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2010.02.19 06:49 Over 30s Sub Reddit

This reddit is for people who are mature and/or over 30 and tired of all the crap posts by kids in reddit. You don't have to be nice in here, just respectful with your opinions. If you are a young turd flame warring you will be banned!! Invite everyone you know who is over the kids crap to join us. Also: STAY OFF THE GRASS!
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2013.08.22 18:58 ripster55 A place for mature women redditors

Welcome to AskWomenOver30, an inclusive Reddit community where people can ask question to and discuss topics with women over the age of 30. All are welcome, please read and abide by the rules in our sidebar.
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2009.12.24 11:01 DetroitRedWings

Home of the Detroit Red Wings NHL Team! Feel free to join us on our discord here: https://discord.com/invite/h5QQ66WWzZ
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2024.05.16 18:19 ComfortableRecover36 My journey of complete and utter medical incompetence

I really need to get this off my chest.
10 years of diarrhea and frequent urination. Seborrheic dermatitis. 10 fucking years.
17 different doctors. I kid you not, i counted.
8 years years of "You are imagining things", "Take this useless pill and gtfo", "Its because you drink coffee on an empty stomach mate, stop dat and gtfo". 0 tests. 5 minutes and out the door. Ok i said, its what it is. Ill live with it.
Queue 2 years ago - Rapid deterioration of symptoms. I now cant leave my house. I live in constant pain and bloating. "Ok" i figure, time to stop going to different doctors. Pick the best one and stick with him.
So i open the website with the doctors, pick the best GI one based on reviews and queue an appointment. Its online trough the phone because he now works in some fancy hospital in UK. Great i figure - he's too good for my shithole country, he might actually solve the case.
We make the video call, he listens to me for an hour and a half. An hour and a fucking half, that's more than the 13 before him combined. He says "Let me think this trough and ill get back to you". Great.
He writes back after a day - "I want to call a forum in the ultra famous university hospital in London. I want to invite leading doctors in all the relevant fields - allergologist, dermatologist, whatevergist (4 more). It will cost you 5k though - do you want to do it?"
"Sure" i say. Maybe finally we get somewhere. 5k is like 2 monthly salaries in my shithole country, but im ok on money, i can afford that easily. He gives me his own fucking personal Revolut. No red flags there, huh?
Anyway, the "forum" passes. He gets back to me.
"Its all stress related OP. Its IBS-D due to stress. The forum is unanimous and the diagnosis is certain. Here is your treatment":
  1. Shitty antidepressant/sedative - Deanxit
  2. Even shittier antihistamine - Ketotifen - but this is just to help with your allergies OP, you can not take it if you want.
  3. Cut out all stress from your life if you can.
Great. I take the pills. All of them. Allergies suck.
Deanxit immediately transforms me into a fucking sloth. Im sleepy all the time. I can barely think. Im a programmer, i kinda need to think.
But. Lo and behold. For the first time in 10 years im ok. Every fucking symptom disappears.
Shit i figure. My stress was really killing me. Time to solve that.
Team lead in a billion dollar company at 30? Doing a great job at it? Hahaaa not any more boss. I quit.
But why do you quit he says? - "I cant handle the stress. Its literally killing me"
Take 3 months off then. We'll find you a replacement team lead. We will demote you back to senior and you can take it easy. We'll take you off supporting the most important website in the company.
Queue me taking 3 months off. - God bless that man for not letting me go. But im no longer a team lead. Im no longer in charge of my website. Im just another programmer now.
Queue me cutting ties with half my family because they stress me out.
Ketotifen disappears from the pharmacies. "Its ok" i think. Its for my allergies anyway. I just get another antihistamine.
5-6 days pass. Symptoms start to slowly reappear. Im now back at work tho and getting stressed again.
Symptoms progress ever so slowly, but progress anyways.
Im constantly in contact with the doctor trough the app. Every single month i pay to have access to him.
Every time i tell him its getting worse he just says its due to stress. Keep at the treatment. No changes.
Symptoms progress to basically no treatment levels. I go to a urologist for the frequency. He says its due to stress also. Here's this sedative, good luck programming on it. Great, fuck that. Second opinion. Go to second urologist - its stress mate, go to a psychiatrist. You are depressed.
I go to another GI doctor for a second opinion. "Its IBS-D due to stress mate, go to a psychiatrist".
"Ok" i figure. "Time to dive in the deep". I go to a psychiatrist. I tell him my symptoms. I tell him im a bit under the weather, which is understandable being unable to leave my house and in constant discomfort. "The body symptoms are psychosomatic which means you are SEVERELY depressed. Here are these 2 HEAVY antidepressants. Take one in the morning the other in the evening. "
I try. I fail. Too many side effects. Queue arguments with the wife because i refuse treatment.
I try with a different psychiatrist. Same diagnosis. Another treatment. Same result. Cant keep at it.
More arguments with the wife. Now she is properly mad and wants to leave me because im constantly mad and in a bad mood. This has been going on for 2 years. I dont leave the house. Im 32. Everyone is telling me im insane. Sad.
I start reading up the internet for rare diseases. I basically turn myself into a mini Gastroenterologist. I read everything concerning IBS.
I do every test i can think of. Microbiome. Full blood panel. Histamine. Zonulin.
Lo and behold - histamine twice the range (while im on Ketotifen again). Zonulin 25x.
I figure it must be a food allergy and the histamine is causing all the problems. Im now a fucking internet doctor. But i know its bad to self diagnose and self treat. So i go to an allergologist. I tell him my stomach troubles and that i think its food allergies. He is unimpressed. "Go to a GI doctor he says. There are plenty of tests that can be done. Check enzymes, check for parasites, check for more stuff".
By now i have figured out the UK doctor has basically scammed me and is just milking me for money every month. He refuses another call. He refuses to rethink the diagnosys. He insists that its correct.
Ok. I start an elimination diet because i'm now a doctor. I suspect allergies. I suspect the Ketotifen fixed me the first time. Meanwhile i queue an appointment with doctor #17.
I go to the new doctor. By that time EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY SYMPTOMS IS GONE. I tell her my test results. I tell her i seem to be able to control the condition 100% by food. "You have enterities" she says. "But whats causing it?" i ask.
"I dont know. Here's some enterol and an anti-diarrhea med".
OK. Diet continues. Now enterol added. anti-diarrhea? Why? Whatever. Not taking it. I don't have it anymore.
Im now at the point where i can eat quite a selection of items. I sit down and think. What have i eaten basically every day of my life for the past 10 years? Pork. Its pork.
I eat some pork day 1.
Day 2 is a little bad. Eat some more.
Day 3 is quite bad. Eat some more. It might be a fluke.
Day 4 is back to all the symptoms. I schedule an appointment with doctor #17. I go. This is today.
I tell her my findings. I ask if it sounds correct. She says yes. It sounds like an allergy. But. But.
Why are you coming to me? Im a GI. Go to an allergologist. "But he sent me to you.". Crickets.
She proceeded to scold me for 20 fucking minutes for self diagnosing and asking treatment questions.
Sister. 17 of you failed. I killed my career, cut ties with my family, Lost 100k+ in salaries. Lost untold amounts in options packages that i now woun't get because i'm no longer a manager. I no longer have friends. I almost separated with my wife. I could have retired at 40. I lost 2 years of my life. All of that because of your lot's wrong diagnoses.
And i get scolded for 20 minutes. For self diagnosing. CORRECTLY. Fuck this country and its healthcare man.
Anyways, PSA - If you have IBS-D, frequent urination and some rosacea go check your histamine in stool. And don't forget to always discuss with your healthcare professional. Unless you live in Bulgaria. Fuck this country.
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2024.05.16 18:19 Pretend-Afternoon-64 Lawyers of Reddit

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I can only share so much of course cause I have no idea where I’m going with this. But I was in an accident late last year while working I was a delivery driver for about 3 months at the point of the accident I was proceeding through a YELLOW LIGHT not green nor red YELLOW as I typically would when I felt it where safe to and I was traveling 30 mph in a 30 yes the exact speed limit sounds fishy but true. I was about 25% maybe 30% through the intersection when I instinctively cut my wheel to the left away from this object I had seen out of my peripheral it was a silver suv by that time I was tboned by the suv i look over after the accident and see a older woman step out of the driver seat a “NON AUTHORIZED DRIVER” under the man’s insurance I was found at fault and the man claimed to be driving. Here’s where it gets real weird, after the accident I get a call from a law firm that deals with collections for large insurance companies claiming that I did not have insurance at the time of the accident which is false. My dad a couple days after the accident was speaking to a operator with our insurance company about the up coming payment cause he was going to miss it due to the skyrocket of the payment from my accident and the operator said “I will take care of it don’t worry about the payment I will make it like he was never on there in the first place”
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2024.05.16 18:11 InfiniteManager8512 No blasts from eggs frozen before chemo

TW: Pregnancy
Longtime lurker, first time poster. Apologies for the length but this is a complicated story. I had an ER in 2013 at the age of 30, prior to an allogenic stem cell transplant for leukemia. I got 8 eggs (6 mature) that were frozen. A few months after the transplant I had not gotten my period, so my gyno put me on BC as a form of HRT, assuming that I had been put into premature menopause due to the chemotherapy. I was later diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma in 2018 and went through another round of chemotherapy. Free of disease since. All this time, I had not gotten a period and remained on BC. After 7 year, out of nowhere I got a period in March 2020 and continued to have a monthly cycle (still on the BC). In 2022, my husband and I consulted with REI, planning to fertilize and transfer the frozen eggs. We did all the preliminary testing and were ready to go with my next cycle in 2/2023 when I get a call to tell me that they had missed that I was sensitizes for the D antigen and had antibodies. The plan shifted to have a PGT-M probe created to possibly select an Rh- embryo. My husband’s blood type is A+. I was born with B+ blood but after SCT, my Blood type is O-. Everyone initially assumed I was sensitized due to the SCT, but review of my medical records showed that I had been sensitive prior to the SCT. Turns out I have an inherited D variant so while a normal B+ blood type would not create D antibodies, mine did, which would likely result in the antibodies attacking the red blood cells of any Rh+ fetus I carried. The problem was that due to the SCT, Cooper Genomic could not get sufficient isolated DNA from me to create the probe. Ultimately, we were only able to because Dana Farber, where I have my SCT, had my frozen retained DNA from 2013 that could be used. Thank god I consented to allow them to use my DNA for research. But all of this took forever, and the probe wasn’t ready until 2/2024.
On 4/12/2024 we moved forward to fertilize. 6 out of 8 survived the thaw, 3 fertilized and none made it to blast. I always knew that could happen, but I am so angry that every medical professional involved made it seem like only a minute possibility and that no one ever even mentioned that it might be a good idea to see if we could get any additional eggs first seeing as how I was 40+ and been through chemo. I am angry that my gyno just assumed I was infertile and never investigated at all. I am angry at myself for only now being informed enough to know that I could have done more and now it might be too later. We are moving forward with egg retrieval and are just waiting on insurance clearance. When they last checked my AMH in 10/2022 it was 0.2. Last FSH in 4/2023 was 4.28 but prior to that on 9/2022 it was 30. No idea what my AFC is yet but assume low.
Not sure if I am looking for advise or just ranting but I knew that those in this group could empathize. With all I have been through medically I have never been one to feel “why me” or “life’s not fair” but this has really taken me down in a way I have never experienced.
Ironically, during all this I spontaneously got pregnant in 9/2023 but we ended up having to TFMR around 13 weeks to due chromosomal abnormalities. It took 12 weeks afterwards, but my period did come back.
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Alt Mohair Parfum (Creed GIT dupe) 60ml - $30 (worn twice)
Alt Executive Parfum (Creed Aventus dupe) 60ml - $30 (worn once)
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2024.05.16 17:55 AdStunning7419 UV light enough? First time planting

UV light enough? First time planting
Stupid questions, sorry apologies in advance, its my first time gardening and its nerve wrecking. Hereing in NYC I have very limited area to garden. The front of my house is mostly shaded so I bought these 6 uv lamps from Amazon to run 14 hours during the day. Is this sufficient enough lighting? I have to put this mesh garden netting to keep rodents away so I’m not sure if its taking away most of the lights for the the plants. I don’t know if I need more light or if it’s necessary to run the lamps under the mesh and risk having rodents get in or if this is fine.
Details on the lights
  • Full Spectrum + 660nm Supplementary Light] Each grow light bulb contains 48 pcs LED chips, including 24 pcs 3000K chips, 18 pcs 5000K chips and 6 pcs 660nm red light chips.400nm-700nm spectrum fuels photosynthesis, which drives plant growth and mass.380nm-780nm triggers photomorphogenesis, which drives plant development and structure. So this grow light can suit all sprout, grow, flower and fruit stages.
  • Total 288 LED chips, 15000 Lumen luminous flux, 100 lumen/s, more than 95% power factor, photosynthetic photon flux 23.5 umol/s,Espird professional grow light help plants grow in all directions. Aluminum lamp body can reflect the photons back to your plants without wasting.
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2024.05.16 17:52 rop_ch4ins Plataforma web con desafíos de seguridad informática en Smart Contracts

Buenas a todos! Escribo este post para compartir con todos aquellos interesados en ciberseguridad, una plataforma web súper interesante que encontré en Twitter (o X), con desafíos de ciberseguridad en Smart Contracts.
Es una plataforma gratuita desarrollada durante una tesina, para gente de Panamá (y países de habla hispana). Consta de 30 niveles, en los que cada nivel es un contrato con alguna vulnerabilidad que requiere ser explotada para resolverlo.
Para los que no están en tema, los Smart Contracts son básicamente los programas que se ejecutan sobre la red de Ethereum y pueden manejar enormes sumas de dinero en forma de criptoactivos (ether). En los últimos años se reportaron una gran cantidad de ataques sobre contratos vulnerables que permitieron al atacante robar millones de dólares en criptomonedas.
La plataforma me parece súper interesante, porque sin tener prácticamente conocimientos previos sobre el mundo de los Smart Contracts, te va introduciendo a los conceptos elementales de Solidity (el lenguaje principal con el que se desarrollan los contratos). Luego uno puede aprender de forma exhaustiva sobre las vulnerabilidades que afectan a los contratos, cómo explotarlas, y cómo desarrollar contratos de forma segura.
Les recomiendo jugar. Ya resolví los primeros niveles y me tiene muy vicio! Aparte tiene un montón de cosas interesantes, es muy completa, muy informativa, y tiene un sistema de puntos interesante! El enlace de la plataforma es el siguiente:
https://haconti.com
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2024.05.16 17:51 Melodic-Ad-8444 aita for telling my mentally and verbally abusive aunt to leave when she refused i called her out on all her faults and abuse towards me

so a little background i am a 30 year old male who has had an issues with depression and tend to stay away from big crowds but when it comes to the people who raised me (my grandparents) id burn the world to make sure they live happily and care free im not really prone to yelling or getting angry but when it involves defending my family i rarely defend myself unless actively provoked at a young age i was abandoned by my mother and father and had some abandonment issues because of it needless to say i was a ball of emotion and anger from 5 til 13 and my aunt has always called me a black sheep lost cause pushed me into the corner or even another room during family gatherings telling me im not family and even told me that everyone would be better off if ive never exsisted needless to say i was and still believe the last part from time to time. now onto the situation at hand my youngest cousin (we'll call him J) J was having cleared of some legal issues and we were talking about how his older brothers told him that in their eyes they werent considered family anymore even though being proven innocent i was telling him if thats how they feel then maybe its time you just let them live their lives and you live with yours in walks abusive aunt (lets call her B) B what right do you have to tell J that he should lets his brothers go you dont have and reasons to do so politely i told her me and J are talking in private and id appreciate it if you dont interject B states i and do what i want as he is my son while you know nothing about family. to this point ive been taking care of my grandparents my grandpa who has been showing and been diagnosed with early onset dementia and alzheimer's and my grandma who was hit with the after effects of covid from being healthy before to now relying on a walker and having stage 3 kidney failure and more pretty much she was hit with the retorical book of medical issues after covid i pay them rent while i stay awake 16 hours a day to take care of them be it cooking cleaning laundry to even taking them to doctors appoinments. needless to say ive been given the right to kick out those who dont mind the rules of the household or treat me or them with disrespect and have on several occasions. after what B said i asked her kindly leave the house i will not be treated with disrespect. B then said you cant kick me out this is my parents home and i can treat you any way i want to i looked to J and said J can you leave the room J left saying we can talk later when B is gone needless to say B wasnt happy when J said that and started ranting and raving how im a bum who has done nothing in life etc etc i politely yet firmly asked her to leave or ill inform grandma and grandpa about the situation and have them take care of it as i rather not have to be your verbal and mental punching bag again she went bananas after saying that and went on a tangent for a good 10 minutes while i was trying to tell my grandparents the situation while B was yelling at me from the kitchen until she said the one thing that is a button no one presses as its my big red button for anger which is "youre just a waste that even your parents didnt want why dont you just end it now itll make everyone happy" ive had many issues and thoughts of ending my exsistance has always been an issue and have already made my peace with my parents but saying that infront of my grandparents and them not saying anything made me lose it i then went to the other room and yelled at her "coming from the women who ran away from home at 16 only to return a year later pregnant and ditching the responsibilities onto your parents only to rinse and repeat so many time you dont even know who 2 of her kids dad is go back home or so help me god i will tell those 2 who still think their dads are their dads that they arent" B said who told you that i know who my kids dad/dads are i retorted "says the women who spent most of her life in on her back with her legs in the air" with a few more curse words to add to it at that point grandparents chimed up telling me to go downstairs calm down they will take care of it and here we are me downstairs writing this while B is upstairs yelling and my grandparents telling her to calm down and threats from the 3 cousins who want nothing to do with J telling next time they see me they will beat me with an inch of my life so aita
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2024.05.16 17:49 Ok_Banana6658 [For Sale] Breakwater, Ohio Players, 100 proof, Bob Marley, Sam Cooke, Roy Ayers Ubiquity, LTD, Eugene Record, The Modulations, Sounds Of Blackness, killer pieces dont miss out

Hey folks, selling a few records, shipping is $5. If you're buying more than 1 deals can easily be made I'm pretty flexible, ships from Texas. Grade: (record/ sleeve).
Breakwater- Splashdown.VG+/VG+. Original press, excellent copy of an amazing album, I think this might be my recommended pick of the post. Beautiful blend of soul and funk here. Super hard to find clean and if you do it's not at this price. $29.
Ohio players- Pain. VG+/VG+. Original press on westbound. The Ohio players westbound releases are getting real hard to find clean these days, here's a great copy. $18.
100 Proof- Aged in Soul. VG/VG-. Original press on the hot wax label. I being conservative calling the wax VG, it really has very minimal light non feelable lines. The front cover has ring wear, jacket has hole punch top right corner, no splitting. Super hard to find this soul record. $19
Bob Marley- Exodus. Sealed/Mint. Original US press. Exodus is embossed on front, lions embossed in back. No bar code, on island. 7720 sunset boulevard Los Angeles address. So I've had two copies of this album sealed for over 10 years. Sold one earlier this year here on reddit this is the second and last copy. Absolute rarity to find an original sealed. VG copies of this are going for around 50 bucks y'all I think is a pretty fair price. I'm sure some moron would list for much more on discogs. $100
Sam Cooke- Live at the Harlem Square Club. VG+/VG. Original release. Record plays great, very few faint scuffs. Jacket in great shape with light wear. Great copy of one the greatest live albums of all time. $35
Roy Ayers Ubiquity- A tear to a smile. VG+/VG+. Original press. Vinyl is super clean, jacket in shrink. One of my favorite Roy albums, killer jazz funk. $30
Prince- Controversy. VG/VG. Original '81 pressing. The wax is really clean with a few light marks. There's a small pen mark scribble on side 1 label which is the main reason a graded vg. Jacket has some wear to the spine. This is a nice copy. $19
LTD- Love to the World. VG+/VG+. Vinyl is super clean in original pictures sleeve. Jacket in excellent shape. $14
Eugene Record- The Eugene Record. VG+/VG. Record is super clean, jacket in great shape, legible spine and no tears. Great copy of a nice soul album I don't see a lot. $18
The Modulations- It's Rough out here. VG+/VG-. Original press, the vinyl is clean, light hairline towards the end of very last track that causes a few ticks. Cover has wear on edges, light ring wear and 2" splitting top right corner at opening. Super hard to find soul record that is pretty clean. $28
Grace Jones- Nightclubbing. VG+/VG+. Original press on blue island label. Super clean wax. Bottom of front jacket has light ring wear. Such a well produced, fun album and man does it sound amazing on wax. Excellent copy. $18
Mutiny- Funk Plus the One. VG+/VG+. Original white label promo. Clean vinyl free of scratches, nice jacket. $15
Eddie Kendricks- Boogie Down. VG+/VG. Clean vinyl, jacket has edge wear. $3
Sounds of blackness- evolution of gospel. VG/VG+. Original us press. There's groove wear 30 seconds into the intro song" chains" that causes a a very quick jump. Rest of the album plays fantastic. Hype sticker on cover. I currently don't see any copies of this in the states for a reasonable price. $21
Anderson.Paak- Malibu. Mint/sealed. This is the original 2016 Europe 180 gram press with turquoise hype sticker. "SW234223" on the spine. My personal copy of this sounds great. Jacket has light corner creasing the top left corner. Note: my personal copy also initially had a corner crease and I imagine most will, two heavy 180 housed in a single pocket jacket will do that. There should be a poster in there when you open the shrink. I will bubble wrap this so the mailer is tight and the record is not moving around. $24
Donny Hathaway- The Best of Donny Hathaway. VG+/VG+. $12
Common- Be. VG+/VG+. Original 2005 pressing with STERLING in the dead wax. This is not the 2023 reissue from Canada. Both discs are in fantastic shape, jacket in great shape. $60
Clarence Smith- Whatever Happened to Love.VG+/VG. Original promo. Vinyl is clean, jacket has edge wear no seanl splits. For as long as Ive known this record it ha always been hard to find. Really nice funk, soul, gospel album. $30
Charles Lloyd- Moonman. VG+/VG+. This is the 1970 repress that came out the same year as original release with the red kapp label. Plays nicely. This is just a different album but different in a good way in my opinion. Just check it out, if you like buy it lol. 7 bucks.
Robert palmer- Pressure Drop. VG/VG. $5
Pat Lundy- Loving You-The funkiest feeling. VG+/G+. Record is clean. Jacket has splitting at the top and slight ring wear. This one is kinda rare. $8
James Brown- Live at home with his bad self. VG+/VG+. I played this one once. $15
Saturday Night Fever Soundtrack. VG+/VG. Discs are a Vg+ cover is a strong VG. $7
David T Walker- On Love. VG+/VG+. Original Us press. $26
Harvey Mason- Funk in the Mason Jar. VG+/VG. Original white label promo, vinyl iscl super clean. Play tested and sounds fantastic. The jacket has a promo cut top right corner. Just a real nice jazz funk album man. 7$
Houston person- Harmony VG+/VG. Record is pristine, jacket has very light staining due to age. $5
Thanks a bunch!
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2024.05.16 17:42 karinamarinasarina Should I go back to retinol?

Posting on here for some advice on whether to start using retinol again… I have a long story with acne and getting perioral dermatitis recently - really need some advice
For context, I have struggled with acne my entire life, from the age of 11 I was on multiple treatments including creams and antibiotics to try and control my spotty and oily t-zone. At the age of 17 I had a terrible break out on my cheeks, it was really severe and I had never had acne like that before. After numerous things I ended going on the contraceptive pill and that completely cleared my skin. I was on the pill for about 5-6 years but it really affected my mental health, depression, anxiety and mood swings were horrible so I finally came off it before the age of 23.
When I came off the pill I became quite nervous that all my acne would come back, I began getting spots here and there, and after seeing the rave about tretinoin online I decided to give it a go. It definitely wasn’t the best decision from me, I got the retinol uglies, I went in with 0.5 which was definitely too strong too quick and I was losing hope after a few months. I think my skin was just TOO exfoliated, I couldn’t figure out a routine and I think I was using too many products.
I then switched to Dermatica and got prescribed Adapalene 0.2% / Clindamycin 1% / Niacinimide 4% This felt better but my skin was continually peeling, it looks glowy now that I look back on pictures but I was still getting spots. Nothing drastic but I was definitely searching for that glass skin look.
After 6 months they switched my prescription and removed the Clindamycin (due to resistance to that ingredient I think you can only take it for 6 months). This was before Christmas time in 2023, the weather became really extreme and my skin suffered. I thought it was just the weather and I would lather in moisturisers and continue to only use Dermatica every 3rd night but my skin would not stop peeling. I contacted Dermatica and told them my side effects and they said that my skin is just getting used to it. I began to get a dry patch near my mouth which slowly got worse, I thought this was because of the weather but I got a lot of redness around my mouth and looking online I felt like I had developed perioral dermatitis.
Long story short I did have perioral dermatitis. I stripped my skincare routine to be VERY minimal and began taking antibiotic, I was prescribed Lymecycline from my doctor for 3 months, I also started using Azelaic Acid after following Dr Sam Bunting advice online.
Now that I have finished my antibiotic, I am still continually getting spots, it almost feels a tad worse now that I’ve finished the antibiotic (Lymecycline is also prescribed for acne as well as POD). My skin feels really clogged and my forehead just has a lot of tiny spots, I keep getting breakouts and I just want to not have to deal with it all the time, it feels NEVER ending that I have acne for the rest of time at the moment.
Here is my current skincare routine: AM - Wash face with water - The Ordinary Caffeine Solution under my eyes - The Inkey List Azelaic Acid 10% - The Inkey List Vitamin C 15% (just started using this to brighten marks) - The Inkey List Niacinimide (for my oiliness) - The Inkey List Omega Water Cream (if my skin is feeling moisturised I don’t use this) - Paula’s Choice Clear SPF 30 Fluid
PM - Remove make up with The Inkey List Oat Cleansing Balm - Wash face with Dr Sam Bunting Flawless Cleanser - Dr Sam Bunting Flawless Neutralising Gel - this has 2% salycilic acid, 5% azelaic acid, 0.5% bakuchiol, 5% squalene (started using this in the past week now that I have finished my antibiotic and I only put it on my spots, most nights in the week) - Sometimes I may use Paula’s Choice BHA or AHA (probably once a week and not at the same time as the gel above) - Cosrx Snail Mucin (if my skin is feeling dry or I have used an exfoliator) - The Inkey List Omega Water Cream OR Aveeno Oat Restorative Night Cream
Treatments: - I’ve got the Omnilux Red Light Therapy mask and I use it a few times a week (my skin feels very hydrated and plump from this) - I’ve been using a high frequency wand a few times a week on my spots
I’ve been contemplating using The Ordinary Retinal 0.2% maybe once or twice a week in the evenings, but I’m just really nervous and not entirely sure whether it’s worth it. My skin did look good on Dermatica (apart from the peeling) and definitely way less clogged than I feel now, so I feel really tempted especially hearing that retinal is really good.
Considering I’ve been using Azelaic Acid daily for 3 months now I feel like my skin is slightly less sensitive, but I’m VERY worried I will fall into a trap and over exfoliate if my spots still continue, I’m a stress picker and I just want them gone so if one appears I just need to do something to it. I’m also very scared of the retinol uglies, I’ve started a new job recently and I’m definitely worried it will crush my confidence on a daily, as already I get quite down about spots.
Does anyone have any advice if retinal is a good idea?
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2024.05.16 17:35 meloflo 5 year Tret-versary, 33 y/o, skincare/beauty minimalist perspective + what I’ve learned along the way

5 year Tret-versary, 33 y/o, skincare/beauty minimalist perspective + what I’ve learned along the way
Left photos: 27 y/o with make up, pre-Tret Right photos: 33 y/o no make up, taken this week, wearing just sunscreen! (clear lip gloss and post workout sweat glow in first pic too). This is what I look like most days as a yoga + group fitness instructor and generally active outdoorsy person.
I’m almost 34y/o, ZERO botox, laser treatments, injections, facials, (I honestly hate going to appointments of any kind lol), or any skincare other than Tretinoin, occasional salicylic acid washes, sunscreen, and moisturizer. I consider myself a skincare/beauty minimalist and want to avoid injections/treatments for as long as I feel content to. I’d like to see how I age naturally while taking the most minimal, accessible, affordable, at-home preventative approach to skincare.
I started Tret at 28 y/o to improve texture/dullness/many stubborn closed comedones and for an anti-aging preventative approach, and I really just wanted to get to a place where I felt confident not wearing make up anymore. Make up was never a “fun expressive art form” for me, rather it was always a chore I felt I had to do in order to improve the appearance of my skin. I am now make up free for 4 years (aside from daily lip gloss, and very occasional boy brow/brow gel and mascara)—I have literally not touched foundation or blush once since early 2020 and I feel so liberated by it.
I still have faint dynamic forehead wrinkles and 11s, more visible in some pics/lighting than others and also depending on the hydration status of my skin, but Tret improved these immensely. I do tend to furrow my brow more often than I raise them. I also still get small breakouts, mostly on the lower half of my face/around my mouth, but they always clear up rather quickly and I don’t let them bother me anymore.
Lessons I’ve learned:
  • Skin needs nourishment, protection and overall tender care in order to thrive. We can’t constantly bombard skin with a bunch of harsh stripping actives and treatments and expect it to be soft and supple. Being able to read your skins signs and responding with careful intention and patience is key. I had to learn this the hard way as an oily, acne prone person my whole life who grew up on St. Ives and Stridex pads.
  • Less is more. I have tried alllll the fancy trendy pricey Sephora brands. I now consider myself a skincare/beauty minimalist because in my experience anything >4-5 steps is not sustainable or necessary and can sometimes do more harm than good. I also want to be able to get my products while I’m grocery shopping or at a drug store and not break the bank in the process. I get that my approach may not be for everyone but it is for me and some!
  • I stopped hyper focusing on the (fluctuating) state of my skin. A pimple here or redness there used to really preoccupy my thoughts. Now I just go on with my day barely noticing those things, accepting that skin changes daily based on many factors and it will clear up again. (This one I understand is a privilege of having figured out my skin’s issues and being on the other side of it, but it’s important to not let the state of your skin become an obsession or rob you of your joy no matter where you are in the process. There are much more important things about us than the appearance of our skin 🫶.)
  • To piggyback off of the previous one I stopped looking at my skin close up or for too long in the mirror. Realistic expectations are so important. Skin is naturally textured and creased because it's a moving, breathing, constantly changing living thing. Blemishes and coloration come and go for many different reasons. So much of what we see on social and in advertisements is just not real life.
  • Letting go of the rigidity of “routine” and learning to observe and listen to what my skin needs from day to day, and acting accordingly. Sometimes that means skipping an active on a night that I had originally planned on it (Tret and salicylic acid are the only ones I use) if my skin looks a little sensitive for some reason that day. I guess I’d been doing skin cycling before I even realized it was a thing. I live in the mountains (dry climate) and spend a lot of time outside in the elements on the weekends hiking or skiing (always with sunscreen + reapplications, a hat, and sunglasses, and a full face UPF gaiter if the weather calls for it). I also generally keep my face out of direct sunlight and treat my neck and décolletage the same, no Tret there though, just sun protection.
If you’ve just started Tret recently and you’re going through it—I feel you, and I remember what it was like. I had about a 4-5 month purge as all my closed comedones transformed into full blown blemishes and it was really hard mentally and emotionally to navigate. But be kind to your skin and more importantly, to yourself! 🫶
I use Tret 3x/week. Some nights SA wash, other nights nothing except gentle cleanse and moisture, all depending on what my skin needs that day.
Routine:
AM: moisturizer (AR), sunscreen
PM: oil cleanse, cleanse (either LRP or SA), moisturizer on wet skin (vani then AR), wait 30-60 min, tret
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2024.05.16 17:33 Justraidingtombs Finally found a great exfoliant to pair with Tret!!!

Finally found a great exfoliant to pair with Tret!!!
I’ve been using 0.1 Retin-A nightly for over a year. My skin has become acclimated but I still experience peeling/flaking. I’ve tried skin cycling using glycolic acid, lactic acid, and mandelic acid but my skin would become irritated and red no matter what acid and even though I was using acid once a week and doing a buffer day before and after the night using acid. The Ordinary just released this toner with yeast extract that exfoliates skin without the use of acids so I decided to take a risk and try it out. I used it that night and immediately the next morning I woke up to all my flakes and peeling gone!!! I’ve been using it in both my day and night routine for a week and it’s been absolutely amazing. My skin feels hydrated and relieved and the peeling is all gone. Highly recommend for folks on tret wanting exfoliation without the acids. Also, it smells like sweet dough!!
For context, my skin is very dry and light in colour. I live in Toronto and weather has been warm and kinda humid outside lately.
Day routine: -Wash with water -The Ordinary Saccharomyces Ferment 30% milky toner -Cosrx Snail Mucin Essence (two pumps) -Illiyoon Ceramide Ato Concentrate Cream -The Ordinary squalane oil -Sunscreen (currently using Canmake Mermaid Skin Gel UV SPF50+ PA++++)
Night: -Beauty of Joseon Ginseng Cleansing Oil (I also follow up after 1 min of massaging it by mixing in a little water for another minute) -Cetaphil Gentle Skin Cleanser -The Ordinary Saccharomyces Ferment 30% milky toner -Cosrx Snail Mucin Essence (two pumps) -Illiyoon Ceramide Ato Concentrate Cream -LaRoche Posay Cicaplast Baume B5
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2024.05.16 17:29 rivanne [routine help] I'm not exactly sure what my problem is, but I sure do want to fix it.

[routine help] I'm not exactly sure what my problem is, but I sure do want to fix it.
Hi everyone. I'm pretty oblivious when it comes to skincare but I'd like to learn. I consulted the guide, but the problem is (a) some of the guides are 10+ years old now and lots of comments have been deleted. And (b) I'm not sure where to look because I'm not sure what my problem is. I thought I might have hyperpigmentation on my nose, but it doesn't really fit anything on the guide (picture 1). I know I have big-looking pores and sebaceous filament problems but this is a different issue.
My skin is also red and splotchy, with a bumpy, uneven texture in some places. I have KP on my arms and legs, idk if it can affect your face as well? And of course, despite being almost 30, I still struggle with acne.
I'm not sure what my skin type is. If I shower and don't put any product on, it feels extremely dry immediately, then within an hour or two it's oily/greasy. My skin is both oily and flaky at the same time. I'm guessing maybe my moisture barrier has been damaged?
My skin looks worse IRL than it does in the pictures.
Dark spots on nose
Bumpy, splotchy red skin
I don't really have a "routine" as of right now. Morning or night, this is what I do:
  • Wash face - either CeraVe Hydrating Facial Cleanser or Clearasil Rapid Rescue Deep Treatment.
  • If I have acne spots - treat with Clearasil Rapid Rescue Deep Treatment Pads and/or CVS Advanced Acne Spot Treatment
  • Moisturize - usually use Clean & Clear Dual Action Moisturizer, sometimes use Gold Bond Pure Moisture Daily Body and Face Lotion.
  • No sunscreen - I know, bad bad bad. Sunscreen is #1 on my list right now.
I realize the products I'm using are not great. I cannot stand the feeling of moisturizesunscreen sitting on my skin, being slimy or oily. I have discarded other moisturizing products because of this, including Ponds Dry Skin Cream. That stupid Clean & Clear is the only thing I've tried that feels like it actually gets absorbed. But sometimes it feels like it absorbs and doesn't do anything, so I end up putting on multiple layers of it.
Anyway, if you made it this far, thanks so much. I'd like to throw together both an AM and PM routine with a cleanser (and I'm open to double cleansing), actives, moisturizer, and sunscreen. Its hard to tell what actives would help and which would hurt. Which work together, and which are no-nos to use together.
I'm going to Ulta today and would love any product recommendations!
TYSMIA!
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2024.05.16 17:29 bohemiancouchpotato Something in my body is trying to escape

Have you ever experienced something that shook you to your very core? Something that makes you remember every single little detail of your surroundings from that moment in time? Even years after? I can remember so vividly the moment I realized something was wrong with me. I was in my junior year of high school sitting in class, just like any other day. I remember the smell of erasers and cheap cologne that permeated off my classmate who sat next to me. I remember the scratchy tag on my t-shirt and how I was resisting taking it off in the middle of class just to cut it off. I remember what my teacher, Mrs. Brown, was talking about; 'the fall of Constantinople'. My mouth felt dry and I kept looking at the clock, counting down the minutes until I had lunch so I could get a soda. The sound of a pen clicking behind me was synchronized with the song that was stuck in my head.
All those things were going through my brain at once. My ADHD mind went a million miles per minute when it all came down to a cashing holt when I felt it at 11:23
I felt what I can only describe as a hand grabbing at the inner lining of my stomach. It didn't necessarily hurt, not at this point. That's not why I got so scared. You see, not only do I have ADHD. I also have OCD that manifests itself in the fear of anything growing or moving inside me. Even if I think about the concept of blood moving in my body or a heart that is beating in my chest, I have to think of something else. I've had full-blown panic attacks because of it. The closest term for this is 'Tokophobia'. That's technically the fear of pregnancy. I'm a guy, so it's not completely accurate but it's really the closest term. I mean, I also do have a huge fear of pregnancy. Not necessarily of me being pregnant, but even though I knew I could never get pregnant, the thought of it still made me feel sick
I bet you can imagine the terror that overcame me as I felt something moving in me. I made an audible groan and grabbed my stomach. My whole class turned to look at me. even my teacher stopped talking to ask if I was okay. I stood up and started to run to the nurses' office without even acknowledging my teacher. My first thought wasn't thinking that something was actually in my body. Even stomach aches and the feeling of gurgling in my stomach made me feel this way before. I didn't have anything on hand to help with a stomach ache, unfortunately. However, the nurse always did.
I sprinted across the school hoping and praying that my stomach wouldn't make that awful feeling again before I got there.
I turned the corner into the nurses' office with my tennis shoes squeaking in the process. I saw the school nurse, Mrs. Kennedy sitting on the couch in her office reading a magazine. She looked up at me with a sweet smile that quickly turned into worry.
"Sam, what is it? How can I help?" She said as she stood up and hurried over to me. Putting her hand over mine which was grabbing my stomach tightly.
"It's…It's my stomach. Something is wrong with it." I mumbled with a red face.
She shuffled her way over to her large medicine cabinet and she motioned for me to sit down.
She asked me questions about my stomach. Asking if it was pain, grumbling, cramps, nausea, etc. As she was asking me what my symptoms were and digging through bottles, The feeling happened again. However, this time was different. It felt like fingers grassing against the inside of my body. I screamed and wrapped my arms around my torso. Mrs. Kenneddy ran over to me to comfort me.
"This seems a lot worse than normal, maybe we should call your parents." She said as she put her hand on my back.
It felt like some days I saw Mrs. Kennedy more than my teachers. Any small ailment would distract me so badly from class that I had to go see her. Sometimes multiple times a day. She knew at this point when something was really wrong.
Within about 30 minutes both my parents were there with us. That may seem fast, but I'm an only child and my parents are very aware of my tendencies. They know I can spiral and like to be around if it happens.
They kept asking me where the pain was. I think they assumed by the way I wasn't responding to their questions the pain must've been really bad. The reality was that I just didn't know how to tell them what was going on.
I got so frustrated after they asked me over and over again that I just yelled at them.
"Something is inside me! Get it out, get it out, get it out!" I lifted my shirt and was ripping at my stomach. Leaving red nail scratches and cuts. My mom and dad ran to either side of me to grab my arms. Mrs. Kennedy had seen me go pretty crazy, but this was the worst I've ever gotten in front of her. My parents however had seen a similar situation before. Not exactly like this, but they didn't skip a beat on trying to help me.
"Sam. Breath, sweety. Just remember everything is in you for a reason. It's keeping you alive. Nothing is going to hurt you." My mom said softly to me. Trying to calm me down with the words my therapist gave her. "Ice cubes, get him ice cubes!" She said to Mrs. Kennedy as I started to hyperventilate.
Mrs. Kennedy grabbed a ziplock bag and started to fill it with ice cubes. My mom went over to her and grabbed an ice cube right out of the bag, opened up my hand, and put the ice cube in it. This worked in the past to distract me, I knew that's what she was doing, and trust me. I wanted it to work too, but this was different. I kept trying to tell myself that it was just a different feeling I hadn't felt before. That it wasn't possible something was physically inside my body. But I couldn't help it.
Everyone in the room could see that this was getting intense. I think they assumed it was just a mental breakdown and that nothing was physically wrong with my body but I didn't care. I just wanted help.
My parents got me into the car with my mom even sitting in the backseat with me. She kept trying to distract me with conversation but my mind was only on that awful feeling in my stomach.
We pulled up to the ER and my mom guided me in while holding both my wrists. It felt like she was walking me on a leash but I didn't fight it. I knew she was just trying to stop me from scratching my stomach.
We walked in and I spoke to the receptionist. All I said was that I had terrible pain in my stomach. I didn't want to sound too crazy. I just needed a doctor to look at whatever was going on.
After giving the receptionist my name and insurance information we went to sit down. I was sitting in between my parents and I could see my mom lean back to try and mouth something to my dad without me seeing. I didn't think much of it. I was way more worried about other things.
My dad then went up to the receptionist. He pointed over to me and she looked a little concerned. I saw her pick up the clipboard that had my information on it and she started writing something else on it. I asked my dad what he did and he just said to not worry and that he wanted to let her know it was urgent.
No more than 10 minutes went by and I felt a terrible moving sensation. I cringed and grabbed my stomach. Immediately followed by not just the feeling of a hand grabbing my insides but also scratching and pinching. I yelled out in pain as the other people in the waiting room looked at me mortified.
A doctor and a couple of nurses came running over to me and helped me up. But I couldn't stand up. I was in too much pain. They put me in a wheelchair and started to head for a room. However, they didn't take me through the normal big ER doors that went to the standard examination rooms, they took me and my parents through a smaller door to the side that had a padlock on it.
We walked through a white hallway that was very quiet. The doctor and nurses showed us to my room and helped me into my bed as I was wiggling and wincing. I had one parent on either side of me. Patiently waited to stop my arms from scratching.
The doctor was trying to ask further questions but he could tell it wasn't going anywhere. I knew that my dad probably told that receptionist about my OCD tendencies and that I needed to go to the psych ward. Not just to the stranded side of the ER.
I couldn't take it anymore and blurted out that something was inside my stomach and it was trying to get out.
The doctor just looked at my parents for a reaction and they gave him a sad nod. It was like they warned him that this could happen. The doctor didn't just think I was crazy, my parents did too. The doctor took a deep breath and came up to me. I knew I was about to hear some kind of dumb speech about how this was just my OCD and everything was going to be okay.
As he came closer to me, I pulled up my shirt and he gasped. Not only was my stomach scratched up like crazy, but we saw movement. It looked like when a pregnant woman can see her baby kicking. But this was so much stronger. It was stretching my skin.
My parents stood up and gasped while the doctor looked frantic and unprepared.
"Shit, shit, shit, shit!" The doctor said as he backed out of the room. "Hang on! We are getting this taken care of, just hang tight."
Just seconds later a nurse came in to give me some painkillers. I started to feel the pain slip away, but something so much worse started to creep in. I heard a voice. Not my own. Not some creepy-sounding creature, but the voice of a normal-sounding man that I'd never heard before. But that wasn't the scary part. The scary part was what he was saying to me.
"Get me out. Get me out. Get me out!"
It started in a normal tone, but slowly became more urgent and rushed. Then demanding.
The voice would coincide with the moment inside me.
It was getting so loud that I was having a hard time hearing the people around me. The doctor came in just a few minutes after I last saw him. He was red and sweaty. Like he'd just run a marathon. He told me they needed to do just a few tests on what was inside me before taking action.
I was trying so hard to pay attention to the words coming out of his mouth but all I could hear was the voice. The voice stopped for just a second and changed what he was saying. Now he started repeating,
"Cut me out, cut me out, cut me out, now!" I now knew this thing didn't just want out but it wanted out now. I begged the doctor to just get it out now but he wouldn't listen. The voice spoke up again.
"This is taking too long. Don't be afraid. Get me out yourself."
I think it could feel me resisting. Without realizing it, I was looking around the room for something. It was like I didn't even have control over my head or eyes anymore. I knew the voice was looking for a knife but I was trying to ignore the feeling. I knew there weren't any knives around. I was in a very safe place.
Just as I had the feeling I was safe, it was immediately taken away. The thought passed through my head that my dad probably had a pocket knife on him. My heart sank. I knew this thing could hear my thoughts. I knew what it would try to do.
The next thing I knew, I was on my feet, leaping for my dad. My body hit his. luckily, he's in pretty good shape for his age and had no problems putting me in my place.
He got on top of me and pinned me to the ground. All while I could barely hear my mom in the background. Yelling at my dad to be careful. My dad knew something was going on and that I just needed to be on the ground until I calmed down.
My body tried to flail but it wasn't successful. The whole time the voice in my head, now yelling and screaming. Not saying any distinguishable words, but just having what felt like a tantrum. What made my dad the most uncomfortable was the kicking feeling coming from my stomach.
After a couple of minutes, the voice calmed down and I felt in charge of my body again. My dad slowly got up and attempted to help me up. At this point with an audience of hospital staff that looked like they were getting ready to take me somewhere for more tests.
Just as I stood up straight, I felt the voice take over and I lost all sense of my own body. I felt like a shell of myself. My dad gave me a soft yet worried smile, and in that instance, I grabbed him and reached into his pocket. My heart sank as I felt his pocket knife. The room started to panic and about 5 people tried to grab it from me. The last thing I remember is plunging the knife into my stomach. I felt a blinding pain and everything went black.
Several hours later I started to wake up. Everything was extremely blurry and fuzzy. I could hear a very faint voice telling me to relax. As the minutes passed by, things started to become a little bit clearer. I looked around and saw I was in a large room with a few other patients. A nurse was going up to all the beds and checking in on them. I tried to sit up a bit to get more comfortable and noticed an incredible sourness in my stomach. I moved my hospital gown out of the way and saw a huge scare. About 6" across. Most of the scare looked very surgical. Like what I'd imagine a c-section surgery would look like. Except where I remembered the knife going in. It looked like a bunch of extra stitches had to be added where it went in. It also looked pretty bruised. I can imagine that a dull 10-year-old knife that was harshly shoved into a body really wouldn't cleanly cut through and leave some damage.
The feeling of shock from looking at my stomach was quickly gone when I realized that meant whatever was in me was now gone. I didn't hear the voice, I didn't feel a hand in my gut anymore, I didn't see that vile kicking anymore. I felt like I could breathe.
I asked the nurse what they found and she looked flush.
"Uh, that's something that you, uh. Your doctor will talk with you once you eat something and can speak clearly." She said as she scurried off looking upset.
Shortly after that, I was wheeled into a recovery room and my parents came to see me.
As they walked in they had a very similar look on their faces as the nurse did. They looked pale and didn't want to look me in the eye. I kept asking them questions about what was going on but they said the doctor needed to discuss it with me and he wanted to make sure I wasn't feeling high from the anesthesia while we had a conversation.
The doctor didn't come and see me for another 10 hours. Which felt strange. And to add to the strangeness, my parents were taking shifts hanging out with me. There was only overlap when they switched and the other parent took over while the other one left the room. I would understand if they weren't both with me for the whole time. I'm not that needy, but they were only both in my room together for about an hour. That was the hour before the doctor came to my room.
Finally, the doctor came in to talk to me. When he walked in, the room was cold and quiet. It was evident he didn't feel the same relief I was feeling.
He seemed awkward. Like he was talking way too long to get over to me. He grabbed a chair and scooted it close to me.
"Listen Sam. I know this last 24 hours has been very challenging. I apologize for not explaining what happened during your surgery sooner, but we all needed time to figure it out, and quite frankly, process what happened. We feel we have enough information to let you in on what is going on." A silence filled the room. It felt like no one was brave enough to break it.
"And?" I said with confusion.
"I think it'll be easier if we just show you."
The doctor along with my parents helped me into a wheelchair and we started to make our way across the hospital to an entirely different section. I couldn't believe all the things running through my head at what we were about to see. It felt like cruel and unusual punishment to leave me in anticipation and not just tell me what I was about to see.
When I went around the corner I couldn't process what I was looking at. I thought they were showing me a large tumor or growth of some kind, but why would a tumor be in a big incubation chamber with tubes connected to IVs and machines coming out of it?
As I got closer, I started to see human fetchers on it. It was mostly just a 6-pound lump of flesh, but I could see a hand sticking out of it. It was small, but what made it creepy was it looked like a fully developed man's hand. Just small. I could see a patch of hair coming out of what I assumed was its head. It had no discernible facial features. Just a few teeth scattered in one section.
As I looked at it with disgust, coming to terms with this thing that was just in my body, I had a realization. I wasn't feeling sick at the thought of something being in my body. Sure, I was grossed out that this particular thing was just in me, but the thought of the bacteria in my body didn't make me want to throw up. I thought about all the blood pumping through my veins and I felt… normal. Not only was the voice and kicking gone. But my OCD was gone too. I didn't have a mental illness. It was just this thing. Trying to find its way out for years.
As I was staring at the creature, the doctor came and put his hand on my shoulder.
"We believe this is your twin brother." I immediately looked up at my parents who looked very disturbed and upset. I let the doctor finish talking. "We believe that you absorbed him in the womb and that he has been living inside you your whole life. This is an extremely rare condition called fetus-in-fetu. It seems he didn't quite have the best opportunity to develop normally. That's why he looks the way he does. Despite his appearance, he has all the organs he needs to survive. Looks like he's missing a lung and his gallbladder. Also a piece of his liver but other than that, it looks like he will live for at least a few years. He won't be able to leave this room due to him needing a feeding tube and a few other things that his body can not do on its own. He needs lots of support just to live. What makes this situation extremely unique is that your twin is still alive despite your body not sustaining him anymore. Even though we have him hooked up to a few IVs and machines, It is unexplainable how he is living while outside of your body."
I was in complete shock. I didn't want to believe it. I asked my mom why she never told me I absorbed my twin in the womb, she said she had no clue. There was never a sign when she was pregnant with me.
He also mentioned that sometimes even in pregnancies women will go their whole pregnancy without even getting a belly. It's called a 'Cryptic pregnancy'. I've always had a bit of a gut but never anything big enough to cause suspicion. I guess in my case I had a fetus-fetu and an experience similar to a cryptic pregnancy. Even though it was in my stomach. At least that was the doctor's best guess. Although, it all sounded like BS to me.
The doctor and my parents kept trying to explain more and more details to me. I don't know why they didn't slow down a little bit for my sake. How could they not tell I wasn't processing any of this?
I noticed something while they were trying to explain things to me. They kept calling it a 'He'.
Now listen. I'm not some kind of asshole that won't respect someone who wants to be called a specific pronoun. I've never been that kind of person. But this is where I draw the line.
Not just that. But this thing had a name. My parents named it and said today was its birthday. While they told me all this information, they didn't look happy about it. It seemed like they were forced to do all this nonsense. And now it was my turn to be convinced. I could tell they were trying to force it.
The doctor told me despite it not having a high probability for a long life that we should still try and give it the love it deserves. Of course, the doctor referred to it as a 'He' but I refused to.
This disgusted me. This thing tried to kill me and ruined my quality of life for so long, and now we are going to treat it like it's some kind of prince? No, absolutely not.
Luckily, it seemed like it would never leave the hospital, but my parents planned on going to visit it daily. Visiting it? Are you kidding me? it has no eyes, no ears, it's probably miserable and has no concept of people even being around it.
I'm refusing to ever see this thing again or acknowledge its existence again.
I could get in trouble for even talking about this. The hospital or anyone involved has signed NDAs to not share any information about this until it officially dies. This is because it's a medical anomaly and the first of its kind. They want to do the proper research on how this all occurred before coming out with a statement. I just have to get this all off my chest. I feel like I'm the crazy one here when I know I'm not. I don't care if I get in trouble.
I am scared that the doctors are trying to force my parents into giving this thing a proper life. I think that's why it took them so long to tell me. I think they scared my parents into keeping it alive and guilting them or even forcing them into being its parent.
I'm all for every life being important and all that stuff, but I have a feeling my parents are terrified of this thing just like I am.
I am convinced they gaslit my parents into believing this thing is my brother. If there wasn't any sign of him while my mom was pregnant with me, could this thing be something else?
This all happened about two years ago. It's still alive and they are still researching it. My parents continue to visit it despite everything. My therapist told me that I'm probably just struggling with jealousy now that I'm not an only child anymore and so much of my parents' attention is on him now, but it's so much bigger than just jealousy.
Since this thing showed up and my OCD is pretty much gone, I've hardly seen my parents. I know I'm not just jealous. There is something more to this. I know it.
Something just feels so off about this whole thing. What is this thing? Where did it come from? And what does it want?
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2024.05.16 17:28 newmusicrls Techno (Raw Deep Hypnotic) Top 100 May 2024

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  11. Uncertain – Maniac (Vocal) 05:04 141bpm 7A
  12. Robert Hood – Alpha Key (Original Mix) 06:07 137bpm 12A
  13. Woo York – Atlantis (Original Mix) 06:12 126bpm 8B
  14. Dustin Zahn – Temporary Vandalism (Original Mix) 06:12 137bpm 2A
  15. Rene Wise – Caging Green (Original Mix) 05:43 135bpm 1A
  16. Rene Wise – Escaping Siro (Original Mix) 06:22 135bpm 8B
  17. Hemka – Fragrance (Original Mix) 05:01 141bpm 3B
  18. Axel Karakasis – Enchanted (Original Mix) 06:25 141bpm 7A
  19. Rene Wise – Dry Beetle (Original Mix) 06:02 134bpm 4A
  20. Hertz – Go Back (Original Mix) 06:08 138bpm 8A
  21. MarAxe – Feels Like (Original Mix) 05:45 141bpm 9A
  22. Chlär – Dopamine Rush (Original Mix) 05:39 144bpm 2B
  23. Gary Beck – Fold (Original Mix) 05:02 140bpm 3A
  24. Axel Karakasis – Wave Cruising (Original Mix) 05:54 142bpm 6A
  25. Flug – Hypenorance (Original Mix) 07:14 137bpm 12B
  26. Shlomi Aber – Saver (Original Mix) 05:00 142bpm 9A
  27. Sonic Propaganda – Native (Original Mix) 05:23 144bpm 11B
  28. Len Faki – Make Me Scream (Amotik Remix) 05:51 137bpm 1A
  29. Altinbas – Rivers (Original Mix) 05:47 138bpm 7B
  30. Ned Bennett – Carnival Revival (Original Mix) 04:43 145bpm 9A
  31. NØRBAK – Teste (Original Mix) 05:22 137bpm 11B
  32. Ned Bennett – Navigation (Original Mix) 04:53 146bpm 4B
  33. Mark Broom, Gene Richards Jr – Elephant Bones (Original Mix) 04:34 140bpm 4A
  34. Hurdslenk – Jugular (Original Mix) 04:52 138bpm 5A
  35. Exos – Ds4br (Original Mix) 05:32 145bpm 4A
  36. Absolet – Close Encounter (Original Mix) 05:41 144bpm 11B
  37. Shlomi Aber – The Untold (Original Mix) 05:32 139bpm 3A
  38. Axel Karakasis – Wiring Harness (Original Mix) 05:57 106bpm 8B
  39. Filterheadz – Seatle (Original Mix) 06:20 138bpm 12A
  40. Vinicius Honorio – Stabbed In The Heart (Original Mix) 05:13 137bpm 10A
  41. DJ Dextro – Idade das Perguntas (Original Mix) 05:19 145bpm 6A
  42. Amotik, Tina Ramamurthy – Chauhattar feat. Tina Ramamurthy (Original Mix) 08:06 136bpm 3A
  43. The Southern – Particle (Original Mix) 05:58 142bpm 11B
  44. Phara – High Lows (Original Mix) 05:42 140bpm 8A
  45. Phara – Rhythm Sticks (Original Mix) 05:56 140bpm 8A
  46. Axel Karakasis – Good Move (Original Mix) 05:36 139bpm 5A
  47. Gustavo Bassani – Liquid Cave (Original Mix) 05:09 145bpm 1B
  48. Slam – Exhibit 1 (BØHM & The Unborn Child Remix) 06:45 138bpm 9A
  49. Harvey McKay – Hypnotics (Original Mix) 05:14 138bpm 7A
  50. Regent – Occult (Original Mix) 06:24 72bpm 11B
  51. Ramon Tapia – Saturated Mind (Original Mix) 06:11 136bpm 6A
  52. PAGANO – Zelig (Original Mix) 06:15 135bpm 4A
  53. Red Rooms – Cypher (Original Mix) 05:00 142bpm 12B
  54. Vinicius Honorio, Theo Nasa – Endless Love (Hardspace, Len Faki Remix) 05:22 140bpm 8A
  55. Shabaam, Aladarus – Colossal (Original Mix) 05:50 136bpm 6B
  56. Christian Smith – Right Now! (Original Mix) 04:31 139bpm 10A
  57. Adoo – After Six Years (Original Mix) 06:22 138bpm 5A
  58. Pfirter – Access (Original Mix) 05:44 140bpm 11A
  59. Mark Broom, Gene Richards Jr – Average (Original Mix) 04:02 141bpm 5A
  60. ANNĒ – Moon Lander (Original Mix) 05:00 109bpm 7A
  61. DJ Dextro – Eon (Original Mix) 05:26 142bpm 9A
  62. Jonas Kopp, Staffan Linzatti – 1.CO.LAB 009 A (Original Mix) 04:19 137bpm 12B
  63. Deas – Flux (Original Mix) 05:40 137bpm 3A
  64. Flug – Against The Limits (Rave Mix) 06:28 141bpm 7B
  65. Len Faki – Shri Yantra (Luke Slater Deep Heat Remix) 06:54 138bpm 6A
  66. Keith Carnal – Altruism (Original Mix) 06:16 140bpm 2B
  67. EFESIAN – The Smoke (Extended Mix) 05:05 145bpm 3A
  68. DJ Dextro – Mind Changes (Original Mix) 05:23 143bpm 12B
  69. Axel Karakasis – Plaster (Original Mix) 05:32 140bpm 7A
  70. Mark Broom, Gene Richards Jr – Track 1 (Original Mix) 04:28 89bpm 9A
  71. Red Rooms – Konichiwa (Original Mix) 05:20 145bpm 5B
  72. Stef Mendesidis – Kraken (Original Mix) 06:00 145bpm 5B
  73. Drunken Kong – Bliss (Original Mix) 05:01 134bpm 8B
  74. Len Faki – Astra (Len Faki Beat Room Mix) 05:16 68bpm 8A
  75. Hertz – Go Back (Raw Mix) 05:26 138bpm 8A
  76. Hertz – Loop Me (Original Mix) 05:20 104bpm 7A
  77. Hertz – Baby (Original Mix) 05:20 138bpm 6B
  78. ERR0 – Dicotomia (Original Mix) 05:30 144bpm 9A
  79. Ned Bennett – B-Side Loops (Original Mix) 04:37 140bpm 11B
  80. Jancen – Vertex (Original Mix) 06:25 142bpm 12B
  81. Levzon – Intense (Original Mix) 05:20 144bpm 9B
  82. Drumcell, Luis Flores – Stuck In My Mind (Truncate Remix) 05:15 89bpm 1B
  83. NØRBAK – Sopro (Original Mix) 05:43 137bpm 8A
  84. Jay York – Agresiva (Original Mix) 05:49 142bpm 8A
  85. Elyas, Anta – Real 13130 G’s (Ben Sims Remix) 05:32 141bpm 9A
  86. ANNĒ – Rootstock (Original Mix) 04:59 142bpm 6A
  87. Temudo – The Ecosystem Track (Original Mix) 05:51 138bpm 11A
  88. The Southern – Memories (Original Mix) 05:22 144bpm 11B
  89. Louisahhh, Man Power – We Trawl The Hurts (Deetron Drum and Bass) 04:52 67bpm 1B
  90. Keith Carnal – Cynicism (Original Mix) 06:10 140bpm 11A
  91. OFF / GRID – For the Mind (Original Mix) 05:11 142bpm 1A
  92. Maccari – Speeding (Original Mix) 05:07 144bpm 1A
  93. Inox Traxx – In My Darkness (Original Mix) 05:13 138bpm 7A
  94. Philippe Petit – Compatibility (Original Mix) 06:07 138bpm 12A
  95. Funk Assault – That’s the Funk Assault (Original Mix) 04:01 144bpm 9A
  96. Dax J – Ares (Original Mix) 05:10 144bpm 2B
  97. Rene Wise – Lonely Singing (Original Mix) 06:30 133bpm 11B
  98. ASEC – Equus (Original Mix) 05:35 143bpm 10B
  99. Coyu – Lights Out (Original Mix) 06:21 142bpm 2A
  100. Kr!z – Surge (Original Mix) 04:36 140bpm 6B
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2024.05.16 17:26 newmusicrls Trance (Raw Deep Hypnotic) Top 100 May 2024

https://minimalfreaks.co/2024/05/trance-raw-deep-hypnotic-top-100-may-2024/
  1. Luke Alessi, Chloé Caillet – 12 Inch Acid (Original Mix) 06:34 132bpm 10B
  2. Demi Riquísimo – Windows 95 Anthem (Chloé Caillet Remix) 06:54 135bpm 3B
  3. Protoculture – States Of Flux (Extended Mix) 07:38 126bpm 8A
  4. Sasha – Fleuron Drift (Theo Kottis Remix) 06:49 130bpm 7B
  5. Estiva – Via Infinita (Marsh Extended Remix) 06:34 128bpm 11A
  6. Pico Boulevard – Oblivion (Enlusion Remix) 10:18 128bpm 4A
  7. Duderstadt – Muhanjala (Dylhen Extended Remix) 07:00 124bpm 5A
  8. Ruben Karapetyan – Meteorite (Jerome Isma-Ae Remix) 06:29 124bpm 10B
  9. Dj Rafis – X Ponential Life (Original Mix) 08:12 132bpm 11A
  10. Nomas, Deestopia – Avantgarde (Extended Mix) 07:03 127bpm 8A
  11. Breeder – Tyrantanic (Freedo Mosho & Maze 28 Remix) 07:50 122bpm 8B
  12. Airwave – Alexanderplatz (Extended Mix) 07:57 132bpm 8B
  13. Airod – Meet Me In The Club (Original Mix) 05:27 145bpm 6A
  14. X-Coast – Marathon Man (Extended) 04:42 138bpm 9B
  15. Airwave – The Principles of Forgiveness (Extended Mix) 07:36 128bpm 12A
  16. Fuenka – Foundation (Basil O’Glue & Nomas Extended Remix) 07:58 126bpm 6A
  17. Protoculture – Starfield (Extended Mix) 06:50 126bpm 9B
  18. Solee – On the Other Side (Original Mix) 06:43 124bpm 4A
  19. Aldonna – The Empress’ Acid Line (Alex Kassian Remix) 07:58 133bpm 5B
  20. Der Dritte Raum – Trommelmaschine (2024 Remastered Version) 06:40 135bpm 10B
  21. Spray (IE) – Ceathair (Original) 05:29 135bpm 1B
  22. Airwave – Asteroids (Extended Mix) 06:31 128bpm 9B
  23. Stu McNally – Innerversions (Extended Mix) 08:09 124bpm 5A
  24. Pico Boulevard – Oblivion (Original Mix) 12:27 127bpm 7B
  25. Maruwa – Need It (Original Mix) 05:02 135bpm 7B
  26. Airwave – I’m Not Rank 1 (Extended Mix) 07:37 128bpm 2A
  27. Baldo, Third Son – This Is Your Brain on Music (Original Mix) 05:06 132bpm 12B
  28. Catz ‘n Dogz – Rave History (Maruwa Remix) 06:34 137bpm 6B
  29. Clint – Exosphere (Dance Mix) 07:32 132bpm 6B
  30. Clint – Exosphere (Main Mix) 09:05 135bpm 6A
  31. Ormus – Nahual (Extended Mix) 07:13 125bpm 6B
  32. Elfenberg – Cosmic Debris (Original Mix) 08:00 114bpm 11B
  33. Airwave – The World vs Spotify (Extended Mix) 05:26 132bpm 9A
  34. Regent – Aphid Riot (Original Mix) 05:50 144bpm 7A
  35. Vladimir Dubyshkin – glucose guardian (Original Mix) 05:10 140bpm 7A
  36. Indira Paganotto – Requiem (Extended Mix) 06:10 145bpm 6B
  37. Spray (IE) – Ratenplan (Original Mix) 06:10 136bpm 7A
  38. Alpha Tracks, KI/KI – To Nights (KI/KI Remix) 06:03 148bpm 7A
  39. Suki, Sniper1 – Purple Haze (Original Mix) 07:17 136bpm 5B
  40. Blanca Ross – Interfered AI (Original Mix) 06:13 135bpm 11B
  41. Lena Storm – Affection (Original Mix) 06:55 128bpm 1B
  42. Fuenka – Sirius (Anunnakis Extended Remix) 07:02 125bpm 9A
  43. YU-1 – Black Sky (Extended Mix) 06:44 124bpm 2B
  44. IZRAELL – Tornado of Soul (Fher Vizzuett Remix) 06:44 124bpm 12B
  45. Elfenberg – Horses for Courses (Original Mix) 05:36 132bpm 7B
  46. Spray (IE) – OT Rails (Original) 06:15 134bpm 3A
  47. Sekta – Sequence Start (Extended Mix) 04:37 145bpm 9A
  48. Abdul Raeva – Navigator 3000 (Original Mix) 06:48 130bpm 11B
  49. Cosmic Gate – Mirador (Extended Mix) 07:24 126bpm 5A
  50. Wilt, Jeff The Fool – Jericho (Original Mix) 04:45 133bpm 5B
  51. Clint – Alpine Breaks (Alex Kassian Remix) 07:49 131bpm 2B
  52. Viper (Trance) – Simulation (Original Mix) 06:30 70bpm 11B
  53. Elfenberg – Without Further A Dude (Original Mix) 06:04 136bpm 10A
  54. Wolk – Strong Enough (Extended Mix) 07:22 150bpm 6A
  55. F-Act, Allan McLoud – Another Day (Original Mix) 06:51 127bpm 11A
  56. Macker – Arrakis (Original Mix) 09:06 130bpm 5A
  57. Baldo – Ride the Night (Alex Neri Remix) 06:43 130bpm 9B
  58. Pico Boulevard – The Moon and Back (Extended Mix) 07:50 128bpm 4A
  59. Pablo Gargano – The Breeze (Original Mix) 06:52 124bpm 8A
  60. Christian Nielsen – Let Me Go (Luke Alessi Remix) 06:17 130bpm 7B
  61. Neither Nor – Immaterial (Original Mix) 04:43 152bpm 7A
  62. Sashtek – Hidden Pyramids (Extended Mix) 05:22 134bpm 7B
  63. Santiago Luna – Combustion (Extended Mix) 05:20 128bpm 11B
  64. Demi Riquísimo – The Force (Original Mix) 04:36 130bpm 5A
  65. TODDZ – Move Your Body (Original Mix) 05:43 130bpm 8A
  66. Introspecto – Fragments (Original Mix) 07:39 128bpm 5B
  67. Anetha – Terraphoria (Original Mix) 05:35 147bpm 10A
  68. Joel Bird – Existentialism (Extended Mix) 08:55 149bpm 4A
  69. Peppe Amore – Cassa Dritta (Original Mix) 05:47 150bpm 5B
  70. Alex Neri, Mennie – Rockets (Original Mix) 05:58 128bpm 8A
  71. Basil O’Glue, Nomas, Calantha – Edgerunners (Extended Mix) 06:20 128bpm 4A
  72. Daniel Lesden, Enlusion – Dark Entity (Hypnotic Mix) 07:57 130bpm 12A
  73. Partiboi69 – Playin’ (Original Mix) 05:24 134bpm 6A
  74. B FROM E – Amnesia (Original Mix) 06:15 132bpm 1B
  75. Ovnimoon – Feel on Me (Original Mix) 10:33 133bpm 5B
  76. Fuenka – Synnax (Extended Mix) 06:58 125bpm 8B
  77. Pig&Dan – Fusion (Original Mix) 07:29 133bpm 6A
  78. Bliss Inc – Higher, Vision (Original Mix) 07:30 67bpm 4B
  79. KI/KI – To the vibe (rework) (Original Mix) 07:36 148bpm 3B
  80. KI/KI – Leave it to the vibe (Original Mix) 06:58 145bpm 3B
  81. Mac Declos – Trust Your Eyes (Original Mix) 05:34 152bpm 8B
  82. Nordic Echoes – Ice Giant (Original Mix) 07:13 142bpm 7B
  83. Intuition – Arcana 17 (Original Mix) 06:04 150bpm 5A
  84. Ormus – Ometeotl (Original Mix) 07:00 125bpm 11B
  85. Obie Fernandez, KNBI – Concentration (Extended Mix) 06:56 125bpm 6B
  86. Demi Riquísimo – The Force (Spray Remix) 05:25 138bpm 12A
  87. YU-1 – Transformer (Extended Mix) 07:17 124bpm 3A
  88. Ayu, Alfred Czital – Body High (Original) 05:48 140bpm 8B
  89. Olsvangèr – Bubble Toy (Original Mix) 06:30 136bpm 6A
  90. Olsvangèr – Grand Slammin’ (Original Mix) 07:38 87bpm 7B
  91. NairLess – Dazzling Fantasy (Jex Opolis Remix) (Jex Opolis Remix) 06:11 67bpm 12B
  92. Freedom Fighters, Modus (ISR), Uncharted Territory – Odyssey (Original Mix) 05:01 140bpm 12B
  93. Rosa Red – Rhapsody (Known Artist Remix) 05:11 132bpm 8B
  94. Ben Prophet – Siberia (Extended Mix) 04:52 145bpm 12A
  95. Basil O’Glue – Affinity Space (Original Mix) 06:25 126bpm 5B
  96. UCast, Kamelon, CLAVIR – Escape (Extended Mix) 07:12 124bpm 8A
  97. Baraka, Spray (IE) – Think of Me (Original) 06:28 140bpm 8B
  98. Cosmic Gate – am2pm (Anunnakis Extended Remix) 06:19 124bpm 4B
  99. Match Box – Midnight (Bliss Inc. Remix) 07:00 138bpm 11B
  100. Chris Flannigan – First To Say Goodbye (Original Mix) 04:24 145bpm 12A
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2024.05.16 17:24 PracticalImpact4235 How is Xfinity Mobile?

It's $30 a month cheaper than what we're currently paying and offering $40 off the rest of the bill as well. They even offered free phones which are better than what we have. The verizon map is blanketed red around me. What's the catch? Having to stick with Comcast for home internet? Which seems like too big of a hassle to switch away from at this point anyway. If it sucks just get a new sim?
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2024.05.16 17:23 worldcutestkid New to gacha - Is the storyline meant to be linear or not?

Going to caveat this by saying that I've always only played VNs (visual novels) & LnD is my first ever otome gacha or any gacha, for that matter (Didn't even know what gacha meant only now lol). Its beautiful graphics and even more gorgeous LIs completely won me over.
Among other problems (bear with me 😅) like being completely clueless about fighting battles or calculating stats, or why in the world are there so many different currencies like coins, purple diamond, red diamond, chocolate, stardust, movieboard etc etc, the most major one for me is that the storyline is VERY disjointed.
For example:
one - When I was stuck after finishing Chapter 2 and couldn't progress further to Chapter 3 without reaching Level 14 (iirc), I had to go around and do other activities to gain XP. Then I started getting wish cards and experiencing all the other cutesy activities and Tender Moments etc, and to me it's like very sudden that all 3 LIs had feelings for MC & vice versa, but nothing even happened for those feelings to develop?? I didn't even met Raf much. It was strange, and I'm a huge sucker of falling in love plotlines so I felt like a huge chunk of the storyline was cut out
two - By the time I could progress to chapter 3, I've already done quite a fair bit of activities with the LIs and had Secret Times and everything. And then in the main storyline, it was that scene in the No Hunt Zone and Xavier was such a stranger??? to be fair it's only the 2nd time we met on the main storyline but it felt like our relationship has progressed so much outside of it and it was just so weird that in the main story we were practically strangers. That was very disorienting for me.
three - I saw someone said that one of Raf's myth story is heartbreaking whereas the other set is a sweet ending for it. So the myth stories also has an order? Does that mean I shouldn't read Xav's midnight myth story until I've read his Lightseeker ones although I'm about to get his Midnight set sooner?
Can someone teach me how I can make it more linear? Should I restrict myself and not watch the memory stories / Tender Moments / Secret Times and only slowly experience them as the main storyline goes on and it makes more sense to? I'm worried that once I get both Xav's myth cards, I'll be able to unlock his myth story (I'm almost at Lvl 30 affinity with him) and then it'll be like I leapt immediately to the end of the story????
Please help a girlie out 😭 Am I the only one who feels this way?
Obviously with VNs we get the whole shebang from the meet-cute to the falling in love and the progession of the relationships etc. That was kinda what I was expecting coming into LnD, even if the gameplay is vastly differently like having to fight etc but I thought at least the storyline would be coherent and linear.
Or am I just experiencing culture shock coming from purely playing VNs and this is how gachas are meant to be played?
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2024.05.16 17:22 haygurlhay123 “This Time, I Will Never Let You Go”: Cloud’s Mission and the Hidden Purpose of the Remake Trilogy - Literary and Musical Analysis of FFVII - Part 6

(continuation of part 5)
Post-OG Cloud ruminates on what he could have done to save Aerith. Had he not been so lost in his own mind —distracted by Sephiroth and Jenova, consumed by his need to fulfill the emptiness at the core of his identity—, would he have paid more attention to Aerith’s sadness and anticipated her plan to go to the Forgotten Capital alone? Could she have survived if not for his obsession with what tormented him at the time? Could he have figured it out and kept her by his side? He’s angry with himself in retrospect, drowning in guilt, just like in Advent Children.
Here are the choruses, which usually contain the thesis main message of a song:
“Shine bright once more
Guide me to you
Smile bright once more
This time I will never let you go”
&
“Hear me once more
Show me your smile
This time for sure
I'll see the truth hidden inside your tears
But I, I know
That you're long gone
But I, I will
Go on, howling and hollow”
In these choruses, Cloud asserts that he will get it right this time (“this time” referring to the second chance that is the Remake trilogy). He will make sure he saves Aerith and never lets her go. He knows she’s gone, but he will fight against time to get her back. He longs for her smile and her light again, and he cannot bear the guilt: so he doesn’t. Post-OG Cloud embarks on a new adventure: ”I want to go to a place where everything is new,” said Cloud to Wol and Echo in Eclipse Contact before facing his past and being launched into Remake. “Hollow” makes far more sense now, doesn’t it? It’s a song not only about Cloud’s loss, but also about his determination to save Aerith this time. Given that it’s the theme song of Remake, the fact that “Hollow” fits with our theory perfectly is a very good sign: a theme song is meant to reflect the main plot of a story, indicating as our theory states that Remake is principally, albeit secretly, about Cloud saving Aerith. Because of this hope being set up, I’m confident that they will be together in the end, reunited for good. My dear Clerith friends, this is the hidden purpose of the Remake trilogy. Cloud and Aerith will be reunited.
VI. e) ii. “No Promises to Keep” Lyrics
This is quite obvious. Aerith is resigned to her fate, but still harbors hope that she will meet Cloud again in a permanent reunion:
“Till the day that we meet again
Where or when?
I wish I could say
But believe, know that you'll find me
[…]
Till the day that we meet again
On our street, I want to believe
[…]
Till the day that we meet again
At our place, just let me believe
In the chance that you'll come
Take my hand and never let me go
Take my hand
And believe
We can be
Together evermore
[…]
Still I hope someday you'll come and find me
Still I know someday you'll come and find me”.
VI. f) The Theme of Reunion Explained?
The last point I want to hit on is the concept of reunion. In OG, this theme was pretty much dominated by the Jenova Reunion. To an OG fan back in 1997, “reunion” meant “Sephiroth and Jenova’s evil plan”. However, in the Remake trilogy, the theme is expanded into something more. The first time Cloud meets Aerith in Remake, she gives him a flower and tells him something she didn’t in OG:
“Lovers used to give these when they were reunited...”
In addition, we’ve already talked about how part 5 of “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra” from the Remake OST tells the story of Cloud and Aerith’s reunion (see section “V. b) ii. 2)”).
Many moments exclusive to the Remake trilogy serve the same purpose: linking the theme of reunion to Aerith. This expansion of the theme is highly significant. Our theory is that the Remake trilogy exists to reunite Cloud and Aerith, so the fact that the trilogy would implement so many Clerith-centric references to reunion is great support for our theory.
VI. g) i. The Leslie-Cloud Parallel
Let’s consider another instance involving the reunion flower in Remake, more precisely, the chapter 14 subplot surrounding Leslie’s lost lover. In case you need a refresher, Leslie is one of Corneo’s lackeys, although he secretly plans to betray him. He once had a fiancée and things were looking up until she was selected as one of Corneo’s brides. The day before she disappeared (presumably taken by Corneo), his fiancée broke up with him with no explanation. It was confusing and left Leslie perplex. As she broke up with him, she returned a necklace to him, one with a flower pendant. Of course, that flower is the very same reunion flower Aerith gives Cloud in chapter 2.
Evidently, Leslie and Cloud are going through parallel situations. At this point in time, Aerith was just kidnapped by Shinra, and Cloud is on his way to get her back. Both their loved ones have been taken by tyrant rulers, one being slumlord Corneo and the other being the Shinra government. In fact, even Leslie and Cloud’s attitudes share similar disillusioned, cold and stoic qualities. Leslie’s fiancée would evidently be paralleled by Aerith.
The most obvious proof of the Leslie-Cloud parallel is written plainly on the list of Remake’s chapter 14 main scenario objectives. Objective 7, called “For the Reunion”, consists of receiving the grappling guns needed to reach topside and save Aerith. The description of the objective reads as follows:
“Leslie gives them grappling guns, and they wish each other luck in reuniting with their respective loved ones. Leslie walks off, and the three prepare to climb the wall.”
The grappling guns are “For the Reunion”, because evidently, the loved one Cloud wants to reunite with is Aerith.
All this is simple and apparent enough. Just the fact that the theme of reunion is linked to Clerith in this way is proof enough, but there’s another layer to the Leslie-Cloud parallel. Not only does Leslie’s situation reinforce the concept of a Clerith reunion, it also mirrors the specifics of our theory: namely that Cloud will save Aerith from specifically Sephiroth (represented in Leslie’s scenario by Corneo) and that Cloud will take the initiative to accomplish this reunion. These two specific aspects of our theory are reflected by Leslie’s circumstances, meaning the Leslie-Cloud parallel not only pushes the theme of reunion, but also supports our specific theory.
VI. g) i. 1) The Separators: Corneo and Sephiroth
I’ll first prove that Leslie’s scenario is not meant to echo Cloud’s separation from Aerith at the hands of Shinra —or at least not exclusively—, but rather Cloud’s separation from Aerith at the hands of Sephiroth. Corneo would therefore be paralleled by Sephiroth rather than the tyrannical Shinra government.
The first piece of proof for the Corneo-Seohiroth parallel lies within the way in which Leslie’s fiancée broke things off: by lying. Aerith also lies to Cloud to create distance between them, but not pertaining to her kidnapping— rather, pertaining to her fated death. Since Sephiroth is Aerith’s killer and not Shinra, Corneo’s role in the Leslie-Cloud parallel is analogous to Sephiroth’s rather than Shinra’s.
There are two pieces of evidence that the Corneo-Sephiroth comparison makes more sense than the Corneo-Shinra one. The first lies in the fact that Leslie’s breakup resembles Cloud’s resolution scene: the topic of Cloud’s resolution scene is Aerith’s fate at the hands of Sephiroth rather than her kidnapping by Shinra, meaning Corneo and Sephiroth are the antagonists of both heartbreaks.
Let’s examine Leslie’s breakup. Here is how his fiancée broke things off, taken from the English script of Remake’s chapter 14, with tone indicators added by me in bold:
“Fiancée: It was all just a dream, wasn't it[?]
Fiancée: (Hopefully) But one day…
(She trails off, then shakes her head and stops herself.)
Fiancée: (Sadly, hopelessly) — no. Time to wake up. And forget.
(She walks away.)”
Now, here is a more literal translation of this quote from the original Japanese (verified by me via DeepL), with tone indicators added by me in bold:
“Fiancée: It was only just a dream we had / We were only dreaming...
Fiancée: (Hopefully, as though as a hail Mary) In the language of the flowers...
(She trails off, then shakes her head and stops herself.)
Fiancée: (Sadly, hopelessly) — no. You should forget about me.
(She walks away.)”
Leslie’s fiancée is clearly breaking up with him to spare him the pain of blaming himself for not being able to protect her from Corneo, as she knows it’s too late for her to escape from the slumlord’s clutches. We know this because we understand that the pendant she gave back to him symbolizes a reunion (especially between lovers, as Aerith told Cloud in chapter 2). In fact, the Japanese version of the script reveals that the fiancée was about to reveal the meaning of the flower, perhaps in the hopes that they would find each other once more, but she lost her nerve at the last second. Notice that she tells Leslie two specific things. One: their love or their future together was only a dream, meaning that it wasn’t real. Two: he should forget about her, because the dream is over now and it’s time to wake up from it.
If you’re finding this familiar, then you might be ahead of me. Let’s take a look at what Aerith says to Cloud in his resolution scene, also in the English script of Remake’s chapter 14, with tone indicators added by me in bold:
“Aerith: […] you can’t fall in love with me. [It]’s not real […]. (With a sigh, as though from sadness or difficulty, but resolutely) It’s almost morning. Time to go.”
Now, here is a more literal translation of this quote from the original Japanese (verified by me via DeepL), with tone indicators added by me in bold:
“Aerith: You can’t let yourself fall in love with me. [It]’s only your imagination […]. (With a sigh, as though from sadness or difficulty, but resolutely) Looks like it’s already morning. Time for me to go.”
Just like Leslie’s fiancée, Aerith is rejecting or denying Cloud’s love for her in order to spare him from the pain of not having been able to be with her before her death, as she believes it is inevitable. Just like the fiancée, Aerith also tells Cloud two things. One: their love is imaginary or isn’t real. Two: it’s morning, and she has to go (she says this right before Cloud wakes from the pseudo-dream).
In both cases, the women know something about their fate that the men don’t and are hiding this impending tragedy from them. Just like Leslie’s fiancée, Aerith uses well-intentioned deception to protect her loved one from the pain that will come from her fate— the lie, of course, is that their love isn’t real. Both women are hopeless, and both men are initially clueless. Aerith’s resolution can’t be about her kidnapping, because Aerith thinks her rescue is anything but hopeless— she’s sure Cloud will come save her from Shinra. She says so herself in OG’s disk 1, chapter 8:
“Cloud: Aeris!? You safe?
Aeris: Yeah, I'm all right. I knew that [you] would come for me.”
What Aerith is so resigned about in Cloud’s resolution scene isn’t her kidnapping, but instead her fated death at the hands of Sephiroth. Nojima hints at this in FFVII Remake Ultimania:
“If you know Aerith’s fate, then this line would really pull at your heart strings […]” (section 08 “Secrets”, “Development Staff Interviews, Part 2: Tetsuya Nomura, Yoshinori Kitase, Yoshinori Kitase, Kazushige Nojima”, page 744).
Here is what codirector Toriyama had to say on Aerith’s words:
“[While] these words are intended for Cloud, I think Aerith is partly speaking them to herself. The contents of her request may be at odds with how she truly feels inside” (FFVII Remake Material Ultimania Plus, VA Script Notes, “A Dream Shown by Aerith”, “Scenario Staff Q&A - Answered by Motomu Toriyama”).
These two quotes by the devs show that Aerith is trying to protect Cloud from her death. Therefore, the Corneo-Sephiroth parallel is far more apt than the Corneo-Shinra parallel.
The second piece of evidence supporting my belief that Corneo mirrors Sephiroth and not Shinra in the Leslie-Cloud parallel is the inclusion of the theme of revenge that crops up in the following piece of dialogue:
“Tifa: Why did you wanna come down here?
Leslie: Revenge. I know I need to let go, but I can't. I need closure, 'cause without it... I'll never be able to move on” (Remake, chapter 14).
Leslie’s sentiment toward Corneo resembles Cloud’s feelings toward Sephiroth after Aerith’s death. Revenge links Cloud to Sephiroth, not to Shinra. Corneo and Sephiroth reflect each other in that, as a consequence of their actions toward a woman, the man who loves her desires revenge.
Additionally, it looks like Leslie’s obsession with revenge as a means to closure is the reason he didn’t bother trying to understand the message his fiancée left him with: he’s focused on his hate rather than his love, and it’s hindering him. He doesn’t succeed in killing Corneo either: his focus and energy are misplaced. Cloud’s desire for vengeance against Sephiroth is also depicted as an obstacle to accomplishing his goals (see how in section “III. c)” of my previous literary analysis). Once more, the Corneo-Sephiroth parallel fits far better than a Corneo-Shinra perspective.
VI. g) i. 2) The Reunion Seekers: Leslie and Cloud
The other aspect of the Leslie-Cloud parallel that supports our theory is that in both scenarios, they both take charge of the situation and decide to actively seek reunion with their respective lovers. The following dialogue excerpt, supplemented by the VA script notes, shows Leslie’s initiative:
“Tifa: [Your fiancée] could still be out there.
Barret: Can never be sure how much someone means to ya till they're gone. Don't give up on her yet.
Leslie: (Looks at the flower pendant, [recalling his lover’s words) A message in the language of flowers… I wonder what she meant by it.
[…]
Tifa: Reunion.
Leslie: Huh?
Tifa: In the language of flowers, it means ‘reunion.’
(Leslie shifts his gaze from Tifa to the pendant and stares at it for some time. At last he understands the words his lover left him. With that, as if his mind has been made up, he clutches the pendant and hangs it around his neck.)
Leslie: Then I guess I’ll just have to find her first” (FFVII Remake Material Ultimania Plus, VA Script Notes, “Other Notable Stage Directions - Chapters 14-16”).
Take note of Leslie’s final response and the determination with which he speaks: “Then I guess I’ll just have to find her first”. Remember that we’re searching for evidence that Cloud is going to be the one reaching out to Aerith in the Remake trilogy, and that it’s his turn to take his future into his hands. He must be more attentive, more active this time. And Leslie’s words of determination reflect this perfectly. Leslie must find his fiancée first, just like Cloud has to be the one to offer his hand to Aerith in the Remake trilogy and fight for her. This is exactly what our theory is all about.
VI. g) i. 3) Delayed Realizations
Interestingly, not only does Leslie’s determination mirror Cloud’s, but both men are depicted as realizing the truth too late. Just like Leslie only began searching for his fiancée six months after her disappearance, Cloud only realizes he loves Aerith in OG once she’s died. It took him this long to actually get somewhere in his mission to reunite with her— “somewhere” being the Remake trilogy.
Even Barret’s words highlight the lovers’ delay: “Can never be sure how much someone means to ya till they're gone”. Barret would know: he lost his wife Myrna, whom he loved dearly. The devs have Barret comment on the situation as a man whose lover died, mirroring Cloud’s situation in OG. Just as Barret says, Cloud only truly realized the strength of how he felt for Aerith in OG once she was gone. The gunman’s words apply to both Leslie and Cloud’s tardy initiatives. Regardless of this delay, both men are now determined to see their respective reunions through.
The degree to which the Leslie-Cloud parallel fits our theory is a great sign of its validity: even the details are lining up!
VI. g) ii. Reunion in the Theme Songs
Too easy: in our analysis of the lyrics of the theme songs, we covered how both texts include the theme of reunion. “No Promises to Keep” is especially relevant (see section “VI. e) ii.”), as the entire song is Aerith hoping against fate for a reunion with Cloud (even if you believe the song is about all her companions, that still includes Cloud).
On top of these reunion-themed lyrics, during Aerith’s in-game performance of “No Promises to Keep” at the Gold Saucer production of Loveless, her yellow blossoms signifying reunion bloom all around her as Cloud watches her, captivated.
Another great sign for our theory: the highly significant theme songs are on our side!
VI. g) iii. Waking Up Reunited
The thing I want to juxtapose to our theory is a small yet special moment in chapter 2 of Rebirth that stuck out to me like a sore thumb and got me really excited about sharing it with you. This moment occurs after the battle against the Midgardsormr. We’ll be comparing it to two other clips, describing all three in chronological order, and making deductions based on their similarities.
The first clip I want to address occurs in chapter 8 of Remake (1:32-2:12). There are a couple of things I want to point out in this scene. First, Aerith wakes Cloud from unconsciousness with a cute call of “Hello~?”. Second, despite pretending that he doesn’t, he immediately recognizes her. The VA script notes prove it:
“Aerith: Nice to meet you again.
Cloud actually remembers Aerith, but he pretends not to, perhaps wishing to make himself look cool.
Cloud: Again, huh?
Aerith: What? You don’t remember? How about…the flowers?
Cloud looks at the flowers at his feet and pretends as if he’s only just remembered.
Cloud: Oh, the flower seller” (FFVII Remake Material Ultimania Plus, VA script notes, “Reuniting with Aerith”).
So: she wakes him with a cute call, and he recognizes her. Also note that these two elements also apply to the OG church reunion scene.
Now onto the Rebirth chapter 2 scene that stuck out to me. After Cloud is saved from the Midgardsormr by Sephiroth, Cloud wakes from an unconsciousness spell with Aerith calling for him (7:20-7:34).
Once more, Aerith wakes him with a cute call (this time, it’s “Wakey, wakey!”), and Cloud recognizes her. In this Midgardsormr clip, unlike their reunion in the church, Cloud verbalizes that he remembers her. This time, there’s more: next, Aerith tells Cloud “おかえり, クラウド”, or “okaeri, Cloud”, which translates to “welcome back, Cloud”. “Okaeri” is what you say in Japanese when someone has returned home. In the third clip we will analyze, Aerith says “okaeri” to Cloud once more. But first, let’s break down this second clip.
I don’t know about you, but this cutscene felt extremely weird to me when I first encountered it. That is, it would have been, if not for the theory I’d begun formulating at that time.
You see, the devs could have chosen for Aerith to ask Cloud if he remembers his own name or where they are, if he’s okay, or check if he responds to his own name. In fact, asking someone who’s been hit on the head to say their own name is a much more common reaction to them finally waking up than asking them if they remember you. Even stranger is Cloud’s reaction: he could have answered “Yeah, you’re Aerith,” or “I remember everything, I’m fine”. Instead, he says her name with this airy and wonderstruck tone. He sounds like he’s opening his eyes to something mystic rather than his comrade leaning over him, like he’s seeing someone unexpectedly for the first time in a while… or rather like he’s waking from a trance of some kind— a trance in which he did not remember Aerith, and now he does. You may see where I’m going with this.
Let’s examine the third clip, wherein Aerith tells Cloud “okaeri” again. More specifically, in chapter 14, Aerith welcomes Cloud back when he snaps out of his zombified, Sephiroth-controlled state and runs toward her. Of course, it’s the sight of her and his memories of meeting her in chapter 2 of Remake that shake him awake (2:17:43-2:18:02).
For a third time, Aerith wakes Cloud. This time, she’s pulling him out of a trance and back to himself. And for a third time, Cloud remembers her. In fact, it’s remembering her that wakes him up. Cloud calls her name and Aerith says “okaeri” in both the post-Midgardsormr cutscene and this third clip. And in both scenes, not only does Cloud return to himself the way someone returns home (recall that “okaeri” is used to welcome someone back home), but he’s also returning to her, recognizing her as his home.
Now we’ve got three scenes lined up: the church reunion scene (both in OG and Remake), the Midgardsormr scene and the hand-reach scene. All three of these recognition scenes feature Cloud being woken up by Aerith and remembering who she is. The main difference is that, in the scenes among these three that are exclusive to Rebirth, Cloud’s return to Aerith is far more meaningful, as he already knows her name, and knows more about who she is to him. Evidently, in the OG church reunion scene, Cloud only remembers being sold a flower by this girl. In the Remake version, he remembers the same thing, plus the attack of the whispers. So there’s something much more weighty about the Rebirth recognition scenes: he remembers more, and he remembers deeper. These aren’t just recognition scenes, they’re also mini-reunions. Of course, as we’ve already analyzed pertaining to the hand-reaching scene, Cloud remembering Aerith is followed by him being the one to take action and run toward her, eager to save her, because she means the world to him. When you place the Midgardsormr scene between the church reunion scene and the hand-reach scene, an evolution of Cloud waking up and remembering Aerith is formed. Each mini-reunion scene adds a piece to the story: the church scene informs us that Cloud and Aerith are meeting again, the Midgardsormr scene tips us off that something mystic is going on from Cloud’s tone when he says Aerith’s name, and the hand reach scene tells us that as a consequence of remembering who Aerith is, Cloud saves her from falling to her death and saving her. “Meeting again”, “mystic”, and “saving Aerith”: these are the keywords of the mini-reunion scenes. They are also the keywords of our theory on Cloud’s mission to save Aerith. This time around Cloud knows more and is more conscious about how he feels for Aerith, just like he feels more when in the hand-reach scene in Rebirth compared to the church reunion scene in Remake. From the latter scene to the former, Cloud gradually wakes up and remembers his love for and loss of Aerith in the OG more and more. Each mini-reunion brings him closer to saving her when he blocks the masamune. This is why I am certain that in part 3, whether Cloud comes to his full senses or not, whether he remembers the events of OG or not, he will save Aerith this time. The Remake trilogy is centered around Aerith, after all. In fact, don’t take it from me, take it from Nojima:
“Aerith's the most important character in the remake so we paid special attention to her lines” (FFVII Remake Ultimania, section 08 “Secrets”, “Development Staff Interviews, Part 2: Tetsuya Nomura, Yoshinori Kitase, Kazushige Nojima”, page 744).
I have full confidence in this fact: one way or another, these two will have a happy ending. This is Cloud’s second chance, and as he swore in “Hollow”, he is not losing her again. That is why I don’t think you should fret, and that our Clerith hearts will be very happy to see these two together again for good in part 3.
VI. h) Zooming In
In fact, this zooming-in method of directing players’ attention to important narrative beats is far from new.
VI. h) i. Changing Fate
Let’s divert our attention to Nanaki’s Skywheel date (2:28-3:30). The dialogue goes like this: Nanaki brings us the Whispers and suggests the party might eventually forget about their existence, and Cloud says that frankly, if it’s impossible for them to change fate either way, then it would be better for them to forget to Whispers altogether.
This is a very clear message from the devs: “There would be no point in including the Whispers in the Remaketrilogy if we did not make use of their defeat”. They’re telling us through Cloud’s dialogue that they know it would be foul play and bad writing to introduce the theme of defying fate if it didn’t eventually pay off.
As if it weren’t clear enough what the devs are referring to, Nanaki brings up Aerith’s death directly after Cloud delivers the devs’ message to us. He actually makes Cloud promise to save her. This is pretty on the nose. By promising Nanaki he will protect Aerith, the devs are promising us the same. I’m certain that part 3 will deliver on this promise.
If you still aren’t sold, I’d like to direct your attention to the framing of the shot where Cloud says “If we can’t change [fate]” (2:49-2:51). There’s a zoom-in on his mouth, which is a visual cue that translates to “what this character is saying right now is important to the plot”. It’s very indiscreet in theory: the camera literally hones in on the invisible words as though the script has them highlighted, italicized triple-underlined and in bold.
VI. h) ii. Aerith’s Knowledge
We’ve seen the Remake trilogy use this camera framing at least twice so far. The first time occurs in Remake’s chapter 8, before it becomes clear that Aerith knows things from the OG game that she wouldn’t normally know if this were just a remastered version of the same 1997 plot. I’ll let Remake Ultimania‘s description of this moment speak for itself:
“When Cloud and Aerith return the rescued children to Oates, the man in the tattered black cloak shows up again at the hideout. The moment the man grasps Cloud’s arm, he’s overcome by another violent headache and sees a vision of Sephiroth. Cloud wonders if this man who supposedly died five years ago could possibly still be alive. When he says as much to Aerith, she gives him a vague reply” (FFVII Remake Ultimania, section 04: “Scenario”, “Chapter 8 Main Story Digest”, page 256).
Aerith’s “vague reply” is accentuated by a very deliberate zoom-in on her mouth (1:18:05-1:18:09), and therefore her words.
The framing of this shot indicates to us that what Aerith says provides an important hint as to the plot’s direction. Sure enough, with hindsight, it’s easy to see that’s true.
VI. h) iii. Tifa’s Question
Another time this framing is used is in chapter 1 of Rebirth, after Cloud recounts the Nibelheim incident. Tifa asks the group why Sephiroth is choosing to come back now, after five years (37:55-37:58).
Once more, we are being signaled that the reason Sephiroth chose to return at the moment he did is significant to the plot, but cannot be revealed explicitly yet. The reason why Sephiroth took five years to return is because that’s how long it took for Cloud to get back on his feet after the Nibelheim incident: Sephiroth wants and/or needs to manipulate Cloud in particular rather than all the other people with Jenova cells in them. It took five years for Cloud to not only go through Hojo’s experiments but also escape Shinra and make his way to Seventh Heaven, where Tifa nursed him back to health— therefore, it took five years until Sephiroth’s favorite pawn was available to be used. There are a few reasons why Cloud is the one Sephiroth wants to use, and all of them would be spoilers at this point in Rebirth to players who don’t know the OG plot. The devs can’t reveal any of them yet, but they do indicate via a close-up shot of Tifa’s mouth that her question is important.
VI. h) iv. The Takeaway
As you can see, this framing of characters’ mouths when they speak signals a plot-significant piece of dialogue. This means Cloud’s words on his gondola date with Nanaki can’t be brushed off as a red herring or an unimportant or throwaway line: it has narrative weight.

VII. The Devs

I think it’s important to remember the devs and their commitment to the world of FFVII. They know best for this story, and they’ve proven it to be true many times over. There are many things about the devs’ intentions that the fandom don’t seem to know that I think would give you confidence to find out.
VII. a) Shifting Themes
Good storytellers don’t introduce themes as a way to pull the rug from under audiences’ feet by later rendering them completely irrelevant to the plot.
In other words, the devs would not have introduced the notion of fate as an antagonistic force in Remake, nor allowed the players to defeat it in chapter 18, had they planned for these themes not to pay off at all. Think of how good FFVII OG and FF stories in general are, how strong the writing is from a narrative point of view. Nothing is included for no reason or for a cheap reaction— especially not a central theme of a story. Fate and defeating it is a huge point of Remake, and not for no reason.
I mean, think about a storyline all about defying fate ending with a shrug and a “Oh well, we tried.” It would be ridiculous! The devs are better than that.
VII. b) What the Devs Want
The devs are well aware that fans of FFVII have been begging for Aerith’s resurrection since 1997. All those petitions, all those myths of a revival hack… SE knows about them all too well. They were even referenced by FF’s 30th anniversary expo, which partly promoted Remake:
“No one expected [Aerith’s death] in the middle of the story. Rumors of a secret way to revive Aerith spread, and it was clear players were having a hard time saying goodbye to her too. Even now, twenty years later, it still feels like a shocking turn of events” (Final Fantasy 30th Anniversary Exposition Pamphlet, page 36).
Hamaguchi, codirector of the Remake project, commented on these rumors:
“Interviewer: Do you have a favorite fake rumor about the original FFVII?

Hamaguchi: I hear a lot about Aerith coming back to life and that's something that's very interesting to hear” (Hamaguchi interview: “129 Rapid-Fire Questions Answered About Final Fantasy VII Rebirth”, by Game Informer).
The devs are also aware of how beloved Clerith is to the FFVII fandom, especially in Japan— in fact, the only FFVII ship name that is an official iOS search term on the Japanese Apple Store is Clerith’s (“クラエア” or “kuraea” in Japanese). Aerith herself is a widely beloved character, particularly, once more, in Japan. For instance, Famitsu and NHK’s recent polls on the best FF heroine and on the best FF character in general both resulted in Aerith ranking number 3, beaten only in the latter poll by Cloud at number 1 and FFX’s Yuna at number 2.
The devs know how well-loved both Clerith and Aerith are. And in fact, they love Aerith at least as much as we do:
“Cloud's feelings [of guilt] cannot be resolved by anyone other than Aerith. I tried to convey [that Aerith is saying to Cloud] ‘I'm still here for you’” (FFVII Reunion Files, Nojima’s note on Aerith’s character file, page 58).
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“When I saw the finished product of [Aerith’s face in] CG, I thought, "Oh, isn’t she so cute?” (FFVII Reunion Files, Nomura’s note on Aerith’s character file, page 58).
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"The idea of having Aeris die during the story had a great impact on all the dev staff," Toriyama explained, "and personally I decided to dedicate my efforts to depicting Aeris in as appealing a way as possible, so that she would become an irreplaceable character to the player in preparation for that moment" (Toriyama interview “Final Fantasy anniversary interview: Toriyama speaks” by VG247).
The devs care about Aerith, and they’re fully aware we do too.
I think a lot of people have it in their heads that the devs don’t want anything to change from the OG story, but there’s a lot of evidence that says otherwise. Codirector Toriyama spoke on this, stating the following about the production process of Remake:
“[…] there were times the original version became a hindrance. Specifically, staff members with a strong attachment to Final Fantasy VII would often hold themselves back for fear of deviating too much from the original. When we created the original game, we obviously didn’t feel bound in that way. We were passionate about creating a brand new Final Fantasy title, and so we dove in and embraced whatever seemed most interesting to us. We wanted to take that approach this time as well, so we made a special effort to liberate ourselves whenever we held back, remembering that it was okay to do the things we wanted to do” (FFVII Remake Ultimania, section 08 “Secrets”, “Development Staff Interviews, Part 1: Motomu Toriyama, Naoki Hamaguchi, Teruki Endo”, page 737).
Codirector Nomura said the following:
“When I asked Nojima if he’d write the scenario, I was clear about my demands up front. I said, ‘If we're going to remake Final Fantasy VII, I want it to be done like this.’ At that point, I was intent on making something more than just a remake. [Similarly to how] the battle system this time incorporates elements of the original game’s ATB mechanics [while] also been reborn using a real-time approach […], I wanted to make a story that players would feel is fundamentally Final Fantasy VII but also something new” (FFVII Remake Ultimania, section 08 “Secrets”, “Development Staff Interviews, Part 2: Tetsuya Nomura, Yoshinori Kitase, Kazushige Nojima”, page 745).
Clearly, the devs don’t want to be bogged down by the OG, and are making efforts to do things the way they want to rather than the way they were previously done. The newer generation of developers such as codirector Hamaguchi is also involved in these story changes:
“Interviewer: There are also drastically more scenes with Sephiroth than there were in the original game.
Nojima: We weren't planning on having him appear so much at first— the idea was only to hint at his presence. But we changed our approach partway through and became more proactive with having him appear, after which the number of scenes he features in rapidly increased.
Nomura: Hamaguchi [codirector Naoki Hamaguchi] came up to me one day and said in a mysterious tone, ‘I'd like to talk to you about something.’ He asked me about having there be a battle with Sephiroth in Midgar. In the original game, Sephiroth’s true body is located elsewhere, so he didn’t think I'd give in to the idea so easily. I think he even prepared materials to persuade me. But in the end I agreed readily [laughs]” (FFVII Remake Ultimania, section 08 “Secrets”, “Development Staff Interviews, Part 2: Tetsuya Nomura, Yoshinori Kitase, Kazushige Nojima”, page 746).
Kitase, the producer of the Remake trilogy, even says that after working on this project for so long, and after spending almost 30 years on the FFVII project and getting to know the characters, he has realized that:
“The more [he works] on it, the more [he wants] to make all these characters happy. [He wants] to give them a happy ending. The rest of the team’s opinions [obviously] also have to be taken into consideration, so it won't be all happiness and rainbows. But [he] just [wants] to make [the characters of FFVII] happy” (Kitase and Hamaguchi’s interview “Final Fantasy VII Rebirth’s Producer Just Wants 'the Characters to End Up Happy'”, by Vandal, translated by me).
Kitase is indeed only one developer, but he’s the producer of this project: that’s the very top position. He oversees everything and nothing goes without his approval. That counts for something. Of course, Kitase is fair and values the input of all the devs, so of course it won’t be “all happiness and rainbows”— but I sincerely believe there’s a big chance that Cloud and Aerith are heading toward their happy ending. Even if this theory is completely bogus, I want to have faith that the devs would not sacrifice good storytelling for nostalgia and a conservative attitude toward preserving the OG story, as that would be cheap of them, and we have not known them to be cheap. This game truly matters to them, so I think they deserve our faith.
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