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I have advice for new plasma donors who may be considering to try it out and earn extra money:

• Plasma is 92% water and the rest is mostly protein elements.
• The plasma is separated from your blood and your red blood cells are returned to you in cycles.
• Per FDA regulations, you're only allowed to donate plasma twice in a 7 day period, with a 48 hour wait inbetween those two times. Don't risk your health by hopping around to different plasma donation centers to circumvent these regulations, and you may get caught if you do.

1. Eat a meal high in protein 2-3 hours before donating, but your plasma protein levels depend on what you ate the day before.
2. Drink plenty of water and/or non-caffeinated juice before donating to stay hydrated.
3. Avoid caffeine such as in coffee or soda before donating or you may get nauseous and vomit or faint during your donation.
4. No alcohol 24 hours before, and for a little while after donating.
5. No exercising for at least 6 hours after donating as it can put too much stress on the vein.
6. Some people get away with smoking or vaping nicotine before and after donating, but it's recommended not to for 2 hours before and after. The nicotine can raise your heart's pulse rate.
7. If your pulse rate is 100 or above, you'll be able to do a vitals retake after a 15 minute wait. But if it's 100 or higher again you'll be deferred for the day. If your pulse rate is an issue, listen to "Pink Noise" or "Green Noise" at a low volume before donating which may help reduce your pulse rate, along with its effect on lowering your blood pressure.
8. There is a risk of getting a blown vein if the worker is having a hard time finding your vein when they're sticking you with the needle or if you have small veins. You may get deferred until your vein heals if that happens. But it's ok, your body is able to regenerate your veins with a process called Angiogenesis.
9. There is a risk of blood clots, but when your blood is constantly moving through the machine it prevents that from happening.
10. You may be subject to drug screening. The drug screening tests for methamphetamines, cocaine, and heroin. Certain pharma prescription meds may show up as a false positive so you'll want to let the plasma center know what meds you're taking. Testing positive for these drugs can result in a permanent deferral from donating plasma.
11. A sample of your blood will be drawn periodically to test for certain sexually transmitted infections (STIs). A positive test will result in either a temporary or permanent deferral from donating plasma. If you've ever been diagnosed or received treatment for HIV/AIDS, Hepatitis B (HBV) or Hepatitis C (HCV) you will be permanently deferred from donating plasma.

Donating Plasma with Managed Diabetes
Individuals with well-controlled diabetes can contribute to plasma donation, but certain criteria need to be met:
Absence of Complications: This means no existing diabetic complications affecting your kidneys, heart, blood vessels, or eyes.
Insulin Independence: If you rely on insulin for diabetes management, a three-month waiting period is required after using needles for non-prescribed medications. Additionally, you must be free of symptoms or treatment needs related to blood sugar fluctuations (high or low) for the past three months.

1. Healthy Feet: Active foot ulcers requiring medical attention will disqualify you from donation.
2. Steady Balance: You shouldn't experience dizziness or lightheadedness upon standing.
3. Type 1 Consideration: For Type 1 diabetics, eating within two hours of donation is mandatory.

• Wait a few hours before taking the bandage wrap off of your arm after donating.
• It's recommended to use Vitamin E oil/Mineral oil on the needle site for the puncture area to heal better. A Q-tip can be used to apply it easier. I simply dip the Q-Tip in the bottle, but never dip the used cotton back into the bottle.
• Frequently donating over a prolonged period of time may lead to your body having decreased vitamin D levels.
  
• Red meats are particularly high in the protein vitamins and minerals found in plasma.
  
• Personally, I take a Now brand Vitamin D supplement that contains vitamin D3, Calcium, Magnesium, and Zinc. But I only take a half a dose, 1 gel capsule instead of 2, since I get these from eating meats and other foods as well. It's bad for your health if you take too much of these vitamins and minerals over time. I also take an Iron supplement. I also drink a protein shake before donating. Just to be safe.
  

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Hi, all!
I'm currently 6 weeks and will be a FTM. I've had debilitating fear and anxiety of pregnancy and childbirth for pretty much as long as I can remember. Recently, after a lot of reading and chatting with my husband, I think I'm going to ask my OB for an elective c-section.
I've done enough research to know the pros and cons, but I have trouble speaking up for myself with doctors. I'll be meeting my OB for the first time on the 26th of this month so I don't know much about her. I'm hoping she is receptive to my request and the reasoning behind it. But I feel there is such a stigma against this. I'm afraid of being judged, first by her, and potentially talked out of it. And then, of course, I fear the way my family and friends will react. There is this (in my opinion, very silly and incorrect) assumption that vaginal birth is always better and c-section should be a last resort or only done when explicitly necessary. But based on my mental health I feel it IS explicitly necessary.
Any advice for how to approach my doctor? I know every OB is different. But it's important to me to build a good rapport with this doctor, for her to understand my needs and anxieties, but also for her to understand that I do care about the health of my baby. I just know that their health could be negatively impacted by my terror surrounding vaginal birth.

Hello, I figured I’d write about this—as I was very very nervous before my appointment.
Before my appointment, I took some ibuprofen and zofran.
I showed up to the clinic and my vitals were taken by a triage nurse. He asked me if I was sure I wanted an abortion as well as “Are you being forced into this?” He asked me if I had any concerns and I told him I was very nervous about pain and hearing things I didn’t want to hear. He said “Oh girl, we got some strong stuff here, you will be good.” He talked to me about fentanyl and I agreed that would be the route to take. We also discussed birth control. I just wanted to go back on progesterone only tablets since I’ve had a TBI and have auras.
I sat in a waiting room waiting for my ultrasound. I finally got called back and was asked to undress from the waist down. The nurse asked me if I wanted to know if there were multiples, if I wanted to see the screen, and if I wanted a print out of the ultrasound. I got a transvaginal ultrasound and was told I was 9 weeks and 4 days. I noticed my uterus didn’t look like it does on typical ultrasounds.
The nurse told me she was going to have the surgeon come in and look at my C-section scar. I sat in the room alone for about 10 minutes thinking about everything that was going on. I looked at the picture and apologized to the baby and asked it to come back to us when I’m in a better situation. I cried a little bit.
They did an ultrasound on my C-section scar to make sure the fetus was not embedded in my scar tissue and then she asked about the shape of my uterus. I forgot it was bicornuate. She did another transvaginal ultrasound again to “map out” where she was going to go during the procedure. She also asked permission to insert her fingers to feel where my cervix was located. The nurse took notes and I felt very taken care of. I voiced concern that the OB who did my C-section wanted me to mention with future surgeries that I am a bleeder and she said she would give me misoprostal to control the bleeding.
After the surgeon left, the nurse placed my IV and injected midazolam. She told me to keep the misoprostal tablets in my cheek for 30 minutes before swallowing them. They were a powder stuck to my teeth by then. Nurse also gave me promethazine, ibuprofen, and azithromycin and sent me back to the waiting room. I felt like I was going to throw up the entire time even though I had taken 2 different anti nausea medications.
I waited for about a hour. By then, I had about 3 cramps low in my uterus that were sharp and lasted for a literal second. I was called back and asked to empty my bladder and put on a pad. I came wearing period panties, so I didn’t do that step. I was taken to the room the surgery was going to happen in and I was asked to undress from the waist down again. When the nurse came back in, she put a blood pressure cuff on me and something to measure my oxygen/heart rate. I was wearing a giant Carhart jacket the entire time—very warm. She asked me if there was anything I wanted to talk about, if I was nervous about anything specific or if there were questions she could answer? I told her I was afraid of what I’d hear and it made me very very anxious. She comforted me and turned on some music and asked me if that made me comfortable? I said yes.
The surgeon came in and put fentanyl in my IV and asked me to scoot my bum to the edge of the table. I did that and she said she was going to begin. I didn’t feel anything she did, but she did narrate that she was touching my tissue to insert the suction device.
I felt a pressure for about 10-20 seconds that I did not like and the nurse saw me wince. She grabbed my hand and reassured me that I was safe and she was here with me. I don’t remember hearing anything. I didn’t feel any pain. The entire procedure was maybe 3 minutes long. The surgeon asked me if I wanted to see the tissue she removed and then brought it into the room and educated me on what everything was I was looking at. She left and then the nurse gave me something to wipe with and I put on my bottoms. When I stood up, I was dizzy and put my hand on the table I was sitting on to brace myself before sitting back down.
The nurse took me to the recovery room where I sat underneath a heating pad and blanket with a cold water and crackers for 30 minutes. After 30 minutes they asked me to empty my bladder again and asked how my bleeding was. There was no bleeding. They gave me the birth control we discussed back in triage and then released me.
It’s been 2 days and I’m still not bleeding. I guess that’s normal. The first evening, I had light cramping. I didn’t stay up on my ibuprofen like I should have, but I did take it and cuddle on the couch with my boyfriend under a heating pad. The next morning, I took my ibuprofen but didn’t feel cramping or any type of pain the entire day.
Right now I’m at the point where I’m grateful I decided to see the aftermath of the surgery because if I hadn’t seen it with my own two eyes, I’d be wildly paranoid right now that they even did anything and that I’m probably still pregnant. No pain, no blood, nothing really…
Highly recommend attending therapy before and after the surgical appointment. I had 2 sessions with my psychiatrist and 4 sessions with my therapist before the appointment. Now I’m just waiting for my appointment on Monday to talk it out some more.
One thing that my therapist mentioned to me beforehand that helped was “Throwaway_wxyz, you keep giving me all these justifications for your decision in this matter, but the reality of it is that you don’t have to. The only thing you should ask yourself right now is, ‘Do I want to be pregnant?’ You’re being a lot harder on yourself than you need to be.”
I truly hope reading this helps someone else.

Hi Everyone, later this month I will be 7 years out of my Glioblastoma diagnosis. I was 30 years old when I was diagnosed and am 37 years old now. Over the last 6+ years, I have been put in contact with many people battling the same diagnosis and decided to create a Word document titled "Health & Happiness", which details all of the things I have incorporated into my healing journey. Everyone is different and I am simply sharing what has worked for me. Neither me or my wife are in the medical field however we have spent a lot of time researching things to integrate into my day-to-day life which we believe are keeping me healthy. For the first 5 years of my journey I received MRI's every 8 weeks; now that I am more than 5 years out I get MRI's every 12 weeks. Below is a copy and paste of the document:
*Below there are some discount codes that I have not affiliation with and found them through IG or marketing emails and they might be outdated*
My Neurosurgeon:
Dr. Mitchel Berger - UCSF
My Neuro Oncologist:
Dr. Timothy Cloughesy - UCLA
My Naturopathic Doctor:
· Christian Gonzalez, ND
o Check out his podcast, “Heal Thy Self” – This podcast has been life-changing for my wife and I. It has provided us with assurance about the path that we have been on to keep me healthy and has opened our eyes to so many things that we thought were “good” and “healthy” when in fact we were grossly misled to a technique called “Green Washing” that a lot of companies and products use in their marketing efforts.
· Below are two links where you can find a ND in your area.
o Naturopath Oncologist Database - https://oncanp.org/directory/
o General Naturopath Doctor Database - https://www.naturopathic.org/AF_MemberDirectory.asp?version=2
CBD/THC Extracts - Cancer Protocols:
· I went through CT's full 90 day protocol back in 2017 in conjunction with radiation and chemo (Temodar). I am on CT's "maintenance" program and have been since I finished the 90 day protocol.
o https://www.constancetherapeutics.com/
o https://www.forbes.com/sites/abbierosne2019/01/24/constance-finleys-midlife-detour-to-cannabis-extraction-connoisseu#456c41bc35c6
§ The article above is from Forbes magazine on Constance and how she got started.
Books and Documentaries:
· Radical Remission. This book was the first book I read when I was diagnosed and gave me knowledge and motivation to not look at my diagnosis as a death sentence. One of the most powerful cancer books I have read and I highly recommend it for anyone that has cancer or knows someone that has cancer. 😊
· What the Health: Netflix
· Heal: Netflix
o Here are a couple ‘extras’ from “Heal” that we found very powerful and inspiring.
§ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sxmK8A-Kco&list=PLmcZvnvGDkToo9nYIX3ugcgyLCll0NLLc&utm_content=b080891cf2ccb1c272c432873d52f9cd&utm_campaign=Don%27t+believe+you+can+change+your+destiny%3F+This+video+could+help+you+change+your+mind.&utm_source=Robly.com&utm_medium=email

§ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EeQjNRahxrw&feature=youtu.be&utm_content=eadbd6e0e0dff2d44d28e6515fa4c2a1&utm_campaign=Rob+Wergin+use+his+incredible+and+unique+gifts&utm_source=Robly.com&utm_medium=email

o The Documentary “Heal”, did so well they wrote a book as well.
· The Game Changers – A documentary on Netflix.
· Forks Over Knives - Netflix
· Cowspiracy – Netflix
· The China Study – Book outlining the most comprehensive study done on nutrition, and the links the standard American diet has to all types of diseases including cancer.
· Being In Balance - Book
· You The Healer – Book
· The Power of Now – Book
· The Celestine Prophecy – Book
· How Not To Die – Book
· The Truth About Cancer – Documentary


Supplements I am taking:
· Maca Root
· Vitamin B12
· Gaia – “Liver Health”
· Bladderwrack & Sea Moss
o We purchase these from- https://alkalineveganshop.com/
· Mushroom Supplements: Chaga, Turkey Tail, Maitake, Reishi, Cordyceps & Lion’s Mane (Real Mushrooms is the company we use.) See video and article below about the health benefits of mushrooms.
o https://www.realmushrooms.com/
o https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuL_faveAnw
o https://www.drweil.com/health-wellness/body-mind-spirit/canceturkey-tail-mushrooms-for-cancer-treatment/
o Paul Stamets is the CEO of Host Defense and his mother was diagnosed with Stage Four Breast Cancer. He gives a lot of credit to her remission from the mushroom supplements. https://hostdefense.com/also has a 10% off first time order. We order from Vitacost.com though due to their sales and free shipping.
· Agaricus Mushroom – I take it at night with my Essiac Tea (See Below)
· Kelp
· Vitamin D3
· Graviola/Soursop – (can be taken as a supplement or in Tea form)
· Ashwagandha –Benefits and study links below. In the first link below, each number found in the article is a hyper link showcasing different studies that have been conducted proving the benefits listed.
o https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/12-proven-ashwagandha-benefits#section3
o https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/26650066
· Vitamin B2
· Boswellia (Frankincense)
· Melatonin
· CoQ10
[· X-R Shield by LifeExtension – My ND prescribed me to take these 5 days prior to air travel, during travel and 5 days after air travel. When flying, you’re exposed to high amounts of radiation and this supplement helps to protect cell DNA damage]()
· Chaparral
o We purchase these from- https://alkalineveganshop.com/
· Liposomal Glutathione – Quicksilver Scientific
· NAC (N-Acetyl-L-Cysteine, Free-Form)
· Co-E1 NADH
· Probiotic – Klaire Labs, Ther-Biotic Complete
· Life Cykel Mushroom Tinctures
o https://us.lifecykel.com/?rfsn=3953957.f0c203&utm_source=refersion&utm_medium=affiliate&utm_campaign=3953957.f0c203
o Discount code: 0DCB4626
o Chaga, Turkey Tail, Reishi, Lions Maine, Cordyceps, Shitake
o All of the above mushrooms are harnessed in Kakadu Plum juice which is the most Vitamin C dense fruit in the world.
· We get most of our supplements from http://www.vitacost.com . They have sales all the time and free 2-day shipping.

Teas:
· Senna Tea - I drank this on the nights I took Temodar (Chemo) to prevent constipation, it's a lot easier on your body than any OTC medication.
· Essiac Tea - I drink 4 oz. of this every night before bed. People who have defeated cancer give a lot of credit to Essiac Tea.
o We purchase it in loose leaf form from https://www.starwest-botanicals.com/
· Moringa
· Dandelion
· Teas with Turmeric
[· Pique Tea – Organic, ceremonial grade, triple screened for heavy metals, mold toxins and pesticides. This is the only tea that we have been able to find that has a triple screening process for heavy metals. “Organic” does not mean free of heavy metals.]()
o Discount Code: GREENFIELD 15% off!

Other things I do:
· Meditation – Every day for 20 minute – I started off with the app called “Headspace” other people use “Calm”. Its personal preference.
o I am looking into taking a TM class (Transcendental Meditation) and will let you know once I do.
[· Minimizing EMF exposure as much as possible]()
o Sleeping with our phones in airplane mode and away from us, ideally in another room
o Turning off Wi-Fi at night, and even when not in use
o Covering Wi-Fi router and Digital Electricity Meter (outside of house) with EMF guards
§ These can be found here: https://smartmeterguard.com/
o Keeping cell phones away from our bodies as much as possible
o Not using anything wireless near our heads. This includes cell phones (always talk on speaker phone or a wired ear pod connection), air pods or any type of Bluetooth headphones, this includes Bluetooth in the car.
o Hardwiring my office so there is no need for Wi-Fi.
· When we fly, we have these blankets that we wrap around our body. This company has a lot of great products that protect you from EMF exposure.
o https://www.defendershield.com/emf-radiation-protection-blanket
· We also wear these when we fly, they are a company out of Australia
o https://radiasmart.com/emf-hat-hood/
o This is what we have: RS EMF radiation protection hood, blocking RF, EMF- Brian Coat
· Here is another company that is popular, we were not aware of it at the time of buying the other products above.
o https://getlambs.com/products/emf-proof-beanie
· Positive attitude and mindset in everything I do- link below to article explaining how thoughts can benefit or hinder your body
o https://www.huffpost.com/entry/how-your-thoughts-change-your-brain-cells-and-genes_b_9516176
· Eliminate as much stress as I possibly can from my everyday life
· Be present in my mind
· Yoga
· Spin
· Writing down 3 things that I am grateful for each night before bed
· Using Frankincense oil on my feet and pillow, every night, before bed
· Morning Routine: Body Scan Meditation, Drink a liter of water when you wake up (Your body is most dehydrated after a full night’s sleep), stretch or some type of quick 10 minute workout to get your body moving in the morning, “I Am” affirmations (I will usually do this right after I finish my morning stretching, I will typically say 5-10 things out loud to myself, for example (I am healthy, I am a loving husband, I am kind, etc…), statements of gratitude (I will mix this in with my “I Am” affirmations, for example, I am grateful for my bed, I am grateful for my home, I am grateful to have access to organic produce, etc…) I try to focus on this that I have in my life instead of things that I want, rubbing a 1-2 drops of any organic essential oil that you like in your hands in the morning and taking 4-5 deep breaths with your hands over your mouth and nose (this is very helpful in awakening your sensory functions), lastly, I listen to music when getting ready for work in the morning. Soft music in the morning taps into the creative side of your brain and research has shown that individuals that listen to soft music in the morning are more creative and productive throughout the day than those who don’t.
· Taking a walk every day to get fresh air and disconnect, normally with the dogs J
· Circuit Training
· Acupuncture / Energy Healing
· Energy Healer – Steve Montoya – Let me know if you would like his contact info. He travels all over the world healing people. He is in the LA/OC area once a quarter or so.
o https://ramonashealingjourney.wordpress.com/2015/11/04/you-shall-know-them-by-their-love/
· Keeping my body warm at all times. We learned from Traditional Chinese Medicine, that keeping the body warm protects the kidneys, which means all of the other organs can do their job and the body can heal. Also, just for example, when you have a fever, it’s your body’s way of protecting all of your vital organs so that they can do their job, as well as preventing any proliferation of bacteria and viruses.
o http://aprilcrowell.com/asian-medicine/warm-to-the-core/
· John of God – Brazil. Lauren’s cousin went down to visit him during the 4th quarter of 2018 and took a head shot of myself as well as a two-page letter sharing my story. He is a spiritual healer that helped a young man get to a state of meditation where his brain tumor shrunk to nothing. He sent back two bottles of Herbs (Ground Up Passion Flower Leaves – Actual Name: Passiflora) for me to take. There is a large portion about him in the book “Radical Remission” and he is featured in “Heal” as well.
· I brush my teeth with my less dominant hand once a day and then with my dominant hand the other two times.
o This helps stimulate parts of the brain that are not in use often. You can do this with many things, brushing your hair, using your less dominant foot in sports, washing your body with soap while showering.
· Drinking and eating out of glass vs. plastic. It’s having an effect on both men and women’s endocrine systems (hormones, fertility, etc…)
o https://www.plasticpollutioncoalition.org/pft/2017/7/26/new-endocrine-disrupting-chemicals-are-undermining-male-fertility
· This may sound like something so simple but it’s quite challenging: When moving/changing physical positions I am always present. For example, every time I sit, I tell myself I am sitting, every time I stand to walk, I tell myself I am standing. This helps me to bring my mind into a present state and focus less on the future or past.
o This was a recommendation during one of my guided meditations.
· Laughing, loving and hugging every day. This was a big take away for Lauren and I from reading the book Radical Remission. It’s important to laugh every day, love every day and receive and give hugs to people every day. I know, I know, it sounds crazy but it has worked on other folks, we practice it every day. We try to watch more comedies if we are going to watch a movie on the weekend, an easy way to incorporate laughter into your life.
· We recently added air purifiers into our home. I also have one in my office. We purchased the Molekule, but through research we found that the Air Doctor is another good option (and I believe also a little less expensive). Here is a discount code for $100 off a Molekule: MetroMD100
· IR Sauna (Infrared Saunas)
o These are great for detoxifying the body, especially after air travel. I go to Perspire (https://perspiresaunastudio.com/) here in Orange County.
· Epsom Salt Baths – Especially after air or any long car travel as well.
· Grounding/Earthing – Walk around barefoot on your backyard grass or anywhere there is a plot of “Earth”. Feel the grass between your toes or if you are at the beach, be aware of the sand between your toes. We are all energy and Earth contains energy, manifest the energy from the Earth into your body for increased healing, awareness, presence and mindfulness. I do this for about 10-15 minutes.
· Cold Showers (as cold as the shower can get) every morning and Ice Plunges. Look up the “Wim Hof Method”
o https://www.wimhofmethod.com/

Diet:
· For the past 6+ years we have followed a whole food plant-based diet (vegan without the junk food). Cancer cells feed off of Glucose (Sugar) firstly, but can also utilize glutamate as a second source of fuel (which is in all animal protein, land and sea). I have also cut out all artificial sugars from my diet. Dairy is also extremely inflammatory for your body and has been linked to cancer in many research studies.
· White Carbs and Gluten - We have eliminated these from our diet as much as we possibly can. Even for people who do not have a ‘gluten intolerance,’ gluten is very hard on the body’s digestive system. Excessive consumption can lead to a leaky gut, which causes toxins to seep out of the digestive tract into the body/blood making it hard for your immune system to work at its peak. Also, most gluten products have high levels of glyphosate, which they’ve linked to cancer. Glyphosate acts like an antibiotic to your gut (not in a good way), wiping out all of the beneficial gut flora which are there to keep your immune system working efficiently.
· Alkaline Foods and Water - Cancer cells cannot grow in an alkaline environment; we drink water with a PH level of 9.5. We recently invested in a Kangen water machine for our home. A level of 7 PH is balanced and anything below 7 is acidic. Cancer cells thrive in an acidic environment. Things that make your body acidic are alcohol, dairy, meat, processed and artificial sugars and gluten.
· I drink warm lemon water with apple cider vinegar every morning, which also helps alkalize the body and keep stomach acid levels at a great pH for food absorption.
· We practice intermittent fasting, which allows the body to not worry about processing food for a large portion of the day but rather allow its immune system to be working at its peak ability. We started out by only eating from 12 PM - 8 PM and are working toward 12 PM - 6 PM. Intermittent fasting is really important when taking Temodar (or any chemotherapy). It allows the body to protect the healthy cells while targeting cancer cells. There is so much research showing the benefits of intermittent fasting for cancer patients.
· This is a really interesting article citing a lot of different sources regarding a plant-based diet and fighting/preventing cancer:
o https://www.vivahealth.org.uk/veganhealth/dont-feed-cancer

Other Things to Research:
· Dr. Sebi – He is the doctor who put a full-page ad in the NY Post and was sued to take it down. When he went to his court hearing the judge asked him if he could prove that he healed anyone, and he furnished 70 patients of his that were healed by his treatment and the Judge declared “not guilty” on all the charges that were brought against him by the State of New York.
o The link below is a quick rundown of his life. I believe the pharmaceutical companies were heavily involved with his death in while he was imprisoned in Honduras.
o https://wakeup-world.com/2015/08/28/dr-sebi-the-man-who-cures-aids-cancer-diabetes-and-more/
· Radiation Stickers for your cell phone and laptop:
o https://www.amazon.com/Radiation-Protection-Labobbon-Household-Appliances/dp/B078SSD6QC
· We also try to use the ‘cleanest’ hygiene products we can find. There are many harmful chemicals in our everyday toothpastes, shampoos, deodorants, etc. Chemicals to avoid in hygiene products below:
o Shampoo – Sodium Lauryl Sulfate, Sodium Laureth Sulfate, basically any ‘sulfate,’ Parabens, Sodium Benzoate. Brands that we like are: 100% Pure, Acure, Alaffia
o Toothpaste – Sodium Lauryl Sulfate, Sodium Laureth Sulfate, basically any ‘sulfate’, fluoride, triclosan, DEA, Propylene Glycol, Microbeads. One of the worst toothpaste brands out there is Colgate. We use Himalaya Botanique & Nature’s Gate as well as Dr. Bronner’s All-In-One toothpaste.
o Deodorant – Aluminum, Parabens, Triclosan, DEA, Propylene Glycol. We have been testing out natural deodorants for years and our favorite (although not vegan) is from a company called Primally Pure. We’ve also started to use a brand called Joyous Organics with clean (and minimal) ingredients.
o A great website to reference for beauty product ingredients and their safety is https://www.ewg.org/
§ Skin Deep Database – This is where you will find clean products to put on your body.
· https://www.ewg.org/skindeep/

· The Clean Fifteen and Dirty Dozen
o The EWG, each year, comes out with an updated list of produce that we should be buying organic 100% of the time (Dirty Dozen), especially people like you and I who have had cancer. The Clean fifteen can be purchased conventionally if you can’t find them in an organic form and conventional is the only option
o https://www.ewg.org/foodnews/clean-fifteen.php
o https://www.ewg.org/foodnews/dirty-dozen.php

· The link below is a good read on Monsanto’s Glyphosate and the timeline for removal in home use:
o https://www.ewg.org/news-insights/news-release/2021/07/bayer-end-residential-sales-cancer-causing-weedkiller-glyphosate?utm_source=newsletter&utm_campaign=202108News&utm_medium=email&emci=9a939839-bef6-eb11-b563-501ac57b8fa7&emdi=4d3bfe91-dbf7-eb11-b563-501ac57b8fa7&ceid=2210188
These are things that we have done and have found to be successful so far with my body, and hopefully, they are helpful for you as well. I have also included some images below that show how damaging the effects of Wi-Fi radiation (and all of the radiation coming from electronics) can be.

Has anyone come across anything like this on youtube or anything? I have a birth defect that causes my knees to be stiff. I can't bend my knees more than about 100 degree angles. I want to get into yoga so bad but I just feel discouraged when I can't do most of the poses.

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I also posted in the 45+ group.
I’d love to get advice on my routine. I am mostly concerned with crows feet developing and smile lines. I do get Botox for the forehead and don’t have frown lines.
Morning (in order of application)

• cerave foam cleanser
• I’m from rice toner
• timeless 20% vitamin C, ferulic acid and vitamin E serum
• cosrx snail mucin 96%
• dongyu eye serum
• strivectin anti-wrinkle intensive eye concentrate
• strivectin anti-wrinkle high potency wrinkle filler on the wrinkles I see and around the mouth from prevention
• cerave facial moisturizing lotion (day).
• mineral sunscreen

Night (in order of application)

• micelar water to remove makeup
• cerave foam cleanser
• I’m from rice toner
• cosrx snail mucin 96%
• adapalene (that’s a prescription tretinoids)
• dongyu eye serum
• strivectin wrinkle filler
• velamo retinol eye stick
• cerave facial moisturizing lotion (night)
• latisse ;)

I do the odd eye mask or face mask here and there on evening.
I just wonder if there’s a more effective day and night cream for collagen, skin tightening and wrinkles… the tretinoid cleared up all the very bad melasma from pregnancy (aside from 3 small spots).
Is my order ok? What’s missing?

I was born premature (almost 2 months early), was stuck in a machine for 3 months with a sizeable possibility I wouldn't make it that the doctors told my parents to prepare for the worst, fortunately I survived but man did it came with ailments.
I suffer from double vision with one eye long sighted and other short sighted that need constant lubrication, I suffer from constant joints and bones pain due to suffering from vitamin D deficiency and previously rickits, can't bend down or run without feeling dire amount of pain, I suffer from mild amount of hearing loss due to my premature birth, I suffer from asthma cuz yet again my premature birth also meant my lungs weren't fully developed and I suffer a few more lesser complications due to premature birth.
Year ago, I got hit with a terrible virus, my immune system (which always acted irregular), decided to have an autoimmune response and attacked my pancreas, now I have type 1 diabetes.
I really tried to find a job (I don't want my ailments to put me down), I wore glasses that made my double vision manageable and was learning how to drive a car so I could deliveries but now my type 1 diabetes made things even more complicated cuz my doctor pretty much said due to my double vision and type 1 diabetes, I would be a big liability which broke me, so many jobs requires that you have a car and basically restricted more of the already restricted pool of jobs that I possibly could do.
My type one diabetes would at least be manageable if I wasn't born premature FFS or vice versa, I was close of getting a job before this new diagnosis beaten me down and made start from square one AGAIN, I was so close to be normal member of society, I don't want to be a burden to society and would rather vanish but now it's even more of a struggle to find a job now, I'm so close to a breaking point, just why.

Hi All,
I recently came back from Seoul and brought back a bunch of skincare. Very new to this space. I have only used facewash, vit C, moisturizer and sunscreen. But I always had hyperpigmentation, dark spots just beneath the surface and blackheads here and there. Anyway, I have been reading up a lot and added some new products in the U.S. too. So here is my skincare routine. I am very confused about actives, etc. I don't want to damage my skin barrier but I also want clear skin. Right now there are some blemishes, large pores and dicoloration. So looking for some input on what I can adjust/add/remove.
Morning:

1. Facewash: Kojic Acid Soap
2. Snail mucin: Cosrx
3. Vitamin C: Green tangerine Vita-C or Rohto Melano CC Concentration Measures Essence
4. Moisturizer: Deep Sea Pure Water Cream
5. Suncreen: Supergoop or Live Tinted balm

Night:

1. Makeup remover: Tatcha camellia cleansing oil
2. Facewash: Roundlab dokdo cleanser
3. Exfoliate: BHA 2% Salicylic acid (Paula's Choice) - game changer for me! Helped with pores.
4. Snail mucin: Cosrx
5. Guasha
6. Retinol: 1% in Squalane (The Ordinary)
7. Eye cream: Joseon eye revival
8. Moisturizer: Dr G snail night cream

I do 2 minutes between every step where possible.

So I have just started doing IVIg (octagam), and I’m getting 60 g infusions over seven hours, over two days. it’s making me feel like crap. I’m diagnosed with pediatric acute onset neuropsychiatric disorder associated with strep or pandas. It’s a type of auto immune encephalitis affecting the basal ganglia in the brain. I also am diagnosed with Tourette’s Syndrome, postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome, mast cell activation syndrome, ,Small intestinal Bacterial overgrowth type c (methaogen overgrowth) and Ehlers-danlos syndrome. During my infusion, I was extremely fatigued and slept through the entire thing, and then I came home and I had really bad migraines. My blood felt like it was pounding in my ears and it felt like someone was sitting on my chest and I couldn’t get enough air. my blood pressure was elevated (168/75) my heart rate laying down was resting in 120s. standing it would be jumping to one 160-170. I became extremely weak. Was becoming catatonic and having seizures as well as having really bad hallucinations. Some of this can be explained due to the pots and pandas, but I’m still feeling horrible. My gait was greatly impacted as were my tics. I was out for I think five days before I could even actually get up and walk my dog (the dog got walked by my brother in the meantime lol ;) a). I’m drinking tons of fluid, I’m taking salt sticks to help with the pots and twice the amount of Benadryl to help with my histamine reactions. I’m taking all my meds and vitamins as prescribed. Is there anything else I can do to help make its easier for the future? This was only my first infusion and I have at least 16 more. I want to do them so I can get better but I’m not excited for them, so far it’s made me absolutely miserable. Anything helps thankyou.

Hi there, I have noticed during my last few periods that I struggle to get my cup in all the way. I can't seem to get it in further. I would consider myself an experienced cup user, my cup is about to have its 9th birthday. I have always had a low cervix and I cut off the entire stem during my first use. The cup has always seemed to suck itself around my cervix a bit, which was evidenced by the cup not being completely full, but leaking anyway. This was fine, not a problem at all. But now I can't seem to get it in all the way. I will put it all the way up with the C fold, but I can still feel the bottom sticking out when I feel with my fingers. Sometimes it will move into place if I just leave it and go about my day, sometimes not. This is quite frustrating and reminds me of using tampons as a young teen, because I couldn't just put in a tampon and leave the house, I would have to go back to the toilet to adjust it like two times before it was somewhat comfortable. So having a similar experience now with my beloved cup makes me feel sad and annoyed.
Any ideas as to why this is happening? I have a few ideas myself but I'd like to hear what others think first. Nothing has changed in those 9 years, I have not given birth or anything.

I gave birth in November to an IUGR baby that arrived at 32 weeks gestation, measuring closer to 30 weeks. The cause for early birth was reversed end diastolic flow. During the first trimester, I was diagnosed with chronic hypertension. I took labetalol, but I believe my bp was somewhat mismanaged. 2 weeks before giving birth, my bp was 170/113. I stayed overnight at the hospital on a labetalol drip but my medicine was never increased after discharge. I continued to get high readings (140-150/100s) until I begged for an increase dosage 1 week before birth.
During the emergency c-section, I had a postpartum hemorrhage, with 1675 mL blood loss. I was given tranexamic acid, pitocin, and hemabate which did not stop the bleeding. O’Leary sutures were also given and then methergine. Ultimately, a B-Lynch suture stopped the bleeding, but I was advised an emergency hysterectomy could be needed in the next 24 hours. Luckily, that was not the case.
I am aware if I would have a future pregnancy, there would be a risk for PPH or cesarean hysterectomy. I spoke with my OB, who highly recommended thinking about not having future pregnancies. She said I was extremely lucky. I visited MFM for a pre-consult, and the risk was downplayed and they said knowing this could happen, several precautions would be taken, and a balloon tamponade would be inserted as quickly as possible (not used during my previous c section).
I guess at this point I just don’t know what my path forward should be. Being a mother is my greatest joy, and I would really love to have another child, but obviously do not want to die in the process.

Hello Reddit!
I have been struggling with the following symptoms since I was about 14 years old:

• Sudden pricking/stabbing sensations all over my body without any discernible pattern. It’s not itching but rather a stabbing/pain sensation, which my doctor has referred to as polyneuropathy.

The triggers are always the same:

• Physical exertion such as climbing stairs, sports, etc.
• The transition from cold to warm, although it doesn’t have to be very cold. For example, I might be standing on a platform at 15°C and then board a train that’s +20°C, and I get the symptoms within 2-3 minutes.

The symptoms usually appeared mostly after summer. Last October, it started worse than ever. For weeks, I woke up every night with stabbing, burning pain all over my body. My hands and feet often burn and tingle.
The only relief came from the medication Pregabalin, which stopped the tingling/burning in my hands and feet and the nightly attacks. Only the issues with exertion remained.
I have already undergone all sorts of examinations such as:

• MRI of the head
• MRI of the cervical spine
• Lumbar puncture
• Blood tests
• Vitamin tests
• Examination of the heart by a cardiologist
• Lung function test
• Simple allergy test

Unfortunately, I really don’t know what I might have, and in the end, it will probably be psychological - which doesn’t explain why the symptoms occur due to warmth. Taking Vitamin D3 hasn’t helped either.
Maybe someone with similar symptoms and experiences can be found for an exchange too.
Thank you!

This story took place between 2022-23. It is long but there is a backstory that is pertinent to the information. All names are fake.
So I (27 F) was friends with Amy (29F) for six years. We met when we worked at the same place. We had been through a lot together as friends in that six years including breakups, deaths, divorce and significant friend group changes. Amy was married when we first met but ended up getting divorced. We live in Town A which is almost dead center between two other towns, Town B 45 minutes south and Town C being about and hour north. This is important for later on.
When Amy and her now ex-husband separated with the divorce pending she started dating that same summer (2021) they were not officially divorced until early 2022. In July of 2021 Amy met Xander (34M), and they started dating that month. Xander and I got to know each other more as their relationship progressed and I really liked him. In Fall of 2021 I found out that I was pregnant which was exciting as I had had a miscarriage not long before. Amy and Xander were both very happy for us. I was due in summer of 2022 just a few day after my own birthday. Fast forward to May of 2022 (I am now about 6.5 months pregnant). Xander contacts me privately and says he his planning on proposing to Amy on their one year anniversary and asked me for help with the ring. I was excited for the two of them and immediately said yes I was happy to help! He asked if I could come with him to go ring shopping as I knew what she liked/wanted and had access to her Pinterest. We set up a day and I waddled around three different jewelry stores with him helping him pick out the ring. Prior to his and my appointment I took my friend out and had her casually walk around and look at rings and had the salesperson get me pictures as covertly as they could. We ended up picking out a gorgeous ring and I kept it hidden at my house until he was ready to propose.
My baby shower was set for July the day BEFORE their one year anniversary and when he was planning on proposing . Now I did NOT pick this date. Amy and my mother did as they planned the entire thing. I wasn't even told the theme until I saw the invitations. I wanted it this way as I had a rough pregnancy and was tired and sick a lot of the time. Amy asked me for a guest list with contact information for these people and that was the extent of my contributions. The week of my baby shower I kept trying to get Amy to come with me to get her nails done and she would just refuse so without spoiling the surprise I let it go. I show up to my baby shower to see MAYBE 8 people. I was hurt but figured it was summer and a lot of people may have already had vacations planned so while I was sad I was grateful for who came and got us gifts. I found out later that this was not the case.
The proposal happens the next day and she says yes and the planning begins immediately. About 2 weeks later I am about a month away from my due date and Amy lets me know that her and Xander have picked a date. May of 2023, barely ten months later. I was a little shocked because that isn't a lot of time to plan a wedding and I was about to have a baby. I let her know that I will do what I can to help her plan and be there for her but that wasn't a lot of time to plan (or pay!) for all the things and I will need her to be gracious with me as I learn how to be a new mom. She said she totally understood and would also do what she could to support me and baby. She asked me to be her MOH and I accepted with the conditions that she understand that a lot of the maid of honor things I may not be able to do simply because of how quickly she was getting married and the baby's imminent arrival. Again, she said she totally understood and just wanted me to be a part of the wedding as much as I was able to be. She also said she totally expects baby to be at the wedding and is already thinking of how to accommodate for baby's presence there. That made me feel good and confident that this would all work out.
I ended up having my baby almost a month to the day later however it was an emergency c-section. It was not the beautiful happy moment that most people imagine as I almost died. I don't even remember holding my baby for the first time. The most prevalent memory I have is fighting to open my eyes and stay conscious and hearing the doctor ask my husband if we had talked about choosing between me and baby... (Everyone came out on the other side alive and healthy, thank goodness!). Amy and Xander came to visit us in the hospital after the birth and at this point had not been given full details of everything. When they showed up my husband let Amy hold the baby and gave them the run down of what had happened. All I got was a "Oh my gosh!" and then Amy went straight into talking about wedding plans... I should have said something then but was honestly just too tired.
Things begin to happen a little faster now. Baby and I had a rough time and had to go back into the hospital after being born. We only had to stay one night but when she was informed all we got in return was a "Oh no. I'm sorry." Now I didn't expect her to do something spectacular but it honestly felt like it just didn't matter to her. A few months go by and wedding planning is still happening. They selected their venue which was just past Town B. I called and made her a dress appointment the following January/February as well as started looking around for makeup artists for her as she doesn't typically wear makeup ever and I wear it regularly. There is a wedding dress shop that was right up her alley style wise located in Town B where Amy worked. I had a Saturday appointment set for her and I to go and take a look around. That week (like Monday or Tuesday) I found out that she goes to the shop ALONE and ends up finding her wedding dress. I was again shocked but told her, from the pictures she sent after she had already bought it. That the dress looked amazing. I expressed that I was upset that she went alone but glad she got such a good deal on it (think $2k dress on sale for $800).
She asked me last minute to go to floral shops with her on day and thankfully my husband was home that day and able to watch the baby. I agreed and we ended up driving to every single florist in town only to be turned away by all but one because she didn't make an appointment and the person she needed to talk with for wedding arrangements was unavailable at the time. By the end of that adventure she told me how upset she was that she had only been able to get one quote. I was blunt with her and said that she should have made an appointment or at least called ahead to see if anyone was available. She said that typically the MOH (i.e. me) sets up those appointment. I was annoyed and had a little heart to heart with her and said "I understand that but the last appointment I made for you, you ignored. I also am having a really hard time right now. If you need to pick someone else to take on the MOH duties I totally understand and there will be no hard feelings. I will even still give a speech if you would like me to." She said it was fine and she wanted me to be MOH still. We also had planned on going to a bridal expo the following weekend and I reminded her that most of those people would be there as well as others. She was placated by this it seemed and we ended up going to the bridal expo with her two other bridesmaids.
Now I had met these two other women ONCE. They were friends with her fiancé and she had only met them 3-6 months prior. While they were not mean or rude to me they certainly weren't welcoming. I kept getting comments like "well you are the one with a kid" or "I'm glad you didn't have to bring the baby". It rubbed me the wrong way but again I didn't say anything because it isn't about me right now. Amy ended up booking no one at the expo but did sign up to have a jewelry party. I ended up being unable to attend because I was having a really rough time and my kid was still not sleeping through the night at the time and my husband and I were having a really bad argument. I do admit I should have told her about what was going on and I can see how it hurt her that I didn't tell her but I was in the thick of it, sleep deprived and struggling with post partum depression. I did end up apologizing to her.
The next issue was the makeup trial. I told her specifically beforehand that she will more than likely have to try a few different artists because each has their own unique style and since she doesn't ever wear makeup they will all probably feel strange to her. I did have her look over the photos of the makeup artists that I think she would like and have her put in order the ones she wanted to try. After the appointment she told me that she felt like she looked like "a tranny" and hated the artist I picked. Again I was annoyed and told her that I was doing the best I could and this was difficult because she does not wear make up and there isn't much else I can do other than look online and message some people.
Now the bach trip became the next problem. A group chat was made to include myself and the other two bridesmaids. Amy is not one to go out and drink (she doesn't even drink at home) so I explained to the bridesmaids that I think a fancy dinner would be perfect. We could find other things to add to it like a theater show or something like that. We selected a theater show and a really fancy restaurant that I know Amy would love dates hadn't been decided yet because we had to nail down some details still. They agreed but when it came down to the actual planning things got really quite and I never got a reply. I didn't want to tell Amy either because she was already upset with me over the makeup artist trial I had set up for her.
At this point I am getting burnt out between her, the baby, and all the other issues going on that she was FULLY aware of (I had been fired from my job the day before Christmas Eve so now finances had become difficult). I told her again that I was struggling with everything and would understand if she wanted someone else to act as MOH as I was still just doing the best I could but it didn't seem like it was enough. Again she told me she understood.
The next big issue was the bridesmaid dresses. A couple days before the appointment both me and my kid ended up getting sick. I let her know that we would be unable to go. She asked me if I was sure and that other people would be there to help me with the baby included her soon to be SIL and one of her bridesmaids moms... I told her "I am not driving my sick baby to a different town to have absolute strangers hold him just to try on dresses. Especially during flu season." She said "Okay well I guess I will send you some pictures of what we pick." I told her fine and that was it. I should note that the bridal shop she selected was in Town B so I would have to take my baby all the way down there. I didn't get pictures till the next day. The dresses had been selected and all I had to do was get a dress that was the color assigned to me. I selected several that I liked that were within my budget and sent them to her. She nitpicks all of them and says my tattoo will be visible in all of them. Again, color me shocked. Up until this point she had NEVER mentioned my tattoo (on on left side of my chest and partially on my shoulder) being an issue. I vented to my husband and he helped me calm down and said while he thinks it is strange that she is suddenly against my tattoo when hers are visible in her wedding dress I should at least try to see if there were some styles of dress that I liked that met her criteria.
I ended up buying one of those multiway dresses that you can change the style of the top so that we could find out that worked for us both. It was in this god awful lilac tone that looked awful on my skin tone but not my wedding not my choice. She came over that weekend after it arrived to look at it. I hadn't even shown it to her when the subject of me being MOH comes up again and I told her the same thing as before, that I was struggling but doing my best and it wouldn't hurt my feelings if she felt like she needed to pick someone else to do the things she was expecting of me. Girl RAN out of my house crying when I said this. I looked at my husband like "WFT just happened?" as, again not the first time we have had this conversation. We didn't talk for almost a week (not normal for us) until i asked her to come over and talk so we could figure out what was going on. She shows up and starts going in on me saying how everyone else who is engaged is getting all of these trips and gifts and she isn't. How this should be so much more fun for her and it isn't. How she isn't happy that I am not doing all the MOH stuff that I should and she understands that I have a baby but she just isn't happy. She said that since the baby showed up everything is different and I never have time for her. She said "I had to get my wedding dress all alone! Yippee for me!" and now I am ANGRY.
I snapped and told reminder her that SHE chose to go in on her own after work and try things on. That we had an appointment set up and she just ignored it. I also reminded her that I asked for grace while I figured out how to be a new mom as she was the one who decided to get married within less than a year. That she was the one who went around to placed WITHOUT appointments and expected everyone to drop things for her. I also warned her to watch her mouth when it came to my baby because I had gotten pregnant before she was engaged and let her know before the baby was here that things would be different since I was now responsible for a whole as human. We had a heated argument but eventually came to an agreement that I would still be MOH just without the duties (i.e. I would be giving a speech and walking down the aisle as MOH and on the website as MOH but nothing outside of that now). I told her that I was planning on getting just her and I appointments to get out nails done before the wedding as a present for her and some much needed one on one time for us. She said that sounds amazing and she would love to do that. I gave her the tentative date I was thinking and she agreed. I thought things were, while a little tense, on the mend.
Fast forward and I see photos of her and the bridesmaids, her future SIL and some other woman at her bachelorette party. I had apparently been uninvited and not told. I was EXTREMELY hurt by this. The following weekend I see MORE pictures of her at a DIFFERENT Bach party that her coworker threw for her. I ended up checking her website (as I did periodically) and what do you know? I had been removed ENTIRELY. Now, while I understand that I had signed off on giving up my MOH duties, my understanding was that I was still MOH. I see her future SIL is now listed as MOH. I show my husband and he is also confused as he was home when her and I had our heart to heart. I message her the next day and asked if we could go get coffee and talk. She took awhile to respond but eventually did.
Since this story is so long I will try to summarize as best I can. It started with me gently confronting her about how I saw the website and I thought it was a bit rude that she didn't just tell me that she was replacing me in all aspects and not the ones we had talked about. She said she understood and should have told me before doing anything. I told her that in all honesty I didn't believe her because she had repeatedly told me that she understood things but her actions showed otherwise. I then brought up the bach party and how I wasn't even told anything and she said NOTHING. I explained how it made me feel and asked how she didn't notice I wasn't there and why she hadn't reached out to see where I was? So it was either she didn't care that I wasn't there OR she was made aware that I wasn't there which meant her new "friends" had lied to her OR she had asked them not to invite me. Again she said NOTHING. When she did respond it was a string of "I'm sorry" and "I wanted you there". We talked about it some more but honestly I felt like shit and just didn't care anymore. I told her that we would need to work on things because this was ridiculous and I was seeing a pattern now (including before her wedding/engagement). She said that she agrees and wants to work on things.
We left it at that and a week later I messaged her to ask her what type of manicure she wanted so I could let the salon know. She then informs me that she already had an appointment with the other bridesmaids for the SAME DAY that her and I had agreed on... I snapped. I responded with "Okay" and ignored her for the rest of the week. The day before the wedding she sent me a message asking if I was still coming. I did not respond. I understand that I should have said something and how my silence probably hurt her but I was just so done. So AITA for not going to her wedding?
**Edit: I forgot to include the baby shower guest list! She kept asking me if anyone had RSVP'd yet which I thought was weird since it was HER number on the invites (from what I could see of the sample invite my mother showed me). I later found out that she had been in charge of the invites and apparently didn't send most of them out or follow up with people. The 8 people who were there were the people who my mother invited personally.