I need some advice on my workout as I've been doing this for 9 months but barely got 1kg of muscle. My goal is to gain muscle.
I'd like to check how good/how bad my workout routine is, before considering changing other aspects of my life.
I do take the right amount of protein and eat quite a lot. Also I've had a very slow weight progression since I started. (ex: Bench press from 32kg to 37kg in 9 months, Lunges from 2x12kg to 2x22kg).
I'm 1m80 tall and weight 71 kg, I look skinny but still have a thin layer of fat on my abs and pecs.
Day 1 : pecs and triceps
Bench Press 8x4 (37kg)
Dips 10x5 (bodtyweight)
Machine press 10x4 (19kg each arm)
Inclined military press 8x4 (20 kg each arm)
Bench triceps dips 15x4 (10kg on my waist)
Dumbbell overhead extension 10x4 (one 25kg dumbell)
Day 2 : legs and abs
Barbell squat 8x4 (70kg bar included)
Weighted walking lunges 14x4 (22kg each arm)
Leg extension 10x4 (75kg)
Calf raise 20x4 (40 kg)
Cable crunch 15x4 (36kg)
Day 3 : one session of cross training or extra pecs and biceps
Day 4 : rest
Day 5: back and biceps
Pull up 8x4 (body weight, sometimes with band)
Chin up 6x4 (body weight, sometimes with band)
Small grip lateral pull down 8x4 (59kg)
Barbell row 8x4 (35kg)
Dumbbell inclined curl (15 kg each arm)
Rest on weekends
I also do 2-3 min rest between sets depending on the level of fatigue.

Hi there, I have ADD and i've been prescribed various medications (Amfexa, Concerta, Xaggatin) for over 15 years but this post is on behalf of my younger sister who doesn't have reddit. I've no idea how much the system has changed in this time but it all seems really confusing so I thought i'd ask here and I really want to help her out.
Her therapist has mentioned Clinical Partners but they don't offer medication titration. Admittedly she's not keen on the idea of medication as she has an eating disorder and doesn't want anything to affect metabolism or weight gain/loss but just tips and coaching on how to manage the condition. She mostly functions day to day but she gets easily flustered and loses focus and a lot of the symptoms she experiences are symptoms of ADHD by her therapist and GP. I'm useless in this sense as I only take medication and didn't know they offered other options.
Does anyone have recommendations on what provider is really good for this type of referral and is there anyone who has had an ADHD assessment but doesn't take medication? Is it useful and how have you found it?

I was on Cryselle birth control for five months and gained 30 pounds. I've been trying to lose the weight for almost seven weeks, but my weight remains stagnant despite eating healthy and working out. I eat 1200-1500 calories a day and walk 10,000+ steps daily. Has anyone else experienced this? How long will it take for my body to return to normal? I have been doing this for about six weeks and have not lost a single pound. I am using MyFitnessPal to track my calories. Has anyone experienced this? I have been eating nutrient-dense food.

Introduction:

CROX was introduced in the early 2000s, It was an instant hit with consumers despite CROX's unconventional designs. However, the company got too greedy and started introducing multiple products that diluted the core branding of CROX coupled with the financial crisis of 2008 led to the stagnation of CROX in the early 2010s. However, CROX had a huge boost in popularity during COVID-19, as people stayed home and prioritized comfort, purchasing a lot of athleisure products including Crocs. CROX learned from its past failures and capitalized on its resurgence through limited edition releases and collaboration with famous artists, this combined effort allowed CROX to reach nearly 4 billion in revenue in FY23.

Market:

According to the 2023 Q4 Earnings Conference, management sees strong growth potential for China, the UK, South Korea, and Australia. There are also a few large but challenging markets such as Japan and India.
In Korea, CROX’s products are popular, especially clogs due to the current fashion trend “Y2K”. Y2K is a fashion trend that celebrates the fashion trends of the early 2000s and that coincidentally happens to be the era where clogs were popular.
In Japan, CROX’s products are popular due to Japan’s strict culture around the removal of footwear in certain places e.g. Onsen, Restaurants, and Temples. This emphasis on the removal of footwear makes CROX the ideal product for Japanese consumers as CROX’s are easy to slip in and out.
India is a market with a large potential for CROX, this is due to the warm weather in India which leads consumers to prefer wearing sandals over covered shoes. However, the largest issue with CROX is that it is too expensive for the Indian consumer. A Clog costs about 3000 Rupees but the average median household income in India is 22,000 Rupees. This large price tag on CROX’s products limits the number of consumers who can afford CROX’s products.
Birkenstock is CROX’s closest competitor, creating shoes that are designed for comfort. However, Birkenstock is pivoting to becoming a luxury brand at a higher price point compared to CROX and is much less personalized to maintain its luxury look. Birkenstock is committed to maintaining its brand image as a luxury brand, even going so far as to leave Amazon. This brand image was further solidified as Birkenstock was acquired by LVMH in 2021. However, this is good for CROX as it has a significantly larger total addressable market compared to Birkenstock.

Revenue:

Shoes Sold
When forecasting the total number of Crocs sold, I assumed that CROX’s growth rate will grow at an elevated level for the next 5 years as CROX expands its presence into the new markets coupled with the rise of jibbitz, CROX's products that allow for personalization. The growth rate tapers back down.
When forecasting %DTC, Crocs is taking a leaf out of Nike and Adidas’ books by reducing their reliance on wholesalers (SOURCE). Even their closest competitor Birkenstock is pivoting towards DTC. I assumed that %DTC would grow to 60%.
Crocs Physical Revenue
When forecasting the number of company-operated Crocs stores, I assumed that the growth rate would pick up 3 years into my forecast as the interest rates environment improves which allows for CROX to expand its physical presence easily before the growth rate tapers back down.
When forecasting Revenue/Store, opting for less granularity I forecasted growth rate as a % of historic averages tapering towards the perpetual inflation rate.
Crocs Digital Revenue
When forecasting the %DTC Digital sales, opting for less granularity I assumed it remained constant as a % of historic averages.
When forecasting Price/Shoe, opting for less granularity I forecasted growth rate as a % of historic averages tapering towards the perpetual inflation rate.
Crocs Wholesale Revenue
When forecasting the price/shoe, I assumed that over time as CROX becomes more independent and less reliant on wholesalers they will be able to negotiate for more favorable terms from their wholesale partners. So I assumed that the price/shoe would grow at an elevated rate before tapering back down to the perpetual inflation rate.
HEYDUDE Revenue
When forecasting the total number of shoes sold, I assumed that the total number of shoes sold increased to a great extent in the earlier years of my forecast to reflect CROX breaking into newer markets. However, I believe that for HEYDUDE to successfully take off and become a multi-national brand it would take a long time and hence I did not reflect that in my valuation.
When forecasting the price/shoe, I assumed that the price did not grow at a fast rate in the earlier years as CROX has to appeal the HEYDUDE brand to more consumers through a lower price point. In the later years, as CROX gains pricing powers they can increase the price it charges per shoe.

Cost:

COGS and Others
When forecasting COGS and Others, opting for less granularity I forecasted it as a % of historical averages.
SG&A
When forecasting the total number of employees, I assumed that the number of employees per store remains constant with historical averages for CROX to maintain high-quality customer support in each store.
When forecasting cost per employee, I forecasted it as a % of historical averages before tapering wage growth rate at a rate in line with the perpetual inflation rate.

CapEX and D&A:

When forecasting CapEX and D&A, opting for less granularity I forecasted it as a % of historical averages.

WACC:

10Y T-Bond Yield (1M Avg) = 4.49% Beta (SOURCE) = 2.04 Stable Market ERP (SOURCE) = 4.60% COE = 13.87%
CROX’s bond is rated “BB” (SOURCE) COD (1M Avg) = 6.56% Marginal Tax Rate = 21.00% AT-COD = 5.18%
Stock Price (5D Avg) = $140.16 Shares O/S = 60.50M Market Value of Equity = 8479.68M Weighted Average Maturity of Debt = 6 Years FY23 Interest Expense = $161.35M Market Value of Debt = 2077.25M
%Debt = 19.68% %Equity = 80.32% %WACC = 12.16%

Conclusion:

Ultimately in my base case, I value CROX at $158.15 per share. I believe that CROX is undervalued by the market due to the market's wariness about the success of the HEYDUDE brand and whether CROX will be able to continue pushing higher growth rates now that the athleisure trend is over. I believe that CROX's brand will continue to improve in value given how management embraces the same scarcity strategy that elevated Adidas and Nike to legendary status. CROX is also pivoting into other core products beyond the clogs in a bid to serve the diverse needs of consumers.
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Just want to start by saying, I love my girlfriend very much and we have been together for over 2 years. She's perfect in every way and I want to be with her forever. However, I haven't told her about a fetish I have had for as long as I can remember. Long story short, I discovered weight gain fetish art on deviant art back in the 2010s and I feel like it ruined me. I have given up porn for my gf which had previously satiated my desire for this sort of fantasy but recently I have been reading erotica (which she said was ok, she just doesn't know it's fetish erotica) and writing my own weight gain stories to try and suppress these feelings. No matter how long I go away from the fetish, it always creeps back into my mind. I should say that for the most part, this is just a fantasy. The idea of fattening up my girlfriend like she was livestock is disgusting and I would never do that. However, my girlfriend is very thin and sometimes I fantasize about her filling out more and getting more curves. If my girlfriend were to gain a little weight (within the realm of still being healthy) I would love it, but I don't really think it's my place as her boyfriend to say something like that to her bc it would be no different than if she said "I like guys who are shredded, you need to hit the gym more". Sometimes I hope with age she might fill out alittle. We are both in our early 20s, and it seems like women in their late 20s early 30s begin to fill out more with time. I have thought about brining this up to a therapist to ideally get rid of this fetish or at the very least, manage it better.

I am what the title says, I don't live in a cave nor been in jail , I been trying my entire life thousands of women 3x that online, rejected by every single one I am not fat, I worked out 99% of my life, younger I had a six pack, now I am still muscular but more bulk muscular then ripped, weight is a constant struggle ballance between the crazy amounts of calories I need to gain and maintain muscle mass and to keep from getting fat , my workouts has changed making it harder because I am 52 my joints and back are going, my issue now is the depression from a lifetime of lonlyness never knowing what sex is like not even a kiss , I can't watch movies tv shows anything that may have romantic moments in it ,
I also have developed a psychological block , after 52 years , I can't even fantasize about romantic contact, or dream of it, sure after a lot of practice now I can talk about the lack of it how I feel about it but not the actual physical thing mostly because I have no point of reference, but I actually pause can't even speak, my mind blanks , I didn't know I did this beyond the not able to think of it part the pause part a friend told me I just frozen in mid conversation and was catatonic for a few seconds, then I saw myself do it during a video I made try to taking about my situation ,
I tried giving up several times in the 52 years but it never took away the lonlyness tried religion nothing work its all just like trying to fix a broken mirror with a hammer

Disclaimer: English is not first langauge, if you detect any grammatic error, you may ignore it.

1. Backgroung of My Misfurtune.

I started dating this young lady, that I've known for several years in 2020. When I say I've known her before we started a relationship, I'm talking about knowing her from a distance not on a personal level. My judgement of her was based solely on how I perceived her from a distance. She seemed like a collected and well mannered young lady. That is what exactly attracted me to her at the first place, her beautiful personality so I thought. Only If I knew that I was about to make the biggest mistake of my life that would completely ruin and change my life as I knew it.
Months in our relationship, I came to the realisation that the girl was far from what I thought she was. It turned out she was a pathological lier, blackmailer, and very slow intellectually. Exactly the type of girl that I would not date under any circumstances. In order not to waste our time, I started to plan my exit way out of the relationship without hurting her feelings. I reduced the number of times that I would call her and I stopped inviting her to my place. One day I told her the truth, that I'm no longer interested in the relationship, and it's better we end the relationship since we have been only dating for a few months. And at first she was okey with it, we parted ways.

1. Things Get Interesting

After being away from her for a month, I received a sms saying that she is pregnant. At first I did not believe her, so I had to call her to do a pregnant test in person and it was positive. She was pregnant. I had my paternity doubts but I accepted the pregnancy and I told her that I will support the baby and support her during pregnancy but I made myself clear that I did not want a romantic relationship with her. I had paternity doubts because this is the girl that I had sex with only 5 times. Four was with condoms, and one was unprotected sex but we used withdrawal method.

1. Things Got Worse

I dont know whether I made a mistake by promising to support her during pregnancy but she took it as if we are back in a romantic relationship. She would demand attention from me, and she would fight girls that people saw me hanging out with. Things were getting out of control to the point that I was led into depression. The drama that she created became the talk of the neighbourhood and this was very embarrasing to me because I held a highly respected job in the community.

1. The Blackmail

She started threatening me with ruining my life, saying stuff like either she have me or nobody will have me. I dismissed most of her threats and atributed it to mood swings of a pregnant woman, and I must admit that I was so foolish for dismissing her threats. I shoud've have taken her threat seriously, the earlier the better.

1. Getting fired from work

One day at work right after morning breafing, the management called me in their office to have a word with me. I knew the management call you in only if you are getting promoted, transfered, served with a warning for misconduct or get fired. I was curious, why the management wanted to talk to me. I entered the office and I was told that my ex girlfriend had reported me at work for sexually abusing her, and to protect the image of the company they would investigate these sexually allegations leveled against me by my ex.
Some of my co-workers and managers did not like me at all, and the opportunity that they had been waiting for to destroy me has finally presented itself. Also, later along the line, I was informed by one of the manager who was my friend that, it was one of his collegue who told my ex that if she want to hurt me really bad, she should lay false sexual harrassment allegations against me at work.

1. A Kangaroo Hearing

The girl was not present at the hearing, It was only me, a 29 year old man against a panel of powerful managers and directors. I was told that they don't care whether the allegations are true or false, unfortunately they have no choice but to fire me in order to protect the reputation of the company. The hearing lasted 1 hour, and I was told to leave their work premises. This was September 2020 during the height of pandemic. I packed my bags, and bid farewell to my teary co workers who knew I was innocent.

1. Shame and Stigma

Here I was, unemployed at 29 during the pandemic, with a tag of sex offender on my neck. I was confused and lost. How would I tell my friends who held me in high regard? How would I tell my mother who spent so much on my education both high school and university? How would the young men in my family who look up to me react? Where can I go from now onwards? Luckly enough neither my friends nor family judged me because they know the type of a person I am.

1. Poverty and Recovery

When I lost my job, I literally lost everything. My house and car was repossed, I was literally stripped of everything. I would had been homeless had I not have a supporting family. My married brother had pity on me, and he invited me to stay with him. I was so ashamed of myself being taken care of by another man at age 29 knowing very well that months ago, I was an independent man and I had my life together. I was ashamed finding myself, sleeping on a matress. I was very shamed of myself that I could not even afford basic stuffs like toiletries. I leaped into depression, withdrew from friends, stayed indoor for 24 hours. I contempleted and attempted suicide several times. I lost weight, and I was ashamed and scared to meet people who knew how I was looking before I lost my job because my body was very emanciated. I looked as if I had been in a hospital for a year.
In the midst of my hopelessness and depression, I kept praying to God to come at my rescue. In 2022 things started getting better for me. Through a friend, we started a business which is doing fine, eventhough we are not yet where we want to be. And should everything go according to the plan, next year we plan to extend our opperation to other cities. I can see that God has answeared my prayers, and I must say the future look bright. I've gained weight, started going to the gym and Im starting to regain everything that I lost in 2020.

1. What About My Son?

The problem I have is I truly hate this girl with every fibre of my being. Just by the thought of her my mood instantly change. I cant see myself co-parenting with her, after all what she put me through. And if I happen to die, I cant stand the thought of my son sharing his inheritance from me with his mother. I have moved on but I haven't forgiven her, and I dont think I will ever forgive her. It is by God's grace that Im still alive today, because only a few can bounce back from the hell that I have been to.
Can I move on and completely close that door to start another family, or should I stay with my son and co-parent with the devil? I need advice from fellow men.
I would read comments.

Hi, not a regular reddit user and this is my first ever post. So for reference I'm 19M, and for the past 5 years my life has been a complete wreck seemingly to no end. No matter how much therapy, hospital trips, or stays at a psych ward I have nothing ever really seems to improve. I come from a very low income background (My father suffers from dementia, my mother only just recently started to work a minimum wage job after being on welfare for 20 years), so as far as my options go, I don't seem to have very many. I'm the only one in our entire family out of 2 with a Highschool diploma, but ever since I graduated I've constantly avoid conversations relating to college because I feel so burnt out. They diagnosed me with MDD during my first time staying at a psych ward at 15 after attempting to kill myself (Had a bad breakup among many other things). I don't think I've even gotten close to getting out of it despite being put in on four times, each time I was offered a new program(s) to help me manage my symptoms. After a while of trying and constantly talking to professionals I eventually just gave up and it's only continued to spiral down ever since. I struggle to consistently take care of my own personal hygiene, I'm struggling with both weight loss/gain, the idea of working is so exhausting to me the one time I tried to work a simple job as a fast food worker, I couldn't even complete 2 months of working there without feeling drained. Everything easy to others has become significantly more difficult for me and I don't know how to get out of it. I genuinely don't really have any real friends, I can't seem to maintain the few relationships I have because I've become too introverted for my own good. Most of this is my fault, it's not like I don't get invited to stuff every now and then, but I just can't seem to follow through when I tell someone I'll show up to hang out and always make an excuse last minute. I've become so lazy and seem to do nothing but rot all day while other people my age are out there living their lives as regular teenagers. I've tried Group Therapy, I've had multiple psychologists, psychiatrists, a nutritionist and kinesiologist. I've cycled through a few medication and saw little effect (Fluvoxamine, Prozac, Seroquel, some others I can't remember off the top of my head) so I've completely stopped taking them
I know the things that I want in life, but I just seemingly can't ever find the will to push through all the pain and struggle required to actually obtain said things. People, especially my other family members, tell me that I'm the most likely to make it out of this life but I just can't seem to find it in me. I want to finish college and become an Aerospace Engineer, I want to get more in shape, I want to have clean and bright white teeth, I want to travel and visit people I talk to online, I want to be able to go out without worrying about my appearance. I want to pay back my mom for always finding a way to make our lives significantly easier.

Hey, Im Daniel and im 22. September 2023 i was 120kg(264 pounds), And this is the story of how i went from 120kg(39.6% bf) to 76kg(19.8% bf) in only 4 months.
My routine used to be, wake up, gaming for 18h straight, 2L Coca Cola and eating shit everyday, till i saw a Brazillian guy on youtube, his youtube channel is called "Space Today", And he started a project with some other professional bodybuilder youtubers, he started at 180kg and i was like "huh, if he can do it, why wouldn't i be able to? he's starting line is way above mine." so i went to my local gym, took some nutricionism advices online for better understanding of food, and used some apps like Myfitnesspal or Fatsecret, to know how many calories each food had, bought a scale to weight my food 1 by 1 and did everything perfectly. I used to workout like a madman, my new routine was, wake up at 7 a.m, fasting, go to gym and do cardio, and then muscle training, I was eating 1300 calories a day and my total expenditure was like 3000/3400, that in the beggining.
A few months go by, and i started to get heated up on things, started working out 2 times a day, 1h 30m cardio in the morning, 1h 30m muscle workout at noon, every single day, i was greedy, i wanted it, i trained like it was my last day on earth, heavy training at that, 20km running every day, 140kg squat, 400kg leg press, 100kg bench, i was pretty satisfied with my numbers with only 3 to 4 months of training. One day i looked at the mirror and i could the infamous 6 pack starting to get form, imagine, took me 21 years to get 120kg and only 4 months to get lean, pretty good huh? So, i kept increasing weights, at this point (by my 3rd month) i was eating 1800kcal already cuz i thought i was spending way too much and giving in way too little, but i didnt wanted to exagerate. It reached a point i was training 6 days a week, and only sunday off because the gym was closed on that day, so i would go in the park near my house and start running.
By the end of January, i was running my usual 20 to 25km daily, when i suddenly felt something wrong, it wasnt just muscle pain on my legs that i felt, i stopped the treadmill and looked down confused, it was hurting like hell but i didnt care, just felt like it was a bad day and went home, prepared for afternoon workout and went to the gym, walking with a lot of pain but i couldnt afford to care. Kept doing my workout as usual day by day but with a lot of pain, till one day i was in the treadmill, and i had to stop by the kilometer 2 or 3 because of extreme pain, i couldnt run anymore, so i kept walking on the treadmill, like i said before, i didnt care at all about pain, people used to look at me, i was smiling while running and at the same time looking like i was about to just drop on the floor dying, you dont know the feeling of being depleted of energy but keep going at it till you try it... But in this day in specific it was different, i couldnt run anymore, nor walk, nor nothing, i seated in the treadmill and when i tried to get back up i couldnt, it was pain in the lowerback(lumbar) radiating to the legs, i felt that everyday specially on leg days, but never at this level of pain, this time i couldnt get up at all, so my friend called the PT'S and they decided to call an ambulance. i did a TAC analysis in the hospital, and they discovered degenerative herniated disk and several damaged sciatic nerves. I'm that type of guy that doesnt cry for anything, but I started crying when they told me i couldnt work out anymore and that i would need a cirurgy to replace the damaged disks...
You dont know what it is until it happens to you... Its so frustrating, in the start, you do it because you need to do it in order to lose fat, but when you start to see progress, you start to have fun with it, it stops being an obligation and starts being a fun hobby. They use to say that "in your highest times is when the devil comes for you", and i felt exactly that, in a moment, i was happy for the first time in life with my self and my body, and 1 minute later i had nothing.
Sorry for the big text, all this to say, its not worth it guys, take it slow, do a diet where you do a decent deficit, cutting 500kcal is okay, its not worth it going under 2000kcal, you dont need to cut half your calories, your body needs nutrients in order to function properly, Think of your body like a car, it needs gasoline to keep going, but it also needs oil, and manuntention, etc. I felt a lot of times out of strenght, i just kept going because in my mind was some David Goggins type of shit, "Do or die", "Imagine if this weight was a car and your mom's below it, push it or she'll get crushed" type of mentality you know? But what for? The best advice i can give you is, loosing weight is extremely easy, like i said, 21 years to get to 120 and 4 months to get back to 76, and if i had done it safely, probably could've achieved close to that number, like 85 or 80, with an even better physique, cuz will all this cardio training i lost tons of muscle mass. Remember, your body needs to rest, its not a machine, the world wont end tomorrow, you have plenty of time no matter your age, forget about being meso, meta or endomorph, everyone can do it, just change your habits little by little, and when it comes to food you dont need to change it at all, just control your portions, inform yourself with useful data. There are a lot of fake influencers but, also good ones like Dr.Mike or Paul Revelia or Lee Lem, they give plenty of healthy advices for free on how to achieve your ideal body % and realistic time to get it.
Thank you for having patience to read through all this. If i could go back in time, i would've done everything differently, being greedy was my biggest mistake, but if you are fat right now, i know you understand what were my thoughts, i just wanted to get rid of all that fat. In the end, it wasn't worth it guys. Stay safe!

Hello everyone! After far too long not taking care of my bg I'm finally back on track :)
However, in my high bg haze I didn't realise how much my weight had dropped, I've been thin anyways for a decade at this point but I really fell off. Hence I am here asking advice
I'm about 5ft 11in tall, male and currently weigh 54kg. According to BMI and any other sources I'm underweight and could probably do with another 10kg+. If pics are needed to see my body type that's fine!
I would like to use gain some weight back and use the opportunity to build just a small amount of muscle. I don't wanna be jacked or anything just some slight definition and maybe fix these noodle arms.
My biggest issues are: Appetite. I can barely eat the minimum amount of food I need to in a day, I'm thinking a shake might help but I don't know if that's feasible with all the carbs and sugar they often have. I'm based in ireland and we have a company called myprotein which offer sugar free more watery drinks with 20g protein per serving. If anyone could comment if that would be useful I'd appreciate it greatly.
My last issue is definitely exercise. I'm not totally unfit, I work a job that keeps me moving and I hit 15 to 20k steps each day. Other than that though I've never been particularly active and have no idea where to even start for muscle gain. Gym is a no go unless I can build some confidence at home first(big maybe). I do have access at home to a couple basic things like kettlebells and super light weights
TLDR; type 1, underweight, wanna use the opportunity to build a little muscle. 0 prior experience in muscle gain/most exercise
Thanks so much for reading these ramblings. If I had to sum up what I'm looking for it's simply where to start, there's so much nonsense about muscle gain online with people trying to sell something and with no experience it's so daunting

I’m sorry for even posting something as bitchy and self centered as this, but I just need to let this out. Every part of me is messed up in some way.
My body is so wrong. I’m trans and I took hormone blockers and estrogen from about the age of 14. I hate my body so much and I wish I didn’t need to take pills and injections to even look remotely feminine. I’m a fucking giant and my voice was messed up when I was about 13 when puberty just started so I can’t sing anymore, which is the one thing that kept me going. It’s gone, and it’s not coming back, and people still give me compliments on my voice but I just hate it so much. My body will never be that of a cis girl I just hate it I hate how it looks and I feel so empty inside, like there’s nothing inside my body if you were to cut it open. It feels fake and like it doesn’t belong to me or anyone, and I’m just trapped inside it trying to get out but I can’t. I’m just an embarrassment, I hate going outside I hate taking to people in person because they’re secretly judging me
Oh and the hormones? They don’t do shit. I’m not developing, I might still be growing taller, I’ve had the levels adjusted so they’re at the level of a cisgender girl but my body still disgusts me because I’m just not developing. I basically am a 16, almost 17 year old who is acting like a self centered pubescent 7th grader. I’m so sad and angry all the time and my emotions are so strong. I just feel like I could burst at any moment.
My grades in school are horrible and I have no plan for the future. I’m just stuck feeling like I’m being tortured every day, but so many people have it worse. I’m so self-centered and narcissistic and I only ever think about my own pain. So many people have it so much worse than me but I can’t begin to wrap my mind around their experiences because I’m so narcissistic. I’m a bad person, inside and out, and this post is basically just “woe is me” so it’s really just a testament to how terrible I am.
I’m sorry I’m cluttering this community of great people with this post since I don’t help others when they’re going through rough times all I think about is myself. I have this need to be pitied and even with the way I’m wording some things in this post it’s clear that I’m just asking for pity. I try to care about others feelings but I just turn back to myself. I have this attitude that I have it harder than everyone else when it’s not true. I think even as I’m writing I’m trying to make this sound worse than it actually is.
I’m sorry for making you read this far, and I’m sorry I keep saying sorry to gain your sympathy. Believe me when I say I don’t deserve it. Please don’t respond. I don’t deserve your time.

I've been checking my email like crazy lately and I suppose I just need some words of affirmation or someone to help me through this time. My assessment was on 4/30 of this year, and since then, I've been in contact with the doctor who assessed me a few times. During the assessment, she told me that there's a "high likelihood" that I am autistic due to the behaviors I showed during the assessment (occasional frustration with the tasks, having the construction blocks swiped away from me right after I completed putting them together [I put good work in and got very little recognition for the way I aligned the colors of the blocks!], annoyance with taking the Recognizing the Eyes and not being able to complete it because she stopped me, annoyance with the pointless reading of Free Fall, not having IQ difficulties, and my lack of social graces). She recommended I attend classes to gain social skills with other autists (which I promptly said "no thanks" to), and to take more risks at my workplace with joining in a conversation if it gets too loud (which made no sense to me, but I digress.). She also recommended a book called "Recognizing Autism in Women and Girls: When It Has Been Masked" at the end of the assessment. She told me that I had no signs of ADHD or BPD and it would take her a week or so to finalize her report, and I left happily.
Other than communicating with her about payment and appreciation for her taking the time to assess me, I haven't heard from her about my results. She said I might not be clinically diagnosed, even though I show a lot of autistic traits. I don't know where that lands me. Last week, she scheduled time to complete her report and said she would reach out to me to schedule a date to go over the results with me. I haven't heard from her since then (and haven't gotten the nerve to reach out because I'm worried me pressuring her will cause her to be annoyed), but now I'm anxious. What if it comes back that I'm not autistic? What fi she forgets about me? What if I find myself waiting for months to get any results back? I find myself thinking that maybe I faked everything and was as obstinate as I could be so I could get the result I wanted.
I don't know. I try talking to my partner about it, and he's been so supportive. He always checks in and asks how things are progressing, but all I do is come back empty-handed and worried. What helped you cope while you were waiting for your diagnosis? (Sorry this was so long. I got carried away, I guess.)

I’ve been on the Kyleena IUD for 4 years, I have a gynecologist appt tomorrow and I’m gonna ask to switch to the copper IUD. I’m now 22 but I’ve been on different forms of hormonal bc since 13.
In my first year of Kyleena, I lost 20 lbs. In my second year I gained 35 lbs, in my third year I gained another 30. Total gain of 65 lbs in 2 years.
In the past 6 months, I’ve lost 35 lbs with tons of effort. I seem to be stuck and can’t lose anymore weight no matter how hard I try.

Lately I’ve been mourning my body.. I keep seeing pictures pop up from 3 years ago when I first started recovery and at the time I thought I was huge but now looking back it was the best I’ve ever looked.. I had gained a l bit and was just above being UW, the clothes I wore, my aesthetic, my long hair and being so confident for the first time in my life. (Even if I was faking it to make it) Granted that few months of bliss ended up setting me up for failure and it’s not a time I should be idolizing. I just miss the way I looked and that’s it.. I feel like I’ll never look like that again, I had gained so much weight in two years I was obese, then I lost most of it and was boardering the healthy and overweight line but it was the smallest I’d been in 2 years.. I had a ton of stretch marks and loose skin and my boobs sag because of the rapid weight gain then rapid weight loss then I got pregnant and I thought I’d be fine bc I already had stretch marks, loose skin and saggy boobs but now at 33 weeks I somehow have more even tho Im still at a lower weight than I was at my highest weight.
Ugh I’m sorry if that’s all jumbled and makes no sense and I feel like I sound so ungrateful but I’m not, I was told I only had a 10% chance of conceiving naturally because of how damaged my body was from my ED but it miraculously happened and I couldn’t be happier about her coming! I’ve always wanted to be a mom and thought I’d never get the chance without IVF.
I feel pressured not to go back to my ed because I have a daughter and don’t want her to end up with an ed like I did bc of my mom.. I miss my old body that I’ll never have back with out surgery and even then I’ll never have the skin I did back. It also sucks because 2 of the girls I went to high school with who have kids are both super skinny (one has an ed and the other is just naturally skinny) I’m jealous bc I let myself go for 2 years and feel like that wrecked my body more than being pregnant. Anyone else relate? Or am I being over dramatic?

F24, 66kg, 165cm. I have had a slew of neurological symptoms. I'm so tired of experiencing this. I have balance problems, I have fell while walking 10 times this year. I also almost fall when just standing. I have memory loss and mild confusion. It's not THAT bad... but in 2013 I had a two month episode of intense confusion, I didn't know how to take a bath or go places, I forgot how to go places I went to my whole life. My parents didn't take me to the doctor because they said I was dramatising my symptoms. Back then, I had vomiting and lost a lot of weight, couldn't keep food down. No fever, no flu-like symptoms... just intense confusion and inability to hold food down. Now I have tremor, sometimes intense arm weakness to the point of not being able to hold up my arms. I had mood swings (not too severe) for which I was prescribed lamictal and it helped. Aside this, I'm diagnosed with insulin resistance and take metformin, and take oral contraceptives for polycystic ovaries. I had a MRI and EEG and they were mostly normal. I have dropped my phone too many times and broke it once, had to get a new one because I get so much arm weakness. I also had anxiety which went away completely with lamictal, but I don't think that's what it is prescribed for. Now this is a weird one, during sex I get muscle tightening and something I would describe most similarly to myoclonus. I told doctors this, and they said this is vaginismus. But it's not there... it's a whole body thing. Basically got told my muscle twitching and tightening is psychhological. But I don't have any sexual trauma. I'm fine but my body does that... I almost broke my legs from falling so much and I'm sick of dealing with this and my doctors just tell me well walk more carefully.
Edit: Forgot (of course I forgot..) to mention I have intense blurry vision, and sometimes I see perfectly. It comes and goes. And for a month in 2020 I had tics. I never had tics before and after... I couldn't stop swallowing my saliva. It wasn't something I could control.
Edit 2: In 2016 I had tongue weakness, I couldn't talk for a few hours. My parents thought I was faking it. I always have very high eosoniphils or neutrophils, I can't remember which ones of these 2.

I met him when i was 27, he is 3 years older. I’m now 32, and our 5th anniversary is at the end of this month, and i’m sure he’s still not gonna propose
I said from day 1 i want to get married, and a few months in i knew i wanted to do it with him, and he said the same, his timeline being 2-4 years, i said make it 2. I made it known how important it is to me, asking and talking about it every so often. After our 4th anniversary i stopped bringing engagement up because i don’t think there is a point anymore. He still says things like ‘at our wedding we will..’, ‘when we get married..’, refers to me as ‘wife’ occasionally BUT I KNOW i just know this is never gonna happen
And i gave him a perfect excuse. I am a woman who has gained weight. My self esteem is gone, my boyfriend noticed. One evening, 2-ish years ago we got a bit tipsy and i agreed to a condition he set - he will propose when i lose weight. He must have known i struggled to lose it, but in that state of mind i figured i should do it anyway (also because i currently can’t even fit into my wedding dress) and so i agreed. I did lose half of the weight i have gained since then but deep down i think, even if i do it all, there will be another excuse to delay engagement:( before the weight, there was finances, which i fixed, so i’m capable of changing but weightloss is SO HARD
Even though i was an idiot to agree to the condition, i kinda feel he should want to marry me by now anyway. After 5 years, the moment feels like it kinda passed. Even if by some miracle he proposed, i would say yes, but i think the excitement just won’t be the same as it would have been 1 or 2 years ago, because now i’m a bit bitter about not being good enough for someone i love to be passionate to marry me asap and all that
I don’t want just a marriage, i want to get married to the one i love, which is my boyfriend, but it seems like he doesn’t feel the same way about me, so i kind of let go of the dream of that kind of commitment. But when i get attention from other people i do sometimes think, what if i tried with someone else? But that would be stupid because now i’m, compared to 5 years ago, old and unattractive, so i’m sure i would just land myself in the same situation and just more unhappy because they won’t be as lovely as my boyfriend is
I just don’t know what to do. I gave up on the dream of getting married i think, but i still feel sad i never got to experience someone loving me so much they would want to commit to me like that. Maybe someone here would have some advice how to get over it? And thank you for reading, it helped a little just to spill those thoughts out on here!

I've only recently started to consider recovery again. I tried twice on my own and evidently failed both times. I can't imagine myself ever fully recovering, it was complete hell mentally last time and idk how I'd put myself through that again. I'm afraid of giving up control. I absolutely do not want to gain weight. But idk what to do because I know that this isn't sustainable. I'm hitting a new lw every day and I feel so conflicted about it because I know logically it isn't good, but I still don't feel sick enough and I haven't reached my goal weight yet. I would feel like such a failure if I chose to recover without anybody even noticing, without ever reaching my goal. All my progress would be for nothing, everything I have been working towards. I don't know what to do, I feel so trapped right now. I know I'm not living life properly now but I can't imagine ever actually being happy with gaining weight either, so what's the point? Sorry this is so all over the place, just trying to unscramble my brain...

Hi! I started taking inositol and nac everyday (wholesome story) for three weeks, and I have been incredibly strict with my diet and exercise regime. I do have some high blood sugar (prediabetic) and I started this as I kept having really bad time on metformin. I did, however, have a very hard time getting myself to switch to a low carb diet.
I noticed roughly a 7 lb weight gain since I started the supplement, and I think I have a theory. I was reading how inositol allows the glucose to more easily enter your blood, thus reducing the need for insulin and reducing insulin resistance. Could preexisting elevated blood sugar be the reason why many PCOS women see weight gain with the supplement? I know it can take months of dieting and exercise to really get your blood sugar down, and I wonder if I need to wait a while before introducing inositol back into my daily stack. Maybe if I keep taking it, paired with a low carb diet, the weight will eventually come back down?
I'm not a medical professional by any means, so if anyone has insight that would be greatly appreciated

I am 5 feet 7.5 inches.My current body weight is 82kg. I have been doing swimming for more than a month and really enjoying it. Now my exams are also over. Do i want to join the gym also. I want to get in shape. Just want to loss fat and gain some muscles.
Can you suggest any workout plan on what should i follow? I also joined gym 1month back and the trainer only tolds me to do free hand for more than 8days. And also the exams came so i didnt go.
How about this Day 1: Push (Chest, Shoulders, Triceps) 1. Barbell Bench Press: 4 sets x 8-10 reps 2. Overhead Press (Dumbbells or Barbell): 4 sets x 10-12 reps 3. Tricep Dips: 3 sets x 12-15 reps 4. Incline Dumbbell Flyes: 3 sets x 12 reps 5. Lateral Raises: 3 sets x 15 reps
Day 2: Pull (Back, Biceps) 1. Deadlifts: 4 sets x 6-8 reps 2. Pull-Ups or Lat Pulldowns: 4 sets x 10-12 reps 3. Barbell Rows: 3 sets x 10-12 reps 4. Face Pulls: 3 sets x 15 reps 5. Barbell or Dumbbell Curls: 3 sets x 12 reps
Day 3: Legs (Quads, Hamstrings, Calves)
Workout Plans for Body Recomposition 2

1. Squats: 4 sets x 8-10 reps
2. Leg Press: 4 sets x 12-15 reps
3. Romanian Deadlifts: 3 sets x 12 reps
4. Calf Raises: 4 sets x 15-20 reps
5. Leg Extensions: 3 sets x 15 reps

Day 4: Cardio and Active Recovery 30-45 minutes of moderate-intensity cardio (running, cycling, or elliptical). Active recovery through walking or engaging in a sport.
Day 5: Repeat Cycle
I am hitting my daily protein intake also.
Any advice would be highly appreciated.

I was on Cryselle birth control for five months and gained 30 pounds. I've been trying to lose the weight for almost seven weeks, but my weight remains stagnant despite eating healthy and working out. Has anyone else experienced this? How long will it take for my body to return to normal?

I was on Cryselle birth control for five months and gained 30 pounds. I've been trying to lose the weight for almost seven weeks, but my weight remains stagnant despite eating healthy and working out. Has anyone else experienced this? How long will it take for my body to return to normal?