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2013.07.31 06:37 xvvhiteboy Asmongold
Official subreddit of Asmongold (as seen on Netflix) aka ZackRawrr, an Austin, Texas based Twitch streamer, YouTube personality, and gaming organization owner and content creator of One True King (OTK), a group of mostly Austin, Texas based content creators and owner of Starforge Systems, selling prebuilt gaming PCs. Asmongold is primarily known for his World of Warcraft content. Asmongold has been voted 'Best MMORPG Streamer' at the 2022 and 2023 Streamer Awards.
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2024.05.15 14:16 ImPattMan Mod original gamecube, or just emulate?
Gamecube via original hardware or just emulate it?
I have a GameCube, and I believe it's one of the earlier ones with the digital out and all that. I'd have to pull it out of my closet to be sure, but I'm pretty sure.
Anyway, I want to be able to play my old games on my modern TV. So with that, I want to do some sort of adapter or mod to get hdmi coming out. I'd also like to be able to use Bluetooth controllers on it since my old wave bird doesn't do vibration, which a mod came out for that.
Then I see the sd card mod that let's me play all my games off that, though I'd prefer one that didn't replace the disc drive so I can actually just dump my own games, and I believe I've seen an option for that recently as well.
Now I'm looking at spending a lot of money just to play these old games in a somewhat modern fashion, or I can just hook my rog ally up to my TV and get digital copies of my games and play them that way. No modding necessary, just a little software tomfoolery to set up dolphin.
Part of me likes the idea of using the original console, but I can get a way better visual experience with some modding or just using my rog ally to emulate...
Idk what to do here, I just want to play some dang gamecube games...
Oh I also have a wii u that I just rooted, and I'm guessing I can play gamecube games on there potentially? At least that has an HDMI out already..
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I have a GameCube, and I believe it's one of the earlier ones with the digital out and all that. I'd have to pull it out of my closet to be sure, but I'm pretty sure.
Anyway, I want to be able to play my old games on my modern TV. So with that, I want to do some sort of adapter or mod to get hdmi coming out. I'd also like to be able to use Bluetooth controllers on it since my old wave bird doesn't do vibration, which a mod came out for that.
Then I see the sd card mod that let's me play all my games off that, though I'd prefer one that didn't replace the disc drive so I can actually just dump my own games, and I believe I've seen an option for that recently as well.
Now I'm looking at spending a lot of money just to play these old games in a somewhat modern fashion, or I can just hook my rog ally up to my TV and get digital copies of my games and play them that way. No modding necessary, just a little software tomfoolery to set up dolphin.
Part of me likes the idea of using the original console, but I can get a way better visual experience with some modding or just using my rog ally to emulate...
Idk what to do here, I just want to play some dang gamecube games...
Oh I also have a wii u that I just rooted, and I'm guessing I can play gamecube games on there potentially? At least that has an HDMI out already..
2024.05.15 14:15 Ok_Heart_7154 35[F4M] Anywhere looking for chat buddies from across the globe
Me
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- I live on a farm, in a small town, a nice balance between modern and rural and i love it! I hate the city life- too loud and polluted for my taste buds.
- I study and work part time in a STEM field
- Personality wise - ambivert. I enjoy social interactions but need alone time to recharge
- 5'6 in height,56kgs in weight
- I enjoy bodyweight exercises and cycling
- Love learning languages: both machine and human. Machine: JS and some Java. Human: speaks 4 different languages and working on my 5th(kinda)
- Love playing chess, only game I enjoy really
- I'm a book worm,actually prefer the company of a good book to that of most people, blame my introversion.
- sleeping in fresh bedding
- a good nights rest
- ginger and lemon water right after you wake up
- watching the sunrise
- a great workout that makes you break a sweat, heartbeat raised a notch and the exhilarating release of endorphins that follows, ah!
- fresh air
- fresh farm produce from your own veggie garden
- long quiet walks with the wind in your face & hair and the soft sun rays on your skin
- enjoying nature while on a scenic drive
- reading a good book
- counting my blessings
- the smell of fresh-cut grass
- watching farm animals play and at times fight
- watching people create beautiful art
- alone time after a long busy day
- lighting a scented candle
- having a hot bath after a long day
- listening to rain whilst in a warm bed and sipping tea/coffee
2024.05.15 14:11 VeterinarianInside28 Unbearable downstairs neighbors
What more can I do? The people who live under me insufferable. they constantly complain to me about me making noise! It started by them saying my dog barked all night the first night he was left alone. I got off work 4 hours early that night (2 am) and didn't go inside for about an hour because i was enjoying the cool night. And I wanted to see if he was barking, but he didn't make a peep. Additionally the neighbors on either side listened for him after I left for work at 6 pm (and we can all hear eachothers tv's) but they didn't hear him. They (all 3 neighbors) had my number but nobody texted. They just complained when I saw them the next day.
Almost every time the people under me see me they complain about the noise. So I've done everything in my power to keep it quiet while actively making every effort to avoid them. My dog stays at my moms house most nights when I'm working and when that's not possible and he's home alone he's got his bark collar on and I give him his anxiety medication to help him sleep. They still say he runs around all night but that's not possible because he's crated. i thought it could be the cats but when I'm home the cats sit in their tree and sleep and that's all they do all night until about 6 am when they get their morning treat.
I put some area rugs down to try to help. But that hasn't done anything.
I even did these neighbors a favor and let them use my washer and dryer (even though they did 3 times as many loads as I do alone) to try to get on their good side until they started complaining about cat hair allergies and I didn't want to risk one of them passing out in my apartment so I had to put a stop to it.
This morning at 5 am the woman texts me that she heard my dog running around and he's kept them up all night. No. last night I was home and I watched my dog and cats, nobody ran around. Nobody made noise. Nobody barked. Nobody meowed. I paced back and forth to the bedroom a few times when I needed to, and I try to step as light as I can but I have a bad leg. I limp so it's probably not as light as a normal person could walk. if she heard anything it was me. Everyone else was asleep and I was in my chair with my leg propped up watching twitch most the night. I can only do so much. I'm not going to make myself uncomfortable by tip toeing around my own apartment that I pay for. But if it really kept you up all night why did you wait until 5 AM to say something?
I sent an email to the office and asked to swap apartment because I don't want to disturb them anymore and I know two ground floor apartments are going to open up over here soon. But I know they aren't going to let me. The office staff is the least professional group of people I've ever met and they don't like work.
And don't get me wrong... I mean I get it. I know it's an old apartment complex. It's poorly insulated. and I'm sorry if they really do hear noise from up here. but what else can I do? I'm seriously not making much, if any noise. The only thing that's making any noise is my fan. but I can't imagine how they could be hearing that. I'm doing the best I can. When you move into a bottom apartment isn't a little bit of noise to be expected? I would understand if we were really being disruptive, playing loud music, barking, or even running around and playing all night I could see where that kind of thing would be disruptive. But we aren't. I wake up in the afternoon, do my cleaning, cooking, until 9 or 10 and then sit down and watch twitch until i'm tired enough to go back to bed sometime in the morning. I'm depressed as hell, I literally have no desire to do anything. Unfortunately I do still care about others.
The person on my right has told me to not worry about it, she's told me they complain about everyone. And honestly that statement was proven as for the couple weeks they were doing laundry at my apartment. The woman started to buddy up to me and complain about other residents. I suspect at least part of the complaints are really because I no longer letting them use my laundry. But it still makes me feel bad. Suggestions? i don't know what to do to make these people happy.
All i really want is to be left alone and in peace. I try to be quiet. I try to be as helpful and respectful as I can be to other people. I don't ask anything of anyone. I don't complain. when my apartment needs a repair I usually don't even call maintance if it's not an emergency because I don't want to bother anyone. what am i supposed to do? maybe it's the depression but more and more things just keep going wrong and those dark thoughts keep creeping in. i don't know what to do anymore.
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Almost every time the people under me see me they complain about the noise. So I've done everything in my power to keep it quiet while actively making every effort to avoid them. My dog stays at my moms house most nights when I'm working and when that's not possible and he's home alone he's got his bark collar on and I give him his anxiety medication to help him sleep. They still say he runs around all night but that's not possible because he's crated. i thought it could be the cats but when I'm home the cats sit in their tree and sleep and that's all they do all night until about 6 am when they get their morning treat.
I put some area rugs down to try to help. But that hasn't done anything.
I even did these neighbors a favor and let them use my washer and dryer (even though they did 3 times as many loads as I do alone) to try to get on their good side until they started complaining about cat hair allergies and I didn't want to risk one of them passing out in my apartment so I had to put a stop to it.
This morning at 5 am the woman texts me that she heard my dog running around and he's kept them up all night. No. last night I was home and I watched my dog and cats, nobody ran around. Nobody made noise. Nobody barked. Nobody meowed. I paced back and forth to the bedroom a few times when I needed to, and I try to step as light as I can but I have a bad leg. I limp so it's probably not as light as a normal person could walk. if she heard anything it was me. Everyone else was asleep and I was in my chair with my leg propped up watching twitch most the night. I can only do so much. I'm not going to make myself uncomfortable by tip toeing around my own apartment that I pay for. But if it really kept you up all night why did you wait until 5 AM to say something?
I sent an email to the office and asked to swap apartment because I don't want to disturb them anymore and I know two ground floor apartments are going to open up over here soon. But I know they aren't going to let me. The office staff is the least professional group of people I've ever met and they don't like work.
And don't get me wrong... I mean I get it. I know it's an old apartment complex. It's poorly insulated. and I'm sorry if they really do hear noise from up here. but what else can I do? I'm seriously not making much, if any noise. The only thing that's making any noise is my fan. but I can't imagine how they could be hearing that. I'm doing the best I can. When you move into a bottom apartment isn't a little bit of noise to be expected? I would understand if we were really being disruptive, playing loud music, barking, or even running around and playing all night I could see where that kind of thing would be disruptive. But we aren't. I wake up in the afternoon, do my cleaning, cooking, until 9 or 10 and then sit down and watch twitch until i'm tired enough to go back to bed sometime in the morning. I'm depressed as hell, I literally have no desire to do anything. Unfortunately I do still care about others.
The person on my right has told me to not worry about it, she's told me they complain about everyone. And honestly that statement was proven as for the couple weeks they were doing laundry at my apartment. The woman started to buddy up to me and complain about other residents. I suspect at least part of the complaints are really because I no longer letting them use my laundry. But it still makes me feel bad. Suggestions? i don't know what to do to make these people happy.
All i really want is to be left alone and in peace. I try to be quiet. I try to be as helpful and respectful as I can be to other people. I don't ask anything of anyone. I don't complain. when my apartment needs a repair I usually don't even call maintance if it's not an emergency because I don't want to bother anyone. what am i supposed to do? maybe it's the depression but more and more things just keep going wrong and those dark thoughts keep creeping in. i don't know what to do anymore.
2024.05.15 14:06 pmjwhelan [Ireland] [H] Steelbook Collection [W] Paypal - 20% off and FREEPOST on any two or more
The time has come to sell all items from my personal collection.
Open to trades (but I'm in Ireland)
Some Embossed Play.com and Zavvi Exclusives here
No J-Cards. Blurays NEVER watched. All opened and placed into a protective case.
Payment: Paypal F+F (can do services but add 5%)
Items will be sent tracked via An Post International Express Service
Items in photos but not listed below are sold.
https://photos.google.com/share/AF1QipM5aN-LODOyUIB1VsIGsnNM10BEFs-7d1DnJfRBb7B1BdoaJWCmtl5Sc9O_BJspPg?key=ZXo2SVhRLXVObm5NN3M2YjhFbXNfcExOS0tvaXdn
Aladdin - $60
GRAVITY 3D $30
THREE AMIGOS! $60
SHAUN OF THE DEAD $30
21 Jump Street $30
ROGER RABBIT 25TH $80
Hulk VS $45
FULL METAL JACKET (Rare first release canada) $60
TERMINATOR 2 JUDGMENT DAY $30
FROZEN ULTIMATE BLUFANS $110
COWBOYS vs ALIENS $50
FROZEN ANNA BLUFANS $110
MONSTERS, INC. Kimchidvd Exclusive $65
X-MEN $30
STAR TREK $30
JOKER $40
TIGERLAND $30
STAR TREK INTO DARKNESS $25
NO COUNTRY FOR OLD MEN $30
RESERVOIR DOGS $30
The lost weekend $40
ULTIMATE BOURNE COLLECTION $30
FAST & FURIOUS7 $30
RESERVOIR DOGS Metal Pak $30
STEPHEN KING'S THE MIST Metal Pak $45
TWELVE MONKEYS $30
30 days of night Metal Pak $45
fast and the furious 6 $30
the lives of others $30
forbidden planet $40
ghost in the shell $30
the frighteners $90
GREMLINS $65
INCEPTION $45
ARGO embossed $35
fast and the furious five 5 horizontal $50
BLOW OUT $40
LÉON leon dutch metalpak $45
CREED UK $35
BATMAN RETURNS. $25
THE TREASURE OF THE SIERRA MADRE $45
THE MALTESE FALCON $55
DJANGO cHAINED rare french $80
TROY DIRECTOR'S CUT (Warner Premium Collection) $80
BLADE RUNNER (Warner Premium Collection) $80
Street FIGHTER $30
SHERLOCK HOLMES (Warner Premium Collection) $60
2012 (scratches) $30
X-Men First Class $30
TOTAL RECALL $40
NIKITA $75
Tangled kimchidvd $80
RANGO $40
BLACK SAILS SEASONS ONE & TWO
JURASSIC WORLD FALLEN KINGDOM $35
JURASSIC WORLD $35
THE LOST WORLD: JURASSIC PARK $35
JURASSIC PARK 3 $35
Cars $30
DIE UNGLAUBLICHEN The Incredibles $30
WRECK-IT RALPH $40
Avatar $30
Life of Pi 3d lenticular $55
Predator 3d lenticular $95
brazil $90
the mask of zorro $80
2012 $30
Sin City 2 $45
Hurt Locker 40
Suicide Squad 30
HULK (horizontal) 35
PITCH BLACK (horizontal) 35
VANISHING POINT 35
CASINO (horizontal) 80
The thin red line 35
WILLOW $50
FIRST MAN 45
HOT FUZZ (horizontal) 45
Kingsman THE SECRET SERVICE 65
SNOW WHITE and the HUNTSMAN 50
ET THE EXTRA-TERRESTRIAL 40
RAID 55
silent running 45
THE TRANSFORMERS THE MOVIE 40
INGLURIOUS BASTERDS 45
THE WRESTLER 90
LOOPER lenticular 70
LIMITLESS 70
PACIFIC RIM 3D 65
House of the Flying Daggers 75
THE BOOK OF ELI 40
v FOR VENDETTa 35
22 JUMP STREET 30
GONE WITH THE WIND 75
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows™ - Part 1 $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows™ - Part 2 $690 the lot delivered
The Fast and the Furious 35
His Dark Materials Series 1 35
A Star is Born 40
Town 45
Finding Nemo (embossed no disc) 30
Mission Impossible Rogue Nation 40
TRUE GRIT (emobossed) 40
WAR of the WORLDS (emobossed) play.com excl. 90
BEETLEJuice (embossed play.com excl) 75
Saving private ryan 30
TOY STORY 2 40
CLOVERFIELD (embossed play.com excl) 80
TOY STORY 40
Zulu 60
The Godfather Trilogy 110
Avengers 60
Toy Story 3 40
withnail and I embossed 60
Game of Thrones 1-7 with Sigil Magnets 500 delivered
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Open to trades (but I'm in Ireland)
Some Embossed Play.com and Zavvi Exclusives here
No J-Cards. Blurays NEVER watched. All opened and placed into a protective case.
Payment: Paypal F+F (can do services but add 5%)
Items will be sent tracked via An Post International Express Service
Items in photos but not listed below are sold.
https://photos.google.com/share/AF1QipM5aN-LODOyUIB1VsIGsnNM10BEFs-7d1DnJfRBb7B1BdoaJWCmtl5Sc9O_BJspPg?key=ZXo2SVhRLXVObm5NN3M2YjhFbXNfcExOS0tvaXdn
Aladdin - $60
GRAVITY 3D $30
THREE AMIGOS! $60
SHAUN OF THE DEAD $30
21 Jump Street $30
ROGER RABBIT 25TH $80
Hulk VS $45
FULL METAL JACKET (Rare first release canada) $60
TERMINATOR 2 JUDGMENT DAY $30
FROZEN ULTIMATE BLUFANS $110
COWBOYS vs ALIENS $50
FROZEN ANNA BLUFANS $110
MONSTERS, INC. Kimchidvd Exclusive $65
X-MEN $30
STAR TREK $30
JOKER $40
TIGERLAND $30
STAR TREK INTO DARKNESS $25
NO COUNTRY FOR OLD MEN $30
RESERVOIR DOGS $30
The lost weekend $40
ULTIMATE BOURNE COLLECTION $30
FAST & FURIOUS7 $30
RESERVOIR DOGS Metal Pak $30
STEPHEN KING'S THE MIST Metal Pak $45
TWELVE MONKEYS $30
30 days of night Metal Pak $45
fast and the furious 6 $30
the lives of others $30
forbidden planet $40
ghost in the shell $30
the frighteners $90
GREMLINS $65
INCEPTION $45
ARGO embossed $35
fast and the furious five 5 horizontal $50
BLOW OUT $40
LÉON leon dutch metalpak $45
CREED UK $35
BATMAN RETURNS. $25
THE TREASURE OF THE SIERRA MADRE $45
THE MALTESE FALCON $55
DJANGO cHAINED rare french $80
TROY DIRECTOR'S CUT (Warner Premium Collection) $80
BLADE RUNNER (Warner Premium Collection) $80
Street FIGHTER $30
SHERLOCK HOLMES (Warner Premium Collection) $60
2012 (scratches) $30
X-Men First Class $30
TOTAL RECALL $40
NIKITA $75
Tangled kimchidvd $80
RANGO $40
BLACK SAILS SEASONS ONE & TWO
JURASSIC WORLD FALLEN KINGDOM $35
JURASSIC WORLD $35
THE LOST WORLD: JURASSIC PARK $35
JURASSIC PARK 3 $35
Cars $30
DIE UNGLAUBLICHEN The Incredibles $30
WRECK-IT RALPH $40
Avatar $30
Life of Pi 3d lenticular $55
Predator 3d lenticular $95
brazil $90
the mask of zorro $80
2012 $30
Sin City 2 $45
Hurt Locker 40
Suicide Squad 30
HULK (horizontal) 35
PITCH BLACK (horizontal) 35
VANISHING POINT 35
CASINO (horizontal) 80
The thin red line 35
WILLOW $50
FIRST MAN 45
HOT FUZZ (horizontal) 45
Kingsman THE SECRET SERVICE 65
SNOW WHITE and the HUNTSMAN 50
ET THE EXTRA-TERRESTRIAL 40
RAID 55
silent running 45
THE TRANSFORMERS THE MOVIE 40
INGLURIOUS BASTERDS 45
THE WRESTLER 90
LOOPER lenticular 70
LIMITLESS 70
PACIFIC RIM 3D 65
House of the Flying Daggers 75
THE BOOK OF ELI 40
v FOR VENDETTa 35
22 JUMP STREET 30
GONE WITH THE WIND 75
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince™ $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows™ - Part 1 $690 the lot delivered
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows™ - Part 2 $690 the lot delivered
The Fast and the Furious 35
His Dark Materials Series 1 35
A Star is Born 40
Town 45
Finding Nemo (embossed no disc) 30
Mission Impossible Rogue Nation 40
TRUE GRIT (emobossed) 40
WAR of the WORLDS (emobossed) play.com excl. 90
BEETLEJuice (embossed play.com excl) 75
Saving private ryan 30
TOY STORY 2 40
CLOVERFIELD (embossed play.com excl) 80
TOY STORY 40
Zulu 60
The Godfather Trilogy 110
Avengers 60
Toy Story 3 40
withnail and I embossed 60
Game of Thrones 1-7 with Sigil Magnets 500 delivered
2024.05.15 14:06 Crazy-Concern8080 Hearts and Minds 4: When All is Said - (Part 2)
A little plot convinient coincidence never hurt anyone.
First
You know the drill: credit to SpacePaladin15 for the universe.
Thank you JulianSkies for proofreading.
Memory Transcription Subject: Gillab, Gojid Citizen, Husband and Father
Date [Standardized Human Time]: March 27, 2142
It was early in the morning, birds were chirping, and the air was still chilled from the night. It was a comfortable morning, especially considering what had happened yesterday. I could still feel the leftovers of a hangover in the back of my head, but it was more than manageable for me. A small headache like that wouldn’t stop me from visiting the memorial.
I still had a ways to walk before I got there, but I didn’t mind. It just let me take in the beauty of the new New York City that had been built. Even if I wasn’t a Human, I felt a sense of pride at the sight of the glistening towers and the clean streets. Despite only playing a minor role in the clean-up and reconstruction, it was certainly enough for me to feel that I had contributed enough to take pride in it.
I still cannot believe I ever even thought of hating Humans, the fact that I did still disgust me to this day. I wasn’t alone in that mindset either, billions of former soldiers, exterminators, or Human-phobes had woken up to the reality, with tens of thousands of them moving to Earth and trying to repay the Humans what they had taken. Many of them still struggled with coming to terms with their past.
It was because of them that I could become a husband to the most beautiful Gojid in the universe and father to the most rambunctious one. Without their help on the Cradle, I would have died long ago and never have been able to even see the love of my life. They inspired me to become more than just a father and husband, I was going to become just like them.
In my free time, I often worked for charities, volunteered for clean-ups, and tried my hand as a substitute teacher. Even if I wasn’t the best at it, I still enjoyed doing them. It let me feel like I was making a difference in the world, continuing the legacy that the Humans had set up. I would save as many people as I could, just like the person who saved me.
I had lost track of Billy ever since the Cradle, and the one time I had heard about him was from Naeriu telling me how Billy ended up surviving in a cabin in Alaska. It wasn’t like I didn’t try to find him, but it was a big universe, and finding one soldier seemingly determined not to be found made it frustratingly difficult.
After six years of on-and-off searching, I had finally given up on him. I had searched for his name several times on every memorial I could find, desperately hoping to find some sort of closure on his life, but in the end I was left clueless as to the fate of the man who did so much for me.
I sighed the thoughts out of my head, not wanting to have such a negative mindset when I was trying to visit some friends.
I passed under the familiar arch, taking a deep breath of the salty air as I did. After the bombs fell, the crater left behind quickly flooded with ocean water. The near-perfect bowl had become a new habitat for all manner of sea life, a symbol of how even the worst tragedy could be overcome. Surrounding the crater was a ring of stone walls, divided into sections corresponding to when and where a soldier was killed or went missing.
I navigated the massive monument with familiarity, having visited it many times before. I’ve always preferred to visit the day after the holiday, it was always almost empty as people had their fill the day before. Every year or so someone would have a similar idea to me, but it never drew from the experience.
And speaking of, a single man was standing in the exact spot I preferred to stand in. In one of his hands was a bag with the top of a bottle poking out and his other was clenched into a tight fist, his eyes were clenched tightly, his face was strained in pain and profound sadness. You didn’t need to be a detective to know that this man was hurting, whether for lost brethren in arms, lost biological brethren, or simply overwhelming sadness from the loss of life, this man was hurting.
I considered leaving the disheveled man to his devices, but some deep part of my mind told me to talk to him. He didn’t turn to face me as I got closer, he didn’t even open his eyes. It was as if nothing outside of his mind was real to him and it could all be ignored.
“Excuse me? Sir? Are you visiting someone you know?”
He still ignored me, but he loosened the death grip he had on his fist.
“It’s fine if you don’t tell me, but I find that it helps to talk about your feelings with someone else. Even if that someone else is an alien.”
Slowly the man opened his eyes and sluggishly turned to face me. Still, he refused to speak.
“It’s fine if you don’t want to speak, I can stay quiet. But if you won’t stop me, I’d like to speak at you. You don’t have to respond, sometimes it’s better to just listen anyway.”
To my surprise, the man actually spoke. His voice was rough and sad, matching the image in front of me. “Why are you here?”
I smiled and turned to face the wall of names. “I’m visiting some old friends, people who saved my life.”
I pointed a claw at the names. “Owen Oak and James Kle are the ones that I know here, but I know more at other points along the wall. Who did you know?”
The man was silent for a moment. “The same people.”
“Really? How did you know them?”
“I was a soldier. I worked with them.”
I started to nod when a thought flashed through my mind. If he knew the soldiers who worked with Billy, maybe he knew Billy himself. It didn’t seem like a stretch in my eyes, they were all part of the same squad after all.
So, despite having given up on actively searching for Billy, I decided to ask the question. “If you don’t mind me asking, do you maybe know a soldier named Billy Marsh?”
“That’s me.”
I blinked. “W-what?”
“I’m Billy Marsh.”
I stepped back and looked the man up and down. As I did, he finally looked me in the eyes. Once I saw his eyes, the color and shape, I knew with all my heart that this man was Billy Marsh. Even with the scraggly hair, patchy beard, dirty clothes, and brown-bagged drink in hand, there was no mistaking the eyes of the man who saved my life.
“Holy shit… It really is you.”
Billy took a deep drink of his liquor, barely flinching from what I could now see was Venlilian alcohol. He must have been drinking it frequently to be so used to the burning, and judging from his appearance that was no stretch.
“Yeah, it’s me. Billy Marsh, Human trash and parasite to the world.”
My mind tumbled at the words, causing me to stutter and hold out a claw in surprise. “N-now wait a second. You are anything but Human trash or a parasite. You’re a hero Billy, I know for a fact. You saved my life!”
“I’m no hero. I’ve killed so many others. It would have been better off if I never joined the military, maybe more lives could have been saved. Maybe Owen’s life could have been saved.”
He took another gulp of his drink as I spoke. “Now hold on, you saved plenty of-”
Alcohol spilled onto his shirt as he yelled. “I didn’t save anyone! Someone else could have saved so many more lives than I could! At the end of it all, when all was said and done, I was an idealistic fool and a failure and a horrible person. I’ve ended up killing more people than I’ve saved, and I’ve ruined so many lives.”
I took a stand. “Now that’s blatantly not true. Who’s telling you this? Billy, you are one of the kindest, most caring people I have ever met.”
“Was. I was one of the kindest and most caring. And you want to know why? It was because I hadn’t been woken up to just how terrible the universe really was. I mean, what could one young, dumb soldier do in the grand scheme, right? If I really wanted to help, I should have become a doctor or a fucking politician, right? But I chose to be a soldier, a useless fucking pawn that wasn’t even good at its job.”
He took another drink as I stood stunned at who Billy had become. I never could have expected the valiant, patient, caring soldier to become so volatile and angry. I had to help him. I don’t care if I have to miss a few classes, I’m rescuing this man from himself.
“Billy, can I visit sometime soon?”
He spilled a little alcohol as he pulled the bottle away quickly. “Fuck no. I don’t need to ruin your life too. Stay the hell away from me, I’m like a fucking bomb. You are just going to get hurt, it’s a miracle you didn’t the first time.”
“Well if you’re a bomb, then I’m going to disarm you. I don’t know how long you have been like this, but I’m going to heal you.”
He pointed a finger at my chest. “Then I’m just going to fight back. I’m not letting you anywhere near me.”
I pointed right back. “You don’t get to make that decision. It’s my life, and I am choosing to help you.”
“You are going to regret it. I say that with one hundred percent absolute certainty.”
“We won't know until we try.”
Billy took a step back, placed a hand on his head and growled. “You know what? Fine. Try your luck. It’s your life, right? But when you see just how helpless you are to help me, don’t expect to get your wasted time back. I don’t know what you think you can do, but give it a try! It’s still early in the morning, so why don’t we head on back to my place so you can work whatever magic you think you have.”
Billy didn’t wait for a response and stormed off to the exit without another word. I watched him for a long moment before sighing deeply. I don’t know the exact details of what happened to him, but with what Naeriu told me and the names on the memorial I could piece together some vague details. It sounded like Billy had gone through hell, and now he thinks he deserves it.
I clenched my claw in determination before jogging to catch up to Billy. I had some calls to make on the way over to his house knowing just how much work I was going to have to do to help the man who saved me.
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You know the drill: credit to SpacePaladin15 for the universe.
Thank you JulianSkies for proofreading.
Date [Standardized Human Time]: March 27, 2142
It was early in the morning, birds were chirping, and the air was still chilled from the night. It was a comfortable morning, especially considering what had happened yesterday. I could still feel the leftovers of a hangover in the back of my head, but it was more than manageable for me. A small headache like that wouldn’t stop me from visiting the memorial.
I still had a ways to walk before I got there, but I didn’t mind. It just let me take in the beauty of the new New York City that had been built. Even if I wasn’t a Human, I felt a sense of pride at the sight of the glistening towers and the clean streets. Despite only playing a minor role in the clean-up and reconstruction, it was certainly enough for me to feel that I had contributed enough to take pride in it.
I still cannot believe I ever even thought of hating Humans, the fact that I did still disgust me to this day. I wasn’t alone in that mindset either, billions of former soldiers, exterminators, or Human-phobes had woken up to the reality, with tens of thousands of them moving to Earth and trying to repay the Humans what they had taken. Many of them still struggled with coming to terms with their past.
It was because of them that I could become a husband to the most beautiful Gojid in the universe and father to the most rambunctious one. Without their help on the Cradle, I would have died long ago and never have been able to even see the love of my life. They inspired me to become more than just a father and husband, I was going to become just like them.
In my free time, I often worked for charities, volunteered for clean-ups, and tried my hand as a substitute teacher. Even if I wasn’t the best at it, I still enjoyed doing them. It let me feel like I was making a difference in the world, continuing the legacy that the Humans had set up. I would save as many people as I could, just like the person who saved me.
I had lost track of Billy ever since the Cradle, and the one time I had heard about him was from Naeriu telling me how Billy ended up surviving in a cabin in Alaska. It wasn’t like I didn’t try to find him, but it was a big universe, and finding one soldier seemingly determined not to be found made it frustratingly difficult.
After six years of on-and-off searching, I had finally given up on him. I had searched for his name several times on every memorial I could find, desperately hoping to find some sort of closure on his life, but in the end I was left clueless as to the fate of the man who did so much for me.
I sighed the thoughts out of my head, not wanting to have such a negative mindset when I was trying to visit some friends.
I passed under the familiar arch, taking a deep breath of the salty air as I did. After the bombs fell, the crater left behind quickly flooded with ocean water. The near-perfect bowl had become a new habitat for all manner of sea life, a symbol of how even the worst tragedy could be overcome. Surrounding the crater was a ring of stone walls, divided into sections corresponding to when and where a soldier was killed or went missing.
I navigated the massive monument with familiarity, having visited it many times before. I’ve always preferred to visit the day after the holiday, it was always almost empty as people had their fill the day before. Every year or so someone would have a similar idea to me, but it never drew from the experience.
And speaking of, a single man was standing in the exact spot I preferred to stand in. In one of his hands was a bag with the top of a bottle poking out and his other was clenched into a tight fist, his eyes were clenched tightly, his face was strained in pain and profound sadness. You didn’t need to be a detective to know that this man was hurting, whether for lost brethren in arms, lost biological brethren, or simply overwhelming sadness from the loss of life, this man was hurting.
I considered leaving the disheveled man to his devices, but some deep part of my mind told me to talk to him. He didn’t turn to face me as I got closer, he didn’t even open his eyes. It was as if nothing outside of his mind was real to him and it could all be ignored.
“Excuse me? Sir? Are you visiting someone you know?”
He still ignored me, but he loosened the death grip he had on his fist.
“It’s fine if you don’t tell me, but I find that it helps to talk about your feelings with someone else. Even if that someone else is an alien.”
Slowly the man opened his eyes and sluggishly turned to face me. Still, he refused to speak.
“It’s fine if you don’t want to speak, I can stay quiet. But if you won’t stop me, I’d like to speak at you. You don’t have to respond, sometimes it’s better to just listen anyway.”
To my surprise, the man actually spoke. His voice was rough and sad, matching the image in front of me. “Why are you here?”
I smiled and turned to face the wall of names. “I’m visiting some old friends, people who saved my life.”
I pointed a claw at the names. “Owen Oak and James Kle are the ones that I know here, but I know more at other points along the wall. Who did you know?”
The man was silent for a moment. “The same people.”
“Really? How did you know them?”
“I was a soldier. I worked with them.”
I started to nod when a thought flashed through my mind. If he knew the soldiers who worked with Billy, maybe he knew Billy himself. It didn’t seem like a stretch in my eyes, they were all part of the same squad after all.
So, despite having given up on actively searching for Billy, I decided to ask the question. “If you don’t mind me asking, do you maybe know a soldier named Billy Marsh?”
“That’s me.”
I blinked. “W-what?”
“I’m Billy Marsh.”
I stepped back and looked the man up and down. As I did, he finally looked me in the eyes. Once I saw his eyes, the color and shape, I knew with all my heart that this man was Billy Marsh. Even with the scraggly hair, patchy beard, dirty clothes, and brown-bagged drink in hand, there was no mistaking the eyes of the man who saved my life.
“Holy shit… It really is you.”
Billy took a deep drink of his liquor, barely flinching from what I could now see was Venlilian alcohol. He must have been drinking it frequently to be so used to the burning, and judging from his appearance that was no stretch.
“Yeah, it’s me. Billy Marsh, Human trash and parasite to the world.”
My mind tumbled at the words, causing me to stutter and hold out a claw in surprise. “N-now wait a second. You are anything but Human trash or a parasite. You’re a hero Billy, I know for a fact. You saved my life!”
“I’m no hero. I’ve killed so many others. It would have been better off if I never joined the military, maybe more lives could have been saved. Maybe Owen’s life could have been saved.”
He took another gulp of his drink as I spoke. “Now hold on, you saved plenty of-”
Alcohol spilled onto his shirt as he yelled. “I didn’t save anyone! Someone else could have saved so many more lives than I could! At the end of it all, when all was said and done, I was an idealistic fool and a failure and a horrible person. I’ve ended up killing more people than I’ve saved, and I’ve ruined so many lives.”
I took a stand. “Now that’s blatantly not true. Who’s telling you this? Billy, you are one of the kindest, most caring people I have ever met.”
“Was. I was one of the kindest and most caring. And you want to know why? It was because I hadn’t been woken up to just how terrible the universe really was. I mean, what could one young, dumb soldier do in the grand scheme, right? If I really wanted to help, I should have become a doctor or a fucking politician, right? But I chose to be a soldier, a useless fucking pawn that wasn’t even good at its job.”
He took another drink as I stood stunned at who Billy had become. I never could have expected the valiant, patient, caring soldier to become so volatile and angry. I had to help him. I don’t care if I have to miss a few classes, I’m rescuing this man from himself.
“Billy, can I visit sometime soon?”
He spilled a little alcohol as he pulled the bottle away quickly. “Fuck no. I don’t need to ruin your life too. Stay the hell away from me, I’m like a fucking bomb. You are just going to get hurt, it’s a miracle you didn’t the first time.”
“Well if you’re a bomb, then I’m going to disarm you. I don’t know how long you have been like this, but I’m going to heal you.”
He pointed a finger at my chest. “Then I’m just going to fight back. I’m not letting you anywhere near me.”
I pointed right back. “You don’t get to make that decision. It’s my life, and I am choosing to help you.”
“You are going to regret it. I say that with one hundred percent absolute certainty.”
“We won't know until we try.”
Billy took a step back, placed a hand on his head and growled. “You know what? Fine. Try your luck. It’s your life, right? But when you see just how helpless you are to help me, don’t expect to get your wasted time back. I don’t know what you think you can do, but give it a try! It’s still early in the morning, so why don’t we head on back to my place so you can work whatever magic you think you have.”
Billy didn’t wait for a response and stormed off to the exit without another word. I watched him for a long moment before sighing deeply. I don’t know the exact details of what happened to him, but with what Naeriu told me and the names on the memorial I could piece together some vague details. It sounded like Billy had gone through hell, and now he thinks he deserves it.
I clenched my claw in determination before jogging to catch up to Billy. I had some calls to make on the way over to his house knowing just how much work I was going to have to do to help the man who saved me.
2024.05.15 14:00 PenguinGreat Ranking how attractive every Nikke I have is
 | I'm very much expecting to be roasted for my great taste. Do your worst. submitted by PenguinGreat to NikkeMobile [link] [comments] I've been playing for nearly six months. Many of the characters I've really come to really enjoy. So, I wanted to go through each Nikke I have pulled and discuss how attractive they are. Attraction has two big components for me, how physical attractive they are and how attractive their personality is. I will refer to these as "beauty" and "personality" I will rank both on a 1-10 scale and combine for a total score. Note that I will only be reviewing Nikkes that I have pulled. Hard for me to review characters I don't know very well. Tier list for summary: https://preview.redd.it/ft83lqeexk0d1.jpg?width=727&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=752266e0bfbd061811f1147dd0223425bf5ca83b Let's start with the top tier "Spend the rest of my life with". These are the best of the best and most attractive girls with scores 18.5 and up. Rapi Beauty - 10/10 Personality - 10/10 Total score - 20/20 Starting with best girl Rapi. The only girl I give a perfect score to in both categories. She's the poster girl for the game for a reason. Just so beautiful and adorable. Just a great design and outfit. Love her cute cap especially. In terms of personality, she also knocks it out of the park. I have a big weakness for characters that appear cold on the outside but are actually just softies. Rapi pulls this off perfectly. I also really enjoy characters that are really disciplined and loyal to what they believe in. I also really enjoy the "straight man" role she plays with Anis and Neon's antics. Marciana Beauty - 10/10 Personality - 9.5/10 Total score - 19.5/20 Maybe it's the tight white pants, maybe it's the midriff, maybe it's the fact that she looks like a hot teacher I had when I was 14 but I think Marciana has one of the most attractive appearances of any Nikke. She has a great demenor and I will always have a love for dark haired girls. Her personality is also fantastic. I love her stern and cold appearance on first viewing. Much like Rapi, I just love a girl who is tough on the outside but a big softy on the inside. She was extremely adorable in her bond story and I loved seeing that other side of her you may not expect. D Beauty - 10/10 Personality - 9/10 Total score - 19/20 There is no more attractive combo than black hair + red eyes. This combo will kill me every time I see it. Now I liked D before, but once she got her new SSR she rocketed up my beauty rankings. She is the most attractive looking girl in all of Nikke without a doubt. Her black dress is to die for. Plus she reminds me a bit of Yor Forger which is always a good thing. As you can probably tell from above, I really love girls who seem really cold and rigid. I feel D may not show her soft side as much as Marciana or Rapi but the odd time it does come it is absolutely adorable. I also really appreciate her strong discipline and wanting to get her job done and do it correctly. Maxwell Beauty - 10/10 Personality - 8.5/10 Total score - 18.5/20 Maxwell marks the last Nikke in my ranking to receive a 10 for beauty, and she absolutely deserves it. Every part of Maxwell is just amazing to look at. Her toned abs are the highlight for me as I really love an athletic girl, as well as having my ideal chest size. She's free to examine me as much as she wants. Not to mention her design is also extremely adorable and I love the little cap she has on. Her personality also does quite well for me. I really enjoy the straight man role she has with her quirky teammates. A valuable role to have as it is needed to keep them in check and to not go overboard. Blanc Beauty - 9.5/10 Personality - 9/10 Total score - 18.5/20 Ah the bunny girls, of course Blanc's beauty will be high! Blanc is absolutely adorable! The white skin, hair, and suit mixing with those beautiful yellow eyes is truly breathtaking. The adorable collar and tie she has is amazing as well. My favourite part of her whole design has to be the little fang she has. It just destroys me. I really love how outgoing, extraverted, and friendly she is. This side of her does really well playing off Noir and giving them a fun dynamic in how opposite they are in many way. Someone just very enjoyable that I would love to see on my screen at any time. That concludes our top tier and my top 5. Next we will go to the still great but "Near perfection". This includes scores of 17-18. Privaty Beauty - 9/10 Personality - 9/10 Total score - 18/20 Privaty is super adorable. She has my favourite blush out of any girl in the game. Also love her adorable twintails, sexy yellow eyes, and her larger than sometimes expected chest. Her maid SSR is fantastic and really helps show off her adorableness and her assets. I adore tsunderes and Privaty does it perfectly. She would be so fun to tease as you would always get a great reaction. Like stated previously, I really love a girl who seems rigid at first but actually really cares. Diesel Beauty - 8.5/10 Personality - 9/10 Total score - 17.5/20 Diesel is really pretty and quite beautiful. Her conductor outfit is very cute and fits her very well. Her smile is always a joy to see and should always be protected. I adore how sweet she is. Someone who you just want to see keep smiling and never frown. I really enjoy her because she is just a joy to be around. Even in her sader moments, it is still great to see her be able to move on and keep a smile. Crown Beauty - 8.5/10 Personality - 8.5/10 Total score - 17/20 Crown is very elegant and beautiful. I love the dignified aura her design holds. Her outfit is great too, as it really does well in both showing her curves but still giving her a regal and professional feel. I think Crown is hilarious with how she can often mess up basic words and concepts. Otherwise, I really love how disciplined she is and how dedicated she is to being a leader. Rosanna Beauty - 9.5/10 Personality - 7.5/10 Total score - 17/20 Rosanna has a fantastic design. Split white/black hair is great and man those eyes are killer. Her outfit is also fantastic. The mafia boss style is cool and sexy, and she has great midriff and cleavage that are very alluring. Don't even get me started on those thigh high boots. Her personality is also good, even if not as great as who I have mentioned before. I love how forward she is with what she wants. Just straight up telling the commander she wants to hook up in her bond story was awesome. I also love how protective she can really get. Exia Beauty - 8/10 Personality - 9/10 Total score - 17/20 Exia is such a cutie. The oversized shirt is adorable and oddly quite sexy. The messy hair, dazed look in her eyes, and exposed thighs are also really good. I'd love to waste the rest of my life playing video games with Exia. Just waste away from responsibilities and society by just playing games. This is the ideal scenario in my mind. Isabel Beauty - 8/10 Personality - 9/10 Total score - 17/20 Isabel has a killer body and a very kissable face. I really love her beautiful long purple hair and how it blends with her beautiful eyes and outfit so well. Yanderes are always fantastic. Isabel can lock me in her house and throw away the key for all I care. She just needs some love and to have a stable happy family in her life (I mean I don't know how stable of a life you could have with Isabel but at least we have similar life goals). Those are the 6 in my second tier. Next we have the "Beautiful" tier for those scoring between 15-16.5. Rapunzel Beauty - 8.5/10 Personality - 8/10 Total score - 16.5/20 I'm not normally into the whole nun thing and I'm also not typically into blondes but Rapunzel is so gorgeous that I overlook that. She has a very lovely smile and a very alluring outfit that shows her great proportions very nicely. Her normally holy design and behaviour being taken over by her dirty thoughts is always funny too see. She reminds me a bit of Darkness from Konosuba in that way. With the impure thoughts just constantly invading her mind. Mihara Beauty - 8/10 Personality - 8/10 Total score - 16/20 Mihara really activated something in me that I didn't know I had. Her outfit is quite lewd but also very attractive. The black goes really well with her lovely black hair. You can really tell she mean business. Masochism is great, right? I definitely like giving pain rather than receiving so this works for me. Not to mention that I really like her voice. Goes right through my ears and into my brain. Noir Beauty - 7.5/10 Personality - 7.5/10 Total score - 15/20 The 2nd best of the bunnies, she is good but not nearly as good as Blanc. She has quite the attractive appearance but I feel her chest is a bit too large for what I normally like in a girl. Otherwise the black bunny suit is really great. Personality also isn't as good as blank. I don't tend to enjoy someone who is overly shy and reserved. I do appreciate how kind and caring she is and how she is trying to improve. Yuhla Beauty - 7.5/10 Personality - 7.5/10 Total score - 15/20 Yuhla's design overall is very good but it is her sharp teeth that appeal to me most. Something about them is just very attractive and suits her quite well. Not to mention her outfit gives her great midriff and even shows off some cool scarring. I really appreciate hard workers and while she doesn't have the most friendly personality, she still wins me over with how spicy she got in her bond story. That ends this tier of characters. Next we start to fall off a bit with the "Almost good" tier. This tier has scores from 13.5-14.5. Helm Beauty - 7/10 Personality - 7.5/10 Total score - 14.5/20 On paper Helm's design should by a 10/10 for me. The outfit, the hair, the thick thighs all really appeals to me. Just something about her feels a bit... off? Maybe it is her posture and how she is a bit hunched over that makes it look odd to me. Still overall I like her design but I just feel it is not as good as it should be. I really appreciate how disciplined she is. Anytime a girl has strong discipline and loyalty she will really appeal to me. Other than that she is a little bit boring. I remember her bond story being a bit meh. Naga Beauty - 8/10 Personality - 6.5/10 Total score - 14.5/20 Naga has a great design. Schoolgirl outfit is very cute and the unbuttoned top and short teasing skirt are very alluring. I really like her hairstyle with one of her eyes being covered by her hair. Naga's personality doesn't quite hit for me. I like how she tends to act more on the mature side but in reality I just found her to be really really boring most of the time. A few times she was good but it wasn't often enough for me to give a higher score. Noise Beauty - 7.5/10 Personality - 6.5/10 Total score - 14/20 Noise is another girl with a very attractive design. It is really good all around and I can see how people would really like her, but for me it is good rather than great. I'm not a big fan of the blonde she has in her hair. If her hair was all dark I think it would look better. Her personality is very bland. On paper I like the idea of a one hit wonder trying to get another hit but Noise just doesn't have the personality to get me invested. No an awful one but not great either. Mast Beauty - 8.5/10 Personality - 5/10 Total score - 13.5/20 Mast has a great design. Very sexy and very cute. Reminds me a bit of Marine from Hololive. The twintails are super cute and the fang is fantastic. For personality, I haven't done her bond story yet so I don't know it too well. Her ranking may change when I play it. For now I think a 5 is fair as from what I have seen, she seems average. This ends the first half of tiers. Now we start getting into those I don't like. Next is the "Average at best. Bad at worst". Scores will be 11-13. Quiry Beauty - 7/10 Personality - 6/10 Total score - 13/20 Quiry is very cute and I really like her outfit. One major drawback of her is that I am not a huge fan of pink hair. Otherwise the design is pretty solid all around. I don't know too much about her as I haven't done her bond story but I do like her quirk of having poor eyesight. Cute and endearing but I just don't know her well enough. Soda Beauty - 7/10 Personality - 6/10 Total score - 13/20 Soda has two very big reasons to like her design. The thing holding her design back for me is that her head just looks empty. Like just a blank face with no other thoughts behind it. Normally I like a smile but she looks less dumb without one. Her personality is a bit annoying. I like a bit of clumsiness but hers just is way too much. Really brings down her score for me. Otherwise she seems cute and kind. Julia Beauty - 7.5/10 Personality - 4.5/10 Total score - 12/20 If there was an award for most forgettable SSR, I would give it to Julia. I completely keep forgetting she exists even tho I do really like her design. It is very beautiful and elegant. I really like the violin as well. Maybe because I haven't done her bond story but what I have seen just seems really boring to me. As I learn more about her, she may go up but for now I can only give a 4.5. Yuni Beauty - 5.5/10 Personality - 6/10 Total score - 11.5/20 Yuni's design doesn't hit super hard for me. A bit too small in stature for my personal preference but she is quite cute. Plus again not huge on pink hair in general. I don't like receiving pain (at least not physical) so that relly does turn me away from her a bit. Otherwise she is cute enough but not my cup of tea. Anis Beauty - 6/10 Personality - 5.5/10 Total score - 11.5/20 Now I know some won't be happy with this one. Anis is very ok but is 100% overrated. She is quite cute but she really doesn't live up to the hype that some people give her. I do like her hat a lot tho. For personality she can be annoying at times. She can be funny but for the most part I think a lot of her jokes fall flat. This ends the average tier. Now we can get into girl I don't like in the "Why do people like them?" tier. This has scores between 5-10. Brid Beauty - 5/10 Personality - 5/10 Total score - 10/20 I know Brid has 2 big reasons that people like her, but for me they are a bit too big and I don't really like anything else she has going for her. Not huge on the hair even tho I am normally a big fan of white hair. Personality is a bit boring. I like how she is a hard worker but she really puts me to sleep. Delta Beauty - 5/10 Personality - 5/10 Total score - 10/20 Very meh design. Not a fan of the hair, or the army gear. If she wore the sunglasses rather than having them on her forehead, it would improve my opinion. Personality is just plain boring. I appreciate discipline but I would rather watch paint dry. I have heard she give something at the end of her bond story tho... but not enough to redeem her. Alice Beauty - 4/10 Personality - 4.5/10 Total score - 8.5/20 Way too much pink on her. The pink jumpsuit I could live with but the pink hair just makes it a bit too much for me. With a different hair colour or different outfit colour she may appeal more to me. I thought she was cute at first but got really annoying quickly. Her voice also just begged the heck out of me and made me want to put the game down. Tia Beauty - 4/10 Personality - 4/10 Total score - 8/20 I don't really like her design. Schoolgirl is normally really good but hers just isn't appealing. Not a fan of the haircut and the look on her face has always bugged me a bit. She is very annoying. Like really she just gets on all my nerves. Not even sure why but she just really grates on me. Neon Beauty - 4/10 Personality - 3.5/10 Total score - 7.5/20 Neon is easily the worst Counters member. I wish it had been someone else. Exia I think would have been a good choice. Her design really doesn't do much for me. I usually like hats but hers I always thought looked really bad on her. Needs a change of outfit and to actually face the camera. Her personality is very annoying as well. Feels like she is so one note for someone who is a main character. Just talking about firepower and not a ton else. Just in the game way too much. Rupee Beauty - 3.5/10 Personality - 4/10 Total score - 7.5/20 Honestly I think she is kind of ugly. The big smile makes her looks super dumb and a bit like a bimbo. That's just what I get from her design. Don't find her attractive at all. Her personality also seems really annoying and was making me roll my eyes when she's on screen. That is the end of this tier. I know I have made some enemies for these placements. The next tier is the "Pass" tier. I'm not going to go through each girl here as they are all ones I just don't have an interest in. Most because the design just looks too young for me and I don't want to talk about their attraction level. There are some however who I really like the characters of. For example, Liter is great and I'd love to complain about the youth with her. Soline is also special to me as she was the first Nikke I pulled. The final tier is the "Extremely attractive but I hate them as characters so I wouldn't go close to them". These are the worst offenders of all. Characters who have the design but just awful personality. Sin Beauty - 9/10 Personality - -5/10 Total score - 4/20 Sin is insanely hot. A top 10 design in the game IMO. The yogo pants are wild and I really think the mask looks good on her. Here is the problem. I HATE manipulative women. Nothing is more aggravating and a bigger turn away than someone manipulative. Taking advantage of someone's kindness like that is just cruel and evil (and not evil in the sexy way). I just can't like someone like that. Viper Beauty - 9.5/10 Personality - -7/10 Total score - 2.5/20 Viper is even a worse case. She was the reason I started playing the game in the first place. My disappointment when she turned out to be manipulative and cruel just upset me greatly. A great design wasted on garbage. Crow Beauty - 8.5/10 Personality - -8/10 Total score - 0.5/20 I hate Crow. She has a great design that is attractive but I really hate her. I don't want to explain further because of spoiler reasons but she is everything I hate in a character and personality. This concludes all the Nikke girls I have and how attractive I find them. So, how's my taste? |
2024.05.15 14:00 RaysBot Game Chat: 5/15 Rays (21-22) @ Red Sox (22-20) 7:10 PM
Rays (21-22) @ Red Sox (22-20)
First Pitch: 7:10 PM at Fenway Park| Team | Starter | TV | Radio |
|---|---|---|---|
| Rays | Taj Bradley (0-1, 1.50 ERA) | BSSUN | WDAE, WQBN/1300 (ES) |
| Red Sox | Tanner Houck (3-4, 2.24 ERA) | NESN | WEEI, WCCM (ES) |
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2024.05.15 13:59 LORDLUK3 help with dead spots in the house
Hi guys, I am currently on a gigabit package with virgin media. The internet works great in the living room, dining room and two upstairs bedrooms. It doesn’t work very well in the kitchen, my bedroom and the garden.
My current setup is the virgin media router in router mode and three deco s4’s in access point mode. The decos are using WiFi backhaul to connect to one another however, the deco that I have in my bedroom and kitchen are quite far away from the main deco so the signal strength is sometimes showing as weak on the deco app. The speeds in the affected rooms are generally okay but they fluctuate a lot, which makes watching live tv or playing games over the internet frustrating because of lag/ buffering.
Ideally, I want to connect the decos together so it can take advantage of Ethernet backhaul however,I can’t do this because I can’t run the Ethernet cables anywhere to allow me to do this, I can’t even bring the decos closer together because of the lack of power sockets. I had a twin pack of tp link powerline adapters(Ethernet only, up to 500mbs) laying about so I plugged one in to a socket next to my virgin router and plugged an Ethernet cable from the powerline adapter to my virgin router. The other powerline adapter was plugged up in my bedroom and had an Ethernet going from the powerline adapter to the tp link deco to create an Ethernet backhaul. The speeds were pretty awful at 3.82MBPS download and 0.58 upload speeds. Before I was getting around 130 MBPS download and 40MBPS upload, but again even then I’d have dropouts constantly.
Any ideas on how to fix this issue would be appreciated and I am open to any alternatives you might have. Thanks
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My current setup is the virgin media router in router mode and three deco s4’s in access point mode. The decos are using WiFi backhaul to connect to one another however, the deco that I have in my bedroom and kitchen are quite far away from the main deco so the signal strength is sometimes showing as weak on the deco app. The speeds in the affected rooms are generally okay but they fluctuate a lot, which makes watching live tv or playing games over the internet frustrating because of lag/ buffering.
Ideally, I want to connect the decos together so it can take advantage of Ethernet backhaul however,I can’t do this because I can’t run the Ethernet cables anywhere to allow me to do this, I can’t even bring the decos closer together because of the lack of power sockets. I had a twin pack of tp link powerline adapters(Ethernet only, up to 500mbs) laying about so I plugged one in to a socket next to my virgin router and plugged an Ethernet cable from the powerline adapter to my virgin router. The other powerline adapter was plugged up in my bedroom and had an Ethernet going from the powerline adapter to the tp link deco to create an Ethernet backhaul. The speeds were pretty awful at 3.82MBPS download and 0.58 upload speeds. Before I was getting around 130 MBPS download and 40MBPS upload, but again even then I’d have dropouts constantly.
Any ideas on how to fix this issue would be appreciated and I am open to any alternatives you might have. Thanks
2024.05.15 13:58 tinkerellabella Husband wants us to sell family home
My (29F) husband (40M) wants to sell our family home. What do I do?
Hi Reddit,
I'm in need of some advice regarding my current marital situation and the potential sale of our home. To give you the full picture, I'll start from the beginning. Apologies for the length, but I feel all the details are necessary to understand the context.
I (29F) met my husband (40M) on Tinder four years ago. We dated for about eight months when my family had an opportunity to purchase a property. My then-boyfriend was also looking to be involved in a business deal of that sort, and he was interested in having his name on the property as well. My father supported this, seeing as how my boyfriend was a physician with a good income, and saw this as a way to bring him closer to our family. The opportunity came quickly, and we all signed the contract to purchase the house.
Trouble began shortly after this. My boyfriend requested that only he and I be on the title of the house, removing the rest of my family, as he saw a future with us and envisioned it as our potential family home. My father was very pleased to hear this and supported it, so we obliged. During this time, the property had increased in value, and I requested the other family members be paid off so we could buy out their shares. My boyfriend declined, feeling it was unfair.
To skim over some details, here are the highlights of the construction: My boyfriend paid more for the down payment than we initially realized would be required. Because of this, he paid no further construction costs. The construction proceeded with debt from my family until the construction loans came through. My family paid for the construction, and my father built the house for us without charging for his management services. My father was displeased with my boyfriend’s behavior and required him to pay more money for the construction due to inflation and the COVID shutdown. My boyfriend declined, and my mother and I secretly took out a line of credit to front the construction costs to my father, pretending it was from my boyfriend. Eventually, as we got the construction loans on a rolling basis after meeting construction milestones, my mother’s line of credit was paid off.
During this time, my family and I wondered why my boyfriend had not proposed. I decided that if he hadn't proposed by a certain time, I would leave him. Fortunately, he did propose on Valentine’s Day 2022. By spring of 2022, construction was coming to an end, and it was time for us to settle into the house. My fiancé felt uncomfortable with how much money he had put into the house and was worried I could leave him and make a profit. I promised him I wouldn’t leave him, but it wasn’t enough. He said he would believe me if I had a child with him, otherwise women would leave men if there were no ties. I told him I would have a child with him right when we got married. He suggested I come off birth control, as it takes months for a woman’s cycle to normalize after being on birth control for many years. I promised him I would come off birth control.
Coming off birth control was more stressful than I realized. I was very hormonal, breaking out, and felt unlike myself. This contributed to my fiancé and I fighting more than usual. In one particularly heated fight, I told him I would go back on birth control and even purchased the pills, but he told me he would break up with me if I did because he wanted to get to know the real me. I conceded, and then something switched in me and I became excited at the possibility of having a baby. I started tracking my cycle and figuring out my ovulation days. I shared this with my fiancé, and on one of those days, we got pregnant. I didn’t find out until the end of summer 2022. When I did find out, I told my fiancé and suggested we should probably get married.
My fiancé's first response was that we should wait to see if the baby sticks, and if it does, then we can plan a marriage but he wanted to wait until February 2023. I was very disappointed and angry and yelled at him. I felt alone and overwhelmed by the thought of having an illegitimate child. After discussing potentially getting an abortion, potentially breaking up, and potentially selling the house, I talked my fiancé into keeping the baby and getting married. He also wanted to keep the baby but was afraid of our situation. After many fights about when to have the wedding, we finally decided on December 2022. At that point, I was four months pregnant. During this time, my fiancé and I had major arguments that therapy couldn’t even remedy. We would yell at each other, slam doors, I would cry, and he would hold himself up in a room for hours. We had nice moments too, but they were heavily clouded over by the bad.
Finally, we got married, and things were good for a while. But then we faced some marital problems. My husband kept separate accounts and managed the finances himself. We had a joint credit card where I could pay for expenses without being questioned. He made all of the major investment decisions and major purchases. If I tried to disagree or speak up, he would get upset because this was not the submissive wife I had promised him I would be. I made significantly less money than him but lived a good lifestyle, buying almost anything I wanted within reason. Coming from a traditional family, I was upset that finances were kept separate. And so it continued that my husband would invest tens of thousands of dollars into our house so that his family from out of town would visit. We live in Vancouver, Canada, but his family is from Ottawa. In hopes of luring his youngest sister (of four) to Vancouver, my husband would make any modification to the house that his youngest sister showed the slightest interest in. This included a hot tub on the rooftop, a media system in the basement, a movie projector, and much more. After said sister got married, she made it clear that she would not move to Vancouver. Then a switch happened in my husband, and he suddenly wanted to sell the house.
Meanwhile, during all this time, I had my baby, and my husband and I were still fighting more than ever. I felt no support from him, and he felt drained by his work, our fights, and being away from his family. Recently, for the past three months, he has been consistently pushing for the sale of our house. This is where my dilemma lies. I am afraid to sell this house because my husband has kept finances separate, and the mortgage on this house has been serving as a way for me to feel secure. My husband contributes a monthly amount on a regular basis. He could have forced a sale in the past but didn’t, instead paying into the monthly mortgage on top of other bills. Now, he is considering forcing the sale of our house, but I am upset that he is citing financing as the issue when I have been begging him to save money instead of spending (his response is that $200,000 does not affect a $2M mortgage, and that he now feels burnt out and wants to retire sooner and live passively). If I agree to sell, I feel unstable about moving from our home given that my husband and I fight so frequently, and I am left alone to take care of the child. It is also worth noting that my parents live right across the street and come over frequently to help with the child, or I would go over to seek their help. My husband says that he feels abandoned and uncomfortable frequently because of our proximity to my parents, but I feel it’s only been helpful because there have been times when I felt truly alone, and my parents were my only solace and support. My husband would ignore me for days, especially when I was postpartum and vulnerable. My parents now see my husband as someone who doesn’t put his wife and child first. My husband says that the massive mortgage we have is too stressful for him, and he can’t take that burden. I am sad that my husband will not consider keeping this house for another three years so that I can get comfortable with the idea of selling the house and that potentially I and my family can all move to Ottawa so that we can allow my husband to be closer to his family. My husband says that he’s tired of the mortgage and feeling forced to work and missing out on spending time with our daughter (his job is very high stress).
I don’t know what to do at this point, Reddit. I’m currently on extended maternity leave, but it ends in six months. My husband and I will have to come to an agreement about the house, otherwise, it is likely that he will force the sale of the house even if I’m not ready to move. I’ve consistently felt rushed and overlooked in this relationship. I am tired of being the small voice that does not impact decision-making. My husband is now being nice to me and trying to show me a good time, but I see it as him turning on his charming mode so that I can say yes to the sale of this house. I’m not sure what to do. Our fights and disagreements are so bad and the marriage feels like doom sometimes (never any physical violence). I sometimes questions even staying with him, but I worry for my daughter. I’m afraid of her being an only child of divorce; I imagine it’ll be lonely and emotionally traumatizing. He is a good father to her, even though he is cold (but civil) with me.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
TL;DR:
I need advice. I met my husband four years ago, and we bought a house together with my family's help. Financial disputes caused issues. Despite getting married and having a baby, we fight often. My husband handles our finances separately, spent a lot on the house, but now wants to sell it. I feel insecure about selling because the mortgage is like an investment to me, and also I rely on my parents, who live nearby, for help with our child. My husband feels stressed by the mortgage and feels homesick for his family 3000km away. I feel overlooked in decision-making and am unsure whether to agree to the sale, or to stand my ground and not sell. Sometimes I question staying in the marriage for my daughter’s sake, or is it better give up on this unhappy marriage.
submitted by tinkerellabella to TwoXChromosomes [link] [comments]
Hi Reddit,
I'm in need of some advice regarding my current marital situation and the potential sale of our home. To give you the full picture, I'll start from the beginning. Apologies for the length, but I feel all the details are necessary to understand the context.
I (29F) met my husband (40M) on Tinder four years ago. We dated for about eight months when my family had an opportunity to purchase a property. My then-boyfriend was also looking to be involved in a business deal of that sort, and he was interested in having his name on the property as well. My father supported this, seeing as how my boyfriend was a physician with a good income, and saw this as a way to bring him closer to our family. The opportunity came quickly, and we all signed the contract to purchase the house.
Trouble began shortly after this. My boyfriend requested that only he and I be on the title of the house, removing the rest of my family, as he saw a future with us and envisioned it as our potential family home. My father was very pleased to hear this and supported it, so we obliged. During this time, the property had increased in value, and I requested the other family members be paid off so we could buy out their shares. My boyfriend declined, feeling it was unfair.
To skim over some details, here are the highlights of the construction: My boyfriend paid more for the down payment than we initially realized would be required. Because of this, he paid no further construction costs. The construction proceeded with debt from my family until the construction loans came through. My family paid for the construction, and my father built the house for us without charging for his management services. My father was displeased with my boyfriend’s behavior and required him to pay more money for the construction due to inflation and the COVID shutdown. My boyfriend declined, and my mother and I secretly took out a line of credit to front the construction costs to my father, pretending it was from my boyfriend. Eventually, as we got the construction loans on a rolling basis after meeting construction milestones, my mother’s line of credit was paid off.
During this time, my family and I wondered why my boyfriend had not proposed. I decided that if he hadn't proposed by a certain time, I would leave him. Fortunately, he did propose on Valentine’s Day 2022. By spring of 2022, construction was coming to an end, and it was time for us to settle into the house. My fiancé felt uncomfortable with how much money he had put into the house and was worried I could leave him and make a profit. I promised him I wouldn’t leave him, but it wasn’t enough. He said he would believe me if I had a child with him, otherwise women would leave men if there were no ties. I told him I would have a child with him right when we got married. He suggested I come off birth control, as it takes months for a woman’s cycle to normalize after being on birth control for many years. I promised him I would come off birth control.
Coming off birth control was more stressful than I realized. I was very hormonal, breaking out, and felt unlike myself. This contributed to my fiancé and I fighting more than usual. In one particularly heated fight, I told him I would go back on birth control and even purchased the pills, but he told me he would break up with me if I did because he wanted to get to know the real me. I conceded, and then something switched in me and I became excited at the possibility of having a baby. I started tracking my cycle and figuring out my ovulation days. I shared this with my fiancé, and on one of those days, we got pregnant. I didn’t find out until the end of summer 2022. When I did find out, I told my fiancé and suggested we should probably get married.
My fiancé's first response was that we should wait to see if the baby sticks, and if it does, then we can plan a marriage but he wanted to wait until February 2023. I was very disappointed and angry and yelled at him. I felt alone and overwhelmed by the thought of having an illegitimate child. After discussing potentially getting an abortion, potentially breaking up, and potentially selling the house, I talked my fiancé into keeping the baby and getting married. He also wanted to keep the baby but was afraid of our situation. After many fights about when to have the wedding, we finally decided on December 2022. At that point, I was four months pregnant. During this time, my fiancé and I had major arguments that therapy couldn’t even remedy. We would yell at each other, slam doors, I would cry, and he would hold himself up in a room for hours. We had nice moments too, but they were heavily clouded over by the bad.
Finally, we got married, and things were good for a while. But then we faced some marital problems. My husband kept separate accounts and managed the finances himself. We had a joint credit card where I could pay for expenses without being questioned. He made all of the major investment decisions and major purchases. If I tried to disagree or speak up, he would get upset because this was not the submissive wife I had promised him I would be. I made significantly less money than him but lived a good lifestyle, buying almost anything I wanted within reason. Coming from a traditional family, I was upset that finances were kept separate. And so it continued that my husband would invest tens of thousands of dollars into our house so that his family from out of town would visit. We live in Vancouver, Canada, but his family is from Ottawa. In hopes of luring his youngest sister (of four) to Vancouver, my husband would make any modification to the house that his youngest sister showed the slightest interest in. This included a hot tub on the rooftop, a media system in the basement, a movie projector, and much more. After said sister got married, she made it clear that she would not move to Vancouver. Then a switch happened in my husband, and he suddenly wanted to sell the house.
Meanwhile, during all this time, I had my baby, and my husband and I were still fighting more than ever. I felt no support from him, and he felt drained by his work, our fights, and being away from his family. Recently, for the past three months, he has been consistently pushing for the sale of our house. This is where my dilemma lies. I am afraid to sell this house because my husband has kept finances separate, and the mortgage on this house has been serving as a way for me to feel secure. My husband contributes a monthly amount on a regular basis. He could have forced a sale in the past but didn’t, instead paying into the monthly mortgage on top of other bills. Now, he is considering forcing the sale of our house, but I am upset that he is citing financing as the issue when I have been begging him to save money instead of spending (his response is that $200,000 does not affect a $2M mortgage, and that he now feels burnt out and wants to retire sooner and live passively). If I agree to sell, I feel unstable about moving from our home given that my husband and I fight so frequently, and I am left alone to take care of the child. It is also worth noting that my parents live right across the street and come over frequently to help with the child, or I would go over to seek their help. My husband says that he feels abandoned and uncomfortable frequently because of our proximity to my parents, but I feel it’s only been helpful because there have been times when I felt truly alone, and my parents were my only solace and support. My husband would ignore me for days, especially when I was postpartum and vulnerable. My parents now see my husband as someone who doesn’t put his wife and child first. My husband says that the massive mortgage we have is too stressful for him, and he can’t take that burden. I am sad that my husband will not consider keeping this house for another three years so that I can get comfortable with the idea of selling the house and that potentially I and my family can all move to Ottawa so that we can allow my husband to be closer to his family. My husband says that he’s tired of the mortgage and feeling forced to work and missing out on spending time with our daughter (his job is very high stress).
I don’t know what to do at this point, Reddit. I’m currently on extended maternity leave, but it ends in six months. My husband and I will have to come to an agreement about the house, otherwise, it is likely that he will force the sale of the house even if I’m not ready to move. I’ve consistently felt rushed and overlooked in this relationship. I am tired of being the small voice that does not impact decision-making. My husband is now being nice to me and trying to show me a good time, but I see it as him turning on his charming mode so that I can say yes to the sale of this house. I’m not sure what to do. Our fights and disagreements are so bad and the marriage feels like doom sometimes (never any physical violence). I sometimes questions even staying with him, but I worry for my daughter. I’m afraid of her being an only child of divorce; I imagine it’ll be lonely and emotionally traumatizing. He is a good father to her, even though he is cold (but civil) with me.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
TL;DR:
I need advice. I met my husband four years ago, and we bought a house together with my family's help. Financial disputes caused issues. Despite getting married and having a baby, we fight often. My husband handles our finances separately, spent a lot on the house, but now wants to sell it. I feel insecure about selling because the mortgage is like an investment to me, and also I rely on my parents, who live nearby, for help with our child. My husband feels stressed by the mortgage and feels homesick for his family 3000km away. I feel overlooked in decision-making and am unsure whether to agree to the sale, or to stand my ground and not sell. Sometimes I question staying in the marriage for my daughter’s sake, or is it better give up on this unhappy marriage.
2024.05.15 13:56 TadpoIes No hot water for 2 months
Live in Missouri. For the months of October through November my roommate and I had no access to hot water in our unit (affected the whole building) which meant cold showers when it was already cold outside. We live in an old building and this is how long it took for them to do the repairs needed to fix it. We still had to pay full rent, wanted to know if we should have been reimbursed in anyway or allowed a cheaper rent for those months? Reading online there’s laws about us being reimbursed only if we used money to fix the issue, which we did not.
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2024.05.15 13:53 mraverage89 Why does the idea of your partner being with others hurt so much? (Serious)
I just want to start by saying I completely understand the value and concept of open relationships etc. People are horny and should be allowed to love their life having fun and doing what makes them happy.
In a relationship, you want your partner to be happy and fulfilled in their lives and sex lives.
I understand that, and I understand the freedom. I always can find it hot thinking about him with others and what they could be doing.
I just can't stop the pain that comes with it though and I just can't understand why it hurts so much.
Partner is currently on holiday and as more intensely on Grindr as normal (already very intense). I want him to have good time away and don't say I feel this way but I can't stop thinking about all the guys seeing him for the first time, wanting him, using him, all the sex talk and pictures... All the hookups and first touches, first glances etc.
I want to be happy and healthy but it's really hurting and so I suppose I'm just looking for some understanding. I get the concept, I want him to be fulfilled and on paper it works really well... I'm just really struggling with the reality and just looking for some understanding as to why it does hurt. Overall, even in or out of open.... Why does the idea of your partner being with others hurt?
TLDR; Partner away, going to be hooking up. Understand openness and want it to work.. just hurts and don't know why.
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In a relationship, you want your partner to be happy and fulfilled in their lives and sex lives.
I understand that, and I understand the freedom. I always can find it hot thinking about him with others and what they could be doing.
I just can't stop the pain that comes with it though and I just can't understand why it hurts so much.
Partner is currently on holiday and as more intensely on Grindr as normal (already very intense). I want him to have good time away and don't say I feel this way but I can't stop thinking about all the guys seeing him for the first time, wanting him, using him, all the sex talk and pictures... All the hookups and first touches, first glances etc.
I want to be happy and healthy but it's really hurting and so I suppose I'm just looking for some understanding. I get the concept, I want him to be fulfilled and on paper it works really well... I'm just really struggling with the reality and just looking for some understanding as to why it does hurt. Overall, even in or out of open.... Why does the idea of your partner being with others hurt?
TLDR; Partner away, going to be hooking up. Understand openness and want it to work.. just hurts and don't know why.
2024.05.15 13:53 Professional-Coast66 I am hallucinating demons from stress
I'm sitting in my nice apartment in the favorite city with my handsome boyfriend and my cuddly cat, crying. I can't find a job and I'm scared. It feels like I am washing away my achievements with every tear that runs down my face. I can't see beyond this hurdle to the beautiful life around me, but I refuse to relax until I get that offer letter. Maybe I'm acting entitled, but I can't help but fearfully imagine that without a job, this life in front of me could be taken away. I know I am not alone but that doesn't give me camaraderie, rather sheer hopelessness and panic. Shouldn't a job be more of a right than a privilege?
I am on a ride with the universe. Every 10 days or so, I feel a spark of hope with an enlightened new venture that could pan out. A dream job posting, a new email from a recruiter, a LinkedIn notification, a friend who knows someone. Often it's just a grand promise of an opportunity from yet another charlatan that I always fall heavily for. The bottom feels endless, with hundreds of applications rotting in some forgotten inbox. Currently left unread by my last application spree, resources tapped out, zero opportunities on the horizon paired with a rolling wave of bad surprises. New charges, prices rising, emergencies, taxes, rent, health, bills. Normal stuff I could handle if I had a job! It just all feels so heavy and I have no foundation to hold it up anymore.
Every night, I battle with myself to try and fall asleep. Pills, vitamins, tinctures, teas, meditations, exercises, ASMR, cooking videos, anything. Now it's just a mixture of it all along with trying to soothe my nerves enough to trick my brain that it's tired and needs to stop chattering. Once I finally get to sleep, I usually startle awake around 3:30, scared out of my wits, my nerves are on fire and I am visualizing something in the room with me that is somehow evil and staring at me. I try to calm myself down with a bathroom trip, a prayer, and eventually more phone time feeling the side of my face burning from fear, my stomach tossing in knots. I lay still in the light of my phone while I try not to let the feeling that something is going to pop out and grab me. Too scared to have my feet feel the air outside of the covers so I don’t get dragged by whatever evil thing is at the foot of my bed or watching me from the walls.
This started during the pandemic. I was so stressed out I started having hallucinatory night terrors. It resumes itself whenever I am stressed. My body turns on me at times when I need peace, startling me awake for fear of a dark shadow demon with long fingers near the window or a spindly witch with ear-to-ear pointed teeth at the top of my wardrobe. Objects and reflections transform into evil entities that startle me awake in fear. My body is in fight or flight mode, my neck is tingling, all the hairs on my body are standing to attention and I feel every muscle in my body tense. I can't wake anyone up because I am frozen within my terror. The most I can do is ignore it and run towards the real evil, my phone. A pacifier for anxiety that only feeds my fear more and more every time I use it. I can't stop turning towards it because I would have to sit and stare at the nightmarish demon taking the form of the curtains on my window that night. The demon always seems so real when it approaches me, when it wakes me up to watch me suffer.
I know my night terrors are just a symptom of a bigger issue, my stress. I also know they are genetic. My dad would wake up screaming in the night and my mom would flip the lights on to snap him out of it. My brother would take different forms of his night terrors often sitting in front of the TV in his usual spot when we were younger. Now his wife describes him waking her up in the middle of the night by removing her "live laugh love" decor and putting it in the garage. I wish my night terrors would just let me redecorate. I am in an impossible position, my stress is causing my night terrors, but my money problems are causing me stress. So essentially, the demon in the corner of the room is a figment of my bank account, my rejected applications, my dead-end wishes for a career, my student loan debt, and astronomical rent. How can I, an unemployed and overly anxious person, finally crush this demon? Well, I've bought some sage today. That's a start.
In my dream apartment with my boyfriend and my cat, I find myself in tears, scared, and jobless. Each tear feels like an erasure of my achievements. I’m terrified of losing everything without a job. I feel alone and panicked. Despite the occasional flicker of hope with a potential opportunity, the reality is hundreds of untouched applications and a constant wave of financial difficulties.
Sleep is a struggle, with anxiety-induced insomnia and night terrors. Each night, I wake up in fear, hallucinating terrifying entities. These terrors, a manifestation of stress, are inherited. My father and brother experienced similar episodes. Now, my stress and financial woes fuel these night terrors. I’m caught in a vicious cycle - stress causing night terrors and financial troubles causing stress. How can I, unemployed and anxious, overcome this? I've started by buying some sage.
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I am on a ride with the universe. Every 10 days or so, I feel a spark of hope with an enlightened new venture that could pan out. A dream job posting, a new email from a recruiter, a LinkedIn notification, a friend who knows someone. Often it's just a grand promise of an opportunity from yet another charlatan that I always fall heavily for. The bottom feels endless, with hundreds of applications rotting in some forgotten inbox. Currently left unread by my last application spree, resources tapped out, zero opportunities on the horizon paired with a rolling wave of bad surprises. New charges, prices rising, emergencies, taxes, rent, health, bills. Normal stuff I could handle if I had a job! It just all feels so heavy and I have no foundation to hold it up anymore.
Every night, I battle with myself to try and fall asleep. Pills, vitamins, tinctures, teas, meditations, exercises, ASMR, cooking videos, anything. Now it's just a mixture of it all along with trying to soothe my nerves enough to trick my brain that it's tired and needs to stop chattering. Once I finally get to sleep, I usually startle awake around 3:30, scared out of my wits, my nerves are on fire and I am visualizing something in the room with me that is somehow evil and staring at me. I try to calm myself down with a bathroom trip, a prayer, and eventually more phone time feeling the side of my face burning from fear, my stomach tossing in knots. I lay still in the light of my phone while I try not to let the feeling that something is going to pop out and grab me. Too scared to have my feet feel the air outside of the covers so I don’t get dragged by whatever evil thing is at the foot of my bed or watching me from the walls.
This started during the pandemic. I was so stressed out I started having hallucinatory night terrors. It resumes itself whenever I am stressed. My body turns on me at times when I need peace, startling me awake for fear of a dark shadow demon with long fingers near the window or a spindly witch with ear-to-ear pointed teeth at the top of my wardrobe. Objects and reflections transform into evil entities that startle me awake in fear. My body is in fight or flight mode, my neck is tingling, all the hairs on my body are standing to attention and I feel every muscle in my body tense. I can't wake anyone up because I am frozen within my terror. The most I can do is ignore it and run towards the real evil, my phone. A pacifier for anxiety that only feeds my fear more and more every time I use it. I can't stop turning towards it because I would have to sit and stare at the nightmarish demon taking the form of the curtains on my window that night. The demon always seems so real when it approaches me, when it wakes me up to watch me suffer.
I know my night terrors are just a symptom of a bigger issue, my stress. I also know they are genetic. My dad would wake up screaming in the night and my mom would flip the lights on to snap him out of it. My brother would take different forms of his night terrors often sitting in front of the TV in his usual spot when we were younger. Now his wife describes him waking her up in the middle of the night by removing her "live laugh love" decor and putting it in the garage. I wish my night terrors would just let me redecorate. I am in an impossible position, my stress is causing my night terrors, but my money problems are causing me stress. So essentially, the demon in the corner of the room is a figment of my bank account, my rejected applications, my dead-end wishes for a career, my student loan debt, and astronomical rent. How can I, an unemployed and overly anxious person, finally crush this demon? Well, I've bought some sage today. That's a start.
In my dream apartment with my boyfriend and my cat, I find myself in tears, scared, and jobless. Each tear feels like an erasure of my achievements. I’m terrified of losing everything without a job. I feel alone and panicked. Despite the occasional flicker of hope with a potential opportunity, the reality is hundreds of untouched applications and a constant wave of financial difficulties.
Sleep is a struggle, with anxiety-induced insomnia and night terrors. Each night, I wake up in fear, hallucinating terrifying entities. These terrors, a manifestation of stress, are inherited. My father and brother experienced similar episodes. Now, my stress and financial woes fuel these night terrors. I’m caught in a vicious cycle - stress causing night terrors and financial troubles causing stress. How can I, unemployed and anxious, overcome this? I've started by buying some sage.
2024.05.15 13:50 Silver-Somewhere-534 I recently turned 33, and ever since then, I come to realize that I have nothing worth living for.
I had a bunch of dreams as a kid, but I had a cancer scare in my early twenties that basically ruined my life for most of that decade and gave up on them. I have a terrible job that is the only one anyone will hire me for, I have zero friends and have been on maybe three dates since I left high school.
I'm over weight, and despite what people say, calorie deficits don't fucking work.
I still live at home and have zero drive to move out of home because I don't have the money and even if I did, my piece of shit government ruined our economy and housing here is borderline impossible for a single person to afford.
I literally have zero hobbies. I sit in front of my computer all night mindlessly watching tv shows muted till I cant keep my eyes open anymore, then sleep until I have to get ready for work. I've gone out ONCE in the last eight years, and that's because My sister forced me to go to a play with her.
I never speak to anyone if I can help it, even the people at work. Today I said probably less than thirty words in a six hour shift.
There's nothing for me here anymore. I'm 100 percent certain I won't see 40, and as right now, I'm starting to think I won't see 34.
Sorry. I just wanted to vent.
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I'm over weight, and despite what people say, calorie deficits don't fucking work.
I still live at home and have zero drive to move out of home because I don't have the money and even if I did, my piece of shit government ruined our economy and housing here is borderline impossible for a single person to afford.
I literally have zero hobbies. I sit in front of my computer all night mindlessly watching tv shows muted till I cant keep my eyes open anymore, then sleep until I have to get ready for work. I've gone out ONCE in the last eight years, and that's because My sister forced me to go to a play with her.
I never speak to anyone if I can help it, even the people at work. Today I said probably less than thirty words in a six hour shift.
There's nothing for me here anymore. I'm 100 percent certain I won't see 40, and as right now, I'm starting to think I won't see 34.
Sorry. I just wanted to vent.
2024.05.15 13:50 intifadha22 Hot Token
Hey guys, just would like to ask for your take on Hot Token and the Hot Protocol in general.
I watched the videos and read the articles. It seemed like the plans that they have for this ecosystem seems really big. Whats your take on it, especially when mining eventually stops and it goes live?
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I watched the videos and read the articles. It seemed like the plans that they have for this ecosystem seems really big. Whats your take on it, especially when mining eventually stops and it goes live?
2024.05.15 13:47 beagultape Questioning?
I'm am struggling with gender I been struggling with it for a while now. When I first started year's ago I tried to not think about it but now it's all I think of most of the time, what if I was born a women. I hear so many trans women talk about how much happier they are, I also heard of hrt and benefits that could come with it and it sounds magical from the softer skin, more feminine body shape and more. Also on top of that recently I've been questioning my sexuality as well I never found myself thinking a guy is cute/hot but recently I've been staring to feel that when I do see a guy who looks good and I feel bad maybe because I was raised to not think that way. However now that I'm trying to let go of all internal homophobia and transphobia taught onto me, which is why I struggle so hard trying find out who I am I so confused. I'd like to think I'm a trans women because I don't like living a male facial hair, masculine body is just something I'm not a fan of. I also think I would be a lesbian because although I thinks guys can look hot sometimes I don't think I would date a guy. It's all becoming really blurry at this point. I think I've been taught so much hate young and being around people in my earlier teens who also had those negative views affected me big time. This must be why I feel significant guilt about both my gender and sexuality, which is why I feel like I'm faking it or it would be wrong because of the things taught I was taught to be wrong is now in my life and I feel like I don't belong. I've working on educating myself on gender and sexuality and being more open minded and unlearning hate, it's helped grow so much and meet so many cool people in the LGBTQ community if you read this and have something you'd like to add or some advice thank you
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2024.05.15 13:45 IdeaRegular4671 This is a personal message to all of the psychiatrists in the entire world and everybody that works in the mental health industry.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! U SUCK! U STINK! U ARE A TRASH HUMAN BEING! STAY IN THE TRASH CAN! GET THE HELL OUT OF THIS PLANET! WE DONT WANT YOU HERE! Everything you touch you destroy!!! GET OUT OF MY FACE! 👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻🍅🍅🍅👩⚕️🧑⚕️👨⚕️your “science” drugs and medicine” are absolute hot garbage it’s trash 🗑️. If I ever die I will write on my tombstone 🪦 that you were personally responsible for my death and deceased state 🧟♂️. You are responsible for my chronic sickness illness and eventual death. That’s all you are good at. At destroying everything. I wonder if you are proud to being a glorified drug dealer and a judge jury and executioner of the state/system we live in. You are a jailer and a warden not a good doctor who heals people and makes their life better. You are a mere lifeless soulless emotionless tool of the state and of the elites who exploit your work to crush others and the people who employ you don’t give a fuck about you. If you died they wouldn’t care about you or your precious job. I bet your family hates you and your friends hate you as well. A vast majority of the public despises you have a grudge against you and wouldn’t care if you got really sick and just died one day. You don’t matter. You are worthless person who lives a meaningless life who dishes out trauma and senseless violence to innocent people. You are demon wearing human skin. A slimy snake. You are a net negative in this world. All you bring to this world is negativity chaos evil and destruction of life’s and the environment. I hope you are proud of being a bad evil person with no redeeming qualities whatsoever. I wish you all of the worst in life. I hope you go broke and lose all of your money and your job. And become unemployed forever and become homeless and die in a ditch somewhere . I wouldn’t shed a tear for your demise. Karma is a beotch isn’t it. What goes around comes around. Fuck around and find out. You are poison you are toxic that hands out poison to others. I wish someone would lock all of you up and throw away the key. That’s the fate the destiny y’all actually deserve not this lie and farce and sham and scam y’all live everyday. You don’t deserve wealth, fame, social prestige and power over others. You are a fake. See you in hell shrinks.
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2024.05.15 13:41 billy_lango I switched from a Kia EV6 to a Model Y
A while ago I posted this
After one month I can certainly say that I’m very happy with my decision and I’m enjoying every ride with the model Y.
What do I miss from the EV6?
The EV6 is a nice car and Kia has created a great car. It just lacks many things in my personal opinion which annoyed me a lot.
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After one month I can certainly say that I’m very happy with my decision and I’m enjoying every ride with the model Y.
What do I miss from the EV6?
The EV6 is a nice car and Kia has created a great car. It just lacks many things in my personal opinion which annoyed me a lot.
- I miss the ventilated seats a lot. My back gets really hot in the summer, even when AC is on full.
- The EV6 had a very smooth driving experience. Steering and driving.
2024.05.15 13:40 lotuseaters_com The Podcast of the Lotus Eaters #915
 | The Podcast of the Lotus Eaters #915 submitted by lotuseaters_com to Lotuseaters_com [link] [comments] Connor, Dan, and Jake Julius from Rattlesnake TV delve into the Conservatives' election coping mechanisms, borrowing money versus printing it, and ponder the emotional wellbeing of White Women. https://lotuseaters.com/the-podcast-of-the-lotus-eaters-915-15-05-2024 LIVE 1PM BST https://preview.redd.it/58ifxucouk0d1.png?width=1920&format=png&auto=webp&s=cbb8f9568555eee380a027e9e4b5b1b56efd1687 |
2024.05.15 13:39 Gilles_from_Paris NINA HAGEN LIVE + INTERVIEW BRUSSELS 15/09/1980 (TV report)
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2024.05.15 13:37 Holiday-Ad8797 Dry shampoos that are Rosacea compatible
Hey y’all, I live in a hot climate and desperately want a dry shampoo that won’t flare my type 2 rosacea. Ive used Batiste and it definitely flares my rosacea - not sure if it’s the fragrance or other ingredients. Anyone here had any luck?
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2024.05.15 13:37 _Bluestar_Bus_Soton_ How does finding a delivery work?
Noob question but I'm new to this.
So my background check has gone through and my account has been approved and all.
I can't start delivering just yet as I'm still waiting for my hot bag to come. In the meantime I've tried looking for orders (with no intention of accepting them) just to see how demanding my immediate area may be.
However I can't seem to get any orders. Is the app designed in a way so that orders only ping up when you are actually near restaurant locations that offer Uber? I live a mile away from my local town centre. This is where my local Mcdonald's is which shows up as a hotspot with a orange radius around it (I am outside of it).
I'll be surprised not to see any frequent orders from here, seeing as whenever I pass it quite literally every other order on the collection screen is for a online delivery of some sort.
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So my background check has gone through and my account has been approved and all.
I can't start delivering just yet as I'm still waiting for my hot bag to come. In the meantime I've tried looking for orders (with no intention of accepting them) just to see how demanding my immediate area may be.
However I can't seem to get any orders. Is the app designed in a way so that orders only ping up when you are actually near restaurant locations that offer Uber? I live a mile away from my local town centre. This is where my local Mcdonald's is which shows up as a hotspot with a orange radius around it (I am outside of it).
I'll be surprised not to see any frequent orders from here, seeing as whenever I pass it quite literally every other order on the collection screen is for a online delivery of some sort.
2024.05.15 13:36 Snewotmj Let’s talk!
Hey all, really not trying to promote anything but I created a twitch where I just want to be able to hear others stories, talk about my stories, and have a nice community of people looking to help others grow through their troubles.
If you do want to stop in, I’d love to hear from you!! I’ll be going live daily and I genuinely just want to help others and see numerous other perspectives of what people have been through
Twitch.tv/maxbops
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If you do want to stop in, I’d love to hear from you!! I’ll be going live daily and I genuinely just want to help others and see numerous other perspectives of what people have been through
Twitch.tv/maxbops