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2011.03.30 16:39 HotDinnerBatman Unsent Letters

A place for the letter you never sent.
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2013.01.09 16:25 LauraAndRiver The Source for All Things Chain Mail Artisans Love

Welcome! This subreddit is about chain mail for armor, jewelry, art, or fun. Note that "chain mail" (the form of metal smithing) is sometimes called "chain maille" "maille" "chainmail" and other spellings. However you spell it, if you're talking about chain mail (not chain email or letters): welcome! <3
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2015.12.22 08:53 _tweaks Australian Stocks - Investing on the ASX

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2024.05.17 00:39 LEHJ_22 NCTH Wait-times after 1st appointment?

I had my first appointment back in October / November 2023 and was told I would hear from them within a month. I’m not quite sure what they meant by this, but I did receive a clinic letter - by post - in January ( which I had been clear in asking not to receive any correspondence by post )…? Additionally, I have been looking at going privately ( that’s a whole different story ) but that seems to be a bit of a minefield to navigate…
I know everywhere is stretched in terms of Clinical Reach, but it feels like I could be waiting a good deal longer having already waited 3 years for an initial appointment…
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2024.05.17 00:38 L_Aurelia Lucky day in Animal Crossing

In real life everything goes wrong, but I had a good day in AC. "Nook and Nooks Heim- und Gartenbedarf" opened, my favourite villager Kabuki sent me a letter with a trash bin, visited me AND gifted me bamboo.
I never had bamboo before. (What to consider when planting it? Near water?).
In AC Wild World there was a public bin where you sometimes found cool stuff and could put pit falls in. I am now so glad I do not have to pay money for getting rid of pitfalls!
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2024.05.17 00:38 RadiantRP Radiant Roleplay Custom & Native Cars Large Clothing Selection Serious Roleplay Active Staff Friendly EMS & PD Beginner Friendly

Radiant Roleplay Custom & Native Cars Large Clothing Selection Serious Roleplay Active Staff Friendly EMS & PD Beginner Friendly
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Join us!
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Our socials: Instagram // TikTok
Interested in establishing your new character storyline in a fresh new city you can call home? Search no further because Radiant Roleplay is the place for you. Radiant Roleplay is currently a small community seeking to grow a welcoming environment for all our members. We are currently seeking EMS, PD, DOJ, Realtors, Civilians, Gangs, Criminals, and more!
Ultimately Radiant strives to be a community worthy of calling home. We strive to provide the community with good character customization, constant updates, car variety, constant community events and most importantly quality RP.
What we currently have:
Whitelisted jobs / Custom Cars / Civilian jobs / Gang whitelist system/ Custom Scripts / Player owned businesses / Custom car handlings / Custom clothing (constantly adding more)/Custom Chains / Streamer Friendly / Balanced Rules / Slow build economy / Beginner friendly environment
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Whitelisted jobs:
SASP: Cadets / Trooper / Probationary Troopers / Lieutenants / Sergeants / Captain
Additional: Gang unit / K-9 units / Air 1 units / Moto units / SWAT units / HEAT units
SAMR: Chief / Assistant chief / Doctor / Nurses / EMTs /Paramedics
DOJ:
Attorney General / Attorney general Assistant / Lawyers / Probation Officers / City Mayor
Radiant Realty: Agents, Managers
Business jobs:
Dealerships workers / Mechanic workers / Restaurant workers / Retail workers
Legal Jobs: Mining / Fishing / Diving / Metal Detecting / Hunting / Electrician
Illegal Jobs: House robberies / Fleeca bank / Pacific Bank / Paleto Bank / Store robberies / Illegal crafting / Gang crafting / Boosting / Car chopping / Drug selling
Player Owned Businesses:
Cafe Day / Bennys / Up n Atom / Cool Beans / Truth Organics / Taco Farmer / Maui’s Marijuana / Bahama Mamas / Koi Sushi Bar / Pump n Run / Luxury Autos / Western Motorcycle
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2024.05.17 00:35 RadiantRP Radiant Roleplay Custom & Native Cars Large Clothing Selection Serious Roleplay Active Staff Friendly EMS & PD Beginner Friendly

Radiant Roleplay Custom & Native Cars Large Clothing Selection Serious Roleplay Active Staff Friendly EMS & PD Beginner Friendly
https://preview.redd.it/f8soz66c8v0d1.png?width=2400&format=png&auto=webp&s=ad419bac0164f01bda59f73c22bca2215b1bbf8f
Join us!
Discord: https://discord.gg/itsradiantrp
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Our socials: Instagram // TikTok
Interested in establishing your new character storyline in a fresh new city you can call home? Search no further because Radiant Roleplay is the place for you. Radiant Roleplay is currently a small community seeking to grow a welcoming environment for all our members. We are currently seeking EMS, PD, DOJ, Realtors, Civilians, Gangs, Criminals, and more!
Ultimately Radiant strives to be a community worthy of calling home. We strive to provide the community with good character customization, constant updates, car variety, constant community events and most importantly quality RP.
What we currently have:
Whitelisted jobs / Custom Cars / Civilian jobs / Gang whitelist system/ Custom Scripts / Player owned businesses / Custom car handlings / Custom clothing (constantly adding more)/Custom Chains / Streamer Friendly / Balanced Rules / Slow build economy / Beginner friendly environment
https://preview.redd.it/duv5oi4d8v0d1.png?width=2400&format=png&auto=webp&s=15b6375e67f3ad4b03b723c9bd820bf67d05c1fc
Whitelisted jobs:
SASP: Cadets / Trooper / Probationary Troopers / Lieutenants / Sergeants / Captain
Additional: Gang unit / K-9 units / Air 1 units / Moto units / SWAT units / HEAT units
SAMR: Chief / Assistant chief / Doctor / Nurses / EMTs /Paramedics
DOJ:
Attorney General / Attorney general Assistant / Lawyers / Probation Officers / City Mayor
Radiant Realty: Agents, Managers
Business jobs:
Dealerships workers / Mechanic workers / Restaurant workers / Retail workers
Legal Jobs: Mining / Fishing / Diving / Metal Detecting / Hunting / Electrician
Illegal Jobs: House robberies / Fleeca bank / Pacific Bank / Paleto Bank / Store robberies / Illegal crafting / Gang crafting / Boosting / Car chopping / Drug selling
Player Owned Businesses:
Cafe Day / Bennys / Up n Atom / Cool Beans / Truth Organics / Taco Farmer / Maui’s Marijuana / Bahama Mamas / Koi Sushi Bar / Pump n Run / Luxury Autos / Western Motorcycle
https://preview.redd.it/2i6j846g8v0d1.jpg?width=889&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=08d8209ec4b865e1c55d67b6b1870ee4ab00bce8
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2024.05.17 00:35 NuclearTitan9 One Shots to setup large DiA into Chains of Asmodeus campaign

My group usually meets weekly for a campaign i am a player in, however its been hit or miss because of schedules, so i want to start doing one shots when everyone isn't able to meet and thought it would be a fun idea to use these one shots to setup the lore of the next campaign i am planning to run once we finish our current. What DiA/CoA lore would be good to base these around and what should i aim to avoid if i were to run these. I am going to make sure the characters they run now aren't the ones they use in the full campaign.
Also if anyone has ran DiA into Chains i would love to know what you did. Still working on that integration for my game.
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2024.05.17 00:34 EmpireOfTheDawn Ronnel Arryn, Lord of the Eyrie, Defender of the Guarded Domains, the Last King

PC

Discord Tag: 7up
Name and House: Ronnel Arryn
Age: 33
Cultural Group: Valeman
Appearance: Cheekbones poised like a falcon perched, an aquiline nose after a raptor's beak, a stature rivalling a mountain's (if it were the size of a tall man), and blue eyes the same color as the sky. Aside from a propagandist's parallels to whatever sigil their patron displays, Ronnel Arryn errs from the example of the aloof falcon. Once possessed of a heedless will, a brashness and an impatience, those qualities have been tamed in turn by fatherhood, husbandhood, and rulership—though those traits still persist, merely tinged by the manner that an elder brother might take with the younger. His hair has shifted from dirty blond to sandy brown with age, and a trimmed beard covers his jaw.
Trait: Inspiring
Skill(s): Blunt Weapons, Cavalryman, Tactician, Cunning (e)
Talent(s): Falconry, hunting (non-mechanical 🤫🧏‍♂️), dragonriding
Negative Trait(s): N/A
Starting Title(s): Lord of the Eyrie, Lord of the Vale, Defender of the Guarded Domains of Arryn, Warden of the East, Warden of the Green Fork, First and Last of His Name, the King Who Flew, Rider of Vhagar (sometimes), and the Last King in Westeros
Starting Location: Feast
Family Tree

AC

Name and House: Marq Hardyng
Age: 32
Cultural Group: Valeman
Appearance: A broad and ruddy man, blonde, brown-eyed, and bearded. Marq Hardyng wears his duty on his sleeve; that duty mostly being hunting with his milk brother.
Trait: Hale
Skill(s): Swords, Investigator (e)
Talent(s): Tourney lore x3
Negative Trait(s): N/A
Starting Title(s): Scion of House Hardyng
Starting Location: Feast

Biography

Little of the Last King’s early years are of much import; Ronnel Arryn was born to King Joffrey I and Queen Sharra Arryn. His few memories of his father were that of a pallid man, wan and sickly but still a king who bloody well fought the illness that plagued him.
Or perhaps those were just fanciful tales, an imagined story that supplanted the truth of the matter.
Joffrey Arryn did at least survive, if he did not fight. Ronnel’s siblings, Jonos and Roland, would be born in succession. The falcons grew in number, Joffrey’s ailment ceased, and—the gods took him away and brought Arwen Arryn into the world.
Shortly after his sister’s birth, Sharra Arryn dressed her son in royal regalia and placed a crown on his head, assuming rule as sole regent while the boy distracted himself with toys and games. He would be nursed with Marq Hardyng, and he and his milk brother grew to be quick friends.
The Queen Sharra could not rest. There were new contenders on the horizon, greater than what meager assaults the Hoares could occasionally muster against the Bloody Gate: the threefold conquerors atop their dragons. Where the ravens sent by Aegon were met with scorn by Durrandon and hubris by the Hoares, Sharra offered alliance. Her hand in marriage and the left bank of the Green Fork to be annexed into the Guarded Domains.
The dragons rejected the offer, and instead, a Velaryon fleet was sent to take Gulltown and establish a foothold. They were repelled and the Targaryen ships were sunk for that transgression, but Vhagar’s fire consumed the Grafton fleet with them.
Ronnel knew what war was. It was like those tales in storybooks, that of the Griffin King and the Winged Knight, the legends of the Battle of Sevenstars. He, Jonos, and Marq fashioned themselves as Jaime Corbray or Luceon Templeton and fought each other over who could best live up to Artys Arryn’s example. When the Gates of the Moon swelled with men-at-arms, knights, and levied smallfolk, the three would find the most fearsome looking of them and challenge them to duels. Once he heard of dragons, though, Ronnel was consumed. He begged his mother to let him lead a parlay under a peace banner just so that he could see them, but Sharra sent him off to the nurses or left him to kick rocks in the courtyard.
The banners gathered, and the defenses were headed by Lord Rodrik Hardyng. Orders were given, the soldiers were drilled. And Vhagar’s wings cast a shadow so large that it engulfed the Bloody Gate whole. Shouting on the ramparts and in the valleys, but high above in the Eyrie? Ronnel, then just eight, was in awe at the sight.
Sharra could only muster a smile when she returned to find her son on Visenya’s lap. An accord was struck, on Ronnel’s terms this time: he asked to fly on Vhagar and his mother would surrender the crown to the Targaryen Queen. The mercy that Visenya afforded was well-taken, though in Sharra’s mind, the threat of dragonfire crystallized.
A marked shift came then. There were no battles to be won, no politicking to be done that outweighed the import of her sons and her daughter. The Queen-Regent, now the Lady-Regent, empowered her son’s advisors and devoted her time to looking after her children. When Visenya returned after burning House Sunderland whole and gave reprimands, Sharra frowned and offered blunt words in turn, which the Queen acquiesced to. Their relationship thawed hence, though Ronnel had never wavered in his admiration of the Targaryen. A Winged-Knight-Come-Again. Perhaps he could ride a dragon of his own one day.
Ronnel was a rowdy lad and by the time he was of squiring age, he was content to leave the rule of his lands to his mother and whoever she picked as an advisor. Lords such as Lyn Egen, Willem Ryger, and Rodrik Templeton would come to advise the young lord or hawk with him. Lord Mathos Grafton became the most prominent of that cadre, his wisdom in old age allowing him more room for criticism. Ronnel wanted to while his time away with falconry and training, while the old lord reminded him of the issues that Targaryen reign brought.
At four-and-ten, Ronnel stole away from the Eyrie and gathered what boys and knights he could to face the mountain clans. He knew what war was; it was the Root Father and his savages, stealing and laying waste to the lands he was sworn to protect. It was in the throes of battle that Ronnel would be dubbed as a knight by some unknown dying man. The knighthood was left unmentioned, though the purpose he found for his rule—no, his guardianship—lingered.
In his victorious return to the Eyrie, Ronnel would be clouted on the ear for the stunt then barred from leaving for months. Visenya Targaryen landed once more in the Vale. This time, she took it as a home, and she was welcomed with open arms. Aegon’s heir was born in the Eyrie that year, dubbed as Laenor Targaryen and soon practically adopted by the Arryns as their younger sibling. Sharra would grow close to the dragon queen in the years to come.
A year later, Ronnel was sent to King’s Landing to squire for Orys Baratheon. Only a few months elapsed before he grew incensed with the Hand over one thing or another, and the squireship ended when the Arryn came to blows with his knight-master. Ronnel was sent back to the Vale, where he earned his spurs once more. Publicly this time, before a crowd of tourneygoers and then holding a vigil with oaths modeled after those of the Winged Knights.
Though he gave off the impression of a true knight by that time, he was more preoccupied with wine and women and the hunt than statecraft. In any room he entered, he laughed the loudest, boasted the loudest, fought the hardest, always with Marq at his side. Nothing but a scolding from his mother Sharra or a clout on the ear from his second mother Visenya could fetter him. He was a falcon, and he flew high and bright.
Such a lofty stature is bound to attract envy. As any elder brother would, he butted heads with his siblings often. His rivalry with his brother Jonos was much more than a sibling spat, however, though the nature and root of their rivalry is unknown to all but a select few. In later years, their quarrels grew louder and their rifts deeper, with Jonos having been sent thrice to play second fiddle to the Knight of the Bloody Gate, and threatened with taking the black twice as many times. Still, their early quarrels proved to be mere distractions, and they wreaked what havoc boy-lords would in taverns and winesinks.
But his lip had to become stiff the day his mother died, just a few months after he came of age and assumed power. Sharra Arryn's last words of advice ate away at his spirit.
"Kill the boy."
So he was offered at the altar, and so did Rhaenys Targaryen seize the opportunity. Ronnel Arryn would be wed to the Queen’s lady-in-waiting, Serena Stark, and that match was confirmed by Sharra’s will. Yet numb, he received his wife to be in Gulltown with courtesy, and they were wedded with haste. Once a Princess of the North and now the Lady of the Vale, Serena found no home in the Eyrie. Ronnel came to avoid her; going on hunts, staying at the Moongates or even the Bloody Gate, and offering only short conversation in their rare meetings.
It came to a head when Serena stated her intention to return to Winterfell. Ronnel gave a shrug in response, and asked when she wanted to depart. Jonos could be his heir if need be, and his mother’s death still dragged his thoughts, so why bother at all?
The intervention of one dragon queen then another halted the split: Visenya reminded Ronnel that Aegon made two marriages work at once. A raven carrying a letter from Queen Rhaenys arrived, affixed with a ring wrought of Valyrian steel. Ronnel gave it to Serena as a peace offering.
There was no parting from the Targaryens’ grand plans, it seemed. So Ronnel’s marriage with Serena began anew. She would be introduced to the Vale and its customs with feasts and tourneys, sitting on councils and holding court as the Lady of the Vale. In the same vein, more familiar items and furnishings were brought in from the North, and Ronnel would journey to the weirwood tree that the mountain clans held sacred to try to pray with his wife. He did not hear the old gods’ whispers and could not bear the stillness, but the two came to understand one another, and their marriage grew warm. Their first child, Robar Arryn, was born a year later, and the Tourney by the Maiden’s Bay would be held in his honor.
Ronnel settled into his reign. His liveliness returned, though boyish pursuits were restrained with fatherhood. He replaced the Keeper of the Gates of the Moon after the Cavaliers proved more competent, sent tax collector after tax collector when Witch Isle grew silent (and nearly called the banners before being dissuaded), and ensured that the mountain clans and any other would-be invaders were quelled while Lae Targaryen was raised to be a greater king than their father. The Brotherhood of the Winged Knights, once decrepit, grew stronger after pieces of the Winged Knight’s armor were found.
His second child, a daughter, would be born then. Faced with the choice of naming her after Sharra or Visenya, she would instead be named after her great-grandmother Cynthea. Artos Arryn would follow four years later, his name chosen by the Lady Arryn.
Another day in the Eyrie. Five-and-twenty years after Aegon's Conquest, and near thirty years into Ronnel's reign. He slides a razor over his cheek and coughs once into a fist. Ronnel opens his palm to see droplets of blood. He wipes his cheek. A shaving cut, no doubt and no matter.
The next week while he sups with his family, the coughs come back. He excuses himself, blames his trip to the valleys with a chuckle, and Jonos meets his gaze with a sidelong glance before shirking away.
He sees his maester without telling anyone. And once more after a hunt. Soon, he is left sitting on his bed with grains of sweetsleep in hand and a warning: he would die. And soon.
Ronnel Arryn is honorable. He is just, or at least just enough. But when he bounces his son on his knee and looks into smiling grey eyes where his Stark mother's are oft stern, he wonders whether the next Targaryen to come to the Eyrie would let little Artos fly or burn him and his family whole.
It is not enough. Ronnel Arryn is not just enough. As the last king yet walking on the earth of this damnable regent's kingdom, he needs to ensure that the next monarch in Laenor Targaryen sits firmly on the Iron Throne before he dies—honor be damned if need be, by any means fucking necessary. That is his duty to the realm. That is his duty to his wife and children, and that will be his legacy.

Timeline

Sup porting Characters

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2024.05.17 00:34 LoanLazy5992 I don't think this guy read the name of the sub

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2024.05.17 00:33 RenThras Job trailer: Healer edition

Just curious how healers are feeling out there. I didn't see anything terrible, so I'm curious more what it will actually be like.
WHM seems to have a forward dash for mobility and a Fire IV/Fell Cleave (I guess?) thing going after Presence of Mind. And there might be an AOE shield judging from some people's take on the Job Actions Trailer (bubble visual that isn't Aquaveil). This latter thing might be them taking a step back from the hard pure/barrier line in the sand and having WHM/AST be a bit more viable in scenarios that require party mitigation.
SCH seems to have decided eating Eos isn't sufficient, so fusion dance for more potent healing it is, along with Miasma 2 or Shadowflare every 2 mins as a follow up to Chain Strategem and possibly more pure healing capability with Emergency Tactics/Seraphisim?
AST...I'm not quite sure what's going on here in full other than Arcanum/Cards getting a total makeover (questionable but I'm waiting for more) and Astrodyne being removed (which...given how controversial that ability has been, might be a good thing...?)
SGE marches forward supplanting SCH by robbing it blind of old and discarded abilities. Eukrasian Dyskrasia (despite the name being an oxymoron) seems to be the Miasma 2/AOE DoT everyone said SGE should have as a low hanging fruit. In addition, it seems to be gaining a AOE Kardia, the OTHER low hanging fruit people were asking for. So given it's getting outright 2 things the forums have been asking for it to have for 2 years now, are people happy about this?
Also, we have four concurrent discussions here - the Job Actions themselves (mechanically), the visuals on them (aesthetics), how they fit into the overall game (meta/balance/encounters), and how they fit thematically/how their abilities reflect their class fantasy (class identity). So there's a lot going on to talk about and I'm curious on other people's takes since I just got home from work and am drowning in the information at this point and want to see what others might be thinking.
Yes yes, I know, forums are not reflective of the entire playerbase, but it's still worth picking collective brains to just take a pulse on at least a segment of the community. Especially for cases like SGE and WHM which seem to be getting what people have been asking for them to have. And maybe get some insight into AST from people that understand...whatever it was I just saw, lol :D
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2024.05.17 00:32 BigBookest- Minecraft Class_7196?

I am making a 1.19.2 Mega mod pack and I was able to load into the Minecraft loading screen and everything but the game instantly crashes once I create a world. The crash report is below and the main error I get is "Mixin transformation of net.minecraft.class_7196 failed" I tried looking up what mod is under class 7196 but I can't seem to pinpoint the mod that is responsible.
---- Minecraft Crash Report ----
// Daisy, daisy...
Time: 2024-05-16 15:25:45
Description: mouseClicked event handler
java.lang.RuntimeException: Mixin transformation of net.minecraft.class_7196 failed
`at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(KnotClassDelegate.java:427)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.tryLoadClass(KnotClassDelegate.java:323)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.loadClass(KnotClassDelegate.java:218)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassLoader.loadClass(KnotClassLoader.java:119)` `at java.base/java.lang.ClassLoader.loadClass(ClassLoader.java:525)` `at net.minecraft.class_525.method_2736(class_525.java:310)` `at net.minecraft.class_525.method_19922(class_525.java:260)` `at net.minecraft.class_4185.method_25306(class_4185.java:43)` `at net.minecraft.class_4264.method_25348(class_4264.java:16)` `at net.minecraft.class_339.method_25402(class_339.java:120)` `at net.minecraft.class_4069.method_25402(class_4069.java:27)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1611(class_312.java:94)` `at net.minecraft.class_437.method_25412(class_437.java:489)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1601(class_312.java:94)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22686(class_312.java:165)` `at net.minecraft.class_1255.execute(class_1255.java:103)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22684(class_312.java:165)` `at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.callback(GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.java:43)` `at org.lwjgl.system.JNI.invokeV(Native Method)` `at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFW.glfwWaitEventsTimeout(GLFW.java:3474)` `at com.mojang.blaze3d.systems.RenderSystem.limitDisplayFPS(RenderSystem.java:222)` `at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1523(class_310.java:1208)` `at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1514(class_310.java:768)` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.method_44604(Main.java:244)` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(Main.java:51)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(MinecraftGameProvider.java:470)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.Knot.launch(Knot.java:74)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClient.main(KnotClient.java:23)` 
Caused by: org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.throwables.MixinTransformerError: An unexpected critical error was encountered
`at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(MixinProcessor.java:392)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClass(MixinTransformer.java:234)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClassBytes(MixinTransformer.java:202)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(KnotClassDelegate.java:422)` `... 27 more` 
Caused by: org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.injection.throwables.InjectionError: Critical injection failure: Redirector removeAdviceOnLoad(Lnet/minecraft/class_5219;)Lcom/mojang/serialization/Lifecycle; in disable_custom_worlds_advice.mixins.json:MixinIntegratedServerLoader from mod disable_custom_worlds_advice failed injection check, (0/1) succeeded. Scanned 1 target(s). Using refmap DisableCustomWorldsAdvice-refmap.json
`at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.injection.struct.InjectionInfo.postInject(InjectionInfo.java:468)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTargetContext.applyInjections(MixinTargetContext.java:1384)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinApplicatorStandard.applyInjections(MixinApplicatorStandard.java:1062)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinApplicatorStandard.applyMixin(MixinApplicatorStandard.java:402)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinApplicatorStandard.apply(MixinApplicatorStandard.java:327)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.apply(TargetClassContext.java:422)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.applyMixins(TargetClassContext.java:403)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(MixinProcessor.java:363)` `... 30 more` 
A detailed walkthrough of the error, its code path and all known details is as follows:
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-- Head --
Thread: Render thread
Stacktrace:
`at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(KnotClassDelegate.java:427)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.tryLoadClass(KnotClassDelegate.java:323)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.loadClass(KnotClassDelegate.java:218)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassLoader.loadClass(KnotClassLoader.java:119)` `at java.base/java.lang.ClassLoader.loadClass(ClassLoader.java:525)` `at net.minecraft.class_525.method_2736(class_525.java:310)` `at net.minecraft.class_525.method_19922(class_525.java:260)` `at net.minecraft.class_4185.method_25306(class_4185.java:43)` `at net.minecraft.class_4264.method_25348(class_4264.java:16)` `at net.minecraft.class_339.method_25402(class_339.java:120)` `at net.minecraft.class_4069.method_25402(class_4069.java:27)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1611(class_312.java:94)` `at net.minecraft.class_437.method_25412(class_437.java:489)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1601(class_312.java:94)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22686(class_312.java:165)` `at net.minecraft.class_1255.execute(class_1255.java:103)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22684(class_312.java:165)` `at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.callback(GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.java:43)` `at org.lwjgl.system.JNI.invokeV(Native Method)` `at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFW.glfwWaitEventsTimeout(GLFW.java:3474)` 
-- Affected screen --
Details:
`Screen name: net.minecraft.class_525` 
Stacktrace:
`at net.minecraft.class_437.method_25412(class_437.java:489)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1601(class_312.java:94)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22686(class_312.java:165)` `at net.minecraft.class_1255.execute(class_1255.java:103)` `at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22684(class_312.java:165)` `at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.callback(GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.java:43)` `at org.lwjgl.system.JNI.invokeV(Native Method)` `at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFW.glfwWaitEventsTimeout(GLFW.java:3474)` `at com.mojang.blaze3d.systems.RenderSystem.limitDisplayFPS(RenderSystem.java:222)` `at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1523(class_310.java:1208)` `at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1514(class_310.java:768)` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.method_44604(Main.java:244)` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(Main.java:51)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(MinecraftGameProvider.java:470)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.Knot.launch(Knot.java:74)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClient.main(KnotClient.java:23)` 
-- Last reload --
Details:
`Reload number: 1` `Reload reason: initial` `Finished: Yes` `Packs: Default, PFM-Runtime-RP, Fabric Mods, Everycomp Generated Pack, Snowyspirit Generated Pack, Essential (fabric_1.19.2).jar` 
Stacktrace:
`at net.minecraft.class_6360.method_36565(class_6360.java:49)` `at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1587(class_310.java:2348)` `at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1514(class_310.java:787)` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.method_44604(Main.java:244)` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(Main.java:51)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(MinecraftGameProvider.java:470)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.Knot.launch(Knot.java:74)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClient.main(KnotClient.java:23)` 
-- System Details --
Details:
`Minecraft Version: 1.19.2` `Minecraft Version ID: 1.19.2` `Operating System: Windows 10 (amd64) version 10.0` `Java Version: 17.0.8, Microsoft` `Java VM Version: OpenJDK 64-Bit Server VM (mixed mode), Microsoft` `Memory: 6762597352 bytes (6449 MiB) / 21474836480 bytes (20480 MiB) up to 21474836480 bytes (20480 MiB)` `CPUs: 16` `Processor Vendor: AuthenticAMD` `Processor Name: AMD Ryzen 7 5800X 8-Core Processor` `Identifier: AuthenticAMD Family 25 Model 33 Stepping 2` `Microarchitecture: Zen 3` `Frequency (GHz): 3.80` `Number of physical packages: 1` `Number of physical CPUs: 8` `Number of logical CPUs: 16` `Graphics card #0 name: AMD Radeon RX 6750 XT` `Graphics card #0 vendor: Advanced Micro Devices, Inc. (0x1002)` `Graphics card #0 VRAM (MB): 4095.00` `Graphics card #0 deviceId: 0x73df` `Graphics card #0 versionInfo: DriverVersion=31.0.24027.1012` `Memory slot #0 capacity (MB): 16384.00` `Memory slot #0 clockSpeed (GHz): 2.13` `Memory slot #0 type: DDR4` `Memory slot #1 capacity (MB): 16384.00` `Memory slot #1 clockSpeed (GHz): 2.13` `Memory slot #1 type: DDR4` `Virtual memory max (MB): 52209.99` `Virtual memory used (MB): 46311.93` `Swap memory total (MB): 19544.52` `Swap memory used (MB): 1083.90` `JVM Flags: 4 total; -XX:HeapDumpPath=MojangTricksIntelDriversForPerformance_javaw.exe_minecraft.exe.heapdump -Xss1M -Xmx20G -Xms19G` `Fabric Mods:` `additionaladditions: Additional Additions 5.1.0` `additionallanterns: Additional Lanterns 1.1.1a` `adorn: Adorn 3.9.1+1.19.2` `advancementplaques: Advancement Plaques 1.4.6` `adventurez: AdventureZ 1.4.18` `alloy_forgery: Alloy Forgery 2.1.1+1.19` `amecs: Amecs 1.3.8+mc.1.19-rc2` `another_furniture: Another Furniture 1.19.2-2.1.4` `appleskin: AppleSkin 2.5.1+mc1.19` `architectury: Architectury 6.6.92` `artifacts: Artifacts 7.1.1+fabric` `expandability: ExpandAbility 6.0.0` `step-height-entity-attribute: Step Height Entity Attribute 1.0.0` `attributefix: AttributeFix 17.2.8` `auudio: Auudio 1.0.3` `azurelib: AzureLib 1.0.41` `badpackets: Bad Packets 0.2.3` `bakery: Bakery 1.0.6` `balm-fabric: Balm 4.6.0` `bclib: BCLib 2.1.8` `beachparty: Beachparty 1.0.12` `beaconoverhaul: Beacon Overhaul 1.7.3+1.19.2` `reach-entity-attributes: Reach Entity Attributes 2.3.0` `beautify: Beautify 1.1.1+fabric-1.19.2` `cardinal-components-base: Cardinal Components API (base) 5.0.2` `cardinal-components-entity: Cardinal Components API (entities) 5.0.2` `cardinal-components-world: Cardinal Components API (worlds) 5.0.2` `beekeeperhut: Friends&Foes - Beekeeper Hut 2.0.0` `betterchunkloading: Better chunk loading mod 1.19.2-4.2` `bettercombat: Better Combat 1.7.1+1.19` `betterdeserttemples: YUNG's Better Desert Temples 1.19.2-Fabric-2.2.2` `org_reflections_reflections: reflections 0.10.2` `betterdungeons: YUNG's Better Dungeons 1.19.2-Fabric-3.2.1` `betterend: Better End 2.1.7` `betterendisland: YUNG's Better End Island 1.19.2-Fabric-1.0` `betterfortresses: YUNG's Better Nether Fortresses 1.19.2-Fabric-1.0.6` `betterjungletemples: YUNG's Better Jungle Temples 1.19.2-Fabric-1.0.1` `bettermineshafts: YUNG's Better Mineshafts 1.19.2-Fabric-3.2.1` `betternether: Better Nether 7.1.5` `betteroceanmonuments: YUNG's Better Ocean Monuments 1.19.2-Fabric-2.1.1` `betterstats: Better Statistics Screen 2.9.3+1.19.2` `tcdcommons: TCD Commons API 2.9.1+1.19.2` `betterstrongholds: YUNG's Better Strongholds 1.19.2-Fabric-3.2.0` `betterwitchhuts: YUNG's Better Witch Huts 1.19.2-Fabric-2.1.0` `bobby: Bobby 4.0.1` `com_typesafe_config: config 1.4.2` `io_leangen_geantyref_geantyref: geantyref 1.3.13` `org_spongepowered_configurate-core: configurate-core 4.1.2` `org_spongepowered_configurate-hocon: configurate-hocon 4.1.2` `bookshelf: Bookshelf 16.3.20` `bosses_of_mass_destruction: Bosses of Mass Destruction (Beta) 1.4.8-1.19.2` `maelstrom_library: Maelstrom Library 1.3.1-1.19.2` `multipart_entities: MultipartEntities 1.2-1.19-pre1` `botanypots: BotanyPots 9.0.43` `botarium: Botarium 1.9.2` `team_reborn_energy: Energy 2.2.0` `bountiful: Bountiful 3.0.0` `brewery: Brewery 1.0.1` `brewinandchewin: Brewin And Chewin fabric-2.1.5+1.19.2` `mm: Manningham Mills 2.3` `bwncr: Bad Wither No Cookie Reloaded 3.14.1` `byg: Oh The Biomes You'll Go` [`2.0.1.6`](http://2.0.1.6) `bygonenether: Bygone Nether 1.3.2` `candlelight: Candlelight 1.1.9` `capybara: Capybara 2.0.1` `cardinal-components: Cardinal Components API 5.0.2` `cardinal-components-block: Cardinal Components API (blocks) 5.0.2` `cardinal-components-chunk: Cardinal Components API (chunks) 5.0.2` `cardinal-components-item: Cardinal Components API (items) 5.0.2` `cardinal-components-level: Cardinal Components API (world saves) 5.0.2` `cardinal-components-scoreboard: Cardinal Components API (scoreboard) 5.0.2` `carryon: Carry On` [`2.1.2.23`](http://2.1.2.23) `cave_enhancements: Cave Enhancements 1.19.2-2.1.12-fabric` `charm: Charm 4.4.4` `com_moandjiezana_toml_toml4j: toml4j 0.7.2` `charmofundying: Charm of Undying 6.2.1+1.19.2` `chat_heads: Chat Heads 0.10.32` `chipped: Chipped 2.1.5` `chunksending: Chunksending Mod 1.19.2-2.8` `cloth-api: Cloth API 4.0.65` `cloth-basic-math: cloth-basic-math 0.6.1` `cloth-client-events-v0: Cloth Client Events v0 4.0.65` `cloth-common-events-v1: Cloth Common Events v1 4.0.65` `cloth-scissors-api-v1: Cloth Scissors API v1 4.0.65` `cloth-utils-v1: Cloth Utils v1 4.0.65` `cloth-config: Cloth Config v8 8.3.115` `clumps: Clumps 9.0.0+14` `cobblemon: Cobblemon 1.3.1+1.19.2` `cobblemon_chaining: Cobblemon Chaining 1.3-fabric-1.1.3` `omega-config: OmegaConfig 1.3.0+1.19.2` `cobblemon_counter: Cobblemon Counter 1.3-fabric-1.5.0` `cobblemon_spawn_notification: Cobblemon Spawn Notification 1.4.0` `cobblepedia: Cobblepedia 0.4.4+1.19.2` `collective: Collective 7.57` `comforts: Comforts 6.0.7+1.19.2` `spectrelib: SpectreLib 0.12.8+1.19.2` `configured: Configured 2.0.0` `connectedglass: Connected Glass 1.1.11` `connectiblechains: Connectible Chains 2.1.4+1.19.2` `connectivity: Connectivity Mod 1.19.2-4.5` `controlling: Controlling For Fabric 10.0+7` `convenientdecor: Convenient Decor 0.2.0` `convenientnametags: Convenient Name Tags 1.0.0` `coolcat_lib: CoolCatLib 1.0.4` `corgilib: CorgiLib` [`1.0.0.34`](http://1.0.0.34) `com_electronwill_night-config_core: core 3.6.6` `com_electronwill_night-config_toml: toml 3.6.6` `cosmetic-armor: Cosmetic Armor 1.4.2` `crafttweaker: CraftTweaker 10.1.55` `org_javassist_javassist: javassist 3.29.0-GA` `create: Create 0.5.1-f-build.1416+mc1.19.2` `com_google_code_findbugs_jsr305: jsr305 3.0.2` `flywheel: Flywheel 0.6.10-8` `forge_tags: Porting Lib Tags 3.0` `milk: Milk Lib 1.0.51` 
dripstone_fluid_lib: Dripstone Fluid Lib 2.0.1
 `porting_lib_accessors: Porting Lib Accessors 2.1.1305+1.19.2` `porting_lib_base: Porting Lib Base 2.1.1305+1.19.2` 
porting_lib_attributes: Porting Lib Attributes 2.1.1305+1.19.2
porting_lib_common: Porting Lib Common 2.1.1305+1.19.2
porting_lib_constants: Porting Lib Constants 2.1.1305+1.19.2
porting_lib_lazy_registration: Porting Lib Lazy Register 2.1.1305+1.19.2
porting_lib_loot: Porting Lib Loot 2.1.1305+1.19.2
porting_lib_model_generators: Porting Lib Model Generators 2.1.1305+1.19.2
porting_lib_model_loader: Porting Lib Model Loader 2.1.1305+1.19.2
porting_lib_models: Porting Lib Models 2.1.1305+1.19.2
 `porting_lib_entity: Porting Lib Entity 2.1.1305+1.19.2` `porting_lib_extensions: Porting Lib Extensions 2.1.1305+1.19.2` `porting_lib_fake_players: Porting Lib Fake Players 2.1.1305+1.19.2` `porting_lib_networking: Porting Lib Networking 2.1.1305+1.19.2` `porting_lib_obj_loader: Porting Lib Obj Loader 2.1.1305+1.19.2` `porting_lib_transfer: Porting Lib Transfer 2.1.1305+1.19.2` `registrate-fabric: Registrate for Fabric 1.1.58-MC1.19.2` `crittersandcompanions: Critters and Companions 1.19.2-2.0.2` `croptopia: Croptopia 2.2.2` `culturaldelights: Cultural Delights Fabric 0.14.10+1.19.2` `terraform-wood-api-v1: Terraform Wood API (v1) 4.2.0` `cupboard: cupboard 1.19.2-2.6` `darkpaintings: DarkPaintings 13.1.5` `darkutils: DarkUtilities 13.1.9` `darkwaters: Dark Waters 0.0.18` `debugify: Debugify 2.8.0` `decorative_blocks: Decorative Blocks 3.0.0` `deeperdarker: Deeper and Darker 1.2.5` `customportalapi: Custom Portal Api 0.0.1-beta63-1.19.X` `diagonalfences: Diagonal Fences 4.2.6` `diagonalwindows: Diagonal Windows 4.0.2` `doapi: Lets Do Api 1.1.0` `blue_endless_jankson: jankson 1.2.1` `dragonfight: Dragonfight Mod 1.19.2-4.4` `dragonloot: DragonLoot 1.1.2` `duckling: Duckling 2.0.8` `dummmmmmy: MmmMmmMmmMmm 1.19.2-1.7.1` `dungeon_difficulty: Dungeon Difficulty 2.0.5+1.19` `com_github_zsoltmolnarrr_tinyconfig: TinyConfig 2.3.2` `dungeon_now_loading: dungeon-now-loading-18.2 1.0.0` `dungeons_arise: When Dungeons Arise 2.1.54` `dungeons_arise_seven_seas: When Dungeons Arise: Seven Seas 1.0.2` `durabilitytooltip: Durability Tooltip 1.1.5+a` `easyanvils: Easy Anvils 4.0.11` `easymagic: Easy Magic 4.3.3` `eatinganimationid: Eating Animation 1.9.1` `ecologics: Ecologics 2.1.11` `elementa: Elementa 647` `elytraslot: Elytra Slot 6.1.1+1.19.2` `emeraldexpansion: Emerald Expansion 1.0` `emi: EMI 1.1.6+1.19.2+fabric` `emi_loot: EMI Loot 0.6.6+1.19` `enchdesc: EnchantmentDescriptions 13.0.14` `endermanoverhaul: Enderman Overhaul 0.0.0` `ends_delight: End's Delight 1.19.2-1.0` `essential: Essential 1.3.2.3+g6a2d13e09b` `essential-container: essential-container 1.0.0` `essential-loader: essential-loader 1.2.1` `everycomp: Every Compat 1.19.2-2.5.22` `exlinefurniture: Exline's Furniture 2.3.2` `expandeddelight: Expanded Delight` [`0.2.5.2`](http://0.2.5.2) `experiencebugfix: Experience Bug Fix 19` `explorify: Explorify v1.4.0` `extended_armor_bars: Extended Armor Bars 1.2.1` `extraalchemy: Extra Alchemy 1.9.0` `fabric-api: Fabric API 0.77.0+1.19.2` `fabric-api-base: Fabric API Base 0.4.15+8f4e8eb390` `fabric-api-lookup-api-v1: Fabric API Lookup API (v1) 1.6.14+93d8cb8290` `fabric-biome-api-v1: Fabric Biome API (v1) 9.1.1+16f1e31390` `fabric-block-api-v1: Fabric Block API (v1) 1.0.2+e415d50e90` `fabric-blockrenderlayer-v1: Fabric BlockRenderLayer Registration (v1) 1.1.25+cafc6e8e90` `fabric-client-tags-api-v1: Fabric Client Tags 1.0.5+b35fea8390` `fabric-command-api-v1: Fabric Command API (v1) 1.2.16+f71b366f90` `fabric-command-api-v2: Fabric 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2024.05.17 00:27 MySockIsMissing Staff member from dining room said “I don’t know how you can eat all that and not be fat!”

Only thing is, it’s literally a restrict day. 🙄
TRIGGER WARNING: TALK ABOUT FOOD AND NUMBERS
So some important background. I’m 34f, and have lived in a nursing home for seven years due mainly to physical disabilities, chronic illness, CPTSD and autism.
I was a “healthy” BMI when I moved in and for the first two years, started gaining when I had to off my ADHD medication, went up to “obese” BMI for a couple years, and finally over the past three years have lost enough and maintained weight to be in the upper end of the “healthy” BMI range again which is good enough for me. I don’t necessarily need to be “skinny”, I just can’t afford to outgrow the 17” wide seat of my customized wheelchair.
So I’ve been maintaining for six months or so. But it’s tricky, and I have at least one binge day per week followed by restriction day(s) to “make up for it”. Also because I’m so sedentary/mostly bedbound, even though I’m 5’6” my maintenance calories are just 1400. Anymore and I gain weight. So my binges are likewise “smaller” than an average binge by an average person with BED, but given my low metabolism and lower caloric needs, the damage is proportionate. On a binge day I’ll eat 2000-3000 calories total and then fast or restrict for as long as it takes afterwards to ensure I won’t gain any weight back. It’s horrible, I hate it, but you get it. It feels impossible to control.
So yesterday I binged. Luckily it wasn’t the largest of binges, so I calculated that I could undo the damage just by not eating until supper and having a large salad with canned chicken breast and calorie wise dressing with an apple for dessert. In true binge/volume eating style, yes, it was a huge pile of food on my plate but the total calories were 465 for the only meal I was allowing myself all day.
So when the dining room staff member came up to me, looked at my plate and said “I don’t know how you can eat all that and not be fat!” I was just feeling like.. fuck, I’m even doing my restriction meals wrong? I don’t know. It’s stupid to let it effect me. But she’s the type who naturally has a very low food drive (probably helped along by her chain smoking) and while every time I see her she has a small bowl of something she’s eating and it’s always cakes or desserts or other calorie dense foods, I understand different eating behaviours and how calories density works and grazing VS planned meals, etc, well enough to get why she can always appear to be eating cake and candy yet maintain in a tiny, possibly even underweight body. Whereas I’m very food driven, partly due to meds and ovarian cysts and a history of food scarcity and abuse and also simply due to not having a lot that I can to distract myself during my long, bedbound days so I tend to plan out full, volume dense, low calorie meals because I know I need that full, satisfied feeling and in order for me to “not be fat” (as she said) that means I have to be very aware of everything I eat and maximize volume and protein and fibre wherever possible.
I guess not only was I irritated by her comment, but also irritated that she gets to enjoy the privilege of having zero knowledge of calorie density, caloric needs, TDEE, BMR, BMI etc and what does she do with that privilege? Make a fucking comment that just rubs the salt all the way into the wound. And I also know I’m not the first person she’s made body size comments to. She’s made another staff member cry because she commented “careful, if you eat all that you’re going to get fat again.” NOT EVEN INTENDING TO BE MALICIOUS. She’s literally just THAT CLUELESS. She just has NO FUCKING IDEA. There are multiple people on staff here with body image and food issues, and I only know about them because they talk to me because they know I get it. None of them have bodies that you would look at and automatically think “eating disorder” because, as WE know, eating disorders don’t have a size. So knowing too that this woman is so privileged about her own relationship with food that she can remain at her age (early 70’s) so completely ignorant to the existence of these issues just makes me so extremely annoyed, envious, and angry, among other emotions I can’t even name.
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2024.05.17 00:24 FAAccount I just want to put this into the universe. Hopefully this helps me feel better.

I just want to say,
I am truly blessed to have been able to know you and spend time with you. Even though at the time I thought we had forever, I know that not all things are meant to last in this life.
From the first time I met you I remember truly being infatuated in a way no one else had made me feel before. And when it didn’t work, I thought maybe we were destined to be star crossed lovers in some tragic romantic way. But when you came back into my life 10 years later, I thought I would be ready to get it right this time. Maybe we were just waiting for the stars to align.
Unfortunately, I guess we weren’t ever meant to be. Maybe if I started working harder and finding a purpose earlier in life. Or maybe if you didn’t have a child to raise now, who knows? But in this life, it wasn’t part of the plan.
You said that being around me made you feel like you had to dull yourself. I’m sorry that instead of making you shine, my personality somehow made you dim your light. I guess you needed someone more exciting, someone more outgoing. You needed a golden retriever, when I’ve always been a black cat. I’m sorry that I made you feel like you had to dilute yourself and suppress your personality when with me.
Some of my favorite memories are the simple ones. Like every time you tried to interact with the stray cat who decided to choose my front yard as his new home. 90% of the time he’d give you no reciprocation, and you’d do that eye roll you always do when you’re annoyed. That was my favorite expression of yours. It’s the same one you’d do when I told a stupid joke, or said something dumb, or I was purposely being a dick.
I’d see your eyes light up when I made you a card or gave you a gift, to show you how special I thought you were. You told me your love language was gifts and acts of service, maybe I should have done more of that.
Unfortunately I had a late start in life, and I’m still trying to figure it out. I’m not able to get you all the things you want or take you on trips. The consequences of a failure to launch. It’s no one’s fault but my own. I dont talk about my struggles, my financials, or anything I'm going through. We all know men dont like to show weakness. But I was doing all I could, tried to plan accordingly, I just didnt have the financials to give you anything more.
I wish that i knew when it was you decided I wasn’t the one for you, maybe I would have tried harder or cherished our time together more. I threw out all the photos and letters, deleted all the pics. How were you unhappy when in all the letters and messages you were singing my praises? You looked happy to me. Yet you were apparently looking for an exit the whole time, thats hard to grasp.
There will probably always be a part of me that still loves you, and one of my biggest regrets in life will be that I somehow fumbled you and was not able to keep you in my life. I’ve accepted the fact that just because I love someone, doesn’t mean they are obligated to love me back. And just because from my perspective I was doing everything right and everything I could, I know that you didn’t have to see it that way. I know that you dont have to wait for me to figure my life out. And you arent obligated to teach me how to love better. I just thought thats something you WOULD do.
I hope one day I can look back at this and see the good times without feeling like there’s a knife in my chest. I pray that you find whatever it is you’re looking for. Maybe one day you’ll look back and see I tried my best too, and appreciate all the ways I tried to show you I cared in my own way. A product of my environment I suppose, I didnt grow up with a lot of love being shown. No birthdays, no hugs, no kisses, no feelings. I didnt understand how to do that.
I heard you might be seeing someone else already. Its only been a month. I was supposedly your best friend, you supposedly loved me, I guess that was all talk. You tossed me aside without even a conversation. Thats pretty shitty to me, but I dont want to think about it anymore. You said you'd be happier without me, so it is what it is.
I know we’ll never see each other or speak to each other again, but hopefully putting these thoughts into the universe will somehow get to you on a spiritual level, and that’s good enough for me.
I’ll see you in another life, when we’re both cats.
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2024.05.17 00:21 Kind2tie_7185 Why is suicide not a option for me?

Don't get me wrong. I'm truly curious, and this question I've been carrying for over a year.
Im a 30 m
Objectively I have lived a terrible odds stacked against me from the start. I was born to a father that took my mother faraway to a farm and isolated us he was quite the abuser with my self going Tru all 5 different tipes my siblings 4 and the youngest only 2 I was the only one that was s## abused. From as Yong as I can remember I plead my mother to leve. Turned in to a super Cristian thus a wife's purpose is to be subject to her husband. Evan though she also went true all 5 she was even r## infront of me.
I mentioned we grew up on a farm in isolated he would work construction jobs all over Africa so most of the time we would be left alone. Work 4 months home 6 weeks the first day that he is back he cums with takeaways and cool drinks and it's a celebration it would normally only be calm for 2-3 days when he would get angry normally before we were to go buy groceries. Witch ment we will have to put that car together and fix it that's normally tha first day that I would blead if it's not from a tool it's because I woed gow far into the field to hide then it would be his lether belt my but would be blue And red brushe sometimes my skin woed split open and blend every time I moved.
The first time I saw a classroom or a teacher was at the age of 13 we got a tv for the first time at the age of 12 so obviously I had no sosial skills it was just a few days a group of bullies introduced me so that was not fun until a few months later when the hieschool librarian looked over our class.
My mom dit taught me to read and math and science (only biblical accurate) so I started reading at 4 at 5 I was at the level of gr3 had to develop my own horrible handwriting. I was good at math though my mom only knew +×÷- and fractions to the second point
The library was my heavin in 3 years personally I graduated done with every book in the library besides most of the story books The problem was I couldn't really speak English I only got exposed to it from the TV so I was on my way to fail Gr6 I didn't during the last term my dad left for work again but this time it was longer we ran out of food and my mom finally ran away with her 5 kids pregnant and starving all the food we had fit into a shoe box and ther was space for my brothers favorite little teddy 🧸 about the size of a tennis ball
We moved to the city we're I found out my mom has siblings thy help us with some basic it was crazy there I could not even cross the streets thy were 3 lanes mutch to wide for a teen cross with out getting run over starting high school I decided I would be the opposite of my history so on the first day I broke the head boy a rather big rugby player nose. That showd them I was never bullied and yet still not cool so I joined the skateboarders I was terrible but they had issues and I'm nothing but broken metal head started smoking never touched weed that's drugs glue as well it makes youcrazy. Though sometimes we would snort white power at the mall. Only after a few months in class I found out there are more tips of drugs. To late now I'm a cat addicted our group grew and we became the popular group we were 40 in the core group if we threw a party 200 people show up I mean some college students started hanging with them college girls hang with me at 17 so obviously the heiskool girls thru them at me nonstop sleeping with 2-3 a night never not wrapped always save. Until I slept with one I actually cared for but not as much as she for me so to get here to disappear I seduced her sister on her bed so she could walk in on that. 3 day later she was found dead in the bath with a letter to her parents on their bed and a long letter for me in her sister underwear full of her blood for me.
My next relationship was my fiance Finally quit drugs 3 years later Completely thought ow yeah remember that I was so smart well turns out I failed gr 9 almost twice shortly before the second time time my mother lost her job I was still partying her savings didn't last we got evicted ran out of food so I quit school and started buying thing from drug dealers and sell them it wasn't long before I afforded a bigger house some time later I moved out paying 2 rents going crazy the drugs were not fun any more my friends are dieing on after the other some go to prison I fought my best friend. I saw what was happening because of the drugs I walk 70 km that weekend faar into the field to escape only with my knife. Not the plan but I lived there for 3 weeks alone my phone is still there somware I came back sober no friends
I didn't fin school so it's only min wage for 3 years trying multiple business all fail until I lost my job again. One day I dit a car port for a lady little did I know that in justover 7 years 2 months before covid i will loos. A my greatest business in going to 8 figure this time 100% legal in one writing of a pen and waist all my saving on loyars to get it back lost my fiance and only child
Went into depression
tryed and failed 3 more business Good diagnose with add and adhd Over came depression Diagnosis with ptsd Found out my 5 year old son is not evan myn Depression again Gave up trying at all tried drugs again for 2 months give up on that two
Move back to the farm where it all started farm is falling It's sort off failng less
Depressioni quit low
And finally today im bulding my own shop with bricks i made my self everything wants to fail this sometimes its so close.
And yeah true all of that's I can honestly say I never had suicide Evan as a though to be a option
Seriously why would I not just end me but I just don't have that option ever
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2024.05.17 00:21 dxrshy Raising Awareness - Scammers (no personal info)

I’m not sure if this has been spoken about already, but it’s doing my head in and I need to do something about it. There are scammers all over Vinted, we all know that, but I want to educate people on what the scammer’s accounts look like and how they actually achieve the scam.
Firstly, what do the accounts look like, these are the 5 things I use and you can use to tell if the account is dodgy:
Username: Usually a name with random numbers and letters intertwined, such as j0hnathan43z0 (not a real user name)
Price: Tends to include pennies such as £48.50 or £18.75, not very common for a legit seller to use pennies, so when they do, pls check their account.
Reviews/Followers: Almost always they will have 0 followers and 0 reviews.
Photos: Poor quality photos that are clearly cropped, and sometimes have a distorted/barcode-like pattern along one of the edges of the image
Wardrobe: Usually consists of completely random items, with very good prices. Check the background in the image of each item, are they similar? Or do they look like they are taken in what’s clearly a different household for instance.
How does the scam actually work you may be wondering… well:
What they do, is they list an item, using images stolen from an old sales listing from Vinted, eBay etc. The item will be very well priced. (Most of these scam listings are posted in the evening, at around 9pm onwards, however you may notice them popping up all day)
A person will be attracted by this price, and no doubt they will buy the item.
At checkout, you will notice the only courier option is Royal Mail. Why is this? Royal Mail is the only courier on Vinted that isn’t a tracked service, it’s only 2nd class, and because of this, you have to send a proof of postage receipt to the buyer as an image, hence the “Here’s the postage receipt”… message that shows when the seller has sent you said receipt.
The scamming seller will activate this message, in doing so, the Vinted software will update the buyer telling them that their item has been sent. However the buyer won’t upload an image of the postage receipt. (Some time after this, usually an hour or so, the seller will delete their account, I’m not sure how this bit helps the scammer in any way, but they often do this).
If a parcel goes missing on Vinted, Vinted will refund both the buyer AND the seller regardless. Services like InPost and Evri can be tracked and used to prove if the parcel has been delivered or not. Royal Mail 2nd class on the other hand cannot be tracked. So Vinted assume the parcel is lost and eventually refund both parties.
What Vinted fail to do however, is check the transaction for a proof of postage receipt. Checking if the seller actually sent the item off and can prove it, would allow the seller to be rightly refunded or not (the buyer will be refunded regardless). This is bad on Vinted part obviously, because Vinted are paying out scammers for absolutely nothing.
I can’t believe they are getting away with it and it has to stop, because people are paying good money for items that never arrive, and are then out of pocket for 3ish weeks before they are refunded. I hope this post helps the community and raises awareness.
Thanks for reading and stay safe on this marketplace.
If it’s too good to be true, it usually is!
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2024.05.17 00:11 althor2424 Possibly fired for a background check after getting hired

I may have just gotten fired for something on my background check AFTER working there for 2 weeks. Sorry if this is a long story but need advice. On April 12th, I got offered a job with a company pending the background check. As I was employed at the time I actually disclosed ahead time what they would find because I wasn’t going to waste theirs and my time if it was going to be an issue. I was told it wasn’t going to be an issue if it was what I said it was so I decided to move forward with the process.
On April 18, I got the call from the HR that the background check had cleared and I was good to go starting May 2. HR told me that I had actually given them more info than was in the background check. At that point I gave my notice to my current employer who were very gracious and happy for me.
On the first day I discovered that the president of the company and I had a history and so I talked to HR about it and told her if it is going to be an issue tell me and I’m sure my old job would take me back. I was told it wouldn’t be a problem and that I had already been vetted by their attorney. She also told me that only 3 people knew what was on the background check: her, my supervisor, and the general manager. On May 10th, I expressed the same concerns to my supervisor regarding when the president would see me and was told I was thinking more into it than necessary.
Today (5/16) the president saw me and by lunch I was put on paid administrative leave with a letter saying they were thinking about firing me because of the background check. I live in California so I know there was some rights under the Fair Chance Act as my job and my issue do not conflict.
Any suggestions?
EDIT: What was in my background check is not relevant to the job. Under the Fair Chance Act if it is not relevant to the job, it cannot be used as grounds for denying employment (hence why their HR approved me for hiring). However, the president of the company and the GM now seem to be trying to use it as their excuse to get me out. The president of the company and I were co-workers about 10-15 years ago. And no, I am not a registered sex offender nor was my crime violent, fraudlent, or DUI
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2024.05.17 00:08 Nocturnal_fruitbat Advice on Cover Letters for a job I’ve applied to before?

Sorry for the confusing title! Essentially I’m applying for a job with a studio I really want to work with. I have applied before and obviously didn’t get the job, but I was encouraged to keep an eye on their openings and apply again if I saw a role I was interested in. This is not the same role, but a very similar one.
I’m just looking for some advice regarding the cover letter. I don’t want to copy-paste parts of it bc I assume the same people will be reading it… but I also only have one story about being inspired when I saw the head of the studio talk at an animation summit.
Do I mention I’ve applied before? Is that stupid? Does that show continued interest and dedication, or does it just say ‘hey, remember how I wasn’t a good enough candidate before?
Any advice is welcome and very much appreciated, thank you.
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2024.05.17 00:06 BulletRiddle Corrupt grocery giants (including Roblaws) are trying to get their hands on the money the LCBO invests into our public services

Excerpt from the OPSEU/SEFPO email I got:
I’ve got some numbers for you:
Each represents the millions of dollars in salary some grocery chain billionaires have recently made: Galen Weston (Loblaws), Michael Medline (Sobeys), and Eric La Fleche (Metro), in that order.
Now they’re trying to get their hands on the money the LCBO invests into our public services—$2.5 billion—and even convenience chains like 7-Eleven and Circle K want in. It should go without saying, but these ultra-wealthy CEOs don’t need any help from the government, and they certainly don’t deserve our money. But this is Doug Ford’s Ontario, and it’s time to raise the alarm.
They’re making record-breaking profits; we’re going through a cost of living crisis. Send a message to stop Ford’s latest corporate cash grab.
We’re up against giants here. These big three grocery chains (and their offshoots) have little to no competition, leaving struggling Ontarians no choice in where to shop. The further privatization of alcohol sales will only make the inequity worse by taking away billions in revenue that would otherwise go toward hospitals, schools, and more.
Meanwhile, over 9,000 LCBO workers are fighting back and need our support. They’re standing up for good jobs in every community, while protecting this public asset. That’s why we launched our campaign, and why we’re asking you to take action today.
Together we can keep public profits out of private pockets. It all starts with making some noise, flooding some inboxes, and demanding better.
Tell Doug Ford and other elected officials: LCBO profits belong in our communities and out of billionaires’ hands.
Link to the main site and related petitions: https://sofundme.ca/
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2024.05.17 00:03 chief_buddha31 Getting past the CV stage in the US for someone living overseas - tips/advice?

As simple as the title says, really. Anyone have any advice for the above?
I'm in IT project management at a Fortune 500 in the EU, with about 5 YoE of IT service delivery/management. I'm a US citizen but have never worked stateside, having lived overseas my whole life. In my field (IT services) salaries are arguably 2-3x more what I can make here, so I have been thinking of a move stateside for a few years to make some money and save up before moving back to Europe. I've inquired with my employer about an internal transfer but unfortunately that is not an option + with a restructuring about to kick off, even if possible it probably wouldn't be a good idea.
I've been targeting LinkedIn postings asking for experience levels similar to or slightly above my profile, in the IT services (both agency and in-house) and consulting industries. Short yet concise CV (1 pager) and a targeted cover letter go out to most applications. I have a US number (esim), but unfortunately I do not have a US address as I do not have any family or friends there. I've made it clear on my resume that I am a citizen and do not require sponsorship + that I am happy to relocate. However, I'm getting next to no hits, while I am constantly being approached by recruiters in my local market right now. My current employer is one of the largest in its field and is also a household name in the US, so I was hoping my experience would carry some weight. Thus my question is how to make myself more appealing to US recruiters or employers beyond what I am already doing. My search is currently targeted mainly at the East Coast, mainly due for easy access to Europe. While we are at it, any suggestions at tax-friendly states with competitive job markets I may stand a chance in? Thank you!
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2024.05.17 00:00 Corbast7 The sprinkle sprinkle movement is just a natural reaction to the rise in men adopting TRP

Gold digging women have always gotten a lot of smoke, but I think we need to look a bit deeper as to why it seems they’re on the rise. I’m not condoning gold digging, but I do think it’s just a defense mechanism for women who cannot find a more like-able, egalitarian partner.
Women have learned a lot about the manosphere in recent years due to it becoming mainstream. More specifically, more Gen Z men openly espousing that men’s value only comes from looking as hot as possible and making a lot of money. That women only like men for their money and superficial status, and that we’re lying when we say we want men who are kind and respectful (and who are attractive to us).
We all know gold digging isn’t new. But in the past, gold digging was just a survival strategy for women to access socioeconomic mobility when we collectively couldn’t access it except through marrying rich. Now that more women are able to earn enough money to not need to marry rich for survival, women have become more comfortable demanding that men need to actually be like-able as partners.
This is obviously a huge societal shift to demand men to now be kind (and attractive) as partners, and no longer just financial providers to their wives who stay at home to raise the kids alone. Earning a regular salary is no longer good enough to guarantee themselves a wife and kids; relationship skills have now become a requirement from most women. Cue TRP being born.
So the modern gold digger is different. I’ve noticed that these sorts of women come from a string of bad dating experiences with TRP-adjacent men, or in other words men who refuse to pull their weight in the domestic sphere, or men who see women as inferiors. I think the modern gold digger is just a woman who has for the most part given up on finding an egalitarian relationship, so the next best thing to settle for is the “modern provider”: This type of man is more like-able and respectful than a TRPer-ish man, but still not egalitarian enough to be ideal. These women believe that good, emotionally intelligent men who’ll help out at 50/50 at home are too difficult to come by, and they also won’t settle for a TRPer type either. The “modern provider” is a man who falls somewhere in the middle of this continuum.
This is why I think it’s a lazy cop out when TRPers say that women just want to have their cake and eat it too. I think this is the nuance that’s missing in the gold digger discourse.
The main thing that makes the modern type of gold diggers different from the old gen is at least these women seem to believe that women should still earn their own money to some extent and be able to be relatively self-sufficient, so that they can at least safely leave the relationship if things go south. Nobody should be financially chained to a broken relationship.
I think these women’s logic is that if they’re anticipating having the majority of the UNPAID domestic labor in the relationship fall on their shoulders anyway, then they believe that the least a man can do is take on more of the financial burden. I think this is what’s really behind the rise of more women starting to reject men who want to go“50/50.” Because there’s an implication that it won’t really be 50/50 in effort; just 50/50 financially.
Obviously not all women are going down the gold digging route. Some women do find egalitarian men. Other women are choosing to just stay single and celibate. And then the 4th group of women are still learning from being repeatedly hurt by bad men, and will keep going through that cycle until they come out the other end and join one of the 3 other groups.
So basically, if men want to discourage more women from becoming modern gold diggers (or even from them exiting the dating pool and taking a vow of celibacy), then they need to become more egalitarian as partners. Women want like-able, attractive partners just as men do. It’s really not more complicated than that.
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2024.05.16 23:59 shaneka69 NUMEROLOGY OF CAUREY ROLLINS

NUMEROLOGY OF CAUREY ROLLINS

Caurey Rollins was arrested for molesting children. Not sure the level of intensity besides what went viral which was him putting a young boy's toe in his mouth at a trampoline park which is beyond absurd. I am going to point out the significance of the possibility of this act based on the numeric ENERGIES in his name. Not sure what his middle name is because that would help to gain full insight into his full character, but will put a focus on his first name at least since this energy is most important on a daily basis.
Was able to get his full name which is Caurey Verlon Rollins. We are going to be applying the energies in a way where it is based on an individual and match up the actions with the energies.
First name DECODE
C - The energy of 3 vibrates at 3 which is a known number when it comes to communication, expression, creativity, and social activity on a main scale. In addition to those basics, it is a number and energy connected to Gemini(the twins) and connected to versatility which can apply in a sense where someone is into men and women or even the same gender. C and 3 energy is very childlike, more childlike than the energy of 5 and Leo.
A - The energy of 1 is what the letter A represents in Numerology. This represents action and quick impulse. Think of a child doing something impulsively without thinking. That is what A and 1 can represent.
U - The energy of U being the 21st letter of the alphabet and vibrating at a matured energy and level of the # 3 is merged with the energy of 2 and 1. 2 being the number connected to cooperation, compassion, and sensitivity and 1 being action-oriented. This energy combo can point to someone(1) who is fruity(2) = 3.
R - 18th letter of the alphabet vibrating at the energy of 9. A matured version of 9 so it is beyond being experimental. It's being experimental with things on a dedicated basis or from a place of history(8). 8 is representing time being put in a situation. It wasn't a one time thing type of energy. 9 is the number of experience and mastery. In this case, in a not so good way.
E - 5th letter of the alphabet which I mentioned is connected to childlike energy whether it is humor based, or childish actions. I mentioned in another post that 5 is also connected to crimes.
Y- 25th letter of the alphabet. Vibrating at the energy 7 which is a number connected to strategy and wisdom. The number of being calculating and thoughtful. 2 as I mentioned is a number associated with cooperating with other or just any 1 on 1 interaction and the number 5 is creative, inappropriate, joyful, childlike,etc. Numerology speaks about 7 being associated with Neptune which is the planet connected to illusions and deceit.
As you can see, this name as a lot of energies connected to numbers and energies of immaturity such as 3 two times, 1, and 5. The name CAUREY radiates a strong energy and influence of 1 which is self-motivated or self-focused with the destiny and personality number being 1 and the soul urge being 9. This all equates to doing something for the benefit of self and NOT thinking it through.
Now looking at his full name
CAUREY VERLON ROLLINS has the energy of 3 five times throughout his name. This repetitions brings forth the energy and influence of 8. 8 can be taboo! Motivated by taboo urges (8) and taking action on it (1).
3 childlike energy,5 times (kids are connected to 5)
9 is throughout his name 4 times. 9x4=36/9 9 as I mentioned is connected to mastery, teaching, success, and power. 4 is self when it isn't about responsibility and work demands.
3 and 9 are connected to teaching, learning, intelligence -- He was working with the kids before he did such an act. I guess the taboo was more important.
His full name has the personality number 7 which is the Neptune ruled number in Numerology. His soul urge is 8 and destiny number is 6 so he was strategic(7) in his taboo actions(8) while working with innocent kids (6). 6 is the number of hospitality, service, and care. 8 is the number connected to change, dark experiences/taboo, and ambition. 7 is strategy, wisdom, and deceit,.
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2024.05.16 23:58 chief_buddha31 Getting past the CV stage in the US (PM) and tax-friendly states to consider?

As simple as the title says, really. Anyone have any advice for the above?
I'm in IT project management at a Fortune 500 in the EU, with about 5 YoE of IT service delivery/management. I'm a US citizen but have never worked stateside, having lived overseas my whole life. In my field (IT services) salaries are arguably 2-3x more what I can make here, so I have been thinking of a move stateside for a few years to make some money and save up before moving back to Europe. I've inquired with my employer about an internal transfer but unfortunately that is not an option + with a restructuring about to kick off, even if possible it probably wouldn't be a good idea.
I've been targeting LinkedIn postings asking for experience levels similar to or slightly above my profile, in the IT services (both agency and in-house) and consulting industries. Short yet concise CV (1 pager) and a targeted cover letter go out to most applications. I have a US number (esim), but unfortunately I do not have a US address as I do not have any family or friends there. I've made it clear on my resume that I am a citizen and do not require sponsorship + that I am happy to relocate. However, I'm getting next to no hits, while I am constantly being approached by recruiters in my local market right now. My current employer is one of the largest in its field and is also a household name in the US, so I was hoping my experience would carry some weight. Thus my question is how to make myself more appealing to US recruiters or employers beyond what I am already doing. My search is currently targeted mainly at the East Coast, mainly due for easy access to Europe. While we are at it, any suggestions at tax-friendly states with competitive job markets I may stand a chance in? Thank you!
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2024.05.16 23:55 Mystical_Legend Can I be broken beyond repair?

Hello everyone! I have decided to leave my thoughts here, so whatever happens, happens, I just feel like I should do it somewhere. Oh my, I typed a lot, I'm not even confident enough that this will be read, but hey I've got nothing to lose. So, I'm a guy who just recently hit 20 and the ways I think and feel are changing and I am having difficulties because of that. This will be related to my feelings, thoughts and my wishes, the last part is something I'm not used to having. The main problem will be my father who is not supporting that. However I wouldn't say it's just some "disagreement" or anything, but something bigger. So I will leave some stuff I've been through and how I felt at those times. I hope someone can help or anything
Before school: I would be super talkative with the family and neighborhood kids, just being annoying and putting out some childlike opinions and just being a little loud burden when I'm comfortable. When I'm not, I'd just be the quiet kid I've been taught to be, not nice bothering grownups, they're scary
Elementary school: As a kid I never had too many friends, I always attached to that one person and was connected with them the most and it was enough for me. However I happened to have some silly luck where whenever I'd get attached to someone they would magically appear to move out of the country and I'd find a new friend and repeat the same cycle. Definitely didn't hang out with multiple people at once. Wasn't aware this was doing something to me. A lot of them were friends that played a lot of video games and I got into playing video games too. A bit too much perhaps because it would happen to delay everything, including my knowledge of everything till this very day. Both in elementary and high school I was a straight A, "gifted kid" and all that nerd stuff. Of course I did it all because I feared the reaction of my parents if I wasn't doing as good as I was supposed to. My mom was more understanding than my dad. I could always ask her things like "Would you still love me if I wasn't getting As?" and she would comfort me and all the good stuff. I was always afraid of my dad so I never had deeper talks with him. Even today, I have deep talks with my mom and love spending time with her but I can end up being all day alone with my dad and we share 20 words. But now not that much because of fear but because of habit I guess. My whole life goal at this stage was just not making him angry. I didn't have any hobbies, just burning through games and school books. When it was time to go to highschool, I picked some random school not directed into anything, (uhh I don't know the words, gymnasium? the school that has a little bit of everything, nothing specific, English is not my native language) it was kinda directed to coding but not really, I picked it because, hey I like games, this should be fun, I could make games.
Highschool: My habits have hit me, and I realized I'm not really engaging in healthy human activities so I have been so afraid of not being able to make friends. Because I usually spent my social time with one friend in my house or their house I didn't really know anything about my town or places or activities or whatever at the age of 15. I was scared of simply being too far behind on everything and that I couldn't make friends. However I happened to find some kid who was just like me and I clicked with him. Oh my, repeating the cycle, am I not? However I didn't want to repeat the cycle. And I wanted to go meet more friends from the class and see what's up, I'm tired of feeling like an outcast. I've been lucky and I've met some great guys where I've seen what it means to have self-respect, self-love, a backbone, goals, how you can rebel against things you find ridiculous and all the most insane of them all, ~confidence~. Thanks to being in that group of 5 friends, I've been taught so many things I should have known ages ago and I was able to feel okay around people, start going to the gym, going out in town, advancing even as far as going to different towns and trying out things I didn't feel comfortable thinking about before. Was able to talk to girls on a deeper level and had an embarrassingly late realization of "hey, they're human too!". Things I did were nothing too crazy ever, I still had my dad's ideals hanging over my head, so I never felt comfortable engaging in some things like drinking or going to parties out late (well, he wouldn't allow me to leave the house late anyways). Eventually I figured out I can just lie to him to make things less complicated by twisting the story a little bit, that's how I ended up going to another town. The first time I confronted him about something bigger, is when I wanted to go to another country on my own so I could meet up with my girlfriend at that time and I was tired of him not allowing me stuff and I just dropped my first ever assertive-ish sentence to him. "I want to ask you something but I don't want your answer to be no". He allowed me to, was taken aback though. That trip was one of the most beautiful experiences I've ever had in my life. I think he allowed me to only because it was a girl in question, and I wasn't really having girl friends in highschool, was scared because of all the generalization I've heard from my father and the relationship between my parents, and I truly wasn't excited about the whole idea of marriage. My dad is very traditional and he loves being in control of my life because he believes that a man should fully provide for his family, that he should simply deal with this deal with that, that a wife must obey him, that parents are most important no matter how they act yadda yadda. A lot of old thinking I never agreed with but couldn't do much about it anyways so let's just live I guess. However one thing I did continue in highschool is my addiction to video games. But then I stopped because I felt guilty for not studying and felt guilty for not learning about music or town areas all my friends know. So I started listen to music properly and I got hooked to it. This has grown into a bigger problem now and I'll go in the final stage of my life because I feel like this is so much text.
University: (if I say uni/college, I'm talking about the same thing, I don't know if there's a difference between the two words) Oh well, you remember how I said that the addiction is gonna make a problem? Well, I started studying engineering. Thanks to my high grades and me doing the entrance exam relatively well, I got into the "toughest college in the country". Now, the fun part is that now that I have to detach from listening to music for multiple hours a day and absolutely doing stupid dances and releasing my energy outside because I don't know what to do with it, I realized I never thought about what I loved... And, well let's just say I don't really know if engineering, nor coding was the way to go. Crisis time. However I don't like anything, what do I do I'm gonna lose my mind. Well, let's just try having friends? I met some of the most beautiful souls ever on this university and I have reached the point of being able to "be myself" and show the world my weirdness and all the goofy opinions and statements my mind creates. I go to that college sometimes just to see all those beautiful people again and again. They're serious about what they're doing and about their studies, I wish them the best, I really hope I don't negatively affect them. However, I tried to research a bit on what I might actually truly love. And after stumbling through life this last year while pretending everything's okay when dad asked, and telling the truth to my mom, I stumbled onto psychology. And well I have went to that college, to see the lessons and classes and wow, studying can be fun? So I'm thinking about finally taking a wrong turn on this path I was always meant to take from the beginning of my life, and follow this, just to see what's gonna happen. What's the purpose of pushing software engineering when I know I'll feel about it like any other job. I'm not money hungry anyways, I'm hungry for being fulfilled. I've confronted my dad about wanting to change my career, to which I've been called many names, been extremely judged for my choices and I've been told to cut off my hair and stop going to the gym as punishment (I'm not planning on listening to this). I've never been physically abused by my dad, but I'm scared if he's insane enough to do something to me now because he set me a timer of 7 days to cut off my hair. Oh yes btw, I always wanted to have long hair and he never agreed, I was too scared to ever do it. Recently I've changed my mind and he hates it so now he wants it gone. I'm genuinely concerned if he's gonna launch on me with scissors or something ridiculous. You see, even now I am so easily manipulated and controlled by fear and I'm sick and tired of that. That's probably the reason I never got out of religion, my fear is just too strong for me to do it. I dislike that, I wish I could transfer fear into love, I have never learned how to do that though. Will I always be like this? Will I always be a coward and just say "yessir" to everything? I don't want to anymore. I'm tired of being a puppet. I'm tired of having to prove I'm smart or capable or hardworking. I just want to have something with which I can say "I did this on my own, I committed to this, I wanted this" not "well it was good for me". I want to start following my heart and throw my brain out of the window. And now I'm scared of things like "what if I was wrong all along and he was right", "what if I don't find any jobs in this country because of this", "what if he throws me out of the house or starts abusing me". Well I don't know, but I feel like I want to commit to psychology, and I'm gonna do it, I'll be on my own, no ideals from other people, just me, and my wishes. But these words and all the things affect me a lot and they always have. And I get demotivated and stop caring about everything, which just makes my addiction to blasting music on my headphones and badly dancing even stronger. I'm scared of it happening again. But I've never been this sick of it all, I feel like I won't go down without a fight anymore. So I ask in the text once more, can I truly be broken beyond repair, or can I break all the chains tying me down? Because I want to know if I should just abandon all hope and embrace the tradition and insanity along with it, or just run and not look back.
If you have read all of this, I am very grateful to you, hopefully I have been collected enough to construct sentences that make sense, or that it all makes sense overall. Anything is appreciated. I love you all and wish you the best <3
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2024.05.16 23:54 Even_Quiet_984 Trying to make something like this breaded bra … no idea what I’m doing

Trying to make something like this breaded bra … no idea what I’m doing
So I got bit by the creative bug last night and saw the first photo on TikTok and now I have to make it for bonnaroo. I’m sure it would probably be cheaper to buy it but whatever I want to try. Anyways I made the basic bra shape last night with some chain and jump rings (I don’t have a finished photo that isn’t ON me but see pic 2 for reference) and I’m not sure where to go from here… should I do just clear beading cord and just go horizontally across each chain with silver beads? Or what do you think would look good / work for this? I’m an absolute beginner but I have a ton of free time over the next month and ready to try and complete this. Any advice would be amazing (I will be wearing a bikini or pasties underneath do not worry lol)
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