Struggling with gifts for 23 year old boyfriend-I need help!! Struggling with gifts for 23 year old boyfriend-I need help!!
Hello!! I generally love/am good at gift-giving, but this year I'm really struggling.
I'm truly stumped as to what to get my boyfriend as a birthday and anniversary gift.
For context: my boyfriend and I have been together for nearly 5 years, he is turning 23 and still lives at his parents house (as he is planing to build his own). We share very similar interests, and because of that, we usually agree to get whatever piques our interest at that moment jointly (i.e., a Switch, a boardgame, a video game, etc.). Though it's nice quality-of-life-wise, it makes it so hard to pick a special gift for him because for the most part, he/we already has/have it!
Onto what he's actually into: - he works in a lab and likes sciences in general (especially chemistry and biology) - he likes gaming (on his switch e.g Pokemon, The Binding of Isaac but he doesnt really need anything for that) - he really enjoys board games (e.g Doomlings -but we mostly buy them together) - he likes museums - he likes lego (but he already gifted me some this year ) - he likes to read ( last year I got him lots of books to read already) - he likes riddles, crosswords etc. - he likes cooking ( but he doesn‘t own his own kitchen - so kitchen related things wouldn‘t make sense) - he doesn‘t like clutter (as he only has one room for his stuff and therefore there is not mich space for things) - he likes massages (but he regularly gets them from me) - he likes practical things - he likes nature - he likes to write poems - he is totally into vintage stuff - he's a creature of habit and basically like an old man haha
Onto what he dislikes: - car related things - clothing items or jewellery - puzzles - sports - PC related things - he already has new headphones, phone, phonecase etc - no concert tickets
I am so sorry for the wall of text, I am just truly stumped. I love this man to the ends of the earth and want him to feel special. Right now, my gifts just seem/feel so impersonal. Is there anything that y'all can recommend that might be the fix? Or maybe, something you've received in the past that just rocked your world opening up? Any and all advice is greatly, greatly appreciated!!!

I don't know if this is the right place but I am making a small poetry anthology for my boyfriend for our anniversary but don't know what to put in it other than some of Shakespeare's sonnets from his Dark Lady sequence (including sonnet 130 specifically) because I know he likes these.
He likes Wilfred Owen but obviously the poems are supposed to be on the theme of love. He likes Bataille as an author but has never read his poetry to my knowledge & I think his poetry (while undeniably talks about couples) is not very romantic. He likes Neil Gaiman but again I haven't found a poem by him I click with as of yet.
All this to say I need suggestions on good romantic poetry any suggestions welcome from specific suggestions based on the piss poor info provided to just your personal favourite romantic poem. Preferably on the shorter side.

This is actually my first time posting here so I'm quite nervous lol but I would like to share an acrostic poem that I made earlier today. I rarely write nowadays since university is very hectic but here it is:
So they wept with tears in their eyes; Everlasting, shining diamonds painted the skies. Vulturine gazes pointed at them, spouted lies; Eventually, all of those faded into nothingness. No one was prouder while bearing witness Than those who lived through all the madness. Everything happens for a reason. Even the heartaches will teach you a lesson. Nine years is a long time but we'll still go on.
It's not that great but I tried to retell SEVENTEEN and CARAT's story within the past nine years so I hope I at least did that justice.
Please feel free to share your artwork, poems, and other artistic media for the 9th anniversary in the comments as well! I would love to see how my fellow CARATs are celebrating today ❤

4am bid for affection turned
Ugly in the war for independance
Again again again
You called it first
I laid my blessings before the ones
Who used them up
Without respect to whom I love
And all the rage back home
I'm responsible
I was the one who left and abandoned
Under the banner of "the right thing"
When all the real life words said
You don't want me and
I only made a victim of you
It was a lie my true stories used
To hanged me by a noose
For the love of godddd
I screamed Plato
Where Eros ruled
Motherfucking Calypso
Norman fucking Rockwell
Goddamn manchild my poetry is bad
The digital childrens toys were dull years ago
Used now like heroin needles
To avoid the revulsion I feel
A baby's tantrum stomping on the door-mat
It was never enough to sacrifice my whole self
My soul was demanded too
And beat against the banisters when I refused
It's not a mentality when I'm actually abused
Half-poems where the conscious met
A screeching halt to prevent
Each new disaster of the heart
Fool! Fool! Fool!
You handed me the instructions and blueprints
The help I could have given myself and
The changes I could have made
Jesus - that I swore I would make
Smoke rises from chains
Just ask her please how often
I've said your name out loud and long
Last night, the night before, last week, last month,
At the start I said my heart does not belong here
None seems to care
I wouldn't rather be here in this place
I keep building up to get spat in the face
That my feelings were always killing someone
I watched the light behind their eyes fade just now
Then recover in shiver like my lack of loving was the cause of death
It was my first priority on paper to find the replacement
"Until then we can game in my basement"
FOOL!
Time marches forward forever
It's why I put this hole on my face
And it would make me think of you too, and that is a plus for me
Because if I don't think of your eyes and your face
They start to fade just as fast
Blanketed by your pained silence
And that, more than anything, rattles the foundations of my courageous soul
Willing to go down into that small dark place unafraid
Patient and kind and giving love away every day
Until what remains doesn't look the same
As the boy you sang your vows to
I don't know what's changing next I am
Codependant on an unintentionally cruel person
Where the hell did I go? The Lost Woods at home
I hide it well that I can tell when it's you
Not just the vacancy
Or no, I hardly hide it at all
I often ask if it's you I've found and
I didn't need to know I guess
It was a leap of faith that I couldn't take
I had dashed myself on those rocks before
Now I hardly care for my corporeal form
I will run to the edge and leap as far as I can
Let my bruised and aching corpse pay the toll
Midair asleep I dream of Icarus wings
Better than caught in the tower behind me
The ones bombed in the eighties or nineties
I hurt you first
Voices in the sussurus please hear me
I don't have the words to explain just how badly
I wanted things to change
Up against unflinching poor behavior
Words said in reality that stopped my heart
Words I said with lethality
Kneeling and sobbing over the death I wrought
EMS please save this love
It wasn't all my fault
I truly believed you were better without me
And I kept seeing you begging and pleading
My stoney bones crumbled under stoic indifference
A cutout which promised to be the "right thing"
Telling the worst most horrible truth
A javelin through my skull roof
Hit number 3 on this porch hoping one of these sticks can just finally kill me
Woa woe is me
Surprising my external calm with crisis
Where a gun to someone elses head is the same as pointed at mine
And that behavior never died
'We talked about this Jesus Christ'
Stigmata lo my noble sacrifice
A bum hillbilly martyr
Described to onlookers as far from nice
Prosecute me my darling for dialogue sliced to ribbons
I was one of those dogs, Jess
Your torn blouse on my snout
And like the freedom of sheer loneliness
I stopped the chase
I was afraid
Afraid
Holy god damn I was so
Afraid
That my teeth would meet your neck
We would tumble over laughing
As I tore you to shreds
To shreds you say
I couldn't handle killing you a fourth, a fifth, an nth time
A projection on the inside of my mind
So I stayed in fresh brine with mutilated lips
How many times have we said goodbye
Will we be saying it all our lives
Well I broke the border and shot the letter-arrow up to your tower
Castle of harmony blocked my own arrow
I'm so tired of lying!
You'd say I am where I want to be but you're mistaken
I'd be dying in your arms tonight if you asked me
I would fly to 50% on one knee (scoff scoff, I hear the murmurs from the furies scoffing)
I would. I would. Charge headlong into the place where angles doff their wings.
Seraphim court escort me to the bricks outside
Where I would contine to cry;

 I love you. With my whole heart. There is no kiss nor touch I could accept that would ever be enough without you though I tried, I tried. I don't want to love someone else and I never did. I made promises to the dying just as I was bid. I hid from you embarrassed that my choices took me this way. Let me not hide anymore. Whether your gaze unshackles me or burns me to a crisp. I find there is little difference. 

I don't repeat what I've read sometimes
So I don't give you away
But you stopped hiding 2 years ago in october
The tenth anniversaries I missed
I saw in the mirror a victim and prayed for salvation
That can never come
Fuck this dehumanizing love
I am sarah in the junkyard
Goblin king goblin king
I am Toby in the escherian
Yes I remind me of the babe
I cast my voodoo on the internet til mother slaps my wrist
And my joyful grin is replaced by a vacant stare
God damn I care. I care about you.
And evening knowing your masks I won't let myself know
Who is who
You are you
Whatever I do
I can't make your dreams untrue
Do you still dream of me,
Is it unwillingly?
What to do, not who.
Dorm tower floor bending and collapsing under me
This place has been abandoned since the eighties or nineties
This is a love poem
Improvised on a summers morning with cool wind and hazy clouds
The peonies are nearly gone now
Cosmos and black-eyed susan
You take forage up a slippery ridge
A road they call suicide
And susan is there all around, yellow petals beaming against the old-growth forest
If you write on reddit and your phone dies the comment isn't saved
You would laugh at the frequency that it's happened
Number four fuels the following words whatever they might be
In mind of Klaus talking to Ben
Lets start a cult in the sixties
Drown my ghosts in seas of buddah leaf
Electricity, nicotine, extacy, fleeting reliefs
This wasn't who I wanted to be!
Woe woe woe is me.
Whatever you might read between lines here,
Which is why I didn't space that paragraph,
I'm not angry. No not at anyone. Not even me.
I did the best I could with what I knew at the time
Which was nothing.
I only assumed from anonymous letters what you felt for me
(And you know what assuming does to me)
I want to believe
Bojack and DS9 are still in my watch-list
Waiting to be seen by your side
If ever there comes a time
Just as long as my rhymes are sufficient
Is that right?
No... you are a prize
But you'd regard me coldly for starting a fight
Challenges issued and not acted upon
Editing bay waiting for just the right song
And a full hour to pull my bleeding brain along
Woe woe woe woe... I did it all to myself
While my coffee went cold
Emotional discharge prompt
Watching you get onto the plane
And one of me stands stock still shocked.
One of me is dialing every number.
One of me is
One of me is running begging saying "Wait"
I swear I can love you more.
I think my affections are a chore.
Did you ever see them like that, too?
"I just want it to be easy," I said breathless
Just outside your departure gate,
"I know how much you love me and I love you too
Please," I wait for your answer
But I don't know if you can hear me
Looking up at the ring
And your gaze goes back and forth,
What do your diamond eyes see?
A man completely emptied
Or a boy smiling and pleased
Just to see his favorite person again
Not really knowing why we're at the airport
The details and plot lost on his fragile egg-shell mind
I contemplate number 5
Once I go inside I'll need to hide my own eyes again
Or let them be seen to my homies devestation
"If she was comfortable talking to you I wouldn't get in the way"
Yes it was my fault that I acted that way
I let a lifetime of pain roll me over devour my entire ribcage
I would edit my post if I knew what to say
But here is as much of my ugly truth
As can be depicted in an hour of tearful thumb tacking
I was going to roll off the roof
When I knew just how I had punished you
For loving and loving and loving me truly
How could you
Too long; didn't read:
I don't want to live my life without you and only the challenges I face can prove that
I was mistaken when my charge demanded I remove that piece of me that keeps my mechanisms ticking
I can't ever ask you to stay in pain
But this is only over if you want it to be.

Hi my gf(20f) and I (20m) will be hitting our 1 year anniversary in October and I have a good grasp on this scrapbook that I’m making right now but I really want to flesh it out with more. So far I have pictures of us that I got printed out at Walgreens, each time I get her flowers I pick some petals and press and dry then glue to the pages, and poems from her favorite poet Robert frost. I think I’ll be able to get half or barely over half of the book done with these before we hit the mark so I want to add maybe two more types of information or sentimental item that I just haven’t thought of. Thank you!

So 9 months or so I broke up with my Now ex of 4 1/2 years. It was my first relationship ever as well for her in terms of a serious long term so I had no idea what I was doing(First lesbian relationship btw ), I made sure to make time for her always, always remembered her birthday and special occasions (had them saved in my calendar even the tiny ones), made sure to say how much I loved her always.
But she did forget my birthday sometimes or don’t do as much as I did for anniversaries or such. I was cool with it, I didn’t expect it. For me I had always dreamed of a relationship so I was always going to be the one doing the spoiling and far out there gifts and expressions of love. Heck I used to make a poem every Friday for her and would hide little I love yous within it everytime.
I thought I had everything until one day I realized something. At the start we had a steady flow of messages back and forth but eventually they became less and less, I understand as she was autistic and had a pretty stressful crappy job so I gave her space and encouragement. And also I learned that relationships have moments where the honeymoon phase dies out so I thought that was what it was. But no, a few days would be a week sometimes and a week would be two. I again held my tongue because I have ADHD and she had autism and a hard job like I did. I wanted to be respectful to her.
When she did text back, I’d scramble to get out what I could so she’d see it before she dipped for another week or a few days at a time. Eventually she didn’t respond for a strong weeks. I again just stayed respectful and tried my hardest to understand. I even started to think I was the issue, I did have a bad habit of texting a lot to folks growing up.
One day I got really excited over one of my favorite Tv shows coming to an end as I had been a fan since I was a kid and I sent a very lengthy text. I didn’t mean to, that’s just how I am and I get excited.well she didn’t reply back for a minute and when she did she just had a two word reply. It didn’t bum me out as obviously she couldn’t care about it as much as I could but it stung a bit
Now for the moment I dreaded. The breakup, oh god the breakup. I sincerely believe that at the time she had finally started to become more available and was more responsive to my texts. I hate reading her response to the BU text. We went out separate ways, I tried to ask her back a few months later, she was with someone else and I paid no mind to it.
Until I guess in a moment of weakness she had, she admit that she had been cheating on me. She said something about her finding her true self while she was hopping job to job and how she had changed. I was just so shocked in the moment that I accepted it like an idiot. I had a gut feeling but I ignored it because I didn’t want to seem like the crazy girlfriend.
In the end I was right and you wanna know the messed up thing? I’d still take her back. At this point, I don’t care . I tried to move on and it’s be awful, damn near put me in jail/prison levels of bad and I didn’t even cause it. At this point, I either want her or no one else.
But I’ll stay in my delusions and keep thinking we are together and it’s just a long break. But it still hurts like hell to find that out .

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PRETEXT: This is the first poem I’ve written and I’m very nervous. I’ve written it for my partner for our anniversary, which is tomorrow. I’d love to get some feedback on this and reassurance that it isn’t terrible!
If you ever need me, I’ll be there, wherever And I’ll make sure the ever stays in forever When things are cold I’ll bring back the spring When things get rough I’ll pull out the sting
If you’re blown out then I’ll light your fuse When I am the painter, you are the muse And if you need me to sail the storm I’ll be your way, your shape, and form
I’ll make Fridays come around quick If things dont click, then Ill make them click I’ll make sure that your demons stay in the past And make sure no goodbye is ever the last
I’ll be the body and I’ll be the mind The drugs you need when the world isn’t kind I’ll sort the truth, out from the lies Give you the answers when you want to know why
I’ll be the one to forgive your mistakes Eat all the apples served up by the snakes Be the life support when you feel on deaths door When you’ve nothing to give I won’t let them take more
I’ll find the last bit of pace when you’re engine has gone Fight in your armies no matter which side of history you’re on Whatever your mood I will find you a song I’ll be your bark when the cats got your tongue
I’ll try to be the reason that there’s always something to lose Mix in green and red when all you’re seeing are blues I’d drink the oceans and stare out the sun Just to make sure your bad day is undone
And one day, I might need it too But if you have got me, then I have got you I might not be perfect but I promise to prove If you have got me, then I have got you

First time writing a full fledged poem like this, please send any feedback you have, I want to get better at this!
Former Comments:
https://www.reddit.com/OCPoetry/comments/1csqs9h/an_anniversary/
https://www.reddit.com/OCPoetry/comments/1ctlk76/many_lives/

Most Profound Acknowledgment of Failure

I sit on these steps, I draw conclusions.
I spent five dollars on Hindu Literature as a Catholic from a stand off the street,
am I open-minded or impressionable?
A book on unnatural happiness written by a Yale Graduate,
does it sound enlightening or insufferable?
Pondering in faith, spiritual osmosis sounds relieving but the masses condemn it, seen as disconnected and unrealistic.
I trust I'm not wasting my time, that it's not too late. Not too late to see a reality where my spiritual scars have little texture on the carcass of my soul.
I question the extent of my appearance, to be attractive is relative. My skin stretching and my hair growing.
Fallible to external criticism, my Achille's heal. I lay with my partner at night, shuffling in certain positions to keep those hands away from the folds and dough-ey softness near my belly.
A partner so loving that my discomfort with my physical form is the one thing deemed unattractive.
Men come and go, they'll go out the way to even fuck a corpse. I'm choosing to take a masculine approach on this matter as men have disposed of women so consistently, so shamelessly, so recklessly.
It is a shield that has kept me simultaneously up-to-par with the men that act like boys. They will never know the wholesome experience of being fed, caressed, and held by a woman of gold.
All they know is instant gratification, creating a disturbing cavity in their spirit that will eat them away until they're so hollow the only thing that fills them is the echoes that reverberate their spiritual walls, if there are still any up.
Delayed punishment.
Over time they've built symbiotic relationship between their cement hearts and programmable brains, embedding controls to turn their logic on and off.
Dick on, a light switch. Logic on hold. Vice versa.
I typically gave them a reason to turn on their lights. I let them go downstairs, but I always turn on my own lights. I've read the Scarlet letter.
I'm an Oscar winning actress who's really into method acting, too calculated to be a whore.
My head's on my shoulders, with peripheral vision I speak less. My soul spins in three-sixty, never allowing instant gratification soothe my ego knowing what it does to a man's spirit.
I'm writing this up as families climb up the same steps I bear these conclusions at, I feel nauseous. I do, act, and stand by these filthy phrases but then I behave like a child, I watch myself ruin relationships because my lips can't make the right sounds, the most profound acknowledgement of failure.
When I sleep with my partner at night I move those hands to the bosom where my hearts softly beats. The most profound measurement of success is having someone hear what your body is trying to communicate; the serenity felt with my partner is indescribable, something that instant gratification will never provide.
In the purest of souls, you can find the healing you've been seeking, for the kindest of hearts tend to the poor in spirit subconsciously and spontaneously.

My mouth opens wide in shock as I hear my friend's voice come through the speaker.

Y’all, I’m really not sure what’s still around. This list is somewhat edited, but please still make sure to check on all the regular events before you make big plans – I may have missed something.
Events are listed by the day. Events that happen every week appear first, one time stuff after that. If you have anything you’d like people to know about, comment here or message me and I’ll add it in. If you’d like further info about any of the events, look it up! I usually don’t have any extra to add.
Large Scale, Ongoing, and Multi-Day Events

Local Running, Walking, and Biking Info: https://troubleafoot.blogspot.com/
Guided Paddling Outings all around the area: https://www.facebook.com/hsmithoutdoors
Tallahassee Film Society Showings: https://www.tallahasseefilms.com/tickets/
Book Clubs for all tastes: https://www.facebook.com/midtownreadeevents
Live Theater:

• Making Light Productions: https://www.makinglightproductions.org/
  
• Theatre Tallahassee: https://theatretallahassee.org/
  
• Mickee Faust Club: https://www.mickeefaust.com/
  
• Monticello Opera House: https://www.monticellooperahouse.org/
  
• FSU School of Theatre: https://theatre.fsu.edu/productions/
  
• Young Actors Theatre: https://www.youngactorstheatre.com/
  
• Quincy Music Theatre: https://quincymusictheatre.com/
  
• Tallahassee Hispanic Theater: https://tallahasseehispanictheater.wordpress.com/
  

OutdooFarmer’s Markets:

• Lake Ella Grower's Market: Wednesday and Saturday, 11am-2pm. You can always find organic vendors, and foragers: The Holistic Cannabis Community, Artzi Farms, Hickory Nut Gifts, and others. Including Pita Queen! Farmer's Market Nutrition Program Coupons gladly accepted!
  
• Tallahassee Downtown Market: Saturdays, 10am-2pm, Park Ave Parks. Vendors display their arts and fine crafts, jewelry, handmade soap, pottery, Fresh from Florida produce, hand-raised beef and pork, fresh baked bread, jams and jellies, and honey. Live music from different local musicians every Saturday.
  
• Frenchtown Heritage Market: 524 N MLK Jr Blvd. Third Saturday of the month 10am to 2pm. Come grow community and support your local farmers and makers, while you get your groceries for the week! Don’t forget! We match SNAP/EBT, so you DOUBLE your money to go towards locally grown fresh fruits and vegetables! If the guy with the pineapple is there, get it. This is currently only happening on the third Saturday of the month for the next few months while road work is completed.
  
• Tallahassee Farmers Market: 2904 Kerry Forest Pkwy, Saturdays, 8am to Noon. Come see us at Tallahassee's longest-running farmers market! We are a year-round market, featuring local farms and vendors that provide the best seasonal produce, meats, baked goods, and more. We welcome you and your whole family (leashed pets included) to come out and meet your local farmers! Ample parking is available between our lot and the shopping center lot next door (by Red Elephant). Come early for the best selection.
  

THURSDAY, 5/16

• The Hub at Feather Oaks: Bingo. 6pm
  
• Dreamland BBQ: Weekly Open Blues Jam. If you'd like to sing, please bring your own mic. 6pm
  
• Honest Living Vape: Chess-Master Thursdays . Beginners and experts, join us every Thursday from 6-9 for Chess-Master Thursdays. All ages. Bring your board or play ours! Tournaments coming soon! 6pm
  
• Lake Tribe: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Takko Market Square: Bingo Night. 7pm
  
• The Getaway Grille and Bar: Karaoke with Jared Walker. 7pm
  
• Amicus Brewing: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Smitty's Taphouse: Trivia Lab Thursdays. Teams of 6 or fewer players can compete for $30 / $20 / $10 Prizes + The Golden MacGuffin prize table! New format! Interactive smartphone answering for your comfort and safety! 6 Fun Rounds - 42 Total Questions. 7:30pm
  
• Studio D: Bachata Fever. We always have a bachata workshop at 8 pm before Bachata Fever. We dance afterwards to the sounds of DJ Bacharod. The class is at 8 pm and Bachata Fever will start at 930 pm. Many times people are learning in class and may feel uncomfortable social dancing while they are still learning moves. We have a welcoming environment so stay and have fun and dance with everyone. That is how we learn. 8pm/Class $5/Bachata Fever $5.
  
• The Sound Bar: Comedy Night. 8pm
  
• Finnegans Wake: Open Mic. 8:30pm
  
• Brass Tap in Midtown: Karaoke with DJ Rah. 9pm
  
• 926: Karaoke. 9pm
  
• Bird’s: Karaoke with Nathan. 9pm
  

• Fire Bettys: Slasher Bash. This week we'll be showing: "Zombeavers". Prepare for an evening of horrific hilarity with comedy narration and devilish drinking games!🍻 Hosted by local comedians. 8pm/21+
  
• Blue Tavern: Seep's Gumbo Nation ft. Shanice Richards. 8pm
  

FRIDAY, 5/17

• Blue Tavern: Happy Hour with Steve Malono. 5pm
  
• Lake Tribe Brewing: Flannel Fridays with Live Music. 6pm
  
• Hobbit West: Friday Night Dart Tournament. Anyone can Enter! Sign ups at 7:30, Darts fly at 8:00/$10 entry fee
  
• Ouzts Too: Karaoke with DJ Nathan. Best karaoke DJ in town. 8pm
  
• Just One More: Karaoke with DJ Rah. 9pm-11pm/21+
  
• 926: The Hot Friday Night Party and Drag Show. 9pm/$5/18+
  

• The Hub at Feather Oaks: Rachel Hillman. 5:30pm
  
• Lake Tribe: Ben Wentworth. 5:30pm
  
• Amicus Brewing: The Tanglers. 6pm
  
• The Getaway Grille and Bar: One Year Anniversary Celebration Featuring Queen of Hearts Band. 6pm
  
• Southwood Golf Club: The Rhythm Remedy. 6:30pm
  
• Goodwood: The Big Bash Havana Nights presented by Brent Hartsfield. The Big Bash is Big Brothers Big Sisters of the Big Bend's signature fundraising gala of the year and directly supports the agency's youth mentoring programs. Guests will enjoy Cuban Cuisine, champagne mojitos, cigars, flights, classic cars, photo opportunities, silent auction vacation packages, LIVE music and dancing, and an exciting LIVE salsa dance performance from 12 community volunteers! The event is a tremendous networking opportunity for Tallahassee's top business professionals, local community leaders and philanthropists to come together to enjoy an evening to celebrate the achievements of Big Brothers Big Sisters. 7pm
  
• Blue Tavern: Wil Fulkerson Jazz Night. 8pm
  
• House of Music: Belly Dancing: Journey From The Nile To The Tigris. Habibi, join us on a groovy carpet ride across ancient deserts: Disco Iskandar embarks on a voyage of belly dance, folklore, cinema, and history in a theatrical dance production, JOURNEY FROM THE NILE TO THE TIGRIS. Highlighting the prominence of belly dance in films of the Middle East from the 1940s through the 1970s, we present a live showcase exhibiting dances from Egypt, Turkey, Iraq, and beyond. It goes so much deeper than you think. Hookahs! Swords! Rhinestones, literally everywhere! This cross section of entertainment and education is the culmination of years of obsessive learning, two national tours, and travels to Egypt & Lebanon. JOURNEY FROM THE NILE TO THE TIGRIS is a trip unlike any other-- where the Middle East meets Vegas. This show’s cast is Gabi Corazon, Gia Bee, Liz Azi, Olya Clark, Vania Ojeda, director Veronica Lynn, and special guest star Omaris! 8pm/$15/21+
  
• The Sound Bar: The Old Schoolers. 8pm
  
• Vino Beano: Your Scumbag Neighbors. 8pm
  
• The Bark: Medians, No Yeah, Sleep John B, and Cloud Storage. 8pm
  

SATURDAY, 5/18

• Brinkley Glen Park: Invasive Plant Removal. Join Master Gardener Volunteers at this weekly invasive plant removal event. This is a great way to learn to ID our invasive plant species and how to remove them. We recommend wearing long pants and sleeves, closed-toed shoes, gloves, a hat and mosquito spray. Bring gardening tools such as hand clippers, loppers, trowels, etc. if you have them. We are removing coral ardisia bushes and berries, nandina, tung trees, Tradescantia flumenensis, cat's claw vine, winged yam, Japanese climbing fern, skunkvine and more. Directions: The best way to get there is to take Meridian Rd to Waverly Rd, go to the next intersection and turn left onto Abbotsford Way, then turn left at the next road called Woodside Dr. At the stop sign turn left onto Lothian. Lothian ends in a cul-de-sac and there is a sign that says Brinkley Glen Park. 8:30am-11:30am
  
• Gamescape: Saturday Gaming. Gamescape has relocated from Railroad Square to the Huntington Oaks Plaza (Suite 302, next to the Library) at N Monroe St and Fred George Rd. Open gaming tables are available. Noon-6pm
  
• Duke’s and Dottie’s: Line Dancing Plus Lessons. 7pm/21+
  
• Bird’s Oyster Shack: Laughterday Night Fever. * Join us every Saturday at Bird's Aphrodisiac Oyster Shack for a free comedy show!* 8:30pm
  
• 926: Latin Night. Dance to the irresistible beats of Zeus and prepare to be dazzled by a spectacular drag show at midnight. It's more than a party, it's an experience. 9:30pm/$10 21+, $15 under 21
  

• Crawfordville: Big Bend Biodiversity Tour. See why our area is so ecologically incredible! Get up close and personal with creatures and plants galore. Join expert guide and outdoor educator, Ryan Means for this limited opportunity to tour the Apalachicola Lowlands Preserve. The day-long trip stops at points along the way to the privately-owned preserve nestled deep in the Apalachicola National Forest near Sumatra, FL. Explore the longleaf pine ecosystem, pitcher plant bogs, ephemeral wetlands, and blackwater streams - home to some threatened and endangered species. Learn what makes the Florida Panhandle one of the five richest biodiversity hotspots in North America. Perfect tour for photographers, outdoor enthusiasts and ecologists. $75 tour fee includes round-trip transportation (from 46 Kinsey Rd, Crawfordville, FL) , complimentary beverages, and supports efforts to preserve the incredible biodiversity of the Southeastern Coastal Plain. Spaces limited. Register here: https://coastalplains.networkforgood.com/events/71083-big-bend-biodiversity-tour for full details. 8am
  
• Dreamland BBQ: Rock Type One to None. Let's rock to find a cure for Type 1 Diabetes! The Unicorn Wranglers are back on Saturday, May 18th at Dreamland BBQ in Tallahassee, Florida for the 2024 "Rock One to None" show. This show is benefiting the Juvenile Diabetes Research Fund (JDRF) and will feature musical guests Midnight Caravan, Fallen Timber, and the Unicorn Wranglers. The show starts at 4 pm and runs until 7 pm at Dreamland BBQ in Music Alley, and is open to all ages. While the show is free, we encourage all rockers attending to donate to the cause. You can contribute at the show by visiting our donation station or by heading over to our online Unicorn Wranglers team page. Together, as one big mosh pit, we can help cure Type 1 Diabetes. 3pm
  
• The Hub at Feather Oaks: Ethan Kyllonen. 4pm
  
• Amicus Brewing: Beza Alford and Rev. Dr. Sheldon Steen. 5pm
  
• Lake Tribe: Flamingo Party. 6pm
  
• The Getaway Grille and Bar: Billy Rigsby Band. 6pm
  
• Vino Beano: Brett & "Dangerous" Dave. 6pm
  
• Salty Dawg: Hot Mess. 6:30pm
  
• La Tiendita: Rhys Bennett & the Gringos as Vontade. Join us for an energetic evening filled with the vibrant sounds of Latin music, Brazilian beats, and jazz rhythms. Our local band, Rhys Bennett & the Gringos, will transform into the versatile ensemble Vontade, treating you to a delightful mix of rancheras, bossa nova, and more! Whether you're a seasoned dancer or a newcomer to the dance floor, you're in for a fantastic time at one of Tallahassee's hidden gems. Immerse yourself in a night of cultural fusion and musical celebration that is sure to create lasting memories! 6:30pm
  
• The Sound Bar: Tillman & Taff. 7pm
  
• Island Wings: Midnight Caravan. 7pm
  
• The Bark: Saturnalia, Brass Wizard, Van Season, and Psycho Tropical. 8pm
  
• Fire Bettys: 80's Video Dance Party. 8pm
  
• Just One More: One Eyed JAK. 9pm
  

SUNDAY, 5/19

• Bicycle House: Sunday Ride. Ride at 10:30 AM from Bicycle House. We will ride the Cascades trail to the St Marks trail and down to Wakulla station and return, about 31 miles. Ride speed is 12 to 14 mph, with periodic regroups. Vernon Bailey is the ride leader. Vernon is a new CCC member who’s been biking for 50 years enjoys riding with small groups and weekend touring. 10am
  
• E Peck Greene Park (Behind the LeRoy Collins Library): Food Not Bombs Free Mealshare. We offer free vegetarian/vegan food, water, coffee, personal care & hygiene products, bus passes, and clothing when we have some available to those in need. Contact foodnotbombstally@gmail.com to find out about getting involved. Noon-2pm
  
• LeRoy Collins Library: Tallahassee Go Club Meetings. Come play the captivating ancient game of Go, also known as Baduk, with some friendly games and discussions. Beginners welcome. Visit https://www.tallahasseegoclub.com for more information. 1pm
  
• Gamescape: Pokémon League. Come learn, play, and trade with the Pokémon Trading Card Game and the Pokémon video games! We LOVE seeing new players, so come learn how to play! We play both the Trading Card Game and the Video Game casually and competitively. The store offers lots of different seating arrangements to meet our group's needs, as well as food, drinks, and Pokémon products for purchase. We are also hold regular, officially sanctioned tournaments for Pokémon Trading Card Game and Video Game Competitions! 2-4pm
  
• The Plant: Open Jam. All instruments, all players welcome. 4pm-9pm
  
• Pedro’s: Mariachi Clasico. 6pm
  
• Fermentation Lounge: Open Mic Night Hosted by Conor Churchill. 7pm
  

• Ology Powermill: Marauders Market. Noon
  
• The Hub at Feather Oaks: The Barber Bros. 1pm-4pm
  
• Goodwood: Ice Cream Social. Get ready for a spectacular day of family fun at Goodwood Museum & Gardens! Treat your taste buds to a family fun day of FREE ice cream, FREE crafts for the kids, FREE activities, and more, all on the beautiful Goodwood grounds. Family-friendly musical entertainment will be provided by The Safari Man, who will have everyone tapping their feet and dancing along to his whimsical tunes. 1pm
  
• Common Ground Books: Contemporary Queer Poetry Book Club: Time is a Mother. This month, we’ll be reading “Time is a Mother” by Ocean Vuong. “In this deeply intimate second poetry collection, Ocean Vuong searches for life among the aftershocks of his mother's death, embodying the paradox of sitting within grief while being determined to survive beyond it. Vivid, brave and propulsive, Vuong's poems contend with personal loss, the meaning of family, and the value of joy in a perennially fractured American spirit. The author of the critically acclaimed poetry collection Night Sky with Exit Wounds, winner of the 2016 Whiting Award, the 2017 T. S. Eliot Prize and a 2019 MacArthur fellow, Vuong writes directly to our humanity without losing sight of the current moment. Bold and prescient, and a testament to tenderness in the face of violence, Time is a Mother is a return and a forging-forth all at once.” 6pm
  

MONDAY, 5/20

• Just One More: Bingo. 5pm-6:30pm
  
• The Getaway Grille and Bar: Margarita Monday, Open-Mic Night hosted by The Saltwater Cowboy. 5:30pm-8pm
  
• American Legion Hall: Cha Cha - Weekly Lessons. 6:15pm/$5
  
• Hangar 38: Bingo. 6:45pm
  
• Vino Beano: Tipsy Trivia. 7pm
  

TUESDAY, 5/21

• Blue Tavern: Happy Hour. 5pm
  
• The Getaway Grille: Tuesday Night Bikes and Trikes. 6pm
  
• Crafty Crab: BOOMIN' Karaoke. 7pm
  
• Gamescape: Hobby Night. Slay the grey together! Join your fellow gamers and turn your pile of grey miniatures into a battle ready army. Need some painting tips? Feel free to ask at hobby night. You can bring any miniature for any game to paint. 7pm
  
• Ology Midtown: Jazz Jam Sessions. 7pm
  
• Island Wings: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Brass Tap in Midtown: Trivia. 1st Tuesday of the month is General Knowledge with rotating themes the rest of the month. 7pm
  
• House of Music: Tuesday Trivia & Karaoke. 7pm
  
• American Legion Hall: Tallahassee Swing Band Tuesday Night Dance. 7:30pm
  
• Fire Bettys: Comedy Night. 8pm
  
• Poor Pauls: Trivia. 8pm/21+
  
• Blue Tavern: Bluesday Tuesday with Bill Ricci. Every Tuesday is Blues Day @ the Blue Tavern and Blues Meets Girl is a Tallahassee favorite. This perfect, intimate venue provides just what you need for both a mid-week break and authentic blues music experience. 8pm/$5
  
• 4th Quarter: Professor Jim's Tuesday Night Trivia. Popular for a reason! 8pm
  
• Argonaut Coffee: Trivia Tuesday. 8pm
  
• The Sound Bar: Karaoke. 8pm
  
• Fire Betty’s: Open Mic Comedy Night. 8pm/21+
  
• 926: Tacos and Trivia. 9pm
  

• Tallahassee Junior Museum: Basic Blacksmith Skills Program. Light your curiosity at our upcoming Basic Blacksmith Skills Program! Join our resident blacksmith, Michael Murphy, as he shares his history of being a Smitty. Participants will be able to keep the fire going, sling a hammer, and throw knives during this two hour lecture program. This is an outdoor event. Must preregister online at tallahasseemuseum.org/events. This program is free for members and regular admission price for non-members. 10am

WEDNESDAY, 5/22

• Sugar and Spice Tally: Game Night. Join us every Wednesday Night for community game night. Bring your own or use ours! Let me know if you need to reserve space for a large group. Free to attend! 5pm
  
• Goodwood: Wonderful Wednesday. 6pm/$5
  
• Level 8 Rooftop Lounge: Trivia. 6pm
  
• La Florida Coffee & Wine: Trivia Night. 6pm
  
• The Great Games Library: Open Game Night. 6pm/free
  
• American Legion Hall: Sue Boyd Country Western and More Dance Class. Session 2 - Beginner 6:30 to 7:45 pm What: East Coast Swing and Waltz. Cost: $8.00 per person. Wear comfortable shoes you can turn in. 7:45 to 8:15 - Practice dance with paid admission. 8:15 to 9:30: Intermediate - 2 Step and WCS. $8.00 per person or $13.00 for both classes. Vaccines are required. Face masks are optional. Changing partners is optional. 6:30pm
  
• Perry Lynn’s Smokehouse in Quincy: Wed Night Open Mic w/ Steven Ritter and Friends. 6:30pm
  
• Hangar 38: Trivia. 6:45pm
  
• Proof: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Vino Beano: Wine Bingo. 7pm
  
• Fermentation Lounge: Trivia. 7pm
  
• Blue Tavern: Wednesday Open Mic with Doc Russell. The open mic night that has run continuously for almost 20 years, once housed at the Warehouse, lives on at the Blue Tavern. Doc Russell continues as the host with the most. Sign up starts at 7:45pm/free to attend
  
• House of Music: Bar Bingo! Free to Play & Late Night Karaoke. 7pm
  
• Fire Betty’s: Karaoke! 8pm/21+/free
  
• Dukes and Dotties: College Night and Line Dancing Lessons. 8pm
  
• Finnegans Wake: Trivia. 8pm
  
• The Sound Bar: Open Mic Night. 8pm
  
• The Bark: Karaoke with DJ Nathan. Best karaoke DJ in town. 9pm
  
• Peppers: Karaoke. 9pm
  
• 926: Dragged Out Wednesday. 10pm
  

The Cenacle 124 April 2024 29^th Anniversary Issue
https://scriptorpress.com/cenacle/124
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Hello everyone,
Here comes the just-released Cenacle 124 April 2024. Returning to the desired quarterly issue cadence that has been missing for the past couple of years. It was hard doing this issue without the usual many years’ involvement of my dear poet friend, the late Judih Weinstein Haggai, but her poetry features in this issue nonetheless, & will remain so in each issue ever on.
Thus far, 2024 for the human world has been a fairly dark one. The global Pandemic has not ended, though millions risk sickness & death for themselves & others by choosing to join in a kind of mass amnesia about the crisis. Meanwhile, the climate crisis continues to get the same kind of hostile indifference. The genocide in Gaza goes on unabated by any of the many powerful & supposedly democratic nations of the world. And a likely felon has jazzed the US electoral process, its weaknesses & flaws among its many strengths, to be within reach of again taking over &, as he has vowed, taking revenge.
I can’t tell you that this literary journal operates toe to toe on the global scale to oppose these various human catastrophes, but I can say that if we don’t seek Beauty, & Nature, & look beyond the petty fuckeries of the current day, we are much more likely to be lost than if we find a way to do this.
This fine anniversary issue features new poetry by Tamara Miles, Martina Reisz Newberry, Colin James, Sam Knot, Jimmy Heffernan, Judih Weinstein Haggai, & myself.
Also new fiction by Timothy Vilgiate, Algernon Beagle, & myself. And classic fiction from Sir Arthur Conan Doyle.
And new prose pieces by Nathan D. Horowitz, Charlie Beyer, & myself.
There is also new graphic artwork by AbandonView, Epi Rogan, Louis Staeble, Kassandra Soulard, Sam Knot, Tamara Miles, & Nathan D. Horowitz.
Contents of this new issue include:
From Soulard’s Notebooks [Excerpt]
I find myself leaning back often into 3 questions that I believe most influence human psychology & human culture:
1) Why are we here?
2) Where are we from?
3) What are we supposed to be doing?
* * * * * *
Feedback on Cenacle 123 [Excerpt]
I made it to the first poem by Judih Weinstein Haggai, sank into it, breathed it, needed it, and couldn’t go further into the issue yet. But it’s beautiful. And Kassandra Soulard’s cover photo: wow.
(Tamara Miles)
* * * * * *
From the ElectroLounge Forums:
Selections from Unknot 24, Part 1[Excerpt]
A project that I expect to work on for the rest of my life and never finish is a kind of art project playing with meaning making and the first few layers of knots, so this is all part of that really. I suppose it is a way to give a kind of focus or even kind of “abstract grounding” to some other kind of activity which isn’t necessarily even directly related to or about it.
(Sam Knot)
* * * * * *
Haiku from a Silent Retreat (7/31/2021) [Excerpt]
by Judih Weinstein Haggai
Everybody!
Are you everybody?
I’m not either
* * * * * *
Notes from New England:
Dream Raps, Volume Thirteen [Excerpt]
by Raymond Soulard, Jr.
Now that my friends are gone, the very shy Creatures who sometimes visit my hovel begin to come out, sniffing friendly their hellos. Accept my offer to cluster with me under the blankets, them being cold as ever when outside of the White Woods. White Bunny, Hedgedyhog, Peppermint Bears, Kittees & their Friend Fish. Alvinarah Poesy, & his dear friend Naria Narwhal. Even that cackling little Imp is under there somewhere. They never stay long, but I love them passing through. They’re excited about the Rutabaga Festival & Fleastock in the White Woods, I’m guessing.
* * * * * *
Becoming Archaeology: A Eulogy for Living Moor. (Part Two) [Excerpt]
by Sam Knot
It moves me more than any painting
or poem, seems to encode more meaning,
personal & planetary, than any other art,
this simple offering. This intricate gift.
* * * * * *
Notes Toward Many Musics [Excerpt]
by Raymond Soulard, Jr.
I believe a Narrative should always lead with the best it has, its most potent moment or image or the like. And let this lead set its standard. When I think of the Narrative options for these poems, I come back every time to starting from the start. These poems build on years & years of the work it took to get the six Brother-Heroes reunited rightly, after telling their unique stories as rightly as possible too. I did the best thinking & writing that I could.
* * * * * *
Poetry by Martina Newberry [Excerpt]
Tall on the dirty stage,
from my notebook I conferred
my poems. No time limit,
no faces, noises of shifting
dust and cars out there somewhere,
I read for many minutes,
emoting here and there,
hands rising and falling,
singing through some.
* * * * * *
Rivers of the Mind (A Novel) [Excerpt]
by Timothy Vilgiate
I could not help but fear that he’d attack me as I laid there; I lost count of how many times I got up to check my locks or to peek underneath the bed. I turned over and over, rocking the mattress like an unsteady boat, straining to keep my eyes shut. It was no use. Midnight came, and I was still awake; my hair matted over my irritated face, my blanket clutched in between my hands over my mouth as I tried to stop myself from sobbing. But I couldn’t let it see me cry. I couldn’t let it even see me blink.
* * * * * *
Poetry by Tamara Miles [Excerpt]
A lion’s music—a carnival of sound, beyond the roar of reserve, park, zoo, circus, and
safari, the wild kingdom beyond the definition of safe and unsafe, cruel or kind, in
sub-Saharan Africa, or in India, Gir forest, where the heart beat and drum beat and
incense are heavy.
* * * * * *
The Lagoon of the Air Goblins (Travel Journal) [Excerpt]
by Nathan D. Horowitz
I’m dehydrated from the sun today. I haven’t rehydrated. My hydration’s out of wack. It seems an eternity, maybe two, since I ordered a glass of papaya juice. Inside the café, mysterious café things may be happening, involving blenders and workforce and fruit and power. Time’s ticking by and it sounds like trees falling into a river. I glance at the red and white checkered tablecloth and remember I’ve always hated red and white checkered patterns. Serafín the educator said he would meet me here to tell me about the Secoya cosmovision, and he isn’t showing up.
* * * * * *
Poetry by Colin James [Excerpt]
Episodically craved by adolescents,
Prometheus displays his tats
behind The Dollar Store in Bonita.
The one with the plastic pillars.
* * * * * *
Mad Jack (Prose) [Excerpt]
by Charlie Beyer
We were longhaired teenage criminals. I looked like Jesus and my best buddy had flaming red shoulder-length hair, the devil to rival my divine look. Scott the Red. We were all hair, except Mad Jack (or Bob, as I knew him), who was as shaved as a plastic bag. We all sat in the car outside the 7-11 in the night rain. Blue smoke trickled out of the cracked window. Inside was a haze of marijuana smoke tainted with opium. We were high and crazed.
* * * * * *
Poetry by Jimmy Heffernan [Excerpt]
The moment to which we have access
So Nature can “see” through time
And what is this but awareness?
A tunneling from the immediate future
Back into the present
* * * * * *
Bags End Book #21: What is the Creature Carnival? Part 3 (Fiction) [Excerpt]
by Algernon Beagle
It makes me remember how our teacher Mister Owl in Bags End teached how different places have their different ways of thinking & telling. So if you’re gonna watch a Creature production, whether it’s the Carnival, or a Grand Production, or this time both, you’re gonna be in 4or a good crazy ride.
* * * * * *
The Hound of the Baskervilles (Classic Fiction) [Excerpt]
by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
Mr. Sherlock Holmes, who was usually very late in the mornings, save upon those not infrequent occasions when he was up all night, was seated at the breakfast table. I stood upon the hearth-rug and picked up the stick which our visitor had left behind him the night before. It was a fine, thick piece of wood, bulbous-headed, of the sort which is known as a “Penang lawyer.” Just under the head was a broad silver band nearly an inch across. “To James Mortimer, M.R.C.S., from his friends of the C.C.H.,” was engraved upon it, with the date “1884.” It was just such a stick as the oldfashioned family practitioner used to carry—dignified, solid, and reassuring.
* * * * * *
Labyrinthine [A New Fixtion] [Excerpt]
by Raymond Soulard, Jr.
I’m distracted just as this strange fellow appears on stage with some kind of tool in his hand. He is very fancily dressed, some kind of home-made tuxedo? Or one sewn from many scraps? And he starts to recite a poem, I think, in a tongue I don’t know, when something distracts me.
Peace,
Raymond Soulard, Jr.
Scriptor Press New England
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In the new update on the EN server, there is a "6-year anniversary" button, that let's you interact with your t-doll that's currently on the main screen.
When you use it when M4 is on the screen, this scene begins:
*Commander's station* On this silent night, a message from an unknown sender arrives quietly in your mailbox.
...Let me be no nearer
In death's dream kingdom
Let me also wear
Such deliberate disguises
Rat's coat, crowskin, crossed starves
In a field
Behaving as the wind behaves
No nearer-
Not that final meeting
In the twilight kingdom.
I played all game events until Slowshock, so i know what kinda happened to M4 and i know we are in the final arc of GFL.
I'm asking if someone has some lore theory about this poem or if this is something new.
(I tagged it as Lore&Theory and it's my first time doing a post; so if i did something wrong, let me know and i'll work on it immediately)
(UPDATE-14/05/2024)
Doing the same thing with M16, triggers this scene (that i think it's related to the previous one):
*M16 in a bar at night*
You came all the here just looking for me, Commander?
I would stink out like a sore thumb at the celebration, so I'd best stick to this of quiet places.
You know, i had a dream last night--that's right, Dolls dream too.
In my dream, someone was reciting a poem--the voice was familiar but i couldn't remember who it was--
There, the eyes are
Sunlight on broken column
There, is a tree swinging
And voices are
In the wind's singing
More distant and solemn
Than a fading star.
Don't ask me what it means, it just felt nostalgic to me.
I hope such a bleak poem did not ruin your fun on such a joyous evening?
Haha, let's just have a drink. I'm sure we both have things we want to say that can only be conveyed in silent sips.
*scene ends*
I tried the same thing with the rest of the AR team, but nothing happened that made me think it's related to these events.
(UPDATE-14/05/2024)
I found out that there are a lot of references about recent events with other characters (dolls and not); i will not post everyone's scene because i think the post will become too dispersive, but i'll make a list and comunicate which characters have lines related to the lore and post it here.
Here is the list of important characters related to the lore, which you can interact:
Kalina, Angelia, SCAR-H & SCR, Wolfpack squad (AK12,AN98,AK15 and RPK-16), UMP9, Architect & Gager.
I also discovered that different skins of the coalition units trigger different scenes (i tried with Scarecrow and Demonic Abyss Scarecrow).
Thank you for reading this far and good luck with the collab event!

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I'm 38f and my husband is 41m. We have been together for 16 years and married for 15 this year.
He has cheated on me 3 times before. The third time I found on at the beginning of 2023.
So in 2020 I became disabled. I got really sick. Spent time in the hospital and after that, couldn't walk anymore. My husband is now my caregiver. He gets paid to help me.
I used to be independent and now need a lot of help. I try to do what I can by myself but I'll always need help. I'm lucky and grateful He stuck around. Most people probably wouldn't.
So my main issue is romance. I never thought I needed much romance. But I believe myself to be wrong. I do a lot of things for him. I did things before I became disabled and try to do so after.
I try not to keep score and know it isn't a competition. But I have a hard time feeling like I'm not getting enough. I've bought lots of little items for him to show I'm thinking about him or love him, I've wrote poems for him, I get things for Father's Day even though we only have dogs, I bought 2 stars from the constellation Cancer (we are both Cancers) that is in our anniversary.
I get flowers rarely and sometimes a stuffed animal from the grocery store. That's all. Except for Birthdays and Yule, I get maybe 1 thing a year.
I know taking care of me is romantic and also a chore, but I feel like I deserve more. I don't want my disability to be the only romance I ever get.
I am always thankful and appreciative. I tell him often. I showed him the best I can often. I've stuck by him through a lot of stuff and I know he is doing the same.
Is it selfish of me to think I still deserve a little romance? He keeps telling me he will work on it. Doesn't. I bought him a romance book and he "lost" it. But he thinks he knows where it is. He will look. Doesn't.
Bet yet, when I went through all the conversations with these *itches he used to chat with... He is romantic. Poetry. Money. Shows them things, does things. I dont understand.
He says he didn't think he was being romantic. He had to have.
Am I being stupid? Selfish? Should I just be happy he stuck around to be with me?
I just need some perspective!
Am I the AH?
Please be honest.
Thank you

Today's anniversaries are:
2010

• Keep of Kalessin - Reptilian (metal, extreme metal, Trondheim)
  
• Nicolas Cusworth Media - Mezzo Shark versus Giant Octavepus ()
  

2011

• Liturgy - Æsthethica (experimental, black metal, Brooklyn)
  
• Matana Roberts - Coin Coin, Chapter One: Gens de couleur libres (avant-garde jazz)
  

2013

• Chaostar - Anomima (ambient, darkwave, christos antoniou, classical, metal, neoclassical, season of mist, septicflesh, Αθήνα)
  
• Cou coupé - Chanson d'ascenseur, d'escalier et de chute libre (folk, jouet, Montreal)
  
• Deconstructing Sequence - Year One (metal, black metal, death metal, progressive death metal, progressive metal, technical death metal, Szczecin)
  
• Peculate - The Great Gesticulator (metal, alternative, avant-garde, avant-garde metal, classical, deathcore, djent, electronic, experimental metal, hardcore, mathcore, post-rock, progressive metal, punk, technical death metal, USA)
  

2015

• Sevish - Rhythm & Xen (drum & bass, electronic, atmospheric, breakbeat, drum & bass, drum and bass, electronic, microtonal, xenharmonic, United Kingdom) Read our review.

2017

• Harbour - Animate (metal, progressive rock, ambience, djent, progressive metal, Wollongong)
  
• Matvei Vellman - Symphony № 3 (classical, avant-garde, classical, fusion, neoclassical, progressive, Phoenix)
  
• N-1 - Sir Bufo (experimental, krefeld, progressive rock, doom, improvisation, krautrock, postrock, progressive, psychedelic, sludge metal, Krefeld)
  
• Sōl iūstitiae - Iam, Chrīste, sōl iūstitiae (atmospheric black metal, metal, atmospheric, postmetal, postrock, sludge, Turin)
  
• Soz - Soz (metal, crust punk, drone, noise, noise metal, sludge, Denver)
  
• Will You Dream about Electronic Sheep - Arc (rock, ambience, instrumental, math, math rock, post-rock, progressive, New York)
  
• Wovette - Steeple (experimental, paloma, piano, prepared piano, Los Angeles)
  

2018

• Elementum - Sequence (metal, djent, instrumental, metal, progressive, Novosibirsk)
  
• Surface World - Surface World (death metal, metal, noise)
  

2019

• Æon Zen - Invēritās (progressive metal)
  
• Aman Jagwani - Essentially Entangled (Jazz)
  
• Astrïd - A Porthole: Ⅰ (alternative, electronic, ambient, dark ambient, modern classical, neo-classical, post-metal, post-rock, United Kingdom)
  
• Bak - Painter (metal, middle eastern, orchestral rock, progressive rock, rock, symphonic progressive rock, prog rock, progressive metal, Sydney)
  
• Big, Brave - A Gaze among Them (experimental, metal, montréal, southern lord records, experimental, southern lord, Montreal)
  
• Boltzmann Brain - Spacesquid Brain (experimental, progressive rock, avant-garde, drone, experimental rock, jazz, krautrock, noise, noise rock, psychedelic rock, zeuhl, Germany)
  
• Borders - Purify (djentcore, groove metal, metal, metalcore, djent, progressive metalcore, Lincoln)
  
• Burton Greene, Damon Smith, and Ra Kalam Bob Moses - Life's Intense Mystery (jazz, burton greene, free improv, free improvisation, free jazz, rakalam bob moses, Boston)
  
• Caroline Davis's Alula - Alula (jazz, improvised music, new music, Brooklyn) Read our review.
  
• Dreadnought - Emergence (metal, folk, post-rock, progressive, progressive metal, psychadelic, Colorado) Read our review.
  
• Dury Dava - Dury Dava (alternative, indie rock, krautrock, psychedelic, Athens)
  
• Eclectic Maybe Band - Reflection in a Mœbius Ring Mirror (experimental, guy segers, experimental electronic, improvisation, jazzrock, zeuhl, Sheffield)
  
• Elohim - Braindead (Dance)
  
• Employed to Serve - Eternal Forward Motion (Metal)
  
• Ensemble Ipse - Folding Music (Classical)
  
• Eyolf Dale & André Roligheten - Departure (acoustic, jazz, duo, expression, intimate, jazz duo, lyrical, melodic, piano, saxophone, Oslo)
  
• Firelink - The Inveterate Fire (black metal, death metal, metal, dark souls, melodic death metal, progressive metal, Atlanta)
  
• Five Times Surprise - Five Times Surprise (adventurous music, dixie dregs, experimental, jazz, art rock, avant-garde, electric jazz, electronic music, jam band, jazz rock, messthetics, rock in opposition, Washington)
  
• Harris Eisenstadt - Old Growth Forest Ⅱ (jazz, Brooklyn)
  
• Holly Herndon - Proto (electronic, avant garde, electronic, experimental electronic, pop, Berlin)
  
• Inanimate Existence - Clockwork (death metal, metal, progressive, progressive death metal, progressive metal, tech death, technical death metal, California)
  
• Jakob Buchanan - A Language of My Own (jazz, chamber music, Aarhus)
  
• Ken Vandermark & Terrie Ex - Scaffolding (jazz, free jazz, improvised music, jazz, Chicago)
  
• Kongo Dia Ntotila - 360° (african, jazz fusion, kongo, londonjazz, world, african, afro jazz, congolese music, fusion, jazz, kongo, kongojazz, world music., London)
  
• Kyle - Pre Cum Post Jazz (rock, great tone music, instrumental, math rock, mathrock, metamodernism, minimalist, n64 punk, postrock, synth, synthpunk, Atlanta)
  
• Newen Afrobeat - Curiche (afrobeat, fela kuti, newen afrobeat, oghene kologbo, world, afrobeat, funk, highlife, world, world beat, world music, worldbeats, Santiago)
  
• Nick DePinna - Nexus Music, Volume 1 (avant-garde, electronic, experimental, jazz, pop, rock, Los Angeles)
  
• Pat Thomas, John Butcher, and Ståle Liavik Solberg - Fictional Souvenirs (jazz, London)
  
• Patrick Shiroishi, Vinny Golia, Dylan Fujioka, and Alex Cline - Borasisi (jazz, Los Angeles)
  
• Port noir - The New Routine (Alternative, Indie Pop, Indie Rock, Pop, Rock, Hard Rock, Metal)
  
• Sühnopfer - Hic rēgnant Borbonii mānēs (metal, black metal, french black metal, medieval black metal, melodic black metal, France)
  
• The Omnific - The Mind's Eye (experimental, progressive rock, jazz, progressive, Melbourne)
  
• Vivin - Kaos (pop, Wien)
  
• Warforged - Ⅰ: Voice (atmospheric, black metal, death metal, metal, progressive, technical, Chicago) Read our review.
  
• Zaum - Divination (Metal)
  
• 空間現代 (Kūkan gendai) - Palm (experimental, Paris)
  

2020

• Corelia - New Wilderness (progressive metal)
  
• Errata - Many People Are Unenthusiastic about Your Work (experimental jazz) Read our review.
  
• Kartoffelkoffer - Unter Wasser (modern jazz)
  
• Music by Gestalt - Debussy's Fawn (jazz fusion)
  
• Pestilength - Apore Flesh (blackened death metal)
  

2021

• Roscoe Mitchell, Sandy Ewen, Damon Smith, and Weasel Walter - A Railroad Spike Forms the Voice (free improvisation)
  
• Морох (Morox / Morokh) - All the Darkness Looks Alive (blackened hardcore)
  

2022

• Andrea Grossi's Blend 3 & Beatrice Arrigoni - Songs and Poems (modern jazz)
  
• Ashkan Behzadi & Tak Ensemble - Love, Crystal and Stone (contemporary classical)
  
• Fátima - Fossil (stoner metal)
  
• Loftus - Hugs and Drugs (mathcore)
  
• Ootheca - 2022 Demo (avant-garde death metal)
  
• Paul Shapera - The Posthuman War, Act 4: Red River (progressive rock)
  
• Rance - Ⅲ (atmospheric black metal)
  
• อัฐิ (Xạṭ̄hi) - อนันตทุคติ (Xnạnt thukhti) (black metal)
  

2023

• Quasarborn - Novo oružje protiv bola (progressive metal)
  
• Zmar - Napořád (blackened hardcore)
  

So what are your favorite recordings of this? Bonus for those you can link to.
I'm hoping to listen to two or three different recordings tomorrow.
Anyway, I've loved this piece ever since I went through a unit on it in a high school philosophy class, where we looked at the possible meaning behind each movement and how the first three led the fourth with Schiller's famous poem.
Before that class, I never even owned a recording of this, other than a record that my parents had. I wasn't allowed to operate the record player, though, so I rarely heard it. Afterward, of course, I got myself a CD. (I already had a bunch of Beethoven on CD at the time -- just not his symphonies.)
I won't pretend to be an expert, because after all, this was a high school class I took decades ago, but that partly explains why I'm so interested in the anniversary.
Also, you know, it's one of the greatest works of art ever created.