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I'm pretty sure I'm in a minority when I say this, but I LOVE detailed descriptions of the items/monsters/places/etc in games. I could literally spend hours reading the backstories behind why monsters are attacking me or how my weapons were made.
It all started for me with Diablo 2. Although it wasn't in the game itself, the strategy guide for that game had short descriptions of the historical lore behind each of the game's spells. And the companion website had a bestiary that provided narrative descriptions of the games enemy types [example]. As a teenager, I constantly found myself reading and re-reading these whenever I played the game.
Ever since then, I've fallen in love with similar codices both in and out of the game space they originate from. (The ones in bold are particularly good!)

If you know of any games I could add to this list, please share! :)

• Journey to the Savage Planet (best in-game codex I've ever seen)
• Subnautica (second only to JttSP)
• Control (MASSIVE in-game lore compendium)
• Doom 2016 + Doom Eternal (full in-game codex)
• Horizon Zero Dawn (in-game bestiary)
• Hollow Knight (in-game bestiary)
• Ratchet & Clank 2 (in-game bestiary)
• Doom 3 (strategy guide bestiary + in-game lore drops)
• Caves of Qud (detailed in-game item descriptions)
• Civilization [series] (in-game encyclopedia)
• Paradise Killer (partial in-game codex)
  
• **(I've heard that the Witcher and Mass Effect games have good ones as well, but I haven't played them yet, myself)
  

Honorable mentions:

• Fable [series] (funny item descriptions)
• Basically every immersive sim ever made (piles of audio logs)

Link to earlier post.
Before getting into the meat of this post, it needs to be remembered that the ex-Scientologists named here are actual victims of the Church of Scientology. Nothing in this post is meant to deny that fact.
However, let's remember too, those being attacked by Aaron Smith-Levin and their new brand of Scientology-style attacks, are also victims of Scientology.
The cruelty directed at Mike Rinder, Claire Headley, Tony Ortega, Chris Shelton, Leah Remini, Stefani Hutchinson, the Aftermath Foundation and those who speak out against SPTV's excesses are not justified. There has been a strain of "both sides" about this. Defending oneself against slander is not the same thing as initiating slander, which is how this all started. Telling the truth in response to SPTV creator attacks is not the same thing as a Fair Game campaign against them.
It doesn't bring me any joy to write these posts, but these things need to be known because the number of distortions and fabrications coming out of the SPTV creators is reaching a fever pitch and it needs to stop.
My earlier two posts focused mainly on Chrissie Bixler, Jane Doe 1 (from the Masterson trials) and Aaron Smith-Levin, all of whom have been working together in a tight, hidden conspiracy to attack anyone who could expose them or their agendas, and/or anyone who opposes their slanderous and vicious attacks. They are in fact acting as Scientology does, following L. Ron's directions to hunt those people down and attempt to ruin them.
Unfortunately, the SPTV cabal is not just these three mentioned above. There are others who have also jumped on this bandwagon of Scientology-like attacks. From the outside, none of these people's "content" is any different from what the Church of Scientology produces through its STAND League and other OSA-front group social media accounts. If OSA had a video channel, it would look almost exactly like SPTV.
So let's take a look at Serge Del Mar, formerly known as Serge Gil. If you Google "Serge Gil" you will find photos of him hanging around with the Mastersons and other VIP Scientologists as recently as November of 2014 at an art exhibit Serge participated in. This was while he was still in the cult, of course, but it sure is odd that he never mentions this.
Funny too that this group of "innocents" all have taken to going after whistle blowers who are out, and not admitting to anything they did while they were Scientologists and Sea Organisation members. Serge becomes visibly and loudly unhinged over the idea that Mike Rinder was once the head of OSA and therefore "must know" every single secret and crime ever perpetrated in Scientology. Yet he claims perfect innocence when it comes to his Scientology history. But how is that possible when he perpetuated Scientology's abuse on children in a much more direct and forceful way than Mike Rinder ever could: Serge audited children and was apparently paid handsomely for it. Auditing is, of course, Scientology's warped and twisted idea of counselling.
In this article from Tony Ortega, it reads: "In his Facebook post, Serge talked about the horror of having men admit to having sex with children, and being instructed to get even more information from such confessors, who were then simply charged even more [money] to 'handle' their paedophilia.
"We were made to sit in that Fort Harrison hotel day in and day out interrogating people to see what they had done. Our interviews were always closely watched [and] monitored by several ‘terminals.’ All the CSes [case supervisors] and tech ‘executives’ became willing in colluding and becoming 100 percent complicit with this sexually inappropriate environment for any one under the age of 18."
"Self-confessed paedophiles could just magically ‘address’ this behavior with auditing — all the while you were looking at ways to monetize at every opportunity' he says, accusing Scientology executives of looking for ways to turn confessions into more auditing and more money."
So who were these paedophiles and why aren't they being reported to the police? Why is Serge not talking about them? Why is he instead negating what he did and laughing about it in live streams with Nora, where they forgive and forget easily when it comes to their own bad behaviour in the cult. How come they get a free pass but no one else outside of SPTV does?
Serge engages in hypocrisy at a level that would put politicians and cult leaders to shame.
Recently, Serge added Leah Remini's name to his hit list by claiming Remini told him that she wanted nothing to do with helping children of the Sea Organisation. He actually said that about the woman who produced an the documentary series which gave Serge and the other "Scientology children" a voice on an international stage, something none of them were able to accomplish on their own.
Some facts from the past need to be brought forward.
First, it was Leah Remini who was trying to help all of the ex-Scientology "kids" to help find legal representation. This was the group Serge Del MaSerge Gil proclaimed he was the leader of, saying he was the "voice of many." He claimed he would be bringing the clients and the documentation to Kent's law firm.
Remini was introduced to Brian Kent by A&E. Right after the end of the Aftermath's finale, Kent's law firm was the only one willing to take on this massive case. Is A&E now going to be attacked by this group? Where are the tweets directed at A&E? Not that I am suggesting that. It is just to prove the facts here are consistently twisted to suit this group’s goal and it has nothing to do with exposing the crimes committed by Scientologists and Scientology.
This is about getting anyone who isn’t them.
Second and more importantly, it was Serge who then ran with this and gathered claimants for this case, and it was Serge that then introduced them all to Kent's firm. Christi Gordon was also working on this case. It was a noble effort. Leah, Serge and Christi did not do anything wrong,but somehow now Leah is a bad person for having tried to help.
Obviously, no one was aware at that time of what the future would hold for Jane Doe and Kent. No one still knows what happened with these cases - because Serge Del Mar was the ringleader. No mention of this from Alex the silly Wabbit. No mention of this from anyone. And obviously once Kent's law firm was hired, Leah and Mike would not have been privy to any privileged information about the cases.
Then Aaron and crew claim they uncovered this alleged crime committed by Kent? Kent isn’t being accused of crimes of child molestation, or of rape. He is being accused of unethical behaviour with an adult victim - and yes, that is bad enough. But it was Jane Doe in this case that had to summon the courage to file a confidential complaint. Aaron and his gang didn’t uncover and report anything. What they did do was compromise a bar investigation; they took credit for something they had nothing to do with. This is simply despicable behaviour. How this group has completely fabricated the facts of the investigation is beyond me.
They didn't even talk to the person who filed the complaint against Brian Kent. They were too busy stabbing her in the back, compromising her identity and forwarding a confidential document. Aaron conveniently didn’t mention this was a confidential investigation and document when he read it out to his audience. That's how Aaron makes a living.
Anyone continuing this story and celebrating these people are only doing so for other reasons that have nothing to do with the Jane Doe in this case. It is not only unfortunate that Jane Doe in this case had been harmed by Kent, but now these SPTV creators are harming her and her investigation too.
As a Scientology "activist," every action Serge claims he has taken against Scientology has been a major failure. If you step back and look at his track record, Serge has not accomplished a single thing against his former “church” of any significance, unless you count minutes of time shouting into a microphone at highest-ever decibels as 'activism.' It's not. It's just shouting into a microphone. He constantly claims that he has receipts, lawsuits are imminent, but with nothing forthcoming it sure seems as though Serge Del MaSerge Gil is nothing more than a con man looking for clicks for which he can profit.
Even more strangely, Serge's first attempt at fame was spending many years attacking former high-ranking Sea Organisation member Debbie Cook. Remember her? She was the one who got more people out of Scientology with her blistering 2011 New Year email than any former member before her. Debbie Cook was a whistle blower. And Serge seems to be going after those who did/do the work and are OUT of Scientology - excluding himself of course. Why not expose themselves for the crimes they committed while in Scientology? The crimes they covered up while they were in the cult? Aaron tearfully admitted to committing his own heinous crimes once, but somehow he is absolved.
Serge's criminal complaint against Scientology in Florida went nowhere and the investigation was dropped due to a lack of evidence. In fact, Serge told lies in his police filing, such as claiming that there are tunnels underneath The Fort Harrison Hotel (Scientology’s Clearwater Florida location) which are used to traffic Scientology children.
These days he goes on and on about "the hotels" where supposedly children are kept as sex slaves, a claim so preposterous even ex-Scientologists are fed up with hearing it.
Serge Del MaSerge Gil has promised to bring lawsuits against Scientology and continues to disseminate that he "has receipts" but again, not once has he ever been able to produce a shred of evidence or anything real. His incompetence and ineffectiveness are obvious, which is why the only way he can remain in the spotlight is to attack inwardly against the people who are getting the real work done.
For Serge (and the rest), it's the spotlight that is important, not the actual work.
Serge, Aaron, Chrissie Bixler, Jane Doe 1, Mike Brown, Miriam Francis, Nora Aames and the following are on a campaign to destroy their own credibility in the real world. One can only wonder if they are also getting a kick-back from Scientology.
Liz Gale has seemingly banished herself after being exposed and has all but disappeared, which of course is being blamed on RindeRemini/Hutchinson.
Christie Gordon too has disappeared from the SPTV Foundation board. Why hasn't she spoken up? Isn't she part of the crew demanding others own what they did? Why hasn't she done so when it comes to her own group's activities?
Joey Chait who was on board for the SPTV fake foundation, is now off too and no one knows why.
What has the Aftermath done? Helped people to get out of Scientology. That is the work.
What has SPTV Inc. done to help victims of Scientology? How about showing it? I have previously asked for evidence of any effective work and have yet to receive a response.
It's time for Serge (and the rest) to put up or shut up. If he or anyone in this group has real evidence of Scientology crimes, he has a solicitor and he can file a lawsuit in civil court or he can go back to the Clearwater Police and show them evidence of the crimes committed against him.
I'm not saying that crimes were not committed against Serge by others when he was in the Sea Org. But screaming into a microphone for hours isn't how to bring Scientology to justice. Screaming at law enforcement who have no idea what he is talking about with Flag and children is not helping anyone, nor is stalking and harassing Scientology's attorneys while Leah Remini's hearings are going on.
It looks an awful lot like the SPTV crew are trapped in some kind of victim complex and are high-conflict personalities.
So instead of more name calling, if Serge (or anyone in this group), "has receipts" that show that Mike Rinder is a criminal who is knowingly covering up his crimes in Scientology, produce them or shut up already. Rinder handed over his OSA documents. Aaron, by the way, took those documents under false pretenses, promised not to forward them and then did with the intent to harm Rinder and others. So instead of attacking Mike Rinder (the whistleblower here), where are the questions to the FBI for not acting on them? Where is the outrage for the documents that are authored by OSA personnel that are still in Scientology?
Personally, I'm sick of watching this crazy train go on and on without end just so some former Scientologists can make themselves appear altruist and inflate their egos for profit. Aren’t you all sick of the noise?
More to come.

I'm 22f and I've always struggled having female friends. I'm very reserved not very outgoing or loud. My hobbies are drawing, video games, working out, botany, and I'm really into fashion.
Growing up i was extremely isolated from other kids or people in general. My parents wouldn't let me socialize or hangout with friends. I wasn't allowed to watch normal stuff kids my age were watching when they were younger either. One of my only friends was my younger brother. Or my oldest sister who we have no hobbies in common but we love to talk to each other about just random stuff.
Ever since I was younger I was always bullied and made fun of for being weird or ugly. It stopped when I got into highschool and I had a full glow up now all the people who didn't like me thought I was so different and special now. But when girls would become my friends I would be so excited and happy because I never really had girlfriends much less any friends. I would buy my "girl friends" stuff or make handcrafted gifts for them. I tried to show a lot of appreciation for them, but it has never lasted. Most friends I did have were guys. Purely platonic relationships I only ever saw them as another kind of brother. Whenever I befriend girls they always have approached me first. I always am extremely nervous around other girls and it's hard for me to personally open up to them. (I don't know why) Some reason I find it so hard to relate to most people I meet especially other girls. The things they find interesting are just not interesting to me or funny. Like my friends make TikToks but I don't know why I can't just enjoy it with them I just feel so awkward and weird.
I am also a person who has trouble with touching others or showing physical affection like hugs. All the girls I've ever become friends with always have liked hugging or saying I love you. But it's always been uncomfortable for me. I don't know how to react to others praise (compliments) or affection.
Also clarification I'm not friends with girls because the "girls are too much drama" that's not true at all. I desperately want girl friends so bad. The extent of my male friendships don't even cross the border of expressing how I feel emotionally about anything. My male relationships are very activity oriented like rock climbing, video games, and soccer. I never hangout with these people or really communicate out of these activities. I desperately want female friends to have deeper emotional connections with.
I don't know what I need to fix about myself or if I have a problem. Sometimes I feel I might be on the autism spectrum. I'm just so awkward and don't know what to do with myself in social settings.

He was sitting in a coffee shop slowly drinking his espresso. My God, he thought, this tastes so great after no coffee for days. He lost his percolator while tracking through the woods and had to do with tea. Now tea ain't that bad, but as a coffee drinker, he really missed his morning coffee. So he was enjoying it right now.
That is until he saw a man in the back of the shop staring at him. What was up with that guy? There seemed to be something off with him. And NO! Now he made eye contact, the man was coming to his table!
"Mind if I sit here with you?" the man asked. He tried to answer, coughed, took another sip of his coffee, and then the man was already sitting at his table.
He hoped it was not just some crazy lunatic. At home, his door was full of warding signs: "No unsolicited advertising brochures". "Not opening the door for salesmen", and "I am already converted" to just name a few. He avoided contact most of the time.
With one exception. He had fallen in love. Not just a bit. He could not think of anything else. He could not imagine a future without his love. And he was going to propose that night. What was up with this strange dude?
"So are you finally going to do it?" the man asked. What was he talking about? Surely this stranger wouldn't know what he was up to? He had to ask.
A muffled "what" came out of his mouth. Still confused about this man's behavior. There was something off, but he could not put his finger on what exactly. "What?" he repeated, clearly audible now.
"You know, got the rings ready?" came his reply. WHAT THE Funny? How could he know? "How do you know? Who are you?" he asked startled".
"Let me introduce myself. You can call me Mr. Boltzmann. I made you. And everyone else" told the man. This was getting weirder and weirder. Surely it was some lunatic. He already started to get up when he finally noticed the man was not breathing. Was it even a man?
"What, what are you" he whispered wide-eyed. Mr. Noltzmann smiled and said: "Let me explain".
And the man started to tell. He was from a universe without life. There may have been stars, but his universe was far past that. Every star since long died out and even the black holes evaporated.
Not even iron stars were left. Only some extremely low energy radiation remained in this dying universe with often only a photon or two at a time in his cosmological horizon.
Then. Mr. Boltzmann told him, he sprang suddenly alive. Only to be undone by the same random quantum fluctuations that granted him life. His mind was spinning. Randon quantum fluctuations? What? He slowly let his mouth fall open.
Mr. Boltzmann pauzed talking a moment. showing a gentle smile. Then he continued:
"Everything is made up of quantum fields. There is a certain randomness to them. About anything can happen if you wait long enough. Then I am not talking about a trillion years or any number you can imagine. Much and much longer. So I was randomly created. More or less.
In my case, it was two photons with a certain flare to it that triggered my consciousness. I realized that in a fraction of a second. My brain works a bit differently than a human brain. It is far and far more powerful.
To at least experience life a bit longer in that nearly-dead universe. I created a simulation, or a new universe if you will. One with life that would set up the exact right conditions to spawn me again in the new universe, so I can live there again".
"So what do I have to do with all of this"? He could not believe it. Or maybe? The man that called himself Mr. Boltzmann was too coherent for a regular lunatic".
"It is easy. I'm looking for the right kind of love. I think I have found it. Now if you will, please hold up your and your love's hand to the Sun once you put on the rings. Two photons will reflect from them and create another me. Please?" Mr. Boltzmann pleaded.
suddenly something started to dawn on him. He would play a part in every universe if Mr. Boltzmann wanted to live. Again and again, falling in love. He didn't know what he was talking to. A God? A devil? A lunatic? He did not care. First, he started to smile. Then he was grinning. For him, there was only one answer:
"Sure. I will make you and you will make me".

It feels like all the social progress I made is slipping through my fingers and I don’t know what I’ve done wrong. I (22F) have been friends with a girl (22F) and her boyfriend (22M) for two years now- I met them separately, and it was a funny coincidence to learn that they were dating after already befriending them both. She is outgoing, popular, and funny and he is quiet, creative, and kind. I started college during COVID, and it was pretty tough for me to meet people. I was pretty lonely tbh. I have ADHD and get very excited when making friends, which I know can turn some folks off, but they seemed to appreciate my energy. After making friends with them, I finally felt like a real college student. I was getting invited by them to parties, going out for meals, etc.
Last year, I would go out for dinner 1:1 nearly weekly with the girl and then hang out with them both at group events. I really enjoyed getting to hang out with her- we would always laugh and have a lot of fun. I am well aware I’m not apart of her inner circle of friends (they all went on vacation over spring break and I wasn’t invited, not that I expected to be), but I still like to think she enjoys my company.
Starting in the fall, it felt like something shifted. We would make plans, and then that evening something would come up, or she wouldn’t be feeling well. When our plans did materialize, she began to last minute decide to bring someone else along, typically her boyfriend. This was fine, as I was friends with them both and didn’t mind. It’s the end of the year and we’ve probably hung out a total of 3-4 times (with many more cancelled), only once 1 on 1. We graduate next week. I’ve tried giving her some space this semester, but thought it would be nice to hang out one last time. The plans were rain-checked from Saturday, to yesterday, to tomorrow. I get a text today asking if it was cool that her best friend comes along. I don’t at all dislike this person, but they are much closer to each other than they are to me, so I know I’ll end up third wheeling. It’s very hard for me to get a read on how the friend feels about me, where at least when the boyfriend comes, we all get along.
Do I ask to just hang out 1:1? Would it just make things awkward? Am I bothering her? Am I being jealous? Do I try to engage and have fun anyways? I don’t even know. I have a history of feeling like a third wheel + feeling left out in social situations so that is definitely making me feel more sensitive about this, so I don’t know if I’m overreacting.

Is my brother abusive? I’m a teenager, I haven’t graduated high school yet, but my older brother has. Before I say anything I do want to make it clear that I love him. I love him a lot, no matter what. But he’s hurt me a lot. I don’t want to be victimizing myself or making a big fuss but I don’t think this is normal. Or at least healthy. Idk. But well he’s always been a very strong personality. Very domineering. As kids this meant he made all the decisions and he would rough house with me and sometimes he’d make me cry, but for the most part I loved it. We were inseparable, I mean I looked up to him more than anyone in my entire life. He was confident and cool. As we both got older though he became really rebellious, had a lot of issues with my parents (and my dad was not helping matters at all), sad whenever he’d do something that seriously hurt me I would always console myself by saying he’s just a kid and he doesn’t know better. But he’s going to be twenty in a few months now and he’s not a kid anymore.
Saying he hurts my feelings sounds pathetic but it’s true. He gets so angry so fast and over completely irrational things. I’m always walking on eggshells to make sure I didn’t say or do anything to trigger him. He yells and lectures for so long. He likes belittling me, he gets a kick out of it or something, so he puts me down a lot. He’s always twisting my words or straight up unashamedly gaslighting me, and it makes me feel small and unsure of myself. He loves playing mind games with me. He criticizes me so much. He says I dress too much like the opposite gender but it’s not even like I’m cross dressing or anything. He’s always telling me that he’s trying to toughen me up and I shouldn’t be such a (you know what). He’s called me pathetic and yelled at me when I had a panic attack in front of him. And as for physical stuff, I feel like a wimp for using the term abuse or anything, but he can be rough. Like when I’m taking too long or not doing something or idk just being like slow I guess he’ll throw stuff at me. And he doesn’t really mean anything by it, but like it still hurts. Or he’ll like hit me repeatedly or shove me, but not like a slap across the face, just like on my shoulder or arm or back. Or like he’ll squeeze my arm or hand really hard and his nails will leave marks. When I get excited I tend to talk loudly or too fast and hell like clamp my mouth shut and shove me against the wall. He just gets so intimidating and also threatens to like hurt me. Sometimes it’s a joke, but other times… idk he’s legitimately angry. He’s bigger than me, and I’ve kind of stopped growing at this point so I’ll always be small compared to him.
But the problem is that he’s also can be a completely different person. He can be incredibly kind, and he loves me a lot. Yes he called me pathetic during one panic attack, but he held me during another. He hates the idea of anyone picking on me and is incredibly protective which is why he wants me to toughen up so much. He doesn’t apologize a lot, but he’s gotten into this moment a few time before where he gets really sad and apologizes for being mean to me, but then devolves into self loathing. And after he had this awful fight with dad (and I mean the worst fight I’ve ever witnessed in my life, it was terrifying) he came to check on me and apologized and made sure I was okay. He can be so gentle when he wants to. His biggest fear is me or our little brother getting hurt, and he can be so incredibly funny and kind. He’s also got a lot of mental stuff going on too and is on a lot of medication.
So what is going on? Am I just a wimp? I guess abuse really isn’t the right term since that seems so extreme and it’s all just me not being able to take sibling discourse. Is this normal? He can just be… sorta scary.

So I think somehow I managed arguably one of the best possible endings for Suzerain Kingdom of Rizia on my first playthrough attempt. I got Zille back peacefully by negotiation, I got Pales back by marrying Vina to their leader (although she got to keep the Toras name and pass it on), I created a constitutional monarchy, I formed the Intermerkopum Alliance, never fought a single war, I married Lucita and had a son, and managed to still keep my daughter as my heir. I ended the game by resigning of my own volition and living out my days in retirement.
I was honestly shocked by this, as I was really expecting a civil war or coup both when I pushed the democratic reforms and, when I survived that, when I kept my daughter as heir. My first playthrough of the base game I got killed in war with Rumburg, so my first attempt at Rizia was amazing in comparison.
I guess I'm just really shocked it all went so well. Reading through spoilers/other people's playthroughs after the fact, the craziest thing I seem to have done is that when Titus accused Lucita of assassinating the original king, I had him arrested. Apparently everyone thinks Titus is the best and normally super loyal, and it's just funny cause I haven't been able to find anyone else who made a post about arresting him. I know he wasn't the actual culprit, but I'm shocked that I managed to somehow arrest the one guy who seems genuinely loyal in this game and yet somehow end up with like the best ending. Go figure. Did anyone else arrest Titus, or did I just make the silliest possible choice and somehow not suffer for it?

I am a receiver and can see all of the submission and personally witnessed a few things since some vendor management called him out in front of our district manager during a store walk (which was funny) and made him look really really bad.
-A vendor was actively working her load and had an empty pallet flat on the ground, he stood it up vertically took a picture submitted for "saftey violation" then laid it down flat again.
-Removed product from cooler took a picture submitted it then refilled the cooler
-moved the frito lay cart in front of a fire exit took a picture then moved it back
There are a ton more examples, that was just today. I know all the vendors very well and they say globalworx doesn't matter to them since it had good intentions but has become a joke. I have worked here 19 years so just "shut up and color" and mind my own business but how pathetic do you have to be to do that. Also informed the vendor management since I am to scared to escalate it but it is on camera.

Looking for someone around 22-31 that lives near NYC
I'm kind of looking for someone like me or tolerant of people who wants to make new friends but suffers from social anxiety. I don't really need to make a crazy amount of friends but eventually at least half a dozen new people I can consider reliable im my life would be the long term goal. I used to be comfortable just going about my day and coming home talking to my online friends, some I've known for more than a decade. Although for a while I've been asked an exhausting amount of times by a few people in my family why I don't hang out with "real friends." A lot of the friends I made either moved a or the ones I met in college who I'm still friends with were a lot like me and prefer to talk online mostly instead of going anywhere. So I'm kind of stuck with not many to show as a friend in person.
I am looking for a girlfriend, but I'm not really expecting to find one here and I'm looking for someone in particular that I'd be massively compatible with so there's no pressure for me asking anyone here out. Let's just focus on building a friendship.
I like to game quite a bit although I've been too busy with a lot of things the past few months to play much at all. Hopefully things will clear up eventually. I got Steam and Switch and some other stuff I havent touched in ages lol. I do enjoy reading sometimes but havent had anything in mind to read, feel free to reccomend something you like if you can.
I'm white, 161 pounds 5'10 looking for someone kind and understanding who isn't intimidating with nerdy interest that I could occasionally hang out with every few weeks in person with a mix of online. I'll need you to be someone who isn't judgemental that I can be my goofy self with. I prefer if you could initiate conversation and talk about yourself so I can get a better idea of who you are and how to approach you. I don't want to ghost anyone if I can help it, just try to hit me up at least every other day and I'll try to return the favor.
I'm also someone who tries to be judgement free that you can talk about your problems with. Pretty funny but not funny looking. I've been dealing with a lot of stress for a while but I've been working to manage it a little bit better so I can try to empathize a bit instead of just sounding you out.
tldr: Nervous mess but nice to look at looking for someone to hang out with in person once in a while after a few weeks of getting to know you.
Please introduce yourself with your age and something you've been getting into lately! (hobbies/interest)

So in our college there is this attendance system where you have to attend the lectures and at the end the professor will hand you a piece of paper with a QR code on it and on the back there is a random number, after you receive your QR code you have to return home and wait for the professor to send you a google doc link where you have to fill in the serial number inside the QR code and the number on the back both have to match or you attendance will not be counted additionally you have to collect and maintain all the physical copies of the QR code in case any of discrepancy. This term the college had a 40% absence policy (originally it was 20% but they changed it due to the fact that almost all students have had more then 20% absence rate) and i was sent an email that i have missed 4 out of the 10 lectures in the course and that i was deprived from attending the final exam , after reading that email i got extremely anxious because i already have a lot of academic load that i was intending to attend summer courses to finish them so one more subject added to them will set me back a lot, after pacing around the apartment for hours trying to find all the codes i had and counting them i found out that i have attended 8 out of 10 lectures meaning ive missed only 2 so way less then 40%, so admittedly i was frustrated and went to the college with an appeal letter because the hell is this (additionally the subject that i was deprived from it final exam was about a week away so the timing of this BS couldn’t have been worse) after meeting with me I provided sufficient evidence to them that i have attended all the 8 lectures out of 10 and after reviewing the professor told me ok congratulations study well for the final exam you may leave, now before leaving the office i made a remark to on of the professors in the office that i thought the mistake was on their part not mine (don’t know why i said it i guess i just wanted to voice my frustration to them) the professor that congratulated me asked me what do i mean by that ?, i doubled down on my position and stuck with my narrative that a technical error had happened on their part that caused all this mess but he fucking hated my guts that i dared to speak to him as of he was doing me a massive favor for revoking the deprivation decision, one think led to the other and he started shouting at me and called the security to escort me out of the office and speaking with a vague language that he may not revoke decision, after leaving I filled a complaint about the professor at the dean’s office the complaint was about the fact that i was scared the professor will keep the deprivation decision even though i have provided enough evidence to revoke it. I got an email the next day says that the decision was revoked but around night time the same day a second email was sent that i had to be at the vice dean’s office urgently. After going their i found out the that they asked me to discuss my complaint letter to the professor but they did anything but that, the vice dean charged me guilty as soon as i entered her office refusing to let me sit and asking me to explain what happened but with every sentence i said she spoke in insanely judgmental voice so i realized she is not interested in hearing my side she just going with whatever the professor told her so i immediately folded and let her do her worse and take it all in, after speaking to me in horribly insulting voice she demanded that I apologize to the professor and if he does not accept my apology they will keep the deprivation decision and i should be grateful for him for revoking the decision (which is grade A bullshit there is no precedent anywhere that a professor could fire a student from a course that he is not even a professor in just because the student looked at him funny) so i just stayed silent and left. I know i did right by voicing my frustration and i know i did no wrong even with the professor i kept a very calm voice and never raised mine, but everyone from my friends to family telling me that i should’ve kept silent and did wrong by speaking up, all my life for 12 years in school I probably talked to a teacher like 5 maybe 6 time i was always kept to be scared from teachers from people older then me and fearing what they might do if i speak this was the first time ever i have stepped up to someone that I thought he was in the wrong but man after all this im still anxious and sick in the stomach and sure not feel like i gained anything out of all this mess, im an international student in this college and studying on my own expense and the country that im in is sure not know for any good legal system hell after that vice dean interaction it felt like a shake down and abusing the fact that I probably can’t go anywhere to find a voice of reason. So was i wrong for speaking up ?

My sister (37/f) recently broke up with a long term partner (6 years) and got on some dating apps. She is a smart, funny and bubbly person and landed dates easily, and decided to pursue things with a seemingly charming, great man (35/m).
Long story short, they became exclusive after 5 dates. On the 6th date they were drinking a bit and he began confessing things like: the country he said he's from, he's not from and he grew up in an entirely different place. He also lied about his race/ethnicity claiming that he has experienced racism in the past (he's Iranian and pretended to be Turkish). She told me this a couple weeks ago and I said... too many red flags.
Later on, my mom and I, the internet sleuths we are googled him based on some other suspicions. We found his linkedin information that shows a different but similar name, shows that he is 10 years older than he actually is, and no sign of the very prestigious college he claims to have a PhD from. I sent a bunch of screen shots to my sister with this info, and she confronted him and blocked him. Thought that was the end of that.
A week ago I found out she's back with him. They had met up, talked about it and he admitted to everything - he lied about his age because he didn't want to seem too old to start a family, he did "research" at the school he said he got a PhD from so he said that wasn't a "full" lie, and he lied about his background due to fearing potentially stalking. She wants to take it slow with him and thinks he's genuine and just needs understanding. All of this sounds like a bunch of BS and I'm really really worried for my sister.
She has ALWAYS wanted a family and kids. I got engaged at the end of last year and since that point, it seems like she's made it a mission to find a husband and have kids ASAP. Not saying its because of my engagement, but, she started going on dates every single night after I got engaged after having not been on any apps prior. I fear she is settling on a narcissist or sociopath who love bombed her for weeks and she doesn't see a way forward with having a family if she dumps him. What advice would you have for an older sister in this position? I know there is nothing I can do, but is there anything helpful to say?

Let me share my 3000h of modded wisdom with you, my fellow vanilla comrades. My attempt here is to provide you with as many as possible improvements to the base game while keeping the style, balance, and content as vanilla as possible. As they say, when it works the best is when you don't realize it is there. I guarantee you that after playing for a while with these, you will no longer be able to tell what's from the base game and what's not.
You don't know how to mod? Maybe this very basic guide will help. Please, note that many mods come with options to tune up your experience. It is recommended you give them a look.
You can find the steam collection here. Be aware that some of these mods require the DLCs. You don't have the DLCs? Just don't use the mod.
Dependencies:

• Harmony + Huglibs. Required by so many mods, you may as well be done with it and always have them.
• Vanilla Expanded Framework. While not as radically necessary as the previous ones, it's still a dependency fairly common. And this one actually does cool things on its own, like loading new modded factions without having to start a new game.
• XML Extensions. You won't be able to access the options of some mods without this.

Performance

• Dub performance analyzer. Enable the optimizations and override options, you can ignore everything else. If you want to disable alerts, use rocketman.
• Rocketman. By default, it should be good enough. This mod also allows to disable alerts you may don't care about, like, dunno, tattered apparel or unhappy nudity. It is recommended to run adaptive move occasionally (in stat cache settings).
• Performance Optimizer. More hacker magic. If you don't like the UI changes, you can disable them in the options. This mod does more performance stuff aside from that, so use it anyway!
• Performance Fish. You will have to install this mod manually, since it's not available in the workshop. You will also need to install its dependencies, Fishery and Prepatcher. Please, be aware that at the present there's an issue in which linking storages crashes the game. However, this can be prevented by disabling "TryFindBestBetterStoreCellFor" in the options.

Minor changes

• Optimization Meats. Unless you really want dozens of different meat types for some weird role-play reason, this mod will reduce the bloat on your kitchens.
• Better Animal Tab
• Better Info Card
• Conduit Deconstruct. A button to exclusively dismantle power conduits.
• Disable Automatically Select Travel Supplies
• Improved Need Indicator
• Map Preview. You can reroll as well!
• Prepare Landing. You can search world tiles matching your conditions. Goes great with Map Preview.
• Medical Tab. An easy way to overview your colony health.
• More Harvest Designators! e.g. harvest only fully growth plants.
• ModDiff. Great improvement of the mod mismatch screen.
• Pharmacist Temporary Update. Instead of always using the best medicine, now your pawns can use the appropriate medicine for the situation. No longer will they spent glitterworld meds on scratches!
• Smart Turret Covering. Fixes an issue with turret covers.
• PawnTargetFix. So that the autotarget prioritizes the closest enemy.
• Poisoned Food Stack Fix (Fix). Fixes an issue with meal stacks.
• Priority Treatment Ressurected. Doctors will finally prioritize keeping your pawns alive over taking a nap. Disable the option that prevents injured pawns from performing surgery, it has issues.
• QualityBuilder. You can set up a target level for furniture, and your pawns will reconstruct it until it's achieved. If I remember correctly, it's enabled by default for all new furniture? You can turn that off in options.
• RPG Style Inventory Revamped. Much better looking inventory.
• Replace Stuff. Allows to directly replace buildings, without having to deconstruct first.
• Research Tree. A better research tree.
• RimHUD. The best mod of the whole list, it will save you A TON of clicks.
• RimSaves. Overhaul of the save menu.
• Show Known Techprints on the trade screen.
• Show mechanoid weapons on the info screen.
• Smarter Construction. No more babysitting pawns when building walls.
• Stack gap. By default, pawns constantly refill storages. With this mod, you can configure it so that storages are refiled only when they're empty.
• Sun Lamp Honesty. Fixes an issue with sun lamps
• Just Put It Over There. Traders will deliver the merchandise, instead of dropping it on the ground.
• Trade Ships Drop Spot. Mark the spot in which orbital traders will deliver the merchandise, instead on whenever they feel like it. Doesn't work inside animal pens.
• Trading Options. Configure how frequent you want the traders to be.
• WVC. More work modes for the mechanitor.
• Save Settings. Allows you to save and load storage, production, and clothes settings. Works cross-save!
• No Max Bills. Removes the bill cap on workbenches.
• Better ground-penetrating scanner
• Colored deep resources
• Common Sense. Feel free to configure however you like it. I prefer it like this.
• Dubs Mint Menus. Improvements to a bunch of menus.
• Better Pawn Control. Improved management policies.
• Animals Logic. A lot of useful animal-related improvements. Disable the meat option if you're using Optimization Meats.
• Non uno Pinata. Pawns don't drop items when downed. Configurable.
• Bulk Smelting will save you precious time.
• Stonecutting Extended. The same as the previous mod, but for stones.
• Electric Stonecutting Table. To speed up the stonecutting even more.
• Faster Smoothing, a must for all mountain/underground out there.
• Do Your F****** Research. You can order pawns to research.
• Go the Fork to Sleep. You can order pawns to sleep.
• Meal Radius. Configure how far pawns will search for a table to eat.
• Home radius. Configure the size of the automatic home area.
• Smarter Visitors. Visitors will leave if things get dangerous.
• Custom Guilt Duration. Executions in vanilla are a pain because the guilty status goes away too fast. Now you can configure it.
• Dress Patients. Allows dressing of downed pawns.
• Way Better Romance
• Hunters Use Melee
• Injured Carry. Allows to rescue not downed pawns, no longer you have to wait for the bleeding to down them.
• Not My Fault. The player is no longer responsible for unrelated deaths on the map.
• Deep Storage + Simple Storage. Improves stockpile management.
• Pick Up And Haul. Improved hauling.
• While You're Up. Complement for the previous mod. Keep in mind that these two mods will trivialize part of the challenge by freeing a lot of time from your colonists. Just, dunno, turn up the difficulty a notch or something.
• Trading Spot. Marks where you want traders to stop on your map. It's a must if you use a desired path mod (I don't know if they have been updated to 1.5 yet).
• Vanilla Base Generation Expanded. Improved NPC base generation.
• Cut plants before building
• Psychic Harmonizer Lag Fix
• Fellow Ideology players, you're welcome.
  • Style Change Anytime
  • Persistent Precepts

Major changes

• Dubs Bad Hygiene. Plumbing!
• Vanilla Temperature Expanded. Lot of useful temperature-related buildings, as well as proxy heat, a very cool mechanic. Some buildings are redundant with the previous mod, just don't research the ones that you don't want.
• Death Rattle + Biosculpter Patch + Life Support. Changes the behavior of mortal wounds so they're not instakills.
• Dynamic Flooding. Inundations!
• Some Things Float. I recommend disabling the chance of pawns loosing their footing.
• Layered Wall Destruction. Walls aren't just destroyed, they become debris. Note that there's an issue in which the debris will spawn home areas.
• Yayo's Combat. Combat overhaul. You can disable the ammunition system if it's not your thing.
• Character Editor. Allows you to edit and save/load pawns.
• RunAndGun. Allows to use guns while moving, with penalties to accuracy. Don't enable the dual wield or search and destroy modules, they won't work.
• EPOE Forked. Fills in the gaps of surgery content in the base game. I recommend disabling the additional workstations and enabling direct crafting only. Less micromanagement, more fun.

Balance

• Beautiful Jade
• Almostthere1.5. Caravans no longer go to sleep two hours away from their destination.
• Stepping Stones. A more reasonable research path.
• Dubs Break Mod makes it so that severe mental breaks require severe negative thoughts.
• Fists Aren't Made of Steel. Reduces the unarmed melee damage, making prison breaks and tantrums much less frustrating.
• No Burn Metal. Sets the flammability of metal buildings, and others, to zero.
• Prisoners Fear Turrets
• Realistic Rooms Rewritten. Allows to tweak how pawns perceive room sizes.
• Ugh You Got Me. Social fights stop when pawns are sufficiently hurt or in pain. Doesn't affect masochists or psychopaths.
• Better Pyromania. Way less frustrating.
• Mortar Accuracy. Improves mortar mechanics.
• Graze up. Grazing rebalanced.
• Better Camp Loot
• Snap Out! Wardens can try to calm down pawns on mental breaks. "Try" is the keyword here.
• Peer Pressure. Opinions matter when converting someone.
• Better Gene Inheritance
• Vanilla Genes Rebalanced
• Gene Trader. Getting xenogenes it's hard, this should easy the burden a bit.

Content

• Sparkling Worlds. A bit of everything.
• Vanilla Traits Expanded. More traits.
• Vanilla Backstories Expanded. More backstories.
• Vanilla Chemfuel Expanded. Rimefeller but with less bloat.
• Vegetable Garden. More farmable plants.
• Vanilla Persona Weapons Expanded + More Persona Traits. More persona weapon variety.
• More Ideological Words + More Religious Origins. More ideology variety
• Events
  • Factional War
  • Raid Extension
  • Go Explore!
  • Vanilla Events Expanded
• Buildings
  • Blooming hedges
  • Panels & Frames
  • Simply More Bridges
  • Thrones plus
  • Tribal Crib
  • Utility Columns
  • Medieval deathrest coffin
  • Metallic Batteries. You can ignore the error, it'll work anyway.
  • Reinforced Walls
  • ReSplice: Core
• Gear
  • Crowns and Regalia
  • Fallout New Vegas - Elite Riot Gear
  • Maid Outfits :3
  • Wheelchairs

Atmospheric changes

• Interaction Bubbles + SpeakUp. Better social interactions.
• Enemy Self Preservation. Enemies severely hurt may try to flee.
• No One Left Behind. Fleeing enemies try to rescue their downed allies.
• Memorable Auroras. They now have a meaningful -if still small- impact.
• Sand Castles. The snowmen of the beaches. Or the deserts.
• Sandstorms
• Graying Hair. So that hair goes gray gradually with age.
• Childrens Drawings
• ReGrowth. Overhaul of biomes and much more!
• My Little Planet. If you're tired of supercontinents, but still want a smaller board, set planet coverage to 100%, and use the new planet size slider instead.
• Geological Landforms. New map shapes.
• Biome Transitions. More organic border biomes.
• Death Acidifiest. Vanilla death acidifier is lame, this is much cooler.
• Graphics
  • Yayo's Animation
  • Trait and Backstory Icons
  • Vanilla Ideology Expanded - Icons and Symbols
  • Vanilla Ideology Expanded - Relics and Artifacts
  • Vanilla Races Expanded - Custom Icons
  • Bionic icons
  • Spectacular Skullspike. They're rotable now!
  • Muzzle Flash
  • More Mini-Horns
  • Better Explosions
  • Better Vanilla Masking
  • Graphic Chair Overhaul 2
  • Not Overhead Meal
  • Graphics Settings+
  • Show Hair With Hats or Hide All Hats. This one takes a while to set up to your preferences, but oh it's so worth it.
  • Cuter Biotech Cat/Dog Ear Replacer. If you don't like the meat-colored animal ears from Biotech, this is for you!
  • Blood Animations
  • Gunplay. Trails can break some mods. If that happens, disable trails in options.
• Retextures
  • Parka Retexture
  • Retextured Apparel
  • Retextured Sculptures
  • Vanilla Beards Retextured
  • Vanilla Hair Retextured
  • Vanilla Pawns Retextured
  • Marbled Marble
  • Essentials: Stone (the stat changes won't work)
  • Vanilla Textures Expanded - Variations
  • Vanilla Textures Expanded
  • I Hate Daylilies
  • Biotech Mechanoid Retexture
  • Tastier Vanilla Clothes
  • Van's Steel
  • Glowing Healroot
  • More Vanilla Textures
• Audio
  • Ambient Rim
  • Realistic Human Sounds. Not very vanilla, but certainly very funny.
  • Actually Vanilla Music Expansion
  • P-Music
• Hairs
  • Erin's Hairstyles
  • Hard Times
  • Rimsenal Hair + Retextured
  • Roo's Hairstyles
  • Roo's Royalty Hairstyles
  • The Vanity Project
  • Won hair_men + Retextured
  • Won hair_women + Retextured

Bonus: comics! And the occasional animation. I noticed newbies aren't aware of these, so I linked the profiles of all the artists I could remember. Sorry if I missed someone. u/daleksdeservevictory, u/AzulCrescent, u/AetherealVanguard, u/ATTF , u/Aelanna , srgrafo, u/Fonzawa, u/Ivancmedia, u/zyll3, u/meto30, u/AeolysScribbles, u/cavalier753, u/GABESTFY, u/VectorData, u/arxian, u/Nguyenanh2132, u/sorrowful_dance, u/meto30, u/-desdinova-, u/truffli

Hey Guys, I made a video on Katsuyu and hope you guys could give it a watch to probably shed some light on Katsuyu as she is severely underestimated and downplayed to the point that she gets ruled out from versus battles even though she can always do something because she is so versatile! This is just a discussion about things Katsuyu can do and we can discussion anything else that she's capable of doing - I'm working on a slug sage mode video next
You can give the video a watch here as I went into more detail here - I tried to support my points with video evidence as best as I could but I couldn't find footage for everything - https://youtu.be/h6baI67D5A8
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Facts About Katsuyu

• Katsuyu is one gigantic slug that resides in the shikkotsu forest also known as the damp bone forest which is just as legendary as mt Myoboku for toads and the Ryuchi cave for snakes.
• Katsuyu is completely immune to any sort of physical attacks, regardless of how strong the attack is. She is immune to stabs, slashes anything sharp or that pierces due to her genetic makeup.
• Katsuyu has elemental resistance to all of the elements including fire/heat, light/dark, water, wind, earth, lightning/electricity – She survived naruto’s burning/corrosive chakra back in pain arc all the way up to almost 9 tails transformation. She stated that she can survive being cut at light speed with no problems. So if Tsunade summoned katsuyu to fight against madara’s perfect Susanoo, she’d just tank his fireball style attacks just fine or put it out with her acid. She would also negate madara’s sword slashes as swords can’t hurt her.
• Katsuyu is directly linked to the 100 healing mark/byakugou seal. Since the seal existed since the era of the sage of the six paths according to the boruto manga, this means katsuyu was around since the beginning of the Naruto verse.
• In order to summon katsuyu, the byakugou seal is a direct requirement to summon her as she herself said she is directly linked to the seal and scales proportionally to the condition of the seal. Which is why Shizune, despite being under Tsunade’s tutelage for so longis unable to summon her. Ino could also be used as an example as she was also student under Tsunade and could not summon Katsuyu. Another great example is Kabuto, he looks up to Tsunade so much due what she has done for the medical field, chose to form a pact with the snakes instead as the byakugou seal is not an easy feat to require.
• Katsuyu’s summoning time does not seem to have a limit as katsuyu can stay out as long as the summoner wants until katsuyu is no longer needed.
• Whenever katsuyu is summoned, its only just a small segment of katsuyu that is summoned. The largest size of her we have seen is just 10% of her and that took the combined effort of tsunade and kyuubi chakra amped sakura simultaneously summoning her with the byakugou seal’s chakra. 10% of her was able to fill the space between the roots of the god tree and she was towering over mountain ranges, avatar mode Naruto and Susanoo sasuke. She’s so large that we can only imagine how large she is.
• Katsuyu shares an unbreakable telepathic link to the byakugou seal no matter the distance as she can still communicate with the user regardless of how far is she. So, she could be in a whole other dimension or universe and still be able to communicate instantly.
• Katsuyu can split apart into millions of different clones of herself that can function independently and as a whole simultaneously, have shared vision, instantaneous communication regardless of the distance, can always regroup if needed, she can also communicate with another katsuyu that was summoned by a different summoner and still has access to all these traits. i.e. Tsunade summoned katsuyu to heal kage and sakura summoned katsuyu to heal the alliance
• Katsuyu’s acid is one of the most damaging attacks in the verse as it vaporizes stone upon immediate contact something that amateratsu cannot do but overtime it can. Katsuyu’s acid is a wide spread acidic attack that covers a wide range that’s really hard to dodge due to how much range it covers and how fast she spews it out. Her acid is natural/sage energy thus it cannot be absorbed, sealed or nullified by any means. Even orochimaru said it could one shot him just to testify how effective it is (Manda was able to dodge due to his size and because he is aware of katsuyu’s abilities as they have been on the battlefield with each other a lot so he was on guard. Katsuyu can also spew an almost unlimited amount of acid without any wind up. Amateratsu was not able to damage Jigen/Kaguya as they tanked it without any damage and just absorbed it but had Katsuyu's acid hit them, they'd be in a world of hurt as we know that senjutsu is one of the few ways you can hurt otsutsukis.
• Katsuyu is an excellent sensor she’s able to sense minute changes in chakra she sensed Naruto’s control over the kyuubi chakra and also was able to sense that kurama’s chakra merely shrunk when she healed everyone in the war arc.
• Katsuyu can be summoned at any size the summoner wants and can then be summoned in the full boss size summon if needed. Eg, Pebble size, stone size, large rock, boulder size human size, boss summon size…. You get the idea.
• Katsuyu can liquefy herself into bodily fluids and become a wide spread healing area where persons can recover by simply standing on her. This liquification technique could be how Tsunade used katsuyu’s body as a catalyst to create antidote on the battlefield for chioy’s poisons almost immediately. After making the antidote, I’m assuming she would then reform and then split into her mini sized human clones and disperse the antidotes throughout the battlefield to her allies.
• Seeing that katsuyu can liquefy herself, she can take the shape of anything as she can be molded into it. For example, a chair, a bat, or a really comfy bed to sleep on like she isn’t soft and cute as she is already.
• Katsuyu is able to absorb persons or things directly into her body (kind of like a white blood cell attacking bacteria/germs) to protect them from dmg, suffocate foes, trap foes inside her, restrict movement, she can become a cage for their body by encasing herself around someone or something. She can also become a body amour for her summoner just the same by encasing them with her body.
• The byakugou user is able to share their chakra, medical ninjutsu, offensive medical ninjutsu and possibly attacks like chakra enhanced strikes through katsuyu thanks to the connection to the byakugou seal.
• There are only two current users who are able to summon Katsuyu and they are Sakura and Tsunade. Tsunade’s grandmother, Mito Uzumaki, seemed to have a byakugou seal /100 healing mark as she had a mark similar to Tsunade and Sakura. It is safe to assume that she could summon katsuyu as well. Its possible that she had the most chakra in the Naruto verse outside of otsutsuki’s as she had the byakugou seal, full kurama and being a full blooded Uzumaki. It becomes more apparent that she had the byakugou seal as the seal itself is a sealing technique and the Uzumaki were infamously known and feared for their sealing jutsus.
• Katsuyu despite being a slug, is actually quite fast. She was able to scale the leaf village within seconds after tsunade’s order and protect allies last second from attacks.
• Even though the legendary summons are supposed to depict rock, paper scissors (slug, snake, toad/frog) katsuyu cheats the system by being all three at once and can interchange between them at will, that’s just how versatile she is. She can switch among offense, defense and support immediately – She can spew her acid, crush foes, absorb foes, tank attacks, provide widespread and instant communication and heal all at the same time.
• Katsuyu’s personality is very respectful, subservient, loyal, obedient, friendly, serious, understanding and playful as shown throughout the many times she makes an appearance. (You can watch Naruto episode 161 for a cute and funny episode with her)
• Katsuyu is able to break her summoner or allies outside of genjutsu due to the perfect connection between the byakugou seal and herself that cannot be broken. Katsuyu is resistant to genjutsu as slugs don’t see like we do, nor do they have ears to hear like we do. Additionally, thanks to the byakugou seal’s connection both the summoner and the katsuyu always have a perfect flow of chakra that links them together regardless of the distance so if they should be in a genjutsu they can easily break each other out – Likewise the same with katsuyu whenever she splits up, if one clone somehow gets caught in a genjutsu the others can easily break them out of it.
• Katsuyu seems to be only be killable by chakra drain as she has never been shown to get hurt or “die” to anything else. Particle style is very plausible because if katsuyu can survive being shredded at light speed, which in should atomize her and we know katsuyu can survive in the smallest of forms. She could also just mold her body around the shape of whatever shape the particle style takes.
• Katsuyu is able to cause earthquakes due to her large size by just simply “sneezing” or by just simply moving around, crush foes, have human sized clones fall from great heights to squash people etc
• Katsuyu’s body is able to function as a selectively permeable membrane in a sense that she can block whatever she doesn’t want to come into her body and allow whatever she wants to come in. I.e when healing the five kage, she engulfed them into her body to protect and heal them while still allowing air supply.
• Katsuyu maybe the only great sage that can work with other sage energy without disrupting their control over their respective sage energy. She assisted Naruto in sage mode while she’s directly touching him despite her being able to draw in sage energy as well without disrupting Naruto’s.

I won’t be disclosing my age, but just know that I am a minor - who goes to secondary school- and I live in England. Growing up, I was quite oblivious to the fact that my parents had not raised me ‘normally’ - so I when I got into secondary school, I didn’t even know what the word ‘gay‘ meant, I didn’t know how to wash my hair, I didn’t have any social media (me posting this is one of my forms of teenage rebellion - that, and secretly watching funny commentary YouTubers) and I didn’t know what a period was. Only when I got into secondary school and made some friends there, did I realise that their rules weren’t exactly normal. Turns out, my friends were allowed to choose their own clothes and hairstyles, watch films and tv shows on their own, go out and join clubs, have sleepovers, eat at any time they want… Over these past few years, I’ve seriously debated whether or not my parents were just strict, or borderline abusive. I’ve never been hurt physically by them, but emotionally is a different story. Anytime I cry, or talk about my insecurities, I get shouted and screamed at, rather then hugged - which is weird, because that’s what my teachers do. Also, they are heavy drinkers (I think - definitely in comparison to my mates’ parents) and spend long times at restaurant, obviously leading to fights that get us kicked out. I’ve grown to dread going to restaurants, even without my parents present, I get panic attacks. They comment on my weight - according to my friends, I’m pretty skinny - and call me ugly. Furthermore, it just seems that my brother gets special treatment. I’ll give an example: one time, he pushed me into a busy road because I made a joke about Fortnite or something, and I got told off for provoking him. He got icecream. I also always seem to be blamed for things - the wine running out, them feeling tired, etc. There is quite a bit I have not mentioned - my dad is a schizophrenic, my brother has anger issues to the point they get violent and my mum is extremely strict and harsh. I’ve not mentioned my own worries and mental health issues, not to mention the period complications that my mum refuses to get checked because it is a ‘waste of time‘. I cry myself to sleep, sometimes waking up from a sudden panic attack. I feel so lonely, even though I have a bunch of friends, because I feel like none of them would understand. So please, I’ve tried talking to friends and pastoral team at school, but to no avail. I have had to learn everything on my own - how to shower, brush my teeth, put on a period pad etc. Am I making a mountain out of a molehill, are my parents just strict? Feel free to ask me questions, I just want some clarity. I hope everyone on this subreddit is okay. :)

I finally muster the courage to finally resigned from my work. I thought I'd regret it, but I'm honestly feeling so relieved and at peace with my decision. Nakahinga ako ng maluwag. I've always been a firm believer na if your work costs you your mental sanity, then it's not worth it.
Skl, I was working with a Customer Service Manager from an e-commerce merchandise provider in the US. I was with them for a year, and all throughout my stay, I never felt connected to the team. There were initially three of us, but one left recently kasi nag abroad. Yung goal ko lang naman sa work is simple — pumasok, magtrabaho, hit my daily goals, and end my shift in peace. However, throughout my stay, I noticed that my client treats me differently than two of my co-workers. She treats them as part of the team, and ako spare tire lang. She always acknowledges them and shower them appreciation, tapos ako breadcrumbs lang. Whenever the two commits major mistakes, wala kang maririnig sa kanya. Pag ako, which is rare tapos minor lang, she loves to make an example out of me sa team. Nage-expect akong she would slide me a DM to inform me about my mistake and what should I do better next time pero hindi ganun. Pagalit always yung tono and she loves being shady about it. Whenever I attempt to reach out and open up about how I've been feeling, most of the time seenzoned ako or busy daw siya. Yet, ang ironic kasi she always says to us na "if you ever have problems, feel free to reach out to me."
For one year, tiniis ko yan. I didn't mind it even to a point na yung mga tasks nila e ako pinapagawa. Kahit I've noticed na hindi equal distribution yung workload, e tumahimik na lang ako. But I've had enough.
The past few month has been really hectic. Nagresign yung isang kasama namin and the client doesn't want to hire a replacement. So yung workload e mas dumami and sobrang busy na. Ang unfair lang na if I get to compare my daily tasks dun sa kasama ko, I have too much na di ko alam paano pagkakasyahin in a day. To quote what the client says, "isn't your workload too much for one person?" Alas, akala ko ibibigay niya sa kasama ko yung ibang tasks pero wala. Hanggang commentary na may pa additional pang "please try to complete your tasks within the day. manage your time wisely." Naknamputa. Ako busy pero yung kasama ko sitting pretty. Lately, she started to micromanage us. Pinapasend niya kami ng daily accomplisments in a day para alam niya if we're being productive and if may room pa daw for us for additional tasks. Loaded na nga ako, and guess what, dinagdagan pa ako and yung kasama ko nada. At one point, the client reached out to my manager from the agency side and pinapatanong bakit may days ako that week na di umabot sa daily goal of 50 Closed Tickets a day. On those days, I only closed 49 and 48 tickets. Pero wala silang say na on the rest of the days, umaabot ako ng 100+ closed tickets a day. So ayun, pinapa explain ako kung bakit di ko na hit yung goal and what steps should I take to ensure I hit my daily goal moving forward. Pero ang unfair lang na wala silang say dun sa kasama kong tenured na on bihira lang maka hit ng 50 Closed Tickets a day. Yung tipping point talaga is how the client loves to make a big deal out of my responses. Ang defensive ko daw if nag aapologize ako, pag nagfi feedback daw siya madami akong salit, etc. I love feedback, but it should come in a nice tone. Hindi yung nagbigay ka ng feedback tapos ang mafi feel ng tao is demoralized. I opened this up to my agency manager, but as always, ako yung mali.
To cut the story short, I resigned and surely the best decision I made this year. Deserve ko to work with a client who values my hardwork and input sa team. Ang funny lang kasi since I still have access my Slack, nagpa bonus si client dun sa kasama ko ng $250 at pinost pa yung screenshot sa channel namin tatlo. Ang laman ng email is "Please give XXX a $250 on her next cutoff for she's been working hard for us the whole month." Para naman may ginagawa si ate talaga e ako nga lahat gumagawa ng workload sa team tsaka bago lang ako umalis sa team lol.
My next move after this is to upskill and focus on myself. Nakaipon ipon naman so I'll go back to the gym, eat well, sleeep sleeep sleeeeeeeep, and enjoy the things I love. Hopefully, I'll land to a job where I can excel, grow, and feel valued. Ekis na sa akin mga VA agency.

Sorry it's so late this week. I'm an ex Seoul Dynasty player as well and I was a bit too busy so I kind of just listened to all for it and then got way too busy for a few days with work. Here's the loose translations for episode 5 of Overwatch University. Rush had to leave very early on due to Internet issues and Moon who was watching at the time volunteered to help as a lot of the talk was in regards to the Seoul vs Shanghai Rivalry anyways so having both POVs was insightful
Topic 1 Intros and Seoul Dynasty Season 1
Aid: Have you seen Overwatch University given you have been invited by NineK
Tobi: Not really. I've skimmed around and seen pieces of the Crusty interview and Moon interview.
Aid: We're going to go over Tobis lengthy career as we were both pros
NineK: Isn't it kind of disrespectful to Tobi for you to group him up with you?
Aid: I had a lot of talent I just got cursed with a shit Coach like you NineK right Tobi?
Tobi: True
Aid: See two instances of your failures
NineK: What does that make the people who won under me? You two must've been the problem.
Aid: (pulled up Seoul Dynasty s1 roster and Tobi just explains who all of them were) Honestly you guys didn't do amazing right?
Tobi: No we were bad we went 7-3, 7-3, 5-5, and then 3-7. Just mid
NineK: Did you feel in preseason scrims you were in trouble?
Tobi: No I didn't we did very well even in the preseason games we won everything.
Rush: There any problems we didn't know about you can tell us?
Tobi: I can tell all the potential members we could've had though. Carpe, Fury, Gesture, Jjonak
NineK: Wow you started and ended with Seoul now that I think about it.
Aid: So we heard lots of rumors about Seoul but I heard you had unique member rotations where only allowing certain players for certain stages?
Tobi: If I'm clarifying a bit the split rosters was more of a season 2 decision with an A team and B team where eventually the roster mixed together. Biggest issue was the coaches couldn't agree. So sometimes they would just take turns like coach A gets to decide today then coach B gets to decide what to do and then coach c.
NineK: I heard you basically did that with a new coach per stage.
Rush: Who was your head coach?
Tobi: 4 coaches + extras
Aid: How did you decide who played what?
Tobi: Honestly the meta was so hard locked at the time the biggest issue was the coaches disagreed how we should play and it was very confusing how we should do it. We basically went back and forth with a coach of the day deciding what we did.
NineK: Too many games too. That's how Shanghai went 0-40 cause there was way too much. Not to mention no one wanted to scrim them cause it's not like you wanted to be their first victory either.
Tobi: We scrimmed them a bit
NineK: Wow you're nice people.
Tobi: They've invited us over at times and made food for us too.
Rush: Yeah there's pictures of it.
NineK: Cause of the Korean members?
Tobi: No this was way before that
NineK: Wow so kind. Isn't it cause your results weren't good either?
Tobi: Uhhh... Where were you in season 1?
NineK: I came in late. Stage 3. Season 1 was fun though
Aid: Honestly getting dragged back and forth by your coaches must be stressful. As a player there has got to be times when you do something one way and think to yourself why the heck does he want me to do it this way instead
NineK: Also they'd probably never had that many members to work with either since they just added players to Lunatic Hai
Tobi: True. We had 11 starting members and then acquired Gambler when I was having wrist issues. Then we lost another member and went back to 11. I truly believe having 12 members was so pointless
NineK: I agree like it's good if you can make it work but if you don't it just makes people feel awful. I don't know why people insisted so much on large rosters.
Tobi: Lots of people lots of possibilities I guess?
Rush: Also this is when OWL wanted to copy traditional sports so they got a bunch of players on their rosters
Tobi: They did invest more in OWL back then
NineK: They were really the team designed to win everything weren't they?
Rush: I remember an article saying they had an 80% chance of winning
NineK: People don't get how hard this time was cause of the random Mercy meta. Honestly probably wouldn't have been this bad for Seoul if patches came out like they do now
Tobi: Meta was unfavorable sure but we just played poorly to be honest
NineK: Wow so honest very cool
Topic 2: Ryujekong
Aid: Everyone was so confused by Ryujehong on Tank I want to hear what happened
Tobi: Honestly it's been so long I don't remember this time very well. I also wasn't even scrimming or playing at the time because of my wrist. I was basically just going to the doctor. We had kuki who for reasons was having troubles so he stopped playing and then Miro was having a lot of struggles at the time as well with how the meta was playing. It's mostly because of the comms cause obviously Miro had better mechanics Jehong sucks at primaling too but he would take space well and call out commands for the team to help
Aid: How did your scrims go?
Tobi: I don't remember
NineK: He can't help but not remember there were only scrims allowed at the practice facilities at the time and kids that were ill like him straight up just didn't even go. There were set times
Aid: So this isn't Jehongs main position and he was forced to tank must have been hard.
NineK & Rush: Must be
Tobi: It absolutely was. Imagine how sorry he felt to Miro. He was a support replacing Miro. If he fails not only does he get ridiculed for it but people slander Miro for being replaced by a tank of this caliber he felt very burdened feeling sorry that Miro might get insulted more than he did
NineK: I remember at the time a lot of people said Jehong had a bad Zenyatta as well but I thought it was good
Aid: Yeah I don't really see how he was particularly bad
NineK: Honestly the way things were he was probably just getting compared to Jjonak who was a beast at the time. The flame for Jehong was insane at the time
Aid: I remember his team would just hyper pocket Jjonak and have him just frag. NYXL were so defensive and good at pocketing.
NineK: In another way of seeing things that playstyle not being meta anymore might be why NYXL couldn't hack it in finals.
(Watching VOD of Seoul vs London)
NineK: Damn Munchkin fucking sucked at Tracer
Rush: Wait why is Fleta playing Widow?
Tobi: He was really good at Widow
NineK: He was
Rush: Then what is Munchkin good at
NineK: Just Cassidy Soldier. But Widow was so broken back then
Aid: Monkey could never catch her cause of her grapple cooldown
NineK: Nearly all the monkeys sucked at primal dribbling too. If a Mercy pocketed her she never died either. Who was good then again? Carpe...
Tobi: Linkzr Surefour Pine
Aid: Wow such names from my memories
NineK: Gesture Fury were way too good at Monkey D.va. Honestly there's so much shit about London I wanna expose
Aid: Bring Profit
NineK: I'll get Rascal easily. Wow Bdosin looks so young here what the he'll.
Topic 3: End of Season 2 VOD of Jehong Tobi Crying Post Elimination to Spark
Aid: I didn't know this happened at the time but NineK mentioned this happened can you explain?
Tobi: At the time role lock got forced and doomfist hanzo reaper were good. At the time we were kind of really good in scrims but lost to a team in tournament we never lost too in scrims. Jehong was already out there crying and I didn't want to come out and Danny kept forcing me to come out even though I said I didn't want too. But I was afraid the broadcast would get delayed or ruined cause of me so I was forced to.
Ninek: At the time we were preparing for our game up right after them but our GM was so fuxking angry at the time like how could you force them to do this right after they lost he complained a lot to Blizzard. Cause just imagine, thank God you brought out two veterans and media trained players. Imagine if you brought out complete noobies if it was this hard for these 2 veterans imagine what they might let slip on a broadcast when emotions are this high. This is also right after their season ended and they were officially eliminated.
Rush: From Blizzards POV these 2 were icons of the game and they probably felt like they could really show the importance and feelings toward this game to the audience watching
NineK: But like RIGHT after they lost is insane to me. Like let them process instead of fucking ambushing them as they're coming down from the stage.
Rush: But it's important cause this is when they're at the peak of the emotions being felt so I get it.
NineK: There's actually so many players who went down that stage to the hallways down crying
Aid: Of course they work hard and it didn't work.
Tobi: When we scrimmed we only lost to 1 team ever. Shock. We beat Vancouver NYXL Spark everyone else.
NineK: Wow so strong
Tobi: But in the end we just lost to Spark
NineK: I can say this now but we scrimmed Hangzhou a lot at this time. They didn't have a coach we were their coaches. Literally they would scrim us and copy us the next day in games. Since GOATs they basically decided they couldn't beat us so they copied our opening strats positioning skill usage everything. That's why they did decent
Aid: So Seoul lost cause of you
Tobi: We regretted a lot because of some of our microplays. There was a thing when double shield was first happening where Moria sprays her heals on the tanks right? The enemy Sigmas could shoot their shield out behind the Orisa to block the heals. And we thought this was possible but went and said it wasn't going to be a difference maker and ignored it
NineK: Wait we were doing that since day 1 lol
Tobi: We lost to Spark because of that. We felt awful cause this is something we thought could happen but ignored. At the time Marvel was our Sigma and Michelle who was a traditional offtank was forced on Orisa. We had Fissure who was good at Orisa who retired so we had no Orisas.
Aid: Timings always been off for Seoul I guess
NineK: No wonder you felt so many emotions. I was so sad seeing this. Seoul was honestly so good in season 2 but always somehow was just one step short. It hurt my heart to see them.
Aid: Players don't like to cry like that so they have to have been feeling so much to cry like this
Topic 4: Seoul vs Shanghai
Aid: We had Moon and he said some stuff on this we were all in the West and we would just see the results but this May Melee where you were up 3-0 and got reverse swept... your stories about this?
Tobi: We didn't get ahead of ourselves Shanghai was always good at Gibraltr and we thought we would lose this map but win the rest for a 4-1. I'm not sure how we lost Busan though
Tobi: We won a lot with our double shield
Rush: Fearless wasn't supposed to play
Aid: Fearless told me at the time he didn't get to scrim even once and then came in and won everything
NineK: Wow
Aid: Yeah no scrims at all
NineK: Wait Tobi why us Bdosin on Brig and you on Baptiste?
Tobi: I played the Baptiste for Seoul at the time cause Bdosin fucking sucked at Bap. This mother fucker could never use his abilities properly. He must've gotten sick in the head watching Viol2t play or something cause whenever he had cooldowns he would be on some high ground alone shooting and scream "Aghhh" and die off on his own
NineK: I remember now it wasn't super locked who played what because no one had Briggitte experience at the time
Tobi: Also if this happened there would be cases where in double shield mirror your Brig had to swap to Zenyatta but at the time Gesture had too many complaints about coordinating his pulls with Bdosin
NineK: I have no idea how Seoul lost this right now
Tobi: There's no absolutes in Overwatch. But the only thing I remember is our loss in Junkertown
Aid: For Kings Row I remember the Felta carry with Widow this was probably in all of those OWL top 5 highlights. I still can't believe how far Shnghai got in Junkertown though
NineK: Wow even Fearless is playing Orisa here
Tobi: That's why we thought we would win here. It's such a double tank focused map. Fits was randomly flanked high on the left and I td him to get down but he died on our A defense.
NineK: Wow you guys got out ult cycled like crazy
Rush: The Torbjorn choice here leaves a lot to be desired
NineK: I agree
Aid: So then there is that little celebration Shanghai did how did you feel
Tobi: Can I curse?
NineK: Seoul is just so ugh... like back in season 2 they beat New York during GOATs who was supposed to be top 2 but Seould couldn't take those next steps to greatness here as well. There are those super important games that once you win you just go on a roll and Seoul never got to do it
Tobi: I really hated losing to Shanghai cause I could've been on the team.
NineK: Really?
Tobi: Yeah I received offers from them on 3 separate occasions but ended up choosing Seoul. I wanted to believe I made the right choice so I wanted to win
Topic 5: Tobi Happy. Season 3
Aid: There's this gif of you happy after a win
NineK: It's so funny you took your glasses off before cheering
Tobi: At the time we lost to Shanghai so often but then finally beat them
NineK: The thing is Seoul was lucky cause they actually shouldn't have been in the season 3 finals originally.
Rush: Washington was the biggest offender
NineK: Off memory it felt like a "everyone suffered because of COVID so everyone gets a chance" thing
Tobi: But the thing to note is we did well in the West before we were forced to go to Korea and beat Glads and Valiant. We won like all of our scrims at the time.
NineK: Fine I'll give you that
Rush: Seoul was honestly really good during the online era
Aid: What did you think of the Hog meta?
Tobi: I was a huge doubter. Like at the time it was Zarya Hog or Sigma Hog. It just had none of the fundamentals of Overwatch I was used to seeing. I just couldn't believe it.
NineK: Tobis a purist "where do you come from thinking Hog could ever be a main tank"
Tobi: His ability to take space was unreal at the time. But Gesture was really into it and Wizardhyeong pushed for it
Aid: Gesture was a really good Hog though
NineK: All the guys there had good Hogs. Gesture Super Smurf Fearless were all good at it
Rush: But Shanghai didn't play it
NineK: I don't know Shanghais reasoning but I know Shock played how they did cause Viol2t fucking sucked at Ana lol. The thing is he did win with it but his scrim results as Ana was terrible
Rush: Viol2t Ana is known in the community as weaker though
NineK: But he doesn't think so
Tobi: I heard it got to the point where Crusty said he would do better if he played than Viol2t
NineK: That's why Architect played it for a bit. They had Twilight but I have no idea why they didn't use him more. I don't know how much I should say when there's no Shock rep from the time here but as far as I Know Super wasn't supposed to play. Smurf was but he didn't fit with his playstyle and the team well enough at the time
Tobi: If I have to point out regrets in the Shock game it was not using Zenyatta on Busan
NineK: But shouldn't you playing something other than the Ashe?
Tobi: No this was when Ashe was super broken and Profit was really good at her
Aid: The more I see it the more I really feel regrets about Seouls performances
NineK: That's what I've been saying Seoul was almost never bad and had huge upside a lot for different points in time. Honestly they're Asia's Philly Fusion
Tobi: You know how it is NineK if one thing changed with your Hotba strategy or Rascal not waking the monkey
NineK: I had a team with Tobi and Carpe and caught the 2nd place curse
Tobi: Woah why are you blaming me I've won plenty.
NineK: I did too before meeting you guys
Tobi: Then it's Carpes fault
NineK: I guess it is lol
Aid: At this point we need to have Carpe on to defend himself
NineK: We're going to go watch his games this Saturday
Tobi: The Hollwood bug pissed me off too
(Vod review where Tobi popped Valkyrie in spawn and the D.va bomb from Choi killed Tobi in the respawn room) this and Viol2t living at 1 health
Aid: Wow you guys are just destined to not win that day
Tobi: It was everything against us honestly
NineK: Honestly in the regular Hog comps Seoul and Dhock were about even but Seoul couldn't beat Shocks Hog and Ball Comp
Tobi: I actually wanted to go Numbani here instead of Hollywood
NineK: I remember at this time Choihyobin was getting gapped by Hanbin a bit and all of us joked his time was over and Hanbin would replace him as the new offtank goat
NineK: I remember at this time Shock felt Bdosin was scarier. They took more maps with him. Even though they defended better with Creative
Tobi: I think at the time he wasn't getting too much scrim time so he just said to let Creative play
Topic 6 Coach Tobi
Aid: You came back after being a player for Fusion to being Head Coach of Seoul Dynasty how was that for you?
Tobi: I kind of just stopped feeling the desire to compete like "I definitely can still compete mechanically but guess it might just not work out from here"
Tobi: Was worried that newer players he hadn't yet played with wouldn't follow his leadership well
Aid: So who was the player who least listened to you
Tobi: Everyone below me followed very well
Aid: So did you work well with the other coaches given it was mentioned there were previously conflicting visions?
Tobi: Oh these people were later coaches and we had very good talks together and worked well together
NineK: Since we wanna wait for our other guest when we talk about the next topic let's move on and talk about our time together in Fusion
Tobi: There were a lot of regrets weren't there?
NineK: The biggest problem for me was I didn't know we would be playing in Korea when I made the roster and heard it from someone from another team.
NineK: I felt sorry to Carpe for that. He's like Seoul where certain key moments not working out it feels like de-railed everything for him.
Aid: What did you think when you joined and first got to know NineK?
Tobi: When I joined I did so because I heard so much good stuff about him. Like he just knows a lot about Overwatch so I was curious about him and learned a lot. There's Crusty NineK Moon and Rush that are the coaches that are very well talked about that I was curious about. I got to meet NineK and Wow I'd never believed someone could get so angry over this game he would slam on the desk yelling while coaching. But the thing was while doing that he would always be right about what he's saying
Topic 7: Moon Joins
(Moon joins the podcast because Rush was lagging out)
NineK: So is it true you sent offers to Tobi
Moon: I guess I should say hi first. My name is Coach Moon who tried to get Tobi every year but failed.
NineK: I tried that with Fury
Aid: Is one of the reasons you wanted to beat Seoul no matter what because you didn't get to recruit Tobi?
Moon: No actually around that time I got in a lot of trouble with my wife. She said I talked to Tobi more than her. This was before we signed LeeJaeGon
Tobi: In 2020 season Shanghai actually had a lot of players I wanted to play with. Fleta Lip and such. As well as just giving a better offer out right.
NineK: Void too.
Tobi: Yeah always keeps contact with him too. But I really wanted to run it back with Ryujehong one last time because of the regrets of our last 2 seasons together to redeem ourselves. But he ended up choosing Vancouver and as I ended up wanting to go to Shanghai instead, they ended up already getting LeeJaeGon instead
Aid: Man the timing has just never worked out for Tobi
NineK: When he was on Fusion with me he used to always joke "damn if I was on Shanghai at least I could've been winning while benched"
Moon: So at the time LeeJaeGon and Tobi were my first choices but LJG told me he didn't want to join because he wanted to go to Mayhem with other Runaway members and then Tobi was looking at Seoul so I almost ended up with no one. But eventually LeeJaeGon chose us and tobi reached out the day after that.
NineK: So you regret not getting Tobi?
Moon: I mean you can't argue this given our results...
Tobi: They did so well
NineK: Tobi would've made the team fun for you though. That season was really bad for us but we had a lot of fun
Topic 8: Seoul vs Shanghai KickOff Clash
Aid: It looked like Seoul was happier beating Shanghai in winners finals than beating Philly in finals
Moon: The thing was the situation was so terrible for us at this time. We were quarantined with nothing.
Tobi: This team was the one we wanted to beat more than anyone else. It's why Profit was crying at the end of it all.
Moon: I will say their strats against us were very good they deserved the win regardless of what circumstances we had
Tobi: This gave me PTSD cause there was a moment when we were reverse swept in May Melee where Bdosin got pulsed with Rally. I told Vindsim no matter what to hold your shield up when he has it and in this one moment in the VOD he got stuck by fleta but thankfully Profit clutched
NineK: I will say when we got to the Hawaii LAN Shock picked you guys at Shanghai and I'll just say I didn't want to pick you.
Aid: Ahh it was the eternal rivals (implying Crusty chose Shanghai for revenge)
Moon: This time was really tough for us and we had a bunch of retirements after this. I think we thought more about what we would get to eat the next day or when we would be able to go to a Koreatown for the food we missed
NineK: It was so long
Moon: Honestly it was the hardest times for us.
NineK: It was really tough for us as well lockdown was so long.
Moon: I honestly don't want to hear lockdown complaints from anyone around me. If we were offline and I told you our horror stories everyone here would cry.
NineK: I mean everyone suffered but this sounds like military stories lol. Like everyone thinks they had it the hardest. Anyways Tobi tell us how you did things that led to that win.
Tobi: So you know there are things a lot of us say behind the scenes about coaches right? Like this guy is more of just a caretaker or this guy is more just strategies but I really wanted to be the coach who wouldn't have players feel bad I was their Coach. It's why I asked for a lot of help from previous coaches I worked under. I wanted all of my least favorite aspects of coaches I've seen in the past to not be things my players go through I let them all speak casually to me so they wouldn't be uncomfortable with me
NineK: Moon has the opposite take. He said his players can never act chummy with him and will always refer to him as coach
Tobi: My feelings were that I had previously worked with a lot of these players in the past so it feels okay
(VOD shows Seoul winning Kick off Clash 4-0 over Philly Fusion
NineK: Oh Carpes expression came out (literally half covered in shadows)
Aid: I didn't want to become a useless coach. Every explayer wants to be the opposite of the coaches they hated
Tobi: When I first won I was so happy to finally get a star under the Seoul Dynasty banner for Gen G.
NineK: I thought at the time though "all that for a stage win?"
Aid: We were like Wow they really are happy for a stage win
Moon: Well it was their first win of course they're happy and they beat us to do it
NineK: As coaches we can tell whether they just got lucky or actually were prepared. Poor Carpe though
Topic 9: Q & A
Aid: If you became a coach again and had to form a team which players would you want?
Moon: Wait but isn't the answer for those year very obvious?
Tobi: Yeah just erase Moons name and put me in
NineK: Then mix and match a bit
Tobi: Smurf Stalk3r Lip Chorong seems very good and then Shu
NineK: That's basically Crazy Raccoons. I'll just say this is cause he doesn't watch it
Tobi: I watched all the big games actuall
Moon: If he was really keeping up with the scene wouldn't he have picked Donghak?
Aid: If Gen G or T1 asked you to coach or team up with Ryujehong again for OWCS?
Tobi: I already got an offer to play with them and said no
Aid: Oh really why?
Tobi: Cause I knew what would happen lol. The kids nowadays level of play is so high
NineK: Just for fun I guess
Tobi: Well yeah if I streamed it and stuff sure but the team even with me or without wouldn't have done well
Moon: Honestly the player gap between the experienced old guard and the new is high right now but you'd hope it would get closer by next year
NineK: More than player gaps I'd rather be worried about the coaching level. It's really just Moon Crusty Rush again. Tobi isn't coaching anymore either... so tobi this is to say coach again please.
Tobi: I did get an offer but the timing didn't work out.
Aid: Always the timing
Tobi: Before Falcons formed I think it could've worked but Smurf was gone and all the teams were formed and then I got the call and was a decent offer. But the timing was bad.
Moon: Where the players weren't available anymore. But just swipe them from their teams
Tobi: But I didn't wanna steal players with offers of contracts
Moon: Why not?
NineK: The difference between a dirty person and clean person
Moon: But the thing is they don't have contracts
NineK: Yeah wait they definitely would want money
Moon: That's my point he could've offered stability to more players in the scene
NineK: Then you are at fault Tobi
Tobi: There was a condition though. The org really wanted to win and asked if I could form a team to win.
Moon: Oh that would be hard (smiling in Crazy Raccoons)
NineK & Aid: (dies of laughter at the humble brag)
Moon: I did work really hard to swipe the good players.
NineK: Was it a foreign org?
Tobi: Yeah it was
Moon: I wish more teams came into the space
NineK: If tobi even at least coached Genesis they would've been better
Tobi: I did get that offer but said no
NineK: Didn't want to work for bottom feeder teams?
Tobi: Well I wasn't close with any of the players either
NineK: You shouldve just gone to orga offering up super teams and swiped like Moon did.
Moon: I just had a skeleton crew formed and did mine
NineK: Whatever it was it's just kind of sad Tobi isn't coaching actively right now is all
NineK: I like this question. If Coach Tobi could speak to player Tobi of the past what would you say to them?
Tobi: Probably to be sure of yourself and confident in your play and your decision. I used to basically fly to whoever screamed for help no matter who was in a bad position trying to help. I definitely learned afterwards and worked really hard to improve my Mercy
NineK: I remember at that time Yobi worked really hard to improve his Mercy and it was really good I agree. It's sad to hear given how things went for Seoul but it is a cool answer
Aid: ProFits from friend POV to players POV
Tobi: Profit whether as a friend or player was a great and reliable friend. Fits was the hassle
Aid: How so?
Tobi: Never listening always whining just a big baby. Cute little brother while Profit was a reliable friend
(Just chatting while looking for interesting questions)
Moon: I'm saying this now but Shanghai starting at 0-40 we worked so hard to hit that 40-40 and it took so long. We won so much and still took a while
NineK: A fun thing to ask whenever we have an ex-player is have they ever felt like watching a scrim they would do better?
Tobi: I have scrimmed actually. Vindaim was ill and in the hospital so I played. We won.
Ninek: You say yes to this question if you win the scrims if you lost you would say it didn't happen
Tobi: True
Tobi: Here's one about Seoul I like. Why did you when you had LeeSooMin and Krillin make Krillin a main support? The answer is Krillin said during Washington he got to try a bunch of heroes and LeeSooMin was pretty decent at Kirik at the time. I had worked one year with Vindaim and it was good for us so I hoped for the same to happen. The initial meta was good for us too until we hit the Sombra meta
NineK: I think the only ones happy to hit the Sombra meta was Atlanta
Moon: (struggling to find a good question when smurf comments in chat) Yo Smurf don't you need to go practice right now?
Moon: Sorry that was a joke
NineK: Oh I like that one
Tobi: So there's a question about our 2023 roster and I wanted to talk about it. Right after 2022 going into 2023 was to keep Smurf Profit then get Lip who was receiving some offers at the time keep Vindaim and get Twilight. This would've been my personal choice if I had the money to form my team but everyone ran out of money. I even had back ups for everyone but like Bernar planned but everything fell through
Moon: Do you regret picking up Void?
Tobi: No I don't
NineK: What about losing to former players of yours and stuff?
Moon: Want me to call Void and ask him what it felt like losing to the Fleta Tank?
NineK: Oh my god that sounds so good
Tobi: I think he's working right now
Moon: Oh that's right he would be working right now
NineK: Man I'm so curious. I hate losing to my former players
NineK: Wanted to know if back in OW1 you had a team fully built around you who would it be and would you win?
Tobi: Honestly looking at my history I'm kind of bad at forming teams lol. Honestly I could've been on NYXL in season 1 as well.
NineK: Wow.
Moon: I can say one thing. I've literally walked to his house before. He thought a lot about it. Like I didn't think it should be this hard a decision when I was so convincing.
Tobi: I just really wanted to run it back with Jehong one last time and Fearless wasn't in the planned roster at the time either.
Moon: True it was very early on in the team formation
Tobi: Yeah it's regrettable isn't it?
NineK: Tobi does make bad choices that's why he joined Fusion under me
Tobi: Timing worked for that time period though
NineK: Alright back to the question make your super team only caveat is you can't change them and have to run them seasons 1 through 6
Tobi: To be happily teamed with them Carpe Profit Gesture Fury...
NineK: Wait a second Ryujehong isn't being brought up
Tobi: We are excluding him from this but honestly there's way too many good flex supports so I don't know. Shu was really good but Viol2t is also nah just Shu.
NineK: Shu is fun and good.
Tobi: He's good at like everything. Even since season 2 when I'd play Mercy he would shoot me so much more than everyone else as Ana
NineK: When you went game 5 against MightyAOD any players that stood out to you?
Tobi: Did we go game 5 against MightyAOD? I genuinely can't remember the Lunatic Hai games that well outside of just like finals games anymore. I'm sorry but it's been years.
Moon: Ooh how did you feel about Prophet being on your team and then once he was dropped and went to 02Blast losing to him?
Tobi: He was good but the thing is whatever we put him on just didn't fit with how the team played and the Sombra meta was at its peak as well. We were tired and he was tired cause it just wasn't the best fit for either of us. I wanted him to keep doing well so I could be confident it was just a mismatch and that my scouting ability was still good. But then the meta swapped to like Widow Hanzo.
Moon: Oh wait so once again it's a choice Tobi made he regrets...
Tobi: Well no technically in the last game versus them we did win to be fair. Honestly though when he did win damn I felt low key a little bit upset/betrayed
NineK: Did you see him do the X on the Dynasty symbol spray?
Tobi: I didn't mind that all the players do that
NineK: Hears something funny for Moon to answer. " I heard Lip purposefully made sure not to wear the Fusion skins for Asia Finals is it true"
Moon: I specifically checked his PC to make sure he wasn't wearing it "Are you wearing a Fusion skin or not? Yes or no."
NineK: Wow you check their PCs?
Moon: Yeah I made sure none of them wore Fusion skins for Asia Finals
Tobi: Carpe might need to come on here at this point
Moon: I don't believe in jinxes like this but my players do so I did it just so they don't have to think for a second there is some Fusion curse that will make them lose
Tobi: Like you don't want unnecessary factors creeping into their minds
Moon: Exactly
NineK: Did you have any of those jinxes or lucky charms as a player?
Tobi: During Lunatic Hai I would on game days only eat noodle dishes and then we would win. I'd wear the same pair of socks for all the big games as well. But then I went to the League and kept losing and none of that stuff applied anymore
Moon: Yeah I don't believe in it as a supernatural force but whatever makes people more confident the better
(Randomly scrolling for questions)
Moon: I really did wanna try coaching Dynasty once.
Tobi: Why?
Moon: You know as a Korean it was kind of sad seeing the Korean team under perform I wanted to go there after my contract with Shanghai ended and try to get them a big win
Tobi: I see
Moon: Now that I'm thinking about it I never got an offer from Seoul ever
NineK: Really? I think I got an offer from Seoul basically every year since 2019
Moon: Oh one thing I really wanted to ask was how you beat the Infernal (Dynasty vs Infernal early 2023 when Infernal scrimbux was way better than everyone else)
Tobi: Oh that? They just played poorly.
Moon: I was so curious cause they were supposed to be so good
Tobi: Yeah they must have been nervous or something we didn't win cause we were better they were just worse that day.
NineK: When Tobi first joined Fusion he actually beat Dynasty and was so happy about it. He was such a good player to have he was on the bench for quite a while initially but kept his mental up and was a very good teammate for us.
Final Words
Tobi: I'm not actually retired from coaching. I still keep up with the League and love the game. I hope Overwatch keeps growing and I want everyone to know I'm not gone just yet. If there's a chance I'm ready whenever
NineK: Honestly I will say a lot of Overwatch kids have this issue not just Tobi where they hope opportunity will fall on their laps.
Tobi: I'll agree. It was my first time doing this stuff and I had no idea what the scene was going to be like.
Moon: I was very proactive and quick about it for sure
NineK: Do you have any team you'd like to join? Quickly before we end the podcast appeal to Moon for a job
Tobi: Well if you just give me the call I'm ready
Moon: Well one thing I will note when Tobi was talking about coaches he asked for advice on being a coach he didn't contact me at all? Even though we talked for hours?
Tobi: I only contacted the people I actually worked under. I didn't want to bother everyone with my questions. It's not like I could expect other coaches that don't know me as well would divulge their secrets
Moon: I would've. I think it would have been very cool if you asked for my help
Tobi: Well to be fair before you joined I did say Crusty NineK Moon and Rush were the coaches I really wanted to try working with
NineK: It's not too late Tobi he's here now
Aid: Anyways final thoughts from you Tobi?
Tobi: It's been a while since I got to see fans of Overwatch and sit down with fellow coaches. I hope you all keep supporting Overwatch University and myself in the future.
NineK and Aid: Thank you to Moon as well for helping us last minute.
Moon: It's no problem I saw Tobis face and wanted to join right away.

This can't be possible.
How did it got in?
The house's is locked, no windows open nor shattered.
Shattered.
Shattering.
It's shattering my mind, I, I can't-
I feels like I might scream from the pain.
I can't make any noise.
I can't afford to unless it finds me.
Where's the cellphone?
I need to call for help.
I- my head, it feels like my head is going to explode.
Why. Why is it here?
It's not even taking anything.
It's-
It's actively looking for something.
It's looking in every room.
It's looking for me.
It's going up the stairs.
I- I have to do something.
This thing, I can't-
It must be thinking that I can't see him in the dark.
In the middle of the night.
But I can.
I can see you.
You.
The moment you find me.
It will be over for me.
I can still hear you walking up the stairs, so slowly.
It's calling.
It's calling for me.
How,
How dare you have my-
My-
My voice.
It has my voice.
My clothes
My eyes
eyes.
It's looking.
Directly at me.
How?
Why?
It's not possible.
You are not me.
And yet, here you are.
Right in front of me.
This feeling.
This feeling of dread.
It's-
"It's a familiar feeling."
"A feeling so."
"So human."
It's getting closer.
"What's wrong? Why are you so scared?"
It's- My HEAD. MY HEAD! IT HURTS!
"Don't run. I am already inside. There is nowhere you can hide."
I- I have to get out of here!
My room!
I have to get in my room!
I- I can't just.
It's trying to open the door.
Where do i go?
WHERE DO I GO?
I HAVE TO-
"To do what exactly?"
...
"No one knows you're here."
"Just open the door."
"It will all be over soon."
My head! Why?! WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH?!
The other side of the room!
THE WINDOW!
I need to open that-
"Please open the door."
I Feel like I- I'm going to faint.
Every time it talks.
"Come on, you know me."
I- I have to open that window.
I have to focus on it.
Not on it.
On it, it's not-
"Am I not what?"
YOU ARE NOT ME.
"I am. In the way it matters."
YOU
ARE
NOT
"Of course I am."
I AM ME!
THERE'S ONLY ONE OF ME!
"No, actually. There's still thousands of you."
"It doesn't truly matter. They will be gone as well. For I am here."
The door.
The door is opening.
I almost have the window open!
THE DOOR!
"Don't struggle."
I have to open this damned window.
"Just accept it"
Almost!
"Stop pushing against the door and let me in."
ALMOST!
"Don't be afraid."
NO!
"Do not be afraid."
"The detective is on the seen right now, please stand aside."
The detective is walking inside the house.
The house is a mess.
"Ah! Detective, finally glad you made it."
The officer greeted the detective
"Another one?"
"Yes, unfortunately."
"Where?"
"Upstairs, looks like he was trying to get away through the windows, but can't get it to open in time."
Walking up the stairs, he doesn't feel ready to look at the scene, but he can't just ignore it either.
Once inside the room.
He needs to keep his mind intact. Don't panic. Just Focus.
Such a horrifying scene.
The body is hanging out the window a bit.
Trying to get a better look of the body, he walks closer to it, trying not to trip over it.
Blood all around the window.
The smell of decaying flesh.
"Detective."
The detective jumped from freight, turns around and pulled out his pistol.
Pointing at-
At-
At...
At himself.
"Really funny wiseguy! What would you think it would happen if I shot you?!"
"well..."
The face.
So smug.
His smug looking face.
"I would have been completely fine with it."
"I won't, the amount of paper work I would be doing if I did."
"Aaaahh, yes, now that is truly frightening."
"Care to remove that."
"What? The hat? But it matches your eyes."
"..."
"Fine."
The impostor proceeds to tear apart the flesh.
"Do you know how expensive that is! You can't just use it to freak people out."
"As expensive as I am sir."
Tearing apart the flesh, revealing the metal parts under it is still quite shocking to the detective, but it is much better than staring at the corpse.
"In all honesty, I am still not sure why it is a good idea to invent your kind."
"What? Afraid of an I-Robot situation? Afraid I might replace you?"
Finally removing the flesh suit, it disperses into millions upon millions of nanites into a container on the androids belt.
"No. Just getting the feeling you are enjoying this far too much."
"What isn't there to enjoy on disguising as the enemy to mentally break them down? If anything, you should be thanking my kind."
"For what?"
"For one thing."
They both stared at the body on the window next to them. And the hand that was trying to keep the door shut at the other side of the room.

Me (20) and my now ex-girlfriend (29) were together for a year (I was 19 and she was 28 when we met). We met due to studying the same course at university and we instantly hit it off. The start of our relationship was very intense. It felt perfect. We had an amazing connection, things seemed to flow so naturally, and things therefore moved very quickly. I even visited her home country and met her family after only a month of being together. We spent so much time together and we seemed perfect for each other. As a result, we both became very quickly attached to one another. Despite how perfect things were in the beginning, there were occasional glimpses of our own issues making their way into the relationship. For example, I started noticing small, sudden shifts in her moods and behaviour towards me. She was always so talkative, bubbly, and enthusiastic towards me, but there were a few instances during which she suddenly became more distant and silent, and her behaviour felt different than usual. This confused me, especially considering I didn’t know what the reason was. It left me guessing if there was perhaps a problem between us or if it was just a natural shift in her mood. Sometimes, it was due to her having a problem with me and other times it was just a natural fluctuation in her mood. However, I would always have to guess which one it was and as a result I started to become very aware of her moods and I felt like I had to start paying a lot of attention to the relationship to not accidentally upset or disappoint her in any way. When things were good between us, I rarely felt insecure, but when I suddenly started noticing shifts in her mood or behaviour towards me, I started to feel anxious and insecure.
To further elaborate, at times in the relationship, I found it difficult to read, predict, and understand her moods and her behaviour towards me: her behaviour felt inconsistent to me at times. One day she was super loving, talkative, and interested in me, and the next day it felt different. However, I didn't know if my feelings were justified or if I was simply overthinking and overanalysing her behaviour. Since she didn't tell me what was the matter even when I asked her, I was left confused and still guessing why there were these shifts in her mood.
She did tell me that she found it scary to trust others and, therefore, to be fully open with me. She told me that was why she would push me away sometimes, meaning that my feelings were not completely unjustified. She admitted herself that she could be a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. She was also older than me and more the independent type, and didn't always need a lot of attention, which is also an explanation for her change in behaviour. However, I didn't know that at the beginning of the relationship.
There were times where it felt like I had to follow an exact script on how to act or what to say to not upset her. She would become upset at times, because she didn’t think I appreciated her or because I didn’t give her the reaction she had in her mind. When I didn't live up to these unspoken expectations, she became more distant and silent (or even slightly pasisve aggressive), like I mentioned before. She wanted me to naturally know what she wanted, since in her mind it was obvious and she didn’t feel like she was a hard person to to read, but it wasn't obvious to me. This didn’t happen too often, but it still had an effect on me.
To give an example of how she could deal with these unspoken expectations, there was an instance when we did grocery shopping together. I paid for it at the time, but she told me to send her a payment request for half of it and when I did so a few days later, I immediately noticed a slight change in her energy towards me. When I questioned her about this, she told me that there was nothing wrong, but when I came round her place later that day. she was extremely cold and unaffectionate towards me. Her reaction was like I had cheated on her. I wasn't allowed to sit or be close to her, she was visibly upset, she wouldn't talk to me, and I had to sleep on the opposite side of the bed. I even mentioned if me sending her a payment request was an issue, but she told me that it was fine since she had told me that I could send her one. The next day she was hot and cold towards me, going from acting normally towards me to cold and distant again. Only after I became very upset and questioned her about it again did she tell me that the reason she was acting that way was because she wanted me to offer to pay for the groceries. She had paid for the groceries last time, so she wanted me to pay for them this time (I would have had no problem at all with paying, but since she told me to send her a payment request, I did). She told me that she became upset when I hadn't offered to do so naturally, which caused her to feel like I didn't appreciate or care about her enough. This was the most extreme example from our relationship, though. However, this situation caused me to lose some trust in her and her words.
Her behaviour wasn't intentional. It seemed to be due to a mix of her character and the things she had gone through in her past. It seemed like it was more of a coping/protective mechanism for her. She was aware of this, but her awareness wasn't always enough for her to cope in a different way.
In the cases where I felt like there was a shift in her behaviour, mood, or energy, it left me guessing if there was anything wrong. I had learned to associate a change in her mood as there potentially being something wrong. I was just afraid of there being a problem between us and not knowing about it, like the payment request situation (and other situations).
At times, my insecurities, anxious attachment, and my resulting codependency from this relationship significantly affected her and put a strain on the relationship. For example, there could be absolutely nothing wrong and I would create a problem out of nowhere. I was dependent on her for my happiness and if there was even a slight bit of attention focused on someone else, it would bother me. Sometimes, this would make me overly needy and controlling. This frustrated and triggered her a lot, because she also wanted to give other people attention and felt suffocated by my unreasonable demands. This was also a reoccurring pattern in the relationship.
My fear of there being a problem between us which I might not know about, my fear of not being as important to her as she was to me, and therefore, my fear of losing her became too strong at times, which caused me to become insecure and worried. Especially the times where my insecurity and worry was unjustified affected her a lot. During those times, she felt like I was causing issues for no reason and she felt upset and frustrated that, despite her giving me lots of attention the days before, I would still need reassurance and interpret her behaviour as there being something wrong between us. This made her feel drained, annoyed, suffocated, and upset.
Her reactions tended to be quite defensive and dismissive towards me. I understand her reaction, because her feelings were completely justified, but she chose to respond in those ways to vent her frustration. She would tell me that I was annoying, way too needy, that I should stop overthinking her behaviour, and that I should work on my insecurities. She was correct though. During these moments, I would become very apologetic. I just wanted things to be good between us. There were also times I felt like I was taking responsibility for things I didn't feel responsible for, just to make sure things were okay. She wasn't completely wrong regarding what she was saying to me, but it was harsh. It was absolutely not my intention to cause a problem or to frustrate or annoy her, but because it seemed to affect her enough for her to become so defensive, I thought that my behaviour was unacceptable and blamed myself a lot. I also started feeling like my feelings were completely irrational and therefore I started doubting myself more.
Therefore, at times, I felt like I was walking on eggshells. I was afraid of bringing up a situation in which I thought there was something wrong between us, because I was afraid of being wrong and her reactions tended to be quite defensive and dismissive. She also felt like she was walking on eggshells at times due to my tendency to overthink her behaviours. She didn’t want to cause a problem either, since even small shifts in her behaviour could worry me.
During the relationship, I could at times become jealous when I was insecure, for example when she spent time with her friends or family without me, either through texting or in real life. This would obviously frustrate her a lot and was one of the most difficult parts of the relationship for her, since she was just spending time with others and didn't see how that could be a cause of insecurity for me. I tended to be rational and calm when I was insecure or jealous, but there were occasional instances where that wasn't the case and I acted in a more passive aggressive or guilt-trippy manner. I am not usually a toxic person, but I did display some toxic behaviours at times during this relationship.
We both had past issues which we projected onto each other at times. The relationship was very intense and that meant there were also many highs and lows. We had a deep affection and care for one another and we both thought the relationship was too good to be true. For me, it felt too good to be true be in a relationship for the first time and to have a romantic experience with someone I cared so much about, because I had never experienced that before. For her, it felt too good to be true that I was so kind and caring to her, because she had never felt that before from anyone else to this extent. She had always felt let down by people before in her life and she couldn’t believe that I wasn't like them. We were both afraid of losing each other. For me, it was expressed by going above and beyond for her, a tendency to be more clingy and have a need for reassurance, wanting to always feel close and connected with her, and things like that. For her, it seemed like she could show a combination of becoming distant and pushing me away, but also becoming very vulnerable at times too and showing me lots of love and affection.
My ex told me a lot about her past trauma and how life had been quite difficult for her the past few years. Her grandmother had passed away a 6 years ago and during that time she lost her group of friends (which included her best friend) after a big conflict in which she felt unfairly treated. It seemed like she had had quite a few friendships in which she didn’t feel like her needs were being met and she tended te feel unfairly treated. It was a reoccurring theme in her life.
Her other grandmother passed away ahalf a year before we met. She didn’t really have many friendships to rely on either at that time, because she studied abroad and her friends and family were obviously not present to support her. She also struggled a lot with academic stress during our time together. She had failed a few exams and fell behind, which compounded her struggles, especially since she was still grieving the loss of her grandmother. Then, her family dog passed away very suddenly 10 months into our relationship. It felt like her dog passing away was the last drop that made the bucket overflow. She loved that dog so much and it really affected her. Her grief was very intense. These incidents played a massive role in her mood shifts, especially considering she is an emotionally sensitive person and her moods already seemed quite easily affected at times.
She wasn’t emotionally stable and her emotional regulation seemed to be lacking at times too, especially considering she was 29. I was 9 years younger than her and in general life situations, I felt like the more stable and mature person for most of the relationship. I didn’t always act that way during our conflicts, though, but in general life it seemed like I was more regulated and rational. I was also the one who tended to take on a more caretaker role in the relationship due to my codependency.
Her emotions could be intense and easily triggered by other people or life stressors. She tended to attribute her behaviour and reactions more on external factors, such as her past experiences or the bad things happening currently in her life. Of course, she did take responsibility too, but often after the fact. Initially, it always felt like the world was against her. She was often the one feeling the most hurt from her past friendships. It was hard to not feel bad for her.
As a result, during the last two months of the relationship (after her family dog passed away), her emotional instability reached its peak. It was like her world fell apart. Her moods were very up and down, and she had depressive episodes during which she broke down crying a lot. During that time, I was pretty much her only emotional support. I took care of her a lot during that period. Things became very draining for me. Towards the end, I had given everything I had for her and had put all of her needs above mine. I felt more like a parent than a boyfriend. During this difficult period, we started triggering each other more frequently. I was often worried about her well-being due to her not taking care of herself very well during this period. I was starting to find it very hard to be supportive since I had become emotionally numb around that point. I had nothing left in me anymore. When I mentioned to her that I felt drained, she would feel upset. She interpreted it as me saying that her emotions was too much and she felt invalidated. Granted, I could have worded it more clearly, but I definitely didn't say it how she interpreted it. Towards the end, my behaviour also became slightly passive aggressive and controlling/possessive at times (I told her once that it bothered me how much she was texting her friends and that I wished she would text them less), and I had made an insensitive comment. I mentioned to her that I had become slightly less attracted to her and that she had gained some weight. I had become a caretaker for her, she wasn’t really taking care of herself, and I felt like this relationship was very draining to be in, and as a result I found myself feeling slightly less attracted to her. This feeling really bothered me, because I didn't want to feel that way. I loved her and wanted to feel 100% attracted to her. I thought it would be best to simply be honest with her. However, I should have worded it differently, because it obviously hurt her a lot. I should have not made it about her attractiveness or weight. I did apologise a lot and tried to reassure her that I did still find her attractive, but the damage was already done. I meant well, but I was very naïve in thinking that bringing that up was not going to have an effect on her. That is a harsh lesson learned from my side. I still feel bad about it.
However, I also felt very unfairly treated by her during that last part of our relationship. I did so much for her during that period relationship, yet she still managed to interpret some of my behaviour as me not caring enough sometimes. She seemed to become upset more frequently about very small matters and at times it seemed like she was nit-picking problems or finding reasons to become upset at me. This resulted in her becoming distant and passive aggressive towards me. That was very frustrating and exhausting to deal with, especially when I was already starting to become emotionally drained. She would say things like “Sorry for existing then” or “I guess I’ll just stop that then” when I felt bothered by something. This was also due time her own struggles and her grief at the time, so I fully understand.
Towards the end, my needs were not getting met. I just wanted to help her through this immensely tough period and it was more important to me that her needs were met than mine. I just wanted to see her happy, because as long as she was happy, I was happy.
Overall, she was generally a very loving, funny, kind woman who obviously cared a lot for me. We created so many amazing memories together and I will never forget her or the relationship. At times, things would be absolutely perfect between us and it felt like a dream. The relationship wasn’t constantly negative. We shared periods of stability and there are many examples of times when we were able to communicate in a loving and healthy manner. We shared a real love and had an amazing connection with one another. We were together for a year so that obviously counts for something.
The relationship became unhealthy for both of us, especially towards the end. There were toxic behaviours from both sides rooted in our own issues. However, there were also periods of stability and calm. It wasn't always a constant rollercoaster. Looking back, I believe we we did share more good memories with each other than bad ones, but in the end the relationship seemed to reach a point beyond repair. She felt very drained by my constant overthinking, and my insecurity and jealousy. She felt like she had to constantly prove herself as a result, which upset her a lot. She already had her own struggles and it seemed like my insecurities became too much for her and that the relationship became too unhealthy and upsetting towards the end. This was my experience so it will undoubtedly be biased in some ways. However, it is still a valid experience and I have tried to acknowledge her side as well.

This can't be possible.
How did it got in?
The house's is locked, no windows open nor shattered.
Shattered.
Shattering.
It's shattering my mind, I, I can't-
I feels like I might scream from the pain.
I can't make any noise.
I can't afford to unless it finds me.
Where's the cellphone?
I need to call for help.
I- my head, it feels like my head is going to explode.
Why. Why is it here?
It's not even taking anything.
It's-
It's actively looking for something.
It's looking in every room.
It's looking for me.
It's going up the stairs.
I- I have to do something.
This thing, I can't-
It must be thinking that I can't see him in the dark.
In the middle of the night.
But I can.
I can see you.
You.
The moment you find me.
It will be over for me.
I can still hear you walking up the stairs, so slowly.
It's calling.
It's calling for me.
How,
How dare you have my-
My-
My voice.
It has my voice.
My clothes
My eyes
eyes.
It's looking.
Directly at me.
How?
Why?
It's not possible.
You are not me.
And yet, here you are.
Right in front of me.
This feeling.
This feeling of dread.
It's-
"It's a familiar feeling."
"A feeling so."
"So human."
It's getting closer.
"What's wrong? Why are you so scared?"
It's- My HEAD. MY HEAD! IT HURTS!
"Don't run. I am already inside. There is nowhere you can hide."
I- I have to get out of here!
My room!
I have to get in my room!
I- I can't just.
It's trying to open the door.
Where do i go?
WHERE DO I GO?
I HAVE TO-
"To do what exactly?"
...
"No one knows you're here."
"Just open the door."
"It will all be over soon."
My head! Why?! WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH?!
The other side of the room!
THE WINDOW!
I need to open that-
"Please open the door."
I Feel like I- I'm going to faint.
Every time it talks.
"Come on, you know me."
I- I have to open that window.
I have to focus on it.
Not on it.
On it, it's not-
"Am I not what?"
YOU ARE NOT ME.
"I am. In the way it matters."
YOU
ARE
NOT
"Of course I am."
I AM ME!
THERE'S ONLY ONE OF ME!
"No, actually. There's still thousands of you."
"It doesn't truly matter. They will be gone as well. For I am here."
The door.
The door is opening.
I almost have the window open!
THE DOOR!
"Don't struggle."
I have to open this damned window.
"Just accept it"
Almost!
"Stop pushing against the door and let me in."
ALMOST!
"Don't be afraid."
NO!
"Do not be afraid."
"The detective is on the seen right now, please stand aside."
The detective is walking inside the house.
The house is a mess.
"Ah! Detective, finally glad you made it."
The officer greeted the detective
"Another one?"
"Yes, unfortunately."
"Where?"
"Upstairs, looks like he was trying to get away through the windows, but can't get it to open in time."
Walking up the stairs, he doesn't feel ready to look at the scene, but he can't just ignore it either.
Once inside the room.
He needs to keep his mind intact. Don't panic. Just Focus.
Such a horrifying scene.
The body is hanging out the window a bit.
Trying to get a better look of the body, he walks closer to it, trying not to trip over it.
Blood all around the window.
The smell of decaying flesh.
"Detective."
The detective jumped from freight, turns around and pulled out his pistol.
Pointing at-
At-
At...
At himself.
"Really funny wiseguy! What would you think it would happen if I shot you?!"
"well..."
The face.
So smug.
His smug looking face.
"I would have been completely fine with it."
"I won't, the amount of paper work I would be doing if I did."
"Aaaahh, yes, now that is truly frightening."
"Care to remove that."
"What? The hat? But it matches your eyes."
"..."
"Fine."
The impostor proceeds to tear apart the flesh.
"Do you know how expensive that is! You can't just use it to freak people out."
"As expensive as I am sir."
Tearing apart the flesh, revealing the metal parts under it is still quite shocking to the detective, but it is much better than staring at the corpse.
"In all honesty, I am still not sure why it is a good idea to invent your kind."
"What? Afraid of an I-Robot situation? Afraid I might replace you?"
Finally removing the flesh suit, it disperses into millions upon millions of nanites into a container on the androids belt.
"No. Just getting the feeling you are enjoying this far too much."
"What isn't there to enjoy on disguising as the enemy to mentally break them down? If anything, you should be thanking my kind."
"For what?"
"For one thing."
They both stared at the body on the window next to them. And the hand that was trying to keep the door shut at the other side of the room.

Me (20) and my now ex-girlfriend (29) were together for a year (I was 19 and she was 28 when we met). We met due to studying the same course at university and we instantly hit it off. The start of our relationship was very intense. It felt perfect. We had an amazing connection, things seemed to flow so naturally, and things therefore moved very quickly. I even visited her home country and met her family after only a month of being together. We spent so much time together and we seemed perfect for each other. As a result, we both became very quickly attached to one another. Despite how perfect things were in the beginning, there were occasional glimpses of our own issues making their way into the relationship. For example, I started noticing small, sudden shifts in her moods and behaviour towards me. She was always so talkative, bubbly, and enthusiastic towards me, but there were a few instances during which she suddenly became more distant and silent, and her behaviour felt different than usual. This confused me, especially considering I didn’t know what the reason was. It left me guessing if there was perhaps a problem between us or if it was just a natural shift in her mood. Sometimes, it was due to her having a problem with me and other times it was just a natural fluctuation in her mood. However, I would always have to guess which one it was and as a result I started to become very aware of her moods and I felt like I had to start paying a lot of attention to the relationship to not accidentally upset or disappoint her in any way. When things were good between us, I rarely felt insecure, but when I suddenly started noticing shifts in her mood or behaviour towards me, I started to feel anxious and insecure.
To further elaborate, at times in the relationship, I found it difficult to read, predict, and understand her moods and her behaviour towards me: her behaviour felt inconsistent to me at times. One day she was super loving, talkative, and interested in me, and the next day it felt different. However, I didn't know if my feelings were justified or if I was simply overthinking and overanalysing her behaviour. Since she didn't tell me what was the matter even when I asked her, I was left confused and still guessing why there were these shifts in her mood.
She did tell me that she found it scary to trust others and, therefore, to be fully open with me. She told me that was why she would push me away sometimes, meaning that my feelings were not completely unjustified. She admitted herself that she could be a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. She was also older than me and more the independent type, and didn't always need a lot of attention, which is also an explanation for her change in behaviour. However, I didn't know that at the beginning of the relationship.
There were times where it felt like I had to follow an exact script on how to act or what to say to not upset her. She would become upset at times, because she didn’t think I appreciated her or because I didn’t give her the reaction she had in her mind. When I didn't live up to these unspoken expectations, she became more distant and silent (or even slightly pasisve aggressive), like I mentioned before. She wanted me to naturally know what she wanted, since in her mind it was obvious and she didn’t feel like she was a hard person to to read, but it wasn't obvious to me. This didn’t happen too often, but it still had an effect on me.
To give an example of how she could deal with these unspoken expectations, there was an instance when we did grocery shopping together. I paid for it at the time, but she told me to send her a payment request for half of it and when I did so a few days later, I immediately noticed a slight change in her energy towards me. When I questioned her about this, she told me that there was nothing wrong, but when I came round her place later that day. she was extremely cold and unaffectionate towards me. Her reaction was like I had cheated on her. I wasn't allowed to sit or be close to her, she was visibly upset, she wouldn't talk to me, and I had to sleep on the opposite side of the bed. I even mentioned if me sending her a payment request was an issue, but she told me that it was fine since she had told me that I could send her one. The next day she was hot and cold towards me, going from acting normally towards me to cold and distant again. Only after I became very upset and questioned her about it again did she tell me that the reason she was acting that way was because she wanted me to offer to pay for the groceries. She had paid for the groceries last time, so she wanted me to pay for them this time (I would have had no problem at all with paying, but since she told me to send her a payment request, I did). She told me that she became upset when I hadn't offered to do so naturally, which caused her to feel like I didn't appreciate or care about her enough. This was the most extreme example from our relationship, though. However, this situation caused me to lose some trust in her and her words.
Her behaviour wasn't intentional. It seemed to be due to a mix of her character and the things she had gone through in her past. It seemed like it was more of a coping/protective mechanism for her. She was aware of this, but her awareness wasn't always enough for her to cope in a different way.
In the cases where I felt like there was a shift in her behaviour, mood, or energy, it left me guessing if there was anything wrong. I had learned to associate a change in her mood as there potentially being something wrong. I was just afraid of there being a problem between us and not knowing about it, like the payment request situation (and other situations).
At times, my insecurities, anxious attachment, and my resulting codependency from this relationship significantly affected her and put a strain on the relationship. For example, there could be absolutely nothing wrong and I would create a problem out of nowhere. I was dependent on her for my happiness and if there was even a slight bit of attention focused on someone else, it would bother me. Sometimes, this would make me overly needy and controlling. This frustrated and triggered her a lot, because she also wanted to give other people attention and felt suffocated by my unreasonable demands. This was also a reoccurring pattern in the relationship.
My fear of there being a problem between us which I might not know about, my fear of not being as important to her as she was to me, and therefore, my fear of losing her became too strong at times, which caused me to become insecure and worried. Especially the times where my insecurity and worry was unjustified affected her a lot. During those times, she felt like I was causing issues for no reason and she felt upset and frustrated that, despite her giving me lots of attention the days before, I would still need reassurance and interpret her behaviour as there being something wrong between us. This made her feel drained, annoyed, suffocated, and upset.
Her reactions tended to be quite defensive and dismissive towards me. I understand her reaction, because her feelings were completely justified, but she chose to respond in those ways to vent her frustration. She would tell me that I was annoying, way too needy, that I should stop overthinking her behaviour, and that I should work on my insecurities. She was correct though. During these moments, I would become very apologetic. I just wanted things to be good between us. There were also times I felt like I was taking responsibility for things I didn't feel responsible for, just to make sure things were okay. She wasn't completely wrong regarding what she was saying to me, but it was harsh. It was absolutely not my intention to cause a problem or to frustrate or annoy her, but because it seemed to affect her enough for her to become so defensive, I thought that my behaviour was unacceptable and blamed myself a lot. I also started feeling like my feelings were completely irrational and therefore I started doubting myself more.
Therefore, at times, I felt like I was walking on eggshells. I was afraid of bringing up a situation in which I thought there was something wrong between us, because I was afraid of being wrong and her reactions tended to be quite defensive and dismissive. She also felt like she was walking on eggshells at times due to my tendency to overthink her behaviours. She didn’t want to cause a problem either, since even small shifts in her behaviour could worry me.
During the relationship, I could at times become jealous when I was insecure, for example when she spent time with her friends or family without me, either through texting or in real life. This would obviously frustrate her a lot and was one of the most difficult parts of the relationship for her, since she was just spending time with others and didn't see how that could be a cause of insecurity for me. I tended to be rational and calm when I was insecure or jealous, but there were occasional instances where that wasn't the case and I acted in a more passive aggressive or guilt-trippy manner. I am not usually a toxic person, but I did display some toxic behaviours at times during this relationship.
We both had past issues which we projected onto each other at times. The relationship was very intense and that meant there were also many highs and lows. We had a deep affection and care for one another and we both thought the relationship was too good to be true. For me, it felt too good to be true be in a relationship for the first time and to have a romantic experience with someone I cared so much about, because I had never experienced that before. For her, it felt too good to be true that I was so kind and caring to her, because she had never felt that before from anyone else to this extent. She had always felt let down by people before in her life and she couldn’t believe that I wasn't like them. We were both afraid of losing each other. For me, it was expressed by going above and beyond for her, a tendency to be more clingy and have a need for reassurance, wanting to always feel close and connected with her, and things like that. For her, it seemed like she could show a combination of becoming distant and pushing me away, but also becoming very vulnerable at times too and showing me lots of love and affection.
My ex told me a lot about her past trauma and how life had been quite difficult for her the past few years. Her grandmother had passed away a 6 years ago and during that time she lost her group of friends (which included her best friend) after a big conflict in which she felt unfairly treated. It seemed like she had had quite a few friendships in which she didn’t feel like her needs were being met and she tended te feel unfairly treated. It was a reoccurring theme in her life.
Her other grandmother passed away ahalf a year before we met. She didn’t really have many friendships to rely on either at that time, because she studied abroad and her friends and family were obviously not present to support her. She also struggled a lot with academic stress during our time together. She had failed a few exams and fell behind, which compounded her struggles, especially since she was still grieving the loss of her grandmother. Then, her family dog passed away very suddenly 10 months into our relationship. It felt like her dog passing away was the last drop that made the bucket overflow. She loved that dog so much and it really affected her. Her grief was very intense. These incidents played a massive role in her mood shifts, especially considering she is an emotionally sensitive person and her moods already seemed quite easily affected at times.
She wasn’t emotionally stable and her emotional regulation seemed to be lacking at times too, especially considering she was 29. I was 9 years younger than her and in general life situations, I felt like the more stable and mature person for most of the relationship. I didn’t always act that way during our conflicts, though, but in general life it seemed like I was more regulated and rational. I was also the one who tended to take on a more caretaker role in the relationship due to my codependency.
Her emotions could be intense and easily triggered by other people or life stressors. She tended to attribute her behaviour and reactions more on external factors, such as her past experiences or the bad things happening currently in her life. Of course, she did take responsibility too, but often after the fact. Initially, it always felt like the world was against her. She was often the one feeling the most hurt from her past friendships. It was hard to not feel bad for her.
As a result, during the last two months of the relationship (after her family dog passed away), her emotional instability reached its peak. It was like her world fell apart. Her moods were very up and down, and she had depressive episodes during which she broke down crying a lot. During that time, I was pretty much her only emotional support. I took care of her a lot during that period. Things became very draining for me. Towards the end, I had given everything I had for her and had put all of her needs above mine. I felt more like a parent than a boyfriend. During this difficult period, we started triggering each other more frequently. I was often worried about her well-being due to her not taking care of herself very well during this period. I was starting to find it very hard to be supportive since I had become emotionally numb around that point. I had nothing left in me anymore. When I mentioned to her that I felt drained, she would feel upset. She interpreted it as me saying that her emotions was too much and she felt invalidated. Granted, I could have worded it more clearly, but I definitely didn't say it how she interpreted it. Towards the end, my behaviour also became slightly passive aggressive and controlling/possessive at times (I told her once that it bothered me how much she was texting her friends and that I wished she would text them less), and I had made an insensitive comment. I mentioned to her that I had become slightly less attracted to her and that she had gained some weight. I had become a caretaker for her, she wasn’t really taking care of herself, and I felt like this relationship was very draining to be in, and as a result I found myself feeling slightly less attracted to her. This feeling really bothered me, because I didn't want to feel that way. I loved her and wanted to feel 100% attracted to her. I thought it would be best to simply be honest with her. However, I should have worded it differently, because it obviously hurt her a lot. I should have not made it about her attractiveness or weight. I did apologise a lot and tried to reassure her that I did still find her attractive, but the damage was already done. I meant well, but I was very naïve in thinking that bringing that up was not going to have an effect on her. That is a harsh lesson learned from my side. I still feel bad about it.
However, I also felt very unfairly treated by her during that last part of our relationship. I did so much for her during that period relationship, yet she still managed to interpret some of my behaviour as me not caring enough sometimes. She seemed to become upset more frequently about very small matters and at times it seemed like she was nit-picking problems or finding reasons to become upset at me. This resulted in her becoming distant and passive aggressive towards me. That was very frustrating and exhausting to deal with, especially when I was already starting to become emotionally drained. She would say things like “Sorry for existing then” or “I guess I’ll just stop that then” when I felt bothered by something. This was also due time her own struggles and her grief at the time, so I fully understand.
Towards the end, my needs were not getting met. I just wanted to help her through this immensely tough period and it was more important to me that her needs were met than mine. I just wanted to see her happy, because as long as she was happy, I was happy.
Overall, she was generally a very loving, funny, kind woman who obviously cared a lot for me. We created so many amazing memories together and I will never forget her or the relationship. At times, things would be absolutely perfect between us and it felt like a dream. The relationship wasn’t constantly negative. We shared periods of stability and there are many examples of times when we were able to communicate in a loving and healthy manner. We shared a real love and had an amazing connection with one another. We were together for a year so that obviously counts for something.
The relationship became unhealthy for both of us, especially towards the end. There were toxic behaviours from both sides rooted in our own issues. However, there were also periods of stability and calm. It wasn't always a constant rollercoaster. Looking back, I believe we we did share more good memories with each other than bad ones, but in the end the relationship seemed to reach a point beyond repair. She felt very drained by my constant overthinking, and my insecurity and jealousy. She felt like she had to constantly prove herself as a result, which upset her a lot. She already had her own struggles and it seemed like my insecurities became too much for her and that the relationship became too unhealthy and upsetting towards the end. This was my experience so it will undoubtedly be biased in some ways. However, it is still a valid experience and I have tried to acknowledge her side as well.