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2013.02.13 19:49 lanks1 The division of intelligence is limited by the extent of the internet

A friend of mine once said: You know what the problem is with being an economist? Everyone has an opinion about the economy. Nobody goes up to a geologist and says, 'Igneous rocks are fucking bullshit.' This subreddit is the repository for all of the woeful, antiquated, or plain old misguided notions Redditors post about how the economy works.
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2013.01.16 03:34 PornhubComments: Showcasing the wit of Pornhub commenters.

Showcasing the wit of Pornhub commenters. Who comments on Pornhub videos? These people.
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2024.05.16 09:31 Stuck_repeating_shit what is the best option if you were in my situation for(expert software devs-webdevs-IT)?

hay what's up i would like you to clarify something if you are an expert please that would matter to me, my situation: im an IT engineer that was graduated from CS and was jumping arround alot cause I wasn't sure where i want to spend my life which major or job role that suites my mind and Passion regarding the salary of course as you know many people struggle with that shit
facts im an awesome artist i also love it even before i know programming exists so i reached awesome level in creativity the level of creating masterpieces that you would want to buy but i found my artwork was started to get stolen and such and i have a great creativity like i had an awesome ideas back then that was super unique and awesome for web pages solution and even business ideas screen plays i always loved to stand out of the crowed and i have super unique creative mind like a different taste.
i learned alot first in front-end basics didn't got too deep and then studied a bit of back end and then started game dev didn't like it so jumped to ai machine learning amd got deep in that made alot of projects new ones that no one did before then jumped to IT cause needed a job financially and thought also it may be a good idea to land first job in the available near feild while i develop to shift career cause i needed money so you know
now im stuck like almost finished 1 year in IT with mid-level exp company and im active learner but i always had a special creativity so i feel im in the most boring path to me maybe to all of you if some one came from their would understand and i feel wasting my talent cause i dove deep in programming oop and machine learning python and web dev kinda so my question
does my artist talent would make a difference like make me special also my learning ability im a fast learner and but you can say my special talent is i have a special artistic vision and touch that made me think may i be different like stand from the crowd if i joined web-dev front-end or not ? like is it worth it to change my career path and waste my 1year exp in IT or not cause as you know the salary i think from what i know close enough to each other so i thought also in. continuing in my it path and maybe travel if that required to land a job in one of the big international companies but at the same time i feel wasting my talent cause i have super artist vision but don't know also if that would make a difference in that career path so im afraid of wasting my valuable time to develop in web dev while i can develope more in it despite I don't like it and if i had to choose from the beginning i would go for front-end but I didn't find any opportunities back then and i feel little rusty in front end cause its been a long time but i still love it and ready to study it and unleash my creativity. so what would you do if you was me ?! please help i know this could've been asked alot before but i really don't find any matching situation to mine.
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2024.05.16 09:31 paulys_sore_cock FCOL - Be Careful with Your Face

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/be-careful-with-your-face/id354082588?i=1000655520329
I had to listen to almost the whole thing. FF was not my friend this time around. I welcome death now. At least my NSW zoom call enabled me to only half listen to this horseshit...
They start the show about getting treatment for face wrinkles
9:32 - They moved on Friday
9:54 - Adam says don't hire movers (in the past) we have my guys. She complains about her and Olga moving a couch in the past. That Adam's guys more or less did it for them.
da'hop's comment: imagine you work for Adam. Ok guys, today you are moving my family from here to here. We haven't packed. Hop to it and do whatever my idiot wife tells you to do. I'm too busy (and you are retards) to supervise
10:40 she talks about how Ace wouldn't hire movers.
11:12 - she hires 3 guys, but wants 4. Some guys (friends? Reberto and Alvero {sp?}) move her condo stuff to her new rental. She said she needed 6 guys, because it took them all day to load the truck. This dingbat claims she didn't have much to move. They worked 9a to 9p, got the stuff into the truck at 5:36. She told them to not unpack.
da'hop's comment: So, it sounds like a normal move. I guess she didn't understand that the movers are hourly and they most likely expected the $$$ for the unpacking at her new place. She didn't do normal human empathic stuff for the movers like buying a shit ton of pizza and soda and water for them...How can she be this old and have never dealt with movers before?
13:30 - Friday was unpacking and OH NO she has to get rid of the boxes. Saturday - Olga sends somebody over.
da'hop's comment: I guess Olga is still around? But, my feeling is not full-time and she threw a help me life to Olga. Kind of abusive
14:35 - All day Saturday setting up the kids' bedrooms.
15:30 - Mother's Day she unpacked. And went to bed at 1a.
16:07 - AV Ed setup the tech stuff on Friday and this was difficult for her to schedule.
da'hop's comment: This one bugs me. Ed is Adam's. My dear go spread your wings and get a new rolodex
17:30 - AC talk. Kids run hot and she is cold.
18:50 - Only Sonny's bathroom has a TP holder
19:35 - They order sushi in for Mother's Day dinner
20 - sitting on outdoor stuff in the living room to watch TV. She will rent the condo.
21:10 - AirBnB is too much work for her
21:35 - She rented it to Olga. What?
da'hop's comment: This I don't understand. They are rich and they had their nanny pay them to rent her condo? What? That is just taxing Olga and super shitty. Just let her and her daughter live there for free, you cheap fucking fucks
24:31 - New owners took the house on 5-15-24. 31 day escrow, was quick to her.
da'hop's comment: She is so dumb. She didn't understand that appliances stay with the house. 31 day closing is pretty normal in this day and age. Most houses aren't sold less all of the $ ducks are in a row.
24:58 - She got Phil. The daughter isn't a huge fan, but she was happy to see him. The dog stuff is nice. She has real grass and Phil liked that. It almost made me not hate her. But, she complains about his fur getting everywhere. News flash, he is a fucking dog. Get him groomed.
28 - SWT says vacuuming is her least favorite. Lynette says she doesn't mind it. SWT corrects the dingbat and says, "No it is her least favorite". Wow, she is dumb.
29:21 - she has to do dark-colored bedding because Phil gets on the bed. IDK, train the fucking dog? If you don't like that.
37 - Lynette does not understand Poki
41 - Calen says https://www.sushirex.com/ is right by her new place and she should try a sushi burrito since a poki bowl isn't something she can wrap her mind around. These appear to just be XXL sushi rolls.
45:20 - She is put out that the movers wrapped her stuff in moving paper. She moved stuff that she will throw away.
da'hop's comment: I can't even. THIS IS A NORMAL MOVE! Adam must have sheltered her so fucking much. I have a ton of stuff. Books, 40k minis, tools, all kinds of computer stuff,, aka stuff that sucks to move. I'm usually setting up the computers and putting the minis away while they are putting the beds together and putting the kitchen stuff away. Then all of the boxes and stuff gets broken down and put out on the street (and a 'hood message goes out that free boxes are at this address). It is a long day, but moving is a waste of time and money, but at least it is done in one day. She had no concept of this. And, Adam moved her at least 4 or 5 times. Wow, what a life she must have lived.
46:30 - Daughter bought her a mother's day gift and Lynette is confused by the difference between rhinestones and birthstones.
TL;DR - She doesn't understand how movers work. She didn't really let them do their job. Complained about how much work it was for her + Olga + Olga's friend to unpack at the new place. The kids, of course, did jack shit. She won the lotto with Adam.
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2024.05.16 09:30 SensitiveCream3698 I (20NB) don't feel really loved by my partner (22NB), but they do a lot. What do I do?

TL;DR: While my partner is awesome and good when it comes to emotions, I feel like I put in way more effort than they do into other things. I don't feel loved, but I feel so selfish because he already gives me so much. I'm at a loss for what to do.
So maybe it's that it's past my bedtime or it's finals fatigue, but I haven't felt appreciated by my partner for a while. I'm in college and they work full time but live with their parents if that matters. We've been together for a year and a half. Sorry that this is so long but I feel like all of the info is relevant.
Don't get me wrong, she's awesome. And I know they care, but sometimes I wonder if they even like me.
I feel like I'm always the one putting in the most effort. I know someone will mention love languages. I don't actually believe in them, but for reference:
  1. Quality time: I engage in her hobbies most if not all of the time. We play magic at least once a week. It's ok I guess, but I play with him because I love him. Not because I like magic. We also do shared hobbies together like hiking and trying new foods (they even pay!). But I honestly couldn't tell you one time where he engaged in MY hobbies and took them seriously. For example, I once tried to teach her how to play guitar. Nothing crazy just playing a chord. She just didn't care. She seemed so uninterested. He strummed it like a kid strumming a toy ukulele who doesn't have the cognitive development to understand what he's doing is improper. That's my way of emphasizing how uninterested they were. Don't get me wrong I love being apart of their world but I wish they'd be more invested in mine too. Sometimes she also cuts our time short (we usually see each other once a week) to go play video games with her friends. Friends are important, so I think it's fine once in a while. But almost every week...
  2. Words of affirmation: They called me handsome once. That made me feel good. I tried to hint to her that she should do it more but that hasn't happened. I call him every nice name under the sun.
  3. Physical touch: I know I can be too much in this department (sometimes I get called annoying/needy) so I keep it toned down. He holds me when we watch tv, but they really only put actual effort in when they want to get intimate.
  4. Acts of service: If love languages are real then this is probably his. Like I said earlier, she usually pays for food unless I can beat her to the punch. He also makes tea for me sometimes (the fancy stuff). We usually only hang out at his house so I don't really get to show off my service things, but to be honest I don't really know what I'd do here. I do love to cook and bake for her, and I'd like to imagine that I'd do some chores for them if we lived together
  5. Gifts: Like I said I give little gifts pretty often (think snacks, flowers, etc). I don't get any gifts except on special occasions. I did get a watch once but that was because they were collecting watches at the time and wanted to match with me (which I guess is still kind of sweet).
I swear I'm not trying to make my partner look bad at all. They really are a good person. She is a literal shoulder for me to cry on. Whenever I have a bad day he holds me for a little bit and lets me cry. He doesn't express much emotion but I try to let him know that I'll be there for him if he needs me. They're also really supportive of everything that I do. In regards to life choices, he has never judged me even once. Also, when I realized that I was non-binary they were also very supportive then (which I know some people consider this the bare minimum but I live in the rural south US so this is a big deal for me). There is literally no one I trust more than her.
I actually love her so much, but sometimes I feel like I'm the only one putting the effort in when it comes to every other aspect of this relationship. I'll be honest I've only brought up certain parts of it to him because I feel so selfish after everything he does for me. I feel like I'm being selfish and unreasonable but sometimes I just feel like shit when I'm around them because I feel unwanted. I want to make it work but I don't know how. I really have no clue what to do.
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2024.05.16 09:29 a4fertility Can genetic testing detect women's fertility?

Genetic testing has become a hot topic in the health world, and you may be wondering if it can shed light on your fertility. The short answer is: sometimes. Let's break down what we know so far.
Understanding Fertility and Genetics
Your ability to get pregnant is influenced by many things, including:
What Genetic Tests Can Tell Us (and What They Can't)
Tests that can offer clues about fertility:
Tests that don't directly predict fertility:
Who Might Consider Genetic Testing?
Genetic testing for fertility isn't for everyone. You might consider it if:
Important Considerations
Genetic testing can be a helpful tool for some women struggling with fertility, but it's not a magic solution. If you're concerned, talk to your doctor or a fertility specialist. They can help you figure out the best course of action for you.
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2024.05.16 09:28 haygurlhay123 “This Time, I Will Never Let You Go”: Cloud’s Mission and the Hidden Purpose of the Remake Trilogy - Literary and Musical Analysis of FFVII - Part 3

“This Time, I Will Never Let You Go”: Cloud’s Mission and the Hidden Purpose of the Remake Trilogy - Literary and Musical Analysis of FFVII - Part 3
(continuation of part 2)
III. e) The Mobius FF x FFVII collaboration
Alright, back to our suspension world-hopping! Let’s visit the realm of Mobius FF, —more specifically, the collaboration between Mobius FF and FFVII—, where I found the most substantial evidence for my theory.
In case you’re unfamiliar with the Mobius FF (MFF) world and games, let’s begin with a bit of a summary of the parts relevant to us. The story takes place in a world called Palamecia, to which people from other worlds are inexplicably summoned. The vast majority of those who are brought there don’t remember anything from their worlds of origin or their lives before Palamecia except their names: these amnesiac people are called Blanks. The main character is Wol, accompanied by a guiding fairy of Palamecia named Echo. Echo knows a lot about the mechanisms of Palamecia, as she’s tied to the realm. The leader of this world is Vox, a being who manifests only as a voice. The first thing all Blanks remember before they wake in Palamecia is Vox telling them the rules of the realm. Incidentally, the crystals of the MFF world are teleportation crystals.
III. e) i. Devs’ Statements
Let’s review some of the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration devs’ statements before diving into its story.
For both the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration and the Remake project, Kitase took on the role of producer while Nojima supervised the screenplay and wrote the scenario. The project leader was none other than the Remake trilogy’s Hamaguchi, who told a SE interviewer the following:
“We would love for you to play the [MFF x FFVII] collaboration event as you look forward to [Remake’s] release” (“Celebration of the Overseas Release of the Steam Version and FINAL FANTASY VII REMAKE Collaboration Event”, Square Enix).
He later hints at the collaboration’s storyline:
“This collaboration is focused on Cloud, so the other characters will not make an appearance. Players will join Cloud, who has gone astray in Palamecia, on his adventures and see how the story unfolds based on his decisions. Content-wise, FINAL FANTASY VII fans will surely become fraught with emotion as events unfold in-game (laughs).”
Kitase concurs on the emotional aspect of the collaboration in the same interview:
“When it comes to the story, I seek two things– ‘mystery’ and ‘[…] emotional impact’.”
Clearly, fans of FFVII are supposed to react emotionally to the events of the collaboration. With these statements in mind to give us perspective, we can get into the plot points relevant to our analysis. MFF x FFVII Remake comes in two parts, the relevant plot points of which I will describe and analyze one at a time.
III. e) ii. Eclipse Contact
1) Fact-Finding
Part one of the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration event is called Eclipse Contact. It came out in 2017 on Aerith’s birthday, February 7th, and its release campaign ran until March. In Eclipse Contact, Palamecia welcomes someone new: Cloud Strife appears in the realm with very little recollection of his core world of FFVII.
Cloud isn’t a Blank, since he recalls the mako reactors in Midgar upon his arrival in Palamecia, and also remembers that he was hired by Avalanche to blow them up:
“Echo: How did you end up in Palamecia?

Cloud: I… That day... I remember now. A job. I had taken a job. I was hired muscle protecting clients. They wanted to stop the reactor... We used a train to get past security... Was it at night? Something happened... Next thing I knew, I was floating through darkness. Then [I woke up here]”.
This piece of dialogue reveals that Eclipse Contact Cloud’s memories end at the very moment when Avalanche arrives at reactor 1 in OG (disk 1, chapter 1): the very beginning of the game. Consequently, Cloud does not remember anything that happened from the beginning of the OG timeline onwards.
Wol and Echo are intrigued by Cloud’s strange case: non-Blanks rarely arrive in Palamecia. The following text appears on the screen shortly after they meet:
“Perhaps he is not truly who he thinks he is.
Perhaps everything is illusory, a dream.
Only one thing is certain, that he must press on, one step at a time, toward the light that shines from the promised land.”
Just like he did in FFT’s Ivalice, Cloud feels the need to find the Promised Land in MFF x FFVII, despite the fact that he lacks memories of the OG timeline. Though Cloud doesn’t remember anything beyond the train ride to reactor 1, he does remember the Promised Land (at least somewhat). This is odd, given that in OG, Cloud didn’t learn about the Promised Land until several chapters into the game.
Wol and Echo agree to help Cloud figure out why he’s here, since there’s clearly something strange going on with his presence in Palamecia. In fact, Cloud brought Midgar’s mako reactors with him somehow, transplanting them onto the landscape of Palamecia. The group decides to bomb these reactors, following Cloud’s instincts in the hopes that it will jog his memory.
Now for my favorite part. After blowing up another reactor, the group is surprised by the appearance of a crystal. A piano rendition of Aerith’s theme begins. When Wol tries to touch the crystal, something akin to a force field rejects him. When Cloud approaches it, however, the crystal responds to his hand by flashing with light. As it begins to glow, Wol concludes that the crystal is linked to Cloud and Cloud alone. Let’s examine the resulting dialogue:
“Echo: This is the light in your memories. The light of home.

Cloud: Home? But I don’t—

Echo: If you don't remember… then your home is lost to you.

Cloud: Then my memories are gone.

Wol: Do you want to reclaim your past?

Cloud: Not interested... I am what I am now. Not what I was.

Wol: Then tell me… This light. If you can’t remember it, what does it mean to you?

Cloud: It's a warm light... I feel at peace. If this place —home— is as warm and peaceful as this light, then I want to go there.

Echo: You can't go there... Not back to the past.

Cloud: I see.

Echo: But even if you can't go back to the past, you can go forward. If you wish for it strongly enough, the crystal will show you the way. The way to a new world. The way to your Promised Land. […]

Cloud: So... Should [I] take [my] chances and make a wish to this crystal?

Wol: Go ahead. It’s your crystal.

Echo: I should warn you that once you start on this journey, there's no coming back.

Cloud: The past is the past. I want to go to a place where everything is new. I’m ready.“
What follows is a moment I call the wishing scene (13:43-14:34). Cloud closes his eyes and wishes on the crystal. It flashes, and suddenly, rainbow-colored ripples of light appear around it. Aerith’s theme is replaced by a slightly modified version of “Midgar, City of Mako”, the track that plays during the opening cutscene of Remake. You can recreate the modification by listening to “Midgar, City of Mako” from 2:00 to 2:23, then skipping to 3:00 and listening until 3:18. You may recognize the musical motif that kicks off the wishing scene as the Lifestream motif, which has become symbolic of the mysteries of the Remake trilogy, as it often plays during scenes where unexplainable plot deviations from OG occur— more specifically, deviations involving multiverse shenanigans. For instance, it plays during MOTF 4. It also plays in Rebirth after Cloud blocks masamune as Aerith is shown dying anyway.
Cloud disappears with his crystal, after which Echo speaks to Wol about Cloud’s journey:
“Echo: Each person gets the Promised Land they justly deserve, not the one they really need. If you’re a bad person, you go to a bad place. If you expect nothing, you get nothing. Even the journey there makes you look deep within yourself to find out who you really are. Cloud should be facing his own past as we speak. It’s cruel, but necessary. That battle was a long time coming”.
Apparently, at least in the context of this collaboration event, the Promised Land can be a reward or a punishment, depending on which you deserve. Echo explains that Cloud will have to face himself and his past on his way to his Promised Land. This means that the Cloud that appears in Eclipse Contact must next embark on a journey that will confront him with his past, test his mettle, and ultimately lead him to the Promised Land he justly deserves.
III. e) ii. 2) Fact Analysis
There’s a lot of vital information to dig into here, mostly provided by Echo. She claims that the crystal’s light is linked to Cloud’s memories of home; Cloud has to have known this home in the past, as it could not otherwise exist in his memories. MFF Cloud must be a post-OG Cloud. Unfortunately, Echo indicates that whatever Cloud’s home is, he’s lost both it and his memories of it. Despite this, Cloud describes his home as warm and peaceful, concluding that he wishes to find it. Though Cloud can’t return to the past, Echo tells him that if he wishes it strongly enough, the crystal can guide him toward a new world, where his home and his Promised Land exist in the future. The fact that Aerith’s theme is playing all throughout these descriptions of Cloud’s lost home, his Promised Land and the past that he can’t return to makes it extremely obvious that these concepts all point to Aerith. Aerith is Cloud’s lost home. Wherever Aerith is, that’s his Promised Land. The time spent with Aerith before her loss is the past he tragically can’t return to. You might have clocked the similarities between Eclipse Contact’s mention of Cloud’s lost home and DFF’s mention of Cloud’s lost dream: in both these titles, Cloud’s home and dream are equivalent to his Promised Land. It’s confirmed yet again that Aerith is the one Cloud hopes to return to, just like every soul returns to the Lifestream. At this juncture of my research, I was curious as to why the last thing Cloud remembers before waking in Palamecia is the run-up to the Reactor 1 bombing mission in OG (disk 1, chapter 1). This mystery will have to persist for a while longer.
The alarm bells in your head might’ve been triggered by the mention of the wishing scene’s rainbow ripple effects— and rightfully so. This visual cue has sparked passionate debate in the fandom since its appearances in Rebirth, as seen in these pictures:
Zack Choosing To Get A Cure For Cloud, Rebirth Chapter 14; Creating a New World/Timeline
Aerith Pushing Cloud Out of that World/Timeline, Remake Chapter 14
Cloud Blocking Masamune, Rebirth Chapter 14; Creating New World/Timeline
You might have read or heard that this rainbow effect signifies that a character has entered another timeline, created a portal to another timeline, created a new timeline or is being shown different timelines. Indeed, whenever the OG timeline is deviated from in a significant way, this effect appears. The pictures above present multiple examples of these shifting realities.
One might propose that the rainbow ripples in Eclipse Contact and Rebirth are unrelated because of the long period between their respective release dates. This long in-between period indeed makes it likelier that the effect was used without forethought in Eclipse Contact, forgotten over the years, and incidentally reused in Rebirth as a plot-important visual cue with no connection to Eclipse Contact. I’m inclined to disagree since the crystal is specifically described as a vessel that can take Cloud “to a new world” by Echo, which is a bit on the nose. Regardless, it’s plausible that there’s no connection. That is, it would be, if the rainbow effect didn’t show up in Remake too.
When the Whispers are finally defeated in chapter 18 of Remake, a burst of the rainbow ripple effects indicate the emergence of multiple worlds, newly freed from the restrictive clutches of fate (1:16:36-1:16:47). Shortly thereafter, Sephiroth takes Cloud to the Edge of Creation and invites him to join forces with him. Cloud refuses, and Sephiroth says the following:
“Seven seconds till the end. Time enough for you. Perhaps. But what will you do with it? Let's see.”
The question “What will you do with it?” implies that the answer is unknown, meaning Cloud is no longer bound to the OG timeline by fate: many alternate futures lay ahead. Sephiroth is telling Cloud and the audience that now, the mystery of the Remake trilogy has become “Which future will Cloud bring into existence? Which among the infinite possible timelines will his choices result in?” After pondering this aloud, Sephiroth leaves Cloud alone to consider the rainbow effects in the sky (1:19:23-1:19:36). Because they generally represent alternate or changing timelines, it’s safe to assume that the rainbow ripples here represent the myriad of possible worlds that Cloud’s actions in those seven seconds could generate. After all, Sephiroth was just talking about them, and chapter 18’s description in Remake reads as follows:
“In a world beyond, Sephiroth shows Cloud a vision of the planet seven seconds before its demise. Having strayed from the course destiny set for them, they strike out on a path towards an unknown future."
This explains why the player is shown Cloud staring at those colors in the apocalyptic sky at world’s end, directly after hearing Sephiroth’s cryptic words: those are all the alternate “unknown future” timelines ahead of him, now unravelled from fate. Amongst those rainbow ripples lies the answer to the question “What will you do with [the seven seconds]?”
Given that Remake was released in 2020 and Eclipse Contact came out in 2017, the major story elements of the Remake trilogy —including the eventuality of alternate timelines— had to have been planned out at the time of Eclipse Contact’s release: while the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration was being made, Remake was also in production. Also recall that the collaboration event and the Remake trilogy share a codirector in Hamaguchi, a writer in Nojima and a producer in Kitase. Based on all this, it’s more than likely that the rainbow ripples in the Remake trilogy and inEclipse Contact represent the very same thing: alternate worlds and timelines. All this to say that when the rainbow effect appears around the crystal in the Eclipse Contact, it means the crystal is acting as a vessel to another world, just like Echo said.
But that’s not all Echo said: she also mentioned that this other world would take Cloud to his home, to his Promised Land. We’ve already established what that means for Cloud, what it’s meant since two whole decades at the time of Eclipse Contact’s release: this crystal will take Cloud to Aerith. So, where exactly did the crystal take Cloud? In what world can he meet Aerith again?
The music that plays during the wishing scene gives us a huge hint. As I noted before, the track playing in the background is a slightly modified version of Remake’s “Midgar, City of Mako”, which plays in the introduction cutscene of Remake. This is a musical cue that the ending of Cloud’s journey in Eclipse Contact and the very beginning of the Remake trilogy are closely related. Add the fact that the devs wanted players to experience this collaboration event before playing Remake, and it becomes undeniable: the crystal that appeared to Cloud in Palamecia —which offers to lead him to his home and Promised Land, meaning to Aerith—, took him to the world of the Remaketrilogy.
Eclipse Contact is huge. The whole crux of my theory lives and dies right here. However, we still have part two of the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration event to analyze as well as its promotions to look into before I can drop the thesis on you, so bear with me in order to receive the most thorough analysis of all this possible! I want to give you every drop of proof I can!
III. e) ii. MFF x FFVII Remake Fatal Calling
1) Fact-Finding
Fatal Calling came out February 1 of 2018, and its release campaign ended in March. The game opens with a cutscene: Cloud is floating, seemingly unconscious, through a sparkling, green current of light. The current flows into a circle of bright, white light, surrounded by rainbow ripple effects as Cloud is driven toward and into it. An orb floats along with him. The Advent Children theme “The Promised Land” plays, a choir of mournful, aching, mutedly desperate souls engaged in a lamenting prayer. Sephiroth’s voice echoes:
“Sephiroth: It’s time. You may turn your back on the past, lock your memories away. Hide reality beneath a layer of illusion. But destiny will not die so easily. Yes. At memory’s end you may plead for it all to go away. But the past is a curse, binding your soul. It’s time. Wake to your fate. Rise to your destiny.

Cloud: (In a half-conscious grunt) Reunion…

Sephiroth: The light will lead you. Wake to your fate. Rise!”
Sephiroth’s mentions of Cloud hiding under an illusion and repressing his memories are no doubt allusions to Cloud’s past, which was complicated and darkened by Hojo’s experiments. It makes sense, then, that Cloud responds with “Reunion”. Fatal Calling indeed focuses on Cloud’s relationship to his past, his identity and Sephiroth. Everything involving Nibelheim —where everything started—, Sephiroth’s manipulation, and Hojo’s experiments are on the table. Also noteworthy if not out of place is Sephiroth’s evocation of fate.
Cloud enters a battle with Sephiroth with the help of Wol and Echo, who are surprised to see him back in Palamecia. Cloud tells them about the orb seen floating along with him in the opening cutscene: though he calls it a materia, he doesn’t know how or when he acquired it. Based on his behavior, it appears that Cloud remembers just as little about the events of OG as he did by the end of Eclipse Contact. Wol informs Cloud that whoever he heard speaking to him on his way here was probably Vox pretending to be Sephiroth.
As the group advances, Cloud recalls Midgar and decides they should go there next. At one of Midgar’s mako reactors, the group encounters Sephiroth, who speaks to himself:
“It's still not enough. This... this is but a pale imitation of the power I desire.”
Once Sephiroth has disappeared, Cloud explains what he remembers: Sephiroth was the greatest SOLDIER of all and a hero to Cloud, though Cloud can’t remember what exactly ended this admiration. As players of FFVII OG, we know the event in question is the Nibelheim incident, wherein Sephiroth slaughtered the town’s residents, including Cloud’s mother, after learning of his past. The former war hero also severely injured Tifa, whom Cloud presumed dead when he found her in the old mako reactor with a vicious slash on her chest. Cloud is agitated by the gaps in his memory, so the group resolves to follow Sephiroth for answers. When they find him again, Sephiroth causes Cloud to experience a piercing headache with the mere mention of the Reunion. They fight, but Sephiroth is too powerful— he skewers Cloud with the masamune and taunts his unconscious body:
“Sephiroth: A puppet. I won’t kill you. Not yet. Not until you know true despair.
Wol: If you want despair, we got plenty to go around. Palamecia’s full of it.
Sephiroth: Yes, this planet knows suffering. But it is not the world that was promised to me. I must go home. Tell Cloud, if he wants to see me again, he should face his memories. I will await him there, in the land of memory, where it all began. In Nibelheim.”
Sephiroth darkens Cloud’s materia, turning it black. Later, Wol explains to Cloud that Sephiroth stole the light from his materia, taking Cloud’s strength along with it.
Once Cloud has woken up, the group travels to Nibelheim to uncover the truth about Cloud’s memories. Cloud slowly gathers pieces of his past, shown to the player as titled, diary-like text written from various perspectives. Cloud learns the truth about SOLDIER, Jenova cells, Sephiroth, and what happened in Nibelheim. Let’s examine a few of these diary entries:
“A Warrior’s Tale: There's a girl in Nibelheim I think about. Warm. Cheerful. More grown-up than a child. Haven't talked to her much, but she seems nice. She's going to be leading the SOLDIERs to the mountain reactor. Maybe if I get into the survey team I'll get a chance to talk to her? Nah. She's out of my league.”
Young Cloud’s crush on Tifa is on full display! This must be a memory from his time as an infantryman accompanying Zack and Sephiroth to Nibelheim.
“Tale of the Nameless: I drift along in the mako, asleep. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Give me a number. I… I… I am… The Reunion. The Reunion must happen.”
This entry could be taken from any one of the Nibelheim survivors’ perspectives, as they were all bathed in mako and turned into Sephiroth clones. I would venture to say this is Cloud’s perspective though, given the reference to this iconic line from OG:
“Cloud: Professor... please give me a number. Please, Professor...
Hojo: Shut up, miserable failure.” (disk 2, chapter 2).
The trio encounters Sephiroth near the old Mt. Nibel mako reactor. Because Sephiroth stole the light from his materia earlier, Cloud goes into the confrontation already drained of his strength. However, when Cloud lifts the materia in his hand, it lights up and creates rainbow ripples in the air around him, similar to those seen in Eclipse Contact and Rebirth. Cloud is healed of his injuries: he closes his eyes for a moment, wearing a peaceful expression. Sephiroth is displeased, but recovers quickly:
“Sephiroth: The guiding light… it healed you.

Wol: […] here, near the mako reactor, the materia regained its light. And your strength returned […]. [Sephiroth]’s here so he can steal the power you've stored inside that materia.

Sephiroth, with a short laugh: I have all the power I need. Cloud. What strength you’ve regained is yours. Use it to fight me. It’s time. Let’s decide this, in this land lost to despair. The prize is home. The Promised Land. There to answer the call of destiny.”
With this second evocation of fate, Sephiroth disappears.
Cloud, Wol and Echo find Sephiroth at the Northern Crater. He mocks Cloud for believing the orb in his possession is materia. Sephiroth waves a hand and his signature black and purple fog surrounds Cloud, immobilizing him. Sephiroth claims that the power Cloud regained at the Mt. Nibel reactor was Sephiroth’s all along. Now that it courses through Cloud’s veins, Sephiroth controls him. He calls Cloud his puppet and finishes with the following before the two vanish, leaving Wol and Echo alone:
“Now, let us return. Back to the Promised Land. The time of the Reunion has come.”
After Cloud finally breaks free and defeats Sephiroth with the help of Wol and Echo, the villain makes a final threat:
“Very good, Cloud. You’ve destroyed an illusion. But the time will come to abandon your illusions and face reality. Then, you will know true pain.”
Sephiroth disappears for the last time, his body surrounded by his signature dark fog and the rainbow ripples. A piano rendition of Tifa’s theme begins. Cloud’s orb rises into the air and becomes a crystal, with the same shape and glow as the one we see in Eclipse Contact. The following dialogue is illuminating:
“Cloud: I will fight. The light will lead me where I need to go.

Wol: You sure? Wasn’t that [crystal] Sephiroth’s?

Cloud: I heard Sephiroth's voice, at the end. Inside me. Whatever he put in me, it’s still in there. Someday I’ll settle that score. If I can't avoid destiny, I might as well face it head-on.

Wol: Yeah. That was quite a speech, Cloud. Surprised you made it through without laughing.

Cloud: Yeah, forget I said it. I will too.

Echo: Forgetting won’t make it go away. Even if the words fade from memory, your dream will never disappear. Not until it becomes real.“

The crystal shines as though in response.

“Echo: See? See, that's how the light of hope works. Hope can turn your dreams into reality.

Cloud: Yeah. I guess so. I might forget this world, but I won’t forget hope. And my reality, that’s for me to live.”
Tifa’s theme ends. Cloud approaches the crystal, and disappears in a beam of blinding light. Once Cloud has vanished with the crystal, Aerith’s theme begins playing. A few pale feathers with a slight orange tint (the color of MFF) float down onto the floor where he stood seconds before. The image fades to black. The credits roll, and Aerith’s theme continues all the way through.
Once both the final name in the credits and Aerith’s theme fade, we’re surprised by a sudden, troubling image: Sephiroth appears in a frightening flash, standing amidst the flames of Nibelheim. When his image fades to black, the collaboration title *“Final Fantasy VII x Mobius Final Fantasy”*appears on the screen. The FFVII title is surrounded by the 1997 meteor logo. Then, a flash of light: the titles reappear, except this time, they read “Final Fantasy VII REMAKE x Mobius Final Fantasy”. The new Remake Meteor logo replaces the 1997 version. As soon as these changes to the FFVIItitle and meteor logo occur, Aerith’s theme returns. It plays on until the game ends a few seconds later, the screen fading to black.
III. e) ii. 2) Fact Analysis
The introduction cutscene shows that MFF Cloud travelled from Eclipse Contact to Fatal Calling via Lifestream. It’s unclear how much time has passed in between, but the atemporal nature of the Lifestream makes the question irrelevant. My theory that MFF Cloud has died is corroborated by the way he’s depicted in the opening cutscene: his eyes are closed and his body is limp as the Lifestream carries him.
Eclipse Contact ended with Echo’s claim that Cloud will face his true self and confront his past while he journeys to his Promised Land. This description resembles what Cloud experienced in the OG Lifestream sequence (disk 2, chapter 8). Indeed, Fatal Calling revolves around the same topics the Lifestream sequence addresses: the truth about the Nibelheim incident, Hojo’s experiments, young Cloud’s crush on Tifa, etc. The opening cutscene shows Cloud being transported to his Promised Land and facing his past on the way there, just like Echo said he would.
Let’s now take a long detour to examine the song that plays during the opening cutscene of Fatal Calling: “The Promised Land” theme from Advent Children. The title and general subject of this song are obviously relevant to the cutscene, but there must be more to its inclusion than that. Perhaps the lyrics can help us understand its appearance in the opening cutscene of Fatal Calling. Here are the unofficial English lyrics (translated from the original Japanese lyrics by an anonymous fan and verified by me via DeepL):
“Why do we cling together?
Why do we give punishment to lesser hearts?
The planet did not forgive us
Did not forgive us
The planet did not forgive us
Did not forgive us
The pulse of veins flows through the earth
A faint, faint pulse
Of a heart drawn to death
A gentle life returns to the planet
Is it necessary to sacrifice souls?
Why do we cling together?
Why do we beg for forgiveness
In the Promised Land?” (“‘The Promised Land’ (theme)” by Final Fantasy Wiki).
The song appears to be a regretful lament of human behavior, expressed by the repetition of “Why do we […]?” questions. The behaviors listed are all typically human ones: the terms “[clinging] together” and “[giving] punishment to [the] lesser” express the uniquely human nature of tribalism and the consequences of the fear and hatred it can generate, and “[begging] for forgiveness in the Promised Land” is likely a reference to the human hypocrisy of only feeling sorry for one’s crimes when judgement day arrives. This last line describes a scenario where someone remains passive or ignorant in the face of something important, only to realize its essentiality once it’s too late. The repeated“The planet did not forgive us” lines reflect the fear of being condemned forever because of one’s mistakes, as though the planet is a deity one has sinned against. The lyric describing a pulse in the earth is obviously about the planet being alive— a reference to the Lifestream. But the pulse is faint and weak and the planet is dying, perishing because of mankind’s greed. This is an indictment of mako energy. The line “A gentle life returns to the planet” refers to an innocent’s soul returning to the Lifestream after death, while the next lyric “Is it necessary to sacrifice souls?” protests the “sacrifice” of the planet’s soul energy for mako production. In all this darkness, this song’s mention of “forgiveness in the Promised Land” leaves a modicum of hope for a better place, however meek, even though mankind might not deserve it. The song “The Promised Land” is both a lament of mankind’s ways and a plea for mercy, with religious and/or spiritual undertones. The song’s themes seem to be: the Promised Land itself, regret and shame, the sins and foolishness of mankind, the death of innocents, grief, Cetra spirituality, and a meek, quiet hope despite it all. The most interesting aspect of the song is its antithetical portrayal of death as a thing of both despair and hope, condemnation and salvation, cruelty and mercy, suffering and relief. Maybe we can glean more information about this theme’s significance in the world of FFVII if we examine the contexts in which it appears.
Importantly, the song plays in Marlene’s introductory narration of Advent Children, meaning its themes are related or similar to the film’s. I highly recommend listening and watching it again, even if you remember this iconic segment. Marlene references Aerith’s sacrifice as the image of Cloud lowering her into the water is shown. Note that Marlene says “Sadness was the price to see it end” (2:36) after we are shown Aerith’s death and her subsequent unleashing of the Lifestream (1:49-2:24): Aerith’s innocent life was sacrificed for the planet’s survival. The lyrics “A gentle life returns to the planet” and “Is it necessary to sacrifice souls?” suit Aerith’s situation quite well.
The theme also plays in Advent Children as Kadaj dies in Cloud’s arms (1:45:00-1:47:55), hearing Aerith’s gentle voice and reaching up to take her invisible hand. Here is what Aerith says to him in his dying moments as “The Promised Land” plays:
“Aerith’s voice: Kadaj?

Kadaj: Huh?

The dark sky has gone with Sephiroth. Healing rain starts falling from bright clouds. The rain no longer hurts Kadaj.

Aerith’s voice: You don’t have to hang on any longer.

Kadaj: Mother! Is that…?

Aerith’s voice: Everyone’s waiting, if you’re ready.

Kadaj nods his head slightly in acceptance. He holds out his hand, and slowly evaporates into the Lifestream. Cloud watches […]” (Advent Children).
Kadaj is brought into the Lifestream by Aerith as she provides rain from the Lifestream. All those with geostigma are healed by the rain, and Tifa feels Aerith’s presence as the party celebrates:
“Tifa, looking out at the falling rain […]: Somehow, I knew you were there. Thank you” (Advent Children).
Cloud stands in the rain with a smile —his first in the whole film—, closes his eyes and basks in Aerith’s healing with his face upturned. He is finally at peace:
“Cloud’s expression is one of peace as the [Lifestream] rain patters against him” (Final Fantasy VII Advent Children English script, “[83] Atop the Shinra Building”).
One thing is clear: the track “The Promised Land” accompanies Aerith. It only makes sense, since we’ve seen overwhelming evidence that she is Cloud’s Promised Land, and since she occupies the Lifestream —which some consider the Promised Land as it is where souls go after death— during the events of Advent Children. Note that when the piece plays, Cloud is shown either mourning Aerith and releasing her into the river at the Cetra capital, or basking in her presence, smiling with relief at the peaceful feeling that she’s somewhere near: these two opposing scenes reflect the song’s antithetical portrayal of death.
Additionally, the song’s themes of regret, shame concerning one’s sins and a small hope perfectly describe Cloud’s character arc and feelings in Advent Children. Cloud regrets his inability to save Aerith, which he considers a sin. Further, he only realized how important she is to him once it was too late to tell her. And of course, he harbors a fragile yet important hope that he’ll be reunited with her in the Promised Land:
“‘Can sins ever be forgiven?’ — Cloud asks this to Vincent, who mutters a brief answer. For both of them, ‘I couldn't protect my loved one’ is the sense of guilt that they carry, so their words resonate with weight” (FFVII 10th Anniversary Ultimania Revised Edition, “Chapter 2: Character in FFVIIWorld”, “Vincent Valentine”, “In Advent Children”, page 72).

"’It is my sin that I couldn't protect my loved one’ — under this assumption, Cloud closes off his heart. What will the reunion with Aerith bring him? ‘I... think I want to be forgiven. Yeah, I just want to be forgiven’” (FFVII 10th Anniversary Ultimania Revised Edition, “Chapter 2: Character in FFVIIWorld”, “Cloud Strife”, “In Advent Children”, page 40).
“Cloud, after seeing Aerith’s hand reach for him through the Lifestream: … I think I'm beginning to understand.

Tifa: What?

Cloud: An answer from the Planet… the Promised Land... I think I can meet her... there” (disk 3, chapter 3).
Just as the song and Marlene express in the introduction of the film, Aerith was innocent, and her sacrifice generated great grief. Cloud finally experiences peace when he feels her presence in the healing rain, and he smiles: he’s glad to be with her again, even if it’s only for a brief moment of tangential respite.
The scene depicts Aerith guiding Kadaj into the Lifestream as the song plays, tying her to the concept and theme song of the Promised Land once more. This connection is later solidified by Tifa’s thanks to the late flower girl. All of this evidence shows us that this musical theme is intimately linked to Aerith, as it never plays in her absence. After all, the song speaks of sins, the death of innocents, forgiveness, grief, a small sense of hope, regret and the afterlife: all themes relevant to Cloud’s feelings surrounding Aerith’s death in and outside of Advent Children.
The Remake OST also includes a version of this piece called “The Promised Land - Cycle of Life”. This iteration of the theme begins playing in the wake of the first bombing mission, right after Sephiroth taunts Cloud with his mother’s dying words in Sector 8 (chapter 2). Sephiroth appears to Cloud surrounded by flames, evoking the Nibelheim massacre, and the theme begins playing in the background once he disappears, continuing (13:17-15:30) as Cloud walks through the sector, encountering fires and destruction all around him. This version of the Promised Land theme is meant to emphasize the deaths of the innocent Nibelheim townsfolk and the innocents in Sector 8. This dreadful atmosphere is amplified by the cries of despair that ring all around as Cloud passes by NPC Sector 8 residents. Perhaps the themes of tribalism and mankind’s sin are relevant to this scene as well, since Shinra and Avalanche are two distinct and warring groups whose quarrels, regardless of their necessity, result in the deaths of innocents. The theme of guilt also emerges, reflecting the Avalanche members’ feelings upon seeing the unintended collateral damage of the explosion. “The Promised Land - Cycle of Life” plays until Cloud encounters Aerith on Loveless. So it seems in this scenario, the heavy weight of death and despair is lifted when Cloud meets the lively, cheery Aerith. Once more, Aerith is central to the musical theme of the Promised Land, as well as to the concept itself.
I also noticed that a version of the song plays as Cloud and the party ready to enter the Forgotten Capital to save Aerith in Rebirth’s chapter 14: it truly adds the weight of her upcoming death to the scene.
Back to Fatal Calling, the scene where Cloud regains his strength is quite mysterious. Wol says Cloud’s orb regained its “guiding light” light because of its proximity to the mako reactor. In the moment his strength is replenished, Cloud is shown tilting his head back and closing his eyes: this is reminiscent of the scene in Advent Children when he stands under Aerith’s healing Lifestream rain, feeling at peace. The rainbow ripples shining from the orb indicate that something is crossing the boundaries of worlds. Since the mako reactor pumps up the Lifestream, being near a reactor also means being physically near the Lifestream. This means Aerith’s spirit is within proximity. In my opinion, Aerith was able to heal Cloud from the Lifestream, just like in Advent Children. However, Aerith is not in Palamecia with him: her healing had to travel there through the Lifestream, transcending the boundaries of worlds, hence the rainbow ripples.
Let’s now address the appearance of Tifa’s character theme in Fatal Calling. Since Fatal Calling is all about discovering Cloud’s past in Nibelheim and then in Hojo’s lab, it makes lots of sense for Tifa’s theme to play as the crystal appears. In OG’s Lifestream sequence (disk 2 chapter 8), she’s the one there helping Cloud sort through his past instead of Wol and Echo. Cloud even picks up a piece of his childhood crush on Tifa in Fatal Calling as a shard of his memory. After all, this crush was the catalyst for him joining SOLDIER, and everything that transpired in consequence:
“Cloud: That was the first time I heard about Sephiroth. If I got strong like Sephiroth, then everyone might... If I could just get stronger... Then even Tifa would have to notice me” (FFVII OG, disk 2, chapter 8).
Additionally, it’s fitting that her theme should begin right after Sephiroth speaks of “[abandoning] your illusions and [facing] reality”, considering that Cloud’s false persona was concocted by Jenova using Tifa’s mistaken impressions of Cloud:
“While being tended to by a station worker in the Sector 7 Slum train station, [Cloud] was reunited with Tifa, and using the abilities of Jenova’s cells, formed a new personality” (FFVII 10th Anniversary Ultimania Revised Edition, “Chapter 2: Character in FFVII World, “Cloud Strife”, “Cloud Behavior Record, Compilation of FFVII”, page 40).
“(Image caption:) A new personality takes shape the moment he sees Tifa” (FFVII Story Playback, “Story Check: Tifa’s Flashback”).

“Tifa (to Cloud): Deep down, you're a pretty nice guy. Didn't see it when we were kids, but...” (Remake, chapter 14).

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2024.05.16 09:25 Strawbbs_smoothie I feel a bit out of place

sorry for novel i wrote- i get carried away sometimes. if you do read this, thank you
So i’ve known that i have DID ever since working with my therapist and getting diagnosed by her late 2023. I have all of the symptoms, amnesia, others in my head with different preferences, being blurry, derealization and depersonalization, etc. (i’m seriously dumbing down the entire plethora of symptoms but you guys get the point)
but sometimes i read other system’s experiences and i feel a little out of place. like i don’t fit in because i can’t fully relate. i think it’s mostly insecurity about us not being a “real” system (although obviously there’s no guidelines on how to be the perfect system), and it makes me feel like i’m an outcast? that’s not the right word im looking for but it’s a similar feeling.
i have parts/alters/headmates/buddies- whatever you want to call them. but i don’t have fictives, i thought i didn’t have gatekeepers for a while and when they come out in therapy to talk we feel like we’re faking because it feels like i (current host) is partially conscious for it, but immediately after the session and we switch back to me being in control, i don’t remember the parts of the session with the gatekeepers, and then the rest of the week we just remember little bits and pieces.
i feel like there are lots of little tiny instances of things occurring that are so nuanced, no one else in the DID/OSDD community could relate to, although i know we’re just psyching ourselves out about it.
i don’t fully understand how two alters (or more) could be in a relationship with each other if they’re in the same body. i don’t think it’s wrong at all, but since i haven’t experienced it i don’t understand it no matter how many posts i look at to have it explained. same thing with fictives. i know what they are, and how an alter like that can manifest, but i don’t understand how a fictive couldn’t understand that they’re not in the universe their source material is from- again, because i haven’t experienced it myself.
i see some systems who have alters that are stuck in time- like 2014 or 1999, and end up coming back from dormancy, and get freaked out. i only had that happen once, but it wasn’t time related- we had an episode of thinking nothing was real and was traumatized by it since it was drug induced. i can’t compute how an alter might be completely unaware of something, or only “come to” after years and think it’s still the same year they left. everyone in my system (as far as i’m aware, some parts have decided not to come out yet) knows what’s up, what year we’re in, and the base-line important stuff like our age, name, state we live in, who the president is, etc. it’s just the little things that slip by some of the alters, like a conversation they had when i wasn’t fronting and i come back to the same person and i’m like “what?? i don’t remember that…” even when alters hide things from others, unless it’s a traumatic event or something like that. aside from my gatekeepers which i learned existed recently, there isn’t much we all don’t know has happened. in a academic way, it’s really fascinating, but as a person who sees others in the community experience it- it’s wild in a “wow that can happen?? what if that happens to us?!?!”
maybe it’s because we’re still so new to this and are still working on getting our entire system just stable as a baseline, that we’re just over all uncomfortable being aware we’re all here. as the host, sometimes it’s so alien to remember that i’m not alone up there, but everyone up their is “technically” still me, because they’re just fragments of my ego states. we still have trouble asking for someone to front or even respond, when other times it’s like 40 radios on different stations chattering all up in our head. sometimes we don’t even know if someone is co-fronting with me (host) or if it’s just me, OR if we’re blurry. it feels so muddy all the time and fluid that we can’t tell what’s going on half the time.
i write a lot, so i’ll end this little ramble here, but i guess i feel lost about our own symptoms and confused about when other systems we see “out in the wild” experience things we never have. i don’t necessarily feel less-than, but it feels like we’re just… not right? sorry, alexithymia makes it hard to properly describe our feelings and thoughts. feeling very jumbled at the moment.
for those who are further along in treatment and stabilizing your system, is it like this forever? are we always going to be like a paint palette that someone decided to mash all the colors together- not knowing what color is which or where it started? we’re very confused and almost embarrassed that we aren’t experiencing similar things to other systems while also afraid what we do experience is strange or out of the ordinary…
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2024.05.16 09:25 Proxyhere What’s normal?

I’m at my wits end! When my child was born, I slowly reduced my work responsibilities and eventually exited the corporate workplace (temporarily, I hope). She’s 3.5. Our ‘struggles’ seem endless. She seemed to take forever to start breastfeeding well (months!!) and years to start sleeping through the night. But it goes on… - 2nd Language: She was born in a foreign country where the local language isn’t English. But she’s been going to a local daycare since she was 6 months old. Everyone will tell you, kids pick up languages quickly. She clearly hasn’t. Her English is fantastic. Examples: “Unfortunately, you don’t have any gym clothes” and “I found the first one, but where’s the second and the third”. It’s not always flawless grammatically, but vocabulary and expression is well above 3 yo level. But it’s the opposite with her second language. It doesn’t help that her father and I only (mostly) speak English. Until recently she didn’t even say ‘yes’ or ‘no’ to her caretakers in their language. With some insistence, she now says one or two things in the local language “I have to pee”, “I am done” and “yes/no”. Sure, we’re being patient, but it’s been 3 years! She’ll go to school soon and they don’t speak English there. Already getting her to leave for daycare is a struggle and I suspect the language issue isn’t helpful. - I see other kids her age come up with games to play together, talk to each other. But not her. She comes up with games and talks incessantly (in English) with some adults she’s close to. But at daycare, the most she does is sit next to other kids and play the same game. When I organize play dates for her, she’s very excited but only plays well with kids she already knows. Recently, I noticed her trying to initiate play with another shy little girl and it was the first time in her life that I think she did. Unfortunately the other girl wasn’t too responsive. - Suuuuper negative attitude: What’s the opposite of ‘easy going’. Her. She will go out for ice cream and then grocery shopping with me (she loves it) and then before we’re even home, she’ll be gloomy - “because you didn’t buy me that sugary drink”. I don’t know - it feels like she’s never happy, unless you do exactly what she wants. Then she’s happy for a second before her next complain starts. - Weird regressive behavior: Socially, like going to daycare or staying home with a sitter, she does really well for a few weeks/ months. Then all of a sudden, she’ll become so excessively clingy, it’s exhausting. She doesn’t leave me alone for a second; a few days ago we tried to leave her with a sitter for less than 1 hour and she cried the whole time. She also baby talks and sits on my lap constantly and even becomes completely mute. It’s impossible to communicate with this child, who we know can talk at the level of an 7 year old.
My partner and I had tough childhoods. Our parents weren’t really around or very kind. After years of therapy, we know better. So we really really try with her.
Now when we see this in her, we wonder - - is it us? You never fully recover from your own childhood. Is it that we’re passing our anxieties and sadness on? - or is it us in that this is perfectly normal for kids her age and we’re stressing more than we need to? Sometimes I worry that we might be ‘too involved’ with her (in an attempt to compensate for what we missed our own childhoods). - or is there something special about her? No, we haven’t had her tested. She did learn to walk at 20 months, which is a little later than the window, but frankly she was ‘able to’, I understood it then as really a motivation issue. We did talk to our GP about it about a year ago and mentioned that she’s very slow to warm up in new environments, and he said it’s more likely a language barrier, and he didn’t really see that as an issue.
Please tell me what to think?
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2024.05.16 09:25 pipnina I thought bot "scientist evac" missions were fixed, are they still overtuned?

I did a diff 7 scientist evac mission yesterday, public lobby. I figured it'd be a challenge but I remember there were parch notes a few weeks ago that mentioned repairing the insane spawn rate.
But things went about as expected before the tuning, got about 10 scientists in before the sheer volume of flame hulks, tanks and striders pushed us out of the base entirely.
Once out, getting back in for the squad was basically impossible, it felt like there was so much heavy armor there weren't enough EATs and stratagems to take them. The drop ships still come in with a frequency that makes you weep and the mission goes from 0 to 100 faster than any other type including the still brutal but (imo) much more delicately tuned and fun "kill bots" missions.
But the question is, does it still need tuning? Should bots maybe be dropped a bit further from the base? Should scientists be released with a stratagem code instead of having to stand by doors, allowing us to position ourselves in better spots for defense instead of having to run around to babysit the doors while the bots overrun us? Or is this just a mission we should accept needs a strategy like the old "run away and come back"?
Also what stratagems are best for it? I figured based on the level of death that the EAT would be great since you can summon it so often, you're not at risk of loss of your support weapon as with the many-minute cool down weapons like recoilless/ac/quasar. 500kg is in my standard kit but I can't work out what orbital(s) should go with it as the laser's CD feels a bit long.
At this point despite diff 7 being my standard level those are the only missions I can't complete reliably, so either the mission is still broken or I (and most of the randoms I play with) are approaching them wrong.
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2024.05.16 09:22 ShalevHaham_ Hold up. What is the background music in the I Am Clancy video?

Not talking about Overcompensate at the end, I’m talking about the REST of the video. If you just listen to it, you can hear a melody playing for most of the video, behind TyleClancy’s voice.
I don’t know about you, but I haven’t heard this melody in a TØP song yet. I suspect this could be part of Clancy! What do you think?
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2024.05.16 09:22 ShamPig1 I think I've made a mistake with my maiden built!

Hi all, small bit of background.
Fairly computer illiterate so decided to build a gaming PC for the learning exercise as well to have a new toy at the end of it, not a big gamer but enjoy strategy games. Seeing Manor Lords teasers last year peaked my interest.
So last August I started to read up and started buying components with the idea of having it ready by winter this year (Southern Hemisphere)
I have got everything together and the but of knowledge I did pick up has made me realise I have fallen into some of the traps such as not spending big on the GPU and overspending on others that were cheaper, with the attitude of "Ah it's only an extra few bucks for 4 TB SSD" - actual quote.
Long story longer, my list is:
CPU - i5 13600k GPU - ASUS GeForce RTX 4070 Dial MB - MSI PRO Z790-P WiFi DDR4 PS - Thermaltake GF A3 850W SSD -MSI Spatium M461 RAM - CORSAIR Vengeance DDR5 32GB CF - DeepCool AK620
Pretty sure the MB supports DDR 5 and I have a case also.
The GPU is the only thing I can basically return as I only purchased it last week. Should I go for a 4070 Ti or will it be okay?
Also if someone could suggest some good YouTube channels for what one needs to do when you have it built and turn it on, that's the bit I'm worried about.
Summary, I've drip fed my purchases and made a errors along the way or maybe everything will be okay? I'll probably mostly be playing older games but who knows. Would love to try racing games in time.
Any tips or pointers appreciated.
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2024.05.16 09:20 Marvin_ator 25 [M4F] Germany/Anywhere. I'm tired of dating apps maybe I find the one here!

Hey Hello! Actually finding the right words for this is more difficult than I anticipated haha. I am searching for something serious and long lasting and real! I wonder if I make a post here I get some more out of it than from dating apps. They are just so draining lol. I don't mind long distance relationships as long as there is a want from both of us to get together at somepoint.
So a few words to introduce myself! I'm Marvin, freshly 25 and from Germany. I am a huge gaming nerd and music enthusiast, I am currently even learning how to play the guitar! I'm very animal friendly I used to have a dog for a long time and currently I got my little cat Huby!(Yes I can share pictures for sure haha) I am very into psychology and mental health since I recently started investing in my own and now I have a much better understanding of that topic. It is oh so unbelievably important. I live a pretty stable life when it comes to work and a place to live. I have my own house with garden but it's so much room and so much work for me all alone. This house needs some life with a loving girl next to me some kids and maybe a family dog haha! I'd like to have a girl that understands and cares for me, someone I can be a mountain to hold onto for, somebody I can share my passion and love with. I love spending time together doesn't matter what! Cooking together or grocerie shopping, showering or working in the garden, watching movies or playing video games together all of it is great. I don't mind sharing pictures or face timing at all! To be a bit confident I can say that I don't look all to bad I just haven't gotten any luck just yet lol.
So hey if you are still reading and are actually interested in learning more about me then feel free to send me a message! I don't really mind your age everything from 18-35 is fine by me! I answer as soon as I see it. I got some free time at the moment haha! I'm looking forward to getting to know you!
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2024.05.16 09:16 FancyInvestment397 Is MetaWin Gambling Site Legit? MetaWin Reviewed & Bonus Revealed in 2024

Is MetaWin Gambling Site Legit? MetaWin Reviewed & Bonus Revealed in 2024
MetaWin is an online gambling platform that supports classic casino games, instant-win competitions, and NFT collectibles. Players benefit from anonymous accounts, instant payouts, and high RTP (return-to-player).
MetaWin
But that begs the question: Is MetaWin legit? In this MetaWin review, we cover everything from safety and legitimacy to available games, payments, user experience, and much more.

What is MetaWin?

MetaWin is a popular gambling site that operates on the Ethereum blockchain. As a decentralized platform, MetaWin allows players to gamble online without revealing their identity. In fact, players are not required to open an account – let alone upload KYC documents. Instead, players simply need to connect their wallet to the MetaWin website to begin gambling.
So what games does MetaWin offer?
There are three core divisions on the MetaWin platform. First, there are MetaWin competitions. These are similar to online lotteries but with a core difference – results are determined by smart contract technology. In other words, competition outcomes are guaranteed for their randomness and fairness. Best of all, many MetaWin competitions are free to enter. But to increase the chances of winning, players can purchase additional tickets.
MetaWin Crypto Gambling Site
Another segment of the MetaWin platform is instant-win games. This covers a wide range of classic and new-age casino games. This includes popular table games, including baccarat, roulette, and blackjack. These games are backed by regulated software providers like Pragmatic Play. MetaWin also allows players to access live dealer table games. This offers a real-world casino experience but with cryptocurrencies.
What’s more, MetaWin also offers a wide range of slot games, including plenty of megaways and jackpots. Our MetaWin review also found that the platform allows players to win NFTs. These are popular NFTs that trade on OpenSea and can be won via a lottery-style competition.
Not only does MetaWin offer a broad selection of gambling products alongside anonymous accounts, but payouts are instant. Players can move funds between their wallets and the MetaWin platform at the click of a button. MetaWin supports some of the best crypto wallets, including MetaMask. That said, those looking for a Bitcoin casino will be disappointed – as MetaWin only accepts Ethereum.

MetaWin Pros and Cons

Still exploring the question: Is MetaWin legit? Below, we summarize our MetaWin review with the platform’s best and worst features:
Pros
  • One of the best Ethereum casinos for 2024
  • No account required – gamble anonymously by connecting a crypto wallet
  • Instant payouts
  • Supports slots, table games, and live dealers
  • Lottery-style competitions backed by Ethereum smart contracts
Cons
  • One of the newest crypto casinos in town – so has a limited track record
  • Only supports Ethereum

Is MetaWin Regulated & Licensed?

MetaWin is a blockchain-based casino that allows players to gamble anonymously. The main caveat here is that, unlike traditional gambling sites, MetaWin is not regulated. This isn’t a huge surprise considering the anonymous nature of cryptocurrencies in general.
Crucially, players will need to assess the risks of using an unlicensed casino when gambling online. If privacy and anonymity are important factors, then a compromise on regulation needs to be had. That said, many of the games available on MetaWin are backed by Pragmatic Play.
For those unaware, Pragmatic Play is one of the most reputable casino software providers in the market. What’s more, Pragmatic Play is regulated by the UK’s Gambling Commission. This ensures that instant-win casino games on MetaWin are true, fair, and 100% random.
MetaWin Slots

Is MetaWin Secure?

While some players might feel uncomfortable using an unlicensed casino, our MetaWin review found that the platform offers a safe gaming experience.
First and foremost, there is no requirement to enter any personal information or contact details when registering. Nor do players need to upload a government-issued ID or proof of address. This ensures that players avoid being a victim of identity theft and fraud.
Another safeguard is that players do not need to enter sensitive financial information into the MetaWin website. On the contrary, players only need to link their wallets via an encrypted connection. For example, many MetaWin players opt for MetaMask. Before the wallet is connected, MetaMask will ask for authorization. This ensures that only the wallet owner can transfer funds to and from MetaWin.

The Transparency of Blockchain-Based Gambling Transactions

We also found that the blockchain-based nature of MetaWin is a great safety net. For instance, consider that all Ethereum transactions are posted to the blockchain. This means that players have undeniable proof of deposits and withdrawals. While there should be any issues in this regard, this is a handy safeguard if a payment doesn’t arrive on time. That said, MetaWin payments are almost always credited instantly.

Is MetaWin Fair?

One of the most important metrics to explore when gambling online is the fairness of gaming outcomes.
There are two segments to this discussion. First, MetaWin competitions are backed by smart contracts. While instant-win casino games like blackjack and slots are provided by third parties.
Let’s explore the fairness of MetaWin games in more detail.

Smart Contract-Backed Competitions

As we cover in more detail shortly, one of the most popular gambling products on MetaWin is its competition. For example, an ongoing MetaWin competition is offering a 5 ETH prize pot. Based on current ETH/USD prices, the competition is valued at over $9,000.
But is MetaWin legit? And are its competitions fair?
First and foremost, MetaWin competitions are blockchain-based. Winners are determined randomly via a smart contract agreement. This ensures that MetaWin competitions are 100% true, fair, and random.

But why? Well, smart contracts are executed via the Ethereum blockchain. More importantly, Ethereum smart contracts are open source. This means that the underlying smart contract code is publicly available, meaning anyone can view and audit it. This ensures that MetaWin competition outcomes are transparent.
Moreover, smart contracts ensure that competition outcomes are completely random. This gives everyone a fair chance of winning. At any time, players can check the smart contract transaction to verify this. Not only will this show the randomness of the smart contract but the winning wallet address.

Instant-Win Casino Games Backed by Regulated Software

The vast majority of online casino sites have their games supplied by software providers. MetaWin is no different in this regard. However, MetaWin is a brand-new platform, so it has only secured a deal with one software provider to date – Pragmatic Play.
As noted earlier, Pragmatic Play is a regulated software provider with a long-standing track record. And, as Pragmatic Play is regulated by the UK’s Gambling Commission, its games come with a full host of safeguards that ensure fairness and integrity.
For example, one of the key requirements stipulated by the Gambling Commission is that new casino games must go through a testing house process. Put simply, this means that the casino game must be tested and audited before it is licensed to platforms like MetaWin. This means that all of the slots, table games, and other gambling products on MetaWin are random and fair.
Not only that but the UK Gambling Commission also requires security audit reports from the software providers it licenses. Once again, this ensures that MetaWin casino games are legitimate and credible.

What Games can you Play at MetaWin?

Now that we’ve covered the safety and security of MetaWin, we will now take a closer look at its gaming suite.
We’ll break down each gambling product so players know what to expect before proceeding.

Slots

MetaWin offers a broad range of slot titles to suit all tastes. Some of the most popular slots available are Gates of Olympus, Sweet Bonanza, African Elephant, and Rock Vegas.
MetaWin also offers a huge selection of Megaways slots. These are slots that often come with over 100,000 active paylines. When a player lands a winning combination, the respective reels will ‘refresh’, meaning new symbols will drop. This allows players to land multiple wins on the same spin.

Some of the best Megaways slots available on MetaWin include 5 Lions, Big Bass, Buffalo King, and Curse of the Werewolf. Other popular titles include Great Rhino, Madame Destiny, Fury of Odin, and Floating Dragon.
We also found that MetaWin is popular for Drop & Win slots. These are slot games that randomly trigger bonuses and features – adding to the excitement. Some of the most popular Drop & Win slots on MetaWin include 3 Dancing Monkeys, Big Bass Splash, Book of Fallen, and Chili Heat.

MetaWin Slot Filters

We like that the MetaWin slots department comes with additional features.
For example:
  • Players can easily find a suitable slot by using the filters.
  • Players can filter by the slot type, such as Megaways, classic, and cluster.
  • Players can also search for their favorite features, including multipliers, free spins, and bonus buys.
  • Alternatively, players can find suitable slots by the theme. This includes everything from Asian and fishing to fruits, money, and holidays.
We also like that slots on MetaWin can be played in demo mode. This allows players to take the slot game for a test drive before risking any money. Players can seamlessly switch between real and demo modes at any time.

Table Games

In addition to slots, MetaWin also offers a wide range of table games.
For example, players can access European roulette, which comes with a lower house edge than its American counterpart. After all, there is only one green zero to contend with. The RTP on MetaWin roulette is 97.30%. That said, we were disappointed not to see French roulette or any other popular variations.
Nonetheless, MetaWin also supports blackjack games. There are many blackjack variations to choose from, including Speed, Azure, and The Club. Each offers a slight twist on the classic variation of blackjack, so check the rules and RTP before selecting a title.
Additionally, MetaWin also offers classic baccarat. This will appeal to players seeking casino games with the lowest house edges. For example, the RTP on banker and player bets is 98.94% and 98.76%, respectively.

Live Dealer Tables

Our MetaWin review also found that the platform supports live casino dealers. Just like its software games, tables are backed by the regulated provider Pragmatic Play.
Supported live dealer tables include blackjack, roulette, and baccarat. The table is beamed to the player’s screen via an HD camera. Players make their hand decisions virtually, and then the dealer will action it in real life. This allows MetaWin players to enjoy a real casino experience without leaving home.

Another feature of MetaWin live dealer games is they support casual players and high rollers. For example, some tables come with a minimum bet size of just $0.10. While VIP tables allow bets of up to $5,000 per round.
MetaWin also supports Mega Wheel. This is a live game show that spins a wheel containing various multipliers. For example, if the player gambles $50 worth of ETH and the wheel lands on 100x, they will win $5,000.

Competitions

Another popular gambling product on MetaWin is its competition. As we briefly mentioned earlier, competitions are not too dissimilar to a traditional lottery. But unlike traditional lottery games, winners are determined by smart contracts. This ensures a transparent and fair gambling experience.
So how do MetaWin competitions work?
First, players will need to obtain a ticket to enter the competition draw. MetaWin offers one free ticket to all players. However, the password to unlock the free ticket must be claimed via the MetaWin Telegram group.

That said, to stand the best chance of winning, players can also purchase additional tickets.
There are four options in this regard:
  • 50 entries: 0.012 ETH
  • 165 entries: 0.036 ETH
  • 780 entries: 0.156 ETH
  • 2,000 entries:0.36 ETH
As per the above, the more tickets that are bought, the lower the cost price. For example, 2,000 tickets can be purchased for 0.36 ETH. This translates to 0.00018 ETH per ticket.
Purchasing 50 tickets, however, costs 0.012 ETH. This brings the average ticket price up to 0.00024 ETH. An ongoing MetaWin competition is offering a total prize pot of 5 ETH. There are currently 105 participants, each with varying numbers of entries.

MetaWin Wallet Connect & Accepted Deposit Methods

MetaWin offers a simple, anonymous, and fast payment process. The only way to deposit funds is by connecting a wallet to the MetaWin website.
Players can choose from MetaMask or the Coinbase Wallet. MetaWin also supports Wallet Connect. This means that more than 300 additional crypto wallets are supported. If opting for Wallet Connect, MetaWin will display a unique QR code. The player will need to scan the QR with their mobile wallet app. Those using a desktop wallet can copy the QR code in text format and proceed to make the payment.

Payments with MetaMask are even more seamless. After clicking on the ‘Connect Wallet’ button and selecting ‘MetaMask’, a pop-up notification will appear. MetaMask will ask for confirmation of the connection, and that’s it – the player can deposit funds.
Irrespective of the wallet used, it is important to remember that MetaWin only supports Ethereum. No other ERC20 tokens will be supported. Moreover, there is no minimum deposit requirement on MetaWin. However, players will need to consider GAS fees.

How do MetaWin Withdrawals Work?

  • Withdrawing Ethereum from MetaWin is very simple.
  • Players simply need to click on the ‘Wallet’ button and type in the amount they wish to cash out.
  • The wallet will already be connected to the MetaWin website, so there is no requirement to enter the receiving address.
  • After confirming the withdrawal, MetaWin will release the payment instantly.
  • Therefore, the Ethereum tokens should appear in the player’s wallet in seconds.

MetaWin NFTs

Another popular feature of MetaWin is it allows players to win NFTs. Currently, there are three NFTs available, and both trade on OpenSea.
First, is the ‘Beanz’ NFT, #12022. MetaWin states that this NFT is currently worth $2,755. While there are lower floor prices on the OpenSea website, #12022 comes with rarer traits. In order to stand a chance of winning this NFT, players must hold at least two ‘Reepz’ NFTs. These currently have a floor price of 0.07 ETH on OpenSea, or about $130.
MetaWin is also hosting NFT competitions on the ‘Killabears’ collection. There are currently two individual collections. #9 is currently valued at $3,637. While #2117 is valued at $5,511. These figures are provided by MetaWin, so be sure to check the floor prices on OpenSea before proceeding.

Unlike the Beanze NFT competition, there is no requirement to hold another NFT to enter. Instead, players can buy tickets. 1 ticket costs 0.019 ETH. But lower cost prices are available when buying a larger quantity of tickets.

MetaWin Bonuses

One of the main drawbacks of MetaWin is that it does not offer a welcome package to new players. Nor does it offer any regular promotions for existing players.
Those looking for generous welcome packages and promotions can check out our guide on the best Bitcoin casinos for 2024.

Is MetaWin Legit?

Now that we have explored the platform from top to bottom, let’s evaluate the question: Is Metawin legit?
On the one hand, MetaWin is a new casino site with a limited track record. Moreover, MetaWin operates without a casino license. That said, this is standard practice in the blockchain gambling space. After all, operating away from traditional gambling bodies allows players to gamble anonymously and privately.
Furthermore, MetaWin instant-win games are backed by Pragmatic Play. This is a reputable and regulated software provider with a great reputation. All of the Pragmatic Play games supplied to MetaWin have gone through a testing and auditing process, enduring fairness. Its lottery and NFT competitions are also legit. As mentioned, these are backed by open-source smart contracts. Gaming outcomes are guaranteed for their fairness, and the underlying code can be checked at any time.

All that being said, MetaWin does come with its drawbacks. For example, its gaming suite is limited when compared to other crypto casinos. While it covers the most popular gambling products, the number of available titles is small. This will likely increase once MetaWin forms partnerships with additional software providers.
Another drawback is that MetaWin does not offer any casino bonuses. This means that players are not incentivized to open an account and remain on the platform long-term. We were also disappointed to see that MetaWin only supports Ethereum payments. Those looking to deposit Bitcoin and other cryptocurrencies will need to look elsewhere.

Conclusion

In summary, we found that MetaWin is a legit casino that offers a broad selection of games, generous competition payouts, and anonymous accounts.
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2024.05.16 09:14 Lalitthavertech07 Discover Paradise: Your Guide to the Best 4-Star Hotels in Calangute

Discover Paradise: Your Guide to the Best 4-Star Hotels in Calangute

Introducton:

Calangute, with its pristine beaches and vibrant atmosphere, has long been a favorite destination for travelers seeking sun, sand, and relaxation. When planning your getaway to this picturesque coastal town in Goa, India, choosing the right accommodation can make all the difference in your experience. In this guide, we'll explore the allure of Calangute and delve into the world of 4-star hotels, showcasing the top options available for your stay.

Calangute: A Tourist Haven

Nestled along the Arabian Sea, Calangute beckons visitors with its golden sands and clear blue waters. This bustling town is renowned for its lively beach shacks, water sports, and vibrant nightlife. Whether you're seeking tranquility or adventure, Calangute offers something for everyone.

Importance of Choosing the Right Accommodation

Your choice of accommodation can significantly impact your overall travel experience. After a day of exploring the town's attractions, returning to a comfortable and inviting hotel can enhance your enjoyment of the trip. That's where 4-star hotels come in, offering a perfect blend of luxury and affordability and 4 star hotels in calangute

What Sets 4-Star Hotels Apart?

4-star hotels are known for their exceptional amenities and services, catering to the needs of discerning travelers. From spacious rooms and elegant decor to gourmet dining and attentive staff, these hotels strive to exceed guests' expectations at every turn.
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Top 4-Star Hotels in Calangute
When it comes to 4-star accommodation in Calangute, several establishments stand out for their unparalleled hospitality and amenities. Let's take a closer look at some of the best options available:

Zone by The Park: Luxury Redefined

Located just steps away from the beach, Zone by The Park offers guests a luxurious retreat amidst lush surroundings. The hotel boasts spacious rooms with modern amenities, a rejuvenating spa, and exquisite dining options. Whether you're lounging by the pool or exploring the nearby attractions, Hotel A promises an unforgettable experience.

Taj Holiday Village Resort & Spa: A Haven of Tranquility

Escape the hustle and bustle of the town at Taj Holiday Village Resort & Spa, nestled in a serene corner of Calangute. Surrounded by lush gardens and swaying palms, this tranquil oasis offers guests a peaceful retreat. With its spacious suites, picturesque views, and world-class amenities, Hotel B is the perfect destination for relaxation and rejuvenation.

Hard Rock Hotel Goa: Where Comfort Meets Convenience

Conveniently located in the heart of Calangute, Hard Rock Hotel Goa provides easy access to the town's bustling streets and pristine beaches. The hotel's well-appointed rooms, attentive service, and array of recreational facilities ensure a comfortable stay for guests of all ages. Whether you're traveling for business or pleasure, Hotel C has everything you need for a memorable stay.

Resort Rio: Exquisite Dining and Entertainment

Indulge your senses at Resort Rio, where culinary delights and entertainment abound. From gourmet cuisine to live music performances, this hotel offers a feast for the senses. After a day of exploring Calangute's attractions, unwind with a cocktail by the pool or treat yourself to a sumptuous meal at one of the hotel's acclaimed restaurants.

Booking Your Stay

Ready to experience the luxury and hospitality of Calangute's finest 4-star hotels? Booking your stay is easy, with online reservations available for all of the featured establishments. Be sure to check for any special deals or packages to make the most of your visit and 4 star beach resorts in calangute goa
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Exploring Calangute

Beyond the comfort of your hotel, Calangute awaits with a wealth of attractions and activities to explore. From water sports and beachside relaxation to cultural excursions and shopping expeditions, there's no shortage of things to see and do in this vibrant town.

Tips for a Memorable Stay

To ensure a memorable stay in Calangute, consider these tips:
  • Take advantage of the hotel's concierge services for personalized recommendations and assistance.
  • Venture off the beaten path to discover hidden gems and local favorites.
  • Respect the local culture and customs, and always greet locals with a smile and a friendly "Namaste."
  • Stay hydrated and protect yourself from the sun's rays with sunscreen and appropriate clothing.
  • Embrace spontaneity and allow yourself to immerse fully in the beauty and charm of Calangute.

Conclusion

In conclusion, Calangute offers a paradise-like setting for travelers seeking relaxation, adventure, and cultural immersion. With its array of 4-star hotels catering to every need and preference, your stay in this enchanting town is sure to be nothing short of extraordinary. So pack your bags, book your stay, and get ready to discover the magic of Calangute.
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2024.05.16 09:13 Lanzus Freezes and Automatic Restarts Without BSOD on PC Build

Good morning!
First of all, the configuration is as follows: Ryzen 7900X3D ROG STRIX X670E-F GAMING WIFI (latest BIOS installed, identical issue encountered with all previous BIOS versions) Corsair Vengeance RGB DDR5-6000 C36 Thermaltake Toughpower PF3 80 Plus Platinum (850 watts) KFA2 GeForce RTX 4080 SG Corsair Force MP600 PRO NVMe SSD, PCIe 4.0 M.2
I've had it for about a year, and what I'm about to tell you has been happening pretty much the entire time:
Now the problem is as follows: about once a month, the PC freezes completely at random, with no specific activity (sometimes I'm gaming, sometimes it's completely idle), and then it restarts on its own WITHOUT showing a BSOD (so no minidump...). Just and ID 41. Event viewer does not show anything abnormal happening before the freeze.
First, the application in the foreground freezes. The mouse is still active at this stage. I can close non-Windows application windows and open the task manager, which is completely empty. After a couple of minutes, the mouse also freezes and remains so for about 2 or 3 minutes before PC restart on its own (I should note that I have disabled automatic restart in case of BSOD in Windows). When it freezes, the RGB lights also freeze (probably because Armory Crate and iCUE freeze along with the rest of the apps).
With this PC, I've played and finished Baldur's Gate 3 (120 hours) without any crashes during the game, which I would say is a more than valid stress test. So... it's really a strange problem. Moreover, a symptom of this type leads one to think it could be practically anything (both hardware and software). Today, I disabled the EXPO profile of the RAM (which are NOT on the MB's QVL, but at the time, that's what was available... I think I'll change them) to see how it goes.
Any other ideas?
Thanks to anyone who can give me some advice.
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2024.05.16 09:13 No-Gur-2410 New Here, Advice Please

Hi! New here. Using a different account as recommended.
I (22F) recently met my MM (35M) at my job. When first approached by him, He was really sweet/nice & respectful. After 3 days or so of seeing me around and talking to me, he asked for my number and offered to take me out.
I was very hesitant as to me it seemed unreal. He is from a different cultural background and he would send certain texts and say certain things about me (my looks) that I have never heard a man in the U.S. say to me before lol. After getting to know him a little more, I now know that is just how he talks and it isn’t fake. He tells me im beautiful all the time and how I take his breath away, how he wants to gaze into my beautiful eyes, etc lol. These things are sweet to me but also out of the norm for me so I don’t know how to exactly receive them other than blush and say thank you.
Fast forward, we were planning a date to the movies and a week or so before, his SO caught him in my car. We weren’t doing anything, just talking & he was kind of playing in my hair and touching my back, nothing crazy. We never got to go out as you would expect. We had met up in that parking lot two times. The first night, he drove to my city and all was fine & the second night, the same & that’s when everything happened. Come to find out, she was tracking him the first time but just couldn’t find out where he was.
I didn’t really know how to take that whole interaction and he apologized for it trying to get back into my good graces and told me that he didn’t know she was tracking him to where we were. He said he didn’t know she turned his location on his phone and it never occurred for him to check as he doesn’t recall when they shared locations before coming to the U.S. or even when they first got here. I do want to say that, he told me that this is the first time he’s ever gone out of his way to actually meet up with someone outside of his marriage and that he had never done this before & I do believe it as he is really sloppy and come to find out, he didn’t even delete our text messages in the beginning when we first started talking. For reference, it’s only been about a month and some change since we’ve been talking and engaging with each other.
We kept talking of course, he has sent me money, we’ve talked on the phone for hours some days/nights when she’s not around, he even told me that he’s in love with me. I told him, I’ve never been in love so im not sure if that’s what I feel for him or what exactly it feels like but I know I do have love and care for him (deeply). We connect on a different level than other people I have talked to, he’s emotionally mature and likes to talk things out, he makes me feel comfortable sexually and just in general and I can be my full self with him as with other people I sometimes feel as if I have to hold back lol. Things have moved kinda fast with us but it also doesn’t feel unnatural and it feels good and I like spending time with him and just talking to him about anything.
More time goes by and I end up just getting a hotel by myself (just for fun lol, I love hotels). I did invite him and we didn’t have sex but he definitely made me feel good and wanted. We go to the mall, walk around a little, and I see him that same night on his lunch break at work and we separate. Fast forward some more lol, his SO ends up finding out he sent me money and that’s a whole thing. We meet up a week or so after that at the mall & the park. Those two days, I went to his house after (im really not sure if this was bad or not as I have seen some people say on the adultery subreddit this is probably a bad idea). I go there and again, we didn’t have sex but he makes sure im good of course.
I have never engaged in a physical affair with anyone and I truly don’t believe he has before (bc of his sloppiness) There has been one women he told me about who was married like him & had kids, but from what he tells me, it didn’t go far (not as far as it has went with me). He also doesn’t have kids with his partner.
About 3 days or so after that, his SO finds out through a recording device put somewhere in the house. I can be heard on it of course. I’m not sure if you would call these D-Days or not but he’s been found out a lot within just this one month of talking and even still continues to go out of his way to contact me if not through his phone, through a friend at work or his other phone. We have not met up outside of work after those days at his house and have only talked on the phone or seen each other at work and talked there. We’ve also done a little more at work besides that as well. (Always out of view of course).
Their relationship right now from what he tells me and how we are communicating right now seems like prisoner and warden. There are recording devices all around their home. (He recently found one and moved it only for her to put it back). He goes outside to talk to me otp because of the devices in the home, every time he leaves work she demands to go through his phone, his location is always on, etc. she even came to work one time thinking he was up to something or maybe that I would be there and she would catch him. I wasn’t. (She doesn’t know exactly what I look like & doesn’t know my name). He’s never talks negatively of her and honestly I would feel weird if he did. I do ask questions and he answers them but generally he just tells me that what she is doing is in the norm (culturally, I think?) & even though he doesn’t like it, he has to abide by whatever agreement they have right now.
She’s tried to bait me a couple times. She went through his phone and called me, expecting me to answer but I didn’t and I ended up calling back but no answer and then she called back, I answered and then she hung up. I did think this was him at the time but she hung up right when I said “hello?”. There was then a follow up text (as her, but I thought it was him) saying that “my wife just wanted to make sure I ended things and called to confirm.” She texted me from the app we use and said “hey” wanting to catch him in something (our thread was deleted but she found my number on the app). It was also the weekend and that didn’t make sense to me. (I was also sleep lol). We usually don’t talk on the weekends for obvious reasons and also the weekends are times for myself as me and him do talk throughout the week and at work.
After all of this, we talked recently & I am not exactly sure im looking for a solution but maybe just opinions, advice, anything you can offer lol. I really do like him but I am fine with cutting contact as it hasn’t been that long and even though I really connect with him, he sometimes talks as if he deserves the lack of privacy she’s given him within his own home and even work life.
I never asked him to leave his partner or choose because I know I don’t want that (I’m poly) but I do want to spend more alone time with him and see more of him (he might be moving states, not sure). But, his situation just seems like it might not be setup for us to do that like we did a couple times before. I also tell him that I feel as if there is more he could do as far as trying to see me, finding out ways to hang out but like I said I’m not sure if what we have is even a possibility anymore. I don’t feel as if I should be telling someone how to act in an affair (if that makes sense lmao). I guess I’m just not sure if I should move forward with continuing talking to him or not?? I know he definitely wants to continue talking.
I will say that even though his location has been being tracked & also those times we hung out before, he’s found a way to see me multiple times.
I have seen a lot of people talk about OPSEC but it kinda feels as if he wants to get caught or either doesn’t care which is why he is so sloppy. He has said himself (while exploring his own thoughts) that maybe he has acted this way because he wanted to get caught. He’s told me since he’s met me that he doesn’t feel the same for her as he did. (They’ve been married 8 years now I think?)
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2024.05.16 09:10 nItM98 Time slots for area timed entry tickets

Hello,
I plan to go to usj next month and to super nintendo world in particular. I already bought a studio pass via klook. I also want to buy an express pass but most of them were already sold out for my date. I still contemplate on whether I should buy one of the remaining passes. I understood that I can book an area timed entry ticket once I enter the park and I can even enter super nintendo world without that ticket if I get there early enough and the park is not too crowded. I also understood that the park opens one hour before the official opening hours so I plan to be there at 7:30 to enter early once they open at 8:00.
However, in case that I still need to book a timed entry ticket, I wondered what are the exact times of the time slots. I tried to get information online but it's not written anywhere. I only saw videos of people filming the app while booking the tickets and it showed only the earliest times at their time, so it ranged between 8:40 and 14:00.
I was hoping that maybe someone here knows exactly what are the time slots and what is the earliest time slot that can realistically booked (it may not be realistic to book the earliest time slot possible but idk). Thank you in advance.
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2024.05.16 09:10 Gregory-the-Grey Results Breakdown - Beyond the Gloom Banlist Tournament

Results Breakdown - Beyond the Gloom Banlist Tournament
Hello all,
This past weekend I held the BtG open, which featured a banlist of some of the bigger champs, specifically players could not play Elder Dragon, Hecarim, Jinx, and Sett. The aim of this was to try and promote deck diversity and to see what if they quietly axed the top champs in the game. Let's have a look at how it boiled down. Links to the full decklist and player info spreadsheet and completed bracket will be available at the bottom of the post.
Top 4 ended up consisting of; 1st: MBrookz ( Garen BC, Ashe/Vex, Gangplank/Miss Fortune/Nilah NX) 2nd: RealPrismSword (Aphelios/Vi, Master Yi/Morgana MT, Janna/Nilah) 3/4th: Total (Morgana/Norra DE, Nautilus/Maokai, Poro King PnZ) 3/4th: ABG Rogio (Janna/Nilah, Maokai/Nautilus, Annie/Jhin,)
Some noteworthy bits from the top 4 would be the presence of pirates (as in Bilgewater) with a total of 5 of the 12 decks, and Piltover & Zaun close behind with 4 decks. The main trend is that people did still try to go for decks that are recognizable such as Deep (4 people brought it, 2 got top 4,) and Janna Nilah (same story).
Seeing a cool form of elites that uses 3x Ferocious Fluffs of all things was a shocker, and glad it worked out for our champ, not to mention their Ashe Vex list with NO HARROWING somehow.
Prism's spicy Morgana Yi is a fun deck I've not lost a lot of LP with immediately after the tournament, definitely not (I want to play more Yi but it's hard....) Alongside Total's Morgana Norra Altar to Unity/Wingsgiving deck is a cool spin on the archetype, surely a 5/5 Morgana won't give aggro players nightmares.
Region Breakdown:
PnZ shot down Sand Land
Looking at the bigger picture, the goal of region diversity was mostly a hit, besides PnZ being a bit higher and Shurima being a bit lower, most regions were between 6.5 and 10% showing over the whole tourney!
Deck Breakdown:
You can take the players out of the meta...
Overall, pretty happy with this as well, only 4 decks showed up 4 times in total, most of which are known tourney powerhouses, below that nothing too gross or unexpected, feels like a success overall in trying to promote deck diversity.
Conclusion:
BAN ELDER DRAGON, and I guess the other ones too. Thanks to everyone who came out and or read this, and I look forward to seeing you in the future.
Full Deck & Player Spreadsheet:
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1h6pLdqI0I1FCOEiESc6rRJI6GAJOc-ONkjk4F5WOn_0/edit?usp=sharing
Full bracket:
https://battlefy.com/gregory-the-grey-gaming/beyond-the-gloom-open/6631e7f3d70d0e0775d68f3e/stage/663fa6336428ac10cf1bd41e/bracket/
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2024.05.16 09:09 dwarf-in-flask Origin Gale "ambitious" ending & Karlach: An experiment

Gale "ambitious" ending & romancing Karlach: A test
Tried to keep the title as spoiler free as possible. I had this idea that what if I play Gale origin, romance Karlach, and ascend to godhood? Can I save her then? 80 hours later, here are the results:
Tldr: Nope
Test 1: The Emperor takes the netherstones.
Goes normal until the pier. Then you get the usual scene where Gale stares at the river, thinking about the crown. Game says "It is time to Mystra" which is normally the auto start of cutscene with Mystra. But it gets interrupted by Karlach's dying scene. No option about the crown. Here I chose to go to Avernus with her, which in the end meant Gale abandoned the crown.
Test 2: If Gale chooses to become a mindflayer then give the crown to Mystra, then Mystra cures him. Can Gale do the same for Karlach?
Now, here it got complicated. I think the game was confused. Here is how it went:
-At the pier, Gale looks at the river. Immediately connects to Mystra cutscene. Gale is now blue, in his God garment. Gale tells Mystra he'll be God of ambition.
-The usual bedroom romance end scene loads. Gale is now back to being a human. Mindflayer Karlach is there, tells Gale she still loves him. Gale says, let's stay together.
-Epilogue party. Gale is a blue god. Doesn't arrive with Karlach. When they talk, they say they haven't talked to each other in 6 months. No romance conversation.
Did anyone else try this and get a different result? If yes, I'd love to hear. I heard God Gale can "cure" Astarion but didn't test it myself.
Further ideas to test:
-Let Karlach die, see if God Gale can resurrect. (Probably not, if Tav lets Karlach die and asks Withers for resurrection later, he says Karlach's soul didn't want to come back )
-Give crown to Mystra, see if she does anything for Karlach (Probably not, when did that woman ever help?)
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2024.05.16 09:07 Suspicious-River-767 [online][other][EST]Now seeking Councilors for camp Calligo for Wednesday nights

Welcome to camp Calligo, a scout camp known for its plethora of activity's and facility's. There is a place for every merit badge and activity you could think of. You are a group of camp counselor that after experiencing some car trouble ended up having to call for a tow, but the truck said that due to the weird weather approaching the camp, they can't come for 3 days. You all can stay 3 days right, what's the worst that could happen, right?
Camp Calligo is a ttrpg I made myself with 5 years of ttrpg's under my belt. I have had 2 playtest groups and hope that this group would be playtest 3 in the hopes of making it an official ttrpg. I am looking for anyone, new or veteran to ttrpg's to play.
When: Wednesdays from 8-12pm EST
Where: Discord, roll20
How many slots: 4-6
How to apply: dm me at cassinoman on discord
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2024.05.16 09:05 010100261096l tangina, at nabuntis nga ako.

prior to this post may post pa ako tungkol kay guy
this - https://www.reddit.com/OffMyChestPH/s/LdBK3YlU1f
LONG STORY POST (sorry)
natatawa ako. nalulungkot. naiinis— hindi ko alam anong mafifeel ko actually, kung kailan tinapos ko na lahat tsaka naka-buo!
so, siya pa nagtanong last time kung dinatnan na daw ba ako kasi kung hindi bibili na siya ng pregnancy test. tapos napaisip at napabilang nga ako, tangina. oo nga. parang isang buwan na akong hindi nagkaka mens. tapos right after nag PT na ako lahat faint line, 6 PTs yun pero may isang medyo malinaw na 2 lines tapos the rest faint lines na. nagpa book na din ako sa GP and refered me to do a ultrasound which is hindi pa ako nakakapag pa book due to 6 days ang work ko and supeeeer busy. ini insist naman niyang samahan niya ako and siya na mag book but kako ako na bahala sa lahat.
nung sinabi ko sakanya to, galit ako. minessage ko siya ng sobrang haba nanaman at masasakit na words lol. na kako pagod na akong maging parausan niya kung yun man intention niya at kung hindi niya makita worth ko i said leave me fucking alone, find someone and get a bitch he'll going to mess with! lol
eto ang reply niya na paisa isang text haha — "I never think that you will think like that. Thats horrible way of thinking i never want any side chicks. Believe me i loved you and it is still there because i told my sis too about u that how you took care of me. Fucking you are rude. How many times you attempt to falsely make me a bad person? I never underestimate you but you do a lot to me. you are a short tempered person!"
after niyan tumatawag siya but hindi ko sinasagot at blinock ko. pati sa whatsapp umabot siya na kausapin ko daw siya hindi ko din nirereplyan then kagabi, nagutom kasi ako pag-uwi nag toast ako ng bread tapos sabi niya "why don't you want to atleast communicate?" kako "what for?" sabi niya ang tigas daw ng ulo ko. tapos sabi ko "you know my last resort is to go back in the philippines." sabi niya "no. you can't take the baby like that, i will come with you if ever." which is sinabi niya ulit kaninang umaga. kako impossible, kasi ang ganda ng trabahong iiwan niya dito. engineer siya dito tas iiwan niya? no way. sabi pa niya happy daw siya if ever man, tapos hahanap na daw siya ng house for us to rent ng kami lang. ang sabi ko sakanya "i don't want you to decide such things just because this situation happened. i am fine, you don't have to worry cos i can handle things." sabi niya lang "no."
ayun, nag-usap ulit kami kaninang umaga, at siya pa mismo nag iinsist ng conversation. sabi niya saakin ulit kung gusto ko daw ba magpasama sa doctor humindi ulit ako. and based on him feeling ko for citizenship na yung papers niya kaya sabi niya kailangan niya pang mag work ng 2 years for visa conditions and all good na siya kaso daw, hindi nga daw planned tong nangyari kaya hindi kami ready financially and emotionally. kako sakanya, naiiyak ko na to lahat. na inexpect ko ng magiging single mom ako, tinanggap ko na yung fate ko, nag desisyon na akong kaya ko to dahil may trabaho naman ako at sinabi ko nga din sakanya sa msg before na kahit kailan hindi ko kailangan ng support at kahit anong tulong niya.
panay ang text, kamusta daw pakiramdam ko, gusto ko daw ba dalhan ako ng food, uminom ng madaming tubig, wag masyado maglalalakad and such. ngayon pa siya nag gaganito kung kailan pawala na yung pagmamahal ko sakanya. ako ngayon ang cold at petty saaming dalawa. hindi ko din alam. sa pamilya ko walang nakaka alam ng sitwasyon ko ngayon for sure madi-disappoint sila saakin though right age to marry and build a family naman na din ako pero hindi lang nila din ine expect kung sakali na hindi pala ako mag eend up sa ex fiancé ko. (which is different story to tell lol)
to be honest hindi pa din nag sisink in saakin mga nangyayari ngayon, basta lagi lang akong nahihilo malalang cravings and bugnutin. wala akong magather na thoughts ngayon, sobrang blangko ko.
matalino naman ako, may magandang work, hindi naman ako chaka, pero bakit pagdating sa pag-ibig sobrang bobo ko? sobrang bobo sa totoo lang.
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2024.05.16 09:05 AutoModerator /r/NintendoSwitch's Daily Question Thread (05/16/2024)

/NintendoSwitch's Daily Question Thread

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2024.05.16 09:04 iloveyouusoo my mother is an alcoholic, and I don't know what to do

hi everybody. i apologize for the long post in advance, I tend to overwrite.
so i have known for a while that my mom has a problem with drinking. i remember when I was young, around 11 or so, she made me come downstairs from my room and dance with her in the kitchen. she kept praising my dancing, and made my brother come down too. i told her that I just wanted to sleep, but she insisted upon our dancing. apple bottom jeans was playing and even today i cannot fully enjoy the song because of this memory. this was right around the time of her divorce, so I guess that is when I first remember it. i never really remember her drinking before my parents got divorced.
flash forward today; I am in my late teens, and I go away for college. i am recently home on summer break and I feel a bit distraught whenever my mom drinks, though I have been feeling this way for a while now. it is like she becomes a different person, unrecognizable in behavior and attitudes. the sweet, intelligent, compassionate woman I know is gone, and is replaced with a happy-go-lucky, forgetful person that slurs their words. i can tell every time when she has been drinking, even when she is nearly sober.
she did not start drinking until later in life, a fact which my aunt has confirmed. lately my mom's job has not been so great (something, like her alcohol, which I scarcely speak to her about), and I think she has been coping by drinking. apparently I told my aunt one time that I overheard her being rude to a client on the phone, which my aunt characterized as being hungover, or even drunk. i wouldn't doubt the possibilities of either. she also once got pulled over and fucking arrested because she was driving over the speed limit and told the officer she had a glass of wine. my brother and i were younger and in the car, at least 40 minutes away from where we lived. though i thought that cop was an ASSHOLE and had no sympathy for the young children in the car, my mother was also behaving differently than she would have sober. she got pushed onto the back of the car and resisted arrest. someone else had to pull over to help the officer push her down onto the grass to cuff her. then he took her away in a cop car while his buddy cop sat in the front seat, watching my brother and i. i was in seventh grade, my brother in fourth, and we were coming back from a dinner 'celebration' after some tournament i competed in for the local library. i remember blaming myself for the incident, that if i hadn't been in the tournament and we hadn't stopped for food which i asked for, none of it would have happened. after that, my dad got full custody (something which i learned recently) and my brother and i had biweekly CPS visits. i remember that at the end of our visits, my mom grew bitterly resentful of the CPS agent visiting us. it didn't make her stop drinking.
a few weeks ago, I was at dinner with her, my brother, and some family/family friends. there, I was making snide remarks about her drinking, like saying that I am a lightweight too so she has nothing to be ashamed about. in retrospect these remarks were immature, but I couldn't help it at the time. if she won't talk about it, it's not like i can just up and pretend it isn't bothering me. she got extremely upset at me and held me in the car while she admonsihed me, my brother and family friends in a boba shop at the time. i don't really remember what she said to me, but i told her that i feel uncomfortable when she drinks. the rest of the night she acted extremely passive aggressive towards me; one time i needed to go get something in the car and when i returned her keys, she snatched them out of my hands. i know when my mother is mad because she will never say it to my face.
the next day she woke me up at eight in the morning, shaking my foot and telling me to come outside as soon as i woke up. outside of our airBNB we sat on the porch and she told me of how she thinks her life is a failure and how she has tried every coping method there is: meditation, therapy, weed (which she also partakes in now), yoga, you name it. she says that therapy has not worked for her, and that it feels good to just turn her brain off for a while. then she was saying some really alarming things, like that she could be dead by the time I'm out college like her father was, which made me start to cry. i didn't want to fight with her anymore, i just wanted my mom back.
anyway, cut forward a few weeks and i am here, back at home, witnessing what i have missed firsthand. today, she was drinking by around 4. i left the house around 2 and by the time i came back, i knew she had a drink. then around 5 i left to hang out with my friend. i opened her door to give her back something of hers i had, and her face was in her hands, her arms on the desk. when she heard me come in she perked up and asked me what's up, and i felt heartbroken. i didn't ask her about it, i just played it off like i hadn't noticed and happily accepted the refuge of my friend's car. but after speaking with my aunt, brother, and dad about it, i feel more worried than before. i think my mother's drinking is getting in the way of her work, and it is getting in the way of her life. she told me she is miserable. i don't know how i can help her. i can only watch. and the worst part is, my brother is alone while i am at college and must witness everything by himself. we at least had each other before, but now i am away half the year.
I'm thinking of going to my local AL-Anon meetings, because it is really bothering me now. i don't know if my words will mean anything to her about this, i think they will only cause her shame which will lead her into drinking. i am not sure why i wrote this whole thing out, but it has made me feel a bit better, even if nobody reads it. thank you to anyone that has read, this subreddit makes me feel less alone in my experiences <3
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