Talumpati ni jose rizal

I know I know, pedophiles are the worst diba? but I never imagined na sa mismong religion na kinabibilangan ko ay may mga predetors most of them are BEM(nag sstudy as minister) and may mga tungkulin.
So I have a gf she's pretty and she has everything a men wishes for. And one day inaantay nya ko sa harap mismk ng church and 4 men approached her all of them are BEM and nag offer yung isa ng ride then sumunod naman yung isa na sya nalang then yung isa sabi sya nalang, yung isa tahimik lang daw. Then umalis na yung tatlo, before sila umalis sinabihan nila gf ko na aantayin nila pag lumaki na sya. Pero yung isa naiwan, then bigla syang lumapit sa gf ko then sabay sabi "may bf kana ate? ako nalamg po joke" sabay tawa then nagsalita ulit sya and sabi nya "ang kinis mo po noh? pwede mahawakan?" then naging uncomfortable na gf ko so umalis nalamg sya and lumipat nalang. May isa pang experience gf ko sa BEM din, she told me na yung isang BEM sa lokal nila is minamanyakan talaga sya since then hanggang ngayon.
Then meron pang isa SCAN sya 23 years old and yung friend ng gf ko is 14 years old, niligawan ni scan si 14 years old and naging sila naman then SCAN is a kind and gentleman na lalake then one day dinala nya si 14 years old sa motel and forced her to have sex with him kaso tumanggi si 14 years old kaya nag break sila. After break up, nag papansin naman si SCAN sa gf ko (minors palang kami both ng gf ko) and nung nag break kami ng gf ko syempre nag rant gf ko sakanya kasi nga she never knew na ganun intention ni SCAN then after ilang days nag start mag papansin tong si SCAN sa gf ko and inaaaya nya na stroll daw sila papuntang manila hills (place sya dito sa Rodriguez Rizal) and syempre we have a friend na kasama sa gang and sinabi ko yun, sabi nya sya daw bahala. Nalaman yun nung SCAN and he have the audacity to report us!!!!

May 11th
Europe
Premier league (England)
Antonee Robinson (Fulham) Started at LB and went the full 90’ in a 4-0 loss against Manchester City.Picked up a yellow in the 90th‘ (5.9/5.79) 29/36 passing Match Highlights
Chris Richards (Crystal Palace) Started at LCB and went the full 90’ in a 3-1 win at Wolves (7.2/6.71) 0/1 shot on target, 37/53 passing Match Highlights
Tyler Adams (AFC Bournemouth) Subbed on in the 80th‘ in a 2-1 loss against Brentford (-/6.10) 11/11 passing Match Highlights
Auston Trusty (Sheffield United) Started at CB and went the full 90’ in a 1-0 loss at Everton (6.8/6.99) 33/38 passing Match Highlights
League 2 - Semi-Finals - Leg-2
Jeremy Kelly (Crawley Town) Started at LWB and went the full 90’ in a 5-1 win at MK Dons. They advance 8-1 on aggregate (7.0/6.67) 1/1 shot on target, 56/66 passing Match Highlights
Segunda Division (Spanish 2nd Division)
Konrad de la Fuente (SD Eibar on loan from Olympique Marseille) Subbed on in the 70th‘ in a 2-2 draw at Levante (6.5/-) 2/3 passing, 1 chance created Match Highlights
Jonathan Gómez (CD Mirandés on loan from Real Sociedad) Started at LWB and went the full 90’ in a 1-0 loss at Racing Santander (6.5/-) 37/46 passing Match Highlights
Serie A (Italy)
Christian Pulišić (AC Milan) Started at LW and went the full 90’ in a 5-1 win against Cagliari. Won player of the match by scoring in the 59th’ and 86th’ (8.9/8.89) 2/3 shots on target, 39/45 passing, 2 chances created Match Highlights
Yunus Musah (AC Milan) Started at LCM and went the full 90’ in a 5-1 win against Cagliari (6.7/6.70) 34/38 passing
Bundesliga (Germany)
Brenden Aaronson (Union Berlin on loan from Leeds Utd) Started at RAM and played 53‘ in a 3-2 loss at FC Köln (6.6/6.40) 10/15 passing Match Highlights
Joe Scally (Borussia Mönchengladbach) Started at LM and went the full 90’ in a 1-1 draw with Eintracht Frankfurt. Assisted on their goal in the 9th’ (7.7/7.15) 25/31 passing, 1 chance created Match Highlights
Damion Downs (FC Köln) Subbed on in the 74th‘ in a 3-2 win against Union Berlin. Scored the game winner in the 90th’ (6.9/6.97) 1/1 shot on target, 1/1 pass
Lennard Maloney (1. FC Heidenheim 1846) Subbed on in the 65th‘ in a 1-1 draw at Freiburg (6.1/6.10) 5/7 passing Match Highlights
2. Bundesliga
Nathaniel Brown (FC Nürnberg on loan from Eintracht Frankfurt) Started at LB and played 85‘ in a 3-0 win against Elversberg (7.4/7.15) 0/1 shot on target, 37/42 passing, 1 chance created Match Highlights
3. Liga
Joe-Joe Richardson (SV Sandhausen) Started at RM and played 86‘ in a 4-2 loss at SV Waldhof Mannheim (-/-) Match Highlights
Mael Corboz (Arminia Bielefeld) Started at RCM and went the full 90’ in a 0-0 draw with Hallescher FC (-/-) Match Highlights
Terrence Boyd (SV Waldhof Mannheim) Started at RST and went the full 90’ in a 4-2 win against SV Sandhausen. Scored in the 9th’ and 44th’
Marcel Costly (FC Ingolstadt) Started at RB and went the full 90’ in a 6-1 win against Lubeck.Picked up a yellow in the 57th‘ (-/-) Match Highlights
Ryan Malone (FC Ingolstadt) Started at RCB and went the full 90’ in a 6-1 win against Lubeck
Justin Butler (Borussia Dortmund II) Subbed on in the 60th‘ in a 2-1 loss against SSV Ulm (-/-) Match Highlights
Liga Pro (Portuguese 2nd Division)
Jude Burst (Lank FCV) Subbed on in the 87th‘ in a 2-1 win against Penafiel (-/-) Match Highlights
Jupiler Pro League (Belgium)
Mark McKenzie (KRC Genk) Started at LCB and went the full 90’ in a 2-1 loss at Anderlecht (6.7/6.34) 0/1 shot on target, 35/41 passing
Gabriel Slonina (KAS Eupen on loan from Chelsea) Started at GK and went the full 90’ in a 2-0 win against RWD Molenbeek. Won player of the match (8.1/7.97) 7/7 saving
Premier League (Scotland)
Cameron Carter-Vickers (Celtic FC) Started at RCB and went the full 90’ in a 2-1 win against Rangers (7.6/6.86) 82/89 passing Match Highlights
Scott Pittman (Livingston FC) Started at RCM and played 66‘ in a 2-1 win against St.Johnstone (6.6/5.97) 17/23 passing, 2 chances created Match Highlights

1.Divisjon (Norwegian 2nd Division)
Chris Hegardt (Stabaek) Subbed on in the 85th‘ in a 3-3 draw at Moss FK (-/-) Match Highlights
Thomas Roberts (Stabaek) Started at RCM and went the full 90’ in a 3-3 draw at Moss FK
Ian Hoffmann (Moss FK) Started at LB and played 90‘ in a 3-3 draw with Stabaek. Assisted in the 73rd’ and scored in the 77th’
NordicBet Liga (Danish 2nd Division)
José Gallegos (SønderjyskE FC) Subbed on in the 61st‘ in a 1-0 win against AaB (6.7/-) 0/1 shot on target, 4/7 passing, 1 chance created, 1 penalty won Match Highlights
Liga HaAl (Israel)
Kenny Saief (Maccabi Haifa) Subbed on in the 77th‘ in a 1-0 loss against Maccabi Tel Aviv (-/-) Match Highlights

Superettan (Swedish 2nd Division)
Marcelo Palomino (GIF Sundsvall) Started at RST and played 63‘ in a 3-1 loss against Landskrona BoIS (-/-) Match Highlights
Ekstraklasa (Poland)
Ben Lederman (Raków Częstochowa) Started at LCM and played 75‘ in a 2-1 win against Pogoń Szczecin (7.4/-) 28/32 passing, 2 chances created Match Highlights
Danny Trejo (Korona Kielce) Started at LM and played 61‘ in a 3-0 loss at Jagiellonia Białystok (5.7/-) 10/12 passing Match Highlights

Fortuna 1 Liga
Szymon Lyczko (Stal Rzeszów) Started at LW and played 89‘ in a 4-2 win against Termalica Nieciecza (-/-) Match Highlights
Fortuna Liga (Slovakia)
Zyen Jones (FC Kosice) Subbed on in the 70th‘ in a 1-0 loss at Skalica (-/-) Match Highlights
Veikkausliiga (Finland)
Justin Rennicks (AC Oulu) Started at LW and went the full 90’ in a 1-1 draw with IF Gnistan (-/-) Match Highlights
Prva Liga (Slovenia)
Barnabás Tanyi (NK Aluminij) Started at RW and played 58‘ in a 4-1 win at Rogaska. Scored in the 42nd’ and 45th’ (-/-) Match Highlights
Úrvalsdeild Karla (Iceland)
Aron Jóhannsson (Valur Reykjavik) Started at LCM and went the full 90’ in a 3-1 win against KA Akureyri (8.4/-) 0/4 shots on target, 43/53 passing, 1 chance created, 1 penalty won
Kategoria Superiore (Albania)
Gledi Mici (KF Tirana) Started at RCB and went the full 90’ in a 3-0 win at Egnatia (-/-) Match Highlights
Realdo Fili (KF Teuta) Subbed on in the 84th‘ in a 1-0 win against FC Dinamo City. Scored the game winner in the 90th’ (-/-) Match Highlights
Xhelil Asani (KF Erzeni) Started at LB and went the full 90’ in a 4-0 loss at Partizani (-/-) Match Highlights
South America
Liga 1 (Peru)
Pierre da Silva (Universidad César Vallejo) Started at LW and played 87‘ in a 1-1 draw with Los Chankas (-/-) Match Highlights
Matías Succar (CA Mannucci) Started at LST and played 58‘ in a 3-0 loss at Cusco FC (-/-) Match Highlights
Primera División (Uruguay)
Matias Fracchia (Danubio FC) Started at RCB and went the full 90’ in a 2-0 loss at Cerro.Picked up a yellow in the 56th‘ (-/-)
May 12th
Europe
Championship - Semi-Finals - Leg-1 (English 2nd Division)
Josh Sargent (Norwich City) Started at ST and played 83‘ in a 0-0 draw with Leeds Utd (6.0/6.14) 0/2 shots on target, 7/11 passing, 1 chance created Match Highlights
La Liga (Spain)
Johnny (Real Betis) Started at LCM and played 59‘ in a 3-2 win against Almeria (7.3/6.79) 27/30 passing, 1 chance created Match Highlights
Luca de la Torre (Celta Vigo) Subbed on in the 87th‘ in a 1-0 loss at Atletico Madrid (-/5.93) Match Highlights
Serie A (Italy)
Weston Mckennie (Juventus FC) Started at RCM and played 45‘ in a 1-1 draw with Salernitana (6.0/6.02) 15/18 passing Match Highlights
Bundesliga (Germany)
Kevin Paredes (VfL Wolfsburg) Started at LWB and played 78‘ in a 2-0 loss at Bayern Munich (6.9/6.53) 47/54 passing, 1 chance created Match Highlights
2. Bundesliga
Johan Gómez (Eintracht Braunschweig) Started at RST and played 70‘ in a 1-0 win against Wehen Wiesbaden (6.7/6.60) 1/1 shot on target, 9/15 passing, 1 chance created
3. Liga
Santiago Castaneda (MSV Duisburg) Subbed on in the 84th‘ in a 2-2 draw with Erzgebirge Aue (-/-) Match Highlights
Kaan Inanoğlu (MSV Duisburg) Started at ST and played 46‘ in a 2-2 draw with Erzgebirge Aue
Eredivisie (Netherlands)
Ricardo Pepi (PSV) Subbed on in the 68th‘ in a 1-1 draw at Fortuna Sittard (6.3/6.25) 1/1 shot on target, 9/10 passing Match Highlights
Malik Tillman (PSV on loan from Bayern Munich) Started at CAM and went the full 90’ in a 1-1 draw at Fortuna Sittard (6.7/6.67) 1/1 shot on target, 32/45 passing, 1 chance created
Taylor Booth (FC Utrecht) Started at RW and played 55‘ in a 1-0 loss against Sparta Rotterdam (7.1/6.72) 0/3 shots on target, 7/11 passing, 2 chances created
Paxten Aaronson (Vitesse on loan from Eintracht Frankfurt) Started at CDM and played 83‘ in a 3-1 win at Heerenveen.Picked up a yellow in the 61st‘ (6.8/6.45) 0/1 shot on target, 17/17 passing, 1 chance created
Ligue 1 (France)
Folarin Balogun (AS Monaco) Subbed on in the 43rd‘ in a 2-0 win at Montpellier. Assisted on the game winner in the 52nd‘ (6.8/6.58) 0/1 shot on target, 10/15 passing, 1 chance created

Jupiler Pro League (Belgium)
Kahveh Zahiroleslam (St. Truiden) Started at ST and played 72‘ in a 2-1 win against KV Mechelen (6.3/6.49) 1/1 shot on target, 9/11 passing
Premier League (Scotland)
Dante Polvara (Aberdeen FC) Started at LCM and played 66‘ in a 4-0 win at Hibernian. Scored in the 39th’ (7.8/7.91) 1/3 shots on target, 15/19 passing, 1 chance created Match Highlights
Bundesliga (Austria)
George Bello (LASK) Started at LB and went the full 90’ in a 2-2 draw with Sturm Graz (6.1/-) 32/42 passing Match Highlights
Sebastian Soto (SK Austria Klagenfurt) Subbed on in the 83rd‘ in a 1-0 loss against Rapid Wien (-/-) 1/1 pass Match Highlights

Eliteserien (Norway)
Adam Saldaña (KFUM) Subbed on in the 81st‘ in a 4-1 loss against Fredrikstad (-/-) 5/5 passing Match Highlights
Michael Lansing (Kristiansund BK) Started at GK and went the full 90’ in a 4-2 loss against Bodoe/Glimt (5.7/-) 6/10 saving Match Highlights
Fortuna Liga (Czech Republic)
Laurent Kissiedou (FK Pardubice) Started at RCM and played 66‘ in a 3-2 win against Dynamo Ceske Budejovice (-/-)
1.HNL (Croatia)
Rokas Pukštas (Hajduk Split) Started at RAM and played 89‘ in a 1-1 draw at NK Istra 1961 (6.9/-) 14/21 passing, 2 chances created Match Highlights
Superettan (Swedish 2nd Division)
Arquímedes Ordoñez (Ostersund FK on loan from Cincinnati FC) Started at ST and went the full 90’ in a 2-1 loss at IK Brage (-/-) Match Highlights
Adrián Zendejas (Skovde AIK) Started at GK and went the full 90’ in a 2-0 loss at Gefle (-/-) Match Highlights
Protathlima Cyta (Cyprus)
Christos Hadjipaschalis (Othellos Athien) Started at LCM and went the full 90’ in a 4-1 loss at Apollon Limassol (-/-) Match Highlights
Nemzeti Bajnokság I (Hungary)
Erik Kocs-Washburn (Mezokovesd Zsory FC on loan from Debrecen VSC) Started at LW and played 64‘ in a 4-3 loss at Kisvarda (-/-) Match Highlights
Ykkösliiga (Finnish 2nd Division)
Noah Levis (Mikkelin Palloilijat) Subbed on in the 65th‘ in a 4-0 loss at KaePa (-/-) Match Highlights
Lasse Ikonen (TPS) Started at RB and played 90‘ in a 1-0 win at SalPa (-/-) Match Highlights
Gabriel Oksanen (SJK II) Started at RB and played 84‘ in a 1-1 draw at PK-35.Picked up a yellow in the 58th‘ (-/-) Match Highlights
1.CFL (Montenegro)
Luka Malešević (OFK Petrovac) Started at LB and went the full 90’ in a 2-2 draw with FK Arsenal Tivat (-/-)
Prva Makedonska Fudbalska Liga (North Macedonia)
Keith Larson (Makedonija) FK Subbed on in the 46th‘ in a 2-1 win against Bregalnica Stip. Scored in the 63rd’ (-/-)
South America
LigaPro Serie A (Ecuador)
Michael Hoyos (Independiente del Valle) Subbed on in the 72nd‘ in a 2-1 win at El Nacional (-/-) Match Highlights
Past week's Post

Hola que tal mi nombre es Jose Luis y el motivo de este correo es para quejarme de que el juego The Front el cual ustedes están a cargo, lo compre por steam el: 23 NOVIEMBRE 2023, ahora entiendo que el juego este en Juego con acceso Anticipado, pero no por eso debe estar del todo mal, mi computadora es AMD Ryzen 5 4500U with Radeon Graphics 2.38 GHz 16.0 GB el cual existe juego con más gráficas y un así mi pc lo corre ahora desde que compre su juego no eh podido jugarlo ni con los gráficos bajos necesito por favor que solucionen el problema de optimización para que lo pueda jugar en resolución de 1366x768 la verdad no lo quiero devolver porque me gustaría jugarlo pero no puedo porque todo me va lento y lo quiero jugar en resolución 1366x768 y pantalla completa por favor necesito una solución inmediata gracias y espero solucionen el problema de optimización y renderizado considere como un cliente que pago por su producto o su juego con el interés de poder jugar, no se los estoy pidiendo de gratis pague por un producto el cual me esta decepcionando, tenerlo en cuenta gracias por su respuesta y espero tengan una respuesta pronta y buena o si no por lo menos regálenme una buena pc el cual si pueda correr el juego o producto que les compre gracias y espero su respuesta saludos.

Aujourd'hui c'est un jour sans. En plus il pleut. Aujourd'hui c'est un de ces jours où tu pleures, tu sais pas pourquoi : est-ce que c'est le soleil qui pète son flair, la terre qui tourne pas rond, les humains qui marchent sur la tête tout en s'entraidant ou juste à mon échelle, un truc qui tourne connecte pas.
J'arrive plus a créer.
J'ose plus aller chez le médecin.
Allez, max 10 personnes vont voir ça je m'en fiche, j'vais le dire. J'avais parlé à quelqu'un qui a bossé sur le mv qui est sorti il n'y a pas longtemps. J'en dis pas plus. J'y ai retrouvé des détails dont on avait parlé. Leurs travail est monstrueux, ce qui est dingue c'est que lors de cette discussion j'arrivais tellement à imaginer ce qu'elle/il décrivait et voir la réalisation derrière, ils ont tellement soigné les choses, c'est bluffant. Bravo c'est magnifique !
J'suis allé voir les réactions à ce mv et c'est chouette de voir des détails qui font réagir les gens, réfléchir. Attention, je m'en accorde pas les mérites. Moi je sais simplement aider les gens à refleter leur travail et leur capacité. C'est tout ce que j'ai jamais su faire. Aider. Même si d'un autre côté j'enrage parce que j'arrive même pas à m'aider seul.
Après, j'suis vraiment mauvaise langue : on m'a énormément aidé aussi. J'me considère tellement comme quelqu'un de privilégié.
Un de mes gros défauts c'est de pas savoir réagir sur le moment.
J'ai l'impression d'être un PNJ qui essai vainement d'écrire son script, alors que ça ne sera qu'une ligne de plus perdu dans un océan de mécaniques, rappel, d'ondes et de langage binaire (j'dis ça comme si je m'y connaissais. Grosse fraude.)
L'évolution c'est beau (ironie) : ça a apporté le confort, la sécurité et les idées mais pas pour tout le monde. Parce qu'on a trouvé ça utile l'échange, des idées, des billets, des connaissances. On a tellement poussé le truc que ça a exploité des ressources de toute sortes en mobilisant des populations avec des jeux de pouvoir. Au nom de ce bon vieil espace. Ou est-ce le territoire ? Qu'est ce qui est à toi ? Qu'est ce qui est à moi ? Pourquoi t'es différent ? Mais moi j'fais mon commerce avec tel ou tel, laissez nous faire. Catégorisons, ne mélangeons pas tout mais soyons précis. Mon territoire mes règles.
L'avantage des règles c'est selon le matériel dans lequel il est fait et l'utilisation, ça aura pas la même porté ni les mêmes conséquences.
Puis, peu importe le prix, si j'y trouve mon confort, un compensation, un geste, ça ira non ? Et puis former des gens à enjoliver les choses pour les rendre attrayant c'est chouette aussi, on rigole fort. Nan, t'inquiètes, on aime bien exploiter les insécurités qu'on pourrait même en faire un système.
Ah et ne pas oublier de croiser les sources parce que sinon hop une soulevage public. Ah... cette injonction à devoir tout connaître, oui. Alors que la plupart d'entre nous, on apprend selon nos priorités, nos envies, nos rencontres, nos contextes.
Sentiment de ce post : pleurer en faisant un doigt à l'univers plein de cohérence et de contradiction. révolution. (ou j'ai juste simplement faim -de justice- sans me rendre compte : mon cerveau reconnu se gave d'information, mes cerveaux invisibles réclament ce dont ils ont besoin et qu'on ignore)

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(et après on se demande pourquoi j'suis en dépression)
force à toutes ces personnes qui créent des systèmes dans les systèmes. Ambiance insidious et parasite. Qui profite de qui, dans quel réalité ?

Did a sem gap since I relocated from Tacurong City to Davao last November. Previously studied at a school in Socksargen. 3rd year na sana this August.
One of my main options here in Davao is Rizal Memorial College - CoL since their BAR performance is good, and 1k per unit lang daw, max of 30k tuition per sem according to someone I know. Jose Maria College School of Law would also be great, but I heard very mahal daw?
Any advise or suggestions??? Hindi ako mayaman. Just making ends meet since I support my family. Can't opt for USEP since for me to transfer, dapat 1.25 ang GWA ko, and if not I need to return to 1st year. Wala akong 1.25 GWA at di rin willing to go back.

After watching GomBurZa, na-curious lang ako, if nabubuhay man si Rizal ngayon, ano kaya ang masasabi niya sa Pilipinas? Ano kaya ang maaring naging pagbabago sa kasaysayan ng Pilipinas?
He could be a keyboard warrior. Jk

First time nako musuway gabii, ug usa ra gyud ka route akong nahuman - ang Route 1: Fort San Pedro, Casa Gorordo, University of San Carlos (USC) Museum, Cebu Normal University (CNU) Museum, Rizal Memorial Library and Museum. 6 routes man ata tanan.
Overall, nindot ra baya, pero kuwang ra gyud kaayo ang 6 hours kung ganahan ka mu-visit sa tanan lugar. Kada place imong ma-visit, tatakan (with picture sa location) nila imong ticket. Nasulit ra ang Php 300 kay mura rag igo gi-plete sa airconditioned buses ug sa mga museums. Kalas lang gyud oras maghuwat for the next bus. Anyway, I'm planning to try again next year.
Ang Fort San Pedro, gi-skip nako kay kadaghan na ko naka-adto sauna.
Ang Casa Gorordo, bati ibisita sa gabii, kay dili kaayo hayag ang mga suga. Naa pud parts wa kaayo suga. Dili kaayo nimo ma-appreciate ang mga items on display.
Ang USC, daghan2x sad interesting items, especially sa religious artifacts. Ang earthenware part, medyo boring ra for me. Mas daghan ang display sa National Museum of the Philippines - Cebu, though wa ni labot sa akong route karon. Naka-visit ra ko before. Ang Ifugao section, so-so ra. Ang katong animals section, OK ra sab. Hastang daku-a man diay sa stuffed Philippine Eagle. Mas dako pas akong nawng. Naa pud toy squirrel on display. Nakapanguntana ko, "Naa ba gud diy squirrel sa Cebu?". Haha.
Ang CNU, dili puwede mag-picture2x, pero naa sad mga very old World War items gi-display. Medyo kuyaw lang ang floor kay naay uban parts mu-uyog, labi na kung kusog kaayo ang imong pagtamak. Murag ilisanan gyud ilang salog. I would have loved to spend more time here, especially mag-basa2x sa mga war-related writeups, pero decided to move fast, kay daghan waiting sa gawas.
Ang Rizal Memorial Library and Museum, wala kaayo items in display, more on sa theme sya sa event - ang Beloved Bisaya. Naay mga mga tarp gipapilit about Ignacio Alcina, ang pari nga nagsuwat ug libro about Visayas. Also, TIL from one of the tarps:

the Bisaya means "a happy man" or "a man of fine and pleasant disposition" which is derived from its root word aya, saya, or caya, all pertaining to a "person of fine disposition" or "a pleasant and happy person".

Sa next floor, medyo boring. Naay mga display on Sinulog pictures, mostly kinuha sa mga photographers during Sinulog. Sa lower floor, naay mga artists didto nag-sketch sa mga dagway sa mga tao. Ang Cebu City Library, puwede ra pud masudlan, pero wa man kaayo ko nakita interesting didto, or needs more time para mag-tuyok2x.

Je vais vraiment pas bien, mais apparemment de l'extérieur j'ai l'air d'aller beaucoup mieux alors j'ose rien dire. De toute façon même si je le disais ça changerait rien pour moi. Je sais même pas à quoi pourrait ressembler le bonheur, le fait d'être heureuse. D'aussi loin que je me souvienne ça a toujours été neutre au mieux. Ça à commencé à dérailler vraiment j'avais 4 ans. Je m'en suis pas rendue compte à ce moment là évidemment, mais avec le recul ça saute aux yeux. J'avais des comportements complètement anormaux. Ma mère s'en est rendue compte d'ailleurs. Même si je le cachais, j'ai toujours caché tout ça. J'ai commencé à avoir des pensées suicidaires à 8 ans. Et c'est paradoxal mais c'est ce qui m'a permis de vivre presque normalement. Parce qu'avant... j'avais peur tout le temps. Peur de n'importe quel événement. J'ai passé des milliers d'heures à imaginer comment réagir à toutes les situations imaginables. Pour être prête. Mais ça ne suffisait pas, il restait toujours des imprévus. Alors pouvoir me tuer c'était vraiment rassurant. C'était la solution à toutes ces situations inextricables. Puis il y a eu 4 mois d'enfer vers mes 13 ans, (précédés par 3 ans de... semi-enfer) au bout de ces 4 mois j'étais censée mourir. J'avais tout planifié. Mais c'était pas vraiment parce que j'en avais envie. C'était parce que j'y étais obligée par les circonstances. Ma seule option de fuite c'était la mort. Quelques jours avant j'ai craqué et j'ai fini par en parler. La situation a fini par se régler momentanément. Encore à l'heure actuelle cette situation pourrait se présenter à nouveau n'importe quand. Et me remettre dans la même situation. Mais j'ai appris à vivre avec cette épée de Damoclès, même si je déteste le fait que les actions d'autrui puissent me pousser à un suicide immédiat. Mais alors que je pensais que le suicide était laissé de côté la situation étant résolue, j'ai réalisé que je voulais mourir. Sans raison particulière. J'ai pas eu une vie facile mais aucun événement n'explique tout les "symptômes" qui en résultent. Outre les idées suicidaires il y a des scarifications/atteintes à mon corps depuis l'enfance (se donner des coups, se taper contre les murs ou les meubles, se griffer, s'arracher la peau), les insomnies sévères (par moments je tourne autour de 2h par jour pendant plusieurs semaines ce qui fini par me causer des hallucinations), une attirance pour toutes les substances addictives (et notamment l'alcool et les médicaments) même si pour le moment j'arrive encore à la régulelimiter j'y pense en quasi permanence. Mais aussi des pertes de mémoire, de la paranoïa, au sens général de la chose, s'imaginer, puis être persuadée d'être surveillée, penser que les gens me veulent du mal, imaginer des choses qui n'ont jamais existé et être incapable de savoir si elles sont réelles. Il y a aussi une certaine séparation avec "moi", je ne suis pas vraiment moi, mon corps n'est pas mon corps, mon visage n'est pas mon visage (je ne me reconnais pas dans un miroir par exemple), j'ai souvent l'impression de ne pas exister, j'en doute vraiment. À priori je fais une dépression, ou du moins je "présente un état dépressif". Je ne me lève pas. Ou presque. Je peux passer une semaine dans le noir sans manger juste parce que j'en ai ni l'envie, ni l'énergie. Je suppose que ça explique mon envie de crever. Mais ça peut pas être juste ça, je veux dire pourquoi un tel résultat ? Je sais même pas pourquoi j'écris ça ici. Ça ne me sert à rien. C'est pas comme s'il existait une solution. Au cas où, je vois déjà une psy, une infirmière et une éducatrice, ça ne m'aide pas. Au contraire. Mais j'y suis obligée. On peut aussi se poser la question de pourquoi je suis encore là ? C'est vrai, depuis le temps j'aurais du faire quelque chose, non ? Il y a plusieurs raisons à cela, mais globalement j'ai raté l'occasion par peur de rater et maintenant je suis bloquée pour une durée indéterminée. Sinon vous imaginez bien que j'aurai déjà réglé le problème. Enfin bon... Je vous souhaite une excellente soirée.

I (22F) living in Rizal and Baguio naman s’ya (25M). Gusto ko lang ilabas tong nararamdaman ko. Almost 10 mos kami magka talk pero walang label last call nmin na masaya kami is April 4 and nag end kami ng April 25. Naging distant s’ya n cold bigla after ng last call namin.
Sa last usap namin paulit-ulit niya sinasabi na wag ko siyang iblock daw and hindi pa naman daw ito last na usap namin kaya kalma daw ako kasi panay ako iyak sa last call namin na mag end na.
Reason niya why naging distant siya kasi distance issue daw and he can’t wait much longer at ayaw niya daw ako i-pressure. Graduating ako and i have a lot of things na need unahin akala ko naiintinindihan n’ya ‘yon and may usapan na kami about meet after netong graduation ko or punta s’ya sa graduation ko. PUNYETA talaga
hindi ako naniniwala sa rason n’ya na wala lang s’ya gana. Ramdam ko na may iba and nakita ko sa tiktok niya na may isa nadagdag sa followings niya , lagi ko siya inistalk at ako lang naman babae don and the rest is mga kaibigan niya na nikwento jya sakin, pati fave picture ko sa ig post nya inarchive niya, yung comment ko sa tiktok nya denelete tapos inunfollow ako sa pinterest eh kami lang naman mag ka followan doon.
Kahapon inistalk konulit sya and nakita ko nadagdagan na friends nya sa fb and sinearch ko agad name ni ghorl yun friends na sila sa fb btw yung ghorl din sa ig followings nya yun fin ang pinaghihilaan ko iisang babae lang.
Inask ko yun nong last call namin iyong ghorl sa kanya sabi niya “Si pat? No no no, friend ko ‘yan outside Baguio and taga Pangasinan naman yan dito sa Baguio nag aaral, architecture din yan at nag bibilyard at minsan nagrereply sa stories ko sa billiard. HAHAHAHA POTANGINA ANG SAKIT
itong mga nakalipas na araw my times na delulu ako na pagnagkita kami sa Baguio etc. Ilang beses din ako umiyak. Sanay ako na araw araw kami magkacall and bonding nong nakita ko na friends na sila sa fb sabi ko ito na yun, tanggap ko naman nong una. Ang sakit lang talaga sa part ko pero thankful ako kay Lord na gumagaan na yung pakiramdam ko at hindi na ganoong kabigat para sakin. Minsan hindi ko maiwasan na sumagi ito sa isip ko, masakit sa una. Wala akong inentertain na sinong lalake man hindi ko kaya kung siya kaya nya agad na palitan ako edi tatanggapin. Bumabalik na ako sa dati kong gawi at masaya ako sa self ko kasi medyo may progress ako sa pag momove on kahapon mabigat sa feeling na napapalitan ng galit oero di naman magtatagal to at di naman ako nagtatanim ng galit. Minute ko lahat sa account nya para di ko makita ganap nya sa buhay “out of sight, out of mind” ika nga.
akala ko siya na hindi pa pala . mayado ko inaidolize yung pagiging matured niya na pag iisip pero hindi naman pala emotionally intelligent nabulag ako na akala ko ang perfect niya kasi matangkad siya, maporma, volleyball player(hobby), maputi, maitsura like ideal type talaga.
masakit ‘to sakin pero kaya ko ‘to. ily kyle

hello. currently staying in a 1BR apartment sa brgy. rizal, taguig/makati. ung current rent namin is 8k per month. balak po sana namin limupat sa mas malaki na apartment ni misis since magsstart na kami magbuo ng family. gusto ko lang po malaman ano yung mga range ng rent for 2BR apartments around the area if meron. bago lang din akk sa paghahanap ng apartment at ayaw namin ma-scam or tumuloy sa overpriced na rent.
i am working abroad while my wife works in BGC near sm aura. need lang po namin ng matutuluyan habang nagwwork pa si misis sa area. thank you for your help in advance.