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Create an imaginary friend.
No seriously. I usually feel really out of place at school so I tried this during my junior year of high school whenever I felt anxious, sad, or mad (any bad emotion). And I found that just simply seeing "him" gave me the confidence to keep going. Now that you know how it helped me I'll show you how it can help you.
STEP 1: you have to come up with YOUR own "cure". It's easier than you think, as you just have to ask yourself a few questions like "What can help me right now" whenever you are feeling any bad emotion. For me, I resonated with a wise old man figure that can guide me to become great (like Mr Miyagi, Gandalf, or Dumbledore)
OTHER EXAMPLES FOR YOU: For you, it could be a group of friends that are deeper than that, family for example (like "stand by me" or "the goonies"), Or your dream girlfriend or boyfriend that would give you all the comfort you need. Ultimately, this is the part where it's all on you to figure out what you need to fix yourself, and once you find that you move on to step 2.
STEP 2: Once I found out my own cure I could create him into a character to fit my needs. This might sound odd, but if you hallucinate this character into your own world it will provide you with the cure to your problems. For example, I put him in the back of the classroom overlooking me, keeping me in focus. I felt like I could talk to people as a SUPER antisocial freak because he was there behind me. I don't know the science behind that but I'm sure of one thing, and that is because I felt whole, or in other words, without loneliness.
OTHER EXAMPLES FOR YOU: This could include, for example, letting your boyfriend or girlfriend character come to life when you are alone and can't sleep. Put a pillow in their place and as you hug them, imagine all your problems being washed away by them. Or if you resemble a group of friends being your fix, this could come to life all around you. Same as me, you could have them come to life in a school or work situation where you feel anxious or antisocial to give you that confidence of knowing someone who cares for you is there.

Over the last few weeks, this topic has been speculated about more than normal. While I don't see this ever happening, a fan can dream! So I'm going to give it a crack.
This will be a two night event overseen by a neutral party (me) to protect the integrity of the booking. Each match will feature a party from WWE on one side and a party from AEW on the other. However, that will be as far as the "competition" between both brands go as this is more of a celebration of wrestling than anything.
I'll explain a brief build to each match as well as the results. I haven't given myself too many rules in this other than keeping with current active rosters and trying to respect injuries. If I book someone who's currently injured, oh well. And if I accidentally missed someone who should be on this card, my bad.
Both nights will be held inside Wembley Stadium. Assume it takes place around June-August of this year. The commentary booth for night one will have Tony Schiavone, Pat McAfee, and Taz. The commentary booth for night two will have Michael Cole, Nigel McGuinness, and Corey Graves. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy!
WWE vs AEW: Wrestling's Grandest Clash (Night One):
(Pre-Show) Mens' Casino Battle Royale: Andrade vs Bobby Lashley vs Bron Breakker vs Carmelo Hayes vs Chad Gable vs Chris Jericho vs Christian Cage vs Claudio Castagnoli vs Darby Allin vs Ilja Dragunov vs Katsuyori Shibata vs Kofi Kingston vs Konosuke Takeshita vs Mark Briscoe vs Orange Cassidy vs Pac vs Rey Mysterio vs Ricochet vs Roderick Strong vs Sheamus vs Wardlow
(Not much build needed for this. Just opening a spot for a lot of the upper card guys who don't have a spot. The final two of the match would be Bron and Wardlow with Bron winning.)
Maxwell Jacob Friedman vs Randy Orton
(I feel like this writes itself. Randy views MJF as a younger version of himself. They're both brash, arrogant, and ruthless competitors. MJF, on the other hand, can't stand to be compared to Orton. While both men are babyfaces right now, either one could slip into the heel role for this match.
Randy would be sung to the ring by over 80k strong while MJF gets his special throne entrance. I would have MJF go over here. Orton putting him over would go a long way in cementing MJF as a massive star in wrestling.)
Bianca Belair and Jade Cargill vs Kris Statlander (w/ Malcolm Bivens) and Athena (w/ Billie Starks)
(The build to this begins with Kris confronting Jade. She and Malcolm accuse Jade of running away from AEW because she lost to Kris twice for the TBS Championship. Bianca also gets involved to stick up for her tag team partner. To even the odds, Malcolm enlists the help of Athena---who could get into hilarious antics with each other. As for the match, Jade would get her win back over Kris in a great contest.)
Kazuchika Okada vs Shinsuke Nakamura
(The story with these two goes back YEARS to NJPW. Okada still holds a grudge against Nakamura for taking his Wrestle Kingdom 8 main event. On top of that, both men hold hypocritical grudges against each other for becoming "soft" (Okada's new persona in the Elite and Nakamura becoming complacent with being a midcarder respectively).
As for the match, it's fucking insane. Okada embraces the NJPW version of the Rainmaker while Nakamura does the same and is played down by Lee Englund Jr. While both men are heels irl, you could have either play babyface here. In the end, Okada would go over here after a brutal match. Both men would shake hands in the end; squashing their beef and leaving it all in the ring.)
FTR vs The Usos
(I know Jimmy is technically injured, but he's supposed to be returning soon so fuck it. There would be two central narratives driving this match forward. For one, FTR still hold a grudge against The Usos for their storyline back in 2019. They can blame The Usos for ruining their credibility in the WWE and target Jey and Jimmy separately for it. This would force Jimmy and Jey to reunite to fight a common enemy. However, the second narrative is that The Usos do NOT want to team together. They still have beef for all the hell that Jimmy has put Jey through---which affects their normally perfect teamwork.
As for the match, FTR would go over here. There's no way that a team as divided as The Usos could beat a team as fluid as FTR. Despite that, they come close to becoming the team they once were. This allows both teams to have a classic with one another. After the match, Jimmy looks to Jey for support...but Jey walks out on him. He's clearly not ready to forgive his brother. )
Liv Morgan vs Toni Storm
(This would be an interesting build. As Liv seeps further and further into her blind villainous rage against Rhea Ripley, she encounters another champion who has history with Rhea---Timeless Toni Storm. Toni talks about her past with Rhea but admits how much respect she has for Rhea. Meanwhile, she buries Liv for putting Rhea on the shelf with a cowardly attack and undercutting her legacy.
The match, of course, is fucking great. I believe Liv would have the best showing of her career here while Toni puts on another banger. The match would end when Liv's rage gets the best of her; causing Toni to take advantage and defeat her clean.)
AJ Styles vs Will Ospreay
(Probably the best match of the night fellas lmao. The story going into this is how Ospreay credits AJ Styles for his career. But AJ doesn't care and views Ospreay as a disrespectful punk and promises to end the career that he unintentionally got started.
Again, best match of the night. This would be around thirty minutes of insanity. But in the end, Ospreay defeats Styles.)
Drew McIntyre vs Samoa Joe
(McIntyre's obsession with CM Punk creeps into this show. He targets guys in AEW who affiliate themselves with Punk such as Ricky Starks. This leads to one of Punk's oldest friends, Samoa Joe, stepping in to defend his friend.
Both men have an all out brawl. It isn't long but it is BRUTAL. In the end, McIntyre puts Joe away for a big win. After the match, McIntyre continues his assault until CM PUNK comes down to the ring. Despite being with McIntyre in WWE, Punk refuses to allow McIntyre to hurt his friend and runs him off with a chair. The segment ends with Punk and Joe embracing in the same arena they both had their last match together in.)
MAIN EVENT: Jon Moxley (w/ William Regal) vs Roman Reigns (w/ Paul Heyman)
(The build to this would be...unorthodox. Basically, Moxley would carry the entire build. Moxley would cut a promo calling out Reigns for his absence after losing to Cody at Mania 40. He says that the Roman he knew would have taken his loss like a man and came back deadlier than ever....but the Roman we see now? Not so much. Paul Heyman would try to dissuade Moxley from challenging Roman to no avail. Week after week, Moxley would continue to call out his former "brother" to face him. Finally, on the go home show, Reigns would make his return. He would initially refuse (as he wants to solely focus on regaining the Universal Championship)...but Moxley would confront him. After a personal and intense war of words, Reigns finally accepts and promises to wipe Moxley out of his life FOREVER.
Before the match, Moxley is about to make his way down to the ring from the crowd before he's stopped by William Regal. Regal and Mox share a look---addressing their history in the BCC as well as Regal's betrayal of Mox. But after a nod, Regal begins to walk down to the ring with Moxley. As for Roman, he and Heyman get an epic entrance as always.
As for the match, it is a slow burn WWE style main event. But it picks up in a big way. The Bloodline comes down to interfere on Roman's behalf...but Roman REFUSES their help. This actually ends up costing Roman in the end as Moxley is able to take advantage and BEAT Roman for the first time one-on-one on PPV.
This isn't over though as The Bloodline immediately rush down to the ring and beat down Moxley. Claudio and Wheeler Yuta run down for the save but are still outnumbered. After some hesitation, Reigns tries to stop the assault...but Solo orders an attack on him too! Moxley and Reigns are getting the hell beat out of them until....
SIERRA HOTEL INDIA ECHO LIMA DELTA...SHIELD!
The crowd pops HUGE as Seth, despite being injured, walks down the aisle. While Seth isn't able to get involved physically, the distraction allows Reigns and Moxley enough time to recover and fight off The Bloodline.
With the ring now cleared, Rollins enters and hugs Moxley. Then Rollins locks eyes with Reigns. It is tense. Over ten years of hatred can be felt in the ring...but also over ten years of love and brotherhood. And ultimately, love conquers all. Rollins and Reigns finally hug each other in the middle of the ring. They're crying. You're crying. I'm crying.
Night 1 of Wrestling's Grandest Clash goes off the air with Rollins...Reigns....and Moxley doing the classic Shield pose in the middle of the ring. One last time.

I tried reading all the other articles mentioning her name to find more info. At first, I could only find her first and last name along with her middle initial and her age. One of the articles above, which was written in April of 2022, says she was 29 at the time. This means if she is still alive she is either 31 or 32. Another article mentioned she was from South Carolina so I used this info and I was able to find two addresses to add to my evidence. It seems she moved from South Carolina to Virginia around 2020-2022. Coincidentally the most recent house attached to her name was the same city she talked about in the lawsuit so I’m almost positive it’s a match.
There is one other name that is a possibility that is the same age and lived in Georgia. I also found out there was an alternate spelling of her name with two E’s, which can be done intentionally if you don’t want to sign paperwork under your name or if you’re trying to hide your real identity. (My great-grandfather on my dad’s side switched a letter in his last name before he immigrated to the States back in the early 1900’s. He had been to prison in Ireland and wouldn’t have gotten approved for his visa or whatever the equivalent was at the time.)
A lot of details could just be mistakes by these free Osint sites like the one below. Especially with free ones like the one I used, most of the information unless it can be verified should be taken with a grain of salt. https://inteltechniques.com/tools/index.html
The house she was living in during the trial is in Virginia and the one site said it was paid for up front in September of 2021. It cost 1.2 million dollars and is in a pretty wealthy area of Virginia. One source says her first connection to the house was around August 2020. Two sources say her last attachment to the house and P.O. box was around August of 2022, which would have been a few months after all the court business. She also had a PO Box address listed in both states. The one in Virginia wasn’t too far from her house, but the one in SC was over an hour away from the apartments she lived in before the move. Since the last recorded date attached to the house and PO Box are the same, I think it’s safe to say that she moved to Virginia some time in 2022.
I decided to look at both of the addresses and PO Boxes and the other names connected to them. To stay on track and for privacy, I’ll only mention the people who were associated with the house during the same time Mesha was. Unfortunately, her place in SC was an apartment complex so I couldn’t find much more than that. There were also no real significant attachments to the PO box.
The PO box in Virginia is also attached to a woman who was marked as 124 years. Aside from a phone number, which I’m guessing is a dead lady, there is no other info on her profile. The owner of the home in Virginia appears to be a man in his fifties who has been associated with 5 other homes in the same city in Virginia along with one condo and another home about 2 hours outside Houston, Texas. Looking at the places they are all very modest aside from the house attached to Mesha and one other nearby that also cost a little over a million dollars. He appears to have owned the home Mesha stayed at up until March of 2024 when he moved into a little family home in the same city.
Another one of the people marked as living in the house was a woman very similar to Mesha’s age who had 3 other addresses on file. Looking at the dates it appears she grew up in a tiny little house in the sticks of Virginia, then moved to a cheap apartment, then moved into the mansion with Misha, and got another separate apartment a month later. In March of 2024, her name was taken off the lease and a month later it was also taken off the apartment. A couple of weeks ago another address went on file for a hospital in Virginia. I thought this was strange so I looked at the rest of the people who were marked as living at the address while Mesha was there.
One of them was a woman in her seventies who lived in the same house that Mesha did from September of 2021 to December of 2022. Aside from that, her 5 other houses were in California. The one that goes until 2013 is a multiple-million dollar mansion near Palo Alto that appears to have been paid for upfront. The second one she left at the end of 2016 appears to be a store, possibly with an apartment on top in San Francisco. The third is a multimillion dollar mansion in wine country and it has her on the record up until March of this year. There were also two PO Boxes in the same area of wine country, one up until January 2015 that was linked to a flower business, and the other which was up until March of this year and is linked to a wine barrel production company. The current house she lives in is another million-dollar home in the same general area.
Another name attached to the house in Virginia belonged to a man also around the same age with the same last name as the lady above so I’ll assume it’s her husband. He had four homes attached to him along with two PO Boxes. One of the houses was in Pennsylvania, while the other three were in California. Two of the houses were the same ones that his wife had on her profile and the two PO boxes were the same as well. What I found very interesting was the fact that he left all those addresses in March of 2024 and the most recent one connected to him is the same one that Mesha lived in. It appears he moved in right around the time the other lady’s address switched to the hospital.
There were a few other names that popped up in the search that might have lived there at some point. One of them is most likely the son of the couple who lived there, the only one I could connect for sure though is a 31-year-old man from Durham, whose association with the house started around the same time in May and seems ongoing. While looking into all of the court cases connected to Drake I found another court case from 2019 in Virginia accusing Mesha of defrauding a hotel.
After that I looked everywhere I could only find a few mentions of Mesha Collins anywhere on the web, even on social media. The one name that kept popping up was an actor named Misha Collins. The most obvious connection to Drake is that both of their moms are Canadian and their dads are from the States. That doesn’t mean much, but I found his career arc kind of odd along with his back story. I also found a tweet he made that kinda connects him to the situation. Still, if there is any connection he probably just knows Drake from the industry. https://x.com/mishacollins/status/855135669890437120?lang=en
This is another one from one of Misha’s costars from Supernatural https://x.com/jarpad/status/855236923471708160?lang=en
A random Tumblr post isn’t a source and is most likely fanfiction, but I found this interesting. https://www.tumblr.com/go-diane-wincheste183189140191/misha-collins-is- like-a-pedophile
One thing I was wondering if he could be one of his political connections in the US since he started his career working at the White House during the Clinton presidency and was involved in the Monica Lewinsky stuff. Apparently, he isn’t of Russian descent, but his mom gave him a Russian-sounding name because her dream guy was Russian and he said she was a “pro-communist hippy”. I read somewhere that the furthest he could trace back his ancestry was six generations all from Canada and he was the first generation born in the States. This could mean he has some VERY deep roots, similar to Drake’s mom’s side of the family. On the other hand, he also says he was extremely poor as a child and his parents had a hard time keeping a roof over their heads. https://web.archive.org/web/20131230135930/
http://www.everyjoe.com/ 2008/09/24/entertainment/misha-collins-answers-our-top-3-qs/
Before I begin my schizo conspiracy theory I just want to make it clear, just because the majority of these conspiracies seem right leaning, it’s only because the majority of the entertainment industry lean left. This does not mean that either side is worse than the other, I’m sure they both do plenty of sketchy shit around election time. The only reason I’m bringing this up in the first place is because Misha Collins is very into politics and a huge supporter of the Democrat party. I could care less about politics if it’s not related to the entertainment industry. I try to make sure it’s somewhat connected to Drake, Kendrick, or the events leading up to or following their feud. Considering that before ’08, which is the year Obama was elected, there was very little mention of him on the internet and the fact that most of the articles I found were about his political views, I can’t help but feel he might be like the political version of an industry plant (some conspiracy folks refer to them as “crisis actors”).
I could easily see them hiring young aspiring actors and getting them started in the industry on the condition that they act as a mouthpiece for their political campaigns. Another possible example of this is Kal Penn, but he had a career before he went into politics so it’s a little different. I did find it interesting that Kal Penn came out not too long ago and apparently Misha Collins came out of the closet then took it back later and pissed off a lot of fans.
Aside from some bit roles in some obscure films and TV shows starting in ‘02, his biggest role was on the TV show Supernatural where he had a recurring role from 2008-2020. There was another post on his Instagram showing he had a direct connection to Michelle Obama who also was connected to the whole Jussie Smollett incident, which many would consider political interference and is still playing out in court to this day. I went into this topic more in another piece I wrote a few weeks ago as well.
The earliest source I could find on Wikipedia was in 2011, right before Obama won his second term. It seems he kind of popped up out of nowhere in ’08. The first thing I saw about him when I searched was a giant campaign he did with a bunch of comedians featuring random B through D list actors and actresses. They all did a video together in 2013 where they all took a big dump on Trump and supported Hillary in the presidential race. I couldn’t find the link again when searching, but I did include a similar example below. https://ew.com/article/2016/11/09/misha-collins-emotional-election-video/
Interestingly this was around the time the political propaganda ban was lifted making it legal again in the United States. This has been blamed for the rise of disinformation in the media and politics making their way into the entertainment industry. https://foreignpolicy.com/2013/07/14/u-s-repeals-propaganda-ban-spreads-government-made-news-to-americans/
After Supernatural ended in 2020, he pretty much went back to doing small parts until last year when he won the leading role on his own CW show. It’s one of the superhero shows with ties to the DC universe. In one interview he said that as a child his family struggled with housing stability, but he went to the University of Chicago and got a job a few years later working at the White House for a couple of months during Clinton’s presidency. He could have gotten a scholarship, but my buddy got his degree from there about ten years ago and it was NOT cheap. I also find it interesting that Obama is also from Chicago and so is Jussie Smollett.
One recent movie that’s a good example of government propoganda is the new movie Civil War and the one that came out on Netflix recently called When the World Ends, which is about an attack on the US power grid and another foreign country sowing the seeds to start a civil war in the US. It was also produced by the Obama’s who have also been accused of trying to censor Dave Chappelle while Obama was campaigning for the 2008 presidency.
Right around the time Misha got his first leading role in 2023, he was also heavily involved in the Russia/Ukraine war. Even though he’s Canadian, he went to Ukraine and made a bunch of videos supporting them. Considering the amount of anti-Russian rhetoric at the time, plus the fact it started around the same time as the propaganda ban being lifted, it seems kinda fishy to me. https://english.nv.ua/life/us-actor-misha-collins-arrives-in-kyiv-to-show-support- for-ukraine-50328295.html
Aside from that he’s also done a lot of philanthropy throughout his career and seems like a decent dude. Like I said there is a very good chance he has nothing to do with this whole situation. One theory I have is that when someone sues somebody famous for any reason and they want to cover it up, it would be a good idea to use a celebrity name or one that is one letter off so it will dominate Google search results. For example, I have the same name as a very well-known politician from the early 2000 and his name fills up the Google search results. If my theory of Misha working for the democratic party is true he might have been paid by Drake’s crisis management team to take the attention off their case.
I found his first post on TikTok to be a bizarre video where he talks about why he’s joining the site in the first place. The second comment asks if he’s being held hostage. Like I said I don’t know the guy, he might just be acting weird like a lot of celebs or he’s completely shitfaced. If my theory is correct though this could be some contributing evidence. https://www.tiktok.com/@mishacollins/video/7003144713696054534
This Reddit post also talks about his stance on the Israel Palestine situation. https://www.reddit.com/Supernatural/comments/17xfyu4/im_curious_what_are_your_thoughts_on_misha/
Aside from that, I couldn’t find anything else that stuck out to me on TikTok or any other social media sites for the Mesha Collins involved in the Drake stuff. This doesn’t mean there isn’t though I’m not on any social media so I’m not very good with that kind of stuff.
When I changed up the search settings to show only results from before or after the court case, the only articles that popped up were about a thirteen-year-old from Vancouver who went missing, but she was found not long after. I was able to find her on social media too and there was nothing that would connect to him in any way. Another article that popped up was about a woman from Houston nicknamed “Southpark Shawty.” She apparently also went by Mesha Collins and she apparently passed away in 2019 from undisclosed health issues. This is the only article I could find that says her name was Mesha Collins and it’s from 2024. https://inckredible.com/what-happened-to-southpark-shawty/
I also find it interesting she was a victim of a hit and run two years prior, not long after Mesha was arrested for allegedly breaking into Drake’s home. Interestingly in the article below it said her name was Shantel Nelson. The rest of the articles also had that name and when I looked it up the I did find a 53-year-old woman with the same name attached to a lot of different apartments and homes in Houston and a few spots in Louisiana. I thought the timing was odd considering a lot of stuff seems to be getting wiped from the internet and the fact it came out right around the time the feud started. I wonder if Drake is trying to distract people by sending them down the wrong path. https://www.fox26houston.com/news/internet-sensation-southpark-shawty-recovering-after-hit-and-run
I was wondering if she may have gone viral around the time of the original break in to distract from the case. This is also similar to my suspicions about the actor Misha Collins. I tried finding any connection between Shawty and J Prince since they both lived in Houston. I found that the South Park neighborhood in Houston is in the third ward while J Prince was born in the fifth ward. These two areas are some of the most crime-ridden areas in Houston.
Obviously the odds of her being connected to anything sketchy involving J Prince are pretty slim; however, I did find a video of Snoop Dogg visiting her in Houston back in 2016. In one of her posts she said they were cousins, but Snoop also says everyone is his cousin and it’s more just saying they’re family. It did seem like they were very close at one time though. I saw another article that said a lot of celebs reached out to her after she was the victim of a hit-and-run, but I couldn’t find ties to any other rappers. I thought it was interesting that she often sings in a lot of her videos and she has some pipes. It also seems like she may have been a rapper back in the day because she made a bunch of songs with a local producer over the past few years. I think it’s safe to assume she had some connection to the rap game or was a singer in the past. Considering Snoop and J. Prince have similar histories in the game, I imagine they must have some type of relationship. I go into this more in my actual post. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cfaGVreak4M
The big inconsistency here is the two women’s ages. The Mesha who sued Drake would have been young enough to be South Park Shawty’s daughter though. I couldn’t find any mention of her having a daughter, but I also couldn’t find much info on her in general. One thing I thought was sad was the fact that a lot of people made fun of her for being a crackhead. Although she appears to have a history of substance abuse, you never really know. Some people are just naturally high energy and have lots of quirks and big personalities without the need for drugs.
There are also a lot of long term alcoholics and addicts who despite being sober still show the same behaviors. In the case of alcoholics it’s called, “dry drunk syndrome.” This is also a big reason why I can write almost an entire book in a month without really trying. I saw one video where she said she’s been sober for a while and appears to only drink and smoke weed similar to myself. I’ve also met a few people similar to Shawty and they were all very sweet people and very intelligent, as are many recovering addicts. It doesn’t mean she should just be written off as crazy or unreliable. I’ve noticed that many famous black entertainers have been dismissed and called crackheads whenever they start speaking out against the industry or if they have a mental breakdown from all their bullshit.
While looking into the South Park neighborhood I found out that Travis Scott grew up in that area up until he was like eight or nine. I decided to look into more rappers from the area and found the bio of a rapper who went by South Park Mexican and was charged with abusing multiple minors s.ually, including a nine-year-old, and was sentenced to forty years in prison. I find it interesting that his label Dope House Records signed under UMG two years before he was convicted. Considering J. Prince’s history with UMG and a few people close to the case claiming it was an extortion attempt carried out by the husband of a woman he had an affair with, I wonder if J. Prince may have played a part in it. There is a 99 percent chance he’s guilty, but it could be another example of an organized takedown. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/South_Park_Mexican
I also discovered another rapper who went by Gansta Nip who was one of the founders of the sub-genre horrorcore. He was on J Prince’s label and was also from the South Park neighborhood. He used to write for J Prince’s first group The Geto Boys way back in the day so he has connections in South Park.
Another thing that I found interesting was that Jaguar Wr*ght is from Dallas, which is known to be another hotspot for Texas rappers similar to Houston, but rarely gets much recognition. Along with Austin, they are the big three music cities in Texas, yet it seems like Dallas has always been slept on. I remember during her early interview Jaguar said she moved to Dallas to help foster and promote young aspiring musicians and help them get their footing in the industry without being taken advantage of. Sadly it seems she ended up doing that exact thing when she got a deal with Roku to make a TV show that she said would follow some of these talented up-and-coming artists. It appears that she was charging a subscription fee, but never actually posted any new content that wasn’t already available for free on YouTube or social media. Now pretty much every artist she promoted will have their names connected to a scam artist just by being involved with her. https://www.change.org/p/stop-ban-dalladelphia-oppose-jaguar-wright
I’ve also discussed in the past that she has been airing out some of Diddy and Jay- Z’s dirty laundry since 2022 and seemingly has protection. She also had some wild shit go down about a week after she accused Jay-Z of trying to keep her from boarding her plane in Dallas and was arrested at Chicago Airport. https://ktt2.com/jaguar-wright-arrested-after-allegedly-throwing-her-sons-ashes-32541373
Similar to Shawty, Jaguar is often accused of being a crackhead, but again it appears she may have had a history, but currently only smokes weed and drinks and most likely is struggling with mental illness. Sometimes the weight of these subjects is enough to drive someone crazy on its own, yet alone constantly being paranoid someone wants to take you out. To her credit, Jaguar was also known for being one of Jay Z’s background singers and did come up around the time Diddy founded Bad Boy and the Philly music scene was starting to get recognition. She often talks about how Jay Z has been going after her for revealing some of his past sketchiness along with many other artists from that era.
While I trust her about as far as I can throw her, she did drop a lot of facts about Diddy in the same interview and has been dropping a lot of shit the last couple of months. She also said she used to be married to Katt Williams, who was also accused of being a crackhead after apparently getting death threats for speaking out against the industry. If Dave Chappelle had to go to Africa when he did almost the same thing, I think he probably had every right to be paranoid as fuck. I’m sure some of Jaguar’s info is coming from him and he may even be directly responsible for her blowing up on YouTube right after he did his famous interview in January. I’ve been saying for a while now I think she has motivations way beyond revenge or advocacy, but she still shouldn’t be written off completely.
I wonder if J. Prince has anything to do with this and the Bryshere Gray stuff, which was the main subject of one of my posts here about coordinated takedowns. Considering he has similar motivations and the mob ties to protect Jaguar, it could be why she constantly doxxes herself and doesn’t seem to be too worried despite revealing shit that could easily get her green-lit. It would also explain a lot of my theories on the rise of all these influencers dropping insider knowledge of the industry and the criminal underworld that resides beneath it.
I also wanted to include some links to some other attempted invasions of Drake’s embassy. Along with Misha’s multiple attempts and the three attempts right after the beef, there have been a decent number throughout the years. https://pagesix.com/2021/03/30/woman-armed-with-knife-tries-to-get-into- drakes-property/
This guy claimed Drake was his dad and talks about him selling his place in West Hollywood with a lot of details about him selling his “Yolo Estate” in LA. Weirdly it was published by Breitbart which is a far-right news organization. https://www.breitbart.com/entertainment/2022/07/19/intruder-claiming-to-be-drake-son-arrested-at-rappers-los-angeles-home/
I guess this is one more person who made it through the front door. I wonder if Ye knows who it was? https://ktla.com/news/local-news/drakes-los-angeles-home-reportedly-burglarized-suspect-arrested/
This one was right after Mesha broke in and has more details about her as well. https://www.vibe.com/music/music-news/drake-intruder-hidden-hills-break-in-526090/#!
The rest of the evidence below is just extra bullshit, it’s not super relevant, but it may have some connection to all of this. It’s mostly about human trafficking in Houston. One area in Houston is considered a red-light district. An old friend grew up in the area and used to sell lean heavy so he had a lot of connections to the Houston underworld. From what he told me, shit goes pretty deep like most border states where all forms of trafficking are extremely prevalent. https://www.click2houston.com/news/investigates/2021/09/16/hpd-using-new- law-to-crack-down-on-those-paying-for-sex/
Below are a few more examples of Houston rappers charged with trafficking minors. If anyone has time I didn’t look into any potential connections with J Prince. Houston is massive and there is a huge rap scene so there is a good chance they may not have any connections beyond the city they live in, but you never know, there could be some supporting evidence to my theories. https://www.foxnews.com/us/texas-aspiring-rapper-sentenced-prison-child- sex-trafficking-reports
https://www.fox26houston.com/news/houston-rapper-big-face-tulu-accused-of- trafficking-and-assault-forcing-teens-to-work-for-food-and-shelter
https://www.khou.com/article/news/houston-rapper-jaimian-sims-found-guilty- of-sex-trafficking-of-a-mino285-9eebceb0-fce4-4244-84da-4fb2432c5479
https://www.fbi.gov/contact-us/field-offices/houston/news/press-releases/ houston-rapper-heads-to-prison-for-sex-trafficking-of-a-minor
Lastly, I can’t forget the infamous Houston rapper Viper, who was also possibly signed to SPM’s Dope House Records. He was also from the fifth ward in Houston, the same as J. Prince. https://www.houstonchronicle.com/news/houston-texas/crime/ article/lee-carter-houston-rapper-second-kidnapping- charge-18695638.php
That’s all I have on the case. I know it’s not super relevant, but it’s only a small section that I thought was a good example of how using OSINT techniques could help with finding connections. Also, it’s good to know how these things could be used against you if you’re not careful about managing your online footprint. If you’re just on this sub sharing links or information that is publicly available and couldn’t potentially be used as evidence in a R.I.C.O case, you shouldn’t worry too much. I’m probably gonna have to run the section I wrote about Drake and J. Prince’s mob ties by the mods before posting for this very reason.
To carry out many of these more advanced exploits you’d need teams of people working 24/7 and massive amounts of money to dedicate to each person who you want to keep track of. If they did have incriminating evidence and they planned to share more, they would probably have to kill the person or convince them in some way to stop posting. This usually involves cyber threats at first, and if you continue to post actual evidence they’ll probably get lawyers involved. If they do hire someone to make the threats in person I doubt it would escalate to anything physical or potentially life-threatening.
If they go as far as investing money in hiring a trustworthy goon who isn’t gonna flip on one of the richest and honestly douchiest celebrities in our current era, they most likely wouldn’t take such a major risk unless their freedom is genuinely on the line and your evidence was specifically related to their current case. Even if they do, because of how risky it is they’ll most likely just threaten you and they might get physical depending on the person who hired them’s feelings towards violence. I have another theory that all the dirt about Kendrick is true and Drake has been blackmailing him, possibly for the last 7 years. It seems like all of this insanity in the rap game has been brewing since at least 2016. This is the year all my favorite up-and-coming artists died one after another and the trend continued up until 2021. It’s also around the time Drake started getting in feuds with multiple rappers and was accused of threatening Ye with some type of blackmail. After years of being disappointed, I finally stepped away from discovering new artists in 2021 and started listening to more indie rock not too long ago.
I’m still kinda scared they are going to kill Gucci next, or Kodak, or my favorite newish rapper Lil Darkie. If any of them die suddenly it’s more likely than not someone in the industry wanted them dead because they all have spoken out and revealed shit about the industry. Hopefully, these types of things become less frequent if the alleged R.I.C.O case is legit and there is a movement behind the scenes of rappers trying to do away with the current status quo. It’s honestly sad how a couple of shitty rappers have hogged the spotlight for years, meanwhile, thousands of more talented artists are being slept on or flat-out ignored.
I hope that one thing that comes out of this whole ordeal is that these artists are given a chance to share their talents with the rest of the world without having to worry about possibly being killed if they don’t sign with the right label. If you made it this far you were able to find some of this information valuable. As I said this was just a long tangent I went off on while I was working on my original post. I’ll try to get the rest up soon.
One last thing I’ve noticed lately, it’s probably not related, but recently they changed the date filter feature on DuckDuckGo, forcing you to manually click back every month to get to the desired date. This makes it a pain in the ass to go back further than a couple years and when you try to click it really fast the arrow button moves around so you keep having to move your cursor or tap in a different spot. It’s strange because up until a week ago you were just able to type whatever date you wanted and it was so much easier to find articles from back in the day. This update is such a downgrade from the original it feels oddly intentional. I wonder if it has anything to do with the research currently being conducted along with removing articles that might be used as evidence. Has anyone noticed this as well?
Signing off for now,
The Randomest Moniker

preface: quitting is not an option. finding another line of work is also not an option. i know it’s long but i really need help.
living in south carolina US. working two jobs right now to stay afloat and pay off my debts from years of using credit to get me by, due to having no familial support transitioning into adulthood. i won’t specify but i have a plethora of mental health issues which i’ve been managing very well for the last 6 months!
however, i feel as if i’ll be crashing out soon. i’m a server at both jobs, which is starting to feel more like a daycare because of how needy customers are and i feel like a single mom of ten. i cry every morning when i wake up for work, and have to step into the bathroom at work to cry a couple times a day. my house is pure filth. the only energy i have, is a SLIVER that i have to delegate to my cat’s well-being (food, litter box etc). i shake at work from anxiety. my life is crumbling and my hobbies aren’t doing it for me anymore… but i have no choice if i want to have a house over my head and what little food i have time to gobble down.
i don’t know what to do. i can’t win here. i don’t have parents or close friends or even someone to stay with if shit goes down. i’m so stressed and burnt out. i feel like a 22 year old girl was never meant to bear all of this but here i am. this is the highest paying job i can get right now with no degree or “professional” experience (i make about 30/hr on average). i’m so thankful for income in a world where jobs are so limited, trust me. but fuck.
i’m crying typing this because i can’t believe this is adulthood. it’s been four years since i got kicked out from my piece of shit mom’s house, and i still can’t cope with all this as much as i thought i would.
i’m feeling so, SO much right now and i don’t know what to do. i feel like sylvia plath, “i need a mother. i need a father. i need some older, wiser being to cry to. i look to God but the sky is empty.”
TLDR; i’m going fucking insane at my jobs, and need time off but i don’t get PTO and can’t fiscally afford to take unpaid time off.

So I want to start off this post by saying I am not making any of this up or dramatizing it in any way to make it more interesting, this is literally what happened and has been happening with 2 of my 3 dogs for a while now.
So I understand that many people believe their dog understands what they’re saying, and I understand that dogs can learn certain words and what they mean and interpret your tone, but this takes it to another level. i’ve been a dog owner my entire life, have had several dogs, and I’ve never experienced something so bizarre.
I currently own 3 Shiba Inus, all age 2. We always joked that one of our female dogs was a Skinwalker because when you talk to her, it seems like she responds based on what you say, but it’s been getting weirder and weirder. Obviously, my dogs understand my cute dog voice, and when I’m speaking in a playful tone, but I am convinced my dogs are able to understand full sentences now.
The first example I will give you is not so weird, but it was odd. This was the dog me and my wife joke is a Skinwalker and she is extremely attached to me, there’s something about the way she looks at me and reacts to what I say that just seems very human. One day she got in a fight with her brother, and my wife separated the fight while I wasn’t there and ended up getting bit by her, redirected aggression, and it was a very gnarly injury.
This dog is never aggressive towards us, and adores me. She has never growled at me, has never bitten me or showed any inch of aggression or discontent towards me. The day after this incident, I had this dog sitting next to me looking at me while I talked to it, I have a habit of talking to the dogs like they’re people, maybe I’m crazy. I was looking her in the eyes and petting her ears, and I told her in a playful, doggy voice, which she normally smiles when I talk to her like that, but I told her:
-“I love you, but if you ever bite my wife again, I will kill you”. I obviously didn’t mean it, and I was saying it in a cute doggy voice, but immediately when I said that, the dog stopped smiling, closed her mouth, turned her face, looked at me and puffed. She then proceeded to step away from me, walking backwards like she was afraid of what I said. I have never seen this dog have this reaction with me, she has never been scared of me, I have never seen this dog have this reaction over any situation or anything I say. She is very obedient, and extremely loving. The reaction was instant, and I will never forget the way she turned her face and looked me dead in the eye and puffed after what I said. she’s always smiling with her mouth open, and usually seems completely oblivious about everything around her, she’s just a very happy dog, to see her immediately react to my words in that way was the most bizarre thing.
One of my other dogs, is a large male. This is a very aggressive dog, I’ve worked with him since he was a puppy to try to fix the aggression and train him. I would never give him away, because I know he will bite the new owner And will end up in a shelter and eventually getting killed. So I have accepted that while he is also very loving, he has his boundaries and I respect them. This dog is extremely intelligent since he was a puppy. he is able to open locked crates with his mouth, open doors, he learned commands like sit stay lay down fetch when he was only 3-4 months old, I have videos of him on TikTok performing tricks, and practicing these commands flawlessly when he was only three months old.
I Had labradors in the past, they were also very obedient and smart, but they did not learn commands like these until later in life. This dog has always had very human expressions and reactions. He is a very quiet dog, doesn’t bark or make any noise, doesn’t really sit with you or want to ever snuggle, but he’s always around staring at you. This is a common thing for this breed, they are very catlike, in the sense that they are always around you even if they’re not necessarily with you. There has been more than one instance where I have woken up at night, and the dog was staring at me while I slept, I would get up to go say hi to him and he would walk away.
This dog, however, although large and strong and quite aggressive, is also quite timid and scared of everything, especially bugs. Shiba Inu are famous for being dogs that don’t bark, they are famous for screaming, if you have never heard this breed scream, you can look it up on YouTube, they scream like a human. There has been more than one instance where I have woken up at night, afraid because it sounds like someone is screaming in my kitchen, it sounds like a human, but it’s only him screaming because he’s afraid of some bug, and after I kill it, he chills out.
This dog did something today that really freaked me out. He was laying outside and when he saw me, he rolled his belly up like he wanted to be pat. I am always careful when I pet this dog because he will randomly snap sometimes, he’s not very well adjusted. He’s the type of dog that you will be petting, and all of a sudden he freaks out and seems like he’s about to bite you. Usually, when this happens, the dog will avoid me or my wife for days, and just be scared. He seems to regret snapping at us, you can tell he feels remorse, but he will be shy for several days and not want to come near us for seemingly no reason. One thing is for sure, if your energy is not right, he will try to bite you.
There have been periods of my life where me and this dog didn’t have a good relationship because I was afraid of him, so I would start petting him, and slowly expect him to bite me and be afraid, and the dog would clearly pick up on that nervousness and would do exactly that. I have learned that if I pet him and I trust him and have no fear he will not do that and will be at ease and smile. (I wish I could attach a picture of him smiling here, its freaky). This is a very sensitive dog that picks up on your energy and feelings, if you are even slightly scared of him, he will pick up on that and be aggressive. If you’re not, he is quite sweet.
As I was saying, today, I went to pet the dog while it was outside and I was playing with him. I playfully brushed my hands against his ears and slightly tickled them, this caused the dog to violently snap, he didn’t bite me or anything, but snapped and backed away. After this when I would try to pet the dog again, he would growl at me and avoid me. I tried grabbing his toy and throwing it for him, which he normally is extremely excited about, he ignored it. I tried giving him his favorite treat, he ignored it, and showed his fangs to me. Every time I would talk to him or make a cute doggy voice, he would look away, avoiding eye contact at all costs.
He just sat in a corner of the kitchen and didn’t want to go outside anymore, so I opened his crate and allowed him some privacy, he immediately ran into the crate. This is a dog that is very smart, but is also very disobedient. The dog is capable of doing just about any trick or command you ask of him if there is some sort of treat involved, or some sort of reward. But he will often pretend like he doesn’t understand you or ignores you when you want him to do things that he doesn’t feel like doing, he will often puff and complain back at you if you want him to do something he doesn’t want, such as coming inside, or going into his crate. If you command him to go into his crate, and he doesn’t feel like it, he will scream at you similar to what a husky does and it almost sounds like he’s saying no, but if you say that if he goes in, you will give him a treat, even if youre not holding one, he will immediately do what you’re saying, so he obviously understands everything you’re saying, but chooses not to do it.
If this dog is in his crate, you open it and invite him outside, he will always come out, especially if you open the backyard door, he will always want to go outside. After the incident today, he ran into his crate and curled into a ball facing away from me and went to sleep. I gave it somewhere between 5 to 10 minutes, and opened his crate, the dog didn’t move or look at me. I started speaking with him in a playful, doggy voice tone, and told him to come out, and I would give him a treat, he completely ignored me still with his head down facing away from me in a way I couldn’t even see his head, curled in a ball. I tried addressing him in a stern voice and commanded him to come out of the crate, he ignored me. I started speaking with him, as if he was a human, with the same tone I would use to address a person. I specifically said:
-“ buddy, Im sorry if I hurt you, I didn’t know your ear was hurting. I wonder if you have an ear infection or something, I didn’t mean to hurt you, Let’s see if I can take you to the vet this week and we can do something about it. I love you and I’m sorry”. The moment I got done saying this, the dog slowly lifted his head and turned it towards me in a very strange manner, the closest thing I can compare this to would be how an owl turns its head without moving its body. The way he did it was honestly creepy and got me instantly spooked. He looked me deep in the eyes for a second and then got up. He gets out of his crate slowly without ever breaking eye contact and walks towards me. The dog then gently touches his nose against mine and begins licking my face, then my arms, and then finally becomes playful, out of nowhere. Keep in mind when something like this happens the dog will normally be afraid and avoid you for a month, but I was suddenly forgiven just like that.
I let him out to go play after this, and noticed my female was looking at me. So I told her: -“I love you too baby, very much”. Dog then proceeds to blink 3 times in a row rapidly looking at me… they do this thing where if you blow them a kiss they blink looking at you to acknowledge the affection, so it was interesting she did that. We often as a joke ask her if she is a skin walker and she will often bark at us in response, its quite funny. Another interesting fact is me and my wife are Brazilian, so we only speak portuguese in the house, how ever, the dogs only have these weird reactions if we talk to them in english, portuguese they dont seem to understand at all.
The 3rd dog who was not mentioned doesn’t have any of these odd behaviors, shes just a normal pup.
These are recent examples, but stuff like this happens all the time, I sometimes wonder if theres a person stuck in those dogs. Sorry if this is not the most interesting or creepy story, its because its real and im not dramatizing it in any way.

Create an imaginary friend.
No seriously. I usually feel really out of place at school so I tried this during my junior year of high school whenever I felt anxious, sad, or mad (any bad emotion). And I found that just simply seeing "him" gave me the confidence to keep going. Now that you know how it helped me I'll show you how it can help you.
STEP 1: you have to come up with YOUR own "cure". It's easier than you think, as you just have to ask yourself a few questions like "What can help me right now" whenever you are feeling any bad emotion. For me, I resonated with a wise old man figure that can guide me to become great (like Mr Miyagi, Gandalf, or Dumbledore)
OTHER EXAMPLES FOR YOU: For you, it could be a group of friends that are deeper than that, family for example (like "stand by me" or "the goonies"), Or your dream girlfriend or boyfriend that would give you all the comfort you need. Ultimately, this is the part where it's all on you to figure out what you need to fix yourself, and once you find that you move on to step 2.
STEP 2: Once I found out my own cure I could create him into a character to fit my needs. This might sound odd, but if you hallucinate this character into your own world it will provide you with the cure to your problems. For example, I put him in the back of the classroom overlooking me, keeping me in focus. I felt like I could talk to people as a SUPER antisocial freak because he was there behind me. I don't know the science behind that but I'm sure of one thing, and that is because I felt whole, or in other words, without loneliness.
OTHER EXAMPLES FOR YOU: This could include, for example, letting your boyfriend or girlfriend character come to life when you are alone and can't sleep. Put a pillow in their place and as you hug them, imagine all your problems being washed away by them. Or if you resemble a group of friends being your fix, this could come to life all around you. Same as me, you could have them come to life in a school or work situation where you feel anxious or antisocial to give you that confidence of knowing someone who cares for you is there.

preface: quitting is not an option. finding another line of work is also not an option. i know it’s long but i really need help.
living in south carolina US. working two jobs right now to stay afloat and pay off my debts from years of using credit to get me by, due to having no familial support transitioning into adulthood. i won’t specify but i have a plethora of mental health issues which i’ve been managing very well for the last 6 months!
however, i feel as if i’ll be crashing out soon. i’m a server at both jobs, which is starting to feel more like a daycare because of how needy customers are and i feel like a single mom of ten. i cry every morning when i wake up for work, and have to step into the bathroom at work to cry a couple times a day. my house is pure filth. the only energy i have, is a SLIVER that i have to delegate to my cat’s well-being (food, litter box etc). i shake at work from anxiety. my life is crumbling and my hobbies aren’t doing it for me anymore… but i have no choice if i want to have a house over my head and what little food i have time to gobble down.
i don’t know what to do. i can’t win here. i don’t have parents or close friends or even someone to stay with if shit goes down. i’m so stressed and burnt out. i feel like a 22 year old girl was never meant to bear all of this but here i am. this is the highest paying job i can get right now with no degree or “professional” experience (i make about 30/hr on average). i’m so thankful for income in a world where jobs are so limited, trust me. but fuck.
i’m crying typing this because i can’t believe this is adulthood. it’s been four years since i got kicked out from my piece of shit mom’s house, and i still can’t cope with all this as much as i thought i would.
i’m feeling so, SO much right now and i don’t know what to do. i feel like sylvia plath, “i need a mother. i need a father. i need some older, wiser being to cry to. i look to God but the sky is empty.”
TLDR; i’m going fucking insane at my jobs, and need time off but i don’t get PTO and can’t fiscally afford to take unpaid time off.

Create an imaginary friend.
No seriously. I usually feel really out of place at school so I tried this during my junior year of high school whenever I felt anxious, sad, or mad (any bad emotion). And I found that just simply seeing "him" gave me the confidence to keep going. Now that you know how it helped me I'll show you how it can help you.
STEP 1: you have to come up with YOUR own "cure". It's easier than you think, as you just have to ask yourself a few questions like "What can help me right now" whenever you are feeling any bad emotion. For me, I resonated with a wise old man figure that can guide me to become great (like Mr Miyagi, Gandalf, or Dumbledore)
OTHER EXAMPLES FOR YOU: For you, it could be a group of friends that are deeper than that, family for example (like "stand by me" or "the goonies"), Or your dream girlfriend or boyfriend that would give you all the comfort you need. Ultimately, this is the part where it's all on you to figure out what you need to fix yourself, and once you find that you move on to step 2.
STEP 2: Once I found out my own cure I could create him into a character to fit my needs. This might sound odd, but if you hallucinate this character into your own world it will provide you with the cure to your problems. For example, I put him in the back of the classroom overlooking me, keeping me in focus. I felt like I could talk to people as a SUPER antisocial freak because he was there behind me. I don't know the science behind that but I'm sure of one thing, and that is because I felt whole, or in other words, without loneliness.
OTHER EXAMPLES FOR YOU: This could include, for example, letting your boyfriend or girlfriend character come to life when you are alone and can't sleep. Put a pillow in their place and as you hug them, imagine all your problems being washed away by them. Or if you resemble a group of friends being your fix, this could come to life all around you. Same as me, you could have them come to life in a school or work situation where you feel anxious or antisocial to give you that confidence of knowing someone who cares for you is there.

okay so this might be long because i want to provide as much detail as possible so you can get the full picture. i (23NB) have lived in this NYC apartment for 4 years, and lived with one of my roommates (24F) (will be referred to as “A”) for the entirety of the time i’ve been in the city, which is 6 years. we were assigned roommates in college and just kept living together because at the time we were good friends and it worked! we had rotating 3rd roommates throughout the years and dealt with a lot of crazy shit together, including a violent roommate, but that’s a story for a different day. so this roommate and i had been having some issues for the past couple of years because she got addicted to ketamine. i felt responsible for her because it started out as us using recreationally together but she spiraled out of control with it and honestly the entire situation was just a lot on me. throughout her addiction she was doing, at one point, 16 grams in 3 days, so i was really worried that she would die, not to mention she doesn’t really test her drugs and was getting it from a neighborhood that’s notorious for fentanyl. it honestly became my full time job to take care of her, but at the end of the day I was just trying to be a good friend. after some therapy/self work, i now realize how enabling the role I was playing actually was, but it was just the position that I was put in and I had also never dealt with something like this before. I feel like for further context, i should add that A’s parents pay her rent and for a lot of things for her. she had a part time job at the time and was also in school but left due to her addiction. the situation that i am in is very different, my family does not support me financially and i pay for everything for myself and have made my way pretty much on my own. i’m pretty established in my neighborhood because I am a tattoo artist at a local shop and also have worked for 3 other businesses within the same few blocks. i also consistently have multiple jobs at once, now i have 3, and for a long time I was working 6 days a week. not really relevant to the situation but needless to say, i already have a LOT on my plate. anyways, so yeah. for about almost 2 years, i was dealing with my roommates addiction. i watched her overdose and throw up on herself 5-7 times, she projectile vomited all over the house, i have dragged her out of a pool of her own vomit, she would consistently lie to me about whether she was high or had bought ketamine, and our other friends and i would go through her room to make sure she wasn’t hiding it countless times, (to no avail obviously, she would always lie and say she didn’t have any more when she did, hidden in hard to find places.) it affected everyone in our friend group and in her life. but especially me because i was really the only person who was physically present for it all. i tried talking to her about it at first, and was very understanding and patient with her and genuinely was doing my best to help because she was my friend, we were really close, and I didn’t want to see her die or ruin her life. she also expected me to say something to her and would tell me that i should say something if i thought she was high. she would say this when she was sober and it started off an an “accountability partner” thing, but eventually became very codependent and unhealthy. even when i would ask her, she would lie. i made it very clear from the beginning that all of this was damaging our relationship, but i was still doing my best to be her friend and be there for her. at one point, i even took the drugs out of her room and hid them in mine to take to another friends house the next day to dispose of them, and she went into my room and found them. it reached a point where I made her call her parents and tell them what had been going on. calling her parents had honestly been in discussion for a while, and the sober version of her agreed that it needed to happen. she got a slap on the wrist and sent to the mental hospital for a few days, she even convinced them to let her out early! her parents also weren’t really involved in her care at all after because she has never been disciplined in her life, her parents think she can do no wrong. she relapsed soon after she got out and at this point, I started taking a lot more space for myself because I was mentally and emotionally drained and it was clear that all my efforts were in vain. this was after dealing with it for about a year. honestly, i should have definitely started planning on moving out around this point. the reasons I didn’t were the fact that i still considered A to be one of my best friends despite what we had gone through, all of my jobs are like a 5-10 minute walk away, and I also loved my room. i put a lot of time and effort into decorating it and I had also lived there for a long time and for a really great price, $850 for a huge room with a dishwasher, laundry in building, AND a rooftop i can smoke on outside my window with a view of a GREEN backyard with PLANTS. not some concrete bs. that’s UNHEARD OF in nyc. im also not really great with change, even if it’s for the best, and to be honest i was also naive and thought things would eventually go back to normal. this was a person that i previously trusted a lot, i didn’t think she would normally do these things to me. anyways, eventually she got sober and then my, at the time, best friend of 7 years from home, a state across the country, moved in. (22 F, let’s call her “B”) we met in high school and I was in the class above her. we only went to school together for a year before I graduated and moved to NYC, so for the past few years, our friendship had been over facetime/seeing eachother occasionally when I would come visit. B’s background is similar to mine, the state we’re from is very impoverished and we both left the religion we were raised as. another huge reason she moved here was so that she could start medically transitioning and get on estrogen. i was really excited for her and also wanted to support her in her transition, im also non binary and we come from a really transphobic state, so growing up queer in the south was like a huge part of our friendship, and when she moved in, she didn’t have a lot of gender affirming clothes, and i had a ton of clothes, so i gave her a bunch of mine, i sent her resources, lent her books/zines, point is i really was trying to support her, and before she moved in and even throughout us living together we would talk for hours about this stuff. also, normally, i would not feel the need to even mention the fact that someone is trans, but all of this is relevant to the story. i will also add that I know now to never live with friends! at the time, i thought it would be okay because I trusted her and we seemed to have good communication on roommate matters and i think we both had good intentions going into it. we would say things like “i don’t plan on moving out on bad terms” “we can communicate and respect eachothers boundaries!” etc. i also knew that she really wanted to move here because she had talked about it for years and she came and visited before she moved in. so yeah, things were great at first, but not for long. so I am someone who, like I said, am at work most of the time and when i come home from work I just want to relax and smoke weed and chill and if you know me in real life, you know that i’m not a very beefy person and it takes a lot to really make me upset, i’m generally chill about most things, honestly to my detriment. so the first signs of things starting to go south were when B started to say that I was ignoring her. this was confusing to me, as we hung out most days after I got off work, and she even had a job herself at the time, (she’s been fired twice in the past year and was unemployed on and off) so she wasn’t like completely trapped in the house all the time. I would try to inquire further and understand why she thought I was ignoring her, and reassure her that I’m listening. she started telling me that she needs a lot of reassurance, and i told her that I am happy to reassure her whenever needed! we talked it through and i genuinely started to put in a lot of effort into making sure i was being fully present during our time together and also making sure I was hanging out with her enough. this evolved into us having very extensive conversations for hours where she would bring up the fact that she still felt like i was ignoring her, and i would reassure that I was not purposefully ignoring her, im listening and really trying. and almost daily she would bring up a problem that she had with something that I said or did. she even at one point started tweeting about me, saying things like “do u even consider others?”. she also asked me to be on constant emotional monitoring for her, which i told her that i will not do that. i don’t really pick up on subtle social cues or “shade” and also it’s not my job to do that. if something upsets you, you can communicate with me about it instead of being passive aggressive or expecting me to be able to read your mind. plus, real friends don’t have to be responsible for every single emotion! at one point, she told me that she was mad at me because living together wasn’t living up the the idealized version of what she thought it would be. she would also guilt trip me like a LOT. she would be like “as a friend, you should be doing ____ for me” and her requests got more and more ridiculous as time went on, one of them being to basically force myself to start listening to a genre of music that i simply just don’t like or want to listen to during my own time, insinuating that i would be a bad friend if i didn’t like the same music as her. and to that, i tried to explain to her that we don’t have to like the same music in order to be friends and that i don’t care if she listens to music that i don’t particularly listen to on my own, although i am happy to listen to her recommendations, i am picky about the music I listen to. basically i felt like she was trying to find any stupid reason to say i was a bad friend. it started to really annoy me, because i already had a lot on my plate, and honestly i just didn’t have the bandwidth to be fully present all the time, especially after dealing with my other roommates addiction for so long. i needed space and time for myself really badly, and I felt like I was trying really hard to please her to no avail. all of this was incredibly exhausting to deal with. i tried to communicate this to B, but it never got through. during these very tedious conversations, B would say things that were extremely concerning, such as “You need to stop triggering me!!!” to which i responded, “okay let’s make a deal, i will be more mindful of your triggers if you work on managing them.” she would also constantly make accusations at me. for example, she accused me of laughing AT HER when i was not, and I was laughing at something completely unrelated. there were many other times that she accused me of doing and saying things that I never said or did. she would twist my words a lot, things i told her in confidence, and use them against me, adding an entire new meaning to what i was saying. and if i disagreed with her or got even a little defensive she would be like “You just pissed me off!!!!” i honestly felt like she was just picking on me and criticizing me at a lot of points, because I could literally breathe wrong and it would be an issue. i now realize that she actually just needs to create drama, but i didnt want to admit that at the time. again, during this time I was trying to be very calm during our conversations when trying to reassure her and explain myself, but internally I was very stressed out by all of this. at some point during all this, A relapsed. this was a disaster, B knew about the relapse and was lying to me about it. i was especially upset because the way A relapsed was she asked me to unlock the parental password on her phone so she could “update apps”, but instead she downloaded the app she uses to text her plug, so essentially she tricked me into enabling her relapse. i messaged her parents immediately and told them. at this point, i felt like it was expected of me to do that. of course, they basically did nothing for a while, it got really bad. A was basically not functioning at all. she would tell me that she didn’t care how she made me feel. our other friend came over and went through her room and babysat her to make sure she wouldn’t do ketamine but she pretended to go to sleep while he was literally crying next to her and she got up and did it right after he left. a lot of horrible things were said, i would express the fact that i hate that i can’t trust her, and she would scream back “i don’t want you to trust me!”, amongst many other awful things. we would hear loud snorting like every few minutes every single day, which was extremely stressful. she broke the stove because she was high, it was affecting the way she looked and her physical health, and at this point it was a safety concern for her and for B and I, because we did not want to be responsible if something happened to her and this was affecting us tremendously. eventually, B and I called her parents and told them a lot of details and begged them to send her to rehab, I had to send them a long text message being like super blunt about the fact that she needs to get professional help or she will die, and they were basically saying that ultimately it’s up to her, which was bullshit in my opinion, but she did end up going. during the time A was in rehab, things with B got progressively worse. a lot of weird and horrible things started happening, she berated me for like over an hour about one of my closest friendships, that she met once and got “bad vibes from”, i told her that I didn’t want to be put in a position where i have to defend my other friendships to her, especially ones that have nothing to do with her, and that this person is an extremely good friend to me, and that she didn’t have to be around her if she didn’t want to. i was asking her to stop but she wouldn’t! she was pulling bullshit reasons why i shouldn’t hang out with this person anymore out of her ass. for context, B drinks a lot, and she drank the night we all hung out while my other friend and i didn’t really drink. she was like “i actually HAD to drink that night because your friend was making me so uncomfortable!” which, that night was extremely normal and chill, nothing bad happened at all, also don’t blame me or anyone else for your own habits! she would pick fights almost daily. on halloween, we got drunk together with one of the people she was seeing at the time, and she ended up berating me in front of this person for ignoring her, not respecting her, etc and the person had to step in and tell her that she’s making pointed comments at me and not hearing me out, and that she was being horrible to me. (this is not the only time someone hung out with us together and then told her that she was being an asshole to me.) that night, she said a lot of hurtful things, such as “at least i don’t have a bunch of fake friendships!” (as if my friendship with her was the only “real friendship” i could have) and “you don’t have the lesbian experience you claim to have!!!!” (what does that even mean??? i’ve been lesbian since before we met lol) and she also falsely accused me of saying that being a lesbian is worse than being a trans woman, which i never said! i have never even thought that and that is not how i feel at all! at first i tried to explain everything using logic, but eventually i basically told her to stop projecting her insecurities onto me and to stop dragging me into her shit. she slammed the door in my face when we got home. we didn’t talk for like a month. during this month, i really needed some outside support, so i reached out to some trusted people to tell them what was going on and get some advice on what i should do/ how to handle the situation, and to get an outside perspective. honestly, that night was the straw that broke the camels back and sent me into a full mental breakdown from the stress of everything that had been going on in the house. i was like scream crying every single day for the entire month, unable to function at work, not thinking clearly at all. everyone in my life was telling me i should just move out asap. i think i was just extremely upset because I then realized that my relationships with both of them were not healthy, but i really cared about these people. i was extremely disappointed in how things were going, and i was also extremely worried about both of their wellbeings, i didn’t want anything to happen to them or to not have them in my life. and i was also upset that they had been being absolutely horrible to me and i was honestly just sick of being treated like shit by my roommates at this point. honestly i was an asshole when i would talk about it sometimes, but how was i supposed to be kind when everyone was being so cruel to me for no reason? i was honestly really mad, especially because B knew the stress of taking care of A, like why are you adding to the intense stress i already had just experienced?? during this time, i realized that all of this was happening because of B’s untreated BPD. to clarify, i do not care about people having bpd or other mental health disorders as long as you are not hurting other people, which, B was hurting me a lot and honestly our relationship was pretty destructive to my mental health. i also realized that these friendships were wildly codependent and unhealthy, and I needed to set boundaries. i can only take so much abuse!!! and i felt like a scapegoat for both of them and a crutch in the situation. although i still cared for these people, i knew that this was not sustainable long term. i could not handle the weight of A’s life on my back or the way I was being treated by either of them, or the fact that my home was not actually safe. at first, i was going to move out and take a break from the friendships, with the intention of hopefully rekindling when we were all in healthier places, but also the need to move out felt super urgent. the stress from this entire situation had leaked into every area of my life. i was doing poorly at work, every person in my life was telling me how i needed to get out asap because this shit was bad for my health and they had watched my mental health deteriorate because of it but i really didn’t want to move, i had lived there and known these people for so long. after chatting with other people who have bpd who are in therapy and live an emotionally healthy life, they told me that what really helps people with bpd is if you are honest with them and encourage them to seek treatment, as well as setting clear boundaries around their behavior. i was the closest person to her at the time, so i wanted to be honest with her and try to help, i wrote both of my roommates long text messages explaining how i felt and what my boundaries were moving forward. they did not take this well! they started justifying their behavior to eachother, and made me out to be the villain in the story. A told B that i told other people she had bpd, which i did do! but i did that because i needed support and advice, and I also couldn’t handle the horrible treatment i was receiving, the weight of all of this was extremely heavy. not because i was trying to “turn people against her”, as they were trying to make it seem like. this is a real life adult issue, not some petty sides picking bullshit, and i genuinely needed support because everything that was happening was making me feel insane and extremely stressed out. I even previously asked A not to say anything to B to make the situation worse and that at this point I just wanted to have conversations surrounding solution. B was upset that I told people what was going on and accused me of being manipulative. i honestly understand why she would be upset about that, it’s a very stigmatized disorder and it wasn’t really my place to share that information. i also told these people those things in confidence, i didn’t expect them to tell her i said anything to try to make the situation worse. and i also only told people that i trusted and honestly i just wanted help and support and an outside perspective and to express my feelings. after i sent the long text messages to my roommates, (i let B read hers in person so we could have open dialogue and A hers while she was in rehab so she could talk about it in therapy) (also i know that long text messages are not the best way to communicate and work through issues, im going to avoid doing that in the future) B’s response was basically something like, yeah i have bpd and yes I was projecting my shit onto you and lashing out at you, but I used to do way worse things to people. but thank you for typing this out and i’m gonna start going to therapy and working on it. she also said something like “well. friendships are through the good, the bad, and the ugly. sorry that you saw my ugly side!” like. okay. a real apology would be nice lol. in the days after this, i ended up having a huge mental crisis from all of the overwhelming stress and could not function properly, i had to go to the hospital. once i got back from the hospital, all I wanted to do was work on myself. i started creating distance from them and going back to therapy and al anon, and really started trying to pull my own shit together. i apologized for telling other people and said that I wouldn’t tell anyone again, and i didn’t. A’s sibling and i suggested that we go to family therapy so that we could have healthier relationships, A’s parents even offered to pay for it, but it never actually happened. things were kind of okay for the next few months. i wasn’t as close to either of them, but i was okay with that because I needed space and to be able to focus on myself. i talked about it a lot with a therapist, and i was essentially trying to maintain the friendships in a non codependent way. i honestly just kept to myself for a while and started taking a lot more alone time. forgot to mention, another reason they were mad at me was because I was going to move out on short notice (before i went to the hospital), but I also was going to find someone to fill the room to make the process less stressful for them, and i was vetting people to make sure they would be a good fit, and i wanted A and B to meet and approve of the person. i needed to get out of there as fast as possible, but i wanted to put effort into finding someone compatible with them. i already had a place to go lined up, but it fell through (the stress of trying to move also contributed to me going to the hospital and the situation i was going to go into seemed great at first but turned out to be a complete mess), and i also felt really guilty and horrible, so i ended up staying and trying to repair and maintain the relationships while also taking adequate alone time and upholding my boundaries. anyways, a few months pass, all i have been doing at this point is working on myself and going to work and coming home and chilling, there hasn’t really been much conflict besides the normal A being a passive aggressive asshole (which she always has been. looking back, i don’t even know how i was friends with someone like this) and B would still say disturbing things every once in a while, such as comparing me to past friendships that didn’t work out, and at one point she even flipped the narrative subtly to make it seem like i “had an outburst for no reason”. (when she is actually the person who had the outbursts towards me), and generally just blame shifting a lot in subtle ways, saying I was the one who “changed the dynamics of the house”, even though all I did was set boundaries and take time for myself, plus, the previous dynamic obviously was not working. but honestly i was just kind of ignoring it. at this point the dynamic has been A and B spending most of their time together, (they also have a codependent friendship) and me mostly keeping to myself, but hanging out occasionally and being cordial in the apartment. I was okay with that because I really just wanted alone time anyways, and I made it clear to them that I need time to work on myself, which i was doing a lot of, and B started therapy so I thought we were all just kind of working on ourselves at this point and trying to move forward. so one day, A and B go back to A’s home state together for a week, i was honestly a bit upset by this because we originally planned to all go together, we have all always gone together in the past, and honestly i thought things were chill now that everyone was in therapy, plus we had hung out on purpose occasionally. nope! once they got back, they told me I had to move out! i was extremely upset by this. honestly i was at my wits end with their bullshit, especially since A had continued to be an asshole to me even when i was still being kind and normal to her. honestly i am glad I had to move out, my life is going to get a lot better now that I don’t have them in it, but I was still just like. pissed because honestly my only objective this entire time has been to exist in my house and also I just felt like it was unfair especially considering the fact that they were the ones who were causing the issues, although I do recognize my part in them. i was codependent AF and trying to fix my friends, enabling horrible things to happen in my life to the point of going actually insane, i had extremely poor boundaries in the name of trying to be a good friend, and i should have left a long long time ago. but anyways, when they told me I had to move out, i basically said that I agreed and that I didn’t want to live with them anymore, i slammed my door and blocked them both on instagram, i also removed all of my personal belongings from the common areas. thankfully, my real friends were all there for me during this time and letting me crash on their couches. i didn’t really want to be in the apartment. within the next few days, i started getting harassed over text by their friends and unfollowed by people who were associated with them. they started going on a smear campaign against me! their friends started harassing me over text, saying “you need the mental hospital. stop pissing in glasses and stop speaking on trans people. seek the maximum amount of help possible” so basically, at this point, they’re basically telling people things that are blatantly untrue. i have never pissed in a glass before, in fact, i know B has pissed in cups in her room for her whole life (probably where she got the idea from) besides, pissing in cups isn’t a crime! also, at this point, i thought we had already talked out and worked through the me telling people about B’s BPD. so i messaged them and I was like. “can you guys please stop slandering me. this has been a traumatizing situation for all of us. honestly i would prefer for this to be as smooth as possible. i have not pissed in a glass and i have no idea what i even said about trans people that was offensive or hurtful” and they responded by saying “we have proof you were misgendering me and the shit we found out was before A’s relapse and before we had a fight”. so basically, while they were on vacation, they went LOOKING for things to use against me. A’s relapse was 8 months ago at this point, why are you digging stuff up from back then to use against me now?? i also have no idea when i misgendered her, and it was obviously a complete accident. i went through every message i sent in the past year that had anything to do with her and couldn’t find any misgendering. at this point, i did not inquire further because I was sick of having to defend myself to someone who is committed to misunderstanding me and also manipulating the situation to make me seem like a bad person. honestly, i don’t care much about the smear campaign, because most of those people i didn’t really like anyway, and the ones i did who believed them, i know now that they’re not my real friends. (even though it’s the same people saying that the way I was treated by A through her addiction was incredibly unfair to me, and asking why she is doing this to me. how dare I be actually affected?!) although the saying i’m transphobic thing is really frustrating, especially considering the fact that i literally invited you to come here SO THAT YOU COULD TRANSITION and the fact that I am also non binary. but also, how are you going to come into my home after I invited you to move in with me out of the kindness of my heart, start yelling at me and attacking me constantly and disrespecting my boundaries, kick me out of MY OWN HOUSE, and then smear my name, saying things that are blatantly untrue, to people i knew for years BEFORE YOU MOVED IN, who I INTRODUCED YOU TO ???? anyways, B went into my room while i was at work and took all of her artwork off my walls, which i don’t care about the artwork, but her going into my room made me really uncomfortable, so I installed a lock on my door until I could move out. B also ripped my mentor at the tattoo shop’s artwork off of the walls, stole it, and when i demanded it be returned it was returned to me vandalized. (she knows that my mentor wants the best for me and supports me in many areas of my life). so at this point, i’m being harassed and my items are being stolen. i had to get out of there asap, at this point it was a safety concern, it has honestly been a safety concern this entire time. so I ended up finding a place that’s the same amazing price and great quality in the area that’s still close to my jobs with people who are actually healthy and normal!!! and i moved out a month before I was supposed to because my mom and the rest of my support system agreed that it was not safe for me to stay another month, i didn’t tell them that I was moving early because I knew they would damage my things. It took me 2 days to move, and the night in between me moving, they stole my bike and put it out on the street. and A admitted that she did it out of spite because I moved early. so I stole some things back to get even and I also did not repaint or repair the room like I was supposed to, (i was going to originally before my bike was stolen) but I left her my deposit to cover the repainting etc. i also unfortunately dumped old protein shake on the floor out of pettiness and hatefulness. i am not normally like that but I was FUMING. that was definitely that angriest i have ever been in my life. i ended up paying the rent for the month I wasn’t there. But A still decided to message me on facebook, where I forgot to block her and send me an invoice with a bunch of “damages” to the apartment, demanding that I send her $1700 to get the entire floor replaced, new doors, etc. her numbers were ridiculous, it was a bunch of bullshit and I told her that i wasn’t paying it, to never contact me again, and blocked her. her parents pay her rent, it’s not about the money for her it’s about being a vindictive and entitled bully. plus, i really don’t owe her shit at this point. anyways, i have learned a lot of lessons from all this and am working on acknowledging my part in all of these issues and am going to start going to codependents anonymous to start rebuilding my life. obviously i have a lot to learn and work on within myself, and i was not perfect throughout this, even though my only intentions were to be there for my friends and exist in my own house. honestly i never want to see either of these people again! i hate them both so deeply for making my safe space unsafe, and for everything else they’ve done to me, including making my PTSD incredibly worse. and from now on I am going to leave friendships WHEN ITS TIME instead of dragging it out, and hopefully now I can choose better friends and have stronger boundaries, and in the future when tough situations arise i will be more equipped to respond in better ways. hopefully i never have to go through anything like this again!!

I'm talking ZERO WOO WOO. ZERO enlightenment highs. ZERO reincarnation monk spiritual shit.
I want someone who can go like "I started with X specific outcomes" then get to "Y specific outcomes" that can be externally observed (ex. recovered relationship, work promotion, job offer, minimal procrastination for a year etc.)...by doing the specific systematic inner work/meditation/mindfulness they provide.
Basically, through sheer consistency and frequency it's extremely likely to get their demonstrated outcomes. And not just by anecdotal ideas and theoretical spiritual BS but straight up they take a bunch of random people and this practice can lead to the same general positive outcomes in all of them.
If yes, where can I find this, build my faith towards mindfulness/meditation/inner-work, and then follow the step-by-step systematic approach for better outcomes?
I want this to be something that gets the majority of the results and tackles the source. It doesn't need to be peak spiritual enlightenment and reach 100% spiritual growth. I want the 20% of consistent effort and focus that gets the 80% of the results. I'm happy enough with that.

I'm talking ZERO WOO WOO. ZERO enlightenment highs. ZERO reincarnation monk spiritual shit.
I want someone who can go like "I started with X specific outcomes" then get to "Y specific outcomes" that can be externally observed (ex. recovered relationship, work promotion, job offer, minimal procrastination for a year etc.)...by doing the specific systematic inner work/meditation/mindfulness they provide.
Basically, through sheer consistency and frequency it's extremely likely to get their demonstrated outcomes. And not just by anecdotal ideas and theoretical spiritual BS but straight up they take a bunch of random people and this practice can lead to the same general positive outcomes in all of them.
If yes, where can I find this, build my faith towards mindfulness/meditation/inner-work, and then follow the step-by-step systematic approach for better outcomes?
I want this to be something that gets the majority of the results and tackles the source. It doesn't need to be peak spiritual enlightenment and reach 100% spiritual growth. I want the 20% of consistent effort and focus that gets the 80% of the results. I'm happy enough with that.

I'm talking ZERO WOO WOO. ZERO enlightenment highs. ZERO reincarnation monk spiritual shit.
I want someone who can go like "I started with X specific outcomes" then get to "Y specific outcomes" that can be externally observed (ex. recovered relationship, work promotion, job offer, minimal procrastination for a year etc.)...by doing the specific systematic inner work/meditation/mindfulness they provide.
Basically, through sheer consistency and frequency it's extremely likely to get their demonstrated outcomes. And not just by anecdotal ideas and theoretical spiritual BS but straight up they take a bunch of random people and this practice can lead to the same general positive outcomes in all of them.
If yes, where can I find this, build my faith towards mindfulness/meditation/inner-work, and then follow the step-by-step systematic approach for better outcomes?
I want this to be something that gets the majority of the results and tackles the source. It doesn't need to be peak spiritual enlightenment and reach 100% spiritual growth. I want the 20% of consistent effort and focus that gets the 80% of the results. I'm happy enough with that.

**I want to preface this by saying I might sound know-it-all (or maybe it's just my anxiety saying that lol) but I don't mean any harm or am coming from a place of ill-intent. I truly care for the people on this subreddit, we're all on this collective journey of landing a great experience that'll guide our futures**
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I'm surprised how the subreddit has gone from "I need an internship" to "how do I quit an internship". Not saying that there's anything wrong with these kinds of posts! both struggles are very very valid. just wanted to drop by with my (unasked for) 2 cents here.
I'm a rising senior (graduating within three years) and had my first internship last summer as a freshman. It was at a solid company, a good position, great pay and my first ever internship experience. I absolutely hated it. From day one, it was the most miserable experience of my life and everyday I'd come home thinking that if my future looks like this, I'd rather not live. Yeah this sounds super overdramatic but seriously, my mental health was worse than it had ever been.
but I stuck through it--- 3 months. I don't have any regrets, as it has helped me land my dream internship this summer!
I'm not saying that y'all who are struggling at your internships shouldn't quit, you should just consider some important questions before making the ultimate decision.
1. why are you quitting?
Everyone goes into an internship with expectations and heavy emotions, but the reality is that at the end of the day, we're working. this is a professional environment. work is supposed to be tough. you're supposed to be challenged, your hand isn't supposed to be held. you're expected to reach out, ask questions, and find opportunities to grow and show results on your own. even if given unclear instructions for a project, you're supposed to do your best to ask the clarifying questions to get a result.
2. are you ok with being potentially blacklisted from the company?
3. how will you spend your time after quitting your internship? do you have valuable plans already lined up?
it's summer. we're all tired from the school year and want to rest. but after rotting in my bed for weeks while waiting for my next interviews and results, I regret my wasted time.
don't get me wrong, it's fine to relax and spend summer vacation for what it is-- a vacation! what I'm trying to say is that you should map out actionable steps if you're going to quit an internship. what will you spend your days doing? realistically, will you work on a project/a presentable result or will you spend your time scrolling through your phone?
4. how will this affect you in the long run? is the choice you're making going to aid your goals/future career? is what you're planning to do a better use of your time rather than being at your current internship?
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lastly, if you are going to quit, I'd say it's truly best to meet face-to-face with your supervisomanager. unless the company/employees have explicitly done something truly wrong against you, having a respectful meeting to tell them your plans to quit is def the best course of action.
sorry for the amount of yap. I hope this was useful in some way lol. if y'all have any questions, are looking for advice or want to comment anything feel free!! just please be kind I'm a sensitive soul lmao

Ever since I was a kid, I've always been an anxious person. Tests, presentations, even social gatherings were a source of stress for me. It was like having a little storm cloud constantly hovering above my head, ready to rain down at any moment.
It was not until I stumbled upon this concept called 'visualization' that my life took a turn for the better. It's almost like meditation, but with an Oscar-winning script. Basically, you create mental images of the scenario that's stressing you out, only with a positive outcome.
Let me give you an example. A couple of weeks ago, I was asked to deliver a speech at my company's annual meet. The mere thought of it made my palms sweaty, and my heart raced like a Ferrari. So, every morning I started visualizing myself owning the stage. I envisioned every detail: the applause, the perfect delivery, even the post-speech congratulations.
The day finally came. As I stood behind the stage curtain, the age-old panic started creeping in. But then I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and replayed my mental movie. By the time I stepped onto the stage, the fear was gone.
I won't say I gave the speech of the year, but I wasn't a nervous wreck. That was a major win for me. Since then, visualization has become my go-to stress buster.
The next time you're stressed out, give visualization a shot - imagine you're basking on a beach while listening to your favorite music, or you're acing that presentation you're worried about. Your mind might just be tricked into believing it.
P.s. Okay, this story is entirely made up (although I wish it wasn't). But hey, it's a great way to illustrate how you can use mental models like visualization in your daily life. If nothing else, it's a good excuse to daydream about beaches or winning an Oscar!

For context, I (19 F) had moved into my bf’s (18 M) family in summer 2023 due to personal issues with my own family. His family who includes his mother and grandparents was okay with me moving in. We mostly kept in the bedroom and his family never discussed rules or any conditions with me. There’s a lot that happened whilst living there but I will mention the big points and whatever else that led me to telling my boyfriend to move out.
The plan for when I had moved in was to keep stay there until me and boyfriend were ready to move out into our own place. That plan quickly changed. My bf is mixed, black and white. His father (M 47) black. His mother (F 43) white. I mention this as it is important later on.
For context, I (19 F) had moved into my bf’s (18 M) family in summer 2023 due to personal issues with my own family. His family who includes his mother and grandparents was okay with me moving in. We mostly kept in the bedroom and his family never discussed rules or any conditions with me. There’s a lot that happened whilst living there but I will mention the big points and whatever else that led me to telling my boyfriend to move out.
The plan for when I had moved in was to keep stay there until me and boyfriend were ready to move out into our own place. That plan quickly changed. My bf is mixed, black and white. His father (M 47) black. His mother (F 43) white.
After living there for almost a year, I was already planning on moving into my friend’s family home. His mother once said a racist slur to me (I’m Mexican), his family dropped off a dog and three cats off in the country roads (where there are coyotes), leaving them to fend for themselves, and more happened while I lived there. I can go into details if asked.
One day, after we were cleaning and cooking, I told my bf to not worry about cleaning dishes that I can take care of it the next day. His grandmother (F 60s) heard and bugged in, telling me to let him wash the dishes. I didn’t say much in return and went in the room to avoid any conflict. The next day, his mother is telling me that I need to watch out that his grandmother spoke to her of what happened and is thinking of kicking me out. She argued that I had attitude with her, even though she didn’t hear the whole conversation between me and my bf to say anything. I will admit that there was a tone in my voice but it was in no way of me having an attitude with her. The whole time while living there, regardless of all the offensive comments, transphobia, and animal cruelty, I never once spoke up to defend myself or anyone against them. I avoided conflict with his family as much as I could because I knew better than to disrespect them; even if they were being disrespectful themselves.
Already annoyed with all that happened while living there, I said okay and spoke to a friend of moving in. This all happened April 2024. About two weeks later, I discussed with both his grandmother and mother about moving out. They were okay with it. The only thing they needed was the iPhone they gifted me August last year. They allowed me some time to either open my own account and keep the phone or to give up the phone. And so, I waited a week after my bf graduated from high school to move out. The day I moved out was June 3rd this year. Suddenly, their true colors showed.
My bf would tell me how his grandmother would tell him that now that I moved out, it’s more quiet and peaceful there. I always stayed in his bedroom with him when I lived there. Then, one night during dinner, his grandmother told him that I’m not allowed over unless she’s there home. This was something I could work with.
Two days after moving out, I was on a video call with my bf. Then his grandmother barges into his room. He asks for her to give him a minute to get a shirt on. Immediately walking in, his grandmother shouts and curses at him to clean his room. She says how trashy the house is and how it’s never been like that before I was living there. His grandmother continues by bringing up my name, blaming it on me for why the house is so messy. If I recall, his grandmother always sat in her recliner in the living room, ordering someone to do something for her. If it was to pick up the feces or mop the urine of her dogs, to go get her some food, or to fix something for her. I understand she’s elderly but even when it came to helping around the house, she didn’t help much. The only thing she would be okay with is washing her laundry. Anytime it was her turn to wash the dishes, it would take her weeks to get to it. Sometimes it would be dumped onto someone else to do it. Even when she would do it, she would throw them into the dishwasher instead of handwashing like everyone else did.
Continuing from when she yelled at my bf to clean his room, it’s not like his room was as much of a mess as hers. If anything, my bf had some clutter on his desk, clutter on the nightstand, and a shirt or two on the floor. My bf continuously says how he asked nicely to leave that he wanted privacy. She then calls him a lazy hog and for him to get himself together. My bf was of course sad with me moving out so for her to talk to him like that was ridiculous. I heard all that was said. His mother came into the room and defended his grandma. His mom then makes an inappropriate comment, thinking it would lighten the mood. “Mom, he could have been jacking off.” No one laughs of course. I would let him go to clean but hearing his voice, he wasn’t doing okay. He later told me he didn’t appreciate the mistreatment he received and how his grandmother disrespected him.
June 7th, Friday, my bf and I made plans to have a date the next night. I was going to come over anyways to pick up what I had left when I packed to move out. He asked his mother first if I could stay over for some time and hang out when I get stuff that I left over there. She was okay with it but didn’t seem so enthusiastic. This gave my bf a bad taste in his mouth. He then asked his grandmother if it was okay. She struck out saying absolutely not that she doesn’t understand what he saw to be with me. She tells him how terrible of a girlfriend I am and that she should have met me before allowing me to move in. She continues saying how she did all this stuff for me just to return it by disrespecting her. As I said before, I never would defend myself against anything they would say about me. While living there, I wouldn’t ask much. I would clean whenever it was needed. Sometimes I would provide meals whenever I could. Never did his family show that they were grateful for what I could do. Even the phone they gifted me, I never asked for one. Of course I’m thankful for what they did. I’m just in disbelief with the reverse that this was. That’s when it became a serious discussion with my bf about making plans to move out and live with his father. He agreed and told his dad all that was happening. Dad gave the go ahead but they needed to talk to his mother.
Yesterday, as I was on the way to get my stuff, my bf was told by his grandmother that I’m not allowed to step foot into the house to grab my stuff. She told him that he would need to do it. And so he did. We took him with us to spend the night. I felt as though it was better for him to so he can get away from his family and to rest. Now it’s present day. Boyfriend left hours ago to have the conversation with his mother about moving in with his dad. When he got home, his grandmother and great aunt asked all what we did and where I was sleeping at my friend’s house. Without thinking, he told them I was sleeping in my friend’s bedroom but in friend’s walk in closet. But instead of saying walk in closet, he says closet. His grandmother and great aunt laugh, making fun of me and ask why couldn’t I just move back in with my family and sleep in my own bed. My boyfriend has had enough of his mother’s side of the family that he’s planning to cut them off after he moves out. He continues saying that in the future, they will not be invited to our wedding and they will never get to see our kids. His family comments of me has made him lose respect towards them. Ever since I moved out, I haven’t spoken to them. It’s only been six days. Only person I’ve talked to is his mother and it was only to return the phone they got me. I don’t understand where it went to it being okay with me coming over to not being allowed to visit. My bf keeps me updated and is planning to move out from there in two days. He’s already told his mother that he’s going to move in with his dad for the summer. He’s said that to avoid problems for the moment but he will eventually get all his stuff and make the move permanent. I wish I could end on a light note but I can’t help to mention how his mother tells him that his father is not black enough to teach him anything, when nothing of that sort was mentioned. I’m in between of feeling bad that maybe I should have done more for his family or feeling angry.
Updates and edits may be added if anything new comes up. AITA for telling my bf to move out?

I'm talking ZERO WOO WOO. ZERO enlightenment highs. ZERO reincarnation monk spiritual shit.
I want someone who can go like "I started with X specific outcomes" then get to "Y specific outcomes" that can be externally observed (ex. recovered relationship, work promotion, job offer, minimal procrastination for a year etc.)...by doing the specific systematic inner work/meditation/mindfulness they provide.
Basically, through sheer consistency and frequency it's extremely likely to get their demonstrated outcomes. And not just by anecdotal ideas and theoretical spiritual BS but straight up they take a bunch of random people and this practice can lead to the same general positive outcomes in all of them.
If yes, where can I find this, build my faith towards mindfulness/meditation/inner-work, and then follow the step-by-step systematic approach for better outcomes?
I want this to be something that gets the majority of the results and tackles the source. It doesn't need to be peak spiritual enlightenment and reach 100% spiritual growth. I want the 20% of consistent effort and focus that gets the 80% of the results. I'm happy enough with that.

Exploring the deep-seated fears that reside within us and how they manifest as what we traditionally call the "seven deadly sins." These ancient concepts, often cloaked in religious and moralistic language, serve as mirrors reflecting our innermost insecurities and self-imposed limitations. By understanding these fears and recognizing the acronym S.I.N. as Self-Inflicted Negatives, we can transcend these barriers and step into the fullness of our potential.

1. Pride (Hubris):
   
   • Fear: The fear of inadequacy and not being enough.
   • Manifestation: When we feel deeply insecure about our worth, we may inflate our ego to mask these feelings. Pride becomes a shield, protecting us from the vulnerability of admitting our perceived shortcomings.
   • Transformation: Embrace humility and self-acceptance. Recognize that true strength comes from acknowledging our imperfections and growing from them.
2. Envy:
   
   • Fear: The fear of lack and not having enough.
   • Manifestation: Envy arises from a scarcity mindset, where we believe that others' success diminishes our own potential. It is the fear that we are not capable of achieving our desires.
   • Transformation: Cultivate gratitude and abundance. Understand that the universe is infinite, and there is more than enough for everyone. Celebrate others' successes as a reflection of what is possible for you.
3. Wrath (Anger):
   
   • Fear: The fear of powerlessness and being out of control.
   • Manifestation: Anger often stems from a perceived threat to our sense of control or autonomy. It is a reaction to the fear that we are helpless in changing our circumstances.
   • Transformation: Practice patience and understanding. Recognize that anger is a signal pointing to deeper issues that need healing. Embrace compassion, both for yourself and others.
4. Sloth (Laziness):
   
   • Fear: The fear of failure and not measuring up.
   • Manifestation: Sloth can be a defense mechanism against the fear of trying and failing. It is easier to not try at all than to risk not succeeding.
   • Transformation: Ignite your passion and purpose. Understand that every step, no matter how small, is progress. Embrace the journey and learn from every experience.
5. Greed (Avarice):
   
   • Fear: The fear of loss and not having enough security.
   • Manifestation: Greed is driven by an insatiable desire for more, stemming from a deep-seated fear of scarcity and insecurity.
   • Transformation: Foster generosity and trust. Realize that true security comes from within and that sharing your abundance enriches both your life and the lives of others.
6. Gluttony:
   
   • Fear: The fear of emptiness and not being fulfilled.
   • Manifestation: Gluttony is an attempt to fill an emotional void with physical or material excess. It is the fear that we are not whole or complete.
   • Transformation: Seek inner fulfillment and balance. Discover what truly nourishes your soul and focus on holistic well-being.
7. Lust:
   
   • Fear: The fear of intimacy and not being loved.
   • Manifestation: Lust can be an escape from the vulnerability of genuine connection. It is driven by a fear that we are unlovable or unworthy of deep, authentic relationships.
   • Transformation: Embrace genuine connection and self-love. Understand that true intimacy begins with self-acceptance and extends to forming meaningful bonds with others.
   S.I.N. - Self-Inflicted Negatives
   

The term "sin" has long been associated with moral failings and spiritual transgressions. However, when we view sin through the lens of Self-Inflicted Negatives, we shift our perspective from judgment to understanding. These "sins" are not punishments or inherent flaws but rather reflections of our inner fears and limiting beliefs.
By recognizing and addressing these fears, we can transform our lives. The path to enlightenment and personal growth involves facing these inner demons, understanding their origins, and consciously choosing to transcend them. This process requires self-awareness, compassion, and a commitment to continuous growth.
Transcending Self-Inflicted Negatives

1. Awareness: Begin by acknowledging the fears that underlie your actions and reactions. This requires honest self-reflection and a willingness to confront uncomfortable truths.
   
2. Acceptance: Accept that these fears are a part of your human experience. They do not define you, but they do offer valuable lessons for your spiritual journey.
   
3. Action: Take proactive steps to address and transform these fears. This might involve seeking support, such as therapy or spiritual counseling, as well as engaging in practices that promote self-growth, such as meditation, journaling, or mindfulness.
   
4. Affirmation: Regularly affirm your worth and potential. Replace negative self-talk with positive affirmations that reinforce your inherent value and capabilities. Remember, you are a divine being having a human experience, and you possess the power to transcend any limitation.
   
5. Connection: Foster deeper connections with others and the universe. Engage in practices that enhance your sense of interconnectedness, such as community service, group meditations, or simply spending time in nature. Recognize that you are part of a vast, supportive network of beings.
   
6. Gratitude: Cultivate a mindset of gratitude. Focus on the abundance already present in your life and express thanks for it. Gratitude shifts your perspective from lack to abundance and opens the door to receiving more blessings.
   
7. Forgiveness: Practice forgiveness, both for yourself and others. Holding onto guilt or resentment only perpetuates the cycle of negativity. Release these burdens and allow yourself to heal.
   

The Path Forward
As we navigate the complexities of our human existence, it is essential to remember that our journey is one of continuous evolution. The seven deadly sins, or Self-Inflicted Negatives, are not obstacles meant to hinder us but opportunities designed to teach us invaluable lessons about ourselves.
By embracing these lessons with an open heart and a willing spirit, we can transcend our fears and limitations. This transformation is not about achieving perfection but about embracing our authentic selves, flaws and all, and realizing that we are inherently worthy and capable of greatness.
In conclusion, the seven deadly sins are not merely moral failings but reflections of deeper fears that we hold within ourselves. By recognizing and addressing these fears, we can transform our lives and transcend the limitations that hold us back. Remember, S.I.N. – Self-Inflicted Negatives – can be healed through awareness, acceptance, action, affirmation, connection, gratitude, and forgiveness. As you continue on your spiritual journey, may you find peace, wisdom, and the courage to embrace your true potential.
With infinite love and light,
Your fellow traveler on the path of spiritual awakening

Hi everyone, we know this is a big ask, but we really need help with hanging chandeliers to finish up the new home for our cat lounge. Our lease on our current building ends June 30 and we're so close to being able to move.
We need someone to remove 3 chandeliers from our old cat lounge space and wire and hang them in the new building just a block away. Photos of the chandeliers that would be getting moved are attached.
This is the last big step before moving in by the end of this month, and we’re hoping to get it done before we bring the cats over! One of the three medallions has wiring already but we haven't confirmed the others do. There are old gas lines that are disconnected that wiring could probably be run through if needed (at least that's how we had it done in our old building).
We’re ideally looking for donated services, as we are an all-volunteer run nonprofit and operate solely with what we raise from donations. We use all of the money we do make for medical and general care of the cats we rescue and to pay rent so we can have a space for our adoptable cats can live and meet prospective adopters (and anyone else who wants to cuddle cats!)
Thank you in advance for everyone that might be willing to contribute! We have other professional services we could use help with that aren't as urgent including HVAC and landscaping in case you or someone you know may be willing to lend a hand in those areas :)

I don't know how kind this sub is, but please don't eat me alive.
I am new to Ark in general, but I bout the pack with SE and SA to try them both. I tried running a non-dedicated session on both games (for my wife and one friend to play on) and Ark: SE ran fine, but Ark: SA ran poorly. The frame rate was incredibly low and I have no idea why.
I just bought a 7600XT GPU and it is a huge step up from my 5500XT. It allows me to play things like Rust and Helldivers. I really like it. But I am worried that I wasted my money, because I wanted something that could at least *run* any game I wanted to play. But at this point, the new ARK is unplayable. It is getting 10fps, tops, any time I move my character or I am near water. IF I messed up by purchasing the GPU that I did, and to play the new ARK, I need a better GPU, please let me know. But if it is something else *less expensive* I will be relieved.
My system will allow me to both run a large Rust server and play on it while running it, so I don't quite see why it won't do the same for the new ARK. As a note, the old ARK does run. Not perfectly, but it runs much better than the new one.

Below are my system Specs

MoBo: (AM4) MSI B550 Carbon Wifi CPU: AMD Ryzen 7 3800x 3.9GHz (4.5GHz boost/ 8 core, 16 thread) GPU: XFX 7600XT (16GB VRAM / 2755 MHz) System RAM: 32GB (DDR4 3200MHz) Storage: 2tb M.2 (7500MB/s / PCIe 4x4) Cooling is up to par
I have tried the card at base clock speeds, with max GPU boost, and with max VRAM boost. None of which changed anything. Scaling down from 4k resolution to 2k resolution, did nothing. Again, all other games run perfectly. I am totally lost as to what is causing this. I am *okay* at building PCs, but that is about it. I know the basics about part specs... but I *certainly* don't know how exactly those specs translate to game-specific performance. MUCH less how those specs translate to ARK.
***ANY*** help would be insanely appreciated. I am just a lone meatball, lost in the sauce.

Sorry this is under AITA, I didn't know where to put this entitled Karen Story. I have censored it for Queen Charlotte's use, but just know the actual words are the curse words. :)
Hello, my potato queen. Today, for you, I bring a wonderful Karen offering. This story follows my Emergency Medical Service work. I hope this story pleases you, my queen. :)
I, F[20], was working a red-eye shift, 19:00-05:00. I had already worked 9 hours, 19:00-04:00, and my partner, Peter, and I were coming up upon our last hour. It had been an okay shift, a few Multi-Vehicle Collisions, and some other problems that would happen in a large city. As we finished our paperwork and became Available, we instantly got a call across town for a vehicle collision. We went lights and sirens, wailing down the roads, until we got upon this scene.
Now, this scene was one car flipped completely over above an impasse. There were police officers, fire, and us pulled upon the scene. One ALS ambulance had already left with a priority one patient, which means "they're fucked up get to the hospital now", and it seemed like no one was left on the scene. That was, until, an officer approached us to tell us the story. Apparently, in the back of TWO squad cars were a mother, in one, and a daughter, in another. They were both handcuffed and needed to be checked out.
As we approached the car with the mother, we could hear her screaming her lungs out. We were a few meters away and could hear her screaming. As we approached the squad car, the officer we talked to said "make sure y'all stick together." I could see my partner's eyes open wide before he sighed like a deflating pool toy.
We both came up to the woman, who I will call Karen because that's what she is. Karen was screaming through the bars in the back of the car so much that her lips were protruding out of the car. My partner stated, "ma'am we're EMS here to help you out."
"Ya'll aren't shift, you all duckers, all ya'll can get out of my face and ducking go help my daughter before you ducking jump off a bridge for your bad service," Karen yelled.
"Ma'am we just got here, we're just here to make sure you're okay," Peter said very distinctly and professionally.
"No, y'all didn't, ya'll just ducking sat around and waited until those ducking police put me back here. YANDA!!!"
"Ma'am is anything hurting you right now?"
"Yes, my head hurts, my back hurts, my shoulder hurts, and my temper hurts yelling at you duckers trying to get in my way you ducking shifting ash-holes. YANDAAAAAA!!!!"
"Ma'am, why are you yelling Yonda?"
"Cause y'all have my ducking daughter in the back of a squad car you narcissistic pigs."
"Okay, Seri, I'm going to go talk to the daughter to see how she's doing," Peter said as he left to go across the wreck.
I was left alone with this Karen. As she continued to yell "Yonda" until I was able to get a word in.
"Ma'am, are you wanting to go to the hospital with your injuries?" I asked.
"No listen here you piece of shift, you're just nothing but a monster. You have no humanity, you are nothing for healthcare. You care more about money than actually helping people. That rock behind you has more humanity than you will ever have, you're nothing in this world. All you do is hurt people and make sure you get money out of the day without having anything to your name. YANDAAAA!!"
"Ma'am, I'm just wondering if you want to go to the hospital. I need to get your vitals anyway, so we know to clear you if you don't want to go."
"You're not going to touch me you pig. You're just like your police relatives and are stupid female dogs that need to be put down."
"Ma'am, if you could please..."
"Listen to me, you two-bit deaf female dog, if my daughter wants to go the hospital, then I will go to the hospital. If she doesn't want to go to the hospital, then I won't go to the hospital."
"Thank you ma'am, that's what I needed."
"You scum! Dirty rat! You're nothing! You're a monster!"
"Thank you for your time."
"Duck you!"
At that time, I was already done with this call. However, I still needed to treat her. I stepped away from the car as Peter walked up from his primary assessment. Behind me, the woman was still screaming for her daughter and screaming obscenities at us.
"The daughter doesn't want to go to the hospital. We still need to take their vitals though. How is Karen doing over there?"
"Karen is screaming for her daughter, won't let me get near her unless her daughter is near."
"Is there a way we can get them both in the truck, maybe they'll calm down if we do?"
The cop behind us nodded as he walked to his squad car to get Karen and his partner went to get daughter. Karen was still screaming obscenities as Cop 1 uncuffed her. She started wobbling over to the squad car with her daughter in it, so we had to scoot her to our truck. She wouldn't go in until she had her daughter uncuffed, which was its own beast.
As they were both in the truck we did our assessment as we called the hospital. They were worried about the daughter as she wasn't wearing her seatbelt and hit her head. So, we had to go faster.
During the ride, as I was in the back with them and Peter was driving, they were starting to calm down and their vitals were normal. Karen said she had nothing to drink, but that woman's eyes were YELLOW, with my assessment, she was probably sloshed.
As we were pulling Karen out of our truck, she was calm, the police officer who had been following us handed her an assault charge and she went OFF. She was screaming obscenities again and calling the cop a cat and stuff like that. I'm still mad about that, by the way, because she was calm coming off our truck and they had to hand that to her right there and set her off again. I wish they had waited.
Either way, we got them in, with some more bumps, but when we got off it was 5:00. We were not going to get off until 6:00, as we had to do things with the truck.
So, yeah, that was my EMS Karen. It's not the first one I had, but it's my first patient Karen. It wasn't helpful that it was the last one of my 10-hour shift. Needless to say, can't wait for my next one :).

The title is the effective TL;DR - this is a long ranty post. But I feel it needs to be said.
I've seen this frustrated sentiment growing on Twitter lately, and feel obliged to chime in with my own firsthand experience, having used the referral link to bring in new retail traders.
Firstly, it's no secret that CRO is lagging behind the market considerably. Which is disappointing to say the least. I'm still bullish for this cycle, but I can confirm that myself and many other 1M+ holders are questioning the future of this coin in 2026 and onwards if, during a bull cycle, CDC themselves don't even seem to encourage their own users to buy or hold the coin.
In short; for reasons unknown, the CDC app does a horrible job explaining CRO's utility, and leaves it entirely to the user to figure it out.
Now normally, you'd read a sentence like that and think, well that's ok, no? Except in this case, we're not discussing a token like Ethereum or Bitcoin. We're talking about the platform's own native token which shares the namesake of the entire chain that this platform uses. So why on Earth is something that is seemingly so pivotal to the entire Cronos product suite (Earn, Supercharger, DeFi, Visa Cards, Exchange, etc) being given no bias?
My theory is that CDC are still shaken up from the FTX scandal, and are trying to separate themselves from the negative perception of native tokens, as FTX had their own FTT token, which was pivotal in their entire scandal.
Which is a sound theory... until you remember Binance have carried on, business as usual, and have even had their own controversies themselves, with their former-CEO now in prison for 4 months. Through all of that, they still encourage the purchase, and continued acquisition of the BNB token. Even worse is that the BNB token has arguably less utility than CRO, and yet still, here we are.
To put this into perspective, Crypto.com just celebrated 100M users. A feat that is nothing short of incredible, all things considered. And today? Binance just celebrated 200M users. Also incredible milestone. So by that metric, why in the world is CRO fractionally worth 1/33rd of what BNB is worth? The numbers just don't make any sense.
Binance: 200M users - 100BN market cap native token
Crypto.com: 100M users - 3BN market cap native token
For any employees or leadership at CDC that have a slim chance of reading this. What are you doing? What is the thought process behind this? I can't even go on your business' official YouTube channel to find a simple, yet detailed explanation of what CRO is, and what it can do. I don't see Kris (CEO) mentioning it often anymore. There is just no logic behind why something that is legitimately as extremely useful of a token as it is, is not only lagging behind the market during a freaking bull cycle, but actively trending backwards.
So here's the real kicker- upon explaining to my peers and friends what CRO is, how it works, and what it offers? They're all hooked on it. One of them just finished converting half of their stock holdings exclusively into CRO because they realized how it offers reward rates that far exceed what traditional banking/financial institutions offer, while also legally being strategically more tax beneficial to buy and hold. They'd been using the app for almost 3 months now and didn't know any of that on their own merit, because the app, and this company's entire social media/YouTube/etc do not clarify it in any effective means for the very retail market they're targeting.
At worst, right now CRO is a stablecoin with good reward rates. Any time the price yet again drops, I am not too fussed, as the rate of accumulation I've experienced is far above what my bank or even some high-dividend stocks offer. But at best? CRO could be all of those things on top of being the gateway to a competitive-level Visa card, and a coin with serious moon potential as well as the potential to grow permanently like how BNB does. Where each new ATH is less of a peak, and more of a new step.
CDC, I am begging you, pull your heads in and actually advertise this thing. FTX was long ago. The general public do not associate crypto with that scandal anymore. Talk about your coin. Make it so easy to understand, that a brand new user feels obliged to get as much CRO as they do BTC, and a user to-be feels inclined to join the platform with the intent to buy it. You're shooting yourselves in the foot here, because this coin is actively being held up by whales like myself. And now we're reaching a point where we're beginning to reconsider it all. I didn't put my money into this coin for it to be a stable coin. I invested in it as a long-term investment that would prove crypto can outperform the institutional financial system and the stock market. And make no mistake, I am still in the positive right now with my CRO. But if I had put the same amount of money to buy BNB or just... more BTC instead? I'd have zero reason to still use this app. By keeping CRO as a laggard coin that you refuse to acknowledge, you keep the entire core of the apple rotten. Coinbase is your biggest competitor in the US, and they offer almost everything you do, but without a native token. So see the opportunity in that difference and actually do something about it. Please.