This is probably the most ambitious project I've done, but I'm on day 62 as of writing this, and it's been a blast! Here are my notes for every day in this: Day 1 (inf-20100607) Did nothing more than make myself a house and get food. Wood seemed scarce, so I mined coal during the night.
Day 2 (inf-20100608) Lit up the area, and made myself a cloth cap and shirt. The first sapling grew today, so I chopped it down and replanted.
Day 1 (again) (inf-20100611) Minecraft decided that my world didn't exist so I had to restart. Not too hard, though. I had to quickly build myself a wooden house (good thing there were so many trees!) and hide in there for the night. I didn't have coal, so no torches, and no torches means no light, and no light means PITCH BLACK nights. I was genuinely scared by this. Also, the skeletons and zombies made player noises. Weird.
Day 2 (again) (inf-20100615) Finished the wood shack and installed windows (not the OS, mind you). Then I added a tube to the back of the mineshaft to get to my house easier, and I also went mining. Found coal, but didn't have enough time to mine it due to it being update time.
Day 3 (inf-20100616-1) Decided to make a giant cobblestone nerd-pole so that I wouldn't get lost when exploring. Speaking of exploring, I did just that... for a little bit. That was very short-lived. I ended up mining for a while, and found the void-lava.
Day 4 (inf-20100617-1) Today was so far the most successful mining trip. I nerded out about the old trees having logs on the inside and the new trees not having that and those two kinds of trees being right next to each other. That's a run on sentence isn't it? Then I went into the mines and found more iron than I can count. Like I said, successful.
Day 5 (inf-20100617-2) Mining trip was good. Got more iron and found some void gold (a gold vein that exposed the void). It was cool.
Day 6 (inf-20100618, Seecret Friday 1) I screwed around with minecarts.
Day 7 (inf-20100624) Decided to light up the area around spawn, but not in spawn. Decided to fight baddies for the heck of it that night. Also made the house look more appealing.
Day 8 (inf-20100625-1) Everything that I placed and did in the last day got reversed to how they were on Day 6, except for my inventory. I spent the day fixing everything. In the night, I went mining and found more iron. No diamonds D:
Day 9 (inf-20100625-2, Seecret Friday 2) Today they added dungeons and some other stuff but it's not very important to me right now. Went mining for the day.
Day 10 (inf-20100627) Nothing interesting was added today so I went exploring to find water. I also made a glass room in my mine to tell the time.
Day 11 (inf-20100630-1) Infdev 20100629 didn't wanna work. So here we are, at 20100630-1. Stairs were added in the last version, so I added stairs to my mine. The stairs sure are finnicky, though! I also filled a creeper blast with water (that is surprisingly calming...)
Day 12 (inf-20100630-2) The last Infdev day. Tomorrow it will be Alpha! To prepare for the long journey of Alpha releases I built a new addition to the house. Finally, I made a sign and a shrine for Infdev. Farewell!
Day 13 (a1.0.1_01) Last version was Seecret Friday, but the file is lost and I have to play this version. But there are so many changes!! Excited! Didn't find redstone in the mines, though. I also finished the new room and organized the chests.
Day 14 (a1.0.2_01) Went exploring for some coal and cooked all my pork chops.
Day 15 (a1.0.2_02) Can't remember much other than that I went mining. That's it I guess?
Day 16 (a1.0.3) Went exploring for some coal but found a cool cave and also found lots of coal and iron
Day 17 (a1.0.4, Seecret Friday 4) Same as Day 16.
Day 18 (a1.0.5) Went back home and decided to go strip-mining because caving didn't go very well. Not much happened.
Day 19 (a1.0.5_01) There is a new project now; I am carving my face on a mountain. Gonna need a lot of stone though. And gravel. Lots and lots of gravel.
Day 20 (a1.0.6, Seecret Friday 5) Cactuses were added. Neat I guess. Also Boats. But that doesn't apply to what I did today because what I did today was work on my face. I went to get gravel. There was a lot of gravel.
Day 21 (a1.0.6_01) Marked the gravel spot, got distracted, and now I'm lost. at least I found a cactus!
Day 22 (a1.0.6_03) Using the power of looking back at the footage, I was able to return home! With the cactus! Yippee!
Day 23 (a1.0.7) Continued work on the face: I did it! Now I am making the body. Might need more gravel...
Day 24 (a1.0.8_01) i died.
Day 25 (a1.0.9) I continued working on my statue of me and got some more gravel. Had 1 block left after finishing!
Day 26 (a1.0.10) Went strip mining, found no diamonds.
Day 27 (a1.0.11, Seecret Friday 6) This update, lots of cool stuff was added but nothing that I can use. Went strip mining and found zero diamonds.
Day 28 (a1.0.12) The splash was "missingno" for some reason. Anyways, continued working on a giant tower. Ladders suck
Day 29 (a1.0.13) Finished the tower. Ladders STILL suck...
Day 30 (a1.0.13_01) Got bored of building so I went in one direction to find some sugarcane. Found some and am going back
Day 31 (a1.0.13_01 1Kin24h edition) The title screen was changed to say 1K in 24h because Minecraft sold 1,000 units in 24 hours! That might not seem like a lot but at the time that was big news. ANYWAYS, got back home and planted sugarcane, and also made a bookshelf. Also, bricks!
Day 32 (a1.0.14-1, Seecret Friday 7) Chickens and chest minecarts and furnace minecarts are added and I WANT A RAIL SYSTEM so I decided that my face could be a cart station. also iron doors suck
Day 33 (a1.0.14-2) What did I do... Oh yeah i put a tower compass thing.
Day 34 (a1.0.15) Played Minecraft, Watched Hermitcraft, Got Gravel.
Day 35 (a1.0.16) Mined some dirt
Day 36 (a1.0.16_01) placed the dirt replacing the sand, also paths.
Day 37 (a1.0.16_02) paths. PATHS!!!!!!1!
Day 38 (a1.0.17_02) Fences were added in alpha 1.0.17 but that version and a1.0.7_01 are lost so this is the one I have to play. Anyways, I got some wood for a farm project. How is that related? You'll see...
Day 39 (a1.0.17_03) See, fences placed underneath farmland makes the farmland UNTRAMPLEABLE. That's nice.
Day 40 (a1.0.17_04) Last a1.0.1x version! Grinding for wood sux.
Day 41 (a1.1.0-1, Seecret Friday 9) Compasses! I WANT A COMPASS. So I don't get lost ;) but i don't have redstone so i went mining for some. NO LUCK as always...
Day 42 (a1.1.0-2) Mining. No. Redstone. Or. Diamonds.
Day 43 (a1.1.1, Seecret Saturday) SNEAKIN' ROUND THE BLOCK, WOOHOO! Spent this legendary version just mining and found BEDROCK. I'll tell you that that wasn't there before. Still no redstone OR diamonds. FOUND A CAVE, THOUGH.
Day 44 (a1.1.2) idk what I did, I cooked pork I guess
Day 45 (a1.1.2_01) I mined out a bit of my face and gave a tour of the world to Pap. Last version with neon foliage.
Day 46 (a1.2.0, Halloween Update) Because this version added the Nether, I desperately tried to get diamonds so I could make a nether portal. Alas, no luck on that front.
Day 47 (a1.2.0_01) Continued mining until my pickaxes broke. After that, I hollowed out some more of my face. That's it?
Day 48 (a1.2.0_02) I tried making a rail way to the resource gathering area, but turns out that furnace minecarts are extremely finnicky. That project will have to wait until Beta 1.5...
Day 49 (a1.2.1_01) Turns out that Alpha 1.2.1 is the only lost Alpha 1.2 version. Go figure. Anyways, I started working on Mama's Mother's Day gift thing, and got ambushed by like a million mobs during the night. This is what I signed up for when switching to Hard mode, what did I expect?
Day 50 (a1.2.2-1) The ability to easily switch between texture packs was added in this version, replacing the ever-defunct "Play tutorial level" button. Also, nether portals with F4. I'm definitely going to use that once I figure out how it works. Update: figured out how the portals work, they seem to be random. I tried it in a test world then in my actual world and it worked! It was really cool in the Nether, but I just so happen to be underground. Ugh.
Day 51 (a1.2.2-2) Spent the day continuing working on the Mother's Day gift. I didn't die this time!
Day 52 (a1.2.3) Coordinates were added to the F3 menu, which is pretty nice. Now I CAN'T get lost! Anyways, I finished the Mother's Day gift and then died due to skelley boi. Man I need to mine... That will be a project for tomorrow.
Day 53 (a1.2.3_01-1) I didn't mine. Instead, I focused on ranged attacks and getting food and leather for armor.
Day 54 (a1.2.3_01-2) I continued to get resources from animals and ended up with a lot of pork chops and a leather shirt.
Day 55 (a1.2.3_02) Started a new mine so that I can get iron and diamonds faster. I found iron actually now!
Day 56 (a1.2.3_04) Turns out a1.2.3_03 doesn't exist. Weird, huh? Anyway, I finished digging down to y11 and am installing stairs.
Day 57 (a1.2.4, a1.2.3_05 in-game) Continued mining out my brand-new definitely not abandoned mineshaft. Got some of the unused rails and put them to good use!
Day 58 (a1.2.4_01) Went a little overtime huh? Well today was kinda uneventful, i mined, mined some more, and mined EVEN MORE. STILL no diamonds. I'm kinda losing hope...
Day 59 (a1.2.5) Only 1 alpha version left! Wow, time really did fly fast, huh? Anyway, I went and made a new room below the furnace room for storage, so that when I am in the beta versions I won't run out of storage. I also need wood.
Day 60 (a1.2.6) It's the LAST version of Alpha, and you know what I'm gonna do? Make an alpha shrine of course! I did the same for Infdev on day 12 if you remember. So yeah, that's what I'll do today. Update: I got killed by a zombie at the last second it COULD have. That sux
Day 61 (b1.0) Immediately, the Alpha shrine got blown up by a creeper instantly. And I died twice. It gets better, though. I continued working on the storage area and got things sorted out. However, there appears to be an inventory bug and that made my life waay harder. Still though, pretty productive day!
Day 62 (b1.0_01) The stupid chest bug was fixed! Yaay!

Hi,
So my in law parents want me to be a joint sponsor for their immigration. I personally don't want to do it, but am feeling pressured. My wife is supportive of my decision. My wife is currently finishing up her schooling and wants to sponsor her parents without me. We would separate our taxes (currently joint taxes) and she would make enough to sponsor them under her alone. If she were to sponsor now, I would need to be the joint sponsor because our taxes are combined and I make more money. Her parents are really pushing for this.
A little background: We live in New York. We have a toddler child too. Her family entered legally, but overstayed. My wife and I got married and it is very genuine. She is amazing and we love and support each other. We didn't even file for green card right away. She wasn't in a rush or anything. Her parents are really pressuring and forcing us. They are older and have some medical issues. They have also visited the emergency room for medical visits and have Obamacare. They also plan to take retirement and benefits like food stamps after getting citizenship. I heard about the public charge rule. Not sure what it is or if it would apply here.
I brought up our toddler child because we sometimes drop him off at my wife's parents to be watched. Her parents are really holding that against us, kinda blackmailing us - we do so much, we take care of your child, we've helped you financially in the past, you guys drain our energy by leaving your child with us, etc. I worry a lot about our child too. Yesterday night got pretty heated when we went to pick him up. Her parents were screaming and yelling and even threatening us to do it. My wife was yelling too. We left right away, but don't want this to impact the child at all.
Part of me wants to do it to help my wife and get it over with. They've helped me out in the past too financially. Another part of me really does not feel comfortable with it. I worry about the public charge rule, the liabilities, etc. Hoping you guys can provide more info about what it means to sponsor someone. I don't have the best relationship with my in-laws either. I try to help them as much as I can. I even went so far as getting them an apartment under my name, which I regret! They always make me and my wife feel like we don't do enough for them. I get it, they've helped us out in the past, but I feel a joint sponsorship is too much to ask for, especially when there has been abuse and toxic things in the past. They say "we've been struggling for 15+ years" I feel bad, but I think - how is that my problem? they've made their own decisions. Don't mean to sound insensitive or anything. At this point I don't want to be connected to them financially or other ways. My wife isn't saying she doesn't want to do it. She just wants them to wait a little longer and they are really rushing heus.
I'm being indecisive. Heavily leaning towards not wanting to do it. Struggling with how to communicate it and hold that boundary.

Hello everyone… first off, I come here with zero judgment and all the positive vibes for all of you dealing with food addiction and disordered eating. I’ve got a lot of professional experience with addiction of all kinds, but food addiction is newer on my radar.
My husband is absolutely textbook addicted to food and it’s not something we recognized until recently. When I stumbled upon some information and gently brought it up to him, he became tearful because he didn’t realize there were terms for what he experiences (food noise in particular). I didn’t know how much turmoil he silently lived with for so long. It was a huge revelation for both of us and we’re both still processing what all of this means moving forward.
He wants to get better and he’s waiting on an appointment with a new doctor to discuss options but I’m clueless as to how to support him. Like I said, I am so very familiar with addiction but when it’s your loved one it’s different. And he can’t just be abstinent from food entirely, and temptation is EVERYWHERE.
I know support looks different for everyone but was wondering if you all might share your experiences and the ways that your loved ones have helped and supported you that you found to be helpful (or the ways that have failed). I just want to help him and support him but I don’t know how to do that without making this worse. I certainly don’t want to push him or prod him or question him, so I haven’t brought it up because I don’t know what to say. But I know he’s still struggling. To make matters even worse, both me and my tween are underweight (not related to disordered eating) and I have appetite issues so I’m not sure how we would make it work to keep sugar and flour out of the house completely. I would love some resources or advice.
Thank you all, I hope you are well and finding strength today!

I think I moved too fast into low residue(or maybe I had some food that was not low res enough?). Last night I felt a lower level of pain compared to when I first got diagnosed with right side dv but none the less an increase in pain. This morning the pain is going away.
I'm desperate to get enough calories. From the antibiotics I have a lot of gerd and anxiety, which definitely compound each other. I've noticed if I eat more I can sleep more. Pepcid has been decent for reflux.
What do you eat to keep good nutrition? I had some root vegetables that were steamed and I think had low enough fiber, but last night feelings seem to say not ready yet.

Yesterday I had a ride along with a fairly brand new on road supervisor / ORS. He's only been with UPS for 6 years. 55 years old. And I've been with UPS since 1997 before the strike. Became a driver in 1999 as a utility and full time in 2004. I followed Orion/ Trace for most of the time. We had an area where it cut off, and itinerary made us to go about 7 miles off, and go back to where we were. He asked me why I did that and I told him because the Orion said so. I didn't stop for breaks and lunch during the day because I know it's a rural, literally rural, dirt unpaved roads, potholes, just a main highway road that are paved. 10 am, he's already on his 2 water bottle. 11 am, he's done with all his snacks in his little lunch bag and said, "yah, I didn't bring my lunch today." Noon, he was dozing off, closed his eyes and his hat almost flew off. I hit the brake lightly and he abruptly woken up. We passed a little convenient store and he asked if he can go to the bathroom. I said no, because that's stealing time and breaking trace. So we found a little porta pottie in the middle of nowhere on some construction site. We delivered to a house with some treats and snacks for "delivery drivers only". And he grabbed some snacks because I could tell that he is hangry by that time. I told him, "back in my days, ORS ride along always buying is dinner." I could see he was lit up and say "of course let's go get some food because I am hungry." -I've only consumed one Gatorade bottle all day. By the time we got to the restaurant, it was closed already. He had no food on his system,( neither did I), but my body is so used to it to the abuse and conditioned. He was so disappointed and he still had to drive home about an hour commute away. I told my friends at UPS and they are going to do the same thing.
Because his mentality was : if a driver go to the bathroom, he wants us to punch out for breaks because that's considered stealing time. So I fucking punished him yesterday.
Pros and Cons are welcome.

I am applying for a DEA number for the first time. What is going on with these application questions?
I don't understand why they would say "not less than 8 hours" when they can say "more than 8 hours"
"during the 5-year period immediately preceding the date on which you first submitted a registration or renewal and the curriculum included not less than 8 hours of training?" = within the last 5 years of applying and received more than 8 hours of training
This is how I would answer, but I may be wrong

1. No, I don't have any additional training, haven't passed the NP exam yet.
2. Yes, I just graduated.
3. No. i have no additional training besides my MSN degree.

I'm just annoyed by the wording of this application. why make it so confusing?

1. Do you hold a board certification in addiction psychiatry or addiction medicine from one of the following associations; American Board of Medical Specialties, American Board of Addiction Medicine, American Osteopathic Association? Yes No
   
2. Have you graduated, in good standing, from an accredited school of allopathic medicine, osteopathic medicine, dental surgery, dental medicine, physician assistant, or advanced practice nursing in the United States during the 5-year period immediately preceding the date on which you first submitted a registration or renewal and the curriculum included not less than 8 hours of training?***
   

***Treating and managing patients with opioid or other substance use disorders, including the appropriate clinical use of all drugs approved by the Food and Drug Administration for the treatment of opioid use disorder or The safe pharmacological management of dental pain and screening, brief intervention, and referral for appropriate treatment of patients with or at risk of developing opioid and other substance use disorders. Yes No

1. Have you completed not less than 8 hours of training with one or more of the following from the approved training requirements?***

***the American Society of Addiction Medicine, the American Academy of Addiction Psychiatry, the American Medical Association, the American Osteopathic Association, the American Nurses Credentialing Center, the American Psychiatric Association, the American Association of Nurse Practitioners, the American Academy of Physician Associates, or any other organization approved or accredited by the Assistant Secretary for Mental Health and Substance Use or the Accreditation Council for Continuing Medical Education.

I (31f) have seriously been considering divorcing my husband (33m). There's not one big reason - just a lot of little incompatibilities that add up.
We basically live separate lives under the same roof- he watches anime and plays video games, I read books, go to the gym, go to figure skating lessons, etc. He keeps trying to push me into his hobbies and I'm just not into them (I did try, fwiw).
I have a high sex drive and prefer every day, he has a low sex drive and could go a month or two without sex. I'm also very open and interested in trying new things, he makes vanilla seem spicy. And when we do have sex, it isn't good. For example, he thinks eating pussy is "dirty" and doesn't do it unless I ask and then it's still the bare minimum and kills the mood. He has also been having some ED issues, but won't get checked for testosterone issues, etc.
I do all the cleaning, taking care of pets, etc. I've told him for years that he makes me feel like I'm his mother and not his partner because he won't do anything unless asked, and even then I have to sit with him while he does it.
I meal prep, and he lives off fast food. I have been trying to get into the best shape of my life, and he has gained 100+ lbs over the past few years. I get my hair done, get waxed, etc. and he doesn't even shower or brush his teeth enough (I know this is an indicator for depression but he is on meds and has been his whole life and won't take any additional steps).
I also don't like the way that he talks to me a lot of the time - he is very condescending and when I've called him on it, he just says he's like that with everyone. He tries to tell me what to do or push me into doing the things he likes, and it never stops - he has repeatedly told me he wishes I was different and if I would just give in and play video games I would get so much more attention, he'd put together a video game cave, etc. When I try to tell him how that makes me feel he says I'm overreacting and/or he never said that. 🙄
There are more little things, but I don't know if I can stay in this marriage. I'm pretty sure (like 90 percent) that I want to leave, but I feel so much guilt and shame over that. Guilt because he's totally content with the way things are, so I feel like a jerk for wanting to leave. Guilt because I don't have any ill will towards him, and I know it would hurt him. Guilt because I'm not attracted to him anymore and I don't know if I ever will be again. Shame because if he's fine with the way things are, maybe it's my fault?
We don't have kids, but the thought of potentially losing my dog breaks my heart.
How did you deal with feeling guilty or shameful when you wanted out but the other person didn't?

You can see some of my earlier posts with my gallbladderless journey, but I wanted to give an update since so many who improve move on from these threads and leave these forums with a skewed view of recovery. It took me a good 6 months to start improving. I continued losing weight after surgery and the nausea prompted an MRCP to see if there were any lingering issues. I kept being told everything looked perfect and to give it time. I had a lot of anxiety and panic around food and getting sick. I’m still Covid conscious so I don’t do public outings often, but the one time I tried to eat out early into recovery I cried and had to go home. The mental impact of having a persistent or chronic illness was probably harder than the illness itself, but I forced myself into a routine. The only constants I had were my planned meals and my daily walks, both of which were life saving. I’ve eaten the same breakfast since early in recovery, Kodiak protein waffles and sliced apples. Lunch is usually whatever my 5 year old consumes; peanut butter sandwich or dino nuggets, white cheddar popcorn or baked lays. Snack used to be exclusively an apple cinnamon rice cake with dark chocolate hummus and cut up strawberries, but in the last 2 months or so I eat a Chobani flip (Boston cream is the best one, don’t fight me on this). Dinner 80% of the time is baked chicken breast, a vegetable (usually baby carrots), and, my lord and savior, Costco rice made in my zojirushi rice maker. This was an investment after my sibling made me rice in theirs days after surgery. I didn’t even think I liked rice for 3 decades until I had well prepared rice. I love it so much now sometimes I’ll eat it as a snack or my whole meal. After dinner I have walked every evening since surgery to aid digestion. It really brings the burps and toots out. A month or 2 after surgery my once a day poo turned into diarrhea so I started one heaping teaspoonful of sugar free psyllium husk after breakfast to firm up my poo (the timing is better for bile dumping symptoms for people without gallbladders). I believe this consistency is what helped me improve after my body stopped being in survival mode. I lost 40 pounds in just a few months before and immediately following surgery so it’s clear I needed time to adjust. I let go of the expectation of when I was supposed to feel better and trusted my body. Once a day walks turned into twice a day when I had the energy. My stamina is nowhere close to being at baseline as I’ve lost a lot of muscle tone, but I’m slowly working up to exercising more (walking IS exercise contrary to what some of these gym bros claim). I eat smaller, more frequent meals as opposed to heavy, dense ones. I experience low heart rate and low blood pressure episodes when I am stressed, eat too much sugar, or sometimes it’s random, so I watch my sugar intake (NEVER on an empty stomach), salt load when symptoms come on, and lay down if I can until it improves. I have struggled a lot with freezing at night, but that’s improved in the last month, probably because I’ve managed to gain a few pounds. I’m more liberal with my diet now, but I did so slowly and I don’t push myself. I still get anxiety about ordering out because I have a severe fear of throwing up from eating food prepared by somebody else + the risk of norovirus. I’ve recently been able to tolerate small amounts of heavier dairy like alfredo and ice cream. I eat a couple bites of red meat when served, but it’s infrequent (twice since surgery). Despite what I’m still dealing with I’m very glad I had surgery. I know I would’ve died if something didn’t change. Plus, my lab work is the best it’s been in my adult life. My triglycerides alone dropped by 55% in a year from eating clean. So if you’re reading this wondering if you’ve made a mistake, give it time. Advocate for yourself, but also give your body time to adjust. Some people take years to improve and I think my timeline will be about that to confidently say I’m completely better. Good luck to everyone!

I (22F) still live with my mother, I work full-time and recently graduated college with an associates degree because my mom did not want me to finish so I could help her with bills. I pay at least 1300 in bills including our phone and wifi bill as my job pays me well enough to take care of basic needs. I've never been late on rent(which i zelle my mom weekly-but somehow our rent is always late). My mom still buys me food, despite me saying we could just go half on groceries instead of eating out everyday. My mom never cleans after herself or her pets and tells me that I can help her out with her animals despite her adopting all these animals I did not want (I already have 10 of my own that I take care of)--I clean up after myself and animals as well as do the dishes, take out the trash, and the entire house more than often. However, whenever I clean up not even two hours she comes home the house is a disaster again with pee and poop all over the floor from her dogs, old fast food cups in the windows, floor, table, etc. I get frustrated because I hate a dirty house and her excuse on not cleaning is "I work, I don't have time" and she says this about everything, including taking care of her animals. Our arguments are mostly about her not being clean and how i'm not helping her take care of animals she decided to adopt especially after she dumped her other two dogs onto me when i was just a kid when I never asked for them. She's very emotionally immature and can't talk without screaming or trying to hurt me. I cannot move out because where I live all the places are over the amount I can afford and I'm not able to save much because she is always asking me for money.

Hi this is my first time posting here. I've been an ASMR script writer for a few months and have been posting on ASMRScriptHaven I found this subreddit and thought I'd post here as well. This is my latest script and I'm sharing it here as well as on ASMRScriptHaven.
This is part 4 of my infertile vampire series. You can find the other parts in my masterlist: My masterlist :
I put the script in scriptbin for ease of recording (I heard some VA's prefer reading it from there): Virtual-Grade592: [A4A] [F4A] [M4A] Your vampire partner is infertile [vampire] [established relationship] - scriptbin
It's okay to fill this script and make minor adjustments. Please give me credit for writing the script and put a link in the comments so that I can find your audio. It's okay to paywall, but send me a copy of the audio then.
This part will have 2 speakers, the infertile vampire partner and the adoptive vampire. I’ve given the infertile vampire partner the name Alex, so I’ll use an A to indicate when they speaks and the adoptive vampire is called Ender, so I’ll use an E to indicate when they speak. Feel free to change pronouns and names to fit your audio.
(several days have passed since Ender started living with Alex and the listener. Ender has been gradually getting more at ease with their vampiric nature. Today all of you sit down to discuss the next step in Ender’s education as a vampire.)
[The listener, Alex and Ender sit down on a couple of chairs in the living room]
E: *nervous* I’m not ready for this.
A: *reassuring* Everyone is anxious for the first time they need to feed. You’re such a calm vampire, I’m sure you’ll do fine.
E: *still anxious* But what if I lose control? The blood bags you’ve been feeding me taste so much better than the animal blood I drank before. What if I can’t stop once I start?
A: You’re worrying too much. We aren’t the bloodthirsty monsters that the media portrays us as. Your hunger is the same as when you were human. Only starving or psychopathic vampires would drain a human to the point of death.
E: *unsure* I still feel that this is dangerous. When I arrived here, I had trouble restraining myself from drinking from them.
A: Back then you were starving. Your survival instinct was screaming at you that you needed blood. And you didn’t even give in to it. Now you aren’t starving. At this moment does it feel like you need to bite a human?
E: No, I’m fine now.
A: My point exactly. You’re fine and you’ll still be fine if you feed.
E: *slowly building up courage* I suppose you are right. It feels daunting though. I imagine many things could go wrong, like I could accidentally bite their artery. But those are worst case scenarios right?
A: Yes, that’s right. Those are just worst case scenarios and they are very rare. In all the years I’ve been feeding off of them *pointing at the listener* There were never any problems. All that will happen is that your partner gets a bit fatigued. *cheeky* Or they’ll get turned on if they have a thing for vampires.
[pause]
A: *amused* Aw that’s cute, look at the both of you blushing. I understand that Ender might be flustered at their first time feeding, *Alex turns to the listener* But I’ve fed plenty of times on you, my darling. Why are you bashful about the notion of Ender drinking from you?
[pause]
A: You’re afraid it’ll be too intimate? Hey sweetheart, there is nothing wrong with how you’ll react or feel when being fed on. I won’t see it as cheating if you get hot and bothered. It’s only cheating if you act on it. You don’t need to be ashamed if you get a bit, um how to say this … excited? Yeah excited. It’s okay if you get excited from being fed on. You’re married to a vampire, it’s normal to like being bitten. And if it gets too much for you then *suggestive* we can always retire to our bedroom to ‘deal’ with any overwhelming emotions.
[pause]
A: That seems to have put you at ease. It’s going to be okay darling. It’ll just be like me feeding on you. And I’ll guide Ender through it all to keep you and them safe.
E: *stammering nervously* Um, c-could we do this another time? I-I still don’t feel r-ready. I t-think It’ll be easier if I had more time to mentally prepare myself.
A: *encouraging* Ender, I can tell that you are ready now. You’ve been doing fine this last week and you are cautious. I know this will go alright. If we delay it now, it’ll just become more daunting to bite a human. The extra time will just increase your nervousness, not lessen it. So please believe me, because now is the best time to do your first feeding.
E: *getting more confident* Maybe you’re right. I should try at some point, so why not now. Even if something goes wrong, you’re here to help.
A: That’s the spirit. So when you’re ready, sit down next to our prospective bite victim.
[Ender sits down next to the listener]
A: Now, feeding takes three simple steps. First, put some of your saliva on the part of the skin you want to feed on. Our saliva has a numbing effect on humans, so this way your prey won’t feel pain from your bite. If your victim has been particularly annoying, then I’d spit on them, but otherwise it’s nicer to apply your saliva with a kiss. Second you bite the skin and begin drinking. Third when you’ve had your fill, you remove your fangs and catch your prey if they got too drained from the blood loss. Then you are done.
E: Okay, I think I can do that. Human, if you want me to stop at any moment, just squeeze my hand or tell me to stop. Are you ready as well?
[pause]
E: Good, then I’ll begin.
[sound of Ender giving one kiss on the neck]
E: *uncertain* There’s the saliva. Is it working? Are you feeling numb?
[pause]
E: Yeah? Okay, then I’ll bite you now.
[sound of a bite and the sucking of blood]
[after a few moments Ender stops the bite]
E: *pleasantly surprised* Huh, that was a lot easier than expected. Are you feeling okay?
[pause]
E: Phew, that’s good. I’m glad you’re fine.
A: To me it seems alright as well. Sweetheart can you tilt your neck? I want to check the wound just in case.
[listener tilts neck]
A: *pleased* This is a very clean wound. It’s hardly worse than a papercut. You did well Ender, you can be proud.
E: It felt surprisingly good. I could certainly get used to this.
A: *amused* My, my, you’re really getting used to your vampirism aren’t you. Already eager to bite more humans and taste their delicious blood. It’s a good thing you are kind-hearted or humanity would have to fear a new predator in the night.
E: *flustered* If you put it like that, it sounds like I’m getting bloodthirsty. I just liked biting them. But I don’t want to go hunting them and forcefully feed off of them.
A: *chuckling* That’s adorable dear. You won’t have to worry about hunting anyone. There are plenty of humans with a thing for vampires. Whenever you feel like biting anyone, just find one of them. They’ll happily consent to being fed upon. Especially wit the internet it’s easy to find people who want to do some vampire ‘roleplaying’.
E: *Surprised* It’s that easy? People even like our bite?
A: Oh yes, they certainly do. Just look at my partner. They seem quite satisfied from the ordeal. And you’re happy with how it all went, right darling?
[pause]
E: That’s a relief. I’d hate it if I had to hurt someone every time I ate.
A: Oh that won’t happen. Tomorrow I’ll teach you to find these humans eager to be bitten. And you’ll be surprised how many of them there are.
E: *excited* Ooh, I can’t wait for it.
A: Great, then we’ll pick this up first thing tomorrow morning. But for now let’s start on dinner. My sweetheart can use some food after losing blood.
[fade to black as the three of them get dinner ready]

Hi everyone, the title is pretty much the core of the issue.
23, male, 180cm, 60kg, white pale complexion, smoker, no previous heart or circulatory condition, previous food-allergy related rashes and epileptic crises during high fevers as a kid (both no longer present).
I have been experiencing this for years now and I can’t seem to find any definitive solution. Not even my doctor could help me so I’m asking here in the hope someone recognises this or has some useful advice.
Long story short sometimes I get out of the shower or bath and as soon as my legs dry a little they start to itch. Itching restlessly and intensely as if someone was pinching me all over them. It usually lasts a few minutes and then progressively calms down, even tho it can last up to half an hour sometimes.
I know it doesn’t sound like much of a problem but I really can’t describe how terrible it feels with words. When it happens I feel helpless and like I could go mad, it’s a very intense sensation, sometimes I even slapped my legs hoping they would stop. Sometimes it starts making me shake
It feels obvious to say it but scratching only makes it worse and prolongs the torture.
On to the weirdness of this: I thought of every possible reason this happens and every possible remedy doesn’t help in the slightest and sometimes makes it worse.
I thought it was a skin sensitivity problem and I only use pharmacy’s shower oil to wash my body, nor do I use exfoliants chemical or physical (I wash myself with my bare hands and nothing more).
I thought it was a dryness problem so I tried multiple hydrating creams all with varying results from no effect to making the situation worse.
I thought it was an oil depletion problem so I applied sweet almond oil (which also should have calming effects on irritations) and it doesn’t do anything.
I thought it was a circulatory problem so I started wearing compression socks as some recommend (I don’t have varicose veins nor anything similar).
What is left on my list of ideas is a peripheral nervous problem and I really want to hope that is not the case.
I can’t see a correlation between the times it happens (as it’s not a regular appointment, thankfully) as it doesn’t matter if I shower or bathe, hot or cold, etc.
The additional useful information that I can tell you is:

• It could have some correlation with shaving: I say could because I don’t shave often, I don’t do it with anything other than an electric razors with spacers anymore and, most importantly, it happened when I hadn’t shaved for months too, although less intensely
  
• It happens consistently every time I bathe in sea water and that is the only time the sensation expands all over my body (when it happens at home my arms itch too sometimes, but way less noticeably than my legs).
  
• There are no visible signs of this, no rashes, not even redness
  
• My mother said she has had this problem all her life but the solution that worked for her was using cleaning products for sensitive skin which, as I mentioned, didn’t do it for me (although it seems to have made it a little less frequent, sea water aside).
  

Please help Thank you for reading this long message

Just some things I’ve noticed and would want pre-trip me to know:

1. Food is very important here. Finishing everything on your plate is good! Leaving food may be seen as ungrateful, so if you don’t think you’ll finish and there’s a “half-portion” option, go for that. (I have native family here that took me to dinner-as an American I’m used to big portions and leaving food- they thought I didn’t like what I ordered when I couldn’t finish everything)
   
2. Avoid strong smells, even if it’s good. I’m a perfume girl back home so I brought some of my favorites in mini sample sizes. I haven’t used them once. It’s a rule back home anyway to avoid perfume on public transit, and I completely miscalculated how much of my time would be spent riding the metro each day.
   
3. This might be an obvious for some, but I had no idea what “tax-free” shopping was before I arrived. If the shop is tax-free and you’re spending at least 5500¥, you get in a special line, show your passport, and you don’t have to pay Japan taxes. Just make sure you calculate your total before getting in line. Also side note: if you’re planning on buying lots of tax-free stuff from Don Quijote, they wrap it up and tell you not to open it until you’ve landed back home. So if you’re like me and want to use some of the stuff for your stay, make a tax free transaction then a regular transaction for immediate use.
   
4. Some places don’t like cameras. In LA, everyone is vlogging or posting or snapping pictures- it’s normal and considered free marketing. But places like anime merch shops and some markets/ konbinis have signs. I even got yelled at for trying to snap a picture of a food stall. It’s weird to me that they don’t want people showing others what they sell, but still respect these signs and owners wishes.
   
5. Pasmo and Suica aren’t exactly the same. I got a Suica card on arrival thinking they were based on limited research. Suica works great for the central Tokyo lines (Lines with a single letter eg. A, H, Z). Had to go to Shibuya to get a pasmo when I didn’t want to keep buying physical tickets for the JR lines (Lines with two letters eg. KK, JN, KO). You can get by with just a Suica and some cash, but when a million other tourists are in the ticket line trying to get back into Tokyo, having a Pasmo really saves you.
   
6. Not really advice, but recommendation for early risers based on my experience: shopping and other stores usually don’t open until 11am. If you’re like me you’re ready to start the day at 7 or 8am. I recommend getting to the area you’re going to be spending the day in, getting a coffee, then going to the nearest park/ shrine to stroll in. It’s a great way to get some sightseeing in while waiting for stuff to open.
   
7. Humidity is a killer here. If the weather says 60F and sunny it’s gunna feel 10 degrees hotter because of the moisture. It makes sense why you hardly see people in denim. Even still, women are still wearing long sleeves. Older women wear linen and maxi dresses, while younger go for shorts, skirts, and lightweight cargos. If you don’t care about fitting in, tank tops and light baggy jeans are the way to go.
   

Sorry for the wordy post. Again, this is stuff I have noticed and would tell past me about. I hope this is helpful for anyone traveling to Tokyo soon!

Hi, I am f21 and live with my first bf of 3 years m25 and his two roommates (m26, m31). We are pretty good friends since moving in with each other despite not knowing each other when we did in the beginning - It was also the first time I lived out of home and with a partner (our relationship was long distance primarily before that and we met on a game). We often hang out with m26 and often smoke weed with m26 and his gf. Sometimes m31 will smoke weed with us too, but very rarely. He also sometimes joins us in board games and drinks.
Me and m31 get along fine I think, he is nice to me and has even given me bits of food off his dinner plate even (my boyfriend is always with me btw as I have a disability and tend to be home basically 24/7 as he studies and works online). He will often insist even if I say no at first, so I just try a little and say thank you cause I feel bad for saying no. My bf doesn’t mind as idk he just didn’t care I assume, but when I had mentioned in passing to a family member they said that it was weird in addition to other things. Oh, me and m31 are both autistic too. I am diagnosed however while he is not, but I assume he is as he says he thinks so. My bf has said that m31 in passing has said I am attractive and have a fit body which my bf told me later, but he just laughed it off. So, I guess I didn’t really care? I am not sure if that was inappropriate or not, I am also sorry if I sound very stupid in not knowing these things. I told my family member another thing. He has also called me adorable when we were drinking and smoking with m26, his gf(f24) and my bf in front of them, but no one really like did anything so I assumed that was also ok. My replies are just always awkward because of my bad social skills but most people don’t really say or care I guess. I literally don’t know how to reply in those moments most of the time. I usually just fake laugh bc that’s what I do when I don’t know what to do or say when someone is talking to me. He said it because another night we were doing board games again I had started talking about a lot of different dog breeds because I know a lot about so many. I am not sure what brought that memory up when we were all talking though as it was kind of random. His gf has also said I am so I just thought it was the same as that.
Is his behaviour ok? my family member says that she would feel uncomfortable if she were me
sorry for the bad writing
Thank you

I’ll try and keep things as concise as possible. My partner (30M) and I (32F) have been having a rough time for about five months. I work full time and he’s a student. The solutions seem simple but it all seems to fall on me to fix or change things. I’ll admit, I’m not perfect and am always trying to better myself for but just me but all my relationships.
My partner tells me that I don’t make him feel loved or valued. He says he’s bored in our relationship and feels I should know what his interests are and that it shouldn’t be as difficult as I’m making it out to be. However, I’m the past when I’ve suggested dates and things to do, they’re often dismissed or are inadequate.
I understand not wanting to be in a rut and wanting/needing a little spice to keep things interesting. It sucks when I’m constantly told that I don’t put effort or care into our relationship. I often feel criticized and not accepted for who I am and what I have done for us.
There has been financial strain the last few months as well. He has quit several jobs without notice, leaving me to cover most of our expenses. I’ve never once been upset about his needing to quit jobs because he’s been struggling with his mental health because of them. I’ve only ever told him, and just recently, that I will soon not be able to cover our monthly expenses on my own.
One last thing that has been challenging is our priorities. He feels I put my family before our relationship. I’ve made mistakes in the past and have. We had a family vacation and he asked if we could spend some time alone for a few hours. I told him yes but never made it happen. I messed up. I own it and told him I thought our group would naturally kind of split off. It didn’t. He was upset, which is fair. But now, when we have disagreements, it comes up. Just to tack on at the end here. I feel he doesn’t respect my choice not to eat meet. When we first started dating I had been vegan for 8 years. He’s not and food is important to him. I’ve relaxed my diet and am basically vegetarian now. I’ve even had a bit of sea food. I still would rather not eat meat or eggs on their own. It’s been so long that my stomach may not handle it and I’m afraid my taste buds really won’t like it. But despite me relaxing my diet to what it is, he still thinks I’m strict and wishes I would relax it further.
I don’t know, I feel like I’m trying. I try and cook but I’m not great at it, I’m trying to be better. When I do make dinner and it doesn’t come out well, I feel criticized. He will not eat it most times and will tell me how I’ve messed up. Our communication hasn’t been the best. We seem to talk in circles. To him, it’s me saying the same things with no action. It feels like we both want it to work but it’s not happening.
So, do you think I’m crazy or dumb for wanting to make this work? It’s awful because when things are good, it’s so good. But those times are happening less and less.
TL;DR:
My partner and I are struggling with communication issues, differing priorities, and feeling unsupported. He criticizes my efforts and dietary choices, and his job instability adds financial strain. Despite wanting to make it work, his high expectations make it hard for me to meet his standards, and both of us are dealing with emotional and mental health.

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The short story is this:
I(34F) have been with husband (33M) for 10 years. He's a wonderful man but suffers from extreme anxiety and generally poor mental health and thusly struggles to help me with any big stressful decisions in life. Lately as stress has risen he has started not only not helping me with big decisions but panicking and getting in my way. I am starting to wonder if it's worth it to continue to stay with someone who has such a negative outlook on life and massive anxiety that he's just not a good partner when things are rough in the mental load department. While I understand and feel so bad for him that he's going through something as rough as severe anxiety and depression, it's also been quite hard on me and makes me feel unstable about my own future. And if I do stay with him, how the heck do we move forward?
The long story is this:
We've been together for over 10 years. My husband has extreme anxiety. He has been going to therapy for it (although he's having to take a break right now because we're both between jobs), and generally working on improving his mental health all this time. I'm proud of him for that--it's not an easy road. A lot of people refuse to even try. I've definitely noticed improvements. In many ways he's a wonderful man.
But any time things are stressful I feel like I have to handle them alone because he just can't. Asking him to help with things like deciding where to move, what to do with our careers, finances, tricky family stuff, and even planning our wedding a few years ago mostly just sets him off. And it's not abusive or anything, but he'll either shut down and just stare into space (a trauma response I'm sure), or just like attach to some random tangent and refuse to talk about the issue, or just get mad and grit his teeth and say "fine" over and over. To be clear I don't think he has bad intentions in doing this, I think he literally just cannot process it. To some degree I'm like "eh I'd have to do this for myself anyways" but I'm also like "man I wish I could talk to him about what to do about mom getting older" for example. I've suggested for a long time that he could do something like pick up a book on finance basics and read it himself, I don't need to be involved (because if I'm teaching him that's stressful for him). But the reality is he hasn't learned even basic finances even though I've explained to him multiple times it's really important. The very idea of finance just scares him too much.
With finances for example, this backfires because he doesn't understand things like a budget exactly. I'll say "ok, we can only spend XYZ this month. I know the credit card would *let* you spend more than that, but we need to not do that. I don't want to cap it in case we need it for something though". This kind of conversation will trigger anything from "Omg we are broke and about to die of starvation" with a side of panic attack or basically behavior like I'm gonna go spend more because I feel out of control of my life with any restrictions. The dumb thing is if I just don't tell him about a budget and do things like say "Hey would you mind cooking a steak tonight" it's totally fine. But like...I don't want to feel like I have to manipulate him into staying on budget. It feels awkward and also unstable to me. This all feels especially stupid because we're actually fairly well off money-wise--but we can't afford "eat at steakhouse 3 times a day" and this is enough to set him off because he's just so detached from understanding money it's kind of all or nothing for him.
Lately stress has been extra high -- we're between jobs (but have ample emergency fund), family stuff is piling up, we've had to move, and I've made it clear our relationship is struggling lately because of this whole topic. So he's been doing weird things that to me I consider a threat to our safety. He'll stare at his bank account for hours. It makes me worry he'll do something crazy. I feel like a mega bitch for even considering "hey maybe I take your bank passwords and hold them for right now" because I'm like "are you just gonna start smashing buttons out of fear and drain all your money???". Thankfully I recognized this weird behavior a long time ago and my finances are pretty separated from his but like if we stay together I'd be responsible for him too so it's still like "Please don't go do something crazy like move all the money into some account you don't understand because you read about it for 5 minutes online". Also lately when he's applying for jobs he's been only applying for jobs he's way overqualified for or that are based in some random area that pays a lot less. He has a lot of anxiety about not being good enough if he applies for the types of jobs I tell him to (I am senior in the same field). I decided to remove myself from the equation (I get it can be hard hearing these things from your wife) and connected him with a career coach (he very much likes working with the coach) but he's still just doing stuff like applying for entry level positions even though he's far ahead of that.
And this type of behavior is where I'm like "Ok this is no longer you're sweating in the corner while I decide what to do about mom" it's like "You are making bad financial decisions that impact both of us because you're afraid and refuse to actually engage in a conversation with me where we actually talk about it and solve the problem." Like sure, he'll sit there, but he's just saying "fine" over and over or parroting back what I say without actually understanding. It's like every conversation I have with him on a stressful thing is him trying to figure out how to get out of the conversation without me "getting mad". Which is totally again a trauma thing from his childhood. I usually just end up sighing and saying "Okay...this is going nowhere, I guess I'll just go handle it..."
Then the other day when I was explaining some expenses he had the gall to say "I don't trust you with money!!!" and I was just sort of like "???" because this dude has made me manage his accounts since 1 month into dating him LOL. I was like "Do...do you think the rent just pays itself? Do you think the fridge is just magically full of food all the time? Do you even know what a credit score is and why yours is so high now? Do you think your portfolio magically built itself? You don't trust me? You've implicitly trusted me all this time because you refuse to do any of this yourself but I don't want our lives to suck so I handle it."
I bring up finances because it's the easiest to explain without context of family stuff for example but this behavior extends to many parts of our life that are "stressful".
He's super willing to do things if I do the mental load associated with it. Like ok, I figured out all the stuff about mom needing a nursing home and the logistics of that. Help me move her in? Absolutely, no problem, will 100% show up and be happy to help. Physical labor or anything repetitive where I've helped laid down structure is generally usually fine. That's part of what makes me figuring out what to do next is so hard. He wants to be better. But I'm still just like "Please don't go exploding our life because of your anxiety."
I feel stuck. I understand why he's doing these behaviors but it's like...ok I'm still left out in the cold on things. And then to get something as ungrateful as "I don't trust you with money" as if all my work on it wasn't real...ugh. And if I just leave him be a lot of the time it's fine, but if I press him on it things almost always get worse because all he does is add panic to my stressful situations. If he doesn't think too hard life isn't that bad and we can do things like go out with friends, but if I question him even a little it sets him on an anxiety and depression spiral.
I feel lonely in the big decisions of life. I feel his lack of understanding mixed with his poor mental health is making him incapable of truly being grateful because he just can't understand everything I've done. Sometimes I just get straight up resentment because I do things like explain our budget. I so desperately want to make things work but I feel so incredibly stuck on these things after having tried to improve them for so many years.
Does anyone have advice on how to move forward?
Thank you for your time.

i emailed this to agencies that deal with hunting and wildlife problems
pasts@varam.gov.lv
info@wildlifesos.org
reportmisconduct@undp.org
there is no obvious place to report this and expect a serious hearing from someone fluent in English and scientifically minded
the following is what I wrote a month ago after the event
i can't judge after hand how much danger i was in but i would treat it seriously
luckily has not happened again in this country for a month. hopefully never happens again. although the next time i will have the benefit of having experienced it already
when police arrived i demanded prison for the dog owner in clearest possible way i could. after my speach was done they did not ask me a single word. they could tell i was furious of fear. and better to talk another time. i am so drained from global security work that i can't follow up on this but this should be available for anyone to read that might experience it themselves or take upon their self to wander around this globe as i do
i will probably feel guilty if the owner lose his dogs or hunting permit or reputation in his community. i am not going to judge anyone extremely harshly
if they ask me to fill out a criminal report according to some kind of format standards i am not going to do it myself an experienced prosecutor that has done it before is free to report this or pass it along. just not going to fill in report fields in some kind of form. you do it for me if you want to. i am not doing it. should be enough information to find
http://geohash.org/u6p4gj36
is the exact location and anyone can guess where the dogs came from probably the nearest mansion two thousand metres away to the east across p111 near upsede. upsede mansion. good luck asking them about it they don't speak a word of English here development is seventy years behind the west

preface

this is so incredulous that it could be picked up by news
still in shock six hours later at dawn
just the title should give you the general idea
i have never heard of such outrageous neglect in dog keeping in my life
the dogs escape unnoticed at night and hunt without human supervision and presumably return in the morning without anyone doing anything about it
this dog owner would make the top ten list anywhere in history
the dogs occasional howl brought up pictures of wolf movies the grey with that guy from Schindler's list the guy that played Oscar Schindler fighting with wolves with broken glass and a big knife to his death but i can safely discard all theories besides a runaway hunting dog militia on four legs in a large pack sounded like at least ten animals
in that immense fear of a completely unfamiliar situation in a life of hiking around the globe thoughts whirled around all possible night mares before i realised it is obviously hunting dogs all else is pure fantasy wolves are absolutely ruled out
they did not retreat when they sensed my presence but stayed in full alarm perhaps as when they encounter prey on a supervised hunt to alert the humans. even though they knew they were alone and no one to alert, they knew i was probably not prey, did not know enough to EVER be alone unsupervised anywhere but home preferably inside, but did NOT know or predict the length of the prison sentence they just brought on their owner by this nightly escapade. whoops
the locals will predictably put the lid on but the power of the internet is a wonderful thing
i can not imagine any circumstance that would make this less than prison anywhere in the union or West europe. now this is the old east. no one understands English etc. one escaped dog barking in the forest. fine. slap on the wrist. possibly losing care of the animal...ten rabid hunting dogs in full alarm scaring the life out of a hiker resting at night. shake those bars for three months. watch that prison television. and there won't be any Marlborough or beers in prison

the entire report

the exact location is near the highest hunting tower on the old railway trail passing by upsede north east of liepaja that is used for hunting commonly judging by all the towers lining the road there
This began around Four hours after dark on the early night of Sunday 28 April 2024 or exactly 1:00 o'clock
I will first describe exactly what happened and after that separately my interpretation in hindsight when recalling these events three hours later when I can calm down
This is a rather long story so I will get to my point right here before the story
What can I do if I encounter a dog pack like this again except tell at them and calmly leave. What if they hunt me or behave like they are guarding a territory. However remotely that might seems. There is a reason this is a serious crime. Too much uncertainty
Can you confirm that this kind of incessant barking is absolutely impossible in any other animal
In no circumstance whatsoever would any wolf pack or any deer flock behave like this even if I stood right on their den with ten kids inside
The occasional howling is something that dogs still retain from their wolf origin not long ago
It is not unlikely that a pack of hunting dogs alone would howl occasionally
Despite yelling at them several times there was no yell back from a human. Very likely the dogs escape at night without anyone caring about it extremely dangerous and frightening to a hiker that need. Rest at night not the fright of a life time
I could not imagine that in a relatively rich country anyone ever would drive their dogs for a night hunt. Would be absolute insanity. Neglect and alcoholism depression (försupen dumhet Swedish) I can easily imagine. Not outright insanity. Even if night hunting permits are sometimes issued in Germany for "animal control" "population control" of wild pigs. This is a completely separate topic that I will not say more about than that I am working on these issues on and off. My view as a progressive world ambassador could not be further from the idea of shooting at anything anywhere for any reason. Except tranquilizer darts for humane population control of CAPTURED animals not hunted. Captured. It is clear in Sweden that shooting anything anywhere with fire arms does not belong in the future society. Now this is all I will say about this. We are working on this as fast as is possible. The education effort still left on this planet is still enormous and daunting
Regarding dog behaviour in detail I know very little despite inspecting a manuscript by the foremost scientist on the subject that work in Budapest that is most famous for working on the Philippine paradise fish ten years ago before they changed to dogs and removed their aquarium
Dogs in particular have very little room in the professional literature since most pros are not anthropo centric. All mammals share common traits like an early recognition of friend and foe. Dogs in particular has almost never been studied at least not dogs for guarding or hunting. There might be one single work perhaps by one single biologist or behaviour ist ethology biology for shepherds dogs that life with grazing livestock
All books cover territory selection and protection and pack hunting or other flock behaviour. But almost nothing has apparently been possible or interesting to anyone to publish as a professional seeking a career in science in ethology animal behaviour or population biology. so i am not the only one drawing a blank when trying to explain the behaviour with any satisfaction more than anecdotal that is hard to call science

what I experienced

A sudden bark that I expect to be a roe deer that bark and run away. happens all the time
Although the bark was not quite right. more like a dog which I have never encountered at night
Suddenly a roaring festival of barking and occasional howling
The distance is extremely uncertain but perhaps five hundred meters
The direction was towards road p111 to the east toeards Upsede. i am by the big tower. There is one house near the road that the dogs could belong to if they crossed p111
Now my primal instinct set in and I envision a pack, a large pack, of wolves near their den the core of their territory. Frothing over my intrusion and ready to approach in full alarm
In hindsight this is just the occasional howling that caused this and everything about this speaks against wolves
IF wolves can behave like this or has been observed or heard doing this in ANY circumstance whatsoever I absolutely need to hear about it because it would bear on my future expeditions
If there is this single wolf dog hybrid pack maybe only one in Europe that I happened to encounter I absolutely need more information. feral dogs that would possibly go unnoticed in Belarus has crossed over to Latvia?
I have never heard of anything like that
All wolf incidents as rare as they are in Poland or anywhere have been with lone wolves that are sick or hungry and have lost their feir of humans
I have never heard of an aggressive wolf pack in Europe or anywhere on the planet
I have seen wolf droppings so many times and spent so much time day and night in wolf territory that I would never expect them to be so aggressive about human scent or sound like that
I have certainly had wolves near me many times but never heard a peep. In Sweden and Norway on long expeditions all summer and even winter and on and off for years from Spain to France Belgium Germany Poland and now here in the Baltics for one month so far direction Finland
The pack was in full alarm with barking and an occasional howl that dogs will still use. But much less than wolves. Wolves never bark together like this in any circumstance I have ever heard it seen if
It is with near certainty the pack of dogs that have hunted there before that happens to live on the farm on the opposite side of the road and escaped west around thousand metres into the forest.
Perhaps they do this regularly but no one cares
And now I happened to be there
Hiking and trekking and wild camping is MUCH more common in Sweden and Norway than anywhere in the world even Finland that is a close second. It is the Scandinavian spirit. As has recently been proven paleo lithic pre farming humans breed into the farming population only in Scandinavian nowhere else in Europe. I am personally absolutely at peace in nature and hate combustion engines that bother few others
Without getting off track completely I am continuing my expedition around Europe and almost all ground breaking record breaking endeavour of exploration has come from Scandinavia specifically. First settlement of the new world five hundred years before another European country etc etc etc first man on the south pole endless list of did what no one else could ot would. I am not placing my breed on a pedestal just explaining that if anyone would encounter something like this most likely it would be a Swede and the locals are most likely entirely puzzled why I am not living my life in doors at home or in a comfortable guest house
But this is beside the point just a side track to explain my presence in this rare encounter

in hindsight what happened

It is clear to me now that a pack of large hunting dogs. Not the small loud ones. Tax in Swedish. I have never owned a dog or hunted. I am a scientist. So I don't know much of anything about dog breeds. But presumably Large dogs that can hunt and kill on their own that have been trained to not kill the prey but only stalk it or drive it and make a loud alarm to draw the apes (not condescending just scientific classification of my species)
This is all speculation I just can't imagine what I heard to be a pack of tax (Swedish) small rabbit hunting dogs. These were large animals certainly with courage to act alone without humans
But I don't know anything about common hunting dogs in this region or anywhere so I can't suggest what breed it could have been that could behave this way
When I yelled at them they silenced for a moment then the roar continued
They had no intention to move back. I called for a police to meet me on road p111 and moved. I could hear the dogs for one thousand metres which gave me the impression that they moved after me at a safe distance perhaps curious about what I was
Again. If wolves can ever in any circumstance behave with this curiosity or aggressive confidence on human scent AND loud roaring. I yelled at them as a three hundred kilos silver back gorilla would try to show how big and powerful he was. No wolves ever no matter how big their biggest packs are in Europe would do anything but withdraw. These animals stayed at a distance and gave me the impression that they followed me on the road even. But not close
Distance is extremely uncertain but my best guess would be five hundred meters
This location has been used before for hunting and these dogs have been released during supervised legal (presumably) hunting in this exact location
They have smelled or sensed a wild animal and followed it into the forest where they have hunted before

will anyone stop this. how common is this

The police said they would call the nearest farms and ask about their dogs and the hunters that set up the hunting towers there in that old railway road where the dogs live that they bring to hunt there
But unfortunately I don't expect them to do anything when the response is "I know nothing". This is obviously a massive incident since I told them I am a scientist that will likely enquire with other scientist and if they cover this up it will explode big time. this is not s minor incident
Jägarna is a popular Swedish movie about the sad reality of this kind of stuff. anything related to mis management with hunting or dogs is so deeply rooted in human behaviour since the stone age that the local police do anything they can to forget about it. "Probably just a barking deer" or "wolves are common in the forest" and might bark despite my sincere explanation that this is hunting dogs not wolves and carries a prison sentence if heard in front of a magistrate
if you imagine "i like logic circuit design" the absolute opposite is "i like dogs and hunting". it's as different as a von Neumann machine is from sticks and stones in technological achievement. and a massive education effort is still needed for that population should they not cause a complete collapse of civilization like 1930s Germany. you might like NATURE you certainly don't like fire arms or dogs. has nothing to do with investigating nature. it is not conscious behaviour. but only photographers and hunters visit nature? you are obviously not a scientist ("what is this?" looking at bowling ball in small Lebowskis bath room. "you are obviously not a golfer")
I don't expect them to even ask anyone and just hope I forgot about it or they never have any other hikers near that spot at night
The "police report" that I received when they returned from the spot I told them to investigate was exactly that "it was probably just a deer and now I will go home and sleep". that only told ne that the pack had moved or did not respond to a car or they went to the wrong place or most likely could not be less motivated to find them
I gave the female officer that spoke English a stern explanation what would happen in Sweden. Prison. Absolutely nothing else than prison. Grave negligence in dog oversight. No hunting license and no dogs for the rest of his life
This is extremely serious that this is seen as a minor mistake that hunting dogs are stalking wild animals alone at night. Only in Sweden do we understand clearly that HUMANS are in the forest at night sometimes. We have palaeolithic blood lines and the world's foremost paleo biologist among other things. I am a renowned explorer. My father and uncle is one of the world's foremost wildlife photographer for WWF NG etc. Wild life is strictly monitored and controlled and this kind of neglect is absolutely treated with utmost sincerity
Our society is not in a state of civil war. Escaped hunting dogs hunting alone at night. Prison. Period. And the local police that tries to suppress it or treat it with a yawn will be investigated by internal affairs and released from service and prohibited from similar work with a responsibility to investigate seriously
We in sweden have the most aggressive policy in the world to combat this suppression of neglect related to hunting from the local community or any kind of coverup attempt or failure to investigate serious neglect, crime or not, we are not "paragraph riders" (paragraf ryttare) we investigate serious problems. anyone can understand how serious this is before digging after paragraphs

more about dog behaviour in general that might be relevant

Regarding dogs that hunt alone. I will not name any names but I have met a couple that lived in a remote valley in Portugal where their two large extremely aggressive dogs (even after ten minutes they were extremely uncomfortable with my presence and would not listen to their owner's calm regarding my encounter near their caravan on Canary islands) hunt together and bring home food. Literally drag it home to the family. Needless to say they have no kids and I will not say more about it more than the point that large dogs can easily on their own learn to hunt wild game. Possibly several breeds. They are still all close relatives of animals that do exactly that to survive. Guard territory identify intruder stalk and hunt prey is their basic behaviour anything else would result from actively counter acting instinctive behaviour that has become common to convert security staff patrol units and killers to social support animals because morons absolutely need to own a dog
Recall that in less developed countries like Chile dogs bark all night EVERYWHERE and run free in the day
I was in Chile for six months and never encountered dogs at night but had to suffer through the incessant noise if "guarding" at night. EVERYONE has night guard dogs. it is completely incomprehensible if you ever passed first grade with honours that they blindly follow a relict tradition for no other reason. Those dogs are GUARD dogs that have no experience of hunting ever. And when they encounter a human in the forest during their daily adventure they are never aggressive that far away from home
In western Europe outside Spain almost never dogs that bark all night. Same in Latvia. Two weeks in Lithuania don't think I ever heard a dog at night. A welcome serenity from Chile that I just arrived from after completing my record breaking expedition there

Good thing: I passed UP Los Banos for BS Bio. 2 Bad things: My fam can't afford for me to go to UPLB and I'm a dumbass that failed to register and take DOST-SEI scholarship that would've increased my chances of going to LB-- and by also doing sidejobs.
So I'm left with two options: I either go to MSU-IIT and take BS Microbiology or maybe transfer my slot to UPMin and take BS Biology.
For Context: I'm a dood that lives in Iligan City. In all things financially practical, my ass should just be going to MSU-IIT. "But did I really just review and take UPCAT for UP for nothing?" is an infuriating question that keeps popping in my mind every single time that I reminisce about the fact that I'm 95% likely going to IIT. Now, I don't really have anything against IIT. In fact, my old man who's a professor highly suggests that I just go to IIT since, according to him, the quality of education compared to LB is really just about the same.
I interviewed 4 alumnis from our school who are now currently studying in LB regarding the costs they have to pay every month while in UP. The general estimate is that they use up around P8-10k per month, maybe sometimes more, which includes their rent, food, and all that.
My family isn't rich or poor; we're middle class. I live with my grandma in Iligan, while my old man, my only parent, lives in Bukidnon along with our stepfamily. He works to feed my stepfamily over there while also building a house. He actually loaned quite a lot of money from the bank for their house which is still not completed. He currently can't support me due to his loans.
I want the take my opportunity to UP so I tried to find ways to support myself and not bother them while I go to UP. I don't think UPLB is possible even if I take jobs so that's out of the table, but I actually found out that you can transfer your slot to UPMin from my friend who passed UPLB but was DPWAS. He showed me a Google Form sent by the UPadmissions and then, to my surprise, BS Bio was available. I talked to a relative who once did sidejobs while studying in IIT that maybe I could do sidejobs to support myself in UPMin. We talked a bit about jobs and what sites to go to, and she encouraged me to go to UPMin. My thought process with the costs for UPMin is that it should be much lower compared to LB since it's not Manila area.
I introduced the idea of going to UPMin to my old man but he slanders UPMin and calls it a joke compared to IIT, saying that he's never heard anything from that campus, and he's never heard or seen anyone getting hired as a graduate from there? (what). He also states that IIT is a CoE, College of Excellence, in Biology while UPMin is just a CoD, College of Development.
I want to go to UPMin since it's UP and also because I'd also be with my doods but is it wise to go there or am I just very stupid?

This story was inspired by the following prompt: https://www.reddit.com/humansarespaceorcs/comments/1cqvbwk/humans_are_known_for_building_veryvery_large/
General Kim was awakened from a sound slumber by klaxons. Years of military training kicked in and he was out of bed in record time. Checking the data pad briefly while pulling on his uniform he saw something terrifying.
“Attack in progress. Launch in 10:34.”
An attack? Who? Where? How? What kind? General Kim was soon out the door to his quarters. He was at his battle bridge before the launch countdown had reached 10:00. Similar scenes were playing out throughout the ship, as generals checked in with their battle bridge statuses.
In the ship’s primary bridge, two kilometers from General Kim, Admiral Sol looked at her command display with satisfaction. 100% readiness in less than two minutes. She was pleased. She addressed the 10,000 soul the crew over the PA system. “An allied colony is under attack by enemies unknown. Wormhole travel will take approximately twenty minutes and thirty-four seconds. Prepare for battle.”
General Kim scrolled through the scant field assessment data. There wasn’t much. A large multi-species colony was being bombarded from orbit. No signs of enemy ground forces. The primary wormhole comms array was out, but an old Subspace system was still functional after 120 years of dormancy. “And THAT,” said General Kim, “is what preventative maintenance is for.”
“General, sir?”
“Sorry. Just thinking out loud. Their W23 system is down but they’re still in touch using an SB-Class 3.”
“I think I’ve seen one of those in a museum!”
“Our grandparents saw them in museums. You make do on the rim.”
Launch and wormhole transit went off with clockwork precision. Soon, the ship exited its artificial wormhole. It was immediately bombarded by the unknown hostiles. Explosions of varying kinds went off on the ship’s hull, ripping gashes in her armor.
“Damage report?” Admiral Sol asked.
“Ablative armor at 97%. No other damage reports.”
“Excellent. Inform me when the preliminary weapons analysis is in.”
Meanwhile, the Admiral's counterpart in the invading fleet, Imperial Agent Skrald, was still screaming, “What is that THING?”
“I’ve seen moons smaller than that ship,” said one of his lieutenants.
“We have to have a record of it. You can’t build something that big in complete secrecy!”
“Imperial Agent Skrald, I think it’s the, “Blade of Scoth.”
“That ship’s an old myth! It can’t possibly-“
“We've carved a notch!”
“Send the biggest we’ve got,” the Skrald replied.
A “notch” was a divot in the ship’s hull of the right shape to prevent weapons files from glancing off the armor.
“We’re being hailed, sir!”
“Tell them we don’t talk to burnt food and end the transmission,” the Admiral replied.
Imperial Agent Skrald watched with glee as the missile made contact with the notch and detonated.
On her ship, Admiral Sol asked for another damage report.
“Lower-port ablative armor section 374 at 40%, pinata layer is fully exposed.
“Can it take another direct hit?”
“It was only a gigaton blast. One more should make a perfect crack.”
“Excellent. Order the candy away from the blast point just to be safe.”
“Already done ma'am.”
“Make a note to find out who gave that order so I can commend them on their quick-thinking.”
“Yes Admiral.”
While the invading fleet pivoted their attention to the new ship, a second Terran vessel, the “Rule of Two Rogers” exited its artificial wormhole on the far side of the planet. A swarm of smaller craft flowed from the ship into the atmosphere below.
Imperial Agent Skrald, ignorant of the “Rule of Two Rogers,” was shouting with excitement. “Hit it again! Fire another!” The second missile flew through space, connecting with the underlayer exposed by the last missile. At first, it looked like the ship was spewing out debris, but the debris started flying in formations and shooting at his ships.
On the human ship, the Admiral smiled with satisfaction as she heard the report, “Piñata 86 has been breached. The candy is flowing. I repeat, the candy is flowing.”
“All stations, fire at will,” she replied.
The eyes of Imperial Agent Skrald opened wide as the surface of the massive ship lit up with a multicolored array of missiles, lasers, torpedos, and something that seemed to fire AFTER destroying one of his ships.
“It’s a rainbow of death,” he said, shocked into immobility by the way his fleet was being erased. He came back to his senses when his ship was rocked by debris impact from his erstwhile fleet.
“It’s too big to land!” He yelled. “All ships to the surface! I repeat, all ships retreat to the surface!”
The debris tore off one of his ship’s nacelles. “Did we need that to land?” He yelled.
“Only to get home sir,” an officer replied.
“Good.”
Admiral Sol watched the battle with satisfaction. This was the Blade of Scoth’s first battle in over 100 years. As a descendant of the famous Ambasador Sol, she took her guardianship of the BoS very seriously. A report came up on her screen. The hostiles had been identified. It was one of the Naga Imperium factions, or they were at least using the faction’s ships, weapons and known tactics. “Bastards,” she muttered.
“Admiral?” Lieutenant Cutter said.
“Analysis says it’s the ‘Naga Imperium of the Bone.’ The colony's 20% Naga. They’re slaughtering their own. Have we established direct contact with the colony yet?”
“Not yet Admiral. They don’t seem to have any short-range communications working. We’re still limited to what’s coming over their old subspace system.”
On the planet below, Sally McCool, a Naga hatched and raised in the colony, like her parents and grandparents before her, looked to the night sky. The missiles had come down, glowing brightly as the stars before they impacted. Now, the bright glowing objects had become larger, but many were breaking up and vanishing into nothing. Were these larger bombs, or was the enemy tumbling out of space?
She watched with growing horror as one approached the ground near the south okra field. She took a deep breath, and braced herself to be vaporized by whatever was about to land. Unable to watch, she curled into a ball on the ground, hoping death would be quick. She expected a nuclear flash, obliteration before hearing the blast. Instead, she heard a massive crash, crumpling metal and exploding components, and a long grinding sound as something huge cut into the soil. A rain of stones and soil covered her.
Sally looked up, and took several seconds to process what she was seeing. It hadn’t been a bomb. It had been a ship, and it had just crashed into one of their fields, carving a huge channel as it ground to a halt. A cloud of smoke was rising. Suddenly, a disk-shaped ship shot through the cloud of smoke. She recognized it from her history classes and old war movies. A flying saucer, painted with concentric circles of red, white, and blue. It was a Steve. A Steve class fighter. They were special. Why were they special?
Another saucer flew overhead. This one was red and yellow.
Sally remembered why the Steve battle saucers were special. They were exclusive to a ship called “The Rule of two Rogers.” The Steves were for battle, and this red and gold ship, as it landed she remembered, “It’s a Fred!” She yelled. She waved her arms, calling out to the ship. “We have injured! We have injured!” The side of the saucer opened up, and a multi-species crew of medics poured out.
While medics swarmed the colony providing aid, the best day of Skrald’s life had turned into the worst in a matter of minutes. He looked around his battered bridge. Even the emergency lighting could only manage flickering glimpses of the sparking wreckage around him. The only functional display was informing him the sewage system had ruptured and was pouring into what remained of the ventilation system.
“Is anyone else alive?”
“I TOLD you it was the Blade of Scoth you idiot!”
Skrald straightened his posture as much as the sharp pains in his abdomen would allow. “How DARE you speak to a member of the Imperium that way! I’ll eat you myself for that!”
“Good luck with that. I’m surrendering to the colony.”
“THEY’LL EAT YOUR FLESH AND MAKE SHOES FROM YOUR HIDE!”
“How’s that any better than you eating me?”
Outraged at the insolence, Skrald lunged in the direction of the taunting underling, smashing his snout against a hunk of metal he hadn’t noticed in the dim, flickering light.
Hours later, sunrise came to the battered colony. Most of the fires in the colony proper had been put out, but some of the Naga wreckage was still burning bright. Emergency contamination domes had been put up over the upwind wrecks, to contain as much of the toxic smoke as possible.
General Kim was on the ground, commanding the cleanup crews from both ships. He’d taken a brief break from those responsibilities to speak to one of the captured Naga.
“The guy in the fanciest duds tried to eat you when we took you into custody. Why?”
“I used to be a pilot,” she said. “Until that moron weaseled himself into enough power to do THIS!” She opened up her arms, as if to gesture at everything around her. “The only reason I’m even here is because I objected to this madness. That royal waste of scales wanted to personally mock me when he won. He even put that in writing on the paperwork for my ‘Away Without Leave’ warrant.”
“Weren’t you on his bridge?”
“Yes. You look confused, or at least that’s what my translator is telling me about your expression.”
“I don’t have a lot of combat experience. Nobody does these days, but hand-picking someone for your bridge crew because they have no confidence in you sounds like a bad idea to me.”
“This whole mission was nothing but bad ideas.”
“Please, tell me more.”
Meanwhile, in the darkness of space, a third ship of Capybara / Human design moved silent and unseen. Complex sensor arrays had been tracing the path the invaders had taken, seeking their origin. Data flowed in on interstellar communications problems, often evidence of ships passing though communications tunnels. The Starship Peggy Carter and her crew were on the trail, and the ship had a reputation to uphold. Latin mottos had fallen out of favor decades before she was built, so her motto was written in English.
“Those we fail to defend, we will avenge.”