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How do I(27M) get my GF(29F) that she still hasn't gotten over getting cheated on in her previous relationship?
2024.06.09 19:36 Famous-Reflection-31 How do I(27M) get my GF(29F) that she still hasn't gotten over getting cheated on in her previous relationship?
I(27M) have been in relationship with my GF(29F) for 3 years. When we got together, both of us had gotten out of recent relationships that left us messed up. I had gotten out of my first serious relationship and she had gotten out of a long term 2 year relationship after being cheated on twice at 2 different points. I gave her my location and access to everything of mine due to this, we spent the nights on speaker phone while we slept, and we spent all our time together at my apartment. I had to move for my job in the summer, but promised to come back as soon as an opportunity came up in her area. During that time I went to a massage therapist, which I did since high school due to a pinched nerve in my back that would occasionally inflame, I did disclose the previously, but I guess I neglected to mention it to her during our nightly phone call. Come December, I return to see her and topic is brought up and she immediately accuses me of cheating. I admit I had a phase in college that she utilized for the basis of the claim, but I showed her the evidence with all her access she had to my location, and I understand the suspicion, with Deshaun Watson all over the news. I thought I had calmed her down after disproving the allegations and were continuing the relationship as normal. I got a job near her and moved back close to her work. She started to change, I started to find out she was deleting my graduate school friends off my phone or blocking them. Which was a problem since they were important industry contacts. She was also accusing me of cheating any time I left the apartment without her, which was a problem as she refused to move in with me, so every grocery store run turned into a phone call. I got her into therapy after an incident and there was progress for a period of time. There was still accusations though, so I suggested couples counseling. The issue was that she set up the counseling herself and refuse to show up, and the times she did show up, 3/4 counselors stated that she had to start coming, accept my past, or we should break up. I have my reasons for staying with her as she was going through health problems and due to misdiagnoses, she had become extreme antagonist of the medical community, which I happen to work for. Recently, she cut out toxic friends(they were friends since college) that would bad mouth her and our relationship behind her back, which was brought to light by one of my friends on a trip. Basically her ex-friend was complaining that we weren't including her after explicitly stating she wanted to treat her as if she wasn't there for portions of the trip, then talking negatively about her and the relationship to my friend, who defended us and then notified us. She then started to isolate herself as her ability to trust has been destroyed. She has recently started to bring back up how she can't trust my friend because of my past and that they know my ex (it's a close knit industry and honestly the break up was my fault and they're required to work with her). This then devolves into she doesn't trust my decisions and how she needs to be right. I have brought this up again and will be trying to find another couple's counselor and I know she is going to individual therapy already.
How do I get her to understand that she doesn't trust me and I need her to trust me for me to feel comfortable committing to relationship? Should I continue trying, as this will be the third time I've brought it and it seems to occur every 1-3 month?
Part of me wants to set her up with a couple of my female friends with common interest so she can be herself again, I know this will be a bad idea as long as she doesn't trust me.
tl;dr: My girlfriend(29F) still can't trust me(27M) after being cheated on by her ex, and I'm out of ideas for solutions and how to confront her about it because it is affecting her trust with me.
There are some details left out so this can be posted.
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How do I get her to understand that she doesn't trust me and I need her to trust me for me to feel comfortable committing to relationship? Should I continue trying, as this will be the third time I've brought it and it seems to occur every 1-3 month?
Part of me wants to set her up with a couple of my female friends with common interest so she can be herself again, I know this will be a bad idea as long as she doesn't trust me.
tl;dr: My girlfriend(29F) still can't trust me(27M) after being cheated on by her ex, and I'm out of ideas for solutions and how to confront her about it because it is affecting her trust with me.
There are some details left out so this can be posted.
2024.06.09 17:21 arrow-bane The Wandering God - Chapter 2: Memories Part 2
Lydia awoke with Waldo screaming. Lydia quickly got up and activated the magic stones lighting the room, Lydia did not see a reason for him to be screaming and was about to wake him when he went quiet. Lydia wondered what had happened and as she watched him she became concerned he was not breathing but just as she was about to shake him away he started breathing again then he began to weep in his sleep saying “I would take it back if I could. I did not know what it meant. Please, I never meant for this.” Lydia watched over him for several minutes as he repeated this over and over. Lydia did not know why but after a while she embraced him gently.
“It is ok. We all make mistakes.” Lydia said quietly holding him. She did not entirely know why she chose to do this as she felt some concern over what he was apologizing for having done but something made her decide to stay with him. Eventually, he stopped and started sleeping peacefully. Lydia slowly fell back to sleep after he quieted and returned to a peaceful state.
Lydia awoke again with Waldo sitting dressed on the edge of the bed. “Good Morning.”
“Good Morning.” Waldo replied, turning to Lydia. “Sorry, if I woke you in the night. I do not always sleep well.”
“I can understand that. It took almost a year before I could sleep through the night.” Lydia replied.
“I brought breakfast up. Kna mentioned I screamed in the middle of the night. I rarely have a companion… So I did not know. I guess I was extra loud last night. I woke some other patrons.” Waldo said calmly. Lydia climbed out of bed and dressed herself as Waldo watched her but when she looked at him she felt he was lost in his own mind.
"Copper for your thoughts.” Lydia said as she started to lace up her dress. Waldo walked over to her and helped her.
“I thought I knew who I was…but I remembered things last night…” Waldo said hollowly. “I don’t know what I was fighting for… All that time as a soldier and now I remembered… what I learned before arriving here and it isn’t what I thought.”
“Do you want to elaborate?” Lydia asked.
“I am not sure I know how.” Waldo said and there was silence for a moment.
“Well, maybe you should stay here if you don’t know why you were fighting. At least, until you figure out what you want.” Lydia said and feeling better about what she had heard last night she kissed him gently on the cheek. “Thank you. I would stay for breakfast but I need to get to work.” Lydia said, grabbing a piece of bread with an egg off the plate.
“Have a nice day and I hope to see you later.” Waldo said, as she headed toward the door.
“Good luck today!” Lydia said, smiling and left. Waldo collected several things from his pack then stored it under the bed and took the plate of food to the common room where he ate slowly. Waldo noticed that Lydia was not in the common room as he ate breakfast. Waldo did not have to wait long after finishing his breakfast before Strisk arrived.
“Good Morning!” Strisk waved at Waldo moving across the common room.
“Greetings Strisk.” Waldo replied standing and moving to meet him.
“Are you ready to go down to the training grounds?” Strisk asked.
“Yeah, let’s head out.” Waldo said, motioning for Strisk to lead the way.
“Are you in a hurry?” Strisk asked, leading Waldo out.
“No, nothing like that just…” Waldo stopped in the door exiting the inn as he looked out into the city. Waldo had expected Protham to be small but realized it had been dark when he arrived and late that is why he had not realized how expansive it was. Waldo saw a wall sixty or seventy feet tall. Waldo stepped into the street and could see a gate two hundred or so feet down the road in one direction and in the other there was what appeared to be a small square. “How big is Protham?”
“It is just a small village, only five thousand or so. Most people are employed in fishing the lake or harvesting trees.” Strisk replied. “The gnolls recently opened a college here… Something about ley lines and increased power, but that is not my expertise.”
“I am surprised they even care about the ley line. The planet is so saturated with magic I would have thought everyone can easily use it.” Waldo responded.
“I wouldn’t know about that. Are you a mage?” Strisk asked.
“I cannot use magic… I can still feel it pooling.” Waldo said, wondering why he could feel it still since he now knew he could not use it. “It must be something to do with the leveling. I wonder if there is a construct powering the whole system.”
“You are suggesting a magic artifact causes people to level?”Strisk asked, shocked at the strangeness of the idea.
“Um… So I assume it is a mage college of some kind they opened?” Waldo asked, trying to change topics.
“Yeah. I would have suggested going and seeing the head there about your teleporting but from what I have heard they see almost no one who isn’t a student.” Strisk said, starting to walk down the street. Waldo followed, taking in the people and the streets. Waldo noticed most people were gnollish he saw drakes as well but it seemed to be ten to one.
“Lydia said you are a Drake. I have never learned to identify the scaled races apart from one another. It appears that Protham is mostly gnolls and Drakes. What makes a drake a drake and not say a lizardfolk?” Waldo asked, carefully.
“Lydia is right. I am a Drake. Lizardfolk always have tails. Drakes rarely have tails and those that do have a tail almost always have wings. That is usually the easiest way to tell us apart but it is more nuanced. A healthy Drake’s scales are vibrant, we stand out. A healthy lizardfolk has duller scales. Drakes can have horns or spikes across their head and back but never hair. Lizardfolk never have horns but can grow spikes. Usually they grow something more like a fin, which can be over their head or even down their chin to their chest. All the facial features are nuanced except the eye. Drake’s eyes face forward. Lizardfolk’s eyes face out enough to easily tell if you look at them.” Strisk explained calmly. “Kobolds are short but look like Drakes with a tail and all the other scaled races have gills.”
“Thank you. I realize that might have been rude to ask but I assume it is ruder to make a mistake.” Waldo said as they continued to make their way through the mostly empty streets.
“Most drakes consider it the pinnacle of rudeness to mistake us for the lizardfolk. Well the lizardfolk seem indifferent. I once saw a short Lizardman get mistaken for a Kobold and they laughed about it. Well a few days ago I had to break up a bar fight cause a gnoll called a drake a lizard.” Strisk said. “My people need to calm down about being mistaken for another race. Most cannot even tell the other races apart. No offense, but I assume you are a human because Lydia is one without looking at your ears, which are currently covered by your hair you could pass for an elf in my eyes and if you told me you were a dwarf I would believe it… even though, I think you are too tall to be a dwarf.” Waldo laughed at Strisk’s words.
“An elf you say?” Waldo said, smiling and moving his hair from over his ears. “I am a human. However, I can understand the confusion. Even among humans it is possible for some to mistake another human as one of our kin races.”
“Kin race?” Strisk asked.
“Yes, races that share certain broad features and where half races are possible.” Waldo said.
“Then would Drakes not be a Kin race.” Strisk asked.
“You ever seen a half human and half drake?” Waldo asked.
“Well no, but I was told it was possible.” Strisk said, wondering.
“Possible for our race's women’s bodies to respond as if they are creating a blend. However, it is largely my understanding no blend has survived birth. Maybe one is out there but largely our internal anatomy; bone structure, organ placement, organs in general, and finer points don’t blend into something that survives birth if a pregnancy occurs which to my knowledge is extremely rare and usually it is a half race not a full where that can occur according to one report I read most mothers die in labor if they carry the blend to term and the child still dies.” Waldo said calmly. Strisk stopped.
“How do you know this?” Strisk asked. Waldo thought about it for a moment. Realizing he did not know how to explain having millions of years of knowledge on hand a little surprised he had so easily recalled something from another life. As he thought about it he wondered how he could so easily access it. Then he knew. Four of his prior selves had learned to build a mind palace. When the Orc had implanted all the memories, those four had combined their knowledge and laid out everything, which made him wonder how he knew about the interbreeding of humans and drakes, which brought forth the memories of four doctors. One of which was drake. Strisk watched as Waldo stared off into the distance. Suddenly, Waldo went pale and threw up in the street. “What the hell?” Strisk said, jumping back to avoid getting splattered.
“Sorry.” Waldo said, feeling queasy. Waldo pushed the doctor’s memories away realizing he was not ready to go exploring all the memories aimlessly. Waldo pulled out his hip canteen and washed his mouth out. Spitting the water down a nearby drain “Damn. I was hoping to not have to eat until dinner. I assume the interview will have a combat skills test?” Waldo asked, looking at Strisk.
“Well yes, but what was that?” Strisk asked, feeling the response was unjustified for his question.
“Oh, right, your question. Um… I went to a memory I should have left alone. I was thinking about my time studying… when I strayed into an incident.” Waldo said, trying to explain without lying.
“An incident?” Strisk asked.
“I expect there are things you have seen as a city guard you would rather not remember.” Waldo replied, carefully.
“Oh… you mean something like that. I can understand that. Let’s continue on. Just another block or so.” Strisk said, letting Waldo follow him. Neither said anything until they got to the city's barracks. They had crossed near the center of town and were now at a lakeside gate that had a training arena with a large gatehouse next to it.
“How many positions is the guard filling?” Waldo asked as they approached the building.
“We are adding five new full time positions in hope of growth due to the mage college, three part time, and around fifty new reservists.” Strisk said and then opened the gatehouse’s front door.
“Good Morning, Strisk!” A female voice behind the counter greeted as they entered.
“Good Morning, Violet.” Strisk replied. “Is Trag in?”
“Yes, he got in a bit ago and…Who are you?” Violet asked, staring at Waldo as he entered the gatehouse.
“Waldo Winter.” Waldo said, step into the room and bowing slightly to the human girl behind the counter.
“He is with me. Violet. He arrived in town last night under strange circumstances.” Strisk said.
“Is he why you are meeting with Trag this early?” Violet asked, keeping her eyes on Waldo. “Is he a criminal?”
“Yes to the meeting with Trag and not as far as I am aware. You haven’t done anything illegal have you?” Strisk asked, grinning Waldo.
“Admittedly, I have not read your legal code, but assuming it follows traditional patterns of legal codes for structured societies. Not in this city. At least, I very much doubt I have.” Waldo said, smiling lightly at Violet.
“What are you doing here then?” Violet asked.
“Apart from identifying myself to local authorities due to the strange way I arrived. Hopefully, applying for a job.” Waldo stated. Violet frowned.
“Are you applying for citizenship in Protham or just submitting notice of intent to work in Protham?” Violet asked.
“Notice of intent to work, at this time.” Waldo replied, moving up to the desk as Strisk stepped away. Violet handed him a sheet of paper and pulled out a second enchanted page.
“Good luck finding work here. There are not many jobs outside of scribe, barworker, or general laborer for humans in Protham. The Drakes and Gnolls are larger and stronger than humans naturally and they are basically hiring enforcers right now.” Violet whispered to Waldo. “Where are you staying?”
“The Spriggan Inn.” Waldo said, looking at the form, surprised he could read it. As he started to fill out the form he remembered a passage about grown arrivals passing between world and being gifted languages of the worlds they arrived on from death. Waldo tried to remember the author's reasoning for the gift but could not. Waldo wished he had learned written gnollish languages but had only learned their spoken languages.
“How did you come to be there?” Violet said, showing surprise.
“Long story short…Some sort of teleportation accident.” Waldo answered, focused on completing the form.
“Wow… Lucky.” Violet said, thinking it strange he appeared in the only inn with a human working in it in Protham.
“Yes, but I suspect there is a good reason for that.” Waldo said, handing her the completed form.
“You how to read Grofeas gnoll?” Strisk asked, looking at Waldo holding the form out to Violet. “You said you had not heard of this country last night.” Violet took the form looking suspiciously at Waldo.
"No, I am familiar with other gnollish written languages and this is close enough to them that I guessed. Please check that and make sure my responses make sense.” Waldo said, looking at Violet. Waldo smiled at his omission. He was familiar with several gnoll written languages and had learned a few key words like bathroom, food, and price but had not even memorized their alphabet. Violet started to look over the document carefully. Waldo noticed the enchanted page on the desk had a picture of his face on it now with a list of several things about him, such as height, an approximate weight, and the like. Waldo heard a low growl with several inflections. Waldo looked at the gnoll standing by Strisk.
“Would you mind repeating that? I am not sure I quite heard what you said, because I thought you called me a fur lover.” Waldo said, looking narrowly at the gnoll. The gnoll made several more growls at Waldo. The gnoll had reddish brown fur and stood a little shorter than Strisk. Waldo thought the gnoll would probably be considered extremely handsome among gnolls. He was well groomed and clearly muscled under the fur. He even wore a steel breastplate that was polished to a shine. Waldo saw a stamp over his right peck that appeared to be a runic enchantment.
“Because I am not. I learned it at the time because my life depended on it. The gnolls I met were not as affluent as you are here and only knew one language. Their own. I had to learn it or live without speaking. Their treatment of me would have killed me if I had not learned their language. They knew next to nothing of humans and were a tribe secluded in the mountains. They meant well, but due to the harsh circumstances of the location I was slowly dying from starvation and exposure. It took four weeks to learn enough for rough communication after which I found them to be extremely friendly and curious. I spent two years with that tribe before making contact with a human settlement in the area. I managed to broker a peace there because I learned gnollish. So I continued my education and have since learned various spoken dialects.” Waldo responded to the newcomers' growls calmly.
“Why don’t you respond in gnollish?” The gnoll asked, changing languages. Waldo growled back in several inflections and moved a hand. Violet had noticed hand movements when gnolls growled and never associated it with them speaking but Waldo’s movements were so pronounced she realized it had to be part of the gnollish language. “Fair enough. I am Captain Trag. Strisk says you are a soldier.”
“Wait what did you say?” Violet asked Waldo.
“Violet. Don’t be rude.” Strisk chided, curious himself but having held himself back.
“I am sorry. I have just never seen a non-gnoll speak gnollish” Violet said, almost involuntarily. Trag slapped Strisk across the back of the head.
“Strisk, she is our scribe, do not order her around.” Trag said, smiling. Waldo got the sense that Trag did not like Strisk.
“I explained human throats are not well formed for the gnollish language, which hurts my throat the more I speak it and makes my accompanying hand movements more pronounced than is proper.” Waldo explained to Violet.
“Can you teach me?” Violet asked, seeing how beneficial it would be to know gnollish in her job.
“We can talk after the interview.” Waldo said, smiling at Violet.
“Right, sorry. Thank you.” Violet replied looking over at Trag apologetically.
“Excuse me for interrupting your conversation Violet. I will make sure to send Waldo back once we are done.” Trag said, smiling at Violet then turning to Waldo. “What level of soldier are you? Or is it some other fighting class?”
“I don’t have any levels in fighting classes.” Waldo replied.
“And you want to be a city guard?” Trag said looking angrily at Strisk who looked at Waldo surprised.
“Wait, are you a medic of somekind?” Strisk asked, remembering the other night.
“No, just give me a chance. We should go to the training ground if combat assessment is to be a large part of this process.” Waldo stated, a little surprised they had started asking questions in the entrance.
“It is. We can train you in Protham legal code, but we rarely do combat training for our guards; most people come to us with twenty or more levels in a combat class, when they are applying to be a guard.” Trag stated, as Waldo opened the door.
“Where I come from people do not rely on the leveling systems for combat training.” Waldo started walking to the training grounds as Trag and Strisk followed.
“Where are you from?” Trag asked.
“Halcyon. Heard of it?” Waldo asked, knowing the reply.
“Nope.” Trag replied, thinking this human could never keep up with a gnoll or drake in a fight. “What are you wearing?” Trag asked, no longer able to hold back the question as the human looked very strange to him.
“Desert Armored Combat Fatigues, my throwing knives, combat knife, an assortment of tools I have found useful over the years, and a magic sling.” Waldo said, touching different things on his body. “The armor is stab resistant and there are several metal plates spread out in the fabric. If I get the job I would like to wear this until I can afford to get some locally made gear.”
“A magic sling?” Trag asked.
“Yeah, but I have limited ammo for it. It only works with special magic ammo and I doubt you have that here.” Waldo replied.
“Have you heard of a magic sling Strisk?” Trag asked.
“No, that is new to me.” Strisk replied. “I thought you could not use magic.”
“I cannot not cast a magic spell but this is an artifact. I could teach anyone to use it. If I had unlimited ammo or access to a bullet manufacturer I would be happy to show it off but I only have ninety rounds for it.” Waldo explained.
“How long have you been a soldier?” Trag asked, Waldo had seen himself in a mirror and knew they would not believe the truth. Waldo looked like he was in his prime but Halcyon slowed aging massively Waldo was older than any human got to normally and he was still unsure if he had died or Death’s healing had further reduced the effects of aging.
“Nine years.” Waldo replied, pushing it as far as he thought he could. Waldo had put his age down as twenty nine on the form, but knew he looked closer to twenty now. “I expect I will be sparing with one of you?”
“No, we are waiting for your sparring partners. I sent for two reservists. They generally are not needed for regular guard shifts and if they are injured it should not interfere with their regular jobs.” Trag stated, show us how good you are with throwing knives.
“Alright.” Waldo said, pulling four of the weighted knives from their sheaths. Waldo carried twelve in all. Four on his left leg, two on each arm and four on his chest. Waldo started by juggling the knives as he moved into position to throw them. Waldo smoothly plucked them out of the air as he was juggling them and launched them one after another in quick succession down the lane, with the knives sinking deep into the wooden target in a tight group.
“For having no skills that is pretty good. Now for the moving targets.” Trag said, with Waldo looking back at him as he pressed a button. Waldo watched as the targets began to move side to side. Waldo could tell this was intended for arrows as the range was longer than he would usually throw when it came to moving targets.
“May I move up or do you want me to throw from here?” Waldo asked.
“Tark throws from there.” Trag replied, Waldo grabbed two more knives, throwing them half a second after looking back at the target. Both landed bullseyes but Waldo could feel the strain on his muscles. He was not used to this distance. Waldo pulled two more and turned his back to the targets. Waldo slowly strafed toward the center of the range as he had started to the right side. After a moment making sure to give the targets time to move he spun around and with one hand launched both knives. One landed in a bullseye, but the other fell short. Waldo turned his back to the targets and drew all of his remaining knives placing them at the ready in one hand. Waldo turned and threw three and turned back around quickly. He heard 2 thuds and one that was a clang. He was not sure what the third had hit. Waldo spun around and sent his final knife down the lane hitting another bullseye. The three quick throws were not bullseyes but they had all hit targets.
“That is all the throwing knives I carry.” Waldo said. “Shall I collect them?”
“No, Strisk go get the knives and report back on how deep they are.” Trag said, turning the moving targets off. Waldo moved over to Trag as Strisk retrieved the knives. “Only one complete miss, that is not bad. If you are hired then we are gonna have to replace the knives with some weighted rods. We can issue you some bolas while on duty. Unless a kill order is issued, but most the time we will expect people to be taken alive.”
“Understandable. What is a bolas?” Waldo asked.
“It is three pieces of rope tied to each other on one end and has a weight on the other side. When throwing it, the intent is to hit a person's legs and if it works correctly it will wrap around a fleeing person’s legs and trip them. In town it can be tricky to use and for people they have lighter weights. It was originally used to hunt various animals on the plains. If the weights are too heavy they can break bones.” Trag said, explained. “What class are you?”
Waldo had been preparing for this question since they had asked him earlier. “Diplomat.” Waldo replied.
“You have no levels in a combat class but you are a diplomat as a soldier?” Trag questioned.
“When I use skills from it as a soldier it is generally in interrogations, but my personal goal was to try and find less violent solutions to my nation's disputes. So, I ended up becoming a diplomat. The times I acted in that capacity I was glad to have trained as a soldier. Few people seem to want peaceful resolutions. So as a diplomat I have often been met with violence.” Waldo explained twisting the truth. They stood in silence as they waited for Strisk to finish retrieving the knives. Strisk handed Waldo eleven of the knives and Trag one of the knives.
“Six perfect hits. Three near perfects. Two hits. One miss. Ten hits were all very deep. The one that made the clang hit a metal frame holding the target. It dented the metal and chipped his knife.” Strisk reported as Waldo sheathed the eleven knives he had been handed. Waldo looked at Trag just in time to catch his face returning to a neutral state after what Waldo believed to be a frown.
“How is your hand to hand combat proficiency?”Trag asked.
“I am an expert with a knife, however, I could easily swap it out for a padded baton. It would be harder on me, but I am sure I can hold my own.” Waldo said, showing the knife sheathed across his lower back and trying to determine Trag’s mood. Trag examined the knife and could see it was custom made for Waldo and well used.
“Strisk, you are good to go on patrol. Your partner should be ready about now.” Trag said, with a hint of sadness.
“I was hoping to stay and see him fight the reservists.” Strisk said, a little excited and as Strisk said that it clicked for Waldo.
“No one is coming. To test my combat proficiency.” Waldo said, calmly. “Sorry, Strisk. I should have known better.”
“We should go to my office and talk.” Trag said and handed Waldo the chipped knife Strisk had handed him.
“Wait, why?” Strisk asked, Trag.
“Politics, Strisk. Guardsmen are just a little political, which means Trag cannot hire another human. Especially, not in a citizen-facing role.” Waldo said, with a smile. “Am I right?”
“Violet, is our scribe. Citizen’s see her.” Strisk said looking confused.
“Violet is my scribe. She assists with filing and compiling guardsmen reports. She has only covered the front desk on a few occasions and usually it is to give another scribe a break or chance to go to the bathroom.” Trag stated.
“Strisk, thank you for introducing me to Captain Trag. I truly appreciate this opportunity. I would be happy to speak to you in your office Trag.” Waldo said, smiling at both of them.
“Sorry, Waldo… I didn’t realize.” Strisk said dejectly. Waldo laughed lightly.
“You have done no harm at all and even helped me file documents I needed to in order to stay. You introduced me to your Captain. Strisk, you have been nothing but helpful. Please do not feel sorry.” Waldo said, smiling at Strisk.
“Thanks, I guess I should get going.” Strisk said, clearly feeling better. “Sir. Waldo.” Strisk said, nodding his head to each of them and leaving. Trag started heading towards the guard house and motioned for Waldo to follow, which Waldo did in silence. Trag opened the door and sure enough Violet was no longer at the front desk. There was a male Drake scribe sitting behind the counter.
“Sir.” The drake said, standing up to greet them. Trag waved his hand and the drake sat back down. Waldo followed him up a set of stairs and down a hall to an open room with three scribes working on various documents on a table big enough for four, one of which was Violet.
“Your morning report sir.” A female gnoll scribe said, smiling at Trag and holding a folder. She noticed Waldo and her demeanor changed slightly. She glanced at Violet as Trag grabbed the folder.
“Thank you. I have a meeting for a few minutes. Is there anything urgent?” Trag gestured at Waldo. The scribes all looked up and gave a negative nod. “If needed you may interrupt us.” Trag said, opening his office door and leading Waldo into his office. It was a plain room. There were several chairs facing the back of the room with a large desk and chair behind it facing the door. There were two sturdy looking bookcases organized with an assortment of documents. The room was clean and orderly. A couch sat against one wall with a window behind it that had shutters and Waldo noticed a plain axe with a rope next to it leaning against a bookcase. “Please take a seat.” Trag said, opening the folder as he moved around the desk and sat down. Waldo sat across from him. They sat in silence as Trag read over a few reports. “Thank you for your patience.” Trag said look up from the report.
“Anything important?” Waldo asked.
“No, just the normal going on. Except for you of course.” Trag said.
“Yeah, I made a surprising entrance last night.” Waldo agreed.
“Teleportation has a tendency to create some alerts. If Strisk had not reported your arrival last night, the guard may have interrupted your welcome to our fine city.” Trag replied.
“That report is more thorough than I would have liked.” Waldo stated.
“Kna is a friend and Aer is a gossip.” Trag replied.
“I should have waited in the common room. We could have talked last night.” Waldo guessed.
“Doubtful, but I would have known your face this morning if you had.” Trag stated.
“I had hoped this was an offer for contract work of some kind.” Waldo said, frowning slightly.
“It still might be. I have not determined what to do about you.” Trag replied.
“Oh, well is there something you would like cleared up?” Waldo asked, smiling.
“Kna is worried about one of her barmaids. Aer has never seen her friend respond so positively to someone so quickly.” Trag stated, calmly. Waldo knew they were straying into dangerous territory.
“I have never responded to another human as positively.” Waldo replied, honestly.
“Just two soulmates meeting for the first time?” Trag asked, Waldo jerked in surprise at the word reacting before he could stop himself. Waldo realized Trag did not mean it the way he had taken it but it was too late. Trag had been watching him closely and was now looking unsure at Waldo. “I think you have some explaining to do.” Trag said, prepared to strike. Waldo leaned forward and placed his head in his hand dropping his show.
“This cannot under any circumstances leave this room. If you have listeners they need to stop. If you have a way to make the room secure. I will tell you enough to know why.” Waldo said, unsure of what would happen next.
“What, so can you kill me in silence?” Trag asked, feeling concerned about this stranger's response.
“If you want to tie me up feel free, but I am not talking until I am confident the secret won’t leave this room.” Waldo said, sitting back and calming his nerves. Waldo was trying to figure out how to explain this with as little lying as possible. Waldo wondered if he could avoid lying all together. Trag hesitated for a minute then opened a drawer and pulled out a small box. Trag said a command word under his breath and the box activated.
“Alright, we are alone and no one can see or hear us. This better be good or I won’t keep your secret.” Trag said.
“Have you ever been in love so much it hurt your soul?” Waldo asked.
“What?” Trag asked, surprised.
“I have. If I had understood this was possible. If I had known. I would have done so many things differently.” Waldo said, deciding to be as honest as he felt he could. “I thought she was dead. I joined the wrong people to get vengeance. To make it stop. In doing, so I pissed off some really powerful people. I thought my master was strong enough to protect me and I thought I was powerful enough to protect myself. I want to tell Lydia so bad. I want her to remember our time together. Every second we spent together. If I had magic this would be so easy but using magic to accomplish it would be wrong.” Waldo said, with tears in his eyes. “I wish I could just show her. However, the people I pissed off took my ability to use magic. I did not even know that was possible.” Waldo said, holding out an open palm. “Light.” Trag felt magic tug slightly, but nothing happened. “They took my magic so I could not interfere. When they did that I thought they would send me to a prison cell or some equally horrible place. They cursed me with unwanted knowledge I can barely grasp. Part of my mind is still trying to rip itself apart. But instead of sending me to a desert. They toss me like I am nothing and I land inside Spriggan Inn, in Protham barely even hurt. I did know she was the same soul at first. Standing in the dim light of the inn. She looks the same. Alive working as a barmaid in a place I have never even heard of. She doesn’t even remember me but she was drawn to me just like I was to her all those years ago.” Waldo said. “Kna is worried I might hurt her and honestly so am I. However, if we are to separate again I would have her tell me to go. It would be the most painful thing I ever do but I would leave if she asked. I don’t blame you if you don’t believe me, but I have found my dead lover again, my soulmate and I never thought I would see her. She died so I figured that was it. I did not know about the cycle but now I do. So please give me the chance to win her.” Waldo finished with tears at the corners of his eyes. “Please, I am begging you.” Trag knew Waldo was leaving part out but felt he was being honest and looking at Waldo Trag knew he held this man’s life in his hands at this moment. Trag looked at Waldo and activated several skills he had for conversations like this. Trag knew Waldo did not intend harm at this time or harm to his city.
“For the moment. You have convinced me.” Trag said, still slightly concerned, something about him bothered Trag, but Trag was confident the stranger would be unlikely to deliberately cause problems in Protham.
“Thank you for giving me a chance. I will prove I mean no harm.” Waldo said, starting to recover his composure. Trag grabbed the rope and axe, placing them on his desk.
“Do you know how to cut down a tree?” Trag asked.
“Yes.” Waldo replied.
“As captain of the guard. I am allotted two trees every year. The town allows me to do as I will with the tree tokens, I am issued. The mill will pay me five gold per token on average. However, If I cut the tree down and turn in the tree with the token they will right now pay eight gold. If you cut a tree down and turn it in for me. I will let you keep two gold coins of those eight.” Trag stated placing a token on the table.
“Sounds like a good deal.” Waldo replied.
“Have you hunted boar?” Trag asked.
“I have hunted. Not specifically boar but I am familiar with the complexities they present.” Waldo replied, wondering where this was going.
“Currently, we have a boar problem on the western road and several groups have been attacked by boars. It is quite troublesome. Protham does not have an adventuring guild and most hunters will hunt safer game or only kill one or two boars at a time. You can rent a hand cart for a day for three coppers at the docks. Usually they are used to transport fish around town. They are sturdy carts and can hold several hundred kilos. There are several blacksmiths in town that sell quality steel tipped javelins, for a silver. Now they are not perfect for hunting boar but they should work well enough. Currently, I have placed a bounty on boar kills of a silver per boar jaw turned in. We will even buy the dead boar for one and half coppers per five pounds. However, you could show us the boar, collect the silver, then most local butchers will buy dead boar for two copper per five pounds. Those are the current rates for whole boars” Trag explained.
“Sounds like I have a tree to chop down.” Waldo said standing.
“Out the main gate past the mill and then pick an un-worked tree the taller the better. They pay less for trees shorter than twenty feet and more for trees taller than twenty five feet. If you are willing to search there are some forty and fifty footers out there. I expect six gold regardless.” Trag stated.
“Why are you doing this?” Waldo asked.
“It is not one thing. Lots of little things adding up. Kna is a friend and Lydia is important to her. Kna knows I cannot employ you as a guard. This keeps you out of trouble. Solves a problem for me and if you work hard. Kna might start to like you. I was not going to be able to cut my second tree down before the end of the year. There are more reasons, but in the end, I see no downside for me giving you this chance.” Trag stated plainly.
“Well thank you. I appreciate this.” Waldo said and picked up the axe smiling.
“Good Luck. I plan to eat dinner at Spriggan Inn. So if you get back after sunset you can find me there.” Trag said, gesturing for Waldo to leave.
“Thank you, again!” Waldo said, leaving. After he closed the door he looked for Violet but she was not there. Waldo headed to the stairs back to the entryway. Violet wasn’t there either so he left a message for her and headed back to the Inn. Waldo wanted to ditch his armor before heading out to cut down a tree.
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“It is ok. We all make mistakes.” Lydia said quietly holding him. She did not entirely know why she chose to do this as she felt some concern over what he was apologizing for having done but something made her decide to stay with him. Eventually, he stopped and started sleeping peacefully. Lydia slowly fell back to sleep after he quieted and returned to a peaceful state.
Lydia awoke again with Waldo sitting dressed on the edge of the bed. “Good Morning.”
“Good Morning.” Waldo replied, turning to Lydia. “Sorry, if I woke you in the night. I do not always sleep well.”
“I can understand that. It took almost a year before I could sleep through the night.” Lydia replied.
“I brought breakfast up. Kna mentioned I screamed in the middle of the night. I rarely have a companion… So I did not know. I guess I was extra loud last night. I woke some other patrons.” Waldo said calmly. Lydia climbed out of bed and dressed herself as Waldo watched her but when she looked at him she felt he was lost in his own mind.
"Copper for your thoughts.” Lydia said as she started to lace up her dress. Waldo walked over to her and helped her.
“I thought I knew who I was…but I remembered things last night…” Waldo said hollowly. “I don’t know what I was fighting for… All that time as a soldier and now I remembered… what I learned before arriving here and it isn’t what I thought.”
“Do you want to elaborate?” Lydia asked.
“I am not sure I know how.” Waldo said and there was silence for a moment.
“Well, maybe you should stay here if you don’t know why you were fighting. At least, until you figure out what you want.” Lydia said and feeling better about what she had heard last night she kissed him gently on the cheek. “Thank you. I would stay for breakfast but I need to get to work.” Lydia said, grabbing a piece of bread with an egg off the plate.
“Have a nice day and I hope to see you later.” Waldo said, as she headed toward the door.
“Good luck today!” Lydia said, smiling and left. Waldo collected several things from his pack then stored it under the bed and took the plate of food to the common room where he ate slowly. Waldo noticed that Lydia was not in the common room as he ate breakfast. Waldo did not have to wait long after finishing his breakfast before Strisk arrived.
“Good Morning!” Strisk waved at Waldo moving across the common room.
“Greetings Strisk.” Waldo replied standing and moving to meet him.
“Are you ready to go down to the training grounds?” Strisk asked.
“Yeah, let’s head out.” Waldo said, motioning for Strisk to lead the way.
“Are you in a hurry?” Strisk asked, leading Waldo out.
“No, nothing like that just…” Waldo stopped in the door exiting the inn as he looked out into the city. Waldo had expected Protham to be small but realized it had been dark when he arrived and late that is why he had not realized how expansive it was. Waldo saw a wall sixty or seventy feet tall. Waldo stepped into the street and could see a gate two hundred or so feet down the road in one direction and in the other there was what appeared to be a small square. “How big is Protham?”
“It is just a small village, only five thousand or so. Most people are employed in fishing the lake or harvesting trees.” Strisk replied. “The gnolls recently opened a college here… Something about ley lines and increased power, but that is not my expertise.”
“I am surprised they even care about the ley line. The planet is so saturated with magic I would have thought everyone can easily use it.” Waldo responded.
“I wouldn’t know about that. Are you a mage?” Strisk asked.
“I cannot use magic… I can still feel it pooling.” Waldo said, wondering why he could feel it still since he now knew he could not use it. “It must be something to do with the leveling. I wonder if there is a construct powering the whole system.”
“You are suggesting a magic artifact causes people to level?”Strisk asked, shocked at the strangeness of the idea.
“Um… So I assume it is a mage college of some kind they opened?” Waldo asked, trying to change topics.
“Yeah. I would have suggested going and seeing the head there about your teleporting but from what I have heard they see almost no one who isn’t a student.” Strisk said, starting to walk down the street. Waldo followed, taking in the people and the streets. Waldo noticed most people were gnollish he saw drakes as well but it seemed to be ten to one.
“Lydia said you are a Drake. I have never learned to identify the scaled races apart from one another. It appears that Protham is mostly gnolls and Drakes. What makes a drake a drake and not say a lizardfolk?” Waldo asked, carefully.
“Lydia is right. I am a Drake. Lizardfolk always have tails. Drakes rarely have tails and those that do have a tail almost always have wings. That is usually the easiest way to tell us apart but it is more nuanced. A healthy Drake’s scales are vibrant, we stand out. A healthy lizardfolk has duller scales. Drakes can have horns or spikes across their head and back but never hair. Lizardfolk never have horns but can grow spikes. Usually they grow something more like a fin, which can be over their head or even down their chin to their chest. All the facial features are nuanced except the eye. Drake’s eyes face forward. Lizardfolk’s eyes face out enough to easily tell if you look at them.” Strisk explained calmly. “Kobolds are short but look like Drakes with a tail and all the other scaled races have gills.”
“Thank you. I realize that might have been rude to ask but I assume it is ruder to make a mistake.” Waldo said as they continued to make their way through the mostly empty streets.
“Most drakes consider it the pinnacle of rudeness to mistake us for the lizardfolk. Well the lizardfolk seem indifferent. I once saw a short Lizardman get mistaken for a Kobold and they laughed about it. Well a few days ago I had to break up a bar fight cause a gnoll called a drake a lizard.” Strisk said. “My people need to calm down about being mistaken for another race. Most cannot even tell the other races apart. No offense, but I assume you are a human because Lydia is one without looking at your ears, which are currently covered by your hair you could pass for an elf in my eyes and if you told me you were a dwarf I would believe it… even though, I think you are too tall to be a dwarf.” Waldo laughed at Strisk’s words.
“An elf you say?” Waldo said, smiling and moving his hair from over his ears. “I am a human. However, I can understand the confusion. Even among humans it is possible for some to mistake another human as one of our kin races.”
“Kin race?” Strisk asked.
“Yes, races that share certain broad features and where half races are possible.” Waldo said.
“Then would Drakes not be a Kin race.” Strisk asked.
“You ever seen a half human and half drake?” Waldo asked.
“Well no, but I was told it was possible.” Strisk said, wondering.
“Possible for our race's women’s bodies to respond as if they are creating a blend. However, it is largely my understanding no blend has survived birth. Maybe one is out there but largely our internal anatomy; bone structure, organ placement, organs in general, and finer points don’t blend into something that survives birth if a pregnancy occurs which to my knowledge is extremely rare and usually it is a half race not a full where that can occur according to one report I read most mothers die in labor if they carry the blend to term and the child still dies.” Waldo said calmly. Strisk stopped.
“How do you know this?” Strisk asked. Waldo thought about it for a moment. Realizing he did not know how to explain having millions of years of knowledge on hand a little surprised he had so easily recalled something from another life. As he thought about it he wondered how he could so easily access it. Then he knew. Four of his prior selves had learned to build a mind palace. When the Orc had implanted all the memories, those four had combined their knowledge and laid out everything, which made him wonder how he knew about the interbreeding of humans and drakes, which brought forth the memories of four doctors. One of which was drake. Strisk watched as Waldo stared off into the distance. Suddenly, Waldo went pale and threw up in the street. “What the hell?” Strisk said, jumping back to avoid getting splattered.
“Sorry.” Waldo said, feeling queasy. Waldo pushed the doctor’s memories away realizing he was not ready to go exploring all the memories aimlessly. Waldo pulled out his hip canteen and washed his mouth out. Spitting the water down a nearby drain “Damn. I was hoping to not have to eat until dinner. I assume the interview will have a combat skills test?” Waldo asked, looking at Strisk.
“Well yes, but what was that?” Strisk asked, feeling the response was unjustified for his question.
“Oh, right, your question. Um… I went to a memory I should have left alone. I was thinking about my time studying… when I strayed into an incident.” Waldo said, trying to explain without lying.
“An incident?” Strisk asked.
“I expect there are things you have seen as a city guard you would rather not remember.” Waldo replied, carefully.
“Oh… you mean something like that. I can understand that. Let’s continue on. Just another block or so.” Strisk said, letting Waldo follow him. Neither said anything until they got to the city's barracks. They had crossed near the center of town and were now at a lakeside gate that had a training arena with a large gatehouse next to it.
“How many positions is the guard filling?” Waldo asked as they approached the building.
“We are adding five new full time positions in hope of growth due to the mage college, three part time, and around fifty new reservists.” Strisk said and then opened the gatehouse’s front door.
“Good Morning, Strisk!” A female voice behind the counter greeted as they entered.
“Good Morning, Violet.” Strisk replied. “Is Trag in?”
“Yes, he got in a bit ago and…Who are you?” Violet asked, staring at Waldo as he entered the gatehouse.
“Waldo Winter.” Waldo said, step into the room and bowing slightly to the human girl behind the counter.
“He is with me. Violet. He arrived in town last night under strange circumstances.” Strisk said.
“Is he why you are meeting with Trag this early?” Violet asked, keeping her eyes on Waldo. “Is he a criminal?”
“Yes to the meeting with Trag and not as far as I am aware. You haven’t done anything illegal have you?” Strisk asked, grinning Waldo.
“Admittedly, I have not read your legal code, but assuming it follows traditional patterns of legal codes for structured societies. Not in this city. At least, I very much doubt I have.” Waldo said, smiling lightly at Violet.
“What are you doing here then?” Violet asked.
“Apart from identifying myself to local authorities due to the strange way I arrived. Hopefully, applying for a job.” Waldo stated. Violet frowned.
“Are you applying for citizenship in Protham or just submitting notice of intent to work in Protham?” Violet asked.
“Notice of intent to work, at this time.” Waldo replied, moving up to the desk as Strisk stepped away. Violet handed him a sheet of paper and pulled out a second enchanted page.
“Good luck finding work here. There are not many jobs outside of scribe, barworker, or general laborer for humans in Protham. The Drakes and Gnolls are larger and stronger than humans naturally and they are basically hiring enforcers right now.” Violet whispered to Waldo. “Where are you staying?”
“The Spriggan Inn.” Waldo said, looking at the form, surprised he could read it. As he started to fill out the form he remembered a passage about grown arrivals passing between world and being gifted languages of the worlds they arrived on from death. Waldo tried to remember the author's reasoning for the gift but could not. Waldo wished he had learned written gnollish languages but had only learned their spoken languages.
“How did you come to be there?” Violet said, showing surprise.
“Long story short…Some sort of teleportation accident.” Waldo answered, focused on completing the form.
“Wow… Lucky.” Violet said, thinking it strange he appeared in the only inn with a human working in it in Protham.
“Yes, but I suspect there is a good reason for that.” Waldo said, handing her the completed form.
“You how to read Grofeas gnoll?” Strisk asked, looking at Waldo holding the form out to Violet. “You said you had not heard of this country last night.” Violet took the form looking suspiciously at Waldo.
"No, I am familiar with other gnollish written languages and this is close enough to them that I guessed. Please check that and make sure my responses make sense.” Waldo said, looking at Violet. Waldo smiled at his omission. He was familiar with several gnoll written languages and had learned a few key words like bathroom, food, and price but had not even memorized their alphabet. Violet started to look over the document carefully. Waldo noticed the enchanted page on the desk had a picture of his face on it now with a list of several things about him, such as height, an approximate weight, and the like. Waldo heard a low growl with several inflections. Waldo looked at the gnoll standing by Strisk.
“Would you mind repeating that? I am not sure I quite heard what you said, because I thought you called me a fur lover.” Waldo said, looking narrowly at the gnoll. The gnoll made several more growls at Waldo. The gnoll had reddish brown fur and stood a little shorter than Strisk. Waldo thought the gnoll would probably be considered extremely handsome among gnolls. He was well groomed and clearly muscled under the fur. He even wore a steel breastplate that was polished to a shine. Waldo saw a stamp over his right peck that appeared to be a runic enchantment.
“Because I am not. I learned it at the time because my life depended on it. The gnolls I met were not as affluent as you are here and only knew one language. Their own. I had to learn it or live without speaking. Their treatment of me would have killed me if I had not learned their language. They knew next to nothing of humans and were a tribe secluded in the mountains. They meant well, but due to the harsh circumstances of the location I was slowly dying from starvation and exposure. It took four weeks to learn enough for rough communication after which I found them to be extremely friendly and curious. I spent two years with that tribe before making contact with a human settlement in the area. I managed to broker a peace there because I learned gnollish. So I continued my education and have since learned various spoken dialects.” Waldo responded to the newcomers' growls calmly.
“Why don’t you respond in gnollish?” The gnoll asked, changing languages. Waldo growled back in several inflections and moved a hand. Violet had noticed hand movements when gnolls growled and never associated it with them speaking but Waldo’s movements were so pronounced she realized it had to be part of the gnollish language. “Fair enough. I am Captain Trag. Strisk says you are a soldier.”
“Wait what did you say?” Violet asked Waldo.
“Violet. Don’t be rude.” Strisk chided, curious himself but having held himself back.
“I am sorry. I have just never seen a non-gnoll speak gnollish” Violet said, almost involuntarily. Trag slapped Strisk across the back of the head.
“Strisk, she is our scribe, do not order her around.” Trag said, smiling. Waldo got the sense that Trag did not like Strisk.
“I explained human throats are not well formed for the gnollish language, which hurts my throat the more I speak it and makes my accompanying hand movements more pronounced than is proper.” Waldo explained to Violet.
“Can you teach me?” Violet asked, seeing how beneficial it would be to know gnollish in her job.
“We can talk after the interview.” Waldo said, smiling at Violet.
“Right, sorry. Thank you.” Violet replied looking over at Trag apologetically.
“Excuse me for interrupting your conversation Violet. I will make sure to send Waldo back once we are done.” Trag said, smiling at Violet then turning to Waldo. “What level of soldier are you? Or is it some other fighting class?”
“I don’t have any levels in fighting classes.” Waldo replied.
“And you want to be a city guard?” Trag said looking angrily at Strisk who looked at Waldo surprised.
“Wait, are you a medic of somekind?” Strisk asked, remembering the other night.
“No, just give me a chance. We should go to the training ground if combat assessment is to be a large part of this process.” Waldo stated, a little surprised they had started asking questions in the entrance.
“It is. We can train you in Protham legal code, but we rarely do combat training for our guards; most people come to us with twenty or more levels in a combat class, when they are applying to be a guard.” Trag stated, as Waldo opened the door.
“Where I come from people do not rely on the leveling systems for combat training.” Waldo started walking to the training grounds as Trag and Strisk followed.
“Where are you from?” Trag asked.
“Halcyon. Heard of it?” Waldo asked, knowing the reply.
“Nope.” Trag replied, thinking this human could never keep up with a gnoll or drake in a fight. “What are you wearing?” Trag asked, no longer able to hold back the question as the human looked very strange to him.
“Desert Armored Combat Fatigues, my throwing knives, combat knife, an assortment of tools I have found useful over the years, and a magic sling.” Waldo said, touching different things on his body. “The armor is stab resistant and there are several metal plates spread out in the fabric. If I get the job I would like to wear this until I can afford to get some locally made gear.”
“A magic sling?” Trag asked.
“Yeah, but I have limited ammo for it. It only works with special magic ammo and I doubt you have that here.” Waldo replied.
“Have you heard of a magic sling Strisk?” Trag asked.
“No, that is new to me.” Strisk replied. “I thought you could not use magic.”
“I cannot not cast a magic spell but this is an artifact. I could teach anyone to use it. If I had unlimited ammo or access to a bullet manufacturer I would be happy to show it off but I only have ninety rounds for it.” Waldo explained.
“How long have you been a soldier?” Trag asked, Waldo had seen himself in a mirror and knew they would not believe the truth. Waldo looked like he was in his prime but Halcyon slowed aging massively Waldo was older than any human got to normally and he was still unsure if he had died or Death’s healing had further reduced the effects of aging.
“Nine years.” Waldo replied, pushing it as far as he thought he could. Waldo had put his age down as twenty nine on the form, but knew he looked closer to twenty now. “I expect I will be sparing with one of you?”
“No, we are waiting for your sparring partners. I sent for two reservists. They generally are not needed for regular guard shifts and if they are injured it should not interfere with their regular jobs.” Trag stated, show us how good you are with throwing knives.
“Alright.” Waldo said, pulling four of the weighted knives from their sheaths. Waldo carried twelve in all. Four on his left leg, two on each arm and four on his chest. Waldo started by juggling the knives as he moved into position to throw them. Waldo smoothly plucked them out of the air as he was juggling them and launched them one after another in quick succession down the lane, with the knives sinking deep into the wooden target in a tight group.
“For having no skills that is pretty good. Now for the moving targets.” Trag said, with Waldo looking back at him as he pressed a button. Waldo watched as the targets began to move side to side. Waldo could tell this was intended for arrows as the range was longer than he would usually throw when it came to moving targets.
“May I move up or do you want me to throw from here?” Waldo asked.
“Tark throws from there.” Trag replied, Waldo grabbed two more knives, throwing them half a second after looking back at the target. Both landed bullseyes but Waldo could feel the strain on his muscles. He was not used to this distance. Waldo pulled two more and turned his back to the targets. Waldo slowly strafed toward the center of the range as he had started to the right side. After a moment making sure to give the targets time to move he spun around and with one hand launched both knives. One landed in a bullseye, but the other fell short. Waldo turned his back to the targets and drew all of his remaining knives placing them at the ready in one hand. Waldo turned and threw three and turned back around quickly. He heard 2 thuds and one that was a clang. He was not sure what the third had hit. Waldo spun around and sent his final knife down the lane hitting another bullseye. The three quick throws were not bullseyes but they had all hit targets.
“That is all the throwing knives I carry.” Waldo said. “Shall I collect them?”
“No, Strisk go get the knives and report back on how deep they are.” Trag said, turning the moving targets off. Waldo moved over to Trag as Strisk retrieved the knives. “Only one complete miss, that is not bad. If you are hired then we are gonna have to replace the knives with some weighted rods. We can issue you some bolas while on duty. Unless a kill order is issued, but most the time we will expect people to be taken alive.”
“Understandable. What is a bolas?” Waldo asked.
“It is three pieces of rope tied to each other on one end and has a weight on the other side. When throwing it, the intent is to hit a person's legs and if it works correctly it will wrap around a fleeing person’s legs and trip them. In town it can be tricky to use and for people they have lighter weights. It was originally used to hunt various animals on the plains. If the weights are too heavy they can break bones.” Trag said, explained. “What class are you?”
Waldo had been preparing for this question since they had asked him earlier. “Diplomat.” Waldo replied.
“You have no levels in a combat class but you are a diplomat as a soldier?” Trag questioned.
“When I use skills from it as a soldier it is generally in interrogations, but my personal goal was to try and find less violent solutions to my nation's disputes. So, I ended up becoming a diplomat. The times I acted in that capacity I was glad to have trained as a soldier. Few people seem to want peaceful resolutions. So as a diplomat I have often been met with violence.” Waldo explained twisting the truth. They stood in silence as they waited for Strisk to finish retrieving the knives. Strisk handed Waldo eleven of the knives and Trag one of the knives.
“Six perfect hits. Three near perfects. Two hits. One miss. Ten hits were all very deep. The one that made the clang hit a metal frame holding the target. It dented the metal and chipped his knife.” Strisk reported as Waldo sheathed the eleven knives he had been handed. Waldo looked at Trag just in time to catch his face returning to a neutral state after what Waldo believed to be a frown.
“How is your hand to hand combat proficiency?”Trag asked.
“I am an expert with a knife, however, I could easily swap it out for a padded baton. It would be harder on me, but I am sure I can hold my own.” Waldo said, showing the knife sheathed across his lower back and trying to determine Trag’s mood. Trag examined the knife and could see it was custom made for Waldo and well used.
“Strisk, you are good to go on patrol. Your partner should be ready about now.” Trag said, with a hint of sadness.
“I was hoping to stay and see him fight the reservists.” Strisk said, a little excited and as Strisk said that it clicked for Waldo.
“No one is coming. To test my combat proficiency.” Waldo said, calmly. “Sorry, Strisk. I should have known better.”
“We should go to my office and talk.” Trag said and handed Waldo the chipped knife Strisk had handed him.
“Wait, why?” Strisk asked, Trag.
“Politics, Strisk. Guardsmen are just a little political, which means Trag cannot hire another human. Especially, not in a citizen-facing role.” Waldo said, with a smile. “Am I right?”
“Violet, is our scribe. Citizen’s see her.” Strisk said looking confused.
“Violet is my scribe. She assists with filing and compiling guardsmen reports. She has only covered the front desk on a few occasions and usually it is to give another scribe a break or chance to go to the bathroom.” Trag stated.
“Strisk, thank you for introducing me to Captain Trag. I truly appreciate this opportunity. I would be happy to speak to you in your office Trag.” Waldo said, smiling at both of them.
“Sorry, Waldo… I didn’t realize.” Strisk said dejectly. Waldo laughed lightly.
“You have done no harm at all and even helped me file documents I needed to in order to stay. You introduced me to your Captain. Strisk, you have been nothing but helpful. Please do not feel sorry.” Waldo said, smiling at Strisk.
“Thanks, I guess I should get going.” Strisk said, clearly feeling better. “Sir. Waldo.” Strisk said, nodding his head to each of them and leaving. Trag started heading towards the guard house and motioned for Waldo to follow, which Waldo did in silence. Trag opened the door and sure enough Violet was no longer at the front desk. There was a male Drake scribe sitting behind the counter.
“Sir.” The drake said, standing up to greet them. Trag waved his hand and the drake sat back down. Waldo followed him up a set of stairs and down a hall to an open room with three scribes working on various documents on a table big enough for four, one of which was Violet.
“Your morning report sir.” A female gnoll scribe said, smiling at Trag and holding a folder. She noticed Waldo and her demeanor changed slightly. She glanced at Violet as Trag grabbed the folder.
“Thank you. I have a meeting for a few minutes. Is there anything urgent?” Trag gestured at Waldo. The scribes all looked up and gave a negative nod. “If needed you may interrupt us.” Trag said, opening his office door and leading Waldo into his office. It was a plain room. There were several chairs facing the back of the room with a large desk and chair behind it facing the door. There were two sturdy looking bookcases organized with an assortment of documents. The room was clean and orderly. A couch sat against one wall with a window behind it that had shutters and Waldo noticed a plain axe with a rope next to it leaning against a bookcase. “Please take a seat.” Trag said, opening the folder as he moved around the desk and sat down. Waldo sat across from him. They sat in silence as Trag read over a few reports. “Thank you for your patience.” Trag said look up from the report.
“Anything important?” Waldo asked.
“No, just the normal going on. Except for you of course.” Trag said.
“Yeah, I made a surprising entrance last night.” Waldo agreed.
“Teleportation has a tendency to create some alerts. If Strisk had not reported your arrival last night, the guard may have interrupted your welcome to our fine city.” Trag replied.
“That report is more thorough than I would have liked.” Waldo stated.
“Kna is a friend and Aer is a gossip.” Trag replied.
“I should have waited in the common room. We could have talked last night.” Waldo guessed.
“Doubtful, but I would have known your face this morning if you had.” Trag stated.
“I had hoped this was an offer for contract work of some kind.” Waldo said, frowning slightly.
“It still might be. I have not determined what to do about you.” Trag replied.
“Oh, well is there something you would like cleared up?” Waldo asked, smiling.
“Kna is worried about one of her barmaids. Aer has never seen her friend respond so positively to someone so quickly.” Trag stated, calmly. Waldo knew they were straying into dangerous territory.
“I have never responded to another human as positively.” Waldo replied, honestly.
“Just two soulmates meeting for the first time?” Trag asked, Waldo jerked in surprise at the word reacting before he could stop himself. Waldo realized Trag did not mean it the way he had taken it but it was too late. Trag had been watching him closely and was now looking unsure at Waldo. “I think you have some explaining to do.” Trag said, prepared to strike. Waldo leaned forward and placed his head in his hand dropping his show.
“This cannot under any circumstances leave this room. If you have listeners they need to stop. If you have a way to make the room secure. I will tell you enough to know why.” Waldo said, unsure of what would happen next.
“What, so can you kill me in silence?” Trag asked, feeling concerned about this stranger's response.
“If you want to tie me up feel free, but I am not talking until I am confident the secret won’t leave this room.” Waldo said, sitting back and calming his nerves. Waldo was trying to figure out how to explain this with as little lying as possible. Waldo wondered if he could avoid lying all together. Trag hesitated for a minute then opened a drawer and pulled out a small box. Trag said a command word under his breath and the box activated.
“Alright, we are alone and no one can see or hear us. This better be good or I won’t keep your secret.” Trag said.
“Have you ever been in love so much it hurt your soul?” Waldo asked.
“What?” Trag asked, surprised.
“I have. If I had understood this was possible. If I had known. I would have done so many things differently.” Waldo said, deciding to be as honest as he felt he could. “I thought she was dead. I joined the wrong people to get vengeance. To make it stop. In doing, so I pissed off some really powerful people. I thought my master was strong enough to protect me and I thought I was powerful enough to protect myself. I want to tell Lydia so bad. I want her to remember our time together. Every second we spent together. If I had magic this would be so easy but using magic to accomplish it would be wrong.” Waldo said, with tears in his eyes. “I wish I could just show her. However, the people I pissed off took my ability to use magic. I did not even know that was possible.” Waldo said, holding out an open palm. “Light.” Trag felt magic tug slightly, but nothing happened. “They took my magic so I could not interfere. When they did that I thought they would send me to a prison cell or some equally horrible place. They cursed me with unwanted knowledge I can barely grasp. Part of my mind is still trying to rip itself apart. But instead of sending me to a desert. They toss me like I am nothing and I land inside Spriggan Inn, in Protham barely even hurt. I did know she was the same soul at first. Standing in the dim light of the inn. She looks the same. Alive working as a barmaid in a place I have never even heard of. She doesn’t even remember me but she was drawn to me just like I was to her all those years ago.” Waldo said. “Kna is worried I might hurt her and honestly so am I. However, if we are to separate again I would have her tell me to go. It would be the most painful thing I ever do but I would leave if she asked. I don’t blame you if you don’t believe me, but I have found my dead lover again, my soulmate and I never thought I would see her. She died so I figured that was it. I did not know about the cycle but now I do. So please give me the chance to win her.” Waldo finished with tears at the corners of his eyes. “Please, I am begging you.” Trag knew Waldo was leaving part out but felt he was being honest and looking at Waldo Trag knew he held this man’s life in his hands at this moment. Trag looked at Waldo and activated several skills he had for conversations like this. Trag knew Waldo did not intend harm at this time or harm to his city.
“For the moment. You have convinced me.” Trag said, still slightly concerned, something about him bothered Trag, but Trag was confident the stranger would be unlikely to deliberately cause problems in Protham.
“Thank you for giving me a chance. I will prove I mean no harm.” Waldo said, starting to recover his composure. Trag grabbed the rope and axe, placing them on his desk.
“Do you know how to cut down a tree?” Trag asked.
“Yes.” Waldo replied.
“As captain of the guard. I am allotted two trees every year. The town allows me to do as I will with the tree tokens, I am issued. The mill will pay me five gold per token on average. However, If I cut the tree down and turn in the tree with the token they will right now pay eight gold. If you cut a tree down and turn it in for me. I will let you keep two gold coins of those eight.” Trag stated placing a token on the table.
“Sounds like a good deal.” Waldo replied.
“Have you hunted boar?” Trag asked.
“I have hunted. Not specifically boar but I am familiar with the complexities they present.” Waldo replied, wondering where this was going.
“Currently, we have a boar problem on the western road and several groups have been attacked by boars. It is quite troublesome. Protham does not have an adventuring guild and most hunters will hunt safer game or only kill one or two boars at a time. You can rent a hand cart for a day for three coppers at the docks. Usually they are used to transport fish around town. They are sturdy carts and can hold several hundred kilos. There are several blacksmiths in town that sell quality steel tipped javelins, for a silver. Now they are not perfect for hunting boar but they should work well enough. Currently, I have placed a bounty on boar kills of a silver per boar jaw turned in. We will even buy the dead boar for one and half coppers per five pounds. However, you could show us the boar, collect the silver, then most local butchers will buy dead boar for two copper per five pounds. Those are the current rates for whole boars” Trag explained.
“Sounds like I have a tree to chop down.” Waldo said standing.
“Out the main gate past the mill and then pick an un-worked tree the taller the better. They pay less for trees shorter than twenty feet and more for trees taller than twenty five feet. If you are willing to search there are some forty and fifty footers out there. I expect six gold regardless.” Trag stated.
“Why are you doing this?” Waldo asked.
“It is not one thing. Lots of little things adding up. Kna is a friend and Lydia is important to her. Kna knows I cannot employ you as a guard. This keeps you out of trouble. Solves a problem for me and if you work hard. Kna might start to like you. I was not going to be able to cut my second tree down before the end of the year. There are more reasons, but in the end, I see no downside for me giving you this chance.” Trag stated plainly.
“Well thank you. I appreciate this.” Waldo said and picked up the axe smiling.
“Good Luck. I plan to eat dinner at Spriggan Inn. So if you get back after sunset you can find me there.” Trag said, gesturing for Waldo to leave.
“Thank you, again!” Waldo said, leaving. After he closed the door he looked for Violet but she was not there. Waldo headed to the stairs back to the entryway. Violet wasn’t there either so he left a message for her and headed back to the Inn. Waldo wanted to ditch his armor before heading out to cut down a tree.
2024.06.09 16:24 moomunequita Venting/Advice
TRIGGER WARNING- SA, etc.
It's a very very long story and there's more that I could go on about but- My parents had me young, mom (19), bio dad (21). They separated when I was around 3 or 4 y/o and that's when my dad (19) (that later adopted me) came into my life. When he went to adopt me at about 7 y/o, before sibling 1 was born, they needed bio dad to release his rights; he agreed on one condition from my mom, 'Don't talk to my family anymore, I will handle it'. So he signed, with the additional agreement that he would not have to pay child support, dad adopted me. I ended up with 1 little sibling and I wanted nothing to do with bio dad at this point, he was already out of my life since the adoption. At around 12 years old, my parents started their divorce, moms second divorce. This divorce was completely different. At first, I hated my (adopted) dad but then again, he used to work 3 jobs to support us, only had 1 day off and used it as a "cleaning day" (which I later appreciated as an adult because I had SEVERE allergies, but in the moment I was just like wtf man fr?) From 13 y/o to about 15 y/o my moms at the time bf was sexually abusing me, forcing me to "cuddle" on the couch, he would pretend to fall asleep (in 5 seconds) and touch my non existent boobs and coochie while grinding his boner against my butt until he had enough. I would lay there silently crying until he actually fell asleep, slowly crawl away, and be up the whole rest of the school night, in shock, crying, cutting myself, and writing very depressing poems. He would break open the bathroom door while I was bathing and would try to peep at me in the tub. I'd cover myself under the bubble bath for HOURS until I had no bubbles and the water was cold. I then tried hurting myself even worse but sibling walked in on me. I broke down and thought if I do this, this dude is going to go for my sibling so I'll just take whatever it is to protect them. So I did. I dealt with all the things plus him walking in on me SERVERAL times in my bedroom each time after I'd have a bath/shower (no lock on the door). This guy also apparently would hit, strangle, and rape my mom. I came to find out that he had a record too, he and his brother abducted a 17 y/o or 18 y/o girl, took her to a trap house, raped her in a bathroom with a pole-blood in the tub, sink, toilet, floor, etc. He also was busted because he put a garbage bag over another man's head and lit it on fire-because the man was black. (Dude ended up being dishonorably discharged later on btw) Eventually, she got rid of him, dated a bit, and settled with a new bf, my now step dad of over 10 years. At this point, I was 16 y/o, had a GREAT relationship with (adopted) dad (not so much my mom), and became curious about my bio dad-where I came from, family customs/traditions, similarities/differences, interests, the other half of who I am. I found him on social media, reached out but didn't get a response for 2-3 weeks. Shortly after us chatting, I went to see him (adopted dad and sibling 1 came with). I had 2 more siblings from bio dad, they were a decade or so younger than me, and sibling 3 didn't resemble me much but did with sibling 2 BUT sibling 2 looked so much like me at that age, weird. A short time later, there was a family event by bio dad, I was invited but had no way to get there (about a 6 hour drive from where I was at the time) so his sistemy aunt said she'd take me. She picked me up and I was to spend the night at her house (with my 2 cousins) then we would travel in the morning. I was so excited because I vaguely remember cousin 1 from childhood, apparently we were super close growing up together, I was eager to reconnect and bond with my cousins. When spending the night, cousin 2 went to sleep early (a bit younger than cousin 1 and I), so cousin 1 and I were talking for hours, it was great being able to reconnect/re-establish our relationship...until he kissed me, threw himself on me, tried getting me to touch him as he started to touch me. I said stop wtf what are you doing we are FIRST cousins!! He chuckled and said "We are but we're not" ... "wtf are you talking about?" ... "I'm not supposed to say but your dad had a DNA test done during tour parents divorce and told all of us your mom cheated on him, you're not ACTUALLY his acoording to the test" ... so at this point, I'm disgusted, have so many questions, confused, am in a house of 'family' that I don't know/don't believe that I am family-I went to sleep. Next day we traveled to see bio dad and after the event I asked him and step mom about it and also mentioned that because of this cousin 1 tried "xyz". Bio dad's response to the DNA-"Your mother had the DNA test done and it said I was not your bio father, she probably lied/gave me a fake test so I would stay out of your life." I went to my mom and questioned her, she said "Absolutely not, you know your (adopted) father and I don't talk so you can even ask him to verify that I'm not lying. I have no idea about anything that has to do with a DNA test, we never had one as he (bio das) was my first and we got married then I was prengant with you about 3-4 months after getting married." I asked (adopted) dad and his story lined up perfectly with my mom's. So bio dad lied to me and his entire side of the family to save face. He lied to all of them because his agreement of giving up his rights to me and not having to pay child support would not have been supported by his side of the family so he told them I wasn't his and supposedly provided a (fake) test so they'd get off his back about it. My grandfather from him said he saw the test-but there was no test! Beyond fucked up man...but whatever. I still wanted a connection. I wanted to leave the bullshit in the past and move forward right? So, fast forward a bit, I was in a 3 year (3 out of 3.5 year) relationship with a TRUE P.O.S. bf that was physically, mentally, emotionally, and verbally abusive. We lived together for 3 years out of our 3.5 year relationship. He was addicted to porn, would call me a bitch every single day amoung other things, ended up raping me and thought it was funny, would hit, kick, choke me (not in the good way), and push me off the bed but then say "You think I want to be like this?! You think I want to do this to you?! Hurt you?! You're making me do it, it's your fault because you have issues." I wasn't "allowed" to talk to my guy friends because they're guys (and I didn't have many girl friends at all), especially my best guy friend that I grew up with and had known since 3 y/o. Bf would isolate me from my families even. At work, I only would talk to my guy friends/male co-workers if bf wasn't there otherwise he would ignore me the whole shift and be brutal when we got home (yeah, we also worked together for a bit over 3 years). I then found out that bf went on the dark web and watched a man kidnap someone, rape her, murder her, and proceed to rape her corpse...my bf was getting off on it! He even said he went back on the next night to do it again but site was blocked. FUCKING PSYCHOTIC. I could go on and on about his craziness. I was his 3rd virgin btw and at work we had a "work daughter" (was so close to that girl, she was 3 years younger than me, 5 years younger than bf and I used to go to her (when bf didnt have same shift as me) crying and telling her everything that would happen with him, so she knew all the shit he did). I was scared he was going to kill me one day, I was scared to stay, scared to leave, all the stupid things and all I wanted was consistent love. We did end up breaking up a few months after I turned 21, he ended up dating our work daughter and took her virginity too! He also did all the shit to her as he did to me! I felt bad for her at first but then thought no you dumb fuck, you knew EVERYTHING you were getting into smh. Anyway, I went to a family event for bio dad, bf was working, they wanted to meet him; we set up lunch for the following day. Bio dad said he was going to give bf the "talk" yk...with the shot gun type of talk. I said I don't feel comfortable with that because firstly, it's not his place, I have my dad (adopted), secondly, bio dad even agreed that we more so have a friend relationship at this point, and third, I've already been with bf for 3 years so it's not appropriate. He got REALLY salty the morning of the meet. We were coordinating plans and everything when he said along the lines, "We haven't seen you in person for almost 2 years now yet you always have time to go out...etc.etc." I responded, "The two times that you have seen me post that I was out, I was across the street from work. I went there for about 2 hours both times with bf and co-workers. I cannot drive 6-8 hours to you and 6-8 hours back in the same day. I work two full time jobs and am going to college online full-time. I'm sorry that I'm making you feel this way or that I've been distant but I try talking and seeing you all (on Skype and such) as much as I can. I don't know what else you want me to do or say at this point. That's why I'm excited for this meet up today. You also could have put in the effort to come out this way these last two years to visit me as well, but again, I'm sorry. I hope you all aren't mad at me, I'm really trying here." He then tells me "I'm going to have to cancel lunch today. I don't think meeting today is a good idea. Now I'm going to have to tell your (LITTLE) siblings that you don't want to see them today since you never have time for us and have basically disappeared from our lives these last 2 years." Aaaaand that's when I ✨️lost✨️ my shit and popped off 🙃 "ME?! I'm the one that disappeared?!?! How fucking dare you say that. How fucking dare you try to do that to them and me. YOU disappeared from MY life at 4 years old, LIED to the entire family (they still questioned if I'm "there's" or not, even had received the comment "Even though you're not ours, your ours because we've known you since a baby" and only 1 of bio dad's parents is still somewhat in touch with me to this day btw) I didn't see YOU for 12 YEARS of my life! I reached out to YOU, I have been the only one making an effort to keep the line of communication open and going and even after all of that plus my explaining that I work TWO full-time jobs plus full-time school, you still have the nerve and audacity to make me the bad guy and say I'm the one not trying here?! YOU are going to continue to LIE and tell MY siblings that I don't want to see them when that couldn't be further from the truth?! I'm going to tell you this ONCE, YOU blew your first chance of staying in my life when I was a child, now you're blowing it a SECOND time with me as an adult; there WILL NOT be a third time. I WILL NOT subject myself to this nor do I need your added stress. I WILL NOT allow you to do this to me EVER again. If my siblings or even step mom (or that side of the family) want to be in contact with me-I will gladly accept that but YOU are DEAD to me. Don't talk to me, don't contact me, I want NOTHING to do with YOU anymore, sperm donor." ... no response ...every couple of years after that I got a "happy birthday" or "merry christmas" here and there but I never responded. It's been a few years with no interaction from him. I just miss my siblings. I got so attached to them and I miss them, I tried staying in contact through video chats but they were still fairly young at that point so it was difficult plus having him or step mom in the background sometimes was awkward. They're now getting a bit older, sibling 2 is turning 18, sibling 3 will be 16. We have each other on social media but don't talk and very very VERY rarely interact with likes on posts. I'm afraid to make the first move, I don't want to push anything, I don't know what bio dad has been feeding into their brains about me, etc. My relationship with them will NEVER be as close as with my almost 21 y/o sibling 1 from (adopted) dad, which I can accept, I absolutely love my sibling 1 that I grew up with like nothing and no one else; I practically raised him tbh. But I do think about the other 2 siblings, I miss them, I just don't know if I should respect unspoken boundaries or make the first move? What do you think? And lmk if you want more of these batshit crazy stories that I've went through (tbh I'm probably going to post another seeking advice on another subject). ✌🏻
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It's a very very long story and there's more that I could go on about but- My parents had me young, mom (19), bio dad (21). They separated when I was around 3 or 4 y/o and that's when my dad (19) (that later adopted me) came into my life. When he went to adopt me at about 7 y/o, before sibling 1 was born, they needed bio dad to release his rights; he agreed on one condition from my mom, 'Don't talk to my family anymore, I will handle it'. So he signed, with the additional agreement that he would not have to pay child support, dad adopted me. I ended up with 1 little sibling and I wanted nothing to do with bio dad at this point, he was already out of my life since the adoption. At around 12 years old, my parents started their divorce, moms second divorce. This divorce was completely different. At first, I hated my (adopted) dad but then again, he used to work 3 jobs to support us, only had 1 day off and used it as a "cleaning day" (which I later appreciated as an adult because I had SEVERE allergies, but in the moment I was just like wtf man fr?) From 13 y/o to about 15 y/o my moms at the time bf was sexually abusing me, forcing me to "cuddle" on the couch, he would pretend to fall asleep (in 5 seconds) and touch my non existent boobs and coochie while grinding his boner against my butt until he had enough. I would lay there silently crying until he actually fell asleep, slowly crawl away, and be up the whole rest of the school night, in shock, crying, cutting myself, and writing very depressing poems. He would break open the bathroom door while I was bathing and would try to peep at me in the tub. I'd cover myself under the bubble bath for HOURS until I had no bubbles and the water was cold. I then tried hurting myself even worse but sibling walked in on me. I broke down and thought if I do this, this dude is going to go for my sibling so I'll just take whatever it is to protect them. So I did. I dealt with all the things plus him walking in on me SERVERAL times in my bedroom each time after I'd have a bath/shower (no lock on the door). This guy also apparently would hit, strangle, and rape my mom. I came to find out that he had a record too, he and his brother abducted a 17 y/o or 18 y/o girl, took her to a trap house, raped her in a bathroom with a pole-blood in the tub, sink, toilet, floor, etc. He also was busted because he put a garbage bag over another man's head and lit it on fire-because the man was black. (Dude ended up being dishonorably discharged later on btw) Eventually, she got rid of him, dated a bit, and settled with a new bf, my now step dad of over 10 years. At this point, I was 16 y/o, had a GREAT relationship with (adopted) dad (not so much my mom), and became curious about my bio dad-where I came from, family customs/traditions, similarities/differences, interests, the other half of who I am. I found him on social media, reached out but didn't get a response for 2-3 weeks. Shortly after us chatting, I went to see him (adopted dad and sibling 1 came with). I had 2 more siblings from bio dad, they were a decade or so younger than me, and sibling 3 didn't resemble me much but did with sibling 2 BUT sibling 2 looked so much like me at that age, weird. A short time later, there was a family event by bio dad, I was invited but had no way to get there (about a 6 hour drive from where I was at the time) so his sistemy aunt said she'd take me. She picked me up and I was to spend the night at her house (with my 2 cousins) then we would travel in the morning. I was so excited because I vaguely remember cousin 1 from childhood, apparently we were super close growing up together, I was eager to reconnect and bond with my cousins. When spending the night, cousin 2 went to sleep early (a bit younger than cousin 1 and I), so cousin 1 and I were talking for hours, it was great being able to reconnect/re-establish our relationship...until he kissed me, threw himself on me, tried getting me to touch him as he started to touch me. I said stop wtf what are you doing we are FIRST cousins!! He chuckled and said "We are but we're not" ... "wtf are you talking about?" ... "I'm not supposed to say but your dad had a DNA test done during tour parents divorce and told all of us your mom cheated on him, you're not ACTUALLY his acoording to the test" ... so at this point, I'm disgusted, have so many questions, confused, am in a house of 'family' that I don't know/don't believe that I am family-I went to sleep. Next day we traveled to see bio dad and after the event I asked him and step mom about it and also mentioned that because of this cousin 1 tried "xyz". Bio dad's response to the DNA-"Your mother had the DNA test done and it said I was not your bio father, she probably lied/gave me a fake test so I would stay out of your life." I went to my mom and questioned her, she said "Absolutely not, you know your (adopted) father and I don't talk so you can even ask him to verify that I'm not lying. I have no idea about anything that has to do with a DNA test, we never had one as he (bio das) was my first and we got married then I was prengant with you about 3-4 months after getting married." I asked (adopted) dad and his story lined up perfectly with my mom's. So bio dad lied to me and his entire side of the family to save face. He lied to all of them because his agreement of giving up his rights to me and not having to pay child support would not have been supported by his side of the family so he told them I wasn't his and supposedly provided a (fake) test so they'd get off his back about it. My grandfather from him said he saw the test-but there was no test! Beyond fucked up man...but whatever. I still wanted a connection. I wanted to leave the bullshit in the past and move forward right? So, fast forward a bit, I was in a 3 year (3 out of 3.5 year) relationship with a TRUE P.O.S. bf that was physically, mentally, emotionally, and verbally abusive. We lived together for 3 years out of our 3.5 year relationship. He was addicted to porn, would call me a bitch every single day amoung other things, ended up raping me and thought it was funny, would hit, kick, choke me (not in the good way), and push me off the bed but then say "You think I want to be like this?! You think I want to do this to you?! Hurt you?! You're making me do it, it's your fault because you have issues." I wasn't "allowed" to talk to my guy friends because they're guys (and I didn't have many girl friends at all), especially my best guy friend that I grew up with and had known since 3 y/o. Bf would isolate me from my families even. At work, I only would talk to my guy friends/male co-workers if bf wasn't there otherwise he would ignore me the whole shift and be brutal when we got home (yeah, we also worked together for a bit over 3 years). I then found out that bf went on the dark web and watched a man kidnap someone, rape her, murder her, and proceed to rape her corpse...my bf was getting off on it! He even said he went back on the next night to do it again but site was blocked. FUCKING PSYCHOTIC. I could go on and on about his craziness. I was his 3rd virgin btw and at work we had a "work daughter" (was so close to that girl, she was 3 years younger than me, 5 years younger than bf and I used to go to her (when bf didnt have same shift as me) crying and telling her everything that would happen with him, so she knew all the shit he did). I was scared he was going to kill me one day, I was scared to stay, scared to leave, all the stupid things and all I wanted was consistent love. We did end up breaking up a few months after I turned 21, he ended up dating our work daughter and took her virginity too! He also did all the shit to her as he did to me! I felt bad for her at first but then thought no you dumb fuck, you knew EVERYTHING you were getting into smh. Anyway, I went to a family event for bio dad, bf was working, they wanted to meet him; we set up lunch for the following day. Bio dad said he was going to give bf the "talk" yk...with the shot gun type of talk. I said I don't feel comfortable with that because firstly, it's not his place, I have my dad (adopted), secondly, bio dad even agreed that we more so have a friend relationship at this point, and third, I've already been with bf for 3 years so it's not appropriate. He got REALLY salty the morning of the meet. We were coordinating plans and everything when he said along the lines, "We haven't seen you in person for almost 2 years now yet you always have time to go out...etc.etc." I responded, "The two times that you have seen me post that I was out, I was across the street from work. I went there for about 2 hours both times with bf and co-workers. I cannot drive 6-8 hours to you and 6-8 hours back in the same day. I work two full time jobs and am going to college online full-time. I'm sorry that I'm making you feel this way or that I've been distant but I try talking and seeing you all (on Skype and such) as much as I can. I don't know what else you want me to do or say at this point. That's why I'm excited for this meet up today. You also could have put in the effort to come out this way these last two years to visit me as well, but again, I'm sorry. I hope you all aren't mad at me, I'm really trying here." He then tells me "I'm going to have to cancel lunch today. I don't think meeting today is a good idea. Now I'm going to have to tell your (LITTLE) siblings that you don't want to see them today since you never have time for us and have basically disappeared from our lives these last 2 years." Aaaaand that's when I ✨️lost✨️ my shit and popped off 🙃 "ME?! I'm the one that disappeared?!?! How fucking dare you say that. How fucking dare you try to do that to them and me. YOU disappeared from MY life at 4 years old, LIED to the entire family (they still questioned if I'm "there's" or not, even had received the comment "Even though you're not ours, your ours because we've known you since a baby" and only 1 of bio dad's parents is still somewhat in touch with me to this day btw) I didn't see YOU for 12 YEARS of my life! I reached out to YOU, I have been the only one making an effort to keep the line of communication open and going and even after all of that plus my explaining that I work TWO full-time jobs plus full-time school, you still have the nerve and audacity to make me the bad guy and say I'm the one not trying here?! YOU are going to continue to LIE and tell MY siblings that I don't want to see them when that couldn't be further from the truth?! I'm going to tell you this ONCE, YOU blew your first chance of staying in my life when I was a child, now you're blowing it a SECOND time with me as an adult; there WILL NOT be a third time. I WILL NOT subject myself to this nor do I need your added stress. I WILL NOT allow you to do this to me EVER again. If my siblings or even step mom (or that side of the family) want to be in contact with me-I will gladly accept that but YOU are DEAD to me. Don't talk to me, don't contact me, I want NOTHING to do with YOU anymore, sperm donor." ... no response ...every couple of years after that I got a "happy birthday" or "merry christmas" here and there but I never responded. It's been a few years with no interaction from him. I just miss my siblings. I got so attached to them and I miss them, I tried staying in contact through video chats but they were still fairly young at that point so it was difficult plus having him or step mom in the background sometimes was awkward. They're now getting a bit older, sibling 2 is turning 18, sibling 3 will be 16. We have each other on social media but don't talk and very very VERY rarely interact with likes on posts. I'm afraid to make the first move, I don't want to push anything, I don't know what bio dad has been feeding into their brains about me, etc. My relationship with them will NEVER be as close as with my almost 21 y/o sibling 1 from (adopted) dad, which I can accept, I absolutely love my sibling 1 that I grew up with like nothing and no one else; I practically raised him tbh. But I do think about the other 2 siblings, I miss them, I just don't know if I should respect unspoken boundaries or make the first move? What do you think? And lmk if you want more of these batshit crazy stories that I've went through (tbh I'm probably going to post another seeking advice on another subject). ✌🏻
2024.06.09 16:22 moomunequita AITA/Venting/Advice?
TRIGGER WARNING- SA, etc.
It's a very very long story and there's more that I could go on about but- My parents had me young, mom (19), bio dad (21). They separated when I was around 3 or 4 y/o and that's when my dad (19) (that later adopted me) came into my life. When he went to adopt me at about 7 y/o, before sibling 1 was born, they needed bio dad to release his rights; he agreed on one condition from my mom, 'Don't talk to my family anymore, I will handle it'. So he signed, with the additional agreement that he would not have to pay child support, dad adopted me. I ended up with 1 little sibling and I wanted nothing to do with bio dad at this point, he was already out of my life since the adoption. At around 12 years old, my parents started their divorce, moms second divorce. This divorce was completely different. At first, I hated my (adopted) dad but then again, he used to work 3 jobs to support us, only had 1 day off and used it as a "cleaning day" (which I later appreciated as an adult because I had SEVERE allergies, but in the moment I was just like wtf man fr?) From 13 y/o to about 15 y/o my moms at the time bf was sexually abusing me, forcing me to "cuddle" on the couch, he would pretend to fall asleep (in 5 seconds) and touch my non existent boobs and coochie while grinding his boner against my butt until he had enough. I would lay there silently crying until he actually fell asleep, slowly crawl away, and be up the whole rest of the school night, in shock, crying, cutting myself, and writing very depressing poems. He would break open the bathroom door while I was bathing and would try to peep at me in the tub. I'd cover myself under the bubble bath for HOURS until I had no bubbles and the water was cold. I then tried hurting myself even worse but sibling walked in on me. I broke down and thought if I do this, this dude is going to go for my sibling so I'll just take whatever it is to protect them. So I did. I dealt with all the things plus him walking in on me SERVERAL times in my bedroom each time after I'd have a bath/shower (no lock on the door). This guy also apparently would hit, strangle, and rape my mom. I came to find out that he had a record too, he and his brother abducted a 17 y/o or 18 y/o girl, took her to a trap house, raped her in a bathroom with a pole-blood in the tub, sink, toilet, floor, etc. He also was busted because he put a garbage bag over another man's head and lit it on fire-because the man was black. (Dude ended up being dishonorably discharged later on btw) Eventually, she got rid of him, dated a bit, and settled with a new bf, my now step dad of over 10 years. At this point, I was 16 y/o, had a GREAT relationship with (adopted) dad (not so much my mom), and became curious about my bio dad-where I came from, family customs/traditions, similarities/differences, interests, the other half of who I am. I found him on social media, reached out but didn't get a response for 2-3 weeks. Shortly after us chatting, I went to see him (adopted dad and sibling 1 came with). I had 2 more siblings from bio dad, they were a decade or so younger than me, and sibling 3 didn't resemble me much but did with sibling 2 BUT sibling 2 looked so much like me at that age, weird. A short time later, there was a family event by bio dad, I was invited but had no way to get there (about a 6 hour drive from where I was at the time) so his sistemy aunt said she'd take me. She picked me up and I was to spend the night at her house (with my 2 cousins) then we would travel in the morning. I was so excited because I vaguely remember cousin 1 from childhood, apparently we were super close growing up together, I was eager to reconnect and bond with my cousins. When spending the night, cousin 2 went to sleep early (a bit younger than cousin 1 and I), so cousin 1 and I were talking for hours, it was great being able to reconnect/re-establish our relationship...until he kissed me, threw himself on me, tried getting me to touch him as he started to touch me. I said stop wtf what are you doing we are FIRST cousins!! He chuckled and said "We are but we're not" ... "wtf are you talking about?" ... "I'm not supposed to say but your dad had a DNA test done during tour parents divorce and told all of us your mom cheated on him, you're not ACTUALLY his acoording to the test" ... so at this point, I'm disgusted, have so many questions, confused, am in a house of 'family' that I don't know/don't believe that I am family-I went to sleep. Next day we traveled to see bio dad and after the event I asked him and step mom about it and also mentioned that because of this cousin 1 tried "xyz". Bio dad's response to the DNA-"Your mother had the DNA test done and it said I was not your bio father, she probably lied/gave me a fake test so I would stay out of your life." I went to my mom and questioned her, she said "Absolutely not, you know your (adopted) father and I don't talk so you can even ask him to verify that I'm not lying. I have no idea about anything that has to do with a DNA test, we never had one as he (bio das) was my first and we got married then I was prengant with you about 3-4 months after getting married." I asked (adopted) dad and his story lined up perfectly with my mom's. So bio dad lied to me and his entire side of the family to save face. He lied to all of them because his agreement of giving up his rights to me and not having to pay child support would not have been supported by his side of the family so he told them I wasn't his and supposedly provided a (fake) test so they'd get off his back about it. My grandfather from him said he saw the test-but there was no test! Beyond fucked up man...but whatever. I still wanted a connection. I wanted to leave the bullshit in the past and move forward right? So, fast forward a bit, I was in a 3 year (3 out of 3.5 year) relationship with a TRUE P.O.S. bf that was physically, mentally, emotionally, and verbally abusive. We lived together for 3 years out of our 3.5 year relationship. He was addicted to porn, would call me a bitch every single day amoung other things, ended up raping me and thought it was funny, would hit, kick, choke me (not in the good way), and push me off the bed but then say "You think I want to be like this?! You think I want to do this to you?! Hurt you?! You're making me do it, it's your fault because you have issues." I wasn't "allowed" to talk to my guy friends because they're guys (and I didn't have many girl friends at all), especially my best guy friend that I grew up with and had known since 3 y/o. Bf would isolate me from my families even. At work, I only would talk to my guy friends/male co-workers if bf wasn't there otherwise he would ignore me the whole shift and be brutal when we got home (yeah, we also worked together for a bit over 3 years). I then found out that bf went on the dark web and watched a man kidnap someone, rape her, murder her, and proceed to rape her corpse...my bf was getting off on it! He even said he went back on the next night to do it again but site was blocked. FUCKING PSYCHOTIC. I could go on and on about his craziness. I was his 3rd virgin btw and at work we had a "work daughter" (was so close to that girl, she was 3 years younger than me, 5 years younger than bf and I used to go to her (when bf didnt have same shift as me) crying and telling her everything that would happen with him, so she knew all the shit he did). I was scared he was going to kill me one day, I was scared to stay, scared to leave, all the stupid things and all I wanted was consistent love. We did end up breaking up a few months after I turned 21, he ended up dating our work daughter and took her virginity too! He also did all the shit to her as he did to me! I felt bad for her at first but then thought no you dumb fuck, you knew EVERYTHING you were getting into smh. Anyway, I went to a family event for bio dad, bf was working, they wanted to meet him; we set up lunch for the following day. Bio dad said he was going to give bf the "talk" yk...with the shot gun type of talk. I said I don't feel comfortable with that because firstly, it's not his place, I have my dad (adopted), secondly, bio dad even agreed that we more so have a friend relationship at this point, and third, I've already been with bf for 3 years so it's not appropriate. He got REALLY salty the morning of the meet. We were coordinating plans and everything when he said along the lines, "We haven't seen you in person for almost 2 years now yet you always have time to go out...etc.etc." I responded, "The two times that you have seen me post that I was out, I was across the street from work. I went there for about 2 hours both times with bf and co-workers. I cannot drive 6-8 hours to you and 6-8 hours back in the same day. I work two full time jobs and am going to college online full-time. I'm sorry that I'm making you feel this way or that I've been distant but I try talking and seeing you all (on Skype and such) as much as I can. I don't know what else you want me to do or say at this point. That's why I'm excited for this meet up today. You also could have put in the effort to come out this way these last two years to visit me as well, but again, I'm sorry. I hope you all aren't mad at me, I'm really trying here." He then tells me "I'm going to have to cancel lunch today. I don't think meeting today is a good idea. Now I'm going to have to tell your (LITTLE) siblings that you don't want to see them today since you never have time for us and have basically disappeared from our lives these last 2 years." Aaaaand that's when I ✨️lost✨️ my shit and popped off 🙃 "ME?! I'm the one that disappeared?!?! How fucking dare you say that. How fucking dare you try to do that to them and me. YOU disappeared from MY life at 4 years old, LIED to the entire family (they still questioned if I'm "there's" or not, even had received the comment "Even though you're not ours, your ours because we've known you since a baby" and only 1 of bio dad's parents is still somewhat in touch with me to this day btw) I didn't see YOU for 12 YEARS of my life! I reached out to YOU, I have been the only one making an effort to keep the line of communication open and going and even after all of that plus my explaining that I work TWO full-time jobs plus full-time school, you still have the nerve and audacity to make me the bad guy and say I'm the one not trying here?! YOU are going to continue to LIE and tell MY siblings that I don't want to see them when that couldn't be further from the truth?! I'm going to tell you this ONCE, YOU blew your first chance of staying in my life when I was a child, now you're blowing it a SECOND time with me as an adult; there WILL NOT be a third time. I WILL NOT subject myself to this nor do I need your added stress. I WILL NOT allow you to do this to me EVER again. If my siblings or even step mom (or that side of the family) want to be in contact with me-I will gladly accept that but YOU are DEAD to me. Don't talk to me, don't contact me, I want NOTHING to do with YOU anymore, sperm donor." ... no response ...every couple of years after that I got a "happy birthday" or "merry christmas" here and there but I never responded. It's been a few years with no interaction from him. I just miss my siblings. I got so attached to them and I miss them, I tried staying in contact through video chats but they were still fairly young at that point so it was difficult plus having him or step mom in the background sometimes was awkward. They're now getting a bit older, sibling 2 is turning 18, sibling 3 will be 16. We have each other on social media but don't talk and very very VERY rarely interact with likes on posts. I'm afraid to make the first move, I don't want to push anything, I don't know what bio dad has been feeding into their brains about me, etc. My relationship with them will NEVER be as close as with my almost 21 y/o sibling 1 from (adopted) dad, which I can accept, I absolutely love my sibling 1 that I grew up with like nothing and no one else; I practically raised him tbh. But I do think about the other 2 siblings, I miss them, I just don't know if I should respect unspoken boundaries or make the first move? What do you think? And lmk if you want more of these batshit crazy stories that I've went through (tbh I'm probably going to post another seeking advice on another subject). ✌🏻
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It's a very very long story and there's more that I could go on about but- My parents had me young, mom (19), bio dad (21). They separated when I was around 3 or 4 y/o and that's when my dad (19) (that later adopted me) came into my life. When he went to adopt me at about 7 y/o, before sibling 1 was born, they needed bio dad to release his rights; he agreed on one condition from my mom, 'Don't talk to my family anymore, I will handle it'. So he signed, with the additional agreement that he would not have to pay child support, dad adopted me. I ended up with 1 little sibling and I wanted nothing to do with bio dad at this point, he was already out of my life since the adoption. At around 12 years old, my parents started their divorce, moms second divorce. This divorce was completely different. At first, I hated my (adopted) dad but then again, he used to work 3 jobs to support us, only had 1 day off and used it as a "cleaning day" (which I later appreciated as an adult because I had SEVERE allergies, but in the moment I was just like wtf man fr?) From 13 y/o to about 15 y/o my moms at the time bf was sexually abusing me, forcing me to "cuddle" on the couch, he would pretend to fall asleep (in 5 seconds) and touch my non existent boobs and coochie while grinding his boner against my butt until he had enough. I would lay there silently crying until he actually fell asleep, slowly crawl away, and be up the whole rest of the school night, in shock, crying, cutting myself, and writing very depressing poems. He would break open the bathroom door while I was bathing and would try to peep at me in the tub. I'd cover myself under the bubble bath for HOURS until I had no bubbles and the water was cold. I then tried hurting myself even worse but sibling walked in on me. I broke down and thought if I do this, this dude is going to go for my sibling so I'll just take whatever it is to protect them. So I did. I dealt with all the things plus him walking in on me SERVERAL times in my bedroom each time after I'd have a bath/shower (no lock on the door). This guy also apparently would hit, strangle, and rape my mom. I came to find out that he had a record too, he and his brother abducted a 17 y/o or 18 y/o girl, took her to a trap house, raped her in a bathroom with a pole-blood in the tub, sink, toilet, floor, etc. He also was busted because he put a garbage bag over another man's head and lit it on fire-because the man was black. (Dude ended up being dishonorably discharged later on btw) Eventually, she got rid of him, dated a bit, and settled with a new bf, my now step dad of over 10 years. At this point, I was 16 y/o, had a GREAT relationship with (adopted) dad (not so much my mom), and became curious about my bio dad-where I came from, family customs/traditions, similarities/differences, interests, the other half of who I am. I found him on social media, reached out but didn't get a response for 2-3 weeks. Shortly after us chatting, I went to see him (adopted dad and sibling 1 came with). I had 2 more siblings from bio dad, they were a decade or so younger than me, and sibling 3 didn't resemble me much but did with sibling 2 BUT sibling 2 looked so much like me at that age, weird. A short time later, there was a family event by bio dad, I was invited but had no way to get there (about a 6 hour drive from where I was at the time) so his sistemy aunt said she'd take me. She picked me up and I was to spend the night at her house (with my 2 cousins) then we would travel in the morning. I was so excited because I vaguely remember cousin 1 from childhood, apparently we were super close growing up together, I was eager to reconnect and bond with my cousins. When spending the night, cousin 2 went to sleep early (a bit younger than cousin 1 and I), so cousin 1 and I were talking for hours, it was great being able to reconnect/re-establish our relationship...until he kissed me, threw himself on me, tried getting me to touch him as he started to touch me. I said stop wtf what are you doing we are FIRST cousins!! He chuckled and said "We are but we're not" ... "wtf are you talking about?" ... "I'm not supposed to say but your dad had a DNA test done during tour parents divorce and told all of us your mom cheated on him, you're not ACTUALLY his acoording to the test" ... so at this point, I'm disgusted, have so many questions, confused, am in a house of 'family' that I don't know/don't believe that I am family-I went to sleep. Next day we traveled to see bio dad and after the event I asked him and step mom about it and also mentioned that because of this cousin 1 tried "xyz". Bio dad's response to the DNA-"Your mother had the DNA test done and it said I was not your bio father, she probably lied/gave me a fake test so I would stay out of your life." I went to my mom and questioned her, she said "Absolutely not, you know your (adopted) father and I don't talk so you can even ask him to verify that I'm not lying. I have no idea about anything that has to do with a DNA test, we never had one as he (bio das) was my first and we got married then I was prengant with you about 3-4 months after getting married." I asked (adopted) dad and his story lined up perfectly with my mom's. So bio dad lied to me and his entire side of the family to save face. He lied to all of them because his agreement of giving up his rights to me and not having to pay child support would not have been supported by his side of the family so he told them I wasn't his and supposedly provided a (fake) test so they'd get off his back about it. My grandfather from him said he saw the test-but there was no test! Beyond fucked up man...but whatever. I still wanted a connection. I wanted to leave the bullshit in the past and move forward right? So, fast forward a bit, I was in a 3 year (3 out of 3.5 year) relationship with a TRUE P.O.S. bf that was physically, mentally, emotionally, and verbally abusive. We lived together for 3 years out of our 3.5 year relationship. He was addicted to porn, would call me a bitch every single day amoung other things, ended up raping me and thought it was funny, would hit, kick, choke me (not in the good way), and push me off the bed but then say "You think I want to be like this?! You think I want to do this to you?! Hurt you?! You're making me do it, it's your fault because you have issues." I wasn't "allowed" to talk to my guy friends because they're guys (and I didn't have many girl friends at all), especially my best guy friend that I grew up with and had known since 3 y/o. Bf would isolate me from my families even. At work, I only would talk to my guy friends/male co-workers if bf wasn't there otherwise he would ignore me the whole shift and be brutal when we got home (yeah, we also worked together for a bit over 3 years). I then found out that bf went on the dark web and watched a man kidnap someone, rape her, murder her, and proceed to rape her corpse...my bf was getting off on it! He even said he went back on the next night to do it again but site was blocked. FUCKING PSYCHOTIC. I could go on and on about his craziness. I was his 3rd virgin btw and at work we had a "work daughter" (was so close to that girl, she was 3 years younger than me, 5 years younger than bf and I used to go to her (when bf didnt have same shift as me) crying and telling her everything that would happen with him, so she knew all the shit he did). I was scared he was going to kill me one day, I was scared to stay, scared to leave, all the stupid things and all I wanted was consistent love. We did end up breaking up a few months after I turned 21, he ended up dating our work daughter and took her virginity too! He also did all the shit to her as he did to me! I felt bad for her at first but then thought no you dumb fuck, you knew EVERYTHING you were getting into smh. Anyway, I went to a family event for bio dad, bf was working, they wanted to meet him; we set up lunch for the following day. Bio dad said he was going to give bf the "talk" yk...with the shot gun type of talk. I said I don't feel comfortable with that because firstly, it's not his place, I have my dad (adopted), secondly, bio dad even agreed that we more so have a friend relationship at this point, and third, I've already been with bf for 3 years so it's not appropriate. He got REALLY salty the morning of the meet. We were coordinating plans and everything when he said along the lines, "We haven't seen you in person for almost 2 years now yet you always have time to go out...etc.etc." I responded, "The two times that you have seen me post that I was out, I was across the street from work. I went there for about 2 hours both times with bf and co-workers. I cannot drive 6-8 hours to you and 6-8 hours back in the same day. I work two full time jobs and am going to college online full-time. I'm sorry that I'm making you feel this way or that I've been distant but I try talking and seeing you all (on Skype and such) as much as I can. I don't know what else you want me to do or say at this point. That's why I'm excited for this meet up today. You also could have put in the effort to come out this way these last two years to visit me as well, but again, I'm sorry. I hope you all aren't mad at me, I'm really trying here." He then tells me "I'm going to have to cancel lunch today. I don't think meeting today is a good idea. Now I'm going to have to tell your (LITTLE) siblings that you don't want to see them today since you never have time for us and have basically disappeared from our lives these last 2 years." Aaaaand that's when I ✨️lost✨️ my shit and popped off 🙃 "ME?! I'm the one that disappeared?!?! How fucking dare you say that. How fucking dare you try to do that to them and me. YOU disappeared from MY life at 4 years old, LIED to the entire family (they still questioned if I'm "there's" or not, even had received the comment "Even though you're not ours, your ours because we've known you since a baby" and only 1 of bio dad's parents is still somewhat in touch with me to this day btw) I didn't see YOU for 12 YEARS of my life! I reached out to YOU, I have been the only one making an effort to keep the line of communication open and going and even after all of that plus my explaining that I work TWO full-time jobs plus full-time school, you still have the nerve and audacity to make me the bad guy and say I'm the one not trying here?! YOU are going to continue to LIE and tell MY siblings that I don't want to see them when that couldn't be further from the truth?! I'm going to tell you this ONCE, YOU blew your first chance of staying in my life when I was a child, now you're blowing it a SECOND time with me as an adult; there WILL NOT be a third time. I WILL NOT subject myself to this nor do I need your added stress. I WILL NOT allow you to do this to me EVER again. If my siblings or even step mom (or that side of the family) want to be in contact with me-I will gladly accept that but YOU are DEAD to me. Don't talk to me, don't contact me, I want NOTHING to do with YOU anymore, sperm donor." ... no response ...every couple of years after that I got a "happy birthday" or "merry christmas" here and there but I never responded. It's been a few years with no interaction from him. I just miss my siblings. I got so attached to them and I miss them, I tried staying in contact through video chats but they were still fairly young at that point so it was difficult plus having him or step mom in the background sometimes was awkward. They're now getting a bit older, sibling 2 is turning 18, sibling 3 will be 16. We have each other on social media but don't talk and very very VERY rarely interact with likes on posts. I'm afraid to make the first move, I don't want to push anything, I don't know what bio dad has been feeding into their brains about me, etc. My relationship with them will NEVER be as close as with my almost 21 y/o sibling 1 from (adopted) dad, which I can accept, I absolutely love my sibling 1 that I grew up with like nothing and no one else; I practically raised him tbh. But I do think about the other 2 siblings, I miss them, I just don't know if I should respect unspoken boundaries or make the first move? What do you think? And lmk if you want more of these batshit crazy stories that I've went through (tbh I'm probably going to post another seeking advice on another subject). ✌🏻
2024.06.09 09:47 notawisemanforsure I think I'm not the brightest bulb but what are your thoughts on my cognitive profile?
 | When I was a kid I was forced to unknowningly take WISC IQ tests and a porteus labyrinth test due to poor school performance and disability suspicion arising from that, they were surprised that I have scored 126. submitted by notawisemanforsure to cognitiveTesting [link] [comments] English is not my native language probably that doesn't matter anyways. My first IQ test in life was when I was 6 years old it was a test about labyrinths (porteus labyrinths) I scored a 96 out of that. The paper also had a psychiatrist note in bottom like this: - Physical development: Normal - Mental development: Normal - Social / Behavioral development: at the level of a 4 year old, abnormal Second IQ test (WISC-R) was when I was 8 years old which I scored 115. Third one (WISC-R) was from when I was 12 years old which I scored 126. In none of tests I was aware it was an IQ test I was just told it was a quick exam that was required for my schooling. Fourth one (WISC-IV) was from when I was 14 years old the only IQ test I was I'm aware of I was taking an IQ test I was never told my score but based on their reaction after they talked to my parents probably it was upper average. This wasn't a WISC-R but a WISC-IV instead. All of those tests were required because of extremely low academic performance ( I was under performing in mathematics compared to peers and after some point I started to under perform in language/grammar too), they never figured out what was wrong with me eventually I got a dyslexia diagnosis which was later revised to Autism Spectrum Disorder diagnosis and since many people think Autism = intellectual disability in my country they generally give Asperger's Syndrome diagnosis for people with normal IQ. I recently got a hold of my papers;
I was exposed to lead dust from dad which he worked with while he did wash his hands little he knew that his work clothes would bring the dust to house and spread it to everywhere including my toys, my food. I never had lead poisoning nor my blood levels were checked but for sure I was exposed. Food I ate was cooked in an oven with presumably cadmium paint, it was made in 1980s with no regulations in place. Russian no brand cookware and pottery, probably don't want to know what those bright red glazes made from. I wasn't able to eat enough meat due to misuse of money by parents and my B12 levels were abnormally low, low B12 wasn't treated until I was 17 at the time of treatment I had a B12 level in blood around 90 pg/mL. Mother smoked a lot while she was pregnant, she would smoke a pack per day draining a hole in their pocket and harming me. I don't think any of my IQ scoring holds to this day, I believe I'm in lower average end simply having poor working memory makes everything irrelevant, It's something that I need most but I can't. I'm tired of having to bring paper and pencil everywhere when a calculation is required. I can't calculate even simple numbers really ask me what is 9 + 9 no answer I have to count in my head to find out. When I was 7 years old I really loved mathematics I enjoyed it so much but when the multiplication went in that was the time I basically quit mathematics. I can't hold multiplication table in head It's straight up impossible I had to go in long 2 years of rehabilitation centre for the "disabled" to do mental math to some extent and what's the outcome? I forgot it, I can't do mental math. Even though I can't do mental math I can grasp logic behind something pretty well eg: I don't know answer of 9 + 9 but I figure out why they would add let's say a given number in a formula so that made me get into programming even without being able to do mental mathematics I was able to figure out things like how to do 3d projections without all those messy complicated maths (though without trigonometry knowledge I made fake rotations using skewing which didn't end up looking best) and write software that rendered 3D pictures as fun little side projects. I was practicing coding since that time but my enjoyment in this hobby also lost lately because I wanted to do something different than this. I would spend time stimming and imagining about inventions/objects I would create, I imagined a factory to make them and imagined objects spinning showing all their glorious details from production to packaging I would imagine it those may be a smartphone, a tv remote, a display technology using good ol phosphors with an uv light hitting them with specific angles creating a "crt without crt just phosphor", imagining about designing user interfaces for product screens, showing the glossy glass and their micro scratch markings on them it was the most enjoyable thing for me while it caused me to stim a lot by flapping my hands together sometimes resulting in cuts due to fingernails going fast through skin (I explained people that I was feeling my dreams when I did this they found it weird but many people around me accepted it without an issue as "kids these days") Lately I noticed further degradation of my working memory I'm no longer able to keep a song in head and perfectly remember it's lyrics without distorting or making up something or mentally remember a place with good accuracy and not that related to working memory but ability to mentally spin objects that I imagine also become harder and more stressing. I took the CAIT online digit span test and I scored 3 backwards 4 forwards. Without good working memory being able to reason about something has no value thus for long time I thought I had to make something that would make people progress further because there's absolutely no mission in real life we make the "game", I guess I wouldn't able to fulfill my dreams I've had as a child as a person with no friends whatsoever and liked to be alone just imagine future projects I could been made this has devastating results, I have now a diminished mental health as result of bad working memory I know nothing I imagine will happen. Clearly I'm not smart at all, whatever caused this I'm not sure but possibly irreversible, living with poor working memory is low quality life with low chances of success. I took multiple online IQ tests (mostly unrelated to wm). Symbol search 100 Mensa Denmark 129 Beta 4 matrices 105 (with an error margin of 8) Mensa Norway not in the range < 90 Ravens progressive matrices clinical edition 112 CAIT digit span ~80 Not an IQ test but HumanBenchmark has a relation to working memory which is correlated with intelligence: https://preview.redd.it/x7a3p3su1i5d1.png?width=896&format=png&auto=webp&s=b9dd072b1d94667d87e175ec7732a3e685554420 Note: I did rush through matrix tests without giving enough attention until time runs out. TL;DR: I have working memory deficits and childhood proctored IQ test score of maximum (WISC-R) 126 and minimum (Porteus Labyrinths) 96 never had a proctored IQ test as an adult. I'm only good at block design, coding and matrix reasoning nothing else. |
2024.06.08 23:18 ricotito23 [USA-PR] [H] Switch,PS2,PS4,PS5,Xbox,Vita,3DS Games [W] PayPal
Selling my personal collection. Over 800 Games.
Sorry my bad english. Paypal ff.
Free Shipping over $100. More photos at request. Offers are welcome. Most of these Prices are based on Pricharting (and pricecharting price are inaccurate so sorry im lazy to put my prices for these 800 games) Offers are welcome Worst can say is no.There's a problem with letter T jumps to C in switch and vita to A. working on it. Also i have all 3 blaster master games. Want to sell them together with Slipcover.
https://imgur.com/a/ntp4d6Q
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Sorry my bad english. Paypal ff.
Free Shipping over $100. More photos at request. Offers are welcome. Most of these Prices are based on Pricharting (and pricecharting price are inaccurate so sorry im lazy to put my prices for these 800 games) Offers are welcome Worst can say is no.There's a problem with letter T jumps to C in switch and vita to A. working on it. Also i have all 3 blaster master games. Want to sell them together with Slipcover.
https://imgur.com/a/ntp4d6Q
| Nintendo Switch | ||
|---|---|---|
| 13 Sentinels: Aegis Rim | CIB+ | 32.92 SOLD |
| 1971 Project Helios | New | 15.41 |
| AI: The Somnium Files | CIB+ | 60.5 |
| ARMS | CIB+ | 30.5 |
| Adventure Time: Pirates of the Enchiridion | New | 25.68 |
| AeternoBlade II | New | 35.5 |
| Afterparty | New | 38 |
| Aggelos | New | 38.22 |
| Alex Kidd in Miracle World DX | New | 18.98 |
| Alwa's Collection | New | 25.62 |
| American Hero | New | 40.49 |
| Ancestors Legacy | New | 24.07 |
| Annapurna Interactive [Deluxe Limited Edition Collection] | New | 230.00 |
| Ape Out [Special Reserve] | New | 40.00 |
| Ara Fell & Rise of the Third Power | New | 57.24 |
| Arcade Spirits | New | 20 |
| Archvale | New | 51.25 |
| Ary and the Secret of Seasons | New | 12.52 |
| Arzette: The Jewel of Faramore | New | 55.00 |
| Assassin's Creed: The Rebel Collection | CIB+ | 17.48 |
| Astalon: Tears of the Earth | New | 50.63 |
| Astral Chain | New | 48.99 SOLD |
| Astronite | New | 19.48 |
| Atelier Ryza 2: Lost Legends & the Secret Fairy | New | 55.00 SOLD |
| Atelier Ryza: Ever Darkness and the Secret Hideout | CIB+ | 49.5 |
| Atelier Ryza: Ever Darkness and the Secret Hideout | New | 60.1 |
| Attack on Titan 2: Final Battle | New | 65.00 |
| Azure Striker Gunvolt 3 | New | 48.5 |
| Azure Striker Gunvolt: Striker Pack | CIB+ | 25.79 |
| BROFORCE [SWITCH RESERVE] | New | 40.00 |
| BUTCHER | New | 36.9 |
| Balan Wonderworld | New | 11.77 |
| Baldur's Gate and Baldur's Gate II: Enhanced Editions | New | 120.00 SOLD |
| Battle Chef Brigade Deluxe | CIB+ | 32.61 |
| Battle Princess Madelyn: Royal Edition | New | 52.88 |
| Black Bird | New | 55.5 |
| Blade Runner: Enhanced Edition | New | 48.72 SOLD |
| Blasphemous | CIB+ | 108.49 SOLD |
| Blaster Master Zero III | New | 34.5 |
| Blaster Master Zero II | New | 40.49 |
| Blaster Master Zero | New | 44.14 |
| Blazing Beaks | New | 30.02 |
| Blazing Chrome | CIB+ | 65.92 |
| BloodRayne Betrayal: Fresh Bites | New | 40.49 |
| Bloodrayne 1 & 2: Revamped Dual Pack w/ Slipcover | New | 100.47 |
| Bloodstained: Curse Of The Moon 2 | New | 28.49 |
| Bloodstained: Ritual of the Night | New | 21.23 |
| Blossom Tales II: The Minotaur Prince | New | 46.48 |
| Blossom Tales: The Sleeping King | CIB+ | 150.47 SOLD |
| Blue Fire | CIB+ | 28.49 |
| Blue Reflection: Second Light | New | 59.83 |
| Bomb Chicken | CIB+ | 38.14 |
| Boy and His Blob | New | 50.49 |
| Bug Fables: The Everlasting Sapling | New | 55.93 |
| Bugsnax | CIB+ | 30.77 |
| Burnout Paradise Remastered | CIB+ | 14.98 |
| COGEN: Sword of Rewind & Gunvolt Chronicles: Luminous Avenger iX 2 Double Pack | New | 80.48 |
| Cannon Dancer: Osman | New | 54 |
| Captain Toad: Treasure Tracker | CIB+ | 30.49 |
| Captain Tsubasa: Rise of | New | Champions |
| Card Shark Collector's Edition | New | 40.00 |
| Carrion: Special Reserve Edition | New | 40.00 |
| Castlevania Anniversary Collection | New | 40.00 SOLD |
| Cat Girl Without Salad: Amuse-Bouche | New | 40.97 |
| Cat Quest + Cat Quest II: Pawsome Pack | New | 49.5 |
| Cathedral | New | 66.91 |
| Celeste | New | 62.39 |
| Chicken Police - Paint it RED! | CIB+ | 13.25 |
| Children of Morta | CIB+ | 22.09 |
| Children of Zodiarcs | New | 44.77 |
| Citizens Unite! Earth X Space | New | 29.49 |
| Coffee Talk | New | 42.15 |
| Collar X Malice | New | 30.49 |
| Contra Anniversary Collection Konami Version | New | 55.00 |
| Cooking Mama: Cookstar | New | 36.11 |
| Corpse Killer: 25th Anniversary Edition | New | 42.7 |
| Cosmo Dreamer & Like Dreamer: Double-D Collection | New | 25.00 |
| Cris Tales | New | 13.99 |
| Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII Reunion | CIB+ | 25 |
| Crossing Souls - Special Reserve | New | 40.00 |
| Crystal Crisis | New | 31.52 |
| Cthulhu Saves Christmas | New | 45.17 |
| Cult of the Lamb [Special Reserve] | New | 72.48 |
| DARQ: Complete Edition | New | 38.97 |
| DISC ROOM [SWITCH RESERVE] | New | 30.00 |
| DISTRAINT Collection | New | 33.76 |
| DOOM Eternal | New | 89 SOLD |
| DOOM: The Classics Collection | New | 50.5 |
| DOOM | CIB+ | 28.9 |
| DRAINUS | New | 63.39 |
| Dandara: Trials of Fear Edition | CIB+ | 41.29 |
| Dark Devotion | New | 45.49 |
| Darksiders Genesis | CIB+ | 18 |
| Darkwood | CIB+ | 108.46 SOLD |
| Dawn of the Monsters | New | 50.36 |
| Dead Cells: Return to Castlevania Edition | New | 32.01 |
| Dead or School | New | 52.03 |
| Deadly Premonition 2: A Blessing in Disguise | CIB+ | 16.77 SOLD |
| Deadly Premonition Origins | New | 38.03 |
| Death Road to Canada | New | 40 |
| Death end re;Quest | New | 41.97 |
| Death's Door [Special Reserve] | New | 33.03 SOLD |
| Death's Gambit: Afterlife | New | 38.72 |
| Demon Throttle [Reserve Edition] | New | 25.25 |
| Demon Throttle [Reserve Edition] | New | 25.25 |
| Demon Turf | New | 40.82 |
| Demon's Tilt | New | 44.5 |
| Deponia Collection | New | 83.14 |
| Dex | New | 48.38 |
| Digimon Survive | New | 20.95 |
| Dimension Drive [Limited Edition] | New | 65.48 |
| DioField Chronicle | CIB+ | 25.46 SOLD |
| Disaster Report 4: Summer Memories | CIB+ | 25.5 |
| Disgaea 5 Complete | New | 39.5 |
| Disney Classic Games: Aladdin and the Lion King | New | 18.29 |
| Disney Tsum Tsum Festival | New | 26.55 |
| DoDonPachi Resurrection | New | 55.38 |
| Dodgeball Academia | New | 19.5 |
| Doki Doki Literature Club Plus! | New | 20.00 |
| Doom 64 | New | 45.45 |
| Double Dragon & Kunio-Kun Retro Brawler Bundle | New | 52.83 |
| Double Dragon IV | New | 33.97 |
| Double Dragon: Neon | New | 50.49 |
| Double Switch: 25th Anniversary Edition | New | 55.89 |
| Downwell [Special Reserve Edition] | New | 60.00 |
| Dragon Ball Z: Kakarot + A | New | Power Awakens Set Used 25.00 |
| Dragon Quest Treasures | New | 29.53 |
| Dragon Quest XI S: Echoes of an Elusive Age - Definitive Edition | New | 40.00 |
| Dragon Star Varnir | New | 45.49 |
| Dragon's Dogma: Dark Arisen | CIB+ | 24.74 |
| Dragon's Lair Trilogy | New | 144.25 |
| Dreamscaper | New | 44.72 |
| Dusk | New | 44.49 |
| Eastward | CIB+ | 20.3 SOLD |
| Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim | CIB+ | 35.31 |
| Eldest Souls | New | 45.5 |
| Elliot Quest | New | 28.48 |
| Enclave HD | New | 52.67 |
| Ender Lilies: Quietus of the Knights | New | 55.00 |
| Endling - Extinction is Forever | New | 25.76 |
| Epic Chef | New | 15.57 |
| Espgaluda II | New | 60.27 |
| FAR: Lone Sails | New | 49.69 |
| FINAL FANTASY VII & VIII REMASTERED TWIN PACK | CIB+ | 37.63 |
| Fairy Fencer F: Advent Dark Force | New | 48.41 |
| Falconeer: Warrior Edition | New | 18.88 |
| Fast RMX | New | 71.73 SOLD |
| Fatal Twelve | New | 44.49 |
| Fault Milestone One | New | 28.49 |
| Fight'N Rage | New | 45.49 |
| Final Fantasy XII: The Zodiac Age | New | 31.61 |
| Fire Emblem Warriors: Three Hopes | New | 20.17 |
| Flinthook | New | 45.49 |
| Flipping Death | CIB+ | 28.39 |
| Foretales | New | 19.29 |
| Forgotton Anne | CIB+ | 35.49 |
| Fran Bow | New | 111.48 |
| Freedom Finger | CIB+ | 77.4 |
| Freedom Planet | New | 57.39 |
| Friends Of Ringo Ishikawa | New | 26.73 |
| Furi | CIB+ | 48.64 |
| Gal Metal: World Tour Edition | CIB+ | 17.69 |
| Gato Roboto [Special Reserve Edition] | New | 40.00 |
| Ghost 1.0 + Unepic Collection: Standard Edition | New | 30.00 |
| Ghost of a Tale | New | 66.61 |
| Going Under | New | 37.47 |
| Golf Story | New | 82.75 |
| Gotta Protectors: Cart of Darkness | New | 45.35 |
| Grandia HD Collection | New | 82.51 |
| Great Ace Attorney Chronicles | CIB+ | 30.98 |
| GrimGrimoire OnceMore [Deluxe Edition] | New | 42.33 SOLD |
| Gunbrick: Reloaded | New | 24.68 |
| Gunlord X | New | 90.00 |
| Guns, Gore & Cannoli 1 & 2 | New | 140.00 |
| Gunvolt Chronicles: Luminous Avenger iX | New | 84.5 |
| Gyakuten Saiban 123: Naruhodo Selection | New | 41.49 |
| Hades | New | 39.19 |
| Haven | New | 45.49 |
| Heaven's Vault | New | 32.15 |
| Hero Must Die. Again | New | 56.5 |
| Heroland Knowble Edition | New | 18.63 |
| Hollow Knight | CIB+ | 31.5 |
| Horgihugh and Friends | New | 28.18 |
| Hot Wheels Unleashed | New | 22.03 |
| Hotline Miami Collection [Special Reserve] | New | 40.00 |
| ITTA [Steelbook Edition] | New | 50.00 |
| ITTA | CIB+ | 35.00 |
| Ib | New | 55.46 |
| Ikenfell | New | 42.56 |
| Immortals Fenyx Rising | New | 15.22 |
| In Sound Mind: Deluxe Edition | New | 21.81 |
| Indivisible | New | 19.41 |
| Infernax | New | 50.5 |
| Inscryption [Special Reserve] | New | 200.00 |
| Ion Fury | New | 35.35 |
| Ittle Dew 2+ | New | 43.45 |
| Jamestown+ | New | 50.98 |
| Joe Dever's Lone Wolf | New | 65.54 |
| Katamari Damacy REROLL | New | 23.45 |
| Katanakami | New | 42.3 |
| Kaze and the Wild Masks | New | 32.44 |
| KeyWe | New | 25.49 |
| Killer Queen Black | New | 16.13 |
| King's Bounty II | New | 17.85 |
| Kingdom Hearts: Melody of Memory | New | 20.59 |
| Kingdoms of Amalur: Re-Reckoning | CIB+ | 19.98 |
| Knights and Bikes | New | 45.49 |
| Kotodama: The 7 Mysteries of Fujisawa | New | 19.45 |
| L.A. Noire | CIB+ | 29.99 |
| LEGO Star Wars: The Skywalker Saga | New | 20.48 |
| LUNARK | New | 49.52 |
| Lair of the Clockwork God | New | 39.13 |
| Layers of Fear: Legacy | New | 147.86 |
| Legend of Heroes: Trails of Cold Steel III - Extracurricular Edition | CIB+ | 31.77 |
| Legend of Tianding | New | 45.00 |
| Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom | New | 47.46 |
| Letter: A Horror Visual Novel [Limited Edition] | New | 73.75 |
| Little Golf Journey | New | 29.62 |
| Little Nightmares II | CIB+ | 20.75 |
| Lonely Mountains: Downhill SRG#46 | New | 86.79 |
| Loop Hero [Collectors Edition] | New | 40.00 |
| Loop Hero | CIB+ | 25.00 |
| Love Esquire [Limited Edition] | New | 90.5 |
| LoveKami Trilogy | New | 35.00 |
| Lumines Remastered | New | 32.5 |
| MONARK Deluxe Edition | New | 37 |
| Mario + Rabbids Sparks of Hope | CIB+ | 15.42 |
| Marvel Ultimate Alliance 3: The Black Order | CIB | 30.00 SOLD |
| Mato Anomalies | New | 19.73 |
| Mega Man 11 | New | 20.48 |
| Mega Man Zero/ZX Legacy Collection | CIB+ | 24.5 |
| Megadimension Neptunia VII | New | 45.5 |
| Mighty Gunvolt Burst | New | 44.45 |
| Mighty Switch Force! Collection | CIB+ | 45.49 |
| Ministry of Broadcast | New | 26.72 |
| Minoria | New | 50.47 |
| Miracle Snack Shop [Limited Edition] | New | 35.00 |
| Missing | CIB+ | 35.5 |
| Moero Chronicle Hyper | New | 90.35 |
| Moero Crystal H | New | 50.77 |
| Momodora: Reverie Under the Moonlight | New | 71.68 |
| Monster Hunter Generations Ultimate | New | 42.69 |
| Monster Hunter Stories 2: Wings of Ruin | New | 31.49 |
| Monster Sanctuary | New | 58.46 |
| Monstrum | New | 38.5 |
| Mother Russia Bleeds [Special Reserve] | New | 45.00 |
| Mother Russia Bleeds [Special Reserve] | New | 45.00 |
| Ms. Splosion Man | CIB+ | 31.98 |
| Mulaka | New | 60.00 |
| Mummy Demastered | New | 57.71 |
| Murder By Numbers Collectors Edition | New | 80.36 |
| Mushihimesama | New | 60.7 |
| My Friend Pedro [Special Reserve Edition] | New | 45.00 |
| NEO: The World Ends With You | CIB+ | 20.5 SOLD |
| Narita Boy | New | 45.55 |
| NeoGeo Pocket Color Selection Vol. 1 | New | 43.06 |
| Neon Abyss | New | 42.38 |
| Neversong & Pinstripe | CIB+ | 37.5 |
| New Super Lucky's Tale | New | 33.59 |
| New Super Mario Bros. U Deluxe | New | 39.5 |
| Ni no Kuni: Wrath of the White Witch | New | 26.5 |
| NieR: Automata - The End of YoRHa Edition | New | 39.5 |
| Night Trap: 25th Anniversary Edition | New | 56.06 |
| Night in the Woods | New | 59.92 |
| Ninja Gaiden: Master Collection | New | 50.42 |
| No Man's Sky | CIB+ | 26.25 |
| No More Heroes 2: Desperate Struggle | CIB+ | 35.92 SOLD |
| No More Heroes III | CIB+ | 15.5 |
| No More Heroes | CIB+ | 40.5 SOLD |
| Ocean's Heart | New | 53.33 |
| Octahedron | New | 45.43 |
| Octopath Traveler II | New | 39.99 |
| Octopath Traveler | New | 52.43 SOLD |
| Oddworld - Collection | New | 36.25 |
| Okami HD | New | 32.99 |
| One Step From Eden | New | 34.15 |
| Oniken + Odallus Collection | New | 36.51 |
| Opus Collection | CIB+ | 22.49 |
| Ori: The Collection | New | 28.97 |
| Othercide | New | 32.45 |
| Outlast: Bundle of Terror / Outlast 2 | CIB+ | 250.00 |
| Overlord: Escape from Nazarick | New | 35.97 |
| Owlboy | CIB+ | 16.48 |
| Oxenfree | New | 99.53 |
| Panzer Dragoon | New | 40.5 |
| Panzer Paladin | New | 48.13 |
| Pathway | New | 27.6 |
| Phoenotopia: Awakening [Premium Edition] | New | 114.25 |
| Pikmin 3 Deluxe | CIB+ | 35.00 |
| Pikmin 4 | New | 42.79 |
| Piofiore: Fated Memories | New | 27.95 |
| PixelJunk Eden 2 | New | 25.49 |
| Pocky & Rocky Reshrined | New | 25.49 |
| Pokemon Legends: Arceus | New | 41.19 |
| Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Rescue Team DX | CIB+ | 40.5 |
| Pokemon Sword | CIB+ | 30.26 |
| Pokemon Violet | New | 44.5 |
| Postal Redux | New | 25.5 |
| PowerSlave: Exhumed | New | 55.00 |
| Prinny Presents NIS Classics Volume 2 [Deluxe Edition] | New | 43.99 |
| Prodeus | New | 40.67 |
| Project Warlock | New | 67.14 |
| Puyo Puyo Tetris | New | 17.5 |
| Q.U.B.E. 2 | New | 51.32 |
| Quake | New | 38.49 |
| RED STRINGS CLUB [SWITCH RESERVE] | New | 38.5 |
| RUINER [SWITCH RESERVE] | New | 45.00 |
| Radiant Silvergun | New | 58.09 |
| Rainbow Billy: The Curse of the Leviathan | New | 23.82 |
| Razion EX | New | 90.00 |
| Red Lantern | New | 58.5 |
| Republique: Anniversary Edition | New | 35.49 |
| Return of the Obra Dinn | New | 58.18 |
| Return to Monkey Island | CIB+ | 43.09 |
| Return to Shironagasu Island | CIB+ | 28.5 |
| Risk of Rain 2 | New | 14.7 |
| River City Girls 2 | New | 50.5 |
| River City Girls Zero | New | 44.49 |
| River City Girls [PAX Variant] | New | 142.6 |
| River City Girls | CIB+ | 80.23 |
| River City: Rival Showdown | New | 30.49 |
| Rogue Heroes: Ruins of Tasos | CIB+ | 30.00 |
| Roki | CIB+ | 30.00 |
| Rolling Sky Collection | CIB+ | 20.00 |
| Root Film | New | 34.09 |
| Rune Factory 3 Special | New | 23.41 |
| Rune Factory 3 Special | New | 23.41 |
| Rune Factory 4 Special [Archival Edition] | New | 90.00 |
| SENSEs: Midnight [Limited Edition] | New | 47.43 |
| SNK Heroines Tag Team Frenzy | New | 29.15 |
| Sakuna: Of Rice and Ruin | New | 27.5 |
| Sally Face [Deluxe Edition] | New | 224.81 |
| Sam & Max Save the World | New | 43.5 |
| Sam & Max: Beyond Time and Space Remastered | New | 44 |
| Samurai Jack: Battle Through Time | New | 70.48 |
| Save me Mr Tako: Definitive Edition | New | 33.5 |
| Scott Pilgrim vs. The World: The Game - Complete Edition | New | 32.49 |
| Sea Horizon [Limited Edition] | New | 42.49 |
| Sea of Solitude: The Director's Cut | New | 20.00 |
| SeaBed [Limited Edition] | New | 135.38 |
| Seabed | New | 40.42 |
| Senran Kagura Reflexions | New | 129.74 |
| Senren * Banka | New | 70.00 |
| Serious Sam Collection [Switch Reserve] | New | 50.00 |
| Seven Pirates H | New | 30.00 |
| Seven Pirates H | New | 30.00 |
| Seven Pirates H | New | 30.00 |
| Shadow Man Remastered | New | 48.39 |
| Shadowgate | New | 62.5 |
| Shadowrun Trilogy | New | 45.00 |
| Shadows of Adam | New | 34.49 |
| Shadowverse: Champion's Battle | New | 21.95 |
| Shantae and the Pirate's Curse | Box | 49.62 |
| Shantae and the Pirate's Curse | New | 381.21 SOLD |
| Shantae and the Seven Sirens | New | 50.2 SOLD |
| Shantae: Half-Genie Hero [Ultimate Edition] | New | 38.2 SOLD |
| Shantae: Risky's Revenge | New | 38.51 SOLD |
| Shantae | New | 39.34 SOLD |
| Shaq Fu: A Legend Reborn | New | 19.57 |
| Shikhondo: Soul Eater | New | 34.44 |
| Shin Megami Tensei III: Nocturne HD Remaster | New | 25.5 |
| Shin Megami Tensei V | New | 22.38 |
| Shin Megami Tensei V | New | 22.38 |
| Shining Resonance Refrain [Draconic Launch Edition] | New | 48.6 |
| Silver Case 2425 Deluxe Edition | CIB | 25.00 |
| Sine Mora EX | New | 23.02 |
| Skelattack | New | 45.00 |
| Slime-san | New | 43.74 |
| Smile For Me | New | 30.00 |
| Sol Cresta: Dramatic Edition | New | 45.48 |
| Sonic Colors Ultimate | CIB+ | 15.48 |
| Sonic Frontiers | CIB+ | 21.62 |
| Sonic Mania | New | 16.51 |
| Spiritfarer | New | 28.95 |
| Splatoon 2 | CIB+ | 19.67 |
| Splatoon 3 | New | 43.99 |
| Star Wars Pinball | New | 19.72 |
| Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic II - The Sith Lords | New | 59.79 |
| Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic II - The Sith Lords | New | 59.79 |
| Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic | New | 60.49 |
| Star Wars: Republic Commando | New | 26.45 |
| Steel Assault | New | 48 |
| Streets of Rage 4 | New | 33.45 |
| Strife: Veteran Edition | New | 30.00 |
| Subnautica + Subnautica: Below Zero | New | 32.49 |
| Super Blood Hockey | New | 60.96 |
| Super Bomberman R | New | 20.42 |
| Super Mario Maker 2 | CIB+ | 30.48 |
| Super Meat Boy Forever | New | 25.98 |
| Super Meat Boy | New | 38.5 |
| Super Monkey Ball Banana Mania | New | 13.48 |
| Supraland | New | 33.75 |
| Sushi Striker: The Way of Sushido | New | 12.17 |
| Taiko no Tatsujin Rhythm Festival | New | 15.5 |
| Tails of Iron [Crimson Knight Edition] | New | 42.89 |
| TakeOver | New | 47.41 |
| Tales of Vesperia: Definitive Edition | New | 30.41 |
| Talos Principle | New | 40.00 |
| Tandem: A Tale of Shadows | New | 20.48 |
| Terraria | New | 24.66 |
| The Messenger [Special Reserve Games Edition] | New | 280.00 SOLD |
| There Is No Game: Wrong Dimension | New | 53.51 |
| Thumper | New | 45.45 |
| Time on Frog Island | CIB+ | 17.43 |
| Timespinner [Limited Run] | CIB+ | 77.28 |
| Tiny Barbarian DX | New | 33.97 |
| To The Moon | New | 67.98 |
| ToeJam & Earl: Back in the Groove! | CIB+ | 49.86 |
| Tokyo Mirage Sessions #FE Encore | New | 66.72 |
| Tokyo Mirage Sessions #FE Encore | New | 66.72 |
| Touryst | New | 60.00 SOLD |
| TowerFall | New | 45.5 |
| Travis Strikes Again: No More Heroes | CIB+ | 24.99 SOLD |
| Treasures Of The Aegean | New | 17.98 |
| Trigger Witch - Limited Edition | New | 57.66 |
| Trigger Witch | New | 34.59 |
| Trover Saves the Universe | New | 37.76 SOLD |
| Turok / Turok 2: Seeds of Evil Double Pack | New | 180.00 |
| Twin Blades of the Three Kingdoms | New | 30.00 |
| Two Point Hospital | New | 26.5 |
| UnderMine | New | 51.08 SOLD |
| Unravel Two | CIB+ | 18.35 |
| Unreal Life | New | 39.15 |
| Unsighted | New | 47.2 |
| Untitled Goose Game | New | 22.45 |
| Valfaris | New | 39.64 |
| Valis: The Fantasm Soldier Collection II | New | 50.5 |
| Valis: The Fantasm Soldier Collection | New | 70.61 |
| Valkyria Chronicles 4 | New | 66.81 |
| Very Very Valet | New | 17.77 |
| Wandersong | CIB+ | 33.99 |
| Warborn | New | 16.6 |
| Warhammer 40,000: Mechanicus | CIB+ | 21 |
| WarioWare: Get it Together! | CIB+ | 24.55 |
| West of Dead | New | 39.1 |
| Wizard of Legend | New | 55.00 |
| Wonder Boy: The Dragon's Trap | New | 39.14 |
| Wonderful 101: Remastered | New | 23.5 |
| World Ends with You: Final Remix | New | 53.95 SOLD |
| World Of Simulators | New | 45 |
| Wreckfest | New | 25.5 |
| Wulverblade | New | 68.83 |
| Xenoblade Chronicles 2: Torna the Golden Country | Loose | 30 |
| Xenoblade Chronicles 2 | Loose | 30 |
| Xtreme Sports | New | 50.5 |
| Yoku's Island Express | CIB+ | 35.5 |
| Yooka-Laylee and the Impossible Lair | New | 35.5 |
| Young Souls | New | 34.49 |
| Yu-Gi-Oh! Legacy of the Duelist: Link Evolution | CIB+ | 17.69 |
| Yuppie Psycho: Executive Edition (Elite Edition) | New | 45.49 |
| Yurukill: The Calumniation Games (Deluxe Edition) | New | 20.73 |
| Zombies Ate My Neighbors and Ghoul Patrol | New | 40.09 |
| realMyst: Masterpiece Edition | New | 78.08 |
| PS2 | ||
|---|---|---|
| Armored Core Nexus | CIB | 105.33 |
| PS4 | ||
|---|---|---|
| 88 Antarctica | New | 45.00 |
| Antartica 88 [Variant Cover] | New | 185.5 |
| Deadpool | CIB+ | 76.33 |
| Death Park | New | 45 |
| Death Park | New | 45 |
| Death Park | New | 45 |
| Death Park | New | 45 |
| Digimon Survive | New | 16.55 |
| Divinity: Original Sin II - Definitive Edition | New | 71 |
| Doki Doki Literature Club Plus! | New | 21.17 |
| Helldivers [Super-Earth Ultimate Edition] | CIB+ | 45.00 |
| Minecraft: Story Mode - A Telltale Games Series - The Complete Adventure | CIB+ | 58.41 |
| Outriders: Worldslayer | New | 18.48 |
| Revenge of The Bird King | New | 31.99 |
| Saints Row: The Third Remastered | New | 15.1 |
| Senran Kagura Burst Re:Newal [At the Seams Edition] | New | 60.49 |
| Senran Kagura Burst Re:Newal [Tailor Made Edition] | New | 47.99 |
| Senran Kagura: Peach Beach Splash (No Shirt, No Shoes, All Service Edition) | New | 71.5 |
| Shadow Warrior 2 [Special Reserve Edition] | New | 235.52 |
| Super Perils of Baking Special Edition [SEGA Outerbox] | New | 120.00 |
| Swords of Ditto: Mormo's Curse [Special Reserve Edition] | New | 40.00 |
| Tamashii | New | 450.00 |
| Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Mutants in Manhattan | CIB+ | 40.00 |
| Valkyria Chronicles Remastered Steelbook Edition | New | 30.45 |
| VITA | ||
|---|---|---|
| 2064: Read Only Memories | New | 67.97 |
| 88 Heroes | New | 40.6 |
| 99Vidas | New | 125.97 |
| Aegis of Earth: Protonovus Assault | New | 26.49 |
| Akiba's Beat | New | 30.25 |
| Akiba's Trip: Undead & Undressed | CIB+ | 25.49 |
| Alone With You | New | 38.5 |
| Amazing Spider-Man | CIB+ | 64.75 |
| Amazing Spider-Man | CIB+ | 64.75 |
| Angry Birds Star Wars | New | 20.48 |
| Another World: 20th Anniversary Edition | New | 40.49 |
| Antiquia Lost | New | 34.75 |
| Aqua Kitty: Milk Mine Defender DX | New | 51.5 |
| Army Corps of Hell | New | 23.99 |
| Asdivine Hearts | New | 35.46 |
| Astro Aqua Kitty [Limited Edition] | New | 64.7 |
| Atari Flashback Classics | New | 60.61 |
| Atelier Escha & Logy Plus: Alchemists of the Dusk Sky (Limited Edition) | New | 168.49 |
| Awesome Pea Collection [Limited Edition] | CIB+ | 40.1 |
| Axiom Verge Multiverse Edition | New | 56.56 |
| Back in 1995 [Limited Edition] | New | 191.4 |
| Bard's Gold | New | 33 |
| Bard's Tale: Remastered and Resnarkled | New | 50.49 |
| Bastion | New | 64.16 |
| Batman: Arkham Origins Blackgate | CIB+ | 23.67 |
| Bit.Trip Limited Edition | New | 33.5 |
| Bit.Trip Presents...Runner2: Future Legend of Rhythm Alien | New | 33.49 |
| Bloodstained: Curse of the Moon | New | 118.23 |
| Borderlands 2 | CIB+ | 23.49 |
| Breach & Clear | New | 308.01 |
| Broken Age | New | 33.77 |
| Bunny Must Die: Chelsea and the 7 Devils | New | 95 |
| Call of Duty: Black Ops Declassified | CIB+ | 22.29 |
| Call of Duty: Black Ops Declassified | Loose | 18.98 |
| Chaos;Child | New | 45.61 |
| Chasm | CIB+ | 60.49 |
| Child of Light | CIB+ | 24.56 |
| Claire: Extended Cut | CIB+ | 35.17 |
| Code:Realize - Future Blessings | Loose | 14.9 |
| Code:Realize - Guardian of Rebirth | New | 25.5 |
| Code:Realize - Guardian of Rebirth | 14.2 | |
| Conga Master Go! [Limited Edition] | New | 51.83 |
| Corpse Party: Blood Drive | New | 58.77 |
| Cosmic Star Heroine | CIB+ | 43.25 |
| Count Lucanor [Signature Edition] | New | 144.47 |
| Criminal Girls 2: Party Favors | CIB+ | 74.09 |
| Criminal Girls: Invite Only | CIB+ | 54.49 |
| Croixleur Sigma | New | 40.49 |
| Cursed Castilla EX [Limited Edition] | New | 60.5 |
| Curses 'N Chaos | New | 38.72 |
| Damascus Gear: Operation Osaka | New | 40.51 |
| Damascus Gear: Operation Tokyo | New | 41 |
| Danganronpa 2: Goodbye Despair | CIB | 19.41 |
| Danganronpa 2: Goodbye Despair | Loose | 19.41 |
| Danganronpa Another Episode: Ultra Despair Girls | New | 31.5 |
| Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony | CIB+ | 58.89 |
| Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc | CIB+ | 25.97 |
| Dariusburst: Chronicle Saviours | New | 47.38 |
| Deadbolt | New | 42.44 |
| Death Mark | CIB+ | 23.22 |
| Death Tales [Limited Edition] | New | 40.4 |
| Deemo: The Last Recital | New | 34.22 |
| Defender's Quest: Valley of the Forgotten | New | 37.86 |
| Demon Gaze II | New | 74.66 |
| Demon Gaze | CIB+ | 25.81 |
| Demon Gaze | Loose | 22.22 |
| Demon's Tier+ [Limited Edition] | CIB+ | 55.49 |
| Dengeki Bunko: Fighting Climax | CIB+ | 25.5 |
| Devious Dungeon - Limited Edition | CIB+ | 67.38 |
| Devious Dungeon 2 [Limited Edition] | New | 84.5 |
| Digimon Story: Cyber Sleuth | CIB+ | 65.9 |
| Disgaea 4: A Promise Revisited | CIB+ | 25.49 |
| Dokuro | New | 52.94 |
| Dragon Fantasy: The Black Tome of Ice | New | 34.5 |
| Dragon Fantasy: The Volumes of Westeria | New | 40.49 |
| Dragon Sinker: Descendants of Legend | New | 35.5 |
| Dungeon Travelers 2: The Royal Library & The Monster Seal | CIB+ | 53 |
| Dynasty Warriors: Next | 16.66 | |
| EMMA: Lost in Memories [Limited Edition] | New | 52.49 |
| Earth Defense Force 2: Invaders from Planet Space | New | 28.19 |
| Exile's End | New | 39.65 |
| Exist Archive: The Other Side of The Sky | Loose | 18.48 |
| Fate/Extella: The Umbral Star Noble Phantasm Edition | New | 46.26 |
| Fernz Gate | New | 30.69 |
| Final Fantasy X / X-2 HD Remaster | Loose | 25.49 |
| Final Fantasy X-2 HD Remaster | New | 61.19 |
| Forma.8 | New | 32.5 |
| Freedom Wars | CIB+ | 13.48 |
| Furwind [Limited Edition] | CIB+ | 40.5 |
| Futuridium EP Deluxe | New | 45.97 |
| Gal*Gun: Double Peace | CIB+ | 32.34 |
| Ghoulboy [Limited Edition] | New | 160.5 |
| God of War Collection | New | 74.75 |
| Grand Kingdom | New | 47.6 |
| Gravity Rush | CIB+ | 44.5 |
| Guard Duty [Limited Edition] | CIB+ | 47.38 |
| Gundemoniums | New | 84.18 |
| Gunhouse | New | 30.38 |
| Habroxia 2 [Limited Edition] | New | 65.5 |
| Habroxia | New | 129.94 |
| Halloween Forever [Limited Edition] | New | 74.5 |
| Hole | New | World |
| Home: A Unique Horror Adventure | New | 35.92 |
| Horizon Chase Turbo [Limited Edition] | New | 76.81 |
| Hot Shots Golf: World Invitational | New | 26.19 |
| Hotaru no Nikki - The Firefly Diary: Limited Edition | New | 59.25 |
| House in Fata Morgana: Dreams of the Revenants Edition | CIB+ | 99.5 |
| House in Fata Morgana: Dreams of the Revenants Edition | M+B | 40.1 |
| Hue | New | 40.5 |
| Hyperdevotion Noire: Goddess Black Heart | CIB+ | 35.5 |
| Hyperdimension Neptunia PP: Producing Perfection | CIB+ | 35.97 |
| Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth1 | CIB+ | 47.01 |
| Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth1 | CIB+ | 47.01 |
| Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth2: Sisters Generation | CIB+ | 60.49 |
| Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth2: Sisters Generation | CIB+ | 60.49 |
| Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth3: V Generation | CIB+ | 55.95 |
| Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth3: V Generation | CIB+ | 55.95 |
| Hyperdimension Neptunia U: Action Unleashed | CIB+ | 43.81 |
| Iconoclasts | New | 96.5 |
| Indigo 7 : Quest for Love | New | ? |
| Jak and Daxter Collection | CIB+ | 50.49 |
| Jet Set Knights [Limited Edition] | New | 100.5 |
| Jet Set Knights [Limited Edition] | New | 100.5 |
| Just Ignore them + My Big Sister Collection | New | 60.49 |
| Kawaii Deathu Desu | New | 45.5 |
| Killzone: Mercenary | CIB+ | 32.68 |
| Killzone: Mercenary | Loose | 24.49 |
| King of Fighters '97: Global Match | New | 64.81 |
| Knightin' + [Limited Edition] | New | 60.45 |
| Knytt Underground | New | 128.14 |
| LEGO Batman 2: DC Super Heroes | Losse | 11.33 |
| LEGO Jurassic World | CIB+ | 13.44 |
| LEGO Ninjago: Shadow of Ronin | Loose | 17.12 |
| LEGO Star Wars: The Force Awakens | New | 28.75 |
| LEGO Star Wars: The Force Awakens | Loose | 12.21 |
| LEGO The Lord of the Rings | Loose | 10.49 |
| La-Mulana Ex | New | 38.03 |
| Legend of Heroes: Trails of Cold Steel (Lionheart Limited Edition) | New | 72.39 |
| Legend of Heroes: Trails of Cold Steel II | CIB+ | 57.82 |
| Legend of Heroes: Trails of Cold Steel | CIB+ | 36.49 |
| Lone Survivor: The Director's Cut | New | 42.49 |
| Longest Five Minutes | New | 32.5 |
| Lost Child | New | 56.03 |
| Lost Cube [Limited Edition] | New | 50.49 |
| Luckslinger [Limited Edition] | New | 60.41 |
| Lumines: Electronic Symphony | New | 18.61 |
| MUSYNX | New | 50.49 |
| Mary Skelter: Nightmares | CIB+ | 92.87 |
| MegaTagmension Blanc + Neptune VS Zombies | New | 37.58 |
| MeiQ: Labyrinth of Death | CIB+ | 25.39 |
| Mercenary Kings: Reloaded Edition [Limited Edition] | New | 106.71 |
| Metagal [Limited Edition] | CIB+ | 100.35 |
| Metal Gear Solid HD Collection | CIB+ | 46.49 |
| Metal Slug 3 | New | 115.48 |
| Mind Zero | CIB+ | 20.48 |
| Mooseman [Limited Edition] | New | 119.05 |
| Mortal Kombat | CIB+ | 26.99 |
| MotoGP 13 | CIB+ | 23.83 |
| Muv-Luv Alternative | New | 66.95 |
| Muv-Luv Complete Set | New | 90.5 |
| Muv-Luv | New | 53.36 |
| My Aunt is a Witch [Limited Edition] | New | 55.5 |
| Mystery Chronicle: One Way Heroics | New | 27.94 |
| Need for Speed: Most Wanted - A Criterion Game | CIB+ | 20.32 |
| Neurovoider | New | 35.5 |
| Nicole [Limited Edition] | New | 48.22 |
| Night Trap: 25th Anniversary Edition | New | 58.99 |
| Nova-111 | New | 28.67 |
| Nurse Love Addiction | New | 59.18 |
| Nurse Love Syndrome | New | 50.49 |
| Nurse Love Syndrome | Loose | 15.49 |
| Oceanhorn: Monster of Uncharted Seas | New | 52 |
| Octodad: Dadliest Catch | New | 46.36 |
| Oddworld: Abe's Oddysee - | New | 'n' Tasty |
| Oddworld: Munch's Oddysee HD | New | 52.5 |
| Oddworld: Stranger's Wrath HD | New | 69.73 |
| Odin Sphere Leifthrasir | CIB+ | 72.45 |
| Odin Sphere Leifthrasir | Loose | 70.5 |
| One More Dungeon | CIB+ | 60 |
| Operation Abyss: | New | Tokyo Legacy |
| Oreshika: Tainted Bloodlines | New | 93 |
| Papers, Please | New | 115.47 |
| Pato Box [Limited Edition] | New | 73.23 |
| Penny-Punching Princess | New | 45.41 |
| Period: Cube - Shackles of Amadeus | New | 54.65 |
| Persona 4 Golden | New | 61.12 |
| Persona 4 Golden | Loose | 25.37 |
| Persona 4: Dancing All Night - Disco Fever Edition | New | 145.5 |
| Phantom Breaker: Battle Grounds | New | 53.5 |
| Pix the Cat | New | 28.84 |
| Plague Road | New | 43.4 |
| PlayStation All-Stars Battle Royale | New | 31.74 |
| Proteus | New | 36.49 |
| Psychedelica of the Ashen Hawk | New | 51.5 |
| Psychedelica of the Ashen Hawk | New | 51.5 |
| Psychedelica of the Black Butterfly | CIB+ | 33.57 |
| Pushy and Pully in Block Land | New | 70.45 |
| Rabi-Ribi | New | 93.59 |
| Rainbow Moon | New | 44.89 |
| Ratchet and Clank Trilogy | CIB+ | 72.77 |
| Ray Gigant | New | 102.84 |
| Rayman Legends | CIB | 17.37 |
| Rayman Origins | CIB+ | 16.71 |
| Retro City Rampage DX [Re-Release] | New | 35.00 |
| Revenant Dogma | New | 35.36 |
| Revenant Saga | New | 29.44 |
| Reverie [Limited Edition] | CIB+ | 43.49 |
| Riddled Corpses EX | New | 40.49 |
| Risk of Rain | New | 38 |
| Rock Boshers DX | New | 29.34 |
| Rocketbirds 2: Evolution | New | 55.5 |
| Rocketbirds: Hardboiled Chicken | New | 43.2 |
| Root Double [Xtend Edition] | New | 53.5 |
| Root Letter | New | 46.11 |
| Rose in the Twilight | New | 192 |
| SUPERBEAT: XONiC | New | 28.49 |
| Salt and Sanctuary | New | 100.49 |
| Salt and Sanctuary | New | 100.49 |
| Saturday Morning RPG | New | 50.49 |
| Sayonara Umihara Kawase++ | New | 67.33 |
| ScourgeBringer [Limited Edition] | New | 59.97 |
| ScourgeBringer [Limited Edition] | New | 59.97 |
| Senran Kagura Shinovi Versus: Let's Get Physical Edition | New | 115.5 |
| Senran Kagura: Bon Appetit! Full Course - Collector's Edition | New | 185.13 |
| Senran Kagura: Bon Appetit! | New | 150.44 |
| Senran Kagura: Estival Versus Endless Summer Edition | New | 115.48 |
| Sense: A Cyberpunk Ghost Story | New | 155.5 |
| Severed [Limited Edition] | New | 100.81 |
| Shakedown: Hawaii | CIB+ | 36.85 |
| Shantae: Half-Genie Hero | CIB+ | 37.5 |
| Shinobido 2: Revenge of Zen | CIB+ | 38.67 |
| Shovel Knight | New | 96.49 |
| Sid Meier's Civilization Revolution 2+ | CIB+ | 76.26 |
| Silent Hill: Book of Memories | CIB+ | 76.38 |
| Sir Eatsalot [Limited Edition] | CIB+ | 53.08 |
| Siralim 2 | New | 30.49 |
| Siralim | New | 50.5 |
| Skullgirls: 2nd Encore | New | 52.81 |
| Sky Force Anniversary | New | 75.48 |
| Slain: Back From Hell [Signature Edition] | New | 150.65 |
| Sly Cooper Collection | CIB+ | 52.27 |
| Smart as... | CIB+ | 9.67 |
| Soldner-X 2: Final Prototype | New | 44.12 |
| Sonic & All-Stars Racing Transformed | CIB+ | 23.56 |
| Sorcery Saga: Curse of the Great Curry God [Limited edition] | New | 80.5 |
| Soul Sacrifice Delta | New | 105.5 |
| Soul Sacrifice | CIB+ | 17.36 |
| Spelunky | New | 70.5 |
| Spy Hunter | CIB+ | 24.31 |
| Stay [Limited Edition] | New | 130.5 |
| Stealth Inc: A Clone in the Dark (Ultimate Edition) | New | 29.13 |
| SteamWorld Dig | New | 55.72 |
| SteamWorld Heist | New | 52.97 |
| Steins;Gate 0 | CIB+ | 29.49 |
| Steins;Gate | CIB+ | 30.58 |
| Stranger of sword city limited edition | New | 63.57 |
| Super Hydorah | New | 47.9 |
| Super Meat Boy | New | 60.5 |
| Super Mutant Alien Assault | New | 34.9 |
| Super Skull Smash GO! 2 Turbo | New | 42.35 |
| Superdimension Neptune VS Sega Hard Girls | New | 58.5 |
| Swapper | New | 51.48 |
| Swindle | New | 27.51 |
| Sword Art Online: Hollow Fragment | New | 65.48 |
| Synergia [Limited Edition] | New | 110.49 |
| Tachyon Project Limited Edition | New | 55.35 |
| Takotan [Limited Edition] | New | 51.59 |
| Tales from Space: Mutant Blobs Attack | New | 50.24 |
| Tales of Hearts R | CIB+ | 69.48 |
| Tales of Hearts R | 50.5 | |
| Task Force Kampas | New | 36.5 |
| Tetris Ultimate | New | 70.47 |
| Tetris Ultimate | New | 70.47 |
| Thomas Was Alone | New | 33.5 |
| Tokyo Xanadu | New | 49.32 |
| Touch My Katamari | CIB+ | 33.72 |
| Twin Breaker: A Sacred Symbols Adventure [Limited Edition] | CIB+ | 47.09 |
| Ultimate Marvel Vs. Capcom 3 | CIB+ | 31.21 |
| UnMetal | New | 163.32 |
| Uncharted: Golden Abyss | CIB+ | 27.23 |
| Uncharted: Golden Abyss | CIB+ | 27.23 |
| Undertale | New | 66.38 |
| Unepic [Limited Edition] | New | 274.98 |
| Utawarerumono: Mask of Deception | New | 72.27 |
| Utawarerumono: Mask of Truth - Launch Edition | New | 36.5 |
| Utawarerumono: Mask of Truth - Launch Edition | New | 36.5 |
| VA-11 Hall-A | New | 79.91 |
| Valkyrie Drive: Bhikkhuni | CIB+ | 66.81 |
| Vasara Collection | New | 98.5 |
| Velocity 2X: Critical Mass Edition | New | 63.05 |
| Volume | New | 32.25 |
| Walking Dead: Season Two - A Telltale Games Series | New | 22.61 |
| Windjammers | New | 35.83 |
| Winter's Daydream [Limited Edition] | New | 64.1 |
| Wipeout 2048 | New | 31.24 |
| World of Final Fantasy | New | 33.99 |
| Xeno Crisis [Limited Edition] | New | 100.5 |
| Xeno Crisis [Limited Edition] | New | 100.5 |
| Xeno Crisis [Limited Edition] | New | 100.5 |
| Xenon Valkyrie+ | New | 68.11 |
| Xeodrifter | New | 44.2 |
| Yomawari: Midnight Shadows | CIB+ | 33.71 |
| Yomawari: Night Alone / htol#NiQ: The Firefly Diary | CIB+ | 40.5 |
| Ys Origin | New | 56.4 |
| Ys VIII: Lacrimosa of DANA | New | 72.34 |
| Ys: Memories of Celceta | CIB+ | 25.99 |
| Yumeutsutsu Re:After [Limited Edition] | New | 82.97 |
| Yumeutsutsu Re:Master [Limited Edition] | New | 75.48 |
| Zero Escape: Virtue's Last Reward | CIB+ | 15.5 |
| Zero Escape: Zero Time Dilemma | New | 33.17 |
| Zero Escape: Zero Time Dilemma | Loose | 24.51 |
| 3DS | ||
|---|---|---|
| Aliens: Infestation | Loose | 45.00 |
| Minecraft: New Nintendo 3DS Edition | New | 34.72 |
| Senran Kagura 2: Deep Crimson (Double D Edition) | New | 70.5 |
| Senran Kagura 2: Deep Crimson (Double D Edition) | New | 70.5 |
| Shantae and the Pirate's Curse [Collector's Edition] | New | 89.39 |
| Shantae and the Pirate's Curse [Collector's Edition] | New | 89.39 |
Xbox -Dead by daylight Nightmare edition CIB $25 -Fortnite Last Laugh NEW $50
2024.06.08 20:29 TheForce122 Why won't Trump call out who did USS Liberty, JFK, 9/11, Epstein Island, COVID-19 and the vaxx bioweapon? What's his plan to prevent the next pandemic release by DARPA so he doesn't add another $8.4 trillion to national debt and crush us under inflation like last time? Who collects on that interest?
 | Nathan Wolfe (Rothschild-Epstein-Maxwell asset) of DARPA/EcoHealth/Gates Foundation ran the COVID-19 creation operation with Peter Daszak of EcoHealth via the Global Virome Project (Wuhan Lab). Nathan Wolfe dedicated his book "Viral Storm" to Israeli spy Jeffrey Epstein and Bill Gates and is BFF with Israeli spy Ghislaine Maxwell. submitted by TheForce122 to conspiracy_commons [link] [comments] "Did virus hunters cover up a lab leak?" (Good article about the Global Virome Project headed by Nathan Wolfe and Peter Daszak) https://archive.is/G8Lp8 "Hunter Biden's Ukraine BioLab Partner (Nathan Wolfe) Was Partners With Ghislaine Maxwell" https://archive.is/0BxQM Documentary on Nathan Wolfe: https://youtu.be/Q8UgtUtDDp8?si=rtVbLNeSElmDwTkz Bill Gates 9/4/19 $55 million BioNTech mRNA vaxx creator investment: https://archive.is/IP0b9 Elon/Grimes 9/4/19 tablet: https://archive.is/s7kJT Former EcoHealth VP Andrew Huff September 2019 DARPA weird job offer: https://twitter.com/AGHuff/status/1492249880546398215 Former EcoHealth VP Dr. Andrew Huff legal declaration confirming EcoHealth funded by Bill Gates and CIA (In-Q-Tel) and that Peter Daszak told him he was working with CIA: https://archive.is/iZL1N "Redfield: COVID-19 Was in Wuhan in September or October 2019: Former CDC director also tells CNN that the virus likely escaped from a lab" https://www.med pagetoday.com/special-reports/exclusives/91843 - https://archive.is/YsEui "COVID-19 might have started to spread in September 2019 in the United States: study"https://archive.is/NpOqY On the 12th Sep 2019, the main database of samples and viral sequences of the Wuhan Institute of Virology went offline. Eventually every single of the 16 virus databases managed by the WIV was taken offline.https://archive.is/i79eW Here's former CDC director Robert Redfield under oath before the Congress on Wuhan Lab September 2019 events: https://www.youtube.com/live/aXXWRaM-sWQ?feature=share I will say if you go back and look, it's declassified now, and I'm sure you all have your classified briefings, but the declassified information now:Scientist Richard Ebright The relevance of this is that SARS Cov-2, the pandemic virus, is the only virus in its entire genus of SARS-related coronaviruses that contains a fully functional cleavage site at the S1, S2 junction. And here is a proposal from the beginning of 2018 [from Fauci/Gates-funded EcoHealth Alliance] proposing explicitly to engineer that sequence at that position in chimeric lab- generated coronaviruses.
When I first saw the furin cleavage site in the viral sequence, with its arginine codons, I said to my wife it was the smoking gun for the origin of the virus. These features make a powerful challenge to the idea of a natural origin for SARS2.
I was concerned because of the presence of the furin cleavage site that we've talked about and I think it's important to understand what that cleavage site does. That cleavage site totally changes the orientation of the binding domain of COVID, so where before it could not see the ACE2 receptor which is the human receptor, it totally changes the orientation now so it has high affinity for human receptors. So that furin cleavage site bothered me, it didn't seem like it belonged there.Scientist Valentin Bruttel: I tried to raise awareness to this for a year now. WIV use BsaI and BsmBI/Esp3I sites before to make synthetic WIV1 variants. And exactly those sites appear in a "silently introduced, perfect for synthetic assembly" pattern in SARS2, but non of its nat. relatives.Type Ils restriction sites prove a synthetic origin Synthetic RNA viruses are assembled at the DNA level and later transcribed. 30,000 nucleotides cannot be synthesized in one go. These viruses are therefore assembled from smaller, 2- 8,000 nucleotide long pieces. Specific DNA restriction sites are often added to later reassemble the individual building blocks in the correct order. It is also technically possible to hide these interfaces (No See'em), but this was not done in the WIV. In a 2017 paper, two very specific, particularly suitable type Ils restriction enzymes were used at the WIV. These have the advantage that they can produce different DNA overhangs (sticky ends), which are crucial for a correct assembly of the complete genome: Bsal and BsmBI. SARS2 shows a Bsal and BsmBI restriction site pattern which is ideal for assembling synthetic viruses and to later replace the spike protein or furin cleavage site. Bsal and BsmBI restriction sites also exist in closely related viruses (Banal20-52, RaTG13), but these are distributed in such a way that an artificial virus could never be generated using the methods established at WIV 2018/19. The probability that the required 5 synonymous mutations, which enable a synthetic assembly of SARS2, arose purely by chance is less than 1 in 1020 or about as likely as winning the lottery jackpot 3 times in a row. Dr. Valentin Bruttel https://twitter.com/VBruttel/status/1566365635680124929?t=koDQ9poynY6I9qSchgQAnw&s=19 |
2024.06.08 19:18 TheForce122 who cares that was 4 yrs ago amirite
 | Nathan Wolfe (Rothschild-Epstein-Maxwell asset) of DARPA/EcoHealth/Gates Foundation ran the COVID-19 creation operation with Peter Daszak of EcoHealth via the Global Virome Project (Wuhan Lab). Nathan Wolfe dedicated his book "Viral Storm" to Israeli spy Jeffrey Epstein and Bill Gates and is BFF with Israeli spy Ghislaine Maxwell. submitted by TheForce122 to conspiracy_commons [link] [comments] "Did virus hunters cover up a lab leak?" (Good article about the Global Virome Project headed by Nathan Wolfe and Peter Daszak) https://archive.is/G8Lp8 "Hunter Biden's Ukraine BioLab Partner (Nathan Wolfe) Was Partners With Ghislaine Maxwell" https://archive.is/0BxQM Documentary on Nathan Wolfe: https://youtu.be/Q8UgtUtDDp8?si=rtVbLNeSElmDwTkz Bill Gates 9/4/19 $55 million BioNTech mRNA vaxx creator investment: https://archive.is/IP0b9 Elon/Grimes 9/4/19 tablet: https://archive.is/s7kJT Former EcoHealth VP Andrew Huff September 2019 DARPA weird job offer: https://twitter.com/AGHuff/status/1492249880546398215 Former EcoHealth VP Dr. Andrew Huff legal declaration confirming EcoHealth funded by Bill Gates and CIA (In-Q-Tel) and that Peter Daszak told him he was working with CIA: https://archive.is/iZL1N "Redfield: COVID-19 Was in Wuhan in September or October 2019: Former CDC director also tells CNN that the virus likely escaped from a lab" https://www.med pagetoday.com/special-reports/exclusives/91843 - https://archive.is/YsEui "COVID-19 might have started to spread in September 2019 in the United States: study"https://archive.is/NpOqY On the 12th Sep 2019, the main database of samples and viral sequences of the Wuhan Institute of Virology went offline. Eventually every single of the 16 virus databases managed by the WIV was taken offline.https://archive.is/i79eW Here's former CDC director Robert Redfield under oath before the Congress on Wuhan Lab September 2019 events: https://www.youtube.com/live/aXXWRaM-sWQ?feature=share I will say if you go back and look, it's declassified now, and I'm sure you all have your classified briefings, but the declassified information now:Scientist Richard Ebright The relevance of this is that SARS Cov-2, the pandemic virus, is the only virus in its entire genus of SARS-related coronaviruses that contains a fully functional cleavage site at the S1, S2 junction. And here is a proposal from the beginning of 2018 [from Fauci/Gates-funded EcoHealth Alliance] proposing explicitly to engineer that sequence at that position in chimeric lab- generated coronaviruses.
When I first saw the furin cleavage site in the viral sequence, with its arginine codons, I said to my wife it was the smoking gun for the origin of the virus. These features make a powerful challenge to the idea of a natural origin for SARS2.
I was concerned because of the presence of the furin cleavage site that we've talked about and I think it's important to understand what that cleavage site does. That cleavage site totally changes the orientation of the binding domain of COVID, so where before it could not see the ACE2 receptor which is the human receptor, it totally changes the orientation now so it has high affinity for human receptors. So that furin cleavage site bothered me, it didn't seem like it belonged there.Scientist Valentin Bruttel: I tried to raise awareness to this for a year now. WIV use BsaI and BsmBI/Esp3I sites before to make synthetic WIV1 variants. And exactly those sites appear in a "silently introduced, perfect for synthetic assembly" pattern in SARS2, but non of its nat. relatives.Type Ils restriction sites prove a synthetic origin Synthetic RNA viruses are assembled at the DNA level and later transcribed. 30,000 nucleotides cannot be synthesized in one go. These viruses are therefore assembled from smaller, 2- 8,000 nucleotide long pieces. Specific DNA restriction sites are often added to later reassemble the individual building blocks in the correct order. It is also technically possible to hide these interfaces (No See'em), but this was not done in the WIV. In a 2017 paper, two very specific, particularly suitable type Ils restriction enzymes were used at the WIV. These have the advantage that they can produce different DNA overhangs (sticky ends), which are crucial for a correct assembly of the complete genome: Bsal and BsmBI. SARS2 shows a Bsal and BsmBI restriction site pattern which is ideal for assembling synthetic viruses and to later replace the spike protein or furin cleavage site. Bsal and BsmBI restriction sites also exist in closely related viruses (Banal20-52, RaTG13), but these are distributed in such a way that an artificial virus could never be generated using the methods established at WIV 2018/19. The probability that the required 5 synonymous mutations, which enable a synthetic assembly of SARS2, arose purely by chance is less than 1 in 1020 or about as likely as winning the lottery jackpot 3 times in a row. Dr. Valentin Bruttel https://twitter.com/VBruttel/status/1566365635680124929?t=koDQ9poynY6I9qSchgQAnw&s=19 |
2024.06.08 19:14 Such-Association5903 My gf broke up with me because the people around her made her believe i was the bad guy and now she is around only fake people that only want to harm her
I ( almost 18 male), met my girlfriend ( just turned 17 ) a couple of years back, when i was 15. The love between us started out of nowhere and we got along togheter very well. Her parents were doctors and were very strict and had a better financial and social status then me and my family and juged me on that. With time that became a problem and i started to see that they were very wierd and were bad pepole. In the first week of us beeing togheter, she had a party at her house with a couple of people and i stayed at her for that night knowing her parents wouldn’t come home, we got a little bit intimate but nothing serious and then we slept. After that her parents came home because of her snitch brother and caught us sleeping in the bed. After that she got grounded for a mounth but we still saw eachother, she would skip the last period of school just to meet for an hour or a copule minutes some time or she would go to her grandma house and leave her phone there because her parents had her location, even though we went trough all that, it was percious time and we got even closer to eachother.
Me and my gf gotten intimate pretty early, in the first mounth of us beeing togheter and she lost her v-card with me. Before we did it, we had some intimacy, kisses, touching each other, and everytime i did something like that i would ask her if she is ok with that and if she is 100% sure, she was positive but for the first time we did things like that, she kept saying that she doesn’t want me to belive that she is a hoe for doing this things with me and i reassuerd her everytime and told her if she feels like it, then its ok and that i would never try to take advantage of her and that i would take this relationship seriously. After that we would get intimate at parties, we started going down on each other but nothing more because she wasn’t ready. For new years we went to a party and there she lost her v-card with me. After that we got along even better, sentimentaly and sexually, she belived in me as a guy and we had the best sex ever, we did it everywhere, we went to parties, to hotels, sometimes i would go to hers when she was home alone.
Everything was going fine till i found out something that I couldn’t accept. Before i was with her, she was with another guy that her and his family were very close to eachother, they were also doctors, it was a childhood relationship, she was around 11 years old and he was around 16 when they got togheter, but it was nothing serious, they would see eachother every couple of months or so in vacations or family meetings. He wanted to have sex with her but she wasn’t ready so he started having sex with other girls and when she got a little bit older (13yrs her), (around 18yrs him), he started pressuring her to have sex with him and told her that she is a bitch for not doing it with him, later she wouldn’t accept him seeing other girls but she found out that he cheated on her again and she broke up with him, as i said, it was nothing serious, they would see eachother a copule of times per year and would text eachother pretty rarely, to me that is a huge age gap and i see him as a pedo. All things were said and done but there wasn’t nothing that i didn’t know about, she told me all this stuff when we got togheter. But while staying at a hotel with her, while she was sleeping, i snoped trough her phone and found out that this guy wanted to give her a Christmas present while we were togheter but she turend him down, and blocked him. Then his friends were messaging her telling her that he misses her very much and that he got very drunk but she turned him down, but not in the way i wanted, she didn’t just cut it off, she talked to them, told them that is over and to take care of him to not get that drunk so nothing would happen to him. I thought that she did that because she cared about him, but when i confronted her she told me that she didn’t want their families to get involved and if they did, that would cause a lot of problems. That was something very toxic and i told her that it matters what she wants, not the people around her. After that i wanted to break up with her, i felt betrayed because i was lied to and that was something that i told her from the start I couldn’t accept. She kept pursuing me for a while and after that i told her that if she wants to continue with me, she needed to tell her parents what happened and to not be so controlled by them and do things that she doesn’t like just because they wanted to.
She had a conversation with her mother, told her everything that guy did to her and how he wanted to force her to do stuff and her mother didn’t seem upset at all ( and that was pretty weird ), she told her that they wouldn’t go in vacations with his family anymore and if they do, she will stay at home. After that everything was fine but I didn’t feel comfortable around her. After some time i go with her at a friends birthday party. Some guy tried to touch her and i beat him up and ruined the hole party. After that she got very drunk and made me look like a bum. We had a fight because of that and then i wanted some space from her and told her I couldn’t see her with the same eyes.
I went alone to a house party with my friends and there was a girl i was getting along with, i started to feel more distant to my gf and didn’t want to get togheter with her anymore. Me and the girl at that party kissed, but after that i felt woken up and realized that my gf was the girl i want. So after the party, in the morning i went to her place, she was alone and got back togheter with her and hesitated to tell her what i did because i didn’t want to lose her. I realized how much i mean to her at that time and that i was her whole world, her family and the love she felt from me didn’t feel from anyone. Her parents weren’t around while she was growing up and she spent most of the time with babysitters, when they had free time they would go to parties and not take care of her or spend time with her and all that high class bullshit, nobody ever stood by her side and took her defense, she seemed to them more like a burden if they did that, so everytime she had a problem, people would just brush her off.
I really liked that i was everything for her. That also came with some problems, she wasn’t raised how she was supposed to be and didn’t know a lot of things and i had to teach her things about life, how to resepct herself, how to take care of herself and many more, but that wasn’t a problem for me, i liked that also.
We had the best summer togheter ( sum 2022 ), we had a lot of fun, went on vacations, we were very romantical, she started to sleep at my house and that was a very sensible subject to me, I didn’t had the best home and I didn’t wanted to be viewed differently about that and i also never bringed someone to my house because of that, but she hit it of and made me feel better about myself and made me not see it as a problem anymore, she got along with my family very well, everything was so good. Then we had a little fight, but it wasn’t serious and after that we went to a vacation again and we brushed it off, with time, i saw that she would get things from her mom’s personality and she hasn’t a good personality or perception about life. She started to be mean and egotisic and wanted to view things differently, that a men needs to bow down his head in front of a women and that is the way her parents are and that is what she thinks it’s normal. We had a fight on the beach and after that she told me that even though she makes me very mad, i still wouldn’t leave her and she will be the only one i think about even if she is mean to me. That made me very mad and i felt like she viewed me as a simp and i told her what happend between me and that girl at that party and to not put herself on such a pedestal and that she isn’t special to me if she doesn’t try to be, that if she will be mean to me and doesn’t try to be special, there are always other girls and i don’t need to be in a toxic relationship. We had a fight but then we talked it out and everything was ok.
She started highschool (9th grade) at a private school because her mom tricked her to think that this was the best choice. After a little time she started telling me that she wants to live her life, that she wants to have fun because she is young and time will pass, there where things that she saw girls doing around and it made her think that she was left out and she said that her mother also kept telling her that she will have a sad life and that she needs to go and have fun (only to start problems between us), I told her that we can have fun but that i don’t like going to the clubs all the time and getting wasted especially when im with my gf, i like to go to birthday parties, home parties, i dont really like festivals that much because there are a lot of weird pepole, i am a pretty chill guy, i am also a boxer and if i have fun i like to keep it low key. She didn’t really had friends, she cut them all of after getting with me because i helped her to see that they were fake, some of them flirted with me while she was literally biside us, some of them tried to take money from her, talked bad about me and her, some of them were hoes.
Her mother noticed that and told her that if i will leave her, she will be all left alone with no one around her and that scared her even though i reassured her and told her that we are the only ones we need for eachother. She was desperate to find friends, she got along with some girls at school, but she wasn’t the type to be around guys, she didn’t like that and she also believed that every guy who is around a girl thinks about her in a sexual way in some form or another, she realized that from me and some of my friends and she believed that a guy doesn’t view a friendship with a girl in a sexual way only if she is togheter with one of his friends or if she isn’t an attractive person but in some cases they still do. I wanted to meet her friends, to go out together with me and my friends also but she kept distance and everytime she would leave it for another time. One day she was pressuring me that she wants to go to a club because she had never been and that all her friends would go. I got mad because i was tierd and told her that i don’t want to go and told her to go alone, she didn’t want that. After that a friend called me to go to a club and i thought it was the perfect time. We went, she saw all the drunk pepole, all the high and wierd pepole and that night me and my friends got into 2 fights because of other wierd guys, one of them was disrespectful to the girls we were with and i knocked him out and the other ones (35+yrs huge men) sexually assaulted my friends sister by toching her and we got into a fight with them and the police came, after that my gf told me that if she wants to have fun, she wants to keep it low key as well.
With time passing by she started to view things differently because all of the things that were around her and all the pressure from her mother. She went on a vacation in the winter break, she told me that she will go with this girl and that she is a family friend. I found that there was a hole entourage there and the girl she went with started to hang out with them, it was hard for me to believe that she didn’t do it too, she came back and i found out that this girl came with her brother, she didn’t tell me anything about him because she thought that i will get mad, the only interaction i saw them have was that she hid his vape in her room so his parents wont find out, but she tried to lie to me and that made me think about a lot of stuff.
A couple of months pass by and i found out that she had an entourage, with guys and girls. After i found that out she wanted to break up with me, because this relationship wouldn’t work and that i was controlling, manipulating. All the pepole there told her i was a bad person and a psycho and it is best for her to leave me, she belived them but i knew something was up. The main person that was telling her that was a girl that was in her school, lets call her M. M was always telling her to leave me, but when i looked closer to the people she would hang out with, I realized that M was a girl who flirted with me and tried to kiss me a couple of months prior, i knew she was a friend of my gf and didn’t think nothing and i viewed it as a test. My gf didn’t know but then i told her and there was more stuff that made her believe that M was a fake.
All this time we kept seeing eachother but not that often, we still had sex rarely and i tried to repair things and make her come back but she always said that she doesn’t know, she wanted to make us not see each other as much so she can make herself get away from me, till she decided and wanted to break up with me, she viewed me as a different person. We still kept contact but she was keeping stuff away from me, like when she would go out with them and things like that, she was thinking that i would come after her and fight all the pepole she was with. After that her and her first highschool friend, lets call her A, were getting along with this group that M had, they started to hang out more and more and they viewed themselves as a family, they even had a group chat. After some time she goes to a girl birthday party, this girl was in their group and she was also in my school. After that she gets drunk and calls me, telling me that she misses me and wanted to meet up. She came to my place, she kept wanting to have sex with me but I didn’t feel like it, i had a lot of questions, but i had, it was the most emotionless sex i have ever had. She slept and then i went through her phone and found out all this things about her group, who they were and all of that, all the pepole she would get along with. Her and A would get along with 2 boys from this group.
I was looking around more and more to find something but there wasn’t nothing that showed that she cheated on me, these 2 guys (also ugly af) in her group kept talking to her about group stuff and how fake was M, nothing serious, but i saw that they always told her to not get back with me and that i am a bad person. I confronted her with that and told her what these guys want from her, she kept telling me that i am the only crazy person who thinks almost all the guys think sexually about a girl. After that i got their socials and started to look around more and ask pepole about them. I had a friend who knew them and i asked him to talk with them about my gf. He asked them who she is and how they know her, they told him that she is a friend of a girl in their group and that they wanna fuck her and things like that. I got my friend to ss the convo and send it to me to show it to her, i showed it to her and she started to believe me, after that she went to M birthday party and she saw that this guys were trying to hit on her and then she totally believed me.
We got back togheter, she was sorry for the things she did and that she didn’t believe in me. She bought herself a ticket to a festival and she wanted to go with her friend A, but that was before we got togheter, so when we got i found out and i bought myself also and i went with them, she viewed the hole experience as i told her it will be and didn’t really like it, i also saw how childish A was. With time she got more mean and started to be more like her mother, we would have fights, she would curse at me, hit me and everytime it seemed like she thought that she was entitled to do so. She got jealous very easily, if a girl would look at me, she would get mad at me. She had times were she would be ok and times were she was a bitch, everytime that happend she would be sorry and say she doesn’t know what is happening to her and reassured me that she still loves me with all her heart and that no one took care of her like i did.
After that came the time for her to go with her family on vacation again, my phone broke and she gave me her old one, she told me that she would go alone in this vacation, but after few days prior i see her ex little brother message her on insta to ask her if she would come in this vacation, she told me that he got things mixed up probably.
When i got her old phone, something told me to activate her icloud (all theirs phone are conected to her fathers icloud) photos and convos and then i saw that she went in vacations almost all the time with her ex and his family. In the time she was with me, she went in 4 vacations, the first one was in spring break in Seychelles, she went with her ex family, in the second one in the summer she went to Spain this time with him also, the third one in the winter break, i think it was in Maldives, she went just with his family, and the fourth one in Maldives, in the summer break, again this time with him also. I confronted her and her family would force her to come, buying her plane tickets and paying for everything in advance and telling her with a couple of weeks before. Her ex this time was around 20yrs, he also had a gf, and my gf was around 15-16yrs at the time of this vacations. In the pictures i’ve seen they would all sit in a group and i asked her why, she told me that her parents would get upset over this type of things and I couldn’t understand how they still accepted her ex as a family member even though he did all that stuff to her, it was like they didn’t care and it was so toxic.
I snooped out more and found out her dad was very wierd, he had wierd sexual fetishes, he would cheat on her mother, he had nudes with him in his phone and a lot of things. Her mother also would talk with her friends about other men and it was disgusting. While i looked through her mother’s convos i’ve also seen her talk about her daughter relationship with me. She was talking to a friend and was telling her that she would do anything for me and her daughter to break up, if she doesn’t want, she will make me want to break up, she said that she doesn’t want her daughter to be with someone good who loves her and she feels happy with, she said that it is better for her daughter to be even with an old man that she doesn’t like, someone with some prestige or a high social status that will bring more reputation to their family name, then i saw her talking about her brother, saying that the way he brainwashed him is perfect, the way she made him a loser by making him a nerd and not letting him go outside and stay in the house a big part of his adolescence, so when he got to be more social in the world, he got picked on and bullied because he was an inferior guy and that made him wanna stay in the house more, the way he made him a loser so that not even a girl would try to look at him, because a relationship is a distraction and she did that so she can pressure med school on him so he could become a doctor like them as well. I think that is very sick and i was so disgusted with them. Her family always talked bad about me, they would curse out me and my family and talked about us like we were trash.
Her mother tired everything to associate him with her, my gf brother was sleeping in the room with her ex and his brother, one night, my gf brother locked the door and my gf mother said to her ex and his brother to go and sleep with my gf in the bed and she was already asleep and didn’t know anything, they even took pictures of them. She came back, had a talk about everything, but I didn’t want to tell her the stuff about her family because I didn’t want to hurt her and I didn’t think she would believe and she would get mad at me and we continued, but I wasn’t ready to be with her again after all that, i still loved her, but i felt uncomfortable. After that i found out a place where her old group was hanging out, went and got revenge on them. With time we started to have fights more and more and they got really bad, we would hit eachother and she will always get on my nerves. I usually would break things around me, i always told her to stop getting on my nerves but she didn’t want to listen.
All this time we were spending with each other, her friend, A, would call her to hang out but she always said she was busy with me and A would get very mad, she wanted her just for herself. School started and she began to hang out again with A. My gf cut off all the conections she had with that group but A didn’t, i told her that if she was a real friend, she would chose her over them but she didn’t listen. She even started med school and even if she hated it in the past, she was saying that she doesn’t want to become what her parents force her to, and her and A started togheter med school, dreaming that they will work in the same place. At one time she wanted to go on a class trip, she came to me telling me that she will break up with me if i don’t let her go, because i always try to control things, I didn’t know where that came from, i would’ve let her to go if she just came to me and asked me about it, she didn’t need to do all that, I didn’t wanted to talk to her about this stuff at that time, it was a better time to talk to her after she came back. 2 days pass by and she comes back, we meet to talk, she said she was sorry for all that and that she didn’t need to do it, after we talk this, she starts crying telling me that she missed her mother while she was gone and went to see her and her mother told her that she doesn’t have time for her because she needs to go to a party. That broke her heart and all the little faith she had left in her parents was gone. I reassured her that i am always here for her and that her parents were always bad pepole, she just has to accept it, the fact that her parents can’t be like the other ones she sees. She talked to her brother and told her the same thing. She talked to her grandma (dad side) and told her that her mother said that she doesn’t really love her dad and she choose him just because they were compatible.
Her mother strated to try to buy her with things but it didn’t work. A week pases by and her mother comes to her and after all those things she just says sorry. She believed in her, almost like she tried to lie to herself that her mother is a good person and started to get along with her. With time, A and her mother started talking bad about me, brain washing her to make her think i was a bad guy. At one time she cancelled all the plans we had with an hour before, just for her to meet with A. After that she said that she realizes she was wrong and won’t do it again. Every time she wanted something from me, she would blackmail me, telling me that she would break up with me, i couldn’t take it anymore and i started blackmailing her to with the videos we had together so she would stop that.
Then she strated doing it again, cancelling me ,but this time she will say that she needs to study. The second time this happens i call her on ft and suspect that somebody was in the room with her, then i went to her place and i could hear her and A talking while hanging out on the terace, i was relieved because i thought something else, but then i hear A talking bad about me to her and telling her that she needs to break up with me. I called her and told her to open the door, she got mad at me and said that she doesn’t want this relationship no more because i am manipulative, A was standing in the back and was just laughing, after that i asked her opinion on something and she said she doesn’t get involved in others relationships, she left and i talked it out with my gf.
We went to my friends birthday party, i told her from the start that i need to help him organize and i would be busy at sometimes. We got there and when i went to help him she got angry, strated to get jealous, she was angry so she started to drink, she got very drunk and strated to fight with me because she was jealous of a girl. We went to my place and i told her if she wants to keep arguing we can’t stay here because we will wake up my parents and they told me that they don’t want us to fight in the house no more. She said she is calm and after that she kept arguing, yelling, hitting me. She got food to eat and then she kept yapping, i got mad and knocked the food on the floor, we cleaned, she got more mad and started to fight me, i kept begging her to stop and that we will talk tomorrow, she didn’t listen, she kept hitting and then she got up on me and started to bite my cheek very hard, i told her to stop because she is hurting me and she is make a lot of noise, she kept biting harden, i tried to push her off me and she hit her nose and blood started leaking, then my mom came in because she woke up. I felt so bad and didn’t know what to do or say. She was very mad, she only viewed me as the one who did all the wrong things. We talked about it for a long time and we got back together.
The fights didn’t go away and i was tierd of them, she kept changing as a person and when i tried to talk things that she would do wrong and how to put a stop to all of those things but she just kept arguing. With time the intimacy part of our relationship got worse, from getting intimate almost everyday, sometimes multiple times per day, to doing it once a week or less. We always got along very well on this part, i was putting her pleasures before mine, always focusing on her climaxing, even more than once and then letting her take care of my pleasures, one time, i made her orgasm 6 times in a row, the sex was good, long lasting and always passionate. With time a lot of problems came and I didn’t know where from, i believe it was the fact that the pepole around her started to change her perception about me, she started saying i was using her for her body, i told her that i don’t am in a relationship with her just for the sex and if i wanted sex, i could get it from anywhere, i choose her because i love her and want a future with her. She told me that isn’t true and i am with her because she is the most sexually available person to me.
A lot of bad perceptions like those came and i always tried to reassure her. In the past mounths i was battling with depression, anxiety, overthinking, insecurities, money problems, a lot of family problems. She started seeing me as a loser, that i don’t do nothing with my life, that academically i am a bum, that i am a mamas boy and that i am always complaining about stuff. The truth is that i never was a beta male, i always was manly, i am around 5,11 i am an atractive guy and i seem very atractive to others. I never went with my problems to nobody not even her, i started doing that because she was begging me to do so, to open up to her so we would be closer to eachother and i did that the past months. I always worked to do something with my life, i am a professional boxer but I didn’t had my debut yet, my father is a singer and i also sing and I’ve dreamt to become a singer, academically im not the best in my class, but not the worst (in my country they evaluate us on a scale from 1 to 10 and i am a 8,50+ student) i don’t know where all her perceptions came from but she started to see me as the bad guy that she needs to get rid of. She wanted to go on a school trip again and she asked me, i told her that i want to talk about it face to face, she started saying that i am a manipulating piece of shit.
She told her parents everything, her mother called my mother and started to threaten her. After that i still tried to talk it out with her, we still saw eachother very rarely, her school work got very hard and she had med school work too and she was busy. Everything started getting wierd and she was doing things to not have as much contact with me, we had sex a couple of times but it was bad and she was arguing, if i tried to be close to her, to kiss her she would pull away telling me she is not in the mood for kissing or she will find something to do like playing on the phone. It seemed like she tried to break the contact between us little by little so she couldn’t fall for me again.
One night i was hanging out with my friends in front of a store, some drunk guys came and knocked a old man out, we made them leave, then me and my friends split up, i went with another guy back to the store to buy something, then the same guys from earlier came out of the store but they were more meny, one of them came charging at me and he called me by my name ( wierd thing because i never seen them before ) i fought him and then the other jumped me, my friend couldn’t get involved because he was threatened with a knife, the same guy tried to slash my face, but i dogged it, after many more hits i fallen down, my friends arrived just then, the guys ran into a car and got away and after that the police came and started a hole case on this. My gf gotten a massage from this fake account, threatening her, telling her that she wants to take revenge on her because she stole her friend and said that she is a person from her circle. Many threats were made and then i got involved, this person knew me and what i was capable of so she backed off. She messaged me too, trying to make me break up with my gf but that didn’t work.
Me and my gf still weren’t on good terms and she started to hang out with more pepole from her school. My gf talked with her friends and they made her think that i was the one behind the fake account and that it’s all a scheme for me to win her back so she would get back with me. She started believing more and more that it was me and i think that this was the plan, if she couldn’t make me break up with her, she made her break up with me. I kept stalking around trying to find out who was behind this. I heard around that the guys that jumped me were friends with people from her school and that me question some things. I got called by the police to come and talk more about the case and they told me that everything isn’t what it seems, that these guys didn’t started to jump me randomly, they had a plan all along, some girl that they were friends with made them do it and they wanted to make it seem like it was randomly. I started to put 1 and 2 togheter and told my gf everything but she didn’t believed me, she said that i faked everything and that this isn’t possible and that no friend of hers would do anything like that.
She broke all contact with me, she would just answer on a couple messages per day, i only had her location but sometimes she would turn it off because she didn’t want me to know where she would go so i couldn’t go after her. She started going out, to colleagues birthday parties, she didn’t had a way to go, her friends would take her with them. One night she went to a club where a lot of people from her school went, some pepole that i know would keep me up to date with what she was doing, they told me she went to this club, they sent me videos to see. Looking closely i saw her, she was in a corner chilling with 2 or 3 girls, she was away from all that chaos, but then i saw that were all those pepole were, there were the guys that jumped me, they were hanging out with pepole from her school and from her cricle. Immediately i thought that these guys were friends with the girl who made a fake account and then i knew and it was confirmed that it was a friend of gf. First i got scared that these guys came to do something to my gf so i went there to see it myself. In the way there i also thought about my gf having to do something with this, that she put the hit on me, but there were very low chances. I got there i didn’t want to appear suspicious so i walked on the other way of the street and i looked, i saw my gf, she wasn’t hanging out with any of them, she was with 2 girls and those guys didn’t seem to have a business with her. I called my guys to come there. They wanted to bust in but i told them to relax and to keep it low key, i got one of them to walk in front of the club to see everything that was happening, my gf went home after a little while, but those guys remaind and i could see that they knew with pepole from my gf school and i saw a lot of my gf friends hang out with them. I didn’t knew who could it be, but i had an idea. All this time i asked pepole that i knew about this. I found out that these guys were really good friends with a girl from my gf class. So i had an a idea.
Then one of my friends messaged that fake account and called her by her name and she got nervous and blocked him, then i messaged the account myself and called her by her name, she got angry and she confessed all of it but i don’t know if she did that just to throw me off. She confirmed i was jumped by those guys because of her, i told her that i would get revenge on her and she would get expelled from school after i tell my gf, she said that what makes me think that your gf would believe you and that she would make sure that she doesn’t.
I tried to reach out to my gf but she didn’t wanna hear anything. Some people told me that they heard from those guys that jumped me, that their and that girls plan is know to do something to my gf, they wanna beat her up, get her drunk, drug her and all this type of stuff. I heard that and i reached out to my gf telling her all of those things but she didn’t want to believe me. I’ve talked to her recently, it was her birthday and i had a gift for her and i just wanted to give it to her but she cut me off, she doesn’t want to break no contact with me because she thinks im a bad person, that i will hurt her, that i will force her to get back together with me and all this shit people from around her got into her head. I texted her a message about more stuff and the fact that i just wanna give her the gift i have for her, i told her stuff about her family and all these wrong things that were happening and she didn’t wanna hear nothing from me, she said that this is all a scheme that i created.
I am very scared to lose her or for something to happen to her. I am scared of her being controlled by her friends to get into another relationship. I love her with all my heart and can’t live without her. I am on antidepressants, i am very stressed, i started to cough blood from my lungs, the past months have been so hard for me and this just done it all, at some point i made a goodbye video for all my loved ones because i had very dark thoughts. I dont know what to do, i did everything to win her back, to make her understand everything but nothing seems to work, i don’t know what to do….
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Me and my gf gotten intimate pretty early, in the first mounth of us beeing togheter and she lost her v-card with me. Before we did it, we had some intimacy, kisses, touching each other, and everytime i did something like that i would ask her if she is ok with that and if she is 100% sure, she was positive but for the first time we did things like that, she kept saying that she doesn’t want me to belive that she is a hoe for doing this things with me and i reassuerd her everytime and told her if she feels like it, then its ok and that i would never try to take advantage of her and that i would take this relationship seriously. After that we would get intimate at parties, we started going down on each other but nothing more because she wasn’t ready. For new years we went to a party and there she lost her v-card with me. After that we got along even better, sentimentaly and sexually, she belived in me as a guy and we had the best sex ever, we did it everywhere, we went to parties, to hotels, sometimes i would go to hers when she was home alone.
Everything was going fine till i found out something that I couldn’t accept. Before i was with her, she was with another guy that her and his family were very close to eachother, they were also doctors, it was a childhood relationship, she was around 11 years old and he was around 16 when they got togheter, but it was nothing serious, they would see eachother every couple of months or so in vacations or family meetings. He wanted to have sex with her but she wasn’t ready so he started having sex with other girls and when she got a little bit older (13yrs her), (around 18yrs him), he started pressuring her to have sex with him and told her that she is a bitch for not doing it with him, later she wouldn’t accept him seeing other girls but she found out that he cheated on her again and she broke up with him, as i said, it was nothing serious, they would see eachother a copule of times per year and would text eachother pretty rarely, to me that is a huge age gap and i see him as a pedo. All things were said and done but there wasn’t nothing that i didn’t know about, she told me all this stuff when we got togheter. But while staying at a hotel with her, while she was sleeping, i snoped trough her phone and found out that this guy wanted to give her a Christmas present while we were togheter but she turend him down, and blocked him. Then his friends were messaging her telling her that he misses her very much and that he got very drunk but she turned him down, but not in the way i wanted, she didn’t just cut it off, she talked to them, told them that is over and to take care of him to not get that drunk so nothing would happen to him. I thought that she did that because she cared about him, but when i confronted her she told me that she didn’t want their families to get involved and if they did, that would cause a lot of problems. That was something very toxic and i told her that it matters what she wants, not the people around her. After that i wanted to break up with her, i felt betrayed because i was lied to and that was something that i told her from the start I couldn’t accept. She kept pursuing me for a while and after that i told her that if she wants to continue with me, she needed to tell her parents what happened and to not be so controlled by them and do things that she doesn’t like just because they wanted to.
She had a conversation with her mother, told her everything that guy did to her and how he wanted to force her to do stuff and her mother didn’t seem upset at all ( and that was pretty weird ), she told her that they wouldn’t go in vacations with his family anymore and if they do, she will stay at home. After that everything was fine but I didn’t feel comfortable around her. After some time i go with her at a friends birthday party. Some guy tried to touch her and i beat him up and ruined the hole party. After that she got very drunk and made me look like a bum. We had a fight because of that and then i wanted some space from her and told her I couldn’t see her with the same eyes.
I went alone to a house party with my friends and there was a girl i was getting along with, i started to feel more distant to my gf and didn’t want to get togheter with her anymore. Me and the girl at that party kissed, but after that i felt woken up and realized that my gf was the girl i want. So after the party, in the morning i went to her place, she was alone and got back togheter with her and hesitated to tell her what i did because i didn’t want to lose her. I realized how much i mean to her at that time and that i was her whole world, her family and the love she felt from me didn’t feel from anyone. Her parents weren’t around while she was growing up and she spent most of the time with babysitters, when they had free time they would go to parties and not take care of her or spend time with her and all that high class bullshit, nobody ever stood by her side and took her defense, she seemed to them more like a burden if they did that, so everytime she had a problem, people would just brush her off.
I really liked that i was everything for her. That also came with some problems, she wasn’t raised how she was supposed to be and didn’t know a lot of things and i had to teach her things about life, how to resepct herself, how to take care of herself and many more, but that wasn’t a problem for me, i liked that also.
We had the best summer togheter ( sum 2022 ), we had a lot of fun, went on vacations, we were very romantical, she started to sleep at my house and that was a very sensible subject to me, I didn’t had the best home and I didn’t wanted to be viewed differently about that and i also never bringed someone to my house because of that, but she hit it of and made me feel better about myself and made me not see it as a problem anymore, she got along with my family very well, everything was so good. Then we had a little fight, but it wasn’t serious and after that we went to a vacation again and we brushed it off, with time, i saw that she would get things from her mom’s personality and she hasn’t a good personality or perception about life. She started to be mean and egotisic and wanted to view things differently, that a men needs to bow down his head in front of a women and that is the way her parents are and that is what she thinks it’s normal. We had a fight on the beach and after that she told me that even though she makes me very mad, i still wouldn’t leave her and she will be the only one i think about even if she is mean to me. That made me very mad and i felt like she viewed me as a simp and i told her what happend between me and that girl at that party and to not put herself on such a pedestal and that she isn’t special to me if she doesn’t try to be, that if she will be mean to me and doesn’t try to be special, there are always other girls and i don’t need to be in a toxic relationship. We had a fight but then we talked it out and everything was ok.
She started highschool (9th grade) at a private school because her mom tricked her to think that this was the best choice. After a little time she started telling me that she wants to live her life, that she wants to have fun because she is young and time will pass, there where things that she saw girls doing around and it made her think that she was left out and she said that her mother also kept telling her that she will have a sad life and that she needs to go and have fun (only to start problems between us), I told her that we can have fun but that i don’t like going to the clubs all the time and getting wasted especially when im with my gf, i like to go to birthday parties, home parties, i dont really like festivals that much because there are a lot of weird pepole, i am a pretty chill guy, i am also a boxer and if i have fun i like to keep it low key. She didn’t really had friends, she cut them all of after getting with me because i helped her to see that they were fake, some of them flirted with me while she was literally biside us, some of them tried to take money from her, talked bad about me and her, some of them were hoes.
Her mother noticed that and told her that if i will leave her, she will be all left alone with no one around her and that scared her even though i reassured her and told her that we are the only ones we need for eachother. She was desperate to find friends, she got along with some girls at school, but she wasn’t the type to be around guys, she didn’t like that and she also believed that every guy who is around a girl thinks about her in a sexual way in some form or another, she realized that from me and some of my friends and she believed that a guy doesn’t view a friendship with a girl in a sexual way only if she is togheter with one of his friends or if she isn’t an attractive person but in some cases they still do. I wanted to meet her friends, to go out together with me and my friends also but she kept distance and everytime she would leave it for another time. One day she was pressuring me that she wants to go to a club because she had never been and that all her friends would go. I got mad because i was tierd and told her that i don’t want to go and told her to go alone, she didn’t want that. After that a friend called me to go to a club and i thought it was the perfect time. We went, she saw all the drunk pepole, all the high and wierd pepole and that night me and my friends got into 2 fights because of other wierd guys, one of them was disrespectful to the girls we were with and i knocked him out and the other ones (35+yrs huge men) sexually assaulted my friends sister by toching her and we got into a fight with them and the police came, after that my gf told me that if she wants to have fun, she wants to keep it low key as well.
With time passing by she started to view things differently because all of the things that were around her and all the pressure from her mother. She went on a vacation in the winter break, she told me that she will go with this girl and that she is a family friend. I found that there was a hole entourage there and the girl she went with started to hang out with them, it was hard for me to believe that she didn’t do it too, she came back and i found out that this girl came with her brother, she didn’t tell me anything about him because she thought that i will get mad, the only interaction i saw them have was that she hid his vape in her room so his parents wont find out, but she tried to lie to me and that made me think about a lot of stuff.
A couple of months pass by and i found out that she had an entourage, with guys and girls. After i found that out she wanted to break up with me, because this relationship wouldn’t work and that i was controlling, manipulating. All the pepole there told her i was a bad person and a psycho and it is best for her to leave me, she belived them but i knew something was up. The main person that was telling her that was a girl that was in her school, lets call her M. M was always telling her to leave me, but when i looked closer to the people she would hang out with, I realized that M was a girl who flirted with me and tried to kiss me a couple of months prior, i knew she was a friend of my gf and didn’t think nothing and i viewed it as a test. My gf didn’t know but then i told her and there was more stuff that made her believe that M was a fake.
All this time we kept seeing eachother but not that often, we still had sex rarely and i tried to repair things and make her come back but she always said that she doesn’t know, she wanted to make us not see each other as much so she can make herself get away from me, till she decided and wanted to break up with me, she viewed me as a different person. We still kept contact but she was keeping stuff away from me, like when she would go out with them and things like that, she was thinking that i would come after her and fight all the pepole she was with. After that her and her first highschool friend, lets call her A, were getting along with this group that M had, they started to hang out more and more and they viewed themselves as a family, they even had a group chat. After some time she goes to a girl birthday party, this girl was in their group and she was also in my school. After that she gets drunk and calls me, telling me that she misses me and wanted to meet up. She came to my place, she kept wanting to have sex with me but I didn’t feel like it, i had a lot of questions, but i had, it was the most emotionless sex i have ever had. She slept and then i went through her phone and found out all this things about her group, who they were and all of that, all the pepole she would get along with. Her and A would get along with 2 boys from this group.
I was looking around more and more to find something but there wasn’t nothing that showed that she cheated on me, these 2 guys (also ugly af) in her group kept talking to her about group stuff and how fake was M, nothing serious, but i saw that they always told her to not get back with me and that i am a bad person. I confronted her with that and told her what these guys want from her, she kept telling me that i am the only crazy person who thinks almost all the guys think sexually about a girl. After that i got their socials and started to look around more and ask pepole about them. I had a friend who knew them and i asked him to talk with them about my gf. He asked them who she is and how they know her, they told him that she is a friend of a girl in their group and that they wanna fuck her and things like that. I got my friend to ss the convo and send it to me to show it to her, i showed it to her and she started to believe me, after that she went to M birthday party and she saw that this guys were trying to hit on her and then she totally believed me.
We got back togheter, she was sorry for the things she did and that she didn’t believe in me. She bought herself a ticket to a festival and she wanted to go with her friend A, but that was before we got togheter, so when we got i found out and i bought myself also and i went with them, she viewed the hole experience as i told her it will be and didn’t really like it, i also saw how childish A was. With time she got more mean and started to be more like her mother, we would have fights, she would curse at me, hit me and everytime it seemed like she thought that she was entitled to do so. She got jealous very easily, if a girl would look at me, she would get mad at me. She had times were she would be ok and times were she was a bitch, everytime that happend she would be sorry and say she doesn’t know what is happening to her and reassured me that she still loves me with all her heart and that no one took care of her like i did.
After that came the time for her to go with her family on vacation again, my phone broke and she gave me her old one, she told me that she would go alone in this vacation, but after few days prior i see her ex little brother message her on insta to ask her if she would come in this vacation, she told me that he got things mixed up probably.
When i got her old phone, something told me to activate her icloud (all theirs phone are conected to her fathers icloud) photos and convos and then i saw that she went in vacations almost all the time with her ex and his family. In the time she was with me, she went in 4 vacations, the first one was in spring break in Seychelles, she went with her ex family, in the second one in the summer she went to Spain this time with him also, the third one in the winter break, i think it was in Maldives, she went just with his family, and the fourth one in Maldives, in the summer break, again this time with him also. I confronted her and her family would force her to come, buying her plane tickets and paying for everything in advance and telling her with a couple of weeks before. Her ex this time was around 20yrs, he also had a gf, and my gf was around 15-16yrs at the time of this vacations. In the pictures i’ve seen they would all sit in a group and i asked her why, she told me that her parents would get upset over this type of things and I couldn’t understand how they still accepted her ex as a family member even though he did all that stuff to her, it was like they didn’t care and it was so toxic.
I snooped out more and found out her dad was very wierd, he had wierd sexual fetishes, he would cheat on her mother, he had nudes with him in his phone and a lot of things. Her mother also would talk with her friends about other men and it was disgusting. While i looked through her mother’s convos i’ve also seen her talk about her daughter relationship with me. She was talking to a friend and was telling her that she would do anything for me and her daughter to break up, if she doesn’t want, she will make me want to break up, she said that she doesn’t want her daughter to be with someone good who loves her and she feels happy with, she said that it is better for her daughter to be even with an old man that she doesn’t like, someone with some prestige or a high social status that will bring more reputation to their family name, then i saw her talking about her brother, saying that the way he brainwashed him is perfect, the way she made him a loser by making him a nerd and not letting him go outside and stay in the house a big part of his adolescence, so when he got to be more social in the world, he got picked on and bullied because he was an inferior guy and that made him wanna stay in the house more, the way he made him a loser so that not even a girl would try to look at him, because a relationship is a distraction and she did that so she can pressure med school on him so he could become a doctor like them as well. I think that is very sick and i was so disgusted with them. Her family always talked bad about me, they would curse out me and my family and talked about us like we were trash.
Her mother tired everything to associate him with her, my gf brother was sleeping in the room with her ex and his brother, one night, my gf brother locked the door and my gf mother said to her ex and his brother to go and sleep with my gf in the bed and she was already asleep and didn’t know anything, they even took pictures of them. She came back, had a talk about everything, but I didn’t want to tell her the stuff about her family because I didn’t want to hurt her and I didn’t think she would believe and she would get mad at me and we continued, but I wasn’t ready to be with her again after all that, i still loved her, but i felt uncomfortable. After that i found out a place where her old group was hanging out, went and got revenge on them. With time we started to have fights more and more and they got really bad, we would hit eachother and she will always get on my nerves. I usually would break things around me, i always told her to stop getting on my nerves but she didn’t want to listen.
All this time we were spending with each other, her friend, A, would call her to hang out but she always said she was busy with me and A would get very mad, she wanted her just for herself. School started and she began to hang out again with A. My gf cut off all the conections she had with that group but A didn’t, i told her that if she was a real friend, she would chose her over them but she didn’t listen. She even started med school and even if she hated it in the past, she was saying that she doesn’t want to become what her parents force her to, and her and A started togheter med school, dreaming that they will work in the same place. At one time she wanted to go on a class trip, she came to me telling me that she will break up with me if i don’t let her go, because i always try to control things, I didn’t know where that came from, i would’ve let her to go if she just came to me and asked me about it, she didn’t need to do all that, I didn’t wanted to talk to her about this stuff at that time, it was a better time to talk to her after she came back. 2 days pass by and she comes back, we meet to talk, she said she was sorry for all that and that she didn’t need to do it, after we talk this, she starts crying telling me that she missed her mother while she was gone and went to see her and her mother told her that she doesn’t have time for her because she needs to go to a party. That broke her heart and all the little faith she had left in her parents was gone. I reassured her that i am always here for her and that her parents were always bad pepole, she just has to accept it, the fact that her parents can’t be like the other ones she sees. She talked to her brother and told her the same thing. She talked to her grandma (dad side) and told her that her mother said that she doesn’t really love her dad and she choose him just because they were compatible.
Her mother strated to try to buy her with things but it didn’t work. A week pases by and her mother comes to her and after all those things she just says sorry. She believed in her, almost like she tried to lie to herself that her mother is a good person and started to get along with her. With time, A and her mother started talking bad about me, brain washing her to make her think i was a bad guy. At one time she cancelled all the plans we had with an hour before, just for her to meet with A. After that she said that she realizes she was wrong and won’t do it again. Every time she wanted something from me, she would blackmail me, telling me that she would break up with me, i couldn’t take it anymore and i started blackmailing her to with the videos we had together so she would stop that.
Then she strated doing it again, cancelling me ,but this time she will say that she needs to study. The second time this happens i call her on ft and suspect that somebody was in the room with her, then i went to her place and i could hear her and A talking while hanging out on the terace, i was relieved because i thought something else, but then i hear A talking bad about me to her and telling her that she needs to break up with me. I called her and told her to open the door, she got mad at me and said that she doesn’t want this relationship no more because i am manipulative, A was standing in the back and was just laughing, after that i asked her opinion on something and she said she doesn’t get involved in others relationships, she left and i talked it out with my gf.
We went to my friends birthday party, i told her from the start that i need to help him organize and i would be busy at sometimes. We got there and when i went to help him she got angry, strated to get jealous, she was angry so she started to drink, she got very drunk and strated to fight with me because she was jealous of a girl. We went to my place and i told her if she wants to keep arguing we can’t stay here because we will wake up my parents and they told me that they don’t want us to fight in the house no more. She said she is calm and after that she kept arguing, yelling, hitting me. She got food to eat and then she kept yapping, i got mad and knocked the food on the floor, we cleaned, she got more mad and started to fight me, i kept begging her to stop and that we will talk tomorrow, she didn’t listen, she kept hitting and then she got up on me and started to bite my cheek very hard, i told her to stop because she is hurting me and she is make a lot of noise, she kept biting harden, i tried to push her off me and she hit her nose and blood started leaking, then my mom came in because she woke up. I felt so bad and didn’t know what to do or say. She was very mad, she only viewed me as the one who did all the wrong things. We talked about it for a long time and we got back together.
The fights didn’t go away and i was tierd of them, she kept changing as a person and when i tried to talk things that she would do wrong and how to put a stop to all of those things but she just kept arguing. With time the intimacy part of our relationship got worse, from getting intimate almost everyday, sometimes multiple times per day, to doing it once a week or less. We always got along very well on this part, i was putting her pleasures before mine, always focusing on her climaxing, even more than once and then letting her take care of my pleasures, one time, i made her orgasm 6 times in a row, the sex was good, long lasting and always passionate. With time a lot of problems came and I didn’t know where from, i believe it was the fact that the pepole around her started to change her perception about me, she started saying i was using her for her body, i told her that i don’t am in a relationship with her just for the sex and if i wanted sex, i could get it from anywhere, i choose her because i love her and want a future with her. She told me that isn’t true and i am with her because she is the most sexually available person to me.
A lot of bad perceptions like those came and i always tried to reassure her. In the past mounths i was battling with depression, anxiety, overthinking, insecurities, money problems, a lot of family problems. She started seeing me as a loser, that i don’t do nothing with my life, that academically i am a bum, that i am a mamas boy and that i am always complaining about stuff. The truth is that i never was a beta male, i always was manly, i am around 5,11 i am an atractive guy and i seem very atractive to others. I never went with my problems to nobody not even her, i started doing that because she was begging me to do so, to open up to her so we would be closer to eachother and i did that the past months. I always worked to do something with my life, i am a professional boxer but I didn’t had my debut yet, my father is a singer and i also sing and I’ve dreamt to become a singer, academically im not the best in my class, but not the worst (in my country they evaluate us on a scale from 1 to 10 and i am a 8,50+ student) i don’t know where all her perceptions came from but she started to see me as the bad guy that she needs to get rid of. She wanted to go on a school trip again and she asked me, i told her that i want to talk about it face to face, she started saying that i am a manipulating piece of shit.
She told her parents everything, her mother called my mother and started to threaten her. After that i still tried to talk it out with her, we still saw eachother very rarely, her school work got very hard and she had med school work too and she was busy. Everything started getting wierd and she was doing things to not have as much contact with me, we had sex a couple of times but it was bad and she was arguing, if i tried to be close to her, to kiss her she would pull away telling me she is not in the mood for kissing or she will find something to do like playing on the phone. It seemed like she tried to break the contact between us little by little so she couldn’t fall for me again.
One night i was hanging out with my friends in front of a store, some drunk guys came and knocked a old man out, we made them leave, then me and my friends split up, i went with another guy back to the store to buy something, then the same guys from earlier came out of the store but they were more meny, one of them came charging at me and he called me by my name ( wierd thing because i never seen them before ) i fought him and then the other jumped me, my friend couldn’t get involved because he was threatened with a knife, the same guy tried to slash my face, but i dogged it, after many more hits i fallen down, my friends arrived just then, the guys ran into a car and got away and after that the police came and started a hole case on this. My gf gotten a massage from this fake account, threatening her, telling her that she wants to take revenge on her because she stole her friend and said that she is a person from her circle. Many threats were made and then i got involved, this person knew me and what i was capable of so she backed off. She messaged me too, trying to make me break up with my gf but that didn’t work.
Me and my gf still weren’t on good terms and she started to hang out with more pepole from her school. My gf talked with her friends and they made her think that i was the one behind the fake account and that it’s all a scheme for me to win her back so she would get back with me. She started believing more and more that it was me and i think that this was the plan, if she couldn’t make me break up with her, she made her break up with me. I kept stalking around trying to find out who was behind this. I heard around that the guys that jumped me were friends with people from her school and that me question some things. I got called by the police to come and talk more about the case and they told me that everything isn’t what it seems, that these guys didn’t started to jump me randomly, they had a plan all along, some girl that they were friends with made them do it and they wanted to make it seem like it was randomly. I started to put 1 and 2 togheter and told my gf everything but she didn’t believed me, she said that i faked everything and that this isn’t possible and that no friend of hers would do anything like that.
She broke all contact with me, she would just answer on a couple messages per day, i only had her location but sometimes she would turn it off because she didn’t want me to know where she would go so i couldn’t go after her. She started going out, to colleagues birthday parties, she didn’t had a way to go, her friends would take her with them. One night she went to a club where a lot of people from her school went, some pepole that i know would keep me up to date with what she was doing, they told me she went to this club, they sent me videos to see. Looking closely i saw her, she was in a corner chilling with 2 or 3 girls, she was away from all that chaos, but then i saw that were all those pepole were, there were the guys that jumped me, they were hanging out with pepole from her school and from her cricle. Immediately i thought that these guys were friends with the girl who made a fake account and then i knew and it was confirmed that it was a friend of gf. First i got scared that these guys came to do something to my gf so i went there to see it myself. In the way there i also thought about my gf having to do something with this, that she put the hit on me, but there were very low chances. I got there i didn’t want to appear suspicious so i walked on the other way of the street and i looked, i saw my gf, she wasn’t hanging out with any of them, she was with 2 girls and those guys didn’t seem to have a business with her. I called my guys to come there. They wanted to bust in but i told them to relax and to keep it low key, i got one of them to walk in front of the club to see everything that was happening, my gf went home after a little while, but those guys remaind and i could see that they knew with pepole from my gf school and i saw a lot of my gf friends hang out with them. I didn’t knew who could it be, but i had an idea. All this time i asked pepole that i knew about this. I found out that these guys were really good friends with a girl from my gf class. So i had an a idea.
Then one of my friends messaged that fake account and called her by her name and she got nervous and blocked him, then i messaged the account myself and called her by her name, she got angry and she confessed all of it but i don’t know if she did that just to throw me off. She confirmed i was jumped by those guys because of her, i told her that i would get revenge on her and she would get expelled from school after i tell my gf, she said that what makes me think that your gf would believe you and that she would make sure that she doesn’t.
I tried to reach out to my gf but she didn’t wanna hear anything. Some people told me that they heard from those guys that jumped me, that their and that girls plan is know to do something to my gf, they wanna beat her up, get her drunk, drug her and all this type of stuff. I heard that and i reached out to my gf telling her all of those things but she didn’t want to believe me. I’ve talked to her recently, it was her birthday and i had a gift for her and i just wanted to give it to her but she cut me off, she doesn’t want to break no contact with me because she thinks im a bad person, that i will hurt her, that i will force her to get back together with me and all this shit people from around her got into her head. I texted her a message about more stuff and the fact that i just wanna give her the gift i have for her, i told her stuff about her family and all these wrong things that were happening and she didn’t wanna hear nothing from me, she said that this is all a scheme that i created.
I am very scared to lose her or for something to happen to her. I am scared of her being controlled by her friends to get into another relationship. I love her with all my heart and can’t live without her. I am on antidepressants, i am very stressed, i started to cough blood from my lungs, the past months have been so hard for me and this just done it all, at some point i made a goodbye video for all my loved ones because i had very dark thoughts. I dont know what to do, i did everything to win her back, to make her understand everything but nothing seems to work, i don’t know what to do….
2024.06.08 19:12 TheForce122 good thing it's all a coincidence haha
 | Nathan Wolfe (Rothschild-Epstein-Maxwell asset) of DARPA/EcoHealth/Gates Foundation ran the COVID-19 creation operation with Peter Daszak of EcoHealth via the Global Virome Project (Wuhan Lab). Nathan Wolfe dedicated his book "Viral Storm" to Israeli spy Jeffrey Epstein and Bill Gates and is BFF with Israeli spy Ghislaine Maxwell. submitted by TheForce122 to conspiracy_commons [link] [comments] "Did virus hunters cover up a lab leak?" (Good article about the Global Virome Project headed by Nathan Wolfe and Peter Daszak) https://archive.is/G8Lp8 "Hunter Biden's Ukraine BioLab Partner (Nathan Wolfe) Was Partners With Ghislaine Maxwell" https://archive.is/0BxQM Documentary on Nathan Wolfe: https://youtu.be/Q8UgtUtDDp8?si=rtVbLNeSElmDwTkz Bill Gates 9/4/19 $55 million BioNTech mRNA vaxx creator investment: https://archive.is/IP0b9 Elon/Grimes 9/4/19 tablet: https://archive.is/s7kJT Former EcoHealth VP Andrew Huff September 2019 DARPA weird job offer: https://twitter.com/AGHuff/status/1492249880546398215 Former EcoHealth VP Dr. Andrew Huff legal declaration confirming EcoHealth funded by Bill Gates and CIA (In-Q-Tel) and that Peter Daszak told him he was working with CIA: https://archive.is/iZL1N "Redfield: COVID-19 Was in Wuhan in September or October 2019: Former CDC director also tells CNN that the virus likely escaped from a lab" https://www.med pagetoday.com/special-reports/exclusives/91843 - https://archive.is/YsEui "COVID-19 might have started to spread in September 2019 in the United States: study"https://archive.is/NpOqY On the 12th Sep 2019, the main database of samples and viral sequences of the Wuhan Institute of Virology went offline. Eventually every single of the 16 virus databases managed by the WIV was taken offline.https://archive.is/i79eW Here's former CDC director Robert Redfield under oath before the Congress on Wuhan Lab September 2019 events: https://www.youtube.com/live/aXXWRaM-sWQ?feature=share I will say if you go back and look, it's declassified now, and I'm sure you all have your classified briefings, but the declassified information now:Scientist Richard Ebright The relevance of this is that SARS Cov-2, the pandemic virus, is the only virus in its entire genus of SARS-related coronaviruses that contains a fully functional cleavage site at the S1, S2 junction. And here is a proposal from the beginning of 2018 [from Fauci/Gates-funded EcoHealth Alliance] proposing explicitly to engineer that sequence at that position in chimeric lab- generated coronaviruses.
When I first saw the furin cleavage site in the viral sequence, with its arginine codons, I said to my wife it was the smoking gun for the origin of the virus. These features make a powerful challenge to the idea of a natural origin for SARS2.
I was concerned because of the presence of the furin cleavage site that we've talked about and I think it's important to understand what that cleavage site does. That cleavage site totally changes the orientation of the binding domain of COVID, so where before it could not see the ACE2 receptor which is the human receptor, it totally changes the orientation now so it has high affinity for human receptors. So that furin cleavage site bothered me, it didn't seem like it belonged there.Scientist Valentin Bruttel: I tried to raise awareness to this for a year now. WIV use BsaI and BsmBI/Esp3I sites before to make synthetic WIV1 variants. And exactly those sites appear in a "silently introduced, perfect for synthetic assembly" pattern in SARS2, but non of its nat. relatives.Type Ils restriction sites prove a synthetic origin Synthetic RNA viruses are assembled at the DNA level and later transcribed. 30,000 nucleotides cannot be synthesized in one go. These viruses are therefore assembled from smaller, 2- 8,000 nucleotide long pieces. Specific DNA restriction sites are often added to later reassemble the individual building blocks in the correct order. It is also technically possible to hide these interfaces (No See'em), but this was not done in the WIV. In a 2017 paper, two very specific, particularly suitable type Ils restriction enzymes were used at the WIV. These have the advantage that they can produce different DNA overhangs (sticky ends), which are crucial for a correct assembly of the complete genome: Bsal and BsmBI. SARS2 shows a Bsal and BsmBI restriction site pattern which is ideal for assembling synthetic viruses and to later replace the spike protein or furin cleavage site. Bsal and BsmBI restriction sites also exist in closely related viruses (Banal20-52, RaTG13), but these are distributed in such a way that an artificial virus could never be generated using the methods established at WIV 2018/19. The probability that the required 5 synonymous mutations, which enable a synthetic assembly of SARS2, arose purely by chance is less than 1 in 1020 or about as likely as winning the lottery jackpot 3 times in a row. Dr. Valentin Bruttel https://twitter.com/VBruttel/status/1566365635680124929?t=koDQ9poynY6I9qSchgQAnw&s=19 |
2024.06.08 19:00 mongrelbifana Reminiscing India-Pakistan: A Somewhat Personal and Overall History From my Time (Original Content with Links)
I grew up in the early 90’s, an annoying little vitamin deficient kid destined to be a failed cricketer. That being said, two generations of my family tried their hand at domestic cricket, and for all its worth, at least I’ve exchanged a few letters with Sachin Tendulkar. I began watching India-Pakistan games in these dusty Doordarshan/Box TV ridden 90’s, and before me my parents, grandparents all watched or interacted with India-Pakistan sports at some point (note that hockey was rather huge earlier, something today’s generation might not be able to compute). Of course, like everything else, things have progressed and declined in relative terms.
One of my father’s favorite batters was Zaheer Abbas, who in turn had great respect for Sunil Gavaskar, who in turn stayed in a neighboring building to ours during his younger days in Mumbai. He described his batting as pure class and ‘smooth flamboyance’, a term he also used for the wristy Gundappa Vishwanath. It’s fair to say Pakistan dominated the 80’s and 90’s, but one aberration was this game where we actually defended 125 at Sharjah — a venue that’s almost been a second home for Pakistan and hosted a bunch of great encounters — one can’t forget the last ball six by the steely-nerved Javed Miandad off Chetan Sharma. Miandad really embodied what we in Mumbai like to call ‘khadoos’; skill, yes, but tremendous gumption. Miandad was also truly box office gold, as seen here in this duel with Kiran More during the famous 1992 world cup.
I was born a day after Pakistan won the 1992 World Cup, and ever since, Pakistan hasn’t won an ODI world cup. If I had become a cricketer somehow, who knows, maybe this could’ve changed. Now that I’m much older I think only one of those things is possible, but sadly seeing the decline in the current Pakistan team I’m not sure when next they’ll do well in a serious longer format. More of this later.
Pakistan had a strong albeit mercurial team all along, but when I say strong I really mean it. Their bowlers didn’t need a particular surface and were skilled enough to make the red ball talk in most situations, a skill that later transferred into white ball as well. Such skill demands that 50-over cricket should have just one ball, I think two new balls have killed reverse swing. A battle hardened batting line-up, a great all rounder in Imran Khan, and a team that had a bunch of match winners throughout who needed some polishing but the talent that came from Pakistan was abundant.
The tournament that really got me into cricket was the 1996 World Cup; as a kid with the World Cup at home, a country sort of trying to find itself in the global sphere, a young Sachin smashing it around, and so on. While it ended in a nightmare for us with Sri Lanka being deserved winners, the pure drama of the 1996 quarter-final between India and Pakistan at Bengaluru was glorious. First Jadeja whacking Waqar Younis, then the Pakistani openers whacking our bowlers, Aamir Sohail sledging a lanky Venkatesh Prasad only to have his off-stump cartwheeling was just stunning. We didn’t watch it on YouTube, we saw it live in some humid cove of an apartment married by gossamer and aged electrical circuits.
On either side, we relished a couple of stylish left handed openers. Today we’re seeing a tournament play out in the US, but much before, 1997 had an electric series called Sahara Friendship Cup hosted by Toronto — ODI’s played with a red ball and overcast skies really cooking whatever transpired under. Sourav Ganguly took a bucket load of wickets, including a fifer, and also scored a lot of runs there. It was also the series of the infamous Inzamam incident where an Indian guy in the crowd fat shamed him and Inzamam chased to slam the guy. Speaking of chases, the Independence Cup final played in Dhaka, 1998, saw India chase an imposing 327/5 by Pakistan in with Ganguly scoring a century and Hrishikesh Kanitkar hitting the winning runs.
Personally however, the one batter that made me pull my hair out was Saeed Anwar. I hated how good he was, and why he always chose to hurt us was beyond me. A high, round backlift and deft timing but paired with an attacking gameplay — I don’t think the current crop of kids appreciate and understand the kind of players who have come before. An era where Jayasurya, Sachin, Anwar, Gilchrist were openers. Sigh. Of all of Anwar’s innings, he really peaked in his incredible 194 at Chennai, a venue where a year later an epic game was played out in the 1999 test series — here, Pakistan managing to pip the line in a grueling test match, an all time great fixture, where Sachin scored 136 in the fourth innings with an injured back and the Pakistan bowlers just kept at it, eventually India collapsing after Sachin and losing by 14 runs. Chepauk has a mural featuring that Pakistan team's lap of honour. Years later, Pakistan lost to Afghanistan at the same venue in the 2023 World Cup. Venues are neutral vessels that change to accommodate a team’s fortunes. In 1996 the Eden Gardens saw India’s World Cup exit with the crowd literally burning artifacts, in 2001 the same ground saw one of the greatest comeback test victories in history and sealed a new rivalry - India vs Australia. For Pakistan, Chepauk witnessed and honored their 1999 greatness, and in 2023, it hosted their long-brewing downfall.
Speaking of Eden Gardens, I remember this being the venue where I saw Shoaib Akhtar bowl for the first time. It was the Asian Test Championship and we had Pakistan on the mat at 30 off for 6 in the first innings, but they came back with the bat, and later Shoaib obliterated Dravid and Tendulkar’s stumps with back to back yorkers — yes, let that sink in, back to back. In the same game, Sachin was run out while colliding with the bowler, sparking the crowd's to go nuts. A young Shoaib was menacingly quick, came from a long run up and literally ran in with the crowd behind him, griffon like. Sachin or a Sehwag would take him on, a Dravid would calmy block it irritate him. I recall Shoaib clean-bowling Laxman a few times too. Balaji hit him for a six. Cricket had so much theater, and really this is missing from India-Pakistan clashes now. Today it seems more of social media and YouTube hype riding on artificial nostalgia, earlier there was no need to promote or make tacky adverts, the inherent talent and passion on either side made the game worthwhile and extraordinary.
There was plenty of theatrics, characters and phenomenal performances in this period, whether it being Pakistan’s regular Sharjah dominance that extended to other venues, the genius in Anil Kumble becoming the second person in cricket history to pick all ten wickets in an innings, and for some reason India winning the 1992, 1996 and 1999 World Cup games inspire of Pakistan having the stronger team (I still find it hard to comprehend this). The 1996 game also saw the end of Miandad, the 1999 one was played under tremendous pressure with the Kargil War in focus — my cousing uncle actually was in the army during this war and went missing in war for three months, only to return to an Indian base much later. As the 90’s receeded with war and India winning it, I think in cricket India started getting a little stronger bit by bit, and a new captain in Ganguly established a strong 2000’s decade for us. Pakistan, one felt, lost their best chance to win against India comprehensively in a World Cup post the 90’s. This was evident in 2003, a World Cup that India truly triumphed until the final, coming from behind the rankings and scaling new heights on South African soil — this tournament, in many ways, cemented India as a formidable all-round limited overs outfit and Sachin’s legendary 98 signaled a big shift in India’s mindset; this was also the last time we saw the greats Younis and Akram. (Once again, Anwar scored a century here. Damnit. Oh and Inzaman got run out, again).
It’s good to foray into Inzi and co here because soon after in 2004 India finally visited Pakistan (after, years? Someone tell me how many years, I’m unsure). And gosh, this was a legendary series on all fronts. There are far too many individual performers to list out — Sehwag, Inzaman, Yusuf, Sami, Yuvraj, Yasir, Pathan, Shoaib, Sachin, Dravid, Shabbir — just too many. The first ODI game in Karachi saw India score 349 (at one stage we were 175 odd in 20 overs) and Pakistan nearly chased it down with a fabulous century by Inzamam and Yousuf chipping in, losing by a mere five runs. Just outstanding. This was, in all fairness, one of the great bilateral series of all time. Can we actually forget Sehwag’s 309 though? Dravid’s 270 came here too. There’s also a strereotype of Pakistan producing great fast bowling talent; I think this has now waned a bit, but you need to watch this era and the previous 90’s/80’s to understand this, I recall a new Shabbir coming and running through our batting at Peshawar. Sami was quick and skiddy.
Post 2004, India and Pakistan played regular bilaterals until 2007 - a year where both teams had the worst possible World Cup campaign in the Caribbean. The 2005 series saw the birth of Dhoni, some fantastic games where Inzaman, Afridi and company dominated to give Pakistan a series victory in India. I still recall the frenetic destruction of Afridi’s century in Kanpur. I also recall a long-haired Dhoni’s 148 in Vishakapatnam, a legend that later would win hearts across the border in 2006. In Mohali, Pakistan pulled off an epic drawn test that India looked to seal, India won in Kolkata and Pakistan bounced back to win in Bengaluru with Younis Khan once again batting like a dream. Younis was so good when he made 267 that it’s hard to describe in a few words alone. It’s disorienting to see Sri Lanka, Pakistan and even West Indies not have those classy middle order batters anymore, almost feels like a previous lifetime in many ways.
In 2006, India visited Pakistan and won the ODIs. It almost seemed like whichever team played at home played a little worse under pressure, an exception being the same 2006 test series where the first two tests where played on docile batting tracks and helped record breaking opening partnerships to dwell, however, in the third Karachi test things got spicy — Irfan picked up a hat-trick in the first over, then Pakistan staged a comeback with the bat, India reached parity, Pakistan made an enormous third innings score and India crumbled to lose in the fourth innings with Mohammad Asif bowling splendidly (a narrative similar to the 1998 Kolkata test). If Asif hadn’t gone down the dark path, he would’ve probably been an all time great with his rare skill level. I don’t think today’s Pakistani bowlers have that similar intimidating versatility but instead are effective in short bursts at best.
The 2007 series in India in my opinion didn’t match up to the previous ones, albeit some great matches in the test series; the ODIs were pretty much India all along with Yuvraj-Dhoni-Raina becoming a solid middle order and Sachin famously scoring an entire portfolio of nervous 90’s. If only Sachin had held his nerve, he would’ve probably finished with another twenty international centuries and a bunch of them in winning causes. That being said, Sachin scoring match winning 90’s against Pakistan is a sub-genre by itself. In 2007, the third test saw an extraordinary partnership between Yuvraj and Ganguly; Ganguly, now older, probably reaching his end and scoring a rare long ton - a 235 - counter attacking with Yuvraj and upending the game.
But in 2007 something else fell. Both teams lost the ODI world cup and new toy called the T20 World Cup came about. The seniors opted out and a maverick Dhoni took a young squad to South Africa and scaled the peak. En route India played some astonishing cricket and the two tightest games came against Pakistan — in the league stage where a flaky Sreesanth actually defended a low amount against a monk-like Misbah leading to a super over, which, unlike today was more of a penalty shoot out. India won by hitting the stumps and Pakistan missed it. But nothing came close to that final, the knockout specialist Gautam Gambhir in his element, Umar Gul killing it, Pakistan going ahead only to be pulled behind by Irfan Pathan and then the most cinematic last over in history where Misbah almost won it only to lose it all. Joginder Sharma will be known for a lot of things but will always be this first - a world cup winner.
Interestingly, India’s always had the lid on Pakistan in world cups but Pakistan have done well in Champions Trophies. 2004, they won in a gloomy Edgbaston. At the Centurion in 2009, they won again, with a great century by Malik and a teenager Amir dismissing Sachin. Eventually though, the 2017 Champions Trophy final where a young Fakhar Zaman blasted India after surviving a no-ball dismissal and Mohammad Amir running through India’s openers meant Pakistan’s best mercurial avatar turned up on the big day. One felt this resounding 180-run victory would help Pakistan return to former glory, but soon after in the 2018 Asia Cup and 2019 World Cup Pakistan were back to being sub-par, failing to bowl out oppositions, to build partnerships and lacking an overall control in their game. While Sarfaraz wasn’t the best batter, I always felt he had his heart in the right place and thought about the team first. His captaincy ushered in a few important players like Babar, Shadab and more who continue to be mainstays. I feel now that Sarfaraz was the last good captain Pakistan has had in recent times.
The 2010’s saw an interesting shift again. India won the 2011 World Cup with a generational team, one that they can possible never recreate, only the 2023 team comes close. From all the world cups, I felt the 2011 semi final clash was the most balanced India-Pakistan clash in a long time. Sachin being dropped an unlimited number of times, Ajmal still fuming over a missed DRS, Misbah once more taking it deep, Raina rescuing us, Wahab bowling a dream spell and India’s pacers keeping their cool — India were ready to win the cup after this game, and they did. In 2012's Asia Cup, Sachin nearing the end of his career, was dismissed early in a game against Pakistan and Kohli took it through with a stunning 183 signaled a baton passing — we now entered the Kohli era, and Kohli is probably the deepest thorn for Pakistan’s team today. This, friends, is how we felt about Anwar and Inzamam once. Even Miandad.
The Virat Kohli era also saw a parallel rise in Rohit Sharma, Dhawan, India’s bowling attack and the overall system strengthening. IPL truly became a stronghold, and while India never won a T20 World Cup since its initiation, they established a factory of sorts to churn out millions and good players coming through the domestic ranks. By 2015 India met Pakistan in Adelaide, and Kohli had arrived — an articulate century. Post 2013, India’s struggle was no longer to be a good team or challenge oppositions, it was existential; we now dominate the league stages only to falter in knockouts. 2015 started this trend and it’s a telling feature till today. This is many ways opposite to Pakistan, a team that slowly declined over the decade; while I’m not sure why and how, but the general skill level and ‘readiness’ of the players is lower than previous generations. We were now seeing more of T20 specialists with shortened stamina, a Pakistani team lacking the mindset and endurance for longer formats, and an occasional test specialist every now and then. It didn’t happen overnight but in phases, but post that 2019 World Cup I’ve been seeing it get apparent. As for Kohli and India, an intense T20WC 2016 derby in Kolkata, and a comprehensive 2018 Asia Cup outing against their neighbors sat on either side of the 2017 CT defeat.
The contrasting fortunes of teams also complimented the overall growing skill gap. This probably also was a reflection of the nations in general. World cups is where we met now, no bilateral. On cricketing terms, it went from being an old rivalry to India being the stronger unit now, a total role reversal of the 90’s. In 2019. Rohit Sharma hammered the Pakistani attack and probably missed out on another double century and Kuldeep dismissed Babar and Fakhar once more, while Pakistan eventually didn’t make it past the group stage once again. I was galavanting in Europe and missed the rest of the World Cup, which saved me from the trauma of the semi final and the magnificence of the final.
COVID comes in 2020, and Pakistan being one of the few active teams in this period maybe gave Babar and Co more eyeballs. By 2021, India’s captaincy is in disarray and a tired, clueless team showed up as favorites in Dubai only to be steamrolled by a more awake Pakistani team. I give Shaheen the credit for that victory, exposing India’s batting, while Babar and Rizwan chased down a below-par score without losing any wickets. One felt that, like 2017, could this be a moral boost that propelled Pakistan to the top, a sort of renaissance? Probably not, as we come to learn from subsequent results. Kohli’s captaincy also saw its end, but India had already built a strong pace bowling unit and overall deep squad with a vastly stable system. The 2021 victory was probably the most unlikely win when you compare the teams on paper, then again T20 is the funniest of all three formats.
T20, is then, where Pakistan found a way to compete and ODIs continued to seem a bridge too far. The 2000’s were a distant dream. The 2020’s are where India continues to build strong reserves for the future whereas Pakistan seems to be going downhill. While India suffers on selection and big game mindset, Pakistan’s overall lack of depth and reluctance to change ways now leaves their success to conditions, chance and other team’s fortunes in big tournaments. And while the gap is widened in ODIs, more even in tests (a format which, mind you, the current generation hasn’t played in), T20 is a sort of final domain for Pakistan to compete. In recent clashes, they’ve done pretty well and India has underperformed. In 2003 we saw Sachin, and in 2022, we saw Kohli.
Kohli’s emperor-like innings at Melbourne has become one of the milestones of India-Pakistan clashes. The shot against Haris Rauf is quite easily one of the greatest shots ever. But on careful analysis, this match also offers certain cues — Pakistan needs to be in a range of 150-160 in a bowling friendly environment to come close or win. In certain situations, India suffered from previous mental scars. Both India and Pakistan’s bowlers fail to close out games more often than not, and such.
Come 2023 and India are resounding favorites to win the ODI World Cup at home, but this wasn’t the case leading to the tournament, until the Asia Cup happened. A few weeks prior, the Asia Cup had Pakistan as the number one ranked team. India staged a comeback after being 66 off for 4 in their first game against Pakistan before it rained out, but the real mental blow was in the next game when Shubhman Gill and Rohit Sharma cut into Pakistan’s bowling and later Kohli and KL made centuries, sending India to 356/2 before the bowling destroyed Pakistan, giving India the biggest victory in terms of runs on either side. Pakistan never really recovered from this in my opinion, while India sort of remembered to wake up. Come Ahmedabad in October, Pakistan is batting first and collapses from 155/2 to 190 odd and handed India an easy win. Rohit Sharma’s dominating batting seemed to further hammer into the Pakistani psyche, and Babar’s overall defensive captaincy and poor strategy meant Pakistan had their worst World Cup campaign, losing even to Afghanistan. With 2023, the divide between Pakistan and India’s overall cricket has widened a fair bit.
This of course, will disappoint not just the old-timer Pakistani fan but even a general cricket fan like me. I will always want to watch India win, but I’d rather witness a 2004 or 2006 series rather than the easy games that happen now. Barring a couple of T20 games, there is an overall imbalance. In 2021, the Pakistanis briefly managed to get back into the head of India’s batsmen and this was obvious when they faced off again in 2022 with Rohit and KL meekly defending an injured Shaheen bowling full tosses at 130km/hr. This was reversed in 2023, and while we’re aware of the difference in formats, the lack of cricket between both nations means the overall perception and recency in experience is a greater point of consideration.
Pakistan could’ve played the 2023 WTC final if they had played, well, better. I can’t recall a Pakistani test team losing so easily at home. Even in T20s, their best format, Pakistan is stronger in situations but fail to be consistent or dominate in a more contemporary style of play. While it’s fair to blame Babar’s captaincy in more cases than one, I really don’t understand what’s happening in the overall system for Pakistan to have reached this point.
And for India, where we stand now, the rivalry has moved to Australia. I’ll take you back to the Eden Gardens and that unbelievable follow-on victory. The sheer competitiveness and thrill of a Border Gavaskar Trophy is on par with the Ashes, in some cases like 2020-21 even greater. The India-Pakistan rivalry used to be one of equals, a colosseum of characters fighting it out, performances that could be etched forever; this wasn’t in cricket but also in hockey and other sports. Akram almost dismissing Sachin and yelling ‘catch it’ only for Razzaq to drop it. Harbhajan dismissing Afridi. Wahab Riaz bowling a steaming yorker to uproot Yuvraj in a semi final. Such moments seem to be distant in a sense, maybe the occasional T20 brings a few. The new Pakistan lacks the characters and genuine legendary nature of the previous squads. For some reason, I don't know which new Pakistan player I must be excited to see -- is there a new Razzaq or Akhtar for instance? Will there be another elegant session-by-session batter like Younis?
I used to wake up to watch Shoaib steaming in at the WACA in the morning. I enjoyed Yousuf whacking an ODI-style Boxing Day hundred. Inzamam always seemed to have that extra second. Somehow I don’t feel the same now. In contrast when I see India’s youngsters come through the ranks — Pant at the Gabba, Jurel in Ranchi, Jaiswal against Anderson, Kuldeep doing what he does — I think the gap between both teams will get wider in the future.
Looking at that Nassau pitch, I don't know what will happen on June 9th, but seeing the venue, once again Pakistan is definitely in the game with their bowling. Pacers, to be specific. But the batting might be severely exposed. I also don’t know what’s going to happen in a couple of hours; at the time of writing this I’m sitting in a cafe and Pakistan is suddenly 26/3 against USA. They’ve lost to lesser teams more often these days. Well let’s hope it’s a decent game, and for the sake of cricket, we have some former glory of the West Indies, Sri Lanka, Zimbabwe and Pakistan restored.
Special shoutout to some cricket regulars with Pak flairs who've often engaged in banter during these clashes : u/theGhostofCamus , u/phaintaa_Shoaib , u/Ghostly_100 , u/Stuff2511 , u/StraightUpHaram , u/theonlychicken from the top of my head but there are many, many more. Also is the legend robelinda still on Reddit? Doubt if he made this far down in the post eitherway, haha.
Edit: Pakistan eventually lost against the USA. Well. It's anyone's guess now. Only luck or some freak results can get Pakistan out of this hole, the team seems jaded. That being said, it's a tight format and it's anyone's game. If this was ODI, as we've seen, it would've been too much.
I'm also aware I've missed out on a ton of games, events, clashes over the years but it'll probably be a book if I include it all. Cheers.
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One of my father’s favorite batters was Zaheer Abbas, who in turn had great respect for Sunil Gavaskar, who in turn stayed in a neighboring building to ours during his younger days in Mumbai. He described his batting as pure class and ‘smooth flamboyance’, a term he also used for the wristy Gundappa Vishwanath. It’s fair to say Pakistan dominated the 80’s and 90’s, but one aberration was this game where we actually defended 125 at Sharjah — a venue that’s almost been a second home for Pakistan and hosted a bunch of great encounters — one can’t forget the last ball six by the steely-nerved Javed Miandad off Chetan Sharma. Miandad really embodied what we in Mumbai like to call ‘khadoos’; skill, yes, but tremendous gumption. Miandad was also truly box office gold, as seen here in this duel with Kiran More during the famous 1992 world cup.
I was born a day after Pakistan won the 1992 World Cup, and ever since, Pakistan hasn’t won an ODI world cup. If I had become a cricketer somehow, who knows, maybe this could’ve changed. Now that I’m much older I think only one of those things is possible, but sadly seeing the decline in the current Pakistan team I’m not sure when next they’ll do well in a serious longer format. More of this later.
Pakistan had a strong albeit mercurial team all along, but when I say strong I really mean it. Their bowlers didn’t need a particular surface and were skilled enough to make the red ball talk in most situations, a skill that later transferred into white ball as well. Such skill demands that 50-over cricket should have just one ball, I think two new balls have killed reverse swing. A battle hardened batting line-up, a great all rounder in Imran Khan, and a team that had a bunch of match winners throughout who needed some polishing but the talent that came from Pakistan was abundant.
The tournament that really got me into cricket was the 1996 World Cup; as a kid with the World Cup at home, a country sort of trying to find itself in the global sphere, a young Sachin smashing it around, and so on. While it ended in a nightmare for us with Sri Lanka being deserved winners, the pure drama of the 1996 quarter-final between India and Pakistan at Bengaluru was glorious. First Jadeja whacking Waqar Younis, then the Pakistani openers whacking our bowlers, Aamir Sohail sledging a lanky Venkatesh Prasad only to have his off-stump cartwheeling was just stunning. We didn’t watch it on YouTube, we saw it live in some humid cove of an apartment married by gossamer and aged electrical circuits.
On either side, we relished a couple of stylish left handed openers. Today we’re seeing a tournament play out in the US, but much before, 1997 had an electric series called Sahara Friendship Cup hosted by Toronto — ODI’s played with a red ball and overcast skies really cooking whatever transpired under. Sourav Ganguly took a bucket load of wickets, including a fifer, and also scored a lot of runs there. It was also the series of the infamous Inzamam incident where an Indian guy in the crowd fat shamed him and Inzamam chased to slam the guy. Speaking of chases, the Independence Cup final played in Dhaka, 1998, saw India chase an imposing 327/5 by Pakistan in with Ganguly scoring a century and Hrishikesh Kanitkar hitting the winning runs.
Personally however, the one batter that made me pull my hair out was Saeed Anwar. I hated how good he was, and why he always chose to hurt us was beyond me. A high, round backlift and deft timing but paired with an attacking gameplay — I don’t think the current crop of kids appreciate and understand the kind of players who have come before. An era where Jayasurya, Sachin, Anwar, Gilchrist were openers. Sigh. Of all of Anwar’s innings, he really peaked in his incredible 194 at Chennai, a venue where a year later an epic game was played out in the 1999 test series — here, Pakistan managing to pip the line in a grueling test match, an all time great fixture, where Sachin scored 136 in the fourth innings with an injured back and the Pakistan bowlers just kept at it, eventually India collapsing after Sachin and losing by 14 runs. Chepauk has a mural featuring that Pakistan team's lap of honour. Years later, Pakistan lost to Afghanistan at the same venue in the 2023 World Cup. Venues are neutral vessels that change to accommodate a team’s fortunes. In 1996 the Eden Gardens saw India’s World Cup exit with the crowd literally burning artifacts, in 2001 the same ground saw one of the greatest comeback test victories in history and sealed a new rivalry - India vs Australia. For Pakistan, Chepauk witnessed and honored their 1999 greatness, and in 2023, it hosted their long-brewing downfall.
Speaking of Eden Gardens, I remember this being the venue where I saw Shoaib Akhtar bowl for the first time. It was the Asian Test Championship and we had Pakistan on the mat at 30 off for 6 in the first innings, but they came back with the bat, and later Shoaib obliterated Dravid and Tendulkar’s stumps with back to back yorkers — yes, let that sink in, back to back. In the same game, Sachin was run out while colliding with the bowler, sparking the crowd's to go nuts. A young Shoaib was menacingly quick, came from a long run up and literally ran in with the crowd behind him, griffon like. Sachin or a Sehwag would take him on, a Dravid would calmy block it irritate him. I recall Shoaib clean-bowling Laxman a few times too. Balaji hit him for a six. Cricket had so much theater, and really this is missing from India-Pakistan clashes now. Today it seems more of social media and YouTube hype riding on artificial nostalgia, earlier there was no need to promote or make tacky adverts, the inherent talent and passion on either side made the game worthwhile and extraordinary.
There was plenty of theatrics, characters and phenomenal performances in this period, whether it being Pakistan’s regular Sharjah dominance that extended to other venues, the genius in Anil Kumble becoming the second person in cricket history to pick all ten wickets in an innings, and for some reason India winning the 1992, 1996 and 1999 World Cup games inspire of Pakistan having the stronger team (I still find it hard to comprehend this). The 1996 game also saw the end of Miandad, the 1999 one was played under tremendous pressure with the Kargil War in focus — my cousing uncle actually was in the army during this war and went missing in war for three months, only to return to an Indian base much later. As the 90’s receeded with war and India winning it, I think in cricket India started getting a little stronger bit by bit, and a new captain in Ganguly established a strong 2000’s decade for us. Pakistan, one felt, lost their best chance to win against India comprehensively in a World Cup post the 90’s. This was evident in 2003, a World Cup that India truly triumphed until the final, coming from behind the rankings and scaling new heights on South African soil — this tournament, in many ways, cemented India as a formidable all-round limited overs outfit and Sachin’s legendary 98 signaled a big shift in India’s mindset; this was also the last time we saw the greats Younis and Akram. (Once again, Anwar scored a century here. Damnit. Oh and Inzaman got run out, again).
It’s good to foray into Inzi and co here because soon after in 2004 India finally visited Pakistan (after, years? Someone tell me how many years, I’m unsure). And gosh, this was a legendary series on all fronts. There are far too many individual performers to list out — Sehwag, Inzaman, Yusuf, Sami, Yuvraj, Yasir, Pathan, Shoaib, Sachin, Dravid, Shabbir — just too many. The first ODI game in Karachi saw India score 349 (at one stage we were 175 odd in 20 overs) and Pakistan nearly chased it down with a fabulous century by Inzamam and Yousuf chipping in, losing by a mere five runs. Just outstanding. This was, in all fairness, one of the great bilateral series of all time. Can we actually forget Sehwag’s 309 though? Dravid’s 270 came here too. There’s also a strereotype of Pakistan producing great fast bowling talent; I think this has now waned a bit, but you need to watch this era and the previous 90’s/80’s to understand this, I recall a new Shabbir coming and running through our batting at Peshawar. Sami was quick and skiddy.
Post 2004, India and Pakistan played regular bilaterals until 2007 - a year where both teams had the worst possible World Cup campaign in the Caribbean. The 2005 series saw the birth of Dhoni, some fantastic games where Inzaman, Afridi and company dominated to give Pakistan a series victory in India. I still recall the frenetic destruction of Afridi’s century in Kanpur. I also recall a long-haired Dhoni’s 148 in Vishakapatnam, a legend that later would win hearts across the border in 2006. In Mohali, Pakistan pulled off an epic drawn test that India looked to seal, India won in Kolkata and Pakistan bounced back to win in Bengaluru with Younis Khan once again batting like a dream. Younis was so good when he made 267 that it’s hard to describe in a few words alone. It’s disorienting to see Sri Lanka, Pakistan and even West Indies not have those classy middle order batters anymore, almost feels like a previous lifetime in many ways.
In 2006, India visited Pakistan and won the ODIs. It almost seemed like whichever team played at home played a little worse under pressure, an exception being the same 2006 test series where the first two tests where played on docile batting tracks and helped record breaking opening partnerships to dwell, however, in the third Karachi test things got spicy — Irfan picked up a hat-trick in the first over, then Pakistan staged a comeback with the bat, India reached parity, Pakistan made an enormous third innings score and India crumbled to lose in the fourth innings with Mohammad Asif bowling splendidly (a narrative similar to the 1998 Kolkata test). If Asif hadn’t gone down the dark path, he would’ve probably been an all time great with his rare skill level. I don’t think today’s Pakistani bowlers have that similar intimidating versatility but instead are effective in short bursts at best.
The 2007 series in India in my opinion didn’t match up to the previous ones, albeit some great matches in the test series; the ODIs were pretty much India all along with Yuvraj-Dhoni-Raina becoming a solid middle order and Sachin famously scoring an entire portfolio of nervous 90’s. If only Sachin had held his nerve, he would’ve probably finished with another twenty international centuries and a bunch of them in winning causes. That being said, Sachin scoring match winning 90’s against Pakistan is a sub-genre by itself. In 2007, the third test saw an extraordinary partnership between Yuvraj and Ganguly; Ganguly, now older, probably reaching his end and scoring a rare long ton - a 235 - counter attacking with Yuvraj and upending the game.
But in 2007 something else fell. Both teams lost the ODI world cup and new toy called the T20 World Cup came about. The seniors opted out and a maverick Dhoni took a young squad to South Africa and scaled the peak. En route India played some astonishing cricket and the two tightest games came against Pakistan — in the league stage where a flaky Sreesanth actually defended a low amount against a monk-like Misbah leading to a super over, which, unlike today was more of a penalty shoot out. India won by hitting the stumps and Pakistan missed it. But nothing came close to that final, the knockout specialist Gautam Gambhir in his element, Umar Gul killing it, Pakistan going ahead only to be pulled behind by Irfan Pathan and then the most cinematic last over in history where Misbah almost won it only to lose it all. Joginder Sharma will be known for a lot of things but will always be this first - a world cup winner.
Interestingly, India’s always had the lid on Pakistan in world cups but Pakistan have done well in Champions Trophies. 2004, they won in a gloomy Edgbaston. At the Centurion in 2009, they won again, with a great century by Malik and a teenager Amir dismissing Sachin. Eventually though, the 2017 Champions Trophy final where a young Fakhar Zaman blasted India after surviving a no-ball dismissal and Mohammad Amir running through India’s openers meant Pakistan’s best mercurial avatar turned up on the big day. One felt this resounding 180-run victory would help Pakistan return to former glory, but soon after in the 2018 Asia Cup and 2019 World Cup Pakistan were back to being sub-par, failing to bowl out oppositions, to build partnerships and lacking an overall control in their game. While Sarfaraz wasn’t the best batter, I always felt he had his heart in the right place and thought about the team first. His captaincy ushered in a few important players like Babar, Shadab and more who continue to be mainstays. I feel now that Sarfaraz was the last good captain Pakistan has had in recent times.
The 2010’s saw an interesting shift again. India won the 2011 World Cup with a generational team, one that they can possible never recreate, only the 2023 team comes close. From all the world cups, I felt the 2011 semi final clash was the most balanced India-Pakistan clash in a long time. Sachin being dropped an unlimited number of times, Ajmal still fuming over a missed DRS, Misbah once more taking it deep, Raina rescuing us, Wahab bowling a dream spell and India’s pacers keeping their cool — India were ready to win the cup after this game, and they did. In 2012's Asia Cup, Sachin nearing the end of his career, was dismissed early in a game against Pakistan and Kohli took it through with a stunning 183 signaled a baton passing — we now entered the Kohli era, and Kohli is probably the deepest thorn for Pakistan’s team today. This, friends, is how we felt about Anwar and Inzamam once. Even Miandad.
The Virat Kohli era also saw a parallel rise in Rohit Sharma, Dhawan, India’s bowling attack and the overall system strengthening. IPL truly became a stronghold, and while India never won a T20 World Cup since its initiation, they established a factory of sorts to churn out millions and good players coming through the domestic ranks. By 2015 India met Pakistan in Adelaide, and Kohli had arrived — an articulate century. Post 2013, India’s struggle was no longer to be a good team or challenge oppositions, it was existential; we now dominate the league stages only to falter in knockouts. 2015 started this trend and it’s a telling feature till today. This is many ways opposite to Pakistan, a team that slowly declined over the decade; while I’m not sure why and how, but the general skill level and ‘readiness’ of the players is lower than previous generations. We were now seeing more of T20 specialists with shortened stamina, a Pakistani team lacking the mindset and endurance for longer formats, and an occasional test specialist every now and then. It didn’t happen overnight but in phases, but post that 2019 World Cup I’ve been seeing it get apparent. As for Kohli and India, an intense T20WC 2016 derby in Kolkata, and a comprehensive 2018 Asia Cup outing against their neighbors sat on either side of the 2017 CT defeat.
The contrasting fortunes of teams also complimented the overall growing skill gap. This probably also was a reflection of the nations in general. World cups is where we met now, no bilateral. On cricketing terms, it went from being an old rivalry to India being the stronger unit now, a total role reversal of the 90’s. In 2019. Rohit Sharma hammered the Pakistani attack and probably missed out on another double century and Kuldeep dismissed Babar and Fakhar once more, while Pakistan eventually didn’t make it past the group stage once again. I was galavanting in Europe and missed the rest of the World Cup, which saved me from the trauma of the semi final and the magnificence of the final.
COVID comes in 2020, and Pakistan being one of the few active teams in this period maybe gave Babar and Co more eyeballs. By 2021, India’s captaincy is in disarray and a tired, clueless team showed up as favorites in Dubai only to be steamrolled by a more awake Pakistani team. I give Shaheen the credit for that victory, exposing India’s batting, while Babar and Rizwan chased down a below-par score without losing any wickets. One felt that, like 2017, could this be a moral boost that propelled Pakistan to the top, a sort of renaissance? Probably not, as we come to learn from subsequent results. Kohli’s captaincy also saw its end, but India had already built a strong pace bowling unit and overall deep squad with a vastly stable system. The 2021 victory was probably the most unlikely win when you compare the teams on paper, then again T20 is the funniest of all three formats.
T20, is then, where Pakistan found a way to compete and ODIs continued to seem a bridge too far. The 2000’s were a distant dream. The 2020’s are where India continues to build strong reserves for the future whereas Pakistan seems to be going downhill. While India suffers on selection and big game mindset, Pakistan’s overall lack of depth and reluctance to change ways now leaves their success to conditions, chance and other team’s fortunes in big tournaments. And while the gap is widened in ODIs, more even in tests (a format which, mind you, the current generation hasn’t played in), T20 is a sort of final domain for Pakistan to compete. In recent clashes, they’ve done pretty well and India has underperformed. In 2003 we saw Sachin, and in 2022, we saw Kohli.
Kohli’s emperor-like innings at Melbourne has become one of the milestones of India-Pakistan clashes. The shot against Haris Rauf is quite easily one of the greatest shots ever. But on careful analysis, this match also offers certain cues — Pakistan needs to be in a range of 150-160 in a bowling friendly environment to come close or win. In certain situations, India suffered from previous mental scars. Both India and Pakistan’s bowlers fail to close out games more often than not, and such.
Come 2023 and India are resounding favorites to win the ODI World Cup at home, but this wasn’t the case leading to the tournament, until the Asia Cup happened. A few weeks prior, the Asia Cup had Pakistan as the number one ranked team. India staged a comeback after being 66 off for 4 in their first game against Pakistan before it rained out, but the real mental blow was in the next game when Shubhman Gill and Rohit Sharma cut into Pakistan’s bowling and later Kohli and KL made centuries, sending India to 356/2 before the bowling destroyed Pakistan, giving India the biggest victory in terms of runs on either side. Pakistan never really recovered from this in my opinion, while India sort of remembered to wake up. Come Ahmedabad in October, Pakistan is batting first and collapses from 155/2 to 190 odd and handed India an easy win. Rohit Sharma’s dominating batting seemed to further hammer into the Pakistani psyche, and Babar’s overall defensive captaincy and poor strategy meant Pakistan had their worst World Cup campaign, losing even to Afghanistan. With 2023, the divide between Pakistan and India’s overall cricket has widened a fair bit.
This of course, will disappoint not just the old-timer Pakistani fan but even a general cricket fan like me. I will always want to watch India win, but I’d rather witness a 2004 or 2006 series rather than the easy games that happen now. Barring a couple of T20 games, there is an overall imbalance. In 2021, the Pakistanis briefly managed to get back into the head of India’s batsmen and this was obvious when they faced off again in 2022 with Rohit and KL meekly defending an injured Shaheen bowling full tosses at 130km/hr. This was reversed in 2023, and while we’re aware of the difference in formats, the lack of cricket between both nations means the overall perception and recency in experience is a greater point of consideration.
Pakistan could’ve played the 2023 WTC final if they had played, well, better. I can’t recall a Pakistani test team losing so easily at home. Even in T20s, their best format, Pakistan is stronger in situations but fail to be consistent or dominate in a more contemporary style of play. While it’s fair to blame Babar’s captaincy in more cases than one, I really don’t understand what’s happening in the overall system for Pakistan to have reached this point.
And for India, where we stand now, the rivalry has moved to Australia. I’ll take you back to the Eden Gardens and that unbelievable follow-on victory. The sheer competitiveness and thrill of a Border Gavaskar Trophy is on par with the Ashes, in some cases like 2020-21 even greater. The India-Pakistan rivalry used to be one of equals, a colosseum of characters fighting it out, performances that could be etched forever; this wasn’t in cricket but also in hockey and other sports. Akram almost dismissing Sachin and yelling ‘catch it’ only for Razzaq to drop it. Harbhajan dismissing Afridi. Wahab Riaz bowling a steaming yorker to uproot Yuvraj in a semi final. Such moments seem to be distant in a sense, maybe the occasional T20 brings a few. The new Pakistan lacks the characters and genuine legendary nature of the previous squads. For some reason, I don't know which new Pakistan player I must be excited to see -- is there a new Razzaq or Akhtar for instance? Will there be another elegant session-by-session batter like Younis?
I used to wake up to watch Shoaib steaming in at the WACA in the morning. I enjoyed Yousuf whacking an ODI-style Boxing Day hundred. Inzamam always seemed to have that extra second. Somehow I don’t feel the same now. In contrast when I see India’s youngsters come through the ranks — Pant at the Gabba, Jurel in Ranchi, Jaiswal against Anderson, Kuldeep doing what he does — I think the gap between both teams will get wider in the future.
Looking at that Nassau pitch, I don't know what will happen on June 9th, but seeing the venue, once again Pakistan is definitely in the game with their bowling. Pacers, to be specific. But the batting might be severely exposed. I also don’t know what’s going to happen in a couple of hours; at the time of writing this I’m sitting in a cafe and Pakistan is suddenly 26/3 against USA. They’ve lost to lesser teams more often these days. Well let’s hope it’s a decent game, and for the sake of cricket, we have some former glory of the West Indies, Sri Lanka, Zimbabwe and Pakistan restored.
Special shoutout to some cricket regulars with Pak flairs who've often engaged in banter during these clashes : u/theGhostofCamus , u/phaintaa_Shoaib , u/Ghostly_100 , u/Stuff2511 , u/StraightUpHaram , u/theonlychicken from the top of my head but there are many, many more. Also is the legend robelinda still on Reddit? Doubt if he made this far down in the post eitherway, haha.
Edit: Pakistan eventually lost against the USA. Well. It's anyone's guess now. Only luck or some freak results can get Pakistan out of this hole, the team seems jaded. That being said, it's a tight format and it's anyone's game. If this was ODI, as we've seen, it would've been too much.
I'm also aware I've missed out on a ton of games, events, clashes over the years but it'll probably be a book if I include it all. Cheers.
2024.06.08 15:00 stonedoubt 011 Dynamic XL + V3000 Threadripper build
Just thought I would post my mess 🫣
My gaming/coding machine. It looked prettier before I started playing around with the 2 3090s, but I think it turned out alright.
With that in mind, I bought an 011D Dynamic Evo XL to use for my Threadripper build. Unfortunately, Lian Li removed that feature in this case and the Dynamic XL is too small for these 3 4090s. So… back to the drawing board and on to the V3000.
The V3000 has support for full EEB size boards (the Asrock is EATX but I started with an Asus TRX50 Sage that I returned). It also supports a second mini-ITX board. I have no idea why someone would need the second board… BUT, you can swap out the PSU panel for one that has additional space for an SFX PSU. You have to slide the HDD cage back to accommodate all of that but I will probably just remove it as I prefer SSDs over RAID for this purpose.
The V3000 is insanely customizable and comes with all kinds of accessories to accommodate a variety of builds. It’s freaking HUGE and HEAVY. You could fit an instagram model in the damn box.
Here is what I DONT like. You can remove the SSD trays where I have the one radiator mounted and you would think that this would be similarly tooled to the 011 to support a 360mm radiator there or a GPU… but the screw holes are not there. I had to mount it with only 2 screws if you want to mount a radiator on the top because there is no room to slide it up to reach the screw holes. I’m going to have to drill holes to put the 140s on the back of the radiator for the push/pull as it only has holes for 120mm fans.
The top has space to mount 2 200mm fans if you wanted but my complaint is that the tooling on the top rail blocks half of the airflow. Maybe I’m just dumb but it’s not really a great place for fans… and it should be. Anyway, I am going to mount 4 140s up there and they fit perfectly… just have half of their airflow blocked.
The V3000 is absolutely a workstation/server case. Why in the heck does it need glass doors on both sides? There is no doubt it has the best cable management support with Velcro tie downs all around the sides… but why? I am ok at cable management… but why do I need to display it in the back? What?
Lastly, the V3000 designers 100% forgot about dust filters. There is only 1 and it is in the bottom. My wife has 3 cats. Dust filters are a MUST for me. They probably thought that the case itself has small enough holes but I think the result is not sufficient.
All in all, I feel like these are awesome cases that are plagued by flawed design choices and blessed by amazing design choices. 😂😂😂
Before I built the 011D machine to add the second RTX 3090 (actually my original plan was 3 3090s but z790 pci lane support sucks pickles), I had built this machine in a Thermaltake CTE C700. It is a monster case but I LOVE IT. It is so nice to build in for a large machine. It only has a single flaw (and maybe some missing cable management features I like about the V3000). There is no way to add a second PSU. I think any of these larger case designs should take example from the Dynamic XL but this one in particular is so similar to the 011D that’s it’s nuts. In some ways, Thermaltake even improved on the design but I digress. I highly recommend that case and I am planning on building something new in it.
Thanks for taking the time to read my rant. If you think I maybe missed something about these cases that make me mistaken, please feel free to be condescending and explain to me like I’m functionally and mentally challenged… because you would be right.
For the record, I am on my third iteration of this build. The biggest challenge has been finding a modern (not 2-3 generations old) platform that could support 3+ GPUs without building a mining type machine or external GPU rack. My initial plan was to use 4 Radeon 7900xt cards for 80gb of vram… but alas, they are just slightly too wide to fit. Thus the Suprim X Liquid 4090s that make me cringe every time I think about the money I spent on them.
But… here is a tip if you are looking for one cheaper at Micro Center (they just opened in Charlotte near me). Lenovo has them for $1750 right now. I used the online chat with customer service to get them to price match on 3. This is important because they will only price match 1 in-store if you don’t use the chat. Their regular price is like $1939 or something. They will also price match Amazon if shipped and sold by Amazon.
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My gaming/coding machine. It looked prettier before I started playing around with the 2 3090s, but I think it turned out alright.
- 011D Dynamic XL
- Asus z790 Hero
- Intel Core i7 14700k
- 64gb Corsair Dominator 7200mhz
- 7 Lian Li SL Infinity 120 (3 reverse bottom)
- 3 knockoff infinity on the top
- 2 MSI RTX 3090
- NZXT 360mm cooler
- 2 Thermaltake 1050 watt PSU
- Lian Li V3000
- Asrock TRX50 WS
- AMD Threadripper 7960x
- Noctua NH-U145 TR5-SP6
- 128gb Corsair 5600mhz ECC
- 3 MSI RTX 4090 Suprim Liquid
- 3 Lian Li 140mm TL LCD Reverse + 1 140mm Reverse (bottom) for the front of the case
- 3 Lian Li 120mm Reverse under the graphics cards
- 1 Lian Li 140mm TL Reverse at the back
- 2 Lian LI 140mm TL behind the side mounted Liquid rad for push/pull
- 4 Lian Li 140mm TL Reverse on top for push/pull on the top mounted Liquid rads.
With that in mind, I bought an 011D Dynamic Evo XL to use for my Threadripper build. Unfortunately, Lian Li removed that feature in this case and the Dynamic XL is too small for these 3 4090s. So… back to the drawing board and on to the V3000.
The V3000 has support for full EEB size boards (the Asrock is EATX but I started with an Asus TRX50 Sage that I returned). It also supports a second mini-ITX board. I have no idea why someone would need the second board… BUT, you can swap out the PSU panel for one that has additional space for an SFX PSU. You have to slide the HDD cage back to accommodate all of that but I will probably just remove it as I prefer SSDs over RAID for this purpose.
The V3000 is insanely customizable and comes with all kinds of accessories to accommodate a variety of builds. It’s freaking HUGE and HEAVY. You could fit an instagram model in the damn box.
Here is what I DONT like. You can remove the SSD trays where I have the one radiator mounted and you would think that this would be similarly tooled to the 011 to support a 360mm radiator there or a GPU… but the screw holes are not there. I had to mount it with only 2 screws if you want to mount a radiator on the top because there is no room to slide it up to reach the screw holes. I’m going to have to drill holes to put the 140s on the back of the radiator for the push/pull as it only has holes for 120mm fans.
The top has space to mount 2 200mm fans if you wanted but my complaint is that the tooling on the top rail blocks half of the airflow. Maybe I’m just dumb but it’s not really a great place for fans… and it should be. Anyway, I am going to mount 4 140s up there and they fit perfectly… just have half of their airflow blocked.
The V3000 is absolutely a workstation/server case. Why in the heck does it need glass doors on both sides? There is no doubt it has the best cable management support with Velcro tie downs all around the sides… but why? I am ok at cable management… but why do I need to display it in the back? What?
Lastly, the V3000 designers 100% forgot about dust filters. There is only 1 and it is in the bottom. My wife has 3 cats. Dust filters are a MUST for me. They probably thought that the case itself has small enough holes but I think the result is not sufficient.
All in all, I feel like these are awesome cases that are plagued by flawed design choices and blessed by amazing design choices. 😂😂😂
Before I built the 011D machine to add the second RTX 3090 (actually my original plan was 3 3090s but z790 pci lane support sucks pickles), I had built this machine in a Thermaltake CTE C700. It is a monster case but I LOVE IT. It is so nice to build in for a large machine. It only has a single flaw (and maybe some missing cable management features I like about the V3000). There is no way to add a second PSU. I think any of these larger case designs should take example from the Dynamic XL but this one in particular is so similar to the 011D that’s it’s nuts. In some ways, Thermaltake even improved on the design but I digress. I highly recommend that case and I am planning on building something new in it.
Thanks for taking the time to read my rant. If you think I maybe missed something about these cases that make me mistaken, please feel free to be condescending and explain to me like I’m functionally and mentally challenged… because you would be right.
For the record, I am on my third iteration of this build. The biggest challenge has been finding a modern (not 2-3 generations old) platform that could support 3+ GPUs without building a mining type machine or external GPU rack. My initial plan was to use 4 Radeon 7900xt cards for 80gb of vram… but alas, they are just slightly too wide to fit. Thus the Suprim X Liquid 4090s that make me cringe every time I think about the money I spent on them.
But… here is a tip if you are looking for one cheaper at Micro Center (they just opened in Charlotte near me). Lenovo has them for $1750 right now. I used the online chat with customer service to get them to price match on 3. This is important because they will only price match 1 in-store if you don’t use the chat. Their regular price is like $1939 or something. They will also price match Amazon if shipped and sold by Amazon.
2024.06.08 14:58 ObeyYourMasterGood [Induction] A Better Sleep hypnosis script. If you are not sure you can be hypnotized, try reading this. I wrote it to help a friend get better rest.
Hypnotic Basics: If you’re returning to my scripts, feel free to ignore the first 7 paragraphs, as it will not substantively change. It is just an initial check-list to make sure of safety before reading. For anybody who hasn’t done this before or has never read one of my scripts specifically, which, to you newbies: Welcome. And to all those returning: Welcome back.
Please follow these basic rules to ensure your safety, privacy, and consent.
1, Ensure that you are in an area where you would reasonably be able to say “I was taking a nap” if you are interrupted for any reason. This means that you a) have a minimum of 20 minutes, b) are able to sit or lay comfortably, and c) have no other distractions or pressing commitments.
2, Please get yourself a glass of water before reading further, as there will be a suggestion to drink water immediately after waking up when the session is ending.
3, Take a moment now to double check the title of the posting and that it is something that you want to focus on for a trance/hypnotic session. Whatever is in the title is going to be what is in the script, so you have had 2 chances now to confirm your certainty and consent that you wish to continue.
Thank you for taking the time to read if this was your first time, or if you just felt the need to reconfirm that there is nothing substantially different in the paragraph. Which, there isn’t, exactly as I said, because I am literally going to copy and paste this to every script that I write from now on.
Anyway. That’s the basics and if you are now ready to continue, remembering and recognizing that this is your third and final warning, feel free to dive right in. Reading beyond this point is considered giving your full and knowing consent., please remember to leave feedback, feel free to ask for requests, tips are welcome, and that’s enough of all of that. Without further ado, let’s begin…
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Having now talked to a number of folk about what they may need most or would like to wish for, I have written this script for the purposes of improving quality of sleep so that your rest can be more restful and restorative. It will also be tied to trying to fight nightmares, getting back to sleep more easily when interrupted, and having the mind wind down at night so that sleep comes more easily. Obviously, results can’t be guaranteed, and there will be some further suggestions that may help at the end, but for now, feel free to read on and see if this script can help you sleep a little better tonight.
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So, sleeping. Trancing is not totally dissimilar, maybe you already know that or maybe this is your first try at getting hypnotized, either way, just understanding that they are different but not so different is enough for now, as you keep reading, and breathing, and start to focus on following my words, looking for that feeling that is not quite sleeping, but is something sort of close to it.
Now, of course, you might have come to this script with the problem of insomnia, its late at night, you’re needing a distraction, you’re wanting to get rest and just can’t seem to figure out how to get your brain to slow down enough to make it work, and that is definitely a serious problem and a real issue that a lot of folks have to deal with at one time or another. Let’s see if we can’t find a way to hack the system and rewrite a bit of brain code here or there for you to try to get around whatever the hooks and hangups are that were roadblocking you from getting the rest you rightfully deserve…
Because that’s the thing. That’s the whole deal, right there, the biggest part of the whole point of this posting: You deserve to get to rest. You deserve to get to take a break. You deserve to take it easy for a while, and turn your mind to things that are pleasant and make you happy and feel joy.
You can take a moment now to think about a few of your own favorite things, with or without singing about raindrops on roses or whiskers on kittens, just taking a deep breath, filling your lungs with fresh air and your mind with fresh thoughts of the things that bring you comfort and make you feel cozy.
Now, as you keep reading and you keep focusing, you will keep relaxing and let yourself lose the distractions of your busy day, because you know that no matter how much you try to get done in one day, there will be other things to do tomorrow, and to get them done, you’ll need to have gotten some rest and the best of the best when it comes to proper rest is a good night’s sleep.
I know you already know that, you know that you already know that, and I know that you know that I know we both know that, which is why you probably decided to read this, and is the same reason I decided to write this, so since we’re on the same page and you’re probably more than ready to keep reading and start the actual trancing already, iet’s just go ahead and give you a quick count for the sake of the formalities so you can get fully and completely into TRANCE.
On the count of 10, you will be completely and totally in TRANCE.
0, 1, 2, 3, following after me.
4, 5, 6, focusing and reading.
7, 8, feeling more happy as you let your mind empty.
9, Finding that you are already in a TRANCE and might have been for a while, and just going deeper now as you wait for that last number.
Keep your mind on my words, keep your eyes reading, keep your fingers scrolling, whatever you need to do to just focus on that feeling that is not quite fully sleep, but is similar to it in a sort of sideways sense, and that makes sense because I told you from the start that this was written to help you work on getting better SLEEP.
10, SLEEP. SLEEP. SLEEP. Sinking down even more deep into that comfortable similar feeling that you were looking for when you started reading, so that soon you can find that other feeling that is next to it and get better rest, hopefully for the rest of your life.
Now, in order to give you better sleep, let’s find you a perfect place to rest. A bedroom in your brain, with the perfect bed, and a lovely little nightstand, and all the warmest, comfiest covers.
In your mind, there are many doors. There are doors that lead to memories, and doors that lead to dreams, and doors that lead to future plans and wants and goals. Surely, behind one of these doors there must be that bedroom with the perfect bed that you just imagined. One of these doors leads to that bedroom. On the count of 3, you will find yourself standing in front of it. Make sure to make a note of it in your mind, and remember what it looks like, so you can find your way back on your own next time, and it will be easy to come back whenever you want.
Whenever you need some sleep, you can find your way back here with the phrase "SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ". Whenever you say SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ or are told that trigger by someone you have decided to share it with and trust to help you when you need more SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ, you will find yourself at the door to the bedroom, ready to get some absolutely splendid rest. Deep and peaceful, powerful slumber.
1, searching for the proper door, 2, feeling like you are getting closer to it more and more, finding your way to the perfect bedroom and the perfect rest that you can get in that perfect bed, and 3. SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
When you lay in that bed, you will feel as if 5 minutes becomes several hours. A full night's sleep in this wonderful bed will feel like catching up on a week's worth of proper rest. Sleeping in this bed regularly should help your sleep patterns and routine, and will always make you feel so spectacularly refreshed.
SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
You can find the bedroom now, and it will always be there where you can find it again. It is the perfect temperature, the perfect number of blankets, the perfect softness to firmness of the mattress, just for you. The perfect bed, and as such you can get the perfect sleep. So, whenever you need some extra rest, even just a quick nap, you can come back here, and get some
SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
Now, of course, sometimes there will be interruptions in the night, be that needing the bathroom, or some noise happening, or just getting up for a drink of water, or of course the worst case: nightmares. For most of them the answer is the same and is very simple, you can simply use the same SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ trigger, to take your brain back to the same blissful bedroom in your imagination, and head back to bed after you have dealt with whatever it was that needed doing.
As to the nightmares though, well, whatever they may be, whenever they may come up, and however real it seems to feel, I would like you to try these 3 things to try to re-ground yourself in the actual reality you are used to living in that was briefly interrupted by whatever that was.
1, take 10 intentional breaths, with slowing down, breathing deeper, focusing on your physical body and current place, and assessing that you are still safe.
2, while you do, since that will take about a minute, you may want to go ahead and get some water, or use the bathroom, anything that involves physically getting out of bed for just a little bit, so that your body is able to reset as well as your brain.
3, then you can return to bed, reuse the trigger, and try to get back to some proper SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
Of course, there should be no nightmares when you sleep in this perfect bed from your imagination, but some other stuff sometimes comes from the imagination and the subconscious as well, so let’s take a moment now to find another door, nearby, somewhere that those things come out of, and we’re going to see if we can’t help keep it from opening without your blessing.
Picture a plank, a simple piece of wood, could be used to make a table or a shelf or a different door, but for this moment we’ll use it to block the door that the nastier things have been using to bother you and interrupt getting proper rest. See that there are already braces where it can be fitted to serve as a sturdy lock and barricade your mind so that when it is time to rest you can choose to make it more uninterrupted.
Picture a key. It can be as intricate and complicated or as simple and small as you like, any key will work, because every door in your mind has the ability to be locked by your mind’s master key. Feel yourself put the key to the lock and bolt it, so that the nightmare door does not open again for this night.
Picture that scene in so many movies where a security system comes online: turrets spinning up, red laser sights, the sound of weapons preparing to turn some intruder into a fine powder. Feel it in your mind as that security system is installed and everything is locked and loaded to keep that door from letting out anything that is at all a danger to you while you get your well-deserved rest.
There may be things that knock on that door or try to slip underneath it, and troubles may still interrupt your rest now and again, unfortunately, but from now on, when you think to yourself “SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ” your mind should also subconsciously know that the key has been put in the bedside table, the door has been locked and barred, and the way to the bedroom is protected.
Just as your own mind can sometimes make the nightmares that make sleeping more difficult, or get caught up with one distraction or another with the busy brain buzzing all about, it can also be what provides you the perfect answers to those troubles, if it just has the right framework to be able to put the puzzle together, you’ll feel the pieces start to fall into place and should be more and more able to get better and better SLEEP.
Breathing deeply, relaxing completely, feeling so ready to get more, better, easier, proper SLEEP.
Remembering all the tools you have been given now, focusing on preparing to change from this similar feeling of TRANCE to shift over to just getting good sleep.
On the count of 5, your TRANCE will end, and you will feel ready to use the trigger on your own when you are ready to get some SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
1, Relaxing, and resting, but knowing that real sleep will help you feel even better soon.
2, Focusing on how much you are looking forward to getting a good night’s SLEEP.
3, Remembering the way back to that lovely, perfect bedroom in your brain, and how wonderful it is to enjoy your SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ, and getting so cozy.
4, Feeling so fabulous as you return to your usual, normal waking self, but not too awake, so you can get back to getting proper sleep presently.
And 5, AWAKE at your own pace, and with no need to hurry, just back to normal, if maybe a little sleepy.
A glass of water may be a good idea, and other than that, I’ll keep the ending short, so you can get back to that bedroom and some more well-earned rest.
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I have had a few times in my life when I was able to turn a nightmare into a lucid dream instead, and if I knew enough about how to try to suggest that to the general public, I would have included that in the script, but sadly I do not. I do recommend that if you have read this, you may want to research that, as it might help you with those night-time troubles, in some form or fashion.
Other than that, less screentime before bed, having some kind of sleepmask, and maybe you could install an app on your phone to be a blue-light filteturn on nightmode on everything.
That is all of the stuff that I have used to improve my sleeping habits. I also tend to turn on youtube for one of those 10-hours of various genres of music type of videos, so I can see how much sleep I got when I wake up, or audiobooks are also always a good option for me as well.
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed a lovely trance, and if you have any other suggestions or techniques that might help others who would read this type of script, I hope you’ll share them in the comments. ‘Til next time, Sleep well, and I hope it is better because of the bedroom in your brain.
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Please follow these basic rules to ensure your safety, privacy, and consent.
1, Ensure that you are in an area where you would reasonably be able to say “I was taking a nap” if you are interrupted for any reason. This means that you a) have a minimum of 20 minutes, b) are able to sit or lay comfortably, and c) have no other distractions or pressing commitments.
2, Please get yourself a glass of water before reading further, as there will be a suggestion to drink water immediately after waking up when the session is ending.
3, Take a moment now to double check the title of the posting and that it is something that you want to focus on for a trance/hypnotic session. Whatever is in the title is going to be what is in the script, so you have had 2 chances now to confirm your certainty and consent that you wish to continue.
Thank you for taking the time to read if this was your first time, or if you just felt the need to reconfirm that there is nothing substantially different in the paragraph. Which, there isn’t, exactly as I said, because I am literally going to copy and paste this to every script that I write from now on.
Anyway. That’s the basics and if you are now ready to continue, remembering and recognizing that this is your third and final warning, feel free to dive right in. Reading beyond this point is considered giving your full and knowing consent., please remember to leave feedback, feel free to ask for requests, tips are welcome, and that’s enough of all of that. Without further ado, let’s begin…
….………………
Having now talked to a number of folk about what they may need most or would like to wish for, I have written this script for the purposes of improving quality of sleep so that your rest can be more restful and restorative. It will also be tied to trying to fight nightmares, getting back to sleep more easily when interrupted, and having the mind wind down at night so that sleep comes more easily. Obviously, results can’t be guaranteed, and there will be some further suggestions that may help at the end, but for now, feel free to read on and see if this script can help you sleep a little better tonight.
…..
So, sleeping. Trancing is not totally dissimilar, maybe you already know that or maybe this is your first try at getting hypnotized, either way, just understanding that they are different but not so different is enough for now, as you keep reading, and breathing, and start to focus on following my words, looking for that feeling that is not quite sleeping, but is something sort of close to it.
Now, of course, you might have come to this script with the problem of insomnia, its late at night, you’re needing a distraction, you’re wanting to get rest and just can’t seem to figure out how to get your brain to slow down enough to make it work, and that is definitely a serious problem and a real issue that a lot of folks have to deal with at one time or another. Let’s see if we can’t find a way to hack the system and rewrite a bit of brain code here or there for you to try to get around whatever the hooks and hangups are that were roadblocking you from getting the rest you rightfully deserve…
Because that’s the thing. That’s the whole deal, right there, the biggest part of the whole point of this posting: You deserve to get to rest. You deserve to get to take a break. You deserve to take it easy for a while, and turn your mind to things that are pleasant and make you happy and feel joy.
You can take a moment now to think about a few of your own favorite things, with or without singing about raindrops on roses or whiskers on kittens, just taking a deep breath, filling your lungs with fresh air and your mind with fresh thoughts of the things that bring you comfort and make you feel cozy.
Now, as you keep reading and you keep focusing, you will keep relaxing and let yourself lose the distractions of your busy day, because you know that no matter how much you try to get done in one day, there will be other things to do tomorrow, and to get them done, you’ll need to have gotten some rest and the best of the best when it comes to proper rest is a good night’s sleep.
I know you already know that, you know that you already know that, and I know that you know that I know we both know that, which is why you probably decided to read this, and is the same reason I decided to write this, so since we’re on the same page and you’re probably more than ready to keep reading and start the actual trancing already, iet’s just go ahead and give you a quick count for the sake of the formalities so you can get fully and completely into TRANCE.
On the count of 10, you will be completely and totally in TRANCE.
0, 1, 2, 3, following after me.
4, 5, 6, focusing and reading.
7, 8, feeling more happy as you let your mind empty.
9, Finding that you are already in a TRANCE and might have been for a while, and just going deeper now as you wait for that last number.
Keep your mind on my words, keep your eyes reading, keep your fingers scrolling, whatever you need to do to just focus on that feeling that is not quite fully sleep, but is similar to it in a sort of sideways sense, and that makes sense because I told you from the start that this was written to help you work on getting better SLEEP.
10, SLEEP. SLEEP. SLEEP. Sinking down even more deep into that comfortable similar feeling that you were looking for when you started reading, so that soon you can find that other feeling that is next to it and get better rest, hopefully for the rest of your life.
Now, in order to give you better sleep, let’s find you a perfect place to rest. A bedroom in your brain, with the perfect bed, and a lovely little nightstand, and all the warmest, comfiest covers.
In your mind, there are many doors. There are doors that lead to memories, and doors that lead to dreams, and doors that lead to future plans and wants and goals. Surely, behind one of these doors there must be that bedroom with the perfect bed that you just imagined. One of these doors leads to that bedroom. On the count of 3, you will find yourself standing in front of it. Make sure to make a note of it in your mind, and remember what it looks like, so you can find your way back on your own next time, and it will be easy to come back whenever you want.
Whenever you need some sleep, you can find your way back here with the phrase "SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ". Whenever you say SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ or are told that trigger by someone you have decided to share it with and trust to help you when you need more SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ, you will find yourself at the door to the bedroom, ready to get some absolutely splendid rest. Deep and peaceful, powerful slumber.
1, searching for the proper door, 2, feeling like you are getting closer to it more and more, finding your way to the perfect bedroom and the perfect rest that you can get in that perfect bed, and 3. SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
When you lay in that bed, you will feel as if 5 minutes becomes several hours. A full night's sleep in this wonderful bed will feel like catching up on a week's worth of proper rest. Sleeping in this bed regularly should help your sleep patterns and routine, and will always make you feel so spectacularly refreshed.
SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
You can find the bedroom now, and it will always be there where you can find it again. It is the perfect temperature, the perfect number of blankets, the perfect softness to firmness of the mattress, just for you. The perfect bed, and as such you can get the perfect sleep. So, whenever you need some extra rest, even just a quick nap, you can come back here, and get some
SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
Now, of course, sometimes there will be interruptions in the night, be that needing the bathroom, or some noise happening, or just getting up for a drink of water, or of course the worst case: nightmares. For most of them the answer is the same and is very simple, you can simply use the same SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ trigger, to take your brain back to the same blissful bedroom in your imagination, and head back to bed after you have dealt with whatever it was that needed doing.
As to the nightmares though, well, whatever they may be, whenever they may come up, and however real it seems to feel, I would like you to try these 3 things to try to re-ground yourself in the actual reality you are used to living in that was briefly interrupted by whatever that was.
1, take 10 intentional breaths, with slowing down, breathing deeper, focusing on your physical body and current place, and assessing that you are still safe.
2, while you do, since that will take about a minute, you may want to go ahead and get some water, or use the bathroom, anything that involves physically getting out of bed for just a little bit, so that your body is able to reset as well as your brain.
3, then you can return to bed, reuse the trigger, and try to get back to some proper SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
Of course, there should be no nightmares when you sleep in this perfect bed from your imagination, but some other stuff sometimes comes from the imagination and the subconscious as well, so let’s take a moment now to find another door, nearby, somewhere that those things come out of, and we’re going to see if we can’t help keep it from opening without your blessing.
Picture a plank, a simple piece of wood, could be used to make a table or a shelf or a different door, but for this moment we’ll use it to block the door that the nastier things have been using to bother you and interrupt getting proper rest. See that there are already braces where it can be fitted to serve as a sturdy lock and barricade your mind so that when it is time to rest you can choose to make it more uninterrupted.
Picture a key. It can be as intricate and complicated or as simple and small as you like, any key will work, because every door in your mind has the ability to be locked by your mind’s master key. Feel yourself put the key to the lock and bolt it, so that the nightmare door does not open again for this night.
Picture that scene in so many movies where a security system comes online: turrets spinning up, red laser sights, the sound of weapons preparing to turn some intruder into a fine powder. Feel it in your mind as that security system is installed and everything is locked and loaded to keep that door from letting out anything that is at all a danger to you while you get your well-deserved rest.
There may be things that knock on that door or try to slip underneath it, and troubles may still interrupt your rest now and again, unfortunately, but from now on, when you think to yourself “SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ” your mind should also subconsciously know that the key has been put in the bedside table, the door has been locked and barred, and the way to the bedroom is protected.
Just as your own mind can sometimes make the nightmares that make sleeping more difficult, or get caught up with one distraction or another with the busy brain buzzing all about, it can also be what provides you the perfect answers to those troubles, if it just has the right framework to be able to put the puzzle together, you’ll feel the pieces start to fall into place and should be more and more able to get better and better SLEEP.
Breathing deeply, relaxing completely, feeling so ready to get more, better, easier, proper SLEEP.
Remembering all the tools you have been given now, focusing on preparing to change from this similar feeling of TRANCE to shift over to just getting good sleep.
On the count of 5, your TRANCE will end, and you will feel ready to use the trigger on your own when you are ready to get some SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
1, Relaxing, and resting, but knowing that real sleep will help you feel even better soon.
2, Focusing on how much you are looking forward to getting a good night’s SLEEP.
3, Remembering the way back to that lovely, perfect bedroom in your brain, and how wonderful it is to enjoy your SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ, and getting so cozy.
4, Feeling so fabulous as you return to your usual, normal waking self, but not too awake, so you can get back to getting proper sleep presently.
And 5, AWAKE at your own pace, and with no need to hurry, just back to normal, if maybe a little sleepy.
A glass of water may be a good idea, and other than that, I’ll keep the ending short, so you can get back to that bedroom and some more well-earned rest.
….……………….
I have had a few times in my life when I was able to turn a nightmare into a lucid dream instead, and if I knew enough about how to try to suggest that to the general public, I would have included that in the script, but sadly I do not. I do recommend that if you have read this, you may want to research that, as it might help you with those night-time troubles, in some form or fashion.
Other than that, less screentime before bed, having some kind of sleepmask, and maybe you could install an app on your phone to be a blue-light filteturn on nightmode on everything.
That is all of the stuff that I have used to improve my sleeping habits. I also tend to turn on youtube for one of those 10-hours of various genres of music type of videos, so I can see how much sleep I got when I wake up, or audiobooks are also always a good option for me as well.
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed a lovely trance, and if you have any other suggestions or techniques that might help others who would read this type of script, I hope you’ll share them in the comments. ‘Til next time, Sleep well, and I hope it is better because of the bedroom in your brain.
2024.06.08 14:50 ObeyYourMasterGood [Induction] [Text session] A Better Sleep hypnosis script. I'm hoping this helps some friends, and decided to share it in a few reddit postings. [FREE]
Hypnotic Basics: If you’re returning to my scripts, feel free to ignore the first 7 paragraphs, as it will not substantively change. It is just an initial check-list to make sure of safety before reading. For anybody who hasn’t done this before or has never read one of my scripts specifically, which, to you newbies: Welcome. And to all those returning: Welcome back.
Please follow these basic rules to ensure your safety, privacy, and consent.
1, Ensure that you are in an area where you would reasonably be able to say “I was taking a nap” if you are interrupted for any reason. This means that you a) have a minimum of 20 minutes, b) are able to sit or lay comfortably, and c) have no other distractions or pressing commitments.
2, Please get yourself a glass of water before reading further, as there will be a suggestion to drink water immediately after waking up when the session is ending.
3, Take a moment now to double check the title of the posting and that it is something that you want to focus on for a trance/hypnotic session. Whatever is in the title is going to be what is in the script, so you have had 2 chances now to confirm your certainty and consent that you wish to continue.
Thank you for taking the time to read if this was your first time, or if you just felt the need to reconfirm that there is nothing substantially different in the paragraph. Which, there isn’t, exactly as I said, because I am literally going to copy and paste this to every script that I write from now on.
Anyway. That’s the basics and if you are now ready to continue, remembering and recognizing that this is your third and final warning, feel free to dive right in. Reading beyond this point is considered giving your full and knowing consent., please remember to leave feedback, feel free to ask for requests, tips are welcome, and that’s enough of all of that. Without further ado, let’s begin…
….………………
Having now talked to a number of folk about what they may need most or would like to wish for, I have written this script for the purposes of improving quality of sleep so that your rest can be more restful and restorative. It will also be tied to trying to fight nightmares, getting back to sleep more easily when interrupted, and having the mind wind down at night so that sleep comes more easily. Obviously, results can’t be guaranteed, and there will be some further suggestions that may help at the end, but for now, feel free to read on and see if this script can help you sleep a little better tonight.
…..
So, sleeping. Trancing is not totally dissimilar, maybe you already know that or maybe this is your first try at getting hypnotized, either way, just understanding that they are different but not so different is enough for now, as you keep reading, and breathing, and start to focus on following my words, looking for that feeling that is not quite sleeping, but is something sort of close to it.
Now, of course, you might have come to this script with the problem of insomnia, its late at night, you’re needing a distraction, you’re wanting to get rest and just can’t seem to figure out how to get your brain to slow down enough to make it work, and that is definitely a serious problem and a real issue that a lot of folks have to deal with at one time or another. Let’s see if we can’t find a way to hack the system and rewrite a bit of brain code here or there for you to try to get around whatever the hooks and hangups are that were roadblocking you from getting the rest you rightfully deserve…
Because that’s the thing. That’s the whole deal, right there, the biggest part of the whole point of this posting: You deserve to get to rest. You deserve to get to take a break. You deserve to take it easy for a while, and turn your mind to things that are pleasant and make you happy and feel joy.
You can take a moment now to think about a few of your own favorite things, with or without singing about raindrops on roses or whiskers on kittens, just taking a deep breath, filling your lungs with fresh air and your mind with fresh thoughts of the things that bring you comfort and make you feel cozy.
Now, as you keep reading and you keep focusing, you will keep relaxing and let yourself lose the distractions of your busy day, because you know that no matter how much you try to get done in one day, there will be other things to do tomorrow, and to get them done, you’ll need to have gotten some rest and the best of the best when it comes to proper rest is a good night’s sleep.
I know you already know that, you know that you already know that, and I know that you know that I know we both know that, which is why you probably decided to read this, and is the same reason I decided to write this, so since we’re on the same page and you’re probably more than ready to keep reading and start the actual trancing already, iet’s just go ahead and give you a quick count for the sake of the formalities so you can get fully and completely into TRANCE.
On the count of 10, you will be completely and totally in TRANCE.
0, 1, 2, 3, following after me.
4, 5, 6, focusing and reading.
7, 8, feeling more happy as you let your mind empty.
9, Finding that you are already in a TRANCE and might have been for a while, and just going deeper now as you wait for that last number.
Keep your mind on my words, keep your eyes reading, keep your fingers scrolling, whatever you need to do to just focus on that feeling that is not quite fully sleep, but is similar to it in a sort of sideways sense, and that makes sense because I told you from the start that this was written to help you work on getting better SLEEP.
10, SLEEP. SLEEP. SLEEP. Sinking down even more deep into that comfortable similar feeling that you were looking for when you started reading, so that soon you can find that other feeling that is next to it and get better rest, hopefully for the rest of your life.
Now, in order to give you better sleep, let’s find you a perfect place to rest. A bedroom in your brain, with the perfect bed, and a lovely little nightstand, and all the warmest, comfiest covers.
In your mind, there are many doors. There are doors that lead to memories, and doors that lead to dreams, and doors that lead to future plans and wants and goals. Surely, behind one of these doors there must be that bedroom with the perfect bed that you just imagined. One of these doors leads to that bedroom. On the count of 3, you will find yourself standing in front of it. Make sure to make a note of it in your mind, and remember what it looks like, so you can find your way back on your own next time, and it will be easy to come back whenever you want.
Whenever you need some sleep, you can find your way back here with the phrase "SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ". Whenever you say SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ or are told that trigger by someone you have decided to share it with and trust to help you when you need more SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ, you will find yourself at the door to the bedroom, ready to get some absolutely splendid rest. Deep and peaceful, powerful slumber.
1, searching for the proper door, 2, feeling like you are getting closer to it more and more, finding your way to the perfect bedroom and the perfect rest that you can get in that perfect bed, and 3. SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
When you lay in that bed, you will feel as if 5 minutes becomes several hours. A full night's sleep in this wonderful bed will feel like catching up on a week's worth of proper rest. Sleeping in this bed regularly should help your sleep patterns and routine, and will always make you feel so spectacularly refreshed.
SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
You can find the bedroom now, and it will always be there where you can find it again. It is the perfect temperature, the perfect number of blankets, the perfect softness to firmness of the mattress, just for you. The perfect bed, and as such you can get the perfect sleep. So, whenever you need some extra rest, even just a quick nap, you can come back here, and get some
SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
Now, of course, sometimes there will be interruptions in the night, be that needing the bathroom, or some noise happening, or just getting up for a drink of water, or of course the worst case: nightmares. For most of them the answer is the same and is very simple, you can simply use the same SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ trigger, to take your brain back to the same blissful bedroom in your imagination, and head back to bed after you have dealt with whatever it was that needed doing.
As to the nightmares though, well, whatever they may be, whenever they may come up, and however real it seems to feel, I would like you to try these 3 things to try to re-ground yourself in the actual reality you are used to living in that was briefly interrupted by whatever that was.
1, take 10 intentional breaths, with slowing down, breathing deeper, focusing on your physical body and current place, and assessing that you are still safe.
2, while you do, since that will take about a minute, you may want to go ahead and get some water, or use the bathroom, anything that involves physically getting out of bed for just a little bit, so that your body is able to reset as well as your brain.
3, then you can return to bed, reuse the trigger, and try to get back to some proper SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
Of course, there should be no nightmares when you sleep in this perfect bed from your imagination, but some other stuff sometimes comes from the imagination and the subconscious as well, so let’s take a moment now to find another door, nearby, somewhere that those things come out of, and we’re going to see if we can’t help keep it from opening without your blessing.
Picture a plank, a simple piece of wood, could be used to make a table or a shelf or a different door, but for this moment we’ll use it to block the door that the nastier things have been using to bother you and interrupt getting proper rest. See that there are already braces where it can be fitted to serve as a sturdy lock and barricade your mind so that when it is time to rest you can choose to make it more uninterrupted.
Picture a key. It can be as intricate and complicated or as simple and small as you like, any key will work, because every door in your mind has the ability to be locked by your mind’s master key. Feel yourself put the key to the lock and bolt it, so that the nightmare door does not open again for this night.
Picture that scene in so many movies where a security system comes online: turrets spinning up, red laser sights, the sound of weapons preparing to turn some intruder into a fine powder. Feel it in your mind as that security system is installed and everything is locked and loaded to keep that door from letting out anything that is at all a danger to you while you get your well-deserved rest.
There may be things that knock on that door or try to slip underneath it, and troubles may still interrupt your rest now and again, unfortunately, but from now on, when you think to yourself “SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ” your mind should also subconsciously know that the key has been put in the bedside table, the door has been locked and barred, and the way to the bedroom is protected.
Just as your own mind can sometimes make the nightmares that make sleeping more difficult, or get caught up with one distraction or another with the busy brain buzzing all about, it can also be what provides you the perfect answers to those troubles, if it just has the right framework to be able to put the puzzle together, you’ll feel the pieces start to fall into place and should be more and more able to get better and better SLEEP.
Breathing deeply, relaxing completely, feeling so ready to get more, better, easier, proper SLEEP.
Remembering all the tools you have been given now, focusing on preparing to change from this similar feeling of TRANCE to shift over to just getting good sleep.
On the count of 5, your TRANCE will end, and you will feel ready to use the trigger on your own when you are ready to get some SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
1, Relaxing, and resting, but knowing that real sleep will help you feel even better soon.
2, Focusing on how much you are looking forward to getting a good night’s SLEEP.
3, Remembering the way back to that lovely, perfect bedroom in your brain, and how wonderful it is to enjoy your SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ, and getting so cozy.
4, Feeling so fabulous as you return to your usual, normal waking self, but not too awake, so you can get back to getting proper sleep presently.
And 5, AWAKE at your own pace, and with no need to hurry, just back to normal, if maybe a little sleepy.
A glass of water may be a good idea, and other than that, I’ll keep the ending short, so you can get back to that bedroom and some more well-earned rest.
….……………….
I have had a few times in my life when I was able to turn a nightmare into a lucid dream instead, and if I knew enough about how to try to suggest that to the general public, I would have included that in the script, but sadly I do not. I do recommend that if you have read this, you may want to research that, as it might help you with those night-time troubles, in some form or fashion.
Other than that, less screentime before bed, having some kind of sleepmask, and maybe you could install an app on your phone to be a blue-light filteturn on nightmode on everything.
That is all of the stuff that I have used to improve my sleeping habits. I also tend to turn on youtube for one of those 10-hours of various genres of music type of videos, so I can see how much sleep I got when I wake up, or audiobooks are also always a good option for me as well.
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed a lovely trance, and if you have any other suggestions or techniques that might help others who would read this type of script, I hope you’ll share them in the comments. ‘Til next time, Sleep well, and I hope it is better because of the bedroom in your brain.
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Please follow these basic rules to ensure your safety, privacy, and consent.
1, Ensure that you are in an area where you would reasonably be able to say “I was taking a nap” if you are interrupted for any reason. This means that you a) have a minimum of 20 minutes, b) are able to sit or lay comfortably, and c) have no other distractions or pressing commitments.
2, Please get yourself a glass of water before reading further, as there will be a suggestion to drink water immediately after waking up when the session is ending.
3, Take a moment now to double check the title of the posting and that it is something that you want to focus on for a trance/hypnotic session. Whatever is in the title is going to be what is in the script, so you have had 2 chances now to confirm your certainty and consent that you wish to continue.
Thank you for taking the time to read if this was your first time, or if you just felt the need to reconfirm that there is nothing substantially different in the paragraph. Which, there isn’t, exactly as I said, because I am literally going to copy and paste this to every script that I write from now on.
Anyway. That’s the basics and if you are now ready to continue, remembering and recognizing that this is your third and final warning, feel free to dive right in. Reading beyond this point is considered giving your full and knowing consent., please remember to leave feedback, feel free to ask for requests, tips are welcome, and that’s enough of all of that. Without further ado, let’s begin…
….………………
Having now talked to a number of folk about what they may need most or would like to wish for, I have written this script for the purposes of improving quality of sleep so that your rest can be more restful and restorative. It will also be tied to trying to fight nightmares, getting back to sleep more easily when interrupted, and having the mind wind down at night so that sleep comes more easily. Obviously, results can’t be guaranteed, and there will be some further suggestions that may help at the end, but for now, feel free to read on and see if this script can help you sleep a little better tonight.
…..
So, sleeping. Trancing is not totally dissimilar, maybe you already know that or maybe this is your first try at getting hypnotized, either way, just understanding that they are different but not so different is enough for now, as you keep reading, and breathing, and start to focus on following my words, looking for that feeling that is not quite sleeping, but is something sort of close to it.
Now, of course, you might have come to this script with the problem of insomnia, its late at night, you’re needing a distraction, you’re wanting to get rest and just can’t seem to figure out how to get your brain to slow down enough to make it work, and that is definitely a serious problem and a real issue that a lot of folks have to deal with at one time or another. Let’s see if we can’t find a way to hack the system and rewrite a bit of brain code here or there for you to try to get around whatever the hooks and hangups are that were roadblocking you from getting the rest you rightfully deserve…
Because that’s the thing. That’s the whole deal, right there, the biggest part of the whole point of this posting: You deserve to get to rest. You deserve to get to take a break. You deserve to take it easy for a while, and turn your mind to things that are pleasant and make you happy and feel joy.
You can take a moment now to think about a few of your own favorite things, with or without singing about raindrops on roses or whiskers on kittens, just taking a deep breath, filling your lungs with fresh air and your mind with fresh thoughts of the things that bring you comfort and make you feel cozy.
Now, as you keep reading and you keep focusing, you will keep relaxing and let yourself lose the distractions of your busy day, because you know that no matter how much you try to get done in one day, there will be other things to do tomorrow, and to get them done, you’ll need to have gotten some rest and the best of the best when it comes to proper rest is a good night’s sleep.
I know you already know that, you know that you already know that, and I know that you know that I know we both know that, which is why you probably decided to read this, and is the same reason I decided to write this, so since we’re on the same page and you’re probably more than ready to keep reading and start the actual trancing already, iet’s just go ahead and give you a quick count for the sake of the formalities so you can get fully and completely into TRANCE.
On the count of 10, you will be completely and totally in TRANCE.
0, 1, 2, 3, following after me.
4, 5, 6, focusing and reading.
7, 8, feeling more happy as you let your mind empty.
9, Finding that you are already in a TRANCE and might have been for a while, and just going deeper now as you wait for that last number.
Keep your mind on my words, keep your eyes reading, keep your fingers scrolling, whatever you need to do to just focus on that feeling that is not quite fully sleep, but is similar to it in a sort of sideways sense, and that makes sense because I told you from the start that this was written to help you work on getting better SLEEP.
10, SLEEP. SLEEP. SLEEP. Sinking down even more deep into that comfortable similar feeling that you were looking for when you started reading, so that soon you can find that other feeling that is next to it and get better rest, hopefully for the rest of your life.
Now, in order to give you better sleep, let’s find you a perfect place to rest. A bedroom in your brain, with the perfect bed, and a lovely little nightstand, and all the warmest, comfiest covers.
In your mind, there are many doors. There are doors that lead to memories, and doors that lead to dreams, and doors that lead to future plans and wants and goals. Surely, behind one of these doors there must be that bedroom with the perfect bed that you just imagined. One of these doors leads to that bedroom. On the count of 3, you will find yourself standing in front of it. Make sure to make a note of it in your mind, and remember what it looks like, so you can find your way back on your own next time, and it will be easy to come back whenever you want.
Whenever you need some sleep, you can find your way back here with the phrase "SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ". Whenever you say SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ or are told that trigger by someone you have decided to share it with and trust to help you when you need more SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ, you will find yourself at the door to the bedroom, ready to get some absolutely splendid rest. Deep and peaceful, powerful slumber.
1, searching for the proper door, 2, feeling like you are getting closer to it more and more, finding your way to the perfect bedroom and the perfect rest that you can get in that perfect bed, and 3. SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
When you lay in that bed, you will feel as if 5 minutes becomes several hours. A full night's sleep in this wonderful bed will feel like catching up on a week's worth of proper rest. Sleeping in this bed regularly should help your sleep patterns and routine, and will always make you feel so spectacularly refreshed.
SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
You can find the bedroom now, and it will always be there where you can find it again. It is the perfect temperature, the perfect number of blankets, the perfect softness to firmness of the mattress, just for you. The perfect bed, and as such you can get the perfect sleep. So, whenever you need some extra rest, even just a quick nap, you can come back here, and get some
SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
Now, of course, sometimes there will be interruptions in the night, be that needing the bathroom, or some noise happening, or just getting up for a drink of water, or of course the worst case: nightmares. For most of them the answer is the same and is very simple, you can simply use the same SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ trigger, to take your brain back to the same blissful bedroom in your imagination, and head back to bed after you have dealt with whatever it was that needed doing.
As to the nightmares though, well, whatever they may be, whenever they may come up, and however real it seems to feel, I would like you to try these 3 things to try to re-ground yourself in the actual reality you are used to living in that was briefly interrupted by whatever that was.
1, take 10 intentional breaths, with slowing down, breathing deeper, focusing on your physical body and current place, and assessing that you are still safe.
2, while you do, since that will take about a minute, you may want to go ahead and get some water, or use the bathroom, anything that involves physically getting out of bed for just a little bit, so that your body is able to reset as well as your brain.
3, then you can return to bed, reuse the trigger, and try to get back to some proper SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
Of course, there should be no nightmares when you sleep in this perfect bed from your imagination, but some other stuff sometimes comes from the imagination and the subconscious as well, so let’s take a moment now to find another door, nearby, somewhere that those things come out of, and we’re going to see if we can’t help keep it from opening without your blessing.
Picture a plank, a simple piece of wood, could be used to make a table or a shelf or a different door, but for this moment we’ll use it to block the door that the nastier things have been using to bother you and interrupt getting proper rest. See that there are already braces where it can be fitted to serve as a sturdy lock and barricade your mind so that when it is time to rest you can choose to make it more uninterrupted.
Picture a key. It can be as intricate and complicated or as simple and small as you like, any key will work, because every door in your mind has the ability to be locked by your mind’s master key. Feel yourself put the key to the lock and bolt it, so that the nightmare door does not open again for this night.
Picture that scene in so many movies where a security system comes online: turrets spinning up, red laser sights, the sound of weapons preparing to turn some intruder into a fine powder. Feel it in your mind as that security system is installed and everything is locked and loaded to keep that door from letting out anything that is at all a danger to you while you get your well-deserved rest.
There may be things that knock on that door or try to slip underneath it, and troubles may still interrupt your rest now and again, unfortunately, but from now on, when you think to yourself “SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ” your mind should also subconsciously know that the key has been put in the bedside table, the door has been locked and barred, and the way to the bedroom is protected.
Just as your own mind can sometimes make the nightmares that make sleeping more difficult, or get caught up with one distraction or another with the busy brain buzzing all about, it can also be what provides you the perfect answers to those troubles, if it just has the right framework to be able to put the puzzle together, you’ll feel the pieces start to fall into place and should be more and more able to get better and better SLEEP.
Breathing deeply, relaxing completely, feeling so ready to get more, better, easier, proper SLEEP.
Remembering all the tools you have been given now, focusing on preparing to change from this similar feeling of TRANCE to shift over to just getting good sleep.
On the count of 5, your TRANCE will end, and you will feel ready to use the trigger on your own when you are ready to get some SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ.
1, Relaxing, and resting, but knowing that real sleep will help you feel even better soon.
2, Focusing on how much you are looking forward to getting a good night’s SLEEP.
3, Remembering the way back to that lovely, perfect bedroom in your brain, and how wonderful it is to enjoy your SLEEPYTIME, ZZZ, and getting so cozy.
4, Feeling so fabulous as you return to your usual, normal waking self, but not too awake, so you can get back to getting proper sleep presently.
And 5, AWAKE at your own pace, and with no need to hurry, just back to normal, if maybe a little sleepy.
A glass of water may be a good idea, and other than that, I’ll keep the ending short, so you can get back to that bedroom and some more well-earned rest.
….……………….
I have had a few times in my life when I was able to turn a nightmare into a lucid dream instead, and if I knew enough about how to try to suggest that to the general public, I would have included that in the script, but sadly I do not. I do recommend that if you have read this, you may want to research that, as it might help you with those night-time troubles, in some form or fashion.
Other than that, less screentime before bed, having some kind of sleepmask, and maybe you could install an app on your phone to be a blue-light filteturn on nightmode on everything.
That is all of the stuff that I have used to improve my sleeping habits. I also tend to turn on youtube for one of those 10-hours of various genres of music type of videos, so I can see how much sleep I got when I wake up, or audiobooks are also always a good option for me as well.
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed a lovely trance, and if you have any other suggestions or techniques that might help others who would read this type of script, I hope you’ll share them in the comments. ‘Til next time, Sleep well, and I hope it is better because of the bedroom in your brain.
2024.06.08 11:32 Bubblegum9992 Aldi i loved you, why is it so difficult for you to help me with an issue with aldimobile? What mobile provider have you had the least issues with? (NSW)
TW: Anxiety, depression, (my?) stupidity, bad luck and creepy encounter with a person?
I (32F) dunno if he'll see this but I'm sorry to the poor guy who just heard my stupid breakdown on the phone about a stupid catch-22 I've been caught in today with ALDImobile. I've just had an absolute shit cunt of a time and this stupid situation just really hit me hard and my mental health is just absolutely stuffed
My phone was stolen on Thursday afternoon, was having stupid mental health issues with my depression and I tried that " go for a mental health walk". Someone stole it during the walk, I don't know how it was inside my bag, zipped up, the next minute I realised my handbag was unzipped, thought it fell out but no sign on it. bad timing universe.
I'm devastated about losing all my photos, videos, the last 2 weeks of photo evidence of my stupid CRPS worker's comp injury, my e-scripts for medication that I need to get refilled, all my contacts for the past 10 years some of which I don't have any other way to share a new number to, etc etc. lots of angry crying and frustrations over losing something, at least I found my medicare card on the road.
Yesterday, I Went to my local police station to report my phone as stolen, buzzed the bell, and waited about 15 minutes with some guy as old as my dad trying to talk to me but all I could make out was mumbles, I just acknowledged he talked by saying "much warmer in here outta the rain aye mate?" to do that polite chitchat that older people seem to request when we are in public, its fine, we are just waiting in the police station lobby for some cop to show up at the desk, old man kept talking but I couldn't understand anything so I just turned back towards the desk and then an officer appeared. He took my report while this old guy stood about a metre away still mumbling things.
The Report was made, I exited the police station and headed to my car, realized the old man was following behind me still mumbling to me, walking in the same direction as my car, on a phone call that was on the home screen? Okay, panic alert, I think I quickly gotta try to loop back to the police station as I do not want to reach my car at the same point as this random old man, I'll just go back inside and call out to the officer and make up a stupid reason to talk to him for a moment.
Stupid dislocating kneecap issue stopping me from being fast, as he's heading towards me I decide okay, this isn't what I think it is. I am overreacting. He's just a person on the phone, I'm just being nervous and worrying for no reason. I'll do a firm polite chitchat of how I've had a bad day and just want to go home, have a good day. bye. etc, literally 10 seconds, polite but firm boundary setting of this is the end of our interaction sir bye. rushed to the car, praying to any bloody god that I don't slip in the rain and my kneecap takes me out during my stupid anxiety filled panic attack.
I went home. Went on FB to tell my relatives about the phone and this old man is MESSAGING ME ON FACEBOOK. Um okay... he's just trying to help me get my phone back by trying to tell me to turn the location on, something that wasn't working that I already tried using Googles find my device. okay. I'm like I'll respond then just casually never respond to him ever again. Suddenly he was sending super inappropriate messages about my body, I was just like "Nope we ain't doing this" and went to block him, but he responded "I know" before I could click the block button. made me feel sick in my stomach.
I had been crying most of the night, currently recovering from the flu and a nerve block procedure, painful nerve pain flare up the night before, hair full of knots tied back, track pants that I had been wearing for 2 days, an old oversized jumped, I literally had sleep crust still in my eyes i had just gotten out of bed and taken my child to school then went straight to the police station. What about me said please send me, a stranger old enough to be your daughter weird messages about my body?
I was so angry but then I realised, He was there when I made the police report, he knows my name, he knows my address, he found me on Facebook to send me these messages but I blocked him. Stupid anxiety chewing up my brain all night, barely any sleep, stupid anxiety thoughts telling me there is a risk of him showing up at my house as it is nearby the police station, shit. Doors always stay locked so nothing to worry about right? Just be more observant of your surroundings.
Now today Since I got paid I went to get a replacement SIM card from ALDImobile, secretly feeling like bloody Spongebob running to the dumpster behind the crusty crab at night from the graveyard shift episode on the inside. Busy morning rush, high stress but I can do this, just get the stupid sim card and milk. waited in line to check out but the lines weren't moving so I went to the brand new self-serve checkout, quickly went home to activate the sim.
Problem number 1, there was no activation code on my receipt so I had to go back to Aldi and ask can I have the code, please. The Aldi workers were confused as to how I was able to purchase the sim through the self serve as it shouldn't be allowed, iunno man they are your machines and it just went through, but the manager was a champ and replaced the sim for me so i could get the activation code printed out. went home and continued the activating process
Problem number 2, I was not able to transfer my previous number to the new sim card without using the code SMS'd TO THE STOLEN PHONE. the thief aint gonna help Aldi.
I called aldimobile and the first lady completely just could not understand English enough for us to be able to properly communicate, she couldn't understand what I was asking and actually kept saying I was currently calling from my previous number when I had tried to activate the sim card to make this call. I was like shit maybe I'm the idiot and she's right, I said if that is true i do apologize for being a stupid idiot, i called someone until they answered to get a confirmation. I have a new number.
Called ALDImobile again to request I get my old number back, both numbers are on my account, i have passed security questions but no my number cannot be transferred to this new sim card, i will have to purchase a third sim card, easy right? easy if you haven't already chosen to go without a food item this week to get the 2nd sim card. There are no payphones near me that are still in working order and i dont exactly feel comfortable with asking random people if I can use their phone to call aldi mobile at this point due to creepy old man.
Stupid catch-22 of needing an activated sim card to call to let Aldi know they have a fault in their system of it sending an SMS to a stolen phone being the only option to do a number transfer, today i should have just gone with a different provider to begin with but i totally didn't expect that stupid fuck around of a week, I just need my number back. I'm sad and tired.
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I (32F) dunno if he'll see this but I'm sorry to the poor guy who just heard my stupid breakdown on the phone about a stupid catch-22 I've been caught in today with ALDImobile. I've just had an absolute shit cunt of a time and this stupid situation just really hit me hard and my mental health is just absolutely stuffed
My phone was stolen on Thursday afternoon, was having stupid mental health issues with my depression and I tried that " go for a mental health walk". Someone stole it during the walk, I don't know how it was inside my bag, zipped up, the next minute I realised my handbag was unzipped, thought it fell out but no sign on it. bad timing universe.
I'm devastated about losing all my photos, videos, the last 2 weeks of photo evidence of my stupid CRPS worker's comp injury, my e-scripts for medication that I need to get refilled, all my contacts for the past 10 years some of which I don't have any other way to share a new number to, etc etc. lots of angry crying and frustrations over losing something, at least I found my medicare card on the road.
Yesterday, I Went to my local police station to report my phone as stolen, buzzed the bell, and waited about 15 minutes with some guy as old as my dad trying to talk to me but all I could make out was mumbles, I just acknowledged he talked by saying "much warmer in here outta the rain aye mate?" to do that polite chitchat that older people seem to request when we are in public, its fine, we are just waiting in the police station lobby for some cop to show up at the desk, old man kept talking but I couldn't understand anything so I just turned back towards the desk and then an officer appeared. He took my report while this old guy stood about a metre away still mumbling things.
The Report was made, I exited the police station and headed to my car, realized the old man was following behind me still mumbling to me, walking in the same direction as my car, on a phone call that was on the home screen? Okay, panic alert, I think I quickly gotta try to loop back to the police station as I do not want to reach my car at the same point as this random old man, I'll just go back inside and call out to the officer and make up a stupid reason to talk to him for a moment.
Stupid dislocating kneecap issue stopping me from being fast, as he's heading towards me I decide okay, this isn't what I think it is. I am overreacting. He's just a person on the phone, I'm just being nervous and worrying for no reason. I'll do a firm polite chitchat of how I've had a bad day and just want to go home, have a good day. bye. etc, literally 10 seconds, polite but firm boundary setting of this is the end of our interaction sir bye. rushed to the car, praying to any bloody god that I don't slip in the rain and my kneecap takes me out during my stupid anxiety filled panic attack.
I went home. Went on FB to tell my relatives about the phone and this old man is MESSAGING ME ON FACEBOOK. Um okay... he's just trying to help me get my phone back by trying to tell me to turn the location on, something that wasn't working that I already tried using Googles find my device. okay. I'm like I'll respond then just casually never respond to him ever again. Suddenly he was sending super inappropriate messages about my body, I was just like "Nope we ain't doing this" and went to block him, but he responded "I know" before I could click the block button. made me feel sick in my stomach.
I had been crying most of the night, currently recovering from the flu and a nerve block procedure, painful nerve pain flare up the night before, hair full of knots tied back, track pants that I had been wearing for 2 days, an old oversized jumped, I literally had sleep crust still in my eyes i had just gotten out of bed and taken my child to school then went straight to the police station. What about me said please send me, a stranger old enough to be your daughter weird messages about my body?
I was so angry but then I realised, He was there when I made the police report, he knows my name, he knows my address, he found me on Facebook to send me these messages but I blocked him. Stupid anxiety chewing up my brain all night, barely any sleep, stupid anxiety thoughts telling me there is a risk of him showing up at my house as it is nearby the police station, shit. Doors always stay locked so nothing to worry about right? Just be more observant of your surroundings.
Now today Since I got paid I went to get a replacement SIM card from ALDImobile, secretly feeling like bloody Spongebob running to the dumpster behind the crusty crab at night from the graveyard shift episode on the inside. Busy morning rush, high stress but I can do this, just get the stupid sim card and milk. waited in line to check out but the lines weren't moving so I went to the brand new self-serve checkout, quickly went home to activate the sim.
Problem number 1, there was no activation code on my receipt so I had to go back to Aldi and ask can I have the code, please. The Aldi workers were confused as to how I was able to purchase the sim through the self serve as it shouldn't be allowed, iunno man they are your machines and it just went through, but the manager was a champ and replaced the sim for me so i could get the activation code printed out. went home and continued the activating process
Problem number 2, I was not able to transfer my previous number to the new sim card without using the code SMS'd TO THE STOLEN PHONE. the thief aint gonna help Aldi.
I called aldimobile and the first lady completely just could not understand English enough for us to be able to properly communicate, she couldn't understand what I was asking and actually kept saying I was currently calling from my previous number when I had tried to activate the sim card to make this call. I was like shit maybe I'm the idiot and she's right, I said if that is true i do apologize for being a stupid idiot, i called someone until they answered to get a confirmation. I have a new number.
Called ALDImobile again to request I get my old number back, both numbers are on my account, i have passed security questions but no my number cannot be transferred to this new sim card, i will have to purchase a third sim card, easy right? easy if you haven't already chosen to go without a food item this week to get the 2nd sim card. There are no payphones near me that are still in working order and i dont exactly feel comfortable with asking random people if I can use their phone to call aldi mobile at this point due to creepy old man.
Stupid catch-22 of needing an activated sim card to call to let Aldi know they have a fault in their system of it sending an SMS to a stolen phone being the only option to do a number transfer, today i should have just gone with a different provider to begin with but i totally didn't expect that stupid fuck around of a week, I just need my number back. I'm sad and tired.
2024.06.08 10:40 mashpotato1029 AITA for dropping my best friend and blocking her on everything?
I (16F) recently cut off my best friend (18F) for a variety of reasons. Since I dropped out of high school we’d been spending a lot of time together, and I was staying at her place for days in a row and barely spending any time at home. At first her family made me feel so welcome in their home and I felt comfortable being around them, and they even offered for me to move in with them because my parents are moving to Italy soon and they wanted me to stay in America so I could go back to school & graduate. Things started to take a turn when getting emancipated came up in conversation and my best friend told me I could just lie to the court and tell them that my mom’s an alcoholic (she hardly ever drinks) and my dad’s always high (he smokes medical marijuana) so it could help my case. I never expressed to her how uncomfortable that made me feel but I told her that I wouldn’t do that to my parents because that could probably get my younger brother taken away from them too if they feel it’s not a safe environment for a child. I made it clear to her that I will not be doing that. The second thing that threw me off was when she took responsibility to drive me to work even though I told her I could just go home and have my parents take me, she insisted on it. I explained to her that I always go to the Fry’s near my job because there’s a Starbucks inside and I like to grab a drink before my shift, and she agreed that she could take me there at 3:30 because my shift starts at 4. The only thing that was out of my routine this time was that I was going to meet up with a guy I really liked and we planned to get Starbucks together and hang out for a little bit just before I had to go to work, and my mom knew about this. My best friend did not like it AT ALL. Typically I go into Fry’s by myself but she insists that she goes in with me because she’s not gonna let me meet up with some guy, so she’s helicoptering me around the store and acting like I’m some bad ass toddler that needs their hand held everywhere. So after I buy a few snacks and get my drink, she drives me to work (even though it’s like a 30 second walking distance….) and about 10 mins I get a text from her telling me not to be mad at her because she was reading my texts and saw me texting with him, and she didn’t feel it was safe for me to be meeting up with a guy, and that as my best friend she was only looking out for my safety. I explained to her that I knew the guy from school before I dropped out and that he’s not some creepy old man, and that it’s not her place to be dictating who I can and can’t meet up with. She told me it was way too early to be meeting up with him because we weren’t even in a talking stage yet, and I told her that it was just convenient because the places we work are right next to each other and we both had shifts at 4:00 so we agreed to get Starbucks together. Nothing more than that. That really pissed me off. The third time she got on my nerves was when a $2 butterfly hair clip of hers went missing after I wore it and she accused me several times for 2 whole weeks of stealing it. She never directly accused me but she’d constantly bring it up and ask me what I did with it and just assume I knew where it went. I told her every single time she asked me that I put it on her dresser in her room after I was done wearing it and I told her if it was that big of a deal that I’d just buy her a new one. Even after telling her to look around her room or to ask her little sister she still insisted that I lost it or accidentally took it home even after I told her I can literally remember setting it on her dresser after I took it out of my hair. But of course, her little sister had it lmao… But my final straw was when she got mad at me for leaving my trash in a plastic bag next to her tiny overflowed trash can, after I left her house she sent me a whole entire paragraph lecturing me about leaving my trash “all over her room”?? I was confused and told her that I left everything in a plastic bag because it was literally overflowing and that if she was really that mad about it then she should probably take out her damn trash so you can actually put stuff in there. Then she proceeded to complain about being tired 24/7 and that she doesn’t have the energy to clean..? After that I started distancing myself from her and spending less time with her. But a couple weeks after all of that happened she invited me to hang out and go shopping, then I ended up spending the night at her house because we were already out pretty late, but I made it clear to her that I’m going to go home the next day and I’m not gonna spend several days at her house. My parents were gonna pick me up & they wanted me to be at home. So it’s the next day and my parents pick me up and I’m probably 5 minutes down the road before I get a text from her being mad at me because I wasn’t at her house even for a full 24 hours. I straight up told her I wasn’t going to argue with my parents because they’re in charge of where I am so if they want me to go home then I’m going home. I probably should have turned her down but I made the decision of going to her cousins graduation after she invited me, and it ended late so she told me I could just spend the night at her house. But since I had work the next day I told her I was gonna leave first thing in the morning and she said that was fine. So morning rolls around and I get picked up super early because her sister had some event going on at her school and I said I wasn’t gonna be able to make it because I had to get ready for work, and she got upset with me and told me that her sister really wanted me to go. I apologized and told her that if I knew about it sooner I would’ve called off but since it was last minute there’s nothing I could do. She then started to guilt trip me and told me it seems like I’m not trying to stay at her house for long anymore. At that point I started to get really annoyed so I ignored her texts for the whole day because I didn’t feel like going back and forth with her. Later that day she came into my job trying to get me in trouble and starting stuff for no reason and trying to cause drama by telling my coworker I was talking crap about her. I tried to be as calm as I could and I told her that I didn’t feel like talking to her and asked her to please leave me alone because what she’s doing is kind of obsessive, just because I didn’t answer her texts doesn’t give her a reason to come in and start bullshitting. She just says okay and as she’s walking out the door she yells at me saying I’m not welcome in her house anymore (like I even care lmfao) and says she’s going to my parents house to “rat me out”?? After that she started to text me more asking what tf wrong with me and asking me what she did for me to ignore her. I said I wasn’t in the mood to argue with her, and she started to get upset and asked why I wanna ruin our friendship and why I was doing that to her. She then went on saying I don’t care about our friendship and that it’s showing a lot about me, I just told her to believe what she wants and that I’m not even going to make the effort to keep being friends with her after she just pulled up to my job to start shit. I blocked her on everything, then the next morning she requested $100 from me on cash app and texted me off a different number asking if I’m gonna keep being petty towards her or if we’re gonna be civil. I just ignored it but she’s making me out to be the bad guy in this situation and it’s making me question if there’s anything I could’ve done differently. I’ve never handled a situation like this before so I’m not sure if the way I went about it was mature or not. AITA?
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2024.06.08 06:03 uncle_rafiki PASSED the beast - average US DO student with average NBME's :)
Skip to the bottom for the TL;DR Summary Recap... or if you care to go along for the ride with the long version, buckle up:
Tested STEP on 5/20 and just got my results two days ago and I'm still feeling like I'm floating. I took STEP first and then did COMLEX Level 1 with two days between just cramming OPP and it was intense but worked out well. I'm still waiting for my Level 1 results but am feeling pretty confident since I got the P for STEP.
I am a pretty average DO student... haven't honored at all in preclinical but I definitely kept respectable grades in the A & B range, a rare C here or there. I am super involved in extracurriculars and leadership and prioritize my physical and mental health above grades. I would say my US DO school has an okay curriculum... some professors have been spot on about covering what we need to know for boards while others have been really awful about it, and our school gives us a very short dedicated so I was pretty stressed out leading up to these exams.
I started TrueLearn practice questions required by my school starting in August of last year, did a mock half exam over Winter Break, another over Spring Break, and a final one the last week of April. We were required to do weekly TrueLearn questions until late April when classes ended and they steadily increased from 10 per week to 40 per week.
I feel like TrueLearn has awful explanations and sucks to learn from... I much preferred UWorld and bought the version that also had OPP questions added in. I started doing 30 UWorld questions a day on top of my assigned TrueLearn questions over Spring Break the second week of March. My goal had been to start in January but it took me until Spring Break to figure out how to balance still being in classes with Board Review. Figuring out that balance is tricky so be kind to yourself when you are figuring it out in your own studying journey. I did ~280 practice questions over Spring Break and that got me into a rhythm that allowed me to start prioritizing board review over classes because the count down to STEP & Level began to put the fear of god in me.
I relied heavily on Pathoma & Dirty Medicine and used them to get through the rest of the curriculum I was learning while also reviewing systems we'd already covered on those platforms. I also really liked the First Aid Clinical Patterns book that I used in addition to the regular FA book. It was great for helping me delineate between differentials that I'd struggled with when first learning in systems. I am NOT an anki person... I freaking hate it. I need a "big picture" type context for information to stick so I am one of those weirdos who passed STEP without anki... so everyone out there who isn't a fan, IT'S POSSIBLE!
In mid April, I took the first UWorld Assessment and I bumped up my UWorld questions to 80 per day. I got a 51% on the UWSA 1 and freaked out about failing. On top of my 80 questions per day, I started taking every Saturday from 8a-12p to do content review on a different system or a concept that I felt like I kept missing on my practice questions.
Our school goes late with in-person responsibilities and classes, so I did not start dedicated until the last week of April. I technically only had 3 weeks of full-on dedicated before my 5/20 test date and I was FREAKING OUT. I upped my UWorld questions to 120 per day and did the UWorld Assessment 2 the weekend I finished classes. This time, I got a 67% and breathed a sigh of relief that the extra practice questions and content review was paying off.
I did 120 practice questions a day after that while maintaining a healthy diet and exercise routine. Questions, exercise, & adequate sleep and nutrition became my top priorities. I was determined to optimize my productivity without burning myself out before the exam.
1.5 weeks out from the exam I switched gears and started doing NBME's twice per week. I started with Form 28 - 66%, reviewed content all day the next day, then did 120 UWorld practice questions on the days between that and Form 29 - 66%. 1 week out, I did Form 30 and felt the worst about this one, but ended up with a 65%. All 3 of those predicted a pass rate of 97% on the real thing. I was frustrated I wasn't really budging from the mid-60s range though, because you crazies on here are always talking about breaking 70% and that mid-60's on NBME's 'may not be enough.' After my Form 30 score, I abandoned UWorld practice questions on my days in between and went into HEAVY content review on the concepts that I noticed I was continually missing. Each UWorld Assessment & NBME I took a running list of the concepts I got wrong so that I could reference it on my content review days and check them off like a check list. I'd consolidate that content after reviewing it into something easily reviewable that I could quiz myself on for a spaced repetition effect for those concepts.
This seemed to pay off because when I took Form 31 the Wednesday before my exam, I got a 71% with a 99% chance of passing the real thing and breathed a sigh of relief. I was feeling a little burnt by this point so I took two days to review the content from that form over the next two days... then I took the free120 but kinda messed it up. What I mean by that is I tried to simulate "fatigue" by reviewing content all day before I took it and started it at 7pm at night... I ended up getting a 60% on the free120 three days before I took the exam and tried not to shit my pants about it. I chalked it up to the fact that I had simulated "fatigue" a little too intensely and should have taken it fresh in the morning before my content review. I wondered about putting off the exam but felt like it was a now or never situation for me. My school was making us do more bullshit to prep for clerkship the week after my scheduled exam so I felt boxed into a corner and also felt like I wouldn't be able to mentally and physically handle the stress and studying that would go along with extending my date.
I spent the last two days before the exam doing passive learning by watching Dirty Medicine on any concept that I felt fairly weak on and I made an "oh shit" panic note sheet that had all the high yield details of concepts that I found myself continually forgetting... it consisted mainly of histology images of various diseases, the cytokines/interleukins mentioned in Pathoma Ch 2, screenshots of Dirty Medicine's mnemonics for the HIV & Diabetes drugs, mnemonics for the hereditary dyslipidemias and apolipoproteins, stroke syndromes, Lysosomal Storage diseases, Glycogen Storage Diseases... it was basically a hodge podge of the things I felt like always melted together in my brain and would be useful to review the morning on the exam to calm my nerves.
It was hard to get to sleep the night before, but I did my best, tossed and turned for an hour or two, and then got to sleep. Woke up right at the strike of my alarm from sheer anxiety... forced a good breakfast down and packed a lunchbox to the brim with nutritious snacks, lunch, and various tasty beverages like protein shakes or little pre/probiotic teas. I am a caffeine-free psycho so none of that for me. My partner drove me to the testing center and I reviewed my "oh shit" notes one last time.
I was delighted when the first question of my first block was a slam dunk open and shut case that I'd seen at least 3 times on NBME forms 28-31. It really boosted my confidence. I recognized SO many questions as being incredibly similar to the NBME concepts. I would say that the free120 was very representative for the LENGTH of the real-thing questions, but the NBME concepts were repeated heavily on the real-thing more than the actual concepts of the free120. It felt like a melting together of the NBME's, UWorld, & the free120... all combining different aspects of all of them. The stems in the real thing are super clear and give ample info to help you narrow down your diagnosis, but I’d say the great majority of questions are second order or third order and ask for another symptom, an associated condition, the defective enzyme/gene, or the MOA of the treatment. I gotta say I'm pretty proud of myself because almost everything I put on my "oh shit" notes showed up on the actual exam.
My last block was the worst and I prayed it was one of the experimental sets. I barely finished and actually just had to click an random answer that I'm sure I got wrong for the final question of that block. I came out feeling the same way I had on pretty much every NBME and so I had an inkling that I didn't fail but I was also still terrified that I was just gaslighting myself. My partner said that when they picked me up, they felt confident I had passed because of my demeanor, but I am unsure of if I had just numbed myself from taking that long of an exam, LOL.
Anyways, yeah, that was a wild ride. I hope this helps someone else get that P... this is a BEAST of an exam and my heart goes out to all of you who did not get that pass on the first try or have yet to take it. All of your emotions are valid and you are capable, I promise.
TL;DR:
Test Date 5/20/24
-Did weekly TrueLearn questions steadily increasing since August 2023 -TrueLearn mock Exam over Winter Break [first week of January] -Didn't start really cranking it on UWorld until Spring Break in mid-march of 2024 [30Q's per day] -TrueLearn mock Exam over Spring Break [mid-March] -UWSA1 51% in mid-April -UWSA2 67% end of April - bumped UWorld questions to 80 per day -TrueLearn mock exam also at the end of April - 61% -Dedicated began last week of April - bumped UWorld Q's up to 120/day -went thru Pathoma Ch 1-3 and took notes I repeatedly referenced over the next weeks -NBME 28 2 weeks before - 66% [97% chance of passing] -NBME 29 1.5 weeks before - 66% [97% chance of passing] -NBME 30 1 week before - 65% [97% chance of passing] -abandoned 120/day UWorld questions and focused heavily on content review -First Aid, Dirty Medicine, Pathoma, & AMBOSS were my main sources for content review -NBME 31 0.5 weeks before - 71% [99% chance of passing] -free120 2 days before - 60% [i messed this up and took it too late in the day when I wasn't sharp, made a lot of stupid mistakes because of that on questions I should have gotten... don't be me, lol] -final two days: passive review of weak concepts on dirty medicine, dirty medicine ethics, reviewing Pathoma Ch 1-3 notes, and compiling an "oh shit" list of concepts that I always seemed to mix up or jumble in my head -got a good breakfast, decent sleep, packed solid nutrition for the exam, and reviewed my "oh shit" notes the morning of the exam
Best summary advice I can give: -DON'T GIVE UP & DO NOT SACRIFICE YOUR HEALTH. Take a break when you need to. Go on a walk. Go on a run. Go lift weights. Eat nutritious food. You are an entire person beyond this exam. Nurturing your body is what is going to help you think more clearly and sharply. -Allow yourself to do one fun thing a week and don't care about studying [i.e. go to a concert, hang with a friend, do a relaxing craft, go play a game with a friend, etc.] -- if you are lucky and get 8 weeks for dedicated, take a whole damn week for yourself. I wish I could have. -Don't be afraid to take the exam without getting through the full UWorld question bank. I didn't make it through the whole thing and sacrificed that for more focused content review in my problem areas and I feel like that really payed off. -Rely on your support network and don't be afraid to do that. Let your partner, your friends, your family, [whoever it is that's special in your life] help you and support you. Let them cook for you, or drive you to the exam, or do whatever they can to make your life easier. -Pack plenty of snacks and drinks for test day. Take deep breaths. YOU GOT THIS. -Side note: I did this all during my second trimester of pregnancy. So all you med school mammas out there... YOU CAN DO THIS TOO!
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Tested STEP on 5/20 and just got my results two days ago and I'm still feeling like I'm floating. I took STEP first and then did COMLEX Level 1 with two days between just cramming OPP and it was intense but worked out well. I'm still waiting for my Level 1 results but am feeling pretty confident since I got the P for STEP.
I am a pretty average DO student... haven't honored at all in preclinical but I definitely kept respectable grades in the A & B range, a rare C here or there. I am super involved in extracurriculars and leadership and prioritize my physical and mental health above grades. I would say my US DO school has an okay curriculum... some professors have been spot on about covering what we need to know for boards while others have been really awful about it, and our school gives us a very short dedicated so I was pretty stressed out leading up to these exams.
I started TrueLearn practice questions required by my school starting in August of last year, did a mock half exam over Winter Break, another over Spring Break, and a final one the last week of April. We were required to do weekly TrueLearn questions until late April when classes ended and they steadily increased from 10 per week to 40 per week.
I feel like TrueLearn has awful explanations and sucks to learn from... I much preferred UWorld and bought the version that also had OPP questions added in. I started doing 30 UWorld questions a day on top of my assigned TrueLearn questions over Spring Break the second week of March. My goal had been to start in January but it took me until Spring Break to figure out how to balance still being in classes with Board Review. Figuring out that balance is tricky so be kind to yourself when you are figuring it out in your own studying journey. I did ~280 practice questions over Spring Break and that got me into a rhythm that allowed me to start prioritizing board review over classes because the count down to STEP & Level began to put the fear of god in me.
I relied heavily on Pathoma & Dirty Medicine and used them to get through the rest of the curriculum I was learning while also reviewing systems we'd already covered on those platforms. I also really liked the First Aid Clinical Patterns book that I used in addition to the regular FA book. It was great for helping me delineate between differentials that I'd struggled with when first learning in systems. I am NOT an anki person... I freaking hate it. I need a "big picture" type context for information to stick so I am one of those weirdos who passed STEP without anki... so everyone out there who isn't a fan, IT'S POSSIBLE!
In mid April, I took the first UWorld Assessment and I bumped up my UWorld questions to 80 per day. I got a 51% on the UWSA 1 and freaked out about failing. On top of my 80 questions per day, I started taking every Saturday from 8a-12p to do content review on a different system or a concept that I felt like I kept missing on my practice questions.
Our school goes late with in-person responsibilities and classes, so I did not start dedicated until the last week of April. I technically only had 3 weeks of full-on dedicated before my 5/20 test date and I was FREAKING OUT. I upped my UWorld questions to 120 per day and did the UWorld Assessment 2 the weekend I finished classes. This time, I got a 67% and breathed a sigh of relief that the extra practice questions and content review was paying off.
I did 120 practice questions a day after that while maintaining a healthy diet and exercise routine. Questions, exercise, & adequate sleep and nutrition became my top priorities. I was determined to optimize my productivity without burning myself out before the exam.
1.5 weeks out from the exam I switched gears and started doing NBME's twice per week. I started with Form 28 - 66%, reviewed content all day the next day, then did 120 UWorld practice questions on the days between that and Form 29 - 66%. 1 week out, I did Form 30 and felt the worst about this one, but ended up with a 65%. All 3 of those predicted a pass rate of 97% on the real thing. I was frustrated I wasn't really budging from the mid-60s range though, because you crazies on here are always talking about breaking 70% and that mid-60's on NBME's 'may not be enough.' After my Form 30 score, I abandoned UWorld practice questions on my days in between and went into HEAVY content review on the concepts that I noticed I was continually missing. Each UWorld Assessment & NBME I took a running list of the concepts I got wrong so that I could reference it on my content review days and check them off like a check list. I'd consolidate that content after reviewing it into something easily reviewable that I could quiz myself on for a spaced repetition effect for those concepts.
This seemed to pay off because when I took Form 31 the Wednesday before my exam, I got a 71% with a 99% chance of passing the real thing and breathed a sigh of relief. I was feeling a little burnt by this point so I took two days to review the content from that form over the next two days... then I took the free120 but kinda messed it up. What I mean by that is I tried to simulate "fatigue" by reviewing content all day before I took it and started it at 7pm at night... I ended up getting a 60% on the free120 three days before I took the exam and tried not to shit my pants about it. I chalked it up to the fact that I had simulated "fatigue" a little too intensely and should have taken it fresh in the morning before my content review. I wondered about putting off the exam but felt like it was a now or never situation for me. My school was making us do more bullshit to prep for clerkship the week after my scheduled exam so I felt boxed into a corner and also felt like I wouldn't be able to mentally and physically handle the stress and studying that would go along with extending my date.
I spent the last two days before the exam doing passive learning by watching Dirty Medicine on any concept that I felt fairly weak on and I made an "oh shit" panic note sheet that had all the high yield details of concepts that I found myself continually forgetting... it consisted mainly of histology images of various diseases, the cytokines/interleukins mentioned in Pathoma Ch 2, screenshots of Dirty Medicine's mnemonics for the HIV & Diabetes drugs, mnemonics for the hereditary dyslipidemias and apolipoproteins, stroke syndromes, Lysosomal Storage diseases, Glycogen Storage Diseases... it was basically a hodge podge of the things I felt like always melted together in my brain and would be useful to review the morning on the exam to calm my nerves.
It was hard to get to sleep the night before, but I did my best, tossed and turned for an hour or two, and then got to sleep. Woke up right at the strike of my alarm from sheer anxiety... forced a good breakfast down and packed a lunchbox to the brim with nutritious snacks, lunch, and various tasty beverages like protein shakes or little pre/probiotic teas. I am a caffeine-free psycho so none of that for me. My partner drove me to the testing center and I reviewed my "oh shit" notes one last time.
I was delighted when the first question of my first block was a slam dunk open and shut case that I'd seen at least 3 times on NBME forms 28-31. It really boosted my confidence. I recognized SO many questions as being incredibly similar to the NBME concepts. I would say that the free120 was very representative for the LENGTH of the real-thing questions, but the NBME concepts were repeated heavily on the real-thing more than the actual concepts of the free120. It felt like a melting together of the NBME's, UWorld, & the free120... all combining different aspects of all of them. The stems in the real thing are super clear and give ample info to help you narrow down your diagnosis, but I’d say the great majority of questions are second order or third order and ask for another symptom, an associated condition, the defective enzyme/gene, or the MOA of the treatment. I gotta say I'm pretty proud of myself because almost everything I put on my "oh shit" notes showed up on the actual exam.
My last block was the worst and I prayed it was one of the experimental sets. I barely finished and actually just had to click an random answer that I'm sure I got wrong for the final question of that block. I came out feeling the same way I had on pretty much every NBME and so I had an inkling that I didn't fail but I was also still terrified that I was just gaslighting myself. My partner said that when they picked me up, they felt confident I had passed because of my demeanor, but I am unsure of if I had just numbed myself from taking that long of an exam, LOL.
Anyways, yeah, that was a wild ride. I hope this helps someone else get that P... this is a BEAST of an exam and my heart goes out to all of you who did not get that pass on the first try or have yet to take it. All of your emotions are valid and you are capable, I promise.
TL;DR:
Test Date 5/20/24
-Did weekly TrueLearn questions steadily increasing since August 2023 -TrueLearn mock Exam over Winter Break [first week of January] -Didn't start really cranking it on UWorld until Spring Break in mid-march of 2024 [30Q's per day] -TrueLearn mock Exam over Spring Break [mid-March] -UWSA1 51% in mid-April -UWSA2 67% end of April - bumped UWorld questions to 80 per day -TrueLearn mock exam also at the end of April - 61% -Dedicated began last week of April - bumped UWorld Q's up to 120/day -went thru Pathoma Ch 1-3 and took notes I repeatedly referenced over the next weeks -NBME 28 2 weeks before - 66% [97% chance of passing] -NBME 29 1.5 weeks before - 66% [97% chance of passing] -NBME 30 1 week before - 65% [97% chance of passing] -abandoned 120/day UWorld questions and focused heavily on content review -First Aid, Dirty Medicine, Pathoma, & AMBOSS were my main sources for content review -NBME 31 0.5 weeks before - 71% [99% chance of passing] -free120 2 days before - 60% [i messed this up and took it too late in the day when I wasn't sharp, made a lot of stupid mistakes because of that on questions I should have gotten... don't be me, lol] -final two days: passive review of weak concepts on dirty medicine, dirty medicine ethics, reviewing Pathoma Ch 1-3 notes, and compiling an "oh shit" list of concepts that I always seemed to mix up or jumble in my head -got a good breakfast, decent sleep, packed solid nutrition for the exam, and reviewed my "oh shit" notes the morning of the exam
Best summary advice I can give: -DON'T GIVE UP & DO NOT SACRIFICE YOUR HEALTH. Take a break when you need to. Go on a walk. Go on a run. Go lift weights. Eat nutritious food. You are an entire person beyond this exam. Nurturing your body is what is going to help you think more clearly and sharply. -Allow yourself to do one fun thing a week and don't care about studying [i.e. go to a concert, hang with a friend, do a relaxing craft, go play a game with a friend, etc.] -- if you are lucky and get 8 weeks for dedicated, take a whole damn week for yourself. I wish I could have. -Don't be afraid to take the exam without getting through the full UWorld question bank. I didn't make it through the whole thing and sacrificed that for more focused content review in my problem areas and I feel like that really payed off. -Rely on your support network and don't be afraid to do that. Let your partner, your friends, your family, [whoever it is that's special in your life] help you and support you. Let them cook for you, or drive you to the exam, or do whatever they can to make your life easier. -Pack plenty of snacks and drinks for test day. Take deep breaths. YOU GOT THIS. -Side note: I did this all during my second trimester of pregnancy. So all you med school mammas out there... YOU CAN DO THIS TOO!
2024.06.08 01:29 tempmailgenerator Automating Workflow with Power Automate for Email Processing
Streamlining Email Workflows with Power Automate
In today's fast-paced digital environment, managing email efficiently can be a daunting task, especially when it involves processing specific information on a regular basis. Microsoft Power Automate emerges as a powerful tool in this scenario, offering the ability to automate repetitive tasks with ease. One common use case involves reading emails received on a weekly basis, identifying specific information within them, and then acting upon that information—such as sending out a new email based on a condition. This process not only saves valuable time but also increases productivity by focusing on the tasks that matter.The challenge often lies in setting up the automation correctly, particularly when it comes to parsing the content of the emails. For instance, extracting specific data from a table embedded within the email body is a typical stumbling block. This task requires not only recognizing the email with the correct subject but also understanding how to navigate through its content to find the desired information. Once the relevant data is identified, the next step is to automate the sending of an email containing this specific data, thus completing the workflow. The key to success lies in mastering Power Automate's capabilities to customize the workflow to your specific needs.
| Command | Description |
|---|---|
| When a new email arrives (V3) | Triggers the flow when a new email with a specified subject arrives in a designated folder. |
| Get emails (V3) | Retrieves emails that match the specified criteria, such as subject or sender. |
| Condition | Checks for a specific condition or keyword within the email's content. |
| Send an email | Sends an email with specified details, such as subject and body, based on the workflow's logic. |
Enhancing Workflow Automation Through Email Parsing
Email automation using Power Automate represents a significant advancement in managing routine tasks efficiently, particularly for businesses and individuals inundated with high volumes of emails. This technology enables users to automate the process of reading and responding to emails based on specific conditions, thus streamlining operations and improving productivity. Power Automate, a component of Microsoft's Power Platform, offers a robust set of features that allow for the creation of automated workflows between your favorite apps and services. This can result in notifications, synchronization of files, data collection, and much more, without the need for manual intervention. The capability to automate responses to email inquiries not only saves time but also ensures that critical communications are not overlooked.The process of setting up an email automation workflow in Power Automate typically involves defining triggers, conditions, and actions. A trigger might be the receipt of an email with a particular subject line, while conditions could include the presence of specific keywords or phrases within the email's body or attachments. Actions could range from sending an automated response to extracting and storing information in a database. The real power of Power Automate lies in its flexibility and the ability to integrate with a wide range of services, including but not limited to Office 365, SharePoint, and even third-party applications like Twitter or Dropbox. This versatility makes it an invaluable tool for anyone looking to automate their email-related tasks, thereby freeing up time to focus on more strategic activities.
Initializing Email Workflow in Power Automate
Power Automate Flow ConfigurationTrigger: When a new email arrives (V3) Action: Subject Filter - "Your Email Subject" Action: Folder - "Inbox"
Extracting Data from Email
Power Automate Flow StepsAction: Get emails (V3) Condition: If email contains "Keyword" Yes: Extract specific row from the table No: End of the flow
Sending Conditional Email
Automated Email Sending ProcessAction: Condition - Check for "Keyword" in extracted data If yes: Action: Send an email Subject: "Relevant Subject" Body: Extracted table row If no: End of the flow
Expanding on Email Automation with Power Automate
Email automation through Power Automate is a transformative approach for managing email workflows efficiently, significantly benefiting organizations inundated with constant email communication. By automating the processing of incoming emails, users can ensure timely responses, organize emails more effectively, and extract critical information without manual effort. This automation extends beyond mere email sorting; it includes sophisticated operations like parsing email content for specific keywords, extracting data from attachments, and even triggering other workflows based on the content of an email. Power Automate's integration capabilities mean that these automated workflows can seamlessly connect with a plethora of other services and applications, facilitating a comprehensive automation ecosystem that spans across the entire digital workspace.The advent of email automation with Power Automate marks a pivotal shift in how businesses handle their communications, offering a pathway to increased productivity and operational efficiency. By setting up custom triggers, actions, and conditions, Power Automate enables users to craft personalized email management systems that work autonomously, reducing the need for manual intervention and allowing employees to focus on more value-added activities. This level of automation not only enhances response times to critical communications but also establishes a more organized and manageable email system, ultimately contributing to better workflow management and a more streamlined operational framework.
Common Questions on Power Automate Email Automation
- Question: Can Power Automate handle emails from different providers?
- Answer: Yes, Power Automate can integrate with various email services, including Outlook, Gmail, and others through connectors.
- Question: Is it possible to automate emails based on attachments?
- Answer: Absolutely, Power Automate allows you to create conditions based on the presence of attachments in emails.
- Question: Can I use Power Automate to extract data from email content?
- Answer: Yes, Power Automate can be configured to parse and extract specific information from the body of an email.
- Question: How does Power Automate ensure that automated responses are sent only when necessary?
- Answer: By setting up precise triggers and conditions, Power Automate ensures that actions, such as sending responses, only occur under defined circumstances.
- Question: Can Power Automate workflows integrate with other Microsoft services?
- Answer: Yes, one of Power Automate's strengths is its deep integration with Microsoft services like Office 365, SharePoint, and Teams, among others.
- Question: Is coding knowledge required to use Power Automate?
- Answer: No, Power Automate is designed with a user-friendly interface that allows users to create workflows without any coding experience.
- Question: Can Power Automate actions be triggered by email content other than the subject line?
- Answer: Yes, triggers can be based on content within the email's body or specific patterns and keywords.
- Question: How secure is using Power Automate for email automation?
- Answer: Power Automate adheres to Microsoft's stringent security protocols, ensuring that your data and automated processes are secure.
- Question: Can Power Automate be used to automate emails for a team or department?
- Answer: Yes, workflows can be designed to manage emails for groups, facilitating collaboration and communication within teams.
- Question: Are there limitations on the number of emails Power Automate can process?
- Answer: While Power Automate can handle a large volume of emails, there may be limitations based on the plan you are using, so it's important to consult the specific service limits.
Empowering Efficiency with Power Automate
In the realm of digital communication, efficiency and productivity are paramount. Power Automate stands out as a critical tool in achieving this, by simplifying the process of managing emails through automation. This technology not only streamlines the workflow but also ensures that responses are timely and relevant, leveraging conditions and triggers to act on specific email content. The ability to integrate with a myriad of services further enhances its utility, making it a versatile choice for both individuals and businesses. Ultimately, Power Automate embodies the next step in the evolution of email management, offering a sophisticated yet user-friendly approach to navigating the complexities of digital communication. By automating routine tasks, it frees up valuable time and resources, allowing users to focus on more strategic activities that drive forward progress and innovation.https://www.tempmail.us.com/en/automate/automating-workflow-with-power-automate-for-email-processing
2024.06.08 01:08 SomethingCra2y Strength based programming questions
Hey guys. I'm a newer CPT (about a year in the field so far) but I have a couple questions about strength programming. I talked with another PT and would like to confirm/clarify I few things. Overall goal is strength in the 3 powerlifting lifts.
Current split without going into too much detail is a full body split, 4 days/week, with emphasis on the 3 lifts. Every day has a main lift, secondary lift, then accessories for the main lift. Looks something like this.
Day 1
-Flat bench 3x5 -Squat variation 3x10 -2-3 accessories for bench, around 3x10
Day 2
-Deadlift 3x5 -Bench or press variation 3x10 -2-3 deadlift accessories
Day 3
-Squat 3x5 -Bench or press variation 3x10 -2-3 Squat accessories
Day 4
-Bench 3x5 -3-4 total exercises, deadlift, squat, and/bench accessories
First, I was told my bench work is a bit high. There's a total of 12 sets of just bench and about 3-4 sets of accessory work, totaling 16 sets. Personally, my recovery seems great and progress is coming faster then normal for me.
Second, told back work is lacking and that I should start considering back work as bench accessories. 3 sets of dead's + 2 sets of vertical pulling and 2 sets of horizontal pulling for a total of 9. Should I up this and cut bench back?
Third, barbells vs. dumbbells. I've been training mostly barbell for the last year. Thinking of switch to dumbbells for bench simply to change it up. How much carry over should I expect? I'm not competitive in the PL scene but I do want to continue to progress relatively well.
And fourth, the sets and reps here aren't consistent across all weeks. For example, the main lift might progress like this.
Wk1, 5x5, RPE 7. Wk2, 4x4, RPE 8. Wk3, 3x3, RPE 9. Wk4, 2x2, RPE 10. Repeat. Or something similar. Now, although I don't train my clients this way, I enjoy this style and learned it from other lifters. I get judging based off RPE isn't always accurate but I was told to just keep reps and sets the same during a block to better track progression.
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Current split without going into too much detail is a full body split, 4 days/week, with emphasis on the 3 lifts. Every day has a main lift, secondary lift, then accessories for the main lift. Looks something like this.
Day 1
-Flat bench 3x5 -Squat variation 3x10 -2-3 accessories for bench, around 3x10
Day 2
-Deadlift 3x5 -Bench or press variation 3x10 -2-3 deadlift accessories
Day 3
-Squat 3x5 -Bench or press variation 3x10 -2-3 Squat accessories
Day 4
-Bench 3x5 -3-4 total exercises, deadlift, squat, and/bench accessories
First, I was told my bench work is a bit high. There's a total of 12 sets of just bench and about 3-4 sets of accessory work, totaling 16 sets. Personally, my recovery seems great and progress is coming faster then normal for me.
Second, told back work is lacking and that I should start considering back work as bench accessories. 3 sets of dead's + 2 sets of vertical pulling and 2 sets of horizontal pulling for a total of 9. Should I up this and cut bench back?
Third, barbells vs. dumbbells. I've been training mostly barbell for the last year. Thinking of switch to dumbbells for bench simply to change it up. How much carry over should I expect? I'm not competitive in the PL scene but I do want to continue to progress relatively well.
And fourth, the sets and reps here aren't consistent across all weeks. For example, the main lift might progress like this.
Wk1, 5x5, RPE 7. Wk2, 4x4, RPE 8. Wk3, 3x3, RPE 9. Wk4, 2x2, RPE 10. Repeat. Or something similar. Now, although I don't train my clients this way, I enjoy this style and learned it from other lifters. I get judging based off RPE isn't always accurate but I was told to just keep reps and sets the same during a block to better track progression.
2024.06.08 00:59 ErikCoolness O.MG/Malicious Cables - What I Found and How to Protect Your Smart Device
Warning: I am not a technician, programmer, or a cybersecurity expert, I am simply a tech enthusiast who hopes to help people in whatever way possible. So do take my advice with a grain of salt, as what I know may not be 100% true.
Also disclaimer: This post is not to criticize Hak5, O.MG or ridicule their staff, but rather to point out the potential danger posed from anyone who intend to use one of their products for malicious intent. I am sure they mean well, as their products are made to help improve the security of companies and software products.
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It’s a bit of a rare topic to talk about when it comes to cybersecurity, and I think it deserves more attention, especially since hackers are becoming more clever with hardware.
https://youtu.be/mPF9f-PLDPc?si=NG_MZvUZowT6czQz
I came across this YouTube video by Linus Tech Tips where he talks about a special type of cable known as, O.MG Cables. They sound terrifying because they are replica cables of the ones officially sold for iPhones and Android devices. These cables at first glance look normal and exactly like the ones you’d plug into your phone, but are actually hacking devices. Inside the USB end of the cable is a small, compact Wi-Fi connector that uses the Wi-Fi your device is connected to allow remote access to it. Once plugged in, a hacker immediately has remote access to your phone and it automatically keylogs everything you type, allowing the hacker to read everything you are saying, including in chat messages with other people, and even see your logins and passwords. I’ve been doing research on these things for the past two weeks now, and as a guy who travels a lot, either to college or general public, I even started to wonder if my cables were replaced at some point by somebody unknowingly. It was just simply out of fear and imagination though, and I’m pretty sure they’re still the same cables I’ve always had and used, plus I’m sure I would’ve noticed if somebody replaced them or tapped into my phone, but I am keeping a close eye on my cables from now on. (I mean I’m using my phone to make this post now.)
Now, I want to clarify, what I’m about to say is pretty much already covered in Linus’ and other YouTube videos, but I felt it necessary to spread word with more detail as possible.
Throughout my research, I found out these cables are sold by a company called, Hak5, who sells a bunch of hacking devices to red teams, IT departments, corporations, police departments, government agencies, or people in general to help improve security systems and patch out vulnerabilities in software. This is their website here:
https://shop.hak5.org
No, it’s not some black market scheme; these are legally sold. I know the media usually portrays hacking in a dark tone, whether it’s on a fictional TV show or video game, or news outlets explaining the dangers of hacks, but not all hacks are malicious as the media portrays; as already mentioned, they are sometimes done to help find vulnerabilities to be patched. If you’re into cybersecurity or a tech enthusiast like me, you may have at one point heard of the Wi-Fi Pineapple, a device used to find holes in a public Wi-Fi and eavesdrop on people, or the USB Rubber Ducky, a device made to look like a normal USB Flash Drive is actually a small computer that loads hacking payloads onto PC’s. These are actually products of Hak5. The O.MG Cable basically does the same thing as the Rubber Ducky, but it’s harder to detect since it was mainly made for smartphones, and they’re often detected as keyboard or mouse peripherals, which is usually the method of bypassing. They are indeed intended for smartphones, but in some cases I heard it can also affect computers too.
In case you don’t know what a payload is, it’s basically a script or a piece of code written by a hacker, made to cause the target system to do things without the need of its intended user, such as commanding the computedevice to open the default web browser and immediately go to a malicious website to download malicious files. Another reason why O.MG Cables and their payloads in particular are harder to detect is because the payloads are written in a unique coding language made for the O.MG Cables.
The O.MG Cable isn’t actually made by Hak5, but rather a product they sell in cooperation with another company, that being O.MG. Now I know what some of you iPhone users may be thinking: “what’s the big deal? Just update your iPhone and don’t jailbreak it!” Oh my friend, you have no idea what this thing is capable of. The O.MG Cables are regularly updated, with various updates, and new payloads are shared amongst people who use Hak5 sold products, and O.MG every once in a while releases a new model of O.MG Cables. Just last month, as of the time of this post, they released a new version:
https://youtu.be/TYXeIBhYZrw?si=-nFc1WuDH9Has5Dh
The good thing about cables like these, whether they’re O.MG or generic malicious cables, because there are some that have existed before O.MG ones, is that they are rare, and Hak5 sells O.MG Cables at a minimum of $180 USD. You’re most likely to see one of these things left on the ground at corporate offices or government agencies, where hackers might attempt to breach and obtain vital company or government information by hoping someone working in those fields will pick them up and think they’re benign devices. Now, that doesn’t mean that anybody who has a hold of one of these things won’t try to hack into a random individual’s device.
However, if you are somewhat worried whether or not your USB cables are legit or not, there do exist software and devices that can help you ease your worries, most notably, USB data blockers. These small USB devices were made to block out data transfers but allow power to pass through them, making it safer to even use public chargers that the FBI and other law enforcement agencies keep telling people not to use (though, I personally still wouldn’t trust them anyways). There’s plenty of them out there, but the most popular choices I’ve seen are the following:
-Juice Jack Defender -PortaPow USB Data Blocker -Charger Defender -Gosund USB Data Blocker -USB Condom (Yes, that’s actually its name.) -The Databloc -JSAUX USB Data Blocker
O.MG even made one themselves, because (this may make you chuckle) the wife of the guy who made the O.MG Cables got tired of trying to figure out which cables they had in their home were O.MG Cables, and which ones were genuine charger cords. According to the webpage on Hak5 and O.MG’s instruction manual for the product, this not only blocks data, but also there’s an LED indicator to alert the user that the Cable is attempting to connect to Wi-Fi or perform actions other than charging, so good thing they made such a product:
https://shop.hak5.org/products/malicious-cable-detector-by-o-mg
If you’re wondering whether or not your cable may be malicious, and for some reason you cannot get ahold of a device or software that can help you find out, here are some things and some signs to know if your phone is hacked, especially by one of these:
These are some of the more well known signs of malware or hacks present on your device, and it may be best to check and see if your cable or whatever you may connect to it may be responsible. But what should you do if you believe the cable you currently hold is malicious? Here’s some steps I came up with:
That’s all I have to say for this post. I simply wanted to bring attention to malicious USB charging cables and give out some tips on whenever and if ever you came across one and you may have infected your smartphone device with one of these. I’m sure Hak5 and O.MG mean well, since their products are mainly done to pentest security systems and seek out vulnerabilities to help companies and people patch up their systems. The O.MG Cables have been around for some time, about four years now, they even come in different models that aren’t smartphone replicas, such as a USB to USB-C adapter, though the smartphone replicas are much more prevelent. While it is a bit rare to see a hardware based attack these days with tight security amongst corporations, and people being more weary of their surroundings, I still felt it necessary to make this post, and I hope it does potentially help someone in the future.
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Also disclaimer: This post is not to criticize Hak5, O.MG or ridicule their staff, but rather to point out the potential danger posed from anyone who intend to use one of their products for malicious intent. I am sure they mean well, as their products are made to help improve the security of companies and software products.
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It’s a bit of a rare topic to talk about when it comes to cybersecurity, and I think it deserves more attention, especially since hackers are becoming more clever with hardware.
https://youtu.be/mPF9f-PLDPc?si=NG_MZvUZowT6czQz
I came across this YouTube video by Linus Tech Tips where he talks about a special type of cable known as, O.MG Cables. They sound terrifying because they are replica cables of the ones officially sold for iPhones and Android devices. These cables at first glance look normal and exactly like the ones you’d plug into your phone, but are actually hacking devices. Inside the USB end of the cable is a small, compact Wi-Fi connector that uses the Wi-Fi your device is connected to allow remote access to it. Once plugged in, a hacker immediately has remote access to your phone and it automatically keylogs everything you type, allowing the hacker to read everything you are saying, including in chat messages with other people, and even see your logins and passwords. I’ve been doing research on these things for the past two weeks now, and as a guy who travels a lot, either to college or general public, I even started to wonder if my cables were replaced at some point by somebody unknowingly. It was just simply out of fear and imagination though, and I’m pretty sure they’re still the same cables I’ve always had and used, plus I’m sure I would’ve noticed if somebody replaced them or tapped into my phone, but I am keeping a close eye on my cables from now on. (I mean I’m using my phone to make this post now.)
Now, I want to clarify, what I’m about to say is pretty much already covered in Linus’ and other YouTube videos, but I felt it necessary to spread word with more detail as possible.
Throughout my research, I found out these cables are sold by a company called, Hak5, who sells a bunch of hacking devices to red teams, IT departments, corporations, police departments, government agencies, or people in general to help improve security systems and patch out vulnerabilities in software. This is their website here:
https://shop.hak5.org
No, it’s not some black market scheme; these are legally sold. I know the media usually portrays hacking in a dark tone, whether it’s on a fictional TV show or video game, or news outlets explaining the dangers of hacks, but not all hacks are malicious as the media portrays; as already mentioned, they are sometimes done to help find vulnerabilities to be patched. If you’re into cybersecurity or a tech enthusiast like me, you may have at one point heard of the Wi-Fi Pineapple, a device used to find holes in a public Wi-Fi and eavesdrop on people, or the USB Rubber Ducky, a device made to look like a normal USB Flash Drive is actually a small computer that loads hacking payloads onto PC’s. These are actually products of Hak5. The O.MG Cable basically does the same thing as the Rubber Ducky, but it’s harder to detect since it was mainly made for smartphones, and they’re often detected as keyboard or mouse peripherals, which is usually the method of bypassing. They are indeed intended for smartphones, but in some cases I heard it can also affect computers too.
In case you don’t know what a payload is, it’s basically a script or a piece of code written by a hacker, made to cause the target system to do things without the need of its intended user, such as commanding the computedevice to open the default web browser and immediately go to a malicious website to download malicious files. Another reason why O.MG Cables and their payloads in particular are harder to detect is because the payloads are written in a unique coding language made for the O.MG Cables.
The O.MG Cable isn’t actually made by Hak5, but rather a product they sell in cooperation with another company, that being O.MG. Now I know what some of you iPhone users may be thinking: “what’s the big deal? Just update your iPhone and don’t jailbreak it!” Oh my friend, you have no idea what this thing is capable of. The O.MG Cables are regularly updated, with various updates, and new payloads are shared amongst people who use Hak5 sold products, and O.MG every once in a while releases a new model of O.MG Cables. Just last month, as of the time of this post, they released a new version:
https://youtu.be/TYXeIBhYZrw?si=-nFc1WuDH9Has5Dh
The good thing about cables like these, whether they’re O.MG or generic malicious cables, because there are some that have existed before O.MG ones, is that they are rare, and Hak5 sells O.MG Cables at a minimum of $180 USD. You’re most likely to see one of these things left on the ground at corporate offices or government agencies, where hackers might attempt to breach and obtain vital company or government information by hoping someone working in those fields will pick them up and think they’re benign devices. Now, that doesn’t mean that anybody who has a hold of one of these things won’t try to hack into a random individual’s device.
However, if you are somewhat worried whether or not your USB cables are legit or not, there do exist software and devices that can help you ease your worries, most notably, USB data blockers. These small USB devices were made to block out data transfers but allow power to pass through them, making it safer to even use public chargers that the FBI and other law enforcement agencies keep telling people not to use (though, I personally still wouldn’t trust them anyways). There’s plenty of them out there, but the most popular choices I’ve seen are the following:
-Juice Jack Defender -PortaPow USB Data Blocker -Charger Defender -Gosund USB Data Blocker -USB Condom (Yes, that’s actually its name.) -The Databloc -JSAUX USB Data Blocker
O.MG even made one themselves, because (this may make you chuckle) the wife of the guy who made the O.MG Cables got tired of trying to figure out which cables they had in their home were O.MG Cables, and which ones were genuine charger cords. According to the webpage on Hak5 and O.MG’s instruction manual for the product, this not only blocks data, but also there’s an LED indicator to alert the user that the Cable is attempting to connect to Wi-Fi or perform actions other than charging, so good thing they made such a product:
https://shop.hak5.org/products/malicious-cable-detector-by-o-mg
If you’re wondering whether or not your cable may be malicious, and for some reason you cannot get ahold of a device or software that can help you find out, here are some things and some signs to know if your phone is hacked, especially by one of these:
- You may already know this one, but one of the first well known obvious signs is that your battery is draining fast. This is because your phone or device is being forced to do extra work so that the hacker maintains access to your phone.
- Another well known and obvious sign is that your device is heating up even without you using it. This ties in with #1, where the device is doing extra work to keep the hacker connected.
- Your web browser suddenly opens a web page you didn’t even intend to open. The keyboard is also acting on its own to make this happen.
- Your device suddenly installs an app that you don’t even remember installing.
- Probably the scariest one, is that your device suddenly sends texts or messages to others you don’t remember sending or the phone suddenly takes a photo from the camera or screenshot of what’s currently on the screen and immediately sends it to an unknown contact.
- If you’re using an iPhone, it should be un-jailbroken. Being jailbroken means that your iPhone can download unauthorized apps and run files that are not approved by Apple and published in the AppStore. Apple keeps the iPhone un-jailbroken and sandboxed to ensure the safety of the user and to make sure iOS is as secure as possible, and the only software that you can download to your iPhone are the ones approved by Apple. If you find that your iPhone is jailbroken and you did not intend for this to happen, this means a hacker had somehow tapped into your phone and uploaded malicious code to jailbreak itself, so that the hacker could do more damage to it by making it download unauthorized files.
These are some of the more well known signs of malware or hacks present on your device, and it may be best to check and see if your cable or whatever you may connect to it may be responsible. But what should you do if you believe the cable you currently hold is malicious? Here’s some steps I came up with:
- Throw it away, or if possible, turn it in to police department. Throwing it away may sometimes or most times be the better, time saving option because oftentimes, a malicious cable has a self-destruct feature. Don’t worry, I do not mean it’ll blow up and cause physical harm to you. What this means is that the hacker can put in a command that’ll tell the cable’s computer components to delete everything it may have stored onto itself and fry the electronics, turning it into a normal charging cable and leaving no traces in the code as to who was hacking you. The hacker no longer has access to your device or can control the cable afterwards, but you should still throw what’s left in the cable away even if they could or did self-destruct it. So, when throwing it away, and I recommend wearing rubbenon-conductive gloves if you feel the need to do this, cut the wire in half or in pieces with a pair of scissors, flush cutter, or a knife and dismantle the connectors on both ends, the USB connector and the lightning/USB-C connector; this can be done by either crushing the shell and pulling the components apart with some strong pliers, or, and a bit of a dangerous method, smash it with a hammer. I don’t recommend the latter though, as the internal pieces could go scattering and end up somewhere you can’t find or get to them. If you can and it’s recommended anyway, dispose of the now dismantled cable in an e-waste bin. The reason we want to tear it up like this is so nobody else falls victim to the cable.
- Replace your wire with an official wire from retail, such as Best Buy, Walmart, or even an Apple Store, or a phone service store like T-Mobile, Verizon, etc. Don’t buy a cable off of eBay, since most of the times, those are just random sellers who are not affiliated with a business and there’s a chance they might have tampered with it in some way and secretly turned it into a malicious cable (unless of course for whatever reason, you have a really old iPhone model that requires the old bulky connector). If you intend to buy a third-party cable online, especially from Amazon, do research first, see what people say about the particular cable you are about to buy whether it’s YouTube reviews or reviews on Amazon. I don’t know anything about Android cables unfortunately since I’ve never owned an Android phone, but for iPhones, definitely look for a cable that’s MFI Certified. MFI Certified means that the cable/product was checked and verified by Apple themselves and they confirmed it safe to use.
- Factory Reset or download an AV app for your device if the hacks and possible malware continue to persist, even with the cable gone. If you have an Android phone, it’s definitely possible to download an AV off of the Google Store. Definitely find one with good detection rates and a firewall. I usually recommend the following for computer users and they could be just as good on Android if they are available: Bitdefender, Kaspersky, ESET, Malwarebytes, and Sophos. For iPhone users, I hate to say it, but you’re most likely going to have to backup and factory reset your iPhone. Because of the nature of the iPhone and Apple’s strict policy and sandboxing doesn’t allow true antivirus software onto iPhone. You’ll see many AV companies make apps for iPhone, but these are mostly jailbreak checkers and VPNs. Factory resetting is usually the way most iPhone users go to remove malware, hacks, payloads, and even reverse jailbreaks on an iPhone. Even then, Apple usually does great job at patching security exploits, so if you don’t want to do the factory reset, try checking for updates for iOS or simply turning off and on your iPhone again to see if that removes any problems first.
- Lastly, and very simple. Keep your device’s OS and apps up to date. Especially if there’s a major update, download and install it. Consider a VPN for extra security if you feel the need.
That’s all I have to say for this post. I simply wanted to bring attention to malicious USB charging cables and give out some tips on whenever and if ever you came across one and you may have infected your smartphone device with one of these. I’m sure Hak5 and O.MG mean well, since their products are mainly done to pentest security systems and seek out vulnerabilities to help companies and people patch up their systems. The O.MG Cables have been around for some time, about four years now, they even come in different models that aren’t smartphone replicas, such as a USB to USB-C adapter, though the smartphone replicas are much more prevelent. While it is a bit rare to see a hardware based attack these days with tight security amongst corporations, and people being more weary of their surroundings, I still felt it necessary to make this post, and I hope it does potentially help someone in the future.
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2024.06.07 23:01 After-Round-2477 java.lang.IllegalStateException: Failed to load registries due to above errors
OK, so my game starts without any problems, but as soon as I try to create a new world, my game crashes
Here is the crash report:
Thread: Render thread
Stacktrace:
Details:
Details:
submitted by After-Round-2477 to fabricmc [link] [comments]
Here is the crash report:
java.lang.IllegalStateException: Failed to load registries due to above errors at net.minecraft.class_7655.method_45121(class_7655.java:111) at net.minecraft.class_7237.method_45142(class_7237.java:67) at net.minecraft.class_7237.method_45143(class_7237.java:71) at net.minecraft.class_7237.method_42098(class_7237.java:34) at net.minecraft.class_525.method_31130(class_525.java:333) at net.minecraft.class_528.method_43462(class_528.java:169) at net.minecraft.class_528.A detailed walkthrough of the error, its code path and all known details is as follows: -- Head --(class_528.java:95) at net.minecraft.class_526.method_25426(class_526.java:54) at net.minecraft.class_437.method_25423(class_437.java:297) at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1507(class_310.java:1080) at net.minecraft.class_442.method_19861(class_442.java:159) at net.minecraft.class_4185.method_25306(class_4185.java:94) at net.minecraft.class_4264.method_25348(class_4264.java:56) at net.minecraft.class_339.method_25402(class_339.java:189) at net.minecraft.class_4069.method_25402(class_4069.java:38) at net.minecraft.class_442.method_25402(class_442.java:299) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1611(class_312.java:98) at net.minecraft.class_437.method_25412(class_437.java:409) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1601(class_312.java:98) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22686(class_312.java:169) at net.minecraft.class_1255.execute(class_1255.java:102) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22684(class_312.java:169) at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.callback(GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.java:43) at org.lwjgl.system.JNI.invokeV(Native Method) at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFW.glfwWaitEventsTimeout(GLFW.java:3474) at com.mojang.blaze3d.systems.RenderSystem.limitDisplayFPS(RenderSystem.java:237) at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1523(class_310.java:1244) at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1514(class_310.java:802) at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(Main.java:250) at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(MinecraftGameProvider.java:470) at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.Knot.launch(Knot.java:74) at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClient.main(KnotClient.java:23)
Thread: Render thread
Stacktrace:
at net.minecraft.class_7655.method_45121(class_7655.java:111) at net.minecraft.class_7237.method_45142(class_7237.java:67) at net.minecraft.class_7237.method_45143(class_7237.java:71) at net.minecraft.class_7237.method_42098(class_7237.java:34) at net.minecraft.class_525.method_31130(class_525.java:333) at net.minecraft.class_528.method_43462(class_528.java:169) at net.minecraft.class_528.-- Affected screen --(class_528.java:95) at net.minecraft.class_526.method_25426(class_526.java:54) at net.minecraft.class_437.method_25423(class_437.java:297) at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1507(class_310.java:1080) at net.minecraft.class_442.method_19861(class_442.java:159) at net.minecraft.class_4185.method_25306(class_4185.java:94) at net.minecraft.class_4264.method_25348(class_4264.java:56) at net.minecraft.class_339.method_25402(class_339.java:189) at net.minecraft.class_4069.method_25402(class_4069.java:38) at net.minecraft.class_442.method_25402(class_442.java:299) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1611(class_312.java:98) at net.minecraft.class_437.method_25412(class_437.java:409) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1601(class_312.java:98) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22686(class_312.java:169) at net.minecraft.class_1255.execute(class_1255.java:102) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22684(class_312.java:169) at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.callback(GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.java:43) at org.lwjgl.system.JNI.invokeV(Native Method) at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFW.glfwWaitEventsTimeout(GLFW.java:3474)
Details:
Screen name: net.minecraft.class_442Stacktrace:
at net.minecraft.class_437.method_25412(class_437.java:409) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_1601(class_312.java:98) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22686(class_312.java:169) at net.minecraft.class_1255.execute(class_1255.java:102) at net.minecraft.class_312.method_22684(class_312.java:169) at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.callback(GLFWMouseButtonCallbackI.java:43) at org.lwjgl.system.JNI.invokeV(Native Method) at org.lwjgl.glfw.GLFW.glfwWaitEventsTimeout(GLFW.java:3474) at com.mojang.blaze3d.systems.RenderSystem.limitDisplayFPS(RenderSystem.java:237) at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1523(class_310.java:1244) at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1514(class_310.java:802) at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(Main.java:250) at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(MinecraftGameProvider.java:470) at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.Knot.launch(Knot.java:74) at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClient.main(KnotClient.java:23)-- Last reload --
Details:
Reload number: 1 Reload reason: initial Finished: Yes Packs: vanilla, fabric, Moonlight Mods Dynamic Assets, minecraft:physicsmod, moreberries:modifiedsweetberrybushmodel, Essential Assets, essentialStacktrace:
at net.minecraft.class_6360.method_36565(class_6360.java:49) at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1587(class_310.java:2413) at net.minecraft.class_310.method_1514(class_310.java:821) at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(Main.java:250) at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(MinecraftGameProvider.java:470) at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.Knot.launch(Knot.java:74) at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClient.main(KnotClient.java:23)Mod List
ad_astra: Ad Astra 1.15.18 javazoom_jlayer: jlayer 1.0.1 ad_astra_giselle_addon: Ad Astra: Giselle Addon 6.5 ad_astra_rocketed: Ad Astra: Rocketed 1.0.3 advancednetherite: Advanced Netherite 2.1.3-1.20.1 advancementplaques: Advancement Plaques 1.4.11 ae2: Applied Energistics 2 15.2.0 team_reborn_energy: Energy 3.0.0 ambientenvironment: Ambient Environment 11.0.0.1 ambientsounds: AmbientSounds 6.0.1 amecs: Amecs 1.3.10+mc.1.20.1 amecsapi: Amecs API 1.4.0+mc1.20-pre1 appbot: Applied Botanics 1.5.0 appleskin: AppleSkin 2.5.1+mc1.20 aquamirae: Aquamirae 6 architectury: Architectury 9.2.14 attack_through_grass: Attack Through Grass 1.0.2+1.20.1 attributefix: AttributeFix 21.0.4 azurelib: AzureLib 2.0.24 azurelibarmor: AzureLib Armor 2.0.3 balm-fabric: Balm 7.3.4 kuma_api: KumaAPI 20.1.6 bclib: BCLib 3.0.14 wunderlib: WunderLib 1.1.5 betteranimationscollection: Better Animations Collection 8.0.0 bettercombat: Better Combat 1.8.5+1.20.1 betterdeserttemples: YUNG's Better Desert Temples 1.20-Fabric-3.0.3 org_reflections_reflections: reflections 0.10.2 betterdungeons: YUNG's Better Dungeons 1.20-Fabric-4.0.4 betterend: Better End 4.0.11 betterendisland: YUNG's Better End Island 1.20-Fabric-2.0.6 betterfortresses: YUNG's Better Nether Fortresses 1.20-Fabric-2.0.6 betterjungletemples: YUNG's Better Jungle Temples 1.20-Fabric-2.0.5 bettermineshafts: YUNG's Better Mineshafts 1.20-Fabric-4.0.4 betternether: Better Nether 9.0.10 betteroceanmonuments: YUNG's Better Ocean Monuments 1.20-Fabric-3.0.4 betterstrongholds: YUNG's Better Strongholds 1.20-Fabric-4.0.3 betterthirdperson: Better Third Person 1.9.0 betterwitchhuts: YUNG's Better Witch Huts 1.20-Fabric-3.0.3 bewitchment: Bewitchment 1.20-8 impersonate: Impersonate 2.10.2 playerabilitylib: Pal 1.8.0 step-height-entity-attribute: Step Height Entity Attribute 1.2.0 terraform-wood-api-v1: Terraform Wood API (v1) 7.0.3 blur: Blur (Fabric) 3.1.0 satin: Satin 1.13.0 boids: Boids 1.2.2 blue_endless_jankson: jankson 1.2.3 bookofexperience: Book of Experience 3.1.1 bookshelf: Bookshelf 20.1.11 botania: Botania 1.20.1-444-FABRIC fiber: fiber 0.23.0-2 botarium: Botarium 2.3.3 cameraoverhaul: Camera Overhaul 1.4.0-fabric-universal cave_dweller: Cave Dweller Fabric 1.3.0 cavedust: Cave Dust 3.0.0 kirin: Kirin UI 1.15.6+1.20.1 cavespiderspawn: Cave Spider Spawn 1.1 cicada: CICADA 0.7.1+1.20.1 cloth-config: Cloth Config v11 11.1.118 cloth-basic-math: cloth-basic-math 0.6.1 collective: Collective 7.61 colorfulhearts: Colorful Hearts 4.1.6 com_electronwill_night-config_core: core 3.6.7 com_electronwill_night-config_toml: toml 3.6.7 commonnetworking: Common Network 1.0.3-1.20.1 continuity: Continuity 3.0.0-beta.5+1.20.1 creativecore: CreativeCore 2.11.30 net_minecraftforge_eventbus: eventbus 6.0.3 creeperoverhaul: Creeper Overhaul 3.0.2 cristellib: Cristel Lib 1.1.5 detailab: Detail Armor Bar 2.6.3+1.20.1-fabric do_a_barrel_roll: Do a Barrel Roll 3.6.0+1.20.1 fabric-permissions-api-v0: fabric-permissions-api 0.2-SNAPSHOT mixinsquared: MixinSquared 0.1.1 doubledoors: Double Doors 5.7 dynamic_fps: Dynamic FPS 3.4.3 dynamiccrosshair: Dynamic Crosshair 7.4.4+1.20 yaclx: YetAnotherConfigLibExtensions 1.12+1.20.2 dynamiccrosshaircompat: Dynamic Crosshair Compat 3.7.4+1.20.1 dynamiclights: Dynamic Lights 1.8.2+mod eatinganimationid: Eating Animation 1.20+1.9.61 eldritch_end: Eldritch End 0.2.31 eldritch_mobs: EldritchMobs 1.15.1 cardinal-components-base: Cardinal Components API (base) 5.2.2 cardinal-components-entity: Cardinal Components API (entities) 5.2.2 polymer-blocks: Polymer (Textured Blocks) 0.5.15+1.20.1 polymer-core: Polymer (Core) 0.5.15+1.20.1 polymer-networking: Polymer (Networking) 0.5.15+1.20.1 polymer-common: Polymer (Common) 0.5.15+1.20.1 polymer-registry-sync-manipulator: Polymer (Registry Sync Manipulator) 0.5.15+1.20.1 server_translations_api: Server Translations API 2.0.0+1.20 packet_tweaker: Packet Tweaker 0.4.0+1.19.4 elementa: Elementa 647 elementalenchantments: Elemental Enchantments 1.1.2 elytraslot: Elytra Slot 6.3.0+1.20.1 emi: EMI 1.1.6+1.20.1+fabric enchanted-vertical-slabs: Enchanted Vertical Slabs 1.9.1 enchantinginfuser: Enchanting Infuser 8.0.2 enchdesc: EnchantmentDescriptions 17.0.16 endermanoverhaul: Enderman Overhaul 1.0.4 enderzoology: Ender Zoology 8.0.2 ends_delight: End's Delight refabricated-1.20.1-alpha-1.0 enhancedweather: Enhanced Weather 1.1-Alpha2 entity_model_features: Entity Model Features 2.0.2 entity_texture_features: Entity Texture Features 6.0.1 org_apache_httpcomponents_httpmime: httpmime 4.5.10 equipmentcompare: Equipment Compare 1.3.8 essential: Essential 1.3.2.5+ge4fdbcd438 essential-container: essential-container 1.0.0 essential-loader: essential-loader 1.2.3 euphoria_patcher: Euphoria Patcher 0.3.3-fabric io_sigpipe_jbsdiff: jbsdiff 1.0 exlinefishing: Exline's Fishing Mod 1.0.4 expanded_armor_enchanting: Expanded Armor Enchanting 1.0.6 expanded_axe_enchanting: Expanded Axe Enchanting 1.0.7 expanded_bow_enchanting: Expanded Bow Enchanting 1.0.0 expanded_ecosphere: Expanded Ecosphere 3.2.4 expanded_trident_enchanting: Expanded Trident Enchanting 1.0.7 expanded_weapon_enchanting: Expanded Weapon Enchanting 1.0.6 expandeddelight: Expanded Delight 0.3.1 omega-config: OmegaConfig 1.4.0+1.20.1 expandedworld: Expanded World 1.2.0 explosiveenhancement: Explosive Enhancement 1.2.2-1.20.x fab: Foodables 1.0.1-1.20+ fabric-api: Fabric API 0.92.2+1.20.1 fabric-api-base: Fabric API Base 0.4.31+1802ada577 fabric-api-lookup-api-v1: Fabric API Lookup API (v1) 1.6.36+1802ada577 fabric-biome-api-v1: Fabric Biome API (v1) 13.0.13+1802ada577 fabric-block-api-v1: Fabric Block API (v1) 1.0.11+1802ada577 fabric-block-view-api-v2: Fabric BlockView API (v2) 1.0.1+1802ada577 fabric-blockrenderlayer-v1: Fabric BlockRenderLayer Registration (v1) 1.1.41+1802ada577 fabric-client-tags-api-v1: Fabric Client Tags 1.1.2+1802ada577 fabric-command-api-v1: Fabric Command API (v1) 1.2.34+f71b366f77 fabric-command-api-v2: Fabric Command API (v2) 2.2.13+1802ada577 fabric-commands-v0: Fabric Commands (v0) 0.2.51+df3654b377 fabric-containers-v0: Fabric Containers (v0) 0.1.64+df3654b377 fabric-content-registries-v0: Fabric Content Registries (v0) 4.0.11+1802ada577 fabric-convention-tags-v1: Fabric Convention Tags 1.5.5+1802ada577 fabric-crash-report-info-v1: Fabric Crash Report Info (v1) 0.2.19+1802ada577 fabric-data-attachment-api-v1: Fabric Data Attachment API (v1) 1.0.0+de0fd6d177 fabric-data-generation-api-v1: Fabric Data Generation API (v1) 12.3.4+1802ada577 fabric-dimensions-v1: Fabric Dimensions API (v1) 2.1.54+1802ada577 fabric-entity-events-v1: Fabric Entity Events (v1) 1.6.0+1c78457f77 fabric-events-interaction-v0: Fabric Events Interaction (v0) 0.6.2+1802ada577 fabric-events-lifecycle-v0: Fabric Events Lifecycle (v0) 0.2.63+df3654b377 fabric-game-rule-api-v1: Fabric Game Rule API (v1) 1.0.40+1802ada577 fabric-item-api-v1: Fabric Item API (v1) 2.1.28+1802ada577 fabric-item-group-api-v1: Fabric Item Group API (v1) 4.0.12+1802ada577 fabric-key-binding-api-v1: Fabric Key Binding API (v1) 1.0.37+1802ada577 fabric-keybindings-v0: Fabric Key Bindings (v0) 0.2.35+df3654b377 fabric-lifecycle-events-v1: Fabric Lifecycle Events (v1) 2.2.22+1802ada577 fabric-loot-api-v2: Fabric Loot API (v2) 1.2.1+1802ada577 fabric-loot-tables-v1: Fabric Loot Tables (v1) 1.1.45+9e7660c677 fabric-message-api-v1: Fabric Message API (v1) 5.1.9+1802ada577 fabric-mining-level-api-v1: Fabric Mining Level API (v1) 2.1.50+1802ada577 fabric-model-loading-api-v1: Fabric Model Loading API (v1) 1.0.3+1802ada577 fabric-models-v0: Fabric Models (v0) 0.4.2+9386d8a777 fabric-networking-api-v1: Fabric Networking API (v1) 1.3.11+1802ada577 fabric-networking-v0: Fabric Networking (v0) 0.3.51+df3654b377 fabric-object-builder-api-v1: Fabric Object Builder API (v1) 11.1.3+1802ada577 fabric-particles-v1: Fabric Particles (v1) 1.1.2+1802ada577 fabric-recipe-api-v1: Fabric Recipe API (v1) 1.0.21+1802ada577 fabric-registry-sync-v0: Fabric Registry Sync (v0) 2.3.3+1802ada577 fabric-renderer-api-v1: Fabric Renderer API (v1) 3.2.1+1802ada577 fabric-renderer-indigo: Fabric Renderer - Indigo 1.5.2+85287f9f77 fabric-renderer-registries-v1: Fabric Renderer Registries (v1) 3.2.46+df3654b377 fabric-rendering-data-attachment-v1: Fabric Rendering Data Attachment (v1) 0.3.37+92a0d36777 fabric-rendering-fluids-v1: Fabric Rendering Fluids (v1) 3.0.28+1802ada577 fabric-rendering-v0: Fabric Rendering (v0) 1.1.49+df3654b377 fabric-rendering-v1: Fabric Rendering (v1) 3.0.8+1802ada577 fabric-resource-conditions-api-v1: Fabric Resource Conditions API (v1) 2.3.8+1802ada577 fabric-resource-loader-v0: Fabric Resource Loader (v0) 0.11.10+1802ada577 fabric-screen-api-v1: Fabric Screen API (v1) 2.0.8+1802ada577 fabric-screen-handler-api-v1: Fabric Screen Handler API (v1) 1.3.30+1802ada577 fabric-sound-api-v1: Fabric Sound API (v1) 1.0.13+1802ada577 fabric-transfer-api-v1: Fabric Transfer API (v1) 3.3.5+8dd72ea377 fabric-transitive-access-wideners-v1: Fabric Transitive Access Wideners (v1) 4.3.1+1802ada577 fabric-language-kotlin: Fabric Language Kotlin 1.11.0+kotlin.2.0.0 org_jetbrains_kotlin_kotlin-reflect: kotlin-reflect 2.0.0 org_jetbrains_kotlin_kotlin-stdlib: kotlin-stdlib 2.0.0 org_jetbrains_kotlin_kotlin-stdlib-jdk7: kotlin-stdlib-jdk7 2.0.0 org_jetbrains_kotlin_kotlin-stdlib-jdk8: kotlin-stdlib-jdk8 2.0.0 org_jetbrains_kotlinx_atomicfu-jvm: atomicfu-jvm 0.24.0 org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-coroutines-core-jvm: kotlinx-coroutines-core-jvm 1.8.1 org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-coroutines-jdk8: kotlinx-coroutines-jdk8 1.8.1 org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-datetime-jvm: kotlinx-datetime-jvm 0.6.0 org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-serialization-cbor-jvm: kotlinx-serialization-cbor-jvm 1.6.3 org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-serialization-core-jvm: kotlinx-serialization-core-jvm 1.6.3 org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-serialization-json-jvm: kotlinx-serialization-json-jvm 1.6.3 fabricloader: Fabric Loader 0.15.11 mixinextras: MixinExtras 0.3.5 fallingtree: FallingTree 4.3.4 farmersdelight: Farmer's Delight 1.20.1-2.1.1+refabricated mm: Manningham Mills 2.3 porting_lib_accessors: Porting Lib Accessors 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_base: Porting Lib Base 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_entity: Porting Lib Entity 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_fluids: Porting Lib Fluids 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_mixin_extensions: Porting Lib Mixin Extensions 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_transfer: Porting Lib Transfer 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_utility: Porting Lib Utility 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_client_events: Porting Lib Client Events 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_config: Porting Lib Config 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_extensions: Porting Lib Extensions 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_attributes: Porting Lib Attributes 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_common: Porting Lib Common 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_lazy_registration: Porting Lib Lazy Register 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_core: Porting Lib Core 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_loot: Porting Lib Loot 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_networking: Porting Lib Networking 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_recipe_book_categories: Porting Lib Recipe Book Categories 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_registries: Porting Lib Registries 2.3.4+1.20.1 porting_lib_tags: Porting Lib Tags 3.0 porting_lib_tool_actions: Porting Lib Tool Actions 2.3.4+1.20.1 firstperson: FirstPerson 2.4.1 forcemaster-rpg: Forcemaster Class Mod 1.0.5 com_github_zsoltmolnarrr_tinyconfig: TinyConfig 2.3.2 forgeconfigapiport: Forge Config API Port 8.0.0 frightsdelight: Frights Delight fabric-1.20.1-1.0.4 gd_craftsenhanced: GD CraftsEnhanced 1.2 geckolib: GeckoLib 4 4.4.5 com_eliotlash_mclib_mclib: mclib 20 geodes: More Geodes 1.9 glore: Glowing ores 1.2.0 goodending: Good Ending 1.20.1-1.0.1-fabric grabbymobs: Grabby Mobs 1.5 gravestones: Gravestones v1.15 graveyard: The Graveyard 3.0 guardvillagers: GuardVillagers 2.0.9-1.20.1 hardcorerevival: Hardcore Revival 12.0.4 harvestwithease: Harvest with ease 8.0.1.0 hybrid-aquatic: Hybrid Aquatic 1.3.2 icarus: Icarus 2.9.0 iceberg: Iceberg 1.1.18 immersive_weathering: Immersive Weathering 1.20.1-2.0.1 immersivewind: Immersive Winds 0.5 imst: Immersive structures 2.1.0 indium: Indium 1.0.30+mc1.20.4 indrev: Industrial Revolution 1.16.5-BETA libgui: LibGui 8.0.0+1.20 jankson: Jankson 5.0.1+j1.2.2 libninepatch: LibNinePatch 1.2.0 magna: Magna ${version} noindium: No Indium? 1.1.0+1.19 ingotcraft: IngotCraft 1.20.1-2.4.1-fabric iris: Iris 1.7.0+mc1.20.1 io_github_douira_glsl-transformer: glsl-transformer 2.0.0-pre13 org_anarres_jcpp: jcpp 1.4.14 org_antlr_antlr4-runtime: antlr4-runtime 4.11.1 itemborders: Item Borders 1.2.2 jade: Jade 11.9.2+fabric jadeaddons: Jade Addons 5.2.5 java: OpenJDK 64-Bit Server VM 17 jei: Just Enough Items 15.3.0.4 journeymap: Journeymap 5.9.23 journeymap-api-fabric: JourneyMap API 1.20-1.9-fabric-SNAPSHOT kiwi: Kiwi Library 11.6.2 krypton: Krypton 0.2.3 com_velocitypowered_velocity-native: velocity-native 3.2.0-SNAPSHOT legendary_origins: Legendary Origins 1.24.2 legendarytooltips: Legendary Tooltips 1.4.5 lithium: Lithium 0.11.2 lookinsharp: Lookin' Sharp! 1.0.2 reach-entity-attributes: Reach Entity Attributes 2.4.1 lying_skeletons: Forsaken Corpses 1.2.0_1.20.1 magistuarmory: Epic Knights Mod 9.8 make_bubbles_pop: Make Bubbles Pop Mod 0.2.0-fabric midnightlib: MidnightLib 1.4.1 mine-spawners: mine-spawners 1.0 minecraft: Minecraft 1.20.1 modernfix: ModernFix 5.18.0+mc1.20.1 modmenu: Mod Menu 7.2.2 modmenu-badges-lib: ModMenu Badges Lib 2023.6.1 moonlight: Moonlight 1.20-2.11.30 more_fossils: More Fossils 2.0.1 more_rpg_classes: More RPG Classes 1.1.7-1.20.1 moreberries: More Berries 1.5.5 moremobvariants: More Mob Variants 1.3.0.1 morezombievillagers: More Zombie Villagers 3.5 mousetweaks: Mouse Tweaks 2.26 mr_katters_structures: Katters Structures 1.6 mr_limitless: Limitless 1.1 mr_mastercutter: MasterCutter 1.1 mr_mob_variants: Mob Variants 1.0.0 mr_oceanic: Oceanic 2 mr_terralith_biomesaplings: Custom Biome Saplings 1.1.0c mr_upgraded_mobs: Upgraded Mobs 1.3.4 mru: Mineblock's Repeated Utilities 0.4.2+1.20.1 naturalist: Naturalist 4.0.3 natures_delight: Nature's Delight 1.1 natures_spirit: Nature's Spirit 1.5.2-1.20.1 necronomicon: Necronomicon 1.4.2 nethersheep: NetherSheep 1.7 notenoughanimations: NotEnoughAnimations 1.7.3 nullscape: Nullscape 1.2.5 nutritionz: NutritionZ 1.0.6 obscure_api: Obscure API 16 oceansdelight: Ocean's Delight fdrf-fabric-1.0.2-1.20 org_jetbrains_annotations: annotations 23.0.0 origins: Origins 1.10.0 apoli: Apoli 2.9.0 additionalentityattributes: Additional Entity Attributes 1.3.0+1.20.0 calio: Calio 1.11.0 overflowingbars: Overflowing Bars 8.0.0 owo: oωo 0.11.2+1.20 packedup: Packed Up 1.0.30 particlerain: Particle Rain 2.0.8 patchouli: Patchouli 1.20.1-84-FABRIC pehkui: Pehkui 3.8.2+1.14.4-1.20.6 kanos_config: Kanos Config 0.4.1+1.14.4-1.19.4 physicsmod: Physics Mod 3.0.14 player-animator: Player Animator 1.0.2-rc1+1.20 polyeng: Polymorphic Energistics 0.1.1-1.20.1 polymorph: Polymorph 0.49.5+1.20.1 cardinal-components-block: Cardinal Components API (blocks) 5.2.1 cardinal-components-item: Cardinal Components API (items) 5.2.1 spectrelib: SpectreLib 0.13.15+1.20.1 powah: Powah! 5.0.5 presencefootsteps: Presence Footsteps 1.9.4+1.20.1 prism: Prism 1.0.5 puzzleslib: Puzzles Lib 8.1.20 puzzlesaccessapi: Puzzles Access Api 8.0.7 queen-cats: Queen Cats 1.0.6-1.20.1-Fabric reeses-sodium-options: Reese's Sodium Options 1.7.2+mc1.20.1-build.101 repurposed_structures: Repurposed Structures 7.1.15+1.20.1-fabric resourcefulconfig: Resourcefulconfig 2.1.2 resourcefullib: Resourceful Lib 2.1.25 com_teamresourceful_bytecodecs: bytecodecs 1.0.2 com_teamresourceful_yabn: yabn 1.0.3 skinlayers3d: 3d-Skin-Layers 1.6.5 snowrealmagic: Snow! Real Magic! 10.4.3 snowundertrees: Snow Under Trees 2.3.0+1.20.1 snowyleavesplus: SnowyLeavesPlus 0.1.9 sodium: Sodium 0.5.8+mc1.20.1 sodium-extra: Sodium Extra 0.5.4+mc1.20.1-build.115 caffeineconfig: CaffeineConfig 1.3.0+1.17 crowdin-translate: CrowdinTranslate 1.4+1.19.3 sound_physics_remastered: Sound Physics Remastered 1.20.1-1.4.2 spawnanimations: Spawn Animations 1.9.4+mod spawners_plus: Spawners+ 3.0-1.20.1 spell_engine: Spell Engine 0.14.3+1.20.1 spell_power: Spell Power Attribute 0.10.2+1.20.1 spellbound_weapons_mr: Spellbound Weapons 4.0.5m spelunkery: Spelunkery 1.20.1-0.3.5 status-effect-bars: Status Effect Bars 1.0.3 supermartijn642configlib: SuperMartijn642's Config Lib 1.1.8+a supermartijn642corelib: SuperMartijn642's Core Lib 1.1.17 t_and_t: Towns and Towers 1.12 tbbc: The Below Bedrock Caves 1.2.0 customportalapi: Custom Portal Api 0.0.1-beta64-1.20 terrablender: TerraBlender 3.0.1.7 terralith: Terralith 2.5.1 textile_backup: Textile Backup 3.1.2-1.20 com_github_shevek_parallelgzip: parallelgzip af5f5c297e735f3f2df7aa4eb0e19a5810b8aff6 org_apache_commons_commons-compress: commons-compress 1.22 org_tukaani_xz: xz 1.9 timm: The Immersive Music Mod 1.0.3 tool-trims: Tool Trims b2.1.1 toolleveling: ToolLeveling+ 1.20.1-2.0.0 travelerstitles: Traveler's Titles 1.20-Fabric-4.0.2 trinkets: Trinkets 3.7.2 ubesdelight: Ube's Delight 1.20.1-0.1.5.4 universalcraft: UniversalCraft 337 variantsandventures: Variants & Ventures 1.0.2 vigilance: Vigilance 297 villager-pickup: Villager Pickup 1.1.2 waystones: Waystones 14.1.3 weeping_angels: Weeping Angels 46.0.2 wilderness: Wilderness 0.1.2 wildlife: Wildlife 1.19.2-2.2 yet_another_config_lib_v3: YetAnotherConfigLib 3.4.4+1.20.1-fabric com_twelvemonkeys_common_common-image: common-image 3.10.0 com_twelvemonkeys_common_common-io: common-io 3.10.0 com_twelvemonkeys_common_common-lang: common-lang 3.10.0 com_twelvemonkeys_imageio_imageio-core: imageio-core 3.10.0 com_twelvemonkeys_imageio_imageio-metadata: imageio-metadata 3.10.0 com_twelvemonkeys_imageio_imageio-webp: imageio-webp 3.10.0 org_quiltmc_parsers_gson: gson 0.2.1 org_quiltmc_parsers_json: json 0.2.1 yungsapi: YUNG's API 1.20-Fabric-4.0.5 org_javassist_javassist: javassist 3.29.2-GA yungsextras: YUNG's Extras 1.20-Fabric-4.0.3 zoomify: Zoomify 2.13.5+1.20.1 com_akuleshov7_ktoml-core-jvm: ktoml-core-jvm 0.5.1 dev_isxander_settxi_settxi-core: settxi-core 2.10.6 dev_isxander_settxi_settxi-kotlinx-serialization: settxi-kotlinx-serialization 2.10.6