Hi everyone, I’m 13 weeks PP and exclusively bottle feeding (CMPA) and having the worst headaches likely stemming from neck strain that radiates to back of my head, front of neck and chest, shoulder blade, upper back, and arm. I carry her mostly on left side and that’s where all this happened. I’ve been getting every single type of headache (tension headache, cluster headache, migraine, TMJ) and it’s been awful this past week. Had bloodwork done and just came low on vitamin D. Waiting on MRI results that PCP ordered just to be safe. Started neck PT two days ago. ER doc, PCP, and PT all believe it’s from neck strain causing tension headaches and rest of pain. Along with anxiety + sleep deprivation, lack of food, & proper hydration. I’m at the point that I can’t even carry my baby anymore. Doc has ordered complete rest and at least 8+ hrs of uninterrupted sleep. They didn’t prescribe any pain meds but ER recommend ibuprofen + Benadryl. Please share any insight or advice.

This article discusses some of the best smoothies for pregnancy. Smoothies may be incredibly tempting during pregnancy for a variety of reasons.
When you're pregnant, especially in the first trimester, nausea and vomiting (often referred to as morning sickness) can make eating or holding down your favorite foods difficult.
As your pregnancy advances, you may have heartburn and a sense of fullness. Necessitating changes to your regular meals and snacks. Smoothies are frequently beneficial.
While nausea can make you need something cold and straightforward to digest, like a smoothie, many pregnant women are also preoccupied with their regular lives while preparing for their baby's arrival.
Doctors, nurses, relatives, friends, and practically everyone you know advocate fruit smoothies for pregnant women. And it's for a good purpose.
With the importance of a well-balanced nutritional diet and a focus on keeping the mother's vitamin and mineral intake on track, putting together a complete meal plan and guaranteeing its availability around the clock can be difficult for anyone.
Compared to all of that, making a simple smoothie simply combining a few ingredients, blending it, and savoring an irresistible taste is a lot better option any day of the year.
Let's discuss some of the best smoothies for pregnancy without further ado.

1. Soothing Mango Green Smoothie

This smoothie is fantastic to try if you have an upset stomach, nausea, or digestive troubles. The lemon and ginger assist in preventing nausea, and the cashews and hemp hearts provide protein, which is an important component of blood sugar regulation, which is a significant role in the nausea game," Taylor explains.
Hormone changes in pregnancy can produce nausea. You can alleviate some pregnant women by regularly eating to keep blood sugar levels stable.
Also, eat a balanced diet that includes foods high in protein and complex carbs to help manage your blood sugar and minimize the severity of nausea.
Ingredients include Water, Spinach, Hemp Hearts, Apple, Fresh Ginger, Fresh Lemon Juice, Raw Cashew, and Frozen Mango.
Furthermore, in a high-powered blender, combine all ingredients and blend on high for 30 seconds, or until smooth.
Taste and alter the ingredients as needed, adding more water to thin it down, ice to cool it down, more cashews to thicken it up, or more mango to sweeten it up.

2. Labor Prep Smoothie

The Labor Prep Smoothie is ideal for the final weeks of pregnancy. According to Taylor, carbohydrates, protein, and fiber are the three most critical components of a work snack.
This pregnancy smoothie contains raspberry leaf tea and dates. Two of the most popular end-of-pregnancy foods have been shown to help with labor speed. Also, women who drank raspberry leaf tea spent less time in labor, according to tiny research from 1998.
Furthermore, women who ate dates had a shorter first stage of labor and a higher risk of spontaneous labor, according to a small 2011 study.
These were both modest studies that would need to be repeated. However, including raspberry leaf tea and/or dates into your meals or snacks can be delightful and may have health advantages.
Ingredient for preparing Labor Prep Smoothie includes: Iced raspberry leaf tea, Frozen Raspberry, Rolled Oats, Frozen Avocado Chunks, Collagen Powder, Lemon Juice, etc.

3. Banana Berry Pregnancy Smoothie

This smoothie is especially beneficial during the first trimester since bananas contain potassium. An important electrolyte that must be supplied if vomiting occurs.
Berries offer a sweet and tangy flavor to the smoothie and are one of the highest-fiber foods, which can aid with constipation.
In this smoothie, protein comes from both plants and animals. Hemp's hearts are a good plant protein source. Hemp hearts contain fat that may benefit cardiovascular health, "Lvova explains.
Furthermore, Choline, a vital vitamin during pregnancy, is found in cow's milk. Choline is essential for brain growth and other functions.
Choline is found in various foods, including milk, eggs, fish, and soybeans. This is one of the best smoothies for pregnancy.

4. Maple Peach Smoothie

Lvova made this pregnant smoothie with yogurt and milk to guarantee that both mom and baby get enough calcium.
Omega-3 fatty acids are abundant in flax seeds. DHA, one of the omega-3s found in small amounts in flax (and more considerable amounts in fatty seafood like salmon), has enhanced brain development.
"The fiber in flax seeds is also beneficial for maintaining good bowel patterns," explains Lvova.
The Maple Peach Smoothie also has calcium, and for a good reason. Also, yogurt is an excellent source of calcium and protein in smoothies.
Furthermore, because calcium is one of the minerals that a pregnant woman's body will give to a growing baby from her stores, you may have decreased bone storage if you don't get enough throughout pregnancy.

5. Shamrock Shake

Avocados contain monounsaturated fatty acids, which give the smoothie a creamy, rich flavor. Fiber, B vitamins (particularly folate), vitamin K, potassium, copper, vitamin E, and vitamin C are abundant. Avocados are high in fat, which helps the body absorb fat-soluble vitamins. They also have fiber in them, which can assist with constipation.
Leven likes to use nutrient-dense foods like spinach and yogurt in her smoothie recipes. "Grass-fed whey and organic yogurt are good sources of calcium and protein," Leven notes.
Spinach, which is strong in fiber, vitamin C, vitamin K, vitamin A, calcium, iron, folate, and potassium, is another healthy addition.
Studies have demonstrated these nutrients aid in constipation and fetal development. Furthermore, ingredients include Avocado, Organic baby Spinach, and Protein Powder.

6. Super Smoothie

When you're pregnant and breastfeeding, staying hydrated might be difficult. When you're pregnant, you require more water than usual.
It helps your body produce amniotic fluid, support a bigger blood volume, transport nutrients, and eliminate waste. 7 Water is also necessary for lactation support while breastfeeding.
With water, carbs, vitamin C, fiber, vitamins, antioxidants, and plant components. And wheat germ, this Super Smoothie can help enhance nutrient and liquid consumption. "Folic acid is abundant in wheat germ, which is helpful both before and during pregnancy," explains Leven.
It's critical to have enough folic acid during the first few weeks following conception to reduce the chance of brain and spinal cord birth abnormalities.
Furthermore, Some green leafy vegetables, most berries, nuts, legumes, and citrus fruits contain folic acid naturally.
Even though You can find it in meals, taking a folic acid supplement is critical to obtain the recommended amount regularly.

Just wanting to know if there’s anything I can do to help her? This is our first baby and were only just turned 20. She’s constantly nauseous throughout the whole day, sometimes spewing can barely eat and when she does will only take little bites of foods idk if theres any like foods that helps with the nausea or exercises, vitamins, plenty of rest ofc ect. jus wanting to know what helps because it looks like we going to have to go to the doctors and we really financially struggling right now.

I tested positive for hydrogen-dominant SIBO and don’t want to take antibiotics. I took antibiotics for SIBO several years ago and they destroyed my stomach, I felt sick for months. I believe that my current SIBO infection is the main cause of my MCAS, my doctor suspects this too.
I’m hoping to create my own semi-elemental diet and follow it for a couple weeks to see how I feel. I wish I could do a powdered elemental diet but I know I’ll get too hungry and will probably be anxious to introduce food again after that. Please let me know what you think of the following meal plan. Please let me know what is a common MCAS trigger, what could increase histamine, what would actually be hard to digest and be worse for my SIBO, etc. Also, I’m going to discuss this with my doctor at my appointment next week. I won’t do anything without his guidance, I’d just like your opinions :)
Sugafruit: smoothie with frozen strawberries, fresh blueberries, coconut milk
Protein: two beef patties (just plain beef shaped into burger patties)
Carbs: mashed white potatoes, no butter
Supplements/pills I take every day: 1.5 grams of vitamin c, two Allegra (morning and night), 1000mcg of vitamin B12, 125mcg of vitamin D3, two women’s probiotics (I have low lactobacilli so I need the probiotics to maintain a healthy vaginal pH), 81mg of baby Aspirin (suggested by my cardiologist due to a cardiac birth defect), I usually take 2-4 Advil daily due to headaches. I plan to continue taking all of these supplements/pills, I’m just wondering if they could trigger digestion when I’m trying to digest as little as possible
Considering trying: quercetin for MCAS, Miralax for constipation issues (I’ve tried different forms of magnesium and they give me headaches), adding spirulina to smoothies for anti-inflammatory effects (could it be a histamine/MCAS trigger?), zinc for MCAS (what form do you suggest? What brand?)
Thank you!

Stockholm 8 July 2026
Michael is lying in his bed sleeping but suddenly he opens his eyes and immediately feels that he is completely rested. Michael turns and looks at his digital clock on the bedside table and it's only 8am but Michael decides to get up straight away and eat breakfast. Michael gets up at 9:30 a.m. normally, but he thinks he's had enough sleep.
It has been a week since Michael wished that the Alien queen and several warriors should exist for real in Stockholm and it has been an extremely difficult week for Michael. Michael became extremely tired already the night he made the wish and the next day he only left the bed when he went to the toilet. The staff immediately guessed that Michael must have wished for something but he lied and said it wasn't so.
The staff contacted the workmates but they had not heard or noticed anything strange with Michael. The staff also talk to Sven and he tells us that Michael seemed a little absent at times when they met but nothing more than that. Sven forgets to mention that Michael asked about some large space that was not easily accessible and he does not mention that he has told Michael about the underground tunnel.
When the weekend comes, Michael is still unwell and the staff guesses that he has been infected by some virus or disease. Michael gets a throbbing headache on Saturday morning and it doesn't go away until late Tuesday night. Michael also has a lot of pain in his body from Saturday morning until Monday evening. Michael is in so much pain that he can barely move. Michael's father visits Michael both on Saturday and Sunday and he is worried about his son's health. Michael's father also believes that Michael must have wanted something from the world of the movie but soon changes his mind when he sees his son's tormented face on Sunday.
One of the nurses who goes out on urgent matters at the residence gives Michael several painkillers and several vitamin tablets and it seems that they help, even if Michael does not have the strength to do so many things. The staff do weekly shopping for Michael and they also buy his favorite sweets.
It is only on Wednesday that Michael feels normal again and he wants to go out straight away, but the staff decides that he should stay at home for safety's sake. Michael is at home all day and he begins to plan what he will do when he gets to the Alien queen. Michael has already planned that he will use the bike and ride down the tunnel to get to the Alien Queen faster. If his plan works, Michael will take several eggs that the Alien queen has laid and place them in a few different places where there are a lot of people in motion. Michael has already decided to place some eggs at T-Centralen, Brunkebergstunneln, Slussen and Sergels torg.
Michael knows that some human will see the eggs and become curious and approach them. When they are close enough, the eggs open and a facehugger jumps out and impregnates the victim. Once the chestbuster in the stomach has grown, it explodes out of the victim's stomach and soon grows into an adult alien if fed enough food. Michael understands that some people will die, but he is attracted by the idea of full-grown Alien monsters running around the streets and eating people. Michael doesn't know if his wish worked, but he hopes it did.
Michael goes into the kitchen and starts his kettle and takes out several sandwiches and spreads lots of margarine on them and rinses some tomatoes and slices them and puts them on top of the sandwiches. Simple and easy. When the tea water has boiled, Michael pours it into his favorite cup and takes out his favorite tea. Michael likes to drink Earl gray in the morning. As usual, Michael is sitting in the kitchen eating his breakfast.
When Michael has finished eating, he goes straight to the bedroom and puts on clothes that he is not too careful with. It is quite possible that the clothes will get dirty when he handles the eggs. Michael puts several large flashlights in his backpack. The flashlights have fresh batteries and shine very well. They may be needed if the tunnel lacks lighting. Michael puts several large empty garbage bags into his backpack. It is good to transport the eggs in the garbage bags. Then no one can see what he has on his bicycle saddle. Michael puts on comfortable trainers and takes the bicycle helmet in one hand and leaves his apartment and goes out into the common corridor belonging to the accommodation.
The staff are in their office and they are surprised when Michael comes out into the hallway and is heading for the entrance and exit. Michael greets the staff and explains that he has had breakfast and is going out for a bike ride. The staff asks Michael if he is okay and he is. Michael says he is expected back before lunch or shortly after. The staff say goodbye to Michael and he leaves the accommodation.
Michael collects his bicycle in the bicycle room and immediately starts cycling towards Mariatorget. It is not a long way between the accommodation and Mariatorget and Michael will be there soon. Michael immediately sees that both the fence and the high bars are gone and he sees the entrance immediately. The entrance is fully open and Michael cycles down into the deep tunnel. The tunnel is well lit and Michael doesn't need his flashlights. Michael does not see the Alien queen or any Alien warriors as he rides down the tunnel and he guesses that they are further into the tunnel.
It is pleasantly warm in the tunnel and Michael thinks it is nice that it is not cold in the tunnel. Michael continues cycling and passes a place where the road splits in three different directions and he continues cycling on the road going forward. Soon he passes another place where the road splits, but MIchael chooses to continue cycling.
Michael has been cycling for almost half an hour when he realizes that the Alien queen and her warriors are not at the passage in the tunnel but must be at one of the places where the road split in different directions so he has to cycle back from the beginning of the tunnel again. Michael passes the last fork in the road but he realizes that the Alien Queen is not there but at the first fork in the road. Michael cycles as fast as he can through the tunnel and arrives at the road split in just under 15 minutes.
Michael looks at the two directions and tries to guess which direction the Alien Queen is. For some reason, it becomes the road that leads to the right. So far, there are no revealing details showing that it is the right way, but Michael still feels that he is heading in the right direction. Michael notices that the heat is getting hotter the further in he gets and soon he sees something that convinces him that there are Alien monsters here.
There is some transparent secretion on some of the walls and it reminds of the same secretion seen in the Aliens movie when Ripley is near the Alien queen but also where all the people are gathered in cocoons. Michael realizes that he is on the right track and decides to jump off the bike and lead it instead. Michael is sweating profusely because it's so hot. Even more secrets are visible on the walls when Michael has come even further in and soon the road splits once more. This time, Michael immediately sees which path to take. He begins to approach the Alien Queen.
There is clear secretions everywhere on the ground and on the ceiling and Michael thinks it is slimy but when he feels it he discovers that it is completely dry and not slimy at all. Michael pulls hard on the secret that grows in the ceiling and it is incredibly strong and he almost cannot separate it but succeeds in the end. Michael is impressed that the secrecy is so strong. It does not appear to be strong. Michael picks up his cell phone and photographs all the secretions.
Michael suddenly smells a special scent that he has never smelled before. The scent is partly reminiscent of what it might smell like in an old potato cellar, but also what it smells like when wood is burning. There are a few other smells behind the two strongest and they are reminiscent of blood, sperm and felines, among other things. Michael sneezes involuntarily because the scents are so pungent. Michael looks around but sees neither the Alien queen nor her warriors but he guesses that they must be nearby.
Michael sees a small opening in the wall and he immediately understands that the Alien Queen must be in there. Michael parks his bike outside the opening. He is unsure how the Alien Queen will react to his cycle. Michael enters through the opening and emerges into a gigantic space. The ceiling must be at least 20 meters or higher in here and Michael wonders what is above this space. It doesn't take long before Michael sees several Alien eggs. They are still very moist and slimy even though the space is very hot. The eggs look exactly the same as they do in Aliens. Michael knows that the eggs open when they sense the presence of prey so he tries not to get too close to them.
Michael sees a quick movement to one side and when he looks closer he sees that there are several Alien warriors further into the space and they seem to be watching him even though they have no eyes. Michael goes further in and is greeted by more eggs but they are not as moist as the first ones he saw. Michael concludes that these eggs are not as fresh. But where is the Alien Queen? She is definitely not in front of him and not over where the Alien warriors are.
Michael turns and looks towards where he came in and directly sees the Alien queen. She is only a few meters from the opening and Michael watches as she lays an egg. The egg lands softly from the large ovipositor and Michael moves so that he can see the Alien Queen pretty much in front of him and now he can also see the long and large egg sac where the eggs are formed. Lots of gooey mucus drips from most of the egg sac and Michael can see a new egg starting to form and getting bigger. The egg tumbles around inside the egg sac and begins to move forward. The egg sac is very long and soon the Alien queen lifts her ovipositor and it seems that she is looking for an empty place for the egg that is on its way through the egg sac and she soon finds a free place. The egg slides out through the ovipositor and lands softly on the ground. Michael becomes absolutely fascinated watching the process but he can't stand here all day just watching her lay her eggs.
Michael starts to advance towards the Alien Queen but she doesn't seem to react at all. Michael sees that the Alien Queen has retracted most of the front of her head like a turtle and only the very tip of it is sticking out. The magnificent crown higher up on the head is easier to see because it is so long and large. Michael thinks the Alien Queen resembles a large insect except for the magnificent head crown. She looks mostly like a wasp or a bee. The long spider-like legs stick out on either side of the Alien queen and Michael wonders if she can use them somehow. The Alien Queen's long arms hang from either side of her and they are massive. The slightly shorter arms are higher up and they also hang freely at both sides. The long and spine-like tail stands right up behind the Alien queen. A new egg slides out through the ovipositor and lands softly on the ground. The egg is placed very close to where Michael walks and he moves a little so he is not too close to the egg.
Michael approaches the Alien Queen and he can smell her breath. The alien queen has a very hot breath and Michael guesses that she automatically heats up part of the tunnel. Michael notices that the Alien Queen doesn't seem to notice him and he gets disappointed but then he remembers that it seemed like the Alien Queen in the movie was asleep when Ripley entered her hive and he thinks that it's entirely possible that this Alien the queen is also sleeping at the moment.
Michael decides to wake up the Alien Queen and he whistles softly so as not to startle her but the Alien Queen does not react. Michael whistles louder and now it seems that the Alien Queen is waking up. A new egg slides out through the large and long ovipositor and lands softly on the ground with a sticky sound. The alien queen slowly pushes out part of her head and now Michael can see her huge jaw and finally her whole head. The alien queen appears to be looking directly at Michael but she does not appear to be aggressive. Michael notices a movement just behind him and he turns around and sees two warriors almost behind him and is scared for the first time. But the Alien queen also seems to see the two Alien warriors who are behind him and she loudly hisses at them and they retreat. The alien queen hisses very loudly and the sound is reminiscent of both the angry hiss of a swan but also the reptilian hiss of a snake. It is a sound that evokes fear in MIchael even though he knows that the Alien Queen saved him from being attacked.
A thick and transparent mass lands on the top of Michael's hands and he realizes that it is the Alien Queen's drool landing on his hands. Michael turns his hands so that the palms are visible and an even thicker lump of thick drool lands in his hand. Michael feels the drool and it feels thick but also fluid somehow. The slime is almost reminiscent of K Jelly, It's been a long time since Michael saw that in the store but it had a very interesting texture and feel when touching it. Michael looks at the drool and another large lump lands in his open hands. Michael gets an idea and smears himself with the Alien Queen's drool. Michael chooses to smear himself with the drool even under his shirt. Now he smells like her.
The alien queen's long and large spine-like black tail sways faintly behind her and Michael thinks it moves almost like a cobra about to attack. The Alien Queen extends her long arms and it almost looks like she is going to grab Michael and he involuntarily recoils but the Alien Queen relents and moves them in a different way. Michael finds the Alien Queen moving in a very sensual way and his body reacts to it. Michael is unsure whether or not to show that he is sexually attracted to her. It is a difficult choice.
The alien queen opens her huge jaw and Michael can see the inner mouth. The inner mouth looks very big and Michael didn't think it would be as big as it actually is but on the other hand Michael can only compare how big it looks in the movie. The alien queen's hot breath sweeps over Michael and he almost finds it too hot. In between, big chunks of the Alien queen's drool drip from the big jaw and they land on Michael's arms and hands.
The alien queen lowers her big head towards Michael and he guesses that she is studying him and she can do that if she wants to. The alien queen's thick drool lands on Michael's shirt but also in his hair and it feels strange when it starts to run down his neck. Michael reaches out a hand and gently pats the Alien Queen's large head. It feels very hard and she is really hot even on top of her head. Michael pats the oblong giant crown and the texture on the back of her head feels very interesting. The Alien Queen doesn't seem to mind being patted on the head so Michael continues to pat her. Since Michael is standing so close to the Alien queen, he can easily see where the egg sac itself and her body are joined together
Meanwhile, another egg slides out of the large ovipositor and lands softly on the ground. Michael looks at the big eggs. There are already a lot of eggs in the hive and since the Alien queen lays new ones at short intervals, it won't be long until there are eggs just about everywhere. Michael feels that he must help the Alien queen and spread the eggs in different places in Stockholm and he suddenly gets an idea of where to start first.
The person who bullied Michael the most at school lives not too far from Mariatorget and Michael knows that it is that person's birthday today. Michael looks at the eggs in a whole new way and grins. The bully will get a very special present today. A deadly gift. Michael looks at the Alien queen and hopes she accepts him taking several of her eggs.
Michael goes towards the eggs closest to the entrance because they are the closest. Michael bends down and lifts one of the eggs and is surprised that it is not as heavy as he thought it would be. The egg weighs a maximum of five kilograms and is easy to lift. The alien queen sees what Michael is doing and hisses weakly. She doesn't seem to like him touching her eggs. Michael drops the egg and walks up to the Alien Queen and starts talking to her.

• I just want to help and spread your eggs so that there will be more Aliens and warriors. You can trust me, my lovely queen.

Michael has no idea if the Alien Queen understands what he is saying but he hopes she does. Michael again pats the Alien Queen's huge crowned head, making calming noises. After a while, Michael opens his backpack and takes out one of the empty garbage bags and approaches the eggs again. The alien queen seems to be alert but she doesn't hiss when Michael lifts one of the eggs and puts it in the empty garbage bag. Michael hopes it doesn't matter that the opening of the egg is pointing down. Michael looks up at the Alien Queen and smiles at her

• I'll be back in a moment. I'm just going to make an Alien baby.

Michael goes out through the entrance and exit and puts the garbage bag on the rear bike rack and he turns the garbage bag so that the opening of the egg is facing up. There are low noises from inside the garbage bag and Michael hopes that the egg doesn't open and a facehugger jumps out through the garbage bag. Michael unlocks the bike and rides as fast as he can through the tunnel and it is not long before he is out of the tunnel and facing the sun again.
Michael cycles towards the villa where he knows the bully lives. When he arrives, he takes an extra look at the name on the mailbox so that no one else has moved in without his knowledge. But it says Zizer H on the letterbox and Michael knows the name is correct. The bully's name is Henrik Zizer and he apparently hasn´t changed his name. From the beginning, Zizer was a large family and they had many children, of which Henrik was the one who was heard and seen the most. But the other children moved on but Henrik chose to stay with his parents for some reason and when the parents died, Henrik inherited the villa. Henrik lives alone except for an incredibly ugly cat that Michael has seen a few times when he has passed by the villa.
Michael unloads the garbage bag and carries it in one hand while he walks into the garden of the villa. The garden was nice when Henrik's parents took care of it, but it mostly looks like a junkyard these days. Henrik has an expensive and nice moped and there are lots of tools for maintenance of the moped in the tall grass. Michael knows that Henrik always used to put the house key under a special stone that was by the stairs at the villa and Michael soon sees that the stone is still there and when he lifts it he sees a house key there.
Michael picks up the house key and unlocks the front door. It is dirty in the dark hall and Michael puts the garbage bag on the floor so that it is quite close to the front door but not right when you enter the hall. Michael makes sure that the opening of the egg is facing up and then he pulls off the garbage bag. The egg has not opened but small movements are visible on the outside of the egg. Michael slowly backs away from the egg and when he is at the door, it suddenly opens. The egg opens just like a flower and Michael rushes out of the hall and slams the door shut as fast as he can and locks the front door.
Michael puts the house key back where he took it and puts it on the stone and starts to walk out of the garden but suddenly hears a moped approaching very fast
Uh oh.
Michael is still in the garden when the moped stops in the street and a fat person jumps off the moped and approaches Michael menacingly.

• Who the hell are you? What are you doing in my garden?

Michael immediately recognizes this person even though he is significantly fatter than he was at school and he has also changed his appearance a little but not for the better.

• Now answer! Who the hell are you?

Michael clears his throat and looks at Henrik.

• I recognize you, but you apparently don't recognize me. I saw that today is your birthday and just wanted to congratulate you.

Michael can see that Henrik is searching his memory to be able to tell who is standing in front of him and he looks thoughtful.

• You're not one of Elin's brothers anyway and you can't be Max because he died last year. I wonder if you could be....Roger.
  
• Nope. I am not one of Elin's brothers as you just said and my name is not Roger.
  
• In that case, you're either Kenneth or... No, wait a minute now. I think I recognize you now. You are Michael. Your parents were really weird and almost never let you watch movies. Such a freak you were. Yeah I remember you now.
  
• Correct answer.
  

Henrik looks at Michael in surprise. Considering that he bullied Michael at school, he never thought that one day Michael would be standing in his garden.

• But.. what are you doing here? We were never friends at school as far as I can remember. You did greet me a few times, but it was very seldom. I recorded some synth tapes for you, I remember.
  
• Huh. I still have the tapes. Well, I was nearby and thought I'd surprise you since it's your birthday. Have you been celebrated today?
  
• Nobody celebrates my birthday anymore. Probably no one even knows that it's my birthday today except you, which is very strange.
  
• You know what, Henrik? Things can change. Even if I disliked you quite a bit then, I don't have to now.
  
• Okay, I understand. Do you want a proper apology from me?
  
• Ah, there's no need.
  

Henrik and Michael stand and look at each other. They remember their school days together. Henrik was the toughest and made the most noise at school, while Michael was the one who was noticed the least except when he was bullied. Michael was always quiet and mostly mumbled if anyone spoke but him. Henrik scratches his dirty hair. He looks a little confused.

• Um. Are you around often?
  
• Well. I live in one of the apartment buildings over by the Zinkensdamm sports ground so I assume so.
  
• Own apartment?
  
• In some ways. I live in a group accommodation. A few years ago, I was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder and it explains why I was perhaps a bit odd even when I was at school.
  
• Autism Spectrum Disorder? That's a long word.
  
• It means that you have a certain type of Autism. It used to be called Asperger's syndrome, but that name is no longer used.
  

Henrik raises his eyebrows. He has actually heard of Asperger's Syndrome but didn't know it had changed its name. Henrik suddenly sees the Alien queen's drool, which still looks wet and which is mostly on Michael's shirt.

• You have something on your shirt. Have you played with lube?

Michael can't help but laugh when he realizes that the Alien Queen's drool resembles lube.

• Huh. Maybe it.
  
• You know it's the women who use that, right? Well, anyway. You had a present for me or did I hear wrong?
  
• Yes, an acquaintance of mine brought a present and put it in your villa. I know what it is and I think you will love the gift considering you like mopeds so much.
  
• But wait a little now. Did an acquaintance of yours break into my villa? To give me a present?
  
• This person works for the police so he always has keys to the villas. He also has contacts in the US and other countries so he can source parts for mopeds that others cannot import.
  

Henrik looks thoughtful. Something about this doesn't feel quite right. Henrik suspects that Michael is trying to trick him in some way. Henrik still decides to go and see what he got as a present and he walks past Michael and heads towards the villa's stairs. Henrik lifts the stone and picks up the house key and unlocks the door.
Michael quickly walks towards the stairs and is almost there when Henrik opens his front door. Henrik sees the open egg as soon as he has opened his front door and he stands hesitating in the doorway. Whatever it is, it cannot be used for any moped. It takes a few seconds before Henrik recognizes the egg and knows what it is. It wasn't that long ago that he watched the movie Aliens.

• But what the hell. What the hell is an Alien egg doing in my hallway?

Henrik watches as the facehugger gets ready to jump out of the egg and he starts to slowly back away from the open egg but Michael is right behind Henrik and pushes Henrik as hard as he can and Henrik loses his balance and falls straight towards the egg. The Facehugger explodes out of the egg and attaches itself directly to Henrik's face. It starts to sizzle from Henrik's face as if it was eaten away by the face-hugger's chemcals. Henrik lands straight on the floor in front of the now empty egg. The facehuggers 8 digits has a firm grip on Henriks face.
Michael enters the hall and turns Henrik's body over so he can see what is happening. The facehuggers 8 digits climbs a little further up over Henrik's face and the long and strong tail helps hold Henriks face still. Michael would like to see when the facehugger gives Henrik its eggs through the proboscis and he turns Henrik so that he is lying on his side. Michael can now see when the face-hugger's proboscis begins to penetrate through Henrik's open mouth. The proboscis looks very soft when it enters Henrik's mouth, but it suddenly becomes very stiff. Michael is surprised that the proboscis becomes stiff but he thinks that it helps it penetrate deeper into the mouth then. Michael thinks that the proboscis will only penetrate the beginning of the throat, but it continues even further down, and Michael feels with his finger on Henrik's neck how the stiff proboscis continues to penetrate further and further down the throat. A clucking sound is heard from Henrik's throat as the stiff proboscis continues to penetrate in an uninterrupted movement. Finally, it stops and the now long and stiff proboscis stops penetrating through Henrik's open mouth.
Michael hears a loud hissing sound and at first thinks that the sound is coming from either the face-hugger or Henrik, but when he looks up and looks around the hall, he sees Henrik's ugly cat and understands that it is the one who is hissing. The cat is completely white but is very fat and has very unkempt fur. Michael has seen the cat walking around the area and he doesn't like the look of it. The cat hisses again and arches its back into a high arch. It is clear that the cat does not like the face-hugger and hisses at it.
Michael can see that the proboscis swells up and that something begins to move through the proboscis and down where it enters Henrik's mouth. It looks like several smaller lumps are moving through the proboscis at a high speed and Michael guesses that the lumps are some kind of eggs and that there are so many of them so they will start to grow quickly in Henrik's stomach. Michael can see that the two appendages hanging out of the side of the facehugger are periodically inflated and deflated and he guesses that it breathes through the appendages. Of course, it could also be that it fills up with more eggs, but it probably doesn't do that. The smaller lumps continue to flow uninterrupted through the facehugger's proboscis and down through the part of the proboscis that is inserted into Henrik's mouth. Michael can feel the lumps moving down as he feels the outside of Henrik's neck. The facehugger is very productive to say the least. Michael wonders how Henrik would have felt if he hadn't been unconscious.
Michael sees the last lumps run down the proboscis and then it's over. The proboscis of the facehugger quickly becomes completely slack and is no longer stiff. It has done its job. The facehugger pulls its limp proboscis from Henrik's mouth and it disappears into the facehugger. When the entire proboscis is lifted, the facehugger releases its grip on Henrik's face.
The facehugger scitter towards the cat and the cat hisses and runs away. Michael thinks it looks fun when the facehugger scitters over the floor. The facehugger runs into a room that is next to the hall and Michael follows to see what the facehugger is doing. It's a smaller bedroom and the facehugger runs under the bed and stays there. Michael kneels down and looks under the bed. The facehugger is furthest up against the wall and Michael sees its 8 fingers begin to pull inward and he understands that it is dying. Michael grabs the facehugger's long tail and pulls it off the bed and it puts up a weak resistance but it's obvious it's dying. Soon the facehugger is completely still and Michael carries it back to the hall and thinks about what to do with it and the egg.
Michael will remember that there is a smaller lake in the area and he decides to throw the egg and the facehugger into the lake. No one is swimming in the lake anyway. Michael puts the dead facehugger in the egg and tries to close the egg. It is not easy to close the egg because the four parts that open like a flower have become hard and rigid. Michael takes the garbage bag that the egg was in and he puts the egg back in the garbage bag and leaves the villa.
Henrik is still lying on the floor and Michael thinks it would have been fun to watch the chestburster explode from the stomach but he knows it could have been dangerous for him if he was still there. Henrik had perhaps pushed himself against Michael when the chestburster had started to be born and then both Henrik and Michael had died and that is not part of Michael's plan.
Michael goes straight to his bike and puts the trash bag on the rear bike rack and he makes sure the rear clamp presses over the trash bag so it doesn't roll off the bike. Michael bikes to the smaller lake, parks the bike and removes the garbage bag from the bike stand and walks to a suitable spot where he can drop the egg. Michael sees a slope going down to the water and feels that this place is going to be good. Michael takes the large egg out of the garbage bag and lets it roll down the slope and into the water. Lots of bubbles form in the water as the egg sinks to the bottom of the lake and Michael stands quietly and watches the bubbles. There are many thoughts running through his head.
Michael is fully aware that Henrik will die and that he has now become a murderer. Michael feels no sadness that Henrik will die because he bullied Michael so badly at school. Michael has had dreams where he takes revenge on Henrik and now the dream has come true and he feels almost proud of himself but he is aware that he should feel ashamed. Sven and the staff as well as the parents had not thought that Michael did the right thing and what has happened must remain a secret that only he knows.
Michael doesn't think too much about the fact that several people will die when he places the eggs in the crowded places. If Sven or the staff had known about Michael's plans, they would have most certainly called the police and forced him to stay in his apartment until the Alien Queen was killed and the eggs destroyed. Michael intends to keep the Alien Queen a secret, maybe he can show her to Alexander. Alexander is a work colleague and he is careful to keep secrets.
Michael rides his bike back to Mariatorget and the tunnel where the Alien Queen is. When Michael has cycled down the tunnel, he remembers that he should place some of the eggs in some selected places in Stockholm, but he does not know exactly which way he should cycle to get to the places. Michael remembers that there is GPS in the cell phone and he picks it up and cycles to the first place where the road splits. It doesn't seem like a good place on the right side, but on the left side, Michael sees that there is a road to Slussen under the tunnel and he lets his GPS show him how to cycle to get there. Michael stands and thinks and decides that he will place an egg at Slussen very last before he cycles home because he and Sven will take the ferry to Gröna Lund.
Michael cycles to the next place where the road splits and he checks how he should cycle to get to the T-centralen, Brunkebergstunneln and Sergel's torg and also how long it takes to get to the various places. Michael decides to place the first egg in T-Centralen and then Sergels Torg and after that Brunkebergstunneln and lastly Slussen. That order seems the most logical.
Michael cycles back to the Alien queen and she has laid even more eggs and also moved a little bit. Michael guesses that the Alien queen's warriors have helped and moved her. The alien queen recognizes Michael and she appears to be looking at him with some interest.
Michael thinks about the best way to get the eggs into the remaining four garbage bags. Lifting the first egg went well, but he feels he exposed himself to a great risk being so close to the egg. Michael looks at the Alien Queen's large ovipositor and soon has a great idea. He will put the garbage bag around the ovipositor when it is time for a new egg. The egg will automatically slide into the garbage bag and Michael doesn't even have to touch it. In addition, the egg is facing upright from the beginning. It's a really brilliant idea.
Michael picks up the first garbage bag and approaches the Alien Queen's large ovipositor and he can immediately see that a new egg is making its way through the egg sac. Michael places the garbage bag under the ovipositor and pulls the garbage bag up a bit so that it is as extended as possible. The alien queen doesn't seem to notice what MIchael is doing and it doesn't bother him. It certainly makes her less suspicious if she doesn't notice what's happening with the four eggs. Michael sees when the egg is dropped into the garbage bag and as soon as it is completely down, he removes the garbage bag around the ovipositor and immediately takes out a new garbage bag and waits for the next egg to be laid. Michael pushes down the opening of the trash bag containing the first egg. It is not good if the egg feels his presence.
There's bubbling and gurgling from inside the egg sac as a new egg begins to form and it's a very organic sound and Michael likes it. Michael wonders if the Alien queen can sense when the eggs are being formed and if so how it feels to her when they are being formed. Michael hopes that the Alien queen is not in pain when the eggs are formed because it is a continuous process. Michael is extremely close to the Alien queen and he wonders if his friends would have dared to stand as close. Michael thinks that most people might have avoided the Alien Queen entirely if they could, but he himself thinks it's cozy to be so close to her. Although she can certainly be dangerous, she is still a mother.
Michael sees that the new egg is on its way through the egg sac and he approaches the ovipositor. Michael places the second garbage bag under the ovipositor, making sure the garbage bag is as extended as possible. The ovipositor undulates gently as the egg moves through it and there is an organic sticky sound when the egg lands in the garbage bag. When the egg has landed properly in the garbage bag, Michael removes the garbage bag around the ovipositor and places that garbage bag next to the first one and he closes the opening of the garbage bag so that it is closed. Michael takes out a third garbage bag and waits for the next egg to be ready to lay.
The alien queen turns her big head towards Michael and it looks like she's wondering what he's up to. Michael chooses to walk away from the ovipositor and advances towards the Alien queen. The alien queen lowers her huge head as he gets closer and copious amounts of clear, thick drool lands on Michael's shirt and runs all the way down to his pants. Michael can't help but giggle at the Alien Queen drooling so much.

• You drool a lot, my beautiful queen. I really smell like you now.

Michael raises his hands and gently pats the Alien Queen's huge head and she seems very calm. Michael wonders if the patting has the same effect as in humans. Michael gets really hot in the face when the Alien queen breathes on him and the drool continues to run down the shirt and pants and it doesn't take long until even the pants are wet from the thick drool. Michael thinks he has to change his clothes before he can meet Sven. Michael almost reaches the oblong head crown and he finds it impressive. Especially when she is so close that he can really see all the details of the crown but also the Alien Queen herself. The long and large spine-like tail sways behind the Alien Queen and Michael is almost hypnotized as he tries to follow its movements. Michael sees and hears as another egg comes out of the ovipositor and lands softly on the ground.

• You are so good at laying your eggs. I'm a little jealous of you actually.

The alien queen turns her large head and looks the other way and Michael soon goes back to the ovipositor and patiently waits for the next egg to travel through the egg sac and emerge through the ovipositor. Michael looks above the Alien Queen and it looks like the white secret in the ceiling is holding the Alien Queen so she is standing steady. Michael wonders if it is the Alien queen herself who is doing the secret or if it is her warriors who are doing it. Michael thinks that people might have been able to use the secret to secure things considering how strong and durable it seems to be.
Michael sees that a new egg is coming through the egg sac and approaching the ovipositor and he places the garbage bag so that it is all around the ovipositor and then he lifts the garbage bag so that it is extended. The egg lands in the garbage bag with a soft thud and Michael immediately removes the garbage bag from around the ovipositor and moves the garbage bag to where the other two are. Now there is only one egg left and Michael looks at his watch. It shows 11.30am. This took longer than he had expected but Sven won't arrive until 2pm and Michael expects to be home by then.
Michael takes out the last garbage bag and stands watching as the next egg is formed in the egg sack. Michael finds it fascinating to watch the eggs form. It happens so quickly and he wonders how it is possible that it can be formed so incredibly quickly. Michael also feels that the facehugger was very quick and efficient when it pushed its proboscis into Henrik's mouth and filled him with its eggs.
Michael sees that the new egg is beginning to be transported towards the ovipositor and Michael places the garbage bag so that it is all around the ovipositor and waits for the egg to land in the garbage bag. The ovipositor undulates slightly a few times and there is a sticky organic sound and Michael can see on the outside of the garbage bag when the egg lands in it. Michael removes the garbage bag when he knows the egg is at the bottom and he puts the garbage bag next to the other three. Now he just has to say goodbye to the Alien queen.

• Now I unfortunately have to leave you, but I promise to come back tomorrow.

Michael grabs the four garbage bags and he holds two in each hand. Michael walks towards the exit of the hive when the Alien Queen hisses very loudly and Michael turns to her and looks at her questioningly.

• What?

The alien queen looks at him for a long moment but seems to calm down again and Michael exits the hive and goes straight to his bike which he has parked right outside the entrance to the hive. Michael places the first two garbage bags on the rear bike rack and the other two above them. Michael makes sure the garbage bags are secured properly and then he starts to ride his bike out of the part of the tunnel where the Alien queen is.

So... how to start this.... I found a baby dove(wild) with visible scalp(bloody)...I guess the crow was playing with it and just left it to die. I took it home since I already took care of one pigeon with some injuries and he's still alive and happy, sometimes I see it outside.. Anyway, just when i got home and cleaned it i realised it has no eyes. I was not prepared for a pet dove, i just wanted to clean it up, bring it back to health and let it be free. Please help me! How do I help it?? How can i make it less painful for baby? How can I heal it faster?? What should I do if I end up with blind dove? Or should I just euthanase it? Btw where im from theres no like wildlife sos, at least not for pigeons or doves, nor i know the vet that would help it... Any advice?? I gave it bird food with minerals and vitamins(watered it down) it can drink, and it is drinking so far.. i guess its too painful for it to open its beak. Also, the birdie is quite strong and has a will to live a lot! When i was feeding it, it was holding onto my hand and it was noooot letting it go. Please help. Btw currently im unemployed and dont really have money for some pricy medicine or...idk what Pls help. Im desperate. I wont be posting a pic since i think a lot of you would find it quite disturbing. Thanks in advance!!!

There has been considerable news coverage recently of abuse and homicides committed by fringe members of the Mormon Church, the most recent being the Daybell case in Idaho.
Not that long ago the beliefs and actions by these people were closer to the mainstream Church (particularly in the late 1930s to the late 1980s).
Neither these participants or the former teachings have ever been denounced.
One set of teachings / warnings that was regularly preached from the pulpit was about End Times / famine / societal collapse / nuclear war / food storage / etcetera.
The time this abuse occurred was from 1963 to 1969.
Did anyone else have a parent(s) (not necessarily Mormon - there are many secular and other faiths / cults with similar teachings) that were negatively effected by these types of "doom and gloom" messages?
She definitely had enough untreated mental health issues to have given Sigmund Freud a migraine.
My mom had other factors converging at the same time - she has a severe case of OCD, she was a girl during the Great Depression and likewise experienced food insecurity, they still had "fattest baby contests" at the fairs and she said that they were taught that you should get your babies and young children as fat as possible and lastly I was a very spindly sickly underweight little boy who wouldn't eat.
These four factors overloaded her already fragile mental and emotional state which led her to obtain (no doubt illegally) a very powerful appetite stimulant which she gave me every day upon arriving home from school - calling them "vitamins".
By dinner time my appetite was insatiable which allowed her to give me usually 5 or more platefuls of food to the point I was barely able to breathe.
She "jokingly" said she didn't need a disposal as she had me.
Over the next few years the extreme overfeeding did not abate and even if I felt close to bursting I would eat whatever she constantly handed me as I was raised to be an obedient child.
As a result I was the fattest child in the school - by the time I was 10 my weight was well over the 300 pound capacity of our bathroom scale.
What saved me (literally) was upon starting middle school two years later my mom began to work evenings so with her absent I was able to practically starve myself down to under 200 pounds while babysitting my little brother.

It’s all so sad when you take the time to really reflect on the situation. My son is only a few weeks younger than Jr and his nursery is overflowing with toys, books, clothes, diapers, etc. even though my son has everything he needs I still find myself buying more and more. Chrisean won’t even buy Jr a baby stroller, when they go out he has to stay confined to that car seat. If she truly cared for Jr she would buy him toys that help with development and motor skills. She would also look into early intervention and have an occupational and physical therapist coming weekly to assist Jr. She would take the time to feed him solid food, I can only imagine how weak and lethargic he must be from only consuming formula that’s probably why he sleeps all the time like he’s still a newborn. By 9 months he needs those extra calories and nutrients from food, without them he’ll develop vitamin deficiencies. It’s heartbreaking. And instead of going live and showing the world that she’s getting Jr the help he needs, she rather live out her delusions and declare her love for blue and spew lies to her audience SMH

I’ve had three different doctors tell me three different opinions on whether my 5 month old full term, breast fed baby needs iron supplements or not. We are about to start purées in a few weeks but I keep reading pros and cons to supplementing iron and so many different opinions including … start an iron supplement or multi vitamin now, wait until they are older….or don’t worry about it, foods will cover it! We don’t know what to do! Would love your opinions.

I’ve had three different doctors tell me three different opinions on whether my 5 month old full term, breast fed baby needs iron supplements or not. We are about to start purées in a few weeks but I keep reading pros and cons to supplementing iron and so many different opinions including … start an iron supplement or multi vitamin now, wait until they are older….or don’t worry about it, foods will cover it! We don’t know what to do! Would love your opinions.

I'm struggling on where to even begin with this, honestly I've been thinking of getting a diary to write all these things down. I'm tired of borrowing my friends to talk about my shit
I guess I'll start with the big one, I'm essentially unable to work. Non functional Autism and ADHD, or at least not functioning enough? I have no clue how this stuff is actually labeled or works. I just know that the act of being around people drains me to an incredible extent. I can't even stick around near my own mother at times, because of myself. My mind just screams play and even trying to think of what I'd do with my life puts me into a panic attack.
I'm also unable to grasp some concepts, why people think certain ways. I can somewhat make the logical leap of "why should you make your bed every morning" like, feeling productive is the reason I know of but like- what's the point in doing it EVERY morning? Just make sure it's clean, right? Apparently that's not normal.
I don't like shopping, beaches, going outside, or anything any girl my age should- I'm entering my twenties soon, yet I feel stuck as a four year old child that's just stumbling along.
Anything out of my comfort zone overwhelms me, any emotion is big, ANYTHING can have traumagenic symptoms. The fear of being taken advantage of at all has gotten to the point where I'm so emotionally inept and vulnerable that I can't trust anybody except myself.
I'm pretty, yet I hate the mirror. I think to myself that should be a girl, not a woman. I thought HRT was supposed to fix this shit, it kinda helps at least I get confused by the girl in the mirror so constantly it's not even funny. But on the rare times I feel pretty I feel comfortable.
My mother is devastated. The little family I have left is devastated. I never thought I'd be the sickly girl who needs help from her parents way into adulthood, I never thought I was the odd one out, the "mentally ill" as some folks would say- but it couldn't be more true.
The worst part is I'm aware of it all. I'm aware of the fact I'm childish, but it actively HURTS ME not to act in those ways. It actively hurts my chest and throws me down to think of myself as an adult.
I envy children because they get to be themselves, but it's not their fault. I'm trying not to, I'm trying to let go of it- and I've made some progress so far.
Some folks don't view adulthood as the "my life ended" and rather as the next logical step, why the fuck am I not normal?
I'm aromantic too, asexual as well- so screw having someone when my family dies out I guess Screw any maturity being able to feel romance would bring
On one hand, I'm upset- I'm upset I ain't normal, but on the other hand it's validating. Being viewed as an adult feels like a sentence worse than death, my personal hell.
But if I'm so upset with the idea of being older, then why can't I accept myself? If I can't be normal, I should at least strive to make myself happier right? I am, I'm trying to. But sometimes it hits me so hard and I feel terrible, or I just feel like I feel right now, numb, but angry underneath. If anything, I'm saying this to avoid some kind of outburst later- the few friends I met online shouldn't suffer for my sake. They're good people, they have jobs, their own struggles, so they don't deserve it. I vent to them near constantly as is
Well I'm not SAYING this I'm writing this, I just kind of write as it sounds in my head if that makes any sense what-so-ever?
Sometimes I wonder if I'm even real. Have I hit rock bottom? Am I insane? Do I belong in some padded room from some movie?
Mom and I have been noticing more and more that I can't do shit, so I'll be put on disability. I tried so hard to pretend, I tried so hard to be enough, to be strong but every single time I tried my head got crammed with this unwinnable war of my own thoughts, rage, grief, sadness, pain, anger, did I mention anger?
If I were to work say a customer service job, I'd likely lose control of my body entirely again. It hasn't happened in years, but something that continuously harmful to one's mental health would cause a blood vessel to burst.
To top it off I got actual physical brain damage recently, not from an accident- it just HAPPENED! a piece of my brain is squishing another part of it or something, moved out of place? I don't even remember what the doctor said as if dealing with all my shit wasn't enough? Was my birtth not good enough? Is it karmatic retribution? I don't want to die
The worst part is it's all pawned onto mom, she cares about me too much for her own good and I absolutely do not deserve her, I don't do anything, I'm useless I am nothing
I'm just a doll Just a stupid dress up doll that can't even tie her own shoelaces A stupid broken record that can't use forks or knives no matter how hard she tries, and becomes an embarassment to her family in any public space A dumbass that is repulsed by common foods An atrocity of a girl that doesn't even do make-up or brush her hair I forget to brush my TEETH at times, it's been yellow for years and I hate it so fucking much And you know how I know this won't help?
I can't act. I can't make decisions, I freeze up There's nothing I can do that would be too drastic without active supervision because I'm incapable of mustering up the will to do so much as clean the kitchen without being asked to I can pay bills, it's easy nowadays with phone apps- but where do I get the money if I can't function properly?
I CAN'T EVEN CRY I'm so mad at myself that I can't cry, I wish I could cry more, I wish I could force myself to cry When time passes am I going to get all wrinkly or will I die before because I can't eat anything that isn't vitamins? If I go all wrinkly, will I hate my appearance? yes, I would, I absolutely would, I did my best in fixing it but I'm still too tall, too messed up
I wish I could go on swings and shit, go down slides, play by myself like I typically do- nobody wanted to be my friend when I was a REAL kid anyways I wish I could bring my plushies when I go out without fear of being judged, skip around, do my twirls- I feel unsafe I wish people looking at my body in the horrid way they do now was illegal again so mom could tell them off
Can you tell I was trying to be logical early? my grammar was better when I started? That's a masking mechanism, I can't just put my emotions into paper or screen normally cuz I burst and that sucks for others, so I start all good grammar like, tryna paraphrase everything then it bursts out and I half forget even as I'm writing this, I scream it all in my mind, as if I'm speaking- I don't want to disturb my neighbours though sometimes I wish I could just yell I wish I could throw a fit, cry and scream and wail
My friends don't actually mind that I vent at all I just feel I'm too much at times Too needy, too energetic, I'm seen as the baby of the group- I'm thankful they see me for who I am even with all of the issues being who I am brings
I just feel so absurdly useless and I know from medical professionals, my own experiences, everything, that there's nothing I can do about it in the long run "Would you rather live your whole life going through the terrible job market or at least try to be disabled and live with some supervision?" I don't give a fuck about freedom, let me live happily because I can't handle this world on my own I'm not adequate in this world, I'm not capable of handling it
I'm scared
I wish I could say I may not check this account again, I half expect the comments on this to be "OP you're ill get help" as if I'm not actively doing that But I'm also curious, morbidly curious- it's in my nature to want to learn, and maybe there's some advice or encouraging words that could help I'm just a worrywart but I've been bullied before so it's whatever victim of my own emotions, I guess
I'm just gonna go play with my cat after this

my husband and i have been arguing for months now about giving my baby vitamin supplements that his pediatrician prescribed for him, my husband thinks that vitamin supplements doesnt really benefit us but is actually really bad for you, i think he saw a video on instagram from a person that is most definitely PRETENDING to be a doctor or someone that knows alot about real medicine and that person said that the government or the "big pharma" created vitamins supplements to slowly poison or just mess up our bodies i'm not sure why exactly but basically he is strongly against giving our baby his vitamins. my baby is exclusively breastfeeding but is also eating solids since he was 6 mos (he is 11 months now) his pediatrician said he needs iron supplements, my husband said that he can get his iron from his food but i don't think it's enough? he only eats solid food about twice a day. can anyone here help me with a way to explain to him that vitamin supplements are really important and what he saw about it being bad isn't true? i'm struggling to explain to him in a way that he will truly realize that he is wrong, thankyou so much in advance!

my husband and i have been arguing for months now about giving my baby vitamin supplements that his pediatrician prescribed for him, my husband thinks that vitamin supplements doesnt really benefit us but is actually really bad for you, i think he saw a video on instagram from a person that is most definitely PRETENDING to be a doctor or someone that knows alot about real medicine and that person said that the government or the "big pharma" created vitamins supplements to slowly poison or just mess up our bodies i'm not sure why exactly but basically he is strongly against giving our baby his vitamins. my baby is exclusively breastfeeding but is also eating solids since he was 6 mos (he is 11 months now) his pediatrician said he needs iron supplements, my husband said that he can get his iron from his food but i don't think it's enough? he only eats solid food about twice a day. can anyone here help me with a way to explain to him that vitamin supplements are really important and what he saw about it being bad isn't true? i'm struggling to explain to him in a way that he will truly realize that he is wrong, thankyou so much in advance!

Hello! ❤️ I’m currently 9 weeks pregnant and am having guilt in not being able to eat. I am tiny, 105 lbs before baby and I was already struggling to eat more than one meal a day before getting pregnant 😞 (depression related) I am dealing with nausea, food aversions, inability to eat most foods. Especially meat and eggs. I feel guilty, so guilty. I have been loosing sleep thinking about how bad of a mom I am. I will eat a banana and a smoothie and try to eat little by little. However some days I’m not eating until noon or 1 because I am so tired in the morning I just sleep instead. I’m worried about the babies health. I am taking prenatal vitamins but I just need advice on small foods to eat. Example) a banana and almonds in the morning. Soup and bread for lunch. Things I can keep down. I want baby to be healthy, even though I’m not the healthiest person 😞