As many of you may have read, there is a case of two missing adopted kids in North Carolina, where remains have been found. The news has reported that their adoptive “mother” is Avantae Deven.
I’m a curious person and started digging up information on Avantae Deven when I first read the story in my news feed and could not believe what I was reading. It seemed like whomever this woman is must have be using an alias; Avantae Deven is not a name like Kim Jones or Mackenzie Smith.
The more I dug, the weirder it seemed to get. I found a property deed to a place in Sedona, Arizona, and figured out that whomever this Avantae person is, she at one point in time had owned a home together with someone named Nicole Adams. So I dug into who Nicole Adams was, and learned that she was the widow of a spiritual leader named Robert Adams. It appeared to me that there would be no way to identify who Avantae really was, unless I could also identify the true identity of Robert Adams.
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I've done investigative work for many years, including skip tracing. I can conclusively state that there was absolutely no person actually named Robert Adams born in New York State on January 21, 1928. This is demonstrated by the New York Birth Index. I have combed the census records for 1930, 1940, and 1950, and cross-checked them against multiple databases, and am confident that nobody with the birth name of Robert Adams was born anywhere in the United States on January 21, 1928.
Moreover, there was absolutely no person with the true name of Robert Adams who died anywhere at all in the United States, let alone Sedona, Arizona, on March 2, 1997. This is demonstrated by the Social Security Death Index.
I began this research largely by performing exhaustive searches on the known addresses that are associated with Robert, his wife Leonie (who used to use the alias Nicole), and Avantae Deven (who turns out to be their daughter Michelle who began using the alias Avantae in the mid-1990’s or so). Most of the addresses are PO boxes. Those that are PO boxes are all *private* PO boxes, not PO boxes that one can rent from the United States Postal Service. To me, that spoke volumes. The family were clearly using aliases.
As I explain further below, I eventually determined that “Robert Adams” was Robert Spiegel, born 21 January 1932 in New York. “Nicole Adams” was actually Aileen Beverly Leonie Maxwell, born February 2, 1929, in Jamaica. “Avantae Deven” is actually their daughter, Michelle K. Spiegel, born on October 1, 1960, in California.
One of Robert’s many false stories about Robert’s life that my research has refuted is Robert’s claim that his mother was Jewish and his father was Catholic. That was a lie. Both of his parents were Jewish. It’s also interesting that he claimed that he was “raised Catholic.” There is absolutely nothing to suggest that. His mother always, in New York, lived in Jewish neighborhoods. Moreover, as will be discussed below, his parents had a Jewish wedding. It’s also downright absurd that he would tell people that he was “half Jewish.” If your mother’s Jewish, you are Jewish, pure and simple. Even if Robert’s father had truly been Catholic (which he wasn’t; his name was Samuel Spiegel and he immigrated to America in 1907, lived with his Jewish, Yiddish-speaking cousins, and spoke Yiddish himself), Robert would have been Jewish because the status of being a Jew comes from the mother. Robert’s mother’s name was Fannie (nee Fleisfeder) Spiegel. Fannie’s parents were Itzik Fleisfeder and Esther Libke (nee Rifkin) Fleisfeder. Esther’s parents were Mendel Rifkin and Sarah whose maiden name is lost to time and the disappearance of the shtetls. Robert’s claim to having had a Catholic father was utterly false, but is part and parcel of his ongoing compulsive daily lying about anything and everything.
Here is the story.
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Kolomyia, formerly known as Kolomea, is a city currently located in the Western Ukraine.
On January 21, 1892 (the same year that Kolomea tallis¹ workers went on strike for better pay and working conditions), Kolomea resident Rachel Katz, wife of Abraham Spiegel, gave birth to a son, who was given the name Schmuel.
On the date that Schmuel Spiegel entered the world, Kolomea was ruled by the Austro-Hungarian Monarchy, and almost half of the city’s residents were Jewish.
In June of 1907, fifteen-year-old Schmuel² boarded the Zeeland, which sailed from Antwerp, Belgium, arriving at New York Harbor on June 18, 1907. The ship’s manifest states that Schmuel’s father had paid for his transport, and that Schmuel intended to reside with his father, Abe, in Brooklyn. Schmuel was granted entrance, and took up residence with his cousin Charles Fetner, who resided at 353 Myrtle Avenue, Brooklyn, in Apartment A with his wife Jennie and their baby daughter Ettie. The sparse record that exists suggests that although Schmuel’s father was, indeed, named Abraham, Abraham lived and died in Europe, without immigrating to America.
The 1910 census describes Samuel’s cousin Charles as a carpenter, who had been married to housewife Jennie for six years, and a father of three children-- Ettie age four, Nathan age two, and baby Jacob, who was not even a year old. Eighteen-year-old Samuel was identified by profession as a “Foreman Sailmaker” in an industry described as “pocket-books.”
Three and a half years after being granted admission, on a bitterly cold winter day, January 4, 1911, Schmuel (now employed as a pocket-book maker, and having Anglicized his name to Samuel) signed and submitted his declaration to become a United States citizen. He stated, in that declaration, that he was born on January 21, 1892.
By 1915, Samuel had left his cousin’s abode and was residing as a lodger in the home of a widow named Rose Hammer, who lived with her two adolescent sons, Meyer and Louis, at 531 E. 5^th Avenue; Samuel was now working as a “driver.”
Two years after the 1915 state census was taken, Samuel had moved back to Myrtle Avenue, but this time at building no. 849. On June 15, 2017, Samuel registered for the draft, and described himself as being a pocketbook maker, working for “A. Shoenfeld,” at 101 Crosby Street, New York. He was single. He stated, in his draft registration, that he was born on January 21, 1892.
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A woman named Fruma Fleisfeder was born in Beltz, Bessarabia, sometime between July 1, 1893, and 1901, to Itzik Fleisfeder and Esther Lieba Rifkin. Fruma (not living up to her pious given name) provided different dates and years of birth to different authorities on different occasions, making it impossible at this point in time to know her true position in the birth order of her family. Regardless, Fruma, who began using the name Fanny upon her entrance to the United States, did have three brothers and a sister who also came to America-- Louis Fleisfeder who was born April 10, 1890, Max Irving Fleisfeder who used October 10, 1892 as his birthdate, Hersch (later known as Harry), whose official birthdate was December 15, 1901, and Sylvia who was born in approximately 1906.
On December 1, 1919, Fruma arrived in New York Harbor on the ship La Touraine, declaring her intention, at entry, to become a United States Citizen. The ship’s manifest describes her as five feet five inches tall, with fair hair, blue eyes, and a fair complexion. The ship’s manifest states that she was, at that time, age 24. If that were correct, she would have been born in 1895.
Fruma (then going by Fanny) took up residence with her cousin Ethel (nee Ruchlin) and Ethel’s husband Samuel Steinberg, on 15^th Street, Brooklyn. Soon thereafter, Ethel gave birth to her first child, a daughter named Theresa. The 1920 census states that Fanny was Russian, didn’t speak English but, rather, spoke Hebrew, and worked as a milliner in a millinery store. The 1920 census also states that Fanny was age 25, which lines up with her being age 24 in the prior year’s ship manifest.
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Sam and Fanny married in Manhattan on January 24, 1925. Their marriage certificate (signed by each of them) identifies Sam as being age 32 (contradicting, by one year, his immigration records which would have placed him at age 33), and identifies Fanny as age 24, the same age that she had claimed to be six years prior, and also contradicting an immigration petition that she would file two decades in the future, which generally placed her birth year at the mid-point of 1893.
If Fanny’s immigration records (which included a petition with her signature on it) were correct, Fanny would also have been age 32 as of her marriage to Samuel, not age 24.
So did Fanny lie in her marriage certificate? Or did she lie in her immigration petition?
The marriage certificate identifies Sam as having been born in Kolomea, Austria, and his father being Abraham, and his mother being Rachel Katz. It identifies Fanny as having been born in Beltz, Russia, to a father named Isaac, and to a mother named Esther Rifkin.
The marriage certificate does not identify Fanny as having any profession, but identifies Sam as being a pocketbook maker.
Sam and Fannie were married at 125 E. 4^th Street, Manhattan, a six-story apartment building with retail units on the ground floor that is now an expensive co-op, with three-bedroom units selling for over $900,000. Present-day real estate advertisements alternatively state that the building was built in 1894, 1903, and 1905.
The first name of the rabbi who officiated was Harry. His surname starts with Reid, but the remaining letters of his signature are illegible. Rabbi Harry identified his residence as 232 Broome Street, which, at the time, was a four-story mixed use building that, among other things, housed Chevrah Ahavath Zedek Anshei Jaskinover.
Witnesses to the marriage were Mayer Budmon and Samuel Steinberg.
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Sam and Fanny’s existence was documented next in the 1925 New York State census by census. They were living at 205 S. 2^nd Street. Samuel was still working as a “pocketbook maker.” Fanny was identified as a “housewife.”
Fanny was identified as age 25. This was in accordance with her age as stated on her marriage certificate, but not in accordance with her immigration documents or the 1920 census.
Sam was identified as being age 28, which conflicted with all prior records.
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In 1930, the couple were again enumerated, this time in the Federal census. The enumerator, whose signature appears to be “Max Krahn” (or something like that) stated that he obtained the information on April 16, 1930.
Sam was identified as a “framer” of pocketbooks. He was identified as being 36 years of age, which conflicts by two years with the age that he provided to immigration authorities. Perhaps the enumerator was simply sloppy; Samuel was also incorrectly identified in the 1930 census as having been born in “Poland,” with parents who were both also born in “Poland,” notwithstanding other governmental records having identified him as being Austrian. The language he spoke? “Jewish,” according to the enumerator. Was that to mean Hebrew? Yiddish? Both?
Fannie was identified as age 30 (directly in conflict with the information she supplied in her immigration petition, which bears her signature) and as being “Russian,” with parents born in “Russia.” The 1930 census enumerator incorrectly wrote that her year of immigration was 1921. Fannie, too, was identified by the enumerator as speaking the “Jewish” language.
Although later records reflected that Sam and Fannie had a son named Irving who was born in 1926, Irving was not recorded in the 1930 census. Was he missed by the enumerator? Or was he a later-adopted son?
The couple also had a boarder, identified by the 1930 enumerator as one Esther “Larson,” age 40, born in Russia, and similarly a speaker of the “Jewish” language.
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The New York Birth Index identifies a baby boy, Robert Spiegel, as one of many babies having been born in the city on January 21, 1932.
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On May 21, 1936, Samuel committed suicide by hanging in the family residence, a tenement apartment located at 1168 Union Avenue, in the Bronx. Although, based upon the date of birth that Samuel used for official governmental purposes he was age 44, the death certificate stated that he was age 43.
Fannie engaged the Gordon Funeral Home to prepare him for burial.
Strangely, although Samuel’s headstone accurately identified him in Hebrew as Schmuel Spiegel, son of Avraham, it inexplicably incorrectly stated that he died at age 40.
Fannie of course knew her husband’s real age; both of them signed the marriage certificate that had Samuel’s correct age listed. Furthermore, Samuel had petitioned for citizenship in 1911, and stated that his date of birth was January 18, 1892.
Why would Fannie commission a headstone with a false age? Perhaps she, like her son, was a compulsive liar. Maybe that’s where Robert got it from.
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The 1940 census has Fannie (identified as age 38), Robert (identified as age 8), and Fannie’s son/Robert’s brother, Irving Spiegel, age 13, as living with Fannie’s 72-year-old mother, Esther Fleisfeder, at 1537 Fulton Avenue, in the Bronx. Fannie and Esther were identified as widows. Esther was identified as “U” (unable to work), while Fannie was identified as engaged in housework. No source of income for the family was identified.
No explanation is obvious regarding where Irving was living in the census taken a decade previously. Was he adopted?
There is no “Irving Spiegel” listed in the New York Birth Index for either 1926 or 1927. There is an “Irving Spiegal” listed, who was born April 29, 1926. But he is not Irving Spiegel.
I initially thought that perhaps Irving might be one of the unnamed Baby Boy Spiegels born in New York in 1926 or 1927, and that he left the hospital unnamed because his parents were waiting for his bris before naming him. However, Robert left the hospital with the name Robert. Why wait until the bris to name one child, but not the other?
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Slightly less than two years after she was enumerated in the 1940 census, Fannie’s mother Esther died, at home, at 1537 Fulton Avenue. The causes of death were “Coronary Thrombosis, Pulmonary Oedema Nephritis, Hypertension, Arteriosclerosis.” Esther left this world on February 6, 1942, the same day that the W. L. Steed was torpedoed, shelled and sunk less than a hundred nautical miles east of the mouth of Delaware River by a German submarine.
She was buried at Mount Moriah Cemetery in Fairview, New Jersey, the same cemetery where her son-in-law Samuel was interred.
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On November 12, 1943, Fannie, now residing at 1985 Bathgate Avenue, in the Bronx, petitioned for citizenship. She claimed, in that document bearing her signature, to be fifty years of age, meaning that if she was telling the truth, she would have been born in approximately 1893.
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On January 19, 1948, Robert (having assumed a false date of birth, that being January 18, 1931), enlisted in the New York National Guard. On paper, he had turned age 17 the day before his enlistment. In reality, he would be turning age 16 two days after his enlistment.
On December 9, 1949, Robert was discharged from the national guard, apparently for having been AWOL.
The discharge document identifies his address as being 1985 Bathgate Avenue, New York City.
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The 1950 census places Robert again at 1985 Bathgate Avenue, New York City. It correctly identifies him as age 18, and states that he worked as a shipping clerk for a newspaper company.
According to the 1950 census, Robert resided at the Bathgate Avenue address with his mother Fannie, who was purportedly still age 50 (seven years after she had previously claimed to immigration authorities to be age 50), and Robert’s brother Irving, age 24.
Irving was listed as unemployed and moreover, according to the census record, had not worked for the prior year. Fannie was employed full-time as a milliner in a hat factory.
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Military records reflect that Irving J. Spiegel, born in 1926 and a resident of 1985 Bathgate Avenue, who had completed two years of high school education, had flown bomber planes over Germany during the war. In his military documents, Irving described himself as single, with two dependents.
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On February 2, 1929, a baby girl given the name Aileen Beverly Leone Maxwell was born in Lucea, Hanover, Jamaica, to William Maxwell and Daisy (nee Tibbits) Maxwell. Her birth was registered by her parents.
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In 1954, Robert Spiegel and Aileen Maxwell were married in New York City. Their marriage license was given License No. 10284.
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The following year, the Kingston, Jamaica, Gleaner reported on June 6, 1955:
Miss Leonie Maxwell, daughter of Mr. and Mrs. W. J. Maxwell, was married recently in New York City to Mr. Robert Spiegel of the U.S.A. Both the bride and groom are students at the New York Institute of Dietetics. The bride left the island nearly two years ago for New York. Her wedding gown was chantilly lace and nylon tulle. The bodice was fashioned with a wide, scalloped neckline and elbow-length sleeves. Her three tier skirt of chantilly lace was over pleated nylon tulle. Her fingertip-length veil was adorned with pearls.
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If the claim regarding the couple studying at the New York Institute of Dietetics was even true, their studies at this institution didn’t last long. In May of 1956, a number of advertisements bearing Robert’s photograph appeared in the Kingston, Jamaica Gleaner. The advertisements described Robert as a psychologist, author, lecturer, and “practitioner in auto suggestion,” and identified him as “Dr. J. Robert Spiegel.” Readers were invited to come meet Robert on May 21, 1956, at Record Plaza, where he would be autographing his “latest” “world-wide” 33 and 1/3 RPM record, “How to Stop Smoking in 7 days by Auto-Suggestion.”
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On May 1, 1959, three residents of 1985 Bathgate Avenue, Bronx, New York, came through customs, having returned from a trip to Jamaica. They identified themselves as “Robert D. Spiegel” born in New York (in addition to giving himself a false middle initial, Robert neglected to complete the I-94-A fully, specifically by leaving his birthdate blank), “Leonie A. Spiegel” born in Jamaica on February 2, 1929, and their minor daughter, and “Sharon S. Spiegel,” born in New York. Someone also neglected to fully complete Sharon’s I-94-A, specifically by leaving her birthdate blank.
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Leonie had taken Sharon to Jamaica two years earlier. There are no publicly available records pertaining to their outbound transport from the United States to Jamaica. There is, however, a record pertaining to their return to the United States. That publicly available record does not provide their address, but Sharon is identified as weighing 1 stone 5 pounds (a total of 19 pounds), and Leonie is identified as weighing six stone 5 pounds (89 pounds). Interestingly, Leonie used the name “Aileen Spiegel,” and the records assert that Aileen has no middle initial. Aileen was / is her true legal first name, but it is a lie to say that she has no middle initial.
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Almost two years later, on January 5, 1958, the Kingston, Jamaica Gleaner reported:
Staying at the Tamarind Hotel are Mr. and Mrs. Bob Spiegel and daughter Sharon of Miami, Florida. Mrs. Spiegel is the former Leonie Maxwell, daughter of Mr. and Mrs. W. J. Maxwell of Lucea and has been in the United States for several years. A welcome party in their honour was given last Saturday night by Messers. Horrace, Ray, and Dennis Maxwell, brothers of Mrs. Spiegel. It was a very enjoyable affair.
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In 1963, roughly five years after their 1958 visit to Jamaica, Leonie petitioned for naturalization, in Louisiana. Although I am in possession of the index showing that she petitioned in 1963, I do not possess the petition itself. However, the fact that she petitioned for naturalization in Louisiana demonstrates that that at least she was residing in Louisiana at the time. Since she stated that she didn’t leave Robert’s side for over 40 years, presumably Robert, young Sharon, and also baby Michelle were living in Louisiana at that time.
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People who knew Robert personally relate that he stated that Leonie was a Cayman Island heiress. She wasn’t. Not only was she not born in the Cayman Islands, Leonie’s father’s estate was litigated (with the judge ruling against her) long before Robert started telling people that his wife was a Cayman Islands heiress.
Leonie’s father did leave an estate, but not to her. On November 9, 1967, the Gleaner reported that the Supreme Court had upheld the will of the late William Josiah Maxwell, the father of Horrace, Ray, Dennis, and Leonie, and the husband of Daisy Maxwell, who had contended that William’s signature was a forgery and that the person to whom his estate had been bequeathed had exercised undue influence. The court disagreed. The article reported:
The estate, which one of the executors described as “a sizeable one,” included 112 acres of land at Paradise and three houses at Lucea, Hanover.
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Robert apparently wasn’t banking on Leonie’s inheritance in any event. In May of 1966, advertisements appeared in the Houston Chronicle with Robert’s photo on them, selling a record that would purportedly assist people in stopping smoking in seven days. He identified himself as “Dr. J. Robert Spiegel.”
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On page 55 of the November 15, 1969, San Antonio, Texas Express and News, was an advertisement stating:
SCIENCE OF THE MIND
Dr. J. Robert Spiegel of Houston, director and founder of the Science of the Mind Foundation there, is conducting Sunday evening meetings at 7:30 p.m. in the Sheraton Inn, 1400 Austin Hwy.
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On page 4 of the July 10, 1970 edition of the Fort Worth Star-Telegram was a photograph of Robert, with a brief local news blurb:
GUEST – Dr. J Robert Spiegel of Houston, Science of Mind Foundation director, will speak at the 10:45 a.m. service tomorrow in First Church of Religious Science, 2001 6^th Ave. His subject is “What Religious Science Teaches.”
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On page 8 of the June 18, 1970 edition of the Houston Daily Cougar was this advertisement:
HOME OF UNIVERSAL LIFE
“Teaching Aquarian Meditation For The New Age
Meets Every Sunday, 11:00 A.M. At The World Trade Center Auditorium
Houston, Texas
DR. J. ROBERT SPIEGEL (BRAHMADANDA) DIRECTOR - FOUNDER
Aquarian Meditation Initiation for the first time offered through correspondence. For those sincere students wishing to bypass evolution and enter the 5th Kingdom. Initiation includes meditation technique, Mantra, how to "live” 24 hours a day, and much more. Write for application today:
P.O. Box 53328 Houston, Texas 052
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From the Galveston Daily News, May 02, 1971, Pg. 31:
AQUARIAN MEDITATION SOCIETY PRESENTS DR. J. ROBERT SPIEGEL AN AUTHOR, LECTURER, TEACHER OF YOGA & SELF DEVELOPMENT WILL SPEAK ON MAN, MIND & THE UNIVERSE WEDNESDAY, MAY 5th AT 7:30 P.M. IN THE RECREATION CENTER HARRIS COUNTY PARK, NASA RD. # 1 ALL WELCOME — DONATION $1.50
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The 1972 Spiritual Community Guide lists Robert twice, in the San Diego area. First, on page 117, using his alias “J. Robert Spiegel”:
THE TEMPLE OF METAPHYSICAL ABUNDANCE. J. Robert Spiegel, 1118 Torrey Pines Rd., 92037. Teaches yoga, nutrition, ESP, metaphysics, psychology, mind control
Second, on page 124, in which he, as one might have predicted, was masquerading as some sort of medical man or scholar:
"AQUARIAN MEDITATION SOCIETY, U. S. Grant Hotel, Attn: Dr. Robert Spiegel, 453-7588"
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Also in 1972, Volume 25 of San Diego Magazine published in November advertised gift certificates for the “Astrology Research Center.” “Give your loved one the gift of love. Only $50” said the advertisement. Where was this entity located? At 1118 Torrey Pines Road, the same address as Robert’s Temple of Metaphysical Abundance. The advertisement purported that person identified as “Lil Canaan” was the director. The telephone number was 459-6400.
In 2013, the San Diego Union Tribune published the obituary for Lillian Mulonas, who founded the La Jolla “Astrology Research Center.” At this point in time, unless Robert Adams’ only surviving daughter, Michelle/ Prentiss/ Avantae knows the answer and talks, we will not know what relationship, if any, existed between Robert’s Temple of Metaphysical Abundance and Lilian’s Astrology Research Center, both of which were located at 1118 Torrey Pines Road in 1972.
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From the July 12, 1973, San Diego Reader:
BRAHMADANDA FOUNDATION
“Teachings of the Cosmic Way” meets Sundays, 11:00 a.m., U.S. Grant Hotel, Crystal Room. Free admission, refreshments served. Call 453-7588 for more information.
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On page 51 of the June 29, 1974 edition of Phoenix’s Arizona Republic was the following advertisement:
Speaker from San Diego
Dr. J. Robert Spiegel from San Diego, a traveler and lecturer, will speak at 8 p.m., Friday in Universal Series Center, 4340 N. Seventh Ave., on the topic “Science of Being.”
He is the founder of the “Aquarian Meditation Society” in Jamaica and is founder and publisher of “Equinox,” a philosophical newspaper.
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The family (Adams or Spiegel, however one might want to refer to them) have resided in (that I know of) New York, Miami, Jamaica, Louisiana, La Jolla, Los Angeles, Houston, New Mexico, Hawaii, Las Vegas, Scottsdale, Sedona, and a number of cities in North Carolina.
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In at least the 1990’s, before he left for Sedona, Robert Adams used the address PO Box 7210, Jordan Avenue, D-30, Canoga Park, CA. He used that address on correspondence he wrote, and on at least one published document. Who else used that address? The data aggregators show that this address was also used by a Michelle K. Spiegel, and a person going by the name Leonie Maxwell. Michelle and Leonie also used other addresses associated with Robert, those being 1815 Willis Avenue Panorama City, and 21551 Burbank Boulevard, Woodland Hills.
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The California Birth Index shows that Michelle K. Spiegel was born on October 1, 1960, in Los Angeles County, to a mother with the maiden name Maxwell.
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In later life, Michelle used the addresses above that are associated with Robert and Leonie, as well as an address of 12004 Vanowen Street #14, North Hollywood. This is the same address at which Denniston Keith Maxwell, one of Leonie’s younger brothers, resided at, after his immigration to the United States. Denniston was one of Michelle’s uncles.
In a recent Facebook posting, Michelle/Avantae stated: “Never knew anything personal about said uncles, etc. Never asked, never cared.” Really? She shared an address with an uncle? Her uncle lived within a few minutes’ drive from her parents, and Michelle/Avantae never knew anything about him?
As an aside, Michelle/Avantae alleged (or admitted) that she “never cared” about anything personal regarding her uncles. If that is true, what does that tell us about Michelle/Avantae’s fundamental character? Antisocial? Psychopathic? Narcissistic in the extreme?
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On August 2, 1996, Michelle, going by the name Avantae E. Deven, married Tyson Ruben Alvarez in Las Vegas. The two had addresses in common in Arizona, Nevada, and Montana.
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Robert “Adams” died on or about March 2, 1997, in Sedona, Arizona.
Shortly after that, in the spring of 1997, “Nicole Adams” and “Avantae Deven” (both aliases; the correct legal names are Aileen Beverly Leonie Spiegel and Michelle K. Spiegel) purchased a home together in Sedona, on Navahopi Road. Shortly after the purchase, “Nicole” quit-claimed her portion to “Avantae.”
On July 17, 2001, Tyson, still married to “Avantae,” quit-claimed any interest in the Navahopi property to “Avantae,” and had the county recorder send the deed to “Avantae” in care of the Infinity Institute, at that time located at 9101 W. Sahara Ave. Suite 105 C29 (in other words, a private post box), in Las Vegas.
Avantae divorced Tyson in 2006. She had, by then, moved to North Carolina. She “served” Tyson via publication summons, claiming that she was unable to find him, despite his information being on multiple data aggregators.
You can go to various Facebook groups, and other sources, to pull up the documents that people have uncovered showing who is associated with the "Infinity Institute," and in what fashion, and also the addresses that they have used over the years.
In any event, this is the information regarding Robert that I think that people need to be aware of.
Why turn to a known liar and con man for spiritual guidance?
1A tallis is a prayer shawl.
2The ship’s manifest states that he was age 14, which conflicts by one year with what Samuel identified as his date of birth. These errors are not uncommon; his fare could have been purchased when he was age 14 and the records not updated.

Ok to monetize, but don't paywall. Links to the previous parts: 1 2 3 4 5 and 6. Link to the Teo hangout intermission is here. This may be the finale, but don't be too surprised if I write more about Angel and Smiles. I actually wrote the first draft of this before I wrote any of the other parts. I originally planned on this being a one-off, but I found that I really liked Angel. And then I was going to have the series told in reverse order. But I think I really found the right format in the way I have it now. I'm currently finishing my edits of the next part of the Terra Nova Academy series, so that'll probably be the next release.
Oh, I didn't hear you come home, Smiles.
(A quick kiss)
How was your day?
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Damn. At least it's over now.
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My day was fine. Boring without you to annoy me, but I manage.
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Yeah, work's fine. I mean, it could be better, but capitalism is hell, so… I'll take "fine."
I finished a commission early, so we'll have some extra money if you want to treat yourself to something.
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Nah, I'm fine. I'm a simple man, Smiles. I don't need to treat myself. You're the one with a job that kicks his ass. Ever since we moved out of Teo's mansion, we have to make ends me. Not that he wouldn't bail us out if it came to that, but he's not really easy to reach anymore. So we have to work hard. And you work harder than I do.
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Really, Smiles, all I need for a morale boost is you.
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Yeah, yeah, don't act so satisfied just because I gave you a compliment or I'll just have to keep it to myself next time.
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(With a small laugh)
Yeah, just like old times.
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Speaking of old times, isn't it our anniversary?
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No, not the anniversary of when we got together. When we first met. It was exactly five years ago.
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Of course I remember what the date was when we met at Teo's party. You were all I could think about for weeks. Not that I would have admitted it at the time.
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I have come a long way, haven't I? It's weird to think about. I was a totally different person back then. I was still going through my emo phase back then. Had my hair dyed black, wore way too much eyeliner and mascara, and I… I wasn't good to myself.
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(Dryly)
I'm actually goth now. Not emo.
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Yeah, I can't exactly do much to get rid of the scars. But then I met you, and I felt something for the first time since… I don't even know. I'd been going back and forth between numb and angry for so long, I didn't understand why you wanted to try. I think I get it now though.
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You were hurting too. You were just better at hiding it. Your smile was a defense mechanism; same way my whole everything was.
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Do you remember the night you called me after a nightmare?
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That was the night I started to understand why I liked you so much.
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I don't get a crush on every hot guy that smiles at me. Just the ones I see myself in.
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You, Teo, uh… Jimmy Tyson.
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(With a laugh)
I didn't have a third example so I made that last one up.
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Anyway, my point is that your sadness is familiar to me. Your fears and worries are a lot like mine. You just cope with it differently.
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Yeah, it wasn't healthy for either of us. But that was because we were alone in it. We're not alone anymore.
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I mean, yeah, I had Teo, but I don't think he knew how to help me. I was too set in my ways with him. Having you was enough to shake things up.
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(Softly, tenderly)
You're the first person I've let touch me. Like, uh, down there. At least, since I was too young to…
(His voice hitches)
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My point is that you nudged me out of my comfort zone, and that turned out to be exactly what I needed.
And you needed someone who could see past your fake happiness and reach out. I'm happy to be that for you.
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I'm going to say something.
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I love you.
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Course I don't say it much. I ration it out. You get so happy when I say it out loud. If I say it more, it won't feel special anymore.
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It's always true though. You know that.
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I hate to break it to you, but it's not so easy to fluster me anymore. I'm used to your nonsense.
…
Try harder.
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No, I mean it. Fluster me. Do it.
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(Slightly embarrassed)
I, uh, I know you think I'm cute. I believe you nowadays. Sometimes, even I think I'm cute. What else you got?
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Uh, y-yeah, you can touch me. J-just a little.
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(Starting to get flustered)
Y-yeah, that's my chest. Um, yup.
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(More flustered)
O-oh, um, that… is my piercing. Careful. It's new. Don't tweak it t-too hard.
…
(Practically short circuiting)
H-holy fuck, Smiles, okay, yeah, you got me.
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W-wait, just… no more of… that.
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(Getting panicky)
I just… not now. Not now. N-not now.
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[Hug]
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You're so good, Smiles… You always stop when I need you to. You're amazing.
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I'm sorry. I… When I get turned on, I still think of him.
(He can't breathe for a moment)
Okay, yeah, I know I don't have to say it.
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God, you're the best person in my life.
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You know what, you're right. Tied with Teo.
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Hey, have you heard from him lately? He's hard to reach these days.
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Yeah, that postcard from India was the last I know of. It's nice that he's out traveling, but I can't help but feel kinda left behind.
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I just wish he'd answer his phone. I miss that dumbass's voice.
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Yeah, he'll be back. Eventually. But it's been almost a year. I miss him.
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Yeah, you two really bonded over the last few years.
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That stupid game, yeah. Aaron's Orbiters or whatever. Don't think he still plays it.
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I don't care what the title is. It's a game I have no interest in.
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You wanna take a nap with me?
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I'm tired, you're tired, so why not?
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Yeah, yeah, I'm your little spoon. You're such a dork, Smiles.

***LONG POST
Now I know many will say this is obvious, but I wanted to share my hilariously brutal experience that hit this truth harder than a punch from Mike Tyson.
Not ratings, not even compliments, whether from men or women mean anything really if you aren’t getting action. The easiest way to test your actual attractiveness is to look at how successful you are on dating apps.
Now I’ve been blackpilled for a while and thought I was mostly average. I would ask for ratings on the best pics I had and would get 5/10 generally. But then I had a little ‘glow up’ (at least I thought so). I started getting compliments more often.
3 different people irl have said I could model. One professional photographer even asked if I wanted to model for his studio on this cruise I went on. Apart from that, I do get compliments on my looks. But it’s mainly from older women (40ish). One of my mom’s friends (late 30s) even said she’d have a crush on me if she was my age lol.
I didn’t bother to get rated again, for various reasons. Mostly because I didn’t want to share my face around again like that.
But these irl interactions led me to believe I had at least become above average/HTN. And so, with a lot higher confidence, I decided to try out a dating app since i felt decent enough (HAAHAHA)
So far it’s been 15 days with 16 matches and 1 like. You may think that’s not bad, but I’ve been ghosted or blocked by 14/16 of them, even after arranging dates. The other 2? One just led me on and then admitted she was in love with someone else but wouldn’t mind staying friends (🤡🤡) and the other (who actually seemed interested and hit back to my pick up line) I accidentally friendzoned thinking she had done it herself already. But honestly she would’ve ghosted or blocked me too anyway, now I think about it.
And before anyone says “oh bro your personality must be trash,” they barely even got to know me and many times I barely would even get some lines in before getting fucked over.
This experience has led me to conclude I simply am subhuman to women. They consider me subhuman enough to just fuck around with and have my time wasted and be led on. One fking b*tch even replied “bahahahah we’ll see” when I asked her out. And I also got rejected by this fking fat indian girl I thought I could go out with, just out of desperation (PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS. I REGRET IT GREATLY. DON’T JUGGERNAUT). Apart from 2 girls, my matches were average to above average women who I thought were near my league (HAHAHAHA). A few were really cute tbh.
To clarify, I am 18, ethnic and list 5’9 on my bio. Whatever makes me subhuman to women doesn’t matter. I just am subhuman to them. Though I am glad to learn it this early. I can’t change any of these things, apart from coping with surgeries that once I have enough time and money for it will be too late.
It truly is over. I feel at peace in a strange way. Cherry on top is yesterday this 15 year old family friend with an overbite implied I’m 2/10. At least there’s some honesty. I do give up.
Thank you for reading. Sorry for typos. It’s 3 am.
TDLR: I thought I glowed up after I received compliments more often. Decided to try OLD because I felt attractive enough. Got played with over and over by girls there, destroying my ego and making me realize I truly am subhuman.

***LONG POST
Now I know many will say this is obvious, but I wanted to share my hilariously brutal experience that hit this truth harder than a punch from Mike Tyson.
Not ratings, not even compliments, whether from men or women mean anything really if you aren’t getting action. The easiest way to test your actual attractiveness is to look at how successful you are on dating apps. Personally I used Hinge.
Now I’ve been blackpilled for a while and thought I was mostly average. I would ask for ratings on the best pics I had and would get 5/10 generally. But then I had a little ‘glow up’ (at least I thought so). I started getting compliments more often.
3 different people irl have said I could model. One professional photographer even asked if I wanted to model for his studio on this cruise I went on. Apart from that, I do get compliments on my looks. But it’s mainly from older women (40ish). One of my mom’s friends (late 30s) even said she’d have a crush on me if she was my age lol.
I didn’t bother to get rated again, for various reasons. Mostly because I didn’t want to share my face around again like that.
But these irl interactions led me to believe I had at least become above average/HTN. And so, with a lot higher confidence, I decided to try out Hinge since i felt decent enough for dating apps (HAAHAHA).
So far it’s been 15 days with 16 matches and 1 like. You may think that’s not bad, but I’ve been ghosted or blocked by 14/16 of them, even after arranging dates. The other 2? One just led me on and then admitted she was in love with someone else but wouldn’t mind staying friends (🤡🤡) and the other (who actually seemed interested and hit back to my pick up line) I accidentally friendzoned thinking she had done it herself already. But honestly she would’ve ghosted or blocked me too anyway, now I think about it.
And before anyone says “oh bro your personality must be trash,” they barely even got to know me and many times I barely would even get some lines in before getting fucked over.
This experience has led me to conclude I simply am subhuman to women. They consider me subhuman enough to just fuck around with and have my time wasted and be led on. One fking b*tch even replied “bahahahah we’ll see” when I asked her out. And I also got rejected by this fking fat indian girl I thought I could go out with, just out of desperation (PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS. I REGRET IT GREATLY. DON’T JUGGERNAUT). Apart from 2 girls, my matches were average to above average women who I thought were near my league (HAHAHAHA). A few were really cute tbh.
To clarify, I am 18, ethnic and list 5’9 on my bio. Whatever makes me subhuman to women doesn’t matter. I just am subhuman to them. Though I am glad to learn it this early. I can’t change any of these things, apart from coping with surgeries that once I have enough time and money for it will be too late.
It truly is over. I feel at peace in a strange way. Cherry on top is yesterday this 15 year old family friend with an overbite implied I’m 2/10. At least there’s some honesty. I do give up.
Thank you for reading. Sorry for typos. It’s 3 am.
TDLR: I thought I glowed up after I received compliments more often. Decided to try Hinge because I felt attractive enough. Got played with over and over by girls there, destroying my ego and making me realize I truly am subhuman.

Congratulations to everyone who’s moving on in the competition based on yesterday’s vote. After 1518 votes cast, we must sadly say goodbye to the 5 people who received the lowest number of votes. In no particular order, they are:
Mia Matthews
Makayla Phillips
Nutsa
Jennifer Jeffries
Emmy Russell
On today’s ballot we narrow the Top 30 to the Top 20. For this round, you have up to 20 votes to spread out amongst the competition and can give up to one vote per contestant. The 10 people with the lowest number of votes will be eliminated. On the ballot, the contestants are listed in random order. Voting for this round closes at 9am Eastern tomorrow, May 6.
To vote, head over to the Straw Poll at this link: https://strawpoll.com/PbZqRlqdNyN
Here’s the full season schedule. The date listed is the date the ballot is posted for that round. You have one day to complete each ballot.
REDDIT IDOL! SEASON 1
A competition to determine the sub’s favorite contestant from the ABC era of American Idol
April 23: Auditions (Top 70)
April 29: Wildcard
May 1: Hollywood Part 1 (Top 60)
May 2: Hollywood Part 2 (Top 50)
May 3: Hawaii Part 1 (Top 40)
May 4: Hawaii Part 2 (Top 35)
May 5: Final Judgment (Top 30)
May 6: Top 20
May 7: Top 15
May 8: Top 12
May 9: Top 11
May 10: Top 10
May 11: Top 9
May 12: Top 8
May 13: Top 7
May 14: Top 6
May 15: Top 5
May 16: Top 4
May 17: Top 3
May 18: Top 2
May 19: Winner Announced
If you’re new to the competition, here are the standings so far. Contestants are listed in no particular order.
Eliminated in Audition Round: Jay Copeland, Cade Foehner, Caleb Kennedy, Lady K, Grace Leer, Jurnee, Alyssa Raghu, Dimitrius Graham, Dennis Lorenzo, Emyrson Flora, Wade Cota, Alyssa Wray, Marybeth Byrd, Dillon James, Deshawn Goncalves, Warren Peay, Mike Parker, Jovin Webb, Michelle Sussett, Caleb Lee Hutchinson
Eliminated at Top 50: Tyson Venegas, Walker Burroughs, Colin Stough, Haven Madison, Uche, Triston Harper, Michael J. Woodard, Ada Vox, Christian Guardino, Zachariah Smith
Eliminated at Top 40: Julia Gargano, Noah Thompson, Allegra Miles, Odell Bunton, Jr., Madison VanDenburg, Louis Knight, Will Moseley, Sophia James, Nya, Laine Hardy
Eliminated at Top 35: HunterGirl, Arthur Gunn, Cassandra Coleman, Jeramiah Lloyd Harmon, Julia Gagnon
Eliminated at Top 30: Mia Matthews, Makayla Phillips, Nutsa, Jennifer Jeffries, Emmy Russell

Welcome back to the Fallowveil trailer park, where the crack addicts have all seen aliens, the Witch is the glue holding the community together, and it’s been a whole six years since our last meth lab explosion. I never met you, but rest in peace Jones. I’m Mason, and I’ll be your janitor guide to the weirdness.
So I’ve talked about Jennifer, my paranormally sexy, but terrifying neighbor who lives with a married couple, strips under the name “Red Jenny,” and possibly eats people’s souls. She’s just the tip of the iceberg here in this town. I could go on and on about my neighbors. I have to do an entry on Trista the nocturnal hippy (maybe) vampire at some point. I have a feeling she’ll get a kick out of it. We’re actually pretty friendly, since we're both night shift workers. Frankly, she’s a bit too on-the-nose though. Pale girl, windows all blocked during daytime, only out at night, weirdly strong for such a skinny little person, drinks a mysterious fluid from a hip flask that she refuses to share, I mean… she’s either a vampire or a weird healthnut hippy and she dresses like she’s both. We’ll get to her eventually.
For now, let’s talk about the old “Schroeder Slaughterhouse.” The place has been a center piece of the town since it was created. It brought jobs to workers and brought lucrative meat processing trades into town, elevating it to more than just another ‘corn town.’ It’s also got horror stories going all the way back to its construction. Some say it’s been cursed by the devil himself.
I want to talk about this one because Trista talked me into going to one of Petunia’s barbecues last weekend. Not sure why she’s suddenly friendlier with me, but I’m not complaining. She couldn’t come with me of course, being a (probably) vampire and all. But hey, depression only gets worse in isolation. I should ask her out some time. Being a vampire might be fun…
So anyway, I went to Petunia’s cookout. Petunia herself looked up and actually cried out loud and power walked up to me to give me a hug. “Ahhh! I’m so glad to see you outside Mason! The neighborhood misses you!” I'm ninety percent sure that was a lie, but whatever. It’s comforting. I returned the older woman’s hug.
“Thanks Petunia. Couldn’t stay away from your cooking forever.” That got a few chuckles. To my surprise, a lot of my neighbors came up to shake hands with me. I was confused until one of them, a guy named Fred, who lives next door to me, leaned in to say “sorry about that friend of yours that died.”
So that’s what’s happening. Everybody heard about psycho Moe and how he’d dragged me to a strip club where he planned to go on a killing spree. Now they’re playing nice. That’s probably the only reason Trista’s being nice to you too. These people don’t really care about you. You’re worthless.
‘You know what, brain? You’re a real bummer. Now shut up while I try to be social.’ I shot back at my own conscience.
I finally worked out how to respond to Fred after a few seconds of awkward silence that made us both uncomfortable. “He wasn’t really a friend. Just a roommate once. The guy was messed up.”
Fred nodded sympathetically, rubbing at his mustache “Well sure. But that’s a heck of a… situation?” He replied.
“Yeah. I guess it is…” I tried to look thoughtful so nobody could see me rolling my eyes. “But hey! I think Red Jenny took care of it.”
Fred’s eyes widened at that. “No shit? Did he get… did he get a private dance?”
We were both interrupted by a silky smooth voice with a southern twang. “Glad to see you’re okay Mason. Try not to bring any psychopaths to my place of business, alright? It’s got plenty. Our poor bouncer had to headlock that guy.” She said all of this without even glancing towards us. Just sort of talking at the air as she sauntered by. She was glorious as ever, somehow making comfortable sweats look like a sexy bold fashion statement. Jennifer. Red Jenny. I hushed up as she stepped past us, and as she did, she cast a glance my way… and she winked.
Fred and I sat there partly struck dumb for a moment. That woman hardly spoke to anyone.
“Bouncer my ass.” Fred whispered to me. “That chick’s some kind of monster, I’m telling you. What did you see? She offered him a private dance didn't she?”
A few weeks ago I would have jumped at the opportunity to tell Fred everything I could about what I saw, but for whatever reason, I was less enthusiastic at the moment. “Yeah, she did, but I’m not really sure what happened. I was kinda stupified by the guns. She probably got a bouncer to help her, I really don’t know.”
“Never get a private dance from Red Jenny. Some say that’s a warning from wives, but the rest of us know it’s a warning from above. Something ain’t natural at that place.”
“I dunno Fred. But she works hard. I don’t want to badmouth her. Even if it was true, the guy she got was a wannabe killer. So she saved people.”
“Yeah, but how!?”
“I dunno man.”
Fred seemed to figure out I didn’t want to talk anymore about it by then. “Sorry, man. Must have been scary, either way. But hey! We all know you were asking around about Fallowveil’s spooky stories! Guess what!? A bunch of people who used to work at the old slaughterhouse are here! They’re all swapping stories by the grill! You should go listen!”
That piqued my interest. I used my phone to record as much as I could. I think I remember the rest. Now that I’ve looked at all my notes and stuff, I think I can provide a decent history of Fallowveil’s Schroeder Slaughterhouse. At least according to some of the people who worked there, as well as some who’ve lived here longer than me.
Most of the history came from a man named Willard Graves. He’s notorious for being really nasty when he’s drunk, and being one of the oldest people living in the trailer park at the age of 68. When I arrived at the bonfire where the group of workers had gathered, they were all swapping stories.
“I once felt a presence in the women’s restroom!” Said Polly Bucharest. “I was a floor manager in 2007. I was sitting in the stall there doing my business, nobody came in or out, but suddenly I just felt it. I got real freaked out. Like… goosebumps and everything. And feeling that way sucks in the bathroom. So I tried to hurry up and kicked open the stall so I could run to the sink… and the ‘shadow man’ was just standing in the corner. I saw him out of the corner of my eye. He was just there, standing. When I turned to look, he was gone!”
“I saw that thing too! The shadow man!” Said Peter Swanson. “Damn thing was standing up in the corner, on the catwalk out in the main floor. Same thing. I was working, one of the cows didn’t go down right away, and I was leaning down to stun it again, then I felt real uneasy all of a sudden. Real scared. Finally I noticed the shadow up there!”
“That happened to me in the break room!” Said Juan Esposito. “I was eating lunch when I felt it. Then there was a shadow of a man, I think, in the corner of the room.”
“It was more of a shadowy blob on the wall for me,” said Polly.
“Any of you guys see the weird bird?” Asked Carlos Sanders. “I saw it once. End of my shift, back in 09. Me and a few of the boys saw it. You were there Juan! You remember?”
“I remember. I’m not really sure though, Carlos. That one might have been a vulture.”
“We see vultures round here all the time! That wasn’t a vulture! No clue what it was. Just some big flying shadowy thing that appeared at sundown and flew off after a while.”
“Lots of people said they saw a strange bird. That’s part of why some people think it’s cursed” claimed Jane Lopez. “I never worked there, but my husband used to tell stories. Some people say it’s an omen. If you see the bird over the slaughterhouse, something bad might be about to happen.”
“I remember the stories, Mama.” Said her son, Martin. “I worked the floor for three years. I never saw a creepy bird. I wonder if Papa was just telling stories again?”
“Maybe, mijo. But lots of people tell stories about that place.”
“How about the one cow that Mr. Kurt takes, like… once a week? Anybody know what’s up with that?” That was Juan again.
“No! And none of us can figure out where the cow goes either! It’s creepy!” Poly replied.
That’s when Willard loudly cleared his throat. Willard was a tough looking old bastard. Usually sporting a frumpy tank top, a grumpy face, and a bottle of something in one hand. “Y’all didn’t work there as long as I did,” he grumbled in his raspy old voice. He kept his head and eyes lowered, like some old cowboy trying to be dramatic. “Y’all know who that shadow even is? I know the ‘sh’tory!”
We were all interrupted by a shout from a very angry Petunia, who was a few yards away manning the grill. “DAMN IT Willard! What did I say!? One beer! One!”
“I only had one! I ‘sh’wear!”
“You’re slurring! If I catch you sneaking any more drinks I’m not giving you any ribs or any cookies!”
Willard’s tough old man act crumbled as he went wide eyed at the mention of cookies. “Alright, alright, I’m sorry Petty…”
“PETUNIA!!”
“Petunia! I won’t have anything else to drink!”
“Damn right! Last thing we need is you making an ass of yourself again!”
Willard sighed as we all hushed a few guffaws. “Anyway,” he said after an awkward pause. That shadow? Any of you know who it is?”
“One of the dead owners?” Said someone.
“One of the dead workers?” Said someone else.
“Nah, nah. It was the FIRST owner. The ghost of Heinrich Schroeder. The builder and owner of Schroeder Slaughterhouse!”
“How do you know?”
“I mean… I don’t, but that’s the oldest story I know about the place. Don’t any of you younguns know about the history there?”
“I don’t. Please tell the story!” I called from outside the circle of former Meat Processing workers, causing some of them to glance awkwardly at me.
“Well alright then!” Willard said with a grin that had less than a full set of teeth. “The place was built way back, right after the Civil War ended, when a bunch of immigrants from Germany started migrating to Nebraska, mostly to Omaha. But one feller…”
“Why did Germans come to Nebraska?” Asked a kid who’s name I didn’t know.
“What? I dunno. They just did. Hush. So this guy saw our little town of Fallowveil and its lush fields. He was in the sausage business before, but figured he could set himself up a slaughterhouse to process cows raised locally. Old Fallowveil was superstitious though. They were always wary of outsiders.”
“Why?” The kid asked.
“They just was. Everyone was after the war ended. Things changing fast, bunch of black folks are citizens and building themselves North Mainstreet, and Fallowveil’s weird. We all know that. Always has been.” Nobody could disagree there. “So. Since they were wary? They didn’t want to let Shroeder build. Supposedly you can find old documents with the town's rejection letters to Shroeder hidden away in the office of the old building. He tried for months. Then, with no explanation at all, they suddenly sold him an unused parcel of land. Nobody knows why, and that’s where a lot of folks think the devil’s curse began. They say Shroeder made some kind of deal with a demon to get them to sell the land to him. They’re the ones that made him follow their rules. Everyone remember the rules?”
“Hell, I had to follow those rules,” said Polly. “Most were pretty standard health and safety measures, but some were downright bizarre. 1. No loud noises in the back of the building. 2. One cow will be selected by the owner for personal reasons and won’t be slaughtered with the others. 3. Keep the blood drains clean at all times, but no specialized detergents. 4. Never agitate the animals. 5. Manure will be transported offsite. 6. Anyone caught past the fence line of the old building will be fired immediately…. There’s a bunch more that are all basically fcc regulations, only these days there’s extra.”
“It’s worth it!” Juan piped in. “The work we do there now got us awards! We make some of the best meat in the country! Pay is good too. No offense, friends, but we’re thinking of moving into a house, soon!”
Petunia cried out. “Ahhh Juan! That’s so wonderful! You’ll have places for your baby!” A bunch of others offered Juan their congratulations. There were also expressions of sadness. Thanks to Petunia? This neighborhood is really tight knit.
“We’ll miss you!”
“When do you leave?”
So on and so on. Juan’s a nice guy. I never got to know him, and I kinda wish I had now.
“Good to hear that place is finally shaping up!” Willard said with a small smile. “Maybe the curse on the place is lifting! Back when I worked there, safety and cleanliness were shit. All them extra rules about keeping the place clean, and the cows cared for, they weren’t there back then. Just the weird shit about noise in the back, staying away from the old building, and one cow being taken away every couple of shipments.”
“Can I ask a question?” I asked as Willard trailed off, lost in thought.
“Did you ever work in the place, new guy?” Asked Juan.
“No. I’m just curious about Fallowveil’s spooky stories. Lived here for a while, and heard em, but now I’m asking around. Also, how am I still the ‘new guy?’ I’ve lived here three years!”
“You stopped coming outside after three months!” Petunia called to me.
“Whatcha want to ask?” Willard wondered.
“Well, why is the old building even still there? The place where you all work is the building in the front, right? New building with state of the art equipment? Why keep the dilapidated old building from the 1860s? Anybody know?”
“Ah. That’s an interesting question. I’d guess nobody here knows that answer, right?” Willard replied. There were nods all around. “Nobody alive today worked in that building. Hell, it was fenced off and boarded up when I was a kid. Nobody really knows why it’s still standing. We all have our guesses. Some think it might have something to do with the devil’s curse. Some say the owners hope to cash in on its historic value. Not sure how. The place is a wreck. So it just sits back there.”
“And they’ll fire anyone who gets curious,” Polly added.
“Exactly. That’s one of the rules. Stay away from the old building. But anyway. Let me get back to the story. The old building, that’s the slaughterhouse built by Heinrich Shroeder. He ran the place for about twenty years. Lot of the newly freed black folks would work there. Nothing too nefarious went on back then, but all the same, everyone felt uneasy working there. Just like now, workers swore they saw ghosts. Place gained a reputation for being haunted. That only got worse over the years. Then came the ‘incident.’ I don’t remember the exact year. But at some point some kind of fire broke out in the slaughterhouse. It was after hours so there were no workers there at the time, but there was a herd of cows waiting there overnight. The fire only affected the inside of the building, but it still spooked the cows. They stampeded out of the pen and the next morning the town had cows everywhere. When the people searched the slaughterhouse, they found that not much of the equipment was damaged at all. Somehow some small section of the floor had lit up. And in the middle of it? They found the charred bones of Heinrich Shroeder.”
“What? How?” I asked skeptically. “You know how hot a fire has to be to melt off everything but bone? I don’t. But I know it’s pretty hot.”
“Oh I know. That’s part of the mystery. Nobody knows what happened. It was like some little explosion of heat just burned everything in this one spot on the floor, including Shroeder. The whole thing is unsolved. A mystery. Maybe it was arson. Maybe it was some sort of accident. Who knows? Anyone who works there could tell you though. That place is cursed. Our theory was, Heinrich went back on whatever deal he made to get the land, and the devil came to collect. Either way, the whole town was in shock. Shroeder’s family buried him at Kugler Mill Cemetery, then sold the place and moved to Omaha to be closer to family.”
“Who bought it next?” Asked the kid that kept asking questions.
“Local man named Jefferson. He moved to Nebraska from the south after the war. Man was a slave owner who had a lot of trouble turning a profit after the war.”
“Also a horrible racist!” Petunia added from the grill. “You left that part out one time.”
“I did not! I didn’t think I had to say it! I said he owned slaves! Of course he’s racist!” Willard shot back.
“Just messing with you, you old cowpoke.” We all stopped to chuckle.
“ANYWAY. Jefferson was no great boss. Lot of stories about cruelty to workers and animals if the stories I once heard are true. He kept the name “Schroeder Slaughterhouse to keep some locals from realizing it was him. That’s how he hired a bunch of black folks. There were lots of accidents. Almost everyone who worked there left missing a limb, like me.” Willard held up his hand, and I noticed for the first time that he was missing two fingers on his right hand. “They were still using old band saws. Only took one wrong move” he added thoughtfully. “So Jefferson took over, but he kept all the weird old rules. Nobody knows why. But the place wasn’t a great place to be. Another fire broke out, this one was the Jeffersons son getting drunk on the floor and lighting a lantern. Three workers died there. There were other injuries, and shitty safety standards. One other stampede occurred, which was caused by the equipment falling apart cuz they never bothered with maintenance. You get the idea. All the while, everyone kept hearing tales about the ghosts. They eventually got the idea that the “rules” had something to do with the ghosts. People swore when they were louder in certain parts of the building, they were more likely to feel uneasy. We all know that story.”
“The Shadow” several people said in unison.
Willard nodded. “People thought it was the ghost of Shroeder. Made the rumors about a curse seem more real. The Jeffersons ignored their employees' discomfort for years. Then in the in 30s, another tragedy struck. The owner, Edgar Jefferson, personally came to oversee the installation of a brand new state of the art meat grinder to produce ground beef for local businesses. He was standing nearby, even though the construction crew told him to move away. He was bragging to news outlets and investors about his new machine, and how he wasn’t affected by the depression at all, and then, out of nowhere, a small earthquake hit. The meat grinder came loose from its crane and landed right on top of Edgar. He died immediately. Right in front of the terrified crowd.”
“No way.” Said someone from the crowd.
“Y’all can look this one up if you want. Library is bound to have the old papers. I heard this story from my very first boss. He was just a kid at the time. Said his dad witnessed the whole thing. One second Edgar was boasting, next, he’d been turned into meat jelly.”
“Please don’t ruin the barbecue, Willard” called Petunia.
He just rolled his eyes at that. “To make matters worse, the Jefferson’s local estate mysteriously caught fire a few days later. Nobody could find a cause. Nobody died, thankfully. The remaining Jefferson’s were spooked after that. They sold the slaughterhouse as well as four different cattle farms in town, and moved out of the state.”
“Who was next?” Came the child.
Willard ignored him. “The next person to buy the land was an industrialist who wanted to stake a claim on small town businesses. Rick Manson. He owned a restaurant in California. He bought up the cattle farms and built a new state of the art slaughter house right next to the old one. He was held up by world war 2, but when that ended, he got the place up and running. Nobody knows why he didn’t just tear the old building down and build on top of it. He was the first owner to leave it be. Supposedly, things started out decent under Manson. He brought lots of decent paying jobs raising cows and working in the slaughterhouse, and he kept the rules and added more for safety. Ran it like that for a good thirty years. That’s about when I started working there. Late seventies, early eighties. I can say without any doubt, that any good things people said about Rick Manson? They were lies. The man was a tyrant of a boss, at a time when we actually knew what hard work was.” I felt everyone else groan with me when Willard said that. “The guy used the cheapest equipment he could find and barely ever did maintenance. He also kept hiring immigrants to work the floor. The injury rates were incredibly high, and whatever workarounds higher ups thought they could get away with, they did. A lot of that was on the farms. The local farms were soon forced to use growth hormones, cheap corn feed, and other shady tactics to fatten the cows up faster. They made every effort to turn the small town of Fallowveil into a bigger meat processing plant. We all suffered for it. People died working in that place. Even more people lost fingers. And nobody ever held Manson accountable. Let me remind you, the place was still unbelievably haunted. The shadow was seen by everyone. People started seeing the weird bird too. Everyone was also pretty sure the owners were doing some kind of satanic rituals in the old building at night. There were stories about lights and weird sounds. The story me and my fellow workers believed was that the one cow that got selected and separated every now and then? They were sacrificing it in the old building.”
That proved a bit too much for me. “Wait… hang on. The place is already a slaughterhouse. Cows die there daily. What’s so special about this one cow? Do others not count?”
“Oh how am I supposed to know? You wanted to know what the stories were right? That’s all we got, nobody actually knows what’s going on in there. All we got are guesses. All we know is that someone always showed up, maybe once a week, and picked out a cow, and lead it away. We’re busy workers so no, none of us ever really saw where it ended up. We’re pretty sure it wasn’t put back on a truck. There’s no hidden field that we know of where they’re keeping them. So where the hell do these cows go?”
“I mean… I don’t know. Do they still do that?” I asked.
Juan answered me. “Yes. I’ve seen it happen. Mr. Kurt is the man who picks the cow. Once a week he picks a cow and leads it away from the others. Usually toward the back. Whenever we ask him where the cow went, he would just say ‘that’s private.’”
“Who the hell is Mr. Kurt?” Willard asked.
“He’s basically the general manager. He’s there everyday.”
“What about the new owner? ‘Antoora’ or however you say that?”
“Antuara. We don’t know. Nobody but Mr. Kurt has met him. It’s really strange. Kurt just says Antuara is a bit of a recluse.”
“Wouldn’t the FDA want to know what was happening with these cows?” I wondered.
“All the paperwork is done. The FDA has been here multiple times. They know one cow gets taken, and… they’ve signed off on everything. So I guess it’s nothing illegal.” Juan concluded with a shrug. “It’s really weird.”
“Huh. That place is just a giant old mystery. Does it ever end? You all know what happened to Mr. Manson?”
“Didn’t he die in a fire?” Asked Polly.
“Not just him. My last boss was the one that noticed this. But right before Mr. ‘Antoora’ bought the place ten years ago, it got bought up by a bunch of corporate goons. They wanted to compete with places like Tyson meats. They bought it after Manson's car was found exploded… with him in it, of course. That’s three different owners who were hit by fires, and two that were killed by fires. But that’s not all. Polly? You worked as floor manager while those corpo guys ran the place right? You remember why they ended up selling?”
“I was never told, actually. You and the boys had your stories, but I always figured it was our numbers. We weren’t doing as well. People weren’t going to local butchershops. I know there was one death…”
“It was another fire. And from what I hear it was ruled as an arson! To this day it hasn’t been solved. There were three deaths like that. And a meat packing plant in another state burned down. Not all of those were ruled as arson, but it’s a hell of a coincidence, wouldn’t y’all agree?” Willard said with a grin as he searched everyone’s faces. He had everyone enraptured by his mystery.
“It’s like the place really is cursed. Whoever owns Shroeder slaughterhouse… catches fire?” Said someone.
“Sure seems that way.”
“But Antuara is different. All the equipment is new, and he trained all of us extensively. We take breaks. We’re required to take breaks. And we clean everything. Then there’s the farms he bought. They don’t use any growth hormones or cheap feed. Hell, Mitchel Farm has enrichment toys for them. If the place was cursed, I have to hope it’s lifted now.” Juan spoke with conviction.
“But you still see the shadow and the bird, right? And nobody knows what happens to the one cow?” Willard said simply.
“Yes. That is true. Mr. Kurt has said he’ll look into the things that are causing our discomfort. But what can anyone do about a ghost?”
“Like I said. That place is cursed by the devil. Years of cruel practice, spilled blood, and bad deals. The owners get burned, the workers suffer, but it just keeps churning out meat. And of course, it’s here in the town of Fallowveil, where witches roam free…”
“As do old assholes” added Petunia
“The woods have a monster, the Hotel is in the damn Twilight Zone, and everyone’s seen something unnatural. The place is still cursed, mark my words. Unless they tear that old building down, it’ll probably stay cursed.” With that, Willard concluded his story. He raised a bottle of beer to his lips, but before he could drink, Petunia appeared and swatted the bottle right out of his hand.
“What the hell did I tell you Willard. No more god damn beer!”
“Sorry Petunia.”
The rest of the day was nice. I ate food, hung out with neighbors, played some horseshoes, drank some beer. It was great. The circle of meat packing workers had a few more tales, mostly about the Shadow showing up to scare people, or a weird thing someone saw around the old building.
I wasn’t sure what to think, really. I’ve never actually been to the place. I know that working in a slaughterhouse sounds like a really depressing, dangerous, and messy job that I never ever want. That’s for sure. I had no idea missing limbs were so common.
I looked up some of the stuff Willard said. It seems he wasn’t embellishing much. There really were owners who died in fires and one who got squashed by his own equipment. I can see where belief in a curse comes from. Interestingly, Juan was right too. Fallowveil has received awards for its high quality beef in recent years. The stuff is so good that some of the food network shows have started showing up to do segments and visit local restaurants. Mostly Nerd Burger. Nerd Burger is incredible. The Spicy² burger is hands down, the best burger in the universe and nobody will tell me otherwise. I didn’t even realize it contracted with Antuara meats, but there you go.
I shared all of this with Trista later that night, and as a result, we went on adventure together. I wonder if it was a date? She wore her regular clothes. Try to imagine a sixties Hippy who got a makeover from a goth. She wore a sarong around her waist that would dance around her legs, with the breeze. It was black as pitch, with a few flowery designs sewn in. She also wore a black hand made tank top, black knee high boots, and her stoner beanie hat that read “total witch.” Seriously. How else can I describe that other than Hippy/goth or Hippy/vampire. She’s weird, and she’s really skinny, but damn it… she’s really pretty. And a lot of fun to hang out with. She might have supplied us with something to smoke that may or may not be legal in this state so I’ll say no more there.
But anyway, we were chatting after sundown, and I told her all about the stories of the Slaughterhouse. “Ugh. That place. Look at me. I’m a hippy. I can’t call myself a vegan, but I still morally oppose the meat industry.”
“Why can’t you call yourself a vegan?”
“I… have a specialized diet.”
“What’s that mean?”
“None of your business, jerk!” She socked my shoulder playfully, which made my whole arm go numb.
“Ow! You are like 140 pounds, max. How are you so damn strong?”
“Maybe you’re just weak. So the slaughterhouse is cursed? Wanna go see it?”
“I… like… Right now?”
“Sure! You don’t work for another hour, right? The hotel can manage without me if I’m late by a few minutes. Come on! I hear you’re more likely to see weird things if you go at night!”
How could I say no? So I drove us to Antuara Meats, formerly known as the Schroeder Slaughterhouse, and got a look at it for the first time in my life. The main building is pretty unremarkable. Just a factory type building next to a big field. We pulled into the parking lot and got as close to the fence as we could, so we could see what we really wanted. The old building.
“Christ. Why is it still standing? Place looks like it should be condemned.” Trista said as we got out and peered through the fencing.
“Yup. Boarded up windows, overgrown ivy everywhere, everything one needs to make a nice creepy atmosphere.”
“How romantic!” She quipped. I’m glad she couldn’t see the confused blushing I did after that. “It definitely smells like blood and rot around here.”
“It does? All I smell is… I’m guessing that’s cow poop?”
“No. It’s metallic. Smells like old blood.”
“You are such a vampire.”
“Har har.”
“Seriously, I don’t smell blood. I can’t see much. It’s too dark.”
“Not much to see. Though I think I see the cow.”
“The cow? What cow? And no way in hell can you see out here. There’s clouds out!”
“Eat your vegetables Mason. It’s good for your night vision.”
“Vampire says what?”
“Nope.”
“So you see a cow? A live cow? Where? Maybe I have a night vision app or something. I dug my phone out of my pocket.
“Yeah, there’s a cow standing out behind the old building. Maybe a hundred yards.”
“I don’t care how good your night vision is, how could you see that far?”
“Will you give it a rest? Not my fault my eyes adjust better than yours.”
“Sorry. Didn’t mean to be an ass…”
“It’s okay Mason, I’m mostly messing with you. There is a cow there though.”
I held up my phone and zoomed as far as I could with the night vision on. She was right. A loan cow stood in an open field behind the slaughterhouse. There were no fences back there, so I wondered if it had gotten loose and just wandered its way to the spot. “Huh. You’re right. There’s totally a cow there. It’s not on the property either.”
“So… you found the missing cow. But I gotta ask. You doing okay? That shit with the Red Nights club was crazy. Anyone would be messed up after that.”
That annoyed me. I’m not sure why. “You think I’m messed up?”
“Well, yeah, that’s why I hang out with you. We’re both messed up. But like… this is seriously messed up. Not fun messed up.”
“Is that the only reason we came out here? Did Petunia put you up to this?” I turned toward her.
“Yes. But no. Petunia is worried about you. And so am I. You’re one of the few regular friends I’ve got. And someone almost shot you.” I saw genuine concern in her violet eyes. She stood there, twiddling nervously with her hands, only partly illuminated by the nearby streetlights, making her pale complexion shine. A strange gust of wind kicked up and blew her wavey Raven black hair prettily across her face.
Oh fuck. You’re getting feels. Stop that. You’re just lonely, and she just feels bad. I wrestled with my thoughts for a moment before replying. “I’m sorry. Maybe I’m just burying it. I’m okay. At least I think I am. Maybe I'm still processing.”
“Uh. Hold that thought, Mason. The cow is gone.”
“What?” I looked back and held up my phone. There was no cow in the field anymore. “Where? How? There’s nowhere for it to go!?”
“I didn’t see anything. It was there a minute ago, now it’s just gone. Wow. That’s creepy. This place really is cursed.”
“Could it have fallen in a hole or something?”
We actually spent a few minutes searching for a trace of the bovine, but we didn’t find anything. There’s no way the thing ran off in just a minute. So what the hell happened to it? It just vanished. Both of us felt a little unsafe after we reached that conclusion. So we headed home and then went off to our respective jobs. Now here I am. A fully grown cow disappeared before my eyes at a haunted slaughterhouse, and somehow I’m still more concerned with whether or not I should ask Trista out or just enjoy her friendship. But that shit is my business.
I did a bit more reading about the slaughterhouse. police have been called to the place over the years, and they found nothing. There’s even been people that signed papers and got to enter the building legally. There was even a ghost hunter once. They didn’t really find anything interesting either. There’s something weird about that place though. No doubt about it. It’s brought tragedy, creepy stories, and delicious hamburger to our town for generations. Given how delicious locally raised beef is? I'm cool with the place doing whatever it’s doing.

Congratulations to everyone who’s moving on in the competition based on yesterday’s vote. Sadly, we must say goodbye to the 10 people who received the lowest number of votes. In no particular order, they are:
Tyson Venegas
Walker Burroughs
Colin Stough
Haven Madison
Uche
Triston Harper
Michael J. Woodard
Ada Vox
Christian Guardino
Zachariah Smith
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REDDIT IDOL! SEASON 1
April 23: Auditions (Top 70)
April 29: Wildcard
May 1: Hollywood Part 1 (Top 60)
May 2: Hollywood Part 2 (Top 50)
May 3: Hawaii Part 1 (Top 40)
May 4: Hawaii Part 2 (Top 35)
May 5: Final Judgment (Top 30)
May 6: Top 20
May 7: Top 15
May 8: Top 12
May 9: Top 11
May 10: Top 10
May 11: Top 9
May 12: Top 8
May 13: Top 7
May 14: Top 6
May 15: Top 5
May 16: Top 4
May 17: Top 3
May 18: Top 2
May 19: Winner Announced

Last week we introduced REDDIT IDOL!, a multi-week competition to determine the sub's favorite American Idol contestant from the ABC era. We began with the Audition Round containing the 70 people who made it to the Top 10 of American Idol in the ABC era.
Voting for that round is now over. After a semi-astounding 2561 votes cast by 194 people, we’re excited to reveal the top 50 vote-getters who will advance in the competition. In no particular order, they are:
Mia Matthews, Iam Tongi, Michael J. Woodard, Abi Carter, Haven Madison, Maddie Poppe, Nicolina, Julia Gargano, Alejandro Aranda, Noah Thompson, Gabby Barrett, Hunter Metts, Walker Burroughs, McKenna Faith Breinholt, Louis Knight, Kayko, Emmy Russell, Zachariah Smith, Just Sam, Tyson Venegas, Uche, Cassandra Coleman, We Ani, Colin Stough, Laine Hardy, Laci Kaye Booth, Leah Marlene, Francisco Martin, HunterGirl, Christian Guardino, Julia Gagnon, Will Moseley, Ada Vox, Kaibrienne, Jonny West, Grace Kinstler, Oliver Steele, Jack Blocker, Catie Turner, Sophia James, Madison VanDenburg, Willie Spence, Chayce Beckham, Triston Harper, Arthur Gunn, Fritz Hager, Megan Danielle, Casey Bishop, Jeramiah Lloyd Harmon, Makayla Phillips
This means we have to say goodbye to the following contestants who finished in the Bottom 20, listed again in no particular order:
Jay Copeland, Cade Foehner, Caleb Kennedy, Lady K, Grace Leer, Jurnee, Alyssa Raghu, Dimitrius Graham, Dennis Lorenzo, Emyrson Flora, Wade Cota, Alyssa Wray, Marybeth Byrd, Dillon James, Deshawn Goncalves, Warren Peay, Mike Parker, Jovin Webb, Michelle Sussett, Caleb Lee Hutchinson
Voting is now open for the next round, which is the Wildcard Round where you will get to vote for people who just missed their shot at making it to the Top 10 on their season.
On today’s ballot, you’ll see the names of the people who made it to Top 20 in the ABC era but did not make Top 10. There are a few exceptions, notably with seasons 16 and 19 where a distinct Top 20 was not announced. Those seasons are instead represented by people who made it to the Top 14 and 16 respectively.
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Here’s the full season schedule. The date listed is the date the ballot will be posted for that round.
REDDIT IDOL!
April 23: Auditions (Top 70)
April 29: Wildcard
May 1: Hollywood Part 1 (Top 60)
May 2: Hollywood Part 2 (Top 50)
May 3: Hawaii Part 1 (Top 40)
May 4: Hawaii Part 2 (Top 35)
May 5: Final Judgment (Top 30)
May 6: Top 20
May 7: Top 15
May 8: Top 12
May 9: Top 11
May 10: Top 10
May 11: Top 9
May 12: Top 8
May 13: Top 7
May 14: Top 6
May 15: Top 5
May 16: Top 4
May 17: Top 3
May 18: Top 2
May 19: Winner Announced
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Okay this is kind of weird. And I am very sad as fuck. She can't be contacted and block me and my friends that I asked to contact her. Her last message is she has feeling for me after close to 4 years. However, someone told her to stay away from me. Also it's dangerous to have more than one sugar daddy. I am confused. I am far richer and I am sure I can pay her more than the other sugar daddy. Why did she dump me like that?
But it's not the first time it happened. You see I am autistic. I don't read people emotion easily and is very surprised when I predict humans behavior. However, I have good IQ. So I can analyze economy, strategy, and game theory just fine. I am pretty good at the latter. I also understand evolutionary psychology.
I am pretty loaded. Top 0.1% in wealth in my country. Thanks to crypto. I think my look is above average. Not my strongest point. I also have very high IQ and won some Math competitions. Women say that they want to have children with me because I am smart. And they don't just say that to me to make me happy. I once hire another sugar baby to live together with my favorite sugar baby and that favorite sugar baby says that without knowing that she's my spy. She wants to have children with me after she graduates but not now.
When I was in high school many women say hi "my name". I don't even understand why people keep saying men chase women. I thought it's the other way around. But I have planned of wanting to make money and get married so I ignored most women. Long story on that one too.
I just can't process sentences like, you can't act like that to a woman because if you act like that then you sound like middle age mom and women hate that. To me such sentences, which is how my neurotypical bro explains things to me doesn't make sense at all. Like that? What? Middle age mom? What? Why women hate that? Doesn't make sense.
Words like do not objectify women or see women as sex object or commodity is extremely confusing for me to comprehend. Everything is object. Not only women are sex objects, for heterosexual males, women are the only sex objects. Think about it. What else we want to fuck?
Now, normal dating don't work for me at all. Usually women say how other guys are far more generous. I chose to be generous, and then they're gone. Latter I learned that it's called simping. Women are very scammy. They use any method to scam first and only when everything fail they spread legs. Some redpiller call that shit testing.
I honestly do not think anything non transactional can ever work reliably and cost effectively, not just for autistic people for me but for neurotypical people too. Just look at 50% divorce rate followed by huge alimony palimony. It's as if neurotypical people have transactional sex too but they don't explicitly know it. They're just subconsciously aware of it. Say a man is nice to a woman and the woman are not nice so they break up. It's not like the man explicitly offer money to woman.
Sex if you're rich will never be free. Just look at Mike Tyson's rape charge and Denise Masterson and Bill Gates' alimony. If children show up, you are not going to let your own son starve right? So of course men pays. Rich men? Very. So I do not understand white men obsession with getting sex without paying. If by offering money I got smarter more beautiful sugar babies so what?
So after a while I developed a system. EVERYTHING has to be transactional.
Instead of marrying a woman I would just repeat order her for life. As long as kids are not involved it's not a problem. When kids are involved, it's even better. The women won't leave me anymore. They need my money to support our children and I have absolutely no problem with that. Raising rich children are something I would love to do. I am sure other rich people are the same.
Once I implemented the system, it works. I found a sugar baby, that's pretty enough and smart enough. I sleep with her. She is soon pregnant. I was surprised. But 2 child latter, waiting for a 3rd, I am happy. All the children pass paternity tests. I happily live with them with my newly bought house. A bit too possessive for me. Not willing to do really sexy stuffs. But as I said, smart enough, pretty enough.
The second sugar baby, let's call her Z is a bit problematic. I like her more. She's very poor but very pretty and have very high IQ. I really like her. She said she wants to stay away from her mom. Unfortunately she's in college all the way in Surabaya.
So we only consummate our sugar relationship during school holiday. There is a time where my first long term sugar baby terrorize her. So she dumped me. This is what pissed me off. Instead of talking to me, she talks to my main sugar baby and got paid for dumping me. I was sad as fuck.
I sent another sugar baby, the one I don't truly like for sex, to be her friend and spy on her. That one told me that she actually likes me and want to have my children. I also learned that they are both very poor. I mean they like work part time for $5 a day or things like that.
When I am with her I spent $1k per month.
She lives for free. Food are paid. Many health care are paid. I paid her PPM too. I think the idea is sexy. PPM wife. Just keep repeat ordering her. She will rarely says no. My main sugar baby already want to have sex with me too many times so I just pay monthly. Z is kind of lesbian so she needs more incentive.
After some trouble she has another problem. She have loan from payday loan. The loan is small around $1000. It's a small amount of money. If she lives with me continuously I'll easily pay that loan. Also she has one of her mollar taken by doctors because her parents can't afford going to dentists and when they come to the dentists it's late. Her mom is a single mom.
All those are very easy problems to solved. But I have this principle that everything must be transactional. She come only during holiday. About 1 month or 2 every 6 months.
One day, worrying about her loan I got an idea. I told her she can send nude videos. She doesn't reply.
About 3 months ago, I ask her again. This time she sent 1 hour of nude video. I thank her. Pay her $25. Tell her to create 5 more hours for $125. She said yes. But then I worried. What about if after I pay her loan that is now $4k with this she just leave? So I back pedal a little bit and ask to send 1 hour at a time.
She doesn't reply. This time I am suspicious. She has this big loan. The videos are the only way to pay her loan quickly. Why doesn't she hurry up sending more. Not like I need that many nudes but I need that loan to be paid. Even multi millionaires like me fear high interest loans. Yes it's small. Only $4k but it used to be only $1k a year ago.
I expected her to come back to my place again on next holiday. She came to Jakarta. Should have come on 9th. But she almost doesn't reply my message. Even blocked my WA. She claimed that her mom checked her WA so she has to temporarily block my WA. Then she claimed she doesn't put my contact on address book so it took a while to unblock my WA.
Then she sent me a letter that says that she needs only to pay $2k for her loan to be forgiven due to discount. I was relieved. $2k is very small. I expected her to come to my house like usual soon and we work things out. PPM + video + a small loan for me we'll make it in time.
It's more than $1k per month I usually spend. So I jokingly told her to prepare to be sex slave. But she is already very smart, beautiful and very submissive. I can fuck her in front of my bro strip her in front of my employee. Anything more degrading than that and it can be dangerous. Like I don't want her to attract attention of other guys that may want to fuck her too.
But she doesn't reply. It took so long for her to reply my message.
Finally I am tired of this. I told her she needs to make lots of nude videos because I really don't like lending money.
She told me she already found out someone more worth it than I am. That someone lend her $2k and tell her to pay her anytime when she latter have money.
I asked her, who is this person? Her girlfriend? (She's somewhat lesbian, which I don't mind and actually like), another sugar daddy, another sugar mommy? No answer.
I thought she was joking. I used to be her most generous sugar daddy by far. Her other sugar daddy are just guys hiring her as a whore paying her $66. Actually my demand for nude videos are mainly to prevent her from doing PPM with other sugar daddies. Instead of that, just send me 5 hours of nude videos.
Whatever. $2k is small for me. I am a multimillionaire. But I do not like lending money. I don't want to spend a lot of money on women only for them to leave me.
So I wait a few days. A friend of mine ask her and she said the loan has been paid.
I jokingly offer her that I got promotion too raising her PPM rate by 20%. No reply.
My other sugar baby friend, someone that I no longer like because she's in her 30 but need money ask her about me. At first Z said she has feeling for me after 3.5 years. Someone just told her to stay away from me. Can't have many sugar daddy.
That girl asks if she wants to meet me again. The girl told Z that she sees me being sad. Z just blocked her.
I told her fine, I'll lend her $2k so she leaves whoever she's with and come with me. She blocked.
I sent $3 via telegram. She leaves the chat. In telegram my message has one check but it doesn't look like she blocked me. I typed, is this actually read? No reply.
So many things are suspicious.
I do not know who my competitors are. Is it a sugar daddy, sugar mama, or girlfriend? Is he really paying more than I am?
I don't know what to do.
I contacted her friend. Turns out her friends want to be a sugar baby too. I suppose I can pay that one some low amount and buy nudes to build friendship. But for someone I would want to knock up and have children with, that's a bad idea.
I am very confused.
Part of me feels that she's scamming me. Perhaps she never wants to give me children. Well, I pay more for children than those who just provide entertainment. So unlikely.
Another is that due to her desperation she found a new sugar daddy that simply pays more than I am. Could be. But I like her because she has high IQ. Other sugar daddies don't care. Most sugar relationship are just straight up prostitution.
Another is that this is someone that's been with her for a long time. That person used to have to tolerate me because she needs my money. The fact that I don't lend money and she can makes her go that person instead.
But there's a catch. Her loan is already paid. She doesn't need that guy's money as much as she doesn't need my money. And I am sure I can pay more. So why stay with him?
Also why does the other sugar daddy knows about me and pay her to leave me while I don't know anything about my competitors. We said we love each other many times and she doesn't even let me response to what she may perceive as better offers from other guys?
I can find another. I really like this one.

Creating loopholes that can be exploited by bad people
Some laws are designed to have loopholes. In Indonesia for example, importing beef requires licenses. What sort of licenses? Who gets the licenses?
Everybody knows you bribe to get licenses.
The system is designed that way.
Also when we got money from government, the payment is usually cash. I know because I was an athlete. Usually I was told to sign for $500 and got $300 cash. Why is the payment cash?
The problem is easily fixed by just making it wire transfer. In fact, that's how Jokowi did it.
So all these time the payment is "cash" precisely to allow this corruption to happen
Making things that are "obvious" to be unobvious
A woman got pregnant. She accuses a man as the father. Is there an obvious ways to test paternity. Yes. Paternity tests.
It's illegal in French.
Some issues can be resolved easily. It's prohibited.
A woman have sex with a man. Is it consensual? Well, let me give you a sample. Mike Tyson have sex with a girl named Desiree Washington. Danny Masterson have sex with his girlfriend.
Is it consensual?
There are ways society can see whether something is consensual or not

1. Contract
2. Transactions

I mean it's not always that way. But the 2 are pretty strong candidates. If you go to a store and buy stuffs, it's consensual. If you take without paying it's not consensual. It's simple.
In sex, it's not. Contract can't proof consent because consent can always be withdrawn and transactional sex is illegal.
So Mike Tyson, a guy with $400 million dollar that can easily hire very beautiful women to fuck him for $1k go to jail for years.
It's like accusing Bill Gates of robbing banks in traditional way. But rape is not about sex. Rape is about power. Says feminists. Okay, how can many women that wouldn't mind having sex with Mike Tyson for free or paid convince Mike that they won't press charge for rape latter? They can't.
Danny Masterson supposedly have drugged sex with his girlfriend. It's probably untrue. Even if it's true they consented to have sex many times. She lives in his house. How many other women wants to date Danny Masterson and have sex with him without pressing rape charge latter?
I bet many.
Can those women convince Danny that they won't press charge latter? How do they? They can't.
When contract and transactions on sex is legal or enforceable, proofing consent is easy. But somehow people have to prevent obvious ways to proof consent so things become unobvious.
Here is another take. Sex must be based on love not money. Okay, if sex is based on money certain things are obvious. Some women will have market rates. We can talk if the price is enough or not. Etc. We can say if she's getting a good deal or not.
Many women are roughly equally attractive to each other. So a woman that's 7 is probably equally attractive with millions of other girls that's also 7 and probably worth the same amount of money.
But with "love"? How do you make a woman love you? Who knows. Nothing is obvious.
How do you make a woman have sex with you if you know she wants money. You pay. When transactions are clear we know what to do to get what we want. Transactional stuffs are empowering for both buyers and sellers. Non transactional stuffs are empowering for whoever define terms.
So the trick is to prevent obvious things from showing up and then argue about what's not obvious.
https://www.quora.com/How-much-money-did-Desiree-Washington-make-from-the-Mike-Tyson-trial-1?ch=1&oid=76335173&share=ad3e2755&srid=h8Eks&target_type=question&fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAR2-uMzXbOHQceXl9wi3bC4qGpD-_tP4TVlbOLWWKTfmGTHytzmR2sPeCaY_aem_AT2Ym8IGEgNPZhjvEvXdGwZoB9JF-nkNa1c7sPHXpfTSA3Hu_GKVWkA8T5i3bEBzaERtvKg44CXP9ZUpFS3oX0-v
Here is another sample
Patriarchy
Emotional need
Structural oppression
Structural racism
All those are vague idea that you can't even measure.
Why not talk about things that are easy to measure.
Like do rich people have richer children? Both how rich the parents are and how rich the children are can be clearly measurable. We can measure and yes there is a positive correlation.
Do married kids have better emotional need? How the hell to measure that? We can argue argue argue and people can say anything. People can say government infested marriage is important because kids within marriage have better emotional need fulfilled. Can't easy proof or disprove that.
Are black people poorer due to IQ, structural racism, or culture?
We can measure effect of IQ. It turns out that it's positive. We can also measure that Chinese with similar IQ than white earns more money. Chinese literally worship money. It's their culture. I sometimes wonder if Jewish stereotype is true. Maybe Jews love money too but compared to Chinese? Really? At least those jews still like things like homeland countries or whatever. As a chinese, we don't care about our country. Just money and family.
But IQ is called racists. When something can be measured objectively, suddenly it's gone from leftist naratives.

The Tyson Zone is a phrase coined by Bill Simmons to describe the point at which someone's behavior becomes so unpredictable, that there is nothing they could do that would shock or surprise the general public. The phrase is nicknamed after boxer Mike Tyson due to his bizarre public antics, both inside and outside of the ring.
Simmons himself included a couple of basketball players as members of the Tyson Zone, namely Ron Artest and Dennis Rodman.
What are some examples of other players who, in your mind, reached such ignominy? I'd be interested in filling out a list here by decade. I'll put in some of my nominees (along with some of their zany exploits that people shrugged at), and am happy for any feedback on those. I also have just four players and would appreciate any thoughts, feedback, and suggestions, and I'll update the list accordingly. I'm particularly interested in what sort of Tyson Zone players existed back in the 50s and 60s, if any.
NOTE: I'm interested in players who were both considered out-of-control both on and off the court. Let's omit players who had a respectable pro career, but then went off the deep-end in retirement.

1950s

1960s

• Reggie Harding: (from WriteBrainedJR) routinely slept through practice sessions and missed team flights; was suspended from the NBA (for a year) and received the highest ever fine at the time ($2,000) for assaulting a police officer; pointed a gun at a teammate Jimmy Rayle and threatened to kill him for being racist; threatened to kill his GM during a television interview; was the inspiration behind the robbery scene in White Men Can't Jump.

1970s

• John Brisker: hot in-game temper and quick to fight; once got ejected within the first two-minutes of a game and returned to the court multiple times before police had to threaten him with arrest if he didn't stay in the locker room; multiple teammates have reported they were scared of him and his anger and unpredictable behavior; in retirement, traveled to Uganda and disappeared, possibly participating as a mercenary fighter in a coup (see What Really Happened to John Brisker?).
  
• John Q. Trapp: while serving a suspension, drank cocktails while sitting on the bench; when Sixers coach Roy Rubin tried to sub Trapp out, he pointing to an associate of his in the stands, who flashed a gun; to avoid missing a team flight which would cause him to be fined, Trapp called in a bomb threat to delay the flight's departure.
  
• Spencer Haywood: (from ahomelessguy25) got kicked off the Lakers during the Finals because he was doing so much cocaine that he fell asleep in practice; tried to pay a hit man to kill his own head coach; purposefully tanked a game against the awful 72 Sixers in a bid to get his martinet coach fired.
  

1980s

1990s

• Dennis Rodman: Dated Madonna and married Carmen Electra; had a mock wedding where he married himself; kicked a cameraman on the baseline that he ran into; headbutted a referee; made salacious comments to the media (Bird being elevated by media-writers because of his skin color, making off-color comments about Mormons); traveled to North Korea to meet with Kim Jong Un.

2000s

• Ron Artest: Went into the stands and instigated the Malice at the Palace; while on the Bulls, applied for a job at Circuit City; elbowed James Harden in the head; weird comments to the press after Game 7 of the 2010 NBA Championship.

2010s

2020s

Hope you are doing fine, there's no lie that I miss your presence. It's more hurtful I can say. But i hate you equally " like the Mike Tyson's pinch". I have these scenarios that keep coming back like flashbacks, and I don't know if it's the same with you , maybe not because you moved on. I keep remembering the day I met you , trying to reverse it, all of it is so hazy now. You were a home to me and sometimes just how things turned up makes me think of not a worse ending that could be possible. I keep remembering the instances between us. When I asked you to bid me goodbye at last and you refused. I am not hurt because of the relationship. You were a sheer disappointment, I thought of you as someone close. I don't know what corner of this earth will make me feel at peace, yes the majority of my time I don't think about u, but all I remember u as a person is- someone who just buried me because his present was important, his marriage, his thought of family was way more above than love he had for me, I know very well indeed that You need a friend in your life, and I was someone u shared that connection with, I want to be there for u, but u dont express, and I know what happens, you just say "I understand" and that makes me feel like no, there is no possibility of mending things with such a person. All u say is- "I understand and I am sorry" because never, ever I see u saying - that , I will try to correct and mend things because I always believe in that. But I think I have accepted the fact that it's you, once u do something u just want it out of your books. No mending things, no looking back. it's hard to just collate all of what I have to say in one message. But I think, now this was our end, nothing more than a disappointing past but all that i had with u was beautiful once. I think now I hold no more right, you are in a marriage in which I won't interfere because you didn't even care to inform me that you are stepping into one. I just wish you all the best and I hope now you are happy. You left me an open book where sometimes I think of you as a smart person, surely a liar because when I called you, in the first instant you hesitated. U lied to me , I was honest with you, You closed things off with me last night before the engagement because you were scared I may do something impulsive, well if u think that, then surely good I am not in your life. I hope for once you admit the truth if that is true. But on the other hand, somewhere I Trust the person you were, Somewhere maybe things turned bad for you, but in any sense, this remains a mystery to me. Anyways, I wanted you to know, that I never moved on after You left, I dated no one. That was the only lie I could tell.

Alright, buckle up, buttercup, because we’re about to blast off into the wild, whimsical world where Picasso meets Stephen Hawking. We’re talking about that odd but fabulous fusion of art and science—yes, today it’s all about astronomical art! Ever wondered what a black hole might look like if it was a contestant on "RuPaul's Drag Race"? Or perhaps you’ve pondered how nebulae might do on "The Voice"? Well, you’re in the right galaxy, because we’re diving deep (sans complex math) into the cosmic funhouse mirror of astronomical phenomena. Let’s paint the universe with a palette that’s got more colors than a Billie Eilish hairdo!
First up, black holes. Those mysterious cosmic vacuum cleaners that suck up everything, even light. But instead of presenting them with terrifying mathematical formulas that look like Starbucks orders from another dimension, artists have stepped in with their brushes blazing. Imagine a black hole not as a scary, all-consuming monster, but more like Beyoncé—fierce, captivating, and center stage in every photo. Artists use swirling, mesmerizing colors and light effects that make these celestial phenomena look like they're about to drop the hottest album of 3024.
Moving on to nebulae—those space nurseries where stars are busier popping than popcorn at a Marvel movie marathon. Now, explaining these with hardcore science jargon can be as dull as watching paint dry on a humid day. But bring in the artists, and suddenly, it's like the nebulae are throwing a color rave party that even the Guardians of the Galaxy would RSVP to without a second thought. Vibrant hues and dynamic swirls turn these gas clouds into abstract masterpieces, where every brushstroke tells the tale of a star's birth. It's like Van Gogh’s "Starry Night" went on a date with a telescope!
Then there are the star formations, which, let’s be honest, are the cosmic equivalent of watching grass grow unless you’re viewing them through the Hubble-turned-Hockney lens. Artistic renditions of these stellar babies can transform them from snoozeville to spectacular. Picture this: it's as if the stars are having a dance battle, and each one's trying to outshine the last, popping and locking across the canvas in an array of shimmering lights and radiant colors.
Now, how does all this artistic magic help the everyday Joe or Jane in learning science with art? Imagine trying to grasp the workings of the universe by watching a silent film in binary code. Yeah, not happening. But splash that science with some artistic sauce, and suddenly, the universe is a character in a sitcom, cracking wise jokes as it explains its own laws like Sheldon in a "Big Bang Theory" rerun. It's learning through laughter and awe, keeping you hooked like a season finale cliffhanger.
For instance, when artists depict a supernova, they're not just throwing paint on a canvas like Jackson Pollock having a tantrum. They're carefully crafting a visual explosion that captures the drama and power of a star’s grand finale—no mathematics required. It’s like translating the "War and Peace" of the cosmos into a TikTok dance challenge—digestible, fun, and definitely a crowd-pleaser.
And let’s not forget how these artistic interpretations can spark conversations as spicy as a Twitter feud about who should win "American Idol." By visualizing these complex astronomical concepts, art makes space for dialogue, curiosity, and education. It's like having Neil deGrasse Tyson and Andy Warhol co-host a podcast on the mysteries of the universe—informative, bizarre, and absolutely unforgettable.
So, the next time you find yourself staring up at the night sky, remember that those twinkling stars and vast, mysterious voids aren’t just subjects for scientists to study—they’re muses for artists to interpret and for us to marvel at, all without ever feeling the dread of a math test looming. Art lets us explore the universe without the need for rocket science—literally. It’s a cosmic trip as unpredictable as a Kanye tweet and smoother than a Billie Eilish melody.
In the cosmic clash of astronomical art, every canvas is a new adventure, every color a revelation of the universe’s secrets, served up with a side of interstellar insanity. It’s not just learning—it’s an experience, a wild ride through the cosmos where art and science collide in the most spectacular explosion of knowledge and creativity. And who wouldn’t want a front-row seat to that show?

With Cody finishing his story at Wrestlemania 40 and winning the WWE Championship for the first time, I was wondering how often a wrestler wins their first world championship in WWE, so I got the list of all WWE champions from Cagematch (from Buddy Rogers in 1963 to Cody in 2024) and took the dates each wrestler won the WWE Championship, converted it to just the year and tallied the results. I then did this for the World Heavyweight Championship (both 2003 and 2023 versions) and the Universal Championship and shoved them all in a bar chart.
Since I'm using Cagematch, I'm ignoring all unrecognised reigns (editor: it's just Antonio Inoki). I'll also add some context to some (though I'm not a historian so it'll probably be footnotes from Wikipedia). I don't know if tape delay will cause any issues, but let me know if you find anything wrong. Also, apologies in advance if the graphs are bad quality - not sure how to export a graph from Excel Online so had to screenshot it.
WWE Championship
No. First Time WWE Champions Per Year
As you can see, there are a couple of gaps between time for a wrestler to win their first WWE World Championship.

• In 1963, Buddy Rogers (the original Nature Boy, God rest his soul) won the inaugural title after winning a totally real tournament in Rio de Janeiro (really just withdrawing from the NWA). He lost the title to Bruno Samartino on 17th May 1963, then proceeded to hold it for the next 2,803 days - hence the next 7 years of no new champions.
• Bruno then lost the title in January 1971 to Ivan Koloff, who then lost the title to Pedro Morales in February 1971, who proceeded to hold it for 1,027 days, losing it in December 1973 to Stan Stasiak. Sometime during Pedro Morales reign, the WWWF rejoined the NWA.
• The next 3 year gap is due to Stan Stasiak losing the title 9 days later to Bruno Samartino, and Bruno holding the title again for another 1,237 days, finally losing it to "Superstar" Billy Graham in April 1977
• In February 1978, Bob Backlund won the title from Billy Graham, then proceeded to hold it for 2,135 days (ignoring Antonio Inoki unrecognised reign) and leaving a 4 year gap of no new champion.
• In December 1983, Bob Backlund lost the title to The Iron Sheik, who held it for 28 days before losing it in January 1984 to Hulk Hogan. Sometime during The Iron Sheik's reign, the WWF again ended its affiliation with the NWA.
• Hogan then held the title for 1,474 days - the 3 year gap between 1986 and 1988, losing it to Andre the Giant in February 1988. Andre then proceeded to give the title to Ted DiBiase before it was vacated and not recognised.
• The vacated title was won by Randy Savage at Wrestlemania IV in March 1988 in the tournament. He held the title for 371 days, losing it to Hulk Hogan at the next Wrestlemania in April 1989 after the collapse of the Mega Powers
• The next first time champion was at the next Wrestlemania (VI), with The Ultimate Warrior winning against Hulk Hogan in April 1990, with the Intercontinental Championship also on the line. He lost the title to Sgt. Slaughter at the 1991 Royal Rumble event, when he became an Iraqi sympathizer. Who would defeat this betrayer of the States? The "Real American" 1991 Royal Rumble winner Hulk Hogan will, at Wrestlemania VII in March 1991.
• Hulk Hogan would then lose the title in November 1991 (finally a reign within a calendar year for him) to The Undertaker at Survivor Series 1991, where The Undertaker nearly paralyzed the Real American with a Tombstone Piledriver ^{don't factcheck this brother} He would hold the title for 6 days, losing it to Hulk Hogan, before the title was vacated in December 1991 due to controversy regarding the title changes
• 1992 saw Ric Flair (Nature Boy #2) winning the vacated title for the first time at the 1992 Royal Rumble, lasting just over an hour in the match. The title then changed hands between Randy Savage and Ric Flair, throughout the year. In October 1992, Bret Hart won the title off Ric Flair at a house show in Canada.
• Bret Hart would lose the title at Wrestlemania IX in April 1993 to Yokozuna, who held it for a couple minutes before being bested by Hulk Hogan. The title would then change hands between previous champions (Yokozuna, Bret Hart and Bob Backlund), before Backlund lost the title to Diesel in November 1994 at a House Show.
• After a 1 year gap, we get our next first time World Champion in Shawn Michaels at Wrestlemania XII in March 1996, fulfilling his boyhood dream. He would lost the title in November 1996 to Sycho Sid at Survivor Series 1996. The rest of the year and 1997 would see the title changing hands between Bret, Sid, Undertaker and Michaels, including the infamous Montreal Screwjob).
• We now reach 1998 - the year with the most first time champions in a year at 4. We start with Stone Cold Steve Austin winning his first world title at Wrestlemania XIV, winning against Shawn Michaels with special guest referee Mike Tyson. He then lost the title to Kane in June before winning it again, then it was vacated following Breakdown: In Your House. Who would win the vacated title? The Rock did, at Survivor Series 1998. (It's at this moment I realised tape delays do affect things as I have Mankind winning the title on 29th December 1998 on Cagematch, but it's recognised as starting on 4th January 1999).
• 1999 begins with Mankind winning the title on tape delay (though it's under 1998 on the graph due to the above), which went up against WCW 4th January 1999 episode featuring the Fingerpoke of Doom (Ha! That's gonna put some butts in the seats, heh!) The title then changed between Rock, Mankind, Steve Austin and The Undertaker until August 1993, where Triple H won the title for the first time, followed by Vince McMahon in September and Big Show in November. If we move Mankind's win to 1999, then 1999 would have the most first time champions in a year at 4. Truly the height of the Attitude Era
• At the start of the new Millennium, nothing new happened - just the title changing hands between Triple H and The Rock, until October 2000, where Olympic Gold Medalist Kurt Angle won the title for the first time.
• In 2001, WCW folded and was brought by the WWF, bringing in a whole host of championships, including the WCW World Championship. In December 2001, at Vengeance, we get our next first time champion in Chris Jericho, where he defeated The Rock and Stone Cold in the same night to unify the WCW and WWF World titles into the WWE Undisputed Championship.
• With the inclusion WCW talent and the plethora of main event talent still from the Attitude Era, the WWF (now the WWE) initiated the first Brand Split in 2002, splitting the roster into 2 (Raw and Smackdown) with the undisputed title holder appearing on both shows. In August 2002 at Summerslam where Brock Lesnar beat The Rock so hard he left for Hollywood. Then Brock Lesnar signed exclusively to Smackdown, causing Raw to introduce the World Heavyweight Championship (WHC - more on this later)
• With the Brand Split in full effect, we wouldn't see our next first time champion until February 2004 (as between 2002 and 2003, the title primarily switched between Brock Lesnar and Kurt Angle, and also Big this one time), with Eddie Guerrero winning it at No Way Out 2004. He then lost it to JBL in June 2004 at The Great American Bash, holding it for 280 days (something about Tuesdays?), before losing it in April 2005 at Wrestlemania 21 to some guy called John Cena.
• 2006 would start with Edge cashing in his Money In The Bank contract to win the title (also the title is now on Raw). The other first time champion in 2006 was Rob Van Dam, winning in June at ECW One Night Stand against John Cena.
• After John Cena regained the title in September 2006 at Unforgiven, he held it for over a year (380 days) before having to vacate it in October 2007. Who would win the vacated title? Randy Orton did (well technically he was handed it, then lost then won it again in the same day). The rest of the year and into late 2008, the title changed between Triple H and Randy Orton. The other 2008 first time winner was Jeff Hardy in December 2008 at Armageddon.
• In 2009, Edge won the title back at the Royal Rumble, then lost it to Triple H at No Way Out in February, who then lost it to Randy Orton in April at Backlash. Randy lost the title to the next first time winner Batista at Extreme Rules in June (meaning 3 members of Evolution held the title in successive fashion) (then almost immediately vacates due to a torn bicep). Throughout the rest of the year, the title changed hands between Randy Orton and John Cena, until December 2009 at TLC, where Sheamus captured the title for the first time.
• After almost a year of the title being traded between John Cena, Batista, Sheamus and Randy Orton, The Miz cashed in his Money In The Bank in November 2010 to win the title for the first time.
• 2011 has tied-second place for number of first time champions at 3 (tying 1999 or 1998 depending on how you view when Mankind's first won the title) - the first of the year took place at Money In The Bank 2011 in July in Chicago, where CM Punk defeated John Cena and left with the title and without a contract, kickstarting the 2011 Summer Of Punk (which lasted ~ 8 days). The next first time champion is Rey Mysterio, who won the tournament to win the "Vacated" title on 25th July 2011, only to immediately lose it to John Cena the same night, then CM Punk returned. Just under 3 weeks later at Summerslam in August, CM Punk defeated John Cena to unify the titles, then was immediately beaten by the next first time winner: Alberto Del Rio, cashing in his Money In The Bank (I just want to point out here that Cagematch treats CM Punk winning at MOTB sand Summerslam as 2 different reigns, which is why there are 148 (at time of writing) entries Cagematch but only 147 on Wikipedia, as it treats it as a continuation of reign).
• The rest if 2011 and all of 2012 don't have any first time champions as the title ended back on CM Punk in November 2011 where his 434 day reign began, losing it to The Rock at Royal Rumble 2013, who then lost the title to John Cena at Wrestlemania Twice In A Lifetime. In August 2013, at Summerslam, John Cena was beaten by the next first time winner: Daniel Bryan. He held the title for a couple minutes before Randy Orton cashed in his MITB contract. Later in December 2013, the title was unified with the WHC.
• 2014 saw no first time winners as the title switched from Randy Orton to Daniel Bryan (the climax of the Yes Movement at Wrestlemania XXX), then the vacation of the title to John Cena, then to the squash of John Cena by Brock Lesnar at Summerslam 2014. Brock Lesnar would hold the title until March 2015 at Wrestlemania 31 where he lost it to Seth Rollins cashing in his MITB contract and carried out the heist of the century. Following a knee injury, the title was vacated and won by Roman Reigns for the first time at Survivor series in November, beating former Shield teammate Dean Ambrose, before losing it to Sheamus cashing in his MITB contract in 5 minutes. The next first time winner was in June 2016 at Money In The Bank where Dean Ambrose won and cashed in his MITB contract to win the title from Seth Rollins (all three members of the Shield were consecutive first time WWE holders as well as consecutive WWE holders on this day).
• 2016 saw the return of the Brand Split, with Dean Ambrose taking the WWE championship to Smackdown, while Raw received the Universal title (less about this later). The other 2016 winner was AJ Styles, winning it at Backlash 2016 in September from Ambrose. He would hold onto the title until January 2017, at the Royal Rumble, losing it to John Cena, who then lost it in February at Elimination Chamber to the next first time winner: Bray Wyatt.
• Bray would go on to lose the title to Randy Orton (winner of the 2017 Royal Rumble) at Wrestlemania 33 in April 2017. With 13 world championships under his belt, who would defeat Orton? The unhindered Jinder Mahal would in May 2017 at Backlash (an upset to some, and definitely not a ploy to appeal to a certain market). Just over a week before he was scheduled to face Brock Lesnar at Survivor series in November 2017, Jinder would lose the title to AJ Styles, robbing us of a masterpiece.
• AJ would go on to hold the title for 371 days, losing it to The New Daniel Bryan in November 2018 (again, right before Survivor Series before he was scheduled to face Brock Leshar again). Daniel Bryan would hold the title until Wrestlemania 35 in April 2019, where he would be defeated the next first time winner: the face of Kofimania: Mr Gatcho - Kofi Kingston. Kofi would hold the title for 180 days before losing it to Brock Lesnar on Smackdown's 20th Anniversary.
• 2020 saw the rise of our next first time winner (and unfortunately the shutdown of the world for a couple of years), with 2020 Royal Rumble winner Drew McIntyre winning the title off Brock Lesnar in April (or March depending on how you view tape delays) at Wrestlemania 36, in front of an empty crowd ^{(don't worry, he'll get his moment... eventually}) Drew would hold it for the majority of 2020, dropping the title once to Orton at Hell In A Cell in October, before winning it again about 3 weeks later.
• Drew would lose the title to The Miz, cashing in Otis' MITB (which he won at Hell In A Cell) at Elimination Chamber, before losing it 8 days later in March 2021 to our next winner: Bobby Lashley. His reign would last until September 2021, where he would lose the title to noted meat connoisseur Big "3 Ain't Enough I NEEd 5" E, who cashed in his MITB contract. Big E would hold the title until January 2022, losing it to Brock Lesnar
• The next 2 years would see no first time champions, as the title bounced from Brock to Bobby, back to Brock (sensing a theme here), then to Roman at Wrestlemania 38, where it was unified with the Universal Championship in a match dubbed "The Biggest Wrestlemania Match of All-Time" (remember this?). With Roman holding the title for 735 days (just the WWE title counting), it would be a whole 2 years before he finally lost the title at Wrestlemania 40 to 2 time Consecutive Royal Rumble winner Cody Rhodes, who finally finished his story after coming just short a year prior.

And that is a list of all first time champions of the WWE World Championship. Next I'll be going through the secondary world titles (WHC, Universal and WHC(2023)) in one go.
World Heavyweight Championship, Universal Championship and World Heavyweight Championship (2023)
No. First Time WWE/WHC/UNI/WHC(2023) Champions Per Year
The graph is in chronological order on when they first won one of these titles, so there are some differences the the original since there are some who won the WHC before the WWE Championship. These are:

1. Randy Orton: WHC August 2004, WWE October 2010
2. Batista: WHC April 2005, WWE June 2009
3. Rey Mysterio: WHC April 2006, WWE July 2011
4. CM Punk: WHC June 2006, WWE July 2011
5. Daniel Bryan: WHC December 2011, WWE August 2013

One thing you notice is that between 2003 and 2011, the number of first time champion changes, with only 2007 remaining the same, and 2009 decreasing. 2011 is now the year with the most first time champions, with 4 new WHC champions being crowned.
The WHC was established in September 2002 after Brock Lesnar signed an exclusive contract to Smackdown after Summerslam 2002. The title lasted until December 2013 when it was unified with the WWE Championship.
The Universal Championship was established in 2016 for the 2016 Brand Split and is currently still active, as part of the Undisputed WWE Universal Championship.
The 2023 WHC was established in 2023 when no-one could beat Roman and his sporadic defences (which many have speculated would make the UWU status disputed).
I'll be listing the first time champions per year, starting with the original WHC, and try to differentiate those who are first time champions for a world title vs those who previously won the WWE Championship.

1. 2002 saw no first time champions, as the title was given to Triple H, and held by him and Shawn Michaels (both of whom have held the WWE championship prior to this)
2. 2003 saw our 1st first time champion, with Goldberg winning the title from Triple H at Unforgiven in September. He would lose the title back to Triple H in December at Armageddon ^{(if I included the WCW or NWA world titles I would go crazy})
3. Triple H would lose the title to Chris Benoit at Wrestlemania XX in March 2004, in a triple threat with Shawn Michaels. Randy Orton would then win the title from Benoit at Summerslam in August. He would then lose the title to Triple H in September at Unforgiven. The title would end the year vacated following a double fall on Raw.
4. 2005 would start with Triple H winning the vacated title at New Year's Revolution in January before being beaten by Batista at Wrestlemania 21 following his Royal Rumble win.
5. Batista would vacate the title due to a tricep injury, where the title was won by Kurt Angle (who had already won the WWE title before), before he lost it to our next first time winner: Rey Mysterio at Wrestlemania 22 in April, followed by our next first time winner King Booker at The Great American Bash in July. Batista would regain the title by the end of the year.
6. 2007 starts with Undertaker winning the WHC from Batista at Wrestlemania 23 in April, having won the WWE championship already, way back in 1991. Edge would then win the WHC in May (he previously won the WWE championship the prior year in Jan 2006 with his MITB win). He would vacate the title in July 2007 due to injury. Who would win the title, previously held by main event talent such as Shawn Michaels, Undertaker and Evolution? The Great Khali would, in July on Smackdown in a battle royale (which I think was once the most viewed video on the channel), being the only first time winner in 2007. The reign would last 61 days, going back to Batista then to Edge by the end of the year.
7. At Wrestlemania XXIV, Undertaker beat Edge in March 2008, before the title was vacated due to his submission move being too dangerous, and Edge subsequently won the title again. He lost the title after CM Punk cashed in his MITB contract in June 2008, being our next first time winner. He would lose it to Chris Jericho (previously won the undisputed WWE Championship in 2001) in a championship scramble match Punk wasn't a part of? The title would then go to Batista, to Jericho, then ending up with John Cena (previously won in 2005).
8. 2009 saw no first time champions as the title changed between John Cena and Edge, to CM Punk and Jeff Hardy (having won the WWE title earlier in 2008), then ending with the Undertaker
9. Chris Jericho won the title at Elimination Chamber in February 2010, and lost the title to the next first time winner: Jack Swagger, who cashed in his MITB contract in March on Smackdown. He would lose the title to Rey Mysterio at Fatal-4-Way in June, who in turn would lose the title to Kane, cashing in his MITB at MITB in July (Kane previously held the WWE title for a day in 1998). Edge would win the title again at TLC in December.
10. 2011 sees 4 first time champions for a single title, tying 1998/1999's record (depending on where Mankind's win lies). Would this be a recreation of the Attitude Era with new stars becoming main eventers? Maybe in a different timeline. We begin with Edge having to vacate the title for using a spear in a match, and the subsequent winner of the title was Dolph Ziggler, being handed the title on Smackdown in February. He would lose the title almost immediately to Edge at the same episode. Edge unfortunately would have to vacate the title and retire in April. His childhood friend and everybody's favorite father figure, Christian (Cage) would win the vacated title at Extreme Rules, in May, being our next first time champion. He would then lose the title to Randy Orton, and at some point in Orton's reign in August, the Brand Split ended, meaning both World titles could appear on any show.
11. In September 2011, Mark Henry would win the title from Orton at Night Of Champions, being the third new champion of 2011. He would lose the title to Big Show (previously held the WWE title in 1999), who would get cashed in by our next and final first time champion of 2011 (and the WHC): Daniel Bryan. Just for visibility here, the 2011 first time winner of the WWE Championship was Alberto Del Rio, cashing in on CM Punk.
12. With just 2 more years until the title is unified and no first time champions, I'll list the remaining journey:
    1. 2012: Sheamus defeated Daniel Bryan at Wrestlemania XXVII in 18 seconds, kickstarting the Yes Movement (Sheamus previously held the WWE Championship in 2009).
    2. 2013: Alberto Del Rio would win the title from Big Show at Smackdown in January, and would hold the title for 90 before being cashed in by Dolph Ziggler
    3. The title would then do Alberto Del Rio to John Cena to being unified by Randy Orton at TLC.

The main switches in the graph are the following:

1. Goldberg winning the title in 2003 adds a first time winner to 2003
2. Chris Benoit and Randy Orton's wins in 2004 adds 2 to 2004 (Eddie Guerrero and JBL)
3. Batista's win in 2005 adds 1 to 2005 (John Cena)
4. Rey Mysterio and King Booker's wins in 2006 add 2 to 2006 (Edge and Rob Van Dam). Kurt Angle also won the WHC in this year but he had previously won the WWE title
5. Great Khali's win in 2007 replaces Randy Orton's first WWE win since he had won the WHC in 2004
6. CM Punk's win in 2008 adds 1 to 2008 (Jeff Hardy). John Cena and Chris Jericho also won the WHC in this year but they had previously won the WWE title
7. Since Batista won the WHC back in 2005, Sheamus is the only contributor with his first WWE championship win. Jeff Hardy also won the WHC title in 2009 but he had previously won the WWE title in 2008
8. Jack Swagger's win in 2010 adds 1 to 2010 (The Miz). Kane also won the WHC title in this year but he previously held the WWE title.
9. Dolph Ziggler, Christian, Mark Henry and Daniel Bryan's win adds 4 to the 2011, but 2 of 2011 WWE wins (CM Punk and Rey Mysterio) previously held the WHC title in 2008 and 2006 respectively, meaning Alberto Del Rio's win is the sole contributor of the WWE title to 2011
10. Since Daniel Bryan won the WHC in 2011, his 2013 win is removed.

The Universal title currently has 3 first time champions, whilst the WHC 2023 has one first time champion. They are the following:

1. 2016 saw 2 first time champions, in inaugural champion Finn Balor, who held the title for one day after getting injured at SummerSlam in August. The vacated title was won by Kevin Owens at the end of August on Raw. His reign would be ended by Goldberg
2. Between 2016 and 2019, the title was primarily held by Brock Lesnar, with his 504 day reign from April 2017 to August 2018, and subsequent 2 reigns, which were broken up by Roman Reigns and Seth Rollins, followed by Bray Wyatt as The Fiend, all of which are former WWE Champions prior to winning the Universal Championship.
3. 2020 saw Goldberg win the title from The Fiend, and he was scheduled to face Roman, but due to the Pandemic, Roman pulled out and Braun Strowman beat Goldberg at Wrestlemania 36, being the next first time holder of the Universal Title.
4. The next 4 years saw Roman returning and holding the Universal title for 1316 days, from August 2020 to April 2024, where he lost the title (also unified with the WWE Championship) to Cody Rhodes
5. The other first time champion of 2024 (so far) is Damian Priest with the WHC 2023, who cashed in his MITB contract on Drew McIntyre (who had just won the title from Seth Rollins in front of a live crowd) at Wrestlemania XL in April 2024.

I considered going through all the different WWE Eras (Golden Era, New Generation, Attitude Era, Ruthless Aggression era etc), but I think there would be more insight if you include the intercontinental and US titles to see wrestlers rise and fall down the card.
Some Other Trivial Facts I Found

1. Goldberg is the only wrestler to win the WHC and Universal Championship, whilst currently Seth Rollins is the only one to have won the WHC 2023 and Universal Championship. Goldberg is also the only wrestler to have won only 2 world titles to not win the WWE championship.
2. Seth Rollins has won 3 of the 4 titles, only missing the original WHC (which he cannot win unless he invents time travel)
3. Of the wrestlers who won the WWE and WHC, Jeff Hardy is the wrestler with the shortest time between them, with 175 days between them (winning the WWE title in December 2008 and the WHC in July 2009). The largest difference is for The Undertaker at 5604 days (November 2011 for WWE to April 2007 for WHC).
4. Of the wrestlers who won the WHC before the WWE Championship, Rey Mysterio has the largest gap at 1940 days (April 2006 for WHC to July 2011 for WWE). The shortest gap is 609 days, accomplished by Daniel Bryan (December 2011 for WHC to August 2013 for WWE)

Combat sports journalist and historian Dave Meltzer has written a very in-depth obituary for Akebono in the latest edition of the Wrestling Observer Newsletter. April 15, 2024 Observer Newsletter: WWE WrestleMania 40 review, AEW airs CM Punk/Jack Perry All In footage - WON/F4W - WWE news, Pro Wrestling News, WWE Results, AEW News, AEW results (f4wonline.com)
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Chad Rowan, a Hawaiian native who became one of the biggest stars in the history of sumo as Akebono, and later had a second run as a giant MMA punching bag, and a third as a pro wrestling star, passed away earlier this month at the age of 54.
His date of death was not released by his family, which announced it on 4/11, saying he had died in a Tokyo hospital of heart failure.
Akebono was a cultural hero in the early 90s in Japan and his battles with Takanohana and brother Wakanohana had the entire country watching, drawing some of the biggest ratings in the history of Japanese television, with a couple of matches drawing more than 60 million viewers, beating the combat sports record of the 1963 Rikidozan vs. The Destroyer match.
Once, on a New Year’s Eve, 54 million people watched him face Bob Sapp in a kickboxing match even though it went head-to-head with other fighting shows and a concert that was traditionally one of the biggest events of the year on Japanese television.
At 6-foot-8 and weighing between 460 and 514 pounds during his career, Akebono and the brothers spearheaded a boom period where sumo popularity made a major comeback. In 1993, he became the first foreign born sumo Grand champion, and only the 64th Yokozuna in history, a designation that dates back to the early days of the sport in the 1600s and 1700s.
As a sumo star, he enjoyed major celebrity status in the culture, and being the first foreigner had him all over television commercials, posters all over the country and he may have been the most famous sports figure in Japan of the 1990s.
His name was such that after his retirement, he was a fantastic television drawing cards for his four MMA fights and ten kickboxing matches, of which he only won once. That was a 2005 fight over 44-year-old referee and K-1 office person Nobuaki Kakuda, a referee and office person with K-1 where one has to be suspicious whether Kakuda was there to do a job.
He later became popular as a pro wrestler, winning the Triple Crown title twice and winning the 2015 Champion Carnival tournament. He once faced Brock Lesnar for the IWGP title and did a sumo match with Paul “Big Show” Wight at the 2005 WrestleMania, which he won.
During his sumo career he won 11 tournaments at the highest level and was second 13 other times. While most consider Takanohana to have been the better sumo during that period, winning 22 tournaments before retiring due to injuries in 1993, Akebono, due to his size and being a foreigner, plus remaining in the game until 2001, was probably the bigger drawing card.
Rowan, who was listed by Sports Illustrated in their listing of the 50 greatest athletes from all 50 states for the 20th century, as No. 2 for Hawaii, behind only swimming and surfing legend Duke Kahanamoku, who won three Olympic gold medals and was later considered the father of the new sport of surfing.
“It was so sudden, and I cannot come up with words to send him,” wrote Wakanohana (Masaru Hanada) on X. “He was a person full of love.
Rahm Emanuel, the brother of Ari Emanuel and current U.S. Ambassador to Japan said Akebono in Japan served as a bridge between the U.S. and Japan and strengthened Japan’s cultural ties to the U.S.
“I was deeply saddened to learn of the passing of Akebono, a giant of the sumo world, a proud Hawaiian and a bridge between the United States and Japan,” said Emanuel on X
“Throughout his 35 years in Japan, Akebono strengthened the cultural ties between the United States and his adopted homeland by uniting us all through sport.”
Rowan was born on May 8, 1969, in Waimanalo, Hawaii, although he became a Japanese citizen in 1996, was much lighter growing up as an All-Star center on the Kaiser High School basketball team, who got a scholarship to college in that sport.
He had watched sumo on television in Hawaii and a family friend introduced him to Takamiyama, a previous major sumo star from Hawaii. At first the feeling was that he was simply too tall, and his legs were too long and he’d be too susceptible to tackles. But he had a large frame and was a legitimate athlete. He learned to make his height work for him, he used his long reach to do thrusts which would win matches quickly. He’d also use his reach to grab the sumo belt and throw his opponents to the ground.
He flew to Japan in 1988 and took to it so well he made his debut in March of that year, starting in the same tournament as Takanohana and Wakanohana, two brothers who were the sons of a former sumo star. He was given the name Akebono, which meant new dawn.
By 1990, he was in the top division, meaning top 16 in the world in the sport. In 1991, he beat his first Yokozuna, Asahifuji. He also had a legendary match with Konishiki (the person that the Yokozuna character that Rodney Anoa’i’s WWE character was based on), because it was the first time two foreigners ever faced off in a top division match.
Within the top 16 in 1991, he was a .500 level sumo that year until suddenly finding his groove in the January 1992 tournament, where he went 13-2 but still lost to Takanohana for first place. In May, also with a 13-2 record, he won his first tournament. After winning the November tournament with a 14-1 record and the January 1993 tournament with a 13-2 record, he was promoted to Yokozuna.
1993 was his peak, winning four of the six major tournaments and finishing second in a fifth. It was notable because the committee had turned down Konishiki in 1992 to be the first foreign Yokozuna. During that year he won three tournaments in a row at the top level, something historically rare.
While Takanohana won more tournaments, 22 in all, and has to be considered the best sumo of the era, he and Akebono, the two top stars, faced off 50 times in their career, with each winning 25 times.
But his size worked against him because he suffered a lot of injuries. He fell awkwardly in a May 1994 out and had a knee injury that at first was thought to be career ending. In late 1998 he suffered a herniated disc in his lower back that was again thought to be career ending. Between 1993 and 1999, he suffered a significant injury every year, and Takanohana dominated the sport from 1995 to 1997. By 1999, his weight had grown from 460 years earlier to a legitimate 514 pounds, which is likely why he was hurt so often.
Still, at that weight, he went injury-free in 2000 and had the best record of any sumo that year, going 76-14, winning two tournaments and finishing second three other times.
But after winning the November tournament, he was injured again and made the decision to retire.
But life was hard after sumo. He had opened a restaurant, “Zuna,” which was a financial failure. At the age of 44, K-1 came calling with the idea of a huge money offer that would clear his debts to face celebrity kickboxer Bob Sapp on December 31, 2003. Sapp, who briefly played in the NFL, had become the biggest foreign celebrity in Japan by this point and on a night with the hardest television competition in history, three networks airing MMA/kickboxing shows and a traditional concert, the short presentation, which saw Akebono knocked out by Sapp with two seconds left in the first round. The bout drew 54 million viewers on television and 45,000 fans to the Nagoya Dome and to this day is considered a major cultural event. It was even bigger on television than the 1976 Muhammad Ali vs. Antonio Inoki fight.
He followed by losing kickboxing matches to Musashi, one of Japan’s top stars, losing a three round decision on March 27, 2004. He also lost a decision to Rick Roufas in Las Vegas and was knocked out by Remy Bonjasky, another of the top kickboxers of that era.
On December 31, 2004, he fought Royce Gracie under MMA rules, his first time fighting with those rules. The more experienced Gracie tapped him out in just 2:13, but the bout did giant ratings, although not nearly at the level of the Sapp fight.
In March 2005, K-1 sent him to South Korea, for a tournament with the idea of making a new star is Hong-man Choi. The 7-foot-2 and 330 pounder was a former Korea style wrestler. Akebono got his only fighting win over 44-year-old referee Kakuda, to get him into the second round for the freak show fight. The idea is that Choi could become a mainstream superstar with his size and look, because he facially resembled the late Giant Baba, and the hope was that people would see this as Baba being reincarnated almost as a real fight star. The younger Choi won the fight in just 24 seconds and a rematch in Hawaii for a show built around the two saw Choi win in 2:52 via ref stoppage.
He also lost MMA fights to actor and comedian Bobby Ologun, and popular pro wrestler and MMA star Don Frye. His fighting career ended on the December 31, 2006, New Year’s Eve show in a freak show fight against Giant Silva, a former WWF pro wrestler and one-time Olympic basketball player from Brazil, who was 7-foot-4 and about 400 pounds. Silva was given Andre the Giant’s theme music and grew his hair to look like Andre, with the hope that people would see him as the reincarnation of Andre. But like Choi with Baba, it didn’t happen. Silva submitted Akebono in 1:02 with a Kimura.
He actually fought once more, when Rizin did its December 31, 2015, show. The idea was bringing back the biggest fight in history, with Akebono, at this point 46 years old, facing Sapp, who was 42. It was stopped at :49 of the second round due to a cut where Akebono was unable to continue
WWE took interest in him in 2005. He appeared on a Smackdown episode to build a battle of the giants under sumo rules with The Big Show, and before that, won his first pro wrestling in a TV squash on March 31, 2005, over Eddie Vegas. He beat Show in a sumo match that didn’t get over at that year’s Mania. He also shot an angle on a WWE tour of Japan, where Show was wrestling Carlito and Matt Morgan kept interfering and Akebono made the save. Show & Akebono beat Carlito & Morgan in his second pro wrestling match on July 2, 2005.
He started with All Japan on August 4, 2005, losing to the Great Muta in the first round of a tournament. This led to the angle where he and Keiji Muto became a tag team and feuded with the Voodoo Murders. Muto & Akebono lost in the finals of the 2005 tag team tournament to the Dudleys. Largely due to his celebrity status, he was named Rookie of the Year by Tokyo Sports and he and Muto were named tag team of the year in the 2005 awards.
He went to New Japan in 2006, first teaming with Riki Choshu to win a non-title match over IWGP tag champions Masahiro Chono & Hiroyoshi Tenzan. He also lost an IWGP title match to Lesnar. He and Choshu were in the 2006 G-1 tag team tournament and he was in the 2007 G-1 tournament, but mostly lost. In the 2007 tag team tournament, Akebono & Chono lost in the finals to Giant Bernard (Matt Bloom) & Travis Tomko (Tyson Tomko in WWE).
He also did comedy, teaming with Tiger Mask under a Tiger Mask as Bono Mask, basically the role Andre the Giant did earlier as Giant Machine. He also wore a Great Sasuke outfit to team with Sasuke as The Great Bonosuke. He was back in the 2007 G-1 tournament but again didn’t win much.
In 2007, he joined the Hustle promotion as a comedy figure, Monster Bono. The idea was he was the giant son of the Great Muta and Yinling, coming out of a giant egg. The gimmick was that he acted like a toddler in the ring but was 500 plus pounds. He would do whatever his mother, Yinling, wanted. She had him join the Monster Army headed by Nobuhiko Takada. At one point he rebelled and quit, but his mother forced him back in.
At one point in storyline Yinling died when being crushed accidentally when her “son” fell on him. They also did a storyline for a father-and-son battle with Muta & Akebono against Toshiaki Kawada and his real-life father, called Mr. Kawada, which Muta & Akebono won. All of this stuff really didn’t draw much and Hustle was a money pit for rich backers who had this idea of pure comedy wrestling. He left the promotion in 2009.
He continued to wrestle for various promotions, but mostly All Japan, through 2015. During this period he held the All-Asia tag title with 500-pound Ryota Hama. Again, largely due to his celebrity status, Akebono & Hama were named 2009 tag team of the year in Japan.
He did comedy as Brazo de Bono, a knockoff on Super Porky, Brazo de Plata, the famed Luchador.
On October 27, 2013, he defeated Suwama to win the Triple Crown. But his health went bad and he had to forfeit the title in May 2014. He came back to win the 2015 Champion Carnival tournament, beating Suwama in the finals. He also won the world tag team title with Yutaka Yoshie as his partner, beating Jun Akiyama & Takao Omori. On May 21, 2015, he beat Go Shiozaki to win the Triple Crown for a second time.
He lost it on November 1, 2015, to Akiyama and then became a free agent.
That led to his Rizin bout with Sapp and also starting a new promotion with Motoko Baba, the widow of Giant Baba. But the promotion really went nowhere, since Akebono had heart problems and had to retire and Motoko Baba passed away on April 14, 2018.
Akebono’s last pro wrestling match was April 11, 2017, on a DDT show where he teamed with Yasu Urano & Harashima in losing to Yoshihiro Takayama & Yuto Aijima & Shigehiro Irie.
He also won the All Japan world tag team title twice, with Taiyo Kea and Yoshie, the Dragon Gate Triangle Gate title with Masaaki Mochizuki & Don Fujii, the KO-D trios titles with Sanshiro Takagi & Toru Owashi, the IC tag titles in Zero-1 with Shinjiro Otani, Daisuke Sekimoto and Shogun Okamoto, and the Zero-1 world heavyweight title,.
Shortly after the match, he wasn’t feeling well and suffered an undisclosed heart condition. He was put in an induced coma. His family said media reports weren’t true, saying his had cellulitis of the right lung and an infection. Later Japanese media reports were that the cellulitis claim was a cover story for a serious heart issue.
His wife finally said in March 2018 that he had suffered acute heart failure and was in a medically induced coma for two weeks. He dropped 130 pounds and was confined to a wheelchair. In 2019 it was reported that he had lost the use of his legs and suffered memory loss. It was also reported that he no longer remembered being a pro wrestler or fighting, but could recall his days in sumo.

My story isn’t anything too special, but I was inspired to post it after seeing some others and figured some of you may enjoy hearing the tale. It also just kind of feels good to vent. Plus, it has a pretty awesome ending I think many here will absolutely love!
My grandparents were Irish Catholic, and as such they raised my mother and her two sisters Catholic. They of course in turn raised me, my brother, and my cousins Catholic. I remember I used to take God very seriously when I was a child in elementary school. So much so that when I found out a fellow classmate was an atheist I was one of the kids following him around saying, “God can smite you!” Jeebus I’m cringing just remembering it. I remember the first time we went to church they had donuts. It was some special occasion so it didn’t happen again, but I remember going back every Sunday and being disappointed that I “got up for nothing.” I had no idea what was going on every time I was there. I just remember standing when the adults stood, kneeling when they kneeled, putting money in the tray that my mom would hand to me (I miss you money…), and doing the “peace be with you” handshakes that would for some reason always end up being an elderly man. I remember bullshitting my way through my first communion because I didn’t know any prayers. I remember I showed up to do it while sick because if I missed it I’d have to do it again in front of everyone on my own and my social anxiety would've given me a fcking heart attack. Finally, I remember the final nail on the cross (badum tss) which was CCD. Basically a school we went to every week on the weekends where they just made us all sing Catholic songs and read passages from the Bible and maybe do a religious coloring book or two. It’s actually way more unnerving and creepy now that I’m remembering it in detail again (I’m actually now remembering when the head lady made us sing “this little light of mine” as loud as we could so the neighbors in the residential house next door could hear us and “brighten their day”). Even my mother gave up on sending us to CCD because of how miserable we were attending it. My mother, who was never as strict about religion as her parents, also finally gave up on church because we were just as miserable getting up for that and she was an overworked, overstressed parent that just wanted to sleep in. She still insisted we were Catholic and that we believed in God. I was just happy to not have to deal with the "boring stuff." Little did I know this was the beginning of my journey to freedom. When we first learned about evolution later in elementary school I didn't have the church, or CCD to push back and tell me it was false, and because my mother was sane enough to not believe religion over the basics of science I didn't receive pushback from her either. As I grew older and learned more and more about science I became enthralled. Astronomy became such an obsession that my 5th grade teacher would admit to me that she had no idea what I was talking about when I'd go on long speeches to our class describing white dwarfs, and brown dwarfs, and black holes, and red giants, and all the stuff I was enamored by yet still barely scratching the surface of! This is around when I hit middle school. The start of the darkest period in my life.
It was the start of my eyes opening to the world around me. With unlimited access to technology and internet I could gain access to limitless information. YouTube had well established itself by this point and I was watching it all the time. Of course all this eye opening happening rapidly at once wasn't as great as it seemed. As I learned more and more about climate change (global warming they were still more focused on teaching us at that time), wars and conflicts overseas, the horrible disasters that happened, terrorism, the realization that economically I'd been dealt a bad hand all began sinking into my brain and I fell into a really horrible depression. What'd I do about it? I was still a Catholic at this point, so I prayed! All the time I asked God to make things better, to help me and others not suffer, yet the troubling global news continued and my own future looked more and more bleak. Then my grandfather died. Well, my depression was obvious now and my school sent me to a psychiatrist, who in turn (and this is a GREATLY simplified explanation of events that leaves out the reason I will never forgive my father) sent me away to a mental hospital. My mother pulled every string she could to get me out, I was out in three days thanks to her persistence. However, three days in this place (which was later closed for multiple human rights violations) had done its damage to me. Now I wasn't depressed, now I was misanthropic, hate filled, and suicidal. Needless to say my faith in God had been shaken. What follows next is actually kind of hilarious. I still sort of believed in God, but was angry at him. Like, I blamed him for everything and pulled a child like tantrum in prayer form where I gave the ultimatum, "help me or I'm done believing in you!" (I'm sure the Christian trolls that lurk in this sub will have a field day with THAT being where my atheism started, but I'm not going to fudge the truth).
After that I started taking to YouTube to learn more about all the things I knew religious people didn't like such as the big bang, evolution, and atheism in general. I learned of lots of scientists that to this day I look up to like Neil deGrasse Tyson (meeting him has still been the greatest thing ever)! I began to watch atheist YouTubers like TheAmazingAtheist, cultofdusty, and Darkmatter2525 (I haven't checked on them in years so here's hoping nothing controversial happened). Very quickly I began to realize, "wait a minute... I actually understand and believe everything these atheists and scientists are saying." All the evidence, all the tearing apart bible stories like Noah's Arc with actual facts, statistics, and modern understandings of science; I realized very quickly that everything I had been told made zero damn sense and that the science was irrefutable. So I went from being a Catholic pretending to be an atheist to spite God, to an actual atheist that didn't believe. I remember there was one moment where the predatory nature of religion sucked my younger self back in with the fear of "what if I'm wrong and I'm going to be tortured for eternity in hell?" I convinced my mom to take us back to church and that one time was all it took to remind me that it was a bunch of bullshit. Fast forward a few years and I'm in high school now. 2016. I'm now even older and even more aware of how screwed my generation is, world tension at a peak, not just me; but my entire school is hyper fixated on our economic misfortune and on domestic and international politics, Brexit, Trump, school shootings happening at unprecedented levels while we were... y'know... still in school, a myriad of personal issues and anxieties added onto my now properly diagnosed clinical depression combined with the fact that I now no longer believed there was an afterlife... I felt very safe, overjoyed even, at the notion of permanently ending my misery. I made some small crying for help moves, but did make a proper serious attempt when I tried to down some pills and alcohol that would've succeeded if not for the pills being expired.
Well, after that my school decided to get me help, real help this time. My guidance councilor was so helpful and supportive and just the greatest man I've ever met that I straight up almost pursued a career as a guidance councilor so I could help students the way he helped me. Outside of school I began seeing different therapists and was given anti-depressants. I finished off my high school career not doing too fantastically, but well enough that for two years I just squeaked by in the honor roll. I still haven't been to college at almost 23 because... Poor. Though, I am hoping to start cheaper online courses soon. I've got a job with the National Park Service and I'm hoping to eventually pursue a degree in the realm of Cosmology or Astrophysics and use my federal status to transfer to another more relevant agency or department.
Now, I know I've gotten a bit off topic with my ex-religious journey, but it comes back into play now with that happy ending I mentioned before. During these struggles my mother was not doing too well. Any decent parent would be in shambles if they found out their son had attempted suicide. She became a lot less judgmental, a lot more willing to listen to me and engage with the things that made me happy. The entire time I was becoming an atheist she was... upset? Angry? She wasn't willing to punish it, but she certainly tried to change my mind. She forced me to watch Passion of the Christ, she'd have me go to a church function and when I'd protest that I was an atheist she'd angrily snap back, "You're NOT an atheist!" Well, now she finally wanted to hear me out. In the time off my school gave me she sat down and watched movies like Arrival with me and sit there stunned as I instantly recognized the 4th dimension physics the movie was implementing and began lecturing about it to her while she tried to keep up google searching the plot to see if I was right lol. She'd ask me about the early universe and I'd giddily go into depth about the earliest gasses of the big bang condensing into massive stars that then produced more elements that after going supernova created different kinds of stars that made even more elements. The history of the Earth and our evolution, I got her to watch Neil deGrasse Tyson's Cosmos with me. It was amazing. Over time, while she still believes there's a God or higher power of some kind, she no longer believes in any organized religion. She became a fan of Neil deGrasse Tyson through me and we went to see several of his tours. I should also add that while he didn't play a big role in my story, my brother too listened to my fascination with science and changed. He's gone from being Catholic, to atheist, to agnostic. A final note is that while I'm not too close to my cousins, I do know that they also are not very religious. If they do believe in God, they certainly aren't going to church over it. Just kind of goes to show each generation being less religious than the last!
I'm still not in a super happy place. I still have fears for the future and my new issue is my crippling loneliness, when you spend the better half of your middle school and high school years convinced you're going to be dead soon... well, you don't care about your health and hygiene and tend to let yourself go. I'm improving myself, though. Losing weight, trying to catch up on my hygiene and I'm hoping that in maybe 2 years time I'll be a more attractive prospect and can feel confident hitting the dating apps! Ultimately my end goal in life has become to find that special someone and one day start a family. I dream of being a better husband and father than mine was. I'm ultimately in a much better place now.
Thanks for reading! Share your journey in the replies! I'd love to read it!
TLDR: Realized the world sucked, threw a temper tantrum with sky daddy over becoming an atheist if he didn't fix things, realized I actually believe and understand all the science and evidence instead of the religious crap, eventually convinced my mother and younger brother to give up on religion too!

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1. Prepared

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1. The Fitness Mindset

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1. To Shake the Sleeping Self

A Journey from Oregon to Patagonia, and a Quest for a Life with No Regret
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1. The Setup

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The Lethal Danger of Celebrity
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The Lasting Legacy of Tiger Woods
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Unleash the Power of Your Microbiome to Reverse Disease and Transform Your Mental, Physical, and Emotional Health
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A Brief History of Humankind
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The New Science of a Lost Art
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1. The Real Anthony Fauci

Bill Gates, Big Pharma, and the Global War on Democracy and Public Health
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1. Welcome to the Universe

An Astrophysical Tour
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1. A Short History of Nearly Everything

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1. Letters from an Astrophysicist

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1. The Big Picture

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1. Guns, Germs and Steel

The Fate of Human Societies
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Length: 16 hrs and 20 mins
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1. Astrophysics for People in a Hurry

Narrated by: Neil deGrasse Tyson
Length: 3 hrs and 41 mins
Release date: 05-02-17
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1. Red Famine

Stalin's War on Ukraine
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1. Darwin Devolves

The New Science About DNA That Challenges Evolution
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The Biology of Humans at Our Best and Worst
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1. Determined

A Science of Life Without Free Will
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1. Written in Bone

Hidden Stories in What We Leave Behind
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1. Homo Deus

A Brief History of Tomorrow
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1. Why We Remember

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(And Why Anything That Can Happen, Does)
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By: Venki Ramakrishnan
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Release date: 03-19-24
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1. Einstein

His Life and Universe
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4.5 out of 5 stars15,177 ratings
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1. Hidden Valley Road

Inside the Mind of an American Family
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1. Hidden Figures

The American Dream and the Untold Story of the Black Women Mathematicians Who Helped Win the Space Race
By: Margot Lee Shetterly
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Length: 10 hrs and 47 mins
Release date: 09-06-16
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1. A Wild Idea

By: Jonathan Franklin
Narrated by: George Newbern
Length: 10 hrs and 34 mins
Release date: 08-10-21
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1. Biomimicry

Innovation Inspired by Nature
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1. How We Learn

Why Brains Learn Better Than Any Machine...for Now
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Length: 10 hrs
Release date: 01-28-20
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1. American Prometheus

The Triumph and Tragedy of J. Robert Oppenheimer
By: Kai Bird, Martin J. Sherwin
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Length: 26 hrs and 30 mins
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1. Until the End of Time

Mind, Matter, and Our Search for Meaning in an Evolving Universe
By: Brian Greene
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Length: 14 hrs and 36 mins
Release date: 02-18-20
4.5 out of 5 stars1,492 ratings
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1. The Holographic Universe

The Revolutionary Theory of Reality
By: Michael Talbot
Narrated by: Nick Mondelli
Length: 13 hrs
Release date: 04-15-21
4.5 out of 5 stars371 ratings
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1. The Body

A Guide for Occupants
Narrated by: Bill Bryson
Length: 14 hrs and 4 mins
Release date: 10-15-19
4.5 out of 5 stars6,553 ratings
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1. Lifespan

Why We Age - and Why We Don't Have To
By: David A. Sinclair PhD, Matthew D. LaPlante
Narrated by: David A. Sinclair PhD
Length: 11 hrs and 55 mins
Release date: 09-10-19
4.5 out of 5 stars7,307 ratings
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1. Parallel Worlds

A Journey Through Creation, Higher Dimensions, and the Future of the Cosmos
By: Michio Kaku
Narrated by: Marc Vietor
Length: 14 hrs and 50 mins
Release date: 07-05-16
4.5 out of 5 stars1,370 ratings
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1. This Idea Is Brilliant

Lost, Overlooked, and Underappreciated Scientific Concepts Everyone Should Know
By: John Brockman
Narrated by: Cassandra Campbell, Charles Constant
Length: 16 hrs and 11 mins
Release date: 01-16-18
4.5 out of 5 stars142 ratings
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1. The Ultimate John Muir Collection: Our National Parks, Stickeen, My First Summer in the Sierra, The Yosemite, Travels in Alaska, & A Thousand-Mile Walk to the Gulf

By: John Muir
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Length: 36 hrs and 13 mins
Release date: 01-08-21
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1. An Immense World

How Animal Senses Reveal the Hidden Realms Around Us
By: Ed Yong
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Length: 14 hrs and 17 mins
Release date: 06-21-22
5 out of 5 stars1,579 ratings
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1. The Naturalist

Theodore Roosevelt, A Lifetime of Exploration, and the Triumph of American Natural History
By: Darrin Lunde
Narrated by: Scott Brick
Length: 9 hrs and 56 mins
Release date: 04-12-16
4.5 out of 5 stars704 ratings
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1. Evolution Gone Wrong

The Curious Reasons Why Our Bodies Work (Or Don't)
By: Alex Bezzerides
Narrated by: Joe Knezevich
Length: 9 hrs and 12 mins
Release date: 05-18-21
4.5 out of 5 stars196 ratings
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1. Transformed

Moving to the Product Operating Model
By: Marty Cagan
Narrated by: Marty Cagan
Length: 10 hrs and 9 mins
Release date: 03-12-24
4.5 out of 5 stars19 ratings
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1. The Worst Hard Time

The Untold Story of Those Who Survived the Great American Dust Bowl
By: Timothy Egan
Narrated by: Jacob York
Length: 12 hrs and 57 mins
Release date: 02-16-22
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1. Your Dog Is Your Mirror

The Emotional Capacity of Our Dogs and Ourselves
By: Kevin Behan
Narrated by: Patrick Lawlor
Length: 12 hrs and 8 mins
Release date: 11-03-20
3.5 out of 5 stars446 ratings
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1. The Earth Transformed

An Untold History
By: Peter Frankopan
Narrated by: Peter Frankopan
Length: 29 hrs and 11 mins
Release date: 04-18-23
4.5 out of 5 stars32 ratings
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1. Starry Messenger

Cosmic Perspectives on Civilization
Length: 7 hrs and 17 mins
Release date: 09-20-22
5 out of 5 stars3,610 ratings
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1. Fire Weather

A True Story from a Hotter World
By: John Vaillant
Narrated by: Alan Carlson
Length: 14 hrs and 18 mins
Release date: 06-06-23
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1. Rewire Your Anxious Brain

How to Use the Neuroscience of Fear to End Anxiety, Panic, and Worry
By: Catherine M. Pittman PhD, Elizabeth M. Karle MLIS
Narrated by: Susannah Mars
Length: 6 hrs and 30 mins
Release date: 07-29-15
4.5 out of 5 stars1,596 ratings
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1. Cosmos

A Personal Voyage
By: Carl Sagan
Narrated by: LeVar Burton, Seth MacFarlane, Neil deGrasse Tyson, Ann Druyan
Length: 14 hrs and 31 mins
Release date: 05-30-17
4.5 out of 5 stars9,287 ratings

1. Wasteland

The Secret World of Waste and the Urgent Search for a Cleaner Future
By: Oliver Franklin-Wallis
Narrated by: Chris Harper
Length: 11 hrs and 2 mins
Release date: 07-18-23
5 out of 5 stars15 ratings
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1. Entangled Life

How Fungi Make Our Worlds, Change Our Minds & Shape Our Futures
By: Merlin Sheldrake
Narrated by: Merlin Sheldrake
Length: 9 hrs and 32 mins
Release date: 05-12-20
5 out of 5 stars3,803 ratings
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1. The Great Unknown

Seven Journeys to the Frontiers of Science
By: Marcus du Sautoy
Narrated by: Marcus du Sautoy
Length: 14 hrs and 41 mins
Release date: 04-11-17
4.5 out of 5 stars175 ratings
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1. The Grieving Brain

The Surprising Science of How We Learn from Love and Loss
By: Mary-Frances O'Connor
Length: 8 hrs and 1 min
Release date: 02-01-22
4.5 out of 5 stars231 ratings
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1. The Dawn of Everything

A New History of Humanity
By: David Graeber, David Wengrow
Narrated by: Mark Williams
Length: 24 hrs and 13 mins
Release date: 11-09-21
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1. The Underworld

Journeys to the Depths of the Ocean
By: Susan Casey
Narrated by: Susan Casey
Release date: 08-01-23
5 out of 5 stars77 ratings
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1. Sand Talk

How Indigenous Thinking Can Save the World
By: Tyson Yunkaporta
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1. The Bomber Mafia

A Dream, a Temptation, and the Longest Night of the Second World War
By: Malcolm Gladwell
Narrated by: Malcolm Gladwell
Length: 5 hrs and 14 mins
Release date: 04-27-21
4.5 out of 5 stars8,801 ratings
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1. I Contain Multitudes

The Microbes Within Us and a Grander View of Life
Narrated by: Charlie Anson
Length: 9 hrs and 52 mins
Release date: 08-09-16
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1. The Hidden Life of Trees

What They Feel, How They Communicate - Discoveries from a Secret World
By: Peter Wohlleben
Narrated by: Mike Grady
Series: The Mysteries of Nature Trilogy, Book 1
Length: 7 hrs and 33 mins
Release date: 09-13-16
4.5 out of 5 stars6,234 ratings
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1. Inspired

How to Create Tech Products Customers Love, Second Edition
Length: 7 hrs and 45 mins
Release date: 03-20-18
4.5 out of 5 stars2,624 ratings
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1. Thinking in Systems

A Primer
By: Donella H. Meadows
Narrated by: Tia Rider Sorensen
Length: 6 hrs and 26 mins
Release date: 07-26-18
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1. The Moral Animal

Why We Are the Way We Are: The New Science of Evolutionary Psychology
By: Robert Wright
Narrated by: Greg Thornton
Length: 16 hrs and 30 mins
Release date: 06-29-10
4.5 out of 5 stars1,863 ratings
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1. A Walk in the Woods

Rediscovering America on the Appalachian Trail
Narrated by: Rob McQuay
Length: 9 hrs and 44 mins
Release date: 09-25-12
4.5 out of 5 stars11,492 ratings
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1. The Origin of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind

By: Julian Jaynes
Narrated by: James Patrick Cronin
Length: 16 hrs and 1 min
Release date: 04-03-15
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1. The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks

By: Rebecca Skloot
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Length: 12 hrs and 30 mins
Release date: 02-02-10
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1. The Genius of Birds

By: Jennifer Ackerman
Narrated by: Margaret Strom
Length: 11 hrs and 54 mins
4.5 out of 5 stars572 ratings
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1. Eve

How the Female Body Drove 200 Million Years of Human Evolution
By: Cat Bohannon
Narrated by: Cat Bohannon
Length: 15 hrs and 54 mins
Release date: 10-03-23
4.5 out of 5 stars309 ratings
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1. American Buffalo

In Search of a Lost Icon
By: Steven Rinella
Narrated by: Steven Rinella
Length: 7 hrs and 42 mins
Release date: 07-30-19
5 out of 5 stars9,917 ratings
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1. Algorithms to Live By

The Computer Science of Human Decisions
By: Brian Christian, Tom Griffiths
Narrated by: Brian Christian
Length: 11 hrs and 50 mins
Release date: 04-19-16
4.5 out of 5 stars17,206 ratings
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1. Through Two Doors at Once

The Elegant Experiment That Captures the Enigma of Our Quantum Reality
By: Anil Ananthaswamy
Narrated by: René Ruiz
Length: 7 hrs and 36 mins
Release date: 08-07-18
4.5 out of 5 stars229 ratings
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1. Scarcity Brain

Fix Your Craving Mindset and Rewire Your Habits to Thrive with Enough
By: Michael Easter
Narrated by: Michael Easter
Length: 9 hrs and 18 mins
Release date: 09-26-23
4.5 out of 5 stars407 ratings
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1. Pale Blue Dot

A Vision of the Human Future in Space
Narrated by: Carl Sagan, Ann Druyan
Length: 13 hrs and 18 mins
4.5 out of 5 stars1,923 ratings
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1. The Hidden World of the Fox

By: Adele Brand
Narrated by: Jane McDowell
Length: 5 hrs and 10 mins
Release date: 10-22-19
4.5 out of 5 stars25 ratings
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1. The Confident Mind

A Battle-Tested Guide to Unshakable Performance
By: Dr. Nate Zinsser
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Release date: 01-25-22
5 out of 5 stars411 ratings
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1. The Molecule of More

How a Single Chemical in Your Brain Drives Love, Sex, and Creativity - And Will Determine the Fate of the Human Race
By: Daniel Z. Lieberman MD, Michael E. Long
Narrated by: Tom Parks
Length: 8 hrs and 13 mins
Release date: 10-01-18
4.5 out of 5 stars2,606 ratings
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1. Home Waters

A Chronicle of Family and a River
By: John N. Maclean
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Release date: 06-01-21
4.5 out of 5 stars93 ratings
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1. The Demon-Haunted World

Science as a Candle in the Dark
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Length: 17 hrs and 23 mins
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1. How Emotions Are Made

The Secret Life of the Brain
By: Lisa Feldman Barrett
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Length: 14 hrs and 32 mins
Release date: 03-07-17
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1. In the Form of a Question

The Joys and Rewards of a Curious Life
By: Amy Schneider
Narrated by: Amy Schneider
Length: 6 hrs and 47 mins
4.5 out of 5 stars58 ratings
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1. Pests

How Humans Create Animal Villains
By: Bethany Brookshire
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Length: 10 hrs and 51 mins
Release date: 12-06-22
4.5 out of 5 stars35 ratings
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1. The Good Virus

The Amazing Story and Forgotten Promise of the Phage
By: Tom Ireland
Narrated by: Ben Deery
Length: 10 hrs and 20 mins
Release date: 08-15-23
5 out of 5 stars12 ratings
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1. A Sand County Almanac

And Sketches Here and There
By: Aldo Leopold, Barbara Kingsolver - introduction
Length: 4 hrs and 16 mins
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1. All Creatures Great and Small

The Warm and Joyful Memoirs of the World's Most Beloved Animal Doctor
By: James Herriot
Narrated by: Christopher Timothy
Series: All Creatures Great and Small, Book 1
Length: 15 hrs and 41 mins
Release date: 12-26-99
5 out of 5 stars7,397 ratings
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1. This Is Your Brain on Parasites

How Tiny Creatures Manipulate Our Behavior and Shape Society
By: Kathleen McAuliffe
Narrated by: Nicol Zanzarella
Length: 8 hrs and 20 mins
Release date: 06-07-16
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1. The Code Breaker

Jennifer Doudna, Gene Editing, and the Future of the Human Race
Narrated by: Kathe Mazur, Walter Isaacson
Length: 16 hrs and 4 mins
Release date: 03-09-21
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1. The Many Hidden Worlds of Quantum Mechanics

By: Sean Carroll, The Great Courses
Length: 11 hrs and 51 mins
Release date: 11-24-23
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Notes from a Black Man in the Natural World
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Length: 10 hrs and 25 mins
Release date: 06-13-23
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Engineer Your Path to Joy
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1. Freakonomics

Revised Edition
By: Steven D. Levitt, Stephen J. Dubner
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Length: 7 hrs and 51 mins
Release date: 06-14-07
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1. The Ride of Her Life

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By: Elizabeth Letts
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The Epic Battle Between People and Pathogens
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1. The Making of the Atomic Bomb

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By: Richard Rhodes
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Alexander von Humboldt's New World
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By: Stephen Hawking
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A Personal Memoir of My Years of Lockheed
By: Ben R. Rich, Leo Janos
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Release date: 07-14-15
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1. My Penguin Year

Life Among the Emperors
By: Lindsay McCrae
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Length: 7 hrs and 28 mins
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1. The Spinning Magnet

The Electromagnetic Force that Created the Modern World - and Could Destroy It
By: Alanna Mitchell
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1. Waking Up

A Guide to Spirituality Without Religion
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Length: 5 hrs and 53 mins
Release date: 09-09-14
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I’m sorry this is so long but I don’t know what else to do to keep her from making the same mistakes I made!/
My (41f) daughter, Kayla’s (19f) boyfriend, Rick(21m) and she have been dating exclusively for over 2 years. He’s a decent kid who’s gotten into some trouble a couple of times, whether it be drugs or fighting, speeding, or anger but overall he’s a good kid. He goes to church and treats Kayla very well usually. They’re young so they have their arguments and disagreements but mostly they’re attached at the hip and he spends a lot of time here./
His home life isn’t terrific and he cannot hold down a job to save his life, so I’m trying to be the motivator without crowding them. He will ask me for advice and I think of him as - not mine, per se, but maybe something closer than just the boyfriend. Someone I can guide, I suppose./
Kayla has always been a very personal person. She will come to me if there’s a major problem but small inconveniences will stay under her hat, so I don’t get all the deets on her life. She lives at home working a part time job at the local deli and full time doing in my home babysitting for an old coworker of mine. She’s independent and saves her money and helps with bills and chores around the house. Kayla’s not the cleanest person but she’s my child so I just repeatedly tell her to clean it up until she gets mad at me for not doing it for her and she does it herself./
Rick’s home life consists of younger siblings who don’t go to school, a mom who doesn’t work, and a dad outside the home that supports everyone he’s not allowed to see. It’s a whole can of worms I am not willing to dissect right now since the current issue is what I need help with./
Rick’s 21st birthday was Friday. Kayla worked at the deli until 2pm and told me she was going out with Rick for his birthday to some bars with the typical teenage promise of “I promise I won’t drink, mama! Can I please go in the bar with him? His dad will be there!” I told her that was fine and to behave and be safe. That I loved her. She told me she loved me back and I didn’t hear anything else, as normal when she’s spending time with Rick./
Several hours later, around 7pm, the dogs bark so I look out the door and see my daughter walking up the driveway, mud caked all down her butt and legs, sobbing hysterically. I run outside and grab her frantically asking if she’s okay, “Where’s Rick? Did she WALK home? What happened? Did you fall?” She throws her arms around me in the driveway sobbing that she doesn’t know what happened, he ran away from her and he won’t answer her calls, he called her a fu**ing bitch and ran away! I’m thoroughly confused but also getting angry./
You see, throughout the last couple of years, when Rick had a bad day or a stint in the wrong direction, he would show “hints” of angry outbursts. He is always very careful not to show it much. He has been through court ordered therapy for crystal methany abuse, is supposed to take some medication for some mental issue I am not privy to, and usually seems to have a handle on himself. Because of these issues and more, I keep one ear and eye open and communicate honestly with my daughter./
Some backstory on me is that I was in a 9 year narcissistic abusive relationship that almost ended my life. As in, 3 neighbors all around me heard my screams and called the sheriffs. 2 months later I was single and evicting that person from my house and life. That was 3 years ago now. I’ve gone through extensive therapy and protocols with EMDR and medication to get back to “normal” but when I can feel the shift from a normal angry outburst to “outrage” my radar goes off./
Rick has alerted me a couple of times and normally kayla can make him knock it off. For the next 2 hours, my Godsend son, Tyson (17m) and I comfort Kayla. Bringing her electrolytes and a bucket, hugging her, rubbing her back, getting her blankets and pillows and letting her cry. The entire time she tells us she just doesn’t understand. She doesn’t know what happened. It’s absolutely heartbreaking to see and moreso to know I cannot fix this for he
More comes out though, as the apparent liquor she lied about drinking, courses through her. They drank at Rick’s dad’s house then went to a distillery, where they didn’t get served, just sat around and talked she thinks. Later they’re driving home and Rick is mumbling about his cousin, suddenly calling Kayla a effing bitch and jumps out of the car his dad is driving and runs off. They call to him, try to find him for a while but can’t so Kayla calls him over and over until the dad drives her home and drops her at the end of the driveway and Rick answers long enough to tell Kayla to yell “stop effing calling me!!” [enter scene where I come in]/
Rick’s sister messages a drunk Kayla with me sitting there asking who gave Rick alcohol?!? As if he’s not allowed to have any? Then tells Kayla that Rick was just arrested and taken to jail. Kayla freaks out more. Tyson takes over her care and he brings her to her room and sets her up while she’s trying to recover. A little while later, Kayla comes downstairs and I’m in the spare room next to the bathroom where Kayla’s on the phone with someone saying “Rick was found by the police in town intoxicated with bloody fists. He fought the cops, threatened to slit their throats, and they had to tase him because he was “acting psychotic”. Another half hour goes by and she’s telling the same phone person that he was sent to a mental hospital and given a “knock out shot” because he was acting feral. She doesn’t know what happened. She’s confused./
I don’t know what happened to him, why he shouldn’t have alcohol, etc. I do know that the way he treated Kayla and the cops, that he needs help now before this gets out of control. He needs therapy and to take the meds he’s supposed to be taking (Kayla informed me yesterday he hasn’t been taking them but not why. I’m deliberately kept in the dark). We had a long heart to heart on Saturday. We’ve spoken in length about what I’ve been through. She knows. She was there for most of it. Now she knows all the nitty gritty. How much I loved him. How it was so hard to see the bad because he was sO gOoD!/
She told me she understood. That Rick is in the hospital until Thursday and she’s okay with him not being allowed here any longer. I told her this is a huge boundary for me and I told her how she needs to think of her future. That he needs help. She agreed./
Tonight she messaged me that she really hopes I change my mind because he treats her so well and he didn’t mean it. He just can’t drink anymore. That’s it. I told her he is not allowed here. End of story. He needs therapy. She thinks I hate her, of course. I don’t hate her. I’m doing this because I love her. I’m doing this because I care for her. She keeps telling me this is a one time thing. She calls him names too! what’s the big deal??/
I still don’t know why she was caked in mud. I need your help, Dusty, Candy, Tony, Kadin ANYONE! How can I make her see? Am I being too harsh? I know what it’s like needing to make your own mistakes. I want to let her but I’m terrified. What if he hurts her? How can I sit back and let her do this? I can’t stop her but I don’t know what else to say or do. Am I the asconaut for banning Rick from the house until he gets the help he needs?