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Hello, I'm a 20f who just got a septoplasty, bony spur removal, turbinate reduction, polyp/cyst removal, and then pretty much every reduction possible in all my sinuses, all the total -ectomys or however you spell it. Thought I'd make kind of a big surgery recovery post that I'd keep adding to as seeing some other similar posts set up like this have really helped me before and after the procedure! Also I kind of just want to complain to a space with people who fully understand my suffering / I also really need something to do lol.
Day 0 pre-surgery -
Blergh. It was daunting to say the least going in to the surgery clinic knowing the not-fun-at-all recovery process that laid ahead of me. Was so anxious I didn't sleep and then had a full mental breakdown by the time I was in all the full hospital gear laying down on that uncomfortable patient bed. If you suffer from health anxiety much like me I'd recommend asking for some anti-anxiety meds before going in because I was a nervous wreck. After the IV was in and I was calming down thanks to the cocktail of drugs they gave me, both the anesthesiologist and my ENT surgeon came in to do a final run through of everything. The anesthesia kicked in and I was soon knocked out.
Day 0 post-surgery -
Woke up what felt like a minute later with burning pain everywhere in my sinuses and throat. Not fun! Begged for pain meds and took my first oxy pill. I couldn't keep my eyes open because the bright light in the hospital room really hurt my head. Once I was at a more comfortable pain level, I was sent home. I kept my head back in that passenger seat with my eyes still slammed shut super sensitive to light. My family tried to show me some of those medical pictures the surgeon took of the nastiness he removed but my post-anesthesia nausea was NOT having it lol. I pretty much laid in my bed the rest of the day, towels over every single part of my bedroom windows where light was coming through. I just sat there, sleeping in 20-minute increments because I was sitting upright in the dark and waiting for my next dosage of painkillers. Nothing painful after leaving the hospital, just uncomfortable and boring.
24 hours after, Day 1 -
Woke up (didn't sleep much.... by "woke up" I mean sat up in bed around 6 am) feeling not terrible. Much like yesterday, nothing really painful, just uncomfortable. Like many others have said, mouth breathing makes the throat hurt and my lips are so dry. It's hard to eat/drink because not only do I have a reduced appetite, sipping or chewing anything is kind of suffocating when you can't breathe through your nose at all. I've been able to smell and taste just fine though, so that's a win. This was also a slow, boring day. In the increments of time where I wasn't actively super sleepy on painkillers, I was just kind of laying around watching videos on my phone with low brightness thanks to my eyes still being kind of sensitive to light. My day slowly passed me by as I used all my antibiotic alarms as little checkpoints as well as changing the gauze under my nose every two hours or so. As I used to joke pre-op during my countless failed sinusitis antibiotic courses, life is just what happens in between amoxicillin doses.
Day 2 -
Didn't sleep at ALL during the night. Woke up feeling pressure in my nose because scabs/clots/something is starting to form in there. It's SO annoying I just want to blow it out, but per the doctor's instructions, I can't do anything about it. While the active bleeding out of my nose has stopped, today has just experiencing different unfortunate symptoms. I've been coughing up gross bloody mucus stuff. Every time I swallow my ears pop because of how clogged my nose is. Kind of gross, but my nose has been popping and making liquid-y bubbling noises all day... In terms of pain, I haven't felt any really *knock on wood*, just the obvious discomfort of nastiness backed all the way up in whatever they packed my nose with post-op. The only thing that can get me to sleep is honestly the painkillers just to get me to ignore the annoying sensation of what feels like water balloons up my nostrils, so I'm only going to take them at night if at all anymore. Kinda wishing there was a time travel option to skip past not only this boredom and discomfort, but the debridement post-op appointment which I hear can be painful😓. My sensitivity to light has pretty much gone away now, so I've been at least passing time quicker with movies and such. Man I wish I had an edible right now.
Day 3 -
Started off pretty promising. Woke up after considerably better sleep I've gotten the past few days. Drainage is still annoying, nastiness bubbling in my nose still, and there's still a feeling of gunk in the back of my throat, but overall painless. Towards the end of the day I got an AWFUL headache. Took some Tylenol and I'm currently hoping it goes away, if it continues getting any worse I will definitely be a little concerned as I believe my dr. told me to look out for horrible headaches. Other than that, I'm still just waiting around for the post op appointment. I suspect by the time Tuesday rolls around I'm gonna be so over the stuff in my nose that I won't even care about the pain of removing it anymore lol.
Day 4 -
Woke up with a little blood on my pillow. Gross. Apparently leaked through my gauze when I was sleeping because it fell off halfway through the night. In other news, I'm not bleeding as bad and I'm able to remove the bandage from under my nose for most of the day. I've noticed my cough is picking up too, half of the time it's normal congestion/phlegm, and then bloody variations. Feeling MUCH better compared to day one and two though, and again, eagerly awaiting stent/packing removal. Honestly feeling quite normal.
Day 5 -
Very much so up and moving today, pretty much back to feeling exactly how I was before surgery, save the stuff draining in my throat and coming through the little holes of the dried bloody nastiness stuck inside my stents 🥲. I left the house today for the first time since surgery, so that was great, too. Not much to report today thankfully! I'm feeling much much much better. I've got plans to load up on painkillers before my slightly nerve-wracking post-op appointment tomorrow, but honestly, thank GOD it's here. I can not only see the dismal state that is the inside of my nose, I can absolutely feel it all, too. My nose squeaks and bubbles with every movement and I'm extremely over it, as well as curious to see what's gonna be sucked out ...
Day 6 -
eek get everything removed today! will update.

Percocet Guy.
(Peter is sitting on the living room couch and engaged with his laptop, Lois walks in)
Lois: Peetah, what are you doing? You've been in here for hours.
Peter: It's class of '09, Lois.
Lois: Class of what?
Peter: Class of '09, it's this game where I live out the high school years I've never had.
(Nicole's voice is heard from the computer): "Fuck, a pedophile took my percocet from me again. Emily, can I borrow some addys?"
Peter: See Lois? It's good old fun.
Lois: Peetah this game isn't good. It could harm our children.
(Nicole's voice is heard from the computer): "Fuck off and finish last virgin."
Peter: Yeah Lois, fuck off and finish last virgin!
Lois: (walks away grumbling under her breath)
NEW SCENE: (Lois is doing dishes, Peter walks into the kitchen)
Peter (angry): Lois, where's my percocet?
Lois: Your what Peetah?
Peter: My percocet, Lois. I need it to reach my zen, because zen is a good ass fucking feeling.
Lois: Peetah is this because of that stupid game? Class of.... nineteen or something?
Peter: Class of '09. Lois, you're not smart enough to understand the depths of sexed up abusive lesbians.
(Meg walks in)
Meg: Can I have some cereal Mom?
Peter: Ugh, Meg, you're such a Jeffery? Why do you talk like a cartoon?
Meg: I... what?
(Peter throws Meg into the wall and she hits it and falls over.)
Peter (yelling): Get that anime shit out of our house you Jeffery!
(The camera pans to Stewie)
Stewie: This is worse than the time the fat man did oxy at Red Lobster with Dan Schneider.
(Cutaway: Dan Schneider and Peter are sitting at a table with pill bottles strewn about.)
Dan Schneider: So when is it time for the feet?
Peter: This is the eleventh time you asked that. Jesus Christ, can't you go back to writing Drake and Josh?
NEW SCENE: (Peter arrives at the drunken clam to meet his 3 friends who are already there, Joe, Cleveland and Quagmire)
Joe: Hey BeTeR, nice to see ya.
Peter (yelling): Ew uncircumcised, that's disgusting get it away!
Quagmire: Peter what the hell?! You're making a scene!
Peter: It's Class of 09, Quagmire. It's my new favorite thing.
Quagmire: Well it's weird. You just don't walk into a bar and talk about uncut junk.
Peter: But Jecka does and that's fine. Why not me?
Quagmire: Just... just leave Peter. You're being real fucking weird.
Peter (running away, crying): I have red lobster!
NEW SCENE: (Peter enters the house and sees Lois, who is dressed as Nicole and Quagmire, who's dressed as the Counselor)
Peter: Oh my god.... It's Nicole! And the Counselor! I'm a huge fan!
Lois (as Nicole): But I'm just a young lady. You are middle aged.
Quagmire (as the counselor): Now give me a twirl young lady, giggity.
Peter: Wait a second..... (he removes Quagmire's wig) you're frauds!
Lois: sigh Peetah, this game is making you crazy. Can you maybe just... not obsess over it?
Peter: sigh you're right Lois. I'm sorry. This scheme you and Quagmire cooked up helped me snap out of it. Maybe i shouldn't be obsessed with fictional characters.
(We see a shot of the house zooming out as the episode ends as Blink 182's all the small things plays.)

9th instead of 9nd lol Sorry ! It's your friendly neighborhood deal hunter back at it again with your weekly grocery deals.
This week's got some seriously good finds to keep your wallet happy and your fridge stocked. Here's what caught my eye:

Farm Boy

• Atlantic Snow Crab: $7.99/lb - Looking for a fun seafood option? Snow crab is a delicious treat that would be perfect for a special dinner!
• Boneless Skinless Chicken Thighs: $5.99/lb (Save $2.60): This is a great deal on chicken thighs! Save money on this versatile protein.
• Vidalia onions: $1.88/lb - Ugh, this Vidalia onion price is a bummer. While they're my favorite onion too, almost $2/lb is pretty steep, especially when regular onions are much cheaper.
• Cucumber: $0.99 each - This is a great price on cucumbers! Just be sure to keep an eye out for even better deals.
• Deli - Chicken breast roast (Maple Lodge): $2.49/100g - This is a good deal on pre-cooked chicken breast from the deli. Perfect for easy meals!**
• Liberté Greek Yogurt All varieties: $5.88/each Save $2.11- Liberté Greek yogurt is on sale, but the price isn't dramatically lower.
• T-Bone Grilling Steak: $17.99/lb, save $4 - There's a discount on T-bone steaks this week, but they're still a splurge.

Food Basics

• Chicken breast (boneless skinless, Maple Lodge): $4.98/ lb - This is a good price for chicken breast! Stock up while it's on sale.
• Atlantic salmon: $10.88/lb - This is a fair price for salmon, not a steal, but not outrageous either.
• Carrots & Onions: $1.25 2lb/bag - This is an awesome deal on both carrots and onions! Great for stocking up on these kitchen staples.
• Broccoli: $1.25/crown: This is a great price for broccoli! Perfect for adding some greens to your meals.
• Mini cucumbers: $1.99 6-pack - This is a good price for mini cucumbers!
• Apples (various): $2.98 3lb bag - This is a fair price for apples, but be sure to choose a variety that stores well.
• Lemons: $2.98 2lb bag - This is a fair price for lemons.
• Oranges: $1.88 3lb bag - This is a fantastic price for oranges! Only 60 cents a pound!
• Blueberries: $1.88 half pint - This is a good price for blueberries!
• Mango: $0.67/each - Wow! This is an amazing price on mangoes! I haven't seen them this cheap in months. Stock up if you love them!
• Cantaloupe: $2.98/each - This is the typical $3 melon price.
• Mini watermelon: $3.98 each - This is a great price for a small watermelon! Perfect for a refreshing summer treat.
• Corned beef (Hereford): $2.98 340g/can - This isn't the most exciting ingredient, but it's a good idea to have a can or two on hand for a quick meal.
• Tofu (Fountaine santé): $5.00 for 2x 400g packs - This is a good price for tofu! At $2.50 per pack, it falls right in the "nice average" range.
• Silk plant bev: $2.88 1.74-1.89L - This is an excellent deal on Silk plant-based beverages! Usually these cost around $4-5, so under $3 is a steal.

Freshco (price matcher)

• Chicken breast (boneless skinless): $10.00 4-pack - Be careful with this chicken breast deal! The price per pound might be higher than advertised. Make sure to weigh the package before you buy it.
• Sweet peppers: $3.99 4-pack - This is an average price for sweet peppers. It's not a steal, but it's not a bad deal either.
• Hothouse tomatoes: $0.99/lb - This is a fantastic price on hothouse tomatoes! Stock up while they're on sale.
• Corn: $2.00 for 5 ears - This is an excellent deal on corn! At only 40 cents an ear, it's much cheaper than usual.
• Celery: $2.99 per head - This is an okay price for celery. Some places charge more for larger heads.
• Bok choy, Napa, Flat Cabbage: $0.99/lb - This is an amazing price for bok choy and napa cabbage, and a fair price for flat cabbage. I recently made a delicious bok choy salad, you should try it!
• Green onions: $0.99 per bunch - This has become the standard price for green onions.
• Ginger: $1.99/lb - This is a good price for ginger, which often costs around $3 a pound.
• Garlic: $1.29 5-pack - This is a nice deal on garlic!
• Asian pears: $1.88/lb: This is a good price for Asian pears, especially for a more unique fruit. You can find them even cheaper in season.
• Apples (Gala): $1.49/lb - This isn't a bad price for Gala apples, but it could be a little better. Ideally, you'd find them around $1.25 a pound.
• Brick cheese (Armstrong): $4.44 400g bar - This is a nice deal on brick cheese! You can get it for under $5.
• Silk Beverage, select varieties: $3.49 1.74-1.89L - This is a nice discount on Silk plant-based beverages! They're down from around $5 this week.

No Frills (price matcher)

• Chicken drumsticks: $1.87/lb - This is an okay price for chicken drumsticks. While I'd prefer whole legs at this price, it's still a fair deal.
• Atlantic Salmon: $9.77 per lb - This hits that sweet spot of around $10 per pound for salmon.
• Corn: $0.33 per ear - This is a fantastic price for corn! Stock up and enjoy some fresh summer corn.
• Potatoes (Red, Yellow, Russet): $4.99 10lb bag - This is a fair sale price for potatoes, especially considering they can easily cost over $7 these days.
• Blueberries: $1.99 full pint - Another great deal on blueberries!
• Pears (Bartlett): $0.88/lb - This is an awesome price for Bartlett pears!
• Milk (Neilson): $4.88 4L bagged - This is a great sale price on milk, considering the usual price is around $6-7.
• Canned tuna (Ocean's): $0.99 170g - Heads up! There seems to be some confusion in the flyer this week with multiple canned tuna options. This Ocean's brand is only 99 cents, but there's also a Clover Leaf and another Ocean's brand at different prices.

Real Canadian Superstore (price matcher)

• Beef sirloin tip roast or steaks: $4.99/lb - This is a great price on sirloin tip! It's not clear what grade the meat is, but the reviewer thinks a roast would be a better choice for a more tender result than steaks.
• Chicken breast (bone-in, skinless): $3.99/lb - This is a good price for bone-in, skinless chicken breasts. The reviewer actually prefers bone-in chicken because it adds flavor and moisture during cooking.
• Asparagus: $2.99/lb - This is a good price for asparagus, although it can sometimes go even lower.
• Mini cucumbers: $4.00 11-pack - This isn't the best deal on mini cucumbers. You're basically paying for an extra cucumber compared to the smaller packs that are on sale elsewhere.
• Sweet peppers: $3.50 4-pack - This is a great deal on sweet peppers!
• Vidalia onions: $5.99 3lb/bag - Cheaper At Farm Boy but I’m not impressed with the price.
• Potatoes (Imperfect): $6.00 15lb/bag - This is an excellent deal on imperfect potatoes!
• Grape tomatoes: $6.00 907g shell - This is a great price on grape tomatoes. The reviewer recommends freezing any extras you don't use right away and using them for stocks or soups.
• Strawberries: $3.98 2lb shell - This is a great deal on strawberries!
• Pineapple: $3.00/each - This is a good price for pineapple, although $2 is a better target price.
• Cantaloupe: $3.00/each - This is a decent price for cantaloupe, and it's not worth going out of your way to find a slightly cheaper one.
• Honeydew and Mini Watermelon: $4.99/each - These melons aren't a terrible price, but there are better deals out there.
• Brick cheese (No Name): $4.99 400g bar - This No Name brand brick cheese is a bit pricey at $5.
• Deli - Ziggy's Beef deli: $2.50 per 100g - This is a consistent price for decent quality deli meat from Ziggy's.
• Canned tomatoes (PC Blue Menu): $1.59 796ml can - This is a good price for canned tomatoes, although you can sometimes find them for a little cheaper.
• Flour (Robinhood, Five Roses): $11.99 10kg bag - The reviewer recommends keeping a 10kg bag of flour and some quick rise yeast on hand for making your own bread. It's a great skill to learn and can save you money in the long run.

Sobeys

• Chicken breast or thighs (boneless skinless, Compliments): $5.88/lb - This is a fairly typical price for boneless, skinless chicken breasts or thighs. It's not the cheapest we've seen, but it's still a decent price.
• Chicken breast or thighs (boneless skinless, no antibiotics, Compliments): $6.99 per lb - It's interesting that the antibiotic-free chicken is $1 more per pound. It would be good to see if this price difference is consistent across other stores and brands. An extra dollar for antibiotic-free doesn't seem like a bad deal.
• Beef brisket: $5.99/lb - This is a good price for AA grade beef brisket.
• Beef eye of round: $6.99/lb - This is a large cut of beef that can be versatile if you know how to cut it against the grain. You could easily get cubes, strips, and even marinating steaks out of this.
• Scallops: $21.99/lb - Scallops are usually a pricier item, and while I wouldn't normally recommend them at this price, Farm Boy's price is actually pretty good compared to others which can be as high as $32/lb. Here, you're basically paying $3 for 2 scallops.
• Cucumbers: $0.99/each - This is a good price for cucumbers, although it's not quite the best deal we've seen (some sales have them as low as 50 cents).
• Red vine tomatoes: $0.99/lb - This is a fantastic price for red vine tomatoes!
• Brick cheese (Compliments): $4.99 400g - The classic $5 brick cheese! This is a good price for Compliments brand brick cheese.

Walmart

• Whole chicken: $1.94/lb - This is a great price on whole chicken! It brings the price closer to what you'd pay for those pre-cooked chickens at other stores.
• Vine tomatoes: $1.94/lb - This isn't the best deal on vine tomatoes, we've seen them for under $1 a pound recently.
• Green peppers: $1.94/lb - This is a fair price for green peppers.
• Zucchini: $1.94/lb - The price for zucchini is a little high, but it's the same as most other stores this week.
• Eggplant: $1.94/lb - Similar to zucchini, the price is a little high, but in line with other stores.
• Green onion: $0.94 for 2 - This is a fantastic deal on green onions! They're usually around $1, so this is half price!
• Cilantro bunch: $0.94 for 2 - Wow, this is a great price for fresh cilantro! Bunches can vary in price, but this is a steal.
• Mango (Red or Ataulfo): $0.94 for 2 - This is an awesome price on mangoes! Stock up and make some delicious mango salsa!
• Brick cheese (Armstrong): $4.94 400g bar - This is the classic $5 brick cheese!
• Frozen veg (Great Value): $2.47 500-750g - Here's a reminder to keep an eye out for frozen vegetables at this price point. Frozen veggies like corn, peas, and string beans are a great value and often just as nutritious, if not more so, than fresh produce because they're frozen at their peak freshness.
• Olive oil (Sapurito): $11.94 1L bottle - This isn't a huge discount, but it's still 20% off the regular price, which is like getting one liter free when you buy four!
• Butter (Gay Lea): $4.94 454g bar - Butter is still expensive, but at least it's not $7-8 anymore.

Costco

• Previously Frozen Sockeye Salmon Fillet ( Wild):. $5.00 OFF
• Australian Rack Of Lamb: $5.00 OFF
• Mini Babybel Original: $13.49 - Save $3.50
• The Laughing Cow Cheese 535 g: $7.59 - Save $2.00
• Blackberries - Sweet Karoline 340g: $5.99 - Save $2.00
• Gain Cold Water Liquid Laundry Detergent with Oxi: $17.49 - Save $3.80
• Finish Quantum Ultimate Plus Dishwasher Detergent Pack of 96 tablets: $17.99 - Save $6.00
• Ecos Earth Friendly Liquid Laundry 225 Washloads : 16.99 - Save $5
• Purex Cold Water Ultra Concentrated Laundry Detergent 250 wash loads : 17.49 - Save $4.50
• Cashmere Premium 2-ply Bathroom Tissue 40-pack: 19.99 - Save $5
• Cascade Power Clean Dishwasher Detergent 115 ActionPacs : 18.49 - Save $4.50
• Finish Quantum Jet-Dry Ultra Rinse Agent 315 washes : $9.99 - Save $4.50
• OxiClean Max Efficiency Stain Remover 275 loads : $16.99 - Save $5.50
• Dawn Ultra Platinum Advanced Power Dishwashing Liquid 2.66 L : $10.99 - Save $3.00

P.S. Let me know if you find any other amazing deals at Costco – always happy to share the savings!
Same list on Google Drive https://docs.google.com/document/d/1NyO9pEeccnbhYv6_XL9gcvf7odkkGhRzClWs9g1hKhg/edit?usp=sharing

I have 3 oxy pills left from my tooth extraction and I want to know what would happen if I was to take all 3 and a bunch of shots? Would I die or would it just be a fun time? Last time I took 3 pills I was soooo sleepy and I wonder how it would react if I mixed liquor.

Hey
I graduated last year as an electrical engineer and life has given me some jabs here and their . I had a job in the electronics sector (embbeded hardware) which i hated . Got laid off due to some company financial problems. It took me 7 months since to find a job and i have been able to secure 2 of them and at a crossroads which one could be better in financial, security, life and career aspects. I can't fumble around either hence I'm looking for vetern electrical engineers to guide me which path to chose.
First company that i got secured in is a consultancy based in the UK that does substation designs , cable layouts , earthing and other aspects with respect to the DNO/IDNO requirements. Alot of power distribution planning is required and the work is kinda fun . As I'm not in the UK i some experience here could land me a job somewhere in the future in the UK with UK power networks or northern power grid if i have a good grip on the job
Second job i got selected for is an oil refinery with a year of training program . I have previously done an internship here and loved it . It involved broadly understanding process, doing Corrective and preventive maintenance, understanding work to permit , instrumentation drawings PNiD diagrams and SAP system. The field work was amazing as well. This might perhaps be one of the biggest refinery's in my country.
Which one should I go for . I enjoy both equally but my ultimate goal is to make good amount of money and be able to move out of my country as their is literally no future here it's terrible and everyones main objective is to leave as soon as possible . In my eyes and i could be naive . I could work with the power one and could get a masters after a year or two and would most like secure a job in the UK DNO . On the other side i could complete training with the refinery and get hired as a engineer and move out to Aramco or aim for Chevron or Oxy as a instrumention and maintenance engineer. Maybe get a masters in process control somewhere along the way.
Which one is more lucrative direction to take please help 😂 (work life balance, money, future,peace) 🙏

So last night I had two different dreams.
The first one was where I saw a old friend of mine and we were catching up and he ended up pulling out a bag of all these different pills and gave them to me. I went home, went to my room and pulled it out. There was xanax, adderall, oxys, percs a couple other i didnt recognize and a bag of smack. I started off with the pills until I got bored and didnt have anything else so I started sniffing the H. After that I left and came back to my room trying to get high again but I used all my drugs I tore up my room looking for another pill or a drop to use but then I woke up.
I went back to sleep to have another dream where Im back at school. This has been a repeating dream for the last month. I was a quiet kid in school, mostly only talking to people to talked to me, something I always regretted. We were outside at my old elementary school and playing basketball, it was pretty fun then we went back to class and just talked, I saw somebody give a old classmate of mine I didnt like a cigarette and I asked him for one, I slipped it in my pocket but the teacher saw me cause I wasn’t fast enough, he didnt saw anything just gave me a look and that’ how it ended.
I’m going through a hard time trying to find a new job and deal with my anxiety that makes it hard to function on a daily basis. I think these dreams probably have a message to help me but I don’t know exactly what they mean

Im still learning the game so I know a little bit about the game but not sure what to spend my mush on. I already own kavo, kora, golg, ghar, oxy, and arachyu, I did have a boreal but wasn't really my favorite to play so sold it. Currently have 25k mush so any suggestions?
Edit: Thanks to everyone that's given suggestions so far, nice to see what opinions are out there about what's good for pvp and what's just fun to play as

Morgan, and THT fam, no one else has offered any advice. So I’m finally posting here. Please be kind. It’s a lot going on right now. I’m looking for constructive advice.
I posted this initially in Infidelity subs because that’s what this ended up starting as.
Here’s some info for the shorthand: WS(Wayward spouse - the person leaving or cheating)
AP(Affair Partner)
Just really looking for outside perspective. Now to the story.
I’m really unsure how to move forward.
My WS, B(f41) and I(m36) are currently taking it day by day. Know each other for 14 years, together and dating for 9, 8 years married. 12 years since we had our first kid.
Some back story, obviously there were issues in the marriage. Some I thought I was working on or making progress on. Others I was stagnant on.
We had 1 separation prior to this. It was the culmination of trying to have an open marriage and B falling for her partner, and me being me.
We got back together about a year and a half later, and have been together since(2021).
I thought we were moving forward until an ex gf of hers came back into her life. The ex turns into the AP.
So now I’m 2024 I think we’re doing okay. Rocky in some areas but okay. I was wrong. AP texted B in early Feb saying AP’s sister had died, someone who B had once been close too. AP and B would go out and I would be irritated or annoyed because AP also has a partner. I didn’t understand why APs partner couldn’t support her, why it needed to be my wife, when she’s(AP) an ex. It just made me uncomfortable and I let that boil over and accused her of stuff. She says nothing happened before 3/24 but I’ve found things that contradict that. That she may have actually cheated before they slept together after she asked to leave.
Long story short, APs sister had died but they were also talking about getting back together and how horrible and controlling I am etc. while also being physical. Kissing. Staying out late. Sexting. With AP and trying to tell me nothing was going on.
Now I won’t deny and say I haven’t been a shitty husband. I have been. Even currently up to Feb, I was slacking. I was okay pretending I was making an effort. Doing 1 small step to her 10.
Likewise I was dismissive over the years and never really “heard her” until this whole situation happened.
So they start hanging out more and more and suddenly she wants a divorce and wants to go out with AP every other day. Planning a life. Looking at apartments. Etc.
There’s a few things wrong with this: AP has openly stated she doesn’t like kids. We have 3. AP has openly stated she doesn’t like most pets. We have several. AP is a drug addict. Her drug of choice are narcotics, Vicodin and Oxy. She says it’s for her chronic pain on which, her prescription of Tramadol does nothing. So she “supplements” by buying illegally (supposedly only from family friend).
Anyways, 3/29 I found a photo of the drug use(a text from AP to B that was a tin of pills. There were 8/9 Vicodin and 3 Oxycodone), sent to B, saying she has one to give her too. B is a recovering addict. 13 years clean. Almost accepted. Said “You’re so good to me.”
B and AP try to play off the drug use as pain and pain management clinics not being helpful. Which I can’t speak to. I don’t have chronic pain. So I spoke with Law Enforcement, showed them what I was worried about and asked about an Order for Protection/Investigation. I did this before confronting her or before asking her about it. I wanted to be sure that if things went sideways I had a plan in place to protect myself. So I couldn’t be blamed for the drug use. Etc.
Confront her. Ask her. She flies off the handle and turns it around on me. Saying that it’s my fault and that I went through her iPad. (She changed her passcode well before this so I don’t have it. She left it unlocked and it was one of the first messages I saw that evening.) and that I should’ve come to her first.
Fast forward and we’re planning the divorce (income split, kind of an idea what we need to do moving forward, etc) and I’m saying that because of what I found, I’m not willing to let AP be around the kids until she can pass a UA and is sober for at least a year. I’d like that in the divorce decree. At this point we had been working together and I hadn’t moved on the OFP. I had been transparent.
Which leads us to the issue. She wasn’t. She was telling AP basically that we’d be divorced and she’d be good. Once I told B, that this was going to happen, either through the courts or through us agreeing on something, but it wasn’t something I was going to move on.
She said I was threatening her and forcing her to do what I say. I said only in this regard. Move. Leave. Here’s a list of items you’ll have to pay for, Etc. but I’m trying to keep my kids safe, and that means not being around someone currently abusing narcotics.
Then she says I shouldn’t worry about the kids because she’s their mom and she’ll take care of them. And that I’m an asshole for even suggesting she would jeopardize them.
She called the cops. Told them I was controlling and threatening and intimidating. They came. I showed them everything I had, told them my concerns, expressed what I said to her. They said it seemed like I was doing everything right. Tho they advised I file the OFP and turn over names and dates etc.
They told B, at the end, that because of her job and the kids that she “needed to stop fucking around with this shit.”
Well I guess that may have struck something in her because she said she’s done with AP. Tho she has still been talking to AP, AP found out what happened and has been going pretty low contact. Often leaving B on read. I know this because B has shown me their messages because she wants me to know I can trust her. Including through today.
She admitted the night the cops came that she had actively been lying to me. That she had orchestrated a text message convo to look like I was going to be getting what I wanted (something previously both she and AP had been against, a drug test).
So she admitted to lying about that. To deleting shit. To gas lighting me. This isn’t something she’s ever done before. Admitted to lying to me. Even when she’s been caught mid-lie. It’s always been dismissed or played off. This is the first time she’s actually been honest with me. And since then she and AP have had low contact.
She’s told me she doesn’t know now if we’re separated or going to divorce. That she wants to take it day by day. She says that if in the coming months, the changes I’m making to myself stick, and things get better, that she may stay. I’m unsure how to feel about this. We have 3 kids. I love her more than anything. But? I don’t think she would be so cold that she’d use me until she and her AP could be together.
On that note. She and AP are talking still, but everything has been platonic. She’s shown me her messages and I know she hasn’t deleted anything. We even spoke today and she admitted that sometimes she slips up and says “I love you” or whatever. But that’s because of how quickly she let her walls down. Let AP back into her life. That hurts. You know. Because I feel even now taking it day by day, I’m not being chosen. I’m an option. Yet the fact she’s still here, being engaged, etc. It can’t be an act right? I mean it could but I don’t imagine she would with how serious I am about the kids and having things documented.
I’m in therapy now. I’m on new meds for my anxiety. I’m seeing another Dr. to hopefully get a diagnosis of ASD or something so I can learn to interact more appropriately with her and my peers. I’m listening to her. Actively. Keeping in mind that words are not always words and I should look at the context and possible emotional context in the words. That’s been difficult but I’m learning that sometimes when she says that she’s broken, it’s because she wants a hug or physical comfort. I shouldn’t need to ask if she wants one or what I can do to comfort her. I am trying to listen more and act versus asking questions and then acting on the answers.
She felt she was always needing to tell me what to do or say. it’s been a sticking point in our marriage at times. Even though I am truly unsure at times what the appropriate course of action is. Hence being in therapy now.
We’ve slept together 3 times this month. Which is crazy because before it was once every few months. If at all. I think that’s a good sign?
I’m trying to help more around the house. Did a deep clean and threw a bunch of shit away. I’m committed to this change. To being better for her but also for me.
But I also don’t know if she’s doing this just to appease me. She’s said thank you. She’s slept with me. She’s more talkative and engaged with me. More fun like we used to have. But on the flip side she had no where else to go. No backup plan. She just started working FT but she doesn’t think she’ll be able to afford anything on her own.
I’m not sure where I stand. Or if I should take it day by day. I know I say I want to be with her and I think, I know that’s true. Even if I don’t want to admit I may lose her, act like I’m okay taking it day by day, the thought of her not being in my life as my partner, is terrifying and sad. So I know, if she asks to reconcile, I will. Because I love her. Because I know that while I’m not responsible for her cheating or lying etc, I’m responsible for the way I behaved and acted.
Idk if we can’t survive this. I love her more than anything. Even now I love her. I don’t want to lose her. Still I don’t think I should have to be a choice. I understand how it came about, and I understand she was or maybe is even now, ready to walk, and I’m just being delusional.
Yet she’s trying. Or appears to be. (This is what’s so hard for me).
I guess on paper it looks like we should divorce. My mother says so. My therapist says I should consider it.
Yet it seems like there may be something here worth trying for. The things I’m doing around the home and for the kids seem to make her happier. To see I’m trying to be consistent. She says it’s helped taken the pressure off her. That in our talks she’s happy I finally acknowledged things. Apologized for things. Actually listened and agreed with her. She’s appreciated that.
My therapist says whatever I do I should do for me. My counter was a lot of the stuff we’re doing now (splitting income by % earned, me actively cleaning every night with her, laundry, etc) is not something I’ve done or we’ve done before. Nor have I made any moves on therapy until recently, or to control my MH more.
So if I/we try this and still fail? Sure. It’s doomed, but at least I can say I took all the steps I, me, the Betrayed, to fix myself for myself but also for my marriage and my family. But this seems like it’ll have a shot. Like it could work. If you’ve made it this far thank you. ANY advice would be welcome.
It’s a fluffin’ mess. I know that. But any advice. Thanks.
~Ish

After the joyous day of bag bird viewing and playing on my suddenly very cool and interesting phone interface things went a bit haywire. I slept only a few minutes before being woken into an initiation in my bedroom and then a 6 hour VERY upsetting hallucinations that led me to do fun things like home-alone style my house and hide with a broom with every in home attack spliced with unspeakable human cruelty and suicides. When it ended the the tree outside my window was full of them smiling sr how well I had done and begging me to come take a pic and I was like awww no that’s your time and they begged me to pass them my cats. And then me.
I didn’t but….. ugh it gives me shudders to think I almost did. I almost dropped my pets out my window at the behest of these creatures.
Needless to say I went to the hospital immediately. I’d actually done a good job at home with it but still. Here indefinitely in the imcu just getting oxy and Ativan. But they’re mostly keeping me for the hallucinations.
So my update is don’t tough it up at home. Ever.
And my question is has anyone had these kind of fuuuuuull body and world hallucinations and made it through the other side? How long does it take!

Mildly interesting fact: I just sold my Octatrack which I was mostly using as the sequencer for my DAWless rig. Why: I didn't like the fact MIDI Program Change cannot be easily linked to a pattern. And also 8 tracks is a bit tight.
Now I'm considering amongst all the possibilities for MIDI sequencers, but it is a though choice, as -unlike synthesizers- it is a central piece of the setup that has to stay for a long.

Model	# MIDI Tracks	PC, MSB/LSB	Pros	Cons
Squarp Instruments Hapax	16	✓ ✓	fully fledged MIDI sequencer, designed only for this task; lots of features; display; midi effects; big pads grid; MPE; automation editing	price
Elektron Digitakt 2	16	✓ ✓	nice small form factor; display; a bit of generative MIDI; MIDI CC# labeling	trigs wrapped on two rows of 8
Elektron Syntakt	12	✓ ✓
Squarp Instruments Pyramid	32	✓ ✓	fully fledged like the Hapax	DISCONTINUED
Elektron Octatrack	8	✓ ✓	Elektron-style sequencer if that is your thing	PC/MSB/LSB not linked to pattern
Synthstrom Audible Deluge 3	∞	✓ ✓	big RGB grid of pads; automation; community firmware!	lack of graphical display;
OXI One	4 sequencers x (8 mono OR 1 poly track)	sort of?	advanced sequencing features
Polyend Play	8		some sort of MIDI CC# labeling	not exactly thought for MIDI; MIDI track parameters don't match the labels and have to remembered
Arturia KeyStep Pro	4	✓ ✓	simple to use	too simple? no MIDI CC recording from ext gear
Arturia BeatStep Pro	3
Korg SQ-64	3 poly + 16 mono
Roland MC-707	8	✓ ✓
Roland MC-101	4	✓ ✓
Akai MPC 1000 / Live / One	100?		powerful	not a fun workflow some said
Ableton Push 3 standalone
Yamaha QY700
Toraiz Squid
Midiphy Seq v4
Torso Electronics T-1	16	?	algorithmic sequencer; step sequencing
Sequentix Cirklon
Dirtywave M8
Teenage Engineering EP-133 K.O. II
Polyend Tracker
Novation LaunchPad Pro mk3	4		chord mode	no display
Native Instruments Maschine mk3 / Maschine+	16 (x64)
1010music Blackbox
Novation SL MK3			quickly and easily layering different synths, and creating keyboard splits	32 step limit (and to go longer you have to pattern chain)
Yamaha RM1X	16

Which MIDI sequencer do you use / would you choose and why?
Which features are important to you?
I can't decide between Hapax / Digitakt II / Push 3.

Reddit (repost with additional details in spots, trying this sub too)
WS(Wayward spouse - the person leaving or cheating)
AP(Affair Partner)
Just really looking for outside perspective and trying all the relevant subs.
I’m really unsure how to move forward.
My WS, B(f41) and I(m36) are currently taking it day by day. Know each other for 14 years, together and dating for 9, 8 years married. 12 years since we had our first kid.
Some back story, obviously there were issues in the marriage. Some I thought I was working on or making progress on. Others I was stagnant on.
We had 1 separation prior to this. It was the culmination of trying to have an open marriage and B falling for her partner, and me being me.
We got back together about a year and a half later, and have been together since(2021).
I thought we were moving forward until an ex gf of hers came back into her life. The ex turns into the AP.
So now I’m 2024 I think we’re doing okay. Rocky in some areas but okay. I was wrong. AP texted B in early Feb saying AP’s sister had died, someone who B had once been close too. AP and B would go out and I would be irritated or annoyed because AP also has a partner. I didn’t understand why APs partner couldn’t support her, why it needed to be my wife, when she’s(AP) an ex. It just made me uncomfortable and I let that boil over and accused her of stuff. She says nothing happened before 3/24 but I’ve found things that contradict that. That she may have actually cheated before they slept together after she asked to leave.
Long story short, APs sister had died but they were also talking about getting back together and how horrible and controlling I am etc. while also being physical. Kissing. Staying out late. Sexting. With AP and trying to tell me nothing was going on.
Now I won’t deny and say I haven’t been a shitty husband. I have been. Even currently up to Feb, I was slacking. I was okay pretending I was making an effort. Doing 1 small step to her 10.
Likewise I was dismissive over the years and never really “heard her” until this whole situation happened.
So they start hanging out more and more and suddenly she wants a divorce and wants to go out with AP every other day. Planning a life. Looking at apartments. Etc.
There’s a few things wrong with this: AP has openly stated she doesn’t like kids. We have 3. AP has openly stated she doesn’t like most pets. We have several. AP is a drug addict. Her drug of choice are narcotics, Vicodin and Oxy. She says it’s for her chronic pain on which, her prescription of Tramadol does nothing. So she “supplements” by buying illegally (supposedly only from family friend).
Anyways, 3/29 I found a photo of the drug use(a text from AP to B that was a tin of pills. There were 8/9 Vicodin and 3 Oxycodone), sent to B, saying she has one to give her too. B is a recovering addict. 13 years clean. Almost accepted. Said “You’re so good to me.”
B and AP try to play off the drug use as pain and pain management clinics not being helpful. Which I can’t speak to. I don’t have chronic pain. So I spoke with Law Enforcement, showed them what I was worried about and asked about an Order for Protection/Investigation. I did this before confronting her or before asking her about it. I wanted to be sure that if things went sideways I had a plan in place to protect myself. So I couldn’t be blamed for the drug use. Etc.
Confront her. Ask her. She flies off the handle and turns it around on me. Saying that it’s my fault and that I went through her iPad. (She changed her passcode well before this so I don’t have it. She left it unlocked and it was one of the first messages I saw that evening.) and that I should’ve come to her first.
Fast forward and we’re planning the divorce (income split, kind of an idea what we need to do moving forward, etc) and I’m saying that because of what I found, I’m not willing to let AP be around the kids until she can pass a UA and is sober for at least a year. I’d like that in the divorce decree. At this point we had been working together and I hadn’t moved on the OFP. I had been transparent.
Which leads us to the issue. She wasn’t. She was telling AP basically that we’d be divorced and she’d be good. Once I told B, that this was going to happen, either through the courts or through us agreeing on something, but it wasn’t something I was going to move on.
She said I was threatening her and forcing her to do what I say. I said only in this regard. Move. Leave. Here’s a list of items you’ll have to pay for, Etc. but I’m trying to keep my kids safe, and that means not being around someone currently abusing narcotics.
Then she says I shouldn’t worry about the kids because she’s their mom and she’ll take care of them. And that I’m an asshole for even suggesting she would jeopardize them.
She called the cops. Told them I was controlling and threatening and intimidating. They came. I showed them everything I had, told them my concerns, expressed what I said to her. They said it seemed like I was doing everything right. Tho they advised I file the OFP and turn over names and dates etc.
They told B, at the end, that because of her job and the kids that she “needed to stop fucking around with this shit.”
Well I guess that may have struck something in her because she said she’s done with AP. Tho she has still been talking to AP, AP found out what happened and has been going pretty low contact. Often leaving B on read. I know this because B has shown me their messages because she wants me to know I can trust her. Including through today.
She admitted the night the cops came that she had actively been lying to me. That she had orchestrated a text message convo to look like I was going to be getting what I wanted (something previously both she and AP had been against, a drug test).
So she admitted to lying about that. To deleting shit. To gas lighting me. This isn’t something she’s ever done before. Admitted to lying to me. Even when she’s been caught mid-lie. It’s always been dismissed or played off. This is the first time she’s actually been honest with me. And since then she and AP have had low contact.
She’s told me she doesn’t know now if we’re separated or going to divorce. That she wants to take it day by day. She says that if in the coming months, the changes I’m making to myself stick, and things get better, that she may stay. I’m unsure how to feel about this. We have 3 kids. I love her more than anything. But? I don’t think she would be so cold that she’d use me until she and her AP could be together.
On that note. She and AP are talking still, but everything has been platonic. She’s shown me her messages and I know she hasn’t deleted anything. We even spoke today and she admitted that sometimes she slips up and says “I love you” or whatever. But that’s because of how quickly she let her walls down. Let AP back into her life. That hurts. You know. Because I feel even now taking it day by day, I’m not being chosen. I’m an option. Yet the fact she’s still here, being engaged, etc. It can’t be an act right? I mean it could but I don’t imagine she would with how serious I am about the kids and having things documented.
I’m in therapy now. I’m on new meds for my anxiety. I’m seeing another Dr. to hopefully get a diagnosis of ASD or something so I can learn to interact more appropriately with her and my peers. I’m listening to her. Actively. Keeping in mind that words are not always words and I should look at the context and possible emotional context in the words. That’s been difficult but I’m learning that sometimes when she says that she’s broken, it’s because she wants a hug or physical comfort. I shouldn’t need to ask if she wants one or what I can do to comfort her. I am trying to listen more and act versus asking questions and then acting on the answers.
She felt she was always needing to tell me what to do or say. it’s been a sticking point in our marriage at times. Even though I am truly unsure at times what the appropriate course of action is. Hence being in therapy now.
We’ve slept together 3 times this month. Which is crazy because before it was once every few months. If at all. I think that’s a good sign?
I’m trying to help more around the house. Did a deep clean and threw a bunch of shit away. I’m committed to this change. To being better for her but also for me.
But I also don’t know if she’s doing this just to appease me. She’s said thank you. She’s slept with me. She’s more talkative and engaged with me. More fun like we used to have. But on the flip side she had no where else to go. No backup plan. She just started working FT but she doesn’t think she’ll be able to afford anything on her own.
I’m not sure where I stand. Or if I should take it day by day. I know I say I want to be with her and I think, I know that’s true. Even if I don’t want to admit I may lose her, act like I’m okay taking it day by day, the thought of her not being in my life as my partner, is terrifying and sad. So I know, if she asks to reconcile, I will. Because I love her. Because I know that while I’m not responsible for her cheating or lying etc, I’m responsible for the way I behaved and acted.
Idk if we can’t survive this. I love her more than anything. Even now I love her. I don’t want to lose her. Still I don’t think I should have to be a choice. I understand how it came about, and I understand she was or maybe is even now, ready to walk, and I’m just being delusional.
Yet she’s trying. Or appears to be. (This is what’s so hard for me).
I guess on paper it looks like we should divorce. My mother says so. My therapist says I should consider it.
Yet it seems like there may be something here worth trying for. The things I’m doing around the home and for the kids seem to make her happier. To see I’m trying to be consistent. She says it’s helped taken the pressure off her. That in our talks she’s happy I finally acknowledged things. Apologized for things. Actually listened and agreed with her. She’s appreciated that.
My therapist says whatever I do I should do for me. My counter was a lot of the stuff we’re doing now (splitting income by % earned, me actively cleaning every night with her, laundry, etc) is not something I’ve done or we’ve done before. Nor have I made any moves on therapy until recently, or to control my MH more.
So if I/we try this and still fail? Sure. It’s doomed, but at least I can say I took all the steps I, me, the Betrayed, to fix myself for myself but also for my marriage and my family. But this seems like it’ll have a shot. Like it could work. If you’ve made it this far thank you. ANY advice would be welcome.
It’s a fluffin’ mess. I know that. But any advice. Thanks.
~Ish

Reddit (repost with additional details in spots, trying this sub too)
I’m really unsure how to move forward.
My WS, B(f41) and I(m36) are currently taking it day by day. Know each other for 14 years, together and dating for 9, 8 years married. 12 years since we had our first kid.
Some back story, obviously there were issues in the marriage. Some I thought I was working on or making progress on. Others I was stagnant on.
We had 1 separation prior to this. It was the culmination of trying to have an open marriage and B falling for her partner, and me being me.
We got back together about a year and a half later, and have been together since(2021).
I thought we were moving forward until an ex gf of hers came back into her life. The ex turns into the AP.
So now I’m 2024 I think we’re doing okay. Rocky in some areas but okay. I was wrong. AP texted B in early Feb saying AP’s sister had died, someone who B had once been close too. AP and B would go out and I would be irritated or annoyed because AP also has a partner. I didn’t understand why APs partner couldn’t support her, why it needed to be my wife, when she’s(AP) an ex. It just made me uncomfortable and I let that boil over and accused her of stuff. She says nothing happened before 3/24 but I’ve found things that contradict that. That she may have actually cheated before they slept together after she asked to leave.
Long story short, APs sister had died but they were also talking about getting back together and how horrible and controlling I am etc. while also being physical. Kissing. Staying out late. Sexting. With AP and trying to tell me nothing was going on.
Now I won’t deny and say I haven’t been a shitty husband. I have been. Even currently up to Feb, I was slacking. I was okay pretending I was making an effort. Doing 1 small step to her 10.
Likewise I was dismissive over the years and never really “heard her” until this whole situation happened.
So they start hanging out more and more and suddenly she wants a divorce and wants to go out with AP every other day. Planning a life. Looking at apartments. Etc.
There’s a few things wrong with this: AP has openly stated she doesn’t like kids. We have 3. AP has openly stated she doesn’t like most pets. We have several. AP is a drug addict. Her drug of choice are narcotics, Vicodin and Oxy. She says it’s for her chronic pain on which, her prescription of Tramadol does nothing. So she “supplements” by buying illegally (supposedly only from family friend).
Anyways, 3/29 I found a photo of the drug use(a text from AP to B that was a tin of pills. There were 8/9 Vicodin and 3 Oxycodone), sent to B, saying she has one to give her too. B is a recovering addict. 13 years clean. Almost accepted. Said “You’re so good to me.”
B and AP try to play off the drug use as pain and pain management clinics not being helpful. Which I can’t speak to. I don’t have chronic pain. So I spoke with Law Enforcement, showed them what I was worried about and asked about an Order for Protection/Investigation. I did this before confronting her or before asking her about it. I wanted to be sure that if things went sideways I had a plan in place to protect myself. So I couldn’t be blamed for the drug use. Etc.
Confront her. Ask her. She flies off the handle and turns it around on me. Saying that it’s my fault and that I went through her iPad. (She changed her passcode well before this so I don’t have it. She left it unlocked and it was one of the first messages I saw that evening.) and that I should’ve come to her first.
Fast forward and we’re planning the divorce (income split, kind of an idea what we need to do moving forward, etc) and I’m saying that because of what I found, I’m not willing to let AP be around the kids until she can pass a UA and is sober for at least a year. I’d like that in the divorce decree. At this point we had been working together and I hadn’t moved on the OFP. I had been transparent.
Which leads us to the issue. She wasn’t. She was telling AP basically that we’d be divorced and she’d be good. Once I told B, that this was going to happen, either through the courts or through us agreeing on something, but it wasn’t something I was going to move on.
She said I was threatening her and forcing her to do what I say. I said only in this regard. Move. Leave. Here’s a list of items you’ll have to pay for, Etc. but I’m trying to keep my kids safe, and that means not being around someone currently abusing narcotics.
Then she says I shouldn’t worry about the kids because she’s their mom and she’ll take care of them. And that I’m an asshole for even suggesting she would jeopardize them.
She called the cops. Told them I was controlling and threatening and intimidating. They came. I showed them everything I had, told them my concerns, expressed what I said to her. They said it seemed like I was doing everything right. Tho they advised I file the OFP and turn over names and dates etc.
They told B, at the end, that because of her job and the kids that she “needed to stop fucking around with this shit.”
Well I guess that may have struck something in her because she said she’s done with AP. Tho she has still been talking to AP, AP found out what happened and has been going pretty low contact. Often leaving B on read. I know this because B has shown me their messages because she wants me to know I can trust her. Including through today.
She admitted the night the cops came that she had actively been lying to me. That she had orchestrated a text message convo to look like I was going to be getting what I wanted (something previously both she and AP had been against, a drug test).
So she admitted to lying about that. To deleting shit. To gas lighting me. This isn’t something she’s ever done before. Admitted to lying to me. Even when she’s been caught mid-lie. It’s always been dismissed or played off. This is the first time she’s actually been honest with me. And since then she and AP have had low contact.
She’s told me she doesn’t know now if we’re separated or going to divorce. That she wants to take it day by day. She says that if in the coming months, the changes I’m making to myself stick, and things get better, that she may stay. I’m unsure how to feel about this. We have 3 kids. I love her more than anything. But? I don’t think she would be so cold that she’d use me until she and her AP could be together.
On that note. She and AP are talking still, but everything has been platonic. She’s shown me her messages and I know she hasn’t deleted anything. We even spoke today and she admitted that sometimes she slips up and says “I love you” or whatever. But that’s because of how quickly she let her walls down. Let AP back into her life. That hurts. You know. Because I feel even now taking it day by day, I’m not being chosen. I’m an option. Yet the fact she’s still here, being engaged, etc. It can’t be an act right? I mean it could but I don’t imagine she would with how serious I am about the kids and having things documented.
I’m in therapy now. I’m on new meds for my anxiety. I’m seeing another Dr. to hopefully get a diagnosis of ASD or something so I can learn to interact more appropriately with her and my peers. I’m listening to her. Actively. Keeping in mind that words are not always words and I should look at the context and possible emotional context in the words. That’s been difficult but I’m learning that sometimes when she says that she’s broken, it’s because she wants a hug or physical comfort. I shouldn’t need to ask if she wants one or what I can do to comfort her. I am trying to listen more and act versus asking questions and then acting on the answers.
She felt she was always needing to tell me what to do or say. it’s been a sticking point in our marriage at times. Even though I am truly unsure at times what the appropriate course of action is. Hence being in therapy now.
We’ve slept together 3 times this month. Which is crazy because before it was once every few months. If at all. I think that’s a good sign?
I’m trying to help more around the house. Did a deep clean and threw a bunch of shit away. I’m committed to this change. To being better for her but also for me.
But I also don’t know if she’s doing this just to appease me. She’s said thank you. She’s slept with me. She’s more talkative and engaged with me. More fun like we used to have. But on the flip side she had no where else to go. No backup plan. She just started working FT but she doesn’t think she’ll be able to afford anything on her own.
I’m not sure where I stand. Or if I should take it day by day. I know I say I want to be with her and I think, I know that’s true. Even if I don’t want to admit I may lose her, act like I’m okay taking it day by day, the thought of her not being in my life as my partner, is terrifying and sad. So I know, if she asks to reconcile, I will. Because I love her. Because I know that while I’m not responsible for her cheating or lying etc, I’m responsible for the way I behaved and acted.
Idk if we can’t survive this. I love her more than anything. Even now I love her. I don’t want to lose her. Still I don’t think I should have to be a choice. I understand how it came about, and I understand she was or maybe is even now, ready to walk, and I’m just being delusional.
Yet she’s trying. Or appears to be. (This is what’s so hard for me).
I guess on paper it looks like we should divorce. My mother says so. My therapist says I should consider it.
Yet it seems like there may be something here worth trying for. The things I’m doing around the home and for the kids seem to make her happier. To see I’m trying to be consistent. She says it’s helped taken the pressure off her. That in our talks she’s happy I finally acknowledged things. Apologized for things. Actually listened and agreed with her. She’s appreciated that.
My therapist says whatever I do I should do for me. My counter was a lot of the stuff we’re doing now (splitting income by % earned, me actively cleaning every night with her, laundry, etc) is not something I’ve done or we’ve done before. Nor have I made any moves on therapy until recently, or to control my MH more.
So if I/we try this and still fail? Sure. It’s doomed, but at least I can say I took all the steps I, me, the Betrayed, to fix myself for myself but also for my marriage and my family. But this seems like it’ll have a shot. Like it could work. If you’ve made it this far thank you. ANY advice would be welcome.
It’s a fluffin’ mess. I know that. But any advice. Thanks.
~Ish

Reddit (repost with additional details in spots)
I’m really unsure how to move forward.
My WS, B(f41) and I(m36) are currently taking it day by day. Know each other for 14 years, together and dating for 9, 8 years married. 12 years since we had our first kid.
Some back story, obviously there were issues in the marriage. Some I thought I was working on or making progress on. Others I was stagnant on.
We had 1 separation prior to this. It was the culmination of trying to have an open marriage and B falling for her partner, and me being me.
We got back together about a year and a half later, and have been together since(2021).
I thought we were moving forward until an ex gf of hers came back into her life. The ex turns into the AP.
So now I’m 2024 I think we’re doing okay. Rocky in some areas but okay. I was wrong. AP texted B in early Feb saying AP’s sister had died, someone who B had once been close too. AP and B would go out and I would be irritated or annoyed because AP also has a partner. I didn’t understand why APs partner couldn’t support her, why it needed to be my wife, when she’s(AP) an ex. It just made me uncomfortable and I let that boil over and accused her of stuff. She says nothing happened before 3/24 but I’ve found things that contradict that. That she may have actually cheated before they slept together after she asked to leave.
Long story short, APs sister had died but they were also talking about getting back together and how horrible and controlling I am etc. while also being physical. Kissing. Staying out late. Sexting. With AP and trying to tell me nothing was going on.
Now I won’t deny and say I haven’t been a shitty husband. I have been. Even currently up to Feb, I was slacking. I was okay pretending I was making an effort. Doing 1 small step to her 10.
Likewise I was dismissive over the years and never really “heard her” until this whole situation happened.
So they start hanging out more and more and suddenly she wants a divorce and wants to go out with AP every other day. Planning a life. Looking at apartments. Etc.
There’s a few things wrong with this: AP has openly stated she doesn’t like kids. We have 3. AP has openly stated she doesn’t like most pets. We have several. AP is a drug addict. Her drug of choice are narcotics, Vicodin and Oxy. She says it’s for her chronic pain on which, her prescription of Tramadol does nothing. So she “supplements” by buying illegally (supposedly only from family friend).
Anyways, 3/29 I found a photo of the drug use(a text from AP to B that was a tin of pills. There were 8/9 Vicodin and 3 Oxycodone), sent to B, saying she has one to give her too. B is a recovering addict. 13 years clean. Almost accepted. Said “You’re so good to me.”
B and AP try to play off the drug use as pain and pain management clinics not being helpful. Which I can’t speak to. I don’t have chronic pain. So I spoke with Law Enforcement, showed them what I was worried about and asked about an Order for Protection/Investigation. I did this before confronting her or before asking her about it. I wanted to be sure that if things went sideways I had a plan in place to protect myself. So I couldn’t be blamed for the drug use. Etc.
Confront her. Ask her. She flies off the handle and turns it around on me. Saying that it’s my fault and that I went through her iPad. (She changed her passcode well before this so I don’t have it. She left it unlocked and it was one of the first messages I saw that evening.) and that I should’ve come to her first.
Fast forward and we’re planning the divorce (income split, kind of an idea what we need to do moving forward, etc) and I’m saying that because of what I found, I’m not willing to let AP be around the kids until she can pass a UA and is sober for at least a year. I’d like that in the divorce decree. At this point we had been working together and I hadn’t moved on the OFP. I had been transparent.
Which leads us to the issue. She wasn’t. She was telling AP basically that we’d be divorced and she’d be good. Once I told B, that this was going to happen, either through the courts or through us agreeing on something, but it wasn’t something I was going to move on.
She said I was threatening her and forcing her to do what I say. I said only in this regard. Move. Leave. Here’s a list of items you’ll have to pay for, Etc. but I’m trying to keep my kids safe, and that means not being around someone currently abusing narcotics.
Then she says I shouldn’t worry about the kids because she’s their mom and she’ll take care of them. And that I’m an asshole for even suggesting she would jeopardize them.
She called the cops. Told them I was controlling and threatening and intimidating. They came. I showed them everything I had, told them my concerns, expressed what I said to her. They said it seemed like I was doing everything right. Tho they advised I file the OFP and turn over names and dates etc.
They told B, at the end, that because of her job and the kids that she “needed to stop fucking around with this shit.”
Well I guess that may have struck something in her because she said she’s done with AP. Tho she has still been talking to AP, AP found out what happened and has been going pretty low contact. Often leaving B on read. I know this because B has shown me their messages because she wants me to know I can trust her. Including through today.
She admitted the night the cops came that she had actively been lying to me. That she had orchestrated a text message convo to look like I was going to be getting what I wanted (something previously both she and AP had been against, a drug test).
So she admitted to lying about that. To deleting shit. To gas lighting me. This isn’t something she’s ever done before. Admitted to lying to me. Even when she’s been caught mid-lie. It’s always been dismissed or played off. This is the first time she’s actually been honest with me. And since then she and AP have had low contact.
She’s told me she doesn’t know now if we’re separated or going to divorce. That she wants to take it day by day. She says that if in the coming months, the changes I’m making to myself stick, and things get better, that she may stay. I’m unsure how to feel about this. We have 3 kids. I love her more than anything. But? I don’t think she would be so cold that she’d use me until she and her AP could be together.
On that note. She and AP are talking still, but everything has been platonic. She’s shown me her messages and I know she hasn’t deleted anything. We even spoke today and she admitted that sometimes she slips up and says “I love you” or whatever. But that’s because of how quickly she let her walls down. Let AP back into her life. That hurts. You know. Because I feel even now taking it day by day, I’m not being chosen. I’m an option. Yet the fact she’s still here, being engaged, etc. It can’t be an act right? I mean it could but I don’t imagine she would with how serious I am about the kids and having things documented.
I’m in therapy now. I’m on new meds for my anxiety. I’m seeing another Dr. to hopefully get a diagnosis of ASD or something so I can learn to interact more appropriately with her and my peers. I’m listening to her. Actively. Keeping in mind that words are not always words and I should look at the context and possible emotional context in the words. That’s been difficult but I’m learning that sometimes when she says that she’s broken, it’s because she wants a hug or physical comfort. I shouldn’t need to ask if she wants one or what I can do to comfort her. I am trying to listen more and act versus asking questions and then acting on the answers.
She felt she was always needing to tell me what to do or say. it’s been a sticking point in our marriage at times. Even though I am truly unsure at times what the appropriate course of action is. Hence being in therapy now.
We’ve slept together 3 times this month. Which is crazy because before it was once every few months. If at all. I think that’s a good sign?
I’m trying to help more around the house. Did a deep clean and threw a bunch of shit away. I’m committed to this change. To being better for her but also for me.
But I also don’t know if she’s doing this just to appease me. She’s said thank you. She’s slept with me. She’s more talkative and engaged with me. More fun like we used to have. But on the flip side she had no where else to go. No backup plan. She just started working FT but she doesn’t think she’ll be able to afford anything on her own.
I’m not sure where I stand. Or if I should take it day by day. I know I say I want to be with her and I think, I know that’s true. Even if I don’t want to admit I may lose her, act like I’m okay taking it day by day, the thought of her not being in my life as my partner, is terrifying and sad. So I know, if she asks to reconcile, I will. Because I love her. Because I know that while I’m not responsible for her cheating or lying etc, I’m responsible for the way I behaved and acted.
Idk if we can’t survive this. I love her more than anything. Even now I love her. I don’t want to lose her. Still I don’t think I should have to be a choice. I understand how it came about, and I understand she was or maybe is even now, ready to walk, and I’m just being delusional.
Yet she’s trying. Or appears to be. (This is what’s so hard for me).
I guess on paper it looks like we should divorce. My mother says so. My therapist says I should consider it.
Yet it seems like there may be something here worth trying for. The things I’m doing around the home and for the kids seem to make her happier. To see I’m trying to be consistent. She says it’s helped taken the pressure off her. That in our talks she’s happy I finally acknowledged things. Apologized for things. Actually listened and agreed with her. She’s appreciated that.
My therapist says whatever I do I should do for me. My counter was a lot of the stuff we’re doing now (splitting income by % earned, me actively cleaning every night with her, laundry, etc) is not something I’ve done or we’ve done before. Nor have I made any moves on therapy until recently, or to control my MH more.
So if I/we try this and still fail? Sure. It’s doomed, but at least I can say I took all the steps I, me, the Betrayed, to fix myself for myself but also for my marriage and my family. But this seems like it’ll have a shot. Like it could work. If you’ve made it this far thank you. ANY advice would be welcome.
It’s a fluffin’ mess. I know that. But any advice. Thanks.
~Ish

Not everyone knows the trading market like the back of their hands, and sometimes they oversell/undersell stuff. I am one of those people, though I try to be fair and reasonable by checking multiple sources for prices.
I went into the trading realm believing 1k was a reasonable offer for Oxytalis because that is what I regularly saw it go and sell for. I just learned that is the lowball offer and that it goes between 1~2k, but that's fine, I can pay 2k easily.
But can someone tell me why that warrants a swarm of people going “BAHAHAHAHHA” while throwing insults? Mind you I wasn't lowballing on purpose, and I kept on asking “is my offer off?” “How much is it worth?” “plz tell me what is wrong” the whole time while they continued to mock and swarm me without answering.
At that point, I was convinced that I was somehow off by like 10k or something before someone finally said “It usually goes for 2k, but you can sometimes get it for 1k”
Holy balls. All that over a 1k difference? Admittedly, I was only offering 1/2 the usual price, and that is a little crazy, but still. It was obvious that it was a mistake. And it wasn't that serious anyway.
It only takes 5 seconds to inform someone. I mean, seriously, how hard is it for people to just kindly correct and inform others? I immediately changed how much I was offering and got Oxy, but, good god.
“👨‍🦳Back in my day before all this recode, we were nice to each other and helped each other out”
But seriously, it's not just the trading realm. The playerbase itself has seemingly got more toxic and hostile. As someone else said, there’s no whimsy or fun anymore. I honestly used to roleplay a lot and have a lot of fun, but all of that seems to be gone or “cringe” now and I don't get it.
What did I miss while I was gone? Did we get a wave of new players who are just allergic to kindness, fun, and happiness? Did they murder and replace all the fun and whimsy people? I used to love nesting and raising little creature families, but even that has become sour and dull because no one is interested in that anymore unless it's for mutation grinding or taking a stored slot and logging. Or am I just having bad luck this month, and nothing much has changed about the playerbase?

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Hello,
Just got my first iPad ever this week, mostly for music making and note taking.
I have two midi capable controllers currently in my studio. A Yamaha CK61 (permanently sits on the desk, and is just my standard home electric keyboard too, though it can be used in MIDI mode) and a Maschine MK3 for pads.
I'm hoping to move away from Maschine, while it's actually a ton of fun, now that I have the iPad as well as Ableton Suite, I feel like Maschine is just one too many DAWs in the mix.
So I'm considering selling the Maschine MK3 and am looking to replace it with a MIDI controller that can fit in a backpack with the iPad.
I'd like to be able to play keys on it (even if that's across pads, that's fine), bunch in drum beats, and control some parameters.
Some big pros would be a chord mode and Bluetooth connection (though a WIDI dongle is fine too) or MPE (for MPE softsynths).
And another pro would be an Arpegiator and note latch, though I suppose I could accomplish those two things with an iPad app easy enough.
Any thoughts on what option may tick most of these boxes?
I was thinking an OXI One but I'd be paying a big premium for all the sequencing capabilities that I'm assuming could be done just as well with Drambo.
Ideas appreciated!

Hello,
I'm hoping this community may be able to help me, though I'm sure this is going to be a bit too wordy on my part.
Context:
I took my first plunge into electronic music sort of accidentally last year when I got a Maschine MK3 with the intentions of learning finger drumming (no room for my acoustic drum kit anymore, plus a baby made it not an option - so I sold the acoustic). Well not long after this, I renovated an area of my house and ended up getting a electronic drum kit - yay!
So my finger drumming endeavors sort of stopped, but what did happen with the MK3 is I discovered a love for jamming within a digital music environment, especially with synths.
Since then I have purchased two bundles of software: Ableton Suite, NI Komplete
And one piece of Hardware: Yamaha CK61 (was looking for MIDI keyboard to use with my computer that also had a bunch of sounds on its own so that I could use it for learning the keys - still on the learning keys part, haha).
The most recent development has been incorporating an iPad into my setup which I am able to have integrate with Ableton on computer through the iConnectivity Audio4C, so that's been really awesome.
Question:
I am starting to think that I do not have a need for the Maschine MK3 anymore, it does not integrate well with the Ableton - iPad workflow, and I can still get all my NI plugins within Ableton without the Maschine. So I am thinking of selling it to free up some desk space, and replace with something else.
That something else I want to be able to be used as a Midi controller for various VST synths/iPad apps, ect. And I can be flexible on what this piece of hardware is as I have the Audio 4C interface to handle the integration.
Some things that have come to mind:

• Oxi One (I guess I could use Drambo for sequencing, but the sequencer on the Oxi seems very fun, plus it can connect to the iPad via Bluetooth for a very paired down mobile setup, and I like that I can play sounds like a keyboard on it, or Chords mode, or Arp - a lot of that replaces some of what the Maschine does for me)
• Elektron Digitakt 2 (Like the Oxi, has fun sequencing options, also serves as a sample manipulation engine that I had with the MK3 - but I suppose there is Koala for that)
• Hydrasynth Desktop

Regarding the Hydrasynth Desktop, it looks like a very fun and flexible Synth. Now that alone does not really justify my desire to have a very minimalistic setup.
However, I love tools that are multi-purpose, and the fact that I think this can be used as a Midi controller or a Synth seems cool.
So basic questions:

• Can the pads at the bottom right of the Desktop unit be used to finger drum in groups loaded in Ableton Drum Rack as an example?
• Does the Hydrasynth just toggle between "Synth" mode and "Midi" mode with a click of some button?

Hi:) 28 F - surgery was 4/16 so 8 days out and feeling really jazzed. I can’t imagine not having this place to come to at 3 AM in pain, so I’m giving back to what gave me so much hope and insight on this peculiar journey!
BENCHMARKS - Surgery was Tuesday 4/16 my day 0. Worst pain of the whole deal were days 5&6 and peaked at night. That’s because that’s when I had scabs falling off! Teaser for 5 and unleashed at 6. - Worst level I would say I got was 7/10 pain. I would cry from my strep throat pain and I never had tears from this. - Only twice did I think this wasn’t worth it (drama. SPOILER!!!!!It was worth it)
TRUNK OF TONSIL TREASURES
Throat-MFn-Spray.: the Oscar trophy should be replaced with Chloraseptic max Sore Throat Max Strength in wild berries because it’s the highest honor to hold this sweet baby. IMPORTANT NOTE: I only did this when my throat was a snow cave of white scabs so no fresh flesh was exposed. I did a test spray on my tongue and then took the leap thinking how could it get worse? And I can just punch the couch thru the pain. To my delight, 15 seconds of marinating, then spitting out into the sink and ommmmmfggggggg angels were singing. This got me off the big pain killers, and I might buy stock just to support the cause (jpjpjp). I can’t say enough how much this changed my journey.
Compression socks: saw a post somewhere on here that was a conversation between some UK redditors and a few Americans scattered and the UK contributors were discussing how long to keep their compression socks on for, they had been given them at surgery and had varying instructions for taking them off/wear time. Americans (like myself) were bamboozled because we just get the flimsy grippy operation socks. After looking into it-and thinking about how much more progressive the EU is with their medicinal practices-I found it to make perfect sense that with the amount of time I’d be spending on my butt, laying down, why wouldn’t I ensure the blood would continue to flow from my trunks up? I need that precious juice to make it back to my neck! Anyway, can’t speak with evidence on this but felt right, wasn’t a huge cost (Amazon, got the color on sale bc who cares), and it didn’t hurt me that’s for sure! I wore for entire first week and few days after :) all day and night :)
Humidifier: around the clock baby. Keep that moisture pumping. We’re all here for wellness feedback, so if you’re looking to make this an investment purchase… Carepod: my humidifier of choice!!! I’ve done the legwork. I did Accutane years ago, live in Minnesota so I deal with dry as bone winters, and have had the crappers from Walgreens up to a Dyson (BIG NO. Leaky, impossible-to-clean-dust out-of-piece-of-junk). Care pod has like… no parts, it’s so easy to clean easy to fill.
Head geaheating pad: A cold and hot system for various times. For basically the entire thing, and even now when I sleep: ice pack head gear with gel ice packs around the neck. keep one set chilling and one in use 🔂 I got ones with open ear holes which was excellent bc I wear glasses, and then when the ear pain came thru at scab time I could hang my heating pad over my head like a bonnet which soothed my aching ears and jaw
Arnica Montana: Potentially a hero, potentially a sham. I will luckily never have to do this again to find out :) got from my naturopathic doctor that I see for allergies and she said take 5 pellets with every dose of meds for swelling, pain, and bruising. They tasted like sugar :) and I had zero swelling or bruising. I can’t prove a thing but think based on the evidence around Arnica… why tf not!
Pedialyte pops: Electrolytes, good tasting, never stung, cold. Blue was best flavor. Found these to be the best option of all cold foods options. Other winners included watermelon, soup, and blueberries
Electrolyte water: mixed two scoops of an electrolyte and salt mixture into freezing cold water every morning (Moon Juice Mini Dew… SO NOM) and also added a scoop of colostrum. Took my morning meds with it, didn’t suck to taste, would do again. I mean I do it everyday, but I think for anyone doing this surgery yes yes yes do.
Bee keepers packets of vitamin C: honey/propolis in general are so on the nose for healing, but the vitamin C packs taken every morning were just to help my body in this fun fight against itself.
Tongue scraper: because it is as bad as they say. Dragon breath. Honestly that feels offensive to dragons. A tooth brush with just water too, lightly. Do it for the people taking care of you.
Mouth Tape: I am not a mouth breather, but sleeping upright* I legit would notice my mouth creeping open. I got the ones with the slit so I could jam my straw (big/thick, never thin and flimsy says doctor) for wa-wa. this made a huge difference for my sleeping! Use your finger to work under the adhesive at removal for a not so faux lip wax removal process. *Sleeping upright, like nearly sitting at a desk upright, was huge for me. I aimed the humidifier at my mug and conked out. I noticed when I tried to go back to side sleeping it was more painful to swallow so I’d shift upright and it would lessen. Just a girls opinion!
Dry brush: because the whole thing is honestly crummy and having some care and means of getting your lymphatic system moving and grooving when you physically are told to avoid moving and grooving is key. It’s doing a lot of heavy lifting on the healing internally, show it a little love and dry brush. You will wanna roll down the compression socks for this 😉
Text to voice app: I stg if my mom asked me one more question…. Get the app, make a few favorite phrases like “feeling ok!” Or bad, “can you get my new ice packs from the freezer”, “wazzzzaaap” no I mean I took it too far because that’s what I do but this was amazing for the two or three days I went mute! Which also suggest doing! No need to add any more fuel to the massive fire going on.
RANDOM FINDINGS
Scabs: Fell off without fanfare. Day 6 I was feeling Kermit the frog voice because they were abundant and crowding up, I could taste them and it, to me, tasted like I had a wad of paper in my throat (ppl who used to eat/suck on paper as kids will get it)
Bleeds: goes hand in hand with scabs… I am a picker!!!! But was such a star and didn’t even touch these bc I didn’t even look. Resist the temptation aside from a quick curious glance, it hurts anyway! So when the scabs fell off it was pretty smooth, no bleeds that I could taste or had to spit and I’m a nose bleed girl so I knooooow that trickle of blood taste.
Eating: 1.5 weeks out and a PB&J still feels a little owie going down, tbh most things have a fiesty kick even with Tylenol, but it’s so bareable and foods not going anywhere so just hang on you’ll be back to a taco in no time and never have to deal with tonsils again!!!!!
Time passer: find a situationship with a hobby. Just a fling, doesn’t need to become your new life’s calling. I played sims like it was my job, started a new show with my mom who just had knee surgery days before me:), renewed my vows with my dog once I could talk again, and became real friendly with Poshmark. Great things I wish I could’ve had the will power to do instead are reading, a craft project, perhaps a puzzle. But just whatever makes you happy and gets you to bedtime!!!!!
Meds: what you’ve heard is true. Timer system. Write it down if you can! It becomes a lot. I had separate columns for each med, directions for duration between doses under the name, then on the left dates with like 8 cells in each day and wrote time taken. Helped when I wanted to set up my alarms too when I got paranoid I’d messed it up
Sleeps: I’m a narcoleptic so this was easy for me, but just sleep as much as you can. 1. You’re not present for the pain and 2. It’s the best thing you can do to heal yourself! Oxy didn’t hurt this. But I know not everyone gets that, just do your best to sleep!
That’s all for now… I’m by no means in the clear but I have to believe I’ve made it out of the trenches. I’ll edit this if I think of other things, or maybe I won’t!!!!! Either way, thank u people who have vulnerably shared their stories and tips up to this point. I needed you and you came thru!!!!!!!! I hope this does that for some other people. And now we’re free of our disgusting tonsils! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX 🍸