Hi, I’m here to obviously vent. I’d like to call out people who peeve me out on YouTube. So I’m gonna list it out. If you disagree, that is fine. Just going to list things that make me MAD. Get my itches itchy. Make my boots timber. Not directed to anybody except people who do this, if you do this, please take time to realize…Anyway. Obviously don’t go harassing people who do this. This is just my pet peeve.

1 - People who comment first who aren’t actually first and second commenters. Nobody cares that you’re first or second like? Please leave. Why do you feel the need to address the fact that you’re first? Do you want love? Likes? It’s not working, for me at least.

2 - People who thank people…on YouTube for their likes. If this is you, please don’t do this. People who say, ‘MAMA IM FAMOUS’, ‘Thx for the likes!!’, or ‘Never got this many likes before.’ Please stop. I don’t care whether you got that amount before or not! Don’t thank me, thank your humor or people liking what you said. These people genuinely annoy me, if this is you… I’ve already unlike your comment.

3 - People who don’t quote a video correctly. You just watched the video. The person in the video literally said “I like baking eggs and ham” then you’re going to comment with a quote talking about “They really said ‘I like eggs, bacon, and sausage.’ 🤣” Where did you hear that? They did not say that! Are you delusional? Maybe.

4 - People who feel the need to be inspirational. Sir, this is a video for people to vent. We don’t need you, Sherlock, to tell me “it’ll all get better.” IVE BEEN LIKE THIS FOR YEARS. NOT YET IN THERAPY. Plus, people know it’ll get better and if they don’t, oh well, who are you? Can I just have a bad day? Get out, dude.

5 - People who self-censor themselves. They will not always delete your comment. “I don’t give a shitacobeanthethirdonlyfansinthecourtoksoboom about this video.” Please stop. Especially if they do ‘sh#t’. LEAVE.

6 - People who are obviously bots or trying to promote their channel. People who say “I am better than this YouTuber.” Like if you were, I would be watching you, wouldn’t I? Your channel sucks. I’ve watched a lot of your videos and the fact you’re commenting on someone else’s channel to promote yours…how low can you go?

7 - “Don’t read my channel name.” I’ve read it, now what? I read the banner, I’ve read the video, I’ve clicked the link, now I’m in clarity. You’re still not getting a sub, you wreck.

8 - People who obviously copied the comment from somewhere else, using the same joke that everybody in the comment section is using or trying to act original. Those people make me mad. We’ve seen the same people use this same joke. You are not like them. We know it’s stolen, stop trying to be funny with that lame copied joke. Be creative.

9 - People who use ‘Bro’ in their comment, expecting it to be funny because it word for their little brother. No, bro did not think he was flying. It was joke. OR people who correct others grammar.

Lastly…

10 - The WHOOOSH community of YouTube. People who get offended, correct grammar. Like get a load of Mr. Fucking grammar police! Promise to say You’re next time! When you learn to have a laugh, you will be happy.

Anyhow, that’s it! Good day and if you’re on this list, have the day you deserve.
Tl;Dr: people who feel the need not to read the entire thing. 🫵🏽

Hi all,
I was diagnosed about 2 years ago and was put on Lamictal (titrated up to 200 mg pretty quickly) and have been on it ever since. I was also in therapy at the time of diagnosis and stopped therapy a few months ago due to my therapist being the absolute worst. The psychiatrist who diagnosed me actually passed away shortly after my diagnoses (she was very young it was unexpected and very sad) so I have been seeing someone else for the last few months, who is now also no longer able to treat me.
The Lamictal was a godsend for so much time and recently the last month or 2 I just have not felt like myself at all, I feel depressed and gross and nothing is making me happy anymore. Also gaining a lot of weight which is contributing to the depression. Now I am in the process of finding a new psychiatrist which is a nightmare as it is but I also know I need to find a new therapist because that may be contributing to the depression (not talking to someone regularly).
Sidenote: I was also diagnosed with anxiety and ADHD but was only prescribed Lamictal to treat everything all together.
Im wondering if anyone has experience with building a tolerance to the meds if that could be it? Or the lack of therapy? Im just at a loss and I don’t really want to jump to change my medication because Lamictal has done wonders for me thus far. Although thinking of asking to be put on wellbutrin in addition from my next psychiatrist so that I can lose weight and hopefully curb the depression as well. (Would they let me make suggestions like that? How do I basically ask to be put on a medication?)
Any insight or advice is much appreciated ❤️ losing myself here a little bit :(

What it says in the title, with some additional details: we try to see our dad at least once a week (Mexican Family, lots of drama in the last few years, we're trying our best to stay close to each other) but he lives 2hrs away by highway. It's pretty common we get the weekends off, so we try to meet up at our dad's every other week, and then our dad comes to our city on the other weeks. This has worked out more or less for a while, until recently.
I drive for work, so driving long distances doesn't bother me, but my younger brother stays exclusively in our shared city because of his fear of driving on the highway. For context, he drives like 5-10 miles UNDER the speed limit in our smaller city (20k pop, nowhere above 45MPH). It's frustrating being in the passenger seat. I feel like his chauffer fairly often.
So, my work schedule has changed and now the weekend doesn't work for ME to drive LilBro. He now doesn't see Dad as often (I see Dad during the week on my free days) and it's annoying the HELL out of me that he simply REFUSES to drive on the highway. I can't even trust him to get me if my car breaks down the next town over.
He's autistic with a fair amount of anxiety, and he won't go to a therapist because of some shit he's heard from YouTubers he follows. How do I get him to either go to therapy or drive on the highways?

She’s been working with them for years now and have continuously been told about how problematic of a company they are and yet she still works with them. The company literally had multiple lawsuits against it for giving poounethical advice, charging people for things they didn’t order, misleading people with its services and underpaying therapists. It’s not therapy, it’s just buying generic advice. They don’t even use betterhelp themselves bc they probably know how bad it is yet they’ll happily promote it to their young and impressionable fans. and the fact Jess is deleting comments from her own fans about how unethical the company is just shows how really too faced and fake she is. I have nothing against influencers working with brands but cmon don’t work with a brand like this! I’ll take a million CoPilot, AG1 and thredup ads over this any day! I actually follow 2 other YouTubers who have openly said that they regret working with betterhelp and that they didn’t know that it was that bad at the time- if only Jess had the decency to do that!

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Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS)

Chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS), often known as ME/CFS, has a broad spectrum of symptoms that persist a long period. It is determined by basic signs and criteria. Post-exertional malaise (PEM), substantial impairment in capacity to accomplish tasks that were typical before the illness, and sleep issues are some of the key symptoms of Chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS) .
Orthostatic intolerance (difficulty sitting and standing) and cognitive issues. Long-lasting discomfort and a broad spectrum of body systems are also frequent symptoms.
The reason is unknown, however it might be due to metabolic, genetic, viral, or physical or psychological stress. For lack of a universal diagnostic test, the diagnosis is figured by symptoms.
A person with CFS becomes weary from working hard, and it doesn't get better when they rest. Many conditions cause fatigue, but none cause the amount of tiredness and functioning issues found in CFS.
Many individuals with CFS may improve with time, but many will remain unwell and incapacitated for a long period. No authorised therapies or medications for the underlying cause. Instead, treatment aims to alleviate distressing symptoms.
The CDC (Centers for Disease Control and Prevention) recommends pacing (personal activity management) to prevent symptoms from worsening. Some patients may benefit with Rinatolimod (a medication intended for treatment of chronic fatigue syndrome ), psychotherapy, and tailored activity management, however research is limited.
It affects 1% of persons who see their doctor regularly, although the figure fluctuates since epidemiological studies define the disorder differently. According to official estimates, CFS affects 836,000-2.5 million Americans and 250,000-1,250,000 Britons.
Women have CFS at a rate of 1-2% higher than males. Most individuals acquire it between 40 and 60. Even youngsters may be affected. The prevalence of CFS in children is unknown, however it is thought to be about 0.5 percent. One of the most prevalent reasons students miss class is chronic fatigue syndrome.
CFS affects one's health, happiness, and productivity, as well as loneliness and alienation. However, several aspects of the illness remain unclear. Disability is diagnosed and treated by doctors, researchers, and others. The evidence for the causes and therapies isn't always consistent.

Common Symptoms

The CDC (Centers for Disease Control and Prevention) proposes the following diagnostic criteria for unwell people:

• Ability to perform things before the sickness. Weariness follows a decline in activity. It must last six months.
• Symptoms worsen if you do anything little before the condition. Exercise may make you sick, and the symptoms generally appear 12 to 48 hours later. Some term it a "crash," although it might last a long time. Also known as Post-exercise malaise (PEM).
• Sleep problems make it difficult to remain awake, fall asleep, or stay asleep.
• Memory and reasoning are poor (cognitive dysfunction, sometimes described as "brain fog")
• Standing or sitting upright may cause dizziness, weakness, fainting, or visual issues (orthostatic intolerance)

While other common symptoms may occur that not all ME/CFS people report
People who have a cold or the flu can have pain in their muscles, joints, and neck or armpits.
People who have a sore throat, irritable bowel syndrome, a cold, or night sweats, as well as people who have allergies and sensitivities to food and other things, can have a hard time breathing.

Functional Capacity of a Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Diagnosed Patient

People with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome can accomplish many things. Many individuals with CFS live regular lives, while others are bedridden and unable of self-care. Most CFS patients must miss job, school, and family time for a lengthy period.
Men and women have the same symptoms and limitations, and many suffer from severe chronic pain. Inactivity is blamed for this. The complexity of things has also changed.
AIDS causes as much agony and anguish as lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, COPD, and end-stage renal failure. Even while major conditions like multiple sclerosis, congestive heart failure, or type 2 diabetes exist, CFS has a greater effect on a person's capacity to function and well-being.
Symptoms go in and out of remission, making treatment difficult. People who feel better may overexert themselves, causing worsening symptoms and relapse of their disease. A percent of persons with CFS are permanently housebound or bedridden for years. An illness that prevents around 75% of them from working.
More over half of them were on disability or sick leave, and just a fifth worked full-time. Children with CFS are the major cause for absenteeism.
The quality-of-life questionnaire found that patients with CFS had reduced "vitality," "physical functioning," "general health," "physical role," and "social functioning." However, CFS patients' "role emotional" and "mental health" subscales were identical to or slightly lower than healthy people's. Every year, the US spends a lot of money on healthcare.

Cognitive Dysfunction of a Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Diagnosed Patient

Cognitive Dysfunction is one of the most devastating aspects of CFS, affecting people's ability to work and interact. It's estimated that 50-80% of CFS sufferers experience cognitive issues. Problems with attention, memory, and reaction time are typical cognitive symptoms.
Measured cognitive abilities are lacking, which may impair everyday living. For example, they make more errors, forget things, and have problems responding when spoken to.
In addition, activities requiring long-term working memory are slower. These defects generally support up the patient's views. As far as I can see, your ability to move swiftly, think clearly, and talk clearly hasn't altered.
People with poor health were more likely to report cognitive issues. People with CFS who could accomplish more physically had less visual perception and language processing issues.
Several reasons may be at play when it comes to disparities between what individuals claim they are and what they really are. It's difficult to compare participants' cognitive capacities before and after illness since there aren't any measures that accurately evaluate CFS's distinctive cognitive impairments.
CFS patients have higher neuropsychiatric and cognitive symptoms than non-CFS patients. The cause is unclear. Many theories exist to explain why cognitive symptoms and illness coexist.
Some experts believe psychological factors contribute to or cause the disease. Others believe the sickness generates physiological and social changes that manifest as symptoms.

Therapies Known to Have Worked with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

The CDC says talking to a therapist may help patients cope with their conditions. Counseling and behavioural treatments may benefit some patients, but they may not enhance their quality of life, according to a 2015 NIH analysis.
This means that these treatments should not be utilised alone, but rather as part of a larger strategy. The same article claims that therapy may help with weariness, function, and overall improvement. However, these methods have been understudied in several CFS patient subgroups. Those who had psychotherapy or behavioral treatment reported few unpleasant side effects.
IOM 2015 study indicates it's unclear whether Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) assists persons with cognitive disorders. It's unclear why CBT is used to help patients feel better about their illness. A 2014 research found little indication that CBT participants were more active.
The authors claim that those who received CBT were adjusting to the condition rather than improving.
Patient organisations have long opposed CBT as a CFS treatment. Also questioned is the model's explanation The MEA studied 493 CBT patients in the UK in 2012.
Due to the findings of this research, the MEA concluded in 2015 that CBT should not be the principal therapy for CFS. There's a "false model of causality," says Dr. Charles Shepherd, a MEA medical adviser. This paradigm ignores the wide range of clinical manifestations and illness processes that fall within the ME/CFS umbrella.
A 2019 research of ME/CFS patients in the UK revealed that CBT didn't help for over half of them, and that Graded Exercise Therapy made most individuals worse.

Okay friends. My biopsy one year ago, said that I did not have lichen sclerosis, but it was dermatitis. I have been treated with every single medication you can think of for dermatitis, including biologicals, pills, injections, creams, ointments, you name it I have tried it. I have redness between my labia, but no white patches no itching. The red patches do not burn and they do not hurt to touch, but my entire vulva burns if I put on clothes that are snug against my body, and I commonly burn down the back of my legs to my knees and in both butt cheeks. I have now found that I have nerves in my back that may be causing some back problems, and I am wondering if that is causing any of this. Now I have the option to choose a nerve block in my back, or nerve block for pudendal nerves and I don’t know what to do. I have been doing internal pelvic physical therapy, but I honestly don’t have any issues internally. It doesn’t hurt internally sex does not hurt tampons do not hurt. I feel like it’s a mystery and I need it solved. Anybody got any advice or stories from their own?

Okay friends. My biopsy one year ago, said that I did not have lichen sclerosis, but it was dermatitis. I have been treated with every single medication you can think of for dermatitis, including biologicals, pills, injections, creams, ointments, you name it I have tried it. I have redness between my labia, but no white patches no itching. The red patches do not burn and they do not hurt to touch, but my entire vulva burns if I put on clothes that are snug against my body, and I commonly burn down the back of my legs to my knees and in both butt cheeks. I have now found that I have nerves in my back that may be causing some back problems, and I am wondering if that is causing any of this. Now I have the option to choose a nerve block in my back, or nerve block for pudendal nerves and I don’t know what to do. I have been doing internal pelvic physical therapy, but I honestly don’t have any issues internally. It doesn’t hurt internally sex does not hurt tampons do not hurt. I feel like it’s a mystery and I need it solved. Anybody got any advice or stories from their own?

So this is gonna be a long one. My ex and I legally divorced many years ago, finally, after she got pregnant with another man's kid. Someone who she had been dating for 2 months. It was a rough marriage, but also one I dragged out, badly not wanting to put our children through a divorce. I had a hard time letting her go, as she was my first relationship. I had a full-time job that required extensive commitment and required much of my time. Luckily, my job was flexible, and I was able to watch my kids while my then-wife would run off for weeks at a time, going to parties, doing drugs and, unbeknownst to me, having intimate relationships with other men and women. I realize how this sounds, but she was pretty open about drugs and partying, making it seem like a life crisis. And here's the kicker: she told everyone that we were in an "open relationship", a term I was too nieve to have heard of, and which her friends took at face value. It made her friends less likely to talk to me, thinking I was some weirdo. She was literally often times gone for WEEKS at a time. And when she's come back, she'd clear out the bank account. When we separated, it was because she left me and our two kids to move in with her "new boyfriend", which lasted for a few months. Long enough to be considered abandonment. Then it was move, move, move, until she got together with her new boyfriend, who knocked her up. I tried to give her a fair custody deal, in part because I was stupid, and in part because I was led to believe that, as the mother, she had a huge advantage with custody over me. For years and years, my ex-wife moved from place to place, taking advantage of me and badmouting me and screwing with me at every possible oppertunity. A few years back, there was an incident where she was convicted of abusing our children, leaving many physical markings on our son, who was 5 at the time. In exchange for her completing anger management and parenting classes, I didn't press for full custody. Now, years later, she started telling my son that she didn't commit the abuse, and that she didn't deserve to be on the child abuse registry. She moved in with her sister in November, then got kicked out in January. It was around that time that my son confided in me that, 1.) His mom didnt deserve to be on the child abuse registry, as she "didnt do it", and that 2.) I was the one who caused our relationship to go south, by avoiding my parental responsibilities, going out and partying, yadda yadda. Basically all the shit she did to me. In fact, I was trying to make money and be a full-time dad for our two kids, while she ran off and did these things to me. We are now in a place of her trying to go after full custody, and her trying to poison and twist the minds of our children. This has gotten much worse since she was ordered to pay $200~some~odd a month for child support, because the Court has a requirement that someone pay when the kids are on state assistance. The amount was significantly less because the Court had to impute my income. Since June of 2023, when I got diagnosed with a rare autoimmune disease that goes after my brain, I have had $0 in income. It's a hard disease to diagnose, but Ive gotten several second opinions, had eight MRIs, and all the experts agree: I have multiple sclerosis. My income was imputed at over $9,000 a month, while U survive off the generosity of my family. The only drama I have with them is related to how I used to defend my ex wife and let her walk all over everyone. Previously, I supported my family through hard work, bringing in, maximum, around $1500 to $2500 a month, but have struggled to get back to the point where I can work. Disability is no help, they just keep denying me. They don't want to hear about a 29-year-old with ongoing massivr fatigue problems. The Court tells me I need to be on Disability to have my income adjusted. I think my ex-wife is drugging one or both of my kids, possibly through second-hand cannabis use, but am legitimately scared to make such a claim. Every time someone has made a claim against her, it's come back to royally bite them in the ass, somehow. Meanwhile, she refuses to hold down a job, despite having a perfect-working immune system and seemingly unlikited energy, and now that she's been ordered to pay child support, the parental alienation has increased 10-fold, with my kids coming home three out of four weekends (her timr) needing to be "reset". They cuss and swear at me, as their mom has "no rules". I'm at a loss, what do you do in this sort of situation? I do have an attorney, who told me he doesn't think she'll ever be able to get 50/50, but I still worry about this, to the level of it effecting friendships and relationships with my family. I seriously have people that hate me because I put up with her. And I try, so hard, to be a good dad,, and to be always fair and not to crap-talk this woman. And with a few nasty lies, their mother seems to just uproot and wash away everything I've done, like it was nothing. It's just so defeating. They're six and ten, and I got on the most stable drug I possibly could, and have been working with physical therapy trying to get back with it. The drug I'm on doesn't make flu or covid more severe or risky, specifically because my favorite little human petri dishes are very likely to bring something home.I have no history with drugs or alcohol, or any criminal record. My name certainly isn't on the abuse registry, and I havent had an issue with CPS since I was married. I cannot tell you how many times I went out of my way, on my own dime, to provide two-way transportation to foster the relationship between these kids and their mother, believing it was best for them. I thought, maybe, eventually, she'd grow up and be a mom. For a while, I believed she was. All the while, I gave her money for food, a few times for rent, new car parts, installed by me, appliances hauled and paid for and installed, by me, trying to just help her out. All this only to find out years later that despite her not having these kids hardly at all, she was claiming that they lived with her full-time to get more assistance, and even today, she is the same crap-talking liar I had only previously seen glimpses of. After my son told me what his mother had said, I requested a copy of the previous abuse record from CPS, and come to find out, not only did she refuse the free parenting and anger management classes she was offered, even though we agreed she would take them, but she also tried to say that I left the markings on the children when CPS investigated, amongst other games. Our youngest corroborated the story perfectly to the CPS investigator at the time, according to the report, which concretely confirmed the details. After their mother refused classes, CPS ended up adding her name to the naughty list of child abusers. I strongly no longer believe that her having custody time at all is best for the children. What would you do, or have you done in a similar situation? What pitfalls do I need to avoid or not see coming? Additionally, how do you go about secretly drug testing your 10-year-old? Is there a more obvious answer? I am currently custodial, at about 80/20, with many times where she didnt take them during her time, but I fear what's in store for these kids in the coming months, when we transition to the usual 50/50 during the summer. Thanks for reading, and in advance for any advice!!

I have a hard time coming to terms with my diagnosis, despite all the evidence to the contrary. If you met me, you would never know I'm bipolar. Nobody does. I'm ambitious and my life is "together."
Last year I (29f) started experiencing rapid mood cycling like never before. I impulsively ended a bad relationship, lost a lot of weight, had classic bipolar rage, hypersexulization, dramatic energy fluctuations, did things that weere out of chatacter, and toward the end I did feel paranoid and heard sounds. Often, i was in a state of sadness.
But at the same time, I kept moving forward in life. I felt like I couldn't trust myself but on the outside, everything was fine and nobody was worried about me.
I would have done anything for the cycling to end. I got diagnosed and put on Lamictal, which wasn't a fit for me. My psych then wanted to try an antipsychotic plus some diabetes medication to prevent the weight gain side effect. It all felt like too much. I'm not up for the trial and error. Since then, I've spent 6 months depressed and off meds. Gained all weight back.
Also, the start of all this cycling can be traced to a time when my schedule changed suddenly. Now I know better.
I've gotten into therapy again and am committed this time because I don't want to live like this. I feel like I'm wasting my life being depressed.
Today my therapist said if I'm going to manage this holistically I need to learn how to offset hypomania when it comes on. Typically I just try to enjoy the ride because it's a relief from the depression and I feel I'm a better version of myself in most cases, last year being a dysphoric exception.
I never really do anything too crazy so it's hard to see the harm in it. She told me all about the damage it can cause overtime, which I've heard about and emphasized that I need to let it go or it will get worse. This is a hard pill to swallow, I don't want to subdue it if I'm lucky enough to feel energetic and sociable and productive.
I dont really have a specific question. I don't know where to start. I guess I'm wondering if anyone can relate to this high functioning spectrum of bipolar and feeling like medication is not the way for you and worried if you'll ever feel good again without mania.

Hello,
I'm going through the book 'The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook' for anxiety-related reasons. I just finished the chapter that deals with radical acceptance, and I'm having an issue understanding how it would work in a few real-life scenarios. Here are three that are on my mind:
If someone is born into horrendous poverty without adequate socioeconomic supports in a very inequal society, would radical acceptance necessitate accepting that fact (and the pain that comes with such an existence) instead of seeking to change it because you had no control over being born into poverty? Would it rule out advocating and pushing for greater equality and less poverty in society through political efforts by people in poverty? Or am I not understanding radical acceptance correctly?
TW: Another scenario that comes to mind: there was a news article a while back that I read dealing with a woman who suffered from severe multiple sclerosis. Despite seeking the best treatment in existence, her illness continued to cause deterioration of bodily functions and movement over a long period of time, to the point that she couldn't breathe without mechanical assistance. Ultimately, she chose to travel to Switzerland to seek assisted dying on the basis of MS (even though it wasn't technically terminal) instead of continuing to live with the illness. Would the correct decision be to live with such an illness and learn to accept it with the pain and suffering it brings instead of making the choice that the woman did if one were to apply the practice of radical acceptance?
Lastly: how would radical acceptance be applicable if someone's in an abusive relationship that they couldn't leave? Accept it as it is without making an effort to leave such a relationship?
Thanks for the input.

I am not The OOP, OOP is u/lolfuckno.
This post was originally posted to weddingshaming.
There was already a BoRU post by u/autochthonouschimera, which didn't include the last update yet.
TRIGGER WARNING: cheating, child neglect, extreme entitledness, talk of abortion
MOOD SPOILERS: infuriating, confusing, frustrating
The new update at the bottom of this post has been marked with --- ---
Original story was posted on December 7, 2021
Okay, so this girl I know from high school is getting married. We're both 22, for reference. In our senior year of high school she got pregnant, with baby daddy A who will be referred to as Adam. Her super conservative parents kicked her out and she ended up moving in with a friend's family. She barely graduated high school. The only reason she did were because of the generosity and support of our teachers and students who volunteered to help her, which is how we met. We were in the same law class in the morning and she had the worst morning sickness that really affected her ability to be in class. So, I took extra notes for her, tutored her, and brought her her stuff if she hadn't come back by the bell. I wasn't the only one who did stuff like this for her and I know she really appreciates all the assistance we gave her. She had the baby a month after we graduated.
She'd signed up for a 911 dispatcher course for after high school because where we live it's a good steady job, with opportunity for certificates and promotions. But she didn't realize how intensive the course would be and had to drop out. She started working at a grocery store bakery, just until she had a better plan. Adam started an apprenticeship while working part time at a hockey rink, and proposed to her literally the day of her eighteenth birthday, and brought up marriage because "it's the right thing to do" (I don't really agree with that but this isn't about me) and she was always refusing.
She started cheating on him after a while (we're all 19 now), and eventually leaves him for another guy because... She's pregnant again and it is far more likely that this guy, baby daddy B who will be referred to as Brad, is the father of the child. Neither of them can afford lawyers so getting any kind of custody agreement is a mess, and then their parents got involved and they did 50/50 split (still not made official). She has the baby, that does turn out to be Brad's, and everything is okay for about nine months, when she finds out Brad has been cheating on her with his TA. Brad decides to pay child support but doesn't really want contact with the kid, only around holidays and one weekend a month for his parents' sake.
She moves back in with her parents (we're all 20 now) who only accept her back because there's grandchildren around. On the plus side, (when she's 21) she gets to take that year long dispatcher course, and passes with flying colours!
After working as a dispatcher for a year (we're all 22 now) she meets a police officer we'll call Chad, who's 26 and married... And Adam's second (?) cousin (I can't remember how they're related, just that Adam and Chad are related somewhat distantly). She has an affair with him (infidelity is super common among cops apparently). She gets knocked up, his wife divorces him, Chad proposes because "it's the right thing to do", she accepts, and her parents kick her out again for being a [insert expletive here], she moves in with Chad with her two kids. They've started planning the wedding, which... Given the background is something akin to a dumpster fire. Adam is LIVID. He was desperately in love with this girl and hasn't really recovered from what she did to him, and while she rejected his proposals years ago, she's accepted one FROM HIS COUSIN WHO PROPSED FOR THE SAME REASON HE DID.
Adam has basically made a call for loyalty in the family, dividing everyone one who should go, who should give money, etc plus they're having trouble planning anything because of COVID. Her parents have outright said that they're not going, along with half of her family, and her younger sister has been going around and sabotaging what plans they can make.
She has asked me to be a bridesmaid, I said that I couldn't because I live in a different province now, but the truth is, I do not want to be wrapped up in that clusterfuck in any way . I'm just watching the arguments and events unfold on social media because this is quite honestly the most entertaining thing I've seen all year. It's weird to me that she even asked because we're not friends, we never have been. We were friendly strangers in high school, I just helped her out for one class because she needed help and I could give it to her. I was just being nice. But based on how she turned out I'm just sad for her. Three kids in four years, and she's alienated so much of her friends and family because if her actions, and I'm torn between feeling sorry for her and putting my head in my hands.
EDIT 1:
First off, all of your comments are hilarious. Second, I'm going to answer some of the common questions.
We're from a city with over 400,000 thousand people, she just comes from the neighbourhood that is made of either bible thumpers or white trash, with no in between. But the high school we went to was in a completely different neighbourhood than that.
Our school had a pretty good sex Ed course, and they gave out free condoms and had resources to help girls get birth control, and they had programs in place for if students ever got pregnant/were going to be teen parents (they also had one of those classes with the dolls for girls who were high risk at teen pregnancy but she wasn't high risk so she wasn't in that class) I don't if BC just didn't work for her, or if she never tried it.
She started alienating her friends after the affair with Chad came out, because people weren't exactly jumping for joy that she'd broken up a marriage (Chad and his ex didn't have any kids, thankfully, so there were less obstacles). When people weren't immediately ecstatic for her she started getting very snippy, rude, and was "calling the bitches out" on social media for not supporting her new relationship or pregnancy. (Tbh I'm really worried about her health because having this many babies so close together is just not good for her health, mental or physical.) People are also worried that Chad will cheat on her "if he'll cheat with you, he'll cheat on you" and think she should avoid marrying him so that she can just leave him if it happens.
I'll give you updates as they come out, but so far it's just a lot of yelling on social media (mostly from her), some relatives slut shaming her, and people who are just really worried about her because, as funny as this is, this doesn't seem like healthy behaviour.
EDIT 2:
First off, I realized I never gave this girl a name. For the sake of clarity we'll call her Beth. I realize that I didn't mention this before, but all of these are fake names.
Second, to everyone commenting that Chad is at fault for his marriage breaking up, believe me I'm well aware of that. It is his ex wife and her family/friends who solely blame Beth. Chad is also older than her and has more life experience, so I do believe that he could potentially be taking advantage of her naivete. However, she is also an adult who is capable of making her own decisions and has chosen to make poor ones in the past.
Third, people who are upset that I'm posting this story here, claiming I'm humiliating her. She has been posting about this mess on every social media platform she has since they got engaged in July. She put this out there long before I did except she did so in front of friends, family, employers, and coworkers, as well as internet randos.
Fourth, despite getting engaged in July and attempting to start planning then, I was only asked to be a bridesmaid three days ago. I knew that there was a mess going on but I didn't really pay attention to it until she asked me to be a bridesmaid. I tried to ask what was going on, I said that she should talk to someone, but when she completely brushed me off I checked her FB and Instagram and found out about all of... This.
Fifth, I realized that I didn't really talk about how disastrous the wedding planning has been going, see here you go:

• they've had to rebook three times because venues and vendors kept cancelling when infection numbers got worse even thought their wedding was months away
• Beth has been flipping between having the wedding while she's pregnant saying she's proud of her bump, and wanting to wait until they're born because she feels fat, which is unfortunate because she's been breaking down due her insecurity on a public platform
• Beth is currently seven months pregnant
• Beth's great aunt was going to give her her wedding dress to wear (after she gives birth) but Beth's mom freaked and stole the dress from said aunt before Beth could get it and is now keeping it, the great aunt says she's too old to get in a fight and has shrugged it off
• Chad's immediate family is paying for the wedding and has been cut off by the rest of their extended family for 'choosing Chad'
• Beth's wedding colours are pink and green, which is usually a nice combo but the specific shades don't go great together, they're her and Chad's favourite colours, which is fine but she literally made a video talking about these colours for 14 minutes on her insta and both of her kids are just full on bawling in the background and she's ignoring them and she's gotten some flack for that
• Adam is finally settled into his trade and has now hired a lawyer and is trying to get primary custody and not allow his daughter to go to the wedding
• she's planning a zoom baby showebachelorette party and has sent out a registry and she's asking for crazy expensive things
• she's also set up a go fund me to help pay for a honeymoon and is making a lot of posts about how no one loves her cause the fund only has $1267 of the $20k she wanted

I'll update when I can but I'm still in school and while I do want to help her, she's refused help offered in the past and there's only so much of this I can take mentally right now.
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UPDATE:
Hey everyone, so some stuff has gone down, and it doesn't look like it's over yet. Sorry, I didn't update sooner, but Rona came back with a vengeance and totally messed up plans with uni and family. Anyway, onto the update.
From the last update - 16th - Lots of ranting and chaotic wedding planning on social media, she found a dress and has decided she will get married while pregnant, they found a local wedding venue that is very lovely, but I'm shocked she's still trying to book stuff with all of their previous venue cancellations.
December 16th - Her little sister unblocked her to call her a s*ut and tell her that all her wedding plans were stupid. This resulted in a petty and entertaining facebook war until the little sis blocked her again on the 17th.
December 18th - Beth went nuts on social media because Adam had "kidnapped" their daughter, what really happened is that because courts are moving at a snail's pace due to COVID and Adam had reason to believe that their daughter was not safe living with Beth he decided to just... Not give her back. They don't have a custody agreement, and when Beth tried to call the cops they couldn't do anything because he was kinda right. There were dozens of videos on her various social media accounts of her ignoring their daughter, yelling at her daughter for crying or doing other things that toddlers do, it turns out that everything she needed was bought by Adam, food, diapers, clothes, toys, daycare (while it was open) etc. on top of the unofficial child support he was paying every month (which turned out to be $500 a month, a number I find ridiculous because Adam was already paying for literally everything) because she refused to buy anything for her daughter and insisted it was Adam's responsibility. Additionally, after the immediate post-birth appointments, Beth never took baby A to a doctor's appointment, she always deferred that to Adam. Baby A's pediatrician has NEVER met Beth. Beth even tried to get Chad to push back or intimidate him or something, but the local police where we live are under one hell of a microscope after a bunch of dirty cops got busted a couple of years ago. Basically, the cops, and the social worker they ended up calling, ended up saying there was nothing she could do until they get to court. The social worker tried to get her to go to therapy and parenting classes, but Beth refused and went on a fifteen paragraph long rant on Facebook about how she doesn't need parenting classes or therapy (she really, really does though) and called the social worker some choice words.
December 19-24 - Just a bunch of ranting on social media, calling everyone who doesn't enable or justify her behaviour cuss words, slurs, and a whole bunch of other horribly creative things. Also, both she and Chad are under investigation at work now, but she has no idea why. I'm gonna take this time to remind everyone that 99% of this info is coming from her public social media pages where her coworkers are friends and place of employment is listed.
December 25 - I am officially embarrassed to know this woman. I didn't go on her FB page until the evening cause I didn't want to deal with drama, first thing in the morning, on Xmas. In the morning she put on a very beautiful blue maternity dress, got Chad in his police blues, and baby B in a purple romper, and then live-streamed her and her family going to the courthouse to get married on Christmas day. (According to her Twitter, part of this was because their newest venue cancelled on them after COVID numbers spiked) Overall, a pretty tacky thing in my opinion because she stated plain as day, several times, that she intended her wedding anniversary to eclipse Christmas for her children because it's just "so much more special, you know?" (I am so glad that Baby B's grandparents are filing for guardianship) But here's the thing... The courthouse isn't open. Because of COVID for one thing, but also because it's Xmas and Canada has a predominantly Christian history. She proceeded to have a full meltdown, and when Baby B cried because, y'know, the kid's mom was screaming up a storm and scaring her, Beth called her a c*nt. Yup. So done with this bitch.
December 28 - I ran into her at a vaccine clinic cause we were both getting our booster shots. She didn't recognize me at first but one of my old bosses (cause I used to work at the hospital the vaccine clinic was in) called my name and said hi, so she came up to me after my old boss had left. We talked a bit while we sat down for the mandatory waiting period after getting the shot. She asked how I was but didn't even wait for me to respond before she started ranting and complaining about her life. I was just going to sit there until the time was up and then just politely make my exit, but when she started talking shit about her kids something inside me snapped. I just said "Do you even like your kids? Do you like being a mom?" She got pretty quiet for a second and then said "no". Idk, her voice and demeanour completely changed and we just sat in silence until our time was up. I said goodbye but it was really awkward.
December 31st (today) - I just looked at her feed and, this is such a shocking what-the-actual-f*** moment. She's thinking about giving up her kids. She went on about how recently she was asked if she liked her kids or being a mom, and how she realized that she didn't. She hates her children and blames them for ruining her life, and how she doesn't want to be a mom. I mean, nothing is official yet, but what the hell?!
I'll update as stuff happens now that I have the time, but this whole thing has been a big giant mess. Also, sorry for any formatting or grammatical errors, I'm not used to using Reddit on my PC.
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UPDATE
Okay, so, some stuff has happened and most of it's good? Also, the TL:DR for this update will be at the bottom
Jan 4th - Beth (and Chad) stopped posting on all social media. I was actually a little worried she died, I mean this woman posts everything short of her trips to the bathroom on IG.
Oddly enough, this got people messaging or interacting with her social media pages because she was usually the one to start contact, and that contact was usually yelling. No one heard from them and some people started to be like "should we call the cops for a wellness check?" Until Chad posted a status saying that they're fine but are "busy, please stop trying to contact us right now". Everyone listened but it was weird.
Jan 11 - I got a notification that Beth and Chad are active on social media again, but I didn't feel like drama so I didn't check out any of their posts.
Jan 12 (today) - she messaged me on FB asking me to be her MOH. She also kept going on about the resort in Cancun that she and Chad were looking to have their wedding at... This coming February. Omnicrom is really bad where we are, so no one should be travelling anywhere. I've actually had to delay my trip back to the province where I go to university. No one should be travelling anywhere.
Beth also found out that Chad was cheating on her with one of her co-workers and called the woman a "homewrecker" on FB tagged her, and posted the texts she found on Chad's phone. But Chad is the "love of her life" so she's forgiven him, but not the other woman. Which I find very hypocritical, considering how she and Chad got together.
She also sent pics of possible bridesmaid dresses and they are the most hideous dresses I've ever seen. I know that some brides do that thing where they want to look a million times better by comparison but this was just ridiculous. One of them looked like a partially deflated balloon with feathers strapped to it. She also openly admitted that she expected everyone attending to pay 3k, 2k would go towards that guest's stay at the resort and 1k would go to her and Chad and they will expected wedding gifts, so that they could get their room for free. Apparently, she talked to someone at the resort and if she got enough people to book their rooms she and Chad would get theirs for free. She also wanted the money to be given to her instead of directly to the hotel so that people wouldn't realize that she was taking 1k of their money. Beth sent me a pic of the wedding dress she wanted, and it's definitely a clubbing dress. If that's what she wants that's fine (and for the record I do think she would look great in it, Beth's (current) dream wedding dress ) but she wants all the guests to be dressed black tie. And she's already sent a list of unreasonable requests. Such as;

• all women must wear heels (for a wedding in the beach???)
• no one is allowed to have a baby or be pregnant (really?)
• girls must have longer than shoulder length hair, boys must have very short hair, only and inch or two long
• no one is allowed to be skinnier than her
• she will be providing diets for everyone attending based on how she wants us to look
• she and Chad must get bachelor and bachelorette parties both in Canada and in Mexico that need to be "fit for a king and queen" and both must be paid for but anyone but the bride and groom "cause that's just tacky"
• no unnatural hair
• no tattoos (you have five tattoos, Beth, and in the dress you want all will be on full display)
• no one is allowed to talk to her directly, they must speak through the MOH and BM

Honestly there's a lot more but I didn't feel like typing all that out. She's posted the list on FB and IG and people are already calling her a bridezilla.
I was also just kinda weirded out because aside from the previous convo at the hospital and when she originally asked me to be a bridesmaid, we haven't spoken since high school. So I respectfully declined, stating that the virus and school were my top concerns right now. Then, I decided to check her socials to see if she'd posted anything. She had and everything was basically how it was before the hiatus... Except her kids are nowhere to be found. No "look at my cute baby" pics are kids crying in the background of her videos. Nothing. Though, based on her new pics of herself, she's given birth to baby C. I mean, she's definitely still recovering, but she also definitely had a baby and that baby is not on any of her socials, so when she responded to my decline with an attempt at guilting me to be her MOH, I asked her where her kids were. This was her response.
"Oh, I left them at the side of the road in our way home from the hospital those moochers could walk home lol"
I was like, please tell me you're not being serious (especially cause it looks like she had the baby days ago). And she replied "I was just joking you shouldn't be so serious all the time". Honey, you made a joke about child abandonment/abuse, you're not being serious enough. And then I finally got the update on the kids.

• Baby A is still with Adam, Beth signed away her rights
• Baby B and Baby C have been given to a mutual cousin of Adam and Chad who is infertile (tbh I didn't need that last tidbit of info or the three paragraph long rant about how God hates infertile women, I didn't even read all of it, I couldn't, and I didn't think that Beth could be so cruel to even think those things). I checked out the FB page of Baby B's grandparents and they're happy with their grandchild's new parents, it looks like the cousin and her husband and welcoming them to the family as another set of grandparents and will let them have access to B. So yay!
• One thing I do need to stress though is that because of COVID the courts in our areas are either moving at a snail's pace or closed, so none of this is "official" but Beth (and Chad) has signed paperwork and all that needs to happen now is presenting that to a judge.

And when I rejoined our convo she said the doc she had for baby C gave her brith control, and she was surprised cause after her first pregnancy she asked her doctor for it but he refused to give her any. She mentioned that her old doctor was also her mom's and sister's doctor, she ended up asking the doc who delivered baby C to be her new doctor, so I hope that works out.
After learning all this my convo with Beth started to go down hill...
Beth: wait, did you actually think I would just leave my kids at the side of the road! I just didn't want to be a mom, but I wasn't a bad one
Me: Beth, I think that you've been through a lot of trauma in the past few years, and that it's gotten to you mentally and that you should speak to a professional.
(Of course, Beth has been a bad mom, but she does need mental health help and I wasn't going to convince her to get it, or to not tell at me, if I said that )
Beth: what? You think I'm crazy?!
Me: no. I think that getting kicked out as a teen because of a pregnancy and having your family actively reject you and try to sabotage you must have been very painful. Plus, pregnancy puts a lot of mental stress on women and you've had three in such a short time span, I just want you to take care of yourself and get what you want in life, and I think that will start with you taking care of your mental health.
Beth: what I want... IS FOR YOU TO GO STRAIGHT TO HELL! Beth then calls me every cuss word, expletive, and derogatory word she can think of one of the words she called me was a derogatory word about people from my ethnicity and my blood is boiling that she thought it was okay to say that to me.
So, I'm now on her hit list. She's been blowing up my social media all day, on her last FB post where she called me a slur she said that she still expects a good wedding gift from me. Yeah, no. So I've blocked her on everything, and I've decided to completely cut off contact. This will be my last update.
TL:DR - Beth went on a social media blackout for a bit, had baby C. Gave up all her kids, baby A is still with Adam, Baby B and Baby C are with a mutual cousin of Adam and Chad and baby B's grandparents have access. Chad cheated on her and she forgave him, but she probably shouldn't have. She's decided to have her wedding in a little over a month in Cancun and is expecting unreasonable things of everyone already. She asked me to be MOH I respectfully declined. I also suggested that she talk to a mental health professional because she's been through a lot in the last few years and she cussed me out, she also called me a derogatory name directed at people of my ethnicity and that was the final nail in the coffin. I'm now on her hit list. But her kids are safe and I have no interest in going to wedding so I'm cutting contact completely and have already blocked her on all my socials. I'm refusing to be involved with her anymore and will not be updating on the situation.
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--- EDIT - NEW UPDATE --- - JANUARY 25, 2023 - TL:DR AT THE BOTTOM
Hi, everyone, I didn't think I would be making another update, but here I am. I don't know if anyone will even care but whatever. I saw a YouTuber, Charlotte Dobre, do an entire video about this post on Facebook (which was funny, she did it well), [editor's note: here's the video in question and also: check out Charlotte Dobre's subreddit !] and got so nervous that Beth was gonna see it. Turned out, she's seen it and does not give a single damn, because as I pointed out, the majority of the info in this post came from her public social media. She also doesn't know who posted it (more on that in the update). I am still no contact with Beth and have no plans to change that anytime soon, but we have mutual friends who have told and shown me what's happened.
First things first, she and Chad did get married, but they eloped. According to all sources they are completely and utterly miserable though. Chad has proven to be and overall lazy and unfaithful husband, and Beth has really gotten into feminism (with a focus on reproductive issues) after she started using birth control, and Roe v Wade getting overturned (even though we're in Canada) really caused tension in their marriage. As it turns out, Chad thinks that abortion is murder and God created women for the purpose of making babies.
Beth tried to argue that not all women want or should be mothers using herself as an example, and then Chad went ahead and used her as an example of why women should be forced to have kids, because in the end she gave kids to an infertile couple. She didn't take that well and said that her entire life and future was ripped away from her and destroyed the second she got pregnant with baby A. Adam was never slut shamed or demeaned like she was, both at home and at school (which is a fair point, myself and many others were helpful and supportive but there were a lot of people who judged the hell out of her and said really nasty stuff) and that if she hadn't gotten pregnant she would've gone to college or university because she lost the general and financial support of her family with that positive pregnancy test. Chad has made a Tinder account. Beth was informed but it doesn't seem like she gave a damn.
So basically you could cut the tension with a knife.
And with her family, her sister came out as gay and cut off/has been cut off from their parents. But she's got a partial scholarship so she's doing okay. She and Beth are NOT on good terms but have met up and acknowledged that their parents messed them up by being religious nuts and their parents encouraged them to be competitive with each other and sabotage each other. Apparently their dad's motto is "competition brings out the best in everyone" (ugh). But they've talked and that's good enough for now.
Neither Beth nor Chad have custody or visitation of their children, which Chad is starting to regret because he's suddenly getting more and more into the church and religion. Chad talked to Beth about getting baby C back but Beth shut that down hard and warned the cousin who adopted baby C (officially and legally btw).
Beth started going to therapy after she and Chad got married, which makes me very happy and excited for her.
There was a rumour going around that Chad has a mistress and it took me a while to confirm, but it's true. He's cheating on her with a paramedic and she knows. Beth is fully aware. Idk if she plans to do anything about it or just continue to ignore it, but I hope she leaves his ass. I'm still not gonna talk to her, she crossed so many lines, but she's grown and improved a lot and her life would be a lot better without that sac of scum in her life.
Now, I have given a few details in my post that should've revealed my identity to her, namely her asking me to be her MOH. I have found out that she actually asked around 15 girls (including myself) to be her MOH, without telling any of us about the others because she was trying to get money from all of us and because her mental health has just been very bad and she needed help. And of those 15, 8 have been going to school out of province and of those eight we all had basically the same classes in high school. And apparently doesn't remember our discussion at the vaccination clinic and had major blow up with everyone she asked to be MOH. So she knows it's one of 8 people and reportedly has no interest in trying to narrow that number down. (Chad did the same thing with his groomsmen, but idk any of the numbers)
TL:DR Beth and Chad got married (eloped), are miserable, have zero custody or visitation with any of their children, Chad's cheating and Beth doesn't appear to care, Chad is super sexist, Beth is a feminist now, Beth's sister is gay and they've talked but not reconciled, Beth asked too many girls to be MOH for money and doesn't know the ID of who made this post.
Dear "Beth", if this post gets forwarded to you or somehow graces your phone screen, leave Chad. He's trash and you'll be much better without him in your life. And though I'm not willing to talk to you again because of your words and actions, I do wish for you to have a wonderful and happy life.
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Hi Papa,
I'll be turning 25 in a few days. Without you, I don't feel like celebrating my birthday, everything is just so sad. I feel so unsafe in this world without you. I feel as small as an ant, almost invisible. Small enough to be crushed under anyone’s feet without them knowing. Even if I'm growing older, I don't think I'm equipped to navigate everything in my life without you.
Papa, you asked me to promise you that I'd always be happy, but it's just not that easy. Grandparents are always crying, mom's lonely too, it kills me everyday to see this sight at home. Every once in a while, my grandfather still asks the cause of Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS)- what do I tell him? The doctors couldn't tell with certainty either. I've been on antideprassants and therapy. I'm trying my best to make everything return back to normal. I can drive well today, I wish you were here to drive around the town with me, we'd play all the Gazals in the car and I would've take you out for a nice buffet. Now that you're not here, I do spend a good amount of time with everyone. Today I played a nice movie for my grandmother on Mother's Day, bought my mom a nice gift and last week, I played all the music hits of 1940s for my grandfather.
There are so many things that we had planned to do. I hope in a few years I'd take mom out on the Europe trip we had always planned for as a family- if you were here, we would've taken the trip this month on my birthday...
Papa, I don't want to get older. I'm really scared. Life is not so stable in the field of a Psychologist. I've been preparing for my PhD entrance examinations for Clinical Psychology. I've never been the best student, but I'm trying. I've quit my job and I'm spending my entire day studying. I doubt my capabilities all the time. Would I be able to pass my exams? Would I ever be able to open a private practice? What if something happens to mom? What if something happens to my grandparents? Please tell me that I'll be okay. Please give me a hug.

i strongly plead with you to not read this if you have severe anxiety/paranoia about medication like me. i do not want to trigger anybody. i won’t name specific medications except the one i’m currently afraid to start.
hi everybody. i (f20) was recently diagnosed with bp2 6 days ago. i am kinda unsure if this an accurate diagnosis, but i definitely have issues with my mood. i have depressive episodes that are so severe it becomes incredibly difficult to care for myself, and it’s made me drop out of college. i have also had VERY sparse periods of time where i might’ve been manic? not sure. i can provide more context about my “mania” if you ask in the comments.
anyways, i have always had massive anxiety about medication. i’ve been on like 6 different medications, mostly SSRIs/SNRIs, and other than two (both were horrible for me for different reasons), i have never been able to consistently take something for long enough to see if it actually works because i get insanely anxious/mildly paranoid about side effects.
i’m currently in outpatient therapy because i literally cannot take care of myself or live life at all. i was prescribed an SSRI my first month there. i took it once, it made me have the worst anxiety of my life after the first dose (it felt like i was having an anxiety attack but for an entire day and i was inconsolable) so i never took it again.
i lied and told my psychiatrist that the SSRI “wasn’t helping me despite taking it every day for two weeks”. she ended up prescribing me a new medication that i wont name for the sake of not triggering anybody, but it was an SNRI. it took me two weeks to actually try it. she was practically pleading with me to take the damn meds. so i took it. i got serotonin syndrome 24hrs after my first dose. it was fucking traumatizing.
of course, all this did was fuel my anxiety more. it’s not just anxiety anymore. it’s full blown paranoia.
the SNRI made me “manic” which i i am probably in denial about because i have some textbook symptoms… i haven’t been able to sleep for more than 3-4 hours a night for weeks, im highly irritable, and have the absolute WORST racing thoughts. the past 3 weeks have totally blipped by. my irritability gets so bad it makes me want to self-destruct. this, among other symptoms, was what prompted the bipolar diagnosis last week. so of course my psych prescribed me a mood stabilizer: Lamictal.
the nurse at my OP facility asked if i started it on friday, to which i said no. he was pleading with me to just try it. i reluctantly told him i will give it a shot and i picked it up from the pharmacy today, and i’ve been a fucking mess. i’m so scared to take it. i am going to really try to force myself to, but idk if i can do it. the paranoia is soo strong, and if this doesn’t work, i really don’t want to fucking try any more medications. which i know would be very bad if i’m truly bipolar…
idk i’m just not feeling very confident that i’ll ever be able to reach stability at this point, especially with my lack of willingness to try/stick to meds. my mood swings are kind of dangerous at this point. i feel like i’m barely getting by with my healthy coping skills at the moment, and im so scared that this new medication will make my mood worse, because if it does, i’ll probably need to be placed in inpatient.
it’s been very difficult to keep myself from self-destructing lately, and i’m scared it’ll make my mental health worse, or i’ll get very sick/die in some horrible way with this new medication. i just don’t have any hope or faith at this point and i honestly can’t say for sure if i will be starting the medication tomorrow… please idk what to do

i tried posting this in the bipolar subreddit but it got taken down, understandably so. strongly plead with you to not read this if you have severe anxiety/paranoia about medication like me. i do not want to trigger anybody. i won’t name specific medications except the one i’m currently afraid to start.
hi everybody. i (f20) was recently diagnosed with bp2 6 days ago. i’m also diagnosed OCD and GAD. i am kinda unsure if the bipolar is an accurate diagnosis, but i definitely have issues with my mood. i have depressive episodes that are so severe it becomes incredibly difficult to care for myself, and it’s made me drop out of college. i have also had VERY sparse periods of time where i might’ve been manic? not sure. i can provide more context about my “mania” if you ask in the comments.
anyways, i have always had massive anxiety about medication. i’ve been on like 6 different medications, mostly SSRIs/SNRIs, and other than two (both were horrible for me for different reasons), i have never been able to consistently take something for long enough to see if it actually works because i get insanely anxious/mildly paranoid about side effects.
i’m currently in outpatient therapy because i literally cannot take care of myself or live life at all. i was prescribed an SSRI my first month there. i took it once, it gave me the worst anxiety of my life after the first dose (it felt like i was having an anxiety attack but for an entire day and i was inconsolable) so i never took it again.
i lied and told my psychiatrist that the SSRI “wasn’t helping me despite taking it every day for two weeks”. she ended up prescribing me a new medication that i wont name for the sake of not triggering anybody, but it was an SNRI. it took me two weeks to actually try it. she was practically pleading with me to take the damn meds. so i took it. i got serotonin syndrome 24hrs after my first dose. it was fucking traumatizing.
of course, all this did was fuel my anxiety more. it’s not just anxiety anymore. it’s full blown paranoia.
the SNRI made me “manic” which i i am probably in denial about because i have some textbook symptoms… i haven’t been able to sleep for more than 3-4 hours a night for weeks, im highly irritable, and have the absolute WORST racing thoughts. the past 3 weeks have totally blipped by. my irritability gets so bad it makes me want to self-destruct. this, among other symptoms, was what prompted the bipolar diagnosis last week. so of course my psych prescribed me a mood stabilizer: Lamictal.
the nurse at my OP facility asked if i started it on friday, to which i said no. he was pleading with me to just try it. i reluctantly told him i will give it a shot and i picked it up from the pharmacy today, and i’ve been a fucking mess. i’m so scared to take it. i am going to really try to force myself to, but idk if i can do it. the paranoia is soo strong, and if this doesn’t work, i really don’t want to fucking try any more medications. which i know would be very bad if i’m truly bipolar…
idk i’m just not feeling very confident that i’ll ever be able to reach stability at this point, especially with my lack of willingness to try/stick to meds. my mood swings are kind of dangerous at this point. i feel like i’m barely getting by with my healthy coping skills at the moment, and im so scared that this new medication will make my mood worse, because if it does, i’ll probably need to be placed in inpatient.
it’s been very difficult to keep myself from self-destructing lately, and i’m scared it’ll make my mental health worse, or i’ll get very sick/die in some horrible way with this new medication. i just don’t have any hope or faith at this point and i honestly can’t say for sure if i will be starting the medication tomorrow… please idk what to do

i strongly plead with you to not read this if you have severe anxiety/paranoia about medication like me. i do not want to trigger anybody. i won’t name specific medications except the one i’m currently afraid to start.
hi everybody. i (f20) was recently diagnosed with bp2 6 days ago. i am kinda unsure if this an accurate diagnosis, but i definitely have issues with my mood. i have long depressive episodes that are so severe it becomes incredibly difficult to care for myself, and it’s made me drop out of college. i have also had VERY sparse periods of time where i might’ve been manic? not sure. i can provide more context about my “mania” if you ask in the comments.
anyways, i have always had massive anxiety about medication. i’ve been on like 6 different medications, mostly SSRIs/SNRIs, and other than two (both were horrible for me for different reasons), i have never been able to consistently take something for long enough to see if it actually works because i get insanely anxious/mildly paranoid about side effects.
i’m currently in outpatient therapy because i literally cannot take care of myself or live life at all. i was prescribed an SSRI my first month there. i took it once, and it made me have the worst anxiety of my life after the first dose (it felt like i was having an anxiety attack but for an entire day and i was inconsolable) so i never took it again.
i lied and told my psychiatrist that the SSRI “wasn’t helping me despite taking it every day for two weeks”. she ended up prescribing me a new medication that i wont name for the sake of not triggering anybody, but it was an SNRI. it took me two weeks to actually try it. she was practically pleading with me to take the damn meds. so i finally took it. i got serotonin syndrome 24hrs after my first dose. it was fucking traumatizing.
of course, all this did was fuel my anxiety more. it’s not just anxiety anymore. it’s full blown paranoia.
the SNRI made me “manic” which i i am probably in denial about because i have some textbook symptoms… i haven’t been able to sleep for more than 3-4 hours a night for weeks, im highly irritable, and have the absolute WORST racing thoughts. the past 3 weeks have totally blipped by. my irritability gets so bad it makes me want to self-destruct. this, among other symptoms, was what prompted the bipolar diagnosis last week. so of course my psych prescribed me a mood stabilizer: Lamictal.
the nurse at my OP facility asked if i started it on friday, to which i said no. he was pleading with me to just try it. i reluctantly told him i will give it a shot and i picked it up from the pharmacy today, and i’ve been a fucking mess. i’m so scared to take it. i am going to really try to force myself to, but idk if i can do it. the paranoia is soo strong, and if this doesn’t work, i really don’t want to fucking try any more medications. which i know would be very bad if i’m truly bipolar…
idk i’m just not feeling very confident that i’ll ever be able to reach stability at this point, especially with my lack of willingness to try/stick to meds. my mood swings are kind of dangerous at this point. i feel like i’m barely getting by with my healthy coping skills at the moment, and im so scared that this new medication will make my mood worse, because if it does, i’ll probably need to be placed in inpatient.
it’s been very difficult to keep myself from self-destructing lately, and i’m scared it’ll make my mental health worse, or i’ll get very sick/die in some horrible way with this new medication. i just don’t have any hope or faith at this point and i honestly can’t say for sure if i will be starting the medication tomorrow… please idk what to do

I’m bipolar, wife thinks I have ADD too but IDK. I’m relatively new to therapy/meds, I didn’t seek treatment for a long time. I’ve been on Lamictal for a couple of months and I felt mostly great but I developed a rash and had to stop. I switched to Caplyta 2 days ago and I feel like a fucking zombie. I’m sleeping a lot and when I’m awake I’m tired, dizzy, and basically disassociated from everything.
Does it get better? The reason I avoided treatment for so long is I was afraid that meds would make me feel the way I feel now. I know it’s only been 2 days but I’m tempted to say fuck it and go back to being unmedicated

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I never know how much info to give, so I’ll try to be quick with my background. So far I’ve been on lamictal, lacosamide, zonisamide, Keppra, and Keppra extended release. Keppra gives me horrible side effects, the Keppra XR maybe gives me less side effects although now I’m not so sure? Every medication I’ve been on has been dual therapy with Keppra, but once my neurologist tries to get me down to just one medication, I start to have seizures again.
I’ve been on Keppra and zonisamide for 6 months. We’re about to try monotherapy with zonisamide to see how it goes, I’m scared. I don’t want to have seizures, but I also need to see if this works. I’m on a low dose of Keppra anyway, so if all along it’s just 500 mg of Keppra XR that keeps my seizures at bay I’m just going to feel like I’m back at square one again.
Monotherapy is the goal for me primarily for the purpose of pregnancy. I had a miscarriage and it can’t be determined if it’s related but it’s still advised that we should try to get me down to one medication. Ugh, hate this disease so much.

Sooooo I'm nearly three months hormone therapy or HT. So a few things happened here.
One Being bipolar I was a little scared given the mood swings of E, but it's actually helped a hell of a lot more than bipolar meds. Not really surprised given the mental health meds like Lamictal wasn't designed for bipolar but rather an anti-convulsant...similar to wellbutrin being a drug to curb smoking...so it seems to me with my personal opinion....ht saved me by way of getting the appearance I want and somehow...doing good with bipolar.
Two....most important... I love big Tshirts and no pants. So freeing. So sexy. Soooo omg. Am I the only one?
Three... I'm finally healing.

Hi everyone! I hope your hallucinations are treating you well.
For me, it started when I prayed "show me the truth no matter the cost to me" and almost immediately I started experiencing a bunch of synchronicities. Prayer really puts your mind in a suggestible state, as my Dad says. These synchronicities made me believe in karma and created the delusion that I was Christ. There was a YouTuber who encouraged magical thinking in me because he seemed to be reading my mind, and when I asked him about it he said it's something like that.
The week before Christmas, I had gone on my first meditation retreat for a type of meditation called jhana that's associated with magick. That's another thing that puts you in a suggestible state. In jhana, I heard voices for the first time but was able to command them to shut up. I got some useful phrases to say to voices from an energy healer. This energy healer encouraged magical thinking in me by telling me that schizophrenia is a spiritual illness with spiritual cures.
On Christmas, my delusion that I was Christ got disrupted by a major synchronistic scolding for believing it. This scolding included threats of madness and my first visual hallucinations. Later I tried to kill myself in order to threaten God into curing me, but afterwards a book that I got from the library was bookmarked by the previous reader on a page that said this had the opposite effect.
My hallucinations are: voices that tell me to join a monastery, to meditate, to get therapy, to move out, afterimages that last too long, 2 colors that I had previously visualized together in meditation, 7 nested meditating figures in the colors of the rainbow, and a small purple haze that overlays things.
I'm sure others have equally interesting stories.