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2012.01.31 02:23 Pravusmentis Shitty Life Pro Tips
A place for the shittiest, most mocking "pro-tips" you can think of. Whether you want to let us know how glue can help out your hair or the quickest way to clog a public toilet, we're the place to post.
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2024.05.16 13:23 BarracudaCold3941 I’m back at ground zero. How do I make around $50K to provide for my family?
I’m 28 years old with a bachelors in Psychology (2018) and a full-stack coding bootcamp completion (2023). The latter of which has yet to serve me well, haha. Living in Columbia, SC.
For the past 5 years, I have worked full-time for two different churches. I just found out that at the end of August, my full-time job will be moved to part-time (if I still want it).
This leaves me in need for a full-time job and an openness to really jump into anything that can provide and have a good work-life balance. I’m definitely not afraid of working hard, I just want to be present with my family (wife and 3 young kids) in the evenings.
I’ve always picked things up quickly and generally consider myself someone that anyone would want on their team—I love working with people, serving and encouraging people, and always keep a positive attitude. It’s just that employers can’t know any of that until they give me an initial shot, and my resume isn’t popping off the page!
Any guidance or advice is welcome. TIA!
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For the past 5 years, I have worked full-time for two different churches. I just found out that at the end of August, my full-time job will be moved to part-time (if I still want it).
This leaves me in need for a full-time job and an openness to really jump into anything that can provide and have a good work-life balance. I’m definitely not afraid of working hard, I just want to be present with my family (wife and 3 young kids) in the evenings.
I’ve always picked things up quickly and generally consider myself someone that anyone would want on their team—I love working with people, serving and encouraging people, and always keep a positive attitude. It’s just that employers can’t know any of that until they give me an initial shot, and my resume isn’t popping off the page!
Any guidance or advice is welcome. TIA!
2024.05.16 13:22 DesperadoByDesign [HM] Delectable
Chapter 1
Morning Glory
“Making money is hard. Building wealth is easy. You put your money in the right place and tell it to sit. Then, when you come back for it years later, it's grown from a small pile to a large one!”
-Lord Cushonbottom
10 chubby little Piggly wigglies jiggled awake at the foot end of a feather mattress that slumped upon a fine mahogany frame. 2 black ringed, thickly-layered-as-Canadian-bacon-still-in-the-package eyelids followed the lead piggies in this morning procession of porcine body parts powering up. One by one the hands flapped, the arms rolled in the pit mud that night terrors accumulated, the big pink belly rumbled, and finally the red little upturned nose oinked. Lord Fistburn had awakened.
“Lawrence, ohhhh Lawrence!”
The calls flapped from his overstuffed jowls.
Ever attentive, Noble Lawrence answered his Lord.
“Yes, m’Lord?”
“Oh Lawrence! It was horrible. Just horrible I tell you!”
Lawrence stood before his master patiently as the overgrown farm animal bleated and howled about how he once again had the dream where the figs “ate him instead”.
He scratched at his bare cheek, right in the crevice left by a scar from when he’d been called up as a boy.
“Ahem. Lawrence don't scratch your face that's awfully droll”
the fat little piggy sputtered as he finished the ridiculous tale of his ridiculous subconscious. This man, Lawrence thought as Fistburn hobbled out from his covers and off of his poor, dilapidated, dying bed, this piggy must be the worst creature Lawrence had ever met, and each day he just gets worse.
‘For Christ’s sake, the dreams are actually getting scarier by the bloated chaps renditions! What began as one sole fig nibbling his fingers is now a ravenous horde eating him from the inside out!’
he paused mid thought for just a second
‘what in the fuck could be causing this fat lazy shit so much internal strife!? It doesn't make any sense! Each day he just eats and farts and gets fatter and fatter and eats some more and…’
“Lawrence!” The jowls jiggled
“Lawrence help me with the corset”
Poor Lawrence could barely hold it together at the word corset. The fat piggies’ “corset” was like a stretcher for whales folded in two.
The greater part of the next half hour was spent stuffing and tying and trying not to burst out dying laughing.
But alas, Noble Lawrence is not the hero of this tale. No, we shan't be so lucky as to hear of his humble origins, how he cared for his sick mother right up til her untimely demise, how he lied about his age to serve his great nation, went over the top countless times and survived countless others. Traveled through country after country, loved and lost, only to settle down into a life of gentle luxury, the caretaker of a prized hog of a man.
No, this tale is of the hog. The wet, slimy, greased up hog.
He needs just a little grease each morning to truly make the corset fit.
After the last button in his spring sport coat was laced into its wife, clinging on for dear life, flying in the face of the most ancient physics, Lawrence patted Fistburn on the back, and released the creature into the wild.
“Breakfast awaits in the hall, m’Lord”
And onward unto glory our hero waddled. Right up until he got stuck in the doorway.
“Lawrence! Lawrence I need more grease! I'm stuck in the door frame again!”
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Morning Glory
“Making money is hard. Building wealth is easy. You put your money in the right place and tell it to sit. Then, when you come back for it years later, it's grown from a small pile to a large one!”
-Lord Cushonbottom
10 chubby little Piggly wigglies jiggled awake at the foot end of a feather mattress that slumped upon a fine mahogany frame. 2 black ringed, thickly-layered-as-Canadian-bacon-still-in-the-package eyelids followed the lead piggies in this morning procession of porcine body parts powering up. One by one the hands flapped, the arms rolled in the pit mud that night terrors accumulated, the big pink belly rumbled, and finally the red little upturned nose oinked. Lord Fistburn had awakened.
“Lawrence, ohhhh Lawrence!”
The calls flapped from his overstuffed jowls.
Ever attentive, Noble Lawrence answered his Lord.
“Yes, m’Lord?”
“Oh Lawrence! It was horrible. Just horrible I tell you!”
Lawrence stood before his master patiently as the overgrown farm animal bleated and howled about how he once again had the dream where the figs “ate him instead”.
He scratched at his bare cheek, right in the crevice left by a scar from when he’d been called up as a boy.
“Ahem. Lawrence don't scratch your face that's awfully droll”
the fat little piggy sputtered as he finished the ridiculous tale of his ridiculous subconscious. This man, Lawrence thought as Fistburn hobbled out from his covers and off of his poor, dilapidated, dying bed, this piggy must be the worst creature Lawrence had ever met, and each day he just gets worse.
‘For Christ’s sake, the dreams are actually getting scarier by the bloated chaps renditions! What began as one sole fig nibbling his fingers is now a ravenous horde eating him from the inside out!’
he paused mid thought for just a second
‘what in the fuck could be causing this fat lazy shit so much internal strife!? It doesn't make any sense! Each day he just eats and farts and gets fatter and fatter and eats some more and…’
“Lawrence!” The jowls jiggled
“Lawrence help me with the corset”
Poor Lawrence could barely hold it together at the word corset. The fat piggies’ “corset” was like a stretcher for whales folded in two.
The greater part of the next half hour was spent stuffing and tying and trying not to burst out dying laughing.
But alas, Noble Lawrence is not the hero of this tale. No, we shan't be so lucky as to hear of his humble origins, how he cared for his sick mother right up til her untimely demise, how he lied about his age to serve his great nation, went over the top countless times and survived countless others. Traveled through country after country, loved and lost, only to settle down into a life of gentle luxury, the caretaker of a prized hog of a man.
No, this tale is of the hog. The wet, slimy, greased up hog.
He needs just a little grease each morning to truly make the corset fit.
After the last button in his spring sport coat was laced into its wife, clinging on for dear life, flying in the face of the most ancient physics, Lawrence patted Fistburn on the back, and released the creature into the wild.
“Breakfast awaits in the hall, m’Lord”
And onward unto glory our hero waddled. Right up until he got stuck in the doorway.
“Lawrence! Lawrence I need more grease! I'm stuck in the door frame again!”
2024.05.16 13:21 Ok_Onion8576 I need help to decide…
I am currently debating between McMaster Life Sci and UofT Life Sci (St.George) and my end goal is dental school. Residence is not an option for me because of a family commitment/responsibility, so I’m trying to also consider which commute is more doable, I live in Etobicoke, really close to the Kipling GO station.
UofT Pros: - Room to choose my courses and more space to widen my specializations, like majominor in things that I am interested in. - Amazing research opportunities and networking opportunities in which I can get involved in as a first - The faculty of dentistry is on campus and so I can connect with those students/professors to help with my application. - The commute is closer, and easier to do than Mac, so I think I will have time to get involved in clubs and extracurriculars. - In third/fourth year there is a biotech internship course which I would like to take - Also if dental school does not work out, I want to pursue a masters so I think UofT may be beneficial this way.
UofT Cons: - Hard to get a high GPA, but I think if I am smart with my course selection and choose courses with good professors and things that I am interested in I can maintain a higher GPA, also, dental schools factor in other stuff than just the GPA. I was also thinking, that if I really don’t like it there then may transfer is an option, provided I don’t let my GPA drop a lot? - Competitiveness for opportunities. - I don’t know how well the support system is at UofT
McMaster Pros: - Nicer community and environment - Can get a higher GPA, but again, life sci is hard in either school from what I heard. - They have the undergraduate research office which I think would be really helpful. - They have a better support system and a closer knit community.
McMaster Cons: - Farther commute, almost 2 hours by transit, and 1 hour by car, because of this I don’t how much time I would actually have to get involved in clubs and study, also I think the commute would take a toll on my mental health. - No dental school, my resources may be limited? I’m not sure - Less space to specialize in multiple areas of study. - Hamilton is a smaller city, it may be harder to find research/volunteer opportunities, and if I do then I would be commuting much more.
In terms of money, I didn’t get anything from UofT, but from McMaster I got 1K award and a 2.5K bursary. When I told my parents, they said that its a really small amount and that I shouldn’t take it into consideration. They left the decision completely up to me, I am currently leaning towards UofT but I am not sure. Any suggestions are appreciated 😭
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UofT Pros: - Room to choose my courses and more space to widen my specializations, like majominor in things that I am interested in. - Amazing research opportunities and networking opportunities in which I can get involved in as a first - The faculty of dentistry is on campus and so I can connect with those students/professors to help with my application. - The commute is closer, and easier to do than Mac, so I think I will have time to get involved in clubs and extracurriculars. - In third/fourth year there is a biotech internship course which I would like to take - Also if dental school does not work out, I want to pursue a masters so I think UofT may be beneficial this way.
UofT Cons: - Hard to get a high GPA, but I think if I am smart with my course selection and choose courses with good professors and things that I am interested in I can maintain a higher GPA, also, dental schools factor in other stuff than just the GPA. I was also thinking, that if I really don’t like it there then may transfer is an option, provided I don’t let my GPA drop a lot? - Competitiveness for opportunities. - I don’t know how well the support system is at UofT
McMaster Pros: - Nicer community and environment - Can get a higher GPA, but again, life sci is hard in either school from what I heard. - They have the undergraduate research office which I think would be really helpful. - They have a better support system and a closer knit community.
McMaster Cons: - Farther commute, almost 2 hours by transit, and 1 hour by car, because of this I don’t how much time I would actually have to get involved in clubs and study, also I think the commute would take a toll on my mental health. - No dental school, my resources may be limited? I’m not sure - Less space to specialize in multiple areas of study. - Hamilton is a smaller city, it may be harder to find research/volunteer opportunities, and if I do then I would be commuting much more.
In terms of money, I didn’t get anything from UofT, but from McMaster I got 1K award and a 2.5K bursary. When I told my parents, they said that its a really small amount and that I shouldn’t take it into consideration. They left the decision completely up to me, I am currently leaning towards UofT but I am not sure. Any suggestions are appreciated 😭
2024.05.16 13:20 shaneka69 NUMEROLOGY OF MONDAY
Monday is the first day of the work week that many people dread. Not all people dread it, but some. Let's take a look into the Numerology of Monday to decode the energy and what it can be used for to work with it and not against it.
M - this is the 13th letter of the alphabet vibrating at the energy of 4. The energy of 1 is action and the energy of 3 is connecting with others through collaboration. This puts a focus on responsibilities and for most people, it's a work or school day which connects with this. Although it is about being responsible, it's still the energy of 4 which is mellow and controlled energy. O - this is the 15th letter of the alphabet vibrating at the energy of 6 which is about using your creativity constructively to take care of the tasks or duties you need to take care of. 6 is the number of beauty, duty, and routine. N - 14th letter of the alphabet vibrating at the energy of 5. This is about using your energy to be responsible and making space for enjoyment while doing so. 14 is a karmic number, but not when used correctly. As a karmic number, 14 is about someone who ditched their responsibilities and now have to deal with some challeneges(5). Proper use of this energy is using it for creative purposes. D - 4th letter vibrating at the purest energy of 4 which is about calmness, caution, and security. A - vibrating at 1 as the first letter of the alphabet, this is about action and energy. Y - The 25th letter of the alphabet vibrating at the energy of 7, but through cooperation with others(2) and compassion for others(2) and with the use of creativity (5) or even humor(5). Big lover energy as 5 can point to romance and 2 can point to soulmates.
Monday full numerology comes down to 8 and 8 can represent long and drawn out processes, wait times, and pressure. The dreadful energy can be moreso due to this 8 energy. People can work with this energy by being patient as 8 points to tedious tasks. With this insight, you can now simply start expected a little time in between things and pacing yourself. It can seem like a long day or your duties may be plentiful.
This is a day best utilized in a constructive (8) way with the use of wisdom and calculation(7). The 7 is the soul urge influence of Monday based on the vowels. 2 vowels A and O which equals 7. Being calculating and seeking depth will allow you to master the energy of Monday. Use this day to get the most done with your projects or workloads.
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M - this is the 13th letter of the alphabet vibrating at the energy of 4. The energy of 1 is action and the energy of 3 is connecting with others through collaboration. This puts a focus on responsibilities and for most people, it's a work or school day which connects with this. Although it is about being responsible, it's still the energy of 4 which is mellow and controlled energy. O - this is the 15th letter of the alphabet vibrating at the energy of 6 which is about using your creativity constructively to take care of the tasks or duties you need to take care of. 6 is the number of beauty, duty, and routine. N - 14th letter of the alphabet vibrating at the energy of 5. This is about using your energy to be responsible and making space for enjoyment while doing so. 14 is a karmic number, but not when used correctly. As a karmic number, 14 is about someone who ditched their responsibilities and now have to deal with some challeneges(5). Proper use of this energy is using it for creative purposes. D - 4th letter vibrating at the purest energy of 4 which is about calmness, caution, and security. A - vibrating at 1 as the first letter of the alphabet, this is about action and energy. Y - The 25th letter of the alphabet vibrating at the energy of 7, but through cooperation with others(2) and compassion for others(2) and with the use of creativity (5) or even humor(5). Big lover energy as 5 can point to romance and 2 can point to soulmates.
Monday full numerology comes down to 8 and 8 can represent long and drawn out processes, wait times, and pressure. The dreadful energy can be moreso due to this 8 energy. People can work with this energy by being patient as 8 points to tedious tasks. With this insight, you can now simply start expected a little time in between things and pacing yourself. It can seem like a long day or your duties may be plentiful.
This is a day best utilized in a constructive (8) way with the use of wisdom and calculation(7). The 7 is the soul urge influence of Monday based on the vowels. 2 vowels A and O which equals 7. Being calculating and seeking depth will allow you to master the energy of Monday. Use this day to get the most done with your projects or workloads.
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2024.05.16 13:19 kanokiller How do you handle dysphoria while on dates?
I get a lot of attention from guys on dating apps. They’re all local in my city and obviously want to meet. I WANT to meet too, I’ve met a decent amount… but usually I can’t overcome the dysphoria. It’s mostly my damn voice.
It just makes my skin crawl knowing these guys can see (and hear…) the male characteristics I do still have, and they’re still attracted to me. It’s just revolting. I feel so unreal, unattractive and unloveable as a woman (on a romantic level) while I don’t fully pass as one… I can really only stomach meeting up with them in private to smoke weed and, sometimes hooking up. Real dates and intimacy are VERY hard for me. I don’t know that I’ve actually committed to going on one yet. I feel unable.
I feel I can’t fulfill that romantic-social role as a woman, I don’t feel capable until I pass better, but I know I’m attractive now, and capable of most of the sex stuff, now… I’ve had guys tell me I’m totally indistinguishable from a cis female, but it’s not true. I pass well but certainly not fully, indistinguishably. Obviously preop. I’m good looking enough to get all the attention, but I don’t pass in person, face to face, talking. I just don’t. It will get better with time on HRT but there’s no guarantee, especially with voice. I want to believe they see me as/are attracted to me just as a woman despite this, but I can’t. It feels wrong.
I can handle people paying attention to or clocking me in public pretty easy. I just cannot overcome the idea of a guy being attracted to me not just because I look like a woman, but possibly, bc I look like a man…. I know some of them are, too, it’s not totally in my head. I just disclosed to a sweet southern military boy I was trans. He told me he didn’t know I was, had never been w a trans girl, but he had experimented with a bit in high school, he was immediately excited to “suck my titties and girl dick” . The amount of guys that clearly are into my dick, clearly into the idea of fucking a trans woman, some sort of gay-bisexual experiment, is really off putting. This has happened COUNTLESS times.
The fact I look forward to meeting guys who wish I was cis and had different anatomy instead, over guys who are ready to date me now, is crippling. I’m 21 so I get all ages all types haha. It makes it even harder when most guys seem to not realize I’m trans, but then some do and don’t mention it… or they lie about it, bc they want dick. I can never really truly know if they’re attracted to me as a woman, or as a trans woman… or as a man. Like a femboy or a sh**ale or whatever goes through their head.
I just don’t feel ready or able to have the social life that’s expected out of me. People are like “you’re a woman right? What are you waiting for? Isn’t this what you wanted?” My friends want me to go out to bars/be social, boys want to go on dates, family wants to go to events… and I feel unable. With my voice and other traits I feel like all I’m able to do is be a pretty boot call tr****. Sorry if that’s dark. I WANT to go out & live, I WANT to be loved, it just doesn’t feel right. I can’t do it.
Wtf did y’all do, if ever you were in my situation..? Did a few months of vocal feminization therapy with a coach, almost no actual progress. Havin a rough night. Tired of limbo.
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It just makes my skin crawl knowing these guys can see (and hear…) the male characteristics I do still have, and they’re still attracted to me. It’s just revolting. I feel so unreal, unattractive and unloveable as a woman (on a romantic level) while I don’t fully pass as one… I can really only stomach meeting up with them in private to smoke weed and, sometimes hooking up. Real dates and intimacy are VERY hard for me. I don’t know that I’ve actually committed to going on one yet. I feel unable.
I feel I can’t fulfill that romantic-social role as a woman, I don’t feel capable until I pass better, but I know I’m attractive now, and capable of most of the sex stuff, now… I’ve had guys tell me I’m totally indistinguishable from a cis female, but it’s not true. I pass well but certainly not fully, indistinguishably. Obviously preop. I’m good looking enough to get all the attention, but I don’t pass in person, face to face, talking. I just don’t. It will get better with time on HRT but there’s no guarantee, especially with voice. I want to believe they see me as/are attracted to me just as a woman despite this, but I can’t. It feels wrong.
I can handle people paying attention to or clocking me in public pretty easy. I just cannot overcome the idea of a guy being attracted to me not just because I look like a woman, but possibly, bc I look like a man…. I know some of them are, too, it’s not totally in my head. I just disclosed to a sweet southern military boy I was trans. He told me he didn’t know I was, had never been w a trans girl, but he had experimented with a bit in high school, he was immediately excited to “suck my titties and girl dick” . The amount of guys that clearly are into my dick, clearly into the idea of fucking a trans woman, some sort of gay-bisexual experiment, is really off putting. This has happened COUNTLESS times.
The fact I look forward to meeting guys who wish I was cis and had different anatomy instead, over guys who are ready to date me now, is crippling. I’m 21 so I get all ages all types haha. It makes it even harder when most guys seem to not realize I’m trans, but then some do and don’t mention it… or they lie about it, bc they want dick. I can never really truly know if they’re attracted to me as a woman, or as a trans woman… or as a man. Like a femboy or a sh**ale or whatever goes through their head.
I just don’t feel ready or able to have the social life that’s expected out of me. People are like “you’re a woman right? What are you waiting for? Isn’t this what you wanted?” My friends want me to go out to bars/be social, boys want to go on dates, family wants to go to events… and I feel unable. With my voice and other traits I feel like all I’m able to do is be a pretty boot call tr****. Sorry if that’s dark. I WANT to go out & live, I WANT to be loved, it just doesn’t feel right. I can’t do it.
Wtf did y’all do, if ever you were in my situation..? Did a few months of vocal feminization therapy with a coach, almost no actual progress. Havin a rough night. Tired of limbo.
2024.05.16 13:19 Sorenota I Wasted Over a Month of My Life Chasing After a Girl
About a month ago(25M) during the first night of April, I decided to club with a close friend of mine in downtown LA. Apparently, there was a gal he knew that he reached out to since she was also attending that same club that night and asked if she wanted to join us. Surprisingly, she did end up making an appearance, after all, and the three of us ended up enjoying each others' company for the next few hours. After a few drinks and time on the dance floor, I got incredibly intoxicated and started flirting with this gal that my friend invited. She was quite receptive and even ended up giving me her Insta and Discord. It seemed like we were into each other and I was hopeful that we would end up possibly becoming something of a pair, so to speak.
A day later, I ask her out over text and she accepts seemingly giddy at the prospect of someone such as myself showing interest in her. Fast forward a week, we ended up speaking over text on Discord every single day, getting to know one another and even entertained the idea of seeing each other soon. Well, come mid April we arrange to meet at the nearby Little Tokyo before heading to that same exact club where we first met; just the two of us this time. However, what ended up taking place was her not only being over 2 hours late, keeping me waiting in Little Tokyo by myself when it was agreed upon that we would meet there but she tells me she just started getting ready when it was already past 7(she was supposed to meet me around then). Naturally, I was upset but did well to keep my composure and be understanding. Fast forward it is almost 9 pm and I proceed to ask her if she is still coming, to which she replies to just meet her at the club. I was at this point contemplating just leaving for home as I felt both disrespected and hurt by the fact she kept me waiting for over 3 hours just because she decided to get ready so late(while also taking hours in the process) but I held my tongue and made my way to the club. I paid for my ticket and then made my way inside, where I continued to wait for about 45 minutes until she finally arrives.
She knew I was upset but I assured her if I was I would not have shown up at all, which is correct. While I was upset, however, I decided to just enjoy myself and assure her it was fine. We had a few drinks, danced, and talked until past 2 am. I decided to wait with her outside until she got picked up by her dad and then I went home. Overall, it was a fun experience but I was concerned by the fact she kept me waiting for so long and made no effort to get ready sooner. I asked her about what happened, and she ended up telling me that she was thinking about not going but knew I was there so she decided to go, anyways. Along with that, she claims that she takes hours to get ready, supposedly.
It is after this event things take a turn for the worst. From here, almost every single attempt I make in asking her out to do anything or even voice call was met with indifference or some excuse such as her not feeling well or being in a call with her other friends. Keep in mind this went on for almost a month until I finally asked her if I should even continue talking to her, which then prompted her to VC me finally. She and I converse for a few hours and clear things up(so it seemed) and I was hopeful for the future. That, naturally, did not last long as any attempts to do anything with her besides chat over text led absolutely no where. I should have added this for context earlier, but: she is stuck living with her family while working a part time retail job that hardly gives her any hours to work. From what I was being told, she spends a very large portion of her time in her room, only interested in activities such as clubbing, concerts, and cosplay conventions. Outside of that, she finds every other activity boring. I suggested we go see a movie, eat somewhere, or even just hang out, but she had no interest in any other of the latter activities I suggested. Even when she would go out, she would always choose her friends over me. She then asks me if I would like to go club with her later in the month and I say 'sure.' That would be fine, only a week later when I ask about that she just tells me 'maybe' depending on the music that will be playing at that particular club and she won't meet up with me if the conditions are not perfect and exactly to her liking, I suppose. It was clear I was less than an afterthought for her and I was little more than a last resort when it came to people she could hang with during an outing.
It also seemed incredibly odd how obsessed she was with her ex boyfriend from a year prior. She would talk about him constantly and her intense desire for revenge against him; what he looks like, what he's into, his address, the girl he's dating. From what I was told, the two of them were together for about a month before he friend zoned her. A month after he did so, he allegedly 'ghosted' her, unfollowing her on all socials and cutting ties with her completely. To this day, she obsessively stalks his social media, his twitch, and even knows his address. In fact, her obsession with him is so severe she would have breakdowns every week whenever she would see that he viewed her Insta stories or he was streaming on Twitch. She would tell me things like "I hope he and his gf die" or "unless you can hire a hitman to end him, I can't let go of my hatred."
I understandably found this concerning and asked her why she cares so much, which in turn made her angry with me as she goes to tell me she does not care about him at all when it is obvious she does. She complains that everyone in her life tells her the same exact thing. I am quick to apologize only for her to respond 12 hours later telling me 'it's fine.' This was a massive red flag on its own but I still pressed on because against my own judgment I thought we could possibly be a couple and because I'm beyond stubborn. I found it strange how it seemed like she was giving this dude more attention than for me, especially because the two of them are no longer talking or on good terms.
Well, as of last week I asked her once more if she would like to VC to which she finally agrees. This is the second time we have VC'ed together in over a month as she would decline almost every other time I would ask unless the situation seemed dire. I wanted to talk to her, game with her, or whatever it may be but all she ended up doing was watching a Twitch stream the entire time not making much in the way of conversation. I will admit I was on the verge of tears because of the fact I spent weeks trying to spend time with this person only to sit quiet in a call with her for about 3 hours. Keep in mind I made attempts to converse with her, offered to game with her, or even just watch something but she would just tell me she isn't in the mood.
Eventually, after being in denial I realized that I have been chasing after a girl who has no interest in me at all or much of anything, truly. I then confront her about it and we argue for about an hour. I tell her she needs to let go of her hatred for her ex and that revenge is almost always a fool's game, as it is ruling her entire life. Both that and not to mention the fact she refuses to do much of anything with me outside of things she wants to do which are far and few between. She then tells me to give up on her, that she's "a nobody, won't listen to anyone, and a narcissist."
I conclude by thanking her for her time, that it was a pleasure getting to know her, and leave off by saying "They say you don't really know someone until you see them at their worst. With that being said, I now know you a whole lot better."
I then completely stop texting her and a few days later she removes me on all socials and off of Discord. I ponder as to the reason why her ex boyfriend ended up ghosting her, but if my time with her is any indication, then it would only make sense she may have had a hand in it.
I wasted 5 weeks of my time trying to get with this girl and have nothing but disappointment and frustration to show for it. I am more upset with myself for putting up with a person who clearly had no respect for me or even for themselves.
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A day later, I ask her out over text and she accepts seemingly giddy at the prospect of someone such as myself showing interest in her. Fast forward a week, we ended up speaking over text on Discord every single day, getting to know one another and even entertained the idea of seeing each other soon. Well, come mid April we arrange to meet at the nearby Little Tokyo before heading to that same exact club where we first met; just the two of us this time. However, what ended up taking place was her not only being over 2 hours late, keeping me waiting in Little Tokyo by myself when it was agreed upon that we would meet there but she tells me she just started getting ready when it was already past 7(she was supposed to meet me around then). Naturally, I was upset but did well to keep my composure and be understanding. Fast forward it is almost 9 pm and I proceed to ask her if she is still coming, to which she replies to just meet her at the club. I was at this point contemplating just leaving for home as I felt both disrespected and hurt by the fact she kept me waiting for over 3 hours just because she decided to get ready so late(while also taking hours in the process) but I held my tongue and made my way to the club. I paid for my ticket and then made my way inside, where I continued to wait for about 45 minutes until she finally arrives.
She knew I was upset but I assured her if I was I would not have shown up at all, which is correct. While I was upset, however, I decided to just enjoy myself and assure her it was fine. We had a few drinks, danced, and talked until past 2 am. I decided to wait with her outside until she got picked up by her dad and then I went home. Overall, it was a fun experience but I was concerned by the fact she kept me waiting for so long and made no effort to get ready sooner. I asked her about what happened, and she ended up telling me that she was thinking about not going but knew I was there so she decided to go, anyways. Along with that, she claims that she takes hours to get ready, supposedly.
It is after this event things take a turn for the worst. From here, almost every single attempt I make in asking her out to do anything or even voice call was met with indifference or some excuse such as her not feeling well or being in a call with her other friends. Keep in mind this went on for almost a month until I finally asked her if I should even continue talking to her, which then prompted her to VC me finally. She and I converse for a few hours and clear things up(so it seemed) and I was hopeful for the future. That, naturally, did not last long as any attempts to do anything with her besides chat over text led absolutely no where. I should have added this for context earlier, but: she is stuck living with her family while working a part time retail job that hardly gives her any hours to work. From what I was being told, she spends a very large portion of her time in her room, only interested in activities such as clubbing, concerts, and cosplay conventions. Outside of that, she finds every other activity boring. I suggested we go see a movie, eat somewhere, or even just hang out, but she had no interest in any other of the latter activities I suggested. Even when she would go out, she would always choose her friends over me. She then asks me if I would like to go club with her later in the month and I say 'sure.' That would be fine, only a week later when I ask about that she just tells me 'maybe' depending on the music that will be playing at that particular club and she won't meet up with me if the conditions are not perfect and exactly to her liking, I suppose. It was clear I was less than an afterthought for her and I was little more than a last resort when it came to people she could hang with during an outing.
It also seemed incredibly odd how obsessed she was with her ex boyfriend from a year prior. She would talk about him constantly and her intense desire for revenge against him; what he looks like, what he's into, his address, the girl he's dating. From what I was told, the two of them were together for about a month before he friend zoned her. A month after he did so, he allegedly 'ghosted' her, unfollowing her on all socials and cutting ties with her completely. To this day, she obsessively stalks his social media, his twitch, and even knows his address. In fact, her obsession with him is so severe she would have breakdowns every week whenever she would see that he viewed her Insta stories or he was streaming on Twitch. She would tell me things like "I hope he and his gf die" or "unless you can hire a hitman to end him, I can't let go of my hatred."
I understandably found this concerning and asked her why she cares so much, which in turn made her angry with me as she goes to tell me she does not care about him at all when it is obvious she does. She complains that everyone in her life tells her the same exact thing. I am quick to apologize only for her to respond 12 hours later telling me 'it's fine.' This was a massive red flag on its own but I still pressed on because against my own judgment I thought we could possibly be a couple and because I'm beyond stubborn. I found it strange how it seemed like she was giving this dude more attention than for me, especially because the two of them are no longer talking or on good terms.
Well, as of last week I asked her once more if she would like to VC to which she finally agrees. This is the second time we have VC'ed together in over a month as she would decline almost every other time I would ask unless the situation seemed dire. I wanted to talk to her, game with her, or whatever it may be but all she ended up doing was watching a Twitch stream the entire time not making much in the way of conversation. I will admit I was on the verge of tears because of the fact I spent weeks trying to spend time with this person only to sit quiet in a call with her for about 3 hours. Keep in mind I made attempts to converse with her, offered to game with her, or even just watch something but she would just tell me she isn't in the mood.
Eventually, after being in denial I realized that I have been chasing after a girl who has no interest in me at all or much of anything, truly. I then confront her about it and we argue for about an hour. I tell her she needs to let go of her hatred for her ex and that revenge is almost always a fool's game, as it is ruling her entire life. Both that and not to mention the fact she refuses to do much of anything with me outside of things she wants to do which are far and few between. She then tells me to give up on her, that she's "a nobody, won't listen to anyone, and a narcissist."
I conclude by thanking her for her time, that it was a pleasure getting to know her, and leave off by saying "They say you don't really know someone until you see them at their worst. With that being said, I now know you a whole lot better."
I then completely stop texting her and a few days later she removes me on all socials and off of Discord. I ponder as to the reason why her ex boyfriend ended up ghosting her, but if my time with her is any indication, then it would only make sense she may have had a hand in it.
I wasted 5 weeks of my time trying to get with this girl and have nothing but disappointment and frustration to show for it. I am more upset with myself for putting up with a person who clearly had no respect for me or even for themselves.
2024.05.16 13:18 PDX_LadyDzra Stellaris Dev Diary #344 - The Art of The Machine Age (Part II: Art Blast Edition)
 | https://preview.redd.it/zgbqdjzfsr0d1.png?width=2108&format=png&auto=webp&s=c17f493515d8a4996cc79a5e3043ed87cdc8ad23 submitted by PDX_LadyDzra to Stellaris [link] [comments] Read this post on the Paradox forums! Dev replies here! Strap in to your acceleration couches, this one's a going to be a big one. - E Hello there! I’m Anton, the Art Manager & Producer on Stellaris, and I would like to welcome you all to this absolute monster of a Dev Diary we have prepared for you! I just want to use this opportunity to mention how amazing it is to work with these fantastic artists on a day to day basis and how extremely proud I am of the team. We managed to do a lot for this DLC, more than we’ve done for an expansion or DLC ever before. In fact the total logged art work time (I just looked at our stats in JIRA) for The Machine Age is over 2 years and 41 weeks. Truly spectacular. Great job Team! In the last The Art of The Machine Age dev diary, we showed you (and talked about the process of) a lot of what we had been doing - but far from it all. So get comfortable, take out your favorite snack and get ready to look at a lot of art. Almost everything we did for The Machine Age will be showcased - but first, some words from our Art Director. Alright! Here we go! We hope you enjoy this! Scott Austin - Art DirectorAs you have heard countless times already, our latest project, The Machine Age, is the largest pack we’ve ever put out for Stellaris. The reason that you’ve heard it countless times is because we think it’s worth repeating. We have well over double the amount of ships and FX, triple the amount of characters and animation, and probably quadruple the amount of 2D/Icon work. As daunting as that might seem, we pulled it off. And not just pulled it off, but did it without losing any quality and with an unbelievably tight schedule. Sure things were busy, but we can proudly say that we didn’t have to burn the midnight oil or resort to overtime or crunch.While I would love, as the AD, to just take credit for all of that hard work and bask in the amazing light of glorious praise, the real credit goes to our “Little Art Team That Could”. In the boundless expanses and the incomprehensibly infinite universe of game design, our small art team shines like a supernova of talent and efficiency. Though few in number, our art team possesses a galaxy's worth of skill and dedication, crafting the most awe-inspiring sci-fi visuals that breathe life into every pixel, every polygon and every frame of Stellaris. Each artist possesses a bewildering array of talents, with skills so sharp they could slice through space-time, creating shortcuts to other dimensions where deadlines don't exist and cups of caffeinated beverages never run dry. They churn out masterpieces with such alarming speed and regularity that one begins to suspect they've cloned themselves and are operating in shifts spanning multiple parallel universes (Please, do not let HR in on this…). I am ever thankful for the chance to voyage through the cosmos of Stellaris with such brilliantly unhinged minds. Their talent and relentless dedication are the warp drive to our projects, and their visionary artistry is the very soul of our games. I am ever grateful for their dedication and downright chuffed to navigate the nebulous realms of creativity alongside such splendidly imaginative life forms. Together, we continue to chart courses that boldly go where no game has gone before. And, as always, to the players, I say: “You ain’t seen nothing yet!” -Scott Austin- Art Director, Paradox Interactive [Note from your friendly Stellaris Community Ambassador: Reddit will not allow us to include all 150+ images the Art Team has shared in this Dev Diary, so please visit the Paradox forums if you want to see it all!] Alec Beals - Concept ArtistSynthetic Portraitshttps://preview.redd.it/5n89wuqxtr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=41074f1565682e0778e9c7c386fe6af69f92b68f The Synthetic Queen https://preview.redd.it/h9ny5hlkur0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=2f6d5de8a619d4b9078b9b6431e31f66c082730f Concept Art, Illustrations and Vis Dev https://preview.redd.it/y6clz51mur0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=ffbcfe5e5d921fe55f9b7ec218ef57a03b535f27 Lloyd Drake-Brockman - Concept ArtistIllustrationshttps://preview.redd.it/ym3rywwour0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=dc035d933cdee5be2428e6bf6f5afbd5be4174b9 Super Structures & The Synthetic Queen Ships Concepts https://preview.redd.it/i1wf4vppur0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=0adbd149e69102ffeaf1c1d3485450282e851264 Felix Englund - Concept ArtistCybernetic Portraitshttps://preview.redd.it/s2j79c3wur0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=32a00625f953c0e4d168cf7f02f32621a4fe5c22 Synthetic Portraits https://preview.redd.it/ax9kkepzur0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=9c28446fb6c95ba13aa6b8ab74a19cbf20cda5e5 Illustrations https://preview.redd.it/16e28qpyur0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=efe954712d67c849f51d87054bd71527926a4e83 Tim Wiberg - 3D ArtistCybernetics Ship Sethttps://preview.redd.it/1cprafn3vr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=7f76e19871a369baf8f3cb58a89e94a2b666a070 The Synthetic Queen Ship Set https://preview.redd.it/n3esg1c6vr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=2a0795128dd46dc494293a421167158a990cfdd9 Emma Quer - 3D Artist Cybernetics Ship Set https://preview.redd.it/ll2y8rx8vr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=31f7f413d395c2871788096c95d8002978e98b9e Machines ship set https://preview.redd.it/thoz76w9vr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=3275a03c38dfb6a1ac10f57633396631e6c99ba5 David Strömblad Lindh - 3D ArtistCybernetics Ship Sethttps://preview.redd.it/8vmbnd7cvr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=c2aaefe91446f5cb0de4d5f38a667000b964690f Erik Forsström - VFX ArtistHorizon Needlehttps://i.redd.it/qmb8ceegvr0d1.gif Erick Ramirez Mota - Animatorhttps://i.redd.it/7lyh875lvr0d1.gifCassandra Lindquist - UI ArtistAchievements, Technologies, Buildings, Authorities, Traits & Civicshttps://preview.redd.it/6btth58mvr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=828ad956385a9296262b770d3b5f6d20822ff1e9 Synthetic Fertility Event Image https://preview.redd.it/lxgh8f2nvr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=43a7ae3f10a5cf9586f93ecd4127142d0b86b612 Gabrielle Rodrigues - UI ArtistThe Machine Age UI Art - The Synaptic Lathehttps://preview.redd.it/i0w0igxnvr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=3b80fd0eb6444ab777e6aa73d4923751f34700df Ingela Hallberg - UI ArtistBuilding Icons - Part Ihttps://preview.redd.it/dw50wexpvr0d1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=80da01d9a5b2dfe4c09e2ab89c46eae50bd65a0c Let’s Talk About AIEladrin here. There has been an ongoing discussion about the responsible use of AI tools in game development.As mentioned in our Steam AI generated content disclosure, during the development of The Machine Age the Stellaris team used text and image generative AI tools for ideation purposes to inspire creativity in a developer, or to aid in explaining a designer’s intent to other members of the development team. We subscribe to the legal opinion that there is no copyright or ownership attached to the output of generative AI, and our team is disallowed from putting any such generated text or image directly into the game. Everything you see or read in The Machine Age has been created, developed, or written by our creative staff in the Studio. We have used an advanced text-to-speech AI tool to create a voice for Cetana and the Cyberpunk advisor. The scripts and lines for these voices were created by our Content Design team, and the voice actors that created any voice models that are used by this tool receive payment for each line generated, and will continue to receive payments if more lines are generated using their voice models in the future. The use of this tool allowed our Audio team (with quite a bit of effort as described in Dev Diary #340) to fully voice Cetana, and will allow us to keep the advisor voice up-to-date should new mechanics be added to Stellaris over the upcoming years. This will prevent the voice from needing to fall back to the default VIR voice, as many of our other advisors did when Galactic Paragon added Council Agendas. These technologies are evolving quickly, and personally I have great hopes for further improvements and potential uses of this text-to-speech technology in particular. In the 3.6 “Orion” update we added support for text-to-speech in events as a major accessibility improvement, but currently it is limited to the use of operating system based voice packs. While these audio tools are not yet at a point where we can use this technology to improve that experience, I look forward to a day some years from now where AI-based advanced text-to-speech could replace these relatively crude voices with more thematically appropriate ones, and be able to better handle languages other than English. Next WeekNext week we’ll be looking at post-release support, and may have a preliminary list of release notes for the next planned patch.See you then! |
2024.05.16 13:18 GirlyPop-Tart I will probably end up deleting this
Trigger warning- hospital stories I am looking for validation through strangers once again as I think it will help me advocate for myself in real life. I’m talking to my therapist about this soon too no therapy advice please. So as of about a month ago I 21f was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s lymphoma (yes cancer, so sad, so young, let’s not focus on that part for the sake of this post.) This diagnosis comes with a bunch of medical testing and a few procedures to pretty much assess how bad this shit is. I was uneasy knowing this as I have severe trust issues with anyone I am specifically told to trust (parents, teachers, doctors) as a result from trauma.
I had a surgery about two weeks ago to get a lymph node removed on my neck. Looking back I’m pretty upset about how I was treated but I’m being made to feel unreasonable because this is how everyone is treated. I made it clear to my care team that I was nervous and uncomfortable and blatantly asked for reassurance and to have the procedure explained in detail. I made it so clear that I had to understand what was going to be happening to me. A big part was that I did not want to be naked on the table but I didn’t say that specifically because I don’t expect them to accommodate that but I thought I would be able to tell if I would be exposed at any part of the procedure based on what they had to do. I just needed to know to mentally prepare.
As I’m falling asleep I realize they’re pulling down the top part of my gown and my boobs are out in the open. I just remember essentially being like “what the fuck is that for” and then reminding myself that I have cancer and have bigger problems. I wake up laying down and I’m aware of what is going on but I’m very out of it. I open my eyes to look down and see that she once again pulled my gown down to remove the sticky heart monitor things that had been placed there before. There was a curtain next to me so the guy next to me couldn’t see but anyone coming from the front or the right would have been able to see me. The next day I’m examining myself in the mirror and I see tiny cuts around my incision and I ask then I’m told it is from some type of metal clamps used to hold open the part they were operating on. I cried about it off and on for the rest of the day of mostly frustration that I tried so hard to prevent the trigger of not knowing what is happening to me and it was all pointless. Now yesterday I found out they want to knock me out again and do a bunch more stuff all at once one of those being taking some of eggs to freeze them since there’s a 5 percent chance I’ll be infertile after this crap. But the oncologist TOLD me this is what is happening as if I literally have no say in if I’m going to get my fucking ovary cut open. Pretty much saying “might as well since we’re in there”. Like that is my organ dude it’s a big deal whether you try to gaslight me that it is or not it’s a big deal so at least let me think about it.
I’m freaking out because cancer is hard enough for a person with a normal amount of trauma but for me I just don’t know how I am going to survive if this is how I am going to be treated. Especially when I’m being made to feel crazy and inconvenient for having questions or concerns at all. I am trying to work with these people and my way of doing that is by wanting to be aware of what is happening and in general it’s totally fair to want to know if a private area is going to be seen by a group of old men while you’re unconscious or have extra cuts on your neck from a surgery. The people that are supposed to save me are taking the fucking life out of me. Congrats if you read all this I didn’t know what context was important so there ya go.
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I had a surgery about two weeks ago to get a lymph node removed on my neck. Looking back I’m pretty upset about how I was treated but I’m being made to feel unreasonable because this is how everyone is treated. I made it clear to my care team that I was nervous and uncomfortable and blatantly asked for reassurance and to have the procedure explained in detail. I made it so clear that I had to understand what was going to be happening to me. A big part was that I did not want to be naked on the table but I didn’t say that specifically because I don’t expect them to accommodate that but I thought I would be able to tell if I would be exposed at any part of the procedure based on what they had to do. I just needed to know to mentally prepare.
As I’m falling asleep I realize they’re pulling down the top part of my gown and my boobs are out in the open. I just remember essentially being like “what the fuck is that for” and then reminding myself that I have cancer and have bigger problems. I wake up laying down and I’m aware of what is going on but I’m very out of it. I open my eyes to look down and see that she once again pulled my gown down to remove the sticky heart monitor things that had been placed there before. There was a curtain next to me so the guy next to me couldn’t see but anyone coming from the front or the right would have been able to see me. The next day I’m examining myself in the mirror and I see tiny cuts around my incision and I ask then I’m told it is from some type of metal clamps used to hold open the part they were operating on. I cried about it off and on for the rest of the day of mostly frustration that I tried so hard to prevent the trigger of not knowing what is happening to me and it was all pointless. Now yesterday I found out they want to knock me out again and do a bunch more stuff all at once one of those being taking some of eggs to freeze them since there’s a 5 percent chance I’ll be infertile after this crap. But the oncologist TOLD me this is what is happening as if I literally have no say in if I’m going to get my fucking ovary cut open. Pretty much saying “might as well since we’re in there”. Like that is my organ dude it’s a big deal whether you try to gaslight me that it is or not it’s a big deal so at least let me think about it.
I’m freaking out because cancer is hard enough for a person with a normal amount of trauma but for me I just don’t know how I am going to survive if this is how I am going to be treated. Especially when I’m being made to feel crazy and inconvenient for having questions or concerns at all. I am trying to work with these people and my way of doing that is by wanting to be aware of what is happening and in general it’s totally fair to want to know if a private area is going to be seen by a group of old men while you’re unconscious or have extra cuts on your neck from a surgery. The people that are supposed to save me are taking the fucking life out of me. Congrats if you read all this I didn’t know what context was important so there ya go.
2024.05.16 13:17 Estefierrote_ Post Birth Control Syndrome
I come off the pill 8 months ago I took birth control pills for almost 12 years nonstop and i've dealing with terrible side effects. Anxiety, weight gain, hormonal acne for the very first time in my life, joint pain, depression, lack of motivation, low libido, fatigue, hair loss the first month, migraine some days during the month.... I have them all!!! I bought the book Beyond The Pill from Dr Jolene Brighten. I want to do her protocol.... Did someone did it already? Is it hard to follow in terms of food and cooking? Did you see results? My book will arrive in 1 month and i'm kind of desperate... I would like to read some reviews from you. Thank you! :)
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2024.05.16 13:16 ThrowRAFluid Am I (F26) justified to divorce my (M30) husband
Hey everyone. Our marriage hasn't been going well for a long time already. We are very different in many aspects but I won't be talking about the other altercations we already had.
Here it goes. My husband likes to be scratched on his back before going to sleep. So, that's what ive been doing for the past 6 years every night for like 20 minutes or longer. He gets really annoyed if I say no or if I want to stop as he says he can't sleep without it. Sometimes I am just tired as well.
I didn't work the last couple years so I thought it's the least I can do besides cooking washing and cleaning as he works by day. It kind of started to be a pattern and if I didnt want to he would be annoyed and would go to bed angry.
I started my first working day last week and got home really tired. At night he asked me to scratch his back again and I told him no I am just really tired tonight I want to go to sleep. He kept on begging and nagging me and I've already told him no at that time about 20 times or more. He then proceded to poke my back as he didnt take no for an answer while I tried to sleep. The poking my back got me really annoyed and I kept saying stop but he didnt and I pushed his arm back. I didnt hit but pushed it with force and told him to let me sleep.
He then hit my arm with his fist and I punched him back in his arm. We kept on hitting eachother harder everytime until we were really fighting. His last hit was really hard and it hurted my arm and out of frustration I spit in his face and screamed leave me alone! I know its awful and I shouldnt have done that but my arm hurted me and I just lost control. I know its wrong and I take full responsibility for it. He then grabbed me by my arms pushed me back on the bed and spit in my face twice while I tried to push him off me and hit him back. He then punched me so hard on the side of my face that everything turned white in front of my eyes for a couple seconds. He immeditately got off from me and I ran to the other room. He followed me and tried to aplogize and said he never meant to hit that hard. I told him to please leave me and he got angry again saying I started all of this.
We haven't talked since. He messaged me the next day that he was really sorry for the punch in my face and that he didnt mean to but that I was the one who started this. I told him to stop with the lame excuses and we havent really talked since.
I never once hit him in the face just in the arm and he is a big guy who goes to the gym 6 days a week. I know I am wrong in this situation as well and I own up to my mistakes. The spitting was so unnecesary but him hitting me just made me snap. I am normally a super positive person and since this happened I just cant look at him in a normal light anymore.
I come from a broken family and I always told myself I am marrying just once in my life but I cant stay in a marriage where we dont respect eachother... What do I do?
Tl;dr : I didnt do what he wanted me to do and we got into a physical fight. We both made mistakes but I feel like this marriage is just toxic. What do I do.
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Here it goes. My husband likes to be scratched on his back before going to sleep. So, that's what ive been doing for the past 6 years every night for like 20 minutes or longer. He gets really annoyed if I say no or if I want to stop as he says he can't sleep without it. Sometimes I am just tired as well.
I didn't work the last couple years so I thought it's the least I can do besides cooking washing and cleaning as he works by day. It kind of started to be a pattern and if I didnt want to he would be annoyed and would go to bed angry.
I started my first working day last week and got home really tired. At night he asked me to scratch his back again and I told him no I am just really tired tonight I want to go to sleep. He kept on begging and nagging me and I've already told him no at that time about 20 times or more. He then proceded to poke my back as he didnt take no for an answer while I tried to sleep. The poking my back got me really annoyed and I kept saying stop but he didnt and I pushed his arm back. I didnt hit but pushed it with force and told him to let me sleep.
He then hit my arm with his fist and I punched him back in his arm. We kept on hitting eachother harder everytime until we were really fighting. His last hit was really hard and it hurted my arm and out of frustration I spit in his face and screamed leave me alone! I know its awful and I shouldnt have done that but my arm hurted me and I just lost control. I know its wrong and I take full responsibility for it. He then grabbed me by my arms pushed me back on the bed and spit in my face twice while I tried to push him off me and hit him back. He then punched me so hard on the side of my face that everything turned white in front of my eyes for a couple seconds. He immeditately got off from me and I ran to the other room. He followed me and tried to aplogize and said he never meant to hit that hard. I told him to please leave me and he got angry again saying I started all of this.
We haven't talked since. He messaged me the next day that he was really sorry for the punch in my face and that he didnt mean to but that I was the one who started this. I told him to stop with the lame excuses and we havent really talked since.
I never once hit him in the face just in the arm and he is a big guy who goes to the gym 6 days a week. I know I am wrong in this situation as well and I own up to my mistakes. The spitting was so unnecesary but him hitting me just made me snap. I am normally a super positive person and since this happened I just cant look at him in a normal light anymore.
I come from a broken family and I always told myself I am marrying just once in my life but I cant stay in a marriage where we dont respect eachother... What do I do?
Tl;dr : I didnt do what he wanted me to do and we got into a physical fight. We both made mistakes but I feel like this marriage is just toxic. What do I do.
2024.05.16 13:15 Copper-Claw How do you function in life?
I m(22) am severely behind in every aspect in life and I don't know where to even start. I had a video call with the one person I've kept in contact with and I just feel so incompetent. I'm not good with words so I'll put a list down instead.
Things I need help with::
-finding a reason to live; I always thought that I be dead by the time I was 10 and since then I've just been waiting for my overdue death
-having wants and goals I've never had an idea of my future and I can't find joy in the things I used to do
-living authentically; I grew up thinking that I was broken for being autistic since I was told by my teachers so I masked so hard that I have an identity crisis when I try not to. I want to be fully out of the closet and accepted by others too
-have connections to people; I am alone more often (aside from my dogs) than not it doesn't usually bother me but sometimes I just long for having people I can be comfortable with and enjoy being around that I see other people have especially after that video call last night. It's not that I haven't met lovely people in my life It's just that I can't seem to truly care about them I want them to have a good life of course but I don't miss them or look forward to seeing them again
-getting fit, education and/or a job this is secondary to the other stuff right now especially with my health issues
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Things I need help with::
-finding a reason to live; I always thought that I be dead by the time I was 10 and since then I've just been waiting for my overdue death
-having wants and goals I've never had an idea of my future and I can't find joy in the things I used to do
-living authentically; I grew up thinking that I was broken for being autistic since I was told by my teachers so I masked so hard that I have an identity crisis when I try not to. I want to be fully out of the closet and accepted by others too
-have connections to people; I am alone more often (aside from my dogs) than not it doesn't usually bother me but sometimes I just long for having people I can be comfortable with and enjoy being around that I see other people have especially after that video call last night. It's not that I haven't met lovely people in my life It's just that I can't seem to truly care about them I want them to have a good life of course but I don't miss them or look forward to seeing them again
-getting fit, education and/or a job this is secondary to the other stuff right now especially with my health issues
2024.05.16 13:15 RosesAndMusicuwu i came out as genderfluid to my girlfriend and..
at first she was really supportive, even asked what pronouns i felt comfortable using at that moment. i told her the truth and everything was okay for a bit. we played d&d with some friends for like three hours and i really thought everything was going to be okay. it wasn't until late at night (probably 10pm-ish) that she started to tell me how she really felt. she told me that she only believed there were three genders (non-binary, men, and women) and she said that trans men and women are men and women too.
it'll probably help to know that she's also a trans woman, so i don't think she has any ill intentions in her.
we talked more and, honestly, i'm feeling really self conscious now. i tried to explain myself to her, in hopes that she'd understand, and she just said (and i quote) "it's something that i don't understand and that i don't care to understand." and that really hurt. i thought she'd be accepting of me. i think she is, she's just confused. she was raised christian and just started finding herself recently, so i don't think she's just being ignorant.
any advice can help. should i keep trying to explain myself? is it okay to feel self conscious now? why do i have a hard time saying i love you now? ugh, so much is going through my head and i don't have answers for any of it...
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it'll probably help to know that she's also a trans woman, so i don't think she has any ill intentions in her.
we talked more and, honestly, i'm feeling really self conscious now. i tried to explain myself to her, in hopes that she'd understand, and she just said (and i quote) "it's something that i don't understand and that i don't care to understand." and that really hurt. i thought she'd be accepting of me. i think she is, she's just confused. she was raised christian and just started finding herself recently, so i don't think she's just being ignorant.
any advice can help. should i keep trying to explain myself? is it okay to feel self conscious now? why do i have a hard time saying i love you now? ugh, so much is going through my head and i don't have answers for any of it...
2024.05.16 13:13 Ok_Performer7875 24F - you receive an about me, i receive your friendship 🤝
hi, hello! people call me Stars, but you can call me your next new interesting internet friend! or not! let’s find out :D
i never really know how to start these off to be honest and i never seem to be getting any better at them, lol.
just a girl on the internet looking to hopefully meet other internet people to become friends!! i can be a little chaotic sometimes, but will platonically love you and be a space of safety and comfortability 24/7.
fiercely loyal to all my friends and it’s something i take quite seriously. friends are something to hold close and take care of and i will always stand by that.
a little about me… im a horror junkie, avid gamer, book worm, tattoo wearer, and nap connoisseur!
my life is constantly changing and im in the biggest life change of them all right now… (moving countries)
i like to share memes, my music and most importantly, my cats. let’s exchange pet pics, please!!
anyways, there’s not much else to say! I’m a little goofy, sometimes unhinged, but always down for a good time and to enjoy the days with everyone i love. ❤️
let’s be friends 🤝
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i never really know how to start these off to be honest and i never seem to be getting any better at them, lol.
just a girl on the internet looking to hopefully meet other internet people to become friends!! i can be a little chaotic sometimes, but will platonically love you and be a space of safety and comfortability 24/7.
fiercely loyal to all my friends and it’s something i take quite seriously. friends are something to hold close and take care of and i will always stand by that.
a little about me… im a horror junkie, avid gamer, book worm, tattoo wearer, and nap connoisseur!
my life is constantly changing and im in the biggest life change of them all right now… (moving countries)
i like to share memes, my music and most importantly, my cats. let’s exchange pet pics, please!!
anyways, there’s not much else to say! I’m a little goofy, sometimes unhinged, but always down for a good time and to enjoy the days with everyone i love. ❤️
let’s be friends 🤝
2024.05.16 13:12 Buddoh Ideas for half sleeve?
 | Hey yall this arm is a series of bad decisions in my life. This was a tribal covering up bad tattoos. Then maybe 2-3 sessions of laser over the whole thing. I need ideas for a half sleeve or what I can turn this monstrosity into. submitted by Buddoh to Tattoocoverups [link] [comments] Also is this faded enough for a decent cover up? Or do I need more laser sessions. |
2024.05.16 13:12 bhumiapatil Modern Elegance Unveiled: Trendsetting Baby Shower Decoration Ideas by Take Rent Pe
Embracing the anticipation of a new life is a momentous occasion, and a modern baby shower deserves decorations that reflect both style and significance. In this guide, we explore cutting-edge trends in baby shower decorations, ensuring your celebration is a chic and memorable affair. From contemporary twists on traditional elements like seemantham decoration to incorporating divine elegance with godh bharai decoration, these ideas will redefine the aesthetics of your modern baby shower. All you need to do is look for Take Rent Pe, which offers baby shower decorations for rent. You can select from a variety of our decoration options. You can also quote your ideas, and we'll put them into practice. With just a single click, you may hire the décor arrangement and avoid wasting time and money on travel to meet multiple providers when you can have all you need under one roof. 1. Seamless Blending of Seemantham Decoration in Modern Themes: Traditionally associated with South Asian cultures, seemantham decoration has evolved, seamlessly integrating into modern baby showers. Instead of sticking to a strict color palette, experiment with pastel hues and metallic accents to add a contemporary touch. Opt for minimalist floral arrangements and modern motifs to strike the perfect balance between tradition and trend. Consider a stylish backdrop featuring geometric shapes or a custom-made banner with a modern twist on traditional symbols. Enhance the ambiance with subtle yet impactful touches, such as incorporating modern vases filled with flowers or greenery. The key is to create an atmosphere that pays homage to cultural roots while embracing the sophistication of modern design.
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- Divine Sophistication with Godh Bharai Decoration: Elevate your baby shower to divine heights by incorporating godh bharai decoration with a modern twist. Instead of the conventional color schemes, opt for muted tones like blush pink, sage green, or even celestial-inspired shades of blue and gold. This approach infuses a sense of modern sophistication while maintaining the sacred symbolism of the occasion. For an assertively modern touch, choose elegant materials like satin, velvet, or sheer organza for drapes and tablecloths. Experiment with lighting by incorporating subtle, warm-toned string lights or chic chandeliers. Create a focal point with a personalized sign or banner that combines modern calligraphy with traditional elements, emphasizing the significance of the godh bharai ceremony.
- Gender-Neutral Minimalism: Modern baby showers often embrace the concept of gender neutrality, making it essential to adapt baby shower decorations accordingly. Choose a versatile color palette of soft grays, greens, and yellows that transcends traditional gender norms. Incorporate geometric shapes and patterns for a contemporary feel. Utilize minimalist table centerpieces with potted plants, succulents, or candles. Opt for simple, yet elegant, banners and garlands that celebrate the impending arrival without adhering to stereotypical gender colors. This approach not only aligns with modern design sensibilities but also promotes inclusivity in celebrating the joy of new life.
- Tech-Savvy Photo Booths: Take your modern baby shower to the next level by incorporating a tech-savvy photo booth. Replace traditional props with digital filters and augmented reality elements that add a fun and futuristic dimension to the celebration. Encourage guests to capture moments with virtual accessories that resonate with the overall theme. For added flair, create a dedicated space with a backdrop that complements the theme, whether it's a virtual landscape or a design that aligns with the seemantham or godh bharai decoration style. This not only serves as a source of entertainment but also allows guests to create lasting memories in a modern and interactive way.
2024.05.16 13:12 40PercentSarcasm Self-improvement and love reading: Three of Swords problem
Dearest readers,
I'm starting to pick up the pieces after a terrible break up. One thing the relationship had taught me, and I'm grateful for, is that I don't actually want to be alone in life. I always had the self-concept that I would be alone, and I turned that into a strength, that I was the one who wanted that, instead of no one wanting to be with me. This caused a lot of distress to my partner, who always felt that I was compromising on my happiness by being with him. I wasn't, I told him many many times, and I meant it, that being with him made me happier than being alone ever could. I would still be happy alone, but I no longer preferred to be.
Him leaving me (for other reasons) was devastating. But after months of crying and very hard work to keep my life on track and heal, I've come to realise I do want a partner in my life. Loving someone made me a better person, and being loved was better than I ever imagined.
So I've asked my deck what I need to do to come into a space where I can attract love into my life.
1- What do I need to do to attract fulfilling, lasting love in my life?
Nine of Pentacles.
This tells me I should focus on stability- both financial, for me that means finding a good job, and emotional. It tells me I should work on being satisfied with myself, increase my vibration, and be the best version of myself in these areas that I can be: a thriving professional, satisfied with her job and het lifestyle (not financial, but social, hobbies, physical fitness, etc...)
2- Is love something that is meant for me?
Six of Pentacles
Probably should have asked this question first but I am a ADHD reader. This one is a little confusing because of the cards focus on money, but I'm reading it as that it will be meant for me, when I am capable of giving as much as I receive. Again a little confusing because in my past relationships, I have given much more than I received, leaving me drained and unpleasant to be around- which prompted my partners to leave me. But overall, the message is to be stronger so I can actually sustain giving from the heart, without expecting returns.
3- Where do I need to look for it?
Three of Swords
This is the one that confuses me and I'm looking for help on. What does it mean? I meant to ask where, in what context, should I look for the partner I want? Is it telling me to look at my own heartbreak? This feels contradictory to the previous card.
4- What should I improve on in my own self and life tot that end?
The Moon
This is telling me to stop projecting my past onto my future and be more sure of myself.
Can anybody give feedback on this reading? And especially on the Three of Swords? It confuses me.
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I'm starting to pick up the pieces after a terrible break up. One thing the relationship had taught me, and I'm grateful for, is that I don't actually want to be alone in life. I always had the self-concept that I would be alone, and I turned that into a strength, that I was the one who wanted that, instead of no one wanting to be with me. This caused a lot of distress to my partner, who always felt that I was compromising on my happiness by being with him. I wasn't, I told him many many times, and I meant it, that being with him made me happier than being alone ever could. I would still be happy alone, but I no longer preferred to be.
Him leaving me (for other reasons) was devastating. But after months of crying and very hard work to keep my life on track and heal, I've come to realise I do want a partner in my life. Loving someone made me a better person, and being loved was better than I ever imagined.
So I've asked my deck what I need to do to come into a space where I can attract love into my life.
1- What do I need to do to attract fulfilling, lasting love in my life?
Nine of Pentacles.
This tells me I should focus on stability- both financial, for me that means finding a good job, and emotional. It tells me I should work on being satisfied with myself, increase my vibration, and be the best version of myself in these areas that I can be: a thriving professional, satisfied with her job and het lifestyle (not financial, but social, hobbies, physical fitness, etc...)
2- Is love something that is meant for me?
Six of Pentacles
Probably should have asked this question first but I am a ADHD reader. This one is a little confusing because of the cards focus on money, but I'm reading it as that it will be meant for me, when I am capable of giving as much as I receive. Again a little confusing because in my past relationships, I have given much more than I received, leaving me drained and unpleasant to be around- which prompted my partners to leave me. But overall, the message is to be stronger so I can actually sustain giving from the heart, without expecting returns.
3- Where do I need to look for it?
Three of Swords
This is the one that confuses me and I'm looking for help on. What does it mean? I meant to ask where, in what context, should I look for the partner I want? Is it telling me to look at my own heartbreak? This feels contradictory to the previous card.
4- What should I improve on in my own self and life tot that end?
The Moon
This is telling me to stop projecting my past onto my future and be more sure of myself.
Can anybody give feedback on this reading? And especially on the Three of Swords? It confuses me.
2024.05.16 13:11 Significant-Belt-967 What a life idk what imma do
Looking to chat and get to know some people life is hard and I don't know what to do anymore. If you wanna chat get to know me message me I will answer
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2024.05.16 13:09 Psychological_Fun19 I feel so behind in life
When I graduated in 2021, I was supposed to attend a university. I was looking forward to it. But, my parents had other ideas. When it was time to be the parents I need and help me with financial aid, they’d rather show reluctance. It hurt me, because at the time me AND my boyfriend both had our futures together, and couldn’t wait to build our life together. Of course that had to happen.
I didn’t have the financial aid to pay for my tuition, or any loans at that, so it was clear I wasn’t able to attend. I’ve been looking for a job ever since so I can start building my life, but it’s so hard to find something nowadays. I have been unemployed for three straight years, and I’m 20 years old now. I don’t even have my drivers license. I feel so inadequate laying in bed while the days pass me by.
I know people will consider me complacent for not having it but i wasn’t fortunate enough to have the time. Meaning, my life is full of dealings with my broken family. Plus, my parents weren’t really involved with me due to that. Now that I’m an adult, I have to figure everything out with no guidance. It sucks, but I’ve sucked it up and am trying to move forward.
Although everyone lives has a unique course, I get sad at the thought of finally landing a job or getting my license at the age of 25.
I don’t know what to do.
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I didn’t have the financial aid to pay for my tuition, or any loans at that, so it was clear I wasn’t able to attend. I’ve been looking for a job ever since so I can start building my life, but it’s so hard to find something nowadays. I have been unemployed for three straight years, and I’m 20 years old now. I don’t even have my drivers license. I feel so inadequate laying in bed while the days pass me by.
I know people will consider me complacent for not having it but i wasn’t fortunate enough to have the time. Meaning, my life is full of dealings with my broken family. Plus, my parents weren’t really involved with me due to that. Now that I’m an adult, I have to figure everything out with no guidance. It sucks, but I’ve sucked it up and am trying to move forward.
Although everyone lives has a unique course, I get sad at the thought of finally landing a job or getting my license at the age of 25.
I don’t know what to do.
2024.05.16 13:08 Former-Hunter3677 What to do between now and ADHD diagnosis to get by
What to do between now and ADHD diagnosis to get by?
I have my diagnosis come up in two weeks. I've been waiting for about 5 months and during this time I've been taking it easy (as I was so burnt out from life and anxiety) and learning about ADHD. I think I almost certainly have it, based on reading others experiences, talking to people with ADHD, the known symptoms of ADHD, and reflecting on my life, behaviour, etc. I've always felt something was off about me and It's like ADHD was the missing puzzle piece to all these things I'm struggling with. It's such a mind f#*@.
I still need to get things done for work, but as I have really reduced my anxiety, which was the coping mechanism I guess to get things done, I'm finding it so hard to do things now. I don't want to go back to needing anxiety to get things done. I just can't seem to get myself to do what I need to do and the things are really piling up.
So I'm looking for advice, what can I do to get things done, or get my executive function working? What has worked for you? I've read that, and am hoping, that medication will help but that won't be for a while.
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I have my diagnosis come up in two weeks. I've been waiting for about 5 months and during this time I've been taking it easy (as I was so burnt out from life and anxiety) and learning about ADHD. I think I almost certainly have it, based on reading others experiences, talking to people with ADHD, the known symptoms of ADHD, and reflecting on my life, behaviour, etc. I've always felt something was off about me and It's like ADHD was the missing puzzle piece to all these things I'm struggling with. It's such a mind f#*@.
I still need to get things done for work, but as I have really reduced my anxiety, which was the coping mechanism I guess to get things done, I'm finding it so hard to do things now. I don't want to go back to needing anxiety to get things done. I just can't seem to get myself to do what I need to do and the things are really piling up.
So I'm looking for advice, what can I do to get things done, or get my executive function working? What has worked for you? I've read that, and am hoping, that medication will help but that won't be for a while.
2024.05.16 13:05 InternWeak Happy housewives are rich
 | First off big yikes about Harrison Butker’s speech; but that’s a discussion for another thread. submitted by InternWeak to balancedmissbailey [link] [comments] Paige breaks it down perfectly as to why people like B are so fulfilled as a wife / mother / homemaker BECAUSE THEY ARE WEALTHY. And it’s not that ‘climb your way to the top because you’ve worked hard your whole life’ type of wealth. The average American mom doesn’t Snark on her for being happy, or even wealthy. It’s because she is just so goddamn smug and entitled, and literally brags and rubs it in her followers faces every. single. day. Did you catch the latest that she snuck in there? Oh my God guys, look how much food we have!! This is just my garage freezer lol! I’m going to make this overpriced, frozen sourdough bread that I bought as part of a subscription box !! Dare I make anything from scratch and have actual content. Look at my expensive $60 soup from spoon of comfort that’s been sitting here for months.!!! 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 |
2024.05.16 13:05 FindingFrenchFries Effed up printing bed.
 | I felt like I needed the jaws of life to remove my last print. It was like trying to rip apart mortared brick. I really like my creality printer but it's bed sticks too much. It was my biggest print yet and I'm pretty new to printing so I do mess up sometimes. I tried to be gentle and used a screwdriver but shoved it as hard as I could without trying to damage my printer and it didn't budge. I didn't know I was digging so hard at the bed. I then got a wrench and tried to be gentle and slowly but firmly twisted it to get it to loosen. I then tried the screwdriver again and it slowly came off. Is there anyway to fix or replace the bed cover? Will my printer still print properly or am I better off buying a new printer which I cannot afford right now? submitted by FindingFrenchFries to 3Dprinting [link] [comments] |
2024.05.16 13:05 Initial-Shine-5955 Best Psychologist or Psychiatrist in/around Kochi
Greetings fellow residents of Kochi!
Around 3 years back I started psychological therapy for a condition called DPDR (short for de-personalisation de- realisation) that I’ve developed over the years as body’s self defence mechanism by separating the body from the surrounds causing it to think the real life is either virtual or just a dream as result of multiple childhood traumatic events.
I do not feel connected to myself at all and am not in control of what’s I’m doing or saying. Just a person observing the life of the human flesh I have outside. I took therapy sessions from Amrita Hospital and didn’t do much help. I lost hope and decided to live with it. But now it’s gotten really hard to live as I have to drive around and need help regarding the same.
If you could suggest me some good psychiatrist or psychologist in or around Kochi then that would be greatly appreciated.
Many cheers 🍻
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Around 3 years back I started psychological therapy for a condition called DPDR (short for de-personalisation de- realisation) that I’ve developed over the years as body’s self defence mechanism by separating the body from the surrounds causing it to think the real life is either virtual or just a dream as result of multiple childhood traumatic events.
I do not feel connected to myself at all and am not in control of what’s I’m doing or saying. Just a person observing the life of the human flesh I have outside. I took therapy sessions from Amrita Hospital and didn’t do much help. I lost hope and decided to live with it. But now it’s gotten really hard to live as I have to drive around and need help regarding the same.
If you could suggest me some good psychiatrist or psychologist in or around Kochi then that would be greatly appreciated.
Many cheers 🍻