 Months

I have been meaning to come here and give an update on my 15-month keto journey. I am not typically one to talk a lot about myself, but I do want to share this for benefit of other who may wonder about keto. Disclaimer this is my second go round with keto, I did it in the past and was wildly successful then as well. I slipped off and went back to old habits. My first keto experience was about 12 years ago, and it took me that long to gain all of the weight back. I have always struggled with weight. I would attempt to do LC and would fail usually within a week.
A bit of back story here. I contracted COVID December 2021. I went to my PCPs for my regular MED check/labs in February 2022. My bloodwork showed elevated liver enzymes (ALT/AST both slightly). Doctor informed me it was likely fatty liver due to my weight, or possibly still recovering from COVID. My doctor was not very worried about the levels, and pretty much said if I wanted to look into it, we could arrange a liver ultrasound. Over the course of the year, I went to get labs done on my own. My liver enzymes did come down slightly, AST returned to normal levels, ALT was very slightly elevated. I spent a lot of time reading nafld and other forums about fatty liver. I really scared myself, reading into the cases of fatty liver that progressed to cirrhosis in otherwise healthy folks, folks that weren't even drinkers. This is becoming an issue here in the US. At the beginning of 2023 I went for a liver ultrasound as my numbers still were not normal. The results came back as fatty liver. While reading over the radiologist's report, I realized I absolutely had to do something to work on my health. I was the walking picture of CAD/Metabolic Syndrome. I am obese, hypertension, hyperuricemia (High Uric Acid) w/Gout, high triglycerides, fasting blood glucose numbers heading towards 100 (normal A1C thank goodness). Family history of heart issues and diabetes.
Started back on keto February 27, 2023. Starting weight right around 400lbs. Current Weight 273lbs. (127lbs lost). Lost 6 pants sizes or 12 sizes depends on how you look at it. I am happy to report that I had additional liver testing at the end 2023 (Fibroscan) and had no scarring. My liver enzymes have dropped to lower numbers, from abnormal range/high normal to middle of the normal range scale. I got my triglycerides down 240 points, A1C down, Fasting Blood Glucose down, and Uric Acid levels down too. I came off one blood pressure medicine totally, and I think I am almost at the point where I can get off the other.
I have "cheated" only one time. I got married in May, and I did eat some sweets at my wedding. It is amazing how bad you feel from them. I gained 6lbs in cheating for two days. I fasted one day totally after, and lost all 6 lbs plus 1lb :)
I will add this about the triglycerides. I started taking Krill Oil (Mega Red) Omega 3 to help before keto, and they did help. The fish oil + keto made a HUGE difference.
I do dirty keto, hate me if you want. My only objective is to stay under 20g of carbs a day. I am thinking I want to stay around 250lbs ultimately. I am about 6 foot 6 so that will take me out of the obese BMI scale.
I am open for any questions or discussion on my journey. I am likely forgetting other things too. I just wanted to share this story for others.
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2024.06.08 06:31 Loser_Baby_19 Delusions of Grandeur

Some words of ‘wisdom’ recently heard during a live video feed:
“Sorry we do not advise or encourage anyone to get a monkey as a pet, if you watched our live and videos I explained many times…”
“I can’t with a conscious heart advise anyone to get a monkey, sorry. It’s so much work, have to clean everyday, lot goes into it even with one..”
The above monologue was in response to a series of text messages from a viewer that Pete shared during a recent live feed. This viewer, at 47 years of age, wanted a pet monkey as a substitute child and was asking Pete for help/recommendations. The viewer was given a reply like the above, that getting a pet monkey is not advised. The viewer did not seem to take that response well, and angrily claimed that Pete was a hypocrite for owning pet monkeys yet advising others not to get one.
Monkey vloggers lecturing their viewers not to get pet monkeys and instead live vicariously through them are indeed hypocrites of the lowest common denominator.
Whether these pet monkey owners want to admit it or not, by their very actions of posting videos and pictures of their pet monkeys on social media, they are in fact ‘inspiring’ viewers to desire a pet monkey of their own. Who knows how many of the more than 15,000 non-human pet primates in this country were purchased by viewers watching these ‘cute’ monkey videos. And who knows how many of these primates were subsequently abandoned or turned into sanctuaries after only a short period of time due to their unpredictable wild behaviors?
What’s particularly egregious about these pet monkey vloggers is that they present a completely false and unhealthy image of pet monkeys to their viewers. They give the false and damaging impression that primates living with humans inside their homes, doing human activities, or just being in the presence of human companions, is completely normal and even safe. Even worse, these pet monkey vloggers give the completely false impression that monkeys can actually ‘thrive’ in such forced environments and live a better quality of life than what they would experience in the wild.
It just goes to show how delusional these pet monkey vloggers especially Pete truly are. He gives off this smug vibe that you shouldn’t get a pet monkey because you couldn’t hope to work as ‘hard’ as he does maintaining his pet monkeys (as if he deserves some special praise or recognition for what he does). That you shouldn’t get a pet capuchin monkey because you don’t know how to relate to them as a species as well as he can. In a previous live video feed, Pete was practically anointing himself as the second coming of Christ by inferring that what he was doing with his monkeys was deserving of the highest accolades.
Next time you see monkey vloggers like Pete humble brag about all the ‘hard work’ they put into keeping pet monkeys, next time you see monkey vloggers like Pete self-congratulate themselves as monkey guru/experts, just remember that monkeys are wild animals and should never be kept as pets. Even with all their so called 'expert' knowledge about monkeys and 'hard work' and 'love' maintaining them, these pet monkeys still show sings of severe dysfunction.
Despite what many think, monkeys are not and never have been ‘domesticated’ unlike pet dogs and cats. When you see these pet monkeys seemingly acting “chill,” it is because they have been stripped of their monkey humanity to become shells of their former selves (Stockholm syndrome of the worst kind). These pet monkeys were purchased from the shady world of the exotic pet trade in America, monkeys that were unfairly taken from their mothers as an infant in order to be exploited. Monkey vloggers like Pete deserve no ‘praise’ whatsoever for having pet monkeys; monkeys under their ‘care’ are in no way shape or form living a ‘better’ life than if they were in the wild.
A compilation of previously seen video clips proving that monkeys are NOT pets
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2024.06.08 06:03 Direct-Caterpillar77 WIBTA if I skipped my sister's wedding? (New Update)

I am not The OOP, OOP is u/brotherconflict
WIBTA if I skipped my sister's wedding?
Originally posted to AmItheAsshole & OOP's own page
Previous BoRU
TRIGGER WARNING: emotional abuse and manipulation, verbal abuse, neglect, harassment, controlling behavior, golden child syndrome
Original Post May 31, 2023
Throwaway account + fake names.

I (23m) am one of seven kids. There's Lydia (31f), Josh (28m), Leo (25m), me, then Erin (21f), Nadia (18f), and the surprise child Lexie (4f). With that many siblings, it's easy to get lost in the crowd. Some of us have our 'positions,' so to speak. Lydia's the oldest, Lexie's the baby, I have a kid (yes, that's my descriptor. OP: gave us a grandchild). Erin is the golden child. She was the last planned child, the one supposed to tie up our family. She was born premature so I understand that my parents coddled her to an extent, but it's more than that now.

Erin's getting married and recently told us that she's brought the date forward due to a cancellation. No big deal, it just means they're getting married sooner. But the new date lands on the date of Nadia's HS graduation. Erin was sympathetic, but said she's already committed to the date, they've printed the invitations. My parents normally go overboard on our HS grads, but they said that they'd just have to miss Nadia's. We were all sympathetic, but it wasn't intentional.

Or so I thought. But Nadia later told me and Leo that she was there when Erin got the call about the cancellation and told Erin that she was graduating that day, but Erin just laughed and accepted the date anyway. This, as much as I hate to admit it, sounds like a very Erin thing to do. She booked her engagement part for the night of Nadia's 18th birthday (luckily, she wasn't celebrating until the weekend). She announced her engagement at my oldest sister's wedding anniversary. Everything is about her.

I confronted Erin about this, and she said that Nadia's HS graduation didn't matter. She wanted to get married to the love of her life sooner—and our family had been to plenty of HS graduations at this point, anyway. She said something like, "we still have Lexie." But here's what gets me the most: Nadia's been looking forward to this for so long. She's watched all of us graduate and have these huge celebrations thrown by our parents. I asked Nadia what she wanted, and she said she wanted to have her day.

So, I told my family that me and Nadia won't be attending the wedding. Leo has also dropped out. Everyone's angry. Erin's furious, and I didn't make it better by telling her that I could watch our other siblings get married, since it's all the same in her eyes. Mom's trying to convince me to come to the wedding because 'graduation isn't as important' but I feel like if I don't do this then it sets a precedent in Nadia's life that she's always going to mean less than Erin. I've had messages calling me an asshole, an idiot, etc. They're telling me to step up and be a good brother, but that's what I'm doing. My son is supposed to be ring bearer but with how my family is reacting, I'm considering pulling him out of the wedding, too. My dad's told Nadia he'll take her to dinner after the wedding. Nadia's currently staying with me because mom won't stop cornering her.

AITA?
VERDICT: NOT THE ASSHOLE
Update 1 June 11, 2023
It's two days after D-Day and I finally come bearing an update! I've had to condense it quite a bit because a lot has happened. Before I start, Nadia wanted me to thank everyone who congratulated her on her graduation. She was overwhelmed by the support you all gave her, especially after she faced such opposition from our family.
So, let's start. Last Friday, Leo and I went to speak to our parents and Erin. I wanted to tell them that I'd be pulling my son from the wedding. Our older siblings ended up turning up as well, so it was us four standing up for Nadia. Leo had spoken to them the night before, and helped them see things more clearly from Nadia's eyes. Apparently, it didn't sink in with them that Erin chose the date intentionally.
There was a lot of yelling. Erin accused me of trying to sabotage her wedding, our parents tried to convince me to let them take my son to the wedding, but I stood my ground. I felt a lot stronger with my older siblings with me. There's only two years between me and Erin after all, I'm not much of an older brother.
Luckily, Lydia was there. Her words carry more weight as the eldest and she didn't give Erin or my parents room to argue as she told them that Erin chose the date intentionally, admitted as much in front of me and Leo, and that this was normal behaviour for her. Lydia told them that if they continued to favor Erin so blatantly, the rest of us would go no-contact—and Lexie would likely follow in the future.
Our dad started yelling. Not at us, but at Erin, surprisingly. I've never seen him so angry before, and to see it directed at Erin was... shocking. Our mom asked us to leave. We didn't hear from anyone on that side until Monday when Erin's fiancé George asked to meet us at our parents'. He apologised to Nadia. He didn't know that the wedding and graduation overlapped, nor did he know that it was something Erin did on purpose. Our dad was the one to tell him.
What followed was a long talk between us, during which we all aired our grievances. I told our parents that we all felt that they valued Erin more. That none of us mattered to them compared to her. Her artwork always went up on the fridge, ours always went in the drawer. I told them that, as a parent, I could never imagine treating my child like that.
Erin tried to argue. She tried to tell us that we were trying to turn her into a bad guy, trying to turn our parents against her, trying to sabtoage her wedding. Our mom told her to be quiet, that it was our time to talk. George stepped in to tell us that he didn't expect us to attend the wedding, but we were welcome to attend the reception. He went so far as to say that he wished he could have cancelled the wedding altogether, but it'd only cost him more money that he'd spent by bringing it forward.
Mom's willingness to hear us out lasted less than 24 hours. By Tuesday, she was begging us to reconsider. Apparently our feelings meant nothing in the face of Erin's dire stress and the fact that people would be questioning our absence on the big day. I haven't spoken to my mom since, but I did ask my dad to bring my some of Nadia's things because she is going to be staying with me full-time.
We have officially gone no-contact with our mother.
Dad took Nadia out for an early-graduation celebration on Wednesday. They had a daddy-daughter date that I think she really needed. He apologised for a lot of things and told her he wanted to do the same with the rest of us. But Wednesday was about her. I'm happy she got that one-on-one time with him. She was happy coming home to me. In our sibling group chat, she said that she really thinks dad is going to try to mend bridges with us, even if mom won't.
Dad also turned up early yesterday morning (I'm talking... 6.30 a.m.) to give Nadia flowers. He told her that he was proud of her. George even called while he was getting ready for his big day to congratulate Nadia, which I really appreciated.
We didn't hear from mom or Erin. Our paternal grandma ended up coming to the graduation with us.
It was a great day. Like, a really great day. We didn't think about the wedding, didn't think about Erin. We just had fun together. My son got to wear his aunt's cap and gown and nearly drowned in the fabric. Our grandma tried on the cap, too. We took photos and sent them to our dad, who posted them in a Facebook post he wrote to congratulate both Erin on her wedding and Nadia on her graduation and we laughed about how it must have pissed off our newly wedded sister. We went out for dinner and we, as siblings, gifted Nadia money for a week away with her best friend, which somebody suggested in a comment on the initial post.
I texted George my congratulations. Despite everything, I do hope he and Erin are happy together. While she might not love us, I don't doubt that Erin loves him. Yes, she wants her spotlight and her moment, but I don't think she's marrying him just for that. Bringing the wedding forward? Sure, that's a hugely malicious tactic to bring herself more attention. Marrying him for the sake of having a wedding? She isn't that type of narcissist.
As of right now, I plan on staying no-contact with my mom unless she makes some big changes. This is a sentiment shared not only by the majority of my siblings, but is also encouraged by our dad and grandma. She's tried reaching out to me and my partner, mostly berating us for not attending the wedding and accusing us of planning to keep her grandchild away from her.
At the moment, our summer looks busy! We're planning on filling it with as many family outings as possible before Nadia leaves for college. We've also got Josh's 29th birthday to plan! Our dad's even joining in! This might cause a bigger rift between him and mom, but for now, at least, it looks like we're his priority. Lydia's threat really did something to him.
Thanks everyone who left comments on the original post! I know they really cheered Nadia up when she was worrying about whether or not she was doing the right thing by choosing herself. Part of me wishes we could've taken this stand earlier, but it took us a while to find our voices. Looking into the future, I do see two empty spaces at my own wedding, but I also see five siblings cheering my on. I'm happy with that.
Update 2 Oct 31, 2023
It's been about 5 months since I've last posted, and I've had some requests for an update, so I figured I'd sit down and write one up. Bare in mind, a lot can happen in 5 months, and that's definitely true for this!

Let me start off with July. Erin and George went on their Honeymoon, and their absence sent our Mom into a frenzy. She wasn't used to having no one around; someone was always visiting. Mostly Erin, but the rest of us would visit out of obligation and to see Nadia and Lexie. With Erin on her Honeymoon and the rest of us NC, Mom had no visitors and she really didn't like that. Literally the DAY after Erin left, we started getting bombarded with phone calls. She tried convincing Nadia first, which Lydia thought was a strategic move because Nadia is the more timid of all of us and, thus, more likely to be persuaded. When Nadia turned her down, she turned her sights on the rest of us. We all got identical phone calls with her trying to persuade us to go visit her, to understand her, to see things from Erin's perspective. She even brought up the circumstances of Erin's premature birth and how it was a miracle that she was even here. Josh told her to 'do better with Lexie.' Lydia blocked her number.

When the phone calls didn't work, she started turning up at our homes. She continued spewing much of the same shit she had over the phone and before the wedding. She didn't understand what she'd done so wrong, why we were treating her like this. She called me ungrateful and disrespectful. She accused us of harbouring 'unnecessary jealousy' towards Erin and that she loved us all equally. I didn't respond to these comments. I was just trying to prevent her from going inside and saying the same things to Nadia, who was with my partner and son in the living room. Her comments didn't deserve a response, and when she was done I asked her to leave as calmly as I could, but truthfully, I felt a little like crying. But who wouldn't feel shitty with their mom yelling in their face like that, trying to downplay years of pain and calling it 'unnecessary jealousy?'

My siblings and I have been let down time and time again by her and our dad ever since Erin was born. They missed out on so many things over the years, both big and small. But we had one thing. One thing. One thing that they never missed and we were happy with just that one thing, and that was our HS Graduations, but they couldn't give that to Nadia. All we had were our HS Graduations. They missed Josh's college graduation because Erin broke her leg. It was an accident, I get that, but they never made it up to him. They never celebrated this huge achievement afterwards, and he just had to grin and bear it. Our Mom didn't turn up to my partner's babysitter after making such a huge fuss about it because Erin didn't want to go and wanted them to get their nails done together instead.

But our jealousy is unnecessary?

Sorry.

I don't know how I managed to stay calm when she was yelling at me, but I did. Asking her to leave made her switch tactics though, and she started calling out for my son, trying to coax him to go to her and telling me that she had a right to see her grandson. My partner stepped in then, because she was seething, and took my place at the door. Mom yelled some more but she left when my partner threatened to call the cops.

Mom repeated this song and dance with my older siblings but similarly got nowhere with them.

Then came the Facebook posts. Indirect rants about ungrateful people and how shocking it is that 'some kids' could turn against their parents so easily. Erin somehow got involved while on her honeymoon and called Lydia to scold her for being mean to our mom. But as I've said before, Lydia is angry and she's had enough. Whatever she said to Erin prevented her from calling the rest of us.

There was then a Facebook post about how much it hurt to be kept from a grandchild. Now, there were no names mentioned, but there is only one grandchild and that is my son. My mom's sister called me. There was yelling. I blocked the number.

I know Dad was trying to convince our Mom to just... leave us alone. He kept apologizing because she just wasn't listening to him.

Erin came home after two weeks. She tried reaching out to Lydia again, asking for us all to talk because, and this is a quote from Lydia, 'clearly you (we) all have some issues to work out.' We did not turn up. Erin was very angry at that because she's not used to us turning up for her.

July wasn't all bad though. While our Mom was on a rampage, our Dad was still trying to do better by us. And he's improved a lot! In July, he and I went out for a meal together, just the two of us, and grabbed a drink, and he apologized. It wasn't a generic apology that he could've repeated to all of us, about how he's sorry that he hurt us and neglecting us, but he brought up specific instances that he wanted to apologize for. He thought back on all those years and picked out moments that he wanted to apologize to me for. I know he did the same for the others, but having him apologize for things like cancelling a fishing trip because Erin 'needed him' was something I wasn't expecting.

And I never really cared for fishing, but I wanted to go on that trip because I always saw it on TV, you know? I'd always see a dad and son fishing together and I wanted to have that. I wanted dad to prove that I was a priority to him somewhere deep down. It didn't happen, and I never asked again.

But we went fishing in July. What started as a trip between the two of us soon grew into a family day out when my siblings expressed an interest in going fishing, too. My brothers first, then Nadia, and even Lydia who hates the smell of fish. Dad brought Lexie and I brought my son, and it was great. It was one of the best days of my life. I suck at fishing, but I'm pretty great at collecting seashells. It was brilliant.

Our parents did end up arguing when Dad went home. I wasn't there, so I don't know every little detail, but from what Dad told me, the argument was mostly because Mom didn't understand why we were still in contact with him and not her. She found it insulting that we were repairing our relationship with him. She was angry that Dad wasn't pushing us to forgive her, or why he wasn't stopping us from 'acting out.' She was angry that he didn't extend an invitation to her and Erin for the fishing trip, and she was even angrier when he explained that their presence would make us uncomfortable.

Josh turned 29 and the end of July. We booked an escape room for the five of us siblings, then we met our dad and partners for dinner that evening. Josh introduced us to his new partner for the first time. All of our attention was on Josh, the day was completely about him, which was a first for our family. Then there was a party thrown for him by his friends which I came out of with a massive hangover.

Mom started giving us the silent treatment in the middle of August. Dad moved out in September. While we were getting the silent treatment, Dad was baring the brunt of her anger and it really took it out of him. He was trying to do better by us and she was trying to villainise us, and he ultimately told her that if she didn't take accountability for her actions soon, then he'd be contacting a lawyer. Mom didn't take him seriously. He's been staying in Lydia's guest room since. Mom doubled down and said that he was blind for not seeing how we were manipulating him. Unlike the rest of us, Dad obviously still has regular contact with Erin—and according to him, she's even told Mom to reconsider. Unsurprisingly, Erin's involvement is what got Mom to relent. I'm not sure if she's thinking about how she's treated us, or if she's silently stewing. I know she asked Dad if he's going to move back home but he said that it was better for them to have space right now. Personally, I'm struggling to see an outcome where our Mom sincerely admits that she was in the wrong. I think she'll say it just to get Dad back home and the rest of us talking to her again. I don't think she'll ever hold us to the same level as Erin.

In brighter news, there's officially less than a year left until my own wedding. Currently, there is no place for my mom or Erin. My partner Jade and I are having our fathers wear ties that match me and my groomsmen, something I originally didn't plan to do, but I'm happy with the change. Nadia's settled in at college. She's made some new friends with kids in her classes, and she's enjoying. She's happy. Even though we have an active group chat, she facetimes me every few days just to talk. Most of what she says I've already read in the gc, but I'm always willing to listen to her stories again. Nadia never used to talk this much. She looks a lot happier now than she did five months ago.

I think that's everything. I'm sorry for the novel, but like I said, a lot can happen in five months.

NEW UPDATE

Update 3 June 1, 2024
Original
Previous Update
So, it's been about 7 months since my last update and I thought one was well overdue! I actually intended on sitting down and writing one out a few months ago, but life got in the way. A lot has happened, most of it good, some of it not. I'm sure you can guess what or who the reason for the not good moments were.
Mom was silent through Lydia's birthday in October, but made a huge song and dance for Erin's in November. None of us make it a habit to check her social media accounts, and honestly we'd have blocked her if it weren't for Lexie, but Leo sent a screenshot in the group chat about a post she'd made. The post essentially painted Erin as the perfect child, her precious angel, and said how she'd always be proud of her. She didn't even mention Lydia on her page at all during her birthday, but I can't say I'm surprised.
Thanksgiving was different, but fun. We all drove out to our paternal grandparents' place a few hours away to spend it with them. Technically, it was supposed to be an in-law year, since Jade and I tend to switch who we spend it with so that neither one of our families were being left out, but she suggested we switch it up this year so that I could be with my siblings on the first big holiday since the fallout. My in-laws are great people and have been really supportive throughout all of this, and I'm really grateful for them, too. Mom didn't reach out to us on the day, but I could tell she was fuming. It didn't help that she was being asked questions after Lydia posted a Thanksgiving day photo that didn't include her or Erin.
In December, she started a group chat with all of us and Dad essentially telling us it was time to stop this 'petty drama' and focus on family. But none of us are stupid. We all know she wanted to show off her picture perfect family over Christmas, and how could she do that when all but two of her children can't stand to be near her? Erin was in the group, but didn't speak up, which was odd for her, but none of us really thought much of it at the time. Dad said he'd swing by to see Lexie, but he had no interest in spending Christmas with her until she was ready to admit to the pain they'd caused us. A week later, my birthday also went ignored by her, but that was fine. It only proved that she had no intention of admitting she was the bad guy.
She got more desperate as Christmas drew closer. The messages and phone calls started up again, but I could ignore those for the most part. What I couldn't ignore was coming home from work to find her on my doorstep. She told me she'd been waiting for ages, like I was expecting her visit and had done it intentionally... which, honestly, I probably would have given the state of our relationship. I'm just grateful my family wasn't home—Jade was on her way back from work herself, and our son with her parents. I didn't want to invite her inside, but honestly given how desperate she looked, I also didn't want to deal with her where my neighbors could see.
This woman told me that Christmas was about family and forgiveness. She told me I was taking it too far by keeping her grandson away from her, and how confused he must be without her. She said it like I was using my son to punish her. I told her it was better this way, because we all knew what'd happen if Erin had a child someday. My son would be pushed to the side like the rest of us were, and I didn't want that for him. She said I was being ridiculous and once again used that line, I love you all equally.
I asked her to leave, because nothing was changing my stance, and I wasn't going to be spending Christmas with her. She got angry. She started yelling, and while I want to say I kept my composure, I didn't. I started yelling too. The more I yelled, the more worked up I got, to the point that I started shedding tears. Reddit, this was years of hurt rushing to the surface. I don't think I will ever understand how she can claim to love us all equally but tell her crying son to stop being so dramatic. She left only when Jade came back and saw the state I was in. Jade's little but fierce and would do anything for me and my son, and I swear my mom left terrified of her that day.
The social media posts picked up again. She played victim, shared posts about children not respecting the sacrifices mothers make for them and stuff like that. She posted how we didn't appreciate all that she'd done for us, but we all ignored it. We did our own Christmas. Jade, our son, and I visited the in-laws on Christmas morning, watched our son and nieces open their presents there, and then went over to Lydia's house. She offered to host us all this year. Dad took his place in the kitchen, joined by his assistant chefs Josh and Lydia's husband.
We didn't see our Mom or Erin until January. Lexie turned 5, so there was a party, and we weren't about to punish our sister for the actions of the Demon that birthed us. So we went. There were some questions, but people didn't push when it was obvious that none of us wanted to get into it. Mom acted like everything was fine, but Erin stayed away from us. At the end of the party, as we were helping clean up, Mom said it was good that we were finally putting things behind us. Lydia told her the only thing we were putting behind us was her. That started her off again, but she quickly realized she was outnumbered and headed inside. That was when Erin approached us with her husband. Honestly, I was expecting her to tell us to go easy on our mom or something, but instead she apologized. She said she'd been doing a lot of thinking since all of this started, and she realized that treated us badly her whole life, and part of that was influenced by the way our parents treated her. She told us she didn't expect us to forgive her, but that she just wanted to tell us that she was sorry. We left a little while later.
There was silence at the end of January and in February for Leo and Nadia's birthdays, but we were expecting that. Our days never did matter to her, after all.
I got married in April without my mom present. It was hands down one of the best days of my life, second only to the birth of my son. Jade and I were surrounded by the people we cared about most and who cared about us in return. I had both of my brothers as my best men, Nadia and Lydia were bridesmaids, too. It was better than anything I could've imagined. Honestly, I'm still blown away by the fact I now get to call Jade my wife. It's been amazing. But, I'm sure you're all wondering how my mother handled this, and I can tell you plainly that she did not handle it well.
Truthfully, when we sent out invitations, part of me hoped that the news just... wouldn't get back to her? I hoped it'd go smoothly enough that I wouldn't actually have to talk to her about this decision, but of course that'd be too easy. She showed up a few days later banging on my door, demanding I talk to her. I went out. I didn't let her in, despite knowing that the neighbors could see us, and that was solely because I didn't want her inside my home where my son was. I didn't want her scaring him like she was undoubtedly doing. She demanded to know what I was playing at, how I could be so cruel, how I could exclude her from such a special day. I told her plainly that my wedding was a day for me to celebrate with my close loved ones, and she wasn't someone I considered close or a loved one anymore. She'd made her bed, she had to lie in it.
Part of me worried that she'd turn up at my wedding. She came by the house a few more times, but stopped when I threatened to call the cops. I didn't do it sooner because I guess I'm soft at heart and didn't want to see my mom in any trouble, but every time she showed up to spew some bullshit about me being a terrible son for doing this to her, it drained me. There were social media posts, of course. I had relatives reaching out to me to tell me I should invite her, what kind of son am I, etc., but they stopped when I told them I'd take back their invites, too. No one mentioned her at the wedding, and she didn't try showing up. She did, however, try to prevent Lexie from being a flower girl, like I promised, but Dad quickly nipped that in the bud.
Which takes me to the next point, my parents are officially over. Dad sent her divorce papers sometime in February, and I don't think he's looking back at all. This is something that also shocks me, because this time last year, he was much the same as she was. He was someone who cared more about Erin than any of us, someone who brushed off our achievements if they somehow interfered with hers, and now he was an advocate for us. Every time Mom posted something on social media belittling us, he responded with a post uplifting us.
I never imagined having such a good relationship with my dad, but here we are. We helped him move into his own place back in March. He's a new man, honestly. He's worked out a 50/50 custody agreement for Lexie, because as much as he'd be happy to have full custody, he wants to believe that she can change like he did. He has said, however, that if he catches even the slightest hint of Lexie being mistreated like we were, he'd be filing for it.
In the case of my siblings, life has been going good for them, too. Leo got a raise at work and has adopted a dog that my son is obsessed with—to the point that I think we may need to get a dog ourselves, haha. Josh and his partner are going strong. He fits right into our family, and I couldn't be happier for Josh. He's found someone that really cares about him, and I can tell he's in love. Maybe there will be wedding bells there soon? Lexie... well, Lexie's 5 so there's not really much going on in her life. I think she recently made my dad join her tea party.
QUICK EDIT TO ADD: Lexie is obviously aware that things have changed. She's naturally confused about it all. Things changed so much in the space of a year, and I can't imagine what it was like for her living with our parents when Mom was angry all of the time. We've let her know that we'll always be there for her and that we're safe spaces if she needs to talk about her feelings or if she has any questions to ask. We don't want this affecting her more than it already has. Josh is the one who's made headway on that. He works in childcare and has experience in things like this. Dad is thinking about setting up therapy for her.
But I'm sure you're all wondering about Nadia and Erin. Nadia's great. She's honestly thriving. I think being away from our mom, Erin, and the pressures at home has really helped her find herself as a person. She's made new friends, excelling in class, and she's just... an overall happier person, which is all I care about. She's happy, I'm happy. She's been invited to move in with my dad, now that he has his own place and enough room for her and Lexie, but she hasn't decided on an answer yet. She's more than welcome to stay here if she wants, but I know that she also wants to be closer with our dad. I'll support her no matter what, and I've told her that she can try it with dad if she wants, and she can come back if it's too weird for her.
Erin is another story. We are no longer NC with her, but we are LC. After her apology at Lexie's party, Leo reached out to see if it was genuine. All of us were pretty stuck on what to do, to be honest. Erin was never someone to bow her head and apologize, but how could we know if it was genuine and not a ploy to get us to forgive our mom or something? Erin asked to speak with us in person when Leo reached out to her, and we agreed because we were curious to see how it'd go. We also agreed that if she tried anything, we would be leaving immediately and would block her again.
The meeting happened in mid-January, between Lexie and Leo's birthdays. We met at her place. Erin looked like a nervous wreck, like she hadn't slept all night, and honestly it was really weird because she's normally so put together? Like even when she was throwing tantrums, she looked better than this. We sat down and she started off by apologizing to us again, she said that she was needlessly cruel and unfair to us, especially Nadia, and even apologized for trying to ruin her graduation. She said when we all backed out of our wedding, she was confused and hurt because none of us had said no to her before. She thought we were closer than that, but realized now that it was one-sided. She thought we were close and we just wanted to be as far away from her as possible.
We asked our questions and she answered every one. 'Why did you think we were close?' Because she'd been acting this way since childhood, partially encouraged by our parents' treatment of us vs her, and assumed that since none of us said anything about it, we were fine with it. 'Did you ever feel sorry?' She didn't, before this whole fiasco. It was normal for her to be the center of attention. Everything was always about her, and she was trying to unlearn that. 'Why now?' It came down to her husband. He'd tried talking to her a few times about her treamtent of us, but she never saw an issue with it since, well, we never made it an issue before. He didn't like that response, but he loved her and she was a lot kinder outside of our family unit, so he hoped that if he kept talking to her about it, she'd eventually stop. They fought when she announced their engagement on Lydia's anniversary and they fought again when she booked their party on Nadia's birthday. He couldn't understand how she could be so cruel to her family, and she told him that he didn't understand our family dynamic, and that we were cool with it. The stuff with Nadia's graduation damn near ruined their relationship, and I don't know how she convinced him to stay with her, because George admitted he was very close to walking out the door.
She said she was on our mom's side for a while because she really did think we were just acting out. We'd never been like this before, so why were we like this now? She didn't get why we were ignoring her, why we'd suddenly cut her off, and admittedly had a break down over it. George told her we'd likely been carrying that hurt and bitterness with us for years. She said that she knew she was a brat, but didn't realize how bad she really was until George and our dad laid it all out for her. That's why she told mom to leave us be, so that we could have peace from it all, and it turns out Dad wasn't the only one bearing the brunt of Mom's anger. She was constantly blasting Erin's phone, turning up at her place, dragging our names through the mud. It got worse when Dad moved out, and suddenly Erin was all she had in the world. Mom called us awful names that Erin (thankfully) didn't repeat. Mom told Erin that she was 'all she had' now.
George vouched for how bad our Mom was, said he'd come home from work often to find Erin staring at a ringing phone. She didn't want to answer but knew if she didn't eventually then Mom would turn up at her house. I know Erin was... awful to us ever since she was born, but it really hurt seeing her like this. I think she herself was a victim of our mom's behaviour, albeit in a drastically different way. She said she wanted to reach out to us sooner, but knew we probably didn't want to speak to her. She just couldn't help herself when she saw us at Lexie's party and needed to apologize.
We parted ways conflicted. One on hand, Erin had always been selfish. She'd been manipulative and downright mean, she always found a way to overshadow us at every turn, at every achievement. Nadia's graduation was proof of that. On the other hand, she looked tired. She looked worn and she looked guilty and I didn't want to believe that was an act put on for the sake of getting us to forgive her and then our mother. None of us were sure how to proceed, but then Jade suggested that we invite her to the wedding. Or, rather, we invite her to the reception, after everyone's eaten. We had a few friends coming at that time, too, who couldn't attend the wedding itself due to inescapable enagements. That way, if Erin did try to bring our mom, security would catch it and we'd know for certain whether or not Erin had turned a new leaf.
Reddit, Erin attended the reception. She didn't bring our mom, didn't even mention her. She and George arrived, and Erin cried as she congratulated me. She told Jade she looked beautiful, and hugged my son. At some point, she took Nadia aside, and when they came back, they were both a litle teary eyed. Nadia later told me that Erin wanted to apologize to her properly, one to one, and didn't know if she'd get another opportunity to do so. George thanked me for giving Erin a chance. He told me that she really could be a warm, kind-hearted person. I told him I hoped to meet that version of her some day. And I mean it. If Erin is truly as warm and kind and wonderful as George believes her to be, then I want nothing more than to meet that version of my sister.
Now, you may be wondering, OP, you forgot to mention Lydia when talking about your siblings! That was on purpose. You see, it's a good thing Dad moved out of her spare room. She's going to need that space in a few months, and she's not the only one. I knew Lydia was pregnant because she sat both me and Jade down to tell us she was pregnant and worried about her bridesmaid dress, even offered to step down if it was a problem. We, of course, told her not to be ridiculous and that we'd cover the cost of any alterations needed.
In the lead up to the wedding, Jade told me that she planned on having Lydia make an announcement during the speeches. I foolishly assumed that Lydia was going to announce her pregnancy to our extended family, and while I was a little hesitant, I agreed since Jade wanted this—and well, at least she'd gotten permission, unlike someone would have. Reddit, Lydia made a speech about pregnancy, and how she couldn't wait to be a mom, and how she was grateful to be sharing at least part of her pregnancy journey with Jade.
Reddit, this was how I found out my wife was expecting our second child. Again, I wish I could say I maintained my composure, but I didn't. I cried. I was so overwhelmed with happiness that I couldn't help myself, and I'm sure my friends will forever make fun of me for it. It felt like all the shit we'd been through this past year was worth it all for that moment. To have my family rally around me in an event that I'm sure would somehow have been made about Erin and her wedding if my Mom had been present.
I haven't spoken much about how this past year has made me feel. Truthfully, I have felt like shit for most of it. I felt like curling up and disappearing. I felt rotten and useless simply because my mother told me I was. I felt sometimes like I couldn't show how I was feeling, because Nadia was here and I didn't want her to blame herself anymore than she did. I'm in therapy now, and I'm not the only one, and I'm healing. Right now, I'm happy. I'm so unfathomably happy that I can barely understand it. I'm happier than I've ever been and I know my siblings will say the same.
While our Mom will probably say that our family has fallen apart, that's not true. Hers has. The family that she made has fallen apart, but ours has grown stronger. It has grown so unbelievably strong. We were a united front before, but it's like now we've upgraded our defences. We're coming out of this with stronger relationships with each other, a real relationship with our dad, and two new family members on the way. This is what our Mom is missing out on and it's all her own fault.
Maybe I'll update you again in the future. I'm not sure if our mom knows yet about Lydia and Jade's pregnancies, but the announcement is out there. We do have her blocked on social media though, so maybe no one's told her the good news. Erin hasn't, at least. So if anything happens on that front, I'll let you know, but for now, I'm happy with where my life is. Thank you all for your support, again, and I hope you have an amazing day.
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2024.06.08 06:03 uncle_rafiki PASSED the beast - average US DO student with average NBME's :)

Skip to the bottom for the TL;DR Summary Recap... or if you care to go along for the ride with the long version, buckle up:
Tested STEP on 5/20 and just got my results two days ago and I'm still feeling like I'm floating. I took STEP first and then did COMLEX Level 1 with two days between just cramming OPP and it was intense but worked out well. I'm still waiting for my Level 1 results but am feeling pretty confident since I got the P for STEP.
I am a pretty average DO student... haven't honored at all in preclinical but I definitely kept respectable grades in the A & B range, a rare C here or there. I am super involved in extracurriculars and leadership and prioritize my physical and mental health above grades. I would say my US DO school has an okay curriculum... some professors have been spot on about covering what we need to know for boards while others have been really awful about it, and our school gives us a very short dedicated so I was pretty stressed out leading up to these exams.
I started TrueLearn practice questions required by my school starting in August of last year, did a mock half exam over Winter Break, another over Spring Break, and a final one the last week of April. We were required to do weekly TrueLearn questions until late April when classes ended and they steadily increased from 10 per week to 40 per week.
I feel like TrueLearn has awful explanations and sucks to learn from... I much preferred UWorld and bought the version that also had OPP questions added in. I started doing 30 UWorld questions a day on top of my assigned TrueLearn questions over Spring Break the second week of March. My goal had been to start in January but it took me until Spring Break to figure out how to balance still being in classes with Board Review. Figuring out that balance is tricky so be kind to yourself when you are figuring it out in your own studying journey. I did ~280 practice questions over Spring Break and that got me into a rhythm that allowed me to start prioritizing board review over classes because the count down to STEP & Level began to put the fear of god in me.
I relied heavily on Pathoma & Dirty Medicine and used them to get through the rest of the curriculum I was learning while also reviewing systems we'd already covered on those platforms. I also really liked the First Aid Clinical Patterns book that I used in addition to the regular FA book. It was great for helping me delineate between differentials that I'd struggled with when first learning in systems. I am NOT an anki person... I freaking hate it. I need a "big picture" type context for information to stick so I am one of those weirdos who passed STEP without anki... so everyone out there who isn't a fan, IT'S POSSIBLE!
In mid April, I took the first UWorld Assessment and I bumped up my UWorld questions to 80 per day. I got a 51% on the UWSA 1 and freaked out about failing. On top of my 80 questions per day, I started taking every Saturday from 8a-12p to do content review on a different system or a concept that I felt like I kept missing on my practice questions.
Our school goes late with in-person responsibilities and classes, so I did not start dedicated until the last week of April. I technically only had 3 weeks of full-on dedicated before my 5/20 test date and I was FREAKING OUT. I upped my UWorld questions to 120 per day and did the UWorld Assessment 2 the weekend I finished classes. This time, I got a 67% and breathed a sigh of relief that the extra practice questions and content review was paying off.
I did 120 practice questions a day after that while maintaining a healthy diet and exercise routine. Questions, exercise, & adequate sleep and nutrition became my top priorities. I was determined to optimize my productivity without burning myself out before the exam.
1.5 weeks out from the exam I switched gears and started doing NBME's twice per week. I started with Form 28 - 66%, reviewed content all day the next day, then did 120 UWorld practice questions on the days between that and Form 29 - 66%. 1 week out, I did Form 30 and felt the worst about this one, but ended up with a 65%. All 3 of those predicted a pass rate of 97% on the real thing. I was frustrated I wasn't really budging from the mid-60s range though, because you crazies on here are always talking about breaking 70% and that mid-60's on NBME's 'may not be enough.' After my Form 30 score, I abandoned UWorld practice questions on my days in between and went into HEAVY content review on the concepts that I noticed I was continually missing. Each UWorld Assessment & NBME I took a running list of the concepts I got wrong so that I could reference it on my content review days and check them off like a check list. I'd consolidate that content after reviewing it into something easily reviewable that I could quiz myself on for a spaced repetition effect for those concepts.
This seemed to pay off because when I took Form 31 the Wednesday before my exam, I got a 71% with a 99% chance of passing the real thing and breathed a sigh of relief. I was feeling a little burnt by this point so I took two days to review the content from that form over the next two days... then I took the free120 but kinda messed it up. What I mean by that is I tried to simulate "fatigue" by reviewing content all day before I took it and started it at 7pm at night... I ended up getting a 60% on the free120 three days before I took the exam and tried not to shit my pants about it. I chalked it up to the fact that I had simulated "fatigue" a little too intensely and should have taken it fresh in the morning before my content review. I wondered about putting off the exam but felt like it was a now or never situation for me. My school was making us do more bullshit to prep for clerkship the week after my scheduled exam so I felt boxed into a corner and also felt like I wouldn't be able to mentally and physically handle the stress and studying that would go along with extending my date.
I spent the last two days before the exam doing passive learning by watching Dirty Medicine on any concept that I felt fairly weak on and I made an "oh shit" panic note sheet that had all the high yield details of concepts that I found myself continually forgetting... it consisted mainly of histology images of various diseases, the cytokines/interleukins mentioned in Pathoma Ch 2, screenshots of Dirty Medicine's mnemonics for the HIV & Diabetes drugs, mnemonics for the hereditary dyslipidemias and apolipoproteins, stroke syndromes, Lysosomal Storage diseases, Glycogen Storage Diseases... it was basically a hodge podge of the things I felt like always melted together in my brain and would be useful to review the morning on the exam to calm my nerves.
It was hard to get to sleep the night before, but I did my best, tossed and turned for an hour or two, and then got to sleep. Woke up right at the strike of my alarm from sheer anxiety... forced a good breakfast down and packed a lunchbox to the brim with nutritious snacks, lunch, and various tasty beverages like protein shakes or little pre/probiotic teas. I am a caffeine-free psycho so none of that for me. My partner drove me to the testing center and I reviewed my "oh shit" notes one last time.
I was delighted when the first question of my first block was a slam dunk open and shut case that I'd seen at least 3 times on NBME forms 28-31. It really boosted my confidence. I recognized SO many questions as being incredibly similar to the NBME concepts. I would say that the free120 was very representative for the LENGTH of the real-thing questions, but the NBME concepts were repeated heavily on the real-thing more than the actual concepts of the free120. It felt like a melting together of the NBME's, UWorld, & the free120... all combining different aspects of all of them. The stems in the real thing are super clear and give ample info to help you narrow down your diagnosis, but I’d say the great majority of questions are second order or third order and ask for another symptom, an associated condition, the defective enzyme/gene, or the MOA of the treatment. I gotta say I'm pretty proud of myself because almost everything I put on my "oh shit" notes showed up on the actual exam.
My last block was the worst and I prayed it was one of the experimental sets. I barely finished and actually just had to click an random answer that I'm sure I got wrong for the final question of that block. I came out feeling the same way I had on pretty much every NBME and so I had an inkling that I didn't fail but I was also still terrified that I was just gaslighting myself. My partner said that when they picked me up, they felt confident I had passed because of my demeanor, but I am unsure of if I had just numbed myself from taking that long of an exam, LOL.
Anyways, yeah, that was a wild ride. I hope this helps someone else get that P... this is a BEAST of an exam and my heart goes out to all of you who did not get that pass on the first try or have yet to take it. All of your emotions are valid and you are capable, I promise.
TL;DR:
Test Date 5/20/24
-Did weekly TrueLearn questions steadily increasing since August 2023 -TrueLearn mock Exam over Winter Break [first week of January] -Didn't start really cranking it on UWorld until Spring Break in mid-march of 2024 [30Q's per day] -TrueLearn mock Exam over Spring Break [mid-March] -UWSA1 51% in mid-April -UWSA2 67% end of April - bumped UWorld questions to 80 per day -TrueLearn mock exam also at the end of April - 61% -Dedicated began last week of April - bumped UWorld Q's up to 120/day -went thru Pathoma Ch 1-3 and took notes I repeatedly referenced over the next weeks -NBME 28 2 weeks before - 66% [97% chance of passing] -NBME 29 1.5 weeks before - 66% [97% chance of passing] -NBME 30 1 week before - 65% [97% chance of passing] -abandoned 120/day UWorld questions and focused heavily on content review -First Aid, Dirty Medicine, Pathoma, & AMBOSS were my main sources for content review -NBME 31 0.5 weeks before - 71% [99% chance of passing] -free120 2 days before - 60% [i messed this up and took it too late in the day when I wasn't sharp, made a lot of stupid mistakes because of that on questions I should have gotten... don't be me, lol] -final two days: passive review of weak concepts on dirty medicine, dirty medicine ethics, reviewing Pathoma Ch 1-3 notes, and compiling an "oh shit" list of concepts that I always seemed to mix up or jumble in my head -got a good breakfast, decent sleep, packed solid nutrition for the exam, and reviewed my "oh shit" notes the morning of the exam
Best summary advice I can give: -DON'T GIVE UP & DO NOT SACRIFICE YOUR HEALTH. Take a break when you need to. Go on a walk. Go on a run. Go lift weights. Eat nutritious food. You are an entire person beyond this exam. Nurturing your body is what is going to help you think more clearly and sharply. -Allow yourself to do one fun thing a week and don't care about studying [i.e. go to a concert, hang with a friend, do a relaxing craft, go play a game with a friend, etc.] -- if you are lucky and get 8 weeks for dedicated, take a whole damn week for yourself. I wish I could have. -Don't be afraid to take the exam without getting through the full UWorld question bank. I didn't make it through the whole thing and sacrificed that for more focused content review in my problem areas and I feel like that really payed off. -Rely on your support network and don't be afraid to do that. Let your partner, your friends, your family, [whoever it is that's special in your life] help you and support you. Let them cook for you, or drive you to the exam, or do whatever they can to make your life easier. -Pack plenty of snacks and drinks for test day. Take deep breaths. YOU GOT THIS. -Side note: I did this all during my second trimester of pregnancy. So all you med school mammas out there... YOU CAN DO THIS TOO!
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2024.06.08 02:31 Janand2011 Is this scabies eggs/feces or just the skin healing?

Is this scabies eggs/feces or just the skin healing?
Had (or have) scabies. Did a few rounds of permethrin. It’s not my first time, so I know how to apply it. As usual, I still have symptoms, but I can’t tell if it’s post scabies syndrome, or if the treatment was a complete failure. Here are some microscopic pictures of three bumps.
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2024.06.07 20:44 Disastrous_Ranger401 Newbie

Newbie
Sorry for the super long post. New to the sub and just starting to learn. I have a complicated medical situation that includes kidney disease and am currently on a clinical trial drug for the complement disorder that causes the kidney failure. I have been repeatedly worked up for autoimmune disease, with no findings. But the complement disorder does cause immune dysregulation similar to an autoinflammatory syndrome, with lots of inflammation that we currently don’t have the scientific ability to control.
About 2 years ago I began having numbness and tingling in my hands. Having dealt with carpal tunnel off and on for 20 years, my rheumatologist initially thought that was the issue, but nerve conduction tests came back negative. After further testing I was diagnosed at the beginning of this year with non-length dependent small fiber neuropathy via skin biopsy.
Prior to the onset of neuropathy symptoms, I had a history of folate deficiency, treated with supplementation. Then a few years later began methotrexate, and could not control side effects like hair loss even with increasing folate supplementation. I discontinued the mtx, supplemented folate for a few months longer, then stopped when my script ran out. My levels were never assessed prior to, during, or after that treatment.
The B12 level pictured was drawn last fall by the neuromuscular specialist who diagnosed the SFN. The rest of the labs are fairly recent, drawn by my rheumatologist at my request once I learned of the connection between neuropathy and folate deficiency. Looking back at older labs, my B12 has been steadily dropping over the years, so I expect it has gotten lower since that lab draw.
In addition to the neuropathy, I have experienced quite a few other issues, but it is hard to differentiate between what may be caused by deficiencies and my other health issues. However, my hair loss is pronounced and I am experiencing debilitating fatigue. I can’t function. My brain is slow and my memory is shit. I feel like I am at death’s door, tbh. My whole body aches. If I sit still, I fall asleep. I have no motivation or energy, and when I force myself to do something, I have no stamina for any kind of physical activity, even light activity. My muscles feel tired almost immediately. My neurologist prescribed stimulants in an effort to help me cope until we can figure things out, because I am falling asleep driving to and from work, and I have to be able to work.
Currently waiting for a sleep study, and possibly imaging of my thyroid due to elevated T4 with otherwise normal levels. Being on a new and experimental treatment also complicates things, as does the need to be cautious about kidney damage and the ways lowered kidney function affects my ability to clear and regulate nutrients and minerals. I have spoken to several of my doctors about these deficiencies, but haven’t made a lot of progress yet. I see my GP in 2 weeks.
I recently began supplementing folate and sublingual B12 in the meantime, because no one seems able to give much direction and I am desperate for relief. I also take heavy D3 doses due to my kidney disease, and my current level is as high as it’s been in years. I have been iron deficient in the past, and received infusions due to being intolerant of oral supplements. I will ask for iron levels to be checked when I see my GP.
I am not vegetarian or vegan. Although I don’t eat a ton of veggies, I do eat some, as well as fruits, and I do eat foods that are folate enriched. I eat meat, eggs, and dairy regularly, though I don’t often drink milk due to some mild lactose intolerance. My sodium and phosphorus are both running borderline low, which is unusual for a kidney patient.
I’m a little overwhelmed with where to start, but am heading off to read the guide. I appreciate any insight or advice from those of you with more experience.
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2024.06.07 20:37 Spen612 Deep/superficial posterior CECS in runner - questions about testing

Deep/superficial posterior CECS in runner - questions about testing
This post is part thank you and part question. First off, thanks to all the people who have posted their experiences here. Your insights have been invaluable.
I (16M) am a competitive long-distance runner. Last July (approaching 1 year ago now), I had a stress reaction in my left tibia. It took a while to heal, and eventually did. During that time I was in a boot, I’d get throbbing going up and down stairs or when walking for long periods of time.
Now that I’ve been out of the boot for the few months, I can walk and go up/down stairs without pain. However, trying to return to running has been a different story. I’ve done two separate builds back into running with guidance of a PT.
Once I get running more than about 5 minutes, the pain becomes worse and worse as I run (burning/pressure type pain). Surprisingly, this began to occur on both of my legs, not just the LEFT which was the side of the stress reaction. The pain peaks at around 15 minutes, and then stays constant. I haven’t been able to run more than 20 minutes (w/ lots of breaks in between to help with pain). This hasn’t changed for 6 months now.
As someone who was averaging 40 miles a week running, the condition has really set a toll on me. My doctor and PT now agree that the stress reaction was likely a result of compartment syndrome (I had previous issues with my calves, which at the time I didn’t realize they were symptomatic of CECS — although they were more mild)
My doctor referred me to another physician who specializes in CECS and other conditions like it. I’ve had several other tests done for PAES and an CT + MRI which was clear.
I could write much more, but feel free to ask questions and I can fill the gaps. This has been a year long process, so I have lots of thoughts to summarize
The new doctor I’m seeing decided to schedule testing, particularly wanting to test the two posterior compartments. I’m wondering if anyone has experience with this type of CECS, and how the testing works? How bad is it? When can you return to activity? What do I do if the test is normal and I’m still in pain? How was surgery if you had it? Any runners experience something similar? I know you all might not have the answers to all of these, but I would love to hear your experiences
For me the #1 priority is being able to run again, it is what I love to do.
Side note- has anyone else had a palpable defect related CECS? Mine came on about 1 month into injury and hasn’t gone away. (See picture: this is the left side of the lower calf)
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2024.06.07 05:33 Unusual_Figure_4781 MRI results

MRI results
I had an MRI yesterday regarding my injured knee. I’m currently unsure of what the results mean. Picture of my injury included. Does anyone know?
Findings: ACL, MCL, PCL and LCL are unremarkable. Single slice radial signal abnormality along the medial meniscus body red red zone, series 8 image 26, demonstrates slight undersurface extension equivocal for underlying tear. Remainder of medial and lateral meniscus are intact. Intact extensor mechanism without evidence of patellar dislocation. No evidence of joint effusion, focal cartilage defects or loose bodies. Bone marrow and muscles signal characteristics are within normal limits. Mild prepatellar subcutaneous edema extending along the infrapatellar tendon. Mild edema within Hoffa's fat pad adjacent to the lateral patella facet.
Impression: 1. Mild edema within Hoffa's fat pad adjacent to the lateral patella facet may represent fat pad impingement syndrome. 2. Single slice radial signal abnormality along the medial meniscus body red redzone demonstrates slight undersurface extension equivocal for underlying tear
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2024.06.06 23:34 NiePius Meditation

Meditation
🏛️Since I started meditating with the gods of our ancestors:
I got in better touch with myself.
I realized truths about the world (nature + people).
More of the Christianity and its syndromes, which was still nesting in me after 15 years of atheism, was erased from my marrow.
My psychology and optimism improved.
I think more out of the box.
I met some remarkable people with a zest for life.
(🦎zoom on the picture to see the lizards)
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2024.06.06 22:46 Unstoppable218 Why did you take Finasteride in the first place…?

Why did you take Finasteride in the first place…?
Why did you take Finasteride in the first place? Your hair’s fine.
I’ve always thought this has got to be one of the most ridiculous and irrelevant questions to ask.
Number 1: Hair loss doesn’t always begin at the hairline. Androgenic Alopecia can also start around the crown or various other spots on the head via diffused thinning. My hairline was fine, but as you can see in the pictures below, my hair loss was becoming more prevalent around my crown.
Number 2: If you really believe these patients shouldn’t have taken Finasteride in the first place, then a better question would be, “Why were you prescribed Finasteride?” Finasteride is not an over-the-counter medication as we know. You have to go through a medical professional to get it. If they prescribe it to you, it absolutely reinforces the notion that the patient must be experiencing hair loss (if that’s what they’re seeking it out for). If they’re not, then why would they be given it…
Number 3: The question is a complete deflection from the topic at hand. Regardless of why these people took Finasteride, it isn’t relevant to the fact that they’re now dealing with persistent and life-altering symptoms.
For me, I began noticing my crown just felt thinner about a year and a half before starting the medication. It started with me washing the top of my head in the shower and noticing that my crown just felt less dense than the other areas of my head. Then, I began noticing much more hair around the sink, in the shower, and in my bed. I had started taking pictures of my scalp and was definitely seeing it actually was less dense, but I tried to ignore it. Like most others, I was in denial. Hair loss doesn’t run in my immediate family, and I wanted to assume that it was just a phase. I was 26 years old. I was fit, healthy, and had a great life. There was no way I could be experiencing hair loss this young. Fast forward to July 2020. I noticed while in the bathroom one day at a friend’s house that the harsh lighting overhead was allowing me to see straight into my scalp at the crown. In a bit of a panic, I immediately made a quick account with Hims on my phone and filled out the questionnaire. After taking a few pictures of my scalp and hair line, I submitted the results in a matter of minutes. Within days, I received a notice from the “doctor” through the Hims website that I would be prescribed Finasteride and Minoxidil. Within 1-2 weeks after this, the medication was delivered to my doorstep and I had it in my hands.
I contemplated on taking Finasteride for six months. I watched the best hair loss channels on the topic, reviewed the medical literature, and came to the conclusion that IF I experienced any of the symptoms (sexual dysfunction, depression, anxiety, etc.), then I could just stop the medication and these symptoms would subside. Of course, I had heard some of the whispers of Post Finasteride Syndrome, which was the notion that any symptoms you experienced while taking the drug would continue indefinitely after cessation. None of the literature seemed to support this, though. The phrase “nocebo effect” was thrown around in every comment I read. I was convinced that the mind can and would induce incredible symptoms in the body that had nothing to do with the medication if you focused hard enough on them. If I ended up taking it, I decided that my best course of action was to forget about it and just continue with my life. I was too busy to be worried about this “PFS” thing anyway. I was an avid weight lifter and dancer. I was dating a beautiful woman, had a great paying job, an active social life, hobbies, a real estate business, aspirations to pursue my master’s degree, and a myriad of other things to keep myself busy. Why would I worry about this apparent syndrome that wasn’t even backed by any extensive medical research? Besides, I looked at all the celebrities taking Finasteride – Donald Trump, Justin Bieber, Pete Davidsion. Rob Lowe, Ashton Kutcher and others. They looked great! The doctor that prescribed me this medication would never put me in harms way. Doctors have to uphold the Hippocratic Oath and would never give me something that would threaten my health and well being… especially a cosmetic drug.
After approximately six months of deliberation, I finally decided on January 19th, 2021 that I would finally try the medication at a low dose of 1mg 3X a week. It was minimal and seemed like it would be just enough to help me since my hair loss hadn’t become that aggressive yet. Doctors and influencers always emphasize the importance of starting Finasteride early at the first signs of hair loss. I seemed like the ideal candidate. In my mind, I asked myself what I had to lose. I reviewed all the potential ways my life would change if I lost my hair. What would my girlfriend think? How would I feel about myself? How would it affect my career? What about the shame? If I didn’t do this now, how much worse would my hair loss get? Hair loss in itself will cause depression, I told myself. Besides, the vast majority of people said their biggest regret was just not starting it sooner. I’d be an idiot to not at least try this drug. I played every mental gymnastic in the book to convince myself that hair loss would be far worse than any potential symptom I could experience. After taking my first pill, I even took a sigh of relief knowing that I was being proactive and that this minor hair loss issue was now under MY control. It was time to move on and carry on with my life without thinking about this again…
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2024.06.06 20:16 lurkerdurkerdooda Stumped My Dermatologist Today

Stumped My Dermatologist Today
Hi! I'm a 33 yo Female and I get warts :(
So, I always have gotten warts on my hands. They really sprung up in high school. I had them frozen off, but some came back. I have 2 stubborn ones that they tried to freeze off today. Probably won't work. They don't really bother me and they're not visible so whatever -- the thing that I've always been curious about are these OTHER bumps on my hands. I always assumed they were warts that haven't grown up yet, but I have what looks to be hundreds on my palms. And only on my hands. And they are FAINT. Like you will barely be able to see them in the pictures I uploaded but they're there. If you zoom in, you'll only be able to see a few. I can only see them if I tilt my palms in the light at a certain angle. It's on both hands, but it shows up better on my right one. I noticed them a few years ago. They don't bother me. I'm not really worried about them at all. I just would like an idea of what they are since my dermatologist couldn't tell me. She said she had to go look at a medical book. The only thing that came up was some syndrome that made divots in your hands, but these are raised. Barely raised, but raised nonetheless. So she ruled that out. And the resident doctor who was also in the room said they look like flat warts, but it was odd there was so many of them.
So what do you all think? Any ideas?
EDIT: Forgot to add pics.
https://preview.redd.it/okp2onnvtz4d1.jpg?width=3024&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=f1dc5e7e82d750cbe493df481dab708f7ddee723
https://preview.redd.it/7kvmj6lwtz4d1.jpg?width=3024&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=5dfc8c71164ebdf2abb0c9c567d08f3dc8156f8c
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2024.06.06 19:51 Bumblescrub709 [WTS] Complete Brownells Block II 14.5” RIS II Upper

Timestamp: https://imgur.com/a/hbF7S0h
Hey ya’ll
Looking to sell my complete Block 2-ish upper. The upper is a factory upper from DD made for Brownells and has an actual SOCOM profile 14.5” barrel from DD unlike the standard M4A1 uppers from DD that come with gov profile barrels. I had a SF3P muzzle device P&W’d to it by D.Wilson (look at how clean that is).
BCG - Bootleg Adjustable BCG
CH - G$ URG-I Airborne Charging Handle
As pictured, I’ll also include a NIB Arisaka offset pic scout light mount as well as a Troy pic rail sling mount.
All the parts (with the exception of the Arisaka mount) are LNIB. I’ve put zero rounds through these parts and am selling cause I’m a recovering Restless AR Syndrome patient. There is a very minimal amount of salt around where the CH grabs on to the back of the upper as well as on the top pic rail from mounting an optic.
Price is $1050, which will include shipping and insurance. Payment through PP G&S, no notes.
Thanks for stopping by!
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  • Wizard of Legend
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  • Worms Rumble
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  • Train Simulator: Isle of Wight Route Add-On
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  • Europa Universalis IV: Wealth of Nations
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  • Grand Central Class 180 'Adelante' DMU Add-On
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  • SONIC ADVENTURE 2: BATTLE
  • Small World - A Spider's Web
  • Small World - Cursed
  • Small World - Royal Bonus
  • The Dungeon Of Naheulbeuk: The Amulet Of Chaos - Goodies Pack
  • The Dungeon Of Naheulbeuk: The Amulet Of Chaos - OST
  • Thompson Class B1 Loco Add-On
  • Total War: Shogun 2 - Rise of the Samurai
  • Train Sim World® 3: Birmingham Cross-city line
  • Train Sim World®: BR Class 20 'Chopper' Loco
  • Train Sim World®: Brighton Main Line: London Victoria - Brighton
  • Train Sim World®: Caltrain MP36PH-3C 'Baby Bullet'
  • Train Sim World®: Cathcart Circle Line: Glasgow - Newton & Neilston
  • Train Sim World®: Clinchfield Railroad: Elkhorn - Dante
  • Train Sim World®: Great Western Express
  • Train Sim World®: Hauptstrecke Hamburg - Lubeck
  • Train Sim World®: LIRR M3 EMU
  • Train Sim World®: Long Island Rail Road: New York - Hicksville
  • Train Sim World®: Nahverkehr Dresden - Riesa
  • Train Sim World®: Northern Trans-Pennine: Manchester - Leeds
  • Train Sim World®: Peninsula Corridor: San Francisco - San Jose
  • Train Sim World®: Rhein-Ruhr Osten: Wuppertal - Hagen
  • Train Sim World®: Tees Valley Line: Darlington - Saltburn-by-the-sea
  • Worms Rumble - Armageddon Weapon Skin Pack
  • Worms Rumble - Captain & Shark Double Pack
  • Worms Rumble - Legends Pack
  • Worms Rumble - New Challengers Pack
  • Ashampoo Photo Optimizer 7
  • Dagon: by H. P. Lovecraft - The Eldritch Box DLC
  • Duke Nukem Forever Hail to the Icons
  • Duke Nukem Forever The Doctor Who Cloned Me
  • GRIP: Combat Racing - Cygon Garage Kit
  • GRIP: Combat Racing - Nyvoss Garage Kit
  • GRIP: Combat Racing - Terra Garage Kit
  • GRIP: Combat Racing - Vintek Garage Kit
  • GameGuru
  • GameMaker Studio 2 Creator 12 Months
  • Intro to Game Development with Unity
  • Music Maker EDM Edition
  • Neverwinter Nights: Darkness Over Daggerford
  • Neverwinter Nights: Enhanced Edition Dark Dreams of Furiae
  • Neverwinter Nights: Enhanced Edition Tyrants of the Moonsea
  • Neverwinter Nights: Enhanced Edition
  • Neverwinter Nights: Infinite Dungeons
  • Neverwinter Nights: Pirates of the Sword Coast
  • Neverwinter Nights: Wyvern Crown of Cormyr
  • PDF-Suite 1 Year License
  • Pathfinder Second Edition Core Rulebook and Starfinder Core Rulebook
  • RPG Maker VX
  • WWE 2K BATTLEGROUNDS - Ultimate Brawlers Pass
  • We Are Alright
  • The Outer Worlds Expansion Pass
  • A Hat in Time - Seal the Deal DLC
  • City Skylines:mass transit
  • A Game Of Thrones - A Dance With Dragons
  • A Game Of Thrones - A Feast For Crows
  • Blood Rage: Digital Edition - Gods of Asgard
  • Blood Rage: Digital Edition - Mythical Monsters
  • Blood Rage: Digital Edition - Mystics of Midgard
  • Carcassonne - The Princess and The Dragon DLC
  • Carcassonne - Traders & Builders DLC
  • Carcassonne - Winter & Gingerbread Man DLC
  • Carcassonne - Inns & Cathedrals
  • Carcassonne - The River
  • Splendor: The Trading Posts DLC
  • Splendor: The Strongholds DLC
  • Splendor: The Cities DLC
  • Small World - Be Not Afraid... DLC
  • Small World - Grand Dames DLC
  • Small World - Cursed!
  • Sands of Salzaar - The Ember Saga
  • Sands of Salzaar - The Tournament
  • Monster Train: The Last Divinity DLC
  • WARSAW
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