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2015.04.22 06:28 SwagmasterEDP the thicker the skin, the better the roast
Roasting (v.) - To humorously mock or humiliate someone with a well-timed joke, diss or comeback. (As defined by urbandictionary) Hone your roasting skills, meet other roasters, and get yourself roasted! Everybody needs to laugh at themselves! And other people, of course!
2024.05.21 19:06 SillyDecoraKeiHyena Type me please!
Well i've already been typed as infp 6w7 but I've recently been pondering whether it's really something that fits me so I wanted to get other people's opinions on my typing.
• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
— I'm 19 years old and identify as non-binary (he/they pronouns). I am extremely extra, I am eccentric, I love alternative styles, I love arts in all its forms, I am extremely sentimental, I can be considered strange to many, I talk too much, I seem extroverted around introverts and I seem introverted around other extroverts, I get tired easily in social situations, so I always prefer to talk more via cell phone or computer. I'm very extreme and I can end up feeling very angry, very happy or very sad out of nowhere, I usually try to be kind but I can be rude or insensitive if I'm very angry, I'm a person who really likes to fight for causes aimed at minorities since I'm from several minority groups, I hate injustice, I'm very stubborn and I don't like being contradicted while I always try to be someone who takes various arguments into account.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
— I'm autistic, adhd, i have gad (generalized anxiety disorder) and i might also have depression.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
— I grew up in a Christian family, which hurt me a lot when I got older since my family's religion is against my existence as a queer person, and it took them a long time to admit that I needed psychological help and things like that. It's difficult to leave my roots but in the end I ended up stopping believing in my parents' religion after everything I went through.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
— I'm studying animation design at college, it's one of my passions and I really enjoy learning about the topics, I just hate the structure of taking exams and tests.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
— I would feel crazy, insane. I need the company of some people close to me to regulate myself and talk about things I like, being alone makes me feel empty and strange. So yeah i would feel lonely.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
— I'm terrible at sports and I hate them, my motor coordination is horrible. I prefer indoor activities because there is less chance of me overloading myself with something (example: feeling unwell because of the sun, heat, etc.)
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
— I'm very curious, I love discovering new things, I have a lot of ideas at terrible times (in the middle of the night) and I really end up getting disorganized with the amount of things I think about. My ideas and curiosity are generally focused on creative processes like creating characters, universes, stories, but it can also simply be focused on a topic of interest to me (hyperfocuses / special interests). These are things that end up being more of a concept because I'm terrible at executing my ideas.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
— I don't like being the leader of projects and things like that for the simple fact that I'm not good at handling responsibilities, so I prefer to just execute some order, my problem is that I also really like doing things MY way so it's a bit contradictory. However, in the moments when I have had to be a leader (I was forced to since my colleagues didn't want to do anything) I haven't been a bad leader, I research the project topics and let people choose their topics to present.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
— I'm not good at being organized or at things that involve motor coordination. For example, it took me decades to be able to tie my shoe laces, know which direction is right or left and I keep forgetting important dates. I don't like using my hands to do activities because they shake a lot and so I'm always horrible at things that involve using my hands. The only things I think I'm good at are playing games and drawing, and even then, drawing is an extreme challenge since I always put a lot of pressure on the pencil when I'm drawing or writing.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
— Yes, art is something that I have loved since I was young because of the fact that I can express my creativity, ideas and feelings. I've always been passionate about cartoons so my drawing style is very cartoony. I really like seeing fanart from media that I love, but I also love seeing old paintings, especially from Roman and Greek times. I not only like drawing and painting, but I also love art in general. I love cinema, theater, books, sculptures, etc. One day I want to know how to write very well and be able to make books or even draw well enough to be able to make a cartoon. I want to be able to share the comfort I experience by seeing art that makes me feel happy and represented by doing something that also makes people happy through my art.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
— I have some regrets from the past, but in general I was more "normal" and happy back then, I wouldn't change anything because I follow the idea that my mistakes and successes made me who I am today. As for my present, I try to make the most of it but I'm not going to lie that I'm not a big fan of my current state, I feel a bit useless and very behind compared to most people I know my age so I end up preferring to think more about the future and how things will get better later. At the same time that I really appreciate some current moments of my present, like being able to play with my girlfriend most days, this makes me very happy.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
— I like helping people, sometimes I even try to help people who didn't ask for my help if they are people I really like (I may end up being seen as inconvenient because of this). I always want to be able to help everyone, but currently because of my mood I may end up not being very helpful as my mental health is not the best, even so, I always try to be very patient and friendly with people who are going through difficult times, even when sometimes I just want to be left alone and I'm not in the mood to help anyone, especially because I know what it's like to be in a bad place and i don't want people to feel rejected.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
— I'm very sentimental and I often don't think very logically BUT in arguments and other serious situations I need people to use logic and proven arguments just like i do in those situations so that the debate or serious situation isn't just a bunch of nonsense. I am a sentimental person, but to develop some thought, I need logical arguments
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
— In general, I think it's very important, but I personally can't be productive and efficient since I have a lot of executive dysfunction. I KNOW it's important but I can't be like that.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
— I like things to be my way but I don't really think I control people? I always impose my opinions a lot but I don't really control people.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
— I like games, reading books, role-playing, drawing and even trying to write books. I really like fantasy things. It seems more fun than my reality and I like to distract myself from real life things.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
— I like learning things when they involve what I like or at least are more interactive and I hate math, chemistry and physics btw. I have a lot of difficulty with classes in subjects that require a lot of memorization, I prefer things that are relative and interpretative like arts and literature and I really like classes that involve creativity. I also hate classes where the teacher just talks and talks and talks and doesn't do anything interactive and fun. I generally prefer to study at home for very short periods of time because I learn easier alone and study very briefly because I have difficulty studying for long periods of time.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
— I'm terrible at planning things, I usually do things at the last minute and I improvise a lot.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
— I think I get a lot of inspiration from artists I like, such as Rebecca Sugar, Tyler Joseph and others. They are very creative people who do things that I really like (I love Steven Universe, which Rebecca Sugar created, and I love Twenty One Pilots, which is the band where Tyler Joseph is the lead singer).
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
— My biggest fears are being alone, because it's scary not having anyone who understands you and who supports you and loves you, and being a burden to the people I love, because I don't want to be an extremely dependent and useless person and disappoint the people I love.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
— These are the days when I feel excited to do things and I can be productive doing everything I need in my routine as well as doing my hobbies and being able to relax.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
— These are the days when I feel sad, empty and discouraged, I can't do my routine tasks and I force myself to do them anyway in an extremely bad mood, my hobbies may even distract me on those days but it will be a strange feeling as if I'm not really excited to do what I like and I'm just distracting myself from my problems.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
— Ah, I don't have much attachment to reality and I prefer fantasy things, I constantly get caught up in my own thoughts and I prefer to create happy fantasy situations so I don't deal with my real problems. I'm also pretty distracted in general so regardless of whether I'm fantasizing or not I end up missing a lot of details and dissociating
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
— I would probably try to distract myself by thinking about things I like or talking to myself, depending on if the day was bad I would eventually end up thinking a lot about my personal problems and becoming depressed.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
— I'm very slow and indecisive when it comes to choosing things, I always want to gather as much information about each option in my mind or by researching on the internet about it and then I always end up between multiple options and changing my mind several times until I arrive at a concrete result.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
— Some of my emotions may be processed much later than they should have been processed or simply be different from what people usually have. For example, I'm not very good at dealing with grief and I end up not showing the sadness that my other relatives do, but generally I feel my emotions in a very extreme and volatile way. I feel happy for very silly things and when I'm happy I'm VERY HAPPY and I get sad very easily and when I get sad I get VERY SAD.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
— Yes. I really like demonstrating my opinions and being authentic, it's a very important thing for me, but even so, I sometimes end up just remaining silent or agreeing with something that I don't really agree with because I'm too afraid of being hated and I generally want everyone to like me, even people I'm not very close to. However, I can also be a person with very strong opinions and be very stubborn about what I believe in if it is something linked to social issues or linked to things that I REALLY like.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
— I break rules that I believe don't make sense, if it's something that I think makes sense I'll follow that rule, but if it's stupid and I don't understand why I have to follow it I'll probably break the rule. I've also never been a person who understands authorities, for me anyone has the right to question something if it's not a useful or logical rule. I agree that rules are important but that they can be adapted, eliminated and added if necessary for people.
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• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
— I'm 19 years old and identify as non-binary (he/they pronouns). I am extremely extra, I am eccentric, I love alternative styles, I love arts in all its forms, I am extremely sentimental, I can be considered strange to many, I talk too much, I seem extroverted around introverts and I seem introverted around other extroverts, I get tired easily in social situations, so I always prefer to talk more via cell phone or computer. I'm very extreme and I can end up feeling very angry, very happy or very sad out of nowhere, I usually try to be kind but I can be rude or insensitive if I'm very angry, I'm a person who really likes to fight for causes aimed at minorities since I'm from several minority groups, I hate injustice, I'm very stubborn and I don't like being contradicted while I always try to be someone who takes various arguments into account.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
— I'm autistic, adhd, i have gad (generalized anxiety disorder) and i might also have depression.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
— I grew up in a Christian family, which hurt me a lot when I got older since my family's religion is against my existence as a queer person, and it took them a long time to admit that I needed psychological help and things like that. It's difficult to leave my roots but in the end I ended up stopping believing in my parents' religion after everything I went through.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
— I'm studying animation design at college, it's one of my passions and I really enjoy learning about the topics, I just hate the structure of taking exams and tests.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
— I would feel crazy, insane. I need the company of some people close to me to regulate myself and talk about things I like, being alone makes me feel empty and strange. So yeah i would feel lonely.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
— I'm terrible at sports and I hate them, my motor coordination is horrible. I prefer indoor activities because there is less chance of me overloading myself with something (example: feeling unwell because of the sun, heat, etc.)
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
— I'm very curious, I love discovering new things, I have a lot of ideas at terrible times (in the middle of the night) and I really end up getting disorganized with the amount of things I think about. My ideas and curiosity are generally focused on creative processes like creating characters, universes, stories, but it can also simply be focused on a topic of interest to me (hyperfocuses / special interests). These are things that end up being more of a concept because I'm terrible at executing my ideas.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
— I don't like being the leader of projects and things like that for the simple fact that I'm not good at handling responsibilities, so I prefer to just execute some order, my problem is that I also really like doing things MY way so it's a bit contradictory. However, in the moments when I have had to be a leader (I was forced to since my colleagues didn't want to do anything) I haven't been a bad leader, I research the project topics and let people choose their topics to present.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
— I'm not good at being organized or at things that involve motor coordination. For example, it took me decades to be able to tie my shoe laces, know which direction is right or left and I keep forgetting important dates. I don't like using my hands to do activities because they shake a lot and so I'm always horrible at things that involve using my hands. The only things I think I'm good at are playing games and drawing, and even then, drawing is an extreme challenge since I always put a lot of pressure on the pencil when I'm drawing or writing.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
— Yes, art is something that I have loved since I was young because of the fact that I can express my creativity, ideas and feelings. I've always been passionate about cartoons so my drawing style is very cartoony. I really like seeing fanart from media that I love, but I also love seeing old paintings, especially from Roman and Greek times. I not only like drawing and painting, but I also love art in general. I love cinema, theater, books, sculptures, etc. One day I want to know how to write very well and be able to make books or even draw well enough to be able to make a cartoon. I want to be able to share the comfort I experience by seeing art that makes me feel happy and represented by doing something that also makes people happy through my art.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
— I have some regrets from the past, but in general I was more "normal" and happy back then, I wouldn't change anything because I follow the idea that my mistakes and successes made me who I am today. As for my present, I try to make the most of it but I'm not going to lie that I'm not a big fan of my current state, I feel a bit useless and very behind compared to most people I know my age so I end up preferring to think more about the future and how things will get better later. At the same time that I really appreciate some current moments of my present, like being able to play with my girlfriend most days, this makes me very happy.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
— I like helping people, sometimes I even try to help people who didn't ask for my help if they are people I really like (I may end up being seen as inconvenient because of this). I always want to be able to help everyone, but currently because of my mood I may end up not being very helpful as my mental health is not the best, even so, I always try to be very patient and friendly with people who are going through difficult times, even when sometimes I just want to be left alone and I'm not in the mood to help anyone, especially because I know what it's like to be in a bad place and i don't want people to feel rejected.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
— I'm very sentimental and I often don't think very logically BUT in arguments and other serious situations I need people to use logic and proven arguments just like i do in those situations so that the debate or serious situation isn't just a bunch of nonsense. I am a sentimental person, but to develop some thought, I need logical arguments
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
— In general, I think it's very important, but I personally can't be productive and efficient since I have a lot of executive dysfunction. I KNOW it's important but I can't be like that.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
— I like things to be my way but I don't really think I control people? I always impose my opinions a lot but I don't really control people.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
— I like games, reading books, role-playing, drawing and even trying to write books. I really like fantasy things. It seems more fun than my reality and I like to distract myself from real life things.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
— I like learning things when they involve what I like or at least are more interactive and I hate math, chemistry and physics btw. I have a lot of difficulty with classes in subjects that require a lot of memorization, I prefer things that are relative and interpretative like arts and literature and I really like classes that involve creativity. I also hate classes where the teacher just talks and talks and talks and doesn't do anything interactive and fun. I generally prefer to study at home for very short periods of time because I learn easier alone and study very briefly because I have difficulty studying for long periods of time.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
— I'm terrible at planning things, I usually do things at the last minute and I improvise a lot.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
— I think I get a lot of inspiration from artists I like, such as Rebecca Sugar, Tyler Joseph and others. They are very creative people who do things that I really like (I love Steven Universe, which Rebecca Sugar created, and I love Twenty One Pilots, which is the band where Tyler Joseph is the lead singer).
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
— My biggest fears are being alone, because it's scary not having anyone who understands you and who supports you and loves you, and being a burden to the people I love, because I don't want to be an extremely dependent and useless person and disappoint the people I love.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
— These are the days when I feel excited to do things and I can be productive doing everything I need in my routine as well as doing my hobbies and being able to relax.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
— These are the days when I feel sad, empty and discouraged, I can't do my routine tasks and I force myself to do them anyway in an extremely bad mood, my hobbies may even distract me on those days but it will be a strange feeling as if I'm not really excited to do what I like and I'm just distracting myself from my problems.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
— Ah, I don't have much attachment to reality and I prefer fantasy things, I constantly get caught up in my own thoughts and I prefer to create happy fantasy situations so I don't deal with my real problems. I'm also pretty distracted in general so regardless of whether I'm fantasizing or not I end up missing a lot of details and dissociating
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
— I would probably try to distract myself by thinking about things I like or talking to myself, depending on if the day was bad I would eventually end up thinking a lot about my personal problems and becoming depressed.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
— I'm very slow and indecisive when it comes to choosing things, I always want to gather as much information about each option in my mind or by researching on the internet about it and then I always end up between multiple options and changing my mind several times until I arrive at a concrete result.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
— Some of my emotions may be processed much later than they should have been processed or simply be different from what people usually have. For example, I'm not very good at dealing with grief and I end up not showing the sadness that my other relatives do, but generally I feel my emotions in a very extreme and volatile way. I feel happy for very silly things and when I'm happy I'm VERY HAPPY and I get sad very easily and when I get sad I get VERY SAD.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
— Yes. I really like demonstrating my opinions and being authentic, it's a very important thing for me, but even so, I sometimes end up just remaining silent or agreeing with something that I don't really agree with because I'm too afraid of being hated and I generally want everyone to like me, even people I'm not very close to. However, I can also be a person with very strong opinions and be very stubborn about what I believe in if it is something linked to social issues or linked to things that I REALLY like.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
— I break rules that I believe don't make sense, if it's something that I think makes sense I'll follow that rule, but if it's stupid and I don't understand why I have to follow it I'll probably break the rule. I've also never been a person who understands authorities, for me anyone has the right to question something if it's not a useful or logical rule. I agree that rules are important but that they can be adapted, eliminated and added if necessary for people.
2024.05.21 16:19 Educational_One_6389 What is your opinion on gender fluidity, and the validity and existence of such a gender? As a detrans person, does the concept make sense to you?
I don't mean this as a way to offend anyone, but rather I am just very confused as to how gender fluidity can be a thing, when it is simply what one "feels" like being that day.
This might be because I am autistic, but I cannot comprehend how this could be a "gender", when it is eerily similar to saying "I dress and act however I feel like dressing and acting that day, and want other to accomodate my fluctuating moods and pronouns", and just the concept itself of gender fluidity just kind of feels very gimmicky, and seems like a way to "jump on the trend" for young people that want to feel special and part of the peer group without transitioning.
It feels like another way to imply or promote that one cannot be gender-nonconforming or be wearing lots of different fashion styles or be using uncommon mannerism and expressions for one's gender, without being some kind of flavour of trans. It makes me sad to see that despite trying to abolish the classification of things, colors, activities, or clothes as inherently male or female, the trans community feels a bit like it's gone full circle and we're back to labeling unrelated things to gender.
I am open to any and all opinions, and I truly mean no harm, I am simply interested in how other people view this concept, and am also open to hear explanations! Much love :)
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This might be because I am autistic, but I cannot comprehend how this could be a "gender", when it is eerily similar to saying "I dress and act however I feel like dressing and acting that day, and want other to accomodate my fluctuating moods and pronouns", and just the concept itself of gender fluidity just kind of feels very gimmicky, and seems like a way to "jump on the trend" for young people that want to feel special and part of the peer group without transitioning.
It feels like another way to imply or promote that one cannot be gender-nonconforming or be wearing lots of different fashion styles or be using uncommon mannerism and expressions for one's gender, without being some kind of flavour of trans. It makes me sad to see that despite trying to abolish the classification of things, colors, activities, or clothes as inherently male or female, the trans community feels a bit like it's gone full circle and we're back to labeling unrelated things to gender.
I am open to any and all opinions, and I truly mean no harm, I am simply interested in how other people view this concept, and am also open to hear explanations! Much love :)
2024.05.21 00:12 Trix_the_Witch 32, nerdy and sapphic transfem paragirl looking for real friends
Hey there, I am Bae and I am your friendly and nerdy neighboorhood witch! I am transfem and would probably identify myself the most as parafemale (paragirl) which means that for me, I am like 80% female and 20% androgynous. I go with she/her pronouns and I am demi-sexual and almost strictly into other feminine folks.
With that being said, I want to come clear upfront and mention that I am on the autism spectrum, I am highly intellectual and gifted in terms of creativity and imagination (you could say I make a great TTRPG DM/GM) and music. I am currently a freelancer in the software industry but I currently also work on my music career as vocalist, songwriter and producer (main genres right now are german industrial metal and dark & goth rock, but I also enjoy melodic and power metal a lot). While I am not working or making music, I enjoy gaming a lot. The games of my choice are almost strictly RPGs of all different kinds (favs are ARPGs and MMORPGs these days ^^).
I like acting, voice acting, creating worlds and characters. I also really love the goth style and quite often dress myself appropriately. I am quite an emotional and passionate person in general and strive to show my genuine interest in people that I enjoy and like. The only way to my heart is through a lovely friendship with lots of trust-building. I enjoy deeptalk, quality time and last but not least, physical touch (cuddling is the best thing in this world). I like strict rules in relationships, regardless if it is with a friend or with my partner. I guess my ASD needs that ^^
Right now, I am based in Northern Europe (though I was born and raised in a german-speaking country). Plus points if you are too since I'd love to meet you at some point. But I am really cool with strictly online friends too, I myself need a lot of time to build up some trust. I am confident in voice chatting and maybe later on even camming. I think it just adds some great value if two friends are engaging in deeptalk and if they can see each other and study the expressions, you know? I am fluent in both English and German.
Age doesn't really matter as long as you are 18+ and as long as you share some interests like TTRPGs or PC games (games like Baldur's Gate, Diablo, Dark Souls, Elden Ring, Path of Exile, World of Warcraft, stuff like that ^^) with me because I'd appreciate if I could hang out with someone, talk about games and play with you.
Right now I am quite flexible in terms of times. My most active times are like afternoons and evenings (european time) so that would be another soft requirement here, because I'd appreciate a regular exchange for sure :)
Please no low effort "I just wanna have a sexy time" BS. I am on the acespec (demi-sexual) and I am first and foremost looking for people to be nerdy and wholesome with. I would appreciate if you have some basic communication skills. I don't want this to be a one-sided friendship where it is just me checking in. I am okay with traumabonding as long as it is not a one-way street as well. Just make sure that you are authentic and real.
If you have come so far and you want to get to know me, please shoot me a chat request and explain yourself. I'd like to know upfront who you are. I'd really appreciate if you are trans as well or a real trans-ally. Thank you and much love <3
EDIT: Please only EU folks and please only people who really take some effort in actually presenting themselves. No weirdos, thanks.
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With that being said, I want to come clear upfront and mention that I am on the autism spectrum, I am highly intellectual and gifted in terms of creativity and imagination (you could say I make a great TTRPG DM/GM) and music. I am currently a freelancer in the software industry but I currently also work on my music career as vocalist, songwriter and producer (main genres right now are german industrial metal and dark & goth rock, but I also enjoy melodic and power metal a lot). While I am not working or making music, I enjoy gaming a lot. The games of my choice are almost strictly RPGs of all different kinds (favs are ARPGs and MMORPGs these days ^^).
I like acting, voice acting, creating worlds and characters. I also really love the goth style and quite often dress myself appropriately. I am quite an emotional and passionate person in general and strive to show my genuine interest in people that I enjoy and like. The only way to my heart is through a lovely friendship with lots of trust-building. I enjoy deeptalk, quality time and last but not least, physical touch (cuddling is the best thing in this world). I like strict rules in relationships, regardless if it is with a friend or with my partner. I guess my ASD needs that ^^
Right now, I am based in Northern Europe (though I was born and raised in a german-speaking country). Plus points if you are too since I'd love to meet you at some point. But I am really cool with strictly online friends too, I myself need a lot of time to build up some trust. I am confident in voice chatting and maybe later on even camming. I think it just adds some great value if two friends are engaging in deeptalk and if they can see each other and study the expressions, you know? I am fluent in both English and German.
Age doesn't really matter as long as you are 18+ and as long as you share some interests like TTRPGs or PC games (games like Baldur's Gate, Diablo, Dark Souls, Elden Ring, Path of Exile, World of Warcraft, stuff like that ^^) with me because I'd appreciate if I could hang out with someone, talk about games and play with you.
Right now I am quite flexible in terms of times. My most active times are like afternoons and evenings (european time) so that would be another soft requirement here, because I'd appreciate a regular exchange for sure :)
Please no low effort "I just wanna have a sexy time" BS. I am on the acespec (demi-sexual) and I am first and foremost looking for people to be nerdy and wholesome with. I would appreciate if you have some basic communication skills. I don't want this to be a one-sided friendship where it is just me checking in. I am okay with traumabonding as long as it is not a one-way street as well. Just make sure that you are authentic and real.
If you have come so far and you want to get to know me, please shoot me a chat request and explain yourself. I'd like to know upfront who you are. I'd really appreciate if you are trans as well or a real trans-ally. Thank you and much love <3
EDIT: Please only EU folks and please only people who really take some effort in actually presenting themselves. No weirdos, thanks.
2024.05.20 21:10 Flat-Imagination6202 I choked on being Trans?
Hey there!
Before I say anything I want to appologize in advance. I transitioned 22 years ago (FTM) and tend to have trouble keeping up with how language around being transgender (did you know we used to say transgendered? Lol) is being used. I mean no offence. I try. Alot of the words that are taboo today we used as positive. The shift is interesting.
I'm wordy. Beware. LOL.
I am an old transman. I transitioned when I was 21 and it's been 22 years. The only people who know I am trans are my family and people who knew me before.
I play a TCG twice a week as a social activity in local game shops. (FAB)
We had a new player last week. She is trans. I couldn't tell and didn't know till someone asked her her preferred pronouns. (My opinion on that is a whole new can of worms. Lol)
It thrilled me to have another transperson around. She is very nice and very good at the game.
I wanted to tell her I was trans too. I wanted to come out to my friends. I have no trans friends and thought it would be nice to have one. Especially a fellow geek!
Everytime I tried to say something I choked. I wanted to come out to her and my friends. I thought maybe it might be nice to have some people know. It wouldn't come out.
One of the places with play is VERY queer friendly. Rainbows and all other queer symbols all over the place. Trans and non-binary all over the place in that store. It's a comfortable place to be. A bigot would be kicked out before a queer person.
I dunno about the other place. I have never heard anything that would suggest it's an issue.
I used to be out, an activist, loud and proud but as my life progressed I became more and more stealth. My identity became less "I am transgender" and more "I used to be transgender" to "irrelevent".
It's not something that I think of much so the impulse to tell really threw me for a loop. It was very out of character.
The words "Hey! I am trans too!" Stuck in my throat and choked me!
I am interested in hearing from people all around the spectrum of trans. How do you come out? Are you stealth? If you are how do you come out? Do you feel any need to? Do you come out at all?
As I reread this I realize I am asking the same questions I did when I was 16 and working out being trans for the first time. Full circle?
I am in a weird backwards place. I was never afraid of coming out early in my transition. Now 20 years later, I can't do it.
I'm not ashamed. If someone said something bad about trans issues I would be the first to try to work with the person.
Writing here is prolly the first time in a decade I have communicated about being trans away from friends that know.
Feedback?
TLDR: I'm 22 years(43 yrs old) into my transition and I can't come out anymore.
P.S. If you feel like blasting me don't waste your time. I ignore trolls.
Thanks!!
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Before I say anything I want to appologize in advance. I transitioned 22 years ago (FTM) and tend to have trouble keeping up with how language around being transgender (did you know we used to say transgendered? Lol) is being used. I mean no offence. I try. Alot of the words that are taboo today we used as positive. The shift is interesting.
I'm wordy. Beware. LOL.
I am an old transman. I transitioned when I was 21 and it's been 22 years. The only people who know I am trans are my family and people who knew me before.
I play a TCG twice a week as a social activity in local game shops. (FAB)
We had a new player last week. She is trans. I couldn't tell and didn't know till someone asked her her preferred pronouns. (My opinion on that is a whole new can of worms. Lol)
It thrilled me to have another transperson around. She is very nice and very good at the game.
I wanted to tell her I was trans too. I wanted to come out to my friends. I have no trans friends and thought it would be nice to have one. Especially a fellow geek!
Everytime I tried to say something I choked. I wanted to come out to her and my friends. I thought maybe it might be nice to have some people know. It wouldn't come out.
One of the places with play is VERY queer friendly. Rainbows and all other queer symbols all over the place. Trans and non-binary all over the place in that store. It's a comfortable place to be. A bigot would be kicked out before a queer person.
I dunno about the other place. I have never heard anything that would suggest it's an issue.
I used to be out, an activist, loud and proud but as my life progressed I became more and more stealth. My identity became less "I am transgender" and more "I used to be transgender" to "irrelevent".
It's not something that I think of much so the impulse to tell really threw me for a loop. It was very out of character.
The words "Hey! I am trans too!" Stuck in my throat and choked me!
I am interested in hearing from people all around the spectrum of trans. How do you come out? Are you stealth? If you are how do you come out? Do you feel any need to? Do you come out at all?
As I reread this I realize I am asking the same questions I did when I was 16 and working out being trans for the first time. Full circle?
I am in a weird backwards place. I was never afraid of coming out early in my transition. Now 20 years later, I can't do it.
I'm not ashamed. If someone said something bad about trans issues I would be the first to try to work with the person.
Writing here is prolly the first time in a decade I have communicated about being trans away from friends that know.
Feedback?
TLDR: I'm 22 years(43 yrs old) into my transition and I can't come out anymore.
P.S. If you feel like blasting me don't waste your time. I ignore trolls.
Thanks!!
2024.05.20 20:18 HuskyTheGamerDog Confusion about the label "Trans Feminine"
A friend of mine has been helping me recently with some self discovery however I've recently came across something that ended up kinda confusing me, and i couldn't really find any real answers
Aside from the fact I've seen it be used interchangeably with just trans women (probably because when you hear Transfem you'd assume trans female) I've noticed other less explainable oddities
For one the definition I've seen is: "...describes a person, transgender or otherwise (generally but not exclusively one who was assigned male at birth) who seeks to present femininely, identifies as more female than male, or wishes to transition to look more feminine."
Im just curious if anyone actually uses it in the "present femininely" way without actively identifying more as female or wishing to transition, since i haven't seen anyone even mention that aside from this one definition
I also saw it has the term "Cross Feminine" as an alternative for "individuals who do not wish to nor believe themselves to be in transition" but I've only seen it used a single time.
Im mainly asking because having a label to describe my mess of an identity (Femboy who identifies 100% as male but then also 20% as female while using both he/him and she/her pronouns) would probably make it easier to explain it to the few people I'd even wanna talk to about this stuff.
I might be working with an EXTREMELY flawed definition so if i have something extremely wrong uh oops happens and sorry for that
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Aside from the fact I've seen it be used interchangeably with just trans women (probably because when you hear Transfem you'd assume trans female) I've noticed other less explainable oddities
For one the definition I've seen is: "...describes a person, transgender or otherwise (generally but not exclusively one who was assigned male at birth) who seeks to present femininely, identifies as more female than male, or wishes to transition to look more feminine."
Im just curious if anyone actually uses it in the "present femininely" way without actively identifying more as female or wishing to transition, since i haven't seen anyone even mention that aside from this one definition
I also saw it has the term "Cross Feminine" as an alternative for "individuals who do not wish to nor believe themselves to be in transition" but I've only seen it used a single time.
Im mainly asking because having a label to describe my mess of an identity (Femboy who identifies 100% as male but then also 20% as female while using both he/him and she/her pronouns) would probably make it easier to explain it to the few people I'd even wanna talk to about this stuff.
I might be working with an EXTREMELY flawed definition so if i have something extremely wrong uh oops happens and sorry for that
2024.05.20 02:04 renganomics An argument for suicide
I cant feel pain if i dont exist. I would much rather have never been born but beggars cant be choosers so i might as well make do with the next best alternative. I have existed for 21 years, i have no prospects, no close confidants aside from the one person whose heart i broke and in turn broke mine, and no sense of direction or motivation. I made a choice i thought would protect her from pain and disappointment, and ended up causing so much pain and disappointment she could no longer bear the idea of being with me. She could no longer see a future for us. We had spent so long discussing possible futures, destinations, careers, even fucking pets, and in one moment i ruined that reality, or possibly rather revealed its unreality. If she couldnt accept me at my worst, most shameful state, did she deserve to see me at my most proud? If there is a God he, she, or whatever fucking pronouns they use are a cruel manipulator on a cosmic scale. 1.5 years may be a blip in the eyes of some master creator but im barely 2 decades old and this shit has been a massive fucking chunk of my life so far. I know theres other people, i know the key to happiness is working on myself, but why should i even fucking bother when all i want is to devote my life to her? Some find solace in religion, praising and worshipping whatever deity some guy thousands of years ago pulled out of their fucking ass and maybe that brings them peace. I wish it did for me. I wish i was able to keep believing that some guy in the sky created an entire race of sentient beings out of fucking dirt and then somehow had a son with one of these dirt gremlins for the sole purpose of this son dying ‘for the sake of our sins’. I wish so badly this made sense to me. Maybe then i could direct all my energy to that and find purpose in it. But i dont. And i cant. It just makes no sense to me. Id rather put my energy and soul into someone i can perceive, after all perception is the only confirmation of our reality. I cant see some sky daddy up in the clouds, but i can see her. I worshipped her, i praised her. If there was a God it took shape in her. They say he made us in his image but the only proof of that i can see is corrupt, selfish, and altogether destructive to itself and the world he supposedly created for it to foster. If we are the image of God then he is a vile, ugly, sadistic being. I remember learning in school about tragedies, and their main defining trait is that they revolve around the downfall of the protagonist due to a flaw of their own they were unable or unwilling to overcome. Humanity is a fucking tragedy. The only animal cursed with the knowledge that we are slowly decaying. What kind of existence is that? Im supposed to find purpose knowing im just a sack of atoms with an unknown expiry date? How do i live knowing everything and everyone around me will not only cease to exist at a certain point, but if our mess of a species manages to make it into any sort of distant future, most of us arent even likely to be remembered? I hate sentience, i hate existence, and i hate pain. I hate the way my heart aches when i see her. I cant seem to escape this prison of affection she has me in. i hate that i let myself be so vulnerable and then hurt her so badly she can no longer be vulnerable with me. I worked so fucking hard to earn her trust. It was a fucking grueling experience. And i would do it all again if given the chance. The looks of mistrust turning to a deep reliance, as i slowly peeled away the layers to her soul. She used to describe her trust as eggs she was putting in my basket, and the day she said i had all her eggs might have been the most loved i ever felt in my life. 2 weeks ago she told me i broke one of her eggs, and she had to take them back now to protect them. I dont think ive ever felt so much pain and remorse as i did in that moment. Not only for hurting the person i cared about most, but because i have to live with the fact that that unreality we had built together would stay that way, and it was all on me. I hurt her, and i hurt myself. I know theres probably someone out there with more shared interests, with more quippy one-liners, possibly someone im even more attracted to physically. But i just dont fucking care. What point is there in chasing that when it could all get fucked like this? I cant do this again. I wont do this again. Its too much. I think i might be done. One of these days i might finally get the fucking balls to do it. ive been so scared for so long. The afterlife, my family and friends, her. But fuck it. My parents see me as the problem child, and they wouldnt even be fucking wrong. My siblings barely know me and i barely know them. Visiting home is like a hotel where im constantly reminded of how much of a failure i am and all the ways everyone around me is better. And im genuinely not even jealous. I could care less about any of my cousin’s lifestyles, or my sisters much better academic performance and artistic skill, or my brother’s athletic prowess. I really am happy for them, they all deserve it and more given the work theyve put in. The only thing i give a shit about is the fact that i get treated less because of these things. I just want to be able to live my life without being put down for choices that im happy with. I just want genuine fucking support, and when i fail to not have it shoved in my fucking face as if i dont already feel like enough of a shit sack. I dont need a 6 figure salary i need a fucking support system. A small but significant part of me holds a deep resentment for my parents for actively choosing to bring me existence. When i get the fucking chance i might just have to take that existence into my own hands and strangle it away, but for now im too much of a fucking pussy to try. I dont even know how id do it. I want it short and painless, almost instant if possible. I dont want any chance of survival in the form of life support, so maybe looking into a dnr would be useful but i dont even know where to start with that. Ive heard of a trick with the car exhaust, but i dont own a car and i dont want anyone finding my dead body in their vehicle. I just want an easy death, life has been hard enough. I feel like im tipping over the edge
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2024.05.19 21:09 NerdyArchimedes Everything(?) we know about PA-san
The mysterious gothic woman of STARRY’s PA booth, PA-san was never properly introduced. She is just always… there… as Seika’s ever-present shadow. Only ever called by her job title we don't even know her actual name.
I dug through the manga, anime, and Kikuri spinoff to see what all I could find on this enigmatic character. If there is any external official information about PA-san I missed then please let me know. Chapteepisode references are included where I could (manga: [#] anime: [ep#] spinoff: [s#]). There is some discussion of the PA/Seika ship.
Appearance: PA-san has long black hair and is one of the taller characters in the series. Like Bocchi, she is actually also one of the most well-endowed characters in the series ‘though it is also normally hard to tell due to how she dresses [75]. She likes to wear long dark clothes, has multiple piercings in both ears + one on her lower lip, and (‘though not directly seen in the main series yet?) has a split tongue [s12]. It feels likely that her habit of sometimes covering her mouth with her sleeve when speaking is to hide her tongue. She appears to be left-handed, which is easiest to see in how she holds her chopsticks in the anime [ep8].
It has long been noticed by fans that PA-san and Seika both wear a black choker almost all the time. It is unknown if there is a deeper reason for this or if it is just a coincidence. For what it is worth, we don’t see either of them wearing a choker in any of the flashbacks we’ve gotten so it does seem be a relatively recent addition to their fashion. That being said, their chokers aren’t exactly matching. PA-san’s sometimes has a ring attached to its front; in the manga Seika’s is consistently a bit thinner than PA-san’s while in the anime it just a bit lighter in color instead. It can also be noted there are also several other characters who wear chokers, most notably SIDEROS’s Tsuki (always) and Akubi (sometimes) [27]. Even Nijika and Kita’s outfits sometimes include one.
Personal life: Her exact age is unknown but she relates well with the other adults in their late 20's/early 30's. As a child she was quite active and sporty [75] but she ended up failing out of high school in her first year due to not being able to wake up early in the mornings. Even now this is hard for her to do which is why she likes night jobs [26]. Being low energy in general, PA-san is perhaps the least active of the main adult trio, preferring to simply observe the amusing antics going on around her. Along with Seika and Hiroi, she feels detached from normal adult society and is somewhat envious of the youthful girls. PA-san is especially self-conscious about her skin condition [26, s4]. She lives alone and is pretty lonely [38]. Outside of working at STARRY, she also livestreams playing video games as a VTuber under the name Otogi Alto (音戯アルト; the kanji for Otogi might be read literally as “sound-play”) [39]. Through that identity she became good online pals with SICKHACK’s Eliza as her oshi [s12]. Although PA-san comes off as the gentlest and most stable of the adults, she is able to be quite ruthless with a smile [24] and is just as capable of mood swings as the others.
STARRY: PA-san is the most trusted (and apparently only other adult) member of Seika’s staff. At the start of the series STARRY had opened up just “recently” so it seems likely PA-san has been employed there from the very beginning [1]. PA-san’s role as the… well… PA means she has perhaps the most technical job. But beyond that she backs up Seika by stepping in when any troubles arise (like when Yami was stirring things up) [23-4] and interpreting her tsundere-speak [ep5]. PA-san seems to find great amusement in observing Seika. She shows little fear towards her employer, regularly poking her about her soft spot for Nijika/Bocchi/Kessoku Band, calling her out on irrational behavior, and able to go as far as smashing a cake in her face without much hesitation [40].
In saying all of this, they do not really show obvious signs of being close outside of a professional relationship. It seems unlikely they knew each other before Seika hired her seeing how Seika didn’t learn of PA-san’s childhood until recently [75] and PA-san likewise hasn’t shown familiarity with Seika’s past. It is even technically unconfirmed if Seika herself remembers PA-san’s real name. As her employer Seika HAS to know PA-san’s name to some extent but we’ve never seen her use it. At the same time, Seika has also doesn't call her “PA-san” like the others, instead seemingly only using impersonal pronouns. There is a point in the manga where Seika could be calling her “PA-san” [26], but in context I think it is Kikuri speaking. In the end, it seems likely that Seika really does know her name and would use it rather than calling her "PA-san" but is too gruff to ever do so. On her part, PA-san similarly only ever calls Seika “Manager”, something Seika insists on even with her sister.
Various anime differences:
PA-san must've been pretty well liked by the anime staff because she was actually given several additional appearances and small interactions in the anime, which mostly solidify her identity as Seika’s shadow. Then in general, PA-san is always wearing a choker unlike in the manga where there are a few times she isn’t wearing it even at STARRY and, like Bocchi, her body’s proportions were made much more subdued in the anime's art style.
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I dug through the manga, anime, and Kikuri spinoff to see what all I could find on this enigmatic character. If there is any external official information about PA-san I missed then please let me know. Chapteepisode references are included where I could (manga: [#] anime: [ep#] spinoff: [s#]). There is some discussion of the PA/Seika ship.
Appearance: PA-san has long black hair and is one of the taller characters in the series. Like Bocchi, she is actually also one of the most well-endowed characters in the series ‘though it is also normally hard to tell due to how she dresses [75]. She likes to wear long dark clothes, has multiple piercings in both ears + one on her lower lip, and (‘though not directly seen in the main series yet?) has a split tongue [s12]. It feels likely that her habit of sometimes covering her mouth with her sleeve when speaking is to hide her tongue. She appears to be left-handed, which is easiest to see in how she holds her chopsticks in the anime [ep8].
It has long been noticed by fans that PA-san and Seika both wear a black choker almost all the time. It is unknown if there is a deeper reason for this or if it is just a coincidence. For what it is worth, we don’t see either of them wearing a choker in any of the flashbacks we’ve gotten so it does seem be a relatively recent addition to their fashion. That being said, their chokers aren’t exactly matching. PA-san’s sometimes has a ring attached to its front; in the manga Seika’s is consistently a bit thinner than PA-san’s while in the anime it just a bit lighter in color instead. It can also be noted there are also several other characters who wear chokers, most notably SIDEROS’s Tsuki (always) and Akubi (sometimes) [27]. Even Nijika and Kita’s outfits sometimes include one.
Personal life: Her exact age is unknown but she relates well with the other adults in their late 20's/early 30's. As a child she was quite active and sporty [75] but she ended up failing out of high school in her first year due to not being able to wake up early in the mornings. Even now this is hard for her to do which is why she likes night jobs [26]. Being low energy in general, PA-san is perhaps the least active of the main adult trio, preferring to simply observe the amusing antics going on around her. Along with Seika and Hiroi, she feels detached from normal adult society and is somewhat envious of the youthful girls. PA-san is especially self-conscious about her skin condition [26, s4]. She lives alone and is pretty lonely [38]. Outside of working at STARRY, she also livestreams playing video games as a VTuber under the name Otogi Alto (音戯アルト; the kanji for Otogi might be read literally as “sound-play”) [39]. Through that identity she became good online pals with SICKHACK’s Eliza as her oshi [s12]. Although PA-san comes off as the gentlest and most stable of the adults, she is able to be quite ruthless with a smile [24] and is just as capable of mood swings as the others.
STARRY: PA-san is the most trusted (and apparently only other adult) member of Seika’s staff. At the start of the series STARRY had opened up just “recently” so it seems likely PA-san has been employed there from the very beginning [1]. PA-san’s role as the… well… PA means she has perhaps the most technical job. But beyond that she backs up Seika by stepping in when any troubles arise (like when Yami was stirring things up) [23-4] and interpreting her tsundere-speak [ep5]. PA-san seems to find great amusement in observing Seika. She shows little fear towards her employer, regularly poking her about her soft spot for Nijika/Bocchi/Kessoku Band, calling her out on irrational behavior, and able to go as far as smashing a cake in her face without much hesitation [40].
In saying all of this, they do not really show obvious signs of being close outside of a professional relationship. It seems unlikely they knew each other before Seika hired her seeing how Seika didn’t learn of PA-san’s childhood until recently [75] and PA-san likewise hasn’t shown familiarity with Seika’s past. It is even technically unconfirmed if Seika herself remembers PA-san’s real name. As her employer Seika HAS to know PA-san’s name to some extent but we’ve never seen her use it. At the same time, Seika has also doesn't call her “PA-san” like the others, instead seemingly only using impersonal pronouns. There is a point in the manga where Seika could be calling her “PA-san” [26], but in context I think it is Kikuri speaking. In the end, it seems likely that Seika really does know her name and would use it rather than calling her "PA-san" but is too gruff to ever do so. On her part, PA-san similarly only ever calls Seika “Manager”, something Seika insists on even with her sister.
Various anime differences:
PA-san must've been pretty well liked by the anime staff because she was actually given several additional appearances and small interactions in the anime, which mostly solidify her identity as Seika’s shadow. Then in general, PA-san is always wearing a choker unlike in the manga where there are a few times she isn’t wearing it even at STARRY and, like Bocchi, her body’s proportions were made much more subdued in the anime's art style.
- OP: She appears in three places: 1) Standing behind Seika waving her arm. 2) In the background of (1) they seem to be back-to-back as her pierced ear and dark hair can be briefly seen before Seika and her gaze completely takes over the screen. 3) Standing near Seika at STARRY’s bar.
- Ep2: While Seika is watching Nijika freak out over Bocchi, PA-san mentions to her it looks like things will be fun with Bocchi around.
- Ep3: PA-san smells then compliments Kita on her shampoo.
- Ep5: PA-san stops looking at her phone to observe the Ijichi sibling drama. When Ryo shows Seika the picture of her sleeping with a stuffed animal, PA-san slinks up behind them to take a look herself and calls it cute. She giggles at Bocchi acting like a dog. PA-san watches Kessoku Band’s audition along with Seika and translates her tsundere-speech for them.
- Ep8: PA-san joins in the afterparty where she can be seen quietly drinking some kind of purple beverage next to Seika. Her one line is disagreeing with Seika that rather than Bocchi’s weird faces being scary they have got personality.
- Ep12: As her final appearance, PA-san seems to sense Seika getting excited about Bocchi’s surprise birthday present.
- Ep8: Many of the teru teru bouzu Bocchi had made were really quite terrifying, so upon first entering STARRY, PA-san asks Seika when she had turned the place into a haunted house [12].
- Ep9: We see Nijika talking music and food with PA-san [14]. Along with most of the rest of this chapter about the girls studying for exams, the adults displaying their uselessness in helping the girls study got cut [16].
2024.05.19 18:17 Eldritch_Anomaly The Arisen: Rise from the Grave & navigate the Political Machinations of a Kingdom ruled by a lich! [D&D5e][Homebrew Setting][LGBTQIA+ Friendly][Free Session 0][Saturday][FoundryVTT][PAID][15$] [3/5 Seats FILLED]
📜 Experience the Political Machinations of a Kingdom ruled by a lich in this dark fantasy setting of Dead Gods and a Shattered Sun.
3/5 Seats are Filled and we're starting this Saturday!!!
You remember little of your death, perhaps fleeting memories, sensations, and flashing images. You might even remember the events or days leading up to your death clearly. However, the details of your untimely demise are shrouded in mystery.
As you list aimlessly in whatever afterlife you have found yourself in a voice echoes around you. A tether wraps around your neck as your spirit begins to burn. “...come forth lost souls and join me….Aslendus I call upon you...come forth and become Arisen!” Bits and pieces of a chant fill your ears as you can feel the weight of mortal flesh settle upon you once more and, finally, your eyes open once more!
Even with the cloud of your death filling your mind, what matters most is Estelle’s motives. War is brewing at her borders. Her people are restless, and some of her subjects plot against her. Political intrigue can be found everywhere as the Divine Land of Astrana musters forces and intel on the Lichdom, all while the Avexin Empire, land ruled by devils and The Blood, sit quietly behind the scenes plotting their machinations.
You now find yourself bound to this ancient Queen, rumored to be one of the most powerful liches, second only to The Ruler of Death himself. She who sacrificed her entire country to ascend, turning them into Undead and Demons to save them from the end of an era, from The Black Month.
How will you navigate the political landscape of this odd country ruled by the dead, for the dead? Will you seek to free yourself from the Queen, or help your newfound
Backstories are created together to immerse your character. First, you will write something original and creative then I will provide ideas and supplements until the backstory truly comes alive. each player will also write 4 rumors about their character that may be true, false, or partially true. These rumors will be distributed to the other players.
Once the seats are filled, we will run Session 0 and schedule Session 1. Session 0 is a group activity to learn Foundry VTT and to get to know each other. Session 0 is free!
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3/5 Seats are Filled and we're starting this Saturday!!!
Overview
The Arisen is a Political Intrigue campaign based around a country ruled by the Lich Queen Estelle. It is heavily inspired by gothic horror genre's, as well as taking influence from sources such as darkest dungeon, dark souls, and bloodborne. Explore a unique political landscape of a country of undead and demons, bordered by a Divine Land and in the sights of the Avexin Empire ruled by The Blood and allies of devils.The Dead Rise
You are an adventurer of some renown is respected or feared by the select few who’s lives you have directly impacted, and you are dead.You remember little of your death, perhaps fleeting memories, sensations, and flashing images. You might even remember the events or days leading up to your death clearly. However, the details of your untimely demise are shrouded in mystery.
As you list aimlessly in whatever afterlife you have found yourself in a voice echoes around you. A tether wraps around your neck as your spirit begins to burn. “...come forth lost souls and join me….Aslendus I call upon you...come forth and become Arisen!” Bits and pieces of a chant fill your ears as you can feel the weight of mortal flesh settle upon you once more and, finally, your eyes open once more!
Who are you?
You are five 1st-level adventurers. You met an untimely end, but now have been resurrected by the powers of Estelle Ofros, the Lich Queen. However, the power and abilities you once held seem to be weakened. You find yourself in The Lichdom of Ofros bound to the queen by the Hand of Estelle. How your body got here, the circumstances of your death, and the intricacies of your newfound life are few among the mysteries you must discover answers for.Even with the cloud of your death filling your mind, what matters most is Estelle’s motives. War is brewing at her borders. Her people are restless, and some of her subjects plot against her. Political intrigue can be found everywhere as the Divine Land of Astrana musters forces and intel on the Lichdom, all while the Avexin Empire, land ruled by devils and The Blood, sit quietly behind the scenes plotting their machinations.
You now find yourself bound to this ancient Queen, rumored to be one of the most powerful liches, second only to The Ruler of Death himself. She who sacrificed her entire country to ascend, turning them into Undead and Demons to save them from the end of an era, from The Black Month.
How will you navigate the political landscape of this odd country ruled by the dead, for the dead? Will you seek to free yourself from the Queen, or help your newfound
Handout
House Rules
You can find more detailed info on the World Lore Here:
💥 Expectations- Free Session 0 & first session to see how we all vibe.
- We will be starting the game once we get 3 players with the hopes of eventually having 5 players.
- 3 to 4 hour sessions.
- Session every week
- Custom Website for Setting & Campaign Lore.
- All source material is accessible in Foundry VTT.
- Constant Access to Foundry Server through Forge.com hosting.
- Fully integrated and animated Foundry VTT.
- Custom Discord Server for the campaign.
- Custom character backstories and arcs.
- Homebrew rules and custom Bloodlines System. Character creation is performed on FoundryVTT. All races and classes in dnd5e are allowed. As well as a few homebrew options including custom races or Laserllama's alternate classes.
Backstories are created together to immerse your character. First, you will write something original and creative then I will provide ideas and supplements until the backstory truly comes alive. each player will also write 4 rumors about their character that may be true, false, or partially true. These rumors will be distributed to the other players.
Once the seats are filled, we will run Session 0 and schedule Session 1. Session 0 is a group activity to learn Foundry VTT and to get to know each other. Session 0 is free!
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2024.05.19 03:06 Skytho1990 Who/what am I? (new to exploring my gender identity)
Hi everyone,
as a preface, I am currently looking for a therapist to help me with this but that takes a while and I wanted to get some input from people with lived experiences. As a heads-up, I will be talking about my personal struggle with my (male)body and sexuality so if you would rather avoid confronting a similar part of yourself, please feel free to skip this one :).
Also, I am thoroughly inexperienced in this area. If I am saying something that might be insensitive, please to tell, I want to be better.
So for starters I am not out to anyone (even myself). I am currently AMAB, straight, have identified as such all my life and use he/him pronouns. However, I have never felt "masculine"; neither in actions, nor my body.
After many years of slight doubts that I suppressed over and over, I want to finally figure out what I really want/am. I am exhibiting some signs of transgenderism, but I am finding it hard to entertain the thought that I really might be. I am currently just dabbling in thought experiments towards slowly loosening my self-image of "just" male some and I have no idea where this might lead.
As for my actual experience, I have always been the "soft" guy. I danced, sang in choirs, liked to go shopping, enjoyed nice clothes, was mostly friends with girls in high school, hated anything stereotypically "male" and it is and always has been hard for me to connect with other people on that "male" friendship level. I have never, however, had the urge to actively outwardly be more feminine either at least when it comes to anything related to mannerism or dress. It's more when I look at the kinds of social interactions my GFs/sistemother have had with their friends, that I find myself craving similar connections.
My biggest inner struggle is permanently my relationship with my body. In a nutshell, I hate my exterior genitals. I will avoid looking in any mirror, only wear tight underwear that prevents me from noticing things moving around. If I'm having a good day and, say, look down while wearing swimming shorts and I see the outline, my mood sours. I cannot really enjoy receiving intimate attention where that thing is the focus (receiving oral is terrible) while I adore giving pleasure. This makes equitable sexual relations ... a struggle (also I consider myself somewhere on the demi-greysexual side). I have felt like this in some way for probably 20 years (I'm 34 ... kinda late to the game of questioning my gender). I experience pretty strong arousal at the thought of being a woman. Whatever sexual imagery I see, whether in real life or in media, I cannot help but imagine myself as the female part. Just seeing male primary genitals is just about the biggest turn-off. I have tried tucking and have had moderately decent results temporarily but have not found it useful or effective for anything more than a quick feel-good around the house and to see how I would feel when I look down and don't see him (spoiler: pretty good). I would like to be better at it.
I don't know that I would call it gender dysphoria though ... I am generally not unhappy living life as a (soft) guy and while I wouldn't mind exploring some and see how I feel, I currently don't know that living my social life as a woman is what I want. If I could choose to by reborn as a woman, sure, I would say yes but with the path I am currently on, that seems very far away.
I guess I am just confused and finally want to address it and try to do justice by myself. I would be grateful for any insights, experiences, resources, kind words, smiling faces :) Y'all are fantastic and I love the positivity here! Cheers!
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as a preface, I am currently looking for a therapist to help me with this but that takes a while and I wanted to get some input from people with lived experiences. As a heads-up, I will be talking about my personal struggle with my (male)body and sexuality so if you would rather avoid confronting a similar part of yourself, please feel free to skip this one :).
Also, I am thoroughly inexperienced in this area. If I am saying something that might be insensitive, please to tell, I want to be better.
So for starters I am not out to anyone (even myself). I am currently AMAB, straight, have identified as such all my life and use he/him pronouns. However, I have never felt "masculine"; neither in actions, nor my body.
After many years of slight doubts that I suppressed over and over, I want to finally figure out what I really want/am. I am exhibiting some signs of transgenderism, but I am finding it hard to entertain the thought that I really might be. I am currently just dabbling in thought experiments towards slowly loosening my self-image of "just" male some and I have no idea where this might lead.
As for my actual experience, I have always been the "soft" guy. I danced, sang in choirs, liked to go shopping, enjoyed nice clothes, was mostly friends with girls in high school, hated anything stereotypically "male" and it is and always has been hard for me to connect with other people on that "male" friendship level. I have never, however, had the urge to actively outwardly be more feminine either at least when it comes to anything related to mannerism or dress. It's more when I look at the kinds of social interactions my GFs/sistemother have had with their friends, that I find myself craving similar connections.
My biggest inner struggle is permanently my relationship with my body. In a nutshell, I hate my exterior genitals. I will avoid looking in any mirror, only wear tight underwear that prevents me from noticing things moving around. If I'm having a good day and, say, look down while wearing swimming shorts and I see the outline, my mood sours. I cannot really enjoy receiving intimate attention where that thing is the focus (receiving oral is terrible) while I adore giving pleasure. This makes equitable sexual relations ... a struggle (also I consider myself somewhere on the demi-greysexual side). I have felt like this in some way for probably 20 years (I'm 34 ... kinda late to the game of questioning my gender). I experience pretty strong arousal at the thought of being a woman. Whatever sexual imagery I see, whether in real life or in media, I cannot help but imagine myself as the female part. Just seeing male primary genitals is just about the biggest turn-off. I have tried tucking and have had moderately decent results temporarily but have not found it useful or effective for anything more than a quick feel-good around the house and to see how I would feel when I look down and don't see him (spoiler: pretty good). I would like to be better at it.
I don't know that I would call it gender dysphoria though ... I am generally not unhappy living life as a (soft) guy and while I wouldn't mind exploring some and see how I feel, I currently don't know that living my social life as a woman is what I want. If I could choose to by reborn as a woman, sure, I would say yes but with the path I am currently on, that seems very far away.
I guess I am just confused and finally want to address it and try to do justice by myself. I would be grateful for any insights, experiences, resources, kind words, smiling faces :) Y'all are fantastic and I love the positivity here! Cheers!
2024.05.19 02:18 LogLongjumping I don't have a lot of friends, and a part of that is that as a young person, I'm really not used to how most young persons I know swear a lot and are unserious in their attitude about most things... Should I change? If so, how?
Today's young people swear a lot. People online swear a lot. People also swear a lot when they're close to you. The combination of all three factors makes talking to a lot of people in private (as in non-professional) contexts very frustrating for me. I have zero difficulty talking to people of all age ranges or backgrounds in professional contexts, even for projects or tasks that many would find awkward. However, I can't "enjoy" talking to people who could be my friends if only they were not as sweary or unserious all the time.
I don't entirely know why I'm like this. I used to be a bit more normal in this respect, until I went to a different country for education, and, having put all my efforts into academics and learning a new language, I guess I became a lot more serious in terms of my personality. My preferred way of watching movies and shows and enjoying video games turned from the most average one to one that is far too analytical than most people would enjoy. I could no longer engage in many recreational activities I used to enjoy with my previous friends, then I lost most of my previous friends, and in the process somewhat learned to keep my thoughts to myself a bit more. My own "seriousness" I can handle now, but what I still can't fully handle is that I seem to also have lost my ability to cope with others' lack of seriousness (most commonly, people's excessive use of swear words.)
One example might be how the word "sh*t" can technically be used as a pronoun to mean just about anything in today's English... or maybe just American English? But practically, most online English (I'm mentioning online English because even with personal friends, so much of our conversations today occur online or on phones... and with that comes the much more informal standard of language). I just... can't handle that. One use of it and I can still keep a straight face, but internally my enjoyment of the conversation is gone. Three uses and I feel a strong urge to leave.
I get the use of swears in swear-necessary situations, I really do. I do shout "fu*k" when I hit my toes, but what I don't get is when people use repulsive words when there's no need for one, and when they're not even trying to insult anyone or anything.
Of course, this increased prevalence of non-insulting swear words also makes insulting uses of swear words more prevalent. People can quickly call things they don't understand "sh*t movies," "retard policies," or just "fu*k this game," only to change their opinions halfway through the movie. Their hasty judgments almost seem like a subconscious rebellion against the logical, analytical thinking they did frequently in schools and now continue to do in their professional lives... I mean, they are entitled to their ways of thinking ableto saying things without thinking. They are all good people and I know that when making important decisions they apply their full logical faculties. However, I'm not able to make friends with most of these unserious persons around me... which is to say, basically everyone around me.
Back in high school, most people (advisor type, mostly) told me "it's fine, just go to college and people would be more serious." In college, they say "just do grad school, people would be more serious there."
Now I've worked for a few years, and I still can't seem to find people I'd enjoy talking to... and I'm now much more used to being alone than having friends.
I think if I don't do something, I will probably stay rather alone for the foreseeable future. I'm used to it right now, but I do have anxiety about accepting this as a permanent state of my life. Will I have regrets?
Is this something I should work on? Is this something I could work on? Or, do I accept my personal preferences in conversations, but try to find more serious persons to make friends with? And where can I find such persons in today's world? Thanks for any advice and sorry if this question is a bit stupid, but the name of this subreddit is what gave me the courage to ask it.
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I don't entirely know why I'm like this. I used to be a bit more normal in this respect, until I went to a different country for education, and, having put all my efforts into academics and learning a new language, I guess I became a lot more serious in terms of my personality. My preferred way of watching movies and shows and enjoying video games turned from the most average one to one that is far too analytical than most people would enjoy. I could no longer engage in many recreational activities I used to enjoy with my previous friends, then I lost most of my previous friends, and in the process somewhat learned to keep my thoughts to myself a bit more. My own "seriousness" I can handle now, but what I still can't fully handle is that I seem to also have lost my ability to cope with others' lack of seriousness (most commonly, people's excessive use of swear words.)
One example might be how the word "sh*t" can technically be used as a pronoun to mean just about anything in today's English... or maybe just American English? But practically, most online English (I'm mentioning online English because even with personal friends, so much of our conversations today occur online or on phones... and with that comes the much more informal standard of language). I just... can't handle that. One use of it and I can still keep a straight face, but internally my enjoyment of the conversation is gone. Three uses and I feel a strong urge to leave.
I get the use of swears in swear-necessary situations, I really do. I do shout "fu*k" when I hit my toes, but what I don't get is when people use repulsive words when there's no need for one, and when they're not even trying to insult anyone or anything.
Of course, this increased prevalence of non-insulting swear words also makes insulting uses of swear words more prevalent. People can quickly call things they don't understand "sh*t movies," "retard policies," or just "fu*k this game," only to change their opinions halfway through the movie. Their hasty judgments almost seem like a subconscious rebellion against the logical, analytical thinking they did frequently in schools and now continue to do in their professional lives... I mean, they are entitled to their ways of thinking ableto saying things without thinking. They are all good people and I know that when making important decisions they apply their full logical faculties. However, I'm not able to make friends with most of these unserious persons around me... which is to say, basically everyone around me.
Back in high school, most people (advisor type, mostly) told me "it's fine, just go to college and people would be more serious." In college, they say "just do grad school, people would be more serious there."
Now I've worked for a few years, and I still can't seem to find people I'd enjoy talking to... and I'm now much more used to being alone than having friends.
I think if I don't do something, I will probably stay rather alone for the foreseeable future. I'm used to it right now, but I do have anxiety about accepting this as a permanent state of my life. Will I have regrets?
Is this something I should work on? Is this something I could work on? Or, do I accept my personal preferences in conversations, but try to find more serious persons to make friends with? And where can I find such persons in today's world? Thanks for any advice and sorry if this question is a bit stupid, but the name of this subreddit is what gave me the courage to ask it.
2024.05.18 22:13 OrlonDogger A Witch at Midnight - Chapter 16
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When I wake up the next day, my head is swirling with questions. As I get up from my bed and go to clean myself, I can’t help but question everything! Did last night actually happen? I am pretty sure it did, but it all felt so bizarre… and wonderful! There’s a planetarium in the city, and it is magical in the most literal sense of the word! There are books on magic there, too! So I can probably start studying and learning more next time I visit!
Speaking of books… I have something to check there, don’t I?
As soon as I am out of the bathroom I go to the living room to get my pills and then, I start passing the pages of Humiko’s book. As I reach the ‘Epilogue’ section, I confirm to my horror that the words have completely disappeared.
In a panic, fearing the worst, I check my notes… oh, good, those were still here.
“What, were you fearing they would simply disappear too? Idiot.”
“Hey, with magic we really know nothing. It could have happened!”
I do feel a little silly but, yeah. For all we know, it could have happened. The point is that it didn’t!
Breathing way easier now, I sit down on one of the couches and sigh. Picking up my phone, I can confirm that it's Friday and it’s already eleven past noon. I guess this time I am justified in sleeping so much? But at the same time, I can’t help but feel a little guilty.
“Because you’re being lazy, even with your free time.”
With another deep sigh, I try to ignore the voices and just look straight up at the ceiling, tapping my chin for a moment.
How do we proceed from here?
Pelafina said I shouldn’t visit the Elysium early, because it gets full of people. I wonder how true that is… actually, I wonder how true anything she said was.
“Since when are you this distrustful?”
I don’t know. I don’t even know why I lied to her in the first place, but I just felt that this phrase, the one long complete phrase I managed to translate, is far more important than I know. I can’t share it… I actually don’t want to share anything with this lady?
“She will probably send the Cloaks if you stop cooperating though.”
That much I know, and I hate it. She has all the control over the situation!
“There’s one thing she can’t control though. She has no idea about your internet activity now, does she?”
… Good point. I have to focus on that!
I actually have to get back to GalaxyTaco, too! See what he's been doing and all that!
“But before all that, breakfast.”
Ah, right. Almost forgot… although, wouldn’t it be better to just ask for lunch at this point?
“Fair.”
Yes! Time for a burger.
“They feel blander and blander every time you buy one. Why even bother?”
Because they are still delicious, and more importantly, they are cheap and fast!
I quickly order a special Bisontian burger, with extra cheese of course, and then sit back down at the table, connecting my computer to the TER and tapping away a message at GalaxyTaco, to let them know I am up. Then, I write down my discoveries in the file I’m keeping. I’ll transcribe them to the notepad later.
I am adding the symbols (which I’ve learned are called Runes after a visit to the Elysium), meanings and effects I’ve learned. I’ve also learned that I can create Glyphs, which are combinations of Runes to create different effects. I wonder if they are phrases in the language!
Speaking of. They don’t even know it’s a language, they just seem to assume the symbols have effects and that’s it! Maybe they use it, but they haven’t fully grasped the implications yet.
That feels surprisingly shallow though. Just how much knowledge do these people have of magic? Is magic a recent discovery?
Or is there something else keeping people ignorant…?
The burger arrives not too long after I am done writing. I eat it while ruminating on the subject a bit further. They are not idiots, are they? To me, the first thing that comes to my mind when seeing symbols if they are part of a bigger language or something like that. Then again, maybe the lack of translation dissuaded them from experimenting further?
Stuff is not fitting as nicely as I wish…
I am about to write a little more when suddenly, I am added to a group in my messenger service. GalaxyTaco is alive! But not only them! There’s two other people in the conversation too.
Panic ensues, at least for a moment.
“Okay. Just keep calm.” I tell to myself. “Take a deep breath… phew… and let’s do this.”
My fingers are preparing to write some quick and tasteless introduction, when suddenly someone beats me to the punch.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: HIIIIIII!! ^0^!!
Oh no. A weeb, and a very strong one at that. I can feel her aura, her reiatsu, pushing down on me like a wave of augmented gravity. There are two chances here: I either get along real well with this person, or we hate each other on sight. There’s no middle ground among us.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: don’t be shy! :3 we’re friends here, I swear!
Well they are being real nice at least. Could be worse, they could be souseiseki.
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): yo, you there?
Who the hell are these people!? I assume they are friends of GalaxyTaco, right? I really want to be patient but, damn it, new people get me nervous so easily…
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Hi there, hi! n.nUu sorry, this whole deal took me by surprise.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: ohhhh it is fine! uwu gal-kun told us everything!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: you must be so scared Dx I know I was when I got started!
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Well it has certainly been a journey, heheh n.n but I’ve managed.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: I found the Elysium last night so, at least there’s that!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): good job, that’s a big advancement actually
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): next you gotta find the clinic, though
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: There’s a clinic too? O.o
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): yep. but we’ll explain all that later
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): i’m canny btw. cannedtea at the forum, remember me?
My face burns a little bit when remembering this guy. I wasn’t expecting to find him again so quickly.
“Gay.”
Shut up.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: the name’s Aoi! ^0^/ UwU28 at the forum!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: sorry I didn’t comment your topic, i am a bit shy xwxUu
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: It’s all fine, no worries n.n I’m Tav! But you two probably know that already
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): it bears repeating, girl. it bears repeating.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: yeah! ^^/
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: alright I’m back! sorry I was seeing grandma to bed heheh
I sigh in relief, cleaning the sweat off my brow. Thanks saints, this was going to be a little too much for me to handle alone!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: oh hey gal-kun ~
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: reading up I see you’re all introduced, good good!
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: now I just gotta introduce the plan to you Tav, so pay attention!
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: I’m ready! o.o
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: alright, so
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: to avoid 82’s wrath?
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: canny here will be your voucher.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: huh?
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: just put him in your profile and he’ll cover for you.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: And you’re okay with that, Canny? ;w; really!?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): eyeup, don’t worry girl. I gotchu.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: canny-kun and mort-sama covered for me when I just got in too :3 he’s the best!
For a moment I blink. Huh? Covered for Aoi? Does that mean they are also a Bastard Mage? What does that mean? Did they just find the link somewhere, too?
Questions for later, I guess.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Thank you so much Canny! ;w;
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): no prob bob
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): is it chill if I add you? you seem cool
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Ah, of course! :3 Add away! You too, Aoi-chan.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: EEEEE! Arigatou!! ^w^ <3 <3
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: oh yeah that reminds me.
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: Aoi, ain’t you forgetting something?
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: ah right!!! Tavy! what are your pronouns? o.o!
What?
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: you put you’d rather not say your gender and that’s so cool! I wanna know what to call you though! uwu
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: if that’s okay of course ^.^
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: Aoi that is NOT what I meant damn it!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): nono, she’s right.
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): sorry i kept callin you girl
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: not you too canny… focus!
I have never been asked that before… I mean, I have, by computers. But by people, it feels… odd.
I like it.
“You’re going to start with your delusions again?”
“They can identify as anything. Stop being so harsh!”
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: … I think I will go with she/her.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Is that okay? n.n
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): girl, don’t ask US
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): ask yourself
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): not the mean voice of anxiety, not the shit your guardians told ya
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): are YOU okay with it?
I feel the words pierce my chest for a moment. I gasp for air, my eyes opening a little more.
“This is all just play pretend. Don’t take it so much to heart.”
Shut up.
“What!?”
I said shut up. This time, this is for me. I decide this.
“You little ungrateful asshole…”
I want this. This makes me feel good and I will seize it. And you can go kiss my ass, you hear me!?
“...”
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: … Yeah. Yeah, I think I am okay with it n//n
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): atta girl
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): it’s chill to call you a girl right?
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yeah yeah, I like it! n.n
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: yayayay Tavy-chan! :3
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: huh. that’s unexpectedly wholesome…
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: but let’s focus! Aoi! do you have the book?
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: right here boss! o.o7
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!! has sent you bastard_recipe_book.pdf
Accept?
Huh? A pdf? I hesitate for a moment but, hell, maybe it’s magic and magic can’t get viruses or something. I just click it.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: this is the rulebook for us Bastards, don’t tell nobody about it though OoO!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: it’s a seecret~
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: A secret book… now that’s cool uwu
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): man, tav’s first secret
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): granny get the camera
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: lol
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: no but really, read it, study it well
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: it’s all vital.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: will do! I’ll print it and get to it right now
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: NO!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: TAVY-CHAN WAIT
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): wait a sec tav
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Huh? O.o
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: don’t print that one!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: yeah you can’t print magic books, it’s risky
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): the runes can activate and shit would go boom
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Oh, okay o.o
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Man I hate reading on the computer! ;w;
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: sorry tavy-chan ;w;!! but that’s the only way!
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: yeah… anyways, I gotta go to bed, real badly.
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: I trust you got it from here right?
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yep! n.n
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: byeeee everyone!! uwu see you in dejima!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): see you around
I sigh and slowly lean back on my chair. That was intense, way too intense… but I am smiling. Really, this is some proper progress! I finally have tools to work on my own! Maybe I can even translate some more after learning magic!
“Are you sure that’s all you’re happy about?~”
… Shut up. Don’t look too deep into the whole ‘pronoun’ thing.
I am opening the file I got when, suddenly, another message hits me.
It’s from Canny!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): hey tav
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): if you don’t wanna read it on computer you can get it physical.
Whuh?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): you said you found an elysium, was it in a library?
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yeah! o.o
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): thought so
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): look through the mundane part of the library, specifically in the section where you get cooking recipes
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): see if you can find a cheap notebook that says ‘MAGIC’ in it.
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): open it, say ‘jantar mantar’ to it, and that’s your ticket.
My eyes light up. A secret book, hidden under the cloak’s noses like that? That’s perfect!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): the book’s written in draconic, which basically means only mages can read the real shit and you can’t destroy it
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Wait what? O.o Draconic? Are dragons a thing here?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): not anymore they ain’t
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Aww :c
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Wait,I can’t destroy it? O.o No matter how much I try?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): i mean, you can, but it won’t do nothin
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): don’t worry about it
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Ok! n.n but hey I don’t know Draconic D:!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): don’t worry about it girlie
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yay! n.n I will go get it then
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): get some other books too, in case you’re being tailed.
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): good luck tav
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Thank you Canny!
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Ah! I will be on my phone so don’t send me magic stuff for a while, okay?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): gonna teach you the glyph for your phone later.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yipee!! n.n
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Ah hell, sorry for that úwu
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): you’re fine girl
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): good luck.
I feel motivated, so motivated that I stand up immediately, close my computer, and finish my hamburger on the spot.
“Going out again!? Hah.”
I am running out of mean things to say, that’s a good sign.
“Don’t count on it.”
“You are doing great. Let’s go! The day’s young and we have notes to take!”
Yes! I don’t even notice the door in my way this time! I just go out and hop my way over to the elevator.
To the library! Again!
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When I wake up the next day, my head is swirling with questions. As I get up from my bed and go to clean myself, I can’t help but question everything! Did last night actually happen? I am pretty sure it did, but it all felt so bizarre… and wonderful! There’s a planetarium in the city, and it is magical in the most literal sense of the word! There are books on magic there, too! So I can probably start studying and learning more next time I visit!
Speaking of books… I have something to check there, don’t I?
As soon as I am out of the bathroom I go to the living room to get my pills and then, I start passing the pages of Humiko’s book. As I reach the ‘Epilogue’ section, I confirm to my horror that the words have completely disappeared.
In a panic, fearing the worst, I check my notes… oh, good, those were still here.
“What, were you fearing they would simply disappear too? Idiot.”
“Hey, with magic we really know nothing. It could have happened!”
I do feel a little silly but, yeah. For all we know, it could have happened. The point is that it didn’t!
Breathing way easier now, I sit down on one of the couches and sigh. Picking up my phone, I can confirm that it's Friday and it’s already eleven past noon. I guess this time I am justified in sleeping so much? But at the same time, I can’t help but feel a little guilty.
“Because you’re being lazy, even with your free time.”
With another deep sigh, I try to ignore the voices and just look straight up at the ceiling, tapping my chin for a moment.
How do we proceed from here?
Pelafina said I shouldn’t visit the Elysium early, because it gets full of people. I wonder how true that is… actually, I wonder how true anything she said was.
“Since when are you this distrustful?”
I don’t know. I don’t even know why I lied to her in the first place, but I just felt that this phrase, the one long complete phrase I managed to translate, is far more important than I know. I can’t share it… I actually don’t want to share anything with this lady?
“She will probably send the Cloaks if you stop cooperating though.”
That much I know, and I hate it. She has all the control over the situation!
“There’s one thing she can’t control though. She has no idea about your internet activity now, does she?”
… Good point. I have to focus on that!
I actually have to get back to GalaxyTaco, too! See what he's been doing and all that!
“But before all that, breakfast.”
Ah, right. Almost forgot… although, wouldn’t it be better to just ask for lunch at this point?
“Fair.”
Yes! Time for a burger.
“They feel blander and blander every time you buy one. Why even bother?”
Because they are still delicious, and more importantly, they are cheap and fast!
I quickly order a special Bisontian burger, with extra cheese of course, and then sit back down at the table, connecting my computer to the TER and tapping away a message at GalaxyTaco, to let them know I am up. Then, I write down my discoveries in the file I’m keeping. I’ll transcribe them to the notepad later.
I am adding the symbols (which I’ve learned are called Runes after a visit to the Elysium), meanings and effects I’ve learned. I’ve also learned that I can create Glyphs, which are combinations of Runes to create different effects. I wonder if they are phrases in the language!
Speaking of. They don’t even know it’s a language, they just seem to assume the symbols have effects and that’s it! Maybe they use it, but they haven’t fully grasped the implications yet.
That feels surprisingly shallow though. Just how much knowledge do these people have of magic? Is magic a recent discovery?
Or is there something else keeping people ignorant…?
The burger arrives not too long after I am done writing. I eat it while ruminating on the subject a bit further. They are not idiots, are they? To me, the first thing that comes to my mind when seeing symbols if they are part of a bigger language or something like that. Then again, maybe the lack of translation dissuaded them from experimenting further?
Stuff is not fitting as nicely as I wish…
I am about to write a little more when suddenly, I am added to a group in my messenger service. GalaxyTaco is alive! But not only them! There’s two other people in the conversation too.
Panic ensues, at least for a moment.
“Okay. Just keep calm.” I tell to myself. “Take a deep breath… phew… and let’s do this.”
My fingers are preparing to write some quick and tasteless introduction, when suddenly someone beats me to the punch.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: HIIIIIII!! ^0^!!
Oh no. A weeb, and a very strong one at that. I can feel her aura, her reiatsu, pushing down on me like a wave of augmented gravity. There are two chances here: I either get along real well with this person, or we hate each other on sight. There’s no middle ground among us.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: don’t be shy! :3 we’re friends here, I swear!
Well they are being real nice at least. Could be worse, they could be souseiseki.
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): yo, you there?
Who the hell are these people!? I assume they are friends of GalaxyTaco, right? I really want to be patient but, damn it, new people get me nervous so easily…
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Hi there, hi! n.nUu sorry, this whole deal took me by surprise.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: ohhhh it is fine! uwu gal-kun told us everything!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: you must be so scared Dx I know I was when I got started!
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Well it has certainly been a journey, heheh n.n but I’ve managed.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: I found the Elysium last night so, at least there’s that!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): good job, that’s a big advancement actually
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): next you gotta find the clinic, though
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: There’s a clinic too? O.o
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): yep. but we’ll explain all that later
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): i’m canny btw. cannedtea at the forum, remember me?
My face burns a little bit when remembering this guy. I wasn’t expecting to find him again so quickly.
“Gay.”
Shut up.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: the name’s Aoi! ^0^/ UwU28 at the forum!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: sorry I didn’t comment your topic, i am a bit shy xwxUu
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: It’s all fine, no worries n.n I’m Tav! But you two probably know that already
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): it bears repeating, girl. it bears repeating.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: yeah! ^^/
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: alright I’m back! sorry I was seeing grandma to bed heheh
I sigh in relief, cleaning the sweat off my brow. Thanks saints, this was going to be a little too much for me to handle alone!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: oh hey gal-kun ~
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: reading up I see you’re all introduced, good good!
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: now I just gotta introduce the plan to you Tav, so pay attention!
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: I’m ready! o.o
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: alright, so
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: to avoid 82’s wrath?
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: canny here will be your voucher.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: huh?
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: just put him in your profile and he’ll cover for you.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: And you’re okay with that, Canny? ;w; really!?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): eyeup, don’t worry girl. I gotchu.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: canny-kun and mort-sama covered for me when I just got in too :3 he’s the best!
For a moment I blink. Huh? Covered for Aoi? Does that mean they are also a Bastard Mage? What does that mean? Did they just find the link somewhere, too?
Questions for later, I guess.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Thank you so much Canny! ;w;
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): no prob bob
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): is it chill if I add you? you seem cool
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Ah, of course! :3 Add away! You too, Aoi-chan.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: EEEEE! Arigatou!! ^w^ <3 <3
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: oh yeah that reminds me.
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: Aoi, ain’t you forgetting something?
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: ah right!!! Tavy! what are your pronouns? o.o!
What?
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: you put you’d rather not say your gender and that’s so cool! I wanna know what to call you though! uwu
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: if that’s okay of course ^.^
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: Aoi that is NOT what I meant damn it!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): nono, she’s right.
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): sorry i kept callin you girl
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: not you too canny… focus!
I have never been asked that before… I mean, I have, by computers. But by people, it feels… odd.
I like it.
“You’re going to start with your delusions again?”
“They can identify as anything. Stop being so harsh!”
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: … I think I will go with she/her.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Is that okay? n.n
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): girl, don’t ask US
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): ask yourself
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): not the mean voice of anxiety, not the shit your guardians told ya
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): are YOU okay with it?
I feel the words pierce my chest for a moment. I gasp for air, my eyes opening a little more.
“This is all just play pretend. Don’t take it so much to heart.”
Shut up.
“What!?”
I said shut up. This time, this is for me. I decide this.
“You little ungrateful asshole…”
I want this. This makes me feel good and I will seize it. And you can go kiss my ass, you hear me!?
“...”
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: … Yeah. Yeah, I think I am okay with it n//n
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): atta girl
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): it’s chill to call you a girl right?
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yeah yeah, I like it! n.n
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: yayayay Tavy-chan! :3
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: huh. that’s unexpectedly wholesome…
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: but let’s focus! Aoi! do you have the book?
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: right here boss! o.o7
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!! has sent you bastard_recipe_book.pdf
Accept?
Huh? A pdf? I hesitate for a moment but, hell, maybe it’s magic and magic can’t get viruses or something. I just click it.
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: this is the rulebook for us Bastards, don’t tell nobody about it though OoO!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: it’s a seecret~
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: A secret book… now that’s cool uwu
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): man, tav’s first secret
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): granny get the camera
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: lol
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: no but really, read it, study it well
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: it’s all vital.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: will do! I’ll print it and get to it right now
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: NO!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: TAVY-CHAN WAIT
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): wait a sec tav
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Huh? O.o
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: don’t print that one!
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: yeah you can’t print magic books, it’s risky
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): the runes can activate and shit would go boom
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Oh, okay o.o
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Man I hate reading on the computer! ;w;
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: sorry tavy-chan ;w;!! but that’s the only way!
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: yeah… anyways, I gotta go to bed, real badly.
GalaxyTaco to your rescue!: I trust you got it from here right?
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yep! n.n
ケンジー・イズ・マイ・ワイフ!!!: byeeee everyone!! uwu see you in dejima!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): see you around
I sigh and slowly lean back on my chair. That was intense, way too intense… but I am smiling. Really, this is some proper progress! I finally have tools to work on my own! Maybe I can even translate some more after learning magic!
“Are you sure that’s all you’re happy about?~”
… Shut up. Don’t look too deep into the whole ‘pronoun’ thing.
I am opening the file I got when, suddenly, another message hits me.
It’s from Canny!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): hey tav
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): if you don’t wanna read it on computer you can get it physical.
Whuh?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): you said you found an elysium, was it in a library?
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yeah! o.o
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): thought so
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): look through the mundane part of the library, specifically in the section where you get cooking recipes
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): see if you can find a cheap notebook that says ‘MAGIC’ in it.
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): open it, say ‘jantar mantar’ to it, and that’s your ticket.
My eyes light up. A secret book, hidden under the cloak’s noses like that? That’s perfect!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): the book’s written in draconic, which basically means only mages can read the real shit and you can’t destroy it
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Wait what? O.o Draconic? Are dragons a thing here?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): not anymore they ain’t
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Aww :c
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Wait,I can’t destroy it? O.o No matter how much I try?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): i mean, you can, but it won’t do nothin
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): don’t worry about it
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Ok! n.n but hey I don’t know Draconic D:!
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): don’t worry about it girlie
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yay! n.n I will go get it then
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): get some other books too, in case you’re being tailed.
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): good luck tav
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Thank you Canny!
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Ah! I will be on my phone so don’t send me magic stuff for a while, okay?
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): gonna teach you the glyph for your phone later.
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Yipee!! n.n
xXxCallMeBigCookiexXx: Ah hell, sorry for that úwu
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): you’re fine girl
man don’t you lecture me with your $30 haircut 8): good luck.
I feel motivated, so motivated that I stand up immediately, close my computer, and finish my hamburger on the spot.
“Going out again!? Hah.”
I am running out of mean things to say, that’s a good sign.
“Don’t count on it.”
“You are doing great. Let’s go! The day’s young and we have notes to take!”
Yes! I don’t even notice the door in my way this time! I just go out and hop my way over to the elevator.
To the library! Again!
2024.05.18 21:23 Skytho1990 Who/what am I? (new to exploring my gender identity)
Hi everyone,
as a preface, I am currently looking for a therapist to help me with this but that takes a while and I wanted to get some input from people with lived experiences. As a heads-up, I will be talking about my personal struggle with my (male)body so if you would rather avoid confronting a similar part of yourself, please feel free to skip this one :)
So for starters I am not out to anyone (even myself). I am currently AMAB, straight, have identified as such all my life and use he/him pronouns. However, I have never felt "masculine"; neither in actions, nor my body.
After many years of slight doubts that I suppressed over and over, I want to finally figure out what I really want/am. I am posting here since, even though I am exhibiting some signs of transgenderism, I am finding it hard to entertain the thought that I really might be. It is, for now, more comfortable to slowly abandon my solely male self-identity.
As for my actual experience, I have always been the "soft" guy. I danced, sang in choirs, liked to go shopping, enjoyed nice clothes, was mostly friends with girls in high school, hated anything stereotypically "male" and it is and always has been hard for me to connect with other people on that "male" friendship level. I have never, however, had the urge to actively outwardly be more feminine either at least when it comes to anything related to mannerism or dress. It's more when I look at the kinds of social interactions my GFs/sistemother have had with their friends, that I find myself craving similar connections. My biggest inner struggle is permanently my relationship with my body. In a nutshell, I hate my exterior genitals. I will avoid looking in any mirror, only wear tight underwear that prevents me from noticing things moving around. If I'm having a good day and, say, look down while wearing swimming shorts and I see the outline, my mood sours. I cannot really enjoy receiving intimate attention where that thing is the focus (receiving oral is terrible) while I adore giving pleasure. This makes equitable sexual relations ... a struggle (also I consider myself somewhere on the demi-greysexual side). I experience pretty strong autogynephilia. Whatever sexual imagery I see, whether in real life or in media, I cannot help but imagine myself as having the other parts. Just seeing male primary genitals it just about the biggest turn-off. I don't know that I would call it gender dysphoria though ... I am generally not unhappy living life as a (soft) guy and while I wouldn't mind exploring the non-binary space some and see how I feel, I currently don't believe that living my social life as a woman is what I want. If I could choose to by reborn as a woman, sure, I would say yes but with the path I am currently on, that seems very far away.
I guess I am just confused and finally want to address it and try to do justice by myself. I would be grateful for any insights, experiences, resources, kind words, smiling faces :) Y'all are fantastic and I love the positivity here! Cheers!
edit: I realized I forgot to mention this: I have tried tucking and have had moderately decent results temporarily but have not found it useful or effective for anything more than a quick feel-good around the house and to see how I would feel when I look down and don't see him (spoiler: pretty good). I would like to be better at it.
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as a preface, I am currently looking for a therapist to help me with this but that takes a while and I wanted to get some input from people with lived experiences. As a heads-up, I will be talking about my personal struggle with my (male)body so if you would rather avoid confronting a similar part of yourself, please feel free to skip this one :)
So for starters I am not out to anyone (even myself). I am currently AMAB, straight, have identified as such all my life and use he/him pronouns. However, I have never felt "masculine"; neither in actions, nor my body.
After many years of slight doubts that I suppressed over and over, I want to finally figure out what I really want/am. I am posting here since, even though I am exhibiting some signs of transgenderism, I am finding it hard to entertain the thought that I really might be. It is, for now, more comfortable to slowly abandon my solely male self-identity.
As for my actual experience, I have always been the "soft" guy. I danced, sang in choirs, liked to go shopping, enjoyed nice clothes, was mostly friends with girls in high school, hated anything stereotypically "male" and it is and always has been hard for me to connect with other people on that "male" friendship level. I have never, however, had the urge to actively outwardly be more feminine either at least when it comes to anything related to mannerism or dress. It's more when I look at the kinds of social interactions my GFs/sistemother have had with their friends, that I find myself craving similar connections. My biggest inner struggle is permanently my relationship with my body. In a nutshell, I hate my exterior genitals. I will avoid looking in any mirror, only wear tight underwear that prevents me from noticing things moving around. If I'm having a good day and, say, look down while wearing swimming shorts and I see the outline, my mood sours. I cannot really enjoy receiving intimate attention where that thing is the focus (receiving oral is terrible) while I adore giving pleasure. This makes equitable sexual relations ... a struggle (also I consider myself somewhere on the demi-greysexual side). I experience pretty strong autogynephilia. Whatever sexual imagery I see, whether in real life or in media, I cannot help but imagine myself as having the other parts. Just seeing male primary genitals it just about the biggest turn-off. I don't know that I would call it gender dysphoria though ... I am generally not unhappy living life as a (soft) guy and while I wouldn't mind exploring the non-binary space some and see how I feel, I currently don't believe that living my social life as a woman is what I want. If I could choose to by reborn as a woman, sure, I would say yes but with the path I am currently on, that seems very far away.
I guess I am just confused and finally want to address it and try to do justice by myself. I would be grateful for any insights, experiences, resources, kind words, smiling faces :) Y'all are fantastic and I love the positivity here! Cheers!
edit: I realized I forgot to mention this: I have tried tucking and have had moderately decent results temporarily but have not found it useful or effective for anything more than a quick feel-good around the house and to see how I would feel when I look down and don't see him (spoiler: pretty good). I would like to be better at it.
2024.05.18 19:48 inkhonclusive [ONline][EST][5e][Homebrew][Roleplay Heavy][Low Fantasy] - Seeking Sorcerous Survivors
Pitch
Recruiting 4 Sorcerers (Magic not from entity or study) Only;
Whence you grieve, cry, or laugh
Tis as if you bring tragedy, rain or sunlight
Unexplained happenings follow you
And if anyone knows what you really are
They will kill you ..
Hide yourself, and silence your heart
Hunters seek those like you for in this world
.. You are monsters
Our story begins with the plights of your characters and how they were able to overcome them .. Or how they were succumbed to
You discover the nature of your afflictions .. And now you must survive
The world hunts sorcerers like dogs hunt confused and lost birds
But if a lost bird lives long enough to be found. It may spread it's wings and fly
Good luck
Introduction
Hello, my name is Inkh-Su (인수). I have been roleplaying since 2009 and started playing D&D 2018. I am hoping that you will be interested in my homebrew world of Myhrr. It is a work of consistent passion. I have passed 50 pages of content and have handcrafted over 30 explorable cities, tile-by-tile.
Myhrr is a living world developed by the DM, and a story lead by the players.
I prefer players who want to emotionally invest in NPCs, their party members, and their own characters. My aim is to naturally draw characters together into an interweaving story of relationships, action, and heroism.
My five main inspirations are The Books of Magic, Berserk, Merlin, Odin Sphere & The Last Unicorn.
I adhere to rules that maximize your exploration and sense of curiosity. I don't try to predict players, I just adapt to their actions. I study player strengths & weaknesses to spotlight them and write a balanced story. Depending on backstory, I grant geographical, social, and historical information.
Much of the world is a medieval, war-torn, feudalist place that has just found a respite from war. Power wavers with uncertainty, under the constant threat that war will return. Nobles attempt to secure peace alongside bloodstained battlegrounds. Royalty seizes power by sword, flame, accusation and subterfuge.
Whilst the faith in currency is unshaken, Trade is unstable. Promises are rare. The hunt of witches, warlocks, wizards and druids is ceaseless in a war against the unholy forces of magic and devilry.
Myhrr is plagued with economic inequality and xenophobia. Whilst half-orcs, tieflings, and goblins are capable of citizenship they are treated as second class citizens. Faced with the constant truths of their loathsome origins, demonic history, and biological differences they find little respite among other races.
Where half/elves are constantly bombarded with opportunity, these marginalized races find none.
Dungeons in the world are difficult to find. One requires research of the hundreds of books in the world, or a quick tongue and a fast blade, to take such information. Yet there are riches, power, and secrets hidden away behind the abominations of the deep and the traps that lay within. Those who seek answers in the hidden places of the world are at true risk of death or worse.
Think fast or die, traps don't wait and neither do monsters.
The core of every event lies a mystery. A quandary of history, social intrigue and chasing after evidence. Ancient secrets, political dealings, and criminal ones. The world's history is extensive but only a player who wishes to know the lore of the world will discover it.
One of the things I'm proud of in my game are its people. I've been roleplaying for over a decade and believe that every NPC will have more depth than any player will care about. Ingrained into the world and its culture; they have fears, desires and interact with an intelligence befitting of their environment.
Magic comes with a constant emotional and social contract. Only four classes are considered magical. Sorcerer, Druid, Warlock, and Wizard. All other classes use non-magical flavored versions of their spells. Each class uses magic uniquely, yet none of it is as reliable as sword or bow. Magic, no matter it's origin, has a will of its own.
Most cultures believe sorcery, druidry, and wizardry to be witchcraft.
Sorcerers do not have control over their innate power without having control over their own hearts. Druids must build a true relationship with nature and balance. Warlocks are required to debate and negotiate with cruel devils. Wizards are mysterious and grow in power as they follow a path of wonder.
The world has several holidays and I'd love to watch your character celebrate too.
Finally, the game is played with a flowing system of time. Time moves regardless of what your character is or isn't doing. Players who act quickly, describe their actions, act their dialogue and invest their hearts will quickly find themselves escaping the arm of mere RAW rules and mechanics.
I am rewarded by players who will sit after a game and theorize about NPCs, History and Intentions and have plans on how they want to act on the world. Reactive players are alright, but players who develop a judgment and work to act on that judgment are rewarded.
I am also rewarded by characters who act on and with emotionality to NPCs and with each other. My favorite moments are listening to the building moment of character clashes and support when they make discoveries that reveal pieces of themselves and each other.
World:
Send me a chat with
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Recruiting 4 Sorcerers (Magic not from entity or study) Only;
- Willing to deeply homebrew characters
- Three sessions -> Campaign for good fit
- Su@12p-4p EST
Whence you grieve, cry, or laugh
Tis as if you bring tragedy, rain or sunlight
Unexplained happenings follow you
And if anyone knows what you really are
They will kill you ..
Hide yourself, and silence your heart
Hunters seek those like you for in this world
.. You are monsters
Our story begins with the plights of your characters and how they were able to overcome them .. Or how they were succumbed to
You discover the nature of your afflictions .. And now you must survive
The world hunts sorcerers like dogs hunt confused and lost birds
But if a lost bird lives long enough to be found. It may spread it's wings and fly
Good luck
Introduction
Hello, my name is Inkh-Su (인수). I have been roleplaying since 2009 and started playing D&D 2018. I am hoping that you will be interested in my homebrew world of Myhrr. It is a work of consistent passion. I have passed 50 pages of content and have handcrafted over 30 explorable cities, tile-by-tile.
Myhrr is a living world developed by the DM, and a story lead by the players.
I prefer players who want to emotionally invest in NPCs, their party members, and their own characters. My aim is to naturally draw characters together into an interweaving story of relationships, action, and heroism.
My five main inspirations are The Books of Magic, Berserk, Merlin, Odin Sphere & The Last Unicorn.
I adhere to rules that maximize your exploration and sense of curiosity. I don't try to predict players, I just adapt to their actions. I study player strengths & weaknesses to spotlight them and write a balanced story. Depending on backstory, I grant geographical, social, and historical information.
Much of the world is a medieval, war-torn, feudalist place that has just found a respite from war. Power wavers with uncertainty, under the constant threat that war will return. Nobles attempt to secure peace alongside bloodstained battlegrounds. Royalty seizes power by sword, flame, accusation and subterfuge.
Whilst the faith in currency is unshaken, Trade is unstable. Promises are rare. The hunt of witches, warlocks, wizards and druids is ceaseless in a war against the unholy forces of magic and devilry.
Myhrr is plagued with economic inequality and xenophobia. Whilst half-orcs, tieflings, and goblins are capable of citizenship they are treated as second class citizens. Faced with the constant truths of their loathsome origins, demonic history, and biological differences they find little respite among other races.
Where half/elves are constantly bombarded with opportunity, these marginalized races find none.
Dungeons in the world are difficult to find. One requires research of the hundreds of books in the world, or a quick tongue and a fast blade, to take such information. Yet there are riches, power, and secrets hidden away behind the abominations of the deep and the traps that lay within. Those who seek answers in the hidden places of the world are at true risk of death or worse.
Think fast or die, traps don't wait and neither do monsters.
The core of every event lies a mystery. A quandary of history, social intrigue and chasing after evidence. Ancient secrets, political dealings, and criminal ones. The world's history is extensive but only a player who wishes to know the lore of the world will discover it.
One of the things I'm proud of in my game are its people. I've been roleplaying for over a decade and believe that every NPC will have more depth than any player will care about. Ingrained into the world and its culture; they have fears, desires and interact with an intelligence befitting of their environment.
Magic comes with a constant emotional and social contract. Only four classes are considered magical. Sorcerer, Druid, Warlock, and Wizard. All other classes use non-magical flavored versions of their spells. Each class uses magic uniquely, yet none of it is as reliable as sword or bow. Magic, no matter it's origin, has a will of its own.
Most cultures believe sorcery, druidry, and wizardry to be witchcraft.
Sorcerers do not have control over their innate power without having control over their own hearts. Druids must build a true relationship with nature and balance. Warlocks are required to debate and negotiate with cruel devils. Wizards are mysterious and grow in power as they follow a path of wonder.
The world has several holidays and I'd love to watch your character celebrate too.
Finally, the game is played with a flowing system of time. Time moves regardless of what your character is or isn't doing. Players who act quickly, describe their actions, act their dialogue and invest their hearts will quickly find themselves escaping the arm of mere RAW rules and mechanics.
I am rewarded by players who will sit after a game and theorize about NPCs, History and Intentions and have plans on how they want to act on the world. Reactive players are alright, but players who develop a judgment and work to act on that judgment are rewarded.
I am also rewarded by characters who act on and with emotionality to NPCs and with each other. My favorite moments are listening to the building moment of character clashes and support when they make discoveries that reveal pieces of themselves and each other.
World:
- Five Deities are confirmed fact
- One gold crown can buy a farm
- Literacy is rare and valuable
- Magic is feared, for it is fearful
- Xenophobia is alive and strong
- Guilty until proven popular is justice
- Evil is real, Orcs, Warlocks and Devils are Evil
- Printing Press is not yet invented
- Low Fantasy, a medieval setting with few magical elements
- Start Lv1
- LGBTQQIP2SAA friendly
- Session 0 required
- 4hr minimum sessions
- Available Races: Human, Elf, Half-Elf, Dwarf, Half-Dwarf, Dragonborn, Half-Orc, Halfling, Tiefling, Kenku, Goblin, Leonin, Minotaur
- Available Classes: Sorcerer
- VTT: Web-based
- Required: Chrome/Firefox + Discord + DNDBeyond + Microphone + Headphones
- Schedule: Su@12p-4p EST
- Game Start: As players are ready
- DM calls DCs && Open rolls
- Roleplay & immersion heavy
- Mature, supportive & collaborative play is required to join
Send me a chat with
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- A general character personality & motivation pitch
- An activity your character would initiate with a party
- In your opinion, what makes a good/bad playeDM
- What is your opinion of Magic in a setting where it’s demonized ?
- What does Magic mean to you ?
- Describe when you’ve connected with another party member
- Describe an example of environmental creative problem solving
- Does your character create ? If so, how are they creative ?
- What emotional state does your character often find themselves ?
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2024.05.18 11:05 dandelionity my parents are going to meet my trans boyfriend and they don't know
Hi, first time here. I'm sorry in advance for any mistakes in my writing, I'm spanish and my english skills are a little rusty lol
So I've (21F) been going on dates for 5 months with my current boyfriend (22M) but we only made it official a bit over a month ago. He's in the process of medically transitioning, he's on T and planning to get a mastectomy, but he's still saving up for that.
My family is a bit conservative and because of that I decided to not tell them anything so far. I've known I'm bisexual since I was 13 but I never told them because I didn't absolutely need to. They're not actively homophobic or anything but I've heard my mom say some homophobic comments about gays being "too open about their sexuality" and that "god created adam and eve" and that sort of things. Still, she's not against gay marriage or anything, and I'm sure she would eventually be okay with me being bisexual, I just never felt the need to tell her.
The thing is, some years ago I had a trans friend (ftm) and I made the mistake to tell my mom that he is trans. The moment I told her, she suddenly started confusing his pronouns, sometimes using she/her. And because in spanish every adjective is gendered, it was not just about pronouns... My mom never actually saw my friend in person, so she had no reason to confuse him with a girl by any means, it just seemed like the word "trans" made his gender less serious. I got mad at her when she misgendered him, and she sometimes corrected herself, but it kept happening. It seemed like she didn't actually believe he was a man. And this was just a friend I would hang out with sometimes.
I didn't plan on telling my mom (or anyone in my family) about my boyfriend being trans because of that. However, because my bf only started medically transitioning recently, he still gets misgendered by many people, in his workplace, in the street, by his mom, many places we go, he's perceived as a girl at times. Because of that, I'm really scared to bring him to my house and him meeting my family. I've shown them photos of him and there was no problem, they didn't perceive him as a girl. But I'm still scared that when they see him in person they will view him as a woman. And they will be quite confused.
I would rather wait until he's further into his transition, but the thing is my graduation is coming up very soon. I met my bf in uni so we're graduating together. My family will be there too and I guess them meeting at some point is bound to happen? Maybe nothing will happen, or maybe they see him and don't think anything of it (other than being surprised because he's quite short). But they might be very confused about his appearance and I don't want them to ask him uncomfortable questions. Or maybe they'll flat out perceive him as a girl and ask me why I didn't tell them and make a big deal out of it. Anything could happen.
So this is why I'm considering telling them in advance. After all I think it is very likely they will eventually know, unless we wait years for them to meet him (so he's finished his transition). But I don't know how to approach it. My parents are not bad tempered, but my mom is quite close minded - she already didn't like it when I dated a foreigner. I'm scared she will no longer see him as a man when I tell her he's trans, and that she'll keep misgendering him.
Besides, if she sees him as a girl, I would eventually need to come out as bisexual for them to understand, I guess? But I don't want this to be the reason why I come out. For all they know, I'm straight and they should respect the boy I am dating.
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So I've (21F) been going on dates for 5 months with my current boyfriend (22M) but we only made it official a bit over a month ago. He's in the process of medically transitioning, he's on T and planning to get a mastectomy, but he's still saving up for that.
My family is a bit conservative and because of that I decided to not tell them anything so far. I've known I'm bisexual since I was 13 but I never told them because I didn't absolutely need to. They're not actively homophobic or anything but I've heard my mom say some homophobic comments about gays being "too open about their sexuality" and that "god created adam and eve" and that sort of things. Still, she's not against gay marriage or anything, and I'm sure she would eventually be okay with me being bisexual, I just never felt the need to tell her.
The thing is, some years ago I had a trans friend (ftm) and I made the mistake to tell my mom that he is trans. The moment I told her, she suddenly started confusing his pronouns, sometimes using she/her. And because in spanish every adjective is gendered, it was not just about pronouns... My mom never actually saw my friend in person, so she had no reason to confuse him with a girl by any means, it just seemed like the word "trans" made his gender less serious. I got mad at her when she misgendered him, and she sometimes corrected herself, but it kept happening. It seemed like she didn't actually believe he was a man. And this was just a friend I would hang out with sometimes.
I didn't plan on telling my mom (or anyone in my family) about my boyfriend being trans because of that. However, because my bf only started medically transitioning recently, he still gets misgendered by many people, in his workplace, in the street, by his mom, many places we go, he's perceived as a girl at times. Because of that, I'm really scared to bring him to my house and him meeting my family. I've shown them photos of him and there was no problem, they didn't perceive him as a girl. But I'm still scared that when they see him in person they will view him as a woman. And they will be quite confused.
I would rather wait until he's further into his transition, but the thing is my graduation is coming up very soon. I met my bf in uni so we're graduating together. My family will be there too and I guess them meeting at some point is bound to happen? Maybe nothing will happen, or maybe they see him and don't think anything of it (other than being surprised because he's quite short). But they might be very confused about his appearance and I don't want them to ask him uncomfortable questions. Or maybe they'll flat out perceive him as a girl and ask me why I didn't tell them and make a big deal out of it. Anything could happen.
So this is why I'm considering telling them in advance. After all I think it is very likely they will eventually know, unless we wait years for them to meet him (so he's finished his transition). But I don't know how to approach it. My parents are not bad tempered, but my mom is quite close minded - she already didn't like it when I dated a foreigner. I'm scared she will no longer see him as a man when I tell her he's trans, and that she'll keep misgendering him.
Besides, if she sees him as a girl, I would eventually need to come out as bisexual for them to understand, I guess? But I don't want this to be the reason why I come out. For all they know, I'm straight and they should respect the boy I am dating.
2024.05.18 09:48 Suspicious-Elk-5246 I (16m) am trans and I can't take it anymore.
Hello, this is a throwaway account cause I don't use reddit. I just really need anywhere to vent about this (which is I guess implied cause I'm turning to reddit) but if youre a transphobe who was hoping this was gonna be all "guyyyys being transs sucks" thats not what this is.
I'm an amab (assigned male at birth) person and holy shit I cant take this shit anymore I wasnt meant to be like this. Every single day is just immense emotional torture. Ive been identifying as genderfluid+any pronouns for like a year and a half at this point but if I'm being honest with myself that is the biggest cope ever like I'm just a girl thats it and I dont want it to be. I want to not be trans, I want to feel any amount of comfortable around other guys my age, but I am and the worst part is I cant do shit about it.
The middle of highschool is probably the worst possible time to transition ever, my mom isnt overtly transphobic but shes the "if they dont interact with me and they look exactly like cis people and they are trans without any of the parts of being trans" type, and the political climate right now isnt great for trans people even in the liberal ass states. I really don't want to be a political distraction to rile up dumbasses so they don't realize whatever good ol joeseph biden wants to have hidden.
But at the same time I think I'll die if I dont. I cant stand the thought of going through another day of my life in this body. When I picture myself in highschool I imagine a high school girl, and I have to face the fact that I'm in highschool and I just look like a gay guy with long hair. My body is a fucking prison. I have a perfectly functional mouth and yet I still can't scream because invisible guy laws have dictated I cant. Even when I try to cry like on purpouse when I see something sad I cant get anything to happen it just wells up and goes back down the bottle is sealing itself.
When I look at myself in the mirror and see my dick its just this bitter visceral anger at my body for being made this way when I could have been better. My broad shoulders and sharp(ish) jawline that other guys would love to have are just a curse to me.
Sometimes I see myself in the mirror and for a second I look like a girl and I feel such overwhelming happyness and I smile a real genuine smile of joy. Not a smile because something funny happened or because its a picture and I should probably smile or I look like some #empty #depression fake emo dork. But a smile because I am happy and because I feel good. Then it gets stripped away. The lighting changes or my hair moves or most of the time I just end up looking too long and realizing my imperfections that make me look more and more masculine.
Sometimes at school people misgender me. There are some groups that I stay way out of so I'm unknown in them and with my long hair and a hoodie and a beanie to hide my eyebrows ive been mistaken for a girl a few times. I never know what to do when it happens, I just go silent and freeze up like a deer in headlights. When someone says "I thought you were a girl haha" or "are you a girl" or just talks to me perceiving me as a girl I want so badly to scream that yes i am a girl and thank you for saying it and I'm so thankful for you but Id look insane (prolly cause I would be insane if I did that lmao)
Once when I was waiting for the locker rooms to open in PE (I usually go early because they open early and I would rather die than be in a boys locker room that actively has boys in it) these two guys I vaugely recognized started hitting on me and I just didn't know what to say and just looked at them. One of them eventually thought something was up and asked if I was a girl (which btw is a stupid question why the fuck would I be a girl waiting at the boys locker room) and the two started arguing on whether I was a girl or not. One of them bent over to try and see if I had a dick which was the most uncomfortable thing like ever.
Eventually dumb and dumber both come to sparate conclusions that I am either a tomboy or a femboy. The guy that was hitting on me makes an advance on me under the assumption that I'm either which looking back is highkey kinda funny. Something like "ay you know I like those tomboys, and I know what them femboys like too". I didnt say anything and so drake and josh eventually walked away. And even though I was uncomfortable and hated the whole experience I was beaming for the rest of the day. Because even if I was unconfortable and hated the whole experience at least I was percieved how I truly wish to be seen.
[This last paragraph has some real bad stuff in it you may not wanna read] I want to just be a girl so bad I would do anything (other than I guess actually transition) I would kill someone. I would kill myself, I wont because it would be so lame if I just fucked around didnt graduate and then died but god is the urdge there. Sometimes I want to grab a knife and stab the area where a vagina should be and I guess just bleed out Ive never gotten to the part of wanting to do it where I imagine what would happen.
Anyways I could go on but its like 12:40 AM rn and I feel like ive probably written enough by now but belive me I could go on and on. I kinda doubt anyone read this whole thing but then again its reddit so maybe. If you did then thanks for reading my rambly warping thoughts _^
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I'm an amab (assigned male at birth) person and holy shit I cant take this shit anymore I wasnt meant to be like this. Every single day is just immense emotional torture. Ive been identifying as genderfluid+any pronouns for like a year and a half at this point but if I'm being honest with myself that is the biggest cope ever like I'm just a girl thats it and I dont want it to be. I want to not be trans, I want to feel any amount of comfortable around other guys my age, but I am and the worst part is I cant do shit about it.
The middle of highschool is probably the worst possible time to transition ever, my mom isnt overtly transphobic but shes the "if they dont interact with me and they look exactly like cis people and they are trans without any of the parts of being trans" type, and the political climate right now isnt great for trans people even in the liberal ass states. I really don't want to be a political distraction to rile up dumbasses so they don't realize whatever good ol joeseph biden wants to have hidden.
But at the same time I think I'll die if I dont. I cant stand the thought of going through another day of my life in this body. When I picture myself in highschool I imagine a high school girl, and I have to face the fact that I'm in highschool and I just look like a gay guy with long hair. My body is a fucking prison. I have a perfectly functional mouth and yet I still can't scream because invisible guy laws have dictated I cant. Even when I try to cry like on purpouse when I see something sad I cant get anything to happen it just wells up and goes back down the bottle is sealing itself.
When I look at myself in the mirror and see my dick its just this bitter visceral anger at my body for being made this way when I could have been better. My broad shoulders and sharp(ish) jawline that other guys would love to have are just a curse to me.
Sometimes I see myself in the mirror and for a second I look like a girl and I feel such overwhelming happyness and I smile a real genuine smile of joy. Not a smile because something funny happened or because its a picture and I should probably smile or I look like some #empty #depression fake emo dork. But a smile because I am happy and because I feel good. Then it gets stripped away. The lighting changes or my hair moves or most of the time I just end up looking too long and realizing my imperfections that make me look more and more masculine.
Sometimes at school people misgender me. There are some groups that I stay way out of so I'm unknown in them and with my long hair and a hoodie and a beanie to hide my eyebrows ive been mistaken for a girl a few times. I never know what to do when it happens, I just go silent and freeze up like a deer in headlights. When someone says "I thought you were a girl haha" or "are you a girl" or just talks to me perceiving me as a girl I want so badly to scream that yes i am a girl and thank you for saying it and I'm so thankful for you but Id look insane (prolly cause I would be insane if I did that lmao)
Once when I was waiting for the locker rooms to open in PE (I usually go early because they open early and I would rather die than be in a boys locker room that actively has boys in it) these two guys I vaugely recognized started hitting on me and I just didn't know what to say and just looked at them. One of them eventually thought something was up and asked if I was a girl (which btw is a stupid question why the fuck would I be a girl waiting at the boys locker room) and the two started arguing on whether I was a girl or not. One of them bent over to try and see if I had a dick which was the most uncomfortable thing like ever.
Eventually dumb and dumber both come to sparate conclusions that I am either a tomboy or a femboy. The guy that was hitting on me makes an advance on me under the assumption that I'm either which looking back is highkey kinda funny. Something like "ay you know I like those tomboys, and I know what them femboys like too". I didnt say anything and so drake and josh eventually walked away. And even though I was uncomfortable and hated the whole experience I was beaming for the rest of the day. Because even if I was unconfortable and hated the whole experience at least I was percieved how I truly wish to be seen.
[This last paragraph has some real bad stuff in it you may not wanna read] I want to just be a girl so bad I would do anything (other than I guess actually transition) I would kill someone. I would kill myself, I wont because it would be so lame if I just fucked around didnt graduate and then died but god is the urdge there. Sometimes I want to grab a knife and stab the area where a vagina should be and I guess just bleed out Ive never gotten to the part of wanting to do it where I imagine what would happen.
Anyways I could go on but its like 12:40 AM rn and I feel like ive probably written enough by now but belive me I could go on and on. I kinda doubt anyone read this whole thing but then again its reddit so maybe. If you did then thanks for reading my rambly warping thoughts _^
2024.05.18 01:22 Objective-Farm-2560 Doctor's Orders: Chapter 3
Thank you to u/SpacePaladin15 for creating the NoP-verse and allowing fanfics!
This was co-written with u/ImaginationSea3679 and is a sequel to The Way of the Human!
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Memory transcription subject: Thass, Arxur-UN Cooperative Liaison
Date [standardised human time]: 27th of November, 2136
The cursed meeting was taking far longer than I could bear, and much the same could be said to the pathetic diplomats we were negotiating with. Despite their initial bravado, it quickly wore off and they grew fearful of my presence. So when a recess was suggested, I was relieved that it was agreed upon that we would spend [45 minutes] away from the bureaucracy for a decently timed break.
I sighed as I reclined myself in a chair. Human furniture was extremely comfortable, more than it probably had any right to be. The leaf-licking predators were arguably soft, but they had a fierce streak hidden under that calm and weak persona. The speed at which I’d seen a personality shift in some humans was so sudden I sometimes wondered if I was even talking to the same person when it happened.
What was I thinking about again?
Oh, right, furniture.
…
Well, I have no other thoughts on the furniture. I should move on.
Helaven and Barisis were eagerly munching on salads and fruits respectively. I myself had myself a freshly cooked steak, which Barisis was trying to avert her eyes from. Human food was really starting to grow on me. I had already come to enjoy the higher quality meat from my time on Earth, but the longer I had it in my diet, the more I came to appreciate the tiniest of details in the flavour.
The slight char from the ‘cooking’ process was a surprisingly savoury addition, creating a contrast from other meats. If I had the opportunity, I wished to further explore the possibilities offered by Terran cuisine. Learning how to correctly burn the meat would be a terrific way of enhancing the flavour. It was supposedly one of humanity’s greatest feats, so that only made me more eager to-
I was caught off guard by a smoky scent that most definitely did not come from my meal. Was another piece of meat being cooked?
Sniff
EURGH, FUCK!
The deep breath meant to identify the horrid smell instead sent me into a coughing fit. It was like I was breathing in toxic fumes!
“Fucking- cough -Prophet!” I wheezed, feeling like my lungs were being stabbed by hundreds of tiny needles. “What is that- cough -horrible smoke- cough -in the air!?”
I turned to see a human female holding some sort of roll of paper that had been set on fire. The human then proceeded to-
“WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!” Helaven shouted as I stared in both awe and absolute terror.
This human was literally breathing cinders and smoke without any sort of complaint.
“I’m taking a smoke. What the fuck does it look like I’m doing?” The human said with an almost incredulous expression.
Was this sort of extreme toughness normal?!
“YOU JUST INHALED FUCKING SMOKE! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! DO YOU WANT TO FUCKING DIE?!” Barisis joined Helaven in her screeching. “HAVE HUMANS SOMEHOW MISSED THE DANGERS OF SMOKE INHALATION!?”
The possibly deranged human looked confused. “I’m just taking the edge off, what’s the problem?”
“What’s with all the screaming?” asked an annoyed Hans who had just arrived, accompanied by a meek looking Udey. “I’m on the verge of a God damn headache, so please, just stop it.”
“It’s the xenos who are yelling!” defended the insane human. “I’m just trying to have a smoke and they’re acting like I just kicked a puppy.”
The human Captain sighed. “Jana, you know how things are,” he began, looking at the now named human. “Aliens don’t know what smoking is, they have no idea what to think. Just try to explain to them what it is you’re doing instead.”
“What reasonable explanation is there for burning one's lungs?” I questioned, still baffled by what I was seeing. “And a soldier who needs to be in tip top condition, no less!”
“That's what the kerfuffle was about?” the nervous Harchen Minister spoke. “I can't believe I'm saying this, but I'm with the Grey on this one. How can one justify the thing it-... he described?”
Gendered pronouns already? My, my, he's quick to learn how to address me properly.
“Well it helps me focus, alright?” Jana explained grumpily. “Helps get rid of stress.”
“You mean to tell me that smoke isn’t poisonous to you?” wondered Barisis, sounding amazed. “That would make you incredibly powerful against Exterminators. The ashen air wouldn't harm you!”
Hans sucked in a breath, hesitating a moment before speaking. “About that…”
“Don't tell me it is bad for you, yet you still allow her to do it,” the aqua-skinned medic said, sounding like she already knew the answer. “Please, Hans, captain of this whole operation. Tell me that this is not the case.”
A voice different from Hans answered. “Nope, you're correct. Lung cancer is a bitch and that lady there is gonna get intimately familiar with it soon.”
It was Tyler, the human who introduced Risha and her… Venlil lover to the defector Vraka.
I’d decided not to mention either defecting Arxur to my superiors when bringing in that scumbag Vizz, as they clearly didn't seem up for battle for much longer. I was saving rations that would ultimately be wasted as they’d be executed for being defective. It wasn't about mercy, it was purely logical. By sparing them, they’d no longer be our problem and the real traitor was brought to justice either way.
Oh how I enjoyed seeing Chief Hunter Isif gut that bastard Vizz’s with his bare claws. And shooting the corpse a couple times for good measure had also felt pretty good.
Informing the Chief Hunter just how Vizz was defeated was almost just as good. Taken to a draw by a measly Venlil, infamously one of the weakest species in the galaxy. The humiliation that traitor felt in his final moments was better than even the juiciest cut off meat.
Pulling my mind back to the present, I noticed that the two prey medics were still arguing with the ‘smoker’ Jana.
“...incredibly serious afflictions, yet you give yourself them willingly?!” exclaimed Helaven in exasperation.
“Look, it's my concern, not yours, so shove it,” replied the female soldier with a hostile tone. “Quit whining or it’ll burn up before I can smoke it.”
I decided that after my bout of silence it was time to voice my opinion on the matter. “Excuse my language, but why the actual fuck haven’t you detained this woman for her complete and utter insanity?” came the question, directed at Captain Hans.
Hans opened his mouth, but was interrupted by the female human. “It’s my fucking body. I’ll do whatever the fuck I want with it, Lizard.”
That hardly seemed like an excuse to me. The body was a sacred thing. It was one’s embodiment in the galaxy, and to actively damage it of one’s own will without care for the consequences was not only idiotic, but beyond disrespectful to oneself.
I found my thoughts being agreed upon as Barisis scoffed. “Just because you can do something doesn’t mean you should.” She pointed an accusatory tentacle at the human.
“Well, your kin shouldn’t have engineered the galaxy to conform with your primitive bullshit excuse of a worldview, yet you still did it for no other reason other than because you could!”
…
Silence permeated through the room as the Kolshian shrunk, her skin seeming to both pale and darken, a remorseful expression developing on her face. Helaven immediately went to comfort her.
“Jana…” Hans said as my attention was brought to him and the stern expression he bore on his face. “That was completely uncalled for and needlessly hurtful.”
“Yeah,” Tyler said. “Very not cool.”
Feeling oddly offended by the human’s harsh words toward Barisis, I decided to defend the Kolshian’s honour. “If she shared her government’s and people's views, she would have remained on Aafa with the rest of them,” I stated coolly, though adding an edge of anger to ensure that my opinion came through clearly. “The fact that she is able to bear being in close proximity to not only your species, but mine, should be all the evidence required to debunk the idea that she subscribes to her society’s ideals.”
Then, the Kolshian in question did something entirely unexpected.
She left her open position and took cover behind me, shielding herself from the hostile human female. Even more shockingly, she grabbed a hold of my tail, as though it would further protect her.
Did she… find comfort in my presence? No, no, that couldn't be possible. She simply sees me as the biggest piece of cover available.
“They're just concerned for your health, dude,” Tyler pointed out, gesturing to the medics and myself.
Jana huffed. “Whatever. I’ll just go smoke somewhere else.”
With that she left, forcing me to hold my breath as she passed, lest I breathe in that horrid smoke.
“Urgh, dammit, my head is pounding,” complained Hans, sounding exasperated to a degree I had never heard from him before. “I need some water or else I’ll be stuck with this for the rest of the day.”
With that, he left, Tyler following behind him.
The tentacles of the prey medic let go of me as she no longer needed to protect herself from the harshness of the huntress-soldier. She looked at me timidly, as though she expected me to yell at her for her behaviour. Instead I gazed at her with a mostly blank expression before she sheepishly returned to her salad bowl.
With the drama over, I returned to my meal, scarfing it down with speedy efficiency. While I’d been enjoying its flavour, the fight, and all the talking that had come with it, had drained my desire to savour it. The quick influx of flavours was good, but I washed it down with a glass of water.
Quite surprisingly, Udey, who openly disliked me, sat down at our table, taking a seat by Helaven.
“Do humans really do that kind of thing often?” he asked. I noticed despite being in such close proximity to me, he remained relatively relaxed.
It was a truly strange thing when I thought about it. So many leaf-lickers, who only mere [months] ago would've cowered at the sight of me, now tolerate, or possibly even enjoy, my presence. The change felt almost unnatural to me.
And yet… I didn't dislike it. It was like I was experiencing how the galaxy was meant to be. Of course, that was impossible, as predators were superior to other life, with Arxur on top. It was probably just that these prey were particularly tolerable for their kind. Yes, that was what it was. And the Harchen were former omnivores, which meant their natural state made them closer to us than they would've wanted to admit. They, and all other ‘cured’ species, were our mutilated kin. It was their right to be restored to the status of true sapients.
If possible, I wanted to convince our leaders to take up that goal. We would no longer be anomalies, or a coincidence. We would have dozens of our sort. We were at the top, of course, but they would be tolerated by the rest of the Dominion. A brotherhood of hunters. Quite an appealing concept, in my opinion.
Leaving the maze of thoughts in my mind, I noticed the two medics and the minister were having a blast of a conversation, with humans as their topic of discussion.
“No, you're messing with me,” chuckled the Harchen. “There is no way that they're the weakest of their family.”
“It's true!” Barisis exclaimed. “Out of all the apes, the animal family humans belong to, they have the least muscle mass. A wild ape is stronger than even a highly trained human.”
Udey guffawed in amusement. “That is unreasonably funny. To think we were afraid of them!”
Really? If what the Kolshian says is true, that's very interesting. No wonder humans prefer ranged weapons. I knew they were physically weaker than us, but I didn't realise they were also weaker than the beasts of their own planet.
“They still have binocular vision like my kind. And as arboreal descendants, I’d wager their eyesight is even better than ours. That means they can see you from very far away, Minister,” I added to the conversation, watching the colouration thin in Udey’s scales.
“I see…” he murmured, sounding put off. “How… comforting…”
“Quite,” I mock-agreed. “They’re always watching, those humans. Ever vigilant. Ever-seeing.”“Thass, you arse, stop it,” Barisis commanded. My snout shifted as the front of my lips curled, an equivalent gesture to when Hans would raise an eyebrow at his underlings’ actions. “He’s uncomfortable, so you’re doing to stop it.”“Are you ordering me, prey?” I asked, adding a twinge of hostility that normally wouldn’t be there.
The aqua Kolshian was unfazed, a massive change from a month ago. “Maybe it was. What are you going to do about it?”
Such a brave, foolhardy thing, she is.
I snapped my jaws at her, making her flinch ever so slightly, but otherwise she didn’t move. Her unwavering made me let out an impressed chuckle. “Very well then, doctor. I’ll listen, for now…”
“And the next time too,” she responded confidently. “You like to bluff, but I know you’re full of it.”
“Want to stake your tentacle on that claim?” I asked with a cold but tone. Though I was amused, I didn’t let much of it show externally.
Wordlessly she stuck out her limb. A month ago, she had been afraid that I would eat her. And yet now she was goading me into taking a bite out of her. She wasn’t just foolhardy, she was downright overconfident.
Moving my head toward the outstretched manipulator, my powerful jaws opened as I got closer. Udey and even Helaven looked worried, but the Aafa native did not. Even as her tentacle was in my mouth, she didn’t pull away.
Saliva dripped onto her, making her shudder. And yet she still refused to back down.
She’s not just toying with death, she was outright tempting it, goading me into trying. I don’t know if I should be impressed, bewildered or both.
Unwilling to back down, I took it a step further and ran my tongue across her limb. The taste of her skin was pleasant to the palate, much better than the steak I just had. As I had to have won with that step-up, I waited for her to register what I did.
Out of all the responses I expected, amusement wasn’t one. “You’re gross,” the medic snickered.
I started to laugh, stunned and awed by her lack of fear. She was a mere meek prey, yet was entirely unafraid of my powerful jaws ensnaring her precious body parts. It was so ridiculous it became funny!
My laughter soon became full on cackling as I relented, letting Barisis win. “You are really one brave Kolshian!” I chortled. “An exemplary specimen of your kind!”
“Wuss,” she chuckled jokingly, far more amused than the Harchen or her colleague sitting across from her.
“Don’t count on me backing down again, Barisis,” I jested. “You taste far better than anything I’ve eaten in the past [weeks].”
Unexpectedly, Helaven snorted.
“Something funny, Hel?” asked the Kolshian quizzically.
She snickered, having to take a moment to speak. “Spicy~”
“How DARE you!?” I roared in genuine offence. “To accuse me of… feeling for prey! Urgh, no!”
I stormed off, absolutely fuming. The Zurulian had the nerve to accuse me of such defectiveness to think I could develop weak feelings for a weak creature. The very thought made me sick to my stomach. Quite clearly she was too used to Risha’s less-than-standard tastes to assume that I would share her tastes. Herbivores were unworthy of my mere gaze! She should be honoured that I speak to her at all! The fucking gall to call me defective in the vilest way…
If it weren’t for our truce with humanity, I would rip her worthless spine out here and now.
My legs had carried me by themselves as I brooded in rage and had taken me far in a short time, having walked out of the building entirely without realising. I was furious with that fucking Zurulian, and wasn’t planning to speak with h- it, nor the Kolshian, anytime soon. Fucking bitch…
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Memory transcription subject: Thass, Arxur-UN Cooperative Liaison
Date [standardised human time]: 27th of November, 2136
The cursed meeting was taking far longer than I could bear, and much the same could be said to the pathetic diplomats we were negotiating with. Despite their initial bravado, it quickly wore off and they grew fearful of my presence. So when a recess was suggested, I was relieved that it was agreed upon that we would spend [45 minutes] away from the bureaucracy for a decently timed break.
I sighed as I reclined myself in a chair. Human furniture was extremely comfortable, more than it probably had any right to be. The leaf-licking predators were arguably soft, but they had a fierce streak hidden under that calm and weak persona. The speed at which I’d seen a personality shift in some humans was so sudden I sometimes wondered if I was even talking to the same person when it happened.
What was I thinking about again?
Oh, right, furniture.
…
Well, I have no other thoughts on the furniture. I should move on.
Helaven and Barisis were eagerly munching on salads and fruits respectively. I myself had myself a freshly cooked steak, which Barisis was trying to avert her eyes from. Human food was really starting to grow on me. I had already come to enjoy the higher quality meat from my time on Earth, but the longer I had it in my diet, the more I came to appreciate the tiniest of details in the flavour.
The slight char from the ‘cooking’ process was a surprisingly savoury addition, creating a contrast from other meats. If I had the opportunity, I wished to further explore the possibilities offered by Terran cuisine. Learning how to correctly burn the meat would be a terrific way of enhancing the flavour. It was supposedly one of humanity’s greatest feats, so that only made me more eager to-
I was caught off guard by a smoky scent that most definitely did not come from my meal. Was another piece of meat being cooked?
Sniff
EURGH, FUCK!
The deep breath meant to identify the horrid smell instead sent me into a coughing fit. It was like I was breathing in toxic fumes!
“Fucking- cough -Prophet!” I wheezed, feeling like my lungs were being stabbed by hundreds of tiny needles. “What is that- cough -horrible smoke- cough -in the air!?”
I turned to see a human female holding some sort of roll of paper that had been set on fire. The human then proceeded to-
“WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!” Helaven shouted as I stared in both awe and absolute terror.
This human was literally breathing cinders and smoke without any sort of complaint.
“I’m taking a smoke. What the fuck does it look like I’m doing?” The human said with an almost incredulous expression.
Was this sort of extreme toughness normal?!
“YOU JUST INHALED FUCKING SMOKE! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! DO YOU WANT TO FUCKING DIE?!” Barisis joined Helaven in her screeching. “HAVE HUMANS SOMEHOW MISSED THE DANGERS OF SMOKE INHALATION!?”
The possibly deranged human looked confused. “I’m just taking the edge off, what’s the problem?”
“What’s with all the screaming?” asked an annoyed Hans who had just arrived, accompanied by a meek looking Udey. “I’m on the verge of a God damn headache, so please, just stop it.”
“It’s the xenos who are yelling!” defended the insane human. “I’m just trying to have a smoke and they’re acting like I just kicked a puppy.”
The human Captain sighed. “Jana, you know how things are,” he began, looking at the now named human. “Aliens don’t know what smoking is, they have no idea what to think. Just try to explain to them what it is you’re doing instead.”
“What reasonable explanation is there for burning one's lungs?” I questioned, still baffled by what I was seeing. “And a soldier who needs to be in tip top condition, no less!”
“That's what the kerfuffle was about?” the nervous Harchen Minister spoke. “I can't believe I'm saying this, but I'm with the Grey on this one. How can one justify the thing it-... he described?”
Gendered pronouns already? My, my, he's quick to learn how to address me properly.
“Well it helps me focus, alright?” Jana explained grumpily. “Helps get rid of stress.”
“You mean to tell me that smoke isn’t poisonous to you?” wondered Barisis, sounding amazed. “That would make you incredibly powerful against Exterminators. The ashen air wouldn't harm you!”
Hans sucked in a breath, hesitating a moment before speaking. “About that…”
“Don't tell me it is bad for you, yet you still allow her to do it,” the aqua-skinned medic said, sounding like she already knew the answer. “Please, Hans, captain of this whole operation. Tell me that this is not the case.”
A voice different from Hans answered. “Nope, you're correct. Lung cancer is a bitch and that lady there is gonna get intimately familiar with it soon.”
It was Tyler, the human who introduced Risha and her… Venlil lover to the defector Vraka.
I’d decided not to mention either defecting Arxur to my superiors when bringing in that scumbag Vizz, as they clearly didn't seem up for battle for much longer. I was saving rations that would ultimately be wasted as they’d be executed for being defective. It wasn't about mercy, it was purely logical. By sparing them, they’d no longer be our problem and the real traitor was brought to justice either way.
Oh how I enjoyed seeing Chief Hunter Isif gut that bastard Vizz’s with his bare claws. And shooting the corpse a couple times for good measure had also felt pretty good.
Informing the Chief Hunter just how Vizz was defeated was almost just as good. Taken to a draw by a measly Venlil, infamously one of the weakest species in the galaxy. The humiliation that traitor felt in his final moments was better than even the juiciest cut off meat.
Pulling my mind back to the present, I noticed that the two prey medics were still arguing with the ‘smoker’ Jana.
“...incredibly serious afflictions, yet you give yourself them willingly?!” exclaimed Helaven in exasperation.
“Look, it's my concern, not yours, so shove it,” replied the female soldier with a hostile tone. “Quit whining or it’ll burn up before I can smoke it.”
I decided that after my bout of silence it was time to voice my opinion on the matter. “Excuse my language, but why the actual fuck haven’t you detained this woman for her complete and utter insanity?” came the question, directed at Captain Hans.
Hans opened his mouth, but was interrupted by the female human. “It’s my fucking body. I’ll do whatever the fuck I want with it, Lizard.”
That hardly seemed like an excuse to me. The body was a sacred thing. It was one’s embodiment in the galaxy, and to actively damage it of one’s own will without care for the consequences was not only idiotic, but beyond disrespectful to oneself.
I found my thoughts being agreed upon as Barisis scoffed. “Just because you can do something doesn’t mean you should.” She pointed an accusatory tentacle at the human.
“Well, your kin shouldn’t have engineered the galaxy to conform with your primitive bullshit excuse of a worldview, yet you still did it for no other reason other than because you could!”
…
Silence permeated through the room as the Kolshian shrunk, her skin seeming to both pale and darken, a remorseful expression developing on her face. Helaven immediately went to comfort her.
“Jana…” Hans said as my attention was brought to him and the stern expression he bore on his face. “That was completely uncalled for and needlessly hurtful.”
“Yeah,” Tyler said. “Very not cool.”
Feeling oddly offended by the human’s harsh words toward Barisis, I decided to defend the Kolshian’s honour. “If she shared her government’s and people's views, she would have remained on Aafa with the rest of them,” I stated coolly, though adding an edge of anger to ensure that my opinion came through clearly. “The fact that she is able to bear being in close proximity to not only your species, but mine, should be all the evidence required to debunk the idea that she subscribes to her society’s ideals.”
Then, the Kolshian in question did something entirely unexpected.
She left her open position and took cover behind me, shielding herself from the hostile human female. Even more shockingly, she grabbed a hold of my tail, as though it would further protect her.
Did she… find comfort in my presence? No, no, that couldn't be possible. She simply sees me as the biggest piece of cover available.
“They're just concerned for your health, dude,” Tyler pointed out, gesturing to the medics and myself.
Jana huffed. “Whatever. I’ll just go smoke somewhere else.”
With that she left, forcing me to hold my breath as she passed, lest I breathe in that horrid smoke.
“Urgh, dammit, my head is pounding,” complained Hans, sounding exasperated to a degree I had never heard from him before. “I need some water or else I’ll be stuck with this for the rest of the day.”
With that, he left, Tyler following behind him.
The tentacles of the prey medic let go of me as she no longer needed to protect herself from the harshness of the huntress-soldier. She looked at me timidly, as though she expected me to yell at her for her behaviour. Instead I gazed at her with a mostly blank expression before she sheepishly returned to her salad bowl.
With the drama over, I returned to my meal, scarfing it down with speedy efficiency. While I’d been enjoying its flavour, the fight, and all the talking that had come with it, had drained my desire to savour it. The quick influx of flavours was good, but I washed it down with a glass of water.
Quite surprisingly, Udey, who openly disliked me, sat down at our table, taking a seat by Helaven.
“Do humans really do that kind of thing often?” he asked. I noticed despite being in such close proximity to me, he remained relatively relaxed.
It was a truly strange thing when I thought about it. So many leaf-lickers, who only mere [months] ago would've cowered at the sight of me, now tolerate, or possibly even enjoy, my presence. The change felt almost unnatural to me.
And yet… I didn't dislike it. It was like I was experiencing how the galaxy was meant to be. Of course, that was impossible, as predators were superior to other life, with Arxur on top. It was probably just that these prey were particularly tolerable for their kind. Yes, that was what it was. And the Harchen were former omnivores, which meant their natural state made them closer to us than they would've wanted to admit. They, and all other ‘cured’ species, were our mutilated kin. It was their right to be restored to the status of true sapients.
If possible, I wanted to convince our leaders to take up that goal. We would no longer be anomalies, or a coincidence. We would have dozens of our sort. We were at the top, of course, but they would be tolerated by the rest of the Dominion. A brotherhood of hunters. Quite an appealing concept, in my opinion.
Leaving the maze of thoughts in my mind, I noticed the two medics and the minister were having a blast of a conversation, with humans as their topic of discussion.
“No, you're messing with me,” chuckled the Harchen. “There is no way that they're the weakest of their family.”
“It's true!” Barisis exclaimed. “Out of all the apes, the animal family humans belong to, they have the least muscle mass. A wild ape is stronger than even a highly trained human.”
Udey guffawed in amusement. “That is unreasonably funny. To think we were afraid of them!”
Really? If what the Kolshian says is true, that's very interesting. No wonder humans prefer ranged weapons. I knew they were physically weaker than us, but I didn't realise they were also weaker than the beasts of their own planet.
“They still have binocular vision like my kind. And as arboreal descendants, I’d wager their eyesight is even better than ours. That means they can see you from very far away, Minister,” I added to the conversation, watching the colouration thin in Udey’s scales.
“I see…” he murmured, sounding put off. “How… comforting…”
“Quite,” I mock-agreed. “They’re always watching, those humans. Ever vigilant. Ever-seeing.”“Thass, you arse, stop it,” Barisis commanded. My snout shifted as the front of my lips curled, an equivalent gesture to when Hans would raise an eyebrow at his underlings’ actions. “He’s uncomfortable, so you’re doing to stop it.”“Are you ordering me, prey?” I asked, adding a twinge of hostility that normally wouldn’t be there.
The aqua Kolshian was unfazed, a massive change from a month ago. “Maybe it was. What are you going to do about it?”
Such a brave, foolhardy thing, she is.
I snapped my jaws at her, making her flinch ever so slightly, but otherwise she didn’t move. Her unwavering made me let out an impressed chuckle. “Very well then, doctor. I’ll listen, for now…”
“And the next time too,” she responded confidently. “You like to bluff, but I know you’re full of it.”
“Want to stake your tentacle on that claim?” I asked with a cold but tone. Though I was amused, I didn’t let much of it show externally.
Wordlessly she stuck out her limb. A month ago, she had been afraid that I would eat her. And yet now she was goading me into taking a bite out of her. She wasn’t just foolhardy, she was downright overconfident.
Moving my head toward the outstretched manipulator, my powerful jaws opened as I got closer. Udey and even Helaven looked worried, but the Aafa native did not. Even as her tentacle was in my mouth, she didn’t pull away.
Saliva dripped onto her, making her shudder. And yet she still refused to back down.
She’s not just toying with death, she was outright tempting it, goading me into trying. I don’t know if I should be impressed, bewildered or both.
Unwilling to back down, I took it a step further and ran my tongue across her limb. The taste of her skin was pleasant to the palate, much better than the steak I just had. As I had to have won with that step-up, I waited for her to register what I did.
Out of all the responses I expected, amusement wasn’t one. “You’re gross,” the medic snickered.
I started to laugh, stunned and awed by her lack of fear. She was a mere meek prey, yet was entirely unafraid of my powerful jaws ensnaring her precious body parts. It was so ridiculous it became funny!
My laughter soon became full on cackling as I relented, letting Barisis win. “You are really one brave Kolshian!” I chortled. “An exemplary specimen of your kind!”
“Wuss,” she chuckled jokingly, far more amused than the Harchen or her colleague sitting across from her.
“Don’t count on me backing down again, Barisis,” I jested. “You taste far better than anything I’ve eaten in the past [weeks].”
Unexpectedly, Helaven snorted.
“Something funny, Hel?” asked the Kolshian quizzically.
She snickered, having to take a moment to speak. “Spicy~”
“How DARE you!?” I roared in genuine offence. “To accuse me of… feeling for prey! Urgh, no!”
I stormed off, absolutely fuming. The Zurulian had the nerve to accuse me of such defectiveness to think I could develop weak feelings for a weak creature. The very thought made me sick to my stomach. Quite clearly she was too used to Risha’s less-than-standard tastes to assume that I would share her tastes. Herbivores were unworthy of my mere gaze! She should be honoured that I speak to her at all! The fucking gall to call me defective in the vilest way…
If it weren’t for our truce with humanity, I would rip her worthless spine out here and now.
My legs had carried me by themselves as I brooded in rage and had taken me far in a short time, having walked out of the building entirely without realising. I was furious with that fucking Zurulian, and wasn’t planning to speak with h- it, nor the Kolshian, anytime soon. Fucking bitch…
2024.05.17 16:50 Eldritch_Anomaly The Arisen: Rise from the Grave & navigate the Political Machinations of a Kingdom ruled by a lich! [D&D5e][Homebrew Setting][LGBTQIA+ Friendly][Free Session 0][Saturday][FoundryVTT][PAID][15$]
📜 Experience the Political Machinations of a Kingdom ruled by a lich in this dark fantasy setting of Dead Gods and a Shattered Sun.
You remember little of your death, perhaps fleeting memories, sensations, and flashing images. You might even remember the events or days leading up to your death clearly. However, the details of your untimely demise are shrouded in mystery.
As you list aimlessly in whatever afterlife you have found yourself in a voice echoes around you. A tether wraps around your neck as your spirit begins to burn. “...come forth lost souls and join me….Aslendus I call upon you...come forth and become Arisen!” Bits and pieces of a chant fill your ears as you can feel the weight of mortal flesh settle upon you once more and, finally, your eyes open once more!
Even with the cloud of your death filling your mind, what matters most is Estelle’s motives. War is brewing at her borders. Her people are restless, and some of her subjects plot against her. Political intrigue can be found everywhere as the Divine Land of Astrana musters forces and intel on the Lichdom, all while the Avexin Empire, land ruled by devils and The Blood, sit quietly behind the scenes plotting their machinations.
You now find yourself bound to this ancient Queen, rumored to be one of the most powerful liches, second only to The Ruler of Death himself. She who sacrificed her entire country to ascend, turning them into Undead and Demons to save them from the end of an era, from The Black Month.
How will you navigate the political landscape of this odd country ruled by the dead, for the dead? Will you seek to free yourself from the Queen, or help your newfound
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Overview
The Arisen is a Political Intrigue campaign based around a country ruled by the Lich Queen Estelle. It is heavily inspired by gothic horror genre's, as well as taking influence from sources such as darkest dungeon, dark souls, and bloodborne. Explore a unique political landscape of a country of undead and demons, bordered by a Divine Land and in the sights of the Avexin Empire ruled by The Blood and allies of devils.The Dead Rise
You are an adventurer of some renown is respected or feared by the select few who’s lives you have directly impacted, and you are dead.You remember little of your death, perhaps fleeting memories, sensations, and flashing images. You might even remember the events or days leading up to your death clearly. However, the details of your untimely demise are shrouded in mystery.
As you list aimlessly in whatever afterlife you have found yourself in a voice echoes around you. A tether wraps around your neck as your spirit begins to burn. “...come forth lost souls and join me….Aslendus I call upon you...come forth and become Arisen!” Bits and pieces of a chant fill your ears as you can feel the weight of mortal flesh settle upon you once more and, finally, your eyes open once more!
Who are you?
You are five 1st-level adventurers. You met an untimely end, but now have been resurrected by the powers of Estelle Ofros, the Lich Queen. However, the power and abilities you once held seem to be weakened. You find yourself in The Lichdom of Ofros bound to the queen by the Hand of Estelle. How your body got here, the circumstances of your death, and the intricacies of your newfound life are few among the mysteries you must discover answers for.Even with the cloud of your death filling your mind, what matters most is Estelle’s motives. War is brewing at her borders. Her people are restless, and some of her subjects plot against her. Political intrigue can be found everywhere as the Divine Land of Astrana musters forces and intel on the Lichdom, all while the Avexin Empire, land ruled by devils and The Blood, sit quietly behind the scenes plotting their machinations.
You now find yourself bound to this ancient Queen, rumored to be one of the most powerful liches, second only to The Ruler of Death himself. She who sacrificed her entire country to ascend, turning them into Undead and Demons to save them from the end of an era, from The Black Month.
How will you navigate the political landscape of this odd country ruled by the dead, for the dead? Will you seek to free yourself from the Queen, or help your newfound
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- We will be starting the game once we get 3 players with the hopes of eventually having 5 players.
- 3 to 4 hour sessions.
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- Custom Discord Server for the campaign.
- Custom character backstories and arcs.
- Homebrew rules and custom Bloodlines System. Character creation is performed on FoundryVTT. All races and classes in dnd5e are allowed. As well as a few homebrew options including custom races or Laserllama's alternate classes.
Backstories are created together to immerse your character. First, you will write something original and creative then I will provide ideas and supplements until the backstory truly comes alive. each player will also write 4 rumors about their character that may be true, false, or partially true. These rumors will be distributed to the other players.
Once the seats are filled, we will run Session 0 and schedule Session 1. Session 0 is a group activity to learn Foundry VTT and to get to know each other. Session 0 is free!
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2024.05.17 16:39 fernando3981 My 9-year-old son’s IQ is 40
Well, the title really says it all—and I’m just so gutted. We’ve known forever that our boy (age 9) has an intellectual disability. We just didn’t think it was THAT severe. He’s semi-verbal, meaning he can ask for what he wants and occasionally comment on things and answer very basic questions. But he still lacks foundational skills, so we knew the ID diagnosis was coming. He still struggles with pronouns (you/me) and still often picks the last choice if you give him two options, that kind of thing. He has zero leisure activities besides running around and stimming, very little attention span, and has recently started bolting (again!!). He recently had an outside neuropsych done and the dr did the WISC, hence the score of 40. He also just had his 3-year reevaluation at school which confirmed the severe intellectual disability. He’s incredibly inconsistent—one day he has a skill, the next day he doesn’t. He requires frequent repetition to learn anything, and even then it’s a crapshoot if he’ll remember it tomorrow. The big takeaway was the lack of progress and regression that’s occurred over the past few years. For instance, his ABLLS score was higher at age 7 than it is now at age 9. He can barely write his name, which he’s been working on since preschool. And he’s so dysregulated and stimmy that it’s hard for him to attend to anything. So he’s being referred for private placement (which is what we want, so that’s a win, I guess). He saw a neurologist last month to rule out seizures and had blood work done to rule out PANDAS/PANS and nutritional deficiencies that could cause regression and all the medical testing came back fine. So, it’s just him, I guess. But I’m having a hard time accepting this because when he was diagnosed at age 2, he was making progress. Everyone said he’d be “mainstreamed by kindergarten.” He has been in ABA since age 2. He was toilet trained by age 4.5, but he still wears a pull-up at night. I don’t know, I’m rambling, but I just thought things would improve over time , or at least not get worse, at least until puberty/adolescence. But despite everyone’s best efforts and heaps of therapies and ABA, it seems that he’s on a downward spiral. And I don’t know where to go from here….he’s only 9 and I feel like he has Alzheimer’s, just gradual decline. Is anyone else’s kid like this? It’s just so hard
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2024.05.17 11:55 CommanderRoku Fully Explained: Star Cards for Blaster Heroes (Part III)
 | Star Cards for Blaster Heroes (Part III) submitted by CommanderRoku to StarWarsBattlefront [link] [comments] LEGEND https://preview.redd.it/efh0szx56n1d1.png?width=320&format=png&auto=webp&s=a8611766ab9caecb01a31062efc20efce93b5e0b · Boba Fett https://preview.redd.it/lyakqr496n1d1.png?width=149&format=png&auto=webp&s=f08028fe95e9903b2ba5e1ff38ef51cb2a11cf2d o Quick Refill: The 8.3% per second refill rate for jetpack fuel is faster when not being used. At EPIC rarity, it is 12.3% per second. Normal Refill Time: 12 seconds; EPIC Rarity: 10.5 seconds. (S1) § Refill Rate per Second: ? / ? / ? / 12.3% o Born to Fly: Reduces the cooldown times of CONCUSSION ROCKET, FOR THE HUNT, and ROCKET BARRAGE when flying with a jetpack. Health regeneration is delayed from 5 seconds to 6.5 seconds as a result. FOR THE HUNT’s Duration: 8 seconds. “Fuel Efficiency” Jetpack Flight Time in Seconds: 5.00 / 5.25 / 5.40 / 5.55 / 5.75; Normal Cooldown Times by order of mention (And “Intense Barrage”): 15 seconds; 10 seconds; 20 seconds; 13 seconds. Hypothetical EPIC Rarity: 12 seconds; 8 seconds; 16 seconds; 10.4 seconds. § Reduced Cooldown Time: 5% / 10% / 15% / 20% o Extended Exposure: Enemies stay revealed for additional seconds after FOR THE HUNT’s 8-second duration ends. Ability Cooldown Time: 10 seconds; Total Reveal Time: 10 / 11 / 12 / 14 (S1) § Additional Seconds: 2 / 3 / 4 / 6 o Acute Concussion: Adds seconds to the 5-second duration of the concussive effect caused by CONCUSSION ROCKET. Extended Effects: blurring of vision; disabling of lightsaber attack target lock-on. Duration in Seconds: 5.5 / 6.0 / 6.5 / 7.0 § Added Seconds: 0.5 / 1.0 / 1.5 / 2.0 o Augmented Gear: If CONCUSSION ROCKET hits the number of enemies stated below, flying with a jetpack can be used without fuel consumption. Normal “Fuel Efficiency” Jetpack Flight Time in Seconds: 5.00 / 5.25 / 5.40 / 5.55 / 5.75; New “Fuel Efficiency” Jetpack Flight Time in Seconds: 9.00 / 9.25 / 9.40 / 9.55 / 9.75; FOR THE HUNT Duration: 8 seconds; “Quick Refill” Refill Time: 12 seconds / 10.5 seconds. § Number of Enemies: 5 / 4 / 3 / 2 § No Fuel Consumption Time in Seconds: 2 / 2 / 3 / 4 o Fuel Efficiency: Decreases the consumption rate of jetpack fuel, increasing the 5-second flight time. Jetpack Flight Time in Seconds: 5.25 / 5.40 / 5.55 / 5.75 § Decreased Consumption Rate: 5% / 8% / 11% / 15% o Intense Barrage: If 500 damage points are dealt to enemies within a single use of ROCKET BARRAGE, the following 20-second cooldown time is reduced. “Focalize” Rocket Damage: 75 / 79 / 81 / 83 / 85; “Focalize” on Two Enemies: 150 / 158 / 162 / 166 / 170; “Focalize” Five Rockets on One Enemy: 375 / 395 / 405 / 415 / 425; Cooldown Time: 16 / 15 / 14 / 13 § Seconds Removed from Cooldown Time: 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 o Death From Above: Damage reduction is received when using ROCKET BARRAGE while flying with a jetpack. “Fuel Efficiency” Jetpack Flight Time in Seconds: 5.00 / 5.25 / 5.40 / 5.55 / 5.75; Health Points: 600 / 648 / 660 / 672 / 690 § Damage Reduction: 8% / 10% / 12% / 15% o Focalize: ROCKET BARRAGE rockets deals bonus damage within a 1-meter radius of the center of the explosion. Rocket Damage: 75 / 79 / 81 / 83 / 85; On Two Enemies: 150 / 158 / 162 / 166 / 170; Five Rockets on One Enemy: 375 / 395 / 405 / 415 / 425 § Bonus Damage: 4 / 6 / 8 / 10 · Bossk https://preview.redd.it/ppjhr4e5f91d1.png?width=164&format=png&auto=webp&s=576063edc30922c5deca3120b06dc83b4fe89d8a o Name Your Poison: Health is regained each in-game tick within DIOXIS GRENADE’s cloud of gas. Ability Duration: 6 seconds. Total Health Regained: 90 / 120 / 150 / 180 § Health regained per Second: 15 / 20 / 25 / 30 o Trap Arming Speed: PROXIMITY MINES arm faster when deployed, reducing activation time. At EPIC rarity, it reduces by 65%. Arming Speed in Seconds: 4 / 2.8 / 2.4 / 2 / 1.6 (S1) § Reduced Activation Time: ? / ? / ? / 65% OR 30% / 40% / 50% / 60% o Spreading The Disease: This card does nothing. (BF1; R1) o Sniper Expert: A headshot defeat with the sniper scope resets removes blaster heat. Blaster Overheat: 8 shots. § No Blaster Heat Time in Seconds: 1.0 / 1.5 / 2.0 / 2.5 o Unrelenting Predator: For every enemy defeated while PREDATOR INSTINCTS is active, the 20-second cooldown times of DIOXIS GRENADE and PROXIMITY MINES are reduced. Ability Duration: 25 seconds; Cooldown Times in Seconds: 19.0 / 18.4 / 17.8 / 17.2 § Reduced Cooldown Time: 5% / 8% / 11% / 14% o Predator Resilience: Damage Reduction is received while PREDATOR INSTINCTS is active. Ability Duration: 25 seconds; Health Points: 600 / 660 / 678 / 696 / 720 § Damage Reduction: 10% / 13% / 16% / 20% o Multi-Traps: Adds two additional PROXIMITY MINES. All mines also have an extended detonation radius. Mine Damage: 76; All Five Mines: 380; Detonation Radius: 6 / 6.5 / 6.9 / 7.2 / 7.5; Inner Detonation Radius: 5 / 5.5 / 5.75 / 6 / 6.25 § Extended Detonation Radius: 10% / 15% / 20% / 25% o Ultimate Predator: For every enemy defeated with micro-grenades or proximity-mines and while active, PREDATOR INSTINCTS’s 25-second duration is extended. (S1) § Extended Duration: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Lingering Dioxis: Adds seconds to DIOXIS GRENADE’s 6-second duration. At EPIC rarity, it deals up to 238 damage. Duration: 8 / 9 / 10 / 12 (R4) § Added Seconds: 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 · Chewbacca https://preview.redd.it/aedfzgvb6n1d1.png?width=179&format=png&auto=webp&s=216125a80518b53367ff04428a5a8268277e4755 o Bonus Health: Increases maximum base health. Maximum Base Health: 700 / 750 / 775 / 800 / 850 § Health Added: 50 / 75 / 100 / 150 o Echoing Roar: For every enemy defeated with FURIOUS BOWCASTER, its 25-second duration is extended. Duration: 7.5 to 25 seconds; Cooldown Time: 20 seconds. (S1) § Extended Duration: 15% / 20% / 30% / 40% o Extended Shock: Extends SHOCK GRENADE’s duration of 1.1 seconds. The 15-second cooldown time is extended by 50% as a result. At EPIC rarity, the shock duration is extended 20%. EPIC Rarity: 1.3 seconds; New Cooldown Time: 22.5 seconds. (S1) § Extended Shock Duration: ? / ? / ? / 20% o Charging Frenzy: Even more damage reduction is added to the 30% damage reduction received while sprinting with CHARGE SLAM. Cooldown Time: 10 seconds; Total Damage Reduction: 50% / 60% / 70% / 80%; Health Points: 910 / 1050 / 1120 / 1190 / 1260; And “Bonus Health”: 850 / 1105 / 1275 / 1360 / 1445 / 1530; And “Impervious” Only: 938 / 1219 / 1407 / 1501 / 1595 / 1688; “Bonus Health” And “Impervious”: 1139 / 1481 / 1709 / 1822 / 1936 / 2050; “Bonus Health” And “Furious Resilience”: 1020 / 1326 / 1530 / 1632 / 1734 / 1836; “Impervious” And “Furious Resilience”: 1126 / 1464 / 1689 / 1802 / 1914 / 2027 (S1) § Additional Damage Reduction: 20% / 30% / 40% / 50% o Multi-Shock: SHOCK GRENADE splits into even more missiles, increasing area of affect. Missiles: 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9 § Added Missiles: 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 o Impervious: Every 200 damage points dealt to enemies while any ability is active permanently adds damage reduction by 2%. As a bonus, if an enemy hero is thrown off a ledge using CHARGE SLAM and they die from the void within 3 seconds, the additional damage reduction received will be set to the maximum value possible. The effect resets after being defeated. Maximum Health Points Possible: 700 / 854 / 882 / 910 / 938; And “Bonus Health”: 850 / 1037 / 1071 / 1105 / 1139 (S1) § Maximum Damage Reduction: 22% / 26% / 30% / 34% o Shocked And Vulnerable: Enemies shocked by SHOCK GRENADE receive Damage Vulnerability for the shock duration of 1.1 seconds. § Damage Vulnerability: 3% / 5% / 7% / 9% o Slammed: CHARGE SLAM deals bonus damage to enemies within half of its 8-meter radius. Cooldown Time: 10 seconds; Total Damage to Troopers: 200 / 220 / 230 / 240 / 250; Heroes: 150 / 170 / 180 / 190 / 200 (BF1) § Bonus Damage: 20 / 30 / 40 / 50 o Furious Resilience: Blaster damage reduction is received while FURIOUS BOWCASTER is active. Ability Duration: 25 seconds. Health Points: 700 / 735 / 770 / 805 / 840; And “Bonus Health”: 850 / 893 / 935 / 978 / 1020; And “Impervious Only: 938 / 985 / 1032 / 1079 / 1126;“Bonus Health” And “Impervious”: 1139 / 1196 / 1253 / 1310 / 1367 § Blaster Damage Reduction: 5% / 10% / 15% / 20% · Han Solo https://preview.redd.it/0fyrzc5lgm1d1.png?width=174&format=png&auto=webp&s=b8549568856781c497d37cdc40767c54197494a8 o Broad Shoulders: Damage reduction is received while sprinting with SHOULDER CHARGE. Cooldown Time: 10 seconds; Health Points: 650 / 813 / 845 / 878 / 910 § Damage Reduction: 25% / 30% / 35% / 40% o Sharpshooter's Calm: Decreases SHARPSHOOTER’s time reduction per blaster shot. Cooldown Time: 15 seconds; Duration in Seconds: 3 / 3.3 / 3.45 / 3.6 / 3.75 § Decreased Time Reduction: 10% / 15% / 20% / 25% o Keep Your Head Cool: Every headshot defeat removes all blaster heat. Blaster Overheat: 8 shots. § No Blaster Heat Time in Seconds: 1.0 / 1.5 / 2.0 / 2.5 o Big Bang: After 5 seconds of being attached, DETONITE CHARGE’s 10-meter outer blast radius is extended. Unknown if the 5-meter inner blast radius remains the same or extends as well. Inner Blast radius Damage: 200; Outer Blast Radius Damage: 60; Inner Blast Radius in Meters: 5.5 / 5.75 / 6 / 6.25; Total Blast Radius in Meters: 11 / 11.5 / 12 / 12.5 (BF1; S1) § Extended Blast Radius: 10% / 15% / 20% / 25% o All In: A defeat with SHOULDER CHARGE reduces the cooldown times of all abilities. The effect is permanent until the ability is used again or when defeated. At EPIC rarity, SHOULDER CHARGE’s cooldown time reduces by 75%, while DETONITE CHARGE and SHARPSHOOTER reduces by the values stated below. Without Card by order of mention: 10 seconds; 18 seconds; 15 seconds. EPIC Rarity: 5 seconds; 9 seconds; 7.5 seconds; And “Smuggler’s Wits”: 6 seconds; 10 seconds; 8.5 seconds. (BF1; R1) § Reduced Cooldown Time: 20% / 30% / 40% / 50% o Air Burst: DETONITE CHARGE’s damage increases if it is detonated in the air before attaching itself to a surface. Damage: 200 / 220 / 226 / 232 / 240 § Increased Damage: 10% / 13% / 16% / 20% o Smuggler's Wits: An extra dodge is ready for use. Seconds are added to the cooldown times to DETONITE CHARGE, SHARPSHOOTER, and SHOULDER CHARGE as a result. Without Card by order of mention: 10 seconds; 18 seconds; 15 seconds. EPIC Rarity: 12 seconds; 20 seconds; 17 seconds. § Added Seconds: 3.5 / 3.0 / 2.5 / 2.0 o Heavily Modified Blaster: Reduces the main weapon’s blaster heat. Blaster Shots Before Overheat: 8 / 9 / 9 / 10 / 11 § Blaster Heat Reduction: 10% / 14% / 18% / 25% · Iden Versio https://preview.redd.it/i2vf7acaf91d1.png?width=164&format=png&auto=webp&s=5dcc716758fa63e80837a45ab06bc24e8f75f387 o Pulse Cannon Mastery: PULSE CANNON reveals enemies that are hit by it. § Reveal Time in Seconds: 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 o Sturdy Shield: Increases DROID SHIELD’s health. Health: 750 / 825 / 848 / 870 / 900 § Increased Health: 10% / 13% / 16% / 20% o Alternative Methods: Decreases the cooldown time of the main weapon’s alternative fire. Cooldown Time: 2.3 / 1.8 / 1.7 / 1.6 / 1.5 § Reduced Cooldown Time: 10% / 15% / 20% / 25% o Shock Reach: Extends STUN DROID’s 25-meter area of effect for searching for viable targets. (BF1; R1) § Extended Area of Effect: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Shield Sustain: Adds seconds to DROID SHIELD’S duration. Duration: 12 / 16 / 17 / 18 / 22 § Added Seconds: 4 / 5 / 6 / 10 o Acquiring Targets: Extends STUN DROID’s area of effect that shocks enemies. (BF1; R1) § Extended Area of Effect: 25% / 30% / 35% / 40% o Shocking Weakness: STUN DROID reveals enemies within 25 meters. § Reveal Time in Seconds: 4 / 6 / 8 / 10 o Droid Batteries: Reduces the cooldown times of STUN DROID and DROID SHIELD. STUN DROID Cooldown Time in Seconds: 20 / 18 / 17 / 16 / 15; DROID SHIELD Cooldown Time in Seconds: 12.0 / 9.0 / 8.5 / 8.0 / 7.5 § Reduced Cooldown Time: 10% / 15% / 20% / 25% o Cooled Blaster: Reduces the main weapon’s blaster heat. Blaster Shots Before Overheat: 48 / 52 / 53 / 55 / 57 § Blaster Heat Reduction: 8% / 10% / 12% / 15% · Lando Calrissian https://preview.redd.it/1lbqmkzcf91d1.png?width=166&format=png&auto=webp&s=4507cc3198dce9874c74b4230d7ca8f006249778 o Disabler Lifetime: Adds seconds to the 25-second duration of DISABLER. Area of Effect: 20 meters; Duration in Seconds: 33 / 35 / 37 / 40 § Added Seconds: 8 / 10 / 12 / 15 o Hot and Cold: Increases maximum base health. Maximum Base Health: 700 / 725 / 750 / 800 § Health Added: 50 / 75 / 100 / 150 o Welcome To Cloud City: This card does nothing. (BF1; R1) o Maximized Efficiency: If three enemies or more are targeted, SHARP SHOT’s cooldown time is reduced. Cooldown Time in Seconds: 12 / 9 / 8.4 / 7.8 / 7.2 § Reduced Cooldown Time: 25% / 30% / 35% / 40% o Buckle Up, Baby: Every enemy trooper defeated or 100 damage points dealt to enemy heroes permanently reduces the main weapon’s blaster heat by 2%. The effect resets after being defeated. Maximum Blaster Shots Possible: 15 / 17 / 18 / 19 / 20 § Maximum Blaster Heat Reduction: 10% / 18% / 26% / 34% o Lingering Smoke: Adds seconds to the 10-second duration of SMOKE GRENADE. Duration in Seconds: 12 / 13 / 14 / 16 § Added Seconds: 2 / 3 / 4 / 6 o Disabler Growth: After 5 seconds of being attached, DISABLER’s 20-meter area of effect is extended. At EPIC rarity, it extends by 25%. Area of Effect in Meters: 23 / 24 / 25 / 26 (S1; YB1) § Extended Area of Effect: ? / ? / ? / 25% OR 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Quick Shock: After 5 seconds of being attached, DISABLER’s shock duration of 1.1 seconds is extended. At EPIC rarity, it extends by 20%. Shock Duration in Seconds: 1.265 / 1.32 / 1.375 / 1.43 (S1; YB1) § Extended Shock Duration: ? / ? / ? / 20% OR 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Wide Eyed: Extends SHARP SHOT’s 40-meter targeting reach distance. At EPIC rarity, it extends by 40%. Reach Distance in Meters: 50 / 52 / 54 / 56 (S1) § Extended Reach Distance: 25% / 30% / 35% / 40% · Leia Organa https://preview.redd.it/mhaqqj4kur1d1.png?width=221&format=png&auto=webp&s=1b69dc8f59efda3f56c3c12d1a9ba15c1b6cb1f3 o Optimized Shield Deployment: Decreases SQUAD SHIELD’s 20-second cooldown time. At EPIC rarity, it reduces 25%. Ability Duration: 30 seconds. EPIC Rarity: 15 seconds. (S1) § Reduced Cooldown Time: ? / ? / ? / 25% o High Spirit: More health can be regenerated. Health Regeneration: 200 / 225 / 250 / 275 / 300 § Added Health to Regeneration: 25 / 50 / 75 / 100 o Fearless: This card does nothing. (BF1; R1) o Rebel Heart: Damage reduction is received when RAPID FIRE is active. Duration: 8 to 25 seconds; Health Points: 650 / 715 / 748 / 780 / 813 § Damage Reduction: 10% / 15% / 20% / 25% o Stay Together: If two allies or more are within 15 meters, damage reduction is received. Allies also receive this damage reduction. Health Points: 600 / 625 / 636 / 648 / 660; And “Rebel Heart”: 813 / 845 / 861 / 878 / 894 § Damage Reduction: 4% / 6% / 8% / 10% o Handy Device: Removes seconds from THERMAL DETONATORS’ cooldown time. Cooldown Time in Seconds: 13.00 / 12.50 / 12.00 / 11.75 / 11.50 § Removed Seconds: 0.50 / 1.00 / 1.25 / 1.50 o Laser Brain: The main weapon’s alternate fire deals extra damage. Alternate Fire Charge-Up Time: 1.5 seconds; Total Damage: 145 / 165 / 170 / 175 / 180 § Extra Damage: 20 / 25 / 30 / 35 o Relentless Firing: Decreases RAPID FIRE’s time reduction per blaster shot. Cooldown Time: 15 seconds; Duration in Seconds: 8.0 / 10.0 / 10.8 / 11.6 / 12.4 § Decreased Time Reduction: 25% / 35% / 45% / 55% o Shield Durability: Increases SQUAD SHIELD’s health. Health: 3000 / 3300 / 3450 / 3600 / 3750 § Increased Health: 10% / 15% / 20% / 25% · Finn https://preview.redd.it/vew1tnogf91d1.png?width=171&format=png&auto=webp&s=b961271e44b5c463a2d513e3ae9368c43ea7128e o In Charge: For every enemy trooper defeated or 100 damage points dealt to enemy heroes while UNDERCOVER TEAM is active, 2% damage reduction is permanently received whether UNDERCOVER TEAM is active or not. Any ally within 15 meters also receives this damage reduction. The effect resets after being defeated. Health Points: 600 / 696 / 744 / 780 / 816; With BIG DEAL: 930 / 1079 / 1153 / 1209 / 1265 § Damage Reduction: 16% / 24% / 30% / 36% o Beacon Of Hope: Extends BIG DEAL’s 15-meter radius if two allies are affected. Radius in Meters: 17.25 / 18 / 19.5 / 21 (S1) § Extended Radius: 15% / 20% / 30% / 40% o No More Running: DEADEYE deals extra damage. Minimum Damage: 20 / 25 / 28 / 30 / 22; Maximum Damage: 30 / 35 / 38 / 40 / 42 (R1) § Extra Damage: 5 / 8 / 10 / 12 o Come Get It: Headshots extend BIG DEAL’s duration. Normal Duration: 10 seconds. § Extended Duration: 5% / 9% / 12% / 15% o I Can Do This: Enemies stay revealed for additional seconds after UNDERCOVER TEAM’s duration ends. Area of Effect: 15 meters; Ability Duration: 5 to 25 seconds; Ability Cooldown Time: 15 seconds; Minimum Reveal Time Possible: 8.0 / 9.0 / 9.5 / 10.0; Maximum Reveal Time Possible: 28.0 / 29.0 / 29.5 / 30.0 (S1) § Additional Seconds: 3.0 / 4.0 / 4.5 / 5.0 o Stay Calm: For every enemy defeated and while active, DEADEYE’s duration is extended. Cooldown Time: 15 seconds; Normal Duration: 5 to 25 seconds (S1) § Extended Duration: 15% / 20% / 30% / 40% o One Resistance: If used on three or more allies, BIG DEAL’s cooldown time is reduced. § Reduced Cooldown Time: 15% / 20% / 30% / 40% o Never Going Back: For every enemy defeated and while active, UNDERCOVER TEAM’s duration is extended. Normal Duration: 5 to 25 seconds (R1) § Extended Duration: 15% / 20% / 30% / 40% o Raised To Do One Thing: This card does nothing. (YT6, Timestamp: 6:37-8:48) · Captain Phasma https://preview.redd.it/o2hofknhf91d1.png?width=152&format=png&auto=webp&s=53762f87e9052ebc43b01d02bd0227a97f500b82 o The More the Better: FIRST ORDER SENTRY DROID’s motor capacity is improved, decreasing the time it takes to make a 6-second full rotation. At EPIC rarity, motors are used at 150% capacity, making the full rotation now 4.5 seconds, a 25% decrease in time. Full Rotation in Seconds: 5.4 / 5.1 / 4.8 / 4.5 (S1, Comment: ajschefflerbackup) § Increased Motor Capacity: 20% / 30% / 40% / 50% o Blaster Inspection: Every enemy defeated permanently reduces the main weapon’s blaster heat by 3%. Any ally within 15 meters also receives this blaster heat reduction. The effect resets after being defeated. Maximum Blaster Shots Possible: 58 / 68 / 72 / 75 / 79; And “Easy Shots”: 77 / 91 / 95 / 100 / 105 § Maximum Blaster Heat Reduction: 18% / 24% / 30% / 36% o Easy Shots: Reduces the main weapon’s blaster heat. Blaster Shots Before Overheat: 48 / 62 / 67 / 72 / 77 (S1) § Blaster Heat Reduction: 30% / 40% / 50% / 60% o Finish Them Off: This card does nothing. (S1; YB1) o Safety First: SURVIVOR gives even more bonus health. Total Bonus Health: 200 / 220 / 240 / 250 / 260; Total Health: 700 / 900 / 920 / 940 / 950 / 960 § Extra Bonus Health: 20 / 40 / 50 / 60 o Laser Wall Durability: Card’s Actual Name: “All for Myself”. After defeating four enemies with STAFF STRIKES, the 20-second cooldown times of SURVIVOR and FIRST ORDER SENTRY DROID are permanently reduced. At EPIC rarity, they reduce by 30%. The effect resets after being defeated. New Cooldown Time: 14 seconds. (S1) § Reduced Cooldown Time: ? / ? / ? / 30% o Come Closer: After defeating three enemies or more while FIRST ORDER SENTRY DROID is active, the shock area of effect is extended. The effect is permanent until the sentry droid is disassembled or destroyed. Total Shock Duration: 0.8 seconds; Shock Area of Effect in Meters: 15.0 / 18.0 / 19.5 / 21.0 / 22.5 (S1) § Extended Shock Area of Effect: 20% / 30% / 40% / 50% o There's No Escape: After shocking an enemy, the next unique individual to get shocked by the FIRST ORDER SENTRY DROID will suffer an extended shock duration. The seconds added are permanent until the sentry droid is disassembled or destroyed. Total Shock Duration in Seconds: 0.8 / 1 / 1.05 / 1.1 / 1.15 (S1) § Seconds Added to Shock Duration: 0.20 / 0.25 / 0.30 / 0.35 o Not Hard Enough: Damage Reduction is received while SURVIVOR is active. Health Points: 900 / 1080 / 1170 / 1260 / 1350; And “Safety First”: 960 / 1152 / 1248 / 1344 / 1440 § Damage Reduction: 20% / 30% / 40% / 50% · BB-8 https://preview.redd.it/olk336fqf91d1.png?width=129&format=png&auto=webp&s=2cbbce7fb193121a3d8c0e4571ec79c3e7a3b5b5 o Self Repairs: More health can be regenerated. Health Regeneration: 300 / 325 / 350 / 375 / 400 § Added Health to Regeneration: 25 / 50 / 75 / 100 o Shielded Roll: Damage reduction is received while ROLLING CHARGE is active. Cooldown Time: 10 seconds; Health Points: 650 / 845 / 910 / 975 / 1040 § Damage Reduction: 30% / 40% / 50% / 60% o Headfirst: ROLLING CHARGE deals extra damage. Cooldown Time: 10 seconds; Damage to Troopers: 200 / 220 / 225 / 235 / 240; Damage to Heroes: 150 / 170 / 175 / 180 / 190; With RESISTANCE BACKING to Troopers: 210 / 231 / 236 / 247 / 252; With RESISTANCE BACKING to Heroes: 158 / 179 / 184 / 189 / 200; And “Uncover” to Troopers: 235 / 259 / 264 / 276 / 282; And “Uncover” to Heroes: 176 / 200 / 206 / 212 / 223 § Extra Damage: 20 / 25 / 35 / 40 o Whirlwind: CABLE SPIN deals extra damage. Area of Effect is also extended. Ability Duration: 8 seconds; Damage per 0.3 Seconds: 45 / 47 / 49 / 51 / 53; Total Damage: 1170 / 1222 / 1274 / 1326 / 1378; With RESISTANCE BACKING per 0.3 Seconds: 47 / 49 / 51 / 54 / 56; With RESISTANCE BACKING Total: 1229 / 1283 / 1338 / 1392 / 1447; And “Uncover” per 0.3 Seconds: 53 / 55 / 58 / 60 / 62; And “Uncover” Total: 1375 / 1436 / 1497 / 1558 / 1619; Area of Effect in Meters: 5 / 5.5 / 6.0 / 6.5 / 7.0 § Extra Damage per 0.3 Seconds: 2 / 4 / 6 / 8 § Extended Area of Effect in Meters: 0.5 / 1.0 / 1.5 / 2.0 o Spared Batteries: For every three enemy troopers defeated or 300 damage points dealt to enemy heroes, 1 damage point is permanently added to basic attack damage. As a bonus, if an enemy hero is thrown off a ledge using ROLLING CHARGE and they die from the void within 3 seconds, the extra attack damage will be increased to the maximum value possible. The effect resets after being defeated. Basic Attack Damage: 29 / 31 / 33 / 35 / 36; With RESISTANCE BACKING: 30 / 33 / 35 / 37 / 38; And “Uncover”: 34 / 36 / 39 / 41 / 42 (S1) § Maximum Extra Damage: 2 / 4 / 6 / 7 o Spinner: Hitting the number of enemies stated below with CABLE SPIN removes seconds from the following cooldown time. Cooldown Time in Seconds: 25 / 21 / 19 / 17 / 15 § Number of Enemies: 4 / 3 / 2 / 2 § Removed Seconds: 4 / 6 / 8 / 10 o Trusty Droid: If an enemy revealed by RESISTANCE BACKING is defeated, allies nearby will regenerate health. [Unknown if it is health regeneration per second or health gained as bonus health] § Area of Effect in Meters: 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 § Extra Health: 5 / 7 / 10 / 12 o Uncover: Even more damage weakness is received to enemies revealed by RESISTANCE BACKING. Area of Effect: 20 meters; Duration: 12 seconds; Cooldown Time: 18 seconds; Damage Weakness: 5% / 10% / 12.5% / 15% / 17.5%; Basic Attack Damage per 0.3 Seconds: 29 / § Additional Damage Weakness: 5% / 7.5% / 10% / 12.5% o Roll Together: Adds additional percentage reduction to the already 6% reduced cooldown time of allies' abilities through SWIFT REACTION. Total Reduced Cooldown Time: 11% / 15% / 18% / 21% (R1; S1) § Additional Reduced Cooldown Time: 5% / 9% / 12% / 15% · BB-9E https://preview.redd.it/ynxexp5nf91d1.png?width=145&format=png&auto=webp&s=e8dd39155381e8c3822ca683c96f1a11a0f262eb o Full Reconstruction: More health can be regenerated. Health Regeneration: 250 / 275 / 300 / 325 / 350 § Added Health to Regeneration: 25 / 50 / 75 / 100 o Hearty Exhaust: SMOKE SCREEN’s area of effect is extended. Duration: 12 seconds; Cooldown Time: 18 seconds; Area of Effect: 30 / 31 / 31.3 / 31.6 / 32 § Extended Area of Effect in Meters: 1.0 / 1.3 / 1.6 / 2.0 o I See You: Enemies stay revealed for additional seconds after SMOKE SCREEN’s 12-second duration ends. Area of Effect: 30 meters; Cooldown Time: 18 seconds; Reveal Time: 14.5 / 15.0 / 15.5 / 16.0 (S1) § Additional Seconds: 2.5 / 3.0 / 3.5 / 4.0 o Spin Me Round: SHOCK SPIN pushes enemies 4 meters away. Seconds are added to its cooldown time as a result. Initial Damage: 90 damage; Normal Cooldown Time: 25 seconds; New Cooldown Time in Seconds: 25 / 31 / 30 / 29 / 28 § Added Seconds: 6 / 5 / 4 / 3 o Linked Systems: For every four shocks with shock prod, 1 damage point is permanently added to basic attack damage. The effect resets after being defeated. Basic Attack Damage per 0.3 Seconds: 24 / 26 / 28 / 30 / 32 (S1) § Maximum Extra Damage: 2 / 4 / 6 / 8 o Faster, Faster!: If SHOCK SPIN hits the number of enemies stated below, its damage will be doubled. Duration: 8 seconds; Cooldown Time: 25 seconds; Normal Damage per 0.8 Seconds: 30; Total Damage: 270; Double: 540. § Number of Enemies: 5 / 4 / 3 / 2 o Supercharged: CHARGE UP’s Area of Effect is extended. Duration: 5 Seconds; Cooldown Time: 15 seconds; Area of Effect in Meters: 20 / 24 / 25 / 26 / 27 § Extended Area of Effect in Meters: 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 o Swift Power: Removes seconds from CHARGE UP’s cooldown time. Duration: 5 Seconds; Cooldown Time in Seconds: 15 / 13 / 12 / 11 / 10 § Removed Seconds: 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 o Potent Bacta: BACTA SUPPORT’s Area of Effect is extended. Seconds are added to its cooldown time as a result. Area of Effect in Meters: 7 / 8 / 8.5 / 9 / 9.5; Seconds Health Is Gained: 0.8 / 3.8 / 3.8 / 2.8 / 2.8 § Extended Area of Effect in Meters: 1.0 / 1.5 / 2.0 / 2.5 § Added Seconds: 3 / 3 / 2 / 2 RELATED POSTS Fully Explained: Hero Descriptions (Part I) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/1cu1269/fully_explained_hero_descriptions_part_i/ Fully Explained: Star Cards for Lightsaber & Force Heroes (Part II) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/1cu1aeg/fully_explained_star_cards_for_lightsaber_force/ Fully Explained: Categorized by Color (Part IV) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/1cu1kot/fully_explained_categorized_by_color_part_iv/ NOTES · The EPIC rarity is only stated in the card description if it is a different value than shown in-game. · All Star Card descriptions were rewritten to be unilateral and have similar explanations. The names of heroes and second-person pronouns were avoided. · Clearer antonyms are used: increased/decreased; extended/reduced. o Increase/decrease suggests a progression in size, amount, or numbers (like adding/subtracting health, damage, stamina drain, and sprint speed). o Extend/reduce suggests a change made to a value or number (like percentages for time, distance, and blaster heat). · Damage Reduction is received; health points are regained. · To avoid confusion, the term increased cooldown speed and increased recharge time (which uses percentage increased) is avoided. To keep all related effects as close in description as possible: extended/reduced cooldown time (still percentage) is the simplest way to describe the effect without changing the in-game number values. · Extra damage is damage added to ability; bonus damage is situational. · Some values were rounded to whole numbers to reflect in-game values. Such are health points, damage points, and blaster overheat. As a result, though noticeably small, the actual values in-game may be a little off when it comes to stacked values (like stacking damage reduction) and are yet to be tested. · Some stats between the BF2 wiki and SammyBoiii’s Hero Guides differ in stats; however, they agree for the most part and usually differ by units less than a second. · Feel free to pick any hero and test out the stats yourself. The more accurate stats we have, the better we can use them. · Question Marks are unknown values. If you happen to know them or calculate the value, feel free to share them. Video proof seems to always work best. · I personally feel that being open to the intricacies of every star card and ability is the best way to go and should not be considered an exploit. Everyone should know what’s happening when the enemy team starts using these game-changers (and there are many people who do), and best enabling them to learn how to counter it. In the end, understanding these little details leads to a more competitive and playable battlefront. · Although not too often, some of the supposed up-to-date references below contradict each other; I had to make a final choice without having the time to test them. · Getting all these stats was a hard-earned headache in the end. Feel free to correct any discrepancies you may find! REFERENCES BF1 BF2 Community on Fandom [Most stats taken from here] https://battlefront.fandom.com/wiki/Heroes_and_Villains R1 These are ALL the Broken Hero Star Cards (u/RogueZeroRendar on Reddit) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/gcyh0these_are_all_the_broken_hero_star_cards/ R2 Hero Star Cards that are broken in a “beneficial way”? (u/T-RevLynn on Reddit) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/ub797m/hero_star_cards_that_are_broken_in_a_beneficial/ R3 Hero Star Card Guide (u/MAshby1001 on Reddit) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/pmf1b5/hero_star_card_guide/ R4 Damage stats for every trooper, hero and reinforcement in BF2 (u/ImpecableBunny on Reddit) [To Confirm Stats] https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/15bvq7z/damage_stats_for_every_trooper_hero_and/#lightbox R5 Grievous strikes again (u/Accomplished_Ebb1545 on Reddit) [“Jedi Killer” Secondary Effect] https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/1610bg5/grievous_strikes_again/ S1 All Broken Hero Starcards in BF2 (By shuds and Shineberg on Steam) https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=3024044483 YB1 SWBF2 Guide to Hero/Villain Stats (By jmorga3) [To Confirm Stats; Found this list after finishing my list, consider it a simplified version] https://www.yekbot.com/swbf2-guide-to-hero-villain-stats/ YT1 Star Cards Breakdown (@KillerDebit on YouTube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtoW9-Eb-QU&list=PLwVdQ5vamLGbW4srkAHahjSYp7qayFb88 YT2 Every hidden/actual star card effect on battlefront 2 (@Picos on YouTube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZb-iNSpFrM YT3 Battlefront 2 has 17 Star Cards that DON’T WORK (or are useless)… DO NOT USE THESE! (@Battlefront Knight on YouTube) [OUTDATED, BUT USEFUL COMMENT SECTION] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQNIOHv-yxA YT4 SammyBoiii: Star Wars Hero Guides [Stats also taken from here] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9yGv_5YaeI&list=PLMe4n3PD17TRrp_7adLtTblLCDmZeygZm YT5 Every Broken Hero Card In Battlefront 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0H70XpXI24 YT6 Star Wars Battlefront 2 Testing 5 USELESS Star Cards And Proving That They Don't Work! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBF4kRo6Y88 |
2024.05.17 11:48 CommanderRoku Fully Explained: Star Cards for Lightsaber & Force Heroes (Part II)
| | Star Cards for Lightsaber & Force Heroes (Part II) submitted by CommanderRoku to StarWarsBattlefront [link] [comments] LEGEND https://preview.redd.it/ikhms8885n1d1.png?width=320&format=png&auto=webp&s=3eeae593981a2478dc9b38d483fd208803e1d21f · Darth Vader https://preview.redd.it/43oqyezd5n1d1.png?width=194&format=png&auto=webp&s=cc0be67f4da3dc5d3d3d286166182dbe489ef9bf o Furious Resilience: Damage reduction is received while FOCUSED RAGE is active. Ability Duration: 10 seconds; “Fueling the Rage” Duration: 16 seconds; Maximum Health Points Possible: 1000 / 1080 / 1100 / 1200 / 1250; And “Bonus Health”: 1150 / 1242 / 1265 / 1380 / 1438 § Damage Reduction: 8% / 10% / 20% / 25% o Bonus Health: Increases maximum base health. Maximum Base Health: 800 / 850 / 875 / 900 / 950 § Health Added: 50 / 75 / 100 / 150 o There Is No Escape: Extends LIGHTSABER THROW’s 20-meter reach distance. At EPIC rarity, it extends by 45%. (BF1; S1; YT1) § Extended Reach Distance: ? / ? / ? / 45% o Punishing Grip: Extends CHOKE’s duration of 1.5 seconds. Duration in Seconds: 1.65 / 1.8 / 1.95 / 2.1; Damage: 126 / ? / ? / ? / 174; And “Last Gasp”: 174 / ? / ? / ? / 262; “Last Gasp” Alone: 126 / ? / ? / ? / 189 (BF1; S1; YT1) § Extended Duration: 10% / 20% / 30% / 40% o Surrounded by Fear: For every enemy defeated, stamina is regained. Swings with 1 Enemy Defeated: 10 / 10 / 11 / 11 / 12; Blocks: 14 / 14 / 15 / 16 / 16; Deflections: 2121 / 2227 / 2333 / 2439 / 2545; With FOCUSED RAGE Swings: 15 / 15 / 16 / 17 / 18; With FOCUSED RAGE Blocks: 21 / 22 / 23 / 24 / 25; With FOCUSED RAGE Deflections: 3181 / 3340 / 3499 / 3685 / 3817; FOCUSED RAGE Duration: 10 seconds. § Stamina Regained: 5% / 10% / 15% / 20% o Deflection Stamina: Decreases stamina drain for deflecting projectiles. Deflections: 2121 / 2333 / 2439 / 2545 / 2651; With FOCUSED RAGE: 3181 / 3499 / 3685 / 3817 / 3976 § Decreased Stamina Drain: 10% / 15% / 20% / 25% o Intensified Lightsaber Throw: LIGHTSABER THROW deals bonus damage to enemies hit by it a second time in a single throw. Individual Hit Damage: 130; Total Damage: 260 / 275 / 280 / 285 / 290; During CHOKE: 65 / 80 / 85 / 90 / 95 § Bonus Damage: 15 / 20 / 25 / 30 o Last Gasp: If two enemies or more are choked, CHOKE’S damage is increased. Damage per second: 86 / 103.2 / 111.8 / 120.4 / 129; Total Damage: 126 / ? / ? / ? / 189; And “Punishing Grip”: 189 / ? / ? / ? / 262; “Punishing Grip” Alone”: 126 / ? / ? / ? / 174 (YT1) § Increased Damage: 20% / 30% / 40% / 50% o Fueling the Rage: Adds 6 seconds to FOCUSED RAGE. The bonus damage gained is reduced as a result. Basic Attack Damage: 145 / 134 / 136 / 138 / 140; Rear Attack Damage: 175 / 164 / 166 / 168 / 170 § Damage Points Removed: 11 / 9 / 7 / 5 · Emperor Palpatine https://preview.redd.it/luljiqsg5n1d1.png?width=145&format=png&auto=webp&s=549e6c27e6d5f6d953bacb863343f30f05e412ad o Lightning Reach: Extends the basic lightning attack’s 14-meter reach distance. At EPIC rarity, it extends by 15%, about 16 meters. § Extended Distance: ? / ? / ? / 15% o Amplified Aura: DARK AURA deals extra damage. Area of Effect: 10 meters. Damage per Tick: 15 / 17.25 / 18 / 18.75 / 19.5; Total Damage: 175 (YT1) § Extra Damage: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Prime Electrocution: If three enemies or more are electrocuted, ELECTROCUTE’s shock and blaster disabling duration of 1.3 seconds is extended. Reach Distance: 15 meters; Shock Duration in Seconds: 1.50 / 1.56 / 1.63 / 1.69. (R1; YT1) § Extended Shock Duration: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Show No Mercy: For every additional enemy hit by CHAIN LIGHTNING, 0.25 seconds are permanently removed from its cooldown time of 14.5 seconds. The ability used on a single target that does not chain to another will not count. The effect resets after being defeated. Reach distance: 18 meters; Minimum Cooldown Time in Seconds: 11.5 / 10.5 / 9.5 / 9.5 (YT1) § Maximum Seconds Removed: 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 o Growing Darkness: DARK AURA’s 10-meter area of effect extends in distance over time. (R1; YT1) § Extended Area of Effect: 10% / 13% / 16% / 20% o Surge of Lightning: While CHAIN LIGHTNING can already chain up to 6 different enemies, the number of additional enemies hit by CHAIN LIGHTNING will increase the total number of potential targets chained in a single use. The ability used on a single target that does not chain to another will not count. The effect resets after being defeated. Reach distance: 18 meters; Cooldown Time: 14.5 seconds; Maximum Bounces: 7 / 8 / 9 / 10 (YT1) § Increased Number of Targets: 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 o The Rule of Two: If ELECTROCUTE is used on enemies while already attacking with two-handed basic lightning attacks, the basic lightning attack will deal increased damage. Ability Duration: 1.3 second; Two-Handed Basic Attack Damage per 0.3 Seconds: 28 / 33 / 34.5 / 36 / 37.5; Normal Damage in 1.3 Seconds: 728; New Damage in 1.3 Seconds: 794; And “Prime Electrocution”: 814; Only “Prime Electrocution”: 748 (YT1) § Increased Damage: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o In Full Control: Decreases stamina drain for basic lightning attacks. 1 Hand Duration in Seconds: 9.50 to 11.25 (+1.75); 2 Hands Duration in Seconds: 6.00 to 7.00 (+1.00); 1 Hand Full Stamina Damage: 588 to 714 (+126); 2 Hands Full Stamina Damage: 756 to 896 (+140) (YT1) § Decreased Stamina Drain: 10% / 12% / 14% / 16% o Forked Lightning: Extends ELECTROCUTE’s 15-meter reach distance. Reach Distance in Meters: 16.5 / 16.95 / 17.4 / 18 § Extended Reach Distance: 10% / 13% / 16% / 20% · Kylo Ren https://preview.redd.it/f2lsxwxi5n1d1.png?width=157&format=png&auto=webp&s=b17a5eb499511372dbe161606e56f94c9c1559b8 o Resilience: If within 15 meters of another force or lightsaber ally, damage reduction is received and basic lightsaber attacks deal extra damage. Health Points: 750 / 780 / 795 / 810 / 825; Basic Attack Damage: 125 / 135 / 138 / 141 / 145; Rear Attack Damage: 165 / 175 / 178 / 181 / 185 (BF1; R1) § Damage Reduction: 4% / 6% / 8% / 10% § Extra Damage: 10 / 13 / 16 / 20 o Closing In: Extends FRENZY’S 10-meter leap distance. Leap Distance in Meters: 11 / 12 / 13 / 14 (R1; YT1) § Leap Distance in Meters: 10% / 20% / 30% / 40% o Total Control: If three enemies or more are frozen, FREEZE’S duration of 2.5 seconds is extended. Freeze Duration in Seconds: 3 / 3.25 / 3.5 / 3.75. (R1; YT1) § Extended Freeze Duration: 20% / 30% / 40% / 50% o Solid Freeze: FREEZE’s 15-meter reach distance is extended. Reach Distance: 17.25 / 18 / 18.75 / 19.5 § Extended Reach Distance: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Power of Darkness: Basic lightsaber attacks deal extra damage for 6 seconds after using FRENZY. Basic Attack Damage: 125 / 130 / 133 / 136 / 139; Rear Attack Damage: 165 / 170 / 173 / 176 / 179; And “Resilience” Basic Attack Damage: 139 / 149 / 152 / 155 / 159; And “Resilience” Rear Attack Damage: 179 / 189 / 192 / 195 / 199 (YT1) § Extra Damage: 5 / 8 / 11 / 14 o Bloodlust: Frenzy deals extra damage. Damage to Troopers: 160 / 165 / 170 / 175 / 180; Damage to Heroes: 115 / 120 / 125 / 130 / 135; 3-Strike Total Damage to Troopers: 480 / 495 / 510 / 525 / 540; 3-Strike to Heroes: 345 / 360 / 375 / 390 / 405; 4-Strike to Troopers: 640 / 660 / 680 / 700 / 720; 4-Strike to Heroes: 460 / 480 / 500 / 520 / 540 § Extra Damage: 5 / 10 / 15 / 20 o Harsh Pull: PULL deals extra damage. Damage: 10 / 30 / 40 / 50 / 60 § Extra Damage: 20 / 30 / 40 / 50 o Power Reach: Extends PULL’s 20-meter reach distance. Reach Distance in Meters: 23 / 24 / 25 / 26 § Extended Reach Distance: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Berserking Tantrum: Decreases stamina drain for basic lightsaber attacks. Lightsaber Swings: 14 / 16 / 16 / 17 / 18 § Decreased Stamina Drain: 8% / 12% / 16% / 20% · Luke Skywalker https://preview.redd.it/ba0dz4vk5n1d1.png?width=155&format=png&auto=webp&s=ac42e8043b51cd45eacf23afbb486dab2701c372 o Epicenter: REPULSE deals bonus damage to enemies within half of its 12-meter radius. The bonus damage breaks through lightsaber blocks. Total Damage to Troopers: 130 / 155 / 160 / 165 / 170; Heroes: 75 / 100 / 105 / 110 / 115. (BF1) § Bonus Damage: 25 / 30 / 35 / 40 o Deflection Mastery: Deflected shots are returned more accurately, reducing deflection spread is reduced from 0.45 to 0.2. Stamina drain is increased by blocked blaster shots as a result. Deflection Stamina Drain Without Card: 1112 damage points. EPIC Rarity: 1,001 damage points. (R1; YT1) § Increased Stamina Drain: 18% / 15% / 12% / 10% o Intensify: Every enemy trooper defeated or 200 damage points dealt to enemy heroes permanently adds 2 extra damage points to basic lightsaber attacks. As a bonus, if an enemy hero is thrown off a ledge using a force ability and they die from the void within 3 seconds, the extra attack damage will be set to the maximum value possible. Otherwise, either 18 troopers defeated or 3600 damage to heroes is needed to reach the maximum value. The effect resets after being defeated. Basic Attack Damage: 130 / 148 / 154 / 160 / 166; Rear Attack Damage: 160 / 178 / 184 / 190 / 196 (BF1; S1; YT1) § Maximum Extra Damage: 18 / 24 / 30 / 36 o Stronger Push: PUSH’s 10-meter push distance is extended, force pushing enemies even farther. Push Distance in Meters: 14 / 16 / 18 / 20 § Extended Push Distance: 40% / 60% / 80% / 100% o Rush Immunity: Damage reduction is received for 3 seconds after using RUSH. Health Points: 750 / 810 / 825 / 840 / 863 § Damage Reduction: 8% / 10% / 12% / 15% o Jedi Reflexes: An extra RUSH is ready for use. Its 5-second cooldown time is extended as a result. Cooldown Time in Seconds: 5.75 / 5.50 / 5.25 / 5.00 (YT1) § Extended Cooldown Time: 15% / 10% / 5% / 0% o Jedi Fighter: Decreases all stamina drain. The following shows Without Card / EPIC Rarity. Swings: 10 / 16; Blocks: 10 / 16; Deflections: 1112 / 1711 (S1) § Decreased Stamina Drain: 20% / 25% / 30% / 35% o Extended Push Reach: Extends PUSH’s 12-meter reach distance. Reach Distance in Meters: 13.8 / 14.4 / 15 / 15.6 § Extended Push Distance: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Strong Repulse: Extends REPULSE’s 12-meter area of effect. Enemies are launched into the air for a 25% longer duration. Area of Effect in Meters: 13.8 / 14.4 / 15 / 15.6 (YT1, Comment: u/anjahupkes4376) § Extended Area of Effect: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% · Darth Maul https://preview.redd.it/rh1hserm5n1d1.png?width=139&format=png&auto=webp&s=56f4b20fc2780b0a64811f5c328f295f0099ba09 o Lightsaber Defense: Blaster damage reduction is received. Reduction of all damage is also received during the SPIN ATTACK. At EPIC rarity, the damage reduction from SPIN ATTACK is 60%. Blaster Health Points: 700 / 770 / 784 / 798 / 812; Health Points With 60%: 1120 (S1) § Blaster Damage Reduction: 10% / 12% / 14% / 16% o Thrown to Slow: If two enemies or more are choked, CHOKE HOLD deals extra damage. At EPIC rarity, it deals 19 damage points. Cooldown time: 18 seconds; Damage Without Card: 77; Total Damage: 96 (BF1; R1) § Extra Damage: ? / ? / ? / 19 o Ranged Throw: Extends FURIOUS THROW’s 20-meter reach distance. Reach Distance in Meters: 24 / 26 / 28 / 30. (BF1; S1) § Extended Reach Distance: 20% / 30% / 40% / 50% o Fool Me Once: Reduces the cooldown times of all abilities. At EPIC rarity, FURIOUS THROW reduces by 8.4%, CHOKE HOLD by 6.72%, and SPIN ATTACK by the values stated below. Without Card by order of mention: 8 seconds; 18 seconds; 5 seconds. New Cooldown Times in Seconds: 7.2 seconds; 17.0 seconds; 4.5 seconds. (R1; YT1) § Reduced Cooldown Time: 5% / 7% / 9% / 10% o Forceful Thrust: CHOKE HOLD’s throw distance is extended, launching enemies even farther. Throw Distance in Meters: 14 / 16 / 18 / 20 § Extended Throw Distance: 40% / 60% / 80% / 100% o Flow Motion: An extra SPIN ATTACK is ready for use. Its 5-second cooldown time is extended as a result. Cooldown Time in Seconds: 5.75 / 5.50 / 5.25 / 5.00 (YT1) § Extended Cooldown Time: 15% / 10% / 5% / 0% o Savage: If four enemies are hit with SPIN ATTACK within the number of seconds stated below, the 5-second cooldown time will be reduced by 80% for 4 seconds. Rewarded Cooldown Time: 1 second. (S1; YT1) § Number of Seconds: 4.0 / 4.5 / 5.0 / 5.5 o Accelerated Throw: FURIOUS THROW deals extra damage. Individual Hit Damage: 85 / 90 / 95 / 100 / 105 § Extra Damage: 5 / 10 / 15 / 20 o Unrolled Grip: Extends CHOKE HOLD’s 15-meter reach distance. Reach Distance: 17.25 / 18.00 / 18.75 / 19.50 § Extended Reach Distance: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% · Rey https://preview.redd.it/9a4d128o5n1d1.png?width=131&format=png&auto=webp&s=d24874f3855bf56d6990e266faf9b8e04a5a64b5 o Balance: An extra dodge is ready for use. Stamina drain is increased as a result. Swings: 10 to 9; Blocks: 14 to 13; Blaster Deflections as Damage: 1112 to ?; Swings with INSIGHT: 20 to 18; Blocks with INSIGHT: 28 to 26; Deflections with INSIGHT: 1112 to ? (YT1) § Increased Stamina Drain: 30% / 25% / 20% / 15% o Far Sight: Extends INSIGHT’s 30-meter area of effect. Area of Effect in Meters: 33 / 36 / 39 / 42 § Extended Area of Effect: 10% / 20% / 30% / 40% o Street Fighter: Decreases stamina drain for basic lightsaber attacks. Swings: 10 to 12; With INSIGHT: 20 to 24; And “Balance”: 18 to 20; “Balance”, No INSIGHT: 9 to 11 § Decreased Stamina Drain: 8% / 10% / 12% / 15% o Resilient Dash: Damage reduction is received when using DASH STRIKE. Health Points: 750 / 938 / 975 / 1013 / 1050 § Damage Reduction: 25% / 30% / 35% / 40% o Damaging Strike: DASH STRIKE deals extra damage. Cooldown Time: 10 seconds; Total Damage: 130 / 149 / 156 / 163 / 169 (BF1; R1) § Extra Damage: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Strong Mind: Extends MIND TRICK’s 18-meter reach distance. Reach Distance in Meters: 20.7 / 21.6 / 22.5 / 23.4; Cooldown Time: 20 seconds; Maximum Value: 22.5 (R1; YT1) § Extended Reach Distance: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Focused Sight: Adds seconds to INSIGHT’s duration. Duration in Seconds: 8 / 10 / 11 / 13 / 15 § Added Seconds: 2 / 3 / 5 / 7 o Deep Mind: Extends the 4-second duration of MIND TRICK’s effects on enemies that are revealed by INSIGHT. Duration in Seconds: 4.6 / 4.8 / 5.0 / 5.2 (S1; YT1) § Extended Duration: 15% / 20% / 25% / 30% o Opportunist: Bonus damage is dealt to enemies affected by MIND TRICK, knockdowns, or any other immobilizing effect. Basic Attack Damage: 120 / 128 / 130 / 132 / 135; Rear Attack Damage: 140 / 148 / 150 / 152 / 155; And “Damaging Strike”: 169 / 177 / 179 / 181 / 184 (YT1) § Bonus Damage: 8 / 10 / 12 / 15 · Yoda https://preview.redd.it/55vz9a2r5n1d1.png?width=166&format=png&auto=webp&s=6883673d8f14e2e7f303cc2aef0f6935f0ec562f o Enduring Presence: Bugged card. Adds seconds to PRESENCE’s duration, but the allies who receive bonus health are the ones standing at the previous use of PRESENCE. Duration: 8 / 10 / 11 / 12 / 13 § Added Seconds: 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 o Unleashed: Extends UNLEASH’s initial reach distance by 25%. The damage dealt is reduced from 190 to 160 damage points as a result. The final reach distance remains unchanged. (BF1; S1) § Extended Initial Reach Distance: 10% / 15% / 20% / 25% o Agility: An extra DASH ATTACK is ready for use. Its 5-second cooldown time is extended as a result. Cooldown Time in Seconds: 5.75 / 5.50 / 5.25 / 5.00 (YT1) § Extended Cooldown Time: 15% / 10% / 5% / 0% o Opposing the Dark Side: Basic lightsaber attacks deal bonus damage to enemy heroes. Basic Attack Damage: 125 / 135 / 137 / 139 / 141; Rear Attack Damage: 150 / 160 / 162 / 164 / 166 § Bonus Damage: 10 / 12 / 14 / 16 o Earned It I Have: This card does nothing. (R1) o Jedi Mentor: Damage reduction is received. Maximum Health Points Possible: 700 / 735 / 742 / 749 / 756; With PRESENCE: 850 / 893 / 901 / 910 / 918; And “Feel the Force”: 910 / 956 / 965 / 974 / 983 (YT1) § Damage Reduction: 5% / 6% / 7% / 8% o Feel the Force: PRESENCE gives even more bonus health. Total Bonus Health: 150 / 180 / 190 / 200 / 210; Total Health: 850 / 880 / 890 / 900 / 910 § Extra Bonus Health: 30 / 40 / 50 / 60 o Size Matters Not: If PRESENCE’s bonus health is depleted through damage, additional health is regained by a percentage of the bonus health that was depleted. The 20-second cooldown time is increased by 13 seconds as a result. New Cooldown Time: 33 seconds; Health Points Healed: 75; And “Feel the Force”: 105 (S1; YT1) § Percentage of Bonus Health Regained as Additional Health: 35% / 40% / 45% / 50% o Lightsaber Mastery: Decreases stamina drain for basic lightsaber attacks. Lightsaber Swings: 12 to 15 § Decreased Stamina Drain: 8% / 10% / 12% / 15% · General Grievous https://preview.redd.it/o8dndv1s5n1d1.png?width=145&format=png&auto=webp&s=0604149229c27c4a805ad5ef3eca72144b6632c1 o Beating Heart: More health can be regenerated. Health Regeneration: 250 / 275 / 300 / 325 / 350 § Added Health to Regeneration: 25 / 50 / 75 / 100 o Sith Trained: Basic lightsaber attacks deal extra damage. Stamina drain is increased by 25% as a result. Lightsaber Swings: 12 to 10; Basic Attack Damage: 130 / 145 / 150 / 155 / 160; Rear Attack Damage: 160 / 175 / 180 / 185 / 190 § Extra Damage: 15 / 20 / 25 / 30 o Jedi Killer: Extends THRUST SURGE’s 15-meter reach distance. Its hitbox’s area of effect is also extended by at least 15 meters. Reach Distance in Meters: 18 / 19.5 / 21 / 22.5 (R5) § Extended Reach Distance: 20% / 30% / 40% / 50% o Cowardly Retreat: Even more damage reduction is received when using CLAW RUSH. Duration: 3.2 seconds; Cooldown Time: 13 seconds; Health Points: 1120 / 1280 / 1360 / 1440 / 1520 § Total Damage Reduction: 60% / 70% / 80% / 90% o Flesh Is Weak: For every 10% of total health missing, damage reduction is added. Damage Reduction takes into effect per hit taken, meaning hits with a small damage output increase the total number of health points compared to those with a larger damage output. Health regeneration rate is halved as a result: 50 health per second to 25 health per second. When used with “Beating Heart”, health regeneration speed is set back to normal. Total Health Points: Varies from 800 to 1500 (S1; YT1, Comment: u/MetaDiscussions) § Damage Reduction Added: 2% / 3% / 4% / 5% o Momentum: THRUST SURGE deals extra damage. Damage: 160 / 170 / 180 / 190 / 200 § Extra Damage: 10 / 20 / 30 / 40 o Ceaseless Assault: Damage reduction is received when using UNRELENTING ADVANCE. Duration: 5 seconds; Cooldown Time: 11 seconds; Health Points: 800 / 880 / 960 / 1040 / 1120 § Damage Reduction: 10% / 20% / 30% / 40% o Deadly Slashes: UNRELENTING ADVANCE deals extra damage. Damage per 0.45 Seconds: 110 / 120 / 130 / 140 / 150 § Extra Damage per 0.45 Seconds: 10 / 20 / 30 / 40 o Line Up, Weaklings: CLAW RUSH deals extra damage. Cooldown Time: 13 seconds; Total Damage: 130 / 150 / 160 / 170 / 180 (R1) § Extra Damage: 20 / 30 / 40 / 50 · Obi-Wan Kenobi https://preview.redd.it/5f5ymeyv5n1d1.png?width=137&format=png&auto=webp&s=5ec75570e5a556b2a901f682aa67228fb7ea6a87 o Jedi Resilience: More health can be regenerated. Health Regeneration: 300 / 325 / 350 / 375 / 400 § Added Health to Regeneration: 25 / 50 / 75 / 100 o Perfect Defense: Decreases stamina drain for lightsaber blocks and blaster deflections. Blocks: 25 to 42; Blaster Deflections as Damage: 2121 / 2333 / 2545 / 2757 / 2969 (YT1) § Decreased Stamina Drain: 10% / 20% / 30% / 40% o Give It All: Extends ALL-OUT PUSH’s initial and charged-up reach distance. § Extended Reach Distance in Meters: 0.5 / 1.0 / 1.5 / 2.0 o Think It Over: Adds seconds to RESTRICTIVE MIND TRICK’s duration of 5.5 seconds. Duration in Seconds: 6.0 / 6.3 / 6.7 / 6.9 § Added Seconds: 0.5 / 0.8 / 1.2 / 1.4 o Safeguard: For every lightsaber attack blocked, two abilities blocked, or 5 blaster shots blocked, stamina drain decreases by 2%. Either 40 blocked lightsaber attacks, 40 blocked abilities, or 100 blocked blaster shots are needed to reach the maximum value. The effect resets after being defeated. Swings: 10 to 17; Blocks: 25 to 42; Blaster Deflections as Damage: 2121 / 2333 / 2545 / 2757 / 2969; And “Perfect Defense” Blocks: 25 to 69; And “Perfect Defense” Deflections: 2969 / 3266 / 3563 / 3856 / 4157 § Decreased Stamina Drain: 25% / 30% / 35% / 40% o Quickened Focus: Removes seconds from ALL-OUT PUSH’s charge-up to full duration of 1.2 seconds. Charge-up to Full Duration in Seconds: 1.2 / 1.0 / 0.9 / 0.8 / 0.7 § Seconds Removed: 0.2 / 0.3 / 0.4 / 0.5 o Forward!: DEFENSIVE RUSH deals extra damage. Damage: 140 / 150 / 160 / 170 / 180; Final Strike Damage: 200 / 210 / 220 / 230 / 240 § Extra Damage: 10 / 20 / 30 / 40 o More Doubts: Extends RESTRICTIVE MIND TRICK’s 21-meter reach distance. At EPIC rarity, it extends by 10%. Cooldown Time: 21 seconds; “EPIC” Rarity Reach Distance: 23 meters. (YT1) § Extended Reach Distance: ? / ? / ? / 10% o Critical Deflection: Blaster shots deflected by DEFENSIVE RUSH are critical hits dealing extra damage. Damage: 65 / 106 / 116 / 126 / 136 (YT1) § Extra Damage: 20 / 30 / 40 / 50 · Count Dooku https://preview.redd.it/v1sk907x5n1d1.png?width=141&format=png&auto=webp&s=c2db2facc9f14a285d5f6f0723a5ca2fd241990e o Sith Control: More health can be regenerated. Health Regeneration: 250 / 280 / 310 / 340 / 370 § Added Health to Regeneration: 30 / 60 / 90 / 120 o Finesse: Decreases stamina drain. Swings: 10 to 22; Blocks: 14 to 22; Blaster Deflections as Damage: 1112 / 1334 / 1390 / 1446 / 1501 (YT1) § Decreased Stamina Drain: 20% / 25% / 30% / 35% o Blind Spot: Increases the angle of LIGHTNING STUN’s area of effect. (YT1) § Increased Angle by Degrees: 5 / 10 / 20 / 30 o Superiority: Adds seconds to EXPOSE WEAKNESS’ duration of 5.5 seconds. Duration in Seconds: 6.0 / 6.5 / 7.0 / 7.5 § Added Seconds: 0.5 / 1.0 / 1.5 / 2.0 o Initiative: Every 15 seconds, the next basic lightsaber attack becomes a critical strike dealing extra damage. For every successful lightsaber attack, the cooldown time reduces by 1 second. A yellow circle around the crosshair will indicate when the critical strike is ready. Basic Attack Damage: 130 / 150 / 160 / 170 / 180; Rear Attack Damage: 160 / 180 / 190 / 200 / 210; With DUELIST Basic: 155 / 175 / 185 / 195 / 205; With DUELIST Rear: 185 / 205 / 215 / 225 / 235; And “Masterful Duelist” Basic: 175 / 195 / 205 / 215 / 225; And “Masterful Duelist” Rear: 205 / 225 / 235 / 245 / 255; With EXPOSE WEAKNESS Basic: 210 / 234 / 246 / 258 / 270; With EXPOSE WEAKNESS Rear: 246 / 270 / 282 / 294 / 306; Only DUELIST And “Masterful Duelist” Basic: 175 / 195 / 205 / 215 / 225; Only DUELIST And “Masterful Duelist” Rear: 205 / 225 / 235 / 245 / 255; Only EXPOSE WEAKNESS Basic: 156 / 180 / 192 / 204 / 216; Only EXPOSE WEAKNESS Rear: 192 / 216 / 228 / 240 / 252 (S1) § Extra Damage: 20 / 30 / 40 / 50 o Last Seconds: Removes seconds from LIGHTNING STUN’s 14-second cooldown time. Cooldown Time in Seconds: 13 / 12 / 11 / 10 § Removed Seconds: 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 o Masterful Duelist: DUELIST deals even more extra damage. Duration: 10 seconds; Cooldown Time: 13 seconds; Total Extra Damage: 25 / 30 / 35 / 40 / 45; Basic Attack Damage: 155 / 160 / 165 / 170 / 175; Rear Attack Damage: 185 / 190 / 195 / 200 / 205; With EXPOSE WEAKNESS Basic: 186 / 192 / 198 / 204 / 210; With EXPOSE WEAKNESS Rear: 222 / 228 / 234 / 240 / 246 § Extra Damage: 5 / 10 / 15 / 20 o Dominance: Enemy targets affected by EXPOSE WEAKNESS receive even more damage weakness. Damage Weakness: 20% / 25% / 30% / 35% / 40%; LIGHTNING STUN Damage: 192 / 200 / 208 / 216 / 224; Basic Attack Damage: 130 / 156 / 163 / 169 / 176 / 182; Rear Attack Damage: 160 / 192 / 200 / 208 / 216 / 224; With DUELIST Basic: 155 / 186 / 194 / 202 / 209 / 217; With DUELIST Rear: 185 / 222 / 231 / 241 / 250 / 259; And “Masterful Duelist” Basic: 175 / 210 / 219 / 228 / 236 / 245; And “Masterful Duelist” Rear: 205 / 246 / 256 / 267 / 277 / 287; And “Initiative” Basic: 225 / 270 / 281 / 293 / 304 / 315; And “Initiative” Rear: 255 / 306 / 319 / 332 / 344 / 357; Only “Initiative” Basic: 180 / 216 / 225 / 234 / 243 / 252; Only “Initiative” Rear: 210 / 252 / 263 / 273 / 284 / 294; Only “Initiative” With DUELIST Basic: 205 / 246 / 256 / 267 / 277 / 287; Only “Initiative” With DUELIST Rear: 235 / 282 / 294 / 306 / 317 / 329 § Additional Damage Weakness: 5% / 10% / 15% / 20% o Balanced Duelist: Removes seconds from DUELIST’s 13-second cooldown time. Duration: 10 seconds; Cooldown Time in Seconds: 12 / 11 / 10 / 9 § Removed Seconds: 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 · Anakin Skywalker https://preview.redd.it/5andfnsx5n1d1.png?width=135&format=png&auto=webp&s=6dd327ba2c031e2af78a70c8aa870430c0c9c783 o Tenacious: Increases maximum base health. Maximum Base Health: 800 / 825 / 850 / 875 / 900 § Health Added: 25 / 50 / 75 / 100 o Massive Strikes: Basic lightsaber attacks deal extra damage. Stamina drain for attacks and blocks is increased as a result. Cooldown Time: 13 seconds; Basic Attack Damage: 130 / 135 / 140 / 145 / 150; Rear Attack Damage: 170 / 175 / 180 / 185 / 190. The following shows Without Card / EPIC Rarity. Swings: 12 / 10; Blocks: 10 / 8; Deflections: 1392 / 1,044. (BF1; S1) § Extra Damage: 5 / 10 / 15 / 20 § Increased Stamina Drain: 35% / 35% / 25% / 25% o Pressure: The 2nd attack of PASSIONATE STRIKE deals extra damage. Also, the lunge distance of the two attacks is increased. 1st Attack Damage to Troopers: 70; 1st Attack Damage to Heroes: 40; 2nd Attack to Troopers: 180 / 190 / 195 / 200 / 205; 2nd Attack to Heroes: 130 / 140 / 145 / 150 / 155; Total Damage to Troopers: 250 / 260 / 265 / 270 / 275; Total Damage to Heroes: 170 / 180 / 185 / 190 / 195 (YT1, Comment: u/tabbywarrior) § Extra Damage: 10 / 15 / 20 / 25 o Control the Force: Extends HEROIC MIGHT’s initial 10-meter area of effect and RETRIBUTION’s initial 15-meter area of effect. HEROIC MIGHT’s Initial Area of Effect in Meters: 12 / 13 / 14 / 15; RETRIBUTION’s Initial Area of Effect in Meters: 17 / 18 / 19 / 20 (YT1, Comment: u/hypnotic_o) § Extended Area of Effect in Meters: 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 o Steamroll: Every enemy trooper defeated or 200 damage points dealt to enemy heroes permanently decreases stamina drain by 2%. As a bonus, if an enemy hero is thrown off a ledge using any force ability and they die from the void within 3 seconds, the decreased stamina drain will be set to the maximum value possible. Otherwise, either 20 troopers defeated or 4000 damage to heroes is needed to reach the maximum value. The effect resets after being defeated. The following shows Without Card / EPIC Rarity / And “Massive Strikes”. Swings: 12 / 20 / 16; Blocks: 10 / 17 / 13; Deflections: 1392 / 1044 / 1462 (BF1; S1; YT1) § Decreased Stamina Drain: 25% / 30% / 35% / 40% o Fierce Fighter: Reduces PASSIONATE STRIKE’s 13-second cooldown time. At EPIC rarity, it reduces to 5 seconds. Cooldown Time in Seconds: 11 / 10 / 9 / 8 (BF1; R1) § Seconds Removed from Cooldown Time: 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 o Attraction: Extends PULL DOMINANCE’s 18-meter reach distance. As a bonus, enemies can be pulled out of their abilities only within the added reach range. Cooldown Time: 15 seconds; Reach Distance in Meters: 20 / 21 / 22 / 23 (YT2, Comment: @Embo_Marrok) § Extended Reach Distance in Meters: 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 o Raw Strength: HEROIC MIGHT deals extra damage. Area of Effect: 10 meters; Damage to Troopers: 100 / 120 / 130 / 140 / 150; Damage to Heroes: 90 / 110 / 120 / 130 / 140 § Extra Damage: 20 / 30 / 40 / 50 o All of Them: If PULL DOMINANCE is used on a number of enemies, it deals 50 extra damage. Normal Damage to Troopers: 120; Normal Damage to Heroes: 80; New Damage to Troopers: 170; New Damage to Heroes: 130; New Damage: § Number of Enemies: 5 / 4 / 3 / 2 RELATED POSTS Fully Explained: Hero Descriptions (Part I) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/1cu1269/fully_explained_hero_descriptions_part_i/ Fully Explained: Star Cards for Blaster Heroes (Part III) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/1cu1dwj/fully_explained_star_cards_for_blaster_heroes/ Fully Explained: Categorized by Color (Part IV) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/1cu1kot/fully_explained_categorized_by_color_part_iv/ NOTES · The EPIC rarity is only stated in the card description if it is a different value than shown in-game. · All Star Card descriptions were rewritten to be unilateral and have similar explanations. The names of heroes and second-person pronouns were avoided. · Clearer antonyms are used: increased/decreased; extended/reduced. o Increase/decrease suggests a progression in size, amount, or numbers (like adding/subtracting health, damage, stamina drain, and sprint speed). o Extend/reduce suggests a change made to a value or number (like percentages for time, distance, and blaster heat). · Damage Reduction is received; health points are regained. · To avoid confusion, the term increased cooldown speed and increased recharge time (which uses percentage increased) is avoided. To keep all related effects as close in description as possible: extended/reduced cooldown time (still percentage) is the simplest way to describe the effect without changing the in-game number values. · Extra damage is damage added to ability; bonus damage is situational. · Some values were rounded to whole numbers to reflect in-game values. Such are health points, damage points, and blaster overheat. As a result, though noticeably small, the actual values in-game may be a little off when it comes to stacked values (like stacking damage reduction) and are yet to be tested. · Some stats between the BF2 wiki and SammyBoiii’s Hero Guides differ in stats; however, they agree for the most part and usually differ by units less than a second. · Feel free to pick any hero and test out the stats yourself. The more accurate stats we have, the better we can use them. · Question Marks are unknown values. If you happen to know them or calculate the value, feel free to share them. Video proof seems to always work best. · I personally feel that being open to the intricacies of every star card and ability is the best way to go and should not be considered an exploit. Everyone should know what’s happening when the enemy team starts using these game-changers (and there are many people who do), and best enabling them to learn how to counter it. In the end, understanding these little details leads to a more competitive and playable battlefront. · Although not too often, some of the supposed up-to-date references below contradict each other; I had to make a final choice without having the time to test them. · Getting all these stats was a hard-earned headache in the end. Feel free to correct any discrepancies you may find! REFERENCES BF1 BF2 Community on Fandom [Most stats taken from here] https://battlefront.fandom.com/wiki/Heroes_and_Villains R1 These are ALL the Broken Hero Star Cards (u/RogueZeroRendar on Reddit) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/gcyh0these_are_all_the_broken_hero_star_cards/ R2 Hero Star Cards that are broken in a “beneficial way”? (u/T-RevLynn on Reddit) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/ub797m/hero_star_cards_that_are_broken_in_a_beneficial/ R3 Hero Star Card Guide (u/MAshby1001 on Reddit) https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/pmf1b5/hero_star_card_guide/ R4 Damage stats for every trooper, hero and reinforcement in BF2 (u/ImpecableBunny on Reddit) [To Confirm Stats] https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/15bvq7z/damage_stats_for_every_trooper_hero_and/#lightbox R5 Grievous strikes again (u/Accomplished_Ebb1545 on Reddit) [“Jedi Killer” Secondary Effect] https://www.reddit.com/StarWarsBattlefront/comments/1610bg5/grievous_strikes_again/ S1 All Broken Hero Starcards in BF2 (By shuds and Shineberg on Steam) https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=3024044483 YB1 SWBF2 Guide to Hero/Villain Stats (By jmorga3) [To Confirm Stats; Found this list after finishing my list, consider it a simplified version] https://www.yekbot.com/swbf2-guide-to-hero-villain-stats/ YT1 Star Cards Breakdown (@KillerDebit on YouTube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtoW9-Eb-QU&list=PLwVdQ5vamLGbW4srkAHahjSYp7qayFb88 YT2 Every hidden/actual star card effect on battlefront 2 (@Picos on YouTube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZb-iNSpFrM YT3 Battlefront 2 has 17 Star Cards that DON’T WORK (or are useless)… DO NOT USE THESE! (@Battlefront Knight on YouTube) [OUTDATED, BUT USEFUL COMMENT SECTION] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQNIOHv-yxA YT4 SammyBoiii: Star Wars Hero Guides [Stats also taken from here] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9yGv_5YaeI&list=PLMe4n3PD17TRrp_7adLtTblLCDmZeygZm YT5 Every Broken Hero Card In Battlefront 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0H70XpXI24 YT6 Star Wars Battlefront 2 Testing 5 USELESS Star Cards And Proving That They Don't Work! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBF4kRo6Y88 |
2024.05.17 11:37 yayayayayayagirl What is parent coaching really
I have my final placement with children 0-5, mostly working in language. I keep getting feedback from my supervisor that I need to involve the parents more and give more homework and stuff. Parent coaching sounds great as a concept to me, but I never really understand what it would actually look like. Maybe it would have been nice to observe a session where an SLP provides it. My school had a pricey hanen workshop but I wish I would have done it!
Right now, I am just explaining the goals of activities and advising parents to do things like dialogoc book reading at home. I have been giving homework worksheets. Lots of goals include pronouns, plurals and expanding vocab. I feel kind of awakesrd with parents a lot of my kids have big behavior issues and it’s hard for me to run a session, manage the behaviors and get the parents involved
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Right now, I am just explaining the goals of activities and advising parents to do things like dialogoc book reading at home. I have been giving homework worksheets. Lots of goals include pronouns, plurals and expanding vocab. I feel kind of awakesrd with parents a lot of my kids have big behavior issues and it’s hard for me to run a session, manage the behaviors and get the parents involved
2024.05.17 00:59 kinetickix Nepenthe: A Modern D&D 5e ASYNC PBP
CLOSED
(Applications are now closed. Thank you so much to everyone. I will be going through all apps and decisions should be completed by Monday 5/20!)
Nepenthe, often dubbed "The Entertainment Capital of the World," is a vibrant oasis nestled at of the edge of desert. Its skyline is adorned with iconic landmarks like the towering Obelisk, the mesmerizing Moonstone , and the labyrinthine replica of the Palace of Mirrors.
Neon lights cascade down bustling streets, drawing crowds to the endless array of casinos, hotels, and entertainment venues that line the boulevard. The air is alive with the sounds of slot machines, the laughter of revelers, and the melodies of street performers.
But alas all that glitters is not gold.
In the shadows of the glitz and glamour, organized syndicates run the streets of Old Town, enigmatic corporations pull invisible strings from their lofty towers of influence in the Financial District, the “unregistered” dodge the vice like grip of the FBME at City Center, and something immemorial calls hauntingly from desolate canyons and caverns of the Eternal Desert.
Nepenthe is a city of dreams, where fortunes are won and lost in the blink of an eye, and where the line between fantasy and reality blurs beneath the relentless glow of the desert sun.
Nepenthe is a modern setting D&D 5e ASYNC PBP campaign played over Discord. This campaign will contain adult content and themes. +18 required.
DM is 30+; PT (UTC -7); Experienced but easy going.
If interested DM with completed application:
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(Applications are now closed. Thank you so much to everyone. I will be going through all apps and decisions should be completed by Monday 5/20!)
Nepenthe, often dubbed "The Entertainment Capital of the World," is a vibrant oasis nestled at of the edge of desert. Its skyline is adorned with iconic landmarks like the towering Obelisk, the mesmerizing Moonstone , and the labyrinthine replica of the Palace of Mirrors.
Neon lights cascade down bustling streets, drawing crowds to the endless array of casinos, hotels, and entertainment venues that line the boulevard. The air is alive with the sounds of slot machines, the laughter of revelers, and the melodies of street performers.
But alas all that glitters is not gold.
In the shadows of the glitz and glamour, organized syndicates run the streets of Old Town, enigmatic corporations pull invisible strings from their lofty towers of influence in the Financial District, the “unregistered” dodge the vice like grip of the FBME at City Center, and something immemorial calls hauntingly from desolate canyons and caverns of the Eternal Desert.
Nepenthe is a city of dreams, where fortunes are won and lost in the blink of an eye, and where the line between fantasy and reality blurs beneath the relentless glow of the desert sun.
Nepenthe is a modern setting D&D 5e ASYNC PBP campaign played over Discord. This campaign will contain adult content and themes. +18 required.
DM is 30+; PT (UTC -7); Experienced but easy going.
If interested DM with completed application:
- What would you like to be called?
- What is your discord handle?
- What are your chosen pronouns?
- How old are you?
- What is your time zone?
- What is your availability? Average posts per day in active campaign?
- Would you be open to a weekly set group session in addition to normal asynchronous daily play?
- Do you have experience with PBP and/or D&D? (No wrong answers all levels of ability are welcome)
- What sort of characters interest you?
- While Nepenthe is not an ERP, strong violence and gore may be present in story telling. Do you have any lines or veils? (A line would be something you prefer never to come up in game. A veil is while an event may happen within game, the action occurs “off screen” or “faded to black.”
- Please provide me with a writing sample. (Could be from previous campaign)
- Do you have questions for me? Anything about the campaign?