I’m so relieved to say that I passed the PMP exam on my first try. Just wanted to share my long-ish journey in case it helps anyone else 😊 Feel free to ask any questions!
Background: My current role is a Project Manager (official title I’ve only held since January this year), however I work in architecture and have managed my own projects for a few years now.
Prep: I first started studying in December 2023 with AR’s Udemy course to get my 35 hours so I could apply to take the exam. I completed Andrew’s course by February 2024, which is maybe longer than most people take. However I work full time and have a toddler so I didn’t have much spare time to devote to studying.
I then applied to PMI to take the exam. I didn’t end up get audited, so that was a relief. Then from there I moved on to getting PMI’s Study Hall Essentials and took all of the mini exams, some practice questions, and 1 full mock exam. My mock exam score was 73% (including expert), and average score for all practice exams was 77%. I actually tried to work my way through most of the learning materials just in case I could gain any benefit from it, but honestly didn’t find it very valuable so I can see why a lot of people skip this.
I also watched some of David McLachlan’s YouTube videos with practice questions and would pause the questions to answer myself first, then proceed and listen to his breakdown of the correct answer.
Finally I also purchased Third3Rock’s exam notes a couple weeks before my exam date, however I really only had time to skim the cheat sheet (there’s a lot of detail in these documents though, so it’s definitely a great resource too)!
Exam: I slept pretty horribly the night before (probably because I was so nervous). My exam was scheduled for 8am and was just over an hour drive away, so I had to wake up pretty early to make sure I got to the test centre in time and felt prepared/not rushed. I ended up writing the exam when I was 14 weeks pregnant (which was a bit risky since you never know how you may feel around this time in pregnancy). Because of this, I ended up asking PMI for Accommodations which they granted - being extended time to take the exam, writing it in a private room, an extra 10 min break was allowed, and watesnack allowed in the private exam room. *However, they actually ended up forgetting to give me the extra time allowance (my clock had 230 mins like a regular PMP exam), but this wasn’t an issue for me since I had a good flow going and was sure I could complete it in time. I also did not end up using the extra 10 min break, but it was nice to know it was an option in case I suddenly felt sick.
I did take advantage of the watesnack allowance in the private room, and this probably helped keep my nausea at bay while I wrote the exam.
The exam itself was hard for me to judge how well I was doing while I took it. I had mostly scenario-based questions, some were quite tricky (1 or 2 where I wasn’t sure what exactly the question was even asking, and some had a couple answers that seemed equally correct) and others were pretty straightforward. I had 1 calculation type question that required a calculator, and maybe 5 or so drag-and-drop questions. I’ve read here on this subreddit that the questions aren’t as “wordy” as Study Hall, but I didn’t find that to be true on my particular exam. Some questions were still quite long. I ended the exam with about 30 mins remaining (and I used 5-10 mins after each section to review before I took my break), so I used an extra 10 mins to do a final review of the last section as well. I had only flagged a couple questions in the last section, but figured I should glance through a lot of the other questions too just in case since I had the time.
Aftermath: The walk from the exam room to the checkout desk was never-wracking as I had no idea how I did. I was so relieved once they handed me the paper and I could read that I preliminarily passed the exam! Phew!
It took about 27 hours to get my exam result breakdown (I took the exam on Monday at 8am, and got results Tuesday at 11am).
Overall it was a long process but I think it was worth it to finally have this certification. I’m looking forward to not having to study anymore and celebrating a bit. 🎉 Good luck to everyone out there who is taking the exam! 🤞🏼

Is TCM a causal or competitive game? We all know the devs want this game to be party fun like F13 and that game was a fun causal game. This game needs to pick a side, you can’t have it both ways unfortunately. We can make the game more causal this way or competitive this way.
The 3v4: 3 against 4 will always be competitive, you have to keep everything balance enough where killers feel strong enough that they can kill and victims need to feel tough enough where they are survivable. One side has to be the stronger side and the happy medium is so much smaller in a 3v4 than a 3v5. The truth is ideally only 1 or 2 victims should be escaping, every escape should be a semi close call where a few seconds could have changed everything. The 3v4 is inherently competitive, I personally think a 3v5 would work better, there are already 5 free victims, you could easily keep the balance of the game due to one side having numbers over the other, having numbers can justify being the weaker side. The more players the weaker you can make victims without it being a problem. Note on the 3v5 queues would be so much better.
Speed of the game: the pace of this game is insane. Some matches LF gets everyone in basement, other matches Johnny picks off everyone in 5 minutes. On the other hand, no victim should be escaping in 45 seconds. There are tons of videos of both happening. The pace of the game must be slowed, family needs to be strong but victims need to be survivable. The family would need a rework, when the game first starts family would be at max “rage” being able to kill one victim then the rage would go down. Once down family can’t just kill victims but could leave them in a freezer or on a hook, maybe leave them in front of grandpa like in the movies but victims can save them. The more progress the victims make on objectives the more rage the family gets, more rage means they can kill another victim. Progress of the match = more family aggression. Every death resets rage but you still can “knock” a victim like the unconscious state the game already has.
Chat: you can’t talk to the other side, you are in two different chats like a ranked match. Proximity chat like in F13 would loosing things up, having everyone able to talk would create a much need causal feel. Yes there will be bad actors but there already are and Gun can handle them as they already do. It would bring both sides together instead of the us Vs them, you’ll be able to see the other person. It would also give everyone a reason to be on comms. Also a ping and a comm wheel would make things feel so nice.
The gameplay loop: for family the loop is so boring it is like being an ai, you can win if you want to be sweaty. Family shouldn’t have to feel like playing like a machine to win, both sides should be able to play like a human without auto losing. The loop is too competitive. Family should be able to remove fuse or valve and put it back, they should be able to relock doors (Idk up to 2 with each lock being weaker). The game is basically over if an objective is complete.
Rushing: no game should be over in seconds. Any non LF character shouldn’t watch the cutscene. Wells should start covered let victims open them and create a escape. Wells are a free fast travel with no downsides, you can easily reset. This will slow the rush meta and fix the pace. Grandpa having to pick only x bc y and z could one before feels so competitive let family vote or a tier system each grandpa levels gives a bit of the ability while level 5 gives the current perk. Now if we slowed everything than grandpa shouldn’t be max in less than 10 minutes. Ideally games now will take 20-30 minutes.
Just some random family mains view, lmk if you disagree or agree, want to add something. I’m open to discussing. Pls be civil.

So last night i did my first King Paimon invocation.I used the invocation from VK Jehannum and used a magical chant from one of Behemoth X's videos i found on Youtube.I drew his sigil which i'll be honest was harder to draw than Lilith's but it felt quite artistic and i know he specialises in that area.I used to take art classes like 18 years ago at school.Im not kidding when i say i probably had goosebumps like 20-30 times last night.I had a slight burning sensation on my neck.One moment i felt hot and cold and its like the air in front of me was cooler.Something touched my neck.That was kinda freaky because it was just so random and i thought maybe its one of those flying insects since the weather is warmer here than what it should be.I did see a small one in my room but fail to see how it would have made that sensation because there was some strength in that.The one thing i found very odd was that when i googled Paimon none of the pages were opening.This was after the ritual.Has anyone else experienced this and would this perhaps be his sense of humour?Reddit pages,Tumblr pages,almost all of the ones i clicked on about him took too long to load and didnt work.Now they work fine.Weird.

VIZZINI: So, it is down to you. And it is down to me.
The MAN IN BLACK nods and comes nearer.
VIZZINI: If you wish her dead, by all means keep moving forward.
VIZZINI pushes his long knife harder against BUTTERCUP's unprotected throat.
MAN IN BLACK: Let me explain...
VIZZINI: There's nothing to explain. You're trying to kidnap what I've rightfully stolen.
MAN IN BLACK: Perhaps an arrangement can be reached.
VIZZINI: There will be no arrangement [pauses, deliberately] and you're killing her!
VIZZINI jabs with his long knife. BUTTERCUP gasps against the pain. The MAN IN BLACK stops quickly.
MAN IN BLACK: But if there can be no arrangement, then we are at an impasse.
VIZZINI: I'm afraid so -- I can't compete with you physically. And you're no match for my brains.
MAN IN BLACK: You're that smart?
VIZZINI: Let me put it this way: have you ever heard of Plato, Aristotle, Socrates?
MAN IN BLACK: Yes.
VIZZINI: Morons.
MAN IN BLACK: Really? In that case, I challenge you to a battle of wits.
VIZZINI: For the Princess?
The MAN IN BLACK nods.
VIZZINI: To the death?
The MAN IN BLACK nods.
VIZZINI: I accept.
MAN IN BLACK: Good. Then pour the wine.
VIZZINI fills the goblets with wine. The MAN IN BLACK pulls a small packet from his clothing and hands it to VIZZINI.
MAN IN BLACK: Inhale this, but do not touch.
VIZZINI: I smell nothing.
MAN IN BLACK: [Takes the packet back] What you do not smell is called Iocaine powder. It is odorless, tasteless, dissolves instantly in liquid, and is among the more deadlier poisons known to man.
VIZZINI: Hmm.
VIZZINI watches as the MAN IN BLACK takes the goblets, turns his back. A moment later, he turns again, faces VIZZINI, drops the Iocaine packet. It is now empty. The MAN IN BLACK rotates the goblets in a little shell game maneuver then puts one glass in front of VIZZINI and the other in front of himself.
MAN IN BLACK: All right: where is the poison? The battle of wits has begun. It ends when you decide and we both drink, and find out who is right and who is dead.
VIZZINI: But it's so simple. All I have to do is divine from what I know of you. Are you the sort of man who would put the poison into his own goblet, or his enemy's? [pauses to study the MAN IN BLACK] Now, a clever man would put the poison into his own goblet, because he would know that only a great fool would reach for what he was given. I'm not a great fool, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of you. But you must have known I was not a great fool; you would have counted on it, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of me.
MAN IN BLACK: You've made your decision then?
VIZZINI: Not remotely. Because iocaine comes from Australia, as everyone knows. And Australia is entirely peopled with criminals. And criminals are used to having people not trust them, as you are not trusted by me. So I can clearly not choose the wine in front of you.
MAN IN BLACK: Truly, you have a dizzying intellect.
VIZZINI: Wait till I get going! Where was I?
MAN IN BLACK: Australia.
VIZZINI: Yes -- Australia, and you must have suspected I would have known the powder's origin, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of me.
MAN IN BLACK: [beginning nervousness] You're just stalling now.
VIZZINI: You'd like to think that, wouldn't you? You've beaten my giant, which means you're exceptionally strong. So, you could have put the poison in your own goblet, trusting on your strength to save you. So I can clearly not choose the wine in front of you. But, you've also bested my Spaniard which means you must have studied. And in studying, you must have learned that man is mortal so you would have put the poison as far from yourself as possible, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of me.
MAN IN BLACK: [nervously] You're trying to trick me into giving away something -- it won't work --
VIZZINI: [triumphant] It has worked -- you've given everything away -- I know where the poison is.
MAN IN BLACK: [fool's courage] Then make your choice.
VIZZINI: I will. And I choose [stops suddenly and points at something behind the Man in Black] what in the world can that be?
MAN IN BLACK: [Turns, looks] What? Where? I don't see anything.
VIZZINI quickly switches the goblets while the MAN IN BLACK has his head turned.
VIZZINI: Oh, well, I-I could have sworn I saw something. No matter.
The MAN IN BLACK turns to face him again. VIZZINI starts to laugh.
MAN IN BLACK: What's so funny?
VIZZINI: I'll tell you in a minute. First, let's drink -- me from my glass, and you from yours.
And he picks up his goblet. The MAN IN BLACK picks up the one in front of him. As they both start to drink, VIZZINI hesitates a moment. Allowing the MAN IN BLACK to drink first, he swallows his wine.
MAN IN BLACK: You guessed wrong.
VIZZINI: [roaring with laughter] You only think I guessed wrong... [louder now] ...that's what's so funny! I switched glasses when your back was turned. Ha-ha, you fool.
The MAN IN BLACK sits silently.
VIZZINI: You fell victim to one of the classic blunders. The most famous is "Never get involved in a land war in Asia." But only slightly less well known is this: "Never go in against a Sicilian when death is on the line!Ahahahaha, ahahahaha, ahahaha--

• thud *

2007, I was 10 and would turn 11 later in the year. My sister’s boyfriend was over the house a lot. He was a skater, Bam Margera type of guy who lived at the beach (albeit on the east coast) and would drive up on the weekends to see my sister. They used to listen to music on my sister’s stereo a lot. They would listen to a variety of music ranging from Grateful Dead to Staind to The Doors. However one CD would play a lot more than the others, the 1996 Sublime self titled album. She would listen to it with and without him and I would constantly hear “Wrong Way” and “Santeria” despite not knowing the title of the song or the artist. Fast forward to Summer of 2008, I was up way later than I should have been trying to remember the lyrics to “Santeria”. All I knew was “what I really wanna know, ah baby”. So I plugged that into Google and got a YouTube video for “Santeria”. From there I downloaded “Wrong Way”, “What I Got”, “Santeria”, and “Doin’ Time” onto my iPod and they were a good portion what I listened to for the rest of the summer. When my sister went to college I immediately ransacked her CD collection and downloaded 40oz, Robbin the Hood, and the Self titled.
Fast forward to early 2009, I’m still listening to Sublime almost daily. One day I’m online and I notice an article about Sublime reforming with an 18 year old named Rome Ramirez. I was very excited to see this band that I just discovered was coming back. Of course I was just excited when they changed the name to Sublime with Rome. Even as a kid I knew it was a good way of separating the two. A couple years pass and I’m not following the news on SWR until 2011 when I see they’re releasing new music on an album called “Yours Truly”. Here’s where SWR would have a knack for releasing music that coincided with major events in my life. I graduated grade school in 2011 and the soundtrack of that summer was “Yours Truly”, I would listen to every track on that album constantly. For Christmas that year I had my parents get me the physical CD. From 2011-2015 I made new friends in high school and was able to introduce a lot of them to both Sublime and Sublime with Rome.
“Sirens” came out the summer I graduated high school and almost everybody in my friend group was listening to it. I have very good memories of hearing “Wherever You Go” at the beach, driving at night with friends, and at parties. That same summer me and 3 others went to see SWR live (my first of 4 times) and it was a great experience to be able to hear the music I love played live.
“Blessings” came out the summer I graduated college and the lyrics to that album resonated with me more than the previous albums. Especially “Light On”. It was yet another summer that I was going through a life change while having new SWR music to accompany it.
Fast forward to 2023-2024, I’m now 27. The past year saw a bad breakup and a departure from a job that I really began to hate. I have not been in too many dark spots in my life, but this one required a little spiritual and emotional recovery. I can confidently say I am truly happy again. I’ve got another summer to look forward and yet again new SWR music to accompany me. This is the main reason I stick up for SWR and Rome as an individual. Their music is connected to major parts of my life. If you don’t like the music itself you’re free to bash it but I will never see the group as “hacks” as some people like to call them.

Hey guys!
I like a girl since we were in class 6th!
Lambi story hai dosto, don't judge me!
She left school in 7th grade, just as I realized I liked her. Despite struggling academically, I unexpectedly came 2nd in 8th grade. I tried reaching out on Facebook and WhatsApp, but conversations were sparse. In 9th and 10th, I switched schools to an all-boys institution, where I found her on Facebook through mutual friends. Despite her limited activity, I maintained contact through Facebook and WhatsApp groups. Through Polytech and Btech, our communication sporadically continued. In my 4th year of Btech, we reconnected and began sharing topics, including collaborating on articles for my website. Despite our busy schedules, we stayed in touch, and she even used me as a professional reference during a job switch.
I kept talking to her, sometimes flirting, while also pursuing my passion for guitar and posting songs on Instagram. She would often ask for song recommendations and even requested songs dedicated to her. Additionally, she asked me to edit her videos, showing a growing level of trust and connection. She eventually moved to Pune for a job, and we remained in contact as she searched for accommodation, even engaging in video calls. When her company allowed remote work, she returned to town, sparking strong feelings in me.
Feeling like everything she said was a green light, I decided to confess my feelings. One day, while chatting on WhatsApp, she asked for a caption for her display picture, and in my nervousness, I opted for a light-hearted response instead of revealing my true feelings.
After that I asked her that I have a crust on someone! and want to tell her, will she like me!She asked me do you talk to her? I said yes. She said - daily baat hoti hai? I said - casually! jese tere se baat hoti hai! kabhi lagta hai hint hai kabhi nahi lagta! She said - 2-3 din cut off krke dekh and see her reaction I said - mai agar msg na kru to hafto tak uska msg na aae. She said - fir nahi hai kuch, agar wo like krti hai to she will message you chahe busy hi kyu na ho! and if you like her, tell her about your feelings.
And I saw that she deleted her photo for which she asked caption! I asked her why she said mind changed and not posting now!
Next day we are talking about games and she said to play truth and dare first ques she asked is who is your crust tell her name? I said - 'her name' she thought thatw as a joke and we move on!
Now after that I asked what are my chances if I ask my crush? She said - I don't know, and I don't who is your crush I said - you are She said - tu majak krra hai I said - mai majak kru karunga She said - no chances then😂.
That was the message and I broke down! It was midnight and it is light raining!
After that I tried to maintain the talk but it was not like before! Basically I have't said her clearly so that was a mistake of mine!
Now is been 2 years, we just casually talks in months! and last I messaged her is a year ago.
Now since I never go into any relation after that! The feeling are not that strong but I still kind of like her. sometime it feels I should tell her again and ask her out! and sometime I fear if she I really want her!
So what should I do? I am still confused and I might know what to do, but still have doubts!

Hello All,
As the title says, I thinky wife has germaphobia or some anxiety related to germs/getting sick.
Some examples: After her family leaves, I have to wipe anything they sat on or touched with Lysol wipes.
A week ago her family stopped by and we made them lunch. They touched the ketchup, mustard, and a container of potato salad. Those were treated as contaminated and has to be thrown out.
I have to wash my hands 20+ times daily because of germs. If I go to a doctor's office, her family's home, or anywhere really, we have to change and do laundry. Depending on where we went, we may have to shower right away.
I've tried to talk to her about this. She denies there being an issue and won't talk to a therapist.
It's becoming increasingly difficult to deal with and just feels like it's draining my happiness.
I love her but I feel like I don't like her as much as I used to. I'm becoming snappier and more frustrated, but she won't try to understand my perspective.
I don't think this healthy hygiene. It seems so far overboard.
TL;DR: I think my wife has germaphobia or health anxiety. I have to excessively wash my hands, lysol wipe things down, and it get's worse after people have been in our homes. I'll spend hours cleaning until she feels comfortable. I had to throw out ketchup and mustard bottles because her uncle touched them. I'm certain the pandemic made things worse, but I had seen some signs prior. She's also had some poor experiences within the healthcare system, so I can somewhat understand the health anxiety. This has me stressed out and feeling like it impacts our life a lot.

Trigger warning - religious differences
I always bragged about how awesome my extended family was. NO family is perfect, but I heard horror stories and always counted my blessings that I had strong ties with my Aunt and uncles since I was raised an only child. That was until a few months ago when my last living Aunt, whom I considered a second mom, shattered me.
Ok, some backstory here. My aunt is a Jehovah’s Witness. Now before you get all judgy, I have always loved her, my uncle and her son with all of my heart. I still do. I respect that they have found faith and live by this code on the daily. I have met many people from their congregation and loved them all (ok, a couple of exceptions). I also appreciate the community they have and love they all show each other. If it weren’t for the religion itself, I would have converted.
I, however, am pagan and have always been since I was about 5 (even the first book I signed out from the school’s library was about witchcraft). Not raised that way, but always found spiritual comfort in nature and the natural world. I have a very strong connection and dedication to my Powers That Be and work every day to help the world be a better place. My Aunt did not know my religion until about 7 years ago. That being said, she and I would have very philosophical conversations when we hung out together. Even at the age of 8, I would listen to her preach to me and ask questions to which she never had answers. I remember her telling me how only 144,000 people would be allowed in heaven and didn’t I think that would be wonderful knowing that our whole family could be together again after we died. We’d all be in heaven if we were all Jehova;s witnesses. I had gone with her many times to do field service (door to door) and asked her why they do that if there’s only a certain number of people allowed. Didn’t that lessen her chances of getting in because I’m sure there were many people more deserving than myself. How did she know for sure she’d be one of the ones to get in and was that fair to keep bringing people into the religion when all the spaces were probably already filled up?
At 8 years old, I had many questions and was just trying to figure these things out. Since she was an adult, I figured she had the answers. My questions were not with malice, just for a want of better understanding. When she didn’t have the answers, I'd ask my mother and grandmother. While they were extremely amused, they said they never understood either. They never said anything bad about her or her attempts to get them to convert, just allowed me to explore religion and spirituality as I wished so I could make my own decision of what was right for me.
Once I was an adult, I avoided talking to her about religion, but found that if I didn’t ask questions and just let her talk, it made her happy. I know she’s a good person at heart and that’s all that matters. After my Mom passed, my aunt and I talked almost every week. I loved talking to her and she became even more like a mom to me. She gave me encouragement and we supported each other through health and emotional crises. I’d make it a point to try and visit at least once a year for a few days so she could visit with my daughter and I. We’d always do lunch with her friends and I loved it. I fell in love with some of the people in her congregation and wished we could live closer to hang out more. I, however, never wavered on my spiritual beliefs, but I have never cared about the religion, race, or sexuality of anyone. If we got along, we were friends and that was that.
My aunt and I had come to an understanding that I would not convert and that we would love and respect each other regardless. Religious talk was off the table for the most part until both of my uncles (my aunt’s two brothers) passed and she had a very hard time dealing with it. She was the last surviving sibling and she was sinking into a depression. I’d talk to her at length and listen to her as she mourned the fact that she would never have contact with them (and my mom) in heaven because they never converted. When she asked me what I believed, I told her that I believed that the soul lived on after the body died and that I believed in reincarnation. I explained my beliefs were closer to hindu and buddhism than christianity (so she had context). We had very long talks and she expressed that she respected my views and actually found comfort in talking with me.
That was until my daughter and I opened our store about 3 years ago. It’s a metaphysical shop and we have crystals, teas, gifts, jewelry, candles and more (about 10% strict;y pagan). My aunt was happy for us until it dawned on her that we might sell pagan stuff. I told her what we sold and she asked me if I was a witch. I replied that I suppose that was one way to describe me, but, again, I considered myself spiritual and that I followed a path closer to buddhism, hinduism, native american. I sent a couple of pictures of the jewelry that we made and she said when we came down, we should bring the jewelry making.
We did, I brought down our best crystals to wrap and bracelet materials and my daughter and I made her a necklace with a very expensive stone (A $200 piece). She brought her friends over and they picked out crystals that they wanted, made bracelets and such. We had fun and I was happy to do it, though I wasn’t expecting people that I had never met before. Still, we had fun. My daughter and I also brought her a basket with local items from our hometown, (Raw honey, handmade stoneware mugs, cutting board, herbal tea and some other items made by us as well) She was thrilled. My aunt and uncle had taken a couple of bad falls a few months before and so my daughter and I made them hand carved cedar walking sticks as well because we knew they went for regular walks and thought it would help their balance. It felt amazing to lavish expensive and heartfelt gifts on them as I has struggled so long with money. I was finally in a place that I could do it. To say the gifts probably totalled in excess of 1K is on the low side, but I was still happy to do it.
Besides the fact that they tried converting my daughter when I wasn’t around, it was a lovely visit. The only problem I had was with a new person my aunt introduced us to. This woman, we’ll call her Dee, ignored me and only talked to my daughter. She was my age if not older, but conversed with my daughter, 17, like I wasn’t there. They traded contact info and Dee insisted that they keep in touch while my daughter was in college. Dee said she was going to keep an eye on her. I thought that was odd, but I did enjoy the feeling of having an extended family sort of since I actually had no family besides my Aunt.
Let’s jump forward to the following year and we were struggling financially. Not horrible, but unable to lavish the gifts that we did the year before. Instead, I created a beautiful aromatherapy candle, some delicious herbal teas and we found a couple of very rare antique tea cups that had amazing value to them (about $100 a piece). We made a basket for her and I decided we would cook for them. (gluten free, soy free, dairy free etc). Our visit went so well, it was great to see them. We just enjoyed hanging out with them and talking. They loved the meal we made for them and the dairy free organic chocolate I made. Everything was great until the day we were leaving. Dee showed up and again ignored me, talked to my daughter and chastised her for getting a pet snake as that was an animal associated with the devil. My daughter is one to push the envelope a bit and said how she wanted to get a tattoo as well, one of a snake. Both my aunt and Dee were shocked and said she should never get a tattoo.. Again related to the devil, I went to the bathroom as I was not involved in the conversation and knew my daughter could hold her own. Little do they know that my daughter is also trans. I told her not to say anything to them just yet. I came back to them talking about how college was going and I thought my aunt and Dee would faint when she said her college roommate was male. She quickly explained that it was fine because he was gay and how awesome he was (he is btw). She quickly realized what I meant when she saw their reaction to him being gay. It wasn’t that she was living with a boy, it was that he was gay and “why did he choose to be gay.” I tried redirecting the conversation a couple of times, but they ignored me.
They finally let it go, but just after Dee left, we were getting ready to depart as well. My aunt returned the basket I made for her (minus the expensive tea cups). She said she could not accept them as they were touched by the devil. Shocked, I asked what she meant. She said that because they came from my store, they carried Satan's influence and she could not have them in our home. Truthfully, I explained that I made those items for her and that the only things that came from the store were the teacups. She was confused why I had gotten upset. When I explained that I gave her a gift and if she didn’t want it, she could regift it or throw it away. That gift came from my heart with all the love I have for her and that I didn't need to know her opinions about the gifts because It insinuated I, myself, was evil and it was extremely hurtful. She basically continued on insisting that I was just not aware of how much Satan had a hold of me. All I could do was tell her how much I loved her and leave.
I didn’t take her calls and cried about this for over a month. I finally felt strong enough to talk to her and again she insisted that because those items touched my hands, they were influenced by satan and she wished I could understand how they just can’t have that influence in their home. Frustrated, I asked how she could shop at grocery stores or buy anything from department stores because she can’t guarantee that those items didn’t touch hands that were influenced by satan. Also , I asked her how they could have eaten the food I prepared for them and why did they even invite me into their home to begin with if that’s the way she felt about me. She suddenly needed to go.
We talked a few times since then but it always came back to religion. At one point I asked her again why she would even invite us to her home if she felt that way. Her response was to save my daughter. The pain and heartache she has inflicted is immense, but I cannot bring myself to argue the point because I’m afraid if I make my point to her, it will break her. She’s in her 80’s and I believe has the beginnings of dementia. Her religion brings her comfort and I don’t want to say anything that might make her doubt her religion at her advanced age.
I’ve decided it is probably best for both of our mental health to stop all contact with her( with the exception of sending cards telling them how much I love them) even though I’ve always seen her as a second mom. AITA for making this decision and not trying to work things out with her or allow her to believe that I still might convert?
*** Please understand this is not a bash on any religion. Everyone has the right to believe in whatever religion they wish. That includes me, so if you feel the need to bash them or me for our spiritual choices, you can move along ***
I have never felt like I needed to hide any part of me from my friends, family, and the public in general. Not until now. Buckle up, this is a bumpy ride.
I've always been kind hearted, almost to a flaw. I took care of my grandmother, my step-dad, my mom and helped with a family friend during long term and terminal illnesses. I had my daughter and, without her father's help, raised her on my own with very little to no support. I helped friends with their farm who left me homeless in the end because I want interested in an extramarital affair. I lost my home and all that I loved including my husband because he lied to me and never paid it mortgage while I was recovering from an illness. In short, I have had a tough life, but it has never made me turn my back on anyone who needed help or in difficult family when they were ignored by the others. That's just some background before I tell you this situation.
Three years ago, after a bout of covid, my daughter was suicidal. She had been in the top three of her HS class and yet at that point almost failed her junior year. Not knowing if she would have the emotional strength to face college and adulting in general, I set up a plan B for her. I started a store in her name and that way she'd have something at least to fall back on if she was unable to function in the m-f 9 to 5 world. We started slow by doing craft fairs, seeking crystals, candles, jewelry, and gifts. We were kicked out of one because the person running it assumed we were witches. She was not wrong exactly as we identified as pagan, but we lived our life closest to the Buddhist and Hindu traditions, not traditional wicca. These were people who knew us for years and were considered acquaintances if not friends.
Our business flourished and we ended up opening our brick and mortar that fall after remodeling our garage/ barn and turning it into a store front. Even though I run it for my daughter, it is hers and we work together to keep it going.
In the past few years I've lost my mom, and two uncles. I have no family besides my mother's sister and her husband which we were pretty close. My aunt knew that I was pagan and had tried recruiting me into her religion since I was 5. Even at that tender age her religion never made sense and I would ask her questions to which she never had answers. I accepted her and respected her and her religion even though I didn't agree. I loved the people she introduced me to that were in her church and I always got along with them. That is until we visited the year after we started our store. My aunt was thrilled about us bringing crystals down and making jewelry with her. We met a new friend of hers (middle aged woman) who ignored me completely and oozed affection on my daughter. She got my daughter's contact info and contacted her frequently. Trying to convert and ”save” her. My daughter wasn't having it as even though she was in a delicate state, she is very level headed and strong willed.
This year we visited and we brought herbal tea, candies, and rare vintage tea cups for my aunt. The day we were leaving, she handed back everything but the vintage tea cups and told me she couldn't accept them because they were touched by Satan (aka made by my hands). To say I was devastated is an understatement. This woman was always like a second mom to me and we had grown closer after my mom passed away. It was a 20 hour drive home and I cried most of the way. I cried for weeks after a well. Thinking of it now still brings me tears. As she was telling me that Satan had a hold on me and that she was trying to save me, all I did was remind her how much I loved her and my uncle. Every time since then that we have talked, she says the same thing, but now she told me I was a lost cause. I feel like trying to stay in touch is detrimental to her mental health ( and my own). I don't want to give up or abandon the last of my family, but I can't talk to her and endure the endless insinuations that I'm evil because I don't believe in her religion. She took a bad fall and broke her arm. The last time we spoke, she talked as if it was my fault for bringing the devil into her home.
While I could usually brush this off as delusional ranting, it hits hard because the same day she fell, my dad died. I know the Powers That Be only give as much as we can handle, I just wish they didn't have so much faith in me.
They are in their 80s. I know in all the pieces of my broken heart that they'll never be able to accept my daughter and I unless we change religions and it has crossed my mind just to say we have to put her at ease, but I can't lie like that to them and we cannot betray ourselves like that either. By

hello, I haven't been to the doctor, so I don't know if I do have hyperhidrosis, I just know this is the right place to come for sweaty advice. I have sweaty hands, sweaty arms, sweaty legs. it could be 40 degrees outside and I'd still sweat as long as I move. everytime I go into stores, I can feel the sweat dripping under my shirt and it makes my social anxiety so much worse because I refrain from doing so much in fear that ill sweat. even sitting here on the couch where its 72 degrees, im sweating. I'm the only person I know where I need to go to the bathroom to freshen myself after an hour of being regularly active(for example, i was at dave and busters for around 3 hours, i had to freshen up twice. i went to the mall and bookstore in the ohio winter, i needed to freshen up twice). my torso sweats especially bad when im TALKING TO PEOPLE??? like are you kidding me??? is there anything that's really helped for you that i dont have to get from a doctor? no matter what I do or how cold or breathable my outfits are I always sweat. I use baby powder after showering and I try to wear breathable clothes and use old spice pure sport which is the only deodorant that works even a little. but it's js not enough, just does not work. I just want to hug someone for once without fearing they'll never touch me again after realizing how sweaty i am.

Well, attempt #2 because the first one broke. Whoops.
Anyway this post is an attempt to find all the Wildbow Podcasts and put them all in one place. There are a lot of them, so if I missed any ether in english or in another language, then please comment down below and I will add them to the list.
If you are instead looking for audiobooks, then check out this helpful link

WORM:

1: We've got Worm
Here is a link to the youtube playlist and to the main site
2: Decomposing Worm
Here is a link to theyoutube playlist and to the main site
3: Brockton Bay Chronicles
Here is a link to the youtube playlist
4: Brockton Bay BookClub + Dissecting Worm (2 podcasts in one place)
Here is a link to the youtube channel

WARD:

1: We've Got Ward
Here is a link to the youtube playlist and to the main site
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PACT:

1: Deep in Pact
Here is a link to the youtube playlist and to the main site
2: Pale in Comparison (PALE SPOILERS)
Here is a link to the list of what Pale chapter you should have reached by the time you listen to an episode
Here is a link tothe youtube playlist and to the main site

PALE:

1: Pale Reflections
Here is a link to the youtube playlist and to the main site
2: Our mom critiques Wildbow
Here is a link to the youtube playlist and to the main site
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3: The Other Podcast (Dicusses both Pact and Pale)
link to the part 1 and part 2
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TWIG:

1: Twigging onto Twig
Here is a link to the youtube playlist and to the main site
(This podcast contains frequent spoilers to other stories like Worm and Pale. They do usually give a spoiler tag, but you should have the pause button ready on hand.)
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CLAW:

1: Clawful Evil Probable Claws
Here is a link to the youtube playlist
2: Claw and Order
Here is a link to the first episode (cant find a better link)

I’m not too sure if it stems from masking or the fact that make-up has always been a special interest of mine. But for some reason I can wear make-up, I just cannot stand the feeling of lotion on my hands or anywhere on my body from the neck down.
Does anyone else experience this?
A little more information:
I have to keep a hand towel on with me when applying my skincare products and make-up products (that require me to use my hands) because I need to wipe my hands clean after every use or I simply can’t continue. This is normal for me and part of my routine now.
My face seems to be an okay zone for this sensory issue. There are some days when I am hyperaware of the fact that I am wearing make-up but it actually helps me to not touch my face or burst into tears as easily, especially at work.
The reason I call make-up a special interest is because when it comes to applying make-up using my brushes/blenders and not my hands, it’s incredibly and intensely soothing.
On my bad days, when I need something to help keep me calm and regulate my heartbeat, I’ll listen to music and apply a full face of make-up, only to wipe it off an hour later. It stops my hands from shaking, it keeps my brain focused on a particular task so I am less likely to convince myself something I said last week was taken the wrong way and panic over it. It also gives me a wide topic to research and overall I find comfort in wearing make-up throughout the day.
But I have to force myself to use lotion on my dry legs and use sunscreen in the summer. It’s a process that makes me gag. Thankfully the sensory seeker in me can focus more on the scent of the lotion than the application of it, but all sunscreen just smells awful so there’s no helping that one.
I guess I am just curious if anyone else has a similar experience? It seems so strange to me.
Make-up or skincare products on the face are okay but your body is a whole different story?

I gotta say allegedly ok. Allegedly, nobody in the flashmob wants to speak up because the entire thing is still a hot mess and no one wants to be identified so I’ll tell my truth here where others will see it. Here’s a rumor I got about what happened that day with the flash mob.
Baby Storme had allegedly asked on Instagram if specifically BLACK alternative artists would come out and help her do a flash mob. From her perspective, this was going to be the FIRST largest black alt flash mob. Some people felt like the moment would be historic (in a positive way) and felt like they could build off of the experience so a lot of new artists and influencers signed up. My friend who is black and alt was super excited and is an upcoming artist so they hopped on this opportunity quickly. From my friends perspective, the dancing was mid and some people didn’t seem black low key but it was ok because it wasn’t supposed to be a music video. The plan was allegedly to do a large flash mob at The Grove (an outdoor mall and public area) and just have some fun and connect with people. They did two dance rehearsals for this flash mob (no one was getting paid to do this mind you but apparently she offered to get them all “gift baskets”) and the day of did a few more takes before heading to The Grove.
When everyone arrived the vibe was chill and everyone was really cool. Allegedly there were a couple of larger influencers that showed up to show support and dance along. The first flash mob was welcomed openly and was fun to watch. I heard even Marley (GlamGothBeauty) was there to support Storme. The music wasn’t that loud and everyone around them seemed to have a lot of fun because it was really cute and respectful. They moved from one end of The Grove to the other and did the flash a second time and that’s when it seemed to get a little weird.
Some of the large influencers allegedly pulled Storme aside and kind of convinced her it would be a “good idea” to meet up at Target. They said they filmed there often and it would be cute. Storme announced to the mob to follow her to Target and at this point some of the people didn’t even go. Others, begrudgingly, followed her to Target and even bought things like water and snacks to kill time. Keep in mind some people in this mob were visibly teenagers or young adults. The Target itself was almost COMPLETELY empty seeing as it was really close to closing. One half of the flash mob was at the front talking to employees of Target about the plan to film and the employees seemed excited. The other half of the mob however, allegedly reports they were being followed around by the security. They said it was because they are black and alternative and in the back of a target really close to closing time.
When the flash mob finally all gets there and meets up they start the music and start to dance and THIS is where the other footage comes from. As they began to dance and the security (who had already been following a few people) blocked the camera. A fight about filming immediately ensues between this security officer and her manager. Frustrated (because Storme at this point had COMPLETELY frozen in fear) one member (a guy mind you) yells that they should just complete the dance. At this point I believe that person was hearing the racism part and decided to stand against RACISM and help. Remember, if these are black alt kids some people in there are protestors and automatically mobilize when they hear “racism” and “black woman” so I felt like in his head he was defending and helping Storme. Like they must already be familiar with her PREVIOUS racism TikTok’s seeing as they are her fans working for free. Her mob seemed to empathize deeply with her because her content was already talking about racism (which personally her content to me seemed pretty victim complex but I digress).
Immediately during and after the dance some people, laughing, allegedly assault the security. Most of them ran off (clearly because at this point the police were being called) and some people allegedly stayed behind to keep filming TikTok’s OUTSIDE the target. Even second hand it was super embarrassing and seemed like the mob thought they were allowed in the Target and it didn’t become a mess until it was explained to people involved later.
A couple days pass and people in the mob are waiting for footage from The Grove and immediately feel shock when, according to my friend, the ONLY upload she has is the Target video. Even as a friend, I watched my friend get used for this agenda and they didn’t even really get a gift basket! The video allegedly went SO viral people in the mob have had their platforms irreparably damaged or want nothing to do with it.
Some of these people were waiting for responses from her and instead got the upload about her psychic stuff and the Ice Spice shit and honestly I don’t think people realize what happened to the people in that flash mob or how impressionable everyone involved was.
Don’t doxx her or anything it’s just another perspective on that event.

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"Festicus…"
Marcus stared down at the felled rat, watching as his great furrowed head lulled and fell to the side.
"Festicus!"
"He issss being gone, Ssssire," Verulex said behind him.
Marcus bent low and tried to rouse the great brute that had saved his life, denying that he was about to let another rat man die for him like Gatskeek had.
"Wake up, Marrow soldier!" he yelped in the creature's vacant eyes. "There's cavalry charges still to be led!"
No response. Sullen and vengeful, Marcus let the head drop.
I hesitated, he thought. I didn't act quick enough. If I had the damn foresight to grab that blade sooner…
"Be letting him be. He isss doing hisss duty to Clan and –"
"Oh, shut up, priest," Marcus spat, turning with fury to look upon the hooded cretin who was still managing to coax his anger even now. "Your Order might consider a single rat's life to be meaningless – something to just throw away in the service of your God, but this warrior deserved more than this."
The High Priest of Glumrot fixed Marcus with his puss-filled eyes. Those eyes spoke of toxic thoughts ruminating beneath them.
"Be turning your thoughtssss to vengeancccce, Sssssire," Verulex wheezed as he shambled over to the Matron's eviscerated body and prodded at it with the staff of his office, making sure the creature's life had finally expired. He then nodded down at the still breathing form of the unconscious Yeeva below Marcus, the soft skin of her belly weeping purple blood from the perforation Marcus had made as she took Festicus's life.
He scoffed at the priest and picked up the Wakisashi that had fallen at his feet, bending low and directing his hatred at the fallen Yokra who was mumbling as though in a dream-state.
Perhaps it was a meditation practice of their kind, Marcus thought. It didn't make any biological sense for a creature to immediately collapse into unconsciousness as she just had in receiving such a near fatal wound.
He leaned closer to her as Verulex amplified his voice and called down to the army still waiting below, telling them to send a detachment and a priest to sanctify the body of one of their dead. The enemy Yokun had fallen, and they would receive some special treatment of their own.
Marcus heard general cheers resound as this proclamation echoed all through the dim streets of the putrid city. But he ignored them. Instead, he craned his neck to hear what the felled serpent was saying. There was a word on her lips that he could swear had the ring of familiarity to it.
"Matriarch…Pale…Pale Lady…"
Loyal to a fault, Marcus thought. Even in death, you sing your leader's praises. If you are a representative of one of her soldiers, I'm sure she's a force to be reckoned with among your people. That's just another reason why you have to die.
He brought the edge of the Yokun's Wakizashi to her scaled, bloody throat, tensing up as he knew that he had to do this. He had to. He wouldn't hesitate anymore.
And just as he held her head in his hand and made to bring the blade across her neck, that's when he heard it:
"…Mari…"
His hand stopped.
His brain froze.
The Wakizashi wavered as though willing him to follow-through with his desire.
But a very different desire now burned in his heart as that word traveled through his entire system and sent shivers running down his spine.
"Matriarch…Lady…Maria…"
The blade clattered against the silo platform.
"What isss happening?" Verulex asked. "Ssssire, isss thissss beasssst resssisssting?"
Marcus shook his head.
"No."
"Then be sssslaying her and let ussss go. I sssshal be honored to be ssssshowing you Clan Glumrot'sssss wayssss of debassssing the dead."
Marcus could barely even hear the words of the priest. He could register nothing in this moment except the croaking of that name – Mari's name – emanating from the slitted lips of the downed serpent.
"Bah!" Verulex howled. "Be giving me the blade. I sssshal do i-"
"No," Marcus said, then turning to the priest as though he had just been transported back to reality. "No. We take her alive."
The priest cocked his vile, hooded head at Marcus.
"Your pity for thesssse foreign hereticssss isssss doing you no favorssss, Sssshai-Alud," he said. "The Koboldssss are bad enough. Now you are even ssssshowing merccccy to the killer of your commander?"
"We…we need to question her," Marcus explained, straightening up and trying to compose himself as best he could. "We have the opportunity here to find out what she knows, where she came from, even Skegga's force composition potentially. We can't afford to lose this opportunity."
He looked into the face of the ratman and saw what he had not quite been able to see in the war-chamber earlier that night. He saw the wrinkled eyes of the holy rat narrow, and the teeth flare in anger.
"Sssssire," the priest began, slowly. "You are not undersssstanding. I am being head priesssst of Glumrot. I am favored voicccce of He-Who-Fessssterssss. The bussssinesss of dealing with dead in battle isssss up to me."
Marcus faced the rat, feeling anger take him once again.
"And I am your Shai-Alud," he said. "You should be speaking to me with more re-"
Now, he saw something else that he hadn't seen before.
He saw the Wakisashi that glimmered in the ratman's right claw.
As the little priest spoke, he watched as the tip of the blade slowly rose to touch Marcus's reverberating heart.
"You are not ssssspeaker for the Unclean," the priest told him in a cold whisper. "You ssssshal never be. A human isssss a human, jusssst assss a Kobold isssss a Kobold and a sssssnake-bitch isssss a sssssnake-bitch. Hereticsssss, all of you. And one day, sssssooon, there ssssshall come a day when you are purged from our gloriousssss empire. And on that day, Ssssshai-Alud, you may sssssee which ratssss in thisssss realm are truly holding the power."
Marcus licked his lips. His eyes now swam to watch the edges of the podium. And he became acutely conscious of just how isolated they were up here, surrounded by the dying and the dead. Like the vicious little creature said, it was his domain.
He maintained his composure. He stalled for time.
"Are you threatening me, Verulex?"
The sly smile that crossed the priest's lips then was more chilling than anything Marcus had seen thus far in the Kingdom of the rats.
"I am but a humble sssservant, Sssshai-Alud," he replied. "We all have our placcce in ratman sssssociety. Even you, Ssssshai-Alud. It issss a beautiful thing, issss it not? He-Who-Festerssss issss a mossst generoussss God. He is even giving sssscum like you a placccce among Hisssss chosen people."
Marcus stepped back as the tip of the knife inched closer to his abdomen. He could swear, still smirking, that the ratman moved with him.
And so when there finally came the rattling of chains from the lip of the silo platform's edge, Marcus was more relieved than ever. And the knife that Verulex once dangled before him simply evaporated into ash.
Magic, it seemed, could hide even the greatest crime.
"Shai-Alud!" the voice of Deekius yelped from the edge of the platform, panting as he and a retinue of soldiers threw themselves over the lip and caught their breath. "You…are you being hurt, Lor-"
"Gloomraava Deekius," Verulex interrupted. "You are coming in good time. I am taking charge of thisssss Yokun bitch. We will be exxxxecuting her publicly tomorrow, after I take sssssome time to – time to –"
The priest collapsed suddenly, coughing up a miasma of his blood in the process.
"Gloomraava Verulex," Deekius said. "You are being maimed. Be coming down, we shall be administering to you."
"Be dealing with Brother Fesssssticusss firsssst, Brother," the old priest coughed as he allowed himself to be helped away. "He issss needing your care more than I."
Marcus watched as the small retinue of rats then took stock of their surroundings, seeing the chaos and carnage that unfolded in such a tiny area over such a short space of time.
"He was being a credit to his Clan," Deekius said. "This is great loss for our people."
Verulex, meanwhile, said nothing at all.
Marcus watched as the Yokun woman was spat on and then trundled off down the silo with the others, thankful that the old priest's wounds at least stopped him from having her slain then and there. Perhaps even he knew he couldn't go against the Shai-Alud's wishes publicly.
But he'd just confirmed something that Marcus had already begun to fear – something that became far too obvious to him now after seeing the hatred burning in the eyes of Redwhiskers and Verulex both.
And, more than that, he needed to speak to that snake. He needed that more than anything. He needed to know…was it chance? Or…was Mari really..?
"Marcus," he heard Deekius say outside himself. "It is being alright now. Yokun are not being known to send more than single assassin team. If they are failing, it is because they are not blessed by their heretic Gods. Defeating them here is great victory for us all, and now, you are having nothing to fear."
The ratman lifted his arm to try and guide Marcus away but the latter rejected the help entirely. He crossed to the edge of the platform and looked down upon the city, seeing the crowds cheer to see him alive, wondering which of them truly did have any real love for him at all.
Then his eyes lighted on the descending form of Verulex, and he felt a very different idea take root within his mind.
"No, Deekius," he said. "I have plenty still to fear. But now I know what to do about it."
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"Box Score updated on 5/14/2024 at 10:7 EDT

Ogaki Oni 0 - 0 Baldur's Gate Beholders

TEAM	1	2	3	4	5	6	R	H
OGO	0						0	0
BBEG							0	0

 

Box

#	Oni	Pos	AB	R	H	RBI	BB	SO	BA	#	Beholders	Pos	AB	R	H	RBI	BB	SO	BA
1	At Bat: Peter Hoomanawanui	LF	0	0	0	0	0	0	.235	1	Due Up: Pel OQuinn	RF	0	0	0	0	0	0	.154
2	Neco Arc Enjoyer	RF	0	0	0	0	0	0	.556	2	Cormac Goldhammer	DH	0	0	0	0	0	0	.462
3	Mr Plow	3B	0	0	0	0	0	0	.444	3	Donny Dash	LF	0	0	0	0	0	0	.231
4	Xavier McMagic	SS	0	0	0	0	0	0	.235	4	War Hamster	3B	0	0	0	0	0	0	.182
5	Lloyd Gross	DH	0	0	0	0	0	0	.133	5	Calvin Huff	CF	0	0	0	0	0	0	.333
6	Q Kimbrel	CF	0	0	0	0	0	0	.333	6	Justin Trotter	1B	0	0	0	0	0	0	.385
7	Goaty McGoatFace	2B	0	0	0	0	0	0	.250	7	Ecliptic Astrum	CF	0	0	0	0	0	0	.154
8	Robbie Tightpants	CF	0	0	0	0	0	0	.250	8	Ichiro Rose	SS	0	0	0	0	0	0	.278
9	Osha Wott	1B	0	0	0	0	0	0	.143	9	Juan Sexton	2B	0	0	0	0	0	0	.167

 

Pitchers

Oni	IP	H	ER	BB	SO	6	Beholders	IP	H	ER	BB	SO	6
Liru Liu	0.0	0	0	0	0	2.20	Sheridan Blackstone	0.0	0	0	0	0	13.50

 

Bench

Oni	POS	HAND	Beholders	POS	HAND
Stu PunDous	2B, UTIL	R	Trog Smash	3B, UTIL	L
Gnome Chomsky	C, CINF	R	Bace Ventura	CF, COF	L
Nicholas Fouss	LF	L	Maud Nelson	LF	L
JZ	P	L	Daz Reference	P	R
Pete Morris	P	R	Jameson Poe	P	R
Six	P	L	Mad Monty	P	L
perta sabor	SS, UTIL	R

"

Hey Guys! Angren with a Season 4 Starter Guide for all Pulverize LOVERS!
Blizzard will introduce a themed starter Aspect set for the battle pass for every class and for the druid it will be pulverize. So you will get the shockwave aspect the blood boiling aspect and maybe something like aspect of the stampede for complete free if you will progres in the season pass. So if you want to have a guaranteed smooth and nice lvling experience until you have tempest roar and can go for werenado the Pulver Druid will be the absolute right choice for you in season4.
The pulverize Druid is really simple though. Its just generate resource with your basic skill then cast your companion skills on cooldown for more clarity buffs and then just smash with your pulverize. Thanks to the shockwave aspect you will deal more damage and have a great ae with your shockwave and with your aspect of Ursine Horror your Pulverize will turn into a earth skill and you will benefit from your earth + skill damage.
In Addition you will get more core skill damage trough your shepherds aspect as more companions you have and it will synergize really well with your clarity.
Additionally thanks to the buffed clarity we can now burst a boss our a heavy elite target down after we cast 3 companion skills we get 45% crit chance and 45% damage for our next pulverize.
🧐 I will show you how to go trough in the skilltree, which aspects you should take, also which Spirit boons you should go, your gear and affix priorities.
Below the youtube Video there is an summary of the Build!
there is also a charplaner in the description guide!
Youtube Guide:
https://youtu.be/niQ3TZRsecE
Build overview:
Quick rota:
Rota:

1. Cast maul for 2 seconds Werebear as also 2 seconds claw werewolf for bestial rampage and always try to maintain the bonus!
2. keep companions on cooldown for max clarity buff
3. cast hurricane (try to get hurricane cdr / duration early on) and keep on cooldown
4. spam tornados in melee range as long as you don’t have stormchasers aspect
5. cast claw for poison / resource gen

Gear Prio:
Defensive:

1. Max Resis
2. Max Armor
3. Max Life

Offensive:

1. tornado ranks
2. attack speed
3. crit chance
4. damage against close/distant
5. Lucky Hit Chance
6. Crit Damage
7. Willpower
8. Int if resis not maxed

Spirit boons:

• Wariness
• swooping attacks + Avian Wrath
• Packleader
• masochistic

Skilltree overview:

• no def skill
• no poison creeper (need the slots for bestial rampage)
• max tornado
• max hurricane
• max clarity
• max shapeshifter nodes
• max every dr nodes besides vigilance we can get

Why damage to close and distant enemies?
Thunderstruck Damage Multiplier scales of Damage against close + Distant Enemies
1 Hand or 2 hand?
2 Hand, Damage against close + distant enemies + Shepherds Aspect
Which glype to max first?
Electrocution to 15 first
Territorial 15 first
other Glyphes to 15 first
After 15?:
Same as above
Endgame Guide:
Uber Uniques?
Yes, switch out your helm + Ring against Shako + Ring of starless skies
Which aspects to trade first?
Stormchaser aspect FIRST PRIO!!! accelerating stampede
SPIRIT GEN HOW?

1. spirit per second (TRY TO GET THIS EARLY ON AND MASTERCRAFT IT!)
2. spirit on kill (TRY TO GET THIS EARLY ON AND MASTERCRAFT IT!)
3. resource cost reduction
4. Resource gen

WERENADO?
You can perfectly shift to werenado if you find tempest roar in the endgame! you can either hold on to hurricane or switch it out with something other, there is also a tempest roar variant in my charplaner!

Hi, I want to share a leak I learned about in the closed arbitrage community.
This method is quite simple but extremely effective. It involves the MEXC exchange and the IOST coin (you can learn more about it on CoinMarketCap).
The method revolves around using an old IOST listing address that compensated users with a percentage of the commission (initially, the exchange set too high a commission for each transaction on the IOST network, and in order not to lose potential investors, IOST reduced the percentage using their own funds). The listing passed, and IOST changed the cold address to a hot one, which does not provide such an opportunity. But the joke is that if we use the cold address, it will bring us a profit of 0.5%. It's a small amount, but considering compound interest, you can earn a little.
How to do it?
1) Buy a IOST coin
2) Then go to Wallet, Spot and select the purchased IOST
3) Select Deposit and copy MEMO
4) Go back and select Withdraw

• Network: IOST
• Address: iostcold
• MEMO: Enter the copied MEMO

5) Choose a small amount of coins for the test
6) And after ±10 minutes we get the amount sent, but only +0.5% (in coins)
MEMO - It's your wallet ID, so it needs to be entered every time!
Careful!

• Do no more than 20-30 transactions per day because MEXC may block you for a while due to suspicious activity, and you will just lose time

Additionally:

• This one can be automated, I have already realized it, and I am ready to sell the script cheaper than the market! So you don't have to do everything by hand.
• If anyone wants the original post or video tutorial, I can drop it on PM

So a couple of weeks ago my ex reappeared in my life. It has completely thrown my life into hell. I am married and have been for going on 10 years. I am a stay-at-home parent of 5 children, one of whom is nonverbal autistic. I have been in burnout mode for probably the past 5 years. As soon as this guy pops back into my life it's like I have woken up! I realize that I am not getting the attention from my husband that I need. This is something I have brought up multiple times in the past year. I have been telling my husband I need more physical touch, more help around the house, more attention.
My husband is great and I love him more than anything. He works 40 hours and has a lot going on at work. Once he gets off work he comes home and gets straight on the game or goes takes a 30-minutes shit. He rarely helps clean up around the house and when he does it is like he wants a standing ovation. He will do things with the kids on the weekends like fishing or yard work. He only wants to do things that he likes when he is off and that's kind of another issue. He only wants to do things that he likes with me. I even have a recent little example. I convinced him to download and play words with friends with me. We played two games and last night he told me he doesn't want to play anymore because I won them both. It isn't fun to him. He asks me to play video games with him which I do sometimes. I get tired of them after a while because it isn't me he just wants to play with it is his friends as well.
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I do not know what to do or how to tell him I need more. I love my husband and would never want to go without him but I am so sad that I am not getting the affection I need to feel loved. What should I do to get it across that I need this because I am feeling lonely and not loved?
I am also worried that I am making nothing out of this and am overreacting because all these past memories with my Ex have come up. I only talked to the ex on FB twice. The last time I talked to him he told me we couldn't talk anymore because it was too hard because he was still in love with me. I instantly blocked him and told my husband about it the next day. I would have told him that day but we got into a little fight about how lonely I was feeling.