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This is the last episode of the first half of the season with the actors for young Rhaenyra and Alicent and it ends in both a fantastic way and absolutely stupid and odd way all at the same time. This is one of the more dissected episodes in discussion but still felt like sharing:
-First point is how the hell is Daemon complaining about lady Rhea when she is absolutely gorgeous and a total badass with her armor. If there was a character I wish we could see more of it was her, just because of how she verbally obliterates Daemon in the few minutes. Her death being caused by Daemon is an odd point, it’s one of the things that he actually didn’t do in the book though I could see his character doing, but still just felt unnecessary as they could have just mentioned that lady Rhea passed away in passing dialogue. I don’t know, as someone who wants as close an adaptation as possible I just don’t see the reason especially after a certain change I absolutely despise some episodes later but we will get there eventually and I will just leave it at odd.
-The scene between Alicent and Otto was really emotional. At this point Alicent is still trying to stay convinced she did the right thing, and the actress does such a great job but Otto tells her the hard truth that no matter how much she may try to ignore the succession issue, it’s not simple matter of dinner table politics but a matter of life or death for her children and stability of the realm. She clearly needed to have it said out loud in this blunt way to truly encapsulate what is at stake and the actress just does a phenomenal job. That scene captures perfectly a lot of the spirit of Team Green and why we support the rightful king.
-The whole power move of Corlys making the king walk all the way to him while he sat on the driftwood throne was pretty cold and so disrespectful but again the actor just Carries that aura of power that it just seems natural. Even when he does bend to Viserys, he is still the “gravity” of the scene. One small nitpick that gets me is how they constantly talk about how it’s time to unite the two great Valyrian Houses, but this isn’t a first time thing, like Velaryons have married Targaryens before many times including during the dynasty. Obviously it makes sense to keep the ties close but just the way they mention the idea, they make it sound like it’s never be done before which annoys me. I don’t know maybe I’m the only one. Still just a slight nitpick. Also I do like how they actually discuss the surname issue of would Rhaenyra’s heir would go by Targaryen or Velaryon. It makes sense they go with the former since they are the upper house, but still an odd thing that’s it’s never mentioned in the literal historical book that is all about showing and analyzing these small facts.
-Ser Criston offers Rhaenyra to escape and go to Essos leaving it all behind. While this is definitely a bit naive, it’s clear he is trying to cope with his mistake by wrapping it under a blanket of romanticism. When Rhaenyra just shows that it will never happen and this is basically a fling for her, a very likely a childish game, it just sets on him the full weight of what he did. The actor just perfectly captures the level of regret, shame, anger, disappointment, heartbreak and loss of self the character is experiencing. He isn’t a second or third son of some great House, this position is literally all he had and he betrayed it. Rhaenyra doesn’t understand the full weight of this and instead just doubles down on how her future husband will still allow her game, just frustrating him even more. If he had been caught he could have ended like Lucamore Strong or worse. Again some of Fabien’s best acting is in this episode. He later accidentally (I’ll admit it’s a bit funny still how he spills the beans on himself when Alicent was just asking a different about a different suspicion all together) tells this to Alicent and you can how heavy it rests on his conscience. His character will later be paralleled and reversed with Arys Oakheart, a character who also broke his vow of chastity and feels massive guilt over this and tries to make up for it and find some honor ironically trying to become the Queenmaker as Cole would become the Kingmaker which is funny to me, granted I would argue Arianne is clearly manipulating Arys while Alicent later on genuinely offers Ser Criston a second chance (I know a lot of people don’t like the Soiled Knight chapter, but I just love POV’s from Kingsguard members and will take as many as I can, even if it’s just one.) Technically different canons, but the comparison is an obvious one that stuck with me
-While on that subject, it is perfectly paralleled by Alicent’s own realization. She got her own father and one of few people she could personally count on despite some issues dismissed all to defend an ungrateful friend who swore on her dead mother something that is just awful in general, but twice the insult considering her own background of having lost a mother. She has to reanalyze everything. Including what her father just recently told her. This is where later we get the iconic scene with the green dress. Obviously I am not breaking new ground by saying how the dress, the walk, the score were just perfect! The way Alicent just coldly and sarcastically congratulates Rhaenyra knowing the truth and ready to fight for her children becoming the green queen. I get why after this scene many fans in this sub wanted more of that demeanor. While I personally like the more diplomatic and sympathetic side to Alicent and have defended some of her portrayal and actions, I must admit I also loved seeing this more hardened type.
-This is where the stupid writing shows its face. Joffrey Lonmouth guesses that Ser Criston is Rhaenyra’s paramour and despite the fact that Laenor and her already came to an agreement of allowing each other to have their own people under the hush hush, this absolute moron decides to engages Ser Criston who could have very well not been the paramour, and tells him it’s best for everyone to keep everything well hidden (he doesn’t know about the whole reveal to Alicent but generally just wanted to warn him for whatever reason). Then Ser Criston beats him to death. Now how will the episode deal with the consequences of this, I mean a Kingsguard literally killed what was an innocent man under everyone’s perception unless he tries to explain the situation which is even more incriminating. There is a nice later scene where Criston Cole tries to commit Seppuku out of shame and regret with the moonlight shining on him next to a weir wood tree which is some gorgeous imagery, and when Alicent just comes and stops him, giving him a new path in life towards redemption. It is really beautiful crafted but because we have that stupid Joffrey Lonmouth scene right before it just makes it so frustrating. Of course this is also an awkward inclusion since this is the last episode right before the time jump, so all the questions that arise are left absolutely unanswered. Yeah you can guess Alicent probably pulled some strings to help him keep his head, but this scene just did more harm than good and honestly should just been cut. This episode was about the final rise of the green queen and the mostly formed factions, it should have ended on that note.
Overall this is one of the weaker episodes so far, despite having some of the strongest and most iconic moments of this season. Again they had a good structure until they decided to add that scene for tension.

My name is Luyan, I was born in April 1970, in the village of Qingtaipao, Jinzhou City, China. My father was an electrical technician in a nearby brick factory. Mom was a farmer.
One day in September 1971, A guest came to our home, whom my father called Old Brother Liu from Shenyang (1). Dad said to mom: “Troupe Leader Liu knows physiognomy, and I want him to have a look our Luyan." Mom was impatient. Dad added: "Troupe Leader Liu is not a stranger, you should be more enthusiastic! he said, ‘He should not have Luyan seen him, otherwise it won't work'.” Mom and Dad went out of the bedroom. The three of them were whispering in the kitchen. Troupe Leader Liu asked about my birth date.
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Note 1, at this time, he was the deputy chief of the Northeast Military Region's Cultural Troupe, about 40 years old, a division officer. He is commonly referred to in this book as Troupe Leader Liu. Before and after this story, I couldn't hear his voice. He spoke in ancient Han; I heard what they were doing from my father's explanation to my mother.

2

Troupe Leader Liu said he wanted to see me and wrinkled the curtain between the kitchen and the bedroom. I didn't see him. Dad explained to mom what he said, "That wantonness he's sitting on, the high beam nose to forehead, is a monk's fate, no marriage life."
"What does that mean, no marriage? He can't get married for the rest of his life?" Mom asked.
After dad inquired with Troupe Leader Liu, explained to mom: "It is possible to get married, but the marriage is not happy or long-lasting."
Mom got upset after hearing that and came inside. My dad and Troupe Leader Liu were talking outside. After a while, Dad came into the bedroom and said to mom, "Why did you just leave!"
Mom replied: "He's godly! Who believes that nowadays."
Dad said: "People can see that, and you're not happy to hear it! He also told me that he was just speaking straight from his heart according to what the ancient books say, just directly speaking what he deemed truth. You shouldn’t be like that! If you don't believe, it's okay to just listen! You come out and talk together!"
Mom followed Dad out, asking as she walked: "What is it again?"
In the kitchen, Dad said to Mom: "Troupe Leader Liu said that his eldest daughter, Jianjun Liu (Eve Liu), is a sky fate (Goddess fate), gifted and smart, but also has a destined bad marriage life. He wants to betroth her to our Luyan; says the two are quite compatible. By tying them together as a pair, both of their bad marriage destinies will be broken."
Mom replied: "Look at his appearance! What can his daughter look like!"
Dad said: "That's just saying, his family is well off. Besides, his appearance is not good, his wife might be pretty!"
Mom said: "His family is doing well now. In this society, twenty years later, who knows what will happen!"
Dad said: "It's not good to refuse someone's offer. Besides, this is just a saying, in the future, the two children will become a couple or not, is the matter of the two of them. Now, we are trying to break Luyan’s bad marriage fate!"

3 Blindfolding

A little later, Dad and Troupe Leader Liu returned to the kitchen. Troupe Leader Liu said, "If I'm right, the boy will cry as soon as he sees me; however, he can only see me this one time."
Mom was in the back, and when she heard that, said, "There's that! Let's try it then! It won't hurt to see him once anyway."
They arranged the subsequent experiment in a whisper. Troupe Leader Liu added, “Then I'll blindfold him.”
Dad and mom both said they didn't understand.
Troupe Leader Liu said, “Oops! I just remembered that I can't let him see me again in the future!” After thinking for a while, he added, “It's okay! I'll arrange for someone to uncover the blindfold later.”
Mom said unhappily, "Why it doesn't matter!"
Dad smiled and said, "We don't understand, but if Troupe Leader Liu said it doesn't matter, then it doesn't matter!"
At that time, I was sitting on the bed in the bedroom; a man came in and walked straight into the inner room. Soon I forgot about it. Suddenly, he came out and walked directly toward me face to face, his face bloodless and expressionless. My mind exploded at the sight, before I could react. He floated back to the center of the house floor, and quickly turned toward the kitchen and out. Frightened, I crawled desperately toward the southeast of the bed, howling!
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Note 3, this paragraph describes the first step of the “Flesh Eye Through”: He approached me quickly, and as I watched, I felt as if the camera lens were focusing quickly, and my head felt as if it were going to explode. The shock caused me to fall in “children neurodevelopmental disorder”. One symptom of this disorder is visual impairment, which the ancients said blindfolded the eyes. The process of Revelation is in section 2.8; chapter 3 discussed more about the process of making “Flesh Eye Through”. Illustrations 1-3, left, are of ancient Mexican origin and represent the third step of the Flesh Eye Through practice, which Huitzilopochtli is lecturing to his godson. Figure 2 shows Tlaloc, whose eyes, in author my own opinion, are the ancient Mexican description of "non-dazzle" feature of the eyes. Figure 3 is a bronze mask unearthed at Sanxingdui in China, in author my own opinion, that is a description of the eyes of the “Flesh Eye Through” as “touching eyes”, i.e., the person who sees it may have the feeling of "being touched”, "being electrocuted".

In the kitchen, mom was surprised and said: "Oops! Really crying! What to do!"
Dad said, "We agreed, you go in and comfort him!"
Mom ran into the house and shouted, "What's wrong? What's wrong?"
I crawled to the edge of the bed and hugged mom, crying. Dad also came in.
Mom said angrily, "He was scared! We were both away and suddenly he saw a stranger. Look! Oh! My God! His hairs are standing on end! He scared the kid!"
Dad said, "Troupe Leader Liu asked you to ask."
Mom asked, "What? Ah! What's wrong? Tell mom, what's going on?"
I just, “Woo, woo!” gesticulated and couldn't speak.
Mom muttered angrily, "Just scared! This can't even speak anymore!” Mom stroked my head, and continually said, “All right! Ok! Tell mom, what did you see?”
I replied, "Man! Woo! Woo!”, gesturing with my hands.
Mom said to me, "Ah! A man came in and then went out again. It's okay, your dad and I know about it!"

4 Marriage Contract is sealed.

Dad went to the kitchen, came back a while later, and said to mom, "Troupe Leader Liu went out and asked us to discuss the two children's affairs."
Mom said, "Like you said, it's not a big deal. How much does he want?"
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Dad said, “He didn't say anything about money! It isn’t about money, is it?”
Mom said, "It's better to ask."
The three of them were talking in the kitchen. Troupe Leader Liu said, "Then the marriage is settled! There's no need for any money. This matter also concerns my girl! It's also my business, so I'll make the law (do the magic)."
Dad asked, "What should we do then?"
Troupe Leader Liu said, "I'll tell you later. While you were discussing this matter, I did something outside. Now, half of their Fates have been broken. The rest of the “Making Laws” (western similar words: to do magic) will be done outside somewhere in the future, might not in your house."
Dad said, "It's great that little Luyan will be able to get married in the future! Good Job! It’s all thanks to big brother's hard work!”

5 Vision Test

Some days later, my dad had just returned from work and was talking to my mom. The bedroom opening in my house is about 6.5 meters by 3.3 meters; however, I was surrounded by white fog and couldn't see them. Mom said: "Eve Liu gives gift to Luyan! Quickly let him have a look!”.
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When I crawled very close to my dad, saw the two toys he brought back: a yellow plastic gyro and a red ornate stick with spots of various colors. As I recall now, at that time, I could see a place 0.5m away and 0.9m in diameter, surrounded by white fog (note 5, this is a symptom of children neurodevelopmental disorder). I could only see half the width of my dad's body, not my mom. It is now estimated that I can't be more than 1.4m away from mom.
Mom said to Dad, "Looks like the kid has an eye problem! Getting down that close to see!"

6 Eve Liu

Another day, I was sitting on the bed in our bedroom, and my father said to my mother with a smile, “The other guy, that who, went to Shenyang and saw the Troupe Leader Liu. His family is doing well. I even asked him about his big girl (i.e., Eve Liu). How old is she!? She runs around, is not afraid of strangers, talks to people when she sees them, recites poems, sings songs, and can-do arithmetic within 100.”
Mom replied, “You still remember! She goes to a daycare center or kindergarten! I've heard that's where people are taught. What does that kid look like?”
Dad replied, "That I didn't ask."
Mom laughed and said, “You hid it from me!" Turning to me and said, "This little man, has a wife in the big city. In the future, after we go to school, we'll study hard and be better than her, we look down her! We're not going to climb up that high branch!”
Dad said, “Why don't you know? I couldn't ask. All he said was that the little girl was so smart, not afraid of strangers, and ran around the front and back yards. Such a little girl! Who can say she looks ugly!?”
Mom went into the inner room and stopped talking. At that time, I really wanted to listen. Mom noticed and said to Dad, “Little Luyan probably understands this! As soon as we talked Eve Liu, he stared and concentrated, listening very carefully!"
It seems that by this time, my eyesight had returned to near normal.
The End

Hey everyone, I’m hoping someone can give me some direction as to how to proceed with a messed up situation.
For some context, my mother has been living with a guy for 23 years, the guy was at one point her boyfriend but they haven’t been a couple for 15 years or so. She sleeps on a couch in the living room and stayed with him because the rent in the house was cheap and she was saving to try and buy a house. They are considered common-law partners.
This guy hasn’t had a job in years and the reason for that is that he hasn’t paid taxes in over twenty years. He had his own business for a while and had other jobs when I was young, but I think the government started garnishing his wages and he decided not to work anymore due to that. He’s old and a real POS. He has been living off of her for a long time but the past two years, he has brought in no money at all.
The owners of the house they lived in are selling it and that situation is it’s own mess. Either way, my brother and her found a house to move into, and explained to the landlord the situation they are leaving. He was gracious enough to let them move in and set them up with a pretty affordable living situation. That is supposed to happen June 1st.
This next part is where I started to lose my mind. My mother was talking to a lawyer related to a hearing at the residential tenancy board for the harassment they have been receiving from the sellers of the house. She brought up that they have a place to move into and how she is planning to leave the guy. They Lawyer said that she is liable for half the dumb POS’s owing to the government and that he is entitled to half her pension. They have nothing shared in relation to debt, they each have lived under 1 roof and paid their own way. The new house also won’t let the guy move in as he now knows who he is and how he doesn’t bring in money. If he is smart enough to go to the courts, would he really have the ability to screw my mom over and force her to pay debt related to his failed business? She makes her own money and does her own taxes. The only thing they are tied together by is the fact that they lived under the same roof.
I appreciate everyone who took the time to read this and I would appreciate any direction for how to deal with this.
Thank you

So this week, I’m going on my very first overseas trip without my mum, as a 23 year old woman. As you might’ve guessed, she’s not very happy about it. Obviously, if I pointed this out she’d aggressively deny it, but… she’s not that subtle. I was invited by my aunt to come on the trip with her family and I happily accepted, as I’m best friends with her daughter.
I knew that my mother would have some sort of negative reaction, so I just straight up told her about my plans. Of course she replied, “What’s the point of telling me? You’ll just do whatever you want anyways”. I told her that, obviously I’m going to tell her that I’m leaving the country, you know, out of respect and decency? Not that those words mean anything.. 🙄 But anyways. Since I told her a few months ago, she makes more comments about how I act so “independent” when I make plans or go out- (I rarely leave the house btw) She even tried to book plane tickets for the same dates so that she could come along! When it didn’t work out she casually said how she wouldn’t want to come along anyways for minor reasons..
It’s all just… pretty childish I guess? She’d never admit it but she’s offended, that I’d have the audacity to go somewhere and have a good time that she didn’t approve of. I feel like this ties to how infantilised I feel a lot of the time.. I’m always gonna be a child in her eyes.. in the worst way. I’m sure others can relate, somewhere! 😭

Okay, so for this post there are a lot of people involved (this has been going on for a while) so I'll list up here who's who. This is my wife's family. I'll be using code names when appropriate:
Father-in-law - FIL
Mother-in-law - MIL
Wife(oldest daughter) - Wife
Second daughter - Sarah
Third daughter - Lana
Fourth daughter - Ruth
Second daughter's husband - BIL
Third daughter's fiancee - Karl
My daughter - daughter
Second daughter's older son - Danny
Second daughter's younger son - Aaron
And me as me
I know this is long but bear with me TL;DR Brother-in-law has snapped the last straw for the family and we are all starting to cut ties with him

 BIL's family has their own side of the story that I'm barely familiar with, so it won't be brought up here. We first met BIL way before they got together; Sarah bought a house as a group of friends with her boyfriend at the time, and BIL and his second wife at the time. We didn't interact with him much. We just heard a few stories about him from their friend group. Eventually this situation broke down and BIL and his second wife left and vandalized Sarah's home on the way out. They let their dogs poop all over the floor, stole some miscellaneous items, poured water in their lawn mower gas tank, etc. He did this to Sarah, his future third wife. We thought this guy was out of our lives forever. Sarah eventually came to stay on my couch after she sold the house. She lived with me and my wife for roughly 3 months. Then she went and rented an apartment a few miles away. No sooner than a few weeks did we find out she was dating future BIL, and a few weeks after that we found she was pregnant. He met the family and stated that he wanted to be a part of it. He blamed all his past transgressions on his second wife. We questioned him at the time if he was still with his second wife. He said no, and that he was officially divorced. My wife looked up the public court records and found out that he didn't file divorce papers until 11 days after we asked that question. A small lie but considering our history of knowing him it was concerning. BIL is a big gun enthusiast. About 1 months after they told us Sarah was pregnant, while cleaning a gun at home he shot himself in the hand. Again, we were concerned but Sarah assured us he was a changed man and this was just an unfortunate accident. His hand healed but he didn't do his physical therapy that seriously so his hand is still kind of jacked up. I feel this is important because he kind of has a history of not following through on what he says. During Sarah's pregnancy we found out that BIL seriously beat one of their dogs back when they bought the house together. We also figured out he diagnosed himself with bipolar, but refused to go to a doctor to get an actual diagnosis. The whole family at the time was distracted by all of this because during Sarah's pregnancy my wife went through a major medical struggle that resulted in multiple surgeries and a months-long stay in the hospital. We were so focused on that the BIL details just kind of came and went at that moment. Sarah gave birth to Danny during COVID lockdown. We were so excited and we all were very active in Danny's life. Time would pass and we just kind of got used to BIL being despite the fact that he often would miss family events. BIL and Sarah would move into a house on my in-laws property just down the road from in-laws house. MIL became their primary caregiver as she could work it around her job and still make decent money. As 4 years have passed my MIL, FIL, Lana, my Wife and I all take shifts of watching their now 2 kids for them, for free. MIL also watches my daughter but significantly less that their son's. 2 years would pass after Danny was born and everything seemed OK. There would just be hints in they way he talked about who he really was. He would say something in casual conversation like "man, there seems like there are too many black people in commercials these days" or "I don't know why we are forcing women's sports to be a thing." Bigoted stuff like that, but veiled enough so there was plausible deniability. I would often call him out on it, so he really grew to not like me. This all changed at his 30th bday. He had a big party with a lot of alcohol and weed with dozens of friends. My wife and I didn't go because we are not party people. Lana and Ruth went to the party. Sarah was also there. During this party BIL went outside and decided to "mud" his jeep through the creek beside their house. This was possibly with Karl but I'm not sure of that to this day. Karl has recently come into the picture prior to this event and was previously friends with BIL for a long time. The jeep got stuck and flooded for obvious reasons. After trying to get it out of the creek by multiple means, they gave up and left it there. I believe it took almost 2 days to get it out. He went back to the party and as everyone got progressively drunk and high, my 2 sister-in-laws Lana and Ruth (I believe) criticized BIL for getting his car stuck in a creek while playing. BIL verbally assaulted them and demanded they get out of his house. They left in tears. They drove separately, and Lana had gotten buzzed so they both got in Ruth's car and drove to my house. They sat and vented to my wife and I for a while, and eventually I offered that we should go do something fun to take their minds off of it. My wife and I drove them to Taco Bell and we got some food and drove around town for a while and made jokes in the car. After they cooled off and were in a better mood they said that Lana needed to go get her car from the party. In a flurry she accidentally left her keys inside her sister's and BIL's house. We drove them over just in case anything sketchy happened but Lana and Ruth didn't want us to go inside, so we waited out in the car. She didn't think it would be a big deal to walk in, but as her and Ruth did BIL immediately got in her face and demanding she gets out or else. Ruth went to talk to someone else at the party and didn't notice this at first. BIL shoved Lana against a wall and held her there. Everyone apparently stood in stunned silence as this happened. He then shoved her to the ground, grabbed her around the ankles and started pulling her across the floor. As he was threatening to do even worse, Ruth ran up and jumped on his back and gave him a head lock. She screamed at him to stop but before BIL could anything about this everyone finally woke up and pulled them apart. Ruth helped Lana up and they ran out of the house onto the front porch sobbing. My wife saw this and got out of the car and yelled at them to get back in our car. We drove up to the in-laws house. By then it was past midnight. MIL was about an hour away working her job and FIL was up in his room asleep. The sisters went and woke him up and explained the situation through tears. They also called MIL to inform her of the situation. He got ready and ask me to go with him down to the house to get some answers. The sisters stayed up at the house. We drove down in his car and when we got out the entire party was ready for us and greeted us at the car. Literally over a dozen people, most of whom I did not recognize started screaming what happened at both of us simultaneously. Everyone was clearly very drunk. FIL looked overwhelmed, so I raised my hands and tried asking everyone to stop for a second and go one by one telling their bit of the story. BIL stopped me mid sentence and pointed his finger in my face. I noticed he had his other hand on a holstered hand gun. He yelled out "You don't have a say here! You're barely even part of this family." For context, I had been with my wife for over 11 years at that time and he hadn't even married Sarah yet and had been there about 2 1/2 years. FIL backed up and told me that I need to stop talking and that I was being a problem. I backed off and went over the yard to Sarah and Karl. I asked Sarah what happened and she told me that she didn't see what happened and that she wasn't very aware of what was going on now. Karl would barely answer the same question. I walked back over to FIL but he told me to back off and that I really wasn't needed there. Admittedly I felt pretty insulted and just decided to walk back to his house and get my car and go home with my wife. We eventually left after FIL came back to the house. We found out later that BIL had pulled his gun out and threatened to kill himself if FIL didn't leave. Out of fear of what he would do, my in-laws were pretty afraid to take action at this point. A lot of the situation was his word against someone else's and Sarah went on a tour around to the friends and convinced them not to take any of this to the police. She then tried to smooth things over with the family and offered that BIL would apologize to everyone. He then refused, stating that Ruth was the real aggressor and that she assaulted him. He eventually agreed to apologize to just FIL for causing a problem and I think some half-hearted apologies to Lana and Ruth. The whole situation was swept under the rug but an unease has existed over the family since then. He stopped coming to family events pretty much altogether. About 4 months after this situation, prior to my daughter being born, he told MIL he was going to bring Danny up to their house so she could watch him for a few hours while he took a nap. His job works long hours so this wasn't out of the ordinary. However, he didn't show up for a while and my MIL started questioning what going on. She called but there was no answer. She drove down to his house and knocked but there wasn't an answer, only Danny crying in the background. She let herself in and found BIL asleep on the couch with Danny actively trying to wake him up. MIL tried to wake him up but nothing for a few minutes. She gave up and wrote a note to let him know where Danny was. BIL didn't notice Danny was gone for 2 hours. He finally woke up, drove up to in-laws house, and yelled at my MIL for just taking Danny without informing him. He took Danny and then left. A few months after that, after my daughter was born, He fell asleep while watching Danny again. This time we found out because when he woke up the front door was open and Danny was gone. He called in-laws for help finding him. My in-laws have a large property (about 200 acres) with a ton of it forested. Danny wandered 1/4 of a mile into the woods and I believe it took roughly a little over an hour to find him. Family questioned him hard this time but he just recoiled back into their house and didn't talk to us much. Sarah continued to defend him and said it was just an accident. Again the police were not notified about any of this. There was always this idea that if we went to authorities about any of this they would just run for it. They would then surprise everyone with the news that they were pregnant again, despite the fact that Sarah had used the morning after pill. This whole time they hadn't married yet. They announced that they were getting married but Sarah told Lana that it was mostly just to help BIL not have to go through bankruptcy a second time. I wasn't sure if this would do anything to help that situation, but that's what Sarah said at one point leading up to the wedding. About a month before the wedding, however, he threatened Sarah that if she insisted on inviting my wife to the wedding he would demand to invite a friend of his that Sarah hated. This friend also used to date BIL I believe. This was his ploy to force Sarah to not invite my Wife or me. The 2 other sisters and MIL all stood in solidarity with us and said that they would also not go if we weren't invited. He eventually relented and they got married a little before Aaron was born. As more kids were added, MIL's childcare duties got much harder. Eventually my wife and I started paying her (not much but something at least. $150 a month) to watch our daughter, but we also did chores for her, bought her food often, and eventually my Wife started taking a few shifts to watch all 3 children. To date, BIL and Sarah have never compensated any of us for our work. It's a little frustrating but we've tried to understand because Sarah and BIL seem to be bad with money. They objectively make more than us yet can't afford to pay MIL anything. Last Thanksgiving, in the middle of dinner, Sarah and BIL decided to have an "intervention" and talk about how we were not treating BIL fairly. They addressed everybody but really honed in on me specifically. This seemed to be because the rest of the family kind of dance in eggshells around them, while to be frank I'm pretty honest about how I feel about them. They seemed to think I was causing the family to turn against him and questioned why I would do that. I told him he lacked humility. He said he didn't understand. I told him that if he admitted to his mistakes and actually apologized about any of the stuff I previously wrote, instead of blaming everyone and everything else then the whole family would feel a bit different about him. A lot of talk was about the 30th b-day and other times when I just ignored him and how he had already apologized about the party. I reminded him that he didn't apologize to most of the family and he blamed Ruth. He then stated that Ruth was the cause of a lot of the problems at that party. He also made a big deal about how the family doesn't trust him with my daughter and kept emphasizing how he has never held her. We finally tried to come to an agreement. I told him I would try to talk to him more and try to understand him better and he said he would try to come to family events more. He also wanted more of a relationship with my daughter. We left and my wife and I were skeptical but we said that if this is who Sarah really wanted to be with, as long as BIL wasn't perceived as a threat he could have more contact with our daughter. We have had way more of a relationship with his kids than he has had with our daughter so I tried to sympathize with that imbalance. Karl also stated later that having known BIL for a long time, he thought he was very sincere. To date, BIL has not asked or tried at any family events to spend any time with my daughter, despite having numerous opportunities. Now to the current situation. About a month ago Lana and Karl announced that Lana was pregnant. This was a revelation due to Lana having a medical condition that made it harder to get pregnant. A lot of excitement was brewing in the family because of this. Karl has been seeming like a good partner to Lana, and proposed to her a little before the pregnancy happened. This is especially pertinent because Lana and Karl moved into a house together right beside BIL and Sarah. A few days ago they were over at Sarah and BIL's house when an argument broke out between Sarah and BIL. BIL demanded that Sarah wasn't an "obedient enough wife" and that if she wanted there marriage to work then she was going to have to get better at serving him. She was upset and they weren't coming to an agreement so he was going to leave, but apparently he was very high so Sarah refused to give him the keys to his car. He got extremely mad and then got a gun, held it to his head, and threatened to kill himself if she didn't hand over the keys. Fortunately, Danny and Aaron were taking a nap during all of this. Sarah called the police during this whole exchange and the operator heard a lot of what BIL said over the phone so based on that they arrived at the house. He apparently drove away and it took the police a bit to find him but once they did he turned himself over. They admitted him to a mandatory 72-hour stay at a psychiatric ward for a mental health assessment. Sarah then came up to the rest of the family (not me or my Wife) and gave them Danny and Aaron. She then went and confided with Lana and Karl about how abusive BIL had been and how life was just miserable right now. A lot of us, especially Karl and my in-laws, were telling her that she needs to leave BIL and file for emergency custody of her children. She seemed to be listening to us and turning a corner, but inexplicably the psychiatric ward allowed BIL to have a phone call with Sarah and they had a long conversation. Suddenly, Sarah shut us all out and completely changed her story. She started defending BIL again. BIL was then let out of the psychiatric ward a day early. Since Karl was working at the time, Lana came to stay with us and then over at her in-laws. We are especially concerned about her safety around BIL due to her being pregnant. They have since cut nearly all contact with us for 4 days now. They have only told Karl that they were getting a new TV because the old one mysteriously broke somehow. They have continued to post on social media like nothing has happened. They have spent 2 days with BIL's family so we aren't sure what their opinion of this is, though we do know a sibling of his has also told Sarah to leave him prior to this latest situation. We don't know what their plans for childcare is because they are wholly reliant upon us. Lana is very reluctant to ever be home alone. Ruth is as well. There are so many other details I haven't mentioned. There have been holes in walls they've had to fix. There is some evidence that BIL is cheating on Sarah, but that evidence is somewhat inconclusive. The bigoted comments for a while now have gotten increasingly misogynistic. It's a lot of 'we need to respect proper gender roles' kind of stuff. There's just too much and I've already written a book on here. I don't really know what to do at this point. Because a lot of this stuff has been swept under the rug it's hard to tell how seriously CPS or police would take our claims. FIL has threatened to kick them out of their very cheap rental they're in now. Who knows what they would do in that scenario. I know this post is detailed and because of that BIL or Sarah might see it, but at this point I wonder if I even give a shit. They've already eluded to keeping their sons from us in the past and the vibes we are getting now is that they are already doing it. And from the bottom of my heart, fuck BIL. 

Should I leave my partner? I’ll try to shorten it. I lived with my partner and his mom. I went three hours away to visit my sons for a few weeks. While I was away, his mother accused me of trying to cancel my phone line and her phone line…which didn’t make sense because I actively used my phone number (we all shared a phone plan). She was saying she could prosecute me and such (fraud). She was saying I used her name and such, when in reality I didn’t because the owner of the lines have a code and I truly don’t know it. I had Verizon customer service confirm that I didn’t call in and there was no record of it. She kept insisting that I did when I gave proof. Once she told me she could prosecute me, I immediately started looking for lawyers because she was not about to pin this on me when I truly did nothing and she got upset that I wanted a lawyer and sent me a long message saying she doesn’t care if she never sees me again. I was a bit confused as to why she was being this way toward me. I was waiting for days for my partner to come and get me (they were down to one car since he had an accident in his mom’s car, but they were using his at the time). My partner kept trying to make it seem like he was going to get me but he wasn’t sure at the same time because of how his mom was acting. I struggle with mental health as I tried to take my life earlier in the year. She ridiculed me about that when she got upset at me one day (earlier in the year when I lived with her). She told me my attempts were just ways to try to manipulate her son and said I treat her son badly because of that and said that I couldn’t come back because of that. That sent me into a spiral because then I was already struggling with my mental health so it made my anxiety pretty bad so after being accused of something such as that, then having his mom speak to me in a ruthless manner, and then just finding out I couldn’t come back (which was a wrongful eviction) sent me into a mental spiral to where I had a mental snap and tried to take my life again. I ended up being admitted in May of this heat and come to find out I was misdiagnosed and put on the wrong medication which explained a lot. The thing is, while i was inpatient in the state I was visiting my sons in…him, his mom, and his brother dropped off all my things to my children’s grandparents house. Come to find out my children’s grandmother was texting my partners mom and that’s how my stuff ended up being dropped off. The grandma tried to make it seem like they all of a sudden showed up but I came to find out it was a mutual effort thing. The thing is my partners mom tried to have my children’s grandparents lie and tell me that they went to go get my stuff and that my partner wasn’t there when the stuff was being dropped off. The grandparents didn’t want to lie to me and just told me the truth, so I asked my partner about it and he denied it while I was in the ward and even days after. It took me telling him I have a ring camera footage of him to finally admit that he was there. He said that he tried his hardest to beg his mom to let me stay but she refused. He watched my stuff be packed, helped unloaded my things and such. He tried to tell me that he didn’t tell me because he was scared I’d hurt myself again if I found out he was apart of it all because it wasn’t the image he was trying to give. Fast forward, I’m doing a lot better now. I’m on good medication and am now working as a blue collar woman. He doesn’t work at the moment but he wants to get a place together where I’m at. He said he was going to get a job to help contribute to things. I’ve been sending him money and jumpstarting the process of getting the place. He wants to get married within the next few months but I don’t know. Was he wrong for not telling me? Am I being manipulated? Should I drop him? Should I cut it off because he’s still going to be tied to his mom? What would you do? 🥺

I want to genuinely thank anyone in advance for reading this and taking the time to provide any kind of support or advice, as I feel desperate at this point.
For context, I am a 28 year old female. I have an alcoholic father. My great grandfather on my Dad’s side was an abusive alcoholic. My mother’s Dad (my grandfather) was an abusive alcoholic. I just received the news that mother’s brother passed away at 61, due to a heart attack from his alcohol consumption. I do not consume alcohol at all, and I actually believe I have a strong fear of alcohol due to family history and knowing how destructive it can be.
I got married to my husband (32M) in 2022, but we have been together for over 5 years. He is emotionally intelligent, supportive, and incredible in more ways than I could describe.
We both grew up with very mean, alcoholic fathers. Our biggest difference? My Dad’s alcoholism has progressively gotten so much worse and I severed ties last November, after unwarranted horrible text messages from him. I only see him occasionally when I go see my Mom. I am civil, but that is it. No more holidays with him, and no more just “dealing with it and pretending things didn’t happen”.
My husband however, is very close to his Dad, despite his Dad’s flaws. Added context- His Dad “retired” (quit working) several years ago. He was running low on money and said he would pay my husband rent if he could live in one of my husband’s rental properties. He never started paying rent, and my husband supported him completely for 5+ years. Now, he lives off of social security, but still doesn’t pay rent. My husband is just simply relieved to not have to give him money every month anymore. His Dad has always been a heavy binge drinker and smoker. My husband has asked him not to smoke in the house, and my father-in-law did it anyway. He is very stubborn, and these habits contributed to his divorce several years ago. He has ruined most of the relationships around him, including most of the relationships with his children.
Several months ago, my FIL had a stroke due to these habits. My husband and I helped him with preparing meals, doctor visits, and getting on proper medications for about 7-8 months. He quit all of his habits, and even cleaned his house, which was filthy and in hoarder condition. We have been absolutely thrilled with his decisions, but we are aware he could pick up those old habits again at any moment.
He is more independent now and not needing our help as much. Recently, he just told us he is going to be drinking at the next family gathering coming up in a couple of weeks.
I am so anxious, because I feel the drinking at this gathering will lead to smoking, as beers make him want to smoke. I am also annoyed because he encourages my husband to drink. My husband is VERY good at limiting himself, and he never drinks but a couple of times a year, as he is aware of the negative impacts of alcohol. I have even told my FIL that my husband and I argue when he drinks too much, which is why he limits himself, but my FIL doesn’t care. My husband has expressed he does not feel any need to get drunk, and limiting it is his way of respecting our marriage and compromising with me. My FIL just thinks I’m controlling the drinking.
I will not want to go to his house anymore if he begins smoking in it again. I do not believe anyone should breathe that in, but the fact that he would AGAIN be disrespecting my husband’s wishes will add to my frustration and resentment.
He is a very kind man to me directly, but my husband has even warned me that his Dad is very flawed, very manipulative, and plays the victim in everything, and even mentioned to keep my distance.
I guess I am just simply exhausted of always being on guard with how much everyone drinks. I can handle people buzzed from a few and just enjoying themselves, but I cannot handle being around anyone drunk.
Any advice, support, or polite constructive criticism is welcome. I know I have trauma around alcohol, and I am actively trying to work on this.❤️‍🩹

So weird and I’m not sure why although I can speculate. So I came here for a destination wedding and planned to stay for an extra week after to coincide with my bestie and mutual friend being here too. My bestie’s family lives here while our mutual friend has her mother here at the same time.
The wedding weekend was wonderful and we had an amazing time. Prior to the holiday, my bsf was gushing about how much time we are gonna spend together, all the things we are gonna do etc. for the past two days (almost running on the third) I have not seen her at all.
She will message to say let’s make plans to meet but when I follow up, she doesn’t come through. She will take hours upon hours to respond and in that time I am literally waiting to see if she is coming or not (I still do my own things anyway). So I’m just left hanging for ages and then she will say a last minute thing like ‘oh I’m going dinner with my family now, join us’ knowing that I’m not ready and had no clue what the plan was. Almost as if to invite me on a plan where she knows my hands are tied when it comes to preparing for it because it’s so last minute. And I’m not a spontaneous person. It takes me ages to get ready. Now I’ve asked a bunch of times what the plan is for the next day and she comes with an unrelated response without answering my question. I’ve been asking for the past few days that I want to go to the beach and this is the only day to go since there is an event happening that we all spoke about going to. Yet, no response. Nothing.
My mutual friend is with her mother so I get that but even she was enthusiastic about the beach the other day but now is not responding to me either.
So I guess I’ll spend another day alone but it really wasn’t what I expected. Had my friend simply told me she had to spend time with family and wouldn’t have time to meet up then I would understand and not have extended my trip for this long. I just feel incredibly sad and lonely and will probably cry some more tonight.
TL:dr I think my friends are avoiding me and not wanting to spend time with me while we are all here on this holiday even though they said we would spend the whole time together. Feeling like a burden and incredibly lonely. How should I communicate with them about this?

So weird and I’m not sure why although I can speculate. So I came here for a destination wedding and planned to stay for an extra week after to coincide with my bestie and mutual friend being here too. My bestie’s family lives here while our mutual friend has her mother here at the same time.
The wedding weekend was wonderful and we had an amazing time. Prior to the holiday, my bsf was gushing about how much time we are gonna spend together, all the things we are gonna do etc. for the past two days (almost running on the third) I have not seen her at all.
She will message to say let’s make plans to meet but when I follow up, she doesn’t come through. She will take hours upon hours to respond and in that time I am literally waiting to see if she is coming or not (I still do my own things anyway). So I’m just left hanging for ages and then she will say a last minute thing like ‘oh I’m going dinner with my family now, join us’ knowing that I’m not ready and had no clue what the plan was. Almost as if to invite me on a plan where she knows my hands are tied when it comes to preparing for it because it’s so last minute. And I’m not a spontaneous person. It takes me ages to get ready. Now I’ve asked a bunch of times what the plan is for the next day and she comes with an unrelated response without answering my question. I’ve been asking for the past few days that I want to go to the beach and this is the only day to go since there is an event happening that we all spoke about going to. Yet, no response. Nothing.
My mutual friend is with her mother so I get that but even she was enthusiastic about the beach the other day but now is not responding to me either.
So I guess I’ll spend another day alone but it really wasn’t what I expected. Had my friend simply told me she had to spend time with family and wouldn’t have time to meet up then I would understand and not have extended my trip for this long. I just feel incredibly sad and lonely and will probably cry some more tonight. Am I overthinking this?

Her co-parenting grift is working!! Stephen has learned to grovel and threaten and pop pills and conveniently break a foot when things don't go exactly his way to which Laura identifies with "feeling needed, must mother him, gosh he just loves us so much". She's just as toxic as Stephen (and recently revealing she's an even bigger narc than him), so it's all going exactly to plan and I'm thrilled that they've found a way to dupe themselves AND their fans yet again! This is SO MUCH easier than forcing Stephen to be the angry homeless piece of shit he deserves to be while she set an example and gained the strength and made a new life for her and the kids away from him no matter how hard it might be adjusting to that or dealing with his scary wrath. But that was too hard for Laura and things can't be hard plus her fans just LOOoOOOove them together despite the abuse behind closed doors**!**! So Laura, thank gawd, decided NOT to do the hard thing and upset her fans or herself and instead rebrand their toxic bullshit as CO-PARENTING!! Plus, Stephen almost got tied down to two really hot chicks at the same time so whew!! Luckily Laura caught that disaster in time and got him back ALL to herself! So now she can lead him on AND have a boyfriend and he can have Laura and slide into single hot influencers, models, and singers Dms with promises of record deals and tv shows (they are hot and amazing without him, but he'll tell them they can be better) ALL WHILE BOTH OF THEM PRETEND TO NOT BE CURRENTLY RELAPSING in front of their fans! Gawd this is all so cozy!
Their friends and fans deserve Laura and Stephen and Laura and Stephen deserve everything coming their way in the future! I'm just soooo excited for the next seemingly successful six months of collaborations of them blatantly confusing and trolling their fans with even more passive aggressive skits of how AWESOME they are at not being together.
Wait, did they mention they're not together?? Because they're definitely not together!!

In the trailer, we see Messmer waging war against the forces including the Lion Dancer Omens.
What do we know about the Omens and Lions?

• The Omen sigil used on the Mohg/Margit shackles and the Crucible sigil are almost identical
• Mohg's bloodflame seems to be tied to the "Formless Mother", but Morgott can also burn his own blood to produce bloodflame with his cursed sword.
• The Lion Guardians have Omen horns on their head.
• Misbegotten are "blessed" products of the Crucible.
• A Misbegotten fights with a Crucible Knight.
• The boss instance of the Misbegotten Warrior is the the Leonine Misbegotten
• Crucible Knights work for Godfrey
• Godfrey tames himself with a lion spirit
• The Lion Dancers clearly seem to have Omen horns coming out of them

What do we know about Melina?

• Mixing hair colors of Marika and Radagon gives Melina's hair color
• She casts incantations with the Crucible sigil when summoned against Morgott
• She has some affinity with flame and she burns herself
• She was born at the "foot of the Erdtree," with "foot" possibly meaning the literal base of the tree or its origin/inception

What's happening in the DLC and what's going on with Miquella?

• The story trailer gives the following narration: "Miquella the Kind spoke of the beginning. The seduction. And the betrayal. An affair from which Gold arose. And so too was Shadow born. What followed was a war unseen. One that could never be put to song. A purge without Grace or honour. The tyranny of Messmer's flame. And so Kindly Miquella would abandon everything. His golden flesh, his blinding strength. Even his fate. But we are not deterred. We choose to follow. Will you walk with us?
• It seems Messmer used his flame to wage his war, showing what is presumably the Land of Shadow ablaze
• We know Miquella has been trying to help out Godwyn after his soul was assassinated and he became the Prince of Death
• Death blight, associated with the Prince of Death, seems to be coming forth in the Land of Shadow during the DLC
• Deathblight spreads through black roots, creating Deathroot.
• The Shadow of the Erdtree is represented by a black tree leaking gold
• Unlike his siblings, our accounts of Godfrey portray him as an all-around great guy. Messmer, on the other hand, seems to be unrelentingly cruel and vicious.

How are these elements all united? Here's my thought:
The undivided Marika was a Numen in the age of the of the Crucible and the Primordial Great Tree. She was originally a being with some spiritual affinity to flame. The era of the Crucible was wild and untamed and bestial, with conditions both of great, dynamic life and of death. Godfrey was as a prominent figure in the previous era who commanded Crucible forces, including these horned lions and other beastly creatures. She seduces him into betraying them so that they can bring about the Erdtree and the Golden Order. They burn the Great Tree of the Crucible and release the pure gold within (the burnt black tree leaking gold).
From the gold they harvest from the burnt crucible tree, with the old Elden Ring of the previous god/Elden Lord, they create the Erdtree and a new Elden Ring with the Rune of Death removed. Her heir, being born in the times before the Golden Order is split into two beings, Godwyn the Golden and the red-headed Messmer the Impaler. Godwyn is set up as the heir of the Golden Order in the Lands Between and Messmer is tasked with waging war against the Crucible/Omen forces in the Land of Shadow. He does so successfully, but unlike his golden boy half, Godwyn, Messmer is an incomparable evil and starts commanding them instead. The Land of Shadow is hidden away from the Lands Between and Messmer is imprisoned there. Marika takes away the non-golden parts of herself and forms a male facsimile named Radagon, who goes to deal with the people who are not governed by the Golden Order—the Nox, the Carians, the Sellians, etc.
The setup doesn't end up working though. Her new children are twin sons born as Omens. They were shunned and cast out. They retain the ability to burn their own blood. Godfrey shows too much affection for his Omen sons and loses the grace of gold. Misbegotten are being created through Crucible blessing. Radagon tries to bring them into the Golden Order. While one of Radagon's sons tries to be a loyal part of the Golden Order, he too eventually turns to the primordial beasts and flame via a great serpent. Though Messmer was imprisoned, the murder of his other self with pieces of the Rune of Death and his burial at the roots of the Erdtree allow the blackened roots of the former Great Tree to start spreading as death root. Realizing the horrors of the imbalance she created, Marika shatters the Elden Ring.
Miquella realizes something needs to be done about Godwyn, because the deathroot is spreading and the Land of Shadow is becoming re-anchored to this realm, with Messmer and the other horrors within posing an enormous threat to the next Elden Lord. Tarnished are already starting to come back and trying to claim shards of the Elden Ring. He gets himself kidnapped by Mohg to leave his body behind and use Mohg's burning Omen blood as a bridge to bring a Tarnished into the Land of Shadow to deal with this threat from there.
This is obviously all pure guesswork, but I think it helps us to tie together what exactly we know about the Crucible/Omen predominance in the Land of Shadow, and what we know about their influence in the Lands Between and how the Golden Order came to be. Clearly, most of it probably won't be true, but perhaps some of these elements might be.

sabi kasi ng barangay captain mali daw ako at hindi daw tama yung approach ko sa anak ko. Sabi din ng kamag anakan ko ang harsh naman daw ng gagawin ko sa anak ko. ABYG?
30F single mom na may 14M na anak.
So eto po yung story:
My son is a rebel child at lulong na sa drugs. I tried to be the most understanding parent as much as possible sa kanya and I tried my best to be a parent for him dahil ako na lang ang natitira niyang magulang at wala na ang papa niya.
Noon pa man, I mostly give him what he wants; things, decisions, etc. even if nalulungkot na ako kasi hindi kami tugma ng gusto, inuunawa ko na lang at umo-oo.
Like when he was 7 years old, gusto ko iparanas sa kanya magpunta ng disneyland sa Japan, pero since ayaw niya noon at iniiyakan niya't nagmamakaawa siya na 'wag ko siya dalhin doon (kasi paniniwala niya, iiwanan ko siya doon at uuwi ako mag isa ng 'pinas... inexplain ko na hindi ganun) hindi ko na tinuloy.
Even if these recent times na inaaya ko siya magbakasyon kahit sa Cebu, Palawan or Davao lang, ayaw niya talaga. Dahilan naman niya natatakot siya sumakay ng eroplano, at baka daw mamatay siya (ridiculous, yes. I mean there is a chance that might happen, but the chances are very slim and we know that... inexplain ko ulit pero ayaw pa din makinig)
Basically, kung ano yung gusto niya, ayun talaga masusunod or it wouldn't be a good day for both of us.
I respect his decision but cannot grasp the idea. Since he doesn't want to go with me sa mga lugar na gusto ko, me and my now ex BF na lang pumapasyal noon. Nagagalit siya bakit hindi ko daw siya sinama, I told him na ayaw niya sumakay sa eroplano kaya kami na lang, and expectedly, made me feel like it's my fault again.
Even yung fact na gusto niya tumira sa family ng papa niya ginalang ko din yun. Kung ako masusunod, gusto ko sakin siya nakatira at maalagaan ko siya. Before pandemic, sakin siya noon at weekends dun sia sa father's side niya. Pero nung naglock down, the circumstance po made me more distant sa kanya since doon siya naabutan ng lockdown noon and it took almost 2 years na di ko siya nakapiling. So nung binabawi ko na siya, ayaw na niya at gusto niya siya na lang bibisita sakin.
Ako na nag-adjust, kahit na hindi ko gusto. For the sake of our relationship as mother and son, inunawa ko. I give him what he wants, I did my best to "bond" with him everytime. I am working hard as a parent without being the parent na mataas ang expectations. I told him that bigay ko gusto niya, Pinakiusapan ko lang na mag aral ng maigi. Pero hindi niya rin natupad yun.
Napansin ko na this circa 2023-24, nag umpisa na siya magrebelde; hindi na siya nag aral ayaw na niya. Also around this time nalululong na siya sa droga. Ilang beses ko na siya kinompronta doon, of course, dinedeny niya at nagagalit siya sakin. Hanggang sa nababalitaan ko nagpa-pass out na sia kasi sa sobrang drugs.
Nabalitaan ko din na marami na ina-unalive sa barangay nila due to drug trading issues. Dagdag mo pa yung mga namatay sa OD.
As a mom that is so worried about him. I have this plan na ipa-rehab siya. So nagtanong ako sa municipyo namin at sinabi na gagawaan daw evaluation kung pasok ba sia sa rehab ng DSWD. Hingi daw ako assistance sa barangay.
So nakipag ugnayan ako sa barangay para ma-held siya at madala siya doon sa DSWD. Sadly, etong barangay samin ay ineencourage ako na kausapin ko ang anak ko at ayusin daw namin ang relasyon namin mag ina at wag na daw pahantungin sa DSWD. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang logic ng barangay na yun pero napikon talaga ako.
So pinakausap sakin and of course, knowing his attitude, alam ko na magwawala at magrerebelde na naman siya. Inasahan ko na tutulungan ako ng barangay, pero ang ending hinayaan lang nila tumakbo palabas ang anak ko, despite pinakiusapan ko na huwag na paalisin at samahan na kami sa office ng drug rehab sa municipality namin.
Sa sobrang sama ng loob ko, naiyak ako. Etong barangay captain, sinabi pa sakin na mali daw ang ginagawa ko.
Sinabi pa niya sakin na hindi daw siya tatanggapin sa rehab kahit pa DSWD kapag hindi siya willing. Despite na yung drug rehab office na nagsabi sakin, iniinvalidate niya ko. Sa sobrang pikon ko sinabihan ko siya na "incompetent" siya at mas maigi si surname ng previous barangay captain ang namamahala kasi wala siya kwenta.
now, before that episode na tumakbo siya palabas, nag sagutan pa kami ng anak ko.
sabi niya sakin
"ayoko sayo, ayoko na bine-baby mo ako at ayoko nang makita ka kahit kailan... wala naman akong pakialam sayo, hindi ikaw masusunod sa buhay ko. Puro ikaw na lang nasusunod"
the audacity! sa totoo lang napipikon na ako. Pero I tried to be calm.
sinabi ko naman
"responsibilidad kita anak, at hindi pwede mawalan ako ng pakialam sayo. Bata ka pa, kailangan mo ng guidance ko at eto na nakikita ko na dapat ko gawin para maituwid mo buhay mo."
sabi niya
"wala nga ako pakialam sayo ang kulit mo pabayaan mo ako! kahit mamatay ka pa jan wala akong pakialam sayo. Dadalhin mo ako sa rehab, bakit? baliw ba ako? sinisira mo lang lalo buhay ko wala ka talagang kwenta!"
then ayun tumakbo na siya, actually pinipigilan talaga sia nung una nung tanod pero since malaki sia at maliit yung tanod natakot sa amba niya kaya binitawan siya.
nag decide na ako na mag cut ties sa kanya; binlock ko pati mga kamag anak niya doon at nag plight ako na hindi ko na siya papakialaman habang buhay.
Base din kasi sa barangay at sa anak ko; ako talaga mali. Pero ABTYG?

I dont speak to my kids. One of them even disowned the whole family name legally.
As soon as we divorced you had your other kids dad up in there swiftly and got rid of the last name quickly too.. . He was abusive yet you protected him, kept my non abusive ass at bay with the law, and then made an attempt to COMPLETELY TAKE THE KIDS FROM ME AND KEEP THEM INTEGRATED IN YOUR TOXIC ABUSIVE SITUATION....While ridding them of me because of my toxic ways. It failed because I researched and document enough of your rachet behaviors to keep them in my life. But for some stupid reason I always took your fake well wishes, and word soup at face value. But you were never supportive at all. You just showboated it. Even letting me use the car as when I was working on shit for you...and as soon as someTHING else came along you desired, and feared I might hinder by being a part OF THEIR LIVES you forced me out of their lives... OVER TOTAL FABRICATED LIES, refused to tell me what was my charges against me, and kept me stonewalled for over three years over the lies, AND ALLOWED THE KIDS TO THINK I ABANDONED THEM THE WHOLE TIME we were no contact.
I almost died over that shit. That literally almost killed me. And you dont GAF. Your kids relationship with their father...WAS DEEMED DISPOSABLE BY YOU. It came in last behind your trips, vacays, abusers, feinds that were "part of your friend family", even your style of "open parenting" (aka let them raise themselves while i party, and tour the ether with toxic bunny besties, blasting away the liquid allowances of men with one foot in the grave that had desires of not being lonely and were willing to sponsor "fun lifestyles") (although you did keep them well clothed, well fed, and gave them a great work ethic) was deemed. You decided that their boyfriends moving in with them at your house while they were young teens while you "did your thang girl" retreating, resorting, concerting, and discovering...WAS MORE OF THE SOLID THING TO DO THAN LET THIER DAD COME IN AND PARTAKE IN SOME OF THAT "RAISING".
Am I saying I could have done it better? No. NOT AT ALL.
Im saying you could have been more understanding and more including, and more accepting. You crucified me for the same shit you allowed...REGUARLY CONSISTENTLY FOR YEARS IN THE KIDS LIVES AND PROXIMITY.
Once again Im not saying I could have done it better...but I always trusted you..and figured you would include me with honest intentions. But it was always lip service to have plausible deniability that you held ill will when you came time to discard.
FOR FUCKS SAKE THE FIRST TIME YOU TRIED TO TAKE THE KIDS FROM ME TOTALLY, AND LAYED ALL THE DAMNING EVIDENCE IN FRONT OF YOU WITH "MY OWN HAND WRITTEN CUSTODY AGREEMENT" AND YOU WALKED IN THAT COURT ROOM BARELY EVEN KNOWING WHAT WAS IN THAT LONG AGREEMENT. AND YOU TOLD THE JUDGE "WEVE DECIDED TO COME UP WITH OUR OWN AGREEMENT, AND HAVE IT NOTARIZED" WHEN 30 MINS PRIOR YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD THE KIDS OUT OF MY LIFE "IN THE BAG"
wHAT DID MY AGREEMENT SAY?
i COULD HAVE DESTROYED YOU AND MADE IT TAKE MONTHS OR YEARS TO PROVE YOURSELF FIT..BUT I CHOSE A 50/50 EVERYTHING BECAUSE THATS HOW PPL ARE SUPPOSED TO BE. EVEN IF ONES DOWN AND ONES UP. CO PARTENTS AT LEAST
And you always claimed "the high ground" while doing THIS SHIT. You were all deception and projection...What am I guilty of?.FINANCIAL IMPOTENCY AT THE WORST..Neglect in our together years...and after that lady..you were a liar through and through. Years of fakery. Every kinds word ended up with you trashing me with the refuse. And you always blamed me...Even knowing you were chasing selfish motives and had the discard already set up.
You did me the favor of forgiving a massive amount of child support. Im grateful..but honestly id do time over the forgiving of debt to be with my kids as real family dad and kids...not with "you" I dont even research your life or inquire about it to others. I no longer care. but Id do years to be able to communicate with them, and having a real shot at them knowing me without your long term influence. Id trade just about anything but my soul for a shOT at their open hearts and open minds about me without your "love and care" influencing how they see me.
I have been told by several of your once friends, now ops..that my youngest might not even be mine. But I havent a clue if theres any truth to it, although it makes sense and little dick S ties into that perfectly.
Ive lost you all, youve helped that. I used to long for a you I coulkd trust. Not a you romantically but a you I could love as family and work with in life. I believed in a true you and was in love with you, making you a gold standard of what a good woman is for damn near two decades after we split...through all your lies, deception, projection, discarding, and cutting down...WHILE YOU INFLUENCED THE KIDS THAT I WAS SHIT.
THEY DONT KNOW HALF OF THE MALICOUS TRUTH ABOUT "ME NOT BEING THERE"
YOUR HALF...A BIG HALF
I keep saying I forgive and hold no ill will. but i am deeply firey inferno type angry. I want to take my aquarius air sign capabilities...and stoke and bellow fires to carbonized you landscapes earth sign. I want to blow waters upon your scorched earth and turn it to dark brown mud. I want to starve your barren mud pits of oxygen so green grass or plant of life wont inhabit it. And in the sorrows that come with stripping you down with my furious wrath of air..at your darkest..I want to send tornadoes, hurricanes, dust storms, and ravaging wind storms to keep you uncomfortable and in chaos...not even allowed to enjoy the "calm and peace in the depression of the mudscape"
But my fury will stay composed. you arent worth the exertion of my energy anymore. because you are not a person i know...and you are not someone who i have known since our divorce, and you havent allowed me to know the real you, or tried to know the real me.
I speak to the void, and leave you be..
but if these winds start to blow into a tempest they would rip apart all of your beauty..and decimate EVERYTHING YOU APPRECIATE, LOVE, OR WANT TO KEEP WITH YOU INTO PIECES...
the wind has nothing to lose..you cant take away from it..you cant add to it...you can just influence it and pressure it in your earthen vessels. It can starve fire of O2, Starve your green growths and florals of life, steer and stoke flames to carbonize your whole surface level facade, it can catalyze and thunderstorms, tornadoes, and hurricanes to pelt your surface...and wash you down to tho the levels of molecular sediment in the seas... and what you take from air displaces and when it comes back around..it is still air..whole and intact..even if its polluted...blowing in anger fires, floods, and storms upon you...driving frozen seas ashore on your beaches puncturing your picturesque places of dreams with daggers by the millions, slowly forcing the way inward...multiplying in number
So let me say since my kid changed the name legally, you changed yours too, and the other may or may not be mine but hates and has disowned me anyway...that if there are past lives, next lives, soul bonds or eternal connections...they end here and now. like YOU wanted, but used your motherly influence over time spanning times to make them feel that its exactly what they wanted too.
the complete opposite of what i want, or have ever wanted.
.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.''.'

UNLESS there is some major major changes that happen on this 3d plain FROM YOU, AND YOUR BULLSHIT, ACCOUNTABILITY AND TOXICITY, COMMUNICATION, COMPASSION AND REMORSE....

Then spiritually , In front of The Lord as I believe. I release any and all connections to you. Asking that it ends here and my knowledge of you, and ties to you be broken... in heaven, in earth, and any and all realms and plains of existence, embodiment, life, and after life.
And I write this should I suddenly meet my demise and we never "got equal in spirit" on this plain...so it can be effective if God is willing at the point of my ending.
count your blessing because if was set off in untamable rage... everying on you, around you, that you shelter, that you desire, that you hold dear, that you value, that you enjoy, that you trust, rthat you associate with...,and that makes you... you gets decimated...and you get decimated...and all this destruction becomes an integrated part of my decimation of my own self...my rage...with nothing to lose....everyone and everything would see loss and suffering.
Glad this wind is mature enough to hurt and still be kind and compassion to ppl and frogiving of the human ways of selfishness....i cant waste another breath...im good ppl. and you hurt me IN THE DARKEST WAYS...
but i want to help ppl grow...and benefit ppl...
not hurt them...
thats what makes me stronger than you too

It all started with a dream night, the end of which was the end of my world. It was 8:00 pm the full moon and the weather was a little cool, rainy and wet my hair, it was the end of spring, and we would enter the dark autumn a little bit pleasant, so California had the last celebration of spring, let's say the last celebration of my life. It was a celebration in the middle of the city, the streets were closed and there were lights. There were also fireworks that night. I couldn't believe I was sleeping or waking up with a friend of mine, Alex, who was late, had called him, didn't pick up his phone, I thought I'd have a drink while Alex was coming, I walked into the party, it was so crowded, it was like I was being crushed between two trucks, but it was worth it. Everyone was wearing a costume for someone they loved. I was a gamer، I wore a hitman suit with a red tie and a mask that showed my head bald with a barcode tattoo that I had behind me، just like Agent 47 and a silencer gun that wasn't real but very much like the real one on my back. I like it and doesn't bother me. On the contrary, most people who don't like clothes that are tight and they look stifling to them, by the way, I said that the red tie reminds me of blood I like blood, but not like a vampire to drink it. My drink was ready because I had ordered a special one, and it took a while until Alex arrived, I told him why you didn't answer your phone, he said I was in the crowd, I didn't hear him, I told him he was drinking, he said, "Yeah, I ordered a drink for Alex, like me, and they were going to start the fireworks for another hour, I didn't drink much because I wanted to remember the fireworks that night. I don't know why I had a feeling that it would be the last fireworks of my life, we talked to Alex for about half an hour before we went to school because I was interested in basketball, and I was on the school team, and I wanted the future career to be basketball, but Alex wasn't very interested in basketball and he just watched my games. One day when he came to watch me play he gave me so much energy that we won the game that we were 50 points behind and it was impossible to win, Alex would have been a joy and savior for me and I would have been a depressed person without him. On the one hand, the memories of the past were really beautiful and on the other hand, sad that they are over and are not going to come back Alex and I know each other from high school. People say college friends stay for you and high school friendships don't last, but they are wrong because Alex and I were so tight that we could say that we couldn't be separated once we were in seventh grade, Alex and I were in the seventh grade. We were talking a lot in class when the teacher took us out of the classroom and said that because they talk a lot about each other, I want to take your classes apart and it's not your first time we've asked her not to, but she didn't pay attention to us. And we talked to our mother to come and talk to our teacher, and finally they could satisfy it, but even if they couldn't, I wouldn't have been able to tell them that much.It was serious for me that I was even willing to change our schools Somehow, if it wasn't for Alex, I wouldn't be there either. Reviewing these memories gave me a good feeling, but after that Alex told me that Ash's life was coming to an end. Cursed fireworks. My hand went to the trigger, but my gun was not real, and I killed my best friend without realizing it (that's why I shot at that time because the sound of the gun didn't come out and people didn't notice, I know my gun had a silencer, but it doesn't do anything wrong) When the fireworks were over, I couldn't see the crowd anymore, I didn't know why, until a voice whispered in my ear saying, "get up, it's over, you won." The game was real and memorable. That night was the last night in the world for me because I have never found another game like this game, but all the details were observed and all my memories were true. I said to myself that this game should not read my subconscious mind and this happened. Really, until this thought came to my mind, I entered another place of the game again, as if I had entered a new stage and I had to kill another person. I was stuck in the game and time had no meaning for me anymore. I had no way back except to search. I could go out there. After completing one of the 10 stages, I heard a voice in my ear again, as if it was saying that I made you, you are one of the characters in the game. I realized there that I was just a game bot and my home was right here and my creator was so right that for once I experienced the feeling of a human being.The creator of the game shut down the game servers forever because every game has a death time and I had been living for many years but I didn't know that I died that night but the memory that my creator has of me is enough because that reason makes me I think I'm still alive

Long story short - I just came off of my first job out of university where I didn't have much mentorship, and I got fired for "poor work," and all of the details around the "poor work" were ADHD related. How are people with ADHD managing to keep jobs that require excellent organizational skills (and not hate them)?
(I tried posting it on ADHD) but they wouldn't let me for some reason.
Longer story:
I got hired and there was a lot of disruptions shortly afterwards due to my mothers' health (I worked remotely for a bit to help her out). Then, I worked half days for a month while starting new medications that help to regulate mood. After that, I came back to work full time, and that's where things started to get really bad.
My boss (and coworker) would look at me like I was the stupidest person because I didn't remember details from a meeting that happened over a month ago. I seldom got feedback, despite asking for it. I admittedly did miss some details at times, but hardly anything that completely ruined a project. Time management was tough, because I was given a list of things to do, without any context, and quite frankly ambiguous deadlines (there were deadlines, but there were so arbitrary). Then, when I inevitably didn't hit the deadlines, nothing happened. No reprimands, nothing. Until about 4 months later when I was told that by not hitting a deadline the project was unable to move forward. Another point of contention was when I asked for flexible start times (i.e. come in anytime between 8:00-8:30 rather than a firm 8:15 start time) I was told no, the job starts at 8:15 firm (that should have been my first red flag that I'd struggle here). My boss tried to help me a bit with time management by telling me to "time block" my day and stick to the time blocks, but that hardly works for me. Firm times might as well be a death sentence as far as work goes. I do much better by task rather than by time. And projects that took longer than 2-3 weeks were very difficult for me to keep on top of, especially when there was no perceived consequences for not finishing completely (no one told me the effects not finishing it might have). Other things that were an issue were that I was (allegedly) given verbal feedback that I didn't remember, or I lost the notes, etc. (but I did develop systems to keep track of that feedback for the most part, it just took me 7 or so months because I didn't have any guidance). I was also completely unable to balance competing priorities (that once I did not find a suitable solution to, and is a weak spot for me). I even got in trouble because I didn't get a task right after one round of minimal feedback, for a task that I had never done before (and I told my boss that too!).
Anyways, I basically got let go because of poor organization, time management, and attention to detail (all of which had substantial improvements since I started the job, since I was adapting and learning how to keep things organized).
Now I'm honestly scared to even apply for jobs because my first job was such a terrible experience for me (I learned a lot, but also had some of the worst anxiety of my life). My field is in public policy, which seems to lend itsself to a lot of jobs that seem like such a bad fit for someone with ADHD due to ambiguous timelines, the need for high project management skills, high need for organization skills, etc. I feel so deflated from my last job experience where my boss was too busy with her own work (and career advancement) to mentor a new employee.
I'm not particularly tied to this field of work, but I just finished a masters' degree (which was also a terrible experience for me) and I'm not particularly interested in going back to school (it also isn't super financially responsible at the moment).
TL;DR So, my question is, how are people with ADHD managing to keep a job, especially one that requires excellent organizational skills?

I never dreamed of marriage and kids.
I have a deep fear of becoming a mother and an even greater fear of becoming pregnant by a man who doesn’t want to be with me. While I don't mind the idea of getting an abortion, I'd really prefer not to. I will if I have to.
So many men have dogged me lol .. that deep hurt is another reason… they dog/ hurt me but love another.. I don’t want to bring a child in the world when men make it clear they don’t want me.. no accidents.
How can I discuss the option of getting my tubes tied with my doctor?

I, (25f), had a baby 9 weeks ago. It was an incredibly traumatic birth and I almost died. When she was seven weeks old I asked my sister if I could come to her house so she could meet my baby. It’s a 3 1/2 hour drive and I said I would make that drive so I could see her and my grandparents as well if she felt okay with that and she said of course. She invited my brother as well. I texted my grandfather and asked him/my grandma to come down as well. Now this is where it gets a little crazy. My mother and father were horribly abusive to all of us. My father and mother divorced the summer before I went to college after he tried to kill her by hunting her through the woods. My mother decided that after that she would go back to doing tons of drugs and fucking my 17 year old friends. She partied and fucked around and lost every job for doing drugs. She dropped my 12 year old sister off and claimed she had Covid in March of 2020 right when it became a thing and didn’t pick her back up. She only decided she cared when I filed to get custody of her. She signed away her rights and as a thank you for not making it difficult I didn’t file for child support from her. I continue to not request child support because she is getting her life together and I didn’t want to add extra weight to that in this shit economy. I was 21 at the time and still in college and living with my fiance. We took custody of my sister and have been raising her ever since. Literally through inpatient hospitalizations, tons of bad situations, and trying to get my life together in my 20’s I had a teenager to take care of. It hasn’t been easy at all but at 23 I managed to, by some miracle, buy a house and put her into one of the best schools in the state. I am broke af every month, half my check goes to my mortgages, and I’m a teacher so like…… it’s actually hard to pay these bills but I work my ass off so it gets done. In my childhood my mother wasn’t a mother to me. I was the oldest 🫣 so I raised my siblings and protected them from getting hit. I took a lot of blows for them. My mother also threw a party at her house when I was underage, got me trashed, and called my boyfriend to come down so he could rape me. Gave him the condom and helped him CARRY ME to bed. suffice to say, I was in weekly therapy for like 3 1/2 years.
So naturally, when I planned this meeting I didn’t invite either of my parents as I don’t speak to them. My grandparents think I’m an asshole for not letting my mother back into my life because she got clean via court order. They went behind my back and invited her. My sister didn’t tell me. I walked into her house and walked right back out. They cornered me in the driveway while I was trying to put my baby in the car to yell at me. They said I’m tearing their family apart, trying to leave my mother out to hurt her, and that I need to forgive and forget the “silly little things that happened in my childhood”. That I am evil for brainwashing my sister into disliking my mother as well. I left and sobbed for probably a third of that drive. I already feel like an outcast in my own family and this made me feel like I can never see them again.
No one has messaged me about this since or apologized in any way and I haven’t contacted them. Am I the asshole? Should I try to tolerate her for the rest of my family? Or do I stand my ground and cut ties? I know my mother has gotten clean and I’ve worked through a lot of what happened to me but I feel like all that aside I still just don’t like her. She’s always stuck in this high schooler mentality of “guess who fought who” and “omg so and so is sleeping with so and so’s ex”. And I’m out here talking about insurance and mortgages. Idk I just feel like I’m talking to one of the kids I teach when I talk to her. I have to stop her from oversharing ya know? Idk I’m lost. I just feel like my mother did what she always does and made my newborns moment all about herself. And I did not care for it one bit. Am I the asshole?

DAY: MAY 20 2024
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I'm the same guy that posted that the Independent Order of Odd Fellows cemetery by Acker park was in disrepair and tried finding resources to help turn it around. Here's the link if anyone is interested. I'm still trying.
While walking through the cemetery I came across a gravestone marked "G.M. Robbins - The "End of the Trail" for "Yellowstone Pete" after 25,000 miles by mule train, may he rest in peace" and it got me interested in finding out more about the person. It turns out that Yellowstone Pete holds a place in Americana culture, and really did travel by mule train. There are several pictures linked here that have him, his wife, and mules. I'd love to hear more about him if anyone has more details.
Imgur album of photos I collected. The one that has "OH HOW WE HATE TO WORK" is a postcard that I ordered from Etsy while researching Yellowstone Pete.
There's even a poem about his only daughter.
Yellowstone Pete's Only Daughter was originally published in the book “Rhymes from a Round-up Camp, 1903, and written by Wallace David Coburn in 1894. The book of poetry has been published in 21 different editions. Coburn wrote the preface of the book in Malta, Montana.
Yes, this is the Milk River Valley,
And that's the old ranch that you see,
Where Yellowstone Pete lost his daughter,
The pride of the 7 U. P.
Was she pretty?-Well, stranger, your knowledge
Of these parts is shore incomplete,
When you ask such a comical question
'Bout the daughter of Yellowstone Pete.
Why, man! If the heavens were bluer,
And pansies were deeper in hue ,
They couldn't "size up" with her peepers,
Which shone like the spring poet's dew.
Her teeth were like snowdrops made whiter,
Her hair like the sealskin she wore,
Only softer and silkier and browner,
And she was true blue to the core.
Was old Yellowstone Pete's only daughter,
Whose voice was the envy of birds,
As she warbled at night to the long-horns,
Or when pointing her father's trail herds.
She was happy and good and as loving
As an angel could possibly be,
With always a smile and a greeting,
For tough old cow-punchers like me.
But what I was startin' to narrate,
Before you cut into the game,
Was a love affair she tangled up in,
And the tragical end of the same.
You see, she was borned in this country,
Her mother, a woman of gold,
Kissed her baby and lined out for Heaven,
When Beauty was seven days old.
The boys, you see, nicknamed her "Beauty,"
And each one, he fought for his turn
At feedin' her out of the bottle,
But dress her -- we never could learn.
So Pete he sent off for a nurse girl
And a teacher (not stunning for looks),
To give her the care of a woman,
And learn her the knowledge of books.
Thus Beauty grew up at the home ranch,
And learned how to shore ride and shoot,
Also play and sing on the pianer,
And to tie down a wild steer to boot.
And charming-- why, partner, the sunbeams
They scrapped for the sweets of her face,
And the alkali dust and the zephyrs
They jockeyed to get second place.
So was it a wonder young Dawson,
The son of a neighbor of Pete,
Lost his heart to this rose of the prairie,
And his love for her couldn't be beat?
“Buck"-- that was the handle he went by,
Had pre-empted some learnin' at school,
Was a handsome and big, manly feller,
And in a gun-fight was shore cool.
And there wasn't no man round the country,
Could ride with him down the Red Lane,
He could rope, fork, and ride with clean saddle
Any outlaw that ever wore mane.
They'd been youngsters and brought up together,
And Dawson was shorely dead game,
His father a wealthy old-timer,
All burdened with early-day fame.
Yes, Beauty loved "Buck," that was certain,
But a gal's ways are never foreseen,
And you can't tell what's liable to happen
Be-tween the betwixt and between.
So when a young feller from college
Comes a-romancin' like out this way,
Well, things looked a little promiscuous,
And there was the devil to pay.
Of course, he was welcomed by Beauty,
As the flowers are welcomed in May;
His college pin pleased her, I reckon,
And he had a girl-catchin' way.
But wait till I roll me a smoke, pard,
To filter my bad feelin's down,
Makes me wanter shore squander some powder
When I ponder on that sneakin' houn'.
Well, we was all out on the round-up,
When this college masher, you see,
Ran off with old Yellowstone's daughter,
The pride of the 7 U. P.
Now, old Pete he shore worshipped his daughter,
Loved her better than money or life,
For she was the pride of his old age--
The gift of his beautiful wife.
So he and young Dawson together,
With hearts like the lead in their guns,
Hit the trail of this college-bred villain,
And secured him before many suns.
The gal they found up in Butte City­-
He'd deserted her up there, you know;
But Dawson caught him near the border,
Where numerous cottonwoods grow.
And there, in the depths of the forest,
With the beasts and the birds lookin' on,
They fought to the death with their bowies,
Till the Eastern-bred feller was gone.
And Beauty-- she married "Buck" after,
But never seemed happy or gay,
Like the Beauty we'd worshipped from childhood,­-
She just drooped, shrunk, and withered away.
Yes, she paled like the flowers in summer,
And died with the leaves in the fall ;
And we buried her close to her mother,
While the sunshine went out of us all.
Poor old Pete, his hair white as the snowdrift,
And eyes that stare vacant and old,
Sits and sobs at the foot of two gravestones,
All alone, whether hot days or cold.
All alone? No, for Buck often joins him,
Grim and stern, with his face like a stone;
Never smiling nowdays like he used to,
When he tries he winds up with a moan.
No, the sun don't shine quite as it used to,
And the wind has a lonesomer sound,
As it sings soft and mournful in summer,
And howls when old winter comes round.
Here are the links to original photos:
https://www.gettyimages.com/detail/news-photo/yellowstone-pete-passes-through-yellowstone-pete-news-photo/161995779
https://www.worthpoint.com/worthopedia/rppc-goldie-marion-robbins-aka-1904877006
https://www.phillipscountynews.com/story/2016/09/14/news/yellowstone-petes-only-daughte4302.html
https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/52400720/goldie-marion-robbins/photo