College teacher ki chudai
GT RANT !!!
2024.05.15 17:09 clumsyry GT RANT !!!
Honestly, fucking bad paper to be completed in one damn hour. Like what am I supposed to do in 60 minutes when half of that time is taken to sign the attendance sheet, analyse the paper, fill the omr and all other details, in hand you get 45 minutes but that is also ruined by how bad the management some of us got. You are in an exam, one of the most important for some of us, you are supposed to concentrate, make your mind work and NOT BE DISTRACTED LIKE AN ASS BY THE TEACHERS SCREAMING ON THE TOP OF THEIR VOICE TO DO THIS AND DO THAT. If you want to make a paper lengthy then do it, fuckers who is stopping you BUT GIVE US MORE THAN BARE MINIMUM YOU FOOLS.
And what was the need of analysing pyqs, solving the questions, preparing accordingly when everything happened upside down. I'll accept I started the prep only one and a half months before, gave various mocks, solved basics to moderate difficulty problems, oswaal, arihant etc etc even the mentors I was under like "nhi itna difficult question nhi aata CUET mein" ?????? 🤡🤡🤡☝🏽 oh yeah sure man. I am good at reasoning and static gk, so I scored there but static gk was also like 1-2 questions maximum and rest current affairs ???? Yeh in logo ko issi baar karna tha, pyqs mein toh 1-2 se zyada questions nhi dete the yeh log, toh humlog se kya problem hogayi?????
Normalisation bhi hogi, questions difficult bhi aayenge, sab isi baar kardo bhai jaan hi lelo. Cut off jayega neeche fine, par kitna hi jayega. It's not like college mil jayegi guarantee hai. I can't do this anymore honestly, I was pretty satisfied with my english exam but GT fucked my brain up.
Fuck you NTA, I hope your dicks fall off.
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And what was the need of analysing pyqs, solving the questions, preparing accordingly when everything happened upside down. I'll accept I started the prep only one and a half months before, gave various mocks, solved basics to moderate difficulty problems, oswaal, arihant etc etc even the mentors I was under like "nhi itna difficult question nhi aata CUET mein" ?????? 🤡🤡🤡☝🏽 oh yeah sure man. I am good at reasoning and static gk, so I scored there but static gk was also like 1-2 questions maximum and rest current affairs ???? Yeh in logo ko issi baar karna tha, pyqs mein toh 1-2 se zyada questions nhi dete the yeh log, toh humlog se kya problem hogayi?????
Normalisation bhi hogi, questions difficult bhi aayenge, sab isi baar kardo bhai jaan hi lelo. Cut off jayega neeche fine, par kitna hi jayega. It's not like college mil jayegi guarantee hai. I can't do this anymore honestly, I was pretty satisfied with my english exam but GT fucked my brain up.
Fuck you NTA, I hope your dicks fall off.
2024.05.15 17:02 kydabrat found out years later that I scored a 910
I am currently in my mid 20's and attend my top pick university.
I took the SAT and ACT my junior year of high school as many students do. Back then,I didn't really care for school and the school I attended really didn't teach us much, it was just about the image with that school -- come to school in full uniform and be on time, that's all that mattered.
We were SO behind academically... a huge learning gap between us an public schools. This didn't become evident until years later. A student who was the top of our graduating class did her field placement at my current place of employment and my colleagues tell me now that they kind of looked at the student teacher and wondered how they had mad it this far. like the learning gap was SOOOOO big!
Anyways, where I work now we talk to kids about SAT's and ACT's as well as college. I got curious and was like "I wonder what my SAT scores were 8-ish years ago". Called ColleBoard, found out how to get access to my scores, no problem. I scrolled down and saw that out of a possible 1600.... I scored a 910. OUT OF A POSSIBLE SIXTEEN HUNDRED.... I SCORED... A NINE HUNDRED AND TEN. Never looked at them after I took them and never retook them. When I applied to schools, I got the scores sent for free straight from CollegeBoard to the schools.
Full circle moment, though... I am currently at my top pick school (got accepted junior year of hs with my 910 score but we couldn't afford it at the time) with a 3.85 pga going into my senior year in a dual BSW/MSW program. Wow
https://preview.redd.it/nqgpyq8xul0d1.jpg?width=1402&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=bf3f3169f3c68979589937e34cde70be34bec252
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I took the SAT and ACT my junior year of high school as many students do. Back then,I didn't really care for school and the school I attended really didn't teach us much, it was just about the image with that school -- come to school in full uniform and be on time, that's all that mattered.
We were SO behind academically... a huge learning gap between us an public schools. This didn't become evident until years later. A student who was the top of our graduating class did her field placement at my current place of employment and my colleagues tell me now that they kind of looked at the student teacher and wondered how they had mad it this far. like the learning gap was SOOOOO big!
Anyways, where I work now we talk to kids about SAT's and ACT's as well as college. I got curious and was like "I wonder what my SAT scores were 8-ish years ago". Called ColleBoard, found out how to get access to my scores, no problem. I scrolled down and saw that out of a possible 1600.... I scored a 910. OUT OF A POSSIBLE SIXTEEN HUNDRED.... I SCORED... A NINE HUNDRED AND TEN. Never looked at them after I took them and never retook them. When I applied to schools, I got the scores sent for free straight from CollegeBoard to the schools.
Full circle moment, though... I am currently at my top pick school (got accepted junior year of hs with my 910 score but we couldn't afford it at the time) with a 3.85 pga going into my senior year in a dual BSW/MSW program. Wow
https://preview.redd.it/nqgpyq8xul0d1.jpg?width=1402&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=bf3f3169f3c68979589937e34cde70be34bec252
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2024.05.15 17:01 jfijoa38 Constituting America: We The Future Contest
Deadline: May 31st, 2024
Amount: $5,000
Description: The We The Future Contest is an amazing opportunity for anyone from elementary school students, to college students, to graduate students, teachers, and even senior citizens to earn money for their knowledge about the Constitution. The Contest offers scholarships of varying amounts to students of different levels (from elementary to college/university level/category, and even graduate and senior adult levels). Depending on their category, applicants will have the choice to submit an essay, short film, social media video, song, PSA, or even a STEM project about the Constitution. The core mission of Constituting America is to educate Americans about the Constitution and the rights and liberties it provides and protects for all of us. We accomplish that mission through several programs, including our keystone program — the national We The Future Contest for kids.
Eligibility Criteria
Must be a high school student or college undergrad
Must be aged 14 to 22
Open to U.S. citizens and legal residents
APPLY HERE!
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We believe in you!!
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Amount: $5,000
Description: The We The Future Contest is an amazing opportunity for anyone from elementary school students, to college students, to graduate students, teachers, and even senior citizens to earn money for their knowledge about the Constitution. The Contest offers scholarships of varying amounts to students of different levels (from elementary to college/university level/category, and even graduate and senior adult levels). Depending on their category, applicants will have the choice to submit an essay, short film, social media video, song, PSA, or even a STEM project about the Constitution. The core mission of Constituting America is to educate Americans about the Constitution and the rights and liberties it provides and protects for all of us. We accomplish that mission through several programs, including our keystone program — the national We The Future Contest for kids.
Eligibility Criteria
Must be a high school student or college undergrad
Must be aged 14 to 22
Open to U.S. citizens and legal residents
APPLY HERE!
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We believe in you!!
2024.05.15 16:50 bephinomenal Summer Classes Workload?
I'm currently a high school physics teacher and have a degree in Chemistry I've decided to do a career change recently and decided to take classes at a local community college this summer and transfer over to a nearby university to get a 2nd bachelor's degree in Engineering.
I haven't taken summer classes so I don't know the pacing of them and workload. All my summer courses are online fortunately and I was wondering if this would be considered overloading myself. Classes start 2 days after the Last day of school for us teachers so no work/school overlap.
Intro to Engineering 2 Hours - 6 weeks
Programming for Engineering 3 Hours - 6 Weeks
Differential Equations 3 Hours - 12 weeks
The 12 week course and the 2 6-weeks course does overlap
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I haven't taken summer classes so I don't know the pacing of them and workload. All my summer courses are online fortunately and I was wondering if this would be considered overloading myself. Classes start 2 days after the Last day of school for us teachers so no work/school overlap.
Intro to Engineering 2 Hours - 6 weeks
Programming for Engineering 3 Hours - 6 Weeks
Differential Equations 3 Hours - 12 weeks
The 12 week course and the 2 6-weeks course does overlap
2024.05.15 16:44 FockCucker Most accurate BITSAT 2024 Prediction + much more [OC]
![Most accurate BITSAT 2024 Prediction + much more [OC]](https://external-preview.redd.it/XyDmYQ_MrtsjCivOJoCQfYvy-VeI9dUEUDtJ28CUbQY.jpg?width=640&crop=smart&auto=webp&s=96f5efe6bb5f35e95cf288ea1b075d835e742494 "Most accurate BITSAT 2024 Prediction + much more [OC]") | pre-writing opinions: Reddit's markdown support sucks ass, no LaTeX and no mermaid support, fuck u/spez submitted by FockCucker to JEENEETards [link] [comments] Disclaimer:LONG READ. These are predicted and the opinions and results may vary for every individual, gaali mat bakna, mai thoda weak ho rakha hu abhi. Although I am pretty confident about what I found, but still, DO NOT BLINDLY BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU SEE , you are only allowed to take notes of what could happen.Table of Contents
5 Years' scores detailed reviewBITSAT has always seen large number of candidates giving their exams. I used 3 different regression methods for finding the projected number of candidates scoring 88% and above in BITSAT.Here's the catch, BITSAT was of 450 marks before 2021, but I noticed a linear relation whatsoever for which some blogs claim was due to the ease of solving paper which was higher as of then.[1] Projected number of candidates scoring >= 316 marks Don't worry about how I plotted the graph, for the ease of viewing I used a calculative exaggeration method, while all the calculations being done on the raw data only. Here, all the regressions have too much difference between them which throws off the ease of just averaging the three. Instead I used what is called the R-squared value to find an accurate follow-up projection for the number of candidates. The R-squared value for the three are as follows: R-squared values: Linear Regression: 0.8401621913740709 Polynomial Regression: 0.9161966003792115 Exponential Regression: 0.922505755755209 Projected next outcome using damped Exponential Regression: 15916.26589649187 Cutoff PredictionNow, the best part, cutoff prediction. Here, you need to know one more thing that all the campuses have a record of increasing the number of seats for their programs every year which has somehow worked a little to adjust to the 'population inflation' and has kept the numbers steady.AAAAAANNNND, here comes the issue, while looking at the seat matrices for BITS, the seats in all branches has remained the same since 2017 (increase in seats for CSE). (2018 for Goa campus). ALTHOUGH, due to the addition of the new Mathematics and Computing course, it can have significant impact on the No. of seats v/s Cutoff debate Seeing with the lowest marks required for joining B.Pharm at three campuses of BITS: Cutoff v/s Candidates remained consistent till 2020 [2][3][4][5] NOTE: some of you jhaatus will be paranoid about how the cutoff decreased with much higher candidates. It's due to increase in the number of seats due to the new MnC branch NOTE 2: I am speculating about the predicted number of candidates, since, the popularity has seemingly exponentially increased due to youtuber bhaiyya didis. Notice that I used a simple polynomial regression here due to having much simpler values for predicting the consecutive iterations. Why I couldn't correctly predict for CSESee, the choices of students during counselling is really complicated and after reviewing some previous year details and cutoff scores, I couldn't have a perfect idea about how the relationship is maintained. That's why I will need someone else with more free time to help me polish my code for predictions.Anyways, here's the predicted cutoff for some branches using exponential regression:
Broken Down Fee details and Costs of LivingWith inflation and the enduring lust for money, the hostel charges are continuously being increased since a few years, here's the detailed breakdown for what I have observed.
The projected 4 year B.E. course price you have to pay would not exceed ~INR 27,55,000 /- I am too lazy for finding projected for other courses. Should you join it?as a disclaimer, I am in no position to judge as I have lost hopes getting into BITS this year, since I have wasted a lot of money and seeing our house put of collateral for securing my admission into VIT I am in no way entitled to ask more money for second attempt from parents, but I can give you suggestions from what I've researched when I used to daydream about getting into BITS.Overall Culture: when it comes to projects and teams, the students get highly competent, and after finding a good partner, you could go for numerous competitions like the Mars Rover Challenge (personal favourite), which needs skills from almost all branches inclusive of chemical and materials department. Which in turn also leads to better communicative skills and a top tier social life. Imagine your parents get to see you with bunch of smart ass people just discussing about different stuff ranging from algorithms to spatial modelling of biological molecules, they will feel on top of the world. Student life: I will not talk about the zero attendance policy nor about the strictness inside campus. Here, you NEED to have a control over yourself, drug peddling is quite common although no one talks about it, even at VIT Vellore, kids find a way to get that mind numbing puff. You will have an urge to just try it for once to find what is it for real, but DON'T. I guess I don't need to elaborate more. Second, remember: Darshane Punyam, Sparshane PaapamLook at all the chics, maybe even flirt with them under limits, but don't indulge in bad stuff since you already know how horny you really are. Now, for a better part BITS hosts numerous fests varying from cultural to tech clubs, some of the highlighted as follows:
Toughness @ BITSdoesn't need much of a warning, it's tough. Although, the first year will go on a cakewalk, same stuff for everyone to learn, you might have problems with the engineering physics and drawing classes** so be prepared. Maintaining 9+ GPA is really hard, you have work your arse off more than what you are doing right now.Getting scholarships is on the tougher side too, you can manage to get 10% off by little work, but getting those sweet 80% waivers can be tough, you have to ace your quizzes and assignments. By the 3rd year, you will start getting tensed about internships, their interviews, your GPA and finally your courses. You have to be ready and try to complete all the side courses (if any) by the end of the third year so you can focus more on placements the next year (only for low pointers). That's all of what I've learnt and understood from the students, there are easier aspects too but only if you are actually smart and can do more work in much less of a timeframe. What course should I take?You need to introspect yourself before asking this question, many people say to follow your interest but it's not always practical.You see, I have a friend who wants to become a physicist, and yet he isn't able to solve measly problems in physics which might need more brainpower, and even shitting himself on questions of nuclear physics when he wants to do research in that specific field. Not only about questions, he doesn't even properly know about how the Hadron Collider works, just spurts out some random Fission and Fusion chickenshit when asked about. OK, you should totally give your interests a higher ground during the counselling but ask yourself if you are actually ready for what you have to learn for the next four years, probably even your whole life. Since, it's BITS you'll be able to adapt yourself, but always take caution before every choice you're going to fill in during choice filling. Don't embarrass yourself afterwards. Here are few courses your might be interested in anyways:
My rants, remarks and opinionsHonestly, this was a ride and an escape for me to relieve a little bit of stress about how I was fcked this year. Denied EWS certificate, filed for an appeal, and no progress. Gave JEE as an OPEN candidate. Somehow got 10k rank in VITEEE, got cat 3 CSE, dad told me to leave no opportunities, now have to pay 4 lakhs tuition fee per annum, dad's income is 4 lakhs per annum. Took an educational loan from Indian Bank (13% interest + our house on collateral).Called VIT, told me they will give a full refund if withdrawn before 11th September, but have to pay a cut of interest for the loan taken (did not specify how much). I am pretty sure they will be asking easily at 2-3 lakhs, unprepared for BITS after Nanu's death on 22nd April, (my VITEEE was on 24th), went with my mom to Kerala and back the next day and then again back to Kerala with dad and my 24 year old brother who has cerebral palsy. spent about 50k on the flight tickets alone. Wouldn't get BITS in the first attempt, afraid to register for 2nd. Can't even commit suicide thinking about my brother, entitled school topper yesterday after results, teachers saying that I am not getting of what I am capable upto, really disappointed about me joining VIT instead of IITs (for god's sake). Cousin sister told me to join her in Germany, (I've learnt german from her) but the living costs so high and the amount of stress my parents would have to take for this year has concerned me enough already. No one asks for this but please dm me, tell me your stories, it's nice to have someone around to talk shit. Enough of rants, best of lucks to everyone FOR AMATEUR DEVELOPERS OR INTERESTED IN DEVELOPING/RESEARCH Since, this June and July are going to be an empty and un-exciting month for most of you, I need some amateur developers who can help me in building a college recommendation portal, which will help ease out the stresses students have to take while counselling and choice filling, I mean if not interested in joining some random dude and working your arse off, just take it as a recommendation for your next project :) [1] Find the blog here for detailed scores from 2012 [2] BITSAT 2020 Cutoff scores [3] BITSAT 2021 Cutoff Scores [4] BITSAT 2022 Cutoff scores [5] BITSAT 2023 Cutoff scores This was a high effort post btw :) Thank you to the readers who read the whole thing |
2024.05.15 16:42 Tibbiltore WIBTA if I quit before I start this job over a falsely advertised work schedule?
WIBTA? I’m a college student who just finished up his sophomore year at university studying Theatre education. I spend most of the past school year looking for summer job opportunities and after a LONG time I finally found a job working as a summer camp teacher for my old church. This is not where I wanted to be work in the slightest, but it was an offer I couldn’t refuse because it was offering the most pay wise (anywhere from $15-$18/hr) and would look good on my teaching resume.
To start, I should really give some context. My main goal for this summer is to save up money in order to cover my rent for my off campus apartment NEXT summer. My thought process in taking this job was that it would be the perfect opportunity to save money since I’d be staying at home, and my only real expense would be gas to and from work, as well as going to visit my partner every weekend, which is a priority for me. This job kinda fell into my hands as a miracle, and at the time of applying was my only feasible option. When I inquired about the job I was specifically told it would be a full time position and that I’d be working 40 hours a week.
Last night I received my schedule for the summer to find out that I’m only working 20 hours a week. I emailed the person in charge of scheduling and she essentially said that this is the best she could do, but maybe I can pick up other people’s shifts in the month of July when they go on vacation to make up some hours. To say that I am upset by this is a massive understatement. Since being offered this job, I have turned down several interviews for other places offering full time positions.
I am at the point where if I am not going to be offered full time hours, then I will have to quit this job before I even start. The church I am doing this summer camp at was VERY excited to have me and basically offered me the job before I even officially applied. In fact, as of writing this, I still have not officially finished all of the onboarding paperwork.
My question here is, am I the asshole if I quit this job in a church community that is VERY excited to have me there over this issue? I find it incredibly disrespectful that I was lied to about the hours I’d be working, and in order to meet my goals I NEED to be working a full time schedule. And before you ask, I am currently looking at options for a second job to make this goal possible, or even just another full time position in general. But my main issue here is that I was lied to, seemingly just to get me to apply for this position. It’s even gotten to the point where I’m SO worked up over this issue and have emailed back and forth with this person so much to where I feel we’re already off on the wrong foot and am not positive that it would be a good work environment even if I’m offered full time now. What are your thoughts?
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To start, I should really give some context. My main goal for this summer is to save up money in order to cover my rent for my off campus apartment NEXT summer. My thought process in taking this job was that it would be the perfect opportunity to save money since I’d be staying at home, and my only real expense would be gas to and from work, as well as going to visit my partner every weekend, which is a priority for me. This job kinda fell into my hands as a miracle, and at the time of applying was my only feasible option. When I inquired about the job I was specifically told it would be a full time position and that I’d be working 40 hours a week.
Last night I received my schedule for the summer to find out that I’m only working 20 hours a week. I emailed the person in charge of scheduling and she essentially said that this is the best she could do, but maybe I can pick up other people’s shifts in the month of July when they go on vacation to make up some hours. To say that I am upset by this is a massive understatement. Since being offered this job, I have turned down several interviews for other places offering full time positions.
I am at the point where if I am not going to be offered full time hours, then I will have to quit this job before I even start. The church I am doing this summer camp at was VERY excited to have me and basically offered me the job before I even officially applied. In fact, as of writing this, I still have not officially finished all of the onboarding paperwork.
My question here is, am I the asshole if I quit this job in a church community that is VERY excited to have me there over this issue? I find it incredibly disrespectful that I was lied to about the hours I’d be working, and in order to meet my goals I NEED to be working a full time schedule. And before you ask, I am currently looking at options for a second job to make this goal possible, or even just another full time position in general. But my main issue here is that I was lied to, seemingly just to get me to apply for this position. It’s even gotten to the point where I’m SO worked up over this issue and have emailed back and forth with this person so much to where I feel we’re already off on the wrong foot and am not positive that it would be a good work environment even if I’m offered full time now. What are your thoughts?
2024.05.15 16:27 dangerous_azy 11 years Journey of Unrequited Love
Good evening, I'm new here in Reddit and I discovered this app on tiktok so allow me to release my frustrations and pains here.
I'm 22 yrs old (F) and I'm currently working na. I decided to share my story here because no one really knows what I feel since then.. esp i don't have my own circle of friends.
First year HS when I met J and we're not on the same section, I saw him everyday because some of my classmates were his friends, I don't like him at first.. kasi medyo maingay sila na mag babarkada and hate ko talaga ang maingat esp na natutulog talaga ako during vacant namin. I didn't mind them and months had passed at intramurals na namin.
J joined the basketball team at ako? Wala, I'm not sporty kaya taga nood lang ako at sumasali lang sa class dance presentation. I'm fan of basketball that's why I chose to watch it and cheer to our year level. He's good in basketball.. can't deny that. I cheered him in silence since we're on the same year level naman. I was really amazed of how he play...
Months had passed again and i guess my classmates noticed me looking at him and they started to teased me towards him, Syempre indenial tayo. Lol.
I thought everything will just be normal after but when i opened my facebook i found out that he added me on facebook and so I accepted him and he sent a lot of like sticker and btw it happened last 2013. So i got upset and chatted him what was that for and he said "Na pindot ko lang" so i didn't mind him then nag m-manual type ata sya ng emoji kasi nag send sya ng [[Midfing] at basta nag away kami don and i told him na "Bakit nag add kapa at mag sisinuplado ka?" And he answered me "Kung pwede lang sana ma undo (Unfriend)" Sabi ko pwede naman ah at pwede mo rin ako ma block and since HS pa ako at eme-eme pa so ako nag block sa kanya.
FF. 2nd year HS were just normal, we don't talk it's like we're totally strangers.. idk if he knows me kasi sabi niya napindot niya lang naman ang add sa Facebook. Despite what happened to us (Sa chat) i was still cheering him every intrams namin. Minsan nagkaka eye contact kami pero hindi ako nag aassume, but yes i know na crush ko na sya.
All of our teachers knew that i was into him that's why every time na dadaan sya samin pinapapasok sya sa room and they will tease us. Sa room din sya namin nag tatambay every vacant since friends nya classmates ko.
3rd year HS at hindi ko na ma isa isa memories namin basi for me happy ako na kahit minuto lang yon ay napasaya niya puso ko at don na ako nababahala kasi parang hindi na normal, Nag seselos na ako, na iinis na ako at nalulungkot ako pag wala sya. I tried to divert my feelings to someone kay CJ 4th year HS sya and he was a nice guy and very gentlemen. Sa months na pag uusap namin i can say that we're in good terms but i know to my self na si J parin gusto ko.
Alam ko na mali na parang pinapaasa ko si CJ but i told him everything naman at inaccept niya din reason ko kasi nararamdaman din naman daw niya. I lost contact with CJ and tried to stop my feelings for J pero it's not easy.
FF.
4th year HS and it will be the last year na makita ko sya because we will be studying in different university na sa college. As what i said i really tried to forget him but it's really not easy.. so go with the flow nalang ako. Hindi ako na iimik everytime na tinutukso kami. One time naka charge phone ko and my classmate which is his friend took my phone and tried to unlock my phone but they couldn't guess the pattern so my classmate ask him "J_______ ano ang pattern?" I just watched them and he grabbed my phone from my classmate and tried to connect the dots and formed letter J .. like wth? but that wasn't the pattern of my phone.
2 months before our graduation was our town fiesta and we're all busy practicing our dance presentation again and as usual samin sya naka tambay. Hapon noon ng pumasok sya na lasing nahh.. tipsy nalang at dumeretso sila sa classroom namin. Sa tabi ko sya pinaupo ng classmate ko at vinideohan kami nila. Some of his classmates were also there and teased us.
Ayon nalang year after nalaman ko na may girlfriend na sya at ang girlfriend nya ay isa rin sa tumutukso samin.
I thought infatuated lang ako, I thought crush ko lang talaga sya. Pero 11 yrs na at ang hirap niyang kalimutan. Gusto ko din naman maging masaya kahit hindi na sana SYA, Okay lang. He's happy now and i think deserve ko din naman maging masaya. I really tried to forget him, I really tried to move on kahit walang kami pero kung saan na medyo hindi ko na sya na iisip diyan naman sya nag papakita sa panaginip ko. TANGINA ANG HIRAP. PARANG BINABANGUNGOT AKO. GUSTO KO LANG NAMAN MAGING MASAYA.
ANONG GAGAWIN KO.
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I'm 22 yrs old (F) and I'm currently working na. I decided to share my story here because no one really knows what I feel since then.. esp i don't have my own circle of friends.
First year HS when I met J and we're not on the same section, I saw him everyday because some of my classmates were his friends, I don't like him at first.. kasi medyo maingay sila na mag babarkada and hate ko talaga ang maingat esp na natutulog talaga ako during vacant namin. I didn't mind them and months had passed at intramurals na namin.
J joined the basketball team at ako? Wala, I'm not sporty kaya taga nood lang ako at sumasali lang sa class dance presentation. I'm fan of basketball that's why I chose to watch it and cheer to our year level. He's good in basketball.. can't deny that. I cheered him in silence since we're on the same year level naman. I was really amazed of how he play...
Months had passed again and i guess my classmates noticed me looking at him and they started to teased me towards him, Syempre indenial tayo. Lol.
I thought everything will just be normal after but when i opened my facebook i found out that he added me on facebook and so I accepted him and he sent a lot of like sticker and btw it happened last 2013. So i got upset and chatted him what was that for and he said "Na pindot ko lang" so i didn't mind him then nag m-manual type ata sya ng emoji kasi nag send sya ng [[Midfing] at basta nag away kami don and i told him na "Bakit nag add kapa at mag sisinuplado ka?" And he answered me "Kung pwede lang sana ma undo (Unfriend)" Sabi ko pwede naman ah at pwede mo rin ako ma block and since HS pa ako at eme-eme pa so ako nag block sa kanya.
FF. 2nd year HS were just normal, we don't talk it's like we're totally strangers.. idk if he knows me kasi sabi niya napindot niya lang naman ang add sa Facebook. Despite what happened to us (Sa chat) i was still cheering him every intrams namin. Minsan nagkaka eye contact kami pero hindi ako nag aassume, but yes i know na crush ko na sya.
All of our teachers knew that i was into him that's why every time na dadaan sya samin pinapapasok sya sa room and they will tease us. Sa room din sya namin nag tatambay every vacant since friends nya classmates ko.
3rd year HS at hindi ko na ma isa isa memories namin basi for me happy ako na kahit minuto lang yon ay napasaya niya puso ko at don na ako nababahala kasi parang hindi na normal, Nag seselos na ako, na iinis na ako at nalulungkot ako pag wala sya. I tried to divert my feelings to someone kay CJ 4th year HS sya and he was a nice guy and very gentlemen. Sa months na pag uusap namin i can say that we're in good terms but i know to my self na si J parin gusto ko.
Alam ko na mali na parang pinapaasa ko si CJ but i told him everything naman at inaccept niya din reason ko kasi nararamdaman din naman daw niya. I lost contact with CJ and tried to stop my feelings for J pero it's not easy.
FF.
4th year HS and it will be the last year na makita ko sya because we will be studying in different university na sa college. As what i said i really tried to forget him but it's really not easy.. so go with the flow nalang ako. Hindi ako na iimik everytime na tinutukso kami. One time naka charge phone ko and my classmate which is his friend took my phone and tried to unlock my phone but they couldn't guess the pattern so my classmate ask him "J_______ ano ang pattern?" I just watched them and he grabbed my phone from my classmate and tried to connect the dots and formed letter J .. like wth? but that wasn't the pattern of my phone.
2 months before our graduation was our town fiesta and we're all busy practicing our dance presentation again and as usual samin sya naka tambay. Hapon noon ng pumasok sya na lasing nahh.. tipsy nalang at dumeretso sila sa classroom namin. Sa tabi ko sya pinaupo ng classmate ko at vinideohan kami nila. Some of his classmates were also there and teased us.
Ayon nalang year after nalaman ko na may girlfriend na sya at ang girlfriend nya ay isa rin sa tumutukso samin.
I thought infatuated lang ako, I thought crush ko lang talaga sya. Pero 11 yrs na at ang hirap niyang kalimutan. Gusto ko din naman maging masaya kahit hindi na sana SYA, Okay lang. He's happy now and i think deserve ko din naman maging masaya. I really tried to forget him, I really tried to move on kahit walang kami pero kung saan na medyo hindi ko na sya na iisip diyan naman sya nag papakita sa panaginip ko. TANGINA ANG HIRAP. PARANG BINABANGUNGOT AKO. GUSTO KO LANG NAMAN MAGING MASAYA.
ANONG GAGAWIN KO.
2024.05.15 16:24 idk-lei Failing school on purpose
Hi! I'm an architecture student, and before anyone says anything, I dreamt about this course since elementary pa. I also liked other things, but I knew architecture was the one for me.
Now, to start, everyone knows me as academically gifted and very active when it comes to school. Every event that I could join in, I do. I also join competitions din, and I attend seminars and workshops kahit hindi naman siya necessary. I am also a Class President, and leader... or was. Nung SHS, I was one of the top students of the class and the teachers liked me a lot, 3 din yung extra co-curriculars ko, and I also volunteer when I can sa school. I was never late to submitting projects, unless group activities, but I made sure to talk to my teachers regarding the issues. Even in emergencies, I always find time to do my tasks. I was the one to do anything and everything to make it on time.
Unfortunately, that drive didn't make it through college. Sobrang burnt-out ko, to the point that I always make excuses para hindi umattend ng class. I failed my subjects. Unintentionally, at first, but I couldn't find the passion I had before, and in the end, it felt like nothing was worth to pass. Nalulungkot ako that I wasted my parents' and siblings' money, but at the same time, I pity myself. Sobrang gusto kong i-pursue ang Archi, pero nawawalan ako ng gana sa school ko. It's hard to talk about it kasi hindi ko rin alam what's happening to me. I always knew what I was and what I wanted, pero right now, it feels like I'm giving myself false hope. I'm going to shift and transfer, but I don't know how to tell the people who supports my school. I can't even cry about it.
I hate myself kasi alam kong kasalanan ko naman. 1 year of school and almost 100k worth of money, wasted kasi hindi ko mahanap yung joy that I had when I started with this program. I wish I was strong enough to endure the things that happened to me this year.
It's so hard to think about letting Architecture go :((
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Now, to start, everyone knows me as academically gifted and very active when it comes to school. Every event that I could join in, I do. I also join competitions din, and I attend seminars and workshops kahit hindi naman siya necessary. I am also a Class President, and leader... or was. Nung SHS, I was one of the top students of the class and the teachers liked me a lot, 3 din yung extra co-curriculars ko, and I also volunteer when I can sa school. I was never late to submitting projects, unless group activities, but I made sure to talk to my teachers regarding the issues. Even in emergencies, I always find time to do my tasks. I was the one to do anything and everything to make it on time.
Unfortunately, that drive didn't make it through college. Sobrang burnt-out ko, to the point that I always make excuses para hindi umattend ng class. I failed my subjects. Unintentionally, at first, but I couldn't find the passion I had before, and in the end, it felt like nothing was worth to pass. Nalulungkot ako that I wasted my parents' and siblings' money, but at the same time, I pity myself. Sobrang gusto kong i-pursue ang Archi, pero nawawalan ako ng gana sa school ko. It's hard to talk about it kasi hindi ko rin alam what's happening to me. I always knew what I was and what I wanted, pero right now, it feels like I'm giving myself false hope. I'm going to shift and transfer, but I don't know how to tell the people who supports my school. I can't even cry about it.
I hate myself kasi alam kong kasalanan ko naman. 1 year of school and almost 100k worth of money, wasted kasi hindi ko mahanap yung joy that I had when I started with this program. I wish I was strong enough to endure the things that happened to me this year.
It's so hard to think about letting Architecture go :((
2024.05.15 16:18 Hork_Maniac Are students really diverging that much?
I'm a relatively recent college student (just finished my first year) and I've noticed a lot of people in my classes seemingly do as little as possible and often don't care about the class or teacher. I was lucky to have a good school system throughout my life and good teachers, and never really noticed that much difference in student ability or participation because I was in all honors classes. Even the people that weren't as engaged still did all of the work and respected the teachers. However I had a friend during my senior year in highschool tell me that he was pretty much the only person who did anything in his open classes. I've also seen a lot of posts here that students just aren't doing anything and started noticing this in college with larger classes. So is there that large of a difference between the high achievers and the low achievers (or everyone else)?
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2024.05.15 16:17 Choice_Kale_4202 Zaruri sawal related to class10th board ka result
So in class 10th result jese ki sab ko pata hi he top5 subject rule he So i had English: 97 Science: 78 Math : 72 Sst : 89 Sanskrit: 80 Additional subject- informational technology: 90
So meri percentage jo banni chahiye 97+78+89+80+90= 434/500 Matlab 86.8% Am i calculating it right??? Aur topper ke 94% he But school walon ne 85% wale ko second position dedi idk wtf is their calculation But abhi tak marksheet nahi mili he but teachers ne yahi bataya he ke rank holders jo he unme mera nam nahi he balki mere 2nd rank aur 3rd rank students se zyada marks hain And i want to know ke percentage jo hogi result sheet me wo top5 subject ki hogi and uske hisab se rank hoti he school me ya nahi???
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So meri percentage jo banni chahiye 97+78+89+80+90= 434/500 Matlab 86.8% Am i calculating it right??? Aur topper ke 94% he But school walon ne 85% wale ko second position dedi idk wtf is their calculation But abhi tak marksheet nahi mili he but teachers ne yahi bataya he ke rank holders jo he unme mera nam nahi he balki mere 2nd rank aur 3rd rank students se zyada marks hain And i want to know ke percentage jo hogi result sheet me wo top5 subject ki hogi and uske hisab se rank hoti he school me ya nahi???
2024.05.15 16:11 WeatherImpressive808 Pleased bhaiyon mujhe koi college bata do plss, reposted
 | Mere papa se aaj main baat kari ki mujhse aur padhai nahi ho paa rahi hai, (I am a dropper) aur yeh bhi ki main practically bitsat mein cs nahi le sakta, am getting 120ish only in mocks (adv qualify nahi kar paya), aur mujhe abb koi aur exam bhi nahi dena hai (comedk bhi diya tha par usmein koi umeed nahi hai) aur main bohut burnout bhi ho gaya hun padh padh kar aur koi results bhi nahi aa rahe, I got to know jee is not my cup of tea, and finally yeh decide kiya hai mummy papa ne ki main koi college dekh lun aur ab college mein jaake mehnat karun, submitted by WeatherImpressive808 to JEENEETards [link] [comments] Toh reddit ki janta kripaya karke ek college bata do with my details below: 1.75 lakh rank, 88.3%ile hai, 12th -80% (if that helps) Gen male, home state - Rajasthan Want only CS/IT as I have genuine interest in it Aur Rajasthan mein hii lena hai Reposted cuz gae mods ne approve hi nahi kiya |
2024.05.15 16:11 fallenbanshee WIBTA if I didn't pay for my nibling's university?
I know the title makes me sound awful but I feel I have good reason for this question.
My nibling, "Billie," is due to graduate in two years and has been looking up different schools. Now, in the past two years, Billie has barely scraped by on grades. I don't mean Cs, I mean "Incompletes" because there's not even enough turned in to grade. I've gotten tutoring for Billie but then Billie stops attending because their mom says Billie doesn't have to go because I'm not their mom. Not biologically but I did raise Billie for most of their life with "weekend Mommy" showing up when it was convenient. Unfortunately, four years ago, Billie went to live FT with their mom. I told Billie before they went to live with their bio mom that I would happily pay for college.
And I've reiterated it twice since they left my home. But, my nibling has been nothing but drama since then (theft, B&E, vandalism, sexually inappropriate). To make this clear, my nibling has had problems since they were a toddler due to their parents and the environment they exposed them to. The difference is in my household WE TALK ABOUT IT when my nibling does the wrong thing. My sister takes the position "once it's done, it's over" and never discusses their actions.
I'll be honest I can barely stand Billie anymore. Used to be coming home to them was the best part of my day. Now, Billie is a clone of their narc mom. Lazy and hateful (cyberbullied some classmates). And every time in the last two years, Billie has done something wrong whether it's to me or their psychiatrist, the answer is always the same - "I was bored."
Billie originally wanted to attend a large university with a large tuition bill but has since finally accepted that's not realistic. So, Billie has been looking at state universities but the thing is I'm not willing to pay and possibly take out loans for someone who won't do their school work. It's not a matter of understanding or a learning disability (bc they have accommodations). Billie outright refuses, disrespects their teachers, and would rather flirt with their classmates.
Now there's a local college (community college prices) both my sisters and I attended that allows students to get their first two years there and transfer to an affiliate university (9 diff schools) to complete their Bachelor's. It's what I and my other sister did for our education.
So, WIBTA to tell Billie I won't pay for university but would pay for them to attend our local college and the transfer to the university?
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My nibling, "Billie," is due to graduate in two years and has been looking up different schools. Now, in the past two years, Billie has barely scraped by on grades. I don't mean Cs, I mean "Incompletes" because there's not even enough turned in to grade. I've gotten tutoring for Billie but then Billie stops attending because their mom says Billie doesn't have to go because I'm not their mom. Not biologically but I did raise Billie for most of their life with "weekend Mommy" showing up when it was convenient. Unfortunately, four years ago, Billie went to live FT with their mom. I told Billie before they went to live with their bio mom that I would happily pay for college.
And I've reiterated it twice since they left my home. But, my nibling has been nothing but drama since then (theft, B&E, vandalism, sexually inappropriate). To make this clear, my nibling has had problems since they were a toddler due to their parents and the environment they exposed them to. The difference is in my household WE TALK ABOUT IT when my nibling does the wrong thing. My sister takes the position "once it's done, it's over" and never discusses their actions.
I'll be honest I can barely stand Billie anymore. Used to be coming home to them was the best part of my day. Now, Billie is a clone of their narc mom. Lazy and hateful (cyberbullied some classmates). And every time in the last two years, Billie has done something wrong whether it's to me or their psychiatrist, the answer is always the same - "I was bored."
Billie originally wanted to attend a large university with a large tuition bill but has since finally accepted that's not realistic. So, Billie has been looking at state universities but the thing is I'm not willing to pay and possibly take out loans for someone who won't do their school work. It's not a matter of understanding or a learning disability (bc they have accommodations). Billie outright refuses, disrespects their teachers, and would rather flirt with their classmates.
Now there's a local college (community college prices) both my sisters and I attended that allows students to get their first two years there and transfer to an affiliate university (9 diff schools) to complete their Bachelor's. It's what I and my other sister did for our education.
So, WIBTA to tell Billie I won't pay for university but would pay for them to attend our local college and the transfer to the university?
2024.05.15 16:11 Future-Spot-7882 Called a Sensitive boi Chamar 💀💀
So, I have a freind who is SC/ST and in PCM so we tease him a lot about somthing you guys know already (if you don't then let me tell you that in JEE there are seats reserved for SC/STs). So like this boi comes to our class and I am a class clown, so I thought "aaja isse bakchodi karte hai" then I went to him and said "Aur bhai chamar saale tera toh IIT pakka phir?" (No offense to anyone, ladko ki bakchodi thi yaar, par last mei bhari pad gayi). Toh then he says "Bhai mera haat uth jaayega toh bahut pitega" so like I thought agar ye bol raha hai toh matlab isne as a joke hi liya hoga and HOLY SHIT voh banda PE Teacher ko complain karke aagaya 💀💀.
Now that sir called me and confronted me about this whole situation and I apologised to him. Ab bhai us bande (PE) ke liye Verbal Appology sahi nahi thi usne (PE teacher ne) bola Written mei de. To mei phir class mei vaapas gaya phir meine bola choda BC itni choti baat par kaun likhega phir meine apne bagal mei baithe dost ko bataya ki kya hua and then he said "Bhai, 5 saal ki Jail ho jaati hai" 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 Meri tatti nikal gayi ye sunke aur upar us bande ka baap bhi Sarkari naukari karta hai. Phir meine apne dost se likhwaya "appology letter". I took that letter to the PE and now he tells me that I should go and convince the guy to tell the PE that he shouldn't go to the principle office.
AB bhai usko, uski bhari class mei se maine bahar bulaya. Bhai ko sorry vorry bola phir jaakar usne PE ko bola chor do bechare ko. Aur bande ka male ego itna OP banda complain karne ke baad bolta "bhai mujhe toh fark bhi nahi pada meine toh bas sir dikhe to bata diya" and did I mentioned that he was crying when I was called the first time? BC ijjat nahi jaani chahiye 💀💀💀💀
Ab bhai ye toh tha kand ab mujhe dar is baat ka hai ki agar isne apne maa baap ko bata di toh phir bhai mei toh gaya 💀💀💀💀💀
Gand hi phut gayi BC never realised ki ladke bhi sensitive ho sakte hai 💀💀💀💀💀💀
real experience mil gaya bhai aaj toh
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Now that sir called me and confronted me about this whole situation and I apologised to him. Ab bhai us bande (PE) ke liye Verbal Appology sahi nahi thi usne (PE teacher ne) bola Written mei de. To mei phir class mei vaapas gaya phir meine bola choda BC itni choti baat par kaun likhega phir meine apne bagal mei baithe dost ko bataya ki kya hua and then he said "Bhai, 5 saal ki Jail ho jaati hai" 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 Meri tatti nikal gayi ye sunke aur upar us bande ka baap bhi Sarkari naukari karta hai. Phir meine apne dost se likhwaya "appology letter". I took that letter to the PE and now he tells me that I should go and convince the guy to tell the PE that he shouldn't go to the principle office.
AB bhai usko, uski bhari class mei se maine bahar bulaya. Bhai ko sorry vorry bola phir jaakar usne PE ko bola chor do bechare ko. Aur bande ka male ego itna OP banda complain karne ke baad bolta "bhai mujhe toh fark bhi nahi pada meine toh bas sir dikhe to bata diya" and did I mentioned that he was crying when I was called the first time? BC ijjat nahi jaani chahiye 💀💀💀💀
Ab bhai ye toh tha kand ab mujhe dar is baat ka hai ki agar isne apne maa baap ko bata di toh phir bhai mei toh gaya 💀💀💀💀💀
Gand hi phut gayi BC never realised ki ladke bhi sensitive ho sakte hai 💀💀💀💀💀💀
real experience mil gaya bhai aaj toh
2024.05.15 16:09 Acrobatic-Rise-766 My life.
Hello, my name is Daunte 17 M nice to meet whoever is reading this. I am warning you if you take time out of your day to actually read what I am saying it will likely be sloppy and not easy to truly understand, but it’s very hard to grasp a whole life of experiences through writing.
My mother abused me my whole childhood, she’d let other men (her boyfriends) mentally fuck with me, because I was feminine. I’m not going into full details, but it was both physical and mental. My father was aware of the abuse, but ignored it and glamorized himself to be a bare minimum father, because he bought me things I wanted, but when I started emotionally acting out he verbally and physically disciplined me instead of getting me help. My mom would look past my abuse, but I remember her talking about my mental and emotional issues to her friends rather than getting me help. I feel like I was failed by everyone, because everyone could notice it even my teacher. I’d always show up to school late with bruises and I was in the 4th grade, I even tried to tell one of my teachers about it but he looked past it weirdly. Everybody in my fucking life recognized I had issues but never did anything. I am turning 18 this year, and my family fight to have this good relationship with me now for some reason, but this grudge feels eternal. When I was 12 I went to a counselor to tell him I wanted to die, instead of sending me to a psych ward or anything like that he sent me home with my mother and took her side as I was to scared to admit about my past nor did I have any visible self harm scars so I just said I was stressed with life. My mother made more of a joke about me, telling me I was faking it. I then vented to one of my friends on my phone and saw and kicked me out. When i told my father I wanted to die he did nothing, fuck I had to schedule my own therapy appointment at 12 that I only went to once, because nobody cared to schedule another visit for me. Everybody knew about my abuse, they knew I wanted to die, and did nothing. My whole family, my grandma, auntie, uncle, took my mother’s side and said I was just looking for attention. I was only 12. My sister has been sent by my mother to psych wards multiple times, and used that as her excuse to not sending me to one. I really don’t know why they cared about my sister more than me, yes she had her own fair share of issues but she got help with them. I never received any psychological help, which caused me to start using drugs to escape my issues. When I turned 14 I would often skip school to use, and my mother instead of helping me just told me I was amounting to nothing. I gave up on school very quick, even though I use to be a straight A student, apart of student council, extemporaneous speaker, and did track, until my issues started to catch up to me. The abuse was still ongoing when I was 14 and I told one of my REACH teachers about it, but we didn’t have enough evidence for him to contact CPS. This large neglect for my health really took a toll on me. My only escape for awhile was my friends, but funny thing is they just made jokes out of me as well, I was small and skinny so I was usually the bud of the joke or the one they slapped around. I never understood why I was treated the way I was until I stopped pitying myself. My last time going to therapy I told her I heard voices that weren’t there and she gave me a book to cope. That was the last straw. I realized how truly sick everyone in my life was and let my anger get the best of me, I cut off my friends, verbally abused my parents till the little relationship we had was diminished and completely socially isolated myself and figured out my issues by myself. Truly this was the best thing I’ve ever done as I bought my own car by myself at 16 with NOBODYS help but a slight loan from some dude whos a family friend (which I payed off quickly) and am graduating early and attending college for polici science and philosophy. My family has made attempts to create a relationship with me and I have put on a fake facade to make them think they have, but truly they could all fucking die and I could not care less. That might sound awful to say. I know. But I mean it in a sense of dis-acknowledgment rather psychotically. One reason I am making this post is, because yes I am stable and independent but I still can’t escape this anger. I am filled with memories and trauma and I feel like I will never fully heal. I can’t help but feel like I could make it big but still be rooted in this pain and just lose it. I am not looking for engagement or pity, again I just needed to chaotically write something as I felt it would be healthy. If you read all of this thank you and I’m sorry if I hurt your brain. I can’t even fit all my issues into one post or I’d be here all day. I always still feel like a child no matter how much growth I have had. I am always alone now and my only hope is that I can get a decent profession and make end meets. I am proud of myself for still being here, but I can’t help but feel like I’ll be alone forever. Surviving SA (I am not getting into because it doesn’t matter), abuse, neglect etc makes me feel as I will never make friends or relationships, because I can never be fully stable without these things haunting me. I do have hope though not gonna lie, I know others have it worse and survive to tell the tail which only gives me aspiration rather than some complex of foreshadowing my issues, because they don’t compare to some others. If you’re reading this, your issues are valid no matter how big or small and your feelings truly matter. I wish somebody told this to me before so I’m telling this to you. No matter how evil this world is, it is truly a gift at the end of the day and I know we can all soon live life to our fullest potentials. Thank you for reading and I apologize for the sloppiness I just wanted to do this for a while as I felt it would be therapeutic.
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My mother abused me my whole childhood, she’d let other men (her boyfriends) mentally fuck with me, because I was feminine. I’m not going into full details, but it was both physical and mental. My father was aware of the abuse, but ignored it and glamorized himself to be a bare minimum father, because he bought me things I wanted, but when I started emotionally acting out he verbally and physically disciplined me instead of getting me help. My mom would look past my abuse, but I remember her talking about my mental and emotional issues to her friends rather than getting me help. I feel like I was failed by everyone, because everyone could notice it even my teacher. I’d always show up to school late with bruises and I was in the 4th grade, I even tried to tell one of my teachers about it but he looked past it weirdly. Everybody in my fucking life recognized I had issues but never did anything. I am turning 18 this year, and my family fight to have this good relationship with me now for some reason, but this grudge feels eternal. When I was 12 I went to a counselor to tell him I wanted to die, instead of sending me to a psych ward or anything like that he sent me home with my mother and took her side as I was to scared to admit about my past nor did I have any visible self harm scars so I just said I was stressed with life. My mother made more of a joke about me, telling me I was faking it. I then vented to one of my friends on my phone and saw and kicked me out. When i told my father I wanted to die he did nothing, fuck I had to schedule my own therapy appointment at 12 that I only went to once, because nobody cared to schedule another visit for me. Everybody knew about my abuse, they knew I wanted to die, and did nothing. My whole family, my grandma, auntie, uncle, took my mother’s side and said I was just looking for attention. I was only 12. My sister has been sent by my mother to psych wards multiple times, and used that as her excuse to not sending me to one. I really don’t know why they cared about my sister more than me, yes she had her own fair share of issues but she got help with them. I never received any psychological help, which caused me to start using drugs to escape my issues. When I turned 14 I would often skip school to use, and my mother instead of helping me just told me I was amounting to nothing. I gave up on school very quick, even though I use to be a straight A student, apart of student council, extemporaneous speaker, and did track, until my issues started to catch up to me. The abuse was still ongoing when I was 14 and I told one of my REACH teachers about it, but we didn’t have enough evidence for him to contact CPS. This large neglect for my health really took a toll on me. My only escape for awhile was my friends, but funny thing is they just made jokes out of me as well, I was small and skinny so I was usually the bud of the joke or the one they slapped around. I never understood why I was treated the way I was until I stopped pitying myself. My last time going to therapy I told her I heard voices that weren’t there and she gave me a book to cope. That was the last straw. I realized how truly sick everyone in my life was and let my anger get the best of me, I cut off my friends, verbally abused my parents till the little relationship we had was diminished and completely socially isolated myself and figured out my issues by myself. Truly this was the best thing I’ve ever done as I bought my own car by myself at 16 with NOBODYS help but a slight loan from some dude whos a family friend (which I payed off quickly) and am graduating early and attending college for polici science and philosophy. My family has made attempts to create a relationship with me and I have put on a fake facade to make them think they have, but truly they could all fucking die and I could not care less. That might sound awful to say. I know. But I mean it in a sense of dis-acknowledgment rather psychotically. One reason I am making this post is, because yes I am stable and independent but I still can’t escape this anger. I am filled with memories and trauma and I feel like I will never fully heal. I can’t help but feel like I could make it big but still be rooted in this pain and just lose it. I am not looking for engagement or pity, again I just needed to chaotically write something as I felt it would be healthy. If you read all of this thank you and I’m sorry if I hurt your brain. I can’t even fit all my issues into one post or I’d be here all day. I always still feel like a child no matter how much growth I have had. I am always alone now and my only hope is that I can get a decent profession and make end meets. I am proud of myself for still being here, but I can’t help but feel like I’ll be alone forever. Surviving SA (I am not getting into because it doesn’t matter), abuse, neglect etc makes me feel as I will never make friends or relationships, because I can never be fully stable without these things haunting me. I do have hope though not gonna lie, I know others have it worse and survive to tell the tail which only gives me aspiration rather than some complex of foreshadowing my issues, because they don’t compare to some others. If you’re reading this, your issues are valid no matter how big or small and your feelings truly matter. I wish somebody told this to me before so I’m telling this to you. No matter how evil this world is, it is truly a gift at the end of the day and I know we can all soon live life to our fullest potentials. Thank you for reading and I apologize for the sloppiness I just wanted to do this for a while as I felt it would be therapeutic.
2024.05.15 16:02 Skelatonio I am an average student and confused about my situation please help :)) (drop and study advice)
Post is going to be long so beware, just writing this to take a break.
i just gave JEE ADV 2022 as a proper mock and scored 140 marks, with 70 marks in each paper. I am a student in Aakash and in the mocks given there i usually score 50-60 per paper (for adv). The reason I'm laying all this out is because im completely scared shitless for adv and i need some advice or a general discussion(i wont be able to reply super quick as i might be busy).
I got 97 then 98 %ile in mains this year i scored 190 and 193 marks in each attempt, in my board result i got 97%. and im expecting very little from adv this year, maybe because i really gave mains a good attempt and yet 22k students are ahead of me and thus in adv its normal to assume that these 22k students will still be ahead of me. This is the cause of my stress.
i didnt take coaching in 11th class just self studied some chapters that i thought were interesting during my school life (never maths lmaoo) so i covered i would say around 5-6 chapters well. in 12th when i started really studying everything so i could enjoy the process of learning i came across doubts that nobody i knew could solve so as my father suggested i joined Aakash thats almost next to my house (its a very very small branch).
Because it was a small centre i got the undivided attention of my teachers (atleast when i was studying and asking doubts). so i think 2 months before mains i sat down with my teachers to discuss how i would cover the entirety of class 11 for jee, my maths teacher told me to not do so and just do 12th well while my phy and chem teachers told me to jump in the deep end of the pool (jump straight into questions and apply as much as i knew) so naturally i could do very little. how this helped me was that from that point i never really touched a textbook again, i used to come to my teachers with a question, they would explain the concept behind it, i would note it and then revise it in a timely manner.
with this strategy i covered phy and chem till the point that in both mains i got 85+ in both phy and chem (15-35 marks in maths lmaooo).
with respect to adv, because the aakash test series was so rigorous till the point we had papers every alternate day, i used to give each and every test (get horrible marks) and then analyse the questions and concepts behind them all day then ask doubts. But now in the most crucial time (last 10 days) ive begun to doubt my strategy and now i feel like my problem solving skills will only get me so far because i dont know all the theory super deep in depth.
in physics (last mock that i gave i had 35 in both paper 1 and paper 2 of 2022) i now have an okay grip of mechanics and electromagnetism but i am weak in thermo (questions will everntually be solved by me but it will take a large amount of time), for modern physics literally everyone is a god at modern physics lmao.
in chemistry (23 and 24 in 2022) i have no begun to struggle with all three sections of chem. the mains organic chem was simple and a simpleton like me could also do it easily while knowing the most common mechanisms but in adv even though ive developed my knowledge to a great extent i still wont be able to solve every quesstion and be confident and i have chem in everyday life remaining. in inorganic im absolutely fucked, i have surface and p block left even today ( i studied both these chapters in my 12th but it will take a while to do again) and i ccan only solve the medium level questions of inorganic anything thats very detailed is beyong me. in phsycial chem i struggle very greatly with equilibrium, redox and chem thermo (entropy and all) and this is all due to not studyign for jee in 11th because i only remember school knowledge (so basic questions that come once in a while i can solve).
in maths (12, 11 in 2022) im a complete idiot at this subject lmaooo. i studied all of calculus in great detail and have coevered all of 12th syllabus pretty well (except probabilty) but the porblem is even though i love the beautiful questions that come from the part of maths that i know i barely get the time to look at them in the exam. Algebra's basics im familiar with and so i can solve the odd question with accuracy but its really horrible the situation i am in. coord geo is HAHAHAHAH idk what to say i just know the basic equation of circle and know how to use the properties of the ellipse in the odd gravitation question that one gets in adv.
my time management is also suffering in the papers i give, i genuniely believe i could finish the entire paper for chem and maths (that i know the syllabus of) and physics if i had 6 hours for each paper not 3. I end up spending close to 1 hour on chem, then an hour 15 on phy and barely any time for maths. Ive also developed a terrible habit of never rechecking my paper. Please advise me on how to fix this issue, my teachers are unavailable as they are busy with the younger batches.
my question is, should i take a drop? i genuninely just want to study again and i just need to improve maths majorly and need to touch up phy and chem. my parents are moving away from where i am enrolled so i wont be at this small centre anymore but still. Money is not an issue for my father but i feel the deepest guilt whenever i have to make my dad spend even a paisa.
i want to be a mechanical engineer from a good college thats really all ive ever wanted but i realized it too late
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i just gave JEE ADV 2022 as a proper mock and scored 140 marks, with 70 marks in each paper. I am a student in Aakash and in the mocks given there i usually score 50-60 per paper (for adv). The reason I'm laying all this out is because im completely scared shitless for adv and i need some advice or a general discussion(i wont be able to reply super quick as i might be busy).
I got 97 then 98 %ile in mains this year i scored 190 and 193 marks in each attempt, in my board result i got 97%. and im expecting very little from adv this year, maybe because i really gave mains a good attempt and yet 22k students are ahead of me and thus in adv its normal to assume that these 22k students will still be ahead of me. This is the cause of my stress.
i didnt take coaching in 11th class just self studied some chapters that i thought were interesting during my school life (never maths lmaoo) so i covered i would say around 5-6 chapters well. in 12th when i started really studying everything so i could enjoy the process of learning i came across doubts that nobody i knew could solve so as my father suggested i joined Aakash thats almost next to my house (its a very very small branch).
Because it was a small centre i got the undivided attention of my teachers (atleast when i was studying and asking doubts). so i think 2 months before mains i sat down with my teachers to discuss how i would cover the entirety of class 11 for jee, my maths teacher told me to not do so and just do 12th well while my phy and chem teachers told me to jump in the deep end of the pool (jump straight into questions and apply as much as i knew) so naturally i could do very little. how this helped me was that from that point i never really touched a textbook again, i used to come to my teachers with a question, they would explain the concept behind it, i would note it and then revise it in a timely manner.
with this strategy i covered phy and chem till the point that in both mains i got 85+ in both phy and chem (15-35 marks in maths lmaooo).
with respect to adv, because the aakash test series was so rigorous till the point we had papers every alternate day, i used to give each and every test (get horrible marks) and then analyse the questions and concepts behind them all day then ask doubts. But now in the most crucial time (last 10 days) ive begun to doubt my strategy and now i feel like my problem solving skills will only get me so far because i dont know all the theory super deep in depth.
in physics (last mock that i gave i had 35 in both paper 1 and paper 2 of 2022) i now have an okay grip of mechanics and electromagnetism but i am weak in thermo (questions will everntually be solved by me but it will take a large amount of time), for modern physics literally everyone is a god at modern physics lmao.
in chemistry (23 and 24 in 2022) i have no begun to struggle with all three sections of chem. the mains organic chem was simple and a simpleton like me could also do it easily while knowing the most common mechanisms but in adv even though ive developed my knowledge to a great extent i still wont be able to solve every quesstion and be confident and i have chem in everyday life remaining. in inorganic im absolutely fucked, i have surface and p block left even today ( i studied both these chapters in my 12th but it will take a while to do again) and i ccan only solve the medium level questions of inorganic anything thats very detailed is beyong me. in phsycial chem i struggle very greatly with equilibrium, redox and chem thermo (entropy and all) and this is all due to not studyign for jee in 11th because i only remember school knowledge (so basic questions that come once in a while i can solve).
in maths (12, 11 in 2022) im a complete idiot at this subject lmaooo. i studied all of calculus in great detail and have coevered all of 12th syllabus pretty well (except probabilty) but the porblem is even though i love the beautiful questions that come from the part of maths that i know i barely get the time to look at them in the exam. Algebra's basics im familiar with and so i can solve the odd question with accuracy but its really horrible the situation i am in. coord geo is HAHAHAHAH idk what to say i just know the basic equation of circle and know how to use the properties of the ellipse in the odd gravitation question that one gets in adv.
my time management is also suffering in the papers i give, i genuniely believe i could finish the entire paper for chem and maths (that i know the syllabus of) and physics if i had 6 hours for each paper not 3. I end up spending close to 1 hour on chem, then an hour 15 on phy and barely any time for maths. Ive also developed a terrible habit of never rechecking my paper. Please advise me on how to fix this issue, my teachers are unavailable as they are busy with the younger batches.
my question is, should i take a drop? i genuninely just want to study again and i just need to improve maths majorly and need to touch up phy and chem. my parents are moving away from where i am enrolled so i wont be at this small centre anymore but still. Money is not an issue for my father but i feel the deepest guilt whenever i have to make my dad spend even a paisa.
i want to be a mechanical engineer from a good college thats really all ive ever wanted but i realized it too late
2024.05.15 15:59 Fun-Confusion-2926 Earning HS credits while still in middle school?
My daughter is going into 7th grade next year and already has the opportunity to take high school credit classes. Should she? Her goal is to go to University of Florida (in-state) and eventually law school.
For math, she can take advanced 7th grade math, or Honors Algebra I (HS credit). She has all A's in advanced 6th grade math, and her current teacher says she can handle Honors Algebra next year. But that would put her on track to take Honors Geometry in 8th, Algebra 2 in 9th, and then she will have to take very high level math courses for her last three years of high school. She's pretty good at math, but not a math prodigy, and she doesn't plan to do pursue a STEM major, so is there any benefit to starting her HS math credits already?
For science, she currently has all A's in her regular life science class. In 7th, she can take Comprehensive Science 2 Advanced, or she can take Earth/Space Science Honors (HS credit). In 8th, she can take Comprehensive Science 3 Advanced, or she can take Physical Science Honors (HS credit). When looking at the high school curriculum guide, neither of those science classes are offered at the actual high school, so it's not like she would be completing them early. It's just an opportunity, I guess, to take one or two honors HS science classes while in middle school. It doesn't seem like it would affect her actual science course selections in high school. Is there any benefit to taking one or both of these HS science classes while in middle school? Again, not planning to be a STEM major. Would colleges like to see extra HS credits on her transcript, or will they really only be looking at 9th grade onward?
Thanks!
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For math, she can take advanced 7th grade math, or Honors Algebra I (HS credit). She has all A's in advanced 6th grade math, and her current teacher says she can handle Honors Algebra next year. But that would put her on track to take Honors Geometry in 8th, Algebra 2 in 9th, and then she will have to take very high level math courses for her last three years of high school. She's pretty good at math, but not a math prodigy, and she doesn't plan to do pursue a STEM major, so is there any benefit to starting her HS math credits already?
For science, she currently has all A's in her regular life science class. In 7th, she can take Comprehensive Science 2 Advanced, or she can take Earth/Space Science Honors (HS credit). In 8th, she can take Comprehensive Science 3 Advanced, or she can take Physical Science Honors (HS credit). When looking at the high school curriculum guide, neither of those science classes are offered at the actual high school, so it's not like she would be completing them early. It's just an opportunity, I guess, to take one or two honors HS science classes while in middle school. It doesn't seem like it would affect her actual science course selections in high school. Is there any benefit to taking one or both of these HS science classes while in middle school? Again, not planning to be a STEM major. Would colleges like to see extra HS credits on her transcript, or will they really only be looking at 9th grade onward?
Thanks!
2024.05.15 15:56 Fun-Confusion-2926 Earning high school credits while still in middle school?
My daughter is going into 7th grade next year and already has the opportunity to take high school credit classes. Should she? Her goal is to go to University of Florida (in-state) and eventually law school.
For math, she can take advanced 7th grade math, or Honors Algebra I (HS credit). She has all A's in advanced 6th grade math, and her current teacher says she can handle Honors Algebra next year. But that would put her on track to take Honors Geometry in 8th, Algebra 2 in 9th, and then she will have to take very high level math courses for her last three years of high school. She's pretty good at math, but not a math prodigy, and she doesn't plan to do pursue a STEM major, so is there any benefit to starting her HS math credits already?
For science, she currently has all A's in her regular life science class. In 7th, she can take Comprehensive Science 2 Advanced, or she can take Earth/Space Science Honors (HS credit). In 8th, she can take Comprehensive Science 3 Advanced, or she can take Physical Science Honors (HS credit). When looking at the high school curriculum guide, neither of those science classes are offered at the actual high school, so it's not like she would be completing them early. It's just an opportunity, I guess, to take one or two honors HS science classes while in middle school. It doesn't seem like it would affect her actual science course selections in high school. Is there any benefit to taking one or both of these HS science classes while in middle school? Again, not planning to be a STEM major. Would colleges like to see extra HS credits on her transcript, or will they really only be looking at 9th grade onward?
Thanks!
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For math, she can take advanced 7th grade math, or Honors Algebra I (HS credit). She has all A's in advanced 6th grade math, and her current teacher says she can handle Honors Algebra next year. But that would put her on track to take Honors Geometry in 8th, Algebra 2 in 9th, and then she will have to take very high level math courses for her last three years of high school. She's pretty good at math, but not a math prodigy, and she doesn't plan to do pursue a STEM major, so is there any benefit to starting her HS math credits already?
For science, she currently has all A's in her regular life science class. In 7th, she can take Comprehensive Science 2 Advanced, or she can take Earth/Space Science Honors (HS credit). In 8th, she can take Comprehensive Science 3 Advanced, or she can take Physical Science Honors (HS credit). When looking at the high school curriculum guide, neither of those science classes are offered at the actual high school, so it's not like she would be completing them early. It's just an opportunity, I guess, to take one or two honors HS science classes while in middle school. It doesn't seem like it would affect her actual science course selections in high school. Is there any benefit to taking one or both of these HS science classes while in middle school? Again, not planning to be a STEM major. Would colleges like to see extra HS credits on her transcript, or will they really only be looking at 9th grade onward?
Thanks!
2024.05.15 15:48 Ronin-Akira AITAH for wanting my teacher to be removed?
Male, 30. For some context: in my country, when someone can't finish high-school for whatever reason when younger, they can try again in adulthood by going through other type of courses to get their diploma. Right now, I'm going through one of these mentioned processes.
Ever since the course started back in April, a teacher has been beyond mediocre. She's always absent, late, and if she's present, her classes are incomplete and more often than not, incomprehensible (and from what I've heard from fellow students, she was the same last year, I wasn't in the institution last year though) so I, with the help of some students, presented a formal complaint to the principal office, this, to have her removed: the institution warned her, that if another complaint were to be present, she'll be fired. Ever since the first letter was filed (which was about 3 weeks ago) clases haven't gotten any better. To the point that some students have even quit the institution all together.
I have been thinking about filing another letter, but here's the thing, she recently told us that her children are sick, and so fellow students who still aren't happy with her class, and aren't truly learning anything, stand by her below average service because "Oh well she's going through tough times".
People have told me that it's shocking that I'm thinking about filing another letter, like caring about my future makes me an asshole, would I be the asshole for doing so though? It's not like she's going to be jobless, likely she'll just be relocated to another school. Here's the facts, at this school, we're all adults, most of us with families or work (or both) to take care of, I can feel empathy for the teacher and her family, but I don't feel like I should compromise my future, just because a teacher at one time was feeling down. If I want to obtain my high-school diploma to eventually go to college, get better job opportunities, so on, I need a teacher who does her job right. Who allows me to learn so I can succeed at the exams this coming september. If I fail the exams because I didn't have a proper teacher, regardless of the reasons, that's a whole lot of more money and time spent in 2025. Money and time I rather spend in college.
Edit: Grammar, "get better job", not "bet better" like originally written.
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Ever since the course started back in April, a teacher has been beyond mediocre. She's always absent, late, and if she's present, her classes are incomplete and more often than not, incomprehensible (and from what I've heard from fellow students, she was the same last year, I wasn't in the institution last year though) so I, with the help of some students, presented a formal complaint to the principal office, this, to have her removed: the institution warned her, that if another complaint were to be present, she'll be fired. Ever since the first letter was filed (which was about 3 weeks ago) clases haven't gotten any better. To the point that some students have even quit the institution all together.
I have been thinking about filing another letter, but here's the thing, she recently told us that her children are sick, and so fellow students who still aren't happy with her class, and aren't truly learning anything, stand by her below average service because "Oh well she's going through tough times".
People have told me that it's shocking that I'm thinking about filing another letter, like caring about my future makes me an asshole, would I be the asshole for doing so though? It's not like she's going to be jobless, likely she'll just be relocated to another school. Here's the facts, at this school, we're all adults, most of us with families or work (or both) to take care of, I can feel empathy for the teacher and her family, but I don't feel like I should compromise my future, just because a teacher at one time was feeling down. If I want to obtain my high-school diploma to eventually go to college, get better job opportunities, so on, I need a teacher who does her job right. Who allows me to learn so I can succeed at the exams this coming september. If I fail the exams because I didn't have a proper teacher, regardless of the reasons, that's a whole lot of more money and time spent in 2025. Money and time I rather spend in college.
Edit: Grammar, "get better job", not "bet better" like originally written.
2024.05.15 15:35 Chillpilled_ Bhai suicidal thoughts aur motivation dono aa rahe hai
I took a drop last year, bought cengage and stuff, socha ye to karunga hi. Cut to this year, kuch nahi kiya, aur saari exams bekar gayi hai. Last year ek badhiya college me last branch mil Rahi thi but I was so entitled/delulu ki karunga to IIT se hu. Now I have no option left to depression cha raha hai. Mai andar se itna dar Gaya hu ki tier3 me civil milega ya nahi iska dar lag raha hai.
Anyways otoh abhi ander se aisa bhi lag raha hai ki comeback karna hai. Cengage padi Hui hai, soch Raha hu college chalu hone se pehle and initial months Tak Maths aur physics Puri cengage kar leta hu, to raise my mental acumen and problem solving ability.
Uska baad ek copium wala bhi vichar aa raha hai ki agle saal, mains aur baaki saare possible exams de dunga, won't take any college but acche percentile rahe to aage resume me bata to sakta hu that atleast i raised my self. And obviously planning for GSoC and coding and developing my skills (tier-3 me Bina kisi guidance k GSoC aur coding contests phodna hai Maharaj ko 🤡).
Aaj mummy papa puch rahe the kaise gaya and all and i felt ashamed ki BC ek kaam tha mujhe, do chances mile, still maine gud gobar kar diya. It's all my fault and I want to fix it. Doing good in other things is my only copium so please kindly suggest me, especially double droppers and seniors, how should I tackle my life's challenges from now on.
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Anyways otoh abhi ander se aisa bhi lag raha hai ki comeback karna hai. Cengage padi Hui hai, soch Raha hu college chalu hone se pehle and initial months Tak Maths aur physics Puri cengage kar leta hu, to raise my mental acumen and problem solving ability.
Uska baad ek copium wala bhi vichar aa raha hai ki agle saal, mains aur baaki saare possible exams de dunga, won't take any college but acche percentile rahe to aage resume me bata to sakta hu that atleast i raised my self. And obviously planning for GSoC and coding and developing my skills (tier-3 me Bina kisi guidance k GSoC aur coding contests phodna hai Maharaj ko 🤡).
Aaj mummy papa puch rahe the kaise gaya and all and i felt ashamed ki BC ek kaam tha mujhe, do chances mile, still maine gud gobar kar diya. It's all my fault and I want to fix it. Doing good in other things is my only copium so please kindly suggest me, especially double droppers and seniors, how should I tackle my life's challenges from now on.
2024.05.15 15:33 PoopyPantsFromAthens YOU THINK YOUR CUET EXAM SUCKED?? BEAT THIS:
Want to kms right now vina muzak ke. I say this vina dramatic words ke but trust me I mean eveey bit of it.
Today I gave my first ever CUET exam. I saw the English paper and I was so happy, it was so easy, it's probably because English is one of the few things I am good at but I genuinely feel I could've gotten 188/200 (or even more).
Then they fkd it up, my exam center was being run by a bunch of retards and the biggest retard is NTA itself.
I am pwd candidate I have got shitty eyesight (really shitty) Aaj tak I could handle and compete with everyone in my batch. The only inconvinience is the fact tho stupid for thinking "kya hi ha? I can beat these guys in almost anything" but today I found out the world doesn't play shit like that.
NTA ke application form me you have to upload medical certificates to register as a pwd candidate. Keep this in mind.
I knew competitive exam me speed matter krti ha so when NTA' form (emphasis on NTA form) gave 2 options:
1: I will bring my own scribe
2: i would like NTA to provide a scribe. (Again keep in mind both options are given by NTA on their official website.)
I chose option 2.
Since it was my first time availing a scribe, I didn't know exact procedure but I am VERY sure it is the responsibility of the exam conducting body to provide the scribe.
I asked my center' supervisor and behen ke Lund ne Bola "apna leke about khud" and "procedure hota ha" and "proof do". Mind you I was carrying a physical copy of my medical certificate and these little retards ignored my requets.
The center supervisor was a literal maggot I wanted to gouge his eyes out because of the way he was talking to me
None of them. NONE OF THEM had an ounce of empathy, not even a single one of them was like "Bache ka saal kharab ho jaega, krte ha kuch" behen ke Londo ne chutiyapa pe chutiyapa. They were so insensitive, so inconsiderate. If I were a doctor and I could save them with a surgery, I would fk it up on purpose, that's how repulsive these guys were
Toh I had to give the exam without scribe and I tried my best to read questions as fast as possible even then, despite all my efforts, I could not finish the paper on time. I am not going to check but I think I failed to complete 4-5questions.
The paper istg was so easy, Yeh ek paper se selection decide ho jati DU me, stephens hansraj, I have studied enough to qualify for these tier 1 colleges and yet..... I can't.
Yeh behen ke lodon ne unjustice ki bc i wish their children fail to get a seat and then cry about reservation.
If you think you had it rough, try giving that exam in 50 something minutes with 25% of a normal dude' eyesight.
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Today I gave my first ever CUET exam. I saw the English paper and I was so happy, it was so easy, it's probably because English is one of the few things I am good at but I genuinely feel I could've gotten 188/200 (or even more).
Then they fkd it up, my exam center was being run by a bunch of retards and the biggest retard is NTA itself.
I am pwd candidate I have got shitty eyesight (really shitty) Aaj tak I could handle and compete with everyone in my batch. The only inconvinience is the fact tho stupid for thinking "kya hi ha? I can beat these guys in almost anything" but today I found out the world doesn't play shit like that.
NTA ke application form me you have to upload medical certificates to register as a pwd candidate. Keep this in mind.
I knew competitive exam me speed matter krti ha so when NTA' form (emphasis on NTA form) gave 2 options:
1: I will bring my own scribe
2: i would like NTA to provide a scribe. (Again keep in mind both options are given by NTA on their official website.)
I chose option 2.
Since it was my first time availing a scribe, I didn't know exact procedure but I am VERY sure it is the responsibility of the exam conducting body to provide the scribe.
I asked my center' supervisor and behen ke Lund ne Bola "apna leke about khud" and "procedure hota ha" and "proof do". Mind you I was carrying a physical copy of my medical certificate and these little retards ignored my requets.
The center supervisor was a literal maggot I wanted to gouge his eyes out because of the way he was talking to me
None of them. NONE OF THEM had an ounce of empathy, not even a single one of them was like "Bache ka saal kharab ho jaega, krte ha kuch" behen ke Londo ne chutiyapa pe chutiyapa. They were so insensitive, so inconsiderate. If I were a doctor and I could save them with a surgery, I would fk it up on purpose, that's how repulsive these guys were
Toh I had to give the exam without scribe and I tried my best to read questions as fast as possible even then, despite all my efforts, I could not finish the paper on time. I am not going to check but I think I failed to complete 4-5questions.
The paper istg was so easy, Yeh ek paper se selection decide ho jati DU me, stephens hansraj, I have studied enough to qualify for these tier 1 colleges and yet..... I can't.
Yeh behen ke lodon ne unjustice ki bc i wish their children fail to get a seat and then cry about reservation.
If you think you had it rough, try giving that exam in 50 something minutes with 25% of a normal dude' eyesight.
X
2024.05.15 15:19 Old_Sea_8014 Struggling in the second semester of Computer Engineering
I’m in the second semester of Computer Engineering/IT. It’s really complicated to explain the specific major because it’s new and if I were to explain it, it would be a mix of Computer Engineering and IT (Bachelor of Engineering). I started in the winter semester of 2023 and right now I’m struggling big time.
Has anyone been through this? Has anyone else experienced this? Can anyone please give me at least a tip on ONE subject not just everything just ONE THING.
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- Subjects. Last semester it was Mathematics A, Physics 1, Programming 1, Introduction to IT and Technical English. Out of all of them I passed Intro and Technical English. I feel like I don’t understand a single thing from Math A and Programming 1. Physics 1 was relatively easy to understand and hard to study/ do the tasks, but it was understandable. Mathematics A was a complete disaster where I absolutely have no idea what’s going on. With Programming A it’s a bit different. Programming “hello world” for the first time was a moment of happiness for me but Programming isn’t just coding it’s learning about algorithmic thinking and problem solving, which I highly struggle with. This semester I have Mathematics B, Mathematics C, Programming B, Physics B, Electrotechnical Basics, Algorithms and Data-structures. After the few first weeks I just started to skip out on the lessons, because I would sit there and not understand anything. The major consists of 7 semesters, each having 6 subjects. I’ve been told that that’s too much but people but they having majored in engineering (social studies and so on) so I’m not sure if what they’re saying can be applied here.
- The lack of basic knowledge I lack basic knowledge in programming, mathematics and physics. I’m not talking about high school math and physics. I’m talking about college level. I never realised how high school classes didn’t teach us properly until I reached university/ college and realised this is the just top of the ice berg. Like I said, I lack problem solving through algorithmic thinking which is the bases of this major (or what was taught in the first semester).
- Possible retaking first semester subjects Right now I think the best course of action is to repeat first semester subjects and truly pay attention 100% this time. The problem is that I have no idea what to do this semester because it literally just started. Is it normal to just skip a semester or barely come to lectures/seminars because of this reason? I literally understand nothing so what’s the point of sitting there and possibly bothering people?
- Not understanding how to study Engineering isn’t like other majors from what I hear. Or forced you to teach yourself how to study and how to study specific things. I recently watched a video trying to explain why CEOs are predominantly (former) engineers and everyone tackled it down to: a. Learning how to study; b. Knowing how to problem solve. I’ve established that I lack the problem solving skills right now and I’ll admit I have no idea how to (self) study. I came fresh out of high school where teachers are not only responsible for you and your academics but also responsible for educating you on certain topics. When you don’t understand it’s repeated and repeated and repeated over and over again. University is mostly self study. Do I know how to do that? No. Am I trying? I am. But trying is not enough when results are not showing. I have concentration problems (not ADHD or anything). I’m easily distracted ESPECIALLY when I have no idea what’s going on. I’ll eventually tune out the lecture and scroll on Reddit or something.
- Burnout Yeah, I barely even started and I’m burnt out. People around me aren’t though. They can all already program in C, C++ and Python (what we covered in those two semesters/ what we’re covering and learning right now) as well as Java(script) and more. They’re ace-ing all their tests and while they struggle with exams they’re at every lecture and fully concentrated. It’s embarrassing trying to continue with their pace especially with group work. Literally yesterday we handed in an assignment where I was the “incompetent partner that did NOTHING” and I could feel my partner had enough of this bullshit and even called me out on it, which felt humiliating.
Has anyone been through this? Has anyone else experienced this? Can anyone please give me at least a tip on ONE subject not just everything just ONE THING.
2024.05.15 15:14 LoneWolfIndia Vamsy - A true maverick
 | submitted by LoneWolfIndia to tollywood [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/1955409jzk0d1.png?width=500&format=png&auto=webp&s=2fb405c24b6bca840fc355d86850257c83685fa3 It's actually hard to classify Vamsy as a director, while his movies have a very aesthetic feel, he combines it with a fast paced style of narration, rapid fire dialog and a very unconventional style of movie making. That is the reason why his style of movie making was not universally liked, much before Ram Gopal Varma or Sandeep Vanga, he was the true cult director. Or one should say an auteur. His movies had his own distinctive style. good or bad, that was his trademark. And he covered different genres, from artistic( Sitara) to murder mysteries( Anveshana) to comedies( Ladies Tailor, April 1 Vidudala) to family dramas( Preminchu Pelladu). 4 His real name was Nallamilli Bavireddy and Vamsy was his pen name, that he choose for the screen too. His first movie Manchu Pallaki(1982) itself gave an indication of his talent. https://preview.redd.it/9212af7o0l0d1.png?width=736&format=png&auto=webp&s=bd3bb778eab31b04ed1018f4439a3ef7307394bd A story of 5 friends played by Chiru( in his early days), Rajendra Prasad, Saichand, Narayana Rao, Saichand and Girish( of Saptapadi) fame, whose life changes after they come in contact with Suhasini. It was a remake of the 1981 Tamizh movie Palaivana Solai, and though not a very big success, the movie gained lot of appreciation from the family audiences for it's very sensitive storytelling. It came as a breath of fresh air in Telugu cinema, that was getting saturated with routine movies. https://preview.redd.it/7nbdxyri1l0d1.png?width=220&format=png&auto=webp&s=aff15a2e23dde274ae98e624b9533d647dfc415c It was Sitara in 1984 that made everyone take notice of Vamsy, based on his own novel Mahal lo Kokila. The movie also marked Bhanu Priya's debut, as Sitara, a women on the move, who is helped by a kind hearted photographer Devadas( Subhalekha Sudhakar), and helps her to become a movie star later. However when she refuses to go to a particular village for a shooting, Devadas demands an explanation, and she recounts her rather painful past. The movie straddles two different worlds that of the Zamindaris, and their false prestige, that makes them show off as wealthy, when in reality most of them are actually paupers, and that of the movie stars, and paparazzi. There is a lot to write about this movie, but couple of things, it has the very distinctive style of K.Viswanath in many scenes, under whom Vamsy worked as an assistant director. And it began Vamsy's collaboration with Illayaraja, who would go on to compose some memorable songs for his movies later. As also the Godavari backdrop, being a native of that place, not many movie directors captured the region as well as Vamsy did, be it the natural beauty or the dialect or the traditions. It also marked a very visual style of storytelling that would be a feature of most Vamsy movies going ahead. Also the beautiful sunrise and sunset shots, along the Godavari river, contrasting it with the rather claustrophobic atmosphere of the Zamindar Chander( Sarathbabu) mahal. Sitara went on to become one of the biggest hits of that year, as Bhanupriya became a star. https://preview.redd.it/9nmnwmcd4l0d1.png?width=1920&format=png&auto=webp&s=696fd262a3a8d580539c59784d23cb7ee10c8b01 It was with Anveshana that Vamsy came into his own, developing his very distinctive style of movie making. I had already written about it here in detail, but would like to point out that much before RGV in Shiva, Vamsy used the tracking shots to very good effect here, especially in the forest scenes. https://preview.redd.it/tbj7egrt4l0d1.png?width=500&format=png&auto=webp&s=6d2230564e08a810f894758c1682812e8ab7eb96 Preminchu Pelladu Rajendra Prasad's first movie as a leading hero, dealt with the clash between old and new. Satyanarayana plays Kurmavataram, a conservative, orthodox Brahmin, who is taught a lesson in humanist values by his grandson Rajendra Prasad, and his estranged grand daughter Bhanupriya. Quite a good movie, had a memorable soundtrack by Illayaraja with songs like "Vayyari Godaramma", "Gopemmma Chethilo", "Nirantharam Vasanthamu", "Nee Chaitra Veena" remaining memorable today. His next movie Aalapana was not that great with a very disjointed narration, and trying to be a cross between an artistic movie and a thriller, fell in between. However Illayaraja's score was usual great in this movie. https://preview.redd.it/irmgr9rn5l0d1.png?width=1280&format=png&auto=webp&s=208996a17ba7472498124ade440a03b5b540a7c9 It was Ladies Tailor, that would turn out to be a true cult movie. The story of a tailor Sundaram( Rajendra Prasad) who wants to get rich quick, and follows the advice of an astrologer who predicts that a lady with a mole on her thigh would be fortunate for him. While set in the Godavari region, the narration was totally different, with more risque double meaning dialog, the typical Godavari Yaasa spoken among the working class. And characters like Battala Satyam( Mallikarjuna Rao), Sitaramudu( Subhalekha Sudhakar), the hero's sidekicks, the school teacher Sujatha( Archana), the 3 women Nagamani( Y Vijaya), Neelaveni( Sandhya), Daiya( Deepa) whom the hero chases around, the village head Venkataratnam( Pradeep Sakthi) who hates lovers after a guy duped his sister. The movie was a true cult flick, that polarized audiences, the college students, youth loved it, while the family audiences hated it. But over the years it has become a cult classic of sorts, and once again a memorable score from Illayaraja with a series of superhit songs "Gopilola", "Porabatidi", "Ekkada Ekkada", "Hayamma Hayamma". https://preview.redd.it/3s3ikjq97l0d1.png?width=220&format=png&auto=webp&s=7526167ee734cec685369b01bfe88c686a86f350 His next movie Lawyer Suhasini was a disappointment in many ways, again Maharshi was one of those "You hate it or love it" kind of movies. The story of unrequited one sided love, of the title character who pursues the woman he loves Suchitra( Shantipriya). It was the Arjun Reddy of those times, and most audiences did not like the style of narration or the rather down beat ending, as the movie flopped. It however had a great score again by Illayaraja with songs like "Sumam Prati Sumam", "Maata Raani Mounam". https://preview.redd.it/vxxwcf3z7l0d1.png?width=304&format=png&auto=webp&s=eb207b04203df4e501767e190907dfc01e2835e9 Sri Kanaka Mahalakshmi Recording Dance Troupe to me again one of his best movies ever, set against the backdrop of the recording dance troupes, with a love story thrown in between. The movie was a complete fun ride, with dialogues set in typical Godavari Yaasa, and memorable performances by Naresh, Kota, Mallikarjuna Rao, Ralapalli, Thanikella Bharani, Y.Vijaya. Great soundtrack again by Illayaraja where he also uses old songs of NTR, ANR, Krishna to good effect. https://preview.redd.it/vl0ja77k8l0d1.png?width=1242&format=png&auto=webp&s=8f976ceb266cc8734bbecc06e4261222dfa3b9b7 Chettu Kinda Pleader was another superb comic thriller, and for a change Vamsy sets the movie in Tirupathi. Remake of the Malayalam movie Thanthram, the movie has Rajendraprasad as Balaraju, a down and out lawyer, who gets to fight the case of a rich widow Sujatha( Urvasi), when her father in law Sarabayya( Gollapudi) files a suit claiming the property is his legally. Vamsy wonderfully combines comedy with drama and thriller, creating a really entertaining movie. Somehow it was not much of a success when released, but in later years has become a favorite on video, DVD. Again a superb musical score by Illayaraja with songs like "Jigijigaa", "Allibili Kalala", "Neeru gaari paari poku", "Chalti ka Naam Gaadi". https://preview.redd.it/84okdbaa9l0d1.png?width=220&format=png&auto=webp&s=5ff09b1aa067cb05ed88cb7e0affd1b9c50179e3 April 1 Vidudula would be Vamsy's last really great movie starring Rajendra Prasad as a smooth talking videographer Diwakaram, who lies, cheats his way to success. His life takes a turn when the woman he loves Bhuvaneshwari( Shobana) puts a condition that he should not tell any lies for one month, and should speak only truth, throwing everything into turmoil. Setting against backdrop of Rajahmundry Railway Quarters, the movie combines comedy and drama effectively, and went on to become one of the biggest hits in his career. Again a superb score by Illayaraja with songs like "Vompula Vaikhiri", " Nijamante", "Chukkalu Temanna", "Okate Aasa". https://preview.redd.it/dbq554xfal0d1.png?width=220&format=png&auto=webp&s=ef54473e2c9f33d2a829c57af2aaded54a2f7bc5 However Detective Narada with Mohan Babu turned out to be a huge disappointment, as the movie bombed badly. And with Joker, he stopped his collaboration with Ilayaraja and composed the music himself, which in a way started his decline. Vamsy's movies were not the same without Illayaraja, and a series of very disappointing movies followed. Even though he did make a comeback in 2002 with Avunu Vallidaru Ishtapaddaru, it was nowhere close to his earlier classics. Apart from being a director, Vamsy is also a great writer, he wrote 5 novels, and around 360 short stories in Telugu. His series of stories Maa Pasarlapudi Kathalu, Maa Diguva Godavari Kathalu are a wonderful depiction of life in rural Godavari districts, on par with RK Narayan's Malgudi Days. Not many explored Godavari districts as intimately as he did covering the world of recording dance troupe artists, railway quarters, villages, creating characters with all the quirks, eccentricities, faults who remain memorable to date. |