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2024.05.15 08:31 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:31 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:30 creepypond My mother wants to meet over memorial weekend, she wants me to fly out a day to visit before I’m getting married.
This is a long read sorry!
Hi, I (22F) literally just joined, I have been on reddit for a while now, I post here or there but I really need the grace that only reddit seems to have, kisses but you know it's true. So, I guess, I am screaming into the void, because the truth is I am so gutturally confused.
Like the title says- I have always fantasized of being a flower child, a changeling, of turning towards the corner of the yard, the woods beckoning me to run away, the gentleness of which the coyotes would pick my bones clean. My childhood felt like a house fire only I could see.
My father's nightcap of whiskey got less and less watered down as nights were uncomfortable to spend on the family room couch. The one that he fiercely protects, once threatening my friend who mistakenly lounged in his spot. My mother's love felt scarce, a luxury only my younger sister could afford. Between that and her ambition to become the first nurse and college graduate of both families, I was more of my father's daughter. My younger sister and I were doll-like children, meek and polite to the price of our own dignity and self. To give a brief snapshot of what it was like being raised by them \~ even though "I'm remembering it all wrong, or not at all" I will try to go in chronological order, but you can quickly see most of these were not isolated incidents and I jump around:
-daily spankings because of crying during daycare drop off (fair technique)
-tricking us out of the "broken" car, in the rain on a dirt road "get gas" and proceeded to speed past us laughing as we ran after his taillights in the mud, we were in another country, on a solo trip with just our dad, we were both elementary school age.
-In elementary school and 6th grade I lived in a sweatshirt because when I hit puberty. I pleaded to my mother how hard it was to hear my father's constant comments about my womanhood and new body. He started to compare me to a hooker around this time, calling me a slut for trying to wear what my friends wore to school- leggings, shorts shorter than the knee but not offensively short I promise, though I strongly feel as clothing does not mean consent.
-For as long as I can remember, he would take pictures of us when we looked embarrassed then show it to family, friends, whoever in conversation in front of us then scold us when we inevitably felt bad or asked him to stop. He would also promise to delete the photo but would continue the previously mentioned above.
-So far, I have just been harping on my father, but the truth is they are a match made in hell, and though I feel like my mother is a victim in her own way. It was very hard to exist without their constant horrible comments about my appearance and character. They both shamed skinny children to be thinner, critiqued my body through puberty, and felt entitled to touch my body when and how they wanted. Examples include my father's frequent ass grabbing, and then allowing his adult male friend to do the same.
-They both would ridicule me for working minimum wage jobs in high school, while my father funnels out of my sister and I's joint accounts, only when we confront him does he fess that he required the money we earned for ourselves for the "mortgage". He continues as well as set monetary account goals, right before trips or plans, he would always be surprised that we had managed to scrape together enough money. He expects me to find a place that will fire and schedule me on a winter vacation, or to amount 5k in less than 3 months, while paying for my own necessities, thank you for teaching me to live on frugality as a means of survival.
-The name calling I touched on, but I would be the first to come home from school, my father would take his lunch to come home and berate me verbally of how much of a loser I am and will continue to be. The verbal arguments were daily, I fully admit to yelling back but in truth I couldn't leave his spewing red face hurling threats, I had to stay glued in place until he had his fill.
-Another solo trip with my father and sister, my mother had cleaned my room while we were away and had found my treasures- vapes, two beers. I got pulled out of the running shower to be beaten on and off through the night whenever my father took a break from tv, my sister sob in the room with my father to stop and I sat on the couch until morning. We had a tourist excursion the next day and I got it again before we left because I was not to "ruining the rest of his vacation with my bad attitude"
-They locked away my childhood cat, sick with cancer, to die alone in the basement so she would ruin their floors with her incontinence. When she passed, they did not tell me, they buried her in the woods behind our house, I wish I could lay beside her, I'm sorry little one.
-My father would come home and yell at me for not having dinner ready for him, because when my mother worked late or was not home, the next one responsible for dinner was my younger sister or me.
-He physically corners us or refuses to let us leave. Threatened my life when I tried to leave the house during an argument.
-Put his hand through the door a couple of times because I “gave attitude” by responding with ok. Readers, please note I am capable of attitude, but this was not the case, I was scared, and I just wanted to give him whatever answer he wanted
-I'm a summer birthday, so for my big 21st I had my cousin, bf and sister have a pool party in my parents' pool. No one told me the plan all day. I was told to just relax by everyone, because normally I would be running around serving people or helping my parents. No one told me anything, so we played some games in the yard, had some wine coolers and then swam. My father flies outside and starts yelling at me from the side of the pool to get my ass out and blow out my candles because he needs to drive my cousin 20 minutes home each way. So, I blew out my candles, soaking wet staring daggers because my father has always managed to underplay or make me feel bad on my birthday too? Another grievance from my 21st birthday is that my father grilled frozen steaks, and I truly do not want to seem like a stuck-up princess, but he proceeded to buy 300$ of food from my favorite restaurant and his favorite food is steak not mine. Note his birthday is the next day following mine.
I may post in regard to the tribulation that was my childhood in this thread again, but it takes a lot out of me, and I have already had myself a day sorry. Now you're all caught up and I just want you to know-
I have long ruminated over my own words and actions; though I have many regrets I do not feel ashamed of my choices or who I am because I try to treat everyone with kindness and most importantly respectability. I know the lengths my immigrant parents have gone through to build themselves a life. I know the struggles my father had with his father, the alcoholic who raised him with cruelty reserved for not even a barn animal. I know that my mother lived in the shadows as a neglected middle child hoping to find someone who realized all her good in the way her parents did not. I can see and understand that I carry the same wounds, and now it is within my responsibility to be better.
So, my relationship with my parents is strained right now. I have been in low contact with my mother and father for nearly four years, with periods of better contact. We have tried therapy, though it's difficult as my mother uses this as an opportunity to explore her wounds rather than our history or relationship. Though the therapist was helpful in directing the conversation back, I believe that the work can only happen with the person wanting to actually work on themselves, so I feel like I am at a frustrating impasse.
Every time I feel like I can take out a brick between the wall I keep between us, my mother will say something that makes me build another layer. I try not to be sensitive, yet I know my mother likes to cut with her words, though she claims otherwise. In a recent conversation my mother admitted that my father and she spent a great effort in making sure my beauty did not go to my head and did this in order to keep me humble.
For context, my mother’s side of the family does not like my father, and this along with other childhood issues festering into adulthood drove a wedge between my mother and her younger brother. His recent divorce and my mother’s empty nest have given them much time and space to rekindle their sibling relationship. So on our already strained phone calls she hits me with these metaphors of her brother and her relationship to ours. Am I off for thinking that those are two very different relationships, yet both have.. Jealousy? Furthermore, I feel a looney because I am fighting to keep them in my life, and they are fighting to be right.? To be absolved of the guilt and shame that maybe they did do the wrong thing.?
What gives them the right? When we all have to lay away at night with our guilt you want me to hold yours? I want a mother and they want a guiltless soul
Truthfully, I do not know what kind of future lies ahead for us. I think I grieve having bullies instead of parents, of what I missed out on and who I could have been. Like I said I am low contact right now, but after a normal phone call talking about the weather and our pets today, I had an anxiety attack to the point I fought to stay conscious. This has not been the first time I have fainted due to anxiety, mostly surrounding situations that remind me of them or things they punished or did to me in the past. The day after I wished my father a happy birthday after a year of no contact, I got two pills of ativan to the face after a ER visit in which they thought my poor bf was trafficking me. Though this is maybe too much, I am always sweating, my sides literally pour, my hands shake, and I can string together a sentence if I try. I feel like a different person, a moist, meek person.. which is not me, I self tattoo and pierce, I can and have tackled an attacking dog and I have punched touchy men square in the nose. I’m tough because I fought tooth and nail to be kind and gentle, we rescued cats and recently a possum, and we let out spiders and bugs, so our cats don’t terrorize them.
Here’s the thing… we’re getting married!
We’re tying the knot in the woods at the end of May, but I feel like an asshole because I have not told my parents. They know we’re engaged.
My mother, in a recent phone call, told me of this travel nurse that she had gotten close to, that was getting married soon, and invited my mother to go dress shopping with her. My mother told me how sad this girl felt that her family was all the way across the country, coincidently much like we are. This felt like she was guilting me, but she went so far as to send me a picture of a couple, I didn’t verify who it actually was.
Another issue is I am dealing with the guilt of getting a ring and bands elsewhere. My father is a high-end jeweler whose work has been showcased by celebs, my whole life I heard that my father was going to design and make my engagement ring. After long consideration, we picked out a ring from Madrid that felt more like me. When I look at my wedding rings I want to think of my husband not my father. I am more than happy with anything else, rings for other occasions, but it makes my skin crawl and my stomach curling because part of me feels as if it's more of a collar than a ring then.
My mother wants to meet over memorial weekend, she wants me to fly out a day to visit before I’m getting married.
I do not know if I should facetime them and break the news before, after or invite them. It’s already last minute so airfare will be expensive, but I know they are going to be so heartbroken. Part of me does not want them there either because I have felt alone my whole life, I figured I would do my wedding the same way, though it's hard because my fiancé's family will be there, and I will have no one. I wish I could hire a friend... lol typed that with a tear in my eye that's ironic.
Suggestions please
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2024.05.15 08:30 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:30 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:29 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:29 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:29 OkWorld180 Pandit Samarth Swami Ramdas and Shivaji Maharaj.
| Samarth Ramdas, the guru of Shivaji Maharaj, advocated a combination of devotion, meditation and military training. Like many of his contemporaries, he did not believe in pacifism, but he believed in social, political and martial activism. According to him, even saints and other renunciants should not withdraw from society or become indifferent to their environment and surroundings but positively engage in reforming the lives of the members of the society actively and, if necessary, even take to violence for its moral transformation. Shree Samarth Guru Ramdas Swami was a sage of the highest order known for his knowledge of the Parbrahma, his unflinching worship, his unparalleled status as a Guru, his literature, and the tremendous adulation he received from the masses not only during his time but even now. He was born in a village, Jamb, to Suryaji and Ranoobai Thosar. His original name was Narayan. He lost his father at the age of eight, which turned him into an introvert. He became spiritual at a tender age. Then, at the age of 12 years, Bhagwan Sri Ram himself appeared in front of him and advised him to count the 13-lettered Ram tarak Mantra 108 times at least once a day. Then, Bhagwan Sri Ram is said to have accepted him as his own disciple. The former gave him a new name by which he has been known ever since- Ramdas. Such a thing had never happened ever since Bhagwan Sri Ram, who was an incarnation of Bhagwan Vishnu, had left his mortal body thousands of years ago. In his adolescent years, he decided not to get married and went to the holy city, Nasik, where he started his worship of Bhagwan Sri Ram which lasted for 12 years. He did it the hard way, many times remaining without food or water for days together. Every millisecond of this time he spent in the worship of Bhagwan Sri Ram. During this time he was constantly guided from within by Hanuman, the greatest disciple of Bhagwan Sri Ram. After 12 years of extensive Sadhana, he got the blessings of Bhagwan Sri Ram again, and through him, he also got real knowledge. Then, he embarked on a pilgrimage to most of the holy places of India, which he completed in 12 years. During this time, he travelled barefoot. After finishing the pilgrimage, he went back to Mahabaleshwar. Then, at Masur, he celebrated the birthday of Bhagwan Sri Ram, wherein thousands of people took part in religious activities. He started gathering people around him, which was essential for his ultimate goal of establishing the Hindu Dharma in its original form, which was in a shambles because of hundreds of years of Muslim rule in the country. Next year, he found the statues of Bhagwan Sri Ram in the deep waters of the Krishna river near Angapur. He built a temple at Chafal and installed it ceremoniously according to the Hindu tradition. He celebrated the birthday of Bhagwan Sri Ram that year at the newly built temple. Chhatrapati Shivaji Maharaj, who had spent his whole life fighting foreign Muslim rulers, Shree Shivaji Maharaj, requested Shree Samarth to accept him as his disciple and knowing him thoroughly well, Shree Samarth immediately consented. Shree Shivaji Maharaj, from this time onwards, always took Shree Samarth’s advice in all the important matters. Then Shree Shivaji Maharaj, as a token of respect towards the Guru, offered Shree Samarth his whole kingdom, saying that he would look after it as only a caretaker, but it would belong to Shree Samarth. Shree Samarth was moved by this gesture and praised Shree Shivaji Maharaj but told him that anyhow, he himself, as Parbrahma, was the Atman in Shree Shivaji Maharaj, and hence, this wasn’t required at all. Meanwhile, according to the wishes of Shree Samarth, 11 temples of Sri Hanuman had been established, and the Head Pujaris were appointed. Shree Samarth then went to Jamb as his mother had passed away. After returning back, he went to Karnataka on a Dharmic renaissance mission. On his way to Karnataka, he established a Math in Miraj and appointed a woman disciple, Venabai, as the head Priestess. On reaching Tanjavar, he was received by Vyankojiraje, the King of Tanjavar. He also told Shree Samarth of his desire to become his disciple, to which Shree Samarth consented. At Tanjavar, one of the very revered religious figures, Pundit Raghunath, also became the disciple of Shree Samarth. After coming back to Sajjangad, Shree Samarth started writing his epic, “Dasbodha”. He also established a temple of the Goddess at the Pratap Fort. Shivaji Maharaj used to visit him frequently for advice, and seeing this disciple’s qualities, Shree Samarth told him the crux of the ultimate knowledge that one has to acquire to merge with the Parbrahma. He then completed the remaining chapters of the Dasbodha. After the death of Shivaji Maharaj, he wrote a letter to the heir to the throne, Sambhaji (Shivaji’s son), which is considered a milestone by even today’s political scientists. With his job of the Hindu renaissance done, Shree Samarth left his mortal body and finally united with the Parbrahma, ending a life which was so multifaceted that without his mention, almost no field can be considered as complete. He left his mortal body at Sajjangad at the age of 73 years. He preached activism for both the saints and the laity and upheld the view that laziness leads to temporary, ephemeral pleasures, but hard work leads to perennial happiness. He encouraged the youth to revolt individually and collectively against the prevalent ills in society, such as oppressors, aggressors, and looters. He cajoled them to exercise regularly and become physically strong, as the weak are incapable of purging the evils from society. He argued that only the strong and those with a fighting spirit would be able to establish the rule of Dharma or righteousness. They alone can perform their duty towards society, its culture and values and gladly accept martyrdom if need be. The aim of the army of such a youth would be to establish a free and independent society, ‘not for narrow selfish individual gains but for upholding the moral and spiritual principles of society’. These teachings were based on his observations of the conditions, lifestyle and mindset of the then-Bharatiya society. After attaining his emancipation, Sant Ramdas undertook extensive travels to various pilgrimage centres all over India for twelve years. During these travels, he closely studied the social, political and economic conditions of Indians and noticed their utter helplessness in life. He observed that ‘the frequent floods and famines and the attacks by the Muslims whenever they wished, which were actually helped by our own people, had destroyed the society and social life of the people. Everyone was scared and depressed. From his experiences, he realised that there could be no healthy growth and return of Dharma in society until foreign rule persisted. Based on these experiences, he wrote two books, titled Asmani Sultani and Parachakraniroopan, detailing his minute observations about the common man. These are the only two books in the whole of Sant literature in India which describe and record the condition of the people in those times. It is reported in Panjah Sakhian and Ramdas Swamichi Bakhar that during his travel through the Garhwal hills, he met the sixth of the ten Sikh Gurus, Shri Guru Hargobind Sahib. In his conversation with the Guru, Ramdas asked, “I had heard that you occupy Guru Nanak’s gaddi (seat). Guru Nanak was a sadhu who had left all material things, a saint who had renounced the world. You possess arms and keep an army and horses. You allow yourself to be addressed as Sacha Patshah, the true king. What sort of a sadhu are you?” Hargobind replied, “Batan faquiri, zahir amiri, shastar garib ki rakhya, jarwan ki bhakhiya, Baba Nanak sansar nahi tyagya, maya tyagi thi.” In other words, “Internally a hermit and externally a prince; arms for the protection of the poor and destruction of the tyrant; Baba Guru Nanak had not renounced the world but renounced maya (wealth/luxury).” It is claimed that these words of Guru Hargobind earned a spontaneous response from Ramdas, who reportedly said, “Yeh hamare man bhavti hai” (This appeals to my mind).” The above meeting is probably the reason Swami Ramdas highlighted the warrior’s role in society. When he finally settled down in Chafal, he engaged himself in the resuscitation of Hindu culture and values, which had deteriorated owing to several centuries of foreign rule. To bring together the Hindus and spread his teaching among them, he installed a statue of Shri Ram and started celebrating the festival of Ram Janmotsava (birth of Bhagwan Ram) on Ram Navami. He established temples of Hanuman in towns and villages to convey the importance of exercise to the youth and taught them to get together and fight the enemy. He firmly believed that whenever the nation is in peril and the cultural, moral and ethical values of its people are in grave danger of extinction, spiritual leaders must put their spiritual aspirations and individual effort of personal salvation on the back burner. Till the time such threats are over, they should direct all their efforts to meet the challenges confronting the nation. He started Samartha, a sect of sannyasins with high moral character and no personal ambition. These sannyasins had an intense desire to change the prevailing conditions of society through political and belligerent means. They were first answerable to God, and then to the society or their nation. He argued that “saints were not those who prayed silently but those who with their piety, knowledge and strength would cast aside their aloofness and help people in distress”. He established mathas or holy places for them. These mathas provided an atmosphere which synthesised social work, politics and spirituality for the benefit of society. Samarth Guru Ramdas worked actively for the equality of all – men and women. He abhorred the distinctions based on caste and creed and vigorously engaged himself in the task of abolishing the fourfold classification. He reprimanded those who opposed the participation of women in religious, social and political work. He chided such men by arguing that everyone came from a woman’s womb, and those who did not understand the importance of this were unworthy of being called men. He upheld that respecting the role of women and giving them equal status was good for the growth of a healthy society. According to him, granting women equal status as men is a prerequisite for social development. In the mathas established by him he encouraged the participation of women and offered them positions of authority. Chhatrapati Shivaji Maharaj was one of his ardent disciples. Shivaji wanted to leave his kingdom and devote himself fully to the service of Swami Ramadas. Once, when Ramadas was on his regular begging sprees, Shivaji dropped a letter in Ramdas’s begging bowl, giving his kingdom to Samarth Ramdas. However, Ramdas told Shivaji that his duty was not to become a sanyasi but to serve the people, rule his kingdom according to Dharma, and protect temples and people from the atrocities of foreign rulers. He asked Shivaji to rule as his regent, to take the gerua chaddar for his banner and defend its honour with his life. He had to think of himself as a trustee and not as an owner. For his acts of commission and omission, he was accountable to God. Shivaji, as a faithful disciple, took the padukas (slippers) of Samarth Ramdas, kept them on the throne, and followed his instructions to the core. submitted by OkWorld180 to Brahmanraaj [link] [comments] |
2024.05.15 08:29 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:29 Responsible_Spite736 Is my rib a bad placement for this tattoo?
| Basically what the title says. For context, this would be my first tattoo. I am heavily pierced and have an alternative style anyway, so I’m not completely new to body modification, but it is my first tattoo. I consulted my boyfriend about it, and he was actually kind of mean to me which is not what I expected. After I told him, he barely talked to me for 2 days after, and when I confronted him about why he’s been ignoring me he sends me a pic of the tattoo. He immediately tells me that it’s a super dumb idea, and the tattoo looks stupid. He continues to go on talking about how he just doesn’t understand why I’d want this tattoo, telling me straight up it will look bad. It obviously hurt my feelings and so I just dropped the conversation and moved on. He later apologized to me, saying he was sorry for overreacting and using unnecessary language, but still stood his ground that he doesn’t like the tattoo idea. When I asked him why this time, he basically said he doesn’t like tattoos in general, and that he doesn’t think I’d be able to pull it off, but ESPECIALLY because of the placement. He said it looks like a wrist tattoo, or forearm or something, and looks out of place and awkward on the ribs. He told me it’d look like a blemish.He proceeded to tell me he told his friends about the situation and apparently they all agreed that the tattoo itself is bad and the placement makes it worse (in a nutshell). I was so excited for this, I didn’t have any second thoughts about the design or placement until now. Obviously I know that it only matters if I like it, but at the same time, if something is objectively bad like I’m being told this tattoo is, it makes me second guess. Sorry about the long read. I’m not trying to write a sob story, and while my feelings are a little hurt I’d rather just know honestly if there’s something objectively wrong or ugly about it submitted by Responsible_Spite736 to tattooadvice [link] [comments] |
2024.05.15 08:28 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:28 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:28 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:27 CloudymoodyX_O Fwb with questions &confusion
How to know with a fwb?
I’m having an FWB with a 31 year old man, but I’m not too sure if his feelings for me are more than FWB feelings. The reason is the third time I saw him he was physically attentive and mentally attentive to me in the public space and in our own personal space as well. Especially in public he asked me for my thoughts on fashion and what he thinks which jacket and hats will look good on him.
And when we were in public holding hands, he would do one of those boyfriend pulls where he was protective of me, leading and snuggling and grabbing my face/forhead to kiss it.
And at dinner, we would talk about what we look for in a partner, and he said he likes to make jokes and make his other half smile and laugh. And he pointed out that he liked it when I laugh and smile at his jokes and his face turns red every time he compliments me.
And at the end of the night or the next morning when I leave his place, he would say text me.
The part that confuses me, the most is he’s showing so much affection and attentiveness whenever we have deep conversations about our past and what we want in life.
But he never texts me or initiates the text of wanting to hang out, if he enjoys our time together why isn’t he reaching out- why do I have to be the one reaching out. (But he does plan the dates)
And is this man’s feeling more than FWB?
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2024.05.15 08:27 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:26 Aeogeus Do Not Fight Monsters
“What do you mean it’s wrong?” said Tamara, becoming frustrated with Samuel.
“I'm trying to tell you that plants do not eat earth. They just absorb nutrients from it,” Samuel replied, equally annoyed as this was the fourth time he had explained it. “Look, just take my word for it, OK,” he added.
“Fine, but you will have to explain it again,” Tamara retorted.
Samuel and Tamara were partners in a scientific study of their forest home. It was genuinely idyllic in every sense of the word; the trees stretched high into the sky, and everyone was covered in succulent leaves, a deep and gorgeous shade of green. Around their trunks were rings of flowers gathered from every continent, and a thick carpet of grass lay on the ground.
The two sat underneath a chestnut tree, writing up their findings for the day. It had focused mainly on tree sizes and growth rates, and they had continued this study for, on and off, almost a year.
Samuel turned to look at his assistant and found that she was just as remarkable as the day they had first met: golden locks, like living sunlight, tied neatly in a bun. Her eyes were an emerald green, and all in all, she was gorgeous. However, it was when you came to her waist that things became truly incredible because rather than a pair of legs, there was a long and wide snake’s tail.
It was huge, at least seven metres long and as wide as her torso. The scales were the same beautiful colour as her hair and reflected the sunlight in such a way that she appeared to glow. She was wearing an ultramarine tunic with a black diamond in the centre. She was like this not because of a plague, a curse or some mutation; Tamara was a Lamia; it was how she was born.
Samuel, on the other hand, looked far less impressive. He was around five foot ten, with dull brown hair and equally dull eyes. His stomach stuck out from the rest of him. No amount of exercise was able to get rid of it.
He was by every description a ‘dull as dishwater’ human. His clothes, however, were slightly more interesting. He wore a navy blue tunic with a thick leather belt wrapped around his waist. On his feet was a pair of excellent leather boots, able to withstand whatever the world threw at them and on his forearms and shins, he wore something Tamara had never seen or even heard of before: a pair of vambraces and greaves, Samuel called it armour.
Three strips of rugged leather layered on top of one another made up each piece, and between each layer was a collection of tiny metal beads. When Tamara asked what they were for, Samuel said they were for protection.
All of this would have been inconceivable to Samuel two years ago, but he had become used to it in time. Samuel was not born into this world; he had arrived. How? He did not know, but he remembered it all vividly; his senses had been overloaded, and at first, he believed he had died.
“What’s wrong?” Tamara asked Samuel, who had been silent for over a minute.
Samuel snapped out of his daydream and said: “nothing, just thinking about that day again.”
Tamara nodded and said nothing else; she knew exactly what was wrong.
Samuel went straight back to writing. When Samuel first showed up, there had been no paper or pens, but what was even stranger than the lack of these apparent necessities was that Samuel had had to invent both of these items.
Tamara and those like her did not possess a written language; they relied entirely on their memories, and until Samuel had shown up, Tamara had not even conceived of the notion, but she had picked it up astonishingly quickly.
“It still sounds like eating to me,” said Tamara, bringing the conversation back to the original topic.
“Well, it isn’t; eating requires a mouth and stomach,” Samuel replied.
“Says who?” Tamara asked defiantly.
“Says me,” Samuel answered.
Samuel jotted down the last of his notes and left the pages to dry in the sun. Samuel then turned to his right and looked at a large book, the size of a chair’s seat, bound in yellow leather and knotted by animal tendons. He picked it up and began to leaf through the pages.
His eyes glanced over paragraphs about oak trees and orchid flowers until he finally reached the section he sought; the page was titled Silver Birch (Betula Pendula).
“Have you finished the drawing on Silver Birch yet?” Samuel asked without looking.
Tamara was currently focused on a drawing of sunflowers, but she understood his request and, without looking up or saying a word, handed him the picture he wanted.
Samuel took the drawing and took several moments admiring it. Like all her work, the picture was astounding; not only did it look like an actual Silver Birch, but it also seemed to be alive, as though it would start blowing in the breeze.
Samuel punched four holes along the sheet's left side, undid the tendon strings and then attached the drawing behind the title page. He added eight more pages to his book, four of text and four illustrations.
Their work was now done; there was no more writing or drawing today, and he placed their work into a knapsack Tamara had brought with her. Samuel turned to his partner and asked: “so what do you want to do now?”
Tamara looked up through the canopy and could make out the silhouettes of several birds and finally said: “I’d quite like to fly.”
Samuel smiled, chuckled and said, “Yes, so would I, but that would require every member of the village working together for decades.”
Tamara looked Samuel in the eye and said: “are you making fun of me?”
Samuel did not reply; he just looked Tamara dead in the eye. She observed every minute twitch on Samuel's face and concluded he was not.
“How could a person fly?” She asked, suddenly intrigued.
“I don’t know, I’m not an engineer,” Samuel answered, “So apart from flying, what else do you want to do?”
Tamara let out a sigh and said: “I guess we will just have to walk.”
These were the moments Samuel lived for, just a quiet afternoon with his best friend enjoying a stroll; he was utterly content.
“You seem chipper,” Tamara said, noticing the growing smile on Samuel’s face.
“That’s because I feel chipper” he replied
They passed through the trees, heading towards their favourite spot, a beach by the side of a lake so large you could not see the other side.
“So, how is everyone?” Samuel said, trying to spark a conversation.
“You mean every single one because that could take a while?” Tamara replied.
“Let’s start with your mother” he clarified.
Tamara’s mother, Pancha, was more or less just a larger version of her daughter, just as brash and headstrong.
“She’s fine; she has finally stopped asking me what happened every time I come to meet you,” she said.
“Really, and it only took her two and a half years,” said Samuel with a smirk.
Yes, that first year here, had been a real trial. Samuel had never felt so scared, isolated and persecuted in his life. When he thought about it, he could still feel the fear and the hopelessness.
A gust of air slammed into Samuel’s face, bringing him back to the present, and what a wonderful time it was. The water was crystal clear, the beach was covered in sparkling white sand, and the distinct aroma of water wafted through the air. Samuel breathed it all in as Tamara spread herself over the beach.
The cooling breeze that Samuel found so enjoyable, Tamara found far less agreeable. Tamara was ectothermic or cold-blooded. She could not maintain her body temperature; she needed to absorb it from her environment, and the wind was slowly draining her.
“Comfortable down there?” Samuel asked.
Tamara turned her head, looked up at him and said: “Actually, yes, not as good as my bed, but still fine.”
Samuel left Tamara to her thermoregulation and strolled down to the water’s edge, “stay where I can see you!” Tamara called.
“Yes, MOM,” Samuel answered sarcastically, though he knew it was more for Tamara’s sake than his; she had a problem with open spaces.
Samuel closed his eyes, stretched his arms above his head, feeling his muscles strain against the tension, and yawned. Small tears formed in his eyes and wiped them away. He had only been up for a few hours but was ready for bed.
“Too much thinking, that was the problem,” Samuel mumbled to himself.
The sunlight sparkled on the water’s surface. It seemed as though millions of diamonds were suddenly brought into existence, danced for a few moments, and then vanished as quickly as they came. It was beautiful, just like everything else here.
He climbed up a rock that jutted from that sand and sat down, his legs dangling over the edge. As he kicked his legs, a ray of sun caught his greaves, and although the leather was rather dull, it still dazzled him.
Samuel heard a sound reminiscent of sandpaper brushing against wood, and he knew at once what it was. He waited four more seconds and said, without moving an inch, “Don’t even think about it!”
“How did you know?” Tamara asked, feeling simultaneously impressed, confused and disappointed.
Samuel looked her in the eye and replied: “who do you think you’re dealing with?”
Tamara had not clambered up the rock like Samuel; she had simply raised herself on her tail so she stood over two metres high.
“Are you feeling better?” he asked.
Tamara smiled and answered, “yes, thanks for asking.”
Tamara moved behind Samuel and then began to coil around the boulder, and if he had not experienced it all before, it would have been unnerving. Tamara was only twelve and a half, yet she was already far stronger than him. Samuel was sure if Tamara really wanted to, she could crush a bison to death. After the graceful dance around the stone, she sat down beside Samuel.
The pair was silent for a few minutes, except for a quick coughing fit by Samuel; they took in the unnatural beauty of their surroundings.
“Hey, I have a question,” said Tamara, coming back to her senses.
“What is it?” Samuel replied.
“You still haven’t told me why we are studying the forest?” She asked.
In an instant, Samuel became deeply confused. To him, it seemed all too obvious why they were doing it.
“There is no practical reason for doing it. We do it so that we know,” Samuel answered.
Tamara became silent. Samuel realised that she was deep in thought and decided to give her all the time she needed until she finally said: “Is this one of those human things?”
Samuel, upon hearing this, gave a small chuckle and answered: “yes, if you like.”
Suddenly, something caught Samuel’s eye. It was a crab, no bigger than a golf ball. Its back was powder blue, and it held its arms upright, its claws pointing down. The tiny creature would walk forward, scoop some sand into its mouth, and then leave a small pellet behind.
“Look at that!” said Samuel, nudging Tamara’s shoulder and pointing at the tiny crustacean. Tamara turned her head and looked directly at where he was pointing; she strained her eyes at what she thought was a pebble; she was about to climb down and collect it when it suddenly moved, and she squealed.
Tamara dragged the bottom end of her tail up from the beach and timidly said, “What’s that?”
Samuel remembered that tone of voice all too well, and it brought with it some unpleasant memories, but he pushed them to the back of his mind and said: “it’s a crab.”
Samuel was certain he had seen this type of crab before but could not put a name to the image. Samuel was sure he had read about them, watched a documentary, or attended a lecture, but he could not remember. Ultimately, he decided to drop it for now and see if the answer would come to him.
Tamara kept staring at it as though she believed it would pounce if she took her eyes off it for one second.
“Is it dangerous?” she asked, her voice hushed to ensure the creature did not notice her.
Samuel sighed and answered: “it’s a crab, Tamara, unless you happen to be a nematode then…”
Samuel paused mid-sentence as his brain finally connected the dots and asked, “Wait, you have never seen a crab before?”
This perplexed Samuel for a moment until he remembered that Tamara did not have a television, a car, and she could not fly a plane, so it was not unexpected that she would not know what a crab was.
Tamara shook her head in response to his question, and Samuel added: “you know what a woodlouse is, right?”
Tamara nodded and said, “I like woodlice.”
“Well, a crab is just a type of woodlouse that lives near water,” Samuel concluded.
However, he could tell from her face that she was unconvinced, so he got off the rock, walked over to the tiny creature, wary of its pincers, and picked it up by its backside.
“What are you doing?” Tamara called in alarm.
Samuel held the animal, its legs flailing wildly in an attempt to escape, and said, “showing you there is nothing to be worried about.”
Taking care not to crush it, Samuel clambered back up the rock and presented the animal to her. Tamara stared at it for some as the crab bobbed its eye up and down and tried in vain to find a part of Samuel it could nip.
“It’s actually kind of… cute,” Tamara said after two minutes of silence.
She relaxed her tail and let it rest on the beach once more. “Can it hold it?” She asked Samuel, fear being replaced by interest.
“Of course, you can. Just make sure you hold it by its back and be careful of the pincers; if they get you, it will hurt.”
Samuel handed the crab over to her and watched as Tamara began to inspect the animal from every angle. The crab had a white underbelly and purple joints.
“You think you could draw it from memory?” Samuel asked.
“Hmm?” Tamara replied. Samuel let out a sigh and repeated. After three more attempts, Tamara finally took notice and said, “Yes.”
Five minutes later, Samuel said, “we should probably put him back now.”
Tamara moaned about it, but Samuel said: “he has his own life, Tamara; you can’t keep him!”
She conceded, grumbling under her breath, and gently placed the animal back on the sand. As the crab dashed away, the two noticed that while they had been fixated on that single crab, thousands more had emerged on the beach.
Upon seeing the swarm of animals make their way across the beach, Tamara let out a squeal and once again pulled her tail up off the beach. The army of crabs marched along the shore. The collective walking produced a sound loud enough to hear from fifty metres away, and at last, Samuel remembered what they were and said, with no small amount of satisfaction in his voice, “they’re soldier crabs.”
“What are they going to do?” Tamara asked, concerned by the sudden appearance of so many creatures.
Samuel kept staring at the gathering, but he heard her question and replied, “They’re just feeding,” and added quickly, “But we are far too big for them.”
“That's odd,” Samuel said under his breath.
“I know there are so many of them,” Tamara said, deeply unnerved by the sheer vastness of the swarm.
“No,” Samuel said, “There should be this many of them; it’s where they are that is strange.”
Tamara momentarily took her eyes off the army and asked, “So where should they be.” There was a slight flicker of fear in her voice at the prospect of being invaded; rats and mice where bad enough. They did not need another pest.
“By the sea, not a freshwater lake,” he answered.
“The Sea?” Tamara almost yelled. Samuel was a little surprised by this enthusiasm and turned to face her.
“Yes,” he said.
“Have you ever been to the sea,” she asked.
“Yes, many times,” Samuel said, uncertain where this was going.
“I bet it’s wonderful,” Tamara added with a smile.
Samuel was silent as his brain connected a few dots and asked: “how can you know about the sea if you don’t know about crabs?”
She smiled; Tamara enjoyed it when she knew something that he did not, “there is a story that my mom told me that before we came to this forest, we were a different people that lived by the sea.” Tamara paused for a breath.
“But then humans came and drove us from the water, and we fled inland. Our people split into two. One half went to the mountains, and the other settled in the forest.”
Tamara finished and waited for his reply. Samuel, however, just kept looking at her. Tamara was concerned that she had upset him; he did not like it when humans were labelled as the enemy, yet his face and posture were not those of one who was sad or angry.
“You people blame us for everything, don’t you?” Samuel said with a chuckle.
“If there is a fire, it’s a human’s fault. If there is an earthquake, it’s a human’s fault. If a little Boreray boy drinks all their apple juice in one gulp, it’s a human’s fault.”
“So, getting back on topic, where did these “Soldier crabs” come from anyway? We have visited this lake for over two years and never seen even a glimpse?” Tamara asked. Samuel looked back to the slowly advancing army, and several ideas flashed through his head.
“Maybe they have been dormant up until now; perhaps they make a large circle around the lake shore, and it’s simply luck that we were here on the day they passed by, or maybe the migrated here from somewhere else.”
They watched the crabs' ceaseless march until Tamara said, “These things are still giving me the creeps. Can we go now?” Samuel could not argue that there was something eerie about all of these animals appearing, seemingly, from nowhere; however, there was still one thing he had to be certain of.
“You think you could draw one from memory?” he asked.
Tamara’s face contorted in a scowl. Samuel, for all his good points, could become far too focused on his research, which often caused him to become ignorant of other people.
Yet she knew sitting here yelling at him would accomplish nothing, so she told him the truth: “Yes, can we go now!” Samuel nodded and then slid off the rock. Tamara copied him, and they both slinked back to the cover of the trees.
Now that she was beneath the canopy, Tamara let out an enormous sigh of relief as the anxiety slowly left, and the close air warmed her body. On the other hand, Samuel began to chafe at the stagnant air while his head began to bead with sweat, but it was nothing he had not experienced before, so he gritted his teeth and bared with it.
With their plans now ruined, Tamara and Samuel wandered aimlessly through the woods, chatting about what they could do to fill the rest of the day. Several ideas arose, including visiting a nearby waterfall and a set of monument stones, but none truly appealed to them.
In the end, Tamara said, “how about we just call it a day?”
Samuel was happy about this. Tamara was his only form of human contact, yet he could not deny the pointlessness of wandering around the woods, so he said, “Ok, but let’s take the long way.”
Samuel heard a sound above him and saw a red squirrel scampering through the trees.
“Is it difficult?” Tamara asked.
Samuel looked at Tamara and replied, “Well, it can give me a crick in my neck sometimes.”
Tamara let out a short laugh and clarified, “No, I mean, is it difficult being so inquisitive? It looks exhausting.”
He was not entirely sure what she meant by that. To Samuel, Tamara was every bit as curious as him, so he stated: “you tell me, you went out looking for me just because you wanted to know.”
“True,” answered Tamara, “and everyone has always said that I am always asking questions, but you’re like a boar that just ate sugar beat.”
“I have no idea what that means,” Samuel said, shaking his head. “But I do know that people always told me, when I was a boy, that humans are, by their nature, infinitely curious, but personally, I think that it’s just how I was born.” there was a pause, and he quickly added, “just like you.”
Tamara’s fingers started to numb as she brushed them against the bark of passing trees. She took a good look at the trees around her. Tamara had lived her entire life sheltered by these trees. This place was her home, her family’s home and her friend’s home, and she loved it, a perfect example of the innate beauty of nature.
Samuel, however, was of a different opinion this forest disturbed him, though this feeling had diminished with time. The trees all grew in perfect symmetry, four and a half strides form each other.
From Tamara’s perspective, there was nothing strange about this, yet Samuel often said that this should not be possible, that the wood should be a mess and that the trees should grow in an unorganised fashion. Yet to Tamara, the idea of messy forests was just as impossible as a structured one was to him.
Noon came and went, and Samuel’s stomach began to rumble. His breakfast was becoming a distant memory; he thought he might be able to bear it for another hour or so, but as they travelled closer to the village, Tamara started to become irritated by Samuel’s constant growling.
“We need to find you something to eat before that sound drives me nuts!” Tamara stated bluntly.
“That’s all well and good, my dear, so long as you can materialise food out of the aether,” answered Samuel, with just a hint of condescension in his voice.
Tamara did not know what the aether was, but it did not matter. “No, but I do know a nearby tree with some great fruit in it,” she replied.
Samuel found this strange for two reasons. Firstly, he found it very difficult to believe there was a source of food in this forest that either he had not found, or Tamara had not told him about yet.
Secondly that, Tamara would know much about something she could not eat. Tamara was strictly carnivorous; she ate nothing but meat.
He wanted answers fast and asked: “So why haven’t you told me about this before?”
“Because I can’t stand the smell, that’s why, and I didn’t want you stinking up the place,” she explained.
“If it smells disgusting, what makes you think I will eat it?” he asked.
“Because the Boreray can’t get enough of it, some of them say that they taste like all the best parts of every fruit and vegetable we grow, which is a shame because they smell like all the worst,” she added.
He asked no more questions. He was too busy thinking; this fruit sounded so familiar, but he could not remember. The need to survive day in day out had pushed most of his standard learning, from school and university to the back of his mind, not forgotten mind you just buried.
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2024.05.15 08:26 Everydayuser3 I’m afraid my ex doesn’t know that I want her back
Me and my ex are currently doing no contact. She knows how much I love her as I already write her a very heartfelt letter saying so. We’ve talked about how we can’t see each other with other people and how much we love each other even after the breakup. Yet long story short me and my ex had a little drawn out break up. I tried to make things work for a month after she first broke up with me. She said she needed to be alone a month later. I kept calling her and she agreed to, up until about a week ago she asked for me to take a step back. I agreed and didn’t message her and her birthday went by within those days. I still didn’t message her. She saw me downtown that night and cried to me and vented and was mad that I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. She asked to apologize and meet up in person the night after. That night we only talked super formally and only about how we’re looking forward to healing.
My one concern is that through that whole conversation, I didn’t make it clear that I still want to try again for a relationship with her. Earlier that day when she had initially apologized for crying and venting to me, I responded with as heartfelt and mature of a response that I could give, including me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over,” then continuing to be optimistic about our healing processes. While I have made it know ever since our initial breakup two months ago up until a few days ago when we had that talk that I really want to make things work, I feel like given how I responded to her request for space, didn’t wish her a happy birthday, acknowledged that what we had is over, and me not even bringing up how I want to try again in the future will make her believe that I’m just truly completely over trying for her, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
For additional context, we had drawn out the breakup simply because we have so much love for one another other. We were each other’s first bf/gf. This whole process was all about her needing space and needing to be alone right now. She had said once or twice that if this is meant to be then it will be. Yet I’m scared that she might take me saying “While I’m aware that what we had is over” as a sign of me not wanting to try anymore. She never gave me a direct statement of her saying how we are completely over. She had said enough times to me that this is a breakup. How she needs to be alone right now. How she needs her space. And she doesn’t know for how long. Yet I’m afraid that I might have said the wrong words and followed through with actions that don’t truly align with my true incentives. I can easily tell that the conversation that we had was all the closure that she needed to officially move on from me and to start living her life completely without me. She is a very healthy woman who looks at the world through a very healthy, optimistic and peaceful perspective. Due to this it seems like she wouldn't’ be the type to hold onto something like this after getting closure like that.
I only acted that way and didn’t speak to her and didn’t bring up any future aspirations of rekindling with her just do not disrupt her emotions any further as I know that this is a tough time for the both of us.I currently work with her yet she put her two weeks in already and I have my final shift with her this Sunday night. I’m contemplating if it’s a good idea for me to tell her one last time that I’m still interested in trying again in the future.
Should I use our last shift working together as an opportunity to tell her that I still want to try again for a relationship in the future? I really miss her and still love her and care about her deeply. This whole process has just been really hard and I feel the need to use this last in person chance as an opportunity to show her that I’m still interested in her. I feel like she’s the love of my life and I’ve told her that throughout the past 2 months. Please let me know if you guys think that this is a good idea.
TLDR: I feel as though I gave off the wrong impression with my ex over the past few days. Unintentionally letting her think that I’m completely done with her and wanting to move on when that couldn’t be further from the truth. She is a very mature, peaceful, healthy and optimistic woman, and given all of the closure that she just got combined with my misleading intentions, I fear that she will officially let me go given that I was the one who wanted to hold on and make things work when she first asked for space. I still really love her and care about her deeply and feel as though she’s the one for me. Should I use our last shift working together to tell her how I still want to try again for a relationship in the future?
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2024.05.15 08:25 c1j0c3 Need career advice- JD, MS, PhD?
Hi, I have a broad range of interests and am highly keen on pursuing many of them. I really need help in picking a path and discipline for a career, and just urgently need insight on what’s potentially out there for me. I am currently an undergraduate rising senior and am working towards degrees in both international affairs and anthropology. For the past year I’ve been set on law school for stability/money (I want kids but won’t have them unless I’m well-off) and I think I’d do well, my father is a lawyer and we both are logically inclined and naturally debate often as we have very different perspectives but respect the others’. Recently he’s taken to making me prove every statement so that he can accept them but generally I hold my own and navigate oral conversational analysis well. He’s always told me to just take the LSAT and see how I do because he thinks I’d be really fit for law school. I can see myself being a lawyer and think its somewhat up my alley but I’m just not passionate about the law or constitution or anything else other pre-law students seem to revere. I currently intern in one of the deans offices of the law school at my university and have really gotten to see what it all entails, how everything works both for the students and behind the scenes and think it would work for me. I was helping with exam scheduling and saw the course titles, looked at some of their coursework documents and was interested, particularly those in international law, as an IA major. The extracurriculars just aren’t what I’m passionate about but I could see myself enjoying the experience. Though, with law school, I am tempted to venture out and apply around the country as I want to spend my twenties in a city or stimulating environment. I don’t plan on staying or settling in my state nor practicing law here, though I guess I could and build myself up for a while, I just dream of doing so in New York or California if possible.
In terms of careers I’m passionate about, I’ve really enjoyed my courses in international relations and am very interested in learning more about everything that's just only been barely introduced to me. I would love a really comprehensive understanding of global politics within historical context, and have been researching masters programs, but honestly really just love the one my current university has. There’s also a joint JD/MS in international affairs at my university that really interests me, but I don't know the specific careers relevant to this that I could pursue. I think if I opted to go to law school, I would definitely factor in which schools have such programs in applying, and would probably just stay where I am because it seems most feasible for me, and I think i'd be ok with that? The networking is good in my city because I’m in my state’s capitol, but it’s all in very domestic realms. I just want to be where I am exposed to the most opportunity. I think I'd be most interested in criminal law, and international law naturally sounds good to me, though I'm not entirely sure what it is; it seems very broad and economic.
I just had an interview for a writing internship with the state department and it seemed like a super cool way to network into international careers in general but also international writing, as I am also passionate about writing nonfiction, essays, memoirs, etc- pieces where I can express a subjective perspective within context and generate meaningful impact. I like to submit to local literary magazines in my free time. I’m inspired by types like Joan Didion and would love to pursue a similar lifestyle. That’s just kind of a distant dream though. But with intl affairs, I’d also like to pursue anything relevant that would just allow me to experience, get involved, possibly go into policy/diplomacy, i don’t know. I just cant see a clear path.
However, more than intl relations, I am passionate about anthropology. I operate solely from an anthropological perspective and am incredibly interested in getting a masters from my university as my heart swells reading the course descriptions. I could get a joint MS/MS in Anthro and intl relations, but that just feels redundant and i'd be in the same position I am now in not knowing where to go or what to choose. But I just can't see myself solely getting a masters in anthropology and then getting a PhD, I feel id need some time in between to get more experience out in the world, do some international work, pursue other interests. It would just feel scary for me to go down a somewhat unstable path just to critically study the discipline I love the most. My overall “dream” job would be a paleoanthropologist/prehistoric archaeologist, pursuing some sort of research or fieldwork, or working at an institution and being a professor. I just don’t really know whats possible for me out there, what potential paths I could take, or just how/when I could actually do this. i would ideally like to research/excavate in the eastern hemisphere as I’m more interested in human origin rather than North American prehistory, so I don’t know if an American or International university would be best? The anthropology department at my university is extensive and well-developed as we are located in rich archaeological areas of North American activity, but I really don’t see myself staying here for a PhD, though I would definitely get a masters. Again, if anyone knows anything about such a profession and has some insight, I would appreciate it.
Basically I am just a clueless undergrad who doesn’t know much about careers in the fields I am interested in or the best path to follow to maximize my interests and life experience. I’ve asked my professors who tell me to look online, like on AAA but I think reddit just always has so much more insight. If anyone is in any fields, knows anyone, or has any knowledge on careers/university programs regarding intl affairs, intl law, intl journalism, law in general, or paths in anthropology phd’s/professor positions/prehistoric archaeological endeavors, please let me know :’)
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2024.05.15 08:23 Original-Air-5215 It took me years to love again
Too long that my friends are teasing me saying that I haven’t moved on yet; but it’s not really that, it’s bcs I chose not to, I chose my solitude, i found peace in myself, and I view that love isn’t something that you push to happen, hindi siya minamadali and you can’t just feel or have it with any person. No matter how many flings I had, no matter the number of men that tried hitting me up, if you don’t feel it, then it’s not it. kaya (no offense) im nagtataka sa mga ppl who just went from break up then enter love again, like how do you do that? or is love even present when you do that? is it genuine? — tho I can’t deny, that some part of me were afraid of risking it again, I even lose my paniniwala of what love really is. there where many what ifs — what if it happens again, will I be able to endure it? — I lost trust with people, I questioned their intentions and didn’t expect anything with anyone, even questioned my capability of loving, it was too long that I forgot how it feels and how I’m supposed to give it. And when I finally found love again, it was with the most unexpected person, whom I knew nothing about. We have lots of differences and experiences; it was unexpected and peculiar of me to enter it in such a short time. Who would’ve known that a girl who took long enough to finally open up would risk it, with a person, she barely knew, in less than a month? — It was really unusual of me being in that situation, from experiencing the meet up thingy. I even remember how anxious I am during that day; asking my self “gawa nalang ba ako ulit ng dahilan?” (to delay the meetup again until hindi na mangyari) I remember asking my friend pa, “cha, anong gagawin ko?” “samahan mo’ko” then she replied “hindi kana bata” and yeah right, hindi na ako bata so why am I so anxious na para akong minor na makikipag meet up TT. why does this all feels unfamiliar and new to me? but everything during that day, I still remember, from what I feel, kung gaano ako ka-awkward, yung lagay ng panahon, everything. I still remember panga kung paano yung kabog ng puso ko when we held each other’s hands, at kung gaano ako ka-awkward habang iniikot ko siya sa mendiola na ako mismo, hindi kabisado. — after that meetup, I didn’t know how to feel, my friend ask me how was it and I didn’t know what to tell her. Do I like the guy? How was he? Due to many years of being isolated from the experience of loving, it was impossible for me to express my feelings. I was not comfortable of doing things in public, it was all too much for me to the point that I said na I won’t do it again. I was thinking of the ways to ghost him, but I just can’t, he was too pure and genuine and some part of me is telling me to risk it with him. He was really honest about his feelings which I liked about him. Makwento siya and he doesn’t let the conversation dies. Moving forward, we became a couple. But still, I was doubtful, “tama ba ‘to?” “isn’t it too sudden?” “are the feelings even pure?” There were many questions in my head that it led to our first break up. My reason was that I’m still unsure about what I feel. Then I realized na all those time questioning my feelings, I was just afraid, I was just in denial. And he helped me realize all those, he was patient and bore with me until I can finally express myself fully. It all became clear to me, and I can finally tell what I was feeling. Months go by with challenges, problems, and uncertainty. There were many times it almost ended for good, but we've persevered until today. After all, love isn't just about happy days. It might’ve been hard for me to express myself, but when I do, I mean it. I took the risk with him, and I'll continue to do so. No matter the challenges, if I will be given the chance to choose again, I would still choose him. I'll keep my word and hold on. Despite these cold days, there were times when we were genuinely happy and inseparable. Promises were made... and I think that we should keep that. I’ll hold onto that. I hope you’ll remember that despite these cold times, we were once a warmth to each other. Maybe we are forgetting the real value of love, why we really love. I firmly believe that it’s not something you should easily give up just because you’re tired. Or is it just me, who will be willing to fight for it until the very last moment? It may have taken me a long time to love again, but when I do, I do it deeply. So when you’re reading this, know that I love you; and I hope that you’ll keep your word too.
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2024.05.15 08:22 c1j0c3 Career aspirations- JD, MS, or PhD?
Hi, I have a broad range of interests and am highly keen on pursuing many of them. I really need help in picking a path and discipline for a career, and really just need insight on what’s potentially out there for me. I am currently an undergraduate rising senior and am working towards degrees in both international affairs and anthropology. For the past year I’ve been set on law school for stability/money (I want kids but won’t have them unless I’m well-off) and I think I’d do well, my father is a lawyer and we both are logically inclined and naturally debate often as we have very different perspectives but respect the others’. Recently he’s taken to making me prove every statement so that he can accept them but generally I hold my own and navigate oral conversational analysis well. He’s always told me to just take the LSAT and see how I do because he thinks I’d be really fit for law school. I can see myself being a lawyer and think its somewhat up my alley but I’m just not passionate about the law or constitution or anything else other pre-law students seem to revere. I currently intern in one of the deans offices of the law school at my university and have really gotten to see what it all entails, how everything works both for the students and behind the scenes and think it would work for me. I was helping with exam scheduling and saw the course titles, looked at some of their coursework documents and was interested, particularly those in international law, as an IA major. The extracurriculars just aren’t what I’m passionate about but I could see myself enjoying the experience. Though, with law school, I am tempted to venture out and apply around the country as I want to spend my twenties in a city or stimulating environment. I don’t plan on staying or settling in my state nor practicing law here, though I guess I could and build myself up for a while, I just dream of doing so in New York or California if possible.
In terms of careers I’m passionate about, I’ve really enjoyed my courses in international relations and am very interested in learning more about everything that's just only been barely introduced to me. I would love a really comprehensive understanding of global politics within historical context, and have been researching masters programs, but honestly really just love the one my current university has. There’s also a joint JD/MS in international affairs at my university that really interests me, but I don't know the specific careers relevant to this that I could pursue. I think if I opted to go to law school, I would definitely factor in which schools have such programs in applying, and would probably just stay where I am because it seems most feasible for me, and I think i'd be ok with that? The networking is good in my city because I’m in my state’s capitol, but it’s all in very domestic realms. I just want to be where I am exposed to the most opportunity. I think I'd be most interested in criminal law, and international law naturally sounds good to me, though I'm not entirely sure what it is; it seems very broad and economic.
I just had an interview for a writing internship with the state department and it seemed like a super cool way to network into international careers in general but also international writing, as I am also passionate about writing nonfiction, essays, memoirs, etc- pieces where I can express a subjective perspective within context and generate meaningful impact. I like to submit to local literary magazines in my free time. I’m inspired by types like Joan Didion and would love to pursue a similar lifestyle. That’s just kind of a distant dream though. But with intl affairs, I’d also like to pursue anything relevant that would just allow me to experience, get involved, possibly go into policy/diplomacy, i don’t know. I just cant see a clear path.
However, more than intl relations, I am passionate about anthropology. I operate solely from an anthropological perspective and am incredibly interested in getting a masters from my university as my heart swells reading the course descriptions. I could get a joint MS/MS in Anthro and intl relations, but that just feels redundant and i'd be in the same position I am now in not knowing where to go or what to choose. But I just can't see myself solely getting a masters in anthropology and then getting a PhD, I feel id need some time in between to get more experience out in the world, do some international work, pursue other interests. It would just feel scary for me to go down a somewhat unstable path just to critically study the discipline I love the most. My overall “dream” job would be a paleoanthropologist/prehistoric archaeologist, pursuing some sort of research or fieldwork, or working at an institution and being a professor. I just don’t really know whats possible for me out there, what potential paths I could take, or just how/when I could actually do this. i would ideally like to research/excavate in the eastern hemisphere as I’m more interested in human origin rather than North American prehistory, so I don’t know if an American or International university would be best? The anthropology department at my university is extensive and well-developed as we are located in rich archaeological areas of North American activity, but I really don’t see myself staying here for a PhD, though I would definitely get a masters. Again, if anyone knows anything about such a profession and has some insight, I would appreciate it.
Basically I am just a clueless undergrad who doesn’t know much about careers in the fields I am interested in or the best path to follow to maximize my interests and life experience. I’ve asked my professors who tell me to look online, like on AAA but I think reddit just always has so much more insight. If anyone is in any fields, knows anyone, or has any knowledge on careers/university programs regarding intl affairs, intl law, intl journalism, law in general, or paths in anthropology phd’s/professor positions/prehistoric archaeological endeavors, please let me know :’)
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2024.05.15 08:20 TankAries Favors
As disheartening as it feels, and I know it’ll probably take a while to swallow it, City are winning the league for the 4th time in a row, and we are going to finish 2nd again. The reality is, City start the season as favorites, and end the season justifying that tag. But the f***ed up part is, other teams can’t be arsed about it, and are more than happy to stop us from winning at the expense of them winning 4, 5, 6 in a row. That is the league we are playing in, and we as a club have to adapt. We simply cannot and should not rely on other teams doing us a favor, same way we can’t expect refs to do us a favor (or just be decent at their jobs). We can point towards decisions going in favor of City i.e., pen not given in Liverpool v City game, and I’m sure there are other crucial decisions gone their way. We can point towards 115 charges that haven’t been brought forward, while smaller clubs have been charged left, right and center. Again, my point is, these are all the elements aka favors we cannot and should not rely on. We’ve lost points in 10 games this season, and we can point towards any of those results, as to why we lost the league by 2 points. But, we are also on course to winning 28 games, that is more than the Invincibles (Jens Lehmann’s 😂) managed. That shows how difficult it is to pip City to the title.
“A journey of a 1000 miles begins with a single step”. Every step is a progress. and we’re on the right path to complete that journey. Lastly, Mikel is the next big thing, after Pep and Klopp, and he is constantly evolving. And it’s only a matter of time before he wins us the league, and probably even Champions League. But for him to bring us the success, we need to do him a favor and back him. Give him the players he wants, and back him even if things seem difficult. Look at Kai, as majority of the fan base dismissed the signing, Mikel saw something in him, and he started to deliver when it mattered. Anyways, as the conclusion comes on this long drawn sentence, and the season, there is only one favor left. Show this amazing players, the manager, and the staff, the love they deserve, on the final day. Show them we’re with them the entire journey, and have our unconditional and unwavering support. #COYG
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►4◄ GAME AND SHIP COMBO PACKAGES
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Game package can be upgrade as well on your demand, price negotiated
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►5◄ LTI STANDALONE SHIPS
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CCU-d ships are upgraded from another ship. Also I have ships from original sale - they may come with different bonuses but are more expensive.
You can click on the price of original sale item to see it's contents.
Ship manufacturer | Ship model | Insurance | Price (CCU-d), $ | Price (Original sale), $ |
Aopoa (Xi'an) | Khartu-Al | LTI | 179 | - |
- | Nox | LTI | - | 77 |
- | Nox Kue | LTI | - | 77 |
- | San'Tok.Yai | LTI | 231 | - |
Aegis Dynamics | Avenger Titan | LTI | 74 | 100 |
- | Avenger Titan Renegade | LTI | 95 | 111 |
- | Avenger Stalker | LTI | 84 | - |
- | Avenger Warlock | LTI | 100 | - |
- | Eclipse | LTI | 305 | 333 |
- | Gladius | LTI | 116 | - |
- | Gladius Valiant | LTI | 132 | 147 |
- | Hammerhead | LTI | 672 | 777 |
- | Hammerhead Best in Show Edition | LTI | 746 | - |
- | Nautilus | LTI | 672 | - |
- | Reclaimer | LTI | 336 | 550 |
- | Reclaimer Best in Show Edition | LTI | 429 | - |
- | Redeemer | LTI | 333 | - |
- | Retaliator Bomber | LTI | 284 | - |
- | Sabre | LTI | 184 | 221 |
- | Sabre Comet | LTI | 195 | - |
- | Vanguard Warden | LTI | 263 | 357 |
- | Vanguard Harbinger | LTI | 289 | - |
- | Vanguard Sentinel | LTI | 268 | - |
- | Vanguard Hoplite | LTI | 231 | 268 |
- | Vulcan | LTI | 216 | 242 |
ARGO Astronautics | MPUV Cargo | LTI | 74 | 84 |
- | MPUV Personnel | LTI | - | 89 |
| Raft | LTI | 142 | - |
- | SRV | LTI | 165 | - |
- | Mole | LTI | 321 | - |
- | Combo Pack | LTI | - | 111 |
Anvil Aerospace | Arrow | LTI | 95 | 137 |
- | C8X Pisces Expedition | LTI | 69 | 79 |
- | C8R Pisces | LTI | 84 | - |
- | Carrack | LTI | 420 | - |
- | Carrack W/C8X | LTI | 440 | - |
- | Carrack Expedition | LTI | 447 | - |
- | Carrack Expedition W/C8X | LTI | 468 | - |
- | Crucible | LTI | 369 | 431 |
- | F7C Hornet | LTI | 121 | - |
- | F7C Hornet Wildfire | LTI | 189 | 210 |
- | F7C-S Hornet Ghost | LTI | 140 | - |
- | F7C-R Hornet Tracker | LTI | 155 | - |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet | LTI | 199 | 252 |
- | F7C-M Hornet Heartseeker | LTI | 200 | - |
- | Gladiator | LTI | 177 | 221 |
- | Hawk | LTI | 116 | 132 |
- | Hurricane | LTI | 210 | 231 |
- | Terrapin | LTI | 231 | 263 |
- | Valkyrie | LTI | 357 | - |
- | Legionnaire | LTI | 132 | - |
Banu | Merchantman | LTI | 399 | - |
- | Defender | LTI | 226 | 237 |
Consolidated outland | Mustang Beta | LTI | 95 | - |
- | Mustang Gamma | LTI | 74 | - |
- | Mustang Delta | LTI | 84 | - |
- | Pioneer | LTI | - | 1499 |
Crusader Industries | Ares Inferno | LTI | 252 | - |
- | Ares Ion | LTI | 252 | - |
- | Genesis Starliner | LTI | 357 | 578 |
- | C2 Hercules | LTI | 368 | - |
- | M2 Hercules | LTI | 483 | - |
- | A2 Hercules | LTI | 735 | - |
| C1 Spirit | LTI | 137 | - |
| E1 Spirit | LTI | 163 | - |
| A1 Spirit | LTI | 210 | - |
- | Mercury Star Runner | LTI | 273 | - |
Drake Interplanetary | Dragonfly Yellowjacket | LTI | - | 84 |
- | Dragonfly Black | LTI | - | 84 |
- | Dragonfly Ride Together Two-Pack | LTI | - | 126 |
- | Buccaneer | LTI | 126 | 142 |
- | Caterpillar | LTI | 336 | - |
- | Caterpillar Best in Show Edition | LTI | 347 | - |
- | Corsair | LTI | 263 | - |
- | Cutlass Black | LTI | 126 | - |
- | Cutlass Black Best in Show Edition (2949) | LTI | 137 | - |
- | Cutlass Steel | LTI | 221 | - |
- | Cutlass Red | LTI | 142 | - |
- | Cutlass Blue | LTI | 168 | - |
- | Herald | LTI | 111 | - |
- | Vulture | LTI | 158 | - |
Esperia | Vanduul Blade | LTI | 284 | 326 |
- | Vanduul Glaive | LTI | 373 | - |
- | Prowler | LTI | 399 | 510 |
- | Talon | LTI | 132 | - |
- | Talon Shrike | LTI | 132 | - |
Gatac | Railen | LTI | 242 | - |
Greycat Industrial | ROC | LTI | 77 | - |
Kruger Intergalactic | P-72 Archimedes | LTI | - | 90 |
- | P-72 Archimedes Emerald | LTI | - | 105 |
Mirai | Fury | LTI | 69 | - |
- | Fury MX | LTI | 69 | - |
- | Fury LX | LTI | 69 | - |
MISC | Endeavor BASE | LTI | 378 | - |
- | Endeavor DISCOVERY-CLASS | LTI | - | 683 |
- | Endeavor Master Set 2018 | LTI | - | 1399 |
| Expanse | LTI | 168 | - |
- | Freelancer | LTI | 121 | - |
- | Freelancer DUR | LTI | 147 | - |
- | Freelancer MAX | LTI | 163 | - |
- | Freelancer MIS | LTI | 184 | - |
- | HULL A | LTI | 99 | - |
- | HULL B | LTI | 147 | - |
- | HULL C | LTI | 357 | - |
- | HULL D | LTI | 462 | - |
- | Odyssey | LTI | 578 | - |
- | Razor | LTI | 163 | 179 |
- | Razor LX | LTI | 168 | - |
- | Razor EX | LTI | 174 | - |
- | Prospector | LTI | 163 | 179 |
- | Reliant Kore (Mini Hauler) | LTI | 84 | 105 |
- | Reliant Tana (Skirmisher) | LTI | 95 | - |
- | Reliant Mako (News Van) | LTI | 121 | - |
- | Reliant Sen (Researcher) | LTI | 105 | - |
- | Starfarer | LTI | 315 | 399 |
- | Starfarer Gemini | LTI | 347 | 452 |
Origin Jumpworks | X1 Baseline | LTI | - | 69 |
- | X1 Velocity | LTI | - | 74 |
- | X1 Force | LTI | - | 79 |
- | M50 | LTI | 121 | - |
- | 85X | LTI | - | 79 |
- | 100I | LTI | 74 | 95 |
- | 125A | LTI | 79 | - |
- | 135C | LTI | 84 | - |
- | 300I | LTI | 77 | - |
- | 315P | LTI | 77 | - |
- | 325A | LTI | 93 | - |
- | 350R | LTI | 137 | - |
- | 400i | LTI | 265 | - |
- | 600i Touring | LTI | 399 | 525 |
- | 600i Exploration | LTI | 420 | 580 |
RSI | Aurora CL | LTI | 74 | - |
- | Apollo Triage | LTI | 268 | - |
- | Apollo Medivac | LTI | 294 | - |
- | Galaxy | LTI | 378 | - |
- | Mantis | LTI | 168 | - |
- | Perseus | LTI | 557 | - |
- | Polaris | LTI | 735 | 999 |
- | Constellation Taurus | LTI | 179 | - |
- | Constellation Andromeda | LTI | 252 | 315 |
- | Constellation Aquila | LTI | 321 | - |
| Zeus MK II MR | LTI | 205 | - |
| Zeus MK II ES | LTI | 163 | - |
| Zeus MK II CL | LTI | 163 | - |
- | Scorpius | LTI | 263 | - |
- | Scorpius Antares | LTI | 252 | - |
- | Orion | LTI | 489 | - |
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►6◄ NON-LTI SHIPS & PACKAGES, COMMON
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Ship/Package | Insurance | Price, $ | Comments |
Consolidated Outland Mustang Alpha Vindicator | 6MI | 66 | Limited Vindicator version |
Kruger P-72 Archimedes | 10YI | 55 | - |
Kruger P-72 Archimedes | 6YI | 45 | - |
Kruger P-52 Merlin | 6YI | 37 | - |
RSI Aurora ES | 10YI | 37 | - |
Argo MPUV 1C Cargo | 10YI | 53 | - |
MISC Endeavor OLYMPIC-CLASS | 4YI | 578 | Endeavor with modules |
RSI Constellation Phoenix | 10YI | 399 | - |
RSI Constellation Phoenix | 6YI | 389 | - |
Origin 890 Jump | 6MI | 1099 | - |
Origin 890 Jump | 6YI | 1249 | - |
Origin 890 Jump | 10YI | 1349 | - |
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►7◄ PLANETARY VEHICLES & COMBO PACKAGES
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Vehicle | Insurance | Price (CCU-d), $ | Price (Concept), $ | Comments |
Anvil Ballista | LTI | 153 | | - |
Hoverquad | LTI | | 74 | - |
Greycat PTV | 6YI | | 27 | - |
Greycat PTV | 10YI | | 37 | - |
Origin G12 | LTI | 84 | | - |
Origin G12R | LTI | | 84 | - |
Origin G12A | LTI | | 90 | - |
Tumbril Cyclone | LTI | | 74 | Base version |
Tumbril Cyclone-TR | LTI | | 79 | With ground turret |
Tumbril Cyclone-RC | LTI | | 79 | Speedster |
Tumbril Cyclone-AA | LTI | | 95 | Anti-air + countermeasures |
Tumbril Cyclone-RN | LTI | | 79 | Scout & Scan |
Tumbril Ranger RC | LTI | 105 | | Racer |
Tumbril Ranger CV | LTI | 111 | | Offroad |
Tumbril Ranger TR | LTI | 116 | | With Gun |
Tumbril Nova | LTI | 126 | 132 | Tank |
URSA Rover | 5YI | | 63 | - |
URSA Rover | 10YI | | 70 | |
Lynx | LTI | 79 | | |
URSA Rover Fortuna | LTI | 79 | | Limited green skin edition |
Below are listed combo packs with different combination of vehicles, or with space ships
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►8.1◄ MODULES, PODS, BATTLEFIELD UPGRADE KITS (BUKS), OTHER ITEMS
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Module | Insurance | Price, $ |
MISC Endeavor Modules (Pods) | - | - |
BIODOME POD | 10YI | 126 |
TELESCOPE ARRAY POD | 10YI | 153 |
SUPERCOLLIDER POD | 10YI | 155 |
SERVICE EQUIPMENT AND CREW POD | 10YI | 53 |
GENERAL RESEARCH POD | 10YI | 72 |
GENERAL SCIENCE POD | 10YI | 71 |
FUEL POD | 10YI | 60 |
MEDICAL BAY POD | 10YI | 105 |
LANDING BAY | 10YI | 105 |
RSI Galaxy Modules | | |
Galaxy - Med Bay Module | 10YI | 116 |
Galaxy - Refinery Module | 10YI | 126 |
Galaxy - Cargo Module | 10YI | 95 |
Aegis Vanguard battlefield upgrade kits | | |
Harbinger battlefield upgrade kit | LTI | 140 |
Sentinel battlefield upgrade kit | 6MI | 69 |
Other stuff | | |
Add-ons - Aegis Idris P after market kit | - | 294 |
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►8.2 ◄ FPS WEAPONS, ARMOR, CLOTHES AND OTHER GEAR
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Module | Insurance | Price, $ |
Overlord "Dust Storm" Armor Set | - | 11 |
Overlord "Riptide" Armor Set | - | 11 |
Overlord Helmets "Silent Strike" Pack | - | 8 |
Overlord Helmets "Forces of Nature" Pack | - | 8 |
Parasite Replica Helmet (Original) | - | 11 |
Parasite Replica Helmet (Dark Birth) | - | 11 |
Stegman's Cordimon "Voyager" Complete Outfit | - | 11 |
Stegman's IndVest “Pathfinder” Complete Outfit | - | 11 |
RSI MacFlex Rust Society full armor set (5 items) | - | 21 |
RSI Venture Rust Society full armor set (5 items) | - | 32 |
Mr. Refinement’s Cabinet of Rare & Exquisite Spirits | - | 11 |
Life in the 'Verse Shirts Pack #1 | - | 5 |
Life in the 'Verse Shirts Pack #2 | - | 5 |
"Caudillo" Helmets Pack #1 by CC's Conversions | - | 10 |
"Caudillo" Helmets Pack #2 by CC's Conversions | - | 10 |
"Caudillo" Helmets Pack #3 by CC's Conversions | - | 10 |
QuikFlarePro Pack | - | 5 |
QuikFlarePro Pack Deluxe | - | 6 |
Polar Vortex Collection | - | 7 |
Cold Front Collection | - | 7 |
UltiFlex FSK-8 "Mirage" Combat Knife | - | 5 |
UltiFlex FSK-8 "Ghost" Combat Knife | - | 5 |
Urban Collection by Element Authority | - | 11 |
Adventurer Collection by Element Authority | - | 11 |
Manaslu Rust Society Jacket | - | 8 |
RSI Horizon Rust Society Helmet | - | 8 |
RSI Beacon Rust Society Undersuit | - | 6 |
Paladin helmet | - | 10 |
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►9◄ CROSS-CHASSIS UPGRADES (CCUS), SHIPS
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IAE-insurance upgrades (adds IAE insurance (10 years) to your ship)
Upgrade | Price, $ |
Prospector to F7C-M Super Hornet | 50 |
Vanguard Warden to Caterpillar | 60 |
Sorted by: Manufacturer -> ship
Target ship manufacturer | Target ship | Upgrade from | Price, $ |
Aegis Dynamics | Avenger Titan Renegade | 325A | 18 |
- | Avenger Warlock | 325A | 29 |
- | Avenger Warlock | Arrow | 26 |
- | Eclipse | Constellation Andromeda | 78 |
- | Eclipse | Vanguard Sentinel | 37 |
- | Eclipse | Vanguard Warden | 53 |
- | Eclipse | Blade | 37 |
- | Gladius Valiant | Gladius | 32 |
- | Gladius Valiant | M50 | 23 |
- | Hammerhead | Constellation Aquila | 483 |
- | Hammerhead | 600i Touring | 357 |
- | Hammerhead | 600i Explorer | 315 |
- | Hammerhead | Merchantman | 131 |
- | Hammerhead | Hull D | 341 |
- | Hammerhead | Crucible | 446 |
- | Hammerhead | Carrack | 278 |
- | Hammerhead | Reclaimer | 383 |
- | Hammerhead | Prowler | 351 |
- | Hammerhead | Orion | 210 |
- | Hammerhead | Glaive | 446 |
- | Hammerhead | A2 Hercules | 52 |
- | Nautilus | Constellation Aquila | 467 |
- | Nautilus | Endeavor | 425 |
- | Nautilus | Crucible | 425 |
- | Nautilus | Genesis Starliner | 372 |
- | Nautilus | M2 Hercules | 246 |
- | Nautilus | Merchantman | 110 |
- | Nautilus | 600i Explorer | 294 |
- | Nautilus | 600i Touring | 336 |
- | Nautilus | Orion | 189 |
- | Nautilus | Prowler | 330 |
- | Nautilus | Carrack | 278 |
- | Nautilus | Reclaimer | 372 |
- | Nautilus | Hull D | 320 |
- | Nautilus | C2 Hercules | 372 |
- | Nautilus | Valkyrie | 399 |
- | Reclaimer | Constellation Aquila | 115 |
- | Reclaimer | Starfarer Gemini | 84 |
- | Reclaimer | Endeavor | 73 |
- | Reclaimer | Crucible | 73 |
- | Redeemer | Constellation Andromeda | 78 |
- | Redeemer | Vanguard Hoplite | 84 |
- | Redeemer | Mole | 26 |
- | Retaliator Bomber | Constellation Andromeda | 57 |
- | Retaliator Base | F7C-R Hornet Tracker | 25 |
- | Sabre | Prospector | 31 |
- | Sabre | Gladiator | 16 |
- | Sabre Comet | Sabre | 31 |
- | Sabre Comet | Freelancer MIS | 26 |
- | Sabre Comet | Khartu-Al | 31 |
- | Sabre Comet | F7C Hornet Wildfire | 23 |
- | Sabre Comet | Gladiator | 35 |
- | Sabre Comet | F7C-M Super Hornet | 20 |
- | Vanguard Harbinger | Constellation Andromeda | 68 |
- | Vanguard Harbinger | Retaliator Bomber | 31 |
- | Vanguard Harbinger | Vanguard Sentinel | 26 |
- | Vanguard Harbinger | Vanguard Hoplite | 73 |
- | Vanguard Harbinger | Vanguard Warden | 42 |
- | Vanguard Hoplite | Constellation Taurus | 59 |
- | Vanguard Hoplite | San'Tok.Yai | 28 |
- | Vanguard Hoplite | Defender | 28 |
- | Vanguard Hoplite | Corsair | -3 |
- | Vanguard Hoplite | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | 54 |
- | Vanguard Hoplite | Hurricane | 54 |
- | Vanguard Hoplite | Terrapin | 28 |
- | Vanguard Sentinel | Constellation Andromeda | 52 |
- | Vanguard Sentinel | Vanguard Warden | 31 |
- | Vanguard Warden | Constellation Andromeda | 31 |
- | Vanguard Warden | Vanguard Hoplite | 40 |
- | Vulcan | Constellation Taurus | 25 |
- | Vulcan | Prospector | 61 |
Anvil Aerospace | Carrack | Constellation Aquila | 273 |
- | Carrack | Mole | 320 |
- | Carrack | M2 Hercules | 99 |
- | Carrack | 600i Explorer | 147 |
- | Carrack | 600i Touring | 189 |
- | Carrack | Orion | 42 |
- | Carrack | Prowler | 183 |
- | Carrack | Reclaimer | 225 |
- | Carrack | Genesis Starliner | 225 |
- | Carrack | Valkyrie | 215 |
- | Carrack | C2 Hercules | 189 |
- | Carrack | Hull D | 178 |
- | Carrack | Merchantman | -31 |
- | Carrack | Endeavor | 283 |
- | Carrack | Crucible | 283 |
- | Carrack | Starfarer Gemini | 294 |
- | Carrack W/C8X | Carrack | 55 |
- | Carrack Expedition | Carrack | 60 |
- | Carrack Expedition | Carrack W/C8X | 40 |
- | Carrack Expedition W/C8X | Carrack | 80 |
- | Carrack Expedition W/C8X | Carrack W/C8X | 73 |
- | Carrack Expedition W/C8X | Carrack Expedition | 68 |
- | Crucible | Starfarer Gemini | 26 |
- | Crucible | Constellation Aquila | 99 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet | Prospector | 37 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet | Khartu-AL | 22 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet | F7C Hornet Wildfire | 16 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet | Gladiator | 27 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet | Freelancer MIS | 16 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet | Sabre | 22 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet | Razor EX | 37 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Constellation Taurus | 21 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Freelancer MAX | 63 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Prospector | 57 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Razor EX | 57 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Gladiator | 47 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Khartu-AL | 42 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Sabre | 42 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Sabre Comet | 26 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | F7C Hornet Wildfire | 36 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Freelancer MIS | 36 |
- | F7C Hornet Wildfire | Prospector | 31 |
- | F7C Hornet Wildfire | Khartu-Al | 16 |
- | F7C Hornet Wildfire | Gladiator | 22 |
- | F7C Hornet Wildfire | Sabre | 16 |
- | Gladiator | Prospector | 21 |
- | Hawk | Gladius | 21 |
- | Hurricane | Constellation Taurus | 22 |
- | Hurricane | Prospector | 53 |
- | Hurricane | Gladiator | 43 |
- | Hurricane | F7C Hornet Wildfire | 32 |
- | Hurricane | F7C-M Super Hornet | 27 |
- | Hurricane | Freelancer MIS | 32 |
- | Hurricane | Sabre | 37 |
- | Hurricane | Sabre Comet | 22 |
- | Hurricane | Khartu-Al | 37 |
- | Terrapin | Prospector | 84 |
- | Terrapin | Constellation Taurus | 44 |
- | Terrapin | Freelancer MAX | 86 |
- | Terrapin | F7C-M Super Hornet | 57 |
- | Terrapin | Freelancer MIS | 63 |
- | Terrapin | Vulcan | 36 |
- | Terrapin | Gladiator | 73 |
- | Terrapin | Khartu-Al | 65 |
- | Terrapin | Sabre | 65 |
- | Valkyrie | Constellation Aquila | 84 |
- | Valkyrie | Endeavor | 42 |
- | Valkyrie | Starfarer Gemini | 52 |
- | Valkyrie | Crucible | 42 |
- | Valkyrie | Glaive | 42 |
Aopoa (Xi'an) | Khartu-Al | Prospector | 29 |
- | Khartu-Al | Freelancer MAX | 31 |
- | Nox | Aurora LN | 27 |
- | Nox | Dragonfly Black | 15 |
- | Nox | Dragonfly Yellowjacket | 15 |
- | Nox | MPUV Cargo | 27 |
- | Nox Kue | Aurora LN | 23 |
- | Nox Kue | Dragonfly Black | 15 |
- | Nox Kue | Dragonfly Yellowjacket | 15 |
- | Nox Kue | Mustang Beta | 15 |
- | Nox Kue | MPUV Personnel | 15 |
- | Nox Kue | X1 Baseline | 15 |
- | Nox Kue | MPUV Cargo | 22 |
- | San'Tok.Yai | Constellation Taurus | 46 |
- | San'Tok.Yai | Hurricane | 40 |
- | San'Tok.Yai | Vulcan | 35 |
ARGO Astronautics | MPUV Personnel | Aurora LN | 15 |
- | MPUV Cargo | Mustang Alpha | 15 |
- | SRV | F7C-R Hornet Tracker | 37 |
- | SRV | Razor | 32 |
Banu | Merchantman | Mole | 239 |
- | Merchantman | Starfarer Gemini | 220 |
- | Merchantman | Prowler | 231 |
- | Merchantman | 600i Touring | 236 |
- | Merchantman | 600i Explorer | 194 |
- | Merchantman | Genesis Starliner | 273 |
- | Defender | Constellation Taurus | 42 |
- | Defender | Retaliator Base | 84 |
- | Defender | Cutlass Blue | 57 |
- | Defender | Freelancer MIS | 65 |
- | Defender | Gladiator | 70 |
- | Defender | Khartu-Al | 65 |
- | Defender | Sabre | 65 |
- | Defender | F7C Hornet Wildfire | 59 |
- | Defender | F7C-M Super Hornet | 55 |
Consolidated outland | Mustang Delta | Mustang Gamma | 22 |
- | Mustang Delta | Avenger Stalker | 15 |
Crusader Industries | Genesis Starliner | Constellation Aquila | 120 |
- | Genesis Starliner | Endeavor | 73 |
- | Ares Inferno | Constellation Andromeda | 26 |
- | Ares Ion | Constellation Andromeda | 26 |
- | A2 Hercules | 600i Touring | 341 |
- | A2 Hercules | 600i Explorer | 299 |
- | A2 Hercules | Carrack | 273 |
- | A2 Hercules | Constellation Aquila | 472 |
- | A2 Hercules | Crucible | 430 |
- | A2 Hercules | Endeavor | 430 |
- | A2 Hercules | Hull D | 325 |
- | A2 Hercules | Merchantman | 115 |
- | A2 Hercules | Orion | 194 |
- | A2 Hercules | Prowler | 336 |
- | A2 Hercules | Reclaimer | 378 |
- | A2 Hercules | Starfarer Gemini | 451 |
- | C2 Hercules | Constellation Aquila | 115 |
- | C2 Hercules | Valkyrie | 47 |
- | C2 Hercules | Crucible | 73 |
- | C2 Hercules | Endeavor | 73 |
- | C2 Hercules | Glaive | 73 |
- | C2 Hercules | Starfarer Gemini | 84 |
- | M2 Hercules | Constellation Aquila | 241 |
- | M2 Hercules | 600i Touring | 110 |
- | M2 Hercules | 600i Explorer | 68 |
- | M2 Hercules | C2 Hercules | 147 |
- | M2 Hercules | Crucible | 199 |
- | M2 Hercules | Endeavor | 199 |
- | M2 Hercules | Genesis Starliner | 147 |
- | M2 Hercules | Hull D | 94 |
- | M2 Hercules | Prowler | 105 |
- | M2 Hercules | Reclaimer | 147 |
- | M2 Hercules | Starfarer Gemini | 210 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Prospector | 120 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | San'tok.yai | 52 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Defender | 52 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | F7C Hornet Wildfire | 99 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | F7C-M Super Hornet | 94 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Freelancer MIS | 99 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Hurricane | 78 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Khartu-Al | 105 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Razor EX | 120 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Sabre Comet | 89 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Sabre | 105 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Terrapin | 52 |
- | Mercury Star Runner | Vulcan | 73 |
Drake Interplanetary | Buccaneer | Cutlass Black | 21 |
- | Caterpillar | Constellation Andromeda | 116 |
- | Caterpillar | Constellation Aquila | 36 |
- | Caterpillar | Retaliator Bomber | 78 |
- | Caterpillar | Redeemer | 26 |
- | Corsair | Prospector | 115 |
- | Corsair | Constellation Taurus | 78 |
- | Corsair | Freelancer MAX | 120 |
- | Corsair | Freelancer MIS | 94 |
- | Corsair | Sabre | 99 |
- | Corsair | Sabre Comet | 84 |
- | Corsair | Gladiator | 105 |
- | Corsair | F7C-M Super Hornet | 89 |
- | Corsair | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | 73 |
- | Corsair | F7C Hornet Wildfire | 94 |
- | Corsair | Vulcan | 68 |
- | Corsair | Hurricane | 73 |
- | Corsair | Razor EX | 115 |
- | Corsair | Khartu-Al | 99 |
- | Cutlass Black BIS | Gladius | 42 |
- | Cutlass Blue | F7C-R Hornet Tracker | 47 |
- | Cutlass Blue | Razor | 36 |
- | Cutlass Blue | Prospector | 31 |
- | Cutlass Steel | Constellation Taurus | 57 |
- | Cutlass Steel | Railen | 21 |
- | Cutlass Steel | San'tok.yai | 26 |
- | Cutlass Steel | Defender | 26 |
- | Cutlass Steel | Terrapin | 26 |
- | Cutlass Steel | Corsair | -5 |
- | Cutlass Steel | Vulcan | 47 |
- | Cutlass Steel | Hurricane | 52 |
- | Cutlass Steel | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | 52 |
- | Dragonfly Black | Aurora LN | 15 |
- | Dragonfly Black | MPUV Cargo | 15 |
- | Herald | 325A | 26 |
- | Herald | Avenger Titan Renegade | 21 |
- | Vulture | Freelancer DUR | 45 |
Esperia | Blade | Constellation Andromeda | 52 |
- | Glaive | Constellation Aquila | 99 |
- | Glaive | Starfarer Gemini | 63 |
- | Talon | Gladius | 36 |
- | Talon | Reliant Mako (News Van) | 31 |
- | Talon Shrike | Gladius | 36 |
- | Talon Shrike | Reliant Mako (News Van) | 31 |
- | Prowler | Constellation Aquila | 162 |
- | Prowler | Reclaimer | 68 |
- | Prowler | Genesis Starliner | 68 |
- | Prowler | Endeavor | 120 |
- | Prowler | Crucible | 120 |
- | Prowler | 600i Touring | 42 |
MISC | Freelancer MIS | Prospector | 32 |
- | Freelancer MIS | Freelancer MAX | 37 |
- | Freelancer MIS | Gladiator | 22 |
- | Freelancer MIS | Sabre | 16 |
- | Freelancer MIS | Razor EX | 32 |
- | Endeavor | Constellation Aquila | 84 |
- | Endeavor | Starfarer Gemini | 52 |
- | Hull A | 300I | 36 |
- | Hull A | Mustang Gamma | 36 |
- | Hull B | 325A | 94 |
- | Hull C | Constellation Andromeda | 136 |
- | Hull D | Constellation Aquila | 178 |
- | Hull D | Starfarer Gemini | 157 |
- | Razor | F7C-R Hornet Tracker | 15 |
- | Razor LX | F7C-R Hornet Tracker | 21 |
- | Razor LX | Razor | 15 |
- | Razor EX | Freelancer MAX | 15 |
- | Razor EX | SRV | 15 |
- | Razor EX | Retaliator Base | 15 |
- | Razor EX | Razor LX | 15 |
- | Reliant Tana (Skirmisher) | 325a | 15 |
- | Reliant Sen (Researcher) | Arrow | 21 |
- | Reliant Mako (News Van) | Gladius | 15 |
- | Starfarer | Constellation Andromeda | 76 |
- | Starfarer | Vanguard Warden | 55 |
- | Starfarer | Vanguard Harbinger | 24 |
- | Starfarer | Vanguard Sentinel | 39 |
- | Starfarer | Vanguard Hoplite | 81 |
- | Starfarer | Blade | 39 |
- | Starfarer | Retaliator Bomber | 39 |
- | Starfarer | Apollo Medivac | 39 |
- | Starfarer Gemini | Constellation Aquila | 63 |
- | Starfarer Gemini | Mole | 47 |
Origin Jumpworks | 350r | Freelancer | 28 |
- | 350r | F7C Hornet | 28 |
- | M50 | Gladius | 22 |
- | 85X | Aurora CL | 15 |
- | 100i | Dragonfly Black | 18 |
- | 100i | Dragonfly Yellowjacket | 18 |
- | 100i | MPUV Personnel | 22 |
- | 100i | Mustang Beta | 22 |
- | 100i | X1 Baseline | 22 |
- | 125a | 100i | 22 |
- | 125a | 85X | 19 |
- | 125a | Avenger Titan | 14 |
- | 125a | Ursa Rover | 19 |
- | 125a | X1 Force | 19 |
- | 135C | 100i | 27 |
- | 135C | 125a | 15 |
- | 135C | 300i | 19 |
- | 135C | Cyclone | 19 |
- | 135C | Mustang Gamma | 19 |
- | X1 Baseline | Mustang Alpha | 21 |
- | X1 Baseline | Aurora LN | 15 |
- | X1 Baseline | MPUV Cargo | 15 |
- | X1 Velocity | Mustang Beta | 15 |
- | X1 Velocity | MPUV Personnel | 15 |
- | X1 Velocity | X1 Baseline | 15 |
- | X1 Force | Aurora CL | 15 |
- | X1 Force | X1 Velocity | 15 |
- | X1 Force | Nox | 15 |
- | 600i Touring | Constellation Aquila | 152 |
- | 600i Touring | Constellation Phoenix | 110 |
- | 600i Touring | Reclaimer | 57 |
- | 600i Touring | Starfarer Gemini | 120 |
- | 600i Touring | Endeavor | 110 |
- | 600i Touring | Crucible | 110 |
- | 600i Touring | Eclipse | 162 |
- | 600i Touring | Genesis Starliner | 57 |
- | 600i Touring | C2 Hercules | 57 |
- | 600i Explorer | 600i Touring | 63 |
- | 600i Explorer | Constellation Aquila | 194 |
- | 600i Explorer | Prowler | 57 |
- | 600i Explorer | Genesis Starliner | 99 |
- | 600i Explorer | Starfarer Gemini | 162 |
- | 600i Explorer | Endeavor | 152 |
- | 600i Explorer | Reclaimer | 99 |
- | 600i Explorer | Crucible | 152 |
- | 600i Explorer | Hull D | 47 |
- | 600i Explorer | C2 Hercules | 99 |
RSI | Apollo Triage | Constellation Andromeda | 23 |
- | Apollo Triage | San'tok.yai | 44 |
- | Apollo Medivac | Constellation Andromeda | 49 |
- | Apollo Medivac | Vanguard Warden | 26 |
- | Apollo Medivac | Apollo Triage | 36 |
- | Apollo Medivac | Vanguard Hoplite | 52 |
- | Constellation Taurus | F7C-R Hornet Tracker | 47 |
- | Constellation Taurus | Razor | 42 |
- | Mantis | F7C-R Hornet Tracker | 21 |
- | Mantis | Vulture | 21 |
- | Mantis | Razor | 15 |
- | Mantis | Ballista | 21 |
- | Perseus | Mole | 409 |
- | Perseus | Carrack | 110 |
- | Perseus | Carrack W/C8X | 89 |
- | Perseus | Carrack Expedition | 84 |
- | Perseus | Carrack Expedition W/C8X | 63 |
- | Perseus | Merchantman | 57 |
- | Perseus | Orion | 136 |
- | Perseus | 600i Explorer | 241 |
- | Perseus | M2 Hercules | 194 |
- | Perseus | Hull D | 267 |
- | Polaris | Constellation Aquila | 535 |
- | Polaris | Perseus | 183 |
- | Polaris | M2 Hercules | 357 |
- | Polaris | Nautilus Solstice Edition | 149 |
- | Polaris | Hammerhead | 149 |
- | Polaris | Carrack | 367 |
- | Polaris | Crucible | 499 |
- | Polaris | Merchantman | 210 |
- | Polaris | Orion | 257 |
- | Orion | Constellation Aquila | 246 |
- | Orion | Starfarer | 246 |
- | Orion | 600i Touring | 194 |
- | Orion | Reclaimer | 215 |
- | Orion | Genesis Starliner | 215 |
- | Orion | Prowler | 173 |
- | Orion | M2 Hercules | 85 |
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►10◄ CROSS-CHASSIS UPGRADES (CCUS), DOWNGRADE
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CCUs from more to less expensive ships
Target ship manufacturer | Target ship | Upgrade from | Price, $ |
Aegis Dynamics | Eclipse | Redeemer | 64 |
- | Eclipse | Caterpillar | 17 |
- | Vanguard Harbinger | Constellation Aquila | 17 |
- | Vanguard Hoplite | Constellation Andromeda | 30 |
- | Reclaimer | Hull D | 94 |
- | Reclaimer | Merchantman | 78 |
- | Vulcan | Defender | 26 |
- | Vulcan | Terrapin | 15 |
- | Sabre | Constellation Taurus | 32 |
- | Sabre | Freelancer MIS | 16 |
- | Sabre Comet | Constellation Taurus | 52 |
- | Retaliator Bomber | Redeemer | 36 |
- | Vanguard Harbinger | Redeemer | 57 |
- | Vanguard Sentinel | Redeemer | 42 |
- | Vanguard Warden | Redeemer | 26 |
- | Vanguard Warden | Hull C | 26 |
Anvil Aerospace | F7C-M Super Hornet | Constellation Taurus | 47 |
- | F7C Hornet Wildfire | Constellation Taurus | 37 |
- | Gladiator | Constellation Taurus | 26 |
- | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | Defender | 21 |
- | Hurricane | Defender | 21 |
- | Gladiator | Constellation Taurus | 26 |
- | Gladiator | Cutlass Blue | 28 |
- | Valkyrie | Hull D | 42 |
- | Valkyrie | Merchantman | 47 |
- | Valkyrie | C2 Hercules | 31 |
Aopoa (Xi'an) | Khartu-Al | Constellation Taurus | 31 |
Consolidated outland | Mustang Delta | Hull A | 15 |
Crusader Industries | Genesis Starliner | Hull D | 73 |
- | Genesis Starliner | Merchantman | 73 |
- | C2 Hercules | Hull D | 31 |
- | C2 Hercules | Merchantman | 42 |
- | M2 Hercules | Orion | 52 |
Drake Interplanetary | Corsair | Defender | 42 |
Esperia | Prowler | Merchantman | 120 |
- | Prowler | Hull D | 105 |
MISC | Freelancer MIS | Constellation Taurus | 37 |
- | Freelancer MIS | Cutlass Blue | 37 |
- | Razor | Freelancer MAX | 15 |
- | Razor EX | Constellation Taurus | 15 |
- | Razor EX | Cutlass Blue | 15 |
- | Starfarer | Constellation Aquila | 37 |
- | Starfarer | Caterpillar | 18 |
Origin Jumpworks | 350r | Cutlass Red | 15 |
- | 600i Touring | Hull D | 110 |
- | 600i Touring | Prowler | 110 |
- | 600i Explorer | Merchantman | 152 |
- | 600i Explorer | Carrack | 99 |
RSI | Apollo Triage | Mercury Star Runner | 42 |
- | Orion | Carrack | 120 |
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